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Speaker 1: Welcome back to Good Mom's Bad Choices America.

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Speaker 2: And I'm Mela.

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Speaker 3: And it's Wednesday.

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Speaker 2: Oh that was necessary.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, you know, let's try to work on my high

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Speaker 4: notes falsetto beautiful.

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Speaker 2: You're working on it for Beyonce?

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Speaker 4: Oh yeah, bitch, already No, and already we're gonna.

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Speaker 1: Need all the singing and dancing we can get this

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Speaker 1: month because the cosmos we're not lining up.

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Speaker 2: And here, Susan Miller says the same. October is due

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Speaker 2: to be a unique month that will not be easy

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Speaker 2: for any of us.

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Speaker 4: By the way, Susan Miller, if you guys don't know

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Speaker 4: who she is, I've talked about her before. She is

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Speaker 4: an astrologer that I've been following since I was a kid.

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Speaker 4: My mom was obsessed with her, and she'd be on

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Speaker 4: motherfucking point astrologyzone dot com.

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Speaker 3: So continue telling us how fucked up October it's.

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Speaker 1: Going to be. Not only you're still twenty, we still

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Speaker 1: have more than half the month. The planets will be

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Speaker 1: in a frenzy the likes of which I have rarely seen.

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Speaker 1: If you feel you've if you've seen enough surprises this year,

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Speaker 1: I am sorry to report that there'll be a slew

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Speaker 1: of them.

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Speaker 2: In October Fuck you Susan Warrior.

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Speaker 1: Mars is one of the prime instigators, but Surprise and

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Speaker 1: minute Uranus will play a leading part too. Saturn, Pluto,

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Speaker 1: and Mercury will stir the pot as well and add

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Speaker 1: to the turmoil. When the planets get this way, it

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Speaker 1: is because they want to shake up the status quote

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Speaker 1: and force us to confront languishing situations that many of

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Speaker 1: us would prefer not to address. As you see, there

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Speaker 1: is method in the planet's madness.

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Speaker 2: One thing you can rely.

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Speaker 1: On is that when planets are in a harsh angle

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Speaker 1: to each other, the universe brings in enormous energy so

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Speaker 1: that you can deal with what happens. The squares and

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Speaker 1: oppositions are the hard aspects, but they sure.

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Speaker 2: Do bring high energy.

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Speaker 1: The universe will always give you the tools you need

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Speaker 1: when it brings you a challenge.

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Speaker 3: Well, I hope. So I've been doing a lot of

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Speaker 3: heavy breathing.

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Speaker 1: I've been doing a lot of crying, a lot of

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Speaker 1: heavy breathing, and I've been a really on edge parent

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Speaker 1: and I've been really trying to lean on my baby

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Speaker 1: daddy like express that I need support, I need I'm

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Speaker 1: getting things in line and you know, for the usual

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Speaker 1: that falls on deaf ears. Meanwhile, every time he gets

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Speaker 1: his baby, he could drop her off at his mama's

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Speaker 1: house for zoom school, for Friday night, for Monday night.

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Speaker 2: Don't let me. I'm just like, why don't you just

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Speaker 2: help me?

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Speaker 1: You're just gonna drop her off anyway, right, but the

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Speaker 1: fuck anyway.

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Speaker 4: Sorry, I've been doing a lot of breathing too. I've

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Speaker 4: been I've been okay. I guess I've just been overwhelmed

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Speaker 4: with all the things that we are doing.

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Speaker 3: I'm doing in my other work. This apsed and then relationship.

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Speaker 3: I don't know.

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Speaker 5: If I realized the responsibility I was taking on being

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Speaker 5: a partner.

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Speaker 4: I mean, I get it, Yeah, Like, I don't know

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Speaker 4: if I realized the responsibility.

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Speaker 3: I don't know if I'm prepared. I'm not.

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Speaker 4: Some days are easy, some days are really challenging.

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Speaker 3: Currently it's been really challenging. And is it easier to

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Speaker 3: just be alone?

