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Speaker 3: Welcome back to Good Mom's Bad Choices. I'm Erica and
Speaker 3: I'm Nila.
Speaker 1: Happy Wednesday, Happy Wednesday, bechees.
Speaker 2: You don't even realize we need to do what? We
Speaker 2: need a Humpday shirt? Ooh, you know what I think?
Speaker 3: I told you this?
Speaker 2: You did.
Speaker 1: I feel like me and Erica are pinking in the brain.
Speaker 1: I'd be like, let's do this, and then three days
Speaker 1: later she's like, I have the greatest idea. I'd be like, Erica,
Speaker 1: I literally said this to.
Speaker 2: You when recently, like a month ago, Well, why didn't
Speaker 2: we do it?
Speaker 1: Because I probably forgot I was expecting you to remember.
Speaker 1: I'm happy to remember.
Speaker 2: Here we are.
Speaker 3: We do you need a Humpty shirt? Because we'll be humped.
Speaker 1: We do and our podcast comes out on Humpty because
Speaker 1: it's important.
Speaker 2: Yeah.
Speaker 3: Amen, how are you feeling?
Speaker 2: I'm good. I'm good. I'm comfy in my good mom's
Speaker 2: merch today. You know, I have our vintage tea on.
Speaker 2: I know you look beautiful. I love our this shirt
Speaker 2: specifically because I feel like it just goes with everything.
Speaker 1: It really does, and it looks classy and it just
Speaker 1: like it has a nice vintage wash on it, and
Speaker 1: it fits on the breast just perfectly.
Speaker 2: It looks good with my gold accents and jewelery. Yes,
Speaker 2: there are about some gold loving beaches. I know. I
Speaker 2: tried to like this is silver. It's like the only
Speaker 2: silver thing I own. It's cute. I mean it has
Speaker 2: gold on it.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I couldn't stray because gold is for royalties with
Speaker 3: silver flour coourse.
Speaker 1: The fuck pants medium to wealthy peasants, medium wealth. It's
Speaker 1: for medium wealth. But girl, this is for grand wealth.
Speaker 2: Oh okay, got it? Yal okay. I'm so excited.
Speaker 1: I feel like I'm all energized because Costa Rica is
Speaker 1: very soon. I'm feeling in my wellness space. I'm ready
Speaker 1: to like just let go and crack open and cry
Speaker 1: and shit. I've been in therapy, so I'm just feeling
Speaker 1: just rather empowered and ready for twenty twenty two. Someone
Speaker 1: told me that twenty twenty one whatever, it's a year
Speaker 1: of a five, twenty twenty.
Speaker 2: One and that's not good.
Speaker 1: What but twenty do that? But twenty twenty one. But
Speaker 1: twenty twenty two is a year of a six, so
Speaker 1: that's good.
Speaker 2: Oh okay, so yeah, but this year's good. I don't know.
Speaker 2: I'm not mad at this.
Speaker 1: I'm not mad at twenty twenty two, and everything's I
Speaker 1: did well, We're not mad at twenty twenty one, twenty one.
Speaker 1: It feels better to be in twenty five.
Speaker 2: Better here. But I was good there. I mean, I
Speaker 2: had a lot of anxiety, but I had to face it,
Speaker 2: and I feel better. I've been facing that, so I
Speaker 2: haven't had like a lot of anxiety over the last
Speaker 2: few weeks or months.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I feel renewed.
Speaker 1: I'm sorry, guys, I'm high. Heard the usual. I took
Speaker 1: a tink shure, which I usually don't do, but if you.
Speaker 2: Ask me right before, She's like, should I take this?
Speaker 2: You got you really high? And I was like, yeah,
Speaker 2: but I had COVID. When I took it, I didn't
Speaker 2: know I had COVID and I took the shit and
Speaker 2: I was hallucinating basically, so I said.
Speaker 3: I take it upon myself to take a full tink
Speaker 3: shirt today. Feeling good, feeling right.
Speaker 2: Well, don't worry, baby girl, I'll take the reins from here.
Speaker 2: Thanks you guys. Today we have a special guest. We
Speaker 2: have yet me sucking it up, Saddy Sanchez us in
Speaker 2: our accents.
Speaker 3: Today we have Chatty Sanchez.
Speaker 2: You like my sexy voice, Chattis I did that?
Speaker 3: Yeah, you guys made it sound really cute, really sexy.
Speaker 2: Jatty Sanchez is here. She is the mama entrepreneur. Do
Speaker 2: her of many things. I've been stalking your instagram and looking.
Speaker 2: I was like, she's a chef. I'm like, I need
Speaker 2: to come to her house. Plus, her kitchen looks really nice.
Speaker 2: I was like, what is his countertop?
Speaker 1: Me and Erica are like niggas sliding your DM so hard,
Speaker 1: Like she looks so pretty, she looks so cool.
Speaker 3: Oh she could cook.
Speaker 2: I love cook, I know, and actually sounds smart. Connected
Speaker 2: us and he was like, you have to meet her,
Speaker 2: egg because that's how you are. Yeah yeah, yeah, it.
Speaker 4: Was like, no, you have to meet her. You guys
Speaker 4: are going to be best friends.
Speaker 3: From now on. Like I was, like, he's so full
Speaker 3: of positive energy.
Speaker 2: He's happy. Bay guys, we talked about talked about him
Speaker 2: in the past, but like, yeah, you've talked about him
Speaker 2: on this podcast. Yeah, and he but he's like one
Speaker 2: of my best friends. Like I love that man dearly,
Speaker 2: and his energy is unmatched. It's unmatched, and he's a
Speaker 2: great connection. Truly.
Speaker 4: I had a dream about him last night, really, but
Speaker 4: I think because I was coming here. The dream was
Speaker 4: that he was trying to hire an assistant.
Speaker 2: I literally feel like he's with health.
Speaker 3: With health benefits.
Speaker 2: Specially I got to care about over there care and ship.
Speaker 3: I was like, Wow, this is a great job. We're
Speaker 3: going to give her health benefits.
Speaker 2: Sounds like him, I really care about her well being,
Speaker 2: making sure that she can also get therapy while working
Speaker 2: with him.
Speaker 1: I literally I wish that I could read dreams, because
Speaker 1: this is quite the specific one.
Speaker 4: Very I have very wild, vivid dreams me too, very
Speaker 4: very wild vivid.
Speaker 2: When's your birthday?
Speaker 3: February eleven? Oh, Aquarius, Aquarius? What about you?
Speaker 2: Guys?
Speaker 3: Cancer cool even to the stars and moons and knowledge?
Speaker 2: Yeah I am, yeah, you know you're rising in yours?
Speaker 3: What tors rising capricorn moon.
Speaker 2: Are you very organized?
Speaker 4: Yeah, I think like I'm very organized, and I think
Speaker 4: like because Aquariuses are also very just like aloof and
Speaker 4: like very airy, go with the flow, right, But the
Speaker 4: Capricorn grounds me in which like I work really hard,
Speaker 4: I'm almost orcolic like, and i really need to accomplish things,
Speaker 4: like I'm very big on that. So that's where that
Speaker 4: comes from. And then Taurus is like super earth grounded down.
Speaker 2: My daughter's a Taurus. I think my daughter too really
Speaker 2: game is my name some advice because she'll be a
Speaker 2: teenager one day? Yeah, they say the Taurus is also
Speaker 2: love luxury, which I've seen across the board. My god,
Speaker 2: seen it across the boarding my six year old.
Speaker 3: Yeah, my friend's been calling me bougie lately, just lately,
Speaker 3: more now than ever.
Speaker 4: But it's just because I just like nice things and
Speaker 4: comfortable things in my home.
Speaker 2: Like I think as you get older too, like it's
Speaker 2: just like that's you lean into that, you lean into
Speaker 2: whatever it is you're meant to lean into. And Tauruses,
Speaker 2: y'all love some comfortable, luxurious shit at all times, including
Speaker 2: my six year old child, which is strange.
Speaker 3: What does she what is it?
Speaker 2: She just likes like, first of all, she's like a
Speaker 2: little bit o CD, like she needs things to be
Speaker 2: like organized and clean, and she just loves soft things
Speaker 2: like she's really into like, oh my god, my daughter too, yeah, blankets, soft, sweatshirts, soft,
Speaker 2: anything like yeah, And it's the same way and just
Speaker 2: like cute shit. She just always wants like I don't know.
Speaker 2: My mom is a glandma I call her. My mom
Speaker 2: is also like level twenty five bougie and so them together,
Speaker 2: they're like my mom is like nurturing the bouginess in her,
Speaker 2: and I'm left behind because my mom has always been
Speaker 2: like why are you so cheap? And I'm like, I'm not.
Speaker 2: I just would rather have experiences. She's like, no, you
Speaker 2: should have matching pajamas at the underwears need to match.
Speaker 2: The blush needs to match that. Like I'm like, oh
Speaker 2: my god, the blush wonder. So yeah, anyway, I don't
Speaker 2: know how we got on this tange. And now we
Speaker 2: asked her what her sign was on I.
Speaker 3: Was speaking of the moons and the stars were such
Speaker 3: ally bitches. What's your sign?
Speaker 2: What's your rising? I know what's your moon.
Speaker 1: It's Tarot time, lady time, and today, well actually shout
Speaker 1: out to the mahogany tarot deck that we've been using
Speaker 1: to Kashira Hickson.
Speaker 2: Go and check out the mahogany tarot deck. It's a
Speaker 2: black deck and it's mom.
Speaker 1: But today we pulled the World card, and I I
Speaker 1: feel like, I don't know if we've ever pulled this
Speaker 1: card on the show, but the World card is I
Speaker 1: think it's about travel. And there's a naked woman wrapped
Speaker 1: in a purple cloth dancing inside a large lotrel wreath
Speaker 1: and she looks behind to her past while her body
Speaker 1: moves forward to the future, and her hands are two
Speaker 1: wands or baton's like the one the magician holds. It
Speaker 1: is a symbol that what was manifested with Magician has
Speaker 1: now come to completion with the World. It means the
Speaker 1: World card appears in a tarro reading You're glowing with
Speaker 1: a sense of wholeness, achievement, fulfillment and completion. A long
Speaker 1: term project, period of steady relationship or career has come
Speaker 1: full circle and you are now revealing in the sense
Speaker 1: of closure and accomplishment. This card could represent graduation, a marriage,
Speaker 1: the birth of a child, or achieving a long term
Speaker 1: hell dream or aspiration, or maybe a closing of a project.
