WEBVTT - “I TAKE THE BUS 3 HOURS TO DAVE AND BUSTERS”

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<v Speaker 1>Hello, Hello, Hey, what's up? Where are you? Where are

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<v Speaker 1>you right now? I'm hearing some like stuff in the background.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh it needed me. I accidentally touched my cheek.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh hello, yeah, hey, I can what's know? What's up? Man?

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<v Speaker 1>What's going on? Where are you right now? You sound

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<v Speaker 1>like you're at a place.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I'm at a hospital right now.

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<v Speaker 1>You're at a hospital right now? Are you working there?

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<v Speaker 1>Or are you dying?

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<v Speaker 2>I'm a friend of somebody who's dying.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh, oh, dear, I.

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<v Speaker 2>Guess almost died, almost died.

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<v Speaker 1>They're good now, Okay, that's just a big difference this.

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<v Speaker 1>Are they dying? Well, I guess we're all dying. But

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<v Speaker 1>are they well? How are you your friends?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh, they're good now. They had like a tear in

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<v Speaker 2>their brain from a car accident that happened years ago.

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<v Speaker 2>And then oh yet super stressed recently and had like

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<v Speaker 2>a seizure.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh good now they're chilling now, yeah, they're chilling now. Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>what what's your relationship to them? How do you know

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<v Speaker 1>this person?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh? I'm dating their daughter.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh, this is your this is your girlfriend's father, mom, mother,

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<v Speaker 1>This is your girlfriend's mom. Yeah, and how's she she's

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<v Speaker 1>doing okay, yeah, yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>It happened like a couple of days ago. They're just

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<v Speaker 2>what is it? The dad asked to have her over

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<v Speaker 2>like an extra day or two, so they're observing her,

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<v Speaker 2>and she's.

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<v Speaker 1>Going, all right, all right, cool, how's your girlfriend? How's

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<v Speaker 1>your girlfriend? I'm I'm here's the thing, and here I

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<v Speaker 1>guess why I'm I am going to assume that I

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<v Speaker 1>guess it's easy to assume that your girlfriend's mom is

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<v Speaker 1>doing okay, because if she wasn't, I'm going to assume

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<v Speaker 1>you're a good enough boyfriend that you wouldn't be on

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<v Speaker 1>the phone with the therapy gecko in this moment if

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<v Speaker 1>your girlfriend's mom was in horrible pain right now.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, No, she's she's doing wonderful. Okay, my girlfriend, she

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<v Speaker 2>was trusted first, but she's you know, cause she's all

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<v Speaker 2>stabilized now and thinks they're good yesterday. But yeah, so

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<v Speaker 2>it should be all right, should be all.

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<v Speaker 3>Right for now?

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<v Speaker 2>For now?

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<v Speaker 1>Is your girlfriend there with you in the hospital?

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<v Speaker 2>She is? Actually?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, where where is? Where are you are you in

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<v Speaker 1>like a hallway or are you in the hospital room?

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<v Speaker 1>Like where are you taking this phone call from?

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<v Speaker 2>I'm in I'm in a hallway that's like a cross

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<v Speaker 2>from their room.

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<v Speaker 1>M okay, okay, what are you How long have you

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<v Speaker 1>been at this hospital? For so far.

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<v Speaker 2>Personally it's been like a what time are they in it?

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<v Speaker 2>I'd say like two and a half hours.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, Well, well well let's well let me do this.

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<v Speaker 1>What's your name, by.

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<v Speaker 2>The way, Angel?

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<v Speaker 1>Angel?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>Well Angel? I mean we could keep just chit chatting,

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<v Speaker 1>but uh, I guess before we do that, I'll ask

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<v Speaker 1>you if there's anything in particular that you called in

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<v Speaker 1>to talk about.

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, I've got I've got two things I'll that

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<v Speaker 2>you choose. They both have like a bit of context.

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<v Speaker 2>When I was seven, I got legally kidnapped by my

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<v Speaker 2>grandparents mm hmm. And then there's I financially supported two

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<v Speaker 2>people for about four years to find out recently that

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<v Speaker 2>apparently like halfway through they cheated on me the entire time.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh my god, we got we gotta all.

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<v Speaker 1>Right, Well, well talk to me here. What's the most

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<v Speaker 1>What's I'm curious? I mean about your life presently. I

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<v Speaker 1>guess which of these things is more present for you.

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<v Speaker 2>I'd probably have to say the getting cheated on and say,

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<v Speaker 2>listen me with like an eight point four thousand dollars

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<v Speaker 2>bill for the apartment.

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<v Speaker 1>Jeez.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, but I mean like I worked it out, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>just got to deal with the bill.

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<v Speaker 1>I suppose, uh yeah, man, what happened?

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<v Speaker 2>Ah? So, like, oh man, starting in Colorado, I suppose

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<v Speaker 2>went from Colorado, we moved to Oregon. And I've known

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<v Speaker 2>this lady, this chick name since I was like fourteen.

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<v Speaker 1>We're gonna bleep that maybe we're gonna bleep that we're

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<v Speaker 1>gonna call her, uh, Lorraine so that everyone can assume

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<v Speaker 1>that you're dating an eighty five year old woman.

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<v Speaker 2>All right, all right, Lorae, you're right, You're right, Lorette.

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<v Speaker 2>So I've known Lorene since I was like fourteen, and

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<v Speaker 2>was it. We started officially dating like seventeen. We move

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<v Speaker 2>out together and like first six months is all right,

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<v Speaker 2>she's hold them down a job, you know, she's doing

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<v Speaker 2>all right. I meet some of her friends, her friends,

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<v Speaker 2>and I we all move out to an apartment together.

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<v Speaker 2>We do that for like six months, and the original

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<v Speaker 2>plan was like I was gonna move to Maine with

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<v Speaker 2>Larat and they were like, no, what's uh, Let's go

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<v Speaker 2>with the roommates in the Oregon because one of the roommates. Oh,

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<v Speaker 2>grandma had like dementia and they moved her Grandma of

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<v Speaker 2>the Oregon and she was like, you know, my mom

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<v Speaker 2>will pay for it. She's well off. She's got like

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<v Speaker 2>what is it called, like dead people money inheritance. There

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<v Speaker 2>you go. So we're like, okay, you know, I don't

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<v Speaker 2>really know where we're going to get, no plan. Like

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<v Speaker 2>I know, I was iffy on it, but I was like,

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<v Speaker 2>all right, you know, if you want to do it, Loraine,

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<v Speaker 2>you got this. So we move on over there and

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<v Speaker 2>maybe around like twenty twenty one, twenty two, I think

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<v Speaker 2>twenty twenty one, and I was one of the first

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<v Speaker 2>ones to get a job. Lorraine almost the entire time

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<v Speaker 2>did not have a job, so doesn't have a job.

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<v Speaker 2>But we're still like working through it. And there's one

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<v Speaker 2>time I'm like, hey, like Lorraine, I'm not gonna lie

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<v Speaker 2>you do they need to like make rent by the

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<v Speaker 2>end of this month or no, I give it like

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<v Speaker 2>three months. I was like, in three months you kind

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<v Speaker 2>of need to like start making rent.

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<v Speaker 1>Or how how old are you guys? At this point

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<v Speaker 1>I was.

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<v Speaker 2>I'd like to say eighteen or nineteen.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh wow, geez, So how old is she at the

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<v Speaker 1>same age.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, yeah, we're like a month apart.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, all right, so I mean yeah, so you guys

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<v Speaker 1>are like really doing it at the fresh eighteen.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh yeah, No, seventeen is when we originally moved out.

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<v Speaker 2>But eighteen we moved out of the state, and I

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<v Speaker 2>was pretty just locked in financially, right, it gets to

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<v Speaker 2>a point where I'm covering her rent and mine and

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<v Speaker 2>that's like fourteen hundred and then I'm also helping Okay,

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<v Speaker 2>what's his name, I'm.

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<v Speaker 1>Gonna go, well, that's I mean, that's yeah, that's wild

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<v Speaker 1>to be doing that so young.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I mean I've I've been working since I was

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<v Speaker 2>like fourteen, so it's nothing new.

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<v Speaker 1>Mm hm.

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<v Speaker 2>But uh yeah. I locked in on that, like I

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<v Speaker 2>got my g D. I kind of I was up

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<v Speaker 2>in Maine for a bit and then I came over

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<v Speaker 2>to help her out. That's the Colorado and then moving

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<v Speaker 2>into Oregon. It was a domino effect and so what

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<v Speaker 2>is it? Yeah, I basically do all that support them

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<v Speaker 2>cover I'm gonna call them Zach cover Zach's bills as well.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, who's who is Zach?

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<v Speaker 2>Zach is a fan a least name that I made

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<v Speaker 2>for the guy she cheated on me with.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, wait, but so why are you Okay, so you

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<v Speaker 1>so you're living in a So you're eighteen, you're living

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<v Speaker 1>with your eighteen year old girlfriend and some guy, uh.

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<v Speaker 2>Some not some guy. It's also same roommates that we

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<v Speaker 2>had an Oregon. I mean in Colorado, we have an Oregon.

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<v Speaker 2>Now we're not right now, but like when.

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<v Speaker 1>We okay, so you your girlfriend and so okay, so

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<v Speaker 1>you and your girlfriend and these roommates all moved together

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<v Speaker 1>to uh Orgon from from Colorado. Yeah, and we're like, okay,

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<v Speaker 1>so now you're so you're financially so you're eighteen years

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<v Speaker 1>old and you're financially supporting the whole fucking house.

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<v Speaker 2>No, no, just Lorraine and Zach.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, why are you support Why are you financially supporting Zach?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh? Well, he was like, oh, there was a bad

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<v Speaker 2>choice at the time, but it was like he was

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<v Speaker 2>like I considered him kind of like a little brother figure,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, because I related to a lot of the

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<v Speaker 2>issues he had because through like a bunch of physical abuse,

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<v Speaker 2>he was a little held back, like kind of mentally.

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<v Speaker 2>So I'm like, you know, I kind of I pitied

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<v Speaker 2>him a little bit, and I felt bad for him.

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<v Speaker 2>Its like I knew how rough it was, so yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, I got you a little bit. You know,

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<v Speaker 2>I'll get you here and there, like so much so

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<v Speaker 2>that I did genuinely consider him to be a little brother.

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<v Speaker 2>And like, near the end of that whole renting thing,

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<v Speaker 2>we're going to move into a separate place, which we did,

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<v Speaker 2>but then he ended up on my phone plan as well,

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<v Speaker 2>so I was paying for his phone bill and uh,

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<v Speaker 2>paying for her phone bill as well. Yeah, and then

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<v Speaker 2>what is it. We're moving to this new apartment and

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<v Speaker 2>she's having issue again. But we moved out of the

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<v Speaker 2>like we moved away from the other roommates, and we

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<v Speaker 2>moved into this new apartment with a different roommate, and

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<v Speaker 2>we're clutching up a little bit. Except Lorraine loses their job,

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<v Speaker 2>Zach loses their job, and then the other roommate also

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<v Speaker 2>loses their job, and it's just me and I'm making, like,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, fourteen hundred a month. I can't cover like

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<v Speaker 2>two point one k phil, So I'm struggling. I'm struggling.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm like, guys, I don't know if we can you know,

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<v Speaker 2>if this is sustainable.

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<v Speaker 1>Well wait, so you were making fourteen hundred dollars a month,

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<v Speaker 1>how were you even covered? How were you even like

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<v Speaker 1>making enough to like support I mean, I mean, damn,

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<v Speaker 1>like fourteen hundred a month, Like, how are you even making?

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<v Speaker 1>That's like barely I guess enough to even support yourself,

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<v Speaker 1>let alone like two other people.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, No, it was tough. It was tough. I just

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<v Speaker 2>had to Like it's fourteen hundred a month. I'm not

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<v Speaker 2>like trying too hard, but I'd say it was around

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<v Speaker 2>maybe like sixteen eighteen two k if I was really

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<v Speaker 2>able to pick up enough shifts because I was like

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<v Speaker 2>working at a David Blusters fixing up games. Oh and

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<v Speaker 2>then the travel time was crazy. It was like an

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<v Speaker 2>hour and a half, almost two hours to get to

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<v Speaker 2>my job too each way. And yeah, yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>And you're and you're doing and you're doing all of

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<v Speaker 1>this at eighteen you're driving, You're you're doing three hour

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<v Speaker 1>commute every fucking day.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, to make and I'd be closing, so it'd be

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<v Speaker 2>like icy, and oh it'd be terrible. It'd be like

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<v Speaker 2>one thirty am and I'm walking it's like windy, it's icy.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm like, all right, you know what though, like I

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<v Speaker 2>like the job, I like fixing games, I like electricians work.

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<v Speaker 2>So you know, I was suffering for an alright cause

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<v Speaker 2>because I enjoyed it.

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<v Speaker 1>Damn dude, what can where can I?

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<v Speaker 2>Well?

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<v Speaker 1>I have a couple quick. I want to hear the

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<v Speaker 1>rest of your story, but I just I want to

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<v Speaker 1>butt in with like two questions. How old are you?

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<v Speaker 1>How old are you now? How old do you know?

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<v Speaker 2>I turned twenty one in March.

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<v Speaker 1>You turn twenty one in March. Yeah, I thought you

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<v Speaker 1>were like at least seven years older than me. Honest

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<v Speaker 1>to god, No, you have You have the march. You

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<v Speaker 1>have the demeanor and the the ethics of someone who

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<v Speaker 1>I thought was at least thirty nine years old.

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<v Speaker 2>I appreciate that. A lot of people tell me I

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<v Speaker 2>have a lot of restraint. Like it was me and

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<v Speaker 2>my it was me and your situation. I would have

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<v Speaker 2>been like airing the place. They're like starting fights, and

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<v Speaker 2>I'm like, yeah, I'm just too tired for that. You know,

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<v Speaker 2>HEEZU are kidnapped?

