WEBVTT - Make Peace or Die

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<v Speaker 1>Third Squad is a documentary podcast about war. Every episode

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<v Speaker 1>contains strong language and descriptions of violence that may not

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<v Speaker 1>be suitable for all listeners. I don't want to offend

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<v Speaker 1>you with my skepticism. You're not going to because I

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<v Speaker 1>like you, man, I like you. I don't want to

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<v Speaker 1>be a fucking dick, but you're not a dick. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>just saying, what's gonna fucking change? Right? Maybe nothing? Probably nothing?

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<v Speaker 1>But you know what will change if I don't do it?

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<v Speaker 1>Definitely nothing. I'm Elliott Woods. This is Third Squad Episode seven,

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<v Speaker 1>make Peace or Die. Alright, So we've got our side

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<v Speaker 1>by side a t V, all geared up, ready for

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<v Speaker 1>an adventure. David rich Volsky is behind the wheel, wearing

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<v Speaker 1>a mad bomber hat, got our goggles on, shiploads of clothes.

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<v Speaker 1>It's what about five degrees outside something like that, all right,

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<v Speaker 1>and we are ready to rock. Dude, this thing's gonna

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<v Speaker 1>sucking all ass. There's one Third Squad marine we couldn't

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<v Speaker 1>reach by road. I mean it was possible, but there

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<v Speaker 1>just wasn't time to squeeze an extra five thousand miles

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<v Speaker 1>into the itinerer. So I hopped on a flight to

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<v Speaker 1>Alaska to meet David rich Volski, who lives about an

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<v Speaker 1>hour northeast of Anchorage. Check check, check, Why aren't you

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<v Speaker 1>showing on my channels anymore? Tommy had to go home

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<v Speaker 1>for a few days, so I'm flying solo on this one,

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<v Speaker 1>getting familiar with the recorder while wearing mittens the size

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<v Speaker 1>of boxing gloves. Super fun. Ready for me to go? Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna spend the tires to see if I can

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<v Speaker 1>see if the fronts turn into Okay, Yeah, Richbolski hits

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<v Speaker 1>the gas and soon we're ripping down the Connect River

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<v Speaker 1>at fifty miles per hour, looking like a couple of

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<v Speaker 1>Mad Max characters. This is so cool. My hands freeze

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<v Speaker 1>into claus whenever I have to take off my mittens

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<v Speaker 1>to adjust the recorder. But I'm having such a good

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<v Speaker 1>time I barely notice we being out here reminds me

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<v Speaker 1>of Montana, where I live. Oh Man. Thankfully, the sun

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<v Speaker 1>is starting to warm the air when we pull up

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<v Speaker 1>to our destination, the Connect Glacier, a massive sheet of

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<v Speaker 1>ice that spills down from the chew Gash Mountains, just

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<v Speaker 1>ten miles up river from Richbolski's house. Should we jump

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<v Speaker 1>out and walk around exactly what I was thinking. We

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<v Speaker 1>park on a hill where we can see the four

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<v Speaker 1>hund foot calving face where the icebergs break off. I

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<v Speaker 1>don't know if I've ever seen anything quite like this before. Man,

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<v Speaker 1>I managed to give a fucking World Traveler reporter guy

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<v Speaker 1>a fucking first time huh. Yep, there you, of course,

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<v Speaker 1>because this is America. There's a guy doing donuts on

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<v Speaker 1>the frozen lake in a vintage pickup, and another guy

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<v Speaker 1>shooting a flamethrower next to an iceberg that looks like

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<v Speaker 1>a giant hunk of frozen wind. As the carbon orgy

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<v Speaker 1>clashes a bit with the pristine surroundings, but rich Volsky

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<v Speaker 1>digs all of it, living the dream. Rich Volsky, it's

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<v Speaker 1>pretty good, man, pretty good. The combination of remote wilderness

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<v Speaker 1>and Arctic redneck culture is what made him fall head

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<v Speaker 1>over heels for Alaska. I feel like it's one of

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<v Speaker 1>the last free states. Honestly, I just have freedom. I

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<v Speaker 1>can do what I want. I can come out here

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<v Speaker 1>and get out here by myself and cruise around and

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<v Speaker 1>hang out. Man, it's a great place to decompress after work.

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<v Speaker 1>Rich Bosky grew up in most people's idea of Paradise, Hawaii,

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<v Speaker 1>but he had no desire to go there. When he

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<v Speaker 1>got out of the Core in two thousand fourteen, he

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<v Speaker 1>hit the road for Alaska with the promise of a

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<v Speaker 1>job and never looked back. It was around the same

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<v Speaker 1>time that I moved to Montana from the East Coast

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<v Speaker 1>for some of the same reasons. It took rich Bolski

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<v Speaker 1>two weeks to drive all the way from Camp Pembleton's

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<v Speaker 1>up through Canada to Anchorage, his first landing spot. Now

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<v Speaker 1>he lives in a secluded subdivision near a town called Palmer.

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<v Speaker 1>He makes his living as a plumber, working on big

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<v Speaker 1>commercial projects all over the state. His hobbies are pretty

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<v Speaker 1>full time too. Like me, he's a serious hunter, and

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<v Speaker 1>in Alaska that means lots of scouting and planning for

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<v Speaker 1>bear and moose hunts. With so much going on, rich

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<v Speaker 1>Wolski tells me Afghanistan isn't something he thinks about much anymore,

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<v Speaker 1>almost never, almost never do on a different portion of

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<v Speaker 1>my life moved on. So when you do think about Afghanistan,

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<v Speaker 1>what do you think about? Ah? The funny stuff, sad stuff.

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<v Speaker 1>Sometimes I no excitement, you know, adventure is there? Anything

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<v Speaker 1>that you miss about it. That's simple, man, a simple

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<v Speaker 1>place to be. You know. You get up and walk around,

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<v Speaker 1>get shot at, you walk back and sleep and do

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<v Speaker 1>it all over again. A lot of people, I think

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<v Speaker 1>would be shocked to hear that being at war, even

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<v Speaker 1>in a very dangerous place in certain ways, is kind

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<v Speaker 1>of easy. It is. It's it's it's definitely easy, you know.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, now I got you know, bills, gotta go

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<v Speaker 1>to work, you know, I mean, it never felt like

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<v Speaker 1>work to me. As we're talking, heard a moose trots

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<v Speaker 1>down the river bed. We're a long way from Hawaii,

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<v Speaker 1>and we're even farther from Sangin, where we first had

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<v Speaker 1>a decade ago. All right, So the first thing I

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<v Speaker 1>need you to do is just introduce yourself in that

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<v Speaker 1>kind of outside voice. I'll just see your regular voice,

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<v Speaker 1>all right. Um, I'm last Corporal Davids Falsky, and I'm

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<v Speaker 1>nineteen years old and not from Hawaii. Great, perfect, Okay.

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<v Speaker 1>So number one, why did you join the Marine Corps?

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<v Speaker 1>I joined the Marine Corps because I wanted to have

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<v Speaker 1>the island. Back then, he was a lanky teenager and

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not sure he could have grown a beard if

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<v Speaker 1>he tried. Now he's six ft tall and two thirty pounds,

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<v Speaker 1>with the righteous beard and thick forearms covered in tattoos.

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<v Speaker 1>His hair is still buzz short, but that's about the

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<v Speaker 1>only thing that hasn't changed since Sangon. Sitting in the

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<v Speaker 1>a t V by the river, I asked him why

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<v Speaker 1>he was so eager to get out of Hawaii all

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<v Speaker 1>those years ago. I think it's just hot, small, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>to go to the beach so often surfing gets quite repetitive.

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<v Speaker 1>I was ready to go, you know, independent, young and

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<v Speaker 1>looking for adventure. He tells me Hawaii was a great

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<v Speaker 1>place to grow up, and he had a happy childhood.

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<v Speaker 1>He just never felt like he fit in there. The

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<v Speaker 1>military promised away off the island, but like several of

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<v Speaker 1>the other members a third Squad, rich Folski was only

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<v Speaker 1>seventeen when he started thinking about enlistening, so he needed

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<v Speaker 1>his parents permission. I told my dad and he goes, okay,

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<v Speaker 1>we'll go talk to some recruiters, right. So we go

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<v Speaker 1>to town and there's like an Army and Marine Corps

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<v Speaker 1>recruiters right next to each other, like sharing a wall office.

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<v Speaker 1>He didn't have a clear idea of what he wanted

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<v Speaker 1>to do in the military, let alone which branch. He

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<v Speaker 1>wanted to join Army, Navy, Air Force, Marines, but first

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<v Speaker 1>impression settled things. The Army recruiters were literally fat and nasty,

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<v Speaker 1>and the Marine Corps recruiter looked like a guy in

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<v Speaker 1>the military. And I hate to say that because the

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<v Speaker 1>Marine Corps is all about appearance and the unit form,

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<v Speaker 1>and I always hated that about the Marine Corps. But

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<v Speaker 1>that was the turning point where we were like, no,

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<v Speaker 1>I don't want to be in the Army. You're not

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<v Speaker 1>gonna hurt my feelings. Don't worry. I was in the

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<v Speaker 1>National Guard, a reserve component of the U. S. Army.

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<v Speaker 1>We get made fun of by pretty much everyone, including

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<v Speaker 1>the regular army. Anyway. It was two thousand nine when

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<v Speaker 1>rich bold Sky and his dad visited the recruiter, and

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<v Speaker 1>the war in Afghanistan was barely on the radar for

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<v Speaker 1>the average American. But we'd just come through the most

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<v Speaker 1>brutal years of the Iraq War. What was your awareness

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<v Speaker 1>of of what kind of fighting was going on at

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<v Speaker 1>the time, if you can remember when you were in

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<v Speaker 1>high school, I mean, I always knew there was fighting.

