1 00:00:01,400 --> 00:00:05,160 Speaker 1: Hey, PSGs and niggas. Is your girl, Eben and I 2 00:00:05,200 --> 00:00:07,240 Speaker 1: want to give a huge shout out to Gabby and 3 00:00:07,360 --> 00:00:11,440 Speaker 1: Lily to supporters of the PSD podcast Patreon account. At 4 00:00:11,480 --> 00:00:13,800 Speaker 1: the end of this episode, a clip from a bonus 5 00:00:13,840 --> 00:00:17,240 Speaker 1: episode that is exclusively available on Patreon will play at 6 00:00:17,239 --> 00:00:19,560 Speaker 1: the end, so make sure you'll listen to the full episode. 7 00:00:20,360 --> 00:00:23,319 Speaker 1: Um the following up episodes comes from our STD life 8 00:00:23,320 --> 00:00:26,520 Speaker 1: coach and it was a good one. Child y'all enjoyed 9 00:00:26,520 --> 00:00:29,200 Speaker 1: this week's episode as I keep keeping my friends from Chicago. 10 00:00:29,640 --> 00:00:32,000 Speaker 1: I stayed there for a couple of weeks because I 11 00:00:32,040 --> 00:00:34,120 Speaker 1: need to change your scenery and I was kind of 12 00:00:34,200 --> 00:00:37,280 Speaker 1: over New York because there ain't nothing to do flso 13 00:00:37,280 --> 00:00:39,520 Speaker 1: I missed my friends. So I hope you all enjoy 14 00:00:39,640 --> 00:00:42,640 Speaker 1: all the ships and giggles on this week's episode and 15 00:00:42,960 --> 00:00:49,080 Speaker 1: until next time later. Welcome you are now listening to 16 00:01:22,520 --> 00:01:26,160 Speaker 1: Hey guys, Welcome to this week's episode of the PhD Podcast. 17 00:01:26,680 --> 00:01:29,200 Speaker 1: It's your girl, eban A and like always, I am 18 00:01:29,240 --> 00:01:33,600 Speaker 1: super excited about this week's episode. 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Those that's 44 00:02:57,639 --> 00:02:59,880 Speaker 1: been sliding in my d m s opened up that 45 00:03:01,080 --> 00:03:05,480 Speaker 1: wallet and show me some love and support me. Um. 46 00:03:05,520 --> 00:03:07,880 Speaker 1: The link will also be available in the show notes, 47 00:03:08,200 --> 00:03:10,720 Speaker 1: so please keep in mind that all of my guests 48 00:03:10,760 --> 00:03:15,560 Speaker 1: are anonymous. So let's forget this week's episode. Alright. So 49 00:03:16,560 --> 00:03:19,200 Speaker 1: I am in Chicago and my friends. I came out 50 00:03:19,240 --> 00:03:22,200 Speaker 1: here because I can work remotely from anywhere, and I 51 00:03:22,240 --> 00:03:24,480 Speaker 1: decided to spend a couple of weeks with them a 52 00:03:24,600 --> 00:03:31,040 Speaker 1: month a month, a couple of weeks a month. So 53 00:03:32,600 --> 00:03:34,200 Speaker 1: I want to ask you all, how have y'all been 54 00:03:34,240 --> 00:03:44,080 Speaker 1: doing during the pandemic? Having fun? Not following byemic. I 55 00:03:44,120 --> 00:03:51,080 Speaker 1: don't know about you. I've I'm not. I don't know 56 00:03:51,080 --> 00:03:53,160 Speaker 1: if I've been following because we didn't read bulls the 57 00:03:53,360 --> 00:03:55,520 Speaker 1: Slipper slips. I'll talk to no, no, no, no, no no 58 00:03:55,520 --> 00:04:01,200 Speaker 1: no no no no, I'm yeah, I'm not. So don't 59 00:04:01,280 --> 00:04:04,760 Speaker 1: let y'all because I've been wearing my mask, we have 60 00:04:04,880 --> 00:04:07,119 Speaker 1: been I don't background, I don't know what you've been doing. 61 00:04:08,240 --> 00:04:11,080 Speaker 1: Definitely have been having fun with family, and I had 62 00:04:11,120 --> 00:04:14,600 Speaker 1: been with family and friends and very few friends. But 63 00:04:14,640 --> 00:04:18,120 Speaker 1: don't listen to this bitch. I had a whole infectious disease. 64 00:04:18,160 --> 00:04:20,599 Speaker 1: I'm telling So we've been following the rule. Like, so 65 00:04:21,720 --> 00:04:25,120 Speaker 1: y'all seen my fucking's brad bulls and all times Instagram, 66 00:04:25,240 --> 00:04:27,840 Speaker 1: So y'all know, you know what I did write a 67 00:04:27,880 --> 00:04:29,640 Speaker 1: bull in the middle of a pandemic in Chicago and 68 00:04:29,720 --> 00:04:32,920 Speaker 1: my friend backyard was only about ten people there, So yeah, yeah, 69 00:04:34,000 --> 00:04:40,680 Speaker 1: she's calling a party way great time. Yeah was about 70 00:04:40,720 --> 00:04:43,520 Speaker 1: ten people. It wasn't ten people, but it was. Don't 71 00:04:43,560 --> 00:04:51,760 Speaker 1: do that. She happened she ship people. We'll talk about it. 72 00:04:51,760 --> 00:04:54,120 Speaker 1: I don't talk about it. You can happen to undrey 73 00:04:54,120 --> 00:05:00,840 Speaker 1: people outside. Okayitely, she didn't. That's not Laurie. Don't watch 74 00:05:02,480 --> 00:05:06,880 Speaker 1: Laura did not say y'all know Chicago. Lauria didn't say that. 75 00:05:07,080 --> 00:05:10,560 Speaker 1: What is Laura? I'm the mayor, Lauria a little of 76 00:05:10,880 --> 00:05:20,640 Speaker 1: little food. Don't I love Lurid? I really do love 77 00:05:20,720 --> 00:05:28,599 Speaker 1: Lord a little like, don't that I don't do that. 78 00:05:30,760 --> 00:05:32,719 Speaker 1: Shout out to a real one. So one thing I 79 00:05:32,720 --> 00:05:34,400 Speaker 1: want to talk about is because I feel like we've 80 00:05:34,440 --> 00:05:36,919 Speaker 1: all missed it so much time with our friends, and 81 00:05:36,960 --> 00:05:39,480 Speaker 1: we've mis spend so much time with each other. So 82 00:05:39,520 --> 00:05:41,919 Speaker 1: what's one thing y'all knows about your friends doing a pandemic? 83 00:05:42,000 --> 00:05:44,400 Speaker 1: They get on my motherfucking nerves and bet you get 84 00:05:44,440 --> 00:05:47,120 Speaker 1: on the house. Yeah, I've been. I've been through that. 85 00:05:48,279 --> 00:05:50,840 Speaker 1: She get on my nerves. Yeah, oh my god, you 86 00:05:50,880 --> 00:05:52,520 Speaker 1: should have took a picture. Did you take a picture 87 00:05:52,560 --> 00:05:56,040 Speaker 1: to sign that I put off? I did? I did? Good. Yeah, 88 00:05:56,040 --> 00:05:57,960 Speaker 1: what's one thing I'll know about yourselves before we do 89 00:05:58,000 --> 00:06:00,440 Speaker 1: each other? I mean, I don't know. That's not that 90 00:06:00,520 --> 00:06:03,800 Speaker 1: I noticed about myself. I always know myself. I like 91 00:06:03,880 --> 00:06:07,520 Speaker 1: my Space. That's just me though. That's just how I'm 92 00:06:07,640 --> 00:06:09,880 Speaker 1: only chat. So that's what you got just the whole pandemic? 93 00:06:09,960 --> 00:06:11,560 Speaker 1: Is you like your space? That's just something that I 94 00:06:11,720 --> 00:06:13,560 Speaker 1: just know about myself. And just in a sense of no, 95 00:06:13,560 --> 00:06:15,880 Speaker 1: I said, what that you know? Okay? What about you? 96 00:06:17,160 --> 00:06:21,400 Speaker 1: What I've learned about myself on the pandemic? This is 97 00:06:21,440 --> 00:06:27,760 Speaker 1: an essential work of y'all. I am shout out, um, Well, 98 00:06:27,760 --> 00:06:30,640 Speaker 1: I learned about myself. I don't know. That's kind of 99 00:06:32,279 --> 00:06:37,400 Speaker 1: I think I'm saying, but just consistent with just like 100 00:06:38,160 --> 00:06:40,120 Speaker 1: I don't know, moving forward in line just like coming back. 101 00:06:40,600 --> 00:06:43,239 Speaker 1: That's a good one. That's a good one. I definitely 102 00:06:43,279 --> 00:06:45,000 Speaker 1: can said that. You got he's about to start school 103 00:06:45,000 --> 00:06:49,480 Speaker 1: in August, y'all what to him? So yeah, that's yeah, 104 00:06:49,560 --> 00:06:51,400 Speaker 1: that's the one thing I've learned. You know, you could 105 00:06:51,400 --> 00:06:53,840 Speaker 1: do just about anything you want to do, put your 106 00:06:53,839 --> 00:06:57,120 Speaker 1: mind to it. Yeah, and what was yours? I think 107 00:06:57,160 --> 00:07:07,040 Speaker 1: for the bullshit, bullshit just extraly a couple of people. 108 00:07:08,160 --> 00:07:18,800 Speaker 1: Oh yeah, what did I learn about myself? I learned that, Uh, 109 00:07:18,960 --> 00:07:20,920 Speaker 1: I think that in the space that we are in, 110 00:07:21,160 --> 00:07:22,920 Speaker 1: I think that you have to be vocal about the 111 00:07:22,960 --> 00:07:26,000 Speaker 1: things that you need. That's a good one. Yeah. I 112 00:07:26,080 --> 00:07:29,560 Speaker 1: think that you can't always expect people to know where 113 00:07:29,560 --> 00:07:32,080 Speaker 1: you're coming from when it comes to certain things, so 114 00:07:32,160 --> 00:07:35,920 Speaker 1: you have to like say things. Yeah, I agree. Yeah, 115 00:07:36,080 --> 00:07:40,320 Speaker 1: I definitely learned that. And I also think that I 116 00:07:40,520 --> 00:07:47,600 Speaker 1: learned that, um, I wanted that I was entitled. I'm 117 00:07:47,640 --> 00:07:55,440 Speaker 1: being honest. I learned that. I learned that I'm a 118 00:07:55,440 --> 00:07:59,200 Speaker 1: little stuff entitled, so I'm working on that trade. I 119 00:07:59,280 --> 00:08:01,480 Speaker 1: also learned I had a lot of aha moments. So 120 00:08:01,640 --> 00:08:03,560 Speaker 1: I guess I'll open the door for y'all to be honest. 121 00:08:04,000 --> 00:08:07,640 Speaker 1: I also learned that I need to manage my tongue 122 00:08:07,720 --> 00:08:12,360 Speaker 1: when it comes to certain emotions. And that's pretty much it. 123 00:08:14,760 --> 00:08:19,080 Speaker 1: That's good. I haven't learned that much, well, I think, 124 00:08:19,600 --> 00:08:21,400 Speaker 1: But what have y'all learned about? What? What have ya 125 00:08:21,440 --> 00:08:25,440 Speaker 1: learned about each other? Each other? They don't have to 126 00:08:25,480 --> 00:08:28,480 Speaker 1: be everybody like wait a minute, doing a pandemic or 127 00:08:28,520 --> 00:08:33,280 Speaker 1: just like doing a pandemic. She's always been consistent with 128 00:08:33,559 --> 00:08:36,400 Speaker 1: just like her attitude just far than like she don't 129 00:08:36,400 --> 00:08:38,760 Speaker 1: give a about ship. And that's how I am toward Sernace. 