Speaker 1: Twenty twenty three. I feel like tried to like really
Speaker 1: take that, tried to test me on there, Try to
Speaker 1: test me there, try to test me there, like, bitch,
Speaker 1: you want to be a cold bitch, just be a
Speaker 1: cold bitch, okay? And I was like, you know what.
Speaker 2: No fighting that coldness. I'm going to be a hugitch.
Speaker 1: I don't want to be a cold bitch. I want
Speaker 1: to be a loving, soft bitch with cold boundaries.
Speaker 2: The crazy part is it actually requires work, yeah, to
Speaker 2: not be a cold bitch.
Speaker 1: We're back, bitches.
Speaker 2: It's twenty twenty four.
Speaker 1: Welcome back to season two of Good Mom's Bad Choices.
Speaker 1: Because you didn't know that. Our first season was three
Speaker 1: hundred episodes.
Speaker 2: Welcome back, well, come back, welcome back, Welcome back to
Speaker 2: Good Mom's Bad Choices.
Speaker 1: I'm Erica and I'm Nila, and it is fucking January.
Speaker 1: We're like in it. It's like twenty it's twenty twenty four.
Speaker 2: It's twenty twenty four. It is Life Path eight this year.
Speaker 1: What the fuck does that mean? You keep up? There's
Speaker 1: so many path there's so many.
Speaker 2: There's many things I don't it's only nine.
Speaker 1: There's a life paths. There's astrology, there's a human design,
Speaker 1: there's the JQ whatever the fuck test?
Speaker 2: Yeah that one.
Speaker 1: There's so many tests. I've done them all. Oh, I
Speaker 1: can never remember that h JQQ.
Speaker 2: I don't know what that one is either, but I have.
Speaker 1: It's like the ones that make you take when you're
Speaker 1: like trying to be in big like yeah, important jobs.
Speaker 2: Yeah, you know, I guess the point of the matter.
Speaker 1: What is life path eight?
Speaker 2: I have a look at that. Okay, what's your life?
Speaker 2: Do you know your life path number?
Speaker 1: I found out, but I don't remember.
Speaker 2: I'll tell you. Let me tell you how you do it.
Speaker 2: You add up the numbers on your birthday, but you
Speaker 2: don't use double digits, so if it becomes a double digit,
Speaker 2: you add them together. So you're ten twenty five nineteen
Speaker 2: eighty seven, so one plus zero is one, twenty five
Speaker 2: is seven. So that's eight and nine nine and ten
Speaker 2: nine and one is one because nineteen and then eighty
Speaker 2: seven is fifteen.
Speaker 1: Already lost cow.
Speaker 2: Seven? Wait, nineteen eighty seven, that's fifteen, that's six seven
Speaker 2: me forget.
Speaker 1: I just as to look up one on the internet
Speaker 1: because he has to add it up. I'm about to
Speaker 1: have them add it up.
Speaker 2: For me.
Speaker 1: I think there's no calculator that does No, it's ten
Speaker 1: on one them.
Speaker 2: Eight nine.
Speaker 1: What I love when Mila tries to do math out
Speaker 1: loud in her head. This is always a different and
Speaker 1: math trust is me the fuck out?
Speaker 2: Where's what you're talking so much to? Stressing and making
Speaker 2: me feel like.
Speaker 1: I can't do We will sign like big loans And
Speaker 1: she's like twenty thousand plus twenty two point four seven
Speaker 1: times two point three point seven percent. Yeah, yeah, we
Speaker 1: can do it. I'm like, bitch, what are you talking about?
Speaker 2: Because I have to write it down.
Speaker 1: Okay, wait, I got it.
Speaker 2: Eight nine.
Speaker 1: Wait, your life path number equals one plus seven plus
Speaker 1: seven equals fifteen slash six.
Speaker 2: What does this mean? Don't listen. Your life path number
Speaker 2: is one plus seven plus seven fifteen. Yeah, you're a six.
Speaker 1: So it's what is this?
Speaker 2: What is it?
Speaker 1: Fifteen to? What's the six?
Speaker 2: Your birth month is ten, so that's one. Like I said,
Speaker 2: your birthday is twenty five, that's the seven. Your birth
Speaker 2: year is nineteen eighty seven, which is twenty five, which
Speaker 2: five plus two is seven because there's no double digits, Okay,
Speaker 2: so four seven plus seven plus one is fourteen plus
Speaker 2: one is you're trussing everyone. I was listening to this right,
Speaker 2: five plus one is six. Okay all the witches now,
Speaker 2: except okay, this is called witch math. You called this
Speaker 2: is which math. There are no double digits, there are
Speaker 2: no zeros. You just you get with what you got.
Speaker 1: Okay, so my laugh moment. Okay, six, Okay. Your life
Speaker 1: path number is the number of I'm gonna put this
Speaker 1: link in this week's episode description so you can figure
Speaker 1: this out and not have to do all the math
Speaker 1: that you just had to hear it now. But your
Speaker 1: life path number is the number of responsibility and awareness.
Speaker 1: Those with life path number six tend to be the
Speaker 1: healers of our society. Because of your loving, compassionate, and
Speaker 1: responsible nature, you are likely to find yourself following endeavors
Speaker 1: that involve helping those who are weak and less fortunate.
Speaker 1: Be wary, be wary and of wa be wary and
Speaker 1: of becoming overburdened by those seeking seeking and helping hand
Speaker 1: or shoulder to cry on, And mindful of not recognizing
Speaker 1: that the help and assistance you think you are providing
Speaker 1: to others can also be seen as too smothering and interfering.
Speaker 2: Interesting, So this year is a year. This year is
Speaker 2: a number eight, and that means it's a number of
Speaker 2: creative creative numerology. Oh wait, no sorry, eight is the
Speaker 2: number of power, material and financial gain, achievement, reward, status,
Speaker 2: and satisfaction. The eight year vibration will provide the means
Speaker 2: the personal power with which to change the status quo
Speaker 2: and accomplish a significant goal that will alter the direction
Speaker 2: and quality of your journey. So I've been hearing that
Speaker 2: a lot that this year is about reaping the benefits
Speaker 2: and the how do you say when you plant the seed, the.
Speaker 1: Sow, plant the seed, plant, sow the seeds you reaped.
Speaker 2: Reap the seeds you sow, reap the seeds you sow.
Speaker 2: Whatever funk the wait.
Speaker 1: I did have? So if you're watching this on YouTube,
Speaker 1: we're actually we're sitting if you okay, So let's let's
Speaker 1: rewind our last episode of the year, which was really special.
Speaker 1: If you guys haven't checked it out, I want to
Speaker 1: encourage you to check it out, especially if you have
Speaker 1: been listening to the show since the beginning. And remember
Speaker 1: the days of me and Mela sitting at the dining
Speaker 1: room table with the elevator music when our kids interrupted
Speaker 1: and just those were like those were some like the
Speaker 1: Dynasty days. And so we shot our last episode there
Speaker 1: right before twenty twenty four. And now we're sitting in
Speaker 1: my living room of my new crib, which we're not
Speaker 1: going to be recording a lot of episodes here. This
Speaker 1: is not going to be the new house of recording,
Speaker 1: but we could you never know, who knows, but we're
Speaker 1: sitting here and we're drinking thanks to Nelly. Shout out
Speaker 1: to Nelly and her Puerto Rican roots. Cheers, my dear cheers,
Speaker 1: Happy New Year, Happy happy.
Speaker 2: New Year, and cheers to you. Cheers.
Speaker 1: I've had about three of these already, which probably leads
Speaker 1: to why we're a little bit talking in circlear and
Speaker 1: doing weird math. Which math?
Speaker 2: Which math?
Speaker 1: So life path eight means abundance in creativity and finances.
Speaker 2: Yes, m I like that.
Speaker 1: I feel that. I feel that, Yes, we.
Speaker 2: Have to do. And also you can use your life
Speaker 2: path number to see if you are compatible with your partner.
Speaker 1: M hmm, so yeah, have you what's Orlando's life path number?
Speaker 1: But is it again?
Speaker 2: Five? I just I just redid his math recently because
Speaker 2: he was like, it's here zero five or nine and
Speaker 2: I was like, it's not zero. Can it be zero?
Speaker 1: No, that's kind of a fucked up like.
Speaker 2: You said zero five or three? That's what you said,
Speaker 2: you did?
Speaker 1: I remember, how's the How are the paths?
Speaker 2: I think they're aligned, but you know, if it doesn't align,
Speaker 2: there overlign somewhere else like.
