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Speaker 1: What's up its way up at Angela Yee. I'm Angela

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Speaker 1: Yee and Johnny Blaze is here. First of all, welcome

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Speaker 1: to the new show. This is your first time.

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Speaker 2: If that mirror missing, it was me. If you carry

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Speaker 2: that out of here.

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Speaker 1: Person that took the damn mirror, like what, Well, shout

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Speaker 1: out to my guy who actually came up here and

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Speaker 1: made this mirror.

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Speaker 2: He hand made it.

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Speaker 3: A tree unique and so it's an amazing.

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Speaker 2: Put the glass and that's the wood.

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Speaker 1: Yes, actually this was the first thing I got in

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Speaker 1: the studio when I first started the show.

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Speaker 2: You got to look at yourself, Honny.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, everyone comes in here to use the mirror, to

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Speaker 3: use it.

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Speaker 2: That's it. That's the point of now.

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Speaker 3: Johnny Blaze, first of all, congratulations on the song with Neo.

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Speaker 3: It's a it's.

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Speaker 2: Feels like very appropriate for him.

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Speaker 4: Man. Look, everybody was like it seems appropriate for both

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Speaker 4: of us because it's like I was going through something

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Speaker 4: with my relationship. You know, he goes to this that's

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Speaker 4: like like bro, Like I met him through you know Crystal.

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Speaker 4: So that's how I got the record and we build

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Speaker 4: a friendship and it's just like I stay out of

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Speaker 4: people's way. But of course I see things and I

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Speaker 4: was like, this song is kind of like right for

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Speaker 4: us to drop because it's you know, everybody has those

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Speaker 4: moments where you tell somebody, don't give up on me.

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Speaker 4: You know I'm not perfect, Please don't give up on me.

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Speaker 4: And when they give up, it's like you can't even

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Speaker 4: try to fight for when they're done y'or done, So

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Speaker 4: don't do that. In my case, it was more of

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Speaker 4: a my mental was being damaged and it was putting

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Speaker 4: me in a space of suicidal like type of vibe.

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Speaker 2: And so that's what I did.

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Speaker 4: I purposely dropped it on a mental awareness month, which okay, so,

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Speaker 4: and I dedicated it to people like be more kind

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Speaker 4: of people, be more gentle, talk to people more kind

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Speaker 4: of you know, like just cherish people.

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Speaker 1: And let's talk about your situation because I was watching

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Speaker 1: that play out because you know, we know each other.

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Speaker 4: Man, I did good because I was trying and I

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Speaker 4: would hit you up and be like are you okay?

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Speaker 1: Cause people were very concerned, and so was it back

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Speaker 1: and forth and he was saying that he wasn't your

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Speaker 1: ex and you know, so since then, and I don't

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Speaker 1: want to bring you back to a bad mental space.

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Speaker 2: We're in counseling.

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Speaker 1: Oh you both of you are in counseling together. No separate,

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Speaker 1: oh separately Okay. And I'm not an angel. He said

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Speaker 1: something to me, like about a month ago. He was like,

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Speaker 1: you know, you, I always apologize. I take accountability, which

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Speaker 1: he does, and he was like, you never just publicly

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Speaker 1: just said sorry because I was.

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Speaker 2: I'm not an angel. I'm not. And that's why I

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Speaker 2: take the counseling.

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Speaker 4: Now, like it's been four months and I've been really

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Speaker 4: getting better, and I never really apologize. So I'm gonna

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Speaker 4: just take like these two seconds and tell him, like,

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Speaker 4: I'm so sorry for I treated because it's not a

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Speaker 4: one way street.

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Speaker 3: When you say you're not an angel, what type of

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Speaker 3: things do you do?

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Speaker 4: I mean, I'm putting me an address out, I've written,

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Speaker 4: messed up his door.

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Speaker 2: I popped the tire, but I paid it back. Yeah,

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Speaker 2: but still you, she said, but I paid it back.

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Speaker 4: I'm not gonna talk about the other stuff, but it

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Speaker 4: was it was pretty Yeah, and we're both not angels,

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Speaker 4: but I feel that, you know, as a team and

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Speaker 4: don't treat them bad.

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Speaker 2: So I don't want to.

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Speaker 4: Put that out especially people look up to me like

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Speaker 4: a lot of people do. And I never knew that,

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Speaker 4: and now that I do, I don't want to be

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Speaker 4: the person that's one of those scorn women that's teaching

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Speaker 4: people to be terrible to men, right and they have

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Speaker 4: feelings too, you know.

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Speaker 2: So I never really realized that till he said that.

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Speaker 4: I'm like, you know what I owe you that I apologize,

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Speaker 4: But we're both taking counselings separate.

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Speaker 3: To still try to stay together.

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Speaker 2: It's more of.

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Speaker 4: To communicate better because I'm signed to him, you know,

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Speaker 4: and he's phenomenal at what he does. He's marketing wise,

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Speaker 4: he's the market I'm the artist. And we're not angels.

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Speaker 4: Nobody's an angel.

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Speaker 2: Everybody has their their downfalls or relationships. It's just do you.

