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Speaker 1: Hello, Hey, what's up? Man? What's your name?

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Speaker 2: Oh? No, fucking way, dude, my name is b B.

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Speaker 1: What's going on? B has life? Man?

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Speaker 2: Life? Bro? Oh I'm sorry, I'm geeking. I didn't dude.

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Speaker 2: I've been listening to you for years. I never thought

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Speaker 2: I would have seen your name pop over on my phone. Bro,

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Speaker 2: what the fuck? This is crazy? This is crazy?

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Speaker 1: Well, be we're here, Uh, it's December, whatever the year.

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Speaker 1: Who cares? And we're both alive at this very moment,

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Speaker 1: and we're connected now via a system of over Yeah,

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Speaker 1: via a thing that is so deeply beyond our comprehension

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Speaker 1: as to how it works that it would take us

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Speaker 1: a lifetime. Maybe not a lifetime, but it would take

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Speaker 1: us more time than either of us care to invest

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Speaker 1: to really understand the technology behind how you and I

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Speaker 1: are connected now. But it doesn't matter who care. We

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Speaker 1: don't have to think about that stuff. All we have

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Speaker 1: to do is be in this moment with each other.

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Speaker 1: So let's do that. Ye, what's going on with you? B?

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Speaker 1: What tell me about your life?

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Speaker 2: I mean there's a lot going on right now, dude, honestly,

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Speaker 2: but yeah, I mean yeah, there's a lot going on.

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Speaker 2: I mean I DJ. I'm just I'm hustling on the side.

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Speaker 2: I got three months paid off of my work as well,

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Speaker 2: so that has been great. Just been going great.

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Speaker 1: You got three months paid off of your work.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, hell yeah, dude.

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Speaker 1: Are you a teacher?

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Speaker 2: No? No, So I work at the bank and I've

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Speaker 2: found out about this program that my company offers when

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Speaker 2: my coworkers told me about it, Like everyone in the

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Speaker 2: company is taking it almost but you can file like

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Speaker 2: it's called a leave of absence. I've been going to

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Speaker 2: therapy actually thanks to your show for a while, and

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Speaker 2: they told me that since I do go to therapy,

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Speaker 2: I can just have my therapist sign up on some

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Speaker 2: papers that's saying that I'm like I'm too anxious and

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Speaker 2: I can't work and everything. So yeah, file had Really

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Speaker 2: I've been getting paid. Yeah, Yeah, I've been off. I've

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Speaker 2: been off for the last like two months. I'm supposed

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Speaker 2: to go back end of this month, but I'm trying

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Speaker 2: to see if i can get it extended to longer.

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Speaker 1: So you can get a note from a therapist that

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Speaker 1: tells you that you're too anxious to work, and then

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Speaker 1: your job has to pay you for three months.

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Speaker 2: Correct at least three months. Yeah, they pay you one

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Speaker 2: hundred percent of your rate for three months and then

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Speaker 2: after that you can get it extended, but it's only

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Speaker 2: going to be at like eighty percent or something like that.

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Speaker 1: What is that? This like a whose program is this?

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Speaker 1: This can't be the bank's program. It's just like a

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Speaker 1: government program.

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Speaker 2: No, No, it's through the bank. But the bank company's

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Speaker 2: partners with this third party company that does it, and

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Speaker 2: they're the ones who are prove it or don't approve it.

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Speaker 2: But that therapist pretty much just gave me the paperism

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Speaker 2: was like, here, just just tell me what you want

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Speaker 2: to say. I'll sign up on it.

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Speaker 1: So wait, what's the incentive of the company to do that?

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Speaker 2: Literally nothing, I guess, just to provide like a like

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Speaker 2: a I don't know, honestly, just to provide time off

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Speaker 2: for their employees who genuinely do like feel too anxious

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Speaker 2: and sue because it is stressful working in the bank.

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Speaker 2: You think we just like kind of punch numbers and

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Speaker 2: get people cash and take cash from people and stuff

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Speaker 2: like that. But it's so much deeper than that. There's

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Speaker 2: so many different rules and regulations and they go do

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Speaker 2: audits and shit like that. It actually is right.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, No, I'm sure it is. I guess my one

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Speaker 1: My thing is, I'm just like, uh, it's a nice

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Speaker 1: in the business of kindness, you know what I'm saying.

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Speaker 1: I'm like, what is the There's gotta be something behind

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Speaker 1: it of like why they're doing I'm just curious, you know,

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Speaker 1: what's the third it's the third party that they're getting with.

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Speaker 2: I don't want to say the name of the company

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Speaker 2: to be. I'm not even supposed to be. I'm supposed

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Speaker 1: All right, well whatever, we don't have to talk about capitalism.

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Speaker 1: We can talk about you.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, But I don't know. It's been going great during

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Speaker 2: this time off. I've just been hustling, man. I'm learning

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Speaker 2: how to day trade. I'm three D printing ship and

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Speaker 2: I'm reselling it. Actually had a trade show here in

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Speaker 2: about like two hours. I got ahead over there to

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Speaker 2: too as well. I've just been I've just been kind

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Speaker 1: You're learning how to day trade.

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Speaker 2: Yeah yeah, yep, like crypto, I'm doing like foreign exchange.

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Speaker 2: So like okay, so you ever you ever look at

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Speaker 1: Yeah yeah, no, I know, I know, I know four X.

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Speaker 1: So you're like you're like watching the chart of like

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Speaker 1: up and down and then trade them for Okay, now.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, because you can make money on that, on that

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Speaker 2: value that changes all the time. You can make money

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Speaker 1: Have you how much money have you lost doing this?

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Speaker 2: I mean trading overall or just in four X, because

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Speaker 2: because in trading, I mean I've done I've gone anywhere

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Speaker 2: from like doing stock to crypto to commodities like silver

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Speaker 2: and gold and ship I've traded for a while, but

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Speaker 2: with four X, I just started not too long ago.

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Speaker 2: But I haven't. I haven't lost any real money in

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Speaker 2: four X yet. I'm like trading. I'm trading with a

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Speaker 2: simulated account. I'm going to challenge. They gave me an account

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Speaker 2: with like one hundred grand and they had to make

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Speaker 2: ten grand on it in like sixty days, and then

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Speaker 2: I get to keep eighty percent of the profit that

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Speaker 1: Okay, slow down, who First of who's they? And then

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Speaker 2: Uh, it's not real money in the account yet? And

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Speaker 2: they it's called it's called it's called an FLMC. So

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Speaker 2: they they like, you pay five hundred bucks and they

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Speaker 2: give you an account with us with like one hundred

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Speaker 2: after that they give you like a real account with

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Speaker 2: that account, then you get to keep eighty percent of it.

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Speaker 1: You pay this company five hundred dollars and then they

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Speaker 1: give you a They give you one hundred thousand dollars

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Speaker 1: ten thousand dollars of fake money, then they will give

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Speaker 1: and then give them a percentage of the real money.

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Speaker 2: Correct. Yes, sir, that is right.

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Speaker 1: That's fascinating.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, it's dope as hell. It's called the f

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Speaker 1: Now, so basically, they give you this money to be

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Speaker 1: they give you this fake money to be like, all right,

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Speaker 1: are you are you good at trading? And then there

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Speaker 1: you are. Then they're like, okay, here's some money to

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Speaker 1: isn't a lot okay four x right, and a lot

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Speaker 1: of this trading stuff isn't a lot of it? Like luck?

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Speaker 1: You know, So couldn't you theoretically with your fake money

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Speaker 2: I mean yeah, I mean at the end of the day,

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Speaker 2: I always tell people who are interested in it, it's

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Speaker 2: that's what it is. So you always have a fifty

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Speaker 2: be like an eighty twenty chance. You know what I'm saying,

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Speaker 2: it's it's it's it's kind of that simple. Honestly, it's simple.

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Speaker 2: It seems complex just because people see red and green

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Speaker 2: candlesticks and there's charts and shit all over the screen,

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Speaker 2: but it's actually very simple. No.

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Speaker 1: But what I'm asking you. But what I'm asking you is,

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Speaker 1: is the difference between this and if I was like,

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Speaker 1: all right, here's one thousand fake dollars to go to

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Speaker 2: I mean, I mean, I guess in that logic, it's

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Speaker 2: kind of the same thing, pretty much the same.

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Speaker 1: Okay, so it is. So it is still kind of gambling.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, I'd say, I'd say just more aculated gambling,

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Speaker 2: just because again I'm looking at different type of what

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Speaker 2: You know, with gambling, the house is pretty much going

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Speaker 2: mean there's people who make who are like eighty percent

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Speaker 2: unless you're counting card or some shit.

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Speaker 1: Okay, so you're trading, and are you I guess, I

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Speaker 2: I'd say I'm pretty break even. I'm not like a professional.

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Speaker 2: I don't do it for a living. I mean, but

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Speaker 2: I'm I'm just doing on the side, just trying to

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Speaker 2: make some money, trying to beat this economy. Man, I'm

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Speaker 2: trying to stack up as many things as I can

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Speaker 2: to help me out. And thankfully I met a guy

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Speaker 2: who who has made it, has who does do that

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Speaker 2: for a living, and he believes in me enough to

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Speaker 2: he bought that account for me and everything, so he's

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Speaker 2: been kind of mentoring me.

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Speaker 1: This ironically sounds more anxiety inducing than working at a bank.

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Speaker 2: I mean, it's it's a different type of anxiety. I

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Speaker 2: guess you could say. I mean, yeah, because happen to

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Speaker 2: you know people people hold their money to a certain

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Speaker 2: standard and when shit is like not right in their account,

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Speaker 2: everybody in the bank. That that can be Yeah, that

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Speaker 2: can be a lot too, because I've had like six

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Speaker 2: year old women come in and be like, I had

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Speaker 2: one hundred thousand dollars in this bank. What the fuck

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Speaker 2: you guys are charging me at three dollars fee. I'm like,

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Speaker 2: bro fucking I can't help that. I don't make commission

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Speaker 2: off of this. I don't. I don't, I don't, I don't.

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Speaker 2: I don't get enjoyed in telling you that you gotta

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Speaker 2: pay us five dollars a month to keep his killing.

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Speaker 1: You're like that guy from South Park who's like, Okay,

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Speaker 1: we'll take you one hundred thousand dollars and put it

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Speaker 1: into a money market mutual fund and it's.

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Speaker 2: I'm just running a whole bunch of side quests, honestly, man.

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Speaker 1: By the way, I just want to just so you know,

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Speaker 1: you should totally do that. You should you should totally

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Speaker 1: So yeah, well it's hard out there, right because you

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Speaker 2: Yeah, So so technically I was supposed to move out

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Speaker 2: I just I just know that she's doing her She's

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00:20:54,040 --> 00:20:55,719
Speaker 2: talked to me about it before. I was like, okay,

435
00:20:55,760 --> 00:20:59,000
Speaker 2: it's cool. I just I don't know. The credit shit

436
00:20:59,080 --> 00:21:00,760
Speaker 2: has stopped me from doing a lot in my life.

437
00:21:00,800 --> 00:21:03,960
Speaker 2: Like I wanted to get a new motorcycle because I

438
00:21:04,040 --> 00:21:05,560
Speaker 2: ride bikes and I wanted to get another one, but

439
00:21:05,600 --> 00:21:07,600
Speaker 2: I can't, obviously, because no one will approve me. I

440
00:21:07,600 --> 00:21:09,919
Speaker 2: wanted to trade in my car and I can't. I

441
00:21:09,960 --> 00:21:12,080
Speaker 2: wanted to move into a new apartment. I can't. So

442
00:21:12,160 --> 00:21:13,959
Speaker 2: it's like, shit that she's done is really kind of

443
00:21:14,160 --> 00:21:15,400
Speaker 2: hindered me like a lot.

444
00:21:15,680 --> 00:21:18,600
Speaker 1: Actually, how's your guys' relationship in general?

445
00:21:20,560 --> 00:21:23,520
Speaker 2: It was good, it was good, but i'd say, after

446
00:21:23,560 --> 00:21:25,680
Speaker 2: this and like another incident that happened, is just I

447
00:21:25,680 --> 00:21:27,840
Speaker 2: don't know, it's not the same. It's not the same,

448
00:21:27,920 --> 00:21:30,640
Speaker 2: Like we're all right. Like she'll I'll call her randomly

449
00:21:30,680 --> 00:21:32,600
Speaker 2: and she never answers, but then she'll text me and

450
00:21:32,640 --> 00:21:34,879
Speaker 2: like say with stuff and shit like that. But I

451
00:21:34,880 --> 00:21:36,800
Speaker 2: mean it's cool. I mean, she she sends me from

452
00:21:36,960 --> 00:21:38,920
Speaker 2: like money for groceries and shit if I really really

453
00:21:38,960 --> 00:21:41,040
Speaker 2: need it, because I hate asking for help, Like that's

454
00:21:41,080 --> 00:21:42,399
Speaker 2: one thing about me that I need to work on,

455
00:21:42,440 --> 00:21:46,199
Speaker 2: but I fucking hate asking for help. But I was

456
00:21:46,280 --> 00:21:48,760
Speaker 2: just super down bade one day and I was like, look,

457
00:21:48,800 --> 00:21:50,320
Speaker 2: I don't have any groceries in my house. You know

458
00:21:50,320 --> 00:21:51,960
Speaker 2: what I'm saying. I can't eat, so I need to

459
00:21:51,960 --> 00:21:53,920
Speaker 2: get some food. So she sent me some money for groceries.

460
00:21:53,920 --> 00:21:56,680
Speaker 2: So I mean, maybe she's trying to get better, trying

461
00:21:56,680 --> 00:21:58,720
Speaker 2: to be there for me, but it's just I don't

462
00:21:58,760 --> 00:22:02,160
Speaker 2: know's she's she screwed me in a really big way

463
00:22:02,240 --> 00:22:04,879
Speaker 2: that like it's hard to just do life, you know

464
00:22:04,920 --> 00:22:08,040
Speaker 2: what I'm saying. It's kind of hard to forget her

465
00:22:08,040 --> 00:22:08,399
Speaker 2: for all that.

466
00:22:09,040 --> 00:22:11,280
Speaker 1: M h are you only child?

467
00:22:13,119 --> 00:22:15,400
Speaker 2: I have a stepsister that I don't I've never really

468
00:22:15,440 --> 00:22:16,080
Speaker 2: got along with.

469
00:22:16,160 --> 00:22:23,920
Speaker 1: But yeah, so your mom's remarried. No, no, well was

470
00:22:23,960 --> 00:22:24,840
Speaker 1: your dad's remarried?

471
00:22:26,840 --> 00:22:29,400
Speaker 2: No? No, my real dad was locked up. And then

472
00:22:29,440 --> 00:22:32,600
Speaker 2: she met this one dude who's been in my life.

473
00:22:32,960 --> 00:22:35,880
Speaker 2: He's a ship, but yeah, he was in my life

474
00:22:35,880 --> 00:22:37,680
Speaker 2: since I was born, and he had a kid with

475
00:22:37,720 --> 00:22:41,040
Speaker 2: my mom, and then they got divorced and then we

476
00:22:41,160 --> 00:22:42,560
Speaker 2: moved away and then.

477
00:22:43,920 --> 00:22:47,399
Speaker 1: Yeah, okay, so yeah you go oya. She's a half sister.

478
00:22:48,640 --> 00:22:50,360
Speaker 2: Yeah yeah, yeah, mm hmm.

479
00:22:50,480 --> 00:22:52,560
Speaker 1: And she doesn't live where you live.

480
00:22:54,000 --> 00:22:54,280
Speaker 3: Nah.

481
00:22:54,320 --> 00:22:56,640
Speaker 2: My whole family's kind of pretty divided, so I mean

482
00:22:57,119 --> 00:22:59,760
Speaker 2: we don't really that's another thing. Like on holidays, I'll

483
00:22:59,760 --> 00:23:01,480
Speaker 2: just spend them by myself and ship. But now she

484
00:23:01,600 --> 00:23:04,640
Speaker 2: lives out in Louisiana. She goes to LSU. My mom

485
00:23:04,680 --> 00:23:05,480
Speaker 2: lives out in Houston.

486
00:23:06,000 --> 00:23:09,720
Speaker 1: Mm hmm. Your mom's in Houston, and where are you?

487
00:23:10,960 --> 00:23:13,200
Speaker 2: I'm not in like the like the DFW area.

488
00:23:14,080 --> 00:23:16,320
Speaker 1: Okay, all right, right, that's not that far, but yeah,

489
00:23:16,359 --> 00:23:18,320
Speaker 1: I mean it's a whole city away.

490
00:23:18,280 --> 00:23:20,040
Speaker 2: Ye, Like it's like a five hour drive.

491
00:23:20,520 --> 00:23:26,080
Speaker 1: Yeah, hm hmm. So do you So do you have

492
00:23:26,160 --> 00:23:29,800
Speaker 1: like any do your friend's family, like who's around, who's

493
00:23:29,840 --> 00:23:33,400
Speaker 1: around Dallas?

