1 00:00:06,519 --> 00:00:07,800 Speaker 1: Happy Monday everyone. 2 00:00:08,200 --> 00:00:10,840 Speaker 2: Thank you for joining me on this week's episode of 3 00:00:10,920 --> 00:00:14,360 Speaker 2: Cheeky's and Chill Podcast. This season, we've talked a lot 4 00:00:14,360 --> 00:00:18,159 Speaker 2: about personal growth and health and healing, and today I 5 00:00:18,239 --> 00:00:21,040 Speaker 2: really want to continue talking about those names. I wanted 6 00:00:21,040 --> 00:00:23,040 Speaker 2: to hop on the mic today to talk to you 7 00:00:23,079 --> 00:00:26,360 Speaker 2: guys about healing your inner child. This is something I've 8 00:00:26,400 --> 00:00:30,040 Speaker 2: been working through in therapy and it's honestly been life 9 00:00:30,120 --> 00:00:33,120 Speaker 2: changing for me. And since I know that therapy isn't 10 00:00:33,120 --> 00:00:35,440 Speaker 2: always accessible to everyone, I wanted to hop on the 11 00:00:35,479 --> 00:00:38,200 Speaker 2: mic and share how I've been healing my inner child 12 00:00:38,479 --> 00:00:41,960 Speaker 2: and how it's helped me. So let's hop right into 13 00:00:41,960 --> 00:00:46,640 Speaker 2: this episode. So I've been on this healing my inner 14 00:00:46,960 --> 00:00:53,479 Speaker 2: child without really even realizing it since last year when 15 00:00:53,520 --> 00:00:57,200 Speaker 2: I went to my psychedelics retreat in Las Jo da Mexico, 16 00:00:57,720 --> 00:01:03,280 Speaker 2: and I I did ninho santos, which are magical mushrooms, 17 00:01:04,080 --> 00:01:12,200 Speaker 2: and I saw myself as a little Asian girl. I 18 00:01:12,200 --> 00:01:16,039 Speaker 2: don't know for me, I saw China, and I think 19 00:01:16,040 --> 00:01:18,960 Speaker 2: maybe because I've been to China, but I saw China 20 00:01:19,000 --> 00:01:20,920 Speaker 2: and I saw myself as a little Asian girl, and 21 00:01:20,959 --> 00:01:24,240 Speaker 2: I saw my dad in my visions and it's really 22 00:01:24,240 --> 00:01:28,600 Speaker 2: hard to explain because it's been so long. I'm like trying, 23 00:01:28,640 --> 00:01:30,880 Speaker 2: like if I really meditate and do my breath work, 24 00:01:30,920 --> 00:01:34,240 Speaker 2: I can get myself to that place. But I remember 25 00:01:34,319 --> 00:01:40,600 Speaker 2: specifically like feeling this incredible joy in my soul of 26 00:01:40,640 --> 00:01:44,440 Speaker 2: like I have never felt this happy. And I was 27 00:01:44,560 --> 00:01:48,240 Speaker 2: a little girl. I was giggling, I was crying. I 28 00:01:48,320 --> 00:01:51,560 Speaker 2: felt my body healing. I saw my dad and I 29 00:01:51,640 --> 00:01:55,120 Speaker 2: understood everything that happened with him, and I not that 30 00:01:55,160 --> 00:01:58,559 Speaker 2: I'm excusing it, but I understood and I had compassion 31 00:01:58,600 --> 00:02:02,360 Speaker 2: for him, and I just saw myself as a little girl, 32 00:02:02,360 --> 00:02:04,880 Speaker 2: like I felt like God was giving me the opportunity 33 00:02:05,080 --> 00:02:09,560 Speaker 2: in this experience to just feel what joy felt. And 34 00:02:10,320 --> 00:02:13,920 Speaker 2: I didn't see God. I felt God for me. God 35 00:02:13,919 --> 00:02:17,640 Speaker 2: has always been like a mel but now I'm starting 36 00:02:17,680 --> 00:02:20,440 Speaker 2: to like move into like God can be female. But anyway, 37 00:02:20,440 --> 00:02:25,519 Speaker 2: the point is in that moment, he was a total guy. 38 00:02:26,800 --> 00:02:30,800 Speaker 2: So he was speaking to me and telling me, you 39 00:02:30,919 --> 00:02:36,359 Speaker 2: have been through so much and I am pouring your 40 00:02:36,480 --> 00:02:40,480 Speaker 2: heart in this moment with so much love. I want 41 00:02:40,560 --> 00:02:42,480 Speaker 2: you to be a kid. I want you to enjoy 42 00:02:42,520 --> 00:02:44,520 Speaker 2: and to feel what you should have felt when you 43 00:02:44,520 --> 00:02:48,720 Speaker 2: were little. But your innocence was taken from you. I'm 44 00:02:48,720 --> 00:02:51,640 Speaker 2: allowing you to see and to feel this compassion for 45 00:02:51,680 --> 00:02:54,000 Speaker 2: your dad because that's going to allow you to fully 46 00:02:55,240 --> 00:03:00,480 Speaker 2: forgive him. And mind you these things that I'm telling you. 47 00:03:00,520 --> 00:03:05,799 Speaker 2: It wasn't a voice. It was my deepest intuition of 48 00:03:05,840 --> 00:03:08,480 Speaker 2: like I was connected to my highest self. I was 49 00:03:08,520 --> 00:03:10,880 Speaker 2: in bliss and I was in I think, the highest 50 00:03:11,160 --> 00:03:17,560 Speaker 2: enlightenment of my life, so much so that I knew far, far, 51 00:03:17,639 --> 00:03:20,120 Speaker 2: far up because I felt like I was a little girl, 52 00:03:20,160 --> 00:03:22,280 Speaker 2: like in heaven. It just felt like heaven. I was like, 53 00:03:22,360 --> 00:03:27,280 Speaker 2: this is what heaven feels like. And that voice, that 54 00:03:27,320 --> 00:03:30,120 Speaker 2: feeling that I felt, was like, yes, this is what 55 00:03:30,200 --> 00:03:33,639 Speaker 2: you have to look forward to when you go because 56 00:03:33,680 --> 00:03:36,360 Speaker 2: you have been through so much and if you obey 57 00:03:36,480 --> 00:03:39,480 Speaker 2: and if you continue to be a good person, this 58 00:03:39,520 --> 00:03:42,160 Speaker 2: is what you're going to feel. And it was crazy 59 00:03:42,200 --> 00:03:43,760 Speaker 2: because I was like, I want to stay here forever, 60 00:03:43,960 --> 00:03:46,880 Speaker 2: like I want to feel this happiness forever because I 61 00:03:46,880 --> 00:03:50,640 Speaker 2: didn't feel this for so long. But then in my 62 00:03:50,760 --> 00:03:53,680 Speaker 2: mind I was like, but wait, Emilio, like I don't 63 00:03:53,720 --> 00:03:55,800 Speaker 2: want I feel bad I'm going to leave him. So 64 00:03:55,840 --> 00:03:58,480 Speaker 2: it was the craziest feeling I know it might sound crazy. 65 00:03:58,720 --> 00:04:01,200 Speaker 2: Only if you've experienced this, will you know that I'm 66 00:04:01,240 --> 00:04:04,680 Speaker 2: not crazy. But it's something I can't even like really 67 00:04:04,720 --> 00:04:06,800 Speaker 2: really explain. I'm trying my best to kind of like 68 00:04:07,440 --> 00:04:09,600 Speaker 2: set a little visual for you, a little you know, 69 00:04:10,160 --> 00:04:12,080 Speaker 2: so you can visualize what it is that I'm talking about. 70 00:04:12,520 --> 00:04:16,760 Speaker 2: But anyway, it started then and right after my retreat, 71 00:04:17,279 --> 00:04:20,440 Speaker 2: I didn't really give myself time to integrate because I 72 00:04:20,440 --> 00:04:20,960 Speaker 2: had to work. 73 00:04:21,600 --> 00:04:22,640 Speaker 1: I had to do what I had to do. 74 00:04:22,760 --> 00:04:24,800 Speaker 2: I think it's very important at least to give yourself 75 00:04:24,839 --> 00:04:27,120 Speaker 2: a week after something like that to just integrate, to 76 00:04:27,160 --> 00:04:30,400 Speaker 2: like come back to your body and you know, like 77 00:04:30,720 --> 00:04:34,480 Speaker 2: understand that you weren't crazy, that. 78 00:04:34,200 --> 00:04:35,279 Speaker 1: That really happened. 