Speaker 1: You have finally accomplished your goal or purpose and everything
Speaker 1: has come together and you are in the right place,
Speaker 1: doing the right thing, achieving what you have vision, and
Speaker 1: you feel whole and complete, and it encourages you to
Speaker 1: reflect in your journey and honor your achievements and tune
Speaker 1: into your spiritual lessons, celebrate your success, and bask in
Speaker 1: the joy of having brought your goals to fruition.
Speaker 3: Okay, maybe that speaks to you. I mean it speaks
Speaker 3: to me.
Speaker 2: I think all of us are workaholics. Yeah, and the
Speaker 2: completetion sometimes it's like setting back, basking and what you've completed. Yeah,
Speaker 2: sometimes it's hard for me to I don't I complete shit.
Speaker 2: I don't even acknowledge it. I just keep going yeah, yeah,
Speaker 2: I know, yeah, we're company over here. But yeah, sometimes
Speaker 2: I complete ship and I don't even realize I completed it.
Speaker 2: Like I moved on so quick that I didn't even
Speaker 2: celebrate the win of the completion of the thing.
Speaker 1: Well, because there's like then you've won and you have
Speaker 1: to hold on to the wind, and like how do
Speaker 1: you propel, Like how do you not go back down.
Speaker 3: From the wind sphere.
Speaker 2: That's like the thing I talked about last year saying
Speaker 2: how like I'm a little bit afraid of success because
Speaker 2: I don't know how I will maintain it, Like there's
Speaker 2: this like level of life, especially like I'm glad that
Speaker 2: like the progression of our podcast on our show has
Speaker 2: been slow, because it's like when people go from like
Speaker 2: zero to one hundred, Like I feel like there's even
Speaker 2: more anxiety are at least there would be for me?
Speaker 4: Yeah, right, I always hear that it's much better. Like
Speaker 4: gradual successes is a lot long term mentality, right, you
Speaker 4: want to think long term, so it's gonna take a
Speaker 4: while to to.
Speaker 3: Build, you know.
Speaker 4: Like I always think like how jay Z didn't put
Speaker 4: out his first album, I think until he was twenty
Speaker 4: six or twenty seven, and I think something like that,
Speaker 4: which is considered like older, right, but look at him,
Speaker 4: you know, slow and steady, like when.
Speaker 2: I mean look at no, look at uh this he
Speaker 2: two chains oh changed? Okay? Oh yeah, his career his forties, I.
Speaker 4: Think he was he was, yeah, he was around for
Speaker 4: a minute, but like obviously did his pops in that.
Speaker 2: Big success he had a different name.
Speaker 1: He was like Rapha andandered it a whole different Yeah,
Speaker 1: and has come a long motherfucking way just being steady steady.
Speaker 2: But I mean, I mean we're talking about men. I
Speaker 2: think the society is a lot more forgiving with men
Speaker 2: when it comes to that. I think with women especially,
Speaker 2: it's a lot different, especially if you're in certain forms
Speaker 2: of you know, entertainment specifically. Yeah, I mean, God.
Speaker 3: Was the expiration on you? Oh my god?
Speaker 2: What was I watching?
Speaker 3: I was watching something about like this actress was saying.
Speaker 2: Like the Hollywood expiration date for actresses is like forty,
Speaker 2: Like after forty her career changed and she couldn't even
Speaker 2: get acting roles, and like it was just like the
Speaker 2: agist in that in the industry of acting. I mean
Speaker 2: I've even felt that way too, like being like being
Speaker 2: acting since I'm like a kid, and then like getting
Speaker 2: older and older still not making it in the way
Speaker 2: that I wanted to, and be like am I going
Speaker 2: to age out of this shit or whatever?
Speaker 3: I even get where I feel like I should be.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I mean it's it's it's in so many industries,
Speaker 2: like the money, but I think that it's fake, It's
Speaker 2: not real. Obviously because we all age, I know, I'd
Speaker 2: just mean like not the aging part, but like that
Speaker 2: you have to like hurry up and accomplish this thing
Speaker 2: by a certain age, yeah, you know, and certainly like
Speaker 2: social media doesn't help that in any way. I know,
Speaker 2: you age out of that.
Speaker 1: You just it's just all these expectations at certain ages,
Speaker 1: especially because you see like nineteen year olds, you know,
Speaker 1: like the millionaires, and you think it's just like everyone's
Speaker 1: supposed to do it at the same time, like the
Speaker 1: seven year old has a million dollar YouTube?
Speaker 2: What the fuck am I doing? It's true, you know,
Speaker 2: seven year old in comparison is hard. Well that was
Speaker 2: a beautiful card, it is.
Speaker 1: I feel really I'm looking forward to like I mean,
Speaker 1: I feel like we're embodying it, and I feel like
Speaker 1: I'm in that flow of just like you know, like
Speaker 1: finally coming up and even just like just getting our
Speaker 1: whole all of our shit organized one like slowly, one
Speaker 1: by one, including ourselves, you know, going to therapy, getting
Speaker 1: an account and getting this shit, like you know, the
Speaker 1: little shit, like just the little therapy shout out to therapy.
Speaker 2: When did you start taking therapy?
Speaker 3: And I love my therapist MS Marie.
Speaker 2: Oh my god, you gotta stay therapist. Therapist.
Speaker 4: Wait Marie, she's over here and I've seen it.
Speaker 5: Yes, oh my god, yes, yeah, oh my god.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm so yeah, that's fucking great.
Speaker 3: So wait a minute, oh my god. When you just
Speaker 3: start going to miss Marie probably.
Speaker 2: Like five and a half years ago, what five or
Speaker 2: six years ago.
Speaker 3: Isn't she amazing?
Speaker 2: I fucking love her.
Speaker 3: I love her so much, like she's like mom Auntie.
Speaker 2: Yeah, she just keeps she's so she keeps it real. Yeah,
Speaker 2: because I'm grateful that she was my intro into therapy.
Speaker 2: I did go to like maybe one or two sessions,
Speaker 2: but it was just like, I just love that she
Speaker 2: doesn't just of course she says, well what do you
Speaker 2: think about that? Right? And then she'll also be like.
Speaker 3: Girl, you craty.
Speaker 2: Yeah, girl, you already know that nigga's not for you. Yeay,
Speaker 2: she just like I even brought I had a boyfriend
Speaker 2: last year. We brought her a year before in twenty
Speaker 2: twenty years, I went to.
Speaker 3: Go here, I brought trying to have you bring him in.
Speaker 2: No, No, she didn't have him. It was him, And
Speaker 2: I was like, well, if we're gonna go to therapy.
Speaker 2: We're going to my doctor or my therapist. And we
Speaker 2: went and the girl at I could see her face.
Speaker 2: Like the first few sessions she was like, girl, what
Speaker 2: are you doing? What are you doing? And then like
Speaker 2: the last session we had with him, she was like, honey,
Speaker 2: you should come by yourself one day. You should come
Speaker 2: because I hadn't been in solo therapy for a while.
Speaker 2: So I came. Yeah, she did. She had a message
Speaker 2: for me. Okay, baby, I broke up with that and
Speaker 2: get that to day. I remember, I remember you called me.
Speaker 1: She's like, Nila, I went to see my therapist alone.
Speaker 1: She had to post it with bullet points.
Speaker 2: Stitch. She had a posted with bullet points as to
Speaker 2: the reasons why, which she needed to talk to me
Speaker 2: about immediately. In the red flag that she was saying,
Speaker 2: she was like, you've done a lot of work on yourself,
Speaker 2: Like I know the work that you've done. You know
Speaker 2: you know that this is not right if you're in therapy.
Speaker 2: You already know, like it's too soon. You all should
Speaker 2: not be in therapy.
Speaker 4: No, she's been such an integral part of my growth
Speaker 4: the last three years.
Speaker 2: Like I love her so much.
Speaker 3: That's so cool. That's so cool. I'm going to see
Speaker 3: her actually soon, so I'm gonna be like, wait.
Speaker 2: A minute, I am see you tomorrow. Oh my god,
Speaker 2: tell her, I said, how I will.
Speaker 1: I think she thinks it's weird that I'm like, so
Speaker 1: you know Erica, So you know me and Erica And
Speaker 1: I'm like.
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, mother friend.
Speaker 3: She's like, you know, they're usually like so quiet. I'm like,
Speaker 3: if you see me in public, you better speak.
Speaker 2: I do.
Speaker 1: I do feel better feeling connected to my therapist. I
Speaker 1: know some people feel like they have to confide in them,
Speaker 1: like very secret things, so there's like a level of
Speaker 1: like separation, but like I need feedback.
Speaker 3: I need you to like she will say, like what
Speaker 3: happened to me? Not that you ask, but I'm like, yeah,
Speaker 3: I need to know about you.
Speaker 1: Too, so that we I feel a level of understanding
Speaker 1: and like yeah, and she challenges me and will like
Speaker 1: she does.
Speaker 2: And I'm early.
Speaker 1: I'm early, and I'm probably like six sessions in and
Speaker 1: now you can't tell me, like are you in therapy successions?
Speaker 2: Cetter, I'm like, you need to go to therapist.
Speaker 3: I've been doing the.
Speaker 1: Work, work work, and like, no matter how broke I
Speaker 1: am I'm going to transfer the money to take go
Speaker 1: to eve Marie. Yeah, I like whatever, but like this year,
Speaker 1: I feel like, is by any means necessary, No, Yeah,
Speaker 1: I will like whatever I need to do to maintain
Speaker 1: this level of just consistency and like like a real
Speaker 1: accountability partner that you're not can maybe brush off like
Speaker 1: it's your friend. Yeah, has been so deeply like I
Speaker 1: know that I'm ready too. That's what she asked me.
Speaker 1: She's like, have you been to therapy before? I was
Speaker 1: like yeah. She's like, well, what makes this She's like,
Speaker 1: what happened? I was like, eh, you know, shit happens.
Speaker 1: I stopped going. She's like, what makes this time different?
Speaker 1: And I was just like I'm ready. It's time. It's time.
Speaker 1: I get ready. I go right in start talking.
Speaker 2: Let me take about this week.
Speaker 4: When I first saw I went on Psychology Today to
Speaker 4: find her really yeah, and.
Speaker 2: I found her at a Facebook group.
Speaker 6: Really.
Speaker 4: I found her on Psychology Today dot com and I
Speaker 4: was like, at the last I was in such a
Speaker 4: really dark place in my life. I was like with
Speaker 4: my ex who I was living with, we were having
Speaker 4: like just such a difficult time, and like she answered
Speaker 4: the phone, so we like schedule to call like an
Speaker 4: initial kind of like you know, asking a little bit
Speaker 4: of questions here, and I literally couldn't get a word out.
Speaker 4: I was sobbing crying. I was like, she was like, okay, honey,
Speaker 4: I'm gonna email you the forms. You just come like
Speaker 4: she yeah. I was like immediately as soon as I
Speaker 4: heard her voice.
