1 00:00:00,080 --> 00:00:15,000 Speaker 1: The Nikki Glaser n Hello, welcome to the show. How's 2 00:00:15,000 --> 00:00:18,079 Speaker 1: it going out there, everyone? Thank you so much for listening. 3 00:00:18,160 --> 00:00:23,000 Speaker 1: I'm so excited to talk to you today. UM. Getting 4 00:00:23,040 --> 00:00:25,560 Speaker 1: so many messages from people who listen to the show 5 00:00:25,840 --> 00:00:28,639 Speaker 1: saying that they look forward to it every day and 6 00:00:28,680 --> 00:00:30,760 Speaker 1: it just means so much to me. So I hope 7 00:00:30,760 --> 00:00:33,080 Speaker 1: you're in a good mood that the show is just begne. 8 00:00:33,120 --> 00:00:35,680 Speaker 1: We got a good one for you today. UM. You know, 9 00:00:35,760 --> 00:00:37,559 Speaker 1: we're gonna do a Reddit dump later. I got some 10 00:00:37,600 --> 00:00:39,519 Speaker 1: good stuff to show you. We're gonna go over that 11 00:00:39,680 --> 00:00:43,240 Speaker 1: video that is UM that we talked about yesterday that 12 00:00:43,680 --> 00:00:45,879 Speaker 1: I discovered over the weekend that I think should be 13 00:00:46,240 --> 00:00:48,760 Speaker 1: you know, mandatory viewing for the world. To make the 14 00:00:48,800 --> 00:00:54,600 Speaker 1: world a better place, sometimes you need to be reminded that, um, 15 00:00:54,640 --> 00:00:57,640 Speaker 1: that you need to go the extra mile to or 16 00:00:57,720 --> 00:01:01,800 Speaker 1: just like step out of your comfort zone to help others, 17 00:01:01,840 --> 00:01:05,679 Speaker 1: and that helping others feel so damn good. That was 18 00:01:05,720 --> 00:01:09,039 Speaker 1: like the biggest realization to me. And getting into kind 19 00:01:09,040 --> 00:01:14,000 Speaker 1: of recovery uh language and like learning stuff and in 20 00:01:14,440 --> 00:01:18,000 Speaker 1: those kind of from those people that have been you know, 21 00:01:18,080 --> 00:01:22,920 Speaker 1: twelve step eat type stuff, is that when you do 22 00:01:23,200 --> 00:01:26,839 Speaker 1: good for others and step outside yourself. It makes you 23 00:01:26,959 --> 00:01:30,440 Speaker 1: feel better and less depressed and less anxious. And I 24 00:01:30,560 --> 00:01:32,800 Speaker 1: just that always just seemed like something to me. That's 25 00:01:32,800 --> 00:01:35,240 Speaker 1: like people just say that so it encourages people to 26 00:01:35,280 --> 00:01:38,480 Speaker 1: do more good, but it really does because it's not 27 00:01:38,560 --> 00:01:40,640 Speaker 1: so much about the act of doing good and being like, oh, 28 00:01:40,640 --> 00:01:42,600 Speaker 1: I'm such a good person, I feel better. It's more 29 00:01:42,680 --> 00:01:45,920 Speaker 1: just it makes you forget that you're this your It 30 00:01:46,040 --> 00:01:49,680 Speaker 1: makes you forget about your worries. So it's it's hard 31 00:01:49,680 --> 00:01:51,680 Speaker 1: to remember though, man, when you're having a bad day 32 00:01:51,880 --> 00:01:54,640 Speaker 1: or really in your own stuff of like my life 33 00:01:54,720 --> 00:01:58,000 Speaker 1: is just falling apart. It's hard to pick up the 34 00:01:58,040 --> 00:02:03,120 Speaker 1: phone or pick up some trash, or pick up dogshit 35 00:02:03,240 --> 00:02:06,080 Speaker 1: that your dog didn't make, or just do something that 36 00:02:06,280 --> 00:02:11,360 Speaker 1: is completely selfless. Um. But there's nothing worse. I really 37 00:02:11,360 --> 00:02:14,640 Speaker 1: hate picking up cold dogshit worse than warm dogshit, because 38 00:02:14,639 --> 00:02:17,640 Speaker 1: sometimes I do do that? Do do I do do that? 39 00:02:17,760 --> 00:02:21,400 Speaker 1: Where uh you know, Luigi will poop. I'll forget a bag, 40 00:02:21,760 --> 00:02:25,160 Speaker 1: there's no leaves around, there's no um, you know, sometimes 41 00:02:25,200 --> 00:02:26,720 Speaker 1: I just throw a mulch on it and then cover 42 00:02:26,760 --> 00:02:28,720 Speaker 1: it in mulch and then pick it up with the 43 00:02:29,080 --> 00:02:31,000 Speaker 1: like a big scoop of mults, so I don't touch it. 44 00:02:31,360 --> 00:02:33,680 Speaker 1: But there's nothing like that. So the other day I 45 00:02:33,680 --> 00:02:35,240 Speaker 1: didn't like he was a stick and I only got 46 00:02:35,320 --> 00:02:36,560 Speaker 1: half of it, and I was like, I had to 47 00:02:36,600 --> 00:02:38,519 Speaker 1: leave half his ship there, and I was like, Okay, 48 00:02:38,520 --> 00:02:42,640 Speaker 1: so tomorrow I'm gonna pick up someone else's ship. And boy, 49 00:02:43,639 --> 00:02:48,320 Speaker 1: that's just not as much as warm gooey ship is gross. 50 00:02:49,080 --> 00:02:51,680 Speaker 1: I've always said it. It's a little handwarmer, and I 51 00:02:51,720 --> 00:02:54,000 Speaker 1: don't mind it. I just don't mind it. And I 52 00:02:54,120 --> 00:02:57,800 Speaker 1: really don't like picking up like hardened old dog poop 53 00:02:58,680 --> 00:03:02,560 Speaker 1: like I even though that's like should be preferable and aren't. 54 00:03:02,680 --> 00:03:05,400 Speaker 1: Rocks are a lot of like rocks dinosaur poop or 55 00:03:05,400 --> 00:03:08,560 Speaker 1: something like that. I always remember being like you, it's 56 00:03:09,080 --> 00:03:14,079 Speaker 1: it's dino poop. UM. Always remember Laura Dern and Jurassic Park, 57 00:03:14,160 --> 00:03:17,400 Speaker 1: like digging in that big pile of ship, being like 58 00:03:17,480 --> 00:03:20,440 Speaker 1: she's sick or whatever. I don't know, Um, No, have 59 00:03:20,480 --> 00:03:23,200 Speaker 1: you seen Jurassic Park. I have seen Jurassic Park a 60 00:03:23,200 --> 00:03:27,160 Speaker 1: while ago. Did you like it? I mean, as a kid, 61 00:03:27,200 --> 00:03:29,800 Speaker 1: I liked it. I don't know if I could suspend 62 00:03:29,880 --> 00:03:33,560 Speaker 1: this belief as an adult m M. Yeah, I think 63 00:03:33,560 --> 00:03:35,640 Speaker 1: you could, because that's the whole point of it is 64 00:03:35,680 --> 00:03:38,080 Speaker 1: that they like walk you through the science of like 65 00:03:38,120 --> 00:03:40,720 Speaker 1: how it could be. You know, it's not just like 66 00:03:41,600 --> 00:03:44,680 Speaker 1: it's it's I feel like it. It presents a scenario 67 00:03:44,680 --> 00:03:48,520 Speaker 1: where you're like, I guess that could happen. Um what 68 00:03:49,160 --> 00:03:52,000 Speaker 1: I was just I guess it came on nineties three. 69 00:03:52,120 --> 00:03:53,720 Speaker 1: I want to say I'm pretty good about dates of 70 00:03:53,720 --> 00:03:57,040 Speaker 1: the nineties, and I bet you're right about it. I 71 00:03:57,080 --> 00:03:59,840 Speaker 1: was just like blown away by the meg like how 72 00:04:01,720 --> 00:04:04,840 Speaker 1: visually impressive it was. I remember the scene where Laura 73 00:04:04,880 --> 00:04:09,000 Speaker 1: Dern and they're seeing the dinosaurs for the first time 74 00:04:09,040 --> 00:04:12,120 Speaker 1: and they're in that like you know, door lest jeep 75 00:04:12,240 --> 00:04:16,200 Speaker 1: or whatever. Why I'm I don't know how you do this. 76 00:04:16,279 --> 00:04:20,120 Speaker 1: It is exactly should do more nineties early two thousands 77 00:04:20,160 --> 00:04:22,960 Speaker 1: trivia songs, any pop culture and I'll like, I'll get 78 00:04:23,000 --> 00:04:26,680 Speaker 1: you real close. Uh. I think that when I know 79 00:04:26,720 --> 00:04:29,479 Speaker 1: of just because it was like, were such a huge 80 00:04:29,520 --> 00:04:32,920 Speaker 1: deal cinematically or like, and I was a big I 81 00:04:32,960 --> 00:04:35,039 Speaker 1: like loved movies back in the day. I was voted 82 00:04:35,080 --> 00:04:37,080 Speaker 1: most likely to be Sisko and Ebert by my eighth 83 00:04:37,080 --> 00:04:42,640 Speaker 1: grade superlative and I was like, which one you know? Um, 84 00:04:42,680 --> 00:04:46,040 Speaker 1: but I guess just both. But I just remember being like, 85 00:04:46,480 --> 00:04:49,239 Speaker 1: I don't know. Movies used to like stay with me, dude, 86 00:04:49,279 --> 00:04:51,920 Speaker 1: Like they used to just for days. I would just 87 00:04:51,960 --> 00:04:53,960 Speaker 1: go to bed and I would daydream about like how 88 00:04:54,000 --> 00:04:55,720 Speaker 1: magnificent it was, and I couldn't wait for it to 89 00:04:55,760 --> 00:04:58,360 Speaker 1: come out on VHS and I would. I was moved 90 00:04:58,360 --> 00:05:02,479 Speaker 1: by Jurassic Park line can oh. But the scene and 91 00:05:02,520 --> 00:05:05,120 Speaker 1: in Dressed Park that stays with me more than any 92 00:05:05,480 --> 00:05:10,240 Speaker 1: um is the Braunosaurus is feeding and when they see 93 00:05:10,240 --> 00:05:13,560 Speaker 1: them first and they like go and they lift up 94 00:05:13,560 --> 00:05:15,400 Speaker 1: on their hind legs to like get the top of 95 00:05:15,440 --> 00:05:17,200 Speaker 1: the tree. I think I liked that scene because I 96 00:05:17,279 --> 00:05:19,080 Speaker 1: knew nothing bad was gonna happen because the music is 97 00:05:19,120 --> 00:05:24,640 Speaker 1: like no, it was just like safe music where you're like, okay, 98 00:05:24,680 --> 00:05:28,800 Speaker 1: I'm music. And whenever you're like worried in a movie, 99 00:05:29,400 --> 00:05:32,480 Speaker 1: it's because the music it's not about anything else. Generally, 100 00:05:32,520 --> 00:05:35,400 Speaker 1: like music really gets you. I didn't even know. I 101 00:05:35,400 --> 00:05:37,240 Speaker 1: don't notice it so much of the time because they 102 00:05:37,320 --> 00:05:43,440 Speaker 1: it's so deliberately but like you know, subconsciously tells you 103 00:05:43,440 --> 00:05:47,279 Speaker 1: how to feel so much of the time. Um, but yeah, 104 00:05:47,360 --> 00:05:49,599 Speaker 1: I was like I was just blown away. And you know, 105 00:05:49,640 --> 00:05:51,839 Speaker 1: she gets out of the car and she like takes 106 00:05:51,880 --> 00:05:54,720 Speaker 1: off her sunglasses like slowly, and it's just like that's 107 00:05:54,720 --> 00:05:56,840 Speaker 1: like one of my favorite scenes when she takes off 108 00:05:56,839 --> 00:05:59,279 Speaker 1: her sunglasses in amazement. That's how I felt watching that 109 00:05:59,360 --> 00:06:01,400 Speaker 1: scene and I was obsessed. I was just like I 110 00:06:01,440 --> 00:06:04,279 Speaker 1: can't believe, like it looks so real. It still holds 111 00:06:04,360 --> 00:06:07,200 Speaker 1: up too. Like that's the thing about dress of Marker. 112 00:06:07,240 --> 00:06:09,560 Speaker 1: That's cool. The c G I like, actually would I 113 00:06:09,560 --> 00:06:13,480 Speaker 1: think would be pretty impressive even now. Um and then 114 00:06:13,800 --> 00:06:17,440 Speaker 1: the Lion King, I just like all again, the magnitude 115 00:06:17,440 --> 00:06:21,440 Speaker 1: of the animals, Like I remember the like the um 116 00:06:21,960 --> 00:06:24,200 Speaker 1: what was the big there was some big stomping animal 117 00:06:24,320 --> 00:06:26,760 Speaker 1: and Simba's like dodging it as he's singing, and I 118 00:06:26,800 --> 00:06:28,720 Speaker 1: just was like, oh my god, they're so big, Like 119 00:06:29,080 --> 00:06:31,640 Speaker 1: I don't know, there's something about big things that really 120 00:06:31,640 --> 00:06:34,880 Speaker 1: blew my mind. I was obsessed with blue Whales and 121 00:06:35,000 --> 00:06:37,640 Speaker 1: nine eleven, like the magnitude of nine eleven, like the 122 00:06:37,680 --> 00:06:40,279 Speaker 1: bigness of nine eleven. Like I was listening to Sam 123 00:06:40,279 --> 00:06:44,039 Speaker 1: Harris podcast about it, like Andrew doesn't know anything about 124 00:06:44,040 --> 00:06:45,840 Speaker 1: like not that he doesn't know anything about nine eleven, 125 00:06:45,839 --> 00:06:48,720 Speaker 1: but he doesn't, Like, I just don't understand people that 126 00:06:48,760 --> 00:06:51,400 Speaker 1: aren't like obsessed with nine eleven, Like it is the 127 00:06:51,400 --> 00:06:55,320 Speaker 1: most insane thing that has ever happened. We didn't even 128 00:06:55,360 --> 00:06:58,680 Speaker 1: we've never seen a seven forty seven crash before, like 129 00:06:58,760 --> 00:07:01,920 Speaker 1: into something. There's no like footage of that ever. That's 130 00:07:01,960 --> 00:07:04,360 Speaker 1: why everyone thought it was like a cessna. No one 131 00:07:04,400 --> 00:07:08,200 Speaker 1: had seen a passenger jet flying into something. And and 132 00:07:08,240 --> 00:07:10,840 Speaker 1: the importance really of the second jet was like, that's 133 00:07:10,840 --> 00:07:15,880 Speaker 1: when we knew. The second plane was when everything really 134 00:07:16,120 --> 00:07:18,960 Speaker 1: fucking went off the rails, because that's when it was 135 00:07:19,000 --> 00:07:21,400 Speaker 1: a deliberate thing. Most everyone else thought it was like 136 00:07:21,440 --> 00:07:23,480 Speaker 1: an accident at first. That's why no one. Everyone goes, 137 00:07:23,480 --> 00:07:26,680 Speaker 1: why didn't they evacuate the you know, um whatever tower 138 00:07:26,760 --> 00:07:28,520 Speaker 1: was hit second? I don't know, like I know so 139 00:07:28,520 --> 00:07:33,080 Speaker 1: many things about nine eleven, except, um, the tower directions 140 00:07:33,080 --> 00:07:36,320 Speaker 1: because I'm bad with directions. But the second tower, that 141 00:07:36,680 --> 00:07:39,000 Speaker 1: the second tower to be hit, none of those people evacuated, 142 00:07:39,080 --> 00:07:41,840 Speaker 1: Like so many didn't evacuate because they just thought it 143 00:07:41,880 --> 00:07:43,680 Speaker 1: was an accident. And Andrew last night was like, why 144 00:07:43,720 --> 00:07:46,600 Speaker 1: wouldn't you evacuate? It's like because Why would you think 145 00:07:47,680 --> 00:07:51,120 Speaker 1: you're gonna, like just because your twin gets hit by 146 00:07:51,120 --> 00:07:53,000 Speaker 1: a car, Why would you think that you're going to 147 00:07:53,080 --> 00:07:55,720 Speaker 1: get hit by a car accidentally? You know, that's that's 148 00:07:55,760 --> 00:07:58,560 Speaker 1: the same kind of logic. And I think in in hindsights, 149 00:07:58,640 --> 00:08:00,440 Speaker 1: so much of us can be like I would have 150 00:08:00,520 --> 00:08:02,920 Speaker 1: done this. It's like you don't know what you would do. 151 00:08:03,120 --> 00:08:05,760 Speaker 1: You don't know what you would do. Grief is fascinating 152 00:08:05,840 --> 00:08:10,480 Speaker 1: and I've been really lucky to not have like a 153 00:08:10,520 --> 00:08:13,960 Speaker 1: lot of loss in my life, but you know, we 154 00:08:14,040 --> 00:08:18,400 Speaker 1: all will. And it's interesting. There was a psychologist or 155 00:08:18,440 --> 00:08:21,840 Speaker 1: psychiatrist or something that was talking about how when a 156 00:08:21,880 --> 00:08:27,040 Speaker 1: family loses someone and they all um they all have 157 00:08:27,120 --> 00:08:29,120 Speaker 1: to help each other. There's a mountain of grief and 158 00:08:29,160 --> 00:08:31,080 Speaker 1: they all are at the top and it's like there's 159 00:08:31,080 --> 00:08:33,079 Speaker 1: a blizzard and they are out of food and they 160 00:08:33,120 --> 00:08:36,000 Speaker 1: all have to like get down the mountain in their 161 00:08:36,000 --> 00:08:38,800 Speaker 1: own way. They can't really help each other like they 162 00:08:38,840 --> 00:08:42,560 Speaker 1: have to. If you help someone else, you're not going 163 00:08:42,600 --> 00:08:45,120 Speaker 1: to help yourself, Like you you might help someone oh 164 00:08:45,080 --> 00:08:49,000 Speaker 1: across this travase or crevass, whatever word is that's up 165 00:08:49,000 --> 00:08:51,160 Speaker 1: on the mountain, But then you're still on the other 166 00:08:51,200 --> 00:08:53,120 Speaker 1: side of it, and maybe you've helped them, but you're not. 167 00:08:53,559 --> 00:08:55,839 Speaker 1: Everyone's on their own kind of and that's why you 168 00:08:55,920 --> 00:08:58,480 Speaker 1: got to get outside help that people aren't grieving, but 169 00:08:58,520 --> 00:09:01,720 Speaker 1: then someone's so This woman that did the article presented 170 00:09:01,760 --> 00:09:07,040 Speaker 1: that kind of analogy to another person that works a 171 00:09:07,080 --> 00:09:08,840 Speaker 1: lot in grief, and she said, what do you think 172 00:09:08,840 --> 00:09:10,920 Speaker 1: about this mountain analogy that everyone has to get down 173 00:09:10,960 --> 00:09:13,760 Speaker 1: on their own? And she said where everyone gets down 174 00:09:13,840 --> 00:09:16,760 Speaker 1: on their own time, you know, and the woman goes, 175 00:09:16,800 --> 00:09:21,439 Speaker 1: that's uh, you know, that's not true because the truth 176 00:09:21,440 --> 00:09:23,320 Speaker 1: of the matter is many people don't make it down 177 00:09:23,320 --> 00:09:26,160 Speaker 1: the mountain, like some people just die of grief, like 178 00:09:26,240 --> 00:09:29,440 Speaker 1: it stays with them forever. And it made me so sad, 179 00:09:29,559 --> 00:09:32,280 Speaker 1: and it made me think about that um video I 180 00:09:32,280 --> 00:09:34,760 Speaker 1: watched the other day of the dog crying because it's 181 00:09:34,880 --> 00:09:37,920 Speaker 1: dead dog friend was there and it would like I 182 00:09:38,120 --> 00:09:41,520 Speaker 1: didn't like animals grieving, and then reading about how if 183 00:09:41,559 --> 00:09:43,839 Speaker 1: you if you put down an animal, you should bring 184 00:09:43,840 --> 00:09:45,640 Speaker 1: it back home for your other animals to see so 185 00:09:45,679 --> 00:09:48,800 Speaker 1: that they understand that it's gone and that it's not 186 00:09:48,880 --> 00:09:52,040 Speaker 1: just like hiding, because there was this Reddit threat of 187 00:09:52,080 --> 00:09:55,000 Speaker 1: this dog crying about a dead dog, and I thought 188 00:09:55,000 --> 00:09:56,559 Speaker 1: I talked about in the podcast, but I just realized 189 00:09:56,600 --> 00:10:00,680 Speaker 1: I was talking about with friends and on in the comments, 190 00:10:00,720 --> 00:10:04,160 Speaker 1: they were like, you know, animals need to see what 191 00:10:04,200 --> 00:10:06,719 Speaker 1: the animals going through in this video is like necessary 192 00:10:06,840 --> 00:10:09,640 Speaker 1: because otherwise they just don't know what happened to the 193 00:10:09,679 --> 00:10:11,720 Speaker 1: animal and they don't understand it died. They need to 194 00:10:11,720 --> 00:10:15,760 Speaker 1: like see the body and as you know, as uh 195 00:10:16,240 --> 00:10:18,520 Speaker 1: impossible as that might be sometimes to like bring a 196 00:10:18,520 --> 00:10:22,160 Speaker 1: dead animal home, Like there's something like there were stories 197 00:10:22,200 --> 00:10:25,000 Speaker 1: that people were sharing of like my dog I couldn't 198 00:10:25,000 --> 00:10:27,160 Speaker 1: even walk, you know, at the end of its life, 199 00:10:27,200 --> 00:10:30,679 Speaker 1: but it was still like crawling around looking for the dog. 200 00:10:31,040 --> 00:10:33,000 Speaker 1: It's dog front that you know that we had to 201 00:10:33,000 --> 00:10:36,079 Speaker 1: put down five years before. It like never gave up looking. 