Speaker 1: Welcome to jay dot im a production of I Heart Radio.
Speaker 1: Well Cello, Hi, everybody, welcome to j dot Ilga podcast.
Speaker 1: My name is Jill Scott. Is my pleasure to be
Speaker 1: here with my sister friends. Layah safe clap President an
Speaker 1: age of Graydon dances here like I'd be the smart
Speaker 1: kids would be like President and here and they'd be
Speaker 1: that one kid trying to impress everybody that's President. And
Speaker 1: then it'll be at the asshole kid to be like
Speaker 1: President like me. I enjoyed President. Actually, I thought that
Speaker 1: was that was that's cute. She relax. That was a
Speaker 1: class clown. That's me. I like it. I'm into it.
Speaker 1: I think I was a good girl, I mean, a
Speaker 1: little person. I'm pretty sure these things. We really did
Speaker 1: get four spankings in my life. Oh yeah, I was
Speaker 1: that kid though I was. I got like two leg pops.
Speaker 1: Yeah that's you know, I got two legs. I need
Speaker 1: a poll on this, y'all. I don't know. I didn't
Speaker 1: get a one fourteen year old backslap though, like and
Speaker 1: I earned that one. I did too. I don't know.
Speaker 1: I might have to ask. I mean, y'all a parents,
Speaker 1: So I'm guessing that's true that like the less spankers
Speaker 1: you got, the better kids you were. But that means
Speaker 1: I was bad as ship. But I didn't think I was. No,
Speaker 1: I'm saying I didn't get like I didn't get any
Speaker 1: behavioral like feedback from school like that was never an issue,
Speaker 1: never for me. Never you know, you're lying, I am
Speaker 1: not wait wait wait wait wait? Did it? Was this
Speaker 1: one time when the sixth grade girl swore I liked
Speaker 1: this eighth grade boy. I wasn't thinking about that boy.
Speaker 1: He was long and skinny. It wasn't my thing. I
Speaker 1: just wasn't attracted to the boy. And I didn't think
Speaker 1: he was very bright, you know what I mean. But
Speaker 1: I was in the eighth grade. She was in the
Speaker 1: sixth grade. But she's as tall as I am. Okay,
Speaker 1: she's the tall girl. Anyway, she brought her cousin's down
Speaker 1: from high school girls to fight me what was wrong
Speaker 1: with her hands? She was in the sixth grade, she was,
Speaker 1: but she told them that this eighth grade girl was
Speaker 1: picking on her. I'm like picking on her. So they
Speaker 1: come down to the school and they're like, you're picking
Speaker 1: on my cousin. I was like picking on who. They're
Speaker 1: like whatever, the cat. I know her name, but I'm
Speaker 1: not gonna say it. And I was like, I don't
Speaker 1: pick on anybody, and they were like, yeah, right, you
Speaker 1: messing with my cousin. And I had to fight all
Speaker 1: them big gass girls. One of them had a love ring, right,
Speaker 1: like a love and hate ring from me. It was
Speaker 1: just one of them had a love ring. And I
Speaker 1: remember because I used to I said, really long nails,
Speaker 1: And I used to do my nails every day. I
Speaker 1: don't have nothing else to do, but I did my
Speaker 1: nails every day, different color for every outfit I had.
Speaker 1: Because I ain't handling, I had to make it work,
Speaker 1: you know what I mean. Spiking the apolish was a dollar,
Speaker 1: so I was trying to make it work, you know.
Speaker 1: And I had dug my nails in this girl's face
Speaker 1: and broke all my nails on in her face. And
Speaker 1: I thought, I had, you know, really done something, and
Speaker 1: I did, you know. I took my legs, but I
Speaker 1: gave him back. But when I got into the mirror
Speaker 1: of the bathroom and I looked at myself, I saw
Speaker 1: love on my forehead. I saw love on my mother.
Speaker 1: And then the principal wanted to suspend me mm hmm
Speaker 1: forgetting John. Yeah, girl, Guls didn't even go to Earth.
Speaker 1: These are high school students. I'm in the eighth grade
Speaker 1: by myself. Miss Joyce say, because I know she marched up,
Speaker 1: because that's a march. That's a march worthy. So long
Speaker 1: it's march worthy with them long legs, let's go. Yeah,
Speaker 1: nobody got suspended. She should have because she was definitely spended.
Speaker 1: She's a person who had the people coming up there
Speaker 1: and all of that. That's crazy. What if you had
Speaker 1: gotten hurt her heard her just then you placed it
Speaker 1: for a little while. I had a little bruise and
Speaker 1: then it was like and like see light skin problems.
Speaker 1: You'll not light skin what you're talking about. That's to
Speaker 1: episode listeners. I'm just so a lot to you today
Speaker 1: on the zoom. I'm feeling that we're all looking the
Speaker 1: same complexion today. So I'm gonna come. I'm gonna I'm
Speaker 1: gonna pull back on the light skin joke. You mean,
Speaker 1: I'm simming them. You summon them today? They it's given
Speaker 1: simming them today. Cute? You know we all yellow? Have you?
Speaker 1: Great baby sim man man like you hate right, you
Speaker 1: just came from my island I can see it. The moon. Look,
Speaker 1: the moon is the cancer. The moons did cancer. I'm
Speaker 1: meant to ask Amber what that means. She said, it
Speaker 1: just means everybody is deep within the feelings right now
Speaker 1: in any way in which you are feeling specifically, like,
Speaker 1: shut up, agent, it's the trophy. Remember Yaba who came
Speaker 1: on the show, right Yea Yabba hit me yesterday and
Speaker 1: was like, girl, siste, don't say nothing to nobody. She like,
Speaker 1: the moon cancel, girl, I don't know. I don't even
Speaker 1: be knowing. This is just you know how your girlfriends,
Speaker 1: all your girlfriends be knowing stuff and they just bring
Speaker 1: things to you and you're just like, okay, I'm I
Speaker 1: know that, Okay, I know that. But when mercury and
Speaker 1: retrograde hits, we all like, I'm not signing that. I'm not.
Speaker 1: It's all it's happening right now. We should be talking
Speaker 1: to each other. We shouldn't be talking right now. I
Speaker 1: don't know what. Maybe maybe we shouldn't be talking to
Speaker 1: each other. Maybe maybe we shouldn't be talking to anybody.
Speaker 1: I don't know. And thank you so much for listening
Speaker 1: to Jay dot the podcast and then our pleasure to
Speaker 1: not talk to you these things you eat, the meat,
Speaker 1: you throw off the bones. You know what I'm saying.
Speaker 1: You need the warnings. Uh huh, you just here's the thing.
