Speaker 1: Hello, folks, This is Lyle here. I just wanted to
Speaker 1: drop in at the beginning of the podcast because so,
Speaker 1: as you guys know, this podcast is basically audio highlights
Speaker 1: from a twitch stream that I do every Monday, Wednesday
Speaker 1: and Friday at nine pm Eastern Standard time on twitch
Speaker 1: dot tv slash Lyle forever. And this podcast has calls
Speaker 1: sort of Frankenstein's together from three different streams, but two
Speaker 1: of the streams are from pre recorded streams, if that
Speaker 1: makes any sense. They're like I basically recorded them offline
Speaker 1: and then streamed them later because I was busy on
Speaker 1: the road doing some stuff and I couldn't stream. But anyway,
Speaker 1: I know it's complicated. All I wanted to do was
Speaker 1: come on here at the beginning of this podcast. I'll
Speaker 1: let you guys know that throughout this post podcast. If
Speaker 1: you ever hear me say mention anything about like, oh
Speaker 1: this is being pre recorded, or oh this will air
Speaker 1: at some point later, stuff that's just making no sense.
Speaker 1: This is just me right here letting you know, just
Speaker 1: ignore it. But regardless, ignoring that, this is still a
Speaker 1: great episode of lots of good calls. It was interesting
Speaker 1: to record some of these calls with no live chat
Speaker 1: going on, because in a weird way, it makes it
Speaker 1: feel more intimate, you know. I mean, at the end
Speaker 1: of the day, this is a podcast and it's recorded anyway,
Speaker 1: It's not like the live stream. So yeah, does anyone
Speaker 1: care about this? Should I just get into the podcast?
Speaker 1: Should we just get into it? This is a good one.
Speaker 1: Take a listen. Thanks for listening to the pod. I
Speaker 1: appreciate you guys very much. By the way, if you
Speaker 1: have any thoughts about the podcast, any comments, any questions,
Speaker 1: any concerns, I love hearing that stuff. I'm always neurotic
Speaker 1: and in my head about this podcast version because it's
Speaker 1: not like the Twitch version where it's live and I
Speaker 1: can sort of get that live feedback from people. So please,
Speaker 1: listeners of the Therapy Gecko podcast. If you have any comments, questions, concerns, feedback,
Speaker 1: whatever it is, please send me an email an email
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Speaker 1: I would love to hear from you anyway, enough of this,
Speaker 1: enough of me. Sorry, If you know none of this
Speaker 1: makes any fucking sense. Let's get into the thing.
Speaker 2: Weekend goes on the line, taking your phone calls every
Speaker 2: nine everything. Kid goes to teaching you.
Speaker 3: All from Norah.
Speaker 1: Wait, Nora, we just spoke before, didn't we?
Speaker 4: Oh my god? Hi, No, we've never spoken. I've been
Speaker 4: calling for hours, like the whole time.
Speaker 1: Interesting, we've ever spoke. I feel like I talked to
Speaker 1: a Nora recently. Don't know. Maybe Norah is becoming a
Speaker 1: more popular name. Do you know a lot of other Noras?
Speaker 1: I do not, So it's up Norah tell me everything.
Speaker 1: Why is this insane?
Speaker 5: I'm a huge fan, and I'm very nervous right now.
Speaker 1: I appreciate that I don't be nervous. Look, it's just
Speaker 1: you and me, and there's no chat right now. I'm
Speaker 1: not live. I'm sitting in my chair where I normally
Speaker 1: sit for the stream, and I'm staring into the camera
Speaker 1: I normally stare at but there is I'm not live.
Speaker 1: I'm putting this one in the can for later.
Speaker 5: Does it weird to be in the gek costume but
Speaker 5: no one's watching?
Speaker 1: You know? It felt weird at first, but now that
Speaker 1: I've now that I've gotten into it it really it
Speaker 1: kind of feels exactly the same because it was because
Speaker 1: I I interact with I interact with chat sort of
Speaker 1: minimally while I'm on the phone with someone. Most of
Speaker 1: it is interrect me interact with the person I'm on
Speaker 1: the phone with, and that element has has remained constant.
Speaker 6: So well, that's good.
Speaker 5: I appreciate having your attention.
Speaker 1: That is meaningful, of course, of course, So what can
Speaker 1: I do for you? Nora?
Speaker 5: Oh god, I I don't know. I really didn't think
Speaker 5: this was like my I've called like two hundred times.
Speaker 5: This was my my last ditch effort, and I really
Speaker 5: was not prepared for you to answer the phone.
Speaker 1: That's okay. I wasn't really prepared to talk to you either.
Speaker 5: So is there like a question tonight that you're asking everybody?
Speaker 1: No, not really, I didn't think about that, that this
Speaker 1: this that far in advance. I'm kind of just talking
Speaker 1: to people on the phone about whatever. I don't know.
Speaker 1: I mean, you said no, you said you're a fan.
Speaker 1: I mean, what do you think of the format? Do
Speaker 1: you think? It's?
Speaker 7: Like?
Speaker 1: Sometimes I'm like how long can I really keep doing
Speaker 1: this for?
Speaker 3: You?
Speaker 1: Know what?
Speaker 8: I mean?
Speaker 5: Like, how I you know, well, that parts up to you,
Speaker 5: like if it, if it, if it is, what's the
Speaker 5: word I'm looking for? Not sustainable? I mean, yeah, sustainability
Speaker 5: is important, sure, but if you feel like it's fulfilling
Speaker 5: for you, I would just say do it until it's not.
Speaker 1: I like that. I like that. No, No, Nora, what
Speaker 1: do you do? What's your life?
Speaker 5: So? I just graduated a couple of months.
Speaker 1: Ago high school or college college.
Speaker 9: Nice and mhm, to keep it vague.
Speaker 4: I now work at a.
Speaker 5: It's it's well, it's a facility that helps people get
Speaker 5: off of drugs.
Speaker 4: So yeah, that's that's.
Speaker 1: What I do now, like a rehabilitation center.
Speaker 5: Yeah, and we incorporate medication assisted treatment, so things like
Speaker 5: suboxin big big words, but it's just.
Speaker 10: What is.
Speaker 4: Suboxen?
Speaker 11: Oh gosh.
Speaker 5: It's an opioid blocker essentially, and so it helps people
Speaker 5: with symptoms of withdrawal. And it also will if someone
Speaker 5: were to use while they were on sibox and they
Speaker 5: wouldn't feel the effects of the drug that they're taking,
Speaker 5: and so it's you know, easier to to stop taking
Speaker 5: the drugs. It helps a lot with withdrawal symptoms, that's
Speaker 5: the biggest part.
Speaker 1: And so was this I was working at a rehab facility.
Speaker 1: Something you always wanted to do? Was that your goal?
Speaker 5: Kind of I've always had I've always had a desire
Speaker 5: to work in uh, you know, like addiction treatment and
Speaker 5: stuff that. But I didn't think I could do it
Speaker 5: for a while. I didn't think I had it in me.
Speaker 1: But when you say you didn't think it had you
Speaker 1: had it in you, like, do you mean like the
Speaker 1: ability to withstand being around, you know, sort of a
Speaker 1: depressing environment or these skills to do the job, Like
Speaker 1: what do you mean by it?
Speaker 5: The first thing you said? Definitely, I I didn't think
Speaker 5: that I would be able to handle. I think I
Speaker 5: really didn't think that I would be able to handle
Speaker 5: the time when you can't reach somebody, because not everybody.
Speaker 5: It doesn't work out for everybody.
Speaker 4: I mean, people.
Speaker 5: Stop coming in for their appointments or you know, relapse
Speaker 5: is pretty common and a lot like a lot of
Speaker 5: times people can get over that hurle, but sometimes people can't.
Speaker 5: And I thought that that would affect me too much
Speaker 5: and that I wouldn't do well if that happened.
Speaker 1: But you know, do you consider yourself optimistic?
Speaker 9: Ooh not really?
Speaker 5: Definitely not for myself maybe for other people, like I
Speaker 5: believe in, I am endlessly optimistic for other people, but
Speaker 5: I am very not for myself.
Speaker 1: Why do you think that is?
Speaker 5: Oh gosh, you know, I don't know. I have very
Speaker 5: low self esteem.
Speaker 9: That could be it.
Speaker 5: Self forth.
Speaker 1: The reason I'm asking is because you know, this thing
Speaker 1: of not feeling like you can handle it when you
Speaker 1: try to reach someone and it doesn't work out. You know,
Speaker 1: I was wondering if maybe you were a typically optimistic
Speaker 1: Well you said, well, you said you are. You said
Speaker 1: you are optimistic for other people, And I'm wondering if
Speaker 1: these these times in which you see people not being
Speaker 1: able to be reached chips away at that at that optimism.
Speaker 5: It definitely does. I mean it changes kind of the
Speaker 5: way that I see like the the the world. Like
Speaker 5: you know, I majored in social work and so you see,
Speaker 5: really this past year, I feel like I have seen
Speaker 5: and I think this was kind of like the veil
Speaker 5: was pulled back for a lot of people this past year.
Speaker 5: But in some of my classes, I'm just learning about
Speaker 5: these systems that it feels like they were never meant
Speaker 5: to actually work, and it just keeps people, you know,
Speaker 5: unstable and poor and addicted and all of these different things,
Speaker 5: and it has just been I feel like that was
Speaker 5: a reckoning that a lot of people had this past year.
Speaker 5: And I've i've you know, had these thoughts for quite
Speaker 5: some time.
Speaker 1: But you know, but when you say the system, do
Speaker 1: you mean sort of a overall government system or do
Speaker 1: you mean the system of the of the rehab.
Speaker 4: Center that you work in, like an overall system.
Speaker 5: I like my job, and you know, it is a company,
Speaker 5: and so they're partially in it for financial reasons, but
Speaker 5: I do think that I'm sorry, there's a siren going around.
Speaker 4: My apartment right now.
Speaker 5: Hold on a minute. They are a company, but I
Speaker 5: do think that most of the people that work there
Speaker 5: have a genuine interest in like sustained in long term
Speaker 5: recovery and sobriety.
Speaker 1: Mmm, I ask you, so, Okay, So when you think
Speaker 1: about how when you have these epiphanies like how you're
Speaker 1: describing them, that the systems in place, uh are meant
Speaker 1: not to work? I mean, how does that make you feel?
Speaker 1: Does that because because you could look at you because
Speaker 1: you look, you could look at that two different ways.
Speaker 1: You could look at that two different ways. Yeah, you
Speaker 1: could look at that. You could be like, the systems
Speaker 1: are broken, they will stay forever broken, life sucks. Fuck it.
Speaker 1: Or you could feel sort of, you know, inspired, systems
Speaker 1: are broken, Let's do our best to fect them. You know,
Speaker 1: you could do you think.
Speaker 5: That you have the power to make a change at
Speaker 5: that level?