202 00:10:36,120 --> 00:10:40,880 Speaker 1: It was like, oh my god. Um yeah, So I 203 00:10:40,880 --> 00:10:43,280 Speaker 1: don't know, man, I've had a couple of losses in 204 00:10:43,320 --> 00:10:46,760 Speaker 1: my life that were like, uh that I just didn't 205 00:10:46,840 --> 00:10:49,400 Speaker 1: want to feel because I was just like, it's just 206 00:10:50,160 --> 00:10:52,280 Speaker 1: I don't deserve to feel it. It's I didn't know 207 00:10:52,320 --> 00:10:55,560 Speaker 1: that person well enough. Um, that would be ridiculous to 208 00:10:55,600 --> 00:10:58,439 Speaker 1: cry that art over someone. But you know, when the 209 00:10:58,440 --> 00:10:59,960 Speaker 1: feelings come up now I just put on a good 210 00:11:00,200 --> 00:11:03,360 Speaker 1: sad song and work through them. Like we talked about yesterday, 211 00:11:03,600 --> 00:11:06,240 Speaker 1: getting high off your own supply. No, you really. You 212 00:11:06,280 --> 00:11:09,920 Speaker 1: reached out to me later. You liked that. Um, you 213 00:11:10,000 --> 00:11:13,080 Speaker 1: said to me, I couldn't relate to it. You couldn't 214 00:11:13,080 --> 00:11:15,480 Speaker 1: relate to it. Tell me about that. So I'm not 215 00:11:15,520 --> 00:11:18,800 Speaker 1: a feeling. I'm not a person who doesn't feel my feelings. 216 00:11:18,840 --> 00:11:21,200 Speaker 1: I just don't talk about them, so I don't know 217 00:11:21,240 --> 00:11:23,679 Speaker 1: what it's like to not feel them. And I was 218 00:11:24,040 --> 00:11:26,840 Speaker 1: I was very curious about that, and I was curious 219 00:11:27,400 --> 00:11:30,800 Speaker 1: to learn more about how. You know, I guess how 220 00:11:30,840 --> 00:11:34,559 Speaker 1: you go through it. Now, Yeah, I don't even know 221 00:11:34,640 --> 00:11:38,320 Speaker 1: because it's almost like I don't know what they feel like. 222 00:11:38,400 --> 00:11:41,040 Speaker 1: Because that's trying to like a blind person trying to 223 00:11:41,120 --> 00:11:43,880 Speaker 1: explain color, like I don't know what I'm not doing, 224 00:11:44,400 --> 00:11:46,600 Speaker 1: Like I don't know what I'm not feeling, Like I 225 00:11:46,679 --> 00:11:50,760 Speaker 1: know what sadness is, and I know what um like 226 00:11:50,960 --> 00:11:55,880 Speaker 1: heartbreak or guilt or um. I know the feeling of 227 00:11:55,920 --> 00:11:58,800 Speaker 1: wanting something I can't have or being sorry for myself, 228 00:11:58,840 --> 00:12:03,720 Speaker 1: but those are always overcome by You're by the feeling 229 00:12:03,720 --> 00:12:06,240 Speaker 1: of shame of like you shouldn't be feeling this way, 230 00:12:06,320 --> 00:12:09,120 Speaker 1: so like you know when people tell me that they cry, So, 231 00:12:09,240 --> 00:12:11,920 Speaker 1: how do you, like, how do you feel your feelings 232 00:12:11,920 --> 00:12:14,320 Speaker 1: if you don't, um talk about them? How do you 233 00:12:14,360 --> 00:12:15,920 Speaker 1: feel them? Like? What does it look like for you? 234 00:12:16,040 --> 00:12:21,760 Speaker 1: Let's say if you're sad or like feeling Yeah, let's 235 00:12:21,800 --> 00:12:26,280 Speaker 1: say sad. If I'm sad, I just uh, I mean, 236 00:12:26,320 --> 00:12:28,640 Speaker 1: I just kind of go through it. If if I 237 00:12:28,679 --> 00:12:32,800 Speaker 1: need to cry, I'll cry. Now you cry alone? Or 238 00:12:32,800 --> 00:12:35,120 Speaker 1: do you need to like talk to someone about it? 239 00:12:35,160 --> 00:12:38,600 Speaker 1: Like what, well, it'll just come out. Yeah. I um, 240 00:12:38,840 --> 00:12:41,040 Speaker 1: I'm trying to get better at talking about it because 241 00:12:41,040 --> 00:12:43,080 Speaker 1: I know that it could help, But I usually just 242 00:12:43,360 --> 00:12:45,920 Speaker 1: try to go through it alone. Do you go with 243 00:12:46,080 --> 00:12:47,559 Speaker 1: like a room alone? Do you go in the bathroom? 244 00:12:47,640 --> 00:12:49,240 Speaker 1: Do you go in the shower? Like? What does it 245 00:12:49,280 --> 00:12:51,440 Speaker 1: look like when you go cry alone? In your car? 246 00:12:52,320 --> 00:12:55,280 Speaker 1: Car is a good place. Bathroom is a good place. 247 00:12:55,559 --> 00:12:57,320 Speaker 1: As a kid, I used to cry in the bathroom 248 00:12:57,320 --> 00:13:00,360 Speaker 1: a lot just because it wasn't just have private See 249 00:13:01,280 --> 00:13:03,280 Speaker 1: do you cry like in silence? Do you need a 250 00:13:03,320 --> 00:13:06,000 Speaker 1: song to get you there? Like? I really do feel 251 00:13:06,040 --> 00:13:07,960 Speaker 1: like I need you just like think about it. You 252 00:13:08,000 --> 00:13:09,480 Speaker 1: just think about the thing that's making you sad and 253 00:13:09,480 --> 00:13:12,360 Speaker 1: like go into it. Yeah. I think like the most 254 00:13:12,400 --> 00:13:15,840 Speaker 1: recent example was I, you know, just like mourning the 255 00:13:15,880 --> 00:13:20,240 Speaker 1: loss of my of my dog. So I'll just okay, 256 00:13:20,600 --> 00:13:23,440 Speaker 1: you know, like, um, I used to just say, all right, 257 00:13:23,480 --> 00:13:26,720 Speaker 1: well it's time to move on. Just don't don't allow 258 00:13:26,760 --> 00:13:29,040 Speaker 1: yourself to cry. Just stop looking at the pictures, like 259 00:13:29,040 --> 00:13:32,079 Speaker 1: avoid looking at the pictures. But I won't avoid it now. 260 00:13:32,120 --> 00:13:34,240 Speaker 1: I'll just look at them. And if I get that 261 00:13:34,360 --> 00:13:36,400 Speaker 1: gulp and it's like okay, I'm about to cry, I 262 00:13:36,440 --> 00:13:41,480 Speaker 1: just do it. Yeah yeah, no, I Um, I can 263 00:13:41,480 --> 00:13:44,080 Speaker 1: do that. Sometimes I don't know. I think I have 264 00:13:44,160 --> 00:13:46,360 Speaker 1: to like talk about it, and I can't talk to alone, 265 00:13:47,080 --> 00:13:51,280 Speaker 1: so um, it always has to be with someone to 266 00:13:51,320 --> 00:13:53,800 Speaker 1: talk about it. That will get me to cry. But 267 00:13:53,840 --> 00:13:59,480 Speaker 1: then as soon as I start getting verklemped, uh, I 268 00:14:00,800 --> 00:14:03,440 Speaker 1: feel bad that the person has to like witness this 269 00:14:03,520 --> 00:14:06,360 Speaker 1: and like suddenly come to my rescue or like get 270 00:14:06,679 --> 00:14:09,080 Speaker 1: they like they they're like, oh my god, she's crying. 271 00:14:09,080 --> 00:14:11,160 Speaker 1: Oh what do I do? Like there's like some kind 272 00:14:11,160 --> 00:14:13,840 Speaker 1: of panic in them of either I don't want to 273 00:14:13,840 --> 00:14:15,319 Speaker 1: be here. I mean I've talked about this before. Either 274 00:14:15,360 --> 00:14:17,320 Speaker 1: they don't want to be there or they like have 275 00:14:17,440 --> 00:14:20,160 Speaker 1: to now stay longer and comfort me, and I just 276 00:14:20,200 --> 00:14:22,800 Speaker 1: don't want anyone to do. It's like, you know, like 277 00:14:22,840 --> 00:14:25,240 Speaker 1: looking at someone on stage, they have to laugh, and 278 00:14:25,240 --> 00:14:30,040 Speaker 1: I just don't want to earn people's sympathy by you know, 279 00:14:30,200 --> 00:14:33,200 Speaker 1: I feel like it's a trick to get love and 280 00:14:33,280 --> 00:14:36,520 Speaker 1: like or to get attention. Like I feel like even 281 00:14:36,560 --> 00:14:38,880 Speaker 1: though it's not a trick, it's like that's a sign 282 00:14:38,920 --> 00:14:42,280 Speaker 1: that you need extra care from your friends and loved ones. 283 00:14:42,360 --> 00:14:45,360 Speaker 1: Like what's wrong with that? I don't know, because I 284 00:14:45,360 --> 00:14:47,360 Speaker 1: don't want to be a burden, even if it's a 285 00:14:47,400 --> 00:14:51,320 Speaker 1: close friend. And in that conversation, they're very welcoming of you, 286 00:14:51,480 --> 00:14:54,680 Speaker 1: just saying or doing whatever you need to do to 287 00:14:54,720 --> 00:14:58,800 Speaker 1: feel better, you know, like do you remember what I 288 00:14:58,840 --> 00:15:00,800 Speaker 1: mean to me and you cried for a reason that 289 00:15:00,840 --> 00:15:04,440 Speaker 1: we won't say, Did that help you feel better going 290 00:15:04,640 --> 00:15:09,920 Speaker 1: through that sadness? And just yes, yes, I think that. Yeah. 291 00:15:09,960 --> 00:15:12,440 Speaker 1: It's like it always feels better afterwards. It feels like 292 00:15:12,520 --> 00:15:14,920 Speaker 1: you know, after you calm, like it's just like for 293 00:15:14,960 --> 00:15:16,800 Speaker 1: me at least after I just feel like, oh I 294 00:15:16,800 --> 00:15:19,560 Speaker 1: can go to sleep now, and like, yeah, you you 295 00:15:19,600 --> 00:15:23,400 Speaker 1: get over it. But like, you know, that was God. 296 00:15:23,440 --> 00:15:25,200 Speaker 1: That was That was when I was in Cayman, right, 297 00:15:26,320 --> 00:15:28,560 Speaker 1: Oh my god. Yeah. And I and before I reached 298 00:15:28,560 --> 00:15:30,800 Speaker 1: out to you, I tried to talk to Andrew. Andrew 299 00:15:30,800 --> 00:15:33,760 Speaker 1: really wasn't having it. He just couldn't. I think he 300 00:15:33,760 --> 00:15:36,400 Speaker 1: started biting his nails like as I was getting anxious, 301 00:15:36,400 --> 00:15:38,000 Speaker 1: and I was like, I can't. He doesn't want to 302 00:15:38,000 --> 00:15:40,120 Speaker 1: be here for this. And then I tried to call 303 00:15:40,360 --> 00:15:43,720 Speaker 1: Robin and because she was more privy to the situation 304 00:15:43,800 --> 00:15:48,080 Speaker 1: that was um happening around that and she was busy, 305 00:15:48,240 --> 00:15:51,160 Speaker 1: and then I was just like, Noah's always there for me. 306 00:15:51,480 --> 00:15:54,080 Speaker 1: She is like such a calming force. I know that 307 00:15:54,120 --> 00:15:56,560 Speaker 1: she'll I haven't felt too much of a burden to 308 00:15:56,640 --> 00:16:00,880 Speaker 1: her lately. So I called you, and uh, yeah, that 309 00:16:01,000 --> 00:16:03,200 Speaker 1: was really helpful and I didn't feel bad, you know. 310 00:16:03,240 --> 00:16:05,680 Speaker 1: But like in Tuloom when I was having when we 311 00:16:05,680 --> 00:16:07,200 Speaker 1: were all about to go to dinner on our last 312 00:16:07,320 --> 00:16:09,800 Speaker 1: night and I was just having a bad moment and 313 00:16:09,840 --> 00:16:12,320 Speaker 1: I needed to cry. Everyone like came to my room, 314 00:16:12,640 --> 00:16:14,640 Speaker 1: but everyone was like hungry, want to go to dinner. 315 00:16:14,760 --> 00:16:17,560 Speaker 1: Everyone's like dressed up and cute, and I'm just like, 316 00:16:17,560 --> 00:16:21,400 Speaker 1: like it just felt like, God, shut up, everyone wants 317 00:16:21,440 --> 00:16:24,400 Speaker 1: to go, but I just kind of didn't care because 318 00:16:24,440 --> 00:16:27,320 Speaker 1: it was so painful that I was so selfish, you know, 319 00:16:27,400 --> 00:16:33,600 Speaker 1: like sometimes my pain makes me selfish that I don't care. UM. So, 320 00:16:33,600 --> 00:16:37,280 Speaker 1: so I'm wondering in this new um getting high off 321 00:16:37,280 --> 00:16:39,200 Speaker 1: your own supply, are you going to try to go 322 00:16:39,320 --> 00:16:42,760 Speaker 1: through those feelings without calling someone and testing to see 323 00:16:42,760 --> 00:16:46,000 Speaker 1: if you could do it on your own? Yes? Yeah, 324 00:16:46,000 --> 00:16:48,040 Speaker 1: Like yesterday I was driving to my sister's house to 325 00:16:48,080 --> 00:16:54,520 Speaker 1: go get my dogs and the air conditioning on from 326 00:16:54,600 --> 00:16:58,120 Speaker 1: my mom's car was like sometimes wind makes my eyes water, 327 00:16:58,600 --> 00:17:02,400 Speaker 1: and it was like it was like, um, it was 328 00:17:02,440 --> 00:17:07,400 Speaker 1: like lube, you know, like a synthetic um, a synthetic 329 00:17:07,440 --> 00:17:12,159 Speaker 1: thing you bring into the bedroom too, you know, to 330 00:17:13,280 --> 00:17:18,119 Speaker 1: uh what's it called emulate um too, to be to 331 00:17:18,280 --> 00:17:20,680 Speaker 1: be like what your wetness should be. So you feel 332 00:17:20,720 --> 00:17:22,840 Speaker 1: like that can't make me wet, But sometimes lube does 333 00:17:22,920 --> 00:17:25,159 Speaker 1: make you wet because it's like, oh, it shows me 334 00:17:25,280 --> 00:17:27,919 Speaker 1: what that feels like in my eyes or in my 335 00:17:28,280 --> 00:17:30,320 Speaker 1: vagina to be wet, and then it reminds me of vagina, 336 00:17:30,400 --> 00:17:34,040 Speaker 1: like oh, make more of this. So it's not even porn. 337 00:17:34,119 --> 00:17:37,159 Speaker 1: It's like it's actually bringing something synthetic and to cause 338 00:17:37,240 --> 00:17:39,760 Speaker 1: the tears, And honestly, that gets me there because I'll 339 00:17:39,800 --> 00:17:42,240 Speaker 1: be like, I'm already crying, and then I put on 340 00:17:42,280 --> 00:17:45,919 Speaker 1: a sad song and then I just like cried and 341 00:17:45,960 --> 00:17:48,000 Speaker 1: I didn't even know what I was crying about. I 342 00:17:48,080 --> 00:17:50,520 Speaker 1: was just like there were just feelings coming up, and 343 00:17:50,560 --> 00:17:53,000 Speaker 1: I just like, I just I faked it. I tried 344 00:17:53,000 --> 00:17:56,359 Speaker 1: to fake crying until it would happen and a little 345 00:17:56,359 --> 00:17:58,119 Speaker 1: bit came out. But then I was like, oh no, 346 00:17:58,200 --> 00:18:00,320 Speaker 1: if I show up there and like my eyes are teary, 347 00:18:00,480 --> 00:18:02,760 Speaker 1: my mom's gonna be like, what's what? What are you 348 00:18:02,800 --> 00:18:05,359 Speaker 1: crying about? And I'll go, oh, I'm just sad because 349 00:18:05,359 --> 00:18:08,719 Speaker 1: I'm going through like like someone in my life disappointed me, 350 00:18:08,760 --> 00:18:11,080 Speaker 1: and I had a hope about this person and now 351 00:18:11,119 --> 00:18:13,879 Speaker 1: I feel like the hope is gone and I'm just 352 00:18:13,920 --> 00:18:16,840 Speaker 1: sad about a boy. And she'll be like, oh God, 353 00:18:17,040 --> 00:18:19,840 Speaker 1: this is just I don't like. She won't be like 354 00:18:19,880 --> 00:18:22,840 Speaker 1: you're ridiculous for feeling sad. She'll just be like ah, 355 00:18:22,880 --> 00:18:25,040 Speaker 1: and then they won't ask me about it, and I'll 356 00:18:25,040 --> 00:18:28,399 Speaker 1: just feel like mad that they didn't ask me about it. 357 00:18:28,480 --> 00:18:30,960 Speaker 1: You know that kind of thing, So I just wanted 358 00:18:31,000 --> 00:18:32,920 Speaker 1: to clear up my face. I didn't want my face 359 00:18:32,960 --> 00:18:35,760 Speaker 1: to be puffy and red for to be in front 360 00:18:35,800 --> 00:18:38,399 Speaker 1: of my parents, not because they would have shamed me 361 00:18:38,440 --> 00:18:41,919 Speaker 1: about it, but because they wouldn't have done what I wanted, 362 00:18:41,960 --> 00:18:44,960 Speaker 1: which is like asked me about it and like talk 363 00:18:45,000 --> 00:18:47,800 Speaker 1: about it um, because it just makes them too uncomfortable 364 00:18:47,880 --> 00:18:49,800 Speaker 1: for me to have feelings. And I think that's probably 365 00:18:49,800 --> 00:18:53,520 Speaker 1: why I get nervous when people get anxious when I cried, 366 00:18:53,640 --> 00:18:55,520 Speaker 1: because my parents probably didn't know what to do with 367 00:18:55,560 --> 00:18:57,760 Speaker 1: me when I cried, because it just seems like what 368 00:18:57,760 --> 00:18:59,520 Speaker 1: the fund do you do? And then it was so 369 00:18:59,560 --> 00:19:01,960 Speaker 1: cute because Poppy was crying. My my niece. We went 370 00:19:02,000 --> 00:19:03,760 Speaker 1: over there and she was doing this thing where she 371 00:19:03,800 --> 00:19:06,240 Speaker 1: was holding onto the side of the couch and just 372 00:19:06,320 --> 00:19:08,480 Speaker 1: jumping up and down like it was a trampoline. But 373 00:19:08,560 --> 00:19:11,480 Speaker 1: she jumped too far and she went over and her 374 00:19:11,480 --> 00:19:13,679 Speaker 1: head like fell on the bed the table next to 375 00:19:13,720 --> 00:19:16,160 Speaker 1: the couch, and then she toppled over and knocked over lamp. 376 00:19:16,320 --> 00:19:20,280 Speaker 1: She was totally safe, but it's it's our reaction scared her. 377 00:19:21,119 --> 00:19:24,080 Speaker 1: And then you know, my mom's just like, don't that's 378 00:19:24,080 --> 00:19:26,240 Speaker 1: why you don't jump on the couch Toppy, you don't jump, 379 00:19:26,280 --> 00:19:28,480 Speaker 1: And I was just like, and then she came over 380 00:19:28,520 --> 00:19:30,679 Speaker 1: to me because I was just like everyone was just 381 00:19:31,160 --> 00:19:33,359 Speaker 1: she was getting upset because she was embarrassed, but she 382 00:19:33,359 --> 00:19:35,800 Speaker 1: didn't know how to really. She was having so much 383 00:19:35,840 --> 00:19:37,960 Speaker 1: fun and then she was embarrassed because it just got 384 00:19:37,960 --> 00:19:40,520 Speaker 1: out of hand, you know, like she tripped almost and 385 00:19:40,520 --> 00:19:44,160 Speaker 1: that feeling of like being sad because you're soul embarrassed. 386 00:19:44,640 --> 00:19:45,920 Speaker 1: And then she came over to me because I was 387 00:19:45,960 --> 00:19:47,960 Speaker 1: just kind of like not saying anything and just going 388 00:19:48,040 --> 00:19:49,719 Speaker 1: like and she came over to me, and I go, 389 00:19:49,920 --> 00:19:52,840 Speaker 1: I bump my head so many times on things. It's 390 00:19:52,920 --> 00:19:55,320 Speaker 1: just you're trying to have fun and then you bump 391 00:19:55,320 --> 00:19:58,280 Speaker 1: your head and she just like fell in my arms 392 00:19:58,320 --> 00:20:00,480 Speaker 1: and like just like wanted to lay there because I 393 00:20:00,560 --> 00:20:03,800 Speaker 1: wasn't pitying her. I was just like relating and I 394 00:20:03,840 --> 00:20:06,520 Speaker 1: was like, it sucks, oh no, and it was just 395 00:20:06,920 --> 00:20:09,640 Speaker 1: it's nice to give that back, the thing that I 396 00:20:09,680 --> 00:20:12,280 Speaker 1: want so badly, and and maybe Poppy will be there 397 00:20:12,320 --> 00:20:14,400 Speaker 1: for me someday when I need to cry, because she's 398 00:20:14,480 --> 00:20:18,160 Speaker 1: learned from me and from my sister, who's said beautiful 399 00:20:18,160 --> 00:20:21,280 Speaker 1: examples of never making their kids feel bad about anything. 400 00:20:21,280 --> 00:20:23,760 Speaker 1: They cry about, um, which I don't know where they 401 00:20:23,800 --> 00:20:26,879 Speaker 1: got that from. Um, let's bring in uh someone. I'm 402 00:20:26,920 --> 00:20:39,360 Speaker 1: not comfortable crying in front of Andrew. Hey, Andrew, good morning. Hey. 403 00:20:39,520 --> 00:20:42,520 Speaker 1: Um Uh, we got a package from a fan. I 404 00:20:42,560 --> 00:20:45,120 Speaker 1: don't know how they got our address we got Yeah, 405 00:20:45,160 --> 00:20:46,600 Speaker 1: I thought it might be well. I opened it up 406 00:20:46,600 --> 00:20:49,240 Speaker 1: because I thought it was UM. It wasn't labeled like 407 00:20:49,800 --> 00:20:52,760 Speaker 1: sometimes when I get a package that has no or 408 00:20:52,320 --> 00:20:56,040 Speaker 1: an obscure return address that just seems like a shipping center. 