WEBVTT - Let's Be Enamored...with Katherine Heigl

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<v Speaker 1>This is Let's Be Clear with Shannon Doherty. Hi everyone,

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<v Speaker 1>welcome to a new episode of Let's Be Clear with

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<v Speaker 1>Shita and Doherty. I am over the moon right now

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<v Speaker 1>because I have somebody that I have admired for a

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<v Speaker 1>long time. Catherine Heigel, Like you guys know her twenty

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<v Speaker 1>seven dresses, knocked up like Grey's Anatomy, Barflying Lane. Just

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<v Speaker 1>her resume is insane, Hi, Kathy, but also she's insane.

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<v Speaker 1>She's definitely well, I should just say it to your face.

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<v Speaker 1>You're someone that I have definitely looked up to, and

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<v Speaker 1>I admire your strength. I admire you know, your perseverance

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<v Speaker 1>as a woman as an actor. You just the amount

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<v Speaker 1>of self respect you have and the caring you have

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<v Speaker 1>for you know, your other actors, like now as a

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<v Speaker 1>producer and really watching out for women is astonishing to me.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh my god. Well, I didn't know I was coming

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<v Speaker 2>in for this kind of intro. I'm very uh, I'm

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<v Speaker 2>feeling very very good about myself at this good. That

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<v Speaker 2>was so nice and means means what it means a lot.

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<v Speaker 2>Thank you.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah. Well, I mean listen, I had gone I sort

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<v Speaker 1>of there's a lot of similarities between us that aren't

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<v Speaker 1>instantly recognizable to a lot of people. But like when

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<v Speaker 1>I really looked at you and broke everything down, and

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<v Speaker 1>you know, I was like the biggest Grays fan and

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<v Speaker 1>Izzy and I was like, oh my god, we're really

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<v Speaker 1>getting Catherine on the show. I just sort of looked

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<v Speaker 1>at it and went, wow, there were there were only

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<v Speaker 1>a few women back then that stood up for themselves.

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<v Speaker 2>Well you were the original, right, Yeah, yeah, you know.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean I got fired for it multiple times. You know,

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<v Speaker 1>you just you kept going and it was really impressive.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, I don't know any person except for you

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<v Speaker 1>that turns down an Immy nomination.

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<v Speaker 2>Well I didn't, and everybody keeps saying that I didn't

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<v Speaker 2>turn it down. You know, you have to submit yourself.

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<v Speaker 2>You have to submit your work and then they deliberate

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<v Speaker 2>and then they decide if they want to give you

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<v Speaker 2>a nomination. I just didn't submit my work that year.

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<v Speaker 2>And I should you know, I don't know. My mother

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<v Speaker 2>and I were talking about this recently. I should have

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<v Speaker 2>said nothing. I should have said nothing. I should have

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<v Speaker 2>just said oh I forgot, because it created such a

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<v Speaker 2>maelstrom that was so unnecessary, and it really was. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>I was kind of trying to make a bit of

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<v Speaker 2>a snarky point about my material that year, but I

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<v Speaker 2>was also just not feeling my material. I didn't think

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<v Speaker 2>I had anything that warranted even the consideration for a nomination.

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<v Speaker 2>I just wasn't proud of my work. So it was really,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, I would never be so bold or so

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<v Speaker 2>arrogant to turn down a nomination. I would take that nomination.

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<v Speaker 2>I became my way. I'd be down, but I just knew,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, there wasn't anything that would really warrant one

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<v Speaker 2>that year, and I was trying to be honorable. I

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<v Speaker 2>guess I was trying to have some integrity. I wasn't

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<v Speaker 2>trying to be a dick.

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<v Speaker 1>But you know what's funny is that had it been

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<v Speaker 1>obviously a guy, they would have said like, oh, look

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<v Speaker 1>at how honorable he is, like and instead because you're

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<v Speaker 1>a woman, and you know, certainly back then it was

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<v Speaker 1>a lot different than it is now. Although I'm the

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<v Speaker 1>naysayer who's like, we haven't really changed that much in

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<v Speaker 1>the business, you guys, not a ton.

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<v Speaker 2>It's just a little more subversive now.

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<v Speaker 1>It's a little more Yes, yes, they like to be

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<v Speaker 1>a little bit more quiet about it. Of how you know,

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<v Speaker 1>the men still really lead the charge and women have

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<v Speaker 1>a role to play. And yes, there are brave women

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<v Speaker 1>like you that have bucked against that and said, not

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<v Speaker 1>even trying to be you know, arroant, which they want

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<v Speaker 1>to call you, not trying to be difficult do they

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<v Speaker 1>want to call you? I've been called all of these

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<v Speaker 1>things as well. I get that, but it's it's none

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<v Speaker 1>of that. It's the fact that you're just trying to

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<v Speaker 1>be truthful to yourself right and hold yourself to a

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<v Speaker 1>certain standards.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, it was always about that, and I'm very fortunate

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<v Speaker 2>I have my mother who has always been, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>my biggest support system and also my partner in all

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<v Speaker 2>of this. We are, you know, business partners, and so

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<v Speaker 2>I always had another strong woman who kind of had

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<v Speaker 2>my back and like somebody to bounce it off of.

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<v Speaker 2>And sometimes we would rile each other up, no doubt,

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<v Speaker 2>but most of the time it was like I just

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<v Speaker 2>felt like the right thing to do and the right

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<v Speaker 2>thing to say, and she was like, yeah, I got you,

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<v Speaker 2>You're right, you know. And so I don't know that

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<v Speaker 2>I would have been quite so forthright without the support,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, I would have been more afraid. I think,

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<v Speaker 2>but I don't know. It's shamed me for a long time.

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<v Speaker 2>I spent probably, I want to say, like all of

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<v Speaker 2>my mid thirties, oh like from thirty five to forty,

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<v Speaker 2>I spent just trying to be as quiet and as

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<v Speaker 2>polite and as sweet and as just kind of disappearing

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<v Speaker 2>as much as possible, and it still didn't work. So

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<v Speaker 2>then I, I don't know, I hit forty and I

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<v Speaker 2>went fuck this. But life is really too short, and

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<v Speaker 2>you know, I, like you said, I just want to

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<v Speaker 2>I just want to be true to myself. I'm not

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<v Speaker 2>trying to make I never never go out there with

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<v Speaker 2>the intention of ever making anybody else feel bad or

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<v Speaker 2>to bully them, or to upset them or hurt feelings.

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<v Speaker 2>That's so outside my intention. I'm sure I have on

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<v Speaker 2>occasion by mistake or accident, but I will. I don't

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<v Speaker 2>like being bullied either, and I don't have a very

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<v Speaker 2>sort of calm, political rational reaction to that. I tend

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<v Speaker 2>to I tend to get out my boxing gloves.

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<v Speaker 1>So yeah, I mean, I completely understand that. And again

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<v Speaker 1>I applaud you for it, because you know, like I was,

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<v Speaker 1>I think I was freshly fired off of charmed when

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<v Speaker 1>like Grays started and I watched it, and obviously I

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<v Speaker 1>was a big fan of the show. But then with

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<v Speaker 1>you and your character, there is such a vulnerability to

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<v Speaker 1>Izzy that you brought to that character, but also like

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<v Speaker 1>a strength to her that was very that I think women,

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<v Speaker 1>particularly young younger women needed that role to like see

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<v Speaker 1>and to really understand what you could do. And then

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<v Speaker 1>it wasn't about like sleeping your way somewhere, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>it was about her determination in her life, all done

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<v Speaker 1>in this you know, very funny way. There was just

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<v Speaker 1>such a humor about you on that show along with

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<v Speaker 1>the vulnerability that was like wow, you know, that's great,

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<v Speaker 1>Like what a character to have during that time.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, she was great. And I think that, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>so much of that is attributed to to Shonda and

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<v Speaker 2>her creation of these characters. So much of it is

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<v Speaker 2>attributed to the sort of lightning in a bottle of

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<v Speaker 2>that cast together at that time, which again was kind

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<v Speaker 2>of Shonda, you know, figuring out this. Some of it

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<v Speaker 2>is you can't know, you don't know how it's going

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<v Speaker 2>to quite kind of come together and how it's going

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<v Speaker 2>to work, but it just did. And then as I

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<v Speaker 2>think the writers got to know us more individually, like

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<v Speaker 2>Izzy sort of that's who I was at that age.

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<v Speaker 2>I mean I was twenty four, I think when the

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<v Speaker 2>show started, and I was thirty two maybe or thirty

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<v Speaker 2>one when I left. I was Izzy. You know, I

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<v Speaker 2>was really insecure. I was, but also I still had

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<v Speaker 2>that fight in me. I still didn't like it when

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<v Speaker 2>people kind of pushed me around or told me I

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<v Speaker 2>couldn't or told me I shouldn't or told me, you

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<v Speaker 2>know that I wouldn't be able to kind of think

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<v Speaker 2>I so a lot of who she was. And it

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<v Speaker 2>was funny because I wouldn't have said that at the time,

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<v Speaker 2>but now looking back at her, I think, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>that was that was kind of who I was. Then.

