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<v Speaker 1>Hello, folks, This is Lyle here. I just wanted to

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<v Speaker 1>drop in at the beginning of the podcast because so,

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<v Speaker 1>as you guys know, this podcast is basically audio highlights

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<v Speaker 1>from a twitch stream that I do every Monday, Wednesday

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<v Speaker 1>and Friday at nine pm Eastern Standard time on twitch

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<v Speaker 1>dot tv slash Lyle forever. And this podcast has calls

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<v Speaker 1>sort of Frankenstein's together from three different streams, but two

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<v Speaker 1>of the streams are from pre recorded streams, if that

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<v Speaker 1>makes any sense. They're like I basically recorded them offline

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<v Speaker 1>and then streamed them later because I was busy on

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<v Speaker 1>the road doing some stuff and I couldn't stream. But anyway,

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<v Speaker 1>I know it's complicated. All I wanted to do was

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<v Speaker 1>come on here at the beginning of this podcast. I'll

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<v Speaker 1>let you guys know that throughout this post podcast. If

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<v Speaker 1>you ever hear me say mention anything about like, oh

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<v Speaker 1>this is being pre recorded, or oh this will air

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<v Speaker 1>at some point later, stuff that's just making no sense.

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<v Speaker 1>This is just me right here letting you know, just

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<v Speaker 1>ignore it. But regardless, ignoring that, this is still a

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<v Speaker 1>great episode of lots of good calls. It was interesting

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<v Speaker 1>to record some of these calls with no live chat

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<v Speaker 1>going on, because in a weird way, it makes it

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<v Speaker 1>feel more intimate, you know. I mean, at the end

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<v Speaker 1>of the day, this is a podcast and it's recorded anyway,

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<v Speaker 1>It's not like the live stream. So yeah, does anyone

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<v Speaker 1>care about this? Should I just get into the podcast?

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<v Speaker 1>Should we just get into it? This is a good one.

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<v Speaker 1>Take a listen. Thanks for listening to the pod. I

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<v Speaker 1>appreciate you guys very much. By the way, if you

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<v Speaker 1>have any thoughts about the podcast, any comments, any questions,

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<v Speaker 1>any concerns, I love hearing that stuff. I'm always neurotic

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<v Speaker 1>and in my head about this podcast version because it's

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<v Speaker 1>not like the Twitch version where it's live and I

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<v Speaker 1>can sort of get that live feedback from people. So please,

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<v Speaker 1>listeners of the Therapy Gecko podcast. If you have any comments, questions, concerns, feedback,

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<v Speaker 1>whatever it is, please send me an email an email

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<v Speaker 1>at Lyle forever and Ever at gmail dot com. That's

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<v Speaker 1>Lyle forever and Ever at gmail dot com. L Y

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<v Speaker 1>L E f O R e v e r A

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<v Speaker 1>N D e v e r at gmail dot com.

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<v Speaker 1>I would love to hear from you anyway, enough of this,

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<v Speaker 1>enough of me. Sorry, If you know none of this

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<v Speaker 1>makes any fucking sense. Let's get into the thing.

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<v Speaker 2>Weekend goes on the line, taking your phone calls every

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<v Speaker 2>nine everything. Kid goes to teaching you.

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<v Speaker 3>All from Norah.

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<v Speaker 1>Wait, Nora, we just spoke before, didn't we?

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<v Speaker 4>Oh my god? Hi, No, we've never spoken. I've been

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<v Speaker 4>calling for hours, like the whole time.

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<v Speaker 1>Interesting, we've ever spoke. I feel like I talked to

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<v Speaker 1>a Nora recently. Don't know. Maybe Norah is becoming a

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<v Speaker 1>more popular name. Do you know a lot of other Noras?

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<v Speaker 1>I do not, So it's up Norah tell me everything.

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<v Speaker 1>Why is this insane?

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<v Speaker 5>I'm a huge fan, and I'm very nervous right now.

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<v Speaker 1>I appreciate that I don't be nervous. Look, it's just

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<v Speaker 1>you and me, and there's no chat right now. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>not live. I'm sitting in my chair where I normally

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<v Speaker 1>sit for the stream, and I'm staring into the camera

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<v Speaker 1>I normally stare at but there is I'm not live.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm putting this one in the can for later.

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<v Speaker 5>Does it weird to be in the gek costume but

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<v Speaker 5>no one's watching?

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<v Speaker 1>You know? It felt weird at first, but now that

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<v Speaker 1>I've now that I've gotten into it it really it

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<v Speaker 1>kind of feels exactly the same because it was because

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<v Speaker 1>I I interact with I interact with chat sort of

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<v Speaker 1>minimally while I'm on the phone with someone. Most of

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<v Speaker 1>it is interrect me interact with the person I'm on

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<v Speaker 1>the phone with, and that element has has remained constant.

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<v Speaker 6>So well, that's good.

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<v Speaker 5>I appreciate having your attention.

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<v Speaker 1>That is meaningful, of course, of course, So what can

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<v Speaker 1>I do for you? Nora?

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<v Speaker 5>Oh god, I I don't know. I really didn't think

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<v Speaker 5>this was like my I've called like two hundred times.

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<v Speaker 5>This was my my last ditch effort, and I really

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<v Speaker 5>was not prepared for you to answer the phone.

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<v Speaker 1>That's okay. I wasn't really prepared to talk to you either.

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<v Speaker 5>So is there like a question tonight that you're asking everybody?

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<v Speaker 1>No, not really, I didn't think about that, that this

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<v Speaker 1>this that far in advance. I'm kind of just talking

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<v Speaker 1>to people on the phone about whatever. I don't know.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, you said no, you said you're a fan.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, what do you think of the format? Do

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<v Speaker 1>you think? It's?

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<v Speaker 7>Like?

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<v Speaker 1>Sometimes I'm like how long can I really keep doing

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<v Speaker 1>this for?

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<v Speaker 3>You?

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<v Speaker 1>Know what?

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<v Speaker 8>I mean?

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<v Speaker 5>Like, how I you know, well, that parts up to you,

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<v Speaker 5>like if it, if it, if it is, what's the

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<v Speaker 5>word I'm looking for? Not sustainable? I mean, yeah, sustainability

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<v Speaker 5>is important, sure, but if you feel like it's fulfilling

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<v Speaker 5>for you, I would just say do it until it's not.

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<v Speaker 1>I like that. I like that. No, No, Nora, what

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<v Speaker 1>do you do? What's your life?

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<v Speaker 5>So? I just graduated a couple of months.

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<v Speaker 1>Ago high school or college college.

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<v Speaker 9>Nice and mhm, to keep it vague.

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<v Speaker 4>I now work at a.

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<v Speaker 5>It's it's well, it's a facility that helps people get

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<v Speaker 5>off of drugs.

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<v Speaker 4>So yeah, that's that's.

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<v Speaker 1>What I do now, like a rehabilitation center.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, and we incorporate medication assisted treatment, so things like

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<v Speaker 5>suboxin big big words, but it's just.

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<v Speaker 10>What is.

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<v Speaker 4>Suboxen?

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<v Speaker 11>Oh gosh.

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<v Speaker 5>It's an opioid blocker essentially, and so it helps people

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<v Speaker 5>with symptoms of withdrawal. And it also will if someone

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<v Speaker 5>were to use while they were on sibox and they

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<v Speaker 5>wouldn't feel the effects of the drug that they're taking,

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<v Speaker 5>and so it's you know, easier to to stop taking

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<v Speaker 5>the drugs. It helps a lot with withdrawal symptoms, that's

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<v Speaker 5>the biggest part.

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<v Speaker 1>And so was this I was working at a rehab facility.

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<v Speaker 1>Something you always wanted to do? Was that your goal?

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<v Speaker 5>Kind of I've always had I've always had a desire

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<v Speaker 5>to work in uh, you know, like addiction treatment and

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<v Speaker 5>stuff that. But I didn't think I could do it

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<v Speaker 5>for a while. I didn't think I had it in me.

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<v Speaker 1>But when you say you didn't think it had you

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<v Speaker 1>had it in you, like, do you mean like the

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<v Speaker 1>ability to withstand being around, you know, sort of a

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<v Speaker 1>depressing environment or these skills to do the job, Like

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<v Speaker 1>what do you mean by it?

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<v Speaker 5>The first thing you said? Definitely, I I didn't think

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<v Speaker 5>that I would be able to handle. I think I

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<v Speaker 5>really didn't think that I would be able to handle

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<v Speaker 5>the time when you can't reach somebody, because not everybody.

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<v Speaker 5>It doesn't work out for everybody.

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<v Speaker 4>I mean, people.

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<v Speaker 5>Stop coming in for their appointments or you know, relapse

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<v Speaker 5>is pretty common and a lot like a lot of

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<v Speaker 5>times people can get over that hurle, but sometimes people can't.

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<v Speaker 5>And I thought that that would affect me too much

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<v Speaker 5>and that I wouldn't do well if that happened.

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<v Speaker 1>But you know, do you consider yourself optimistic?

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<v Speaker 9>Ooh not really?

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<v Speaker 5>Definitely not for myself maybe for other people, like I

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<v Speaker 5>believe in, I am endlessly optimistic for other people, but

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<v Speaker 5>I am very not for myself.

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<v Speaker 1>Why do you think that is?

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<v Speaker 5>Oh gosh, you know, I don't know. I have very

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<v Speaker 5>low self esteem.

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<v Speaker 9>That could be it.

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<v Speaker 5>Self forth.

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<v Speaker 1>The reason I'm asking is because you know, this thing

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<v Speaker 1>of not feeling like you can handle it when you

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<v Speaker 1>try to reach someone and it doesn't work out. You know,

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<v Speaker 1>I was wondering if maybe you were a typically optimistic

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<v Speaker 1>Well you said, well, you said you are. You said

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<v Speaker 1>you are optimistic for other people, And I'm wondering if

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<v Speaker 1>these these times in which you see people not being

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<v Speaker 1>able to be reached chips away at that at that optimism.

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<v Speaker 5>It definitely does. I mean it changes kind of the

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<v Speaker 5>way that I see like the the the world. Like

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<v Speaker 5>you know, I majored in social work and so you see,

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<v Speaker 5>really this past year, I feel like I have seen

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<v Speaker 5>and I think this was kind of like the veil

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<v Speaker 5>was pulled back for a lot of people this past year.

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<v Speaker 5>But in some of my classes, I'm just learning about

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<v Speaker 5>these systems that it feels like they were never meant

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<v Speaker 5>to actually work, and it just keeps people, you know,

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<v Speaker 5>unstable and poor and addicted and all of these different things,

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<v Speaker 5>and it has just been I feel like that was

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<v Speaker 5>a reckoning that a lot of people had this past year.

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<v Speaker 5>And I've i've you know, had these thoughts for quite

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<v Speaker 5>some time.

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<v Speaker 1>But you know, but when you say the system, do

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<v Speaker 1>you mean sort of a overall government system or do

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<v Speaker 1>you mean the system of the of the rehab.

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<v Speaker 4>Center that you work in, like an overall system.

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<v Speaker 5>I like my job, and you know, it is a company,

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<v Speaker 5>and so they're partially in it for financial reasons, but

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<v Speaker 5>I do think that I'm sorry, there's a siren going around.

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<v Speaker 4>My apartment right now.

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<v Speaker 5>Hold on a minute. They are a company, but I

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<v Speaker 5>do think that most of the people that work there

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<v Speaker 5>have a genuine interest in like sustained in long term

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<v Speaker 5>recovery and sobriety.

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<v Speaker 1>Mmm, I ask you, so, Okay, So when you think

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<v Speaker 1>about how when you have these epiphanies like how you're

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<v Speaker 1>describing them, that the systems in place, uh are meant

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<v Speaker 1>not to work? I mean, how does that make you feel?

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<v Speaker 1>Does that because because you could look at you because

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<v Speaker 1>you look, you could look at that two different ways.

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<v Speaker 1>You could look at that two different ways. Yeah, you

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<v Speaker 1>could look at that. You could be like, the systems

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<v Speaker 1>are broken, they will stay forever broken, life sucks. Fuck it.

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<v Speaker 1>Or you could feel sort of, you know, inspired, systems

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<v Speaker 1>are broken, Let's do our best to fect them. You know,

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<v Speaker 1>you could do you think.

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<v Speaker 5>That you have the power to make a change at

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<v Speaker 5>that level?

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<v Speaker 1>You know, my, my, you know, I know we have

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<v Speaker 1>we We're not really talking about anything super specific here,

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<v Speaker 1>but sort of a general thing. I believe I'm sort

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<v Speaker 1>of individualistic, and I believe that you, as an individual,

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<v Speaker 1>are presented every day with opportunities to help out. I mean, no,

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<v Speaker 1>you're not gonna no, you're not going to solve poverty

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<v Speaker 1>alone by yourself, but fuck, I mean there's a billion

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<v Speaker 1>ways that you as an individual can help out on

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<v Speaker 1>a small scale, and the big scale is just thous

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<v Speaker 1>and thousands of bricks of the small scale. So I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>whatever you can do to help out in your own

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<v Speaker 1>little way.