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Speaker 4: Want to fix something or do you want to just

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Speaker 4: leave it in shambles? And with my therapy, I if

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Speaker 4: I know that we can. All we have to do

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Speaker 4: is talk to each other correctly, then why not just

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Speaker 4: talk nice to each other? Did you just start doing

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Speaker 4: therapy or had you done previously? For this is like

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Speaker 4: the first you remember I've been telling you like for years, Like.

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Speaker 2: I do it and then I stopped.

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Speaker 4: This has been consistent where it's like two to three

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Speaker 4: days out the week and it's like she doesn't know

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Speaker 4: who I am. She has no idea who I am.

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Speaker 4: She calls me Japelle. She's like miss Jackson. I just

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Speaker 4: realized that you play six instruments. I didn't even know you.

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Speaker 2: Had records with people I like.

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Speaker 4: And that's what made me feel good, because I don't

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Speaker 4: want somebody that looks at me like, oh, you're Johnny.

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Speaker 4: So I'm gonna oh, yeah, girl, you know, yeah that's right.

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Speaker 2: And it's really wrong.

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Speaker 4: No tell me I'm wrong, show me what I need

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Speaker 4: to do in the steps. So she taught me this

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Speaker 4: AABB balance boundaries, Awareness and accountability.

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Speaker 3: Okay, and I.

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Speaker 2: Less boundaries Awareness and accountability.

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Speaker 4: I think it's BBAA, but I think it's AABB because

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Speaker 4: it sounds better. And so even with that situation with

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Speaker 4: my ex, I was just like, you know, we have

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Speaker 4: to take accountability awareness and it works, it really does.

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Speaker 2: And it's harder too when it's public like that, because yeah,

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Speaker 2: because I forget automatic and you know, it's crazy. I

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Speaker 2: didn't go back. Well, he was saying things and I

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Speaker 4: One video right, and I was just like, I forgive you.

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Speaker 4: But I felt like that was kind of playing victim too,

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Speaker 4: because I know that I also did things so I

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Speaker 4: could see where he came from.

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Speaker 2: I'm just a fair person.

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Speaker 4: A lot of people in arguments and situations, we're not

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Speaker 4: honest with each other. We're not we want to play victim,

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Speaker 4: and women we do it a lot. And I'm not

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Speaker 1: It's just we do it right and we get away

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Speaker 1: to it too. Everyone does it, yeah, but we get

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Speaker 1: away with it. It's bad for people to see the

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Speaker 2: Yeah, we don't see like how it affects men. You

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Speaker 4: But I don't want to be one of those girls

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Speaker 4: where it's just like, oh, I could do whatever I

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Speaker 4: want to do terrible things people.

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Speaker 1: It's not okay to damage anyways, and then not okay

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Speaker 1: to put your hands on her.

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Speaker 4: Man back up and be like I didn't do nothing.

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Speaker 4: That's not cool. I'm too gifted, I'm too talented. And

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Speaker 4: I think even with certain situations with that, like how

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Speaker 4: people looking at me with music because they're like, okay,

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Speaker 4: she handled that a little different than what she usually

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Speaker 4: when I go outside, they just be like are you genuinely,

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Speaker 4: like are you okay? I'm like, yeah, I'm fine, And

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Speaker 4: now ask me about him. I'm like, there's nothing bad.

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Speaker 4: I don't want to be that girl. I don't want

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Speaker 1: And you've been very honest about the issues and struggles

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Speaker 1: you've been having, you know, with having to take a

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Speaker 3: Media, even just for your own mental super healthy.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, I just got back into the I got a

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Speaker 2: To love me even more. And I know for.

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Speaker 4: People or fans of mine and people that's just getting

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Speaker 4: used to me, it's like a roller coaster. But it's

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Speaker 4: like I don't want the roller coaster. I just told somebody,

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Speaker 4: like a couple of days ago, I'm like, I'm in

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Speaker 4: my soft era where I where I cry and it's weird,

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Speaker 4: and I'm like, I don't get mad no more. I

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Speaker 2: I I like it. It's not too bad. My therapist.

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Speaker 2: She was like, you're gonna hate it at first.

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Speaker 4: But it's good because you're doing it the right way

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Speaker 4: so people can actually see you and understand when you're

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Speaker 4: angry and you're irate is that the word? Like? And

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Speaker 4: just all over the place. Nobody can't understand what you're

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Speaker 4: hurting from. They just see an angry person, you know, instead.

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Speaker 4: So I'm like, you know what, let me work on that.

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Speaker 4: And it's it's been the best thing. I dropped the

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Speaker 4: record and it wasn't like a backlash. It wasn't like, oh,

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Speaker 4: well we remember this. It was just straight like, yes, okay,

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Speaker 3: This all sounds very mature.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, it's different for me, this soft girl. I

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Speaker 4: don't know how people do it, but it's cool.

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Speaker 3: I don't know how they do it.