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<v Speaker 2>There was a lot of just young woman in security,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, just not really knowing if I had a

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<v Speaker 2>right to like take up space.

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<v Speaker 1>But also conviction, Like there just seemed to me with

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<v Speaker 1>you and your character that there was a lot of

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<v Speaker 1>conviction in being truthful and in doing what you know,

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<v Speaker 1>you really felt was right, whether it be cutting that

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<v Speaker 1>bad there you.

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<v Speaker 2>Go, Juriel bad. I will never not know that word.

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<v Speaker 1>But like that was, you know, for your character, that

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<v Speaker 1>was a huge thing and it really showed like your

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<v Speaker 1>love for this man and your conviction for what you

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<v Speaker 1>believed to be the right thing, which I always sort

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<v Speaker 1>of paralleled to you as a human of like, wow,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, Catherine's gonna stand up for what she really

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<v Speaker 1>believes is right, which, again, particularly for back then, that

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<v Speaker 1>was like a very big thing. And on an ensemble

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<v Speaker 1>cast for a show that sort of came out huge

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<v Speaker 1>right away, it was incredibly popular. I just you know

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<v Speaker 1>that that could not have been easy for you.

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<v Speaker 2>I think it was. It was easy until it wasn't,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, because there was a moment when it sort

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<v Speaker 2>of depended on what I was standing up for, right

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<v Speaker 2>So when I was sort of standing up for my

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<v Speaker 2>co star and you know, coming out against bigotry and

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<v Speaker 2>that sort of thing, it was, you know, applauded and appreciated.

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<v Speaker 2>When I stood for myself, it wasn't quite taken quite

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<v Speaker 2>the same way. And so then it stopped being easy

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<v Speaker 2>to be to do that, to speak my truth. Then

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<v Speaker 2>I then I just ship hell up as much as

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<v Speaker 2>I could for a long time, and I pretty much

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<v Speaker 2>just ran away. And so I love you so much

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<v Speaker 2>for speaking to my strength, But I wasn't. I think

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<v Speaker 2>sometimes I was, but I was also sometimes just deeply,

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<v Speaker 2>I just was deeply insecure and afraid that all those

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<v Speaker 2>opinions that had so quickly shifted were true, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>that those opinions meant more than my own opinion of myself.

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<v Speaker 2>And it took me till about forty to really to stop,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, to stop apologizing, to stop beating myself up

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<v Speaker 2>about it, to stop regretting the choices and decisions i'd

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<v Speaker 2>made in the things I'd said, and kind of just

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<v Speaker 2>learn and move forward. And it gave me a clarity

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<v Speaker 2>about like, Okay, there are some things I don't need

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<v Speaker 2>to get real mouthy about. You know, some things can

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<v Speaker 2>remain behind closed doors, but there are things I will

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<v Speaker 2>be very loud about and screw the consequences quite frankly.

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<v Speaker 2>Like it taught me that I just, yeah, I want

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<v Speaker 2>to be able to sleep at night like anybody else.

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<v Speaker 2>I want to not feel like I just played a

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<v Speaker 2>game the whole time. It's not a game to me.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, Hollywood is complicated. I'm sure many industries are,

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<v Speaker 2>but it's it's not a game. And I'm not a politician,

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<v Speaker 2>so I'm not good at that. I decided I don't

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<v Speaker 2>care if I am or not.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I mean I think if you think about back

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<v Speaker 1>then as well, those voices that were telling you that

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<v Speaker 1>you were wrong or you know, making you into a

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<v Speaker 1>villain or spoiled or whatever. If they, you know, the

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<v Speaker 1>majority of them, Let's face it, our networks will run

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<v Speaker 1>by men. And I think that from personally. I look

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<v Speaker 1>back and I'm like, well, they never really liked a

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<v Speaker 1>very strong woman. They really liked women to know their place.

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<v Speaker 1>Like I was told to, you know, shut up and

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<v Speaker 1>get on my mark multiple times by somebody at Aaron

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<v Speaker 1>Spellings Company, and I be like, wait, what you don't

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<v Speaker 1>pay me enough to do that. Yeah, you know, like

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<v Speaker 1>if you want me to be completely quiet and not

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<v Speaker 1>have an opinion, you have to pay me a lot

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<v Speaker 1>more money. So I sound better about going to work, right,

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<v Speaker 1>Otherwise I need to have an opinion. I need to

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<v Speaker 1>have a say. I need to, you know, stand up

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<v Speaker 1>for the fact that the crew is working way too

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<v Speaker 1>long of hours that you know, the actors were working

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<v Speaker 1>long hours. You know, sixteen hour days is insane because

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<v Speaker 1>what people don't realize is that it's you know, I

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<v Speaker 1>always lived an hour away from where I was filming,

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<v Speaker 1>so for me, it was really an eighteen hour day. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>at least at least and when you get home, you're

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<v Speaker 1>all like, you know, sped up and jack and you're

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<v Speaker 1>thinking about your day and what work you did, so

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<v Speaker 1>you can't go to bed right away. It's exhausting. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>and you just keep doing that five days a week,

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<v Speaker 1>and you know, your weekends, you end up having no life.

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<v Speaker 1>I know for us it was, you know, lots of

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<v Speaker 1>publicity on the weekends and photo shoots and when you

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<v Speaker 1>are that woman who finally looks at people and says,

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<v Speaker 1>this is enough. You cannot abuse the crew, you can't

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<v Speaker 1>abuse us as cast members, it doesn't go over so well.

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<v Speaker 2>No, it's bizarre. It's actually a bizarre reaction. To me,

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<v Speaker 2>I don't really totally understand it because I think, well,

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<v Speaker 2>whuldn't it save you money to do this more expediently,

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<v Speaker 2>Like what, I don't understand the reaction. You know, it's

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<v Speaker 2>such a strange industry and that it's business, but it's

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<v Speaker 2>creative and it's a creative collaboration. It's not a one woman,

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<v Speaker 2>one man show, not when it's television or film or

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<v Speaker 2>most Broadway. I mean, I'm sure there are a few

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<v Speaker 2>one woman shows that work, but this was this takes

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<v Speaker 2>everybody's collective effort and it's a million moving parts. I

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<v Speaker 2>understand that that that can take a minute to find

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<v Speaker 2>a rhythm, but it should take no more than a minute. Months,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, this is and it just costs them more

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<v Speaker 2>money in the long run. I never quite understood what

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<v Speaker 2>this sort of shut up and don't bite the hand

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<v Speaker 2>that feeds you mentality was. It was like, well, you're

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<v Speaker 2>just you're just wasting money, like as a sort of

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<v Speaker 2>producer inside, because I love producing and I like have

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<v Speaker 2>like I really love organization, and I'm like, I got

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<v Speaker 2>a plan, I got a plan. I know exactly how

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<v Speaker 2>we can do this. And it's like, no, let's make

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<v Speaker 2>it as chaotic and you know, crazy and exhausting and

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<v Speaker 2>dangerous and and cost as much as possible. That sounds

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<v Speaker 2>like a bad plan.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, let's move the camera thirty times for you know,

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<v Speaker 1>one scene. It's a very bizarre thing that I would

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<v Speaker 1>notice with some of our guest directors. They would come

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<v Speaker 1>in and it was it was as if they had

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<v Speaker 1>not worked before, even though they were successful and they

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<v Speaker 1>had worked, but they were all about like, this is

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<v Speaker 1>my time and I'm going to stretch it as much

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<v Speaker 1>as I want. And on like our fourteen, I would

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<v Speaker 1>be like, are you kidding? Yeah, Like we don't need

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<v Speaker 1>to do ten takes. We're all professionals here. We nailed

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<v Speaker 1>it on the first take. And why do you have

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<v Speaker 1>you know, four different close ups of me? Like my

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<v Speaker 1>face is not that interesting. We don't need this.

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<v Speaker 2>It only makes so many expressions.

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<v Speaker 1>Right, like it was. Really it would get very frustrating,

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<v Speaker 1>and I was pretty vocal about it. I also was,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, second season, I started directing, and I was

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<v Speaker 1>a really fast director. I was one of those that

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<v Speaker 1>you know, one time I wrapped before lunch. We started

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<v Speaker 1>at seven, I got done at twelve and they were like,

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<v Speaker 1>you can't wrap this early, and I was like, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>but I've already shot scenes from tomorrow, so like we're

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<v Speaker 1>not going to have anything to shoot tomorrow.

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<v Speaker 2>But they should love that.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, they should have loved that because.

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<v Speaker 2>It saves them so much money and production is crazy expensive,

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<v Speaker 2>I mean.

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<v Speaker 1>And it gives a crew a break, you know, all

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<v Speaker 1>of a sudden, they work safer and more efficiently, and

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<v Speaker 1>you know, the actors, when we're refreshed, we have time

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<v Speaker 1>to like go home and have a life and learn

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<v Speaker 1>our lines and our scene and our character more. We

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<v Speaker 1>have just more time to put into the show to

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<v Speaker 1>make it better. Yet it was like no, no, no,

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<v Speaker 1>you can't. You know, wrap before twelve hours and I

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<v Speaker 1>had no clue how to make it last until twelve hours.