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<v Speaker 1>Who the fuck are you?

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<v Speaker 2>Man?

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<v Speaker 1>You're what what kind of what's up with your uh?

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<v Speaker 1>What's up with your parents? Like? Where were they at

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<v Speaker 1>the time?

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<v Speaker 2>My mom is a main and she's dealing with like

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<v Speaker 2>another two siblings that I got. My dad's he's a deadbeat,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, deadbie dad type situation.

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<v Speaker 1>Mm hmm.

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<v Speaker 2>And uh, you know, my mom's trying to she was

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<v Speaker 2>trying to start up her own business. I was helping

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<v Speaker 2>her out with that, which is part of the reason

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<v Speaker 2>why I was working at fourteen. Well no, because when

0:13:20.679 --> 0:13:23.080
<v Speaker 2>I met her, I was like sixteen. So when I

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<v Speaker 2>was working at fourteen, it was more like gang activity.

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<v Speaker 2>But then I moved to Maine started helping my mom out,

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<v Speaker 2>and I turned into like cleaning airbnbs and construction work

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<v Speaker 2>and poring and stuff like that.

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<v Speaker 1>Shit man, all right, summer stuff. All right, so you're eighteen, Uh,

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<v Speaker 1>your you move out, You're supporting your girlfriends and uh

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<v Speaker 1>uh this other guy you're driving three hours back and

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<v Speaker 1>forth to work bubblic transport. Oh you're taking You're taken

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<v Speaker 1>the fucking bus. Your walking and taking the fucking bus

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<v Speaker 1>to a day buster an hour and a half. Yeah, but.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh sorry, sorry. One time I ended up closing and

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<v Speaker 2>I didn't have a ride, so I had to walk

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<v Speaker 2>the ten miles. When it is funny, it was like

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<v Speaker 2>one thirty am and I'm just walking all the way

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<v Speaker 2>from from clack Toggresham. That one was nice.

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<v Speaker 1>I genuinely I feel I feel like such a baby

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<v Speaker 1>talking to you right now. I really do, I really do.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know if you get that very often, but

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<v Speaker 1>I feel like a baby.

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<v Speaker 2>Please don't. I've been wanting to call you for years,

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<v Speaker 2>like I actually I called you one time and I

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<v Speaker 2>made it to the wait list. I think in like

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<v Speaker 2>twenty twenty one. When I first moved into the apartment

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<v Speaker 2>in Colorado, I got rejected because it was a dumb

0:14:52.760 --> 0:14:54.720
<v Speaker 2>reason though it was really dumb. I was like, what

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<v Speaker 2>about streaming? And I was like, no that everybody asks that,

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<v Speaker 2>so well.

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<v Speaker 1>Mist well here let me. I want to hear the

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<v Speaker 1>rest of your stories. So you're okay, You're you're you're eighteen,

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<v Speaker 1>you're the Dave and Buster's hero, You're taking the bus,

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<v Speaker 1>You're walking home in the rain. What, uh yeah? But ahead.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah. So then we move into this other apartment with

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<v Speaker 2>the other rooms, right, everybody loses their job. Nikkia's packing

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<v Speaker 2>stuff and I'm I'm a little autistic, Right, she's packing stuff.

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<v Speaker 2>She just moved from like her room into the loft

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<v Speaker 2>and She's like, I don't know, it's just cluttering, and

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<v Speaker 2>I'm kind of a minimalist, so I was like, no, honestly,

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<v Speaker 2>I get that. I didn't think of anything of it

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<v Speaker 2>until like a week later, she just disappears and like

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<v Speaker 2>sends us a message to being like, hey, i'll come

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<v Speaker 2>back to sign off the lease later. I'll try and

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<v Speaker 2>help you' all find a different roommate, but I can't

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<v Speaker 2>do it. A little before then, I break up with

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<v Speaker 2>Lorraine because it's like, you know, it's draining. I can't

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<v Speaker 2>handle it. And she immediately gets with Zach, like immediately

0:16:03.120 --> 0:16:06.680
<v Speaker 2>sleeping in his bed. You know, they're chilling together, cuddling up,

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<v Speaker 2>getting cozy, drink and all that. So I'm like, all right,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, I might as well, like I'll put myself

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<v Speaker 2>back out of the field as well, which they get

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<v Speaker 2>angry at, which is weird to me. So it's like

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<v Speaker 2>I'm following your rules, you know, like I've been. I

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<v Speaker 2>didn't just do this randomly. I just want to, like,

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<v Speaker 2>I gotta get my mind off it, because not only

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<v Speaker 2>do I know you're with somebody that considered to be

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<v Speaker 2>my little brother, you're with it like you're with him

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<v Speaker 2>in the same house, I have to see it daily,

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<v Speaker 2>like you gotta get you gotta give me a break,

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<v Speaker 2>m hm. And so they they also tried to say

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<v Speaker 2>like that I was a big cheater and that I

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<v Speaker 2>was cheating the entire time. And then I realized, like

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<v Speaker 2>there's a lot of projection because since the old house,

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<v Speaker 2>they would like like apparently when I wasn't there, they'd

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<v Speaker 2>be like holding hands or like we would come home

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<v Speaker 2>and they're like both asleep on the couch together and

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<v Speaker 2>like stuff like that. But because I saw him as

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<v Speaker 2>a little mentally delayed, and I related to his issues

0:17:08.520 --> 0:17:10.680
<v Speaker 2>because he's got a dead mom and I'm a big

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<v Speaker 2>mom in his voice, so I was like, oh, poor Zach.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, poor Zach. I wouldn't expect him to do

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<v Speaker 2>anything like that. And then she right after they all

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<v Speaker 2>lose jobs, Zach and Lorraine get together, we start to

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<v Speaker 2>lose the apartment because right you know, nobody's paying rent

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<v Speaker 2>except for me, and I can't pay two thousand dollars

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<v Speaker 2>in rent as well as I like, what is it electricity?

0:17:35.400 --> 0:17:38.840
<v Speaker 2>Wi Fi? Phone bill? Like food? I can't cover it all,

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<v Speaker 2>Like I'm drowning. So I'm like, hey, guys, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>I don't want to catch this eviction. I really suggest,

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<v Speaker 2>like you guys got to get a plan or something

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<v Speaker 2>to do something because we either get the money to

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<v Speaker 2>pay for this or I give up ownership because I

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<v Speaker 2>can't take this eviction on my record. So they moved

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<v Speaker 2>to Colorado together and I I move out and they

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<v Speaker 2>kind of foot me with the eight point four grand bill,

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<v Speaker 2>which is I mean, it sucks, but I've got to couch.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm paying like five hundred four I guess, so I'm warm.

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<v Speaker 2>I've said I can deal with it. I have time

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<v Speaker 2>to deal with it, you know, I can build it

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<v Speaker 2>the funds and the girlfriend I have right now, her

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<v Speaker 2>dad offered me a job like fifty one an hour

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<v Speaker 2>at a construction site that starts in March.

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<v Speaker 1>So, oh wow, pretty good. Yeah, damn man, So what's yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>Tell me about what what's your life look like?

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<v Speaker 4>Now?

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<v Speaker 2>I'm living with the original roommates we moved out with.

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<v Speaker 2>What do I call them? I'm gonna go with.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna go with, well, well, so, so how many arias?

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<v Speaker 1>And I'm gonna probably forget those two nass but so

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<v Speaker 1>it's you and and those two yeah, and so Zach

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<v Speaker 1>and Lorraine are gone. They're doing their own thing.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, they moved to Colorado. She's still like making reposts

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<v Speaker 2>about me, which I'm like, come on, man, if you

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<v Speaker 2>have a man, you should be thinking about me anymore,

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<v Speaker 2>especially you've been cheating with this dude for a minute.

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<v Speaker 1>Well so are you? She told Yeah, you go, sorry,

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<v Speaker 1>go ahead.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh I was just gonna say I found out because

0:19:34.119 --> 0:19:37.399
<v Speaker 2>she told a mutual friend of ours, and the mutual

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<v Speaker 2>friend like reached out to me to be like, hey,

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<v Speaker 2>I just want to let you know, Like she told

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<v Speaker 2>me this, and I was like, oh, I'm at work

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<v Speaker 2>right now, but thanks for letting me know.

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<v Speaker 1>So are and you are? Are your two roommates? Are

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<v Speaker 1>they paying rent?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, they're paying rent, which is good. And I have

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<v Speaker 2>very reduced rent because I got the couch. I'm only

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<v Speaker 2>paying five hundred now, which is a big step down

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<v Speaker 2>from like fourteen fifteen and sixteen hundred a mile.

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<v Speaker 4>Man.

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<v Speaker 1>God, damn, you're you're you're you're a real like I

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<v Speaker 1>don't know, just talking to you, I'm like, Damn, you're

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<v Speaker 1>only twenty one or you're not even twenty one yet.

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<v Speaker 2>You have twenty right now?

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<v Speaker 1>Twenty one Jesus week christ Man, You're gonna be I

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<v Speaker 1>don't I don't want to like inflate your head too

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<v Speaker 1>much or whatever. But you're gonna be okay for the

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<v Speaker 1>rest of your life, you know what I mean? Because

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<v Speaker 1>you I really I don't. I know that's a lot

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<v Speaker 1>to say to you right now. And I'm but and

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know how much that's worth coming from me,

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<v Speaker 1>but just hearing the way that you fucking you know

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<v Speaker 1>are just going out of your way to take care

0:20:45.880 --> 0:20:47.880
<v Speaker 1>of other people. And but some by the way, at

0:20:47.880 --> 0:20:50.400
<v Speaker 1>your you're going out of your way to take care

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<v Speaker 1>of other people at your own detriment, which has, you know,

0:20:56.280 --> 0:20:59.640
<v Speaker 1>its own set of whatever's But uh, I mean, god

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<v Speaker 1>damn dude, you just uh you got you got this

0:21:03.040 --> 0:21:09.880
<v Speaker 1>crazy uh work ethic to you. It's such a Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know any when I was twenty, I don't

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<v Speaker 1>know anyone else who uh would you know put up

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<v Speaker 1>with all of this stuff. I mean, it's it's uh,

0:21:22.920 --> 0:21:25.840
<v Speaker 1>it's interesting, it's commendable. What's your dream? What do you

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<v Speaker 1>want to actually do with your what do you want

0:21:27.560 --> 0:21:29.840
<v Speaker 1>to do with your life? Oh?

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<v Speaker 2>I wanna two things that either you like, it's kind

0:21:35.760 --> 0:21:38.720
<v Speaker 2>of dumb. But I either want to like pro game

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<v Speaker 2>and stream or become an electrician. So I'm gonna rock

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<v Speaker 2>out with both of those and try. I suppose are

0:21:46.960 --> 0:21:50.040
<v Speaker 2>you already an electrician, adds anybody in the electrician field.

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<v Speaker 2>Almost I'm like a game technician, or I used to be,

0:21:54.560 --> 0:21:58.520
<v Speaker 2>because I just switched jobs because I needed more hours. So, like,

0:21:58.560 --> 0:22:00.840
<v Speaker 2>I know more about the and that's what kind of

0:22:00.880 --> 0:22:03.200
<v Speaker 2>got me into that field because I was messing with wires,

0:22:03.240 --> 0:22:07.120
<v Speaker 2>you know, I'm checking the olms of stuff, switching out

0:22:07.520 --> 0:22:11.639
<v Speaker 2>microboards and chips and disassembling things to put a switch

0:22:11.880 --> 0:22:15.400
<v Speaker 2>in somewhere. Like I sound that really fun. So it's

0:22:15.440 --> 0:22:17.600
<v Speaker 2>like I either want to do that if I can't,

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<v Speaker 2>or not even can't. I'll even do that main or

0:22:21.240 --> 0:22:25.480
<v Speaker 2>on the side if I have the pro gaming streaming

0:22:25.560 --> 0:22:27.359
<v Speaker 2>thing comes to fruition as well.

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<v Speaker 1>Well. Look, here's the thing. If you think you want

0:22:31.600 --> 0:22:33.880
<v Speaker 1>to be I don't know why I'm giving advice right now.

0:22:33.880 --> 0:22:36.000
<v Speaker 1>You know I could ask you for advice more than

0:22:36.840 --> 0:22:41.280
<v Speaker 1>I could give any to you, but I don't know. Look,

0:22:41.320 --> 0:22:42.800
<v Speaker 1>if you want to be an electrician and you want

0:22:42.840 --> 0:22:45.920
<v Speaker 1>to be a programmer, I think the cool thing is

0:22:45.960 --> 0:22:48.359
<v Speaker 1>that you could do both. I mean, the electrician is

0:22:48.359 --> 0:22:51.280
<v Speaker 1>probably where the money is and then you know, stream

0:22:51.320 --> 0:22:54.600
<v Speaker 1>and play games on the side and enjoy your fucking life.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I'm hoping. I'm hoping. You know, it's a big hope.

0:23:00.080 --> 0:23:03.680
<v Speaker 2>It's a big prey. I gotta I think one of

0:23:03.720 --> 0:23:05.679
<v Speaker 2>the big things I've gotta do is learn to like

0:23:06.080 --> 0:23:09.720
<v Speaker 2>know when to stop taking care of people, because I

0:23:09.720 --> 0:23:11.720
<v Speaker 2>think I have like a savior conflict about it.