79 00:04:36,000 --> 00:04:37,840 Speaker 2: And I didn't really have that luxury because I had 80 00:04:37,839 --> 00:04:40,400 Speaker 2: to work, thank goodness. Twenty twenty four was a very 81 00:04:40,520 --> 00:04:43,680 Speaker 2: very successful year for me, thank God, but it took 82 00:04:43,720 --> 00:04:47,839 Speaker 2: everything out of me, especially after that experience, and I 83 00:04:47,920 --> 00:04:51,120 Speaker 2: was just trying to like live in my spirituality and 84 00:04:51,160 --> 00:04:53,560 Speaker 2: also in my physical body, and it was something very 85 00:04:53,600 --> 00:04:58,640 Speaker 2: difficult for me to understand. So it started then and 86 00:04:59,080 --> 00:05:03,120 Speaker 2: I saw my dad and all that stuff happened where 87 00:05:03,160 --> 00:05:05,240 Speaker 2: I just forgave him and he asked me for forgiveness, 88 00:05:05,279 --> 00:05:07,480 Speaker 2: and I think that's because I went to the retreat 89 00:05:07,520 --> 00:05:09,120 Speaker 2: after Anyway, I'm not going to get into all that, 90 00:05:09,200 --> 00:05:12,960 Speaker 2: because the point is that that's when it started, when 91 00:05:12,960 --> 00:05:16,760 Speaker 2: I started to understand the importance of healing your inner 92 00:05:16,839 --> 00:05:19,440 Speaker 2: child and tapping into your inner child. We all have one, 93 00:05:19,480 --> 00:05:22,840 Speaker 2: because we have all been children before we started off 94 00:05:22,880 --> 00:05:26,200 Speaker 2: as children. That's how we came into the world. And 95 00:05:26,320 --> 00:05:30,000 Speaker 2: now more than ever, I get it because I had 96 00:05:30,040 --> 00:05:34,559 Speaker 2: Moriy Fontanez on the podcast and she's now my life coach, 97 00:05:35,520 --> 00:05:38,960 Speaker 2: and I got her book even before I knew she 98 00:05:39,040 --> 00:05:42,120 Speaker 2: was even going to come onto the podcast, and I 99 00:05:42,160 --> 00:05:44,279 Speaker 2: started reading her book, and she talks a lot about 100 00:05:44,600 --> 00:05:50,880 Speaker 2: your inner child and how we forget, and not only 101 00:05:50,920 --> 00:05:55,520 Speaker 2: do we forget, but sometimes actually a lot of the times, 102 00:05:56,000 --> 00:05:58,640 Speaker 2: our parents have a lot to do with it because 103 00:05:58,680 --> 00:06:02,360 Speaker 2: they're stressed and we could be in the backyard and 104 00:06:02,400 --> 00:06:05,080 Speaker 2: we're pretending to be an airplane and we're just flying 105 00:06:05,120 --> 00:06:07,680 Speaker 2: around and being silly and just really just being ourselves 106 00:06:07,720 --> 00:06:10,279 Speaker 2: and being free and like you know, like not having 107 00:06:10,320 --> 00:06:13,000 Speaker 2: any boundaries, and then you bump into your mom because 108 00:06:13,040 --> 00:06:15,599 Speaker 2: your eyes are close right, and your mom's like stopping silly, 109 00:06:15,640 --> 00:06:19,080 Speaker 2: just sit down. So then our little selves just we 110 00:06:19,120 --> 00:06:21,080 Speaker 2: sit down and we're like, okay, just not going to 111 00:06:21,120 --> 00:06:24,440 Speaker 2: play anymore. I'm not going to use my imaginary friends. 112 00:06:24,480 --> 00:06:26,320 Speaker 2: I don't know if you guys ever had an imaginary friend. 113 00:06:26,360 --> 00:06:26,880 Speaker 1: I shared it. 114 00:06:27,400 --> 00:06:29,760 Speaker 2: I would talk to my dolls all the time, and 115 00:06:31,760 --> 00:06:33,479 Speaker 2: that was when I was younger. I remember doing that 116 00:06:33,520 --> 00:06:35,520 Speaker 2: when I was like six or seven. Mind you, when 117 00:06:35,520 --> 00:06:38,159 Speaker 2: I turned eight years old was when I first remember 118 00:06:38,240 --> 00:06:43,560 Speaker 2: my dad's sectually abusing me, and that I think was 119 00:06:43,600 --> 00:06:47,839 Speaker 2: a huge part of me forgetting about my inner child 120 00:06:48,400 --> 00:06:53,400 Speaker 2: because my innocence was taken from me. My mom was 121 00:06:53,440 --> 00:06:56,240 Speaker 2: a single mother. I was the eldest. I had to 122 00:06:56,279 --> 00:06:58,600 Speaker 2: help her. I just had to grow up really fast, 123 00:06:59,600 --> 00:07:04,120 Speaker 2: and I was just programmed to forget about my inner child, 124 00:07:04,520 --> 00:07:09,080 Speaker 2: and I stopped playing and talking to my dolls. I 125 00:07:09,080 --> 00:07:10,600 Speaker 2: had to put them to the side because there were 126 00:07:10,680 --> 00:07:12,840 Speaker 2: more important things that needed to be done, taking care 127 00:07:12,840 --> 00:07:17,200 Speaker 2: of my siblings, cleaning the house, helping my siblings with 128 00:07:17,200 --> 00:07:20,560 Speaker 2: their homework, and I was always left at the very 129 00:07:22,200 --> 00:07:25,640 Speaker 2: end of the day, and academically I wasn't the best 130 00:07:25,840 --> 00:07:30,000 Speaker 2: because I had so many responsibilities. For a long time, 131 00:07:31,320 --> 00:07:34,280 Speaker 2: especially after my mom passed, I was very upset. Obviously 132 00:07:34,360 --> 00:07:36,200 Speaker 2: with my dad, I was like I had forgiven him, 133 00:07:36,200 --> 00:07:37,760 Speaker 2: But I think I was more upset with my mom 134 00:07:37,800 --> 00:07:41,120 Speaker 2: because I had lived so much more time with her. 135 00:07:41,640 --> 00:07:43,840 Speaker 2: When my dad left my life, I was twelve years old, 136 00:07:44,040 --> 00:07:46,440 Speaker 2: so I didn't really have a lot besides the fact 137 00:07:46,440 --> 00:07:49,720 Speaker 2: that he sexually abused me, and obviously that hurt me, 138 00:07:49,840 --> 00:07:52,640 Speaker 2: But I didn't spend a lot of time with Dad. 139 00:07:52,640 --> 00:07:55,320 Speaker 2: I would go with that on the weekends, and he 140 00:07:55,360 --> 00:07:57,920 Speaker 2: was just more lenient and it was just fun. He 141 00:07:57,920 --> 00:08:01,000 Speaker 2: would make us Mackey Mouse pancake and we would watch 142 00:08:01,080 --> 00:08:05,440 Speaker 2: movies and at mom it was serious business. So that's 143 00:08:05,480 --> 00:08:07,160 Speaker 2: why I feel like I didn't have that much of 144 00:08:07,200 --> 00:08:09,360 Speaker 2: a hard time with my dad or forgiving him, because 145 00:08:09,360 --> 00:08:11,560 Speaker 2: I didn't have much to compare it to, Like I 146 00:08:11,640 --> 00:08:13,880 Speaker 2: just was like all I really knew was what had happened, 147 00:08:13,920 --> 00:08:17,080 Speaker 2: and then you know, like all this fun stuff that 148 00:08:17,080 --> 00:08:18,800 Speaker 2: we would do on the weekends because he was a 149 00:08:18,800 --> 00:08:22,400 Speaker 2: weekend dad anyway. So now I can gladly say that 150 00:08:22,440 --> 00:08:24,960 Speaker 2: my relationship with my mom is so much better. And 151 00:08:25,000 --> 00:08:26,880 Speaker 2: I have a whole episode on it talking about how 152 00:08:27,400 --> 00:08:29,040 Speaker 2: in love I am with my mother and I don't