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<v Speaker 1>Tanya Ready, Ready, Baca ready, I'm ready Easton Ready Ready,

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<v Speaker 1>Hanah Ready. Here we go.

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<v Speaker 2>Scrubbing In with Becca Tilly and Tanya rad An iHeartRadio podcast.

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<v Speaker 2>Hello everybody, we are scrubbing in, scrubbing in.

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<v Speaker 3>Can you hear me?

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<v Speaker 4>Yes, I've been having some issues with my sounds, but

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<v Speaker 4>I'm back to normal.

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<v Speaker 3>Good.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, happy to hear it. How you doing, I'm doing okay.

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<v Speaker 4>How are you doing?

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<v Speaker 3>I'm doing okay as well.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 3>Why are we both just okay? Should we get into that?

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<v Speaker 4>I'd like to get into why you're just okay?

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<v Speaker 2>Well, I am just okay because I don't know. I've

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<v Speaker 2>just had I've been having a couple of hard weeks.

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<v Speaker 2>I think that I I mean, I I had a

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<v Speaker 2>hard I have a.

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<v Speaker 3>Hard time when Haley's gone.

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<v Speaker 2>But I think that there's deeper rooted stuff that I'm

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<v Speaker 2>like navigating, and her being.

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<v Speaker 3>Gone just like.

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<v Speaker 2>Exacerbates it makes it. I don't think exactly is.

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<v Speaker 3>That right to create?

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<v Speaker 2>Thank you?

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<v Speaker 5>Thank you?

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<v Speaker 2>It magnifies that those feelings of like what I'm navigating,

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<v Speaker 2>and it's like deeper stuff that I'm like navigating with

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<v Speaker 2>my therapist. But I think the main part is that

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<v Speaker 2>there's a part of me and I don't know. Maybe

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<v Speaker 2>you guys can help me if y'all have experienced this,

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<v Speaker 2>since you're both married and in long term relationships. I

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<v Speaker 2>feel like there's a part of me that started that.

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<v Speaker 2>My whole life, I have been so independent, like I

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<v Speaker 2>have been so okay on my own. I loved being

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<v Speaker 2>home alone. I longed for a long distance relationship because

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<v Speaker 2>I liked my space.

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<v Speaker 4>Right, that was the most shocking of everything.

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<v Speaker 2>Right, So I think somewhere along the way being a

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<v Speaker 2>relationship and falling in love for the first time, I

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<v Speaker 2>feel like I've lost a little bit of like myself

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<v Speaker 2>and my independence and like and so then when Haley's here,

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<v Speaker 2>it's great because I have that comfort of my person

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<v Speaker 2>being here. But when she leaves what she with her

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<v Speaker 2>job that's common, I feel very almost.

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<v Speaker 3>Like what do I do without her? Or like what

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<v Speaker 3>do I do with my time?

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<v Speaker 2>Or like what do I you know, Like I almost

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<v Speaker 2>am like, wait, what do I love to do by myself?

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<v Speaker 2>And like why why did I lose that sense of

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<v Speaker 2>like independence? And as it's nothing that she did or

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<v Speaker 2>anything to do with her, it's more like me, like

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<v Speaker 2>where or why did that happen. So I was curious,

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<v Speaker 2>as y'all have, if you ever felt that feeling of

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<v Speaker 2>like dependence or codependency or what or no.

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<v Speaker 1>Yes, I have, And I do fight that, and I

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<v Speaker 1>do find that when my wife is out of town

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<v Speaker 1>with the kids, so I'm home alone, and that's happened

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<v Speaker 1>more lately because of dance and colleges and all kinds

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<v Speaker 1>of crazy stuff. So when I'm home alone for a weekend,

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<v Speaker 1>I feel like I'm house sitting. Like I don't feel

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<v Speaker 1>like I'm in my own home. I feel like I'm

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<v Speaker 1>I'm just you know, I got to keep things in order,

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<v Speaker 1>keep things clean. I'm like, oh, there's nobody here and

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<v Speaker 1>it's just me, and it feels like I'm in somebody

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<v Speaker 1>else's house. Yeah, And when they're there, it feels like home,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, And so they're gone and so it feels weird.

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<v Speaker 1>But I do fight that, and I do get into

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<v Speaker 1>the stuff that I enjoy, uh huh, like watching baseball

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<v Speaker 1>or you know, I go on long hikes and stuff like.

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<v Speaker 3>That, like things that you want to do when they're

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<v Speaker 3>normally there.

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<v Speaker 4>But I think becca yours is unique in the fact that, like, yes,

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<v Speaker 4>people leave for like a few days or a week, right,

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<v Speaker 4>it's not You're not having to fill months of your time, right, yeah,

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<v Speaker 4>weeks and weeks, you know, Like I think in normal relationship,

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<v Speaker 4>well I would say normal in typical relationships, somebody leaves

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<v Speaker 4>for maybe a few days, even a.

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<v Speaker 3>Week, even a week.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, but you're what you're going through I think is

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<v Speaker 4>unique to you because of the circumstance.

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<v Speaker 2>It's a very unique situation. But yeah, do you have

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<v Speaker 2>do you feel that when you're not with Alison?

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<v Speaker 5>Like I am without Alison very infrequently. She comes with

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<v Speaker 5>me on work trips.

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<v Speaker 3>It's true.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, it's great. Yeah, and I love it so, but

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<v Speaker 5>I also I like being alone and I get and

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<v Speaker 5>I get a lot of that time.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 5>Still, you know, like so, I don't know, I'm just

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<v Speaker 5>thinking in your situation, it seems like you just swung

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<v Speaker 5>the other the pendulum just went the other way, right.

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<v Speaker 2>Right, Yeah, I don't know.

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<v Speaker 5>Is it like a defense mechanism thing, like you're you know,

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<v Speaker 5>now that you have this thing, you're afraid of losing it,

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<v Speaker 5>even though you were fine without it before.

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<v Speaker 3>That's what That's what.

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<v Speaker 2>That's also what I've been thinking about, is like so

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<v Speaker 2>before we before I met Hayley, and then when we met,

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<v Speaker 2>she was on tour, so like that was all we

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<v Speaker 2>knew for a little bit. And then I feel like

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<v Speaker 2>with the pandemic and like all these things happening in between,

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<v Speaker 2>like the time we met and now there was time

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<v Speaker 2>where we were like always together and we got used

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<v Speaker 2>to being together. And then I also think there is

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<v Speaker 2>something to the fear of like, Okay, I see my future,

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<v Speaker 2>Like I officially feel like I'm I finally let myself

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<v Speaker 2>feel like Okay, I see my future with this person,

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<v Speaker 2>and the fear of losing that almost feels heavier.

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<v Speaker 3>So it feels like, oh, I need to like protect myself,

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<v Speaker 3>you know.

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<v Speaker 2>But anyways, it feels like there's a sense of like

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<v Speaker 2>independence lost and like me needing to find because obviously

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<v Speaker 2>I'm gonna miss her. Like I don't think that there's

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<v Speaker 2>anything I could do. I don't think there's any growth

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<v Speaker 2>or self help I could do that would eliminate the

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<v Speaker 2>feeling of missing her while she's gone. But I do

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<v Speaker 2>think there's a sense of being able to find and

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<v Speaker 2>do those things that I loved doing alone, like why

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<v Speaker 2>with my friends.

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<v Speaker 1>Because now it seems like whatever you come up with

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<v Speaker 1>doing you're like, oh, I'd rather do that.

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<v Speaker 3>Right, No, that's the thing. But like, I but is

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<v Speaker 3>that what it's supposed to be.

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<v Speaker 4>Like but not necessarily like don't you like you like

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<v Speaker 4>to like binge TV shows?

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<v Speaker 3>Not really? I kind of amount of that phase in

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<v Speaker 3>my life.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh really, Yeah, I get bored, but you know I

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<v Speaker 2>have a thing for like weekly airing shows.

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<v Speaker 3>You know, I prefer that anyways.

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<v Speaker 2>Even that I'm like, I'd rather be doing it with Haley,

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<v Speaker 2>Like I think I.

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<v Speaker 4>Like you like sitting home and enjoying TV.

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<v Speaker 3>No, I'm out of that really.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, but I think that I blame TikTok for that

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<v Speaker 2>because I think that I'm more short term entertainment on

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<v Speaker 2>TikTok is just gone.

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<v Speaker 3>It's gone forever.

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<v Speaker 2>Well not forever, but as long as I have TikTok,

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<v Speaker 2>it's gonna be preferred to like sticking around for like

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<v Speaker 2>a love island. But my whole point is that I

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<v Speaker 2>feel like it's such a conflicting thing to open your

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<v Speaker 2>heart to love and give yourself to a relationship and

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<v Speaker 2>be so content with someone and then also be able

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<v Speaker 2>to have that independence of being like I know, like

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<v Speaker 2>in my head, I know I'm okay, I was okay

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<v Speaker 2>before I met Haley. I can be okay while she's

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<v Speaker 2>gone and miss her and support her and also take

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<v Speaker 2>care of myself. But instead I'm like crippled with anxiety

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<v Speaker 2>and like am not sleeping and mentally unwell.

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<v Speaker 4>But it's not I don't think you fear you're gonna

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<v Speaker 4>lose her. I just you just miss her.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah yeah, yeah, but I think subconscious there's something in

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<v Speaker 2>my head that's like you could lose her, which you could.

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<v Speaker 2>I mean you could lose everyone, yeah, right, but I

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<v Speaker 2>think there's been loss in other areas in my life

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<v Speaker 2>where I feel like it's like I didn't think I

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<v Speaker 2>would lose certain things from people, So in my mind

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<v Speaker 2>I feel like, well, she could do the same to me.

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<v Speaker 3>So I almost am like on this like defensive.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I go to on that dark path too.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I mean how do you feel?

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, do you feel like if if Robbie went

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<v Speaker 2>out of town for like months at a time, that

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<v Speaker 2>you would feel like yourself?

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<v Speaker 4>I would hate it. I don't. I prefer him being everywhere.

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<v Speaker 4>I really do.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, me too, it's so frustrating, it's not.

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<v Speaker 4>But I would not like break up with him because

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<v Speaker 4>he needed to. Like what I'm saying, I would.

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<v Speaker 2>Not like this is not really even about Hailey. This

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<v Speaker 2>is more about me, like self introspection, being like.

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<v Speaker 3>Becca, what do you love? What do you want to do?

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<v Speaker 2>What do you want to accomplish? Like what do you

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<v Speaker 2>want to do without needing Haley to be there with you?

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 2>You know because in my mind, I'm like, oh, like

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<v Speaker 2>go travel places, and I'm like, but I don't want

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<v Speaker 2>to travel somewhere that I've never been without her.

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<v Speaker 4>It is interesting because I think the only time I

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<v Speaker 4>experienced this was a week Robbie took the Robbie went

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<v Speaker 4>skiing with the kids, and I stayed home. I can't

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<v Speaker 4>remember why exactly I stayed.

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<v Speaker 3>Back, but you were working on your book.

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<v Speaker 4>Oh yeah, I chose not to go on the trip.