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<v Speaker 10>And I do believe that.

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<v Speaker 5>I do believe that, you know, making a difference however

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<v Speaker 5>you can is meaningful. It's just sometimes, you know, it

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<v Speaker 5>gets overwhelming to think about the sheer, like the scale

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<v Speaker 5>of problems.

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<v Speaker 9>That people face.

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<v Speaker 1>You know what, I always got to think about this

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<v Speaker 1>with the Internet is that this might sound harsh, but

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<v Speaker 1>so our brain there's no our brains were not fucking wired.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh for every single problem to be our problem.

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<v Speaker 5>I could not agree with you more. I think about

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<v Speaker 5>this all the time. When I think about the scale

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<v Speaker 5>of problems that people or face with, I then think about,

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<v Speaker 5>nobody was ever meant.

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<v Speaker 9>To be like this aware.

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<v Speaker 1>No, because back before Twitter, if there was because just

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<v Speaker 1>like back before the Internet, you know, and like the

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<v Speaker 1>eighteen hundreds, if a fire destroyed all of Australia, I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>we just wouldn't fucking we wouldn't even know exactly, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>And it's like, yeah, I mean we wouldn't even know.

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<v Speaker 1>So I mean it's good. It's good that we're aware

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<v Speaker 1>of these problems. I'm not saying it's a bad thing.

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<v Speaker 1>But at the end of the day, you can't. You can't.

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<v Speaker 1>You just physically cannot make every single problem that exists

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<v Speaker 1>your problem, you know. I mean, pick pick a thing

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<v Speaker 1>that's important to you one, pick one thing that's very

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<v Speaker 1>important to you, and you know, double down on that.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, if you try to solve every single problem

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<v Speaker 1>going on in the world, or you try to think

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<v Speaker 1>your way through it. I mean you're gonna go insane.

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<v Speaker 5>Oh yeah, you're gonna wind up the hospital if you

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<v Speaker 5>try to do that.

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<v Speaker 1>What's what's something that it's like one thing? What do okay?

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<v Speaker 1>If you have to do that, if you have to

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<v Speaker 1>pick your main thing, what is it?

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<v Speaker 5>Oh gosh, see that's hard.

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<v Speaker 9>Hmhmm.

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<v Speaker 5>You know I have I mean I've I've always been

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<v Speaker 5>had a keen interest in people being in recovery from

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<v Speaker 5>drugs and alcohol. So I mean that's what I'm doing

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<v Speaker 5>right now.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, well, golly g you're in a perfect you're in

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<v Speaker 1>a perfect place, then aren't you working at uh that center.

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<v Speaker 5>That doesn't sometimes doesn't feel perfect, But I'm doing it

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<v Speaker 5>so well.

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<v Speaker 1>Look, Norah, I'm glad you got a thing that you

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<v Speaker 1>care about here. Yeah, don't don't try to solve all

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<v Speaker 1>the world's problems at once. You'll you'll go nuts. You know.

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<v Speaker 5>I'll do my best, you too, Gek take it easy?

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<v Speaker 4>Do you prefer Gek or Lyle?

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<v Speaker 1>Norah? You can call me whatever you want. I like Lyle,

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<v Speaker 1>I like Ghak. I'll do it all. Do we can do?

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<v Speaker 1>We can do? What do you like? Do you like

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<v Speaker 1>Nora or Ghek or Lyle.

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<v Speaker 5>I would love to be called Lyle, to be honest.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, Lyle, there is a pleasure talking to you, Lyle.

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<v Speaker 5>It was a pleasure talking to you. I'm so amazed

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<v Speaker 5>that this has happened. I'm probably going to think about

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<v Speaker 5>this for the next three.

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<v Speaker 1>Days, I hope. I hope the thoughts are good.

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<v Speaker 4>Oh yeah, all good, all good.

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<v Speaker 1>Thoughts, wonderful. Take care, Nora, thank.

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<v Speaker 5>You, take care, have a good night.

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<v Speaker 1>That's a long one. What's up, Nora? Shout out to Nora.

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<v Speaker 1>I hope I don't sound too harsh when I say

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<v Speaker 1>that he's doing a good thing. I do. I believe. Look,

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<v Speaker 1>I believe in the small victories, because what are the

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<v Speaker 1>big victories. But just you know, a bunch of small ones.

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<v Speaker 1>Pick up a fucking piece of trash that you see

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<v Speaker 1>on the floor. Bam if ever, if, if, if, if

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<v Speaker 1>we all picked up one piece of trash, it's seven

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<v Speaker 1>billion pizzas of trash. That's pretty good. That's pretty good.

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<v Speaker 1>It's not the it won't end trash, but it's pretty good. Alexander, Alexander, Yes, sir,

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<v Speaker 1>what's up? Man?

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<v Speaker 11>Hey man, how you doing.

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<v Speaker 1>Have we ever spoken before, Alexander?

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<v Speaker 11>We have never spoken before now and I can't believe

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<v Speaker 11>it got through you. That's what's a trip.

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<v Speaker 1>So are we doing, Alexander, tell me everything?

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<v Speaker 6>I'm good man.

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<v Speaker 11>I got two questions. Actually I don't know which one

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<v Speaker 11>is more import but I figured out as them both. Uh,

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<v Speaker 11>my roommate is insane, but she wants to be a therapist,

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<v Speaker 11>and I think that's a bad idea. I just don't

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<v Speaker 11>know how to tell her.

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<v Speaker 1>Interesting when you when you would you tell me when

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<v Speaker 1>you'm sorry?

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<v Speaker 11>Did you say I said, she's a lovely person. I

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<v Speaker 11>just don't know if she's really in the position to

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<v Speaker 11>be helping other people exactly.

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<v Speaker 1>When when you say she's insane, do you mean likes

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<v Speaker 1>like she's been like diagnosed with like a like a

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<v Speaker 1>mental illness.

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<v Speaker 11>No, she just does crazy things that probably wouldn't be

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<v Speaker 11>advisable to most. And you know, like I said, awesome person,

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<v Speaker 11>just a little wacky.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, it's interesting you said that because I've talked. I

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<v Speaker 1>remember I had a therapist to call in to me

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<v Speaker 1>one time and I asked them. I was like, is

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<v Speaker 1>it typical that people with their own, you know, mental

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<v Speaker 1>issues become uh, mental health care providers? And she told

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<v Speaker 1>me it is typical. It makes sense because I almost

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<v Speaker 1>feel like if you've, if you have dealt with the

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<v Speaker 1>same problems that the people that you're helping are dealing with,

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<v Speaker 1>it gives you, you know, a greater amount of empathy.

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<v Speaker 1>Would I mean, do you not agree?

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<v Speaker 11>I think I think that's a good point. But don't

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<v Speaker 11>you think it might also lead people to make unadvisable

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<v Speaker 11>decisions too? I mean, you know, I don't know. Maybe

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<v Speaker 11>that was like the wrong Wader approach, saying she's insane

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<v Speaker 11>she's Maybe she's not insane, she's just uh, she's got.

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<v Speaker 12>Her own issues.

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<v Speaker 11>And I guess maybe you're working working it out with

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<v Speaker 11>other people, maybe it's gonna help her too.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, here's another thing. Everyone has issues. You know, everyone

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<v Speaker 1>has issues, whether you're a therapist or or not. That

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, I I don't like, I don't want to

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<v Speaker 1>believe it, but even a cert probably has a little

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<v Speaker 1>bit of imposter syndrome. I don't want the imposter syndrome surgeon,

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<v Speaker 1>but they but that exists. There's there is a surgeon

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<v Speaker 1>who when he opens people up, maybe maybe he's confident.

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<v Speaker 1>Ninety nine percent of the time, no one's confident. One

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<v Speaker 1>hundred percent of the time, but miss guy's confident nine

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<v Speaker 1>nine percent of the time, and he goes, I fucking hope

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<v Speaker 1>this goes well. Everyone has their thing, even if they're

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<v Speaker 1>a you know, a professional one hundred percent. Not to

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<v Speaker 1>say it's unprofessional to have, you know, problems, but okay,

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<v Speaker 1>so have you so this, I mean, this is a

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<v Speaker 1>concern of yours. It sounds like have you spoken, like,

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<v Speaker 1>have you had a conversation with her about this?

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<v Speaker 5>Like?

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<v Speaker 1>How did that go?

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<v Speaker 11>I'm just a little afraid she's wasting her time, that's all.

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<v Speaker 11>It's not that I don't think that she's maybe even

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<v Speaker 11>suited to do it. It's just that I just don't

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<v Speaker 11>think she I think she has better strengths in other

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<v Speaker 11>areas and you know, would probably be better off honestly

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<v Speaker 11>being like an artist or an actor, you know, which

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<v Speaker 11>is sort of what she's tried. But I think she

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<v Speaker 11>just needs to keep doing I don't know. I mean,

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<v Speaker 11>I thought you'd probably be the best person to think

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<v Speaker 11>this is what you actually do?

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<v Speaker 1>Do you? I'm not a do you. I'm not a

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<v Speaker 1>real therapist.

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<v Speaker 6>I don't know if you know that, but you are

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<v Speaker 6>a get go.

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<v Speaker 1>I am a gecko. But she didn't say she wanted

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<v Speaker 1>to be a gecko. She said she wanted to be

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<v Speaker 1>a therapist.

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<v Speaker 11>That's true, Toche.

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<v Speaker 5>Okay, maybe in.

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<v Speaker 1>Fact, actually being insane might help her be a gecko.

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<v Speaker 11>That's that's also true. Okay, Well ask you a questions

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<v Speaker 11>about myself instead.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, let me let me let me say this though,

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<v Speaker 1>by the way, I think it's funny that, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>traditionally people and I don't know how hard it is

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<v Speaker 1>to become a therapist, but it's funny that you want

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<v Speaker 1>to steer her away from being a therapist into being

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<v Speaker 1>like an actor or an artist, which are tradisally thought

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<v Speaker 1>of as much hard to get into.

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<v Speaker 11>The thing is she's really suited for that. She's actually

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<v Speaker 11>really good at those things. I think she just doesn't

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<v Speaker 11>have quite the self confidence she needs to maybe take

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<v Speaker 11>it to where she needs to fully go. But I

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<v Speaker 11>see it, and I believe it. I just think it

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<v Speaker 11>might be a more appropriate thing ultimately for her.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, just to just to sort of wrap that thing

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<v Speaker 1>up is in my opinion, I think that you know,

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<v Speaker 1>if you you know, look, by the way, people in

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<v Speaker 1>chat are probably gonna hate on you. I'm not I'm

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<v Speaker 1>not looking at Chat. I mean, if there's no chat,

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<v Speaker 1>this is all pre recorded. But I'm positive people in

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<v Speaker 1>Chat are gonna meme on you right now. And here's

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<v Speaker 1>what I'll say, is that because you know, I think

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<v Speaker 1>I can tell that you care about your friend, I do,

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<v Speaker 1>and if you do, you should support her in whatever

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<v Speaker 1>it is she wants to do. That's more important. That's

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<v Speaker 1>more important, I think than trying to steer her to

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<v Speaker 1>the right thing, is to support her in whatever thing

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<v Speaker 1>she chooses. That that I think is a better use

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<v Speaker 1>of your friendship energy than to steer the ship. Put

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<v Speaker 1>a coal in the fire, but don't don't be steering

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<v Speaker 1>the boat. Okay, Well, listen, man, thank you so much

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<v Speaker 1>for calling in. You have the rest of the night.

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<v Speaker 11>Appreciate you.

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<v Speaker 1>GETO you two men. I know Chat's gonna meme on

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<v Speaker 1>that guy, Tom. Tom. Yeah, how are you Tom?

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<v Speaker 6>I'm doing well?

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<v Speaker 1>Tom? Are you like, are you British or something?

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<v Speaker 6>I'm Australian.

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<v Speaker 1>Are you calling from Australia or did you move from

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<v Speaker 1>Australia to beautiful where in America.

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<v Speaker 6>The home of the Brave.

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<v Speaker 1>Let me ask you something, do you do you really

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<v Speaker 1>mean that? Do you feel as though people in America

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<v Speaker 1>are more brave than they are in Australia.

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<v Speaker 6>I would say so. I wouldn't say that the guns

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<v Speaker 6>make them, but I would say that they're more free.

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<v Speaker 1>You are you a brave person? Do you feel like

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<v Speaker 1>you're brave?

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<v Speaker 6>I feel like I'm more brave since I've been in America.

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<v Speaker 1>Really, And how do you think that even happens? Why

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<v Speaker 1>do you think you're more brave since you've been in America?

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<v Speaker 6>I know, I think it's a culture thing. I think

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<v Speaker 6>Australians a little weak minded.

