WEBVTT - Lydia Asrat 0:00:01.960 --> 0:00:05.000 R and B money. 0:00:05.559 --> 0:00:06.120 We are. 0:00:07.680 --> 0:00:14.840 Thanks take valoti. We are the authority on all things 0:00:15.560 --> 0:00:19.480 R and B. Ladies and gentlemen. My name is Tank 0:00:20.640 --> 0:00:24.160 and this is the Army Money podcorst the authority on 0:00:24.280 --> 0:00:28.480 all things R and B. Uh. Today we're getting down 0:00:28.520 --> 0:00:31.840 the business, standing on it. What we're doing. We're standing 0:00:31.840 --> 0:00:36.600 on business today. Take a special breed. You had to 0:00:36.680 --> 0:00:40.199 have been in this ship a long motherfucker time, a 0:00:40.320 --> 0:00:46.239 lengthy tenure early early, the amounts of experience to be 0:00:46.280 --> 0:00:49.040 this type of individual, to be this kind of a person, 0:00:49.320 --> 0:00:50.159 to have this type. 0:00:50.000 --> 0:00:55.360 Of represented to write it and all right, huh. 0:00:55.440 --> 0:01:00.120 So many things come in the form of lead. The 0:01:07.880 --> 0:01:09.600 many dialects. 0:01:10.560 --> 0:01:17.160 Yes, you are low key look Ethiopian. And people have 0:01:17.280 --> 0:01:19.640 asked me in my community if you're Ethiopian because they 0:01:19.640 --> 0:01:22.320 know I know you really, They're like, he's off shot. 0:01:23.280 --> 0:01:27.399 I should do it. I should should I should do 0:01:28.000 --> 0:01:30.480 I should do it? Twenty three and meter you should 0:01:30.880 --> 0:01:32.000 and see what's going on. 0:01:32.080 --> 0:01:32.759 I could see it. 0:01:33.120 --> 0:01:33.800 You might find out. 0:01:33.800 --> 0:01:35.560 So she's your one, know man, That's that's why I 0:01:35.600 --> 0:01:37.319 always look at you. 0:01:38.160 --> 0:01:39.160 Where you find out some ship. 0:01:39.080 --> 0:01:41.200 To do, Let's just see what happens. I can get 0:01:41.200 --> 0:01:43.400 a dolphin by something. You know what I'm saying. You 0:01:43.480 --> 0:01:45.959 can really tap into the culture and some things happening 0:01:46.000 --> 0:01:46.360 over there. 0:01:46.360 --> 0:01:49.720 I know there are, but you do look it? 0:01:49.880 --> 0:01:52.160 Okay, what what is? What is? What is the look? 0:01:52.160 --> 0:01:53.520 What is? What is? What am I giving? 0:01:54.200 --> 0:01:58.160 What you're giving is it's the proportions of our face. 0:01:58.440 --> 0:02:00.160 I don't know if you guys have I know, you 0:02:00.200 --> 0:02:01.600 know because you from the bad You've seen a lot 0:02:01.640 --> 0:02:05.520 of Ethiopians in all East Africans, but we have a 0:02:07.800 --> 0:02:10.000 he does a lot, so you should know it. Just 0:02:10.200 --> 0:02:13.120 I think we just have a distinctive look, like eyes 0:02:13.160 --> 0:02:16.600 are set, our noses are set. I think that's mostly 0:02:16.639 --> 0:02:20.440 it's mostly right here, but yours kind of looks like 0:02:20.440 --> 0:02:22.440 like you look like a couple of my cousins. 0:02:24.960 --> 0:02:27.320 Give you a name because the rail doesn't sound. 0:02:27.320 --> 0:02:31.280 Very well yeah, I know, but the rails, I mean 0:02:31.280 --> 0:02:33.320 that's what your mom picked or your dad. 0:02:35.360 --> 0:02:37.160 Sole Ethiopian. 0:02:37.240 --> 0:02:41.359 You do. It would be like ted Ross. Ted Ross. 0:02:43.480 --> 0:02:46.920 Wasn't it wasn't that the Weekends name and it was 0:02:47.600 --> 0:02:51.280 in that TV show he was like the club promoter 0:02:51.400 --> 0:02:54.240 wild Nigga remember that. 0:02:54.680 --> 0:02:59.240 But like the number one Ethiopian singers name is Teddy. 