WEBVTT - ADDERALL AND JERKING OFF 0:00:00.160 --> 0:00:01.359 All from Johnny. 0:00:01.960 --> 0:00:04.880 Hello, Hello Johnny, what's going on? 0:00:06.440 --> 0:00:12.320 Well, Man, I'm chilling, I'm breathing. I'm doing all right, 0:00:12.840 --> 0:00:13.040 you know. 0:00:13.240 --> 0:00:16.360 Yeah, that's uh, that's pretty good. That's pretty good. If 0:00:16.400 --> 0:00:21.200 you can breathe, that's like a good sign of prosperity 0:00:21.239 --> 0:00:21.800 in my book. 0:00:22.239 --> 0:00:25.040 Yeah, thankful for it, man, I'm glad to be here. 0:00:26.120 --> 0:00:27.840 So what's up, Johnny? What do you want to talk about? 0:00:29.520 --> 0:00:34.440 Well, I had a pretty rough three years since graduated 0:00:34.560 --> 0:00:37.600 high school. I've like lost a lot of friends over 0:00:37.640 --> 0:00:42.440 the past three years, been in a pretty terrible relationship, 0:00:44.159 --> 0:00:45.120 just like going through. 0:00:44.920 --> 0:00:47.560 My twenties, you know, and you're what twenty one? 0:00:48.479 --> 0:00:49.199 I am twenty one? 0:00:50.960 --> 0:00:55.760 Why did you lose a lot of friends? 0:00:56.520 --> 0:00:59.400 So I kind of just gradually stopped talking to them 0:00:59.440 --> 0:01:01.920 because I don't know if it's just like a standard 0:01:02.720 --> 0:01:05.319 with high school friends that you know, over time you 0:01:05.440 --> 0:01:08.600 just lose them. But I don't know. I kind of 0:01:08.640 --> 0:01:11.039 felt like, like, I don't know, it was just I 0:01:11.080 --> 0:01:15.520 was really disrespected a lot, and I wasn't the most 0:01:16.560 --> 0:01:19.920 I don't know, I wasn't the best guy either, but 0:01:20.160 --> 0:01:21.920 I kind of get made fun of a lot, like 0:01:21.920 --> 0:01:25.480 I'm a pretty big dude and Uh, they'd kind of 0:01:25.480 --> 0:01:27.280 make fun of me for them, say a whole lot 0:01:27.319 --> 0:01:35.199 of other terrible things, and you know, I just felt 0:01:35.240 --> 0:01:39.840 like I grew out of them, you know, But I 0:01:39.880 --> 0:01:45.160 don't know, Like last year, I was on a three 0:01:45.200 --> 0:01:47.520 month drug binge and I was just like holding grudges 0:01:47.520 --> 0:01:50.000 all the time, Like my friends would kind of do 0:01:50.040 --> 0:01:52.200 things that slightly annoyed me. And I think with the 0:01:53.000 --> 0:01:59.080 with the drug use and like Chris, I just stop 0:01:59.120 --> 0:02:01.520 talking to them. I really pushed everyone away and they 0:02:01.560 --> 0:02:06.200 led me having a manic episode and I went to 0:02:06.280 --> 0:02:08.760 a mental hospital spent about ten days there. 0:02:10.160 --> 0:02:12.360 So let me ask you this, when you talk to 0:02:12.440 --> 0:02:15.160 real therapists about these issues, what do they tell you. 0:02:19.960 --> 0:02:24.160 What's funny is I actually had two therapists, and uh, 0:02:24.440 --> 0:02:27.400 we kind of talked about the present moment and what 0:02:27.440 --> 0:02:31.320 I'm doing at the time, you know. There I I 0:02:31.360 --> 0:02:34.960 guess the weird thing about therapy is when you've talked 0:02:34.960 --> 0:02:38.200 to therapists, you're always talking about what's going on in 0:02:38.200 --> 0:02:42.680 the present time so that you're okay now. And you know, 0:02:42.720 --> 0:02:46.000 I don't think I really talked about a lot of 0:02:46.040 --> 0:02:48.240 the crazy stuff that happened in the past. More they 0:02:48.360 --> 0:02:50.480 like just the reason why it happened and how I 0:02:50.520 --> 0:02:54.079 can understand