WEBVTT - Mallorca on Mushrooms 0:00:00.840 --> 0:00:04.400 Hi, Katherine, Hello Chelsea. You guys, we are coming to 0:00:04.440 --> 0:00:09.879 you live from Majorca in Spain. Yes we are. This 0:00:09.960 --> 0:00:13.440 is an episode called CS I'm Majorca, where we will 0:00:13.480 --> 0:00:17.720 be solving short murder mysteries. We're here with a group 0:00:17.760 --> 0:00:22.360 of women and and a token male who happens to 0:00:22.400 --> 0:00:28.000 be our sound engineer and podcast editor, Brad, who's Katherine's 0:00:28.520 --> 0:00:32.400 lover slash husband. Indeed, so he's the only male in 0:00:32.520 --> 0:00:36.680 a house filled with ten girls. Isn't nine girls? So 0:00:36.760 --> 0:00:40.560 he is exhausted. He's been making the rounds and having 0:00:40.600 --> 0:00:42.840 a great time. We told him this was a swinger's 0:00:42.880 --> 0:00:44.920 week and that he was going to have to service 0:00:44.960 --> 0:00:47.479 all ten women, and so he has been taking a 0:00:47.520 --> 0:00:51.360 lot of apps. Yes, that's absolutely true. All the galaxy 0:00:51.440 --> 0:00:55.440 to love him, though, I know, I know, very nicely done, Katherine, 0:00:55.640 --> 0:00:59.160 great choice making. He fits in. He does the little 0:00:59.160 --> 0:01:01.240 eyemasks that we were all doing when we had our 0:01:01.280 --> 0:01:05.280 little spa moment. Yes, Jamie Greenberg is here. She's administering. 0:01:05.400 --> 0:01:08.959 She's trying to contribute since her personality is not enough. 0:01:09.800 --> 0:01:14.400 She is giving us Ie shades and facials and all 0:01:14.440 --> 0:01:18.200 sorts of little treatments. I would say, yes, yes, she's 0:01:18.240 --> 0:01:20.000 going to do all of our makeup before we go 0:01:20.040 --> 0:01:23.959 out tonight. And it turns out that is that what's happening? Okay, 0:01:24.240 --> 0:01:28.640 because that sounds that sounds annoying, sounds like a wedding. Yeah, yeah, yeah, 0:01:28.680 --> 0:01:31.440 yeah yeah. We make our work for it. But we've 0:01:31.480 --> 0:01:33.560 been having some weather in my Orka which has been 0:01:33.640 --> 0:01:36.440 kind of delightful, but it was unexpected. So there are 0:01:36.440 --> 0:01:38.880 people actually surfing in front of the house today, which 0:01:38.920 --> 0:01:42.800 is funny because the waves don't seem big enough to 0:01:42.840 --> 0:01:46.600 be doing that. The weather is sunny during the days 0:01:46.680 --> 0:01:48.320 and it rains a little bit at night, but we've 0:01:48.320 --> 0:01:51.640 had crazy waves like today. These waves are and there's 0:01:51.640 --> 0:01:55.000 an electrical storms a lot, and I love an electrical storm. 0:01:55.400 --> 0:01:58.200 But then I've been hearing about all these people getting electrocuted, 0:01:58.240 --> 0:02:00.800 so I'm now scared of electrical story. You were you 0:02:00.800 --> 0:02:03.240 saying somebody died from an electrical storm that was like 0:02:03.240 --> 0:02:06.240 two miles away. Yes, yes, I've heard a friend of 0:02:06.240 --> 0:02:09.520 a friend her husband was electrocuted. Then on my on 0:02:09.600 --> 0:02:12.360 the island of Majorca, there was an electrical storm and 0:02:12.400 --> 0:02:15.760 two men were electrocuted. And so I usually sleep with 0:02:15.760 --> 0:02:18.520 my window open, and now I am like every time 0:02:18.560 --> 0:02:20.600 there's a storm, I'm like, I better shut that window 0:02:20.639 --> 0:02:24.880 because the lightning is coming after us. It's like sharks. 0:02:24.919 --> 0:02:27.520 Like sharks were bothering us for a while, and guess 0:02:27.520 --> 0:02:30.359 what they are bothering us now? Because of climate change. 0:02:30.480 --> 0:02:33.200 I believe. I believe everything is to blame on climate change. 