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<v Speaker 1>You see the ship on the news, you know. But

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<v Speaker 1>I mean I wasn't come from a family that's in

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<v Speaker 1>the military, you know. I didn't. I didn't know anybody,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, that was in the military. So my understanding

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<v Speaker 1>of what it actually was, you know, was zero. But

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<v Speaker 1>I knew for a fact that there was a war,

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<v Speaker 1>if that makes sense. Did you know where that war

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<v Speaker 1>was in the Middle East? I could, I could narrow

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<v Speaker 1>it down to the Middle East at that time. Did

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<v Speaker 1>you have a sense of what the war was about,

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<v Speaker 1>or how it was going or anything like that. No,

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<v Speaker 1>I don't think I have a sense now. I mean

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<v Speaker 1>when I tell you right now that I legitimately kind

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<v Speaker 1>of still don't understand. I'm serious. No, you know, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I do know. Rich Foldski's dad, who's also named David,

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<v Speaker 1>supported his son's decision to join the Marines. They signed

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<v Speaker 1>the paperwork together, and as soon as high school was over,

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<v Speaker 1>rich Folsky shipped out for boot camp at Marine Corps

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<v Speaker 1>Recruit Depot San Diego. Yeah, that's funny. My My my

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<v Speaker 1>first thought was, oh my godly, all these white people.

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<v Speaker 1>I just went to a high school. It didn't have

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<v Speaker 1>very many white people. Your your school is mostly what

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<v Speaker 1>a lot of Filipino, a lot of Asian, uh, you know, Polynesian.

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<v Speaker 1>So suddenly you were in a group of people who

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<v Speaker 1>looked like you for the first time. For a lot

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<v Speaker 1>of recruits, the shock of the first few days of

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<v Speaker 1>boot camp is utterly terrifying. Some of them literally pissed

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<v Speaker 1>their pants, But not rich Volsky. You kind of thought

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<v Speaker 1>it was funny. Everybody's yelling and everybody's running around checking

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<v Speaker 1>with their head cut off, all this kind of just

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<v Speaker 1>taking her all in. Were you intimidated it all? You know? No,

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<v Speaker 1>I really wasn't. I knew I knew what it was

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<v Speaker 1>gonna be like, so you kind of knew it was

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<v Speaker 1>theater a little bit for sure. After thirteen weeks of

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<v Speaker 1>boot camp, rich Volsci went about an hour up the

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<v Speaker 1>road to Camp Pendleton for Infantry School, where you learned

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<v Speaker 1>how to be what the Marines call an O three

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<v Speaker 1>thirty one, a machine gunner. Then it was a short

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<v Speaker 1>ride to his new unit, Weapons Platoon, Blackfoot Company, first Battalion,

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<v Speaker 1>fifth Marines. He barely had time to settle in before

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<v Speaker 1>he shipped out to Afghanistan. In about ten months. He'd

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<v Speaker 1>gone from surfing in Hawaii to slipping an m to

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<v Speaker 1>forty Bravo machine gun and sang it. Here he is again,

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<v Speaker 1>back at patrol based fires. I live in a fucking

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<v Speaker 1>mud hut. It's just three ft thick walls of mud

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<v Speaker 1>right now. It's actually pretty dirty, just because I've been

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<v Speaker 1>discussing and not cleaned it. And uh, I got fleas

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<v Speaker 1>because of the fucking chickens that run around. At just

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<v Speaker 1>nineteen years old, rich Volski was the youngest guy in

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<v Speaker 1>third Squad. He joined the Marines looking for adventure and

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<v Speaker 1>he definitely found it. But by the time I arrived

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<v Speaker 1>four months into the deployment, the novelty had worn off.

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<v Speaker 1>I always like doing my job when I'm shooting. Is

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<v Speaker 1>that makes carrying the two forty round not just seemed

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<v Speaker 1>like a giant piece of metal that's pulling me into

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<v Speaker 1>the air slowly, But like getting shot, It's it's not

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<v Speaker 1>it's not fun. It's it's fun when you're shooting. You know,

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<v Speaker 1>sometimes you a hammer, sometimes you nail. It's real fun

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<v Speaker 1>when you need a hammer. But is it the kind

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<v Speaker 1>of fun that you want to keep having for a

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<v Speaker 1>long time? Um No, it's it's a kind of fun

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<v Speaker 1>where it's like it's like you get really wasted one

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<v Speaker 1>night and you do a bunch of stupid ship and

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<v Speaker 1>it's fun to talk about, but you don't want to

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<v Speaker 1>do it for the rest of your life. No, it's

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<v Speaker 1>definitely had way too many close calls to I want

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<v Speaker 1>to do that for this my life. Okay, you can

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<v Speaker 1>only dodge bullets for so long. Richbolski managed to dodge

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<v Speaker 1>bullets for his entire deployment, but the bullets were only

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<v Speaker 1>one of the threats, and sang In describe like one

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<v Speaker 1>of the scariest or toughest things that you've had to

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<v Speaker 1>deal with out here in as much detail as you can,

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<v Speaker 1>something that really sticks out in your mind that you

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<v Speaker 1>think about kind of like sucked me up. Yeah, it's

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<v Speaker 1>probably when I got bought up. I got me pretty good.

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<v Speaker 1>Rich Volski was one of the seventeen who got injured

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<v Speaker 1>on June twelve. The blast left him with a slight

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<v Speaker 1>stutter and with permanent brain damage. So when he tells

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<v Speaker 1>me he doesn't think about Afghanistan much anymore, there's a

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<v Speaker 1>caveat my whole memory of all of this is very fuzzy,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, but uh, and it's hard for me to

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<v Speaker 1>put it in chronological order. Rich Volski's memories all scrambled

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<v Speaker 1>from the explosion. When I try to drill down into specifics,

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<v Speaker 1>it goes something like this, So just tell me what

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<v Speaker 1>your first impression of Afghanistan was, Brown Sandy. He's talking

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<v Speaker 1>about Camp leathern Neck, the huge logistics base in the

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<v Speaker 1>middle of the Helmon Desert where they stopped over on

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<v Speaker 1>their way to sang It Hot. I don't particularly remember

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<v Speaker 1>Hot too much when we first got there. Well, it

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<v Speaker 1>was probably the perfect time of year. It was like

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<v Speaker 1>March right spring. You don't remember, tell me, man, It's

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<v Speaker 1>not like his memories got erased. They're just out of

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<v Speaker 1>order and smashed together. I think I remember, Uh, somebody

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<v Speaker 1>got their foot blown and a half. It was Captain

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<v Speaker 1>Frank Is that right? Lost half his foot? But what

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<v Speaker 1>was that? Right in the beginning, No, somebody else talked

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<v Speaker 1>about that. I forget which I think? Is it the

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<v Speaker 1>foot thing though? Or or am or am I wrong?

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<v Speaker 1>Rich Volsky's memory trouble stem from a traumatic brain injury,

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<v Speaker 1>or t b I. It's a catch all diagnosis that

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<v Speaker 1>includes everything from concussions to open head wounds. Rich Volski

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<v Speaker 1>had both, and he's still dealing with the effects a

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<v Speaker 1>decade later. But well, I have a thought. It's gone.

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<v Speaker 1>It's gone. That happens a lot, doesn't it. It does. Yeh.

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<v Speaker 1>TV is a bitch man. You know what's really funny

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<v Speaker 1>about this whole thing is I feel like, unless you

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<v Speaker 1>saw me there, you wouldn't even believe that I did

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<v Speaker 1>it because I don't remember all of those bullshit, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>because you're asking me questions. I God, I do not know.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, good thing, I did see him there, and

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<v Speaker 1>I've got photos and audio to prove it. We'll be

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<v Speaker 1>back after the break. I stayed with rich Bolski for

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<v Speaker 1>a few days and got to meet his wife, Samantha,

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<v Speaker 1>and all of his pets. This his mouse. He's a

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<v Speaker 1>vicious little bastard. Yeah you don't. You don't like that guy.

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<v Speaker 1>You keep an eye on him, okay. Mouse is an

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<v Speaker 1>American Eskimo dog. He looks like an overgrown cotton ball

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<v Speaker 1>with fangs barely bigger than the cat. Mrs Claus Richbosky

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<v Speaker 1>also has a big lazy Bernies mountain dog. Actually they're

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<v Speaker 1>polar opposites. This one's sweet, nothing but love, and then

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<v Speaker 1>the other one is very skeptical. Of everything, including journalists

0:16:39.840 --> 0:16:42.840
<v Speaker 1>who show up with big microphones and headphones. Especially journalist.

0:16:42.880 --> 0:16:48.440
<v Speaker 1>I got him trained, you know, journalists, lawyers, auditors, politicians,

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<v Speaker 1>that's who we have them. Bite Mouse's training has been

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<v Speaker 1>highly affected. Hey, no, that one was a straight up ambush.