Speaker 1: You know, my, my, you know, I know we have
Speaker 1: we We're not really talking about anything super specific here,
Speaker 1: but sort of a general thing. I believe I'm sort
Speaker 1: of individualistic, and I believe that you, as an individual,
Speaker 1: are presented every day with opportunities to help out. I mean, no,
Speaker 1: you're not gonna no, you're not going to solve poverty
Speaker 1: alone by yourself, but fuck, I mean there's a billion
Speaker 1: ways that you as an individual can help out on
Speaker 1: a small scale, and the big scale is just thous
Speaker 1: and thousands of bricks of the small scale. So I mean,
Speaker 1: whatever you can do to help out in your own
Speaker 1: little way.
Speaker 10: And I do believe that.
Speaker 5: I do believe that, you know, making a difference however
Speaker 5: you can is meaningful. It's just sometimes, you know, it
Speaker 5: gets overwhelming to think about the sheer, like the scale
Speaker 5: of problems.
Speaker 9: That people face.
Speaker 1: You know what, I always got to think about this
Speaker 1: with the Internet is that this might sound harsh, but
Speaker 1: so our brain there's no our brains were not fucking wired.
Speaker 1: Oh for every single problem to be our problem.
Speaker 5: I could not agree with you more. I think about
Speaker 5: this all the time. When I think about the scale
Speaker 5: of problems that people or face with, I then think about,
Speaker 5: nobody was ever meant.
Speaker 9: To be like this aware.
Speaker 1: No, because back before Twitter, if there was because just
Speaker 1: like back before the Internet, you know, and like the
Speaker 1: eighteen hundreds, if a fire destroyed all of Australia, I mean,
Speaker 1: we just wouldn't fucking we wouldn't even know exactly, you know,
Speaker 1: And it's like, yeah, I mean we wouldn't even know.
Speaker 1: So I mean it's good. It's good that we're aware
Speaker 1: of these problems. I'm not saying it's a bad thing.
Speaker 1: But at the end of the day, you can't. You can't.
Speaker 1: You just physically cannot make every single problem that exists
Speaker 1: your problem, you know. I mean, pick pick a thing
Speaker 1: that's important to you one, pick one thing that's very
Speaker 1: important to you, and you know, double down on that.
Speaker 1: You know, if you try to solve every single problem
Speaker 1: going on in the world, or you try to think
Speaker 1: your way through it. I mean you're gonna go insane.
Speaker 5: Oh yeah, you're gonna wind up the hospital if you
Speaker 5: try to do that.
Speaker 1: What's what's something that it's like one thing? What do okay?
Speaker 1: If you have to do that, if you have to
Speaker 1: pick your main thing, what is it?
Speaker 5: Oh gosh, see that's hard.
Speaker 9: Hmhmm.
Speaker 5: You know I have I mean I've I've always been
Speaker 5: had a keen interest in people being in recovery from
Speaker 5: drugs and alcohol. So I mean that's what I'm doing
Speaker 5: right now.
Speaker 1: Well, well, golly g you're in a perfect you're in
Speaker 1: a perfect place, then aren't you working at uh that center.
Speaker 5: That doesn't sometimes doesn't feel perfect, But I'm doing it
Speaker 5: so well.
Speaker 1: Look, Norah, I'm glad you got a thing that you
Speaker 1: care about here. Yeah, don't don't try to solve all
Speaker 1: the world's problems at once. You'll you'll go nuts. You know.
Speaker 5: I'll do my best, you too, Gek take it easy?
Speaker 4: Do you prefer Gek or Lyle?
Speaker 1: Norah? You can call me whatever you want. I like Lyle,
Speaker 1: I like Ghak. I'll do it all. Do we can do?
Speaker 1: We can do? What do you like? Do you like
Speaker 1: Nora or Ghek or Lyle.
Speaker 5: I would love to be called Lyle, to be honest.
Speaker 1: Well, Lyle, there is a pleasure talking to you, Lyle.
Speaker 5: It was a pleasure talking to you. I'm so amazed
Speaker 5: that this has happened. I'm probably going to think about
Speaker 5: this for the next three.
Speaker 1: Days, I hope. I hope the thoughts are good.
Speaker 4: Oh yeah, all good, all good.
Speaker 1: Thoughts, wonderful. Take care, Nora, thank.
Speaker 5: You, take care, have a good night.
Speaker 1: That's a long one. What's up, Nora? Shout out to Nora.
Speaker 1: I hope I don't sound too harsh when I say
Speaker 1: that he's doing a good thing. I do. I believe. Look,
Speaker 1: I believe in the small victories, because what are the
Speaker 1: big victories. But just you know, a bunch of small ones.
Speaker 1: Pick up a fucking piece of trash that you see
Speaker 1: on the floor. Bam if ever, if, if, if, if
Speaker 1: we all picked up one piece of trash, it's seven
Speaker 1: billion pizzas of trash. That's pretty good. That's pretty good.
Speaker 1: It's not the it won't end trash, but it's pretty good. Alexander, Alexander, Yes, sir,
Speaker 1: what's up? Man?
Speaker 11: Hey man, how you doing.
Speaker 1: Have we ever spoken before, Alexander?
Speaker 11: We have never spoken before now and I can't believe
Speaker 11: it got through you. That's what's a trip.
Speaker 1: So are we doing, Alexander, tell me everything?
Speaker 6: I'm good man.
Speaker 11: I got two questions. Actually I don't know which one
Speaker 11: is more import but I figured out as them both. Uh,
Speaker 11: my roommate is insane, but she wants to be a therapist,
Speaker 11: and I think that's a bad idea. I just don't
Speaker 11: know how to tell her.
Speaker 1: Interesting when you when you would you tell me when
Speaker 1: you'm sorry?
Speaker 11: Did you say I said, she's a lovely person. I
Speaker 11: just don't know if she's really in the position to
Speaker 11: be helping other people exactly.
Speaker 1: When when you say she's insane, do you mean likes
Speaker 1: like she's been like diagnosed with like a like a
Speaker 1: mental illness.
Speaker 11: No, she just does crazy things that probably wouldn't be
Speaker 11: advisable to most. And you know, like I said, awesome person,
Speaker 11: just a little wacky.
Speaker 1: Well, it's interesting you said that because I've talked. I
Speaker 1: remember I had a therapist to call in to me
Speaker 1: one time and I asked them. I was like, is
Speaker 1: it typical that people with their own, you know, mental
Speaker 1: issues become uh, mental health care providers? And she told
Speaker 1: me it is typical. It makes sense because I almost
Speaker 1: feel like if you've, if you have dealt with the
Speaker 1: same problems that the people that you're helping are dealing with,
Speaker 1: it gives you, you know, a greater amount of empathy.
Speaker 1: Would I mean, do you not agree?
Speaker 11: I think I think that's a good point. But don't
Speaker 11: you think it might also lead people to make unadvisable
Speaker 11: decisions too? I mean, you know, I don't know. Maybe
Speaker 11: that was like the wrong Wader approach, saying she's insane
Speaker 11: she's Maybe she's not insane, she's just uh, she's got.
Speaker 12: Her own issues.
Speaker 11: And I guess maybe you're working working it out with
Speaker 11: other people, maybe it's gonna help her too.
Speaker 2: I don't know.
Speaker 1: Well, here's another thing. Everyone has issues. You know, everyone
Speaker 1: has issues, whether you're a therapist or or not. That
Speaker 1: I mean, I I don't like, I don't want to
Speaker 1: believe it, but even a cert probably has a little
Speaker 1: bit of imposter syndrome. I don't want the imposter syndrome surgeon,
Speaker 1: but they but that exists. There's there is a surgeon
Speaker 1: who when he opens people up, maybe maybe he's confident.
Speaker 1: Ninety nine percent of the time, no one's confident. One
Speaker 1: hundred percent of the time, but miss guy's confident nine
Speaker 1: nine percent of the time, and he goes, I fucking hope
Speaker 1: this goes well. Everyone has their thing, even if they're
Speaker 1: a you know, a professional one hundred percent. Not to
Speaker 1: say it's unprofessional to have, you know, problems, but okay,
Speaker 1: so have you so this, I mean, this is a
Speaker 1: concern of yours. It sounds like have you spoken, like,
Speaker 1: have you had a conversation with her about this?
Speaker 5: Like?
Speaker 1: How did that go?
Speaker 11: I'm just a little afraid she's wasting her time, that's all.
Speaker 11: It's not that I don't think that she's maybe even
Speaker 11: suited to do it. It's just that I just don't
Speaker 11: think she I think she has better strengths in other
Speaker 11: areas and you know, would probably be better off honestly
Speaker 11: being like an artist or an actor, you know, which
Speaker 11: is sort of what she's tried. But I think she
Speaker 11: just needs to keep doing I don't know. I mean,
Speaker 11: I thought you'd probably be the best person to think
Speaker 11: this is what you actually do?
Speaker 1: Do you? I'm not a do you. I'm not a
Speaker 1: real therapist.
Speaker 6: I don't know if you know that, but you are
Speaker 6: a get go.
Speaker 1: I am a gecko. But she didn't say she wanted
Speaker 1: to be a gecko. She said she wanted to be
Speaker 1: a therapist.
Speaker 11: That's true, Toche.
Speaker 5: Okay, maybe in.
Speaker 1: Fact, actually being insane might help her be a gecko.
Speaker 11: That's that's also true. Okay, Well ask you a questions
Speaker 11: about myself instead.
Speaker 1: Okay, let me let me let me say this though,
Speaker 1: by the way, I think it's funny that, you know,
Speaker 1: traditionally people and I don't know how hard it is
Speaker 1: to become a therapist, but it's funny that you want
Speaker 1: to steer her away from being a therapist into being
Speaker 1: like an actor or an artist, which are tradisally thought
Speaker 1: of as much hard to get into.
Speaker 11: The thing is she's really suited for that. She's actually
Speaker 11: really good at those things. I think she just doesn't
Speaker 11: have quite the self confidence she needs to maybe take
Speaker 11: it to where she needs to fully go. But I
Speaker 11: see it, and I believe it. I just think it
Speaker 11: might be a more appropriate thing ultimately for her.
Speaker 1: Well, just to just to sort of wrap that thing
Speaker 1: up is in my opinion, I think that you know,
Speaker 1: if you you know, look, by the way, people in
Speaker 1: chat are probably gonna hate on you. I'm not I'm
Speaker 1: not looking at Chat. I mean, if there's no chat,
Speaker 1: this is all pre recorded. But I'm positive people in
Speaker 1: Chat are gonna meme on you right now. And here's
Speaker 1: what I'll say, is that because you know, I think
Speaker 1: I can tell that you care about your friend, I do,
Speaker 1: and if you do, you should support her in whatever
Speaker 1: it is she wants to do. That's more important. That's
Speaker 1: more important, I think than trying to steer her to
Speaker 1: the right thing, is to support her in whatever thing
Speaker 1: she chooses. That that I think is a better use
Speaker 1: of your friendship energy than to steer the ship. Put
Speaker 1: a coal in the fire, but don't don't be steering
Speaker 1: the boat. Okay, Well, listen, man, thank you so much
Speaker 1: for calling in. You have the rest of the night.
Speaker 11: Appreciate you.
Speaker 1: GETO you two men. I know Chat's gonna meme on
Speaker 1: that guy, Tom. Tom. Yeah, how are you Tom?
