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Speaker 1: What's Up Tribe. I'm Erica and I'm Mila, and this

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Speaker 1: is Good Mom's Bad Choices Podcast Beach season two.

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Speaker 2: If you joined us for season one, you got three

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Speaker 2: hundred uncensored episodes.

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Speaker 1: But things are a little different in twenty twenty four.

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Speaker 1: Not only are we having new guests, new segments, but

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Speaker 1: we're going outside, y'all. We're getting out of our studio

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Speaker 1: and podcasting in the wild, So make sure you check

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Speaker 1: us out on YouTube to see where we're headed next.

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Speaker 2: This podcast is for all the good moms, all the

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Speaker 2: good dads, and even y'all hain't got no kids.

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Speaker 1: Pull up. Join us in season.

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Speaker 2: Two as we deep dive into even more uncensored topics

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Speaker 2: like love, sex.

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Speaker 1: Dating, and just look at this as the ultimate group chat.

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Speaker 1: All the shit you're afraid to say out loud or

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Speaker 1: even try, We say it and do it for you.

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Speaker 2: Because nothing's off limits here.

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Speaker 1: This is a judgment free zone to show up exactly

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Speaker 1: as you are, and let's be honest, we've all made

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Speaker 1: a few bad choices, so sit back, relax, and enjoy

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Speaker 1: the ride. Welcome back to Good Mom's Bad Choices. I'm

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Speaker 1: Erica and I'm Mila. Happy Wednesday, Happy hump Day. How

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Speaker 1: you doing. I'm good. We're back in the stew back

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Speaker 1: in the studio today.

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Speaker 2: We finally made it back to the studio. I didn't

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Speaker 2: think we'd ever come back, but here we are.

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Speaker 1: Have you guys been enjoying our Good Moms in the

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Speaker 1: Wild episodes. We've been doing a lot of more episodes

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Speaker 1: outside and it's a It's been a nice departure for us,

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Speaker 1: I think, to get out of the space and kind

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Speaker 1: of into our lives. Like really not just listening to

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Speaker 1: us talk about our lives, but like, hey, this is

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Speaker 1: what I do in the morning. I like to go

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Speaker 1: for a hike and then go go botox.

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Speaker 2: Totally very la of us, but yeah, it does feel

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Speaker 2: like an invitation into our more personal lives and just

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Speaker 2: into our worlds. Yeah, because we do live outside of

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Speaker 2: this box. I know it's hard to believe, but sometimes

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Speaker 2: we leave this place not often.

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Speaker 1: I know, how are you feeling, How you doing good?

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Speaker 1: I feel good? I am, you know, grounding.

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Speaker 2: I think I'm just finally getting into twenty twenty four.

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Speaker 2: Where before I was like resistant, I was still resting,

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Speaker 2: but now I'm here. I'm here at the rest of

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Speaker 2: the world. In twenty twenty four. Finally, I think I

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Speaker 2: brought in the new year with the Chinese.

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Speaker 1: I don't know how, but I do know how. This

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Speaker 1: always happens. But if you're watching us on YouTube, you'll

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Speaker 1: see that me and me and l are basically dressed

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Speaker 2: This is a very specifically, very specific Usually we're like

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Speaker 2: color coordinating, print coordinating, but today we just fold on

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Speaker 2: what renaissance And apparently you both got the menue the

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Speaker 2: fucking memo, because if you haven't joined us on I

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Speaker 2: We're always dressed to like, we're always look cute, we're

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Speaker 1: I know. I found this at a at a thrift

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Speaker 1: shop in the valley, which actually this thrift shop specifically

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Speaker 1: much Venture Boulevard, but I've been going there since I

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Speaker 2: I didn't remember them having like any style. I just

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Speaker 1: And then they would always be wearing They're like super vintagey.

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Speaker 2: Is that we actually decided this week. You'll be the

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Speaker 2: our lives, but we're also decided that we are going

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Speaker 2: to Joel address the old timey internext birthday party bookings

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Speaker 1: But it's true. It's true. I feel like I'm stepping

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Speaker 2: All this shit in the vintage story is usually super tiny.

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Speaker 2: I don't know about these boobs, but we're gonna get

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Speaker 2: This year, we're gonna focus more on our fashions. We

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Speaker 2: Martha Stewart, Betty Crocker meets Lola Bunny.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, Like Betty Crocker meets Jessica Rabbit. That says, this

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Speaker 2: much it for like phrilly, floral, see through extreme sex,

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Speaker 1: Little vampirey. I like, I got like a strong vampire.

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Speaker 2: So how are you feeling about this season so far?

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Speaker 1: I feel great. I feel really excited. What I like

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Speaker 2: I mean, I developed my entire relationship on the internet

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Speaker 2: Oh, he was in it, but I didn't remember you

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Speaker 1: It was me in the bathroom him like you could

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Speaker 2: The crazy part about us censoring our love lives or

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Speaker 2: whatever our private lives behind Patreon is that, like, the

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Speaker 2: niggas that really want to be obsessive are going to

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Speaker 2: just pay the ten dollars.

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Speaker 1: That's fine, but if you better, like, and I have questions,

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Speaker 1: I have, like I need advice, and I don't need

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Speaker 1: And I need a cute little a few thousand in

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Speaker 1: my Patreon's advice versus the Peanut Galleries advice. I mean, honest,

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Speaker 2: Patreon is like, really my only safe space because my

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Speaker 2: boyfriend is everywhere except Patreon.

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Speaker 1: You don't think he's on Patreon. No, this boyfriend is not.

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Speaker 2: He that's maybe the one place he's not on because

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Speaker 1: I can't even do it really in discord, because I

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Speaker 2: So yeah, that's beautiful. I think everybody does that. Like

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Speaker 1: I can't have it all.

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Speaker 2: It definitely is challenging, just because like I really a

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Speaker 2: we wrote the register, I'm like, oh shit, god damn it,

436
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Speaker 2: But like, what does it really feel like, like embodying

437
00:20:17,720 --> 00:20:22,200
Speaker 2: the feeling of like what it feels like to embody

438
00:20:22,240 --> 00:20:24,679
Speaker 2: that living moment, you know, and like that attracts it.

439
00:20:24,920 --> 00:20:26,480
Speaker 1: But I think sometimes you were writing down like.

440
00:20:26,440 --> 00:20:29,679
Speaker 2: This this fairy tale love story not realizing that it

441
00:20:29,760 --> 00:20:32,840
Speaker 2: requires work from you. Because yeah, when Orlando first showed up,

442
00:20:32,920 --> 00:20:35,440
Speaker 2: like within like six months, he was like, oh my daughter,

443
00:20:35,480 --> 00:20:39,600
Speaker 2: and I was like, ooh sh you gotta say that,

444
00:20:39,760 --> 00:20:44,000
Speaker 2: like that seems that seems intense, you know, like pump

445
00:20:44,000 --> 00:20:48,040
Speaker 2: your brakes before you start dropping mds, you know. But

446
00:20:48,320 --> 00:20:50,679
Speaker 2: I think I had to check myself and like really

447
00:20:50,760 --> 00:20:53,320
Speaker 2: kind of just be okay with someone who is okay

448
00:20:53,359 --> 00:20:56,080
Speaker 2: with taking on the role as a stepfather and even

449
00:20:56,200 --> 00:20:59,960
Speaker 2: just the things that I've had to release in that part,

450
00:21:00,400 --> 00:21:03,399
Speaker 2: and it is like, why are you reprimanding my child

451
00:21:03,440 --> 00:21:05,640
Speaker 2: and me? Who the fuck do you think you are?

452
00:21:06,680 --> 00:21:11,240
Speaker 2: But it's taken me, like literally, quite literally, the an

453
00:21:11,400 --> 00:21:14,639
Speaker 2: entire year plus to be comfortable in the fact that

454
00:21:14,640 --> 00:21:16,760
Speaker 2: I'm with somebody and no matter how much you piss

455
00:21:16,840 --> 00:21:19,800
Speaker 2: me off, I'm we're not leaving each other. And I

456
00:21:19,800 --> 00:21:22,359
Speaker 2: think that is something that most people and most women

457
00:21:22,400 --> 00:21:26,879
Speaker 2: don't have the safety to experience. And so I've found

458
00:21:26,880 --> 00:21:30,879
Speaker 2: myself in the face of conflict wanting to be like

459
00:21:31,960 --> 00:21:34,159
Speaker 2: wanting to want to be out because that's my general

460
00:21:34,240 --> 00:21:37,520
Speaker 2: like I don't need you, but being like, damn, I

461
00:21:37,520 --> 00:21:38,240
Speaker 2: do need you.

462
00:21:38,200 --> 00:21:39,760
Speaker 1: And I want you, and.

463
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Speaker 2: I have to be able to release and let go

464
00:21:43,240 --> 00:21:46,560
Speaker 2: of conflict and things in order to move past it,

465
00:21:46,560 --> 00:21:48,240
Speaker 2: because I'm human and I expect you to do the

466
00:21:48,280 --> 00:21:50,480
Speaker 2: same thing, because literally, holding on too grudges with people

467
00:21:50,480 --> 00:21:53,960
Speaker 2: that we love, friendships too literally doesn't serve us at all.

468
00:21:54,400 --> 00:21:57,719
Speaker 2: It just brings you further away from your friends. And

469
00:21:57,760 --> 00:21:59,639
Speaker 2: it's like the human part of it all because I

470
00:21:59,680 --> 00:22:03,679
Speaker 2: think the happily ever after is so often sold to

471
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Speaker 2: us on TV, but we have we so we're not

472
00:22:07,040 --> 00:22:10,280
Speaker 2: really living it or experiencing it that it requires like

473
00:22:10,320 --> 00:22:13,080
Speaker 2: this big, not this. It doesn't have to be big,

474
00:22:13,119 --> 00:22:18,200
Speaker 2: but it does. It requires this this process of getting

475
00:22:18,240 --> 00:22:20,880
Speaker 2: comfortable and accepting that it's good.

476
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Speaker 1: Well, that's beautiful. I look forward to that experience myself.

477
00:22:24,720 --> 00:22:27,120
Speaker 1: I feel like I've gotten like not, I don't think

478
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Speaker 1: I've really even gotten that close to it. I've had,

479
00:22:30,640 --> 00:22:33,359
Speaker 1: you know, guys that have come in and like, you know,

480
00:22:33,560 --> 00:22:35,840
Speaker 1: it's so women are so basic. We see our like

481
00:22:35,920 --> 00:22:39,360
Speaker 1: are a male single moms are basic in ways, right.

482
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Speaker 1: We see a man that we're intimate with that we

483
00:22:43,240 --> 00:22:45,119
Speaker 1: kind of like, and he's nice to our kids, and

484
00:22:45,119 --> 00:22:50,720
Speaker 1: then we literally start imagining a whole fucking fairy tale life.

485
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Speaker 1: Oh my god, look, Namy's so good. I cant to

486
00:22:52,480 --> 00:22:54,760
Speaker 1: see him doing math homework with her. And then and

487
00:22:54,800 --> 00:22:56,400
Speaker 1: then he's gonna be there. He's gonna catch our first

488
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Speaker 1: baby and at the Purpose birthing center. Actually fuck that,

489
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Speaker 1: We're gonna get birth and home and then he's perfect.

490
00:23:02,200 --> 00:23:03,520
Speaker 1: He's in a teacher how to ride a bike, or

491
00:23:03,600 --> 00:23:09,760
Speaker 1: Lando top my daughter. He's going to you know, and

492
00:23:08,960 --> 00:23:11,639
Speaker 1: and I've totally fallen into that trap. I mean I

493
00:23:11,640 --> 00:23:13,840
Speaker 1: do it all the time and still now we fantasize,

494
00:23:14,080 --> 00:23:16,720
Speaker 1: but I don't. I've never come close to like really

495
00:23:17,520 --> 00:23:23,560
Speaker 1: that that feeling of safety and family feeling with my child.

496
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Speaker 1: So I want that. I really really want that for

497
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Speaker 1: me and for her. So I'm calling that in and

498
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Speaker 1: I think that the well, the work that I've done,

499
00:23:34,280 --> 00:23:37,160
Speaker 1: and also just like the protection of my energy, my womb,

500
00:23:37,359 --> 00:23:41,240
Speaker 1: is I fucking nobody until I know for sure that

501
00:23:41,440 --> 00:23:44,240
Speaker 1: this person is going to be able to provide that

502
00:23:44,320 --> 00:23:47,040
Speaker 1: type of safety for me and my daughter, and also

503
00:23:47,080 --> 00:23:53,160
Speaker 1: my family too, because it's like a blending of more

504
00:23:53,200 --> 00:23:55,440
Speaker 1: than just you and your daughter. It's like if you're

505
00:23:55,480 --> 00:23:58,880
Speaker 1: really hopefully, if you're if you have the family dynamic,

506
00:23:58,960 --> 00:24:03,080
Speaker 1: it's a blending of family well. And I don't take

507
00:24:03,080 --> 00:24:05,240
Speaker 1: that lightly either. I think my mom has been waiting

508
00:24:05,240 --> 00:24:07,280
Speaker 1: for that. She's like, when the fuck are you gonna

509
00:24:07,440 --> 00:24:10,480
Speaker 1: bring the guy that like brings the families together. And

510
00:24:10,520 --> 00:24:12,720
Speaker 1: I'm like, I don't know, Mom.

511
00:24:13,000 --> 00:24:14,399
Speaker 2: We live in such a time where it's like do

512
00:24:14,440 --> 00:24:15,440
Speaker 2: the people do that anymore?

513
00:24:15,480 --> 00:24:17,560
Speaker 1: I do? I know, but I think I think we

514
00:24:17,680 --> 00:24:18,040
Speaker 1: have been.

515
00:24:18,200 --> 00:24:22,080
Speaker 2: We're so heavily exposed, and like we're so heavily exposed,

516
00:24:22,119 --> 00:24:24,200
Speaker 2: and like right, now, for some reason, there's so much

517
00:24:24,520 --> 00:24:28,320
Speaker 2: there's so much conversation and like emphasis on nigga's not

518
00:24:28,359 --> 00:24:31,760
Speaker 2: wanting to settle down and polyamorous relationships. And I know

519
00:24:32,119 --> 00:24:34,399
Speaker 2: we've preached a lot of open relationship rhetoric in the

520
00:24:34,440 --> 00:24:37,800
Speaker 2: beginning of our careers as podcasters, but we're here to

521
00:24:37,840 --> 00:24:42,240
Speaker 2: say we are married wife like women. Okay, not to

522
00:24:42,280 --> 00:24:44,280
Speaker 2: say that poly people are not married. I'm just saying

523
00:24:44,320 --> 00:24:46,679
Speaker 2: that I'm here to tell you, and I'm here to

524
00:24:46,680 --> 00:24:51,160
Speaker 2: tell you, friend from a woman who was resistant as

525
00:24:51,200 --> 00:24:54,160
Speaker 2: hell to safety even though I asked for it, that

526
00:24:54,320 --> 00:24:56,840
Speaker 2: you do deserve it, and it is out there, and

527
00:24:56,920 --> 00:25:00,440
Speaker 2: there is a man who's mature and emotionally evolved, who

528
00:25:00,560 --> 00:25:04,280
Speaker 2: is fun and freaky and actually wants to step up

529
00:25:04,400 --> 00:25:07,399
Speaker 2: and be a husband and be a father and be

530
00:25:07,440 --> 00:25:09,879
Speaker 2: a father figure and is going to support and protect

531
00:25:09,960 --> 00:25:12,480
Speaker 2: you and you know, provide for you in ways that

532
00:25:12,480 --> 00:25:14,600
Speaker 2: you didn't even think of, and like build with you.

533
00:25:15,000 --> 00:25:17,200
Speaker 2: Like you deserve that, and it's out there and waiting

534
00:25:17,200 --> 00:25:19,399
Speaker 2: for you. And I'm so glad that you're in this

535
00:25:19,520 --> 00:25:23,200
Speaker 2: chapter where you're seeing that for yourself and like separating

536
00:25:23,240 --> 00:25:26,720
Speaker 2: and really detaching from niggas who are not ready, because

537
00:25:26,720 --> 00:25:29,480
Speaker 2: it does require that you kind of look out the

538
00:25:29,480 --> 00:25:31,520
Speaker 2: rear view and be like, I'm out, nigga to be

539
00:25:31,600 --> 00:25:34,639
Speaker 2: onto the next and go over that mountaintop and really

540
00:25:34,720 --> 00:25:37,679
Speaker 2: see the meadows and the valleys and the beautiful like

541
00:25:37,800 --> 00:25:40,479
Speaker 2: paradise that awaits you. So I think like a lot

542
00:25:40,520 --> 00:25:43,240
Speaker 2: of women are sold this bullshit that like no man's

543
00:25:43,240 --> 00:25:45,080
Speaker 2: coming to save you and your kids, or nobody wants

544
00:25:45,119 --> 00:25:47,280
Speaker 2: you because you have a kid. But I got news

545
00:25:47,320 --> 00:25:50,560
Speaker 2: for you, Okay. The nigga is out there, okay, And

546
00:25:50,640 --> 00:25:52,760
Speaker 2: he will rub your feet, and he will teach your

547
00:25:52,800 --> 00:25:54,320
Speaker 2: kids how to ride a bike, and he will cook

548
00:25:54,359 --> 00:25:56,280
Speaker 2: you dinner, and he will help, and he will show

549
00:25:56,359 --> 00:25:58,000
Speaker 2: up for you in the way that you deserve and

550
00:25:58,040 --> 00:26:00,240
Speaker 2: that you need and that you've been longing for, and

551
00:26:00,280 --> 00:26:02,520
Speaker 2: the way you see the white ladies live happily ever

552
00:26:02,600 --> 00:26:04,919
Speaker 2: after on TV, Like, you also deserve that, and you

553
00:26:04,960 --> 00:26:08,640
Speaker 2: also can have that as long as you are committed

554
00:26:08,760 --> 00:26:10,600
Speaker 2: to what it is that you know that you deserve

555
00:26:10,960 --> 00:26:14,359
Speaker 2: and not bullshitting and fucking around on the fuck around

556
00:26:14,760 --> 00:26:15,680
Speaker 2: with these fucking arounds.

557
00:26:17,400 --> 00:26:20,239
Speaker 1: Are you pointing at me? No, no, no, no, are

558
00:26:20,240 --> 00:26:22,560
Speaker 1: you pointing at me? Pointing at you? Bitch.

559
00:26:23,400 --> 00:26:25,399
Speaker 2: So if you're wasting your time on a nigga who's

560
00:26:25,400 --> 00:26:28,760
Speaker 2: not the stepdaddy type, stop scrolling on Instagram with the

561
00:26:28,880 --> 00:26:33,080
Speaker 2: gender wars and let that nigga go and you know,

562
00:26:33,240 --> 00:26:36,560
Speaker 2: move on to someone who's actually evolved and deserving of you. Immature.

563
00:26:37,040 --> 00:26:39,240
Speaker 2: And with that said, today's affirmation. I know a lot

564
00:26:39,240 --> 00:26:42,919
Speaker 2: of women, A lot of my female friends obsess and

565
00:26:43,000 --> 00:26:46,920
Speaker 2: stress over not having relationships or the search of or

566
00:26:46,920 --> 00:26:49,680
Speaker 2: they're not being enough men. And I just I realized,

567
00:26:49,680 --> 00:26:53,240
Speaker 2: even for myself, I say I'm stressed all the time.

568
00:26:53,400 --> 00:26:55,240
Speaker 2: And I saw a meme and it was like, I'm

569
00:26:55,280 --> 00:27:00,760
Speaker 2: not stressed, I'm under divine pressure. I'm not sure I'm

570
00:27:00,840 --> 00:27:04,480
Speaker 2: under divine pressure because I'm a bit who says I'm

571
00:27:04,480 --> 00:27:07,240
Speaker 2: stressed a lot, like a lot, to the point where

572
00:27:07,480 --> 00:27:09,000
Speaker 2: I've heard my daughter say it and I was like,

573
00:27:09,040 --> 00:27:12,040
Speaker 2: oh god, yeah, so it's.