130 00:08:38,800 --> 00:08:40,360 Speaker 1: I think she's starting to switch up a little bit, 131 00:08:42,000 --> 00:08:44,480 Speaker 1: not a bad way. I think that our friend is 132 00:08:44,520 --> 00:08:46,880 Speaker 1: starting to become more aware how she can make people feel, 133 00:08:48,880 --> 00:08:52,640 Speaker 1: and she's taking more accountability for it. Okay, I haven't 134 00:08:52,640 --> 00:08:58,320 Speaker 1: saw that, but I saw it. Oh yeah, I saw it. 135 00:08:59,320 --> 00:09:03,360 Speaker 1: I think she start to become more aware of how 136 00:09:03,960 --> 00:09:08,360 Speaker 1: certain things can make people feel. No, he's talking about 137 00:09:08,400 --> 00:09:11,240 Speaker 1: what she doing. No, so like safely and so, guys, 138 00:09:11,280 --> 00:09:12,720 Speaker 1: I've been trying to do this episode with these nicks 139 00:09:12,720 --> 00:09:15,959 Speaker 1: for like a thousand years, right, and so we was 140 00:09:16,000 --> 00:09:18,160 Speaker 1: gonna do it. They didn't want to do it because 141 00:09:18,160 --> 00:09:21,240 Speaker 1: they were so fucking tired. I felt the way. And 142 00:09:21,559 --> 00:09:23,640 Speaker 1: our friend that we're talking about, she hit me up 143 00:09:23,640 --> 00:09:25,640 Speaker 1: the following day because it was obvious that I felt 144 00:09:25,640 --> 00:09:28,480 Speaker 1: a way, and she apologized for how she made me 145 00:09:28,520 --> 00:09:37,800 Speaker 1: feel and oh my god, her face, t face. Oh 146 00:09:37,880 --> 00:09:40,280 Speaker 1: but I think it's good that we should say certain 147 00:09:40,320 --> 00:09:43,080 Speaker 1: things like that, acknowledge why because that shows growth and 148 00:09:43,160 --> 00:09:45,280 Speaker 1: knowledge what our friends up doing. And I wasn't expecting 149 00:09:45,320 --> 00:09:50,439 Speaker 1: that from her. Why not because I've never known YouTube. Well, no, 150 00:09:50,520 --> 00:09:53,079 Speaker 1: I take that back. I take that back. You're right 151 00:09:53,679 --> 00:09:55,480 Speaker 1: because me and you do talk and you do stuff 152 00:09:55,520 --> 00:09:57,520 Speaker 1: reflect a lot, So you're right. I take it back. 153 00:09:57,760 --> 00:10:02,400 Speaker 1: Thank you. You Okay, you over there now? What what's 154 00:10:02,440 --> 00:10:05,160 Speaker 1: on your man? Ain't nothing on man? I'm just listening. 155 00:10:06,559 --> 00:10:21,840 Speaker 1: What what continue? What what you wanted about your friends? Um? 156 00:10:23,520 --> 00:10:29,480 Speaker 1: About my friends. I'm learning that everybody just don't. I 157 00:10:29,559 --> 00:10:34,400 Speaker 1: can't expect people to think or act as if they 158 00:10:34,440 --> 00:10:40,319 Speaker 1: were me and everybody's journeys there on journey. Absolutely, I 159 00:10:40,400 --> 00:10:43,600 Speaker 1: guess I just learned that with everybody, and people want 160 00:10:43,640 --> 00:10:45,599 Speaker 1: to bring me their bullshit and I just blame for it. 161 00:10:46,000 --> 00:10:54,160 Speaker 1: They blame you for everything she has been and I'm 162 00:10:54,240 --> 00:10:56,520 Speaker 1: the most like this is the one friend I got 163 00:10:56,600 --> 00:11:01,079 Speaker 1: the most ship going on friends ship in the pandemic 164 00:11:01,160 --> 00:11:05,480 Speaker 1: and the pandemic. Nigga's well, how has your mental health 165 00:11:05,520 --> 00:11:08,040 Speaker 1: been doing the pandemic. I'm fine, I think you know what. 166 00:11:08,160 --> 00:11:11,920 Speaker 1: I'm fine. I mean, come on, now, you have your 167 00:11:11,960 --> 00:11:13,959 Speaker 1: moments where you be going crazy. Could you want to 168 00:11:14,000 --> 00:11:18,160 Speaker 1: talk on stuff? Yeah? Yeah, yeah everybody. Of course I 169 00:11:18,240 --> 00:11:19,880 Speaker 1: want to travel. But mentally, I think I'm in a 170 00:11:19,920 --> 00:11:22,160 Speaker 1: good space. Yeah, I think I am too. I think 171 00:11:22,320 --> 00:11:24,680 Speaker 1: all of us are like loners to a certain extent, 172 00:11:24,800 --> 00:11:28,520 Speaker 1: so we don't mind being in the house like or 173 00:11:28,720 --> 00:11:32,599 Speaker 1: like sometimes I mean something like we want to go 174 00:11:32,760 --> 00:11:36,520 Speaker 1: out and keep it. You want to go out, you 175 00:11:36,559 --> 00:11:38,959 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. But it's happened. To be in 176 00:11:39,000 --> 00:11:41,360 Speaker 1: the house is not a problem for any of us, 177 00:11:42,320 --> 00:11:45,000 Speaker 1: like unless we specifically want to do something for real, 178 00:11:45,080 --> 00:11:47,480 Speaker 1: for real, Like it's not a it's not a big issue. 179 00:11:47,520 --> 00:11:50,079 Speaker 1: Like some people are really like going through it, like 180 00:11:50,240 --> 00:11:53,600 Speaker 1: not being able to like be out in a social environment. 181 00:11:53,640 --> 00:11:57,640 Speaker 1: Don't even have that you know that loves you? Right? 182 00:11:57,960 --> 00:12:01,920 Speaker 1: Yeah yeah, I can in the house and girlfriends. Fatday. 183 00:12:02,200 --> 00:12:04,160 Speaker 1: Oh my god, I can now wait for that ship 184 00:12:04,240 --> 00:12:10,199 Speaker 1: to come out. What September eleven. That's so messy. No, 185 00:12:13,760 --> 00:12:22,680 Speaker 1: I ain't never run the insecure. Yeah, she thinks y'all like, okay, yeah, 186 00:12:23,240 --> 00:12:25,880 Speaker 1: but this one really thinks she you know when they're 187 00:12:26,320 --> 00:12:31,280 Speaker 1: stop it. No, you're not even Molly. Shut up, Niga. 188 00:12:33,880 --> 00:12:41,360 Speaker 1: I think you like what the supporting member was the funny. 189 00:12:41,480 --> 00:12:52,439 Speaker 1: She's not that funny. No, no, no, Nona, keep the 190 00:12:52,480 --> 00:12:56,400 Speaker 1: kid on the nire I don't want to keep it. 191 00:12:58,120 --> 00:13:01,439 Speaker 1: Lawrence is like, what do you mean? How do I 192 00:13:01,559 --> 00:13:08,559 Speaker 1: have it? What? Yeah? Definitely are you the girl he's 193 00:13:08,600 --> 00:13:15,079 Speaker 1: missed with the best boy? Can you eat some, mama, Mama, 194 00:13:17,080 --> 00:13:20,080 Speaker 1: I'll be eat some, Mama. I think I'm gonna make 195 00:13:20,080 --> 00:13:23,920 Speaker 1: sure Molly. You are definitely not you Molly all the 196 00:13:24,000 --> 00:13:29,640 Speaker 1: way it's been Molly morey, Molly all day. I think 197 00:13:29,679 --> 00:13:33,520 Speaker 1: you because we both have big guys, nod looks. We 198 00:13:33,600 --> 00:13:36,480 Speaker 1: ain't talking about looks. How to have y'all? What's feeling 199 00:13:36,480 --> 00:13:38,920 Speaker 1: about the riots and ship? Did y'all had it bad 200 00:13:38,960 --> 00:13:42,120 Speaker 1: in Chicago? Yeah? I ain't gonna lie. I was at 201 00:13:42,200 --> 00:13:45,520 Speaker 1: work and I just saw the world going crazy, And 202 00:13:46,160 --> 00:13:48,959 Speaker 1: when I walked out at eleven o'clock at nine, I 203 00:13:49,040 --> 00:13:53,079 Speaker 1: was like nigga's going to like car jack me. You're 204 00:13:53,120 --> 00:13:55,040 Speaker 1: not gonna come get you, right, you know. I went 205 00:13:55,120 --> 00:13:57,080 Speaker 1: to his house, but like when we when I went 206 00:13:57,160 --> 00:13:59,480 Speaker 1: to his house, like he stays right by the train, 207 00:14:00,120 --> 00:14:02,280 Speaker 1: so you can hear niggas like banging on the train 208 00:14:02,360 --> 00:14:05,120 Speaker 1: either they were trying to break in or break the 209 00:14:05,160 --> 00:14:08,520 Speaker 1: a TM or something. So so as an essential worker 210 00:14:08,600 --> 00:14:10,320 Speaker 1: that you think that COVID nineteam was gonna be as 211 00:14:10,360 --> 00:14:18,800 Speaker 1: bad as it is in February, no March. Yeah, I 212 00:14:18,920 --> 00:14:21,640 Speaker 1: was like, damn this ship. Really, I know because I 213 00:14:21,760 --> 00:14:23,960 Speaker 1: was at the barbershop and he was talking about it 214 00:14:23,960 --> 00:14:26,560 Speaker 1: and I'm like, no, they're not gonna shut it down. 215 00:14:26,680 --> 00:14:29,360 Speaker 1: Like they won't do that. So when it happened, it 216 00:14:29,480 --> 00:14:33,600 Speaker 1: was like, oh, like this is the world's back to living. Yeah. 217 00:14:34,000 --> 00:14:35,680 Speaker 1: I was just happy to be out of school and 218 00:14:35,800 --> 00:14:40,040 Speaker 1: be at home doing e learning. Even though the ship 219 00:14:40,160 --> 00:14:43,520 Speaker 1: was hard as fun, but it was good. Did you 220 00:14:43,680 --> 00:14:55,880 Speaker 1: cheat your dad? You're like, hey, something, you know you 221 00:14:55,960 --> 00:14:58,000 Speaker 1: have to make it what they say you ain't trying. 222 00:14:58,280 --> 00:15:03,880 Speaker 1: Ain't got to cheat to repeat something? You can they 223 00:15:03,960 --> 00:15:09,160 Speaker 1: watching my comead through school. Do what you need to do, queen, 224 00:15:11,520 --> 00:15:17,720 Speaker 1: cheat yourself. But then y'all felt like going to be 225 00:15:17,840 --> 00:15:20,920 Speaker 1: that year. Yes, I did. I did. It was sus 226 00:15:21,080 --> 00:15:25,600 Speaker 1: to be my turn up. Yeah. I kicked it off 227 00:15:25,680 --> 00:15:29,000 Speaker 1: in New York. I know that's when we had got closed. 