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<v Speaker 4>And that was the longest I haven't been with him

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<v Speaker 4>in a while. And I just filled my time like

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<v Speaker 4>I filled that time like it was wake up, work out,

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<v Speaker 4>come home, shower, Uh, do book stuff, do more book stuff,

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<v Speaker 4>do more book stuff, clean the house, organized closets, Like

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<v Speaker 4>there's all these things I feel like that I always

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<v Speaker 4>I have on my to do list, and I just

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<v Speaker 4>started doing them. Yeah, that's kind of what I did

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<v Speaker 4>for that week. I just so I should write a book. Well,

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<v Speaker 4>not necessarily that, but like, if there's something you want

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<v Speaker 4>to do around your house, organize lause it, or if

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<v Speaker 4>there's something you want to do in your backyard, or

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<v Speaker 4>if there's something like anything, get to the to do list. Now.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, that's good advice, But I also.

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<v Speaker 4>Don't think what I did was necessarily healthy. I like

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<v Speaker 4>filled every every hour of my day with stuff.

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, yeah, my ideal situation would be to have

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<v Speaker 2>most of it filled, but then be at a place

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<v Speaker 2>where I'm okay, at home alone with my thoughts. That

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<v Speaker 2>hasn't been the safe space for me lately, so I

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<v Speaker 2>would like to get back to that because I was

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<v Speaker 2>so comfortable alone.

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<v Speaker 3>I was too comfortable alone.

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<v Speaker 4>But I feel like you can't reverse it.

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<v Speaker 2>That's what I'm saying. You can't. Once you experience that,

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<v Speaker 2>you can't. So to those who haven't fallen in love yet,

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<v Speaker 2>I don't enjoy yet.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, what works for me is a routine, and that

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<v Speaker 1>works for me every day. You know, I'm a creature

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<v Speaker 1>of routine. Yeah, when my family's gone for the weekend,

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<v Speaker 1>I have every minute of every day planned.

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<v Speaker 4>Out right, but I do the same not alone with

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<v Speaker 4>my healthy either.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, well maybe, but that's another thing is that with

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<v Speaker 2>my job, my job is not like a routine type job,

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<v Speaker 2>like my days are always different.

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<v Speaker 3>I get to choose a lot like how I spend

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<v Speaker 3>my time.

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<v Speaker 2>And I think, even though my job is amazing and

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<v Speaker 2>I'm so grateful for the freedom to do whatever i want,

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<v Speaker 2>sometimes it's almost like overwhelming to me because I'm like,

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<v Speaker 2>I don't have something distracting.

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<v Speaker 3>Me at all time.

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<v Speaker 2>Times of like, yeah, it's a distractions.

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<v Speaker 3>I don't think that's a negative thing, be distracted.

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<v Speaker 4>You know what, Well, clearly I don't either. Could I

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<v Speaker 4>do it, but I do think there's a part of

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<v Speaker 4>it that's not healthy. Maybe you could do all your

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<v Speaker 4>doctor's appointments.

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<v Speaker 3>I did do my checkup because there's I do need

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<v Speaker 3>to do a dentist's siest, your.

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<v Speaker 4>Regular doctor to get your blood work.

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<v Speaker 3>To do all that. Thank you so much.

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<v Speaker 2>Actually, I was looking into maybe getting my blood work

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<v Speaker 2>checked out because I can't. Maybe there's like a hormonal

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<v Speaker 2>balance happening without me noticing that.

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<v Speaker 1>Is I think that is good advice, just to get

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<v Speaker 1>stuff downe that you need to get an oil change.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, there's just stuff that you.

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<v Speaker 4>Got to do, and all the stuff that you put

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<v Speaker 4>in the back burner of like your to do list,

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<v Speaker 4>because they're not like, yeah, what's the word I'm looking for? Timely? Yeah, sure,

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<v Speaker 4>time sensitive? Just get those done, all right?

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<v Speaker 2>So I'll do those next week. What about the next

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<v Speaker 2>three weeks?

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<v Speaker 5>Is there anything you like to do that Hayley doesn't No, because,

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<v Speaker 5>like I just realized, I've never been in my home

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<v Speaker 5>that I live in now we live there for almost

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<v Speaker 5>six years. I've never been there alone. Wow, Like Allison's

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<v Speaker 5>been with Every single night I've spent that house has

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<v Speaker 5>been with Allison. She hasn't been out of town with Like,

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<v Speaker 5>she hasn't gone somewhere overnight without me in years. I

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<v Speaker 5>go out of time for work all the time. But

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<v Speaker 5>when she's gone, I eat garbage, Baby, I just eat

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<v Speaker 5>straight up garbage. And that's what I look forward to.

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<v Speaker 5>And she knows about this. I look forward to it.

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<v Speaker 5>Like if she's having like dinner with a friend, I'm like, oh,

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<v Speaker 5>rand table pizza, here we go. That's literally the only

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<v Speaker 5>thing that is the only thing, yeah, that I look

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<v Speaker 5>forward to doing. You can't do You can't just eat

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<v Speaker 5>garbage all the time.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know what I.

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<v Speaker 2>Would I do eat garbage all the time?

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<v Speaker 4>You want what you want to start learning how to cook?

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<v Speaker 4>You could start cooking more.

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<v Speaker 2>Y Yeah, hmm, yeah, there's there's a lot of things.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh So my therapist told me, she was like, I

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<v Speaker 2>want you to write down a list of a hundred

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<v Speaker 2>things you want.

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<v Speaker 3>And my mind felt like overwhelmed.

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<v Speaker 2>But I've been thinking about it and she's like, it

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<v Speaker 2>can be any like, it can be even if it

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<v Speaker 2>feels unatateed like crazy, I want to mansion with a

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<v Speaker 2>big yard.

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<v Speaker 3>Like she's like, just write it down.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, do mansion one big yard too, because you've got

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<v Speaker 1>a hundred to fill out, separate.

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<v Speaker 2>Fresh grab But I think, like the more I'm like

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<v Speaker 2>realizing those things where I think, like, oh, what do

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<v Speaker 2>I want? Because at first I felt I was like

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<v Speaker 2>a hundred things that I want, But I think I'm

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<v Speaker 2>gonna be able to do it.

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<v Speaker 4>And also a thing too. You can create structure in

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<v Speaker 4>your day depending on all these things that you want

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<v Speaker 4>to get done. So let's say you have doctor's appointments.

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<v Speaker 4>Let's write down all the doctors appointments and let's start

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<v Speaker 4>sprinkling those in, right, then you can create your day

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<v Speaker 4>around each of those. Cooking you want to start cooking,

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<v Speaker 4>let's find recipes and start plotting out your weeks with

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<v Speaker 4>what you're gonna do. You have to grocery shop, so

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<v Speaker 4>that also takes time mm hmm. Then perhaps you want

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<v Speaker 4>to start working out a little bit more. You can

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<v Speaker 4>plan your workouts according to like that structure of your

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<v Speaker 4>doctor's appointments and your meal preps.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, so just just getting some things on a schedule.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I do think schedule a schedule would do you well?

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, yeah, yeah, do me right.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>So yeah, that's a little bit about me and uh

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<v Speaker 2>why I've just been okay, I think that there's a

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<v Speaker 2>little element of like wanting to get my mojo back.

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<v Speaker 4>I get it, you know, I understand what you're saying

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<v Speaker 4>because I also too, I find myself getting in that place.

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<v Speaker 3>Of complacency, not.

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<v Speaker 4>Complacency, dependency, yeah yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah yeah, dependency. And

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<v Speaker 4>it's like because I feel the same way I love

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<v Speaker 4>I love Robbie being everywhere like I love him doing

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<v Speaker 4>everything with me, And there is there's that little like

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<v Speaker 4>thing in the back of the ear of my head

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<v Speaker 4>that's like fearful of that for some reason, like why,

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<v Speaker 4>like why can't I just do I can do stuff

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<v Speaker 4>alone And it doesn't mean like I can, but I

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<v Speaker 4>don't want to. Yes, And I find myself getting freaked

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<v Speaker 4>out about that too. But I'm not dependent on him,

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<v Speaker 4>but there is some sort of something there.

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<v Speaker 3>That's what I'm saying.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't necessarily, I do feel like I've become more

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<v Speaker 2>dependent on Hailey than I ever thought I would be

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<v Speaker 2>in a relationship. But I think it's more that there's

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<v Speaker 2>other stuff going on and coming up for me that

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<v Speaker 2>I'm navigating outside of my relationship with Haley, and she's

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<v Speaker 2>my comfort person, so she's not here to just sit

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<v Speaker 2>with me on the couch even if we're not doing

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<v Speaker 2>anything important, you know. So I think it's a little

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<v Speaker 2>bit of that as well. But it's fine, We're gonna

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<v Speaker 2>we'll be fine. I'll be fine. I just am like,

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<v Speaker 2>I don't want this month to be Like, do you have.

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<v Speaker 5>Plans to go see her on tour? You're like, yeah, I.

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<v Speaker 3>Think i'll probably.

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, we try not to go longer than two

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<v Speaker 2>weeks without seeing each other. So I think the Denver

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<v Speaker 2>show where my little sister lives in Denver, so I

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<v Speaker 2>was gonna try to go that one. I think that's

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<v Speaker 2>like right at two weeks from when she leaves, so

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<v Speaker 2>that'll be good, and then.

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<v Speaker 3>Maybe like another one.

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<v Speaker 5>That's okay, it's good to have something to look forward to.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, yeah, yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>So anyways, teas and peas, not some prayers.

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<v Speaker 3>And or you telling me to take a break. I

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<v Speaker 3>know what that man.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, we'll be right back with my Tanya's just okay,

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<v Speaker 2>all right, Well, we spent the whole first half of

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<v Speaker 2>the episode talking about my mental health issues.

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<v Speaker 3>So what's going on with you?

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I had some mental health issues myself this week.

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<v Speaker 4>I'd like to preface it by saying that I am

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<v Speaker 4>my liutial end of my liudial phase pre menstrual phase,

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<v Speaker 4>so that I'm really low energy, like I could I

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<v Speaker 4>could literally fall asleep right now, okay, and I'm emotional,

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<v Speaker 4>like really emotional.

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<v Speaker 3>Okay.

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<v Speaker 4>So last week there was this thread in the Facebook

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<v Speaker 4>group that was like going on and on and on

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<v Speaker 4>about the premise of it was wanting to hear more

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<v Speaker 4>from Becca. But as I continue to read through the thread,

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<v Speaker 4>there was all this like really triggering words about me

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<v Speaker 4>and how my personality is too much and I'm too

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<v Speaker 4>overbearing and I'm to this and that like takes me

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<v Speaker 4>back to the days of my work. I don't maybe

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<v Speaker 4>you should believe his name.

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<v Speaker 6>We can believe his name just because you know, yeah,

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<v Speaker 6>but this triggering feeling of when I started out in

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<v Speaker 6>my career of this important person at the company who

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<v Speaker 6>would say these things about me and my personality.