0:02:58.960 --> 0:03:02.720 Opro Teddy He's huge. 0:03:04.639 --> 0:03:07.079 Put his song at the end of her concert when 0:03:07.080 --> 0:03:12.880 she went to Ethiopia, and it went it was for 0:03:12.919 --> 0:03:15.040 our New Year's and she like played it after she 0:03:15.120 --> 0:03:17.920 was done and had her dancers dance with everybody crazy. 0:03:18.800 --> 0:03:20.440 They said it was shaking the stadium. 0:03:20.600 --> 0:03:27.000 Ship nuts. I was there to be always tapping in. 0:03:27.120 --> 0:03:32.000 Yeah, that was twenty eleven. Friend. 0:03:34.360 --> 0:03:38.360 We always find ourselves in cool room, whether it be 0:03:38.400 --> 0:03:43.440 some some fitness equivent around some papers to be signed, 0:03:43.440 --> 0:03:44.760 and we always. 0:03:44.760 --> 0:03:48.280 We always are, We always are outside in some capacity. 0:03:48.440 --> 0:03:51.600 Yeah, And I think, you know, I think it's just 0:03:51.960 --> 0:03:58.480 very very very vital and important to have this conversation, 0:03:58.680 --> 0:04:02.920 your conversation, you know, so people can understand not just 0:04:02.960 --> 0:04:06.400 the ins and outs, but there's a different level of 0:04:06.560 --> 0:04:12.040 in and out being a woman of color in this space, a. 0:04:11.960 --> 0:04:16.039 Woman in general and woman period, and then a woman 0:04:16.120 --> 0:04:19.080 of color, yeah, and then a young and then you know, 0:04:19.720 --> 0:04:20.960 young just like. 0:04:21.080 --> 0:04:22.440 We're gonna get it thirty thirty. 0:04:22.880 --> 0:04:29.480 I'm just saying so funny. 0:04:30.760 --> 0:04:34.599 I ain't, I ain't, I ain't been listen God is good. 0:04:36.000 --> 0:04:40.760 I Yeah, yeah, I had a four focus. You had 0:04:40.760 --> 0:04:42.200 to be focused in that motherfucker to. 0:04:45.560 --> 0:04:48.000 You know, I was in the Camra that was my 0:04:48.040 --> 0:04:48.840 car I had. 0:04:48.880 --> 0:04:50.560 I literally had a four Folk. I was pulling up 0:04:50.560 --> 0:04:52.880 to Underdog Studio with a four focus. 0:04:53.360 --> 0:04:57.480 Really oh yeah, driving from Corona, had so many jokes. 0:04:58.240 --> 0:05:01.200 I was literally driving from Corena so many. 0:05:01.400 --> 0:05:03.279 At least the gas was good because he had already 0:05:03.279 --> 0:05:04.400 had applying the album out. 0:05:06.120 --> 0:05:08.599 So yeah, you know what I mean, It's just business. 0:05:08.960 --> 0:05:10.119 Sometimes you sunk up the money. 0:05:10.600 --> 0:05:11.320 I understand. 0:05:11.520 --> 0:05:12.279 Now I had a house. 0:05:13.160 --> 0:05:15.359 Okay, you were doing it the right way because I 0:05:15.400 --> 0:05:16.800 know a lot of people who have the car and 0:05:16.839 --> 0:05:17.520 don't have the house. 0:05:19.040 --> 0:05:25.279 Yeah, he wasn't doing it. I was on fumes. I was. 0:05:26.320 --> 0:05:32.160 It wasn't fully furnished, a lot of a lot of chili. 0:05:32.200 --> 0:05:36.040 Did they come back? Did they come back and get it? 0:05:36.520 --> 0:05:40.159 Eventually somebody came and got it, as if the house 0:05:40.240 --> 0:05:42.080 was going anywhere. Did they come back and get it? 0:05:42.640 --> 0:05:48.239 Here's what's crazy, as as I'm losing the house. Uh, 0:05:49.920 --> 0:05:53.440 the realtor who sold me the house the house out 0:05:53.440 --> 0:05:55.560 from under me at the short cell. 0:05:55.440 --> 0:05:59.360 Price, not praying on your downfall. 0:06:00.880 --> 0:06:05.719 Absolutely wow, wow, played well. 0:06:05.880 --> 0:06:08.360 They got the commission and they got it back. 0:06:08.920 --> 0:06:11.000 The kind of bought it with his money. 