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Speaker 2: Ella j solo brother record l.

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Speaker 3: Then let's just say yes, Lamoiselle Lenla, welcome back to

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Speaker 3: Good Mom's Bad Choices. I'm Erica and I'm Mila. Happy holidays,

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Speaker 3: Happy holidays.

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Speaker 4: Oh wow, she liked I was not expected.

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Speaker 5: Wow, I just got very holidays cheer. How are you

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Speaker 5: feeling this holiday season?

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Speaker 4: Stressed as usual?

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Speaker 3: I actually really don't like Christmas until the actual day,

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Speaker 3: Like leading up to Christmas, I'm stressed the fuck out,

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Speaker 3: Like I'm not one of those people or parents.

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Speaker 4: That like, I don't know it, plans ahead or like.

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Speaker 3: Like remembers to buy a Christmas tree like a month before,

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Speaker 3: and it's been like I don't know, Like I guess

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Speaker 3: I'm supposed to do it this weekend. That's like, I

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Speaker 3: guess this is the right time.

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Speaker 2: I was just asking because I want to take a

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Speaker 2: holiday photo.

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Speaker 3: Because because Nearylyn reminded me she's doing I know, and

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Speaker 3: she's doing that this weekend, and I was like, oh,

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Speaker 3: oh yeah, should I be doing Yeah, maybe I'm But

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Speaker 3: then I love it, like I love going to other

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Speaker 3: people's places and they're all fucking festive and ship and

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Speaker 3: then I get jealous and I feel like a bad

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Speaker 3: person for not participating.

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Speaker 4: And then also I want gifts.

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Speaker 3: But I like, I can't afford to give everyone gifts,

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Speaker 3: but I like want all the gifts.

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Speaker 4: It's just it's really just I don't know, I guess.

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Speaker 2: I mean, I like holiday cheer, like jolliness.

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Speaker 4: I got Iri a bunk bed.

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Speaker 2: Oh that's cute.

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Speaker 4: Is this weird? Is our microphone leaking? No smell?

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Speaker 2: Like, I don't know, it's really water, it's sticky.

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Speaker 3: I got Iri bunk bed because I need to make

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Speaker 3: better use of her room because it's small.

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Speaker 2: The bottom is going.

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Speaker 3: I'm gonna put like her desk under there. I'm gonna

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Speaker 3: get the desk out of the living room. I like,

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Speaker 3: I'm at this point. I just have I'm like in

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Speaker 3: declutter my life stage. I feel like, because it's the

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Speaker 3: end of the year, I want to start January like.

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Speaker 4: Clean.

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Speaker 5: Kids love bunk beds. I know Luna got one in

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Speaker 5: her grandma's.

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Speaker 4: Like those are fucking expensive.

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Speaker 5: They are, yeah, bitch, they're still especially for one that

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Speaker 3: Well, no, I don't want it's not really bunk bed.

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Speaker 3: It's more like a loft bed.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, because the bottom is like stuff.

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Speaker 3: It's empty. Yeah, but like, no, it's to I want

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Speaker 3: to be able to lay up there with her. I

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Speaker 3: just asked me to go up there. So I had

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Speaker 3: to find one that like could support of us. Some

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Speaker 3: of them are like two hundred weight limit. I'm like, bitch,

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Speaker 3: I weighed like one seventy five most of the time, so.

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Speaker 4: You wait one seventy five, Like wait with like between

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Speaker 3: You're so tall though, I look heavier than I mean,

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Speaker 3: I look lighter weight.

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Speaker 4: I look lighter than I am.

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Speaker 3: I've always looked lighter than I am.

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Speaker 4: I'm still good ninety eight.

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Speaker 2: I'm like, I'm literally one hundred seventy.

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Speaker 5: Pounds heavyer you're literally working on the hundred Like, oh my.

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Speaker 4: God, I'm like a whole, like eleven year old.

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Speaker 5: Well, speaking of the holidays, we are going to a

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Speaker 5: holiday party cheers, and we are very limited for time

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Speaker 5: because Erica takes twenty thousand hours to sit the fuck down.

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Speaker 2: Bitch.

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Speaker 3: I had to set up the whole thing, make sure

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Speaker 3: the kid was good, put my makeup. I told you

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Speaker 3: to get all this color match you.

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Speaker 2: I'll calm down. I like, I don't want to color

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Speaker 2: match me. Four thousand times exactly.

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Speaker 3: Your skin is like a fucking opal. It's like a

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Speaker 3: mood ring or some shit. It does be changing, right changing.

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Speaker 3: The just just matched yesterday.

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Speaker 5: So maybe we're gonna put this one on YouTube because

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Speaker 4: Yeah, we're just sitting here with like tons of makeup

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Speaker 5: But not only do we have tons of makeup, eyelashes,

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Speaker 2: A blunt, two drinks and forty five minutes.

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Speaker 5: So we just think we're gonna have a drink, smell

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Speaker 2: And I have to do my hair.

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Speaker 4: Oh, I brought hair stuff too. I am.

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Speaker 3: We're going to this uh single Mom's Planet holiday party.

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Speaker 2: We just got word. We heard the daddies are going

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Speaker 3: Apparently there's gonna be some I don't know about daddies,

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Speaker 3: but men I met like zaddies. I hope so, I mean,

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Speaker 3: I mean, I would think that some niggas would want

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Speaker 5: I can't wait till the single Mom's all all of

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Speaker 5: the communities join in and.

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Speaker 3: The Megga's gonna realize that that's that's the move. Go

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Speaker 3: to the single mom event.

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Speaker 2: We need to have a single mom's singles event.

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Speaker 5: Anyway, Joy applies with the beauty bunder this primer because

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Speaker 5: we got to get this started.

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Speaker 4: Okay, yeah, you should put first like rub blended into

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Speaker 4: your skin. This is very light. Nobody, it's fine, You're

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Speaker 4: not gonna. It's not gonna.

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Speaker 3: Okay, So I don't need to use a blender for this. Yeah,

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Speaker 3: but see how it feels in your pores. We're using

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Speaker 3: our beauty blender level or primer right now.

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Speaker 5: It fills pores and my makeup definitely disappears after two.

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Speaker 3: Hours, and it helps control oil and make your makeup

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Speaker 3: last a little bit longer. But mostly I love it

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Speaker 3: because I have some pores here and it helps fill

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Speaker 2: Korean Korean Koreans don't have poors.

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Speaker 4: They just have like the most pors.

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Speaker 2: Okay, well, we have a lot of catching up to do.

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Speaker 5: We've done a lot of recording, a lot of pre recording,

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Speaker 5: so we're gonna how how is your New York trip?

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Speaker 5: I was actually with you, so do you want to

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Speaker 5: do you care to tell everyone because you were doing

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Speaker 5: a lot. What wait, I stayed at Ericas. I stayed

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Speaker 5: at Erica's hotel room like maybe three nights by myself.

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Speaker 2: Not one night?

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Speaker 5: Did you sleep there? Every morning you're like, hey, I'm back.

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Speaker 5: I'm like, bitch, what is happening? I like, this bitch

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Speaker 5: is out of town and on a full commitment, full

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Speaker 5: commitment to fucking soil of Royal oats. I remember, and

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Speaker 5: now that I'm thinking about it, I can't even remember

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Speaker 5: where you were two nights, two nights.

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Speaker 2: I can remember one night.

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Speaker 4: I I did sleep there once. Well, not when you

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Speaker 4: were there. You slept there twice.

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Speaker 2: Where was I? I don't know. I slept there three times.

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Speaker 4: No, you're totally a nap there or something during the day, Okay.

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Speaker 4: I well, first of all, I went there.

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Speaker 3: I went there for work, and then we also went

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Speaker 3: there to interview Sean King. If you haven't checked out

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Speaker 3: that episode, you're missing out. You definitely want to check

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Speaker 3: that out. And we also went there to interview another guest.

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Speaker 3: But I also have a little booth thing there that

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Speaker 4: Been waiting to see, and so I made sure that

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Speaker 2: A hinge booth thing.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, so I met this guy on Hinge like in

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Speaker 4: He's really cool and sweet and yeah, we've just been

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Speaker 5: Has that changed since she went out there? No, okay,

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Speaker 4: And no we still we still chat and.

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Speaker 2: Shit looks orange?

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Speaker 4: Does it? Let me say?

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Speaker 2: Okay, whatever, I just look in the mirror. I just

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Speaker 2: keep layering it until it makes sense.

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Speaker 4: Let me see your next that's not your.

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Speaker 3: Coll Okay, bitch, this is the one I tried to

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Speaker 2: Sometimes you'd be wrong.

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Speaker 4: Anyway. Okay, we're gonna just gonna warm it up.

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Speaker 2: It's already happening.

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Speaker 3: It's fine. So we hung out and wait what did

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Speaker 2: Fucking white ass lights are not healthy.

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Speaker 3: Well, we went to have a drink one night, which

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Speaker 3: was cool. Medical No, But before that, we went had

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Speaker 3: cool random like jazz punk rock bar.

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Speaker 2: Jazz punk rock. Yeah, does he listen? This is starting

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Speaker 2: to Let me tell you, guys, this is starting dating life. Yeah.

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Speaker 3: I told Jamila I was like, I'm gonna start telling

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Speaker 3: these niggas listening, like maybe get an upset and weird

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Speaker 4: Sometimes he listens, but.

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Speaker 2: Like the time I told politician in a dirty house,

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Speaker 4: But that was also my fault because I made the

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Speaker 5: New super about him reveals her politicians he dirty ass house?

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Speaker 3: Yeah, So we went to this like punk rock bar.

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Speaker 3: I ended up getting like really kind of too drunk.

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Speaker 3: Oh you know, and you know, we left, so I

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Speaker 4: We went back to my place and all of the

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Speaker 3: We've started to we switched over from like tequila and

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Speaker 3: I started drinking wine.

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Speaker 4: Bye baby, I love you.

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Speaker 2: Bye re Audio Floyd.

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Speaker 4: Are you bringing your book? Okay? I miss you. I'll

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Speaker 4: call me when you before you go to bed. Okay, Okay,

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Speaker 4: I'm going to be here if you want to come over. Okay,

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Speaker 5: I won't be picking you up, but you can come over.

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Speaker 4: Okay. I love you, I love you. Bye. I think

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Speaker 4: I might go out tomorrow.

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Speaker 2: Where's tomorrow?

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Speaker 4: Uh wait, I'm supposed to do something.

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Speaker 3: I actually have some we're working with me, and then

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Speaker 3: tomorrow night as my friend's birthday.

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Speaker 5: Oh no, we're supposed to try to get the hook

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Speaker 5: up to snow, that's what we're trying to do.

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Speaker 4: I didn't. No, it's our fellow Mama Zosha, it's her birthday.

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Speaker 2: Oh I want to go. I'm invited right now. If

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Speaker 2: you don't, if you invite Eric, or you have to

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Speaker 2: invite me. If you invite me, you have to invite Eric.

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Speaker 3: Anyway, Like I I would normally feel really guilty about,

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Speaker 3: you know, just right now just telling ire that I'm

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Speaker 2: Later and be like, Mommy, tomorrow you're not coming.

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Speaker 4: But I've spent I feel like I've paid my dues.

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Speaker 2: Why in Bethlehem, I've been mommying the fuck it up.

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Speaker 3: I've been mommy. I've like balanced, I've balanced the shit out.

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Speaker 3: Mama needs a break, Mama goda have a life too.

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Speaker 3: And that's this weekend and baby daddy has been gone

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Speaker 3: for like four months. And yeah, so yeah, anyway, where

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Speaker 2: And I met him. He seem like a very nice guy.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, that's it.

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Speaker 5: He was wearing cool pants, he was It was really

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Speaker 4: You know, he's really you know, that's what.

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Speaker 5: Daddy and I was like what, She's like, it's another

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Speaker 3: Honestly, they were playing the his whole album, so I

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Speaker 5: And I went to the DJ and I was like, Hey,

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Speaker 5: Was like I think you should no, and I was

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Speaker 4: It's just so weird how he like follows me around,

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Speaker 3: Like it's also on his album and I know, but

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Speaker 3: I was like, that was really awkward, huh, And he

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Speaker 4: That's the type of shit they play. They would play.

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Speaker 4: They would play like the underground rap type shit. Oh okay.

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Speaker 2: Because I don't know what the fuck, I was thoroughly confused.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, but that just seems to happen. I literally every

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Speaker 4: I don't know. I don't know what the universe is

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Speaker 5: Let me tell with the university trying to tell me

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Speaker 4: Really, and she's right, when are you gonna smarten up?

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Speaker 5: Twenty twenty twenty year I went to go I hung

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Speaker 2: I hung out with Young Bay. Fuck. This is a

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Speaker 4: It's from the beginning.

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Speaker 5: Even though if you've been listening from the beginning, you

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Speaker 5: but I went to cancel. I went to Jersey, and

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Speaker 2: And I'm a kidding right now.

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Speaker 4: The cutting wood, I don't know.

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Speaker 5: Oh my god, you know what, it was kind of

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Speaker 2: I realized that sex wasn't that good. Watch that you

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Speaker 4: You've known the sex wasn't good.

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Speaker 3: You've been in denial of it, You've said it before,

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Speaker 5: Well, I'm just trying to figure out why I keep

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Speaker 4: I cannot believe what's happening outside right now. I'll dare them.

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Speaker 2: It's raining.

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Speaker 3: I think cutting sawing metal. Yeah, I mean, girl, you

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Speaker 4: You're too fucking nice.

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Speaker 3: You know, I always tell you and I know you

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Speaker 2: I just convinced myself this time. I was just like,

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Speaker 3: I know he's a horror, but why so then why

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Speaker 5: Than doing it In my mind, I'm like, I can,

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Speaker 5: I can, I can overlook the I know what it is,

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Speaker 2: Immature ship you're a thought. Who I'm like, Okay, well

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Speaker 3: Which if anyone ever called me a thought, we're not

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Speaker 4: That to you?

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Speaker 2: Because I'm crazy.