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<v Speaker 4>And it was like really really damaging to me when

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<v Speaker 4>I started, because it was just so hurtful, you know,

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<v Speaker 4>because it's like about you and it's about me, and

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<v Speaker 4>so it really kind of like brought me back to

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<v Speaker 4>that place and I went so dark. Whatever day, I

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<v Speaker 4>can't remember what day it was that I was reading

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<v Speaker 4>it all, and I was like, I don't want to

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<v Speaker 4>do the podcast on Monday. I like, just because I

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<v Speaker 4>don't really care about internet trolls, but like this Facebook

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<v Speaker 4>group is like those are my people, you know what

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<v Speaker 4>I mean? Like that, so that I think that's why

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<v Speaker 4>I took it so hard anyway, So I was like,

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<v Speaker 4>I text me back. I was like, I don't do

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<v Speaker 4>the podcast on Monday, and like all this stuff, and

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<v Speaker 4>like Robbie sat down and gave me this speech and

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<v Speaker 4>it was like so sweet, and he was like he

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<v Speaker 4>could use like a Kobe Bryant analogy, not familiar with

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<v Speaker 4>like his work, but the analogy made sense because he

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<v Speaker 4>was like he was like trying to explain to me

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<v Speaker 4>the overarching theme of it, which was wanting Becka to

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<v Speaker 4>share more and open up more. And he was like

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<v Speaker 4>Kobe Bryant and used to get a lot of heat

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<v Speaker 4>in his day because the people would criticize him that

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<v Speaker 4>he was always shooting the ball, like he was always

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<v Speaker 4>shooting the ball and he wasn't passing. Are you familiar

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<v Speaker 4>with this?

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<v Speaker 2>Okay?

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<v Speaker 4>And so because he was getting so much heat for it,

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<v Speaker 4>he did not shoot any balls for like a long

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<v Speaker 4>period of time. He would just pass past, constantly passed

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<v Speaker 4>to his teammates. And he was doing this interview, which

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<v Speaker 4>I guess is what Robbie was talking about, and he

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<v Speaker 4>says he regrets so much that portion of his career

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<v Speaker 4>that he listened to what other people thought and just

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<v Speaker 4>passed the ball and he didn't do what was instinctually

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<v Speaker 4>like right for him or whatever. And he was saying

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<v Speaker 4>how he really regretted that, and he was like, don't

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<v Speaker 4>he's like show up, do the podcast, like don't do

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<v Speaker 4>don't be different, don't dim anything, just be you. And

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<v Speaker 4>it made me so it was like such a sweet

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<v Speaker 4>analogy because like, hey, I don't it really like actually

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<v Speaker 4>resonated with me. I never thought i'd resonate with like

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<v Speaker 4>a sports analogy. You are your sports, yeah, sortinly, yeah,

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<v Speaker 4>but more hockey than anything.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh yeah, basketball for me.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah it was for a minute, but girls basketball, right right,

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<v Speaker 4>But yeah, I don't know. So it was like that

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<v Speaker 4>pep talk, and I guess that's what I can relate

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<v Speaker 4>Twitter saying that Hayley is like your comfort because I

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<v Speaker 4>really was like really really sad that day, Like I

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<v Speaker 4>was having like an emotional rollercoaster, and at the end

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<v Speaker 4>of the day, he like gives me this pep talk

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<v Speaker 4>and like it didn't necessarily make me, you know, I

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<v Speaker 4>wasn't like yeah, but it really did make me, like

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<v Speaker 4>comforted me in such a way. And I was like,

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<v Speaker 4>he's right, I just need to like take the note

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<v Speaker 4>and just like move forward and keep doing keep doing me.

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<v Speaker 4>So anyways, that was that, and then I just kind

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<v Speaker 4>of chilled, like I kind of just wanted to just

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<v Speaker 4>like chill and I was like not, Yeah, I was

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<v Speaker 4>just kind of bummed over the weekend.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I think that sometimes, like especially before I shared

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<v Speaker 2>my relationship. Well, first of all, I'm sorry that you

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<v Speaker 2>had to read those things, because like, regardless.

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<v Speaker 3>Of who you are or what.

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<v Speaker 2>Where it's coming from, words hurt, especially when it's from

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<v Speaker 2>such a special place. Like I said, it's not like

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<v Speaker 2>these are like random internet trolls.

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<v Speaker 4>But I do understand because I feel like there was

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<v Speaker 4>a point where and I don't remember when, but I

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<v Speaker 4>remember when you first started, when you were dating Haley,

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<v Speaker 4>and you were really kind of coming into a shell

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<v Speaker 4>and you didn't want to share anything, and I remember

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<v Speaker 4>I tried to overcompensate, so I was just like blabbing,

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<v Speaker 4>like I was just like because I was trying to

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<v Speaker 4>like I knew what you were going through, yes, And

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<v Speaker 4>so I think I just stuck in that mentality of

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<v Speaker 4>just like blah blah, you know what I mean, And

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<v Speaker 4>I did. I did notice it a while ago. I

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<v Speaker 4>was like, I do need to like chill a little bit.

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<v Speaker 4>I get overexcited, and like, I do get it. So

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<v Speaker 4>I did get that point a while ago.

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<v Speaker 2>But this was just like I think, also, our personalities

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<v Speaker 2>are very different in the sense that I am an

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<v Speaker 2>overthinker with everything I share. So when I'm telling a story,

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<v Speaker 2>if I feel like there's no interest or like there's

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<v Speaker 2>not really any follow up, I just will stop talking,

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<v Speaker 2>like I don't even think about twice about it.

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<v Speaker 4>And that's and I think I know too much, and

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<v Speaker 4>so I get debilitated because I don't want to like,

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<v Speaker 4>I know what you're saying, but I know the listeners

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<v Speaker 4>don't know what you're saying. So then I don't want

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<v Speaker 4>to ask it because I don't want to put you

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<v Speaker 4>in that position because I feel like you're not sharing

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<v Speaker 4>it for a reason.

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<v Speaker 2>And then sometimes, you know, sometimes there's conversations where I'm like, oh,

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<v Speaker 2>I want to talk about this, and if there's no

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<v Speaker 2>interest from it, it is, you know, the conversation kind

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<v Speaker 2>of dies. But I also think there's a personality just

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<v Speaker 2>like we're opposites.

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<v Speaker 3>And there was a long time where I didn't share

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<v Speaker 3>a lot.

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<v Speaker 2>There was a lot of that I didn't feel safe

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<v Speaker 2>or like I wasn't ready to share. So I think

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<v Speaker 2>you did have to take the lead on a lot

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<v Speaker 2>of the conversations because I wasn't talking, you know, So

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<v Speaker 2>I think I I I know where I can also

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<v Speaker 2>speak up more and stand up and even if like

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<v Speaker 2>it comes down to me having a conversation something that

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<v Speaker 2>I do want to talk about further than what I say,

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<v Speaker 2>be able to be like wait, wait, wait, I want

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<v Speaker 2>to go back to that you know yeah, and just

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<v Speaker 2>be able to speak up more because sometimes, I mean,

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<v Speaker 2>I come from a big family.

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<v Speaker 3>I was always kind of the more quiet, reserved one.

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<v Speaker 2>I've always been that way, so I think sometimes it's

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<v Speaker 2>natural for me to just like go inward and you

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<v Speaker 2>know yeah, And I think that you're able to pick

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<v Speaker 2>up the slack a lot of the times when I'm

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<v Speaker 2>in that position. So listen, you're amazing. The reason why

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<v Speaker 2>our podcast is amazing is because of our dynamic. And

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<v Speaker 2>I don't ever want you to feel shut down because

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<v Speaker 2>there's a hard time or no, I'm way too fragile

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<v Speaker 2>for it too.

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<v Speaker 4>I too, I'm so preperiod it's like coming any second now.

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<v Speaker 3>But it's true.

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, I think what we have is so special

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<v Speaker 2>and I think that if it's a place where we

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<v Speaker 2>find more of a balance and that that also comes

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<v Speaker 2>for me too. So I never want you to feel

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<v Speaker 2>shut down or feel like you're too much because people

0:23:52.240 --> 0:23:55.800
<v Speaker 2>love you for your personality and your excitement and your passion.

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<v Speaker 2>So don't ever like feel like you have to dim

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<v Speaker 2>who you are, shut down or you, or like I

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<v Speaker 2>don't want to do the podcast because this podcast is

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<v Speaker 2>what it is because of you.

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<v Speaker 3>It wasn't like I don't want to do it today.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, yeah, I get it.

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<v Speaker 3>I probably wouldn't have.

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<v Speaker 2>I probably would have been like I'm out week three. Ye.

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<v Speaker 2>So but I think it's important we address it because

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<v Speaker 2>I think, you know, sometimes I do think sometimes, And

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<v Speaker 2>I didn't read a lot of the comments because I

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<v Speaker 2>got I honestly felt upset for you and knew that

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<v Speaker 2>it was hard for you. But I think the original

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<v Speaker 2>post I didn't feel like it was like hateful or anything.

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<v Speaker 2>I think it was more just like, hey, we want

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<v Speaker 2>to Becca, you know from Becca. But that's also on

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<v Speaker 2>me again, So I'll start talking more and if y'all

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<v Speaker 2>don't like my stories, then you can tell tell me

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<v Speaker 2>on the.

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<v Speaker 4>Facebook group.

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<v Speaker 2>Did you that the day that this happened, I actually

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<v Speaker 2>posted this meme It's like a double toilet, and I

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<v Speaker 2>tagged you and Robbie and said, like, this feels like

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<v Speaker 2>Tanya's dream or something.

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<v Speaker 3>I have the idea for Tanya and Robbie.

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<v Speaker 4>I would love this, not because of the pooping stuff,

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<v Speaker 4>but like just in general, I feel like having two

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<v Speaker 4>toilets is so beneficial, Like we only have two toilets

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<v Speaker 4>in the whole house, and there's four of us, and

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<v Speaker 4>sometimes we come home, like we all have to go

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<v Speaker 4>to the bathroom, but.

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<v Speaker 1>You don't want to connected toilets like to fine, have

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<v Speaker 1>separate toilets the.

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<v Speaker 2>Way that those are a positioned to so fuck, like

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<v Speaker 2>you're just doing your own thing.

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<v Speaker 4>I would use this, I would, I would use this.

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<v Speaker 4>I'd buy this tomorrow.

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<v Speaker 3>No, because I don't.

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<v Speaker 4>This is your yearine smell after which is how often

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<v Speaker 4>I mean.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, then we did discuss Robbie can't smell, so he's yeah.

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<v Speaker 4>It's really such a blessing from the Lord.

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<v Speaker 3>I didn't talk.

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<v Speaker 2>About this, and this was a big thing that happened

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<v Speaker 2>while I was gone. But this is mostly a story

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<v Speaker 2>for Mark just to get his reaction. So I rented

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<v Speaker 2>a car while I was in I was like in

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<v Speaker 2>Dallas and then Shreveport, Louisiana, which is my hometown, and

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<v Speaker 2>I was on my way home to Dallas and not home.

0:26:20.240 --> 0:26:21.679
<v Speaker 2>I was on my way back to Dallas and I

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<v Speaker 2>was staying with a friend and I had to return

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<v Speaker 2>my rental car to the airport and then uber to

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<v Speaker 2>my friend's house. It was just like I did a

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<v Speaker 2>lot to do and I I was on the phone

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<v Speaker 2>with Haley and we were having kind of like a

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<v Speaker 2>serious conversation, and she was in Europe, so like the

0:26:39.040 --> 0:26:39.600
<v Speaker 2>time difference.

0:26:39.640 --> 0:26:42.040
<v Speaker 3>It was like, I if I pull.