574
00:27:11,960 --> 00:27:14,120
Speaker 1: Just like Kitty is stressed. It's stressing me out right now.

575
00:27:14,400 --> 00:27:17,159
Speaker 1: One yeah, it's on the way to coming out. Let

576
00:27:17,200 --> 00:27:17,560
Speaker 1: me tuger.

577
00:27:20,560 --> 00:27:23,760
Speaker 2: But I'm not stressed. I'm under divine pressure because it's

578
00:27:23,840 --> 00:27:26,480
Speaker 2: just a perspective shift. There's a lot of men you

579
00:27:26,560 --> 00:27:28,399
Speaker 2: just haven't found yours, you know, and there's a lot

580
00:27:28,440 --> 00:27:30,520
Speaker 2: of great men. You just have to be open defining

581
00:27:30,520 --> 00:27:32,280
Speaker 2: yours and not wasting time on the bullshit.

582
00:27:32,640 --> 00:27:34,640
Speaker 1: So we're not stressed. Even us we.

583
00:27:34,680 --> 00:27:37,720
Speaker 2: Be under divine pressure because any pressure that we have

584
00:27:38,560 --> 00:27:40,960
Speaker 2: is fine. It's so divine because we asked for it.

585
00:27:41,160 --> 00:27:43,080
Speaker 2: And that's the thing is like, the divine pressure is

586
00:27:43,080 --> 00:27:45,520
Speaker 2: sometimes the things that we didn't realize we asked for

587
00:27:45,640 --> 00:27:47,840
Speaker 2: are here, but they're showing up with a little bit

588
00:27:47,880 --> 00:27:48,400
Speaker 2: of pressure.

589
00:27:48,680 --> 00:27:50,400
Speaker 1: And now you're like, ahh, but.

590
00:27:50,480 --> 00:27:53,280
Speaker 2: Yes, bitch, even in relationships that you dream of, when

591
00:27:53,280 --> 00:27:56,360
Speaker 2: you manifest, there will be divine pressure, you know, and

592
00:27:56,359 --> 00:28:00,760
Speaker 2: and so like change your perspective so that when it comes,

593
00:28:00,760 --> 00:28:03,240
Speaker 2: you're not overwhelming yourself in some bullshit and some delusion

594
00:28:03,320 --> 00:28:06,520
Speaker 2: illusion that it's negative when actually it's exactly your Your

595
00:28:06,600 --> 00:28:09,000
Speaker 2: dreams are coming true. And that's why it's a little

596
00:28:09,040 --> 00:28:09,560
Speaker 2: bit of pressure.

597
00:28:09,560 --> 00:28:09,760
Speaker 1: Bitch.

598
00:28:09,800 --> 00:28:14,640
Speaker 2: You gotta make moves. But I have a surprise for you.

599
00:28:14,640 --> 00:28:14,840
Speaker 3: You do.

600
00:28:15,240 --> 00:28:19,440
Speaker 2: Yes, we've been talking about our love and about manifesting

601
00:28:19,520 --> 00:28:23,720
Speaker 2: healthy love, and today we have a very special tarot time.

602
00:28:24,000 --> 00:28:27,200
Speaker 1: Oh my gosh, is it star magic. We are going

603
00:28:27,240 --> 00:28:28,200
Speaker 1: on a field.

604
00:28:27,920 --> 00:28:34,320
Speaker 2: Tress that it was so valid field dress so I

605
00:28:34,359 --> 00:28:38,440
Speaker 2: have a friend downstairs in a magic Star Magic school

606
00:28:38,440 --> 00:28:42,960
Speaker 2: bus and she's here to do Yeah.

607
00:28:43,120 --> 00:28:46,440
Speaker 1: Oh my gosh, we're doing Tarot Time outside of the studio. Yeah,

608
00:28:46,600 --> 00:28:50,239
Speaker 1: slash in the studio. Yeah, okay, all right, well let's go.

609
00:29:14,280 --> 00:29:17,480
Speaker 2: Welcome to Tarot Time, and today is a very special

610
00:29:17,520 --> 00:29:20,600
Speaker 2: Tarot Time because we are joined by a very special guest.

611
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Speaker 1: We are on Star Magic school Bus, which we're so

612
00:29:25,840 --> 00:29:29,720
Speaker 1: grateful for, Ashley, your favorite traveling psychic who we happened

613
00:29:29,720 --> 00:29:32,320
Speaker 1: to meet randomly in studio city. Shout out to all

614
00:29:32,320 --> 00:29:33,760
Speaker 1: the Valley girls in the world who know where the

615
00:29:33,760 --> 00:29:39,880
Speaker 1: fuck that is. It was one eleven actually on the day,

616
00:29:39,920 --> 00:29:42,240
Speaker 1: and I was walking outside. We had just finished actually

617
00:29:42,240 --> 00:29:45,120
Speaker 1: our last episode that you guys checked out. Take a hike, bitch, bitch,

618
00:29:45,120 --> 00:29:48,520
Speaker 1: take a hike or take a hike, bitch, and I

619
00:29:48,560 --> 00:29:52,080
Speaker 1: happened to see this amazing school bus parked outside and

620
00:29:52,160 --> 00:29:54,480
Speaker 1: said Tarot. It said Reiki Apothecary. I was like, let

621
00:29:54,520 --> 00:29:55,720
Speaker 1: me go in here and see what the fike is

622
00:29:55,720 --> 00:29:57,600
Speaker 1: going on in here. And then I peeked in and

623
00:29:57,640 --> 00:30:00,239
Speaker 1: there was this beautiful black woman sitting in here. If

624
00:30:00,240 --> 00:30:01,640
Speaker 1: you were from the valley, you know you see the

625
00:30:01,680 --> 00:30:06,080
Speaker 1: Black Girls, we like, hello, Hi, So I was like, Okay,

626
00:30:06,120 --> 00:30:08,920
Speaker 1: I'm gonna come back here. And after we ate, we

627
00:30:09,000 --> 00:30:11,480
Speaker 1: came on the bus and we had an amazing reading

628
00:30:11,520 --> 00:30:15,080
Speaker 1: by you. Thank you, and so you know, good moms

629
00:30:15,120 --> 00:30:17,120
Speaker 1: like what we're good for. We'll come in and be

630
00:30:17,200 --> 00:30:20,440
Speaker 1: like hey. So we were thinking can we shoot an

631
00:30:20,440 --> 00:30:23,920
Speaker 1: episode on her, a little segment of Tarot time, And

632
00:30:24,160 --> 00:30:26,200
Speaker 1: we're so grateful you said yes. And I'm just so

633
00:30:26,240 --> 00:30:29,360
Speaker 1: happy to share what you do and this beautiful space

634
00:30:29,400 --> 00:30:31,320
Speaker 1: that you've created with our audience.

635
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Speaker 4: So thank you, thank you.

636
00:30:33,240 --> 00:30:36,320
Speaker 5: I'm so excited to be here and for this session

637
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Speaker 5: and for the opportunity to share, so thank you.

638
00:30:41,720 --> 00:30:43,800
Speaker 1: Before we start, I just have just a few questions

639
00:30:43,840 --> 00:30:46,280
Speaker 1: because we didn't even really get to ask you anything, right,

640
00:30:46,640 --> 00:30:48,880
Speaker 1: How did you get into taro? Oh? Wow?

641
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Speaker 5: So I've always been ever since I was a kid,

642
00:30:52,360 --> 00:30:58,280
Speaker 5: I've always been obsessed with tarot, magic, astrology, everything that

643
00:30:58,360 --> 00:31:01,960
Speaker 5: has to do with the metaphysical esoteric space. And I've

644
00:31:01,960 --> 00:31:07,480
Speaker 5: always been intuitive, but I didn't necessarily trust my own

645
00:31:07,520 --> 00:31:13,280
Speaker 5: intuition growing up, and it wasn't until I had oh gosh,

646
00:31:13,320 --> 00:31:16,360
Speaker 5: I would say my first like serious dark knight of

647
00:31:16,400 --> 00:31:19,840
Speaker 5: the Dark Night of the Soul Spiritual Awakening or conscious

648
00:31:19,880 --> 00:31:25,160
Speaker 5: spiritual awakening, which was back in twenty eighteen, a little

649
00:31:25,200 --> 00:31:31,400
Speaker 5: after my Staturn return. Actually it was incredible, like that

650
00:31:31,440 --> 00:31:36,760
Speaker 5: first Mercury retrograde, I ran into eleven people from my

651
00:31:36,880 --> 00:31:39,240
Speaker 5: past in a span of like two and a half weeks,

652
00:31:39,240 --> 00:31:41,840
Speaker 5: and I got really freaked out and realized the universe

653
00:31:41,960 --> 00:31:45,880
Speaker 5: was trying to send me a message. And so I

654
00:31:46,920 --> 00:31:51,000
Speaker 5: guess that really sprung me into my spiritual path, where

655
00:31:51,040 --> 00:31:56,400
Speaker 5: I found like a daily practice of grounding, meditation, journaling affirmations.

656
00:31:56,480 --> 00:32:00,239
Speaker 5: And during that process, the meditation really opened me up

657
00:32:00,280 --> 00:32:05,360
Speaker 5: to start receiving messages and downloads and visions, and I

658
00:32:05,400 --> 00:32:12,840
Speaker 5: also developed an interest in herbalism and taro. But really

659
00:32:13,400 --> 00:32:16,320
Speaker 5: I got sober that year, so instead of and it's

660
00:32:16,320 --> 00:32:19,360
Speaker 5: funny because ironically, I'd purchased my first tarot deck the

661
00:32:19,440 --> 00:32:22,840
Speaker 5: year prior, in twenty seventeen, so I messed around with it,

662
00:32:22,920 --> 00:32:25,320
Speaker 5: put it away, and then twenty eighteen happened. All of

663
00:32:25,320 --> 00:32:29,680
Speaker 5: that happened, and instead of going out for New Year's Eve,

664
00:32:29,720 --> 00:32:32,800
Speaker 5: I decided to stay home and watch videos on YouTube

665
00:32:32,840 --> 00:32:37,320
Speaker 5: about numerology, and that sort of spiraled into taro and

666
00:32:38,240 --> 00:32:40,560
Speaker 5: I just ended up knowing the meanings of the cards,

667
00:32:40,640 --> 00:32:45,400
Speaker 5: like without even setting the intention of working with them myself,

668
00:32:45,920 --> 00:32:46,840
Speaker 5: and realized like.

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Speaker 4: Oh, I need to do this.

670
00:32:49,040 --> 00:32:51,040
Speaker 5: And so at first when I first started reading, I

671
00:32:51,080 --> 00:32:54,760
Speaker 5: was just offering free readings with the purchase of intention

672
00:32:54,880 --> 00:32:57,720
Speaker 5: candles that I make. And then people just became more

673
00:32:57,760 --> 00:32:59,800
Speaker 5: interested in the taro than the candles, and the taro

674
00:32:59,880 --> 00:33:02,040
Speaker 5: just kind of took off and here we are.

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Speaker 1: Amazing, and then it made this beautiful bus.

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00:33:04,200 --> 00:33:05,640
Speaker 4: And then I made this beautiful bus.

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00:33:06,480 --> 00:33:09,320
Speaker 1: Wow, this is pretty big deal. This is a beautiful bus.

678
00:33:09,440 --> 00:33:13,600
Speaker 1: Thank you? Are you like a DIY queen like interior designer?

679
00:33:13,760 --> 00:33:18,160
Speaker 5: This is all DIY, no interior design background, no construction background,

680
00:33:18,440 --> 00:33:22,440
Speaker 5: just a lot of basically YouTube university YouTube the.

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00:33:22,440 --> 00:33:26,920
Speaker 1: Shit out of this. The bus is busting. Okay.

682
00:33:27,200 --> 00:33:29,600
Speaker 2: It is like a little enchanted garden on wheels.

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00:33:29,800 --> 00:33:33,840
Speaker 5: Yeah, that was my vision, and I didn't like, I

684
00:33:33,840 --> 00:33:36,239
Speaker 5: didn't initially know that I was going to do a

685
00:33:36,280 --> 00:33:38,880
Speaker 5: bus like it started out with just like I said,

686
00:33:38,920 --> 00:33:39,520
Speaker 5: the candles.

687
00:33:39,600 --> 00:33:40,560
Speaker 6: Then word of mouth.

688
00:33:40,880 --> 00:33:44,480
Speaker 5: Eventually I ended up reading in shops like metaphysical shops

689
00:33:44,520 --> 00:33:49,520
Speaker 5: all over LA. And my first shop experience was really

690
00:33:49,560 --> 00:33:52,400
Speaker 5: traumatizing and that's what let me know. Oh, I need

691
00:33:52,440 --> 00:33:55,400
Speaker 5: to create my own space. And being a Sage Moon,

692
00:33:55,480 --> 00:33:56,920
Speaker 5: I was like, okay, I gotta be mobile.

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Speaker 1: I don't Sage Moon. Yeah, this is beautiful.

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00:34:01,760 --> 00:34:05,400
Speaker 2: I'm with you know, I'm with the innovative girl boss

695
00:34:05,480 --> 00:34:08,480
Speaker 2: independent ideas, and this is definitely.

696
00:34:08,440 --> 00:34:09,200
Speaker 1: It, darling.

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00:34:09,360 --> 00:34:11,359
Speaker 2: So I'm very honored that you allowed us to come

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00:34:11,360 --> 00:34:13,600
Speaker 2: into your space for a little while for an afternoon,

699
00:34:14,120 --> 00:34:15,520
Speaker 2: and Tarot is down.

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00:34:15,880 --> 00:34:19,440
Speaker 1: It's beautiful, it's raining, and it feels nice and cozy in.

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00:34:19,440 --> 00:34:21,320
Speaker 6: Here, and it feels kind of witchy.

702
00:34:21,600 --> 00:34:23,719
Speaker 2: Yeah, we weren't our witchy outfits because me and Eric

703
00:34:23,760 --> 00:34:27,120
Speaker 2: I cannot help but to match every accident every week.

704
00:34:30,800 --> 00:34:34,239
Speaker 1: Well, shall we get to it? I think? So it's

705
00:34:34,239 --> 00:34:34,960
Speaker 1: Tarot time.

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00:34:36,120 --> 00:34:38,600
Speaker 6: Amazing. Okay, So who's going first?

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00:34:39,560 --> 00:34:43,399
Speaker 1: Jamila? Jamila? I volunteer you as tribute my dear got it?

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00:34:43,800 --> 00:34:46,560
Speaker 6: Do you have any specific questions or concerns?

709
00:34:47,840 --> 00:34:48,719
Speaker 1: No concerns.

710
00:34:49,400 --> 00:34:52,280
Speaker 2: I'm just you know, I know that people are nosy

711
00:34:52,560 --> 00:34:53,799
Speaker 2: and ex give me.

712
00:34:53,880 --> 00:34:54,800
Speaker 1: I want to love reading.

713
00:34:54,960 --> 00:34:57,640
Speaker 2: Tell me about my relationship and where it's going and

714
00:34:57,640 --> 00:35:00,719
Speaker 2: what I have in store, and you know, like and

715
00:35:00,800 --> 00:35:01,399
Speaker 2: things like that.

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00:35:01,600 --> 00:35:03,920
Speaker 1: Just like just put it on, put it on me publicly.

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00:35:04,360 --> 00:35:06,120
Speaker 6: Okay, great, I love it.

718
00:35:06,400 --> 00:35:08,839
Speaker 5: So first I'll ground our energy with this singing bowl.

719
00:35:08,840 --> 00:35:10,680
Speaker 5: Feel free to close your eyes and take a deep breath.

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00:35:15,280 --> 00:35:15,440
Speaker 1: Mm.

721
00:35:36,080 --> 00:35:37,879
Speaker 6: Okay, and Jamila, what's your last name?

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00:35:38,400 --> 00:35:40,759
Speaker 1: Map? M App Map?

723
00:35:41,560 --> 00:35:44,360
Speaker 5: I'll say a quick prayer, Father, Mother, God, Spirit, Universe,

724
00:35:44,480 --> 00:35:47,680
Speaker 5: my angels and guide's, the highest spiritual beings, Sudden, my unfusors,

725
00:35:47,800 --> 00:35:51,080
Speaker 5: my higher self, and all divine entities who love me unconditionally.

726
00:35:51,520 --> 00:35:55,840
Speaker 5: I call upon you for unconditional love, grace, compassion, healing, guidance, protection,

727
00:35:55,920 --> 00:35:59,080
Speaker 5: assistant support. Was some clarity and insight. Now, thank you

728
00:35:59,080 --> 00:36:00,799
Speaker 5: for blessing my work with to Row, and thank you

729
00:36:00,840 --> 00:36:03,440
Speaker 5: for allowing me to connect with Jamila Mapps energy so

730
00:36:03,480 --> 00:36:06,400
Speaker 5: that we receive clear, concise, accurate, one hundred psvent truthful,

731
00:36:06,640 --> 00:36:12,680
Speaker 5: specific messages pertaining to Jamiala Mapps while being abundance, prosperity, love, joy, relationships, career,

732
00:36:12,719 --> 00:36:14,839
Speaker 5: and any other messages you do Marthy. At this time,

733
00:36:15,200 --> 00:36:17,440
Speaker 5: we open up to receive the healing in gidance Jamila

734
00:36:17,520 --> 00:36:20,280
Speaker 5: Map needs most right now and unconditional love through divine

735
00:36:20,320 --> 00:36:21,399
Speaker 5: grace of our own free will.

736
00:36:21,480 --> 00:36:21,880
Speaker 3: So be it.

737
00:36:22,400 --> 00:36:24,920
Speaker 5: Spirit Please tell us what does the future have in

738
00:36:25,040 --> 00:36:29,480
Speaker 5: store for Jamila Maps love Live. What does the future

739
00:36:29,520 --> 00:36:32,799
Speaker 5: have in store for Jamela Mapp regarding love? What does

740
00:36:32,840 --> 00:36:35,840
Speaker 5: the future have in store for Jamala Mapp regarding love.

741
00:36:43,239 --> 00:36:44,160
Speaker 1: More? I don't know.

742
00:36:44,239 --> 00:36:47,719
Speaker 2: Suddenly feels way more intense because yeah, thousands of people

743
00:36:47,760 --> 00:36:48,240
Speaker 2: are listening.

744
00:36:48,320 --> 00:36:49,400
Speaker 1: I feel heavy.

745
00:36:49,600 --> 00:36:51,480
Speaker 4: We'll see what comes up.

746
00:36:56,640 --> 00:37:01,840
Speaker 5: Sexy cards, Yeah, I work with Pictaro Sexual Magic for

747
00:37:02,000 --> 00:37:03,280
Speaker 5: love questions.

748
00:37:03,800 --> 00:37:05,279
Speaker 6: I want a black love deck though.

749
00:37:05,440 --> 00:37:06,879
Speaker 1: On me too, I'm like, do we need to make one?

750
00:37:06,880 --> 00:37:09,800
Speaker 1: Because I've had to Angla.

751
00:37:09,840 --> 00:37:12,920
Speaker 6: I've had this on my heart, like, make me a

752
00:37:12,960 --> 00:37:17,200
Speaker 6: black love deck for years now.

753
00:37:17,920 --> 00:37:20,600
Speaker 5: I just am so busy that I don't have the

754
00:37:20,719 --> 00:37:22,520
Speaker 5: time to like or I haven't had the time.

755
00:37:22,920 --> 00:37:25,520
Speaker 2: There are not enough tarot decks with like black and

756
00:37:25,560 --> 00:37:28,200
Speaker 2: brown images. Shout out to Mahogany Taro that we always use.

757
00:37:28,360 --> 00:37:31,600
Speaker 6: Yes, I love her deck because you have to feel

758
00:37:31,640 --> 00:37:31,799
Speaker 6: like you.