0:23:13.320 --> 0:23:16.199
<v Speaker 1>Yeah. Yeah, I guess that was kind of one of

0:23:16.240 --> 0:23:21.000
<v Speaker 1>the I mean, oh, I don't know. It's it's hard,

0:23:21.080 --> 0:23:26.840
<v Speaker 1>right because I actually I I think it's obviously it's

0:23:26.840 --> 0:23:29.639
<v Speaker 1>like good to care about other people, but especially like

0:23:29.920 --> 0:23:35.840
<v Speaker 1>I don't know, just at eighteen to be taken on all. Yeah,

0:23:35.880 --> 0:23:38.320
<v Speaker 1>that's this just too much. It's too much man at

0:23:38.359 --> 0:23:41.199
<v Speaker 1>a at that uhh yeah, young of young of an

0:23:41.200 --> 0:23:45.399
<v Speaker 1>age to be doing that. So I mean, I guess

0:23:46.119 --> 0:23:51.480
<v Speaker 1>I don't I really, I I don't know. I guess, Like,

0:23:51.560 --> 0:23:53.359
<v Speaker 1>do you think that you're like taking care of people

0:23:53.440 --> 0:23:54.680
<v Speaker 1>like to your own detriment?

0:23:58.080 --> 0:24:00.360
<v Speaker 2>I mean I think I used to. Right now, I'm

0:24:00.400 --> 0:24:06.720
<v Speaker 2>just kind of I honestly couldn't tell you like if

0:24:06.720 --> 0:24:09.880
<v Speaker 2>I am or not, because like ever since childhood. It's

0:24:09.880 --> 0:24:12.320
<v Speaker 2>just been a thing to like, you know, I was

0:24:12.359 --> 0:24:14.439
<v Speaker 2>forced to work since a young age. I was forced

0:24:14.440 --> 0:24:17.080
<v Speaker 2>to look at for other people my entire life. So

0:24:17.119 --> 0:24:19.880
<v Speaker 2>it's just kind of comes naturally, you know. So yeah,

0:24:20.119 --> 0:24:22.600
<v Speaker 2>like I couldn't even tell if it's detrimental or not

0:24:22.880 --> 0:24:25.480
<v Speaker 2>until after the fact, And like all the things I've

0:24:25.480 --> 0:24:29.600
<v Speaker 2>done previously are usually detrimental. But like while I'm going

0:24:29.600 --> 0:24:31.919
<v Speaker 2>through the motion, you know, like I'm just doing.

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<v Speaker 1>It, okay, all right, Well man, Well look man, I

0:24:38.040 --> 0:24:40.760
<v Speaker 1>don't know. You work hard, so I make sure that

0:24:40.800 --> 0:24:44.479
<v Speaker 1>you're doing all right before you, you know, rip your

0:24:44.520 --> 0:24:49.639
<v Speaker 1>own fucking uh, you know, before you stick a straw

0:24:50.560 --> 0:24:52.960
<v Speaker 1>in your hearts and let other people suck all the

0:24:53.080 --> 0:24:55.800
<v Speaker 1>blood out of your body.

0:24:57.200 --> 0:24:59.359
<v Speaker 2>So I need to work on that. I do need

0:24:59.400 --> 0:24:59.920
<v Speaker 2>to work on.

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<v Speaker 1>It's been nice talking to you. Man. What's your name again? Angel?

0:25:06.680 --> 0:25:07.200
<v Speaker 2>Yeah?

0:25:07.440 --> 0:25:12.600
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, Angel? Oh, you know we're gonna bleep that we're

0:25:12.600 --> 0:25:17.280
<v Speaker 1>gonna bleep that we're gonna I'm gonna believe, I'm not

0:25:17.320 --> 0:25:22.480
<v Speaker 1>gonna we're air. We're a fake first name only podcast

0:25:22.680 --> 0:25:24.199
<v Speaker 1>over here, so we're gonna bleep that.

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<v Speaker 2>I appreciate.

0:25:26.040 --> 0:25:27.320
<v Speaker 1>Angel. Is there anything else you want to say to

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<v Speaker 1>the people of the computer before we go.

0:25:30.280 --> 0:25:36.840
<v Speaker 2>Oh, let's see we keep it pushing, Keep it pushing.

0:25:36.880 --> 0:25:39.920
<v Speaker 2>No matter what happens, you can always find a way.

0:25:40.119 --> 0:25:43.320
<v Speaker 2>You won't find a way if you're just stressing about

0:25:43.320 --> 0:25:45.800
<v Speaker 2>what will. You gotta just do what you can with

0:25:45.880 --> 0:25:46.440
<v Speaker 2>what you got.

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<v Speaker 1>Hey, take care, Angel, Good luck to you.

0:25:50.880 --> 0:25:52.160
<v Speaker 2>Hey, you too, man, goodbye.

0:25:53.600 --> 0:25:56.720
<v Speaker 1>Man. What a fascinating interview with a fifty three year

0:25:56.720 --> 0:26:00.439
<v Speaker 1>old twenty year old That guy was. I don't know,

0:26:00.840 --> 0:26:04.680
<v Speaker 1>sometimes you just like you guys, you ever just talk

0:26:04.800 --> 0:26:10.240
<v Speaker 1>to someone who has like, uh, just makes you feel

0:26:10.240 --> 0:26:12.199
<v Speaker 1>like such a piece of shit. That was what that

0:26:12.240 --> 0:26:15.440
<v Speaker 1>whole conversation was. That whole conversation made me feel like

0:26:15.480 --> 0:26:19.040
<v Speaker 1>a piece of shit. Not to make it about me,

0:26:19.760 --> 0:26:23.239
<v Speaker 1>but yeah, that guy what a he That guy just

0:26:23.400 --> 0:26:30.679
<v Speaker 1>bent his entire body into a a fucking slinky for

0:26:30.920 --> 0:26:34.159
<v Speaker 1>for people who fucked them over, and uh, you know,

0:26:34.200 --> 0:26:36.080
<v Speaker 1>I'm sure I look it was a bit of some

0:26:36.119 --> 0:26:37.960
<v Speaker 1>time ago. But he doesn't even say That's the thing is,

0:26:37.960 --> 0:26:40.800
<v Speaker 1>he doesn't even seem rattled about it. He doesn't even

0:26:40.880 --> 0:26:43.960
<v Speaker 1>seem rattled about it. He just keeps going. This guy

0:26:43.960 --> 0:26:46.400
<v Speaker 1>he's gonna be even sometimes I just talk to people

0:26:46.400 --> 0:26:49.000
<v Speaker 1>on this podcast and I'm like, Oh, this fucking guy's

0:26:49.040 --> 0:26:51.960
<v Speaker 1>gonna be fine. This person's gonna be fine because they

0:26:52.080 --> 0:26:58.600
<v Speaker 1>just have the thing that lets them just take life's

0:26:59.280 --> 0:27:08.360
<v Speaker 1>uh miseries and spit them out uh uh with with

0:27:08.359 --> 0:27:14.240
<v Speaker 1>with so much grace. It's fascinating. I wish I had that.

0:27:14.280 --> 0:27:16.959
<v Speaker 1>I'm trying to work on that a little bit more.

0:27:17.000 --> 0:27:21.160
<v Speaker 1>I'm trying to work on like life not being perfect

0:27:21.160 --> 0:27:23.960
<v Speaker 1>and amazing all the time, and the more and I

0:27:24.080 --> 0:27:28.080
<v Speaker 1>keep I it's hard. I don't want to. I just

0:27:28.119 --> 0:27:34.320
<v Speaker 1>I know my own real life brain so much, and

0:27:34.359 --> 0:27:36.880
<v Speaker 1>I don't want to be one of those motivational people

0:27:36.920 --> 0:27:39.080
<v Speaker 1>who sits on a podcast and goes, life is all

0:27:39.119 --> 0:27:43.320
<v Speaker 1>about perspective and then go into my real life and

0:27:43.720 --> 0:27:48.440
<v Speaker 1>you know, mentally complain. But I just keep running across

0:27:50.040 --> 0:27:53.320
<v Speaker 1>situations in my real life and in doing this podcast

0:27:53.359 --> 0:27:55.359
<v Speaker 1>that just make me keep being like, damn, life is

0:27:55.400 --> 0:27:58.920
<v Speaker 1>about perspective. Especially you know when we have a caller

0:27:59.080 --> 0:28:04.800
<v Speaker 1>like this last one who just you know, gets it, uh,

0:28:05.080 --> 0:28:08.240
<v Speaker 1>who just gets it in the in the fucking chest,

0:28:08.840 --> 0:28:11.680
<v Speaker 1>takes it with pride, keeps going. He's gonna be fine.

0:28:12.800 --> 0:28:17.520
<v Speaker 1>I really I hope he You know he's unfortunately, he's

0:28:17.560 --> 0:28:20.400
<v Speaker 1>a great target for like a love scam or something

0:28:20.480 --> 0:28:23.840
<v Speaker 1>like that. I hope he doesn't. I hope he I

0:28:23.880 --> 0:28:29.040
<v Speaker 1>hope he maintains some kind of like self preservation. This guy, right,

0:28:29.119 --> 0:28:32.199
<v Speaker 1>that's the way. That's a weird conundrum. It's like how

0:28:32.280 --> 0:28:35.080
<v Speaker 1>much do you attempt to self preserve versus how much

0:28:35.160 --> 0:28:39.000
<v Speaker 1>do you uh give to others? Because if you if

0:28:39.040 --> 0:28:42.120
<v Speaker 1>you're one hundred percent self preservation, you're gonna be fucking

0:28:42.200 --> 0:28:46.320
<v Speaker 1>miserable and alone. But if you're one hundred percent giving

0:28:46.560 --> 0:28:49.120
<v Speaker 1>to other people, then you're you won't You're not gonna

0:28:49.160 --> 0:28:52.800
<v Speaker 1>have anything, and you're also gonna be just uh uh

0:28:53.040 --> 0:28:58.440
<v Speaker 1>an empty squeeze. You're gonnnna be a an empty plastic

0:28:58.520 --> 0:29:01.760
<v Speaker 1>water bottle in a gutter. You know, I don't know

0:29:01.800 --> 0:29:10.400
<v Speaker 1>I'm being dramatic. I'm being dramatic. Uh okay, Hello, Hello, Hey,

0:29:10.680 --> 0:29:11.320
<v Speaker 1>what's your name?

0:29:13.080 --> 0:29:13.920
<v Speaker 3>My name's Abby?

0:29:14.680 --> 0:29:18.760
<v Speaker 1>Abby? What's up? Abby? Like Abbey Road? You know the Beatles?

0:29:20.280 --> 0:29:20.920
<v Speaker 3>A little bit?

0:29:21.640 --> 0:29:22.320
<v Speaker 1>Not too much?

0:29:22.360 --> 0:29:22.719
<v Speaker 3>Sadly?

0:29:23.240 --> 0:29:24.520
<v Speaker 1>How old are you? Can? I ask?

0:29:26.440 --> 0:29:26.920
<v Speaker 3>Nineteen?

0:29:27.840 --> 0:29:29.840
<v Speaker 1>Okay? I you know, I was just thinking about this.

0:29:29.920 --> 0:29:34.120
<v Speaker 1>We're getting to a point in time where I was like,

0:29:34.280 --> 0:29:37.840
<v Speaker 1>at some point, there's gonna be like a generation of

0:29:37.880 --> 0:29:39.880
<v Speaker 1>people who just don't know who the Beatles are.

0:29:42.120 --> 0:29:45.040
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I'm sorry, do you know anything.

0:29:44.760 --> 0:29:48.520
<v Speaker 1>About do you know? Like, do you know anything about

0:29:48.520 --> 0:29:50.160
<v Speaker 1>the Beatles? I don't know. I don't know why I'm

0:29:50.680 --> 0:29:53.200
<v Speaker 1>doing this right now, but I'm just curious.

0:29:53.760 --> 0:29:57.480
<v Speaker 3>Oh no, you're good. Uh. I know they're I know

0:29:57.560 --> 0:30:02.040
<v Speaker 3>they're British. I know John Lennon is kind of maybe

0:30:02.080 --> 0:30:06.640
<v Speaker 3>a bad guy. I know they I know they have

0:30:07.000 --> 0:30:12.200
<v Speaker 3>some pretty good songs. Okay, I can't list too many, but.

0:30:12.440 --> 0:30:19.240
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, okay, you're but you're you're aware that the Beatles exist. Yes,

0:30:20.040 --> 0:30:21.840
<v Speaker 1>you know who they are? You know, like if I

0:30:21.880 --> 0:30:23.280
<v Speaker 1>say the Beatles, you're not like, what's that?

0:30:25.280 --> 0:30:25.520
<v Speaker 3>Yeah?

0:30:26.160 --> 0:30:28.760
<v Speaker 1>Okay, but the but the information you had, can you

0:30:28.840 --> 0:30:31.160
<v Speaker 1>name one Beatles song?

0:30:33.320 --> 0:30:35.960
<v Speaker 3>Uh? Isn't there? Hey, Jude, there's.

0:30:35.880 --> 0:30:39.320
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, Okay, there we go. Okay, all right, and you're

0:30:39.400 --> 0:30:43.560
<v Speaker 1>nineteen Okay, so we're a we're It's only I think

0:30:43.560 --> 0:30:46.600
<v Speaker 1>in the next five years we're gonna have nineteen year

0:30:46.600 --> 0:30:48.520
<v Speaker 1>olds who don't know who the Beatles are.

0:30:50.360 --> 0:30:51.760
<v Speaker 3>Really, you really think that?

0:30:52.360 --> 0:30:55.120
<v Speaker 1>I think? So, I don't know. I'm such an I'm

0:30:55.320 --> 0:30:59.880
<v Speaker 1>I'm insane. I I I'm in. I was talking to

0:31:00.080 --> 0:31:03.000
<v Speaker 1>chat GPT and I was like, when do you I

0:31:03.080 --> 0:31:05.719
<v Speaker 1>This is something I literally asked to chat GPT. I

0:31:05.800 --> 0:31:09.880
<v Speaker 1>was like, when do you think people will forget about Garfield?