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<v Speaker 2>Over and get gas when my gas like came on,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm gonna have to hang up. And we're kind of

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<v Speaker 2>like in this serious conversation and I'm like, I know

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<v Speaker 2>how long I have and I'll wait till I see

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<v Speaker 2>like a safe gas station exit. You know. Well, I'm

0:26:57.880 --> 0:27:01.960
<v Speaker 2>I swear this happened faster than my car goes.

0:27:01.960 --> 0:27:03.760
<v Speaker 3>Because it's incredible.

0:27:04.400 --> 0:27:07.000
<v Speaker 2>So my car starts to just shut down and I'm

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<v Speaker 2>like oh no, no, no, no, no, no no, And

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<v Speaker 2>Haley's like what And I'm like I'm running out of

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<v Speaker 2>gas and she's like, well, just like pull over, wait

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<v Speaker 2>till you get to nextit, like get in the right

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<v Speaker 2>lane and just pull off when you see an nextit.

0:27:19.119 --> 0:27:23.040
<v Speaker 2>I'm like no, Like, my the car is stopping and

0:27:23.080 --> 0:27:24.359
<v Speaker 2>she's like, are you kidding?

0:27:24.400 --> 0:27:25.119
<v Speaker 3>She's like where are you.

0:27:25.160 --> 0:27:28.720
<v Speaker 2>And I'm like, I'm on the Interstate and she's like, well,

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<v Speaker 2>what are you gonna do? So I like veered off

0:27:31.119 --> 0:27:33.919
<v Speaker 2>and there was like there was this weird road in

0:27:34.000 --> 0:27:36.840
<v Speaker 2>between the interstate and then the service road and it

0:27:37.000 --> 0:27:39.439
<v Speaker 2>just happened to be right where I needed it to be,

0:27:39.960 --> 0:27:41.840
<v Speaker 2>and so I pull off and so I'm not in

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<v Speaker 2>like the crazy busy part, but I'm for sure out

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<v Speaker 2>of gas. Like the car just stops and so I'm like, Haley,

0:27:50.320 --> 0:27:53.000
<v Speaker 2>I'm gonna have to I'll talk to you tomorrow go

0:27:53.119 --> 0:27:56.040
<v Speaker 2>to sleep. And she's like I'm not what are you

0:27:56.080 --> 0:27:58.080
<v Speaker 2>gonna do? And I'm like She goes call Triple A

0:27:58.119 --> 0:28:00.199
<v Speaker 2>and I'm like, I don't have Triple A. So at

0:28:00.240 --> 0:28:03.240
<v Speaker 2>that time, my friend Laura, who's been my best friend

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<v Speaker 2>since high school. She lives in Louisiana, in my hometown.

0:28:06.359 --> 0:28:08.679
<v Speaker 2>She texted me and asked how my sister's baby shower

0:28:08.840 --> 0:28:11.600
<v Speaker 2>was and I was like it was great. Do you

0:28:11.640 --> 0:28:16.480
<v Speaker 2>have Triple A. She's like why, and I go, well,

0:28:16.800 --> 0:28:18.560
<v Speaker 2>I might have run out of gas.

0:28:20.119 --> 0:28:22.160
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, and she goes where are you.

0:28:22.320 --> 0:28:23.800
<v Speaker 2>And I was like, I'm in the middle of nowhere,

0:28:23.840 --> 0:28:29.040
<v Speaker 2>Texas And she goes, I'm in Tyler, Texas. Will you

0:28:29.240 --> 0:28:31.360
<v Speaker 2>send me your location and let me see how far

0:28:31.440 --> 0:28:33.959
<v Speaker 2>you are from me? So I send her my location.

0:28:34.040 --> 0:28:35.600
<v Speaker 2>She's like, I'm thirty minutes for me. I'm coming to

0:28:35.600 --> 0:28:39.560
<v Speaker 2>get you. Wow, And that is crazy. What are the chances?

0:28:39.600 --> 0:28:42.680
<v Speaker 2>She was there for her nephew's soccer tournament. And so

0:28:43.520 --> 0:28:46.360
<v Speaker 2>I'm just like sitting in my car waiting for her

0:28:46.360 --> 0:28:49.760
<v Speaker 2>to show up. She comes, I get in the car

0:28:49.800 --> 0:28:51.920
<v Speaker 2>with her and we're like lat you know. She like, no,

0:28:52.080 --> 0:28:53.680
<v Speaker 2>She's known me for a long time, Like this is

0:28:53.800 --> 0:28:56.760
<v Speaker 2>very own brand for me. And we go and we

0:28:56.960 --> 0:29:01.120
<v Speaker 2>get by like a five gallon gas can, fill it

0:29:01.200 --> 0:29:04.240
<v Speaker 2>up and I go to put it in the car

0:29:04.360 --> 0:29:08.280
<v Speaker 2>and it's spilling everywhere, Like I have gas on my arm,

0:29:08.480 --> 0:29:09.000
<v Speaker 2>my leg.

0:29:09.120 --> 0:29:11.760
<v Speaker 3>I'm like, flammable and.

0:29:12.280 --> 0:29:15.040
<v Speaker 4>Flammable is that the word flammable?

0:29:15.720 --> 0:29:16.720
<v Speaker 3>Flammable, isn't it?

0:29:16.720 --> 0:29:21.920
<v Speaker 4>Flammable is correct? So flammable on it today? You really are.

0:29:23.440 --> 0:29:26.600
<v Speaker 1>A few minutes ago you said exacerbated, but since then

0:29:26.640 --> 0:29:29.400
<v Speaker 1>you said debilitated, which is also strong.

0:29:29.640 --> 0:29:32.960
<v Speaker 2>So I can't get the gas into the car and

0:29:33.280 --> 0:29:35.520
<v Speaker 2>Laura can't. I'm reading the instructions on the gas and

0:29:35.600 --> 0:29:37.520
<v Speaker 2>we're doing everything. It says, and I can't get it

0:29:37.560 --> 0:29:40.040
<v Speaker 2>to go. So I'm just like spilling gas everywhere. I'm

0:29:40.080 --> 0:29:43.560
<v Speaker 2>panicked it it's pitch black now, and I happen to

0:29:43.600 --> 0:29:46.120
<v Speaker 2>be parked right outside of a neighborhood.

0:29:46.680 --> 0:29:49.560
<v Speaker 3>So I'm like, I see a house. We should go

0:29:49.640 --> 0:29:51.600
<v Speaker 3>knock on their door. We need to, we need to.

0:29:51.680 --> 0:29:53.080
<v Speaker 1>Like the gas isn't getting in.

0:29:53.040 --> 0:29:55.720
<v Speaker 2>The table won't go, It's just spilling out everywhere, and

0:29:55.760 --> 0:29:58.160
<v Speaker 2>I'm like, we can't run out, like I need this

0:29:58.280 --> 0:30:00.280
<v Speaker 2>gas because I just got to get into the car,

0:30:01.280 --> 0:30:04.640
<v Speaker 2>like I'm gonna find a good old Texas countryman in

0:30:04.640 --> 0:30:06.600
<v Speaker 2>one of those neighborhoods.

0:30:05.920 --> 0:30:07.840
<v Speaker 1>You know, everyone is going to the wrong house is

0:30:07.840 --> 0:30:08.600
<v Speaker 1>getting shot.

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<v Speaker 3>Well this happened after my this decision.

0:30:12.680 --> 0:30:15.760
<v Speaker 2>So we go up and these like spotlights come on

0:30:15.800 --> 0:30:17.400
<v Speaker 2>in the house and I'm like, Laura, I don't think

0:30:17.400 --> 0:30:19.240
<v Speaker 2>we should do this one, and she's like, yeah, it's fine,

0:30:19.240 --> 0:30:21.120
<v Speaker 2>it's fine. So we walk up and she's like I

0:30:21.120 --> 0:30:24.000
<v Speaker 2>think I see someone, and she's like, I don't know

0:30:24.000 --> 0:30:25.400
<v Speaker 2>why they're not coming to the door. And then this

0:30:25.560 --> 0:30:27.760
<v Speaker 2>like big dog starts barking, so I'm like, we gotta go,

0:30:27.800 --> 0:30:31.479
<v Speaker 2>we gotta go. So we walk out and we're walking.

0:30:31.520 --> 0:30:33.959
<v Speaker 2>These houses are space like, this is not la like.

0:30:34.320 --> 0:30:37.440
<v Speaker 2>These houses have a lot of acreage. So we're walking

0:30:37.480 --> 0:30:38.200
<v Speaker 2>to the next one.

0:30:38.840 --> 0:30:40.000
<v Speaker 3>Knock. No one answers.

0:30:40.080 --> 0:30:43.120
<v Speaker 2>I'm like, I genuinely don't know what we're gonna do

0:30:43.160 --> 0:30:46.560
<v Speaker 2>at this point. So we're walking down this pitch black road.

0:30:46.720 --> 0:30:51.800
<v Speaker 4>I'm guessing Laura did not does not have trouble a you.

0:30:51.880 --> 0:30:53.200
<v Speaker 5>Know, did you?

0:30:53.200 --> 0:30:55.680
<v Speaker 4>Guys ever circle back to the original question.

0:30:55.600 --> 0:31:00.440
<v Speaker 2>That didn't get circled back to. Yeah, No, I didn't

0:31:00.480 --> 0:31:01.400
<v Speaker 2>go back to that thought.

0:31:01.440 --> 0:31:03.040
<v Speaker 1>I could have circled back to where you bought the

0:31:03.080 --> 0:31:05.760
<v Speaker 1>gas tank maybe and said, hey, how come this isn't working?

0:31:05.800 --> 0:31:07.200
<v Speaker 1>What do I need to do? Because they could probably

0:31:07.240 --> 0:31:09.080
<v Speaker 1>sell you a spout or something that would get the job.

0:31:09.080 --> 0:31:12.960
<v Speaker 2>Oh, that also could have been something. The guy that

0:31:13.040 --> 0:31:14.840
<v Speaker 2>was helping is at the gas station though, could not

0:31:15.000 --> 0:31:17.520
<v Speaker 2>even get the thing open like the gas cank go.

0:31:17.680 --> 0:31:20.920
<v Speaker 2>So I didn't feel trust like he didn't come across

0:31:20.920 --> 0:31:23.720
<v Speaker 2>trustworthy to me. So all of a sudden, we see

0:31:23.800 --> 0:31:26.320
<v Speaker 2>lights coming up, like headlights coming up the road, and

0:31:26.360 --> 0:31:28.520
<v Speaker 2>I'm like turning, I'm like waving them down.

0:31:28.680 --> 0:31:29.280
<v Speaker 1>Oh my god.

0:31:29.560 --> 0:31:32.280
<v Speaker 3>This guy falls over and he has his daughter in

0:31:32.320 --> 0:31:32.640
<v Speaker 3>the car.

0:31:32.800 --> 0:31:35.080
<v Speaker 2>So I was like, Okay, I feel safe, and I'm like,

0:31:35.240 --> 0:31:37.240
<v Speaker 2>I'm so sorry I ran out of gas. I'm like,

0:31:37.280 --> 0:31:39.280
<v Speaker 2>right at the end of the road, we got a

0:31:39.320 --> 0:31:41.200
<v Speaker 2>gas can, but we can't get the gas into the car.