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<v Speaker 1>I keep an eye on MOUs will Rich Volsky shows

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<v Speaker 1>me around the home he's building. I guess you would

0:17:03.400 --> 0:17:06.040
<v Speaker 1>call this what open concept, with the living rooms and

0:17:06.040 --> 0:17:08.880
<v Speaker 1>the kitchens in the same spot. It's a quantt hut,

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<v Speaker 1>a prefab steel shell in the shape of a giant

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<v Speaker 1>upside down you similar to the ones cranked out by

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<v Speaker 1>the tens of thousands to house American troops during World

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<v Speaker 1>War Two. Quant huts are quintessential Alaska, gurable, no frills

0:17:23.000 --> 0:17:25.600
<v Speaker 1>shelters for the kinds of frontier characters you find in

0:17:25.720 --> 0:17:29.080
<v Speaker 1>Jack London stories. But this one would fit better in

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<v Speaker 1>the pages of Martha Stewart living. The three bedroom design

0:17:32.720 --> 0:17:35.840
<v Speaker 1>has heated floors, an entire wall of windows looking out

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<v Speaker 1>on the mountains, and a deluxe kitchen for Samantha. We

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<v Speaker 1>got the old lady a nice big Viking range because

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<v Speaker 1>she does love to cook. You know, rich Volsky is

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<v Speaker 1>putting the finishing touches on the interior. Now he's one

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<v Speaker 1>of those guys who can do pretty much anything that

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<v Speaker 1>involves tools. And you did this all yourself? Yes, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>with I mean obviously the help of so my good

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<v Speaker 1>friends and co workers and lots of cases of beer,

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<v Speaker 1>lots of barbecues. It's been two years since a big

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<v Speaker 1>group of his friends helped put up the quantip frame,

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<v Speaker 1>and now the end is finally in sight. Are you

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<v Speaker 1>ready to be done? Absolutely? Like last year, the new

0:18:19.320 --> 0:18:22.040
<v Speaker 1>house doesn't have much furniture yet, so when it's time

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<v Speaker 1>to sit down and talk, we walk over to the

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<v Speaker 1>one room cabin that was on the property when rich

0:18:26.040 --> 0:18:28.840
<v Speaker 1>bold Sky first bought it. It's about as close to

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<v Speaker 1>an ideal mountain man hideout as you could imagine, unfinished

0:18:32.760 --> 0:18:36.240
<v Speaker 1>lumber walls, a cast iron stove, a bear skull on

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<v Speaker 1>the kitchen table, and a double barrel shotgun hanging by

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<v Speaker 1>the front door. Rich Bolsky might have stayed in this

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<v Speaker 1>place forever if he'd never met Samantha. He pulls down

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<v Speaker 1>a bottle of whiskey from the top of the refrigerator

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<v Speaker 1>and grabs a couple of glasses. Then he warns me

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<v Speaker 1>and I can remember ship in any kind of real order,

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<v Speaker 1>and it's going to be frustrating for you. Okay, So

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<v Speaker 1>then what's probably necessary is to figure out how you

0:19:06.960 --> 0:19:11.399
<v Speaker 1>remember things, like what how does your memory work? I

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<v Speaker 1>can get specific moments, and if somebody else's talking about it,

0:19:18.760 --> 0:19:23.560
<v Speaker 1>you know, I can go, oh, yeah, you know, like, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I remember that clear as fucking day, you know what

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<v Speaker 1>I mean. But it's also it's almost gotta be planted

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<v Speaker 1>or or dug up, if that makes sense. We decided

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<v Speaker 1>to dig up some of those memories together, which means

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<v Speaker 1>we have to go back to Sangin. As a member

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<v Speaker 1>of Weapons Platoon, rich Volsky was technically an attachment to

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<v Speaker 1>third Squad, not one of its original members. As the

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<v Speaker 1>machine gunner, his weapon was critical whenever the squad got

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<v Speaker 1>into a firefight. I was normally towards the front of

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<v Speaker 1>the patrol, so that when the sweeper and uh the

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<v Speaker 1>spot or right term there. Yeah, the sweeper and the

0:20:06.119 --> 0:20:08.399
<v Speaker 1>spotter would poke through a tree line, you know, and

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<v Speaker 1>if they got shot, I was normally towards the front,

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<v Speaker 1>so I could pop up there real quick and uh

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<v Speaker 1>start laying suppression down. The Only time it wasn't effective

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<v Speaker 1>is if it came from the rear, and then that's

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<v Speaker 1>where you're automatic rifleman Moody was was fucking handling that portion,

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<v Speaker 1>and he carried a slightly while lighter machine gun. Yeah. So,

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<v Speaker 1>while Moody took care of the rear with his saw,

0:20:37.600 --> 0:20:40.960
<v Speaker 1>the M two four nine squad automatic weapon, rich Volsky

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<v Speaker 1>was at the front with his M two forty Bravo,

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<v Speaker 1>a nearly four ft long belt fed beast. The gun

0:20:47.440 --> 0:20:50.880
<v Speaker 1>and ammo weighed around sixty pounds. It was a lot

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<v Speaker 1>to be hauling around in the Afghan heat, but it

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<v Speaker 1>was worth it. The first thing I do is, uh,

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<v Speaker 1>I make noise, even if I'm just flying ship in

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<v Speaker 1>the wrong direction. You know, entirely I am. I'm making noise.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm basically allowing the rest of the guys to move

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<v Speaker 1>by keeping the enemy's head down. Most of the guys

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<v Speaker 1>in the squad carried M four car beans, semi automatic

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<v Speaker 1>rifles that fire a small, high velocity round that's barely

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<v Speaker 1>bigger than twenty two rounds used for hunting squirrels. If

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<v Speaker 1>you've ever seen a picture of an A R fifteen,

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<v Speaker 1>then you know what an M four looks like. They're

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<v Speaker 1>lightweight and easy to shoot quickly and accurately, but they

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<v Speaker 1>lack the intimidation factor of machine guns like the two

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<v Speaker 1>forty and the fifty Cow, which fires around big enough

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<v Speaker 1>to take out a truck engine. So tell me if

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<v Speaker 1>you were on the other side of that, why would

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<v Speaker 1>that be intimidating to you? I guess the only way

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<v Speaker 1>to put it would be, you know, twenty two long

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<v Speaker 1>rifle will kill you, but a fifty cow makes you

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<v Speaker 1>feel like you'll be more dead, you know. Yeah, I

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<v Speaker 1>mean it'll make you It'll make you more dead. That's

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<v Speaker 1>the psychological effect it gotta be. Yeah. So do you

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<v Speaker 1>remember the first time that you fired your M two

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<v Speaker 1>forty Bravo and a firefight? Yeah, I was shooting out

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<v Speaker 1>a building. What do you feel like? It's just a great,

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<v Speaker 1>great feeling to just let a let her up. Man.

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<v Speaker 1>I always loved, I always love shooting machine guns. I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>even in training, it was a it was great. So

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<v Speaker 1>did did you get to fire your machine? Got a

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<v Speaker 1>lot after the fighting season started. There's a lot of shooting.

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<v Speaker 1>It's what you wanted to do, right, absolutely, I guess

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<v Speaker 1>the shooting is exactly what I wanted to do. And

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<v Speaker 1>the blowing up is not what I wanted to do,

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<v Speaker 1>and that was the unavoidable part. So tell me about that.

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<v Speaker 1>Tell me about when that happened. It was shortly after

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<v Speaker 1>the ninth, But it feels like like when I when

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<v Speaker 1>I think about it, it feels like we had just

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<v Speaker 1>got back in from picking up O'Brien. In my memory,

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<v Speaker 1>it feels like it was those those two days between

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<v Speaker 1>the nine and the twelfth just don't exist. The the

0:23:10.640 --> 0:23:16.720
<v Speaker 1>unimportant part just gets gone, if that makes sense. It

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<v Speaker 1>was June twelve, two th eleven, the day Joshua McDaniels died.

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<v Speaker 1>In sixteen other Marines got wounded in a series of

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<v Speaker 1>I D blasts. Rich Volsky got knocked to the ground

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<v Speaker 1>by the explosion that hit McDaniels. Then he got hit

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<v Speaker 1>again moments later by a secondary blast that knocked him unconscious.

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<v Speaker 1>The pock marks from shrapnel and debris were still visible

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<v Speaker 1>on his face when he told me about it back

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<v Speaker 1>in Sangin. When I came to, I was just laying

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<v Speaker 1>face down the sand. It's like pull of blood and Sheer,

0:23:49.720 --> 0:23:53.880
<v Speaker 1>last corporal Sheer rolled me over and he has, hey, man,

0:23:53.960 --> 0:23:56.240
<v Speaker 1>you got all your limbs, got your legs. I don't

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<v Speaker 1>know how you did it. I was like, you can

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<v Speaker 1>be okay, and I was like what because I I

0:24:00.920 --> 0:24:05.280
<v Speaker 1>had a severe concussion. Um, I just got knocked straight retarded,

0:24:05.960 --> 0:24:13.760
<v Speaker 1>and uh he started dragging me out in his cabin.

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<v Speaker 1>Ten years later, I asked rich bold Sky what he

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<v Speaker 1>still remembers about that day. I remember when I heard

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<v Speaker 1>the first explosion, Uh, trying to I heard the first explosion,

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<v Speaker 1>and then there was like just the dust, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>and then just like kind of silence, kind of put

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<v Speaker 1>my dick in the dirt, you know, and uh, just quiet,

0:24:41.200 --> 0:24:45.160
<v Speaker 1>and I'm going, fuck, you know. And then I remember

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<v Speaker 1>hearing McDaniels screaming, and uh that was like, holy fuck man,

0:24:54.240 --> 0:24:57.960
<v Speaker 1>this is bad. So I screwed up that direction best

0:24:58.000 --> 0:25:00.800
<v Speaker 1>I can, and uh, I get up there and I

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<v Speaker 1>see McDaniels and looking at him, I'm I'm thinking, uh,

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<v Speaker 1>I can't believe that he can make that much noise

0:25:08.480 --> 0:25:12.600
<v Speaker 1>with how small he is. He was essentially blown in

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<v Speaker 1>a half. Yeah he was. I remember him making an

0:25:17.080 --> 0:25:20.000
<v Speaker 1>insane amount of noise for for how much of him

0:25:20.080 --> 0:25:22.359
<v Speaker 1>was left, and I thought that was crazy. So I

0:25:22.400 --> 0:25:26.000
<v Speaker 1>was talking to him, but it was I'm not sure

0:25:26.680 --> 0:25:30.040
<v Speaker 1>if I got to him first or if Lopez got

0:25:30.040 --> 0:25:35.480
<v Speaker 1>to him first, But I remember Lopez being there. He's

0:25:35.480 --> 0:25:39.560
<v Speaker 1>talking about Jeffrey Lopez, one of Third squads riflemen. And

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<v Speaker 1>this is where it gets real fuzzy, like I'm not

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<v Speaker 1>sure about a lot of this, you know what I mean.

