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Speaker 1: Warning, the following contains graphic descriptions of violence and sexual

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Speaker 1: assault that may be too intense or triggering to some listeners.

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Speaker 3: There was like one main commander who was the general

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Speaker 3: of the whole state. Call to the receptionist of the general.

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Speaker 3: I said to you her, I have some information about

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Speaker 3: the case. I need to speak with the commander. She said,

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Speaker 3: when can you comment. I said I can in thirty minutes.

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Speaker 3: She said, he will be waiting for you. Put the

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Speaker 3: files into USB. I took the USB. I came into

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Speaker 3: the main building and I walked through the security check.

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Speaker 3: I came to the reception and there was a woman

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Speaker 3: and she said, he's waiting for you. I walked in.

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Speaker 3: I said hello, and he said sit down. I sat

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Speaker 3: down in front of him and he was sitting looking

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Speaker 3: at me and he said, it's a very unusual situation.

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Speaker 4: What do you have?

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Speaker 3: And I was scared because he was in the power

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Speaker 3: just to throw me to jail and usually if you

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Speaker 3: do something wrong while you're working and then you go

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Speaker 3: to jail, somebody will eventually murder you. And I said,

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Speaker 3: I've been working for this department and my commander he

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Speaker 3: sent me to that mission to infiltrate criminal gang. And

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Speaker 3: while I was working on that mission, I found out

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Speaker 3: on this case just being killed. And he said, yes,

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Speaker 3: I know, what do you have? And I said that

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Speaker 3: I found out some documents which have the name of

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Speaker 3: my commander and this photus which is stating that he

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Speaker 3: has connection with the criminal gang. And I gave him

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Speaker 3: these documents and he was looking at this like for

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Speaker 4: Put the us BBCH.

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Speaker 3: I gave him to his computer and he was really

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Speaker 3: studying it and he said to me, tell me everything

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Speaker 3: you know from the beginning. Almost like an hour, I

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Speaker 3: was just telling him the whole story from the beginning.

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Speaker 3: And then he said, I heard about your father. I

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Speaker 3: used to know who is here. And he said, such

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Speaker 3: a pride that daughter of such a great officer sacrificed

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Speaker 3: your life for the mission, for the work to serve

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Speaker 3: the country. And he said, I thank you for your service,

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Speaker 3: and since you've done your mission successfully, I want to

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Speaker 3: send you to the promotion. I would recommend you to

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Speaker 3: be sent abroad. For you, it would be better not

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Speaker 3: I said, like, what other position do you mean and

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Speaker 3: he said this would be strictly FSB working abroad. And

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Speaker 3: I said, no, I want my freedom. I cannot do

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Speaker 3: he said, well, it's impossible. You think that. After trainings

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Speaker 3: and after all these investments into your education, do you

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Speaker 3: think you just can say like, sorry, I'm tired and

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Speaker 3: I just want to leave. Look at your dad, he

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Speaker 3: served his country all his life. How can you just

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Speaker 3: let him down so much? Said I don't want to

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Speaker 3: And he said, well, you can take a break if

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Speaker 3: send you to a very good profession. You don't need

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Speaker 3: to deal with criminals anymore. There will be much better targets.

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Speaker 3: And when I was walking out from this building, I

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Speaker 3: I ran out of the stairs and had turned left,

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Speaker 3: and I saw this big tree outside, and I remember

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Speaker 3: I wanted to speak with Vladimir, and he texted me.

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Speaker 3: He's like, i'll see you soon. I texted back, yes,

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Speaker 3: And when he put this back on my head, I

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Speaker 3: We were driving and I just could hear sometimes they

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Speaker 3: just I need to speak with Latimmer. I need to

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Speaker 3: I heard another car stopped. It was bad because I

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Speaker 3: heard that voice. The voice I was scared that time,

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Speaker 3: fucking gang. I felt desprid in his voice. The guy

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Speaker 3: And I have also something really hot was going on

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Speaker 3: and when I opened my eyes, I saw these dirty

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Speaker 3: These eyes. When it's like this is your last moments

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Speaker 3: And I looked around, and I saw that all of them,

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Speaker 3: I cooked for them, who laughed at my jokes, who

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Speaker 3: are telling me goodbye, sister, all of them now wanted

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Speaker 3: to kill me at that right moment. And I only had,

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Speaker 3: like one thought, they can dive without speaking with Vladimir

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Speaker 3: to tell him the whole thing. I just wanted to

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Speaker 3: friend and I said, please, please, I'm baking you, please

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Speaker 4: Please.

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Speaker 3: And he did this like.

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Speaker 4: The first time in his life.

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Speaker 3: So he did this face, which is like the sarcastic smile,

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Speaker 3: and he said, now, you whore, you want to speak

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Speaker 3: with Vladimir, You think like I'll let you, And he

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Speaker 3: hit me, but they dirty big heavy boots to my belly,

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Speaker 3: to my face, to my legs, each of them my brothers,

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Speaker 3: as they were saying this before, your sister always will

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Speaker 3: take care about you, right, Vladimir.

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Speaker 4: She's always sister.

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Speaker 3: Now.

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Speaker 4: They all were beating me, trying to kill me life.

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Speaker 4: I was trying to hold my I was trying to

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Speaker 4: You feel that you're such a fucking whore. I felt

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Speaker 3: It's just like you're the traitor and from them. They

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Speaker 3: just couldn't understand why I'm still I'm still alive. Vladimir's

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Speaker 3: called my phone all this time. He was waiting for

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Speaker 3: me as all this, he called, and he called, and

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Speaker 3: She has to be killed right now, like fuck that.

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Speaker 3: She had just like, let's fucking finish her hair. And

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