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Speaker 4: I'm like, I'm a Gemini, Like I've got twelve people

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Speaker 1: And then I definitely wanted to talk to you though

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Speaker 1: about the interview that you did with Megan James and

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Speaker 1: what happened after that, right because people were saying they

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Speaker 1: did not like how she was speaking to you how

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Speaker 1: she took up taking a drug test and then you know,

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Speaker 1: all kinds of things.

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Speaker 2: I don't even want to make you revisit that.

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Speaker 1: But then she said that you actually told her to

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Speaker 1: do those things, and then it was your idea, so

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Speaker 1: that you were then trying to play this this.

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Speaker 4: I don't play victim, and it is what it is like,

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Speaker 4: and it's crazy how she did it.

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Speaker 2: So when that video went.

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Speaker 4: Out with what my ex did, I knew I was

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Speaker 4: going to make it. I never begged her. I mean,

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Speaker 4: I know, and this is no flex or nothing, but

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Speaker 4: I know you. I know a lot of people like

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Speaker 4: Kendrick g like a lot of women that's in the industry.

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Speaker 4: So it wasn't like I was. She was making it

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Speaker 4: seem like I wanted, like I needed this. No, I've

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Speaker 4: known you for eight years. You have a podcast I supported.

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Speaker 4: Hey let me come on your podcast, I asked twice.

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Speaker 4: One was because she couldn't get me on there at

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Speaker 4: the time because somebody already interviewed me on that network,

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Speaker 4: so she wanted to bandit wait till you drop the

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Speaker 4: neo record. So the second time was I updated and

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Speaker 4: was like, hey, what's up. It was only twice so

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Speaker 4: I don't know how that's begging. I don't beg people.

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Speaker 1: And I just want to say before you even continue

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Speaker 1: with that, there is also nothing wrong with when you

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Speaker 1: have a song to promote and things that you're doing.

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Speaker 4: It was months later. Then it was a second time,

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Speaker 4: I said, you can test me on here because it

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Speaker 4: They're worried about you calling me a crackhead, bitch like

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Speaker 4: why not do it on your show? You can't get

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Speaker 4: mad at me. I'm in a comment saying, y'all, it's okay,

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Speaker 4: this is my friend. It's cool, like we're associate friends.

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Speaker 4: Like that's what I call it, Like somebody that when

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Speaker 1: go viral. Who goes and ask somebody for a drug

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Speaker 2: So of course I'm like, well, this is my first podcast.

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Speaker 3: So since she blocked.

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Speaker 4: Me, I couldn't even text back and be like she

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Speaker 2: I was like, like, let's be for real.

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Speaker 4: I'm not none of them god damn girls on baddies like,

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Speaker 2: I want the rock your shit.

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Speaker 4: I would have rocked your shit, but now now that

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Speaker 2: So it's like I'd rather just sit back and not

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Speaker 4: And I'm glad I did that because even though it

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Speaker 3: I'm glad you're doing this music like I'm on some others.

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Speaker 1: And by the way, like anytime somebody mentions your name,

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Speaker 2: Yeah, and I don't want to be but she fights,

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Speaker 4: And when I'm already in this space where people are

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Speaker 4: I don't even now. It's more of the opposite. It's like, hey,

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Speaker 4: It's the way you talk, I know, the way I talk,

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Speaker 2: I don't even want to talk right now. Old me,

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Speaker 2: I'm going to jail, Like I don't want that. Who

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Speaker 3: So many I'm tired.

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Speaker 1: I feel like, even for the music that you do,

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Speaker 3: Some of them are.

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Speaker 2: Man, I ain't one of them. I'm soft, damnit, and

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Speaker 2: I want to stay that way. Now, what about you.

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Speaker 3: And Maci Gray? What's your relationship?

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Speaker 4: Like my I had that burg for so long, so

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Speaker 4: Just checking up and it's just I've been building friendships

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Speaker 4: And after that and it's just been on go everything.

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Speaker 2: Method man. We just did a record inside a Baby.

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Speaker 3: Oh that's my guy. Man.

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Speaker 4: It was just it's just back, come back to back,

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Speaker 2: Great.

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Speaker 3: So then we'll be so what is the ultimate plan

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Speaker 2: What do we need to do?

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Speaker 4: I even have something over in like you know the

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Speaker 4: Okay, and so I'm just like, these are big records.

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Speaker 3: How do you coordinate these? How does this happen?

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Speaker 3: I don't know how does this happen?

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Speaker 2: The shatta? Why it be me and the d ms.

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Speaker 4: People don't know how to use social media. It's marketing,

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Speaker 4: it's you have a you have a verified check. All

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Speaker 4: would you like to do a record with me? And

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Speaker 4: like bro, she's singing and playing piano, and I.

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Speaker 2: Think that's the biggest thing that they're stuck on. They're like, but.

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Speaker 4: This what And then it just happens. They're like, yeah,

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Speaker 2: I don't have people disrespect me or anything.

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Speaker 4: They really genuinely be wanting to work and they just

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Speaker 2: So that's how it happens. It's DMS. I'm like, Hey,

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Speaker 2: I feel like your life is a movie.

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Speaker 1: Man.