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<v Speaker 1>But I remember Lopez being there in that moment before

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<v Speaker 1>we blow up again, right, and I think what happened

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<v Speaker 1>next was well, I mean, I know what happened next.

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<v Speaker 1>The I D fucking went off when Elliott hit it

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<v Speaker 1>because he was coming running up from the rear towards

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<v Speaker 1>us and stepped on another I D. The route that

0:26:08.119 --> 0:26:11.960
<v Speaker 1>I took to McDaniels just happened to be better than

0:26:11.960 --> 0:26:16.880
<v Speaker 1>the route that Elliott took to McDaniels. Cody Elliott supervised

0:26:16.920 --> 0:26:20.680
<v Speaker 1>all the platoons machine gunners, including rich Wolski. He floated

0:26:20.720 --> 0:26:23.199
<v Speaker 1>between squads and happened to be out with Third Squad

0:26:23.280 --> 0:26:29.359
<v Speaker 1>that day. I can remember looking at him as it

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<v Speaker 1>as he ran up to me and blew up. I

0:26:32.840 --> 0:26:35.000
<v Speaker 1>can I can see it in my mind, you know

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<v Speaker 1>what I mean. That's one of those ones that's burned

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<v Speaker 1>into me. You know. It's just like just like looking

0:26:40.359 --> 0:26:43.760
<v Speaker 1>at McDaniels, that one's burned into me too. The explosion

0:26:43.840 --> 0:26:47.000
<v Speaker 1>from Elliott's I d erupted in a cone shape, widening

0:26:47.040 --> 0:26:49.919
<v Speaker 1>with intensifying force as it moved upward from the ground.

0:26:51.000 --> 0:26:54.080
<v Speaker 1>Fortunately for rich fold Sky and Lopez, they were crouched

0:26:54.080 --> 0:26:56.280
<v Speaker 1>down low when it went off. I think if I

0:26:56.359 --> 0:26:58.879
<v Speaker 1>was standing, I probably would have died or something. I

0:26:58.880 --> 0:27:01.920
<v Speaker 1>don't know, or it would have been incredibly worse than

0:27:01.960 --> 0:27:05.399
<v Speaker 1>it was worse for rich bol Sky, that is, it

0:27:05.520 --> 0:27:08.480
<v Speaker 1>was plenty bad for Elliott. He lost his left leg

0:27:08.520 --> 0:27:11.840
<v Speaker 1>and took shrapnel all over his body and face. Parts

0:27:11.840 --> 0:27:15.320
<v Speaker 1>of Elliott's gear and bones slammed into rich Bollski, like

0:27:15.560 --> 0:27:18.399
<v Speaker 1>you know, your temple's got a little whole. It's a

0:27:18.480 --> 0:27:21.080
<v Speaker 1>little a little piece of shrapnel went in like an

0:27:21.560 --> 0:27:24.800
<v Speaker 1>upward angle and scoot it in the hole and like

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<v Speaker 1>the perfect way to like not kill me pretty much,

0:27:28.920 --> 0:27:30.800
<v Speaker 1>but would have it were went straight in, I mean

0:27:30.800 --> 0:27:33.000
<v Speaker 1>I would have been dead. Oh wow, it was inside

0:27:33.040 --> 0:27:37.000
<v Speaker 1>your skull. Yes, wow, I didn't know that. Rich Bolski

0:27:37.040 --> 0:27:39.240
<v Speaker 1>has a shadow box on the cabin wall with this

0:27:39.400 --> 0:27:42.760
<v Speaker 1>Camo name tape, his dog tags, his purple heart metal

0:27:42.920 --> 0:27:45.639
<v Speaker 1>and a little plastic tube with that piece of shrapnel

0:27:45.640 --> 0:27:48.800
<v Speaker 1>inside of it. It was removed by a field trauma

0:27:48.800 --> 0:27:51.480
<v Speaker 1>surgeon at Camp leather Neck, where he got meta ACT

0:27:51.520 --> 0:27:54.520
<v Speaker 1>along with some of the other serious casualties from that day.

0:27:54.760 --> 0:27:56.800
<v Speaker 1>It was actually kind of cool because I'm fucking rolling

0:27:56.840 --> 0:27:59.720
<v Speaker 1>in there and uh, it was like a reunion and

0:27:59.760 --> 0:28:08.080
<v Speaker 1>we're coming in on the gurney and it's like, what's up, man, Like, Hey,

0:28:08.119 --> 0:28:10.399
<v Speaker 1>you know, I know everybody in the yard, you know

0:28:10.440 --> 0:28:13.880
<v Speaker 1>what I mean, high fives all around. Yeah, pretty much. Yeah.

0:28:14.280 --> 0:28:16.879
<v Speaker 1>I remember the nurses got rid of the little fucking

0:28:17.440 --> 0:28:21.159
<v Speaker 1>separator sheets because we're all yelling back and forth to

0:28:21.240 --> 0:28:25.040
<v Speaker 1>each other talking. Rich Basky thinks he had two surgeries,

0:28:25.080 --> 0:28:28.280
<v Speaker 1>but he can't remember for sure. His condition was serious

0:28:28.400 --> 0:28:30.159
<v Speaker 1>enough that he was laid up in the hospital for

0:28:30.200 --> 0:28:32.880
<v Speaker 1>a couple of weeks. Here we are again, back at

0:28:32.880 --> 0:28:37.040
<v Speaker 1>patrol based fires, not long after the incident, and what

0:28:37.080 --> 0:28:39.680
<v Speaker 1>was the recovery? Like, it really wasn't that bad. I mean,

0:28:40.680 --> 0:28:46.400
<v Speaker 1>it didn't really hurt until the next day. Yeah, because

0:28:46.440 --> 0:28:48.160
<v Speaker 1>I was I was just so confused and out of

0:28:48.240 --> 0:28:53.080
<v Speaker 1>it from the concussion at h It's kind of just

0:28:53.120 --> 0:28:54.920
<v Speaker 1>a daze the whole time, and that you are and

0:28:55.720 --> 0:28:59.440
<v Speaker 1>like in the exciting care awards and stuff. I didn't

0:28:59.440 --> 0:29:02.080
<v Speaker 1>really start getting my memory back or anything like that

0:29:02.200 --> 0:29:06.520
<v Speaker 1>until like a week later. Rich Foldsky's shrapnel wound healed

0:29:06.640 --> 0:29:09.640
<v Speaker 1>quickly enough, but his memory would never be the same.

0:29:10.520 --> 0:29:13.040
<v Speaker 1>At the time, that was the least of his concerns.

0:29:13.560 --> 0:29:16.440
<v Speaker 1>He was desperate to get back to the squad, even

0:29:16.440 --> 0:29:19.120
<v Speaker 1>if he had doubts about the bigger mission. Tell me

0:29:19.120 --> 0:29:21.280
<v Speaker 1>about how you wanted to get out of the hospital

0:29:21.360 --> 0:29:24.200
<v Speaker 1>and come back, Like you probably could have gone home

0:29:24.880 --> 0:29:27.440
<v Speaker 1>if you cried a little bit and told him that's

0:29:27.480 --> 0:29:29.600
<v Speaker 1>what you wanted to do. I end up coming back,

0:29:30.320 --> 0:29:33.800
<v Speaker 1>like not not because I wanted to fight anymore. Oh yeah,

0:29:33.800 --> 0:29:36.360
<v Speaker 1>I want to find more because I kind of a

0:29:36.400 --> 0:29:41.440
<v Speaker 1>serious problem with the Taliban, you know. But uh, I

0:29:41.480 --> 0:29:43.760
<v Speaker 1>had some revenge to get with them. But it's really

0:29:43.800 --> 0:29:48.080
<v Speaker 1>not it's really not about that I came back because

0:29:48.080 --> 0:29:53.600
<v Speaker 1>of these guys, the guys I'm out here with, Like

0:29:54.080 --> 0:29:57.800
<v Speaker 1>this really isn't this really isn't my fight. It's not

0:29:57.840 --> 0:30:02.520
<v Speaker 1>really America's fight either. We're kind just here, so I mean,

0:30:02.560 --> 0:30:06.000
<v Speaker 1>it's not for that reason. It's only because I still

0:30:06.040 --> 0:30:07.760
<v Speaker 1>got boys out here that I wanted to come back.

0:30:09.240 --> 0:30:11.560
<v Speaker 1>Two weeks in the hospital was long enough for rich

0:30:11.600 --> 0:30:15.000
<v Speaker 1>Bollski to feel like he was letting the squad down. Now,

0:30:15.040 --> 0:30:18.040
<v Speaker 1>he tells me he still feels bad about being away.