759
00:37:31,760 --> 00:37:45,239
Speaker 1: Can connect to it. Oh not not try that out

760
00:37:45,320 --> 00:37:47,040
Speaker 1: a game one.

761
00:37:48,760 --> 00:37:53,480
Speaker 6: That's interesting. Okay. Should I keep pulling or just leave

762
00:37:53,520 --> 00:37:54,000
Speaker 6: it at six?

763
00:37:55,239 --> 00:38:01,200
Speaker 1: Whichever you feel I'll pull three more, Okay.

764
00:38:01,520 --> 00:38:04,880
Speaker 5: So I could be picking up on your energy or

765
00:38:05,000 --> 00:38:08,200
Speaker 5: energy around you, So just take it as a resonance.

766
00:38:08,239 --> 00:38:08,880
Speaker 1: Okay, Okay.

767
00:38:10,360 --> 00:38:12,600
Speaker 5: The overall energy is the aid of Wands. So the

768
00:38:12,640 --> 00:38:15,680
Speaker 5: wands rule passion, fire, creativity, and action. The eight of

769
00:38:15,760 --> 00:38:20,920
Speaker 5: Wands has to do with moving quickly, fast movement, travel fast,

770
00:38:21,040 --> 00:38:27,799
Speaker 5: intense communication, even possibly digitally, and also just having like

771
00:38:28,600 --> 00:38:35,040
Speaker 5: you know, an expanded reach with the aid of wands.

772
00:38:35,080 --> 00:38:37,440
Speaker 5: So it feels like, as this is the overall energy,

773
00:38:37,440 --> 00:38:40,200
Speaker 5: there's something in your relationship that is moving very quickly,

774
00:38:41,040 --> 00:38:45,040
Speaker 5: lots of passion, so that's great, spicy, Okay. We have

775
00:38:45,239 --> 00:38:48,000
Speaker 5: the Queen of sorry, excuse me, the King of Wands

776
00:38:48,040 --> 00:38:51,960
Speaker 5: in reverse, the Night of Cops in reverse okay, and

777
00:38:52,000 --> 00:38:57,279
Speaker 5: the Page of Cops in reverse. So the King of

778
00:38:57,320 --> 00:39:01,360
Speaker 5: Wands is divine masculine energy when he's upright, this is

779
00:39:01,360 --> 00:39:08,000
Speaker 5: someone who's a leader, who takes charge, who's passionate, very yeah, passionate, sexual,

780
00:39:08,200 --> 00:39:11,920
Speaker 5: very attractive, very attractive.

781
00:39:16,280 --> 00:39:20,480
Speaker 1: Don't suot Orlando's horn too much. Okay, looks, but it's reverse.

782
00:39:22,480 --> 00:39:25,200
Speaker 5: So it's it's reverse. And then you have the Night

783
00:39:25,200 --> 00:39:27,440
Speaker 5: of Cups in reverse and the Page of Cops in reverse.

784
00:39:27,640 --> 00:39:30,359
Speaker 5: So this feels like someone that's actually not in your

785
00:39:30,480 --> 00:39:33,919
Speaker 5: orbit right now. That's maybe it feels like it's someone

786
00:39:33,960 --> 00:39:34,640
Speaker 5: from the past.

787
00:39:34,760 --> 00:39:37,640
Speaker 2: Really, I just want to keep every preference everybody by

788
00:39:37,680 --> 00:39:39,520
Speaker 2: knowing that not only am I doing a love reading

789
00:39:39,520 --> 00:39:42,879
Speaker 2: in front of thousands of people, but my boyfriend is

790
00:39:42,920 --> 00:39:43,520
Speaker 2: sitting here.

791
00:39:43,800 --> 00:39:44,040
Speaker 1: Yeah.

792
00:39:44,239 --> 00:39:45,440
Speaker 4: Yeah, this is really brave.

793
00:39:49,640 --> 00:39:52,080
Speaker 5: It feels so with the King of Wants showing up

794
00:39:52,080 --> 00:39:56,640
Speaker 5: in reverse, this is someone who is not taking action,

795
00:39:57,280 --> 00:40:01,560
Speaker 5: and something about him actually feels really like and enraged.

796
00:40:03,719 --> 00:40:08,880
Speaker 5: Someone who is upset, Okay, and they have a lot

797
00:40:08,960 --> 00:40:13,319
Speaker 5: of suppressed emotions, and it's because they feel upset because

798
00:40:13,360 --> 00:40:16,000
Speaker 5: they haven't maybe they feel like they missed out on

799
00:40:16,040 --> 00:40:19,239
Speaker 5: their chance or they haven't, like and I want to

800
00:40:19,239 --> 00:40:23,000
Speaker 5: cry too, They haven't. They didn't do what they could

801
00:40:23,040 --> 00:40:25,680
Speaker 5: have done, or what they what they knew you wanted

802
00:40:26,080 --> 00:40:30,080
Speaker 5: them to do, or what they knew what was best

803
00:40:30,320 --> 00:40:32,760
Speaker 5: for you at the time that they had their chance.

804
00:40:33,160 --> 00:40:38,799
Speaker 5: So it feels like someone who is holding holding on

805
00:40:38,960 --> 00:40:41,120
Speaker 5: can't let go of the past. Honestly, especially with this

806
00:40:41,200 --> 00:40:45,200
Speaker 5: four Pinnacles here, the King of Cops is in Sorry,

807
00:40:45,320 --> 00:40:48,719
Speaker 5: excuse me, god, I keep miss speaking. Usually when I misspeak,

808
00:40:48,719 --> 00:40:52,040
Speaker 5: there's something to it, But I'm gonna move on. The

809
00:40:52,160 --> 00:40:55,160
Speaker 5: Night of Coups in reverse is also like an energy

810
00:40:55,200 --> 00:41:01,360
Speaker 5: that just is insincere, insincere, not genuine. And then the

811
00:41:01,400 --> 00:41:04,080
Speaker 5: cups will the heart space, love, compassion, emotion, joy, and intuition.

812
00:41:04,200 --> 00:41:05,880
Speaker 5: So when the Night of Cops is upright, this is

813
00:41:05,920 --> 00:41:12,720
Speaker 5: someone who's very heart led, heart centered, dreamy, romantic, secret

814
00:41:12,760 --> 00:41:16,000
Speaker 5: admire type of energy. But it's in reverse, so it

815
00:41:16,000 --> 00:41:18,600
Speaker 5: feels like someone who doesn't have or who didn't have

816
00:41:18,640 --> 00:41:22,759
Speaker 5: the best intentions and also just isn't emotionally mature. And

817
00:41:22,800 --> 00:41:25,880
Speaker 5: then with the Page of Cops in reverse, when it's upright,

818
00:41:26,040 --> 00:41:30,040
Speaker 5: it's an offering a small gesture of love. It could

819
00:41:30,080 --> 00:41:32,040
Speaker 5: be and I love you and I'm sorry and I

820
00:41:32,120 --> 00:41:35,640
Speaker 5: forgive you, but it's in reverse. So it's like this person,

821
00:41:36,000 --> 00:41:37,120
Speaker 5: it feels like they.

822
00:41:37,040 --> 00:41:45,680
Speaker 6: Want to come forward to share, share their regrets, apologize.

823
00:41:46,680 --> 00:41:47,120
Speaker 1: Beyond.

824
00:41:47,600 --> 00:41:49,200
Speaker 5: I mean, it doesn't even feel like they want to

825
00:41:49,200 --> 00:41:53,480
Speaker 5: be honest, but it's like all of these things.

826
00:41:51,560 --> 00:41:54,320
Speaker 4: That that that they've felt.

827
00:41:54,400 --> 00:41:57,960
Speaker 5: It feels like now they're becoming aware, aware of it,

828
00:41:58,400 --> 00:42:01,239
Speaker 5: but they're not acting on it, and it has them

829
00:42:01,360 --> 00:42:04,160
Speaker 5: very upset. And it feels like they're upset because they're.

830
00:42:04,000 --> 00:42:04,680
Speaker 6: Seeing you.

831
00:42:07,520 --> 00:42:12,640
Speaker 5: Move on with the eight of Ones as your overall energy.

832
00:42:12,840 --> 00:42:15,200
Speaker 5: You have the seven of Ones, the Lovers and the

833
00:42:15,239 --> 00:42:18,800
Speaker 5: Three of Pentacles. Okay, so the Seven of Ones is

834
00:42:18,840 --> 00:42:22,360
Speaker 5: a very protective, defensive energy. It does feel like you're protected,

835
00:42:22,400 --> 00:42:25,680
Speaker 5: it does feel like you are really especially with the

836
00:42:25,760 --> 00:42:31,560
Speaker 5: Nine of Wanes here honoring your boundaries and being protective

837
00:42:31,800 --> 00:42:34,280
Speaker 5: when it comes to this external energy that really doesn't

838
00:42:34,320 --> 00:42:38,759
Speaker 5: have anything to offer, Like the lovers in the heart

839
00:42:38,800 --> 00:42:42,000
Speaker 5: of your reading twin flames soulmate energy, you're protecting your love,

840
00:42:42,080 --> 00:42:45,360
Speaker 5: You're protecting your connection. You do have the Three of Pinnacles.

841
00:42:45,560 --> 00:42:51,000
Speaker 5: The Pinnacles ruled things that are tangible and of the earth, money, career, finances, resources.

842
00:42:51,160 --> 00:42:55,400
Speaker 6: This is a collaborative energy. So this is a stark difference.

843
00:42:55,040 --> 00:43:00,479
Speaker 5: From the King of Wands, Night of Pinnacle Night, Night

844
00:43:00,600 --> 00:43:05,239
Speaker 5: of Cups, Night of Cups, Page of Cups energy. So

845
00:43:05,280 --> 00:43:09,080
Speaker 5: it's like with this Soulmate you're building, you're collaborating.

846
00:43:09,480 --> 00:43:11,960
Speaker 4: This is like competition versus collaboration.

847
00:43:13,080 --> 00:43:16,080
Speaker 5: You have the Nine of Wands, the Four of Panicles,

848
00:43:16,160 --> 00:43:20,319
Speaker 5: and the world in reverse. Now this is interesting. With

849
00:43:20,440 --> 00:43:24,840
Speaker 5: the Nine of Wants, this is wounded warrior, wounded healer energy.

850
00:43:24,920 --> 00:43:28,600
Speaker 5: Someone who's been through a lot, but they're exhausted, they're tired,

851
00:43:29,360 --> 00:43:30,640
Speaker 5: and they're wondering whether or not.

852
00:43:30,600 --> 00:43:33,600
Speaker 6: They can keep they can keep going or move forward.

853
00:43:33,719 --> 00:43:36,800
Speaker 5: The four of panicles, though, suggest that yeah, someone doesn't

854
00:43:36,840 --> 00:43:39,600
Speaker 5: want to move forward, especially with the world in reverse.

855
00:43:40,280 --> 00:43:43,360
Speaker 5: The world of in reverse. I'm hearing something about unfinished business.

856
00:43:43,520 --> 00:43:46,160
Speaker 5: So it feels like in the future, it's like, as

857
00:43:46,239 --> 00:43:53,160
Speaker 5: you continue to build with your soulmates, it feels like

858
00:43:53,200 --> 00:43:56,640
Speaker 5: there will be some sort of challenge to that or

859
00:43:56,840 --> 00:44:00,160
Speaker 5: the person that's watching you live your best life and

860
00:44:00,239 --> 00:44:06,600
Speaker 5: be happy. It feels like there there's a desire to

861
00:44:06,719 --> 00:44:09,239
Speaker 5: hold to hold on, to hold on, and to keep

862
00:44:09,280 --> 00:44:14,879
Speaker 5: you stuck in some sort of cycle. However, Yeah, you're

863
00:44:14,880 --> 00:44:17,200
Speaker 5: moving on. I mean, and you're moving, and you're moving.

864
00:44:17,400 --> 00:44:18,239
Speaker 6: You're moving.

865
00:44:19,600 --> 00:44:23,000
Speaker 4: On and on to bigger, greater things faster.

866
00:44:23,200 --> 00:44:28,440
Speaker 5: A lot of passion here, a lot of passion, passion, creativity, excitement.

867
00:44:29,640 --> 00:44:30,839
Speaker 4: So yeah, just focus on that.

868
00:44:31,160 --> 00:44:32,640
Speaker 6: I don't know why the past is.

869
00:44:32,560 --> 00:44:35,760
Speaker 4: Coming up for like regarding your future.

870
00:44:36,960 --> 00:44:41,400
Speaker 5: However, it feels like even though this person isn't actually

871
00:44:41,440 --> 00:44:47,400
Speaker 5: taking any action, it feels like they have designs.

872
00:44:47,400 --> 00:44:51,280
Speaker 1: Like they're privately, privately just doing doing.

873
00:44:51,760 --> 00:44:53,239
Speaker 6: Yeah, yeah, I can I.

874
00:44:53,480 --> 00:44:55,040
Speaker 1: Can see how this could make sense.

875
00:44:55,360 --> 00:44:57,279
Speaker 2: There's only one person from my past that I could

876
00:44:57,320 --> 00:45:02,360
Speaker 2: think about that would be of any significance and represent

877
00:45:02,840 --> 00:45:07,960
Speaker 2: specifically competition over collaboration. And there's only one person that

878
00:45:08,000 --> 00:45:16,920
Speaker 2: would really have any type of uh control control, and

879
00:45:16,960 --> 00:45:21,640
Speaker 2: that is because we have shared a pressure SKIF, so

880
00:45:21,800 --> 00:45:24,680
Speaker 2: that'd be the only reason. And quite frankly, it's probably

881
00:45:24,880 --> 00:45:27,240
Speaker 2: pretty on point, because I don't know, I've.

882
00:45:27,080 --> 00:45:28,600
Speaker 1: Been feeling that lately a little bit.

883
00:45:28,960 --> 00:45:30,640
Speaker 2: Not that I have a lot of communication because I

884
00:45:30,680 --> 00:45:35,360
Speaker 2: don't because I don't need to, but I can just imagine, honestly,

885
00:45:35,520 --> 00:45:38,680
Speaker 2: like we are living in a very digital world where

886
00:45:38,680 --> 00:45:42,680
Speaker 2: everything is very public and you can see and.

887
00:45:42,680 --> 00:45:45,480
Speaker 1: Checking in on, and this.

888
00:45:45,400 --> 00:45:48,759
Speaker 2: Is someone that I've had a very long relationship with

889
00:45:49,040 --> 00:45:50,840
Speaker 2: that I think probably thought I was always going to

890
00:45:50,840 --> 00:45:54,160
Speaker 2: be around and always be accessible and like able to

891
00:45:54,160 --> 00:45:57,239
Speaker 2: be fucked with, and I'm not. And I think that

892
00:45:57,320 --> 00:45:59,799
Speaker 2: could probably frustrate anybody who thought, like, oh, this is

893
00:45:59,800 --> 00:46:02,480
Speaker 2: how I was going to go down. But again, no

894
00:46:02,640 --> 00:46:06,880
Speaker 2: skill sets to really be honest like wanting something that

895
00:46:06,880 --> 00:46:09,040
Speaker 2: they cannot provide, because there is a lot of hurt.

896
00:46:09,680 --> 00:46:12,760
Speaker 2: And yeah, I feel that, and I feel sad about

897
00:46:12,920 --> 00:46:14,840
Speaker 2: for that person, you know, because at one point we

898
00:46:14,880 --> 00:46:15,320
Speaker 2: were friends.

899
00:46:15,360 --> 00:46:17,800
Speaker 1: But I really realized that they don't have the tools.

900
00:46:19,040 --> 00:46:22,480
Speaker 2: But I think as I glow up and my happiness

901
00:46:22,600 --> 00:46:26,600
Speaker 2: is you know, extended more and more, I feel that

902
00:46:26,719 --> 00:46:29,960
Speaker 2: little bit of like, now are you watching.

903
00:46:29,560 --> 00:46:32,480
Speaker 1: Me but watching a bitch?

904
00:46:32,600 --> 00:46:32,960
Speaker 2: Yeah?

905
00:46:34,280 --> 00:46:37,480
Speaker 1: Right now, Yeah, he's watching you. There's definitely a tether.

906
00:46:45,760 --> 00:46:49,440
Speaker 2: My little podcast, my little I know, my my relationship

907
00:46:49,640 --> 00:46:52,799
Speaker 2: and like how things have blossomed. But the crazy thing

908
00:46:52,840 --> 00:46:55,319
Speaker 2: is that I'm having a vision is like when I

909
00:46:55,360 --> 00:46:59,239
Speaker 2: was struggling for that relationship to work, I remember specifically

910
00:46:59,280 --> 00:47:01,960
Speaker 2: a lot of time as being like, I trust me.

911
00:47:02,200 --> 00:47:04,560
Speaker 2: When I'm done, I'm done, and you're gonna be so

912
00:47:04,960 --> 00:47:06,279
Speaker 2: fucking sorry you did this.

913
00:47:06,680 --> 00:47:08,560
Speaker 1: I kept saying, like you, I'm only gonna do this

914
00:47:08,600 --> 00:47:10,840
Speaker 1: for so long. I kept saying it like only this

915
00:47:11,040 --> 00:47:12,399
Speaker 1: was long. And then when I when I move about

916
00:47:12,400 --> 00:47:13,520
Speaker 1: it here, I'm never looking back.

917
00:47:13,880 --> 00:47:16,680
Speaker 2: And I feel that like that premonition has is coming

918
00:47:16,719 --> 00:47:19,360
Speaker 2: to reality because there's a lot of things that in

919
00:47:19,400 --> 00:47:22,759
Speaker 2: my life that have blossomed, and especially in love, you know,

920
00:47:22,840 --> 00:47:25,960
Speaker 2: in the last two or three years, and I feel

921
00:47:26,239 --> 00:47:28,279
Speaker 2: the disappointment that like, damn, I think that bitch was

922
00:47:28,320 --> 00:47:29,439
Speaker 2: gonna find love.

923
00:47:30,600 --> 00:47:34,040
Speaker 5: So yeah, with this, I would just say, you know,

924
00:47:34,400 --> 00:47:39,680
Speaker 5: continue to protect your energy set those energetic boundaries, because

925
00:47:39,719 --> 00:47:42,960
Speaker 5: even though let's say he has no knowledge of like

926
00:47:43,880 --> 00:47:48,000
Speaker 5: anything having to do with magic or anything like that,

927
00:47:48,360 --> 00:47:52,040
Speaker 5: it's it's still enter the negative potency, and it's still

928
00:47:52,120 --> 00:47:57,000
Speaker 5: potent exactly. And so even if he isn't consciously aware

929
00:47:57,360 --> 00:48:02,239
Speaker 5: of that, like you and and the way you you

930
00:48:02,280 --> 00:48:05,680
Speaker 5: protect yourself is obviously just by continuing to take care

931
00:48:05,680 --> 00:48:09,960
Speaker 5: of yourself right and really indulge in in that love,

932
00:48:10,080 --> 00:48:12,600
Speaker 5: in that passion, in that excitement, in everything that you're

933
00:48:12,600 --> 00:48:16,560
Speaker 5: creating with your life, and sending the attention to.

934
00:48:17,120 --> 00:48:22,200
Speaker 1: Like as for protection in the as it's happening.

935
00:48:22,320 --> 00:48:24,799
Speaker 4: Yes, exactly, nothing to fear.

936
00:48:24,960 --> 00:48:26,960
Speaker 1: No cards, no babies.

937
00:48:27,880 --> 00:48:31,840
Speaker 5: I mean it's not here, but we can ask about it.

938
00:48:31,800 --> 00:48:36,520
Speaker 1: It's that woman.

939
00:48:37,800 --> 00:48:41,400
Speaker 2: No, and I'm on birth control.

940
00:48:41,480 --> 00:48:44,120
Speaker 1: But is there a baby in there?

941
00:48:45,440 --> 00:48:48,759
Speaker 2: I know magic stumps all things, including have.