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Speaker 4: Like I think back like six months ago, when I

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Speaker 4: was alone and I was so like lonely, and I

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Speaker 4: wanted partnership, and like I wanted this person to come

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Speaker 4: and walk into my life.

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Speaker 3: Now he's here.

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Speaker 1: I think we want partnership as human beings a support system,

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Speaker 1: but then we rarely take an account for having to

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Speaker 1: be accountable for someone else's feelings. I didn't take an

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Speaker 1: account for if this doesn't work out, how is that

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Speaker 1: going to leave me feeling?

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Speaker 2: Just all the emotions that it requires.

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Speaker 3: Period.

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Speaker 1: It's just so much energy, you know, like even because

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Speaker 1: I have so much going on in my personal life

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Speaker 1: and then I like am breaking it broke up with

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Speaker 1: somebody or I got broken up with and that took

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Speaker 1: up so much of my energy. Like I was like,

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Speaker 1: I can't go on, I can't do anything. Nothing's working

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Speaker 1: out in my life, not love, nothing, and.

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Speaker 2: So it's just like so heavy. It's so heavy.

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Speaker 1: And I think the lesson in this is that we

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Speaker 1: really have to be sustainable on our own before I mean, I.

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Speaker 4: Just before we introducing other energies into the mix. No, no,

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Speaker 4: I totally yeah, I agree with that. I think that like,

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Speaker 4: relationships can be a wonderful distraction and they can also

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Speaker 4: be supportive. They can also feel like they're propelling you forward,

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Speaker 4: you know, but they can also feel like okay when

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Speaker 4: it ends any confusion, if you're not in a secure place,

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Speaker 4: it can totally disrupt, you.

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Speaker 3: Know what I mean.

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Speaker 4: No, I agree, I do think that, Like I feel

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Speaker 4: like I was ready in some ways for like a relationship,

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Speaker 4: Like I have stability in my life in some ways,

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Speaker 4: although like you know, it's it's all relative, Like yes,

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Speaker 4: I can pay my rent every month barely, but it happens,

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Speaker 4: and I have support and I have help, you know.

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Speaker 4: But there's also things, like I think emotionally that are

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Speaker 4: not all the way stable that I'm realizing, you know,

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Speaker 4: like me and my dude, Like we're texting yesterday, it

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Speaker 4: takes a lot to like make me curse you the

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Speaker 4: fuck out. I went back and read my text and

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Speaker 4: I wasn't that nice.

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Speaker 3: It wasn't that nice.

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Speaker 2: I need to see these texts.

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Speaker 3: I wasn't that nice, but I was.

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Speaker 4: It was more so like a cry to like leave

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Speaker 4: me the fuck alone right now. This is me, This

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Speaker 4: is this is me needing space, and you're you're we

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Speaker 4: keep going. And so therefore now I'm like, now I've

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Speaker 4: lost it. Not lost it. I wouldn't say I lost it,

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Speaker 4: but like now I'm like out of in some way,

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Speaker 4: out of like my character the character that I think

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Speaker 4: I should be when I'm upset, like I know, like

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Speaker 4: back in the day, like I used to have these

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Speaker 4: epic ass arguments with my ex, like I didn't even know,

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Speaker 4: Like I look back on those days, I don't even

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Speaker 3: Was screaming, throwing shit, beating each other up.

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Speaker 2: It was that the kind of person he was.

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Speaker 1: You have to keep in mind too, that who you

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Speaker 1: are can change energetically by who you partner up with.

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Speaker 1: You will you will someone can bring out the worst

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Speaker 1: shit in you that you didn't even know existed. You

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Speaker 1: have to really be aware of someone, Like you could

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Speaker 1: part of you either.

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Speaker 3: Oh no, I definitely see that.

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Speaker 4: I think about like even with Happy Bay, Like I

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Speaker 4: felt like I feel different in every relationship and then

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Speaker 4: I'm like, but I know, I'm like the root of

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Speaker 4: who I am is the same. But most I mean

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Speaker 4: some people, that's that's not possible. Like they are there,

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Speaker 4: They're always different in every relationship.