228 00:15:29,040 --> 00:15:32,760 Speaker 1: I was fresh out of a relationship and I was 229 00:15:32,800 --> 00:15:37,520 Speaker 1: just like a new journey. So you think twe was 230 00:15:37,560 --> 00:15:39,800 Speaker 1: gonna be the way it came out, But you're got 231 00:15:39,840 --> 00:15:41,520 Speaker 1: on the whole relationship. I think it's I think it 232 00:15:41,600 --> 00:15:43,920 Speaker 1: was good for I mean, I think it's turned out good. 233 00:15:44,520 --> 00:15:48,720 Speaker 1: It was unexpected, But I don't think it's and I 234 00:15:48,760 --> 00:15:51,040 Speaker 1: don't think. I didn't think that it was gone for her. 235 00:15:51,040 --> 00:15:52,800 Speaker 1: I didn't think it was gonna move that bad. But 236 00:15:54,520 --> 00:15:57,400 Speaker 1: just doing a pandemic, I think that's the best time 237 00:15:57,440 --> 00:15:59,440 Speaker 1: to get to know somebody. At the point if you 238 00:15:59,560 --> 00:16:02,600 Speaker 1: can make with the pandemic, will get to know somebody. Yeah, 239 00:16:03,280 --> 00:16:05,800 Speaker 1: trying to have baby that's a different type of baby ship. 240 00:16:07,160 --> 00:16:12,760 Speaker 1: How he did get tired of a couple times. But 241 00:16:12,880 --> 00:16:32,440 Speaker 1: there's Drasshi. This wolf can't get no fucking wax. Listen 242 00:16:32,440 --> 00:16:34,960 Speaker 1: to this. This podcast is about to be nothing but joke. 243 00:16:36,400 --> 00:16:38,280 Speaker 1: What about you? How have you in your relationship? And 244 00:16:41,200 --> 00:16:44,000 Speaker 1: don't do them like that? No, I'm not, but you know, 245 00:16:44,080 --> 00:16:47,600 Speaker 1: I'm just being in the house every day you live 246 00:16:47,680 --> 00:16:51,200 Speaker 1: with him, and then like that, right, and then like 247 00:16:51,280 --> 00:16:53,640 Speaker 1: in the beginning, like I was working from home and 248 00:16:54,520 --> 00:16:56,120 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, So it's like he wasn't 249 00:16:56,400 --> 00:16:57,960 Speaker 1: he was at home. I was at home. So we're 250 00:16:57,960 --> 00:17:01,480 Speaker 1: both at home, so it was like ship, you know. 251 00:17:01,800 --> 00:17:04,280 Speaker 1: But I mean overall though, I mean, I think we 252 00:17:04,400 --> 00:17:06,560 Speaker 1: learned each other a little bit better. Like we both, like, 253 00:17:06,840 --> 00:17:09,320 Speaker 1: you know, our own space. So it times like I'll 254 00:17:09,320 --> 00:17:11,840 Speaker 1: be don't think you knew that already. I think I'm 255 00:17:11,880 --> 00:17:14,200 Speaker 1: new to a serve extent. But I think it was 256 00:17:14,240 --> 00:17:18,359 Speaker 1: more so of me, just because I like, you know, 257 00:17:18,600 --> 00:17:20,920 Speaker 1: sometimes I find myself being mad or irritated, but I 258 00:17:21,000 --> 00:17:24,680 Speaker 1: don't know why. But I figured, you know, I thought, wow, 259 00:17:24,920 --> 00:17:27,920 Speaker 1: like sometimes I just need my own space. I just 260 00:17:28,000 --> 00:17:30,639 Speaker 1: need to breathe, and I realized that about myself. So 261 00:17:31,440 --> 00:17:34,000 Speaker 1: I mean, overall, don't like man, then my spouse were good, 262 00:17:37,600 --> 00:17:41,920 Speaker 1: a spouse wonderful. What about you? Some about me and 263 00:17:42,000 --> 00:17:51,800 Speaker 1: my rabbit? You've been jagging off jag our best friends. Honey, 264 00:17:52,200 --> 00:17:54,400 Speaker 1: Well this is your first time. When do you masturbate? 265 00:17:55,640 --> 00:18:03,920 Speaker 1: Just keep going with the conversation. I touched myself. This 266 00:18:04,119 --> 00:18:06,520 Speaker 1: ain't no love that and stuff. Love self love is 267 00:18:06,600 --> 00:18:09,679 Speaker 1: the best book. But this is your what You've been 268 00:18:09,760 --> 00:18:12,520 Speaker 1: alone alone relationship a long time. I ain't gonna go 269 00:18:12,560 --> 00:18:14,680 Speaker 1: too deep. I'm just saying, like, how's it been being 270 00:18:14,760 --> 00:18:19,120 Speaker 1: single in the pandemic? You gets an bind yourself? Learn 271 00:18:19,200 --> 00:18:21,920 Speaker 1: what you won't, learn what you like, Learn how to 272 00:18:22,000 --> 00:18:27,359 Speaker 1: date yourself? And exactly the nipple rants. Ain't nobody have 273 00:18:27,600 --> 00:18:33,280 Speaker 1: to put all that? I might edit that. Why talk? 274 00:18:34,680 --> 00:18:39,680 Speaker 1: It's anymous hate the business that? Okay, don't worry about it. 275 00:18:42,280 --> 00:18:50,640 Speaker 1: Keep it going. Damn, I don't know that you got yours? 276 00:18:51,359 --> 00:18:53,560 Speaker 1: Who is? Who is? Business? Is it? But my own? 277 00:18:53,760 --> 00:18:56,280 Speaker 1: Thank you? You think you think you know? I know 278 00:18:57,200 --> 00:19:01,760 Speaker 1: talking about this that this is definitely told? Are you 279 00:19:01,920 --> 00:19:04,840 Speaker 1: told on what? Without saving that? Are you? Because you 280 00:19:04,920 --> 00:19:07,240 Speaker 1: was around him popping on bushes out you told him? 281 00:19:07,600 --> 00:19:10,960 Speaker 1: Why would I? I don't even understand how he would know? Okay, 282 00:19:11,119 --> 00:19:13,600 Speaker 1: well how was popping them mountain? I was with you 283 00:19:14,480 --> 00:19:19,960 Speaker 1: nipples here first of all, it's they both did. That's 284 00:19:20,000 --> 00:19:22,560 Speaker 1: for our nipples, piers at this motherfucking table. Okay, so 285 00:19:23,400 --> 00:19:25,560 Speaker 1: you got your so you can say name they know 286 00:19:25,640 --> 00:19:29,800 Speaker 1: men his nipples, Piers too, I don't have nipples. A 287 00:19:32,720 --> 00:19:36,480 Speaker 1: fine out of here? What was one fun thing? Wait? 288 00:19:36,520 --> 00:19:40,280 Speaker 1: Are you finished? So you just because I'm finished talking 289 00:19:41,400 --> 00:19:44,720 Speaker 1: what we're talking about? So the fun thing we're just 290 00:19:44,800 --> 00:19:48,320 Speaker 1: talking about? Ye didn't asked me? What did you learn 291 00:19:48,359 --> 00:19:53,240 Speaker 1: in a pandem no about my dating life? Have you 292 00:19:53,480 --> 00:19:56,480 Speaker 1: changed or learned to love you yourself? Well? I always 293 00:19:56,520 --> 00:20:04,000 Speaker 1: love me, love yourself. I don't think. I think it 294 00:20:04,080 --> 00:20:08,080 Speaker 1: was other people. All right, Well, you know what, I'm 295 00:20:08,119 --> 00:20:10,119 Speaker 1: in a good space. I feel like one thing I 296 00:20:10,320 --> 00:20:14,080 Speaker 1: learned is that I just can't expect people to be 297 00:20:14,320 --> 00:20:20,720 Speaker 1: men't sound like each other? Oh no, also real ship, 298 00:20:20,840 --> 00:20:26,960 Speaker 1: I think got glasses all I'd No, I think that 299 00:20:27,359 --> 00:20:30,280 Speaker 1: one thing I learned. I'm learning and I'm having a 300 00:20:30,359 --> 00:20:31,840 Speaker 1: hard time, and I feel like I'm getting a little 301 00:20:31,840 --> 00:20:33,280 Speaker 1: bit better at it. I just can't expect people to 302 00:20:33,320 --> 00:20:35,840 Speaker 1: pull a me on them, Like everybody's just not gonna 303 00:20:35,920 --> 00:20:37,800 Speaker 1: love or treat me the way that I treat them. 304 00:20:37,880 --> 00:20:40,280 Speaker 1: And I think that I need to get better at 305 00:20:40,640 --> 00:20:44,800 Speaker 1: managing my expectations with people, so it can I can 306 00:20:44,840 --> 00:20:47,960 Speaker 1: be able to manage the disappointment because like I'm having 307 00:20:47,960 --> 00:20:49,600 Speaker 1: a high expectation for you if you already know what 308 00:20:49,640 --> 00:20:52,800 Speaker 1: your capable doing. That's why I learned I don't expect 309 00:20:52,880 --> 00:20:56,920 Speaker 1: nothing from people, right, definitely, like I've always tried to do. 310 00:20:57,960 --> 00:20:59,760 Speaker 1: But then again, it's like, why would you not want 311 00:20:59,800 --> 00:21:03,200 Speaker 1: to expect something to people you love or you care about. Yeah, 312 00:21:03,240 --> 00:21:05,480 Speaker 1: but at a certain point you can expect it. But 313 00:21:06,160 --> 00:21:09,679 Speaker 1: at the end of the day, it's like nobody but honestly, 314 00:21:09,760 --> 00:21:13,760 Speaker 1: nobody owes you ship though life, nobody owes you ship. 315 00:21:13,960 --> 00:21:16,320 Speaker 1: And I agree with that. But then that goes back 316 00:21:16,320 --> 00:21:18,440 Speaker 1: to the conversation we had and I have. I guess 317 00:21:18,480 --> 00:21:20,159 Speaker 1: you thought I was saying something about not caring. You 318 00:21:20,280 --> 00:21:21,840 Speaker 1: was like, yeah, but we need people to care. So 319 00:21:21,960 --> 00:21:24,199 Speaker 1: it's like, you need people to have some type of expectation, 320 00:21:25,320 --> 00:21:30,760 Speaker 1: especially if you care about them caring. Yes, expectation, I 321 00:21:30,840 --> 00:21:32,920 Speaker 1: mean once you get to it, like I expect certain 322 00:21:32,960 --> 00:21:35,440 Speaker 1: ship out of my man because we are at that 323 00:21:35,560 --> 00:21:39,119 Speaker 1: point where we are obligated to each other, like you 324 00:21:39,280 --> 00:21:41,720 Speaker 1: have to hold up a certain thing and I hold 325 00:21:41,800 --> 00:21:44,560 Speaker 1: up this, and we expect certain ship out each other. 326 00:21:45,040 --> 00:21:47,640 Speaker 1: You're in a relationship, Yeah, but I'm saying, what about 327 00:21:47,640 --> 00:21:50,719 Speaker 1: in the friendship in the beginning, No, I didn't expect 328 00:21:50,800 --> 00:21:53,119 Speaker 1: nothing I don't talk about I'm talking about your friends. 329 00:21:53,840 --> 00:21:59,240 Speaker 1: I mean, I feel like relationships aren't like relationships. But 330 00:21:59,359 --> 00:22:03,119 Speaker 1: it's like, you know, I keep those expectations, like to 331 00:22:03,240 --> 00:22:05,920 Speaker 1: a memo because it's like I don't want people expecting 332 00:22:05,960 --> 00:22:08,399 Speaker 1: ship from me because I have my own life too, Like, 333 00:22:09,119 --> 00:22:11,639 Speaker 1: so you don't expect nothing from your friends as far 334 00:22:11,680 --> 00:22:16,920 Speaker 1: as what like Honestly, yeah, I feel honestly I expect loyalty, 335 00:22:17,840 --> 00:22:24,520 Speaker 1: you know, um, support, but I think that's yeah, that's 336 00:22:24,720 --> 00:22:31,720 Speaker 1: the basic. But I don't and my friends. Yeah, I 337 00:22:31,800 --> 00:22:34,680 Speaker 1: don't even expect my friends to support me. I do 338 00:22:34,880 --> 00:22:37,119 Speaker 1: expect if I fussed with you and my people, I 339 00:22:37,840 --> 00:22:41,920 Speaker 1: really do expect loyalty and I expect honestly, I expect love, 340 00:22:42,040 --> 00:22:44,440 Speaker 1: but support. Now, I don't expect my friends to support me, 341 00:22:46,000 --> 00:22:48,640 Speaker 1: like it would be nice, but I know that all 342 00:22:48,680 --> 00:23:02,960 Speaker 1: my I paid three dollars a month. No. No, she 343 00:23:03,160 --> 00:23:05,520 Speaker 1: was one of the first people that started up for 344 00:23:05,560 --> 00:23:07,880 Speaker 1: to be a Patriot my Patriot account, y'all, and she's 345 00:23:07,920 --> 00:23:12,560 Speaker 1: been hounding me. But now, what I mean by support 346 00:23:12,680 --> 00:23:14,560 Speaker 1: is I just know with certain friends, I don't expect 347 00:23:14,600 --> 00:23:16,639 Speaker 1: them to like go all out this because Eric, I 348 00:23:16,680 --> 00:23:19,000 Speaker 1: don't have friends for that. You know what I'm saying, 349 00:23:19,000 --> 00:23:21,359 Speaker 1: Like I know if I want to talk to somebody 350 00:23:21,480 --> 00:23:23,560 Speaker 1: that's gonna hold my hand just now, I go to 351 00:23:23,680 --> 00:23:25,800 Speaker 1: this person. I want somebody money to be real, I 352 00:23:25,880 --> 00:23:27,160 Speaker 1: go to this person. If I want somebody to talk 353 00:23:27,160 --> 00:23:29,439 Speaker 1: about business, I go to that person. Like That's why 354 00:23:29,480 --> 00:23:33,000 Speaker 1: I know my friends because if I go to my friend, 355 00:23:33,080 --> 00:23:35,120 Speaker 1: I know that you're not used to support me. That's 356 00:23:35,119 --> 00:23:37,640 Speaker 1: what I mean by managing my expectations because it costs 357 00:23:37,680 --> 00:23:39,280 Speaker 1: us the point. But it's like I did that to myself. 