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Speaker 3: Okay, Well I'm telling you, like, if you go to

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Speaker 2: Okay, I'm not going to and not I'm not. I'm

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Speaker 2: going every coup, but I know, and you can't be

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Speaker 2: staying with him. I'm not. I'm taking Luna. And so

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Speaker 5: The phone and he'll sometimes like just slip up and

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Speaker 4: I was just telling him about him being dominant.

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Speaker 5: Him being dominant, but the sex is not that good

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Speaker 5: and it's not that dominant.

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Speaker 2: So I was liked, I take of the time. I

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Speaker 4: Shut up. You did not tell him I love you.

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Speaker 3: I did.

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Speaker 4: Wait, So we were trying to play tip for tat

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Speaker 4: or what we were kind of.

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Speaker 5: I was just letting him know, like, Okay, let me

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Speaker 5: like your dick's not that good and when I do fuck,

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Speaker 5: I'm getting way better dick than you.

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Speaker 3: So so what was his response to that?

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Speaker 4: He got so did he like shame you because of it?

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Speaker 1: Yeah?

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Speaker 2: He got so mad.

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Speaker 5: He said that basically something about the podcast, something about

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Speaker 5: I pop.

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Speaker 4: Everybody, you pop everybody.

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Speaker 2: I guess popping is fucking Oh okay, and you know

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Speaker 2: I've been never this is not romantic.

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Speaker 5: This is just sex. And I was like, okay, whatever.

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Speaker 5: You and him, Yeah, like basically like I just fuck everybody.

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Speaker 5: I give everybody head and did it. I was like,

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Speaker 5: so it doesn't count, doesn't Somebody told me that once

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Speaker 5: and I've been running with it.

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Speaker 4: Yeah that's a lie, but okay you think so.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, it sounded good to me. It's like that actually

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Speaker 5: You're just having sex with the condom. But anyway, I

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Speaker 3: Well, you're just giving him. It's just like, I know

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Speaker 3: But that's where it was rooted in. Was it really

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Speaker 3: like I'm not gonna fuck him anymore, but like we

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Speaker 2: Would you why this is my thirty one year old life.

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Speaker 4: Say, like, why would you want even to be around him?

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Speaker 3: You don't need to share your energy with someone like that,

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Speaker 3: He's not even like on your same vibration. Even if

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Speaker 2: You know, like we we're different, different, and you know.

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Speaker 3: It's just like some people you just come into your

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Speaker 4: They don't have to like stick around forever.

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Speaker 5: Yeah, I'm learning that that's the cancer in me that

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Speaker 5: I have like when I'm feeling certain types of ways,

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Speaker 4: Well, I mean I think that's I think that's a

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Speaker 3: I think maybe like I can hone it in a

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Speaker 3: and like you know, I'm not want to judge you,

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Speaker 4: He'm way of if.

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Speaker 3: You can't let him go, I know, never let baby

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Speaker 4: by not talking to him? What do you feel like

447
00:20:05,160 --> 00:20:09,679
Speaker 4: you're losing? Like it's like the like the death of

448
00:20:09,800 --> 00:20:12,920
Speaker 4: like experiences.

449
00:20:12,119 --> 00:20:13,960
Speaker 2: You had, Like it's just one person.

450
00:20:13,960 --> 00:20:17,640
Speaker 5: I'm like, I'm like, I guess close to you right now,

451
00:20:18,320 --> 00:20:20,959
Speaker 5: there's just nobody else I'm as close to that pisses

452
00:20:21,040 --> 00:20:22,480
Speaker 5: me off, like he piss me off less than my

453
00:20:22,480 --> 00:20:24,520
Speaker 5: baby daddy. And we're still closed and I still feel

454
00:20:24,600 --> 00:20:26,280
Speaker 5: like some comfort in it because there's nobody else.

455
00:20:26,400 --> 00:20:28,520
Speaker 4: There's no the patna is. It's like he's similar to him.

456
00:20:28,680 --> 00:20:32,040
Speaker 2: They are and comfort. Yeah, and that's very scary for me.

457
00:20:32,119 --> 00:20:33,680
Speaker 4: We're the lighter because.

458
00:20:33,480 --> 00:20:36,240
Speaker 2: I would like to think I'm smarter than that, but obviously.

459
00:20:35,920 --> 00:20:39,399
Speaker 3: You are smarter. But you also try to like rationalize

460
00:20:39,440 --> 00:20:41,600
Speaker 3: it in your brain, like you can compartmentalize things, and

461
00:20:41,640 --> 00:20:43,840
Speaker 3: you have to stop doing that anyway. You have to

462
00:20:43,840 --> 00:20:49,600
Speaker 3: stop compartmentalizing things, you know. And I asked you the

463
00:20:49,600 --> 00:20:51,680
Speaker 3: other day, I said one, like, how many friendships have

464
00:20:51,760 --> 00:20:55,520
Speaker 3: you actually like ended? I said, and you said, like one?

465
00:20:55,560 --> 00:20:59,960
Speaker 3: And I said, bitch, no, you got to cut the people.

466
00:21:00,960 --> 00:21:03,240
Speaker 2: If you knew the amount of hoarding I do.

467
00:21:04,400 --> 00:21:07,320
Speaker 3: You're a people hoarder, I am, Oh my god, I

468
00:21:07,359 --> 00:21:08,280
Speaker 3: didn't even realize.

469
00:21:08,200 --> 00:21:08,760
Speaker 4: That was the thing.

470
00:21:09,680 --> 00:21:16,000
Speaker 5: I'm friends with this guy. I told you, my friend

471
00:21:16,880 --> 00:21:19,080
Speaker 5: that I met when I was thirteen at the BTK concert.

472
00:21:21,800 --> 00:21:24,040
Speaker 2: Okay, oh, dying went water.

473
00:21:24,320 --> 00:21:26,640
Speaker 4: I hadn't either, tequila.

474
00:21:27,840 --> 00:21:31,440
Speaker 5: I hoard people, and I have to figure out why

475
00:21:31,760 --> 00:21:33,000
Speaker 5: I have to feel like I have to figure out

476
00:21:33,000 --> 00:21:35,080
Speaker 5: why sex is comforting for me even when it's not

477
00:21:35,200 --> 00:21:38,840
Speaker 5: like fulfilling the full Why Why this is what I'm

478
00:21:38,920 --> 00:21:44,240
Speaker 5: questioning right now? Why entertain people that only serve parts

479
00:21:44,240 --> 00:21:47,040
Speaker 5: of me? This person has literally said, like, you're to this,

480
00:21:48,000 --> 00:21:51,000
Speaker 5: You're to that, you should do this. You're not my

481
00:21:51,160 --> 00:21:53,439
Speaker 5: people if you think I'm too anything, because this is

482
00:21:53,440 --> 00:21:55,000
Speaker 5: who the fuck I am.

483
00:21:55,160 --> 00:21:57,560
Speaker 2: And that's just clear indication that well, especially if.

484
00:21:57,480 --> 00:21:59,920
Speaker 3: It's not in love, because I don't think I think

485
00:22:00,160 --> 00:22:03,120
Speaker 3: as like friendships, we're supposed to hold each other accountable.

486
00:22:03,160 --> 00:22:06,280
Speaker 3: We're supposed to like say, like check each other, you

487
00:22:06,320 --> 00:22:08,800
Speaker 3: know what I mean. But like what he's doing, he's

488
00:22:08,800 --> 00:22:11,000
Speaker 3: trying to change you. And it's not it's not because

489
00:22:11,000 --> 00:22:12,800
Speaker 3: he loves you, it's because he wants you to be

490
00:22:12,800 --> 00:22:13,920
Speaker 3: more suited for him.

491
00:22:14,480 --> 00:22:16,800
Speaker 5: Well, when I went there, we had a conversation bed

492
00:22:16,840 --> 00:22:18,800
Speaker 5: a fight, and he said, I want a basic girl.

493
00:22:21,119 --> 00:22:25,000
Speaker 2: He said that that was what he said, BASI, you're still.

494
00:22:24,840 --> 00:22:27,360
Speaker 4: Talking to this nigga the fun Wait then you do it.

495
00:22:27,960 --> 00:22:29,280
Speaker 2: Then he proceeded to tell me.

496
00:22:30,960 --> 00:22:34,320
Speaker 5: Right right before that, he told me he wanted a

497
00:22:34,400 --> 00:22:36,160
Speaker 5: date with the girl Okay, this is this is why

498
00:22:36,160 --> 00:22:36,800
Speaker 5: I did what I did.

499
00:22:36,800 --> 00:22:39,080
Speaker 2: This is why I mentioned the sex dungeon because Nigga,

500
00:22:39,119 --> 00:22:42,359
Speaker 2: you casually mentioning these these mediocre women.

501
00:22:42,440 --> 00:22:44,399
Speaker 5: Let me just splot it out there to you the

502
00:22:44,440 --> 00:22:47,280
Speaker 5: kuy but Nigga's type of shit I'm doing on the weekends. Okay,

503
00:22:48,000 --> 00:22:49,040
Speaker 5: he said, I wanted to go. I went on a

504
00:22:49,119 --> 00:22:52,480
Speaker 5: date with this girl. I was Haitian girl, and.

505
00:22:52,359 --> 00:22:53,639
Speaker 2: I was like, so, what are your plans? You know,

506
00:22:53,680 --> 00:22:54,119
Speaker 2: what do you do?

507
00:22:54,320 --> 00:22:57,080
Speaker 5: She was a manager at a boutique And he said,

508
00:22:57,080 --> 00:22:58,560
Speaker 5: well what are you what are you planning on doing?

509
00:22:58,560 --> 00:23:02,360
Speaker 2: After she said maybe manage another boutique? That was her goal,

510
00:23:02,440 --> 00:23:04,200
Speaker 2: that's goal. And I said, well, how old is she is?

511
00:23:04,240 --> 00:23:04,560
Speaker 2: She young?

512
00:23:04,640 --> 00:23:07,879
Speaker 5: He said, she's the same major shoe. I just laughed hysterically.

513
00:23:09,000 --> 00:23:10,760
Speaker 5: Not that there's anything wrong with being a manager at

514
00:23:10,800 --> 00:23:13,680
Speaker 5: a boutique. There's nothing wrong with that, Like I said, shit,

515
00:23:13,680 --> 00:23:15,000
Speaker 5: at least she knows what the fuck she wants to

516
00:23:15,040 --> 00:23:15,959
Speaker 5: do that, Like why would she?

517
00:23:16,119 --> 00:23:17,359
Speaker 2: He's like, she asked him, are.

518
00:23:17,240 --> 00:23:20,440
Speaker 5: You judging him? If she was judging him? And I'm thinking,

519
00:23:20,480 --> 00:23:22,040
Speaker 5: why were you judging her? You went on the fucking

520
00:23:22,080 --> 00:23:22,520
Speaker 5: date with her?

521
00:23:22,760 --> 00:23:23,960
Speaker 2: And then he said, well, I just really want a

522
00:23:24,000 --> 00:23:25,560
Speaker 2: basic girl, and I laughed so hard.

523
00:23:26,200 --> 00:23:28,959
Speaker 4: So her job was appealing or not appealing?

524
00:23:29,080 --> 00:23:29,640
Speaker 2: Not appealing.

525
00:23:29,640 --> 00:23:31,199
Speaker 5: But then he proceeded to tell me he wants just

526
00:23:31,200 --> 00:23:34,600
Speaker 5: to date a basic, simple, basic, submissive girl. I said,

527
00:23:34,680 --> 00:23:36,639
Speaker 5: oh boo, you're at the wrong dinner table with the

528
00:23:36,680 --> 00:23:37,800
Speaker 5: wrong bitch for real.

529
00:23:37,880 --> 00:23:40,120
Speaker 2: And then I got drunk and I went off on everybody,

530
00:23:40,560 --> 00:23:42,359
Speaker 2: and I'm like, you don't really know who I am.

531
00:23:42,840 --> 00:23:43,840
Speaker 2: You don't really know what you got.

532
00:23:43,920 --> 00:23:45,919
Speaker 5: You're really lucky that I'm patient and cool with you

533
00:23:45,960 --> 00:23:49,959
Speaker 5: because I know that you're young. I was like, but

534
00:23:50,400 --> 00:23:53,560
Speaker 5: this I'm doing, I would I would be upgrading you majorly.

535
00:23:54,280 --> 00:23:56,240
Speaker 5: I'm trying to open your mind and grow you.

536
00:23:56,520 --> 00:23:57,320
Speaker 4: Is that a good girl?

537
00:23:57,480 --> 00:23:58,920
Speaker 2: He's not the girl.

538
00:23:59,040 --> 00:24:00,639
Speaker 4: You gotta work on your own growth. You can't be

539
00:24:00,680 --> 00:24:02,959
Speaker 4: invested in that someone else's harvest right now, I know.

540
00:24:03,000 --> 00:24:06,080
Speaker 2: And then I read him in my book, My Manifestations

541
00:24:06,160 --> 00:24:06,520
Speaker 2: of Men.

542
00:24:06,920 --> 00:24:07,399
Speaker 4: You read it.

543
00:24:07,960 --> 00:24:10,199
Speaker 3: You can't with both of you acting. You both are

544
00:24:10,200 --> 00:24:14,000
Speaker 3: acting twelve. Okay, So stop said, I.

545
00:24:13,960 --> 00:24:17,280
Speaker 5: Said, owns living plants and I said, likes to dance

546
00:24:17,320 --> 00:24:18,360
Speaker 5: and likes to watch me dance.

547
00:24:18,400 --> 00:24:23,359
Speaker 2: He said, he sounds gay. I mean I had heterosexual.

548
00:24:23,560 --> 00:24:25,040
Speaker 4: Oh my god, No, you don't want it.

549
00:24:25,040 --> 00:24:25,280
Speaker 3: You don't.

550
00:24:25,320 --> 00:24:28,440
Speaker 4: I don't think you want necessarily heterosexual either. But that's neither.

551
00:24:28,560 --> 00:24:29,600
Speaker 4: That's a whole other conversation.

552
00:24:29,680 --> 00:24:31,120
Speaker 2: Wait, what are you trying to say? I want something

553
00:24:31,160 --> 00:24:33,760
Speaker 2: on someone on the spectrum whatever?