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<v Speaker 1>Interesting, they're weak minded. Do you feel as though what

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<v Speaker 1>do you think it is about Australians that makes them

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<v Speaker 1>weak minded?

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<v Speaker 6>I think we have no guns?

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<v Speaker 1>Is that is that it? You just want a gun?

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<v Speaker 6>I don't think that's it?

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<v Speaker 1>Are you and beyond? Do you just like not? Are

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<v Speaker 1>you just sort of feel put on the spot by

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<v Speaker 1>these questions and not necessarily know how to answer them?

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<v Speaker 6>Not really, because I haven't thought of it like that.

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<v Speaker 6>You're asking me questions that I have to think about

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<v Speaker 6>because I haven't been asked that question before.

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<v Speaker 1>And do you enjoy the challenge of having to answer

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<v Speaker 1>these questions or do you feel burdened?

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<v Speaker 6>I feel like it's a it's a brain stimulator. It's

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<v Speaker 6>like asking why rather than the how.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, good, good good? Interesting. So tell me when did

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<v Speaker 1>you move to America?

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<v Speaker 6>Moved to America four years ago to go to school,

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<v Speaker 6>to go to university.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, and what do you currently study at university?

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<v Speaker 6>Studying? Teaching?

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<v Speaker 1>Studying? Teaching? Do you I like asking these questions now

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<v Speaker 1>to teachers? Do you feel like you know things?

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<v Speaker 6>No? I feel like teachers no more than students. But

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<v Speaker 6>it gets to a point where where the student becomes

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<v Speaker 6>a teacher.

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<v Speaker 1>Now, how do you what are you supposed to teach?

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<v Speaker 1>If you don't know anything?

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<v Speaker 6>Well, I wouldn't say you don't know anything, but you

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<v Speaker 6>might know a little more than someone else on a

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<v Speaker 6>certain subject where you definitely definitely don't know at all.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you have any subjects in which you feel like

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<v Speaker 1>you know more than the average person?

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<v Speaker 6>Oh, I mean I would say so, like what I

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<v Speaker 6>would say, classes that I took, things I learned about

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<v Speaker 6>like talking to people. Communications.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, so you feel like you know more about communication

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<v Speaker 1>than the average person.

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<v Speaker 6>I think I might know more than those people aren't teaching,

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<v Speaker 6>because that's my goal is to teach them.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you don't do I teach?

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah, do you teach? Do you teach lessons?

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<v Speaker 1>No? I'm stupid, gabble by, But what did you say?

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<v Speaker 1>You know, it's interesting you said that like all you

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<v Speaker 1>have to know, all you have to do is no

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<v Speaker 1>more than the person you're teaching, which in theory is true,

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<v Speaker 1>Like theoretically a fourth grader would be a fantastic third

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<v Speaker 1>grade teacher, but it doesn't work like that.

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<v Speaker 6>Why not.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know, Well, I guess because you have to

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<v Speaker 1>know how to teach. But I always feel like, like,

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<v Speaker 1>if you're trying to learn something, you want to be

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<v Speaker 1>taught it not by like the master, because the master

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<v Speaker 1>thinks about the thing in two complex of a way

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<v Speaker 1>two that for you to understand. But if you take

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<v Speaker 1>advice or or lessons from someone who's like one step

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<v Speaker 1>ahead of you, like they they they can pull you

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<v Speaker 1>up to that.

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<v Speaker 6>One step right right, But if they're trying to pull

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<v Speaker 6>you up ten steps, it's a little bit of a bridge,

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<v Speaker 6>a little bit of a gap.

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<v Speaker 1>The arms aren't that long, right, right.

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<v Speaker 6>I see, we get that. So I think that a

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<v Speaker 6>fourth grade teacher would be a perfect grade teacher.

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<v Speaker 1>M Let me add, so are you so you. You

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<v Speaker 1>know you're in university, you're going to be a teacher.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you feel like kids are gonna like rip on

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<v Speaker 1>you for your Australian accent?

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<v Speaker 6>Oh, it's happened many a time.

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<v Speaker 1>I think I think people are gonna like think you're

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<v Speaker 1>very cool because of it.

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<v Speaker 6>They do, but they always ask, you know, sometimes they

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<v Speaker 6>don't understand what I'm saying. Let kind of cuss a

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<v Speaker 6>little bit too much.

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<v Speaker 1>You cuss too much?

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah, in Australia. Good see the sea word is a

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<v Speaker 6>compliment in Australia.

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<v Speaker 1>Really.

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<v Speaker 13>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 6>It's like if I was to call someone a count,

0:29:37.120 --> 0:29:39.000
<v Speaker 6>it's like they're my friend. But if I was to,

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<v Speaker 6>you know, call them mate, it's kind of like I'm

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<v Speaker 6>being a little aggressive towards them.

0:29:45.600 --> 0:29:47.000
<v Speaker 1>Would you consider me your cunt?

0:29:48.360 --> 0:29:50.200
<v Speaker 6>Yeah, i'd say you're a pretty good cunt.

0:29:51.120 --> 0:29:52.240
<v Speaker 1>I think you're a good cunt too.

0:29:53.240 --> 0:29:56.840
<v Speaker 6>That's that's perfect, that's perfect.

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<v Speaker 1>What did you say? Your name was?

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<v Speaker 6>Tom?

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<v Speaker 1>There's a pleasure talking to you, Tom. You have good

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<v Speaker 1>rest of.

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<v Speaker 6>The night, you too, Brother.

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<v Speaker 4>Paul from Emma Emma call into the show, call into

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<v Speaker 4>the show.

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<v Speaker 3>No way, that's crazy.

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<v Speaker 1>Sorry, why are you sorry?

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<v Speaker 3>Hi?

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<v Speaker 4>No, my dad was just walking in.

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<v Speaker 10>At the same time, I was answering the call.

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<v Speaker 4>I was talking to him.

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<v Speaker 1>Can't talk to him?

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<v Speaker 4>You want to talk to my dad? Yeah, this guy,

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<v Speaker 4>I'm on the phone list.

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<v Speaker 10>I'm talking to your dad.

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<v Speaker 4>He didn't want to talk to you.

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<v Speaker 5>I'm sorry.

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<v Speaker 10>The therapy ghet go, I'm sorry to drag you into this.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, you' sorry'd be sorry.

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<v Speaker 10>Because he's confused.

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<v Speaker 4>He has no idea what's going on here.

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<v Speaker 1>But confusion is not necessarily always a bad thing. It's

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<v Speaker 1>not something that, you know, I think you would need

0:30:51.040 --> 0:30:54.400
<v Speaker 1>to apologize for, unless if he actively doesn't like confusion,

0:30:54.720 --> 0:30:56.680
<v Speaker 1>and he's made that clear, and you're bringing him into

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<v Speaker 1>something that you know he actively doesn't like.

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<v Speaker 14>Ohm that true?

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<v Speaker 1>Let me talk to your dad. Heillo, Hey, how's it going? Man?

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<v Speaker 13>Okay?

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<v Speaker 1>Okay? I like you know what okay is. You know

0:31:14.480 --> 0:31:17.000
<v Speaker 1>what I like about you saying okay when I said hello,

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<v Speaker 1>is that it's an acceptance. It's a cautious acceptance, and

0:31:21.040 --> 0:31:23.200
<v Speaker 1>it's keying me into how you feel about being in

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<v Speaker 1>this situation. More than you just saying hello. You said okay.

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<v Speaker 1>You let me into how you're feeling. And I feel

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<v Speaker 1>like I'm a little bit closer to you, after you've

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<v Speaker 1>displayed that level of vulnerability with me. I like that.

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<v Speaker 1>I feel like we're in a good place now. We've

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<v Speaker 1>laid ourselves out a good foundation to have a conversation.

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<v Speaker 13>Why am I talking to you?

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<v Speaker 1>What do you mean by why are you talking to me?

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<v Speaker 8>I don't know.

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<v Speaker 11>The guy from.

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<v Speaker 1>I know, but that's such an interesting I know, but

0:31:55.920 --> 0:31:59.000
<v Speaker 1>that's such an interesting question that you just posed. Why

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<v Speaker 1>are you talking to me?

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<v Speaker 13>Well, yeah, that's the question. Why why am I talking

0:32:06.960 --> 0:32:11.680
<v Speaker 13>to you? I don't know why my talks talk to your.

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<v Speaker 1>Right, But like I mean, couldn't you I mean, theoretically

0:32:13.040 --> 0:32:14.720
<v Speaker 1>you could kind of say that about like you know,

0:32:14.760 --> 0:32:17.800
<v Speaker 1>a lot of you know, you could ask why endlessly?

0:32:18.600 --> 0:32:20.680
<v Speaker 1>Like you know, I mean, who who's let me ask

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<v Speaker 1>you some what's your name?

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<v Speaker 6>Mike?

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<v Speaker 1>Mike? Mike? You just got home? Right?

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<v Speaker 13>Yes?

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<v Speaker 1>From where?

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<v Speaker 13>From Missouri?

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<v Speaker 1>From Missouri? Did you talk to anyone in Missouri today? Yeah?

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<v Speaker 13>Uh yeah, I've talked to several people in Missouri today.

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<v Speaker 1>So every single let me, okay, Mike, listen, every single

0:32:46.640 --> 0:32:49.680
<v Speaker 1>person you talk to in Missouri. You might not remember

0:32:49.800 --> 0:32:52.960
<v Speaker 1>every single person you talked to, but do you think

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<v Speaker 1>that you could give a reason as to, like a

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<v Speaker 1>definitive reason as to why you talk talked to every

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<v Speaker 1>single one of those people.

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<v Speaker 13>Uh yeah, well I was buying some insecticide at the

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<v Speaker 13>hardware start and you know, six ninety five, and I said,

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<v Speaker 13>thank you.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, So you talked to them because you needed something

0:33:23.920 --> 0:33:27.400
<v Speaker 1>from them.

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<v Speaker 13>Yeah, I suppose I didn't really even need to speak

0:33:29.600 --> 0:33:32.000
<v Speaker 13>to him. I just you know, thanks.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you remember the last person that you talked to

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<v Speaker 1>for a reason other than you you they worked at

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<v Speaker 1>a store and you needed something from them?

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<v Speaker 13>Uh?

0:33:44.120 --> 0:33:45.760
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, who was that?

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<v Speaker 13>I talked to my son because I wanted to talk

0:33:49.800 --> 0:33:50.160
<v Speaker 13>to him.

0:33:51.200 --> 0:33:53.040
<v Speaker 1>Okay, So you talked to something because you wanted to

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<v Speaker 1>talk to him.

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<v Speaker 13>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>Why why did you want to talk to your son.

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<v Speaker 13>Because I like talking to him?

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, because to talk to your son?

0:34:08.440 --> 0:34:10.720
<v Speaker 13>Yeah?

0:34:10.800 --> 0:34:12.080
<v Speaker 1>Do you do you have friends?

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<v Speaker 13>Yes?

0:34:14.719 --> 0:34:17.640
<v Speaker 1>I have friends, okay, and you talk to them because

0:34:17.680 --> 0:34:19.480
<v Speaker 1>they bring you joy to talk to.

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<v Speaker 13>Normally.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, okay, all right, So you have like co workers

0:34:25.680 --> 0:34:28.520
<v Speaker 1>and bosses and stuff, and I assume you talk to

0:34:28.560 --> 0:34:31.800
<v Speaker 1>them because you need to to perform your job to

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<v Speaker 1>make money.

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<v Speaker 13>Well, yeah, so.

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<v Speaker 1>This is I feel like we're I mean this Mike,

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<v Speaker 1>I feel like we're in a very interesting situation right now, where,

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<v Speaker 1>like you know, you have all these people in your

0:34:46.960 --> 0:34:49.239
<v Speaker 1>life that you have a reason as to why you're

0:34:49.239 --> 0:34:53.000
<v Speaker 1>talking to them, But here you are with me and

0:34:53.080 --> 0:34:56.759
<v Speaker 1>you don't know why you're talking to me. Isn't that

0:34:56.840 --> 0:34:58.960
<v Speaker 1>kind of an interesting territory to be in. I'm the

0:34:59.000 --> 0:35:02.279
<v Speaker 1>only person. I might be the only person in the

0:35:03.160 --> 0:35:03.920
<v Speaker 1>life at all.

0:35:04.000 --> 0:35:06.520
<v Speaker 13>I was handed at the phone. This guy wants doctor.

0:35:06.560 --> 0:35:09.359
<v Speaker 1>No I might. I know it's extrame why I know,

0:35:09.440 --> 0:35:11.560
<v Speaker 1>But that's the I might be the only person in

0:35:11.600 --> 0:35:13.759
<v Speaker 1>your entire life that you are talking to that you

0:35:13.800 --> 0:35:16.160
<v Speaker 1>don't have a reason to talk to. Isn't that kind

0:35:16.160 --> 0:35:16.800
<v Speaker 1>of interesting?

0:35:19.760 --> 0:35:21.759
<v Speaker 13>Your daughter a reason to talk to you?