409 00:20:56,560 --> 00:20:58,960 Speaker 1: I think it's a sex toy because everything is shipped 410 00:20:58,960 --> 00:21:02,160 Speaker 1: discreetly from these companies. Yeah, and I have a lot 411 00:21:02,160 --> 00:21:05,400 Speaker 1: of stuff coming from Nikki's going to get the package. 412 00:21:05,480 --> 00:21:08,080 Speaker 1: She's coming back. She's sitting back down. I just got 413 00:21:08,080 --> 00:21:10,800 Speaker 1: a bunch of so. I made an order on Blessa, 414 00:21:10,880 --> 00:21:12,919 Speaker 1: which is this company that has given me a lot 415 00:21:12,960 --> 00:21:16,639 Speaker 1: of free stuff in the past. Um and Blessa is uh. 416 00:21:17,200 --> 00:21:18,959 Speaker 1: They call themselves the Netflix of porn, but it's all 417 00:21:19,000 --> 00:21:20,960 Speaker 1: like female produced porn, and I love it. I do 418 00:21:21,200 --> 00:21:24,120 Speaker 1: um a scription subscription to their site. But they also 419 00:21:24,160 --> 00:21:27,760 Speaker 1: have a sex store or like sex toy shop, and 420 00:21:27,800 --> 00:21:29,960 Speaker 1: they've they've reached out to me. I've done their podcast 421 00:21:30,040 --> 00:21:32,920 Speaker 1: called Balls Deep, which is so funny. These two girls 422 00:21:33,040 --> 00:21:37,600 Speaker 1: hilarious comics host it. Um. But anyway, they've given me 423 00:21:37,640 --> 00:21:40,000 Speaker 1: so much free stuff over the years, and I've done 424 00:21:40,000 --> 00:21:41,880 Speaker 1: a poor job of promoting them. So the other day 425 00:21:41,880 --> 00:21:43,480 Speaker 1: I placed an order and I knew that they would 426 00:21:43,520 --> 00:21:45,119 Speaker 1: give me it for free, but I just was like, 427 00:21:45,240 --> 00:21:50,160 Speaker 1: they deserve my money. So I spent like four dollars 428 00:21:50,200 --> 00:21:53,399 Speaker 1: on new stuff, and this bitch that runs the company 429 00:21:53,440 --> 00:21:55,520 Speaker 1: and I say that with love wrote me and goes, no, no, no, 430 00:21:55,840 --> 00:21:57,919 Speaker 1: your money is not good here. Like she saw the 431 00:21:58,080 --> 00:22:01,120 Speaker 1: order come through and was like no, so she sent 432 00:22:01,240 --> 00:22:03,080 Speaker 1: me it all for free. Was so nice. So UM 433 00:22:03,119 --> 00:22:06,320 Speaker 1: shout out to Blessa And there I'm the packaging. It 434 00:22:06,359 --> 00:22:11,119 Speaker 1: looks like I thought it was. I was like, looking 435 00:22:11,119 --> 00:22:12,800 Speaker 1: at that, I was like, that's how I wrapped presents 436 00:22:12,800 --> 00:22:16,800 Speaker 1: on Hanukkah. So yeah, card the box arrived. This is 437 00:22:16,880 --> 00:22:19,359 Speaker 1: from one of our besties actually, and I just wanted 438 00:22:19,400 --> 00:22:22,159 Speaker 1: to share it with you. They sent um. This is 439 00:22:22,160 --> 00:22:25,879 Speaker 1: a pot holder that they sent Okay, and it says 440 00:22:26,359 --> 00:22:28,520 Speaker 1: there's a quote on it says what does it say? Andrew? 441 00:22:28,840 --> 00:22:31,040 Speaker 1: You could pull the rack out and make it easier. 442 00:22:34,080 --> 00:22:38,640 Speaker 1: This is based on the pizza incident with me and Andrew. 443 00:22:38,800 --> 00:22:40,680 Speaker 1: It says on it, you could pull the rack out 444 00:22:40,720 --> 00:22:43,439 Speaker 1: and make it easier. And the eyes are dotted with hearts. 445 00:22:43,920 --> 00:22:47,879 Speaker 1: Love it. And then we got another pot holder that says, 446 00:22:48,840 --> 00:22:53,600 Speaker 1: I'll get I'll get it. We should hold these up 447 00:22:53,720 --> 00:22:57,520 Speaker 1: like a game, you know, yes, And then we got Um. 448 00:22:57,560 --> 00:23:00,720 Speaker 1: I got an air freshener that says is, uh, do 449 00:23:00,840 --> 00:23:03,119 Speaker 1: it yourself air freshener, add your favorite perfume, cologne, or 450 00:23:03,160 --> 00:23:07,040 Speaker 1: essential oils. And it has um picture of Taylor Swift 451 00:23:07,080 --> 00:23:08,240 Speaker 1: on it. And then on the other side it's the 452 00:23:08,240 --> 00:23:11,600 Speaker 1: picture of Marion that looks exactly like the Taylor Swift picture. 453 00:23:11,680 --> 00:23:14,760 Speaker 1: And then look at all these shirts she made me. 454 00:23:14,960 --> 00:23:17,160 Speaker 1: She made me Taylor Swift shirts. This is one of 455 00:23:17,200 --> 00:23:21,040 Speaker 1: the poster I have in my bedroom. Um did another 456 00:23:21,080 --> 00:23:26,399 Speaker 1: one Tyday Pink. There's another one of her on the 457 00:23:26,440 --> 00:23:29,480 Speaker 1: Red Tour Um, and then another one. I mean, I'm 458 00:23:29,480 --> 00:23:31,320 Speaker 1: gonna wear these all on the podcast when we have 459 00:23:31,400 --> 00:23:34,880 Speaker 1: the video up. Another one of her, uh the Lover 460 00:23:35,119 --> 00:23:39,040 Speaker 1: concert that she did. She made a kid shirt. Kid. 461 00:23:40,040 --> 00:23:41,680 Speaker 1: There's a shirt that says kid on it, and then 462 00:23:41,680 --> 00:23:43,960 Speaker 1: a tank top that says kid on it or no, 463 00:23:44,080 --> 00:23:47,800 Speaker 1: this one is good. She did a Simone Biles quitting quitting, 464 00:23:48,000 --> 00:23:50,879 Speaker 1: and it says it's Simone Biles looking serious and like 465 00:23:51,080 --> 00:23:52,919 Speaker 1: over it. It says quitting when you have the courage 466 00:23:52,960 --> 00:23:57,240 Speaker 1: to put your needs over your ego and though situation 467 00:23:57,320 --> 00:24:00,320 Speaker 1: and then um and then another on Taylor Swift mug 468 00:24:00,960 --> 00:24:03,720 Speaker 1: that she got me. I mean or he or she 469 00:24:04,000 --> 00:24:06,160 Speaker 1: or they let me read the note. It says, thank 470 00:24:06,200 --> 00:24:08,000 Speaker 1: you so much for Nick First, thank you so much 471 00:24:08,040 --> 00:24:09,720 Speaker 1: everything you do. I've been a bestie since you up 472 00:24:09,760 --> 00:24:11,400 Speaker 1: You are part of my morning ritual and I listened 473 00:24:11,400 --> 00:24:12,919 Speaker 1: to you while I get ready for work. When you 474 00:24:13,000 --> 00:24:15,200 Speaker 1: up ended, I was truly devastated and missed you so much. 475 00:24:15,359 --> 00:24:17,280 Speaker 1: I'm so glad you're back. You were more than a 476 00:24:17,320 --> 00:24:19,800 Speaker 1: podcast to me, and I think you were just perfectly imperfect, 477 00:24:20,000 --> 00:24:21,760 Speaker 1: and I wouldn't want you any other way. Sometimes I 478 00:24:21,760 --> 00:24:23,879 Speaker 1: write you one I g knowing you won't even see it, 479 00:24:24,240 --> 00:24:26,040 Speaker 1: but it's more of a diary for me. I love that. 480 00:24:26,119 --> 00:24:27,840 Speaker 1: Screw all the haters. You should be proud of who 481 00:24:27,880 --> 00:24:30,520 Speaker 1: you are because we are never stop being you. Please 482 00:24:30,600 --> 00:24:32,400 Speaker 1: good days, bad days, I want it all. I'm sorry. 483 00:24:32,440 --> 00:24:34,600 Speaker 1: I didn't know your size, so there's a variation in here. 484 00:24:34,600 --> 00:24:36,680 Speaker 1: But hey, everyone needs some big PJ shirts, right L 485 00:24:36,720 --> 00:24:40,199 Speaker 1: O L your favorite Bessie Sky Taylor Douglas. Thank you 486 00:24:40,359 --> 00:24:47,040 Speaker 1: so much, Sky Taylor Douglas for these amazing present. Yeah 487 00:24:48,560 --> 00:24:52,200 Speaker 1: like that, I really love. Yeah, you're Andrew Todd Colin. 488 00:24:52,680 --> 00:24:54,680 Speaker 1: I hate the name. I was almost named Todd, and 489 00:24:55,600 --> 00:24:59,080 Speaker 1: Todd's of definitely chat name. Yeah, it's not good. I 490 00:24:59,160 --> 00:25:05,879 Speaker 1: met one guy from the mid West Toddler. Maybe it 491 00:25:05,920 --> 00:25:08,720 Speaker 1: would fit you. Then there's such a Todd will call 492 00:25:08,800 --> 00:25:11,800 Speaker 1: me by my full name if you're gonna say, uh, 493 00:25:11,840 --> 00:25:14,920 Speaker 1: Andrew Toddler Colin. Is so funny that you were you 494 00:25:15,280 --> 00:25:21,159 Speaker 1: were named after Toddler. Fourth there. I met a guy 495 00:25:21,160 --> 00:25:23,440 Speaker 1: from the Midwest one time. He goes, because your middle 496 00:25:23,520 --> 00:25:28,560 Speaker 1: names Tad, I'm Tad. I'm like, no, it's Todd. Yeah, 497 00:25:28,640 --> 00:25:33,680 Speaker 1: I'm Tad. So they say Tad. Yeah, we we say 498 00:25:34,040 --> 00:25:38,879 Speaker 1: Highway Farty, Far Highway Farty. That's like the St. Louis thing. 499 00:25:38,880 --> 00:25:41,520 Speaker 1: There's two St. Louis things. Okay, what is it? Where'd 500 00:25:41,520 --> 00:25:45,040 Speaker 1: you go to high school? Let's go through these high 501 00:25:45,040 --> 00:25:47,960 Speaker 1: schools and what does it mean? Like top three high 502 00:25:48,000 --> 00:25:50,520 Speaker 1: schools in St. Louis And what does it mean about you? 503 00:25:51,119 --> 00:25:54,480 Speaker 1: And which one did you go to? Kirkwood That means, man, um, 504 00:25:54,880 --> 00:25:58,399 Speaker 1: you you your parents are probably liberal and you're not 505 00:25:58,520 --> 00:26:03,600 Speaker 1: religious and probably don't have you're not extremely wealthy, but 506 00:26:03,680 --> 00:26:06,280 Speaker 1: you could be. You could like the upper middle class 507 00:26:06,640 --> 00:26:08,480 Speaker 1: if you're a white person that went to Kirkland. I 508 00:26:08,520 --> 00:26:12,040 Speaker 1: like rich people that send their kids to they're going 509 00:26:12,080 --> 00:26:15,040 Speaker 1: to learn the real world. Yeah right, I mean I 510 00:26:15,080 --> 00:26:18,200 Speaker 1: loved Thank god I didn't go to a private school. Um, 511 00:26:18,240 --> 00:26:20,600 Speaker 1: I'm who knows I would have had a good experience anymore. 512 00:26:20,600 --> 00:26:22,280 Speaker 1: It's the number one school you could say you're from 513 00:26:22,440 --> 00:26:24,199 Speaker 1: that you went to in St. Louis where everyone's like, 514 00:26:25,440 --> 00:26:29,159 Speaker 1: um for girls like Villa viz M I c d S. 515 00:26:29,359 --> 00:26:32,960 Speaker 1: That's like you, uh, your parents have a lot of 516 00:26:32,960 --> 00:26:35,080 Speaker 1: money because it costs a lot of money to go there. 517 00:26:35,320 --> 00:26:37,440 Speaker 1: I guess, you know, I guess it's I guess it's 518 00:26:37,440 --> 00:26:40,320 Speaker 1: a thing a conversation because people stay and say it's 519 00:26:40,320 --> 00:26:42,840 Speaker 1: like a big city that I don't understand why everyone 520 00:26:42,880 --> 00:26:45,040 Speaker 1: doesn't do that, because for me, I always thought it 521 00:26:45,040 --> 00:26:47,360 Speaker 1: was about do you know people I know? Like, who 522 00:26:47,400 --> 00:26:49,320 Speaker 1: do we both know in common? Because obviously you know 523 00:26:49,320 --> 00:26:51,360 Speaker 1: people you went to high school with, and we it's 524 00:26:51,440 --> 00:26:54,000 Speaker 1: very segregated by high school, like you don't hang out 525 00:26:54,040 --> 00:26:57,320 Speaker 1: with people at other high schools like I live. I lived. 526 00:26:57,640 --> 00:27:00,840 Speaker 1: There's people in meeting now who lived locks away from me, 527 00:27:00,880 --> 00:27:02,399 Speaker 1: but I would have never known them because they went 528 00:27:02,440 --> 00:27:04,240 Speaker 1: to private school and I went to public school. We 529 00:27:04,240 --> 00:27:06,560 Speaker 1: didn't co mingle. Maybe a lot of people moved back 530 00:27:06,560 --> 00:27:09,040 Speaker 1: to St. Louis or just don't leave St. Louis. It's 531 00:27:09,080 --> 00:27:11,360 Speaker 1: like if I stayed in my small town of Virea 532 00:27:11,359 --> 00:27:13,040 Speaker 1: would be like, did you go to the public school 533 00:27:13,080 --> 00:27:15,639 Speaker 1: or to private school? But no, don't do that million 534 00:27:16,160 --> 00:27:18,520 Speaker 1: if you stay there. If I've been too small, I've 535 00:27:18,520 --> 00:27:21,200 Speaker 1: been to towns and people don't whenever I go like, oh, 536 00:27:21,240 --> 00:27:23,080 Speaker 1: if I meet two people and they're both from Charlotte. 537 00:27:23,119 --> 00:27:25,240 Speaker 1: Let's say we're in New York and I go, they go, 538 00:27:25,320 --> 00:27:27,760 Speaker 1: oh my god, cool, and they don't ask what high school? 539 00:27:27,760 --> 00:27:29,640 Speaker 1: Like why don't you ask what high school? You both 540 00:27:30,880 --> 00:27:32,840 Speaker 1: that if we were in our land at this guy 541 00:27:32,880 --> 00:27:34,760 Speaker 1: went to first Academy and we played against him in 542 00:27:34,800 --> 00:27:38,119 Speaker 1: football and you're yellow and blue and he's like, I 543 00:27:38,119 --> 00:27:40,000 Speaker 1: am yellow and blue, and that guy's gonna love me forever. 544 00:27:40,040 --> 00:27:42,119 Speaker 1: I don't even know why I asked, though, because I 545 00:27:42,200 --> 00:27:44,480 Speaker 1: don't know anyone from other high schools. But the joke 546 00:27:44,680 --> 00:27:46,959 Speaker 1: is that's what St. Louis is. At St. Louis, AND's 547 00:27:46,960 --> 00:27:48,359 Speaker 1: asked is where you go to high school. But what 548 00:27:48,400 --> 00:27:50,639 Speaker 1: it really is about is how much money did your 549 00:27:50,640 --> 00:27:54,200 Speaker 1: parents make? Like what that's that's really what you're asking 550 00:27:54,200 --> 00:27:56,520 Speaker 1: with that question, which is disgusting. But St. Louis is 551 00:27:56,640 --> 00:27:59,560 Speaker 1: very elitist, very like what kind of car do you 552 00:27:59,600 --> 00:28:02,960 Speaker 1: just say them yeah, like but more subtle, Yeah, what 553 00:28:03,040 --> 00:28:05,280 Speaker 1: kind of car did your parents buy you when you 554 00:28:05,880 --> 00:28:12,200 Speaker 1: turn sixteen? And like mine was a Mercedes NI Mercedes 555 00:28:13,480 --> 00:28:16,760 Speaker 1: was awesome, so funny if you lead with Mercedes, everyone's like, 556 00:28:16,760 --> 00:28:18,880 Speaker 1: what a spoiled bitch, and then you keep going. It's 557 00:28:18,880 --> 00:28:25,200 Speaker 1: like and it would go like it was every time, 558 00:28:25,240 --> 00:28:27,680 Speaker 1: and we called it the old Bastard. Kristen named it that. 559 00:28:27,720 --> 00:28:29,840 Speaker 1: She was like, it's the old best. If your dad 560 00:28:29,880 --> 00:28:33,119 Speaker 1: doing getting diesel, if he's Mr. Recycle, I mean it 561 00:28:33,200 --> 00:28:34,960 Speaker 1: was just an old car that week. I don't know 562 00:28:35,000 --> 00:28:36,640 Speaker 1: how my dad got a deal on it or something. 563 00:28:36,640 --> 00:28:40,520 Speaker 1: I don't know, a diesel on it, and uh yeah, 564 00:28:40,560 --> 00:28:42,680 Speaker 1: So that's and then the other St. Louis thing, as 565 00:28:42,720 --> 00:28:44,680 Speaker 1: I was saying, is that we say like farty far 566 00:28:45,000 --> 00:28:49,040 Speaker 1: and like, uh yeah, park your car on farty far, 567 00:28:49,280 --> 00:28:54,560 Speaker 1: Like it's like tad tad. Yeah right, I gotta explorer 568 00:28:54,640 --> 00:28:58,280 Speaker 1: for my first car, brand new Sport. But my stepmother 569 00:28:58,600 --> 00:29:01,440 Speaker 1: drove it. They bought it like two months before I 570 00:29:01,480 --> 00:29:03,200 Speaker 1: could drive. So every day I was on the bus 571 00:29:03,240 --> 00:29:08,760 Speaker 1: and literally almost every morning I saw I was like 572 00:29:08,800 --> 00:29:13,000 Speaker 1: this and I'm so spoiled. Did yeah brand new, but 573 00:29:13,040 --> 00:29:15,960 Speaker 1: she got I mean she got it first, and uh 574 00:29:16,120 --> 00:29:18,760 Speaker 1: every day I know, I was just you know, there 575 00:29:18,760 --> 00:29:21,760 Speaker 1: were kids driving BMW. I mean that you were Yeah, 576 00:29:21,800 --> 00:29:24,240 Speaker 1: that was not that impressive. I mean we were my 577 00:29:24,320 --> 00:29:26,400 Speaker 1: dad was a doctor, but we were in my school 578 00:29:26,640 --> 00:29:31,200 Speaker 1: literally is like millions and billionaires, like billionaires, like they 579 00:29:31,320 --> 00:29:37,600 Speaker 1: drive being like so, I was just like, did you 580 00:29:37,640 --> 00:29:40,800 Speaker 1: wear uniforms? We had to wear a tie and button down. 581 00:29:40,880 --> 00:29:42,520 Speaker 1: Were you it was a co ed? Did you have 582 00:29:42,520 --> 00:29:45,440 Speaker 1: girls too? Yes? I like I like the idea of 583 00:29:45,480 --> 00:29:48,160 Speaker 1: a uniform. Noah, did you ever feel I know that 584 00:29:48,200 --> 00:29:51,320 Speaker 1: you were kind of like, uh like not into high 585 00:29:51,360 --> 00:29:54,280 Speaker 1: school and wanted to just get through it, and but 586 00:29:54,400 --> 00:29:59,240 Speaker 1: like I felt overwhelmed by wearing the coolest thing looking 587 00:29:59,320 --> 00:30:01,880 Speaker 1: like the girl is that parents had money, like having 588 00:30:01,880 --> 00:30:05,560 Speaker 1: Abercrombie and like, you know, I remember a shirt for 589 00:30:05,600 --> 00:30:08,680 Speaker 1: thirty six dollars was like so much fucking money to 590 00:30:08,720 --> 00:30:11,720 Speaker 1: spend on a dumb Ambercrombie shirt. But like, I always 591 00:30:11,720 --> 00:30:13,720 Speaker 1: wanted uniforms so that we all just not have to 592 00:30:13,760 --> 00:30:15,800 Speaker 1: deal with that. And it was based on your hair, 593 00:30:17,360 --> 00:30:18,840 Speaker 1: which I was also failing out. It looked like the 594 00:30:18,920 --> 00:30:25,040 Speaker 1: Quaker oats guy. Know what what what you're feeling on uniforms? Uh? No? 595 00:30:25,160 --> 00:30:28,080 Speaker 1: I mean like I um, I think in high school 596 00:30:28,120 --> 00:30:30,760 Speaker 1: is when I started to like dress a little bit 597 00:30:30,920 --> 00:30:34,000 Speaker 1: better because I told you that, Um, all of my 598 00:30:34,080 --> 00:30:36,640 Speaker 1: clothes until high school we're basically like hand me downs 599 00:30:36,680 --> 00:30:39,840 Speaker 1: from my cousins who were very well endowed in the 600 00:30:39,920 --> 00:30:44,680 Speaker 1: chest area and I was not. So in high school 601 00:30:44,680 --> 00:30:48,640 Speaker 1: I got to like dress up like a little bit freaky, 602 00:30:49,360 --> 00:30:51,640 Speaker 1: like what like what it was your like favorite outfit? 603 00:30:52,280 --> 00:30:56,240 Speaker 1: I had these um rocket dog flip flops that had 604 00:30:56,360 --> 00:31:01,400 Speaker 1: like a black no, it was like black like fuzzy, 605 00:31:02,120 --> 00:31:06,480 Speaker 1: um like shiny. Uh I don't know what it's called strap. 606 00:31:06,880 --> 00:31:08,920 Speaker 1: And I used to uh. I used to go to 607 00:31:08,920 --> 00:31:11,920 Speaker 1: the village and get like chains and like the spike 608 00:31:12,000 --> 00:31:14,960 Speaker 1: bracelets and stuff. Yeah, okay, so you were a little 609 00:31:14,960 --> 00:31:18,920 Speaker 1: bit like alternative Gothy. Yeah I wasn't Gothy. I was 610 00:31:19,120 --> 00:31:22,640 Speaker 1: just I don't know, like freak, a freak or trying. 