WEBVTT - “SHOULD I BE A STRIPPER?” 0:00:00.160 --> 0:00:01.560 All from Violet July. 0:00:03.200 --> 0:00:05.520 Hello, Hello, Hey, what's up? 0:00:05.720 --> 0:00:06.600 Is this the Gecko? 0:00:07.200 --> 0:00:07.440 Yeah? 0:00:07.480 --> 0:00:07.960 Who is this? 0:00:08.400 --> 0:00:09.840 No way, I'm Violet July. 0:00:10.800 --> 0:00:15.200 Violet July. Ooh that's do you know who the insane 0:00:15.320 --> 0:00:16.400 clown Posse are? 0:00:17.960 --> 0:00:19.079 I know of them? 0:00:19.160 --> 0:00:23.280 Yes, the head guy. His name is Violent j which 0:00:23.320 --> 0:00:28.720 is not violent. His name is Violent j and yours 0:00:28.760 --> 0:00:30.360 is Violet July. 0:00:32.120 --> 0:00:35.720 Yeah. I didn't even put those two and two together, 0:00:35.760 --> 0:00:36.480 but that's cool. 0:00:37.240 --> 0:00:39.680 What's up, Violet July. Do you go by Violet July 0:00:39.840 --> 0:00:41.320 or does do you ever go by Violet? 0:00:42.200 --> 0:00:48.120 I go by Violet. It's a recent thing. I started 0:00:48.159 --> 0:00:53.800 going by my musician name. But I'm not really here 0:00:53.840 --> 0:00:55.880 to talk about my music, I guess at all. 0:00:55.960 --> 0:00:59.920 So you picked you picked the name Violet I did? 0:01:00.200 --> 0:01:01.120 I picked it myself. 0:01:01.600 --> 0:01:06.640 Was it inspired at all by the daughter from the Incredibles? 0:01:07.200 --> 0:01:11.160 No, it was more like Violet Boudelaire from a Series 0:01:11.200 --> 0:01:12.320 of Unfortunate event. 0:01:12.920 --> 0:01:17.800 Oh, there's Violet, Violet Bouldelaire. Is that her name? 0:01:19.000 --> 0:01:19.240 Yeah? 0:01:20.480 --> 0:01:23.720 I thought you were saying Violet Beauregard. Who is the 0:01:24.240 --> 0:01:27.280 name of the of the of the girl who I think? 0:01:27.360 --> 0:01:29.520 I think that's the girl who turns into a giant 0:01:29.520 --> 0:01:32.720 blueberry in the Charlie and the Chocolate Factory movie. 0:01:33.080 --> 0:01:37.280 Oh that was Violet. Yeah, Violet, dou regard. 0:01:38.520 --> 0:01:43.760 Those two things? They sound similar. Yeah, well, enough about 0:01:43.800 --> 0:01:47.080 fictional characters. What's going on with you, Violet? 0:01:47.280 --> 0:01:50.800 So actually I'm in a debate on whether or not 0:01:51.120 --> 0:01:52.560 I should be a stripper again. 0:01:53.920 --> 0:01:55.960 Ah okay, uh. 0:01:59.560 --> 0:02:02.320 So I was a stripper for four years. I'm twenty five. 0:02:02.400 --> 0:02:05.080 I started when I was nineteen. I stopped when I 0:02:05.080 --> 0:02:09.520 was twenty three. But I'm also in recovery. I'm a 0:02:09.560 --> 0:02:14.840 cocaine addict. I did the cocaine mostly when I was 0:02:14.880 --> 0:02:19.480 working music festivals, not stripping, but still cocaine is at 0:02:19.480 --> 0:02:25.679 strip club and I work a retail job now and 0:02:27.040 --> 0:02:32.200 it's not paying enough for my solver living. And I'm 0:02:32.280 --> 0:02:36.919 debating on whether or not I should dance two days 0:02:36.960 --> 0:02:40.000 a week on a day shift somewhere because I'm on 0:02:40.040 --> 0:02:43.840 a proper sleep schedule now. My only issue is is 0:02:43.840 --> 0:02:46.440 that I'm worried if someone offers me cocaine, I will 0:02:46.480 --> 0:02:49.480 do it and I will ruin my life again. And 0:02:49.520 --> 0:02:52.760 I've rewrapped four times. I've been to rehab four times, 0:02:54.040 --> 0:02:56.840 and I'm doing really well now, like I'm happy for 0:02:56.880 --> 0:03:01.400 once in my life, like I'm actually enjoying living, which 0:03:01.440 --> 0:03:04.920 is crazy. I never thought that I would enjoy living. 