Speaker 6: I'm doing well?
Speaker 1: Tom? Are you like, are you British or something?
Speaker 6: I'm Australian.
Speaker 1: Are you calling from Australia or did you move from
Speaker 1: Australia to beautiful where in America.
Speaker 6: The home of the Brave.
Speaker 1: Let me ask you something, do you do you really
Speaker 1: mean that? Do you feel as though people in America
Speaker 1: are more brave than they are in Australia.
Speaker 6: I would say so. I wouldn't say that the guns
Speaker 6: make them, but I would say that they're more free.
Speaker 1: You are you a brave person? Do you feel like
Speaker 1: you're brave?
Speaker 6: I feel like I'm more brave since I've been in America.
Speaker 1: Really, And how do you think that even happens? Why
Speaker 1: do you think you're more brave since you've been in America?
Speaker 6: I know, I think it's a culture thing. I think
Speaker 6: Australians a little weak minded.
Speaker 1: Interesting, they're weak minded. Do you feel as though what
Speaker 1: do you think it is about Australians that makes them
Speaker 1: weak minded?
Speaker 6: I think we have no guns?
Speaker 1: Is that is that it? You just want a gun?
Speaker 6: I don't think that's it?
Speaker 1: Are you and beyond? Do you just like not? Are
Speaker 1: you just sort of feel put on the spot by
Speaker 1: these questions and not necessarily know how to answer them?
Speaker 6: Not really, because I haven't thought of it like that.
Speaker 6: You're asking me questions that I have to think about
Speaker 6: because I haven't been asked that question before.
Speaker 1: And do you enjoy the challenge of having to answer
Speaker 1: these questions or do you feel burdened?
Speaker 6: I feel like it's a it's a brain stimulator. It's
Speaker 6: like asking why rather than the how.
Speaker 1: Okay, good, good good? Interesting. So tell me when did
Speaker 1: you move to America?
Speaker 6: Moved to America four years ago to go to school,
Speaker 6: to go to university.
Speaker 1: Yeah, and what do you currently study at university?
Speaker 6: Studying? Teaching?
Speaker 1: Studying? Teaching? Do you I like asking these questions now
Speaker 1: to teachers? Do you feel like you know things?
Speaker 6: No? I feel like teachers no more than students. But
Speaker 6: it gets to a point where where the student becomes
Speaker 6: a teacher.
Speaker 1: Now, how do you what are you supposed to teach?
Speaker 1: If you don't know anything?
Speaker 6: Well, I wouldn't say you don't know anything, but you
Speaker 6: might know a little more than someone else on a
Speaker 6: certain subject where you definitely definitely don't know at all.
Speaker 1: Do you have any subjects in which you feel like
Speaker 1: you know more than the average person?
Speaker 6: Oh, I mean I would say so, like what I
Speaker 6: would say, classes that I took, things I learned about
Speaker 6: like talking to people. Communications.
Speaker 1: Okay, so you feel like you know more about communication
Speaker 1: than the average person.
Speaker 6: I think I might know more than those people aren't teaching,
Speaker 6: because that's my goal is to teach them.
Speaker 1: Do you don't do I teach?
Speaker 6: Yeah, do you teach? Do you teach lessons?
Speaker 1: No? I'm stupid, gabble by, But what did you say?
Speaker 1: You know, it's interesting you said that like all you
Speaker 1: have to know, all you have to do is no
Speaker 1: more than the person you're teaching, which in theory is true,
Speaker 1: Like theoretically a fourth grader would be a fantastic third
Speaker 1: grade teacher, but it doesn't work like that.
Speaker 6: Why not.
Speaker 1: I don't know, Well, I guess because you have to
Speaker 1: know how to teach. But I always feel like, like,
Speaker 1: if you're trying to learn something, you want to be
Speaker 1: taught it not by like the master, because the master
Speaker 1: thinks about the thing in two complex of a way
Speaker 1: two that for you to understand. But if you take
Speaker 1: advice or or lessons from someone who's like one step
Speaker 1: ahead of you, like they they they can pull you
Speaker 1: up to that.
Speaker 6: One step right right, But if they're trying to pull
Speaker 6: you up ten steps, it's a little bit of a bridge,
Speaker 6: a little bit of a gap.
Speaker 1: The arms aren't that long, right, right.
Speaker 6: I see, we get that. So I think that a
Speaker 6: fourth grade teacher would be a perfect grade teacher.
Speaker 1: M Let me add, so are you so you. You
Speaker 1: know you're in university, you're going to be a teacher.
Speaker 1: Do you feel like kids are gonna like rip on
Speaker 1: you for your Australian accent?
Speaker 6: Oh, it's happened many a time.
Speaker 1: I think I think people are gonna like think you're
Speaker 1: very cool because of it.
Speaker 6: They do, but they always ask, you know, sometimes they
Speaker 6: don't understand what I'm saying. Let kind of cuss a
Speaker 6: little bit too much.
Speaker 1: You cuss too much?
Speaker 6: Yeah, in Australia. Good see the sea word is a
Speaker 6: compliment in Australia.
Speaker 1: Really.
Speaker 13: Yeah.
Speaker 6: It's like if I was to call someone a count,
Speaker 6: it's like they're my friend. But if I was to,
Speaker 6: you know, call them mate, it's kind of like I'm
Speaker 6: being a little aggressive towards them.
Speaker 1: Would you consider me your cunt?
Speaker 6: Yeah, i'd say you're a pretty good cunt.
Speaker 1: I think you're a good cunt too.
Speaker 6: That's that's perfect, that's perfect.
Speaker 1: What did you say? Your name was?
Speaker 6: Tom?
Speaker 1: There's a pleasure talking to you, Tom. You have good
Speaker 1: rest of.
Speaker 6: The night, you too, Brother.
Speaker 4: Paul from Emma Emma call into the show, call into
Speaker 4: the show.
Speaker 3: No way, that's crazy.
Speaker 1: Sorry, why are you sorry?
Speaker 3: Hi?
Speaker 4: No, my dad was just walking in.
Speaker 10: At the same time, I was answering the call.
Speaker 4: I was talking to him.
Speaker 1: Can't talk to him?
Speaker 4: You want to talk to my dad? Yeah, this guy,
Speaker 4: I'm on the phone list.
Speaker 10: I'm talking to your dad.
Speaker 4: He didn't want to talk to you.
Speaker 5: I'm sorry.
Speaker 10: The therapy ghet go, I'm sorry to drag you into this.
Speaker 1: Well, you' sorry'd be sorry.
Speaker 10: Because he's confused.
Speaker 4: He has no idea what's going on here.
Speaker 1: But confusion is not necessarily always a bad thing. It's
Speaker 1: not something that, you know, I think you would need
Speaker 1: to apologize for, unless if he actively doesn't like confusion,
Speaker 1: and he's made that clear, and you're bringing him into
Speaker 1: something that you know he actively doesn't like.
Speaker 14: Ohm that true?
Speaker 1: Let me talk to your dad. Heillo, Hey, how's it going? Man?
Speaker 13: Okay?
Speaker 1: Okay? I like you know what okay is. You know
Speaker 1: what I like about you saying okay when I said hello,
Speaker 1: is that it's an acceptance. It's a cautious acceptance, and
Speaker 1: it's keying me into how you feel about being in
Speaker 1: this situation. More than you just saying hello. You said okay.
Speaker 1: You let me into how you're feeling. And I feel
Speaker 1: like I'm a little bit closer to you, after you've
Speaker 1: displayed that level of vulnerability with me. I like that.
Speaker 1: I feel like we're in a good place now. We've
Speaker 1: laid ourselves out a good foundation to have a conversation.
Speaker 13: Why am I talking to you?
Speaker 1: What do you mean by why are you talking to me?
Speaker 8: I don't know.
Speaker 11: The guy from.
Speaker 1: I know, but that's such an interesting I know, but
Speaker 1: that's such an interesting question that you just posed. Why
Speaker 1: are you talking to me?
Speaker 13: Well, yeah, that's the question. Why why am I talking
Speaker 13: to you? I don't know why my talks talk to your.
Speaker 1: Right, But like I mean, couldn't you I mean, theoretically
Speaker 1: you could kind of say that about like you know,
Speaker 1: a lot of you know, you could ask why endlessly?
Speaker 1: Like you know, I mean, who who's let me ask
Speaker 1: you some what's your name?
Speaker 6: Mike?
Speaker 1: Mike? Mike? You just got home? Right?
Speaker 13: Yes?
Speaker 1: From where?
Speaker 13: From Missouri?
Speaker 1: From Missouri? Did you talk to anyone in Missouri today? Yeah?
Speaker 13: Uh yeah, I've talked to several people in Missouri today.
Speaker 1: So every single let me, okay, Mike, listen, every single
Speaker 1: person you talk to in Missouri. You might not remember
Speaker 1: every single person you talked to, but do you think
Speaker 1: that you could give a reason as to, like a
Speaker 1: definitive reason as to why you talk talked to every
Speaker 1: single one of those people.
Speaker 13: Uh yeah, well I was buying some insecticide at the
Speaker 13: hardware start and you know, six ninety five, and I said,
Speaker 13: thank you.
Speaker 1: Okay, So you talked to them because you needed something
Speaker 1: from them.
Speaker 13: Yeah, I suppose I didn't really even need to speak
Speaker 13: to him. I just you know, thanks.
Speaker 1: Do you remember the last person that you talked to
Speaker 1: for a reason other than you you they worked at
Speaker 1: a store and you needed something from them?
Speaker 13: Uh?
Speaker 1: Yeah, who was that?
Speaker 13: I talked to my son because I wanted to talk
Speaker 13: to him.
Speaker 1: Okay, So you talked to something because you wanted to
Speaker 1: talk to him.
Speaker 13: Yeah.
Speaker 1: Why why did you want to talk to your son.
Speaker 13: Because I like talking to him?
Speaker 1: Okay, because to talk to your son?
Speaker 13: Yeah?
Speaker 1: Do you do you have friends?
Speaker 13: Yes?
Speaker 1: I have friends, okay, and you talk to them because
Speaker 1: they bring you joy to talk to.
Speaker 13: Normally.
Speaker 1: Yeah, okay, all right, So you have like co workers
Speaker 1: and bosses and stuff, and I assume you talk to
Speaker 1: them because you need to to perform your job to
Speaker 1: make money.
Speaker 13: Well, yeah, so.
Speaker 1: This is I feel like we're I mean this Mike,
Speaker 1: I feel like we're in a very interesting situation right now, where,
Speaker 1: like you know, you have all these people in your
Speaker 1: life that you have a reason as to why you're
Speaker 1: talking to them, But here you are with me and
Speaker 1: you don't know why you're talking to me. Isn't that
Speaker 1: kind of an interesting territory to be in. I'm the
Speaker 1: only person. I might be the only person in the
Speaker 1: life at all.
Speaker 13: I was handed at the phone. This guy wants doctor.
Speaker 1: No I might. I know it's extrame why I know,
Speaker 1: But that's the I might be the only person in
Speaker 1: your entire life that you are talking to that you
Speaker 1: don't have a reason to talk to. Isn't that kind
Speaker 1: of interesting?