0:30:18.640 --> 0:30:22.479
<v Speaker 1>One thing that I found out afterwards that kind of

0:30:22.520 --> 0:30:28.360
<v Speaker 1>really made me sad, Oh man, is that a h

0:30:30.760 --> 0:30:35.760
<v Speaker 1>put a moody in a spot where you do carry

0:30:35.800 --> 0:30:57.440
<v Speaker 1>the machine gun. Yep, that was my responsibility, not his. Yeah,

0:31:02.360 --> 0:31:12.240
<v Speaker 1>sorry to get back rich Falskis. Memories maybe out of

0:31:12.360 --> 0:31:15.640
<v Speaker 1>order and fuzzy around the edges, but dates and place

0:31:15.720 --> 0:31:20.320
<v Speaker 1>names don't matter much. In the end. It was the

0:31:20.360 --> 0:31:23.800
<v Speaker 1>people who mattered back and sang in the PB fires Marines,

0:31:24.480 --> 0:31:27.520
<v Speaker 1>especially the guys in the squad, And it's the people

0:31:27.560 --> 0:31:31.640
<v Speaker 1>who mattered to rich ball Ski all these years later too.

0:31:34.120 --> 0:31:36.840
<v Speaker 1>He throws another log into the wood stove, and then

0:31:36.840 --> 0:31:42.960
<v Speaker 1>he tells me about Dutch glasses. It's a guy who

0:31:43.000 --> 0:31:46.920
<v Speaker 1>can do smart stuff. Happens a lot in the Marine Corps.

0:31:47.680 --> 0:31:50.959
<v Speaker 1>Guys who have glasses get tasked with smart people's stuff.

0:31:51.880 --> 0:31:58.080
<v Speaker 1>For sure. That's funny. He is a sweet human being man.

0:32:00.160 --> 0:32:04.840
<v Speaker 1>The word I would put on him was sweet, loving, caring,

0:32:05.640 --> 0:32:08.920
<v Speaker 1>not what you would expect of a marine or what

0:32:09.520 --> 0:32:15.800
<v Speaker 1>of a marine where we were good human being a

0:32:15.800 --> 0:32:18.800
<v Speaker 1>lot better than me. Do you remember the day that

0:32:18.880 --> 0:32:22.520
<v Speaker 1>he got killed? What do you remember about that day?

0:32:23.400 --> 0:32:29.760
<v Speaker 1>Remember the fucking explosion. I remember the crack, I remember

0:32:29.840 --> 0:32:38.840
<v Speaker 1>the dust. By that day, September eleven, rich Volski had

0:32:38.880 --> 0:32:43.480
<v Speaker 1>already survived one near death experience. Instinct took over. I

0:32:43.560 --> 0:32:48.600
<v Speaker 1>had one of them gut feelings. Man, afterwards, he had

0:32:48.640 --> 0:32:51.480
<v Speaker 1>already blown up at this point. But that's one of

0:32:51.480 --> 0:32:56.440
<v Speaker 1>the few times I remember having a intense gut feeling

0:32:57.560 --> 0:33:10.680
<v Speaker 1>that said, do not fucking move. Then I didn't. War

0:33:10.840 --> 0:33:15.080
<v Speaker 1>is usually about force, not choices. Marines are told where

0:33:15.120 --> 0:33:16.840
<v Speaker 1>to go and what to do when they get there.

0:33:17.440 --> 0:33:21.480
<v Speaker 1>Sometimes that means rushing headlong into machine gun fire. But

0:33:21.600 --> 0:33:25.120
<v Speaker 1>this time rich Volsky did make a choice. While other

0:33:25.160 --> 0:33:28.360
<v Speaker 1>third Squad marines rushed up to help Dutch, rich Volsky

0:33:28.440 --> 0:33:31.920
<v Speaker 1>stayed glued to the dirt behind his gun. It may

0:33:32.000 --> 0:33:34.880
<v Speaker 1>be one of the tougher things I've done. I guess

0:33:36.080 --> 0:33:45.160
<v Speaker 1>is not go, But I didn't. Something fucking told me

0:33:45.240 --> 0:33:50.760
<v Speaker 1>don't fucking go over there. Tactically, I made the right choice. Morally,

0:33:50.880 --> 0:33:54.560
<v Speaker 1>maybe not. What could you have done differently if you

0:33:54.600 --> 0:33:59.600
<v Speaker 1>had rushed up and gotten closer, clogged it up, kutting

0:33:59.640 --> 0:34:02.120
<v Speaker 1>in the way, gotten in the way, hit another I

0:34:03.720 --> 0:34:09.680
<v Speaker 1>again again. Yeah, as we've been talking about all this,

0:34:09.880 --> 0:34:12.920
<v Speaker 1>I can't help noticing how even keeled rich Foldsky is.

0:34:13.160 --> 0:34:16.399
<v Speaker 1>And it isn't just the whiskey. Rich Foldski was laid

0:34:16.400 --> 0:34:19.400
<v Speaker 1>back and sang into like he was just rolling with

0:34:19.440 --> 0:34:24.080
<v Speaker 1>the punches. Do you ever get angry? Do you ever? No?

0:34:24.320 --> 0:34:27.600
<v Speaker 1>I don't. I do not have rage. I did a

0:34:27.600 --> 0:34:29.600
<v Speaker 1>lot of thinking about it. I think is is what

0:34:29.640 --> 0:34:33.200
<v Speaker 1>it was, you know, of whether I wanted to be

0:34:33.239 --> 0:34:36.120
<v Speaker 1>piste off about it or not. There's a short period

0:34:36.200 --> 0:34:39.960
<v Speaker 1>of time after I got blown up, after the ninth,

0:34:40.040 --> 0:34:46.040
<v Speaker 1>after the twelve brooded. That that brood took a long time,

0:34:47.000 --> 0:34:50.800
<v Speaker 1>more than more than most of my broods. But yeah,

0:34:51.080 --> 0:34:54.640
<v Speaker 1>came up with no, no, what, I don't have any

0:34:54.880 --> 0:34:59.440
<v Speaker 1>hatred towards them. By them, rich Foldski means the Taliban,

0:35:00.200 --> 0:35:03.279
<v Speaker 1>like fucking it's it's ward is just some guys killing

0:35:03.320 --> 0:35:05.799
<v Speaker 1>each other, and it's that's the way it's supposed to

0:35:05.800 --> 0:35:10.600
<v Speaker 1>be human nature. That's what it is. Dudes have been

0:35:10.640 --> 0:35:14.360
<v Speaker 1>killing each other since the beginning of time, and we

0:35:14.440 --> 0:35:17.000
<v Speaker 1>will continue killing each other till the end of time.

0:35:18.280 --> 0:35:21.680
<v Speaker 1>That's not gonna change, man, you know, so there's no

0:35:21.840 --> 0:35:25.360
<v Speaker 1>real grudge to be had. You know, this is pretty

0:35:25.360 --> 0:35:27.760
<v Speaker 1>close to what Rich Bolski told me back in Sangin.

0:35:28.280 --> 0:35:30.640
<v Speaker 1>What do you think about about Taliban? Why do you

0:35:30.640 --> 0:35:33.840
<v Speaker 1>think they're fighting? What do you think they're their purposes?

0:35:34.920 --> 0:35:38.160
<v Speaker 1>I'm sure if I was fucking born in Afghanistan, i'd

0:35:38.200 --> 0:35:42.919
<v Speaker 1>probably be Taliban. Yeah, it's their deal, this is my deal.

0:35:44.400 --> 0:35:47.480
<v Speaker 1>I remember being surprised by rich Boldski's sober view of

0:35:47.480 --> 0:35:50.640
<v Speaker 1>the war. Back then. He didn't say anything about good

0:35:50.640 --> 0:35:54.319
<v Speaker 1>guys or bad guys, nothing about good or evil. He

0:35:54.360 --> 0:35:57.920
<v Speaker 1>didn't hold himself for America's cause up to be morally superior.

0:35:58.600 --> 0:36:02.400
<v Speaker 1>And after all these years, outlook hasn't really changed, you know.

0:36:02.480 --> 0:36:04.560
<v Speaker 1>I honestly believe they probably hated us more than I

0:36:04.560 --> 0:36:11.360
<v Speaker 1>hated down Uh, because I'd really hate a guy that

0:36:11.560 --> 0:36:17.000
<v Speaker 1>was fucking landed on my property coming up into your village. Yep,

0:36:17.160 --> 0:36:21.880
<v Speaker 1>this is mine, you know. And yet his lack of

0:36:21.960 --> 0:36:25.920
<v Speaker 1>hatred for the enemy does not imply an abundance of sympathy.

0:36:26.280 --> 0:36:32.520
<v Speaker 1>I would have gladly killed any race of people for

0:36:32.719 --> 0:36:37.520
<v Speaker 1>that any religion for that purpose of war at the time.

0:36:38.640 --> 0:36:42.920
<v Speaker 1>If we were going anywhere else in the world, it

0:36:43.000 --> 0:36:48.600
<v Speaker 1>wouldn't have mattered what the opposition was. All it is

0:36:48.600 --> 0:36:53.920
<v Speaker 1>is opposition the enemy, right, Yeah, yeah, all that's all that.