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Speaker 4: I can't wait to do a documentary because my label's

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Speaker 2: They're like, we need to just give you like this

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Speaker 4: I'll just be like, Lord, all my little twelve little

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Speaker 4: personalities of Geminis, be like what we doing today? Are

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00:18:00,400 --> 00:18:03,520
Speaker 4: we on till or we sulker era? We're all We're

441
00:18:03,560 --> 00:18:05,960
Speaker 4: all in one now. We're all on one accord.

442
00:18:06,280 --> 00:18:09,400
Speaker 1: And I know that you've also been working because you've

443
00:18:09,400 --> 00:18:12,040
Speaker 1: dealt with things publicly like a miscarriage, right, and so

444
00:18:12,119 --> 00:18:14,119
Speaker 1: I know that's something that is really important to you

445
00:18:14,160 --> 00:18:15,959
Speaker 1: and there do to your heart because when something happens

446
00:18:15,960 --> 00:18:18,080
Speaker 1: to you and you can be open about it, then

447
00:18:18,160 --> 00:18:20,159
Speaker 1: it feels like the next step for you is how

448
00:18:20,200 --> 00:18:21,159
Speaker 1: can I help other people?

449
00:18:21,200 --> 00:18:23,920
Speaker 2: And that's what I do. So I quit only fans completely.

450
00:18:25,920 --> 00:18:27,359
Speaker 2: I don't know. I really was praying on it.

451
00:18:27,359 --> 00:18:28,879
Speaker 3: I was like making a lot of money off me.

452
00:18:29,280 --> 00:18:30,840
Speaker 3: I was just like, I remember you when I did

453
00:18:30,840 --> 00:18:31,520
Speaker 3: the whole thing about it.

454
00:18:31,560 --> 00:18:35,720
Speaker 1: You sent me your man and I was like, well.

455
00:18:35,680 --> 00:18:37,160
Speaker 2: Damn, ain't no way in hell.

456
00:18:37,280 --> 00:18:41,320
Speaker 4: I was like, I really, I wouldn't even say sacrifice.

457
00:18:41,320 --> 00:18:43,160
Speaker 4: I don't even feel bad. I still have ten thousand

458
00:18:43,200 --> 00:18:44,760
Speaker 4: dollars in the account and I shut it down. I

459
00:18:44,760 --> 00:18:46,199
Speaker 4: don't even know if it really did go to my

460
00:18:46,400 --> 00:18:47,040
Speaker 4: bank account.

461
00:18:47,240 --> 00:18:50,119
Speaker 2: I didn't care. I asked my friend. I was asking.

462
00:18:50,200 --> 00:18:51,639
Speaker 4: I was like, I've been praying on just trying to

463
00:18:51,680 --> 00:18:53,399
Speaker 4: find something while I'm doing.

464
00:18:53,320 --> 00:18:55,159
Speaker 2: Music that makes sense for me as R and B.

465
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Speaker 2: She's like, come TikTok. I'm like, huh.

466
00:18:57,600 --> 00:19:00,399
Speaker 4: She's like, yeah, just jump on TikTok and back with

467
00:19:00,440 --> 00:19:02,959
Speaker 4: people in stream. I'm like, ain't no way twenty one

468
00:19:02,960 --> 00:19:05,400
Speaker 4: thousand dollars in a week and a half. Wow, off

469
00:19:05,440 --> 00:19:07,840
Speaker 4: a battle. Get to the money, boy, I'm gonna find

470
00:19:07,880 --> 00:19:11,199
Speaker 4: that check boy, like real gam and I'm like, if

471
00:19:11,240 --> 00:19:13,479
Speaker 4: you feel me, I'm gonna find the bag. And then

472
00:19:13,480 --> 00:19:15,040
Speaker 4: I put everybody else on it. So I do this

473
00:19:15,119 --> 00:19:17,800
Speaker 4: class where I show people and it's more positive.

474
00:19:17,800 --> 00:19:18,920
Speaker 2: You can't be negative on there.

475
00:19:19,200 --> 00:19:21,679
Speaker 4: I started off with a prayer and I speak about

476
00:19:21,680 --> 00:19:24,720
Speaker 4: that about because I would have to lay down for

477
00:19:24,760 --> 00:19:27,800
Speaker 4: like eight weeks to have a baby, like I can't move.

478
00:19:27,880 --> 00:19:30,640
Speaker 2: I just naturally have miscarriages.

479
00:19:30,720 --> 00:19:33,320
Speaker 4: I didn't even get I checked on it a couple times,

480
00:19:33,359 --> 00:19:36,040
Speaker 4: but it's just it's just something you've had, so you've

481
00:19:36,119 --> 00:19:39,560
Speaker 4: had multiple and it's just it's not my fault. It's

482
00:19:39,640 --> 00:19:42,360
Speaker 4: just my body. So it's like I would have to lay,

483
00:19:42,400 --> 00:19:44,600
Speaker 4: I can't be moving around. But I realized when I

484
00:19:44,640 --> 00:19:46,680
Speaker 4: opened up about it, it's so many women.