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<v Speaker 1>It was like I just I can't. I can't do this,

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<v Speaker 1>Like it's going to be I'm going to be quick

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<v Speaker 1>and you guys are going to have to deal with it.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, you sound like my dream. So I want to

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<v Speaker 2>direct me.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm in Well, I'll direct you anytime. It would be

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<v Speaker 1>a huge honor. I got to ask you something because

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<v Speaker 1>another thing I admire about you. You have a animal

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<v Speaker 1>sanctuary and foundation. Correct we're supposed to have.

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<v Speaker 2>I keep trying to get my mother to kind of

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<v Speaker 2>slow down on the whole rescuing them ourselves thing. We

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<v Speaker 2>don't have a staff for that. We don't have you know,

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<v Speaker 2>we have a beautiful ranch here in Utah. I live

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<v Speaker 2>in Utah, and we have a kennel on the ranch

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<v Speaker 2>for like those cases that my mom just can't say

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<v Speaker 2>no to and cannot see them be put to death,

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<v Speaker 2>and we bring them up and we kind of give

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<v Speaker 2>them a safe place to stay until we can somebody

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<v Speaker 2>some other rescue or get them an adopted. But we

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<v Speaker 2>don't even have like really the structure for getting them

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<v Speaker 2>posted up for adoption or any of it. So we

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<v Speaker 2>end up with like my mother herself personally has fourteen

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<v Speaker 2>dogs she's almost eighty one, and I have six now,

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<v Speaker 2>and it's like, Okay, we need to recruit some people

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<v Speaker 2>to step in and help because we can't take them all.

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<v Speaker 2>But yes, we have an animal advocacy foundation my mother

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<v Speaker 2>really started and named after my brother, who was killed

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<v Speaker 2>in a car accident in eighty six, so a long

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<v Speaker 2>time ago, but it was my mother's way of feeling

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<v Speaker 2>like she could give him a legacy that he couldn't

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<v Speaker 2>give himself and do something that was really inspiring and

0:19:45.960 --> 0:19:48.600
<v Speaker 2>passionate for her and for me. We're just big animal

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<v Speaker 2>people and we have a huge crisis in our country.

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<v Speaker 2>And so for the last I wanst say, fifteen years

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<v Speaker 2>we've been you get, like my mother keeps saying, sort

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<v Speaker 2>of like the mafia, like once you're in, you're in,

0:20:02.359 --> 0:20:06.000
<v Speaker 2>you can't get out because once you know and you're

0:20:06.000 --> 0:20:09.600
<v Speaker 2>made aware and you see it, you can't you can't

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<v Speaker 2>turn away. So we just keep plugging along trying to

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<v Speaker 2>make a difference. It's tough. It's one of those problems

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<v Speaker 2>that there is a solution. It's just to get everybody

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<v Speaker 2>on board to move in that direction. It's difficult. There's

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<v Speaker 2>so many opinions and people involved, laws and lawmakers. But

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<v Speaker 2>we're trying. So Yeah, it's really passion.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I mean, I know it's really bad here in

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<v Speaker 1>Los Angeles that like Downy, and there's a couple of rescues,

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<v Speaker 1>not rescues, but shelters that are really bad. That the

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<v Speaker 1>rate that they uthanize the dogs is insane, Like the

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<v Speaker 1>dogs are there for a couple of days. I's held

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<v Speaker 1>in the back, not even seen.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, it's it's almost impossible. And I can't even blame

0:20:56.200 --> 0:20:59.840
<v Speaker 2>the shelter workers or the shelters. They are sewing over

0:20:59.880 --> 0:21:03.000
<v Speaker 2>the heads. They are so overwhelmed and these are not

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<v Speaker 2>My mom works with a lot of those shelters and

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<v Speaker 2>with Downey and with easily all.

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<v Speaker 1>Of it, Lancaster, all of those.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, and these people are trying so hard, but there

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<v Speaker 2>is there aren't enough people at this point to rescue

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<v Speaker 2>and adopt these dogs. There's more dogs than there are people,

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<v Speaker 2>and We recently talked to Matt who runs the ASPCA,

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<v Speaker 2>and he said, a big part of the problem is

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<v Speaker 2>the the housing in Los Angeles has now a lot

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<v Speaker 2>of it. A lot of the renters are not allowed

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<v Speaker 2>to have animals, so people are relinquishing their animals so

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<v Speaker 2>that they can get an apartment. And you know, here

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<v Speaker 2>we are, and the breeding is a problem, and the.

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<v Speaker 1>The Spade neuter laws not being upheld and forced.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I mean at this point they're putting down thousands,

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<v Speaker 2>thousands probably you know, every month. It's bad. And these

0:22:00.960 --> 0:22:06.119
<v Speaker 2>are adoptable, healthy animals. These are not you know, the complicated,

0:22:06.119 --> 0:22:11.680
<v Speaker 2>difficult animals, the vicious or sick or elderly. These are

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<v Speaker 2>like mothers with.

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<v Speaker 1>Puppies, mothers with puppies, that's correct. Like I think I

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<v Speaker 1>just reposted this woman Rita, who is a volunteer at

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<v Speaker 1>a couple of different shelters, and she really goes in

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<v Speaker 1>and plays with them and assesses them and you know,

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<v Speaker 1>if they are like a bite risk, that's a different story.

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<v Speaker 1>If they're this, they're that. But she really likes to

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<v Speaker 1>do videos of showing that these dogs are, you know, wonderful,

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<v Speaker 1>They're a wonderful addition, to a family. They may not

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<v Speaker 1>be a pure breed. Maybe they are, but because they

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<v Speaker 1>come from a shelter, if people aren't necessarily interested, which

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<v Speaker 1>I don't really understand. I'm like, you can go get

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<v Speaker 1>a German Shepherd from a shelter.

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<v Speaker 2>I know. It was really weird the other day up

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<v Speaker 2>here at my daughter's softball game there was a really

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<v Speaker 2>cute German Shepherd puppy and I went to pet them,

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<v Speaker 2>and you know, I said, did you did you rescue

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<v Speaker 2>because there are so many There are so many German

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<v Speaker 2>shepherds and so many beautiful German Shepherd puppies and so I,

0:23:12.840 --> 0:23:14.600
<v Speaker 2>you know, and he went, no, we got this one

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<v Speaker 2>from a breeder in Costa Rica. I went coast, like,

0:23:18.480 --> 0:23:20.280
<v Speaker 2>you went to Costa Rica to get a dog? We

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<v Speaker 2>have thousands in the shelters here that are like basically free, bro.

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, you might have to pay like a small

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<v Speaker 2>fee to the shelter, but like, it's just it's a

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<v Speaker 2>little insane to me, the idea that people are actually

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<v Speaker 2>like spending their money that like buying a dog that

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<v Speaker 2>might be a couple grand, when they could be rescuing

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<v Speaker 2>one that's equally as wonderful, equally as beautiful, equally as

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<v Speaker 2>perfect a family dog for like two hundred bucks. You know,

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<v Speaker 2>it's just kind of a here I go again with

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<v Speaker 2>my whole like budgeting. But I just I don't get it.

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<v Speaker 2>I think there's a real misconception about rescuing, which is

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<v Speaker 2>really unford fortunate. I thought by now that more people

0:24:03.200 --> 0:24:06.480
<v Speaker 2>would get it that, you know, the idea of like

0:24:06.520 --> 0:24:12.520
<v Speaker 2>a pure bread purchased dog is kind of a fallacy.

0:24:12.560 --> 0:24:18.399
<v Speaker 2>You can't purchase perfection, Like there's no guarantee that the

0:24:18.440 --> 0:24:20.399
<v Speaker 2>dog will I had Like before, I knew there was

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<v Speaker 2>a problem. Back when I was like nineteen, I bought

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<v Speaker 2>a miniature Schnauzer Romeo from a breeder in San Diego.

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<v Speaker 2>Purchased this dog from an upstanding breeder. He was the

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<v Speaker 2>weirdest looking Schauzer like with his like crazy long back legs,

0:24:37.520 --> 0:24:41.800
<v Speaker 2>and he was real curmudgeony. You know, you're not guaranteeing

0:24:41.880 --> 0:24:45.000
<v Speaker 2>some kind of perfect animal if you buy it, Like,

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know if people just don't realize that. I

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<v Speaker 2>don't know if it's a status thing. I don't know

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<v Speaker 2>what it is. I wish I could just get megaphone

0:24:54.240 --> 0:24:55.200
<v Speaker 2>and explain.

0:24:55.080 --> 0:24:58.520
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, but it's it is from you know, a totally

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<v Speaker 1>different like decade that just keeps on rolling over because

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<v Speaker 1>I know, you know, I did the same thing. I

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<v Speaker 1>got a German shepherd from Germany. You know, paid an

0:25:08.359 --> 0:25:12.639
<v Speaker 1>astronomical amount. Was she amazing? Yes, she was? She was.

0:25:12.760 --> 0:25:15.600
<v Speaker 1>She came trained. You know, you could not get near

0:25:15.680 --> 0:25:19.119
<v Speaker 1>me without that dog, you know, growling at you or

0:25:19.200 --> 0:25:22.600
<v Speaker 1>warning you to back off. I felt very safe around her.