942
00:48:48,680 --> 00:48:51,920
Speaker 1: A pregnancy pack. There's no babies. Yeah, I don't know.

943
00:48:52,000 --> 00:48:54,640
Speaker 1: Jamaican's firm can do any copper.

944
00:48:54,800 --> 00:48:59,640
Speaker 2: I U G okay, fuck this cop God's gonna get

945
00:49:00,120 --> 00:49:01,520
Speaker 2: make me marry.

946
00:49:01,680 --> 00:49:03,480
Speaker 6: Yeah, this is You're hilarious.

947
00:49:03,760 --> 00:49:04,560
Speaker 1: This is so great.

948
00:49:05,120 --> 00:49:08,240
Speaker 3: Okay, Erica, I think.

949
00:49:08,120 --> 00:49:10,160
Speaker 1: I have a similar question. I want to know more

950
00:49:10,239 --> 00:49:11,520
Speaker 1: about what the.

951
00:49:12,800 --> 00:49:16,279
Speaker 4: It's the death card, which is real that you love that.

952
00:49:16,440 --> 00:49:19,359
Speaker 6: Yeah, it's very scary, right, I mean in this act. Yeah,

953
00:49:19,480 --> 00:49:22,880
Speaker 6: she's just powerful anyway, sorry.

954
00:49:23,120 --> 00:49:25,600
Speaker 1: Similar, just I want to know, like what's what the

955
00:49:25,640 --> 00:49:30,280
Speaker 1: future holds for me? And love and relationships, intimacy, babies.

956
00:49:30,360 --> 00:49:32,520
Speaker 6: Okay, so let's ground our energy.

957
00:49:32,719 --> 00:49:36,399
Speaker 2: We have a pregnancy pack, so yeah, I.

958
00:49:36,360 --> 00:49:41,200
Speaker 1: Get more insight on that. They what here? You ready?

959
00:49:41,280 --> 00:50:03,160
Speaker 3: Yes, okay, close your eyes, take a deep breath, and.

960
00:50:03,160 --> 00:50:07,680
Speaker 5: It's Dickerson right, yes, ma'am, Okay, thank you for allowing

961
00:50:07,719 --> 00:50:10,799
Speaker 5: me to connect with Erica Jefferson's energy so that we

962
00:50:10,920 --> 00:50:14,920
Speaker 5: receive were concise, accurate, one hundred perry full specific messages

963
00:50:15,080 --> 00:50:20,120
Speaker 5: retaining to Erica Dickerson's while being abundance, prosperity, love, joy, relationships, career,

964
00:50:20,840 --> 00:50:23,000
Speaker 5: and any other messages you do already at the time

965
00:50:23,040 --> 00:50:25,360
Speaker 5: we open up to receive the feeling and guidance Erica

966
00:50:25,400 --> 00:50:28,160
Speaker 5: Dickerson needs most of it now on unconditional love through

967
00:50:28,200 --> 00:50:30,960
Speaker 5: divine grace of our own free will. So be it spirit,

968
00:50:31,000 --> 00:50:33,200
Speaker 5: Please tell us what does the future hold for Erica

969
00:50:33,280 --> 00:50:37,759
Speaker 5: Dickerson Regarding love? What does the future hold for Erica

970
00:50:37,800 --> 00:50:43,160
Speaker 5: Dickerson regarding love? What does the future hold for Erica

971
00:50:43,239 --> 00:50:44,640
Speaker 5: Dickerson regarding love?

972
00:50:48,280 --> 00:50:55,879
Speaker 2: Just An Moore, this is the most fancy tear time

973
00:50:55,920 --> 00:50:56,520
Speaker 2: we ever hit.

974
00:50:58,000 --> 00:50:59,000
Speaker 4: All we need is tea.

975
00:51:00,000 --> 00:51:01,400
Speaker 1: Oh she just told me. Iver brought it down.

976
00:51:05,000 --> 00:51:12,280
Speaker 5: The messages are the tea right, and the tea is hot? Okay, spirit,

977
00:51:12,400 --> 00:51:15,120
Speaker 5: What is the future held for Dickerson regarding that?

978
00:51:17,520 --> 00:51:19,520
Speaker 1: I actually might need to come to my birthday party? Okay,

979
00:51:19,520 --> 00:51:24,920
Speaker 1: it's my birthday t I like that. She looks like

980
00:51:24,960 --> 00:51:27,000
Speaker 1: you're outside, but ne have a balcony.

981
00:51:27,120 --> 00:51:34,040
Speaker 3: Okay, r h it's a future okay.

982
00:51:35,120 --> 00:51:56,360
Speaker 1: H m hmm, Okay, it looks like maybe half wolf

983
00:51:57,000 --> 00:52:02,000
Speaker 1: half me what hmm.

984
00:52:04,520 --> 00:52:10,040
Speaker 5: I need to clarify some of these cards, but we'll see.

985
00:52:13,239 --> 00:52:16,760
Speaker 5: So the overall energy is the seven of Wands in reverse.

986
00:52:18,360 --> 00:52:23,160
Speaker 5: So it feels like you're opening up regarding love, which

987
00:52:23,200 --> 00:52:27,080
Speaker 5: is great when it's uprights defensiveness and reverse. This is

988
00:52:27,480 --> 00:52:35,239
Speaker 5: this is letting our defenses down. It also feels like yeah,

989
00:52:35,320 --> 00:52:38,520
Speaker 5: especially with temperance here. This has to do with leaning

990
00:52:38,600 --> 00:52:42,760
Speaker 5: back too. So when the seven of wands is upright,

991
00:52:42,800 --> 00:52:45,440
Speaker 5: this could be like putting up a fight for something.

992
00:52:46,040 --> 00:52:49,440
Speaker 5: In reverse, it's like Okay. Now I'm now, I'm I'm

993
00:52:49,520 --> 00:52:55,000
Speaker 5: leaning back. I'm releasing that energy, maybe even releasing a

994
00:52:55,080 --> 00:53:03,359
Speaker 5: desire to control or releasing attachment to the outcome with

995
00:53:03,360 --> 00:53:06,080
Speaker 5: the Seven of Wands in reverse. Okay, so you have

996
00:53:06,320 --> 00:53:09,600
Speaker 5: the Page of Swords in reverse temperance and the ten

997
00:53:09,640 --> 00:53:10,360
Speaker 5: of Wands.

998
00:53:12,760 --> 00:53:14,320
Speaker 6: So with the Page of Swords.

999
00:53:13,960 --> 00:53:17,400
Speaker 5: In reverse, it feels like this could be your energy

1000
00:53:17,480 --> 00:53:29,640
Speaker 5: or someone around you. But it does feel like there's

1001
00:53:31,320 --> 00:53:35,680
Speaker 5: there's a lack of either a lack of communication or

1002
00:53:37,239 --> 00:53:39,360
Speaker 5: a lack of searching. It feels like a lack of

1003
00:53:39,360 --> 00:53:45,120
Speaker 5: searching with the Page of Wanes. Excuse me, ha, Okay,

1004
00:53:45,160 --> 00:53:47,040
Speaker 5: so the page of Swords in reverse and me I've

1005
00:53:47,040 --> 00:53:49,240
Speaker 5: spoken to the Page of Wands in reverse, which is interesting.

1006
00:53:49,320 --> 00:53:52,040
Speaker 5: So the Page of Wands when it's upright, it has

1007
00:53:52,080 --> 00:53:56,799
Speaker 5: to do with a spark inspiration. When it comes to love,

1008
00:53:56,920 --> 00:54:00,480
Speaker 5: it's like something well, the wanes are very faul so

1009
00:54:01,120 --> 00:54:06,239
Speaker 5: you know, uh, a sexual encounter with with with with

1010
00:54:06,280 --> 00:54:08,920
Speaker 5: it just being that like what it is as opposed

1011
00:54:08,960 --> 00:54:11,959
Speaker 5: to you know, it's it's not going to evolve into

1012
00:54:12,000 --> 00:54:14,439
Speaker 5: some affair or something or like a long term thing.

1013
00:54:14,520 --> 00:54:16,560
Speaker 5: It's like the Page of WANs, I interpret it's one

1014
00:54:16,640 --> 00:54:19,520
Speaker 5: night stands with it in reverse. It's like, okay, coming

1015
00:54:19,520 --> 00:54:24,840
Speaker 5: out of that energy, coming out of yeah, of the

1016
00:54:24,920 --> 00:54:28,960
Speaker 5: need to look or to be aware of, like who is,

1017
00:54:29,080 --> 00:54:30,800
Speaker 5: who's doing what, Who's where?

1018
00:54:31,080 --> 00:54:32,520
Speaker 6: Who can I talk to next?

1019
00:54:34,400 --> 00:54:34,680
Speaker 1: Yeah?

1020
00:54:34,760 --> 00:54:38,560
Speaker 5: Okay, I love that, especially with temperance here, temperance is healing.

1021
00:54:38,640 --> 00:54:42,000
Speaker 5: Temperance is alchemy. Temperance is tempering out your emotions, taking

1022
00:54:42,040 --> 00:54:47,560
Speaker 5: your time, taking space, taking taking having patience to really

1023
00:54:47,640 --> 00:54:52,279
Speaker 5: heal and alchemize whatever burdens negative experiences you had in

1024
00:54:52,640 --> 00:54:56,040
Speaker 5: the past and turning that into something, into your strengths,

1025
00:54:56,040 --> 00:54:57,879
Speaker 5: into something positive, into something that.

1026
00:54:57,800 --> 00:54:59,040
Speaker 4: Serves you your power.

1027
00:55:00,520 --> 00:55:04,600
Speaker 5: The Ten of Wands here, Okay, this is interesting because

1028
00:55:04,640 --> 00:55:09,520
Speaker 5: the ten of Wands is a lot of fire. It's

1029
00:55:09,520 --> 00:55:12,520
Speaker 5: like the ultimate, the max. The ten represents the end

1030
00:55:12,640 --> 00:55:16,160
Speaker 5: of a cycle, and so the ten of Ones usually

1031
00:55:16,160 --> 00:55:19,840
Speaker 5: it's carrying some sort of burden, and the message associated

1032
00:55:19,880 --> 00:55:21,520
Speaker 5: with the card is okay, well it's time to put

1033
00:55:21,520 --> 00:55:22,200
Speaker 5: the burden down.

1034
00:55:23,040 --> 00:55:25,920
Speaker 6: But it feels like whatever.

1035
00:55:27,560 --> 00:55:31,880
Speaker 5: Whatever you've experienced in the past that has been burdensome

1036
00:55:32,160 --> 00:55:37,960
Speaker 5: or stressful, you're alchemizing that and that period is over.

1037
00:55:39,320 --> 00:55:39,560
Speaker 4: I mean.

1038
00:55:39,560 --> 00:55:41,680
Speaker 5: And also there's a lot of passion in the card too,

1039
00:55:41,840 --> 00:55:44,520
Speaker 5: So even though you're no longer looking, maybe you're also

1040
00:55:44,680 --> 00:55:50,200
Speaker 5: too getting really tuned into your own sexual energy, passion

1041
00:55:50,239 --> 00:55:53,520
Speaker 5: and really cultivating that. You have the two of Cups

1042
00:55:53,560 --> 00:55:56,680
Speaker 5: in reverse, the nine of Pinnacles in reverse, and the

1043
00:55:56,760 --> 00:56:00,399
Speaker 5: four of Swords in reverse. So with the two cups

1044
00:56:00,400 --> 00:56:02,719
Speaker 5: in reverse, it feels like you're letting go of a

1045
00:56:02,760 --> 00:56:06,479
Speaker 5: past connection here. The two of cups is soulmate twin

1046
00:56:06,520 --> 00:56:08,840
Speaker 5: flame energy, or at least for the time.

1047
00:56:08,680 --> 00:56:09,279
Speaker 1: Being, you're not.

1048
00:56:09,800 --> 00:56:13,280
Speaker 5: You're you're not in alignment with that, with that energy,

1049
00:56:13,719 --> 00:56:18,920
Speaker 5: and that has been quite burdensome considering it's following the

1050
00:56:19,000 --> 00:56:21,839
Speaker 5: ten of Wands. But again the ten of wanes, it's

1051
00:56:21,840 --> 00:56:25,080
Speaker 5: time to put it down right, releasing the burden. You

1052
00:56:25,120 --> 00:56:27,600
Speaker 5: do have the nine of Panacles in reverse here, though,

1053
00:56:28,960 --> 00:56:30,360
Speaker 5: so the nine of Pentacles when.

1054
00:56:30,200 --> 00:56:31,480
Speaker 4: It's upright, has to do.

1055
00:56:31,640 --> 00:56:37,440
Speaker 5: It's a very single, independent, self sufficient, confident energy. But

1056
00:56:37,760 --> 00:56:41,759
Speaker 5: with it being in reverse, it's like it has more

1057
00:56:41,800 --> 00:56:46,680
Speaker 5: to do with being interdependent. So it feels like you

1058
00:56:46,880 --> 00:56:54,879
Speaker 5: are connecting with people, situations, opportunities where you can coexist

1059
00:56:55,120 --> 00:57:02,200
Speaker 5: and rely on each other and be interdependent and not codependent.

1060
00:57:02,400 --> 00:57:05,440
Speaker 5: Although be careful of codependent energy with the devil as

1061
00:57:05,480 --> 00:57:09,880
Speaker 5: your last card, with the four of Swords in reverse.

1062
00:57:12,360 --> 00:57:13,120
Speaker 6: It's interesting.

1063
00:57:13,160 --> 00:57:15,040
Speaker 5: I'm not sure why the four of Swords isn't in

1064
00:57:15,120 --> 00:57:19,120
Speaker 5: reverse the four of Swords when it's upright. It has

1065
00:57:19,160 --> 00:57:25,160
Speaker 5: to do with healing, therapy, rest, recuperation, rejuvenation in reverse.

1066
00:57:25,440 --> 00:57:25,920
Speaker 6: It's this.

1067
00:57:28,680 --> 00:57:36,280
Speaker 5: So it's this lack of mental peace or resistance to

1068
00:57:38,200 --> 00:57:42,360
Speaker 5: mental health still mined with it being in reverse here.

1069
00:57:44,480 --> 00:57:45,720
Speaker 6: It feels like.

1070
00:57:52,280 --> 00:57:57,560
Speaker 5: It feels like there could be something challenging, especially when

1071
00:57:57,560 --> 00:57:58,640
Speaker 5: it comes.

1072
00:57:58,320 --> 00:58:02,640
Speaker 6: To it's like, even though.

1073
00:58:06,400 --> 00:58:10,240
Speaker 5: Even though there's this energy of okay, I am getting

1074
00:58:10,240 --> 00:58:14,560
Speaker 5: in tune with the passion, my own fire, my sacral chakra,

1075
00:58:16,800 --> 00:58:20,080
Speaker 5: there still could be something that's like challenging about that

1076
00:58:20,120 --> 00:58:23,520
Speaker 5: when it comes to mentally like it's not it's not

1077
00:58:24,000 --> 00:58:25,040
Speaker 5: peaceful yet.

1078
00:58:25,520 --> 00:58:26,600
Speaker 6: Does that make sense.

1079
00:58:27,240 --> 00:58:29,520
Speaker 5: It doesn't mean it won't get there, but that too,

1080
00:58:29,840 --> 00:58:33,720
Speaker 5: is a part of the leaning back, letting go energy.

1081
00:58:35,720 --> 00:58:38,640
Speaker 6: I'm gonna pull a card to clarify that though, just

1082
00:58:38,720 --> 00:58:39,720
Speaker 6: to make sure.

1083
00:58:40,120 --> 00:58:42,880
Speaker 5: It does feel like you are making new investments here

1084
00:58:43,080 --> 00:58:48,000
Speaker 5: with the page with the page of Pinnacles, so investing

1085
00:58:48,040 --> 00:58:52,320
Speaker 5: in a new connection, a new collaborative connection, which is

1086
00:58:52,480 --> 00:59:03,040
Speaker 5: great but clarify the four of Swords in reverse for Erica. Yeah,

1087
00:59:03,480 --> 00:59:07,280
Speaker 5: oh sorry, clarify the four of Swords in reverse. You

1088
00:59:07,400 --> 00:59:11,480
Speaker 5: got the Queen of Wands in reverse, the three of

1089
00:59:11,560 --> 00:59:15,720
Speaker 5: Cups in reverse. Yeah, someone here is so this could

1090
00:59:15,720 --> 00:59:19,439
Speaker 5: be you or someone around you, but someone here.

1091
00:59:21,680 --> 00:59:25,520
Speaker 6: Is a little stressed out.

1092
00:59:25,640 --> 00:59:33,200
Speaker 5: Uneasy around lack of initiative, lack of lack of movement

1093
00:59:33,760 --> 00:59:35,280
Speaker 5: on your end, a.

1094
00:59:35,320 --> 00:59:44,560
Speaker 4: Lack of uh yeah, a lack of or not, a lack.

1095
00:59:44,400 --> 00:59:50,120
Speaker 5: Of healing, not not reuniting here. So the four of

1096
00:59:50,160 --> 00:59:53,000
Speaker 5: Swords is in reverse. It's clarified by the Queen of

1097
00:59:53,040 --> 00:59:57,919
Speaker 5: Wands in reverse. So this is divine, feminine energy that

1098
00:59:58,520 --> 01:00:04,360
Speaker 5: isn't taking initiative, that's not putting up a fight, right.

1099
01:00:05,880 --> 01:00:08,400
Speaker 5: The three of Cups in reverse, the three of cups

1100
01:00:08,440 --> 01:00:13,720
Speaker 5: when it's upright, This is a very social, social, lighthearted,

1101
01:00:13,760 --> 01:00:17,320
Speaker 5: playful energy. It's also the energy of reconciliation and reunion.

1102
01:00:17,320 --> 01:00:20,120
Speaker 5: It's in reverse, so there is no reconnection with this person.

1103
01:00:20,560 --> 01:00:24,680
Speaker 5: And then with the seven of Pinnacles, you know, there's

1104
01:00:24,760 --> 01:00:27,240
Speaker 5: this energy of assessing the situation.

1105
01:00:28,560 --> 01:00:29,720
Speaker 6: What have you been invested?

1106
01:00:29,760 --> 01:00:32,240
Speaker 5: This feels like from the past, right, So what had

1107
01:00:32,320 --> 01:00:36,400
Speaker 5: you invested your energy, effort, money, resources into maybe they

1108
01:00:36,440 --> 01:00:38,760
Speaker 5: feel like they invested in you, you know what I mean.

1109
01:00:38,880 --> 01:00:40,040
Speaker 6: And so now it's like.

1110
01:00:41,720 --> 01:00:42,920
Speaker 1: How are you looking at it like that I could

1111
01:00:42,960 --> 01:00:43,360
Speaker 1: look at you.

1112
01:00:45,040 --> 01:00:45,440
Speaker 6: Yeah.

1113
01:00:45,680 --> 01:00:49,640
Speaker 5: So now it's like, but it's over. What do you

1114
01:00:49,680 --> 01:00:51,800
Speaker 5: mean it's over? It can't be over. With the death

1115
01:00:51,840 --> 01:00:53,400
Speaker 5: card here at the bottom of the deck, that is

1116
01:00:53,440 --> 01:00:56,280
Speaker 5: your energy. You're grounded in your energy, which means you

1117
01:00:56,520 --> 01:00:59,800
Speaker 5: showing up as the queen of wants in reverse pertaining

1118
01:00:59,800 --> 01:01:05,000
Speaker 5: to this connection, this situation, this burden you've already released.

1119
01:01:09,600 --> 01:01:13,320
Speaker 5: I still feel like there's energetically still some shedding to do.

1120
01:01:13,520 --> 01:01:21,520
Speaker 5: So it's not you're it's complete. Yes, you're no longer connected, yes,

1121
01:01:24,520 --> 01:01:28,040
Speaker 5: but but but you absolutely have made the choice to

1122
01:01:29,120 --> 01:01:32,760
Speaker 5: not not put up a fight, not act, not not engaged,

1123
01:01:32,800 --> 01:01:37,600
Speaker 5: not reunite. And so yeah, it's causing some uneasiness.