Speaker 1: Astrology zone, another stogy zone.
Speaker 2: There's always some way somewhere to you know, uh, dissect
Speaker 2: how you show up in the world, even though there's
Speaker 2: so many different factors. Right, Yeah, you're gonna give one
Speaker 2: more reading.
Speaker 1: One more reading reading, Like the life path said, but
Speaker 1: what do the cards say?
Speaker 2: Let me see my life? My number nine is hm, wait,
Speaker 2: you're just six? Yes?
Speaker 1: What's in the cards for us this month? What are
Speaker 1: we going to be putting our energy towards this month? Cards?
Speaker 1: Mother s, ancestors?
Speaker 2: Wait, are you ready? Six and nine? Of course that
Speaker 2: goes together.
Speaker 1: You're gross.
Speaker 2: The relationship compatibility of a number six with the number
Speaker 2: nine is one of the most positive and successful matches
Speaker 2: of all.
Speaker 1: It's the baby.
Speaker 2: Number nine is one of the those rare people who
Speaker 2: gain the respect of a number six. The six just
Speaker 2: falls for the way his every effort is recognized and
Speaker 2: appreciated by number nine. What interesting? But yes we are compatible. Honey,
Speaker 2: you fall for the nine. I'm one of the rare
Speaker 2: people that you fall for basically you don't like most people.
Speaker 1: Oh my god, it's so true. Wow, look at that
Speaker 1: the cards be known, or the paths and the cards.
Speaker 1: Would you like to pick a card? My dear?
Speaker 2: Sure, King of cups, King of cups.
Speaker 1: So we'll be that at the end, Daro, time.
Speaker 2: At the end. So I know it's a new year
Speaker 2: and everybody's always doing all those like big vast. I'm
Speaker 2: going to be a new bitch, New year, new bitch.
Speaker 2: And what are your goals for this ye or what
Speaker 2: are your hopes? What have you learned from last year
Speaker 2: that you're going to bring into this year.
Speaker 1: I feel like the last part of this year was
Speaker 1: like a reminder to play, so I'm going to bring
Speaker 1: that into this year. I'm excited for our retreat. I'm
Speaker 1: excited to travel. I'm excited for our tours. I'm just
Speaker 1: excited to kind of just like float around and dance
Speaker 1: around in all of the like magicalness that we've created
Speaker 1: and just like be confident in.
Speaker 2: What we've made.
Speaker 1: And I think I'm really inviting in love. In this year,
Speaker 1: I'm always inviting love. I'm going to be inviting love
Speaker 1: forever and ever and ever, always in always, you know, bitches,
Speaker 1: and just keeping myself. It's not even inviting a specific person.
Speaker 1: It's really for me a reminder of like making sure
Speaker 1: that I'm moving with love so that I can always
Speaker 1: attract that and that I'm not letting anything or anyone
Speaker 1: kind of get in the way of how I give
Speaker 1: my love, how I'm able to spread spread love to
Speaker 1: people that I that I love and not allow anything
Speaker 1: to I guess get in the way of how I
Speaker 1: do that. So just like being more loving is my
Speaker 1: goal in twenty twenty four, twenty twenty three, I feel like,
Speaker 1: try to like really take that. Try to test me
Speaker 1: on there, Try to test me there, try to test
Speaker 1: me there, Like, bitch, you want to be a cold bitch,
Speaker 1: Just be a cold bitch, okay, And I was like,
Speaker 1: you know what.
Speaker 2: No fighting that coldness. I'm going to be a huge
Speaker 2: I don't.
Speaker 1: Want to be a cold bitch. I want to be
Speaker 1: a loving, soft bitch with cold boundaries.
Speaker 2: The crazy part is it it actually requires work, yeah,
Speaker 2: to not be a cold bit And I think it's
Speaker 2: being it's being aware, because when shit happens to you inevitably,
Speaker 2: it makes you build walls and defense systems because you're like,
Speaker 2: you're not gonna get me twice, bitch. Or if I
Speaker 2: have less, if I have less love and empathy to
Speaker 2: bring to this space, then I'll if you disappointment disappoint me,
Speaker 2: I'll hurt less later. But then it cuts you off
Speaker 2: from everything, like the playfulness, because you're constantly on a
Speaker 2: defense mode and you're constantly like, not only love you, you know.
Speaker 2: And I think that coldness can begin as a defense mechanism,
Speaker 2: but it can become permanent and then you don't know
Speaker 2: how to turn it off. And I think especially for women,
Speaker 2: because we are such feelers, you know, we're such like
Speaker 2: naturally empathetic, and I think that's why a lot of
Speaker 2: women are cut off, because in order to navigate this world,
Speaker 2: you kind of have to be a little bit hard
Speaker 2: on the exterior so you don't get constantly fucked. You know,
Speaker 2: that was aggressive, no grease, but it is. I'm also
Speaker 2: coming to the same realization or just about the reality
Speaker 2: of showing up cold or what that means or why
Speaker 2: that's my go to because and then like actively doing
Speaker 2: things to stay in the softness and like the how
Speaker 2: do you say it was compassion? You know, just to
Speaker 2: be more like Buddha because it is. It's hard, and
Speaker 2: I think we don't talk about that enough. Yeah, how
Speaker 2: being hurt can ultimately make you a cold ass bitch,
Speaker 2: and no one really wants to be a cold ass bitch.
Speaker 2: But then one day you wake up and you're like, oh, no,
Speaker 2: I'm a cold ass bitch because too many motherfuckers were
Speaker 2: playing with me. But now you're just lonely and sad
Speaker 2: and cold to everyone because you can't navigate. You know
Speaker 2: who's a trust and who's not to and usually your
Speaker 2: gut will do that anyway. But when we go against ourselves,
Speaker 2: we let people fuck with that and then become cold bitches.
Speaker 2: And then we're like, you know the angry woman, you know,
Speaker 2: the angry middle aged woman in the club who was like,
Speaker 2: how do you? And we never want that, you know,
Speaker 2: it would be just easy fun, you know, loving.
Speaker 1: Well, I want to be able to. I want to
Speaker 1: I want to be in control of the energy in
Speaker 1: the room. And I feel like this best way that
Speaker 1: I can control that is I could do both. I
Speaker 1: could do one or the other. I could like be
Speaker 1: the bitch in the room, which I mean I can
Speaker 1: easily do that. That's really easy for me to do,
Speaker 1: and I can change the energy in the room in
Speaker 1: that way, or I can like be the love in
Speaker 1: the room and like changed my experience in the room
Speaker 1: as well. And I had this thought the other day
Speaker 1: because my mom called me and she was like in
Speaker 1: a weird She was acting like she was just in
Speaker 1: a bitchy mood, and I was like, what is wrong
Speaker 1: with you?
Speaker 2: Like why are you calling? Yeah, why are you calling?
Speaker 1: And I know it wasn't really me, she was just
Speaker 1: like in it, and I was like and I was like, Okay,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna be patient because I I know I haven't
Speaker 1: done anything wrong and I'm not going to take this personally.
Speaker 1: And then I went to her house and I can
Speaker 1: still see like this energy on her, like she was
Speaker 1: like wanting to like be nice. She like, no, no,
Speaker 1: she wasn't wanting to be nice, Like she was wanting
Speaker 1: like she couldn't help herself, but to like have an
Speaker 1: attitude and like change her energy. And all it took
Speaker 1: was for me to lay on her and she softened
Speaker 1: immediately and our whole experience.
Speaker 2: Changed because you were.
Speaker 1: The whole experience that we were going to have that
Speaker 1: night completely changed because I said, I'm going to take
Speaker 1: initiative of this, and I'm going to do that even
Speaker 1: though like I didn't really want to. It's not that
Speaker 1: I didn't want to. Of course I want to, like
Speaker 1: lay on my mom and love on her, but it
Speaker 1: wasn't like my instinct to do that. I knew that,
Speaker 1: like that's maybe what was going to help her, and it.
Speaker 2: Will take she removing out of your own ego and
Speaker 2: pride to be like she's gonna this is unnecessary. You're
Speaker 2: getting my fucking nerves And now I'm annoyed, like be
Speaker 2: the conduit instead of being the malleable person.