554
00:24:34,000 --> 00:24:37,840
Speaker 4: What it's down, it's not down.

555
00:24:37,920 --> 00:24:39,920
Speaker 2: But just like you're bluddy, people are gonna think I

556
00:24:39,960 --> 00:24:41,160
Speaker 2: want to have a three some with two.

557
00:24:41,080 --> 00:24:42,760
Speaker 4: God no, I don't necessarily think that.

558
00:24:42,800 --> 00:24:43,800
Speaker 2: I do you want to have a three some with

559
00:24:43,840 --> 00:24:44,280
Speaker 2: two guys?

560
00:24:44,720 --> 00:24:45,200
Speaker 4: I don't know.

561
00:24:45,720 --> 00:24:49,520
Speaker 3: Maybe I'm just saying I'm not saying you want a

562
00:24:49,600 --> 00:24:51,160
Speaker 3: non heterosexual person.

563
00:24:51,160 --> 00:24:53,399
Speaker 2: I'm just saying, like I don't want someone who's you want.

564
00:24:53,280 --> 00:24:56,040
Speaker 3: Someone to know who doesn't have boundaries? Yeah, I mean

565
00:24:56,080 --> 00:24:58,040
Speaker 3: and if and if you guys never, if he never

566
00:24:58,720 --> 00:25:01,520
Speaker 3: does anything with another man, that's fine.

567
00:25:01,840 --> 00:25:04,960
Speaker 4: But you know you can't. You know, he's boundless. That's

568
00:25:05,640 --> 00:25:06,920
Speaker 4: you think you're laughing.

569
00:25:07,000 --> 00:25:09,119
Speaker 3: But bit, all the people who are listening to this

570
00:25:09,160 --> 00:25:11,400
Speaker 3: podcasts are like, yeah, that's what Jamila wants, because that's

571
00:25:11,400 --> 00:25:12,800
Speaker 3: what the fuck she talks about all the time.

572
00:25:12,880 --> 00:25:16,440
Speaker 5: So but I don't think maybe being boundless is not heterosexual.

573
00:25:16,480 --> 00:25:19,080
Speaker 4: I mean, I don't know, I don't feel like I

574
00:25:19,080 --> 00:25:20,000
Speaker 4: don't mean that either.

575
00:25:20,080 --> 00:25:22,720
Speaker 2: I just mean, like, yeah, no, I don't.

576
00:25:22,960 --> 00:25:24,800
Speaker 4: I feel like when you choose, you choose it. When

577
00:25:24,840 --> 00:25:26,200
Speaker 4: you choose a side, you're.

578
00:25:26,400 --> 00:25:28,879
Speaker 2: You're cutting yourself off whatever.

579
00:25:28,920 --> 00:25:31,760
Speaker 4: I don't know. Whatever. That's not that's a whole your episode.

580
00:25:32,680 --> 00:25:34,800
Speaker 2: Okay, that's another episode. Well I have to come back

581
00:25:34,840 --> 00:25:35,000
Speaker 2: to that.

582
00:25:35,240 --> 00:25:38,159
Speaker 3: Well, I just he's immature and and.

583
00:25:39,400 --> 00:25:41,360
Speaker 5: I realized, and I realized I'm a little imature because

584
00:25:41,359 --> 00:25:43,000
Speaker 5: I'm a little bit addicted to it because.

585
00:25:42,920 --> 00:25:44,840
Speaker 4: Well, you guys are both acting immature for sure.

586
00:25:44,960 --> 00:25:46,600
Speaker 5: It's just something to do and distract me from what

587
00:25:46,640 --> 00:25:48,720
Speaker 5: I really need to be doing, which is not worried

588
00:25:48,720 --> 00:25:49,679
Speaker 5: about these niggas.

589
00:25:50,119 --> 00:25:50,719
Speaker 4: Yeah.

590
00:25:51,200 --> 00:25:55,320
Speaker 3: Yeah, I think he is definitely a distraction and also

591
00:25:55,400 --> 00:25:56,520
Speaker 3: similar to your past.

592
00:25:56,560 --> 00:25:59,960
Speaker 4: So it's like it feels comfortable for multiple reason.

593
00:26:00,400 --> 00:26:02,920
Speaker 5: I know, But like, what do you think is that's

594
00:26:02,920 --> 00:26:07,320
Speaker 5: a problem like someone being passively aggressively you have to

595
00:26:07,320 --> 00:26:08,400
Speaker 5: give yourself.

596
00:26:08,800 --> 00:26:09,359
Speaker 4: It's true.

597
00:26:09,840 --> 00:26:12,560
Speaker 3: It's funny because today I actually talk to Happy Bay,

598
00:26:13,520 --> 00:26:16,720
Speaker 3: like we haven't really talked and in a minute, and

599
00:26:18,280 --> 00:26:20,440
Speaker 3: it's so crazy what time does when you really give

600
00:26:20,480 --> 00:26:22,720
Speaker 3: it that because when we talked, like I.

601
00:26:22,600 --> 00:26:23,480
Speaker 2: Was like huh.

602
00:26:23,560 --> 00:26:25,600
Speaker 4: I don't even miss you like that of a deal.

603
00:26:25,720 --> 00:26:27,479
Speaker 3: Like I love him and I think he's a great person,

604
00:26:27,560 --> 00:26:31,400
Speaker 3: but I'm I'm removed from it, right and the only

605
00:26:31,440 --> 00:26:34,800
Speaker 3: way I could have this could have happened. Honestly, there's

606
00:26:34,800 --> 00:26:35,280
Speaker 3: no way.

607
00:26:35,160 --> 00:26:35,760
Speaker 4: You can remove.

608
00:26:35,800 --> 00:26:38,640
Speaker 3: You can't be removed if you don't actually fucking remove yourself.

609
00:26:38,960 --> 00:26:42,000
Speaker 3: You can't battle tote this line, at least not at

610
00:26:42,000 --> 00:26:44,639
Speaker 3: first and not for a while. You know, people like

611
00:26:45,080 --> 00:26:47,280
Speaker 3: I think it's a special gift if you can, and

612
00:26:47,320 --> 00:26:49,840
Speaker 3: most people don't possess it. And guess what, bitch, you

613
00:26:49,960 --> 00:26:54,760
Speaker 3: get No, and neither do I.

614
00:26:54,840 --> 00:26:57,679
Speaker 5: But how long has it been since your slept with

615
00:26:57,720 --> 00:26:59,400
Speaker 5: Happy by April?

616
00:27:01,840 --> 00:27:02,159
Speaker 2: Okay?

617
00:27:02,280 --> 00:27:02,480
Speaker 4: Yeah?

618
00:27:02,880 --> 00:27:07,359
Speaker 3: Well yeah, I mean he lives in my city.

619
00:27:07,480 --> 00:27:09,879
Speaker 2: I know, I know. Okay, you're better at this than

620
00:27:09,920 --> 00:27:10,159
Speaker 2: I am.

621
00:27:10,560 --> 00:27:12,520
Speaker 3: You're better at the cutoff. No, no, no, I am

622
00:27:12,560 --> 00:27:15,080
Speaker 3: better at it, for sure. But I'm not trying to

623
00:27:15,080 --> 00:27:18,520
Speaker 3: shame you. I'm just trying to encourage you because I

624
00:27:18,560 --> 00:27:20,119
Speaker 3: know you can do better, and I know you know

625
00:27:20,160 --> 00:27:21,919
Speaker 3: you can do better. You're literally saying it.

626
00:27:22,040 --> 00:27:24,280
Speaker 2: You know, I'm blocking my blessings.

627
00:27:23,880 --> 00:27:26,920
Speaker 5: Anyway, I will there's something in me that I'll go

628
00:27:27,040 --> 00:27:29,560
Speaker 5: a couple of months and then I'll know I'm going

629
00:27:29,600 --> 00:27:31,360
Speaker 5: to the East Coast and I'll say, hey.

630
00:27:31,280 --> 00:27:33,160
Speaker 3: You've never been to the East Coast and I called him.

631
00:27:33,840 --> 00:27:35,760
Speaker 3: You have to try to do that one time. And

632
00:27:35,800 --> 00:27:38,120
Speaker 3: that's my challenge too. If you go there this time,

633
00:27:38,440 --> 00:27:41,880
Speaker 3: don't go there. You have to know what that feels like. Honestly,

634
00:27:41,960 --> 00:27:44,720
Speaker 3: Like going downtown was hard for me at first because

635
00:27:44,760 --> 00:27:46,520
Speaker 3: that was like my habit, Like I was hit all

636
00:27:46,640 --> 00:27:48,240
Speaker 3: him to see what he's doing. Even if I didn't

637
00:27:48,240 --> 00:27:52,399
Speaker 3: see him, I reached out, you know, don't even reach out.

638
00:27:53,640 --> 00:27:56,600
Speaker 3: Try that because you need to associate the East with

639
00:27:56,640 --> 00:27:57,280
Speaker 3: something different.

640
00:27:57,320 --> 00:27:59,000
Speaker 2: I mean, shit, I need to just be able to

641
00:27:59,000 --> 00:28:01,040
Speaker 2: do that. In general, I'm not getting any younger.

642
00:28:01,080 --> 00:28:04,760
Speaker 5: Who the fuck has time to be wasting with people

643
00:28:04,840 --> 00:28:06,199
Speaker 5: I know are not my people, you know.

644
00:28:06,280 --> 00:28:08,760
Speaker 3: But it's just like it's it's even bigger than that though.

645
00:28:08,800 --> 00:28:11,720
Speaker 3: You just like be patient with yourself, but also you

646
00:28:11,800 --> 00:28:15,600
Speaker 3: have to at least try to better to like challenge

647
00:28:15,640 --> 00:28:18,639
Speaker 3: do something that's really challenging for you, because once you

648
00:28:18,640 --> 00:28:19,439
Speaker 3: do it once, it's like.

649
00:28:19,440 --> 00:28:21,040
Speaker 2: Okay, right right, I'm capable.

650
00:28:21,280 --> 00:28:22,920
Speaker 4: Okay, I did it. You might fuck up again, but

651
00:28:22,920 --> 00:28:24,000
Speaker 4: at least you know you can do it.

652
00:28:24,040 --> 00:28:26,360
Speaker 2: Right, because like, Okay, the truth is, my cutoff game

653
00:28:26,440 --> 00:28:26,760
Speaker 2: is weak.

654
00:28:27,600 --> 00:28:28,960
Speaker 4: You're that's that cancer shit.

655
00:28:29,160 --> 00:28:31,520
Speaker 2: I cut off game is week I could practice.

656
00:28:31,240 --> 00:28:33,840
Speaker 3: Mine is weak too, but like eventually it takes me

657
00:28:33,880 --> 00:28:37,560
Speaker 3: a minute, it does, it takes me a minute, but then.

658
00:28:38,320 --> 00:28:41,800
Speaker 4: It's cut off. It's cut the fuck off.

659
00:28:41,960 --> 00:28:44,320
Speaker 3: And I realized that recently, actually had that realization, like

660
00:28:44,560 --> 00:28:49,320
Speaker 3: probably this week. I was like, damn me and BDM, yeah,

661
00:28:49,640 --> 00:28:51,960
Speaker 3: I've been really cut that shit off. Like we are

662
00:28:52,000 --> 00:28:55,280
Speaker 3: so transactional, that is it, and that's okay with me?

663
00:28:55,400 --> 00:28:58,400
Speaker 3: And I never eventually, yes, of course, I know this

664
00:28:58,560 --> 00:29:00,080
Speaker 3: person is going to be in my life for a

665
00:29:00,240 --> 00:29:02,520
Speaker 3: very long time. But the fact that I could do

666
00:29:02,640 --> 00:29:06,560
Speaker 3: it now, like I feel like I'm planting seeds for

667
00:29:06,600 --> 00:29:09,640
Speaker 3: a better future for us, you know, because like this,

668
00:29:10,120 --> 00:29:12,480
Speaker 3: we weren't going to give each other space unless someone

669
00:29:12,560 --> 00:29:14,800
Speaker 3: started it, you know, and so.

670
00:29:17,320 --> 00:29:19,000
Speaker 4: But I don't know.

671
00:29:19,840 --> 00:29:24,000
Speaker 2: I yeah, you're right, you're right.

672
00:29:25,200 --> 00:29:28,720
Speaker 3: When that when that like temptation comes in, that first one,

673
00:29:28,760 --> 00:29:29,640
Speaker 3: you have to try.

674
00:29:29,480 --> 00:29:29,800
Speaker 4: To say no.

675
00:29:30,000 --> 00:29:33,240
Speaker 5: And what part of me identifies with that, what part

676
00:29:33,280 --> 00:29:37,240
Speaker 5: of me is like this has this cycle and pattern

677
00:29:37,360 --> 00:29:39,840
Speaker 5: with like the back and forth.

678
00:29:39,880 --> 00:29:41,960
Speaker 2: I'm like is that my parents, Like, is they're so

679
00:29:42,040 --> 00:29:43,560
Speaker 2: fucking crazy? Is that?

680
00:29:43,600 --> 00:29:45,160
Speaker 5: Like, I don't know, Is that what I think makes

681
00:29:45,160 --> 00:29:48,760
Speaker 5: me feel wanted or like important? Like it is it

682
00:29:48,840 --> 00:29:53,200
Speaker 5: just my just pure manipulation and you know, conquered.

683
00:29:54,520 --> 00:29:54,680
Speaker 4: No.

684
00:29:54,760 --> 00:29:57,080
Speaker 3: I think it's like we all have a need and

685
00:29:57,280 --> 00:30:00,720
Speaker 3: want to feel loved, you know, and like we.

686
00:30:00,720 --> 00:30:02,560
Speaker 2: Have to be able to fill that need and want ourselves.

687
00:30:02,600 --> 00:30:04,960
Speaker 4: Yeah, and for some people it's stronger than others.

688
00:30:05,040 --> 00:30:09,080
Speaker 3: And obviously, like experience plays a part and your history

689
00:30:09,160 --> 00:30:11,560
Speaker 3: and all those things. But I think at our core,

690
00:30:11,600 --> 00:30:13,200
Speaker 3: like all humans want that.