1124
01:01:37,760 --> 01:01:38,959
Speaker 1: He thinks he's gonna spin the block.

1125
01:01:40,200 --> 01:01:44,080
Speaker 5: Yes, basically he thinks he's going to spin the block exactly.

1126
01:01:44,680 --> 01:01:45,520
Speaker 6: Yeah, the devil.

1127
01:01:45,760 --> 01:01:52,360
Speaker 2: Yeah, my tarot gifts just came in right now, thank

1128
01:01:52,400 --> 01:01:52,800
Speaker 2: you Lord.

1129
01:01:54,080 --> 01:01:57,160
Speaker 5: Yeah, but yeah, but but but it's not happening with

1130
01:01:57,200 --> 01:01:59,320
Speaker 5: the three A F cups in reverse. And so now

1131
01:02:00,160 --> 01:02:05,800
Speaker 5: that energy is stressing over it, right, maybe you are.

1132
01:02:05,680 --> 01:02:09,240
Speaker 1: Too stressing over whether this person's gonna spend.

1133
01:02:09,280 --> 01:02:11,040
Speaker 5: Not no, not whether or not this person is going

1134
01:02:11,120 --> 01:02:22,600
Speaker 5: to spin the block, but as far as just knowing

1135
01:02:22,600 --> 01:02:27,560
Speaker 5: that that presence, that energy is still there. Okay, So

1136
01:02:27,680 --> 01:02:29,800
Speaker 5: again the Page of Pinnacles in reverse, the Three of

1137
01:02:29,880 --> 01:02:31,600
Speaker 5: Pannicles and the Devil.

1138
01:02:31,680 --> 01:02:32,880
Speaker 6: So, yeah, we're new.

1139
01:02:32,920 --> 01:02:38,240
Speaker 5: We're focusing on planting new seeds, new opportunities, new collaborative partnerships,

1140
01:02:38,680 --> 01:02:43,000
Speaker 5: entities like situations. Yeah, you're building something new with people

1141
01:02:43,320 --> 01:02:47,680
Speaker 5: who want to collaborate build with you. The Devil card, though,

1142
01:02:47,840 --> 01:02:52,600
Speaker 5: is your last card. That's an interesting ending. So yeah,

1143
01:02:52,600 --> 01:02:55,560
Speaker 5: someone's obsessed with the devil and the four of Swords

1144
01:02:55,560 --> 01:02:58,360
Speaker 5: in reverse. Someone is obsessed.

1145
01:02:57,720 --> 01:02:59,640
Speaker 1: Why so obsessed with me?

1146
01:03:01,640 --> 01:03:04,200
Speaker 5: But look, the death card and the two of Cops

1147
01:03:04,280 --> 01:03:06,480
Speaker 5: is in reverse again. It is meant to say in reverse,

1148
01:03:06,520 --> 01:03:09,040
Speaker 5: you are not meant to be with this person. Regardless

1149
01:03:09,040 --> 01:03:12,080
Speaker 5: of whether or not there was some sort of soul

1150
01:03:12,160 --> 01:03:15,400
Speaker 5: tie soule connection, it definitely feels more karmic than anything else,

1151
01:03:15,640 --> 01:03:20,040
Speaker 5: which is the purpose of a karmic connection is the lesson, right,

1152
01:03:20,280 --> 01:03:23,120
Speaker 5: it's not. It's not to hold on to forever. It's

1153
01:03:23,120 --> 01:03:27,919
Speaker 5: to receive the lesson, let go and grow. So yeah,

1154
01:03:27,960 --> 01:03:30,720
Speaker 5: with a devil card, someone's obsessed, They're they're going to

1155
01:03:30,800 --> 01:03:33,880
Speaker 5: try to hold on to you. Whether they're taking action

1156
01:03:33,960 --> 01:03:35,960
Speaker 5: towards you or not, it doesn't matter. They are pissed

1157
01:03:35,960 --> 01:03:39,240
Speaker 5: that you are not taking action towards them.

1158
01:03:39,360 --> 01:03:45,000
Speaker 1: That's just okay.

1159
01:03:45,120 --> 01:03:45,560
Speaker 6: How is that?

1160
01:03:47,200 --> 01:03:50,320
Speaker 1: Yeah? Interesting? I really resonate with that. I think that

1161
01:03:50,440 --> 01:03:54,800
Speaker 1: I've been in a period of really trying to make

1162
01:03:54,880 --> 01:03:59,640
Speaker 1: sure that I'm clearing space, like I'm really fully removed

1163
01:03:59,680 --> 01:04:07,320
Speaker 1: from that energy completely, so that what's next for me

1164
01:04:07,680 --> 01:04:10,920
Speaker 1: is really pure and not interrupted by any sort I'm

1165
01:04:10,920 --> 01:04:14,240
Speaker 1: not bringing any of that into this. And I do

1166
01:04:14,320 --> 01:04:18,200
Speaker 1: feel like I can feel the energy of my of

1167
01:04:18,320 --> 01:04:21,120
Speaker 1: my last relationship is still present, and it's not me,

1168
01:04:21,200 --> 01:04:23,360
Speaker 1: it's him. I can and we haven't spoke, we haven't

1169
01:04:23,360 --> 01:04:25,040
Speaker 1: spoken to each other, we haven't reached out to one another.

1170
01:04:25,320 --> 01:04:31,919
Speaker 1: But there is a level of obsession why I don't

1171
01:04:31,960 --> 01:04:33,880
Speaker 1: want to, Like God, we might listen to this episode.

1172
01:04:33,880 --> 01:04:36,280
Speaker 1: I don't think. I'm not saying he's because you're obsessed,

1173
01:04:37,240 --> 01:04:41,720
Speaker 1: but but our relationship for you did, our relationship did

1174
01:04:41,800 --> 01:04:45,080
Speaker 1: feel very karmic, and that's what I felt why I

1175
01:04:45,120 --> 01:04:47,120
Speaker 1: went back for the lesson because we ended our relationship.

1176
01:04:47,160 --> 01:04:49,600
Speaker 1: I went back because I felt like the lesson wasn'tcomplete.

1177
01:04:49,640 --> 01:04:52,480
Speaker 1: And I've said, like, this relationship was so hard for

1178
01:04:52,480 --> 01:04:54,200
Speaker 1: me to depart from and I didn't know why, Like

1179
01:04:54,280 --> 01:04:57,720
Speaker 1: I've left people for less like I've I've had relationships

1180
01:04:57,720 --> 01:04:59,200
Speaker 1: there was so much easier for me to walk away

1181
01:04:59,200 --> 01:05:02,160
Speaker 1: from people that didn't hurt me as deeply as this

1182
01:05:02,200 --> 01:05:04,960
Speaker 1: person hurt me. So why is this Why does it

1183
01:05:05,000 --> 01:05:06,880
Speaker 1: feel so karmic? And that's what I said, It feels

1184
01:05:06,920 --> 01:05:09,560
Speaker 1: like it's something karmic here that a lesson I was

1185
01:05:09,680 --> 01:05:12,080
Speaker 1: meant to learn, and I knew that I had to

1186
01:05:12,080 --> 01:05:14,200
Speaker 1: depart from it to get the blessing that was on

1187
01:05:14,240 --> 01:05:16,880
Speaker 1: the other side for me, and and and even in

1188
01:05:16,880 --> 01:05:19,560
Speaker 1: readings that's literally the thing that comes up over and

1189
01:05:19,640 --> 01:05:22,440
Speaker 1: over and over again was that like this needs to

1190
01:05:22,440 --> 01:05:24,200
Speaker 1: be released so you can get your blessing. This needs

1191
01:05:24,200 --> 01:05:26,880
Speaker 1: to be releasing your blessing. This is dead, dead dead,

1192
01:05:28,920 --> 01:05:31,720
Speaker 1: over and over and over, including my dear friend who.

1193
01:05:31,560 --> 01:05:34,720
Speaker 2: Also psychic friend, who said it like five times in

1194
01:05:34,800 --> 01:05:40,240
Speaker 2: different languages gently not so gently, subliminally.

1195
01:05:40,640 --> 01:05:44,200
Speaker 6: And the death card telepathically, and the death card.

1196
01:05:44,120 --> 01:05:46,160
Speaker 5: In this deck was the first card to come out

1197
01:05:46,200 --> 01:05:49,080
Speaker 5: before I even started shuffling for you, and he heard

1198
01:05:49,160 --> 01:05:49,640
Speaker 5: this again.

1199
01:05:50,920 --> 01:05:56,200
Speaker 2: Yeah oh yeah, yeah yeah.

1200
01:05:56,400 --> 01:06:02,080
Speaker 1: So yes, this feels affirming and it feels like, yeah,

1201
01:06:02,120 --> 01:06:03,840
Speaker 1: thank you. I feel like I really needed to hear

1202
01:06:03,880 --> 01:06:08,120
Speaker 1: this message. So I appreciate that You're welcome. You hear that, nigga.

1203
01:06:08,240 --> 01:06:11,000
Speaker 1: So anybody, for any.

1204
01:06:10,840 --> 01:06:14,440
Speaker 2: Of the women or men's out there listening wondering what

1205
01:06:14,480 --> 01:06:17,400
Speaker 2: does this all mean? It means you're the shit and

1206
01:06:17,440 --> 01:06:20,439
Speaker 2: your ex is probably obsessing over you because you've grown

1207
01:06:20,480 --> 01:06:22,800
Speaker 2: and you've done the work and.

1208
01:06:24,560 --> 01:06:25,400
Speaker 1: You're a bad bitch.

1209
01:06:25,560 --> 01:06:28,200
Speaker 2: Keep on moving, don't look back, even if people are

1210
01:06:28,240 --> 01:06:30,080
Speaker 2: secretly plotting on you.

1211
01:06:30,160 --> 01:06:30,760
Speaker 6: Exactly.

1212
01:06:32,720 --> 01:06:33,080
Speaker 1: Love this.

1213
01:06:33,160 --> 01:06:36,320
Speaker 2: Well, Thank you, Ashley, Thank you Ashley. We tell everybody

1214
01:06:36,360 --> 01:06:39,000
Speaker 2: where they can find you. Ashley is obviously in our

1215
01:06:39,040 --> 01:06:42,040
Speaker 2: hood in La. She does parties, she pulls up, she

1216
01:06:42,080 --> 01:06:43,880
Speaker 2: pulls up in different places in La. If you're as

1217
01:06:43,920 --> 01:06:46,160
Speaker 2: lucky as us, you know to find her in Studio

1218
01:06:46,200 --> 01:06:49,440
Speaker 2: City or Abic Kenny or any of the classy Pacific palisades.

1219
01:06:49,640 --> 01:06:52,760
Speaker 2: Wherever she goes, tell her good Mom sent you. And

1220
01:06:52,800 --> 01:06:56,040
Speaker 2: if you have a birthday party, a shindig, a corporate party,

1221
01:06:56,040 --> 01:06:56,600
Speaker 2: coming up.

1222
01:06:56,840 --> 01:06:58,760
Speaker 1: This is your girl. This is a beautiful bus.

1223
01:06:58,880 --> 01:07:02,400
Speaker 2: Support black businesses and get your love reading here.

1224
01:07:03,360 --> 01:07:04,280
Speaker 1: Yes, thank you?

1225
01:07:05,560 --> 01:07:07,760
Speaker 5: Every ready where they can find you so you can

1226
01:07:07,760 --> 01:07:11,520
Speaker 5: find me on Instagram, Star Magic Taro and my website

1227
01:07:11,600 --> 01:07:13,280
Speaker 5: is Starmagic Tarot dot com.

1228
01:07:13,400 --> 01:07:14,400
Speaker 1: And I'm in La.

1229
01:07:14,520 --> 01:07:17,000
Speaker 5: I go all over the place Wednesday through Sunday from

1230
01:07:17,080 --> 01:07:20,560
Speaker 5: nine am to five pm. I always post my locations

1231
01:07:20,640 --> 01:07:22,680
Speaker 5: on Instagram.

1232
01:07:22,680 --> 01:07:26,280
Speaker 1: Perfect, Thank you, thank you. I was so thorough. I'm

1233
01:07:26,280 --> 01:07:27,480
Speaker 1: so yeah. I love this.

1234
01:07:27,520 --> 01:07:31,280
Speaker 2: You gotta get media in the Magic school Bus. Star

1235
01:07:31,400 --> 01:07:33,600
Speaker 2: Magic school Bus, thank you? Are you head ready to

1236
01:07:33,640 --> 01:07:41,919
Speaker 2: head back up? I'm ready, let's go finish this episode. Okay, Wow,

1237
01:07:42,080 --> 01:07:44,360
Speaker 2: that was amazing. I love Ashley.

1238
01:07:44,440 --> 01:07:45,000
Speaker 1: I love her too.

1239
01:07:45,120 --> 01:07:48,360
Speaker 2: That is very much a magical fucking bus from someone

1240
01:07:48,400 --> 01:07:50,120
Speaker 2: who loved the Magic school Bus.

1241
01:07:50,520 --> 01:07:52,920
Speaker 1: My woodchy dreams have come true me too. I'm so

1242
01:07:52,960 --> 01:07:55,480
Speaker 1: happy that God just blessed us with her on that

1243
01:07:55,520 --> 01:08:02,640
Speaker 1: one one one one one day. How did you enjoy

1244
01:08:02,640 --> 01:08:05,080
Speaker 1: your reading? I did? I did.

1245
01:08:05,200 --> 01:08:07,800
Speaker 2: I mean, it's interesting for someone to tell you to

1246
01:08:07,840 --> 01:08:11,040
Speaker 2: prepare for protection, you know, but.

1247
01:08:12,560 --> 01:08:14,840
Speaker 1: Most of the things I already knew in my gut.

1248
01:08:15,440 --> 01:08:16,920
Speaker 1: I mean, I think she was just more so saying

1249
01:08:16,920 --> 01:08:19,120
Speaker 1: like you need to just whatever boundaries you have, just

1250
01:08:19,200 --> 01:08:22,960
Speaker 1: make sure that they're solid and legit, cause I think

1251
01:08:23,000 --> 01:08:25,240
Speaker 1: like you've struggled with that in the past with him,

1252
01:08:25,479 --> 01:08:27,599
Speaker 1: you know, and like feeling like you need to be

1253
01:08:27,640 --> 01:08:31,320
Speaker 1: more flexible, be flexible or be understanding or also you're

1254
01:08:31,360 --> 01:08:32,880
Speaker 1: good at you know, you've been really good at like

1255
01:08:33,439 --> 01:08:35,760
Speaker 1: kind of just bee like it's fine, it's whatever, it's

1256
01:08:35,760 --> 01:08:38,479
Speaker 1: not a big deal, and like not knowing how that

1257
01:08:38,560 --> 01:08:41,799
Speaker 1: really has affected your your energy and your energetic body,

1258
01:08:41,840 --> 01:08:43,880
Speaker 1: not even just your physical body, but just like you

1259
01:08:44,000 --> 01:08:46,600
Speaker 1: kind of pushing things away and saying, oh, he disrespected

1260
01:08:46,640 --> 01:08:48,040
Speaker 1: me and called me all these things, but I'm fine,

1261
01:08:48,200 --> 01:08:50,639
Speaker 1: totally just being nice. I'm gonna call him. It's fine.

1262
01:08:50,720 --> 01:08:52,280
Speaker 1: I need to do laundry. I'm gonna to his house

1263
01:08:52,280 --> 01:08:54,360
Speaker 1: and wash laundry. No bitch, she called you a fucking

1264
01:08:54,400 --> 01:08:57,719
Speaker 1: horror last week. You can't go wash laundry at his house.

1265
01:08:58,040 --> 01:08:59,880
Speaker 1: So you've come a long way. I mean I have

1266
01:09:00,160 --> 01:09:01,120
Speaker 1: come a long way. I have.

1267
01:09:01,280 --> 01:09:02,960
Speaker 2: Even when she was mentioning, I'm like, who could the

1268
01:09:02,960 --> 01:09:04,640
Speaker 2: fuck she could be talking about? And maybe there's only

1269
01:09:04,680 --> 01:09:10,080
Speaker 2: really one person that has any any strings attached. But yeah,

1270
01:09:10,160 --> 01:09:13,439
Speaker 2: I think you're right. It is a matter of keeping

1271
01:09:13,479 --> 01:09:17,559
Speaker 2: strong boundaries and minimal communication, because that's what it is.

1272
01:09:17,600 --> 01:09:20,600
Speaker 2: And I think it's also really just like releasing not

1273
01:09:20,720 --> 01:09:23,559
Speaker 2: the care because obviously we have a common thing that

1274
01:09:23,640 --> 01:09:26,720
Speaker 2: I care about, but just releasing that I have no

1275
01:09:26,800 --> 01:09:29,320
Speaker 2: control over this person and how they show up for

1276
01:09:29,640 --> 01:09:30,200
Speaker 2: my person.

1277
01:09:30,640 --> 01:09:33,000
Speaker 1: Yeah, but also having the boundaries for her too, because

1278
01:09:33,000 --> 01:09:35,280
Speaker 1: she might she doesn't necessarily have those tools yet, you know,

1279
01:09:35,360 --> 01:09:37,880
Speaker 1: like she's only nine and she's just under she's just

1280
01:09:38,000 --> 01:09:39,960
Speaker 1: I mean, that's her dad, So creating boundaries around your

1281
01:09:40,040 --> 01:09:43,519
Speaker 1: dad at nine is absolutely impossible. So you have to

1282
01:09:43,560 --> 01:09:45,639
Speaker 1: do that for her. You have to create the boundary

1283
01:09:45,680 --> 01:09:48,760
Speaker 1: for her if that's necessary. And maybe that's also the

1284
01:09:48,800 --> 01:09:54,599
Speaker 1: message too, around just like really protecting her from whatever

1285
01:09:54,800 --> 01:09:56,800
Speaker 1: she needs protection from, yeah, and.

1286
01:09:56,840 --> 01:10:01,160
Speaker 2: Just yea having conversations and keeping it up. But and

1287
01:10:01,200 --> 01:10:05,960
Speaker 2: also just not caring because you haven't really shown me

1288
01:10:07,000 --> 01:10:10,320
Speaker 2: care and like, so I can't really care. I'm out

1289
01:10:10,320 --> 01:10:13,960
Speaker 2: in the space for that. How did you feel about yours?

1290
01:10:14,479 --> 01:10:16,639
Speaker 2: Which you guys is only going to be on Patreon.

1291
01:10:16,720 --> 01:10:19,439
Speaker 2: We only have enough time for one reading on this episode,

1292
01:10:19,479 --> 01:10:23,360
Speaker 2: and Eric is being very scorpio mysterious private about her

1293
01:10:23,439 --> 01:10:24,920
Speaker 2: love life right now, So.

1294
01:10:25,439 --> 01:10:28,120
Speaker 1: I and this reading was very telling about my love life.

1295
01:10:28,160 --> 01:10:32,240
Speaker 1: It was very direct, and I felt like, what.

1296
01:10:32,520 --> 01:10:34,759
Speaker 2: Do you think that she Well, yes, it was very direct.

1297
01:10:36,040 --> 01:10:38,840
Speaker 2: It's been yeah, But do you think she was telling

1298
01:10:38,880 --> 01:10:41,920
Speaker 2: you to watch your like not watch your back, but

1299
01:10:42,120 --> 01:10:44,800
Speaker 2: like your front and your back kind of.

1300
01:10:44,880 --> 01:10:46,479
Speaker 1: I think this is a trend that I've had that

1301
01:10:46,520 --> 01:10:48,519
Speaker 1: I've a message that I have been receiving a lot.

1302
01:10:48,800 --> 01:10:53,479
Speaker 1: Do you think you're just something crazy? No, no, ego

1303
01:10:53,640 --> 01:10:55,960
Speaker 1: better fucking not be you ass you won't do that.