0:02:33.560 --> 0:02:36.320 That's my new theory about everything. Can I tell you 0:02:36.360 --> 0:02:38.600 something I think I heard in the night with my 0:02:38.680 --> 0:02:41.400 window open. Oh my god, was it a sexual act? 0:02:42.520 --> 0:02:45.080 I mean it might have been, actually, but I think 0:02:45.320 --> 0:02:47.679 for the last two nights I have heard of whales 0:02:48.600 --> 0:02:53.520 from the ocean. But also it sounds like whale sounds underwater, 0:02:53.800 --> 0:02:56.440 So maybe I am hallucinating at four in the morning. 0:02:56.520 --> 0:02:59.760 Are you taking them a lot of edibles here? Mushrooms? 0:02:59.760 --> 0:03:03.560 What of you ingested so far? Well, we did have 0:03:03.639 --> 0:03:07.560 some mushrooms on one of the first evenings. My favorite 0:03:07.600 --> 0:03:10.200 moment from that was when we were all giggling and 0:03:10.280 --> 0:03:13.160 laughing and having dinner on the terrorists, and we thought 0:03:13.160 --> 0:03:17.040 we heard the most lovely man singing opera music and 0:03:17.080 --> 0:03:18.760 we went to go check it out. We leaned over 0:03:18.800 --> 0:03:21.840 the terrace wall and we heard a man walking by, 0:03:22.000 --> 0:03:29.000 just going We thought it was opera. It was my 0:03:29.040 --> 0:03:31.960 favorite moment. My cousin Molly was like, Chelsea, can you 0:03:31.960 --> 0:03:34.920 please turn the music off? I think I hear opera 0:03:35.320 --> 0:03:38.080 so seriously, and I just was like, oh, shut up. 0:03:38.080 --> 0:03:39.480 First all, do you know how long it takes me 0:03:39.520 --> 0:03:42.040 to get the fucking music on with fucking son Nos? 0:03:42.480 --> 0:03:46.400 I hate sons. I've named my baby Sons. He's upstairs 0:03:46.400 --> 0:03:48.880 in the crib in my closet and I tape his 0:03:48.920 --> 0:03:51.760 mouth shut every night so that he can't work, just 0:03:51.840 --> 0:03:54.640 like my son Nos can't work. I don't know if 0:03:54.680 --> 0:03:58.480 I have an electrical charge within me that speaking of electricution, 0:03:58.920 --> 0:04:02.400 I don't know if I'm there's something that happens when 0:04:02.440 --> 0:04:05.440 I touch music that makes it stop working. Anyway, we 0:04:05.480 --> 0:04:08.080 turned it off so we could hear opera, only to 0:04:08.080 --> 0:04:11.160 find out that there was a man drunk in the street. 0:04:12.800 --> 0:04:19.240 La la la. But it sounded so beautiful to us. Yeah, yeah, yeah, 0:04:19.440 --> 0:04:22.960 Well I'm glad everyone's partaking. We do need more drugs 0:04:23.000 --> 0:04:26.440 though this is a very light drug vacation. I wasn't prepared. 0:04:26.520 --> 0:04:29.080 I just assumed people would bring them like they always do, 0:04:29.160 --> 0:04:31.599 and not enough people did. We all just assumed you 0:04:31.600 --> 0:04:34.039 would bring them yeah, well I'm out. I've been here 0:04:34.080 --> 0:04:36.360 for about a month. I did. When I ask you 0:04:36.400 --> 0:04:41.240 this of your time in Ma Yorka, what was your worst, 0:04:41.800 --> 0:04:46.680 your weirdest, and your best experience? So far? My worst experience, 0:04:46.800 --> 0:04:52.560 Let's think about worst experience other than oh so nos. Yeah. Well, 0:04:52.640 --> 0:04:56.640 let's see, I've been doing a lot of biking, so 0:04:56.839 --> 0:04:59.680 I think the day that we pushed it too far 0:05:00.080 --> 0:05:03.160 probably would be one of my worst, not worst experiences. 0:05:03.400 --> 0:05:07.279 Worst experiences here, I guess, are biking experiences. I probably 0:05:07.320 --> 0:05:10.680 biked like something like sixty miles and I'm pretty sure 0:05:10.680 --> 0:05:12.480 I had heat stroke and I went to bed at 0:05:12.480 --> 0:05:14.560 six thirty. We had a chef that night coming in, 0:05:15.000 --> 0:05:18.599 this woman, Dorothea, who's incredible, and I went to sleep. 