WEBVTT - 15) The Confession

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<v Speaker 1>assault that may be too intense or triggering to some listeners.

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<v Speaker 3>There was like one main commander who was the general

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<v Speaker 3>of the whole state. Call to the receptionist of the general.

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<v Speaker 3>I said to you her, I have some information about

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<v Speaker 3>the case. I need to speak with the commander. She said,

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<v Speaker 3>when can you comment. I said I can in thirty minutes.

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<v Speaker 3>She said, he will be waiting for you. Put the

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<v Speaker 3>files into USB. I took the USB. I came into

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<v Speaker 3>the main building and I walked through the security check.

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<v Speaker 3>I came to the reception and there was a woman

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<v Speaker 3>and she said, he's waiting for you. I walked in.

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<v Speaker 3>I said hello, and he said sit down. I sat

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<v Speaker 3>down in front of him and he was sitting looking

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<v Speaker 3>at me and he said, it's a very unusual situation.

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<v Speaker 4>What do you have?

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<v Speaker 3>And I was scared because he was in the power

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<v Speaker 3>just to throw me to jail and usually if you

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<v Speaker 3>do something wrong while you're working and then you go

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<v Speaker 3>to jail, somebody will eventually murder you. And I said,

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<v Speaker 3>I've been working for this department and my commander he

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<v Speaker 3>sent me to that mission to infiltrate criminal gang. And

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<v Speaker 3>while I was working on that mission, I found out

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<v Speaker 3>some information and my partner who've been working with me

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<v Speaker 3>on this case just being killed. And he said, yes,

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<v Speaker 3>I know, what do you have? And I said that

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<v Speaker 3>I found out some documents which have the name of

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<v Speaker 3>my commander and this photus which is stating that he

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<v Speaker 3>has connection with the criminal gang. And I gave him

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<v Speaker 3>these documents and he was looking at this like for

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<v Speaker 3>a very long time, and then he.

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<v Speaker 4>Put the us BBCH.

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<v Speaker 3>I gave him to his computer and he was really

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<v Speaker 3>studying it and he said to me, tell me everything

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<v Speaker 3>you know from the beginning. Almost like an hour, I

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<v Speaker 3>was just telling him the whole story from the beginning.

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<v Speaker 3>And then he said, I heard about your father. I

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<v Speaker 3>used to know who is here. And he said, such

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<v Speaker 3>a pride that daughter of such a great officer sacrificed

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<v Speaker 3>your life for the mission, for the work to serve

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<v Speaker 3>the country. And he said, I thank you for your service,

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<v Speaker 3>and since you've done your mission successfully, I want to

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<v Speaker 3>send you to the promotion. I would recommend you to

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<v Speaker 3>be sent abroad. For you, it would be better not

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<v Speaker 3>to be here. It would be risky for your life.

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<v Speaker 3>I said, like, what other position do you mean and

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<v Speaker 3>he said this would be strictly FSB working abroad. And

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<v Speaker 3>I said, no, I want my freedom. I cannot do

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<v Speaker 3>this anymore. I don't want to work here anymore. And

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<v Speaker 3>he said, well, it's impossible. You think that. After trainings

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<v Speaker 3>and after all these investments into your education, do you

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<v Speaker 3>think you just can say like, sorry, I'm tired and

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<v Speaker 3>I just want to leave. Look at your dad, he

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<v Speaker 3>served his country all his life. How can you just

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<v Speaker 3>let him down so much? Said I don't want to

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<v Speaker 3>let him down, but I just I can't.

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<v Speaker 4>Do it anymore.

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<v Speaker 3>And he said, well, you can take a break if

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<v Speaker 3>you want to, but then a couple months when you

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<v Speaker 3>will go right and you will rest and everything. I'll

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<v Speaker 3>send you to a very good profession. You don't need

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<v Speaker 3>to deal with criminals anymore. There will be much better targets.

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<v Speaker 3>And when I was walking out from this building, I

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<v Speaker 3>felt like I needed to get out so fast, so fast.

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<v Speaker 3>I ran out of the stairs and had turned left,

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<v Speaker 3>and I saw this big tree outside, and I remember

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<v Speaker 3>I just stopped and I hugged the tree and I

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<v Speaker 3>started to cry. I cried so much and so strong.

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<v Speaker 3>I was scared, and I felt relief. I came home.

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<v Speaker 3>I wanted to speak with Vladimir, and he texted me.