1304
01:10:56,080 --> 01:11:05,040
Speaker 1: But it was just I think you don't know no, no.

1305
01:11:03,920 --> 01:11:07,439
Speaker 2: No, not that I think like harmful, violent, But I

1306
01:11:07,479 --> 01:11:09,400
Speaker 2: don't think. I don't think the ego is as strong

1307
01:11:09,439 --> 01:11:09,960
Speaker 2: as you think.

1308
01:11:10,160 --> 01:11:11,360
Speaker 1: I don't think that it is.

1309
01:11:11,920 --> 01:11:14,160
Speaker 2: Oh okay, I think that like I think like the

1310
01:11:14,200 --> 01:11:16,920
Speaker 2: craziness of like the obsession of wanting someone. I this

1311
01:11:16,960 --> 01:11:19,320
Speaker 2: is from my own This is from my own experience.

1312
01:11:19,680 --> 01:11:21,960
Speaker 2: When you're obsessed, your ego goes out the window. You're like,

1313
01:11:22,000 --> 01:11:24,120
Speaker 2: fuck it, I'm gonna do it. I'ma do the crazy thing.

1314
01:11:24,760 --> 01:11:25,519
Speaker 2: I'm gonna show up.

1315
01:11:25,640 --> 01:11:28,360
Speaker 1: But when time goes by, I would think that that

1316
01:11:28,360 --> 01:11:32,400
Speaker 1: that that feeling numbs more like the call to do

1317
01:11:32,439 --> 01:11:34,479
Speaker 1: that maybe numbs more, but I don't know.

1318
01:11:34,439 --> 01:11:36,439
Speaker 2: It also might up it more because you're like, I'm

1319
01:11:36,479 --> 01:11:38,200
Speaker 2: expecting you to pick up, I'm expecting you to call,

1320
01:11:38,200 --> 01:11:40,479
Speaker 2: I'm expecting you to come around. And then the longer

1321
01:11:40,479 --> 01:11:43,080
Speaker 2: it goes, like the obsession might get crazier.

1322
01:11:43,160 --> 01:11:44,759
Speaker 1: I don't know, but the reading was kind of crazy.

1323
01:11:45,040 --> 01:11:50,880
Speaker 1: Just listen to Ashley do my reading. It's something that yeah,

1324
01:11:50,960 --> 01:11:52,720
Speaker 1: I don't know, it's it's something that's been coming up

1325
01:11:52,840 --> 01:11:54,600
Speaker 1: a few different times from a few different people that

1326
01:11:54,640 --> 01:11:57,880
Speaker 1: have read me, and I don't want to ignore it,

1327
01:11:58,880 --> 01:11:59,920
Speaker 1: but I also don't want to put a lot of

1328
01:12:00,120 --> 01:12:04,679
Speaker 1: energy towards it because I am very protected in my life.

1329
01:12:04,760 --> 01:12:07,200
Speaker 1: I've just genuinely been very protected when it comes to

1330
01:12:07,240 --> 01:12:09,759
Speaker 1: like matters of that of that degree, even if matters

1331
01:12:09,760 --> 01:12:12,599
Speaker 1: of the heart, like things being revealed to me and

1332
01:12:12,640 --> 01:12:16,080
Speaker 1: like the at in divine timing at crucial moments in

1333
01:12:16,080 --> 01:12:17,879
Speaker 1: my life where I'm about to make a big decision

1334
01:12:18,439 --> 01:12:23,080
Speaker 1: moving getting married, like all these things, like I'm always

1335
01:12:23,080 --> 01:12:25,880
Speaker 1: protected when I'm about to make very big choices you're

1336
01:12:25,880 --> 01:12:28,960
Speaker 1: not supposed to, even like with Iri, like having Iri,

1337
01:12:29,160 --> 01:12:32,160
Speaker 1: like God said, no, I want this soul to come through,

1338
01:12:32,320 --> 01:12:34,840
Speaker 1: even knowing that like I was going to be hurt

1339
01:12:34,840 --> 01:12:39,400
Speaker 1: through the process, you know, so I think that I

1340
01:12:39,400 --> 01:12:42,040
Speaker 1: think either way, I'm fine, and I wish that person

1341
01:12:42,920 --> 01:12:46,040
Speaker 1: love in space and all the things. But yeah, the

1342
01:12:46,080 --> 01:12:50,120
Speaker 1: reading was intense, but also as a reminder of like

1343
01:12:50,200 --> 01:12:51,960
Speaker 1: the path that I'm on, which is like is the

1344
01:12:52,000 --> 01:12:55,040
Speaker 1: self love is the protect is like the cleansing of

1345
01:12:55,040 --> 01:13:01,679
Speaker 1: my of like the energies from before from my body

1346
01:13:01,720 --> 01:13:04,599
Speaker 1: and my soul. And that's really like the vibe I've

1347
01:13:04,600 --> 01:13:06,360
Speaker 1: been on. And that's actually why I got this deck

1348
01:13:06,400 --> 01:13:09,120
Speaker 1: for us. By the way, Self Love Deck.

1349
01:13:09,439 --> 01:13:13,160
Speaker 2: Oh from are we really strangers? We're not not really strangers.

1350
01:13:13,439 --> 01:13:15,599
Speaker 1: I don't know if you guys have heard of this brand,

1351
01:13:15,640 --> 01:13:19,000
Speaker 1: but I really love it and the self Love Deck

1352
01:13:19,160 --> 01:13:23,479
Speaker 1: has been interesting. It's like prompting me to really have

1353
01:13:23,560 --> 01:13:29,680
Speaker 1: to like deeply reflect on my wants, my needs, my desires,

1354
01:13:30,400 --> 01:13:33,519
Speaker 1: my x and I wanted to pull a few cards

1355
01:13:33,520 --> 01:13:37,000
Speaker 1: with you today if that's okay, my dear, Okay, danky,

1356
01:13:37,800 --> 01:13:41,320
Speaker 1: But first I want will a joint because it's time. Yeah,

1357
01:13:41,800 --> 01:13:47,000
Speaker 1: you guys, we've been in the studio for ten hours.

1358
01:13:47,960 --> 01:13:49,760
Speaker 1: My poor child has been in the other room for

1359
01:13:49,840 --> 01:13:52,439
Speaker 1: ten hours. Just I don't even know what she's been entertained.

1360
01:13:52,439 --> 01:13:55,719
Speaker 1: I think now her bestie is here, so it's better.

1361
01:13:55,800 --> 01:13:58,599
Speaker 1: But it's been a long day for working moms.

1362
01:13:59,040 --> 01:14:01,799
Speaker 2: I'm so grateful that kids have each other. I mean, honestly,

1363
01:14:01,800 --> 01:14:03,640
Speaker 2: I'm grateful our kids have each other. I'm grateful we

1364
01:14:03,680 --> 01:14:06,479
Speaker 2: have each other. I'm grateful that we have Orlando now,

1365
01:14:07,040 --> 01:14:10,160
Speaker 2: Like it's literally each piece is an intricate part of

1366
01:14:10,240 --> 01:14:12,599
Speaker 2: everything that happens in our world.

1367
01:14:12,800 --> 01:14:13,280
Speaker 1: And like.

1368
01:14:15,000 --> 01:14:18,240
Speaker 2: I know you're talking before about our like your parents,

1369
01:14:18,280 --> 01:14:21,800
Speaker 2: your mom, like our famili's being ready for certain like, hey,

1370
01:14:21,840 --> 01:14:24,360
Speaker 2: what's up? You know, I think women's like women parents

1371
01:14:24,400 --> 01:14:26,760
Speaker 2: do that, but I forget like now that as a mom,

1372
01:14:27,160 --> 01:14:29,840
Speaker 2: I mean, what's up? Like am I going to meet someone?

1373
01:14:29,840 --> 01:14:30,880
Speaker 2: Am I going to meet their parents?

1374
01:14:30,920 --> 01:14:31,000
Speaker 5: Oh?

1375
01:14:31,360 --> 01:14:34,200
Speaker 2: You know, like wanting you to wanting to basically like

1376
01:14:34,320 --> 01:14:37,679
Speaker 2: leave you and save hands. Yeah, not that anyone's going anywhere,

1377
01:14:37,720 --> 01:14:39,240
Speaker 2: but I just when you said that, I just didn't

1378
01:14:39,240 --> 01:14:41,280
Speaker 2: think about it. But it's like there have been times

1379
01:14:41,280 --> 01:14:45,160
Speaker 2: in relationships where I felt good and then suddenly I

1380
01:14:45,160 --> 01:14:48,240
Speaker 2: felt unsafe, you know, like that drop like someone's done

1381
01:14:48,240 --> 01:14:50,439
Speaker 2: something crazy to me, and then suddenly I feel alone

1382
01:14:50,439 --> 01:14:53,360
Speaker 2: in the world, you know, and that's a very scary feeling,

1383
01:14:53,400 --> 01:14:55,360
Speaker 2: like oh I feel safe or good, and then you'd

1384
01:14:55,600 --> 01:14:57,519
Speaker 2: slap me or some shit, and then I'm like, oh no,

1385
01:14:57,560 --> 01:14:59,320
Speaker 2: like I gotta call my dad, and I'm like, bitch,

1386
01:14:59,320 --> 01:15:02,840
Speaker 2: you're not twelve, you know. And then it's like even then,

1387
01:15:02,880 --> 01:15:04,360
Speaker 2: it's like you can't call your dad because then like

1388
01:15:04,400 --> 01:15:06,360
Speaker 2: at this point we're all adults, and like that's maybe

1389
01:15:06,400 --> 01:15:07,960
Speaker 2: asking for your dad to go to jail.

1390
01:15:08,840 --> 01:15:09,080
Speaker 6: You know.

1391
01:15:09,120 --> 01:15:11,360
Speaker 1: There's like all these there's there's all these things that

1392
01:15:11,400 --> 01:15:13,559
Speaker 1: we like, I don't know, there's that, there's so much

1393
01:15:13,560 --> 01:15:16,519
Speaker 1: to that. It's like, don't call your dad because yeah,

1394
01:15:16,520 --> 01:15:18,760
Speaker 1: there's that. There's also like maybe I'll go back together

1395
01:15:18,800 --> 01:15:19,920
Speaker 1: with him, and then it's going to be a bigger

1396
01:15:19,920 --> 01:15:21,400
Speaker 1: deal than it needs to be, and I don't want

1397
01:15:21,439 --> 01:15:23,960
Speaker 1: to expose him. I need to protect my family. It's

1398
01:15:24,000 --> 01:15:26,920
Speaker 1: like all these things, all these layers that a woman

1399
01:15:26,960 --> 01:15:28,920
Speaker 1: goes through and thinks about or maybe you don't have

1400
01:15:28,960 --> 01:15:31,840
Speaker 1: a dad, you know, maybe you don't have a dad.

1401
01:15:31,920 --> 01:15:33,519
Speaker 2: Maybe you don't have a dad that's going to show

1402
01:15:33,600 --> 01:15:36,160
Speaker 2: up that way, or brothers or whatever. But like I

1403
01:15:36,200 --> 01:15:39,240
Speaker 2: do I really I've felt I've felt that feeling of

1404
01:15:39,240 --> 01:15:41,280
Speaker 2: being a vult, like being vulnerable as a woman in

1405
01:15:41,320 --> 01:15:44,400
Speaker 2: the world, especially having a child, and feeling like I

1406
01:15:44,479 --> 01:15:49,320
Speaker 2: feel much more powerful in partnership with you, with Orlando,

1407
01:15:49,520 --> 01:15:51,960
Speaker 2: Like I feel like I have my people and people

1408
01:15:52,000 --> 01:15:53,960
Speaker 2: have my back, and there's people who are not going

1409
01:15:54,040 --> 01:15:55,720
Speaker 2: to do things that are blatantly going to have me

1410
01:15:55,800 --> 01:15:57,400
Speaker 2: out here, you know what I mean.

1411
01:15:57,439 --> 01:15:59,120
Speaker 1: And so as a mom, I can.

1412
01:15:59,080 --> 01:16:02,960
Speaker 2: Understand how that how I would want that from my child,

1413
01:16:02,960 --> 01:16:04,519
Speaker 2: Not that I'm going to be the mom like you know,

1414
01:16:04,720 --> 01:16:08,400
Speaker 2: or we're gonna get some grandkids, but like just feeling like, oh,

1415
01:16:08,520 --> 01:16:10,599
Speaker 2: I don't have to worry about you and this person,

1416
01:16:11,240 --> 01:16:12,400
Speaker 2: you know, I don't have to worry about this person

1417
01:16:12,479 --> 01:16:15,120
Speaker 2: doing some crazy shit to you, you know. And maybe

1418
01:16:15,120 --> 01:16:17,280
Speaker 2: because I've been in relationships where niggas have done crazy

1419
01:16:17,280 --> 01:16:18,720
Speaker 2: shit to me, like put their hands on me and

1420
01:16:18,760 --> 01:16:19,320
Speaker 2: shit like that.

1421
01:16:19,720 --> 01:16:20,839
Speaker 1: But I think that.

1422
01:16:22,439 --> 01:16:25,519
Speaker 2: Women generally are supposed to be wild and free and

1423
01:16:25,560 --> 01:16:30,360
Speaker 2: manifest and like utilize their intuitiveness and their magic. But

1424
01:16:30,680 --> 01:16:33,519
Speaker 2: we've been so we've so rarely been protected and felt

1425
01:16:33,560 --> 01:16:38,000
Speaker 2: safe enough to do that that we have not been

1426
01:16:38,040 --> 01:16:39,840
Speaker 2: able to tap into that because we haven't been with

1427
01:16:39,880 --> 01:16:43,200
Speaker 2: safe relationships, and so I think safety brings like a

1428
01:16:43,200 --> 01:16:47,240
Speaker 2: whole different level to your ability to manifest.

1429
01:16:48,000 --> 01:16:49,760
Speaker 1: It does because the man are supposed to protect us

1430
01:16:49,800 --> 01:16:50,439
Speaker 1: so that we can.

1431
01:16:50,479 --> 01:16:53,240
Speaker 2: Stay so we can stay wild and be magical.

1432
01:16:53,479 --> 01:16:55,280
Speaker 1: Wait, you guys, I want to show you these joint

1433
01:16:55,280 --> 01:16:58,600
Speaker 1: papers because this is like very exciting breaking news. Me

1434
01:16:58,680 --> 01:17:01,800
Speaker 1: and Mila have our own joint papers.

1435
01:17:01,479 --> 01:17:07,880
Speaker 2: And we also have matches and guess what, they're pink.

1436
01:17:08,720 --> 01:17:12,439
Speaker 1: Our papers are also pink to match our matches. And

1437
01:17:12,720 --> 01:17:17,200
Speaker 1: because we're some coordinating beaches. Have you have you realijoint? Oh?

1438
01:17:17,240 --> 01:17:20,519
Speaker 2: We did RELI joint with them already. Yes, we know

1439
01:17:20,520 --> 01:17:23,760
Speaker 2: it because it says manifest with us. I'm gonna light

1440
01:17:23,840 --> 01:17:26,120
Speaker 2: it and I'm gonna let's take a moment to manifest

1441
01:17:26,120 --> 01:17:29,600
Speaker 2: some things and love and in partnership.

1442
01:17:29,920 --> 01:17:38,080
Speaker 1: Let's put some energy into this. Okay, hmm, I was

1443
01:17:38,080 --> 01:17:42,400
Speaker 1: really envisioned you me at your wedding. Well, there you go.

1444
01:17:43,120 --> 01:17:44,160
Speaker 1: Taste like marriage?

1445
01:17:44,280 --> 01:17:48,280
Speaker 2: Taste like marriage? How do you think marriage tastes.

1446
01:17:51,360 --> 01:17:56,519
Speaker 1: Melted caramel? I like caramel, salty, extra sweet. Yeah, I

1447
01:17:56,520 --> 01:18:03,280
Speaker 1: can see that. Okay, are you ready to play the

1448
01:18:03,360 --> 01:18:07,640
Speaker 1: self love game? I'm ready. Okay, let's start. Should we

1449
01:18:07,640 --> 01:18:14,439
Speaker 1: start with past. Let's see, is it past, past, present, future? Oh?

1450
01:18:14,479 --> 01:18:16,639
Speaker 1: I didn't realize that that was just one, two, three levels.

1451
01:18:17,640 --> 01:18:20,680
Speaker 1: Maybe I'll do a little shuffle, little tarot shuffle since

1452
01:18:20,680 --> 01:18:25,040
Speaker 1: we already got our tarots out of the way. Oh god,

1453
01:18:25,040 --> 01:18:30,479
Speaker 1: it's gonna be on. Okay, can you pick one? Uh

1454
01:18:30,560 --> 01:18:37,439
Speaker 1: huh mm hmm past?

1455
01:18:39,520 --> 01:18:41,960
Speaker 2: What did you feel bad for at the time, but

1456
01:18:42,000 --> 01:18:42,880
Speaker 2: are glad you did?

1457
01:18:42,920 --> 01:18:49,960
Speaker 1: Anyway? A lot of shit? Are you asking? Is that

1458
01:18:50,200 --> 01:18:52,680
Speaker 1: is he asking me? We're supposed to ask yourselves. We're

1459
01:18:52,720 --> 01:18:55,080
Speaker 1: asking ourselves. What is it? You know?

1460
01:18:55,320 --> 01:18:55,479
Speaker 3: Think?

1461
01:18:55,600 --> 01:18:57,640
Speaker 2: What did you feel bad for at the time, but

1462
01:18:57,680 --> 01:19:03,680
Speaker 2: you're glad you did anyway? I'm glad I cheated on

1463
01:19:03,760 --> 01:19:09,599
Speaker 2: Adventure bay. Oh I needed to go and he needed

1464
01:19:09,640 --> 01:19:10,960
Speaker 2: to make me go fast.

1465
01:19:11,800 --> 01:19:16,200
Speaker 1: That was good? Am I a slpos to answer this

1466
01:19:16,240 --> 01:19:18,040
Speaker 1: as well? I think? So what did I feel bad

1467
01:19:18,080 --> 01:19:24,760
Speaker 1: for in the past that I did? Anyway? Drop out

1468
01:19:24,760 --> 01:19:28,559
Speaker 1: of college? Yeah, I felt really guilty about that, but

1469
01:19:28,600 --> 01:19:31,320
Speaker 1: then it ended up working out got pretty good. I

1470
01:19:31,320 --> 01:19:37,599
Speaker 1: got a job traveling the world soon after that. Yeah,

1471
01:19:37,800 --> 01:19:39,080
Speaker 1: set me on this journey here.

1472
01:19:40,040 --> 01:19:41,760
Speaker 2: It isn't crazy to think the kids that we were

1473
01:19:42,120 --> 01:19:49,639
Speaker 2: hesitant to have. Literally, there's a word I'm trying to set.

1474
01:19:49,680 --> 01:19:53,720
Speaker 1: Held propelled us into this well the other day, what

1475
01:19:53,840 --> 01:19:55,360
Speaker 1: was it yesterday? It was like, wow, we have a

1476
01:19:55,360 --> 01:19:57,760
Speaker 1: whole have a mom? How the fuck do I have

1477
01:19:57,840 --> 01:20:01,600
Speaker 1: a mom brand? Essentially? And I didn't even want kids?

1478
01:20:02,120 --> 01:20:05,960
Speaker 1: Like that's a fucking what do they call it? A change?

1479
01:20:05,960 --> 01:20:08,880
Speaker 1: When it's like in a movie, when it's like a

1480
01:20:08,880 --> 01:20:12,200
Speaker 1: plot twist. Yeah, that's a plot twist because that was

1481
01:20:12,320 --> 01:20:16,200
Speaker 1: not on my mind when I was in my twenties

1482
01:20:16,360 --> 01:20:18,519
Speaker 1: at all. I just wanted to have fun and be

1483
01:20:18,560 --> 01:20:20,600
Speaker 1: a famous actress.