485
00:19:46,720 --> 00:19:47,239
Speaker 2: It's like that.

486
00:19:47,320 --> 00:19:49,239
Speaker 4: So I was like, you know what, I know how

487
00:19:49,240 --> 00:19:51,720
Speaker 4: I'm gonna do my stream on TikTok. I pray first,

488
00:19:51,960 --> 00:19:57,760
Speaker 4: we talk about sensitive things, topics depression, PTSD, anxiety, people

489
00:19:57,760 --> 00:20:00,320
Speaker 4: that can't have kids, people that's struggling with the same

490
00:20:00,359 --> 00:20:02,920
Speaker 4: situation I have, and then we get into music after that.

491
00:20:03,200 --> 00:20:05,679
Speaker 2: They might not see Boosy on TikTok, they might not

492
00:20:05,800 --> 00:20:08,200
Speaker 2: see Neo. And I'm in the studio and I'm streaming

493
00:20:08,240 --> 00:20:10,920
Speaker 2: and I have my own thing. It's like my own.

494
00:20:10,760 --> 00:20:14,679
Speaker 4: Little, you know, streaming thing, and it feels much better

495
00:20:14,960 --> 00:20:18,359
Speaker 4: than It also helps a lot with my emotions because

496
00:20:18,400 --> 00:20:21,320
Speaker 4: TikTok has this strict rule. You cannot curse too much,

497
00:20:21,440 --> 00:20:24,680
Speaker 4: you can't dog somebody out. You have to be like, hi,

498
00:20:24,880 --> 00:20:27,680
Speaker 4: I'm Johnny Hello. To have the screen shared a live

499
00:20:28,160 --> 00:20:30,919
Speaker 4: positive vibes and it works so it puts me in

500
00:20:30,920 --> 00:20:31,480
Speaker 4: a good space.

501
00:20:31,640 --> 00:20:32,280
Speaker 3: It's soft girl.

502
00:20:32,400 --> 00:20:35,160
Speaker 4: Yeah yeah, and it's like, yeah, my soft girl. It's

503
00:20:35,240 --> 00:20:37,399
Speaker 4: like I'm a singer and I am an influencer.

504
00:20:37,520 --> 00:20:37,760
Speaker 2: Y'all.

505
00:20:37,800 --> 00:20:39,639
Speaker 1: Hey, how hard was it to get rid of everything

506
00:20:39,640 --> 00:20:40,440
Speaker 1: on OnlyFans?

507
00:20:40,520 --> 00:20:41,040
Speaker 2: It wasn't.

508
00:20:41,119 --> 00:20:43,080
Speaker 4: I literally woke up one day and I said, I'm

509
00:20:43,119 --> 00:20:45,000
Speaker 4: sick of this, and then that at the same time

510
00:20:45,040 --> 00:20:45,800
Speaker 4: I said I'm sick of this.

511
00:20:46,000 --> 00:20:47,400
Speaker 2: Is when she was like, come on TikTok.

512
00:20:48,200 --> 00:20:50,159
Speaker 4: And at first night I did like eight hundred dollars

513
00:20:50,359 --> 00:20:52,520
Speaker 4: and I was like, what is this like? So I

514
00:20:52,640 --> 00:20:55,199
Speaker 4: just went to Only Fans and I just deleted it

515
00:20:55,480 --> 00:20:58,000
Speaker 4: and I posted I said I quit, and everybody.

516
00:20:57,600 --> 00:20:59,560
Speaker 2: Was like, oh, this is great.

517
00:21:00,080 --> 00:21:01,960
Speaker 4: This is I got the greatest reaction because it's like,

518
00:21:01,960 --> 00:21:03,399
Speaker 4: we never wanted you over there anyway.

519
00:21:03,400 --> 00:21:05,879
Speaker 2: We want you to sing, bitch, where's the music?

520
00:21:06,480 --> 00:21:09,520
Speaker 4: So I was happy about that because it puts me

521
00:21:09,520 --> 00:21:11,800
Speaker 4: in his space with like the stripping, and I don't

522
00:21:11,960 --> 00:21:14,359
Speaker 4: I'm not in that space. I'm not in that space

523
00:21:14,400 --> 00:21:16,960
Speaker 4: at all. I enjoyed, which, by the way, nothing wrong

524
00:21:17,040 --> 00:21:20,439
Speaker 4: with women. Oh no, I'll be tuning and booting it

525
00:21:20,480 --> 00:21:22,879
Speaker 4: and the music videos the ass is clapping and this

526
00:21:23,040 --> 00:21:25,600
Speaker 4: damn thing and I'll be singing. But it's different because

527
00:21:25,600 --> 00:21:28,280
Speaker 4: it's like, look at Sissy, look at Summer Walker right,

528
00:21:28,359 --> 00:21:30,560
Speaker 4: still be showing body. But it feels good to just

529
00:21:30,840 --> 00:21:33,240
Speaker 4: do what I love. It was just a moment at

530
00:21:33,280 --> 00:21:36,000
Speaker 4: a time in my life and I just look and

531
00:21:36,000 --> 00:21:38,000
Speaker 4: I'm like, I'm so proud of this, Like this is

532
00:21:38,040 --> 00:21:38,720
Speaker 4: a vibe.