494
00:23:34,080 --> 00:23:35,720
Speaker 2: I mean, honestly, it's just kind of just me and

495
00:23:35,760 --> 00:23:36,959
Speaker 2: my pets against the world. Man.

496
00:23:36,960 --> 00:23:37,440
Speaker 3: I don't really.

497
00:23:37,440 --> 00:23:39,440
Speaker 2: I don't really. I mean, I I have some some

498
00:23:39,480 --> 00:23:41,560
Speaker 2: people like I'm cool with, but I don't really Like

499
00:23:41,640 --> 00:23:43,520
Speaker 2: it's no, there's nobody in my life that I can

500
00:23:43,600 --> 00:23:45,040
Speaker 2: kind of just call and kind of just shoot the

501
00:23:45,040 --> 00:23:46,960
Speaker 2: ship with, you know what I'm saying. That's just I'll

502
00:23:47,000 --> 00:23:49,520
Speaker 2: see people like like my DJ gigs, then I'll be like, oh, hey,

503
00:23:49,520 --> 00:23:51,480
Speaker 2: what's up. Like we'll be cool. But it's nobody that

504
00:23:51,520 --> 00:23:53,919
Speaker 2: I can just go, I don't know, just go to

505
00:23:53,960 --> 00:23:55,920
Speaker 2: the movies or go paintballing with. You know what I'm saying.

506
00:23:55,920 --> 00:23:57,600
Speaker 2: There's nobody in my life like that I had. I

507
00:23:57,640 --> 00:24:01,320
Speaker 2: had a girlfriend, but that that ship went at that situation.

508
00:24:00,960 --> 00:24:03,720
Speaker 1: With what did you grow up in DFW?

509
00:24:05,040 --> 00:24:08,359
Speaker 2: No, I grew up in in In. I grew up

510
00:24:08,400 --> 00:24:09,840
Speaker 2: in LA like Los Angeles area.

511
00:24:09,920 --> 00:24:13,560
Speaker 1: Okay, yeah, wow, why'd you move to Texas?

512
00:24:15,280 --> 00:24:16,600
Speaker 2: Uh? Kind of just to get away?

513
00:24:16,720 --> 00:24:16,920
Speaker 1: Man.

514
00:24:17,000 --> 00:24:18,720
Speaker 2: Honestly, it's just I just I saw the.

515
00:24:20,320 --> 00:24:20,600
Speaker 1: I did.

516
00:24:20,600 --> 00:24:23,000
Speaker 2: Everything was just getting so expensive, and I knew a

517
00:24:23,000 --> 00:24:24,919
Speaker 2: guy that was making like six figures a year and

518
00:24:24,960 --> 00:24:26,960
Speaker 2: he was still living paycheck to paycheck. So I'm like,

519
00:24:26,960 --> 00:24:28,600
Speaker 2: I don't know, I don't know how the hell I'm

520
00:24:28,600 --> 00:24:30,200
Speaker 2: going to do this. So I kind of moved away

521
00:24:30,320 --> 00:24:31,840
Speaker 2: just to kind of, yeah.

522
00:24:31,760 --> 00:24:32,040
Speaker 1: Do that.

523
00:24:32,119 --> 00:24:35,240
Speaker 2: And obviously Texas was the promised Land after COVID. Everybody

524
00:24:35,320 --> 00:24:36,879
Speaker 2: was like, I'm moving to Texas, so I kind of

525
00:24:37,600 --> 00:24:38,919
Speaker 2: I joined. I'm a transplant.

526
00:24:40,880 --> 00:24:46,440
Speaker 1: And what happened with your girlfriends? Man?

527
00:24:46,600 --> 00:24:50,120
Speaker 2: A lot a lot? Honestly, she just she just I mean,

528
00:24:50,160 --> 00:24:53,040
Speaker 2: the latest update is she's just crazy, like abusive. So

529
00:24:53,119 --> 00:24:55,199
Speaker 2: she she caught herself like putting her hands on me

530
00:24:55,200 --> 00:24:56,639
Speaker 2: and ship so I could call the cops. After the

531
00:24:56,640 --> 00:24:59,200
Speaker 2: third time, like the first time, I was like, okay,

532
00:24:59,240 --> 00:25:01,520
Speaker 2: maybe you know I'm saying I kind of put the

533
00:25:01,520 --> 00:25:05,119
Speaker 2: blame on myself, but I knew it wasn't okay for

534
00:25:05,160 --> 00:25:06,680
Speaker 2: her to be putting her hands on me because again,

535
00:25:06,720 --> 00:25:08,480
Speaker 2: I grew up in a household that was that was

536
00:25:08,760 --> 00:25:10,640
Speaker 2: full of domestic violence. That's the reason why I said

537
00:25:10,680 --> 00:25:13,879
Speaker 2: fuck my stepdad because he was like that, so I

538
00:25:13,920 --> 00:25:16,000
Speaker 2: know what that situation is like. So for so for

539
00:25:16,080 --> 00:25:17,480
Speaker 2: her to put her hands on me, it was kind

540
00:25:17,480 --> 00:25:18,960
Speaker 2: of like a lot. And then she did it a

541
00:25:19,000 --> 00:25:20,679
Speaker 2: second time, and then she did a third time. So

542
00:25:20,680 --> 00:25:22,439
Speaker 2: I might not screw that dude. I called the cops.

543
00:25:22,480 --> 00:25:24,560
Speaker 2: So mm hmm mmm.

544
00:25:26,400 --> 00:25:28,600
Speaker 1: Yeah, So I can't How old are you?

545
00:25:29,760 --> 00:25:31,760
Speaker 2: I'm twenty five, so fow.

546
00:25:31,560 --> 00:25:36,520
Speaker 1: Okay, did you? Did you? So you don't have any

547
00:25:36,800 --> 00:25:38,640
Speaker 1: like a whole you don't have any sense of community

548
00:25:38,680 --> 00:25:40,480
Speaker 1: out that because you're doing a lot of stuff right,

549
00:25:40,600 --> 00:25:42,880
Speaker 1: Like like you talk about like seeing people, seeing people

550
00:25:42,880 --> 00:25:46,760
Speaker 1: as a DJ gigs, Like how is that?

551
00:25:46,880 --> 00:25:47,080
Speaker 2: You know?

552
00:25:47,160 --> 00:25:50,680
Speaker 1: Are you like build like you're out right?

553
00:25:50,960 --> 00:25:51,159
Speaker 3: You know?

554
00:25:52,000 --> 00:25:54,240
Speaker 2: I mean, I mean I'm out, but I'm not really

555
00:25:54,280 --> 00:25:55,920
Speaker 2: like out, you know what I'm saying. So, so I

556
00:25:56,040 --> 00:25:58,000
Speaker 2: go to the spot every Friday night and I DJ,

557
00:25:58,800 --> 00:26:01,399
Speaker 2: but it's just me behind the I'm just by myself

558
00:26:01,440 --> 00:26:03,280
Speaker 2: playing music and stuff. And occasionally I'll get like a

559
00:26:03,359 --> 00:26:05,880
Speaker 2: drunkerl will come up and be like, oh, DJ, don't

560
00:26:05,880 --> 00:26:07,639
Speaker 2: take videos with me and shit. But I mean the

561
00:26:07,680 --> 00:26:10,399
Speaker 2: end of the night, I'm still sleeping by myself. I

562
00:26:10,400 --> 00:26:12,159
Speaker 2: don't really have like a sense of community when I

563
00:26:12,320 --> 00:26:15,480
Speaker 2: I mean I did when I was riding motorcycles, I

564
00:26:15,760 --> 00:26:18,040
Speaker 2: will go to a motorcycle meet like a damn near

565
00:26:18,119 --> 00:26:20,480
Speaker 2: every day, So that community was pretty deep. But I mean,

566
00:26:20,480 --> 00:26:23,040
Speaker 2: now that it's cold, it's too cold to ride, everybody's

567
00:26:23,119 --> 00:26:24,919
Speaker 2: kind of just in hibernation or they're just hanging a

568
00:26:24,960 --> 00:26:27,439
Speaker 2: month like their own kind of people, and it's just

569
00:26:27,480 --> 00:26:29,600
Speaker 2: kind of me. I'm just here here just doing my

570
00:26:29,640 --> 00:26:30,160
Speaker 2: side quest.

571
00:26:30,240 --> 00:26:30,400
Speaker 3: Man.

572
00:26:31,600 --> 00:26:35,840
Speaker 1: This in general, I mean the next four months in

573
00:26:36,000 --> 00:26:38,959
Speaker 1: general kind of just suck because it's cold.

574
00:26:39,400 --> 00:26:43,560
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, I mean there's still stuff to do. I mean,

575
00:26:43,640 --> 00:26:45,840
Speaker 2: I'm a pretty weird guy. I'm into weird stuff. So

576
00:26:45,920 --> 00:26:48,200
Speaker 2: ill I've been seeing a whole bunch of different events

577
00:26:48,200 --> 00:26:49,639
Speaker 2: that I want to go to. Like there's a Simil

578
00:26:49,680 --> 00:26:52,680
Speaker 2: wrestling events out out in Texas I want to go watch.

579
00:26:52,680 --> 00:26:54,760
Speaker 2: It's a huge sumo fest that I want to go watch.

580
00:26:55,680 --> 00:26:58,399
Speaker 2: And there's also like ren Fest and stuff like that,

581
00:26:58,480 --> 00:27:00,880
Speaker 2: so I can. I'll find stuff to enter myself. It's

582
00:27:00,960 --> 00:27:03,720
Speaker 2: just I don't know, I lacked that sense of like community,

583
00:27:03,760 --> 00:27:05,800
Speaker 2: even like with family and with friends, I don't really

584
00:27:05,880 --> 00:27:08,680
Speaker 2: have like a community around me. And I mean it's

585
00:27:08,800 --> 00:27:10,840
Speaker 2: I mean it's I think it's lonely. But I mean

586
00:27:10,880 --> 00:27:13,160
Speaker 2: I'm here. I'll tough it out. I got my pets

587
00:27:13,200 --> 00:27:14,119
Speaker 2: to kind of keep the company.

588
00:27:14,200 --> 00:27:15,879
Speaker 1: But what pets do you have?

589
00:27:17,160 --> 00:27:19,000
Speaker 2: I got two cats and two dogs. I got a

590
00:27:19,000 --> 00:27:21,000
Speaker 2: pug and a frenchy M.

591
00:27:22,119 --> 00:27:22,600
Speaker 1: Very cute.

592
00:27:22,680 --> 00:27:28,080
Speaker 2: Yeah nice, Yeah, I'm my little guys. M. Yeah.

593
00:27:28,080 --> 00:27:30,159
Speaker 1: Community is really important having people around you, is I

594
00:27:30,400 --> 00:27:34,359
Speaker 1: I have noticed I think over let's see, I'm about

595
00:27:34,400 --> 00:27:38,479
Speaker 1: to turn twenty eight, and I've been thinking about my

596
00:27:38,600 --> 00:27:42,040
Speaker 1: life and things I've learned. And one of the things

597
00:27:42,040 --> 00:27:44,360
Speaker 1: that I have learned, at least for me, and everyone's

598
00:27:44,440 --> 00:27:48,280
Speaker 1: kind of different, but I've learned over the course of

599
00:27:48,320 --> 00:27:51,760
Speaker 1: my life the importance of like having somewhere to go,

600
00:27:53,760 --> 00:27:57,159
Speaker 1: a third space as they call it, because the times

601
00:27:57,160 --> 00:27:59,359
Speaker 1: in my life where I've had something like that, I

602
00:27:59,359 --> 00:28:05,120
Speaker 1: can distinct divide in my life times where I had

603
00:28:05,160 --> 00:28:07,960
Speaker 1: something like that and times where I didn't, and the

604
00:28:08,040 --> 00:28:10,080
Speaker 1: times where I didn't have something like that, which they

605
00:28:10,240 --> 00:28:13,320
Speaker 1: just were cold, you know, like you got to have

606
00:28:13,440 --> 00:28:17,119
Speaker 1: somewhere to somewhere to be where there's other people around.

607
00:28:17,200 --> 00:28:18,640
Speaker 1: I mean, you know, I've talked about this a bunch

608
00:28:18,680 --> 00:28:22,640
Speaker 1: on here, but yeah, it's very important. And they're they're

609
00:28:22,680 --> 00:28:24,680
Speaker 1: out there, you know, they're out there.

610
00:28:25,080 --> 00:28:28,600
Speaker 2: Yeah. Yeah, I just I just gotta keep keep looking.

611
00:28:28,640 --> 00:28:30,200
Speaker 2: I mean, I found a whole bunch of cool stuff

612
00:28:30,200 --> 00:28:32,400
Speaker 2: to do, but like you said, it's just the community part.

613
00:28:32,400 --> 00:28:35,439
Speaker 2: I just got to figure out where to go to

614
00:28:35,480 --> 00:28:37,479
Speaker 2: find people that are as weird as me. So, I mean,

615
00:28:37,480 --> 00:28:38,960
Speaker 2: I mean, I found this one place. It's called the

616
00:28:39,000 --> 00:28:41,640
Speaker 2: maker Space. It's out here with a time. I don't

617
00:28:41,640 --> 00:28:42,800
Speaker 2: know if you know, I don't know if you know

618
00:28:42,840 --> 00:28:44,280
Speaker 2: what a maker space is, but.

619
00:28:44,400 --> 00:28:47,240
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, there is. They're a chain, aren't they.

620
00:28:49,120 --> 00:28:51,000
Speaker 2: I don't know. I don't know if this place specifically

621
00:28:51,080 --> 00:28:53,040
Speaker 2: is a chain. But a maker space is I mean

622
00:28:53,080 --> 00:28:56,280
Speaker 2: a maker space Yeah, in general, Yeah, typically is like

623
00:28:56,320 --> 00:28:58,040
Speaker 2: a thing that's in different cities. But the one I

624
00:28:58,160 --> 00:29:01,480
Speaker 2: go to specifically, I think it's just that just that company,

625
00:29:01,520 --> 00:29:02,920
Speaker 2: you know what I'm saying. But but but there are

626
00:29:02,960 --> 00:29:05,800
Speaker 2: other maker spaces, yeah, correct.

627
00:29:06,080 --> 00:29:08,320
Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean I'm kind of I'm sort of part

628
00:29:08,360 --> 00:29:12,120
Speaker 1: of a maker space. I guess there's a lot around

629
00:29:12,280 --> 00:29:15,200
Speaker 1: New York where it's like whatever you pay, you pay

630
00:29:15,680 --> 00:29:19,400
Speaker 1: uh some kind of monthly fee and they have like

631
00:29:19,480 --> 00:29:23,160
Speaker 1: equipment that you can use and ship like that exactly.

632
00:29:23,280 --> 00:29:24,920
Speaker 3: Yeah, that's the reason.

633
00:29:24,720 --> 00:29:27,200
Speaker 2: Why I'm running. Yeah, it's dope, dude, and they have

634
00:29:27,320 --> 00:29:30,000
Speaker 2: classes on everything. I'm actually teaching a class. I'm kind

635
00:29:30,040 --> 00:29:34,240
Speaker 2: of DJ on Sunday. Uh yeah, yeah.

636
00:29:34,240 --> 00:29:34,720
Speaker 1: That's great.

637
00:29:34,800 --> 00:29:35,640
Speaker 2: That'd be pretty cool.

638
00:29:36,040 --> 00:29:37,400
Speaker 1: That's great.

639
00:29:37,600 --> 00:29:38,360
Speaker 2: Yeah, it'd be cool.

640
00:29:38,400 --> 00:29:41,280
Speaker 1: Great, that's awesome.

641
00:29:41,600 --> 00:29:41,800
Speaker 3: Yeah.

642
00:29:41,920 --> 00:29:44,680
Speaker 1: You just you just joined this you just joined to

643
00:29:44,720 --> 00:29:45,440
Speaker 1: this maker space.

644
00:29:46,720 --> 00:29:48,640
Speaker 2: Uh No, I've been a member there for a while,

645
00:29:48,720 --> 00:29:51,440
Speaker 2: but I just I kind of used it previously as

646
00:29:51,440 --> 00:29:53,440
Speaker 2: like as like a means to start a business. Self

647
00:29:53,560 --> 00:29:56,600
Speaker 2: was doing powder coding there now and doing like three

648
00:29:56,640 --> 00:29:58,360
Speaker 2: D printing, and I think next I'm going to start

649
00:29:58,360 --> 00:30:00,680
Speaker 2: this whole DJ class adventure because that's where the real

650
00:30:00,720 --> 00:30:02,600
Speaker 2: money is too, as well as like teaching people how

651
00:30:02,640 --> 00:30:04,800
Speaker 2: to do how to do djaying stuff. I feel like

652
00:30:04,800 --> 00:30:08,360
Speaker 2: a lot of people be interested in that. So it's

653
00:30:08,400 --> 00:30:12,480
Speaker 2: using the space to make some money. Man. Honestly, have you.