care. 153 00:08:29,080 --> 00:08:32,520 Speaker 2: I am in love with my mom. And I say 154 00:08:32,600 --> 00:08:34,079 Speaker 2: like that because one day she told me, She's like, 155 00:08:34,120 --> 00:08:35,960 Speaker 2: I think you're in love with me, and I was like, 156 00:08:36,400 --> 00:08:38,880 Speaker 2: that's weird. So does she think I'm like because I 157 00:08:38,960 --> 00:08:40,880 Speaker 2: like I liked a girl, then like I'm like in 158 00:08:40,920 --> 00:08:42,800 Speaker 2: love with her, but like, you know, that's you know, 159 00:08:42,880 --> 00:08:45,680 Speaker 2: she didn't really. I think if my mom would be 160 00:08:45,720 --> 00:08:50,320 Speaker 2: here now, definitely she would have healed and things would 161 00:08:50,320 --> 00:08:52,880 Speaker 2: be so much better. But what I'm trying to get 162 00:08:52,920 --> 00:08:58,640 Speaker 2: to is that I learned that our parents are just 163 00:08:58,679 --> 00:09:03,080 Speaker 2: trying to get through life as well, and having compassion 164 00:09:03,160 --> 00:09:08,480 Speaker 2: for them and not blaming them for everything, because I 165 00:09:08,480 --> 00:09:10,440 Speaker 2: would blame a lot and. 166 00:09:10,400 --> 00:09:11,199 Speaker 1: Be like it was my mom. 167 00:09:11,240 --> 00:09:13,040 Speaker 2: My mom did this to me, and my mom made 168 00:09:13,080 --> 00:09:15,200 Speaker 2: me feel ashamed about my body because this and that, 169 00:09:15,240 --> 00:09:17,440 Speaker 2: and it's just like, yeah, I'm not saying she was right, 170 00:09:18,160 --> 00:09:22,080 Speaker 2: but she didn't know any better. And now people are 171 00:09:22,080 --> 00:09:25,440 Speaker 2: starting to wake up and we're more you know, we 172 00:09:25,520 --> 00:09:28,240 Speaker 2: talk about emotional intelligence and stuff like that in therapy. 173 00:09:28,320 --> 00:09:31,760 Speaker 2: My mom didn't really know any of those things. She 174 00:09:31,920 --> 00:09:33,800 Speaker 2: was just I have five kids, I'm a single mother. 175 00:09:33,840 --> 00:09:35,240 Speaker 1: I gotta do what I gotta do. I gotta get 176 00:09:35,280 --> 00:09:35,800 Speaker 1: shit done. 177 00:09:36,559 --> 00:09:39,440 Speaker 2: She was on survival mode till the very last day 178 00:09:39,440 --> 00:09:43,319 Speaker 2: of her life. So that's where I come in, and 179 00:09:43,760 --> 00:09:49,560 Speaker 2: I'm going to heal our lineage. And I really really 180 00:09:49,640 --> 00:09:53,319 Speaker 2: really feel that, I really feel like I am meant 181 00:09:53,320 --> 00:09:57,600 Speaker 2: to heal us, and as I'm healing myself, I'm also 182 00:09:57,720 --> 00:10:00,560 Speaker 2: going to heal my future children and my future child, 183 00:10:00,880 --> 00:10:05,040 Speaker 2: my mother, her legacy. And that's why I wanted to 184 00:10:05,040 --> 00:10:07,360 Speaker 2: talk about this because I was one of those people 185 00:10:07,360 --> 00:10:08,640 Speaker 2: that I was just like, I'm just going to blame 186 00:10:08,640 --> 00:10:11,080 Speaker 2: my parents for everything. And although yes they played a 187 00:10:11,160 --> 00:10:14,319 Speaker 2: huge part, if not the biggest role in us forgetting 188 00:10:14,640 --> 00:10:17,280 Speaker 2: our inner child and how to tap into our inner child, 189 00:10:18,240 --> 00:10:22,440 Speaker 2: we have to have understanding and compassion for them and 190 00:10:22,640 --> 00:10:26,360 Speaker 2: understand especially every situation is different. I didn't have the 191 00:10:26,440 --> 00:10:29,160 Speaker 2: luxury of having a mother that was present because she 192 00:10:29,200 --> 00:10:40,679 Speaker 2: had a work, because our dads weren't financially responsible. So 193 00:10:41,080 --> 00:10:45,760 Speaker 2: now going back to Mori Fontinez's book, I read that 194 00:10:45,840 --> 00:10:47,520 Speaker 2: and then I was like, I want this woman to 195 00:10:47,720 --> 00:10:50,080 Speaker 2: be my life coach. So I took a few sessions 196 00:10:50,120 --> 00:10:52,880 Speaker 2: with her, and she actually emailed me the other day 197 00:10:52,920 --> 00:10:56,880 Speaker 2: said we need another session, And basically what you do 198 00:10:57,200 --> 00:10:58,920 Speaker 2: is it was all on zoom. I haven't had the 199 00:10:58,920 --> 00:11:03,760 Speaker 2: opportunity to have a session in person, but what this 200 00:11:03,800 --> 00:11:08,960 Speaker 2: woman does is incredible. It is It inspired me so 201 00:11:09,160 --> 00:11:14,079 Speaker 2: much to really tap into my not only my inner child, 202 00:11:14,160 --> 00:11:18,439 Speaker 2: but really trust my intuition. And we talk a lot 203 00:11:18,440 --> 00:11:22,080 Speaker 2: about intuition here, because I call it the voice of God. 204 00:11:22,640 --> 00:11:26,320 Speaker 2: That's God speaking to me. God lives in me as me. 205 00:11:26,400 --> 00:11:28,880 Speaker 2: That's my intuition. That feeling that you're like, Okay, this 206 00:11:28,960 --> 00:11:30,960 Speaker 2: isn't right, but we ignore it and then we're later 207 00:11:31,000 --> 00:11:33,280 Speaker 2: like damn, I wish I would have listened to that. 208 00:11:33,280 --> 00:11:37,400 Speaker 2: That's our intuition. When we practice meditation and prayer and 209 00:11:38,080 --> 00:11:40,120 Speaker 2: we take time in the morning to just really tap 210 00:11:40,200 --> 00:11:45,080 Speaker 2: into our higher self, our intuition is louder and louder. 211 00:11:45,080 --> 00:11:48,559 Speaker 2: It gets louder and louder. Now everything is making sense. 212 00:11:48,840 --> 00:11:50,360 Speaker 2: That's all I can tell you, guys, is like, now 213 00:11:50,440 --> 00:11:53,000 Speaker 2: everything is making sense. And the more you get into 214 00:11:53,040 --> 00:11:56,800 Speaker 2: this journey of healing, of really wanting to understand what 215 00:11:56,840 --> 00:11:59,319 Speaker 2: life is about, You're gonna know what I'm talking about. 216 00:12:00,480 --> 00:12:03,200 Speaker 2: So when I took my first session with her, I 217 00:12:03,240 --> 00:12:05,520 Speaker 2: don't remember exactly what I was going through. I want 218 00:12:05,559 --> 00:12:07,719 Speaker 2: to say I had to do something with my relationship. 