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Speaker 1: Hello, Hello, Hey, what's up? Where are you? Where are

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Speaker 1: you right now? I'm hearing some like stuff in the background.

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Speaker 2: Oh it needed me. I accidentally touched my cheek.

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Speaker 1: Oh hello, yeah, hey, I can what's know? What's up? Man?

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Speaker 1: What's going on? Where are you right now? You sound

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Speaker 1: like you're at a place.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm at a hospital right now.

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Speaker 1: You're at a hospital right now? Are you working there?

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Speaker 1: Or are you dying?

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Speaker 2: I'm a friend of somebody who's dying.

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Speaker 1: Oh, oh, dear, I.

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Speaker 2: Guess almost died, almost died.

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Speaker 1: They're good now, Okay, that's just a big difference this.

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Speaker 1: Are they dying? Well, I guess we're all dying. But

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Speaker 1: are they well? How are you your friends?

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Speaker 2: Oh, they're good now. They had like a tear in

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Speaker 2: their brain from a car accident that happened years ago.

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Speaker 2: And then oh yet super stressed recently and had like

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Speaker 1: Oh good now they're chilling now, yeah, they're chilling now. Okay,

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Speaker 1: what what's your relationship to them? How do you know

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Speaker 2: Oh? I'm dating their daughter.

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Speaker 1: Oh, this is your this is your girlfriend's father, mom, mother,

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Speaker 1: This is your girlfriend's mom. Yeah, and how's she she's

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Speaker 2: It happened like a couple of days ago. They're just

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Speaker 2: what is it? The dad asked to have her over

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Speaker 2: like an extra day or two, so they're observing her,

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Speaker 2: and she's.

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Speaker 1: Going, all right, all right, cool, how's your girlfriend? How's

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Speaker 1: your girlfriend? I'm I'm here's the thing, and here I

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Speaker 1: guess why I'm I am going to assume that I

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Speaker 1: guess it's easy to assume that your girlfriend's mom is

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Speaker 1: doing okay, because if she wasn't, I'm going to assume

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Speaker 1: you're a good enough boyfriend that you wouldn't be on

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Speaker 1: the phone with the therapy gecko in this moment if

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Speaker 1: your girlfriend's mom was in horrible pain right now.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, No, she's she's doing wonderful. Okay, my girlfriend, she

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Speaker 2: was trusted first, but she's you know, cause she's all

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Speaker 2: stabilized now and thinks they're good yesterday. But yeah, so

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Speaker 2: it should be all right, should be all.

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Speaker 3: Right for now?

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Speaker 2: For now?

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Speaker 1: Is your girlfriend there with you in the hospital?

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Speaker 2: She is? Actually?

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Speaker 1: Yeah, where where is? Where are you are you in

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Speaker 1: like a hallway or are you in the hospital room?

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Speaker 1: Like where are you taking this phone call from?

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Speaker 2: I'm in I'm in a hallway that's like a cross

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Speaker 1: M okay, okay, what are you How long have you

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Speaker 1: been at this hospital? For so far.

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Speaker 2: Personally it's been like a what time are they in it?

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Speaker 2: I'd say like two and a half hours.

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Speaker 1: Okay, Well, well well let's well let me do this.

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Speaker 1: What's your name, by.

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Speaker 2: The way, Angel?

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Speaker 1: Angel?

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Speaker 2: Yeah?

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Speaker 1: Well Angel? I mean we could keep just chit chatting,

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Speaker 1: but uh, I guess before we do that, I'll ask

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Speaker 1: you if there's anything in particular that you called in

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Speaker 2: I mean, I've got I've got two things I'll that

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Speaker 2: you choose. They both have like a bit of context.

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Speaker 2: When I was seven, I got legally kidnapped by my

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Speaker 2: grandparents mm hmm. And then there's I financially supported two

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Speaker 2: people for about four years to find out recently that

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Speaker 2: apparently like halfway through they cheated on me the entire time.

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Speaker 2: Oh my god, we got we gotta all.

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Speaker 1: Right, Well, well talk to me here. What's the most

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Speaker 1: What's I'm curious? I mean about your life presently. I

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Speaker 1: guess which of these things is more present for you.

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Speaker 2: I'd probably have to say the getting cheated on and say,

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Speaker 2: listen me with like an eight point four thousand dollars

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Speaker 2: bill for the apartment.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, but I mean like I worked it out, you know,

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Speaker 1: I suppose, uh yeah, man, what happened?

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Speaker 2: Ah? So, like, oh man, starting in Colorado, I suppose

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Speaker 2: went from Colorado, we moved to Oregon. And I've known

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Speaker 2: this lady, this chick name since I was like fourteen.

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Speaker 1: We're gonna bleep that maybe we're gonna bleep that we're

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Speaker 1: gonna call her, uh, Lorraine so that everyone can assume

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Speaker 1: that you're dating an eighty five year old woman.

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Speaker 2: All right, all right, Lorae, you're right, You're right, Lorette.

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Speaker 2: So I've known Lorene since I was like fourteen, and

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Speaker 2: was it. We started officially dating like seventeen. We move

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Speaker 2: she's hold them down a job, you know, she's doing

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Speaker 2: all right. I meet some of her friends, her friends,

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Speaker 2: and I we all move out to an apartment together.

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Speaker 2: We do that for like six months, and the original

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Speaker 2: plan was like I was gonna move to Maine with

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Speaker 2: Larat and they were like, no, what's uh, Let's go

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Speaker 2: grandma had like dementia and they moved her Grandma of

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Speaker 2: the Oregon and she was like, you know, my mom

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Speaker 2: will pay for it. She's well off. She's got like

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Speaker 2: what is it called, like dead people money inheritance. There

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Speaker 2: you go. So we're like, okay, you know, I don't

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Speaker 2: really know where we're going to get, no plan. Like

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Speaker 2: all right, you know, if you want to do it, Loraine,

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Speaker 2: you got this. So we move on over there and

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Speaker 2: maybe around like twenty twenty one, twenty two, I think

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Speaker 2: ones to get a job. Lorraine almost the entire time

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Speaker 2: did not have a job, so doesn't have a job.

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Speaker 2: But we're still like working through it. And there's one

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Speaker 2: time I'm like, hey, like Lorraine, I'm not gonna lie

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Speaker 2: end of this month or no, I give it like

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Speaker 2: three months. I was like, in three months you kind

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Speaker 2: of need to like start making rent.

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Speaker 1: Or how how old are you guys? At this point

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Speaker 1: I was.

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Speaker 2: I'd like to say eighteen or nineteen.

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Speaker 1: Oh wow, geez, So how old is she at the

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Speaker 1: same age.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, we're like a month apart.

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Speaker 1: Okay, all right, so I mean yeah, so you guys

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Speaker 2: Oh yeah, No, seventeen is when we originally moved out.

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Speaker 2: But eighteen we moved out of the state, and I

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Speaker 2: a point where I'm covering her rent and mine and

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Speaker 2: that's like fourteen hundred and then I'm also helping Okay,

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Speaker 1: Gonna go, well, that's I mean, that's yeah, that's wild

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I mean I've I've been working since I was

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Speaker 2: But uh yeah. I locked in on that, like I

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Speaker 2: to help her out. That's the Colorado and then moving

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Speaker 2: into Oregon. It was a domino effect and so what

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Speaker 2: is it? Yeah, I basically do all that support them

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Speaker 2: cover I'm gonna call them Zach cover Zach's bills as well.

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Speaker 1: Okay, who's who is Zach?

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Speaker 2: Zach is a fan a least name that I made

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Speaker 2: for the guy she cheated on me with.

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Speaker 1: Okay, wait, but so why are you Okay, so you

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Speaker 1: so you're living in a So you're eighteen, you're living

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Speaker 2: Some not some guy. It's also same roommates that we

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Speaker 2: had an Oregon. I mean in Colorado, we have an Oregon.

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Speaker 2: Now we're not right now, but like when.

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Speaker 1: We okay, so you your girlfriend and so okay, so

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Speaker 1: you and your girlfriend and these roommates all moved together

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Speaker 1: so now you're so you're financially so you're eighteen years

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Speaker 2: No, no, just Lorraine and Zach.

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Speaker 1: Okay, why are you support Why are you financially supporting Zach?

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Speaker 2: Oh? Well, he was like, oh, there was a bad

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Speaker 2: And like, near the end of that whole renting thing,

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Speaker 2: what is it. We're moving to this new apartment and

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Speaker 2: we're clutching up a little bit. Except Lorraine loses their job,

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Speaker 2: Zach loses their job, and then the other roommate also

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Speaker 2: you know, fourteen hundred a month. I can't cover like

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Speaker 1: Well wait, so you were making fourteen hundred dollars a month,

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Speaker 1: making enough to like support I mean, I mean, damn,

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Speaker 1: like fourteen hundred a month, Like, how are you even making?

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Speaker 1: That's like barely I guess enough to even support yourself,

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Speaker 2: Yeah, No, it was tough. It was tough. I just

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Speaker 2: had to Like it's fourteen hundred a month. I'm not

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Speaker 2: working at a David Blusters fixing up games. Oh and

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Speaker 2: then the travel time was crazy. It was like an

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Speaker 2: my job too each way. And yeah, yeah.

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Speaker 1: And you're and you're doing and you're doing all of

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Speaker 1: this at eighteen you're driving, You're you're doing three hour

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Speaker 2: Yeah, to make and I'd be closing, so it'd be

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Speaker 2: like icy, and oh it'd be terrible. It'd be like

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Speaker 2: I'm like, all right, you know what though, like I

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Speaker 2: like the job, I like fixing games, I like electricians work.

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Speaker 2: So you know, I was suffering for an alright cause

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Speaker 1: Damn dude, what can where can I?

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Speaker 2: Well?

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Speaker 1: I have a couple quick. I want to hear the

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Speaker 1: rest of your story, but I just I want to

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Speaker 1: butt in with like two questions. How old are you?

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Speaker 1: How old are you now? How old do you know?

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Speaker 2: I turned twenty one in March.

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Speaker 1: You turn twenty one in March. Yeah, I thought you

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Speaker 2: I appreciate that. A lot of people tell me I

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Speaker 2: HEEZU are kidnapped?

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Speaker 1: Who the fuck are you?

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Speaker 1: You're what what kind of what's up with your uh?

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Speaker 2: My mom is a main and she's dealing with like

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Speaker 2: And uh, you know, my mom's trying to she was

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Speaker 1: Shit man, all right, summer stuff. All right, so you're eighteen, Uh,

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Speaker 2: Oh sorry, sorry. One time I ended up closing and

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Speaker 1: I genuinely I feel I feel like such a baby

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Speaker 2: Please don't. I've been wanting to call you for years,

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Speaker 1: rest of your stories. So you're okay, You're you're you're eighteen,

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Speaker 1: you're the Dave and Buster's hero, You're taking the bus,

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Speaker 2: Yeah. So then we move into this other apartment with

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Speaker 2: like you guys got to get a plan or something

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Speaker 2: can't take this eviction on my record. So they moved

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Speaker 2: I've said I can deal with it. I have time

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Speaker 1: So, oh wow, pretty good. Yeah, damn man, So what's yeah?

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Speaker 1: Tell me about what what's your life look like?

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Speaker 4: Now?

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Speaker 2: I'm living with the original roommates we moved out with.

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Speaker 2: What do I call them? I'm gonna go with.

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Speaker 1: I'm gonna go with, well, well, so, so how many arias?

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Speaker 1: And I'm gonna probably forget those two nass but so

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Speaker 2: Yeah, they moved to Colorado. She's still like making reposts

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Speaker 2: especially you've been cheating with this dude for a minute.

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Speaker 1: Well so are you? She told Yeah, you go, sorry,

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Speaker 2: Oh I was just gonna say I found out because

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Speaker 2: I just want to let you know, Like she told

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Speaker 1: So are and you are? Are your two roommates? Are

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Speaker 2: Yeah, they're paying rent, which is good. And I have

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Speaker 2: very reduced rent because I got the couch. I'm only

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Speaker 4: Man.