654
00:30:12,400 --> 00:30:15,680
Speaker 1: Made any friends of the space or at least like acquaintances.

655
00:30:16,960 --> 00:30:18,960
Speaker 2: Yeah, I've met some acquaintances, and for sure I'm on

656
00:30:19,000 --> 00:30:20,959
Speaker 2: like first name bases with some people. But it's not

657
00:30:21,040 --> 00:30:23,640
Speaker 2: like it's not again, it's not anything that's gonna be like, oh,

658
00:30:23,640 --> 00:30:25,040
Speaker 2: it's go grab a beer or something like that. It's

659
00:30:25,040 --> 00:30:26,240
Speaker 2: more or less like you see each other in a

660
00:30:26,240 --> 00:30:28,160
Speaker 2: space like, oh, hey, what are you working on today? Okay, cool,

661
00:30:28,200 --> 00:30:29,400
Speaker 2: I'm gonna go through my thing there.

662
00:30:29,960 --> 00:30:32,200
Speaker 1: Dude, I'm about to drop an unpopular opinion.

663
00:30:33,280 --> 00:30:33,640
Speaker 2: What's up?

664
00:30:33,680 --> 00:30:35,480
Speaker 1: Hit me? And I actually don't know if I believe

665
00:30:35,480 --> 00:30:37,959
Speaker 1: in this, but this is just I feel. I I

666
00:30:38,000 --> 00:30:42,840
Speaker 1: almost think it's better to have a lot of acquaintances.

667
00:30:44,200 --> 00:30:44,800
Speaker 2: Do you think so?

668
00:30:45,760 --> 00:30:48,640
Speaker 1: I don't think so. I almost think so. I'm because

669
00:30:48,680 --> 00:30:51,440
Speaker 1: like if you have like two for like, I think,

670
00:30:52,000 --> 00:30:55,560
Speaker 1: like if you can go into a place right and

671
00:30:55,600 --> 00:30:59,160
Speaker 1: there's like twenty people and you're fairly friendly with them,

672
00:30:59,800 --> 00:31:03,200
Speaker 1: and you see them every day and you know, you

673
00:31:03,320 --> 00:31:05,400
Speaker 1: hang out with them, but like when you go home,

674
00:31:05,440 --> 00:31:07,440
Speaker 1: you're alone and maybe whatever, maybe there's like a social

675
00:31:07,440 --> 00:31:11,320
Speaker 1: event and you're there whatever, versus like a couple people

676
00:31:11,440 --> 00:31:14,800
Speaker 1: that you know you get. I don't. I guess ideally

677
00:31:14,840 --> 00:31:17,880
Speaker 1: you have both. Ideally you have like a couple people

678
00:31:18,320 --> 00:31:20,400
Speaker 1: who you're like really really close with and then a

679
00:31:20,400 --> 00:31:22,680
Speaker 1: lot of acquaintances. But I really I think you know

680
00:31:22,720 --> 00:31:25,480
Speaker 1: what it comes from is like I just like having

681
00:31:25,600 --> 00:31:28,000
Speaker 1: like a place where you go and you have like

682
00:31:28,040 --> 00:31:30,600
Speaker 1: a bunch of people, like like back when I did

683
00:31:30,640 --> 00:31:33,680
Speaker 1: like open mics stand up and stuff that was a

684
00:31:33,680 --> 00:31:35,200
Speaker 1: big thing. It's like you just go you have a

685
00:31:35,240 --> 00:31:38,000
Speaker 1: bunch of acquaintances because you're just around this thing and

686
00:31:38,040 --> 00:31:40,080
Speaker 1: even like being part of like a maker space, Like again,

687
00:31:40,120 --> 00:31:42,280
Speaker 1: you have a bunch of acquaintances. I'm almost like it

688
00:31:42,320 --> 00:31:45,160
Speaker 1: makes you an't it makes you feel like you exist?

689
00:31:45,920 --> 00:31:48,680
Speaker 2: Yeah? Yeah, it is dope being surrunning around other people

690
00:31:48,680 --> 00:31:50,680
Speaker 2: who are creative and they're working on things too good.

691
00:31:50,720 --> 00:31:52,120
Speaker 2: It's a very I don't want to say it's like

692
00:31:52,160 --> 00:31:54,200
Speaker 2: a niche thing to be creative. Nowadays, it kind of

693
00:31:54,320 --> 00:31:56,560
Speaker 2: is a lot of people are just are just boxed

694
00:31:56,600 --> 00:31:58,479
Speaker 2: and just walking around just going to work, waking up,

695
00:31:58,480 --> 00:32:00,200
Speaker 2: going to work, going to sleep, waking up, going to work,

696
00:32:00,240 --> 00:32:02,040
Speaker 2: going to sleep. Like people is a loss in that loop.

697
00:32:02,160 --> 00:32:04,200
Speaker 2: So it's kind of cool to find people and be

698
00:32:04,240 --> 00:32:06,960
Speaker 2: around people at least acquainted with people who are also

699
00:32:07,000 --> 00:32:09,440
Speaker 2: being creative too as well. I mean it, it does.

700
00:32:09,560 --> 00:32:10,640
Speaker 2: It feels good when I'm there.

701
00:32:11,400 --> 00:32:14,600
Speaker 1: Yeah, well you're I mean, yeah, you're I like what

702
00:32:14,640 --> 00:32:17,480
Speaker 1: you're doing because again you're gaming the system, which you

703
00:32:17,600 --> 00:32:19,800
Speaker 1: have to do. You have to do that in some way,

704
00:32:19,800 --> 00:32:24,320
Speaker 1: shape or form to a vul the company offers it.

705
00:32:24,360 --> 00:32:26,680
Speaker 2: I mean it sucks. Your manager obviously doesn't like when

706
00:32:26,680 --> 00:32:29,120
Speaker 2: you're missing work for three months because they're short staffed already.

707
00:32:29,120 --> 00:32:32,560
Speaker 2: But hey, if the company offers it and improve it,

708
00:32:32,560 --> 00:32:35,239
Speaker 2: it's kind of it's kind of it's kind of out

709
00:32:35,240 --> 00:32:36,080
Speaker 2: of their hands.

710
00:32:36,280 --> 00:32:38,479
Speaker 1: Yeah. Yeah, But you get one life, you know what,

711
00:32:38,480 --> 00:32:42,200
Speaker 1: I mean, you should to you get what. It's weird,

712
00:32:42,280 --> 00:32:45,560
Speaker 1: right because you get one you get one life. And

713
00:32:45,600 --> 00:32:51,480
Speaker 1: on one hand, that's like, uh, there's something very uh

714
00:32:51,600 --> 00:32:54,240
Speaker 1: there's a great challenge to that. I'm like, oh, should

715
00:32:54,240 --> 00:32:57,840
Speaker 1: I get one life? I should make my own existence?

716
00:32:58,480 --> 00:33:00,880
Speaker 1: But you you have to all you have to do

717
00:33:00,960 --> 00:33:06,760
Speaker 1: that in spite of the fact that, uh, you need

718
00:33:07,000 --> 00:33:10,280
Speaker 1: you need a lot of money to just exist. So

719
00:33:10,360 --> 00:33:12,080
Speaker 1: you have you know, so if look, if you can

720
00:33:12,160 --> 00:33:17,240
Speaker 1: get the I need the money to exist thing as

721
00:33:17,320 --> 00:33:21,120
Speaker 1: under control, as under control as possible, without as under

722
00:33:21,120 --> 00:33:25,520
Speaker 1: control as possible, using as little of your finite time

723
00:33:25,560 --> 00:33:29,280
Speaker 1: and energy as possible, then do it. You know, whatever

724
00:33:29,480 --> 00:33:34,760
Speaker 1: on go on welfare, fucking steal through the people. Don't

725
00:33:34,760 --> 00:33:39,880
Speaker 1: do that, you know, don't do that. I mean ideal, Look, ideally,

726
00:33:40,080 --> 00:33:42,840
Speaker 1: ideally we live in a system where our basic needs

727
00:33:42,880 --> 00:33:49,080
Speaker 1: are uh met more easily. But I guess I'm always like,

728
00:33:49,200 --> 00:33:51,680
Speaker 1: I'm always like, I'd like to it would be cool

729
00:33:51,800 --> 00:33:54,840
Speaker 1: to live in a system where people didn't have to

730
00:33:54,880 --> 00:33:59,560
Speaker 1: do that. But as long as we do figure out

731
00:33:59,600 --> 00:34:04,080
Speaker 1: some way to do it that requires the least amount

732
00:34:04,080 --> 00:34:04,760
Speaker 1: of your energy.

733
00:34:05,840 --> 00:34:10,719
Speaker 2: Mm hmm, yeah, yeah, I agree. I agree. And with

734
00:34:10,800 --> 00:34:13,440
Speaker 2: the way that AI and robots and shit's going, we're

735
00:34:13,440 --> 00:34:15,600
Speaker 2: gonna be in wally r I robuts and so we

736
00:34:15,640 --> 00:34:18,399
Speaker 2: don't even have two words. I guess do you.

737
00:34:18,360 --> 00:34:19,800
Speaker 1: Do use AI for anything?

738
00:34:22,080 --> 00:34:24,680
Speaker 2: I mean, I use AI to find a bunch of

739
00:34:24,719 --> 00:34:28,359
Speaker 2: different places out in like the DFW area where I

740
00:34:28,400 --> 00:34:31,719
Speaker 2: can DJYT and I'll have it right the I'll have it,

741
00:34:31,840 --> 00:34:35,200
Speaker 2: get the contact information for those places, give me their

742
00:34:35,239 --> 00:34:37,440
Speaker 2: emails in a list, and I'll copy and paste their

743
00:34:37,440 --> 00:34:40,279
Speaker 2: emails into like a like a mass blast email, and

744
00:34:40,320 --> 00:34:42,759
Speaker 2: then I'll use the AI to write me like a

745
00:34:42,880 --> 00:34:49,400
Speaker 2: short and suite introduction interest email to send out to

746
00:34:49,440 --> 00:34:51,200
Speaker 2: them to see if I can DJ there. So yeah,

747
00:34:51,239 --> 00:34:52,520
Speaker 2: I mean, I use it a little bit. I use

748
00:34:52,520 --> 00:34:53,720
Speaker 2: it in my favor stuff like that.

749
00:34:53,719 --> 00:34:58,520
Speaker 1: That's cool. Do do this though, because I get all

750
00:34:58,640 --> 00:35:01,040
Speaker 1: kinds of like AI I get, so I get a

751
00:35:01,040 --> 00:35:03,520
Speaker 1: ton of fucking emails to my inbox that are like

752
00:35:03,640 --> 00:35:06,840
Speaker 1: where I can tell that they're AI uh or I

753
00:35:06,880 --> 00:35:09,480
Speaker 1: can tell that they like I'll get like, hell, I'll

754
00:35:09,480 --> 00:35:12,920
Speaker 1: get a lot of emails and say like hello therapy.

755
00:35:13,040 --> 00:35:14,759
Speaker 1: You know, like they just like scan you know what

756
00:35:14,800 --> 00:35:17,040
Speaker 1: I mean, They just like scanned like the first thing.

757
00:35:17,120 --> 00:35:17,400
Speaker 2: Whatever.

758
00:35:17,719 --> 00:35:20,120
Speaker 1: So like, if you're gonna use AI to masks make

759
00:35:20,160 --> 00:35:23,160
Speaker 1: your emails or whatever, change the at least the change

760
00:35:23,160 --> 00:35:26,359
Speaker 1: at least one part of it to make it be like, hey,

761
00:35:26,400 --> 00:35:30,640
Speaker 1: I am sending this email to you, you know, because

762
00:35:30,680 --> 00:35:32,919
Speaker 1: I fucking when I get I hate when I get

763
00:35:33,000 --> 00:35:35,719
Speaker 1: something that I can but whether it's whether it was

764
00:35:35,719 --> 00:35:37,920
Speaker 1: written with AI or even if it's just like someone

765
00:35:38,040 --> 00:35:40,480
Speaker 1: sharing a meme with me. I hate when I get

766
00:35:40,520 --> 00:35:43,040
Speaker 1: something where it's like I can tell you I'm just

767
00:35:43,160 --> 00:35:46,239
Speaker 1: one of like a hundred people you fucking sent this to.

768
00:35:46,600 --> 00:35:47,879
Speaker 1: You know that that chip is.

769
00:35:48,080 --> 00:35:51,680
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, I'll change up the verbiage and everybody down again.

770
00:35:51,760 --> 00:35:54,080
Speaker 2: So if I'm like sending out emails to strip clubs

771
00:35:54,080 --> 00:35:56,959
Speaker 2: that I can DJ, I'll change like the I'll change

772
00:35:56,960 --> 00:35:58,759
Speaker 2: the subject line and like a little bit of like

773
00:35:58,800 --> 00:36:00,839
Speaker 2: the examples of gigs that I've done, or if I'm

774
00:36:00,880 --> 00:36:04,240
Speaker 2: setting out uh, an email to like some skating rinks

775
00:36:04,239 --> 00:36:05,799
Speaker 2: that are near me that I want to DJ at.

776
00:36:05,840 --> 00:36:07,920
Speaker 2: I'll change up like the gigs and the example to

777
00:36:08,000 --> 00:36:09,799
Speaker 2: something of music that I play and stuff like that,

778
00:36:09,840 --> 00:36:12,040
Speaker 2: so I'll tailor it to the to the audience, the

779
00:36:12,080 --> 00:36:14,680
Speaker 2: people that I'm that I'm emailing out to. I'm just

780
00:36:14,760 --> 00:36:16,600
Speaker 2: using it as like a marketing tactic because I mean,

781
00:36:16,640 --> 00:36:20,000
Speaker 2: it's half the battle is trying to find people that

782
00:36:20,000 --> 00:36:22,200
Speaker 2: that do want to book you because I can. I

783
00:36:22,239 --> 00:36:23,960
Speaker 2: can keep a gig for sure. I mean, I have

784
00:36:23,960 --> 00:36:25,680
Speaker 2: no problem with that. Again, I'm pretty good at what

785
00:36:25,680 --> 00:36:27,080
Speaker 2: I do, so once I kid the gig, I'm good

786
00:36:27,080 --> 00:36:28,800
Speaker 2: at keeping it. But it's just getting the gigs is

787
00:36:28,880 --> 00:36:29,640
Speaker 2: like half the battle.

788
00:36:29,920 --> 00:36:33,520
Speaker 1: Do you like us all? Do you do? You post

789
00:36:33,560 --> 00:36:36,440
Speaker 1: your own mixes on online and stuff?

790
00:36:38,120 --> 00:36:40,279
Speaker 2: I mean, I'll go live on TikTok every now and again.

791
00:36:40,320 --> 00:36:42,280
Speaker 2: It's just I'm not that big of like a social

792
00:36:42,320 --> 00:36:44,120
Speaker 2: media guy to like try to go in and edit

793
00:36:44,200 --> 00:36:46,560
Speaker 2: videos and set up tripods and ship like that. That's not

794
00:36:46,600 --> 00:36:48,879
Speaker 2: really like my thing. I mean, I know, within DJA

795
00:36:49,000 --> 00:36:51,480
Speaker 2: you kind of need to do that, but yeah, I

796
00:36:51,520 --> 00:36:52,680
Speaker 2: don't know, I don't know.