219 00:12:08,840 --> 00:12:14,840 Speaker 2: And oh, actually I had to do with abandonment because 220 00:12:14,840 --> 00:12:18,480 Speaker 2: I was afraid to tell Amdial something that I wanted 221 00:12:18,520 --> 00:12:21,839 Speaker 2: to do and I didn't want to cause him anxiety 222 00:12:22,040 --> 00:12:23,960 Speaker 2: because I was going to go somewhere by myself. And 223 00:12:24,000 --> 00:12:25,079 Speaker 2: I was like, I don't even know how to bring 224 00:12:25,120 --> 00:12:27,520 Speaker 2: it up. It's not anything bad, it's just like, why 225 00:12:27,559 --> 00:12:31,600 Speaker 2: do I feel afraid to tell him? And so she's like, okay, 226 00:12:32,320 --> 00:12:36,200 Speaker 2: let's go back. Where did this start? And so she 227 00:12:36,320 --> 00:12:38,440 Speaker 2: took me back. We did breath work, and she made 228 00:12:38,440 --> 00:12:40,680 Speaker 2: me close my eyes, and she made me tap into 229 00:12:40,679 --> 00:12:44,839 Speaker 2: my inner child, and we went to this place me 230 00:12:44,880 --> 00:12:48,040 Speaker 2: as an adult and met my inner child, and we 231 00:12:48,160 --> 00:12:51,160 Speaker 2: discovered where this whole thing happened. Not only am I 232 00:12:51,200 --> 00:12:56,040 Speaker 2: afraid to speak up, but I'm afraid of abandonment, or 233 00:12:56,320 --> 00:13:00,680 Speaker 2: was afraid of abandonment because girl, a bitch is healing. Okay, 234 00:13:01,120 --> 00:13:06,079 Speaker 2: So anyway, she took me there. Dude, it was a 235 00:13:06,200 --> 00:13:08,640 Speaker 2: journey like and I'm talking about I was really there 236 00:13:08,679 --> 00:13:10,200 Speaker 2: because I was like, I'm going to do this, like 237 00:13:10,240 --> 00:13:11,120 Speaker 2: I really believe this. 238 00:13:11,240 --> 00:13:14,439 Speaker 1: I believe in her. I believe in her work. And 239 00:13:14,840 --> 00:13:16,280 Speaker 1: that's what it takes. You need a believe. 240 00:13:16,440 --> 00:13:17,640 Speaker 2: If you don't believe in, you're like, this is a 241 00:13:17,679 --> 00:13:19,560 Speaker 2: bunch of bs, it's not going to happen, Like it's 242 00:13:19,600 --> 00:13:21,160 Speaker 2: just not You're not going to be able to tap in. 243 00:13:21,559 --> 00:13:25,280 Speaker 2: So I completely leaned in. I surrendered. I did exactly 244 00:13:25,280 --> 00:13:28,480 Speaker 2: what she told me. I saw myself as a little 245 00:13:28,520 --> 00:13:33,320 Speaker 2: girl under a tree, sitting there playing with the little doll, 246 00:13:34,280 --> 00:13:38,160 Speaker 2: and here comes big Jane, and I said, like, ky, 247 00:13:38,200 --> 00:13:41,000 Speaker 2: can I sit down with you? And I sat down 248 00:13:41,040 --> 00:13:45,640 Speaker 2: with little Janney and we just started talking and we 249 00:13:45,760 --> 00:13:47,680 Speaker 2: talked about all kinds of things, and we talked to 250 00:13:47,720 --> 00:13:50,520 Speaker 2: That's where it came up where I was afraid to 251 00:13:50,559 --> 00:13:53,520 Speaker 2: speak my mind because of what was happening to me 252 00:13:53,559 --> 00:13:56,600 Speaker 2: as a child. And I was afraid of ruining everything 253 00:13:56,640 --> 00:14:01,000 Speaker 2: around me because if I told mom that I was 254 00:14:01,040 --> 00:14:03,559 Speaker 2: being sexually abused, Dad was going to go to jail 255 00:14:04,480 --> 00:14:06,800 Speaker 2: or dead because my mom probably would have killed them. 256 00:14:07,559 --> 00:14:08,400 Speaker 1: Then Mom's gone. 257 00:14:08,440 --> 00:14:10,439 Speaker 2: And I thought about all these things in my little 258 00:14:10,440 --> 00:14:14,080 Speaker 2: eight year old mind. So I stayed quiet for years. 259 00:14:14,559 --> 00:14:17,280 Speaker 2: I didn't even talk about it or say anything. I 260 00:14:17,320 --> 00:14:19,280 Speaker 2: wasn't the first one to bring it up. Someone else 261 00:14:19,280 --> 00:14:21,280 Speaker 2: had to say it for me in order for me to. 262 00:14:21,240 --> 00:14:21,920 Speaker 1: Tell my truth. 263 00:14:22,840 --> 00:14:26,680 Speaker 2: Imagine thinking all of these things at that age, thinking 264 00:14:26,800 --> 00:14:30,120 Speaker 2: about my siblings, about our household. It was just so much. 265 00:14:30,160 --> 00:14:35,000 Speaker 2: So I learned to internalize my pain. I internalized it 266 00:14:35,040 --> 00:14:36,720 Speaker 2: so much because I was afraid of abandonment. I was 267 00:14:36,720 --> 00:14:38,960 Speaker 2: afraid of everyone leaving me. So that's where it all 268 00:14:38,960 --> 00:14:42,120 Speaker 2: came from. And that's where we started to heal that, 269 00:14:42,920 --> 00:14:46,960 Speaker 2: and I started to understand my inner child. Like I'm like, 270 00:14:47,040 --> 00:14:49,840 Speaker 2: oh my goodness, it all comes back to our inner child. 271 00:14:50,440 --> 00:14:57,320 Speaker 2: Anything you're feeling, insecurities, anything, literally anything, you just have 272 00:14:57,400 --> 00:14:59,880 Speaker 2: to like She's taught me to put my hand over 273 00:15:00,120 --> 00:15:03,240 Speaker 2: my heart and talk to that little girl and say, 274 00:15:03,280 --> 00:15:06,080 Speaker 2: what is it that you need right now? What do 275 00:15:06,120 --> 00:15:07,720 Speaker 2: you want to do? Do you want to just lay 276 00:15:07,760 --> 00:15:11,040 Speaker 2: down today? Do you want to have cake? Do you 277 00:15:11,200 --> 00:15:14,480 Speaker 2: want to watch a movie? A Disney movie? Do you 278 00:15:14,520 --> 00:15:18,080 Speaker 2: want to go to Disneyland? And you ask yourself, like 279 00:15:18,080 --> 00:15:20,320 Speaker 2: what is it that you're feeling? And you just really 280 00:15:20,360 --> 00:15:22,120 Speaker 2: tap in with yourself and be like where is this 281 00:15:22,120 --> 00:15:25,960 Speaker 2: feeling coming from? And if you really dig deep, you 282 00:15:25,960 --> 00:15:30,480 Speaker 2: will get an answer. And it's so crazy, guys, because 283 00:15:30,480 --> 00:15:32,440 Speaker 2: I've always heard about inner child, inner child, but it's 284 00:15:32,480 --> 00:15:35,800 Speaker 2: like we can all tap into our inner child. And 285 00:15:35,840 --> 00:15:37,680 Speaker 2: not only is it important to tap into our inner 286 00:15:37,800 --> 00:15:42,760 Speaker 2: child to understand why and how we became this human, 287 00:15:42,840 --> 00:15:46,680 Speaker 2: this adult, and why we act certain ways, but also. 288 00:15:47,320 --> 00:15:48,320 Speaker 1: It is so. 289 00:15:50,240 --> 00:15:56,440 Speaker 2: Imperative, guys, in order to function in this world, to 290 00:15:56,560 --> 00:16:04,920 Speaker 2: do things that bring joy, that child joy, we have 291 00:16:05,040 --> 00:16:07,800 Speaker 2: to like, that's the only way I think to survive, 292 00:16:07,920 --> 00:16:11,600 Speaker 2: especially now in this world, at least for me. Like 293 00:16:11,680 --> 00:16:13,960 Speaker 2: now I'm like, oh no, I need to make time 294 00:16:14,000 --> 00:16:17,120 Speaker 2: for myself in a different way because I talk about 295 00:16:17,160 --> 00:16:18,240 Speaker 2: self love and self care. 296 00:16:19,000 --> 00:16:19,200 Speaker 1: Now. 297 00:16:19,240 --> 00:16:23,400 Speaker 2: It's like my inner child is top priority, and Emilio 298 00:16:23,600 --> 00:16:25,800 Speaker 2: is really he's he wakes up happy and joyful and 299 00:16:25,840 --> 00:16:28,200 Speaker 2: everything all the time, and I usually wake up like 300 00:16:28,240 --> 00:16:29,760 Speaker 2: should I have so much to do? And I'm like, 301 00:16:30,360 --> 00:16:33,920 Speaker 2: I'm so rigid sometimes because I love feeling accomplished. I 302 00:16:33,960 --> 00:16:38,440 Speaker 2: love checking things off. I thrive off of that Big Jane, 303 00:16:39,120 --> 00:16:42,880 Speaker 2: older Jila Jane, adult Jane loves checking shit off. 304 00:16:42,720 --> 00:16:45,000 Speaker 1: Of her to do list. It just I thrive. 