0:31:41.280 --> 0:31:43.720
<v Speaker 2>So he's like, okay, I'll come back down and help y'all.

0:31:43.880 --> 0:31:46.600
<v Speaker 2>So we like walk back down. He goes to put

0:31:46.600 --> 0:31:49.080
<v Speaker 2>it in. It's spilling everywhere. So I'm like, hey, Gray,

0:31:49.160 --> 0:31:49.480
<v Speaker 2>I'm not.

0:31:49.440 --> 0:31:50.800
<v Speaker 4>An adot gas can.

0:31:51.440 --> 0:31:53.320
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, or we're both dumb, but I wasn't the only

0:31:53.320 --> 0:31:54.320
<v Speaker 2>one dumb in this situation.

0:31:54.440 --> 0:31:58.360
<v Speaker 3>So he's like, I have another gas can. Let me go.

0:31:59.280 --> 0:32:01.560
<v Speaker 2>Just follow me up and then I'll just pour this

0:32:01.600 --> 0:32:06.200
<v Speaker 2>one into that and we'll come back down. So he

0:32:06.360 --> 0:32:09.040
<v Speaker 2>ends up going by himself, and he comes back down

0:32:09.080 --> 0:32:10.720
<v Speaker 2>and brings his wife and she was like, well he

0:32:10.760 --> 0:32:12.880
<v Speaker 2>didn't and she like hugs us, and she's like, he

0:32:12.880 --> 0:32:14.280
<v Speaker 2>wanted me to come. He didn't want you all to

0:32:14.320 --> 0:32:16.400
<v Speaker 2>think he was creepy. And I'm like, where are the

0:32:16.400 --> 0:32:23.320
<v Speaker 2>ones waiting? Yeah, And so he brought another gas can

0:32:23.400 --> 0:32:24.880
<v Speaker 2>and was able to like fill it up, and then

0:32:24.920 --> 0:32:27.160
<v Speaker 2>his daughters come down there having like a sleepover, and

0:32:27.160 --> 0:32:30.640
<v Speaker 2>I'm like, okay, girls like this is what you don't do.

0:32:30.640 --> 0:32:34.360
<v Speaker 3>Don't do this, and he saved the day.

0:32:34.920 --> 0:32:36.240
<v Speaker 1>It's the way he had a gas take and that

0:32:36.280 --> 0:32:36.760
<v Speaker 1>works fine.

0:32:36.840 --> 0:32:38.640
<v Speaker 2>He had another he had like one with a spouse,

0:32:38.720 --> 0:32:41.400
<v Speaker 2>so he was able to like get it whatever. I

0:32:41.400 --> 0:32:46.640
<v Speaker 2>had a jeep, come yeah, get it in and uh yeah.

0:32:46.720 --> 0:32:48.240
<v Speaker 5>So he was just a gas can with like just

0:32:48.280 --> 0:32:48.920
<v Speaker 5>a cap on it.

0:32:48.920 --> 0:32:50.960
<v Speaker 2>It didn't have the had a spout, but the way

0:32:51.000 --> 0:32:56.960
<v Speaker 2>it worked it didn't go deep. Yeah.

0:32:57.040 --> 0:32:58.000
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, so.

0:32:59.400 --> 0:33:02.920
<v Speaker 4>Gas stations they have like a long spell.

0:33:03.040 --> 0:33:04.360
<v Speaker 3>Yeah yeah, it's long.

0:33:04.600 --> 0:33:07.160
<v Speaker 4>It is long and goes deep. It is long. It's

0:33:07.160 --> 0:33:09.720
<v Speaker 4>like probably like over a foot two feet.

0:33:10.120 --> 0:33:11.280
<v Speaker 3>I don't think it's two feet.

0:33:11.320 --> 0:33:15.360
<v Speaker 2>But whatever they're putting the new like way that they're

0:33:15.400 --> 0:33:20.040
<v Speaker 2>doing gas Kansas, isn't it. So that was my story,

0:33:20.120 --> 0:33:22.480
<v Speaker 2>and that means I've run out of gas like twice

0:33:22.520 --> 0:33:24.960
<v Speaker 2>in the past six months, right.

0:33:24.880 --> 0:33:26.960
<v Speaker 1>Which I think should be caused for a certain amount

0:33:26.960 --> 0:33:29.840
<v Speaker 1>of introspection. But you're just like, that's me. That's what happens.

0:33:30.320 --> 0:33:33.160
<v Speaker 2>I have a lot of introspection navigating right now. Mark,

0:33:33.440 --> 0:33:35.600
<v Speaker 2>So because that's crazy to me.

0:33:36.120 --> 0:33:38.360
<v Speaker 4>When that light comes on, like I don't even let

0:33:38.360 --> 0:33:39.520
<v Speaker 4>my car light go on.

0:33:39.720 --> 0:33:40.320
<v Speaker 3>Oh my gosh.

0:33:40.360 --> 0:33:42.320
<v Speaker 4>I usually feel it before the light goes on, because

0:33:42.360 --> 0:33:45.200
<v Speaker 4>when your light goes on, it means it's time to

0:33:45.200 --> 0:33:45.680
<v Speaker 4>get gassed.

0:33:45.800 --> 0:33:48.880
<v Speaker 3>So i'd rather you even let the light come on.

0:33:48.960 --> 0:33:50.640
<v Speaker 4>I usually do a quarter of a tank. When I'm

0:33:50.640 --> 0:33:52.000
<v Speaker 4>at quarter, I fill her back up.

0:33:52.160 --> 0:33:54.960
<v Speaker 1>I have dashes on mine, and I got three dashes.

0:33:55.040 --> 0:33:56.760
<v Speaker 1>I'm getting that filled up, three dashes.

0:33:56.880 --> 0:33:58.880
<v Speaker 5>I let the light come on. When light comes on,

0:33:58.920 --> 0:34:00.680
<v Speaker 5>it's it's let the good times. But I go to

0:34:00.680 --> 0:34:02.200
<v Speaker 5>the gas station. I've run, I guess once in my

0:34:02.280 --> 0:34:03.200
<v Speaker 5>entire life, and it sucked.

0:34:03.240 --> 0:34:03.840
<v Speaker 1>I hated it.

0:34:03.960 --> 0:34:05.000
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, well no I'm not.

0:34:05.160 --> 0:34:07.400
<v Speaker 2>I'm not having fun when everyone now like, I'm not,

0:34:07.520 --> 0:34:08.600
<v Speaker 2>like this is great.

0:34:08.800 --> 0:34:12.680
<v Speaker 3>It's just I thought I had longer and I didn't.

0:34:12.960 --> 0:34:14.560
<v Speaker 1>And none of the one in the family's like, hey

0:34:14.600 --> 0:34:17.000
<v Speaker 1>aren't you Becca Tilly from TV's The Bachelor and the

0:34:17.040 --> 0:34:19.799
<v Speaker 1>popular podcast and People Choice Aword winning shows scrubbing in.

0:34:20.239 --> 0:34:26.759
<v Speaker 2>No, they didn't say that. No, it'd be nice the podcast.

0:34:27.440 --> 0:34:29.680
<v Speaker 1>What I respect what that guy did with bringing his wife,

0:34:29.680 --> 0:34:31.640
<v Speaker 1>because that's the thing we By the way, I'm not

0:34:31.680 --> 0:34:35.560
<v Speaker 1>saying we poor dudes, because I'm not saying that, but

0:34:35.600 --> 0:34:37.879
<v Speaker 1>that's a real issue that we needed to come off

0:34:37.880 --> 0:34:40.480
<v Speaker 1>as not creepy. And we want to be helpful and

0:34:40.560 --> 0:34:42.480
<v Speaker 1>we want to support people, and we want to be

0:34:42.560 --> 0:34:45.399
<v Speaker 1>nice to strangers. But it's it's weird because it can

0:34:45.440 --> 0:34:47.480
<v Speaker 1>come off as creepy and you gotta be careful about that.

0:34:47.719 --> 0:34:47.919
<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

0:34:47.960 --> 0:34:51.640
<v Speaker 5>I admired this guy for yes, but mostly because if

0:34:51.640 --> 0:34:53.640
<v Speaker 5>I if I were in his shoes, if I saw it,

0:34:53.719 --> 0:34:55.400
<v Speaker 5>if I pulled over and I saw you, You're like,

0:34:55.480 --> 0:34:57.080
<v Speaker 5>I ran into gas I can't get I have a

0:34:57.120 --> 0:34:58.879
<v Speaker 5>gas can, but I can't get in. I'm like, there's

0:34:58.920 --> 0:35:02.479
<v Speaker 5>a guy with a gun waiting for that objective idea.

0:35:02.520 --> 0:35:04.520
<v Speaker 5>It's like, oh good luck, sweetheart.

0:35:04.800 --> 0:35:06.160
<v Speaker 1>Yes, yeah, I wouldn't.

0:35:05.800 --> 0:35:06.120
<v Speaker 5>Have done it.

0:35:06.120 --> 0:35:08.719
<v Speaker 2>I wouldn't have done it for myself, So yeah, I

0:35:08.719 --> 0:35:09.719
<v Speaker 2>wouldn't have done it either.

0:35:10.000 --> 0:35:13.040
<v Speaker 1>I went to take a pick up my youngest at

0:35:13.080 --> 0:35:15.040
<v Speaker 1>the elementary school. She was older. She was going back

0:35:15.040 --> 0:35:17.360
<v Speaker 1>to tutor and there's a little boy on the corner

0:35:17.400 --> 0:35:19.560
<v Speaker 1>outside the school and school's been over for a while now,

0:35:19.760 --> 0:35:22.400
<v Speaker 1>and he looks stressed out. He has tears in his eyes,

0:35:22.560 --> 0:35:26.080
<v Speaker 1>he looks a little panicky. But I cannot pull over

0:35:26.320 --> 0:35:29.480
<v Speaker 1>and start talking to that kid, because now I'm making

0:35:29.480 --> 0:35:32.640
<v Speaker 1>the situation worse. You know what I'm saying, I can't

0:35:32.640 --> 0:35:35.240
<v Speaker 1>be Hey, buddy's everything, okay, I can't do that. You could,

0:35:35.360 --> 0:35:37.880
<v Speaker 1>I can't. He's like an eight year old boy and

0:35:37.920 --> 0:35:40.839
<v Speaker 1>now now a guy, a strange man is pulling up

0:35:40.840 --> 0:35:42.200
<v Speaker 1>in a car and trying to talk to him. And

0:35:42.200 --> 0:35:43.680
<v Speaker 1>he's been told his whole life not to talk to

0:35:44.000 --> 0:35:47.440
<v Speaker 1>that person. So I waited till my daughter came out.

0:35:47.480 --> 0:35:49.360
<v Speaker 1>Once she was out, I had hair go up to

0:35:49.440 --> 0:35:50.960
<v Speaker 1>him and ask him if he was okay, because that

0:35:51.120 --> 0:35:53.239
<v Speaker 1>makes me safe for having my daughter with me and

0:35:53.280 --> 0:35:56.240
<v Speaker 1>her doing the talking. You just got to be sensitive

0:35:56.280 --> 0:35:57.960
<v Speaker 1>to that stuff because then his mom's going to pick

0:35:58.040 --> 0:36:00.080
<v Speaker 1>him up and he's like, some guy come and you

0:36:00.120 --> 0:36:02.200
<v Speaker 1>forgot to pick me up or whatever it was. And

0:36:02.200 --> 0:36:04.399
<v Speaker 1>some guy came and tried to talk to me, she'd

0:36:04.440 --> 0:36:06.399
<v Speaker 1>be in a panic. Next thing, you know, the whole

0:36:06.440 --> 0:36:10.120
<v Speaker 1>school is sending out letters warning people that there's a

0:36:10.120 --> 0:36:11.720
<v Speaker 1>guy pulling up and trying and talk to kids.