0:05:18.760 --> 0:05:20.880 I went upstairs to take a nap and warned everybody 0:05:20.920 --> 0:05:22.760 that if I went down for a nap, I might 0:05:22.800 --> 0:05:26.040 not get back up, which is exactly what happened. And 0:05:26.120 --> 0:05:29.479 every time she comes, I've had heat stroke, or I've 0:05:29.520 --> 0:05:33.039 been sick or dehydrated or too drunk or something that 0:05:33.080 --> 0:05:35.800 I couldn't have dinner. So Dorothea just thinks I'm a 0:05:35.839 --> 0:05:38.760 hot mess um and I'm fine with that. So I 0:05:38.760 --> 0:05:41.240 guess I wouldn't call that worst, but that was the most, 0:05:41.800 --> 0:05:44.560 not the worst. My body felt like I felt like 0:05:44.600 --> 0:05:47.240 I was sick and I had heat stroke. My best 0:05:47.360 --> 0:05:51.760 experience would also involve a bike ride. Oh, scuba diving. 0:05:51.760 --> 0:05:54.240 I've been scuba diving three or four times since I've 0:05:54.240 --> 0:05:56.760 been here, and that's been awesome because that used to 0:05:56.839 --> 0:05:59.880 scare the ship out of me. And then the strangest 0:06:00.040 --> 0:06:05.160 experience is that what you asked the strangest, Oh, I was, well, 0:06:05.240 --> 0:06:07.320 not strangest, but it was funny. I was at to see. 0:06:07.360 --> 0:06:09.120 I was at this kind of little yacht club the 0:06:09.120 --> 0:06:11.320 other night we all went a group of my girlfriends. 0:06:11.360 --> 0:06:14.240 Before this group came, my group from Whistler was here, 0:06:14.760 --> 0:06:16.160 and we went to the out club and there was 0:06:16.200 --> 0:06:18.200 this guy having a private party and I went in 0:06:18.320 --> 0:06:20.760 and to order a drink and he's like, are you 0:06:20.800 --> 0:06:22.400 with the party? And I was like no, and he 0:06:22.480 --> 0:06:24.680 like motioned for me to like get the funk out, 0:06:24.720 --> 0:06:27.880 and I was like okay. And then as I was 0:06:27.920 --> 0:06:30.960 walking out, somebody's like, I think that was Chelsea Handler 0:06:31.560 --> 0:06:33.600 and I went down to sit at a different area 0:06:33.640 --> 0:06:36.200 and then slowly, one by one, the entire party came 0:06:36.200 --> 0:06:38.280 down to my area, and that guy was left by 0:06:38.360 --> 0:06:42.080 himself at his own party. So that was actually one 0:06:42.120 --> 0:06:45.040 of my best experiences now that I'm thinking about it. 0:06:45.760 --> 0:06:48.320 I liked when that happened. That was very funny because 0:06:48.360 --> 0:06:50.640 I didn't argue. I just was like, Okay, buddy, I 0:06:50.680 --> 0:06:53.320 don't need to be at your party. And then I 0:06:53.400 --> 0:06:55.360 was like, but guess where the party's going to end up? 0:06:56.040 --> 0:06:58.359 All his friends wanted to be at your party. Yeah, 0:06:58.520 --> 0:07:00.360 so that was good. I did like when we were 0:07:00.400 --> 0:07:03.560 walking along to dinner the other night and two girls, 0:07:03.600 --> 0:07:06.719 two American girls, stopped you and like, we're just such 0:07:06.800 --> 0:07:09.520 big fans, You're amazing. And then one of them that 0:07:09.600 --> 0:07:11.880 we were passing by them, and one of them was like, 0:07:12.080 --> 0:07:14.360 can we can we maybe get a pick? And her 0:07:14.400 --> 0:07:17.120 friend just cut her off and goes, no, we're not 0:07:17.320 --> 0:07:21.160 doing that, and we all cheered. We're like, this friend 0:07:21.440 --> 0:07:24.200 knew what was up, did her friend of salad? It 0:07:24.240 --> 0:07:26.720 was great. Yeah, I like that. I like when somebody 0:07:26.760 --> 0:07:34.280 interrupts that, it's like that's not necessary. That way, you 0:07:34.320 --> 0:07:37.120 have an even better story, like we didn't interrupt her evening. 0:07:37.440 --> 0:07:39.200 I'm excited for the jet lag that I'm going to 0:07:39.320 --> 0:07:41.160 have that we're all going to have when we go home, 0:07:41.280 --> 0:07:43.200 but probably mine will be the worst because I've been 0:07:43.200 --> 0:07:45.840 here for so long, for a whole month, that I 0:07:45.880 --> 0:07:48.200 will be waking up at three thirty to four o'clock 0:07:48.240 --> 0:07:50.640 in the morning for the next probably month and a half. 0:07:51.080 --> 0:07:54.040 You also are flying back and you have a show 0:07:54.080 --> 0:07:57.160 the next day. I don't know how You're Mountain Winery 0:07:57.480 --> 0:07:59.760 sold out though, but