Speaker 3: I just like broke down crying.
Speaker 4: Yeah, but she saw me right away and like she's
Speaker 4: been my bestie.
Speaker 2: Yeah. Yeah, they're nothing bad that can come of therapy.
Speaker 4: She have a therapist, but yeah, everyone should definitely have therapy,
Speaker 4: no matter if you feel like, oh, I'm in a whole.
Speaker 3: I think everyone would benefit from it.
Speaker 2: I think the mistake that I've made the therapy is
Speaker 2: stopping once I felt like I didn't really need it.
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, but I will say that even her, she
Speaker 2: told me at one point like I've been going and
Speaker 2: she was like, you know, I think you're good. I
Speaker 2: think you should take a break, like oh I think.
Speaker 2: She was like, we weren't talking about shit. Let me
Speaker 2: tell you what about it.
Speaker 3: You weren't just like key king right.
Speaker 2: And she was like, girl, I don't want to take
Speaker 2: your money, Like call me when it.
Speaker 3: Feels like, you know, yeah, when it feels like that,
Speaker 3: I appreciate that.
Speaker 2: Yeah.
Speaker 3: I'm like, okay, now I'm just in here, key King.
Speaker 2: But now I'm back because some shit went down and
Speaker 2: I had triggering moment. I was like, Okay, I need
Speaker 2: to come back, and I'm gonna stay for a long
Speaker 2: time even.
Speaker 1: When I'm good, Okay, never leaving there.
Speaker 2: I know.
Speaker 1: She shared something with me that was super like, I
Speaker 1: am such a cancer that I do. I like to
Speaker 1: feel connected with people. And I came in on my
Speaker 1: second appointment and she was like, oh, I mentioned my brother.
Speaker 1: My brother's name is Massi. She's like, I have a
Speaker 1: Mazzie in my family.
Speaker 2: I was like, oh really.
Speaker 3: I kept talking and she's like.
Speaker 1: You know, when you came in last week, I thought
Speaker 1: you reminded me so much of my sister, and I
Speaker 1: thought about if.
Speaker 3: I could keep you as a client.
Speaker 1: And I was like, oh really, and she was like,
Speaker 1: my sister passed away and her brother, I mean, her
Speaker 1: son's name is Mazzie and I raised him. And she
Speaker 1: was like, and you, well, I guess she's like and
Speaker 1: she's such a light and you kind of remind me
Speaker 1: of her. And I was kind of triggered. She's like,
Speaker 1: but in twelve years of practice, she's never come in here,
Speaker 1: So I guess it's time.
Speaker 2: And I was like about to cry. I was like wow, I.
Speaker 3: Was like maybe.
Speaker 2: I was like maybe.
Speaker 1: I genuinely feel like in life, like as we coexist,
Speaker 1: like sometimes you have a message for people, and sometimes
Speaker 1: people have a message for you, and we miss opportunities
Speaker 1: not to connect with people that we feel like we
Speaker 1: don't know or we have guards up and like even strangers.
Speaker 1: You know, sometimes if you're open to receiving messages from
Speaker 1: every you know, every entity around you, God will send
Speaker 1: those messages that way.
Speaker 3: Absolutely.
Speaker 2: So when she said that, I was like, oh wow, Okay.
Speaker 3: I was like okay.
Speaker 1: I was like, I'm happy you decided to keep me
Speaker 1: and I feel like it's time too.
Speaker 2: And I hugged her on my left.
Speaker 1: I was like, because I'm fucking emotional for no reason.
Speaker 3: Like thank you God, because you knew that I know
Speaker 3: that she needed me and I.
Speaker 2: Needed her right now. No, it's true, I mean nothing.
Speaker 2: We know this that like pretty much everything and when
Speaker 2: you're in your alignment, like everything is divine, even this
Speaker 2: moment where we just discover that we all share the
Speaker 2: same therapist. I mean, it's this type of shit does
Speaker 2: happen all the time where it's like you can't it's
Speaker 2: not coincidence. It's not like there's just like an acknowledgement
Speaker 2: of like, Okay, god, I know I see the alignment. Yeah,
Speaker 2: speaking of therapy and alignment, do you have an information
Speaker 2: that maybe you can share with us today?
Speaker 4: So lately I've been really keen on this one because
Speaker 4: I like to control a lot, right, And I was
Speaker 4: like listening to this book by Deepak and he said
Speaker 4: everything is as it should be, nothing is out of alignment.
Speaker 4: And so I wake up in the morning and I
Speaker 4: like literally say that I'm not going to fight with
Speaker 4: the day. I'm not going to fight with what is.
Speaker 4: I'm not going to fight with whatever happens. Everything is
Speaker 4: exactly as it should.
Speaker 3: Be in this moment period.
Speaker 4: And when that like this level of like peace just
Speaker 4: washing it is over you, over me, Like when I'm
Speaker 4: like that's total like surrendering.
Speaker 2: Right. Yeah, So everything is as it should as it
Speaker 2: should be, and.
Speaker 4: Everything is as it should be, nothing is out of alignment.
Speaker 2: Everything is as it should be, nothing is.
Speaker 3: Out of alignment.
Speaker 2: And wow, that being the affirmation right after this conversation.
Speaker 3: It's so cool, honestly and truly.
Speaker 1: I know sometimes like we have guests every week, we
Speaker 1: have productions every week, and like you know, there's a
Speaker 1: lot of conversations to be had, but like it's so
Speaker 1: good when it just it always just flows because we're
Speaker 1: in direct alignment, and it's like and that's how it
Speaker 1: happens in your alignment. This is totally off topic, not really,
Speaker 1: but I was reading in the comments section. Okay, I
Speaker 1: guess Tiffany Hattish had basically said something actually wants some
Speaker 1: type of love or relationship.
Speaker 2: Broking news Tiffany hash single beach and comment un fucked
Speaker 2: up again because he keeps leaving bad bitches. I don't know, Like,
Speaker 2: how do you go from Angela Rye you have, Tiffany Hattish?
Speaker 2: What the nigga's got problems? I'm convinced. I don't care
Speaker 2: how woke you are in common. I know that there's
Speaker 2: something going on with it.
Speaker 3: They're like the super woke ones, so that are like
Speaker 3: the ones that are asleep and like, just like you,
Speaker 3: you're overthinking it, nigga. Yeah, okay, yeah, I was like,
Speaker 3: they don't be woke.
Speaker 2: You don't overthought it. And now I'm gone, you know.
Speaker 2: So I saw the cat.
Speaker 1: And the comments my black love relationship coach.
Speaker 2: Oh god, the trigger. Okay, So we have this therapist
Speaker 2: that's not a legal therapist on that has lots of followers,
Speaker 2: and she's a black love relationship coach. However, she's not
Speaker 2: in a relationship nor married.
Speaker 3: However, she came in because.
Speaker 2: She didn't know it's a black marriage relationship, black marriage
Speaker 2: and she's not married, never been, but she just wants
Speaker 2: to do. So we brought her on because if Jamila
Speaker 2: had a relationship like two years ago and she ended
Speaker 2: up cheating on him and she basically was like going
Speaker 2: to be the mediator in this conversation. It was on Patreon,
Speaker 2: and Miela was not pleased with this woman at all.
Speaker 1: Well, I just after I like took a second look
Speaker 1: at the situation.
Speaker 2: Not my actions per se, but just wait, what was
Speaker 2: the name of this episode? Because people need to look.
Speaker 2: If you're on Patreon, you need to go back and
Speaker 2: watch this shit. And then I did cheat it on
Speaker 2: Adventure Bay and then I cheated That's something like that.
Speaker 3: And then I cheated and then I cheated whatever.
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Speaker 1: Anyway, The fucking comment says, I know no one really
Speaker 1: wants to hear this.
Speaker 2: No they don't, but you have to.
Speaker 1: Women have to choose. Are you going to be a
Speaker 1: woman a career woman? Are you going to be a
Speaker 1: woman with a career, Because if you want love, you
Speaker 1: have to give it time to show up and like
Speaker 1: the time that you need. So it just triggered me
Speaker 1: that you think that as a woman, I should either
Speaker 1: be a career woman or a woman with career because
Speaker 1: I should be able to step away from my career
Speaker 1: to invest in a relationship.
Speaker 2: But so she was saying that you can't invest in
Speaker 2: a relationship and also have.
Speaker 1: A career, Basically, you can't have you basically, Like, I'm
Speaker 1: just I don't know.
Speaker 3: It's so then why why can the men do it?
Speaker 2: Exactly? I guess exactly somehow because the women are the
Speaker 2: women done sacrifice.
Speaker 3: That's why somebody always has to find and it should
Speaker 3: be me.
Speaker 2: I believe that there is a like a recalibration that
Speaker 2: is happening in society right now because men are not
Speaker 2: accustomed to women being busy. Like I was just having
Speaker 2: this conversation with a friend of mine. She's a chef
Speaker 2: and she's fucking killing it, and she was just saying,
Speaker 2: how like the past two men that she's dated have
Speaker 2: been like, yeah, you're too busy for me, Like I
Speaker 2: don't want to date you.
Speaker 3: Yeah.
Speaker 2: Yeah, they don't know what to do with themselves. Yeah,
Speaker 2: they're like what I'm like, so let me get this right.
Speaker 3: You're making you're getting a bag, so.
Speaker 2: They can't handle it. Yeah, Like she canceled like a
Speaker 2: like a dinner date like at nine am that was
Speaker 2: supposed to be like eight pm, and it was too
Speaker 2: much for him because she was about to go get
Speaker 2: a big ass bag for chefing, like an event.
Speaker 3: That was stress out even like they even arguing me
Speaker 3: with me about this, because that wouldn't even be a
Speaker 3: question about on the other end, like no, please get them.
Speaker 2: Go go get that money. I'll after you.
Speaker 3: You don't pay on you, you know, just be cool
Speaker 3: about it.
Speaker 2: I don't. Yeah. Yeah.
Speaker 1: So I was like immediately triggered by that, and then
Speaker 1: I came up with my own, which I think is
Speaker 1: the truest and the truest.
Speaker 2: It's fact.
Speaker 1: I feel like if you are walking in your purpose,
Speaker 1: you'll for sure walk into your partner.
Speaker 2: Amen.
Speaker 3: Amen, Amen, that's absolutely right.
Speaker 2: Because you know what, Yeah, because you're walking into everything.
Speaker 2: Everything is aligned.