Speaker 1: Well, it's like I wasn't going to meet her at
Speaker 1: my frequency. I was going to help her meet me
Speaker 1: at mine, right, And I'm like, yeah, like, come to
Speaker 1: meet me up here, because then then both because up here,
Speaker 1: we're up here now, and now everything has shifted, and
Speaker 1: now our experience is going to be shifted, and we
Speaker 1: had a better night and I'm hopefully I think she
Speaker 1: had a better evening after I left. But I just
Speaker 1: thought about, like how often I haven't done that and
Speaker 1: how I have met people at their frequency or even
Speaker 1: lower sometimes and I just don't want to do that
Speaker 1: next year, like because I spent a lot of twenty
Speaker 1: twenty three like like I don't know, like it was,
Speaker 1: I enjoyed it. I had a lot of we had
Speaker 1: a lot of beautiful moments in our business. I had
Speaker 1: a lot of beautiful moments personally too, but it was
Speaker 1: overshadowed by like this other like frequency of like just
Speaker 1: like anger and anxiety, and I don't I just like
Speaker 1: I just know that I'm ready and I've already moved
Speaker 1: through this of like releasing that, and I've seen how
Speaker 1: much better it feels in this space and even though
Speaker 1: not every day is this day is like this at all,
Speaker 1: but I've also noticed too, like I've gotten back way
Speaker 1: more into my meditation and like it's like working on
Speaker 1: meditation those two things for me, like I have to
Speaker 1: do them where I literally feel a shift in myself
Speaker 1: and in the meditation was so crazy. It was on
Speaker 1: Christmas morning, I went to the beach and I woke
Speaker 1: up I didn't have Iri, which is like I've I
Speaker 1: don't think i've maybe ever not had her on Christmas
Speaker 1: maybe like one time or something, and she was with
Speaker 1: her her dad and her brothers and sisters and stuff,
Speaker 1: and so I was like, I'm just gonna like really
Speaker 1: take my time this morning. And I went to the
Speaker 1: beach and I like did this deep meditation and like
Speaker 1: it was crazy, like I felt all of like the
Speaker 1: feminine like energy and my grandmother's really it was like
Speaker 1: the presence of grandmothers around me, and they came to
Speaker 1: me during my birthday and Joshua Tree as well. But
Speaker 1: like I had, I've been having a hard time connecting
Speaker 1: to that energy and like usually when I meditate, I'm
Speaker 1: able to kind of, I don't know, call them in,
Speaker 1: and so that meditation was a reminder of like they
Speaker 1: were like it almost felt like they were like my
Speaker 1: galactic team. My galactic team shout out to Mother God,
Speaker 1: Rip Mother God. I was like, oh my god. I
Speaker 1: literally when I was in meditation, I kind of giggled
Speaker 1: because I was like, my galactic team's here.
Speaker 2: She's onto something, and she was she's not as fuck, but.
Speaker 1: And it was like we're here, We're gonna We're here
Speaker 1: for you. We're gonna be here for you all year.
Speaker 1: We're gonna be here forever, but like, let's go, let's
Speaker 1: enter into this year again. We're here again for you
Speaker 1: because I met them at the beginning again of last
Speaker 1: year when I was going through a really deep transition
Speaker 1: in my relationship, and they ushered me into twenty twenty
Speaker 1: three in a really powerful way. And then somewhere along
Speaker 1: the way, like I felt like I kind of like
Speaker 1: started detaching from my practice and myself in ways, which
Speaker 1: is why some of twenty twenty three feels like a blur.
Speaker 1: Like we had a lot of winds, but it was
Speaker 1: often overshadowed by like the turmoil of my own makings,
Speaker 1: you know. And I feel like I have a stronger
Speaker 1: foothold on how to like re establish that connection that
Speaker 1: I have with them. And it's enjoy and it's in meditation,
Speaker 1: and it's in just like not taking everything so seriously.
Speaker 1: So I really want to bring that energy into twenty
Speaker 1: twenty four. I want to encourage people listening to to
Speaker 1: do that.
Speaker 2: Like this shit is like like is to be.
Speaker 1: To be enjoyed, it's to be playful, it's to to
Speaker 1: kind of prance around like a motherfucking fairy a little bit,
Speaker 1: especially if you've like figured some shit out, you know,
Speaker 1: And I'm in the point of my life where I
Speaker 1: have figured some shit out, like I've unlocked a lot
Speaker 1: of my powers, and there's more to unlock, but I'm
Speaker 1: and I'm very grateful for that. I'm grateful that I've
Speaker 1: been able to do that with you. I'm grateful that
Speaker 1: I've been able to do that with myself. And it's like, Okay, well,
Speaker 1: this is what you asked for, So now are you
Speaker 1: going to play in here? Now are you gonna choose that,
Speaker 1: let's play in these in these things you've created and
Speaker 1: the energies that you've created and all these entities that
Speaker 1: you've that you've manifested, like come on, and like moving
Speaker 1: into my like moving too has been like a very
Speaker 1: big transformation for me. And like sitting in my in
Speaker 1: this house, like I wake up and I'm like, wow,
Speaker 1: it is so I needed an energy shift. This was
Speaker 1: such a big important thing for me too, entering into
Speaker 1: this year. And I said that I called this in
Speaker 1: and I said I am moving by the end of
Speaker 1: twenty twenty three period, I wrote it down. Shout out
Speaker 1: to the shout out to Patreon, because I wrote that
Speaker 1: shit in Patreon in a blog post. I was like,
Speaker 1: this is what's happening, bitches, and everyone was like, ash, yeah,
Speaker 1: that shit matters, and it did and it has and
Speaker 1: like I really didn't know how I was going to
Speaker 1: make it happen even when I wrote it, you know,
Speaker 1: and I just fucking trusted it and I did. And
Speaker 1: I'm like, okay, well come on, like, so what shoul
Speaker 1: gonna be mad about now? Bitch?
Speaker 2: Right?
Speaker 1: Literally that's what was my thought, Like when I woke
Speaker 1: up in my house my first day, I was like,
Speaker 1: but what are you gonna be mad about? Now? What's
Speaker 1: what's the new thing you're gonna be upset about?
Speaker 2: Well, that's the thing. We'll find something if we're not conscious,
Speaker 2: if not aware, we will find something to be mad,
Speaker 2: like quite literally, yeah immediately, Yeah, yeah, it's true. It
Speaker 2: reminds me of Beatrice talking about her team, like all
Speaker 2: the ancestors and SI with her. And I think we
Speaker 2: kind of know this. We kind of have this idea
Speaker 2: because we think about like when you're little and there's
Speaker 2: a prayer and like, oh, you know, this person goes
Speaker 2: to heaven. But like, I don't think we generally really
Speaker 2: realistically visualize our people supporting us and assuring us to
Speaker 2: wherever we need to go. And like, I think that's
Speaker 2: the difference. I think it's like once you know and
Speaker 2: you acknowledge them, and you're like, hey, let's go, I
Speaker 2: see you, I feel you.
Speaker 1: You have to acknowledge them. Yeah, it's so important because
Speaker 1: how the fuck are they supposed to help you if
Speaker 1: you don't, if you're still acting like you ain't seen them, right,
Speaker 1: you don't know they're there, right.
Speaker 2: And then you also it kind of gives you a
Speaker 2: level of accountability because, like you said, in the beginning
Speaker 2: of the year, you were in contact and then you've
Speaker 2: lost it, you know, on the pathway. But it's also
Speaker 2: like a point of accountability, like this is not just
Speaker 2: for me, you know, like all these doors have not
Speaker 2: opened for us just for the fuck of it, you
Speaker 2: know what I mean. It's like some real divine shit.
Speaker 2: But you have to respect the divinity of it all.
Speaker 2: And by respecting the divinity, it's respecting yourself. Because all
Speaker 2: these people in our galectic teams are you know, a
Speaker 2: lot of relatives, people who have been close to us,
Speaker 2: people who have passed over, people who are just our
Speaker 2: guides or you know, spirits are just our guides, but
Speaker 2: ultimately they're there what's inside of you, like once you
Speaker 2: once you go inside, that's when you have access to
Speaker 2: those things. And you know, even talking about all of
Speaker 2: the all of our powers that we have unlocked in
Speaker 2: this process, I thought, I think about that, you know,
Speaker 2: and people because I imagine where we were prior to
Speaker 2: starting this, and you see people like not that we're
Speaker 2: on TV, we're on YouTube. Yet it's like, you know,
Speaker 2: people are like I want to think. You know, all
Speaker 2: you gotta do is believe in yourself. You know, they
Speaker 2: accept the award and everyone's like, god, my mama, and
Speaker 2: all everyone can do this. You said the believe yourself
Speaker 2: and you're like, shut the fuck up. Bit easy for
Speaker 2: you to say, you know. And I had to think
Speaker 2: about the moment, like what was the unlocking of the powers,
Speaker 2: And there are obviously lots of moments.