0:25:24.600 --> 0:25:27.960
<v Speaker 1>You know. When I got married, my husband at the

0:25:27.960 --> 0:25:32.360
<v Speaker 1>time gave me a new German Shepherd because my other

0:25:32.400 --> 0:25:35.240
<v Speaker 1>German shepherd had passed. And yes, she comes from a

0:25:35.280 --> 0:25:39.920
<v Speaker 1>breeder in Germany. But I'm like, I love my dog

0:25:40.000 --> 0:25:42.480
<v Speaker 1>more than anything else in the world. I just wish

0:25:42.640 --> 0:25:46.520
<v Speaker 1>that she was not so high strung, which is what

0:25:46.560 --> 0:25:49.000
<v Speaker 1>you get from a lot of these breeders. You get

0:25:49.000 --> 0:25:52.160
<v Speaker 1>the dog that's like a little off mentally, a little

0:25:52.200 --> 0:25:55.480
<v Speaker 1>too aggressive to this to that, Because then I would have,

0:25:55.640 --> 0:25:59.159
<v Speaker 1>you know, twenty dogs running around my property versus you know,

0:25:59.320 --> 0:26:01.800
<v Speaker 1>one who if she sees another dog, she's in a

0:26:02.040 --> 0:26:06.240
<v Speaker 1>lunge and try to kill it. Yeah, but that mentality

0:26:06.320 --> 0:26:09.320
<v Speaker 1>does come from a different decade. I think it comes

0:26:09.359 --> 0:26:12.560
<v Speaker 1>from like the nineties, where it was a little bit

0:26:12.600 --> 0:26:16.080
<v Speaker 1>more about decadence and status and all of that. But

0:26:16.240 --> 0:26:21.080
<v Speaker 1>we're in the two thousands. Why we don't understand that

0:26:21.560 --> 0:26:25.439
<v Speaker 1>every single time that we get from a breeder a dog,

0:26:26.040 --> 0:26:30.000
<v Speaker 1>that we're taking away the life of probably ten dogs.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I think there's a like a odd discrepancy between

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<v Speaker 2>you know, this little beautiful dog that you're looking at

0:26:36.960 --> 0:26:40.040
<v Speaker 2>that you got from your breeder and being able to

0:26:40.080 --> 0:26:43.680
<v Speaker 2>see that there are hundreds of them just like your

0:26:43.720 --> 0:26:45.800
<v Speaker 2>dog that you love so much that you would do

0:26:45.800 --> 0:26:50.360
<v Speaker 2>anything for suffering. It's like it's like you can't kind

0:26:50.359 --> 0:26:52.520
<v Speaker 2>of put the two together or something. A lot of

0:26:52.520 --> 0:26:56.199
<v Speaker 2>people and I didn't you know until I It was

0:26:56.240 --> 0:26:57.920
<v Speaker 2>like a random thing. My mom went to go get

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<v Speaker 2>her nails done and saw sign on the salon door

0:27:00.359 --> 0:27:04.520
<v Speaker 2>about like a rescue meeting, uh, you know, help meeting donations,

0:27:04.560 --> 0:27:06.480
<v Speaker 2>and she was like, oh, I can help, And she

0:27:06.520 --> 0:27:08.880
<v Speaker 2>wrote a check, but she forgot to sign it. So

0:27:09.119 --> 0:27:11.680
<v Speaker 2>the woman who ran the rescue was at her door

0:27:11.680 --> 0:27:13.439
<v Speaker 2>like the next day, you know, because they need that

0:27:13.480 --> 0:27:16.359
<v Speaker 2>money so badly. And so they struck up kind of

0:27:16.359 --> 0:27:18.879
<v Speaker 2>a friendship and a relationship, and my mother became more

0:27:18.880 --> 0:27:20.680
<v Speaker 2>and more aware than made me more and more aware

0:27:20.760 --> 0:27:27.200
<v Speaker 2>she's really good at lecturing me, and yeah, I guess.

0:27:27.920 --> 0:27:30.000
<v Speaker 2>And then I was like, oh, well, no, I can't

0:27:30.000 --> 0:27:32.800
<v Speaker 2>turn back, you know, because I had purchased three of

0:27:32.880 --> 0:27:35.680
<v Speaker 2>the dogs I've had, yeah, and all Schnauzer's always like

0:27:35.720 --> 0:27:38.879
<v Speaker 2>a Schnauzer person, and thinking that was the only way.

0:27:38.960 --> 0:27:42.879
<v Speaker 2>And then now it's like I can. I say to

0:27:42.920 --> 0:27:45.240
<v Speaker 2>my friends all the time, if you're, you know, ready

0:27:45.240 --> 0:27:46.560
<v Speaker 2>for a dog, or if you want a family dog,

0:27:46.640 --> 0:27:49.560
<v Speaker 2>or if you want another family dog when one has passed,

0:27:49.640 --> 0:27:53.040
<v Speaker 2>just call. We can get you pretty much anything for rescue.

0:27:53.760 --> 0:27:58.760
<v Speaker 2>Like it's crazy. There's so many purebreads and purebread rescues

0:27:58.800 --> 0:28:04.240
<v Speaker 2>out there. There's no at this point, there's really no

0:28:06.280 --> 0:28:10.959
<v Speaker 2>reason to purchase unless you're purchasing like a fully trained

0:28:10.960 --> 0:28:13.560
<v Speaker 2>because you're gonna pay for that regardless of what we trained. Thought.

0:28:15.600 --> 0:28:17.760
<v Speaker 2>Mine are like a one back there on my bed,

0:28:17.800 --> 0:28:23.960
<v Speaker 2>but he's wearing his diaper because he's not trained. He's old.

0:28:24.400 --> 0:28:26.119
<v Speaker 2>And it's not because he's old that he peeces all

0:28:26.119 --> 0:28:30.960
<v Speaker 2>over my house. It's because he's not tracked. But I'm

0:28:31.000 --> 0:28:33.239
<v Speaker 2>okay with that. Some people are not, so, you know,

0:28:33.400 --> 0:28:36.120
<v Speaker 2>but I think that, yeah, I think at this point

0:28:36.200 --> 0:28:39.840
<v Speaker 2>I'm just trying to be as loud about it as

0:28:39.840 --> 0:28:44.440
<v Speaker 2>I can be without being like, without turning everybody off.

0:28:44.680 --> 0:28:47.760
<v Speaker 1>You know, Yeah, that's that is a big thing. People are,

0:28:48.400 --> 0:28:50.920
<v Speaker 1>you know, they don't want to be hit over the

0:28:50.960 --> 0:28:53.760
<v Speaker 1>head with the information. You have to feed it to

0:28:53.800 --> 0:28:57.080
<v Speaker 1>them in just the right way. Yet I know that

0:28:57.320 --> 0:29:02.360
<v Speaker 1>my personality is I get so upset and emotional about it.

0:29:02.440 --> 0:29:05.240
<v Speaker 1>Like I do a lot of stuff with wild horses

0:29:06.080 --> 0:29:10.320
<v Speaker 1>and just horses in general, and I'm astonished at the

0:29:10.400 --> 0:29:15.400
<v Speaker 1>amount of horses that end up in slaughter pins because

0:29:15.760 --> 0:29:19.800
<v Speaker 1>the people can't care for the horse anymore, or because

0:29:20.520 --> 0:29:22.760
<v Speaker 1>they never took care of it properly, so now it's

0:29:22.760 --> 0:29:26.440
<v Speaker 1>got a bad leg. Yet they don't really understand that

0:29:26.440 --> 0:29:28.680
<v Speaker 1>that horse they're dropping it off at a slaughter pin,

0:29:28.840 --> 0:29:32.800
<v Speaker 1>it's not going anywhere good. Is going to Mexico where

0:29:32.840 --> 0:29:37.800
<v Speaker 1>they dismember it alive. So like, that's what you're doing

0:29:38.240 --> 0:29:42.400
<v Speaker 1>to your horse that has maybe you know, helped you

0:29:42.520 --> 0:29:45.320
<v Speaker 1>plow the fields for years and years and years. And

0:29:45.360 --> 0:29:49.720
<v Speaker 1>then our wild horses. It's insane to me that we

0:29:49.800 --> 0:29:53.520
<v Speaker 1>have a government that rounds up the wild horses, like

0:29:53.560 --> 0:29:56.880
<v Speaker 1>the very fabric of what this country is about right,

0:29:58.240 --> 0:30:01.520
<v Speaker 1>cowboys and Indians and horses and all of that. There's books,

0:30:01.560 --> 0:30:06.120
<v Speaker 1>there's poems, there's songs written about it. So what's interesting

0:30:06.160 --> 0:30:09.840
<v Speaker 1>to me is that we have somehow become a little

0:30:09.920 --> 0:30:16.240
<v Speaker 1>desensitized to what we do to our animals. It's almost like, oh, well,

0:30:16.640 --> 0:30:18.920
<v Speaker 1>you know, there's a clock on their life and it's time,

0:30:19.080 --> 0:30:20.880
<v Speaker 1>so let me just drop them off with the shelter.

0:30:21.000 --> 0:30:22.160
<v Speaker 1>Let me just drop them off it.