Speaker 1: I don't have to worry about it if I'm too focused
Speaker 1: here that I'm not going to find love, because I'm
Speaker 1: going to find a love in alignment in fact, with
Speaker 1: my existence, because my existence is a part of my
Speaker 1: purpose in this realm. Like what I'm doing is so
Speaker 1: much bigger than me, and you're never going to step
Speaker 1: in and dilute that, and you're not going to shame
Speaker 1: me or guilty or make me feel bad for pursuing
Speaker 1: that purpose.
Speaker 3: In fact, you're going to be in the purpose.
Speaker 2: You're part of the purpose part. That's what you get
Speaker 2: to be part of it. You get to be team Meland.
Speaker 2: Yeah yeah, yeah, no, that's so true. And what a
Speaker 2: bitch to write that. Honestly, Well, of course you put like,
Speaker 2: I know it's going to know that the marriage counselorate. No. Oh,
Speaker 2: she wrote that. She's the one who wrote the comment.
Speaker 2: I said it, what a bitch. I wanted to I
Speaker 2: wanted to respond. I was like, let me leave. Some
Speaker 2: people say shit just for she wants people to go
Speaker 2: to her Instagram exactly.
Speaker 3: And some women and you know what could.
Speaker 2: Want to be Kevin Samuels. Oh my god, she's a
Speaker 2: female Kevin Samuel.
Speaker 3: Kevin Samuels, Oh my god, she's the female Kevin Samuel.
Speaker 3: Kevin Samuels would tear her apart because she sounds like it.
Speaker 2: No, she's not him, because it's just not the same thing.
Speaker 1: But she's the opposite of him.
Speaker 3: Sorry, I just had to get that off my chest.
Speaker 3: I saw that in the shade rim. I just everybody
Speaker 3: did know that I was pissed. I didn't like that,
Speaker 3: and I don't remember.
Speaker 1: Ship, but if I remembered the specifics of this caption
Speaker 1: in this quote, I was very I just think that
Speaker 1: as like as multi dimensional women sexual beings. I mean,
Speaker 1: because let's face it, you cannot be a woman without
Speaker 1: also you know, you.
Speaker 2: Can't remove the sex.
Speaker 3: You can't remove the sex from being a woman.
Speaker 2: What is it? Am? I mean? Sexuality? Sex, all of it,
Speaker 2: like is the.
Speaker 1: Divine feminine that is a part of my existence. I
Speaker 1: just think that we get fed so much like false
Speaker 1: messaging around being a mother and also being sexual, even
Speaker 1: though that we had sex to be moms.
Speaker 3: But I just like, how do you get a lot
Speaker 3: of backlash from that?
Speaker 1: Because sometimes we do, I mean a lot of times
Speaker 1: we don't because people are empowered.
Speaker 3: But like also just that like.
Speaker 1: Your mom you should sit down, or like oh now
Speaker 1: you're my woman, you should have a seat.
Speaker 3: Do you have to you like deal with those challenges
Speaker 3: because we do.
Speaker 4: I used to a lot back in the day on
Speaker 4: my like ratchet thoughty days that it is still in me.
Speaker 3: You know, I just grew up, you know what I mean?
Speaker 4: But I would get that a lot, like just from
Speaker 4: people commenting and how man I dated.
Speaker 2: I mean I think even I mean I know that
Speaker 2: you were a teen mom, and so like being able
Speaker 2: to feel empowered in your ratchet thoughtiness even at that
Speaker 2: age and saying can and just pushing through me like
Speaker 2: that's who I am, bitch. Where do you think that
Speaker 2: comes from? Was it something that you just kind of
Speaker 2: avoided avoided and or like ignored or and just.
Speaker 4: I'm just always like like that's a good question, like
Speaker 4: where does that come from? I feel like I was
Speaker 4: always very big on like honoring myself at every stage
Speaker 4: of my life, like even as a young as a
Speaker 4: youngin like I was always like outspoken and like just
Speaker 4: very outgoing and just very like I am me, Like
Speaker 4: you're gonna take her, you're gonna leave it, Like that
Speaker 4: was always my attitude.
Speaker 2: So that's how I dealt with it.
Speaker 4: But I was how New York you yeah, yeah, and
Speaker 4: so but it did still affect me, like those comments
Speaker 4: had me. I went through a lot, Like you know,
Speaker 4: I was bullied a lot, cyber bullied, and it even
Speaker 4: like I was even suicidal at one point because of
Speaker 4: the bullying.
Speaker 3: Just people saying you're a.
Speaker 2: Whole you should.
Speaker 3: They had said things like you're a terrible mother, not
Speaker 3: knowing who.
Speaker 2: Who I am as a parent, You're a.
Speaker 3: Disgrace, like you should die, like just like crazy.
Speaker 4: Whit shit, like people are crazy, people are crazy online.
Speaker 4: But you know, as a as a young girl like
Speaker 4: eighteen nineteen, reading those things, I was very firm, I
Speaker 4: like on who I.
Speaker 2: Was, But you don't know who you are yet.
Speaker 4: I mean, you know what I'm saying. I'm growing, So
Speaker 4: reading those things, I took it very personal and I
Speaker 4: took it as and I brought it on as like
Speaker 4: part of my identity and I.
Speaker 2: Lived with a lot of self hatred for a while.
Speaker 2: But yeah, this story could go no, no, I left.
Speaker 2: I mean, I think that's really important conversation, especially I
Speaker 2: know that you were a teen mom, Like how old
Speaker 2: do you mean had your daughter fifteen? I mean you're
Speaker 2: a child essentially a baby? Yeah, raising a baby, And
Speaker 2: I mean I'm sure there was a lot of even
Speaker 2: shame in that too.
Speaker 3: A lot of shame.
Speaker 4: So like, so me and her dad decided together to
Speaker 4: have the baby, but this was after I didn't want
Speaker 4: to at first, because I didn't want to disappoint my
Speaker 4: mom and all of this, but again timing and just
Speaker 4: you know, no incidences. It's so crazy how it happened.
Speaker 4: Like I remember I skipped school that day to go
Speaker 4: to Planned Parenthood and make the appointment, and you know,
Speaker 4: they give it to you in an envelope and stuff.
Speaker 2: So I had the envelope in my book bag.
Speaker 4: I walk in and my mom's like, so the door
Speaker 4: is there, the kitchen's right here, and my mom's like,
Speaker 4: you weren't in school today And I was like, yes,
Speaker 4: I was. She's like, no, you weren't come here, give
Speaker 4: me your book back.
Speaker 2: I'm like, oh shit, Mom's just me knowing.
Speaker 4: So she like grabbed my book back for whatever reason,
Speaker 4: like she never ever looked through my book back, but
Speaker 4: that day she wanted to look through my book back.
Speaker 4: She grabbed the envelope and was like what is this.
Speaker 4: She started reading it, so she barely can read English.
Speaker 4: She's you know, she's Dominican, and so she takes it
Speaker 4: to my sister and she's like, read this, translate this
Speaker 4: for me, and I like run away from home and
Speaker 4: you like like ran.
Speaker 2: That moment out. You're like, I'm out. I ran for
Speaker 2: the door. I was like, I'm out. Then I ran
Speaker 2: for the door.
Speaker 4: I ran away from home, like I like ran away,
Speaker 4: called my baby father.
Speaker 3: I was like, let's run away. We were like planning
Speaker 3: the first like Bonnie and Clyde.
Speaker 2: Oh that song that Dusney child that played in my head.
Speaker 2: We literally like ran away together. Where you go?
Speaker 3: So like his friend's house up the street, the street,
Speaker 3: and like his friend was like providing shelter for us.
Speaker 3: It's so dramatic, but for how long?
Speaker 5: Just for like a few hours, not providing shelter in
Speaker 5: teenage and teenage time, that's a long time.
Speaker 3: We were on the run.
Speaker 4: So my sister knew, you know, one of my sisters
Speaker 4: who was also Hella Cool, she knew about me having
Speaker 4: a boyfriend, so.
Speaker 3: She would like always hide little secrets for me. But
Speaker 3: she knew where he was at.
Speaker 4: So anyways, we got caught and his mom and his
Speaker 4: sister and him were.
Speaker 3: Like, don't kill the baby, don't kill the baby.
Speaker 4: And then I just then me and him decided and
Speaker 4: we're like, oh, you know what, actually, yeah, let's have
Speaker 4: the babies.
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Speaker 4: You know, my mom took me the Planned Parenthood though
Speaker 4: she was like you're keeping this appointment. I don't care
Speaker 4: what you say, like you're keeping this appointment. So she
Speaker 4: takes me on. Took Planned Parenthood on the day. I'm
Speaker 4: in the waiting room and I.
Speaker 2: Like, walk out. She wanted you to do.
Speaker 6: Yeah.
Speaker 4: She took me to the and I was always so
Speaker 4: scared of my mom. So I was like, oh fuck,
Speaker 4: I'm gonna go. Like she wants me to do this,
Speaker 4: I'm gonna go. So I like sat in the waiting
Speaker 4: area and I was just like I couldn't do it,
Speaker 4: So like I got up and I walked out, and
Speaker 4: my mom.
Speaker 3: Was like, what are you doing?
Speaker 4: She made like this whole scene up and was like
Speaker 4: telling the ladies to like make me go inside the room,
Speaker 4: and they were like, ma'am in this country, like this
Speaker 4: is her body, her choice, so she we can't force
Speaker 4: her to do anything.
Speaker 3: And mom was like, what kind of country is this?
Speaker 2: Like America?
Speaker 3: America? And then like we go eat KFC, and then
Speaker 3: she starts talking to like my family and they're like yeah,
Speaker 3: she says she's gonna keep it. Not over that, not
Speaker 3: even conversation in front of you over fifteen minutes hasn't passed. Yeah,
Speaker 3: fifteen minutes later, we.
Speaker 4: Like having fried chicken and she's telling my whole family
Speaker 4: in dr Then I'm like decided to have this baby.
Speaker 4: I'm just like, oh my god. But obviously now my
Speaker 4: daughter's like my mom's like.
Speaker 2: Yeah, what was it? What was the what was your
Speaker 2: the support? Like after that, I mean you had you
Speaker 2: had men support.
Speaker 4: So after that, I mean, me and my mom didn't
Speaker 4: speak for a bit. But then when I went to
Speaker 4: go get the sonogram to find out the gender, I
Speaker 4: didn't expect her to call me, but she like called
Speaker 4: me and was like did you find out?
Speaker 3: And I was like it's a girl. She was like oh,
Speaker 3: and then like she was like all happy.
Speaker 4: And then like after that, she would come home from
Speaker 4: work all the time with clothes and things for the
Speaker 4: baby and yeah, and then when I went back to
Speaker 4: school right away, just like I didn't even wait.
Speaker 3: I think I waited.
Speaker 2: Like two weeks and I went back to school because
Speaker 2: I was.