0:31:13.120 --> 0:31:15.720
<v Speaker 3>That's that's like how old me because you know, the

0:31:16.880 --> 0:31:19.600
<v Speaker 3>Internet and everything, Like I feel like I feel like

0:31:20.160 --> 0:31:21.840
<v Speaker 3>that kind of stuff's just going to be around for

0:31:21.880 --> 0:31:22.720
<v Speaker 3>a really long time.

0:31:23.520 --> 0:31:26.680
<v Speaker 1>But I but I don't because like every because here's

0:31:26.720 --> 0:31:29.960
<v Speaker 1>the thing, like, like I don't like if you're like,

0:31:30.040 --> 0:31:35.160
<v Speaker 1>if you're like fifteen, you're probably watching some like YouTube

0:31:35.680 --> 0:31:38.800
<v Speaker 1>thing that like I that, like, I have no fucking

0:31:38.880 --> 0:31:43.120
<v Speaker 1>idea what it is like you're probably not like like

0:31:43.240 --> 0:31:45.320
<v Speaker 1>the like when I was fifteen, there were still like

0:31:45.320 --> 0:31:47.120
<v Speaker 1>we would go to I don't know why I'm going

0:31:47.120 --> 0:31:49.239
<v Speaker 1>on this rant, but like there would be like a

0:31:49.280 --> 0:31:53.520
<v Speaker 1>movie that everyone would watch. But now like for young people,

0:31:53.560 --> 0:31:56.920
<v Speaker 1>like media is so like segregated and and uh not

0:31:57.000 --> 0:32:01.280
<v Speaker 1>every it's it's not as homogeneous I think it was,

0:32:01.320 --> 0:32:04.960
<v Speaker 1>and it's getting like rapidly less and less homogenous. So

0:32:05.000 --> 0:32:07.880
<v Speaker 1>I just wouldn't be surprised if there were like a

0:32:07.880 --> 0:32:10.640
<v Speaker 1>lot of like I don't know, like people in high school.

0:32:10.640 --> 0:32:13.440
<v Speaker 1>We just don't know who Garfield is? Like like soon,

0:32:14.560 --> 0:32:16.479
<v Speaker 1>like where would you where do you find out who

0:32:16.560 --> 0:32:20.600
<v Speaker 1>Garfield is? Like? Like who on Twitter and TikTok and

0:32:20.680 --> 0:32:24.160
<v Speaker 1>Instagram is like talking about Garfield? Like how do people

0:32:24.240 --> 0:32:26.960
<v Speaker 1>even keep knowing who he is? Does that make sense?

0:32:28.600 --> 0:32:31.400
<v Speaker 3>Yeah? I guess that makes sense, But I guess I

0:32:31.440 --> 0:32:33.320
<v Speaker 3>don't know. For me growing up on the Internet, I

0:32:33.400 --> 0:32:36.240
<v Speaker 3>kind of just got everything all at once, just thrown

0:32:36.320 --> 0:32:39.640
<v Speaker 3>up me, you know, so I feel like it's yeah,

0:32:39.720 --> 0:32:41.400
<v Speaker 3>I feel like it will last a pretty long time.

0:32:42.680 --> 0:32:44.520
<v Speaker 1>But it's interest because when you say you got everything

0:32:44.560 --> 0:32:46.160
<v Speaker 1>thrown at you all at once, it's like, well, what

0:32:46.360 --> 0:32:49.680
<v Speaker 1>is everything? I mean, you know, who's you know, SpongeBob

0:32:49.760 --> 0:32:51.720
<v Speaker 1>it's gonna do? I think SpongeBob is gonna be around

0:32:51.720 --> 0:32:52.600
<v Speaker 1>for a long time.

0:32:54.000 --> 0:32:55.280
<v Speaker 3>Oh yeah, of course, of course.

0:32:56.120 --> 0:33:01.040
<v Speaker 1>But you weren't like when like okay, so the first

0:33:01.120 --> 0:33:04.200
<v Speaker 1>three seasons of SpongeBob is where most of the memes

0:33:04.200 --> 0:33:07.280
<v Speaker 1>come from. It's like the Golden Age, and like I

0:33:07.320 --> 0:33:12.240
<v Speaker 1>think I was at like SpongeBob watching age a little

0:33:12.280 --> 0:33:16.360
<v Speaker 1>bit after those came out, but you you were probably

0:33:16.400 --> 0:33:21.640
<v Speaker 1>at SpongeBob watching age like long after those came out,

0:33:21.680 --> 0:33:25.160
<v Speaker 1>Like we were on the SpongeBob seasons that people consider

0:33:25.240 --> 0:33:29.600
<v Speaker 1>shitty when you were around, like the age that SpongeBob

0:33:29.640 --> 0:33:31.120
<v Speaker 1>is I guess marketed towards.

0:33:32.800 --> 0:33:35.240
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I guess you could say that. I think my

0:33:35.360 --> 0:33:37.959
<v Speaker 3>parents actually bought like the older disc or like the

0:33:38.000 --> 0:33:40.080
<v Speaker 3>older seasons of SpongeBob.

0:33:39.720 --> 0:33:42.000
<v Speaker 1>When we were growing up, yeah.

0:33:41.680 --> 0:33:43.360
<v Speaker 3>Instead of like the newer ones.

0:33:44.880 --> 0:33:48.600
<v Speaker 1>There go there, Like are you familiar you know the

0:33:48.640 --> 0:33:56.160
<v Speaker 1>episode where squid word forms a band? Oh? Yeah, okay,

0:33:56.200 --> 0:33:58.760
<v Speaker 1>all right. I don't know why. I just I guess

0:33:58.800 --> 0:34:04.200
<v Speaker 1>I'm like pessimistic because I don't know, uh a lot

0:34:04.240 --> 0:34:07.400
<v Speaker 1>about like like do you watch like mister Beast, Like

0:34:07.440 --> 0:34:09.320
<v Speaker 1>who's the guy now?

0:34:10.120 --> 0:34:13.719
<v Speaker 3>I I don't. I don't really know. Like I think

0:34:13.760 --> 0:34:16.200
<v Speaker 3>I'm just too busy with like college. I don't know.

0:34:16.400 --> 0:34:20.200
<v Speaker 3>I write interesting thing about mister Beasts is I actually

0:34:20.280 --> 0:34:22.480
<v Speaker 3>knew someone from my high school who got on to

0:34:22.560 --> 0:34:23.520
<v Speaker 3>his Amazon show.

0:34:24.680 --> 0:34:27.840
<v Speaker 1>Oh really had that go for them? By the Dead.

0:34:30.560 --> 0:34:32.520
<v Speaker 3>I think they got out first episode. I think they

0:34:32.560 --> 0:34:34.040
<v Speaker 3>had like a one like second thing.

0:34:34.080 --> 0:34:34.960
<v Speaker 1>But it was so cool.

0:34:34.800 --> 0:34:35.279
<v Speaker 3>Seeing that.

0:34:37.920 --> 0:34:40.360
<v Speaker 1>I have a random thought. I'm a hold on about it.

0:34:40.600 --> 0:34:42.600
<v Speaker 1>I know that you called in probably to talk about something,

0:34:42.600 --> 0:34:43.759
<v Speaker 1>and we're going to get there, but I just need

0:34:43.800 --> 0:34:46.800
<v Speaker 1>to talk about Garfield for like one more minute.

0:34:47.000 --> 0:34:48.520
<v Speaker 3>Oh you're so good, don't even worry.

0:34:49.000 --> 0:34:51.720
<v Speaker 1>I was talking of I opened my l the last

0:34:51.760 --> 0:34:55.520
<v Speaker 1>podcast by talking about how we're part of the six

0:34:55.560 --> 0:34:57.799
<v Speaker 1>percent of people who are alive out of all the

0:34:57.800 --> 0:35:00.680
<v Speaker 1>people that I've ever been born, and I got there

0:35:00.760 --> 0:35:03.600
<v Speaker 1>was somebody made a comment because you can make like

0:35:03.640 --> 0:35:06.919
<v Speaker 1>comments on Spotify now, and somebody made a comment being

0:35:06.960 --> 0:35:09.920
<v Speaker 1>likely lyle you need to shut the fuck up about death.

0:35:10.440 --> 0:35:13.000
<v Speaker 1>You're clear you're you need to see a therapist. You're

0:35:13.000 --> 0:35:15.799
<v Speaker 1>clearly very depressed, but like you need to shut up

0:35:15.840 --> 0:35:18.279
<v Speaker 1>about it and like go get therapy, you're depressed. And

0:35:18.320 --> 0:35:20.560
<v Speaker 1>I'm like, maybe I actually think this person is right.

0:35:20.560 --> 0:35:23.239
<v Speaker 1>I think I think about death too much because I

0:35:23.360 --> 0:35:27.560
<v Speaker 1>just had this thought just now. I was like, like,

0:35:27.840 --> 0:35:31.520
<v Speaker 1>in like, okay, human being, let's say you live to eighty,

0:35:32.520 --> 0:35:36.920
<v Speaker 1>Like how much time of the eighty years of your

0:35:36.920 --> 0:35:44.120
<v Speaker 1>life does the average person spend looking at Garfield?

0:35:46.600 --> 0:35:49.680
<v Speaker 3>That's interesting. I thought it was a completely different route,

0:35:50.800 --> 0:35:54.600
<v Speaker 3>more depressing of like you're being like more depressing of

0:35:54.680 --> 0:35:57.680
<v Speaker 3>like how how long does the average person out spend

0:35:57.719 --> 0:35:59.680
<v Speaker 3>looking at their phone? But I guess Garfield's a lot.

0:36:00.800 --> 0:36:03.600
<v Speaker 1>Oh no, no, that's really depressing. Oh well, because all

0:36:03.640 --> 0:36:06.040
<v Speaker 1>the there's like you can you can mathematic there is

0:36:06.080 --> 0:36:09.200
<v Speaker 1>a mathematical percentage. I'm looking at a picture of Garfield

0:36:09.280 --> 0:36:13.200
<v Speaker 1>right now. There's a mathematical percentage. Fuck you know what.

0:36:13.239 --> 0:36:16.960
<v Speaker 1>Fuck that Spotify comment right now, Fuck that Spotify comment

0:36:17.040 --> 0:36:19.560
<v Speaker 1>or guy, I'm gonna I'm gonna keep talking about death.

0:36:19.840 --> 0:36:23.759
<v Speaker 1>It's important. I'm looking at Garfield right now. And it's

0:36:23.760 --> 0:36:26.600
<v Speaker 1>like if you I always wonder about like, uh, you

0:36:26.600 --> 0:36:28.799
<v Speaker 1>ever you ever heard that thing of like, oh, when

0:36:28.800 --> 0:36:31.120
<v Speaker 1>I die, it would be cool to have like stats,

0:36:31.560 --> 0:36:35.600
<v Speaker 1>Like there's a stat there's a literal percentage of the

0:36:35.719 --> 0:36:39.040
<v Speaker 1>time I have been alive and the time that I

0:36:39.200 --> 0:36:42.600
<v Speaker 1>will until from now until I die that you can

0:36:42.680 --> 0:36:46.040
<v Speaker 1>calculate that is a number of the percentage of time

0:36:46.080 --> 0:36:48.160
<v Speaker 1>that I have been alive that my eyes have been

0:36:48.160 --> 0:36:51.719
<v Speaker 1>looking at Garfield. And I'm just curious what that percentage is.

0:36:51.760 --> 0:36:55.759
<v Speaker 1>And I'm curious what that percentage is. You know, nationally,

0:36:55.920 --> 0:37:03.440
<v Speaker 1>across all the people that have died for nineteen U

0:37:04.080 --> 0:37:08.200
<v Speaker 1>seventy six, the answer was zero percent. But then after

0:37:08.239 --> 0:37:13.840
<v Speaker 1>Garfield was created, that number went up. Okay, what'd you

0:37:13.840 --> 0:37:15.600
<v Speaker 1>want to Okay, all right, I'm done with this. What

0:37:15.640 --> 0:37:16.759
<v Speaker 1>did you want to talk about today?

0:37:16.800 --> 0:37:18.520
<v Speaker 3>Well, I was just gonna I was just gonna ask

0:37:18.560 --> 0:37:20.000
<v Speaker 3>how often do you think about Garfield?

0:37:20.400 --> 0:37:24.600
<v Speaker 1>If you're truly not truly not that often, truly, not

0:37:24.680 --> 0:37:27.600
<v Speaker 1>that often. I just I don't know why, but I

0:37:27.680 --> 0:37:31.759
<v Speaker 1>just like searched. That is because chatch apt It's like

0:37:31.840 --> 0:37:34.600
<v Speaker 1>talking to fucking god dude, and you can ask it

0:37:35.200 --> 0:37:38.520
<v Speaker 1>insane questions and it will human because if you because

0:37:38.600 --> 0:37:40.359
<v Speaker 1>if you're like talking to your friend and you're like,

0:37:41.239 --> 0:37:43.399
<v Speaker 1>do you think people when do you think Garfields will

0:37:43.440 --> 0:37:46.200
<v Speaker 1>be forgotten? Your friend will go, what's shut up? What

0:37:46.239 --> 0:37:48.520
<v Speaker 1>are you talking about? That's a really stupid thing. But

0:37:49.000 --> 0:37:52.680
<v Speaker 1>if you have a really stupid question and you ask

0:37:52.800 --> 0:37:58.880
<v Speaker 1>it to AI AI will you it will use power

0:38:00.239 --> 0:38:03.759
<v Speaker 1>to fucking try to answer your stupid question. Will never

0:38:04.360 --> 0:38:07.239
<v Speaker 1>tell you that your question is too stupid. Sometimes I

0:38:07.280 --> 0:38:09.880
<v Speaker 1>think it should sometimes I think if you ask Garfield

0:38:09.920 --> 0:38:12.080
<v Speaker 1>a question like I mean, if did Garfield? If you

0:38:12.120 --> 0:38:14.960
<v Speaker 1>ask chat Chipetia a question like when will people forget Garfield?