0:35:21.840 --> 0:35:27.800
<v Speaker 3>Hold on, Mike, Hi, Nope, it's Emma the daughter.

0:35:35.160 --> 0:35:48.120
<v Speaker 14>Hello, Hello, I'm here.

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<v Speaker 3>Can I hear you now?

0:35:52.400 --> 0:35:52.839
<v Speaker 1>I'm here.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm here, Okay, Hi, Jesus, I'm here. I just wanted

0:36:01.960 --> 0:36:03.880
<v Speaker 3>to tell you about my little music boxes.

0:36:04.280 --> 0:36:05.160
<v Speaker 10>That's all I wanted.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm so disappointed, Mike. We could have, you know, I

0:36:08.680 --> 0:36:10.480
<v Speaker 1>don't you know. I don't need Mike to have had

0:36:10.520 --> 0:36:13.680
<v Speaker 1>a beautiful moment with him. I don't need his I

0:36:13.680 --> 0:36:16.680
<v Speaker 1>don't need him to have had that moment. I had

0:36:16.680 --> 0:36:20.439
<v Speaker 1>that moment alone, you know, and Mike, Mike missed out

0:36:20.480 --> 0:36:23.040
<v Speaker 1>on an opportunity to have that beautiful moment with me,

0:36:24.560 --> 0:36:26.960
<v Speaker 1>And you know that's his loss. That's his loss.

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<v Speaker 13>You know.

0:36:32.040 --> 0:36:35.600
<v Speaker 1>I'm sure he has his reasons, and for the benefit

0:36:35.640 --> 0:36:37.560
<v Speaker 1>of Mike, I think he should open his heart a

0:36:37.600 --> 0:36:41.319
<v Speaker 1>little bit more to you know. I mean, we had

0:36:41.360 --> 0:36:42.719
<v Speaker 1>no reason to talk to each other.

0:36:44.040 --> 0:36:46.000
<v Speaker 4>No, none, none at all.

0:36:49.080 --> 0:36:53.560
<v Speaker 1>Why would you not? Why would you not want in

0:36:53.600 --> 0:36:57.080
<v Speaker 1>your life? When you ever when you talk to is like, what, guys,

0:36:57.080 --> 0:36:59.480
<v Speaker 1>I'm talking to you because I'm doing a Twitch show?

0:37:00.320 --> 0:37:04.320
<v Speaker 1>Did I do? Is my life? Work stuff? So I

0:37:04.400 --> 0:37:06.200
<v Speaker 1>have a reason to talk to you. And I guess

0:37:06.239 --> 0:37:07.919
<v Speaker 1>I had a reason to talk to Mike as well,

0:37:08.400 --> 0:37:11.000
<v Speaker 1>because I thought it would be interesting for the stream

0:37:11.040 --> 0:37:13.919
<v Speaker 1>that I'm doing. But Mike had no reason at all

0:37:14.000 --> 0:37:16.640
<v Speaker 1>to talk to me, and I thought that that was interesting.

0:37:19.400 --> 0:37:21.680
<v Speaker 3>Maybe maybe the opposite.

0:37:21.719 --> 0:37:25.680
<v Speaker 1>But you yeah, but no, nobody, no, Ema, No one understands.

0:37:25.960 --> 0:37:28.360
<v Speaker 1>I'm looking at the chat. Everyone's like, no, it's not interesting.

0:37:28.600 --> 0:37:31.080
<v Speaker 1>I'm alone here. But I don't care. I don't care

0:37:31.120 --> 0:37:33.040
<v Speaker 1>if no one agrees with me. Emma. I think it's

0:37:33.080 --> 0:37:35.919
<v Speaker 1>a little interesting that Mike has no reason to talk

0:37:35.960 --> 0:37:36.160
<v Speaker 1>to me.

0:37:39.880 --> 0:37:42.880
<v Speaker 3>Okay, sure I agree with you now, definitely.

0:37:42.600 --> 0:37:45.000
<v Speaker 1>No, you don't. I actually agree with I would rather

0:37:45.040 --> 0:37:47.120
<v Speaker 1>you disagree with me than fake agree with me.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm sorry, I really I don't know. This wasn't the

0:37:52.680 --> 0:37:54.400
<v Speaker 3>point of the call, and now I'm nervous.

0:37:54.440 --> 0:37:59.600
<v Speaker 1>What do you mean? What do you Everyone SUPs? Everyone

0:37:59.680 --> 0:38:03.400
<v Speaker 1>saw sessed with points. Everyone's so obsessed with reasons, Emma,

0:38:03.840 --> 0:38:06.759
<v Speaker 1>just when you're on the phone with a gecko, all

0:38:06.840 --> 0:38:11.120
<v Speaker 1>reason and points have been thrown in the garbage. Am

0:38:11.120 --> 0:38:13.960
<v Speaker 1>I the only sane person left on the earth?

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<v Speaker 8>Oh?

0:38:18.680 --> 0:38:19.040
<v Speaker 14>Maybe?

0:38:24.080 --> 0:38:35.680
<v Speaker 1>Oh my god? Thank you for letting me talk to

0:38:35.719 --> 0:38:37.640
<v Speaker 1>your father, Emma.

0:38:38.520 --> 0:38:40.800
<v Speaker 4>Thanks you welcome.

0:38:40.920 --> 0:38:41.359
<v Speaker 14>I don't know.

0:38:43.120 --> 0:38:45.640
<v Speaker 1>I don't know either, But that's I like that. I

0:38:45.640 --> 0:38:47.600
<v Speaker 1>don't that now that you don't have to know everything.

0:38:52.400 --> 0:38:53.880
<v Speaker 9>Okay, yeah, it's fine.

0:38:53.880 --> 0:38:55.360
<v Speaker 4>You don't need to know my music boxes.

0:38:55.400 --> 0:38:57.280
<v Speaker 14>It's fine, Emma.

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<v Speaker 1>Dear Emma, thank you so much for calling. I'll talk

0:39:03.360 --> 0:39:04.120
<v Speaker 1>to you again soon.

0:39:05.000 --> 0:39:05.719
<v Speaker 3>All right, Thank you.

0:39:07.040 --> 0:39:09.840
<v Speaker 1>Emma. Had such a good opportunity. Yes, and me, Emma

0:39:09.840 --> 0:39:13.960
<v Speaker 1>could have gone. You know, look, points, I hate points.

0:39:17.440 --> 0:39:24.560
<v Speaker 1>Drop all your points, drop all your expectations. Drop all

0:39:24.560 --> 0:39:28.440
<v Speaker 1>your preconceived notions, go along with what's happening in the moment.

0:39:28.520 --> 0:39:34.200
<v Speaker 1>Emma all from Hello.

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<v Speaker 9>Hi, oh one second, Hi, how are you?

0:39:39.280 --> 0:39:44.200
<v Speaker 1>What's your name? Laura? Dlaura? Okay, Dallaura. Nobody could hear

0:39:44.239 --> 0:39:46.920
<v Speaker 1>this part except for me because I had you playing

0:39:47.000 --> 0:39:50.640
<v Speaker 1>through the wrong output. But there was a completely different

0:39:50.680 --> 0:39:53.600
<v Speaker 1>person who called in on your behalf.

0:39:55.000 --> 0:39:58.120
<v Speaker 9>Yeah, sorry, that was my partner. This is my second

0:39:58.160 --> 0:40:02.480
<v Speaker 9>time trying to like, this is my second time listening

0:40:02.520 --> 0:40:06.560
<v Speaker 9>to Gecko, and he had gone on last week, so

0:40:07.239 --> 0:40:08.680
<v Speaker 9>he helped me get on this week.

0:40:10.520 --> 0:40:13.040
<v Speaker 1>Because he knew because he had successfully gotten on the

0:40:13.040 --> 0:40:17.680
<v Speaker 1>line the previous week, he knew that the secret tools

0:40:17.719 --> 0:40:19.759
<v Speaker 1>and tricks of the of the trade to help you

0:40:20.520 --> 0:40:22.400
<v Speaker 1>achieve in his footsteps.

0:40:23.080 --> 0:40:24.760
<v Speaker 9>I think we just got lucky.

0:40:25.680 --> 0:40:29.719
<v Speaker 1>Interesting. But his name it was the Damascus.

0:40:32.560 --> 0:40:40.040
<v Speaker 9>My name, Oh no, Dalaura, but Damascus Damascus would be cool,

0:40:41.120 --> 0:40:41.680
<v Speaker 9>would be cool.

0:40:41.719 --> 0:40:44.240
<v Speaker 1>I've always liked the name Dante.

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<v Speaker 9>Yeah, me too, not in the name Dante is kind

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<v Speaker 9>of cool. I think I think Virgil is a good

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<v Speaker 9>name too.

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<v Speaker 1>How did you and your partner meet?

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<v Speaker 9>We met through a Dungeons and Dragons game mutual part

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<v Speaker 9>A little bit of both. I guess we met through

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<v Speaker 9>a mutual friend and it was long distance for a while,

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<v Speaker 9>and then we just moved in together last.

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<v Speaker 1>Year to a to a good place, to a dungeon

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<v Speaker 1>with a dragon. Uh.

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<v Speaker 9>Well, he played dungeons and dragons all the time. I

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<v Speaker 9>don't play it so much anymore, but like I mean,

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<v Speaker 9>East Coast, there's always dungeons around here.

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<v Speaker 1>How much did your house cost?

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<v Speaker 9>Well, we're living in an apartment right now, so it

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<v Speaker 9>costs about like thirteen hundred a month for a two bedroom,

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<v Speaker 9>two baths.

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<v Speaker 1>Thirteen hundred a month. That's pretty good between you know,

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<v Speaker 1>two people.

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<v Speaker 9>Yeah, yeah, it Sully is. Yeah, we're both fully employed school. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>What's the strangest thing you own.

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<v Speaker 9>Currently? There are a few things that we own. Well,

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<v Speaker 9>I own like a little jar of teeth I got

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<v Speaker 9>from an oddity shop, like human molars.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, a little thing of teeth that you got from

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<v Speaker 1>an oddity shop. And what was it when you saw

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<v Speaker 1>these teeth? What about them? Spoke to you?

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<v Speaker 9>Honestly? I had just I took the vial and like

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<v Speaker 9>clinked it together, and I don't know, I just like

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<v Speaker 9>a sound that And I used to be like I

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<v Speaker 9>used to study for registered dental assisting.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you now how would you feel if and how

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<v Speaker 1>old are the teeth that you that you purchased.

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<v Speaker 9>I'm not sure they look like they could be of

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<v Speaker 9>this century.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you believe that the person whose teeth they are

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<v Speaker 1>consented to having their teeth owned by a lady one

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<v Speaker 1>day in her house and her two better apartments.

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<v Speaker 9>I don't know about that because as the because I

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<v Speaker 9>do know this from from being an intern at a

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<v Speaker 9>general practice, Like I've done extractions before, like I've assisted

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<v Speaker 9>on them. After the extraction is done, the patient has

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<v Speaker 9>the opportunity to take the tooth with them if they

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<v Speaker 9>want to. But like sometimes, like the office that I

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<v Speaker 9>worked at, specifically collected teeth in order to give them

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<v Speaker 9>back to like surrounding universities and stuff so that students

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<v Speaker 9>could work on them.

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<v Speaker 1>Or you could get your teeth pulled out and then

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<v Speaker 1>take your tooth and sell it to like a weird

0:44:06.480 --> 0:44:12.480
<v Speaker 1>person who likes to collect strange teeth things for a

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<v Speaker 1>lot of money. You could set up your own army,

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<v Speaker 1>or you could sell it to one another. How did

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<v Speaker 1>it get into the to the to the possession of

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<v Speaker 1>the oddity.

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<v Speaker 9>Shop that's a good question. That audity shop is out

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<v Speaker 9>in Pennsylvania. They had a lot of other stuff like

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<v Speaker 9>actual like human skulls and taxidermy and stuff like that.

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<v Speaker 1>Listen before we go, Dante, how would you feel? This

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<v Speaker 1>is what I've been dying to ask you this entire conversation,

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<v Speaker 1>but I keep getting in distracted. How would you feel

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<v Speaker 1>if one day your teeth were in the possession of

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<v Speaker 1>a stranger who was like centuries older than you.

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<v Speaker 9>If there were, okay a century older than me, in

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<v Speaker 9>what way are they a vampire? Or it's just been said?

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<v Speaker 1>And imagine the teeth that you possess being possessed by

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<v Speaker 1>a lady who just looks exactly like you. After you're dead, Well.

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<v Speaker 9>Well I hope that they take care of them at least,

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<v Speaker 9>so I mean, if I'm dead, I guess it doesn't

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<v Speaker 9>really matter, like by centuries by now, like my brain

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<v Speaker 9>is turned into mush and then I've completely slept off

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<v Speaker 9>in this mortal coil, so they can keep my teeth.