0:36:53.920 --> 0:36:55.759
<v Speaker 1>That's all it would have ever been. You know, it

0:36:55.800 --> 0:36:58.440
<v Speaker 1>didn't matter that they were in Muslim, didn't matter that

0:36:58.520 --> 0:37:01.480
<v Speaker 1>they were you know, brown, It didn't matter man, that

0:37:01.560 --> 0:37:06.520
<v Speaker 1>was the enemy at the time. It would be comforting

0:37:06.560 --> 0:37:09.120
<v Speaker 1>to think that seventeen and eighteen year olds and lists

0:37:09.120 --> 0:37:12.719
<v Speaker 1>out of patriotism and a deep commitment to service. But

0:37:12.800 --> 0:37:15.920
<v Speaker 1>in my experience, the U. S Military, especially the Marine

0:37:15.920 --> 0:37:20.319
<v Speaker 1>Corps Infantry, is chock full of rich Bolski's young men

0:37:20.520 --> 0:37:23.359
<v Speaker 1>looking for adventure, who want to fight and don't really

0:37:23.400 --> 0:37:26.840
<v Speaker 1>care where the war is happening or why, like Brian

0:37:26.920 --> 0:37:29.360
<v Speaker 1>Sheer doing pull ups in the recruiter's office when he

0:37:29.400 --> 0:37:32.600
<v Speaker 1>was eight years old, for John Bollinger, who just wanted

0:37:32.640 --> 0:37:36.560
<v Speaker 1>to fight. Some guys have doubts farther down the road

0:37:36.760 --> 0:37:39.640
<v Speaker 1>once they've had a taste of the big sock, but

0:37:39.760 --> 0:37:43.480
<v Speaker 1>not rich Volski. For him, the war happened and now

0:37:43.520 --> 0:37:47.200
<v Speaker 1>it's over. He proved himself in the ancient right of combat,

0:37:47.400 --> 0:37:50.279
<v Speaker 1>made some great friends, and now he's home. Time to

0:37:50.360 --> 0:37:58.400
<v Speaker 1>move on. I asked rich Volski if he thinks of

0:37:58.440 --> 0:38:00.319
<v Speaker 1>what helps some of the other guys, if they learned

0:38:00.320 --> 0:38:03.959
<v Speaker 1>to view their own war experiences dispassionately the way he does,

0:38:04.480 --> 0:38:06.880
<v Speaker 1>to let go of their hatred of the enemy, for example.

0:38:07.960 --> 0:38:09.839
<v Speaker 1>I don't know, man, I don't know if that would

0:38:09.880 --> 0:38:13.640
<v Speaker 1>help him. I do not know. I think some people,

0:38:14.000 --> 0:38:18.680
<v Speaker 1>some people need there to be a demon there to

0:38:18.840 --> 0:38:27.200
<v Speaker 1>justify their feelings and their actions. Huh. I just don't

0:38:27.239 --> 0:38:29.680
<v Speaker 1>need that. I don't go to sleep at night and

0:38:29.719 --> 0:38:32.279
<v Speaker 1>wonder if I'm a good person or not, you know

0:38:32.320 --> 0:38:34.800
<v Speaker 1>what I mean. I can look at myself and know

0:38:34.880 --> 0:38:39.080
<v Speaker 1>that I'm a good person, regardless of whether you know

0:38:39.200 --> 0:38:42.239
<v Speaker 1>I did some killing or not. Rich Volski tells me

0:38:42.280 --> 0:38:44.840
<v Speaker 1>about one specific time in Sangin when he shot and

0:38:44.920 --> 0:38:47.920
<v Speaker 1>killed a man on a roof the way he remembers it,

0:38:48.000 --> 0:38:50.160
<v Speaker 1>the guy was setting up to shoot at Brian Scher.

0:38:51.520 --> 0:38:57.520
<v Speaker 1>When you squeeze the trigger and took that life, did

0:38:57.520 --> 0:39:01.680
<v Speaker 1>you feel like it was muscle memory, like it was

0:39:02.760 --> 0:39:06.799
<v Speaker 1>doing your job or not. It's fucking exhilarating. It's good,

0:39:07.960 --> 0:39:11.439
<v Speaker 1>it really is, you know, because that motherfucker was about

0:39:11.440 --> 0:39:20.359
<v Speaker 1>to kill Sheer. So yeah, it's good, and it's still good,

0:39:20.600 --> 0:39:24.040
<v Speaker 1>still good to this day. I like Shear Mourner, like

0:39:24.080 --> 0:39:27.640
<v Speaker 1>that motherfucker. It will be easy to apply the word

0:39:27.719 --> 0:39:32.560
<v Speaker 1>dehumanizing here. Rich Volsky had dehumanized the enemy, and therefore

0:39:32.760 --> 0:39:36.680
<v Speaker 1>killing was easy. Rich Volski himself had been dehumanized by

0:39:36.680 --> 0:39:40.080
<v Speaker 1>the military before he even arrived in Sangin, and therefore

0:39:40.280 --> 0:39:44.480
<v Speaker 1>killing was easy and so on. But it's only dehumanizing

0:39:44.560 --> 0:39:47.440
<v Speaker 1>if you believe that the capacity to kill for whatever

0:39:47.520 --> 0:39:51.480
<v Speaker 1>reason is alien to human nature rather than part of

0:39:51.480 --> 0:39:54.560
<v Speaker 1>what makes us human. Well, what's interesting to me about

0:39:54.600 --> 0:39:57.680
<v Speaker 1>you versus the other people I've talked to so far

0:39:57.920 --> 0:40:01.360
<v Speaker 1>is I think you're will nus to say that you

0:40:01.440 --> 0:40:05.960
<v Speaker 1>don't hold a grudge, your willingness to say even back then, Hey,

0:40:06.000 --> 0:40:09.520
<v Speaker 1>if people like us showed up in my hometown, I'd

0:40:09.560 --> 0:40:13.200
<v Speaker 1>be fighting them too. You were willing back then and

0:40:13.239 --> 0:40:18.000
<v Speaker 1>are still willing now to say that your enemy was

0:40:19.440 --> 0:40:22.239
<v Speaker 1>doing something that made sense to you. Your enemy was

0:40:22.280 --> 0:40:28.600
<v Speaker 1>basically human. And yet you're also willing to say that

0:40:28.640 --> 0:40:32.719
<v Speaker 1>you felt exhilarated when you neutralize the threat, when you

0:40:32.840 --> 0:40:34.600
<v Speaker 1>got to do your job, when you got to fire

0:40:34.640 --> 0:40:38.680
<v Speaker 1>your machine gun, particularly when you got to eliminate the threat,

0:40:38.719 --> 0:40:40.359
<v Speaker 1>when you got to kill the person who was trying

0:40:40.360 --> 0:40:43.799
<v Speaker 1>to kill you. That that felt good. It's primal, man.

0:40:48.640 --> 0:40:51.719
<v Speaker 1>The surge of adrenaline that comes with that primal experience

0:40:51.800 --> 0:40:54.680
<v Speaker 1>is intoxicating, and I know how addictive it can be.

0:40:56.600 --> 0:40:59.360
<v Speaker 1>The feeling of being the hunter and the hunted in

0:40:59.400 --> 0:41:03.400
<v Speaker 1>a place where life isn't precious and the future isn't guaranteed,

0:41:06.040 --> 0:41:10.399
<v Speaker 1>and you feel more alive because you're always ready to die.

0:41:19.800 --> 0:41:35.560
<v Speaker 1>We'll be back after the break. In the decades since

0:41:35.680 --> 0:41:38.440
<v Speaker 1>rich Bollski came home from Sangin, he says he's cried

0:41:38.480 --> 0:41:42.120
<v Speaker 1>exactly twice. He was hammered drunk both times, and with

0:41:42.160 --> 0:41:45.640
<v Speaker 1>other veterans, though not guys he served with. I asked

0:41:45.719 --> 0:41:48.440
<v Speaker 1>him what brought on the tears? I just wish everybody

0:41:48.480 --> 0:41:54.240
<v Speaker 1>would have come back. That would be what brings the sadness?

0:41:57.120 --> 0:42:08.280
<v Speaker 1>And are there questions related to that? Uh? Like what

0:42:08.840 --> 0:42:13.200
<v Speaker 1>I mean? Example? Can you give me an example? The

0:42:13.280 --> 0:42:15.719
<v Speaker 1>simplest example would be why did I come back and

0:42:15.760 --> 0:42:20.000
<v Speaker 1>they didn't. I do not have that question though, because

0:42:23.080 --> 0:42:26.640
<v Speaker 1>life's a bit man. That's the way it works. So

0:42:26.719 --> 0:42:29.640
<v Speaker 1>another question would be, and this is a question that

0:42:29.680 --> 0:42:33.479
<v Speaker 1>a lot of your squad mates asked themselves, is could

0:42:33.480 --> 0:42:37.840
<v Speaker 1>I have done something different? That's also one that doesn't

0:42:37.920 --> 0:42:40.839
<v Speaker 1>doesn't get to me either. I accept my actions, man,

0:42:41.320 --> 0:42:45.000
<v Speaker 1>So what what would you say to guys who put

0:42:45.040 --> 0:42:50.560
<v Speaker 1>that personal responsibility on themselves, who are asking themselves that question,

0:42:50.600 --> 0:42:52.880
<v Speaker 1>could I have done something different? Or maybe if I

0:42:52.920 --> 0:42:55.080
<v Speaker 1>had done this and not that, so and so would

0:42:55.080 --> 0:42:57.719
<v Speaker 1>be here? What would you say to people who are

0:42:57.840 --> 0:43:00.800
<v Speaker 1>kind of tortured by that? Make east with it, bud,

0:43:02.600 --> 0:43:09.400
<v Speaker 1>and they're never gonna fucking change. Rich Volski is adding

0:43:09.400 --> 0:43:11.279
<v Speaker 1>a new layer of meaning to the motto of the

0:43:11.320 --> 0:43:16.279
<v Speaker 1>first Battalion, Fifth Marines, make peace or die, or maybe

0:43:16.320 --> 0:43:20.319
<v Speaker 1>he's got a new motto altogether, make peace and live

0:43:20.360 --> 0:43:24.439
<v Speaker 1>your life. It's fucking ten years later. If you're still

0:43:24.440 --> 0:43:27.320
<v Speaker 1>blaming yourself, you better accept that it's your fucking fault.