Speaker 1: More than don't talk to nobody, be mindful of everybody's feelings.
Speaker 1: Be mindful of how you talk to folks, Be mindful
Speaker 1: of your own needs. I feel so bad. I feel
Speaker 1: like our whole group texting strange today. I was in
Speaker 1: my feelings like I know, but you might have been in.
Speaker 1: That's okay, It's it's my to tend to your needs. Well,
Speaker 1: maybe we shouldn't talk to to other people, but we
Speaker 1: could talk to ourselves. We could look that seg You know,
Speaker 1: they don't know what we mean by that. They don't.
Speaker 1: We decided that we were going to write love letters
Speaker 1: to ourselves. Yeah, why we you do such a thing.
Speaker 1: Why would you write a love letter to yourself? Because
Speaker 1: you know the world is so busy, and because the
Speaker 1: interweb is what it is. Um, you've got people that
Speaker 1: you don't know. I saw I saw something on TikTok
Speaker 1: today and there was a guy who was talking about
Speaker 1: working out with this woman and he got he you know,
Speaker 1: he stitched himself. And then later when he comes back,
Speaker 1: and he's Steven saying that the comments that that he caught,
Speaker 1: they were talking about how ugly he was and how
Speaker 1: he never would stand a chance to even work out
Speaker 1: with that woman, that um, you look like you stick,
Speaker 1: that you look like a loser. He was just like
Speaker 1: in tears, like now I actually work out, and she
Speaker 1: says she wanted to work out, and I was like,
Speaker 1: let's work out together, you know, and he was like,
Speaker 1: I had no idea by putting myself out there in
Speaker 1: that way what I would get back. And he was like,
Speaker 1: it was just a lot of nasty, hateful, mean spirited comments.
Speaker 1: So this is one of those opportunities where you know,
Speaker 1: if you're dealing with anything remotely like that, whether it's
Speaker 1: on any of the social media's, whether you're dealing with
Speaker 1: hateful comments from family members or um from your boss,
Speaker 1: or even from from yourself. Mm hm, pick a moment
Speaker 1: and write a love letter to you. Yeah, so that's
Speaker 1: what you know. It's interesting because I saw something very
Speaker 1: similar to happen with Keikey Palmer, who was my big
Speaker 1: faith and making comments about her looks and she just
Speaker 1: had such a beautiful I don't even want to call
Speaker 1: the clapback. It was just, h just a moment of clarity, like, honey,
Speaker 1: like I love myself, Like I'm sorry that you have
Speaker 1: an issue, and you felt that you had enough power
Speaker 1: over me to exert that. But I loved the way
Speaker 1: that she kind of reiterated that that love for herself
Speaker 1: at that moment. And I know it can be difficult
Speaker 1: to dredge that up because even even if you're not
Speaker 1: having an issue like that, you know, there's a lot
Speaker 1: of benefits to an exercise like this just in general, Like,
Speaker 1: even if you're not having a specific issue, it can
Speaker 1: be I open it in a lot of ways, you
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. It really give you a you know,
Speaker 1: a burst in your creativity, yourself awareness, you know. And
Speaker 1: this is actually like measurable things they talk about how
Speaker 1: like this kind of thing can really be good for
Speaker 1: your mental health, for your emotional health, and like I said,
Speaker 1: just as an exercise just to kind of boost and
Speaker 1: jump start your creativity. So you know, I may not
Speaker 1: just be an answer to you know, an existing issue
Speaker 1: or just something good to do. I ain't gonna lie
Speaker 1: to you like this this for me, Wow, I was
Speaker 1: just like mm hmm. You don't realize how much even
Speaker 1: though you may feel Somebody said, do you feel loved,
Speaker 1: You're like, yeah, I feel loved, I feel long, But
Speaker 1: you don't realize certain things that you just don't hear.
Speaker 1: Nobody has a better perspective on you than you. Nobody
Speaker 1: and you kind of the only person who knows what
Speaker 1: you need to hear. M you know, even though there
Speaker 1: are times when people tell you things and you're just like, oh,
Speaker 1: I didn't even know I needed to hear that, But
Speaker 1: in retrospect, you're the person who knows the words that
Speaker 1: need to be spoken to you. You know how you
Speaker 1: need to be treated, you know how you need to
Speaker 1: be affirmed, and it's like until you actually do it,
Speaker 1: it's like it's it's just a good reminder of what
Speaker 1: it is you need to hear and how you need
Speaker 1: to move forward. I mean, I'll say that that's what
Speaker 1: it is, what that exercise was for me. More will
Speaker 1: talk after the break. I don't know if what this means,
Speaker 1: but when I wrote mine, it kind of just flew out.
Speaker 1: There are certain things that I really really enjoyed about
Speaker 1: myself and I just wrote them. So I'm I'm gonna
Speaker 1: read mine first. Okay, mm hmm, all right. Love letter
Speaker 1: to Jill. I remember you from the beginning, when you
Speaker 1: were small and full of imagination. You played by yourself
Speaker 1: for hours. You still do. I remember how you read
Speaker 1: stories to the boys outside. I recall how you kept
Speaker 1: their attention, how they asked questions even though you were
Speaker 1: so much younger. I remember the confidence it gave you,
Speaker 1: how you rushed home and waited. They always showed up.
Speaker 1: I remember they protected you for that. I remember when
Speaker 1: things got dark and you went to work, you got
Speaker 1: home so late, you gave up your seat for elders,
Speaker 1: like your mommy said. I remember feeling proud of you.
Speaker 1: I remember liking you humming to yourself. You sang to
Speaker 1: walk to the bus. It felt like a private underbreadth
Speaker 1: of joy from me to me. I love that you
Speaker 1: still sing for nothing and mostly everything. I love that
Speaker 1: it still lives in you. I love that you remember
Speaker 1: your grandmother's skin and the feel of her night gown.
Speaker 1: I love that you grew up sweet, despite the neighborhood
Speaker 1: and some neighborhood kids who hated your clean clothes and
Speaker 1: tidy hair and willingness to share. I love that you
Speaker 1: still love despite jealousy. I have loved you from the beginning.