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<v Speaker 1>If I'm dead, then it doesn't really matter. Very wise

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<v Speaker 1>worse to leave us with. Thank you very much, Daisy,

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<v Speaker 1>you have a good rest of the night.

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<v Speaker 11>Thank you.

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<v Speaker 6>Kyle, Kyle, Hello.

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<v Speaker 12>Hey, hey, Hey, how's it going?

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<v Speaker 1>How's it going? I mean, what does that even mean?

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<v Speaker 13>You know?

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<v Speaker 12>Well, I mean I did previously hear you answer, and

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<v Speaker 12>I forgot about it. So that's that's the reason I asked.

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<v Speaker 1>No, I'm not asking the reason for you asking the question.

0:47:09.320 --> 0:47:14.000
<v Speaker 1>I'm asking what you believe the question means, how is

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<v Speaker 1>it going? No, I feel like I know the reason

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<v Speaker 1>for your asking of the question. I feel like you

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<v Speaker 1>asked the question and a good faith effort to you know,

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<v Speaker 1>sort of get the ball rolling on a conversation, which

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<v Speaker 1>I appreciate. But I'm merely asking what you believe. The

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<v Speaker 1>question itself means.

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<v Speaker 12>I'm not that intellectual, so I necessary I can't really

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<v Speaker 12>stay why.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't think you have. It's just you don't have

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<v Speaker 1>to be an intellectual. I'm asking your own personal opinion.

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<v Speaker 1>You don't have to be an intellectual to tell me

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<v Speaker 1>what you think. You know?

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<v Speaker 12>This is extremely hard for me. What I'm never in

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<v Speaker 12>this nowhere I'm being asked.

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<v Speaker 1>What? Yeah, I don't know, You're not you never can you?

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<v Speaker 1>Can you finish that sentence? You're never in a situation

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<v Speaker 1>where you're being asked where.

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<v Speaker 12>I'm being asked, what do you think? How do you how?

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<v Speaker 12>How are you means?

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<v Speaker 1>M hm?

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<v Speaker 14>Yep?

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<v Speaker 1>Do people not often ask you for your thoughts?

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<v Speaker 11>Well?

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<v Speaker 13>No, that's that's not true.

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<v Speaker 1>You've just never been in a situation in which someone

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<v Speaker 1>has asked you what you think? The question how are

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<v Speaker 1>you means.

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<v Speaker 11>Yes or no?

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<v Speaker 1>How's it going? I like that, you like what the

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<v Speaker 1>question of how it's going? How's it going?

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<v Speaker 14>Yep?

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<v Speaker 12>Yep, that's way better.

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<v Speaker 1>What do you think it means?

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<v Speaker 7>Uh?

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<v Speaker 12>Because I mean it's it's truly good or bad?

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<v Speaker 1>Would you feel more comfortable if you were in a

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<v Speaker 1>position in which you were asking questions that you have

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<v Speaker 1>previously been asked before? Because you say that you're feeling

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<v Speaker 1>uncomfortable because I'm asking you a question that you've never

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<v Speaker 1>been asked before, or you've never been in a situation

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<v Speaker 1>which you've been asked that question. But then what good

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<v Speaker 1>is this conversation going to be if I only ask

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<v Speaker 1>you questions that you're that you've been asked before.

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<v Speaker 12>Well, let's let's get it going.

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<v Speaker 13>Give me one that I've never heard.

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<v Speaker 1>What do you think? How's it going mean?

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<v Speaker 12>Okay, well, it means how is it going? Is it

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<v Speaker 12>going well? Or is it going bad?

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<v Speaker 1>What does it referred to.

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<v Speaker 5>Life?

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<v Speaker 12>In my situation?

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, all right, so that's that was your answer? Is

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<v Speaker 1>it means how is your life going?

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<v Speaker 7>It?

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<v Speaker 12>I mean it could be it could be how's your

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<v Speaker 12>day going? I guess I could have phrased it better.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, Well, no, it's no, No, it's there's you didn't

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<v Speaker 1>do anything wrong. You're interpreting. Don't interpret me asking you

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<v Speaker 1>what you think this question means? As I am unsatisfied

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<v Speaker 1>with the question, it's not. I'm not judging the question

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<v Speaker 1>as bad or good. I'm merely asking you what you

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<v Speaker 1>think the question means. I'm not saying that you did anything.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, don't I would. I hate that you're being like, oh,

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<v Speaker 1>I could have done something better, so you didn't do

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<v Speaker 1>anything wrong. I'm just asking you what you thought the

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<v Speaker 1>question meant.

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<v Speaker 12>Yeah, I really don't know.

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<v Speaker 1>You don't know, but I think you do. You know,

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<v Speaker 1>were you were there just now, you were saying like

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<v Speaker 1>it could be what your now your day is going.

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<v Speaker 1>You were articulating your thoughts on it, so you do know.

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<v Speaker 12>Yep, yeah, I guess I do understand.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, So what you think it means?

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<v Speaker 12>Just how it is? Just how's it going today?

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<v Speaker 1>What's the strangest thing? You know?

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<v Speaker 12>The strangest thing I own? I was thinking about this,

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<v Speaker 12>and I mean honestly, the strangest thing I own is

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<v Speaker 12>a an all black rubikscube. I really can't think of much.

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<v Speaker 1>In all black rubic scube.

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<v Speaker 12>Yeah, it's very easy to solve, also very hard to solve.

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<v Speaker 1>Very easy to solve, also very hard. Is it different

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<v Speaker 1>shades of black?

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<v Speaker 12>Nope, it's just black.

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<v Speaker 1>See you say you're not an intellectual. But this is

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<v Speaker 1>an interesting philosophical question here. I feel like is an

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<v Speaker 1>all blacks rub an is a Rubic's cube that is

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<v Speaker 1>all one color, easy to solve or hard to solve.

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<v Speaker 13>It's both.

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<v Speaker 12>As what I'm saying, it could take you hours to solve.

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<v Speaker 12>It could take you sixteen seconds.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't even think it would take you sixteen seconds. See,

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<v Speaker 1>you're you, see you think I'm mind fucking you, but

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<v Speaker 1>you're mind sucking me right now with this, with this query, I'm.

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<v Speaker 12>Telling you it has legitimately taken me five minutes to

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<v Speaker 12>solve it one time. And I've and I've done it before,

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<v Speaker 12>That's what I'm saying. Like you haven't. You haven't done

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<v Speaker 12>it before. It could take you two and a half

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<v Speaker 12>hours to do.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, So how do you do? You understand what you're

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<v Speaker 1>posing to me right now?

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<v Speaker 12>I do. That's why I brought it up.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay.

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<v Speaker 12>That is the strangest thing I'd ever heard of.

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<v Speaker 1>It's an all black Rubies cube.

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<v Speaker 13>Pitch black, pitch black, yep.

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<v Speaker 1>And how are you?

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<v Speaker 8>How do you?

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<v Speaker 1>How do you solve it?

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<v Speaker 12>It's taken me a long time. I've owned it for

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<v Speaker 12>three years. I've had other people mix it up. I've

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<v Speaker 12>mixed it up. I have seen other people solve it.

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<v Speaker 12>I've also solved it. It's just uh, I mean, at

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<v Speaker 12>this point it's a muscle memory.

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<v Speaker 1>But this has taken such a turn. This has taken

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<v Speaker 1>such a turn because you just started off you thinking

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<v Speaker 1>that I'm mind fucking you by asking you what you

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<v Speaker 1>think how's it going is? And now you're mind fucking

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<v Speaker 1>me supremely with this Rubik's cube. But I don't know

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<v Speaker 1>if you are intentionally trying to mind fuck me or

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<v Speaker 1>if you have just mind fucked me naturally.

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<v Speaker 12>I mean, you're you're almost mind sucking me again.

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<v Speaker 1>How am I mind fucking you?

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<v Speaker 12>You really just put me in a loop here?

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<v Speaker 1>Chat? Can anyone explain what's going on here?

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<v Speaker 12>This guy says I'm doing a bit. That's no I'm.

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<v Speaker 13>Telling you, I don't know.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't think you're a bit. I don't think you're

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<v Speaker 1>doing a bit, all right? You know part of me here,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna I'm gonna give you some honest truth here.

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<v Speaker 1>As I believe what's your.

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<v Speaker 12>Name again, my name is Kyle.

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<v Speaker 1>I believe that I could dive deeper into this pitch

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<v Speaker 1>black Rubb's cube and find something that gives some sort

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<v Speaker 1>of an explanation for it. But I've been reluctant to

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<v Speaker 1>do that because I think it's funnier to not have

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<v Speaker 1>any information about it. But I'm at a point where

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<v Speaker 1>I think the only way forward in this conversation is

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<v Speaker 1>to pry deeper into this black ruby scube.

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah, how so how do you.

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<v Speaker 1>Solve a Rubik's cube that's all one color?

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<v Speaker 12>It's not much different than a standard rubikscube. Out of

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<v Speaker 12>it is completely solved. Yes, So you do a couple,

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<v Speaker 12>you know, you a bunch of rotations. You get it

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<v Speaker 12>going left, right, up down one side, you move it,

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<v Speaker 12>the other side, you move it, and then it's completely

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<v Speaker 12>you know, mixed up. From there, there is a sequence

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<v Speaker 12>of what you can do to once again put it

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<v Speaker 12>back into the state it came in.

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<v Speaker 1>And I think, Okay, So the solved state of the

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<v Speaker 1>Rubics cube, the state of the rublescube that is defined

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<v Speaker 1>as it being solved, is whatever state it was in

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<v Speaker 1>when it came in the box.

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<v Speaker 13>Yep.

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<v Speaker 1>And so do you have record of what the state

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<v Speaker 1>of the Rubics cube was when it was in the box.

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<v Speaker 12>No, it's all my feel.

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<v Speaker 1>I just know so you could you just know you

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<v Speaker 1>just feel.

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<v Speaker 11>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>Interesting, that sounds extremely hard.

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<v Speaker 12>You're telling me, man, it's it's one color.

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<v Speaker 1>I know it's one color.

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<v Speaker 12>I don't think you get it. It's black.

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<v Speaker 1>No, I get it, all black, yes.

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<v Speaker 12>Every side, every square?

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<v Speaker 14>Mind?

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<v Speaker 1>Fuck? What did you say? Name was Kyle?

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<v Speaker 14>My name?

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<v Speaker 12>My name is Kyl Yas.

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<v Speaker 1>Thank you for calling Kyle, Thank you for having me.

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<v Speaker 3>Last, of course, Paul from Nichole Nichel.

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<v Speaker 1>Hello, what's that Nichole? Hi?

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<v Speaker 15>How's that going?

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<v Speaker 1>How's it going? It's going good. I'm feeling I'm feeling

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<v Speaker 1>a better. I'm feeling a little bit more energetic right now.

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<v Speaker 1>I feel like I caught a little bit of a

0:57:08.040 --> 0:57:14.239
<v Speaker 1>second wind. I'm looking around. It's uh, you know, it's

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<v Speaker 1>a classic Monday night at the stage in in my

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<v Speaker 1>life in which I am a gecko on the computer.

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<v Speaker 15>And hey, that's good stuff. You got people watching.

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<v Speaker 1>So there are people watching and listening and calling in

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<v Speaker 1>and you are one of them, Nicole, And what's up?

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<v Speaker 14>Tell me?

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<v Speaker 15>I've been watching you past like hour and a half.

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<v Speaker 15>So it's good to finally talk to you.

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<v Speaker 1>Good to fine talk to Is this the first time

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<v Speaker 1>watching the stream?

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<v Speaker 15>No, I've actually watched a couple of times, but this

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<v Speaker 15>is my first time trying to call in.

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<v Speaker 1>So, mhm, is there anything like in particular, Nicole, that

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<v Speaker 1>you wanted to talk about here?

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<v Speaker 3>I don't know.

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<v Speaker 15>I guess nothing in particular. I just thought it'd be

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<v Speaker 15>pretty cool to kind of talk to you and I

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<v Speaker 15>don't know, just kind of see what's racking your brain?

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<v Speaker 15>What's racking mind?

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<v Speaker 1>Well, what do you think is racking your brain?

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<v Speaker 12>Oh?

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<v Speaker 8>You know what?

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<v Speaker 15>I have so many people listening to me right now?

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<v Speaker 1>Are you referring to are you referring to the people

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<v Speaker 1>watching the stream? Yeah?

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<v Speaker 15>You know, it's it's definitely interesting to I don't know,

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<v Speaker 15>I guess just say something and know that people are listening.

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<v Speaker 1>I've i've actually ever since. I've actually pretty quickly into

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<v Speaker 1>doing this. I got used to, uh forgetting that everyone

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<v Speaker 1>was there. I never think about the fact that everyone,

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<v Speaker 1>like what, I don't think about the fact that my

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<v Speaker 1>words are being broadcasted to other people. Right now, I

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<v Speaker 1>feel sort of alone, because if I thought too heavily

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<v Speaker 1>about that, I think I would have to second guess

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<v Speaker 1>every single thing that I said, and that would be

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<v Speaker 1>no fun.