Speaker 3: On a mission. I was like, what grade were you in?
Speaker 3: Ninth grade? I was a freshman. Oh my gosh, so
Speaker 3: you can already.
Speaker 4: Know like all the teachers, counselors, everybody was like looking
Speaker 4: down on me.
Speaker 2: So I had to prove some thing.
Speaker 4: I'm like, I'm graduating on time in a New York
Speaker 4: assistant called Region's diploma, meaning you scored higher than a
Speaker 4: seventy five on all your exams, meaning that's like an
Speaker 4: above average or whatever, so you get like a special
Speaker 4: thing for that. So I was like, I'm going to
Speaker 4: do it, and I'm going to get my region's diploma.
Speaker 4: So I was, like, I'm back in school, like and yeah,
Speaker 4: I graduated on time and everything. But that obviously thanks
Speaker 4: to my mom and his family, who till this day
Speaker 4: are there you know him not so much.
Speaker 2: But yeah, that's amazing though, that you were able to
Speaker 2: complete like a complete A will first of all, complete
Speaker 2: high school because you had your baby in ninth grade.
Speaker 2: I mean that's four years of like really trying to
Speaker 2: navigate such a critical time in your life. And were
Speaker 2: you able to participate in like the activities of like
Speaker 2: a typical high school or were you just I tried.
Speaker 4: Like, so I dealt with like a lot of like
Speaker 4: guilt when I would like want to hang out with
Speaker 4: my friends after school.
Speaker 2: I dealt with a lot of guilt.
Speaker 3: My mom never really made me feel guilty though, So.
Speaker 4: I will say that, like my mom was never like
Speaker 4: a because I feel like she understood.
Speaker 3: You know, I started working too, So I worked at
Speaker 3: the children's place after.
Speaker 4: School, and you know, I was making a little money
Speaker 4: and I was like able to get clothes for my
Speaker 4: daughter from there because you get like crazy discounts and
Speaker 4: like whatever.
Speaker 3: So like she wasn't like hard on me because I
Speaker 3: was also like a good kid all around.
Speaker 4: I was just like, you know, just making this choice, yeah,
Speaker 4: making this choice, Like I owned up to this choice
Speaker 4: that I made, and but I would hang out with friends.
Speaker 2: Yeah.
Speaker 4: Like I went to school in the city on twenty
Speaker 4: third and seventh av I went to Fashion Industries, graduated
Speaker 4: with majored in fashion design. I like wanted to be
Speaker 4: a fashion designer, but I was able to have like
Speaker 4: a to the most part, a nice teenage what is
Speaker 4: it time dating.
Speaker 3: My baby father?
Speaker 2: I was eighteen okay, okay, yeah, we.
Speaker 3: Was on some together forever.
Speaker 2: Yeah.
Speaker 4: So but and then you know, after eighteen, I was
Speaker 4: just like I started doing music videos.
Speaker 2: So I got how did how did that happen? You
Speaker 2: were like, fuck children's place, I need to get this
Speaker 2: money real quick, and I'm too fine and cute.
Speaker 3: People would be like, you should be in music video.
Speaker 3: You should be in music videos, and I was like, okay.
Speaker 2: The fact that like music video specifically, yeah, you have
Speaker 2: a music video girl.
Speaker 1: Look, so that Wassically that was my childhood dream.
Speaker 2: I think a lot of us.
Speaker 1: I was like, I want to yea Gloria on the
Speaker 1: big pimpin video was like my hero.
Speaker 5: Yes.
Speaker 4: Want.
Speaker 2: I was like, when I'm older, my body will look
Speaker 2: like that.
Speaker 1: My dad let his friend's babysit me, and they're like,
Speaker 1: what do you want to be in your girl? Or
Speaker 1: I'm like a dancer and they're like, like a ballet dancer.
Speaker 3: I was like, no, like a video dancer.
Speaker 2: Oh my god, say that's five.
Speaker 4: I'm a background dancer. Like yeah, But I always wanted
Speaker 4: to do something in entertainment, like as a kid, I wanted.
Speaker 2: To model or act or whatever.
Speaker 4: So I was like, oh, you know, this is kind
Speaker 4: of like acting. I guess like I went and I
Speaker 4: was like on Craigs was like responding to ads all
Speaker 4: the time, like need video vixen, need video models. And
Speaker 4: then like I was seventeen, a junior in high school,
Speaker 4: and I got a fake ID and I.
Speaker 2: Was like, you know, because you have to be eighteen.
Speaker 4: So I was like, I'm eighteen And I got into
Speaker 4: this video for the dream rocking that thing, and it
Speaker 4: was just like such a bizarre time in high school
Speaker 4: becuse people are like, are you that girl like from
Speaker 4: the music video who was also a teen mom like,
Speaker 4: you're crazy, but I'm doing it.
Speaker 3: Though, yeah, so it was interesting. I don't rarely do
Speaker 3: I get to talk about this, bringing up a lot
Speaker 3: of memories for me right now.
Speaker 2: Did you enjoy it though? Like did you feel empowered
Speaker 2: at doing it? And then I like it?
Speaker 3: Yeah?
Speaker 1: You know, what I think is really interesting about this
Speaker 1: story is like a lot of times when you hear
Speaker 1: about like teen pregnancies, nobody really talks about the teenagers
Speaker 1: right a lot oftentimes that's taken away from them their choice.
Speaker 1: Like I was pregnant in ninth grade and I felt
Speaker 1: really connected to this like baby, because I was scared
Speaker 1: to tell my mom and eventually had an abortion, but
Speaker 1: I also felt like that was my only choice. I
Speaker 1: also felt like that's what I wanted to do too,
Speaker 1: and like I'm grateful that I had that choice. But
Speaker 1: we rarely talk about the teen moms that are really
Speaker 1: good moms and the teen moms that want to stick
Speaker 1: in their decision and want to have a baby. And
Speaker 1: that's sometimes like reluctantly like your mom like lay her
Speaker 1: ass down, Oh you can't like, and then you spend
Speaker 1: the whole time not supporting them, you know, and hopefully
Speaker 1: you have parents that like if you decide to do this,
Speaker 1: I'm going to have your back no matter what. But
Speaker 1: a lot of times that's not the case, and you
Speaker 1: are ostracized by your family and by your community every
Speaker 1: little mistake, every little thing you make. It so you've
Speaker 1: made this decision.
Speaker 3: You you know you want to go to prom, Well.
Speaker 1: You did that, and you made this choice, and you're
Speaker 1: not empowered in it. And it's just like, you know,
Speaker 1: everybody has the choice, a choice, no matter how old
Speaker 1: you are, as women and as girls. And I mean,
Speaker 1: I'm not like Luna would definitely try to make them
Speaker 1: keep her there, but you know what I mean. But
Speaker 1: like it's just it's nice to hear like a real
Speaker 1: story from like a success story ultimately, because it's not
Speaker 1: always the sadness or like.
Speaker 4: It doesn't have to be I think. I mean, of
Speaker 4: course there's going to be like the trials and tribulations.
Speaker 4: It wasn't fucking easy.
Speaker 2: You know.
Speaker 4: And because my daughter had to grow with me, I
Speaker 4: call her like my little writer died, my little writer
Speaker 4: because she was with me through so many mistakes and
Speaker 4: so many like I couldn't give her what I wanted
Speaker 4: to from a young age. I couldn't, you know what
Speaker 4: I mean, So but then again, it's like when are
Speaker 4: we ever really ready for parenthood? We can be financially ready,
Speaker 4: like if we want to call it the readiness that
Speaker 4: then it's like financially ready. But yeah, regardless, I feel
Speaker 4: like there's still a lot of a lot of nice
Speaker 4: and good you know. I just think like the lessons
Speaker 4: and just the empowerment I found in it and all
Speaker 4: those choices that I made, Like, yeah.
Speaker 2: Do you think that because your daughter has grown with you,
Speaker 2: like and you kind of grew together, Like you were saying,
Speaker 2: what are some the like things that maybe I don't know,
Speaker 2: like maybe some of your regrets that have now cultivated
Speaker 2: and maybe you have changed, like maybe be able to
Speaker 2: rectify in some way or maybe not, Like was there
Speaker 2: ever a time where you were like damn, Like she
Speaker 2: had to experience that because I was a child and
Speaker 2: I didn't know better, you know.
Speaker 4: So there was a point when I got really busy.
Speaker 4: So after I got into music videos, then I just
Speaker 4: like my life just took off. And this was like
Speaker 4: at the beginning of Twitter and social media and Instagram.
Speaker 4: So that's when like girls were like hosting parties, get
Speaker 4: in a bag real quick.
Speaker 2: That was the beginning that I never forgot about that shit.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I know it's because of.
Speaker 2: This, but it was like heavy.
Speaker 3: Yeah.
Speaker 4: So I was like one of like the pioneers, like
Speaker 4: so to speak, because I was when Twitter first started
Speaker 4: and then Instagram came on, Like I think on Instagram,
Speaker 4: I got an Instagram calling twenty eleven, and so I
Speaker 4: was gone a lot, hosting parties and shit, hosting parties
Speaker 4: and shit and.
Speaker 2: Making a lot of money. I'm making a lot.
Speaker 4: Of money, yeah, yeah, And I was able to, like,
Speaker 4: you know, I moved out at a young age. I
Speaker 4: was like paying rent at twenty, like I was just
Speaker 4: like handling it all on my own, right. So I
Speaker 4: just feel like I missed out on some on some moments,
Speaker 4: and I feel like she might have like wanted me.
Speaker 2: Around a lot, which a lot more because she ever,
Speaker 2: do you guys ever have those kind of conversations like
Speaker 2: about your pit past versus like who you are as
Speaker 2: a mother now? Because I know she's she's a teenager now,
Speaker 2: like how old is she?
Speaker 3: Fifteen? Fifteen?
Speaker 1: Isn't that so crazy to see her and like know
Speaker 1: that you had a baby at that age saying I.
Speaker 4: Know this was like honestly, when she turned fifteen. This
Speaker 4: year was such an emotional like birthday because this is
Speaker 4: like when I gave birth to her, And you know,
Speaker 4: I always wondered about what this time would look like
Speaker 4: for us. Like I'm always like, oh my god, when
Speaker 4: I turned thirty, she's going to be fifteen.
Speaker 2: What is that going to be like?
Speaker 4: And like here I am, and it's just like, first
Speaker 4: of all, time please slow down, right.
Speaker 2: But also what the hell?
Speaker 4: Like, I don't know, time is just such a trippy
Speaker 4: concept for me.
Speaker 2: I think especially parents really see it in motion. Yes,
Speaker 2: you see the evolution in your house every day you're
Speaker 2: like what the fuck?