Speaker 1: I know your heart. It's been a joy, even through
Speaker 1: tears and my cherished pleasure to be you. And I
Speaker 1: mean that. I love that letter. I mean that, and
Speaker 1: I'm gonna read it to myself again and again. You
Speaker 1: feel like I'm losing something special or something that's important
Speaker 1: to me. I loved that. I used to go to
Speaker 1: the store from my elders in the neighborhood. I love
Speaker 1: that I come from from Joyce, Allas wool will co
Speaker 1: around and cut the neighbors toenails. And I used to
Speaker 1: be like, that is the off club, Like you've seen
Speaker 1: old people feet and you've seen toenails. And she would
Speaker 1: get she had a whole kid, and she would just
Speaker 1: go to each neighbor and cut their toenails. And then
Speaker 1: one day I remember it being like, Mom, why would
Speaker 1: you do that so mad? I'm impressed, but I didn't
Speaker 1: make an ugly face. I did too make it all
Speaker 1: right now. And she said, because a lot of them
Speaker 1: have diabetes and if they cut their toenails wrong, they
Speaker 1: could bleed to death. And I was like, wow, I
Speaker 1: love that. My grandmother used to say, Hey, come here,
Speaker 1: are you hungry. I love that. And she would invite
Speaker 1: strangers in for a meal and they would sit there
Speaker 1: to wash their hands and sit there, and my grandmother
Speaker 1: would feed them. I just love that about her. I
Speaker 1: love that I am these people's descendant, that that kind
Speaker 1: of spirit. I just had a moment recently in the
Speaker 1: last two months where people that I love, even from Afar,
Speaker 1: they needed something. Um they lost people that they loved
Speaker 1: so much, and it was just towering and constant, and I,
Speaker 1: you know, I invited them here, come here, let us
Speaker 1: loan you. And we did. My family and I we did.
Speaker 1: We cooked, we play music, we aft, we I listened,
Speaker 1: you know, I just listened. I rubbed feet and run
Speaker 1: baths and let him sleep and remind them you know
Speaker 1: that life is still happening, even though this is the
Speaker 1: darkest time you've ever known. This is the worst loss
Speaker 1: you've ever felt. And as much as it pleased me,
Speaker 1: it I mean, it gave me such I don't want
Speaker 1: to say pride. It just made me feel helpful, useful.
Speaker 1: I was gonna say, need, yeah, useful, mighty feeling. Oh child,
Speaker 1: let me tell you some that is my drug of choice. Girl,
Speaker 1: didn't that thing fire that is my drug of choice
Speaker 1: to be able to help somebody. It's got me into
Speaker 1: a little bit of trouble in my life. I won't
Speaker 1: even lie, but I know the feeling you're talking about,
Speaker 1: and it is like an adrenaline. Not adrenaline. It's less harsh.
Speaker 1: It's like a love rush. It's like like it just
Speaker 1: makes you feel like, thank you God, Life, I got this,
Speaker 1: this gift. You know, all of the things that life
Speaker 1: has brought me is sent me to this place, this
Speaker 1: home that I call us house. I call it us
Speaker 1: house because when Jaed was little, even be like Mom,
Speaker 1: can we just go to us house? And I used
Speaker 1: to love that that he wanted to go home. So
Speaker 1: home has become a place for you know, my friends,
Speaker 1: um that are dealing with something. You know, I can't say.
Speaker 1: I can't make no promises like they're gonna walk out
Speaker 1: of here and feeling one better. But if I could
Speaker 1: get thirty percent, you know what I mean, just to
Speaker 1: remind them that life is worth living and that the
Speaker 1: loss may never it doesn't go away, you will always
Speaker 1: feel it. But if you do the best you can
Speaker 1: to hold on to the good stuff, the fun stuff,
Speaker 1: the things that learned you and grew you and um
Speaker 1: made your dream, you know those things, and especially with
Speaker 1: from that person like you can you can get through
Speaker 1: this too. That's such a good thing about love is that,
Speaker 1: especially when you're down, is how God will show you
Speaker 1: a person. You won't even think that it's going to
Speaker 1: come from that place, right, It'll just it'll be a
Speaker 1: friend that you think it's busy, where you think it's
Speaker 1: so and so or you know, and they love you
Speaker 1: and everything. But that happened to me my mother passed.
Speaker 1: I had a friend who called me and just soothed
Speaker 1: me into a nap, And it was like the last
Speaker 1: person that I would have thought, as much as we
Speaker 1: love each other and care about each other, it wasn't like,
Speaker 1: you know how sometimes you think it's gonna be this person,
Speaker 1: it's gonna be that person. But in that instance, it
Speaker 1: bonded us together permanently in a way that I bonded
Speaker 1: with nobody else. Some people you just some people you
Speaker 1: just connect with and you like them and you don't
Speaker 1: even have a real good reason why, you just do.
Speaker 1: And then years later, many many many years later, and
Speaker 1: you have interactions and they felt good every time every
Speaker 1: time we saw them. He had interaction. It was like
Speaker 1: fun with you and you're going about your business, going
Speaker 1: on on your life, and then next thing you know,
Speaker 1: you're doing a podcast together. Oh yeah, but yeah, no, no,
Speaker 1: that's that was a beautiful letter. You know, it's funnying.
Speaker 1: I knew this would have been that when we did this,
Speaker 1: that I would hear things from you all that would
Speaker 1: inspire me further. And one thing that inspired me about
Speaker 1: your letter was that you talked to your little girl's self.
Speaker 1: Mm hmm. And I'm gonna take that with me. I'm
Speaker 1: gonna take that with me. That's what That was a
Speaker 1: good time. Wasn't it a good time? And that was
Speaker 1: a good time. It wasn't it was a good time
Speaker 1: for me. Like I told you I had, I was
Speaker 1: having a tough day when I did this. I was
Speaker 1: having a tough day and I was like, yeah, I
Speaker 1: don't even know what you ever think so fast in
Speaker 1: your mind you have a serieson of thoughts, and they
Speaker 1: didn't It's not like each of those thoughts hang around
Speaker 1: long enough for you to say, oh I thought this,
Speaker 1: and I thought this, and I got here. But you
Speaker 1: know that you all kind of happened to the secession
Speaker 1: and you ended up in a place. That's how I
Speaker 1: did my letter. It was like I was thinking about
Speaker 1: love and I was thinking about myself and how I
Speaker 1: would make myself feel better, and it was like boom,
Speaker 1: bum bum and write a letter to yourself. Mm hmmm.
Speaker 1: And that's that's that's how kind of got to that
Speaker 1: moment from for me, I think that's the best day
Speaker 1: to do it, when you're not having a good day,
Speaker 1: when you're when you're just like ready to screw it
Speaker 1: all girl. I think that's the best day to write
Speaker 1: a lot. It might be because I tried to do
Speaker 1: it on a good day and it made me sad,
Speaker 1: so I didn't do it. Sorry. That's how that's it
Speaker 1: had the opposite effect for me. I was having a
Speaker 1: really good day until somebody said, where your life. I
Speaker 1: was like, what, I'm being productive over here, getting ship done,
Speaker 1: hood dress this ship. I don't even know if I
Speaker 1: like myself most days, but go ahead, Asia inspired me,
Speaker 1: motivate me, move me all right, here we go. That's
Speaker 1: a lot. That's a tall. That was a tall. That's
Speaker 1: a tall, little order. If I wouldn't have said it,
Speaker 1: you would have did it anyway. It's just because of
Speaker 1: the words that came out. Don't you feel like that?