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Speaker 1: God, damn, you're you're you're you're a real like I

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Speaker 1: don't know, just talking to you, I'm like, Damn, you're

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Speaker 2: You have twenty right now?

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Speaker 1: Twenty one Jesus week christ Man, You're gonna be I

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Speaker 1: don't I don't want to like inflate your head too

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Speaker 1: you I really I don't. I know that's a lot

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Speaker 1: I don't know how much that's worth coming from me,

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Speaker 1: but just hearing the way that you fucking you know

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Speaker 1: its own set of whatever's But uh, I mean, god

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Speaker 1: it's interesting, it's commendable. What's your dream? What do you

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Speaker 1: want to actually do with your what do you want

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Speaker 1: to do with your life? Oh?

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Speaker 2: I wanna two things that either you like, it's kind

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Speaker 2: of dumb. But I either want to like pro game

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Speaker 2: and stream or become an electrician. So I'm gonna rock

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Speaker 2: out with both of those and try. I suppose are

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Speaker 2: you already an electrician, adds anybody in the electrician field.

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Speaker 2: Almost I'm like a game technician, or I used to be,

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Speaker 2: I know more about the and that's what kind of

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Speaker 1: Well. Look, here's the thing. If you think you want

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Speaker 1: to be I don't know why I'm giving advice right now.

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Speaker 1: You know I could ask you for advice more than

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Speaker 1: I could give any to you, but I don't know. Look,

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Speaker 1: if you want to be an electrician and you want

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Speaker 1: to be a programmer, I think the cool thing is

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Speaker 1: that you could do both. I mean, the electrician is

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Speaker 1: probably where the money is and then you know, stream

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Speaker 1: and play games on the side and enjoy your fucking life.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm hoping. I'm hoping. You know, it's a big hope.

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Speaker 2: It's a big prey. I gotta I think one of

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Speaker 2: the big things I've gotta do is learn to like

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Speaker 2: know when to stop taking care of people, because I

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Speaker 1: Yeah. Yeah, I guess that was kind of one of

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Speaker 1: the I mean, oh, I don't know. It's it's hard,

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Speaker 1: right because I actually I I think it's obviously it's

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Speaker 1: I don't know, just at eighteen to be taken on all. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: that's this just too much. It's too much man at

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Speaker 1: I don't I really, I I don't know. I guess, Like,

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Speaker 1: do you think that you're like taking care of people

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Speaker 2: I mean I think I used to. Right now, I'm

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Speaker 2: just been a thing to like, you know, I was

434
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Speaker 2: forced to work since a young age. I was forced

435
00:24:14,440 --> 00:24:17,080
Speaker 2: to look at for other people my entire life. So

436
00:24:17,119 --> 00:24:19,880
Speaker 2: it's just kind of comes naturally, you know. So yeah,

437
00:24:20,119 --> 00:24:22,600
Speaker 2: like I couldn't even tell if it's detrimental or not

438
00:24:22,880 --> 00:24:25,480
Speaker 2: until after the fact, And like all the things I've

439
00:24:25,480 --> 00:24:29,600
Speaker 2: done previously are usually detrimental. But like while I'm going

440
00:24:29,600 --> 00:24:31,919
Speaker 2: through the motion, you know, like I'm just doing.

441
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Speaker 1: It, okay, all right, Well man, Well look man, I

442
00:24:38,040 --> 00:24:40,760
Speaker 1: don't know. You work hard, so I make sure that

443
00:24:40,800 --> 00:24:44,479
Speaker 1: you're doing all right before you, you know, rip your

444
00:24:44,520 --> 00:24:49,639
Speaker 1: own fucking uh, you know, before you stick a straw

445
00:24:50,560 --> 00:24:52,960
Speaker 1: in your hearts and let other people suck all the

446
00:24:53,080 --> 00:24:55,800
Speaker 1: blood out of your body.

447
00:24:57,200 --> 00:24:59,359
Speaker 2: So I need to work on that. I do need

448
00:24:59,400 --> 00:24:59,920
Speaker 2: to work on.

449
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Speaker 1: It's been nice talking to you. Man. What's your name again? Angel?

450
00:25:06,680 --> 00:25:07,200
Speaker 2: Yeah?

451
00:25:07,440 --> 00:25:12,600
Speaker 1: Yeah, Angel? Oh, you know we're gonna bleep that we're

452
00:25:12,600 --> 00:25:17,280
Speaker 1: gonna bleep that we're gonna I'm gonna believe, I'm not

453
00:25:17,320 --> 00:25:22,480
Speaker 1: gonna we're air. We're a fake first name only podcast

454
00:25:22,680 --> 00:25:24,199
Speaker 1: over here, so we're gonna bleep that.

455
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Speaker 2: I appreciate.

456
00:25:26,040 --> 00:25:27,320
Speaker 1: Angel. Is there anything else you want to say to

457
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Speaker 1: the people of the computer before we go.

458
00:25:30,280 --> 00:25:36,840
Speaker 2: Oh, let's see we keep it pushing, Keep it pushing.

459
00:25:36,880 --> 00:25:39,920
Speaker 2: No matter what happens, you can always find a way.

460
00:25:40,119 --> 00:25:43,320
Speaker 2: You won't find a way if you're just stressing about

461
00:25:43,320 --> 00:25:45,800
Speaker 2: what will. You gotta just do what you can with

462
00:25:45,880 --> 00:25:46,440
Speaker 2: what you got.

463
00:25:48,200 --> 00:25:49,679
Speaker 1: Hey, take care, Angel, Good luck to you.

464
00:25:50,880 --> 00:25:52,160
Speaker 2: Hey, you too, man, goodbye.

465
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Speaker 1: Man. What a fascinating interview with a fifty three year

466
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Speaker 1: old twenty year old That guy was. I don't know,

467
00:26:00,840 --> 00:26:04,680
Speaker 1: sometimes you just like you guys, you ever just talk

468
00:26:04,800 --> 00:26:10,240
Speaker 1: to someone who has like, uh, just makes you feel

469
00:26:10,240 --> 00:26:12,199
Speaker 1: like such a piece of shit. That was what that

470
00:26:12,240 --> 00:26:15,440
Speaker 1: whole conversation was. That whole conversation made me feel like

471
00:26:15,480 --> 00:26:19,040
Speaker 1: a piece of shit. Not to make it about me,

472
00:26:19,760 --> 00:26:23,239
Speaker 1: but yeah, that guy what a he That guy just

473
00:26:23,400 --> 00:26:30,679
Speaker 1: bent his entire body into a a fucking slinky for

474
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Speaker 1: for people who fucked them over, and uh, you know,

475
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Speaker 1: I'm sure I look it was a bit of some

476
00:26:36,119 --> 00:26:37,960
Speaker 1: time ago. But he doesn't even say That's the thing is,

477
00:26:37,960 --> 00:26:40,800
Speaker 1: he doesn't even seem rattled about it. He doesn't even

478
00:26:40,880 --> 00:26:43,960
Speaker 1: seem rattled about it. He just keeps going. This guy

479
00:26:43,960 --> 00:26:46,400
Speaker 1: he's gonna be even sometimes I just talk to people

480
00:26:46,400 --> 00:26:49,000
Speaker 1: on this podcast and I'm like, Oh, this fucking guy's

481
00:26:49,040 --> 00:26:51,960
Speaker 1: gonna be fine. This person's gonna be fine because they

482
00:26:52,080 --> 00:26:58,600
Speaker 1: just have the thing that lets them just take life's

483
00:26:59,280 --> 00:27:08,360
Speaker 1: uh miseries and spit them out uh uh with with

484
00:27:08,359 --> 00:27:14,240
Speaker 1: with so much grace. It's fascinating. I wish I had that.

485
00:27:14,280 --> 00:27:16,959
Speaker 1: I'm trying to work on that a little bit more.

486
00:27:17,000 --> 00:27:21,160
Speaker 1: I'm trying to work on like life not being perfect

487
00:27:21,160 --> 00:27:23,960
Speaker 1: and amazing all the time, and the more and I

488
00:27:24,080 --> 00:27:28,080
Speaker 1: keep I it's hard. I don't want to. I just

489
00:27:28,119 --> 00:27:34,320
Speaker 1: I know my own real life brain so much, and

490
00:27:34,359 --> 00:27:36,880
Speaker 1: I don't want to be one of those motivational people

491
00:27:36,920 --> 00:27:39,080
Speaker 1: who sits on a podcast and goes, life is all

492
00:27:39,119 --> 00:27:43,320
Speaker 1: about perspective and then go into my real life and

493
00:27:43,720 --> 00:27:48,440
Speaker 1: you know, mentally complain. But I just keep running across

494
00:27:50,040 --> 00:27:53,320
Speaker 1: situations in my real life and in doing this podcast

495
00:27:53,359 --> 00:27:55,359
Speaker 1: that just make me keep being like, damn, life is

496
00:27:55,400 --> 00:27:58,920
Speaker 1: about perspective. Especially you know when we have a caller

497
00:27:59,080 --> 00:28:04,800
Speaker 1: like this last one who just you know, gets it, uh,

498
00:28:05,080 --> 00:28:08,240
Speaker 1: who just gets it in the in the fucking chest,

499
00:28:08,840 --> 00:28:11,680
Speaker 1: takes it with pride, keeps going. He's gonna be fine.

500
00:28:12,800 --> 00:28:17,520
Speaker 1: I really I hope he You know he's unfortunately, he's

501
00:28:17,560 --> 00:28:20,400
Speaker 1: a great target for like a love scam or something

502
00:28:20,480 --> 00:28:23,840
Speaker 1: like that. I hope he doesn't. I hope he I

503
00:28:23,880 --> 00:28:29,040
Speaker 1: hope he maintains some kind of like self preservation. This guy, right,

504
00:28:29,119 --> 00:28:32,199
Speaker 1: that's the way. That's a weird conundrum. It's like how

505
00:28:32,280 --> 00:28:35,080
Speaker 1: much do you attempt to self preserve versus how much

506
00:28:35,160 --> 00:28:39,000
Speaker 1: do you uh give to others? Because if you if

507
00:28:39,040 --> 00:28:42,120
Speaker 1: you're one hundred percent self preservation, you're gonna be fucking

508
00:28:42,200 --> 00:28:46,320
Speaker 1: miserable and alone. But if you're one hundred percent giving

509
00:28:46,560 --> 00:28:49,120
Speaker 1: to other people, then you're you won't You're not gonna

510
00:28:49,160 --> 00:28:52,800
Speaker 1: have anything, and you're also gonna be just uh uh

511
00:28:53,040 --> 00:28:58,440
Speaker 1: an empty squeeze. You're gonnnna be a an empty plastic

512
00:28:58,520 --> 00:29:01,760
Speaker 1: water bottle in a gutter. You know, I don't know

513
00:29:01,800 --> 00:29:10,400
Speaker 1: I'm being dramatic. I'm being dramatic. Uh okay, Hello, Hello, Hey,

514
00:29:10,680 --> 00:29:11,320
Speaker 1: what's your name?

515
00:29:13,080 --> 00:29:13,920
Speaker 3: My name's Abby?

516
00:29:14,680 --> 00:29:18,760
Speaker 1: Abby? What's up? Abby? Like Abbey Road? You know the Beatles?

517
00:29:20,280 --> 00:29:20,920
Speaker 3: A little bit?

518
00:29:21,640 --> 00:29:22,320
Speaker 1: Not too much?

519
00:29:22,360 --> 00:29:22,719
Speaker 3: Sadly?

520
00:29:23,240 --> 00:29:24,520
Speaker 1: How old are you? Can? I ask?

521
00:29:26,440 --> 00:29:26,920
Speaker 3: Nineteen?

522
00:29:27,840 --> 00:29:29,840
Speaker 1: Okay? I you know, I was just thinking about this.

523
00:29:29,920 --> 00:29:34,120
Speaker 1: We're getting to a point in time where I was like,

524
00:29:34,280 --> 00:29:37,840
Speaker 1: at some point, there's gonna be like a generation of

525
00:29:37,880 --> 00:29:39,880
Speaker 1: people who just don't know who the Beatles are.