305 00:16:45,800 --> 00:16:47,480 Speaker 2: And that's where it was causing a little bit of 306 00:16:47,480 --> 00:16:50,240 Speaker 2: an imbalance between a million and I because he's just, hey, 307 00:16:50,320 --> 00:16:52,760 Speaker 2: you know, he's into Pokemon and he likes video games, 308 00:16:52,760 --> 00:16:56,080 Speaker 2: and he really taps into his inner child, and I'm 309 00:16:56,080 --> 00:16:58,320 Speaker 2: not gonna lie. That kind of annoyed me before. Now 310 00:16:58,360 --> 00:17:00,600 Speaker 2: I'm like, hell, yeah, dude, do you got to do? 311 00:17:00,640 --> 00:17:04,040 Speaker 2: Buy all the Pokemon stuff I bought him, even Pokemon crocs. Like, 312 00:17:04,760 --> 00:17:06,520 Speaker 2: I'm like, that's freaking amazing. 313 00:17:06,760 --> 00:17:07,600 Speaker 1: And you know what I did. 314 00:17:08,200 --> 00:17:10,560 Speaker 2: I bought myself a cabbage Patch doll. Actually I didn't 315 00:17:10,560 --> 00:17:13,000 Speaker 2: buy myself, and Medio bought it for me because I 316 00:17:13,040 --> 00:17:14,720 Speaker 2: was like, what made me happy? I sat down, I 317 00:17:14,800 --> 00:17:16,320 Speaker 2: was like, what made me happy when I was little? 318 00:17:16,320 --> 00:17:17,800 Speaker 2: It was like I used to talk to my dolls, 319 00:17:17,800 --> 00:17:20,320 Speaker 2: to my cabbage Patch dolls, and I said, bab, can 320 00:17:20,359 --> 00:17:22,080 Speaker 2: you find me one? Because he's been on eBay a lot, 321 00:17:22,640 --> 00:17:25,439 Speaker 2: you know, buying a bunch of Pokemon stuff. And I 322 00:17:25,480 --> 00:17:28,760 Speaker 2: was like, I really want a cabbage Patch doll. And 323 00:17:28,800 --> 00:17:31,679 Speaker 2: he bought me one. And it's from my here nineteen 324 00:17:31,720 --> 00:17:37,440 Speaker 2: eighty five, I know, I know, nineteen eighty five and 325 00:17:38,119 --> 00:17:39,640 Speaker 2: he bought it for me and I just got it. 326 00:17:39,760 --> 00:17:42,080 Speaker 2: I just got it a few days ago, and it 327 00:17:42,160 --> 00:17:44,240 Speaker 2: made me really happy and I just look at it. 328 00:17:44,320 --> 00:17:45,879 Speaker 2: I don't even I haven't even taken it out of 329 00:17:45,880 --> 00:17:47,800 Speaker 2: the box because he's like, don't take it out of 330 00:17:47,800 --> 00:17:49,719 Speaker 2: the box, like maybe we can keep it for our 331 00:17:49,720 --> 00:17:50,280 Speaker 2: baby girl. 332 00:17:50,920 --> 00:17:52,040 Speaker 1: But I look at it. 333 00:17:52,119 --> 00:17:54,720 Speaker 2: Just by looking at it, I smile and I'm like, oh, 334 00:17:54,760 --> 00:17:57,680 Speaker 2: I'm healing my inner child. Like I have to remember 335 00:17:57,680 --> 00:18:00,640 Speaker 2: those things that make me happy because because the world 336 00:18:00,720 --> 00:18:03,840 Speaker 2: gets heavy. Guys, the world is a lot of stuff 337 00:18:03,880 --> 00:18:06,439 Speaker 2: that we can't control. And I'm an EmPATH and sometimes 338 00:18:06,480 --> 00:18:08,520 Speaker 2: I'm like, damn, I wish I didn't care, but I 339 00:18:08,560 --> 00:18:10,199 Speaker 2: do care, and you know what, I need to just 340 00:18:11,160 --> 00:18:13,359 Speaker 2: appreciate that, because there are people that don't give a 341 00:18:13,560 --> 00:18:15,359 Speaker 2: crap about anyone else but themselves. 342 00:18:15,440 --> 00:18:16,199 Speaker 1: That is not me. 343 00:18:17,080 --> 00:18:20,360 Speaker 2: Today I woke up with like a heavy heart because 344 00:18:21,400 --> 00:18:23,480 Speaker 2: just reading so many things that are happening in the 345 00:18:23,480 --> 00:18:25,800 Speaker 2: world that I'm like, how can I help? And I 346 00:18:25,880 --> 00:18:29,280 Speaker 2: wish that I was able to help more. And I 347 00:18:29,359 --> 00:18:32,720 Speaker 2: see billionaires and I love that. Billie Eilish just said 348 00:18:32,720 --> 00:18:35,560 Speaker 2: this in one of her speeches where she's like, hey, like, 349 00:18:36,240 --> 00:18:39,320 Speaker 2: there's billionaires in this room. I really hope that you 350 00:18:39,359 --> 00:18:43,159 Speaker 2: guys share some of your money to help the world, 351 00:18:43,280 --> 00:18:48,679 Speaker 2: because she was donating eleven million dollars, which is a 352 00:18:48,840 --> 00:18:51,160 Speaker 2: crazy amount of money, but she's like, I'm not a billionaire. 353 00:18:51,280 --> 00:18:54,679 Speaker 2: But you guys are so you guys should share your billions. 354 00:18:54,680 --> 00:18:56,320 Speaker 2: Like that would be me if I was a billionaire 355 00:18:56,320 --> 00:18:57,000 Speaker 2: at y'all. 356 00:18:56,840 --> 00:18:58,560 Speaker 1: Like you have no idea. 357 00:18:58,720 --> 00:19:00,399 Speaker 2: Maybe God will make me a billionaire going to help 358 00:19:00,440 --> 00:19:06,520 Speaker 2: the world, but anyway. 359 00:19:06,200 --> 00:19:07,160 Speaker 1: I will go with the heavy heart. 360 00:19:07,200 --> 00:19:09,880 Speaker 2: So I was like, oh, like I'm feeling some type 361 00:19:09,880 --> 00:19:12,320 Speaker 2: of way. And then guess who calls me my amazing 362 00:19:12,400 --> 00:19:17,040 Speaker 2: husband and he's like, Babe, let's put on costumes. 363 00:19:17,119 --> 00:19:19,040 Speaker 1: I'm gonna go buy some costumes. 364 00:19:18,920 --> 00:19:23,160 Speaker 2: And let's just go like let's go freaking like go 365 00:19:23,240 --> 00:19:27,640 Speaker 2: out and be silly. And I was like, you're freaking right, Yes, 366 00:19:28,119 --> 00:19:31,320 Speaker 2: that's why he's the perfect person for me, Like he 367 00:19:31,400 --> 00:19:35,600 Speaker 2: is just I could cry because I'm like, he reminds 368 00:19:35,640 --> 00:19:38,199 Speaker 2: me of like not forgetting because he loves Disney. He 369 00:19:38,240 --> 00:19:42,000 Speaker 2: loves anything that has to do with like us just 370 00:19:42,040 --> 00:19:44,560 Speaker 2: being kids. And I think that's why I like he 371 00:19:44,640 --> 00:19:46,800 Speaker 2: came into my life so that I don't forget that 372 00:19:47,119 --> 00:19:50,200 Speaker 2: and to tap into my inner child more. 373 00:19:51,000 --> 00:19:52,520 Speaker 1: And I was so hard on. 374 00:19:52,440 --> 00:19:54,280 Speaker 2: Myself because I'm like, why is it so hard? But 375 00:19:54,320 --> 00:19:56,920 Speaker 2: because I was I was taught to be a grown 376 00:19:57,000 --> 00:19:59,440 Speaker 2: up since I was little, I had no other choice, 377 00:19:59,480 --> 00:20:02,159 Speaker 2: like I had to do and get things done. And 378 00:20:02,200 --> 00:20:06,359 Speaker 2: not until now at forty years old, am I really 379 00:20:06,400 --> 00:20:08,720 Speaker 2: realizing I can go to Disney if I want to 380 00:20:08,760 --> 00:20:12,920 Speaker 2: freaking wear ears, because I will, like I'll wear little 381 00:20:12,960 --> 00:20:15,640 Speaker 2: ears at the airport and like a little fuzzy backpack 382 00:20:15,680 --> 00:20:17,680 Speaker 2: like and I like people might be like she's crazy. 