0:03:07.720 --> 0:03:11.480 But I really need the money. And I've also been 0:03:11.520 --> 0:03:15.440 feeling that kind of sexually charged recently, like I felt 0:03:15.440 --> 0:03:17.920 like it would be a good way to express myself 0:03:18.120 --> 0:03:23.600 and feel sexy again. I guess because it's been a 0:03:23.600 --> 0:03:27.919 while and I don't know. There comes a lot of 0:03:27.960 --> 0:03:31.600 stigma that comes with though, so I don't and that's 0:03:31.639 --> 0:03:34.960 never bothered me. But now I'm kind of at the 0:03:34.960 --> 0:03:36.880 point in my life where I'd like to find somebody, 0:03:37.000 --> 0:03:39.480 and not a lot of people are okay with dating 0:03:39.520 --> 0:03:44.440 sex workers, so that's where I'm at. 0:03:45.520 --> 0:03:48.920 I have a bunch of questions. First of all, congrats 0:03:48.960 --> 0:03:50.040 on getting sober. 0:03:51.240 --> 0:03:51.680 Thank you. 0:03:52.600 --> 0:03:54.840 Now you have to so you have to pay to 0:03:54.880 --> 0:03:56.240 be How does that work? You have to pay to 0:03:56.280 --> 0:03:59.200 be in a sober living house? What's that whole situation? 0:04:00.320 --> 0:04:04.400 Yeah, so I pay to live in this overliving it's 0:04:04.440 --> 0:04:08.640 like granting monthly, but they cover like electricity and Wi 0:04:08.640 --> 0:04:16.320 Fi and they get toilet paper for you. So I mean, yeah, 0:04:16.360 --> 0:04:21.680 it's like a like a once a month charge for 0:04:21.800 --> 0:04:22.599 all like all. 0:04:22.440 --> 0:04:26.560 Bills paid, and did you like go to rehab and 0:04:26.600 --> 0:04:29.320 then this is sort of like you're getting out of 0:04:29.360 --> 0:04:32.120 rehab and transitioning via this. 0:04:34.000 --> 0:04:37.159 Yeah, this is post rehab. 0:04:39.320 --> 0:04:44.200 And is the sober living like significantly more expensive than 0:04:44.240 --> 0:04:47.880 if you were to just live in a normal place. 0:04:48.920 --> 0:04:50.560 It's actually a lot cheaper. 0:04:52.600 --> 0:04:58.760 Yeah hmm, that's fascinating. I mean, how long can you 0:04:58.839 --> 0:04:59.280 stay there for? 0:05:00.440 --> 0:05:02.679 As long as I want? As long as i'm parent? 0:05:03.760 --> 0:05:11.480 Well, shit, all right, that's a great that's a fantastic situation. Yeah, 0:05:10.120 --> 0:05:14.360 you like, is it like a dorm room kind of 0:05:14.400 --> 0:05:16.560 shit where you're like hanging out with other people in 0:05:16.640 --> 0:05:19.200 recovery and there's like meetings all the time and stuff. 0:05:19.800 --> 0:05:25.240 Yeah, we have two house meetings a week. I think 0:05:25.279 --> 0:05:27.840 there's enough space here for twelve girls, but I think 0:05:27.880 --> 0:05:29.880 we only have six, so we each have our own 0:05:29.920 --> 0:05:33.200 rooms right now, M. 0:05:34.800 --> 0:05:37.760 Very very Uh are you meeting? Are you meeting a 0:05:37.800 --> 0:05:38.480 lot of friends? 0:05:40.240 --> 0:05:42.600 I am. The thing about recovery is that I really 0:05:42.640 --> 0:05:46.680 like is the community is really awesome. Like I love 0:05:46.720 --> 0:05:50.840 going to meetings. I love going to like my IOP, 0:05:51.040 --> 0:05:55.520 which stands for Intensive outpatient, which is basically just group therapy. 0:05:56.640 --> 0:05:58.520 I really love it. Also, if I'm talking weird. It's 0:05:58.520 --> 0:06:01.240 because I've just got my pumpures and I'm still trying 0:06:01.240 --> 0:06:03.000 to like figure out how to speak with it. 0:06:04.839 --> 0:06:07.440 I didn't hear that, But did you, like, did you 0:06:07.440 --> 0:06:09.240 get one of those tongue piercings where like the tongue 0:06:09.320 --> 0:06:12.839 is fucking split in half like Patrick's arms. 0:06:13.200 --> 0:06:15.159 That would be cool, but now I just got like 0:06:15.240 --> 0:06:17.480 a little piercing in the middle. 