I do have lots of shows 0:07:59.760 --> 0:08:04.120 coming up in October and November. Yeah, so I'm you 0:08:04.120 --> 0:08:06.520 could check Chelsea Handler dot com. And then there's I'm 0:08:06.560 --> 0:08:10.480 doing tons of dates and Passa Robliss, California, Baker's Field, 0:08:10.600 --> 0:08:14.800 I'm doing Tampa, Florida. I'm doing Daytona Beach, Florida. I'm 0:08:14.840 --> 0:08:16.880 going to all the hot spots you guys that I 0:08:16.920 --> 0:08:19.880 haven't hit already on this tour. I would also like 0:08:19.960 --> 0:08:23.600 to point out that you are doing what we now 0:08:23.720 --> 0:08:26.080 know because of many emails that I have gotten. Thank you. 0:08:26.120 --> 0:08:30.800 Pennsylvania is announced reading Pennsylvania. Yes, yes, I'm sorry. I've 0:08:30.840 --> 0:08:32.839 been mispronouncing that and I've gotten a lot of d 0:08:33.000 --> 0:08:35.120 m s about that as well. In addition to all 0:08:35.120 --> 0:08:39.440 the photos of feet that I get now of bare feet, 0:08:39.480 --> 0:08:43.520 on airplanes, bare feet in lounges, bare feet at airports, 0:08:43.600 --> 0:08:47.400 bare feet at movie theaters, bare feet at live concert events. 0:08:48.080 --> 0:08:51.320 I have been bombarded with bare feet fit pictures of 0:08:51.360 --> 0:08:53.440 bear feet. Honestly, you just need to start an only 0:08:53.440 --> 0:08:56.200 fans and start uploading them. I mean, well, I do 0:08:56.320 --> 0:08:58.560 need to start an only fans because I'm ready to 0:08:58.559 --> 0:09:01.280 have sex on camera, but to do only fans without 0:09:01.320 --> 0:09:04.200 sex like they're like fetish people are like, this is 0:09:04.240 --> 0:09:06.600 my cooking show on only fans. I think that's what 0:09:06.640 --> 0:09:10.560 it's like, even though that's what I'll be doing, that's 0:09:10.559 --> 0:09:15.440 what it's for. It's time. Well, you're ready to take 0:09:15.440 --> 0:09:19.679 some question. I am always Well, let's take a quick 0:09:19.760 --> 0:09:26.920 break and we'll be back with our first questions. And 0:09:26.960 --> 0:09:32.200 we're back here we are, So our first question comes 0:09:32.520 --> 0:09:37.560 from Natalie. Natalie says, Dear Chelsea, this is probably the 0:09:37.640 --> 0:09:40.920 pettiest email you'll get. I started a new job about 0:09:40.920 --> 0:09:43.720 two months ago, and even though I have never introduced 0:09:43.720 --> 0:09:48.240 myself as such, absolutely every single person calls me Nat. 0:09:48.880 --> 0:09:51.000 I hate it and it makes me cringe, and no 0:09:51.000 --> 0:09:53.679 one in my personal life calls me that. Is it 0:09:53.679 --> 0:09:55.920 too late to correct people? Or is this just something 0:09:55.960 --> 0:09:58.000 I now have to live with, or do I quit 0:09:58.400 --> 0:10:05.679 respectfully yours Natalie Natalie emphasis on the alley. No, you 0:10:05.720 --> 0:10:11.079 could just do I quit. I like that, it's that 0:10:11.240 --> 0:10:13.880 horrible for her. I no, No, I understand when you're 0:10:13.920 --> 0:10:16.000 not called the right name. Well, no, actually I don't, 0:10:16.040 --> 0:10:18.200 because people call me Chelsea and I don't really care 0:10:18.240 --> 0:10:20.880 about that. But if you do care about Nat instead 0:10:20.880 --> 0:10:24.400 of Natalie, just correct them. Just tell them you prefer 0:10:24.520 --> 0:10:26.880 to be called Natalie and that you had an uncle 0:10:27.000 --> 0:10:30.200 named Nat that you know didn't turn out great or something. 0:10:30.280 --> 0:10:32.480 If you need an excuse, but you don't, really it's 0:10:32.520 --> 0:10:38.760 your name, Yeah, you hated not Cain Cole. No, you 0:10:38.760 --> 0:10:42.000 should just tell people. Yeah. See, I get this because 0:10:42.120 --> 0:10:45.760 I get called occasionally Cathy and I'm like, no, that's no, 0:10:46.559 --> 0:10:49.320 it's not me. Or you know, sometimes Pop will call 0:10:49.360 --> 0:10:51.400 me Cat, which like is kind of fine, but I 0:10:51.400 --> 0:10:54.120 don't prefer to go by it. I prefer Catherine. But 0:10:54.440 --> 0:10:56.880 I have a hard time correcting people in the moment 0:10:57.120 --> 0:11:00.960 because of my Midwestern nice But I in Natalie honestly. 