797
00:36:55,320 --> 00:36:59,719
Speaker 1: Uh, yeah, you do it's unfortunately. Well that's the thing is,

798
00:36:59,760 --> 00:37:01,960
Speaker 1: you can can't really be like, I'm not a social

799
00:37:02,000 --> 00:37:05,120
Speaker 1: media guy anymore. You know what's hard is like there's

800
00:37:05,320 --> 00:37:08,480
Speaker 1: and I'm gonna here's the thing is, there's it's not

801
00:37:08,520 --> 00:37:11,120
Speaker 1: going anywhere well because you have you have to make

802
00:37:11,160 --> 00:37:13,200
Speaker 1: concessions in some way, shape or form. Because it's like

803
00:37:14,840 --> 00:37:16,600
Speaker 1: you could if like if you're like an artist of

804
00:37:16,640 --> 00:37:19,560
Speaker 1: some kind and you want to be like a bit

805
00:37:19,560 --> 00:37:23,120
Speaker 1: of a purist, it's like it's like a like, if

806
00:37:23,160 --> 00:37:27,120
Speaker 1: you're an artist, you probably I mean not everyone, right,

807
00:37:28,200 --> 00:37:30,839
Speaker 1: not everyone. Some people are totally okay with just like

808
00:37:31,239 --> 00:37:34,920
Speaker 1: making the thing for the thing's sake, and that's fine,

809
00:37:35,640 --> 00:37:40,480
Speaker 1: and you know, there's even some virtue to that. I

810
00:37:41,000 --> 00:37:43,400
Speaker 1: think in my in my soul, I think there's some

811
00:37:43,480 --> 00:37:44,680
Speaker 1: virtue of that. I have. I have a lot of

812
00:37:44,680 --> 00:37:46,680
Speaker 1: respect for people do that. But most, I think the

813
00:37:46,719 --> 00:37:48,640
Speaker 1: majority of artists or the majority of people who like

814
00:37:48,880 --> 00:37:53,640
Speaker 1: are working really hard to make something. They would like

815
00:37:53,719 --> 00:37:57,719
Speaker 1: to a make money doing it so that they can

816
00:37:57,960 --> 00:38:00,480
Speaker 1: keep doing it and so that they can and you know,

817
00:38:00,600 --> 00:38:03,200
Speaker 1: do the things that you need to do a make

818
00:38:03,239 --> 00:38:06,520
Speaker 1: money doing it and be have people see it, right,

819
00:38:06,560 --> 00:38:10,719
Speaker 1: because like you work so fucking hard to make videos,

820
00:38:10,800 --> 00:38:14,680
Speaker 1: make music, make paintings, make whatever like you want, you

821
00:38:14,760 --> 00:38:17,800
Speaker 1: want you and you like you're making these things because

822
00:38:17,840 --> 00:38:19,839
Speaker 1: you are trying to express you. You're trying to make

823
00:38:19,880 --> 00:38:23,960
Speaker 1: your existence valid in some way, shape or form by creating,

824
00:38:24,440 --> 00:38:27,120
Speaker 1: and so you want people to see it, you know.

825
00:38:27,440 --> 00:38:29,960
Speaker 1: It's it's like very natural to want people to see

826
00:38:30,120 --> 00:38:32,400
Speaker 1: your work if you're working hard on it. And the

827
00:38:32,480 --> 00:38:38,040
Speaker 1: main way to accomplish those two kind of directives of

828
00:38:38,080 --> 00:38:41,240
Speaker 1: an artist are are through social media.

829
00:38:42,480 --> 00:38:45,160
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, that's another layer two as well. While I'm

830
00:38:45,239 --> 00:38:46,799
Speaker 2: kind of awful work, I think once I get my

831
00:38:46,880 --> 00:38:49,800
Speaker 2: moving situation kind of planned out, that's what I planned

832
00:38:49,840 --> 00:38:52,120
Speaker 2: on doing too as well. It's just like you ever

833
00:38:52,200 --> 00:38:54,000
Speaker 2: like roll across some of those tiktoks where it's like

834
00:38:54,000 --> 00:38:55,880
Speaker 2: a DJ and like a random place of like a

835
00:38:55,960 --> 00:38:59,400
Speaker 2: kitchen or like their apartment or something that's kind of

836
00:38:59,400 --> 00:39:01,319
Speaker 2: just vibing with a few friends in DJ, and she's

837
00:39:01,320 --> 00:39:02,880
Speaker 2: like that, I'm thinking about doing something like that, just

838
00:39:02,920 --> 00:39:04,680
Speaker 2: setting up like my mixture of like my island and

839
00:39:04,680 --> 00:39:07,239
Speaker 2: my kitchen, yeah, and just playing for like a little

840
00:39:07,320 --> 00:39:08,799
Speaker 2: kick that kind of thing, and using that as like

841
00:39:08,880 --> 00:39:11,600
Speaker 2: content to spread out I'm thinking about doing that, and.

842
00:39:11,520 --> 00:39:13,880
Speaker 1: I also figure it and you also actually bring up

843
00:39:13,920 --> 00:39:17,319
Speaker 1: a good, uh counterpoint to everything I'm saying now I'm

844
00:39:17,320 --> 00:39:20,839
Speaker 1: thinking about it is like, uh, in a weird way

845
00:39:20,880 --> 00:39:23,920
Speaker 1: with something like what you do, I actually actually I'm

846
00:39:24,160 --> 00:39:26,439
Speaker 1: I'm gonna completely take back everything I just said. Maybe

847
00:39:26,480 --> 00:39:29,120
Speaker 1: not everything, but I'll be like, because what you do

848
00:39:29,239 --> 00:39:31,759
Speaker 1: right where you DJ and you can like throw parties

849
00:39:32,080 --> 00:39:34,400
Speaker 1: or like whatever, if you're an artist and you you know,

850
00:39:35,200 --> 00:39:37,399
Speaker 1: throw a little gallery or whatever. If you can get

851
00:39:37,680 --> 00:39:44,000
Speaker 1: ten human beings in real life to perceive your work,

852
00:39:44,480 --> 00:39:45,960
Speaker 1: or if you're making a movie or a video, you

853
00:39:45,960 --> 00:39:47,640
Speaker 1: can get twenty people to like sit in a room

854
00:39:47,640 --> 00:39:53,680
Speaker 1: and watch it. That actually that weirdly feels more real

855
00:39:54,440 --> 00:40:00,319
Speaker 1: than getting like twenty thousand Internet views. And then if

856
00:40:00,440 --> 00:40:02,760
Speaker 1: doing what you're saying, if you can combine those two things,

857
00:40:03,600 --> 00:40:04,160
Speaker 1: it's cool.

858
00:40:04,239 --> 00:40:07,520
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, that'd be ideal, because I mean I've DJed

859
00:40:07,600 --> 00:40:11,560
Speaker 2: for a coliseum, like a stadium worth of people, and

860
00:40:11,600 --> 00:40:14,080
Speaker 2: then I always find out that like it feels more intimate,

861
00:40:14,120 --> 00:40:15,759
Speaker 2: it feels more good. But I'm tjing for like a

862
00:40:15,800 --> 00:40:17,960
Speaker 2: small intimate crowd of people. So I mean, yeah, I

863
00:40:18,280 --> 00:40:19,120
Speaker 2: agree with what you're.

864
00:40:18,960 --> 00:40:21,759
Speaker 1: Saying, yeah, so maybe you don't need social maybe just

865
00:40:21,880 --> 00:40:25,799
Speaker 1: maybe you just need five people willing to listen to

866
00:40:25,840 --> 00:40:26,279
Speaker 1: your thing.

867
00:40:27,360 --> 00:40:34,480
Speaker 2: Yeah, it's I mean, I get paid the spots that

868
00:40:34,520 --> 00:40:36,480
Speaker 2: I DJ. I get paid if five people show up

869
00:40:36,560 --> 00:40:38,799
Speaker 2: or five people or five hundred people show ups, I

870
00:40:38,800 --> 00:40:42,040
Speaker 2: mean matter to me. But obviously I mean I DJ.

871
00:40:42,080 --> 00:40:45,240
Speaker 2: I prefer to just spend for people who for people,

872
00:40:45,400 --> 00:40:47,240
Speaker 2: not for their cricket.

873
00:40:48,080 --> 00:40:50,680
Speaker 1: Now, tell me about these strip club gigs? What are

874
00:40:50,680 --> 00:40:51,040
Speaker 1: they like?

875
00:40:52,880 --> 00:40:55,480
Speaker 2: I mean they're cool. They're cool. I've did on multiple

876
00:40:55,520 --> 00:40:58,200
Speaker 2: different like types of gigs, but strip club gigs are cool.

877
00:40:58,239 --> 00:41:00,560
Speaker 2: I mean you get the dancers up to you, like

878
00:41:00,600 --> 00:41:02,319
Speaker 2: request a song or like to tip you to play

879
00:41:02,320 --> 00:41:04,040
Speaker 2: a certain song and stuff like that. I mean it's good,

880
00:41:04,040 --> 00:41:08,280
Speaker 2: it's cool. It's a cool vibe. Mm hmm, it's pretty cool.

881
00:41:08,719 --> 00:41:10,160
Speaker 2: That's pretty cool, and you get a good show. Like

882
00:41:10,239 --> 00:41:10,760
Speaker 2: you're DJing.

883
00:41:11,160 --> 00:41:17,600
Speaker 1: What's that? What's your what's your craziest gig You've ever done?

884
00:41:17,160 --> 00:41:21,640
Speaker 2: The craziest as far as like who I've DJed for

885
00:41:22,160 --> 00:41:24,160
Speaker 2: or just like crazy and like the amount of people

886
00:41:24,440 --> 00:41:26,640
Speaker 2: or like the events that occurred in the in the

887
00:41:26,800 --> 00:41:27,319
Speaker 2: in the gig.

888
00:41:29,400 --> 00:41:34,239
Speaker 3: Let's go both, uh, I mean, I guess I've DJed

889
00:41:34,400 --> 00:41:38,040
Speaker 3: for uh for for Netflix before, for when they like

890
00:41:38,040 --> 00:41:40,240
Speaker 3: their movie screening kind of opening parties.

891
00:41:40,239 --> 00:41:43,200
Speaker 2: I DJ for Netflix. That DJ for Yeah, I did

892
00:41:43,239 --> 00:41:46,960
Speaker 2: it for Netflix. For for Jamie Fox at his house

893
00:41:47,040 --> 00:41:50,040
Speaker 2: a few different times, a DJ for fifty cent at

894
00:41:50,080 --> 00:41:52,600
Speaker 2: a at an opening of a show that he was

895
00:41:52,640 --> 00:41:55,279
Speaker 2: doing for Power. He had like a little pop up

896
00:41:55,360 --> 00:41:57,200
Speaker 2: kind of event and DJ four I got to see

897
00:41:57,280 --> 00:41:59,480
Speaker 2: him and say with something ship like that DJ for

898
00:41:59,560 --> 00:42:03,239
Speaker 2: celebrities and so with the so on that end. But

899
00:42:03,280 --> 00:42:05,960
Speaker 2: the craziest, I mean, I guess that's the DJ like

900
00:42:05,960 --> 00:42:08,279
Speaker 2: the warehouse out in LA. Actually know the crazy is

901
00:42:08,320 --> 00:42:11,440
Speaker 2: probably that I've done was at this TGI Fridays in

902
00:42:11,520 --> 00:42:14,960
Speaker 2: my hometown when I was growing up. They had shut down,

903
00:42:15,680 --> 00:42:18,320
Speaker 2: UH and these people that I knew, we were just

904
00:42:18,400 --> 00:42:20,120
Speaker 2: kind of desperate for money, so they were just kind

905
00:42:20,160 --> 00:42:22,759
Speaker 2: of breaking in and just doing gigs anywhere that they could.

906
00:42:22,760 --> 00:42:24,560
Speaker 2: So they we kind of we broke into this TGI

907
00:42:24,680 --> 00:42:28,759
Speaker 2: Fridays that was abandoned and they still had power, and

908
00:42:28,800 --> 00:42:30,120
Speaker 2: we broke in there and then we set up my

909
00:42:30,120 --> 00:42:33,080
Speaker 2: whole DJ said we had people like coming party in

910
00:42:33,160 --> 00:42:35,560
Speaker 2: the in the abandoned TGI Fridays when the swat team

911
00:42:35,600 --> 00:42:37,719
Speaker 2: showed up and should they kicked us out? We had

912
00:42:37,719 --> 00:42:39,720
Speaker 2: the police helicopters coming out. I just got my mixture

913
00:42:39,719 --> 00:42:42,160
Speaker 2: and I didn't wait.

914
00:42:42,160 --> 00:42:44,799
Speaker 1: You had a police helicopter kick you out of the

915
00:42:44,840 --> 00:42:47,160
Speaker 1: TGI Fridays. What the fuck? Yeah?

916
00:42:47,320 --> 00:42:49,840
Speaker 2: In this like the swat team came and shipped the

917
00:42:49,920 --> 00:42:52,200
Speaker 2: big ass bear cat. Yeah, they kicked this ou.

918
00:42:53,640 --> 00:42:56,520
Speaker 1: Why'd they call they? Why did they bring in a helicopter?

919
00:42:57,560 --> 00:42:59,560
Speaker 2: I don't know. I mean, I mean in l A.

920
00:42:59,719 --> 00:43:01,520
Speaker 2: I I DJ a lot out in LA, and they're

921
00:43:01,560 --> 00:43:03,320
Speaker 2: kind of famous for that. Like all the house parties

922
00:43:03,320 --> 00:43:06,359
Speaker 2: stuff that have got shut down, and I'm DJ four,

923
00:43:07,239 --> 00:43:09,440
Speaker 2: they usually bring a bring a police helicopter. I don't

924
00:43:09,440 --> 00:43:11,600
Speaker 2: know why that is, but yeah, almost all the house

925
00:43:11,640 --> 00:43:13,960
Speaker 2: parties that have ended like kind of crazily have ended

926
00:43:14,000 --> 00:43:16,279
Speaker 2: up with the with the police helicopter coming to shut

927
00:43:16,320 --> 00:43:16,640
Speaker 2: it down.

928
00:43:19,480 --> 00:43:22,360
Speaker 1: Why did you? I am I am curious. It sounds

929
00:43:22,360 --> 00:43:24,480
Speaker 1: like you had a pretty good thing going to LA.

930
00:43:24,560 --> 00:43:27,839
Speaker 1: Why did you move to Texas if you had more

931
00:43:27,880 --> 00:43:28,799
Speaker 1: connections over there?

932
00:43:30,760 --> 00:43:32,560
Speaker 2: I mean just because at that time I was young,

933
00:43:32,719 --> 00:43:34,200
Speaker 2: was making a lot of money. I had a sugar

934
00:43:34,239 --> 00:43:36,080
Speaker 2: mama and shit like that I was young making a

935
00:43:36,120 --> 00:43:38,040
Speaker 2: lot of money, but I was just again, I knew

936
00:43:38,040 --> 00:43:39,640
Speaker 2: a guy who was making six figures and he was

937
00:43:39,640 --> 00:43:41,439
Speaker 2: living paycheck at paycheck. So I was like, I got

938
00:43:41,440 --> 00:43:42,880
Speaker 2: to get my shit together. I need a four to

939
00:43:42,960 --> 00:43:44,520
Speaker 2: one K. I need to save his account, I need

940
00:43:44,600 --> 00:43:46,319
Speaker 2: health insurance and stuff like that. So I kind of

941
00:43:46,360 --> 00:43:49,120
Speaker 2: like matured in that sense, but like now that I'm

942
00:43:49,120 --> 00:43:50,799
Speaker 2: in it, and I'm like, damn, that sucks. I'd rather

943
00:43:50,880 --> 00:43:57,279
Speaker 2: just be DJ and TGF Fridays. Yeah, yeah, I kind

944
00:43:57,320 --> 00:43:58,520
Speaker 2: of touched twenty two And then.

945
00:43:58,560 --> 00:44:01,000
Speaker 1: I guess I'm sorry. You had a sugar mama.

946
00:44:02,400 --> 00:44:04,719
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, I've Yeah, I've had. I've had like two

947
00:44:04,800 --> 00:44:06,040
Speaker 2: or three of them in my lifetimes.

948
00:44:07,440 --> 00:44:11,200
Speaker 1: But what does that entail? I mean?

949
00:44:11,440 --> 00:44:15,239
Speaker 2: I mean she she was a she was a porn star,

950
00:44:15,920 --> 00:44:18,440
Speaker 2: and I had met her, and she she wanted to

951
00:44:19,000 --> 00:44:21,800
Speaker 2: she wanted to to pay me for some sugar, and

952
00:44:21,800 --> 00:44:23,640
Speaker 2: and she did for a while, and I was making

953
00:44:23,680 --> 00:44:25,640
Speaker 2: really good money actually too as well, making really good

954
00:44:25,680 --> 00:44:27,480
Speaker 2: money with her. We would just hang out, kind of

955
00:44:27,520 --> 00:44:29,120
Speaker 2: shoot the shit a little bit right in a hotel

956
00:44:29,200 --> 00:44:32,040
Speaker 2: room and then do the thing and go my separate ways.

957
00:44:33,960 --> 00:44:36,000
Speaker 1: I have I have a lot of questions to follow

958
00:44:36,040 --> 00:44:41,480
Speaker 1: up to this, I'd imagine, how did you meet this

959
00:44:41,600 --> 00:44:42,200
Speaker 1: porn star?

960
00:44:43,960 --> 00:44:48,200
Speaker 2: Uh? So I had gotten to a car accident some

961
00:44:48,440 --> 00:44:51,440
Speaker 2: years ago. Yeah, I had gotten into a car accident

962
00:44:51,480 --> 00:44:53,239
Speaker 2: and I had to go to physical therapy, and my

963
00:44:53,280 --> 00:44:56,400
Speaker 2: physical therapist there was kind of hitting on me. And

964
00:44:56,440 --> 00:44:57,880
Speaker 2: again I don't mean to too bune a horn, but

965
00:44:57,920 --> 00:45:01,120
Speaker 2: like I'm I'm I'm six five, I'm I'm athletic, I'm

966
00:45:01,120 --> 00:45:03,640
Speaker 2: a good looking dude. I've been told a few times.