691
00:30:13,080 --> 00:30:20,440
Speaker 4: And I mean, I don't know, it's it's there's so

692
00:30:20,440 --> 00:30:24,080
Speaker 4: many factors. Who knows. But I'm going to be your

693
00:30:24,080 --> 00:30:28,120
Speaker 4: accountability partner, Okay. I'm just so you can't lie to me.

694
00:30:28,400 --> 00:30:29,960
Speaker 6: I'm not gonna lie you, And I don't think you

695
00:30:30,000 --> 00:30:31,320
Speaker 6: lie to me. I'm just telling you I can't lie

696
00:30:31,320 --> 00:30:33,880
Speaker 6: to you. Sometimes I'm like, I'm just not gonna mention

697
00:30:33,920 --> 00:30:38,640
Speaker 6: this for now, and like no one said nobody, Okay,

698
00:30:38,680 --> 00:30:39,560
Speaker 6: so what happened?

699
00:30:39,640 --> 00:30:40,200
Speaker 2: So listen?

700
00:30:40,880 --> 00:30:43,840
Speaker 3: Yeah, Well, because I mean too, I mean, we all

701
00:30:43,840 --> 00:30:45,840
Speaker 3: talk about our in our own time, you know what

702
00:30:45,880 --> 00:30:46,200
Speaker 3: I mean.

703
00:30:46,480 --> 00:30:48,200
Speaker 5: But I'm not ready to process, right, now. But I'm

704
00:30:48,200 --> 00:30:50,680
Speaker 5: gonna tell you I'm just not right to say.

705
00:30:51,320 --> 00:30:54,640
Speaker 3: But yeah, I need accountability too. I need more people

706
00:30:54,640 --> 00:30:56,960
Speaker 3: to be like, bitch, don't you're being crazy?

707
00:30:57,080 --> 00:31:00,000
Speaker 4: You're actually crazy. I realize more I actually am crazy.

708
00:31:00,040 --> 00:31:04,720
Speaker 3: I used to think I'm not crazy, I'm crazy.

709
00:31:05,560 --> 00:31:07,600
Speaker 4: I guess myself. I was like, I'm not like those

710
00:31:07,640 --> 00:31:08,640
Speaker 4: crazy motherfuckers.

711
00:31:09,640 --> 00:31:16,360
Speaker 3: And I'm like, oh no, no, no, I think I'm lazy.

712
00:31:16,400 --> 00:31:21,520
Speaker 3: I'm too lazy to be too crazy. You know, I'm

713
00:31:21,560 --> 00:31:24,800
Speaker 3: like too lazy to be.

714
00:31:23,920 --> 00:31:25,800
Speaker 2: Too lazy to be crazy.

715
00:31:25,800 --> 00:31:30,520
Speaker 4: And I'm gonna get that tatted. Let me say, I

716
00:31:30,560 --> 00:31:32,400
Speaker 4: don't know what's happening over here. I don't even know

717
00:31:32,440 --> 00:31:35,040
Speaker 4: what or I would we be talking about what we're

718
00:31:35,040 --> 00:31:39,520
Speaker 4: doing now. I'm actually applying eyeshadow. I've blended it to perfection.

719
00:31:39,800 --> 00:31:42,680
Speaker 5: That's why don't I am too ady d to like

720
00:31:42,800 --> 00:31:43,760
Speaker 5: blend to perfection.

721
00:31:43,880 --> 00:31:45,160
Speaker 2: This is the best, bad well, this.

722
00:31:45,040 --> 00:31:46,840
Speaker 3: Kind of tool is the best to blend with. That

723
00:31:47,000 --> 00:31:49,760
Speaker 3: was what I've finally realized. The fluffy brush is like

724
00:31:49,800 --> 00:31:50,400
Speaker 3: the best to.

725
00:31:50,440 --> 00:31:52,160
Speaker 2: Really, this one's taking a long time.

726
00:31:52,200 --> 00:31:54,120
Speaker 3: You can just blend forever and ever and ever and

727
00:31:54,120 --> 00:31:56,240
Speaker 3: it's always gonna be okay and just add more. But

728
00:31:56,280 --> 00:31:58,840
Speaker 3: you never want to have like super hard lines unless

729
00:31:58,880 --> 00:32:00,280
Speaker 3: that's like you know you're going or like.

730
00:32:00,280 --> 00:32:01,040
Speaker 4: A look like that.

731
00:32:01,600 --> 00:32:03,400
Speaker 2: And then me switched it up and.

732
00:32:03,080 --> 00:32:04,760
Speaker 4: I don't even know what I'm wearing. I guess I'm

733
00:32:04,760 --> 00:32:07,000
Speaker 4: wearing this gold situation.

734
00:32:07,960 --> 00:32:13,440
Speaker 3: But anyway, to continue on about New York, I got

735
00:32:13,480 --> 00:32:16,840
Speaker 3: really sick. You did get sick, and then I got

736
00:32:16,880 --> 00:32:17,920
Speaker 3: sick and I cough.

737
00:32:20,040 --> 00:32:21,840
Speaker 5: I was like, I'm really sick because I'm like not

738
00:32:21,920 --> 00:32:23,160
Speaker 5: being a hell or anything.

739
00:32:25,000 --> 00:32:26,920
Speaker 4: Must be sick. Sick.

740
00:32:28,840 --> 00:32:34,120
Speaker 2: Well, I was in full health, full thriving health. Every

741
00:32:34,200 --> 00:32:35,040
Speaker 2: day I was.

742
00:32:35,000 --> 00:32:36,240
Speaker 4: In full health.

743
00:32:38,600 --> 00:32:40,880
Speaker 3: Yeah, I met some I met a guy that I like,

744
00:32:41,040 --> 00:32:44,800
Speaker 3: also have been chatting with on the interwebs through we

745
00:32:44,880 --> 00:32:47,960
Speaker 3: know each other through mutual friends, and we rendezvous one night.

746
00:32:48,120 --> 00:32:51,400
Speaker 3: And you know what the problem was is that, like

747
00:32:53,200 --> 00:32:58,760
Speaker 3: I don't know what it is, tequila and wine together

748
00:33:00,080 --> 00:33:01,200
Speaker 3: ever a good idea for me.

749
00:33:01,760 --> 00:33:02,840
Speaker 2: I just feel like I've done it.

750
00:33:04,080 --> 00:33:07,360
Speaker 5: Yeah, it's just so don't drink wine today at this event.

751
00:33:07,440 --> 00:33:09,320
Speaker 5: Do not accept wine. And you know it's only gonna

752
00:33:09,320 --> 00:33:10,120
Speaker 5: have fucking wine.

753
00:33:10,920 --> 00:33:11,600
Speaker 4: Is that what that is?

754
00:33:11,680 --> 00:33:14,240
Speaker 5: I'm sure only we were like hardcore want to drinks.

755
00:33:14,280 --> 00:33:16,520
Speaker 5: Maybe we're gonna have a football hardcore.

756
00:33:16,680 --> 00:33:19,800
Speaker 4: It's fucking Saturday. It's a plant. I like a gave.

757
00:33:20,680 --> 00:33:25,000
Speaker 4: I guess that's muscow whatever, it's fine. I guess I'm

758
00:33:25,040 --> 00:33:26,440
Speaker 4: going for it with this pink right now.

759
00:33:26,560 --> 00:33:28,480
Speaker 2: I'm going for it with this flax those.

760
00:33:28,320 --> 00:33:29,280
Speaker 4: Pink look right now.

761
00:33:30,040 --> 00:33:32,120
Speaker 2: Oh you're going for it?

762
00:33:32,200 --> 00:33:32,640
Speaker 4: Yeah, I know.

763
00:33:35,480 --> 00:33:42,959
Speaker 3: So Anyway, what I also realized too well, I had

764
00:33:42,960 --> 00:33:45,000
Speaker 3: the end of my relationship with Tullumbay.

765
00:33:46,120 --> 00:33:46,640
Speaker 4: Are done.

766
00:33:48,600 --> 00:33:50,120
Speaker 2: Talumbee has been cant.

767
00:33:49,960 --> 00:33:55,440
Speaker 4: Talumbay from Tulum. I'm done. He's a sweet guy, but

768
00:33:56,720 --> 00:33:57,160
Speaker 4: I don't know.

769
00:33:57,200 --> 00:33:59,200
Speaker 3: I just feel like maybe it was just a Tulumbay,

770
00:33:59,320 --> 00:34:03,600
Speaker 3: maybe just and faded. And also I don't I have

771
00:34:03,760 --> 00:34:06,800
Speaker 3: very little patience these days for men, and like, if

772
00:34:06,840 --> 00:34:08,359
Speaker 3: you say you're gonna do something, then do it.

773
00:34:08,600 --> 00:34:10,680
Speaker 4: I don't. I can't do I don't.

774
00:34:11,040 --> 00:34:14,680
Speaker 3: My like cancel game is getting really like good, it's

775
00:34:14,719 --> 00:34:16,600
Speaker 3: getting very accurate.

776
00:34:17,760 --> 00:34:19,520
Speaker 2: And I need to get some of that.

777
00:34:19,840 --> 00:34:23,759
Speaker 4: Yeah, it's hard because you have this weird guilt like

778
00:34:23,960 --> 00:34:26,719
Speaker 4: am I being too much? And do I care too much?

779
00:34:27,440 --> 00:34:29,720
Speaker 4: And it's like no, you don't, Yeah, you care about yourself.

780
00:34:29,920 --> 00:34:32,279
Speaker 4: You don't want to do the ship. It's dumb. You're dumb.

781
00:34:32,440 --> 00:34:33,279
Speaker 2: I actually don't like you.

782
00:34:33,680 --> 00:34:35,600
Speaker 3: Yeah, it's not really like do I care about him?

783
00:34:35,640 --> 00:34:37,640
Speaker 3: It's more so like do I care about myself? And

784
00:34:37,680 --> 00:34:41,880
Speaker 3: do I feel like it's creating like imaginary stress for

785
00:34:41,920 --> 00:34:42,440
Speaker 3: no reason?

786
00:34:42,760 --> 00:34:43,000
Speaker 5: Right?

787
00:34:43,120 --> 00:34:43,760
Speaker 2: Oh my god?

788
00:34:44,440 --> 00:34:46,959
Speaker 3: You know like that that then becomes real stress because

789
00:34:46,960 --> 00:34:48,920
Speaker 3: then I like, because you think about someone that I

790
00:34:49,000 --> 00:34:51,399
Speaker 3: knew wasn't my nigga from the beginning exactly.

791
00:34:52,080 --> 00:34:56,880
Speaker 4: So there's that. I also realized too that because in

792
00:34:56,920 --> 00:34:59,319
Speaker 4: New York, I don't know, hung up with this guy

793
00:34:59,320 --> 00:35:02,200
Speaker 4: that was younger than me. I can't do younger men.

794
00:35:02,360 --> 00:35:05,920
Speaker 2: Who's younger the bar guy? How was he?

795
00:35:06,080 --> 00:35:08,239
Speaker 3: You know that much younger but younger enough that I'm

796
00:35:08,239 --> 00:35:11,200
Speaker 3: just I'll never go under my own age period. Yeah,

797
00:35:11,320 --> 00:35:13,480
Speaker 3: I think he's like he just said that shit about

798
00:35:13,520 --> 00:35:16,759
Speaker 3: like I don't know, like because we have a podcast,

799
00:35:16,800 --> 00:35:19,360
Speaker 3: I feel like when we like dating lately, like guys

800
00:35:19,440 --> 00:35:20,840
Speaker 3: say the weirdest.

801
00:35:20,400 --> 00:35:23,719
Speaker 4: Shit to me, like, oh is that for the podcast?

802
00:35:23,760 --> 00:35:26,000
Speaker 3: Like every time I'm talking to them or asking them

803
00:35:26,040 --> 00:35:29,160
Speaker 3: a question, they use the podcast as a way to

804
00:35:29,239 --> 00:35:31,279
Speaker 3: like not answer the question or make me feel like

805
00:35:31,280 --> 00:35:33,799
Speaker 3: I'm interviewing them and I'm like, I'm not interviewing you, Like,

806
00:35:33,960 --> 00:35:36,200
Speaker 3: I just the reason I have a podcast is because

807
00:35:36,200 --> 00:35:37,240
Speaker 3: I'm inquisitive, bitch.

808
00:35:37,719 --> 00:35:40,200
Speaker 4: That's why I like to ask questions. I want to

809
00:35:40,480 --> 00:35:42,960
Speaker 4: asking questions. Yeah, like I just want to.

810
00:35:42,920 --> 00:35:43,600
Speaker 2: Know who you are.

811
00:35:44,040 --> 00:35:45,920
Speaker 4: Yeah, I'm duh, I don't know.

812
00:35:46,880 --> 00:35:49,680
Speaker 3: You can ask me too, and you can say now

813
00:35:49,680 --> 00:35:56,759
Speaker 3: about that. You don't have to answer. This pink look

814
00:35:56,840 --> 00:35:58,760
Speaker 3: might have been a mistake because now.

815
00:35:58,640 --> 00:36:03,080
Speaker 5: I holiday, girl, Why did I go pink hairs?

816
00:36:03,080 --> 00:36:03,839
Speaker 2: All cheez?

817
00:36:04,080 --> 00:36:05,800
Speaker 4: Maybe I should take this off. Let me see.

818
00:36:07,719 --> 00:36:09,080
Speaker 2: I mean you could pull it off.

819
00:36:09,120 --> 00:36:11,400
Speaker 4: I know I was gonna like go shimmery pink over it.

820
00:36:11,640 --> 00:36:13,239
Speaker 2: Yeah, that's what I figured. You're not going to leave

821
00:36:13,239 --> 00:36:16,239
Speaker 2: it in that What time is there? I don't know.

822
00:36:16,400 --> 00:36:20,919
Speaker 2: It's a good question. We're supposed to leave it at six.