it. So I guess they just kind of 0:02:54.120 --> 0:02:56.280 try to help me understand it more. 0:02:57.120 --> 0:03:00.799 Okay, And has that been successful and helped you understand 0:03:00.840 --> 0:03:01.560 the past? 0:03:02.440 --> 0:03:06.920 I understood that I need to be very careful with 0:03:07.000 --> 0:03:10.720 my life, I mean, especially with friends. I'll be honest, man, 0:03:10.840 --> 0:03:15.799 Like I I first got high when I was eight 0:03:15.880 --> 0:03:19.880 years old, and it wasn't even my fault. I didn't 0:03:19.919 --> 0:03:23.440 even know what I was doing. I found a can 0:03:23.480 --> 0:03:25.480 of computer duster and I put my mouth on it 0:03:25.600 --> 0:03:31.120 and some air came out, and I like finished the 0:03:31.160 --> 0:03:33.680 whole can. And that's when I was eight years old, 0:03:34.840 --> 0:03:37.720 high off computer duster. And I'm surprised I'm not dead, dude. 0:03:37.880 --> 0:03:43.280 Like just that and smoking weed at fourteen has led 0:03:43.320 --> 0:03:48.760 to a chain reaction of drug abuse and a lot 0:03:48.800 --> 0:03:53.559 of pain, and it's really turnished a lot of my relationships. 0:03:53.880 --> 0:03:56.440 What do you what is your relationship like with drugs now? 0:03:58.240 --> 0:04:00.920 The only thing I abused at the moment it's adderall. 0:04:03.280 --> 0:04:05.960 I have a really bad habit of like eating a 0:04:05.960 --> 0:04:08.840 bunch of adderall and like watching porn for a long time. 0:04:08.920 --> 0:04:12.400 So yeah, but yeah. 0:04:12.040 --> 0:04:16.960 Man, so no adderall, adderall definitely makes it. Adderall like 0:04:17.160 --> 0:04:19.720 taking a bunch of Adderall and jerking off for like 0:04:19.760 --> 0:04:22.880 an entire day. I've been there before. It's uh, it's 0:04:22.880 --> 0:04:25.839 an intoxicating combination. 0:04:26.920 --> 0:04:27.960 And I'm glad you can relate. 0:04:28.000 --> 0:04:28.120 Man. 0:04:28.160 --> 0:04:29.480 I was a little scared to tell you that because 0:04:29.480 --> 0:04:31.800 I was like, oh, dude, I'm gonna be aner man 0:04:31.800 --> 0:04:33.279 if people are gonna know me as a uner on 0:04:33.320 --> 0:04:35.160 the internet forever. You know what I mean? 0:04:36.080 --> 0:04:38.800 Nah, Man, that's what I mean, Adderall. I mean in 0:04:38.880 --> 0:04:42.280 my experience with Adderall, and I'm talking about and by 0:04:42.320 --> 0:04:44.120 the way, I'm just talking about ship. I don't know 0:04:44.120 --> 0:04:46.480 what the fuck I'm talking about. But it's just you, 0:04:46.480 --> 0:04:50.760 you and me, two fucking dudes having a chat right here. 0:04:50.800 --> 0:04:54.920 That's what this is. So for me, Adderall, I felt 0:04:54.920 --> 0:04:57.360 like it always made me like optimistic, you know what 0:04:57.360 --> 0:05:00.359 I mean, Because like I was going through life like 0:05:01.600 --> 0:05:05.200 in a very like depressed mood, and Adderall like elevates 0:05:05.240 --> 0:05:07.440 you and makes you think that all your hopes and 0:05:07.520 --> 0:05:11.159 dreams are possible, and then you celebrate that by by 0:05:11.279 --> 0:05:16.080 jacking off for six hours. That's been my experience, dude, Yeah, easy, 0:05:16.240 --> 0:05:19.800 you know how it is, man, It's the last time 0:05:19.800 --> 0:05:22.000 I did it was Sunday, which was yesterday. 0:05:22.040 --> 0:05:24.680 So you know the problem with being an addict is 0:05:24.720 --> 0:05:27.479 you always say like one last time and like my 0:05:27.680 --> 0:05:32.520 last time, little I guess, like I just I ran 0:05:32.520 --> 0:05:35.040 out of adderall so like I can't really do it anymore. 