0:06:17.520 --> 0:06:21.760 There is anyone else in this that you've met in 0:06:21.760 --> 0:06:25.520 this recovery center? Is anyone else a former or current stripper? 0:06:26.800 --> 0:06:26.880 No? 0:06:29.360 --> 0:06:32.080 So all right, so tell me about the stripping you 0:06:32.120 --> 0:06:34.320 did it from when you were nineteen too? How old? 0:06:35.320 --> 0:06:35.920 Twenty three? 0:06:36.680 --> 0:06:43.440 Okay? And at the time you were doing it? What 0:06:43.560 --> 0:06:44.520 made you stop? 0:06:46.120 --> 0:06:50.840 I got really burnt out and I switched to cam girling. 0:06:50.920 --> 0:06:54.000 I was a cam girl for a while and I 0:06:54.080 --> 0:06:57.800 really liked that. But I can't do that right now 0:06:57.800 --> 0:07:00.320 because I live in sober living. I would just do that, 0:07:00.800 --> 0:07:05.760 but like they won't really allow that, and sober living 0:07:06.000 --> 0:07:09.480 because like moaning through the walls isn't really so there's 0:07:09.520 --> 0:07:13.120 like six girls here, Like I just feel like it's 0:07:14.000 --> 0:07:18.800 it's not When I did it, I lived with people 0:07:18.840 --> 0:07:24.400 who understood, but I switched to camgirling and then I 0:07:24.440 --> 0:07:28.560 went to rehab and I got really burnt out in 0:07:28.600 --> 0:07:31.800 my back hurt. I was just I did it for 0:07:31.840 --> 0:07:36.920 four years so and it was never anything that I 0:07:37.000 --> 0:07:39.520 was passionate about. Like what I'm really passionate about, Like 0:07:39.560 --> 0:07:43.720 I love working merch at festivals and concerts. I love 0:07:43.760 --> 0:07:46.600 doing that, and then music. I love making music and 0:07:46.680 --> 0:07:51.360 performing absolutely love it. I released my first song in January, 0:07:51.840 --> 0:07:53.680 and I'm hoping I can make a living doing that 0:07:53.720 --> 0:07:59.600 one day. But it's like in the meantime, I need 0:07:59.640 --> 0:08:03.080 something to get by, and like, starting a music project 0:08:03.200 --> 0:08:07.760 is really expensive. Like I'm just a vocalist and lyricist. 0:08:07.840 --> 0:08:11.880 I have to have people like mix my stuff. I 0:08:11.880 --> 0:08:16.920 have a producer that I have to pay. Marketing costs money, 0:08:16.960 --> 0:08:20.360 and I'm barely affording to live as it is. It's 0:08:20.400 --> 0:08:25.200 like to get somewhere, I have to like invest in myself. 0:08:26.120 --> 0:08:28.280 So that's why I think going back to the club 0:08:28.320 --> 0:08:31.920 might be a good idea, because I mean, I could 0:08:32.240 --> 0:08:34.800 pay for my project and I could pay for my 0:08:34.840 --> 0:08:38.000 silver living and I have another job on top of that. 0:08:38.440 --> 0:08:41.439 So yeah, it's here. 0:08:41.480 --> 0:08:44.439 What's your what's your other job? Oh right, you said retail. 0:08:44.440 --> 0:08:49.000 We're gonna yeah, retail, hmm. 0:08:49.160 --> 0:08:51.120 You see. It's interesting. It's fascinating here you said that 0:08:51.120 --> 0:08:53.559 you were a cam girl, because when you first said 0:08:53.679 --> 0:08:57.120 like that, the main fear was that you would uh 0:08:57.520 --> 0:09:00.480 get offered cocaine. I was like, while you could just 0:09:00.520 --> 0:09:03.840 do the you know whatever the digital version of being 0:09:03.880 --> 0:09:07.080 a stripper is, which, by the way, I you know, 0:09:07.200 --> 0:09:09.960 I've always found that kind of I find it fascinating 0:09:10.440 --> 0:09:15.760 that strip clubs even still really exist because I would assume, 0:09:17.520 --> 0:09:21.160 and you know, I don't know that that like the 0:09:21.280 --> 0:09:24.760 universe of the financials of being a stripper versus being 0:09:24.800 --> 0:09:27.720 a cam girl, but I would assume that the benefits 0:09:27.760 --> 0:09:31.760 of of of doing some kind of camming career is 0:09:32.160 --> 0:09:34.480 better than being a stripper in person. 0:09:37.280 --> 0:09:42.080 Yeah, I mean, stripping is more money. But I really 0:09:42.160 --> 0:09:44.400 liked camming, Like I felt like I could just be 0:09:44.600 --> 0:09:49.600 myself on camera and it was it was a really 0:09:49.600 --> 0:09:51.360 fun experience. I liked it a lot. 0:09:52.120 --> 0:09:54.360 So how much of the decision of whether or not 0:09:54.360 --> 0:09:58.520 you want to go back to stripping is monetary because 0:09:58.520 --> 0:10:01.400 you mentioned that it's money, but you also mentioned that 0:10:02.320 --> 0:10:08.000 you enjoy it in some degree that allows you some 0:10:08.080 --> 0:10:09.040 degree of expression. 0:10:10.120 --> 0:10:13.839 Yeah, I'm an extrovert. I love talking to people of 0:10:13.920 --> 0:10:19.440 getting to know people, and like, how would I say 0:10:19.480 --> 0:10:23.080 this without like, I don't know. I've been very sexually 0:10:23.120 --> 0:10:25.280 charge recently because I think it's like you took away 0:10:25.320 --> 0:10:28.319 my drugs and now my brain wants something else. Sure, 0:10:28.440 --> 0:10:32.319 and I've been feeling very flirty and I've kind of 0:10:32.360 --> 0:10:35.640 been acting out a little bit, like I've been making 0:10:35.679 --> 0:10:39.240 out with people in my group therapy and I shouldn't 0:10:39.440 --> 0:10:43.880 be doing that, Like that's I just don't And I 0:10:43.960 --> 0:10:46.960 mean I've gotten non tender and met people and whatnot, 0:10:47.160 --> 0:10:50.200 but it's a matter of like my I guess my 0:10:50.480 --> 0:10:55.120 r right now is very flirty, and if I could 0:10:55.160 --> 0:10:58.000 just express that and be that way and get paid 0:10:58.000 --> 0:11:02.080 for it, that would be really cool, because I feel 0:11:02.120 --> 0:11:08.200 like I've been a little inappropriate lately. It's just I 0:11:08.200 --> 0:11:12.360 guess the vibe I'm giving out because I'm so sexually 0:11:12.400 --> 0:11:21.560 frustrated and I don't I don't want, like I just 0:11:21.559 --> 0:11:23.880 need a friends with benefits and I'm on the hunt 0:11:23.880 --> 0:11:28.360 for one. But it's it's like I don't want all this. 0:11:31.520 --> 0:11:33.880 I just I don't. I don't want to be screwing 0:11:33.920 --> 0:11:37.120 around with people that I'm in recovery with you know, 0:11:37.320 --> 0:11:40.440 and it's very hard for me not I have to. 0:11:40.720 --> 0:11:43.160 I have to imagine. I have to. I know, there's 0:11:43.200 --> 0:11:47.480 like sex addict stuff where you like, it's that that 0:11:47.480 --> 0:11:49.480 I mean, that must be a crazy can of worms. 0:11:49.480 --> 0:11:52.840 But I have to imagine that that must be. There 0:11:52.880 --> 0:11:55.720 has there has to be. I have to imagine that 0:11:55.920 --> 0:12:00.439 in recovery communities in general, there's a lot of people fucking. 0:12:02.200 --> 0:12:07.960 Yeah, there's it's called flaw sex and Love Addicts anonymous, 0:12:08.120 --> 0:12:09.520 and I am in it. 0:12:10.720 --> 0:12:14.880 Uh are you fucking around with people in that group specifically? 