0:38:15.000 --> 0:38:18.080
<v Speaker 1>I do think as part of a like an artificial

0:38:18.080 --> 0:38:21.760
<v Speaker 1>intelligence safeguard to prevent it from destroying humanity. It should

0:38:21.760 --> 0:38:24.400
<v Speaker 1>tell you to go outside, but it doesn't do that.

0:38:24.440 --> 0:38:28.040
<v Speaker 1>It actually helps you answer your stupid questions. What's up?

0:38:28.080 --> 0:38:29.200
<v Speaker 1>What's your name? Again? No?

0:38:30.440 --> 0:38:32.800
<v Speaker 3>Abby, I do wonder what chat GPT would say to

0:38:32.880 --> 0:38:34.920
<v Speaker 3>your question now though, Yeah, but.

0:38:34.880 --> 0:38:36.880
<v Speaker 1>You could just you could just keep asking. I've asked

0:38:36.880 --> 0:38:39.920
<v Speaker 1>it so many questions that are just are like, I

0:38:39.960 --> 0:38:41.520
<v Speaker 1>don't need why do I need to know the answer

0:38:41.560 --> 0:38:47.240
<v Speaker 1>to this? Sometimes sometimes having questions is better than having answers.

0:38:49.000 --> 0:38:50.520
<v Speaker 3>Sometimes you don't need to know the answer.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I don't like reading the chat on the podcast,

0:38:55.440 --> 0:38:57.120
<v Speaker 1>but I'm gonna do it. Somebody in the chat just

0:38:57.160 --> 0:39:01.120
<v Speaker 1>said good friends will hear out any question students that

0:39:01.200 --> 0:39:03.680
<v Speaker 1>you ask, And I don't think that that's necessarily true.

0:39:03.719 --> 0:39:08.640
<v Speaker 1>I think occasionally a good friend, you know what, Maybe

0:39:08.640 --> 0:39:11.080
<v Speaker 1>that's true. Maybe that's true. But if you if you

0:39:11.160 --> 0:39:13.759
<v Speaker 1>ask if I treated my good friend the way I

0:39:13.800 --> 0:39:17.000
<v Speaker 1>treat CHATGBT, if I if my good friend was good enough,

0:39:17.080 --> 0:39:19.640
<v Speaker 1>my good friend would be like, you need to just

0:39:20.440 --> 0:39:22.440
<v Speaker 1>you need to drink some water and have a cigarette

0:39:22.520 --> 0:39:26.120
<v Speaker 1>and you'll be Okay, what's up? Abby?

0:39:27.160 --> 0:39:29.160
<v Speaker 3>You just got to keep people real. I'm doing all right.

0:39:30.600 --> 0:39:33.960
<v Speaker 3>I just got the flu. But that's okay because I'm

0:39:34.000 --> 0:39:34.520
<v Speaker 3>getting better.

0:39:36.320 --> 0:39:41.240
<v Speaker 1>Uh, that's a very optimistic talk to have. I'm curious,

0:39:41.239 --> 0:39:43.920
<v Speaker 1>and it's totally okay if you didn't, because we found

0:39:43.960 --> 0:39:46.799
<v Speaker 1>our way to whatever this is. But do you have

0:39:46.840 --> 0:39:49.560
<v Speaker 1>something specific that you wanted to talk about today?

0:39:50.640 --> 0:39:52.960
<v Speaker 3>I have a very interesting story to tell.

0:39:53.239 --> 0:39:57.200
<v Speaker 1>I guess what's it about.

0:39:57.520 --> 0:40:01.880
<v Speaker 3>So I'm a twin and when I was younger, my

0:40:02.000 --> 0:40:04.359
<v Speaker 3>mom signed me and my brother up for a twin

0:40:04.480 --> 0:40:10.080
<v Speaker 3>study and it went very interesting. I'll say that.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, care to elaborate.

0:40:16.960 --> 0:40:19.520
<v Speaker 3>So I guess I was like, I don't really know

0:40:19.560 --> 0:40:20.480
<v Speaker 3>how old I was.

0:40:20.719 --> 0:40:21.080
<v Speaker 1>I was.

0:40:22.040 --> 0:40:23.960
<v Speaker 3>I guess at that age where I was like marketed

0:40:23.960 --> 0:40:28.960
<v Speaker 3>towards SpongeBob, like what we were talking about. And there

0:40:29.120 --> 0:40:33.160
<v Speaker 3>was this college and they were doing just studies on twins,

0:40:33.200 --> 0:40:35.120
<v Speaker 3>and since I'm a twin, I think my mom got

0:40:35.200 --> 0:40:36.600
<v Speaker 3>some money out of it, and she's like, oh, I'll

0:40:36.640 --> 0:40:38.400
<v Speaker 3>just I'll just sign them up for it, like what

0:40:38.480 --> 0:40:42.920
<v Speaker 3>what's the worst that could happen? And we go in

0:40:42.960 --> 0:40:45.680
<v Speaker 3>there and they immediately like start asking us like the

0:40:45.719 --> 0:40:48.279
<v Speaker 3>normal health questions like how old are you guys? Like

0:40:48.320 --> 0:40:52.360
<v Speaker 3>who's older? All that other stuff. But there's two rooms

0:40:52.360 --> 0:40:55.680
<v Speaker 3>behind these two people that are like that. I guess

0:40:55.719 --> 0:40:57.520
<v Speaker 3>they're the ones that are doing the test on us.

0:40:58.280 --> 0:41:00.759
<v Speaker 3>And they tell us that there's gonna be like a

0:41:00.840 --> 0:41:04.600
<v Speaker 3>quiz test and there's gonna be a physical test. So

0:41:05.800 --> 0:41:10.400
<v Speaker 3>my brother goes into like the quiz test, and I

0:41:10.440 --> 0:41:12.400
<v Speaker 3>go into like the physical test, which is like in

0:41:12.440 --> 0:41:16.839
<v Speaker 3>the room right over. And you go into this room

0:41:17.040 --> 0:41:20.000
<v Speaker 3>and it's really tiny, and this lady has this l

0:41:20.160 --> 0:41:24.120
<v Speaker 3>shaped desk and you know like those dentist chairs that

0:41:24.160 --> 0:41:27.200
<v Speaker 3>are like like it looks like a dentist chair, but

0:41:27.239 --> 0:41:29.120
<v Speaker 3>it's like propped all the way up, like it's not

0:41:29.719 --> 0:41:34.520
<v Speaker 3>like fully laid back, and there's all these contraptions just

0:41:34.560 --> 0:41:37.719
<v Speaker 3>strapped to it. And she's just asking me these very

0:41:37.760 --> 0:41:40.120
<v Speaker 3>normal questions. And then we start doing the physical test

0:41:41.840 --> 0:41:46.960
<v Speaker 3>and it's like normal like blood pressure whatever. But then

0:41:47.000 --> 0:41:52.160
<v Speaker 3>she's like, we're gonna do something different, and she like

0:41:52.280 --> 0:41:58.360
<v Speaker 3>straps me down and like puts like those like laughing

0:41:58.480 --> 0:42:02.279
<v Speaker 3>gas masks on me, and I guess she starts just

0:42:02.360 --> 0:42:04.799
<v Speaker 3>like giving me some like random ass gas that makes

0:42:04.800 --> 0:42:07.480
<v Speaker 3>me start to panic, but she's like reading all these

0:42:07.480 --> 0:42:12.520
<v Speaker 3>super scientific calculations on her computer, and it was just

0:42:12.719 --> 0:42:15.200
<v Speaker 3>it was it was very interesting going through that as

0:42:15.239 --> 0:42:17.240
<v Speaker 3>like a little child, like, I don't have any trauma

0:42:17.239 --> 0:42:20.080
<v Speaker 3>related to it. I just think it's funny that.

0:42:21.040 --> 0:42:23.360
<v Speaker 1>Well, so is this is the study still going on?

0:42:25.880 --> 0:42:29.040
<v Speaker 3>I think? I don't know. I like, I think they're

0:42:29.040 --> 0:42:31.120
<v Speaker 3>still doing a twin study. I don't know if they're

0:42:31.120 --> 0:42:38.080
<v Speaker 3>still doing that specific study, hm hmm. But but with

0:42:38.239 --> 0:42:41.080
<v Speaker 3>this lady, it's she was like she was just gonna

0:42:41.080 --> 0:42:43.120
<v Speaker 3>be like, hey, just tell me when it gets too

0:42:43.200 --> 0:42:45.759
<v Speaker 3>much to you. And I, like, I like to just

0:42:45.760 --> 0:42:49.600
<v Speaker 3>started like panicking because you know, that's a really weird

0:42:49.600 --> 0:42:51.480
<v Speaker 3>situation to be in. And so I tell her to

0:42:51.480 --> 0:42:53.600
<v Speaker 3>take it off, and she says, no, we're getting good

0:42:53.640 --> 0:42:57.319
<v Speaker 3>test results. All the while, my brother's hearing me like

0:42:57.440 --> 0:43:00.680
<v Speaker 3>scream and cry in the room next over, probably like

0:43:02.040 --> 0:43:04.160
<v Speaker 3>really nervous for what he has to do next.

0:43:04.560 --> 0:43:11.200
<v Speaker 1>Right, what did did they? I mean, so did they

0:43:11.200 --> 0:43:14.400
<v Speaker 1>did they get any conclusions?

0:43:16.000 --> 0:43:18.399
<v Speaker 3>Well that's the next part of it. My brother since

0:43:18.400 --> 0:43:20.880
<v Speaker 3>he didn't do the physical test because he like he

0:43:20.880 --> 0:43:22.880
<v Speaker 3>went to go switch. My brother was like, absolutely not.

0:43:23.680 --> 0:43:26.440
<v Speaker 3>They technically couldn't make a conclusion because they didn't get

0:43:26.440 --> 0:43:27.040
<v Speaker 3>the other half.

0:43:29.840 --> 0:43:32.359
<v Speaker 1>Oh so your brother heard you screaming and nope, doubt.

0:43:33.800 --> 0:43:34.080
<v Speaker 3>Yeah.

0:43:34.120 --> 0:43:37.959
<v Speaker 1>Basically they can't have a twin study with with just one.

0:43:39.520 --> 0:43:43.680
<v Speaker 3>No, you can't. So I just I like just randomly

0:43:43.680 --> 0:43:45.120
<v Speaker 3>remembered this thing too.

0:43:45.400 --> 0:43:49.600
<v Speaker 1>Like your mom ago. But did your mom get any

0:43:49.600 --> 0:43:51.160
<v Speaker 1>money for for your torture?

0:43:52.920 --> 0:43:55.000
<v Speaker 3>I think so. I don't know if it was torture.

0:43:55.080 --> 0:43:57.320
<v Speaker 3>I think it could have just been me genuinely panicking

0:43:57.440 --> 0:44:00.279
<v Speaker 3>as a kid. But I just think the situation or

0:44:00.280 --> 0:44:06.400
<v Speaker 3>funny than anything. M it's very peculiar.

0:44:08.640 --> 0:44:11.160
<v Speaker 1>Uh did did your was your mom like mad at

0:44:11.160 --> 0:44:14.640
<v Speaker 1>your brother for uh not participating in the study.

0:44:17.600 --> 0:44:21.080
<v Speaker 3>She seemed a little disappointed more than anything, But they

0:44:21.120 --> 0:44:23.840
<v Speaker 3>still gave her like the full amount of money, which

0:44:23.960 --> 0:44:24.960
<v Speaker 3>I find interesting.

0:44:25.640 --> 0:44:25.960
<v Speaker 1>M M.

0:44:27.440 --> 0:44:29.560
<v Speaker 3>I guess that just comes with like working with children,

0:44:29.640 --> 0:44:31.239
<v Speaker 3>you know, like sometimes they're just not going.

0:44:31.160 --> 0:44:37.040
<v Speaker 1>To cooperate, right, Yeah, this sounds like how uh how

0:44:37.080 --> 0:44:42.000
<v Speaker 1>people get humans centipeded? Is with like a studies like this.

0:44:42.200 --> 0:44:44.000
<v Speaker 3>Oh don't don't compare to that.

0:44:46.520 --> 0:44:48.920
<v Speaker 1>Well what's your name again? Abby?

0:44:50.440 --> 0:44:51.400
<v Speaker 3>Yeah? Abby?

0:44:53.719 --> 0:44:56.080
<v Speaker 1>Well thanks for letting me rant to you about Garfield

0:44:56.080 --> 0:45:00.480
<v Speaker 1>for ten minutes. I really do appreciate you U let

0:45:00.520 --> 0:45:04.800
<v Speaker 1>it being there while I did that. Oh yeah, of course,

0:45:05.760 --> 0:45:06.759
<v Speaker 1>is there anything else you want to say to the

0:45:06.800 --> 0:45:12.719
<v Speaker 1>people of the computer before we go, not really, just.

0:45:12.680 --> 0:45:14.200
<v Speaker 3>Don't don't trust scientists.

0:45:14.280 --> 0:45:17.320
<v Speaker 1>I guess don't. Yes, what that is a great message.

0:45:18.560 --> 0:45:19.720
<v Speaker 1>Do not trust science.

0:45:20.200 --> 0:45:20.920
<v Speaker 3>I didn't think about it.

0:45:21.040 --> 0:45:23.040
<v Speaker 1>Do not trust no, no, no, Abby, you said it. You

0:45:23.040 --> 0:45:25.640
<v Speaker 1>can't take it back. We do not trust scientists. We

0:45:25.800 --> 0:45:29.920
<v Speaker 1>question everything. There was no such thing as verifiable evidence,

0:45:30.239 --> 0:45:33.920
<v Speaker 1>and the uh, the solar system revolves around the Earth.