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<v Speaker 3>He's like, i'll see you soon. I texted back, yes,

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<v Speaker 3>I'll see you soon, looking forward, and I was preparing

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<v Speaker 3>myself to explain him about what was happening all this

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<v Speaker 3>time and the way I met him. He thought, if

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<v Speaker 3>I will tell him everything, maybe it will change his mind,

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<v Speaker 3>and maybe we can escape together to some other place

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<v Speaker 3>without all this darkness and crime. I came downstairs and

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<v Speaker 3>I saw the same car and the driver, which I

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<v Speaker 3>know for so long. He came outside. He took my

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<v Speaker 3>hand like that, he opened the door and he pushed

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<v Speaker 3>me into the car. And that exactly moment, I understood

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<v Speaker 3>that he knows, and I understood that I'm fucked.

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<v Speaker 4>I saw.

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<v Speaker 3>The three guys, which obviously I know and they know me,

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<v Speaker 3>but at that time they were not smiling and they

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<v Speaker 3>were not nice to me. They looked at me with

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<v Speaker 3>very angry eyes, and they just pushed me in the

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<v Speaker 3>middle of the seat. And then another guy he put

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<v Speaker 3>the back, the back from where they used to put potatoes.

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<v Speaker 3>And when he put this back on my head, I

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<v Speaker 3>understood that that's it. I said, it's a mistake. Wait,

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<v Speaker 3>I need to explain to you. And the same guy,

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<v Speaker 3>who am I feeding my foot? Which I always cook

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<v Speaker 3>for them? He said to me, shut the fuck up.

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<v Speaker 3>We were driving and I just could hear sometimes they

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<v Speaker 3>would speak between each other quietly and like where is he? Okay,

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<v Speaker 3>he's coming. And I didn't cry, and I was just

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<v Speaker 3>staying silenced inside of my brain, and my head is

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<v Speaker 3>just I need to speak with Latimmer. I need to

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<v Speaker 3>speak with him. I need to speak with him. Eventually,

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<v Speaker 3>they stopped the car and we arrived to somewhere. I

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<v Speaker 3>could feel the fresh air and the smell of the trees,

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<v Speaker 3>and I understood that we are in the forest. And

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<v Speaker 3>the guy just pushed me out of the car. I

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<v Speaker 3>fall on the floor and he just like took my

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<v Speaker 3>hand and just started to drop me. And I felt

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<v Speaker 3>that my neck, my shoulders are getting hurt by them

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<v Speaker 3>the sticks of the trees. I felt that my skin

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<v Speaker 3>was like scratched. The bag was still on my face.

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<v Speaker 3>I heard another car stopped. It was bad because I

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<v Speaker 3>heard that voice. The voice I was scared that time,

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<v Speaker 3>fucking bitch, bring her to me. It was the voice

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<v Speaker 3>of the of the best friend of Vladimir, who saved

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<v Speaker 3>his life, who now was ready to kill me like

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<v Speaker 3>his fucking hero, like he found a traitor and now

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<v Speaker 3>with Mike killing he would become the hero of the

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<v Speaker 3>fucking gang. I felt desprid in his voice. The guy

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<v Speaker 3>who dragged me was just dropped my hand. I sat

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<v Speaker 3>on my knees and I felt someone with his feast

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<v Speaker 3>hurt my head so strong that all my body just

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<v Speaker 3>fall so hard that the bag all out of my head.

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<v Speaker 3>And I have also something really hot was going on

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<v Speaker 3>my skin, on my face. And I opened my eyes,

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<v Speaker 3>and when I opened my eyes, I saw these dirty

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<v Speaker 3>black poods with the land and I started to look

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<v Speaker 3>up and I saw this cold and sharp posture of

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<v Speaker 3>this man who looked at me with this angry cold eyes.

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<v Speaker 3>These eyes. When it's like this is your last moments

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<v Speaker 3>of your life, then you just have to accept your

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<v Speaker 3>your destiny, because he is the one who decides if

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<v Speaker 3>he lets you to leave or would die.

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<v Speaker 1>The following contains graphic descriptions of violence and sexual assault

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<v Speaker 1>that may be too intense or triggering to some listeners.

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<v Speaker 1>Discretion is advised.