Speaker 13: Your daughter a reason to talk to you?
Speaker 3: Hold on, Mike, Hi, Nope, it's Emma the daughter.
Speaker 14: Hello, Hello, I'm here.
Speaker 3: Can I hear you now?
Speaker 1: I'm here.
Speaker 3: I'm here, Okay, Hi, Jesus, I'm here. I just wanted
Speaker 3: to tell you about my little music boxes.
Speaker 10: That's all I wanted.
Speaker 1: I'm so disappointed, Mike. We could have, you know, I
Speaker 1: don't you know. I don't need Mike to have had
Speaker 1: a beautiful moment with him. I don't need his I
Speaker 1: don't need him to have had that moment. I had
Speaker 1: that moment alone, you know, and Mike, Mike missed out
Speaker 1: on an opportunity to have that beautiful moment with me,
Speaker 1: And you know that's his loss. That's his loss.
Speaker 13: You know.
Speaker 1: I'm sure he has his reasons, and for the benefit
Speaker 1: of Mike, I think he should open his heart a
Speaker 1: little bit more to you know. I mean, we had
Speaker 1: no reason to talk to each other.
Speaker 4: No, none, none at all.
Speaker 1: Why would you not? Why would you not want in
Speaker 1: your life? When you ever when you talk to is like, what, guys,
Speaker 1: I'm talking to you because I'm doing a Twitch show?
Speaker 1: Did I do? Is my life? Work stuff? So I
Speaker 1: have a reason to talk to you. And I guess
Speaker 1: I had a reason to talk to Mike as well,
Speaker 1: because I thought it would be interesting for the stream
Speaker 1: that I'm doing. But Mike had no reason at all
Speaker 1: to talk to me, and I thought that that was interesting.
Speaker 3: Maybe maybe the opposite.
Speaker 1: But you yeah, but no, nobody, no, Ema, No one understands.
Speaker 1: I'm looking at the chat. Everyone's like, no, it's not interesting.
Speaker 1: I'm alone here. But I don't care. I don't care
Speaker 1: if no one agrees with me. Emma. I think it's
Speaker 1: a little interesting that Mike has no reason to talk
Speaker 1: to me.
Speaker 3: Okay, sure I agree with you now, definitely.
Speaker 1: No, you don't. I actually agree with I would rather
Speaker 1: you disagree with me than fake agree with me.
Speaker 3: I'm sorry, I really I don't know. This wasn't the
Speaker 3: point of the call, and now I'm nervous.
Speaker 1: What do you mean? What do you Everyone SUPs? Everyone
Speaker 1: saw sessed with points. Everyone's so obsessed with reasons, Emma,
Speaker 1: just when you're on the phone with a gecko, all
Speaker 1: reason and points have been thrown in the garbage. Am
Speaker 1: I the only sane person left on the earth?
Speaker 8: Oh?
Speaker 14: Maybe?
Speaker 1: Oh my god? Thank you for letting me talk to
Speaker 1: your father, Emma.
Speaker 4: Thanks you welcome.
Speaker 14: I don't know.
Speaker 1: I don't know either, But that's I like that. I
Speaker 1: don't that now that you don't have to know everything.
Speaker 9: Okay, yeah, it's fine.
Speaker 4: You don't need to know my music boxes.
Speaker 14: It's fine, Emma.
Speaker 1: Dear Emma, thank you so much for calling. I'll talk
Speaker 1: to you again soon.
Speaker 3: All right, Thank you.
Speaker 1: Emma. Had such a good opportunity. Yes, and me, Emma
Speaker 1: could have gone. You know, look, points, I hate points.
Speaker 1: Drop all your points, drop all your expectations. Drop all
Speaker 1: your preconceived notions, go along with what's happening in the moment.
Speaker 1: Emma all from Hello.
Speaker 9: Hi, oh one second, Hi, how are you?
Speaker 1: What's your name? Laura? Dlaura? Okay, Dallaura. Nobody could hear
Speaker 1: this part except for me because I had you playing
Speaker 1: through the wrong output. But there was a completely different
Speaker 1: person who called in on your behalf.
Speaker 9: Yeah, sorry, that was my partner. This is my second
Speaker 9: time trying to like, this is my second time listening
Speaker 9: to Gecko, and he had gone on last week, so
Speaker 9: he helped me get on this week.
Speaker 1: Because he knew because he had successfully gotten on the
Speaker 1: line the previous week, he knew that the secret tools
Speaker 1: and tricks of the of the trade to help you
Speaker 1: achieve in his footsteps.
Speaker 9: I think we just got lucky.
Speaker 1: Interesting. But his name it was the Damascus.
Speaker 9: My name, Oh no, Dalaura, but Damascus Damascus would be cool,
Speaker 9: would be cool.
Speaker 1: I've always liked the name Dante.
Speaker 9: Yeah, me too, not in the name Dante is kind
Speaker 9: of cool. I think I think Virgil is a good
Speaker 9: name too.
Speaker 1: How did you and your partner meet?
Speaker 9: We met through a Dungeons and Dragons game mutual part
Speaker 9: A little bit of both. I guess we met through
Speaker 9: a mutual friend and it was long distance for a while,
Speaker 9: and then we just moved in together last.
Speaker 1: Year to a to a good place, to a dungeon
Speaker 1: with a dragon. Uh.
Speaker 9: Well, he played dungeons and dragons all the time. I
Speaker 9: don't play it so much anymore, but like I mean,
Speaker 9: East Coast, there's always dungeons around here.
Speaker 1: How much did your house cost?
Speaker 9: Well, we're living in an apartment right now, so it
Speaker 9: costs about like thirteen hundred a month for a two bedroom,
Speaker 9: two baths.
Speaker 1: Thirteen hundred a month. That's pretty good between you know,
Speaker 1: two people.
Speaker 9: Yeah, yeah, it Sully is. Yeah, we're both fully employed school. Yeah.
Speaker 1: What's the strangest thing you own.
Speaker 9: Currently? There are a few things that we own. Well,
Speaker 9: I own like a little jar of teeth I got
Speaker 9: from an oddity shop, like human molars.
Speaker 1: Okay, a little thing of teeth that you got from
Speaker 1: an oddity shop. And what was it when you saw
Speaker 1: these teeth? What about them? Spoke to you?
Speaker 9: Honestly? I had just I took the vial and like
Speaker 9: clinked it together, and I don't know, I just like
Speaker 9: a sound that And I used to be like I
Speaker 9: used to study for registered dental assisting.
Speaker 1: Do you now how would you feel if and how
Speaker 1: old are the teeth that you that you purchased.
Speaker 9: I'm not sure they look like they could be of
Speaker 9: this century.
Speaker 1: Do you believe that the person whose teeth they are
Speaker 1: consented to having their teeth owned by a lady one
Speaker 1: day in her house and her two better apartments.
Speaker 9: I don't know about that because as the because I
Speaker 9: do know this from from being an intern at a
Speaker 9: general practice, Like I've done extractions before, like I've assisted
Speaker 9: on them. After the extraction is done, the patient has
Speaker 9: the opportunity to take the tooth with them if they
Speaker 9: want to. But like sometimes, like the office that I
Speaker 9: worked at, specifically collected teeth in order to give them
Speaker 9: back to like surrounding universities and stuff so that students
Speaker 9: could work on them.
Speaker 1: Or you could get your teeth pulled out and then
Speaker 1: take your tooth and sell it to like a weird
Speaker 1: person who likes to collect strange teeth things for a
Speaker 1: lot of money. You could set up your own army,
Speaker 1: or you could sell it to one another. How did
Speaker 1: it get into the to the to the possession of
Speaker 1: the oddity.
Speaker 9: Shop that's a good question. That audity shop is out
Speaker 9: in Pennsylvania. They had a lot of other stuff like
Speaker 9: actual like human skulls and taxidermy and stuff like that.
Speaker 1: Listen before we go, Dante, how would you feel? This
Speaker 1: is what I've been dying to ask you this entire conversation,
Speaker 1: but I keep getting in distracted. How would you feel
Speaker 1: if one day your teeth were in the possession of
Speaker 1: a stranger who was like centuries older than you.
Speaker 9: If there were, okay a century older than me, in
Speaker 9: what way are they a vampire? Or it's just been said?
Speaker 1: And imagine the teeth that you possess being possessed by
Speaker 1: a lady who just looks exactly like you. After you're dead, Well.
Speaker 9: Well I hope that they take care of them at least,
Speaker 9: so I mean, if I'm dead, I guess it doesn't
Speaker 9: really matter, like by centuries by now, like my brain
Speaker 9: is turned into mush and then I've completely slept off
Speaker 9: in this mortal coil, so they can keep my teeth.
Speaker 1: If I'm dead, then it doesn't really matter. Very wise
Speaker 1: worse to leave us with. Thank you very much, Daisy,
Speaker 1: you have a good rest of the night.
Speaker 11: Thank you.
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Speaker 1: the calls.
Speaker 6: Kyle, Kyle, Hello.
Speaker 12: Hey, hey, Hey, how's it going?
Speaker 1: How's it going? I mean, what does that even mean?
Speaker 13: You know?
Speaker 12: Well, I mean I did previously hear you answer, and
Speaker 12: I forgot about it. So that's that's the reason I asked.
Speaker 1: No, I'm not asking the reason for you asking the question.
Speaker 1: I'm asking what you believe the question means, how is
Speaker 1: it going? No, I feel like I know the reason
Speaker 1: for your asking of the question. I feel like you
Speaker 1: asked the question and a good faith effort to you know,
Speaker 1: sort of get the ball rolling on a conversation, which
Speaker 1: I appreciate. But I'm merely asking what you believe. The
Speaker 1: question itself means.
Speaker 12: I'm not that intellectual, so I necessary I can't really
Speaker 12: stay why.
Speaker 1: I don't think you have. It's just you don't have
Speaker 1: to be an intellectual. I'm asking your own personal opinion.
Speaker 1: You don't have to be an intellectual to tell me
Speaker 1: what you think. You know?
Speaker 12: This is extremely hard for me. What I'm never in
Speaker 12: this nowhere I'm being asked.
Speaker 1: What? Yeah, I don't know, You're not you never can you?
Speaker 1: Can you finish that sentence? You're never in a situation
Speaker 1: where you're being asked where.
Speaker 12: I'm being asked, what do you think? How do you how?
Speaker 12: How are you means?
Speaker 1: M hm?
Speaker 14: Yep?
Speaker 1: Do people not often ask you for your thoughts?
Speaker 11: Well?
Speaker 13: No, that's that's not true.
Speaker 1: You've just never been in a situation in which someone
Speaker 1: has asked you what you think? The question how are
Speaker 1: you means.
Speaker 11: Yes or no?
Speaker 1: How's it going? I like that, you like what the
Speaker 1: question of how it's going? How's it going?
Speaker 14: Yep?
Speaker 12: Yep, that's way better.
Speaker 1: What do you think it means?
Speaker 7: Uh?
Speaker 12: Because I mean it's it's truly good or bad?
