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Speaker 1: Don't every day waiting click yours up the breakfast club.

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Speaker 2: You don't finish for y'all done morning. Everybody is the

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Speaker 2: j en Vy just hilarious.

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Speaker 3: Charlamagne the guy. We are the breakfast club. Lawa Rose

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Speaker 3: is here as well. We got a special guest in

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Speaker 3: the building.

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Speaker 1: Indeed, the bully is back period. She has to curse

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Speaker 1: me out in about a month.

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Speaker 4: By She is a very nice person who just knows

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Speaker 4: what she wants. She came in the room and literally

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Speaker 4: turns into Spiked and started to change the camera and

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Speaker 4: camera that makes her bully makes your boss.

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Speaker 2: But she hadn't curt you out.

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Speaker 4: You can't talk. I thought you couldn't talk.

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Speaker 5: I still can't. That's why she can't be that loud.

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Speaker 5: See that's what I'm saying. I need we need all

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Speaker 5: the tones to be down. You know, I wanted to

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Speaker 5: see y'all. I feel bad seeing everybody else and not

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Speaker 5: seeing y'all. Yeah, yeah, yeah, it would be so dry.

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Speaker 5: Press because this is.

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Speaker 2: The way you press up because you can't talk back.

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Speaker 5: Yeah, because y'all his want to be up at nine

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Speaker 5: o'clock in the morning. And I just landed and I

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Speaker 5: was like, okay, yeah, this is not gonna happen. But

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Speaker 5: I wanted to be able to fully be able to,

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Speaker 5: my family. So I didn't want to be anything that

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Speaker 5: was rush yeah, and we happy escape room. I'm taking it.

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Speaker 5: I'm taking it easy. My doctor said, I can talk

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Speaker 5: because you don't have to do all my autograph signs

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Speaker 3: So for those that don't know, why did you need

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Speaker 3: the surgery, what happened? Break that down of what it does.

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Speaker 5: So I have polyps on my vocal cords, and it

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Speaker 5: was actually really really bad. It looked like a pearl

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Speaker 5: And that was kind of like what it was. So

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Speaker 5: if you notice even last week how gone my voice was,

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Speaker 5: So anytime it's like cold, I think, I'm like, maybe

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Speaker 5: I'm like, why is this so hard? Like maybe it's

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Speaker 5: I'm just singing my heart out and it's the pain.

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Speaker 5: And it's like, no, bitch, my vocal cords. It's like

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Speaker 5: trauma to the vocal cords, you know what I'm saying.

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Speaker 5: So I think doing both at the same time was

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Speaker 6: When you heard that from your doctor, how scared were

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Speaker 5: I mean I was so scared because, you know, getting

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Speaker 5: a surgery, you know, literally two weeks before your album

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Speaker 5: First of all? Second of all, if I don't do

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Speaker 5: So it's like, do I do it now and shut

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Speaker 5: knew once the album drop. My supporters wasn't rolling with

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Speaker 5: the movie one batle after another. Then I got all's fair,

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Speaker 5: then I got ripped, you know ben in Matt. So

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Speaker 5: it's just like I can't be on like a worldwide

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Speaker 5: you know what I'm saying. So I'm like, this is

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Speaker 5: And that's why I rushed to New York. So, you know,

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Speaker 2: And what was the reason? Did they say what the

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Speaker 4: Was it?

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Speaker 5: Yeah, just trauma to the vocal course. But that's something

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Speaker 4: You know, even when you're saying it's not like you

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Speaker 5: Vocal cord, because it's like you still have look at

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Speaker 5: one thousand and one, Look at all the heavy rolls

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Speaker 5: I have to do. You know what I'm saying, have

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Speaker 5: just gotta do your voice. So it's just like I

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Speaker 5: just even with the album and just with you know,

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Speaker 5: my past experiences in music, I've had a lot to

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Speaker 5: your head and what you're doing and shut out you

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Speaker 5: know what's crazy. And I'm like Adam Zandler, like with

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Speaker 5: don't have that. That's not the dynamic me and my

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Speaker 4: That's why I undertand why y'all always telling me to

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Speaker 5: You know why. I know why because I play a lot,

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Speaker 5: but I'm also an impact. You play when it ain't

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Speaker 2: Sorry about it.

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Speaker 5: You play when it ain't the time. You know why,

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Speaker 5: because you are such an iconic voice. You have to

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Speaker 5: understand that your joke. People don't know how you play.

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Speaker 5: People don't know how you play, so then what you

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Speaker 5: say is like yeah, because even Charlotte and it's just

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Speaker 5: like Nigga, that's why your phone be getting called getting

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Speaker 5: because even when we're on the phone personally, he plays

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Speaker 5: Charlottagne to know that he'll roast you all day, but

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Speaker 4: You know what I'm saying, knock at off. I really

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Speaker 4: do love what your daughter said at the end of

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Speaker 4: the album. And it's interesting because you never really know

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Speaker 4: what somebody is going through, Like when was the moment

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Speaker 5: Well, you know you back, honestly I did. If you notice,

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Speaker 5: You see, we go from like heartbreak to like you

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Speaker 5: already know that after heartbreak that like rebound stage where

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Speaker 5: it's like I just want to I don't want to

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Speaker 5: I don't want to talk about. I just want to

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Speaker 5: And then you know, you start to just say, okay,

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Speaker 5: Of course, you always want to do self work. But

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Speaker 5: it just makes you look at everything. Like Junia said,

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Speaker 5: was recording in real time. Yeah, I was recording here,

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Speaker 4: I'm married.

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Speaker 5: I can't be doing all that, but yeah, shout out

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Speaker 5: to him and then also all the monologues, right did

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Speaker 5: a few people like complaining about the narrations, like oh,

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Speaker 5: it's just too much. But it's also because my visual

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Speaker 5: a visual album for me first. However, I'm not complaining.

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Speaker 5: That's a good complaint to have because you know, people

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Speaker 5: well the song is too short, or the narrations like

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Speaker 5: like it feels good to be seen and heard in

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Speaker 5: I listened to the album first, and then when I

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Speaker 5: got to run this album back, you know what I'm saying.

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Speaker 5: So sometimes it's because it's an experience. It's it's a

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Speaker 5: it's a cinematic album, and it was always meant to

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Speaker 4: Back to life on the album, right, so what back

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Speaker 4: to life? But there's something that said on that song,

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Speaker 4: how does memories?

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Speaker 5: It's she said, new Dick Memories is what I need?

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Speaker 5: Because if you know, if you because if you notice, okay, no,

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Speaker 5: because if you if you notice, y'all can't be making

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Speaker 5: me laugh like this. But if you notice, the song

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Speaker 5: starts out like you know, we're sad, and it's like, Nigga,

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Speaker 5: I feel like Jack dragged me up on that door

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Speaker 5: let Jack drown, you know what I'm saying. But then

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Speaker 5: But people get tired at this point, JUNI, when you

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Speaker 5: So it's just like, come on, this is crazy because

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Speaker 4: Mean, like just talking about when you go to him

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Speaker 5: So something's coming back to me that you know, you

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Speaker 5: And especially when you got to see certain money leave

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Speaker 5: And then I had a witness who came with actual

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Speaker 5: This is not Seal. The only thing I got in

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Speaker 5: every single time something amazing is going on in my life,

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00:19:42,800 --> 00:19:45,680
Speaker 5: it's something about this divorce. It don't be nothing else.

432
00:19:45,760 --> 00:19:49,879
Speaker 5: I'm never in nothing and keeping mind of divorces already

433
00:19:49,920 --> 00:19:52,880
Speaker 5: a year old when the rumor redropped, So it's kind

434
00:19:52,880 --> 00:19:55,119
Speaker 5: of like, yeah, but let's not make it seem like

435
00:19:55,359 --> 00:19:59,240
Speaker 5: Tianna went to court and if I was holding Katana,

436
00:19:59,240 --> 00:20:00,560
Speaker 5: I would have been fine and or I would have

437
00:20:00,640 --> 00:20:04,000
Speaker 5: been jailed. It literally says in the papers that like

438
00:20:04,400 --> 00:20:06,520
Speaker 5: I have movies coming up so I can pay it

439
00:20:07,000 --> 00:20:10,680
Speaker 5: because he pretty much was in court showing his financial

440
00:20:10,800 --> 00:20:12,879
Speaker 5: situation and stuff like that. So it's kind of like

441
00:20:13,280 --> 00:20:16,800
Speaker 5: to pretty much punish me because I have to push

442
00:20:16,840 --> 00:20:20,800
Speaker 5: me up because of my accoladeses is insane. However, if

443
00:20:20,840 --> 00:20:23,399
Speaker 5: it's gonna give me my peace and we can be

444
00:20:23,440 --> 00:20:26,600
Speaker 5: done with this for good, I've sent that Why You

445
00:20:26,800 --> 00:20:30,240
Speaker 5: So Fast? I sent that Why You So fucking Fast?

446
00:20:30,320 --> 00:20:32,600
Speaker 5: That was the best little coin I ever spent in

447
00:20:32,680 --> 00:20:36,080
Speaker 5: my life because I never have to deal with this again,

448
00:20:36,840 --> 00:20:39,080
Speaker 5: and I will never allow a person to silence me

449
00:20:39,480 --> 00:20:41,240
Speaker 5: because that's I'm not no, I'm.

450
00:20:41,119 --> 00:20:42,760
Speaker 4: Not gonna ask you what exactly are you trying to

451
00:20:42,880 --> 00:20:44,320
Speaker 4: escape from with this project?

452
00:20:44,359 --> 00:20:47,840
Speaker 5: But boy, I know now I just want my peas

453
00:20:48,040 --> 00:20:50,240
Speaker 5: like where I was in that last song with Junie

454
00:20:50,320 --> 00:20:53,399
Speaker 5: en Route is where I want to stay. However, I

455
00:20:53,440 --> 00:20:56,879
Speaker 5: don't want to keep doing this pattern of every single

456
00:20:56,960 --> 00:20:59,520
Speaker 5: time something's going on, something else is dropping, and then

457
00:20:59,560 --> 00:21:02,920
Speaker 5: it's redropping like its brand like it's brand new. You

458
00:21:02,920 --> 00:21:04,880
Speaker 5: feel what I'm saying. So let's be clear. My evidence

459
00:21:05,000 --> 00:21:09,200
Speaker 5: was objected and they considered it. It's technically hearsay, she say,

460
00:21:09,440 --> 00:21:11,960
Speaker 5: like if it didn't come from from his mouth direct

461
00:21:12,040 --> 00:21:13,960
Speaker 5: or his phone direct he didn't do it, and it's like,

462
00:21:13,960 --> 00:21:17,280
Speaker 5: who the fuck is gonna leak something directly from their phone,

463
00:21:18,480 --> 00:21:20,639
Speaker 5: So don't make it seem like Tianna didn't have evidence,

464
00:21:20,680 --> 00:21:22,399
Speaker 5: because Tiana came in with a whole witness that had

465
00:21:22,440 --> 00:21:26,080
Speaker 5: the text messages that this is what it was. And

466
00:21:26,119 --> 00:21:28,520
Speaker 5: then also the skit was all over, which he deleted

467
00:21:28,520 --> 00:21:31,680
Speaker 5: the skit a few days before court. But that man

468
00:21:31,840 --> 00:21:34,679
Speaker 5: took Repollman. You had to get that lady. You had

469
00:21:34,720 --> 00:21:37,840
Speaker 5: to get that lady. Boo boom boom, And he like, exactly,

470
00:21:38,440 --> 00:21:40,399
Speaker 5: So why is it that I'm going on live to

471
00:21:40,520 --> 00:21:43,879
Speaker 5: defend that, Like, if anything, you're confirming stuff and then

472
00:21:43,920 --> 00:21:45,600
Speaker 5: now is a hearsay. If I would have known that

473
00:21:45,680 --> 00:21:47,760
Speaker 5: I could have somebody sitting next to me and speak

474
00:21:47,800 --> 00:21:50,120
Speaker 5: my truth without getting in trouble with it, I would

475
00:21:50,119 --> 00:21:51,960
Speaker 5: have had somebody sit next to me and say, hey,

476
00:21:52,000 --> 00:21:53,359
Speaker 5: say that I did this, I pay for this, I

477
00:21:53,359 --> 00:21:55,040
Speaker 5: pay for this, I pay for that boom boom, and

478
00:21:55,119 --> 00:21:57,040
Speaker 5: let that be that you have that piece now though,

479
00:21:57,440 --> 00:22:00,840
Speaker 5: But yeah, I do, I absolutely and I had that

480
00:22:00,880 --> 00:22:03,720
Speaker 5: piece even up until a week before my album and

481
00:22:03,720 --> 00:22:06,439
Speaker 5: then the rumor dropped and I'm just like so it's

482
00:22:06,600 --> 00:22:08,560
Speaker 5: gonna be continue to be a pattern, which it has

483
00:22:08,640 --> 00:22:10,399
Speaker 5: been for the last two years. And that's another thing.

484
00:22:10,400 --> 00:22:13,000
Speaker 5: People think that this divorce is only a year old. Baby,

485
00:22:13,000 --> 00:22:16,080
Speaker 5: We've been divorced for two years. So even say, oh

486
00:22:16,119 --> 00:22:18,000
Speaker 5: she moving too bad, but boo boom, it's just like

487
00:22:18,760 --> 00:22:20,000
Speaker 5: what you what you want me to do?

488
00:22:20,359 --> 00:22:21,440
Speaker 4: It's life?