0:45:35.640 --> 0:45:45.080
<v Speaker 1>Thank you very much for calling Abby. All right, see it? Hello, Hello, hey, hello, Hi.

0:45:45.160 --> 0:45:45.799
<v Speaker 1>What is your name?

0:45:46.880 --> 0:45:48.240
<v Speaker 4>Hey? My name is Stella.

0:45:48.400 --> 0:45:48.920
<v Speaker 3>How are you doing?

0:45:48.960 --> 0:45:50.920
<v Speaker 1>Wele? It's it's what.

0:45:52.600 --> 0:45:52.960
<v Speaker 4>Stella?

0:45:53.920 --> 0:45:57.359
<v Speaker 2>Stella sure or whatever.

0:45:57.040 --> 0:46:00.239
<v Speaker 1>You'd like, Stella like like the beer stella arose h.

0:46:01.160 --> 0:46:02.600
<v Speaker 4>Yes, yeah, I don't know.

0:46:04.400 --> 0:46:11.120
<v Speaker 1>That's how stella because when the sun shines, will shine together.

0:46:11.440 --> 0:46:14.959
<v Speaker 1>So all right, well, what's up, Stella? How you doing?

0:46:15.040 --> 0:46:17.560
<v Speaker 1>How's how's life? Stella?

0:46:17.960 --> 0:46:21.320
<v Speaker 4>Life is pretty uh up in the air, trying to

0:46:21.320 --> 0:46:24.400
<v Speaker 4>stay afloat. But I mean, nonetheless, it's good to be alive.

0:46:24.520 --> 0:46:25.319
<v Speaker 4>You know, how are you?

0:46:26.800 --> 0:46:31.040
<v Speaker 1>How much I'm every single it's every single day I'm

0:46:31.080 --> 0:46:34.640
<v Speaker 1>realizing that I I don't know anything about fucking anything,

0:46:35.320 --> 0:46:39.560
<v Speaker 1>And there's like life can only be uh, there's a

0:46:39.680 --> 0:46:42.600
<v Speaker 1>it's I don't know if it's a quote directly that

0:46:42.680 --> 0:46:48.960
<v Speaker 1>somebody said, or if it's more of a just general adage,

0:46:49.520 --> 0:46:54.000
<v Speaker 1>but the idea that life can only be lived forward

0:46:54.440 --> 0:46:58.680
<v Speaker 1>and understood backwards makes so much goddamn sense to me.

0:46:59.600 --> 0:47:03.040
<v Speaker 1>Every year that I get a little bit older and

0:47:03.160 --> 0:47:07.480
<v Speaker 1>things start to make sense a little bit more, and

0:47:07.560 --> 0:47:09.720
<v Speaker 1>it's weird for me. Yeah, I'm giving you the actual

0:47:09.719 --> 0:47:12.799
<v Speaker 1>answers to the question of how I'm doing, So give

0:47:12.840 --> 0:47:18.840
<v Speaker 1>me a second, and you know, I genuinely I really

0:47:19.040 --> 0:47:25.920
<v Speaker 1>like doing this podcast when I am in the position

0:47:26.080 --> 0:47:32.200
<v Speaker 1>of like like being I don't know. Sometimes sometimes I

0:47:32.200 --> 0:47:34.360
<v Speaker 1>struggle with it. Sometimes I struggle with but sometimes like

0:47:34.360 --> 0:47:37.239
<v Speaker 1>to like today, for some reason, I'm having a real

0:47:37.239 --> 0:47:38.920
<v Speaker 1>good time with it. But sometimes I struggle with it

0:47:38.960 --> 0:47:42.839
<v Speaker 1>because it's you know, people will be wanting I guess

0:47:42.880 --> 0:47:47.359
<v Speaker 1>my perspective on things, and I'm just like, I don't know,

0:47:47.600 --> 0:47:53.279
<v Speaker 1>I don't I don't really know, but it's I don't know.

0:47:53.400 --> 0:47:56.880
<v Speaker 1>Sometimes I like it, the other I like it the

0:47:56.920 --> 0:48:00.440
<v Speaker 1>other way around. I like when I get people's perspective

0:48:01.239 --> 0:48:05.359
<v Speaker 1>on stuff. It's fun, it's interesting, it's a real honor.

0:48:05.400 --> 0:48:07.440
<v Speaker 1>It's an honor to get to and that's all. It's

0:48:07.440 --> 0:48:08.840
<v Speaker 1>an honor to get to do something like this, but

0:48:08.880 --> 0:48:15.040
<v Speaker 1>also it's it's way better when I'm uh caffeinated. I'm

0:48:15.080 --> 0:48:18.839
<v Speaker 1>learning about that. I'm learning about how to be how

0:48:18.880 --> 0:48:21.440
<v Speaker 1>to not be depressed. I think I figured it out.

0:48:21.680 --> 0:48:25.080
<v Speaker 1>I actually genuinely think I figured out how to not

0:48:25.120 --> 0:48:25.760
<v Speaker 1>be depressed.

0:48:27.040 --> 0:48:28.920
<v Speaker 4>Okay, what's the equation?

0:48:29.760 --> 0:48:33.680
<v Speaker 1>Okay, first you have to have five million dollars. We

0:48:33.760 --> 0:48:35.680
<v Speaker 1>can't talk about any of the other steps unless you

0:48:35.680 --> 0:48:38.200
<v Speaker 1>have five million dollars. First, you have to have five

0:48:38.239 --> 0:48:41.600
<v Speaker 1>million dollars. And then you have to have a beautiful

0:48:42.719 --> 0:48:45.440
<v Speaker 1>husband or wife that doesn't they can be they can

0:48:45.480 --> 0:48:50.560
<v Speaker 1>be really nothing less than ten out of ten. This

0:48:50.640 --> 0:48:54.520
<v Speaker 1>is the most gorgeous person that you've ever seen. And

0:48:54.560 --> 0:48:58.759
<v Speaker 1>they have to love you unconditionally, you like you have

0:48:58.800 --> 0:49:03.040
<v Speaker 1>to be you know, like like like they have to

0:49:03.120 --> 0:49:05.920
<v Speaker 1>love all of your flaws. They have to love you unconditionally.

0:49:06.000 --> 0:49:11.080
<v Speaker 1>So five million dollars, beautiful life partner who loves you unconditionally.

0:49:13.960 --> 0:49:16.040
<v Speaker 1>What else? I know? It starts with those two things.

0:49:17.600 --> 0:49:20.600
<v Speaker 4>Okay, Yeah, if you don't if you.

0:49:20.520 --> 0:49:23.680
<v Speaker 1>Don't have those two things, you're probably fucked and miserable.

0:49:23.719 --> 0:49:27.680
<v Speaker 1>But what's what's up? What's up with you? Stella? What's

0:49:27.800 --> 0:49:30.320
<v Speaker 1>I what makes you? What made you call in today?

0:49:33.200 --> 0:49:35.640
<v Speaker 4>Nothing in particular, I mean I just in general. I

0:49:35.840 --> 0:49:38.520
<v Speaker 4>think you kind of opened it up perfectly with not

0:49:38.600 --> 0:49:41.400
<v Speaker 4>knowing anything day by day as you get older, I

0:49:41.480 --> 0:49:46.360
<v Speaker 4>kind of feel the same way, both like in a

0:49:46.480 --> 0:49:48.640
<v Speaker 4>micro level and a macro level when it comes to

0:49:48.880 --> 0:49:55.600
<v Speaker 4>just living life day by day. But let's get specific.

0:49:55.680 --> 0:49:59.800
<v Speaker 4>Let me just give you a random micro level to

0:50:02.040 --> 0:50:05.480
<v Speaker 4>I currently live with my sister and her boyfriend. It

0:50:05.560 --> 0:50:07.759
<v Speaker 4>was just me and her when it first began, but

0:50:07.880 --> 0:50:11.279
<v Speaker 4>now I'm really looking into getting out and just going

0:50:11.320 --> 0:50:14.000
<v Speaker 4>on my own. But again, that goes back to your

0:50:14.040 --> 0:50:17.000
<v Speaker 4>five million dollars and someone who loves your own conditionally.

0:50:17.320 --> 0:50:20.000
<v Speaker 4>You know, I don't have five mil. I have someone

0:50:20.320 --> 0:50:24.439
<v Speaker 4>do the other man conditionally? No? Probably not? I mean

0:50:24.600 --> 0:50:25.800
<v Speaker 4>can anyone really?

0:50:26.320 --> 0:50:26.400
<v Speaker 1>No?

0:50:26.680 --> 0:50:27.239
<v Speaker 3>I don't think so.

0:50:27.880 --> 0:50:31.759
<v Speaker 4>But I'm just stuck between, like, do I go on?

0:50:31.960 --> 0:50:33.799
<v Speaker 4>I mean I can do it. I have money, not

0:50:33.840 --> 0:50:37.040
<v Speaker 4>five mil, but I got I can go on my own.

0:50:37.080 --> 0:50:38.719
<v Speaker 4>I mean, the economy is not the best right now,

0:50:38.760 --> 0:50:40.640
<v Speaker 4>but I can probably be Okay.

0:50:41.200 --> 0:50:44.839
<v Speaker 1>So what's going on? What's what's going on with Uh,

0:50:46.160 --> 0:50:48.120
<v Speaker 1>your your current situation. Why are you trying to get

0:50:48.120 --> 0:50:48.520
<v Speaker 1>out of it?

0:50:50.320 --> 0:50:52.719
<v Speaker 4>Nothing's wrong with it? Actually it's perfect. Like me and

0:50:52.760 --> 0:50:55.320
<v Speaker 4>my sister are great. We've been through a lot together

0:50:55.400 --> 0:50:57.719
<v Speaker 4>and made our bomb stronger, you know, and I think

0:50:57.840 --> 0:51:01.920
<v Speaker 4>living with her has been such a blessing. But I

0:51:02.000 --> 0:51:05.360
<v Speaker 4>want something that's my own, you know, like my own space,

0:51:05.560 --> 0:51:11.120
<v Speaker 4>my own universe within four walls, you know. And I

0:51:11.120 --> 0:51:13.440
<v Speaker 4>think it's just time. I've been in the same place

0:51:13.480 --> 0:51:17.960
<v Speaker 4>for five years now and have a good job, so

0:51:18.520 --> 0:51:21.560
<v Speaker 4>it's given me affording me the ability to even think

0:51:21.600 --> 0:51:23.839
<v Speaker 4>about this, you know, like be able to say, hey,

0:51:23.880 --> 0:51:28.800
<v Speaker 4>I can and want to get my own place. But

0:51:28.840 --> 0:51:31.560
<v Speaker 4>then I just think I overthink things, especially when it

0:51:31.560 --> 0:51:36.719
<v Speaker 4>comes to just making decisions in general in life. It's

0:51:36.760 --> 0:51:39.640
<v Speaker 4>not like my forte. I second guess things all the

0:51:39.640 --> 0:51:44.480
<v Speaker 4>time and have to overanalyze and overthink. So I'm like

0:51:44.600 --> 0:51:48.560
<v Speaker 4>constantly on the internet trying to financewers to things, use

0:51:48.680 --> 0:51:52.920
<v Speaker 4>chat GBT to like to the finest detail, ask like

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<v Speaker 4>how do I get from point A to point B?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I no, I have I have a similar a

0:52:02.760 --> 0:52:06.040
<v Speaker 1>similar thing. I have a similar thing. Now, so you

0:52:06.080 --> 0:52:08.160
<v Speaker 1>said this, you have a person in your life and

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<v Speaker 1>they love you with you know a few conditions, which

0:52:11.280 --> 0:52:15.080
<v Speaker 1>is I think the best that you can get? What

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<v Speaker 1>and what's are they gonna move in with you? Is

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<v Speaker 1>that the idea or are you like totally totally placed

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<v Speaker 1>on your own That's the.

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<v Speaker 4>Thing I don't know. I don't think financially and mentally

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<v Speaker 4>there it's doable for them to come and be with

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<v Speaker 4>me if we get like a police together, and that

0:52:33.480 --> 0:52:38.600
<v Speaker 4>kind of like that hurts a little because I make

0:52:38.640 --> 0:52:41.600
<v Speaker 4>it very aware what I expect and what I want,

0:52:41.840 --> 0:52:45.040
<v Speaker 4>you know, from a partner or my boyfriend or whatever,

0:52:45.080 --> 0:52:47.520
<v Speaker 4>and it just doesn't seem to click. But then I

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<v Speaker 4>understand that there's a lot of mental boundaries that can

0:52:50.520 --> 0:52:55.680
<v Speaker 4>stop somebody from seeing their own potential and then being

0:52:55.719 --> 0:52:58.640
<v Speaker 4>that for somebody else who has vocally let them know, like, hey,

0:52:58.640 --> 0:53:05.040
<v Speaker 4>this is what I want, So I.

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<v Speaker 1>Can I ask what I mean, what's if if if

0:53:05.160 --> 0:53:06.680
<v Speaker 1>this is you know something you want to talk about

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<v Speaker 1>to go into like what is what does that look like?

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<v Speaker 4>So I mean he's my boyfriend. He's the type to

0:53:21.280 --> 0:53:24.600
<v Speaker 4>like go back to the past a lot and say

0:53:24.640 --> 0:53:26.319
<v Speaker 4>I used to make so much money and I was

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<v Speaker 4>able to afford an apartment for me and my partner

0:53:29.200 --> 0:53:31.680
<v Speaker 4>that's like his ex at the time or whatever. And

0:53:31.800 --> 0:53:33.759
<v Speaker 4>he's like, but shit's not like that anymore. You know.