0:05:35.120 --> 0:05:37.840 But it just sucks because like my jopamine is gonna 0:05:37.839 --> 0:05:40.960 be low shit and I kind of get anxiety, so 0:05:41.000 --> 0:05:43.320 I'm gonna have to wait three months for that's a 0:05:43.400 --> 0:05:47.120 level out. But you know, I'm not doing coughs if anymore. 0:05:47.480 --> 0:05:49.960 I hate lead now, Like I have some medicals in 0:05:49.960 --> 0:05:53.520 my closet, but uh, I don't do them because I 0:05:53.600 --> 0:05:58.280 was actually, uh, it's gonna sound really stupid, but it 0:05:58.360 --> 0:06:00.360 was kind of a Ricky not really a Rocky steak, 0:06:00.400 --> 0:06:03.640 but I just people have gone to the emergency room before. 0:06:03.720 --> 0:06:05.960 I took a shit, some edibles and drank some cost syrup. 0:06:07.680 --> 0:06:10.039 My heart was beating like super fast and I got scared, 0:06:10.400 --> 0:06:15.200 so I kind of told my parents about it, So yeah, 0:06:15.240 --> 0:06:18.040 that kind of happened. Yeah, And I also last two 0:06:18.120 --> 0:06:20.480 years ago, I drank a bunch of Costs here and 0:06:20.520 --> 0:06:25.479 now my memory is completely shot. I have a hard 0:06:25.480 --> 0:06:30.559 time cognitively and I can't even remember last week or 0:06:30.800 --> 0:06:37.440 what I did yesterday other than the adderall. It sucks, dude, 0:06:37.440 --> 0:06:40.080 because I was I felt like I could have been 0:06:40.120 --> 0:06:42.799 really smart, Like I could have not really like a genius, 0:06:42.800 --> 0:06:45.520 but I could have been a bright dude, and just 0:06:45.680 --> 0:06:50.520 me continuously self sabotaging and going back into the whole 0:06:50.520 --> 0:06:53.560 where I'm comfortable with, like I want to stay there 0:06:53.560 --> 0:06:55.080 and I never want to get better, Like I'm not 0:06:55.080 --> 0:06:57.240 really doing it in school right now, but I'm not 0:06:57.240 --> 0:07:02.560 worried about it. I can still take it up. I 0:07:02.600 --> 0:07:08.239 also kind of failed college like three or four times. 0:07:08.640 --> 0:07:13.040 This wasn't the best thing ever, but I'm trying to 0:07:13.160 --> 0:07:13.800 change of major. 0:07:14.120 --> 0:07:17.080 So, man, I got a lot of thoughts on what 0:07:17.120 --> 0:07:22.120 you just said. The first thing is this like idea, 0:07:23.400 --> 0:07:26.800 like you're it always. You know, you're twenty one, and 0:07:26.840 --> 0:07:30.440 you've like, I don't know why you've like written yourself 0:07:30.480 --> 0:07:34.520 off as like I thought I could be smart and 0:07:34.600 --> 0:07:38.120 now I'm a dumb piece of shit forever. You know, 0:07:38.240 --> 0:07:41.280 I don't know what it is in your brain that's 0:07:41.600 --> 0:07:48.080 made you decide that, so so finitely, what is it 0:07:48.360 --> 0:07:51.120 that you and I know you're talking about, like not 0:07:51.200 --> 0:07:54.880 being good in school? But I've I've I mean, I 0:07:54.920 --> 0:07:59.040 don't think that school is the ultimate measure of success 0:07:59.120 --> 0:08:01.560 and smartness that a human beings. So I'll ask you this, 0:08:01.720 --> 0:08:06.680 what is it that you want to do with your life. 0:08:07.760 --> 0:08:10.560 I have a lot of interest. There's a lot of 0:08:10.560 --> 0:08:13.440 things I want to do. In terms of money. I'm 0:08:13.480 --> 0:08:18.840 pursuing cybersecurity or something tech related. So that's that's my 0:08:18.920 --> 0:08:21.720 money issue. Uh, that's what I'm gonna do for money. 