1484
01:20:20,800 --> 01:20:22,240
Speaker 2: I wanted to be a mom, but I don't think

1485
01:20:22,240 --> 01:20:24,320
Speaker 2: I really thought it out. I didn't want to be

1486
01:20:24,320 --> 01:20:26,040
Speaker 2: a mom in the situation that I was in. But

1487
01:20:26,200 --> 01:20:30,200
Speaker 2: you know, a tarot reading, we'll do it? Am I

1488
01:20:30,240 --> 01:20:39,160
Speaker 2: pulling from the top titty reminder. I don't know if

1489
01:20:39,160 --> 01:20:39,759
Speaker 2: this is a question.

1490
01:20:39,960 --> 01:20:40,960
Speaker 1: I think it's just a reminder.

1491
01:20:40,960 --> 01:20:43,840
Speaker 2: Then it may be hard to see now, but you

1492
01:20:43,880 --> 01:20:45,880
Speaker 2: did the best you could at the time.

1493
01:20:46,240 --> 01:20:55,519
Speaker 1: Mm hmm. Yeah. I was trying to think of a

1494
01:20:55,560 --> 01:21:01,400
Speaker 1: moment that I can feel that way about. Still processing,

1495
01:21:01,400 --> 01:21:04,080
Speaker 1: I'm probably still not. I probably still don't feel that

1496
01:21:04,080 --> 01:21:06,519
Speaker 1: way yet. I guess should I pick one? Are are you

1497
01:21:06,520 --> 01:21:07,000
Speaker 1: a shuffle.

1498
01:21:08,880 --> 01:21:12,519
Speaker 2: Oh look at this fancy we're using now that we're

1499
01:21:12,600 --> 01:21:14,520
Speaker 2: dressing old timey permanently.

1500
01:21:14,880 --> 01:21:16,240
Speaker 1: We also I need to make.

1501
01:21:16,120 --> 01:21:16,599
Speaker 3: It look old.

1502
01:21:18,000 --> 01:21:20,120
Speaker 1: I need to make it look old time.

1503
01:21:24,960 --> 01:21:28,000
Speaker 2: I think I need to trademark the word old timey.

1504
01:21:28,200 --> 01:21:29,000
Speaker 2: It's an adjective.

1505
01:21:34,760 --> 01:21:40,800
Speaker 1: Bitch. All right, I got lost. I'm really committing to

1506
01:21:40,840 --> 01:21:44,880
Speaker 1: this life. Okay. I used to say in the olden

1507
01:21:44,960 --> 01:21:47,880
Speaker 1: days when I was talking to my grandfather that Papa

1508
01:21:48,000 --> 01:21:55,680
Speaker 1: was like in the olden days, Okay, what forced you

1509
01:21:55,760 --> 01:22:03,480
Speaker 1: to grow even if it was hard? Motherhood? Yeah, motherhood rejection.

1510
01:22:05,680 --> 01:22:13,280
Speaker 1: Uh yeah, those two things. Mother I would say, avoidance,

1511
01:22:13,360 --> 01:22:18,600
Speaker 1: avoiding shit. I go to level two. Level two is

1512
01:22:19,000 --> 01:22:35,000
Speaker 1: present the present. They're not terarot cards.

1513
01:22:35,000 --> 01:22:52,600
Speaker 2: Okay, what do you have great taste in everything? I

1514
01:22:52,960 --> 01:22:56,160
Speaker 2: like my fashion sense. I like how I dress and

1515
01:22:56,200 --> 01:23:02,320
Speaker 2: how I decorate. I agree, what do you have a

1516
01:23:02,360 --> 01:23:05,160
Speaker 2: great What do you think you have great taste in?

1517
01:23:06,280 --> 01:23:07,560
Speaker 2: And how I make businesses?

1518
01:23:10,160 --> 01:23:17,479
Speaker 1: I think I have great taste in fashions. I think

1519
01:23:17,520 --> 01:23:23,439
Speaker 1: I have great taste in just aesthetically like what I

1520
01:23:23,640 --> 01:23:26,760
Speaker 1: envision the energy and the vibeing like I can. I'm

1521
01:23:26,840 --> 01:23:31,400
Speaker 1: a vibe a curator. I would say, and I think

1522
01:23:31,439 --> 01:23:36,439
Speaker 1: I have good taste in go friends. I was gonna

1523
01:23:36,439 --> 01:23:38,840
Speaker 1: say that friends, Yeah, a good taste in friends. I

1524
01:23:38,840 --> 01:23:42,600
Speaker 1: have a really well curated friend group. It took me

1525
01:23:43,080 --> 01:23:46,200
Speaker 1: thirty six years to find all of them, and it's

1526
01:23:46,280 --> 01:23:49,080
Speaker 1: ever evolving. But for the most part, I have a

1527
01:23:49,240 --> 01:23:52,519
Speaker 1: very strong foundation. I don't really see it. I really

1528
01:23:52,520 --> 01:23:58,200
Speaker 1: don't see the foundation shifting anytime soon. What are you

1529
01:23:58,240 --> 01:24:00,360
Speaker 1: spending more energy on than you have to give?

1530
01:24:04,360 --> 01:24:09,920
Speaker 2: Stress, stressing, negative thoughts, spending more energy on negative thoughts

1531
01:24:10,000 --> 01:24:13,120
Speaker 2: and stress than I have to give because I don't

1532
01:24:13,160 --> 01:24:15,960
Speaker 2: have any time to give to anything negative. But sometimes

1533
01:24:16,000 --> 01:24:25,559
Speaker 2: I find myself having fleeting but still self self doubt,

1534
01:24:25,600 --> 01:24:27,400
Speaker 2: self doubt, negative self talk.

1535
01:24:27,920 --> 01:24:30,120
Speaker 1: Yeah, I was gonna say negative self talk. I would say,

1536
01:24:30,479 --> 01:24:36,040
Speaker 1: talking badly about myself, about my body to myself. And

1537
01:24:36,080 --> 01:24:41,080
Speaker 1: then also I think because I'm I think I'm a realist,

1538
01:24:41,080 --> 01:24:43,000
Speaker 1: and I think because I am such a deep reflector

1539
01:24:43,080 --> 01:24:46,880
Speaker 1: of like all scenarios, sometimes I can focus on the

1540
01:24:46,880 --> 01:24:51,160
Speaker 1: worst case scenario, even though I've also acknowledged the like

1541
01:24:51,320 --> 01:24:54,160
Speaker 1: the best case scenario, and I know that either one

1542
01:24:54,240 --> 01:24:57,559
Speaker 1: is possibility. But the worst case scenario also, I think

1543
01:24:57,600 --> 01:24:59,880
Speaker 1: often I think it probably just rattles me more so

1544
01:25:00,040 --> 01:25:01,800
Speaker 1: it sticks with me, and so it's always kind of

1545
01:25:01,880 --> 01:25:06,400
Speaker 1: lingering in the background, even when I'm moving towards the

1546
01:25:06,439 --> 01:25:07,919
Speaker 1: path of the best case scenario.

1547
01:25:08,800 --> 01:25:12,599
Speaker 2: Yeah, yes, yeah, I will probably think about the worst

1548
01:25:12,640 --> 01:25:17,400
Speaker 2: case scenario first, and much more than the best case.

1549
01:25:17,560 --> 01:25:20,480
Speaker 1: I think I think of the first, the best case first,

1550
01:25:20,680 --> 01:25:22,840
Speaker 1: and then the worst comes in and creeps in with

1551
01:25:22,920 --> 01:25:28,840
Speaker 1: heavy motherfucking a vengeance. It's like, hey, bitch, don't forget

1552
01:25:28,880 --> 01:25:31,280
Speaker 1: about this nig go over here, because we can fuck

1553
01:25:31,320 --> 01:25:31,760
Speaker 1: all this shit.

1554
01:25:31,840 --> 01:25:31,960
Speaker 6: Ut.

1555
01:25:32,960 --> 01:25:37,000
Speaker 2: I challenge everyone to check themselves when they have when

1556
01:25:37,040 --> 01:25:40,719
Speaker 2: they visualize or think of the most negative outcome first.

1557
01:25:41,520 --> 01:25:45,240
Speaker 2: I really challenge you to just in every situation think

1558
01:25:45,240 --> 01:25:48,920
Speaker 2: about the best outcome first, and the most and astudents

1559
01:25:48,960 --> 01:25:51,439
Speaker 2: something else creeps in. Let it go like the very best,

1560
01:25:51,520 --> 01:25:53,680
Speaker 2: like even more than your mind desires. M.

1561
01:25:55,000 --> 01:25:57,080
Speaker 1: That's a great practice.

1562
01:25:57,280 --> 01:25:59,439
Speaker 2: Yeah, I really invite you to do that, like, and

1563
01:25:59,479 --> 01:26:02,120
Speaker 2: don't limit yourself either, like, oh, that can't happen.

1564
01:26:02,160 --> 01:26:02,559
Speaker 1: No, Like.

1565
01:26:04,040 --> 01:26:05,920
Speaker 2: After I found out the five richest niggas in the

1566
01:26:05,960 --> 01:26:09,679
Speaker 2: world double their fucking wealth in fucking four years, I'm like, bitch,

1567
01:26:09,720 --> 01:26:10,519
Speaker 2: I can ask for anything.

1568
01:26:10,640 --> 01:26:14,160
Speaker 1: It's basically like, let's up the delusion and let's up

1569
01:26:14,200 --> 01:26:18,680
Speaker 1: the delusion, like let's just be actually crazy. And you

1570
01:26:18,720 --> 01:26:21,160
Speaker 1: know what those positive delusion and those are the ones,

1571
01:26:21,200 --> 01:26:23,360
Speaker 1: those are the people that are often most successful. I

1572
01:26:23,360 --> 01:26:27,640
Speaker 1: mean yeah, they have insane delusion around things and it

1573
01:26:27,760 --> 01:26:32,479
Speaker 1: just works. So yeah, your turn is it? I think?

1574
01:26:32,520 --> 01:26:33,680
Speaker 1: So I just read this one.

1575
01:26:39,600 --> 01:26:43,600
Speaker 2: What's an outfit you feel great in my naked body?

1576
01:26:46,080 --> 01:26:52,200
Speaker 1: This outfit's pretty cute. Mmm, like a silky like a

1577
01:26:52,320 --> 01:26:56,439
Speaker 1: silky low cut dress like that shows my titty so

1578
01:26:56,479 --> 01:26:57,920
Speaker 1: I don't have to wear a bra like you can

1579
01:26:57,960 --> 01:27:00,599
Speaker 1: see them hang. And then also is cut very low

1580
01:27:00,640 --> 01:27:04,599
Speaker 1: in the back and it's form fitting but just enough

1581
01:27:04,720 --> 01:27:09,679
Speaker 1: movement that it just like lightly just envelopes my body.

1582
01:27:10,479 --> 01:27:14,280
Speaker 1: And some sexy heels.

1583
01:27:14,920 --> 01:27:17,960
Speaker 2: Yeah, give me a six inchill, give me a high

1584
01:27:18,040 --> 01:27:20,439
Speaker 2: slit and yes, I love a low lo low almost

1585
01:27:20,479 --> 01:27:23,960
Speaker 2: to my ass crack back. Yeah, and a low and

1586
01:27:23,960 --> 01:27:25,559
Speaker 2: a low plunge for my little titties.

1587
01:27:25,920 --> 01:27:27,040
Speaker 1: I also love lingerie.

1588
01:27:27,479 --> 01:27:29,479
Speaker 2: I like see through lace, like lace that I can

1589
01:27:29,479 --> 01:27:33,480
Speaker 2: see through. I like it's like classy but also pursh.

1590
01:27:34,360 --> 01:27:37,160
Speaker 1: And if we're talking clothes, like actual clothes that I

1591
01:27:37,200 --> 01:27:41,679
Speaker 1: have to put on that are cover me high waisted gens,

1592
01:27:41,960 --> 01:27:47,360
Speaker 1: high wasted bell bottom jeans like those. Yeah yeah, it's

1593
01:27:47,400 --> 01:27:52,719
Speaker 1: the ass just right, accentuates the the waist flair perfect

1594
01:27:52,880 --> 01:27:55,920
Speaker 1: never flair, never goes out of style. They tried, they

1595
01:27:56,000 --> 01:27:57,639
Speaker 1: tried to make it go out of style, and they

1596
01:27:57,720 --> 01:28:01,479
Speaker 1: always bring that bitch back. You can't. You can't because

1597
01:28:01,520 --> 01:28:03,160
Speaker 1: people try to make fun of you, like why is

1598
01:28:03,200 --> 01:28:05,880
Speaker 1: she wearing bell bottoms? Like they try to make bell

1599
01:28:05,920 --> 01:28:10,400
Speaker 1: bottoms seem dorky every now and then in history. I

1600
01:28:10,439 --> 01:28:13,599
Speaker 1: don't know where I pulled this information, but I remember

1601
01:28:13,640 --> 01:28:20,679
Speaker 1: it feeling this way. Okay, oh my god, don't embarrass

1602
01:28:20,760 --> 01:28:30,960
Speaker 1: us with her matches. Can't be her match? Okay, last one, Okay, three,

1603
01:28:31,600 --> 01:28:36,360
Speaker 1: We're going to future. We've done past, we're in the present.

1604
01:28:37,360 --> 01:28:41,639
Speaker 1: Now we're heading to the future. I also love these cards.

1605
01:28:41,680 --> 01:28:43,280
Speaker 1: They have the kids ones too, And I played with

1606
01:28:43,320 --> 01:28:45,840
Speaker 1: Iri and at first I could tell she she was

1607
01:28:45,840 --> 01:28:47,120
Speaker 1: playing with Marae and then I came in and I

1608
01:28:47,160 --> 01:28:48,439
Speaker 1: was like, oh, let me play it. She's like why.

1609
01:28:48,640 --> 01:28:49,519
Speaker 1: I was like, what the fuck?

1610
01:28:50,040 --> 01:28:52,240
Speaker 2: Are kids like programmed to hate the person that brought

1611
01:28:52,280 --> 01:28:52,800
Speaker 2: them in this bit?

1612
01:28:52,880 --> 01:28:56,920
Speaker 1: I was like why, because I want to know you,

1613
01:28:56,960 --> 01:28:58,800
Speaker 1: don't you want to know me. Yeah, you know, I

1614
01:28:59,479 --> 01:29:01,080
Speaker 1: like this, I did it and then she was into it.

1615
01:29:01,160 --> 01:29:02,120
Speaker 1: I'm like, just shut up.

1616
01:29:02,160 --> 01:29:04,760
Speaker 2: Even like the like the like irritation they get with us,

1617
01:29:04,800 --> 01:29:07,040
Speaker 2: like I still I do it to you, but lik

1618
01:29:07,080 --> 01:29:07,479
Speaker 2: it does.

1619
01:29:07,320 --> 01:29:09,040
Speaker 1: It to me. I'm like, why am I annoying you?

1620
01:29:09,120 --> 01:29:11,040
Speaker 1: What the fuck did I do? Can feed you every day?

1621
01:29:11,120 --> 01:29:14,519
Speaker 1: Like what? I guess? Like the disrespect is so crazy.

1622
01:29:17,479 --> 01:29:21,080
Speaker 1: I mean generally my daughter she's pretty respectful. It's just

1623
01:29:21,080 --> 01:29:23,960
Speaker 1: whatever because she is so respectful, Like whenever she gets

1624
01:29:23,960 --> 01:29:24,599
Speaker 1: out of line.

1625
01:29:24,400 --> 01:29:25,200
Speaker 2: That's absurd.

1626
01:29:25,840 --> 01:29:30,400
Speaker 1: It's absurd. I'm like, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa whoa. Okay,

1627
01:29:30,400 --> 01:29:33,000
Speaker 1: why see these you know what I have? I have

1628
01:29:33,240 --> 01:29:37,200
Speaker 1: a please stay lit. You gotta be careful almost very

1629
01:29:37,240 --> 01:29:51,960
Speaker 1: fiery fire. Yeah hmm. What quality do you want to

1630
01:29:52,000 --> 01:30:06,360
Speaker 1: cultivate in yourself? Hm hmm, Like more here you go there?

1631
01:30:06,840 --> 01:30:09,840
Speaker 1: Oh sorry, God, there's a few things I would like

1632
01:30:09,880 --> 01:30:20,960
Speaker 1: to cultivate more. I would say I want to cultivate

1633
01:30:21,200 --> 01:30:26,360
Speaker 1: more like leadership, but like really positive leadership qualities where

1634
01:30:26,400 --> 01:30:31,760
Speaker 1: I'm like impactful in my leadership that it's actually changing

1635
01:30:32,640 --> 01:30:35,759
Speaker 1: the world, which I think do we do and I'm doing.

1636
01:30:35,840 --> 01:30:38,000
Speaker 1: But I just feel like I could be a better leader.

1637
01:30:38,040 --> 01:30:42,480
Speaker 1: I could be a softer leader, maybe a more even

1638
01:30:44,040 --> 01:30:45,439
Speaker 1: I don't know. I just I feel like I have

1639
01:30:45,479 --> 01:30:49,519
Speaker 1: a lot more more to learn in that space because

1640
01:30:49,520 --> 01:30:51,800
Speaker 1: I was an unexpected I've always been a leader. I

1641
01:30:51,800 --> 01:30:55,360
Speaker 1: feel like I've always been a leader, but I feel

1642
01:30:55,360 --> 01:30:57,920
Speaker 1: like I've always had these qualities in me, but I

1643
01:30:58,000 --> 01:30:59,880
Speaker 1: never expected. I didn't know what it was going to be,

1644
01:31:00,040 --> 01:31:03,559
Speaker 1: what it was going to look like. And now that

1645
01:31:03,760 --> 01:31:06,080
Speaker 1: we're here and we lead in ways in so many

1646
01:31:06,120 --> 01:31:08,840
Speaker 1: different ways. Actually is in our parenthood, our motherhood, in

1647
01:31:08,880 --> 01:31:13,400
Speaker 1: our business, I think even like leading ourselves, like really

1648
01:31:13,400 --> 01:31:17,040
Speaker 1: feeling confident that I can trust myself and that I

1649
01:31:17,040 --> 01:31:19,320
Speaker 1: would want to be led by myself, like I would

1650
01:31:19,360 --> 01:31:25,120
Speaker 1: want to work for me. Yeah, and about that, right,

1651
01:31:27,520 --> 01:31:29,120
Speaker 1: I think that quality.

1652
01:31:31,040 --> 01:31:31,519
Speaker 2: Mm hmm.

1653
01:31:32,640 --> 01:31:50,080
Speaker 1: Maybe being even more playful serious resides design in my design.

1654
01:31:51,360 --> 01:31:54,479
Speaker 1: But I want to tap into more of that freedom.

1655
01:31:54,880 --> 01:31:58,040
Speaker 1: And I think I already have that in me. I

1656
01:31:58,040 --> 01:32:00,639
Speaker 1: think I already live in that space, but I feel

1657
01:32:00,680 --> 01:32:04,280
Speaker 1: like I can there's even more. So I'm excited and

1658
01:32:03,600 --> 01:32:07,800
Speaker 1: I'm and I want to cultivate more of that playfulness

1659
01:32:07,800 --> 01:32:12,320
Speaker 1: that I already zude. What about you? I think those

1660
01:32:12,320 --> 01:32:13,120
Speaker 1: are really good ones.