358 00:23:39,480 --> 00:23:41,480 Speaker 1: You feel me so and I feel like when you 359 00:23:41,560 --> 00:23:45,240 Speaker 1: know that your friendship exactly, you know how to handle 360 00:23:45,320 --> 00:23:50,320 Speaker 1: them exactly exactly. I like that, what about you? What 361 00:23:53,440 --> 00:23:57,960 Speaker 1: what I worried? I agree? You have to learn how 362 00:23:58,000 --> 00:24:00,880 Speaker 1: to manage your friendships. Like everybody is a lot of friends. 363 00:24:00,920 --> 00:24:04,159 Speaker 1: You feel like you manage all your friendships good. I 364 00:24:04,359 --> 00:24:07,480 Speaker 1: think that I do, because everybody serves a different purpose. 365 00:24:08,200 --> 00:24:10,920 Speaker 1: Everybody can't get around everybody. Most of my friends I'll 366 00:24:10,960 --> 00:24:13,800 Speaker 1: get along with each other, but I still need emphasis 367 00:24:13,840 --> 00:24:18,760 Speaker 1: whol to go to. I mean, who don't I mean 368 00:24:18,800 --> 00:24:22,840 Speaker 1: everybody to be cordial in the same room. But y'all 369 00:24:22,840 --> 00:24:26,320 Speaker 1: know how to be cord. Even if you're got to 370 00:24:26,600 --> 00:24:28,359 Speaker 1: with each other, y'all know how to be cordial within 371 00:24:28,440 --> 00:24:35,960 Speaker 1: the same Absolutely agree, Nikki, you the messiest. No, really, 372 00:24:38,640 --> 00:24:45,320 Speaker 1: y'all think miss messy. No, but he has grown compared 373 00:24:45,760 --> 00:24:50,639 Speaker 1: five years ago. Absolutely he could be. Definitely because we 374 00:24:52,240 --> 00:24:54,320 Speaker 1: did used to fight a lot. We did. We stopped 375 00:24:54,320 --> 00:24:56,160 Speaker 1: talking for a long time. We did. We stopped talking 376 00:24:56,240 --> 00:25:01,360 Speaker 1: for like talking, I just get yeah, yeah, it did. 377 00:25:01,520 --> 00:25:08,760 Speaker 1: It was being around talking about the kids, talk about it, 378 00:25:09,320 --> 00:25:14,159 Speaker 1: just being around around her and just like it was 379 00:25:14,200 --> 00:25:15,920 Speaker 1: just it was a lot. It was a lot. I 380 00:25:15,960 --> 00:25:17,840 Speaker 1: think we was both trying to find ourself. I was 381 00:25:17,880 --> 00:25:20,560 Speaker 1: trying to find herself. I was just coming out the 382 00:25:20,680 --> 00:25:23,720 Speaker 1: closet of being you know, being in the closet and 383 00:25:23,800 --> 00:25:26,240 Speaker 1: just trying to pull out things, yeah, about myself. This 384 00:25:26,400 --> 00:25:28,480 Speaker 1: was young, when we were younger. Me and I was 385 00:25:28,520 --> 00:25:31,399 Speaker 1: getting into it a lot. But it had nothing to 386 00:25:31,480 --> 00:25:33,440 Speaker 1: do with his growth or my brother. I just think 387 00:25:33,480 --> 00:25:37,320 Speaker 1: that we were we were really close, and then it 388 00:25:37,440 --> 00:25:39,960 Speaker 1: was a lot of stuff that he didn't work. I'm 389 00:25:39,960 --> 00:25:41,480 Speaker 1: saying it was a lot of things at that time 390 00:25:41,720 --> 00:25:44,280 Speaker 1: that he didn't understand about me and I didn't understand 391 00:25:44,280 --> 00:25:46,800 Speaker 1: about him. And like we just kind of like bumped 392 00:25:46,800 --> 00:25:50,600 Speaker 1: he yeah, and it was bad and we yeah, he 393 00:25:50,720 --> 00:25:55,760 Speaker 1: was Oh yeah, I was gonna beating the funk up. No, 394 00:25:55,880 --> 00:25:57,760 Speaker 1: but I would never beat it. No, but no, we 395 00:25:57,840 --> 00:25:59,600 Speaker 1: need used to bump heads. And I'm happy were like 396 00:25:59,720 --> 00:26:05,280 Speaker 1: kind of like you said, I had to learn her 397 00:26:05,880 --> 00:26:09,280 Speaker 1: almost said a name, but yeah, and I think, yeah, 398 00:26:09,400 --> 00:26:12,000 Speaker 1: so we had. But it never had anything to do 399 00:26:12,160 --> 00:26:17,119 Speaker 1: with him like come out of closets hell who he 400 00:26:17,400 --> 00:26:20,639 Speaker 1: was like kids, But it was just we just he 401 00:26:20,800 --> 00:26:23,000 Speaker 1: just had a very strong personality and I wasn't the 402 00:26:23,040 --> 00:26:26,200 Speaker 1: type of person in life. Do your life strong personalities? Yeah, 403 00:26:26,200 --> 00:26:29,320 Speaker 1: I mean all my friends have strong personalities. Like I 404 00:26:29,359 --> 00:26:31,440 Speaker 1: don't have a problem with it, but I don't feel 405 00:26:31,440 --> 00:26:33,200 Speaker 1: like you do get into it with a strong personality 406 00:26:33,200 --> 00:26:36,080 Speaker 1: because I'm a type of person that that goes against 407 00:26:36,160 --> 00:26:40,080 Speaker 1: a strong personality like some people don't have like a 408 00:26:41,359 --> 00:26:42,880 Speaker 1: like if you say something to me and I don't 409 00:26:42,920 --> 00:26:44,399 Speaker 1: agree with it, I just don't agree with it. And 410 00:26:44,840 --> 00:26:48,840 Speaker 1: most strong personalities are not gonna sit back and be like, oh, well, 411 00:26:49,800 --> 00:26:51,480 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying that you're gonna keep going. 412 00:26:51,560 --> 00:26:53,320 Speaker 1: I'm gonna keep going with you. And that's why I'm 413 00:26:53,359 --> 00:26:55,400 Speaker 1: bout is because I'm the type of person that's gonna 414 00:26:55,440 --> 00:26:57,240 Speaker 1: be like, I don't. I don't understand that because I 415 00:26:57,320 --> 00:27:00,040 Speaker 1: think about things from a different aspect, and most of 416 00:27:00,119 --> 00:27:02,159 Speaker 1: my friends think about things from a different aspect. So 417 00:27:02,840 --> 00:27:05,159 Speaker 1: until we understand each other or we just agree to 418 00:27:05,240 --> 00:27:10,960 Speaker 1: disagree there and it's just that's just how it goes on. 419 00:27:11,119 --> 00:27:19,760 Speaker 1: That's that was good. Yeah, why no, that's good. It 420 00:27:19,920 --> 00:27:23,199 Speaker 1: was good. It was good. I think that comes from 421 00:27:23,280 --> 00:27:24,720 Speaker 1: me and my mom, because my mom is a very 422 00:27:24,760 --> 00:27:27,560 Speaker 1: strong person and with her a lot, and I think 423 00:27:27,600 --> 00:27:29,760 Speaker 1: that's why you do that. I don't think that's why 424 00:27:29,840 --> 00:27:32,600 Speaker 1: I do it. It's just that nobody backed down from her, 425 00:27:33,240 --> 00:27:35,520 Speaker 1: but I'm the only person that calls her out on 426 00:27:35,640 --> 00:27:37,280 Speaker 1: her ship. You know if I think that you do 427 00:27:37,400 --> 00:27:40,240 Speaker 1: that because when you do meet strong personalities that's very 428 00:27:40,280 --> 00:27:42,879 Speaker 1: similar to your mom. That's that's your moment of you, 429 00:27:43,000 --> 00:27:46,200 Speaker 1: like you turn up. I don't think it's a turn 430 00:27:46,320 --> 00:27:47,840 Speaker 1: up though, I'm not to turn up in a sense 431 00:27:47,880 --> 00:27:50,440 Speaker 1: of like, when I mean turn up, I mean I'm 432 00:27:50,480 --> 00:27:52,280 Speaker 1: talking about I was like, that's the moment of you 433 00:27:53,359 --> 00:27:57,520 Speaker 1: being more vocal, right, because I you do have a 434 00:27:57,640 --> 00:27:59,919 Speaker 1: sense of when it comes to a certain strong personality 435 00:28:00,280 --> 00:28:03,000 Speaker 1: you you go at it with them. I mean if 436 00:28:03,080 --> 00:28:05,879 Speaker 1: I don't agree or something comes up while I'm just 437 00:28:06,000 --> 00:28:10,000 Speaker 1: like I don't understand that, then I want to understand 438 00:28:10,040 --> 00:28:12,359 Speaker 1: your point of view. So it's not always a fight, 439 00:28:12,680 --> 00:28:14,840 Speaker 1: per se. It's just like me trying to get it 440 00:28:14,960 --> 00:28:17,040 Speaker 1: through my head to understand, Like I don't think I 441 00:28:17,119 --> 00:28:20,480 Speaker 1: don't get that? Why would you say that? That's all? 442 00:28:21,600 --> 00:28:23,680 Speaker 1: But it's not. It might come off like a fight, 443 00:28:24,320 --> 00:28:26,400 Speaker 1: but it's not really fighting. It's just like me fighting 444 00:28:26,440 --> 00:28:31,320 Speaker 1: myself to understand. Maybe if that makes you not for 445 00:28:31,480 --> 00:28:37,600 Speaker 1: your queen, get your ship out, queen. But they've been friends. 446 00:28:37,640 --> 00:28:41,760 Speaker 1: How long y'all been friends? We've been France for twenty 447 00:28:41,800 --> 00:28:47,840 Speaker 1: plus years. We've been France for like a fresh are 448 00:28:47,880 --> 00:28:49,760 Speaker 1: really the same out with me? You and this bit 449 00:28:49,960 --> 00:28:52,320 Speaker 1: used to come to my room at three o'clock in 450 00:28:52,360 --> 00:28:58,560 Speaker 1: the morning that university d Tennessee say you know Tennessee 451 00:28:58,560 --> 00:29:05,560 Speaker 1: State University? Not on my door three o'clock breakups, get 452 00:29:05,680 --> 00:29:09,600 Speaker 1: in the Twitter size bit with me and like can 453 00:29:09,640 --> 00:29:12,560 Speaker 1: I sleep in here with you? And she should be like, okay, 454 00:29:12,720 --> 00:29:20,320 Speaker 1: come on, just annoying. Shesten to a tweet songs, Listen 455 00:29:20,360 --> 00:29:25,000 Speaker 1: to that bitch. I didn't listen to that so much. 456 00:29:26,040 --> 00:29:29,800 Speaker 1: Fucking Carl Thomas, girl, your roster and something in my 457 00:29:29,880 --> 00:29:34,960 Speaker 1: heart by the barge, All this love hurt my heart. 