611 00:31:23,320 --> 00:31:26,320 Speaker 1: I never wanted to get any attention for any I 612 00:31:26,320 --> 00:31:28,440 Speaker 1: didn't want anyone to be like, what is she like? 613 00:31:28,560 --> 00:31:30,960 Speaker 1: I hated getting attention for my outfit. I wanted to 614 00:31:31,040 --> 00:31:34,800 Speaker 1: blend too, but my mom would buy my clothes and 615 00:31:35,720 --> 00:31:38,160 Speaker 1: like I had a tide. I was like had heart, 616 00:31:38,280 --> 00:31:40,280 Speaker 1: like a heart on I don't know she like she 617 00:31:40,440 --> 00:31:42,760 Speaker 1: dressed me how she I never picked out like I was. 618 00:31:42,840 --> 00:31:45,040 Speaker 1: I'd wear whatever, Like I really didn't you would think 619 00:31:45,040 --> 00:31:47,160 Speaker 1: wearing a tie every day. I just wanted to match, 620 00:31:47,200 --> 00:31:49,719 Speaker 1: I guess, yeah, but I never even thought about what 621 00:31:49,760 --> 00:31:51,480 Speaker 1: I was wearing. I wish I could go back to 622 00:31:51,560 --> 00:31:54,720 Speaker 1: high school. I would just wear because in fifth grade, 623 00:31:54,760 --> 00:31:57,440 Speaker 1: before I cared what people thought, I wore like shirts 624 00:31:57,480 --> 00:31:59,800 Speaker 1: that said save the rainforest and like had animals on them. 625 00:32:00,080 --> 00:32:02,000 Speaker 1: I loved animals. I had one shirt that had different 626 00:32:02,040 --> 00:32:03,880 Speaker 1: kinds of bird poop all over it because I thought 627 00:32:03,880 --> 00:32:06,800 Speaker 1: it was funny. And like, I just liked like things 628 00:32:06,800 --> 00:32:08,840 Speaker 1: that said saved the world, and like had I just 629 00:32:08,880 --> 00:32:10,720 Speaker 1: liked animals, so I put animals on my shirt and 630 00:32:10,720 --> 00:32:14,320 Speaker 1: it's like I I then you start. Then Leslie Lambers 631 00:32:14,360 --> 00:32:16,640 Speaker 1: tells you one day you were that shirt like every 632 00:32:16,720 --> 00:32:20,040 Speaker 1: day and I didn't. I just wore rainforest stick out. 633 00:32:20,040 --> 00:32:21,920 Speaker 1: If you wore a bird ship poop, so even if 634 00:32:21,920 --> 00:32:24,600 Speaker 1: you wore once every two weeks. Yeah, she was just like, 635 00:32:24,800 --> 00:32:26,640 Speaker 1: you seriously wear that shirt every day, and I was 636 00:32:26,720 --> 00:32:28,480 Speaker 1: like I kind of did. Like I remembered how that 637 00:32:28,800 --> 00:32:31,200 Speaker 1: you know the tree frog that every that symbolized save 638 00:32:31,240 --> 00:32:33,240 Speaker 1: the rainforest. It has those like big eyes and it's 639 00:32:33,280 --> 00:32:37,640 Speaker 1: kind of like on a leaf and m yeah. And now, 640 00:32:37,760 --> 00:32:39,560 Speaker 1: like all I want to wear is things that I like, 641 00:32:39,760 --> 00:32:42,520 Speaker 1: so it attracts other people who So if I wear 642 00:32:42,520 --> 00:32:44,680 Speaker 1: a Taylor Swift shirt, I get to talk to the 643 00:32:44,680 --> 00:32:46,959 Speaker 1: the lady at Schnooks who was a little autistic, who 644 00:32:47,000 --> 00:32:48,640 Speaker 1: was like, I like Taylor Swift, and then I get 645 00:32:48,640 --> 00:32:51,040 Speaker 1: to talk. I get to have interactions with other people 646 00:32:51,040 --> 00:32:53,640 Speaker 1: that like the things I like. Well, I mean, maybe 647 00:32:53,760 --> 00:32:57,080 Speaker 1: bring back the rainforest stuff. I remember in like third grade, 648 00:32:57,080 --> 00:32:59,360 Speaker 1: before I went to private school, I was in public school, 649 00:32:59,360 --> 00:33:02,440 Speaker 1: and I they'll remember this photo I had a sleeveless 650 00:33:02,480 --> 00:33:05,880 Speaker 1: shirt with a cool shark and an orange like very 651 00:33:06,000 --> 00:33:09,760 Speaker 1: loud fun clothes. I was smiling year to year. And 652 00:33:09,840 --> 00:33:12,400 Speaker 1: then I went to private school. My parents got divorced, 653 00:33:12,400 --> 00:33:15,400 Speaker 1: and I just didn't I just started wearing dark clothes. 654 00:33:16,240 --> 00:33:18,760 Speaker 1: You just lose so much of what you care about. 655 00:33:18,800 --> 00:33:21,240 Speaker 1: That's why I loved when we were talking about pleasures yesterday, 656 00:33:21,280 --> 00:33:24,880 Speaker 1: like those things are so embarrassing to have that are 657 00:33:24,960 --> 00:33:26,920 Speaker 1: different than the other people in your age group, like 658 00:33:26,960 --> 00:33:29,240 Speaker 1: me liking Taylors with now is different than most thirty 659 00:33:29,240 --> 00:33:31,480 Speaker 1: seven year old women. There's a lot of meat out there, 660 00:33:31,920 --> 00:33:34,760 Speaker 1: but they're not I don't come across them often. But 661 00:33:34,800 --> 00:33:37,200 Speaker 1: if I if I cared about something that was that 662 00:33:37,920 --> 00:33:41,480 Speaker 1: not acceptable at that age, I would have kept it inside. 663 00:33:41,640 --> 00:33:43,840 Speaker 1: And so now it's so nice to just be like yeah, iking, 664 00:33:43,920 --> 00:33:46,400 Speaker 1: like I'm trying to get back there. I bought these 665 00:33:46,480 --> 00:33:49,560 Speaker 1: Haynes sweaters on Amazon. D're nine dollars. I bought them 666 00:33:49,560 --> 00:33:52,600 Speaker 1: in seven different colors. And this is A'm gonna wear 667 00:33:52,640 --> 00:33:55,120 Speaker 1: on the pot. I'm gonna I have one for each week. Great, 668 00:33:55,320 --> 00:33:58,600 Speaker 1: and then I'm done. How many times have I heard? 669 00:33:58,640 --> 00:34:01,200 Speaker 1: And then I'm done? And then you you're not done. 670 00:34:01,280 --> 00:34:04,640 Speaker 1: Just stop this I'm done thing. I'll get it. Yeah, 671 00:34:04,720 --> 00:34:07,520 Speaker 1: he's holding up, I'll get it. Is that the sign 672 00:34:07,520 --> 00:34:10,640 Speaker 1: of just stop saying what you're saying. I was reading 673 00:34:10,880 --> 00:34:13,600 Speaker 1: yesterday on reading about A D D and it reminded 674 00:34:13,640 --> 00:34:15,799 Speaker 1: me of you, D H D A D. And it 675 00:34:15,880 --> 00:34:18,080 Speaker 1: was saying that, um, you know, one of the things 676 00:34:18,320 --> 00:34:21,919 Speaker 1: is just going through hobbies very quickly, going through obsessions, 677 00:34:21,960 --> 00:34:24,399 Speaker 1: like getting really into something and being like getting all 678 00:34:24,400 --> 00:34:27,680 Speaker 1: the equipment for it and then abandoning it within a 679 00:34:27,719 --> 00:34:29,799 Speaker 1: week and then moving on to something else. And it 680 00:34:29,840 --> 00:34:32,440 Speaker 1: reminded me of you. And You're like, I've heard so 681 00:34:32,480 --> 00:34:35,200 Speaker 1: many times like I just got three these three pants, 682 00:34:35,320 --> 00:34:37,479 Speaker 1: I got these three sweatshecks, got these two new shoes. 683 00:34:37,719 --> 00:34:39,920 Speaker 1: I'm done. I'm done. And I'm like, and it's almost 684 00:34:39,920 --> 00:34:41,880 Speaker 1: like the grocery store thing where you go, I'm going 685 00:34:41,880 --> 00:34:43,200 Speaker 1: to the grocery store, you on anything, and you're like, no, 686 00:34:43,239 --> 00:34:47,160 Speaker 1: I'm full, And I'm like, it's not about now, it's 687 00:34:47,200 --> 00:34:50,359 Speaker 1: about late, like you will need other clothes later. You're 688 00:34:50,360 --> 00:34:54,440 Speaker 1: not done, might be done forever. I mean for a while. 689 00:34:54,640 --> 00:34:57,480 Speaker 1: I've stuck with golf for four months now. Golf is 690 00:34:57,520 --> 00:35:01,879 Speaker 1: a real thing. Yeah for you. Um No, I'm sure 691 00:35:02,160 --> 00:35:04,200 Speaker 1: at one point I'll go, well, I'm gonna start dressing 692 00:35:04,200 --> 00:35:06,520 Speaker 1: more mature. But I don't think I think I passed that. 693 00:35:07,320 --> 00:35:09,440 Speaker 1: I look at what my dad wears. My dad wears 694 00:35:09,840 --> 00:35:13,239 Speaker 1: like yeehaw junction like button down there, like the toll 695 00:35:13,320 --> 00:35:17,440 Speaker 1: booth shirts, like he dresses like he wears crocs. He 696 00:35:17,480 --> 00:35:21,160 Speaker 1: just doesn't a man. I mean, you get just comfort. 697 00:35:21,239 --> 00:35:23,840 Speaker 1: But there's something about saying just wearing comfort where you 698 00:35:23,880 --> 00:35:27,600 Speaker 1: go you're accepting your like that you're old in a way. 699 00:35:27,640 --> 00:35:30,360 Speaker 1: So I think there's like a balance of like that's 700 00:35:30,400 --> 00:35:33,920 Speaker 1: the fear, right, what's your favorite thing a woman wears? 701 00:35:33,960 --> 00:35:35,759 Speaker 1: Like your girlfriend, like, what does she look bust in 702 00:35:35,800 --> 00:35:38,000 Speaker 1: when you're like, oh my god, I love a romper. 703 00:35:38,800 --> 00:35:44,120 Speaker 1: Guys love rompers. They fucking love why. I don't know. Chappelle. Yeah, 704 00:35:44,560 --> 00:35:46,920 Speaker 1: Chapelle was wearing another denim romper the other night, and 705 00:35:46,920 --> 00:35:49,440 Speaker 1: I was like, I literally want that romper. It was 706 00:35:49,480 --> 00:35:52,680 Speaker 1: so it was like a feminine romper. I love a romper. 707 00:35:52,760 --> 00:35:54,080 Speaker 1: I do feel bad that you have to take it 708 00:35:54,120 --> 00:35:56,239 Speaker 1: off all the way to ship. Oh I didn't. The 709 00:35:56,239 --> 00:35:58,120 Speaker 1: other yesterday I was wearing one, the one the Leopard 710 00:35:58,120 --> 00:36:00,880 Speaker 1: one or the snakes one. I over, I don't even 711 00:36:00,960 --> 00:36:03,120 Speaker 1: notice I was. I guess that is a romper. Yeah, yeah, 712 00:36:03,160 --> 00:36:05,520 Speaker 1: So I went over to my sister's and I didn't 713 00:36:05,520 --> 00:36:07,440 Speaker 1: feel like taking it unbuttoning it down to take it 714 00:36:07,440 --> 00:36:09,200 Speaker 1: off to P So I pulled it to the side 715 00:36:09,200 --> 00:36:12,440 Speaker 1: like a swimsuit and soaked it in urine. Because when 716 00:36:12,480 --> 00:36:15,719 Speaker 1: you pull your to the side, like it just trickles 717 00:36:15,800 --> 00:36:18,440 Speaker 1: like a cave wall. It doesn't come out like a stream. 718 00:36:18,520 --> 00:36:21,960 Speaker 1: It just to the like a cave woman. Wait wait, wait, 719 00:36:22,000 --> 00:36:23,719 Speaker 1: so wait, so you pull it to the side, when 720 00:36:23,719 --> 00:36:26,719 Speaker 1: did it get on you? When you know when I 721 00:36:26,760 --> 00:36:28,520 Speaker 1: P Because the P doesn't come out in like a 722 00:36:28,520 --> 00:36:30,239 Speaker 1: direct It's not like I have a penis that makes 723 00:36:30,280 --> 00:36:32,120 Speaker 1: it just come out of a street whole. It like 724 00:36:32,520 --> 00:36:35,800 Speaker 1: it just it hits other things and it's like it's spread. 725 00:36:35,840 --> 00:36:38,360 Speaker 1: It's almost like, um, I don't even know how to 726 00:36:38,680 --> 00:36:40,839 Speaker 1: like when Jesus cries like those like when you hold 727 00:36:40,840 --> 00:36:43,799 Speaker 1: a hose. At the end of a hose, you know, yes, yes, 728 00:36:43,840 --> 00:36:45,520 Speaker 1: there's too much blocking it and so they don't go 729 00:36:45,520 --> 00:36:47,839 Speaker 1: on the sides and you have to like really get 730 00:36:47,840 --> 00:36:51,879 Speaker 1: your you know, it was just a little b um 731 00:36:52,200 --> 00:36:55,880 Speaker 1: well you're like I had already been sweating and stuff 732 00:36:55,880 --> 00:36:57,160 Speaker 1: and I was over there, so I was like, oh, 733 00:36:57,200 --> 00:36:59,719 Speaker 1: it's fine, like you know, I'll just change when I 734 00:36:59,719 --> 00:37:01,640 Speaker 1: get home. And that's what I did. So it was fine, 735 00:37:01,760 --> 00:37:04,000 Speaker 1: But yeah, it was It was like that that was 736 00:37:04,040 --> 00:37:06,480 Speaker 1: your last you were wearing that because you had no 737 00:37:06,719 --> 00:37:08,920 Speaker 1: laundry like yet, I know, and it looked like I 738 00:37:09,000 --> 00:37:11,480 Speaker 1: was so oh yeah, but I did. I did laundrying, 739 00:37:11,560 --> 00:37:14,520 Speaker 1: still all in the dryer though, Um we uh, we're 740 00:37:14,560 --> 00:37:19,520 Speaker 1: going to a concert tonight. Yeah. Yeah, I don't know 741 00:37:19,640 --> 00:37:22,759 Speaker 1: any of him, but you're a fan and became a 742 00:37:22,800 --> 00:37:27,239 Speaker 1: fan of him. He's a big Texas uh song singer songwriter. 743 00:37:27,800 --> 00:37:30,560 Speaker 1: I was introduced to him in college freshman year by 744 00:37:30,600 --> 00:37:34,160 Speaker 1: this guy, Brian Vogel, and he, I don't know, he 745 00:37:34,320 --> 00:37:37,360 Speaker 1: liked him and that one song party goes on forever whatever. 746 00:37:38,360 --> 00:37:42,480 Speaker 1: And I think if I listened to his songs three 747 00:37:42,520 --> 00:37:46,719 Speaker 1: times today, yeah, I'll know the lyrics better than you will. 748 00:37:46,880 --> 00:37:49,080 Speaker 1: And you've heard it a million times, Like you are 749 00:37:49,120 --> 00:37:51,799 Speaker 1: not a lyric guy, no, never been. I know the 750 00:37:51,920 --> 00:37:53,680 Speaker 1: last word of everyone? What do you do at a concert? 751 00:37:53,680 --> 00:37:55,840 Speaker 1: Like what's your body gonna do tonight? Like are you 752 00:37:55,840 --> 00:37:57,520 Speaker 1: going to sway to the music. What do you do 753 00:37:57,760 --> 00:37:59,480 Speaker 1: when you're listening to music and you have to stand 754 00:37:59,520 --> 00:38:03,319 Speaker 1: by Luis you just jumped down? Um, I know we're 755 00:38:03,320 --> 00:38:06,000 Speaker 1: not drinking. Yeah, what do you what's going to happen? 756 00:38:06,160 --> 00:38:07,799 Speaker 1: Like That's kind of what I'm nervous about, is like 757 00:38:07,840 --> 00:38:09,600 Speaker 1: what do I do with my body? Because if I 758 00:38:09,680 --> 00:38:11,880 Speaker 1: know the words, I'm like singing along, I'm dancing, and 759 00:38:11,920 --> 00:38:14,000 Speaker 1: I like, no, when the beat's gonna drop out, I 760 00:38:14,000 --> 00:38:16,799 Speaker 1: can like, you know, but there's nothing worse than when 761 00:38:16,840 --> 00:38:19,640 Speaker 1: you don't know it and everyone else like stops at 762 00:38:19,640 --> 00:38:21,880 Speaker 1: this one point, but you're still going because you don't 763 00:38:21,920 --> 00:38:24,680 Speaker 1: know that it drops out. Yeah, you're like this song 764 00:38:24,760 --> 00:38:27,960 Speaker 1: was only two minutes thirty seconds. I but I like 765 00:38:28,000 --> 00:38:31,000 Speaker 1: to find a nook sometimes, like and with just my 766 00:38:31,120 --> 00:38:34,520 Speaker 1: friends and we people watch and I kind of just 767 00:38:34,560 --> 00:38:38,720 Speaker 1: can really take in the musician instead of like, I 768 00:38:38,719 --> 00:38:40,640 Speaker 1: I don't want to be in the front. I don't 769 00:38:40,640 --> 00:38:42,440 Speaker 1: want to be even I don't want to be stuck 770 00:38:43,239 --> 00:38:46,279 Speaker 1: at all. I just never want to be in the front. Oh, 771 00:38:46,360 --> 00:38:48,480 Speaker 1: I love the front. Now are you a front? You're 772 00:38:48,520 --> 00:38:51,680 Speaker 1: like a mosh pitter? I Uh, but I don't like 773 00:38:51,760 --> 00:38:54,480 Speaker 1: being in the front row because I'm terrified that someone 774 00:38:54,520 --> 00:38:56,560 Speaker 1: will put the microphone in my in my face and 775 00:38:56,560 --> 00:38:59,320 Speaker 1: then I'll just be like like Usher did to me 776 00:38:59,360 --> 00:39:01,120 Speaker 1: at the I Heart Awards. Oh my god, that was 777 00:39:01,160 --> 00:39:03,840 Speaker 1: so embarrassing, and um yeah, that's a that's a that 778 00:39:04,040 --> 00:39:07,719 Speaker 1: is terrifying and you might go, uh if I start 779 00:39:07,719 --> 00:39:14,719 Speaker 1: around myself with thing like honestly, Michelle Williams and the 780 00:39:14,920 --> 00:39:18,400 Speaker 1: Survivor sounds like someone put a mike in our in 781 00:39:18,440 --> 00:39:20,719 Speaker 1: her face at a concert. That is how bad it is. 782 00:39:21,239 --> 00:39:26,640 Speaker 1: Um yeah, I don't. I don't want to. I love 783 00:39:26,760 --> 00:39:29,080 Speaker 1: with Jeff Tweety making eye contact with me. I love 784 00:39:29,120 --> 00:39:32,040 Speaker 1: touching Nellie for Tato. I love running my hands through 785 00:39:32,040 --> 00:39:35,440 Speaker 1: Adam Durrett's dreadlocks. I love John Mayer possibly looking like 786 00:39:35,480 --> 00:39:38,919 Speaker 1: I love being front and like I know that they 787 00:39:39,080 --> 00:39:41,040 Speaker 1: well I don't know this, but I would imagine they 788 00:39:41,080 --> 00:39:44,040 Speaker 1: get off on people being such fans that they are 789 00:39:44,080 --> 00:39:46,319 Speaker 1: singing their songs and their mouthing the lyrics, and like 790 00:39:46,680 --> 00:39:48,640 Speaker 1: I if I'm if I'm that fan, I want to 791 00:39:48,680 --> 00:39:50,680 Speaker 1: show like how excited I am and I want to 792 00:39:50,680 --> 00:39:54,960 Speaker 1: be upfront. Um, but about the attention you're getting from them? 793 00:39:54,960 --> 00:39:58,040 Speaker 1: Are you given it? To them. No, it's like, but no, 794 00:39:58,280 --> 00:40:00,040 Speaker 1: it's it's just being as close as I can and 795 00:40:00,160 --> 00:40:02,200 Speaker 1: too brilliance into this thing that has brought me so 796 00:40:02,280 --> 00:40:06,239 Speaker 1: much joy, and also like showing them like I appreciate you, 797 00:40:06,400 --> 00:40:09,480 Speaker 1: thank you, thank you. I'm like, I hope you see 798 00:40:09,520 --> 00:40:13,120 Speaker 1: how much I fucking love you, and I want to 799 00:40:13,120 --> 00:40:16,719 Speaker 1: say that. Uh tonight, though, I have a goal of 800 00:40:16,800 --> 00:40:19,760 Speaker 1: just observing this guy's been around forever right live performing, 801 00:40:19,760 --> 00:40:22,239 Speaker 1: I mean, he's in the sixties, been around. I want 802 00:40:22,239 --> 00:40:24,920 Speaker 1: to just as someone who's looking into getting into singing, 803 00:40:24,920 --> 00:40:28,359 Speaker 1: songwriting and performing, I wanna see what things I like about. 804 00:40:28,640 --> 00:40:31,239 Speaker 1: I'm gonna observe the performance and the stage presence and 805 00:40:31,280 --> 00:40:34,279 Speaker 1: the stage banter and things like that. I'm sure I'll 806 00:40:34,320 --> 00:40:38,160 Speaker 1: have really good banter. He's supposedly pretty funny, and yeah, 807 00:40:38,239 --> 00:40:40,560 Speaker 1: he's gonna probably show you that less is more. It's 808 00:40:40,640 --> 00:40:43,719 Speaker 1: what I'm thinking. Harry Styles is coming tomorrow. I kind 809 00:40:43,719 --> 00:40:46,440 Speaker 1: of want to find Jenny Lewis is opening for him. 810 00:40:46,920 --> 00:40:49,120 Speaker 1: I know, dude, I I kind of want to go. 811 00:40:49,280 --> 00:40:50,960 Speaker 1: Do you want to try to get tickets? Okay? If 812 00:40:50,960 --> 00:40:53,440 Speaker 1: anyone in St. Louis can get us tickets to Harry 813 00:40:53,440 --> 00:40:56,000 Speaker 1: Styles tomorrow, and St. Louis please hit us up. All right, 814 00:40:56,040 --> 00:40:59,840 Speaker 1: let's get to the news. Yes, right, yes, I do. 815 00:41:00,200 --> 00:41:02,719 Speaker 1: Keep watching him dance on stage, and you just got 816 00:41:02,800 --> 00:41:10,720 Speaker 1: a girl crush when he sings that song. It's funny 817 00:41:10,719 --> 00:41:13,040 Speaker 1: because it's like, would I go gay from him? It's like, no, 818 00:41:13,200 --> 00:41:16,320 Speaker 1: he's way more feminine than women. I've probably already fucked. 