526
00:29:42,120 --> 00:29:45,040
Speaker 3: Yeah, I'm sorry, do you know anything.

527
00:29:44,760 --> 00:29:48,520
Speaker 1: About do you know? Like, do you know anything about

528
00:29:48,520 --> 00:29:50,160
Speaker 1: the Beatles? I don't know. I don't know why I'm

529
00:29:50,680 --> 00:29:53,200
Speaker 1: doing this right now, but I'm just curious.

530
00:29:53,760 --> 00:29:57,480
Speaker 3: Oh no, you're good. Uh. I know they're I know

531
00:29:57,560 --> 00:30:02,040
Speaker 3: they're British. I know John Lennon is kind of maybe

532
00:30:02,080 --> 00:30:06,640
Speaker 3: a bad guy. I know they I know they have

533
00:30:07,000 --> 00:30:12,200
Speaker 3: some pretty good songs. Okay, I can't list too many, but.

534
00:30:12,440 --> 00:30:19,240
Speaker 1: Yeah, okay, you're but you're you're aware that the Beatles exist. Yes,

535
00:30:20,040 --> 00:30:21,840
Speaker 1: you know who they are? You know, like if I

536
00:30:21,880 --> 00:30:23,280
Speaker 1: say the Beatles, you're not like, what's that?

537
00:30:25,280 --> 00:30:25,520
Speaker 3: Yeah?

538
00:30:26,160 --> 00:30:28,760
Speaker 1: Okay, but the but the information you had, can you

539
00:30:28,840 --> 00:30:31,160
Speaker 1: name one Beatles song?

540
00:30:33,320 --> 00:30:35,960
Speaker 3: Uh? Isn't there? Hey, Jude, there's.

541
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Speaker 1: Yeah, Okay, there we go. Okay, all right, and you're

542
00:30:39,400 --> 00:30:43,560
Speaker 1: nineteen Okay, so we're a we're It's only I think

543
00:30:43,560 --> 00:30:46,600
Speaker 1: in the next five years we're gonna have nineteen year

544
00:30:46,600 --> 00:30:48,520
Speaker 1: olds who don't know who the Beatles are.

545
00:30:50,360 --> 00:30:51,760
Speaker 3: Really, you really think that?

546
00:30:52,360 --> 00:30:55,120
Speaker 1: I think? So, I don't know. I'm such an I'm

547
00:30:55,320 --> 00:30:59,880
Speaker 1: I'm insane. I I I'm in. I was talking to

548
00:31:00,080 --> 00:31:03,000
Speaker 1: chat GPT and I was like, when do you I

549
00:31:03,080 --> 00:31:05,719
Speaker 1: This is something I literally asked to chat GPT. I

550
00:31:05,800 --> 00:31:09,880
Speaker 1: was like, when do you think people will forget about Garfield?

551
00:31:13,120 --> 00:31:15,720
Speaker 3: That's that's like how old me because you know, the

552
00:31:16,880 --> 00:31:19,600
Speaker 3: Internet and everything, Like I feel like I feel like

553
00:31:20,160 --> 00:31:21,840
Speaker 3: that kind of stuff's just going to be around for

554
00:31:21,880 --> 00:31:22,720
Speaker 3: a really long time.

555
00:31:23,520 --> 00:31:26,680
Speaker 1: But I but I don't because like every because here's

556
00:31:26,720 --> 00:31:29,960
Speaker 1: the thing, like, like I don't like if you're like,

557
00:31:30,040 --> 00:31:35,160
Speaker 1: if you're like fifteen, you're probably watching some like YouTube

558
00:31:35,680 --> 00:31:38,800
Speaker 1: thing that like I that, like, I have no fucking

559
00:31:38,880 --> 00:31:43,120
Speaker 1: idea what it is like you're probably not like like

560
00:31:43,240 --> 00:31:45,320
Speaker 1: the like when I was fifteen, there were still like

561
00:31:45,320 --> 00:31:47,120
Speaker 1: we would go to I don't know why I'm going

562
00:31:47,120 --> 00:31:49,239
Speaker 1: on this rant, but like there would be like a

563
00:31:49,280 --> 00:31:53,520
Speaker 1: movie that everyone would watch. But now like for young people,

564
00:31:53,560 --> 00:31:56,920
Speaker 1: like media is so like segregated and and uh not

565
00:31:57,000 --> 00:32:01,280
Speaker 1: every it's it's not as homogeneous I think it was,

566
00:32:01,320 --> 00:32:04,960
Speaker 1: and it's getting like rapidly less and less homogenous. So

567
00:32:05,000 --> 00:32:07,880
Speaker 1: I just wouldn't be surprised if there were like a

568
00:32:07,880 --> 00:32:10,640
Speaker 1: lot of like I don't know, like people in high school.

569
00:32:10,640 --> 00:32:13,440
Speaker 1: We just don't know who Garfield is? Like like soon,

570
00:32:14,560 --> 00:32:16,479
Speaker 1: like where would you where do you find out who

571
00:32:16,560 --> 00:32:20,600
Speaker 1: Garfield is? Like? Like who on Twitter and TikTok and

572
00:32:20,680 --> 00:32:24,160
Speaker 1: Instagram is like talking about Garfield? Like how do people

573
00:32:24,240 --> 00:32:26,960
Speaker 1: even keep knowing who he is? Does that make sense?

574
00:32:28,600 --> 00:32:31,400
Speaker 3: Yeah? I guess that makes sense, But I guess I

575
00:32:31,440 --> 00:32:33,320
Speaker 3: don't know. For me growing up on the Internet, I

576
00:32:33,400 --> 00:32:36,240
Speaker 3: kind of just got everything all at once, just thrown

577
00:32:36,320 --> 00:32:39,640
Speaker 3: up me, you know, so I feel like it's yeah,

578
00:32:39,720 --> 00:32:41,400
Speaker 3: I feel like it will last a pretty long time.

579
00:32:42,680 --> 00:32:44,520
Speaker 1: But it's interest because when you say you got everything

580
00:32:44,560 --> 00:32:46,160
Speaker 1: thrown at you all at once, it's like, well, what

581
00:32:46,360 --> 00:32:49,680
Speaker 1: is everything? I mean, you know, who's you know, SpongeBob

582
00:32:49,760 --> 00:32:51,720
Speaker 1: it's gonna do? I think SpongeBob is gonna be around

583
00:32:51,720 --> 00:32:52,600
Speaker 1: for a long time.

584
00:32:54,000 --> 00:32:55,280
Speaker 3: Oh yeah, of course, of course.

585
00:32:56,120 --> 00:33:01,040
Speaker 1: But you weren't like when like okay, so the first

586
00:33:01,120 --> 00:33:04,200
Speaker 1: three seasons of SpongeBob is where most of the memes

587
00:33:04,200 --> 00:33:07,280
Speaker 1: come from. It's like the Golden Age, and like I

588
00:33:07,320 --> 00:33:12,240
Speaker 1: think I was at like SpongeBob watching age a little

589
00:33:12,280 --> 00:33:16,360
Speaker 1: bit after those came out, but you you were probably

590
00:33:16,400 --> 00:33:21,640
Speaker 1: at SpongeBob watching age like long after those came out,

591
00:33:21,680 --> 00:33:25,160
Speaker 1: Like we were on the SpongeBob seasons that people consider

592
00:33:25,240 --> 00:33:29,600
Speaker 1: shitty when you were around, like the age that SpongeBob

593
00:33:29,640 --> 00:33:31,120
Speaker 1: is I guess marketed towards.

594
00:33:32,800 --> 00:33:35,240
Speaker 3: Yeah, I guess you could say that. I think my

595
00:33:35,360 --> 00:33:37,959
Speaker 3: parents actually bought like the older disc or like the

596
00:33:38,000 --> 00:33:40,080
Speaker 3: older seasons of SpongeBob.

597
00:33:39,720 --> 00:33:42,000
Speaker 1: When we were growing up, yeah.

598
00:33:41,680 --> 00:33:43,360
Speaker 3: Instead of like the newer ones.

599
00:33:44,880 --> 00:33:48,600
Speaker 1: There go there, Like are you familiar you know the

600
00:33:48,640 --> 00:33:56,160
Speaker 1: episode where squid word forms a band? Oh? Yeah, okay,

601
00:33:56,200 --> 00:33:58,760
Speaker 1: all right. I don't know why. I just I guess

602
00:33:58,800 --> 00:34:04,200
Speaker 1: I'm like pessimistic because I don't know, uh a lot

603
00:34:04,240 --> 00:34:07,400
Speaker 1: about like like do you watch like mister Beast, Like

604
00:34:07,440 --> 00:34:09,320
Speaker 1: who's the guy now?

605
00:34:10,120 --> 00:34:13,719
Speaker 3: I I don't. I don't really know. Like I think

606
00:34:13,760 --> 00:34:16,200
Speaker 3: I'm just too busy with like college. I don't know.

607
00:34:16,400 --> 00:34:20,200
Speaker 3: I write interesting thing about mister Beasts is I actually

608
00:34:20,280 --> 00:34:22,480
Speaker 3: knew someone from my high school who got on to

609
00:34:22,560 --> 00:34:23,520
Speaker 3: his Amazon show.

610
00:34:24,680 --> 00:34:27,840
Speaker 1: Oh really had that go for them? By the Dead.

611
00:34:30,560 --> 00:34:32,520
Speaker 3: I think they got out first episode. I think they

612
00:34:32,560 --> 00:34:34,040
Speaker 3: had like a one like second thing.

613
00:34:34,080 --> 00:34:34,960
Speaker 1: But it was so cool.

614
00:34:34,800 --> 00:34:35,279
Speaker 3: Seeing that.

615
00:34:37,920 --> 00:34:40,360
Speaker 1: I have a random thought. I'm a hold on about it.

616
00:34:40,600 --> 00:34:42,600
Speaker 1: I know that you called in probably to talk about something,

617
00:34:42,600 --> 00:34:43,759
Speaker 1: and we're going to get there, but I just need

618
00:34:43,800 --> 00:34:46,800
Speaker 1: to talk about Garfield for like one more minute.

619
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Speaker 3: Oh you're so good, don't even worry.

620
00:34:49,000 --> 00:34:51,720
Speaker 1: I was talking of I opened my l the last

621
00:34:51,760 --> 00:34:55,520
Speaker 1: podcast by talking about how we're part of the six

622
00:34:55,560 --> 00:34:57,799
Speaker 1: percent of people who are alive out of all the

623
00:34:57,800 --> 00:35:00,680
Speaker 1: people that I've ever been born, and I got there

624
00:35:00,760 --> 00:35:03,600
Speaker 1: was somebody made a comment because you can make like

625
00:35:03,640 --> 00:35:06,919
Speaker 1: comments on Spotify now, and somebody made a comment being

626
00:35:06,960 --> 00:35:09,920
Speaker 1: likely lyle you need to shut the fuck up about death.

627
00:35:10,440 --> 00:35:13,000
Speaker 1: You're clear you're you need to see a therapist. You're

628
00:35:13,000 --> 00:35:15,799
Speaker 1: clearly very depressed, but like you need to shut up

629
00:35:15,840 --> 00:35:18,279
Speaker 1: about it and like go get therapy, you're depressed. And

630
00:35:18,320 --> 00:35:20,560
Speaker 1: I'm like, maybe I actually think this person is right.

631
00:35:20,560 --> 00:35:23,239
Speaker 1: I think I think about death too much because I

632
00:35:23,360 --> 00:35:27,560
Speaker 1: just had this thought just now. I was like, like,

633
00:35:27,840 --> 00:35:31,520
Speaker 1: in like, okay, human being, let's say you live to eighty,

634
00:35:32,520 --> 00:35:36,920
Speaker 1: Like how much time of the eighty years of your

635
00:35:36,920 --> 00:35:44,120
Speaker 1: life does the average person spend looking at Garfield?