0:06:11.080 --> 0:06:14.000 Yeah they did, but look at you now. 0:06:14.120 --> 0:06:19.120 I couldn't be mad because I needed it off my books. 0:06:19.320 --> 0:06:25.320 Please please take this motherfucker. I'm doing bad. That was divorced. 0:06:26.320 --> 0:06:28.560 Just a tough time. Anyway, back to you, Okay, what. 0:06:28.560 --> 0:06:30.520 A great space you're in now, shout out to you. 0:06:30.600 --> 0:06:40.640 God is good. Right, Oh, let's start sermoning. 0:06:42.680 --> 0:06:47.080 You. Just don't stop working. That's true, That's really all 0:06:47.120 --> 0:06:47.400 it is. 0:06:47.440 --> 0:06:49.640 That really is what it is though. Yeah, that's like 0:06:49.760 --> 0:06:51.680 my life story. Just don't stop. 0:06:52.080 --> 0:06:56.080 Because downfall, I mean not downfalls, but knockdowns are inevitable. 0:06:56.480 --> 0:07:00.720 It's life in any fight, it's inevitable. What are you 0:07:00.800 --> 0:07:03.839 going to do after that? I'm going to act like 0:07:03.960 --> 0:07:05.080 I didn't just fall. 0:07:05.400 --> 0:07:07.960 Yeah, until i'm up again. 0:07:08.880 --> 0:07:12.080 I'm going, I promise you, you're gonna think I'm still 0:07:12.080 --> 0:07:16.280 doing something. In the middle of me doing absolutely nothing. 0:07:17.080 --> 0:07:19.160 When I was waiting outside them clubs, waiting for Jamie 0:07:19.200 --> 0:07:21.840 Fox to cup so I could get in, I was 0:07:21.920 --> 0:07:27.000 dancing in front of the club. Were coming in a minute. Yeah, 0:07:27.040 --> 0:07:29.160 I'm just waiting on Jamie because you know, he got 0:07:29.200 --> 0:07:30.760 he got all of you, all the stuff with him, 0:07:30.760 --> 0:07:33.040 So i'mna I'm gonna come in he come in, his 0:07:33.160 --> 0:07:37.360 bouncers was like, you're not coming in same bounces that 0:07:37.480 --> 0:07:38.720 used to do security for me. 0:07:39.320 --> 0:07:41.560 And that's that's when it's full circle. 0:07:42.560 --> 0:07:47.040 That's that's that is then just that's the entertainment industry 0:07:47.160 --> 0:07:48.200 industry in anshell. 0:07:50.240 --> 0:07:54.080 And it's like and it feels that that that is 0:07:54.400 --> 0:07:57.560 what low key makes all this stuff, Like Okay, I 0:07:57.560 --> 0:07:59.440 could do it again, Yeah you can do it again. 0:07:59.600 --> 0:08:01.200 What do you want to do right there? When the 0:08:01.240 --> 0:08:03.120 bouncer that used to work for you says, no, no, 0:08:03.240 --> 0:08:05.080 you can't not right now, it's gonna be one hundred 0:08:05.160 --> 0:08:05.800 hundred of person. 0:08:08.640 --> 0:08:10.760 Most people would just go under the couch, and. 0:08:12.440 --> 0:08:15.440 I still had to get in there, you go, I 0:08:15.480 --> 0:08:18.920 still had to get in there. Look a crook. I'll wait. 0:08:20.720 --> 0:08:21.559 How far are you Jamie? 0:08:22.280 --> 0:08:22.559 Yep? 0:08:22.720 --> 0:08:28.960 We about forty minutes A were finishing up. If okay, 0:08:29.880 --> 0:08:30.680 I was going. 0:08:30.960 --> 0:08:35.160 Playing out the time right? Better time? Why did you 0:08:35.280 --> 0:08:37.400 leave before he told you he was on the way. 0:08:37.800 --> 0:08:40.040 That's your fault because Jamie is always late. 0:08:40.640 --> 0:08:41.480 Then you should have known that. 0:08:42.559 --> 0:08:48.520 Yeah, ok, the thirst was real clear, j you chasing 0:08:48.559 --> 0:08:51.360 the crack and again, absolutely I gotta have it. 0:08:52.760 --> 0:08:54.480 I would have just went to where there was eating. 