Speaker 1: I feel like that. Every time I aine about to
Speaker 1: open her mouth, I get excited. Not as good as you. Sure,
Speaker 1: actually it don't say it is, but I'm this is.
Speaker 1: This is from my heart, from my court, my heart,
Speaker 1: dear angel. I miss you. I mean I see you
Speaker 1: every day, but I missed being alone with you, just
Speaker 1: listening to music or eating food, just doing nothing or
Speaker 1: laying quietly. I love how you think, even when you
Speaker 1: bounce from subject to subject L O L. I love
Speaker 1: that you like all kinds of art, and I love
Speaker 1: your passion. You're so passionate. When you love something, you're
Speaker 1: all in. I love that you can keep it cool,
Speaker 1: to keep the peace in yourself with others. It makes
Speaker 1: me sad, though that sometimes you feel so unworthy and
Speaker 1: so unsure. I believe in you, though I want you
Speaker 1: to take good care of yourself. I worry about you.
Speaker 1: I love you, and I don't want to lose you.
Speaker 1: I admit I should think of you more. I'll do better.
Speaker 1: I get distracted easily, and I promised to prioritize you
Speaker 1: from now on. I do love you. I do I
Speaker 1: love you. I want to see you in always your
Speaker 1: best girl, that my heart ditto. That's everything I was
Speaker 1: gonna say, girl, turn me whole. I was beautiful, inspired, motivated,
Speaker 1: moves sick. I mean, I think it's a good thing
Speaker 1: for me. It's like, I don't know, maybe my mind
Speaker 1: set and it wasn't like a set mindset. I'm just
Speaker 1: trying to think back as to where my mind was
Speaker 1: at the time. But I guess my mindset is just
Speaker 1: kind of like what do I need to hear right now?
Speaker 1: And I could really identify with being ab out to
Speaker 1: cry because I did. I after I read mine, as
Speaker 1: I read mine out loud to myself because I was,
Speaker 1: let me read this now, I would loud to myself.
Speaker 1: And when I read it out a lot to myself
Speaker 1: the first time, I did cry because I did I
Speaker 1: needed to hear those words at the time. I still
Speaker 1: do like I needed to hear those words. And when
Speaker 1: you said you was gonna read it to yourself every day,
Speaker 1: read it to myself every day, you know, Because I
Speaker 1: don't know, I feel like sometimes you know, And it's
Speaker 1: funny because I tell people this and I feel like
Speaker 1: sometimes and I don't have any resentment of my hot
Speaker 1: behind this because I hear a lot of people talk
Speaker 1: about it. I have been for a lot of years
Speaker 1: some of my people's go to person, and I say
Speaker 1: this to other people all the time. But as you
Speaker 1: know how that is when you gotta turn things on yourself,
Speaker 1: like you know, nobody's coming, like check for yourself, you know.
Speaker 1: And it's like, it's not that other people don't love you.
Speaker 1: I think a lot of times we're waiting, you know
Speaker 1: what I'm saying, We're waiting on something to happen, and
Speaker 1: we can really come and check for ourselves. And don't
Speaker 1: wait to hear the things that you need to hear.
Speaker 1: Don't don't wait on anyone else to say them, you know,
Speaker 1: say them to you. You know what I mean? And
Speaker 1: it's not And don't downplay yourself. Well I can't. It's me.
Speaker 1: I can't say. Who are you? Who are you to
Speaker 1: say that about you? Who are you not to say
Speaker 1: loving things? Not to say loving things about you? You
Speaker 1: were there the whole thing, the whole time. If you
Speaker 1: were gonna say this to someone else, you would want
Speaker 1: that person to take you seriously if they said to you, all, no,
Speaker 1: you're just saying that because you are you would be like, no,
Speaker 1: I'm saying that because it's the truth. You have the
Speaker 1: ability to be truthful with yourself. It's a very songwriter
Speaker 1: like assignment to y'all. I don't know if y'all realize this,
Speaker 1: but you did it felt like y'all did that with
Speaker 1: ease as well, because part of this is what you do.
Speaker 1: So I think that it should not be gone without
Speaker 1: saying that, like you know, and it's it may be
Speaker 1: a little harder for some of us others that don't
Speaker 1: time spend time with ourselves because it's required for our
Speaker 1: craft to be better, you know what I'm saying. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I think that's fast, definitely, but I submit that you
Speaker 1: can do right. Tend Bread ever said that and I thought,
Speaker 1: I was like, yeah, I would. Yeah, that's a good one.
Speaker 1: That was a good way. That starts with a list, honey,
Speaker 1: Amber beyond right, ten things that, um that you love
Speaker 1: about yourself. Yeah, and it's okay, let's start with five
Speaker 1: and make it easy. What did I say? I said, Um,
Speaker 1: the truth is an ego. No, the truth is the truth.
Speaker 1: You are allowed to love yourself. And I don't just
Speaker 1: mean you're your bits and pieces, but you can love
Speaker 1: your bits and pieces too. It's okay, it's all right,
Speaker 1: have a love fest. And you are aware. See that's
Speaker 1: the thing. You actually are aware. You're aware, you know,
Speaker 1: you know it's good. Let it go out there. Look
Speaker 1: that on that purple. Write it up. Make you change
Speaker 1: the perspective because I shut myself like I usually sometimes
Speaker 1: my father has a tendency to uh, I tease him.
Speaker 1: He compliments himself before I can get to it, and
Speaker 1: to a point where, like we we argue about it
Speaker 1: quite frequently, like can I just let me say it before,
Speaker 1: like you say the things and then you before you
Speaker 1: even finish. It's like, yeah, I killed that, that was deep,
Speaker 1: that was this, and and I go, Daddy, shouldn't and
Speaker 1: you let somebody else tell you that though, because like
Speaker 1: you say it to me, don't you want to wait
Speaker 1: for me to tell you? And I almost feel bad
Speaker 1: in this moment that I had these exchanges with him,
Speaker 1: because no, my daddy is like, I ain't all wait
Speaker 1: for nobody, Like I heard it, I said it. I
Speaker 1: know it was profound, and who I'm waiting on? Oh?