636
00:35:46,600 --> 00:35:49,680
Speaker 3: That's interesting. I thought it was a completely different route,

637
00:35:50,800 --> 00:35:54,600
Speaker 3: more depressing of like you're being like more depressing of

638
00:35:54,680 --> 00:35:57,680
Speaker 3: like how how long does the average person out spend

639
00:35:57,719 --> 00:35:59,680
Speaker 3: looking at their phone? But I guess Garfield's a lot.

640
00:36:00,800 --> 00:36:03,600
Speaker 1: Oh no, no, that's really depressing. Oh well, because all

641
00:36:03,640 --> 00:36:06,040
Speaker 1: the there's like you can you can mathematic there is

642
00:36:06,080 --> 00:36:09,200
Speaker 1: a mathematical percentage. I'm looking at a picture of Garfield

643
00:36:09,280 --> 00:36:13,200
Speaker 1: right now. There's a mathematical percentage. Fuck you know what.

644
00:36:13,239 --> 00:36:16,960
Speaker 1: Fuck that Spotify comment right now, Fuck that Spotify comment

645
00:36:17,040 --> 00:36:19,560
Speaker 1: or guy, I'm gonna I'm gonna keep talking about death.

646
00:36:19,840 --> 00:36:23,759
Speaker 1: It's important. I'm looking at Garfield right now. And it's

647
00:36:23,760 --> 00:36:26,600
Speaker 1: like if you I always wonder about like, uh, you

648
00:36:26,600 --> 00:36:28,799
Speaker 1: ever you ever heard that thing of like, oh, when

649
00:36:28,800 --> 00:36:31,120
Speaker 1: I die, it would be cool to have like stats,

650
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Speaker 1: Like there's a stat there's a literal percentage of the

651
00:36:35,719 --> 00:36:39,040
Speaker 1: time I have been alive and the time that I

652
00:36:39,200 --> 00:36:42,600
Speaker 1: will until from now until I die that you can

653
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Speaker 1: calculate that is a number of the percentage of time

654
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Speaker 1: that I have been alive that my eyes have been

655
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Speaker 1: looking at Garfield. And I'm just curious what that percentage is.

656
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Speaker 1: And I'm curious what that percentage is. You know, nationally,

657
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Speaker 1: across all the people that have died for nineteen U

658
00:37:04,080 --> 00:37:08,200
Speaker 1: seventy six, the answer was zero percent. But then after

659
00:37:08,239 --> 00:37:13,840
Speaker 1: Garfield was created, that number went up. Okay, what'd you

660
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Speaker 1: want to Okay, all right, I'm done with this. What

661
00:37:15,640 --> 00:37:16,759
Speaker 1: did you want to talk about today?

662
00:37:16,800 --> 00:37:18,520
Speaker 3: Well, I was just gonna I was just gonna ask

663
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Speaker 3: how often do you think about Garfield?

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Speaker 1: If you're truly not truly not that often, truly, not

665
00:37:24,680 --> 00:37:27,600
Speaker 1: that often. I just I don't know why, but I

666
00:37:27,680 --> 00:37:31,759
Speaker 1: just like searched. That is because chatch apt It's like

667
00:37:31,840 --> 00:37:34,600
Speaker 1: talking to fucking god dude, and you can ask it

668
00:37:35,200 --> 00:37:38,520
Speaker 1: insane questions and it will human because if you because

669
00:37:38,600 --> 00:37:40,359
Speaker 1: if you're like talking to your friend and you're like,

670
00:37:41,239 --> 00:37:43,399
Speaker 1: do you think people when do you think Garfields will

671
00:37:43,440 --> 00:37:46,200
Speaker 1: be forgotten? Your friend will go, what's shut up? What

672
00:37:46,239 --> 00:37:48,520
Speaker 1: are you talking about? That's a really stupid thing. But

673
00:37:49,000 --> 00:37:52,680
Speaker 1: if you have a really stupid question and you ask

674
00:37:52,800 --> 00:37:58,880
Speaker 1: it to AI AI will you it will use power

675
00:38:00,239 --> 00:38:03,759
Speaker 1: to fucking try to answer your stupid question. Will never

676
00:38:04,360 --> 00:38:07,239
Speaker 1: tell you that your question is too stupid. Sometimes I

677
00:38:07,280 --> 00:38:09,880
Speaker 1: think it should sometimes I think if you ask Garfield

678
00:38:09,920 --> 00:38:12,080
Speaker 1: a question like I mean, if did Garfield? If you

679
00:38:12,120 --> 00:38:14,960
Speaker 1: ask chat Chipetia a question like when will people forget Garfield?

680
00:38:15,000 --> 00:38:18,080
Speaker 1: I do think as part of a like an artificial

681
00:38:18,080 --> 00:38:21,760
Speaker 1: intelligence safeguard to prevent it from destroying humanity. It should

682
00:38:21,760 --> 00:38:24,400
Speaker 1: tell you to go outside, but it doesn't do that.

683
00:38:24,440 --> 00:38:28,040
Speaker 1: It actually helps you answer your stupid questions. What's up?

684
00:38:28,080 --> 00:38:29,200
Speaker 1: What's your name? Again? No?

685
00:38:30,440 --> 00:38:32,800
Speaker 3: Abby, I do wonder what chat GPT would say to

686
00:38:32,880 --> 00:38:34,920
Speaker 3: your question now though, Yeah, but.

687
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Speaker 1: You could just you could just keep asking. I've asked

688
00:38:36,880 --> 00:38:39,920
Speaker 1: it so many questions that are just are like, I

689
00:38:39,960 --> 00:38:41,520
Speaker 1: don't need why do I need to know the answer

690
00:38:41,560 --> 00:38:47,240
Speaker 1: to this? Sometimes sometimes having questions is better than having answers.

691
00:38:49,000 --> 00:38:50,520
Speaker 3: Sometimes you don't need to know the answer.

692
00:38:51,600 --> 00:38:55,440
Speaker 1: Yeah, I don't like reading the chat on the podcast,

693
00:38:55,440 --> 00:38:57,120
Speaker 1: but I'm gonna do it. Somebody in the chat just

694
00:38:57,160 --> 00:39:01,120
Speaker 1: said good friends will hear out any question students that

695
00:39:01,200 --> 00:39:03,680
Speaker 1: you ask, And I don't think that that's necessarily true.

696
00:39:03,719 --> 00:39:08,640
Speaker 1: I think occasionally a good friend, you know what, Maybe

697
00:39:08,640 --> 00:39:11,080
Speaker 1: that's true. Maybe that's true. But if you if you

698
00:39:11,160 --> 00:39:13,759
Speaker 1: ask if I treated my good friend the way I

699
00:39:13,800 --> 00:39:17,000
Speaker 1: treat CHATGBT, if I if my good friend was good enough,

700
00:39:17,080 --> 00:39:19,640
Speaker 1: my good friend would be like, you need to just

701
00:39:20,440 --> 00:39:22,440
Speaker 1: you need to drink some water and have a cigarette

702
00:39:22,520 --> 00:39:26,120
Speaker 1: and you'll be Okay, what's up? Abby?

703
00:39:27,160 --> 00:39:29,160
Speaker 3: You just got to keep people real. I'm doing all right.

704
00:39:30,600 --> 00:39:33,960
Speaker 3: I just got the flu. But that's okay because I'm

705
00:39:34,000 --> 00:39:34,520
Speaker 3: getting better.

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Speaker 1: Uh, that's a very optimistic talk to have. I'm curious,

707
00:39:41,239 --> 00:39:43,920
Speaker 1: and it's totally okay if you didn't, because we found

708
00:39:43,960 --> 00:39:46,799
Speaker 1: our way to whatever this is. But do you have

709
00:39:46,840 --> 00:39:49,560
Speaker 1: something specific that you wanted to talk about today?

710
00:39:50,640 --> 00:39:52,960
Speaker 3: I have a very interesting story to tell.

711
00:39:53,239 --> 00:39:57,200
Speaker 1: I guess what's it about.

712
00:39:57,520 --> 00:40:01,880
Speaker 3: So I'm a twin and when I was younger, my

713
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Speaker 3: mom signed me and my brother up for a twin

714
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Speaker 3: study and it went very interesting. I'll say that.

715
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Speaker 1: Okay, care to elaborate.

716
00:40:16,960 --> 00:40:19,520
Speaker 3: So I guess I was like, I don't really know

717
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Speaker 3: how old I was.

718
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Speaker 1: I was.

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Speaker 3: I guess at that age where I was like marketed

720
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Speaker 3: towards SpongeBob, like what we were talking about. And there

721
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Speaker 3: was this college and they were doing just studies on twins,

722
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Speaker 3: and since I'm a twin, I think my mom got

723
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Speaker 3: some money out of it, and she's like, oh, I'll

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Speaker 3: just I'll just sign them up for it, like what

725
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Speaker 3: what's the worst that could happen? And we go in

726
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Speaker 3: there and they immediately like start asking us like the

727
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Speaker 3: normal health questions like how old are you guys? Like

728
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Speaker 3: who's older? All that other stuff. But there's two rooms

729
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Speaker 3: behind these two people that are like that. I guess

730
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Speaker 3: they're the ones that are doing the test on us.

731
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Speaker 3: And they tell us that there's gonna be like a

732
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Speaker 3: quiz test and there's gonna be a physical test. So

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Speaker 3: my brother goes into like the quiz test, and I

734
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Speaker 3: go into like the physical test, which is like in

735
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Speaker 3: the room right over. And you go into this room

736
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Speaker 3: and it's really tiny, and this lady has this l

737
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Speaker 3: shaped desk and you know like those dentist chairs that

738
00:41:24,160 --> 00:41:27,200
Speaker 3: are like like it looks like a dentist chair, but

739
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Speaker 3: it's like propped all the way up, like it's not

740
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Speaker 3: like fully laid back, and there's all these contraptions just

741
00:41:34,560 --> 00:41:37,719
Speaker 3: strapped to it. And she's just asking me these very

742
00:41:37,760 --> 00:41:40,120
Speaker 3: normal questions. And then we start doing the physical test

743
00:41:41,840 --> 00:41:46,960
Speaker 3: and it's like normal like blood pressure whatever. But then

744
00:41:47,000 --> 00:41:52,160
Speaker 3: she's like, we're gonna do something different, and she like

745
00:41:52,280 --> 00:41:58,360
Speaker 3: straps me down and like puts like those like laughing

746
00:41:58,480 --> 00:42:02,279
Speaker 3: gas masks on me, and I guess she starts just

747
00:42:02,360 --> 00:42:04,799
Speaker 3: like giving me some like random ass gas that makes

748
00:42:04,800 --> 00:42:07,480
Speaker 3: me start to panic, but she's like reading all these

749
00:42:07,480 --> 00:42:12,520
Speaker 3: super scientific calculations on her computer, and it was just

750
00:42:12,719 --> 00:42:15,200
Speaker 3: it was it was very interesting going through that as

751
00:42:15,239 --> 00:42:17,240
Speaker 3: like a little child, like, I don't have any trauma

752
00:42:17,239 --> 00:42:20,080
Speaker 3: related to it. I just think it's funny that.

753
00:42:21,040 --> 00:42:23,360
Speaker 1: Well, so is this is the study still going on?

754
00:42:25,880 --> 00:42:29,040
Speaker 3: I think? I don't know. I like, I think they're

755
00:42:29,040 --> 00:42:31,120
Speaker 3: still doing a twin study. I don't know if they're

756
00:42:31,120 --> 00:42:38,080
Speaker 3: still doing that specific study, hm hmm. But but with

757
00:42:38,239 --> 00:42:41,080
Speaker 3: this lady, it's she was like she was just gonna

758
00:42:41,080 --> 00:42:43,120
Speaker 3: be like, hey, just tell me when it gets too

759
00:42:43,200 --> 00:42:45,759
Speaker 3: much to you. And I, like, I like to just

760
00:42:45,760 --> 00:42:49,600
Speaker 3: started like panicking because you know, that's a really weird

761
00:42:49,600 --> 00:42:51,480
Speaker 3: situation to be in. And so I tell her to

762
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Speaker 3: take it off, and she says, no, we're getting good

763
00:42:53,640 --> 00:42:57,319
Speaker 3: test results. All the while, my brother's hearing me like

764
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Speaker 3: scream and cry in the room next over, probably like

765
00:43:02,040 --> 00:43:04,160
Speaker 3: really nervous for what he has to do next.