489
00:22:21,520 --> 00:22:26,879
Speaker 5: Yeah, yes, because you know I don't I don't bother

490
00:22:26,960 --> 00:22:30,399
Speaker 5: nobody and most importantly I'm an impath, so I do

491
00:22:30,520 --> 00:22:32,240
Speaker 5: be getting caught up in a lot of like the

492
00:22:32,280 --> 00:22:35,880
Speaker 5: moment I think we cool, I'm like, you know, because

493
00:22:36,040 --> 00:22:38,159
Speaker 5: my muscle memory is like, you're my best friend for

494
00:22:39,119 --> 00:22:42,000
Speaker 5: eleven years, we still was married. We're not gonna rewrite

495
00:22:42,040 --> 00:22:44,280
Speaker 5: history like this didn't happen, you know what I'm saying.

496
00:22:44,280 --> 00:22:47,120
Speaker 5: So it's like my muscle memories still always have love

497
00:22:47,119 --> 00:22:48,800
Speaker 5: for him, and I'm not in love with him, but

498
00:22:48,960 --> 00:22:50,719
Speaker 5: still got loved for him, and that's still my family.

499
00:22:51,160 --> 00:22:54,520
Speaker 5: So like I came to you on some like hey,

500
00:22:54,560 --> 00:22:57,000
Speaker 5: what's up, like this is and you made it an argument,

501
00:22:57,040 --> 00:22:59,119
Speaker 5: so it's like, oh, you're still mad. You feel what

502
00:22:59,119 --> 00:23:01,919
Speaker 5: I'm saying, And even in court he admitted on the stand,

503
00:23:02,000 --> 00:23:04,800
Speaker 5: like I don't care about Saty has nothing to do

504
00:23:04,840 --> 00:23:06,679
Speaker 5: with me. Like it was very very nasty and it

505
00:23:06,720 --> 00:23:10,439
Speaker 5: was very hurtful. You know what's crazy. I get that,

506
00:23:10,520 --> 00:23:12,520
Speaker 5: And guess what, even through that, I still don't understand

507
00:23:12,520 --> 00:23:16,159
Speaker 5: and that that's my family, that's my family. I understand that

508
00:23:16,160 --> 00:23:18,440
Speaker 5: you're hurt. But at the same time, if you're hurt

509
00:23:18,480 --> 00:23:20,560
Speaker 5: and you're going to act that way, then leak that too.

510
00:23:21,080 --> 00:23:22,720
Speaker 4: You know. The hardest thing for a man admit is

511
00:23:22,760 --> 00:23:24,040
Speaker 4: just simply my feelings hurt.

512
00:23:25,840 --> 00:23:27,320
Speaker 5: I mean, but you know what, you know, the hardest

513
00:23:27,320 --> 00:23:30,240
Speaker 5: thing to do is admit that, like I lost this

514
00:23:30,359 --> 00:23:33,760
Speaker 5: fear and square, I'm hurt that I allowed myself to

515
00:23:33,840 --> 00:23:37,520
Speaker 5: lose this. You get what I'm saying. I'm hurt that

516
00:23:37,600 --> 00:23:41,480
Speaker 5: this did not go my way up that's it.

517
00:23:41,560 --> 00:23:44,400
Speaker 4: And talking about you know, let me have my piece

518
00:23:44,440 --> 00:23:52,280
Speaker 4: and get my back blown out in peace. Man was like,

519
00:23:52,359 --> 00:23:53,720
Speaker 4: God damn, did you have to.

520
00:23:53,640 --> 00:23:56,840
Speaker 2: Say that.

521
00:23:57,280 --> 00:24:01,920
Speaker 5: Being blown And now that would sitting on stand someone

522
00:24:01,920 --> 00:24:07,560
Speaker 5: I don't care about, Ain't you a little line? Ain't

523
00:24:07,600 --> 00:24:09,800
Speaker 5: nothing compared to him still stand someone I don't care

524
00:24:09,840 --> 00:24:12,199
Speaker 5: about our safety? And I was very consed. And then

525
00:24:12,240 --> 00:24:14,720
Speaker 5: he did admit that it was that him fouling emotion.

526
00:24:14,840 --> 00:24:17,520
Speaker 5: His motion had nothing to do with me going live.

527
00:24:17,600 --> 00:24:19,320
Speaker 5: His motion was saying I took the kids from him,

528
00:24:19,320 --> 00:24:23,160
Speaker 5: all that stuffy. He admitted that it was just retaliation,

529
00:24:23,960 --> 00:24:26,760
Speaker 5: like oh he he he. He did his one in court.

530
00:24:27,040 --> 00:24:29,240
Speaker 5: You feel what I'm saying, and it was just like, okay, cool.

531
00:24:29,280 --> 00:24:32,000
Speaker 5: But how it works is just because it's in the

532
00:24:32,040 --> 00:24:35,160
Speaker 5: court system, don't mean that it is true. The same

533
00:24:35,160 --> 00:24:36,679
Speaker 5: way when he found that motion, he found it on

534
00:24:36,680 --> 00:24:39,359
Speaker 5: met gala Monday when I was hosting a carpet. So

535
00:24:39,440 --> 00:24:43,560
Speaker 5: it's a thing where yes, technically anybody would feel like

536
00:24:43,720 --> 00:24:47,639
Speaker 5: it's you, because even the proof that I had were actual,

537
00:24:48,640 --> 00:24:53,840
Speaker 5: you know, like fouls of him, his proposed plan for

538
00:24:54,000 --> 00:24:57,160
Speaker 5: the whatever the situation was, that could have only come

539
00:24:57,280 --> 00:25:00,960
Speaker 5: from his side. I don't have what you proposed. You

540
00:25:01,000 --> 00:25:02,760
Speaker 5: feel what I'm saying. So of course when you when

541
00:25:02,760 --> 00:25:04,840
Speaker 5: shit is coming to you, it was like you would

542
00:25:04,880 --> 00:25:06,760
Speaker 5: think that, okay, cool, I'm about to just I just

543
00:25:06,760 --> 00:25:08,480
Speaker 5: want to be left alone. I even made it clear

544
00:25:08,560 --> 00:25:11,040
Speaker 5: in court. I'm like, I never said I wanted to

545
00:25:11,040 --> 00:25:13,560
Speaker 5: demanda jail. I didn't even want legal fees. But you know,

546
00:25:13,560 --> 00:25:15,359
Speaker 5: when lawyers go at it, they gotta they want to

547
00:25:15,359 --> 00:25:17,560
Speaker 5: ask for the most I sit on the stand. I

548
00:25:17,560 --> 00:25:19,560
Speaker 5: don't want legal fees. I don't even want to be here.

549
00:25:20,040 --> 00:25:24,880
Speaker 5: And for real, I remember you getting online telling us, well,

550
00:25:24,960 --> 00:25:29,240
Speaker 5: not not us, but like the internet, like, yo, don't

551
00:25:29,240 --> 00:25:32,560
Speaker 5: play with my best friend. You feel me like remember that,

552
00:25:32,640 --> 00:25:34,280
Speaker 5: like she don't play with my best friend. That's still

553
00:25:34,280 --> 00:25:36,160
Speaker 5: my family, that's still my gun. And even this we

554
00:25:36,200 --> 00:25:38,399
Speaker 5: was and even at that point when I made that post,

555
00:25:38,440 --> 00:25:41,119
Speaker 5: we weren't in the best space. It's just he was

556
00:25:41,119 --> 00:25:43,720
Speaker 5: caught up in some scandal and it was just like, Oh,

557
00:25:43,960 --> 00:25:45,879
Speaker 5: everybody's gonna be looking at me like do do Like

558
00:25:45,880 --> 00:25:50,640
Speaker 5: I'm just I'm like, listen, I'm gonna do this so

559
00:25:50,760 --> 00:25:55,080
Speaker 5: you can do you in peace. Like I don't want

560
00:25:55,119 --> 00:25:57,720
Speaker 5: no parts of this because I'm here at you know,

561
00:25:58,359 --> 00:26:01,440
Speaker 5: fashion week, and I got to be around press. You're

562
00:26:01,440 --> 00:26:03,840
Speaker 5: putting me in a position where somebody can potentially ask

563
00:26:03,920 --> 00:26:07,000
Speaker 5: me about why you in this bathroom with these half

564
00:26:07,119 --> 00:26:09,800
Speaker 5: naked girls, or you know whatever. You feel what I'm saying.

565
00:26:09,840 --> 00:26:12,080
Speaker 5: So it's just like I don't even pop on the

566
00:26:12,119 --> 00:26:17,920
Speaker 5: internet unless I'm on the internet, protecting my family, protecting

567
00:26:17,960 --> 00:26:20,560
Speaker 5: my home. So reaching out to you to tell you

568
00:26:20,640 --> 00:26:22,480
Speaker 5: to stand up for me as I've done for you.

569
00:26:22,840 --> 00:26:25,880
Speaker 5: The fact that you couldn't take five minutes to stand

570
00:26:25,920 --> 00:26:27,680
Speaker 5: up for me, but you could take five, six, seven,

571
00:26:27,720 --> 00:26:31,120
Speaker 5: eight pages to foul emotion tens and thousands of dollars

572
00:26:31,160 --> 00:26:33,240
Speaker 5: a foul motion when it took five seconds to say,

573
00:26:33,600 --> 00:26:36,840
Speaker 5: this is cap me and Tianna is having. You know

574
00:26:36,920 --> 00:26:40,199
Speaker 5: we are great with our co parenting. She walked away with, well,

575
00:26:40,280 --> 00:26:41,520
Speaker 5: she walked away with. I walked away with I walked

576
00:26:41,520 --> 00:26:43,600
Speaker 5: away with we both put a lot of time, love

577
00:26:43,680 --> 00:26:46,520
Speaker 5: and money into boom boom boom like that took that

578
00:26:46,680 --> 00:26:48,480
Speaker 5: was You're gonna have to use your voice for that.

579
00:26:49,280 --> 00:26:50,800
Speaker 5: So to go in court and say I demanded you

580
00:26:50,840 --> 00:26:52,200
Speaker 5: to stand up for me. I didn't demand you to

581
00:26:52,240 --> 00:26:54,679
Speaker 5: stand up for me. But where I take accountability as

582
00:26:54,680 --> 00:26:56,879
Speaker 5: I bit debate, you feel what I'm saying because I

583
00:26:56,880 --> 00:26:59,000
Speaker 5: got poked and poked and poked and poked and poked

584
00:26:59,040 --> 00:27:01,720
Speaker 5: into our road And then it was just like he

585
00:27:01,840 --> 00:27:04,800
Speaker 5: knows that because I remember even when y'all had to

586
00:27:04,840 --> 00:27:08,400
Speaker 5: show y'all reality show, he is said in a confessional

587
00:27:08,480 --> 00:27:11,480
Speaker 5: that I think he was asked like what gets under

588
00:27:11,520 --> 00:27:13,760
Speaker 5: your skin? And he said, oh, seann't like what I

589
00:27:13,800 --> 00:27:15,919
Speaker 5: messed with on Oh you get into with you in

590
00:27:16,000 --> 00:27:19,240
Speaker 5: social media? Yeah, like they was like, what gets under

591
00:27:19,240 --> 00:27:19,600
Speaker 5: my skin?

592
00:27:19,720 --> 00:27:19,840
Speaker 4: Oh?

593
00:27:19,880 --> 00:27:22,320
Speaker 5: It was the GQ Couple's quiz and it was like,

594
00:27:22,359 --> 00:27:24,560
Speaker 5: you know, what do you do to get under my skin?

595
00:27:24,640 --> 00:27:26,720
Speaker 5: And pissed me off? And he was just like, get

596
00:27:26,720 --> 00:27:28,520
Speaker 5: into with you on social media. I know how to

597
00:27:28,560 --> 00:27:31,720
Speaker 5: piss you off, Like he know my social Like even

598
00:27:31,760 --> 00:27:33,959
Speaker 5: sitting here, y'all know my exact even before I come

599
00:27:34,000 --> 00:27:35,879
Speaker 5: up be like, oh my gosh, I don't like this

600
00:27:35,960 --> 00:27:38,119
Speaker 5: kind of stuff. I don't like mess you feel me.

601
00:27:38,160 --> 00:27:39,760
Speaker 5: So it's just like if you're saying that while we

602
00:27:39,840 --> 00:27:43,479
Speaker 5: happily married, what you what is your behavior? When you

603
00:27:43,520 --> 00:27:46,040
Speaker 5: hate me? What is your behavior? And we're not in

604
00:27:46,080 --> 00:27:48,639
Speaker 5: the greatest space. And the thing about it is, I

605
00:27:48,640 --> 00:27:52,159
Speaker 5: haven't told one lie on that live you feel me.

606
00:27:52,440 --> 00:27:55,240
Speaker 5: But it's just sad because, like I said, we have

607
00:27:55,320 --> 00:27:57,680
Speaker 5: children that's on social media and you don't care how

608
00:27:57,720 --> 00:28:01,399
Speaker 5: it looked at the expense of nobody. All that matters

609
00:28:01,480 --> 00:28:03,960
Speaker 5: is you And that's the part that's said. And honestly,

610
00:28:04,000 --> 00:28:07,280
Speaker 5: it was just like my last straw, like we communicate

611
00:28:07,320 --> 00:28:10,880
Speaker 5: on a parent talking app that all that texting over

612
00:28:10,920 --> 00:28:13,280
Speaker 5: the phone is dead, we talk on the app. Have

613
00:28:13,320 --> 00:28:15,679
Speaker 5: to do anything with these kids, and that's that. And

614
00:28:15,720 --> 00:28:18,359
Speaker 5: if you know, Junior have questions and that's just I

615
00:28:18,359 --> 00:28:21,080
Speaker 5: can't avoid that. I'm gonna have to have an adult

616
00:28:21,160 --> 00:28:24,200
Speaker 5: conversation with her because exactly she's growing up and then

617
00:28:24,480 --> 00:28:26,600
Speaker 5: eventually she's gonna get to age where she's dating and

618
00:28:26,680 --> 00:28:31,760
Speaker 5: she needs to know, like, you know, the power of grace,

619
00:28:31,880 --> 00:28:35,160
Speaker 5: but not letting people abuse your grace, because people will

620
00:28:35,200 --> 00:28:38,760
Speaker 5: abuse and use your grace, and people will bank bank

621
00:28:38,800 --> 00:28:41,520
Speaker 5: on your heart and they will bank on all of

622
00:28:41,560 --> 00:28:44,280
Speaker 5: that because they never knew it would be you.