967
00:45:04,120 --> 00:45:07,040
Speaker 2: So my physical therapist was kind of hitting on me

968
00:45:07,280 --> 00:45:08,880
Speaker 2: a little bit, like she was massaged me like a

969
00:45:08,920 --> 00:45:11,000
Speaker 2: little bit longer than she really needed to, and do

970
00:45:11,080 --> 00:45:13,480
Speaker 2: these extra exercises with me. And she was like one day,

971
00:45:13,520 --> 00:45:15,040
Speaker 2: she randomly just came out and said it. She's like,

972
00:45:15,080 --> 00:45:17,040
Speaker 2: you know who I am? And I was like no,

973
00:45:17,160 --> 00:45:18,839
Speaker 2: and she was like google my name and she gave

974
00:45:18,880 --> 00:45:21,360
Speaker 2: me her name and I googled it and she was

975
00:45:21,400 --> 00:45:22,840
Speaker 2: a porn star. I was like, oh shit, and I

976
00:45:22,880 --> 00:45:24,520
Speaker 2: was like that's you know way and she was like yeah.

977
00:45:24,560 --> 00:45:26,400
Speaker 2: She was like would you be interested in getting into

978
00:45:26,440 --> 00:45:28,960
Speaker 2: like that industry? And at that time I was like, dude,

979
00:45:29,000 --> 00:45:31,000
Speaker 2: hell yeah, it's like every dude's dream yeah, hell yeah.

980
00:45:31,040 --> 00:45:34,480
Speaker 2: I was like, I was like, eighteen nineteen twenty, I'm

981
00:45:34,480 --> 00:45:36,080
Speaker 2: gonna getting paid to do what I'm trying to do

982
00:45:36,120 --> 00:45:38,399
Speaker 2: all the time anyway, Hell yeah. So I mean yeah,

983
00:45:38,440 --> 00:45:41,799
Speaker 2: I took to dive. I went into it at and

984
00:45:42,000 --> 00:45:44,360
Speaker 2: at one of the auditions I think she had me

985
00:45:44,360 --> 00:45:45,920
Speaker 2: show up to with like a test fund and just

986
00:45:45,960 --> 00:45:47,799
Speaker 2: kind of see what's really like behind the scenes of

987
00:45:47,840 --> 00:45:51,920
Speaker 2: like a porno. I had went and there was this

988
00:45:52,000 --> 00:45:55,719
Speaker 2: lady who was shooting a scene and immediately, like as

989
00:45:55,760 --> 00:45:57,640
Speaker 2: soon as she saw me, she said to the director guy,

990
00:45:57,680 --> 00:45:59,480
Speaker 2: she was like, I want to fuck him. She said,

991
00:45:59,480 --> 00:46:01,799
Speaker 2: he was like, who is that? He is gorgeous. And

992
00:46:01,840 --> 00:46:03,680
Speaker 2: I heard her say and I kind of like blushed up.

993
00:46:03,680 --> 00:46:05,359
Speaker 2: It was weird. I never had like a grown ass

994
00:46:05,400 --> 00:46:07,680
Speaker 2: woman just out where me say that to me. So

995
00:46:07,719 --> 00:46:09,040
Speaker 2: I ended up, but you ended up kind of shooting

996
00:46:09,040 --> 00:46:10,600
Speaker 2: the ship, got a number and everything, and then we

997
00:46:10,640 --> 00:46:12,359
Speaker 2: hung out a few times and she told me about

998
00:46:14,040 --> 00:46:15,399
Speaker 2: She told me she was cool. It was like making

999
00:46:15,440 --> 00:46:18,320
Speaker 2: an arrangement with me to to pay me for for

1000
00:46:18,480 --> 00:46:20,880
Speaker 2: my time. So that's how that started. I met her

1001
00:46:20,920 --> 00:46:23,680
Speaker 2: on a set of a porn Now damn.

1002
00:46:23,760 --> 00:46:25,600
Speaker 1: Wait, so this and that was and this was a

1003
00:46:25,680 --> 00:46:29,200
Speaker 1: second lady. What happened with the physic So the physical

1004
00:46:29,239 --> 00:46:34,160
Speaker 1: therapist lady got you into porn, uh huh, and then

1005
00:46:34,520 --> 00:46:36,520
Speaker 1: you met the sugar Mama on the set of this

1006
00:46:36,600 --> 00:46:37,279
Speaker 1: porn thing.

1007
00:46:38,200 --> 00:46:39,600
Speaker 2: Correct, Yeah, yep.

1008
00:46:39,719 --> 00:46:42,400
Speaker 1: So how so how deep did you go into the

1009
00:46:42,440 --> 00:46:43,320
Speaker 1: porn world?

1010
00:46:45,600 --> 00:46:48,200
Speaker 2: I mean I did my toes a little bit. I

1011
00:46:48,200 --> 00:46:51,160
Speaker 2: mean I did like a video or two, but it

1012
00:46:51,239 --> 00:46:54,520
Speaker 2: was just I don't know, it's weird, Like it's it's

1013
00:46:54,640 --> 00:46:57,560
Speaker 2: very weird because it's like it's not all all hyped

1014
00:46:57,600 --> 00:46:59,319
Speaker 2: as it is as it seems to be. Like it's

1015
00:46:59,400 --> 00:47:01,400
Speaker 2: very like you got guy, like I've tryed to do

1016
00:47:01,480 --> 00:47:03,960
Speaker 2: my thing and there's like the cameraman over my shoulder

1017
00:47:04,440 --> 00:47:07,880
Speaker 2: kind of fucking embracing me all up on me and

1018
00:47:08,000 --> 00:47:10,160
Speaker 2: he has like a camera over my shoulder. I'm saying

1019
00:47:10,160 --> 00:47:11,480
Speaker 2: to do my thing, and like it's kind of I'm

1020
00:47:11,520 --> 00:47:15,120
Speaker 2: already kind of like I'm not that outgoing. I'm kind

1021
00:47:15,120 --> 00:47:16,520
Speaker 2: of shy when it comes with stuff like that. So

1022
00:47:16,560 --> 00:47:20,319
Speaker 2: it was like kind of weird to stay like, for

1023
00:47:20,320 --> 00:47:22,120
Speaker 2: a lack of better words, it's hard to stay bricked

1024
00:47:22,200 --> 00:47:24,640
Speaker 2: up like that when there's when there's like eight people

1025
00:47:24,640 --> 00:47:26,279
Speaker 2: in the room, and you've got this guy with a

1026
00:47:26,320 --> 00:47:28,759
Speaker 2: camera over your shoulder and like behind your butt ship

1027
00:47:28,840 --> 00:47:30,719
Speaker 2: like that. It gets it's weird. So I didn't. I

1028
00:47:30,719 --> 00:47:32,960
Speaker 2: didn't continue it, but I did, like I did like

1029
00:47:32,960 --> 00:47:34,680
Speaker 2: two or three videos, and I got paid for it. It

1030
00:47:34,719 --> 00:47:36,359
Speaker 2: was cool. But it's just I don't I don't think

1031
00:47:36,360 --> 00:47:38,200
Speaker 2: I would ever I would ever do it again.

1032
00:47:38,760 --> 00:47:40,839
Speaker 1: Mm hmm. You'd rather be trading four X.

1033
00:47:42,200 --> 00:47:44,600
Speaker 2: Yeah, I'd rather be I'd rather just be running a

1034
00:47:44,640 --> 00:47:47,160
Speaker 2: whole bunch of sidequest, just trading four X and DJ

1035
00:47:47,320 --> 00:47:49,920
Speaker 2: and and hustling. Honestly, I just I fell in love.

1036
00:47:50,000 --> 00:47:51,799
Speaker 2: I fell in love with the with the with the

1037
00:47:51,840 --> 00:47:52,600
Speaker 2: thriller of the Chase.

1038
00:47:53,239 --> 00:47:58,880
Speaker 1: Mm hmmmm hm. And so what this sugar mama like

1039
00:47:58,960 --> 00:48:01,560
Speaker 1: you said? You said you had a few. I'm sure, okay,

1040
00:48:01,600 --> 00:48:05,360
Speaker 1: So the sugar manta thing like this is an attractive woman.

1041
00:48:07,719 --> 00:48:10,400
Speaker 2: Yeah, she's all right. I mean I give her, okay,

1042
00:48:10,520 --> 00:48:13,799
Speaker 2: she was an older woman. I mean, she wasn't bad looking.

1043
00:48:13,880 --> 00:48:15,879
Speaker 2: She had plastic surgery and ship, so she choose her.

1044
00:48:15,920 --> 00:48:17,399
Speaker 2: I mean, I give her out of ten, i'd give

1045
00:48:17,400 --> 00:48:20,560
Speaker 2: her she I give her like a seven point eight.

1046
00:48:20,640 --> 00:48:21,200
Speaker 2: She was all right.

1047
00:48:21,680 --> 00:48:24,719
Speaker 1: How old was she?

1048
00:48:24,719 --> 00:48:27,280
Speaker 2: She was late forties, I believe.

1049
00:48:27,680 --> 00:48:31,480
Speaker 1: Oh okay, so not at Bath was late in her sixties. Interesting.

1050
00:48:31,719 --> 00:48:33,239
Speaker 1: I guess I was well because I guess I was

1051
00:48:33,280 --> 00:48:35,880
Speaker 1: wondering like that lady could probably just like have sex

1052
00:48:35,920 --> 00:48:38,840
Speaker 1: with some guy without paying him. But I guess I

1053
00:48:38,840 --> 00:48:42,480
Speaker 1: guess she. I guess she wanted specifically you because you're

1054
00:48:42,480 --> 00:48:43,759
Speaker 1: six five beautiful.

1055
00:48:46,480 --> 00:48:50,520
Speaker 2: Yeah, I guess so, I guess so uh for me?

1056
00:48:52,280 --> 00:48:57,480
Speaker 1: Hmm, okay, So why did that? How did that dissipate

1057
00:48:58,719 --> 00:49:00,239
Speaker 1: or did it just kind of just kind of ran

1058
00:49:00,239 --> 00:49:00,760
Speaker 1: its course.

1059
00:49:02,080 --> 00:49:04,279
Speaker 2: It just kind of just ran its course. She just uh,

1060
00:49:04,600 --> 00:49:08,680
Speaker 2: she she kind of realized she was getting older and everything,

1061
00:49:08,680 --> 00:49:11,440
Speaker 2: and she didn't have kids. And I was kind of

1062
00:49:11,440 --> 00:49:13,040
Speaker 2: in it just to do my thing and make some

1063
00:49:13,080 --> 00:49:14,839
Speaker 2: money and go my separate ways. But she ended up

1064
00:49:14,840 --> 00:49:17,719
Speaker 2: offering to pay me like twenty grand to like put

1065
00:49:17,719 --> 00:49:20,000
Speaker 2: a baby in her, and I was like, eh, I

1066
00:49:20,080 --> 00:49:22,759
Speaker 2: want to do all that. So we houcked up maybe

1067
00:49:22,800 --> 00:49:24,160
Speaker 2: like two or three times after that, but it just

1068
00:49:24,160 --> 00:49:25,880
Speaker 2: got kind of weird because I know that's what she wanted,

1069
00:49:25,920 --> 00:49:28,120
Speaker 2: So I can't even I can't do this anymore. It

1070
00:49:28,200 --> 00:49:28,840
Speaker 2: ran its course.

1071
00:49:29,440 --> 00:49:30,520
Speaker 1: You said you had a few of these.

1072
00:49:31,920 --> 00:49:36,879
Speaker 2: Yeah, I've had I've had like I think I've had

1073
00:49:37,640 --> 00:49:39,319
Speaker 2: like two, I've had like two or three.

1074
00:49:39,840 --> 00:49:41,440
Speaker 1: Yeah, how did you find the other ones?

1075
00:49:42,680 --> 00:49:45,000
Speaker 2: Uh? The other one. I was working at this job

1076
00:49:45,040 --> 00:49:47,160
Speaker 2: and like a pretty I was working on this corporate

1077
00:49:47,239 --> 00:49:50,600
Speaker 2: job and there was like this older lady. She was

1078
00:49:50,640 --> 00:49:52,960
Speaker 2: probably like mid like mid forties too as well, but

1079
00:49:53,000 --> 00:49:54,919
Speaker 2: she seemed like kind of young and fun and hip

1080
00:49:54,960 --> 00:49:56,279
Speaker 2: and shit. So I kind of I kind of like

1081
00:49:56,360 --> 00:49:59,080
Speaker 2: started to form a little attraction for her. So we

1082
00:49:59,160 --> 00:50:01,279
Speaker 2: hung out a few times that I invited her out.

1083
00:50:01,320 --> 00:50:03,400
Speaker 2: She was reluctant, of course, because I'm in my twenties

1084
00:50:03,400 --> 00:50:05,960
Speaker 2: and she's in her forties. She was kind of like

1085
00:50:06,000 --> 00:50:08,200
Speaker 2: reluctant to kind of hang out with me. But I

1086
00:50:08,480 --> 00:50:10,520
Speaker 2: finally cracked her. One day. I cracked her. I got

1087
00:50:10,520 --> 00:50:12,640
Speaker 2: it to go out to drink with me, and we

1088
00:50:12,719 --> 00:50:14,080
Speaker 2: kind of just we kind of just hit it off.

1089
00:50:14,080 --> 00:50:15,960
Speaker 2: From there. We started hanging out and she started buying

1090
00:50:15,960 --> 00:50:17,680
Speaker 2: me like work clothes and shit like that. That's that's

1091
00:50:17,680 --> 00:50:19,839
Speaker 2: one thing too, I will say about like dating older women,

1092
00:50:19,880 --> 00:50:22,640
Speaker 2: which I kind of prefer, is like they'll they'll they'll

1093
00:50:22,680 --> 00:50:25,919
Speaker 2: take care of you many I really will take done

1094
00:50:25,960 --> 00:50:29,879
Speaker 2: like kitty women my age but yeah, he's older women. Man,

1095
00:50:29,920 --> 00:50:31,840
Speaker 2: That's that's that's the wave. Man. I'm telling you. They

1096
00:50:32,000 --> 00:50:33,799
Speaker 2: knowlder women is the waves.

1097
00:50:35,600 --> 00:50:40,680
Speaker 1: So I get I guess, are you how do I

1098
00:50:40,680 --> 00:50:44,960
Speaker 1: say this? Are you gonna continue monetizing? Uh?

1099
00:50:44,400 --> 00:50:44,480
Speaker 2: Uh?

1100
00:50:45,440 --> 00:50:46,640
Speaker 1: How beautiful you are?

1101
00:50:46,680 --> 00:50:46,759
Speaker 2: Like?

1102
00:50:46,800 --> 00:50:51,560
Speaker 1: Are there like could you be a model or something? Nah?

1103
00:50:51,800 --> 00:50:54,640
Speaker 2: Nah, I don't. I mean I've been. I don't really

1104
00:50:54,800 --> 00:50:58,680
Speaker 2: feel that way about myself, but I get told it

1105
00:50:58,680 --> 00:51:01,000
Speaker 2: a lot. But it's just I don't know. I don't know.

1106
00:51:01,040 --> 00:51:01,480
Speaker 2: It's weird.

1107
00:51:01,520 --> 00:51:01,680
Speaker 1: Man.

1108
00:51:01,719 --> 00:51:04,040
Speaker 2: Like I have my days where like I'm filling myself.

1109
00:51:04,040 --> 00:51:05,880
Speaker 2: I'm like, damn, I do look good. But the majority

1110
00:51:05,920 --> 00:51:08,040
Speaker 2: of the time I'm kind of just I don't know.

1111
00:51:08,040 --> 00:51:09,880
Speaker 2: I keep my head down. I'm not really trying to

1112
00:51:10,200 --> 00:51:11,440
Speaker 2: you know what I'm saying, do all that. I'm just

1113
00:51:11,520 --> 00:51:14,759
Speaker 2: I'm just here. I'm just trying to trying to hustle. Man.

1114
00:51:15,160 --> 00:51:16,799
Speaker 1: Are you Are you dating at all?

1115
00:51:18,360 --> 00:51:18,520
Speaker 3: Uh?

1116
00:51:18,719 --> 00:51:21,440
Speaker 2: Not at the moment, since that last situation went kind

1117
00:51:21,440 --> 00:51:24,440
Speaker 2: of bad. I mean I mean, I mean, yeah, no,

1118
00:51:24,600 --> 00:51:27,080
Speaker 2: I'm not really dating them. Yeah, I mean I'm on

1119
00:51:27,120 --> 00:51:28,719
Speaker 2: the apps, but they all go to shit. I mean,

1120
00:51:28,719 --> 00:51:30,440
Speaker 2: you send that a like out to the universe and

1121
00:51:30,480 --> 00:51:34,640
Speaker 2: doesn't go anywhere. So mm hmm, yeah, I'm not. I'm

1122
00:51:34,680 --> 00:51:36,600
Speaker 2: kind of just focusing on the on the time that

1123
00:51:36,640 --> 00:51:38,960
Speaker 2: I have off right now, just trying to hustle and

1124
00:51:39,120 --> 00:51:40,440
Speaker 2: make it so I don't have to go back to

1125
00:51:40,440 --> 00:51:41,319
Speaker 2: work if I don't want to.