Speaker 1: There was that time by the Christmas Tree. One of
Speaker 1: those moments was was the last win twenty twenty Winter.
Speaker 2: Solstice, twenty twenty Winter Solstice.
Speaker 1: We unlocked all the black people unlock their magical powers.
Speaker 1: O day. You know what I'm talking about. You know
Speaker 1: what the fuck I'm talking about.
Speaker 2: But if you didn't unlock.
Speaker 1: I don't know what to tell you, but do you
Speaker 1: even that day you know what I realized and what
Speaker 1: you said.
Speaker 2: It just came to me. In all of the unlocking,
Speaker 2: every single mine is some of the painful unlockings, which
Speaker 2: are mostly lessons to the unlocking. The unlocking is always
Speaker 2: almost ninety nine point nine percent playful. It's almost always
Speaker 2: so fucking magical and so fun. You're like, this is
Speaker 2: not real. This is a movie. And I think that
Speaker 2: those type of those type of events can only happen
Speaker 2: when you're totally calm and chill and cool and safe.
Speaker 2: And that's why a lot of them happened on vacation
Speaker 2: or on mushrooms and you're living room on Christmas to
Speaker 2: worry about the next day. But there is a level
Speaker 2: of like I don't know, like ha, you have to
Speaker 2: be in to even see the shit, you know, like, oh,
Speaker 2: there's my grandma, you know what I mean? Because like
Speaker 2: when we're constantly in this go go, go go go,
Speaker 2: or this like I'm not good enough, this is not
Speaker 2: good enough, I'm not making enough money, this like, it's
Speaker 2: harder to see those things. And it's like once you
Speaker 2: get into the place where you can feel relaxed. Then
Speaker 2: you can see your galactic team and then you can
Speaker 2: unlock and get to this next point, you know, and
Speaker 2: get the house and manifest the thing. Because I think
Speaker 2: even for me too, like moving this year and like
Speaker 2: they're being quite it was an obstacle doing that. You know,
Speaker 2: you think you know what you need to do, and
Speaker 2: you're like, how am I going to achieve this goal?
Speaker 2: But there is something so beautiful about coming home and
Speaker 2: being like I love it here, this is my house
Speaker 2: and I feel good in it, and everything is exactly
Speaker 2: as I designed it. And even that is a reminder
Speaker 2: that your galactic team is working with you. And it's
Speaker 2: like in every accomplishment, acknowledging them in its presence. That's
Speaker 2: how you achieve it, That's how you get there.
Speaker 1: Yeah, no, it's true. You have to revere them and
Speaker 1: and you know, it feels different for everyone, like some people,
Speaker 1: for me, like it's an energy present. There are times
Speaker 1: like when I was in that meditation, I could see faces,
Speaker 1: I could feel literally like I could feel like the closeness.
Speaker 1: It literally felt like they were like hovered around me,
Speaker 1: like looking over me. But I just think like as
Speaker 1: I'm as I'm reflecting on like the beginning of my
Speaker 1: year and the journey, and like the message really has
Speaker 1: been that all paths lead to you, and that you
Speaker 1: can avoid, you can distract, you can do all the
Speaker 1: things nurture, you can love, you can fuck, you can
Speaker 1: do all these things, but ultimately you gotta sit with yourself.
Speaker 1: It's ultimately you can distract as much as you want,
Speaker 1: but you can and you can run as much as
Speaker 1: you want, and you can try to change even like
Speaker 1: when I'm when I was saying, like I woke up
Speaker 1: here and I was like I moved in here, and
Speaker 1: I was like, am I going to choose to have
Speaker 1: a problem with something else?
Speaker 2: Now?
Speaker 1: Like you know, and I it's my choice whether I
Speaker 1: do that. You know, it's nobody else's choice because outwardly
Speaker 1: everyone will be like, oh my god, she has she's
Speaker 1: got it, she's great, and it's like, yeah, it is,
Speaker 1: and I do and I and I do feel that way,
Speaker 1: and I have chosen that because there's always going to
Speaker 1: be something else. There's always going.
Speaker 2: To be there's always gon to be an obstacle.
Speaker 1: So it's gonna be an obstacle, you know, And I
Speaker 1: guess the reminder and like the lesson is to just
Speaker 1: to just trust where you're going and trust the process
Speaker 1: and just.
Speaker 2: Be and just be committed to finding the magic and everything.
Speaker 2: You know, like, of course there's things that are ugly,
Speaker 2: and there are things that are painful, and there are
Speaker 2: things that are annoying, and there are things that you know,
Speaker 2: the kids don't listen and they don't pick up after
Speaker 2: themselves and people are fucking ungrateful and all those things,
Speaker 2: But like where where's the sweet part? You know, like
Speaker 2: that is truly the only thing we have to do
Speaker 2: in life, is like stay alive and find where it's sweet,
Speaker 2: because this is this is all we got and it's
Speaker 2: so short.
Speaker 1: It is true. It is about finding the magic and everything,
Speaker 1: even the fucked up shit, like really like trying to
Speaker 1: find the magic, even in like the darkest corners of
Speaker 1: whatever happened to you last year or whatever you're going
Speaker 1: through right now. The beauty of it all is that
Speaker 1: there's always more. Like if you choose, if you choose
Speaker 1: to move on from something that you know doesn't serve you,
Speaker 1: you know you're at there's no penalty, there's no penalty,
Speaker 1: but there's there's you are guaranteed that there is going
Speaker 1: to be something else, you know, like and then you
Speaker 1: get to decide if it's better, you know. And when
Speaker 1: I was thinking about like the path, and we kind
Speaker 1: of dove into this in our meditation at the beginning
Speaker 1: of this year of just like how like the journey
Speaker 1: of the path looks looks different all the way around,
Speaker 1: Like the seasons change, how you feel changes, what you
Speaker 1: see changes. But really it's a mindset of like how
Speaker 1: you how you choose to really transmute whatever it is
Speaker 1: that you're experiencing. Like I could be driving through a
Speaker 1: winter cold I could be driving up a winter cold
Speaker 1: road it's snowing crazy, and I'd be like, what the
Speaker 1: fuck I hated here? I fucking hated here. Or I
Speaker 1: could be driving and be like, oh my god, it's
Speaker 1: so beautiful here, look at the snow. The seasons are changing,
Speaker 1: And it's really just a matter of like mind perspective
Speaker 1: and perspective.
Speaker 2: Absol fucking lutely. It's literally like the is a glass
Speaker 2: half cup? I mean, is the glass half empty or
Speaker 2: half full? Type shit? Yeah, you know, it's literally the
Speaker 2: simplest thing is like removing the veil of like ugliness
Speaker 2: and be like, oh my God, I'm alive and breathing
Speaker 2: and I can move, huh, you know, and it changes everything.
Speaker 1: Like even like if you're living and say you've lived
Speaker 1: in your hometown for years and years and you're like
Speaker 1: ready to get the fuck out, but you're not. You
Speaker 1: can't right now. It's like, so what are you gonna do.
Speaker 1: You're gonna wake up every morning be fucking miserable that
Speaker 1: you live in this town, or you're gonna drive today
Speaker 1: and getting your car and appreciate some of the things
Speaker 1: that maybe like you didn't even think to appreciate that
Speaker 1: beautiful tree that always kind of tells you when fall
Speaker 1: is hitting, and it's like all these beautiful leaves are
Speaker 1: on the ground that you've never really appreciated. Like it's
Speaker 1: just as simple as that type of mind shift to
Speaker 1: really change your perspective around even bigger topics. And I
Speaker 1: think sometimes we get so caught up and stuck in
Speaker 1: what we don't have and what we haven't achieved. And sometimes,
Speaker 1: you know, these New Year's markers can feel so overwhelmed
Speaker 1: because they're like a they're like a time stamp or
Speaker 1: like a like yeah, like a time stamp on a
Speaker 1: note to like everything that maybe you didn't check off
Speaker 1: your list in twenty twenty three, and I know we
Speaker 1: like people talk about this every year. It's like, don't
Speaker 1: be so hard on yourself, but really don't really don't
Speaker 1: you know, and and just and see what happens when
Speaker 1: you don't, and probably you'll check more shit off your
Speaker 1: list when you just don't do that.