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Speaker 1: Right, what did did they? I mean, so did they

767
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Speaker 1: did they get any conclusions?

768
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Speaker 3: Well that's the next part of it. My brother since

769
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Speaker 3: he didn't do the physical test because he like he

770
00:43:20,880 --> 00:43:22,880
Speaker 3: went to go switch. My brother was like, absolutely not.

771
00:43:23,680 --> 00:43:26,440
Speaker 3: They technically couldn't make a conclusion because they didn't get

772
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Speaker 3: the other half.

773
00:43:29,840 --> 00:43:32,359
Speaker 1: Oh so your brother heard you screaming and nope, doubt.

774
00:43:33,800 --> 00:43:34,080
Speaker 3: Yeah.

775
00:43:34,120 --> 00:43:37,959
Speaker 1: Basically they can't have a twin study with with just one.

776
00:43:39,520 --> 00:43:43,680
Speaker 3: No, you can't. So I just I like just randomly

777
00:43:43,680 --> 00:43:45,120
Speaker 3: remembered this thing too.

778
00:43:45,400 --> 00:43:49,600
Speaker 1: Like your mom ago. But did your mom get any

779
00:43:49,600 --> 00:43:51,160
Speaker 1: money for for your torture?

780
00:43:52,920 --> 00:43:55,000
Speaker 3: I think so. I don't know if it was torture.

781
00:43:55,080 --> 00:43:57,320
Speaker 3: I think it could have just been me genuinely panicking

782
00:43:57,440 --> 00:44:00,279
Speaker 3: as a kid. But I just think the situation or

783
00:44:00,280 --> 00:44:06,400
Speaker 3: funny than anything. M it's very peculiar.

784
00:44:08,640 --> 00:44:11,160
Speaker 1: Uh did did your was your mom like mad at

785
00:44:11,160 --> 00:44:14,640
Speaker 1: your brother for uh not participating in the study.

786
00:44:17,600 --> 00:44:21,080
Speaker 3: She seemed a little disappointed more than anything, But they

787
00:44:21,120 --> 00:44:23,840
Speaker 3: still gave her like the full amount of money, which

788
00:44:23,960 --> 00:44:24,960
Speaker 3: I find interesting.

789
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Speaker 1: M M.

790
00:44:27,440 --> 00:44:29,560
Speaker 3: I guess that just comes with like working with children,

791
00:44:29,640 --> 00:44:31,239
Speaker 3: you know, like sometimes they're just not going.

792
00:44:31,160 --> 00:44:37,040
Speaker 1: To cooperate, right, Yeah, this sounds like how uh how

793
00:44:37,080 --> 00:44:42,000
Speaker 1: people get humans centipeded? Is with like a studies like this.

794
00:44:42,200 --> 00:44:44,000
Speaker 3: Oh don't don't compare to that.

795
00:44:46,520 --> 00:44:48,920
Speaker 1: Well what's your name again? Abby?

796
00:44:50,440 --> 00:44:51,400
Speaker 3: Yeah? Abby?

797
00:44:53,719 --> 00:44:56,080
Speaker 1: Well thanks for letting me rant to you about Garfield

798
00:44:56,080 --> 00:45:00,480
Speaker 1: for ten minutes. I really do appreciate you U let

799
00:45:00,520 --> 00:45:04,800
Speaker 1: it being there while I did that. Oh yeah, of course,

800
00:45:05,760 --> 00:45:06,759
Speaker 1: is there anything else you want to say to the

801
00:45:06,800 --> 00:45:12,719
Speaker 1: people of the computer before we go, not really, just.

802
00:45:12,680 --> 00:45:14,200
Speaker 3: Don't don't trust scientists.

803
00:45:14,280 --> 00:45:17,320
Speaker 1: I guess don't. Yes, what that is a great message.

804
00:45:18,560 --> 00:45:19,720
Speaker 1: Do not trust science.

805
00:45:20,200 --> 00:45:20,920
Speaker 3: I didn't think about it.

806
00:45:21,040 --> 00:45:23,040
Speaker 1: Do not trust no, no, no, Abby, you said it. You

807
00:45:23,040 --> 00:45:25,640
Speaker 1: can't take it back. We do not trust scientists. We

808
00:45:25,800 --> 00:45:29,920
Speaker 1: question everything. There was no such thing as verifiable evidence,

809
00:45:30,239 --> 00:45:33,920
Speaker 1: and the uh, the solar system revolves around the Earth.

810
00:45:35,640 --> 00:45:45,080
Speaker 1: Thank you very much for calling Abby. All right, see it? Hello, Hello, hey, hello, Hi.

811
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Speaker 1: What is your name?

812
00:45:46,880 --> 00:45:48,240
Speaker 4: Hey? My name is Stella.

813
00:45:48,400 --> 00:45:48,920
Speaker 3: How are you doing?

814
00:45:48,960 --> 00:45:50,920
Speaker 1: Wele? It's it's what.

815
00:45:52,600 --> 00:45:52,960
Speaker 4: Stella?

816
00:45:53,920 --> 00:45:57,359
Speaker 2: Stella sure or whatever.

817
00:45:57,040 --> 00:46:00,239
Speaker 1: You'd like, Stella like like the beer stella arose h.

818
00:46:01,160 --> 00:46:02,600
Speaker 4: Yes, yeah, I don't know.

819
00:46:04,400 --> 00:46:11,120
Speaker 1: That's how stella because when the sun shines, will shine together.

820
00:46:11,440 --> 00:46:14,959
Speaker 1: So all right, well, what's up, Stella? How you doing?

821
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Speaker 1: How's how's life? Stella?

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00:46:17,960 --> 00:46:21,320
Speaker 4: Life is pretty uh up in the air, trying to

823
00:46:21,320 --> 00:46:24,400
Speaker 4: stay afloat. But I mean, nonetheless, it's good to be alive.

824
00:46:24,520 --> 00:46:25,319
Speaker 4: You know, how are you?

825
00:46:26,800 --> 00:46:31,040
Speaker 1: How much I'm every single it's every single day I'm

826
00:46:31,080 --> 00:46:34,640
Speaker 1: realizing that I I don't know anything about fucking anything,

827
00:46:35,320 --> 00:46:39,560
Speaker 1: And there's like life can only be uh, there's a

828
00:46:39,680 --> 00:46:42,600
Speaker 1: it's I don't know if it's a quote directly that

829
00:46:42,680 --> 00:46:48,960
Speaker 1: somebody said, or if it's more of a just general adage,

830
00:46:49,520 --> 00:46:54,000
Speaker 1: but the idea that life can only be lived forward

831
00:46:54,440 --> 00:46:58,680
Speaker 1: and understood backwards makes so much goddamn sense to me.

832
00:46:59,600 --> 00:47:03,040
Speaker 1: Every year that I get a little bit older and

833
00:47:03,160 --> 00:47:07,480
Speaker 1: things start to make sense a little bit more, and

834
00:47:07,560 --> 00:47:09,720
Speaker 1: it's weird for me. Yeah, I'm giving you the actual

835
00:47:09,719 --> 00:47:12,799
Speaker 1: answers to the question of how I'm doing, So give

836
00:47:12,840 --> 00:47:18,840
Speaker 1: me a second, and you know, I genuinely I really

837
00:47:19,040 --> 00:47:25,920
Speaker 1: like doing this podcast when I am in the position

838
00:47:26,080 --> 00:47:32,200
Speaker 1: of like like being I don't know. Sometimes sometimes I

839
00:47:32,200 --> 00:47:34,360
Speaker 1: struggle with it. Sometimes I struggle with but sometimes like

840
00:47:34,360 --> 00:47:37,239
Speaker 1: to like today, for some reason, I'm having a real

841
00:47:37,239 --> 00:47:38,920
Speaker 1: good time with it. But sometimes I struggle with it

842
00:47:38,960 --> 00:47:42,839
Speaker 1: because it's you know, people will be wanting I guess

843
00:47:42,880 --> 00:47:47,359
Speaker 1: my perspective on things, and I'm just like, I don't know,

844
00:47:47,600 --> 00:47:53,279
Speaker 1: I don't I don't really know, but it's I don't know.

845
00:47:53,400 --> 00:47:56,880
Speaker 1: Sometimes I like it, the other I like it the

846
00:47:56,920 --> 00:48:00,440
Speaker 1: other way around. I like when I get people's perspective

847
00:48:01,239 --> 00:48:05,359
Speaker 1: on stuff. It's fun, it's interesting, it's a real honor.

848
00:48:05,400 --> 00:48:07,440
Speaker 1: It's an honor to get to and that's all. It's

849
00:48:07,440 --> 00:48:08,840
Speaker 1: an honor to get to do something like this, but

850
00:48:08,880 --> 00:48:15,040
Speaker 1: also it's it's way better when I'm uh caffeinated. I'm

851
00:48:15,080 --> 00:48:18,839
Speaker 1: learning about that. I'm learning about how to be how

852
00:48:18,880 --> 00:48:21,440
Speaker 1: to not be depressed. I think I figured it out.

853
00:48:21,680 --> 00:48:25,080
Speaker 1: I actually genuinely think I figured out how to not

854
00:48:25,120 --> 00:48:25,760
Speaker 1: be depressed.

855
00:48:27,040 --> 00:48:28,920
Speaker 4: Okay, what's the equation?

856
00:48:29,760 --> 00:48:33,680
Speaker 1: Okay, first you have to have five million dollars. We

857
00:48:33,760 --> 00:48:35,680
Speaker 1: can't talk about any of the other steps unless you

858
00:48:35,680 --> 00:48:38,200
Speaker 1: have five million dollars. First, you have to have five

859
00:48:38,239 --> 00:48:41,600
Speaker 1: million dollars. And then you have to have a beautiful

860
00:48:42,719 --> 00:48:45,440
Speaker 1: husband or wife that doesn't they can be they can

861
00:48:45,480 --> 00:48:50,560
Speaker 1: be really nothing less than ten out of ten. This

862
00:48:50,640 --> 00:48:54,520
Speaker 1: is the most gorgeous person that you've ever seen. And

863
00:48:54,560 --> 00:48:58,759
Speaker 1: they have to love you unconditionally, you like you have

864
00:48:58,800 --> 00:49:03,040
Speaker 1: to be you know, like like like they have to

865
00:49:03,120 --> 00:49:05,920
Speaker 1: love all of your flaws. They have to love you unconditionally.

866
00:49:06,000 --> 00:49:11,080
Speaker 1: So five million dollars, beautiful life partner who loves you unconditionally.

867
00:49:13,960 --> 00:49:16,040
Speaker 1: What else? I know? It starts with those two things.

868
00:49:17,600 --> 00:49:20,600
Speaker 4: Okay, Yeah, if you don't if you.

869
00:49:20,520 --> 00:49:23,680
Speaker 1: Don't have those two things, you're probably fucked and miserable.

870
00:49:23,719 --> 00:49:27,680
Speaker 1: But what's what's up? What's up with you? Stella? What's

871
00:49:27,800 --> 00:49:30,320
Speaker 1: I what makes you? What made you call in today?

872
00:49:33,200 --> 00:49:35,640
Speaker 4: Nothing in particular, I mean I just in general. I

873
00:49:35,840 --> 00:49:38,520
Speaker 4: think you kind of opened it up perfectly with not

874
00:49:38,600 --> 00:49:41,400
Speaker 4: knowing anything day by day as you get older, I

875
00:49:41,480 --> 00:49:46,360
Speaker 4: kind of feel the same way, both like in a

876
00:49:46,480 --> 00:49:48,640
Speaker 4: micro level and a macro level when it comes to

877
00:49:48,880 --> 00:49:55,600
Speaker 4: just living life day by day. But let's get specific.