533
00:21:38,880 --> 00:21:39,679
Speaker 2: I'm really happy.

534
00:21:39,840 --> 00:21:42,440
Speaker 1: And then another thing that I saw you talking about,

535
00:21:42,440 --> 00:21:45,120
Speaker 1: I think you did no jumper, Yes, and you were

536
00:21:45,320 --> 00:21:47,240
Speaker 1: you were saying that you have you're on medication.

537
00:21:47,680 --> 00:21:48,359
Speaker 2: Oh I'm off.

538
00:21:49,040 --> 00:21:51,320
Speaker 4: She took me off. The therapist took me completely off. Okay,

539
00:21:51,359 --> 00:21:53,920
Speaker 4: oh that shit, that's second week.

540
00:21:54,000 --> 00:21:55,439
Speaker 2: She was like no.

541
00:21:55,520 --> 00:21:59,080
Speaker 4: I was like, did you know what you're doing? Because

542
00:21:59,400 --> 00:22:02,440
Speaker 4: if I get off and I started tweaking, I'm coming

543
00:22:02,480 --> 00:22:05,800
Speaker 4: to yo. No, but she was just like, you don't

544
00:22:05,840 --> 00:22:06,600
Speaker 4: need it.

545
00:22:06,680 --> 00:22:08,639
Speaker 3: There is so what was the medication for?

546
00:22:09,320 --> 00:22:13,159
Speaker 2: Okay, I'm triggered, but that's why she taught me to aabb.

547
00:22:13,280 --> 00:22:16,880
Speaker 3: And what made you know? The doctor decided because she.

548
00:22:17,080 --> 00:22:19,960
Speaker 4: Asks questions and she says, you know what you're doing.

549
00:22:20,520 --> 00:22:23,359
Speaker 4: You know exactly what triggers. You be a grown up.

550
00:22:23,400 --> 00:22:26,080
Speaker 4: Pull up your girl panties like your grown woman panties,

551
00:22:26,119 --> 00:22:29,680
Speaker 4: and she was like, tell people your trigger buttons. What

552
00:22:29,720 --> 00:22:32,200
Speaker 4: you don't like, that's why you think you need medication.

553
00:22:32,240 --> 00:22:34,879
Speaker 4: The medication is not helping you because don't you steal spas.

554
00:22:34,920 --> 00:22:37,840
Speaker 4: I'm like yeah, She's like, it's you. So she took

555
00:22:37,920 --> 00:22:41,320
Speaker 4: me off and I've been off for four months okay,

556
00:22:41,640 --> 00:22:44,639
Speaker 4: and I'm like, I was like, she knows what she's

557
00:22:44,640 --> 00:22:45,080
Speaker 4: talking about.

558
00:22:45,160 --> 00:22:46,640
Speaker 3: Did you have bad side effects from it?

559
00:22:46,920 --> 00:22:50,879
Speaker 2: No, I've never been like a I don't know explain.

560
00:22:50,920 --> 00:22:53,320
Speaker 4: I just never been Like when I knew I want

561
00:22:53,359 --> 00:22:55,520
Speaker 4: to stop doing back then like drugs, I was like,

562
00:22:55,560 --> 00:22:57,359
Speaker 4: that's it, Like I don't want to.

563
00:22:57,920 --> 00:22:58,639
Speaker 2: This is not for me.

564
00:22:58,720 --> 00:23:01,399
Speaker 4: It's not right, it's not you do I've always and

565
00:23:01,480 --> 00:23:04,439
Speaker 4: she said that alone should tell you don't need it.

566
00:23:04,760 --> 00:23:07,640
Speaker 4: So I trusted her. And I'm not on nothing. I'm

567
00:23:07,680 --> 00:23:09,480
Speaker 4: on diets supplement for my diet.

568
00:23:09,600 --> 00:23:10,159
Speaker 2: That's about it.

569
00:23:10,200 --> 00:23:13,080
Speaker 4: And I take an asthma pump, but I don't take

570
00:23:13,119 --> 00:23:15,879
Speaker 4: the medication. And I understood what she You tell people,

571
00:23:15,960 --> 00:23:18,040
Speaker 4: even with like my ex when we had our moment

572
00:23:18,040 --> 00:23:20,600
Speaker 4: of talking, I was like, Hey, these are my boundaries.

573
00:23:20,680 --> 00:23:22,800
Speaker 4: I don't like being called this. I don't like this

574
00:23:23,000 --> 00:23:26,439
Speaker 4: and it works me. That's why I was speaking so angry.

575
00:23:26,440 --> 00:23:29,960
Speaker 4: People were not knowing that they're poking at things that.

576
00:23:29,840 --> 00:23:31,240
Speaker 2: They don't even have a clue.

577
00:23:31,240 --> 00:23:33,720
Speaker 4: That is trigger buttons because I'm not saying nothing because

578
00:23:33,720 --> 00:23:34,919
Speaker 4: I don't know my own trigger buttons.