0:36:12.440 --> 0:36:15.359
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, but he had his daughter in the car, so

0:36:15.400 --> 0:36:16.319
<v Speaker 3>I was that's good.

0:36:16.400 --> 0:36:19.760
<v Speaker 2>Nothing about him came across creepy, And to be honest,

0:36:19.800 --> 0:36:22.759
<v Speaker 2>I was in a desperate state. We were like, we

0:36:22.880 --> 0:36:26.560
<v Speaker 2>just need your help, sir. Creepy or not so, but.

0:36:26.600 --> 0:36:28.839
<v Speaker 1>That's a sad thing, like what you were saying, we're

0:36:28.840 --> 0:36:30.879
<v Speaker 1>all a little suspicious of each other. Everyone's a little

0:36:30.920 --> 0:36:32.799
<v Speaker 1>bit creepy, like it's twenty twenty three and like we

0:36:32.840 --> 0:36:34.200
<v Speaker 1>can't help each other anymore. That's that.

0:36:34.440 --> 0:36:36.719
<v Speaker 5>When I go on a walk at nighttime and I

0:36:36.760 --> 0:36:39.200
<v Speaker 5>see like a woman jogging or something, I always crossed

0:36:39.200 --> 0:36:41.520
<v Speaker 5>the other side. Don't want to think I'm fall too. Yes,

0:36:42.239 --> 0:36:44.319
<v Speaker 5>last year there before, I was in Austin, Texas for

0:36:44.400 --> 0:36:46.160
<v Speaker 5>American Idol and I was on I was just walking.

0:36:46.160 --> 0:36:47.399
<v Speaker 5>It was really late and now I was just walking

0:36:47.440 --> 0:36:49.440
<v Speaker 5>downtown Austin and this woman's jogging and I like get

0:36:49.440 --> 0:36:51.080
<v Speaker 5>out of her way, so she doesn't, and she runs by.

0:36:51.200 --> 0:36:52.160
<v Speaker 5>She's like scrubbing in.

0:36:54.560 --> 0:36:57.240
<v Speaker 1>Okay, I will.

0:36:57.080 --> 0:36:59.120
<v Speaker 2>Say every time I'm on to walk, I and I'm

0:36:59.160 --> 0:37:02.880
<v Speaker 2>pass it. I mean sorry, it's men. But when a

0:37:02.960 --> 0:37:05.319
<v Speaker 2>man passes, I turn around to just make sure they don't.

0:37:05.680 --> 0:37:08.600
<v Speaker 2>They didn't turn around. It's it's unfortunate, but.

0:37:08.960 --> 0:37:10.640
<v Speaker 4>This man go at night anymore?

0:37:10.800 --> 0:37:13.960
<v Speaker 2>Like no even during the day though, Oh really, yeah, paranoid.

0:37:14.040 --> 0:37:16.360
<v Speaker 1>I walk my dog a lot. But when we're in Wisconsin,

0:37:16.400 --> 0:37:18.680
<v Speaker 1>we don't have our dogs with us, and so we'll

0:37:19.120 --> 0:37:21.120
<v Speaker 1>still need to get some exercise. So I'll have my

0:37:21.160 --> 0:37:22.919
<v Speaker 1>wife or daughters go for a walk with me around

0:37:22.920 --> 0:37:25.040
<v Speaker 1>the neighborhood. But if they're not available, like you just

0:37:25.040 --> 0:37:27.440
<v Speaker 1>go like I really can't. It's a little weird to

0:37:27.480 --> 0:37:30.040
<v Speaker 1>just be a weird old dude walking around the neighborhood,

0:37:30.920 --> 0:37:31.880
<v Speaker 1>especially after.

0:37:31.719 --> 0:37:32.560
<v Speaker 2>That the.

0:37:35.000 --> 0:37:38.759
<v Speaker 1>Dog, no dog, no dog. I think it's not fine,

0:37:38.840 --> 0:37:40.080
<v Speaker 1>especially after dark.

0:37:40.239 --> 0:37:44.560
<v Speaker 4>But I think you have really Yeah, if I saw

0:37:44.719 --> 0:37:47.920
<v Speaker 4>a man walking in the neighborhood by himself, i'd be

0:37:48.000 --> 0:37:48.760
<v Speaker 4>I'd call coughs.

0:37:50.840 --> 0:37:51.399
<v Speaker 1>I don't know.

0:37:51.480 --> 0:37:54.040
<v Speaker 3>I don't find it weird. Like if you're a good person,

0:37:54.160 --> 0:37:55.040
<v Speaker 3>then I don't.

0:37:54.920 --> 0:37:57.359
<v Speaker 4>Know, no Mark would be so sad.

0:37:57.520 --> 0:37:59.319
<v Speaker 1>I look good in people's windows for all they know.

0:37:59.400 --> 0:38:02.200
<v Speaker 2>People don't so that I don't have like a weapon

0:38:02.280 --> 0:38:03.000
<v Speaker 2>up mess.

0:38:02.840 --> 0:38:03.920
<v Speaker 3>Leave walking around.

0:38:04.000 --> 0:38:04.799
<v Speaker 1>It's different for you.

0:38:07.200 --> 0:38:10.520
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, well, I'm just saying I don't think that like y'all.

0:38:10.320 --> 0:38:11.720
<v Speaker 3>Have to be locked up in the house.

0:38:13.600 --> 0:38:15.120
<v Speaker 1>That's why I make them go with me if I

0:38:15.160 --> 0:38:17.080
<v Speaker 1>have something with you anymore.

0:38:17.320 --> 0:38:20.680
<v Speaker 2>Well. Shout out to Scott and his an amazing family

0:38:20.800 --> 0:38:24.239
<v Speaker 2>for helping us that lonely night in Texas.

0:38:25.480 --> 0:38:26.000
<v Speaker 3>Lynn Dale.

0:38:27.640 --> 0:38:32.239
<v Speaker 2>I think that's where we were, so yeah, I think

0:38:32.280 --> 0:38:34.839
<v Speaker 2>we have emails, So we'll take a break and we'll

0:38:34.840 --> 0:38:35.279
<v Speaker 2>be right back.

0:38:35.320 --> 0:39:00.719
<v Speaker 5>We got more gas in this tank, baby.

0:38:55.920 --> 0:38:58.239
<v Speaker 3>All right, we are back and we have emails. This

0:38:58.280 --> 0:38:58.759
<v Speaker 3>first one.

0:38:59.040 --> 0:39:01.520
<v Speaker 2>The disclaimer may be a laugh at while, but I

0:39:01.600 --> 0:39:03.080
<v Speaker 2>appreciate it anyway.

0:39:02.920 --> 0:39:05.239
<v Speaker 1>Abby says, please help Before I dive in, I want

0:39:05.239 --> 0:39:07.360
<v Speaker 1>to preface this email by saying that I'm fully aware

0:39:07.440 --> 0:39:11.000
<v Speaker 1>neither of you are medical professionals or merited adult medical advice,

0:39:11.160 --> 0:39:12.600
<v Speaker 1>which is nice because we would have had to say

0:39:12.640 --> 0:39:15.640
<v Speaker 1>that anyway. Now we don't have to. With that disclaimer

0:39:15.680 --> 0:39:19.600
<v Speaker 1>in mind, I was recently diagnosed with hashimotos. Prior to

0:39:19.640 --> 0:39:22.280
<v Speaker 1>my diagnosis, I had never heard of hashimotos. Hearing Tanya

0:39:22.320 --> 0:39:24.440
<v Speaker 1>talk about her health journey has made me feel a

0:39:24.480 --> 0:39:27.359
<v Speaker 1>lot less alone. However, I have eating habits more kin

0:39:27.440 --> 0:39:30.759
<v Speaker 1>to Becca's. Up until now, I've never struggled with my weight,

0:39:30.800 --> 0:39:33.879
<v Speaker 1>but now I've gained fifteen pounds seemingly overnight, and I'm

0:39:33.880 --> 0:39:35.640
<v Speaker 1>getting married at the end of this year. I am

0:39:35.680 --> 0:39:38.480
<v Speaker 1>stressed that I won't feel my best on my big day.

0:39:39.000 --> 0:39:40.520
<v Speaker 1>To time you have any tips on how to start

0:39:40.520 --> 0:39:43.799
<v Speaker 1>eating healthier and incorporating more health conscious life choices. I

0:39:43.800 --> 0:39:46.600
<v Speaker 1>am struggling with transitioning from my previous lifestyle to the

0:39:46.680 --> 0:39:49.920
<v Speaker 1>quote granola life, and I'd love any tips on how

0:39:49.920 --> 0:39:51.319
<v Speaker 1>to make the transition easier for me.

0:39:52.520 --> 0:39:55.640
<v Speaker 4>Yes, I am not a medical professional. Yes, However, I

0:39:55.680 --> 0:39:57.480
<v Speaker 4>do feel like I've done a lot of research for

0:39:57.560 --> 0:40:01.960
<v Speaker 4>myself in this and there are two paths. So I

0:40:02.200 --> 0:40:04.920
<v Speaker 4>chose the path of no. I'm trying to avoid taking

0:40:04.960 --> 0:40:07.520
<v Speaker 4>the medication, but there is a path in which you

0:40:07.560 --> 0:40:10.520
<v Speaker 4>could take the medication for your hashemotives, because I read

0:40:10.560 --> 0:40:12.880
<v Speaker 4>that you're getting married with congratulations at the end of

0:40:12.880 --> 0:40:16.239
<v Speaker 4>the year, and I feel like maybe the medication might

0:40:16.280 --> 0:40:20.280
<v Speaker 4>help you speed up the process if that's really important

0:40:20.320 --> 0:40:23.000
<v Speaker 4>to you. So that is an option. The other option

0:40:23.200 --> 0:40:27.080
<v Speaker 4>is the eating habits. I do think they're like, I

0:40:27.160 --> 0:40:29.920
<v Speaker 4>do think there's a way to be gluten Gluten free

0:40:30.280 --> 0:40:33.160
<v Speaker 4>is the biggest thing. It's anti inflammatory, and I think

0:40:33.200 --> 0:40:37.600
<v Speaker 4>anti inflammatory is so good for just general health overall.

0:40:38.120 --> 0:40:40.880
<v Speaker 4>It's good for everything. And so if you could go

0:40:40.920 --> 0:40:43.840
<v Speaker 4>gluten free, I think that would tremendously help with your hashimotos.

0:40:44.080 --> 0:40:45.759
<v Speaker 4>And I do think there's ways to eat gluten free,

0:40:45.800 --> 0:40:50.040
<v Speaker 4>but also still eat a quote unquote like Becca, Like

0:40:50.080 --> 0:40:52.279
<v Speaker 4>you could make gluten free macaroni and cheese. You could

0:40:52.320 --> 0:40:56.279
<v Speaker 4>make gluten free grilled cheese, you could make gluten free tacos.