Speaker 1: I got to apologize to Ron and get y listen.
Speaker 1: I apologize to my mother and the spirit realm on
Speaker 1: a consistent basis. Susan, sorry, girl, I'm sorry. I'm sorry
Speaker 1: because you had tried to told me you had tried
Speaker 1: to say it. But you know, I mean that meant
Speaker 1: you got a good person. Yeah, I happens we get older.
Speaker 1: That happens more frequently than we definitely would like it to.
Speaker 1: I think, Chuck, you said Asia, whether your parents what
Speaker 1: you or not, We're gonna take a quick break and
Speaker 1: then we'll be right back. Come on, list, Come on list,
Speaker 1: I got, I got I love hard. I like that.
Speaker 1: I like that. I was about to write something like
Speaker 1: I love that as loud as I am. I am
Speaker 1: as much a listener. True, that definitely, that's where I'm at.
Speaker 1: I love my friends and my um. I can't do that.
Speaker 1: I love my friend, Okay, I try. I can't talk much. Okay, Well,
Speaker 1: you can love the tribe you chose your tasting friends.
Speaker 1: I do love okay. I love my taste and friends.
Speaker 1: I'm really good at that. I don't really Okay, So
Speaker 1: what else youre talking about? Will she? I wish you
Speaker 1: you know, this is one of the few times where
Speaker 1: I wish you all could just see the little girl. Yes, yes,
Speaker 1: that's why you you write yourself a love letter or
Speaker 1: you write down things that you love about yourself, because
Speaker 1: it just it doesn't feel like a hug. I want
Speaker 1: to do a combo thing like you and Asia, like
Speaker 1: I want to come from Asia's perspective, and then I
Speaker 1: want to do jil like I want to do the
Speaker 1: little girl thing. But then I liked it what Asia did.
Speaker 1: The way she was like talking to herself like pep
Speaker 1: herself and reminding herself. So yeah, that's why I said.
Speaker 1: It's like and apologizing to herself and laughing at herself.
Speaker 1: That was so lovely. Yeah, it was love. You just need,
Speaker 1: like I need to hear somebody's to hear y'alls. I
Speaker 1: was like, wait, so what we do ones that look like?
Speaker 1: What does that sound like? We'll look at that. That's
Speaker 1: exactly what we're here. I'm glad you were transparing hear it. Yeah,
Speaker 1: we're letting you hear it so that you can do
Speaker 1: your own I promise you'all. Love my little heart. I
Speaker 1: can't believe it still works like it does, but I'm
Speaker 1: so glad it does feel great. It does loving all
Speaker 1: my parents, I got things. I guess I gotta do it.
Speaker 1: Without bringing you gotta do it, but stop making other
Speaker 1: people a part of it, like okay, okay, okay, I'm
Speaker 1: trying to tell you I deeply appreciate your struggle with
Speaker 1: this and I'm so glad you girl. You're a blessing
Speaker 1: to these people who are listening, because it isn't as
Speaker 1: easy as it looks. It's not as easy as it
Speaker 1: And then, yeah, I don't think I made it look easy.
Speaker 1: I think I was stuttering and all the things ya
Speaker 1: y'all felt a little it was a little cool. But
Speaker 1: let me tell y'all why y'all don't think y'all made
Speaker 1: it look easy. What you don't because easy would be
Speaker 1: too much of a simple word to apply to what
Speaker 1: y'all both did. But y'all have a natural way with words,
Speaker 1: and so it does appear. And I I know y'all,
Speaker 1: but even to me who knows you, it does appear
Speaker 1: that it's easier for it to flow out, for you
Speaker 1: to express your feelings, to put word to feeling than
Speaker 1: the average person. So yeah, it without offending you, because
Speaker 1: I know it ain't easy for y'all, but it does
Speaker 1: sound like it flows really pretty, like even when you're
Speaker 1: crying and stuttering through it, which Jill, you didn't stutter.
Speaker 1: Now It's okay. I why is that in my throat?
Speaker 1: I was like, I'm feeling at my thought it comes
Speaker 1: and this cause it's a side aim. It comes at
Speaker 1: such a great time because I have so much on
Speaker 1: my plate and so many things to look forward to
Speaker 1: that easily, I know me, I can't get anxious. You know,
Speaker 1: fear exists. I try to fight that mother sucker, but
Speaker 1: nonetheless it exists, and I can feel overwhelmed, you know,
Speaker 1: by all the things that are coming my way. And
Speaker 1: I writing that reminded me of the little girl who
Speaker 1: just did it because it felt good period, Because it
Speaker 1: feels good period, like I feel such a release. Sometimes
Speaker 1: you gotta get some permission to feel good, like thank
Speaker 1: you for giving us permission. And I think, like I said,
Speaker 1: as you were doing it, as much as I was
Speaker 1: listening to you, I was thinking about, like, dang, what
Speaker 1: did I what did I love about myself as a
Speaker 1: little person, as a young person. I remember recently a
Speaker 1: friend of mine was like, do you remember what you
Speaker 1: said to me when we first met. I was like, child, no,
Speaker 1: I don't remember, and you, like you was like, hey,
Speaker 1: my name is Adria, and you should get to know
Speaker 1: me because I'm gonna be famous one day. How old
Speaker 1: were you do you remember? Like fifteen or sixteen? I
Speaker 1: don't know, just being goofy, you know what I mean?
Speaker 1: Like I was like it. The thing about it is
Speaker 1: when you're young and that fear hasn't crush you or
Speaker 1: try to crush you. Yet it happens earlier now if
Speaker 1: you ask, it does. And I think I think I
Speaker 1: love that about myself. I love that I was always
Speaker 1: the first of my hand like I didn't care. I
Speaker 1: was always the first kid to raise my hands. I
Speaker 1: wanted to read out loud out, I wanted to take
Speaker 1: on a challenge. I loved that about myself. My daughter
Speaker 1: was having an issue with she's a drama major, and
Speaker 1: she was having an issue with it with something she
Speaker 1: was having to play. And I remember being twelve years
Speaker 1: old and wanting so bad too. I was doing a
Speaker 1: Shakespeare thing and wanting so bad to be Catherine from
Speaker 1: the Taming of the True, but I couldn't because they
Speaker 1: cast somebody else. So my teacher, who was brilliant at
Speaker 1: the time, she said, well, you know, in Shakespeare's time,
Speaker 1: women weren't allowed in the theater. She was like, so
Speaker 1: all the men had to play the women's roles. She
Speaker 1: was like, well, how about we just do that with
Speaker 1: you and just flip it around and you could be Petruchio.