819 00:41:16,920 --> 00:41:20,840 Speaker 1: I mean I met him once and I did not 820 00:41:20,960 --> 00:41:22,719 Speaker 1: think anything of him before I met him, and then 821 00:41:22,760 --> 00:41:25,360 Speaker 1: in person, I was just like, oh my god, he 822 00:41:25,560 --> 00:41:31,680 Speaker 1: is just just beautiful. He made me realize I'm probably 823 00:41:31,719 --> 00:41:35,920 Speaker 1: a lesbian. How tall is he tall? Right? You know 824 00:41:35,960 --> 00:41:38,200 Speaker 1: I'm hype blind. I don't know. Yeah, you are hype blind. 825 00:41:38,320 --> 00:41:41,320 Speaker 1: I'm very high. And he was like probably still growing 826 00:41:41,320 --> 00:41:43,799 Speaker 1: at the point I met him. I think they were 827 00:41:43,840 --> 00:41:46,560 Speaker 1: still young. Oh yeah, he's a man. Now he's gone through. 828 00:41:46,600 --> 00:41:49,879 Speaker 1: It's like JT fades with that cross tattoo. Yeah, yeah, yeah, 829 00:41:50,080 --> 00:41:52,120 Speaker 1: you know what I'm talking about. That when JT became 830 00:41:52,120 --> 00:41:54,040 Speaker 1: a man. Yeah, when he got the cross tattoo on 831 00:41:54,080 --> 00:41:56,439 Speaker 1: his shoulder and every girl was like, oh, I'll funk 832 00:41:56,520 --> 00:42:08,280 Speaker 1: him now. Yeah yeah, yeah. Alright, the news, baby, it's Tuesday, Phots. 833 00:42:08,280 --> 00:42:10,080 Speaker 1: I hope you're having all the swells, having a great 834 00:42:10,080 --> 00:42:12,479 Speaker 1: time out there. At least I think it's Tuesday. But hey, 835 00:42:12,600 --> 00:42:17,520 Speaker 1: it's Friday somewhere. No it's not. Some schizophrenics maybe you 836 00:42:17,560 --> 00:42:21,080 Speaker 1: think it's Friday. What if it's only Friday in some 837 00:42:21,120 --> 00:42:25,279 Speaker 1: person's mind, that's great, What a good life. Bruce, a 838 00:42:25,360 --> 00:42:30,919 Speaker 1: disabled Kiwi parrot lacking his upper bill, invented a way 839 00:42:30,960 --> 00:42:35,799 Speaker 1: to preen himself by using pebble pebbles grasp between his 840 00:42:35,920 --> 00:42:40,600 Speaker 1: tongue and lower bill. His unique preening behavior appears to 841 00:42:40,640 --> 00:42:43,680 Speaker 1: be deliberate, an innovation for self care as a direct 842 00:42:43,719 --> 00:42:48,000 Speaker 1: consequence of his disability. Wow, that is impressive. This reminds 843 00:42:48,000 --> 00:42:51,000 Speaker 1: me of the octopus teacher. If you guys haven't seen it, um, 844 00:42:51,880 --> 00:42:55,480 Speaker 1: just that little know what that octopus was capable of? Oh, 845 00:42:55,520 --> 00:42:57,840 Speaker 1: what a sweetie, a little bird with he looks like 846 00:42:57,840 --> 00:43:00,440 Speaker 1: he has an underbite with a bird and he uses 847 00:43:00,719 --> 00:43:02,759 Speaker 1: I get what he's doing. He's using the rock. He 848 00:43:02,960 --> 00:43:05,399 Speaker 1: uses his tongue almost as the top bill, and then 849 00:43:05,440 --> 00:43:08,399 Speaker 1: he probably scoops the rocks so that it tugs at 850 00:43:08,400 --> 00:43:11,879 Speaker 1: his feathers. And what a sweet He uses a bunch 851 00:43:11,880 --> 00:43:16,560 Speaker 1: of different objects, and like when you start using when 852 00:43:16,560 --> 00:43:19,080 Speaker 1: animals start to use tools, it almost makes you go, 853 00:43:19,280 --> 00:43:21,919 Speaker 1: why do we eat chickens? You know, it almost makes 854 00:43:21,920 --> 00:43:24,960 Speaker 1: you think that maybe chickens deserve better lives than the 855 00:43:24,960 --> 00:43:28,160 Speaker 1: ones we give them. But but you know, you like 856 00:43:28,280 --> 00:43:32,520 Speaker 1: your eggs too much to that. But I like, dude, 857 00:43:32,960 --> 00:43:37,759 Speaker 1: chickens are in hell because they make eggs, so that 858 00:43:38,400 --> 00:43:42,640 Speaker 1: he does it. And also baby chicks are murdered by 859 00:43:42,680 --> 00:43:47,360 Speaker 1: the millions every year because they are not egg laying heads. 860 00:43:48,120 --> 00:43:51,160 Speaker 1: So yeah, it actually the egg industry leads to a 861 00:43:51,200 --> 00:43:55,440 Speaker 1: ton of But I didn't know that, That's all I thought. 862 00:43:55,880 --> 00:43:59,239 Speaker 1: I didn't know there were two different kind of eggs, right, right, Well, 863 00:43:59,320 --> 00:44:01,000 Speaker 1: all you would have to do is maybe just go 864 00:44:01,360 --> 00:44:04,480 Speaker 1: what's bad about eating eggs? And then you would learnt 865 00:44:06,160 --> 00:44:10,880 Speaker 1: that's a good point to Yeah, this, that's so sweet. 866 00:44:10,920 --> 00:44:14,399 Speaker 1: I love when birds when animals are used tools. There 867 00:44:14,440 --> 00:44:18,279 Speaker 1: was this other um and preening is cleaning itself. I 868 00:44:18,280 --> 00:44:21,120 Speaker 1: didn't know what that was. Yeah, yeah, well you don't 869 00:44:21,160 --> 00:44:24,080 Speaker 1: even know what cleaning yourself is too. You need to 870 00:44:24,120 --> 00:44:29,719 Speaker 1: look up that part. I'll get it. Um. No, the 871 00:44:29,719 --> 00:44:33,279 Speaker 1: the octopus teacher. Uh that that was really interesting to 872 00:44:33,320 --> 00:44:38,040 Speaker 1: me because this octopus, like the guy that was studying him, 873 00:44:38,080 --> 00:44:39,919 Speaker 1: was learning things about him that he would go home 874 00:44:39,920 --> 00:44:42,400 Speaker 1: and research and go No one has any documentation of 875 00:44:42,440 --> 00:44:46,520 Speaker 1: an animal doing this kind of thing, and so animals 876 00:44:46,560 --> 00:44:48,759 Speaker 1: are capable of things that we don't even know yet. 877 00:44:48,920 --> 00:44:54,560 Speaker 1: And it's just so I felt emotions. I don't. I 878 00:44:54,600 --> 00:44:57,719 Speaker 1: haven't felt I honestly, I think that's why. That's a 879 00:44:57,760 --> 00:45:01,160 Speaker 1: feeling that I have right here in my solar plexus 880 00:45:01,200 --> 00:45:05,800 Speaker 1: that I can't let up, Like that octopus cause something 881 00:45:05,800 --> 00:45:08,759 Speaker 1: in me to um, it's a bruin, and I don't 882 00:45:08,760 --> 00:45:10,839 Speaker 1: want to release it because it will be it will 883 00:45:10,880 --> 00:45:16,399 Speaker 1: make everyone's life around me hell to like to excuse 884 00:45:16,960 --> 00:45:20,560 Speaker 1: why do I keep thinking? But yes, I think like 885 00:45:20,800 --> 00:45:24,160 Speaker 1: the way you can't watch that and argue that any 886 00:45:24,200 --> 00:45:30,440 Speaker 1: animal doesn't have the capability to want comfort and is sweet, 887 00:45:30,920 --> 00:45:34,000 Speaker 1: like if an octopus can be so um, you know, 888 00:45:34,000 --> 00:45:37,240 Speaker 1: if you can put so many feelings and emotions into 889 00:45:37,440 --> 00:45:40,239 Speaker 1: the way that it's undeniable. It's not even like you're 890 00:45:40,640 --> 00:45:42,120 Speaker 1: doing the thing where it's what is it called when 891 00:45:42,160 --> 00:45:48,800 Speaker 1: you put you you anthropomorphie, you you who humanize an animal. 892 00:45:48,880 --> 00:45:52,319 Speaker 1: I forget what it's called. It's not that, but it's um. Yeah, 893 00:45:52,360 --> 00:45:57,840 Speaker 1: I think anthropomor uh anthropomorphized. I don't know. It's something 894 00:45:57,880 --> 00:46:02,120 Speaker 1: about when it's just your projecting, like, oh, you're having 895 00:46:02,120 --> 00:46:04,040 Speaker 1: no empathy because you're like that animal is just like 896 00:46:04,040 --> 00:46:06,200 Speaker 1: a human because it looks scared, so it must be scared. 897 00:46:06,239 --> 00:46:08,400 Speaker 1: But it's like animals display different things, so you can't 898 00:46:08,400 --> 00:46:11,680 Speaker 1: just assume. But you got to watch this because you 899 00:46:11,880 --> 00:46:15,400 Speaker 1: just you realize it's every This guy had an epiphany 900 00:46:15,440 --> 00:46:17,319 Speaker 1: one day. He used to never have like this guy 901 00:46:17,360 --> 00:46:20,160 Speaker 1: that the octopus teacher guy. He even said in it, 902 00:46:20,200 --> 00:46:22,960 Speaker 1: he goes, I did not used to have a lot 903 00:46:23,000 --> 00:46:26,120 Speaker 1: of empathy for animals. I just like I didn't care, Like, yeah, 904 00:46:26,120 --> 00:46:28,719 Speaker 1: I knew that they were like cute and like he 905 00:46:29,040 --> 00:46:31,240 Speaker 1: pretty much felt the way most people feel like dogs 906 00:46:31,280 --> 00:46:34,560 Speaker 1: and cats and bunnies and kittens and everything. We're like, 907 00:46:34,560 --> 00:46:37,359 Speaker 1: oh my god. But he didn't extend it. And then 908 00:46:37,440 --> 00:46:40,600 Speaker 1: something happened he like marks the day where he was like, 909 00:46:40,640 --> 00:46:44,319 Speaker 1: oh my god, like this just broke my brain. Like 910 00:46:44,440 --> 00:46:48,880 Speaker 1: every animal it is capable of of this, of the 911 00:46:49,000 --> 00:46:53,400 Speaker 1: of wanting to live, of like wanting to you know, 912 00:46:53,480 --> 00:46:55,239 Speaker 1: not every animal. I think there's some like you know, 913 00:46:55,320 --> 00:46:59,080 Speaker 1: single cell organisms that don't really have feelings but I 914 00:46:59,120 --> 00:47:01,279 Speaker 1: remember the day. I remember that day for me too, 915 00:47:01,360 --> 00:47:05,360 Speaker 1: of like whole what just happened, Like my brain broke, 916 00:47:05,440 --> 00:47:09,200 Speaker 1: of like I can't. I can't eat animals anymore. It's 917 00:47:09,239 --> 00:47:12,839 Speaker 1: not like I don't want to, I can't like that 918 00:47:13,040 --> 00:47:15,879 Speaker 1: is and it's I'm not saying I'm better than anyone else, 919 00:47:15,880 --> 00:47:18,319 Speaker 1: but there's a moment that you can have an awakening 920 00:47:18,320 --> 00:47:23,160 Speaker 1: of sorts where you just realize it's not you can't 921 00:47:23,200 --> 00:47:27,120 Speaker 1: do it anymore, because every animal, like even bugs, are 922 00:47:27,200 --> 00:47:31,040 Speaker 1: like little. The video that we were talking about yesterday 923 00:47:31,200 --> 00:47:35,560 Speaker 1: with Michael the flight attendant helping Veniceo, the poor old 924 00:47:35,560 --> 00:47:38,520 Speaker 1: man who had Alzheimer's who went in his pants at 925 00:47:38,520 --> 00:47:43,040 Speaker 1: the airport and just helping keep deaf. Okay, so let's 926 00:47:43,040 --> 00:47:46,600 Speaker 1: talk about that video. It's about six minutes long. It 927 00:47:46,640 --> 00:47:48,200 Speaker 1: was on our story yesterday. We put it up. We 928 00:47:48,239 --> 00:47:49,920 Speaker 1: told you then to show to go watch. It is 929 00:47:49,960 --> 00:47:53,360 Speaker 1: from a any reality show called Airline I believe that 930 00:47:53,400 --> 00:47:57,080 Speaker 1: would just um follow the you know, the drama of 931 00:47:57,080 --> 00:47:59,360 Speaker 1: working in the airline industry. And there is a story 932 00:47:59,560 --> 00:48:01,759 Speaker 1: one day of a guy at l a X, an 933 00:48:01,760 --> 00:48:04,960 Speaker 1: old man and his like probably late eighties, whose wheelchair 934 00:48:05,000 --> 00:48:08,360 Speaker 1: bound and his wife, the sweet woman who is you know, 935 00:48:08,400 --> 00:48:11,960 Speaker 1: his caretaker, and they're stalled at the gate of Southwest flight. 936 00:48:11,960 --> 00:48:14,040 Speaker 1: They've been kicked off the flight because he defecated in 937 00:48:14,080 --> 00:48:16,239 Speaker 1: his pants, and they go, we gotta call Mike, and 938 00:48:16,280 --> 00:48:19,160 Speaker 1: Mike is just like walking like at first, I go, 939 00:48:19,200 --> 00:48:22,000 Speaker 1: I don't like this guy's walking had a weird energy. 940 00:48:22,040 --> 00:48:23,680 Speaker 1: At first, Yeah, I go, I don't. I don't know 941 00:48:23,680 --> 00:48:25,359 Speaker 1: that I'm gonna like this guy. And then this guy 942 00:48:25,719 --> 00:48:30,040 Speaker 1: just handled this situation in a way that you just 943 00:48:30,440 --> 00:48:32,440 Speaker 1: most people wouldn't And I think most people would think 944 00:48:32,440 --> 00:48:34,360 Speaker 1: they would handle it that way, but they wouldn't. You know. 945 00:48:34,440 --> 00:48:37,959 Speaker 1: It's like he not only you know, makes this woman 946 00:48:38,000 --> 00:48:40,960 Speaker 1: feel so she's humiliated that her husband's pooped and she 947 00:48:41,000 --> 00:48:45,200 Speaker 1: doesn't know what to do about it. And he's yeah, yeah, 948 00:48:45,480 --> 00:48:48,680 Speaker 1: and they just want to go home to Albuquerque, and 949 00:48:49,160 --> 00:48:50,640 Speaker 1: he's like, we're gonna get you home. We're gonna get 950 00:48:50,640 --> 00:48:52,400 Speaker 1: you on another flight. Don't you worry about that. And 951 00:48:52,440 --> 00:48:54,719 Speaker 1: he he goes, we got to get their luggage off 952 00:48:54,760 --> 00:48:56,680 Speaker 1: the plane. And then he goes and eat change is 953 00:48:56,840 --> 00:49:00,600 Speaker 1: the man himself, and I'll help you. You don't have 954 00:49:00,640 --> 00:49:03,359 Speaker 1: to say sorry. You have to say sorry. He goes 955 00:49:03,440 --> 00:49:05,760 Speaker 1: and then he related to her, which I think helps 956 00:49:05,800 --> 00:49:08,560 Speaker 1: so much when someone's going through something like being like 957 00:49:08,600 --> 00:49:12,279 Speaker 1: my mom is sick. This is like oh that was 958 00:49:12,360 --> 00:49:15,360 Speaker 1: his quote, this is life, which I you are not alone, 959 00:49:15,480 --> 00:49:18,680 Speaker 1: you know you're not alone, and he goes, this is life, 960 00:49:19,160 --> 00:49:21,680 Speaker 1: and that that just makes it like, that's what life is. 961 00:49:21,719 --> 00:49:25,520 Speaker 1: Life is ugly, it's messy. Sometimes you got book gloves 962 00:49:25,560 --> 00:49:28,040 Speaker 1: on and white. But guys asked for five dollars and 963 00:49:28,080 --> 00:49:31,479 Speaker 1: fifty cents an hour, and uh yeah, you just gotta 964 00:49:31,600 --> 00:49:34,040 Speaker 1: know that, Like that person doesn't want to be shipping 965 00:49:34,040 --> 00:49:36,759 Speaker 1: their pants are like you just all you have to 966 00:49:36,760 --> 00:49:39,319 Speaker 1: do is go would do you think this person wanted this? 967 00:49:39,920 --> 00:49:42,280 Speaker 1: Like do you think they wanted to be in this scenario? 968 00:49:42,360 --> 00:49:44,719 Speaker 1: Like even yesterday I was over at my parents house 969 00:49:44,760 --> 00:49:46,400 Speaker 1: and or at my sister's house, and my mom was 970 00:49:46,440 --> 00:49:51,040 Speaker 1: talking about the um you know, the three comedians who 971 00:49:51,400 --> 00:49:54,680 Speaker 1: died or the three comic There's one comic and then 972 00:49:54,760 --> 00:49:58,200 Speaker 1: two other people and then Kate Quickly, a comedian. Four 973 00:49:58,239 --> 00:50:01,080 Speaker 1: people were like three of them died from fence at 974 00:50:01,080 --> 00:50:04,200 Speaker 1: all in cocaine. They were all just like partying and 975 00:50:04,280 --> 00:50:06,520 Speaker 1: Kate Quickly, we don't even know what's gonna happen with her? 976 00:50:06,520 --> 00:50:09,480 Speaker 1: Thankfully she survived. She is someone that I know and like, 977 00:50:09,840 --> 00:50:13,319 Speaker 1: I am definitely pulling for. And you know, first of all, 978 00:50:13,360 --> 00:50:15,319 Speaker 1: it's got to be embarrassing that everyone now knows you've 979 00:50:15,360 --> 00:50:17,520 Speaker 1: done coke and like you you did fent at all, 980 00:50:17,600 --> 00:50:20,200 Speaker 1: and uh, you got a bad supply, and it's like 981 00:50:21,040 --> 00:50:23,200 Speaker 1: and my mom's goes. You know, my parents are like 982 00:50:23,239 --> 00:50:26,359 Speaker 1: they need to, you know, prosecute the dealer, Like they 983 00:50:26,360 --> 00:50:28,719 Speaker 1: need to find who the dealer was and who did this. 984 00:50:28,800 --> 00:50:30,920 Speaker 1: And I'm like, do you think the dealer wants to 985 00:50:30,960 --> 00:50:34,160 Speaker 1: be dealing cocaine? Like I don't know, Like I don't, 986 00:50:35,239 --> 00:50:38,240 Speaker 1: I don't, I can't. I'm with your parents on this one. Honestly, 987 00:50:38,480 --> 00:50:41,920 Speaker 1: I don't think anyone deals. Yes, I understand what people 988 00:50:41,920 --> 00:50:43,919 Speaker 1: deal drugs when they have other options, but I think 989 00:50:44,000 --> 00:50:47,360 Speaker 1: so our system is so broken that in order for 990 00:50:47,400 --> 00:50:51,040 Speaker 1: some people to survive, they that's the only way they're 991 00:50:51,040 --> 00:50:54,280 Speaker 1: going to be able. You can't afford a one bedroom 992 00:50:54,320 --> 00:50:56,560 Speaker 1: apartment on minimum wage. And if you're a single mom 993 00:50:56,640 --> 00:50:59,359 Speaker 1: or a single dad that has four kids and you're 994 00:50:59,360 --> 00:51:02,080 Speaker 1: trying to clothe them and feed them, and you can 995 00:51:02,160 --> 00:51:06,600 Speaker 1: either go get a job at Walgreen's years old. He's 996 00:51:07,840 --> 00:51:10,600 Speaker 1: a maserati. Well, I bet he has shitty parents and 997 00:51:10,600 --> 00:51:12,480 Speaker 1: do you think he and that and he didn't get 998 00:51:12,560 --> 00:51:14,600 Speaker 1: enough love or support and he probably goes to a 999 00:51:14,600 --> 00:51:17,239 Speaker 1: shitty school because he was born into a shitty neighborhood. 1000 00:51:17,560 --> 00:51:20,840 Speaker 1: It's like, no worry. No one wants to be these things. 