0:40:57.719 --> 0:40:59.040
<v Speaker 4>I don't know what else. You burger, you can make

0:40:59.040 --> 0:41:02.760
<v Speaker 4>gluten free burger. So you can still make the choices,

0:41:02.800 --> 0:41:04.520
<v Speaker 4>like you still eat what you want to eat, but

0:41:04.600 --> 0:41:05.800
<v Speaker 4>just make them gluten free.

0:41:06.440 --> 0:41:08.359
<v Speaker 2>But I think I think the big thing is because

0:41:08.400 --> 0:41:10.840
<v Speaker 2>like everything you eat, I'm like, that looks delicious, Like

0:41:10.960 --> 0:41:14.160
<v Speaker 2>I would have no problem eating your you're food if

0:41:14.400 --> 0:41:17.279
<v Speaker 2>but it's the commitment of cooking it and like making it.

0:41:17.320 --> 0:41:19.080
<v Speaker 2>So I think, well, how did you get in your

0:41:19.080 --> 0:41:21.640
<v Speaker 2>head of like I can do this on my own,

0:41:21.680 --> 0:41:23.359
<v Speaker 2>because like going out to eat, and like if you're

0:41:23.440 --> 0:41:25.840
<v Speaker 2>used to eating out or like getting fast food, the

0:41:25.960 --> 0:41:28.520
<v Speaker 2>switch to just like cooking at home and making your

0:41:28.520 --> 0:41:30.600
<v Speaker 2>food at home is like drastic.

0:41:30.640 --> 0:41:31.920
<v Speaker 3>I feel like you did that already.

0:41:31.960 --> 0:41:34.759
<v Speaker 4>So yeah, the thing is when you eat out, a

0:41:34.800 --> 0:41:37.080
<v Speaker 4>lot of the time, your food's cooked with canola oil,

0:41:37.080 --> 0:41:39.440
<v Speaker 4>which is like another really big no note. It's like

0:41:39.520 --> 0:41:42.719
<v Speaker 4>very inflammatory. You should be eating with either avocado or

0:41:42.800 --> 0:41:46.279
<v Speaker 4>olive oil. And so if I do got to eat,

0:41:46.280 --> 0:41:47.920
<v Speaker 4>I do ask if they cook the eggs and like

0:41:47.960 --> 0:41:51.440
<v Speaker 4>canola oil, and I'm that girl, I know, but so

0:41:51.480 --> 0:41:53.280
<v Speaker 4>I try to avoid things, So I try to avoid

0:41:53.320 --> 0:41:55.239
<v Speaker 4>things like that. So like, I know, poach eggs, you

0:41:55.239 --> 0:41:57.279
<v Speaker 4>don't need oil, so I'll usually order poached eggs if

0:41:57.280 --> 0:42:00.920
<v Speaker 4>I don't. Yeah, so I try to just like now

0:42:00.920 --> 0:42:03.040
<v Speaker 4>I've kind of outsmarted the system because I hate being

0:42:03.080 --> 0:42:05.279
<v Speaker 4>that customer that's like, do you know if they use

0:42:05.360 --> 0:42:08.120
<v Speaker 4>olive oil in their salad dressing? And like I already

0:42:08.160 --> 0:42:10.160
<v Speaker 4>have to do the whole gluten free thing. I just

0:42:10.200 --> 0:42:13.680
<v Speaker 4>feel like such a pain. But yeah, I do think

0:42:13.760 --> 0:42:16.560
<v Speaker 4>trying to cook more at home it's easier than you think.

0:42:17.920 --> 0:42:21.080
<v Speaker 4>Upping your protein is like a huge thing. And then

0:42:21.160 --> 0:42:23.080
<v Speaker 4>like the seed oils are like a really big I

0:42:23.120 --> 0:42:25.800
<v Speaker 4>feel like starting it feels like I say, starting small,

0:42:26.160 --> 0:42:27.440
<v Speaker 4>but that's actually a lot of stuff.

0:42:28.880 --> 0:42:29.360
<v Speaker 3>Do you know what?

0:42:29.480 --> 0:42:32.440
<v Speaker 2>Though, you shouldn't feel like a pain just trying to

0:42:32.440 --> 0:42:35.160
<v Speaker 2>put good things in your body. Because when we were

0:42:35.200 --> 0:42:39.000
<v Speaker 2>in Europe, it was shocking the difference of like when

0:42:39.040 --> 0:42:41.680
<v Speaker 2>we had questions, they were so like no one acted

0:42:41.760 --> 0:42:44.279
<v Speaker 2>put out by Hayley's food allergies or anything. They're just like,

0:42:44.280 --> 0:42:46.359
<v Speaker 2>oh yeah, okay, this is what we use, and here's

0:42:46.400 --> 0:42:48.200
<v Speaker 2>what you can have, and this is what we can make.

0:42:48.480 --> 0:42:53.239
<v Speaker 2>But like, you shouldn't be annoying by making sure that

0:42:53.280 --> 0:42:55.800
<v Speaker 2>you're not putting something in your body that is harmful

0:42:55.800 --> 0:42:57.840
<v Speaker 2>to your body. We shouldn't be consuming a lot of

0:42:57.880 --> 0:42:58.680
<v Speaker 2>the stuff that we are.

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<v Speaker 4>That's true, that's true. But I do feel like sometimes

0:43:01.239 --> 0:43:03.480
<v Speaker 4>I'm so high maintenance that that's like just eat at home.

0:43:03.520 --> 0:43:06.120
<v Speaker 4>I'm like, I know you, I know, I do.

0:43:06.320 --> 0:43:07.279
<v Speaker 3>I do, Yeah, and you.

0:43:07.239 --> 0:43:07.880
<v Speaker 1>Do I do.

0:43:08.000 --> 0:43:10.320
<v Speaker 2>So I think it's like maybe maybe it's like starting

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<v Speaker 2>out with trying to make at least one meal at

0:43:14.000 --> 0:43:16.839
<v Speaker 2>home and like doing a copycat of something that you

0:43:16.880 --> 0:43:19.200
<v Speaker 2>love that's like gluten free or anti emplanmatory.

0:43:19.360 --> 0:43:21.400
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, and I would just look into you can google

0:43:21.440 --> 0:43:24.800
<v Speaker 4>like hashimotos, different things to do, because like infrared saunas

0:43:24.800 --> 0:43:29.680
<v Speaker 4>are really really good for hashimotos. I just think, again,

0:43:29.760 --> 0:43:32.200
<v Speaker 4>medication is an option, so I think just kind of.

0:43:32.280 --> 0:43:33.880
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, but isn't the whole thing that once you're on

0:43:33.920 --> 0:43:35.680
<v Speaker 3>the medication forever.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, That's why I'm hesitant to But she says she's

0:43:38.640 --> 0:43:39.840
<v Speaker 4>getting married at the end of the year, so I

0:43:39.840 --> 0:43:41.400
<v Speaker 4>feel like there might be more of a deadline.

0:43:41.800 --> 0:43:44.359
<v Speaker 2>Well, it sounds like she's stressed about her weight more

0:43:44.400 --> 0:43:48.920
<v Speaker 2>than anything, and you've actually lost weight just by cutting

0:43:48.960 --> 0:43:49.560
<v Speaker 2>out gluten.

0:43:49.600 --> 0:43:50.880
<v Speaker 3>And it is true.

0:43:51.000 --> 0:43:54.880
<v Speaker 4>I lost I really did lose weight, and I wasn't trying.

0:43:55.120 --> 0:43:58.120
<v Speaker 4>It was total just shift in my diet. But it is,

0:43:58.239 --> 0:44:01.680
<v Speaker 4>it's it's I think it's gluten's to the anti inflammatory because

0:44:01.719 --> 0:44:03.359
<v Speaker 4>it really just kind of shrinks you.

0:44:04.640 --> 0:44:05.200
<v Speaker 3>Makes sense.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, good luck, Abby, Yeah, good luck.

0:44:07.880 --> 0:44:11.320
<v Speaker 3>And congratulations on your wedding.

0:44:12.480 --> 0:44:17.040
<v Speaker 1>Anonymous says, my boyfriend of six years just told me

0:44:17.080 --> 0:44:19.600
<v Speaker 1>that he cheated on me a few days ago. He

0:44:19.719 --> 0:44:22.359
<v Speaker 1>wanted to take a break to explore and then make

0:44:22.360 --> 0:44:24.560
<v Speaker 1>a decision if you wanted to stay with me, but

0:44:24.600 --> 0:44:27.840
<v Speaker 1>I told him no, we are done. I'm devastated and

0:44:27.960 --> 0:44:30.680
<v Speaker 1>was completely shocked. We had our entire future planned out

0:44:30.719 --> 0:44:34.120
<v Speaker 1>and it feels completely shattered into a million pieces. How

0:44:34.160 --> 0:44:36.520
<v Speaker 1>do I come back from this? Where do I even

0:44:36.600 --> 0:44:40.799
<v Speaker 1>start to meet new guys? Any advice is greatly appreciated.

0:44:41.480 --> 0:44:43.839
<v Speaker 3>Oh that is so.

0:44:45.800 --> 0:44:49.880
<v Speaker 2>Rude. Take a break, to Lauren, then make a decision

0:44:49.920 --> 0:44:54.759
<v Speaker 2>if you're worth it, right, I would say, because I

0:44:54.880 --> 0:44:57.960
<v Speaker 2>feel like, especially when you're in a relationship for a

0:44:57.960 --> 0:45:01.239
<v Speaker 2>long time, there's that feeling of like the thought of

0:45:01.320 --> 0:45:03.320
<v Speaker 2>like where do I begin dating again?

0:45:03.680 --> 0:45:05.560
<v Speaker 3>And I think I think it.

0:45:07.080 --> 0:45:09.759
<v Speaker 2>Just to stay on theme with the podcast, is like

0:45:10.200 --> 0:45:13.239
<v Speaker 2>you should be able to find where can you find

0:45:13.280 --> 0:45:16.319
<v Speaker 2>comfort in yourself, Like getting out of this relationship with

0:45:16.360 --> 0:45:20.000
<v Speaker 2>someone who now has made you trusted for six years

0:45:20.040 --> 0:45:22.280
<v Speaker 2>and now has made you feel like you weren't worthy

0:45:22.320 --> 0:45:28.400
<v Speaker 2>of his loyalty and his trust. You're going to probably

0:45:28.440 --> 0:45:31.480
<v Speaker 2>go through a grieving process of this, really like with

0:45:31.560 --> 0:45:34.359
<v Speaker 2>this relationship, and I think that it's important for you

0:45:34.480 --> 0:45:38.360
<v Speaker 2>to kind of get in touch with yourself again, being

0:45:38.400 --> 0:45:44.400
<v Speaker 2>by yourself, figuring out what you love and what you want,

0:45:44.600 --> 0:45:47.719
<v Speaker 2>and then get into a place where you feel ready

0:45:47.760 --> 0:45:49.160
<v Speaker 2>to give your heart to someone because I think it's

0:45:49.200 --> 0:45:50.560
<v Speaker 2>going to be really scary for.

0:45:50.440 --> 0:45:53.719
<v Speaker 3>You because he betrayed you. Yeah, and you trusted him.