Speaker 1: Would you feel more comfortable if you were in a
Speaker 1: position in which you were asking questions that you have
Speaker 1: previously been asked before? Because you say that you're feeling
Speaker 1: uncomfortable because I'm asking you a question that you've never
Speaker 1: been asked before, or you've never been in a situation
Speaker 1: which you've been asked that question. But then what good
Speaker 1: is this conversation going to be if I only ask
Speaker 1: you questions that you're that you've been asked before.
Speaker 12: Well, let's let's get it going.
Speaker 13: Give me one that I've never heard.
Speaker 1: What do you think? How's it going mean?
Speaker 12: Okay, well, it means how is it going? Is it
Speaker 12: going well? Or is it going bad?
Speaker 1: What does it referred to.
Speaker 5: Life?
Speaker 12: In my situation?
Speaker 1: Okay, all right, so that's that was your answer? Is
Speaker 1: it means how is your life going?
Speaker 7: It?
Speaker 12: I mean it could be it could be how's your
Speaker 12: day going? I guess I could have phrased it better.
Speaker 1: Okay, Well, no, it's no, No, it's there's you didn't
Speaker 1: do anything wrong. You're interpreting. Don't interpret me asking you
Speaker 1: what you think this question means? As I am unsatisfied
Speaker 1: with the question, it's not. I'm not judging the question
Speaker 1: as bad or good. I'm merely asking you what you
Speaker 1: think the question means. I'm not saying that you did anything.
Speaker 1: You know, don't I would. I hate that you're being like, oh,
Speaker 1: I could have done something better, so you didn't do
Speaker 1: anything wrong. I'm just asking you what you thought the
Speaker 1: question meant.
Speaker 12: Yeah, I really don't know.
Speaker 1: You don't know, but I think you do. You know,
Speaker 1: were you were there just now, you were saying like
Speaker 1: it could be what your now your day is going.
Speaker 1: You were articulating your thoughts on it, so you do know.
Speaker 12: Yep, yeah, I guess I do understand.
Speaker 1: Okay, So what you think it means?
Speaker 12: Just how it is? Just how's it going today?
Speaker 1: What's the strangest thing? You know?
Speaker 12: The strangest thing I own? I was thinking about this,
Speaker 12: and I mean honestly, the strangest thing I own is
Speaker 12: a an all black rubikscube. I really can't think of much.
Speaker 1: In all black rubic scube.
Speaker 12: Yeah, it's very easy to solve, also very hard to solve.
Speaker 1: Very easy to solve, also very hard. Is it different
Speaker 1: shades of black?
Speaker 12: Nope, it's just black.
Speaker 1: See you say you're not an intellectual. But this is
Speaker 1: an interesting philosophical question here. I feel like is an
Speaker 1: all blacks rub an is a Rubic's cube that is
Speaker 1: all one color, easy to solve or hard to solve.
Speaker 13: It's both.
Speaker 12: As what I'm saying, it could take you hours to solve.
Speaker 12: It could take you sixteen seconds.
Speaker 1: I don't even think it would take you sixteen seconds. See,
Speaker 1: you're you, see you think I'm mind fucking you, but
Speaker 1: you're mind sucking me right now with this, with this query, I'm.
Speaker 12: Telling you it has legitimately taken me five minutes to
Speaker 12: solve it one time. And I've and I've done it before,
Speaker 12: That's what I'm saying. Like you haven't. You haven't done
Speaker 12: it before. It could take you two and a half
Speaker 12: hours to do.
Speaker 1: Okay, So how do you do? You understand what you're
Speaker 1: posing to me right now?
Speaker 12: I do. That's why I brought it up.
Speaker 1: Okay.
Speaker 12: That is the strangest thing I'd ever heard of.
Speaker 1: It's an all black Rubies cube.
Speaker 13: Pitch black, pitch black, yep.
Speaker 1: And how are you?
Speaker 8: How do you?
Speaker 1: How do you solve it?
Speaker 12: It's taken me a long time. I've owned it for
Speaker 12: three years. I've had other people mix it up. I've
Speaker 12: mixed it up. I have seen other people solve it.
Speaker 12: I've also solved it. It's just uh, I mean, at
Speaker 12: this point it's a muscle memory.
Speaker 1: But this has taken such a turn. This has taken
Speaker 1: such a turn because you just started off you thinking
Speaker 1: that I'm mind fucking you by asking you what you
Speaker 1: think how's it going is? And now you're mind fucking
Speaker 1: me supremely with this Rubik's cube. But I don't know
Speaker 1: if you are intentionally trying to mind fuck me or
Speaker 1: if you have just mind fucked me naturally.
Speaker 12: I mean, you're you're almost mind sucking me again.
Speaker 1: How am I mind fucking you?
Speaker 12: You really just put me in a loop here?
Speaker 1: Chat? Can anyone explain what's going on here?
Speaker 12: This guy says I'm doing a bit. That's no I'm.
Speaker 13: Telling you, I don't know.
Speaker 1: I don't think you're a bit. I don't think you're
Speaker 1: doing a bit, all right? You know part of me here,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna I'm gonna give you some honest truth here.
Speaker 1: As I believe what's your.
Speaker 12: Name again, my name is Kyle.
Speaker 1: I believe that I could dive deeper into this pitch
Speaker 1: black Rubb's cube and find something that gives some sort
Speaker 1: of an explanation for it. But I've been reluctant to
Speaker 1: do that because I think it's funnier to not have
Speaker 1: any information about it. But I'm at a point where
Speaker 1: I think the only way forward in this conversation is
Speaker 1: to pry deeper into this black ruby scube.
Speaker 6: Yeah, how so how do you.
Speaker 1: Solve a Rubik's cube that's all one color?
Speaker 12: It's not much different than a standard rubikscube. Out of
Speaker 12: it is completely solved. Yes, So you do a couple,
Speaker 12: you know, you a bunch of rotations. You get it
Speaker 12: going left, right, up down one side, you move it,
Speaker 12: the other side, you move it, and then it's completely
Speaker 12: you know, mixed up. From there, there is a sequence
Speaker 12: of what you can do to once again put it
Speaker 12: back into the state it came in.
Speaker 1: And I think, Okay, So the solved state of the
Speaker 1: Rubics cube, the state of the rublescube that is defined
Speaker 1: as it being solved, is whatever state it was in
Speaker 1: when it came in the box.
Speaker 13: Yep.
Speaker 1: And so do you have record of what the state
Speaker 1: of the Rubics cube was when it was in the box.
Speaker 12: No, it's all my feel.
Speaker 1: I just know so you could you just know you
Speaker 1: just feel.
Speaker 11: Yeah.
Speaker 1: Interesting, that sounds extremely hard.
Speaker 12: You're telling me, man, it's it's one color.
Speaker 1: I know it's one color.
Speaker 12: I don't think you get it. It's black.
Speaker 1: No, I get it, all black, yes.
Speaker 12: Every side, every square?
Speaker 14: Mind?
Speaker 1: Fuck? What did you say? Name was Kyle?
Speaker 14: My name?
Speaker 12: My name is Kyl Yas.
Speaker 1: Thank you for calling Kyle, Thank you for having me.
Speaker 3: Last, of course, Paul from Nichole Nichel.
Speaker 1: Hello, what's that Nichole? Hi?
Speaker 15: How's that going?
Speaker 1: How's it going? It's going good. I'm feeling I'm feeling
Speaker 1: a better. I'm feeling a little bit more energetic right now.
Speaker 1: I feel like I caught a little bit of a
Speaker 1: second wind. I'm looking around. It's uh, you know, it's
Speaker 1: a classic Monday night at the stage in in my
Speaker 1: life in which I am a gecko on the computer.
Speaker 15: And hey, that's good stuff. You got people watching.
Speaker 1: So there are people watching and listening and calling in
Speaker 1: and you are one of them, Nicole, And what's up?
Speaker 14: Tell me?
Speaker 15: I've been watching you past like hour and a half.
Speaker 15: So it's good to finally talk to you.
Speaker 1: Good to fine talk to Is this the first time
Speaker 1: watching the stream?
Speaker 15: No, I've actually watched a couple of times, but this
Speaker 15: is my first time trying to call in.
Speaker 1: So, mhm, is there anything like in particular, Nicole, that
Speaker 1: you wanted to talk about here?
Speaker 3: I don't know.
Speaker 15: I guess nothing in particular. I just thought it'd be
Speaker 15: pretty cool to kind of talk to you and I
Speaker 15: don't know, just kind of see what's racking your brain?
Speaker 15: What's racking mind?
Speaker 1: Well, what do you think is racking your brain?
Speaker 12: Oh?
Speaker 8: You know what?
Speaker 15: I have so many people listening to me right now?
Speaker 1: Are you referring to are you referring to the people
Speaker 1: watching the stream? Yeah?
Speaker 15: You know, it's it's definitely interesting to I don't know,
Speaker 15: I guess just say something and know that people are listening.
Speaker 1: I've i've actually ever since. I've actually pretty quickly into
Speaker 1: doing this. I got used to, uh forgetting that everyone
Speaker 1: was there. I never think about the fact that everyone,
Speaker 1: like what, I don't think about the fact that my
Speaker 1: words are being broadcasted to other people. Right now, I
Speaker 1: feel sort of alone, because if I thought too heavily
Speaker 1: about that, I think I would have to second guess
Speaker 1: every single thing that I said, and that would be
Speaker 1: no fun.
Speaker 15: Oh definitely, Hey, that definitely makes sense.
Speaker 1: What's the strangest thing you own?
Speaker 12: Oh?
Speaker 15: So I actually collect animal bones. M I say that
Speaker 15: that's pretty strange to some people.
Speaker 1: Is there an animal bone in particular that is the
Speaker 1: crowning jewel of your collection?
Speaker 15: Yeah? Actually I have the red cage of a hawk.
Speaker 15: I also have the skull too, So that's pretty cool.
Speaker 1: You have the ripe cage of a hawk.
Speaker 4: I do.
Speaker 1: I feel like the page of a hawk is like
Speaker 1: an ingredient to make a potion of some kind, you know,
Speaker 1: like feather of a extinct bird, the reap cage of
Speaker 1: a hawk, the tear of a Child's something like that.
Speaker 15: I would, I would say so, But for me, I
Speaker 15: just kind of have it up in my room and
Speaker 15: I look at it every day and I'm like, that's
Speaker 15: that's pretty neat. And that's there.
Speaker 1: What got you into collecting animal bones?
Speaker 15: That'll probably my grandma. So I live in Arizona, and
Speaker 15: so we've got a lot of desert around here. It's
Speaker 15: not much to do in Arizona but go on hikes.
Speaker 1: So have you personally killed any of the animals whose
Speaker 1: bones you own?
Speaker 14: Oh?
Speaker 15: My god, No, no, no, I just find them and
Speaker 15: I don't know my grandma kind of taught me like,
Speaker 15: it's kind of just a way of respecting them after death.
Speaker 15: I mean, I guess leaving them there would also be
Speaker 15: respecting them.
Speaker 1: But interesting, how Yes, Because as I was, I'm curious,
Speaker 1: how is collecting them supposed to be respectful?