0:08:54.920 --> 0:08:57.760 No, there's a chance that I would have missed him 0:08:58.160 --> 0:09:01.000 right listen, because he comes. Because Jamie is one of 0:09:01.000 --> 0:09:02.679 those guys like if you don't walk in with. 0:09:02.679 --> 0:09:06.120 Him, it's over. Well, no, that's everyone, good luck, that's 0:09:06.160 --> 0:09:08.080 not everyone. That's mostly everyone. 0:09:08.520 --> 0:09:12.000 Mostly if we go to the door and get I know, y'all, I. 0:09:11.920 --> 0:09:14.440 Know y'all, y'all do I remember when we were in Vegas 0:09:14.600 --> 0:09:15.760 so training Wars last year. 0:09:16.040 --> 0:09:17.959 I'm not going for my people not getting in. 0:09:18.000 --> 0:09:22.760 That's true. But if it's live on a Sunday night, 0:09:22.960 --> 0:09:23.880 I'm going to get you. 0:09:23.880 --> 0:09:24.160 You will. 0:09:24.200 --> 0:09:26.760 We're going to go find Mike. You guys, Mike, I 0:09:26.800 --> 0:09:27.600 need you, baby. 0:09:27.400 --> 0:09:28.640 Come on, you guys will. 0:09:29.280 --> 0:09:33.320 But yeah, you know the industry. The industry won't. 0:09:33.280 --> 0:09:35.520 Or or you standing outside for the forty minutes dance 0:09:35.520 --> 0:09:35.960 on my tank. 0:09:36.280 --> 0:09:38.040 Bro, you know you know we in here and bro, 0:09:41.400 --> 0:09:42.000 there was no. 0:09:42.520 --> 0:09:47.040 Holes on your phone that she replied to or just 0:09:47.040 --> 0:09:48.719 walk there standing next to one of them. 0:09:48.760 --> 0:09:52.360 I said that I'll be out to get you. Hey, 0:09:52.400 --> 0:09:53.800 that's funny and ship right there though. 0:09:53.840 --> 0:09:57.480 That's the way I'm talking to him. Yeah, we together? 0:09:57.600 --> 0:10:02.520 Are we coming? Lydia? You guys, let's go back to 0:10:02.559 --> 0:10:03.000 the beginning. 0:10:03.120 --> 0:10:06.360 Oh, okay, why not we have time we do. 0:10:06.640 --> 0:10:08.680 Let's go to the bay, Let's go to. 0:10:08.880 --> 0:10:11.800 Where we reside. 0:10:11.960 --> 0:10:14.679 Give me the bay, give me the early beginnings of 0:10:15.840 --> 0:10:22.480 you finding your way into this okay? And why so? 0:10:22.760 --> 0:10:29.320 I am Ethiopian clearly, and I always just since I 0:10:29.320 --> 0:10:31.439 can remember, my parents said, since I was like two 0:10:31.559 --> 0:10:34.440 or three, since I could stand, I just watched Whitney 0:10:34.440 --> 0:10:37.120 Houston on TV. Like there's videos home videos of just 0:10:37.240 --> 0:10:40.719 me watching and like trying to dance like her and 0:10:40.800 --> 0:10:45.600 just humming shit. And it's like, I've loved music since then. 0:10:45.720 --> 0:10:47.600 I don't remember a time where I didn't love music. 0:10:48.720 --> 0:10:51.080 So I was like, cool, bet in my head, I'm 0:10:51.080 --> 0:10:53.120 doing music. I don't know what I'm doing, but I'm 0:10:53.120 --> 0:10:55.320 doing music as like a six, seven, eight year old 0:10:56.000 --> 0:10:58.240 until I started to be like I can hold a no, 0:10:59.559 --> 0:11:02.560 I can kind of singing, Okay. So then I got 0:11:02.600 --> 0:11:05.280 into elementary school and I would sing in the choirs 0:11:05.360 --> 0:11:08.959 and be the vocalist. Also, I went to all white 0:11:08.960 --> 0:11:12.880 school from K through eight. Me and my sister and 0:11:12.960 --> 0:11:17.280 two other boys who were brothers were the only black 0:11:17.280 --> 0:11:18.680 people in the school. Private school. 