0:45:53.760 --> 0:45:55.280
<v Speaker 2>You thought you were going to be with him forever,

0:45:55.960 --> 0:46:01.000
<v Speaker 2>and now you're in a place where he betrayed that.

0:46:01.239 --> 0:46:03.879
<v Speaker 2>So I think it's I think you give yourself time

0:46:03.920 --> 0:46:07.000
<v Speaker 2>to heal. And I'm so sorry that you're in this position.

0:46:08.280 --> 0:46:11.760
<v Speaker 2>You you were in a long term relationship for before,

0:46:12.120 --> 0:46:13.600
<v Speaker 2>like your long relationship.

0:46:13.640 --> 0:46:14.680
<v Speaker 4>Yeah he didn't cheat on me.

0:46:14.760 --> 0:46:17.440
<v Speaker 2>No, No, no, but like getting just in general, like breaking

0:46:17.560 --> 0:46:19.680
<v Speaker 2>up and like getting out, it's like that feel that

0:46:19.760 --> 0:46:20.520
<v Speaker 2>fear of Like.

0:46:20.760 --> 0:46:22.759
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, and I think I remember when I got out

0:46:22.760 --> 0:46:24.880
<v Speaker 4>of that. I'd never gone to a wedding by myself,

0:46:24.960 --> 0:46:28.239
<v Speaker 4>I'd never done anything alone. And so but my pendulum

0:46:28.280 --> 0:46:30.560
<v Speaker 4>swung so far to the side that it was like

0:46:31.120 --> 0:46:33.400
<v Speaker 4>I preferred doing stuff alone, Like I liked going to

0:46:33.440 --> 0:46:35.759
<v Speaker 4>events alone. I liked doing stuff alone. Like I think

0:46:35.760 --> 0:46:39.880
<v Speaker 4>I got a little too comfortable in the aloness.

0:46:39.880 --> 0:46:40.560
<v Speaker 3>I always wanted.

0:46:40.880 --> 0:46:43.160
<v Speaker 2>That's not true, Like maybe you got comfortable with it,

0:46:43.200 --> 0:46:46.000
<v Speaker 2>but you were always hopeful for it to find a yah.

0:46:46.040 --> 0:46:48.160
<v Speaker 4>But I always I knew there's a thing, the desire,

0:46:48.200 --> 0:46:49.759
<v Speaker 4>a desire. It was always a desire of my heart

0:46:49.840 --> 0:46:53.719
<v Speaker 4>to like be married, have a lifelong partner, have kids,

0:46:53.760 --> 0:46:55.719
<v Speaker 4>Like that's always been a desire of my heart. So

0:46:56.360 --> 0:46:59.080
<v Speaker 4>I actively pursued that. Does that make sense? So, like

0:46:59.120 --> 0:47:00.960
<v Speaker 4>I kept dating even though it sucked, and like I

0:47:01.040 --> 0:47:08.239
<v Speaker 4>kept getting just lots of failed attempts. I knew that

0:47:08.239 --> 0:47:11.720
<v Speaker 4>that was something that was going to come to me eventually. Uh,

0:47:11.760 --> 0:47:14.759
<v Speaker 4>And I wanted that so much. But maybe if you've

0:47:14.760 --> 0:47:19.560
<v Speaker 4>been maybe that's not what you want. Anonymous what's not

0:47:19.600 --> 0:47:21.400
<v Speaker 4>what she wants. Maybe she doesn't want to be married,

0:47:21.800 --> 0:47:24.920
<v Speaker 4>maybe that's not what she wants. Maybe, oh, maybe she

0:47:25.000 --> 0:47:28.759
<v Speaker 4>just wants to be like flung around a little, you

0:47:28.760 --> 0:47:29.239
<v Speaker 4>know what I mean.

0:47:29.239 --> 0:47:30.520
<v Speaker 3>I'm note wants to be.

0:47:31.520 --> 0:47:33.680
<v Speaker 2>I think she feels flung around right now, And I

0:47:33.719 --> 0:47:36.200
<v Speaker 2>don't know if that's what she's gonna want, right I

0:47:36.239 --> 0:47:39.040
<v Speaker 2>think that she's probably gonna want to feel safe and

0:47:39.080 --> 0:47:43.200
<v Speaker 2>stable and protect and cared for. So I think that

0:47:43.320 --> 0:47:46.200
<v Speaker 2>you do that for yourself, lean into your friendships, lean

0:47:46.239 --> 0:47:49.640
<v Speaker 2>into the things that do make you feel safe and

0:47:49.680 --> 0:47:52.200
<v Speaker 2>loved and cared for. And I think when your heart

0:47:52.239 --> 0:47:54.719
<v Speaker 2>feels ready to put yourself out there to date again,

0:47:55.239 --> 0:47:58.279
<v Speaker 2>you go out do things that you enjoy where there's

0:47:58.400 --> 0:48:01.040
<v Speaker 2>other people there. You get involved where there's community.

0:48:01.200 --> 0:48:02.799
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, because she said, where do I even start to

0:48:02.840 --> 0:48:05.400
<v Speaker 4>meet new guys? And I feel like the world is

0:48:05.400 --> 0:48:07.920
<v Speaker 4>our oyster these days. Like you can meet people on Instagram,

0:48:07.960 --> 0:48:09.719
<v Speaker 4>you can meet people on dating apps, you can bet people.

0:48:09.840 --> 0:48:12.879
<v Speaker 1>True, but I think she needs time more than anything else.

0:48:12.880 --> 0:48:15.319
<v Speaker 4>I agree, But but where you meet them is like

0:48:16.000 --> 0:48:17.120
<v Speaker 4>anywhere anyway.

0:48:17.200 --> 0:48:19.160
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I wouldn't sign up for an app at this point.

0:48:19.200 --> 0:48:21.480
<v Speaker 1>I would just let let yourself heal for a while

0:48:21.600 --> 0:48:23.920
<v Speaker 1>and get to know who you are without him, because

0:48:23.920 --> 0:48:25.760
<v Speaker 1>you don't know that person it's been six years.

0:48:26.000 --> 0:48:28.960
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, Yeah, so I agree with that.

0:48:29.040 --> 0:48:31.560
<v Speaker 2>And if you if you're like I am just in

0:48:31.600 --> 0:48:33.279
<v Speaker 2>the mood for a rebound and I don't want to

0:48:33.280 --> 0:48:35.520
<v Speaker 2>do anything safe and that feels like what you need to.

0:48:35.440 --> 0:48:38.960
<v Speaker 4>Do, do it, do it, but.

0:48:38.239 --> 0:48:39.360
<v Speaker 3>But don't take care of yourself.

0:48:40.440 --> 0:48:42.879
<v Speaker 1>The decision you made with him, You made the right call. Yeah,

0:48:42.880 --> 0:48:43.160
<v Speaker 1>And she.

0:48:44.840 --> 0:48:46.720
<v Speaker 3>Is not a reflection of your value.

0:48:47.880 --> 0:48:50.319
<v Speaker 4>And also, I know this is going to be hard,

0:48:50.360 --> 0:48:53.319
<v Speaker 4>but try not to take that experience into your next

0:48:53.360 --> 0:48:56.520
<v Speaker 4>relationship and be very like, don't have your guard up

0:48:56.640 --> 0:48:59.120
<v Speaker 4>and don't like, don't put those trust issues from your

0:48:59.120 --> 0:49:01.680
<v Speaker 4>ex onto your future partner.

0:49:02.560 --> 0:49:07.319
<v Speaker 2>That's true, because that will happen, Yeah, unless you let

0:49:07.400 --> 0:49:08.400
<v Speaker 2>yourself heal from this.

0:49:08.640 --> 0:49:10.240
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, And that might look ugly.

0:49:10.280 --> 0:49:12.480
<v Speaker 2>It might be like anger, it might be rage, it

0:49:12.560 --> 0:49:16.839
<v Speaker 2>might be like sadness and grief. But let yourself feel

0:49:16.840 --> 0:49:22.400
<v Speaker 2>those things because it's important to get it out now. Yeah,

0:49:22.640 --> 0:49:25.000
<v Speaker 2>we have a fun episode coming up on Thursday.

0:49:25.040 --> 0:49:27.160
<v Speaker 3>We're doing something we've never done before.

0:49:27.440 --> 0:49:29.200
<v Speaker 4>It's gonna be more of like a mini episode. If

0:49:29.239 --> 0:49:29.839
<v Speaker 4>you will And.

0:49:29.760 --> 0:49:31.960
<v Speaker 1>By the way, if people have ideas for what the

0:49:32.000 --> 0:49:34.719
<v Speaker 1>Thursday episode should be, they should contribute them because we

0:49:34.719 --> 0:49:37.319
<v Speaker 1>want to do different stuff. Yeah, we did games for

0:49:37.360 --> 0:49:39.160
<v Speaker 1>a while, we did guests for a while, and we'll

0:49:39.160 --> 0:49:41.600
<v Speaker 1>still do some guests. But we're open to ideas.

0:49:41.800 --> 0:49:46.520
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, we're open to suggestions, So if you have any,

0:49:46.960 --> 0:49:47.440
<v Speaker 2>let us know.

0:49:48.239 --> 0:49:49.439
<v Speaker 4>But I'm in the Facebook group.

0:49:49.640 --> 0:49:54.240
<v Speaker 2>But this Thursday, we are going back to two thousand

0:49:54.360 --> 0:49:58.800
<v Speaker 2>and seventeen. The year is twenty seventeen. It is episode

0:49:58.840 --> 0:50:03.160
<v Speaker 2>seven of Scrubbing In with Bechetillian on Your AD and

0:50:04.080 --> 0:50:08.520
<v Speaker 2>it is a wild change that has happened to us

0:50:08.520 --> 0:50:11.759
<v Speaker 2>as people since this episode. So we're going to be

0:50:12.320 --> 0:50:15.040
<v Speaker 2>recapping it. If you want to listen, it's episode seven

0:50:15.120 --> 0:50:18.280
<v Speaker 2>Scrubbing In with Bectillians on your AD and it's.

0:50:18.120 --> 0:50:20.480
<v Speaker 4>Called Annual check Up is the title of.

0:50:20.440 --> 0:50:23.759
<v Speaker 2>The episode, and it has some gems in there. So

0:50:23.800 --> 0:50:26.239
<v Speaker 2>we're going to be kind of just recapping it and

0:50:26.280 --> 0:50:29.480
<v Speaker 2>like rehashing who we were as people during that time.

0:50:29.560 --> 0:50:31.960
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, and I remember you referenced somebody you called him

0:50:32.040 --> 0:50:34.719
<v Speaker 4>Arnold Swartz, and yeah, I don't even remember who that was,

0:50:35.520 --> 0:50:35.759
<v Speaker 4>do you?

0:50:36.000 --> 0:50:36.359
<v Speaker 3>I think?

0:50:36.440 --> 0:50:38.160
<v Speaker 4>So all right, we'll get into it.

0:50:38.239 --> 0:50:41.600
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, So we'll be back Thursday with that and we

0:50:41.680 --> 0:50:45.040
<v Speaker 2>hope you have a wonderful week and we love you

0:50:45.080 --> 0:50:45.439
<v Speaker 2>so much.

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<v Speaker 3>Bye bye,