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Speaker 3: But I don't know. I just feel like.

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Speaker 4: I my patience has been, it's been, and I'm so

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Speaker 4: focused on like I think I was telling you, was

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Speaker 4: I telling you this?

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Speaker 3: Yeah, I was telling you this.

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Speaker 4: Like the other day we were sitting out there that

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Speaker 4: like I hear you that I recently, Like I was

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Speaker 4: like I don't know, Like I think she was looking

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Speaker 4: this moment where like, of course I know as a

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Speaker 4: parent that it's my responsibility to be.

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Speaker 3: Able to take care of my child and that like.

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Speaker 4: I'm working for her essentially she's my boss, but also

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Speaker 4: like I want her to have this a great life.

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Speaker 4: But like there's like this, there's like this transition from

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Speaker 4: the selfishness part, it takes a while to like undo,

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Speaker 4: like all the thing like when I go, like when

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Speaker 4: I make money, I want to go shopping for myself

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Speaker 3: Kid, you know.

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Speaker 4: And I'm not I'm past that those things, but those

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Speaker 4: were things I had to learn, like to be mindful

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Speaker 4: that you like you don't just automatically wake up one

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Speaker 4: and that's.

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Speaker 1: Cool, but sometimes with that you have to learn to

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Speaker 1: bag back too. There it goes both ways. Becoming a

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Speaker 4: But then, so I was looking at her and I

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Speaker 4: had this thought of, like, if I died right now today,

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Speaker 4: at this very moment, what do I have to leave her?

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Speaker 4: Would she be okay? If it was just on me,

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Speaker 3: Would she be okay? No, she would not be okay.

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Speaker 4: And I like, I was like, oh my god, I

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Speaker 4: have to work ten times harder. I'm not making enough money.

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Speaker 4: Like I suddenly got like so overwhelmed and like sad,

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Speaker 4: and I was like, oh my god, I'm thirty two

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Speaker 4: and I don't have enough money to like eat, Like

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Speaker 4: I don't even know. I don't enough money to move

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Speaker 3: Like you know, I'm like, I'm a fan. You're at

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Speaker 3: thirty two, I'm supposed to, you know.

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Speaker 4: But I also know that I'm working incredibly hard and

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Speaker 4: seeing results towards that and doing what I love, you know,

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Speaker 4: So I try to be I'm just like okay, could

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Speaker 3: You're okay, We're okay.

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Speaker 4: But it just made me think like I don't have time.

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Speaker 3: To be worried about dumb shit.

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Speaker 4: It's true, like and I don't want and I don't

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Speaker 4: want to say dumb shit like other people's feelings don't matter,

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Speaker 4: but like if it's not working, then maybe like we

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Speaker 4: this fear talking? Or like do I really feel this way?

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Speaker 4: Because I'm so hyper focused on providing a legacy for

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Speaker 4: me and my children? Like I also, but I also

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Speaker 4: want to do that with someone you know.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I agree, girl, I get it one hundred percent.

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Speaker 1: And it is an overwhelming thought that somebody is solely

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Speaker 1: responsible on you responsible. You're they're respond we're responsible to them,

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Speaker 1: and I guess it never feels like you're I mean,

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Speaker 1: I know we're working towards something, but it just feels like, fuck,

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Speaker 1: am I I'm not where I'm supposed to be.

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Speaker 2: I don't know why who.

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Speaker 1: Wrote that thirty two was like sixty five, but you know,

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Speaker 1: like we're so adults and.

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Speaker 4: Now I'm turning thirty three this month. But if someone

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Speaker 4: was like that, you're Jesus here, I was like, I

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Speaker 4: don't feel like Jesus was right, which I'm like, well, Jesus,

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Speaker 2: Hell.

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Speaker 3: I'm like, you know what, Jesus didn't need shit.