Speaker 15: I guess the way that she was trying to get
Speaker 15: at it, and the way that I try to explain
Speaker 15: myself so that I don't sound super weird, is it's
Speaker 15: just kind of a way of honoring something that used
Speaker 15: to be alive, you know, just having it up, walking
Speaker 15: past it like, hey, that's you know, you're still cool,
Speaker 15: You're still loved.
Speaker 1: See this is interesting. This harkens me back to the
Speaker 1: all I think it was the very first call of
Speaker 1: the evening, but the woman who owned a set of
Speaker 1: teeths in a jar. I don't know if you were
Speaker 1: around for that.
Speaker 15: But I think I caught like the ending of that.
Speaker 1: See, I'm wondering, is that a sign you do? You
Speaker 1: do you think that's a sign of respect? Like if
Speaker 1: someone Okay, so I'll ask you a similar question that I
Speaker 1: asked her. If someone found your bones, yes, and decided
Speaker 1: to hang them up on their mantle, would you be
Speaker 1: honored by uh.
Speaker 15: I would love it, Okay, I would think that's really cool.
Speaker 8: But that's just me.
Speaker 15: I don't know. I think it'd be a lot cooler
Speaker 15: than just being forgotten.
Speaker 1: You know, that's probably a thing you could probably uh
Speaker 1: like in your will, specify that you'd like a couple
Speaker 1: of your bones given to people. You could probably give.
Speaker 1: I wonder if anyone's ever done this. You could make
Speaker 1: like some sort of anatomical will that like, oh, you
Speaker 1: give how many bones are there in the human body?
Speaker 1: A lot? I feel like you would know the exact number.
Speaker 15: I think it's around Honestly, I don't know. I should
Speaker 15: know that two hundred probably like around how many.
Speaker 1: Bones are in the human body? Two hundred and eight
Speaker 1: I'm seeing, I'm seeing all.
Speaker 15: Okay, there you go.
Speaker 1: Okay, so two o eight? Do you have two hundred
Speaker 1: and eight friends? Because you could keep each of your
Speaker 1: friends a bone.
Speaker 15: Unfortunately I don't have that many friends, but I think
Speaker 15: I think I could divide it equally.
Speaker 1: Upon all of them and have one of your bones.
Speaker 15: Oh totally, yeah, already, will.
Speaker 1: Which which which bone could I have? Could I have
Speaker 1: a like a I could I have a collar bone?
Speaker 15: You could have a collar bone. I'm probably one of
Speaker 15: my knees.
Speaker 1: No, I don't need a whole knee. You can give
Speaker 1: I don't. I don't know one bone. The the other bones
Speaker 1: you can give to someone else. But I'll take a
Speaker 1: collar bone.
Speaker 15: Oh you just okay, just like a collarbone or something.
Speaker 1: Do you have a Okay, So if you're gonna give
Speaker 1: me your collarbone, is there a place in particular that
Speaker 1: you would like me to put it.
Speaker 15: I've always pictured my bones above like a fireplace or
Speaker 15: something right in the center. But it have to it
Speaker 15: has to be one of like those old red brick fireplaces.
Speaker 1: Okay, what if I am not in possession of a
Speaker 1: red brick fireplace.
Speaker 15: Yeah, that's you know what. That's fine. That's just kind
Speaker 15: of like my my dream. I don't want to be
Speaker 15: asking too much. And if you have a night stand,
Speaker 15: I mean I have some bones on my night stand.
Speaker 1: Okay, I could put it.
Speaker 15: I think it's a pretty good spot.
Speaker 1: Okay, great, well i'll how old are you? I'm twenty twenty,
Speaker 1: all right, I see it a while until you're dead. Probably.
Speaker 15: Oh you don't know that.
Speaker 1: We don't know, it's true. We don't know, do you
Speaker 1: feel like this has giving you a lot of respective
Speaker 1: on death.
Speaker 15: I think about death a lot.
Speaker 10: So you could outlive me.
Speaker 1: I could outlive you. This is true. Do you think
Speaker 1: how would you would you be upset if I sold
Speaker 1: your collar bone? Like if you became famous. Let's say,
Speaker 1: let's say, how would you feel if you okay, if
Speaker 1: you became famous, right, and then you died And when
Speaker 1: you died, I like went to your estate and I
Speaker 1: showed them this uh footage, and I was like, I
Speaker 1: have legal I don't know if this would hold up
Speaker 1: in court, but let's say it did. And I was like,
Speaker 1: I have legal what's your name again, Angel, Nicole? Nicole?
Speaker 1: If I had legal and I and I said, I
Speaker 1: have legal claim to Nicole, to the famous singer songwriter
Speaker 1: Nicole her to her collarbone. And then I took your
Speaker 1: collar bone and I sold it on eBay for profit.
Speaker 1: How would you feel it? Would that upset you if I
Speaker 1: sold your collarbone?
Speaker 15: I think I would be a little bit hurt, But
Speaker 15: at the same time I would have to respect it.
Speaker 15: I mean, you're you're making a profit off of it,
Speaker 15: and you know, I think I think possessions are They're
Speaker 15: just what you make out of them. I guess it
Speaker 15: really depends on how much you, as a person have
Speaker 15: that importance held to that certain object.
Speaker 1: Well, Nicole, thank you so much for this great offer.
Speaker 1: If if you know I have I do happen to
Speaker 1: come into possession of her collar bone. I promised to
Speaker 1: take good care of it and you know, preserve it
Speaker 1: for many years and hopefully pass it on to my
Speaker 1: children as well.
Speaker 10: Yeah, I can.
Speaker 15: I can see if someone can mail it out to
Speaker 15: you or something. Just kind of find some way to
Speaker 15: get that collarbone out to you. I happen to die, awesome.
Speaker 1: Well, look, I hope it doesn't happen for a very
Speaker 1: long time. We'll see, we'll see. Have a good night, Nicole,
Speaker 1: Hey you too.
Speaker 4: Thanks Paul from Chuck.
Speaker 1: Chuck. Hi, holy shit, I got in you did. What's up?
Speaker 1: Tell me everything? Tell me nothing?
Speaker 9: So what's going on tonight?
Speaker 7: Anything?
Speaker 1: No, tonight's pretty chill tonight. Uh well, I mean, as
Speaker 1: you know, this is a pre recorded stream, so I'm
Speaker 1: not live right now, but I will be live in
Speaker 1: a few weeks. Chuck, is that your real name?
Speaker 7: No, it's a name I used on social media.
Speaker 11: I don't really like my real name.
Speaker 1: Why do you pick Chuck.
Speaker 7: There's a character on an old MTV show called Daria,
Speaker 7: and he was kind of like the gross nerd character
Speaker 7: that thought he was hot shit, and I really related
Speaker 7: to that.
Speaker 1: Do you consider yourself a gross nerd that thinks that
Speaker 1: they're hot shit?
Speaker 11: Absolutely?
Speaker 14: Yes.
Speaker 1: You know, it's so interesting to self identify as a
Speaker 1: person who is gross that thinks that they're hot, because
Speaker 1: there's a contradiction there, because if you truly did think
Speaker 1: that you were hot, you would not self identify first
Speaker 1: as a gross person that thinks they're hot. You would
Speaker 1: just cut straight to self identifying as a hot person.
Speaker 1: So there is a bit of a fallacy there.
Speaker 7: I have a very fake it till you make it
Speaker 7: kind of mindset.
Speaker 1: I highly endorse the fake it till you make it mindset.
Speaker 1: Do you believe that you will at some point make it?
Speaker 7: I do eventually.
Speaker 1: What is making it look like to you?
Speaker 7: I think being okay with everything that I am is
Speaker 7: making it to me.
Speaker 1: I think that's a good goal. I liked that. Cool.
Speaker 1: Uh okay, Well what are you.
Speaker 7: I think right now? I'm sad?
Speaker 1: What are you said about?
Speaker 7: I had a guy break up with me seven months
Speaker 7: ago and then he decided he wanted to hang around
Speaker 7: for a long time, and every time I told him
Speaker 7: to leave me alone, he wouldn't do it. And today
Speaker 7: he sent me a text saying, Oh, I just can't
Speaker 7: do this anymore. So, you know, had to end on
Speaker 7: his term. It's not mine.
Speaker 1: Wait a minute, but have you he broke up a wait?
Speaker 1: Hold on, this is making sense to me. He broke
Speaker 1: up with you seven months ago.
Speaker 14: Uh huh.
Speaker 1: And then when you say he hung around, like, do
Speaker 1: you guys fucking live together? What do you mean he
Speaker 1: hung around?
Speaker 7: We lived together? So he was in the apartment for
Speaker 7: about a month and then he left. Oh shit, and
Speaker 7: then he just I Every time I'd be like, you
Speaker 7: need to stop texting me, you need to leave me alone,
Speaker 7: you need to get your stuff and go get everything
Speaker 7: out of the apartment, he just wouldn't do it. And
Speaker 7: I'm I'm kind of a a welcome Matt, So I
Speaker 7: never really made him. I guess.
Speaker 1: That's crazy. Do you guys? Was it a one bedroom? What?
Speaker 1: What was the was it one best? Was we sleeping together?
Speaker 3: No?
Speaker 1: I was on the couch, You were on the couch.
Speaker 10: I was on the couch.
Speaker 1: Now, okay, was that Damn how did that go down? How?
Speaker 1: How was that decided? Who gets the couch and who
Speaker 1: gets the bed?
Speaker 14: Uh?
Speaker 7: It was kind of a thing where like it was
Speaker 7: his bed to begin with, Like he brought it from
Speaker 7: his house.
Speaker 11: To the apartment.
Speaker 7: I don't want to I don't want to sleep on that.
Speaker 1: You know. So you were just sort of co living
Speaker 1: with this guy that you broke up with for seven months.
Speaker 7: No, only a couple of months. He left after about two.
Speaker 1: Months, okay, but for a couple of months. I mean,
Speaker 1: how what did that feel like? Was that? I assume
Speaker 1: pretty awkward?
Speaker 11: Uh?
Speaker 7: Honestly, No, it was fine, Like we were, we were
Speaker 7: best friends. He just has a lot of hang ups
Speaker 7: and it kind of ruins its.
Speaker 1: Okay, so when you say your best do you do
Speaker 1: you still consider yourself best friends?
Speaker 15: Uh?
Speaker 7: Up until today? Yeah, Like I could have told him anything.
Speaker 1: Ever, what was it about today? Because that's you know,
Speaker 1: a single day is a lot to chop down that tree.
Speaker 7: You know, there was there were times where he would
Speaker 7: openly admit, like, I know I shouldn't be talking to
Speaker 7: you like we're over. I don't I don't desire a
Speaker 7: relationship with you anymore. I know, I need to get
Speaker 7: over you. But today the text was just different. Plus
Speaker 7: it was over text. He's never he's not like a
Speaker 7: he's a very in person kind of person. And so
Speaker 7: knowing that he didn't even want to come see me
Speaker 7: to say, it was like, damn you really you're not
Speaker 7: going to come around anymore.
Speaker 1: M From his perspective, why do you think he couldn't
Speaker 1: see you anymore? What was his like reason for breaking
Speaker 1: up with you?