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<v Speaker 3>And I looked around, and I saw that all of them,

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<v Speaker 3>all these brothers, these guys who ate my meal which

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<v Speaker 3>I cooked for them, who laughed at my jokes, who

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<v Speaker 3>are telling me goodbye, sister, all of them now wanted

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<v Speaker 3>to kill me at that right moment. And I only had,

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<v Speaker 3>like one thought, they can dive without speaking with Vladimir

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<v Speaker 3>to tell him the whole thing. I just wanted to

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<v Speaker 3>speak with him, nothing else. And I looked at his

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<v Speaker 3>friend and I said, please, please, I'm baking you, please

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<v Speaker 3>let me speak with Vladimir.

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<v Speaker 4>Please.

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<v Speaker 3>And he did this like.

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<v Speaker 4>The first time in his life.

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<v Speaker 3>So he did this face, which is like the sarcastic smile,

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<v Speaker 3>and he said, now, you whore, you want to speak

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<v Speaker 3>with Vladimir, You think like I'll let you, And he

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<v Speaker 3>nod his hand, and each of them they started to

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<v Speaker 3>hit me, but they dirty big heavy boots to my belly,

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<v Speaker 3>to my face, to my legs, each of them my brothers,

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<v Speaker 3>as they were saying this before, your sister always will

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<v Speaker 3>take care about you, right, Vladimir.

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<v Speaker 4>She's always sister.

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<v Speaker 3>Now.

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<v Speaker 4>They all were beating me, trying to kill me life.

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<v Speaker 4>I was trying to hold my I was trying to

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<v Speaker 4>hold my hands next to my face so they wouldn't

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<v Speaker 4>they wouldn't hurt my brains, so I would pitches be

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<v Speaker 4>able maybe to talk. And then he stopped them.

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<v Speaker 2>M hm.

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<v Speaker 5>He laid on me on the top and he said,

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<v Speaker 5>what bitch, now you will dry my cock?

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<v Speaker 4>You feel that you're such a fucking whore. I felt

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<v Speaker 4>such a I felt his body laying on me stock.

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<v Speaker 4>I couldn't even move.

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<v Speaker 6>Mm hm.

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<v Speaker 4>And he started to enter me with this painful and

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<v Speaker 4>couldn't scream, and he laid on me so strong that

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<v Speaker 4>his body that I couldn't even breathe. I just heard

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<v Speaker 4>that all of them was standing around me. All of

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<v Speaker 4>them was standing around me and just nothing and saying like, yeah,

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<v Speaker 4>come on, just like give her harder. What bitch, do

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<v Speaker 4>you like it? I need some time? It's okay, it's

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<v Speaker 4>still still hard.

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<v Speaker 3>The worst was that when you feel like I'm not

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<v Speaker 3>doing this anymore, I'm not like I'm different, I changed,

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<v Speaker 3>But yet nobody listens to you, and they don't care.

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<v Speaker 3>It's just like you're the traitor and from them. They

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<v Speaker 3>never led traitors to leave. It's like it's imporcible. It's like,

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<v Speaker 3>you know, she's a mall, she's a male. They were

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<v Speaker 3>like screaming, and when he was raping me, he said, oh,

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<v Speaker 3>he said, I wanted to do it so badly. From

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<v Speaker 3>the moment I saw you, I knew you fucking mall

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<v Speaker 3>and knew that you some kind of like clever woman

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<v Speaker 3>or some clever like shit. He said, like you cannot

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<v Speaker 3>play me, and like that, you know, like he he said, like,

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<v Speaker 3>finally I got you. Finally, finally he got me. He

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<v Speaker 3>told me that this is the end. This is the

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<v Speaker 3>last moment of your life. He had these breast knuckles

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<v Speaker 3>in his fist, and when he told that, he punched

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<v Speaker 3>me from the side so hard that I still have

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<v Speaker 3>a scarf here. Then it just kind of crushed my

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<v Speaker 3>bone as well, so I have a lock of the

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<v Speaker 3>bone here too. I don't know how long was it

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<v Speaker 3>like going on. At some point I fainted. I just couldn't.

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<v Speaker 3>I couldn't handle it. But then I heard they were arguing,

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<v Speaker 3>and I my mind came back to me and I

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<v Speaker 3>just couldn't understand why I'm still I'm still alive. Vladimir's

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<v Speaker 3>called my phone all this time. He was waiting for

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<v Speaker 3>me as all this, he called, and he called, and

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<v Speaker 3>obviously I didn't pick up the phone. I couldn't. First

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<v Speaker 3>of all, he called to this guy, to his friend.

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<v Speaker 3>I don't know exactly what was the conversation, but what

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<v Speaker 3>I understood when they were arguing with each other where

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<v Speaker 3>they would tell she is the mole, She's the mole.