Speaker 3: Truly truly, but yeah, I think it was that.
Speaker 4: And you know, she was like at the babysitter a lot,
Speaker 4: or like with my mom, and like I know, she
Speaker 4: didn't have the best time at the babysitter, which I
Speaker 4: didn't find out till later on that she just didn't
Speaker 4: like it. And like, you know, just think those kind
Speaker 4: of things in which I wish I was a little.
Speaker 3: Bit more prideful, mindful, mindful and present. Yeah, I think
Speaker 3: no matter what age we have kids, like there's always
Speaker 3: gonna be like especially your first.
Speaker 2: Kid, you just don't know. There's no blueprint. You're gonna
Speaker 2: fuck up.
Speaker 1: You're gonna do things that you're like later on, like damn,
Speaker 1: I could have been more intentional, Like damn should I
Speaker 1: have done that?
Speaker 3: Yeah?
Speaker 1: Damn sure that she did. This person have to know
Speaker 1: my kid, Damn, Like you know what I mean, there's
Speaker 1: all these like obviously when you're older, you're like a
Speaker 1: little bit more maybe aware of like the the hurt
Speaker 1: that you've experienced as a child, but as you like
Speaker 1: girl and you know.
Speaker 2: Just be a parent.
Speaker 1: It is really about growing yourself and realizing your parents
Speaker 1: fucked up with you so that you can provide a better,
Speaker 1: you know, like situation for your kid. And like I'm
Speaker 1: a safer place, but ultimately there's no avoiding it.
Speaker 4: Yeah, there's something I take really to heart that I've
Speaker 4: been like making peace with. And I think it's like her, Okay,
Speaker 4: so I didn't really have a father figure, right My
Speaker 4: father story is very complex, but like for her, just
Speaker 4: but this was out of my control. I mean, like
Speaker 4: her dad is addicted to drugs and I'll cal and
Speaker 4: like to the point where like he's messed himself up mentally,
Speaker 4: like he's like not okay up here.
Speaker 3: You know.
Speaker 4: So I just like for me, it was like heavy
Speaker 4: because I'm like, damn, y'all like this, I didn't want
Speaker 4: to repeat this story, you know, making I've made peace
Speaker 4: with it, because do you mean to repeat the story
Speaker 4: in the sense of like no father cycle the cycle,
Speaker 4: the cycle, because like with your father around or no,
Speaker 4: yes and no, but not for the same thing.
Speaker 3: Yeah, no, I get it.
Speaker 2: I mean even the the stigma being a single parent,
Speaker 2: Like you're saying, like that's that's the whole that's what
Speaker 2: we are sitting here every day trying to like like
Speaker 2: destigmatize essentially.
Speaker 4: But then it's also like it's very conventional at the
Speaker 4: same time, right, like the whole idea of like two
Speaker 4: parents in the home and why can't it be okay
Speaker 4: to just be a mom with with your child And
Speaker 4: that's also okay.
Speaker 2: That's also beautiful. You know, you can also do both.
Speaker 3: Doesn't have to be the story that I guess society has.
Speaker 2: Sold us, you know, like despair.
Speaker 4: Yeah, like two parents in the home, Like I have
Speaker 4: plenty of friends I have had two parents in the
Speaker 4: home and are like literally like on antidepressants and.
Speaker 2: Like all kind of stand each other.
Speaker 4: And because the parents, because the parents there is no
Speaker 4: perfect way to be honest, and like this is our
Speaker 4: way of doing it. Like I'm like, we're a little team.
Speaker 4: It's me and my kid, Like we're in this together.
Speaker 4: I always saw her that and and that's also.
Speaker 2: Fine, you know. Yeah, and that's also so cool, so cool,
Speaker 2: you know, Like I feel like I don't know, I'm
Speaker 2: obviously we have girls, but I'm so grateful that I
Speaker 2: have a girl. I'm so grateful that, like if I'm
Speaker 2: gonna be single and be a single parent, I have
Speaker 2: my little girl, my little girlfriend. Yeah, and we are
Speaker 2: in this together and we can have these conversations and
Speaker 2: I'm going to make sure you're better than me. And
Speaker 2: I promise you that you will leave when I leave
Speaker 2: this earth, you will be better than me. That is
Speaker 2: my goal.
Speaker 4: Already, I can always tell she's she's way cooler than me,
Speaker 4: she's smart, she's just everything.
Speaker 2: Like yeah, and that's where and that's where like all
Speaker 2: the shame and the guilt. Like I'm like when I
Speaker 2: see like what I consider better showing up, I'm like, okay,
Speaker 2: it's working.
Speaker 3: Yeah, Like okay, I'm giving her all my good.
Speaker 2: Shit, sprinkling our past trauma, and I'm like don't do that.
Speaker 1: So also just like just like setting her up to
Speaker 1: be prepared for the gas lights, like to catch them,
Speaker 1: you know, Like I think that's as women, there's so
Speaker 1: much of that that happens second guessing ourselves. I'm just like,
Speaker 1: if I could just correct those little moments of like
Speaker 1: she's like, she says something to me, she's just like
Speaker 1: her dad wouldn't play the song she wanted him to play.
Speaker 1: She's like, Daddy isn't fair. He sometimes isn't being fair
Speaker 1: to me. And I couldn't even like say shit because
Speaker 1: I was like, I don't want to hear this shit either.
Speaker 2: He isn't fair.
Speaker 1: I wanted to suggest the song too, you want to
Speaker 1: hear Booty Lshoues and I, but it was just like
Speaker 1: you know, just letting her know like sometimes people are
Speaker 1: going to play.
Speaker 2: Do it anyway, you know, like turn up anyway, like no.
Speaker 1: It's not you, you know, And it's just like as women,
Speaker 1: you know, specifically like apologizing like you know, but we
Speaker 1: first have to evolve about a certain shit that we
Speaker 1: were taught was okay to like then pass it down.
Speaker 1: But as we do, it's just like those cycles slowly
Speaker 1: begin to break, those cycles that, like, you know, like
Speaker 1: they're going to be so much more intentional than we
Speaker 1: were because we're giving to the game early, you know,
Speaker 1: less distracted by niggas hopefully, you know, like just like more.
Speaker 2: The dating of boys is scary, you're around that stage,
Speaker 2: I'm scared, scared as hell.
Speaker 4: But honestly, I'm on the the non gender what is it?
Speaker 3: Non binary? Non binary? Sorry, I'm like, I sound so old.
Speaker 6: This.
Speaker 3: She's a star.
Speaker 4: No more gender norms, mom, Okay, so then what what's happening?
Speaker 4: She's like, I'm she her but okay, I don't know.
Speaker 2: She's just I'm just acknowledging that.
Speaker 4: Yeah, so she's trying to teach me how this is going.
Speaker 4: And then like I think at one point she was
Speaker 4: like wanted to be non binary?
Speaker 2: How do you? How do you deal with that? Not deal?
Speaker 2: But like I'm just curious, like especially for someone who's
Speaker 2: STI understanding it and learning it and like being able
Speaker 2: to support her if that's what she if that's what
Speaker 2: she wants to do for now or whatever.
Speaker 3: Or long term.
Speaker 4: Honestly, I just my kid, Like whatever is clever, you
Speaker 4: know what I'm saying, as long as you're not hurting
Speaker 4: yourself for anybody else. So that's my that's like my foundation.
Speaker 4: Like but yeah, like she has said, like she's bisexual,
Speaker 4: and I'm.
Speaker 2: Like, cool, that's cool. That's the's up. That's everybody else, girl,
Speaker 2: you and everybody else.
Speaker 3: Yes, right, so I'm like, okay, cool. So it's just
Speaker 3: but you know, dating not so much, like she's not
Speaker 3: really into dating.
Speaker 2: I just think these labels.
Speaker 3: So overwhelming, overwhelmed.
Speaker 2: They're overwhelming for kids they don't even know, like today,
Speaker 2: I feel this way. So I'm this now.
Speaker 1: But and it's so it's so I think right now,
Speaker 1: like and I'm all about the wave of inclusion, you know,
Speaker 1: like everyone's experience is valid. I do fear that it's
Speaker 1: such a thing right now.
Speaker 3: That yeah, I feel like trend.
Speaker 2: It's such a trend.
Speaker 1: It's trendy, and it's like you know, I it's just
Speaker 1: it's a bit much. And I honestly like just for like,
Speaker 1: like for me feel hary about you want to feel,
Speaker 1: but like just for like clarity and like fluidity, can
Speaker 1: we just stick with the with the fun because I
Speaker 1: refuse personally, I'm never going to be like I'm a
Speaker 1: cisgendered woman.
Speaker 3: I'm never gonna do that because the you know, like
Speaker 3: I just don't.
Speaker 1: I don't feel like I should have to put a
Speaker 1: hyphen in front of being a woman. I have a baby,
Speaker 1: I believe, I like, I don't have to do that.
Speaker 4: Like, well, now they're gonna sorry to cut you off.
Speaker 4: My friend just told me that at the g y N,
Speaker 4: they're making you say, identify specifically what women are you
Speaker 4: like like not like so like a period having woman,
Speaker 4: like a menstruating woman. I'm gonna be like in your
Speaker 4: chart because you know the.
Speaker 2: Ob gy N would also.
Speaker 3: But that's medical history.
Speaker 1: You have to know that, like do I have am
Speaker 1: I am I experiencing preview.
Speaker 2: Women go to the ob gyn, I guess.
Speaker 3: Yeah, because if you're gonna if you have a vagina,
Speaker 3: no do you yeah?
Speaker 2: I mean I'm not. I'm just saying, like, if there's
Speaker 2: any problems with it, I ask I need to ask
Speaker 2: a trans woman. I need to know. I'm curious, genuinely, genuinely,
Speaker 2: I'm curious, very curious as well, like do you have
Speaker 2: do they have to check in there?
Speaker 1: Like from my understanding, I check in there. A doctor
Speaker 1: wouldn't even know from the outside.
Speaker 2: I'll be g I m looking at your vagina going
Speaker 2: into inside of you. So I'm just curious if that's necessary,
Speaker 2: if there's like, if there's a specific there's got to
Speaker 2: be a specific doctor for trans men and women. Specific
Speaker 2: there should be I'm sure. I think I should take
Speaker 2: that on. I think that that be lubrative industry. And
Speaker 2: I think that because because, yeah, you have to understand
Speaker 2: what they've been through and what you're you know, observing anyway,
Speaker 2: I don't know who you got this.
Speaker 5: Sorry, oh, because because she said that at one point
Speaker 5: she's like non binary and whatever, will I agree, like
Speaker 5: there are no gender norms, you know what the fuck
Speaker 5: you want, but just you know, let me just be
Speaker 5: a woman regular.