Speaker 7: I'm curious he has a girlfriend though, Yeah, he has
Speaker 7: a girlfriend, and she left for boot camp or something,
Speaker 7: and I kept telling him, you need to stop coming around,
Speaker 7: you need to get your stuff and leave because it's
Speaker 7: going to ruin your relationship. He didn't believe me. And
Speaker 7: now she has kicked him out of their apartment. So
Speaker 7: now he's finally being like, yeah, I'm gonna get my
Speaker 7: stuff and stop talking to you.
Speaker 1: Well, you know, it sounds like you're doing your best
Speaker 1: as you should to be setting boundaries with this guy.
Speaker 7: I am, and like I've blocked him on everything. He's
Speaker 7: been blocked for a long time. He just shows up
Speaker 7: to the apartment.
Speaker 1: Are you dating anyone? Are you to have a new squeeze?
Speaker 9: Ah?
Speaker 7: Funny enough, when of his friends started talking to me
Speaker 7: because they weren't really friends anymore. And then it's still
Speaker 7: kind of happening. But he got real pissy about that.
Speaker 1: What of his friends? Mm hmm. So did he like
Speaker 1: as you is? He like? What? How did he? Okay? So,
Speaker 1: how did his friend break up with him? As like friends?
Speaker 7: So they were friends like in high school and we've
Speaker 7: been at high school for about three years now, and
Speaker 7: they just like like they stopped talking. They both got
Speaker 7: busy with stuff and stopped talking to each other. But
Speaker 7: they both did that thing where they're like, I don't
Speaker 7: know why he's not talking to me.
Speaker 11: He just hates me.
Speaker 7: Now, I guess like they didn't. They just didn't want
Speaker 7: to talk about it so that they never never tried
Speaker 7: and then they just stopped being friends because they thought
Speaker 7: the other one hated them.
Speaker 9: M m hmmm.
Speaker 1: A very small town, so I can assume. Uh, so, oh, okay,
Speaker 1: when you when your boyfriend got so your boy got
Speaker 1: pussy about this you were dating his old friends. M
Speaker 1: h What did he say?
Speaker 7: He said something like, when we broke up, you told
Speaker 7: me you were going to talk to my friends. I
Speaker 7: was like, yeah, I also still loved you. When we
Speaker 7: broke up, so like, of course I was gonna say
Speaker 7: anything to make you still want to be around me.
Speaker 7: But also, well, that's kind of that's such a childish
Speaker 7: thing to say, like, oh, you're not going to talk
Speaker 7: to my friends. Your friends aren't off limits simply because
Speaker 7: they were your friends, you know.
Speaker 1: I I I think I agree with that. I've never
Speaker 1: liked this idea of people like having trying to have
Speaker 1: like ownership over people. I mean not, I mean, you know,
Speaker 1: you never have ownership with people, even if you're in
Speaker 1: a relationship with them, but you know, especially like after
Speaker 1: you break up with them, like these sort of last
Speaker 1: stitch efforts of like, oh you can't date my friends,
Speaker 1: you can't do this, you can't do that. It's like,
Speaker 1: don't tell me what I fucking can and can't do.
Speaker 1: You don't know a person I could talk to whever.
Speaker 7: I want to talk to, right, And let's be fair here,
Speaker 7: just when started talking to me, I didn't initiate the contact.
Speaker 7: So I think if if that any beef, it should
Speaker 7: be with your friend and not me.
Speaker 1: Well that's some would you say you name was Kayla?
Speaker 7: Well, well that's my real name.
Speaker 11: I thought it was Chuck.
Speaker 7: What my name is, Kayla?
Speaker 1: Beautiful Kayla. Thank you so much for calling and appreciate you. Sharon.
Speaker 7: All right, thank you, thank you for listening.
Speaker 1: Of course, have a good night you too. Hello. Hello,
Speaker 1: how are you?
Speaker 8: Oh my god?
Speaker 9: Hi?
Speaker 10: I wasn't expecting you to call back.
Speaker 1: I well, you know what, you just had such a
Speaker 1: lovely looking phone number. Something about the I mean really
Speaker 1: just something was very aesthetically pleasing about the way that
Speaker 1: those particular numbers aligned that I was like, I got
Speaker 1: to call this person back.
Speaker 10: Oh my god, that's great. How are you doing?
Speaker 1: You know, I'm feeling pretty good. This is not going
Speaker 1: to make any sense because today what day? What day
Speaker 1: is today? Call her?
Speaker 10: Uh, Friday?
Speaker 1: No, But on the calendar, Oh oh.
Speaker 10: I don't know. I'm stay at home mom. I don't
Speaker 10: no one to know what day it is.
Speaker 1: You don't know what day of you don't know. Do
Speaker 1: you know what month it is?
Speaker 3: July?
Speaker 1: Okay, that's good. Do you know what day of July
Speaker 1: it is?
Speaker 8: Oh, I'm gonna see it and look at my phone.
Speaker 10: The eighteenth, Sunday. Okay, there we go.
Speaker 1: Okay, all right, so today's July eighteen. This is I'm
Speaker 1: pre recording a stream right now, So this people aren't
Speaker 1: gonna actually hear your voice until August fourth.
Speaker 10: Okay, honestly, I've tried call when you've been live, and
Speaker 10: I just get so nervous at chicken out.
Speaker 1: Well, this is kind of cool because you know, it's
Speaker 1: funny you say that because a lot of the problems
Speaker 1: that people a lot of the reason why people get
Speaker 1: nervous is because when you call them live, like, people
Speaker 1: are sort of afraid of what Chat is going to say.
Speaker 1: But now there's no chat to look at. It's just
Speaker 1: you and men. I mean there is. You can't see
Speaker 1: it right now, beautiful. Why were you nervous to call in?
Speaker 1: What were you nervous about?
Speaker 10: Everything? I mean, I do, Oh, it's a generalized anxiety disorders.
Speaker 10: So I'm just a nervous wreck. But I try to
Speaker 10: overcome some of my anxiety by like pushing myself.
Speaker 1: Do you I do you feel like maybe this is
Speaker 1: completely wrong? Do you feel like you would have less anxiety?
Speaker 1: Your life would feel more stable if you consistently knew
Speaker 1: what day it was?
Speaker 10: Probably? Honestly, when my kids are in school and I
Speaker 10: have more structure, my anxiety is a lot lower.
Speaker 1: So you're you're a stay at home mom. Yeah, and
Speaker 1: is Zelda your dog?
Speaker 10: Yes?
Speaker 1: I can hear I can hear Zeldaer what kind of
Speaker 1: dog are they?
Speaker 10: Belgium Molinois and a German shepherd.
Speaker 3: Say, like the fight?
Speaker 1: What is I've never heard of a Belgium not a one.
Speaker 1: Non In a.
Speaker 10: While, A Belgian Malinois is like a cousin to a
Speaker 10: German chef. They look like them. They're pretty big police
Speaker 10: dogs too, so you might have confused in them.
Speaker 1: For I know what Belgium is. But you totally made
Speaker 1: up that second word.
Speaker 10: No, I think I'm saying it ray. I didn't know
Speaker 10: that the dog existed until.
Speaker 1: Belgium, I will believe is a real place. But you
Speaker 1: made up Belgium not.
Speaker 10: Not a why Belgium Illinois?
Speaker 1: Perfect Belgium Illinois? Where? Okay, so you're stay at home mom.
Speaker 1: How many is you got too?
Speaker 10: Too?
Speaker 1: Do you like them? Oh? Them, that's not that's different.
Speaker 1: I know you love them, but do you like them?
Speaker 10: They're tolerable human beings?
Speaker 1: Okay that's so far. So the answer is no. No,
Speaker 1: Like they're tolerable human beings is not typically what you
Speaker 1: would say about people you like.
Speaker 10: Okay, try my husband works so much. I love him
Speaker 10: and he's the best, and I'm usually just the one
Speaker 10: left raising him, and I have no family at all
Speaker 10: because they're all toxic and narcissic and opioid addicts and alcoholics,
Speaker 10: so fuck all of them. Sure, so I pretty much
Speaker 10: had been raising two little children on my own with
Speaker 10: a little bit of help from my husband. So you
Speaker 10: can only guess how exhausting it can get. And you
Speaker 10: just want some key.
Speaker 1: I'm sure that it's fucking really tough. I'm sure it's
Speaker 1: extremely tough. What is the toughest part about it?
Speaker 10: Starting them to be a decent human being with all
Speaker 10: the negativity in the world.
Speaker 1: M Okay tell me now, as you this is an
Speaker 1: interesting thing as a parent because you know your child's
Speaker 1: like a blank slate and you it's like your one
Speaker 1: little corner of the universe where you're like, I can
Speaker 1: I can guide this child, you know, I can guide
Speaker 1: this child into a decent human being amidst all the
Speaker 1: as you say, negativity in the world. What is your.
Speaker 5: Like?
Speaker 1: How would you define a decent human being? What is
Speaker 1: your guideline? What is your checklist? Because you have to
Speaker 1: have a gold in mind to direct them to it.
Speaker 10: I want them to be kind to others, but not
Speaker 10: tolerate bullshit and put effort into the things that they do.
Speaker 1: Do you feel like you by the way, I think
Speaker 1: that's a great criteria. Do you feel as though you
Speaker 1: have spent a lot of time tolerating bullshit?
Speaker 6: Yes?
Speaker 13: Oh?
Speaker 4: Yes, twenty nine years of it?
Speaker 1: Can I hear an example?
Speaker 10: Oh? Do you want the craziest or mildest?
Speaker 1: Of course I want the craziest.
Speaker 10: When I was seven, I had grown up with my grandparents.
Speaker 10: My grandfather had PTSD and he was extremely drunk episode
Speaker 10: and destroyed her house and through furniture and punched holes
Speaker 10: in the walls, and so I was hiding under the
Speaker 10: bed with my dog. Really, yeah, I've had a pretty
Speaker 10: suck up.
Speaker 1: And you were seven years old?
Speaker 10: Yeah?
Speaker 1: And he destroyed the house?
Speaker 4: Oh yeah, not everywhere?
Speaker 10: Broken glass, broken furniture.
Speaker 1: Were you two the only people in the house, or
Speaker 1: was like your mom there?
Speaker 10: Or was my grandmother? But she's an ophioid addict, So
Speaker 10: it was get out of there and let me be
Speaker 10: terrible to you. If emotional and mental.
Speaker 1: Abuse, that's heavy, that's heavy. I mean that's nice that
Speaker 1: you had the dog though.
Speaker 10: Oh yeah, she was my baby. She was a like
Speaker 10: a beagle labiblon next, so she looks like an oversizinger dog.
Speaker 1: Interesting. Well, this is I don't know if I'll say
Speaker 1: this is cool, but I mean, I do think this
Speaker 1: is cool that, you know, I know it's tough to
Speaker 1: be a parent, but it's cool. I think that if
Speaker 1: you come from a you know, you might have had
Speaker 1: a not ideal childhood, now you have the opportunity to
Speaker 1: give your kid a good one exactly. And I like
Speaker 1: this because a lot of people, when they've been wronged,
Speaker 1: they when you've been wronged, people can take one of
Speaker 1: two routes. They either take the route of I have
Speaker 1: been wronged, and I now will make it my duty
Speaker 1: to wrong others as they have wronged me. And you
Speaker 1: could do that so you could be like my parents.