579
00:23:35,359 --> 00:23:36,680
Speaker 3: So are you over him now?

580
00:23:37,320 --> 00:23:39,040
Speaker 2: I still love him in three years?

581
00:23:39,280 --> 00:23:39,560
Speaker 3: Right?

582
00:23:39,600 --> 00:23:40,840
Speaker 2: But is it over?

583
00:23:41,080 --> 00:23:41,199
Speaker 4: Like?

584
00:23:41,280 --> 00:23:42,880
Speaker 2: No going back? Because you was on a date?

585
00:23:43,359 --> 00:23:46,000
Speaker 1: You know the other night you said when Meghan caused you,

586
00:23:46,000 --> 00:23:48,080
Speaker 1: he was on a date so you couldn't answer the phone.

587
00:23:49,480 --> 00:23:50,399
Speaker 3: Who are you on a date with?

588
00:23:51,320 --> 00:23:56,920
Speaker 2: He was the date? Oh my god? Wow?

589
00:23:58,000 --> 00:23:59,840
Speaker 3: Well quep song toxic?

590
00:24:02,960 --> 00:24:07,040
Speaker 2: But it wasn't. Yeah, it was. It was my birthday angela. Okay.

591
00:24:07,160 --> 00:24:10,399
Speaker 4: The guy that I was talking to was terrible. I

592
00:24:10,480 --> 00:24:13,800
Speaker 4: was trying to move on for and he was just

593
00:24:13,840 --> 00:24:16,639
Speaker 4: like super shit. He's like, happy birthday, Johnny. I'm like,

594
00:24:16,760 --> 00:24:21,480
Speaker 4: here goes this sucker in me. But I'm glad because

595
00:24:21,760 --> 00:24:25,200
Speaker 4: I forgive people. I'm just in this space.

596
00:24:25,440 --> 00:24:27,040
Speaker 2: So when's the last time y'all have been on a date?

597
00:24:27,119 --> 00:24:29,440
Speaker 3: Now? Oh my god?

598
00:24:29,560 --> 00:24:31,560
Speaker 1: So all right, it's back on, is what you're saying?

599
00:24:31,800 --> 00:24:35,399
Speaker 1: No a B B girl, he come pick me up

600
00:24:35,760 --> 00:24:39,600
Speaker 1: and pick me up, right, after Johnny, listen, I'm gonna

601
00:24:39,600 --> 00:24:40,520
Speaker 1: tell you around loud.

602
00:24:40,960 --> 00:24:42,880
Speaker 4: Okay, So because some people will be like, no, that's

603
00:24:42,920 --> 00:24:44,879
Speaker 4: crazy Johnny, but all jokes aside.

604
00:24:44,920 --> 00:24:46,800
Speaker 2: No, let me be frough because I joke a lot.

605
00:24:48,440 --> 00:24:51,520
Speaker 4: I forgive him and I if I could, because he's

606
00:24:51,560 --> 00:24:55,840
Speaker 4: a good man. It's our mouths, you know what I'm saying, Like,

607
00:24:56,280 --> 00:24:59,200
Speaker 4: that's the problem with people break up and then they

608
00:24:59,200 --> 00:25:02,320
Speaker 4: don't see they broke up and if you can fix it,

609
00:25:02,400 --> 00:25:05,200
Speaker 4: everybody's not perfect. If you could fix it, cool, But

610
00:25:05,359 --> 00:25:07,680
Speaker 4: I just don't want the us to hate each other.

611
00:25:07,760 --> 00:25:08,719
Speaker 2: I think that's what it is.

612
00:25:08,840 --> 00:25:11,399
Speaker 4: Okay, it's a lot of love there, and it's just

613
00:25:11,960 --> 00:25:14,040
Speaker 4: I'm just in a maybe it's my soft girl era.

614
00:25:14,200 --> 00:25:18,480
Speaker 3: I really if you can learn from things, yeah, Like.

615
00:25:18,440 --> 00:25:20,800
Speaker 2: I really just really forgive people.

616
00:25:20,840 --> 00:25:22,360
Speaker 3: I just was extremely concerned.

617
00:25:22,640 --> 00:25:23,359
Speaker 2: Yeah I was.

618
00:25:23,440 --> 00:25:25,679
Speaker 4: I was hurt and that people weren't getting the reaction

619
00:25:25,760 --> 00:25:28,200
Speaker 4: they thought. They're like, she's not mad, she's not snapping

620
00:25:28,240 --> 00:25:31,320
Speaker 4: with Like, I don't. I'm in that space. I don't

621
00:25:31,359 --> 00:25:34,359
Speaker 4: want nobody to know anything but me singing and doing

622
00:25:34,480 --> 00:25:37,320
Speaker 4: music and doing what I love. And you know, I'll

623
00:25:37,320 --> 00:25:40,080
Speaker 4: speak here and there about things, but I just I'm

624
00:25:40,119 --> 00:25:44,080
Speaker 4: I'm in my bag. I see so many people being

625
00:25:44,119 --> 00:25:46,399
Speaker 4: successful and I've never a hat like I'm a type.