0:08:22.280 --> 0:08:28.240 But you know, last year I kind of discovered I 0:08:28.240 --> 0:08:30.400 had a creative impulse and I want to write a book. 0:08:30.480 --> 0:08:33.600 I'm writing a book right now. It's based on a 0:08:33.600 --> 0:08:41.520 couple of conspiracy theories and I draw sometimes. So I 0:08:41.520 --> 0:08:43.480 guess I just I want to make money so I 0:08:43.480 --> 0:08:47.200 can be financially stable, and I want to make money 0:08:47.280 --> 0:08:51.400 so I can like fund my creative passions and maybe 0:08:51.400 --> 0:08:53.520 one day I can make money for my creative passions. 0:08:53.600 --> 0:08:57.280 Yeah, yeah, I mean those are both great. 0:08:57.280 --> 0:08:57.439 Man. 0:08:57.480 --> 0:09:00.000 I guess if if we can for a second, I'll 0:09:00.080 --> 0:09:04.640 want to understand why you have written yourself off as 0:09:05.679 --> 0:09:07.040 permanently dumb. 0:09:10.000 --> 0:09:14.920 I think because well, I've been called like stupid and 0:09:14.960 --> 0:09:17.280 retarded a lot by you know, the friends that I 0:09:17.360 --> 0:09:21.800 kind of grew out of and it's really tough when 0:09:24.040 --> 0:09:25.600 now I guess this is like an old lesson that 0:09:26.080 --> 0:09:29.079 I kind of learned. But it's it's really tough to 0:09:29.720 --> 0:09:31.960 think you're not something and people will constantly tell you 0:09:32.000 --> 0:09:34.000 that you're a certain thing, and you know, it's like 0:09:34.040 --> 0:09:35.960 who gives a ship about what people say? Fuck them? 0:09:36.920 --> 0:09:41.920 But it's tough when everything you do around a certain 0:09:41.920 --> 0:09:45.280 group of friends is like not acceptable and you just 0:09:45.280 --> 0:09:51.520 feel really stupid. And also the second thing is I 0:09:51.600 --> 0:09:54.320 kind of just noticed that my memory isn't. 0:09:54.120 --> 0:09:54.880 What it used to be. 0:09:55.040 --> 0:10:00.640 I mean, oh, yeah, yeah, that's another thing. So I 0:10:00.640 --> 0:10:04.880 guess I it's not really smart of me, and I'm 0:10:04.880 --> 0:10:07.600 not really having a gross mind sort of being proactive 0:10:07.679 --> 0:10:10.600 when I'm kind of writing myself off like that. I'm 0:10:10.600 --> 0:10:14.000 actually really glad you said that, because now I can 0:10:16.800 --> 0:10:18.800 I can do I can do whatever I want. It's 0:10:18.800 --> 0:10:21.960 just it's tough, you know, tough kind of get into 0:10:21.960 --> 0:10:23.680 that spot where you can realize like, oh, it doesn't 0:10:23.720 --> 0:10:25.800 matter what I did in the past, I can I 0:10:25.800 --> 0:10:26.440 can get out there. 0:10:26.440 --> 0:10:28.320 And do you have anyone do you have anyone in 0:10:28.360 --> 0:10:31.360 your life who is supportive of you as a person? 0:10:33.280 --> 0:10:36.560 Yeah, I Actually I was alone for a really long time, 0:10:36.559 --> 0:10:41.559 but I recently reconnected with some friends and I got 0:10:41.600 --> 0:10:44.520 some people, you know, like small group of dudes and 0:10:44.679 --> 0:10:51.319 my family obviously. Yeah, there's they're supportive, they're they're cool people. 0:10:52.280 --> 0:10:54.360 You know, shout out? Can I shout out some people 0:10:54.360 --> 0:10:54.920 real quick? That? 0:10:55.160 --> 0:10:55.240 Ye? 0:10:55.640 --> 0:10:57.319 Shout You can shout out your friends? 