Speaker 1: And I was like, and I was. I was petru
Speaker 1: And he was like one of the only all black
Speaker 1: troops in this thing that we came out to perform for.
Speaker 1: And me and my best friend were Catherine and Petruchio.
Speaker 1: And I was like the only black girl that had
Speaker 1: done a gender been enrolling the whole thing. So it
Speaker 1: was just like really cool, Like I love that. That
Speaker 1: wasn't I wasn't fearful of that. I see some kids
Speaker 1: twelve in the thirteen age group, you know, and they're
Speaker 1: like forty five, forty two, twenty three. I mean that
Speaker 1: fear gets strong as you get older. Yeah, you just
Speaker 1: take the first person to shoot you down, and then
Speaker 1: another one and another one and another one. Oh am,
Speaker 1: I gonna get up that. The first fear, the first
Speaker 1: real fear was was Mr Lovitt's in math. I know
Speaker 1: I told you guys about him because I still talk
Speaker 1: about him in therapy. Yeah, that man, he said, you
Speaker 1: are so ugly. I don't know how anyone could bear
Speaker 1: to look at it. You are so stupid you should
Speaker 1: just face the wall. What. Oh, Mr I was in
Speaker 1: the seventh grade. Why a teacher like that? Wow, it's amazing,
Speaker 1: big fat Mr love it. He gave me a big fat,
Speaker 1: juicy f wow. Because once my mom came to the
Speaker 1: school and talked to him the next day, he was like,
Speaker 1: so I'm mean to you. That's the way he reacted.
Speaker 1: That's the way he reacted. No, No, he didn't get fired.
Speaker 1: When you know teachers back when we was kids, they
Speaker 1: got away with a lot, a lot. That's why I said.
Speaker 1: That's why I apologized to y'all. When we were talking.
Speaker 1: I don't know if we were talking to something Mitchell
Speaker 1: or somebody, and I had a whole like regurgitation of Mr.
Speaker 1: Tyson calling me a bumbling idiot and telling my friends
Speaker 1: not to hang out with me. M And to this day,
Speaker 1: Mr Typson he's still around. He ain't that old. And
Speaker 1: some of my classmates go out to dinner with him
Speaker 1: every year because that's my favorite teacher. And I'd be like, really,
Speaker 1: I guess for y'all, ye parents have to come up
Speaker 1: for that one. To Jim yea, I wish you would
Speaker 1: have gave me an because remote bot out that, like,
Speaker 1: let me tell you something. I took that F I
Speaker 1: took it. My grade still still with all the rest
Speaker 1: of the grazing on my report guard, I still had
Speaker 1: a B average. So it didn't destroy you. So I
Speaker 1: let the fuck go. But from that on, that moment on,
Speaker 1: every time I got to a math class, I felt
Speaker 1: like my heart with race and I would you know,
Speaker 1: because I didn't know what this meant? Is this another
Speaker 1: moment where because I was behind the math, I was
Speaker 1: how was you in high school? And math struggled? Struggle
Speaker 1: my ass off, I struggled. But you know again, you
Speaker 1: know I was at girls high so school. You know
Speaker 1: when I didn't pass math, I didn't get to walk
Speaker 1: m M meant dad. And I attribute some of that
Speaker 1: to my early education. And I contribute that to Mr
Speaker 1: Lovitt because when I because I went to summer school
Speaker 1: every year, every year, faithfully, and every year, I got
Speaker 1: an a trauma. That's math trauma. That's what that is.
Speaker 1: But you know, side note, a lot of girls and
Speaker 1: also specifically and especially black girls, have a lot of
Speaker 1: trauma around math. Me too, Joe I have a lot,
Speaker 1: have a lot. I want to give a moment a little,
Speaker 1: a little shout out to Grassroots Community Foundation and had
Speaker 1: a program specifically addressing this that was spearheaded by one
Speaker 1: of their young super girls, Amina, who came up with
Speaker 1: a program to address this issue with young middle school
Speaker 1: black girls. That's when it starts. That's interested. It definitely
Speaker 1: starts a little school that is that's deep. I didn't
Speaker 1: know that it was a trying. I didn't. I didn't
Speaker 1: know that it is a real thing, it's a real being.
Speaker 1: I want to also take this moment side note to
Speaker 1: appreciate those teachers who are out here not inflicting trauma
Speaker 1: on young people, because as you can see, this stays
Speaker 1: with us. Right, I'm a shout out Brent Elementary School,
Speaker 1: with which I know I've always I've done already on
Speaker 1: this podcast before at some point I'm sure Brent Elementary School,
Speaker 1: Roberty Brent, Washington, d C. Circa eighties. I would say
Speaker 1: between eighty two and eighty seven for me, But I
Speaker 1: just want to shout them out. Every single solitary teacher
Speaker 1: from kindergarten to sixth grade was a black woman, including science,
Speaker 1: including music, including Jim, including our school counselor and our principle.
Speaker 1: Shout out to Dr Francis Plumber. Listen, Dr, I know
Speaker 1: we was raised in d C, y'all, which I don't
Speaker 1: understand what agents saying. This is really still a big deal.
Speaker 1: And we wanted to the DC ist, the blacktiest black
Speaker 1: that is black. He had. We had every single one
Speaker 1: of my teachers and my gifted and talented teacher whose
Speaker 1: idea it was for me to gender be in that role.
Speaker 1: Msminton shout out. You know what I'm saying. These women
Speaker 1: shaped and molded me as a person from kindergarten to
Speaker 1: sixth grade. I was taught by a black woman, and
Speaker 1: many of them had advanced degrees. And I think now
Speaker 1: that I know what I know about how they hired
Speaker 1: teachers and how principles are are responsible for this. Now
Speaker 1: I know that this was intentional and this was done
Speaker 1: by a black woman. Dr Plumber who hired these women
Speaker 1: who no doubt many of them went to DC Teachers College.
Speaker 1: So shout out to to to that school that later
Speaker 1: one became U d C. So I just want y'all
Speaker 1: to know, so thank thank you to our little people.
Speaker 1: Thank you Missia Warren shout out. I want to shout
Speaker 1: out Dana Miller, who happened to be um Jets math tutor.
Speaker 1: And it was a rough go for a while, but
Speaker 1: miss Dana has she's out of Philadelphia and I'm gonna
Speaker 1: send you know, make sure I send you a link
Speaker 1: um to where you can reach her if you're in
Speaker 1: the Philadelphia area and you're you're struggling where your child
Speaker 1: is struggling in math, because she has a way. There's
Speaker 1: always a giggle, there's there's always um some level of
Speaker 1: fun which I can't you know, like all fun math
Speaker 1: fun fun math. There's fun math. Math is fun. Yeah.