823
00:36:25,080 --> 00:36:27,439
Speaker 4: Our interview with Sean was amazing. I had a great

824
00:36:27,480 --> 00:36:28,120
Speaker 4: time doing that.

825
00:36:28,560 --> 00:36:29,400
Speaker 2: Yeah, it was amazing.

826
00:36:31,360 --> 00:36:31,719
Speaker 4: I don't know.

827
00:36:31,760 --> 00:36:33,279
Speaker 3: I really realized when I was there, like I really

828
00:36:33,280 --> 00:36:35,840
Speaker 3: want to spend more time on the East Coast. Yeah,

829
00:36:36,640 --> 00:36:38,640
Speaker 3: like I really want to spend like next summer there.

830
00:36:38,760 --> 00:36:41,120
Speaker 4: Yeah, pretty much is what I'm saying. So we have

831
00:36:41,160 --> 00:36:41,760
Speaker 4: to move there.

832
00:36:41,640 --> 00:36:45,680
Speaker 5: Because yeah, because I'm so happy that and we can't

833
00:36:45,680 --> 00:36:46,600
Speaker 5: do anything without each other.

834
00:36:47,560 --> 00:36:49,760
Speaker 4: That's done and your accountability partner.

835
00:36:51,280 --> 00:36:55,880
Speaker 3: Definitely, So you can't be very you can't move too far, okay,

836
00:36:56,000 --> 00:36:58,000
Speaker 3: And I also need to be told, said.

837
00:36:57,840 --> 00:36:59,800
Speaker 2: The I think it's time you have a seat.

838
00:37:01,280 --> 00:37:11,120
Speaker 4: Oh you know. Also I realized that I'm black as fuck.

839
00:37:12,440 --> 00:37:16,880
Speaker 3: And not everyone's gonna be black as fuck, even the blacks.

840
00:37:17,400 --> 00:37:22,080
Speaker 5: Yeah, I know, girl, I know it's crazy. Oh that's

841
00:37:22,080 --> 00:37:25,400
Speaker 5: a that's a big point. And you can't and you

842
00:37:25,480 --> 00:37:26,359
Speaker 5: just gotta live with it.

843
00:37:28,520 --> 00:37:32,680
Speaker 3: And yeah, I gotta be okay with that, not getting

844
00:37:32,719 --> 00:37:33,960
Speaker 3: not get so angry about it.

845
00:37:35,400 --> 00:37:37,480
Speaker 4: Can't can't win all my battles.

846
00:37:37,560 --> 00:37:41,520
Speaker 2: Oh oh ship, what was that's the flat? I pulled

847
00:37:41,520 --> 00:37:42,719
Speaker 2: it too hard. Let me fix it.

848
00:37:43,440 --> 00:37:45,759
Speaker 3: We saw Queen and Slim and it was really good.

849
00:37:45,760 --> 00:37:47,359
Speaker 3: If you haven't seen it, make sure you go check

850
00:37:47,360 --> 00:37:52,279
Speaker 3: it out. I know there's been some like I guess

851
00:37:52,640 --> 00:37:58,320
Speaker 3: people think there's like some problematic moments in the film,

852
00:37:58,560 --> 00:38:02,359
Speaker 3: which after we had our talk with Van, I can

853
00:38:02,400 --> 00:38:04,879
Speaker 3: see how there'd be how I guess.

854
00:38:04,600 --> 00:38:05,000
Speaker 4: I don't know.

855
00:38:05,000 --> 00:38:08,320
Speaker 3: Maybe I gave the film the benefit of the doubt

856
00:38:09,360 --> 00:38:12,040
Speaker 3: in many ways because it's written by a black woman,

857
00:38:13,360 --> 00:38:14,520
Speaker 3: directed by one too.

858
00:38:14,800 --> 00:38:17,839
Speaker 4: I don't know if is Melina black or she. I

859
00:38:17,840 --> 00:38:19,120
Speaker 4: think she is whatever.

860
00:38:19,160 --> 00:38:23,719
Speaker 3: She's a woman of color period. But I still thought

861
00:38:23,719 --> 00:38:26,239
Speaker 3: it was a really great film. Thought the acting was good.

862
00:38:27,800 --> 00:38:36,280
Speaker 3: H I cried, Erica got an argument with family members.

863
00:38:36,800 --> 00:38:39,200
Speaker 5: I thought it was a really good film, done well,

864
00:38:39,280 --> 00:38:42,560
Speaker 5: good soundtrack. Check Out our episode with Van Lathan on

865
00:38:42,600 --> 00:38:46,560
Speaker 5: The Red Pill. We're discussing Queen and slim and more

866
00:38:46,600 --> 00:38:47,320
Speaker 5: deeper depths.

867
00:38:47,400 --> 00:38:48,640
Speaker 2: He had a lot of things to say.

868
00:38:48,840 --> 00:38:54,560
Speaker 4: Yeah, he didn't agree.

869
00:38:55,400 --> 00:38:58,840
Speaker 3: Maybe that's the lesson of twenty twenty two, Like what

870
00:38:58,880 --> 00:39:00,160
Speaker 3: are your resolutions?

871
00:39:00,640 --> 00:39:01,960
Speaker 2: What everyone's not going to agree?

872
00:39:02,040 --> 00:39:04,319
Speaker 5: Yeah, everyone's not gonna be as black as you are.

873
00:39:04,920 --> 00:39:07,279
Speaker 5: Everyone's not going to agree, and you know, what are

874
00:39:07,320 --> 00:39:08,080
Speaker 5: you gonna do about it?

875
00:39:08,120 --> 00:39:08,919
Speaker 2: You're gonna get mad?

876
00:39:09,640 --> 00:39:11,760
Speaker 4: I mean sometimes sometimes yeah.

877
00:39:11,640 --> 00:39:16,719
Speaker 5: But other times you gotta just really evaluate if it's worth.

878
00:39:17,040 --> 00:39:18,399
Speaker 4: I feel like I want to take this off. Does

879
00:39:18,400 --> 00:39:19,000
Speaker 4: it not look good?

880
00:39:19,320 --> 00:39:23,040
Speaker 5: I mean, I think we're it's a quarter to six, okay, right,

881
00:39:24,160 --> 00:39:26,880
Speaker 5: I'm not married to my look, but I'm hoping the lashes.

882
00:39:26,920 --> 00:39:29,719
Speaker 4: Well, oh yeah, that's what's going to help the lashes.

883
00:39:29,840 --> 00:39:32,360
Speaker 3: Yeah, check out this look on page one's going to

884
00:39:32,480 --> 00:39:35,080
Speaker 3: check out check out this look on Patriot if.

885
00:39:34,920 --> 00:39:37,200
Speaker 2: We're like, should be ill, don't need to wear this.

886
00:39:37,640 --> 00:39:40,200
Speaker 2: Do you think black is too aggressive for a holiday party?

887
00:39:42,280 --> 00:39:44,600
Speaker 4: No? I think it's cute. She's talking about her black

888
00:39:44,640 --> 00:39:47,200
Speaker 4: lipstick y'all, not like not her being black.

889
00:39:48,320 --> 00:39:52,279
Speaker 2: It's too black for the holiday party. Well, I just

890
00:39:52,320 --> 00:39:54,760
Speaker 2: want to remind everybody since your news.

891
00:39:54,600 --> 00:39:59,879
Speaker 5: Resolutions resolutions, well, I need to be more a camp

892
00:40:00,680 --> 00:40:03,040
Speaker 5: for the things I say I want and then actually

893
00:40:03,120 --> 00:40:04,480
Speaker 5: do the actions to.

894
00:40:06,280 --> 00:40:07,280
Speaker 2: Achieve the results.

895
00:40:08,360 --> 00:40:13,799
Speaker 5: So more doing, less sing, more thinking with my head

896
00:40:13,840 --> 00:40:14,719
Speaker 5: and not my vagina.

897
00:40:15,239 --> 00:40:21,239
Speaker 4: M h, how do you do that? I think I

898
00:40:21,400 --> 00:40:22,000
Speaker 4: might have to.

899
00:40:21,960 --> 00:40:25,759
Speaker 5: Do the dick toks again because I really don't have

900
00:40:25,800 --> 00:40:26,880
Speaker 5: an in between you.

901
00:40:27,160 --> 00:40:30,279
Speaker 3: You did really well. You were killing it, you were

902
00:40:30,280 --> 00:40:32,000
Speaker 3: committing okay, well when you were on it. There's a

903
00:40:32,000 --> 00:40:33,920
Speaker 3: gotta be you gotta like do some work while you're

904
00:40:33,920 --> 00:40:36,879
Speaker 3: on it, like continue, Like you can't just not fuck

905
00:40:36,960 --> 00:40:40,759
Speaker 3: you have to like work on smother shit too, right,

906
00:40:40,960 --> 00:40:44,600
Speaker 3: like the sexuality part of it while you're not fucking w.

907
00:40:44,400 --> 00:40:46,080
Speaker 2: What do you mean by that? Like mastivating?

908
00:40:47,320 --> 00:40:48,879
Speaker 4: I don't know, I don't know what it is.

909
00:40:48,920 --> 00:40:50,640
Speaker 5: It's that or like.

910
00:40:52,280 --> 00:40:55,200
Speaker 3: Cause like what you what is not fucking really gonna

911
00:40:55,239 --> 00:41:00,680
Speaker 3: do besides just not fucking well, I'm gonna takes because

912
00:41:00,680 --> 00:41:02,880
Speaker 3: if you start fucking again, what's gonna be the difference

913
00:41:02,880 --> 00:41:03,480
Speaker 3: at this time?

914
00:41:03,880 --> 00:41:04,480
Speaker 2: You know what I mean?

915
00:41:04,520 --> 00:41:06,800
Speaker 4: Like, what's gonna make you not go back to the

916
00:41:07,120 --> 00:41:09,279
Speaker 4: old habits? I don't know.

917
00:41:09,520 --> 00:41:12,680
Speaker 2: Well, I'm gonna do the sixth or seven week course.

918
00:41:12,480 --> 00:41:15,719
Speaker 4: With Oh my god, yeah, did she send it?

919
00:41:15,920 --> 00:41:16,200
Speaker 2: No?

920
00:41:16,200 --> 00:41:16,600
Speaker 4: Not yet.

921
00:41:16,920 --> 00:41:18,120
Speaker 2: Well, I know she's out of town, so I didn't

922
00:41:18,120 --> 00:41:18,800
Speaker 2: want to be annoying.

923
00:41:18,960 --> 00:41:22,200
Speaker 5: But I'm gonna start that in the new year, and

924
00:41:22,239 --> 00:41:25,839
Speaker 5: then I think that can be the catalyst for the rest.

925
00:41:25,920 --> 00:41:28,560
Speaker 5: I told you every wanting to do d MT or

926
00:41:28,640 --> 00:41:31,080
Speaker 5: do like a psychedelic So I've been talking to.

927
00:41:31,080 --> 00:41:38,319
Speaker 3: This guy and like he does like mushroom miss like

928
00:41:38,400 --> 00:41:40,680
Speaker 3: support guided.

929
00:41:40,840 --> 00:41:43,000
Speaker 2: Yeah, so I want to.

930
00:41:43,040 --> 00:41:44,520
Speaker 5: I've been really thinking that I want to do an

931
00:41:44,560 --> 00:41:48,919
Speaker 5: intentional trip and yeah, I don't know if it's gonna

932
00:41:48,920 --> 00:41:51,600
Speaker 5: be mushrooms or what I'm gonna do, but when it

933
00:41:51,640 --> 00:41:53,359
Speaker 5: comes to me, because I don't just say that's kind

934
00:41:53,360 --> 00:41:55,880
Speaker 5: of stuff, will just find you when it's ready. But

935
00:41:56,040 --> 00:41:58,320
Speaker 5: I would kind of like to do that, and I

936
00:41:58,360 --> 00:42:01,479
Speaker 5: wouldn't be opposed to doing it like I did because

937
00:42:01,480 --> 00:42:03,520
Speaker 5: I feel like the experience can be heightened so much

938
00:42:03,560 --> 00:42:06,200
Speaker 5: and really used for some powerful shit when you tap

939
00:42:06,280 --> 00:42:07,439
Speaker 5: in the correct way.

940
00:42:07,880 --> 00:42:09,800
Speaker 4: Yeah, no, I agree.

941
00:42:11,080 --> 00:42:12,840
Speaker 2: I mean and I already know there's ship you have

942
00:42:12,880 --> 00:42:15,680
Speaker 2: to do with the right people. Yeah, the right mindset.

943
00:42:16,400 --> 00:42:17,600
Speaker 4: Well, I don't know about that.

944
00:42:17,640 --> 00:42:19,879
Speaker 3: There's never a good there's never the perfect mindset. That's

945
00:42:19,920 --> 00:42:22,680
Speaker 3: the thing too. But like I think the environment and

946
00:42:22,719 --> 00:42:25,040
Speaker 3: the people you're around is big. You don't want to

947
00:42:25,080 --> 00:42:28,040
Speaker 3: be doing trying to grow and do it with someone

948
00:42:28,040 --> 00:42:30,680
Speaker 3: that like maybe is stunting your growths or you don't

949
00:42:30,719 --> 00:42:34,400
Speaker 3: want to like, you know, do it with just people

950
00:42:34,440 --> 00:42:37,960
Speaker 3: who aren't like kind of doing it for their own reasons.

951
00:42:38,040 --> 00:42:43,080
Speaker 4: They're just doing it just to do it right. I

952
00:42:43,120 --> 00:42:45,200
Speaker 4: did a mushroom like I did a mushroom trip in

953
00:42:46,400 --> 00:42:46,919
Speaker 4: Big Bear.

954
00:42:47,160 --> 00:42:48,040
Speaker 2: Did you take a full eight?

955
00:42:48,480 --> 00:42:49,000
Speaker 4: Yeah?