458 00:29:36,040 --> 00:29:39,000 Speaker 1: It was horrible, y'all. It was horrible. I still crunched 459 00:29:39,000 --> 00:29:41,880 Speaker 1: thinking about it. Please you called my mama asked for 460 00:29:42,000 --> 00:29:44,760 Speaker 1: advice what I taught her? Mama asked for advice because 461 00:29:44,840 --> 00:29:47,280 Speaker 1: he had another bitch at his probate and she had 462 00:29:47,760 --> 00:29:52,280 Speaker 1: I was about to beat that bad. I was about 463 00:29:52,320 --> 00:29:56,120 Speaker 1: to drag that bit. That was a good memory. It wasn't. 464 00:29:56,240 --> 00:29:58,440 Speaker 1: But that's crazy what your friends to put you in 465 00:29:58,480 --> 00:30:00,320 Speaker 1: because I was about to drag a cup. Look at 466 00:30:01,640 --> 00:30:06,719 Speaker 1: he remember remember he was remember you remember he? Uh? 467 00:30:07,320 --> 00:30:09,000 Speaker 1: What was at the club that day? And he threw 468 00:30:09,040 --> 00:30:12,000 Speaker 1: the winter the the wallet back at that girl that 469 00:30:12,120 --> 00:30:15,880 Speaker 1: thin in my car and then we was that western? 470 00:30:16,600 --> 00:30:19,400 Speaker 1: What was that western? He's about to fight because of her? 471 00:30:19,600 --> 00:30:23,040 Speaker 1: I wasn't you love telling that story? He really feel 472 00:30:23,080 --> 00:30:27,160 Speaker 1: the way she was trying to find me? What was 473 00:30:27,200 --> 00:30:30,880 Speaker 1: it supposed to do? Exactly? People I was going to be. 474 00:30:32,120 --> 00:30:36,360 Speaker 1: I think they forgetting that. I'm a man still, so 475 00:30:36,600 --> 00:30:41,480 Speaker 1: you know you won't pick so you know what you 476 00:30:41,760 --> 00:30:48,400 Speaker 1: young at that point what like you just be like, yeah, yeah, 477 00:30:48,640 --> 00:30:51,000 Speaker 1: I think when you're young, when you you you got 478 00:30:51,320 --> 00:30:54,160 Speaker 1: you ain't got a lot of you got more heart 479 00:30:54,360 --> 00:31:04,400 Speaker 1: kind of restraint, like a strange this bit Yeah, there's 480 00:31:04,480 --> 00:31:11,160 Speaker 1: somebody a buck they were so scared. Don't do that. 481 00:31:11,320 --> 00:31:14,640 Speaker 1: We're not gonna bring up old pass. Don't listen to 482 00:31:14,840 --> 00:31:17,200 Speaker 1: nothing they're talking about. I don't even nobody's trying to 483 00:31:17,200 --> 00:31:20,600 Speaker 1: come sue me because I ain't got it. And so 484 00:31:20,800 --> 00:31:23,040 Speaker 1: I do that I have restraints. I don't know if 485 00:31:23,080 --> 00:31:26,880 Speaker 1: they're talking about I'm saying years ago. No, But honestly, 486 00:31:26,960 --> 00:31:29,640 Speaker 1: I can really say that I really appreciate my group 487 00:31:29,720 --> 00:31:32,400 Speaker 1: of friends. A lot of people don't got friends, y'all. 488 00:31:32,960 --> 00:31:35,160 Speaker 1: They don't, And I think that's a lot of a 489 00:31:35,240 --> 00:31:38,120 Speaker 1: lot of times people are going crazy because you're dealing 490 00:31:38,160 --> 00:31:39,960 Speaker 1: with ship by your stuff, and you can nobody talked 491 00:31:39,960 --> 00:31:43,920 Speaker 1: to like that's what's sad. It is, Well, there be 492 00:31:44,080 --> 00:31:46,120 Speaker 1: more than that with these bitches. These be trying to 493 00:31:46,160 --> 00:31:50,920 Speaker 1: funk each other. Nigger queen, I'm saying like I'm saying, 494 00:31:51,000 --> 00:31:54,360 Speaker 1: like women don't have a lot of women don't have 495 00:31:54,640 --> 00:31:56,920 Speaker 1: Like I feel like I got a lot of female friends. 496 00:31:57,680 --> 00:32:00,840 Speaker 1: You do, women don't have like female friends or somebody 497 00:32:00,880 --> 00:32:04,040 Speaker 1: that can really trust, like these bitches out here beyond 498 00:32:04,080 --> 00:32:07,320 Speaker 1: some other ship. I agree. Yeah, Like if I can't 499 00:32:07,360 --> 00:32:15,520 Speaker 1: leave mining around you, you are not my friend. What No, 500 00:32:15,680 --> 00:32:19,960 Speaker 1: it's true, Like yeah, like I've been around everybody thinking 501 00:32:19,960 --> 00:32:23,560 Speaker 1: about myself and it's wrong itself for yours. Got just yeah, 502 00:32:24,240 --> 00:32:36,080 Speaker 1: but that's just because then I sad another story and 503 00:32:36,080 --> 00:32:39,720 Speaker 1: it's just like what you know at the house. Oh yeah, 504 00:32:40,280 --> 00:32:45,240 Speaker 1: I don't care, yeah, I mean, but yeah, I just 505 00:32:45,320 --> 00:32:48,720 Speaker 1: feel like if I can't trust my friend with my nigga, Like, no, 506 00:32:49,880 --> 00:32:52,840 Speaker 1: that's a dub, like you were supposed to use that today? 507 00:32:53,520 --> 00:32:58,040 Speaker 1: What dub that was on the rules? Get the funk out, bitch, 508 00:32:58,680 --> 00:33:01,239 Speaker 1: get out. Yeah, going to sleep on because I'm going 509 00:33:01,320 --> 00:33:04,080 Speaker 1: back home in the next couple of days. And this 510 00:33:04,160 --> 00:33:06,560 Speaker 1: is a pulling the door. Tell myself, so our soul 511 00:33:06,680 --> 00:33:09,760 Speaker 1: can be winding because you always wanting the other one 512 00:33:09,840 --> 00:33:11,920 Speaker 1: can be arguing with her friends because she's always into 513 00:33:12,080 --> 00:33:15,400 Speaker 1: her friend, and then I always say dumb and he's like, 514 00:33:15,480 --> 00:33:20,400 Speaker 1: you need that New York ship where it's like, but 515 00:33:20,600 --> 00:33:22,440 Speaker 1: I am a free tip with my friends. I'm thankful 516 00:33:22,440 --> 00:33:24,480 Speaker 1: that I was able to come and stand time with 517 00:33:24,600 --> 00:33:27,480 Speaker 1: my Chicago friends for as long as I have, and 518 00:33:27,560 --> 00:33:29,840 Speaker 1: we had fun. We didn't slip and slidell. I wrote 519 00:33:29,880 --> 00:33:32,880 Speaker 1: a ball and my ankle still hurts on that phone. 520 00:33:33,440 --> 00:33:36,640 Speaker 1: I don't got no fucking fingernail, Yo, she broke a fingernail, 521 00:33:37,440 --> 00:33:39,600 Speaker 1: like I have mad fun like. I think that we 522 00:33:39,720 --> 00:33:42,560 Speaker 1: did a great Oh, y'all did a good job making 523 00:33:42,600 --> 00:33:45,840 Speaker 1: the best out of his pandemic. Absolutely didn't have choice. 524 00:33:46,360 --> 00:33:53,680 Speaker 1: Right was definitely New Year Life thirty three. M No, 525 00:33:55,640 --> 00:34:01,920 Speaker 1: damn y'all. Wait, how do you o? Jesus and piffing you? 526 00:34:06,680 --> 00:34:17,520 Speaker 1: Thirty what? No, I'm about to be thirty two, yo, 527 00:34:17,719 --> 00:34:24,160 Speaker 1: the said thirty six, But any goes forty years ago 528 00:34:24,760 --> 00:34:28,520 Speaker 1: I met one, I changed position, okay, talking have the 529 00:34:28,640 --> 00:34:33,560 Speaker 1: one is to give more money, traveling more more niggers. 530 00:34:34,640 --> 00:34:44,239 Speaker 1: I'm just like king. I'll jokes kid fathers at home. 531 00:34:44,360 --> 00:34:46,440 Speaker 1: I think I'm gonna have a baby. I think you 532 00:34:46,520 --> 00:34:50,080 Speaker 1: have a baby too. About next No, how ay twin 533 00:34:50,160 --> 00:34:55,800 Speaker 1: is different for getting pregnantion, she's gonna be pregnant. She 534 00:34:58,360 --> 00:35:03,000 Speaker 1: might be pregnant. Never know because this miss me eating 535 00:35:03,200 --> 00:35:21,080 Speaker 1: is at the house and homes lately, all right, STRs Yeah, 536 00:35:21,120 --> 00:35:22,640 Speaker 1: if I have to do an episode with her. Mama. 537 00:35:22,719 --> 00:35:29,439 Speaker 1: Y'all man, who riot or your goals? You're in school? Yeah, 538 00:35:29,440 --> 00:35:32,960 Speaker 1: I'm in school. We purchased our first home. Yes, it's 539 00:35:32,960 --> 00:35:36,560 Speaker 1: a beautiful home. Thank you beautiful. Yeah. I finished in school, 540 00:35:36,680 --> 00:35:42,000 Speaker 1: Like that's my focus right now. I'm get your goal. 541 00:35:43,000 --> 00:35:45,920 Speaker 1: My goals, I accomplished one. I finished my first year 542 00:35:45,960 --> 00:35:51,000 Speaker 1: pharmacy school. Nice. Nice, and I'm about to start again, 543 00:35:51,280 --> 00:35:53,319 Speaker 1: so to be my second year. I want to buy 544 00:35:53,360 --> 00:35:59,240 Speaker 1: a building by the end of this year. Yeah, stack 545 00:35:59,320 --> 00:36:02,440 Speaker 1: my money and problem. What are you traveling to? I 546 00:36:02,560 --> 00:36:07,440 Speaker 1: do want to go to the pandemic is over. I 547 00:36:07,880 --> 00:36:10,600 Speaker 1: literally I really want to go to Africa. I want 548 00:36:10,600 --> 00:36:13,120 Speaker 1: to go to Ghana, Africa. I want to go to Ghana. 549 00:36:13,520 --> 00:36:15,799 Speaker 1: I want to go Some think that should be something 550 00:36:15,880 --> 00:36:18,799 Speaker 1: that we should all do together. Absolutely, I think it's 551 00:36:18,840 --> 00:36:22,400 Speaker 1: doing a lot. I'm want to go to Ghana, fest Africa. 552 00:36:22,680 --> 00:36:24,160 Speaker 1: There's so many places we can go to, but we 553 00:36:24,280 --> 00:36:27,520 Speaker 1: have to go out there for yeah, at least because 554 00:36:27,600 --> 00:36:31,040 Speaker 1: the flight is suing like eighteen Yeah, the flight's got calm. 555 00:36:31,080 --> 00:36:37,560 Speaker 1: Two days Yeah at jack leg and I'm ready. Ain't 556 00:36:37,760 --> 00:36:40,000 Speaker 1: like a day to like get your thoughts together and 557 00:36:40,080 --> 00:36:43,520 Speaker 1: ship what about you? What about it you done? What's 558 00:36:43,560 --> 00:36:47,840 Speaker 1: your goal? You know what your goals, queen? Um, my 559 00:36:48,000 --> 00:36:53,239 Speaker 1: goals is to let's trust the process. Child, They're gonna 560 00:36:53,239 --> 00:36:56,319 Speaker 1: be a gage engaged. I don't know if I'm really 561 00:36:56,320 --> 00:36:59,040 Speaker 1: to be a wife up right now, let's go. You 562 00:36:59,120 --> 00:37:01,319 Speaker 1: know what I was thinking about this because I had 563 00:37:01,360 --> 00:37:04,839 Speaker 1: a conversation with another friend. Um, I'm not gonna even 564 00:37:04,840 --> 00:37:06,800 Speaker 1: speak on I think that I already like I feel like, 565 00:37:06,920 --> 00:37:08,880 Speaker 1: once you give your prayers to God, just let it 566 00:37:08,960 --> 00:37:11,959 Speaker 1: be ch out. Yeah. So I feel like the person 567 00:37:12,080 --> 00:37:15,000 Speaker 1: for me is either going it's gonna find me. Until then, 568 00:37:15,040 --> 00:37:16,239 Speaker 1: I just want to do this to be the best 569 00:37:16,360 --> 00:37:19,399 Speaker 1: version of myself. This money, stack my money up, grow 570 00:37:19,480 --> 00:37:23,839 Speaker 1: this podcast, grow my businesses. Look good, look like money, 571 00:37:23,880 --> 00:37:29,160 Speaker 1: Smell like money, look like you. Gotta have good health otherwise, 572 00:37:29,440 --> 00:37:37,479 Speaker 1: eat your pin, keep your pussy juicy that goes along 573 00:37:37,520 --> 00:37:45,080 Speaker 1: with keep. This shouldn't even really matter. I don't want 574 00:37:45,080 --> 00:37:46,799 Speaker 1: to be continue to be happy. I'm in a good 575 00:37:46,840 --> 00:37:51,520 Speaker 1: space happiness. Yeah, Like, I don't even care about a 576 00:37:51,520 --> 00:37:53,200 Speaker 1: lot of year. I think I'm just thankful to have 577 00:37:53,480 --> 00:37:55,160 Speaker 1: people I can be around and just be happy with. 578 00:37:55,320 --> 00:38:02,000 Speaker 1: So that's all. And happiness and man elks laugh. You've 579 00:38:02,040 --> 00:38:04,799 Speaker 1: definitely got to keep that going. We definitely laugh a lot. 580 00:38:05,000 --> 00:38:09,560 Speaker 1: That's forty. I think that's a very We argue a 581 00:38:09,600 --> 00:38:12,880 Speaker 1: lot too. We are a lot laugh more than we argue. 