1001 00:51:20,840 --> 00:51:22,719 Speaker 1: No one wants to be a bad person. I mean, 1002 00:51:23,400 --> 00:51:25,560 Speaker 1: and I know this is like where does it end? 1003 00:51:25,760 --> 00:51:28,920 Speaker 1: It doesn't end. You can extend. I can extend empathy 1004 00:51:28,960 --> 00:51:32,320 Speaker 1: for Trump even because he didn't choose his fucking awful 1005 00:51:32,360 --> 00:51:35,840 Speaker 1: brain and he's a bad person, but like he can't 1006 00:51:35,880 --> 00:51:38,680 Speaker 1: help it. He's just a terrible person and he was 1007 00:51:38,719 --> 00:51:41,040 Speaker 1: born with that brain. I just think if you knew 1008 00:51:41,080 --> 00:51:43,960 Speaker 1: fat in always in it, like if you're dealing coke, 1009 00:51:44,160 --> 00:51:46,880 Speaker 1: pure coke. People are having a good time, that's fine, 1010 00:51:47,080 --> 00:51:49,520 Speaker 1: but once you know that you're putting fat and all 1011 00:51:49,560 --> 00:51:52,319 Speaker 1: in it because it's cheaper, even though that some people 1012 00:51:52,400 --> 00:51:54,399 Speaker 1: might die. Go well, I don't think that. Well where 1013 00:51:54,440 --> 00:51:56,360 Speaker 1: I said, I I get what you're saying. They're like 1014 00:51:56,400 --> 00:52:00,200 Speaker 1: the person that put it in and knows the consequences 1015 00:52:00,000 --> 00:52:01,759 Speaker 1: as we should find them and punish them. So that 1016 00:52:01,800 --> 00:52:04,080 Speaker 1: there's an example set to other people who might do that. 1017 00:52:04,160 --> 00:52:08,040 Speaker 1: But I do think that just because the deal we shouldn't. 1018 00:52:08,040 --> 00:52:10,160 Speaker 1: My parents just assumed the dealer put it in I go, 1019 00:52:10,280 --> 00:52:12,480 Speaker 1: But the dealer got it from someone, so maybe was 1020 00:52:12,520 --> 00:52:15,040 Speaker 1: that person. So it doesn't end. I always want my 1021 00:52:15,080 --> 00:52:18,000 Speaker 1: parents to know, like, if I die, don't avenge my death, 1022 00:52:18,120 --> 00:52:22,600 Speaker 1: because I guarantee if someone murders me, they had a 1023 00:52:22,680 --> 00:52:28,759 Speaker 1: fucking terrible childhood that they were probably physically abuse, you know, 1024 00:52:28,840 --> 00:52:32,479 Speaker 1: like murder their parents, murder their grandparents. Like whoever does 1025 00:52:32,520 --> 00:52:35,080 Speaker 1: the thing? Like? And you know, I f and eye 1026 00:52:35,080 --> 00:52:38,880 Speaker 1: doesn't work, like it just it's it um to I 1027 00:52:38,920 --> 00:52:40,600 Speaker 1: don't know. I just I. My mom was like, we 1028 00:52:40,719 --> 00:52:43,480 Speaker 1: gottas no one can do drugs, no one can do 1029 00:52:43,600 --> 00:52:47,920 Speaker 1: cokeer heroine. My sister goes, oh yeah, we know. She goes, no, 1030 00:52:48,239 --> 00:52:50,920 Speaker 1: she goes, we can't do coke er heroine. You guys, 1031 00:52:50,920 --> 00:52:53,360 Speaker 1: this is scary, this fent and al. She's were googling it. 1032 00:52:53,480 --> 00:52:57,080 Speaker 1: She's like, my god, and I go, it's so funny 1033 00:52:57,120 --> 00:52:58,560 Speaker 1: to me because we're just My sister and I are 1034 00:52:58,560 --> 00:53:01,480 Speaker 1: both like a ring, would we do coker here? When 1035 00:53:01,480 --> 00:53:03,239 Speaker 1: she goes, I don't mean us. I mean just like 1036 00:53:03,400 --> 00:53:07,200 Speaker 1: anyone and I'm like, yeah, we we everyone kind of 1037 00:53:07,200 --> 00:53:09,799 Speaker 1: knows that. But but she is right, like the fence 1038 00:53:09,800 --> 00:53:11,879 Speaker 1: and al thing is out of them. That's how mac 1039 00:53:11,920 --> 00:53:14,600 Speaker 1: Miller died. And uh, I was listening to Michael Kay 1040 00:53:14,600 --> 00:53:17,600 Speaker 1: Williams who just actually passed away. Who knows what was 1041 00:53:17,640 --> 00:53:19,839 Speaker 1: in his I think it was heroindow, but it might 1042 00:53:19,880 --> 00:53:22,279 Speaker 1: have been laced with that and all, who knows. Uh. 1043 00:53:22,320 --> 00:53:24,680 Speaker 1: He was talking about the wire and that's really what 1044 00:53:24,719 --> 00:53:26,680 Speaker 1: they wanted to show with the wires, that like no 1045 00:53:26,719 --> 00:53:29,759 Speaker 1: one wanted to what you're saying, Like, no one wants 1046 00:53:29,800 --> 00:53:32,120 Speaker 1: to be a drug dealer, and it's their environment that 1047 00:53:32,200 --> 00:53:34,400 Speaker 1: pushes them there. They don't wake up and go, hey, 1048 00:53:34,680 --> 00:53:37,400 Speaker 1: I want to fucking no one wants to be in 1049 00:53:37,440 --> 00:53:39,920 Speaker 1: a gang. A lot of times there they have no choice. 1050 00:53:40,000 --> 00:53:42,920 Speaker 1: They'll get they'll get beat up and murdered if they 1051 00:53:42,920 --> 00:53:45,000 Speaker 1: don't join the gang. And then you hate people for 1052 00:53:45,080 --> 00:53:46,920 Speaker 1: being in a gang. But it's like if you were 1053 00:53:46,960 --> 00:53:51,440 Speaker 1: born you white privilege motherfucker who thinks these people chose 1054 00:53:51,480 --> 00:53:54,040 Speaker 1: to be in a gang, and like they're bad inherently 1055 00:53:54,040 --> 00:53:55,839 Speaker 1: and that you would have done the same thing if 1056 00:53:55,840 --> 00:53:57,919 Speaker 1: you were born in their situations. So stop this whole 1057 00:53:57,920 --> 00:54:00,600 Speaker 1: thing of like I wouldn't do that if I were them, 1058 00:54:00,680 --> 00:54:04,200 Speaker 1: Yes you would. It's called empathy. Realize you have a 1059 00:54:04,200 --> 00:54:06,360 Speaker 1: different brain, you have different parents, you have a different 1060 00:54:06,440 --> 00:54:10,680 Speaker 1: socio economic status that you were born into, and yes, 1061 00:54:10,719 --> 00:54:12,799 Speaker 1: you have things in your life that that the gang 1062 00:54:12,800 --> 00:54:15,600 Speaker 1: member should empathize with the fact that you can't fucking 1063 00:54:15,719 --> 00:54:19,080 Speaker 1: understand why they would be gang members. They should empathize 1064 00:54:19,080 --> 00:54:20,680 Speaker 1: with the fact that your brain is so fucked up 1065 00:54:20,680 --> 00:54:23,120 Speaker 1: that you can't have empathy. Like we all need to 1066 00:54:23,160 --> 00:54:26,400 Speaker 1: extend it all the biker gang just admit that the 1067 00:54:26,480 --> 00:54:31,239 Speaker 1: outfits are cute. I just love biker gangs. Out they are, 1068 00:54:31,280 --> 00:54:33,759 Speaker 1: but they're all wearing leather together. I don't know, it's 1069 00:54:33,800 --> 00:54:37,080 Speaker 1: it's so cute. It's always funny for people who act 1070 00:54:37,120 --> 00:54:39,000 Speaker 1: like they don't give a ship or they're so like, 1071 00:54:39,160 --> 00:54:42,400 Speaker 1: you know, against the grain, like like even Chappelle wearing 1072 00:54:42,400 --> 00:54:45,200 Speaker 1: a jumper. That's always my example of like this guy 1073 00:54:45,239 --> 00:54:49,160 Speaker 1: who apparently doesn't give a ship. He chose a onesie 1074 00:54:49,600 --> 00:54:52,160 Speaker 1: that he buttons up. That's a guy who cares. He 1075 00:54:52,280 --> 00:54:55,600 Speaker 1: made patches with his name on him that everyone in 1076 00:54:55,640 --> 00:54:58,640 Speaker 1: his entourage wears. That's a guy who cares what you 1077 00:54:58,680 --> 00:55:00,839 Speaker 1: think about him. Yes, and I think he would even 1078 00:55:00,840 --> 00:55:03,400 Speaker 1: admit that himself. Even the Edge comic would say that, Okay, 1079 00:55:03,520 --> 00:55:07,080 Speaker 1: oh Edge, he's staying away, though for now he might come. 1080 00:55:07,400 --> 00:55:10,440 Speaker 1: Studies of regret show that people are more inclined to 1081 00:55:10,440 --> 00:55:13,680 Speaker 1: regret the things they don't do rather than the things 1082 00:55:13,719 --> 00:55:16,640 Speaker 1: they do, which is interesting because usually when you talk 1083 00:55:16,680 --> 00:55:20,359 Speaker 1: about regret, like I fucking regret doing coke that night, 1084 00:55:20,400 --> 00:55:24,000 Speaker 1: and then I regret this, But then it's not like 1085 00:55:24,680 --> 00:55:26,799 Speaker 1: but then yeah, so like the things you didn't do, 1086 00:55:26,960 --> 00:55:30,000 Speaker 1: whether it's like what maybe you didn't study in college, 1087 00:55:30,040 --> 00:55:32,400 Speaker 1: what you actually really wanted to do. It's almost like 1088 00:55:32,760 --> 00:55:36,200 Speaker 1: the death bet thing people say they don't regret. They're 1089 00:55:36,360 --> 00:55:38,359 Speaker 1: what people say on their death butt is not what 1090 00:55:38,440 --> 00:55:42,040 Speaker 1: they did did, it's what they didn't do, like being 1091 00:55:42,040 --> 00:55:45,600 Speaker 1: with family more, be more present, like all these things that, 1092 00:55:45,719 --> 00:55:48,680 Speaker 1: like you died tomorrow, what would be a regret of yours? 1093 00:55:49,719 --> 00:55:54,200 Speaker 1: Living in St. Louis No, Um, I'm turning never answering 1094 00:55:54,200 --> 00:56:01,120 Speaker 1: a question, sincerely, Yeah, no help there, it's the first 1095 00:56:01,160 --> 00:56:03,520 Speaker 1: time I know, what do you do? You feel like? 1096 00:56:03,840 --> 00:56:05,560 Speaker 1: I think of regrets in my life and I'm like 1097 00:56:06,200 --> 00:56:09,359 Speaker 1: it's when I've I've hurt people that I love three 1098 00:56:09,360 --> 00:56:15,439 Speaker 1: seconds ago. Yeah, um, let me think, Uh, what would 1099 00:56:15,440 --> 00:56:19,480 Speaker 1: I regret not doing or just um or believe you know, 1100 00:56:19,760 --> 00:56:22,360 Speaker 1: I regret not reading a book that someone recommended to 1101 00:56:22,400 --> 00:56:26,720 Speaker 1: me that would have changed my perspective on something I regret. 1102 00:56:26,960 --> 00:56:30,399 Speaker 1: I probably regret not getting closer with my grandparents while 1103 00:56:30,400 --> 00:56:32,759 Speaker 1: they were around. I feel like my brother didn't a 1104 00:56:32,880 --> 00:56:35,480 Speaker 1: much better job with that. What are you missing out 1105 00:56:35,480 --> 00:56:39,080 Speaker 1: on now because of that? You think stories understanding where 1106 00:56:39,080 --> 00:56:42,600 Speaker 1: I come from, Like why maybe I behave a certain way, 1107 00:56:42,600 --> 00:56:44,920 Speaker 1: why I like a certain thing, what they had to 1108 00:56:44,960 --> 00:56:47,920 Speaker 1: go through struggles which might make me appreciate more what 1109 00:56:48,080 --> 00:56:50,360 Speaker 1: I have. Don't you have a grandma that still alive? 1110 00:56:50,440 --> 00:56:53,040 Speaker 1: Can't you actually know what? I want to call her? Oh, 1111 00:56:53,080 --> 00:56:55,280 Speaker 1: you wouldn't call her? Just trying not to be sincere 1112 00:56:55,640 --> 00:56:58,640 Speaker 1: she's a hundred and she has dementia and she doesn't 1113 00:56:58,640 --> 00:57:00,839 Speaker 1: really know where she is. She worries though you know 1114 00:57:01,560 --> 00:57:05,399 Speaker 1: they're just three minutes. Yeah, yeah, yes, like yeah so 1115 00:57:05,640 --> 00:57:07,160 Speaker 1: I could. Yeah, No, I could do that with my 1116 00:57:07,200 --> 00:57:10,200 Speaker 1: mom too, and I still I don't. I'm not like 1117 00:57:10,960 --> 00:57:13,680 Speaker 1: I don't do it. Yeah, regretting what you. Yeah, I 1118 00:57:13,680 --> 00:57:15,880 Speaker 1: guess my regret is what I've done, it's not what 1119 00:57:15,960 --> 00:57:17,880 Speaker 1: I haven't done. So I'm trying to think of what 1120 00:57:17,960 --> 00:57:22,200 Speaker 1: I haven't done that I regret, and it's um probably 1121 00:57:22,280 --> 00:57:25,480 Speaker 1: like no, no, no, it wouldn't be like that. It 1122 00:57:25,480 --> 00:57:29,000 Speaker 1: would be like I regret um, I regret, not um. 1123 00:57:29,600 --> 00:57:33,040 Speaker 1: Apologizing for things like the other day, I apologize to 1124 00:57:33,080 --> 00:57:36,479 Speaker 1: someone that I felt like I had wronged before, and 1125 00:57:37,200 --> 00:57:41,400 Speaker 1: I was able to reach out and like, because I thought, like, 1126 00:57:41,520 --> 00:57:43,760 Speaker 1: what if I die, you want to I want to 1127 00:57:43,760 --> 00:57:45,880 Speaker 1: do that? And how long ago we were like talking 1128 00:57:45,960 --> 00:57:48,160 Speaker 1: about this person and I knew that I had like 1129 00:57:48,320 --> 00:57:51,040 Speaker 1: past beef with them, and I was just like, I 1130 00:57:51,400 --> 00:57:54,320 Speaker 1: this person I actually really respect and I and I 1131 00:57:54,360 --> 00:57:56,439 Speaker 1: like and they and I was able to see through 1132 00:57:56,480 --> 00:57:58,400 Speaker 1: their work that they've been through a lot of struggle 1133 00:57:58,440 --> 00:58:01,840 Speaker 1: and that their life isn't I was able to empathize 1134 00:58:01,840 --> 00:58:04,720 Speaker 1: with the person and be like, whatever whatever I assumed 1135 00:58:04,720 --> 00:58:08,000 Speaker 1: about this person, they actually are extremely they have their 1136 00:58:08,040 --> 00:58:11,320 Speaker 1: own story, what brought them to however I judged them 1137 00:58:11,840 --> 00:58:15,160 Speaker 1: and how did they react? They they accepted it and 1138 00:58:15,240 --> 00:58:18,000 Speaker 1: we're like thank you, and then we it was just 1139 00:58:18,040 --> 00:58:19,720 Speaker 1: like good to go. So the next time I see 1140 00:58:19,720 --> 00:58:21,400 Speaker 1: this person, it's not gonna be weird. And it's just 1141 00:58:21,640 --> 00:58:24,280 Speaker 1: I don't expect to be best friends or like, you know, 1142 00:58:25,080 --> 00:58:27,320 Speaker 1: like chummy every time we see each other. But now 1143 00:58:27,880 --> 00:58:30,720 Speaker 1: I just took accountability for being a twat, you know, 1144 00:58:30,960 --> 00:58:33,200 Speaker 1: and they feel like you're an actual twatter? Was it 1145 00:58:33,280 --> 00:58:34,840 Speaker 1: more in your head? Like you know what I mean? 1146 00:58:34,880 --> 00:58:37,040 Speaker 1: You know sometimes when you're like, I gotta owe that 1147 00:58:37,080 --> 00:58:40,040 Speaker 1: person apology and they must be thinking about this or 1148 00:58:40,200 --> 00:58:42,600 Speaker 1: it must be they thought I was a lot for sure, 1149 00:58:42,840 --> 00:58:45,280 Speaker 1: they did, and they should have like I, you know, 1150 00:58:45,520 --> 00:58:48,800 Speaker 1: it was that was that was one that was you know, 1151 00:58:48,920 --> 00:58:52,360 Speaker 1: I I went ahead and did only because I was like, 1152 00:58:52,480 --> 00:58:54,840 Speaker 1: I would regret this if I died and that never 1153 00:58:54,920 --> 00:58:58,920 Speaker 1: got tied up um or they died. And and also 1154 00:58:59,080 --> 00:59:00,880 Speaker 1: because I was exposed to some of their work that 1155 00:59:00,960 --> 00:59:02,919 Speaker 1: let me in a little bit more and showed me 1156 00:59:03,440 --> 00:59:05,600 Speaker 1: the struggle that that person came from. And I just 1157 00:59:05,720 --> 00:59:07,800 Speaker 1: was like filled with a lot of love for that 1158 00:59:07,840 --> 00:59:11,360 Speaker 1: person and like, wow, thank you. They shared something really vulnerable. 1159 00:59:11,400 --> 00:59:14,040 Speaker 1: That person isn't as isn't what I thought. And I 1160 00:59:14,080 --> 00:59:16,400 Speaker 1: shouldn't make assumptions about people ever, and it's so hard 1161 00:59:16,400 --> 00:59:19,840 Speaker 1: not to do and no, what about you. The thing 1162 00:59:19,880 --> 00:59:23,560 Speaker 1: that comes to mind is, um, I guess I I 1163 00:59:23,600 --> 00:59:27,000 Speaker 1: wish that I wasn't such like a hermit in my twenties. 1164 00:59:27,760 --> 00:59:32,160 Speaker 1: I was so um, I don't know, like anti social 1165 00:59:32,240 --> 00:59:34,920 Speaker 1: and I had a lot of like fun opportunities that 1166 00:59:35,000 --> 00:59:37,880 Speaker 1: I could have made more of. And I and that's 1167 00:59:37,960 --> 00:59:42,080 Speaker 1: my regret. I got invited to go to the Grateful 1168 00:59:42,160 --> 00:59:45,919 Speaker 1: Dead concert last night, um and John Mayer's like Dead 1169 00:59:45,960 --> 00:59:48,560 Speaker 1: and Company done Mayor is there and um, and I 1170 00:59:48,600 --> 00:59:51,280 Speaker 1: turned it down because I just didn't feel like standing 1171 00:59:51,280 --> 00:59:53,880 Speaker 1: all night. I'm going to the concert tonight And I 1172 00:59:53,920 --> 00:59:57,000 Speaker 1: turned it down. And I wrote the person later being like, 1173 00:59:57,120 --> 00:59:59,800 Speaker 1: I really regret I didn't go. I really regret it, 1174 00:59:59,880 --> 01:00:02,520 Speaker 1: being as it would have been fun. I haven't been 1175 01:00:02,520 --> 01:00:04,840 Speaker 1: to that venue in a while. It's now named something. 1176 01:00:04,880 --> 01:00:09,360 Speaker 1: It's named like the American Casino Stages, and I thought 1177 01:00:09,400 --> 01:00:12,400 Speaker 1: it was going to be some casino like venue indoors, 1178 01:00:12,440 --> 01:00:14,160 Speaker 1: but it's Riverport. It's the place I went to go 1179 01:00:14,240 --> 01:00:16,240 Speaker 1: see Dave Matthews as a teen, Like it was it 1180 01:00:16,280 --> 01:00:19,600 Speaker 1: would have been nostalgic. But then I reasoned that there 1181 01:00:19,640 --> 01:00:21,680 Speaker 1: was a reason I didn't go, And the reason is 1182 01:00:21,760 --> 01:00:23,760 Speaker 1: that I could have been in a car crash there 1183 01:00:23,960 --> 01:00:25,320 Speaker 1: or like on the way there all the way back, 1184 01:00:25,360 --> 01:00:28,240 Speaker 1: like who knows when I avoided I needed to watch 1185 01:00:28,320 --> 01:00:30,960 Speaker 1: nine eleven documentary with you and and learn how we 1186 01:00:31,000 --> 01:00:33,280 Speaker 1: got to a place where the Taliban hated us. And 1187 01:00:33,280 --> 01:00:35,120 Speaker 1: then we put on scenes from marriage and I was like, 1188 01:00:35,320 --> 01:00:41,000 Speaker 1: scenes scenes from marriage, Oh my god, that I kind 1189 01:00:41,000 --> 01:00:43,240 Speaker 1: of liked it. I can't wait for the next episode. Actually, 1190 01:00:43,280 --> 01:00:45,280 Speaker 1: all right, we'll take a short break and come back 1191 01:00:45,320 --> 01:00:56,000 Speaker 1: with why do I Care? Why do I care? All right? 1192 01:00:56,040 --> 01:00:58,680 Speaker 1: Why do I care? Andrew? This is big news. Are 1193 01:00:58,680 --> 01:01:02,240 Speaker 1: you sitting? Yeah? I mean you're looking at me. I 1194 01:01:02,240 --> 01:01:06,040 Speaker 1: don't thought you could be floating. Are you sure? Kanye 1195 01:01:06,040 --> 01:01:10,240 Speaker 1: West follows Kim Kardashian back on Instagram. I haven't heard 1196 01:01:10,280 --> 01:01:12,480 Speaker 1: this usually I know what's going on with why do 1197 01:01:12,520 --> 01:01:15,800 Speaker 1: I Care? Oh my god? Yeah. So the big thing 1198 01:01:15,840 --> 01:01:17,880 Speaker 1: I guess with celebrities now is when you know it's 1199 01:01:17,960 --> 01:01:24,760 Speaker 1: really over the follow Um, all right, well, you know 1200 01:01:25,080 --> 01:01:27,160 Speaker 1: that is the mother of his children. Someone pointed out 1201 01:01:27,160 --> 01:01:31,600 Speaker 1: the other day on de moi subreddit that there's an 1202 01:01:31,640 --> 01:01:34,160 Speaker 1: interest they go, what's like an interesting fact you've realized 1203 01:01:34,160 --> 01:01:36,400 Speaker 1: about celebrities that no one's noticed and someone said that 1204 01:01:36,440 --> 01:01:39,760 Speaker 1: all of the Kardashians only have babies with one man 1205 01:01:42,000 --> 01:01:45,080 Speaker 1: even when they're not like actually on good terms. Like 1206 01:01:45,320 --> 01:01:48,440 Speaker 1: there's something about that family that goes, we're not gonna 1207 01:01:48,520 --> 01:01:51,320 Speaker 1: do We're not going to accept the mother. I mean, obviously, 1208 01:01:52,080 --> 01:01:54,840 Speaker 1: Robert Creditian died so she couldn't do so she went 1209 01:01:54,880 --> 01:02:01,320 Speaker 1: over to before he died. Yes, I believe, Oh yes, Um, 1210 01:02:01,360 --> 01:02:02,800 Speaker 1: I don't know. I'm not like trying to quiz you. 1211 01:02:02,880 --> 01:02:05,439 Speaker 1: I'm just you know, I think they were, but you know, um, 1212 01:02:05,520 --> 01:02:10,960 Speaker 1: Chloe had a baby with Tristan. Tristan, yeah, to two 1213 01:02:11,000 --> 01:02:13,439 Speaker 1: different I think. And then Kylie is now having another 1214 01:02:13,480 --> 01:02:17,360 Speaker 1: baby with her baby daddy. But their speculation that they 1215 01:02:17,360 --> 01:02:20,120 Speaker 1: aren't really on good term Scott Disick that guy, Like 1216 01:02:20,400 --> 01:02:22,400 Speaker 1: that's an interesting thing that I would have never put together. 