623
00:28:44,280 --> 00:28:47,040
Speaker 4: You know, it's interesting. But I'm listening to you talk

624
00:28:47,440 --> 00:28:49,960
Speaker 4: and I can hear the freedom, so it's like, damn,

625
00:28:50,000 --> 00:28:52,240
Speaker 4: you really did escape. Like this is like a whole

626
00:28:52,280 --> 00:28:55,240
Speaker 4: new chapter for you. You know, It's not a temporary chapter

627
00:28:55,280 --> 00:28:56,040
Speaker 4: that came from It's like.

628
00:28:56,000 --> 00:28:58,760
Speaker 5: A whole chapter. And that's why you see, like I

629
00:28:58,840 --> 00:29:00,800
Speaker 5: know people, cause it was a lot to take in.

630
00:29:00,880 --> 00:29:03,320
Speaker 5: People didn't some people from the few that I've seen,

631
00:29:03,320 --> 00:29:04,960
Speaker 5: didn't get the chance to finish the album. So they're like,

632
00:29:05,280 --> 00:29:07,520
Speaker 5: oh yeah, the album. Oh my god. It's like I

633
00:29:07,560 --> 00:29:09,680
Speaker 5: got to be in that space and it's like, no, baby,

634
00:29:09,680 --> 00:29:10,920
Speaker 5: you got to be in that space to be able

635
00:29:10,960 --> 00:29:12,920
Speaker 5: to receive it to move on to the next level.

636
00:29:12,960 --> 00:29:16,280
Speaker 5: Because the first what three songs you're in that you're

637
00:29:16,280 --> 00:29:19,520
Speaker 5: in that heartbreak. But then after that third song, after

638
00:29:19,640 --> 00:29:21,800
Speaker 5: after Tasha Smith coming here with the new Dick Memories,

639
00:29:21,840 --> 00:29:26,040
Speaker 5: the whole energy change felt like at that point you

640
00:29:26,080 --> 00:29:27,760
Speaker 5: had got to a point where you was like, I'm

641
00:29:27,760 --> 00:29:36,440
Speaker 5: not being sad no more imatly exactly. That's yes, That's

642
00:29:36,480 --> 00:29:39,600
Speaker 5: where that's where I was because again, even before it

643
00:29:39,640 --> 00:29:43,200
Speaker 5: was ever public, I was still protecting something that had

644
00:29:44,080 --> 00:29:46,600
Speaker 5: vanished a long time ago. You feel what I'm saying.

645
00:29:46,680 --> 00:29:48,640
Speaker 5: I was still holding it down and I was still

646
00:29:49,080 --> 00:29:50,920
Speaker 5: you know, doing that. So it's kind of like now

647
00:29:50,960 --> 00:29:53,560
Speaker 5: I was like, nah, like, oh, you're taking my kindness

648
00:29:53,560 --> 00:29:55,440
Speaker 5: for weakness, Like we can't, we can't do that. So

649
00:29:55,480 --> 00:29:58,360
Speaker 5: when you get to in your skin and always with Junie,

650
00:29:58,440 --> 00:30:00,760
Speaker 5: I'm in a whole nother space, you know what I'm saying.

651
00:30:00,760 --> 00:30:02,760
Speaker 5: And I never thought I'd be so excited to spend

652
00:30:02,760 --> 00:30:06,320
Speaker 5: seventy thousand dollars in my life, No, for real, But

653
00:30:06,360 --> 00:30:08,080
Speaker 5: it was a weight off my shoulders, you know what

654
00:30:08,120 --> 00:30:10,760
Speaker 5: I'm saying. It was like if here you go, baby,

655
00:30:11,320 --> 00:30:14,000
Speaker 5: here you go, and here you go because I'm gonna

656
00:30:14,040 --> 00:30:15,560
Speaker 5: get that back tenfold. You feel what I'm saying.

657
00:30:15,880 --> 00:30:24,760
Speaker 4: This album was also a love letter to air. Once

658
00:30:24,800 --> 00:30:26,440
Speaker 4: you get the buck, like you said, back to life,

659
00:30:26,520 --> 00:30:29,160
Speaker 4: it feels like you're giving yourself permission to love again.

660
00:30:29,320 --> 00:30:33,560
Speaker 5: Yeah, I'm giving myself a permission to love unarmored, you know.

661
00:30:34,000 --> 00:30:37,240
Speaker 4: But another thing, you can't just let the unarmored.

662
00:30:37,360 --> 00:30:41,040
Speaker 5: Yeah, yeah, I think that. You know, when we're guarded,

663
00:30:41,480 --> 00:30:43,960
Speaker 5: what do we guard ourselves with? We have all this gear,

664
00:30:44,040 --> 00:30:46,720
Speaker 5: we have all this army gear. We have we in

665
00:30:46,720 --> 00:30:50,320
Speaker 5: three hundred, we got the little shields and always on defense.

666
00:30:50,560 --> 00:30:53,240
Speaker 5: You feel what I'm saying. And that's not like where

667
00:30:53,240 --> 00:30:55,840
Speaker 5: I am because I'm a lover, you know what I'm saying.

668
00:30:55,840 --> 00:30:59,880
Speaker 5: I love love, So I go into things like pridely

669
00:31:00,280 --> 00:31:02,840
Speaker 5: and ego lists and you know, like just full of

670
00:31:02,960 --> 00:31:05,320
Speaker 5: like I do want a fairy tale, and it's like

671
00:31:05,360 --> 00:31:08,440
Speaker 5: people joke on me because real and people joke on

672
00:31:08,480 --> 00:31:16,600
Speaker 5: me because yeah. But it's like you know, people, y'all

673
00:31:16,600 --> 00:31:19,600
Speaker 5: all have watched me grow up. So I think a

674
00:31:19,640 --> 00:31:22,480
Speaker 5: lot of times people get stuck with little Tiana. You

675
00:31:22,520 --> 00:31:24,280
Speaker 5: know what I'm saying and not realizing that I'm not

676
00:31:24,320 --> 00:31:28,680
Speaker 5: this aggressive person that people think that I am. You

677
00:31:28,720 --> 00:31:30,040
Speaker 5: know what I'm saying, I wouldn't have been a wife

678
00:31:30,240 --> 00:31:32,400
Speaker 5: for ten years if I was that. Let's be clear,

679
00:31:32,800 --> 00:31:35,400
Speaker 5: you feel what I'm saying. So it's just like for me,

680
00:31:35,600 --> 00:31:37,680
Speaker 5: I love love, and I love to nurture and I

681
00:31:37,720 --> 00:31:39,600
Speaker 5: love to give. And as you can see with my

682
00:31:39,640 --> 00:31:41,720
Speaker 5: mom and my aunts, I've grown up around that's my

683
00:31:42,800 --> 00:31:46,080
Speaker 5: that's my muscle memory. I've watched the women in my

684
00:31:46,120 --> 00:31:50,080
Speaker 5: life take care of their men, protect their marriage, protect

685
00:31:50,120 --> 00:31:54,080
Speaker 5: their union, protect their tribe, protect their home. So that's

686
00:31:54,120 --> 00:31:56,440
Speaker 5: all I knew. So I don't know about pride and

687
00:31:56,440 --> 00:31:59,360
Speaker 5: ego and stuff like that. So it's just like, you know,

688
00:31:59,520 --> 00:32:03,720
Speaker 5: with me, the moment I was debting that I needed

689
00:32:03,760 --> 00:32:06,000
Speaker 5: that freedom to fully love again, but I knew that

690
00:32:06,040 --> 00:32:08,320
Speaker 5: when I started loving again that I wouldn't be guarded

691
00:32:08,360 --> 00:32:10,040
Speaker 5: me even trying to be tough. In the album where

692
00:32:10,080 --> 00:32:12,520
Speaker 5: I'm like she closed her heart and opened her legs,

693
00:32:12,560 --> 00:32:14,360
Speaker 5: it was just like, that's tell me you love me.

694
00:32:14,400 --> 00:32:15,479
Speaker 5: You don't have to meet it now and they can

695
00:32:15,520 --> 00:32:17,400
Speaker 5: tell me you love me. So it's like if y'all

696
00:32:17,440 --> 00:32:20,080
Speaker 5: really getting into Like what these interludes are saying. It's

697
00:32:20,160 --> 00:32:22,840
Speaker 5: telling the story of even when I tried to be guarded,

698
00:32:22,920 --> 00:32:27,920
Speaker 5: I still was a little I was a little yeah,

699
00:32:28,600 --> 00:32:31,160
Speaker 5: but because I don't know how to date. You know,

700
00:32:31,400 --> 00:32:34,360
Speaker 5: the majority of my career I've been married with you know, children,

701
00:32:34,440 --> 00:32:35,960
Speaker 5: I don't know how to date. So it's like all

702
00:32:35,960 --> 00:32:38,080
Speaker 5: of nothing for me. So it's like we all the

703
00:32:38,160 --> 00:32:41,200
Speaker 5: way go together. So how did that all away get there?

704
00:32:41,280 --> 00:32:42,880
Speaker 5: How did that happen? Because I know there had to

705
00:32:42,880 --> 00:32:47,320
Speaker 5: be a period of you healing first before you gave.

706
00:32:47,960 --> 00:32:51,560
Speaker 5: I mean I started the healing. I started the healing

707
00:32:51,640 --> 00:32:56,240
Speaker 5: before the divorce was even final. You know what I'm saying,

708
00:32:56,440 --> 00:32:59,400
Speaker 5: like that you have to start that. I knew that,

709
00:33:01,400 --> 00:33:04,360
Speaker 5: like with everything I had coming up, it was certain

710
00:33:04,400 --> 00:33:06,120
Speaker 5: things that I knew would take me out of character.

711
00:33:06,160 --> 00:33:08,680
Speaker 5: When I started biting the bait, I said, oh this

712
00:33:08,840 --> 00:33:12,240
Speaker 5: is I can't do this. I started praying more. When

713
00:33:12,240 --> 00:33:17,120
Speaker 5: I got heavy into my ministries is when life got heavier.

714
00:33:17,640 --> 00:33:23,000
Speaker 5: Because now your biggest enemy, you know, is the devil.

715
00:33:23,840 --> 00:33:26,760
Speaker 5: He gonna play, and he gonna play, and he gonna play.

716
00:33:26,840 --> 00:33:29,480
Speaker 5: So it was a faith walk. So I was like, okay,

717
00:33:29,520 --> 00:33:31,480
Speaker 5: let me give this another try and if this and

718
00:33:31,520 --> 00:33:34,680
Speaker 5: when I realized that, you know, you wanted me to

719
00:33:34,720 --> 00:33:37,360
Speaker 5: meet you at a certain level. If I'm up here

720
00:33:37,400 --> 00:33:39,320
Speaker 5: and you're trying to pull me down again, you're trying to,

721
00:33:39,400 --> 00:33:42,800
Speaker 5: like you know, like when you drowned somebody else, to

722
00:33:42,800 --> 00:33:45,600
Speaker 5: stay afloat. It's like I felt like I was in Titanic,

723
00:33:45,680 --> 00:33:46,880
Speaker 5: like I felt like I was in an asy So

724
00:33:46,880 --> 00:33:49,280
Speaker 5: you're gonna hold me down and stay afloat. I can't

725
00:33:49,320 --> 00:33:53,360
Speaker 5: do that. I can't do that. You know. I can't

726
00:33:53,400 --> 00:33:56,120
Speaker 5: do that to get up there. I don't know why,

727
00:33:56,120 --> 00:33:58,760
Speaker 5: but that's what I'm saying. You feel me. I did

728
00:33:58,760 --> 00:34:00,360
Speaker 5: see in a little recent video where they broke down

729
00:34:00,360 --> 00:34:01,720
Speaker 5: why they wouldn't have been able to both fit on

730
00:34:01,920 --> 00:34:04,320
Speaker 5: the thing. But let's let's forget that. Let's talk about

731
00:34:04,520 --> 00:34:07,200
Speaker 5: the iconic version of it. Baby, you let Jack drown?

732
00:34:07,320 --> 00:34:10,279
Speaker 4: Ever, why did you write them for your mom? I

733
00:34:10,320 --> 00:34:11,640
Speaker 4: feel like your mom should have been on this.

734
00:34:12,000 --> 00:34:14,200
Speaker 5: So what I was about to get into is this

735
00:34:14,400 --> 00:34:17,239
Speaker 5: album for me. Y'all know what I've been through, even

736
00:34:17,280 --> 00:34:20,040
Speaker 5: just in the music industry, I don't. I also don't

737
00:34:20,040 --> 00:34:22,520
Speaker 5: want to stay gun hold on. It's just being strictly

738
00:34:22,520 --> 00:34:25,600
Speaker 5: about relationships. I feel like this album is like a

739
00:34:25,680 --> 00:34:28,560
Speaker 5: universal charger. It's so many things that have wronged us

740
00:34:28,560 --> 00:34:31,439
Speaker 5: and have broke our hearts. You know, probably getting into

741
00:34:31,520 --> 00:34:34,080
Speaker 5: radio for you at a younger age, it's probably difficult.