0:10:57.800 --> 0:10:58.760 Yeah, shout out as. 0:10:58.800 --> 0:11:02.560 They're full first in last names for socials too, and 0:11:02.600 --> 0:11:04.440 the social Evan nick. 0:11:05.400 --> 0:11:09.960 Yeah, we got Evan, Nikki, Glennie, Bobby and gagey. Uh. 0:11:10.080 --> 0:11:11.840 Do you have a friend named Glenny and a friend 0:11:11.880 --> 0:11:14.360 named Bobby? Or is this one friend named Glenny Bobby? 0:11:14.360 --> 0:11:17.000 Oh, it's one friend named Glenny Bobby. He's pretty cool. 0:11:17.440 --> 0:11:19.240 What is that his last name or his first name? 0:11:19.960 --> 0:11:23.640 No, that's that's just what we call him. I mean 0:11:23.640 --> 0:11:25.440 that's what I call him, to call him Glenny Bobby. 0:11:26.240 --> 0:11:27.720 Well ship man, I mean, it's how do you know 0:11:27.800 --> 0:11:29.200 these fellas? 0:11:31.080 --> 0:11:32.720 Uh, we all went to the same middle school. 0:11:34.160 --> 0:11:36.480 Okay, so wait, so this is a different group than 0:11:36.480 --> 0:11:40.480 the group who was who were being Uh yeah yeah 0:11:40.520 --> 0:11:40.959 so this is a. 0:11:40.880 --> 0:11:43.719 Different yeah yeah, different group, but we all kind of 0:11:43.760 --> 0:11:47.920 knew each other back then. Yeah, yeah, a different group definitely. 0:11:50.120 --> 0:11:54.560 Well, I mean ship man, I'll say this, Uh, that 0:11:54.600 --> 0:11:56.680 whole thing of like people tell you that you're something, 0:11:56.679 --> 0:12:03.640 it's hard to not believe that you're that thing. But like, dude, 0:12:03.679 --> 0:12:05.600 at the end of the day, like I don't know, 0:12:05.679 --> 0:12:08.920 I think you gotta end up. You gotta figure out 0:12:08.920 --> 0:12:12.240 a way to surmise your own opinions of yourself from 0:12:12.280 --> 0:12:15.599 within and not relying on other people. That goes for 0:12:15.720 --> 0:12:19.480 positive things too, by the way. Uh, it's something that's 0:12:19.520 --> 0:12:22.319 something that people get tripped up about, right because if 0:12:22.360 --> 0:12:26.600 you start, you know, everyone thinks, everyone around you keeps 0:12:26.600 --> 0:12:29.240 calling you smart and awesome and amazing, and then you 0:12:29.320 --> 0:12:34.720 just get your your your rocks off by how by 0:12:34.880 --> 0:12:36.760 you get your ego boosted by it by what other 0:12:36.800 --> 0:12:40.560 people think of you instead of what what the what 0:12:40.679 --> 0:12:41.360 the ideal? 0:12:41.640 --> 0:12:41.880 I mean? 0:12:41.960 --> 0:12:44.920 I don't know, I fucking don't. I hate talking on 0:12:45.000 --> 0:12:50.560 here about like what the ideal healthy thing to do 0:12:50.679 --> 0:12:53.160 is because I don't know, because I'm trying to figure 0:12:53.160 --> 0:12:56.600 this shit out myself. But like it seems to me 0:12:57.040 --> 0:12:59.280 that the ideal healthy thing to do is to, like, 0:12:59.720 --> 0:13:01.959 whether you know, get your idea of who you are 0:13:02.040 --> 0:13:05.480 from from within and not rely on the opinions of 0:13:05.520 --> 0:13:08.920 other people, both you know, believing them when they tell 0:13:08.960 --> 0:13:10.840 you negative things and believing them when they tell you 0:13:10.880 --> 0:13:14.760 positive things, and just fucking uh, you know, believing what 0:13:14.800 --> 0:13:18.800 you decide to believe about yourself. Well, that's cool, man. 0:13:18.800 --> 0:13:20.880 You're gonna become a hacker. You're gonna hack shit. 0:13:21.880 --> 0:13:24.760 And you know what's funny is cybersecurity is such a 0:13:24.800 --> 0:13:27.600 broad term. There's a lot of like different shit that 0:13:27.640 --> 0:13:31.240 goes into it. And I kind of don't know what 0:13:31.280 --> 0:13:32.520 I want to do. I just I kind of took 0:13:32.559 --> 0:13:34.640 a step forward and said, right, I'm going for so 0:13:35.640 --> 0:13:39.440 I don't know. Hopefully I can take something relatively like okay, 0:13:40.440 --> 0:13:43.559 and I feel like I'm good with technology, so I 0:13:43.679 --> 0:13:44.040 can help. 0:13:44.120 --> 0:13:45.640 Let me ask you, So I want to make money. 