1217 01:02:22,440 --> 01:02:25,080 Speaker 1: So I think that Kim will maybe continue to have 1218 01:02:25,120 --> 01:02:28,720 Speaker 1: babies with Kanye, even if they don't have a three 1219 01:02:28,800 --> 01:02:34,760 Speaker 1: or four st Chicago Norris maybe three and then another 1220 01:02:35,320 --> 01:02:38,560 Speaker 1: one maybe that they did Sergasy. I don't know, um, 1221 01:02:38,600 --> 01:02:41,840 Speaker 1: but what I do know is, um, yeah, I mean 1222 01:02:42,120 --> 01:02:45,760 Speaker 1: that doesn't She was like promoting Donda and like kind 1223 01:02:45,760 --> 01:02:48,200 Speaker 1: of celebrating him a lot. So I don't know that 1224 01:02:48,280 --> 01:02:52,640 Speaker 1: they're over, but um yeah, I mean I guess I 1225 01:02:52,640 --> 01:02:54,560 Speaker 1: don't care. I really don't care. You know what I 1226 01:02:54,600 --> 01:02:57,680 Speaker 1: did like was um machine gun Kelly. Did you see 1227 01:02:57,680 --> 01:03:00,400 Speaker 1: his lyrics that he posted to that he formed at 1228 01:03:00,400 --> 01:03:04,080 Speaker 1: the A Daddy? No, he's talking about like he was like, 1229 01:03:04,120 --> 01:03:06,720 Speaker 1: I'm a genius. I could have I could have made Donna, 1230 01:03:07,160 --> 01:03:09,600 Speaker 1: but I bade this from my dead father. Yeah, like 1231 01:03:09,720 --> 01:03:12,760 Speaker 1: he to say that to make a claim that he 1232 01:03:12,800 --> 01:03:15,960 Speaker 1: could have done. I haven't listened to Donap. I listened 1233 01:03:16,000 --> 01:03:19,000 Speaker 1: to some of it. I it's a little Jesus e 1234 01:03:19,360 --> 01:03:22,439 Speaker 1: for me. I do love his last album, which we've 1235 01:03:22,440 --> 01:03:26,080 Speaker 1: listened to a tony you know. And then Redren was 1236 01:03:26,120 --> 01:03:28,520 Speaker 1: a great song, the one he did with Kid Cuddy 1237 01:03:28,640 --> 01:03:31,200 Speaker 1: the kids he ghosts. But I don't know. It's getting 1238 01:03:31,200 --> 01:03:34,480 Speaker 1: a little preachy. It's like they're starting and Bieber does 1239 01:03:34,520 --> 01:03:36,920 Speaker 1: it too. There's like a line between like when is 1240 01:03:37,080 --> 01:03:40,520 Speaker 1: Christian rock? When has it become too much Christian rock. 1241 01:03:40,600 --> 01:03:43,120 Speaker 1: I don't even think Kanye think. I think he thinks 1242 01:03:43,160 --> 01:03:47,200 Speaker 1: he's Jesus. It's it's there's no way that Kanye will 1243 01:03:48,160 --> 01:03:51,680 Speaker 1: I think that someone's better than him, even Jesus I feel, 1244 01:03:51,720 --> 01:03:56,800 Speaker 1: so it's weird to me that he would even uphold. Yeah, Like, 1245 01:03:57,040 --> 01:03:59,919 Speaker 1: I don't know there's I feel like Kanye thinks he's 1246 01:04:00,200 --> 01:04:02,960 Speaker 1: he's Jesus and and that's a common thing for people 1247 01:04:03,000 --> 01:04:06,520 Speaker 1: with his mental illness condition to think, well, I think 1248 01:04:06,520 --> 01:04:08,840 Speaker 1: there is, but I don't. I haven't heard Donda, I don't. 1249 01:04:08,840 --> 01:04:12,160 Speaker 1: I don't know anything about it. Become like very like 1250 01:04:12,480 --> 01:04:16,760 Speaker 1: strictly religious after they've maybe had a lot of past 1251 01:04:17,000 --> 01:04:19,600 Speaker 1: like bullshit that they've done or past like mistakes, and 1252 01:04:19,640 --> 01:04:24,439 Speaker 1: so they recreate, they re they go the other way. Yeah, 1253 01:04:24,440 --> 01:04:27,840 Speaker 1: they find God and will God forgive, Jesus forgives and 1254 01:04:27,880 --> 01:04:29,680 Speaker 1: so all of the things that you've done. Like it 1255 01:04:29,840 --> 01:04:33,520 Speaker 1: just it's such a nice thing when you do. You know, 1256 01:04:33,640 --> 01:04:36,560 Speaker 1: I found God to not Jesus but God, and like 1257 01:04:37,360 --> 01:04:40,400 Speaker 1: it does. Uh. Like I was talking to my friend 1258 01:04:40,480 --> 01:04:44,480 Speaker 1: last night and I was lamenting about you know, boy stuff, 1259 01:04:44,760 --> 01:04:48,200 Speaker 1: and she was just like, well, God as a it's 1260 01:04:48,200 --> 01:04:50,200 Speaker 1: all gonna God's gonna take care of it. It's all 1261 01:04:50,200 --> 01:04:52,640 Speaker 1: gonna go. And it was just like, oh good, I 1262 01:04:52,640 --> 01:04:55,520 Speaker 1: don't have to fucking worry like I It's just it 1263 01:04:56,120 --> 01:04:59,240 Speaker 1: for whatever reason, it just makes you not there's so much, 1264 01:05:00,240 --> 01:05:01,760 Speaker 1: so much of what we do, so much of the 1265 01:05:01,760 --> 01:05:03,200 Speaker 1: bad that comes in the world, I think is from 1266 01:05:03,240 --> 01:05:05,800 Speaker 1: shame and feeling like you're responsible for the way you 1267 01:05:05,840 --> 01:05:08,240 Speaker 1: act and what you do. And my my sense of 1268 01:05:08,280 --> 01:05:10,720 Speaker 1: God is no free will, like whatever I was born into, 1269 01:05:10,760 --> 01:05:13,200 Speaker 1: like it's just gonna happen. There's it's already gonna happen. 1270 01:05:13,480 --> 01:05:16,440 Speaker 1: There's already it's already in place. I can't change. I can't. 1271 01:05:16,960 --> 01:05:18,680 Speaker 1: I don't get to pick how I think you're God. 1272 01:05:18,800 --> 01:05:20,880 Speaker 1: There should be like a different word for it, because 1273 01:05:20,920 --> 01:05:23,280 Speaker 1: like when I think God, I think religion, and what 1274 01:05:23,360 --> 01:05:26,120 Speaker 1: you're talking about seems like a higher like a higher 1275 01:05:26,320 --> 01:05:29,840 Speaker 1: higher power. That's that's what I mean by God. It's 1276 01:05:29,840 --> 01:05:33,640 Speaker 1: not like an entity. I just believe like there's something 1277 01:05:33,760 --> 01:05:37,560 Speaker 1: that's it's not in my control. And when I lose control, 1278 01:05:38,160 --> 01:05:41,160 Speaker 1: I can calm the funk down. Like when I used 1279 01:05:41,160 --> 01:05:44,960 Speaker 1: to be sleepless for weeks because of nuclear war and 1280 01:05:45,000 --> 01:05:47,360 Speaker 1: I saw a movie the day after tomorrow in eighth 1281 01:05:47,400 --> 01:05:49,400 Speaker 1: grade and it ruined my life because I was like 1282 01:05:49,640 --> 01:05:52,240 Speaker 1: any second I could just turn into a flashing skeleton. 1283 01:05:52,400 --> 01:05:55,360 Speaker 1: And like every we are like gonna live in a 1284 01:05:55,400 --> 01:05:57,960 Speaker 1: world where there's no electricity and famine and we all 1285 01:05:57,960 --> 01:06:00,480 Speaker 1: have sores on our faces. It was like I just 1286 01:06:00,480 --> 01:06:02,160 Speaker 1: couldn't handle it. And then one day went down to 1287 01:06:02,200 --> 01:06:04,840 Speaker 1: my parents room eighth grade, going to sleep on the floor, 1288 01:06:04,880 --> 01:06:07,120 Speaker 1: and I was like, Mom and Dad, I like cracked 1289 01:06:07,120 --> 01:06:08,880 Speaker 1: open the door because I was always scared of that 1290 01:06:08,920 --> 01:06:11,200 Speaker 1: they were gonna have sex or I'd be walking into 1291 01:06:11,240 --> 01:06:13,800 Speaker 1: them having sex. And I was just like, and they 1292 01:06:13,840 --> 01:06:16,280 Speaker 1: just my dad just goes what And I was just like, 1293 01:06:16,400 --> 01:06:19,640 Speaker 1: I just can't sleep. I can't stand the fact that 1294 01:06:19,680 --> 01:06:21,840 Speaker 1: there could be a nuclear war, like someone could press 1295 01:06:21,840 --> 01:06:24,080 Speaker 1: a button and then we could all evaporate. And he's like, 1296 01:06:24,720 --> 01:06:29,840 Speaker 1: there's nothing you can do about it. Nothing, And I 1297 01:06:29,880 --> 01:06:31,400 Speaker 1: just shut the door and went to bed for the 1298 01:06:31,400 --> 01:06:33,560 Speaker 1: rest of my like, I never thought about it again 1299 01:06:33,800 --> 01:06:36,680 Speaker 1: because he took away my sense of control, which I 1300 01:06:36,760 --> 01:06:38,840 Speaker 1: never had. It's an illusion anyway, that you have control 1301 01:06:38,880 --> 01:06:41,560 Speaker 1: over anything. Do you think, Like Trump's dad was like, 1302 01:06:41,880 --> 01:06:44,200 Speaker 1: you're going to handle the codes one day, you know what, 1303 01:06:45,880 --> 01:06:49,080 Speaker 1: your death. But that's what God does. God, the idea 1304 01:06:49,080 --> 01:06:52,120 Speaker 1: of God, takes away the sense of control you think 1305 01:06:52,160 --> 01:06:53,760 Speaker 1: you have. Because when you think you have control, it 1306 01:06:53,840 --> 01:06:56,320 Speaker 1: might make you feel like you feel better, but it 1307 01:06:56,360 --> 01:06:58,480 Speaker 1: actually makes you feel worse because when things go wrong, 1308 01:06:58,560 --> 01:07:01,960 Speaker 1: you you are to blame. You're fundamentally wrong something. You 1309 01:07:02,320 --> 01:07:05,120 Speaker 1: you're a bad person. I feel that so much d 1310 01:07:05,200 --> 01:07:08,080 Speaker 1: especially on stage, like I feel like such a relief 1311 01:07:08,080 --> 01:07:11,680 Speaker 1: for some reason of like not caring what the audience like, 1312 01:07:11,680 --> 01:07:14,600 Speaker 1: Like what I think they'll think? It's funny, right, And 1313 01:07:14,640 --> 01:07:16,720 Speaker 1: it's just like and it's the same thing in life. 1314 01:07:16,720 --> 01:07:19,360 Speaker 1: It's like, don't do things because you think that person 1315 01:07:19,440 --> 01:07:21,120 Speaker 1: is going to react a certain way to you do 1316 01:07:21,200 --> 01:07:23,960 Speaker 1: it because that's what you want to do. Yeah, if 1317 01:07:23,960 --> 01:07:26,640 Speaker 1: I bomb now and I remember God, I just remember 1318 01:07:26,680 --> 01:07:29,280 Speaker 1: like this was meant to happen, Like I I never 1319 01:07:29,320 --> 01:07:31,560 Speaker 1: had a choice to not bomb. Well, you could have 1320 01:07:31,600 --> 01:07:34,360 Speaker 1: prepared more, No, I couldn't have. That was part of 1321 01:07:34,400 --> 01:07:37,520 Speaker 1: the plan too. Well, why does John mulaney get to 1322 01:07:37,560 --> 01:07:40,480 Speaker 1: be always so funny and successful and never not prepare 1323 01:07:40,680 --> 01:07:43,560 Speaker 1: Because that's his that's his plan, it's not yours. Like 1324 01:07:43,640 --> 01:07:45,520 Speaker 1: that's what God had in store for him, not what 1325 01:07:45,560 --> 01:07:47,160 Speaker 1: he had in store for you. He also has a 1326 01:07:47,160 --> 01:07:49,440 Speaker 1: lot of bullshit in store for John mullaney that you 1327 01:07:49,680 --> 01:07:52,840 Speaker 1: can project a lot of perfection onto him. But you know, 1328 01:07:53,680 --> 01:07:56,680 Speaker 1: so that's what I was I don't. I try to 1329 01:07:56,720 --> 01:07:59,480 Speaker 1: remember it's not my fault. Everything is not my fault, 1330 01:07:59,680 --> 01:08:02,800 Speaker 1: literally anything that happens, and um, yeah, so that's how 1331 01:08:02,840 --> 01:08:04,479 Speaker 1: I feel about it. Let's get to the reddit dump. 1332 01:08:05,000 --> 01:08:06,840 Speaker 1: But it's hard to remember. God damn it is it 1333 01:08:06,960 --> 01:08:10,920 Speaker 1: hard to remember that things aren't my fault. This is 1334 01:08:11,000 --> 01:08:14,400 Speaker 1: your reddit, all right? So this is where I go 1335 01:08:14,480 --> 01:08:16,439 Speaker 1: on Reddit at night. You guys get it, and I 1336 01:08:16,560 --> 01:08:19,360 Speaker 1: save things that I want to share with you. Okay. Um. 1337 01:08:19,360 --> 01:08:22,000 Speaker 1: This was from ask creddit, my favorite UM subreddit, that 1338 01:08:22,040 --> 01:08:24,960 Speaker 1: said what makes you the happiest? What gives you genuine happiness? 1339 01:08:24,960 --> 01:08:26,879 Speaker 1: And I just want to read some of the answers 1340 01:08:26,920 --> 01:08:29,200 Speaker 1: that people had because these are always the ones that 1341 01:08:29,720 --> 01:08:33,360 Speaker 1: UM make me happy. Uh. Someone said seeing people enjoy 1342 01:08:33,439 --> 01:08:35,960 Speaker 1: food that I cooked, especially seeing my fiance smile when 1343 01:08:36,000 --> 01:08:38,840 Speaker 1: she eats my from scratch chocolate chip cookies. I would 1344 01:08:38,920 --> 01:08:43,080 Speaker 1: never get enjoyment from that, like cooking and then feeding someone. 1345 01:08:43,560 --> 01:08:46,040 Speaker 1: It's just I'm so glad that's an I'm so glad 1346 01:08:46,120 --> 01:08:49,400 Speaker 1: that people have enjoyment from things that would bring me zip. 1347 01:08:52,120 --> 01:08:54,680 Speaker 1: How are the cookie or what about when they go? 1348 01:08:54,920 --> 01:08:58,000 Speaker 1: Was I did did you am I good golfer? Yeah? 1349 01:08:58,040 --> 01:09:01,920 Speaker 1: The same thing. Is the cookies good? This person said, 1350 01:09:01,960 --> 01:09:03,639 Speaker 1: I think it may be the only time I'm ever 1351 01:09:03,760 --> 01:09:06,160 Speaker 1: genuinely happy when I am in this that state of 1352 01:09:06,240 --> 01:09:08,519 Speaker 1: going to sleep where I think where I think, but 1353 01:09:08,560 --> 01:09:10,920 Speaker 1: at the same time I am neither asleep nor awake. 1354 01:09:11,439 --> 01:09:13,920 Speaker 1: It feels like I'm entirely detached from the physical world, 1355 01:09:14,240 --> 01:09:17,040 Speaker 1: free of fear and pain. And someone someone wrote, and 1356 01:09:17,040 --> 01:09:19,160 Speaker 1: this is the most up voted comment on the whole thread. 1357 01:09:19,320 --> 01:09:25,080 Speaker 1: Someone replied to that, don't try heroin, and everyone goes, yeah, 1358 01:09:25,080 --> 01:09:27,320 Speaker 1: if you love that feeling of if you resonate with that, 1359 01:09:27,479 --> 01:09:30,679 Speaker 1: don't touch heroine because you'll never stop. Um. Someone said, 1360 01:09:30,720 --> 01:09:33,519 Speaker 1: watching my cat get stuck somewhere stupid than yelling for help. 1361 01:09:33,720 --> 01:09:36,040 Speaker 1: The best place so far was in a cabinet over 1362 01:09:36,080 --> 01:09:39,400 Speaker 1: the stove. Um. Being outside with no people around. Live 1363 01:09:39,439 --> 01:09:41,040 Speaker 1: in a city and I get up super early and 1364 01:09:41,080 --> 01:09:43,000 Speaker 1: just walk around before everyone else is out best part 1365 01:09:43,040 --> 01:09:46,519 Speaker 1: of my day. So those were nice. Um. Someone said 1366 01:09:46,760 --> 01:09:50,160 Speaker 1: this is from white people Twitter. Um, this was a 1367 01:09:50,160 --> 01:09:53,160 Speaker 1: tweet that I enjoyed. It said. It's is from limited 1368 01:09:53,560 --> 01:09:58,479 Speaker 1: limitless Jest on Twitter limitless Jest. It's you have a 1369 01:09:58,520 --> 01:10:01,200 Speaker 1: Nintendo sixty four with gold and I you just ordered 1370 01:10:01,200 --> 01:10:03,800 Speaker 1: pizza with extra cheese. Your friends are coming over, and 1371 01:10:03,840 --> 01:10:06,400 Speaker 1: you have four rumble packs. You don't know it right now, 1372 01:10:06,439 --> 01:10:08,400 Speaker 1: but this is as good as life we'll ever get. 1373 01:10:09,160 --> 01:10:11,120 Speaker 1: And I just like, I mean, I don't relate to that, 1374 01:10:11,160 --> 01:10:13,960 Speaker 1: but I relate to the cheese pizza, friends coming over. 1375 01:10:14,240 --> 01:10:19,559 Speaker 1: It's there. I remember being like I, but I knew 1376 01:10:19,640 --> 01:10:22,800 Speaker 1: I was like this. I would witness adults and go, 1377 01:10:22,960 --> 01:10:26,000 Speaker 1: that sucks. This is it. You just get some star 1378 01:10:26,080 --> 01:10:30,120 Speaker 1: crunches with your friends, you eat with abandoned. There's no 1379 01:10:30,280 --> 01:10:33,719 Speaker 1: like I'm gonna feel fat tomorrow. There's no. And I'm 1380 01:10:33,760 --> 01:10:36,519 Speaker 1: not assuming that kids don't feel that way. I didn't, 1381 01:10:36,840 --> 01:10:39,679 Speaker 1: not yet at least. Um. But I saw this video 1382 01:10:39,760 --> 01:10:44,559 Speaker 1: yesterday on Instagram, on the real thing, the tiktoki thing 1383 01:10:44,560 --> 01:10:46,880 Speaker 1: on Instagram, and there was this little girl crying in 1384 01:10:46,920 --> 01:10:50,360 Speaker 1: her like she's probably four, and she's just like, I 1385 01:10:50,439 --> 01:10:53,760 Speaker 1: don't want to be an adult, and she's crossed. She's 1386 01:10:53,800 --> 01:10:55,559 Speaker 1: sobbing because something she has to be an adult, and 1387 01:10:55,560 --> 01:10:57,160 Speaker 1: her mom goes, I don't want to be an adult either, 1388 01:10:57,200 --> 01:11:01,280 Speaker 1: to go you havetill you. I don't even want to 1389 01:11:01,320 --> 01:11:06,680 Speaker 1: be a teenager. It doesn't feels like a jail. It 1390 01:11:06,720 --> 01:11:09,360 Speaker 1: looks like a prison and it was so how is 1391 01:11:09,400 --> 01:11:14,040 Speaker 1: that kids so aware? That's like that's what I used 1392 01:11:14,080 --> 01:11:15,559 Speaker 1: to say. I used to wake up in the middle 1393 01:11:15,600 --> 01:11:16,800 Speaker 1: of night and go in to my parents room and go, 1394 01:11:16,920 --> 01:11:19,040 Speaker 1: I don't know how to write a check. When am 1395 01:11:19,040 --> 01:11:20,439 Speaker 1: I going to learn that? How am I going to 1396 01:11:20,560 --> 01:11:22,559 Speaker 1: learn that? Like I used to freak out. This was 1397 01:11:22,600 --> 01:11:25,519 Speaker 1: probably fourth grade and my parents go, you'll learn it, 1398 01:11:25,560 --> 01:11:27,720 Speaker 1: and I go, is there a class about how to 1399 01:11:27,720 --> 01:11:29,479 Speaker 1: write checks? Because I have no idea how I'm going 1400 01:11:29,560 --> 01:11:30,880 Speaker 1: to do that. And guess what, I still don't know 1401 01:11:30,880 --> 01:11:32,160 Speaker 1: how to write I don't know how to balance a 1402 01:11:32,200 --> 01:11:35,640 Speaker 1: check book or anything. Okay, this one's good. This is 1403 01:11:35,640 --> 01:11:38,840 Speaker 1: on ask men, what is the most shallowest deal breaker 1404 01:11:38,880 --> 01:11:42,439 Speaker 1: that you hold secretly? This princes I'll go first and say, 1405 01:11:42,600 --> 01:11:45,080 Speaker 1: and I say, with no disrespect, piercings. Just can't think 1406 01:11:45,120 --> 01:11:48,200 Speaker 1: of anyone who I found attractive when they had piercings. Piercing, 1407 01:11:48,560 --> 01:11:52,599 Speaker 1: I think they mean anything beyond like uh someone corpse 1408 01:11:52,680 --> 01:11:57,360 Speaker 1: manufacturer says, really nasal voices. I'm fine with almost everything, 1409 01:11:57,439 --> 01:12:00,519 Speaker 1: from Morgan Freeman to those really squeaky and child just tones. 