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<v Speaker 15>Oh definitely, Hey, that definitely makes sense.

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<v Speaker 1>What's the strangest thing you own?

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<v Speaker 12>Oh?

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<v Speaker 15>So I actually collect animal bones. M I say that

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<v Speaker 15>that's pretty strange to some people.

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<v Speaker 1>Is there an animal bone in particular that is the

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<v Speaker 1>crowning jewel of your collection?

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<v Speaker 15>Yeah? Actually I have the red cage of a hawk.

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<v Speaker 15>I also have the skull too, So that's pretty cool.

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<v Speaker 1>You have the ripe cage of a hawk.

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<v Speaker 4>I do.

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<v Speaker 1>I feel like the page of a hawk is like

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<v Speaker 1>an ingredient to make a potion of some kind, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>like feather of a extinct bird, the reap cage of

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<v Speaker 1>a hawk, the tear of a Child's something like that.

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<v Speaker 15>I would, I would say so, But for me, I

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<v Speaker 15>just kind of have it up in my room and

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<v Speaker 15>I look at it every day and I'm like, that's

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<v Speaker 15>that's pretty neat. And that's there.

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<v Speaker 1>What got you into collecting animal bones?

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<v Speaker 15>That'll probably my grandma. So I live in Arizona, and

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<v Speaker 15>so we've got a lot of desert around here. It's

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<v Speaker 15>not much to do in Arizona but go on hikes.

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<v Speaker 1>So have you personally killed any of the animals whose

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<v Speaker 1>bones you own?

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<v Speaker 14>Oh?

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<v Speaker 15>My god, No, no, no, I just find them and

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<v Speaker 15>I don't know my grandma kind of taught me like,

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<v Speaker 15>it's kind of just a way of respecting them after death.

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<v Speaker 15>I mean, I guess leaving them there would also be

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<v Speaker 15>respecting them.

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<v Speaker 1>But interesting, how Yes, Because as I was, I'm curious,

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<v Speaker 1>how is collecting them supposed to be respectful?

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<v Speaker 15>I guess the way that she was trying to get

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<v Speaker 15>at it, and the way that I try to explain

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<v Speaker 15>myself so that I don't sound super weird, is it's

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<v Speaker 15>just kind of a way of honoring something that used

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<v Speaker 15>to be alive, you know, just having it up, walking

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<v Speaker 15>past it like, hey, that's you know, you're still cool,

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<v Speaker 15>You're still loved.

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<v Speaker 1>See this is interesting. This harkens me back to the

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<v Speaker 1>all I think it was the very first call of

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<v Speaker 1>the evening, but the woman who owned a set of

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<v Speaker 1>teeths in a jar. I don't know if you were

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<v Speaker 1>around for that.

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<v Speaker 15>But I think I caught like the ending of that.

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<v Speaker 1>See, I'm wondering, is that a sign you do? You

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<v Speaker 1>do you think that's a sign of respect? Like if

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<v Speaker 1>someone Okay, so I'll ask you a similar question that I

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<v Speaker 1>asked her. If someone found your bones, yes, and decided

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<v Speaker 1>to hang them up on their mantle, would you be

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<v Speaker 1>honored by uh.

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<v Speaker 15>I would love it, Okay, I would think that's really cool.

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<v Speaker 8>But that's just me.

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<v Speaker 15>I don't know. I think it'd be a lot cooler

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<v Speaker 15>than just being forgotten.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, that's probably a thing you could probably uh

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<v Speaker 1>like in your will, specify that you'd like a couple

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<v Speaker 1>of your bones given to people. You could probably give.

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<v Speaker 1>I wonder if anyone's ever done this. You could make

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<v Speaker 1>like some sort of anatomical will that like, oh, you

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<v Speaker 1>give how many bones are there in the human body?

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<v Speaker 1>A lot? I feel like you would know the exact number.

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<v Speaker 15>I think it's around Honestly, I don't know. I should

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<v Speaker 15>know that two hundred probably like around how many.

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<v Speaker 1>Bones are in the human body? Two hundred and eight

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<v Speaker 1>I'm seeing, I'm seeing all.

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<v Speaker 15>Okay, there you go.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, so two o eight? Do you have two hundred

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<v Speaker 1>and eight friends? Because you could keep each of your

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<v Speaker 1>friends a bone.

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<v Speaker 15>Unfortunately I don't have that many friends, but I think

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<v Speaker 15>I think I could divide it equally.

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<v Speaker 1>Upon all of them and have one of your bones.

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<v Speaker 15>Oh totally, yeah, already, will.

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<v Speaker 1>Which which which bone could I have? Could I have

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<v Speaker 1>a like a I could I have a collar bone?

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<v Speaker 15>You could have a collar bone. I'm probably one of

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<v Speaker 15>my knees.

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<v Speaker 1>No, I don't need a whole knee. You can give

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<v Speaker 1>I don't. I don't know one bone. The the other bones

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<v Speaker 1>you can give to someone else. But I'll take a

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<v Speaker 1>collar bone.

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<v Speaker 15>Oh you just okay, just like a collarbone or something.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you have a Okay, So if you're gonna give

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<v Speaker 1>me your collarbone, is there a place in particular that

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<v Speaker 1>you would like me to put it.

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<v Speaker 15>I've always pictured my bones above like a fireplace or

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<v Speaker 15>something right in the center. But it have to it

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<v Speaker 15>has to be one of like those old red brick fireplaces.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, what if I am not in possession of a

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<v Speaker 1>red brick fireplace.

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<v Speaker 15>Yeah, that's you know what. That's fine. That's just kind

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<v Speaker 15>of like my my dream. I don't want to be

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<v Speaker 15>asking too much. And if you have a night stand,

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<v Speaker 15>I mean I have some bones on my night stand.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, I could put it.

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<v Speaker 15>I think it's a pretty good spot.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, great, well i'll how old are you? I'm twenty twenty,

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<v Speaker 1>all right, I see it a while until you're dead. Probably.

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<v Speaker 15>Oh you don't know that.

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<v Speaker 1>We don't know, it's true. We don't know, do you

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<v Speaker 1>feel like this has giving you a lot of respective

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<v Speaker 1>on death.

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<v Speaker 15>I think about death a lot.

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<v Speaker 10>So you could outlive me.

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<v Speaker 1>I could outlive you. This is true. Do you think

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<v Speaker 1>how would you would you be upset if I sold

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<v Speaker 1>your collar bone? Like if you became famous. Let's say,

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<v Speaker 1>let's say, how would you feel if you okay, if

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<v Speaker 1>you became famous, right, and then you died And when

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<v Speaker 1>you died, I like went to your estate and I

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<v Speaker 1>showed them this uh footage, and I was like, I

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<v Speaker 1>have legal I don't know if this would hold up

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<v Speaker 1>in court, but let's say it did. And I was like,

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<v Speaker 1>I have legal what's your name again, Angel, Nicole? Nicole?

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<v Speaker 1>If I had legal and I and I said, I

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<v Speaker 1>have legal claim to Nicole, to the famous singer songwriter

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<v Speaker 1>Nicole her to her collarbone. And then I took your

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<v Speaker 1>collar bone and I sold it on eBay for profit.

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<v Speaker 1>How would you feel it? Would that upset you if I

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<v Speaker 1>sold your collarbone?

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<v Speaker 15>I think I would be a little bit hurt, But

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<v Speaker 15>at the same time I would have to respect it.

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<v Speaker 15>I mean, you're you're making a profit off of it,

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<v Speaker 15>and you know, I think I think possessions are They're

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<v Speaker 15>just what you make out of them. I guess it

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<v Speaker 15>really depends on how much you, as a person have

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<v Speaker 15>that importance held to that certain object.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, Nicole, thank you so much for this great offer.

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<v Speaker 1>If if you know I have I do happen to

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<v Speaker 1>come into possession of her collar bone. I promised to

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<v Speaker 1>take good care of it and you know, preserve it

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<v Speaker 1>for many years and hopefully pass it on to my

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<v Speaker 1>children as well.

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<v Speaker 10>Yeah, I can.

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<v Speaker 15>I can see if someone can mail it out to

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<v Speaker 15>you or something. Just kind of find some way to

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<v Speaker 15>get that collarbone out to you. I happen to die, awesome.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, look, I hope it doesn't happen for a very

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<v Speaker 1>long time. We'll see, we'll see. Have a good night, Nicole,

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<v Speaker 1>Hey you too.

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<v Speaker 4>Thanks Paul from Chuck.

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<v Speaker 1>Chuck. Hi, holy shit, I got in you did. What's up?

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<v Speaker 1>Tell me everything? Tell me nothing?

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<v Speaker 9>So what's going on tonight?

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<v Speaker 7>Anything?

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<v Speaker 1>No, tonight's pretty chill tonight. Uh well, I mean, as

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<v Speaker 1>you know, this is a pre recorded stream, so I'm

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<v Speaker 1>not live right now, but I will be live in

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<v Speaker 1>a few weeks. Chuck, is that your real name?

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<v Speaker 7>No, it's a name I used on social media.

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<v Speaker 11>I don't really like my real name.

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<v Speaker 1>Why do you pick Chuck.

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<v Speaker 7>There's a character on an old MTV show called Daria,

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<v Speaker 7>and he was kind of like the gross nerd character

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<v Speaker 7>that thought he was hot shit, and I really related

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<v Speaker 7>to that.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you consider yourself a gross nerd that thinks that

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<v Speaker 1>they're hot shit?

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<v Speaker 11>Absolutely?

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<v Speaker 14>Yes.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, it's so interesting to self identify as a

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<v Speaker 1>person who is gross that thinks that they're hot, because

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<v Speaker 1>there's a contradiction there, because if you truly did think

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<v Speaker 1>that you were hot, you would not self identify first

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<v Speaker 1>as a gross person that thinks they're hot. You would

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<v Speaker 1>just cut straight to self identifying as a hot person.

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<v Speaker 1>So there is a bit of a fallacy there.

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<v Speaker 7>I have a very fake it till you make it

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<v Speaker 7>kind of mindset.

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<v Speaker 1>I highly endorse the fake it till you make it mindset.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you believe that you will at some point make it?

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<v Speaker 7>I do eventually.

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<v Speaker 1>What is making it look like to you?

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<v Speaker 7>I think being okay with everything that I am is

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<v Speaker 7>making it to me.

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<v Speaker 1>I think that's a good goal. I liked that. Cool.

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<v Speaker 1>Uh okay, Well what are you.

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<v Speaker 7>I think right now? I'm sad?

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<v Speaker 1>What are you said about?

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<v Speaker 7>I had a guy break up with me seven months

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<v Speaker 7>ago and then he decided he wanted to hang around

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<v Speaker 7>for a long time, and every time I told him

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<v Speaker 7>to leave me alone, he wouldn't do it. And today

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<v Speaker 7>he sent me a text saying, Oh, I just can't

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<v Speaker 7>do this anymore. So, you know, had to end on

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<v Speaker 7>his term. It's not mine.

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<v Speaker 1>Wait a minute, but have you he broke up a wait?

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<v Speaker 1>Hold on, this is making sense to me. He broke

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<v Speaker 1>up with you seven months ago.

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<v Speaker 14>Uh huh.

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<v Speaker 1>And then when you say he hung around, like, do

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<v Speaker 1>you guys fucking live together? What do you mean he

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<v Speaker 1>hung around?

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<v Speaker 7>We lived together? So he was in the apartment for

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<v Speaker 7>about a month and then he left. Oh shit, and

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<v Speaker 7>then he just I Every time I'd be like, you

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<v Speaker 7>need to stop texting me, you need to leave me alone,

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<v Speaker 7>you need to get your stuff and go get everything

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<v Speaker 7>out of the apartment, he just wouldn't do it. And

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<v Speaker 7>I'm I'm kind of a a welcome Matt, So I

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<v Speaker 7>never really made him. I guess.

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<v Speaker 1>That's crazy. Do you guys? Was it a one bedroom? What?

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<v Speaker 1>What was the was it one best? Was we sleeping together?

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<v Speaker 3>No?

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<v Speaker 1>I was on the couch, You were on the couch.

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<v Speaker 10>I was on the couch.

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<v Speaker 1>Now, okay, was that Damn how did that go down? How?

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<v Speaker 1>How was that decided? Who gets the couch and who

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<v Speaker 1>gets the bed?

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<v Speaker 14>Uh?

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<v Speaker 7>It was kind of a thing where like it was

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<v Speaker 7>his bed to begin with, Like he brought it from

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<v Speaker 7>his house.

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<v Speaker 11>To the apartment.

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<v Speaker 7>I don't want to I don't want to sleep on that.

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<v Speaker 1>You know. So you were just sort of co living

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<v Speaker 1>with this guy that you broke up with for seven months.

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<v Speaker 7>No, only a couple of months. He left after about two.