383 00:20:17,720 --> 00:20:18,359 Speaker 1: I'm like, no. 384 00:20:18,359 --> 00:20:21,480 Speaker 2: Now I see people that dress like that and are older, 385 00:20:21,640 --> 00:20:23,720 Speaker 2: have their hair dyed and they have rainbow socks on. 386 00:20:23,800 --> 00:20:28,920 Speaker 2: I'm like, that's freaking awesome. Like be yourself. Everyone wants 387 00:20:28,920 --> 00:20:31,199 Speaker 2: everything just to be perfect, and I have to always 388 00:20:31,240 --> 00:20:34,359 Speaker 2: like you know, what's trendy and like that's not cool, 389 00:20:34,520 --> 00:20:36,679 Speaker 2: and like I don't even I don't give up. 390 00:20:37,080 --> 00:20:37,760 Speaker 1: I don't give a shit. 391 00:20:37,920 --> 00:20:40,840 Speaker 2: Like I'm like, I am gonna wear my Disney stuff 392 00:20:40,840 --> 00:20:43,560 Speaker 2: even if I'm not going to Disney, like I am 393 00:20:43,560 --> 00:20:46,320 Speaker 2: gonna watch a movie that's gonna make me laugh, and 394 00:20:46,400 --> 00:20:48,359 Speaker 2: all those movies that I would watch when I was little. 395 00:20:48,359 --> 00:20:51,760 Speaker 2: I would watch Pocahontas at Dad's house and Ariel like 396 00:20:51,880 --> 00:20:54,080 Speaker 2: it was always Disney at my dad's house. If I 397 00:20:54,119 --> 00:20:56,400 Speaker 2: love Disney, I think it's because of my dad, because 398 00:20:56,560 --> 00:20:58,240 Speaker 2: he was I'm telling you he would make us Mickey 399 00:20:58,320 --> 00:21:02,240 Speaker 2: Mouse pancakes and put little chocolate chips in them. And 400 00:21:02,280 --> 00:21:03,920 Speaker 2: that's why it was so hard to be mad at him, 401 00:21:04,000 --> 00:21:05,200 Speaker 2: because I was like, you did this and. 402 00:21:05,160 --> 00:21:06,119 Speaker 1: That's not cool. 403 00:21:06,520 --> 00:21:08,439 Speaker 2: But like then he would turn around and like we 404 00:21:08,440 --> 00:21:10,159 Speaker 2: would have so much fun, Like he would take us 405 00:21:10,200 --> 00:21:13,040 Speaker 2: to the moon, guys. I remember we would listen to 406 00:21:13,160 --> 00:21:15,920 Speaker 2: music and cross a bridge in Long Beach and he's like, 407 00:21:15,960 --> 00:21:18,240 Speaker 2: all right, guys, we're going We're going to the moon. 408 00:21:18,400 --> 00:21:20,960 Speaker 2: Sing and the more you sing, we're going to get there. 409 00:21:20,960 --> 00:21:22,720 Speaker 2: And I was like, I really thought I was going 410 00:21:22,720 --> 00:21:25,600 Speaker 2: to the moon. And I remembered all of these things 411 00:21:25,640 --> 00:21:29,199 Speaker 2: and I'm like, oh my gosh, like he took my innocence. 412 00:21:29,920 --> 00:21:33,640 Speaker 2: But also I was a child with him, Like I 413 00:21:33,760 --> 00:21:35,359 Speaker 2: was like I was able to be a child because 414 00:21:35,359 --> 00:21:37,280 Speaker 2: at mom's house, I had I had to do things, 415 00:21:37,320 --> 00:21:39,399 Speaker 2: I had a lot of responsibilities. So it was just 416 00:21:39,440 --> 00:21:44,000 Speaker 2: so confusing. It was such a mind f But now 417 00:21:44,040 --> 00:21:47,359 Speaker 2: doing my work with Maury and really understanding my inner child, 418 00:21:47,480 --> 00:21:49,120 Speaker 2: like now I get it. And I think that's why 419 00:21:49,119 --> 00:21:52,040 Speaker 2: when I did the psychedelics, he was so present because 420 00:21:52,080 --> 00:21:55,040 Speaker 2: I didn't see my mom other than like butterflies, but 421 00:21:55,200 --> 00:21:58,440 Speaker 2: I didn't feel her, I felt my dad's presence a lot, 422 00:21:58,480 --> 00:22:01,400 Speaker 2: and I was like, really understand a lot of things. 423 00:22:01,400 --> 00:22:04,560 Speaker 2: And I think it's because he helped me tap in 424 00:22:04,680 --> 00:22:08,760 Speaker 2: or stay as a child. And it sounds weird because again, 425 00:22:10,160 --> 00:22:14,520 Speaker 2: at night, it was a different story. So anyway, all 426 00:22:14,520 --> 00:22:19,159 Speaker 2: this to say that it is absolutely imperative. 427 00:22:19,200 --> 00:22:19,480 Speaker 1: Guys. 428 00:22:19,600 --> 00:22:23,560 Speaker 2: Doesn't matter how old you are, it doesn't matter how 429 00:22:23,600 --> 00:22:26,840 Speaker 2: silly it is. If people are going to laugh at you, 430 00:22:27,040 --> 00:22:31,240 Speaker 2: if you are happy, if it makes you happy to 431 00:22:31,760 --> 00:22:36,160 Speaker 2: buy Pokemon cards and unpack them or open them, unpackage 432 00:22:36,200 --> 00:22:38,400 Speaker 2: them or you know, a medio's all into that right now. 433 00:22:38,800 --> 00:22:39,280 Speaker 1: I love it. 434 00:22:39,320 --> 00:22:41,439 Speaker 2: I look at him and I'm like, oh, he's so 435 00:22:41,680 --> 00:22:47,160 Speaker 2: happy and that's freaking awesome. And it used to irritate 436 00:22:47,200 --> 00:22:49,680 Speaker 2: me because I'm like, babe, like why are you playing 437 00:22:49,720 --> 00:22:52,679 Speaker 2: video games with? Then I'm like, who cares, dude, if 438 00:22:52,720 --> 00:22:54,400 Speaker 2: you want to play a video game for an hour? Cool, 439 00:22:54,440 --> 00:22:56,760 Speaker 2: Like he still gets shit done. Now I'm like, I 440 00:22:56,800 --> 00:22:58,800 Speaker 2: want a video game. I want a cabbage patch doll. 441 00:22:58,880 --> 00:23:01,760 Speaker 2: Like I am like going back to all the things 442 00:23:01,800 --> 00:23:04,600 Speaker 2: that made me happy. So I just want to inspire you, 443 00:23:04,640 --> 00:23:08,640 Speaker 2: guys and encourage you to think of those things that 444 00:23:08,840 --> 00:23:13,000 Speaker 2: you weren't able to do after a while, or you 445 00:23:13,040 --> 00:23:15,760 Speaker 2: never were able to do or experience as a child, 446 00:23:16,320 --> 00:23:20,040 Speaker 2: or things you forgot because we become adults and all 447 00:23:20,040 --> 00:23:22,920 Speaker 2: we gotta do is just the bills, and you got 448 00:23:22,920 --> 00:23:24,440 Speaker 2: to pay the bills, and you got to go to work, 449 00:23:24,480 --> 00:23:27,080 Speaker 2: and there's just so much to do, Like you need 450 00:23:27,119 --> 00:23:29,960 Speaker 2: to find time. That's part of self care for sure, 451 00:23:30,840 --> 00:23:33,840 Speaker 2: is going to Disney if you're able to, or just 452 00:23:33,920 --> 00:23:36,960 Speaker 2: watching a movie that reminds you of your childhood, Like 453 00:23:37,000 --> 00:23:41,639 Speaker 2: I used to watch Matilda. I loved Matilda. What is 454 00:23:41,640 --> 00:23:43,640 Speaker 2: the other one I used to dress up as for Halloween? 455 00:23:44,040 --> 00:23:48,080 Speaker 2: Pippylong Stocking. I love that cartoon. I love Popeye, all 456 00:23:48,080 --> 00:23:50,880 Speaker 2: those things that I'm like, oh my gosh, I forgot 457 00:23:50,920 --> 00:23:54,840 Speaker 2: about all that, And it's so important, guys. And also 458 00:23:55,520 --> 00:23:58,560 Speaker 2: tapping into your inner child and listening to her, listening 459 00:23:58,600 --> 00:24:01,840 Speaker 2: to him, and ask that little person inside of you 460 00:24:01,920 --> 00:24:03,879 Speaker 2: that's still there, what's going on? 461 00:24:04,000 --> 00:24:04,680 Speaker 1: What do you need? 462 00:24:05,800 --> 00:24:08,879 Speaker 2: What are you missing? What would make you happy today? 