956
00:42:49,080 --> 00:42:54,719
Speaker 3: And with intention, like set an intention took them like

957
00:42:55,640 --> 00:42:57,720
Speaker 3: and I have to say like that it was definitely

958
00:42:57,800 --> 00:43:00,320
Speaker 3: a difference between like I've definitely taken mushroom just to

959
00:43:00,360 --> 00:43:02,560
Speaker 3: take them just because they've been in an environment and

960
00:43:02,640 --> 00:43:04,120
Speaker 3: been like all right, I fuck it, I'll take it

961
00:43:04,160 --> 00:43:08,960
Speaker 3: with no like trajectory, like just taking it versus actually

962
00:43:09,000 --> 00:43:12,279
Speaker 3: setting some sort of intention having the support of someone

963
00:43:12,320 --> 00:43:15,160
Speaker 3: that maybe is either like has a similar intention or

964
00:43:16,280 --> 00:43:18,920
Speaker 3: wants to grow in some way too from the experience.

965
00:43:19,760 --> 00:43:24,640
Speaker 3: And I did it with my friend Aldo, and yeah,

966
00:43:24,680 --> 00:43:27,839
Speaker 3: I felt like it definitely was part. I can't say

967
00:43:27,840 --> 00:43:30,919
Speaker 3: it cured me the one time, but I think it

968
00:43:30,960 --> 00:43:35,000
Speaker 3: was part of the beginning of unpeeling shit, you know.

969
00:43:35,480 --> 00:43:39,000
Speaker 3: And like people do do mushrooms multiple times, I believe

970
00:43:39,239 --> 00:43:40,239
Speaker 3: to do that.

971
00:43:40,680 --> 00:43:42,239
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, I believe in that.

972
00:43:42,280 --> 00:43:45,359
Speaker 5: I mean honestly, I feel like for me, like an alternative,

973
00:43:45,920 --> 00:43:49,600
Speaker 5: alternative style of therapy that way, which is like necessary,

974
00:43:49,880 --> 00:43:51,359
Speaker 5: you know. And I've been even have been thinking about

975
00:43:51,360 --> 00:43:53,440
Speaker 5: all types of shit, but like I have a lifetime

976
00:43:53,480 --> 00:43:54,040
Speaker 5: to explore.

977
00:43:54,360 --> 00:43:56,040
Speaker 4: I had a Bradsha though, because I really want to

978
00:43:56,040 --> 00:43:57,360
Speaker 4: explore different types of feeling.

979
00:43:57,640 --> 00:43:59,480
Speaker 5: Yeah, and there are so many ways and we don't

980
00:43:59,480 --> 00:44:01,320
Speaker 5: have to be confined to like go get a therapist.

981
00:44:01,800 --> 00:44:03,719
Speaker 4: You know. There's this girl, I know, she's a therapist.

982
00:44:04,200 --> 00:44:08,000
Speaker 2: Bitch is crazy unstable, and.

983
00:44:07,920 --> 00:44:12,280
Speaker 3: I think that's anything there natural healers that bitch aren't crazy,

984
00:44:12,719 --> 00:44:14,720
Speaker 3: are you know what I mean? It works in both ways,

985
00:44:14,920 --> 00:44:16,920
Speaker 3: and I think it's just like you.

986
00:44:16,920 --> 00:44:18,880
Speaker 4: Have got to be able to sense it. You got

987
00:44:18,960 --> 00:44:19,279
Speaker 4: to just.

988
00:44:19,280 --> 00:44:27,320
Speaker 3: Explore what works for you, not but just whatever anyone says, yeah.

989
00:44:26,000 --> 00:44:29,040
Speaker 4: I need some. Because even Rashia asked me like what

990
00:44:29,120 --> 00:44:30,400
Speaker 4: kind of healing do you want? I was like, I

991
00:44:30,400 --> 00:44:30,719
Speaker 4: don't know.

992
00:44:30,760 --> 00:44:34,319
Speaker 2: I don't know, but the best I was just like.

993
00:44:34,320 --> 00:44:35,640
Speaker 4: I just need something.

994
00:44:36,200 --> 00:44:40,399
Speaker 3: She's like physical emotional, Like I was like, I think

995
00:44:40,520 --> 00:44:42,960
Speaker 3: more emotional, and maybe we.

996
00:44:42,920 --> 00:44:45,759
Speaker 5: Should design it like a.

997
00:44:48,440 --> 00:44:51,439
Speaker 2: Couple of things. We can try different ways and see

998
00:44:51,480 --> 00:44:52,000
Speaker 2: how it goes.

999
00:44:52,200 --> 00:44:54,360
Speaker 4: Oh my god, this just remind me of the movie Hustlers.

1000
00:44:54,640 --> 00:44:56,279
Speaker 4: Did you ever see that movie? I saw it on

1001
00:44:56,280 --> 00:44:56,760
Speaker 4: the plane.

1002
00:44:57,080 --> 00:45:00,200
Speaker 2: I started watching it. Luna was there Andanielle was like,

1003
00:45:00,440 --> 00:45:01,920
Speaker 2: do we have to turn it off? I'm like we

1004
00:45:02,040 --> 00:45:03,640
Speaker 2: have to, oh shit.

1005
00:45:06,160 --> 00:45:08,359
Speaker 4: I was like, yeah, we have to.

1006
00:45:08,360 --> 00:45:11,000
Speaker 2: Turn it off. They were like in the private room.

1007
00:45:11,320 --> 00:45:11,640
Speaker 1: I feel.

1008
00:45:16,800 --> 00:45:19,120
Speaker 5: At first, I was like they're dancing, and but then

1009
00:45:19,160 --> 00:45:22,760
Speaker 5: after we turned it off, Luna was like that nasty movie.

1010
00:45:23,600 --> 00:45:25,320
Speaker 4: So I was on the plane and.

1011
00:45:27,680 --> 00:45:33,080
Speaker 3: I was watching like was she watching I don't know, Frozen,

1012
00:45:33,120 --> 00:45:35,040
Speaker 3: I think, and I saw the Hustle.

1013
00:45:35,080 --> 00:45:36,640
Speaker 4: I saw Hustlers, and so I turned it on. There

1014
00:45:36,680 --> 00:45:38,520
Speaker 4: was like this like older like probably like.

1015
00:45:38,920 --> 00:45:42,880
Speaker 3: Sixty five year old white man like sitting next to me,

1016
00:45:42,920 --> 00:45:46,319
Speaker 3: a nice guy, and I turned on Hustlers and it's

1017
00:45:46,400 --> 00:45:48,440
Speaker 3: just like the opening scene is j Lo on the

1018
00:45:48,560 --> 00:45:50,359
Speaker 3: pole fucking killing it.

1019
00:45:50,480 --> 00:45:54,000
Speaker 4: First of all, looking thought point like, I was like,

1020
00:45:54,200 --> 00:45:55,040
Speaker 4: god damn.

1021
00:45:56,000 --> 00:46:00,200
Speaker 3: Like I literally was like, oh my god, what you

1022
00:46:00,320 --> 00:46:01,080
Speaker 3: get my shit together?

1023
00:46:01,320 --> 00:46:04,080
Speaker 4: Right? And he looked over.

1024
00:46:04,200 --> 00:46:05,680
Speaker 3: He started looking at it, and I could tell he

1025
00:46:05,719 --> 00:46:08,960
Speaker 3: was like kind of judging me, but also like couldn't

1026
00:46:08,960 --> 00:46:09,560
Speaker 3: stop watching it.

1027
00:46:10,200 --> 00:46:10,919
Speaker 4: And then he kept looking.

1028
00:46:11,000 --> 00:46:12,399
Speaker 3: He was like looking over at I really to see

1029
00:46:12,400 --> 00:46:14,160
Speaker 3: if she was looking at the movie, and but she

1030
00:46:14,239 --> 00:46:16,480
Speaker 3: was so into Frozen she'd even like look over one time.

1031
00:46:16,760 --> 00:46:18,200
Speaker 4: But at one point I was like, should I turn

1032
00:46:18,239 --> 00:46:21,759
Speaker 4: this off? I mean, this is getting lost sexy. I

1033
00:46:21,800 --> 00:46:23,200
Speaker 4: was like, oh shit.

1034
00:46:23,800 --> 00:46:29,080
Speaker 2: J Low is uh going for it? Yeah right, but she.

1035
00:46:29,040 --> 00:46:31,520
Speaker 4: Didn't look over it. Definitely is too mature for children.

1036
00:46:31,640 --> 00:46:33,200
Speaker 4: Absolutely wouldn't recommend.

1037
00:46:33,320 --> 00:46:35,080
Speaker 5: Well, this thing was like there was nothing else going on,

1038
00:46:35,160 --> 00:46:36,919
Speaker 5: Len just watching this skain. At first, I was like, oh, yeah,

1039
00:46:36,920 --> 00:46:39,399
Speaker 5: she's just doing the dancing, you know whatever, but then

1040
00:46:39,680 --> 00:46:42,080
Speaker 5: like I don't know what happened in the VIP she

1041
00:46:42,160 --> 00:46:43,400
Speaker 5: was touching the other girls boobs.

1042
00:46:43,480 --> 00:46:45,520
Speaker 2: I'm like, okay, this bitch turned it off.

1043
00:46:45,560 --> 00:46:47,640
Speaker 5: Okay, I'm not explaining this for this fucking five year

1044
00:46:47,640 --> 00:46:48,120
Speaker 5: old today.

1045
00:46:48,560 --> 00:46:50,200
Speaker 2: I feel like not today.

1046
00:46:50,200 --> 00:46:52,200
Speaker 4: Okay, so I don't feel like doing this today.

1047
00:46:52,280 --> 00:46:55,879
Speaker 2: Yeah, this is too many levels. There's money. I can't

1048
00:46:55,920 --> 00:46:56,560
Speaker 2: explain it right.

1049
00:47:00,680 --> 00:47:02,080
Speaker 4: Yeah. What do you think of the movie?

1050
00:47:02,440 --> 00:47:07,920
Speaker 5: I never watched it turned off at the fucking second lesbians. Yeah,

1051
00:47:08,120 --> 00:47:14,400
Speaker 5: the private dance, Like I'm crazy, but I can't justify

1052
00:47:14,400 --> 00:47:14,960
Speaker 5: this right now.

1053
00:47:15,360 --> 00:47:17,080
Speaker 4: No, yeah, I get it.

1054
00:47:17,560 --> 00:47:20,080
Speaker 3: It's not appropriate for kids. It sort of show your

1055
00:47:20,120 --> 00:47:22,200
Speaker 3: kids just don't need to see a period, you know

1056
00:47:22,239 --> 00:47:22,600
Speaker 3: what I mean?

1057
00:47:22,640 --> 00:47:24,960
Speaker 4: Why why? I mean they will, they will, but like,

1058
00:47:25,040 --> 00:47:25,680
Speaker 4: why be the.

1059
00:47:25,640 --> 00:47:28,680
Speaker 3: One that has to always introduce the conversation. Let's have

1060
00:47:29,239 --> 00:47:31,320
Speaker 3: they see it. Okay, I'm not gonna sit here and

1061
00:47:31,360 --> 00:47:36,000
Speaker 3: watch Hustlers with you. No, although that's what I did.

1062
00:47:37,520 --> 00:47:40,319
Speaker 4: I did that right next although she didn't look over.

1063
00:47:41,440 --> 00:47:43,640
Speaker 3: Okay, I'm trying to do this eyeliner right now. I

1064
00:47:43,719 --> 00:47:45,680
Speaker 3: just like my makeup skills right now or just not.

1065
00:47:46,880 --> 00:47:48,920
Speaker 4: They're not really killing it, don't.

1066
00:47:49,040 --> 00:47:50,839
Speaker 2: I told you we're not gonna be good at this.

1067
00:47:50,960 --> 00:47:52,600
Speaker 2: I think I should have put on a dark brown

1068
00:47:52,719 --> 00:47:54,200
Speaker 2: lip and not a black Why.

1069
00:47:54,000 --> 00:47:55,160
Speaker 4: Are you overthinking the black?

1070
00:47:55,480 --> 00:47:55,600
Speaker 2: Now?

1071
00:47:55,640 --> 00:47:57,360
Speaker 4: You think you're like a goth or something.

1072
00:47:57,600 --> 00:47:59,839
Speaker 2: I know five minutes once you put your dress on, okay,

1073
00:48:00,040 --> 00:48:00,640
Speaker 2: put the lashes on.

1074
00:48:00,680 --> 00:48:05,200
Speaker 4: If you put lashes. Wow, who knew this is gonna

1075
00:48:05,200 --> 00:48:16,280
Speaker 4: be so complicated? What's your favorite holiday moment? That's your Fliday?

1076
00:48:17,360 --> 00:48:18,919
Speaker 2: What the fuck are you talking about?

1077
00:48:18,960 --> 00:48:21,960
Speaker 5: Okay, wh didn't hear my favorite holiday memory?

1078
00:48:22,200 --> 00:48:25,120
Speaker 2: Oh my god, oh my god, no wonder. I'm such

1079
00:48:25,120 --> 00:48:29,560
Speaker 2: a fucking atheist yo. So my parents don't make anything

1080
00:48:29,640 --> 00:48:30,160
Speaker 2: a big deal.

1081
00:48:30,239 --> 00:48:32,600
Speaker 5: Everything is very like low key in my house, Like

1082
00:48:32,600 --> 00:48:35,600
Speaker 5: it's your birthday, okay, go to Beni Hannah, you know,

1083
00:48:35,680 --> 00:48:36,000
Speaker 5: like I.

1084
00:48:35,920 --> 00:48:37,239
Speaker 2: Have birthdays every year.

1085
00:48:37,360 --> 00:48:40,239
Speaker 5: Christmas I remember, like Danielle's mom, my best friend's mom

1086
00:48:40,280 --> 00:48:41,840
Speaker 5: is super festive.

1087
00:48:42,000 --> 00:48:43,520
Speaker 2: Everything you get a gift for.

1088
00:48:44,440 --> 00:48:46,960
Speaker 4: So Danielle is her mom and you're your parents.

1089
00:48:47,440 --> 00:48:51,799
Speaker 5: Yeah, and like like she gives me a fucking Easter

1090
00:48:51,880 --> 00:48:53,360
Speaker 5: basket till this day her mom.