0:11:19.280 --> 0:11:21.600 Oh, y'all had a little money amen. 0:11:22.760 --> 0:11:25.640 We were blessed. My father came from me the opia 0:11:25.640 --> 0:11:29.679 and started a business that did well. Pops did that, 0:11:30.640 --> 0:11:33.880 and so he was like, oh, yeah, you're going to 0:11:33.920 --> 0:11:37.480 be a doctor or a lawyer. Lawyer, you know that's 0:11:37.480 --> 0:11:41.000 the two, especially in the African household. Doctor lawyer. Now 0:11:41.040 --> 0:11:44.319 they've thrown an engineer in there. I heard. 0:11:43.840 --> 0:11:49.800 I heard. 0:11:49.679 --> 0:11:53.440 Engineers now a thing, which was cool. That's there wasn't 0:11:53.440 --> 0:11:58.160 my ship. So I was like, okay, So now I 0:11:58.200 --> 0:12:00.680 was always being picked to sing at these and do 0:12:00.760 --> 0:12:02.120 all that, and I was like, cool, this is what 0:12:02.160 --> 0:12:03.920 I want to do. To the point where my dad 0:12:04.040 --> 0:12:06.600 was like a church he still is. My dad loved 0:12:06.600 --> 0:12:10.400 my dad and my mom, but my dad heavily involved 0:12:10.400 --> 0:12:15.440 in church, like on the board, vice president, treasurer all that. 0:12:16.200 --> 0:12:19.520 So we were going to church every Sunday to the 0:12:19.559 --> 0:12:23.959 point and like the bishop of all of our whole 0:12:24.000 --> 0:12:27.280 situation community would come over every Sunday have dinner with 0:12:27.360 --> 0:12:29.679 us and stuff. And one night we were driving him 0:12:29.720 --> 0:12:33.120 home and he goes, Lydia, what do you want to be? 0:12:34.160 --> 0:12:39.160 My dad almost literally stopped the car and looked back 0:12:39.200 --> 0:12:41.360 at me like, don't you dear say you want to 0:12:41.400 --> 0:12:45.160 be a singer, and I was like, I want to 0:12:45.160 --> 0:12:48.839 be music. And he literally started doing the Sign of 0:12:48.880 --> 0:12:54.960 the Cross and started no the bishop and like praying 0:12:55.679 --> 0:12:58.440 and my dad was like she has to know, you know, 0:12:58.600 --> 0:13:00.400 and like doing the whole sign of the Cross, and 0:13:00.440 --> 0:13:02.320 I'm like, what did I do? Like what's wrong with 0:13:02.440 --> 0:13:06.719 being in music? Like I don't understand, and it it 0:13:06.960 --> 0:13:09.880 just you know, they're old fashioned and it just like 0:13:09.920 --> 0:13:13.280 in any church music was like the devil's work. You're 0:13:13.280 --> 0:13:15.200 not supposed to be unless you singing for God. And 0:13:15.200 --> 0:13:17.160 I didn't say I wanted to be singing in the church. 0:13:17.240 --> 0:13:20.559 I just said I wanted to be in music. So 0:13:20.840 --> 0:13:22.560 my dad dropped him off and he was like, what's 0:13:22.920 --> 0:13:24.599 with you? Why would you say that? And I was 0:13:24.640 --> 0:13:26.360 like I don't know, Like that's what I want to do, 0:13:26.480 --> 0:13:29.760 you know. And he's like that's really hard and you know, 0:13:30.000 --> 0:13:31.840 just make sure you stay in your own path. And 0:13:31.880 --> 0:13:34.200 I was like okay, but I didn't. I was the 0:13:34.200 --> 0:13:36.240 old I'm the oldest, Like I was doing what I 0:13:36.280 --> 0:13:39.000 wanted to do, but I also played volleyball and sports, 0:13:39.000 --> 0:13:40.880 and my dad was like, maybe you'll just stick on that. 0:13:41.880 --> 0:13:43.560 Not to say my dad didn't believe my dreams because 0:13:43.559 --> 0:13:46.280 he did. I love him, but he just is like, 0:13:46.360 --> 0:13:48.960 how first off, I am an African man with a hard, 0:13:49.000 --> 0:13:52.640 heavy accent. I don't know nothing about that. What are like, 0:13:52.720 --> 0:13:55.000 who are you looking up to? And that was my 0:13:55.000 --> 0:13:55.559 biggest thing. 