463 00:24:10,359 --> 00:24:14,679 Speaker 2: It is so powerful, guys. Just try it. Like I 464 00:24:14,760 --> 00:24:20,359 Speaker 2: always hug little Janee ever since my psychedelic retreat, I 465 00:24:20,600 --> 00:24:23,800 Speaker 2: will literally go like this, I will hug myself around 466 00:24:23,840 --> 00:24:26,240 Speaker 2: my shoulders, and I just like, it's okay, Jane, You're 467 00:24:26,240 --> 00:24:28,600 Speaker 2: gonna be fine. And I cry. I let myself cry 468 00:24:28,920 --> 00:24:30,600 Speaker 2: before I was like, no, I'm a bad ass. Bite like, 469 00:24:30,640 --> 00:24:31,359 Speaker 2: I don't need to cry. 470 00:24:31,440 --> 00:24:31,919 Speaker 1: I'm strong. 471 00:24:32,000 --> 00:24:34,720 Speaker 2: I got this. That is so bad. That is the 472 00:24:34,800 --> 00:24:38,959 Speaker 2: hustle mentality. Guys, that just takes us further and further 473 00:24:39,080 --> 00:24:42,560 Speaker 2: and further from our inner child. It is okay for 474 00:24:42,680 --> 00:24:45,840 Speaker 2: men to cry. It is beautiful that men cry. 475 00:24:46,880 --> 00:24:47,160 Speaker 1: Cry. 476 00:24:47,240 --> 00:24:51,920 Speaker 2: Ladies, let it out like a baby. Hug yourself, yell 477 00:24:52,040 --> 00:24:55,000 Speaker 2: outside if you want to run around. Guys, we forget 478 00:24:55,080 --> 00:24:56,040 Speaker 2: to move our body. 479 00:24:56,560 --> 00:24:56,760 Speaker 1: Now. 480 00:24:56,840 --> 00:25:00,080 Speaker 2: Dancing is part of my meditating and prayer time. I 481 00:25:00,800 --> 00:25:02,439 Speaker 2: will just put on a song that I feel like 482 00:25:02,560 --> 00:25:04,159 Speaker 2: makes me feel good or sexy, and I'm just I 483 00:25:04,200 --> 00:25:06,919 Speaker 2: start moving my hips, I start moving my body, and 484 00:25:06,960 --> 00:25:09,240 Speaker 2: I'm like, I need to move this energy inside of me. 485 00:25:09,280 --> 00:25:12,920 Speaker 2: It's stagnant, like no, like move it around like that's playing. 486 00:25:13,080 --> 00:25:18,359 Speaker 2: That's playing around, that's having fun. I'll go and barefoot outside. 487 00:25:18,400 --> 00:25:21,440 Speaker 2: I've been spending so much time in my backyard, stepping 488 00:25:21,440 --> 00:25:23,639 Speaker 2: on the grass, touching the grass, sitting on the grass, 489 00:25:24,280 --> 00:25:27,560 Speaker 2: filling the sun, taking those moments when I'm feeling overwhelmed, 490 00:25:27,560 --> 00:25:29,280 Speaker 2: to just go outside and do that. That is me 491 00:25:29,359 --> 00:25:31,560 Speaker 2: healing my inner child. That is like what my inner 492 00:25:31,640 --> 00:25:33,400 Speaker 2: child wants to do. My inner child does not want 493 00:25:33,440 --> 00:25:37,240 Speaker 2: to pay the bills, the property taxes, doesn't want like no, 494 00:25:37,520 --> 00:25:39,600 Speaker 2: I'm like, what is gonna make me happy right now? 495 00:25:39,680 --> 00:25:42,119 Speaker 2: I'm gonna go sit my ass outside for five minutes 496 00:25:42,160 --> 00:25:44,000 Speaker 2: and let the sun hit me and touch the grass 497 00:25:44,000 --> 00:25:46,600 Speaker 2: and remember that everything's gonna be okay. 498 00:25:47,680 --> 00:25:48,600 Speaker 1: Everything's gonna be okay. 499 00:25:49,359 --> 00:25:53,120 Speaker 2: And that's child like thinking. When you're a child, you're 500 00:25:53,119 --> 00:25:56,080 Speaker 2: not thinking about bills, you're not thinking about what's gonna 501 00:25:56,080 --> 00:25:58,200 Speaker 2: go wrong. You get on that roller coaster because you're 502 00:25:58,240 --> 00:26:01,520 Speaker 2: like it's fun and I don't care, and you're not scared, 503 00:26:01,560 --> 00:26:04,800 Speaker 2: and you're just heck, yeah, everything's great. Then you get 504 00:26:04,840 --> 00:26:07,400 Speaker 2: older and we think, damn, I'm not going to get 505 00:26:07,400 --> 00:26:09,639 Speaker 2: on this roller coaster because it's not good for my 506 00:26:09,640 --> 00:26:12,680 Speaker 2: brain because I read this book and it probably isn't. 507 00:26:12,720 --> 00:26:15,439 Speaker 2: I'm sure it isn't, but I'm like, I'm not going 508 00:26:15,520 --> 00:26:17,400 Speaker 2: to stop myself. I'm not going to get on every 509 00:26:17,480 --> 00:26:19,240 Speaker 2: roller coaster next time I go to six Lags, but 510 00:26:19,280 --> 00:26:21,199 Speaker 2: I'm going to get on a roller coaster because you 511 00:26:21,240 --> 00:26:24,120 Speaker 2: know what, I want to be happy right now. 512 00:26:24,040 --> 00:26:25,560 Speaker 1: Because right now is the only thing that matters. 513 00:26:25,600 --> 00:26:26,960 Speaker 2: And I'm going to get on that damn roller coaster 514 00:26:27,000 --> 00:26:29,080 Speaker 2: because when I was younger, I love them, But now 515 00:26:29,080 --> 00:26:30,800 Speaker 2: that i'm adult, I'm like, oh my gosh, I'm scared 516 00:26:30,840 --> 00:26:33,000 Speaker 2: that I'm going to get some like. We can't think 517 00:26:33,000 --> 00:26:35,800 Speaker 2: that way, guys, Like we have to really just live 518 00:26:35,840 --> 00:26:37,880 Speaker 2: in the present. And that's what children do. They live 519 00:26:37,920 --> 00:26:40,280 Speaker 2: in the moment and that's all they know. So we 520 00:26:40,400 --> 00:26:43,960 Speaker 2: have to remember that because it's life changing. And I'm 521 00:26:44,000 --> 00:26:47,000 Speaker 2: telling you firsthand, it is life changing. And it's so 522 00:26:47,040 --> 00:26:49,000 Speaker 2: beautiful to be able to learn all of these things 523 00:26:49,440 --> 00:26:53,399 Speaker 2: and share them with you, guys, because I love to learn, 524 00:26:53,520 --> 00:26:55,320 Speaker 2: and I think at a point, my, oh, I think 525 00:26:55,320 --> 00:26:57,000 Speaker 2: I know everything. I think I got this, you know, 526 00:26:57,119 --> 00:27:01,120 Speaker 2: finally I learned almost everything. No, well, there's so much 527 00:27:01,160 --> 00:27:05,080 Speaker 2: more the world, not even the world. No, it's not 528 00:27:05,119 --> 00:27:09,520 Speaker 2: even the world, it's the universe is so infinite. There 529 00:27:09,600 --> 00:27:14,040 Speaker 2: is so much for us to expand mentally, emotionally. It's 530 00:27:14,080 --> 00:27:16,000 Speaker 2: so beautiful, guys. I'm going to share it all with you, 531 00:27:16,119 --> 00:27:19,440 Speaker 2: everything that I'm learning and this journey I'm on I'm 532 00:27:19,440 --> 00:27:22,440 Speaker 2: going to share it with you guys, because how can 533 00:27:22,480 --> 00:27:25,960 Speaker 2: I not. And I hope that this episode made sense. 