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<v Speaker 1>Months, okay, but for a couple of months. I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>how what did that feel like? Was that? I assume

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<v Speaker 1>pretty awkward?

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<v Speaker 11>Uh?

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<v Speaker 7>Honestly, No, it was fine, Like we were, we were

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<v Speaker 7>best friends. He just has a lot of hang ups

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<v Speaker 7>and it kind of ruins its.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, so when you say your best do you do

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<v Speaker 1>you still consider yourself best friends?

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<v Speaker 15>Uh?

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<v Speaker 7>Up until today? Yeah, Like I could have told him anything.

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<v Speaker 1>Ever, what was it about today? Because that's you know,

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<v Speaker 1>a single day is a lot to chop down that tree.

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<v Speaker 7>You know, there was there were times where he would

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<v Speaker 7>openly admit, like, I know I shouldn't be talking to

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<v Speaker 7>you like we're over. I don't I don't desire a

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<v Speaker 7>relationship with you anymore. I know, I need to get

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<v Speaker 7>over you. But today the text was just different. Plus

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<v Speaker 7>it was over text. He's never he's not like a

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<v Speaker 7>he's a very in person kind of person. And so

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<v Speaker 7>knowing that he didn't even want to come see me

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<v Speaker 7>to say, it was like, damn you really you're not

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<v Speaker 7>going to come around anymore.

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<v Speaker 1>M From his perspective, why do you think he couldn't

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<v Speaker 1>see you anymore? What was his like reason for breaking

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<v Speaker 1>up with you?

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<v Speaker 7>I'm curious he has a girlfriend though, Yeah, he has

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<v Speaker 7>a girlfriend, and she left for boot camp or something,

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<v Speaker 7>and I kept telling him, you need to stop coming around,

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<v Speaker 7>you need to get your stuff and leave because it's

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<v Speaker 7>going to ruin your relationship. He didn't believe me. And

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<v Speaker 7>now she has kicked him out of their apartment. So

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<v Speaker 7>now he's finally being like, yeah, I'm gonna get my

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<v Speaker 7>stuff and stop talking to you.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, you know, it sounds like you're doing your best

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<v Speaker 1>as you should to be setting boundaries with this guy.

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<v Speaker 7>I am, and like I've blocked him on everything. He's

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<v Speaker 7>been blocked for a long time. He just shows up

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<v Speaker 7>to the apartment.

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<v Speaker 1>Are you dating anyone? Are you to have a new squeeze?

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<v Speaker 9>Ah?

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<v Speaker 7>Funny enough, when of his friends started talking to me

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<v Speaker 7>because they weren't really friends anymore. And then it's still

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<v Speaker 7>kind of happening. But he got real pissy about that.

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<v Speaker 1>What of his friends? Mm hmm. So did he like

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<v Speaker 1>as you is? He like? What? How did he? Okay? So,

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<v Speaker 1>how did his friend break up with him? As like friends?

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<v Speaker 7>So they were friends like in high school and we've

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<v Speaker 7>been at high school for about three years now, and

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<v Speaker 7>they just like like they stopped talking. They both got

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<v Speaker 7>busy with stuff and stopped talking to each other. But

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<v Speaker 7>they both did that thing where they're like, I don't

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<v Speaker 7>know why he's not talking to me.

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<v Speaker 11>He just hates me.

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<v Speaker 7>Now, I guess like they didn't. They just didn't want

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<v Speaker 7>to talk about it so that they never never tried

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<v Speaker 7>and then they just stopped being friends because they thought

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<v Speaker 7>the other one hated them.

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<v Speaker 9>M m hmmm.

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<v Speaker 1>A very small town, so I can assume. Uh, so, oh, okay,

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<v Speaker 1>when you when your boyfriend got so your boy got

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<v Speaker 1>pussy about this you were dating his old friends. M

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<v Speaker 1>h What did he say?

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<v Speaker 7>He said something like, when we broke up, you told

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<v Speaker 7>me you were going to talk to my friends. I

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<v Speaker 7>was like, yeah, I also still loved you. When we

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<v Speaker 7>broke up, so like, of course I was gonna say

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<v Speaker 7>anything to make you still want to be around me.

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<v Speaker 7>But also, well, that's kind of that's such a childish

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<v Speaker 7>thing to say, like, oh, you're not going to talk

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<v Speaker 7>to my friends. Your friends aren't off limits simply because

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<v Speaker 7>they were your friends, you know.

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<v Speaker 1>I I I think I agree with that. I've never

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<v Speaker 1>liked this idea of people like having trying to have

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<v Speaker 1>like ownership over people. I mean not, I mean, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>you never have ownership with people, even if you're in

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<v Speaker 1>a relationship with them, but you know, especially like after

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<v Speaker 1>you break up with them, like these sort of last

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<v Speaker 1>stitch efforts of like, oh you can't date my friends,

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<v Speaker 1>you can't do this, you can't do that. It's like,

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<v Speaker 1>don't tell me what I fucking can and can't do.

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<v Speaker 1>You don't know a person I could talk to whever.

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<v Speaker 7>I want to talk to, right, And let's be fair here,

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<v Speaker 7>just when started talking to me, I didn't initiate the contact.

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<v Speaker 7>So I think if if that any beef, it should

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<v Speaker 7>be with your friend and not me.

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<v Speaker 1>Well that's some would you say you name was Kayla?

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<v Speaker 7>Well, well that's my real name.

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<v Speaker 11>I thought it was Chuck.

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<v Speaker 7>What my name is, Kayla?

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<v Speaker 1>Beautiful Kayla. Thank you so much for calling and appreciate you. Sharon.

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<v Speaker 7>All right, thank you, thank you for listening.

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<v Speaker 1>Of course, have a good night you too. Hello. Hello,

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<v Speaker 1>how are you?

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<v Speaker 8>Oh my god?

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<v Speaker 9>Hi?

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<v Speaker 10>I wasn't expecting you to call back.

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<v Speaker 1>I well, you know what, you just had such a

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<v Speaker 1>lovely looking phone number. Something about the I mean really

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<v Speaker 1>just something was very aesthetically pleasing about the way that

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<v Speaker 1>those particular numbers aligned that I was like, I got

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<v Speaker 1>to call this person back.

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<v Speaker 10>Oh my god, that's great. How are you doing?

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<v Speaker 1>You know, I'm feeling pretty good. This is not going

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<v Speaker 1>to make any sense because today what day? What day

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<v Speaker 1>is today? Call her?

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<v Speaker 10>Uh, Friday?

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<v Speaker 1>No, But on the calendar, Oh oh.

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<v Speaker 10>I don't know. I'm stay at home mom. I don't

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<v Speaker 10>no one to know what day it is.

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<v Speaker 1>You don't know what day of you don't know. Do

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<v Speaker 1>you know what month it is?

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<v Speaker 3>July?

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, that's good. Do you know what day of July

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<v Speaker 1>it is?

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<v Speaker 8>Oh, I'm gonna see it and look at my phone.

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<v Speaker 10>The eighteenth, Sunday. Okay, there we go.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, all right, so today's July eighteen. This is I'm

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<v Speaker 1>pre recording a stream right now, So this people aren't

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<v Speaker 1>gonna actually hear your voice until August fourth.

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<v Speaker 10>Okay, honestly, I've tried call when you've been live, and

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<v Speaker 10>I just get so nervous at chicken out.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, this is kind of cool because you know, it's

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<v Speaker 1>funny you say that because a lot of the problems

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<v Speaker 1>that people a lot of the reason why people get

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<v Speaker 1>nervous is because when you call them live, like, people

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<v Speaker 1>are sort of afraid of what Chat is going to say.

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<v Speaker 1>But now there's no chat to look at. It's just

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<v Speaker 1>you and men. I mean there is. You can't see

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<v Speaker 1>it right now, beautiful. Why were you nervous to call in?

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<v Speaker 1>What were you nervous about?

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<v Speaker 10>Everything? I mean, I do, Oh, it's a generalized anxiety disorders.

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<v Speaker 10>So I'm just a nervous wreck. But I try to

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<v Speaker 10>overcome some of my anxiety by like pushing myself.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you I do you feel like maybe this is

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<v Speaker 1>completely wrong? Do you feel like you would have less anxiety?

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<v Speaker 1>Your life would feel more stable if you consistently knew

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<v Speaker 1>what day it was?

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<v Speaker 10>Probably? Honestly, when my kids are in school and I

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<v Speaker 10>have more structure, my anxiety is a lot lower.

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<v Speaker 1>So you're you're a stay at home mom. Yeah, and

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<v Speaker 1>is Zelda your dog?

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<v Speaker 10>Yes?

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<v Speaker 1>I can hear I can hear Zeldaer what kind of

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<v Speaker 1>dog are they?

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<v Speaker 10>Belgium Molinois and a German shepherd.

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<v Speaker 3>Say, like the fight?

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<v Speaker 1>What is I've never heard of a Belgium not a one.

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<v Speaker 1>Non In a.

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<v Speaker 10>While, A Belgian Malinois is like a cousin to a

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<v Speaker 10>German chef. They look like them. They're pretty big police

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<v Speaker 10>dogs too, so you might have confused in them.

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<v Speaker 1>For I know what Belgium is. But you totally made

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<v Speaker 1>up that second word.

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<v Speaker 10>No, I think I'm saying it ray. I didn't know

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<v Speaker 10>that the dog existed until.

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<v Speaker 1>Belgium, I will believe is a real place. But you

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<v Speaker 1>made up Belgium not.

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<v Speaker 10>Not a why Belgium Illinois?

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<v Speaker 1>Perfect Belgium Illinois? Where? Okay, so you're stay at home mom.

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<v Speaker 1>How many is you got too?

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<v Speaker 10>Too?

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<v Speaker 1>Do you like them? Oh? Them, that's not that's different.

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<v Speaker 1>I know you love them, but do you like them?

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<v Speaker 10>They're tolerable human beings?

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<v Speaker 1>Okay that's so far. So the answer is no. No,

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<v Speaker 1>Like they're tolerable human beings is not typically what you

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<v Speaker 1>would say about people you like.

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<v Speaker 10>Okay, try my husband works so much. I love him

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<v Speaker 10>and he's the best, and I'm usually just the one

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<v Speaker 10>left raising him, and I have no family at all

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<v Speaker 10>because they're all toxic and narcissic and opioid addicts and alcoholics,

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<v Speaker 10>so fuck all of them. Sure, so I pretty much

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<v Speaker 10>had been raising two little children on my own with

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<v Speaker 10>a little bit of help from my husband. So you

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<v Speaker 10>can only guess how exhausting it can get. And you

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<v Speaker 10>just want some key.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm sure that it's fucking really tough. I'm sure it's

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<v Speaker 1>extremely tough. What is the toughest part about it?

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<v Speaker 10>Starting them to be a decent human being with all

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<v Speaker 10>the negativity in the world.

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<v Speaker 1>M Okay tell me now, as you this is an

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<v Speaker 1>interesting thing as a parent because you know your child's

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<v Speaker 1>like a blank slate and you it's like your one

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<v Speaker 1>little corner of the universe where you're like, I can

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<v Speaker 1>I can guide this child, you know, I can guide

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<v Speaker 1>this child into a decent human being amidst all the

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<v Speaker 1>as you say, negativity in the world. What is your.

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<v Speaker 5>Like?

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<v Speaker 1>How would you define a decent human being? What is

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<v Speaker 1>your guideline? What is your checklist? Because you have to

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<v Speaker 1>have a gold in mind to direct them to it.

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<v Speaker 10>I want them to be kind to others, but not

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<v Speaker 10>tolerate bullshit and put effort into the things that they do.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you feel like you by the way, I think

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<v Speaker 1>that's a great criteria. Do you feel as though you

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<v Speaker 1>have spent a lot of time tolerating bullshit?

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<v Speaker 6>Yes?

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<v Speaker 13>Oh?

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<v Speaker 4>Yes, twenty nine years of it?

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<v Speaker 1>Can I hear an example?

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<v Speaker 10>Oh? Do you want the craziest or mildest?

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<v Speaker 1>Of course I want the craziest.

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<v Speaker 10>When I was seven, I had grown up with my grandparents.

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<v Speaker 10>My grandfather had PTSD and he was extremely drunk episode

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<v Speaker 10>and destroyed her house and through furniture and punched holes

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<v Speaker 10>in the walls, and so I was hiding under the

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<v Speaker 10>bed with my dog. Really, yeah, I've had a pretty

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<v Speaker 10>suck up.

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<v Speaker 1>And you were seven years old?

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<v Speaker 10>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>And he destroyed the house?

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<v Speaker 4>Oh yeah, not everywhere?

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<v Speaker 10>Broken glass, broken furniture.

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<v Speaker 1>Were you two the only people in the house, or

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<v Speaker 1>was like your mom there?

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<v Speaker 10>Or was my grandmother? But she's an ophioid addict, So

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<v Speaker 10>it was get out of there and let me be

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<v Speaker 10>terrible to you. If emotional and mental.