1091
00:48:53,280 --> 00:48:55,800
Speaker 4: Like, oh my god, so sweet. Yeah, like your bylash,

1092
00:48:55,840 --> 00:48:57,359
Speaker 4: clue m this one.

1093
00:48:58,000 --> 00:49:02,040
Speaker 5: So anyway, one year I told my parents, like, you

1094
00:49:02,080 --> 00:49:05,680
Speaker 5: don't even buy me fucking One year when I was ten,

1095
00:49:05,760 --> 00:49:07,560
Speaker 5: I think we went to Utah went on a snowdrip

1096
00:49:07,640 --> 00:49:09,160
Speaker 5: and they're like, we're gonna go on the ski trip,

1097
00:49:09,239 --> 00:49:11,480
Speaker 5: so we're not going to have Christmas. Cool And I

1098
00:49:11,480 --> 00:49:13,560
Speaker 5: was like fine ever since and then never they said

1099
00:49:13,560 --> 00:49:16,120
Speaker 5: fuck Christmas. So I was like, you don't even do

1100
00:49:16,200 --> 00:49:20,120
Speaker 5: you don't even buy us gifts for Christmas. They're like, oh,

1101
00:49:20,200 --> 00:49:22,480
Speaker 5: you just talking that ship trying to be a big

1102
00:49:22,520 --> 00:49:23,000
Speaker 5: ass kid.

1103
00:49:23,040 --> 00:49:24,920
Speaker 2: I was probably like in tenth grade, oh my god,

1104
00:49:25,480 --> 00:49:26,000
Speaker 2: maybe like in.

1105
00:49:26,040 --> 00:49:28,120
Speaker 4: Eighth grade it was still bothering you.

1106
00:49:28,400 --> 00:49:30,600
Speaker 2: I was like, this is ridiculous. Her mom does all

1107
00:49:30,600 --> 00:49:35,080
Speaker 2: these other things. They gave zero fucks. So Christmas comes,

1108
00:49:35,920 --> 00:49:40,560
Speaker 2: they had like makeshift put what they had.

1109
00:49:41,800 --> 00:49:43,040
Speaker 4: Oh god, they had.

1110
00:49:43,000 --> 00:49:46,719
Speaker 5: Clearly like the night before went to Marshalls, left the

1111
00:49:46,880 --> 00:49:50,600
Speaker 5: tags on it, these all these Marshall's outfits that I hated.

1112
00:49:53,640 --> 00:49:56,279
Speaker 5: In fact, I was like, are you fucking kidding me?

1113
00:49:56,520 --> 00:50:00,600
Speaker 5: Did you go to Marshall's and you said that, you bitch?

1114
00:50:02,120 --> 00:50:05,080
Speaker 5: It was a very poor Did you even look at

1115
00:50:05,120 --> 00:50:05,800
Speaker 5: my list?

1116
00:50:07,360 --> 00:50:11,319
Speaker 4: You're like my list? Oh my god, my parents. No,

1117
00:50:11,440 --> 00:50:14,279
Speaker 4: I'm remembered my lists, actually write them down.

1118
00:50:14,520 --> 00:50:16,839
Speaker 5: Yeah, like look, you know when I expected that list

1119
00:50:16,880 --> 00:50:18,520
Speaker 5: to be fulfilled? Remember Furby, that was.

1120
00:50:18,440 --> 00:50:20,520
Speaker 3: Like the first man if. That was our first attempt

1121
00:50:20,560 --> 00:50:25,000
Speaker 3: at manifestation. Oh yeah, it is really honestly, that's true.

1122
00:50:26,320 --> 00:50:29,600
Speaker 3: It's valid. Right, I'm gonna tell her I to write

1123
00:50:29,600 --> 00:50:32,960
Speaker 3: her ship down. I repays me for feeding her? Do

1124
00:50:33,040 --> 00:50:35,000
Speaker 3: I tell you that?

1125
00:50:35,800 --> 00:50:36,840
Speaker 2: What are you talking about?

1126
00:50:37,239 --> 00:50:39,680
Speaker 3: She has a little coin purse and every time I

1127
00:50:39,680 --> 00:50:44,719
Speaker 3: give her breakfast, she comes in, she gives me money,

1128
00:50:44,760 --> 00:50:48,160
Speaker 3: she goes, thanks, Mommy, it pays me. I'm like, and

1129
00:50:48,200 --> 00:50:50,200
Speaker 3: it's something in me is really proud. I'm like, oh,

1130
00:50:50,400 --> 00:50:52,239
Speaker 3: I did not teach her that. I was like, what,

1131
00:50:53,920 --> 00:50:54,520
Speaker 3: I love it.

1132
00:50:54,680 --> 00:50:56,000
Speaker 4: I think it's hilarious.

1133
00:50:56,080 --> 00:50:58,359
Speaker 3: I'm like, yeah, people need to get paid for their work.

1134
00:50:58,680 --> 00:51:00,360
Speaker 3: And you're already have monny.

1135
00:51:00,680 --> 00:51:02,960
Speaker 4: Yeah, I remember that, right, I remember that feeling.

1136
00:51:04,400 --> 00:51:05,520
Speaker 2: That is so funny.

1137
00:51:09,600 --> 00:51:09,799
Speaker 4: Yeah.

1138
00:51:09,840 --> 00:51:12,160
Speaker 5: So I just don't believe in like jumping into the

1139
00:51:12,160 --> 00:51:14,799
Speaker 5: stress of making you have to feel. You have to

1140
00:51:14,800 --> 00:51:18,480
Speaker 5: get Christmas gifts, you have to do this, like my

1141
00:51:18,520 --> 00:51:23,080
Speaker 5: baby Daddy's family is super on the fucking holiday shit too,

1142
00:51:23,280 --> 00:51:24,680
Speaker 5: like dinners like.

1143
00:51:25,200 --> 00:51:25,960
Speaker 4: And I'm a heathen.

1144
00:51:26,040 --> 00:51:28,720
Speaker 5: So when I I told you, even before we had kids,

1145
00:51:28,719 --> 00:51:30,520
Speaker 5: they would like wake him up at seven am on

1146
00:51:30,600 --> 00:51:36,040
Speaker 5: Christmas morning? What we were like twenty five. I was like,

1147
00:51:36,080 --> 00:51:37,439
Speaker 5: why do we have to pick up seven the morning?

1148
00:51:37,480 --> 00:51:40,359
Speaker 5: You're a grown ass man, there are no kids here.

1149
00:51:41,120 --> 00:51:41,800
Speaker 4: Oh my god?

1150
00:51:42,120 --> 00:51:45,360
Speaker 5: So he guilt me if you're not getting him griss,

1151
00:51:45,400 --> 00:51:47,000
Speaker 5: I'm like, you don't even do what you're supposed to.

1152
00:51:47,120 --> 00:51:50,160
Speaker 4: Don my ex did that one time? Or he told

1153
00:51:50,160 --> 00:51:50,560
Speaker 4: his mom.

1154
00:51:50,800 --> 00:51:53,680
Speaker 5: Yeah, and he told his mom and his mom said, yeah,

1155
00:51:54,040 --> 00:51:56,799
Speaker 5: like what And I'm feelings really hurt.

1156
00:51:56,880 --> 00:51:58,480
Speaker 2: I was like, my feelings.

1157
00:51:58,040 --> 00:51:59,840
Speaker 4: Told me that you didn't give him a present. I

1158
00:51:59,920 --> 00:52:02,360
Speaker 4: was like, are you absolutely kidding?

1159
00:52:02,560 --> 00:52:02,880
Speaker 1: Yes?

1160
00:52:03,960 --> 00:52:05,600
Speaker 4: And the fact that you're even telling me this way now.

1161
00:52:05,520 --> 00:52:07,480
Speaker 3: I'm gonna pass out right then you thought it was okay,

1162
00:52:08,760 --> 00:52:10,719
Speaker 3: I was like, please tell me this.

1163
00:52:10,719 --> 00:52:16,719
Speaker 2: Is not happening. Taking a little strips hear Patreon?

1164
00:52:18,080 --> 00:52:25,160
Speaker 3: Oh yeah, if you want to see Jamila's back, nipples, breasts,

1165
00:52:25,160 --> 00:52:35,040
Speaker 3: and vagina, join Patreon. Oh wow, there she is.

1166
00:52:35,040 --> 00:52:36,080
Speaker 2: These look crazy?

1167
00:52:36,520 --> 00:52:37,480
Speaker 4: I have other ones?

1168
00:52:38,800 --> 00:52:40,239
Speaker 2: Right? This is too heavy?

1169
00:52:40,880 --> 00:52:44,400
Speaker 4: You're long? There's this too? Are the shorter?

1170
00:52:46,920 --> 00:52:48,960
Speaker 2: What about these? These are from? I think I've used

1171
00:52:49,000 --> 00:52:50,680
Speaker 2: these before them?

1172
00:52:50,840 --> 00:52:54,200
Speaker 4: Those looks better? You is thick? Do you want this?

1173
00:52:54,360 --> 00:52:55,960
Speaker 2: I don't have that big of an eye for all that.

1174
00:52:56,360 --> 00:52:57,359
Speaker 4: The scissors? Do we get them?

1175
00:52:57,560 --> 00:52:59,080
Speaker 2: I think he's already cut. I think I have more names?

1176
00:52:59,360 --> 00:52:59,759
Speaker 2: Can I word?

1177
00:53:00,280 --> 00:53:01,920
Speaker 4: Yeah?

1178
00:53:02,440 --> 00:53:04,560
Speaker 3: Just listen to those ladies listening that are wearing their

1179
00:53:04,640 --> 00:53:06,280
Speaker 3: lashes like five times.

1180
00:53:06,719 --> 00:53:08,560
Speaker 2: No, I thought that was one time.

1181
00:53:08,920 --> 00:53:12,600
Speaker 4: No, some people, And honestly, if you're out there and

1182
00:53:12,760 --> 00:53:15,239
Speaker 4: keep your lashes on, you able to sleep? I need

1183
00:53:15,280 --> 00:53:16,399
Speaker 4: you them off.

1184
00:53:16,560 --> 00:53:19,680
Speaker 5: Just get lash extensions at Mila's Meblespa. No, but you

1185
00:53:19,680 --> 00:53:21,680
Speaker 5: know what I'm saying, Like, some girls will keep lashes

1186
00:53:21,719 --> 00:53:22,720
Speaker 5: on for like days.

1187
00:53:23,040 --> 00:53:25,480
Speaker 2: It's not good how they always look crazy.

1188
00:53:26,640 --> 00:53:28,600
Speaker 4: It's just not good for your eyes. It's just not

1189
00:53:28,640 --> 00:53:31,120
Speaker 4: a good look too. It's just I'm just gonna keep

1190
00:53:31,120 --> 00:53:31,600
Speaker 4: it real with you.

1191
00:53:31,719 --> 00:53:32,000
Speaker 1: I'm not.

1192
00:53:33,440 --> 00:53:36,000
Speaker 5: And sometimes lashes are too long, you guys, you can't

1193
00:53:36,000 --> 00:53:36,759
Speaker 5: if they look like you're.

1194
00:53:36,640 --> 00:53:38,080
Speaker 2: About to fly the fuck away.

1195
00:53:38,760 --> 00:53:42,800
Speaker 5: They're too fucking long. Some look at people like, bitch,

1196
00:53:43,040 --> 00:53:46,520
Speaker 5: that's too much. It is the daytime, Okay, what time

1197
00:53:46,600 --> 00:53:49,120
Speaker 5: is it we've been it's six o eight. Okay, we

1198
00:53:49,200 --> 00:53:52,800
Speaker 5: gotta we gotta go anyway, don't let other people shows

1199
00:53:52,800 --> 00:53:53,520
Speaker 5: you up for the holidays.

1200
00:53:53,560 --> 00:53:54,719
Speaker 2: If you don't want to do shit, you don't have

1201
00:53:54,760 --> 00:53:55,560
Speaker 2: to do shit. Look at me.

1202
00:53:55,600 --> 00:53:59,239
Speaker 5: I came out find my parents barely did shit. And

1203
00:53:59,280 --> 00:54:02,359
Speaker 5: you know, and I'm totally reasonable human being because of it.

1204
00:54:03,120 --> 00:54:06,360
Speaker 5: Everything doesn't require a huge fucking deal, especially when it's fake.

1205
00:54:07,760 --> 00:54:09,319
Speaker 2: Fucking Santa Claus is not real.

1206
00:54:09,440 --> 00:54:11,000
Speaker 4: No, tell your kids you love them.

1207
00:54:11,239 --> 00:54:13,160
Speaker 3: I mean, you can get them a little something because

1208
00:54:13,200 --> 00:54:15,960
Speaker 3: it's just it's the I love seeing Iris's face light up,

1209
00:54:16,000 --> 00:54:19,000
Speaker 3: you know, But they still appreciate the little shit, you know,

1210
00:54:19,080 --> 00:54:21,040
Speaker 3: Like our kids are young, and even if you start

1211
00:54:21,040 --> 00:54:22,640
Speaker 3: them to appreciate the little shit when they're young, when

1212
00:54:22,640 --> 00:54:27,680
Speaker 3: they're older, they don't have my expectations.

1213
00:54:27,680 --> 00:54:36,319
Speaker 4: Great, it's not science. I don't know what I'm gonna

1214
00:54:36,320 --> 00:54:36,879
Speaker 4: do with this hair.

1215
00:54:40,520 --> 00:54:44,879
Speaker 3: My New Year's resolutions is, like I said earlier, I've

1216
00:54:44,920 --> 00:54:47,880
Speaker 3: been saying, is to follow my intuition.

1217
00:54:49,000 --> 00:54:53,200
Speaker 4: And not expect people to move like me.

1218
00:54:56,200 --> 00:54:59,880
Speaker 3: And it doesn't mean I'm the right way either, but

1219
00:55:00,080 --> 00:55:01,959
Speaker 3: I have to acknowledge if the way someone is moving

1220
00:55:02,000 --> 00:55:03,239
Speaker 3: does not serve me.

1221
00:55:03,560 --> 00:55:07,840
Speaker 4: And I don't know, not be forgiving.