0:30:23.080 --> 0:30:26.840
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, it's shocking. You would love my mother. And anytime

0:30:26.920 --> 0:30:28.600
<v Speaker 2>you want to come up to Utah and ride any

0:30:28.600 --> 0:30:32.120
<v Speaker 2>of our horses, just come or thank you. We have

0:30:32.320 --> 0:30:35.440
<v Speaker 2>three wild horses on our ranch now from the on achy.

0:30:35.600 --> 0:30:38.280
<v Speaker 2>We tried, we tried really hard to stop that roundup

0:30:38.280 --> 0:30:42.600
<v Speaker 2>and we couldn't. And so all the people involved, there

0:30:42.680 --> 0:30:44.920
<v Speaker 2>was lots of us, and every one of us rescued

0:30:45.760 --> 0:30:48.240
<v Speaker 2>or took at least one or two so that they

0:30:48.280 --> 0:30:53.600
<v Speaker 2>would not go to the slaughter pens. It's horrifying. It

0:30:53.640 --> 0:30:58.720
<v Speaker 2>gives me chills. The lack of empathy and compassion to me,

0:30:58.840 --> 0:31:03.000
<v Speaker 2>it's it's barbaric, and it makes me so angry, and

0:31:03.080 --> 0:31:08.520
<v Speaker 2>I don't know sometimes how to even That's why I

0:31:08.600 --> 0:31:10.360
<v Speaker 2>hide in Utah. I just I don't know how to

0:31:10.360 --> 0:31:12.280
<v Speaker 2>deal with the world that can behave like this. So

0:31:12.360 --> 0:31:16.920
<v Speaker 2>many people drop old sick dogs at the shelter after

0:31:17.400 --> 0:31:20.680
<v Speaker 2>spending that dog's whole life with them, and then you

0:31:20.800 --> 0:31:22.720
<v Speaker 2>just abandon them when they're old and sick and not

0:31:22.800 --> 0:31:25.640
<v Speaker 2>you know, like play fetch anymore. Like it makes me

0:31:26.120 --> 0:31:30.360
<v Speaker 2>I have no patience for that. I have no compassion.

0:31:30.400 --> 0:31:34.080
<v Speaker 2>I suppose I should. Everybody has complicated lives, but I

0:31:34.120 --> 0:31:37.160
<v Speaker 2>hate the idea of treating the innocent and the voiceless

0:31:37.240 --> 0:31:41.920
<v Speaker 2>as if we aren't responsible for them, as if tecting

0:31:41.960 --> 0:31:44.200
<v Speaker 2>them then our responsibility.

0:31:43.720 --> 0:31:45.719
<v Speaker 1>So as if that person would want to be you know,

0:31:46.040 --> 0:31:48.280
<v Speaker 1>dropped off. Like I look at myself and I'm like, well,

0:31:48.840 --> 0:31:51.719
<v Speaker 1>I have cancer. You know, my cancer keeps on getting worse.

0:31:52.120 --> 0:31:56.440
<v Speaker 1>I can't imagine if my mom, who essentially like lives

0:31:56.440 --> 0:32:01.200
<v Speaker 1>with me basically three days week she's not here, but

0:32:01.320 --> 0:32:03.360
<v Speaker 1>the rest of the time she's here, so she lives

0:32:03.360 --> 0:32:06.360
<v Speaker 1>with me. I can't imagine her being like, oh god,

0:32:06.440 --> 0:32:09.080
<v Speaker 1>it's just too exhausting to deal with Shannon in her cancer.

0:32:09.160 --> 0:32:12.680
<v Speaker 1>I'm done, you know, like, who oh my god.

0:32:13.080 --> 0:32:15.960
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, that's a great analogy actually, because maybe that will

0:32:16.000 --> 0:32:21.800
<v Speaker 2>make people really understand it because we're talking about I mean,

0:32:21.880 --> 0:32:26.160
<v Speaker 2>I can get real like philosophical and go off into

0:32:26.200 --> 0:32:29.800
<v Speaker 2>like weird spirit realms and stuff, but I truly believe

0:32:31.000 --> 0:32:34.560
<v Speaker 2>that these creatures are of the same sort of divine

0:32:35.160 --> 0:32:40.840
<v Speaker 2>or universal or positive energetic energy that we all are

0:32:40.880 --> 0:32:44.600
<v Speaker 2>that runs through this whole world we have the great

0:32:44.640 --> 0:32:49.200
<v Speaker 2>blessing of getting to live in and especially you know,

0:32:50.280 --> 0:32:55.760
<v Speaker 2>here in Utah. But I just can't. I can't wrap

0:32:55.840 --> 0:32:58.400
<v Speaker 2>my brain around people who just don't seem to understand

0:32:58.480 --> 0:33:03.360
<v Speaker 2>that significance or oh, it's just an animal, it's like,

0:33:03.680 --> 0:33:08.200
<v Speaker 2>but it's still feelings, and it feels pain and fear

0:33:09.320 --> 0:33:15.440
<v Speaker 2>and loneliness, and you can't relate human like, what's the

0:33:15.520 --> 0:33:18.800
<v Speaker 2>problem here. I don't know. I'm that's one of those

0:33:18.800 --> 0:33:20.040
<v Speaker 2>things I'll get real mouthing about.

0:33:20.720 --> 0:33:23.000
<v Speaker 1>Well, no, because it's true. It's like, all right, well,

0:33:23.040 --> 0:33:26.280
<v Speaker 1>you know you go to Yulin and be burned alive

0:33:26.520 --> 0:33:30.000
<v Speaker 1>and do all of this stuff. It's again, you're right,

0:33:30.040 --> 0:33:33.600
<v Speaker 1>we have no empathy or some people, the majority of people,

0:33:33.720 --> 0:33:38.040
<v Speaker 1>it seems, are devoid of empathy anymore for animals, for

0:33:38.200 --> 0:33:40.880
<v Speaker 1>living things. And you know, I'm certainly not preachy where

0:33:40.880 --> 0:33:42.760
<v Speaker 1>I'm like, oh, you should all be vegans. You should

0:33:42.760 --> 0:33:47.240
<v Speaker 1>be vegetarians, like I'm not. I go back and forth

0:33:47.320 --> 0:33:51.920
<v Speaker 1>from trying to be a vegetarian too then feeling like, Okay,

0:33:52.000 --> 0:33:55.240
<v Speaker 1>my body needs a little bit more protein. So it's

0:33:55.320 --> 0:34:00.720
<v Speaker 1>not about being preachy. It's about putting yourself in a

0:34:00.720 --> 0:34:05.200
<v Speaker 1>a animal shoes who that you know feels all of

0:34:05.200 --> 0:34:07.000
<v Speaker 1>these things. I mean they all feel these things, but

0:34:07.640 --> 0:34:11.080
<v Speaker 1>that you bring into your home, that you nurture, you love,

0:34:11.239 --> 0:34:15.600
<v Speaker 1>They spend time with your children, They are part of

0:34:15.640 --> 0:34:19.239
<v Speaker 1>your life for so long. And then you're like, well

0:34:19.480 --> 0:34:21.879
<v Speaker 1>I just don't have time for this dog, or oh

0:34:21.920 --> 0:34:24.960
<v Speaker 1>I have to move and the place I found doesn't

0:34:25.000 --> 0:34:27.880
<v Speaker 1>accept animals. It's like, well, we'll look somewhere else.

0:34:28.040 --> 0:34:29.480
<v Speaker 2>You'll find somewhere else.

0:34:29.680 --> 0:34:31.400
<v Speaker 1>Well, you know, maybe you don't get to be in

0:34:31.440 --> 0:34:33.799
<v Speaker 1>that neighborhood, maybe you go to a different neighborhood, but

0:34:33.920 --> 0:34:39.080
<v Speaker 1>you'll find something. They don't just abandon a family member.

0:34:39.280 --> 0:34:42.000
<v Speaker 2>And I wonder if people really understand too. And it's

0:34:42.040 --> 0:34:46.719
<v Speaker 2>misleading when we say shelter. We think safe shelter, a

0:34:46.800 --> 0:34:49.480
<v Speaker 2>place they can be and be safe. That's not what

0:34:49.560 --> 0:34:52.520
<v Speaker 2>our shelters are anymore. I don't know if they ever were,

0:34:52.560 --> 0:34:56.080
<v Speaker 2>but they certainly aren't now. They are where they house

0:34:56.160 --> 0:35:02.759
<v Speaker 2>them uncomfortably in pens and cages with massive amounts of

0:35:02.800 --> 0:35:05.560
<v Speaker 2>them barking and freaking out and scared for just a

0:35:05.600 --> 0:35:07.640
<v Speaker 2>few days until they killed them in the back room.

0:35:09.040 --> 0:35:11.520
<v Speaker 2>So that's what that's We need to change the name.