742
00:34:34,160 --> 00:34:36,560
Speaker 5: Motherfuckers probably shut it on, you didn't believe in you. Like,

743
00:34:36,640 --> 00:34:39,120
Speaker 5: it's a lot of things that have We've all been heartbroken,

744
00:34:39,520 --> 00:34:41,160
Speaker 5: you know what I'm saying, and we've all had to

745
00:34:41,200 --> 00:34:44,080
Speaker 5: like navigate through that. And that's what this album is

746
00:34:44,080 --> 00:34:45,840
Speaker 5: is a universal charger, and you can plug it in

747
00:34:45,880 --> 00:34:49,000
Speaker 5: and you can customize it to what you've been through.

748
00:34:49,480 --> 00:34:51,799
Speaker 5: I've been in a lot of hands that has not

749
00:34:51,840 --> 00:34:54,279
Speaker 5: protected me, you know. So it's like whether this I

750
00:34:54,280 --> 00:34:55,640
Speaker 5: should have been walked up this deal, I should have

751
00:34:55,640 --> 00:34:56,839
Speaker 5: been walk away from this. I should have woke with

752
00:34:56,880 --> 00:35:00,359
Speaker 5: this relationship, this friendship, whatever, this circle is, fucking group

753
00:35:00,480 --> 00:35:02,600
Speaker 5: chat whatever. There's a lot of things we feel like

754
00:35:02,640 --> 00:35:05,640
Speaker 5: we should have been walked out from a long time ago.

755
00:35:05,880 --> 00:35:09,319
Speaker 5: I should have been jump hopped out this box. You know.

756
00:35:09,360 --> 00:35:11,440
Speaker 2: The most difficult song to do on the album and why.

757
00:35:12,040 --> 00:35:16,080
Speaker 5: Oh my oh, the most difficult song to do on

758
00:35:16,120 --> 00:35:24,359
Speaker 5: the album probably was hard part and it was and

759
00:35:24,400 --> 00:35:26,600
Speaker 5: it's so crazy because me and Brent was in the

760
00:35:26,640 --> 00:35:30,080
Speaker 5: studio and we did the hook. We did the hook,

761
00:35:30,440 --> 00:35:32,920
Speaker 5: and I left it. I never revisited it again. I

762
00:35:32,920 --> 00:35:35,000
Speaker 5: didn't revisit it. And then when it was time to

763
00:35:35,040 --> 00:35:38,719
Speaker 5: turn into album, they're like, yo, tee, you gotta throw

764
00:35:38,719 --> 00:35:40,480
Speaker 5: a verse on here, and I was just like, I'm

765
00:35:40,520 --> 00:35:43,880
Speaker 5: not ready. This is too much. I don't want to,

766
00:35:44,719 --> 00:35:46,879
Speaker 5: you know. And it's crazy because I wrote that verse

767
00:35:46,920 --> 00:35:50,439
Speaker 5: in like less than twenty minutes and I did it,

768
00:35:50,920 --> 00:35:53,680
Speaker 5: but then I didn't do no ad libs. So then

769
00:35:53,719 --> 00:35:56,960
Speaker 5: Lucky put his verse on there, and yeah, it took

770
00:35:56,960 --> 00:35:58,840
Speaker 5: me a long time to complete this song. You know,

771
00:35:58,920 --> 00:36:01,600
Speaker 5: it was very vulnus for me. Then I went in there,

772
00:36:01,600 --> 00:36:02,960
Speaker 5: and it's crazy because it was a very last song

773
00:36:03,000 --> 00:36:06,080
Speaker 5: I did before I completely lost my voice, which was

774
00:36:06,080 --> 00:36:07,879
Speaker 5: like the a libs and the runs and all that shit,

775
00:36:07,960 --> 00:36:10,000
Speaker 5: and then you know that was that it was hard,

776
00:36:10,040 --> 00:36:11,480
Speaker 5: and a lot of it was hard because in the

777
00:36:11,520 --> 00:36:15,120
Speaker 5: beginning when I did Long Time, we were dealing with

778
00:36:15,480 --> 00:36:20,440
Speaker 5: you know, mediation. You know, that's when it was real heavy,

779
00:36:20,960 --> 00:36:22,319
Speaker 5: you know what I'm saying. It was very heavy, and

780
00:36:22,360 --> 00:36:25,480
Speaker 5: it was very one sided with the pettiness, and it's

781
00:36:25,560 --> 00:36:28,720
Speaker 5: just like, I just want to be cool and because

782
00:36:28,760 --> 00:36:31,319
Speaker 5: of my muscle memory, we'll get into it real bad.

783
00:36:31,400 --> 00:36:34,359
Speaker 5: Then the next day I'm like, still like, what's up?

784
00:36:34,400 --> 00:36:36,120
Speaker 5: You know what I'm saying, I'm like, this is my family,

785
00:36:36,200 --> 00:36:37,719
Speaker 5: Like you see, even on a lot of I'm like, yo,

786
00:36:37,760 --> 00:36:39,480
Speaker 5: that's really gang Like stop playing on me.

787
00:36:40,600 --> 00:36:42,520
Speaker 4: The hard part. You know you started off by saying

788
00:36:42,520 --> 00:36:43,960
Speaker 4: I got a few questions for you. She is getting

789
00:36:43,960 --> 00:36:46,120
Speaker 4: real confusion. Do you want this or do you don't?

790
00:36:46,280 --> 00:36:48,160
Speaker 4: So was there a period where you thought about not

791
00:36:48,239 --> 00:36:49,640
Speaker 4: going through with a divorce maybe?

792
00:36:50,280 --> 00:36:52,799
Speaker 5: See, So the thing about it is I found for

793
00:36:53,960 --> 00:36:57,040
Speaker 5: separation and divorce a few times, but I kept I

794
00:36:57,120 --> 00:36:59,960
Speaker 5: kept withdrawing because he kept saying he wanted to fight

795
00:37:00,120 --> 00:37:01,920
Speaker 5: for his family. So if you're saying you want to

796
00:37:01,920 --> 00:37:03,680
Speaker 5: fight for your family and then you're getting caught up

797
00:37:03,680 --> 00:37:07,239
Speaker 5: in another scandal, it's like, Nigga, I got a few questions,

798
00:37:07,320 --> 00:37:08,839
Speaker 5: do you want to do it? Because the thing about

799
00:37:08,840 --> 00:37:12,839
Speaker 5: it is you're not You're not fighting, And because I'm

800
00:37:12,880 --> 00:37:15,040
Speaker 5: a lover, I'm like, I want through the world. I

801
00:37:15,040 --> 00:37:17,240
Speaker 5: want it. I'm thinking it's like a movie, He's gonna

802
00:37:17,280 --> 00:37:19,279
Speaker 5: fight for it. And then I realize that it's just

803
00:37:19,360 --> 00:37:23,200
Speaker 5: words that's not leaving the paper. You know, I needed

804
00:37:23,200 --> 00:37:25,080
Speaker 5: it to leave the paper. I needed the words to

805
00:37:25,120 --> 00:37:28,200
Speaker 5: become actions. Because once I decide to forgive you, I

806
00:37:28,239 --> 00:37:31,360
Speaker 5: give you a clean slate. I don't hold on to grudges.

807
00:37:31,480 --> 00:37:33,120
Speaker 5: I'm we'll hold on to a grudge. I'm as well leave.

808
00:37:33,800 --> 00:37:35,800
Speaker 5: So when you say I want to fight for my family,

809
00:37:35,880 --> 00:37:38,520
Speaker 5: this is what I want. I'm gonna give you an

810
00:37:38,520 --> 00:37:41,319
Speaker 5: opportunity to fight for your family. So when you're not

811
00:37:41,360 --> 00:37:44,600
Speaker 5: fighting for that, it's kind of like, okay, baby, what

812
00:37:44,600 --> 00:37:46,600
Speaker 5: what do you want to do? Because now it's just

813
00:37:46,680 --> 00:37:49,240
Speaker 5: kind of like you're hanging on to something. But then

814
00:37:50,080 --> 00:37:52,480
Speaker 5: you pillow talking like you going through something. You're not

815
00:37:52,520 --> 00:37:54,960
Speaker 5: going through nothing for real. You know what I'm saying,

816
00:37:55,080 --> 00:37:57,120
Speaker 5: Like you're not going through nothing for real. Life is

817
00:37:57,160 --> 00:37:58,600
Speaker 5: not bad. And it's like for you to even be

818
00:37:58,640 --> 00:38:01,320
Speaker 5: okay with people thinking that I talked to you crazy,

819
00:38:01,360 --> 00:38:04,120
Speaker 5: I treated you crazy, boom boom boom, like you would

820
00:38:04,120 --> 00:38:07,160
Speaker 5: have been you would have been dipped. Nobody was in

821
00:38:07,239 --> 00:38:10,440
Speaker 5: those shackles. I wasn't even in shackles. So it's kind

822
00:38:10,440 --> 00:38:13,000
Speaker 5: of like, but you know, in marriage, you don't just

823
00:38:13,160 --> 00:38:15,520
Speaker 5: walk away from something you know what I'm saying. You

824
00:38:15,560 --> 00:38:17,719
Speaker 5: got to exhaust all options. You got to put in

825
00:38:17,760 --> 00:38:21,000
Speaker 5: the work, you know, because honestly, even the court will

826
00:38:21,040 --> 00:38:22,839
Speaker 5: force you to go to counseling first and come back.

827
00:38:23,320 --> 00:38:25,000
Speaker 5: So before we even got to that, it's like okay,

828
00:38:25,080 --> 00:38:27,640
Speaker 5: let's you know. So he would try to avoid that

829
00:38:27,680 --> 00:38:29,640
Speaker 5: part and I'm like, listen, before we can move forward,

830
00:38:29,680 --> 00:38:32,319
Speaker 5: we really got to sit on a couch. You really

831
00:38:32,360 --> 00:38:35,000
Speaker 5: got to sit on a couch. He didn't want to

832
00:38:35,040 --> 00:38:38,000
Speaker 5: do that. That's when difficult. That's when an argument started,

833
00:38:38,719 --> 00:38:41,680
Speaker 5: Like if I would have just stayed, we would building

834
00:38:41,680 --> 00:38:43,279
Speaker 5: this relation to me and mom will still be together,

835
00:38:43,320 --> 00:38:46,239
Speaker 5: still going through all types of bullshit. I had to

836
00:38:47,280 --> 00:38:51,319
Speaker 5: really stand on business and say, listen, we either got

837
00:38:51,360 --> 00:38:54,960
Speaker 5: to sit on a couch or it's just not I

838
00:38:54,960 --> 00:38:57,560
Speaker 5: can't trust that this is going to work if we

839
00:38:57,760 --> 00:39:01,040
Speaker 5: don't get the proper help. That's not what he wanted

840
00:39:01,080 --> 00:39:05,400
Speaker 5: to hear. All hell broke lose.

841
00:39:06,320 --> 00:39:08,799
Speaker 4: Therapy. You gotta be will especially if you're trying to,

842
00:39:08,840 --> 00:39:10,160
Speaker 4: you know, fight for your marriage. You got to be

843
00:39:10,160 --> 00:39:11,320
Speaker 4: willing to do the work on yourself.

844
00:39:11,360 --> 00:39:12,040
Speaker 2: Never in this cycle.

845
00:39:12,160 --> 00:39:12,600
Speaker 5: You have to.

846
00:39:12,800 --> 00:39:14,920
Speaker 6: By the end the hard part, I felt like you

847
00:39:14,960 --> 00:39:16,400
Speaker 6: had finally got to that point where you was like,

848
00:39:16,440 --> 00:39:19,080
Speaker 6: you know what, Look, I can't do this. I'm numb

849
00:39:19,160 --> 00:39:22,120
Speaker 6: I And that's what it was for you.

850
00:39:22,280 --> 00:39:25,160
Speaker 5: I did not go to the it was. It was

851
00:39:25,280 --> 00:39:27,640
Speaker 5: more than that. Like and you know, like I said,

852
00:39:27,640 --> 00:39:28,960
Speaker 5: I'm a private person. I'm not. I'm not going to

853
00:39:29,000 --> 00:39:32,280
Speaker 5: get into detail. But when you are trying to elevate

854
00:39:32,719 --> 00:39:37,360
Speaker 5: and you are trying to move forward and grow, you

855
00:39:37,440 --> 00:39:39,680
Speaker 5: gotta be willing to grow with me. If you're going

856
00:39:39,760 --> 00:39:42,520
Speaker 5: to be stagnant, I can't sit there and be stagnant

857
00:39:42,520 --> 00:39:44,719
Speaker 5: with you. You know what I'm saying, because one thing

858
00:39:44,800 --> 00:39:47,800
Speaker 5: about it is misery loves company, and I was not

859
00:39:47,920 --> 00:39:50,840
Speaker 5: willing to be the company to that misery. I was

860
00:39:50,880 --> 00:39:53,719
Speaker 5: not willing. I have work to do. We all have

861
00:39:53,800 --> 00:39:56,799
Speaker 5: work to do. You feel what I'm saying. But my

862
00:39:56,960 --> 00:40:00,800
Speaker 5: work consists of me to walk into keep moving forward.

863
00:40:01,080 --> 00:40:03,160
Speaker 5: So it's either move forward with me or I got

864
00:40:03,200 --> 00:40:06,400
Speaker 5: to leave you behind. It's not serving me, it is

865
00:40:06,480 --> 00:40:08,440
Speaker 5: not loving me, is not seeing you have to go

866
00:40:08,440 --> 00:40:09,200
Speaker 5: where I'm serving love.

867
00:40:09,360 --> 00:40:13,040
Speaker 4: We spoken about this album. Yes, so hard part goes

868
00:40:13,080 --> 00:40:15,640
Speaker 4: in the back to life. You want some life. I'm

869
00:40:15,680 --> 00:40:18,120
Speaker 4: really trying not to.