Speaker 1: Fucking parents were shitty to me, I would be shitty
Speaker 1: to my kid. Fuck these people, and that happens a
Speaker 1: lot of the times. But I like that you're taking
Speaker 1: the other route, the other route that you can take,
Speaker 1: which is I have been wronged. I know how it
Speaker 1: feels to be wrong and I will never wrong another
Speaker 1: person as I have been wronged. I will make it
Speaker 1: my duty to right instead of wrong.
Speaker 10: I like, well, what that reason? I won't tolerate other
Speaker 10: people wronging me? Still mm hmmm.
Speaker 1: No, but you're you're taking the negative energy that you've
Speaker 1: you know, taken in and you're you know, exerting positiveness,
Speaker 1: making a holistic Yes, you're breaking the cycle. You're creating
Speaker 1: a cheesy holistic balance of goop.
Speaker 10: Yes, exactly. I love it.
Speaker 1: Beautiful. Would you say your name was Amber? Amber? Keep
Speaker 1: it going? Talk to you soon, all right? By Ah?
Speaker 1: What is this? I wish you I wish this was live. No, actually,
Speaker 1: I like this being pre recorded. This is easy for me.
Speaker 1: We have another call, let's keep going.
Speaker 3: Call from q.
Speaker 1: H Q. Hello, Hello, oh my god.
Speaker 8: Q like like the letter.
Speaker 1: Like q Annon, and am I on speakerphone right now?
Speaker 8: No, you're not you're in my AirPod.
Speaker 1: Oh your AirPods are terrible. How old are they hold?
Speaker 8: I don't know, but I'm a I work on the beach,
Speaker 8: so like they probably get like, I don't know.
Speaker 1: Sand in them.
Speaker 8: Yeah.
Speaker 1: No, I can definitely hear a lot of sand in
Speaker 1: between you and me right now.
Speaker 8: Really?
Speaker 1: Yeah, is there any way that you could take your
Speaker 1: sandy AirPods off and but do you does your phone
Speaker 1: have a lot of sand in it? Actually? I think
Speaker 1: I think at their core computer do you know those?
Speaker 1: I think at their core computers are actually made of sand, Like.
Speaker 8: That's your computers are made of sand?
Speaker 1: Like all right? You never you didn't like at the
Speaker 1: in the natural world. You can't just go iPhone. You
Speaker 1: have to start with what's there? And I think that
Speaker 1: the germ of the idea of the computer with sand?
Speaker 1: Can you can you really? Can you take your AirPods
Speaker 1: out and try talking to me on your phone? Because I, oh, wait, hello, okay,
Speaker 1: that's much better.
Speaker 8: Well do you know what? Just call me?
Speaker 1: Q is perfect. I don't know what you're trying. I
Speaker 1: don't know what you're about to try to shorten that to.
Speaker 8: But Q is yeah.
Speaker 10: Que is it?
Speaker 5: Like?
Speaker 1: Is it like c U E or just the letter Q?
Speaker 8: Like the letter Q like, uh, well, my it's the
Speaker 8: initial my last name like queen. Well that's not my
Speaker 8: last name.
Speaker 1: But what is your life like?
Speaker 10: Que my life?
Speaker 8: Yeah, dude, Honestly, these past two years have been like ridiculous.
Speaker 8: I I don't know, all of a sudden, no, I
Speaker 8: left home, I lived in three different states. I came
Speaker 8: back and now I'm a lifeguard on a beach.
Speaker 10: I think that.
Speaker 1: Is pretty cool.
Speaker 8: Oh excuse my language, I'm sorry, say.
Speaker 1: You can say kunt on here. We had a guy
Speaker 1: just now who said he called me a cunt and
Speaker 1: I called him a cunt and it was really nice. No, no, no, no, no,
Speaker 1: you had to be there, trust me, it was nice.
Speaker 6: It was.
Speaker 1: It was actually a pretty good moment, you trust me.
Speaker 8: I don't like that word. That's like the meanest, the coldest,
Speaker 8: you know. Yeah, like I don't want to say that
Speaker 8: to someone, almost like they really like pissed me off.
Speaker 1: No, but okay, so he was Australian and he told
Speaker 1: me that.
Speaker 8: Oh I bet that was funny, hear.
Speaker 1: Okay, yeah, so he was Australian, and apparently in Australia,
Speaker 1: when you call someone a cunt, it's a nice thing,
Speaker 1: like it's like you're my friends.
Speaker 8: Okay. I remember like traveling a few years ago and
Speaker 8: I knew someone who was Australian who said that, and
Speaker 8: I believe them because I was gullible. But now I
Speaker 8: have another like verification that this is true.
Speaker 1: Well, I mean I don't know that guy could have
Speaker 1: been fucking with me too, and maybe that's just the
Speaker 1: thing that Australians do to fuck with people.
Speaker 8: I mean they're Australian. I like, I feel like if
Speaker 8: you're Australian, you can kind of do whatever you want.
Speaker 1: So your lifeguard on a beach, which sounds difficult to
Speaker 1: me because being a lifeguard on a pool you have
Speaker 1: a very limited vicinity to look over. But the beach,
Speaker 1: I mean you're really just trying to watch the entire ocean.
Speaker 8: Yeah, yeah, pretty much. You have to look out for
Speaker 8: a fish and the way the ocean behaves and how
Speaker 8: people are reacting to it, who's in your water, and
Speaker 8: how they're swimming in front of you, which can show
Speaker 8: them like whether or not they might drown and whether
Speaker 8: or not you should take them out or pull them
Speaker 8: in or whatever.
Speaker 1: Have you ever had to save someone?
Speaker 8: I was back so this is my first year because
Speaker 8: I used to be in the military. As of a
Speaker 8: few months ago, I'm not, but this is my first
Speaker 8: year and I was back up to a rescue at
Speaker 8: a stand neighboring mine. But when we got out there,
Speaker 8: the swimmers decided that they didn't want to touch our equipment,
Speaker 8: so we just kind of like swim in with them.
Speaker 8: But we had a lot of lifeguards in the water.
Speaker 8: We had two on powder words and I had my can.
Speaker 1: Interesting.
Speaker 10: Interesting, interesting?
Speaker 1: Yes, So why are you no longer in the military?
Speaker 1: Was it like you're I have no idea how the
Speaker 1: military works with like your contract up or whatever the.
Speaker 8: Hell Sure should happen, you know, sure.
Speaker 1: I feel like sure that were you dishonorably discharged or something.
Speaker 8: No, for what it's worth, whoever, I don't even know
Speaker 8: if anyone will hear this, But if anyone hears this,
Speaker 8: in order to get a dishonorable discharge, you have to
Speaker 8: like kill someone or like sexually assault someone. You have
Speaker 8: to do something bad, like really bad.
Speaker 1: What O is there such thing as an honorable discharge?
Speaker 4: Yeah?
Speaker 8: Like I don't want to get one if you just
Speaker 8: like get out regular, you know, okay.
Speaker 1: Because that's something where like I feel like, you know,
Speaker 1: in like the Civil War, like there's those war heroes
Speaker 1: who like they disobeyed their commanding officer for like some
Speaker 1: moral reason, and like so like maybe you could get
Speaker 1: to charged with honor because you disobeyed somebody because you
Speaker 1: knew it was the right thing to do.
Speaker 8: Oh my god, I was on uh, I was on Reddit,
Speaker 8: and this guy he like dropped his phone number to
Speaker 8: talk about his discharge with other people because a lot
Speaker 8: of like, there's a lot of military reddits. Anyway, he
Speaker 8: got uh, other than honorable discharge for telling his captain
Speaker 8: that he wanted to kill him.
Speaker 1: I don't know when he's got honorable discharge for telling
Speaker 1: his captain who wanted to kill him?
Speaker 8: No other than honorable? Oh th h that's like, so
Speaker 8: there's how many I.
Speaker 1: Didn't know there were several types of honor. I didn't
Speaker 1: know there were several. There was, there's there's a dishonor
Speaker 1: as a type of honor, honor as a type of honor,
Speaker 1: but I did not know there was an other What
Speaker 1: is this again other than honorable?
Speaker 8: Yes, yes, so there's honorable general other than honorable and dishonorable.
Speaker 1: What is other than honorable? Man, because it's not necessarily dishonorable.
Speaker 8: Other than honorable means that you might have gotten into
Speaker 8: some legal trouble that led to your discharge, So.
Speaker 10: You get that.
Speaker 8: I mean it kind of just depends on what surrounded
Speaker 8: your discharge. If you got other than honorable, it basically
Speaker 8: more more likely than not you got kicked out of
Speaker 8: your branch.
Speaker 1: Sounds very dishonorable. Maybe what did you say your anamals
Speaker 1: que Que before we go? I'm kind of curious, like
Speaker 1: where did you see the phone number? Like on Instagram?
Speaker 8: So I saw you on TikTok way back when, and
Speaker 8: then I recently started watching you on Twitch and I
Speaker 8: listened to you while I'm sitting on the stand on
Speaker 8: the beach and my lunch break and when you're live.
Speaker 8: You know, I enjoy watching your your content.
Speaker 1: Hell yeah, I I'm in. I wonder if I hope
Speaker 1: I'm not like you know, some kid rownds, because you
Speaker 1: were like really into some like conversation I was having
Speaker 1: on here. No, no, but how did you know about Okay?
Speaker 1: How did you know that I was taking calls right now?
Speaker 5: Like?
Speaker 1: Where did you see the phone number? Oh?
Speaker 8: Discord? I love Discord. I had to be on your discord?
Speaker 1: Beautiful, beautiful? Is there anything else you want to talk
Speaker 1: about before we go? Que?
Speaker 10: What?
Speaker 8: What do you what do you tell yourself when you're
Speaker 8: feeling like you're at rock bottom and like nothing nothing
Speaker 8: can get any worse like this. It's ridiculous. Everything is
Speaker 8: just sh shit is hitting the bananas, you know, fucking bananas.
Speaker 1: I'm trying to think if I have a good answer
Speaker 1: to that. One of the cool things about rock Bottom
Speaker 1: is that there's no expectations, so you can do whatever
Speaker 1: you want.
Speaker 8: Oh hell yeah.
Speaker 1: My my mantra lately has been, uh that the only
Speaker 1: way out is through, so you know, I mean, who
Speaker 1: the fuck said some president, some probably Civil war douche
Speaker 1: said like, if you're going through hell, keep going. I
Speaker 1: like that. I'll co sign on that if I'm allowed
Speaker 1: to just answer your question by stealing someone else's things. Fun, Yeah, beautiful.
Speaker 1: It's a pleasure talking to you. Q. You have a
Speaker 1: good rest of the night.
Speaker 8: Thank you, You too.
Speaker 2: Goes on the line every night. Everything goes to teaching
Speaker 2: your line. Many an expert