0:13:55.640 --> 0:13:58.400 Especially is the past Ethiopian as well? Yes, also the 0:13:58.920 --> 0:13:59.440 church is. 0:13:59.400 --> 0:14:05.000 The church is a completely Ethiopian church, Ethiopian Orthodox, and 0:14:05.280 --> 0:14:08.160 it's called Madonnia Lem and it's like very very like 0:14:08.440 --> 0:14:14.400 a huge affluent church in Oakland. But he was not. 0:14:14.880 --> 0:14:17.040 He came from Ethiopia too, so he's like one of 0:14:17.040 --> 0:14:19.840 the hires of like all of the diocese and all 0:14:19.880 --> 0:14:22.160 that stuff. And I'm probably butchering the names of all 0:14:22.200 --> 0:14:24.640 this stuff, but he's like one of that. Like we 0:14:24.680 --> 0:14:27.040 don't have a pope, but he's like one of those 0:14:27.120 --> 0:14:30.280 highest ones. So I said it to like imagine like 0:14:30.600 --> 0:14:36.400 somebody writing underneath the pope not knowing, and I just 0:14:36.640 --> 0:14:38.440 was like, I don't know, I don't know what to 0:14:38.480 --> 0:14:40.640 tell you. This is my thing to the point where 0:14:40.640 --> 0:14:42.200 like my dad would be like, Okay, you can't listen 0:14:42.240 --> 0:14:44.640 to bad songs and stuff. And my grandpa knew I 0:14:44.640 --> 0:14:47.000 loved music, so he would like get me be too. 0:14:47.160 --> 0:14:49.440 I will never forget B two K B two K 0:14:49.600 --> 0:14:55.160 Pandemonium album. Listen. That's the only thing I wanted. He 0:14:55.240 --> 0:14:57.480 got it. I have my Walkman. You guys remember the Walkman. 0:14:58.480 --> 0:15:00.480 So one day I was feeling it. I think my 0:15:00.560 --> 0:15:02.520 dad was like what is she listening to? Because he 0:15:02.680 --> 0:15:05.040 was like, call my name. I didn't answer, and he's like, 0:15:05.080 --> 0:15:08.680 what are you listening to? And I was like, oh shit, nothing. 0:15:08.840 --> 0:15:10.920 He was like, let's go in the car, give me 0:15:10.960 --> 0:15:12.480 the CD. 0:15:13.280 --> 0:15:21.720 Literally, that's exactly what he pressed playing. 0:15:21.760 --> 0:15:23.920 The first thing is all the sexy ladies around the world, 0:15:23.960 --> 0:15:27.960 around the world. He said, come on, all I want 0:15:28.040 --> 0:15:31.560 to do is see that sexy body go bump, bump, bump. 0:15:31.600 --> 0:15:36.000 And my dad turned to me with the most discussed discussed. 0:15:36.600 --> 0:15:38.840 I'm like, twelve, I would do the same thing. 0:15:38.920 --> 0:15:42.840 He was like, what is he saying? He said, what 0:15:42.880 --> 0:15:44.200 is he saying? I was like, I don't know. 0:15:44.720 --> 0:15:47.360 I just like the beat. 0:15:47.400 --> 0:15:49.400 He said, okay, I'll get you. So I'll get you 0:15:49.440 --> 0:15:51.480 a full album with just beats and took it out 0:15:51.480 --> 0:15:55.040 and broke the whole album, like broke the CD in 0:15:55.040 --> 0:15:59.440 front of me. I cried. He was like, where are 0:15:59.480 --> 0:16:02.240 your boxes? I was like, I don't know, I hate them. 0:16:02.800 --> 0:16:04.440 My mom came in. She was like, leave her alone. 0:16:04.480 --> 0:16:07.160 My mom was the only one championing, like this your 0:16:07.160 --> 0:16:11.000 grandfather and my grandpa. My mom called my grandpa. It 0:16:11.040 --> 0:16:14.520 was her dad too. Told him next day she said, 0:16:14.600 --> 0:16:15.720 chuck into your pillow. 