582 00:38:13,000 --> 00:38:22,480 Speaker 1: I'll argue with you, are you I don't think you 583 00:38:22,640 --> 00:38:26,319 Speaker 1: argue that. I just think that I think I don't 584 00:38:26,360 --> 00:38:30,440 Speaker 1: think you argue. I just think we could see right now. 585 00:38:31,440 --> 00:38:40,000 Speaker 1: I'm yeah, I'm the fucking gyp, the monkey, I'm the guilt. 586 00:38:40,040 --> 00:38:44,439 Speaker 1: I'm the emoji with the eyes of like, no, you don't, 587 00:38:44,840 --> 00:38:50,839 Speaker 1: you don't no doubt unless like just comment yeah, I'll 588 00:38:50,880 --> 00:38:53,239 Speaker 1: be chilling. I think that would like to argue a lot. 589 00:38:53,280 --> 00:38:56,560 Speaker 1: I don't argue a lot, talk a lot of well, 590 00:38:56,640 --> 00:38:59,239 Speaker 1: I'll talk a lot of ship what we can't even eat? 591 00:39:04,080 --> 00:39:06,719 Speaker 1: First of all, everybody in this circle want to do 592 00:39:06,800 --> 00:39:09,080 Speaker 1: what the funk they want to think we do, because 593 00:39:10,120 --> 00:39:14,360 Speaker 1: there's a lot of whatever. I didn't want to do. 594 00:39:14,440 --> 00:39:18,160 Speaker 1: What the fun they want to do? That true, I 595 00:39:18,840 --> 00:39:21,839 Speaker 1: don't want to do with certain things. Okay, but if 596 00:39:21,880 --> 00:39:25,839 Speaker 1: you cook a meal for people, I'm cooking a meal 597 00:39:25,920 --> 00:39:28,879 Speaker 1: and I perfect nobody eat it. They want to eat 598 00:39:28,960 --> 00:39:32,480 Speaker 1: before it's time to eat, Like, yeah, it was no 599 00:39:32,680 --> 00:39:38,120 Speaker 1: sense I wasn't done taking I wasn't done old plate. 600 00:39:38,239 --> 00:39:41,280 Speaker 1: But I wasn't done. Was done. He has not done 601 00:39:41,800 --> 00:39:46,600 Speaker 1: it was done. She was like, it's about four of us. 602 00:39:48,120 --> 00:39:55,000 Speaker 1: I'm like this, I said, he ate seven. I think 603 00:39:56,440 --> 00:40:01,240 Speaker 1: I think we all think everybody gets their own special 604 00:40:01,320 --> 00:40:07,800 Speaker 1: ways and we just learned to deal with and it 605 00:40:07,960 --> 00:40:10,520 Speaker 1: is what it is, and that makes the dynamics of 606 00:40:10,680 --> 00:40:14,040 Speaker 1: the Friendship's a lot of different dynamics of this friend 607 00:40:14,120 --> 00:40:17,759 Speaker 1: that is just a little friendship. I mean, not wrong 608 00:40:17,760 --> 00:40:20,719 Speaker 1: with wrong with that. I have learned today that it's 609 00:40:20,760 --> 00:40:27,200 Speaker 1: not either good or bad. It's different child that. Yeah, 610 00:40:27,680 --> 00:40:29,640 Speaker 1: I like that. When I was told this, I'm like, 611 00:40:29,680 --> 00:40:36,120 Speaker 1: you know what a personal interviews I like that. Yeah, 612 00:40:36,200 --> 00:40:39,919 Speaker 1: because I was talking so it's not about something being 613 00:40:40,000 --> 00:40:41,840 Speaker 1: good or bad. Because I was asking her about her 614 00:40:41,880 --> 00:40:45,719 Speaker 1: relationship with her mom and she said that her this 615 00:40:45,840 --> 00:40:53,440 Speaker 1: is really what happened to Look now I know you 616 00:40:53,560 --> 00:40:59,240 Speaker 1: got her ship. No, y'all learn her something so funny. 617 00:41:00,040 --> 00:41:03,640 Speaker 1: Why this my mama coming the room and for something 618 00:41:03,719 --> 00:41:07,040 Speaker 1: in the morning. Tap my foot was like, come on 619 00:41:07,760 --> 00:41:12,640 Speaker 1: me out, she got a gun on her three day. 620 00:41:12,680 --> 00:41:14,040 Speaker 1: You want to get up early to come and walk 621 00:41:14,120 --> 00:41:20,840 Speaker 1: me up I'm like, yo, what listen there you gonna do? 622 00:41:21,560 --> 00:41:25,719 Speaker 1: I told her, wake me up when you get up, 623 00:41:25,719 --> 00:41:28,640 Speaker 1: and I want to get up early. I wake up 624 00:41:28,680 --> 00:41:30,600 Speaker 1: with Ma Mama every morning to left her. But they 625 00:41:30,960 --> 00:41:34,359 Speaker 1: argue because I'm not used to staying at her house 626 00:41:34,480 --> 00:41:36,480 Speaker 1: was long. I'm only standing at this long because of her, 627 00:41:37,200 --> 00:41:41,839 Speaker 1: So I'm freaking wake up. I'll wake up at fo 628 00:41:42,480 --> 00:41:45,040 Speaker 1: forty five, five o'clock in the morning. She like, wake 629 00:41:45,080 --> 00:41:46,200 Speaker 1: me up in the morning. I want to get up 630 00:41:46,200 --> 00:41:48,839 Speaker 1: with your mom because I'm getting up early, not knowing 631 00:41:48,960 --> 00:41:51,719 Speaker 1: what time she wake up with. When I tell you 632 00:41:51,840 --> 00:41:55,400 Speaker 1: she where she tapped my foot. I was crying, laughing. 633 00:41:56,280 --> 00:41:57,520 Speaker 1: She's like, you said you want to get up early 634 00:41:57,680 --> 00:42:02,480 Speaker 1: to come home. But I was like, I gotta go 635 00:42:02,600 --> 00:42:06,120 Speaker 1: back home. So did you get up a walk around? 636 00:42:07,320 --> 00:42:08,560 Speaker 1: So I got back in the bed with this one. 637 00:42:08,600 --> 00:42:12,840 Speaker 1: She gonna say, why did you talk? Why would you 638 00:42:12,920 --> 00:42:15,160 Speaker 1: do that before some of them more, she was like, 639 00:42:15,239 --> 00:42:20,719 Speaker 1: I didn't know. I'm like. She was like, you want 640 00:42:20,719 --> 00:42:22,560 Speaker 1: a cup of coffee. I said, I'm going back to bed. 641 00:42:25,000 --> 00:42:28,279 Speaker 1: She said, make sure you lock the dog. Then she 642 00:42:28,440 --> 00:42:30,040 Speaker 1: came back. I'm like, what did you called back for? 643 00:42:30,520 --> 00:42:35,200 Speaker 1: She forgot girl her cigarettes. I ain't paid twenty dollars 644 00:42:35,320 --> 00:42:43,080 Speaker 1: these ships. Oh my god? All right, yet have a question. 645 00:42:43,800 --> 00:42:45,560 Speaker 1: You ain't know I have my friends with her out 646 00:42:45,640 --> 00:42:47,759 Speaker 1: as you can see, she don't support because you don't 647 00:42:47,840 --> 00:42:51,760 Speaker 1: listen when I have my friends on here, I do support. 648 00:42:51,760 --> 00:42:56,360 Speaker 1: I paid three dollars of monthy yea, make sure you 649 00:42:56,400 --> 00:42:59,920 Speaker 1: have support to podcast. You've been that counselor. I don't know. 650 00:43:00,000 --> 00:43:01,719 Speaker 1: I have my friends on her because my listeners like 651 00:43:01,800 --> 00:43:04,399 Speaker 1: when I show a different size, not scripted and things, 652 00:43:04,400 --> 00:43:06,200 Speaker 1: just get to know a little bit of me through y'all. 653 00:43:07,600 --> 00:43:09,080 Speaker 1: So it's a good episode. I mean you want to 654 00:43:09,080 --> 00:43:15,319 Speaker 1: talking about something else? There's something differently finished watching hind 655 00:43:15,360 --> 00:43:17,120 Speaker 1: of got me and her watching this ghetto ass ship. 656 00:43:19,200 --> 00:43:20,840 Speaker 1: But any positive things I want to say to the 657 00:43:20,920 --> 00:43:25,840 Speaker 1: listeners as we head into one soon, wash your hands 658 00:43:26,239 --> 00:43:30,120 Speaker 1: and your ass, Wash your hands and your ass, and 659 00:43:30,480 --> 00:43:33,000 Speaker 1: dry the boat, dry gut, and wear your mask. Where 660 00:43:33,040 --> 00:43:35,319 Speaker 1: your mask, your hand, your ass, and where your mask 661 00:43:37,640 --> 00:43:41,960 Speaker 1: you what you got to say? Um? I mean I 662 00:43:42,520 --> 00:43:44,960 Speaker 1: don't know. I ain't got nothing to tell your answers. 663 00:43:46,680 --> 00:43:49,400 Speaker 1: Get to the money you got? How you got to 664 00:43:49,480 --> 00:43:59,360 Speaker 1: the money? Get you? No, that's I need some texts 665 00:43:59,520 --> 00:44:04,399 Speaker 1: just wait so so so no anything you want to say, queen, 666 00:44:05,320 --> 00:44:13,440 Speaker 1: mm hmm, live love. I have lots of sex, so 667 00:44:13,520 --> 00:44:23,759 Speaker 1: I don't started with a post on Instagram. What do 668 00:44:23,800 --> 00:44:29,080 Speaker 1: you think? That's what she probably is. So if anybody 669 00:44:29,200 --> 00:44:39,239 Speaker 1: listening on the podcasts th I got, I got yall 670 00:44:39,719 --> 00:44:47,840 Speaker 1: was great talking to you on Hey Jo? Does she 671 00:44:47,960 --> 00:44:52,640 Speaker 1: playing a game? She don't want no man king out there? Right? 672 00:44:53,160 --> 00:44:55,520 Speaker 1: I got some good as mail fault listeners in my 673 00:44:55,640 --> 00:44:59,880 Speaker 1: own podcast, myself and me myself. But I think you 674 00:45:00,000 --> 00:45:09,320 Speaker 1: gonna get a gage talking to name what. I wouldn't 675 00:45:09,360 --> 00:45:11,600 Speaker 1: mind being engaged to the right person because we've talked 676 00:45:11,600 --> 00:45:15,480 Speaker 1: about it. Yeah, but she just said we. She said we, 677 00:45:15,800 --> 00:45:18,799 Speaker 1: I said we. But I'm seeing like you don't want 678 00:45:18,800 --> 00:45:22,080 Speaker 1: to be eventually. Yeah, but right now I'm enjoying me. 679 00:45:23,680 --> 00:45:28,480 Speaker 1: You know, she going on a couple of days, shall child? 