878
00:49:55,680 --> 00:49:59,800
Speaker 4: Let me just give you a random micro level to

879
00:50:02,040 --> 00:50:05,480
Speaker 4: I currently live with my sister and her boyfriend. It

880
00:50:05,560 --> 00:50:07,759
Speaker 4: was just me and her when it first began, but

881
00:50:07,880 --> 00:50:11,279
Speaker 4: now I'm really looking into getting out and just going

882
00:50:11,320 --> 00:50:14,000
Speaker 4: on my own. But again, that goes back to your

883
00:50:14,040 --> 00:50:17,000
Speaker 4: five million dollars and someone who loves your own conditionally.

884
00:50:17,320 --> 00:50:20,000
Speaker 4: You know, I don't have five mil. I have someone

885
00:50:20,320 --> 00:50:24,439
Speaker 4: do the other man conditionally? No? Probably not? I mean

886
00:50:24,600 --> 00:50:25,800
Speaker 4: can anyone really?

887
00:50:26,320 --> 00:50:26,400
Speaker 1: No?

888
00:50:26,680 --> 00:50:27,239
Speaker 3: I don't think so.

889
00:50:27,880 --> 00:50:31,759
Speaker 4: But I'm just stuck between, like, do I go on?

890
00:50:31,960 --> 00:50:33,799
Speaker 4: I mean I can do it. I have money, not

891
00:50:33,840 --> 00:50:37,040
Speaker 4: five mil, but I got I can go on my own.

892
00:50:37,080 --> 00:50:38,719
Speaker 4: I mean, the economy is not the best right now,

893
00:50:38,760 --> 00:50:40,640
Speaker 4: but I can probably be Okay.

894
00:50:41,200 --> 00:50:44,839
Speaker 1: So what's going on? What's what's going on with Uh,

895
00:50:46,160 --> 00:50:48,120
Speaker 1: your your current situation. Why are you trying to get

896
00:50:48,120 --> 00:50:48,520
Speaker 1: out of it?

897
00:50:50,320 --> 00:50:52,719
Speaker 4: Nothing's wrong with it? Actually it's perfect. Like me and

898
00:50:52,760 --> 00:50:55,320
Speaker 4: my sister are great. We've been through a lot together

899
00:50:55,400 --> 00:50:57,719
Speaker 4: and made our bomb stronger, you know, and I think

900
00:50:57,840 --> 00:51:01,920
Speaker 4: living with her has been such a blessing. But I

901
00:51:02,000 --> 00:51:05,360
Speaker 4: want something that's my own, you know, like my own space,

902
00:51:05,560 --> 00:51:11,120
Speaker 4: my own universe within four walls, you know. And I

903
00:51:11,120 --> 00:51:13,440
Speaker 4: think it's just time. I've been in the same place

904
00:51:13,480 --> 00:51:17,960
Speaker 4: for five years now and have a good job, so

905
00:51:18,520 --> 00:51:21,560
Speaker 4: it's given me affording me the ability to even think

906
00:51:21,600 --> 00:51:23,839
Speaker 4: about this, you know, like be able to say, hey,

907
00:51:23,880 --> 00:51:28,800
Speaker 4: I can and want to get my own place. But

908
00:51:28,840 --> 00:51:31,560
Speaker 4: then I just think I overthink things, especially when it

909
00:51:31,560 --> 00:51:36,719
Speaker 4: comes to just making decisions in general in life. It's

910
00:51:36,760 --> 00:51:39,640
Speaker 4: not like my forte. I second guess things all the

911
00:51:39,640 --> 00:51:44,480
Speaker 4: time and have to overanalyze and overthink. So I'm like

912
00:51:44,600 --> 00:51:48,560
Speaker 4: constantly on the internet trying to financewers to things, use

913
00:51:48,680 --> 00:51:52,920
Speaker 4: chat GBT to like to the finest detail, ask like

914
00:51:53,200 --> 00:51:55,560
Speaker 4: how do I get from point A to point B?

915
00:51:59,520 --> 00:52:02,719
Speaker 1: Yeah, I no, I have I have a similar a

916
00:52:02,760 --> 00:52:06,040
Speaker 1: similar thing. I have a similar thing. Now, so you

917
00:52:06,080 --> 00:52:08,160
Speaker 1: said this, you have a person in your life and

918
00:52:08,480 --> 00:52:11,200
Speaker 1: they love you with you know a few conditions, which

919
00:52:11,280 --> 00:52:15,080
Speaker 1: is I think the best that you can get? What

920
00:52:15,280 --> 00:52:17,520
Speaker 1: and what's are they gonna move in with you? Is

921
00:52:17,520 --> 00:52:20,240
Speaker 1: that the idea or are you like totally totally placed

922
00:52:20,239 --> 00:52:22,640
Speaker 1: on your own That's the.

923
00:52:22,640 --> 00:52:26,320
Speaker 4: Thing I don't know. I don't think financially and mentally

924
00:52:26,400 --> 00:52:30,640
Speaker 4: there it's doable for them to come and be with

925
00:52:30,680 --> 00:52:33,400
Speaker 4: me if we get like a police together, and that

926
00:52:33,480 --> 00:52:38,600
Speaker 4: kind of like that hurts a little because I make

927
00:52:38,640 --> 00:52:41,600
Speaker 4: it very aware what I expect and what I want,

928
00:52:41,840 --> 00:52:45,040
Speaker 4: you know, from a partner or my boyfriend or whatever,

929
00:52:45,080 --> 00:52:47,520
Speaker 4: and it just doesn't seem to click. But then I

930
00:52:47,960 --> 00:52:50,480
Speaker 4: understand that there's a lot of mental boundaries that can

931
00:52:50,520 --> 00:52:55,680
Speaker 4: stop somebody from seeing their own potential and then being

932
00:52:55,719 --> 00:52:58,640
Speaker 4: that for somebody else who has vocally let them know, like, hey,

933
00:52:58,640 --> 00:53:05,040
Speaker 4: this is what I want, So I.

934
00:53:02,680 --> 00:53:05,160
Speaker 1: Can I ask what I mean, what's if if if

935
00:53:05,160 --> 00:53:06,680
Speaker 1: this is you know something you want to talk about

936
00:53:06,719 --> 00:53:09,719
Speaker 1: to go into like what is what does that look like?

937
00:53:12,600 --> 00:53:21,120
Speaker 4: So I mean he's my boyfriend. He's the type to

938
00:53:21,280 --> 00:53:24,600
Speaker 4: like go back to the past a lot and say

939
00:53:24,640 --> 00:53:26,319
Speaker 4: I used to make so much money and I was

940
00:53:26,360 --> 00:53:28,760
Speaker 4: able to afford an apartment for me and my partner

941
00:53:29,200 --> 00:53:31,680
Speaker 4: that's like his ex at the time or whatever. And

942
00:53:31,800 --> 00:53:33,759
Speaker 4: he's like, but shit's not like that anymore. You know.

943
00:53:33,880 --> 00:53:37,240
Speaker 4: I'm not the same person physically, and I'm not capable

944
00:53:37,280 --> 00:53:40,799
Speaker 4: of making so much money like you or whatever. And

945
00:53:40,840 --> 00:53:43,239
Speaker 4: I don't make six figures or anything. But I'm I'm

946
00:53:43,239 --> 00:53:47,000
Speaker 4: pretty okay where I'm at, you know. But he says

947
00:53:47,000 --> 00:53:49,920
Speaker 4: that a lot, and I'm just like, where's like the

948
00:53:50,000 --> 00:53:53,040
Speaker 4: motivation to be in this together, to want to make

949
00:53:54,080 --> 00:53:56,520
Speaker 4: what I make or more possibly? You know, I know

950
00:53:56,560 --> 00:53:59,120
Speaker 4: there's a lot of boundaries and obstacles that stop people

951
00:53:59,160 --> 00:54:01,879
Speaker 4: from doing things like I'm here with you. I want

952
00:54:01,880 --> 00:54:04,480
Speaker 4: to do this with you, like let's go, let's be

953
00:54:05,000 --> 00:54:07,640
Speaker 4: fucking right or dies. You know, Like that's always what

954
00:54:07,719 --> 00:54:14,239
Speaker 4: I thought having somebody would be and os But like

955
00:54:14,440 --> 00:54:16,920
Speaker 4: I'm ready to go through the wringer with anybody, like

956
00:54:17,040 --> 00:54:20,319
Speaker 4: the muck and the mire, just to come out like

957
00:54:20,400 --> 00:54:23,600
Speaker 4: the shining phoenixes from the ashes of corny.

958
00:54:25,280 --> 00:54:29,280
Speaker 1: Oh my god, you are you are reaching your hand

959
00:54:29,600 --> 00:54:33,960
Speaker 1: out to this man at begging him to begging, but

960
00:54:34,080 --> 00:54:39,239
Speaker 1: you're you're reaching this. You're not begging, but you're you're

961
00:54:39,440 --> 00:54:43,319
Speaker 1: reaching your hand out to this man and saying, what

962
00:54:43,680 --> 00:54:48,680
Speaker 1: walk walk the walk with me, my friend, and he's

963
00:54:49,760 --> 00:54:51,880
Speaker 1: walk the walk with you, my dear. And what's his?

964
00:54:52,160 --> 00:54:53,320
Speaker 1: What's his he's saying?

965
00:54:54,480 --> 00:54:59,279
Speaker 4: He says, yes, he says already gonna say when somebody

966
00:54:59,320 --> 00:55:00,839
Speaker 4: is saying that. You know, he has a great heart,

967
00:55:00,880 --> 00:55:03,399
Speaker 4: he's a good man. I'm not saying anything is wrong

968
00:55:03,400 --> 00:55:05,879
Speaker 4: with him, but everybody has their flaws, and I want

969
00:55:05,880 --> 00:55:07,799
Speaker 4: to work with him on them, you know. But I

970
00:55:07,880 --> 00:55:12,279
Speaker 4: have also been And that's another thing too, is myself.

971
00:55:12,560 --> 00:55:14,839
Speaker 4: I don't want my past to get in the way

972
00:55:14,960 --> 00:55:18,400
Speaker 4: of going on this journey with this person because I

973
00:55:18,440 --> 00:55:23,160
Speaker 4: have my flaws of like the minute a voice is

974
00:55:23,280 --> 00:55:27,880
Speaker 4: raised in a conversation or like disrespect is there, I'm like, no,

975
00:55:28,000 --> 00:55:30,160
Speaker 4: I gotta go, I gotta walk away. I need to

976
00:55:30,320 --> 00:55:32,799
Speaker 4: like it's done, it's over. And he's like, whoa, you

977
00:55:32,880 --> 00:55:34,040
Speaker 4: know it's I make.

978
00:55:38,520 --> 00:55:38,920
Speaker 1: For me.

979
00:55:39,640 --> 00:55:42,520
Speaker 4: Well, like I said, I think maybe because of my past,

980
00:55:42,600 --> 00:55:45,239
Speaker 4: I see everything as a red not a reflect but

981
00:55:45,320 --> 00:55:48,359
Speaker 4: you know, something to be weary of and scared of

982
00:55:48,480 --> 00:55:50,279
Speaker 4: and anxious of. And then I take it to the

983
00:55:50,320 --> 00:55:53,280
Speaker 4: next because of the overthinking, overanalyzing. If that makes.

984
00:55:53,160 --> 00:56:00,440
Speaker 1: Sense, Yeah, sure, yeah, interesting Yeah, what's kind of what's

985
00:56:00,440 --> 00:56:01,359
Speaker 1: so what's your job now?

986
00:56:03,360 --> 00:56:11,840
Speaker 4: So I'm basically an executive administrator for a very big,

987
00:56:12,200 --> 00:56:20,480
Speaker 4: powerful organization. And yeah, it's it's a very comfortable position.