1126
00:51:41,920 --> 00:51:44,959
Speaker 1: You sound like you sound like you've had a cool,

1127
00:51:45,040 --> 00:51:47,040
Speaker 1: fun life so far.

1128
00:51:47,320 --> 00:51:49,960
Speaker 2: Yeah. Yeah, I mean it's been all right, It's been

1129
00:51:50,000 --> 00:51:51,480
Speaker 2: all right. I've had my ups and downs, but I

1130
00:51:51,880 --> 00:51:54,160
Speaker 2: can definitely uniquely say that I've done a lot of

1131
00:51:54,200 --> 00:51:56,560
Speaker 2: things in my lifetime, but a lot of people have

1132
00:51:56,680 --> 00:51:58,520
Speaker 2: never got to do so. I mean, I take pride

1133
00:51:58,560 --> 00:51:59,840
Speaker 2: in that I look back at my memories of my

1134
00:52:00,000 --> 00:52:02,560
Speaker 2: photos sometimes I'm like, damn, I was really I was

1135
00:52:02,600 --> 00:52:05,719
Speaker 2: really sixteen skipping school to go DJ at the Coliseum

1136
00:52:05,760 --> 00:52:08,640
Speaker 2: in LA and to go to go DJ for two chains,

1137
00:52:08,640 --> 00:52:10,080
Speaker 2: and then had to go to school the next day

1138
00:52:10,080 --> 00:52:11,759
Speaker 2: and walk around like you people don't even know what

1139
00:52:11,800 --> 00:52:16,960
Speaker 2: the hell I just did yesterday, like yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. No.

1140
00:52:17,080 --> 00:52:18,440
Speaker 1: I've had a lot of time. I've had a lot

1141
00:52:18,480 --> 00:52:22,120
Speaker 1: of shit like that in my life where I'm like,

1142
00:52:22,440 --> 00:52:24,200
Speaker 1: I mean, I'm I feel really blessed. I've gotten to

1143
00:52:24,239 --> 00:52:27,239
Speaker 1: do a lot of really cool things with my life

1144
00:52:27,320 --> 00:52:29,080
Speaker 1: in the last like ten years.

1145
00:52:29,560 --> 00:52:32,399
Speaker 2: You know, yeah, you're like, I agree, man, you haven't

1146
00:52:32,440 --> 00:52:34,800
Speaker 2: had to like work an actual job, which fucking sucks.

1147
00:52:34,840 --> 00:52:36,680
Speaker 2: I mean it's cool. I mean, this is a job,

1148
00:52:36,719 --> 00:52:38,359
Speaker 2: and like, of course you have like your your ups

1149
00:52:38,360 --> 00:52:40,040
Speaker 2: and your down days, but you're in a very unique

1150
00:52:40,040 --> 00:52:43,040
Speaker 2: position too, where you don't you don't have to you

1151
00:52:43,080 --> 00:52:45,400
Speaker 2: don't have to deal with other people's bullshit like on

1152
00:52:45,440 --> 00:52:47,759
Speaker 2: a day day and then have to clock in and

1153
00:52:47,880 --> 00:52:49,640
Speaker 2: have to do all that. You're in a very unique position.

1154
00:52:49,640 --> 00:52:51,080
Speaker 2: And that's that's the reason why I listen to you.

1155
00:52:51,080 --> 00:52:53,120
Speaker 2: I think it's very cool. Like I respect people who

1156
00:52:53,160 --> 00:52:57,080
Speaker 2: are hustle and who who want to work for themselves,

1157
00:52:57,120 --> 00:52:58,560
Speaker 2: and you've kept it up for a very long time.

1158
00:52:58,600 --> 00:52:59,280
Speaker 2: It's inspiring.

1159
00:53:00,080 --> 00:53:02,399
Speaker 1: I appreciate you saying that, and I listen, you sound

1160
00:53:02,440 --> 00:53:06,920
Speaker 1: like you're on your way to your version of that

1161
00:53:06,960 --> 00:53:09,440
Speaker 1: because you're I think what I think. I genuinely do

1162
00:53:09,520 --> 00:53:11,680
Speaker 1: believe with this kind of stuff, it is a bit

1163
00:53:11,680 --> 00:53:16,120
Speaker 1: of a matter of just like continuing to hack at it.

1164
00:53:16,200 --> 00:53:20,000
Speaker 1: I mean, I of course I have survivorship bias, but uh,

1165
00:53:20,719 --> 00:53:22,839
Speaker 1: I feel like it is almost inevitable if you just

1166
00:53:22,960 --> 00:53:26,680
Speaker 1: keep hacking things I mean, I don't know. I mean shit, man,

1167
00:53:26,719 --> 00:53:29,200
Speaker 1: I like even even I guess, like in my own life,

1168
00:53:29,239 --> 00:53:32,400
Speaker 1: like even though like things have been going well with

1169
00:53:32,440 --> 00:53:35,480
Speaker 1: this with the podcast and stuff, like, I'm still everything

1170
00:53:35,560 --> 00:53:42,360
Speaker 1: you create for yourself becomes its own. Prison is not

1171
00:53:42,480 --> 00:53:44,840
Speaker 1: a good word, but its own.

1172
00:53:46,600 --> 00:53:52,960
Speaker 2: Uh capsule, like it's on yeah, like it's on obligatory, Like.

1173
00:53:52,920 --> 00:53:57,040
Speaker 1: It's it's an obligation. Yeah, it's on obligation. And I

1174
00:53:57,080 --> 00:53:58,600
Speaker 1: you know what's funny is if you're the kind of

1175
00:53:58,640 --> 00:54:01,080
Speaker 1: person who's always I've I'm the kind of person I'm

1176
00:54:01,120 --> 00:54:05,239
Speaker 1: always trying to escape, you know, even and and like

1177
00:54:05,320 --> 00:54:07,880
Speaker 1: I you escape something and by creating something else, and

1178
00:54:07,920 --> 00:54:10,400
Speaker 1: then you try to escape that. Like a good example

1179
00:54:10,480 --> 00:54:12,480
Speaker 1: is like I'm always like thinking about like, oh, once

1180
00:54:12,520 --> 00:54:15,160
Speaker 1: I'm gonna I'm gonna escape this city and move to

1181
00:54:15,160 --> 00:54:17,360
Speaker 1: this new one. And then you keep that goes on

1182
00:54:17,640 --> 00:54:19,239
Speaker 1: like an infinite thing of like one day I'll move

1183
00:54:19,280 --> 00:54:21,360
Speaker 1: here and then then like I like, it always just

1184
00:54:21,480 --> 00:54:24,560
Speaker 1: keeps going, you know what I mean. But that's good.

1185
00:54:24,640 --> 00:54:27,880
Speaker 1: That's how like life evolves. That's how you stop staying.

1186
00:54:27,960 --> 00:54:30,080
Speaker 1: That's how you stop you know, That's how you get

1187
00:54:30,080 --> 00:54:33,919
Speaker 1: to a point where you're fucking seventy eighty years old

1188
00:54:33,960 --> 00:54:37,240
Speaker 1: and you're like, damn, we ran the gamuts. But also

1189
00:54:37,280 --> 00:54:40,400
Speaker 1: but it's also but it's also how you get to

1190
00:54:40,440 --> 00:54:43,200
Speaker 1: seventy eighty years old and be like, wow, I have

1191
00:54:43,280 --> 00:54:51,120
Speaker 1: no family and friends and it was all for nothing. Sorry, Yeah,

1192
00:54:51,239 --> 00:54:53,080
Speaker 1: find that. I thought you would find that funny and

1193
00:54:53,080 --> 00:54:53,719
Speaker 1: not depressing.

1194
00:54:56,160 --> 00:54:58,200
Speaker 2: No, I mean, I mean, that's that's the goal. I mean,

1195
00:54:58,280 --> 00:55:00,920
Speaker 2: I again, I would rather have my obligation and my

1196
00:55:01,200 --> 00:55:04,799
Speaker 2: prison be working for myself then haspen to work at

1197
00:55:04,800 --> 00:55:07,359
Speaker 2: a company where I'm there and not really progressing for

1198
00:55:07,480 --> 00:55:10,239
Speaker 2: fucking thirty years, like I have much rather have my

1199
00:55:10,280 --> 00:55:15,239
Speaker 2: prison that that that I'm interested in and uh that

1200
00:55:15,239 --> 00:55:18,040
Speaker 2: that I that I want to do, versus doing something

1201
00:55:18,160 --> 00:55:19,000
Speaker 2: like I have to do.

1202
00:55:19,160 --> 00:55:21,279
Speaker 1: You know, of course, of course prison is not a

1203
00:55:21,280 --> 00:55:22,640
Speaker 1: good word. Prison is not what I meant.

1204
00:55:23,400 --> 00:55:25,279
Speaker 2: Yeah, I mean, I know what you mean, but just

1205
00:55:25,280 --> 00:55:27,600
Speaker 2: for a lack of terms, I was throwing that turn

1206
00:55:27,640 --> 00:55:29,359
Speaker 2: back at you, I know exactly what you mean.

1207
00:55:29,760 --> 00:55:32,239
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, but it's good. I mean I think well

1208
00:55:32,239 --> 00:55:36,359
Speaker 1: because also because the the kind of people who do

1209
00:55:36,760 --> 00:55:41,200
Speaker 1: like uh like, such as yourself, who do have this

1210
00:55:41,280 --> 00:55:43,800
Speaker 1: thing and then that want to keep evolving. I don't

1211
00:55:43,880 --> 00:55:46,000
Speaker 1: think it. I don't think it goes away, you know

1212
00:55:46,040 --> 00:55:48,680
Speaker 1: what I mean. So like you'll start so like you'll

1213
00:55:48,680 --> 00:55:50,880
Speaker 1: start like uh like maybe one day one of your

1214
00:55:50,920 --> 00:55:53,960
Speaker 1: three D printed prints will pop off and you'll be

1215
00:55:54,000 --> 00:55:57,200
Speaker 1: making three D prints, you know, and you're like, Okay, great,

1216
00:55:57,239 --> 00:55:59,279
Speaker 1: I finally escaped the rye race and making a living

1217
00:55:59,280 --> 00:56:01,400
Speaker 1: off three D prints. But you're gonna have something in

1218
00:56:01,440 --> 00:56:03,439
Speaker 1: you that's like, oh, but I want to do this too,

1219
00:56:03,480 --> 00:56:05,680
Speaker 1: And I want to do this too, you know, because

1220
00:56:06,120 --> 00:56:07,920
Speaker 1: because it because you have a thing within you that

1221
00:56:07,960 --> 00:56:09,920
Speaker 1: makes you want to just keep evolving. And you know,

1222
00:56:11,000 --> 00:56:13,120
Speaker 1: but that's good. That's good. It's a good thing to have.

1223
00:56:13,640 --> 00:56:15,719
Speaker 2: Yeah. I think it's a good thing to have. And

1224
00:56:15,840 --> 00:56:18,160
Speaker 2: I think it's it's very dope to to continue to

1225
00:56:18,239 --> 00:56:21,200
Speaker 2: chase that because then again, I I have scatter brain.

1226
00:56:21,680 --> 00:56:23,800
Speaker 2: I have so many different ideas and thoughts and everything,

1227
00:56:23,800 --> 00:56:26,000
Speaker 2: and it's dope to actually like when I put when

1228
00:56:26,000 --> 00:56:28,480
Speaker 2: I put some some effort towards like the thought that

1229
00:56:28,520 --> 00:56:30,040
Speaker 2: I had that I think would be a good idea,

1230
00:56:30,280 --> 00:56:31,600
Speaker 2: it's always rewording. Well.

1231
00:56:31,640 --> 00:56:34,319
Speaker 1: Yeah, man, I I'm rooting for you. I think it's

1232
00:56:34,360 --> 00:56:36,200
Speaker 1: all really cool. I think you're I think you're a

1233
00:56:36,200 --> 00:56:38,560
Speaker 1: cool guy. I think I have a lot of respect

1234
00:56:38,640 --> 00:56:42,000
Speaker 1: for you that you're, you know, like really making a

1235
00:56:42,000 --> 00:56:45,040
Speaker 1: good life for yourself after you know, dealing with some

1236
00:56:45,080 --> 00:56:48,040
Speaker 1: difficult circumstances and ship. I got a lot of I

1237
00:56:48,040 --> 00:56:49,279
Speaker 1: got a lot of respect for you, man. I think

1238
00:56:49,280 --> 00:56:51,560
Speaker 1: it's cool. I appreciate you sharing all this stuff with us.

1239
00:56:51,920 --> 00:56:54,840
Speaker 2: Yeah, thanks man. Yeah, it feels good to kind of

1240
00:56:54,880 --> 00:56:56,480
Speaker 2: talk about it and kind of like reflects on all

1241
00:56:56,560 --> 00:56:58,920
Speaker 2: the crazy cool shit I've done because I get down

1242
00:56:59,040 --> 00:57:01,279
Speaker 2: sometimes I'm like, damn, I don't really have anybody. I'm

1243
00:57:01,320 --> 00:57:03,279
Speaker 2: not really doing like enough. Sometimes it's like I'm not

1244
00:57:03,320 --> 00:57:06,919
Speaker 2: doing enough, like sitting here talking to you in the phone,

1245
00:57:06,920 --> 00:57:09,359
Speaker 2: and I'm like, damn, I've lived like four different, four

1246
00:57:09,400 --> 00:57:10,640
Speaker 2: different crazy as life.

1247
00:57:10,800 --> 00:57:13,080
Speaker 1: Well that's what it takes, because yeah, of course, because

1248
00:57:13,080 --> 00:57:15,479
Speaker 1: that's what it takes, is to like cause you only

1249
00:57:15,520 --> 00:57:15,759
Speaker 1: get you.

1250
00:57:16,280 --> 00:57:16,440
Speaker 2: Yeah.

1251
00:57:16,480 --> 00:57:19,320
Speaker 1: Now, once you start like like really like reflecting on

1252
00:57:19,360 --> 00:57:22,800
Speaker 1: your life, it can kind of bring out like it

1253
00:57:22,880 --> 00:57:29,280
Speaker 1: can help you sort of thwart whatever narratives you've created

1254
00:57:30,000 --> 00:57:33,600
Speaker 1: for yourself. Do you want to plug you? Do you

1255
00:57:33,600 --> 00:57:35,680
Speaker 1: have like a DJ thing you want to plug? I

1256
00:57:35,720 --> 00:57:37,480
Speaker 1: don't know if after. I don't know if you want

1257
00:57:37,480 --> 00:57:40,200
Speaker 1: to identify yourself, but if you do, it's fair game.

1258
00:57:42,680 --> 00:57:45,160
Speaker 2: Yeah, I will screw you. I'll do it. It's just it's

1259
00:57:45,200 --> 00:57:47,160
Speaker 2: just my name. So it's just spelled out. It's on

1260
00:57:47,240 --> 00:57:49,560
Speaker 2: Instagram and it's on TikTok and everything, but it's it's

1261
00:57:49,600 --> 00:57:53,000
Speaker 2: Gray Jean my name. So it's B like boy r

1262
00:57:53,160 --> 00:58:00,000
Speaker 2: A Z like zebra ja B what that's long weird,

1263
00:58:00,880 --> 00:58:02,720
Speaker 2: got a long ass name. So it's B like boy

1264
00:58:03,600 --> 00:58:12,200
Speaker 2: r A Z like zebra j h A N. And

1265
00:58:12,200 --> 00:58:13,480
Speaker 2: then I should pop up right there and.

1266
00:58:13,400 --> 00:58:20,200
Speaker 1: Peat and Jean. Yeah, it's the moment you have. Your

1267
00:58:20,240 --> 00:58:25,560
Speaker 1: name is written in Arabic. Right, Oh okay, this is okay.

1268
00:58:25,640 --> 00:58:26,919
Speaker 1: This is definitely not you.

1269
00:58:28,040 --> 00:58:33,120
Speaker 2: B R yeah, B R A Z j h A

1270
00:58:33,600 --> 00:58:35,240
Speaker 2: N N N three.

1271
00:58:35,280 --> 00:58:38,520
Speaker 1: Oh okay, only I put one N on there, yeah

1272
00:58:38,840 --> 00:58:43,600
Speaker 1: three yeah three? Oh there we go. Okay, look at this.

1273
00:58:43,640 --> 00:58:48,240
Speaker 1: Oh this is the look cool man? Hell yeah sick.

1274
00:58:48,320 --> 00:58:50,640
Speaker 1: I love yeah, I love this picture of you DJing

1275
00:58:50,720 --> 00:58:52,400
Speaker 1: with the orange and ship. That looks cool.