0:16:15.400 --> 0:16:21.720 When you go home. You got her, another one got me. 0:16:22.560 --> 0:16:25.920 I was bumping off my way home as soon as 0:16:25.920 --> 0:16:27.720 I saw my dad came turned it down. 0:16:27.800 --> 0:16:28.720 Hate it. 0:16:28.720 --> 0:16:32.840 It was that the whole time, and then until I 0:16:32.880 --> 0:16:35.600 started to go. I went finally to high school, BIS 0:16:35.680 --> 0:16:38.920 pulled out and I was like niggas. 0:16:39.520 --> 0:16:43.960 It was niggas everywhere it was. 0:16:44.480 --> 0:16:47.000 It was just people who looked like me. And I 0:16:47.160 --> 0:16:49.800 was like, oh my god, to the point where my 0:16:49.960 --> 0:16:52.240 grade started pumpinging like. My dad had to sit me down. 0:16:52.280 --> 0:16:54.200 He was like, I'm gonna put you in a in 0:16:54.200 --> 0:16:56.760 the public school. You go on the skyline. Keep talking 0:16:56.760 --> 0:16:57.160 around me. 0:16:57.360 --> 0:16:59.120 He didn't want to see him from from Bishop down 0:16:59.160 --> 0:17:01.520 the skyline, you really would have been turned on top 0:17:01.560 --> 0:17:02.040 of that hill. 0:17:03.280 --> 0:17:06.200 But I didn't know Bishop O'Dell here. 0:17:07.119 --> 0:17:09.320 I didn't know, but he knew you already went to school. 0:17:09.320 --> 0:17:10.760 You have friends, so if I take you out, it's 0:17:10.800 --> 0:17:13.159 gonna be a problem. Keep playing around, and I was 0:17:13.160 --> 0:17:16.120 like okay, okay, okay, but it was just like, oh 0:17:16.160 --> 0:17:18.679 my god, I just have people who look like me, 0:17:18.800 --> 0:17:22.080 like girls, boys, everything. They were fine. I was having 0:17:22.080 --> 0:17:25.600 crushes on Sean and Connor, you know what I mean, 0:17:25.680 --> 0:17:28.000 like not knowing, and so I went there and then 0:17:28.040 --> 0:17:31.040 I joined choir there too, but I also was playing 0:17:31.119 --> 0:17:36.080 volleyball like year round, and that's when it was it 0:17:36.119 --> 0:17:39.080 was over. My dad was like, okay, it's she's gonna 0:17:39.119 --> 0:17:41.520 do whatever she wants to do because at that point 0:17:41.720 --> 0:17:44.359 I had posters of all these people on my wall. 0:17:44.520 --> 0:17:46.720 Now he used to take them off. That was done. 0:17:47.320 --> 0:17:49.080 He found out me and my mom. My mom drove 0:17:49.160 --> 0:17:52.520 me like three hours away to Modesto. I think it 0:17:52.680 --> 0:17:56.119 was for this Like I don't know who it was. 0:17:56.200 --> 0:17:58.800 I might have been in La Reid or somebody like 0:17:58.840 --> 0:18:03.360 that was throwing audition and like went there. My mom 0:18:03.440 --> 0:18:05.639 had me do it with not telling my dad. 0:18:06.000 --> 0:18:09.600 Well, now he knows, and I know what she wants 0:18:09.600 --> 0:18:10.080 you talking about. 0:18:10.080 --> 0:18:10.720 You know what I'm talking about. 0:18:10.720 --> 0:18:13.520 I know what you're talking about. It was I think 0:18:13.520 --> 0:18:15.439 it was through Hitco, but it was she Kis Stewart 0:18:15.760 --> 0:18:18.199 because he was from Oakland and he had did, he 0:18:18.240 --> 0:18:22.720 had done a few auditions back home, and. 0:18:22.640 --> 0:18:24.520 It was like you need to come to LA and 0:18:24.560 --> 0:18:25.480 stay here for like. 0:18:25.400 --> 0:18:26.639 Pretty sure that's what that was. 0:18:26.840 --> 0:18:30.880 I think it was because maybe what fifteen sixteen years 0:18:30.880 --> 0:18:32.000 ago or maybe. 