0:12:15.760 --> 0:12:18.960 No, that's like highly discouraged. Like at the beginning of 0:12:19.520 --> 0:12:21.320 I don't know how much I'm allowed to say because 0:12:21.360 --> 0:12:28.400 it's anonymous, but it's it's a very that's highly discouraged. 0:12:30.280 --> 0:12:32.240 I I I have to I assume with the with 0:12:32.280 --> 0:12:34.400 the with the anonymous groups, you can talk about them 0:12:34.440 --> 0:12:37.160 as long as you're not talking about a specific person. 0:12:37.480 --> 0:12:40.319 You're like, yeah, you know, yeah, Well, at the beginning 0:12:40.320 --> 0:12:43.440 of each meeting, they say, like, this is not a 0:12:43.440 --> 0:12:46.520 hookup group, Like if anyone approaches you in an appropriate manner, 0:12:46.600 --> 0:12:50.680 and like we all understand, like we're all kind of 0:12:50.720 --> 0:12:54.840 in the same boat, so we don't want to like 0:12:54.920 --> 0:12:58.160 trigger each other. Now with like group therapy and like 0:12:58.200 --> 0:13:00.760 IOP and stuff like that, it's a little harder because 0:13:01.960 --> 0:13:08.560 not everyone's a sex addict and it's not it is 0:13:08.640 --> 0:13:11.640 found pond to like get a rehab romance or whatever 0:13:11.640 --> 0:13:17.120 you call it. But it's like there's that that line 0:13:17.120 --> 0:13:21.199 of respect isn't going both ways. Like someone might flirt 0:13:21.200 --> 0:13:22.560 with me and it's very hard for me not to 0:13:22.559 --> 0:13:24.520 flirt with them back, or I might flirt with someone. 0:13:25.280 --> 0:13:30.040 But like in the in the Flaw program, it's very 0:13:30.120 --> 0:13:33.800 like we're so there to try to get better that 0:13:34.720 --> 0:13:37.320 we don't want to like fuck up anyone else's recovery. 0:13:37.320 --> 0:13:39.440 And I wouldn't want to fuck up anyone else's like 0:13:40.080 --> 0:13:41.559 recovery and IOP either. 0:13:42.840 --> 0:13:45.559 It's because how is the Tinder going. 0:13:46.960 --> 0:13:51.800 I had a really good Tinder date yesterday, but I'm 0:13:51.800 --> 0:13:55.640 afraid I would catch feelings for him, and I'm not 0:13:55.679 --> 0:13:58.720 really in the place that I'm available to catch feelings 0:13:58.720 --> 0:13:59.200 for people. 0:14:02.600 --> 0:14:03.600 And that's. 0:14:05.000 --> 0:14:09.680 Yeah, so you just so you you just want to 0:14:10.000 --> 0:14:13.400 have no strings attached sex with people. 0:14:14.320 --> 0:14:17.440 I just want like one friends with benefits. I can 0:14:17.640 --> 0:14:20.160 hit up a few times a week and I feel 0:14:20.200 --> 0:14:22.800 like that would be enough for me. 0:14:24.200 --> 0:14:28.560 I feel like on Tinder, you won't have an issue 0:14:28.600 --> 0:14:29.160 finding that. 0:14:30.680 --> 0:14:35.080 Yeah, there's a guy that he is the guy that 0:14:35.120 --> 0:14:37.600 gives me my coffee and water when I'm at work. 0:14:38.160 --> 0:14:40.160 We've been hanging out and we talked about a friends 0:14:40.160 --> 0:14:43.280 benefits situation. It just hasn't happened yet, and I think 0:14:43.320 --> 0:14:45.680 he would be good because I'm not I don't have 0:14:45.720 --> 0:14:48.240 any romantic feelings for him. I don't see myself catching 0:14:48.280 --> 0:14:51.240 any and he's really pretty. But the guy from tender 0:14:51.360 --> 0:14:54.720 is actually really cool. And then I kind of started 0:14:54.720 --> 0:14:58.680 having a friends with benefits thing with a girl but 0:14:58.760 --> 0:15:01.560 she's in my iop and we sucked once and it 0:15:01.640 --> 0:15:02.280 was really cool. 0:15:02.600 --> 0:15:04.240 But then I was. 0:15:06.160 --> 0:15:08.080 Gonna I was gonna ask. I know that the I 0:15:08.360 --> 0:15:12.720 have to assume that the slog groups are separated by gender, 0:15:13.520 --> 0:15:19.520 but if you're if you're into all the genders, you're fucked. 