626
00:25:46,400 --> 00:25:47,920
Speaker 4: Like if we all in the same job, we're about

627
00:25:47,920 --> 00:25:49,439
Speaker 4: to win a ward and they win, I'm getting up

628
00:25:49,480 --> 00:25:51,120
Speaker 4: to and I'm clapping like for them.

629
00:25:51,520 --> 00:25:53,960
Speaker 2: I'm just in this space where I am determined.

630
00:25:54,080 --> 00:25:55,199
Speaker 3: You need to do what you need to do.

631
00:25:55,359 --> 00:25:56,919
Speaker 4: Yeah, I need to do I need to get on

632
00:25:56,920 --> 00:25:59,320
Speaker 4: this music shit. Like I got too much going on

633
00:25:59,760 --> 00:26:01,920
Speaker 4: and people watching me and I just you know.

634
00:26:02,480 --> 00:26:03,960
Speaker 3: Are you going back to TV anytime?

635
00:26:04,040 --> 00:26:05,919
Speaker 4: So I do movies now. I just did something with

636
00:26:05,920 --> 00:26:09,360
Speaker 4: Clifton Powell. I did another one called Sin the movie.

637
00:26:09,520 --> 00:26:10,520
Speaker 2: I just don't say nothing.

638
00:26:11,080 --> 00:26:13,560
Speaker 4: I don't know why I do that. You descend them

639
00:26:13,560 --> 00:26:15,959
Speaker 4: with Clifton pal Yes, it's a Christmas movie. We did

640
00:26:16,000 --> 00:26:17,520
Speaker 4: it a couple months ago. It was by accident. I

641
00:26:17,560 --> 00:26:19,879
Speaker 4: walked ouside my house and it was like Johnny, I'm like, hey,

642
00:26:20,119 --> 00:26:21,000
Speaker 4: they're like filming.

643
00:26:21,400 --> 00:26:25,199
Speaker 2: Sure, that's how that happened. Then it really happened like that.

644
00:26:25,240 --> 00:26:27,000
Speaker 4: I walked outside they was filming at the coffee shop

645
00:26:27,359 --> 00:26:28,679
Speaker 4: and they said, you want to be an extra? But

646
00:26:28,720 --> 00:26:31,359
Speaker 4: the extra turned in I'm somebody family member. I was

647
00:26:31,400 --> 00:26:34,520
Speaker 4: cool with it. So after that, then we did BT

648
00:26:34,600 --> 00:26:38,320
Speaker 4: plus this movie that's going to BT plus called Sin,

649
00:26:38,480 --> 00:26:41,879
Speaker 4: and then there's another one called Botch that's going to TV.

650
00:26:42,040 --> 00:26:44,239
Speaker 4: So I just be you never know that I did

651
00:26:44,240 --> 00:26:47,080
Speaker 4: the Pea Valley recently, and I'm just like, wow, I

652
00:26:47,119 --> 00:26:50,520
Speaker 4: was on Pea Valley Season two episode so I did that.

653
00:26:50,840 --> 00:26:53,280
Speaker 4: So but I'm still auditioning for things. And I'm just

654
00:26:53,320 --> 00:26:56,920
Speaker 4: speaking into existence. I'm just in my bag. I ain't

655
00:26:56,960 --> 00:26:59,400
Speaker 4: trying to I'm I don't have a plan, b because

656
00:26:59,440 --> 00:27:01,320
Speaker 4: if you have a plan, be like I told my friend,

657
00:27:01,320 --> 00:27:03,320
Speaker 4: and you didn't believe in your in a in the

658
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Speaker 4: first place.

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Speaker 3: And I think in general people tend to uh take

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Speaker 3: to you when they need to.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, you know what, God damn it, I think so too, Angela.

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Speaker 2: You know I'm a big my damn solf up. I'm

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Speaker 2: pretty cool. I'm a catch. I'm a catch, bitch.

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Speaker 1: And one thing about you is you gonna get to

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Speaker 1: your bag. You're gonna figure out ways to get that passive.

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Speaker 4: Tell your ass goddamn vis on your chest to say

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Speaker 4: I handmade it all right.

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Speaker 3: So again, September is that.

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Speaker 4: When September we're looking for September We're gonna just gonna

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Speaker 4: keep dropping singles here so I could build back the

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Speaker 4: momentum and just build my my my mental too as

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Speaker 4: well with my therapist.

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Speaker 2: She's so dope. I love you, doctor Lee. You're the

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Speaker 2: shit man.

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Speaker 3: Well, doctor Lee, no for real, like she's.

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Speaker 2: Oh man, amazing.

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Speaker 3: All right. Well, Johnny Blaze, thank you so much for

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Speaker 3: joining me.

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Speaker 2: Look, dope, I'm taking that mirror if you can, like.

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Speaker 1: I said, if you can carry that on your back,

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Speaker 1: then you can say that she didn't even come here

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Speaker 1: just like this, Johnny.

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Speaker 2: Blake, thank you so much. As pay for Angela, Yes,