Speaker 1: I could hear my child laughing any other room and
Speaker 1: I was like, wow, that's impressive. And slowly but steady
Speaker 1: league his confidence grew MA and um, I just want
Speaker 1: to let you guys know that there's somebody out there
Speaker 1: who has a gentle way and extreme knowledge of mathematics
Speaker 1: and it's definitely invested in getting your child or yourself
Speaker 1: to another level. Man roots link in there too, because
Speaker 1: they just a wealth of resources. And also too, when
Speaker 1: I did homeschool with my my kids, y'all know, like
Speaker 1: I said, math again, not my ministry either so oursourced
Speaker 1: to Melanie Young, who is amazing also out of Philadelphia,
Speaker 1: out of University of Pennsylvania, amazing black woman, works with
Speaker 1: black family, all kinds of families, but um, she definitely
Speaker 1: worked with my family and my kids and when they
Speaker 1: had their homeschool graduation, she came to support them. So again,
Speaker 1: this to me, that pouring of love into young people
Speaker 1: and particularly you know, around things that we comment like
Speaker 1: traumas that we share that it stays with us, the
Speaker 1: love and the trauma. But we thank God for the
Speaker 1: love because we're able to kind of talk about it
Speaker 1: now and share that and and not repeat those same
Speaker 1: cycles and paying attention to those things for our own kids.
Speaker 1: But if you can't come home and tell you somebody
Speaker 1: that says some wild ship, believe them because they don't
Speaker 1: get saying wild things. Please, especially when it's coming from
Speaker 1: a teacher. Baby, when your kid is saying that a teacher,
Speaker 1: that was like, seriously, some of the many things I
Speaker 1: and I did. I did. I faced the wall. It's
Speaker 1: like it's under the rest of the year. But guess
Speaker 1: what I did. I wrote the whole time, I wrote
Speaker 1: the whole time. I wrote a little plays. I wrote stories,
Speaker 1: I wrote poetry, I wrote, I wrote the whole time,
Speaker 1: so that I just started looking forward to that little
Speaker 1: part because I knew he wouldn't think about me at all.
Speaker 1: He didn't. He never even said hello that I was
Speaker 1: in a room. Nothing from that point on was my
Speaker 1: mother came to the school. He never spoke to me again.
Speaker 1: And I was happy because I didn't want I didn't
Speaker 1: want no parts more conversation. After the break, you know,
Speaker 1: I was reading, um, it's like a young person's book,
Speaker 1: but it's a biography on Octavia Butler, and some years ago,
Speaker 1: like her notebooks were discovered and people talked about how
Speaker 1: she had manifested and written all of these things that
Speaker 1: she wanted to become, being a bestseller, what money she
Speaker 1: wanted to make, the impact she wanted to make, and
Speaker 1: thinking of her as a little girl, and reading about
Speaker 1: her as a little girl, you said, you know what
Speaker 1: I did. I wrote everywhere she wents used to bring
Speaker 1: a pink notebook, and she published her first story when
Speaker 1: she was ten. But she got you know, rejected a
Speaker 1: lot of times too, so like lots of rejection because
Speaker 1: she was writing science fiction, and you know, people didn't
Speaker 1: want to hear that from her. Um. But what's interesting
Speaker 1: about her story was just you could see the little
Speaker 1: girl part. So when you told me about when you were, like,
Speaker 1: you know what I did. She was. She was lonely.
Speaker 1: She was a bit of an eyeball, and two combat
Speaker 1: the loneliness. She wrote. She wrote stories to entertain herself.
Speaker 1: She would read stories and they would be trash, and
Speaker 1: she would write a story because she would say, you know,
Speaker 1: I think I could probably write a better story than
Speaker 1: this trash of reading. And I love that. I love
Speaker 1: that because it gets into Tony Morrison who said, hey,
Speaker 1: if there's a book you haven't read yet, write it mhm.
Speaker 1: And I just love that. I love the thought of
Speaker 1: that it can turn out okay, that that that painful experience,
Speaker 1: that thing that makes that's supposed to make you not
Speaker 1: love yourself mm hmm. It doesn't have to be the
Speaker 1: end of the story for you. You can you can
Speaker 1: take that moment and shifted ship. I'm like, thirty years later,
Speaker 1: I just realized my teacher that was calling me a
Speaker 1: bumbling idiot didn't even acknowledge that I was two years
Speaker 1: ahead of everybody in the school. How am I idiot?
Speaker 1: I'm younger than everybody in my class, in my grade,
Speaker 1: and you get paid now to give your opinion on
Speaker 1: a wealth of different things. Yeah, you know, I don't
Speaker 1: call me where girl was was on something and I
Speaker 1: you know, I'm a big fan of her. And she
Speaker 1: said something I'm paraphrasing. When somebody is jealous, there's something
Speaker 1: that you can't even give them. It's not even like
Speaker 1: it's a purse or a necklace. You can't even give
Speaker 1: them what they're jealous of. It's something you know that's
Speaker 1: innate to you. She said. She was like, when I
Speaker 1: walk into a room by light of the room, you
Speaker 1: you dark in the room. Bitch, what what can you?
Speaker 1: What can you do about that? Nothing? But but you
Speaker 1: can damn. Somebody's like, that's what they try. They can't
Speaker 1: they try. I want to I want to take this
Speaker 1: moment also to say I'm sorry that that happened. I'm
Speaker 1: sorry that he did that. You didn't deserve that. You
Speaker 1: He should never have been allowed to speak to you
Speaker 1: that way. And even though those people still associate themselves
Speaker 1: with him, and I know that that's painful again because
Speaker 1: they were ended up working on Wall Street and being doctors,
Speaker 1: it's like five Wall Street doctors, lawyers. You know, they're
Speaker 1: gonna have dinner with him. I'm sorry. He didn't care
Speaker 1: about any of that. He didn't care about that, that
Speaker 1: wasn't your path at all. So he just completely miss
Speaker 1: understood a student, misunderstood. He chose to misunderstand the student
Speaker 1: he chose. He just he chose violence in a way
Speaker 1: that was absolutely unnecess unnecessary, harmful, purposeful in all the
Speaker 1: ways that a person can be harmful. It's like people
Speaker 1: talking about language. Language can cut just as much as
Speaker 1: any kind of physical violence. And you know, I really
Speaker 1: I hate that that happened to you, and you didn't
Speaker 1: deserve that. And I just want to tell you right now,
Speaker 1: like you know, whatever you feel about it is valid.
Speaker 1: I just I just say it once and I'm done.