0:11:01.000 --> 0:11:05.480 Since it's workplace, maybe it could involve like a small 0:11:06.280 --> 0:11:11.360 funny workplace memo email or you know, something that goes around. 0:11:11.559 --> 0:11:14.240 Everyone's a great idea. Yeah, make it funny. Send everyone 0:11:14.280 --> 0:11:16.520 email goo. I know everyone started to call me Nat, 0:11:16.640 --> 0:11:18.840 and I have a real issue with that name for 0:11:18.920 --> 0:11:22.319 reasons I cannot explain. In this memo, can you please 0:11:22.360 --> 0:11:25.720 refer to me as with my full name? Yeah, so, like, 0:11:25.800 --> 0:11:28.240 you know, make it light, make it silly, but like 0:11:28.280 --> 0:11:31.680 that way everyone gets the picture all at once, or 0:11:31.720 --> 0:11:33.400 you know, when you meet people just saying like, oh, 0:11:33.440 --> 0:11:36.880 you know what, Actually people refer to me as Natalie 0:11:37.679 --> 0:11:42.679 two months in. I think it's due for a funny memo. Yeah, well, Natalie, 0:11:43.080 --> 0:11:47.480 your problem is solved, Okay, Natalie. I like how she 0:11:47.559 --> 0:11:50.000 opened that with this might be the pettiest question we've 0:11:50.040 --> 0:11:52.600 ever gotten, But I don't think petty. I don't think 0:11:52.600 --> 0:11:55.800 petty is the right word. But it's the least consequential 0:11:56.480 --> 0:11:59.320 email we've gotten. But I love that, Like it's okay 0:11:59.360 --> 0:12:03.280 to sense off that's not all about trauma. Yeah, well 0:12:03.400 --> 0:12:05.920 we're yeah exactly. It's a nice breath of fresh air. 0:12:06.520 --> 0:12:11.319 We need like questions sometimes, guys. Our next question comes 0:12:11.600 --> 0:12:16.240 from Lisa. Lisa. Oh, and by the way, our theme 0:12:16.360 --> 0:12:21.040 for today's episode is that colors from Europe because we're here, 0:12:21.080 --> 0:12:23.959 there's a time differential, and you know we wanted to 0:12:24.000 --> 0:12:28.959 record in the mornings. We've got European callers. Okay, dear Chelsea. 0:12:29.640 --> 0:12:31.960 My name is Sanna. I'm almost thirty years old and 0:12:32.000 --> 0:12:34.360 I live in Belgium with my wife and dog. All 0:12:34.360 --> 0:12:36.640 my life, I've been different than the rest, not that 0:12:36.720 --> 0:12:38.760 I ever really cared about that, but I do a 0:12:38.760 --> 0:12:41.080 lot of self reflection and sometimes I feel like too 0:12:41.160 --> 0:12:44.080 much of an outcast. I had a pretty traumatic and 0:12:44.120 --> 0:12:46.640 heavy past and tried therapy a few times because I 0:12:46.679 --> 0:12:49.520 tend to self destruct. I stopped going since it was 0:12:49.559 --> 0:12:51.800 so expensive and I wasn't clicking with any of them. 0:12:51.960 --> 0:12:54.000 I started smoking weed a few years ago and it 0:12:54.040 --> 0:12:57.840 has helped with my depression and anxiety. A few psychologists 0:12:57.920 --> 0:13:00.840 hinted that I have a d h D after reading 0:13:00.840 --> 0:13:02.400 as much as I could find about it. I do 0:13:02.520 --> 0:13:04.720 think the same, but it always felt more than that 0:13:04.800 --> 0:13:07.520 to me. After hanging out in the dog park one 0:13:07.600 --> 0:13:10.520 day with a lovely lady that was on LSD at 0:13:10.520 --> 0:13:14.679 the moment, she hinted that I seemed to be on 0:13:14.720 --> 0:13:17.800 the spectrum. She felt like that because she also is. 0:13:18.160 --> 0:13:20.800 I was convinced I wasn't and did an online test 0:13:20.920 --> 0:13:23.480 to see if I had similarities. I scored the second 0:13:23.520 --> 0:13:26.280 to the highest score on this test. It kind of 0:13:26.280 --> 0:13:29.200 wrecked me already knowing that I might be on the spectrum, 0:13:29.240 --> 0:13:31.240 But now I don't know how I feel about actually 0:13:31.280 --> 0:13:34.160 