Speaker 2: Well, you have to remind yourself that your worth is
Speaker 2: not tied to your productivity and that you are not perfect.
Speaker 2: None of us are perfect and that's okay, and you're
Speaker 2: gonna fuck up. And it's really about like picking yourself
Speaker 2: up gently every time instead of being like I'm the problem,
Speaker 2: nothing good happens for me, like I'm lazy, I'm this,
Speaker 2: I'm that, Like stop giving these forever titles to moments,
Speaker 2: you know, especially when you know better.
Speaker 1: But if your worth is tied to your productivity, because
Speaker 1: there is a like I guess that is on a
Speaker 1: healthy concept, right and I don't know, like you know,
Speaker 1: people say that a lot, but just make sure if
Speaker 1: it is, like, at least make what you're doing. But
Speaker 1: whatever productivity means to you, that it's intentional and that
Speaker 1: like it doesn't have to be a crazy output to
Speaker 1: be productive doesn't necessarily mean to fucking kill yourself or.
Speaker 2: Be on the laptop all day.
Speaker 1: You know, it means to like do something that's nourishing
Speaker 1: to your soul, nourishing to your evolution, and that can
Speaker 1: feel really good, and that can be linked.
Speaker 2: To your worth or even just like honoring yourself, like
Speaker 2: I'm tired today, say no, lay the fuck down, like
Speaker 2: that is a part of productivity. But I think the
Speaker 2: Western world makes us feel that everything is so go
Speaker 2: go go move, money, money, money, success and what success
Speaker 2: looks like. But I think I think we forget that
Speaker 2: just by existing, just by being born, that we're worthy
Speaker 2: and supposed to be here and worthy of love and
Speaker 2: worthy of like peace and rest and like making those
Speaker 2: all equally as important and not just like this Western
Speaker 2: view of work work, work, work, work, you have to
Speaker 2: actually also be doing work on yourself, and work on
Speaker 2: yourself does require that you tend to yourself and your needs.
Speaker 2: And that's in rest too, and in play and in
Speaker 2: you know, all the things that are not necessarily in
Speaker 2: the rule book. And I think that's just like another
Speaker 2: ode to good mom's bad choices is because who's to say,
Speaker 2: going to play for the weekend and not you know,
Speaker 2: saying playing hookie from work or whatever the fuck you
Speaker 2: need to do is bad. It's necessary, you know, sometimes
Speaker 2: you have to run away. Sometimes you have to get
Speaker 2: the fuck away. You have to listen to you. That
Speaker 2: is that voice inside of yourself is important.
Speaker 1: It is very important. And half the time, like you know,
Speaker 1: like people don't even We put so much pressure on
Speaker 1: ourselves and people are not even thinking about us, right
Speaker 1: we be like, oh my god, we're late.
Speaker 2: They're gonna hate us.
Speaker 1: Or this or that, or we didn't put the product,
Speaker 1: like no one even knew it was coming, bitch. No
Speaker 1: one knew the Instagram post was gonna drop, no one
Speaker 1: knew the email didn't go out. No one cared except you.
Speaker 1: And now you've literally aged yourself two point five years
Speaker 1: in three months because you've stressed yourself out for no
Speaker 1: fucking reason.
Speaker 2: That's the thing. It's like, as you get older, you
Speaker 2: better listen to yourself.
Speaker 1: And that's what I feel like. I feel like in
Speaker 1: this mid thirty range of age, I have to be
Speaker 1: really careful about my energy because that shit can age me,
Speaker 1: like literally it will make me look older. And I've
Speaker 1: seen it. I've seen myself and looked in the mirror
Speaker 1: and seen energetically. If I am like fucked up, I
Speaker 1: look older, and I've seen like myself look younger when
Speaker 1: I'm like lighter.
Speaker 2: Well, let's think about it. Heavy energy is heavy energy.
Speaker 2: It's gonna bring your face down. Heavy energy gives you wrinkles,
Speaker 2: it's gonna bring all your skin down.
Speaker 1: But like light energy, I've also been really beautiful when
Speaker 1: I'm sad depressed, Yeah, because I get like I haven't
Speaker 1: because I get skinny, notoriously if not. But it's a
Speaker 1: specific type of sadness in which requires where I don't eat.
Speaker 1: There's like the sadness of like, there's like sadness where
Speaker 1: I overeat bitches. You know, if you're listening right now,
Speaker 1: you know what the I'm talking about. You know, there's
Speaker 1: a sadness that makes you starve, you can't keep anything down,
Speaker 1: you can't eat. Then there's the other sadness where you
Speaker 1: just want to eat ice cream and sit there. And
Speaker 1: they're two distinct different sadnesses. The one that where I
Speaker 1: don't eat, I actually do look better. You like that sadness,
Speaker 1: that's that's the sadness, that's good sadness that.
Speaker 2: I but I'm pretty sure there's also you know, the
Speaker 2: the l happiness.
Speaker 1: Yes, happiness is the more ideal one for everyone.
Speaker 2: You're gonna be skinny, but you're gonna be a bitch everybody.
Speaker 1: So yeah, so that's yeah, lonely, this is is that
Speaker 1: what I said. But I don't condone the things that's said,
Speaker 1: but yeah, I do. I feel like I have to
Speaker 1: be more intentional about how I move through stress. And
Speaker 1: I know that just because of like just diseases in
Speaker 1: my family, how I've seen them manifest and stress, like cancer,
Speaker 1: autoimmune diseases literally triggered by stress, and that shit runs
Speaker 1: deep in my family. Like I could be out here
Speaker 1: bald any second, bitch, I could really be out here
Speaker 1: bald at any moment. Okay, we never know, Like if
Speaker 1: I start losing an eyebrow, just know the stress is
Speaker 1: hit and the autoimmune disease has creeped in. I mean
Speaker 1: it's the truth though, Like uh, stress, anger, resentment, that
Speaker 1: is the type of shit, jealousy that makes you physically ill.
Speaker 1: And y'all keep playing and it's really true, Like you
Speaker 1: don't want to be a bitch, It's gonna make you ugly,
Speaker 1: you know what? Maybe that's like the campaign, because nobody
Speaker 1: wants to be ugly. Everybody's vain, so maybe they're like, oh,
Speaker 1: I'm kind, then I'll be guess what public service announcement.
Speaker 1: If you are a nice, kind person, you will look better.
Speaker 1: You will be a finer bitch, you'll be more youthful,
Speaker 1: you will be more fine, you will be more appealing.
Speaker 2: I don't know if this works though.
Speaker 1: If you're just being nice just to be more appealing,
Speaker 1: your skin will look tighter, you'll get six pack if
Speaker 1: you're nice.
Speaker 2: If you find yourself genuinely just not wanting to be kind,
Speaker 2: feeling like a bitch and loving it, you're ready to
Speaker 2: dig deeper.
Speaker 1: I've felt that way, but.
Speaker 2: There's probably something.
Speaker 1: There's something deeper, though, There's something like you're deeply sad
Speaker 1: or angry about some shit that you need to kind
Speaker 1: of address because there's no way you should be this
Speaker 1: happy being a bitch all the time. I don't know
Speaker 1: if it's a happy it's just more of a I
Speaker 1: don't give a fuck effects type of energy.
Speaker 2: But I don't give a fuck. That I don't give
Speaker 2: a fuck is like it's so it's such an easy
Speaker 2: cop out. I don't give a fuck. I don't give
Speaker 2: a fuck, I don't care, I don't give a fuck
Speaker 2: how I feel, how I feel. And it's again the
Speaker 2: defense systems like loading up, loading up, like don't care,
Speaker 2: don't feel and it's just like you do care, you
Speaker 2: care about other people's feelings.
Speaker 1: You no, In fact, I care too much, which is
Speaker 1: why I'm at a period. I'm on a pause of
Speaker 1: caring right now. So currently I don't give a fuck.
Speaker 1: But it's because I give too many fucks. So I've
Speaker 1: chosen to like not give a fuck for at least
Speaker 1: six months.
Speaker 2: Well, you have to also be aware of who you're
Speaker 2: cutting off from the fucks given and who you're not,
Speaker 2: because there's a lot of people who genuinely love and
Speaker 2: care about you, and those are the fucks you should give.
Speaker 1: Yeah, you know what I mean.