0:43:27.320 --> 0:43:30.360
<v Speaker 1>At this point, you gotta move on with your life.

0:43:31.560 --> 0:43:34.920
<v Speaker 1>That sounds fucking savage, I know, to fucking say that

0:43:35.000 --> 0:43:37.839
<v Speaker 1>a better way, Well, don't you think it would be

0:43:37.840 --> 0:43:40.960
<v Speaker 1>better for them to accept the other side of it,

0:43:41.000 --> 0:43:43.560
<v Speaker 1>which is accept that it's not my fault. Just I

0:43:44.080 --> 0:43:48.920
<v Speaker 1>do think that's better, you know, And that's the side

0:43:48.920 --> 0:43:52.000
<v Speaker 1>of it that I think is the truth. But it's

0:43:52.040 --> 0:43:56.640
<v Speaker 1>been a fucking while now, and I feel like if

0:43:56.719 --> 0:44:00.120
<v Speaker 1>you're still on that one, I think you need to

0:44:00.160 --> 0:44:03.279
<v Speaker 1>figure a way to live with yourself because you may

0:44:03.280 --> 0:44:11.040
<v Speaker 1>not be able to change it at this point. So

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<v Speaker 1>correct me if I'm wrong. And I don't want to,

0:44:13.960 --> 0:44:15.319
<v Speaker 1>I don't want to say this the wrong way, but

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<v Speaker 1>correct me if I'm wrong that you've had an easier

0:44:18.120 --> 0:44:20.600
<v Speaker 1>time making peace with things than some of your friends.

0:44:21.040 --> 0:44:26.239
<v Speaker 1>I would say, do you ever wonder about why that is?

0:44:26.320 --> 0:44:29.000
<v Speaker 1>Do you ever or do you have any ideas about

0:44:29.080 --> 0:44:32.800
<v Speaker 1>why that is? The The only answer to that question

0:44:32.840 --> 0:44:36.880
<v Speaker 1>that I can give you is when I saw the Wizard,

0:44:37.480 --> 0:44:44.600
<v Speaker 1>I only went to one once ever, and uh, she said,

0:44:44.640 --> 0:44:49.160
<v Speaker 1>you had a good childhood, essentially, and that's why you're

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<v Speaker 1>all right. So the whether there's a truth behind that

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<v Speaker 1>or not, I don't know how anybody could her. No,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, I don't know how a psychiatrist knows anything,

0:45:05.040 --> 0:45:10.040
<v Speaker 1>because in my opinion, you can't be in anybody's brain.

0:45:12.640 --> 0:45:16.160
<v Speaker 1>I think your brain is your brain, and I don't

0:45:16.160 --> 0:45:19.240
<v Speaker 1>care how much science you'll throw at it. Fucking nobody's

0:45:19.280 --> 0:45:22.799
<v Speaker 1>ever been in here but me, Like, you know what

0:45:22.840 --> 0:45:26.799
<v Speaker 1>I mean? So the wizard this is a fun expression.

0:45:27.640 --> 0:45:31.960
<v Speaker 1>What does the wizard mean? That's the shrink psychiatrists. You know.

0:45:33.200 --> 0:45:38.080
<v Speaker 1>I remember being there. I feel like I just played,

0:45:38.160 --> 0:45:43.080
<v Speaker 1>I played the game, you know. Uh Like I felt

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<v Speaker 1>like I knew the answers that she wanted, you know,

0:45:46.200 --> 0:45:50.759
<v Speaker 1>and I just I went with that, you know, And

0:45:50.800 --> 0:45:54.480
<v Speaker 1>then she was like, all right, good you go. Richbolski

0:45:54.560 --> 0:45:56.359
<v Speaker 1>and the rest of third Squad had to go see

0:45:56.400 --> 0:45:58.640
<v Speaker 1>the Wizard after they got home from Sangon as part

0:45:58.680 --> 0:46:02.640
<v Speaker 1>of a routine post deployant health screening. What were the

0:46:02.680 --> 0:46:06.359
<v Speaker 1>answers that you thought she wanted to hear? What were

0:46:06.360 --> 0:46:11.439
<v Speaker 1>the questions? Oh, there's a lot about guilt. I mean,

0:46:11.640 --> 0:46:14.759
<v Speaker 1>funk man, you could be a psychiatrist. Hey, you're talking

0:46:14.760 --> 0:46:19.239
<v Speaker 1>to me about all the same bullshit she did. You know.

0:46:20.800 --> 0:46:23.919
<v Speaker 1>I swear to God, I believe this is it. It's

0:46:23.920 --> 0:46:25.600
<v Speaker 1>not a very It's not all that different when you

0:46:25.600 --> 0:46:28.160
<v Speaker 1>get down to it. Yeah, yeah, this is it. This

0:46:28.200 --> 0:46:30.040
<v Speaker 1>is what we fucking did, except what we're putting it

0:46:30.040 --> 0:46:32.880
<v Speaker 1>on audio. Well, also, you're not telling me what you

0:46:32.880 --> 0:46:35.600
<v Speaker 1>think I want to hear. Are you no good? Because

0:46:35.640 --> 0:46:39.080
<v Speaker 1>I don't want that. Like Michael Miner and Brian Sheer,

0:46:39.200 --> 0:46:41.799
<v Speaker 1>rich ball Ski doesn't think the mental health profession has

0:46:41.880 --> 0:46:45.600
<v Speaker 1>much to offer him. Do I think it's a bad thing. No,

0:46:46.400 --> 0:46:49.480
<v Speaker 1>I think it's a good thing for people who need it.

0:46:50.400 --> 0:46:54.799
<v Speaker 1>I just I don't think I needed it, and I

0:46:54.840 --> 0:46:57.759
<v Speaker 1>didn't want to get roped into a thing. I feel

0:46:57.760 --> 0:47:00.640
<v Speaker 1>like I could have easily got prescribed some fucking weird

0:47:00.680 --> 0:47:04.640
<v Speaker 1>brain drugs to fucking make my brain crazy. I didn't

0:47:04.640 --> 0:47:08.000
<v Speaker 1>like it. Shrinks aren't the only people rich Volsky is

0:47:08.000 --> 0:47:11.640
<v Speaker 1>skeptical of. Should I'm skeptical about you, Bud. Tell me

0:47:11.640 --> 0:47:14.319
<v Speaker 1>about that. Tell me about what what your skepticism is,

0:47:14.640 --> 0:47:16.600
<v Speaker 1>because you weren't. You weren't skeptical of me when I

0:47:16.600 --> 0:47:19.440
<v Speaker 1>was in Afghanistan. Yeah, I know I was. I was

0:47:19.520 --> 0:47:22.359
<v Speaker 1>young and dumb. But you're skeptical of me now? Yes.

0:47:22.960 --> 0:47:29.279
<v Speaker 1>I think there's a lot of ways to twist everything

0:47:30.520 --> 0:47:37.280
<v Speaker 1>that I've said in the last hour, and it uh

0:47:37.600 --> 0:47:41.279
<v Speaker 1>worries me that you're gonna do that. Rich Volski is

0:47:41.280 --> 0:47:43.680
<v Speaker 1>built a quiet life for himself up here in Alaska,

0:47:43.760 --> 0:47:46.160
<v Speaker 1>and he wants to keep it that way. When I

0:47:46.200 --> 0:47:48.040
<v Speaker 1>first got in touch with him. He told me I

0:47:48.040 --> 0:47:50.319
<v Speaker 1>could come visit and that we could talk, but he

0:47:50.360 --> 0:47:52.960
<v Speaker 1>said he didn't really want to be the story and

0:47:52.960 --> 0:47:56.080
<v Speaker 1>he didn't want to get too political. Now that I'm here,

0:47:56.239 --> 0:47:58.440
<v Speaker 1>he tells me what he thinks I need to focus on.

0:47:58.840 --> 0:48:00.520
<v Speaker 1>I don't think it's the killing that needs to be

0:48:00.560 --> 0:48:06.680
<v Speaker 1>touched on. I don't think it's uh why we got

0:48:06.680 --> 0:48:09.239
<v Speaker 1>sent there that needs to be touched on. I don't

0:48:09.239 --> 0:48:12.680
<v Speaker 1>think any of that fucking matters. The only part of

0:48:12.719 --> 0:48:16.280
<v Speaker 1>this that would matter would be the guys who didn't

0:48:16.320 --> 0:48:19.279
<v Speaker 1>come back, that didn't get to the side, if they

0:48:19.280 --> 0:48:21.840
<v Speaker 1>want to be fucked up or if they want to

0:48:21.880 --> 0:48:24.880
<v Speaker 1>fucking build a house. I think that's the part of

0:48:24.880 --> 0:48:28.200
<v Speaker 1>the news to be touched on. Like well, I would

0:48:28.280 --> 0:48:30.919
<v Speaker 1>be a very dishonest person if I told you that

0:48:30.920 --> 0:48:33.680
<v Speaker 1>that's all I was going to touch on, I would

0:48:33.719 --> 0:48:39.160
<v Speaker 1>be lying to you. I know, I know, because why

0:48:39.239 --> 0:48:46.520
<v Speaker 1>you got sent there, the sense that you all made

0:48:46.520 --> 0:48:49.719
<v Speaker 1>of it at the time, how you remember it, the

0:48:49.800 --> 0:48:55.640
<v Speaker 1>nitty gritty, bad, sad, terrible things that happened, the killing,

0:48:55.920 --> 0:49:01.520
<v Speaker 1>the aftermath, what you've all done since all of that

0:49:01.600 --> 0:49:11.640
<v Speaker 1>stuff is is the story, right? I think a little uh,

0:49:12.480 --> 0:49:17.200
<v Speaker 1>distrust on my end. It needs to go in there

0:49:18.040 --> 0:49:19.839
<v Speaker 1>because I'm sure I'm not the only one. There's there's

0:49:19.880 --> 0:49:23.759
<v Speaker 1>no fucking way, you know. I think you need to

0:49:23.800 --> 0:49:28.320
<v Speaker 1>show that. It makes us feel weird to tell the story.