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<v Speaker 3>She has to be killed right now, like fuck that.

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<v Speaker 3>She had just like, let's fucking finish her hair. And

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<v Speaker 3>then another guy said, like, we can't just finish her hair.

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<v Speaker 3>He's waiting, like he will be fucking killed all of

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<v Speaker 3>us if you do it without his permission. He said

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<v Speaker 3>to bring her to him, and they were hesitating and

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<v Speaker 3>they were arguing, and the army friend then said, fuck it,

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<v Speaker 3>let's just finish her in front of him if he

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<v Speaker 3>wants it. And one of the guys came to me

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<v Speaker 3>and he pushed me. So was all bleeding. I could

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<v Speaker 3>even feel inside of my mouth my blood, my own blood,

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<v Speaker 3>and my whole body was in pain. And I already

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<v Speaker 3>used to be honest, like I just didn't want to leave.

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<v Speaker 3>It was it was already so painful that I just

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<v Speaker 3>didn't want I just wanted to be ended. I was

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<v Speaker 3>so tired and so exhausted, and I just wanted to

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<v Speaker 3>see Vladimir before I wanted to tell him.

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<v Speaker 6>They pushed me into.

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<v Speaker 3>The car like a like a just just a body

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<v Speaker 3>like all like almost like just they threw me inside

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<v Speaker 3>and I couldn't even cry or something, and I didn't

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<v Speaker 3>speak all my body was shaking. And we arrived to

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<v Speaker 3>his house. And when we arrived, they started to take

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<v Speaker 3>me out from the car, and he already was standing

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<v Speaker 3>outside and he said, with his sharp voice, bring her

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<v Speaker 3>to me now. And I couldn't walk, so they just

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<v Speaker 3>took me with my shoulders just like almost like walk

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<v Speaker 3>me inside. And they brought me to that dining career

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<v Speaker 3>where we used to have.

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<v Speaker 4>Tinners.

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<v Speaker 3>And I fall on the floor and they all came

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<v Speaker 3>and they all started to scream, she's a fucking mole, like,

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<v Speaker 3>let's fucking finish her right now.

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<v Speaker 4>You were ready to finish her, why didn't you let us?

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<v Speaker 4>Like what the fuck?

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<v Speaker 3>And then his army friend he said, I have all

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<v Speaker 3>the evidences. Our informer said, she's the agent. They blew

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<v Speaker 3>up all the operations a couple of days ago. She

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<v Speaker 3>was involve in every single information, every single operation we did.

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<v Speaker 3>She's the one who made us lose many like kilosoft,

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<v Speaker 3>drugs and money, and she's the reason of all of

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<v Speaker 3>our problems. And Vladimir looked at my body and he said, out,

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<v Speaker 3>everybody will like give her to us, just let us

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<v Speaker 3>finish her. Then he said again out. I sat out,

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<v Speaker 3>and his army friend said wait. Listened like we need

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<v Speaker 3>to do all the this together. He said, I said out,

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<v Speaker 3>and everybody laughed. It was just me and him in

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<v Speaker 3>the room. It was just silence.

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<v Speaker 4>For a while.

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<v Speaker 3>He came to me closer, and he sat down on

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<v Speaker 3>the floor and he looked at me, and he took

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<v Speaker 3>my face and I felt his strong hands, and I

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<v Speaker 3>started to.

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<v Speaker 6>Cry with the tears of of everything from the first beginning,

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<v Speaker 6>from the first day I event to the military academy,

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<v Speaker 6>from the first day I took the oaths. He looked

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<v Speaker 6>at me, then he asked me. He asked me only

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<v Speaker 6>one question, only one, and the question was.

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<v Speaker 4>Do you love me? And I cried.

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<v Speaker 3>And I looked at him. I said, yes, I do,

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<v Speaker 3>I do love you. Very much. He took my face

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<v Speaker 3>closer and he hold me and he told me, tell

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<v Speaker 3>me everything, tell me everything. From the beginning, I felt

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<v Speaker 3>blood on my coming from my face into my eyes

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<v Speaker 3>and my mouth. My whole body was in pain. And

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<v Speaker 3>the first time in my life, I told the whole

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<v Speaker 3>truth about myself, about what I knew, what I've been through,

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<v Speaker 3>about my childhood, and how I ended up being an agent,

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<v Speaker 3>how I manipulated him and planned everything and set him up.