680 00:45:30,200 --> 00:45:35,680 Speaker 1: Oh you know what I would I wouldn't be surprised 681 00:45:35,680 --> 00:45:37,920 Speaker 1: if I'm engaged by next year, in the year or two, 682 00:45:38,160 --> 00:45:42,239 Speaker 1: I wouldn't be surprised either. I wan't be surprised not 683 00:45:42,320 --> 00:45:45,719 Speaker 1: feel like my king is listening. Relationship. You know, she 684 00:45:45,800 --> 00:45:50,960 Speaker 1: always feel like she's black lives matter, right, But I 685 00:45:51,040 --> 00:45:54,200 Speaker 1: will I really want to be. But I really just 686 00:45:54,320 --> 00:46:04,879 Speaker 1: seeing her in She always lacked me only I thought 687 00:46:06,440 --> 00:46:10,919 Speaker 1: in the middle of a pandemic, niggas had entire race. 688 00:46:11,480 --> 00:46:23,759 Speaker 1: Riot did not value black lives and I child. She 689 00:46:23,800 --> 00:46:26,120 Speaker 1: didn't found her black kids. I didn't let me finish. 690 00:46:26,280 --> 00:46:30,560 Speaker 1: We love back. I'm all for love is love, I ain't. 691 00:46:30,719 --> 00:46:34,279 Speaker 1: I ain't a guess that I'm saying all love don't 692 00:46:34,280 --> 00:46:37,720 Speaker 1: matter black, just make it black. It's absolutely right, I agree, 693 00:46:37,800 --> 00:46:40,360 Speaker 1: But but she always said this about me. I'm not 694 00:46:40,520 --> 00:46:43,840 Speaker 1: saying I love black men the black okay, but we 695 00:46:43,960 --> 00:46:47,880 Speaker 1: know I don't know what I do know. That's what 696 00:46:47,960 --> 00:46:55,160 Speaker 1: I've always been. Uh. I just always adventured her in 697 00:46:55,320 --> 00:46:58,880 Speaker 1: an INTERRACI I don't know why. You know she always 698 00:46:58,880 --> 00:47:03,920 Speaker 1: said about meself college I mean listening. I'm open, but 699 00:47:04,360 --> 00:47:07,320 Speaker 1: I would really appreciate a black man, black man, A 700 00:47:07,440 --> 00:47:17,520 Speaker 1: black man black fine, but I'm open, but black man first, 701 00:47:18,680 --> 00:47:22,959 Speaker 1: Black love matters. Black love love matters, because I feel 702 00:47:22,960 --> 00:47:24,400 Speaker 1: like I don't. I don't know if white man a 703 00:47:24,480 --> 00:47:29,239 Speaker 1: hand to me. No, I don't think all that you 704 00:47:29,320 --> 00:47:31,840 Speaker 1: should be telling about we don't want why are we 705 00:47:31,920 --> 00:47:36,600 Speaker 1: doing brands? I'm very spiritual and woke and stuff. So 706 00:47:39,160 --> 00:47:40,799 Speaker 1: I don't know if I can say nigga, but white people, 707 00:47:40,800 --> 00:47:42,360 Speaker 1: I don't know if I can say, like, come on, nigga, 708 00:47:42,560 --> 00:47:48,080 Speaker 1: Like I mean, if that nigt hitting in from the 709 00:47:48,120 --> 00:47:50,320 Speaker 1: back and smack you too hard, but you will be like, 710 00:47:50,360 --> 00:47:54,120 Speaker 1: which is the guy? Slave? Don't hit me that hard? 711 00:47:55,480 --> 00:48:00,480 Speaker 1: Why do people always result to that? It's so like 712 00:48:01,120 --> 00:48:08,359 Speaker 1: hes gonna have to trend that little exactly black. It's 713 00:48:08,400 --> 00:48:13,920 Speaker 1: always gonna be something like black men, black lives. I'm 714 00:48:13,920 --> 00:48:20,080 Speaker 1: gonna have some chocolate babies, yeah, nappy hair. All right, y'all. 715 00:48:20,360 --> 00:48:23,560 Speaker 1: I appreciate you all finally doing this episode. What wasn't 716 00:48:23,600 --> 00:48:27,839 Speaker 1: it wasn't you was these two hosts. Ye, I'm going 717 00:48:27,920 --> 00:48:30,840 Speaker 1: to Nashville, I think in the next couple of days, child, 718 00:48:30,920 --> 00:48:32,480 Speaker 1: So I'm gonna do something with my friends there and 719 00:48:32,520 --> 00:48:37,120 Speaker 1: then I'm friend out then get back from you. Yo, 720 00:48:37,280 --> 00:48:40,399 Speaker 1: this bitch just told me. I don't understand. Wait, wait, 721 00:48:40,400 --> 00:48:44,839 Speaker 1: why don't need to break Paul, because this bit literally 722 00:48:44,880 --> 00:48:46,759 Speaker 1: just told me I had so much fun when you 723 00:48:46,880 --> 00:48:51,719 Speaker 1: was here. Friend. She didn't telling me that she was 724 00:48:51,800 --> 00:48:56,960 Speaker 1: here because you would never well, you mean wright between 725 00:48:57,239 --> 00:49:01,359 Speaker 1: June and July. Don't make it every day. I sure 726 00:49:01,440 --> 00:49:04,520 Speaker 1: did okay, but I would say from June July. From 727 00:49:04,640 --> 00:49:13,359 Speaker 1: Jun I was hearing June. Y'ah, yeah, that's that's when. Yeah, 728 00:49:14,400 --> 00:49:18,200 Speaker 1: that's it. I forgot about June. Yeah, I forgot about 729 00:49:18,280 --> 00:49:21,200 Speaker 1: June until I thought this is gonna be another episode 730 00:49:21,280 --> 00:49:32,719 Speaker 1: of June tonight. What alright? Yallah talk yours? Why yours? All? Right? Yoah? 731 00:49:33,080 --> 00:49:36,719 Speaker 1: Like I'm talking ship, y'all made me talk, man, I'm 732 00:49:36,719 --> 00:49:39,640 Speaker 1: talking about come on that. I wasn't on that. Yeah, 733 00:49:40,719 --> 00:49:47,399 Speaker 1: we don't do that. But y'all doing with us? What ship? Gee? 734 00:49:48,160 --> 00:49:52,560 Speaker 1: What if yny questions come? This said? You always mis 735 00:49:52,600 --> 00:49:58,440 Speaker 1: ship your mama? You actually doing miship? Please hit me up, 736 00:49:58,480 --> 00:50:00,880 Speaker 1: email me a hello at the pH podcast dot com. 737 00:50:01,000 --> 00:50:05,200 Speaker 1: Make sure you'll support the podcast. Three dollars please, five dollars, 738 00:50:05,320 --> 00:50:10,600 Speaker 1: ten dollars, twenty dollars, yes, my bag until next time. Guys, 739 00:50:10,640 --> 00:50:12,400 Speaker 1: don't want to say later. I don't get the postcard 740 00:50:13,400 --> 00:50:15,600 Speaker 1: I did. I didn't play six dollars. By the way, 741 00:50:15,719 --> 00:50:18,279 Speaker 1: let's keep going. I'm need my post card. I'm gonna 742 00:50:18,280 --> 00:50:22,839 Speaker 1: subscribe you tonight. I need my three I don't make 743 00:50:22,920 --> 00:50:26,280 Speaker 1: my documentary. I'm gonna be a part of the documentary. 744 00:50:26,719 --> 00:50:32,800 Speaker 1: Why because she want to she knew what I'm working on. 745 00:50:33,480 --> 00:50:39,680 Speaker 1: I can understand. But she's going to s farm and 746 00:50:39,680 --> 00:50:49,040 Speaker 1: see y'all. No, yeah, all right, y'all, y'all follow me 747 00:50:49,360 --> 00:50:57,200 Speaker 1: at Okay, So what is your advice on someone being rejected? Oh? 748 00:50:57,440 --> 00:51:03,239 Speaker 1: Good question. Okay. The first thing is we gotta look, look, 749 00:51:03,320 --> 00:51:05,840 Speaker 1: they got the bomb question. Whoever gave these questions? You 750 00:51:05,920 --> 00:51:08,640 Speaker 1: are the bomb and I'm so happy you ask these questions. 751 00:51:09,040 --> 00:51:12,000 Speaker 1: So with rejection, I tell everybody, and it's something I 752 00:51:12,120 --> 00:51:15,360 Speaker 1: had to learn personal. Stop taking everything so personal, like 753 00:51:15,680 --> 00:51:19,160 Speaker 1: we take reaction super personal. And I know that's hard, 754 00:51:19,280 --> 00:51:23,719 Speaker 1: especially when it comes to romantic relationship, but you can't 755 00:51:23,760 --> 00:51:26,040 Speaker 1: take it personal. That person has the ability to make 756 00:51:26,080 --> 00:51:28,800 Speaker 1: a choice and if you respect them as nothing you 757 00:51:28,920 --> 00:51:32,480 Speaker 1: say you do, you have to respect their choice. It's 758 00:51:32,520 --> 00:51:34,759 Speaker 1: not because they don't like you. It's not because they 759 00:51:34,760 --> 00:51:37,239 Speaker 1: don't love you. It's not because the sex wasn't off 760 00:51:37,280 --> 00:51:39,640 Speaker 1: the absolute change, specially if it's in front of coming. 761 00:51:40,840 --> 00:51:42,719 Speaker 1: Not the case. It's just they make a choice that 762 00:51:42,840 --> 00:51:45,960 Speaker 1: they don't want to put theirselves at risk. What's wrong 763 00:51:45,960 --> 00:51:49,920 Speaker 1: with that? Taught? What is wrong with that? Because how 764 00:51:49,960 --> 00:51:54,359 Speaker 1: many of us reject people on the daily right new 765 00:51:55,719 --> 00:51:57,960 Speaker 1: we can't and that was just not because they want to, 766 00:51:58,520 --> 00:52:01,160 Speaker 1: not because they were disrespectful, not because they may not 767 00:52:01,280 --> 00:52:03,600 Speaker 1: be handsome or she may not be cute. It's just 768 00:52:03,719 --> 00:52:07,080 Speaker 1: something you're like, No, I'm good, mm hmm. You know. 769 00:52:07,200 --> 00:52:09,359 Speaker 1: So we have to get out of this place of oh, 770 00:52:09,480 --> 00:52:11,880 Speaker 1: it's because they don't want meet. It's not you that 771 00:52:12,040 --> 00:52:14,160 Speaker 1: that's they don't really want They just don't want to 772 00:52:14,200 --> 00:52:15,920 Speaker 1: take the risk. Just like you have the ability to 773 00:52:16,000 --> 00:52:18,640 Speaker 1: make choices, they have the ability to make choices. So 774 00:52:18,760 --> 00:52:21,440 Speaker 1: I tell people stop making it making it super personal, 775 00:52:21,760 --> 00:52:23,600 Speaker 1: because it's not that they don't want to be with you. 776 00:52:23,719 --> 00:52:25,520 Speaker 1: It's just they don't want to take the risk. And 777 00:52:25,640 --> 00:52:28,239 Speaker 1: that's okay. You have to respect it. And it takes 778 00:52:28,320 --> 00:52:30,520 Speaker 1: some time to get to that maturity level of that. 779 00:52:30,960 --> 00:52:32,759 Speaker 1: It took me some time. I'm not talking from a 780 00:52:32,800 --> 00:52:36,840 Speaker 1: place of oh it was easy. Heck, no, that's not 781 00:52:37,000 --> 00:52:39,040 Speaker 1: something we're talking especially when it comes to rejection. It's 782 00:52:39,080 --> 00:52:40,880 Speaker 1: kind of get over it and you'll be all right. 