0:15:21.040 --> 0:15:23.920 Yeah, that's true. 0:15:24.440 --> 0:15:26.920 But I guess back to the original issue of like 0:15:26.960 --> 0:15:29.160 should you become a stripper or not? I mean, look, 0:15:29.520 --> 0:15:34.160 what about what about only fans? I said only fans? 0:15:34.200 --> 0:15:35.680 Just now, as if I don't know what only like, 0:15:35.680 --> 0:15:37.920 that's how that's how somebody who doesn't really know what 0:15:37.920 --> 0:15:41.360 only fans is would say it only fans, but well, 0:15:41.480 --> 0:15:42.760 I don't like fans once. 0:15:42.920 --> 0:15:45.440 I don't like only fans making content to me is 0:15:45.640 --> 0:15:49.840 just I've done it. But like, I'm actually not that photogenic. 0:15:49.880 --> 0:15:52.880 I look way better in life than doing photos. And 0:15:53.040 --> 0:15:55.520 it's like only fans is, like, you gotta be consistent 0:15:55.560 --> 0:15:55.920 with it. 0:15:56.440 --> 0:15:56.920 You have to. 0:15:57.320 --> 0:16:01.240 Constantly market yourself with camming and stripping. You kind of 0:16:01.320 --> 0:16:04.920 just do it, and you gain a base with only fans. 0:16:04.960 --> 0:16:06.640 You have to gain a base and then. 0:16:06.720 --> 0:16:07.680 Do it right. 0:16:07.840 --> 0:16:17.960 And yeah, and I've I've done only fans. I did 0:16:17.960 --> 0:16:19.640 it for a week, I made a lot of money, 0:16:19.800 --> 0:16:24.120 deleted it, and it's just it's not my thing. Like 0:16:24.160 --> 0:16:28.320 making content. I like making content, just not like sexual content. 0:16:28.600 --> 0:16:33.320 Like I I don't know. I'm a creative. I have 0:16:33.720 --> 0:16:36.440 a lot of ideas for videos. I write poetry, I 0:16:36.480 --> 0:16:38.200 write short stories, I write plays. 0:16:38.240 --> 0:16:38.760 I'm a writer. 0:16:40.120 --> 0:16:41.480 I like editing videos. 0:16:41.760 --> 0:16:42.240 Is just. 0:16:44.640 --> 0:16:47.720 I don't know, I don't I don't like making sexual content. 0:16:47.760 --> 0:16:51.960 I like just being myself and talking and having my 0:16:52.120 --> 0:16:55.800 aura and then doing that like photos and videos are 0:16:55.920 --> 0:16:56.680 just kind of whatever. 0:16:57.280 --> 0:17:02.160 So how long have you been so the did you 0:17:02.240 --> 0:17:04.600 go to like a sex and love rehab at the 0:17:04.600 --> 0:17:06.760 same time as the cocaine rehab. 0:17:07.800 --> 0:17:10.480 No, I don't think that exists. Actually, I mean it might, 0:17:10.680 --> 0:17:12.040 but I haven't been the one. 0:17:15.240 --> 0:17:19.240 Wait. How long have you been in the slaw for? Mmm? 0:17:21.200 --> 0:17:22.640 Maybe like six months? 0:17:23.200 --> 0:17:26.120 Okay, how long you been in the cocaine stuff for. 0:17:28.359 --> 0:17:30.840 The first time I went to rehab was a year ago. 0:17:34.440 --> 0:17:39.200 M hm. How is the retail job going? Where? Where 0:17:39.240 --> 0:17:40.480 is where is that at? 0:17:41.119 --> 0:17:43.360 I don't like it. I'm just not passionate about it. 0:17:43.359 --> 0:17:47.879 It's a lingerie store. I'm just it's really hard for 0:17:47.880 --> 0:17:50.560 me to find jobs I'm passionate about. I'm not passionate 0:17:50.560 --> 0:17:53.040 about sex work, but at least I like it. And 0:17:53.119 --> 0:17:57.639 I don't dislike this retail job. I'm just it's boring, 0:17:57.960 --> 0:18:02.199 and I mean, I guess people have to work boring jobs. 