Speaker 2: And so it's like you gotta be careful about how
Speaker 2: you don't give a fuck and with whom, because that
Speaker 2: is the compact. That's the thing. It's like, it's a
Speaker 2: cop up because it's easy. I can't just like fuck
Speaker 2: all that shit. You know, I'm gonna go where you
Speaker 2: agree with me. But the truth of the matter is
Speaker 2: showing up kind and choosing nonviolence is the high road,
Speaker 2: like Michelle Obama said, and you have to constantly be
Speaker 2: working at it. And my goal and I hope for
Speaker 2: both of us that we become so deeply in our
Speaker 2: practice and deeply in our commitment to you know, world
Speaker 2: peace and compassion and love, that it comes second nature.
Speaker 2: And I think that's the goal right now. Second nature
Speaker 2: is to show up a bit from people. Someone pisses
Speaker 2: you off. I mean, for me, most definitely is But
Speaker 2: how do we transmute the energy of the world by
Speaker 2: shedding light and bringing people's frequencies up versus bringing it down.
Speaker 2: I struggle with this because if you come with me
Speaker 2: with some violence, nine times out of ten, bitch, I'm
Speaker 2: gonna choose violence back at you times fourteen. It's true.
Speaker 2: Easily I'd be like, oh, perfect, you want to do this.
Speaker 2: I was happy, But oh you want to be a bitch,
Speaker 2: No problem, you know. But it's like, no, how do
Speaker 2: you constantly choose the high road? Like you gotta like
Speaker 2: do that thing, like stop in some motion and be
Speaker 2: like I can respond right now, and I can be
Speaker 2: a bitch, or I can just touch I can just
Speaker 2: touch you and look in your eyes and say are
Speaker 2: you okay? And sometimes you do that to me sometimes
Speaker 2: like are you okay? And I like, fuck looking at me,
Speaker 2: I'm fine, fuck you.
Speaker 1: I think it's also important to like the company you
Speaker 1: keep to. Also, it's important to if you want to
Speaker 1: be in that frequency, you also have to be intentional
Speaker 1: about the energy you have around you too, Like it's
Speaker 1: important that you surround yourself with you try at least
Speaker 1: to put yourself in environments that support that support that
Speaker 1: training that you're in right now, right you know what
Speaker 1: I mean? Like you can't necessarily go hang out with
Speaker 1: the same person that like puts you in that space
Speaker 1: and try to like also get out of that space,
Speaker 1: you know, like you actually have to do.
Speaker 2: We need a bitch safer like, like a bitch safer
Speaker 2: like if you feel like I'm being like we're being bitchy,
Speaker 2: you feel likes you know, are you having attitude?
Speaker 1: This reminds me of Damon. Remember he told him and
Speaker 1: Rocky have those words?
Speaker 2: What was it?
Speaker 1: Tomatoes, avocado, avocado avocado?
Speaker 2: Maybe you and your friends could benefit from having a
Speaker 2: safe word. So maybe it's not even like you beef
Speaker 2: with each other. You just feel like something's heavy or
Speaker 2: like even attitude about something, and so you're like, hey girl, bananas,
Speaker 2: like fuck, you.
Speaker 1: Know my god, yes, bananas, bananas, yeah, bananas. Do you
Speaker 1: want to talk about it now?
Speaker 2: Okay? Shifting shifting energy, but we're we're clear that there's
Speaker 2: bananas here, and we're gonna then once you acknowledge the banana.
Speaker 2: Sometimes that all that's all you need is to shift
Speaker 2: to be acknowledged. And that's kind of like goes back
Speaker 2: to like that moment with my mom and she just
Speaker 2: needed to feel cared for, acknowledged and you didn't even
Speaker 2: have to. Like maybe had you said it, you seem
Speaker 2: like that would have not been the route, but because
Speaker 2: you just instead.
Speaker 1: I did say that, though, did so I did say that,
Speaker 1: and that wasn't working.
Speaker 2: Okay, okay, I like, what's up with you?
Speaker 1: I'm like, what is going on? I asked her twice
Speaker 1: and then I was like, okay, this is not working.
Speaker 2: This is not been because you know why a lot
Speaker 2: of those times when you're in those spaces, I don't
Speaker 2: want to talk about it, but it's more than one thing.
Speaker 2: It's an energy that's cultivated. So when someone called you out,
Speaker 2: it's a you probably didn't want to really arrive there,
Speaker 2: but now you're here, Now you're stuck in it, you're
Speaker 2: committed to it, and now someone's asking, and then you
Speaker 2: realize whatever it is is so stupid that.
Speaker 1: If you repeated it, but I repeated it, but if
Speaker 1: you still feel the way you feel, you don't like
Speaker 1: talking about it, and shut the fuck up. Let me
Speaker 1: be a bitch, right, Let me be a bitch and
Speaker 1: shut up. I don't know, Okay, let me just have
Speaker 1: my moment. That's how I am a lot in my life.
Speaker 1: So I resonated with that feeling, and I realized that
Speaker 1: that me asking wasn't helping, because that was all of
Speaker 1: that probably too. She tried to explain it, and it
Speaker 1: was like I could see her getting overwhelmed trying to
Speaker 1: tell me why, and I was like, okay, so this
Speaker 1: is just a reminder to you to sometimes just see
Speaker 1: what you can do with your energy to shift, to
Speaker 1: shift your experience, because you know, that's really what it's about.
Speaker 1: It's like creating beautiful experiences for yourself. It makes me
Speaker 1: think of our dear friend Lizzy Jeff, who always travels
Speaker 1: with roses, like she creates the experience that she wants
Speaker 1: everywhere She goes like create the experience that you want,
Speaker 1: create the environment that is going to best support whatever
Speaker 1: it is you're working on in twenty twenty four, you know,
Speaker 1: whether that's patience, peace, confidence, boundaries, whatever the fuck. You know, yeah,
Speaker 1: that's where I'm at with it.
Speaker 2: Same same, same, same, And also just fear, you know,
Speaker 2: like just like shedding that shit too, because fear just
Speaker 2: limits your living because you're just worried about failing. And
Speaker 2: it's like at some point everybody's gonna feel either way,
Speaker 2: you know, and even thinking about the last six years
Speaker 2: of this and like just doing it, you know, and
Speaker 2: like failing sometimes like doing shit wrong and doing saying
Speaker 2: the wrong shit, not uploading ship, but still doing it
Speaker 2: and not being afraid of failing because there was nothing
Speaker 2: really to fail because there was there was no I mean,
Speaker 2: of course there's like there were super successful podcasts, but
Speaker 2: there was we were only it was only us in
Speaker 2: us and just the amount of diligence we had to
Speaker 2: show up with, and like, you know, just applying that
Speaker 2: same thing in every aspect of our life is just
Speaker 2: like just being fearless because fuck it, Okay, fuck it,
Speaker 2: ask the question, do the thing, like fuck it, fuck it,
Speaker 2: and I feel that this year, and you know, and
Speaker 2: I've found myself giving myself a lot of PEP talks
Speaker 2: about like who the fuck I am? But just you know,
Speaker 2: just taking that into the next chapter and just understanding
Speaker 2: that we've done so much and so anything we choose
Speaker 2: to do, whether it fails or is whatever the fuck,
Speaker 2: it's necessary, you know.
Speaker 1: And if you're pushing the energy forward no matter what,
Speaker 1: whether you fail or not, so inevitably it's going to
Speaker 1: hit somewhere somewhere along the way, you know, as long
Speaker 1: as you keep moving.
Speaker 2: And he managed all being happy while doing Yeah, Yeah,
Speaker 2: because what the fuck is the point if not?
Speaker 1: Yeah, I feel like we're all gonna end up dying
Speaker 1: and we're gonna be on our deathbed and be like, fuck, well,
Speaker 1: why did I spend so much time, like fucking worried
Speaker 1: about that shit? Why did I care so much?
Speaker 2: The reality? Why didn't I you know, it's just, yeah,
Speaker 2: the reality is niggas die every day.
Speaker 1: Yeah. I was thinking about my body recently. I was like,
Speaker 1: oh my god, Like we take our bodies for granted,
Speaker 1: like we don't take care of them now, and then
Speaker 1: we're like, we'll never know what our bodies could have
Speaker 1: actually like their truest potential could have been. Because we
Speaker 1: fucking beat it up for most of our lives. We
Speaker 1: actually don't know what our truest potential of our like
Speaker 1: physical sack of skin.
Speaker 2: Is, right right, Like if we're a top notch I
Speaker 2: thinkbout that all the time. Like what if I just
Speaker 2: stop drinking and drinking out in the water every day
Speaker 2: like everybody says, or even just like this, I've been having,
Speaker 2: you know, like all those those Instagram advertisements about parasite cleanses.