870
00:40:19,760 --> 00:40:24,440
Speaker 6: What you can said girl, because that's how it talking to.

871
00:40:25,600 --> 00:40:27,520
Speaker 4: You go from a hard part to back to life,

872
00:40:27,560 --> 00:40:29,120
Speaker 4: and then it's like tis to kind of put the

873
00:40:29,160 --> 00:40:30,879
Speaker 4: battery in your back, like no, but.

874
00:40:30,920 --> 00:40:34,720
Speaker 5: Sometimes you need that, you know, but sometimes, but sometimes

875
00:40:34,719 --> 00:40:37,160
Speaker 5: it's also reminding yourself of who you are. And again,

876
00:40:37,640 --> 00:40:39,600
Speaker 5: I think a lot of the songs are double entendres.

877
00:40:39,600 --> 00:40:41,560
Speaker 5: Like when I wrote wrote that with Rico Love, we

878
00:40:41,480 --> 00:40:44,560
Speaker 5: weren't thinking about, oh yeah, I'm about to go fuck

879
00:40:44,640 --> 00:40:49,440
Speaker 5: on this nigga, that's not no. I'm just saying in general,

880
00:40:49,520 --> 00:40:52,560
Speaker 5: like because honestly, Rico had to convince me to do

881
00:40:52,600 --> 00:40:54,200
Speaker 5: that song. Y'all know, I'm a love girl. I don't

882
00:40:54,200 --> 00:40:56,320
Speaker 5: even make songs like that. And maybe I want to

883
00:40:56,360 --> 00:40:59,520
Speaker 5: say back to life in long Time was a hard

884
00:40:59,800 --> 00:41:02,640
Speaker 5: song for me to do because I'm like, no, that's

885
00:41:02,680 --> 00:41:06,120
Speaker 5: too mean, that's too I don't like that kind of stuff,

886
00:41:06,239 --> 00:41:08,160
Speaker 5: you know what I'm saying. But then it's just like,

887
00:41:08,800 --> 00:41:10,759
Speaker 5: this is my life, what I'm going through, and He's

888
00:41:10,840 --> 00:41:13,080
Speaker 5: just like, no, like you can you can discuss your

889
00:41:13,120 --> 00:41:15,319
Speaker 5: life and have fun with it. So I wasn't even

890
00:41:15,360 --> 00:41:20,000
Speaker 5: thinking about you know, I hadn't even known, like I

891
00:41:20,000 --> 00:41:23,600
Speaker 5: I wasn't even like dating yet when I did long

892
00:41:23,680 --> 00:41:26,160
Speaker 5: time and back to like, but it took me a

893
00:41:26,160 --> 00:41:29,399
Speaker 5: long time to finally go back and re record them.

894
00:41:29,560 --> 00:41:31,600
Speaker 5: So a lot of songs I revisited when I actually

895
00:41:31,800 --> 00:41:32,319
Speaker 5: felt it.

896
00:41:32,760 --> 00:41:35,719
Speaker 3: You feel what I'm saying, How do you make sure

897
00:41:35,760 --> 00:41:38,279
Speaker 3: that the trauma from that relationship you don't bring into

898
00:41:38,320 --> 00:41:39,440
Speaker 3: the new relationship because.

899
00:41:39,520 --> 00:41:41,719
Speaker 2: It would make you guard it, like you would feel

900
00:41:41,800 --> 00:41:42,720
Speaker 2: like you have to keep.

901
00:41:42,600 --> 00:41:44,440
Speaker 3: Your eyes open because you know, at one time you

902
00:41:44,520 --> 00:41:48,600
Speaker 3: completely trusted, you completely, gave everything, you completely. This was

903
00:41:48,600 --> 00:41:50,480
Speaker 3: the guy that you made sure that was like now

904
00:41:50,480 --> 00:41:52,480
Speaker 3: he got me, but obviously it didn't. So how do

905
00:41:52,560 --> 00:41:55,440
Speaker 3: you make sure in your new relationship that you keep

906
00:41:55,480 --> 00:41:57,080
Speaker 3: your eye open or you do something?

907
00:41:57,120 --> 00:41:58,920
Speaker 5: That's a good question. How I look at it is

908
00:41:58,960 --> 00:42:01,160
Speaker 5: like I said, you know, by the time I walked

909
00:42:01,200 --> 00:42:04,840
Speaker 5: away from my marriage, I was already on my journey,

910
00:42:04,880 --> 00:42:07,480
Speaker 5: on my heeling journey. I was already you know, holding

911
00:42:07,520 --> 00:42:11,200
Speaker 5: myself accountable to show up for myself and because I

912
00:42:11,280 --> 00:42:15,959
Speaker 5: love love, the goal was this is not working because

913
00:42:16,000 --> 00:42:18,600
Speaker 5: it must be something bigger in store for me. You

914
00:42:18,600 --> 00:42:21,879
Speaker 5: know what I'm saying, Like, clearly God is like okay, cool.

915
00:42:21,920 --> 00:42:24,319
Speaker 5: So this happened and you're still there, and I ain't

916
00:42:24,320 --> 00:42:25,759
Speaker 5: gonna do the work for you. Now, you got to

917
00:42:25,760 --> 00:42:28,160
Speaker 5: figure out when you're going. You know, a lot of prayer,

918
00:42:28,520 --> 00:42:30,920
Speaker 5: a lot of conversations. You get what I'm saying. So

919
00:42:30,960 --> 00:42:35,960
Speaker 5: it's like leaving. It was realizing that, you know, people

920
00:42:36,000 --> 00:42:38,200
Speaker 5: will say small things. It's the Monica Sandu up there,

921
00:42:38,200 --> 00:42:43,239
Speaker 5: I fuck you up. I'm like, wait what Yeah, it's

922
00:42:43,280 --> 00:42:47,879
Speaker 5: like crazy, iconic, iconic love my girl, Momo.

923
00:42:48,680 --> 00:42:50,319
Speaker 2: Got your sneakers up there because at the crib.

924
00:42:50,960 --> 00:42:53,000
Speaker 5: Okay, I got you. I'm my second sneaker about to

925
00:42:53,040 --> 00:42:56,319
Speaker 5: come out, so I got your no. But yeah, it's

926
00:42:56,400 --> 00:42:59,839
Speaker 5: like at that point one time I felt so low

927
00:43:00,239 --> 00:43:03,239
Speaker 5: that a person could just be like, oh my god,

928
00:43:03,280 --> 00:43:06,799
Speaker 5: your here looks really nice. I'm like, oh thank you,

929
00:43:08,000 --> 00:43:11,399
Speaker 5: oh my god. Yeah, because I'm a lover, like I don't.

930
00:43:11,520 --> 00:43:15,439
Speaker 5: I don't. I've never been a guarded person, like, never

931
00:43:15,520 --> 00:43:16,400
Speaker 5: been a guarded.

932
00:43:16,120 --> 00:43:19,719
Speaker 4: Person, sure person, at least from what you think about.

933
00:43:19,760 --> 00:43:23,600
Speaker 5: Insecure. It's when you give everything feels beautiful. Yeah, like

934
00:43:24,040 --> 00:43:25,719
Speaker 5: I know who I am, I know what I am,

935
00:43:26,000 --> 00:43:30,040
Speaker 5: but those small things, those small things mean the world.

936
00:43:30,239 --> 00:43:32,919
Speaker 5: When you're not receiving that, you get what I'm saying,

937
00:43:32,920 --> 00:43:34,959
Speaker 5: because at the end of the day, as a woman, yeah,

938
00:43:34,960 --> 00:43:36,680
Speaker 5: we know who we are. But when we love our

939
00:43:36,800 --> 00:43:41,240
Speaker 5: nigga like we love our man, like his praises means

940
00:43:41,280 --> 00:43:44,440
Speaker 5: the world. I got eighteen million followers that can tell

941
00:43:44,440 --> 00:43:46,160
Speaker 5: me I'm beautiful all day every day, But that's not

942
00:43:46,200 --> 00:43:47,800
Speaker 5: who I want to hear it from. You know what

943
00:43:47,840 --> 00:43:50,759
Speaker 5: I'm saying, Like, I honor my man. You know, I

944
00:43:50,800 --> 00:43:53,440
Speaker 5: serve my man. So it's a week who sees me

945
00:43:53,960 --> 00:43:58,680
Speaker 5: makeup and exactly the exactly, So imagine being like, yo,

946
00:43:58,719 --> 00:44:00,920
Speaker 5: I got my first big we rolle people gonna take

947
00:44:00,920 --> 00:44:04,080
Speaker 5: me serious? Da da da, and I'm arguing with you

948
00:44:04,200 --> 00:44:06,640
Speaker 5: every day. I got a five am call. No I'm not.

949
00:44:07,320 --> 00:44:08,239
Speaker 5: I'm not doing that.

950
00:44:08,800 --> 00:44:11,120
Speaker 4: I do love a long time. When you say you're

951
00:44:11,120 --> 00:44:14,440
Speaker 4: out here stressing your blessing, that's a powerful line like

952
00:44:14,440 --> 00:44:16,480
Speaker 4: don't scratch, don't be stretching your blessing.

953
00:44:16,640 --> 00:44:19,319
Speaker 5: Yeah, you know, like because they don't have to be

954
00:44:19,400 --> 00:44:21,399
Speaker 5: that way, you know what I'm saying, And we could

955
00:44:21,400 --> 00:44:24,239
Speaker 5: still very much be cool. Like you know, there's been

956
00:44:24,239 --> 00:44:26,000
Speaker 5: times were like y'all about to go for this job.

957
00:44:26,040 --> 00:44:28,279
Speaker 5: I'm like, you got this we claiming this shit, Like

958
00:44:28,360 --> 00:44:32,319
Speaker 5: I'm I don't know if people get upset with how

959
00:44:32,400 --> 00:44:36,120
Speaker 5: quickly you're able to still have love for them. It's

960
00:44:36,160 --> 00:44:38,839
Speaker 5: like people hate that. It's like, bitch, what you mean?

961
00:44:38,920 --> 00:44:41,680
Speaker 5: So fuck that? Now it's I don't lie. It's just

962
00:44:41,760 --> 00:44:46,479
Speaker 5: like I've never had smoke or beef with Eman, never, never,

963
00:44:46,680 --> 00:44:49,520
Speaker 5: Like the divorce would have never even been out if

964
00:44:49,600 --> 00:44:52,759
Speaker 5: he didn't foul the motion to use our full and

965
00:44:52,920 --> 00:44:56,160
Speaker 5: legal names. Remember we were separated for a whole year,

966
00:44:56,200 --> 00:44:58,000
Speaker 5: so the divorce was quiet for a whole year until

967
00:44:58,040 --> 00:45:00,759
Speaker 5: he did that, which he did that on Thanksgiving. You

968
00:45:00,800 --> 00:45:03,080
Speaker 5: feel what I'm saying. So it's like again the pattern

969
00:45:03,160 --> 00:45:06,120
Speaker 5: of just like it's too much and it's maniputive, and

970
00:45:06,120 --> 00:45:08,760
Speaker 5: it's not cool because you got me out here looking crazy,

971
00:45:08,840 --> 00:45:11,000
Speaker 5: like when I took you for everything, And now this

972
00:45:11,000 --> 00:45:12,879
Speaker 5: new thing is, oh she got caught up in the loss.

973
00:45:12,920 --> 00:45:15,279
Speaker 5: Now she pays seventy I'm not paying nobody. That was

974
00:45:15,320 --> 00:45:18,920
Speaker 5: all technicality. I did the live. The consequence is like,

975
00:45:19,040 --> 00:45:23,680
Speaker 5: clearly I'm aware of what can possibly happen, but I'm

976
00:45:23,680 --> 00:45:27,239
Speaker 5: gonna pay that to speak the truth. It's bigger than

977
00:45:27,280 --> 00:45:29,000
Speaker 5: just oh, speak my truth. I'm gonna pay that to

978
00:45:29,040 --> 00:45:31,960
Speaker 5: speak the truth. I want my peace and I want

979
00:45:31,960 --> 00:45:34,800
Speaker 5: to be left alone. And then hopefully after this is paid,

980
00:45:35,120 --> 00:45:37,480
Speaker 5: nothing else comes out. So my new movie come out,

981
00:45:37,560 --> 00:45:40,000
Speaker 5: my new Jordan come out. We won't have this problem again,

982
00:45:40,080 --> 00:45:42,279
Speaker 5: right because if we do, then we know exactly what's

983
00:45:42,280 --> 00:45:47,279
Speaker 5: going on after today. I'm never speaking on this again.

984
00:45:47,360 --> 00:45:49,319
Speaker 5: I don't care what rumor he put out. I don't

985
00:45:49,360 --> 00:45:52,400
Speaker 5: care what rumor anybody put out. I'm never speaking on

986
00:45:52,440 --> 00:45:55,160
Speaker 5: this again. So if I don't respond, consider me in

987
00:45:55,239 --> 00:45:59,600
Speaker 5: my Beyonce bag. Your silence is golden and I'm gonna

988
00:45:59,640 --> 00:46:01,240
Speaker 5: keep it. Put shit. But yeah, that was a heavy

989
00:46:01,239 --> 00:46:03,239
Speaker 5: one to take, especially within a lot of business that

990
00:46:03,239 --> 00:46:05,719
Speaker 5: I am. You know, these divorces are very ugly and

991
00:46:05,760 --> 00:46:07,760
Speaker 5: I don't want to be on set with no producer director.

992
00:46:07,800 --> 00:46:10,400
Speaker 5: That's like because my wife did this, dude, and no,

993
00:46:10,480 --> 00:46:11,800
Speaker 5: I don't want her in this role. I'm telling you

994
00:46:11,880 --> 00:46:12,919
Speaker 5: it's it's a dirty game.