1276
00:58:53,400 --> 00:58:55,320
Speaker 2: Yeah yeah. One of my buddies took that shot. That

1277
00:58:55,400 --> 00:58:58,720
Speaker 2: was like mide me up club out in l A.

1278
00:58:58,800 --> 00:58:59,960
Speaker 2: That was a pretty good night.

1279
00:59:00,840 --> 00:59:05,600
Speaker 1: Cool man, well, brajeon, this is this is great talking

1280
00:59:05,600 --> 00:59:09,640
Speaker 1: to you man. Uh, I'm ins I'm inspired by the hustle.

1281
00:59:10,400 --> 00:59:13,040
Speaker 1: I'm inspired by this. This was this was this was

1282
00:59:13,040 --> 00:59:15,640
Speaker 1: an enjoyable conversation for me. I appreciate you sharing everything.

1283
00:59:16,920 --> 00:59:19,560
Speaker 1: Is there? Is there anything else you wanna say to

1284
00:59:19,640 --> 00:59:23,800
Speaker 1: the people of the computer or talk about or whatever

1285
00:59:23,880 --> 00:59:25,640
Speaker 1: else about life before we go?

1286
00:59:28,760 --> 00:59:32,040
Speaker 2: Nah? Man, just fucking Catalina wine, mix your boats.

1287
00:59:31,800 --> 00:59:36,080
Speaker 1: And hose swag. Thank you, I'll good luck to you, man,

1288
00:59:36,080 --> 00:59:37,560
Speaker 1: I'll see you around the universe.

1289
00:59:37,960 --> 00:59:41,480
Speaker 2: All right, thanks, see you lady man. Good quess.

1290
00:59:43,520 --> 00:59:47,200
Speaker 1: I liked that guy a lot. I liked that, you know,

1291
00:59:47,600 --> 00:59:50,800
Speaker 1: clearly he's got clearly he's facing like a lot of challenges,

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Speaker 1: you know, with like his fucking family situation and fucking

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00:59:55,440 --> 00:59:59,720
Speaker 1: you know, the general mental anxiety that comes with UH

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Speaker 1: being alive on the planet. And I don't know, I

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01:00:05,320 --> 01:00:07,720
Speaker 1: like the way he's uh. I like the way he's

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01:00:07,720 --> 01:00:09,520
Speaker 1: doing it. I have a lot of respect for it.

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01:00:10,480 --> 01:00:14,280
Speaker 1: I saw, like while I stream these phone calls live

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01:00:14,320 --> 01:00:17,440
Speaker 1: on Twitch, and I saw people in the chat saying

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Speaker 1: that he might have been making all this stuff up.

1300
01:00:20,720 --> 01:00:24,600
Speaker 1: And I was thinking about this just in general. On

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01:00:24,640 --> 01:00:28,320
Speaker 1: this podcast about like, oh, are people making stuff up?

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01:00:28,520 --> 01:00:28,800
Speaker 2: You know?

1303
01:00:29,160 --> 01:00:34,080
Speaker 1: Like that, Like I posted a clip from the woman

1304
01:00:34,120 --> 01:00:41,120
Speaker 1: who talked about what is It who talked about meeting

1305
01:00:41,200 --> 01:00:44,320
Speaker 1: that homeless guy on the streets and sleeping in the

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01:00:44,360 --> 01:00:46,320
Speaker 1: train station with him, and everyone was like it's fake

1307
01:00:46,560 --> 01:00:49,920
Speaker 1: or whatever. And listen, I'm telling you, as the part

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01:00:49,920 --> 01:00:53,160
Speaker 1: for a lot of things, as the person taking all

1309
01:00:53,200 --> 01:00:56,360
Speaker 1: these phone calls and talking to all these people, I

1310
01:00:56,560 --> 01:01:02,720
Speaker 1: really very rarely, if ever, like if like, I really

1311
01:01:02,840 --> 01:01:08,400
Speaker 1: rarely think that people are making stuff up personally, no

1312
01:01:08,480 --> 01:01:12,280
Speaker 1: offense to anyone, but I'm gonna throw this out there.

1313
01:01:12,800 --> 01:01:15,240
Speaker 1: I think the people who tend to go on the

1314
01:01:15,280 --> 01:01:19,480
Speaker 1: internet and be like this person's story is fake are

1315
01:01:19,560 --> 01:01:24,480
Speaker 1: people who haven't really lived a lot of life. Uh So,

1316
01:01:24,920 --> 01:01:27,400
Speaker 1: Like cause if you if you're a person who puts

1317
01:01:27,440 --> 01:01:30,120
Speaker 1: yourself out there and says yes to things and tries

1318
01:01:30,240 --> 01:01:34,160
Speaker 1: and you know whatever, like like this. You know, like

1319
01:01:34,160 --> 01:01:38,240
Speaker 1: like this guy Brazen, you know he someone's like, hey

1320
01:01:38,280 --> 01:01:41,760
Speaker 1: should try poorn. He's like yeah, okay. Or someone's like,

1321
01:01:41,880 --> 01:01:44,439
Speaker 1: you know, hey go to Jamie Fox's house. He's like yeah, okay.

1322
01:01:44,440 --> 01:01:46,120
Speaker 1: You know he's saying yes, he's putting himself out there

1323
01:01:46,160 --> 01:01:47,880
Speaker 1: he's trying. If you're someone who does that, you know

1324
01:01:47,920 --> 01:01:52,280
Speaker 1: that life is really like weird and crazy or like

1325
01:01:52,320 --> 01:01:54,840
Speaker 1: the woman who slept with the guy on the train,

1326
01:01:55,600 --> 01:02:00,480
Speaker 1: like like shit, fucking shit happened, So you know what

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01:02:00,480 --> 01:02:05,640
Speaker 1: I mean. So I really I believe ninety nine point

1328
01:02:05,720 --> 01:02:09,160
Speaker 1: ninety ninety nine. Sometimes a guy calls in and is like, yeah,

1329
01:02:09,240 --> 01:02:11,920
Speaker 1: I fucked my cousin. Actually, one time a guy did

1330
01:02:11,960 --> 01:02:13,520
Speaker 1: call in to talk about fucking his cousin. I did

1331
01:02:13,560 --> 01:02:20,040
Speaker 1: believe him. But like things happen, I believe every word

1332
01:02:20,120 --> 01:02:23,960
Speaker 1: of what this guy was talking about. And uh the

1333
01:02:24,040 --> 01:02:26,120
Speaker 1: other like like I don't know, man, shit is just

1334
01:02:27,360 --> 01:02:30,800
Speaker 1: uh like I think like like people I don't like

1335
01:02:31,280 --> 01:02:34,760
Speaker 1: if you go out, like life is crazier than you

1336
01:02:34,920 --> 01:02:38,120
Speaker 1: think it is. So I have no real reason to

1337
01:02:38,160 --> 01:02:44,080
Speaker 1: not uh believe the you know, not only the like

1338
01:02:44,280 --> 01:02:46,960
Speaker 1: empirical events that people talk about on this show, but

1339
01:02:47,000 --> 01:02:53,520
Speaker 1: like their feelings about them, like, uh, you know, it's

1340
01:02:53,720 --> 01:02:56,360
Speaker 1: it feels it, it's very it feels real. That's just

1341
01:02:56,400 --> 01:02:59,520
Speaker 1: that's my perspective on it. But anyway, I appreciate raising

1342
01:02:59,680 --> 01:03:06,560
Speaker 1: for calling in and sharing his story. Hey, what's up, folks,

1343
01:03:06,600 --> 01:03:09,440
Speaker 1: it's Lyle here. I just wanted to give you a

1344
01:03:09,480 --> 01:03:13,280
Speaker 1: little bit more episode and thought I would read just

1345
01:03:13,320 --> 01:03:17,919
Speaker 1: a few gek mails, maybe a couple, maybe just one.

1346
01:03:18,000 --> 01:03:21,920
Speaker 1: I don't know whatever I'm feeling today, just to you know,

1347
01:03:21,960 --> 01:03:24,960
Speaker 1: give you guys a little bit of bonus Gecko time.

1348
01:03:26,120 --> 01:03:27,840
Speaker 1: So I have some emails in front of me. I'll

1349
01:03:27,880 --> 01:03:30,600
Speaker 1: read one or two of them before we go. I

1350
01:03:30,600 --> 01:03:34,720
Speaker 1: hope you guys enjoyed that call that we just had

1351
01:03:35,600 --> 01:03:40,240
Speaker 1: with our young DJ hustler friend. I really liked that guy.

1352
01:03:41,640 --> 01:03:47,520
Speaker 1: All right, Okay, yeah, let's read a few emails. Let's see. Ah,

1353
01:03:47,560 --> 01:03:52,040
Speaker 1: here we go. This is This is from Bray. Subject

1354
01:03:52,080 --> 01:03:59,200
Speaker 1: line femboy identity and dealing with self perception problems. Hello,

1355
01:03:59,280 --> 01:04:03,560
Speaker 1: mister Gecko, I am Bray. I want to quickly get

1356
01:04:03,560 --> 01:04:05,920
Speaker 1: the fanboy stuff out of the way. I've listened to

1357
01:04:06,000 --> 01:04:08,440
Speaker 1: your podcast since I was sixteen, and it's been a

1358
01:04:08,520 --> 01:04:11,240
Speaker 1: huge part of my day to day. Very much helped

1359
01:04:11,240 --> 01:04:14,440
Speaker 1: me cope with many quiet periods of my teenage life.

1360
01:04:14,520 --> 01:04:16,720
Speaker 1: I love your show and your takes on everyone's issues,

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01:04:16,760 --> 01:04:18,520
Speaker 1: and I want to say you're awesome. I was a

1362
01:04:18,560 --> 01:04:22,840
Speaker 1: top ten listener on Spotify this year. Btw. Thank you, Bray. Also,

1363
01:04:22,920 --> 01:04:25,320
Speaker 1: thank you to everyone else who I got a lot

1364
01:04:25,400 --> 01:04:31,200
Speaker 1: of really nice messages about Spotify rapped and because I

1365
01:04:31,240 --> 01:04:33,400
Speaker 1: know they do a podcast one, so thank you to

1366
01:04:33,400 --> 01:04:38,600
Speaker 1: everyone who has listened to even one single minute of

1367
01:04:38,680 --> 01:04:44,320
Speaker 1: me doing this. I saw some guy in fuck Spain

1368
01:04:44,600 --> 01:04:49,440
Speaker 1: or some guy in some non English speaking country logged

1369
01:04:49,560 --> 01:04:55,440
Speaker 1: like a full month of the podcast this year, so

1370
01:04:55,880 --> 01:04:59,440
Speaker 1: I appreciate that guy. So yeah, thank you guys very

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01:04:59,480 --> 01:05:03,800
Speaker 1: much for sending me that stuff. Anyway, anyway, back debray,

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Speaker 1: I've always been lost in terms of identity and self perception.

1373
01:05:09,000 --> 01:05:12,160
Speaker 1: I know everyone goes through life changing and developing their

1374
01:05:12,280 --> 01:05:15,080
Speaker 1: version of self and creating a vessel, but I've never

1375
01:05:15,120 --> 01:05:17,680
Speaker 1: been sure of who I am and especially how I'd

1376
01:05:17,720 --> 01:05:20,800
Speaker 1: like to appear to the people around me. Since last year,

1377
01:05:20,840 --> 01:05:24,480
Speaker 1: I've been experimenting with my feminine side, dressing up as

1378
01:05:24,520 --> 01:05:29,400
Speaker 1: a stereotypical femboy in private. I normally like appearing androgynous

1379
01:05:29,520 --> 01:05:33,720
Speaker 1: and going against typical manly behaviors, having long hair, doing

1380
01:05:33,720 --> 01:05:36,840
Speaker 1: a bit of eyeliner and makeup, and also skincare. It

1381
01:05:36,880 --> 01:05:39,080
Speaker 1: makes me feel comfortable and confident, but I struggle with

1382
01:05:39,080 --> 01:05:42,400
Speaker 1: how I perceive myself versus how others see me. I'm

1383
01:05:42,400 --> 01:05:46,320
Speaker 1: a I'm a relatively average looking guy, but I take

1384
01:05:46,400 --> 01:05:50,560
Speaker 1: really good feminine photos. I think these photos fool me

1385
01:05:50,680 --> 01:05:54,600
Speaker 1: into thinking I'm more feminine than I really am. I'm

1386
01:05:54,640 --> 01:05:58,160
Speaker 1: literally oblivious to how I look, which is ruining my

1387
01:05:58,280 --> 01:06:01,120
Speaker 1: mental health and identity that I've made since I was

1388
01:06:01,160 --> 01:06:06,560
Speaker 1: a kid. Huh, why is being oblivious to how you

1389
01:06:06,760 --> 01:06:11,720
Speaker 1: look ruining your identity? All right? Hold on, I have thoughts,

1390
01:06:11,760 --> 01:06:14,360
Speaker 1: but I'm gonna finish the email. I have dabbled in

1391
01:06:14,440 --> 01:06:18,040
Speaker 1: posting pictures of me and feminine clothing on Reddit, but

1392
01:06:18,120 --> 01:06:21,440
Speaker 1: the compliments I receive online haven't ever really felt good

1393
01:06:21,560 --> 01:06:26,040
Speaker 1: or meaningful. I don't get confidence from online interactions, nor

1394
01:06:26,080 --> 01:06:29,200
Speaker 1: do I feel engaged with them either. At this point,

1395
01:06:29,240 --> 01:06:31,960
Speaker 1: I live by the confidence I receive from the mirror,

1396
01:06:32,280 --> 01:06:34,480
Speaker 1: and the days where I'm not confident in how I

1397
01:06:34,520 --> 01:06:37,040
Speaker 1: see myself are some of the most depressing moments in

1398
01:06:37,080 --> 01:06:40,560
Speaker 1: my life. All in all, I'm a boring, emo looking

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01:06:40,640 --> 01:06:44,760
Speaker 1: boy living in Australia who's deluded himself into thinking he's cute,

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Speaker 1: And it's just wondering how you deal with your own

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01:06:47,520 --> 01:06:50,840
Speaker 1: self perception and identity, how you cope with negative thoughts,

1402
01:06:51,160 --> 01:06:54,040
Speaker 1: or how you deal with anxiety from being self conscious.

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01:06:54,240 --> 01:07:00,360
Speaker 1: Thanks Bray, A lot of stuff in here, A lot

1404
01:07:00,360 --> 01:07:03,560
Speaker 1: of stuff in here. There was one line where you

1405
01:07:03,600 --> 01:07:06,240
Speaker 1: were like, I'm oblivious to how I look and that's

1406
01:07:06,280 --> 01:07:09,320
Speaker 1: ruining my mental health. I'm wondering why, and also like

1407
01:07:09,360 --> 01:07:13,240
Speaker 1: your oblivious to Like, Okay, you're saying that, you're saying

1408
01:07:13,280 --> 01:07:16,400
Speaker 1: you're I assume you're saying you're oblivious to how other

1409
01:07:16,480 --> 01:07:22,160
Speaker 1: people are perceiving you. So I'll tell you a few things,

1410
01:07:22,760 --> 01:07:30,200
Speaker 1: which is how the knowledge of how you are being

1411
01:07:30,240 --> 01:07:36,080
Speaker 1: perceived by others is only helpful when it's helpful, you

1412
01:07:36,120 --> 01:07:38,360
Speaker 1: know what I mean. I've talked about this before, But

1413
01:07:38,400 --> 01:07:42,080
Speaker 1: there's like a I believe in like a strong spectrum.

1414
01:07:42,760 --> 01:07:45,880
Speaker 1: I believe there's an optimal place to be on the

1415
01:07:46,000 --> 01:07:52,040
Speaker 1: spectrum of like conscientiousness, right, because you don't want to

1416
01:07:52,080 --> 01:07:56,880
Speaker 1: completely disregard the way in which you come off to

1417
01:07:56,920 --> 01:08:02,680
Speaker 1: other people, because there's valuable in in there, right, But

1418
01:08:02,720 --> 01:08:04,320
Speaker 1: you also don't want to be too obsessed with it

1419
01:08:04,760 --> 01:08:08,560
Speaker 1: because at a certain point it's moot how you come

1420
01:08:08,600 --> 01:08:12,160
Speaker 1: off to other people because there's infinite people and you

1421
01:08:12,240 --> 01:08:14,600
Speaker 1: only have your one life, So who really gives a fluck?

1422
01:08:15,800 --> 01:08:17,280
Speaker 1: It depends on what you're trying to do and how

1423
01:08:17,280 --> 01:08:19,960
Speaker 1: you're trying to live your life and all these things.