988
00:56:20,520 --> 00:56:23,440
Speaker 4: It's very cool position. I'm able to help a lot

989
00:56:23,440 --> 00:56:26,120
Speaker 4: of people and that's what I love the most. But

990
00:56:27,280 --> 00:56:32,640
Speaker 4: it's I want like the rural life and it's this

991
00:56:32,760 --> 00:56:36,960
Speaker 4: kind of job is more like city political you know,

992
00:56:37,040 --> 00:56:39,520
Speaker 4: smiley face when you want to burn everything down kind

993
00:56:39,520 --> 00:56:42,239
Speaker 4: of position, you know, And I hate that, but you

994
00:56:42,320 --> 00:56:45,960
Speaker 4: want it is now? Yeah, I do. Really I want

995
00:56:46,000 --> 00:56:50,080
Speaker 4: something quaint, the traditional like second white picket fence or

996
00:56:50,239 --> 00:56:52,920
Speaker 4: farm whatever, with the husband and the kids. That's what

997
00:56:53,040 --> 00:56:55,399
Speaker 4: I want. I don't want this fucking business woman shit.

998
00:56:55,560 --> 00:56:58,279
Speaker 4: That's so overrated for me.

999
00:56:58,400 --> 00:57:01,359
Speaker 1: Anyway, It's in your life and you're like like when

1000
00:57:01,400 --> 00:57:03,080
Speaker 1: you say like the rural life, like do you want

1001
00:57:03,120 --> 00:57:06,040
Speaker 1: to be like uh, like do you want to just

1002
00:57:06,120 --> 00:57:07,719
Speaker 1: like like just take care of the kids or do

1003
00:57:07,760 --> 00:57:09,799
Speaker 1: you want to have like work on a farm or

1004
00:57:09,880 --> 00:57:12,920
Speaker 1: like what's what's what can I add? What's what's the dream?

1005
00:57:13,280 --> 00:57:15,960
Speaker 1: Give me? Give me the dream for you like the dreams?

1006
00:57:16,880 --> 00:57:21,920
Speaker 4: Yeah, dream scenario is, Yeah, I'm a work with my

1007
00:57:22,000 --> 00:57:24,640
Speaker 4: kids all day and me and my kids are doing

1008
00:57:24,720 --> 00:57:27,840
Speaker 4: farm work, helping with the goats and the rabbits and

1009
00:57:27,880 --> 00:57:32,040
Speaker 4: the you know, not the cows. That's a bit. That's

1010
00:57:32,080 --> 00:57:34,160
Speaker 4: a lot of work. And horses are too, but you know,

1011
00:57:34,280 --> 00:57:37,920
Speaker 4: at least like a homestead is kind of thing with

1012
00:57:38,080 --> 00:57:41,320
Speaker 4: the hobby that you know does his his gets his

1013
00:57:41,400 --> 00:57:43,960
Speaker 4: hands thirty two and is able to provide for us,

1014
00:57:44,000 --> 00:57:48,640
Speaker 4: and I provide for him, you know, in that way

1015
00:57:48,960 --> 00:57:50,600
Speaker 4: because of what he does for the family. You know,

1016
00:57:50,680 --> 00:57:54,160
Speaker 4: like that's that's what I want. And away from the city,

1017
00:57:54,320 --> 00:57:57,560
Speaker 4: away from too many people, I do want family around,

1018
00:57:57,600 --> 00:58:00,160
Speaker 4: but just you know, in general, it's good to be

1019
00:58:00,760 --> 00:58:02,120
Speaker 4: to create your own you know.

1020
00:58:03,200 --> 00:58:09,400
Speaker 1: M Now I'm curious and by the way I fall victim.

1021
00:58:09,560 --> 00:58:14,480
Speaker 1: People would not believe for a guy who runs a

1022
00:58:14,640 --> 00:58:17,400
Speaker 1: I really I hate calling this an advice podcast, but

1023
00:58:17,760 --> 00:58:21,440
Speaker 1: uh whatever, people I talk a bunch of shit on here,

1024
00:58:21,480 --> 00:58:23,720
Speaker 1: and people I don't I think, would be surprised at

1025
00:58:23,760 --> 00:58:27,960
Speaker 1: how often I google how to be happy, or overthink

1026
00:58:28,040 --> 00:58:31,080
Speaker 1: decisions or or you know, do I do all the

1027
00:58:31,080 --> 00:58:33,600
Speaker 1: things that you describe. I call a billion friends and

1028
00:58:34,360 --> 00:58:36,880
Speaker 1: talk to chat GPT about things and and and all

1029
00:58:36,920 --> 00:58:39,120
Speaker 1: this stuff. And I so I feel actually kind of

1030
00:58:39,120 --> 00:58:42,400
Speaker 1: interesting asking you this question. But as from talking to

1031
00:58:42,440 --> 00:58:44,560
Speaker 1: you for two seconds, you sound like actually a person

1032
00:58:44,600 --> 00:58:47,800
Speaker 1: who's pretty confident about what they want out of life

1033
00:58:47,920 --> 00:58:51,160
Speaker 1: and who they are and whatever. That's just a projection

1034
00:58:51,240 --> 00:58:53,360
Speaker 1: I'm getting upon you. And so what do you What

1035
00:58:53,360 --> 00:58:54,080
Speaker 1: are you overthinking?

1036
00:58:59,600 --> 00:59:04,320
Speaker 4: I think I overthink maybe that life that I just

1037
00:59:04,320 --> 00:59:06,960
Speaker 4: said to you right now in my head, I'm like, well,

1038
00:59:07,000 --> 00:59:09,480
Speaker 4: maybe that's not the way. Maybe I am supposed to

1039
00:59:09,480 --> 00:59:14,600
Speaker 4: be this cocktail hour business woman, maybe with a high

1040
00:59:14,720 --> 00:59:19,360
Speaker 4: rise and Florida sailing windows and fucking you know, girls'

1041
00:59:19,440 --> 00:59:25,680
Speaker 4: night and stuff like that, like the basic non traditional woman.

1042
00:59:25,840 --> 00:59:29,680
Speaker 4: I guess, yeah, I second guess that, and then I

1043
00:59:29,720 --> 00:59:32,320
Speaker 4: second guess, hey, maybe this person isn't.

1044
00:59:32,080 --> 00:59:32,680
Speaker 3: The ones for me.

1045
00:59:32,760 --> 00:59:34,800
Speaker 4: And but then I'm like, wait, aren't you supposed to

1046
00:59:34,840 --> 00:59:37,040
Speaker 4: stay and fight for things? You know? And this is

1047
00:59:37,080 --> 00:59:40,440
Speaker 4: the most healthiest relationship I've ever been, and like he is,

1048
00:59:40,800 --> 00:59:44,520
Speaker 4: I love him, Like he's great. But again, past stuff, right,

1049
00:59:44,560 --> 00:59:50,440
Speaker 4: and then you second guess and overanalyze, and yeah, like

1050
00:59:50,480 --> 00:59:52,040
Speaker 4: I could take it back all the way to childhood

1051
00:59:52,240 --> 00:59:55,800
Speaker 4: type of overanalyzing. Like that's how much I go into

1052
00:59:55,880 --> 00:59:59,520
Speaker 4: the thinking I was even like I even have to

1053
00:59:59,560 --> 01:00:01,400
Speaker 4: get off of breath control because it was making me

1054
01:00:01,480 --> 01:00:04,440
Speaker 4: so existential evil. Like I would smoke weed and I

1055
01:00:04,520 --> 01:00:06,400
Speaker 4: was on birth control and I literally thought I was

1056
01:00:06,400 --> 01:00:09,720
Speaker 4: in other planes of existence because I was overthinking myself.

1057
01:00:12,160 --> 01:00:14,760
Speaker 4: But like, now I can do it. I'm true. I'm like,

1058
01:00:15,000 --> 01:00:17,320
Speaker 4: no birth control anything, and I smoke and I'm like, okay,

1059
01:00:17,800 --> 01:00:22,200
Speaker 4: I can analyze and not be thrown into other or

1060
01:00:22,200 --> 01:00:22,360
Speaker 4: of it.

1061
01:00:22,600 --> 01:00:27,520
Speaker 1: But yeah, no, no, no, no, no, it's it's it's it's

1062
01:00:27,600 --> 01:00:32,560
Speaker 1: it's a it's a whole bar. It's one continuous bar,

1063
01:00:33,560 --> 01:00:36,680
Speaker 1: one complete bar. It's well, it's funny you say all

1064
01:00:36,680 --> 01:00:40,560
Speaker 1: this stuff because I I I was just saying that

1065
01:00:40,600 --> 01:00:43,560
Speaker 1: I don't know anything, and I've I've there are a

1066
01:00:43,800 --> 01:00:47,520
Speaker 1: couple of things I have come to fight that I

1067
01:00:47,560 --> 01:00:51,440
Speaker 1: can say that I believe with my whole heart that

1068
01:00:51,520 --> 01:00:54,280
Speaker 1: I I won't question. There's a couple of things. One

1069
01:00:54,400 --> 01:00:59,320
Speaker 1: is that I believe this in like I gutturally believe this,

1070
01:01:00,640 --> 01:01:03,840
Speaker 1: like when I am in a like because you know,

1071
01:01:03,840 --> 01:01:06,760
Speaker 1: there's there's sides of yourself, right, there's like you when

1072
01:01:06,800 --> 01:01:09,840
Speaker 1: your emotions are out of it and when you're like

1073
01:01:09,960 --> 01:01:12,959
Speaker 1: in tune with your higher being and then there's you

1074
01:01:13,080 --> 01:01:16,840
Speaker 1: when you're like whatever, hungry or horny or sad or

1075
01:01:17,080 --> 01:01:20,160
Speaker 1: angry or happier joy to related, and you're like letting

1076
01:01:20,480 --> 01:01:23,880
Speaker 1: those emotions run the fucking show. But me, when I'm

1077
01:01:24,240 --> 01:01:27,040
Speaker 1: in my like a connected to what I feel like

1078
01:01:27,200 --> 01:01:29,320
Speaker 1: is like, oh, this is like my this is this

1079
01:01:29,400 --> 01:01:33,000
Speaker 1: is my uh uh superego or the or the high

1080
01:01:33,240 --> 01:01:36,800
Speaker 1: in that state of mind. I genuinely believe that, like

1081
01:01:38,560 --> 01:01:45,200
Speaker 1: the ability to make the decisions that I overthink is

1082
01:01:45,360 --> 01:01:50,160
Speaker 1: like a deep privilege. It's like a deep honor to

1083
01:01:50,280 --> 01:01:55,560
Speaker 1: even get to fucking decide. And and like again, when

1084
01:01:55,600 --> 01:01:57,680
Speaker 1: I'm in, when I'm connected to my higher being, for

1085
01:01:58,520 --> 01:02:02,240
Speaker 1: you know, one fucking second out of the day, which

1086
01:02:02,320 --> 01:02:04,720
Speaker 1: I gain, I'm really typically not. I just want to

1087
01:02:04,720 --> 01:02:07,080
Speaker 1: make it clear, I'm really typically not. But when I am,

1088
01:02:07,920 --> 01:02:10,480
Speaker 1: I'm like, that's how I really feel. It's like, oh,

1089
01:02:10,480 --> 01:02:13,439
Speaker 1: it's just such a privilege to even be like, oh,

1090
01:02:13,520 --> 01:02:18,120
Speaker 1: which you know, you know, who will I fall in

1091
01:02:18,120 --> 01:02:21,760
Speaker 1: love with? And what cool career will I have? And

1092
01:02:22,080 --> 01:02:25,200
Speaker 1: like all these things are like they're privileges to even

1093
01:02:25,200 --> 01:02:27,760
Speaker 1: get to think about. Right, That's how I really feel.

1094
01:02:29,160 --> 01:02:32,920
Speaker 1: And so I know that to be true. When I've

1095
01:02:32,920 --> 01:02:34,720
Speaker 1: connected with my how you being normally I'm not thinking

1096
01:02:34,720 --> 01:02:38,080
Speaker 1: about that. No, no, but normally I'm overthinking and spiraling

1097
01:02:38,120 --> 01:02:41,400
Speaker 1: and whatnot. But the other thing I know to be true.

1098
01:02:41,800 --> 01:02:45,040
Speaker 1: I forgot while I was explaining the first thing, but oh, okay,

1099
01:02:45,040 --> 01:02:51,600
Speaker 1: I remember it now. I really feel like I'm coming

1100
01:02:51,840 --> 01:02:58,520
Speaker 1: to some conclude ninety I eighty. I'm not even sure

1101
01:02:58,600 --> 01:03:00,400
Speaker 1: how sure I am. That's how insane and I am.