1410 01:12:00,680 --> 01:12:03,120 Speaker 1: But the moment you start talking like a basic betch 1411 01:12:03,280 --> 01:12:06,559 Speaker 1: from two thousand's bad TV movie Teen Movies. I'm out. 1412 01:12:06,800 --> 01:12:09,120 Speaker 1: I feel really ashamed. Most people can't out bet, but 1413 01:12:09,160 --> 01:12:13,320 Speaker 1: I'm unable to take people seriously with it. Um. Someone 1414 01:12:13,360 --> 01:12:16,679 Speaker 1: said how loud they check chew food? Um? Someone said 1415 01:12:16,720 --> 01:12:19,800 Speaker 1: gum to two threetio if there's too much gum. Yeah, 1416 01:12:19,920 --> 01:12:23,200 Speaker 1: I can't either, actually really, and that's something that gets 1417 01:12:23,240 --> 01:12:26,080 Speaker 1: to me for some reason. A gummy smile, like little 1418 01:12:26,080 --> 01:12:29,000 Speaker 1: teeth and too much gums. Yeah, okay, I only have gums, 1419 01:12:29,000 --> 01:12:30,960 Speaker 1: so I don't know what. Yeah, that's a little bit 1420 01:12:31,000 --> 01:12:34,479 Speaker 1: of hypocritical. Yeah, look, I'm just Someone said I took 1421 01:12:34,479 --> 01:12:36,960 Speaker 1: this one personally fake tan obsession. Yes it's shallow, but 1422 01:12:37,000 --> 01:12:39,080 Speaker 1: it's a look I personally do not find attractive in 1423 01:12:39,120 --> 01:12:41,880 Speaker 1: any way. Well, I guarantee you that person wouldn't like 1424 01:12:42,000 --> 01:12:44,960 Speaker 1: me more when I'm tan than pale, but only for 1425 01:12:45,000 --> 01:12:47,920 Speaker 1: four days of that. Yeah. Someone said weird knees. You 1426 01:12:47,920 --> 01:12:50,280 Speaker 1: can be a straight dime, but if your knees are weird, 1427 01:12:50,360 --> 01:12:53,479 Speaker 1: then I'm out. Has knees, I know mine looks like 1428 01:12:53,520 --> 01:12:56,479 Speaker 1: they have African elephants on them. Yeah, or babes. Some 1429 01:12:56,520 --> 01:13:01,479 Speaker 1: people have babies and knees. It's like souls of dad people. Yeah. 1430 01:13:01,520 --> 01:13:07,240 Speaker 1: Someone said, um, yeah, that's so true. Uh, there's so 1431 01:13:07,439 --> 01:13:11,120 Speaker 1: um dragon talent nails. Someone said if they scrape their 1432 01:13:11,160 --> 01:13:13,519 Speaker 1: cutlery against the plates when they eat, or they bite 1433 01:13:13,520 --> 01:13:17,879 Speaker 1: the cutlery when they when eating. Um. Someone said, uh, 1434 01:13:18,040 --> 01:13:22,120 Speaker 1: auty belly buttons. Uh. Someone goes, y'all don't understand the 1435 01:13:22,120 --> 01:13:24,559 Speaker 1: word shallow. Shallow is not people who smell awful or 1436 01:13:24,600 --> 01:13:27,160 Speaker 1: have horrible personality. Shallow is not dating women with big 1437 01:13:27,200 --> 01:13:30,840 Speaker 1: noses or eggs ama or tattoos or something. Um. Someone says, 1438 01:13:30,880 --> 01:13:33,200 Speaker 1: if you leave toast crumbs in the butter, I'm sucking 1439 01:13:33,200 --> 01:13:38,800 Speaker 1: out the door. Whoa toast crumbs in the butter? Yeah, 1440 01:13:38,840 --> 01:13:40,800 Speaker 1: I wouldn't want to date that. Um, what do you 1441 01:13:41,040 --> 01:13:46,120 Speaker 1: have any you said gums? Um, well, like physical things 1442 01:13:46,200 --> 01:13:49,679 Speaker 1: or or more. I mean shallow stuff that they probably 1443 01:13:49,680 --> 01:13:54,799 Speaker 1: can't control. Um. I mean it's shallow, but I'm getting 1444 01:13:54,840 --> 01:13:57,519 Speaker 1: over it. But when a woman has like a happy trail, 1445 01:13:58,600 --> 01:14:00,840 Speaker 1: a little like three hair is I just like I 1446 01:14:01,040 --> 01:14:02,920 Speaker 1: zone in on them and I don't know why. What 1447 01:14:02,960 --> 01:14:05,680 Speaker 1: does it mean to you? I'm about to blow a 1448 01:14:05,720 --> 01:14:10,200 Speaker 1: guy's masculine to you. Now, I don't I guess. I 1449 01:14:10,240 --> 01:14:14,280 Speaker 1: guess so. Maybe it's just for some reason, but I'm 1450 01:14:14,320 --> 01:14:17,679 Speaker 1: kind of getting I'm I'm very close to over all 1451 01:14:17,720 --> 01:14:21,240 Speaker 1: those like shallow things at least or getting closer. It's 1452 01:14:21,280 --> 01:14:25,760 Speaker 1: not getting worse with age, it's me understanding more later on. 1453 01:14:26,640 --> 01:14:29,840 Speaker 1: What about no chin? You know, let's get into final thought. 1454 01:14:30,320 --> 01:14:32,519 Speaker 1: The thing about no chin is I thought that was 1455 01:14:32,560 --> 01:14:34,479 Speaker 1: one of my deal breakers. But the thing is, I've 1456 01:14:35,160 --> 01:14:38,200 Speaker 1: fallen in love with someone who just didn't really have 1457 01:14:38,479 --> 01:14:42,519 Speaker 1: the like the like at a Yeah, but it wasn't 1458 01:14:42,560 --> 01:14:45,439 Speaker 1: like I just realized now I can be in love 1459 01:14:45,520 --> 01:14:48,719 Speaker 1: with anything like. I just don't have any physical deal breakers. 1460 01:14:48,720 --> 01:14:50,960 Speaker 1: Certainly when I'm just bumbling or something. I'm just like 1461 01:14:51,880 --> 01:14:56,160 Speaker 1: me look like anything like that, but you know, real life, yes, 1462 01:14:56,240 --> 01:14:59,439 Speaker 1: someone that like, um, I don't know what my deal 1463 01:14:59,479 --> 01:15:02,640 Speaker 1: breakers are, honestly, someone with like that's too fit, like 1464 01:15:02,760 --> 01:15:05,600 Speaker 1: that's too that spends too much time at the gym, 1465 01:15:05,640 --> 01:15:10,519 Speaker 1: that's too that grilled chicken and asparagus and like just 1466 01:15:10,960 --> 01:15:12,920 Speaker 1: you know, breaks it up and during the week. Yeah, 1467 01:15:13,000 --> 01:15:14,960 Speaker 1: I just don't want to I don't need I just 1468 01:15:15,080 --> 01:15:16,559 Speaker 1: I just beat my eights sort of. I don't want 1469 01:15:16,560 --> 01:15:18,760 Speaker 1: to have to beat yours too. Um, I just uh 1470 01:15:19,240 --> 01:15:23,479 Speaker 1: some guy that um you know, uh what about Bald. 1471 01:15:23,560 --> 01:15:27,160 Speaker 1: You don't mind people that people that you know, anyone 1472 01:15:27,200 --> 01:15:29,840 Speaker 1: that that's not shallow, but like voting for Trump or 1473 01:15:30,280 --> 01:15:35,880 Speaker 1: being friends with people that like tolerant not Bald doesn't know, 1474 01:15:36,000 --> 01:15:38,639 Speaker 1: that's not that doesn't doesn't bother me. I guess like 1475 01:15:39,600 --> 01:15:46,080 Speaker 1: when people oh, um, not being open to being vegan 1476 01:15:46,280 --> 01:15:49,320 Speaker 1: and that's not shallow. Actually that's just like I I 1477 01:15:49,400 --> 01:15:52,240 Speaker 1: don't if someone just just like I'll never do it. 1478 01:15:52,240 --> 01:15:56,000 Speaker 1: It's just like or they like don't see that it's wrong, 1479 01:15:56,080 --> 01:16:00,320 Speaker 1: like just acknowledge that, like I'm right, you know in 1480 01:16:00,320 --> 01:16:02,880 Speaker 1: that scenario, Like there's just no doubt about it. That's 1481 01:16:02,880 --> 01:16:05,000 Speaker 1: what I always say about being vegan. That's the best 1482 01:16:05,000 --> 01:16:08,200 Speaker 1: part about it is where there's no way we're not right. 1483 01:16:09,000 --> 01:16:11,160 Speaker 1: That's the best part. You don't have to agree with us, 1484 01:16:11,479 --> 01:16:14,040 Speaker 1: but it's just it's there's just no way we're not 1485 01:16:14,120 --> 01:16:16,680 Speaker 1: right that we just like want animals to live. It 1486 01:16:16,800 --> 01:16:21,400 Speaker 1: can't it cannot be argued against. But I'm trying to 1487 01:16:21,400 --> 01:16:23,320 Speaker 1: think of deal Burgers. Do you have any No, I 1488 01:16:23,400 --> 01:16:25,519 Speaker 1: just lost half of our listeners, by the way, by 1489 01:16:25,520 --> 01:16:27,640 Speaker 1: saying that I'll get them back. There's nothing better in 1490 01:16:27,760 --> 01:16:33,960 Speaker 1: nice Cheeseburgerka, I'm gonna put on my kid tank top. 1491 01:16:36,160 --> 01:16:39,960 Speaker 1: I try to be tolerant, and I don't. I can't 1492 01:16:39,960 --> 01:16:42,439 Speaker 1: really think of anything shallow that would be a deal 1493 01:16:42,479 --> 01:16:46,280 Speaker 1: breaker today. But I used to be obsessed with guys 1494 01:16:46,280 --> 01:16:50,080 Speaker 1: with long hair, and then I dated one and his 1495 01:16:50,200 --> 01:16:55,840 Speaker 1: hair routine was way too long and which specific, and 1496 01:16:56,360 --> 01:17:00,360 Speaker 1: that turned me off so much. Yeah, after that, I 1497 01:17:00,400 --> 01:17:03,000 Speaker 1: just couldn't date guys with long hair anymore. And I 1498 01:17:03,000 --> 01:17:07,439 Speaker 1: mean long long hair, not shoulder oh oh, like like 1499 01:17:08,560 --> 01:17:13,439 Speaker 1: bass player for heavy metal band like down to and 1500 01:17:13,479 --> 01:17:15,800 Speaker 1: they like so did they condition it? Would you have 1501 01:17:15,840 --> 01:17:17,559 Speaker 1: to blow dry it? They don't even blow dry their hair. 1502 01:17:18,120 --> 01:17:21,960 Speaker 1: Put it back to eu out like the idea of 1503 01:17:21,960 --> 01:17:26,280 Speaker 1: a guy that's a happy trail. Oh yeah, Like if 1504 01:17:26,280 --> 01:17:28,200 Speaker 1: you put his hair to ponytail, would you start getting wet? 1505 01:17:29,200 --> 01:17:31,760 Speaker 1: Because you know that's what guys like. There's a Pavlov's 1506 01:17:31,800 --> 01:17:33,920 Speaker 1: dog response that guys get boners when girls put up 1507 01:17:33,920 --> 01:17:36,920 Speaker 1: their ponytails, because it's generally that's so funny. I never 1508 01:17:36,960 --> 01:17:38,960 Speaker 1: put up my hair to blow someone, Really, what do 1509 01:17:38,960 --> 01:17:40,360 Speaker 1: you do with it? I just like you have a 1510 01:17:40,400 --> 01:17:41,800 Speaker 1: lot of hair. No, I just go like this and 1511 01:17:41,800 --> 01:17:44,120 Speaker 1: I like kind of go like twist it or something, 1512 01:17:44,400 --> 01:17:46,640 Speaker 1: or I just like blow them with my Oh, I 1513 01:17:46,680 --> 01:17:49,400 Speaker 1: guess if they're laying down, get in your mouth and everything. 1514 01:17:49,680 --> 01:17:52,160 Speaker 1: I just like, oh, if you're yeah, yeah, if I'm 1515 01:17:52,200 --> 01:17:54,960 Speaker 1: on big back, your hair will get in your own mouth. 1516 01:17:55,000 --> 01:17:57,599 Speaker 1: And yeah. I mean I I don't know. I don't 1517 01:17:57,600 --> 01:17:59,479 Speaker 1: really think about it. I never like put it back, 1518 01:17:59,560 --> 01:18:02,759 Speaker 1: but uh yeah, I'm trying to think of deal breakers. 1519 01:18:02,840 --> 01:18:06,519 Speaker 1: I have Jesus Christ. That's a hard one because you 1520 01:18:06,560 --> 01:18:08,040 Speaker 1: don't even know it till you see it. But I 1521 01:18:08,080 --> 01:18:11,639 Speaker 1: think that, oh, not liking Veep, like being like it's 1522 01:18:11,680 --> 01:18:14,720 Speaker 1: watching Veep or thirty Rock and being like, no, it's 1523 01:18:14,760 --> 01:18:17,160 Speaker 1: just like yet to ease their own, but your own, 1524 01:18:17,400 --> 01:18:19,240 Speaker 1: you're you have a bad own. I mean. On the 1525 01:18:19,320 --> 01:18:21,559 Speaker 1: same thing, if you love like Law and Order or 1526 01:18:21,680 --> 01:18:25,160 Speaker 1: c S. I I probably Oh my god, this one. 1527 01:18:25,200 --> 01:18:29,599 Speaker 1: Oh really that's every girl, dude, What the fun? Oh 1528 01:18:29,640 --> 01:18:33,679 Speaker 1: my god. I'm just saying like, if you probably love 1529 01:18:33,760 --> 01:18:37,080 Speaker 1: those shows, you probably don't love Veep. No, that's not true. 1530 01:18:37,120 --> 01:18:43,040 Speaker 1: People love those diagram people that love like people love 1531 01:18:44,439 --> 01:18:48,479 Speaker 1: the smartest people love Law and Order. Oh yeah, like 1532 01:18:48,600 --> 01:18:50,760 Speaker 1: most maybe I haven't given it. John Malaney has been 1533 01:18:50,800 --> 01:18:53,439 Speaker 1: about law and order. Try law and order. You would 1534 01:18:53,479 --> 01:18:55,599 Speaker 1: be obsessed with it, dude. I mean I don't like 1535 01:18:55,680 --> 01:18:58,040 Speaker 1: it because I just don't. I don't really care. I 1536 01:18:58,080 --> 01:19:00,120 Speaker 1: just have never gotten into it. But people are. I 1537 01:19:00,160 --> 01:19:02,400 Speaker 1: love it. This one was a great one on Reddit. 1538 01:19:02,479 --> 01:19:05,160 Speaker 1: It's from cringe Topia. The subreddit cringe Topia is just 1539 01:19:05,200 --> 01:19:08,599 Speaker 1: cringe e things and this is a TikTok. The girl says, 1540 01:19:08,640 --> 01:19:10,280 Speaker 1: this dude at the bar trying to pick up my 1541 01:19:10,320 --> 01:19:12,680 Speaker 1: friend with his Wells Fargo account, so he pulled up 1542 01:19:12,720 --> 01:19:20,960 Speaker 1: his app to show his bank account. I'll look at this. Really, 1543 01:19:26,080 --> 01:19:35,800 Speaker 1: I'm sorry, you just lost your life eighty six. He 1544 01:19:35,920 --> 01:19:37,840 Speaker 1: repeats it to where he goes She's just like no, 1545 01:19:37,960 --> 01:19:43,200 Speaker 1: and he goes, well, you just lost in life, like 1546 01:19:43,520 --> 01:19:45,680 Speaker 1: not even like fuck you money, Like I love that. 1547 01:19:45,800 --> 01:19:49,120 Speaker 1: That's like and you know that someone in his life 1548 01:19:49,160 --> 01:19:51,200 Speaker 1: just died and he got that and took it to 1549 01:19:51,320 --> 01:19:54,880 Speaker 1: like this wasn't just earned throughout hard work. This guy 1550 01:19:55,000 --> 01:19:58,400 Speaker 1: just because he's just so excited to have that. That 1551 01:19:58,800 --> 01:20:02,280 Speaker 1: is so I just I love it so much. There 1552 01:20:02,400 --> 01:20:04,120 Speaker 1: was something about having to go to a t M 1553 01:20:04,160 --> 01:20:07,040 Speaker 1: all the time, like only like ten years ago, you'd 1554 01:20:07,040 --> 01:20:09,720 Speaker 1: always see what's in your banking every day you're reminded 1555 01:20:09,720 --> 01:20:12,400 Speaker 1: of whether you're rich or poor, you know, like every 1556 01:20:12,479 --> 01:20:14,439 Speaker 1: day you look down on that piece of paper and 1557 01:20:14,439 --> 01:20:17,080 Speaker 1: you're like, oh, and then I saw like my Oh. 1558 01:20:17,120 --> 01:20:18,960 Speaker 1: I would always say, no, I don't want to see it. 1559 01:20:19,439 --> 01:20:24,800 Speaker 1: I never because of recycling or just because because I 1560 01:20:24,800 --> 01:20:26,960 Speaker 1: didn't want to see it. I mean, even now, if 1561 01:20:26,720 --> 01:20:28,960 Speaker 1: I have money, I don't. I used the only time 1562 01:20:29,000 --> 01:20:30,599 Speaker 1: I was able to look at my bank account ever, 1563 01:20:30,720 --> 01:20:32,960 Speaker 1: when I was super broke, and even now but I 1564 01:20:32,960 --> 01:20:34,800 Speaker 1: don't drink anymore, was when I was drunk. I would 1565 01:20:34,800 --> 01:20:36,639 Speaker 1: sometimes go in and go, Okay, you can see it. 1566 01:20:37,560 --> 01:20:42,080 Speaker 1: I was so scared of that number. Yeah, did you 1567 01:20:42,120 --> 01:20:44,760 Speaker 1: haven't looked at it? There's something about the tangible nous 1568 01:20:44,800 --> 01:20:46,479 Speaker 1: of it is be like, oh, yeah, that's money, like 1569 01:20:46,640 --> 01:20:49,479 Speaker 1: because money, you know, when you feel actual cash, which 1570 01:20:49,520 --> 01:20:52,679 Speaker 1: we never do anymore. Yeah, but that number. Yeah, Sometimes 1571 01:20:52,680 --> 01:20:55,240 Speaker 1: I see the number and I go, you know, because 1572 01:20:55,240 --> 01:20:58,080 Speaker 1: I so rarely look at it. Sometimes it really disappoints 1573 01:20:58,080 --> 01:21:00,840 Speaker 1: me because it's I thought it was higher or and 1574 01:21:00,920 --> 01:21:03,519 Speaker 1: sometimes I just don't know that there's other accounts that 1575 01:21:03,560 --> 01:21:06,080 Speaker 1: have stuff in it, like there, I will say, there 1576 01:21:06,080 --> 01:21:10,160 Speaker 1: are people that know what my money is, and those 1577 01:21:10,160 --> 01:21:12,240 Speaker 1: people are making sure that it's not stolen from me. 1578 01:21:12,760 --> 01:21:15,519 Speaker 1: But man, if those people were in my life, wouldn't 1579 01:21:16,120 --> 01:21:19,920 Speaker 1: wouldn't notice what I would never notice. It's really, um 1580 01:21:19,920 --> 01:21:22,920 Speaker 1: it's a problem. It's like, you know that's something that 1581 01:21:23,520 --> 01:21:26,280 Speaker 1: rich people get money stolen from them. Yeah, I mean. 1582 01:21:26,400 --> 01:21:28,360 Speaker 1: And then there are other people that are like very 1583 01:21:28,439 --> 01:21:30,599 Speaker 1: they know every I but like your brother, even though 1584 01:21:30,600 --> 01:21:32,639 Speaker 1: he has a lot of money, but he knows where 1585 01:21:32,680 --> 01:21:34,320 Speaker 1: all of it is and how much it is, Like 1586 01:21:34,439 --> 01:21:37,479 Speaker 1: I bet he's fastidious about it, whereas I just don't. 1587 01:21:37,520 --> 01:21:39,160 Speaker 1: I don't want to know if I have it or don't. Like. 1588 01:21:39,240 --> 01:21:41,240 Speaker 1: I just it stresses me out if I do it 1589 01:21:41,280 --> 01:21:43,000 Speaker 1: stressed to me out. If I don't, it's I really 1590 01:21:43,000 --> 01:21:44,920 Speaker 1: got to work on it. It's not good. It's a 1591 01:21:44,960 --> 01:21:47,640 Speaker 1: weird thing that we put so much emotion on a 1592 01:21:47,760 --> 01:21:52,040 Speaker 1: number you know or like. And I'm so much I 1593 01:21:52,120 --> 01:21:55,240 Speaker 1: love spending. I like, I like spending on money on 1594 01:21:55,439 --> 01:21:59,080 Speaker 1: people better than myself. Like I'll buy myself cheap stuff 1595 01:21:59,600 --> 01:22:03,840 Speaker 1: and my like birthday gifts presents. It's always like the 1596 01:22:03,880 --> 01:22:07,280 Speaker 1: most expensive brand. Because I want people in my life 1597 01:22:07,320 --> 01:22:09,240 Speaker 1: to have the best of the thing. But I always 1598 01:22:09,240 --> 01:22:10,880 Speaker 1: get like, you don't want that. What makes you think 1599 01:22:10,920 --> 01:22:14,360 Speaker 1: they want that? Because because people do want the best thing, 1600 01:22:14,520 --> 01:22:17,599 Speaker 1: I just want ten more. No, you like you would 1601 01:22:17,680 --> 01:22:20,120 Speaker 1: would you rather me get you a Haynes sweatshirt or 1602 01:22:20,200 --> 01:22:23,240 Speaker 1: a you know, Buck Mason. To be honest, where I'm 1603 01:22:23,240 --> 01:22:27,160 Speaker 1: at right now, mentally give me four Haynes over to No. No, no, 1604 01:22:27,240 --> 01:22:29,400 Speaker 1: it's either it's not the same amount of money. I'm 1605 01:22:29,400 --> 01:22:31,599 Speaker 1: either spending a lot of money or not. I think 1606 01:22:31,600 --> 01:22:34,240 Speaker 1: I'd rather have the I'm not even kidding, I think 1607 01:22:34,280 --> 01:22:38,519 Speaker 1: at this point alright. Well, message received forty second birthday 1608 01:22:39,160 --> 01:22:43,479 Speaker 1: Tesla key Chain. Okay, guys, thank you so much for 1609 01:22:43,520 --> 01:22:45,680 Speaker 1: listening to the show. We'll be back tomorrow. Don't be 1610 01:22:45,760 --> 01:22:48,040 Speaker 1: cut out there. And Jeffrey