0:35:12.560 --> 0:35:16.080
<v Speaker 2>It needs to be called prison for animals with you know,

0:35:16.400 --> 0:35:21.160
<v Speaker 2>an an inherent death sentence. So I don't know, maybe

0:35:21.160 --> 0:35:24.480
<v Speaker 2>people don't realize that. I know. I mean I've been

0:35:24.480 --> 0:35:27.800
<v Speaker 2>in situations where I took an older dog from a

0:35:27.840 --> 0:35:30.680
<v Speaker 2>really lovely older woman in Rhode Island when I was

0:35:30.719 --> 0:35:33.839
<v Speaker 2>working there, and I had hoped the sign was part

0:35:33.840 --> 0:35:37.640
<v Speaker 2>of the props, like set design and looking for a

0:35:37.680 --> 0:35:41.560
<v Speaker 2>home for my old one hundred and Mojo was like

0:35:41.600 --> 0:35:46.200
<v Speaker 2>one hundred and eighty pounds or something shepherd mix. I

0:35:46.200 --> 0:35:49.799
<v Speaker 2>can no longer keep him, and I was like, who

0:35:49.840 --> 0:35:52.840
<v Speaker 2>would do that? He's old and he's huge, Like who's

0:35:52.880 --> 0:35:56.000
<v Speaker 2>going to take this dog? When I met her, you know,

0:35:56.200 --> 0:35:58.279
<v Speaker 2>she had lost her job, she needed to move in

0:35:58.320 --> 0:36:00.920
<v Speaker 2>with her daughters. They lived in a place where they

0:36:00.960 --> 0:36:03.400
<v Speaker 2>could not have an animal, certainly not that size, and

0:36:03.440 --> 0:36:06.400
<v Speaker 2>she had a young son who with a disability and

0:36:06.400 --> 0:36:08.600
<v Speaker 2>he was in a wheelchair and he was so attached

0:36:08.600 --> 0:36:11.640
<v Speaker 2>to this dog, but because of his living situation, he

0:36:11.680 --> 0:36:14.600
<v Speaker 2>couldn't take him either, because he was in an assisted

0:36:14.640 --> 0:36:19.000
<v Speaker 2>living situation. It was the most awful. I said, I

0:36:19.000 --> 0:36:22.160
<v Speaker 2>will take your dog, and they brought him. I was

0:36:22.200 --> 0:36:24.640
<v Speaker 2>so sad. And they brought him to set and they

0:36:25.280 --> 0:36:27.800
<v Speaker 2>took ad bite to him, and it was so awful.

0:36:27.880 --> 0:36:31.919
<v Speaker 2>And this poor kid was just devastated. And his mother

0:36:32.000 --> 0:36:33.799
<v Speaker 2>was devastated because she didn't want to do this to

0:36:33.880 --> 0:36:36.560
<v Speaker 2>him either, but she didn't have a choice. And that

0:36:36.640 --> 0:36:40.240
<v Speaker 2>dog sat in my trailer and just toweled for hours.

0:36:40.480 --> 0:36:43.440
<v Speaker 2>It was I don't know that he ever really recovered.

0:36:43.480 --> 0:36:46.320
<v Speaker 2>It was so sad. But that's like, that's what I

0:36:46.360 --> 0:36:50.839
<v Speaker 2>think people are missing when they do it cavalierly. You know,

0:36:51.280 --> 0:36:55.080
<v Speaker 2>this dog only knows you, only loves you, feels its

0:36:55.160 --> 0:36:58.640
<v Speaker 2>life purpose is to be your companion. And so when

0:36:58.640 --> 0:37:03.840
<v Speaker 2>you abandon it, it doesn't un understand, It doesn't know why,

0:37:03.960 --> 0:37:07.640
<v Speaker 2>you know, it doesn't have the ability to. It must

0:37:07.640 --> 0:37:09.520
<v Speaker 2>have been just too much for him. They don't they

0:37:10.040 --> 0:37:11.880
<v Speaker 2>just wait, they wait for you to return.

0:37:12.600 --> 0:37:15.080
<v Speaker 1>No, they're getting dumped at a shelter that I can't

0:37:15.120 --> 0:37:18.200
<v Speaker 1>remember the name of the shelter, But it wasn't that

0:37:18.320 --> 0:37:20.640
<v Speaker 1>long ago. It was like maybe a month ago or

0:37:20.719 --> 0:37:26.080
<v Speaker 1>something where it came out that they weren't even using

0:37:27.200 --> 0:37:31.400
<v Speaker 1>the uh you know, the shot that they give before

0:37:31.400 --> 0:37:34.560
<v Speaker 1>they euthanize the dog in order to like calm it

0:37:34.600 --> 0:37:36.920
<v Speaker 1>down where it doesn't feel the pain of the the

0:37:37.000 --> 0:37:39.080
<v Speaker 1>nation of like going through his body, because that basically

0:37:39.320 --> 0:37:43.040
<v Speaker 1>like stops their heart and it's not pleasant. So this

0:37:43.120 --> 0:37:46.879
<v Speaker 1>place wasn't even using that. So these dogs were being

0:37:46.920 --> 0:37:49.879
<v Speaker 1>put down in a in an even more cruel way,

0:37:50.680 --> 0:37:52.680
<v Speaker 1>being walked to the back and then just shot up

0:37:52.680 --> 0:37:54.799
<v Speaker 1>with something that like sees their heart and.

0:37:55.120 --> 0:37:57.919
<v Speaker 2>It's like become now just like a like a factory work,

0:37:58.320 --> 0:38:00.200
<v Speaker 2>you know, just get them out, get them out, get

0:38:00.239 --> 0:38:01.600
<v Speaker 2>them out. We don't have around, we don't have room,

0:38:01.600 --> 0:38:03.520
<v Speaker 2>we don't have a room. It's like, I don't even know.

0:38:03.560 --> 0:38:06.320
<v Speaker 2>I feel so horrible and bad for the shelter workers

0:38:06.320 --> 0:38:07.719
<v Speaker 2>in a way, because I don't even know how you

0:38:08.600 --> 0:38:10.960
<v Speaker 2>what happens to your heart in a situation like that,

0:38:11.080 --> 0:38:13.920
<v Speaker 2>Like how much do you have to just desensitize yourself

0:38:14.000 --> 0:38:17.239
<v Speaker 2>just to get through your job and do this horrible thing?

0:38:18.440 --> 0:38:20.680
<v Speaker 2>But here in Utah we had until last year, we

0:38:20.719 --> 0:38:27.399
<v Speaker 2>had gas chambers and I was like, I'm sorry, what

0:38:28.719 --> 0:38:32.399
<v Speaker 2>it's twenty twenty three, what are you doing? You know what?

0:38:32.719 --> 0:38:34.640
<v Speaker 2>And it was like, you know, it was kind of

0:38:34.640 --> 0:38:37.319
<v Speaker 2>a fight because of the old cowboy mentality around here,

0:38:37.360 --> 0:38:42.359
<v Speaker 2>and you know, well we got them to ban them.

0:38:42.400 --> 0:38:45.600
<v Speaker 2>So that was a huge win. I'm incredibly grateful for,

0:38:45.800 --> 0:38:48.800
<v Speaker 2>you know, my Grebner and the people who really stepped

0:38:48.840 --> 0:38:50.480
<v Speaker 2>up to help me fight that.

0:38:50.480 --> 0:38:51.480
<v Speaker 1>That is a huge win.

0:38:52.160 --> 0:38:54.160
<v Speaker 2>It was crazy. We were one of three states that

0:38:54.239 --> 0:38:56.000
<v Speaker 2>still did this, and I was like, how can you

0:38:56.040 --> 0:39:01.279
<v Speaker 2>do this in this place, this sacred place, Like this

0:39:01.640 --> 0:39:06.799
<v Speaker 2>place is so extraordinary and beautiful and you feel so

0:39:07.040 --> 0:39:09.680
<v Speaker 2>connected to nature here. How can you do this? Like

0:39:10.680 --> 0:39:14.440
<v Speaker 2>what a horrible mark you're leaving on this great place.

0:39:27.680 --> 0:39:31.040
<v Speaker 2>I wanted to ask you a question about about your cancer.

0:39:31.200 --> 0:39:32.800
<v Speaker 2>How long have you had cancer, Shannon?

0:39:34.480 --> 0:39:39.640
<v Speaker 1>I got cancer in twenty fifteen. Okay, it went to

0:39:39.719 --> 0:39:43.520
<v Speaker 1>remission I think right at the end of twenty seventeen

0:39:43.600 --> 0:39:47.759
<v Speaker 1>or at the beginning of twenty eighteen, and then it

0:39:47.800 --> 0:39:53.560
<v Speaker 1>came back in twenty nineteen. Is stage four, yeah, breast cancer,

0:39:54.000 --> 0:39:58.839
<v Speaker 1>breast cancer, but then it spread to my bones, and

0:39:59.120 --> 0:40:02.440
<v Speaker 1>from there it's to my brain. Like last year, I

0:40:02.520 --> 0:40:06.439
<v Speaker 1>had brain surgery, so they had to you know open

0:40:06.520 --> 0:40:09.799
<v Speaker 1>up and remove one of the larger tumors so that

0:40:09.880 --> 0:40:13.239
<v Speaker 1>they could you know, test its pathology and all of that,

0:40:13.880 --> 0:40:17.200
<v Speaker 1>and then I had brain radiation. Thank god, it was

0:40:17.239 --> 0:40:22.319
<v Speaker 1>like vocal radiation. But you know, it's something that it

0:40:24.480 --> 0:40:26.680
<v Speaker 1>I did it on the podcast. I talked about it.