Speaker 2: Yeah. I think it's more like if I who's going
Speaker 2: through that, I'd be like, baby, you don't have to
Speaker 2: update you do, you don't have to choose whatever you
Speaker 2: fall on. I'm good with. Yeah, we're cool.
Speaker 3: Pretty much pretty much exists. Try it all you have, yes.
Speaker 2: So most of the time.
Speaker 1: Once Yeah, But you know what's also interesting is like
Speaker 1: we fear with the teenage years because we remember like
Speaker 1: how fast and horny we were, and you know, like
Speaker 1: based on statistics, though teenagers are having sex less less
Speaker 1: and later that because.
Speaker 3: They're because they're more on the techy.
Speaker 2: Yeah, they don't.
Speaker 3: They like to connect virtually.
Speaker 2: None in real life.
Speaker 4: In person, they don't even want to do it, I know,
Speaker 4: like they're too scared because.
Speaker 2: They just tell you to the screen.
Speaker 1: Which is how did this change in like how like
Speaker 1: fifteen years that quickly I'll tell you.
Speaker 2: How, you know exactly how the fun changed iPhones, Instagram, Vine, Twitter,
Speaker 2: like all the fame. Remember Vine? That was like the
Speaker 2: next thing like face Book Friends at a time, TikTok, right,
Speaker 2: wasn't it, Like yeah, Vine was TikTok. Oh my goodness,
Speaker 2: yeah I have Yeah, Like she's talking to somebody.
Speaker 3: I wonder if they're still talking to this girl in France.
Speaker 2: Okay in France, and she'll probably never meet her because
Speaker 2: she's fucking fifteen. So that's cool. She's getting to know
Speaker 2: I mean, you know what, Like it's interesting and it's
Speaker 2: cool that like kids can get to know people from
Speaker 2: other parts of the world in a way that they
Speaker 2: would never be able to at that age most kids.
Speaker 2: But then it's like, I don't know, like it's just
Speaker 2: such a it's just it's a crazy place to be
Speaker 2: because yes, you get to meet other people. But then
Speaker 2: also there's so much weird shit that goes on. There's
Speaker 2: so much shit you can't control anymore. You can't like
Speaker 2: there's so much access to everything.
Speaker 4: That's why I was like, I was talking about this
Speaker 4: with a friend the other day about like how honest
Speaker 4: are you with like your kids, And.
Speaker 3: I'm like, I have no choice.
Speaker 4: I gotta be all honest because this girl got Google
Speaker 4: and YouTube like so she'll like go and find out
Speaker 4: for herself and then MAM's a liar, so I can't
Speaker 4: even do that, Like, yeah, that's it. It's just like
Speaker 4: the age of like innocence is like gone, like because
Speaker 4: like literally they have access to everything they want to know.
Speaker 4: They just got to ask their good old friend Google.
Speaker 4: So yeah, And honestly, the Internet is raising.
Speaker 3: Our kids because at this point, I know that's all.
Speaker 3: They'd be on those devices so much.
Speaker 2: You know, it's it's crazy. I think about my daughter's
Speaker 2: only six years is fifteen. Look what is the world
Speaker 2: going to look like when our kids are fifteen?
Speaker 3: Yeah, a lot it's going to change.
Speaker 2: Yeah, that's eight years from now.
Speaker 6: It's like, are they turning into robots? Like I'm happy
Speaker 6: to hear it much sex, but.
Speaker 2: I don't know if I'm happy here turning it. I
Speaker 2: think they might need have more sex. Regular you need
Speaker 2: to connect, we need to everybody else.
Speaker 4: And then now with the pandemic and the school and
Speaker 4: the sixty depart and you need to wear masks in school.
Speaker 3: Weird.
Speaker 2: I was just telling my friend, we're in we're in
Speaker 2: the middle of this like a really big transition in
Speaker 2: the world and history that we're caught in. Like it's
Speaker 2: happened before in other times, but we never thought that
Speaker 2: we would be caught in it. I witness to it.
Speaker 6: I'm shocked and I can't believe it. Part of era.
Speaker 2: Gosh, yeah, I mean I sent twenty years will be
Speaker 2: past it. It will be leveled out and doing some
Speaker 2: other net level Jetsons type shit that will normalize and
Speaker 2: look back on this moment and be like, remember when
Speaker 2: like people like there was a whole pandemic and like
Speaker 2: everything started shifting. People were all right.
Speaker 6: Remember those poor people that we had in the world.
Speaker 6: I think we extirmated them.
Speaker 2: Oh my god, remember when that U see his paper
Speaker 2: for money?
Speaker 3: Oh yeah, forget about it with them cryptos, crypto coins
Speaker 3: and shit. Yeah, it's overwhelming people are.
Speaker 6: Just sex workers and others just sex workers on them.
Speaker 2: Maybe that's what I should do. We should just get
Speaker 2: our kids into that part of technology, because I feel
Speaker 2: like IRI could probably understand crypto better than I could,
Speaker 2: and like they can help make those decisions, like we
Speaker 2: worry about like first world like things, and they do,
Speaker 2: like actually know it would be first world. We worry
Speaker 2: about like I don't know, like the previous world things,
Speaker 2: and they keep us. I don't want to do it.
Speaker 2: I don't want to be involved. I don't I don't
Speaker 2: want to learn crypto. I do what I don't. Fuck.
Speaker 2: Those are scary too. People are gonna just have sex
Speaker 2: with goggles on.
Speaker 4: I had a panic attack after I used the Oculus.
Speaker 2: Have you ever used the Oculus with porn? No, girl,
Speaker 2: it's yes.
Speaker 4: I was like dancing with this little robot and then
Speaker 4: I took it off and I started literally freaking out,
Speaker 4: like I was, like I had a panic attack, Like
Speaker 4: my friends had to like lay me down. Yeah, it
Speaker 4: was trippy as fuck. You wasn't a whole other reality.
Speaker 4: You take them things off you back in the room.
Speaker 4: That was crazy to me.
Speaker 2: Could you imagine and eventually taking those things off and
Speaker 2: being back in the room is going to be the anxiety,
Speaker 2: like being here will be too much.
Speaker 3: Yeah, that's kind of how it fell in a weird way.
Speaker 6: Did you see the metaverse over there?
Speaker 3: Did you watch the Matrix?
Speaker 2: They couldn't find it.
Speaker 3: That sounds like you and I watched all Look up,
Speaker 3: you've been talking about the metaverse this whole time.
Speaker 6: The metaverse party?
Speaker 2: What the fuck? I hate it here. I hate the metaverse.
Speaker 2: I don't want to be a part of it, but
Speaker 2: I have to be. We went to this metopy. I
Speaker 2: went to his party, and on the way up, this
Speaker 2: guy was like, you either got it. You gotta get in.
Speaker 2: Don't be stupid and not learn the metaverse and invest
Speaker 2: yourself in the metaverse. You'll get left behind.
Speaker 4: Where who was telling you that the same of the
Speaker 4: metaverse party?
Speaker 6: Snows?
Speaker 2: No? No, it was skiing.
Speaker 6: It was skiing. Everybody was wearing as a metaverse party.
Speaker 3: First of all, wait, where do you go to a
Speaker 3: metaverse Hollywood Hills?
Speaker 2: Of course, the actual.
Speaker 6: Regular human party, but it was for the members.
Speaker 3: Yeah what does that mean? Though? Break it down, like,
Speaker 3: what's the party?
Speaker 2: Was just a regular party?
Speaker 6: Girl?
Speaker 2: I don't know. There was some people that owned some
Speaker 2: NFT like some NFT company and the obviously there's like
Speaker 2: there was yeah they were skiing, if you know what
Speaker 2: I mean, Oh it was skiing, and yeah we all
Speaker 2: had ski outfits on. It's just anytime we get invited
Speaker 2: to any sort of them, to anything we're in. So
Speaker 2: it didn't even matter if it was NFT whatever. If
Speaker 2: I get to dress up with a theme, I'm gonna.
Speaker 3: Go, Okay, that's fun.
Speaker 2: But anyway, I don't know if we have any horries
Speaker 2: my love. No, No, I know I don't have any.
Speaker 2: I have had sex a lot, but I don't know
Speaker 2: if it's been like cool. I did feel like I
Speaker 2: was making a porn the other day. There was like
Speaker 2: I just I realized that, like when you have sex,
Speaker 2: like really good sex, or at least for me, when
Speaker 2: I have really good sex with someone, like I want
Speaker 2: to just execute on a way higher level what I
Speaker 2: have mediocre sex. I realize my sex skills are very mediocre.
Speaker 2: Like I'm give you, I literally give you that same energy.
Speaker 2: I think when I was younger, though, I would want that,
Speaker 2: I would want to leave an impression, so I was
Speaker 2: more inclined to, like, you want to see these all these,
Speaker 2: all these every single skill, I'm gonna pull out every
Speaker 2: single fucking one.
Speaker 3: I pulled out all of them this weekend.
Speaker 2: Yeah for you, thank you.
Speaker 3: Yeah.
Speaker 2: He has this like art exhibit behind his bed, and
Speaker 2: then he has a mirror right in front. And I
Speaker 2: believe that mirrored sex is the only sex I want
Speaker 2: to have in twenty twenty two, mirrored with like, yeah,
Speaker 2: Like it looks like I was in the museum. I
Speaker 2: fucked in the loof. I fucked in the loop. I
Speaker 2: told you. I was like I fucked in the loof.
Speaker 2: We were we were living art. It was great.
Speaker 6: I like that.
Speaker 3: That sounds good. That sucks with myself.
Speaker 2: That's that's also crucial idea.
Speaker 3: The other day.
Speaker 4: No, no, because okay, So a big thing for me
Speaker 4: right now is like being by myself, being being okay
Speaker 4: with being single and putting all that love I still
Speaker 4: want to give on someone else to myself right, honoring
Speaker 4: myself and all of that. That's like the theme for
Speaker 4: me right now.
Speaker 3: And so.
Speaker 4: I had like a moment with myself where I got
Speaker 4: in the shower, I did a body scrub. Then I
Speaker 4: put on like my oils and like my lotion, and
Speaker 4: then like my hair. I did my hair up, put
Speaker 4: my robe on, I went to my room. I looked
Speaker 4: at myself in the mirror. I took my roball and
Speaker 4: I was like tambitch, like you fine. Yes, I was
Speaker 4: like you fine. And then I was just like playing
Speaker 4: with myself.
Speaker 3: And then I was like huh.