Speaker 1: Oh god, so now I'm talking about parasite cleanses because
Speaker 1: now I'm just do one.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I rether, just take six papaia seeds.
Speaker 1: Okay, maybe we'll do it, but then we'll report back.
Speaker 2: But if we see parasites, I think we're gonna I'm
Speaker 2: gonna be traumatized.
Speaker 1: I want to get those fucking out of me. I honestly, like,
Speaker 1: we need to get them out of our bodies.
Speaker 2: I think if I see parasites come out of my
Speaker 2: fucking butt, I don't look. No, I have to look
Speaker 2: also them for you, and you look for me. That
Speaker 2: might be the end, Like that would might be the
Speaker 2: end of unhealthy, Jamila. If I see fucking parasites, if
Speaker 2: coming out of any orphice of my fucking body, I'm
Speaker 2: gonna be a fucking I'm gonna be a fucking bodybuilder.
Speaker 2: I'm gonna drink just water.
Speaker 1: If you see parasites come out of your ass and
Speaker 1: nothing changes, you're disgusting. How you don't care about yourself? Oh,
Speaker 1: therefore that's what we have to do.
Speaker 2: How do trigger warning for this? This is a lot
Speaker 2: that we're talking about right now. But everyone has parasite.
Speaker 2: Apparently everybody has them. We all do.
Speaker 1: Of course, I'm gonna maybe we need a little parasite. No, no,
Speaker 1: maybe we need just a little parasite, like I don't know.
Speaker 2: No, we need to eat. We need to eat papia
Speaker 2: seeds every day. This is the p s a papaya.
Speaker 2: But I will leave no bitch you, but we're eating
Speaker 2: papaya because you want the parasites out seeds also seeds, seeds.
Speaker 2: I'll eat all this shit. I don't like, I'm clearing
Speaker 2: all this shit out. I'll have a smoothie with papaya,
Speaker 2: but not stray pa. Well, then somebody else told me
Speaker 2: something else I thought was interesting about in relation to
Speaker 2: the to the parasites that someone that went to like
Speaker 2: an Eastern doctor, and they were saying that they're like
Speaker 2: basically little demons, like they are entities. They're living sentient
Speaker 2: either beings. So they're inside of you and a lot
Speaker 2: of times.
Speaker 1: Oh my god, there's like their own little universe. Yeah,
Speaker 1: in your body, there's another universe inside of me.
Speaker 2: I'm girls, oh so, but you know, like in in
Speaker 2: Eastern medicine, like all of our organs, there's different points
Speaker 2: that relate specifically to other things. And so she was saying,
Speaker 2: like in her liver when they pressed there, it was rage,
Speaker 2: an unreleased rage, and then it was releasing to her goalbladder,
Speaker 2: which was resentment, end up being resentment. And I was like, wow,
Speaker 2: like imagine just being so in tune that if you
Speaker 2: if you address these things that you have not addressed emotionally,
Speaker 2: you can find them in your body and like relate
Speaker 2: like it's correlated. You know, absolutely all of it is.
Speaker 1: We're aliens, we're.
Speaker 2: Computers, network systems, and we're the top programmer and we
Speaker 2: got to get with the programs.
Speaker 1: So like, if you're that with that analogy, hit with
Speaker 1: that analogy, baby, if you're that bitch.
Speaker 2: And you know you're that bitch. Then programming, bitch.
Speaker 1: Program me, program me, program you, because you know we
Speaker 1: program tell the rest of the cells to get what
Speaker 1: the fucking program.
Speaker 2: You're not afraid of shit, you're a winner. And that's it,
Speaker 2: Like that is the reprogramm that needs to happen. But
Speaker 2: first we eat the pious seeds to take out the
Speaker 2: virus up one. Oh my god, wow, that's this is
Speaker 2: very important information, I think. So they might mute us
Speaker 2: on the internet for saying this. Now we're gonna get
Speaker 2: targeted just for saying this. Fore, you eat ten to
Speaker 2: pious seeds, we get deleted. Well, also to remember what
Speaker 2: we discovered back in the day. We've had some pretty
Speaker 2: good discoveries on good moms in the last six years.
Speaker 2: We also discovered because you know, this is a shit
Speaker 2: the man don't want you to know.
Speaker 1: I want you to know this kind of stuff.
Speaker 2: The pio seeds, if your man takes them, is also
Speaker 2: a natural birth control and then once he stops taking them,
Speaker 2: he can that in you and if you want to
Speaker 2: have a baby, you can. He can be on natural
Speaker 2: birth control. But the government doesn't want you to know
Speaker 2: the pio seeds, cure's everything.
Speaker 1: Four If people get pregnant because of our fucking we.
Speaker 2: Are not health doctors. This is wea at ninety nine
Speaker 2: point nine. This is only nine nine point nine percent active.
Speaker 1: Your body will God will do whatever she wants. I
Speaker 1: know that.
Speaker 2: That's why a bitch is on that. I you dizzy?
Speaker 1: Are you speaking of sex? Do we have any horries?
Speaker 1: It's horry timing me?
Speaker 2: Let it. It's joints, baby, thank you, honey stories.
Speaker 1: I think we need a fresh joint like this little joint.
Speaker 2: We don't know little joint bitches, little joints around here.
Speaker 1: Where's my where's my pack?
Speaker 2: Shut up?
Speaker 1: Let me get my pack up. Hold on these little
Speaker 1: tidy gys. Little these are my favorite joints. I fucking
Speaker 1: love these joints. They comes like they're perfect. They're like
Speaker 1: the perfect joints for a little mini working moms and people.
Speaker 2: Yeah, it's also for adults who you can't get too
Speaker 2: too high. I mean these kids are kind of hot. Yeah,
Speaker 2: they do just enough. This is a fact, because the
Speaker 2: bitch is high. Are we ready for? Are you ready
Speaker 2: for the horr?
Speaker 1: Said? You have a horry for us?
Speaker 2: I don't even I'm not really permitted to tell this horry.
Speaker 2: I was just at a dinner and the girl was
Speaker 2: telling us the hurry, and I was like, I'm about
Speaker 2: to use this the tea. So basically, the girl that
Speaker 2: I was at having drinks with with some friends and
Speaker 2: a cousin. She's a friend of a friend, she lives
Speaker 2: out here. She has a son, but she her job
Speaker 2: had suspended her for thirty days without pay.
Speaker 1: What does she do to get suspended?
Speaker 2: And ask all that listen all the story, so you know,
Speaker 2: mama got do what you gotta do. The son's tuition
Speaker 2: is due, She's like, fuck, what the fuck is up?
Speaker 2: So she calls one of her whole friends, and her
Speaker 2: whole friends tells her has a whole friend iBOT you
Speaker 2: if you need to. You need to get in the places,
Speaker 2: find out the news, find the money. So the girl
Speaker 2: basically tells her about this sight and I don't know
Speaker 2: the site. I gotta verify the site. I know y'all
Speaker 2: gonna be Colin asking about this site. I'm gonna find
Speaker 2: out what it is. But you got to pay one fifty.
Speaker 2: So it's like a real host site. It's basically like
Speaker 2: you gotta invest invest in this hole.
Speaker 1: Ship.
Speaker 2: Yeah, so I thought of all the host sites I
Speaker 2: put myself.
Speaker 1: On the way, I put myself on a feef okay,
Speaker 1: like sugar Daddy.
Speaker 2: Sugar Daddy for me dot com. I just had a
Speaker 2: flashback of all the attempt at hotimes. That just is
Speaker 2: another one.
Speaker 1: What was that other one?
Speaker 2: You know, you know you're not a hope. Your attempts
Speaker 2: to be a host suck. This is me, nothing ever happened.
Speaker 2: I always never.
Speaker 1: Met one one one of my not met one. No
Speaker 1: John for me.
Speaker 2: So, okay, she invests one fifty and she decides she's
Speaker 2: gonna do it, and and on the East coast in DC.
Speaker 2: She's never been, so I'm not sure why she did that.
Speaker 1: Probably doesn't know anybody.
Speaker 2: I think the girl was there. Maybe the girl was, Yeah,
Speaker 2: that's that's that's where I would go to. So she
Speaker 2: only buys a one way ticket and a one night
Speaker 2: at a hotel. She signs up for the she signs
Speaker 2: up for the site or her little burner phone and
Speaker 2: gets on the flight. Okay, I think, oh, I think
Speaker 2: she uses someone else's pictures.