0:13:46.040 --> 0:13:49.960 When I was in fifth grade, uh, my friends hacked 0:13:49.960 --> 0:13:52.360 into my Webkins account, And by hacked, I meant I 0:13:52.400 --> 0:13:56.120 told them my password and they logged in and they 0:13:56.280 --> 0:14:01.080 stole These motherfuckers stole all of my furniture from my 0:14:01.160 --> 0:14:05.240 Webkins room and it's in their account now and I'm 0:14:05.280 --> 0:14:07.800 still pissed off about it. Can we do you have 0:14:07.920 --> 0:14:14.000 the skills to locate the sixteen year old Webkins account 0:14:14.160 --> 0:14:16.280 and get back in and take my stuff back. Can 0:14:16.320 --> 0:14:19.200 we do that, you know, just. 0:14:19.120 --> 0:14:21.880 A therapy get go for all the times you use 0:14:22.040 --> 0:14:24.720 helps me fall asleep. I sure will. What's the what's 0:14:24.720 --> 0:14:26.720 the Webkins name account? Oh? 0:14:26.720 --> 0:14:28.520 I don't even know. I don't even I actually don't 0:14:28.560 --> 0:14:29.120 even remember. 0:14:29.800 --> 0:14:31.360 Yeah, I still I'll still try to do it. 0:14:32.120 --> 0:14:35.040 I think my password was like Mario sixty four or 0:14:35.040 --> 0:14:36.760 something like that. 0:14:36.760 --> 0:14:39.640 That's a good password. 0:14:40.400 --> 0:14:43.360 Well, shit, man, I don't. I just I hope if 0:14:43.400 --> 0:14:47.520 you get genuinely, you seem like a really smart, really 0:14:47.560 --> 0:14:50.760 good guy, and so I hope, uh, genuinely that if 0:14:50.800 --> 0:14:52.760 you get anything out of this phone call, it's just 0:14:52.760 --> 0:14:55.400 whatever you fucking do. Dude, don't write yourself off. It's like, 0:14:56.320 --> 0:14:58.840 it's the it's the saddest thing to me when other people, 0:14:59.080 --> 0:15:03.960 when people like write them selves off permanently, especially so young, 0:15:04.160 --> 0:15:06.680 because I really and it's hard. I've been in the 0:15:06.720 --> 0:15:09.480 thick of it. I write myself off constantly. And it's like, 0:15:11.680 --> 0:15:14.840 maybe you do need an outside perspective to tell you 0:15:14.880 --> 0:15:19.920 that you're cashing into early by believing that you're gonna 0:15:19.920 --> 0:15:26.200 be dumb forever because you have some paint. I mean, biologically, 0:15:26.240 --> 0:15:28.480 you have lost some brain cells. That's true. You're gonna 0:15:28.480 --> 0:15:31.120 have to hold the element. But that's fine, that's fine, 0:15:31.560 --> 0:15:36.760 that's fine. You know, you don't need that many brain 0:15:36.800 --> 0:15:39.720 cells to function in society. And having shitty I mean, 0:15:39.720 --> 0:15:43.200 I have shitty memory. I've been like smoking a fucking 0:15:43.280 --> 0:15:47.720 pot every day for years. And that's why when people 0:15:47.720 --> 0:15:50.480 that's why people tell me their name and I forget 0:15:50.480 --> 0:15:55.520 it instantly. But whatever, you know, I can still function 0:15:55.600 --> 0:15:58.720 in society and be a human being and provide value 0:15:58.760 --> 0:16:02.320 to myself and others, and so can you. God damn it. 0:16:03.960 --> 0:16:06.200 Sorry, I'm just I'm so glad the person outside of 0:16:06.240 --> 0:16:08.840 myself to tell you that. With the therapy, get go. 0:16:09.120 --> 0:16:13.960 So, Johnny, is there anything else that you wanted to 0:16:14.000 --> 0:16:20.040 talk about or or fucking any any any anything before 0:16:20.040 --> 0:16:20.360 we go. 0:16:23.400 --> 0:16:26.840 My name is Johnny Karate. I like sucking Cox, linging rock, 0:16:29.120 --> 0:16:30.520 sucking dick and eaton klitz. 