0:53:33.880 --> 0:53:37.240
<v Speaker 4>I'm not the same person physically, and I'm not capable

0:53:37.280 --> 0:53:40.799
<v Speaker 4>of making so much money like you or whatever. And

0:53:40.840 --> 0:53:43.239
<v Speaker 4>I don't make six figures or anything. But I'm I'm

0:53:43.239 --> 0:53:47.000
<v Speaker 4>pretty okay where I'm at, you know. But he says

0:53:47.000 --> 0:53:49.920
<v Speaker 4>that a lot, and I'm just like, where's like the

0:53:50.000 --> 0:53:53.040
<v Speaker 4>motivation to be in this together, to want to make

0:53:54.080 --> 0:53:56.520
<v Speaker 4>what I make or more possibly? You know, I know

0:53:56.560 --> 0:53:59.120
<v Speaker 4>there's a lot of boundaries and obstacles that stop people

0:53:59.160 --> 0:54:01.879
<v Speaker 4>from doing things like I'm here with you. I want

0:54:01.880 --> 0:54:04.480
<v Speaker 4>to do this with you, like let's go, let's be

0:54:05.000 --> 0:54:07.640
<v Speaker 4>fucking right or dies. You know, Like that's always what

0:54:07.719 --> 0:54:14.239
<v Speaker 4>I thought having somebody would be and os But like

0:54:14.440 --> 0:54:16.920
<v Speaker 4>I'm ready to go through the wringer with anybody, like

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<v Speaker 4>the muck and the mire, just to come out like

0:54:20.400 --> 0:54:23.600
<v Speaker 4>the shining phoenixes from the ashes of corny.

0:54:25.280 --> 0:54:29.280
<v Speaker 1>Oh my god, you are you are reaching your hand

0:54:29.600 --> 0:54:33.960
<v Speaker 1>out to this man at begging him to begging, but

0:54:34.080 --> 0:54:39.239
<v Speaker 1>you're you're reaching this. You're not begging, but you're you're

0:54:39.440 --> 0:54:43.319
<v Speaker 1>reaching your hand out to this man and saying, what

0:54:43.680 --> 0:54:48.680
<v Speaker 1>walk walk the walk with me, my friend, and he's

0:54:49.760 --> 0:54:51.880
<v Speaker 1>walk the walk with you, my dear. And what's his?

0:54:52.160 --> 0:54:53.320
<v Speaker 1>What's his he's saying?

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<v Speaker 4>He says, yes, he says already gonna say when somebody

0:54:59.320 --> 0:55:00.839
<v Speaker 4>is saying that. You know, he has a great heart,

0:55:00.880 --> 0:55:03.399
<v Speaker 4>he's a good man. I'm not saying anything is wrong

0:55:03.400 --> 0:55:05.879
<v Speaker 4>with him, but everybody has their flaws, and I want

0:55:05.880 --> 0:55:07.799
<v Speaker 4>to work with him on them, you know. But I

0:55:07.880 --> 0:55:12.279
<v Speaker 4>have also been And that's another thing too, is myself.

0:55:12.560 --> 0:55:14.839
<v Speaker 4>I don't want my past to get in the way

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<v Speaker 4>of going on this journey with this person because I

0:55:18.440 --> 0:55:23.160
<v Speaker 4>have my flaws of like the minute a voice is

0:55:23.280 --> 0:55:27.880
<v Speaker 4>raised in a conversation or like disrespect is there, I'm like, no,

0:55:28.000 --> 0:55:30.160
<v Speaker 4>I gotta go, I gotta walk away. I need to

0:55:30.320 --> 0:55:32.799
<v Speaker 4>like it's done, it's over. And he's like, whoa, you

0:55:32.880 --> 0:55:34.040
<v Speaker 4>know it's I make.

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<v Speaker 1>For me.

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<v Speaker 4>Well, like I said, I think maybe because of my past,

0:55:42.600 --> 0:55:45.239
<v Speaker 4>I see everything as a red not a reflect but

0:55:45.320 --> 0:55:48.359
<v Speaker 4>you know, something to be weary of and scared of

0:55:48.480 --> 0:55:50.279
<v Speaker 4>and anxious of. And then I take it to the

0:55:50.320 --> 0:55:53.280
<v Speaker 4>next because of the overthinking, overanalyzing. If that makes.

0:55:53.160 --> 0:56:00.440
<v Speaker 1>Sense, Yeah, sure, yeah, interesting Yeah, what's kind of what's

0:56:00.440 --> 0:56:01.359
<v Speaker 1>so what's your job now?

0:56:03.360 --> 0:56:11.840
<v Speaker 4>So I'm basically an executive administrator for a very big,

0:56:12.200 --> 0:56:20.480
<v Speaker 4>powerful organization. And yeah, it's it's a very comfortable position.

0:56:20.520 --> 0:56:23.440
<v Speaker 4>It's very cool position. I'm able to help a lot

0:56:23.440 --> 0:56:26.120
<v Speaker 4>of people and that's what I love the most. But

0:56:27.280 --> 0:56:32.640
<v Speaker 4>it's I want like the rural life and it's this

0:56:32.760 --> 0:56:36.960
<v Speaker 4>kind of job is more like city political you know,

0:56:37.040 --> 0:56:39.520
<v Speaker 4>smiley face when you want to burn everything down kind

0:56:39.520 --> 0:56:42.239
<v Speaker 4>of position, you know, And I hate that, but you

0:56:42.320 --> 0:56:45.960
<v Speaker 4>want it is now? Yeah, I do. Really I want

0:56:46.000 --> 0:56:50.080
<v Speaker 4>something quaint, the traditional like second white picket fence or

0:56:50.239 --> 0:56:52.920
<v Speaker 4>farm whatever, with the husband and the kids. That's what

0:56:53.040 --> 0:56:55.399
<v Speaker 4>I want. I don't want this fucking business woman shit.

0:56:55.560 --> 0:56:58.279
<v Speaker 4>That's so overrated for me.

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<v Speaker 1>Anyway, It's in your life and you're like like when

0:57:01.400 --> 0:57:03.080
<v Speaker 1>you say like the rural life, like do you want

0:57:03.120 --> 0:57:06.040
<v Speaker 1>to be like uh, like do you want to just

0:57:06.120 --> 0:57:07.719
<v Speaker 1>like like just take care of the kids or do

0:57:07.760 --> 0:57:09.799
<v Speaker 1>you want to have like work on a farm or

0:57:09.880 --> 0:57:12.920
<v Speaker 1>like what's what's what can I add? What's what's the dream?

0:57:13.280 --> 0:57:15.960
<v Speaker 1>Give me? Give me the dream for you like the dreams?

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, dream scenario is, Yeah, I'm a work with my

0:57:22.000 --> 0:57:24.640
<v Speaker 4>kids all day and me and my kids are doing

0:57:24.720 --> 0:57:27.840
<v Speaker 4>farm work, helping with the goats and the rabbits and

0:57:27.880 --> 0:57:32.040
<v Speaker 4>the you know, not the cows. That's a bit. That's

0:57:32.080 --> 0:57:34.160
<v Speaker 4>a lot of work. And horses are too, but you know,

0:57:34.280 --> 0:57:37.920
<v Speaker 4>at least like a homestead is kind of thing with

0:57:38.080 --> 0:57:41.320
<v Speaker 4>the hobby that you know does his his gets his

0:57:41.400 --> 0:57:43.960
<v Speaker 4>hands thirty two and is able to provide for us,

0:57:44.000 --> 0:57:48.640
<v Speaker 4>and I provide for him, you know, in that way

0:57:48.960 --> 0:57:50.600
<v Speaker 4>because of what he does for the family. You know,

0:57:50.680 --> 0:57:54.160
<v Speaker 4>like that's that's what I want. And away from the city,

0:57:54.320 --> 0:57:57.560
<v Speaker 4>away from too many people, I do want family around,

0:57:57.600 --> 0:58:00.160
<v Speaker 4>but just you know, in general, it's good to be

0:58:00.760 --> 0:58:02.120
<v Speaker 4>to create your own you know.

0:58:03.200 --> 0:58:09.400
<v Speaker 1>M Now I'm curious and by the way I fall victim.

0:58:09.560 --> 0:58:14.480
<v Speaker 1>People would not believe for a guy who runs a

0:58:14.640 --> 0:58:17.400
<v Speaker 1>I really I hate calling this an advice podcast, but

0:58:17.760 --> 0:58:21.440
<v Speaker 1>uh whatever, people I talk a bunch of shit on here,

0:58:21.480 --> 0:58:23.720
<v Speaker 1>and people I don't I think, would be surprised at

0:58:23.760 --> 0:58:27.960
<v Speaker 1>how often I google how to be happy, or overthink

0:58:28.040 --> 0:58:31.080
<v Speaker 1>decisions or or you know, do I do all the

0:58:31.080 --> 0:58:33.600
<v Speaker 1>things that you describe. I call a billion friends and

0:58:34.360 --> 0:58:36.880
<v Speaker 1>talk to chat GPT about things and and and all

0:58:36.920 --> 0:58:39.120
<v Speaker 1>this stuff. And I so I feel actually kind of

0:58:39.120 --> 0:58:42.400
<v Speaker 1>interesting asking you this question. But as from talking to

0:58:42.440 --> 0:58:44.560
<v Speaker 1>you for two seconds, you sound like actually a person

0:58:44.600 --> 0:58:47.800
<v Speaker 1>who's pretty confident about what they want out of life

0:58:47.920 --> 0:58:51.160
<v Speaker 1>and who they are and whatever. That's just a projection

0:58:51.240 --> 0:58:53.360
<v Speaker 1>I'm getting upon you. And so what do you What

0:58:53.360 --> 0:58:54.080
<v Speaker 1>are you overthinking?

0:58:59.600 --> 0:59:04.320
<v Speaker 4>I think I overthink maybe that life that I just

0:59:04.320 --> 0:59:06.960
<v Speaker 4>said to you right now in my head, I'm like, well,

0:59:07.000 --> 0:59:09.480
<v Speaker 4>maybe that's not the way. Maybe I am supposed to

0:59:09.480 --> 0:59:14.600
<v Speaker 4>be this cocktail hour business woman, maybe with a high

0:59:14.720 --> 0:59:19.360
<v Speaker 4>rise and Florida sailing windows and fucking you know, girls'

0:59:19.440 --> 0:59:25.680
<v Speaker 4>night and stuff like that, like the basic non traditional woman.

0:59:25.840 --> 0:59:29.680
<v Speaker 4>I guess, yeah, I second guess that, and then I

0:59:29.720 --> 0:59:32.320
<v Speaker 4>second guess, hey, maybe this person isn't.

0:59:32.080 --> 0:59:32.680
<v Speaker 3>The ones for me.

0:59:32.760 --> 0:59:34.800
<v Speaker 4>And but then I'm like, wait, aren't you supposed to

0:59:34.840 --> 0:59:37.040
<v Speaker 4>stay and fight for things? You know? And this is

0:59:37.080 --> 0:59:40.440
<v Speaker 4>the most healthiest relationship I've ever been, and like he is,

0:59:40.800 --> 0:59:44.520
<v Speaker 4>I love him, Like he's great. But again, past stuff, right,

0:59:44.560 --> 0:59:50.440
<v Speaker 4>and then you second guess and overanalyze, and yeah, like

0:59:50.480 --> 0:59:52.040
<v Speaker 4>I could take it back all the way to childhood

0:59:52.240 --> 0:59:55.800
<v Speaker 4>type of overanalyzing. Like that's how much I go into

0:59:55.880 --> 0:59:59.520
<v Speaker 4>the thinking I was even like I even have to

0:59:59.560 --> 1:00:01.400
<v Speaker 4>get off of breath control because it was making me

1:00:01.480 --> 1:00:04.440
<v Speaker 4>so existential evil. Like I would smoke weed and I

1:00:04.520 --> 1:00:06.400
<v Speaker 4>was on birth control and I literally thought I was

1:00:06.400 --> 1:00:09.720
<v Speaker 4>in other planes of existence because I was overthinking myself.

1:00:12.160 --> 1:00:14.760
<v Speaker 4>But like, now I can do it. I'm true. I'm like,

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<v Speaker 4>no birth control anything, and I smoke and I'm like, okay,

1:00:17.800 --> 1:00:22.200
<v Speaker 4>I can analyze and not be thrown into other or

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<v Speaker 4>of it.

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<v Speaker 1>But yeah, no, no, no, no, no, it's it's it's it's

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<v Speaker 1>it's a it's a whole bar. It's one continuous bar,

1:00:33.560 --> 1:00:36.680
<v Speaker 1>one complete bar. It's well, it's funny you say all

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<v Speaker 1>this stuff because I I I was just saying that

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know anything, and I've I've there are a

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<v Speaker 1>couple of things I have come to fight that I

1:00:47.560 --> 1:00:51.440
<v Speaker 1>can say that I believe with my whole heart that

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<v Speaker 1>I I won't question. There's a couple of things. One

1:00:54.400 --> 1:00:59.320
<v Speaker 1>is that I believe this in like I gutturally believe this,

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<v Speaker 1>like when I am in a like because you know,

1:01:03.840 --> 1:01:06.760
<v Speaker 1>there's there's sides of yourself, right, there's like you when

1:01:06.800 --> 1:01:09.840
<v Speaker 1>your emotions are out of it and when you're like

1:01:09.960 --> 1:01:12.959
<v Speaker 1>in tune with your higher being and then there's you

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<v Speaker 1>when you're like whatever, hungry or horny or sad or

1:01:17.080 --> 1:01:20.160
<v Speaker 1>angry or happier joy to related, and you're like letting

1:01:20.480 --> 1:01:23.880
<v Speaker 1>those emotions run the fucking show. But me, when I'm

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<v Speaker 1>in my like a connected to what I feel like

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<v Speaker 1>is like, oh, this is like my this is this

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<v Speaker 1>is my uh uh superego or the or the high

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<v Speaker 1>in that state of mind. I genuinely believe that, like

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<v Speaker 1>the ability to make the decisions that I overthink is

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<v Speaker 1>like a deep privilege. It's like a deep honor to

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<v Speaker 1>even get to fucking decide. And and like again, when

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<v Speaker 1>I'm in, when I'm connected to my higher being, for

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<v Speaker 1>you know, one fucking second out of the day, which

1:02:02.320 --> 1:02:04.720
<v Speaker 1>I gain, I'm really typically not. I just want to

1:02:04.720 --> 1:02:07.080
<v Speaker 1>make it clear, I'm really typically not. But when I am,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm like, that's how I really feel. It's like, oh,

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<v Speaker 1>it's just such a privilege to even be like, oh,

1:02:13.520 --> 1:02:18.120
<v Speaker 1>which you know, you know, who will I fall in

1:02:18.120 --> 1:02:21.760
<v Speaker 1>love with? And what cool career will I have? And

1:02:22.080 --> 1:02:25.200
<v Speaker 1>like all these things are like they're privileges to even

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<v Speaker 1>get to think about. Right, That's how I really feel.