0:49:30.200 --> 0:49:32.560
<v Speaker 1>It's not just that rich Volsky is skeptical of how

0:49:32.560 --> 0:49:35.200
<v Speaker 1>I'm going to tell his story. It's also that he

0:49:35.239 --> 0:49:38.160
<v Speaker 1>doesn't really see the point. I don't want to offend

0:49:38.200 --> 0:49:41.040
<v Speaker 1>you with my skepticism. You're not going to because I

0:49:41.080 --> 0:49:42.800
<v Speaker 1>like you, man, I like you. I don't want to

0:49:42.840 --> 0:49:45.040
<v Speaker 1>be a fucking dick, but you're not a dick. I'm

0:49:45.080 --> 0:49:50.400
<v Speaker 1>just saying that what's gonna fucking change, right? Maybe nothing?

0:49:51.640 --> 0:49:54.319
<v Speaker 1>Probably nothing, But you know what will change if I

0:49:54.360 --> 0:50:03.960
<v Speaker 1>don't do it? Definitely nothing. I doubt the Third Squad

0:50:04.000 --> 0:50:06.759
<v Speaker 1>Marines were thinking about their historical legacy when they were

0:50:06.760 --> 0:50:09.120
<v Speaker 1>in the thick of the fight and sang in they

0:50:09.160 --> 0:50:13.320
<v Speaker 1>had more urgent concerns. But they are a part of history,

0:50:13.520 --> 0:50:17.160
<v Speaker 1>and I think it's important to hear their stories. Rich

0:50:17.239 --> 0:50:20.480
<v Speaker 1>Volski would just as soon close the book, and he's

0:50:20.520 --> 0:50:23.120
<v Speaker 1>not tortured by his memories or his feelings about the

0:50:23.120 --> 0:50:26.520
<v Speaker 1>war like some of the other guys. Why some people

0:50:26.560 --> 0:50:29.600
<v Speaker 1>struggle more than others after a traumatic experience is one

0:50:29.600 --> 0:50:33.759
<v Speaker 1>of the great unanswered questions. In rich Volski's case, his

0:50:33.880 --> 0:50:37.400
<v Speaker 1>tb I induced memory problems might actually be a blessing,

0:50:38.560 --> 0:50:42.560
<v Speaker 1>like the fact that there isn't this very clear, organized

0:50:42.640 --> 0:50:44.600
<v Speaker 1>set of memories that you go back to over and

0:50:44.640 --> 0:50:48.480
<v Speaker 1>over and over. I'm wondering if that doesn't help you

0:50:48.520 --> 0:50:53.640
<v Speaker 1>in a certain way, sure does. Nothing is forced upon

0:50:53.719 --> 0:51:01.320
<v Speaker 1>me repetitively by my own brain. Rich Volsky's tb I

0:51:01.440 --> 0:51:05.040
<v Speaker 1>symptoms are relatively mild, but not everyone is so lucky.

0:51:06.120 --> 0:51:10.080
<v Speaker 1>T b ies can cause serious problems like amnesia, seizures,

0:51:10.200 --> 0:51:13.560
<v Speaker 1>chronic fatigue, and increased risk of dementia, as well as

0:51:13.560 --> 0:51:17.960
<v Speaker 1>a host of emotional issues like violent mood swings, anxiety, depression,

0:51:18.000 --> 0:51:22.360
<v Speaker 1>and sexual dysfunction. T b I and PTSD often go

0:51:22.520 --> 0:51:25.160
<v Speaker 1>hand in hand, and veterans with t b ies are

0:51:25.160 --> 0:51:28.960
<v Speaker 1>more than twice as likely to commit suicide. World War

0:51:29.040 --> 0:51:31.840
<v Speaker 1>One veterans who showed similar symptoms in the aftermath of

0:51:31.920 --> 0:51:35.560
<v Speaker 1>artillery barrages were said to have shell shock, the signature

0:51:35.600 --> 0:51:39.640
<v Speaker 1>injury of trench warfare. Almost a century later, t B

0:51:39.760 --> 0:51:42.239
<v Speaker 1>eyes emerged as the signature injury of the post nine

0:51:42.239 --> 0:51:46.200
<v Speaker 1>eleven Wars because of troops frequent exposure to i EB explosions.

0:51:47.760 --> 0:51:50.520
<v Speaker 1>According to the Department of Defense, more than four hundred

0:51:50.600 --> 0:51:53.200
<v Speaker 1>thousand U S service members experienced to t b I

0:51:53.320 --> 0:51:56.480
<v Speaker 1>in the past two decades, including as many as one

0:51:56.520 --> 0:52:00.880
<v Speaker 1>in every five I Rock and Afghanistan veterans. Rich Volski

0:52:01.000 --> 0:52:03.160
<v Speaker 1>has come to view his tv I is something that

0:52:03.239 --> 0:52:05.799
<v Speaker 1>helps him more than it hurts him, and there may

0:52:05.800 --> 0:52:08.839
<v Speaker 1>be other reasons why he seems so unburdened by the war.

0:52:09.840 --> 0:52:12.240
<v Speaker 1>Like the Wizard said, he might have bounced back because

0:52:12.239 --> 0:52:15.279
<v Speaker 1>he had a good childhood in a supportive family. Or

0:52:15.320 --> 0:52:18.120
<v Speaker 1>maybe it's just his laid back Hawaiian side shining through

0:52:18.160 --> 0:52:22.360
<v Speaker 1>his gruff Alaskan exterior. I've made peace, man. You know,

0:52:23.680 --> 0:52:26.000
<v Speaker 1>I'm at peace with myself. I'm at peace with where

0:52:26.000 --> 0:52:39.800
<v Speaker 1>I'm at in my life. I'm good. Hi Ho, Hi Ho.

0:52:40.640 --> 0:52:44.399
<v Speaker 1>It's off to work. We go. It's so much better

0:52:44.440 --> 0:52:47.800
<v Speaker 1>of a drive when there's not anybody else. It's single

0:52:47.880 --> 0:52:50.480
<v Speaker 1>digits and pitch black outside. The next morning, when rich

0:52:50.520 --> 0:52:52.680
<v Speaker 1>Revolski and I climb into the cab of his pickup,

0:52:53.440 --> 0:52:55.319
<v Speaker 1>I've got an early flight out of anchorage, and he

0:52:55.360 --> 0:52:59.120
<v Speaker 1>has to be at work by seven am. On the drive,

0:52:59.200 --> 0:53:02.160
<v Speaker 1>we keep our eyes peeled for moose. We swap hunting

0:53:02.200 --> 0:53:04.839
<v Speaker 1>stories and talk about our mutual love for the wilderness,

0:53:05.520 --> 0:53:09.680
<v Speaker 1>the mountains, rivers and wildlife that demand respect and deliver

0:53:09.800 --> 0:53:14.200
<v Speaker 1>swift punishment to anyone who doesn't give it. Do you

0:53:14.239 --> 0:53:20.000
<v Speaker 1>feel free? You know, no distractions, nobody around you, rely

0:53:20.200 --> 0:53:24.440
<v Speaker 1>on yourself. Being out there in those vast and unforgiving

0:53:24.440 --> 0:53:28.600
<v Speaker 1>places is exhilarating, but nothing matches the high of being

0:53:28.600 --> 0:53:33.360
<v Speaker 1>at war. Unfortunately, that high and its soul shaping effect

0:53:33.880 --> 0:53:37.560
<v Speaker 1>came at the steepest price. For us to have that

0:53:37.680 --> 0:53:41.560
<v Speaker 1>primal experience that made us who we are, others had

0:53:41.600 --> 0:54:20.319
<v Speaker 1>to die. Next time on third Squad, I'll be back

0:54:20.360 --> 0:54:23.400
<v Speaker 1>in the lower forty eight visiting Scott mccitchen in Kentucky.

0:54:24.120 --> 0:54:26.040
<v Speaker 1>I got kicked to the curb because I made one

0:54:26.040 --> 0:54:30.200
<v Speaker 1>poor choice after fallless service, I would say when I

0:54:30.239 --> 0:54:32.800
<v Speaker 1>got kicked out, I had no benefits or no direction

0:54:32.920 --> 0:54:35.720
<v Speaker 1>or guideline, or none of my friends I had served

0:54:35.760 --> 0:54:40.000
<v Speaker 1>with around me or in my life. I started selling cocaine,

0:54:40.719 --> 0:54:44.839
<v Speaker 1>so I mean, and I was going to school as well,

0:54:45.360 --> 0:54:47.160
<v Speaker 1>But how the hell else am I going to payper.

0:54:47.239 --> 0:54:50.200
<v Speaker 1>I'm back to square one. What did that feel like

0:54:50.320 --> 0:54:55.360
<v Speaker 1>for you? Suck felt like fucking defeat. I would describe

0:54:55.400 --> 0:54:58.360
<v Speaker 1>it like the same way a guy feels when he

0:54:58.400 --> 0:55:01.279
<v Speaker 1>walks in on his fucking wife Lane in bed with

0:55:01.320 --> 0:55:12.560
<v Speaker 1>another dude. It felt that shitty. Third Squad is written

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