0:18:32.000 --> 0:18:36.080 Yeah, I'm thirty one now, so it was like I 0:18:36.119 --> 0:18:39.480 was like fourteen fifteen and they picked me. 0:18:40.080 --> 0:18:40.520 Oh wow. 0:18:41.480 --> 0:18:44.480 And mom was like, shit, I don't know what's wanted 0:18:44.520 --> 0:18:47.600 to do now. Your dad don't know about this, and 0:18:48.119 --> 0:18:50.480 it was like you have to you have to send 0:18:50.560 --> 0:18:53.560 your kid away kind of and my mom was like, 0:18:54.840 --> 0:18:56.960 I don't know. You want to own now? And I'm like, girl, 0:18:57.000 --> 0:18:59.639 what you mean, Like what how are we going? She 0:18:59.720 --> 0:19:02.119 was like I don't know, you know, And he was 0:19:02.160 --> 0:19:05.560 like over my dead body, over my dead body. 0:19:05.800 --> 0:19:07.720 So you get picked and I don't. 0:19:08.200 --> 0:19:12.480 I declined, Wow, yeah again. 0:19:12.440 --> 0:19:14.000 Yeah you cried again. 0:19:15.880 --> 0:19:19.480 I was so hurt because I was like he just 0:19:19.520 --> 0:19:21.960 ruined my life. He just ruled my life because I 0:19:22.000 --> 0:19:23.639 didn't even know exactly, Like I didn't know if I 0:19:23.640 --> 0:19:25.199 want to be a songwriter. I don't know if I 0:19:25.200 --> 0:19:27.119 wanted to be in front of it. I don't know 0:19:27.160 --> 0:19:28.639 if I wanted to be a manager. I didn't know 0:19:28.680 --> 0:19:31.159 if I I always loved A and R though, like 0:19:31.240 --> 0:19:33.639 picking and hearing different things and putting a song together, 0:19:33.680 --> 0:19:36.399 so I knew that was something I loved. But I 0:19:36.520 --> 0:19:38.800 sang too, so it's like, do I want to be that? 0:19:38.920 --> 0:19:39.000 Do? 0:19:39.160 --> 0:19:40.720 I don't know? And I was like, but you just 0:19:40.760 --> 0:19:43.400 took it all away from me. We used to watch 0:19:43.400 --> 0:19:46.000 Making the Band and Dannity Kane in Day twenty six 0:19:46.160 --> 0:19:48.520 as a family, so it's like the one chance I 0:19:48.560 --> 0:19:49.800 had to be in that. But I think that's what 0:19:49.840 --> 0:19:53.000 scared him, because he was like, look at that right right, 0:19:53.720 --> 0:19:56.360 run down, You're gonna run down and get cheesecake. Oh 0:19:56.400 --> 0:19:59.760 he don't know, you know, but anyways, you know, like 0:20:00.400 --> 0:20:03.399 it just so he said no, and I was like, 0:20:03.800 --> 0:20:06.720 I hate it here. I hate it here, I hate 0:20:07.320 --> 0:20:11.240 it here, Like this is terrible, And I know now. 0:20:11.600 --> 0:20:13.680 I knew later too, when I went to college. 0:20:13.680 --> 0:20:16.080 He was just trying to protect me, you know, in 0:20:16.200 --> 0:20:19.760 terms of the only way he knew how right, right, 0:20:19.880 --> 0:20:23.000 because you know, he knows nothing about it. A lot 0:20:23.040 --> 0:20:27.800 of us are first generation this, yeah, so all he 0:20:27.880 --> 0:20:30.720 knows is what you just said to making the band 0:20:30.720 --> 0:20:34.199 and going to get cheesecake fifty miles away, right, And 0:20:34.320 --> 0:20:36.080 I'm not letting my daughter go through that and not 0:20:36.200 --> 0:20:38.360 your mind. I'll kill somebody over there exactly. 0:20:38.920 --> 0:20:40.639 And then I can't even do You're not in the 0:20:40.680 --> 0:20:43.000 same city as me, so I can't run up and no, 0:20:43.240 --> 0:20:45.600 you're not doing it. You're not doing it. So our 0:20:45.640 --> 0:20:50.480 compromise was I'll give you piano lessons, and I was like, okay, man, 0:20:51.640 --> 0:20:52.840 that's that's. 0:20:52.720 --> 0:20:53.800 It's gonna help the crab. 0:20:54.440 --> 0:21:02.679 No, I never got the piano lessons. He got okay 0:21:02.800 --> 0:21:04.720 because he was like, you find the person. Every person 0:21:04.760 --> 0:21:05.840 I find, he'd be like, I don't want them in 0:21:05.840 --> 0:21:06.160