995
00:46:13,360 --> 00:46:15,359
Speaker 4: If somebody considering you for a role, they'll be like,

996
00:46:15,920 --> 00:46:16,440
Speaker 4: what she did?

997
00:46:17,360 --> 00:46:19,600
Speaker 5: Bad headlines gonna come, not even just headlines if you

998
00:46:19,600 --> 00:46:22,239
Speaker 5: sign her on. Look and say, if a director wanted

999
00:46:22,280 --> 00:46:23,480
Speaker 5: me to do a movie and he went through a

1000
00:46:23,520 --> 00:46:27,000
Speaker 5: nasty divorce and he like his wife took everything. It's like, oh, nah,

1001
00:46:27,040 --> 00:46:29,520
Speaker 5: she one of those I can't want some man power

1002
00:46:29,560 --> 00:46:31,640
Speaker 5: ship and it's just like, now I'm getting punished with

1003
00:46:31,680 --> 00:46:34,239
Speaker 5: some ship that I didn't even do. So as a

1004
00:46:34,280 --> 00:46:36,800
Speaker 5: business woman, it's like, nah, I'm not I'm not rolling

1005
00:46:36,800 --> 00:46:39,040
Speaker 5: with that because seventy thousand dollars I can make that.

1006
00:46:39,239 --> 00:46:42,080
Speaker 5: I can make that back on the Instagram post. You

1007
00:46:42,080 --> 00:46:51,560
Speaker 5: feel what I'm saying. No, but I'm trying to. I'm

1008
00:46:51,600 --> 00:46:54,439
Speaker 5: just I'm just trying to find the smallest thing because

1009
00:46:54,480 --> 00:46:55,920
Speaker 5: I can't say I can get that in a brand

1010
00:46:55,920 --> 00:46:59,879
Speaker 5: deal because that's the way my brand deals is insane. Yeah,

1011
00:47:00,400 --> 00:47:03,880
Speaker 5: but it's insane. Would be evidence but one thing I

1012
00:47:03,880 --> 00:47:08,160
Speaker 5: want to But I mean that's literally like and that,

1013
00:47:08,520 --> 00:47:11,480
Speaker 5: like I said, Instagram, that's like a story post. You

1014
00:47:11,520 --> 00:47:13,440
Speaker 5: fee what I'm saying. So I'm like, yeah, I'm like,

1015
00:47:13,480 --> 00:47:16,120
Speaker 5: that's the best little money I ever spent. I like that.

1016
00:47:16,520 --> 00:47:19,320
Speaker 5: What is This is my my last question on that topic.

1017
00:47:19,440 --> 00:47:26,040
Speaker 5: How is cold parenting? I mean cold parenting it's a

1018
00:47:26,080 --> 00:47:30,239
Speaker 5: little tough because when things are going too good and

1019
00:47:30,400 --> 00:47:35,040
Speaker 5: then someone make that go real bad, and it's just

1020
00:47:35,480 --> 00:47:39,640
Speaker 5: like I said, it's like, I don't know why we

1021
00:47:39,719 --> 00:47:43,760
Speaker 5: don't want to be nice, like I don't want no smoke.

1022
00:47:44,080 --> 00:47:46,239
Speaker 5: You feel what I'm saying. So it's just like I mean,

1023
00:47:46,320 --> 00:47:50,000
Speaker 5: now I have it to where like it's literally just

1024
00:47:50,040 --> 00:47:53,279
Speaker 5: on a talking parent app. It controls your tone, it

1025
00:47:53,320 --> 00:47:59,000
Speaker 5: controls whatever it is. And honestly, at this point, if

1026
00:47:59,040 --> 00:48:00,560
Speaker 5: it hasn't, if it don't have anything to do with

1027
00:48:00,600 --> 00:48:03,080
Speaker 5: the kids, we don't have nothing to talk about. You

1028
00:48:03,120 --> 00:48:05,279
Speaker 5: feel what I'm saying. I always to you Mom, I'm like, yo,

1029
00:48:05,600 --> 00:48:07,799
Speaker 5: I'm doing Junior's birthday. I'm doing rouse birthday. Would you

1030
00:48:07,840 --> 00:48:10,720
Speaker 5: like to for us to do it together? But boom boom,

1031
00:48:10,719 --> 00:48:12,120
Speaker 5: and he'd be like, nah, I'm good. I don't want

1032
00:48:12,120 --> 00:48:15,600
Speaker 5: to be that's fine. Like I don't entertain the shots

1033
00:48:15,640 --> 00:48:17,560
Speaker 5: that are being thrown at me. I don't entertain, and

1034
00:48:17,640 --> 00:48:20,759
Speaker 5: that okay, cool, here's the invite, here's the acts. If

1035
00:48:20,800 --> 00:48:23,680
Speaker 5: you want to pop in cool, that's up to you.

1036
00:48:23,719 --> 00:48:25,320
Speaker 5: Whatever you want to do, you know what I'm saying,

1037
00:48:25,360 --> 00:48:29,759
Speaker 5: Like the baby girls got activities, sports, you be practices,

1038
00:48:30,800 --> 00:48:33,000
Speaker 5: you know, like I'm not. I'm not tripping. And even

1039
00:48:33,040 --> 00:48:37,520
Speaker 5: to this day, like if he was like, yo, tea,

1040
00:48:37,600 --> 00:48:40,239
Speaker 5: I want us to really stop being silly and like

1041
00:48:40,960 --> 00:48:44,319
Speaker 5: let's really try and like healthily co parent. I would

1042
00:48:44,360 --> 00:48:46,920
Speaker 5: absolutely be down. You know what I'm saying.

1043
00:48:47,440 --> 00:48:49,640
Speaker 4: Why I got a couple of questions, Why why are

1044
00:48:49,680 --> 00:48:51,960
Speaker 4: roles is so significant to your story? You got the

1045
00:48:52,000 --> 00:48:54,160
Speaker 4: song better roses? You got a Rolls tattoo on your neck?

1046
00:48:54,200 --> 00:48:54,640
Speaker 5: Like what about?

1047
00:48:54,719 --> 00:48:54,879
Speaker 4: Yeah?

1048
00:48:54,960 --> 00:48:57,440
Speaker 5: I mean I always say, you know them winds hit

1049
00:48:57,440 --> 00:48:59,560
Speaker 5: different when you rose out the concrete. You know, and

1050
00:48:59,719 --> 00:49:01,800
Speaker 5: be able to hear a rose rise of the concrete

1051
00:49:01,920 --> 00:49:05,120
Speaker 5: is amazing and just the thorns and everything it's been through.

1052
00:49:05,200 --> 00:49:07,040
Speaker 5: But I also feel like the thorns and the vines

1053
00:49:07,160 --> 00:49:10,640
Speaker 5: is your tribe and the love that you're surrounded by.

1054
00:49:10,800 --> 00:49:12,399
Speaker 5: You know what I'm saying, There's so much, so many

1055
00:49:12,440 --> 00:49:15,040
Speaker 5: moving parts. We see the rose and it's so beautiful,

1056
00:49:15,400 --> 00:49:17,960
Speaker 5: but then it's like, what's keeping this rose alive? It's

1057
00:49:17,960 --> 00:49:20,279
Speaker 5: the vines and you know, the thorns ready to grow

1058
00:49:20,320 --> 00:49:22,240
Speaker 5: out new ones. So it's like it's always been special

1059
00:49:22,280 --> 00:49:25,160
Speaker 5: to me, especially as I gotten older and really did

1060
00:49:25,239 --> 00:49:28,240
Speaker 5: my research because you know, an album number one, album seven.

1061
00:49:28,640 --> 00:49:31,440
Speaker 5: I used to hate roses because I wasn't mature enough.

1062
00:49:31,480 --> 00:49:33,520
Speaker 5: I didn't I didn't understand what it felt like to

1063
00:49:33,600 --> 00:49:36,839
Speaker 5: receive roses in a real way, you know, so like

1064
00:49:37,440 --> 00:49:40,239
Speaker 5: really receiving them and understanding them. It's like, oh my god,

1065
00:49:40,360 --> 00:49:42,560
Speaker 5: just named my daughter after the Rose. It was just like,

1066
00:49:42,719 --> 00:49:48,680
Speaker 5: you know, to become a woman and to blossom, you know,

1067
00:49:49,840 --> 00:49:52,799
Speaker 5: is what really made me like get into it really

1068
00:49:52,840 --> 00:49:54,080
Speaker 5: really heavy.

1069
00:49:54,200 --> 00:49:56,520
Speaker 6: I saw you say in an interview that what you

1070
00:49:56,560 --> 00:49:58,920
Speaker 6: were going through before you retire it felt like punishment,

1071
00:49:58,920 --> 00:49:59,840
Speaker 6: But now it feels.

1072
00:49:59,560 --> 00:50:02,200
Speaker 5: Like it was the by timing. It was preparation. Wasn't punishment.

1073
00:50:02,200 --> 00:50:06,040
Speaker 5: It was preparation for what was already written. Yeah, and

1074
00:50:06,120 --> 00:50:09,080
Speaker 5: even through that, like dealing dealing with retiring and all

1075
00:50:09,080 --> 00:50:11,560
Speaker 5: of those different things. I was dealing with a lot,

1076
00:50:11,680 --> 00:50:20,040
Speaker 5: you know, postpartum you know, but also think that circumstances too,

1077
00:50:20,120 --> 00:50:22,160
Speaker 5: because what got me out of retirement, you know what

1078
00:50:22,200 --> 00:50:23,719
Speaker 5: I'm saying. I came back on my own terms, and

1079
00:50:23,719 --> 00:50:26,200
Speaker 5: I came back happy, you know what I'm saying. So

1080
00:50:26,200 --> 00:50:27,640
Speaker 5: it's like, what if I was in a space where

1081
00:50:27,680 --> 00:50:30,200
Speaker 5: I was still stagnant in a certain space, I would

1082
00:50:30,239 --> 00:50:33,399
Speaker 5: probably still be retired right now. You feel what I'm saying, Like,

1083
00:50:33,640 --> 00:50:37,120
Speaker 5: because yeah, it's just that's just what it would be.

1084
00:50:37,560 --> 00:50:39,560
Speaker 4: You know what. This is why I love art because

1085
00:50:39,600 --> 00:50:41,000
Speaker 4: I don't feel like you'd be able to have this

1086
00:50:41,080 --> 00:50:46,000
Speaker 4: conversation without this album and without this short film album,

1087
00:50:46,320 --> 00:50:47,520
Speaker 4: to be able to come up here and have.

1088
00:50:47,480 --> 00:50:51,200
Speaker 5: This conversation, absolutely, And you know that's what it was

1089
00:50:51,239 --> 00:50:53,239
Speaker 5: for me, And that's why I kept telling Natina and

1090
00:50:53,239 --> 00:50:55,319
Speaker 5: the mother of that label too, I'm like, listen, because

1091
00:50:55,360 --> 00:50:56,919
Speaker 5: they begged for the album and I was like, listen,

1092
00:50:57,000 --> 00:50:58,160
Speaker 5: this album is a soundtrack.

1093
00:50:59,920 --> 00:51:01,319
Speaker 4: Is one of the only people up there that cares

1094
00:51:01,360 --> 00:51:01,640
Speaker 4: about it?

1095
00:51:01,719 --> 00:51:04,440
Speaker 5: Yeah, no, for sure, for sure, like she already know.

1096
00:51:04,560 --> 00:51:07,560
Speaker 5: I know that. So for me, it's just like it's

1097
00:51:07,640 --> 00:51:12,600
Speaker 5: more of a this album is the soundtrack, this visual,

1098
00:51:12,920 --> 00:51:16,279
Speaker 5: this this this cinema that was always gonna happen. And

1099
00:51:16,320 --> 00:51:18,520
Speaker 5: that's why I told them, like, I'm not willing to compromise.

1100
00:51:19,280 --> 00:51:22,760
Speaker 5: You know, my narrations or my indus is my story.

1101
00:51:23,480 --> 00:51:27,640
Speaker 5: This is like a fucking audio album, audio book, whatever

1102
00:51:27,640 --> 00:51:29,680
Speaker 5: you want to call it. You never thought about or

1103
00:51:29,760 --> 00:51:32,000
Speaker 5: have you and you probably have thought about doing that

1104
00:51:32,080 --> 00:51:34,960
Speaker 5: on Broadway. It's so you know, it's crazy. I almost

1105
00:51:35,000 --> 00:51:37,319
Speaker 5: I almost made a post today, but I'm like, let me,

1106
00:51:37,640 --> 00:51:40,640
Speaker 5: let me find the right things to do that. But

1107
00:51:40,800 --> 00:51:43,360
Speaker 5: you know, I also said a minute ago that my

1108
00:51:43,640 --> 00:51:47,359
Speaker 5: dream was to turn my concerts into Broadway plays where

1109
00:51:47,360 --> 00:51:50,000
Speaker 5: I wanted my dancers mic, I wanted my my band

1110
00:51:50,040 --> 00:51:51,879
Speaker 5: MIC like I wanted everybody MIC and turned it into

1111
00:51:51,880 --> 00:51:53,879
Speaker 5: a thing, which is the reason why we did this,

1112
00:51:53,920 --> 00:51:55,960
Speaker 5: because I'm like, I see the bigger things for this.

1113
00:51:56,440 --> 00:51:58,400
Speaker 4: You know, got a lion king.