getting diagnosed properly. In a way, it would help me 0:13:34.200 --> 0:13:37.480 with my relationship with my wife and especially myself, maybe 0:13:37.520 --> 0:13:39.520 I would be less hard on myself, but it also 0:13:39.600 --> 0:13:42.280 freaks me out. And it's so expensive to get diagnosed, 0:13:42.320 --> 0:13:44.640 So I'm hesitant. What should I do? Go for it 0:13:44.679 --> 0:13:48.080 and get tested. I'm really lost love Sanna and she's 0:13:48.120 --> 0:13:53.040 here with us. Hi, Sanna, Hi, how are you? I'm 0:13:53.080 --> 0:13:56.480 really good on you good, very good. We're excited to 0:13:56.520 --> 0:14:01.600 be talking to you today. So oh, I love your story. 0:14:01.720 --> 0:14:03.400 First of all, that you've got a woman in the park. 0:14:03.440 --> 0:14:05.720 It was on LSD who may have diagnosed you as 0:14:05.760 --> 0:14:07.520 being on the spectrum. I didn't realize that it was 0:14:07.559 --> 0:14:10.400 that expensive to get diagnosed. What's the situation with that? 0:14:11.080 --> 0:14:15.400 So it costs like a thousand euros just to get diagnosed, 0:14:15.400 --> 0:14:17.880 and then you didn't even have like any help or 0:14:17.920 --> 0:14:21.160 any guidance, or they just sell you if you have 0:14:21.200 --> 0:14:23.600 it or not? And what kind of testing is that? 0:14:23.920 --> 0:14:25.800 Is that through a doctor? Is it that through a 0:14:25.840 --> 0:14:28.800 government agency? Like? What is that? Yeah, it's like with 0:14:28.880 --> 0:14:31.440 psychologists and and it takes a few days, so it's 0:14:31.440 --> 0:14:33.960 like proper testing, like they test you on everything. It's 0:14:34.000 --> 0:14:36.200 not just like for the autim or the d h D. 0:14:36.360 --> 0:14:38.160 So it's good because then you know, like if you 0:14:38.160 --> 0:14:41.840 have the full package. You know, But it's expensive, you know, 0:14:41.960 --> 0:14:44.920 I think it's really expensive. No, it does sound expensive. 0:14:45.120 --> 0:14:48.880 Is that something you can afford? Um? I could? Yeah, 0:14:49.080 --> 0:14:52.240 I don't want to, right, right, But do you not 0:14:52.400 --> 0:14:53.920 want to because of the money or do you not 0:14:54.000 --> 0:14:57.040 want to because you're hesitant about finding out the results. 0:14:57.640 --> 0:15:00.080 I think it's a little bit of both. People of 0:15:00.240 --> 0:15:02.600 like such a thought, like they already have a judgment 0:15:02.680 --> 0:15:06.640 about autism. And there's a lot of freedom in knowing 0:15:06.840 --> 0:15:09.360 what your diagnosis is, you know what I mean. It 0:15:09.400 --> 0:15:12.280 opens up a lot to understand yourself and to have 0:15:12.320 --> 0:15:15.760 a better understanding, Like I have my friend who diagnosed 0:15:15.840 --> 0:15:19.280 her husband with autism. She just kind of realized, oh 0:15:19.440 --> 0:15:21.040 and saw all the signs and asked him if he 0:15:21.040 --> 0:15:23.160 wanted to get his testing, And once he found out 0:15:23.200 --> 0:15:25.720 he had it, he understood all the things that he 0:15:25.800 --> 0:15:28.840 wasn't connecting. You know, there's a spectrum. We're all on 0:15:28.880 --> 0:15:30.960 the spectrum. I joke with my friends all the time 0:15:31.000 --> 0:15:33.040 because it's like one of us is, you know, on 0:15:33.040 --> 0:15:34.600 one end of the spectrum, the other one is on 0:15:34.640 --> 0:15:36.680 the other end of the spectrum. But it's like, these 0:15:36.720 --> 0:15:41.120 aren't shameful diagnoses anymore. It's powerful to know, just as 0:15:41.120 --> 0:15:42.440 powerful as it is to know if you have a 0:15:42.440 --> 0:15:45.920 personality disorder, if you have a d D, how a 0:15:46.040 --> 0:15:49.200 d h D plays into something like autism, and how 0:15:49.240 --> 0:15:52.680 those two things work in conjunction. Like what do you 0:15:52.800 --> 0:15:56.040 notice about yourself and your personality traits that would lead 0:15:56.080 --> 0:15:59.200 you to think that you were autistic or