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<v Speaker 1>Abuse, that's heavy, that's heavy. I mean that's nice that

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<v Speaker 1>you had the dog though.

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<v Speaker 10>Oh yeah, she was my baby. She was a like

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<v Speaker 10>a beagle labiblon next, so she looks like an oversizinger dog.

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<v Speaker 1>Interesting. Well, this is I don't know if I'll say

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<v Speaker 1>this is cool, but I mean, I do think this

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<v Speaker 1>is cool that, you know, I know it's tough to

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<v Speaker 1>be a parent, but it's cool. I think that if

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<v Speaker 1>you come from a you know, you might have had

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<v Speaker 1>a not ideal childhood, now you have the opportunity to

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<v Speaker 1>give your kid a good one exactly. And I like

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<v Speaker 1>this because a lot of people, when they've been wronged,

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<v Speaker 1>they when you've been wronged, people can take one of

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<v Speaker 1>two routes. They either take the route of I have

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<v Speaker 1>been wronged, and I now will make it my duty

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<v Speaker 1>to wrong others as they have wronged me. And you

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<v Speaker 1>could do that so you could be like my parents.

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<v Speaker 1>Fucking parents were shitty to me, I would be shitty

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<v Speaker 1>to my kid. Fuck these people, and that happens a

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<v Speaker 1>lot of the times. But I like that you're taking

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<v Speaker 1>the other route, the other route that you can take,

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<v Speaker 1>which is I have been wronged. I know how it

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<v Speaker 1>feels to be wrong and I will never wrong another

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<v Speaker 1>person as I have been wronged. I will make it

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<v Speaker 1>my duty to right instead of wrong.

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<v Speaker 10>I like, well, what that reason? I won't tolerate other

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<v Speaker 10>people wronging me? Still mm hmmm.

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<v Speaker 1>No, but you're you're taking the negative energy that you've

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<v Speaker 1>you know, taken in and you're you know, exerting positiveness,

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<v Speaker 1>making a holistic Yes, you're breaking the cycle. You're creating

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<v Speaker 1>a cheesy holistic balance of goop.

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<v Speaker 10>Yes, exactly. I love it.

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<v Speaker 1>Beautiful. Would you say your name was Amber? Amber? Keep

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<v Speaker 1>it going? Talk to you soon, all right? By Ah?

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<v Speaker 1>What is this? I wish you I wish this was live. No, actually,

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<v Speaker 1>I like this being pre recorded. This is easy for me.

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<v Speaker 1>We have another call, let's keep going.

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<v Speaker 3>Call from q.

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<v Speaker 1>H Q. Hello, Hello, oh my god.

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<v Speaker 8>Q like like the letter.

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<v Speaker 1>Like q Annon, and am I on speakerphone right now?

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<v Speaker 8>No, you're not you're in my AirPod.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh your AirPods are terrible. How old are they hold?

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<v Speaker 8>I don't know, but I'm a I work on the beach,

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<v Speaker 8>so like they probably get like, I don't know.

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<v Speaker 1>Sand in them.

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<v Speaker 8>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>No, I can definitely hear a lot of sand in

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<v Speaker 1>between you and me right now.

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<v Speaker 8>Really?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, is there any way that you could take your

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<v Speaker 1>sandy AirPods off and but do you does your phone

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<v Speaker 1>have a lot of sand in it? Actually? I think

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<v Speaker 1>I think at their core computer do you know those?

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<v Speaker 1>I think at their core computers are actually made of sand, Like.

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<v Speaker 8>That's your computers are made of sand?

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<v Speaker 1>Like all right? You never you didn't like at the

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<v Speaker 1>in the natural world. You can't just go iPhone. You

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<v Speaker 1>have to start with what's there? And I think that

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<v Speaker 1>the germ of the idea of the computer with sand?

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<v Speaker 1>Can you can you really? Can you take your AirPods

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<v Speaker 1>out and try talking to me on your phone? Because I, oh, wait, hello, okay,

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<v Speaker 1>that's much better.

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<v Speaker 8>Well do you know what? Just call me?

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<v Speaker 1>Q is perfect. I don't know what you're trying. I

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<v Speaker 1>don't know what you're about to try to shorten that to.

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<v Speaker 8>But Q is yeah.

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<v Speaker 10>Que is it?

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<v Speaker 5>Like?

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<v Speaker 1>Is it like c U E or just the letter Q?

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<v Speaker 8>Like the letter Q like, uh, well, my it's the

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<v Speaker 8>initial my last name like queen. Well that's not my

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<v Speaker 8>last name.

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<v Speaker 1>But what is your life like?

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<v Speaker 10>Que my life?

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<v Speaker 8>Yeah, dude, Honestly, these past two years have been like ridiculous.

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<v Speaker 8>I I don't know, all of a sudden, no, I

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<v Speaker 8>left home, I lived in three different states. I came

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<v Speaker 8>back and now I'm a lifeguard on a beach.

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<v Speaker 10>I think that.

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<v Speaker 1>Is pretty cool.

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<v Speaker 8>Oh excuse my language, I'm sorry, say.

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<v Speaker 1>You can say kunt on here. We had a guy

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<v Speaker 1>just now who said he called me a cunt and

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<v Speaker 1>I called him a cunt and it was really nice. No, no, no, no, no,

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<v Speaker 1>you had to be there, trust me, it was nice.

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<v Speaker 6>It was.

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<v Speaker 1>It was actually a pretty good moment, you trust me.

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<v Speaker 8>I don't like that word. That's like the meanest, the coldest,

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<v Speaker 8>you know. Yeah, like I don't want to say that

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<v Speaker 8>to someone, almost like they really like pissed me off.

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<v Speaker 1>No, but okay, so he was Australian and he told

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<v Speaker 1>me that.

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<v Speaker 8>Oh I bet that was funny, hear.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, yeah, so he was Australian, and apparently in Australia,

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<v Speaker 1>when you call someone a cunt, it's a nice thing,

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<v Speaker 1>like it's like you're my friends.

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<v Speaker 8>Okay. I remember like traveling a few years ago and

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<v Speaker 8>I knew someone who was Australian who said that, and

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<v Speaker 8>I believe them because I was gullible. But now I

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<v Speaker 8>have another like verification that this is true.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, I mean I don't know that guy could have

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<v Speaker 1>been fucking with me too, and maybe that's just the

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<v Speaker 1>thing that Australians do to fuck with people.

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<v Speaker 8>I mean they're Australian. I like, I feel like if

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<v Speaker 8>you're Australian, you can kind of do whatever you want.

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<v Speaker 1>So your lifeguard on a beach, which sounds difficult to

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<v Speaker 1>me because being a lifeguard on a pool you have

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<v Speaker 1>a very limited vicinity to look over. But the beach,

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<v Speaker 1>I mean you're really just trying to watch the entire ocean.

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<v Speaker 8>Yeah, yeah, pretty much. You have to look out for

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<v Speaker 8>a fish and the way the ocean behaves and how

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<v Speaker 8>people are reacting to it, who's in your water, and

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<v Speaker 8>how they're swimming in front of you, which can show

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<v Speaker 8>them like whether or not they might drown and whether

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<v Speaker 8>or not you should take them out or pull them

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<v Speaker 8>in or whatever.

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<v Speaker 1>Have you ever had to save someone?

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<v Speaker 8>I was back so this is my first year because

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<v Speaker 8>I used to be in the military. As of a

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<v Speaker 8>few months ago, I'm not, but this is my first

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<v Speaker 8>year and I was back up to a rescue at

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<v Speaker 8>a stand neighboring mine. But when we got out there,

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<v Speaker 8>the swimmers decided that they didn't want to touch our equipment,

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<v Speaker 8>so we just kind of like swim in with them.

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<v Speaker 8>But we had a lot of lifeguards in the water.

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<v Speaker 8>We had two on powder words and I had my can.

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<v Speaker 1>Interesting.

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<v Speaker 10>Interesting, interesting?

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<v Speaker 1>Yes, So why are you no longer in the military?

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<v Speaker 1>Was it like you're I have no idea how the

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<v Speaker 1>military works with like your contract up or whatever the.

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<v Speaker 8>Hell Sure should happen, you know, sure.

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<v Speaker 1>I feel like sure that were you dishonorably discharged or something.

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<v Speaker 8>No, for what it's worth, whoever, I don't even know

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<v Speaker 8>if anyone will hear this, But if anyone hears this,

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<v Speaker 8>in order to get a dishonorable discharge, you have to

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<v Speaker 8>like kill someone or like sexually assault someone. You have

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<v Speaker 8>to do something bad, like really bad.

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<v Speaker 1>What O is there such thing as an honorable discharge?

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 8>Like I don't want to get one if you just

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<v Speaker 8>like get out regular, you know, okay.

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<v Speaker 1>Because that's something where like I feel like, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>in like the Civil War, like there's those war heroes

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<v Speaker 1>who like they disobeyed their commanding officer for like some

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<v Speaker 1>moral reason, and like so like maybe you could get

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<v Speaker 1>to charged with honor because you disobeyed somebody because you

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<v Speaker 1>knew it was the right thing to do.

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<v Speaker 8>Oh my god, I was on uh, I was on Reddit,

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<v Speaker 8>and this guy he like dropped his phone number to

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<v Speaker 8>talk about his discharge with other people because a lot

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<v Speaker 8>of like, there's a lot of military reddits. Anyway, he

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<v Speaker 8>got uh, other than honorable discharge for telling his captain

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<v Speaker 8>that he wanted to kill him.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know when he's got honorable discharge for telling

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<v Speaker 1>his captain who wanted to kill him?

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<v Speaker 8>No other than honorable? Oh th h that's like, so

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<v Speaker 8>there's how many I.

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<v Speaker 1>Didn't know there were several types of honor. I didn't

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<v Speaker 1>know there were several. There was, there's there's a dishonor

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<v Speaker 1>as a type of honor, honor as a type of honor,

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<v Speaker 1>but I did not know there was an other What

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<v Speaker 1>is this again other than honorable?

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<v Speaker 8>Yes, yes, so there's honorable general other than honorable and dishonorable.

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<v Speaker 1>What is other than honorable? Man, because it's not necessarily dishonorable.

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<v Speaker 8>Other than honorable means that you might have gotten into

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<v Speaker 8>some legal trouble that led to your discharge, So.

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<v Speaker 10>You get that.

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<v Speaker 8>I mean it kind of just depends on what surrounded

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<v Speaker 8>your discharge. If you got other than honorable, it basically

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<v Speaker 8>more more likely than not you got kicked out of

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<v Speaker 8>your branch.

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<v Speaker 1>Sounds very dishonorable. Maybe what did you say your anamals

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<v Speaker 1>que Que before we go? I'm kind of curious, like

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<v Speaker 1>where did you see the phone number? Like on Instagram?

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<v Speaker 8>So I saw you on TikTok way back when, and

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<v Speaker 8>then I recently started watching you on Twitch and I

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<v Speaker 8>listened to you while I'm sitting on the stand on

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<v Speaker 8>the beach and my lunch break and when you're live.

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<v Speaker 8>You know, I enjoy watching your your content.

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<v Speaker 1>Hell yeah, I I'm in. I wonder if I hope

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not like you know, some kid rownds, because you

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<v Speaker 1>were like really into some like conversation I was having

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<v Speaker 1>on here. No, no, but how did you know about Okay?

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<v Speaker 1>How did you know that I was taking calls right now?

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<v Speaker 5>Like?

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<v Speaker 1>Where did you see the phone number? Oh?

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<v Speaker 8>Discord? I love Discord. I had to be on your discord?

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<v Speaker 1>Beautiful, beautiful? Is there anything else you want to talk

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<v Speaker 1>about before we go? Que?

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<v Speaker 10>What?

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<v Speaker 8>What do you what do you tell yourself when you're

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<v Speaker 8>feeling like you're at rock bottom and like nothing nothing

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<v Speaker 8>can get any worse like this. It's ridiculous. Everything is

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<v Speaker 8>just sh shit is hitting the bananas, you know, fucking bananas.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm trying to think if I have a good answer

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<v Speaker 1>to that. One of the cool things about rock Bottom

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<v Speaker 1>is that there's no expectations, so you can do whatever

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<v Speaker 1>you want.

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<v Speaker 8>Oh hell yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>My my mantra lately has been, uh that the only

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<v Speaker 1>way out is through, so you know, I mean, who

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<v Speaker 1>the fuck said some president, some probably Civil war douche

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<v Speaker 1>said like, if you're going through hell, keep going. I

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<v Speaker 1>like that. I'll co sign on that if I'm allowed

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<v Speaker 1>to just answer your question by stealing someone else's things. Fun, Yeah, beautiful.

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<v Speaker 1>It's a pleasure talking to you. Q. You have a

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<v Speaker 1>good rest of the night.

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<v Speaker 8>Thank you, You too.

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<v Speaker 2>Goes on the line every night. Everything goes to teaching

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<v Speaker 2>your line. Many an expert