1222
00:55:08,840 --> 00:55:12,200
Speaker 3: Twenty twenty is the year of unforgiveness, you know why

1223
00:55:12,400 --> 00:55:14,680
Speaker 3: because and not unforgiveness, it's more so like.

1224
00:55:16,280 --> 00:55:21,240
Speaker 4: Not ignoring the signs, like we do that so often.

1225
00:55:21,280 --> 00:55:23,160
Speaker 4: And I mean that not in just love.

1226
00:55:23,239 --> 00:55:26,400
Speaker 3: I mean that in friendship and just even situations that

1227
00:55:26,480 --> 00:55:29,319
Speaker 3: just don't serve you. Why stay? Why hang around? Why

1228
00:55:29,400 --> 00:55:31,839
Speaker 3: feel like you have to participate? Why go out if

1229
00:55:31,880 --> 00:55:33,359
Speaker 3: it doesn't if you don't really need to go out,

1230
00:55:33,400 --> 00:55:35,040
Speaker 3: Like just all things in.

1231
00:55:34,960 --> 00:55:38,960
Speaker 2: General, like go with what you feel and.

1232
00:55:39,719 --> 00:55:41,440
Speaker 4: Make this money.

1233
00:55:41,560 --> 00:55:45,399
Speaker 3: I think twenty twenty is a year of abundance in

1234
00:55:45,719 --> 00:55:51,759
Speaker 3: finance in different ways, and we should just live in

1235
00:55:51,760 --> 00:55:57,320
Speaker 3: that mindset anyway, especially in the finance department because it

1236
00:55:57,560 --> 00:56:02,279
Speaker 3: just got bills and children's Look at Geisha right now,

1237
00:56:03,000 --> 00:56:05,440
Speaker 3: you giving me like really like golden Geisha vibes.

1238
00:56:06,400 --> 00:56:08,439
Speaker 4: I like it. Are you feeling it? Yeah?

1239
00:56:08,480 --> 00:56:08,640
Speaker 1: Good?

1240
00:56:08,760 --> 00:56:10,399
Speaker 4: Damn? But is this last tubig oh?

1241
00:56:10,480 --> 00:56:11,000
Speaker 5: I like it?

1242
00:56:11,480 --> 00:56:11,719
Speaker 4: Yeah?

1243
00:56:12,680 --> 00:56:17,360
Speaker 5: Be gentle on yourself and commit to doing the work,

1244
00:56:17,560 --> 00:56:21,320
Speaker 5: which means checking in with yourself and.

1245
00:56:22,640 --> 00:56:25,319
Speaker 2: Asking why is my behavior like this?

1246
00:56:25,560 --> 00:56:28,160
Speaker 5: Is there some things I need to examine as to

1247
00:56:28,280 --> 00:56:33,080
Speaker 5: why I'm in this cycle on this pattern, because Lord knows,

1248
00:56:33,160 --> 00:56:35,680
Speaker 5: that's what my lesson is for twenty twenty, And to

1249
00:56:35,760 --> 00:56:38,319
Speaker 5: explore those things and give my time, give yourself the

1250
00:56:38,360 --> 00:56:41,040
Speaker 5: time and space to actually do that. Be gentle while

1251
00:56:41,040 --> 00:56:43,000
Speaker 5: you're doing that, and so that you can get to

1252
00:56:43,040 --> 00:56:46,680
Speaker 5: the next place. I feel like to have to unlock something,

1253
00:56:46,760 --> 00:56:47,680
Speaker 5: connect to something.

1254
00:56:48,080 --> 00:56:49,799
Speaker 4: I think also that like you have to know it's

1255
00:56:49,840 --> 00:56:52,800
Speaker 4: not going to be fun all the time. It's probably

1256
00:56:52,880 --> 00:56:53,480
Speaker 4: growth is.

1257
00:56:53,480 --> 00:56:59,799
Speaker 3: Uncomfortable and like changing habits, it doesn't feel good, you know,

1258
00:57:00,040 --> 00:57:00,760
Speaker 3: it really doesn't.

1259
00:57:01,400 --> 00:57:06,200
Speaker 4: And not chasing the feel good because the feel good

1260
00:57:06,280 --> 00:57:08,040
Speaker 4: is always gives you a hangover.

1261
00:57:10,719 --> 00:57:12,880
Speaker 2: Feel good, be giving your mother. Let's let's as we

1262
00:57:12,920 --> 00:57:16,680
Speaker 2: go out partake in this evening. Let's remember feel good

1263
00:57:16,760 --> 00:57:17,440
Speaker 2: gives you a hand.

1264
00:57:21,880 --> 00:57:24,200
Speaker 4: It's like it isn't. I feel like, oh my god,

1265
00:57:24,200 --> 00:57:26,880
Speaker 4: I'm getting high. I'm getting really deep, but like go there.

1266
00:57:28,520 --> 00:57:33,040
Speaker 4: I feel like feeling good is not sustainable and you

1267
00:57:33,120 --> 00:57:36,800
Speaker 4: want to not just feel good, you want to be good.

1268
00:57:37,480 --> 00:57:39,360
Speaker 4: You know, I don't know what that feel. There's maybe

1269
00:57:39,360 --> 00:57:39,840
Speaker 4: a better.

1270
00:57:39,680 --> 00:57:42,680
Speaker 5: Word, but no, that's true, Like yeah, yeah, you know

1271
00:57:42,760 --> 00:57:45,920
Speaker 5: you're gonna always go through a fluctuation of emotions. You're

1272
00:57:45,920 --> 00:57:48,400
Speaker 5: gonna feel angry, you're gonna feel sad, You're gonna feel

1273
00:57:48,480 --> 00:57:49,480
Speaker 5: like you should be doing better.

1274
00:57:49,920 --> 00:57:51,360
Speaker 2: That's that's constant.

1275
00:57:51,640 --> 00:57:55,200
Speaker 5: But if you feel good that you like in your

1276
00:57:55,240 --> 00:57:57,560
Speaker 5: body and your heart and your soul and where you're at,

1277
00:57:57,880 --> 00:58:01,200
Speaker 5: then it's easier to let those emotions flow come and go.

1278
00:58:01,600 --> 00:58:03,080
Speaker 5: But when we're not where we need to be, and

1279
00:58:03,080 --> 00:58:05,120
Speaker 5: we haven't explored the things we need to explore.

1280
00:58:05,440 --> 00:58:06,880
Speaker 2: It's going to be hard to do that.

1281
00:58:09,960 --> 00:58:13,640
Speaker 4: Yeah, amen, do the mascara.

1282
00:58:14,240 --> 00:58:17,480
Speaker 2: No, all this shit, we don't have any mascara.

1283
00:58:17,800 --> 00:58:19,360
Speaker 4: Where the fuck is the mascara?

1284
00:58:20,840 --> 00:58:26,920
Speaker 3: Okay, Well, I hope you guys have an amazing holiday

1285
00:58:26,960 --> 00:58:32,320
Speaker 3: today that you are with familia or with I don't know,

1286
00:58:32,400 --> 00:58:36,000
Speaker 3: your people, your kids, yourself, chilling happy.

1287
00:58:36,720 --> 00:58:38,440
Speaker 2: I'm not doing anything special. It's not that big of

1288
00:58:38,480 --> 00:58:40,320
Speaker 2: a fucking deal. It's another day. Yeah.

1289
00:58:40,360 --> 00:58:43,400
Speaker 4: But also, like you know, take a second, because everybody

1290
00:58:43,400 --> 00:58:48,560
Speaker 4: else is. That's true. You know, everyone's busy. Anyway, go

1291
00:58:48,640 --> 00:58:49,800
Speaker 4: do something nice for yourself.

1292
00:58:49,800 --> 00:58:52,040
Speaker 5: Trying to Mariah Carey's Christmas album that always makes a

1293
00:58:52,080 --> 00:58:52,720
Speaker 5: girl feel good.

1294
00:58:54,000 --> 00:58:57,320
Speaker 4: Yeah, that's true. Well, we will see you guys fucking

1295
00:58:57,400 --> 00:58:58,000
Speaker 4: next year.

1296
00:58:59,120 --> 00:59:00,800
Speaker 2: Boa baby.

1297
00:59:00,840 --> 00:59:02,480
Speaker 5: Oh my god, we're going to be a year two

1298
00:59:02,680 --> 00:59:05,479
Speaker 5: of podcasting almost January February March.

1299
00:59:05,680 --> 00:59:07,080
Speaker 2: So if January first.

1300
00:59:06,800 --> 00:59:10,040
Speaker 5: Well, Mark will be ninety days basically away from two

1301
00:59:10,160 --> 00:59:10,919
Speaker 5: years of this shit.

1302
00:59:11,120 --> 00:59:15,280
Speaker 3: Wow, that's been with us for two years almost.

1303
00:59:16,000 --> 00:59:17,840
Speaker 4: Oh my god, that's so cool.

1304
00:59:18,680 --> 00:59:22,160
Speaker 2: Congratulations Amo, Yeah, that's cool.

1305
00:59:22,240 --> 00:59:24,480
Speaker 3: Hello to all the people that we've been with us

1306
00:59:24,480 --> 00:59:27,560
Speaker 3: from the beginning, and hello welcome the people that maybe

1307
00:59:27,600 --> 00:59:29,800
Speaker 3: just joined in halfway through or this maybe this is

1308
00:59:29,800 --> 00:59:30,680
Speaker 3: your first episode.

1309
00:59:30,800 --> 00:59:35,280
Speaker 5: But let this be proof that we are capable of

1310
00:59:35,320 --> 00:59:38,000
Speaker 5: committing and doing shit. We are and when it's right,

1311
00:59:38,080 --> 00:59:39,480
Speaker 5: it will flow and it will continue.

1312
00:59:39,520 --> 00:59:42,760
Speaker 3: And you know you remember that too because you like,

1313
00:59:42,760 --> 00:59:44,640
Speaker 3: like what, I can't believe we've done this for two

1314
00:59:44,720 --> 00:59:47,840
Speaker 3: years too, But knowing that, like you can, you can

1315
00:59:48,120 --> 00:59:51,960
Speaker 3: let go. Yeah, because you you've sat onn consistently and

1316
00:59:52,000 --> 00:59:54,000
Speaker 3: done something. You just have to be consistent with anything

1317
00:59:54,040 --> 00:59:54,960
Speaker 3: you do, you know what I mean?

1318
00:59:55,400 --> 00:59:58,960
Speaker 5: And consistent with with thinking a certain way and consistent.

1319
00:59:58,600 --> 01:00:01,240
Speaker 4: It's everything, like even with me, like trusting my intuition.

1320
01:00:01,400 --> 01:00:03,560
Speaker 3: I just need to consistently do that and I won't

1321
01:00:04,200 --> 01:00:10,080
Speaker 3: question myself so much, you know, show up for yourself because.

1322
01:00:10,400 --> 01:00:12,640
Speaker 2: That shit is important and it pays off.

1323
01:00:12,960 --> 01:00:24,680
Speaker 4: Yeah, you die alone, couldn't it. I mean, the truth is,

1324
01:00:25,040 --> 01:00:25,760
Speaker 4: it couldn't help that.

1325
01:00:25,800 --> 01:00:28,320
Speaker 2: The truth is, we do die alone. And there's something

1326
01:00:28,440 --> 01:00:30,000
Speaker 2: rather beautiful about that. I know.

1327
01:00:30,080 --> 01:00:32,080
Speaker 4: That's why I don't look at it in that negative way.

1328
01:00:32,120 --> 01:00:34,640
Speaker 3: I think that's why people think I'm dark and weird

1329
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Speaker 3: and ship but I'm like, I like, I think there's

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01:00:36,760 --> 01:00:40,040
Speaker 3: so much beauty in like the beginning and end of things.

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Speaker 5: But also we never really die exactly. Oh my god,

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Speaker 5: I saw Derek to grace. You know what I'm talking about.

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01:00:48,800 --> 01:00:50,720
Speaker 5: His daughter is trying to like pack the guns. He

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Speaker 5: has that monoi and I didn't read the whole thing.

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Speaker 5: But the first thing is to tell your kids we

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Speaker 5: should relook it up. Actually he said never say die.

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Speaker 4: M like, that's true.

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Speaker 5: I like transition because it's true, and I think that's

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Speaker 5: a better way to teach.

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Speaker 4: You're right, and I does say die now, but this

1341
01:01:07,520 --> 01:01:08,120
Speaker 4: is the age I.

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Speaker 2: Can take it.

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Speaker 5: Yeah, if we can just say transition, transitioned, it's a

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01:01:11,520 --> 01:01:13,760
Speaker 5: totally different perspective of death.

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Speaker 2: I'm gonna have this fucking lash doesn't say my goddamn.

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Speaker 4: Just put so much bronzer on. Who the fuck do

1347
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Speaker 4: I think I am?

1348
01:01:20,800 --> 01:01:25,480
Speaker 3: Holiday ornamenting, sparkly ass ornament?

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Speaker 2: You're that bitch? Oh what my guy? Bitch? Can you

1350
01:01:29,840 --> 01:01:32,120
Speaker 2: help me this lash?

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Speaker 4: That doesn't sound good?

1352
01:01:33,760 --> 01:01:36,280
Speaker 2: Hang me when I get hanged?

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01:01:36,600 --> 01:01:37,360
Speaker 4: No, I don't know.

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Speaker 3: I thought I was thinking more bondage, but then I

1355
01:01:39,600 --> 01:01:42,280
Speaker 3: got slavery and it got weird.

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Speaker 2: I think you want to say, like suspended. I met

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Speaker 2: like yeah, you can't say hang.

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Speaker 5: I imagine I know your man like, oh that much

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01:01:53,760 --> 01:01:54,920
Speaker 5: kind of glue type of situation.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, you just gotta I want to try. Okay, just

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Speaker 4: let it.

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Speaker 3: You can't put it on immediately. I think this one

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Speaker 3: is you have to get it tacky and then you

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Speaker 3: put it on. Yeah, all right, let's get dressed. Goodbye,

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Speaker 3: Happy holidays, Happy New Year, and we'll.

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Speaker 4: Catch you on the flip side. Love you please,