have a 0:15:59.280 --> 0:16:04.240 d h D. I think I'm a very socially awkward person, 0:16:04.720 --> 0:16:08.080 Like I mimic a lot of situations from TV and 0:16:08.120 --> 0:16:10.960 like watching people, So in my head it's like, oh, 0:16:11.000 --> 0:16:13.120 that's how you talk to people, or like that's how 0:16:13.160 --> 0:16:16.360 you behave or my wife were together for seven years 0:16:16.360 --> 0:16:18.120 now and she helped me so much all the time. 0:16:18.160 --> 0:16:19.600 She has to like kick me in and be like 0:16:19.800 --> 0:16:22.560 you can't say that that's rude, or like you're weird. 0:16:22.760 --> 0:16:25.280 You don't react in this way, and I'm like, oh funk, yeah, 0:16:25.360 --> 0:16:27.080 and then I look it up and I'm like, oh yeah, 0:16:28.160 --> 0:16:31.040 so weird, Like wow, how could I not think about it? 0:16:31.320 --> 0:16:34.160 And like my emotions in general, I tend to spiral 0:16:34.200 --> 0:16:38.600 into an emotion or I'm emotionless, or I spiral in 0:16:38.680 --> 0:16:42.880 one emotion and I have like a breakdown things like that. 0:16:42.960 --> 0:16:45.720 I just have a lot of anxiety if things that 0:16:45.880 --> 0:16:48.680 don't go according to how we will go in my head, 0:16:48.800 --> 0:16:51.080 like I tend to like creak out a little bit 0:16:52.400 --> 0:16:56.400 since I had such a heavy past and I I 0:16:56.440 --> 0:16:59.280 had to grow up really fast, so I learned how 0:16:59.280 --> 0:17:01.760 to do a lot of stuff. So I realized, like, oh, 0:17:01.800 --> 0:17:04.600 I'm what they call masking. I feel like I've been 0:17:04.640 --> 0:17:07.159 masking a lot in my life and I feel like 0:17:07.200 --> 0:17:11.600 I'm always almost underwater, like trying to breathe, and I 0:17:11.640 --> 0:17:13.480 think that has a lot to do with it, and 0:17:13.600 --> 0:17:18.160 maybe being diagnosed and finally know like okay, like it's 0:17:18.160 --> 0:17:20.600 all masking, Like it's normal that you're like this. Maybe 0:17:20.600 --> 0:17:23.280 it will make me like breath after a while. I 0:17:23.280 --> 0:17:26.080 don't know. And are you taking any medication for your 0:17:26.119 --> 0:17:32.240 a d h D. Nice smoke smoke weed. Yeah, yeah, yeah, 0:17:32.280 --> 0:17:35.440 I think you should definitely just use the money get diagnosed. 0:17:35.480 --> 0:17:37.879 It's going to give you a lot more freedom. It 0:17:37.920 --> 0:17:40.479 feels like what you're talking about, you're kind of stuck, 0:17:40.560 --> 0:17:42.760 like when you said you're underwater. It would be so 0:17:42.880 --> 0:17:45.400 nice to be above water and not have that feeling anymore. 0:17:45.400 --> 0:17:48.640 And there's a lot of liberty that comes with understanding 0:17:49.119 --> 0:17:52.280 your personality. And there's no shame in that, you know 0:17:52.280 --> 0:17:54.520 what I mean, Like you don't have to tell everybody 0:17:54.560 --> 0:17:57.040 that you're autistic or you're that you're on the spectrum, 0:17:57.080 --> 0:18:00.280 if that's what you end up being. I know in America, uh, 0:18:00.560 --> 0:18:03.720 everyone's talking about this right now, and everyone's interested, and 0:18:03.760 --> 0:18:06.639 everyone's curious, and if anyone's on the spectrum, they do 0:18:06.720 --> 0:18:09.639 want to know about it. And maybe it's taking a 0:18:09.720 --> 0:18:11.840 little bit of a longer time to get to Europe 0:18:11.880 --> 0:18:14.160 in that way, but I think that you should embrace it. 0:18:14.240 --> 0:18:17.320 You know, it's nothing to not be proud of. Autistic 0:18:17.359 --> 0:18:21.120 people have so much to offer and it's so like you, 0:18:21.119 --> 0:18:23.119 You have things to offer that people who think in 0:18:23.160 --> 0:18:26.159 a linear way and that don't suffer from that social 0:18:26.200 --> 0:18:29.879 anxiety aren't offering up you know, because that's considered normal, 0:18:30.280 --> 0:18:33.000 whereas what you're considered what what you have is a 0:18:33.000 --> 0:18:36.639 