1661
01:32:13,320 --> 01:32:16,080
Speaker 2: I concur I would Yeah, I would like to be

1662
01:32:16,120 --> 01:32:21,280
Speaker 2: a better leader, just hone into those skills more. I

1663
01:32:21,320 --> 01:32:31,320
Speaker 2: would like to be more discipline. I procrastinate and I

1664
01:32:31,320 --> 01:32:33,040
Speaker 2: have like this avoidance, Like when I know I need

1665
01:32:33,040 --> 01:32:35,240
Speaker 2: to do something like call the credit man, do this,

1666
01:32:35,439 --> 01:32:39,200
Speaker 2: I'm just like avoid avoid and then like I'm mad

1667
01:32:39,240 --> 01:32:42,160
Speaker 2: at myself, so I do. I think it's time to

1668
01:32:42,280 --> 01:32:44,840
Speaker 2: not be a twelfth grader that needs to do the

1669
01:32:44,920 --> 01:32:51,040
Speaker 2: project on Friday but doesn't. And yeah, better leader and

1670
01:32:51,160 --> 01:32:56,160
Speaker 2: more play. I think as there's a level of conscious play,

1671
01:32:56,240 --> 01:33:00,240
Speaker 2: you have to be intentional in practice because adult hood

1672
01:33:00,280 --> 01:33:04,519
Speaker 2: comes with so much stress and so many real issues

1673
01:33:04,560 --> 01:33:09,440
Speaker 2: that feel urgent, and like motherhood too, and just survival,

1674
01:33:09,960 --> 01:33:12,880
Speaker 2: especially living in like La and living at a you know,

1675
01:33:12,960 --> 01:33:16,920
Speaker 2: just this time, this season and the world, and I

1676
01:33:16,960 --> 01:33:20,160
Speaker 2: would like to just stop taking everything seriously like I'm

1677
01:33:20,200 --> 01:33:23,920
Speaker 2: pretty chill. But yes, I agree the level of play

1678
01:33:24,000 --> 01:33:31,000
Speaker 2: could always be up and just be more brave and

1679
01:33:31,040 --> 01:33:33,720
Speaker 2: like have less self doubt. I'm like always like what

1680
01:33:33,760 --> 01:33:34,040
Speaker 2: do you think?

1681
01:33:34,080 --> 01:33:36,160
Speaker 1: What do you think? What do you think? Bitch?

1682
01:33:36,320 --> 01:33:41,200
Speaker 2: Just to do it, you know, it's like that liver rationality,

1683
01:33:41,280 --> 01:33:44,480
Speaker 2: like this perspective, this perspective, this perspective.

1684
01:33:44,880 --> 01:33:48,559
Speaker 1: Yeah, I think as I'm listening to talk to I

1685
01:33:48,600 --> 01:33:51,280
Speaker 1: think I'm realizing that a lot of this what I

1686
01:33:51,960 --> 01:33:55,080
Speaker 1: want to in like the play space is really genuinely

1687
01:33:55,120 --> 01:33:58,280
Speaker 1: at its core, just more presence, like being more present

1688
01:33:59,040 --> 01:34:03,840
Speaker 1: so that my natural play can really thrive. Whatever that

1689
01:34:03,880 --> 01:34:11,160
Speaker 1: looks like me in my most present, relaxed like thriving,

1690
01:34:12,000 --> 01:34:15,519
Speaker 1: cup filling space, Like who am I? If I can

1691
01:34:15,560 --> 01:34:19,760
Speaker 1: do that? And if I can create and cultivate the

1692
01:34:19,920 --> 01:34:21,840
Speaker 1: environment so that I can do that, And I think

1693
01:34:21,880 --> 01:34:25,640
Speaker 1: that like I'm on a pretty good start, you know,

1694
01:34:25,720 --> 01:34:29,200
Speaker 1: of creating that environment where I'm playing. Right now, I'm

1695
01:34:29,200 --> 01:34:32,800
Speaker 1: sitting here with my best friend smoking a joint, you know,

1696
01:34:32,880 --> 01:34:37,400
Speaker 1: debating or you know, contemplating what play is and about

1697
01:34:37,439 --> 01:34:40,120
Speaker 1: to leave to Costa Rica on my retreat to play,

1698
01:34:40,240 --> 01:34:43,120
Speaker 1: to go play with a bunch of amazing, incredible stranger

1699
01:34:43,160 --> 01:34:46,120
Speaker 1: women that are going to be my friends in about

1700
01:34:46,439 --> 01:34:49,840
Speaker 1: twelve days and the next I'm going to go on

1701
01:34:49,920 --> 01:34:52,639
Speaker 1: tour and go like tap into a different space and play,

1702
01:34:52,680 --> 01:34:56,240
Speaker 1: get a realm of different play. I am a different part,

1703
01:34:56,320 --> 01:34:57,519
Speaker 1: and I'm going to come home and I'm going to

1704
01:34:57,600 --> 01:35:00,479
Speaker 1: be a mom and I'm going to explore what play

1705
01:35:00,600 --> 01:35:03,640
Speaker 1: is like for this person that I brought through and

1706
01:35:03,680 --> 01:35:07,080
Speaker 1: like what we create together, and then me and my

1707
01:35:07,160 --> 01:35:10,040
Speaker 1: lover are going to play and create a whole other

1708
01:35:10,120 --> 01:35:12,360
Speaker 1: space of whatever the fuck that means for us. Like

1709
01:35:13,040 --> 01:35:16,040
Speaker 1: I think I'm on a pretty good start. So I

1710
01:35:16,080 --> 01:35:20,920
Speaker 1: think it's like trusting that experience, like remember like being

1711
01:35:20,960 --> 01:35:23,960
Speaker 1: present enough to know what's happening. Like you're in the play, bitch,

1712
01:35:24,360 --> 01:35:26,679
Speaker 1: you're in it. You're playing trying to get to the play.

1713
01:35:26,720 --> 01:35:28,840
Speaker 1: You're in it. If you would just relax right.

1714
01:35:28,720 --> 01:35:31,519
Speaker 2: And be like like, oh I asked for all this.

1715
01:35:31,840 --> 01:35:33,840
Speaker 1: Oh my god, I yes, I have business calls because

1716
01:35:33,880 --> 01:35:37,400
Speaker 1: that's what play involves too. This is an adult play involved. Yeah,

1717
01:35:37,840 --> 01:35:41,120
Speaker 1: like yeah, that's that's real shit. So it's like, yes,

1718
01:35:41,320 --> 01:35:48,599
Speaker 1: it's cultivating more presence and really looking around and opening

1719
01:35:48,680 --> 01:35:51,840
Speaker 1: up my eyes and seeing like, oh, okay, wow, look

1720
01:35:51,880 --> 01:35:55,479
Speaker 1: at that. Oh I'm here. Oh wow, I'm sitting in

1721
01:35:55,520 --> 01:35:57,200
Speaker 1: front of cameras and no one's in the room and

1722
01:35:57,240 --> 01:35:59,040
Speaker 1: I'm talking to my friend and I used to be

1723
01:35:59,080 --> 01:36:02,479
Speaker 1: sitting in my living room dining room table and just

1724
01:36:02,520 --> 01:36:07,439
Speaker 1: like appreciating every moment and every part of it and

1725
01:36:07,479 --> 01:36:11,280
Speaker 1: acknowledging the evolution of whatever that is to you, you know,

1726
01:36:11,520 --> 01:36:14,160
Speaker 1: and you start to look around and you're like, you

1727
01:36:14,680 --> 01:36:15,760
Speaker 1: you start to be proud of.

1728
01:36:15,720 --> 01:36:20,000
Speaker 2: Yourself because play, play really got got you here, you know,

1729
01:36:20,200 --> 01:36:22,840
Speaker 2: play had you arrived at this moment, like the moment

1730
01:36:22,880 --> 01:36:26,639
Speaker 2: you started to kind of like explore the play that's when.

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01:36:30,200 --> 01:36:34,200
Speaker 1: So yeah, cultivating more play and presence.

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01:36:34,560 --> 01:36:37,719
Speaker 2: Yeah, and you're right, like bringing that more into all

1733
01:36:37,840 --> 01:36:40,559
Speaker 2: the aspects of your life, you know, and sometimes it's

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01:36:40,600 --> 01:36:43,160
Speaker 2: it's just nice to remember that, like even like.

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01:36:43,160 --> 01:36:46,439
Speaker 1: Thinking about like not like writing down what type of play,

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01:36:46,520 --> 01:36:48,720
Speaker 1: Like what is the play you have with Like how

1737
01:36:48,720 --> 01:36:52,400
Speaker 1: would you define the play we share and versus the

1738
01:36:52,400 --> 01:36:55,920
Speaker 1: play you and Orlando share versus the play you have

1739
01:36:56,080 --> 01:36:59,240
Speaker 1: with Luna versus the play you have in your business.

1740
01:36:59,360 --> 01:37:01,760
Speaker 1: Like you can literally you can think of something. You

1741
01:37:01,840 --> 01:37:04,640
Speaker 1: might not land on it exactly, but there is a

1742
01:37:04,640 --> 01:37:06,880
Speaker 1: feeling behind each one that exists.

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01:37:07,000 --> 01:37:08,560
Speaker 2: Well, and I also I feel like, yes, there's a

1744
01:37:08,560 --> 01:37:11,000
Speaker 2: feeling behind each one that exists, and there's also like

1745
01:37:11,080 --> 01:37:14,759
Speaker 2: a there's also a string that attaches them all.

1746
01:37:14,600 --> 01:37:16,320
Speaker 1: To absolutely because we all kind of.

1747
01:37:16,240 --> 01:37:17,880
Speaker 2: Play in the same way, because we're all.

1748
01:37:17,880 --> 01:37:20,080
Speaker 1: Kind of a web. It becomes a web of the

1749
01:37:20,160 --> 01:37:22,759
Speaker 1: people too, and where you guys meet in your play

1750
01:37:22,960 --> 01:37:25,479
Speaker 1: on their journeys that are separate from yours, and it

1751
01:37:25,640 --> 01:37:28,880
Speaker 1: just becomes this big web. And that's really like kind

1752
01:37:28,960 --> 01:37:31,960
Speaker 1: of what I feel like our existence here is about

1753
01:37:32,040 --> 01:37:35,040
Speaker 1: at its core, but we've we've come so far away

1754
01:37:35,120 --> 01:37:39,840
Speaker 1: from from the play and what life is supposed to

1755
01:37:39,840 --> 01:37:43,719
Speaker 1: be at its essence and its core. Yeah, and play

1756
01:37:43,760 --> 01:37:49,000
Speaker 1: then is now almost looks like either a privilege or silly,

1757
01:37:49,200 --> 01:37:53,519
Speaker 1: so like yeah, obsolete or yeah necessary.

1758
01:37:53,160 --> 01:38:00,240
Speaker 2: And necessary is a big one like selfish, immature. Yeah

1759
01:38:00,280 --> 01:38:02,920
Speaker 2: that's so true. But I don't know, I think our

1760
01:38:03,000 --> 01:38:09,160
Speaker 2: play is like it's like care free. But also it

1761
01:38:09,200 --> 01:38:12,920
Speaker 2: just reminds me of like I just remember this one time,

1762
01:38:13,000 --> 01:38:15,320
Speaker 2: and like I think it was like fourth grade or

1763
01:38:15,320 --> 01:38:19,559
Speaker 2: fifth grade and each class had was put in small

1764
01:38:19,560 --> 01:38:21,320
Speaker 2: groups and it was the first time it was like

1765
01:38:21,640 --> 01:38:23,960
Speaker 2: make a business. And I was like, that was the

1766
01:38:23,960 --> 01:38:26,719
Speaker 2: first time I ever had like the concept of someone

1767
01:38:26,760 --> 01:38:30,000
Speaker 2: giving me the power and like whatever, our group or

1768
01:38:30,000 --> 01:38:33,600
Speaker 2: whatever like made everyone in the school collect coins. It

1769
01:38:33,680 --> 01:38:38,519
Speaker 2: was like called blank coin Challenge. I'm just skipping it

1770
01:38:38,520 --> 01:38:43,959
Speaker 2: because it's also her school now, but we just collected

1771
01:38:44,000 --> 01:38:46,120
Speaker 2: coins from everybody in the school, and then we donated

1772
01:38:46,160 --> 01:38:48,840
Speaker 2: them and I was like, oh shit, like we made

1773
01:38:48,840 --> 01:38:51,200
Speaker 2: an idea and everybody listened. And then I remember, like

1774
01:38:51,200 --> 01:38:52,679
Speaker 2: me and Danielle like so then we're going to start

1775
01:38:52,680 --> 01:38:56,439
Speaker 2: like a rhinestone rhinestone princess T shirt company and like

1776
01:38:56,479 --> 01:39:00,519
Speaker 2: writing business plans on the Microsoft word and like ironing things.

1777
01:39:02,000 --> 01:39:06,000
Speaker 1: Yeah, for real. But our relationship.

1778
01:39:05,439 --> 01:39:08,960
Speaker 2: Gives me that energy that like it's boundless because then

1779
01:39:09,040 --> 01:39:11,240
Speaker 2: those times like I had this idea like oh I

1780
01:39:11,280 --> 01:39:14,400
Speaker 2: could really do anything, I really felt that way. And

1781
01:39:14,439 --> 01:39:17,280
Speaker 2: then somewhere along the way, like all these other like

1782
01:39:17,400 --> 01:39:21,639
Speaker 2: doubts and things came in. And when we're together, I

1783
01:39:21,680 --> 01:39:26,240
Speaker 2: feel infinite possibilities and it feels fun. It feels fun like,

1784
01:39:26,400 --> 01:39:28,519
Speaker 2: oh what could we come up with? And also just

1785
01:39:28,640 --> 01:39:32,040
Speaker 2: like someone who we could just get into so much

1786
01:39:32,120 --> 01:39:34,719
Speaker 2: shit with, but also know we're always gonna be okay,

1787
01:39:34,880 --> 01:39:38,799
Speaker 2: like somehow like okay, we're gonna get back. Yeah, someone's

1788
01:39:38,840 --> 01:39:40,439
Speaker 2: gonna get us back. We're gonna figure it out. That's

1789
01:39:40,439 --> 01:39:41,720
Speaker 2: that's a stranger. They're gonna know.

1790
01:39:42,040 --> 01:39:44,880
Speaker 1: We can't look at our phones, but they can, like

1791
01:39:45,320 --> 01:39:51,160
Speaker 1: just like the most fun, protected, free, liberating fun.

1792
01:39:51,680 --> 01:39:53,839
Speaker 2: You know that I've only experienced with like a handful

1793
01:39:53,880 --> 01:39:54,280
Speaker 2: of people.

1794
01:39:55,479 --> 01:39:58,160
Speaker 1: Yeah, when I was thinking of our play, I felt

1795
01:39:58,160 --> 01:40:01,960
Speaker 1: like I felt the word conjuring come up, like and

1796
01:40:02,000 --> 01:40:05,240
Speaker 1: it's that feeling of like being able to like create anything.

1797
01:40:05,280 --> 01:40:08,479
Speaker 1: It's such a creative play, but it's also like a

1798
01:40:08,560 --> 01:40:14,600
Speaker 1: protective and like it's just adventurous play.

1799
01:40:15,240 --> 01:40:17,880
Speaker 2: And it is adventurous. I do feel like like like

1800
01:40:18,439 --> 01:40:21,600
Speaker 2: going on an exploration. That's what I feel like my

1801
01:40:21,880 --> 01:40:24,400
Speaker 2: like my real adventure, Betty, Like let's let's do it.

1802
01:40:24,439 --> 01:40:26,759
Speaker 2: Let's pack our bags and just get in and start

1803
01:40:26,760 --> 01:40:29,519
Speaker 2: the engine. Yeah, and then like we've literally done that.

1804
01:40:29,600 --> 01:40:31,720
Speaker 2: But just in life, I feel like you're my ride

1805
01:40:31,760 --> 01:40:35,760
Speaker 2: or die. Like literally we're riding and we're like just

1806
01:40:36,000 --> 01:40:38,080
Speaker 2: in the in the infinite universe.

1807
01:40:38,320 --> 01:40:40,200
Speaker 1: Yeah, we're gonna leave our stamp somewhere along the way

1808
01:40:40,240 --> 01:40:44,960
Speaker 1: in the spaceship. Never seen this before, it's ours. Give

1809
01:40:44,960 --> 01:40:46,479
Speaker 1: me one of those stickers, give me one of those good.

1810
01:40:46,320 --> 01:40:48,559
Speaker 2: Monsters, put it here all right, keep going.

1811
01:40:49,840 --> 01:40:52,960
Speaker 1: Oh my god. Yeah, Yeah, I think that's a great idea,

1812
01:40:53,040 --> 01:40:54,920
Speaker 1: is like being able to name the type of play

1813
01:40:54,960 --> 01:40:57,280
Speaker 1: you create in each space and then how you can

1814
01:40:57,280 --> 01:40:59,599
Speaker 1: cultivate that type of play even more in that space

1815
01:41:00,439 --> 01:41:04,160
Speaker 1: and yeah, creating more play in your life.

1816
01:41:04,520 --> 01:41:07,200
Speaker 2: And I think about people, even our friends or people listening,

1817
01:41:07,479 --> 01:41:10,200
Speaker 2: like you bitches seem like you play a lot and

1818
01:41:10,240 --> 01:41:11,880
Speaker 2: we do, and we do, and we have a lot

1819
01:41:11,880 --> 01:41:14,360
Speaker 2: of stories because we've been willing to, like do all

1820
01:41:14,360 --> 01:41:17,880
Speaker 2: the crazy shit, you know, Coachellas and ecstasies and mushrooms

1821
01:41:17,920 --> 01:41:22,639
Speaker 2: and cars with you know, strangers and all types of shit.

1822
01:41:22,760 --> 01:41:31,200
Speaker 2: But ultimately, I don't know, I just feel like even more,

1823
01:41:31,320 --> 01:41:33,679
Speaker 2: do it even more, like up and just being president

1824
01:41:33,960 --> 01:41:37,080
Speaker 2: and just like if you think we have juicy lives

1825
01:41:37,120 --> 01:41:38,880
Speaker 2: and we still feel like we need to play more,

1826
01:41:39,000 --> 01:41:40,920
Speaker 2: this is your sign you.

1827
01:41:40,920 --> 01:41:46,280
Speaker 1: Haven't done enough. I haven't done enough. Yeah, yeah, I

1828
01:41:46,320 --> 01:41:52,920
Speaker 1: feel that. Oh well, I love this. This is beautiful. Yes,

1829
01:41:53,040 --> 01:41:55,920
Speaker 1: thank you indulging me and playing the self love game.

1830
01:42:00,680 --> 01:42:02,439
Speaker 1: I think it's time to get out of here. I

1831
01:42:02,479 --> 01:42:06,679
Speaker 1: think it's twenty minutes to eight pm. Perfect.

1832
01:42:08,680 --> 01:42:11,840
Speaker 2: Well, you guys, you know where to find us. Good

1833
01:42:11,880 --> 01:42:14,880
Speaker 2: Mom's Underscore, Bad Choices on Instagram. You can find me

1834
01:42:15,160 --> 01:42:17,080
Speaker 2: Mila Underscore map with an.

1835
01:42:17,120 --> 01:42:20,559
Speaker 1: H You'll find me at watch Erica. Make sure you

1836
01:42:20,680 --> 01:42:23,040
Speaker 1: check all the links in this episode description. We're going

1837
01:42:23,040 --> 01:42:25,559
Speaker 1: on tour we're coming to your city. We're doing a

1838
01:42:25,600 --> 01:42:29,760
Speaker 1: Mother's Day retreat in May in Atlanta, and yeah, we

1839
01:42:29,840 --> 01:42:32,280
Speaker 1: just we be out. We be outside, so we'd be

1840
01:42:32,320 --> 01:42:35,559
Speaker 1: doing events with the people, with the community. And make

1841
01:42:35,600 --> 01:42:38,679
Speaker 1: sure you check out our Patreon. This season ends in March,

1842
01:42:38,800 --> 01:42:41,439
Speaker 1: and we're only going to be releasing full episodes during

1843
01:42:41,439 --> 01:42:43,760
Speaker 1: our off season on Patreon, so make sure you check

1844
01:42:43,760 --> 01:42:48,680
Speaker 1: out all of our Patreon offerings. And I Love you,

1845
01:42:49,320 --> 01:42:59,719
Speaker 1: I Love you, Love yourself, Love on yourself, play play Bye,

1846
01:43:00,240 --> 01:43:09,920
Speaker 1: I Love that soo.

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