Speaker 4: And then I went to grab my toys and I
Speaker 4: had like the most amazing sex for myself. Let me
Speaker 4: tell you, I orgasm so crazy, like and I stayed
Speaker 4: with the orgasm. You know, I didn't like, Okay, I'm
Speaker 4: done now, No, I like stayed in it.
Speaker 2: Yeah.
Speaker 4: And so I was like shaking building and I was
Speaker 4: just like caressing my body and like yeah, I like
Speaker 4: literally made love to myself.
Speaker 2: It was so powerful.
Speaker 4: It was like I felt like a goddess or something
Speaker 4: like I was like summoning.
Speaker 3: Him the goddess you are.
Speaker 1: Oh my god, that's first of all I'm really say,
Speaker 1: really to do that tonight.
Speaker 2: You know I've turned on.
Speaker 3: Now shut it nice, like pour yourself a glass of
Speaker 3: wine or something, make love to yourself.
Speaker 6: Like yeah.
Speaker 1: I was actually watching only the first few episodes because
Speaker 1: I don't think I can get any further this this
Speaker 1: show called c with Fine Ace Jason Momoa, and nobody
Speaker 1: can see in the whole anyway. The one of the women,
Speaker 1: one of the queens, is one of the one of
Speaker 1: her villages. She's like, I must pray, so then she
Speaker 1: like can't see, but she's like masturbating and praying at
Speaker 1: the same every time she needs to, like what the sore,
Speaker 1: She's like masturbating, masturbating and praying like and then she's.
Speaker 6: Like and then at one point she even has a
Speaker 6: survey come in and give her head.
Speaker 2: Oh, she's going to go to keep this going. So
Speaker 2: it's just like how she prays, that's amazing, That's how
Speaker 2: you should pray.
Speaker 6: Wow, okay, okay.
Speaker 2: It did feel very like a ritual.
Speaker 4: That did feel like when I did that, it was
Speaker 4: very like because after that I just felt like so
Speaker 4: beautiful and empowered and so like just in my power.
Speaker 2: It's like it's about like like always being there too,
Speaker 2: like being able to maintain that like feeling because I've
Speaker 2: had those experiences to in masturbation and it's so like
Speaker 2: I don't even know how to describe it, and I'm like, damn,
Speaker 2: why can't I just walk like this throughout life all
Speaker 2: the time? And this bliss and pleasure, like and I
Speaker 2: think that masturbation and I talk about this all the
Speaker 2: time on the show is such a powerful tool in general,
Speaker 2: just for self discovery, for manifesting, for obviously a personal pleasure.
Speaker 2: For not so I can beggause you don't need to
Speaker 2: be fucking.
Speaker 3: That's exactly a whole. And that's a whole not to.
Speaker 2: Take the edge off every time you want to call
Speaker 2: that again, just go Jack, Just go do your thing
Speaker 2: real quick and then think about it.
Speaker 3: Because your self worth.
Speaker 4: Yeah, because it's like then you go and giving somebody
Speaker 4: that energy that like they don't even honor you or
Speaker 4: they don't you know what I'm saying.
Speaker 2: But if you have that healthy, they don't even care
Speaker 2: to please you. How you would please you?
Speaker 6: What are they giving you in exchange? What energy do
Speaker 6: they have? Like is your energy good? Or you haven't
Speaker 6: gone to therapy?
Speaker 3: If you want a therapy, goes to therapy once?
Speaker 2: Have you prove it?
Speaker 6: You can't fuck mer therapy?
Speaker 3: But what's your therapist's name?
Speaker 2: The energy?
Speaker 6: Energy?
Speaker 2: Oh my god, no.
Speaker 3: One hundred percent. That's facts. Yeah, And like sadness and
Speaker 3: they've given this sadness secrets.
Speaker 2: S keep your secrets and sadness in your own dick. Okay,
Speaker 2: I don't need that.
Speaker 4: Ship, but truly, yeah, it is an exchange of energy,
Speaker 4: and yeah, you gotta make sure you know who you've
Speaker 4: given that toy, truly. So that's why I'm like, you
Speaker 4: do know, I'm gonna stay to myself. I'm gonna, you know,
Speaker 4: do my little thing by myself and can nobody bother me?
Speaker 4: Like you know, it's been so nice. I've been enjoying
Speaker 4: being by myself. I'm like so excited to get home
Speaker 4: and like work on my desk by myself, like drink
Speaker 4: my energy, drink like myself.
Speaker 2: No one's going there's no chance of your energy being interrupted. Yeah,
Speaker 2: and nobody needs to respond to that.
Speaker 3: I need to check on like what do you do?
Speaker 6: Are you cool? Are you hungry? Just now?
Speaker 3: Now? Just my kid, just my that's enough, that's enough
Speaker 3: and that's enough. So right now I'm really cool with that.
Speaker 6: How have you been doing that practice?
Speaker 3: I just started. I talked about it and with Miss
Speaker 3: Marie the last time too. She was like, good for you.
Speaker 3: Yeahs choosing yourself it's not always easy. I'm like, I
Speaker 3: choose myself every time. No, but yes, it hasn't been long,
Speaker 3: but you know, I'm just I'm trying to manifest, like
Speaker 3: I want a life partner, I want a husband, like
Speaker 3: what's up? Like I want to be ready and I
Speaker 3: want to be ready when you show up.
Speaker 4: And also I keep saying yes so whatever comes along,
Speaker 4: then I'm confusing the universe.
Speaker 2: Confusing universe and blocking your.
Speaker 4: Blessings, blocking my blessing. So I'm like, you know what,
Speaker 4: I'm going to work with God this summer. I was like,
Speaker 4: it's just going to be me and God.
Speaker 2: That's how my friend I felt, that's how I felt.
Speaker 3: Like that's very long because it's like it's me and God.
Speaker 2: It's just me and God. I'm committed to God. I mean,
Speaker 2: I don't mean to laugh please because I was laughing too.
Speaker 3: That just sounds crazy, like but.
Speaker 6: To yourself, yeah, committed to God.
Speaker 3: Commit Yeah yeah. So it was like it's just me
Speaker 3: and God this summer.
Speaker 2: I said, Oh my God, that is.
Speaker 6: I'm committing to God twenty twenty two and that's it.
Speaker 1: I'm a monk of Mela, a monk of Mela Church,
Speaker 1: the monk of Mela Church.
Speaker 3: Of Mela Church.
Speaker 4: But you know what if somebody comes along with their schlong,
Speaker 4: I won't know that. I'm like, hmm, you might could
Speaker 4: get it then, like.
Speaker 2: You can still have good you can still have sex,
Speaker 2: especially if you know, like you're having healthy sex. Yeah,
Speaker 2: it may not be like your forever partner sex and whatever,
Speaker 2: like do it I come, does.
Speaker 4: That actful honoring to adults, like you know, consensual and
Speaker 4: all that.
Speaker 1: Definitely working on my ability to understand that relationships don't
Speaker 1: have to be forever and that being okay with that
Speaker 1: and not feeling like I have to like cling and
Speaker 1: that like it has or like compete to stay in
Speaker 1: a certain space with you and like being grateful for
Speaker 1: like the passing of how like relationships in.
Speaker 6: Hall Mmmm, because I think it's a women like stay
Speaker 6: with me on the boss.
Speaker 3: Oh my god.
Speaker 2: Wow.
Speaker 4: Yeah, that's actually something that came up we certainly as well,
Speaker 4: like how I feel like in the past, and you know,
Speaker 4: it's come up recently where I tried to convince these
Speaker 4: unavailable men that I'm the one. But it's more of
Speaker 4: an ego thing because like I don't know you and
Speaker 4: I don't even want you.
Speaker 3: I need you to see yeah, but I don't want you.
Speaker 3: So what the heck is that I'm like, that's toxic
Speaker 3: as fun. I need to like not do that. So yeah,
Speaker 3: like no, I just yeah, I don't know, Wait what
Speaker 3: was I lost my train of thought.
Speaker 2: I just think that even the most woke and healthy
Speaker 2: lovers can be toxic in ways, do you know what
Speaker 2: I mean? Like, we all have things we're working through,
Speaker 2: but I think that as long as we're self aware
Speaker 2: and we're in therapy, I always say that the most
Speaker 2: self aware people probably need therapy the most because we'd
Speaker 2: be rationalizing our shit to know much. I know I'm
Speaker 2: doing function Okay, I'm completely aware that I'm participating in
Speaker 2: the fun shit. I will end this next November twenty
Speaker 2: twenty two. No, but no, I think I think that
Speaker 2: therapy is something that everyone should definitely happ into. But
Speaker 2: I think the most self aware probably need it the
Speaker 2: most because we be thinking we know it all and.
Speaker 6: The shame and gill associated with fucking up.
Speaker 3: Because you know, oh my god, yeah.
Speaker 2: Because everybody else thinks that you're you got it all together,
Speaker 2: so when you don't, it's like, fuck, yeah.
Speaker 3: I'm a fraud.
Speaker 2: Right No, why you just said that to me? Right now?
Speaker 2: I wish I could have got a close upon her face.
Speaker 4: I'm a fraud that came up with missus Marie last time.
Speaker 4: She was like, honey, you're human. Relax Like she literally
Speaker 4: was like, first of all, you're human.
Speaker 2: Relaxed because I'm like.
Speaker 3: I'm a fraud. How am I starting a wellness company
Speaker 3: and I'm not even well.
Speaker 6: She's like, oh my god, I say this an like you're.
Speaker 3: A you're a friend. She's like, honey, like you're huge.
Speaker 2: Wellness is a journey.
Speaker 3: It's a journey.
Speaker 2: Wellness is a journey.
Speaker 4: And then my best friend is like, yeah, when you
Speaker 4: said you need it embody, what you're trying to do?
Speaker 4: I was like, yikes, I'm like, bitch, why you tell
Speaker 4: me that?
Speaker 3: I sounded crazy.
Speaker 2: Sometimes your friend's just like, you know, let me let
Speaker 2: her figure it out.
Speaker 1: I'm so grateful for having a community to be honest
Speaker 1: and sometimes.
Speaker 6: Like I want to figure it out.
Speaker 2: Oh my god, Well, thank you so much for coming
Speaker 2: on this ship, for having me.
Speaker 3: I had so much fun.
Speaker 2: This was very therapeutic.
Speaker 5: Good.
Speaker 2: I know. That's kind of about the vibe is this
Speaker 2: is my therapy. This is yeah, girl, this is amazing
Speaker 2: between Marie therapy.
Speaker 3: Yes, these are great.
Speaker 4: You learn so much from yourself and these talking to
Speaker 4: people from all walks of life and yeah amen amen.
Speaker 2: So how can people find you?
Speaker 4: So on Instagram? Yeah it is Underscore Sanchez. Yeah, just
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