1114
00:52:00,080 --> 00:52:08,000
Speaker 5: It. But I'm proud of you're doing good. He's trying,

1115
00:52:08,080 --> 00:52:15,160
Speaker 5: He's he's really trying. He's trying. I say, I said,

1116
00:52:15,239 --> 00:52:19,400
Speaker 5: don't bring up the line, king, Can we play some

1117
00:52:19,480 --> 00:52:22,880
Speaker 5: music please? No? But no, this Broadway thing is a

1118
00:52:22,920 --> 00:52:25,120
Speaker 5: real thing. Because I'm actually happy that I didn't post

1119
00:52:25,160 --> 00:52:26,560
Speaker 5: it on my story because I feel like this is

1120
00:52:26,560 --> 00:52:28,719
Speaker 5: way better to actually talk about it. But yeah, I

1121
00:52:28,760 --> 00:52:31,720
Speaker 5: definitely want to turn it into a Broadway play and

1122
00:52:31,840 --> 00:52:34,680
Speaker 5: you know, even eventually like a real like long form

1123
00:52:35,040 --> 00:52:37,640
Speaker 5: movie or like a show, because I love that it's like,

1124
00:52:37,680 --> 00:52:39,880
Speaker 5: you know, post apocalyptic and you know, it has like

1125
00:52:39,920 --> 00:52:42,160
Speaker 5: a little theme to it. So I'm interested to see

1126
00:52:42,480 --> 00:52:45,720
Speaker 5: the character of fire Girl, the character of Gray lea greathouse.

1127
00:52:45,760 --> 00:52:49,000
Speaker 5: Like you notice, I've created these characters that are unforgettable

1128
00:52:49,360 --> 00:52:51,440
Speaker 5: even for when I go on tour. I'm gonna line

1129
00:52:51,480 --> 00:52:53,759
Speaker 5: it up kind of like a Broadway where I'm going

1130
00:52:53,840 --> 00:52:56,799
Speaker 5: to perform the album in order you feel what I'm saying.

1131
00:52:56,840 --> 00:52:59,320
Speaker 5: So it's gonna be it's gonna be sick. You're in Chicago.

1132
00:52:59,480 --> 00:53:03,440
Speaker 5: He had done you know period but look and uh

1133
00:53:03,560 --> 00:53:07,520
Speaker 5: and the the your movie right was were you in Harlem?

1134
00:53:07,600 --> 00:53:09,520
Speaker 5: When you were in the ray and you were on fire?

1135
00:53:10,160 --> 00:53:13,120
Speaker 5: You was the had No, that was actually act. Was

1136
00:53:13,120 --> 00:53:16,200
Speaker 5: that Warner Warner Brothers. Yeah, it was a lot, but

1137
00:53:16,239 --> 00:53:18,319
Speaker 5: it was Warner Brothers of Universe. It was Warner brother

1138
00:53:18,360 --> 00:53:20,160
Speaker 5: I think it was Warner Brothers. He was he was

1139
00:53:20,160 --> 00:53:21,840
Speaker 5: on a live So it wasn't supposed to be like

1140
00:53:21,920 --> 00:53:24,600
Speaker 5: set in like Harlem bas like where you're from. It

1141
00:53:24,640 --> 00:53:26,480
Speaker 5: was just no, it was just yeah, it was just

1142
00:53:26,520 --> 00:53:29,640
Speaker 5: a set because we had to do everything in la

1143
00:53:29,960 --> 00:53:32,280
Speaker 5: and that was that was you know, where a majority

1144
00:53:32,320 --> 00:53:34,080
Speaker 5: and my budget went. I'm like, I'd rather give the

1145
00:53:34,080 --> 00:53:36,160
Speaker 5: world a movie than be trying to do you know,

1146
00:53:36,719 --> 00:53:40,000
Speaker 5: everything else. And it's really made people taking the album

1147
00:53:40,040 --> 00:53:42,680
Speaker 5: completely different. Like I'm seeing videos on TikTok like women

1148
00:53:42,920 --> 00:53:46,239
Speaker 5: just crying and just thinking me and all like all

1149
00:53:46,280 --> 00:53:49,240
Speaker 5: types of stuff. You know, that just feels amazing because

1150
00:53:49,239 --> 00:53:50,960
Speaker 5: this is the most love I've gotten the music and

1151
00:53:51,760 --> 00:53:53,520
Speaker 5: a lot out of all my projects, which.

1152
00:53:53,360 --> 00:53:57,120
Speaker 4: You know every time though, you know what's crazy.

1153
00:53:56,840 --> 00:53:59,440
Speaker 5: Because as many plaque as I got, it's so funny

1154
00:53:59,440 --> 00:54:03,279
Speaker 5: how like still how like people still underappreciate thought like

1155
00:54:03,280 --> 00:54:05,960
Speaker 5: they're appreciating it now, but you know, people never really

1156
00:54:06,040 --> 00:54:08,120
Speaker 5: used to give me a chance when I dropped music,

1157
00:54:08,360 --> 00:54:11,880
Speaker 5: got it for a time, like all of this that

1158
00:54:11,880 --> 00:54:13,840
Speaker 5: you're doing right now, this has always been what you

1159
00:54:13,880 --> 00:54:16,359
Speaker 5: use storytell. But now people I don't know why now

1160
00:54:16,360 --> 00:54:18,920
Speaker 5: people are paying more attention. Maybe because you know everything's

1161
00:54:18,920 --> 00:54:21,160
Speaker 5: out there. I think no, but don't even think because

1162
00:54:21,160 --> 00:54:23,280
Speaker 5: of the bullshit. I think people's paying more attention because

1163
00:54:23,600 --> 00:54:26,040
Speaker 5: taking that step back and helping everybody else was like,

1164
00:54:26,600 --> 00:54:28,360
Speaker 5: all we got to see what she would do for herself.

1165
00:54:28,840 --> 00:54:30,600
Speaker 5: She's doing this for Tom Dick and Harry Bingch. What's

1166
00:54:30,640 --> 00:54:33,359
Speaker 5: she doing for herself? And yeah, I think I have

1167
00:54:34,760 --> 00:54:37,600
Speaker 5: This is the most vulnerable work. You feel what I'm saying,

1168
00:54:37,760 --> 00:54:42,160
Speaker 5: and it's it's very prideless and ego lists. You feel

1169
00:54:42,200 --> 00:54:44,279
Speaker 5: what I'm saying again to be able to share that

1170
00:54:44,320 --> 00:54:48,920
Speaker 5: and be so vulnerable. But again it's the creativity too,

1171
00:54:49,440 --> 00:54:51,200
Speaker 5: and how you speak it because even once you listen

1172
00:54:51,239 --> 00:54:53,960
Speaker 5: to the album. You see I'm still opening up dialogue

1173
00:54:54,000 --> 00:54:56,680
Speaker 5: to create a safe space for men in general, Like

1174
00:54:56,760 --> 00:54:59,120
Speaker 5: this could be the safest space. You just got to

1175
00:54:59,200 --> 00:55:03,319
Speaker 5: be yo, like, fuck your pride, fuck you, Like, it's

1176
00:55:03,360 --> 00:55:06,319
Speaker 5: not about pointing fingers. In the beginning, you just hear

1177
00:55:06,400 --> 00:55:07,200
Speaker 5: women that's tired.

1178
00:55:07,320 --> 00:55:09,600
Speaker 6: No, it's one somewhere She's literally like, maybe you deserve this,

1179
00:55:09,719 --> 00:55:10,160
Speaker 6: you need this.

1180
00:55:10,480 --> 00:55:11,600
Speaker 5: I'm destination. Yeah.

1181
00:55:11,920 --> 00:55:14,520
Speaker 4: But once the poom poom jumping on once another man

1182
00:55:14,560 --> 00:55:16,520
Speaker 4: making the poom poom jump, I don't know if I'm

1183
00:55:16,719 --> 00:55:18,920
Speaker 4: be able to still be fighting for anything.

1184
00:55:19,600 --> 00:55:21,879
Speaker 5: No, no, but poom poom jump was poom poom jump

1185
00:55:21,920 --> 00:55:24,040
Speaker 5: was later on. At this point. By the time we

1186
00:55:24,040 --> 00:55:27,200
Speaker 5: get the poom poom jump, I was already like another chapter.

1187
00:55:27,280 --> 00:55:28,360
Speaker 5: I was in a whole nother Yeah, I was in

1188
00:55:28,360 --> 00:55:30,799
Speaker 5: a whole another chapter. We had left that once she said,

1189
00:55:31,600 --> 00:55:34,399
Speaker 5: fuck is wrong with you? Yeah, that's when you knew

1190
00:55:34,520 --> 00:55:37,040
Speaker 5: it was done. It was nothing. The hard part was

1191
00:55:37,080 --> 00:55:37,839
Speaker 5: over with at that point.

1192
00:55:37,920 --> 00:55:40,560
Speaker 4: Let me about the movie. Right. In the movie, you're

1193
00:55:40,600 --> 00:55:42,600
Speaker 4: you're kind of pleading to be loved back to life,

1194
00:55:42,680 --> 00:55:44,680
Speaker 4: right and wishing your partner didn't give up on you.

1195
00:55:44,719 --> 00:55:47,640
Speaker 4: So is that about your marriaginized that about the new

1196
00:55:47,680 --> 00:55:49,319
Speaker 4: book because the new Boom might be like, look, man,

1197
00:55:50,320 --> 00:55:52,200
Speaker 4: you got to get over that and then I'll be

1198
00:55:52,440 --> 00:55:53,399
Speaker 4: I'll be here for you.

1199
00:55:53,680 --> 00:55:56,200
Speaker 5: So in the movie it shows me. So you see,

1200
00:55:56,239 --> 00:55:59,680
Speaker 5: after a long time, I I've I've run for so

1201
00:55:59,800 --> 00:56:03,279
Speaker 5: long to where I've jumped to my death mentally and emotionally.

1202
00:56:03,640 --> 00:56:05,319
Speaker 5: And as you see I land in a red dress,

1203
00:56:05,320 --> 00:56:08,919
Speaker 5: which was supposed to be in that blood, you feel

1204
00:56:10,800 --> 00:56:15,360
Speaker 5: that little red swirl was like you know in a

1205
00:56:15,480 --> 00:56:18,480
Speaker 5: verse you see I say, where a bo fighting yo demon?

1206
00:56:18,960 --> 00:56:21,239
Speaker 5: It's too many dark days, no peace up in here.

1207
00:56:21,400 --> 00:56:24,680
Speaker 5: That wasn't about the new situation. That was like you

1208
00:56:24,760 --> 00:56:27,319
Speaker 5: said that you would love me into but I guess

1209
00:56:27,360 --> 00:56:29,520
Speaker 5: love must just be a lit Why didn't you love

1210
00:56:29,560 --> 00:56:32,640
Speaker 5: me back to life? I was dying, nigga, You said

1211
00:56:32,640 --> 00:56:34,360
Speaker 5: that you dieing me, but you won't even fight. That

1212
00:56:34,400 --> 00:56:35,800
Speaker 5: had nothing to do with the new nigga.

1213
00:56:36,600 --> 00:56:38,120
Speaker 4: He's the one that's loving you back to life in

1214
00:56:38,120 --> 00:56:38,479
Speaker 4: the movie.

1215
00:56:38,520 --> 00:56:41,920
Speaker 5: Basically, Yeah, but him loving me back to life, that

1216
00:56:41,920 --> 00:56:46,120
Speaker 5: that hook wasn't toward him. You know what I'm saying.

1217
00:56:46,320 --> 00:56:48,160
Speaker 5: This is him. I'm a crime scene right now. This

1218
00:56:48,239 --> 00:56:50,879
Speaker 5: is him picking me up from the crime scene. That's

1219
00:56:50,880 --> 00:56:53,360
Speaker 5: what takes me on to new dig memories is what

1220
00:56:53,400 --> 00:56:55,160
Speaker 5: I need. So it could also be.

1221
00:56:57,719 --> 00:56:58,799
Speaker 2: Whole morning gag, but it.

1222
00:56:58,840 --> 00:57:01,160
Speaker 5: Is also like again like I said, everything's a double

1223
00:57:01,200 --> 00:57:03,440
Speaker 5: on tan. Yeah, so the parts of it, because I've

1224
00:57:03,719 --> 00:57:06,520
Speaker 5: listened to songs where I'm like, this part resonates so well,

1225
00:57:06,560 --> 00:57:08,239
Speaker 5: but then his next part is a little shady. I

1226
00:57:08,239 --> 00:57:09,480
Speaker 5: don't want you to see that part. I want you to

1227
00:57:09,440 --> 00:57:11,560
Speaker 5: see this part. So saying love me back to life

1228
00:57:11,560 --> 00:57:16,200
Speaker 5: could absolutely apply to him, but the other parts don't

1229
00:57:16,200 --> 00:57:17,840
Speaker 5: apply to him.

1230
00:57:17,680 --> 00:57:20,200
Speaker 6: Because after that, like even in their EASA's second skit,

1231
00:57:20,280 --> 00:57:22,120
Speaker 6: you turn into like a little kid in the candy

1232
00:57:22,120 --> 00:57:25,320
Speaker 6: store again, like she's like, let's just get on, and

1233
00:57:25,360 --> 00:57:28,720
Speaker 6: then you put you at Mona on one of the songs,

1234
00:57:29,920 --> 00:57:31,840
Speaker 6: so now you're not running from I think I might

1235
00:57:31,920 --> 00:57:34,080
Speaker 6: be in love in this because now it's kind of

1236
00:57:34,120 --> 00:57:36,680
Speaker 6: like we're both in this in this space where it's

1237
00:57:36,680 --> 00:57:39,360
Speaker 6: like it wasn't on our being go cards, it wasn't.

1238
00:57:39,200 --> 00:57:41,800
Speaker 5: Supposed to to be this. I mean, the energy was

1239
00:57:41,840 --> 00:57:45,240
Speaker 5: always there, but when you are fresh out of something

1240
00:57:45,280 --> 00:57:47,400
Speaker 5: and you are in that space, you're not thinking about

1241
00:57:47,440 --> 00:57:51,520
Speaker 5: like jumping to the next person. You know what I'm saying. However, again,

1242
00:57:51,680 --> 00:57:54,400
Speaker 5: you know, like Kerry Washington said, like two souls still

1243
00:57:54,440 --> 00:57:56,880
Speaker 5: learning how to love without armor. You know what I'm saying.