0:16:31.280 --> 0:16:35.360 Nice later on, Johnny Karate, thank you. 0:16:35.400 --> 0:16:36.760 I love your therapy. I go take care. 0:16:37.760 --> 0:16:41.160 That guy's got some cool hobbies. Hey, folks, this is Lyle. 0:16:41.400 --> 0:16:44.080 I am very excited to announce that I am going 0:16:44.320 --> 0:16:47.920 back on tour in twenty twenty four to do Therapy 0:16:47.960 --> 0:16:51.160 Gecko live all across the country. 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Also, if 0:17:26.400 --> 0:17:28.720 you don't see your city on the list of cities, 0:17:28.920 --> 0:17:32.000 please still click the link and RSVP with your phone 0:17:32.080 --> 0:17:34.679 number so I can contact you when tickets go on 0:17:34.760 --> 0:17:37.679 sale for your city, because I'm going to announce a 0:17:37.720 --> 0:17:46.120 bunch more dates very soon. Gek Bluss Yo, Hey, Hey, Hey, 0:17:46.680 --> 0:17:50.119 what's your name? Yeah? This is this is this is 0:17:50.160 --> 0:17:54.400 the Gek you know what? I actually meant to call 0:17:54.600 --> 0:17:59.080 someone else, but uh, let's talk. Let's talk. What's up man? 0:17:59.080 --> 0:17:59.680 What's your name? 0:18:00.240 --> 0:18:03.320 Mick Love? Yes? 0:18:03.960 --> 0:18:04.440 What can I do? 0:18:04.880 --> 0:18:05.679 What can I do you for. 0:18:06.119 --> 0:18:09.240 I am in a creative slump at the. 0:18:09.280 --> 0:18:11.480 Moment, Okay, I. 0:18:12.960 --> 0:18:16.040 I kind of do YouTube a little bit mm hmm, 0:18:17.240 --> 0:18:22.639 and later on down the line, I just I just 0:18:22.720 --> 0:18:26.400 kind of quit. I don't know how to Sorry, I'm 0:18:26.480 --> 0:18:28.520 kind of nervous. I didn't think I was going to 0:18:28.560 --> 0:18:29.040 get a car. 0:18:31.240 --> 0:18:32.600 What kind of YouTube videos you make? 0:18:35.040 --> 0:18:42.480 H different? You know, junk junk videos? I talk about ship. 0:18:42.560 --> 0:18:45.840 I have a video that I made a big rant 0:18:46.520 --> 0:18:48.800 about a light bulb that uses Wi Fi. 0:18:51.080 --> 0:18:53.600 A light bulb that uses Wi Fi? What kind of 0:18:53.680 --> 0:18:54.439 light bulb is this? 0:18:55.320 --> 0:18:57.040 Uh? 0:18:57.680 --> 0:19:01.760 I don't know. It's called micro or some ship micro? 0:19:05.119 --> 0:19:07.920 Okay, So what what do you mean by junk videos? 0:19:10.000 --> 0:19:13.800 Like I just talked about the ship and all that, 0:19:13.880 --> 0:19:16.920 and I'm I started doing reviews of games. 0:19:17.880 --> 0:19:18.359 Mm hmmm. 0:19:18.800 --> 0:19:21.240 Like we're just talking about different stuff, kind of like 0:19:21.280 --> 0:19:22.040 a moist. 0:19:21.840 --> 0:19:27.639 Critical as you texted me actually and you said you 0:19:27.680 --> 0:19:29.480 said what you said? You said, I used to do 0:19:29.640 --> 0:19:31.120 crazy experiments. 0:19:34.880 --> 0:19:37.040 What is antal thing I'll go through so. 0:19:38.600 --> 0:19:38.840 Back? 0:19:40.720 --> 0:19:44.000 I'm hoping this is because it use it was kind 0:19:44.000 --> 0:19:44.560 of sexual. 