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Speaker 4: Maybe it is my Jesus here and I should get

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Speaker 4: the fuck out of here and go live like Jesus

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Speaker 3: And some of it is like good and some of

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Speaker 2: Right?

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Speaker 3: Like I don't know. It's interesting.

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Speaker 4: It's interesting to see because he is so much more

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Speaker 3: But yes, what were we talking about? I'm high.

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Speaker 2: Energy, becoming becoming stronger women, give.

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Speaker 4: Me stronger women, yes, and kids and struggle then depending

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Speaker 2: Do we need a boyfriend?

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Speaker 1: That is what we were talking about life is hard.

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Speaker 1: Do you really need that relationship?

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Speaker 3: Do you need a relationship or not?

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Speaker 4: I know, it's like you, it's it's and everyone everyone

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Speaker 3: It's like you asked for it and then it's here,

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Speaker 4: You're like a lot, a lot of responsibilities.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, can you reach orange juice and poor orange juice?

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Speaker 2: No drinks and water where it's accessible.

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Speaker 3: I don't know what her little ear rings right now?

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Speaker 2: Take them out. I think it's adding to her sat.

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Speaker 3: She looks so grown. I can't take it. She's already.

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Speaker 3: Did I just do that?

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Speaker 4: Did I just do the thing that we say we're

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Speaker 1: Fuck?

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Speaker 2: She looks like.

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Speaker 4: A teenager, looks older. We'll be more specific.

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Speaker 1: You get to see her teenage face coming through with

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Speaker 3: Yeah, but she looks like you, I know, because you

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Speaker 3: look young anyway, you guys.

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Speaker 4: Oh side note, just to switch because I am excited

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Speaker 4: so we can have two weeks. Oh my god, it's

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Speaker 4: coming up on October twenty fifth. We are doing a

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Speaker 4: drive in movie event with Outside Cinemas in downtown LA

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Speaker 4: and we are watching Hokey Pokeys, which is.

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Speaker 3: One of my favorite.

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Speaker 2: Movies mine too. Wait, is Coco already.

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Speaker 3: Coco sold out?

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Speaker 4: You've already lost your chance. They know more Cocos.

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Speaker 2: But bring your kids or don't bring your kids.

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Speaker 4: I think I'm not gonna bring Iri to Hocus Pocus

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Speaker 4: Cocoa and me too get witchy at Hocus.

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Speaker 2: Yes, I'm gonna get witchy at Hoka. Everybody else if

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Speaker 2: you want to be your kids, it's fine though.

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Speaker 4: No, it's totally fine, but we just won't have ours.

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Speaker 4: But go check out there's a link in our bio

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Speaker 2: Yeah, outside cinemas dot com.

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Speaker 3: Okay, outside cinemas dot com.

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Speaker 4: Fucking because I saw that Shopify thing and then I

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Speaker 4: wasn't sure if it was net Calm.

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Speaker 3: I don't know what the fuck anyway.

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Speaker 4: Also vote, also vote, Also vote, you guys.

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Speaker 3: Vote.

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Speaker 1: I've heard the LA District Attorney is like in California

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Speaker 1: can change this year if we really put our minds

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Speaker 1: to it, And apparently that's really important.

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Speaker 2: Feel more strongly about government at a local level.

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Speaker 4: No, I mean that's true, absolutely, Like, actually, that's where

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Speaker 4: it actually matters, because that's where the changes you see

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Speaker 4: your neighborhoods. Because this president shit is important. Where we

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Speaker 4: have even more impact right now is at the ground level. Anyway,

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Speaker 4: there's a lot of resources where you can look up

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Speaker 4: things and figure out what what are like the best

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Speaker 4: voting options based.

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Speaker 3: On your morals, your goals.

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Speaker 4: The things that are important to you, and that you

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Speaker 4: can find out how to vote because, let's be honest, like,

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Speaker 4: voting can be super fucking overwhelming. You open like I

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Speaker 4: got the voting mailer guide and the shit is like long,

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Speaker 4: I'd be high. I'm like, does this make sense? The

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Speaker 2: For Gaskin for District attorney.