0:40:27.200 --> 0:40:30.920
<v Speaker 1>That just was out because it's it's you know, there's

0:40:31.160 --> 0:40:35.319
<v Speaker 1>so many protocols. Eventually it's it's stage four cancer, Like

0:40:35.440 --> 0:40:38.799
<v Speaker 1>eventually those protocols are going to start working and you

0:40:38.960 --> 0:40:43.680
<v Speaker 1>just hope that you are on one long enough for

0:40:43.760 --> 0:40:46.720
<v Speaker 1>them to actually come up with another protocol and another

0:40:46.760 --> 0:40:51.680
<v Speaker 1>protocol or so it's it's it's really hard. I uh,

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<v Speaker 1>this is probably the hardest time for me that I've

0:40:54.800 --> 0:40:57.439
<v Speaker 1>ever had with the cancer. I've always kind of felt

0:40:57.520 --> 0:41:00.600
<v Speaker 1>very positive and like I can deal with that, and

0:41:00.760 --> 0:41:06.200
<v Speaker 1>this is definitely like I'm overly emotional, Like I want

0:41:06.200 --> 0:41:10.120
<v Speaker 1>to cry every single second at good or bad. Like

0:41:11.360 --> 0:41:13.680
<v Speaker 1>just introducing you, I was like about to start crying,

0:41:14.600 --> 0:41:19.479
<v Speaker 1>like it just but what's really beautiful about it is

0:41:19.840 --> 0:41:25.160
<v Speaker 1>I think you become so incredibly sensitive that your eyes

0:41:26.280 --> 0:41:30.319
<v Speaker 1>are like wide open everything around you, to people to

0:41:30.400 --> 0:41:33.799
<v Speaker 1>how they react, to what you can possibly do that's

0:41:33.880 --> 0:41:38.880
<v Speaker 1>better for the world, like what your purpose here is? Yeah,

0:41:38.960 --> 0:41:41.480
<v Speaker 1>because I think I struggled with that kind of my

0:41:41.640 --> 0:41:44.520
<v Speaker 1>entire life, like being a child actor and then growing

0:41:44.600 --> 0:41:49.719
<v Speaker 1>up acting, and I just never felt like I was accepted.

0:41:50.520 --> 0:41:53.040
<v Speaker 1>I always, you know, looked at the Friends crew and

0:41:53.160 --> 0:41:55.239
<v Speaker 1>was like, oh my god, I want to hang out

0:41:55.280 --> 0:41:58.239
<v Speaker 1>with jan Anison and Courtney Cox and you know, why

0:41:58.280 --> 0:42:00.719
<v Speaker 1>doesn't anybody accept me? And why am I always called

0:42:00.760 --> 0:42:04.040
<v Speaker 1>the bad girl? And then eventually it's like when you

0:42:04.080 --> 0:42:06.560
<v Speaker 1>turn forty, when you stopped caring about what people are

0:42:06.560 --> 0:42:09.840
<v Speaker 1>saying about you. That's for me. Cancer was that moment

0:42:09.840 --> 0:42:14.440
<v Speaker 1>where I was like, oh, hell no, I don't need

0:42:14.440 --> 0:42:16.560
<v Speaker 1>to hang out with any of these people. I need

0:42:16.600 --> 0:42:20.800
<v Speaker 1>to make sure I'm happy and living the best life

0:42:20.840 --> 0:42:23.240
<v Speaker 1>that I can while I'm still alive.

0:42:25.640 --> 0:42:28.400
<v Speaker 2>So in ninety six, I think my mother was diagnosed

0:42:28.440 --> 0:42:32.720
<v Speaker 2>with stage four breast cancer, and like I said, almost

0:42:32.719 --> 0:42:37.400
<v Speaker 2>eighty one now, and I mean, your experience is clearly different,

0:42:38.719 --> 0:42:42.160
<v Speaker 2>and I think everybody's is when it comes to this

0:42:42.239 --> 0:42:45.520
<v Speaker 2>sort of you know, to cancer, to health, our finger,

0:42:45.640 --> 0:42:48.640
<v Speaker 2>I think our bodies and our reactions to things are

0:42:48.640 --> 0:42:51.080
<v Speaker 2>as individual as our fingerprints. I don't think there's any

0:42:51.160 --> 0:42:56.000
<v Speaker 2>sort of one shoe fits all thing that just you know,

0:42:56.239 --> 0:43:00.400
<v Speaker 2>but I would you're probably really sick of talking about it,

0:43:00.440 --> 0:43:02.640
<v Speaker 2>but if you do ever want to talk to somebody

0:43:02.640 --> 0:43:06.360
<v Speaker 2>who's gone through it and has some I think very interesting.

0:43:08.600 --> 0:43:13.319
<v Speaker 2>You know how she got through it. She's really she's

0:43:13.320 --> 0:43:17.719
<v Speaker 2>pretty incredible. I'm very proud of my mother. I find

0:43:17.760 --> 0:43:23.640
<v Speaker 2>her incredibly well. She's she's brave, and she's strong, she's

0:43:23.680 --> 0:43:30.040
<v Speaker 2>incredibly compassionate. She's unbelievably annoying sometimes. But I really think

0:43:30.440 --> 0:43:32.600
<v Speaker 2>that if you ever wanted to talk to somebody that

0:43:32.719 --> 0:43:34.520
<v Speaker 2>she would. I would love you to talk to her,

0:43:35.800 --> 0:43:38.920
<v Speaker 2>because there were some things she did that were unique

0:43:39.160 --> 0:43:41.200
<v Speaker 2>at the time, and one of those was to work.

0:43:41.280 --> 0:43:45.560
<v Speaker 2>She worked with a nature path and but she chose

0:43:45.960 --> 0:43:48.359
<v Speaker 2>she was in a cancer group and all the other

0:43:48.400 --> 0:43:52.600
<v Speaker 2>women had chosen like wumpectomies and radiation, and she chose

0:43:52.680 --> 0:43:55.920
<v Speaker 2>to just kind of go full throttle and do the

0:43:55.960 --> 0:43:59.880
<v Speaker 2>mes ectomy, do the nine months of chemotherapy. And she

0:44:00.440 --> 0:44:04.239
<v Speaker 2>will say that it wasn't the best year of her life,

0:44:04.239 --> 0:44:07.680
<v Speaker 2>but it wasn't the worst. And she had some tools,

0:44:07.719 --> 0:44:14.640
<v Speaker 2>like she our family is definitely I'm not really well.

0:44:14.680 --> 0:44:17.920
<v Speaker 2>I was raised Mormon, and at the time we were

0:44:17.920 --> 0:44:22.359
<v Speaker 2>practicing Mormons, but I'm not really and she isn't really either,

0:44:22.400 --> 0:44:27.600
<v Speaker 2>like we're more. I mean, I pray and I lean

0:44:27.640 --> 0:44:32.880
<v Speaker 2>into the idea that this is a benevolent universe, that

0:44:32.960 --> 0:44:37.920
<v Speaker 2>there's an energy that feels kind. I don't think it's

0:44:37.920 --> 0:44:41.920
<v Speaker 2>an indifferent universe. And I'm not agnostic or an atheist,

0:44:41.960 --> 0:44:44.640
<v Speaker 2>but I don't know exactly how it all looks. I

0:44:44.680 --> 0:44:47.799
<v Speaker 2>don't need to. I like the mystery, but I do

0:44:47.880 --> 0:44:50.439
<v Speaker 2>think that she felt she was given some answers through

0:44:50.920 --> 0:44:53.200
<v Speaker 2>prayer or meditation or whatever she did at that time

0:44:53.840 --> 0:44:55.680
<v Speaker 2>that I thought were really interesting. It was like, stay

0:44:55.719 --> 0:45:00.200
<v Speaker 2>away from toxic people, even if they're your family. Had

0:45:00.239 --> 0:45:04.480
<v Speaker 2>a few and she I think the other one was

0:45:04.520 --> 0:45:07.239
<v Speaker 2>rest when you need it. Don't try to push through it,

0:45:07.280 --> 0:45:10.520
<v Speaker 2>don't try to get back on your feet and whatever.

0:45:10.719 --> 0:45:12.799
<v Speaker 2>Just rest. And then I can't remember what the third

0:45:12.840 --> 0:45:17.400
<v Speaker 2>ones I think it might have been, like, was it

0:45:17.520 --> 0:45:20.719
<v Speaker 2>till like write down you know what what you were

0:45:20.760 --> 0:45:24.719
<v Speaker 2>really feeling, like the real shit, not the like I'll

0:45:24.760 --> 0:45:26.080
<v Speaker 2>be okay, but.

0:45:28.040 --> 0:45:30.839
<v Speaker 1>We do tend to do that we tend to, as

0:45:30.880 --> 0:45:34.759
<v Speaker 1>your mom would probably agree with me on, we tend

0:45:34.760 --> 0:45:37.319
<v Speaker 1>to look at everybody and go, no, we're fine, we're fine,

0:45:37.320 --> 0:45:41.800
<v Speaker 1>We're fine. It's I don't even think it's about reassuring ourselves.