0:18:02.320 --> 0:18:04.320 I'm not trying to complain about it. I'm grateful to 0:18:04.320 --> 0:18:10.240 have this job. It's just if I have to have 0:18:10.280 --> 0:18:12.600 a career, I just want to do something i'm passionate about. Like, 0:18:12.720 --> 0:18:17.320 all I want to do is write songs and poetry, 0:18:17.440 --> 0:18:21.320 and I've written books, and I just I want to 0:18:21.359 --> 0:18:24.040 do music first. So I have a people that will 0:18:24.080 --> 0:18:27.040 read my stuff, and I just I don't know. 0:18:27.560 --> 0:18:28.520 The job is cool. 0:18:28.720 --> 0:18:32.880 I like the girls that work there. It's just I'm 0:18:32.880 --> 0:18:36.560 not passionate about it and it doesn't pay a whole time. 0:18:39.720 --> 0:18:43.359 Well, I you know, I think it's good. I think 0:18:43.400 --> 0:18:44.800 it's good that you have a lot of things you 0:18:44.840 --> 0:18:47.760 want to do, you know. The way you're talking about them, 0:18:47.800 --> 0:18:50.479 they're like, it's almost and I do this too. I 0:18:50.520 --> 0:18:52.400 do this too. What I'm about to say that you're doing, 0:18:52.440 --> 0:18:54.000 I do this too. And that's why I'm telling you 0:18:54.080 --> 0:18:56.280 that I'm seeing you do it. Is like all these 0:18:56.560 --> 0:19:00.199 passions that you are talking about, like you know what ever, 0:19:00.280 --> 0:19:03.359 making music or writing things like they're almost like waits 0:19:04.040 --> 0:19:06.679 the way you're talking about them, you know, But I 0:19:06.680 --> 0:19:09.560 think they're good to have all these things that you 0:19:09.600 --> 0:19:12.640 want to do. And then weirdly, like weirdly, these things 0:19:12.640 --> 0:19:14.919 they come with like attachments of like I need to 0:19:14.960 --> 0:19:20.040 make money doing this or be successful doing this, And 0:19:21.119 --> 0:19:23.159 I think there's that a big part of like trying 0:19:23.200 --> 0:19:26.720 to be happy with them is removing those kind of 0:19:26.800 --> 0:19:31.200 unnecessary attachments. And again I I I completely and utterly 0:19:31.280 --> 0:19:32.960 do that myself. And that's the only reason I'm talking 0:19:33.000 --> 0:19:33.400 about it. 0:19:36.480 --> 0:19:39.280 Yeah, I really appreciate you. 0:19:39.280 --> 0:19:39.600 Go go. 0:19:40.280 --> 0:19:42.000 I watch your steam a lot, and I'm always like, 0:19:42.080 --> 0:19:45.439 I wonder if I'll get to talk to them one day? 0:19:46.880 --> 0:19:49.159 What is What does the future look like for you? 0:19:49.359 --> 0:19:54.000 Violet Violent? I'm gonna just call you violent Violent July, Violet, 0:19:54.240 --> 0:19:57.719 Violet July. What's the future look is? 0:19:57.920 --> 0:20:06.760 Violet July? I More poetry, more music, more connection, more love, 0:20:07.160 --> 0:20:10.280 more kindness, more enlightenment. 0:20:12.560 --> 0:20:13.400 And less cocaine. 0:20:13.440 --> 0:20:15.800 I don't know, and less cocaine. 0:20:19.359 --> 0:20:22.560 Mm hmm, Well, I wish I could have I I 0:20:23.320 --> 0:20:24.920 it's been It's been great talking to you. I wish 0:20:24.920 --> 0:20:27.560 I could have been of some form of help in 0:20:27.600 --> 0:20:29.760 you making your decision. 0:20:31.560 --> 0:20:33.800 You're great. It was great to just be able to 0:20:33.920 --> 0:20:35.280 vent about it. Thank you. 0:20:37.520 --> 0:20:39.920 I don't know. I guess you could. There's a way 0:20:40.000 --> 0:20:43.480 you could. You could combine all these things. You could be. 0:20:44.040 --> 0:20:49.800 You could be the stripping poet. You you take off 0:20:49.840 --> 0:20:53.840 one piece of clothing for every every bar. What do 0:20:53.840 --> 0:20:56.040 you go Are they Is that just rap? Or is 0:20:56.080 --> 0:20:57.000 that in poetry too? 0:20:57.119 --> 0:21:00.280 The bars they're called stamp. 