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Speaker 3: Oh Gaskin.

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Speaker 4: If you want to change how your city operates, functions, protects, serves,

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Speaker 4: you have to know who you're voting for, who the

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Speaker 3: Like these are things you should know. You should know

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Speaker 4: Don't wait till you get to the poll to make

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Speaker 4: it do a guessing game. I swear like that's essentially

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Speaker 4: what people do when they vote. They literally just like

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Speaker 4: fill out, like I like that name. Ooh she sounds nice.

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Speaker 4: Oh Democrat, yep, Democrat Democrat, no question about it. And

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Speaker 4: I just want to empower you guys to be empowered

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Speaker 3: Just there's people in your city, like leaders.

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Speaker 4: Of the community that have guides on their Instagram that

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Speaker 4: tell you, you know who they would recommend, positions of

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Speaker 4: power props, all those things to help you out. So shit,

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Speaker 4: if I if I only I have like a master

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Speaker 3: I have the link for California.

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Speaker 4: So if you live in California and you California or

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Speaker 4: LA also, some of these things differ based on like

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Speaker 4: you know. But there are some like general ones that

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Speaker 3: Shout out to my.

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Speaker 4: Cousin DaVita Williams. Follow her on Instagram. She's really cool.

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Speaker 4: She's an inspiration. She was also on Lizzie Maguire.

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Speaker 1: It wasn't Luxiper her DaVita, she would yeah, hilarious and.

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Speaker 3: She's done tons of other stuff. She's like a real

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Speaker 4: So wait, the other day I went and got so

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Speaker 4: you guys, I started this app called Circle Black, and

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Speaker 4: so it's a service providing app where people like nail

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Speaker 4: my app Circle Black. Basically, it's like open Tables for

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Speaker 4: black services. So if you're living in you know, Dallas, Texas,

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Speaker 4: the black nail texts in your city, all the black

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Speaker 4: makeup artists. I mean, I don't know about you, but

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Speaker 4: like sometimes you know, you travel and you want to

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Speaker 4: been taking applications and one of the girls had applied

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Speaker 4: and she actually is a listener. Her name is Brandy.

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Speaker 4: Shout out to Brandy. She have total total body spa

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Speaker 4: Hi Brandy. Yeah, she's an Inglewood. And she did this

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Speaker 4: I guess like fat melting service. Like it's like a

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Speaker 3: I can't remember what the fuck it's called.

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Speaker 4: Some shit where she rubbed something on me and it

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Speaker 4: made weird sounds and warmed up my fat and.

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Speaker 3: Supposed to make it disappear.

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Speaker 4: I have to go a few times more than once, okay,

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Speaker 4: but I do.

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Speaker 3: Thanks, Thanks Brandy.

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Speaker 4: So she was she was like, I listened to the

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Speaker 4: podcast and I'm like, oh shit, and I was like,

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Speaker 4: oh my god, you have to listen to I was like,

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Speaker 4: I have this horry and then I was like, I'm

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Speaker 4: going to read it to you.

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Speaker 3: I read her horri live.

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Speaker 4: I felt like I felt like I was reading like

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Speaker 4: a bookook as she's like melting my fat.

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Speaker 3: I'm like, this horror story.

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Speaker 2: Is provided so silly? Wait was it this one?

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Speaker 3: Yes?

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Speaker 1: So after politics and stuff, here's a horry.

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Speaker 3: Politics and sex. Who stories? You gonna read it? Okay?

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Speaker 3: All right.

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Speaker 4: The title of this horry is called Happy Squirrel Day.

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Speaker 4: So I recently cut my baby daddy off and started

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Speaker 4: fucking my best friend, who I call bestie Bae. I

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Speaker 4: must have manifested the ship because he's everything I wanted

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Speaker 4: my beauty to be and more. Bestie Bay is all

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Speaker 4: about pleasing me, and he ain't scared of a little

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Speaker 4: period blood like beauty, he won't get the job done

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Speaker 4: by any means wet emoji.