0:45:41.840 --> 0:45:44.760
<v Speaker 1>It's about reassuring everyone around us.

0:45:45.000 --> 0:45:49.960
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, because they're uncomfortable and makes you uncomfortable, right, yeah.

0:45:49.040 --> 0:45:53.200
<v Speaker 1>But I would assume that that would be incredibly healthy

0:45:53.960 --> 0:45:57.520
<v Speaker 1>and getting some of that toxic energy out of where

0:45:57.560 --> 0:46:00.279
<v Speaker 1>you are super scared, but you're not able to us

0:46:00.320 --> 0:46:03.560
<v Speaker 1>it right to the people that love you and that

0:46:03.600 --> 0:46:06.399
<v Speaker 1>are in your life all the time because you're trying

0:46:06.400 --> 0:46:09.080
<v Speaker 1>to protect them. But to just get it out on paper,

0:46:09.160 --> 0:46:13.280
<v Speaker 1>it's like it gets it out in the universe and gone, yeah.

0:46:13.440 --> 0:46:16.680
<v Speaker 2>Yeah. And I think that you know, that goes for

0:46:16.760 --> 0:46:20.720
<v Speaker 2>almost anything, but I think it's especially important when you're

0:46:21.200 --> 0:46:24.440
<v Speaker 2>sort of warring with your body, you know, and warring

0:46:24.520 --> 0:46:29.960
<v Speaker 2>with you. I think being able to just be like

0:46:30.440 --> 0:46:33.440
<v Speaker 2>deeply honest about how that really makes you feel, without

0:46:33.520 --> 0:46:37.239
<v Speaker 2>worrying about anybody else's feelings or anybody else's reaction or

0:46:37.280 --> 0:46:39.000
<v Speaker 2>anybody else's need to make it right and make it

0:46:39.080 --> 0:46:40.799
<v Speaker 2>right and make right and find a solution for you

0:46:40.840 --> 0:46:43.759
<v Speaker 2>because that's you know, a very human reaction too, when

0:46:43.760 --> 0:46:46.600
<v Speaker 2>you see somebody love and you know that is suffering,

0:46:48.000 --> 0:46:51.640
<v Speaker 2>but like it is a lot of energy to then

0:46:52.360 --> 0:46:56.680
<v Speaker 2>take on as the person who's dealing with it. So yeah,

0:46:56.800 --> 0:47:00.480
<v Speaker 2>I mean, it's not Life's not for pussies.

0:47:03.080 --> 0:47:05.239
<v Speaker 1>That's a really good saying. I like that one a lot,

0:47:05.719 --> 0:47:09.840
<v Speaker 1>and I'll probably take you up on horseback riding's coming

0:47:09.880 --> 0:47:11.440
<v Speaker 1>and getting that Utah energy.

0:47:11.560 --> 0:47:13.239
<v Speaker 2>I would love to host you. I just think we

0:47:13.280 --> 0:47:15.840
<v Speaker 2>would have such a good time together. And I just think,

0:47:15.960 --> 0:47:18.640
<v Speaker 2>you know, it's so interesting because I get asked on

0:47:18.680 --> 0:47:21.239
<v Speaker 2>occasion to do a podcast here there, but I typically,

0:47:21.520 --> 0:47:23.480
<v Speaker 2>you know, like I said, I'm kind of here in Utah,

0:47:23.640 --> 0:47:27.840
<v Speaker 2>like not even in the world anymore of Hollywood as much,

0:47:29.160 --> 0:47:31.160
<v Speaker 2>But this one, I was like, yes, yes, I'll do that.

0:47:31.320 --> 0:47:33.880
<v Speaker 2>I like, I'd really like to talk to Shannon already.

0:47:33.960 --> 0:47:34.840
<v Speaker 2>That's very exciting.

0:47:35.440 --> 0:47:38.799
<v Speaker 1>So that's a huge honor. I mean, I gotta tell you,

0:47:38.880 --> 0:47:42.520
<v Speaker 1>I've got like pages and pages and pages of like

0:47:43.000 --> 0:47:45.440
<v Speaker 1>from my producer. She does. She's so good, she does

0:47:45.480 --> 0:47:49.959
<v Speaker 1>so much hard work, and I'm like, what I love

0:47:50.080 --> 0:47:52.880
<v Speaker 1>when I get someone like you on that. You know,

0:47:53.000 --> 0:47:55.920
<v Speaker 1>I do have a lot of admiration for is when

0:47:55.960 --> 0:47:58.440
<v Speaker 1>you just click and you have an honest conversation and

0:47:58.480 --> 0:48:01.600
<v Speaker 1>it goes where it goes, and nothing's prepared and it

0:48:01.719 --> 0:48:02.719
<v Speaker 1>just is what it is.

0:48:03.400 --> 0:48:07.160
<v Speaker 2>Yeah. Sorry, Actually I tend to I'm not very good

0:48:07.160 --> 0:48:08.200
<v Speaker 2>at staying on track.

0:48:08.480 --> 0:48:10.920
<v Speaker 1>Are you kidding? I'm not good at it either. It

0:48:11.000 --> 0:48:15.600
<v Speaker 1>was unbelievable, like, honestly my favorite person I've interviewed so far,

0:48:16.520 --> 0:48:19.520
<v Speaker 1>And I thank you, like, I'm not going to take

0:48:19.600 --> 0:48:21.319
<v Speaker 1>up the rest of your day because I think we've

0:48:21.320 --> 0:48:23.640
<v Speaker 1>covered a lot. Is there anything that you want to cover?

0:48:24.160 --> 0:48:26.319
<v Speaker 2>No, I'm just very grateful to've been asked to be

0:48:26.360 --> 0:48:28.560
<v Speaker 2>here today. I am like very I don't get a

0:48:28.560 --> 0:48:31.840
<v Speaker 2>lot of these kinds of conversations. I have a fifteen

0:48:31.920 --> 0:48:33.879
<v Speaker 2>year old, a twelve year old, and a seven year old.

0:48:34.920 --> 0:48:36.399
<v Speaker 2>You know, they don't want to talk about this sort

0:48:36.400 --> 0:48:38.799
<v Speaker 2>of stuff. And then there's my mom, and we talked

0:48:38.800 --> 0:48:40.359
<v Speaker 2>twice a day every day, so it's like you kind

0:48:40.360 --> 0:48:43.560
<v Speaker 2>of run out of interesting topics. So I'm just grateful

0:48:43.600 --> 0:48:46.960
<v Speaker 2>to have gotten to have this really lovely interesting conversation

0:48:47.040 --> 0:48:48.960
<v Speaker 2>with such a lovely interesting woman.

0:48:49.400 --> 0:48:52.879
<v Speaker 1>Thank you. You're going to make me cry, seriously, You'll

0:48:52.880 --> 0:48:56.279
<v Speaker 1>make me cry again an honor, and I'll see you

0:48:56.280 --> 0:48:59.240
<v Speaker 1>in Utah, and please tell your mom. She'll get my number.

0:48:59.360 --> 0:49:01.399
<v Speaker 1>She can give me all. I would love to talk

0:49:01.440 --> 0:49:04.520
<v Speaker 1>to her because I think somebody who's been there, who's

0:49:04.560 --> 0:49:07.440
<v Speaker 1>done it, I don't think you're ever over it. Whether

0:49:07.480 --> 0:49:11.319
<v Speaker 1>you're cured not cured, you're still in the midst of it.

0:49:11.320 --> 0:49:15.040
<v Speaker 1>It's always nice to connect with someone who you know

0:49:15.160 --> 0:49:17.480
<v Speaker 1>has gone through it, is going through it, and that

0:49:17.719 --> 0:49:21.000
<v Speaker 1>maybe is doing something different that could you know you

0:49:21.040 --> 0:49:24.279
<v Speaker 1>would just open you up to a totally different experience.

0:49:24.680 --> 0:49:26.799
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I mean, perspective is tough, and so it's if

0:49:26.840 --> 0:49:30.440
<v Speaker 2>you can maybe you know, maybe there will be something

0:49:30.640 --> 0:49:36.359
<v Speaker 2>in the conversation that inspires or shifts or or even

0:49:36.440 --> 0:49:39.479
<v Speaker 2>just comforts you know, or maybe not, but it's worth

0:49:39.480 --> 0:49:39.799
<v Speaker 2>a shot.

0:49:40.880 --> 0:49:43.200
<v Speaker 1>And if you need any help with dog stuff over

0:49:43.200 --> 0:49:45.640
<v Speaker 1>there in Utah, let me know. I love you, thank you,

0:49:45.760 --> 0:49:48.960
<v Speaker 1>I will help. It's like my passion. It's what I

0:49:49.040 --> 0:49:51.880
<v Speaker 1>care a lot about, along with educating people in cancer.

0:49:51.960 --> 0:49:53.920
<v Speaker 1>So whatever you need for me, I'm here for you,

0:49:54.400 --> 0:49:55.160
<v Speaker 1>and vice versa.

0:49:56.320 --> 0:49:58.840
<v Speaker 2>In Utah. All right, thank you,