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Speaker 1: Mental health check up for today, and today is about

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Speaker 1: being true to what we set out to do in

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Speaker 1: the first place. And let me explain, I've actually been

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Speaker 1: struggling more in the last month and I have in

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Speaker 1: a while because I've been going through some different decisions

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Speaker 1: I've had to make, so I haven't had a lot

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Speaker 1: of stability and it's kind of put me in a

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Speaker 1: difficult situation for myself. And then what I did was

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Speaker 1: I started saying to myself, Ah, well, Jay, you gotta

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Speaker 1: deal with this on your own. You want to. You

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Speaker 1: don't want to bother people with this all the time.

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Speaker 1: You're always in the gray, and uh, you know whether

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Speaker 1: it's the gray or blue, and that's just not the

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Speaker 1: right way to think, the proper way to think. And

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Speaker 1: the more you all come up to me and tell

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Speaker 1: me how much I've impacted you by talking about this,

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Speaker 1: the more it reminds me. No, I've got to continue

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Speaker 1: to talk about it. I keep telling everybody we gotta

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Speaker 1: talk about it and open up and talk about it.

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Speaker 1: But I'm sure you all a lot of you out

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Speaker 1: there ever the same similar thing. When we're going through

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Speaker 1: the gray so much that we act like we don't

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Speaker 1: want to bother people if we're always in the gray,

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Speaker 1: and that's not my authentic way of thinking, because nobody

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Speaker 1: has told me I've bothered them. In fact, it's been

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Speaker 1: the other way. Everybody has been like, please open up

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Speaker 1: for us, please talk about it more. Please. So you

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Speaker 1: know a lot of times when you have depression anxiety,

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Speaker 1: you make up these stories in your own head, and

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Speaker 1: that's one of the ones I've made up that Well,

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Speaker 1: people don't don't want to just hear about this constantly

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Speaker 1: from me, when in fact people actually do because they

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Speaker 1: want to be there for you, but also they want

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Speaker 1: to feel a lot less alone. So something I've worked

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Speaker 1: through recently, and with that, I guess I am going

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Speaker 1: from more of the gray to the blue. Just having

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Speaker 1: these doing these checkens with you all help me a

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Speaker 1: lot more to go from the gray to the blue.

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Speaker 1: So um in the end, listen, let's be authentic too.

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Speaker 1: If we were sitting out here to talk about this more,

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Speaker 1: let's not let the roommates in our head tell us

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Speaker 1: that we're being a pain in the butt and nobody

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Speaker 1: wants to hear it, because the truth is, we've got

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Speaker 1: to open up to each other a lot more. So

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Speaker 1: I'm pretty proud of myself that I was able to

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Speaker 1: work through this and work through this way of thinking.

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Speaker 1: And now it's just gonna be a quick reminder for myself.

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Speaker 1: Thank you, love you all. Let's keep walking this walk

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Speaker 1: together