different version of being normal, you know, And there's probably 0:18:36.680 --> 0:18:39.720 a large community of people once you find out what 0:18:39.840 --> 0:18:43.159 your exact diagnosis is that you can connect with, so 0:18:43.240 --> 0:18:45.600 you don't feel so alone and you don't feel so 0:18:45.920 --> 0:18:50.159 unique and abnormal so to speak. Mm hmm, yeah, that 0:18:50.240 --> 0:18:52.679 makes sense. And I would also say, you've had this 0:18:52.760 --> 0:18:56.240 confirmation from like a lady on LSD and an online test, 0:18:56.800 --> 0:18:59.240 official testing might be a great way to go, but 0:18:59.359 --> 0:19:02.040 you might all so because I know you're sort of like, well, 0:19:02.080 --> 0:19:04.680 that doesn't give me any treatment, that's just the confirmation. 0:19:05.119 --> 0:19:08.119 So you might maybe potentially skip a little bit of 0:19:08.119 --> 0:19:11.159 a step and talk to a therapist who specializes and 0:19:11.160 --> 0:19:13.359 people who are on the spectrum, and they might be 0:19:13.400 --> 0:19:15.400 able to after interacting with you for a little while 0:19:15.520 --> 0:19:17.399 kind of sort of tell you if you need to 0:19:17.440 --> 0:19:20.919 get official testing and get a real diagnosis, or you know, 0:19:20.920 --> 0:19:23.280 whether they can just start treating you because they'll be 0:19:23.280 --> 0:19:25.760 able to see some of those signs. But I really 0:19:25.880 --> 0:19:27.840 think with anything like this because I have a d 0:19:28.040 --> 0:19:32.159 h D and it's something that I didn't I was 0:19:32.280 --> 0:19:34.480 very lucky, like I found out that I had a 0:19:34.560 --> 0:19:37.320 d h D amongst a group of people who also 0:19:37.400 --> 0:19:41.440 had a d h D, and we're super successful entrepreneurs, 0:19:41.520 --> 0:19:46.520 interesting people, And in that context, it was like, that's 0:19:46.560 --> 0:19:49.720 a superpower. We know how to get things done, we 0:19:49.800 --> 0:19:53.080 know how to start projects where leaders, all these wonderful things. 0:19:53.520 --> 0:19:56.040 And I really think that some of these things that 0:19:56.119 --> 0:19:58.840 are posed as limitations in a lot of ways can 0:19:58.880 --> 0:20:03.639 absolutely become superpowers. But you can't find the tools to 0:20:03.840 --> 0:20:07.000 help you until you kind of know whether that's what 0:20:07.040 --> 0:20:10.639 you're dealing with or not. Yeah, that's true, that makes sense. 0:20:11.320 --> 0:20:13.600 Do you take medication for a d h D, Catherine, 0:20:14.040 --> 0:20:16.879 I don't take medication. I've tried it a little bit, 0:20:16.960 --> 0:20:19.120 but it kind of made me feel a little bit, 0:20:19.440 --> 0:20:23.480 almost like hyper focused, And yeah, I had the same. Yeah. 0:20:23.640 --> 0:20:27.480 For me, it's more about having built in tools around me. So, 0:20:27.520 --> 0:20:30.400 for example, I make excessive lists. A lot of people 0:20:30.440 --> 0:20:32.480 don't like to make a list, but you know, any 0:20:32.600 --> 0:20:35.239 time I need to remember something or something comes up, 0:20:35.280 --> 0:20:37.600 I write it down if I need to follow up 0:20:37.600 --> 0:20:41.480 on it, because otherwise it's gone yes, And I love 0:20:41.520 --> 0:20:44.800 to write ship down that already did yes exactly, and 0:20:44.800 --> 0:20:47.760 then I get the satisfaction of crossing it off, it's delightful. 0:20:49.040 --> 0:20:50.919 Or for example, you know, if I'm talking to a 0:20:50.920 --> 0:20:52.600 friend at a party and I'm like, oh my gosh, 0:20:52.640 --> 0:20:55.840 you gotta check out this Netflix documentary or whatever, I'll 0:20:55.840 --> 0:20:57.800 be like, text me tomorrow and I'll let you know, 0:20:57.840 --> 0:20:59.560 because i know I'm never going to remember the scent 0:20:59.680 --> 0:21:02.280 it um. So it's just about like building in those 0:21:02.280 --> 0:21:06.000 tools to help you relate to others, to help you 0:21:06.040 --> 0:21:09.480