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<v Speaker 3>And while I was telling him everything I knew, I

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<v Speaker 3>was crying. He was listening, he didn't say word, and

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<v Speaker 3>I saw pain in his eyes. And by the time

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<v Speaker 3>I finish my story, Vladimir told me his side everything

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<v Speaker 3>he knew, and it fit together like a puzzle. We

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<v Speaker 3>both came to understand together that my commander wanted Zadka.

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<v Speaker 3>It's a black cash money, the primary money drug trafficking

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<v Speaker 3>operations coming from Afghanistan. But Vladimir told me he was

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<v Speaker 3>already paying the bribe for the different businesses he had

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<v Speaker 3>to the general I met with. So my own commander

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<v Speaker 3>sent me to this mission to basically just get rid

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<v Speaker 3>of Vladimir. And when I was revealed to be a

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<v Speaker 3>mall the gang would turn against Vladimir for causing them

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<v Speaker 3>all these problems and chose a new leader. That was

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<v Speaker 3>his goal, because he wanted to install in the gang

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<v Speaker 3>somebody who will be loyal to him, who would pay

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<v Speaker 3>him the kickback from the drug business for the long term.

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<v Speaker 3>And it was the army friend. And when Vladimir realized

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<v Speaker 3>that his own friend, whom he trusted all his life,

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<v Speaker 3>betrayed him, it almost killed him. I told him, we

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<v Speaker 3>still have time, we still have a chance. Let's move away.

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<v Speaker 3>I told him that the general with whom I spoken

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<v Speaker 3>just before that, I said, like he told me, I

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<v Speaker 3>have to leave. He said, yes, totally agree with him.

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<v Speaker 3>You have to leave. He gave me the number of

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<v Speaker 3>one person in Moscow who supposed to hide me and

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<v Speaker 3>just help me out in the beginning, who like some time.

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<v Speaker 3>He said, you stay quiet for a little bit, don't

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<v Speaker 3>go anywhere, and don't do anything. I will give you

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<v Speaker 3>some telephone numbers of people I know in Turkey, in Greece,

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<v Speaker 3>in Switzerland. Because of my passport and everything, he said,

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<v Speaker 3>first you fly to Turkey, and then from Turkey you

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<v Speaker 3>can fly to other countries. And later I will come

0:31:36.040 --> 0:31:40.080
<v Speaker 3>and we will go somewhere together. But for now, I

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<v Speaker 3>need to sort out all the situation with my former friend,

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<v Speaker 3>whom I trusted the most, and I need to figure

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<v Speaker 3>out the whole situation with my gang. I need to

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<v Speaker 3>crown someone who will be able to take care about

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<v Speaker 3>everything I built. I can just let down everybody. He

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<v Speaker 3>gave me some money, and he said not to communicate

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<v Speaker 3>with anyone, even with my parents. He said to me

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<v Speaker 3>in the end, now you have your freedom. Now you're free.

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<v Speaker 3>And the driver, his friend, whom I never seen before.

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<v Speaker 3>He came like an early early morning and he put

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<v Speaker 3>me into the car and he drove me away.

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<v Speaker 2>You've been listening to episode fifteen, chapter thirty two, to

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<v Speaker 2>Hell and Back.

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<v Speaker 4>To kill you. I'm really sorry.

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<v Speaker 5>I had to do that.

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<v Speaker 3>I could June did away home. I was hol and

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<v Speaker 3>my god, I got to my to you have. I

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<v Speaker 3>had to joy.

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<v Speaker 6>Us?

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<v Speaker 4>Is So what's.

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<v Speaker 2>The Leah's story concludes in the next episode.

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<v Speaker 3>I didn't know what was happening, and I was just

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<v Speaker 3>in another world, and I asked you, what's happening, and

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<v Speaker 3>he said, like, I don't know a lot of details,

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<v Speaker 3>but she was murdered.

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<v Speaker 2>If you or a loved one are a survivor of

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<v Speaker 2>sexual assault. You can visit rain dot org that's r

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<v Speaker 2>production of Tenderfoot TV in association with iHeart Podcasts. The

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<v Speaker 2>show is hosted and written by me Neil Strauss, with

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<v Speaker 2>additional writing assistants by Tristan Bankston. Executive producers are myself,

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<v Speaker 2>Donald Allbright, and Payne Lindsay. For iHeart Podcasts, executive producers

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<v Speaker 2>are Matt Frederick and Alex Williams. Lead producer and editor

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