Speaker 1: I said it. Yeah, we're gonna punch this ass out
Speaker 1: hout out, Like you said, it's far too many good
Speaker 1: teachers and great teacher experiences to let him win in
Speaker 1: that situation. And say what you're saying with Mr. Somebody
Speaker 1: on here know where these teachers weren't good. Neither of
Speaker 1: them won anything that part. They didn't win. They didn't
Speaker 1: win at all. The worst way possible. You all blossom.
Speaker 1: I'm talking about in their lives. I'm talking about an hour.
Speaker 1: They didn't win at all, not even the slightest, Mr Levin,
Speaker 1: do you even know? Do you even know? It's ugly?
Speaker 1: Could never? Do you know what they say about me today?
Speaker 1: You know what they say? Don't they sprints all to
Speaker 1: which I caused? Honey, But a mere smile, minkle in
Speaker 1: the eye, bitch down, Take the people down. All they
Speaker 1: need to see is the smile that they know is me? Sir?
Speaker 1: Do they know what you do? Does they want you? Good? Bye?
Speaker 1: Mr Leat. I'm gonna try my best not to mention
Speaker 1: him anymore, but it may come up. It may come
Speaker 1: up that man to which we should I'll not name, yes,
Speaker 1: which we shall not name, because we don't name them.
Speaker 1: We name people to give power them. Yeah, shout out
Speaker 1: the good one. But I like your thinking them. Take
Speaker 1: a deep breath, letten, take a deep breath. Man in
Speaker 1: this life right here? Y, it's a thing, is it not?
Speaker 1: It's a thing. It is a thing. Oh, I'm so
Speaker 1: grateful for age. Some people didn't make it. Yeah, yeah,
Speaker 1: I know. It's funny. My boyfriend always gets mad because
Speaker 1: I say it's been a long life, and he's like,
Speaker 1: why do you act like it's about the end. I'm like, no,
Speaker 1: I'm not acting like it's about the end. But you
Speaker 1: gotta understand, like, these first four decades, it's been a
Speaker 1: doing me. We'd have done some things. It's been a
Speaker 1: whole story, a whole story's many chapters in this book.
Speaker 1: Who many think about that? Listen, I don't know wherever
Speaker 1: you are. I don't I don't know exactly what you're
Speaker 1: doing except for listening to Jay dot Ilda podcasts, and
Speaker 1: we really thank you for that. I would love to
Speaker 1: share this poem about love. You ain't done that in
Speaker 1: a while. Come on, Jim, we like it when you
Speaker 1: do that. Man. This is This is written by Philadelphia
Speaker 1: poet Laureat Ursula Rucker. She writes, on this day, there
Speaker 1: will be no talk of war or politic or disaster
Speaker 1: or death. Love is alive today, so we will speak
Speaker 1: only of love. There will be only love on tom
Speaker 1: and up and in heart and thought. And it won't
Speaker 1: be that Hollywood type of love, not TV love, not
Speaker 1: dime store novel love, and certainly not mainstream music love. Love, love,
Speaker 1: you know love, love that has been worked on love
Speaker 1: like gardens and term papers. Love that has been nurtured,
Speaker 1: like children, and well like children. Love that falls, crashes,
Speaker 1: even burns, but dusts off, fixes up and rises, rises
Speaker 1: more brilliant than before. Phoenix love, Yeah, phoenix love. So
Speaker 1: let us speak only of love, healing love, No herbal
Speaker 1: or over the counsel, love, m real healing, love like God,
Speaker 1: love like mother's love, lovers love, child's love, like best friend.
Speaker 1: Love and change the world love, human love, humans love, love,
Speaker 1: soft love, heart word, but just love, enjoyed the new garden.
Speaker 1: Work on it together. Ursula Rucker. M m mmm mm hmmm,
Speaker 1: she said, no herbal or, over the counter, lover real healing,
Speaker 1: the combination of which cannot take the combination of her
Speaker 1: words and your voice. It's too much. It was just
Speaker 1: the words, the words. Fucking I love you, Ursula. We
Speaker 1: love you, Ursula in the words words, the words. Some
Speaker 1: people just have an understanding. M hm. And so we
Speaker 1: thank God, thank God, and we send love to the artists,
Speaker 1: to the poets, songwriters. Thank you all for the word makers, makers,
Speaker 1: the painters, the sculptors, thank you, We thank you. The dancers.
Speaker 1: Come on, all that evoke in of emotion the musicians listen.
Speaker 1: Thank you all for teaching us how to love mm
Speaker 1: hmm had the birds maybe that the actions, but you
Speaker 1: knew how to say it. Yeah, we want, she said,
Speaker 1: because some of them may live in we're talking about
Speaker 1: the were talking about. We're talking about the art. Love
Speaker 1: this show. Deep breaths. Take a moment and love yourself today. Okay,
Speaker 1: take fifty moments, take a thousand bucket, going to love
Speaker 1: yourself all day, all night. You're worth it and so deserving.
Speaker 1: Thank you so much for listening to Jay dot Ilga podcast.
Speaker 1: It is always our pleasure to have conversation that sparks conversation,
Speaker 1: love and light, y'all, how do you eat an elephant?
Speaker 1: One by it kind? Hello, dear listeners, it's Amber the
Speaker 1: producer here. I love this episode. I just love and
Speaker 1: we love ourselves, I really do. And we're finishing it
Speaker 1: out with Layah's completed assignments. Hey y'all, it's Laia and yes,
Speaker 1: I have reluctantly written my top five things that I
Speaker 1: love about me and shout say everybody's in my tribe
Speaker 1: that is challenged by this challenge. It ain't easy, but
Speaker 1: we have to do it all right, So here we
Speaker 1: go in no particular order. Number five, I am a
Speaker 1: conscious work in progress. I love that about me. Number four.
Speaker 1: I love that I try to consider all in most situations.
Speaker 1: Number three. I love that I refused to give up,
Speaker 1: but I am not opposed to giving in. You know
Speaker 1: what I'm laying. Number two, I love that I am
Speaker 1: open to most things and all kinds of adventures. Uh.
Speaker 1: Number one, I love how hard I love, no matter
Speaker 1: the outcome. And a bonus one for you and for me?
Speaker 1: What really for me? Because this is about me. I
Speaker 1: love the complexities of my tight walp okay and now
Speaker 1: challenge y'all see it's not easy, all right, you do it? Love,
Speaker 1: y'all see it the next show. Hi, you have comments
Speaker 1: on something that we said in this episode called eight
Speaker 1: six six. Hey, Jill, if you want to add to
Speaker 1: this conversation, that's eight six six nine five four five five.
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