534 00:27:26,000 --> 00:27:27,560 Speaker 2: And I know I kind of jumped everywhere like I 535 00:27:27,600 --> 00:27:30,640 Speaker 2: always do, but I am just on the fly. I'm 536 00:27:30,680 --> 00:27:32,920 Speaker 2: not looking at my notes, and I just wanted to 537 00:27:32,960 --> 00:27:36,600 Speaker 2: talk from my heart because I'm telling you it is 538 00:27:36,640 --> 00:27:41,920 Speaker 2: life changing. Please take the time, take the time, make 539 00:27:41,960 --> 00:27:45,200 Speaker 2: the time to take care of that inner child. Even 540 00:27:45,240 --> 00:27:47,920 Speaker 2: if you're eighty years old, or when we're eighty years 541 00:27:47,960 --> 00:27:50,760 Speaker 2: old and you're fifty five and you think certain things 542 00:27:50,760 --> 00:27:53,679 Speaker 2: are silly, go back to some of the happiest moments 543 00:27:53,680 --> 00:27:58,400 Speaker 2: of your life and do them and not worry about 544 00:27:58,400 --> 00:28:00,560 Speaker 2: what people are going to say, because it's something you're 545 00:28:00,560 --> 00:28:07,199 Speaker 2: doing for yourself. I remember matching socks with like my 546 00:28:07,320 --> 00:28:12,560 Speaker 2: sixteen year old little boyfriend, and when I first met Amilio, 547 00:28:12,840 --> 00:28:14,560 Speaker 2: he used to think that was silly. I was like, 548 00:28:14,640 --> 00:28:16,480 Speaker 2: let's match and he's like, uh, He's like, that's kind 549 00:28:16,480 --> 00:28:18,080 Speaker 2: of silly. I don't know if that's like really my thing. 550 00:28:18,119 --> 00:28:22,440 Speaker 2: I'm like, okay, now we're matching. Now we're gonna go 551 00:28:22,480 --> 00:28:25,800 Speaker 2: wear costumes apparently tonight and like go walk around. I'm 552 00:28:25,840 --> 00:28:29,879 Speaker 2: so excited for it. I found my person. I found 553 00:28:29,880 --> 00:28:32,320 Speaker 2: this person that reminds me, and I guess it's no 554 00:28:32,440 --> 00:28:34,960 Speaker 2: coincidence that he's seven years younger than me, because it's 555 00:28:35,000 --> 00:28:38,320 Speaker 2: working out, and that doesn't even bother me anymore. I'm like, 556 00:28:38,360 --> 00:28:40,960 Speaker 2: who cares, dude, Let's go be kids, Let's go play 557 00:28:40,960 --> 00:28:43,800 Speaker 2: in the sand, Let's just jump off of a freaking 558 00:28:44,560 --> 00:28:46,920 Speaker 2: cliff into the water, like I want to do all 559 00:28:46,920 --> 00:28:49,800 Speaker 2: those things. I want to just live my life as 560 00:28:49,880 --> 00:28:52,240 Speaker 2: if it was the last day, because that's what kids do. 561 00:28:52,360 --> 00:28:54,360 Speaker 2: Kids don't know and don't worry about tomorrow. They don't 562 00:28:54,400 --> 00:28:56,360 Speaker 2: even worry about what happened yesterday. They're like, all right, cool, 563 00:28:57,320 --> 00:28:59,720 Speaker 2: and we have to take care of that in our children, guys. 564 00:28:59,720 --> 00:29:01,400 Speaker 2: That's an other part before I let you guys go. 565 00:29:02,240 --> 00:29:05,480 Speaker 2: If you have little children, please let them use their imaginations, 566 00:29:06,200 --> 00:29:10,760 Speaker 2: let them play, let them explore like things and ideas. 567 00:29:10,760 --> 00:29:12,720 Speaker 2: And if they have an imaginary friend, put the damn 568 00:29:12,840 --> 00:29:16,240 Speaker 2: chair at the kitchen table at dinner and sit the 569 00:29:16,280 --> 00:29:22,959 Speaker 2: imaginary friend. Please don't stifle their imagination. Tap into it, 570 00:29:23,040 --> 00:29:25,560 Speaker 2: play with them, run around with them. Take the time 571 00:29:25,600 --> 00:29:28,000 Speaker 2: that is actually going to help your inner child is 572 00:29:28,000 --> 00:29:30,080 Speaker 2: when you tap in with them and take the time 573 00:29:30,120 --> 00:29:33,840 Speaker 2: to really get into what they're into. It's going to 574 00:29:33,920 --> 00:29:37,400 Speaker 2: be life changing for your children and for when they 575 00:29:37,440 --> 00:29:40,120 Speaker 2: become adults to know that they have that with their parents. 576 00:29:40,160 --> 00:29:42,880 Speaker 2: So I don't have any kids, but when I do, 577 00:29:42,960 --> 00:29:47,480 Speaker 2: because it's going to happen, God is good, I'm going 578 00:29:47,560 --> 00:29:49,320 Speaker 2: to do that and I think it's going to help 579 00:29:49,320 --> 00:29:51,440 Speaker 2: me so much. I'm going to continue to heal my 580 00:29:51,520 --> 00:29:54,400 Speaker 2: inner child when I have a baby. So I am excited. 581 00:29:54,400 --> 00:29:55,800 Speaker 2: So yeah, that's all I wanted to tell you. 582 00:29:55,840 --> 00:29:56,080 Speaker 1: Guys. 583 00:29:56,680 --> 00:29:59,320 Speaker 2: I know there was a lot said here, so I 584 00:29:59,360 --> 00:30:01,280 Speaker 2: think you're going to have to press rewind on this one. 585 00:30:01,840 --> 00:30:03,920 Speaker 2: Come back to all the episodes. There's a lot of 586 00:30:03,960 --> 00:30:06,920 Speaker 2: like Easter eggs and little nuggets that you can write 587 00:30:07,000 --> 00:30:10,680 Speaker 2: down and share this this episode with someone that you 588 00:30:10,760 --> 00:30:13,200 Speaker 2: think will need it and it'll help them because we 589 00:30:13,280 --> 00:30:17,400 Speaker 2: can all benefit from tapping into our inner child and 590 00:30:17,440 --> 00:30:19,520 Speaker 2: not letting the world and the pressures of the world 591 00:30:19,680 --> 00:30:23,840 Speaker 2: and the opinions of others keep us from being our 592 00:30:23,920 --> 00:30:28,080 Speaker 2: true selves, our truest essence. It lies in our inner child, 593 00:30:28,800 --> 00:30:33,680 Speaker 2: so don't forget that. Thank you again, Thank you guys 594 00:30:34,800 --> 00:30:39,320 Speaker 2: for listening. This felt like a little therapy session. For me, 595 00:30:39,560 --> 00:30:41,640 Speaker 2: I feel like when I'm just talking to you guys, 596 00:30:41,760 --> 00:30:45,440 Speaker 2: I'm able to just be myself and talk about anything 597 00:30:45,520 --> 00:30:45,959 Speaker 2: and everything. 598 00:30:46,000 --> 00:30:46,960 Speaker 1: And I'm grateful that you. 599 00:30:46,880 --> 00:30:50,800 Speaker 2: Guys allow this space because if you guys don't listen, 600 00:30:50,840 --> 00:30:53,480 Speaker 2: then I don't have a job. So thank you for listening, 601 00:30:53,680 --> 00:30:54,840 Speaker 2: Thank you for tuning in. 602 00:30:54,920 --> 00:30:55,480 Speaker 1: Every week. 603 00:30:55,960 --> 00:30:58,000 Speaker 2: I will catch you on the next episode of Cheekys 604 00:30:58,040 --> 00:31:02,400 Speaker 2: and Chill. I love you, and remember you have the power. 605 00:31:02,560 --> 00:31:06,080 Speaker 2: You are the medicine and we'll talk about that one day. 606 00:31:06,560 --> 00:31:09,160 Speaker 2: You are the medicine. That's another episode. Anyway, have a 607 00:31:09,200 --> 00:31:16,440 Speaker 2: beautiful day. Bye. This is a production of iHeartRadio and 608 00:31:16,600 --> 00:31:20,440 Speaker 2: the Microdora podcast Network. Follow us on Instagram at Michael 609 00:31:20,440 --> 00:31:23,640 Speaker 2: Doura Podcasts, then follow me Cheeky's That's c h I 610 00:31:23,760 --> 00:31:27,160 Speaker 2: q U i s. For more podcasts from iHeart, visit 611 00:31:27,200 --> 00:31:30,600 Speaker 2: the iHeartRadio app, Apple Podcasts, or wherever you listen to 612 00:31:30,640 --> 00:31:31,800 Speaker 2: your favorite podcast.