783 00:52:41,000 --> 00:52:43,640 Speaker 1: But no, it's okay to feel it's okay to be upset, 784 00:52:43,680 --> 00:52:45,840 Speaker 1: but you have to look at the big picture of 785 00:52:45,960 --> 00:52:48,640 Speaker 1: it and tell yourself they have the right to choose 786 00:52:48,880 --> 00:52:51,399 Speaker 1: for their life. They have the right, and I love 787 00:52:51,520 --> 00:52:53,759 Speaker 1: them enough to let them make the choice they want 788 00:52:53,800 --> 00:52:57,439 Speaker 1: to make. That's making the choice for them, that part 789 00:52:57,719 --> 00:52:59,640 Speaker 1: because a lot of us want them just be with us. 790 00:52:59,800 --> 00:53:02,080 Speaker 1: But you don't want to be with somebody who's nervous 791 00:53:02,120 --> 00:53:05,800 Speaker 1: and scared, and you know it's not a good idea. 792 00:53:05,880 --> 00:53:07,840 Speaker 1: I'm trying to tell you because some people try to 793 00:53:07,960 --> 00:53:10,440 Speaker 1: stay around who kind of like I don't want to reject. Now, 794 00:53:10,440 --> 00:53:11,800 Speaker 1: I don't have people do that too. It's like, I 795 00:53:11,920 --> 00:53:13,640 Speaker 1: really like this person, I want to be with them, 796 00:53:14,080 --> 00:53:16,520 Speaker 1: and but I'm scared. I said, don't be in a relationship. 797 00:53:16,560 --> 00:53:18,440 Speaker 1: You will hurt them more than you will help them, 798 00:53:19,280 --> 00:53:21,920 Speaker 1: because your fear is gonna it's gonna they're gonna feel it. 799 00:53:22,480 --> 00:53:25,200 Speaker 1: Sex is gonna be uncomfortable, and you want to be 800 00:53:25,280 --> 00:53:28,320 Speaker 1: comforable in Russia, you want that person to be comfortable, 801 00:53:28,840 --> 00:53:31,360 Speaker 1: understand the risk, willing to take the risk. Then somebody 802 00:53:31,400 --> 00:53:33,120 Speaker 1: who kind of like I just like you so much, 803 00:53:33,160 --> 00:53:35,440 Speaker 1: I'm just willing to accept it. Now, I need you 804 00:53:35,560 --> 00:53:37,360 Speaker 1: to be for real, okay, because if you're not for 805 00:53:37,440 --> 00:53:39,680 Speaker 1: real okay, then this is gonna be an issue down 806 00:53:39,719 --> 00:53:42,520 Speaker 1: the line. It's something happened. I want you to be 807 00:53:42,600 --> 00:53:45,800 Speaker 1: okay with decision you made. Now, what if someone doesn't 808 00:53:45,840 --> 00:53:47,960 Speaker 1: share with that partner that they have her fees but 809 00:53:48,040 --> 00:53:53,799 Speaker 1: they were a condom. You're still wrong. No, you are 810 00:53:53,920 --> 00:53:55,359 Speaker 1: because at the end of that you can still get 811 00:53:55,400 --> 00:53:57,920 Speaker 1: her person contest. It's skin to skin contact, and I 812 00:53:57,920 --> 00:54:00,080 Speaker 1: don't I don't keep it real. You're wrong because at 813 00:54:00,080 --> 00:54:02,840 Speaker 1: the end of the day, you fail to want to disclose, 814 00:54:02,920 --> 00:54:05,000 Speaker 1: then you shouldn't have sex. That is gonna always be 815 00:54:05,120 --> 00:54:07,320 Speaker 1: my motto. If you can't be honest, then sex is 816 00:54:07,360 --> 00:54:08,960 Speaker 1: off the table for you. And I know that's a 817 00:54:09,080 --> 00:54:11,080 Speaker 1: hard pill to swallow, but I'll be your big sister 818 00:54:11,160 --> 00:54:14,279 Speaker 1: in your mama today. Absolutely not, because if you can't 819 00:54:14,320 --> 00:54:17,040 Speaker 1: say nothing, then you don't need to do nothing, because 820 00:54:17,080 --> 00:54:18,880 Speaker 1: if it was the other way around, you'll want them 821 00:54:18,920 --> 00:54:21,200 Speaker 1: to tell you. Right. So you don't do that to people. 822 00:54:21,320 --> 00:54:23,080 Speaker 1: You don't give out what you don't even want to 823 00:54:23,120 --> 00:54:25,360 Speaker 1: get back. Half of us got that because of that, 824 00:54:27,640 --> 00:54:28,920 Speaker 1: and you're gonna go back out there and do the 825 00:54:28,960 --> 00:54:31,080 Speaker 1: same thing. I'm only talking first spirits. I did dumb 826 00:54:31,200 --> 00:54:35,160 Speaker 1: jump like that. It's very very immature, and a lot 827 00:54:35,239 --> 00:54:38,760 Speaker 1: of to it because we lack information. It's not because 828 00:54:38,880 --> 00:54:40,960 Speaker 1: oh we don't have integrity, and I like to get on. 829 00:54:41,000 --> 00:54:43,279 Speaker 1: Some people can like I have integrity, but you know, 830 00:54:43,440 --> 00:54:46,680 Speaker 1: your integrity is kind of like screwed if you don't 831 00:54:46,760 --> 00:54:48,920 Speaker 1: do with the right thing. But when you don't have 832 00:54:49,280 --> 00:54:51,640 Speaker 1: enough information to do the right thing, what we do 833 00:54:51,760 --> 00:54:54,759 Speaker 1: we tend to avoid it. We just like, I'm just 834 00:54:54,800 --> 00:54:57,080 Speaker 1: gonna do what I can. I'm and when you use 835 00:54:57,120 --> 00:54:58,960 Speaker 1: the kindas like they told me to, I'm gonna take 836 00:54:59,000 --> 00:55:01,280 Speaker 1: my medicine like they told me. I'm gonna do everything 837 00:55:01,360 --> 00:55:02,719 Speaker 1: they told me to do, and I'm not gonna lie. 838 00:55:03,000 --> 00:55:04,920 Speaker 1: Some doctors tell you that's all you need to do, 839 00:55:04,960 --> 00:55:08,200 Speaker 1: and I'll telling nobody. So some people it's not fully 840 00:55:08,239 --> 00:55:10,040 Speaker 1: they fault. It's just what they doctor told them and 841 00:55:10,040 --> 00:55:12,719 Speaker 1: they're only doing with the doctor ordered you mm hm. 842 00:55:13,520 --> 00:55:15,000 Speaker 1: So I'm not gonna not my people who are on 843 00:55:15,120 --> 00:55:17,800 Speaker 1: that side. So that's you, I'm not talking about you. 844 00:55:18,040 --> 00:55:20,200 Speaker 1: But if you're feeling the pit of your stomach is wrong, 845 00:55:20,400 --> 00:55:24,440 Speaker 1: then you know your stomach is talking, your intuition is talking, 846 00:55:24,760 --> 00:55:27,040 Speaker 1: and you need to say something because you know, if 847 00:55:27,080 --> 00:55:28,960 Speaker 1: it was on the flip side, you want to say something. 848 00:55:29,239 --> 00:55:31,960 Speaker 1: But most people like I said, for even for me, 849 00:55:32,280 --> 00:55:34,120 Speaker 1: the hardest part was the fake that I didn't even 850 00:55:34,160 --> 00:55:36,239 Speaker 1: know what to say. I didn't know when to say it, 851 00:55:36,280 --> 00:55:37,840 Speaker 1: and I don't know how to say it, so I 852 00:55:38,000 --> 00:55:39,800 Speaker 1: didn't because I was like, I don't even know what 853 00:55:39,920 --> 00:55:42,520 Speaker 1: to say, I don't know how, I don't know when, 854 00:55:42,640 --> 00:55:44,440 Speaker 1: I don't even how to deal with the aftermath of it. 855 00:55:44,920 --> 00:55:46,680 Speaker 1: And once again, if you don't how to do something, 856 00:55:46,680 --> 00:55:50,120 Speaker 1: you just avoid it. You just absolutely avoided. So I'll 857 00:55:50,160 --> 00:55:53,160 Speaker 1: tell you, no, that's not right. It's not right because 858 00:55:53,200 --> 00:55:56,640 Speaker 1: your partner is still at risk. And anybody who's undone 859 00:55:56,760 --> 00:56:00,160 Speaker 1: enough for information, undid enough research know their partners stal 860 00:56:00,200 --> 00:56:01,960 Speaker 1: that risk. And when they said, they look and they 861 00:56:02,080 --> 00:56:08,160 Speaker 1: thought that like they're crazy, like really really really can 862 00:56:08,320 --> 00:56:12,759 Speaker 1: outbreaks change locations? Absolutely? I just need a video like 863 00:56:12,880 --> 00:56:15,680 Speaker 1: that on my page. Yes, it can't move around, um, 864 00:56:16,080 --> 00:56:18,600 Speaker 1: it can move in multiple place for gentitle UM. I 865 00:56:18,719 --> 00:56:21,560 Speaker 1: speak on a woman's anatomy. So women that can have 866 00:56:21,680 --> 00:56:23,600 Speaker 1: it on their clears, they can have it on their labias, 867 00:56:23,800 --> 00:56:26,120 Speaker 1: that can have the opening of their vagina, that can 868 00:56:26,160 --> 00:56:27,719 Speaker 1: have it on their anus, they can have it on 869 00:56:27,760 --> 00:56:31,200 Speaker 1: their inner thighs. Um, they can have it in their 870 00:56:31,239 --> 00:56:33,440 Speaker 1: pubic areas as well. Some women that can even have 871 00:56:33,520 --> 00:56:35,640 Speaker 1: it on their bus hops or some women they even 872 00:56:35,680 --> 00:56:38,800 Speaker 1: have it on their back, so that like it can shift. 873 00:56:39,120 --> 00:56:41,520 Speaker 1: So some people like like, for I'll speak for myself. 874 00:56:41,760 --> 00:56:44,000 Speaker 1: So when I started having my outbreaks, it stayed in 875 00:56:44,080 --> 00:56:47,040 Speaker 1: one spot for so long and then it shifted to 876 00:56:47,080 --> 00:56:48,920 Speaker 1: a whole another place. I'm like, did I give it 877 00:56:48,960 --> 00:56:50,560 Speaker 1: to myself? And that's the biggest question I know that 878 00:56:50,640 --> 00:56:53,120 Speaker 1: someone did you give it to yourself? No, the virus 879 00:56:53,160 --> 00:56:55,920 Speaker 1: can just move around because like it could just it 880 00:56:55,960 --> 00:56:57,759 Speaker 1: could just shift into the areas because it's in your 881 00:56:57,800 --> 00:56:59,560 Speaker 1: nerve and it's so it could just shift. It's not 882 00:56:59,719 --> 00:57:03,000 Speaker 1: that you, you know, gave it to yourself or moved 883 00:57:03,080 --> 00:57:04,880 Speaker 1: it or anything like that. No, it's just had the 884 00:57:04,920 --> 00:57:08,160 Speaker 1: ability to do that. And that's even if you haven't 885 00:57:08,280 --> 00:57:10,640 Speaker 1: orally it can move as well. Whereas sometimes it's on 886 00:57:10,680 --> 00:57:13,360 Speaker 1: the outer or your lips. Some people it's in the inside. 887 00:57:13,440 --> 00:57:15,400 Speaker 1: Some people be on their chin, it can be on 888 00:57:15,480 --> 00:57:17,040 Speaker 1: their cheek, it could be on the dose. It can move. 889 00:57:18,200 --> 00:57:21,200 Speaker 1: That's a question, really good question. Can you spread S 890 00:57:21,240 --> 00:57:26,600 Speaker 1: t S and F t S while using toys? Girl? Listen, yes, 891 00:57:27,480 --> 00:57:29,919 Speaker 1: listen now, that's a part that people don't talk about 892 00:57:31,920 --> 00:57:33,160 Speaker 1: fac But this is the part that don't know what 893 00:57:33,280 --> 00:57:35,560 Speaker 1: they talk about, and you know why, I wonder, I 894 00:57:35,680 --> 00:57:39,240 Speaker 1: wonder why nobody talks about it. But it's very heavy, 895 00:57:39,360 --> 00:57:45,240 Speaker 1: especially for gonerille, clamydia, tuckermanaya, anything that's based off bacterial Heck, yes,