1244
00:57:56,920 --> 00:57:59,400
Speaker 5: It's just like we're just gonna go for it and

1245
00:57:59,600 --> 00:58:01,200
Speaker 5: figure it out as we go, and it's all about

1246
00:58:01,200 --> 00:58:04,520
Speaker 5: feeling safe. And once you out of survival mode, that

1247
00:58:04,560 --> 00:58:07,800
Speaker 5: shit just hit different. It's like, I'm big on my

1248
00:58:07,920 --> 00:58:09,880
Speaker 5: mind being occupied, which is the reason why I was

1249
00:58:09,920 --> 00:58:12,200
Speaker 5: able to stay afloat within the industry because it's like, Okay, cool,

1250
00:58:12,280 --> 00:58:14,520
Speaker 5: I'm not gonna be singing. I could be doing this.

1251
00:58:14,680 --> 00:58:17,120
Speaker 5: I do everything. I do everything, and that's how I

1252
00:58:17,120 --> 00:58:20,840
Speaker 5: am in love too. So I'm if I'm occupied mentally,

1253
00:58:21,120 --> 00:58:24,120
Speaker 5: emotionally and I feel safe, I instantly melt into your arm.

1254
00:58:24,120 --> 00:58:26,160
Speaker 5: So that's what I've been yearning for. When you're yearning

1255
00:58:26,160 --> 00:58:28,640
Speaker 5: for something, you're never gonna be guarded because you're yearning

1256
00:58:29,400 --> 00:58:31,800
Speaker 5: for that safety, especially because I haven't had it with

1257
00:58:31,840 --> 00:58:33,400
Speaker 5: it even within the industry like that.

1258
00:58:33,680 --> 00:58:35,680
Speaker 4: So who told you that fly ship when they was

1259
00:58:35,720 --> 00:58:38,800
Speaker 4: like you said, you feel safe with Aaron because he

1260
00:58:38,880 --> 00:58:42,800
Speaker 4: handles you with gentle care and you use the whole water.

1261
00:58:44,920 --> 00:58:49,680
Speaker 5: That was all me. I ain't gonna front. I'll be

1262
00:58:49,680 --> 00:58:52,680
Speaker 5: having bars. I was. I was talking to I was

1263
00:58:52,680 --> 00:58:54,000
Speaker 5: talking to Joe, and I was like, Yo, we gotta

1264
00:58:54,000 --> 00:58:56,560
Speaker 5: wear the same colored jersey. Whoever. He's like, who gave you?

1265
00:58:56,560 --> 00:58:59,520
Speaker 5: That's like, nah, chill, I'll be really I'll be spitting,

1266
00:59:00,240 --> 00:59:02,800
Speaker 5: spitt it. I'd be, I really be spitting. And I

1267
00:59:02,800 --> 00:59:05,760
Speaker 5: think that that's why I am a great lover because

1268
00:59:05,760 --> 00:59:09,760
Speaker 5: I understand what it needs to be. I understand that

1269
00:59:09,840 --> 00:59:12,000
Speaker 5: we're not opponent. To understand that we were the same

1270
00:59:12,040 --> 00:59:14,640
Speaker 5: color jersey. I understand that you don't have to talk

1271
00:59:14,680 --> 00:59:16,400
Speaker 5: at me, you can just talk to me. I'm all

1272
00:59:16,440 --> 00:59:18,920
Speaker 5: big on how you handle me. That's really big for

1273
00:59:18,960 --> 00:59:20,240
Speaker 5: me because that's where I do it for like I

1274
00:59:20,320 --> 00:59:22,360
Speaker 5: become a baby, you know. And it's kind of just

1275
00:59:22,400 --> 00:59:24,800
Speaker 5: like if I know we on the same team, then

1276
00:59:24,800 --> 00:59:27,480
Speaker 5: there's nothing. It's nothing to argue, it's nothing to combat,

1277
00:59:27,560 --> 00:59:29,760
Speaker 5: it's nothing to I don't have to talk to you,

1278
00:59:29,800 --> 00:59:32,320
Speaker 5: crazy would I'm too much of an impact to be like,

1279
00:59:32,600 --> 00:59:34,320
Speaker 5: oh he was so sweet, and I just decided to

1280
00:59:34,360 --> 00:59:36,160
Speaker 5: just still turn up and curse the nigga out. Like

1281
00:59:36,600 --> 00:59:41,320
Speaker 5: if I'm screaming, yelling and hollering, it's well deserved, Like Nigga,

1282
00:59:41,360 --> 00:59:42,880
Speaker 5: you don't push me to that point to do that.

1283
00:59:43,040 --> 00:59:45,760
Speaker 5: I don't have to do that in this situation because

1284
00:59:45,800 --> 00:59:47,640
Speaker 5: I feel so safe, and I think safety is what

1285
00:59:47,760 --> 00:59:51,360
Speaker 5: I've been yearning more than anything. And I'm not seeking perfection.

1286
00:59:52,640 --> 00:59:55,720
Speaker 5: I'm not seeking perfect because that would be conditional, you know,

1287
00:59:55,800 --> 01:00:00,440
Speaker 5: and I'm an unconditional lover. I seek just under standing

1288
01:00:00,440 --> 01:00:02,320
Speaker 5: at we wear the same color jersey and that we're

1289
01:00:02,360 --> 01:00:04,720
Speaker 5: on the same team, you know.

1290
01:00:07,560 --> 01:00:10,640
Speaker 4: And the only thing I've always said this about you,

1291
01:00:10,720 --> 01:00:12,520
Speaker 4: people have you haven't even I still don't think you

1292
01:00:12,560 --> 01:00:14,880
Speaker 4: scratched the surface. Like I think that one day we're

1293
01:00:14,880 --> 01:00:17,280
Speaker 4: gonna look up and be like, God, Damniana just directed

1294
01:00:17,280 --> 01:00:20,600
Speaker 4: that movie that made three hundred million dollars, Like I

1295
01:00:20,760 --> 01:00:23,240
Speaker 4: really see that for you, Like you are a visionary

1296
01:00:23,560 --> 01:00:24,920
Speaker 4: and a whole lot of different ways.

1297
01:00:25,880 --> 01:00:29,600
Speaker 5: Just keep going so much, make things uh work that

1298
01:00:30,680 --> 01:00:32,360
Speaker 5: I never thought could work, because I never thought I

1299
01:00:32,360 --> 01:00:35,760
Speaker 5: would hear Tyler on the song with Jill Scott never.

1300
01:00:35,880 --> 01:00:37,440
Speaker 5: I never thought before.

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01:00:37,280 --> 01:00:41,000
Speaker 4: Less I was just talking. Yeah, but like.

1302
01:00:42,520 --> 01:00:45,280
Speaker 5: I hear talking right When when you hear the song

1303
01:00:45,280 --> 01:00:48,560
Speaker 5: about Tyler, you think like upbeat, the three little ass pumps,

1304
01:00:48,560 --> 01:00:51,480
Speaker 5: boom bom bom, and it was like it was a

1305
01:00:51,560 --> 01:00:56,280
Speaker 5: vibe that's not I could smoke a blunt and let

1306
01:00:56,360 --> 01:00:59,640
Speaker 5: him say this, but I think that that's like the

1307
01:00:59,680 --> 01:01:01,840
Speaker 5: direct me. You know what I'm saying, Like I could

1308
01:01:01,920 --> 01:01:04,320
Speaker 5: see the aesthetic of something to understand and the two

1309
01:01:04,400 --> 01:01:07,880
Speaker 5: voices together, you feel what I'm saying, understanding where Jill coming,

1310
01:01:08,000 --> 01:01:10,520
Speaker 5: Like I had the whole vision. This is what I need.

1311
01:01:10,840 --> 01:01:12,480
Speaker 5: This is what I said, Jill, I need you, I

1312
01:01:12,520 --> 01:01:15,240
Speaker 5: need you to talk that breakfast lunch dinner ship that

1313
01:01:15,360 --> 01:01:18,640
Speaker 5: she came with her her spoken word killed that. You

1314
01:01:18,640 --> 01:01:21,080
Speaker 5: know what I'm saying, Like she she wrote to herself,

1315
01:01:21,440 --> 01:01:23,000
Speaker 5: I just gave her guidance or what I wanted it

1316
01:01:23,000 --> 01:01:25,680
Speaker 5: to be talked about. I'm like, girl, I wanted breakfast

1317
01:01:25,760 --> 01:01:28,640
Speaker 5: lunch that I need and Jill just came and bited it.

1318
01:01:28,720 --> 01:01:30,280
Speaker 5: You know what I'm saying. He raised another one. I

1319
01:01:30,400 --> 01:01:32,480
Speaker 5: just like you could tell which one was like freestyle.

1320
01:01:34,920 --> 01:01:37,200
Speaker 5: So like the big ones are the ones like the

1321
01:01:37,360 --> 01:01:40,160
Speaker 5: actual like monologues are the ones that me and Coco wrote,

1322
01:01:40,320 --> 01:01:42,960
Speaker 5: but like Easa Tasha like the more freestyle ones was

1323
01:01:43,000 --> 01:01:45,000
Speaker 5: more so the ones of like me just giving them

1324
01:01:45,000 --> 01:01:48,280
Speaker 5: guidance and saying, hey, like this could this could be

1325
01:01:48,280 --> 01:01:51,160
Speaker 5: a safe space like that. Those took conversation.

1326
01:01:51,720 --> 01:02:00,120
Speaker 4: You feel what I'm saying, Smith whispering, Hell, nobody know.

1327
01:02:00,160 --> 01:02:06,320
Speaker 5: We're talking about the beach yafinite way to get over

1328
01:02:06,400 --> 01:02:09,120
Speaker 5: one niggas to get another one. Yeah, she definitely was.

1329
01:02:09,320 --> 01:02:11,680
Speaker 5: That was the soft as I heard her talk. But

1330
01:02:11,760 --> 01:02:13,960
Speaker 5: it's just like those other ones were important. And it's

1331
01:02:13,960 --> 01:02:16,760
Speaker 5: crazy because it was very intentional too. When I wrote

1332
01:02:16,760 --> 01:02:19,960
Speaker 5: that last poem for Regina, I knew that it was

1333
01:02:20,000 --> 01:02:22,320
Speaker 5: for Regina, You feel what I'm saying. When I wrote

1334
01:02:22,320 --> 01:02:24,880
Speaker 5: the one for Carrie, I knew that was for Carrie.

1335
01:02:25,120 --> 01:02:27,320
Speaker 5: Sarah Polson, I knew that was for Sarah Polsting like

1336
01:02:27,400 --> 01:02:29,880
Speaker 5: I knew what I wanted it to be like this,

1337
01:02:29,880 --> 01:02:33,919
Speaker 5: This tour is going to be so crazy. It's gonna

1338
01:02:33,960 --> 01:02:37,840
Speaker 5: be so crazy. Yeah, so I'm excited maybe my voice

1339
01:02:37,880 --> 01:02:39,840
Speaker 5: to make it on to the next album I got

1340
01:02:39,880 --> 01:02:45,880
Speaker 5: you. You know I'm doing a deluxe. It's getting crazy. You said,

1341
01:02:45,960 --> 01:02:47,400
Speaker 5: you know we woke got deep voices.

1342
01:02:47,480 --> 01:02:47,680
Speaker 2: I know.

1343
01:02:47,720 --> 01:02:51,040
Speaker 5: I like, yeah, I don't be talking No, I think

1344
01:02:51,080 --> 01:03:01,600
Speaker 5: I think just gonna be like, yo, did I make

1345
01:03:01,640 --> 01:03:04,040
Speaker 5: this poom poom jump The.

1346
01:03:04,120 --> 01:03:07,280
Speaker 4: Jumping what you want to.

1347
01:03:08,600 --> 01:03:10,680
Speaker 5: Well, since we keep talking about poop Pom jumps and

1348
01:03:10,720 --> 01:03:16,880
Speaker 5: we go to Poop Hard Part, caoth that that that

1349
01:03:17,040 --> 01:03:19,480
Speaker 5: album Hard Part with her and Lucky Day that reminds

1350
01:03:19,520 --> 01:03:22,200
Speaker 5: me of like a Brandy like something like the Little

1351
01:03:22,280 --> 01:03:24,240
Speaker 5: Runs with the It just gives me a bag in

1352
01:03:24,280 --> 01:03:27,320
Speaker 5: the day, Brandy. Feel like that's so fired to me.

1353
01:03:27,560 --> 01:03:31,840
Speaker 2: Let's get into it. Yeah, we appreciate you for joining us. Taylor,

1354
01:03:31,920 --> 01:03:32,520
Speaker 2: thank you so much.

1355
01:03:37,040 --> 01:03:38,680
Speaker 3: I wouldn't even fainy tithing because I feel like she's

1356
01:03:38,720 --> 01:03:46,040
Speaker 3: doing sound like they'll thank you. Album is out right now,

1357
01:03:46,200 --> 01:03:47,800
Speaker 3: Escape Room. Make sure you get it, make sure you

1358
01:03:47,840 --> 01:03:48,800
Speaker 3: download it, makes sure you.

1359
01:03:48,720 --> 01:03:53,080
Speaker 5: Streaming on YouTube and Amazon Prime already.

1360
01:03:53,240 --> 01:03:54,200
Speaker 2: It's The Breakfast Club.

1361
01:03:54,240 --> 01:03:59,840
Speaker 1: Good Morning, every day. Click up The Breakfast Club.

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Speaker 4: Do You're finisher yachdun