0:19:46.560 --> 0:19:46.720 Is that? 0:19:46.800 --> 0:19:48.680 Okay? 0:19:49.840 --> 0:19:52.120 What what kind of experiments were these? 0:19:54.200 --> 0:19:54.400 Well? 0:19:54.480 --> 0:20:00.119 I wanted to see what things will feel good to 0:20:00.200 --> 0:20:07.520 my penis. Okay, So I actually made my name up 0:20:07.680 --> 0:20:10.919 on valery. You probably look it up somewhere. And I 0:20:10.960 --> 0:20:13.240 stick my I wanted to see how it felt to 0:20:13.280 --> 0:20:17.280 stick my penis and uh, Wendy Frosty's. 0:20:21.760 --> 0:20:22.520 And how did it feel. 0:20:25.280 --> 0:20:31.159 It was like a fucking uh, let's see frostbite. It 0:20:31.200 --> 0:20:34.400 did not feel great. I had to use fucking heat, 0:20:34.520 --> 0:20:37.720 the heat just to fucking get it out directly from 0:20:37.760 --> 0:20:38.440 the fuck event. 0:20:39.480 --> 0:20:40.280 What do you like? 0:20:40.359 --> 0:20:41.320 It got stuck in there? 0:20:43.359 --> 0:20:47.560 It kind of did. Yeah. 0:20:47.880 --> 0:20:49.199 What flavor frosty was it? 0:20:50.760 --> 0:20:54.600 Uh? I think it was strawberry. 0:20:56.440 --> 0:21:00.080 How long did you leave your penis submerged in the frosty? 0:21:03.080 --> 0:21:04.040 Forty five minutes? 0:21:05.200 --> 0:21:07.959 You put your penis in a frosty for forty five minutes. 0:21:09.119 --> 0:21:13.840 Yes, and that's where the thing came from. I come 0:21:13.880 --> 0:21:17.159 and Wendy's Frosty's and that was my steam name for 0:21:17.160 --> 0:21:17.760 a long time. 0:21:18.680 --> 0:21:20.400 So this is a real video that I like. If 0:21:20.400 --> 0:21:21.800 I looked for it on YouTube. 0:21:21.800 --> 0:21:24.280 No, oh no, just's say the video. This is what 0:21:24.440 --> 0:21:27.760 I used to do with the kids. Then there was 0:21:27.800 --> 0:21:28.679 no videos of it. 0:21:31.160 --> 0:21:33.400 Wait, uh oh, okay, so you so when just when 0:21:33.400 --> 0:21:35.879 you were a kid, you you did weird experiments like this. 0:21:36.119 --> 0:21:38.440 Yeah, okay, why did you think? 0:21:38.440 --> 0:21:40.680 Why'd you do it for forty five minutes? 0:21:43.240 --> 0:21:45.440 I don't know. I forgot about a condo. 0:21:47.240 --> 0:21:48.080 What other experience? 0:21:50.480 --> 0:21:58.000 Well, I uh, let's see, I wanted to try putting 0:21:58.080 --> 0:22:06.440 in gravy. That wasn't the great. Uh, there was one 0:22:06.440 --> 0:22:09.040 time that this is when it kind of stopped. But 0:22:09.080 --> 0:22:12.680 I used to work at Butterball, the Turkey. 0:22:12.359 --> 0:22:15.880 Place and. 0:22:16.160 --> 0:22:24.240 Butterball butall turkey plant And I'll ask one of my coworkers, Hey, 0:22:24.160 --> 0:22:26.679 you steal a turkey stuck, can do a expeeriment to 0:22:26.760 --> 0:22:27.399 it real quick? 0:22:31.520 --> 0:22:32.720 You're talking with me right now? 0:22:34.000 --> 0:22:37.040 No, I'm not, okay, I'm being dead ass. 0:22:37.200 --> 0:22:40.040 You told your coworker to make a turkey bawl for 0:22:40.080 --> 0:22:41.080 you to stick your penis in. 0:22:42.080 --> 0:22:44.000 No, no, no, I said, We're going to steal a 0:22:44.000 --> 0:22:48.040 whole turkey, the whole last turkey, and take it somewhere. 0:22:48.880 --> 0:22:50.760 I'll just go to see how it feels and to 0:22:50.960 --> 0:22:55.400 just throw it away, is it? 0:22:55.720 --> 0:22:59.840 I get that's like a that's like beast reality and 0:23:00.119 --> 0:23:01.440 necrophilia kind of. 0:23:03.080 --> 0:23:06.760 Well, the turkey was dead and it's like skinned and everything. 0:23:07.480 --> 0:23:12.119