Speaker 1: I forgot. We had to asked all these questions on
Speaker 1: the site, different pictures. Yeah, so she go why now,
Speaker 1: why would you do that? Because now this niggas gonna
Speaker 1: show up and you ain't gonna look like Maybe she
Speaker 1: did use pictures. I forgot, but she was saying that
Speaker 1: her friend uses somebody else.
Speaker 2: This is, you know whose whose pictures? She uses? Mystika?
Speaker 2: Her friend who's mistika? Never mind, I know you know
Speaker 2: what the mistika sticker chik a la chikailana. Oh, anyway,
Speaker 2: that's she's a side note that. Okay.
Speaker 1: So she flies I was telling secrets on the podcast
Speaker 1: on YouTube.
Speaker 2: Come here because I know you know. Okay. So she
Speaker 2: flies into Baltimore. She has to take a train or
Speaker 2: take an uber or whatever from Baltimore to the hotel
Speaker 2: in DC. She's like, A good, that's a good.
Speaker 1: Sorry, I got distracted back on the other detail, and
Speaker 1: I was like, actually, that's a that's a that's a good.
Speaker 2: Two years.
Speaker 1: Okay.
Speaker 2: Other than the fact that it's probably not her, I
Speaker 2: would believe it.
Speaker 1: I don't know, Okay, Sorry, I don't mind.
Speaker 2: So she takes the uber from one city to next city.
Speaker 2: She gets to the she she gets two John's text her,
Speaker 2: and for some reason, she just goes with this one.
Speaker 2: She's on the way there he's like, oh, this is
Speaker 2: right around the corner from my house. I know that hotel.
Speaker 2: She shows up, she realizes the hotel is like a
Speaker 2: Boucci hotel. It's small. She's like, what the fuck I'm
Speaker 2: gonna getting I can't get john to here. Basically, she
Speaker 2: only gets it from one night. She goes up to
Speaker 2: the room. The guys like, I'm in the parking lot.
Speaker 2: She's like, what the fuck? The girl who originally put
Speaker 2: her on the site isn't answering the phone hose. We
Speaker 2: all know they're not reliable, okay. Sole At this point
Speaker 2: she has her game face on. She's like, fuck it,
Speaker 2: I gotta get this money. I'm out here. So the
Speaker 2: guy comes up. She's all talking, like looking for her
Speaker 2: clothes because she's got the shower, and he goes, you
Speaker 2: must have this is your first time doing this, and
Speaker 2: she's like fuck, Like he's on to me, and she's
Speaker 2: like yeah. He's like I can tell she's so. I
Speaker 2: guess she's doing a lot of talking and like, so
Speaker 2: he's like, how much if you just want to, like
Speaker 2: if I want to keep you know, if you want
Speaker 2: to just if I want to hang out with you
Speaker 2: for the week. So she's like, she just puts out
Speaker 2: a number. I think she said like three grand. She
Speaker 2: should have went higher, but you know, she's just trying
Speaker 2: to cover her cross at this point. Make her you know,
Speaker 2: make the tuition and shit. So anyway, he ends up moving.
Speaker 2: He offers her to take her to another hotel. He
Speaker 2: ends up moving her. He's like, you could stay at
Speaker 2: my house and keep the money from the hotel, or
Speaker 2: I can put you in a hotel. And so she stays.
Speaker 2: She goes to his house. It's really nice. He gives her,
Speaker 2: you know, he puts her up in the in the house.
Speaker 2: He stays for a week. He buys her dresses, takes
Speaker 2: sort of parties, museums, Like really kind, I found her
Speaker 2: prince charming. Now it's her boyfriend. What the hell?
Speaker 1: When Haween goes right?
Speaker 2: When Hawian goes right?
Speaker 1: When Haween finds me your prince charming, you know, for
Speaker 1: years I thought.
Speaker 2: This would be my story that I would I would
Speaker 2: somehow find prince charming, like working at a high end
Speaker 2: hotel or sugar Daddy's from me dot com for me
Speaker 2: in that way. I was like, wow, girl, this is
Speaker 2: a beautiful story. And she's showed me his picture is
Speaker 2: kind of cute. Wow, Instinctially she knew to go with.
Speaker 1: That one and not the other guy, you know how,
Speaker 1: knowing also.
Speaker 2: Hosy witches. You know why? Why do you think that
Speaker 2: is why? I think, Oh yeah, I think when you
Speaker 2: reach a level of disconnecting from the expectation of society
Speaker 2: of freedom, then you have to let you get access
Speaker 2: to those powers. I think there's a level of not
Speaker 2: giving a fuck about people's feelings, but not giving a
Speaker 2: fuck about how people receive you, whether it be like
Speaker 2: in your sexual essence or in just how bold you
Speaker 2: are and how much space you take up, whatever it
Speaker 2: may be. Especially for women, I think when you've kind
Speaker 2: of start stop giving a fuck about that, that's another
Speaker 2: way to your secret powers.
Speaker 1: Yeah, you just don't subscribe to the dogma and you're
Speaker 1: just like fuck it. Yeah.
Speaker 2: So that's my host story for contribution. That woman did
Speaker 2: not give me permission to use that story. I'm going
Speaker 2: to try and find her dm or and tell her
Speaker 2: there's a lot of spots missing in this story, but
Speaker 2: basically that's the gist of it. She came out.
Speaker 1: Well, if she's listening now, I want you to know
Speaker 1: I commend you that's the dope.
Speaker 2: She's in love.
Speaker 1: I love this story. Yeah, I love it.
Speaker 2: It's a new pretty woman. Oh my god, it is
Speaker 2: age woman, new age pretty woman. Okay, it's a Tarot time.
Speaker 2: Tarot time.
Speaker 1: Pull the Night of Cups, You, guys and cups. Shout
Speaker 1: out to Mahogany Taro.
Speaker 2: Let's see what the stars are telling us. The Night
Speaker 2: of Cups is a classic romantic of the Tarot deck.
Speaker 2: He is in touch with his intuition and emotions, and
Speaker 2: he uses them masterfully to charm and attract others. He
Speaker 2: shows compassion and understanding towards others because he has learned
Speaker 2: to understand his own feelings and emotions. The Knight is kind, caring,
Speaker 2: and very in touch with his feminine side. He might
Speaker 2: be fine. He might be found writing a romantic poem
Speaker 2: to his lover. Also fine, Yes, he's probably fine. Yeah,
Speaker 2: he clearly is fine.
Speaker 1: Fine right here.
Speaker 2: Creating. He may find him writing a romantic poem for
Speaker 2: his lover, creating art inspired by his innermost feelings, or
Speaker 2: approaching a vibrant sunset with a glass of champagne in
Speaker 2: his hand. His heart is wide open and he wears
Speaker 2: it on his sleeve. He shares his love freely with others,
Speaker 2: without constraint or worry. He is in love with love itself.
Speaker 2: When the Night of King appears in a tarror reading,
Speaker 2: you thrive on all things beautiful and are inspired by
Speaker 2: many creative outlets available to you. While the Page of
Speaker 2: Cups was inspired by an imaginative idea, the Night of
Speaker 2: Cups is motivated by action. You have dreamed about what
Speaker 2: it is you want to create, and now are moving
Speaker 2: forward within this dream to make it a reality. It
Speaker 2: may be an art project or something you feel called
Speaker 2: to do based on your emotions, imagination, and intuition. Be
Speaker 2: open to exploring your passions and your big ideas. You
Speaker 2: may find yourself drawn to a particular passion or hobby
Speaker 2: and now is the time to turn it into something.
Speaker 1: Ooh and come to our Mother's Day Retreat in Atlanta.
Speaker 1: Sounds like you need to come and stop sleeping on
Speaker 1: yourself sis and come to our retreat. We're doing a
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Speaker 1: through pleasure.
Speaker 2: Through creative expression.
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Speaker 2: You house, that's a mansion mansion.
Speaker 1: It's like, it's not even little. It's a mansion mansion,
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Speaker 2: I'm excited. I'm excited to go to Atlanta and like
Speaker 2: just be in a really intimate space and create together. Yeah.
Speaker 1: Yeah, it's a different energy than our normal good vibratry,
Speaker 1: but like similar but more I don't know. Yeah, I'm excited.
Speaker 1: I'm excited to see who who who we attract to
Speaker 1: that that space. But I love you guys, be well,
Speaker 1: I love you. I love you And cheers, cheers. Do
Speaker 1: you need some do you have with someone in there?
Speaker 1: You little?
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