0:21:01.119 --> 0:21:04.160 Okay, every stanza, you take off one piece of clothing. 0:21:05.680 --> 0:21:08.240 Do you do you want to hear poems. 0:21:09.000 --> 0:21:11.439 Sure, let's close out with a poem. 0:21:11.840 --> 0:21:13.560 Well, I have like. 0:21:13.680 --> 0:21:17.040 Eight thousand pems in my phone notes. I'm just gonna 0:21:17.880 --> 0:21:29.600 where is it? Let's go with Okay, the anti Christ 0:21:29.680 --> 0:21:34.000 will entice the gentleman the medicine he needs to kill. 0:21:34.040 --> 0:21:37.560 The weeds of the demiurge must be purged from his computer, 0:21:38.080 --> 0:21:41.840 for the consumer is innocent, and the gentleman is ignorant 0:21:41.840 --> 0:21:44.480 of the colors sent from the other side of reality. 0:21:45.160 --> 0:21:50.600 For our immortality desires to go backwards. I heard the 0:21:50.680 --> 0:21:54.959 gentleman's curls can lurel the girls into the catastrophe that 0:21:55.040 --> 0:21:59.560 may be essopiric truth. But his geometric youth sings the 0:21:59.640 --> 0:22:03.960 song of wires, that tire of intertwining the saging masses. 0:22:04.800 --> 0:22:07.960 So when his soul passes, will he choose to continue 0:22:08.040 --> 0:22:09.360 down the rabbit hole of hell? 0:22:09.920 --> 0:22:12.320 Or will his shell grow roots? 0:22:14.080 --> 0:22:16.639 That sounds like something Hermione would say to like turn 0:22:17.160 --> 0:22:23.879 a demon into a bunny or something. It was a 0:22:23.920 --> 0:22:29.320 good poem. Thank you, what's your name again? Violet Violent, 0:22:29.760 --> 0:22:30.640 Violet July. 0:22:30.600 --> 0:22:33.159 Violet July, Violet July. 0:22:33.520 --> 0:22:35.040 Violet July, Is anything else you want to say to 0:22:35.080 --> 0:22:36.359 the people of the computer before we go. 0:22:37.640 --> 0:22:40.760 Yeah, I have a song coming out on January first 0:22:43.160 --> 0:22:48.200 at who is Violet July? If you feel like following, 0:22:49.840 --> 0:22:52.040 I promise it didn't come here for music promo. But 0:22:52.800 --> 0:22:56.800 thank you so much. I appreciate everybody like you guys agree. 0:22:57.200 --> 0:23:00.000 Also, check out Violent I don't know what his Instagram 0:22:59.880 --> 0:23:04.359 handle is, but check out a violent violent J. Just 0:23:04.400 --> 0:23:06.680 go to go to YouTube and type in violent J 0:23:07.600 --> 0:23:10.919 Miracles and watch that video too while and watch Violet 0:23:10.960 --> 0:23:13.800 stuff and also that thank. 0:23:13.640 --> 0:23:14.280 You so much. 0:23:14.920 --> 0:23:15.760 Have a good night, Violet. 0:23:16.440 --> 0:23:19.040 Yeah you toobe by bye. 0:23:25.040 --> 0:23:25.359 Hello. 0:23:25.880 --> 0:23:26.600 What's your name? 0:23:27.560 --> 0:23:27.960 Lauren? 0:23:28.760 --> 0:23:30.600 Lauren? What's going on with you? Lauren? 0:23:31.080 --> 0:23:31.280 Oh? 0:23:31.400 --> 0:23:36.159 You know, just not really on house rest. But I 0:23:36.200 --> 0:23:38.160 have a scram monitor on my ankle. 0:23:38.560 --> 0:23:40.200 A scram monitor? 0:23:41.560 --> 0:23:46.520 Yeah? Yeah, so it it depends alcohol in your sweat? 0:23:46.880 --> 0:23:50.080 And is this because you are legally not allowed to 0:23:50.080 --> 0:23:52.040 be consuming alcohol. 0:23:53.760 --> 0:23:55.160 On twenty four but correct? 0:23:55.240 --> 0:23:58.640 Yes, why are you not legally allowed to consume alcohol? 0:24:00.640 --> 0:24:07.399