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Speaker 3: So yesterday was a holiday for me. It was the

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Speaker 3: first time I squirted.

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Speaker 4: Hey, here's what happened. I got off work early and

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Speaker 4: went over to his house. When I walked in the door,

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Speaker 4: he greeted me with a kiss and handed me a

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Speaker 4: blunt and a mixed tequila drink.

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Speaker 3: Thank you. Yes.

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Speaker 4: I relaxed on the couch while he rubbed my feet

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Speaker 4: and listened to me talk about my day. He then

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Speaker 4: smacked my ass and told me it was time for

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Speaker 4: us to lay in bed. I said, okay, damn near

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Speaker 4: skip to the bedroom. I got naked, and he immediately

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Speaker 4: went to town, eating my pussy like he was starving.

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Speaker 4: All while he was eating my pussy, I noticed that

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Speaker 4: I was not one hundred percent relaxed, so I started.

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Speaker 3: Taking deep, long breaths. The deep breaths.

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Speaker 4: The deep breaths were turning me on even more, and

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Speaker 4: now I was in tune with my body and the

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Speaker 4: pleasures I was receiving these children in the background. Wait, see,

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Speaker 4: you guys are definitely in the other room. I definitely

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Speaker 4: felt that shit. It was weird because I felt like

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Speaker 4: I was having an out of body the experience, and

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Speaker 4: I was now about to coach myself.

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Speaker 3: To this orgasm.

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Speaker 4: With the deep, long breathing, I became more and more relaxed.

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Speaker 4: He was still eating my pussy magically, and suddenly I

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Speaker 4: felt the urge to release. In that moment, I legit

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Speaker 4: said to myself, let go, and my pussy started running

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Speaker 4: like a faucet. I mean, that shit was non stop.

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Speaker 4: I screamed so loud I left. I felt like I

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Speaker 4: was peeing and I had no control, and that man

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Speaker 4: kept on going. I felt like I was on a

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Speaker 4: I felt like I was on a cloud. Like he

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Speaker 4: was drinking my juices with a smoothie straw smooth Yes,

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Speaker 4: I don't know about that reference. I got a weird

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Speaker 4: I got a weird visual. Okay, what I got a

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Speaker 4: visual of.

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Speaker 3: Like a straw on top, like with the next to

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Speaker 3: my pussy. Okay, I get what you mean.

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Speaker 4: Carltho'm sorry, I mean to interrupt your flow. He got up,

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Speaker 4: smacked my ass and said let's take a shot. We

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Speaker 4: took a shot, and that man took me back to

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Speaker 4: the room and murdered my pussy.

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Speaker 3: Okay.

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Speaker 4: I love it here and I'm never going back. Thanks

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Speaker 4: to episode one, those tips really helped.

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Speaker 3: Xoxo Squirtle.

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Speaker 2: That was beautiful. Yeah, shout out to click talk.

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Speaker 4: Yeah episode. What was the name of the episode? I

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Speaker 4: got pregnant a sex club.

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Speaker 2: I got pregnant at a sex party.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, I got.

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Speaker 2: That's a great title. Yeah. I I had a story,

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Speaker 2: but I'm gonna save it for next time.

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Speaker 4: Oh okay, okay, we'll share it. Yeah, we'll say that thing.

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Speaker 2: Well, we've got to go. We have twelve minutes before

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Speaker 2: our next thing.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, we're okay, don't worry.

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Speaker 2: We're doing okay over here fairly, but it's we're okay.

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Speaker 2: We're becoming stronger women.

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Speaker 3: Super super duper strong.

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Speaker 1: We're super Strong's silent cry for help, blink twice.

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Speaker 2: We are strong. We're not cracking at all, doing great

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Speaker 2: over here. Nothing is going wrong, perfect.

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