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<v Speaker 1>And so I know that to be true. When I've

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<v Speaker 1>connected with my how you being normally I'm not thinking

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<v Speaker 1>about that. No, no, but normally I'm overthinking and spiraling

1:02:38.120 --> 1:02:41.400
<v Speaker 1>and whatnot. But the other thing I know to be true.

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<v Speaker 1>I forgot while I was explaining the first thing, but oh, okay,

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<v Speaker 1>I remember it now. I really feel like I'm coming

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<v Speaker 1>to some conclude ninety I eighty. I'm not even sure

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<v Speaker 1>how sure I am. That's how insane and I am.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm pretty sure. I'm just gonna go with pretty sure.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not gonna put a number on it. I'm pretty

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<v Speaker 1>sure that people in general are happier when they're just

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<v Speaker 1>in the moments of the thing, you know, when they're

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<v Speaker 1>just like when they're not overthinking, when they're not talking

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<v Speaker 1>about death and overthinking every single one of their fucking decisions,

1:03:22.800 --> 1:03:29.280
<v Speaker 1>and we're just like, oh, today I have to, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>milk the cows, and I don't have time to think

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<v Speaker 1>about whether or not, Uh, this is what I should

1:03:36.800 --> 1:03:39.400
<v Speaker 1>be doing with my life because I gotta go milk

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<v Speaker 1>these fucking cows. You know, I don't have time to

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<v Speaker 1>think about it. I'm just fucking doing it. And I

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<v Speaker 1>don't know it's hard. I because some people they uh

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<v Speaker 1>you know, some people are like, I don't have time

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<v Speaker 1>to think about what are this shitty office job is

1:03:54.880 --> 1:03:56.800
<v Speaker 1>making me miserable or not? Because I gotta do it,

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<v Speaker 1>And that's not that's ultimately not good. There's a there's

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<v Speaker 1>got there's some kind of like ideal optimal, you know,

1:04:05.800 --> 1:04:11.560
<v Speaker 1>optimal balance between thinking about things and being in the

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<v Speaker 1>moment to stuff. And I haven't found it, but I

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<v Speaker 1>definitely know that like overthinking fucking everything is not the

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<v Speaker 1>way to do it. And it's like this with I think,

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<v Speaker 1>I guess I guess relationships too, because on one hand,

1:04:23.280 --> 1:04:25.360
<v Speaker 1>you could you could sit and think, oh, is this

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<v Speaker 1>the right thing for me, and then the other hand

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<v Speaker 1>you could just be in the moment of whatever it is.

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<v Speaker 1>And life is I guess like trips to the the

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<v Speaker 1>the basement of I'm actually in my life versus the

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<v Speaker 1>the attic of let me think about things for a second.

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<v Speaker 1>And I guess you just I guess you balance that

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<v Speaker 1>until you die. I don't know the proper thing. And

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<v Speaker 1>also it's weird because some people, like we all have

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<v Speaker 1>like friends who they just somehow they just are not

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<v Speaker 1>over thinkers and they just do shit with their life

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<v Speaker 1>and they don't think about it, and they just they're

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<v Speaker 1>just innately fucking like born with it. Like I have

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<v Speaker 1>friends like that, and I'm like, I don't know how

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<v Speaker 1>they just I have friends who just do life perfectly

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<v Speaker 1>without even thinking about it somehow, and then I have

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<v Speaker 1>friends who cannot stop thinking. I leaned, I lean much

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<v Speaker 1>closer to that part of the spectrum. And yeah, I

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<v Speaker 1>don't know. I don't know how much of this is

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<v Speaker 1>just you're just born with more neuroticism versus you just are.

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<v Speaker 1>It's you a person who does shit. But yeah, I don't. Ultimately,

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<v Speaker 1>I guess when I'm in my when I'm in touch

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<v Speaker 1>with my higher being for the one second of day

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<v Speaker 1>that I am lucky to be, That's how I feel.

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<v Speaker 1>It's like, oh, it's it's a privilege most of the time, though,

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<v Speaker 1>I like every other human, like like a lot of

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<v Speaker 1>other human beings on the planet, am you know, controlled

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<v Speaker 1>by uh, fear based decision making and emotion based overthinking

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<v Speaker 1>and you know, all these fucking things. But yeah, that's

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<v Speaker 1>my rant about anything.

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<v Speaker 4>I loved it. That was great. It resonated for sure.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, uh, what how old are you? By the way,

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<v Speaker 1>because I'm gonna be honest. When you first picked up

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<v Speaker 1>the phone, I thought you were like, uh, fifteen, but

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<v Speaker 1>now I think you might be like twenty eight.

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<v Speaker 4>Oh shit, good job, yeah twenty eight.

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<v Speaker 1>You're twenty. Okay, you're older than me, all right, I am.

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<v Speaker 4>Well sometimes I like that though, honestly, sometimes you make

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<v Speaker 4>me feel like I'm twenty or something like.

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<v Speaker 3>Wait, I appreciate that.

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<v Speaker 1>Please take me, please take everything I just said to

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<v Speaker 1>you at face value. Well it's funny though, because well,

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<v Speaker 1>I'll tell you something real quick. I was at a

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<v Speaker 1>I was at a bar, uh two nights ago, and

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<v Speaker 1>I was talking to someone and I was like, oh,

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<v Speaker 1>how old are you? And they were like, I'm twenty

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<v Speaker 1>two and they were like, ho old are you? And

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<v Speaker 1>I was like, I'm twenty seven and they made that

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<v Speaker 1>face and they went, oh, like that was old, and

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<v Speaker 1>it's fun It was funny to me because I literally,

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<v Speaker 1>I swear my just yesterday, I was twenty two and

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<v Speaker 1>I literally had that exact same interaction fucking just yesterday

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<v Speaker 1>where I was the twenty two year old and I

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<v Speaker 1>met a guy who was twenty seven and I made

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<v Speaker 1>that fucking face when he told me. And it's so

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<v Speaker 1>weird that I'm on the other end of that. I

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<v Speaker 1>feel like I just flashed forward into like five fucking

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<v Speaker 1>years or something.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, it just had like a mutual memory.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah. And now that i'm it's funny because I remember

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<v Speaker 1>being like twenty two and I couldn't imagine what it

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<v Speaker 1>would like to be like twenty seven. And now like

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<v Speaker 1>I you know, I'm gonna Reddit and you read a

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<v Speaker 1>Reddit post, like you read a Reddit comment or some

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<v Speaker 1>guy's like, I'm forty six years old, and here's what's

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<v Speaker 1>going on with me? And I'm like, you're telling me

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<v Speaker 1>I'm going to be forty You're telling me that twenty

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<v Speaker 1>fucking years later, I'm still going to like have problems

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<v Speaker 1>and thoughts and feelings, and the streams keeps going. It's crazy.

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<v Speaker 1>It's too much, so much to think about. It's insane.

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<v Speaker 4>And that's why I have to stop myself because then

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<v Speaker 4>everything else that's like literally in my face happening in

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<v Speaker 4>my life is not going to get that way because

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<v Speaker 4>I will go that far into my drinking. Yeah, back

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<v Speaker 4>to what you said, just being present in the moment

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<v Speaker 4>and having like that attitude of grace and gratitude that

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<v Speaker 4>you get to have these fucking decisions be so in

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<v Speaker 4>your life and not like, hey, what am I going

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<v Speaker 4>to do the next day? Which money do have to

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<v Speaker 4>think of? Like that? But I agree with you. And

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<v Speaker 4>then also I do like I go to my faith

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<v Speaker 4>a lot, and that does keep me grounded and stable

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<v Speaker 4>half the time most of the time, actually five percent

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<v Speaker 4>of the time.

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<v Speaker 1>Are you religious?

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<v Speaker 4>I'm yeah, sure, I guess, you know, I really it's

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<v Speaker 4>the cliche thing where people say I have a relationship

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<v Speaker 4>with with Christ. You know, that's like that's how I

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<v Speaker 4>see it. Cool, But yeah, religious.

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<v Speaker 1>Cool, cool. I think that's good. I think having a

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<v Speaker 1>you know, I don't know. I've been thinking about, like

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<v Speaker 1>it's funny because I think when you're like when you're

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<v Speaker 1>like a young atheist or whatever, you're kind of like

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<v Speaker 1>you're kind of like blow uh, I think, blow it off.

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<v Speaker 1>But then you're like, oh, it's kind of nice to

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<v Speaker 1>like believe in something, you know. M hmm.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, there's a peace and comfort that comes with it.

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<v Speaker 4>It's like, you don't I kind of like the thought

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<v Speaker 4>of not having to control everything in my life.

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<v Speaker 3>Like literally, if.

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<v Speaker 4>There was God could just take everything and do anything

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<v Speaker 4>with my life, I wouldn't I wouldn't.

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<v Speaker 1>Mind, right, right, I was thinking about I was actually

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<v Speaker 1>gonna bring this up when I was on this rant

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<v Speaker 1>is I'm if somebody has, if somebody had there's an

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<v Speaker 1>experience with this, please call in. I would love to

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<v Speaker 1>talk to you. But I was thinking about like arranged marriage,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, and it's like, on one hand, it's like, oh,

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<v Speaker 1>arranged marriage, it's like the ultimate like uh, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>lack of freedom like your parents. It's a very like

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<v Speaker 1>Unamerican idea like your parents, like pick who you're gonna

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<v Speaker 1>like your life is like chosen. This huge thing is

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<v Speaker 1>like chosen for you, you know, and it's like a

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<v Speaker 1>very I don't know, Like I there there's a lot

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<v Speaker 1>of course on paper wrong with that idea. But then

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<v Speaker 1>in the back of my mind, I'm a little bit like, oh,

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<v Speaker 1>there's something about like you're okay, this is what you

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<v Speaker 1>got to deal with, and no, you don't get to

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<v Speaker 1>decide whether or not it works for you. You just have

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<v Speaker 1>to fucking deal with it. I'm like, oh, that has Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm like, oh, that probably has like prose to it.

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<v Speaker 1>If someone is listening to this and has experienced with it,

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<v Speaker 1>please call it. I'm curious about it because they might

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<v Speaker 1>call it and be like it sucked.

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<v Speaker 4>But anyway, yeah, I can't even speak on that. I

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<v Speaker 4>thought the same as you. I can't speak on it.

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<v Speaker 4>No arrange my maverages over here, but just the thought

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<v Speaker 4>of like if I had a healthy family dynamic and relationship,

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<v Speaker 4>they would have my best interest in picking you know,

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<v Speaker 4>this person who's going to be able to provide for

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<v Speaker 4>me and for the family, right, because it's the whole endeavor,

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<v Speaker 4>it's not just about me and this other person. It

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<v Speaker 4>feels comforting in a way. But again I can't speak

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<v Speaker 4>on it's not a part of my circle. But that's

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<v Speaker 4>my thoughts anyway. But pros and cons are everything, and

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<v Speaker 4>like you said, everything's a balanced.

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<v Speaker 1>Well Stella, is there anything else that you wanted to

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<v Speaker 1>talk about or say to the people of the computer

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<v Speaker 1>before we go, Not at all.

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<v Speaker 4>Also, your voice sounds completely normal. Doesn't sound any different

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<v Speaker 4>than on the podcast.

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<v Speaker 1>Well good, I'm very honored to have a normal voice.

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<v Speaker 4>Yes, normal it can be.

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<v Speaker 1>It was great talking to you, talking to you too, Stella.

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<v Speaker 1>I hope you have a good rest of your entire life.

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<v Speaker 1>And I will, I will, I will see you around

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<v Speaker 1>the universe.

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<v Speaker 3>Yep.

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<v Speaker 4>I send to you.

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<v Speaker 1>All right, take care? Stell all right? Is it stella arose? Stera? Stella?

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<v Speaker 1>Hold on, I'm gonna figure out how you fucking pronounce

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<v Speaker 1>this stella? Okay, well, everyone's everyone, Everyone shut up for

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<v Speaker 1>a second. I'm trying to think everyone. Everyone's, everyone's I'm

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<v Speaker 1>trying to think everyone stop. Okay, Stella erotis are totis?

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<v Speaker 1>Why would you name your products something that people can't

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<v Speaker 1>even say it? Stella are I'm gonna say it's stella artois.

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<v Speaker 1>How do you pronounce it? Stella artois phonetic pronounce pronounce

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<v Speaker 1>pronunciation are ta? What the fuck? Okay, it's stella artois.

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<v Speaker 1>This looks if you read it literally, it's stella artois.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm calling it artis. Why would you name your product

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<v Speaker 1>something that people can't say what it is? Okay? Sorry,

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<v Speaker 1>goes on the line, taking your phone calls every night.

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<v Speaker 1>The pan goes to his side. He's teaching you cloud

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<v Speaker 1>of your life, but he's not really an expert.