1424
01:08:20,040 --> 01:08:24,760
Speaker 1: But I mean, look, man, here's the thing about like

1425
01:08:24,760 --> 01:08:28,000
Speaker 1: your identity. And also, you were sixteen when you started

1426
01:08:28,040 --> 01:08:30,400
Speaker 1: listening to the podcast, so I'm gonna assume you're probably

1427
01:08:30,439 --> 01:08:38,160
Speaker 1: like eighteen nineteen something like that. Your identity can be

1428
01:08:38,320 --> 01:08:42,680
Speaker 1: whatever you want it to be, you know. I mean,

1429
01:08:42,720 --> 01:08:44,960
Speaker 1: if you want to dress up like a girl and

1430
01:08:45,040 --> 01:08:49,439
Speaker 1: take photos of yourself as a girl and that's and

1431
01:08:49,520 --> 01:08:52,760
Speaker 1: you feel to yourself that you are cute and that

1432
01:08:52,800 --> 01:08:56,080
Speaker 1: makes you feel good, then fucking do it.

1433
01:08:56,720 --> 01:08:57,000
Speaker 2: You know.

1434
01:08:57,320 --> 01:08:59,960
Speaker 1: I feel like I'm I feel like I haven't gotten

1435
01:09:00,080 --> 01:09:05,080
Speaker 1: into the full crux of this issue. Okay, the confidence

1436
01:09:05,120 --> 01:09:08,439
Speaker 1: I received from the mirror is where. Oh I live

1437
01:09:08,560 --> 01:09:10,759
Speaker 1: by the confidence I receive in the mirror. That's great.

1438
01:09:11,000 --> 01:09:14,439
Speaker 1: That's good. That's a good thing, Bray, that's a good thing.

1439
01:09:14,680 --> 01:09:17,360
Speaker 1: If you build up your identity on and I know

1440
01:09:17,439 --> 01:09:19,680
Speaker 1: this because I do it, if you build up your

1441
01:09:19,720 --> 01:09:24,200
Speaker 1: identity from like internet likes and like com and like

1442
01:09:24,280 --> 01:09:30,720
Speaker 1: external validation, you're building a fucking castle of sand, you know,

1443
01:09:33,320 --> 01:09:39,360
Speaker 1: and everyone knows that. So good. I think that's good.

1444
01:09:39,520 --> 01:09:43,839
Speaker 1: I think it's a healthy thing to not really feel

1445
01:09:43,880 --> 01:09:48,280
Speaker 1: that much from compliments on the internet. It'd be way

1446
01:09:48,320 --> 01:09:49,880
Speaker 1: worse if you were to if you were telling me, like,

1447
01:09:49,960 --> 01:09:52,920
Speaker 1: I can only feel good about myself other people on

1448
01:09:52,960 --> 01:09:55,599
Speaker 1: the internet are telling me that I'm attractive and amazing.

1449
01:09:55,680 --> 01:10:02,960
Speaker 1: I'd be like, that's a bad thing. But so so

1450
01:10:03,000 --> 01:10:09,840
Speaker 1: I guess it's more about like a self perception. Hm hm, oh, okay,

1451
01:10:09,840 --> 01:10:12,919
Speaker 1: I'm an idiot. Okay, no, okay. This person is posting

1452
01:10:12,960 --> 01:10:18,400
Speaker 1: pictures of himself being a girl on the internet and

1453
01:10:18,520 --> 01:10:23,080
Speaker 1: people are saying that he looks cute, but then he

1454
01:10:24,520 --> 01:10:27,519
Speaker 1: is looking in the mirror and he does and he

1455
01:10:27,560 --> 01:10:30,559
Speaker 1: doesn't see what the other people are seeing. Okay, that

1456
01:10:30,640 --> 01:10:38,400
Speaker 1: makes sense. I think. I think that's it. Uh, I'm

1457
01:10:38,439 --> 01:10:42,680
Speaker 1: a boring, emo looking guy in Australia who's deluded himself

1458
01:10:42,680 --> 01:10:45,280
Speaker 1: into thinking he's cute. I mean, think whatever you fucking

1459
01:10:45,320 --> 01:10:51,479
Speaker 1: want about yourself. I believe that, like I do believe

1460
01:10:51,479 --> 01:10:55,240
Speaker 1: in manifestation in some regard of like whatever narrative you

1461
01:10:55,280 --> 01:11:02,519
Speaker 1: want to play into, like uh, hours your actions, I suppose, so,

1462
01:11:02,640 --> 01:11:05,920
Speaker 1: like if you walk around thinking that you're cute, then

1463
01:11:06,040 --> 01:11:10,759
Speaker 1: it does kind of rub off, you know, to an extent.

1464
01:11:10,960 --> 01:11:15,680
Speaker 1: Of course, like you don't want to be like completely delusional, but.

1465
01:11:17,680 --> 01:11:18,000
Speaker 2: I don't know.

1466
01:11:18,040 --> 01:11:21,000
Speaker 1: Man, believe whatever, Believe whatever you want about yourself. Bray,

1467
01:11:24,479 --> 01:11:26,760
Speaker 1: I'm a big fan of fake it till you make it,

1468
01:11:27,800 --> 01:11:32,320
Speaker 1: and maybe we will all one day make it. Uh okay,

1469
01:11:32,360 --> 01:11:38,479
Speaker 1: let's read like one more. This is from Bailey. I'm

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01:11:38,600 --> 01:11:47,240
Speaker 1: thirty and still having nocturnal emissions. Uh okay. I'm thirty

1471
01:11:47,280 --> 01:11:51,480
Speaker 1: and on occasion, I still have wet dreams, or nocturnal

1472
01:11:51,479 --> 01:11:54,880
Speaker 1: emissions as they are called. I'm not exactly sure when

1473
01:11:54,920 --> 01:11:57,320
Speaker 1: this first started, but I would say that this has

1474
01:11:57,360 --> 01:11:59,960
Speaker 1: been a thing for about half my life, and took

1475
01:12:00,080 --> 01:12:03,240
Speaker 1: quantify the frequency. I would guess this happens at least

1476
01:12:03,280 --> 01:12:07,480
Speaker 1: once a month, maybe on average a little more. Sometimes

1477
01:12:07,520 --> 01:12:10,840
Speaker 1: it has happened twice in a night. Thankfully, it hasn't

1478
01:12:10,840 --> 01:12:13,400
Speaker 1: happened in over a week or two. I have never

1479
01:12:13,439 --> 01:12:15,720
Speaker 1: talked to a doctor or a therapist about this, and

1480
01:12:15,760 --> 01:12:18,479
Speaker 1: I don't really want to. It seems my problem is

1481
01:12:18,600 --> 01:12:22,400
Speaker 1: dream induced, so something freaky might be going down in

1482
01:12:22,479 --> 01:12:27,439
Speaker 1: my dream leading me to finish finishing as soon as

1483
01:12:27,439 --> 01:12:29,599
Speaker 1: it happens, I wake up, and then the feeling I

1484
01:12:29,640 --> 01:12:31,519
Speaker 1: have when I wake is that I have to pee,

1485
01:12:32,240 --> 01:12:35,160
Speaker 1: so in an attempt to prevent this, I try to

1486
01:12:35,200 --> 01:12:38,080
Speaker 1: cut off drinking any fluids at least an hour or

1487
01:12:38,120 --> 01:12:40,720
Speaker 1: more before I go to bed. I also read that

1488
01:12:40,840 --> 01:12:43,240
Speaker 1: sleeping on your back helps, so I try to do

1489
01:12:43,320 --> 01:12:47,880
Speaker 1: that when falling asleep. To embarrass myself further with this issue.

1490
01:12:47,960 --> 01:12:51,360
Speaker 1: I have a longtime girlfriend. However, thankfully she has no

1491
01:12:51,479 --> 01:12:54,280
Speaker 1: idea about this. But this has happened when I've stayed

1492
01:12:54,320 --> 01:12:57,800
Speaker 1: over at her place. Because it seems like it is unpredictable.

1493
01:12:58,120 --> 01:13:01,160
Speaker 1: I pack extra underwear when whenever I am not staying

1494
01:13:01,200 --> 01:13:04,000
Speaker 1: at my place, and when it happens, I wake up,

1495
01:13:04,240 --> 01:13:07,759
Speaker 1: go clean myself up, and change. When this has happened

1496
01:13:07,920 --> 01:13:10,040
Speaker 1: and I am at her place, as I'm getting back

1497
01:13:10,080 --> 01:13:12,360
Speaker 1: in bed, she will ask if I'm okay since I

1498
01:13:12,439 --> 01:13:14,519
Speaker 1: keep getting up in the middle of the night. I

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Speaker 1: believe I have her thinking I have bladder issues or

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Speaker 1: an upset stomach, which is good. I don't really have

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Speaker 1: anything specific I'm looking from you for from you other

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01:13:23,880 --> 01:13:26,240
Speaker 1: than your thoughts on this matter. I don't really want

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Speaker 1: to consult a doctor on this, as I'm embarrassed by it.

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Speaker 1: I don't want to think I am a sex addict,

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Speaker 1: What do the hell does this have to be in

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01:13:33,160 --> 01:13:36,000
Speaker 1: a sex addict? While I did see that masturbation and

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Speaker 1: sex can reduce this from happening, I'd like to refrain

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Speaker 1: from watching porn. If you read this on your podcast,

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Speaker 1: thank you. I'll be listening for your reaction in any

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Speaker 1: words you have on this matter. Okay, Bailey, Uh, First

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Speaker 1: of all, First of all, I can tell that you're

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01:13:55,720 --> 01:14:03,200
Speaker 1: carrying way too much. You're carrying way, way way too

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01:14:03,320 --> 01:14:07,719
Speaker 1: much shame about this, my friend. You're like, it's all right, brother,

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01:14:07,840 --> 01:14:12,320
Speaker 1: It's all right to come. It's our biological imperative. It's

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01:14:12,320 --> 01:14:15,240
Speaker 1: okay to come. Your girlfriend doesn't care that you come

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Speaker 1: in your sleep. A doctor doesn't care that you come

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Speaker 1: in your sleep. You're not a sex addict because you

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Speaker 1: come in your sleep. You're You're okay, brother. I want

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01:14:23,600 --> 01:14:25,760
Speaker 1: to I want to go into this guy's brain and

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Speaker 1: make him realize that he's fine, because he's clearly freaking

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Speaker 1: out about a thing that's really not that big of

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Speaker 1: a deal. So, I mean, that's the main thing I

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Speaker 1: would say, is like, you're definitely taking this thing and

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01:14:37,720 --> 01:14:40,840
Speaker 1: making it into much bigger of a deal than than

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Speaker 1: it is. Like, what if your girlfriend. Your girlfriend doesn't

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Speaker 1: care that you come in your sleep? Dude, are you

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Speaker 1: peeing your sleep? You're coming in your sleep? I think

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Speaker 1: you're coming in I think I think you're coming in

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Speaker 1: your sleep. Yeah, wet dreams, Yeah, I think you're coming

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Speaker 1: in your sleep. How much are you because I because

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Speaker 1: I think everyone comes in their sleep a little bit.

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Speaker 1: But well, I'm curious. How much are you coming in

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Speaker 1: your sleep? Are you like full? Are you coming full

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Speaker 1: loads in your sleep? I cut off drinking fluids at

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Speaker 1: least an hour before I go to bed. See are

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Speaker 1: you don't? Are you peeing in your sleep? Or you're

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Speaker 1: coming in your sleep? I try to cut off fluids

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Speaker 1: at least an hour or more before I go to bed.

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Speaker 1: That reads that you're peeing, but the sex part of

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Speaker 1: it makes it leads to your I'm gonna assume you're

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01:15:29,960 --> 01:15:33,000
Speaker 1: coming in your sleep, and I'm gonna assume you're coming

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01:15:33,520 --> 01:15:40,559
Speaker 1: strong liquiity comes in your sleep? Does that happen? Go

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Speaker 1: to a doctor, man, there's notion. You don't need to

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Speaker 1: be ashamed of this. I'd like to refrain from watching

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Speaker 1: Do You Wait? Hold On? I don't want myself to

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01:15:50,560 --> 01:15:52,880
Speaker 1: think I'm a sex act or anything. But I did

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01:15:52,880 --> 01:15:55,679
Speaker 1: see that masturbation and sex can reduce this from happening.

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Speaker 1: I'd like to refrain from watching porn. There's so much

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Speaker 1: of it. Do you have Do you not have sex

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01:16:04,800 --> 01:16:08,599
Speaker 1: or masturbate ever? If you don't have sex or masturbate ever,

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01:16:09,320 --> 01:16:15,040
Speaker 1: then then yeah, then then yeah, something's gonna They're fucking

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01:16:15,120 --> 01:16:19,400
Speaker 1: damn building up and something's gotta go at some point.

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01:16:20,479 --> 01:16:22,320
Speaker 1: You don't have to watch pooring to masturbate. You can

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01:16:22,400 --> 01:16:25,479
Speaker 1: just do it. Do you and your girlfriend not have sex?

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01:16:27,360 --> 01:16:29,360
Speaker 1: It sounds like you have shame about having sex and

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Speaker 1: masturbatings too. Billy I, Billy Bailey, Billy Billy, release the

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01:16:37,320 --> 01:16:40,880
Speaker 1: shame and fucking have sex and masturbate and come in

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01:16:40,920 --> 01:16:43,920
Speaker 1: your sleep like it's fine. There's no you're putting value

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01:16:44,000 --> 01:16:46,960
Speaker 1: judgments on this thing for just no reason. Maybe you

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01:16:47,000 --> 01:16:49,680
Speaker 1: had a religious upbringing, maybe you just are scared. I

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01:16:49,680 --> 01:16:53,960
Speaker 1: don't know, but that's my main thought is you should

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Speaker 1: uh relinquish the shame. And it's just you know, because look,

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01:16:59,280 --> 01:17:02,080
Speaker 1: you either jack Your body is telling you you either

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Speaker 1: need to jack off while you're awake, or jack off,

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01:17:06,240 --> 01:17:09,439
Speaker 1: or or it'll jack off for you while you're dreaming about, uh,

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Speaker 1: Lola Bunny or Selma Hyak or whatever your thing is.

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Speaker 1: Do you watch TV? You're seeing this kind of seems

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01:17:17,680 --> 01:17:19,519
Speaker 1: like the kind of person that thinks that watching TV

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Speaker 1: is sinful and maybe wouldn't know who Lola Bunny is.

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Speaker 1: It's okay, It's okay for you to watch Lola Bunny.

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Speaker 1: Hentai Billy, You're all right. If I could be the

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Speaker 1: if I'm the if I could be the first person

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Speaker 1: in your life to tell you it's okay to come,

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01:17:39,520 --> 01:17:43,040
Speaker 1: I'm an honored to do that. So don't don't be

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01:17:43,080 --> 01:17:45,240
Speaker 1: embarrassed by it. Man, Just fucking go to the doctor

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01:17:45,280 --> 01:17:49,560
Speaker 1: if you need to tell your girlfriend. Nothing wrong with it.

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Speaker 1: The only the only thing that's I jend you know

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01:17:52,040 --> 01:18:00,880
Speaker 1: what's funny is is contradictatorially. Contradictorily. It's more weird to

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Speaker 1: me that you find this weird then that this is occurring.

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Speaker 1: So let yourself live, Bailey. That's all I gotta say.

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Speaker 1: All Right, I think that's that's the end of my

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Speaker 1: gackmail reading. But there's more emails here, but I'll fuck

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01:18:22,680 --> 01:18:25,320
Speaker 1: my voice cracked. Okay, I'm alive. I'm okay. See that

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01:18:25,360 --> 01:18:27,599
Speaker 1: was kind of embarrassing, but I don't care. I'm gonna

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01:18:27,600 --> 01:18:33,439
Speaker 1: own it. I'm alive. There's more emails here, but I'll

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Speaker 1: read them on another episode. I hope you guys enjoyed this.

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Speaker 1: I hope that you are enjoying the podcast. I hope

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Speaker 1: you liked the conversation that I had with the caller

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Speaker 1: I did. Maybe some of you will get into four

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Speaker 1: X trading. I didn't. I didn't tell you about that.

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Speaker 1: That was someone else.

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Speaker 2: Uh.

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Speaker 1: Go to Therapy Echo tour dot com. I'm planning my

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Speaker 1: live shows. I'm excited about them. Give me your email

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01:19:05,720 --> 01:19:08,640
Speaker 1: or phone number or whatever, or don't I mean you?

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01:19:08,640 --> 01:19:10,840
Speaker 1: Should you? Or do you should? Should? I want you

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Speaker 1: to come. I want you to come to my show.

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Speaker 1: And I want Bailey to come on a towel or

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Speaker 1: wherever he wants to come. This was the Therapeuticle podcast.

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Speaker 1: Thank you again for listening, Thanks for sharing your Spotify

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Speaker 1: raps with me. And here's to many more years of

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Speaker 1: talking into this microphone and talking to people and being

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Speaker 1: a gecko and living life gek bless.

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Speaker 2: Everythink goes on the line, taking your phone calls every night,

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01:19:47,439 --> 01:19:49,640
Speaker 2: everything goes, and I'm just.

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Speaker 3: Teaching you aloud, in the mean of your life.

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Speaker 2: He's not ready an expert