1102
01:03:01,160 --> 01:03:03,120
Speaker 1: I'm pretty sure. I'm just gonna go with pretty sure.

1103
01:03:03,200 --> 01:03:05,120
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna put a number on it. I'm pretty

1104
01:03:05,160 --> 01:03:11,160
Speaker 1: sure that people in general are happier when they're just

1105
01:03:11,400 --> 01:03:15,080
Speaker 1: in the moments of the thing, you know, when they're

1106
01:03:15,240 --> 01:03:18,520
Speaker 1: just like when they're not overthinking, when they're not talking

1107
01:03:18,520 --> 01:03:22,760
Speaker 1: about death and overthinking every single one of their fucking decisions,

1108
01:03:22,800 --> 01:03:29,280
Speaker 1: and we're just like, oh, today I have to, you know,

1109
01:03:29,400 --> 01:03:33,720
Speaker 1: milk the cows, and I don't have time to think

1110
01:03:33,720 --> 01:03:36,680
Speaker 1: about whether or not, Uh, this is what I should

1111
01:03:36,800 --> 01:03:39,400
Speaker 1: be doing with my life because I gotta go milk

1112
01:03:39,440 --> 01:03:42,240
Speaker 1: these fucking cows. You know, I don't have time to

1113
01:03:43,040 --> 01:03:47,120
Speaker 1: think about it. I'm just fucking doing it. And I

1114
01:03:47,120 --> 01:03:49,520
Speaker 1: don't know it's hard. I because some people they uh

1115
01:03:50,360 --> 01:03:52,360
Speaker 1: you know, some people are like, I don't have time

1116
01:03:52,400 --> 01:03:54,560
Speaker 1: to think about what are this shitty office job is

1117
01:03:54,880 --> 01:03:56,800
Speaker 1: making me miserable or not? Because I gotta do it,

1118
01:03:57,040 --> 01:04:01,240
Speaker 1: And that's not that's ultimately not good. There's a there's

1119
01:04:01,280 --> 01:04:05,720
Speaker 1: got there's some kind of like ideal optimal, you know,

1120
01:04:05,800 --> 01:04:11,560
Speaker 1: optimal balance between thinking about things and being in the

1121
01:04:11,560 --> 01:04:14,000
Speaker 1: moment to stuff. And I haven't found it, but I

1122
01:04:14,040 --> 01:04:17,480
Speaker 1: definitely know that like overthinking fucking everything is not the

1123
01:04:17,520 --> 01:04:19,840
Speaker 1: way to do it. And it's like this with I think,

1124
01:04:19,880 --> 01:04:23,240
Speaker 1: I guess I guess relationships too, because on one hand,

1125
01:04:23,280 --> 01:04:25,360
Speaker 1: you could you could sit and think, oh, is this

1126
01:04:25,520 --> 01:04:27,960
Speaker 1: the right thing for me, and then the other hand

1127
01:04:28,040 --> 01:04:30,480
Speaker 1: you could just be in the moment of whatever it is.

1128
01:04:30,960 --> 01:04:36,000
Speaker 1: And life is I guess like trips to the the

1129
01:04:36,000 --> 01:04:40,080
Speaker 1: the basement of I'm actually in my life versus the

1130
01:04:40,080 --> 01:04:42,520
Speaker 1: the attic of let me think about things for a second.

1131
01:04:43,120 --> 01:04:45,960
Speaker 1: And I guess you just I guess you balance that

1132
01:04:46,520 --> 01:04:51,840
Speaker 1: until you die. I don't know the proper thing. And

1133
01:04:51,920 --> 01:04:55,120
Speaker 1: also it's weird because some people, like we all have

1134
01:04:55,240 --> 01:04:59,560
Speaker 1: like friends who they just somehow they just are not

1135
01:04:59,760 --> 01:05:02,160
Speaker 1: over thinkers and they just do shit with their life

1136
01:05:02,200 --> 01:05:04,040
Speaker 1: and they don't think about it, and they just they're

1137
01:05:04,080 --> 01:05:07,320
Speaker 1: just innately fucking like born with it. Like I have

1138
01:05:07,400 --> 01:05:09,280
Speaker 1: friends like that, and I'm like, I don't know how

1139
01:05:09,280 --> 01:05:12,160
Speaker 1: they just I have friends who just do life perfectly

1140
01:05:12,200 --> 01:05:14,680
Speaker 1: without even thinking about it somehow, and then I have

1141
01:05:14,760 --> 01:05:21,240
Speaker 1: friends who cannot stop thinking. I leaned, I lean much

1142
01:05:21,320 --> 01:05:26,720
Speaker 1: closer to that part of the spectrum. And yeah, I

1143
01:05:26,720 --> 01:05:27,920
Speaker 1: don't know. I don't know how much of this is

1144
01:05:27,960 --> 01:05:31,880
Speaker 1: just you're just born with more neuroticism versus you just are.

1145
01:05:32,760 --> 01:05:37,360
Speaker 1: It's you a person who does shit. But yeah, I don't. Ultimately,

1146
01:05:37,360 --> 01:05:38,760
Speaker 1: I guess when I'm in my when I'm in touch

1147
01:05:38,800 --> 01:05:40,680
Speaker 1: with my higher being for the one second of day

1148
01:05:40,680 --> 01:05:43,120
Speaker 1: that I am lucky to be, That's how I feel.

1149
01:05:43,160 --> 01:05:45,760
Speaker 1: It's like, oh, it's it's a privilege most of the time, though,

1150
01:05:46,320 --> 01:05:49,080
Speaker 1: I like every other human, like like a lot of

1151
01:05:49,080 --> 01:05:52,320
Speaker 1: other human beings on the planet, am you know, controlled

1152
01:05:52,360 --> 01:05:59,600
Speaker 1: by uh, fear based decision making and emotion based overthinking

1153
01:05:59,640 --> 01:06:02,400
Speaker 1: and you know, all these fucking things. But yeah, that's

1154
01:06:02,400 --> 01:06:04,040
Speaker 1: my rant about anything.

1155
01:06:05,400 --> 01:06:08,400
Speaker 4: I loved it. That was great. It resonated for sure.

1156
01:06:11,920 --> 01:06:16,000
Speaker 1: Well, uh, what how old are you? By the way,

1157
01:06:16,000 --> 01:06:17,880
Speaker 1: because I'm gonna be honest. When you first picked up

1158
01:06:17,880 --> 01:06:22,800
Speaker 1: the phone, I thought you were like, uh, fifteen, but

1159
01:06:22,840 --> 01:06:24,240
Speaker 1: now I think you might be like twenty eight.

1160
01:06:25,640 --> 01:06:27,280
Speaker 4: Oh shit, good job, yeah twenty eight.

1161
01:06:27,560 --> 01:06:30,800
Speaker 1: You're twenty. Okay, you're older than me, all right, I am.

1162
01:06:31,480 --> 01:06:35,560
Speaker 4: Well sometimes I like that though, honestly, sometimes you make

1163
01:06:35,640 --> 01:06:37,440
Speaker 4: me feel like I'm twenty or something like.

1164
01:06:38,160 --> 01:06:40,320
Speaker 3: Wait, I appreciate that.

1165
01:06:41,680 --> 01:06:44,360
Speaker 1: Please take me, please take everything I just said to

1166
01:06:44,360 --> 01:06:48,520
Speaker 1: you at face value. Well it's funny though, because well,

1167
01:06:48,560 --> 01:06:50,280
Speaker 1: I'll tell you something real quick. I was at a

1168
01:06:51,640 --> 01:06:56,400
Speaker 1: I was at a bar, uh two nights ago, and

1169
01:06:57,760 --> 01:07:00,920
Speaker 1: I was talking to someone and I was like, oh,

1170
01:07:00,920 --> 01:07:02,640
Speaker 1: how old are you? And they were like, I'm twenty

1171
01:07:02,640 --> 01:07:04,720
Speaker 1: two and they were like, ho old are you? And

1172
01:07:04,800 --> 01:07:07,040
Speaker 1: I was like, I'm twenty seven and they made that

1173
01:07:07,160 --> 01:07:10,280
Speaker 1: face and they went, oh, like that was old, and

1174
01:07:10,320 --> 01:07:14,240
Speaker 1: it's fun It was funny to me because I literally,

1175
01:07:14,400 --> 01:07:18,640
Speaker 1: I swear my just yesterday, I was twenty two and

1176
01:07:18,880 --> 01:07:23,240
Speaker 1: I literally had that exact same interaction fucking just yesterday

1177
01:07:23,640 --> 01:07:25,920
Speaker 1: where I was the twenty two year old and I

1178
01:07:25,960 --> 01:07:28,240
Speaker 1: met a guy who was twenty seven and I made

1179
01:07:28,280 --> 01:07:32,040
Speaker 1: that fucking face when he told me. And it's so

1180
01:07:32,160 --> 01:07:34,600
Speaker 1: weird that I'm on the other end of that. I

1181
01:07:34,600 --> 01:07:36,920
Speaker 1: feel like I just flashed forward into like five fucking

1182
01:07:37,000 --> 01:07:37,720
Speaker 1: years or something.

1183
01:07:37,920 --> 01:07:41,000
Speaker 4: Yeah, it just had like a mutual memory.

1184
01:07:41,080 --> 01:07:41,320
Speaker 3: Yeah.

1185
01:07:42,040 --> 01:07:45,520
Speaker 1: Yeah. And now that i'm it's funny because I remember

1186
01:07:45,520 --> 01:07:47,240
Speaker 1: being like twenty two and I couldn't imagine what it

1187
01:07:47,280 --> 01:07:49,680
Speaker 1: would like to be like twenty seven. And now like

1188
01:07:49,720 --> 01:07:51,520
Speaker 1: I you know, I'm gonna Reddit and you read a

1189
01:07:51,520 --> 01:07:54,560
Speaker 1: Reddit post, like you read a Reddit comment or some

1190
01:07:54,600 --> 01:07:57,640
Speaker 1: guy's like, I'm forty six years old, and here's what's

1191
01:07:57,680 --> 01:08:00,080
Speaker 1: going on with me? And I'm like, you're telling me

1192
01:08:00,120 --> 01:08:02,480
Speaker 1: I'm going to be forty You're telling me that twenty

1193
01:08:02,600 --> 01:08:06,000
Speaker 1: fucking years later, I'm still going to like have problems

1194
01:08:06,040 --> 01:08:10,000
Speaker 1: and thoughts and feelings, and the streams keeps going. It's crazy.

1195
01:08:10,040 --> 01:08:12,240
Speaker 1: It's too much, so much to think about. It's insane.

1196
01:08:13,600 --> 01:08:15,800
Speaker 4: And that's why I have to stop myself because then

1197
01:08:15,880 --> 01:08:18,160
Speaker 4: everything else that's like literally in my face happening in

1198
01:08:18,200 --> 01:08:20,080
Speaker 4: my life is not going to get that way because

1199
01:08:20,120 --> 01:08:23,360
Speaker 4: I will go that far into my drinking. Yeah, back

1200
01:08:23,360 --> 01:08:25,240
Speaker 4: to what you said, just being present in the moment

1201
01:08:25,800 --> 01:08:30,519
Speaker 4: and having like that attitude of grace and gratitude that

1202
01:08:30,560 --> 01:08:33,200
Speaker 4: you get to have these fucking decisions be so in

1203
01:08:33,240 --> 01:08:35,280
Speaker 4: your life and not like, hey, what am I going

1204
01:08:35,320 --> 01:08:37,680
Speaker 4: to do the next day? Which money do have to

1205
01:08:37,680 --> 01:08:40,200
Speaker 4: think of? Like that? But I agree with you. And

1206
01:08:40,240 --> 01:08:43,360
Speaker 4: then also I do like I go to my faith

1207
01:08:43,400 --> 01:08:47,040
Speaker 4: a lot, and that does keep me grounded and stable

1208
01:08:47,640 --> 01:08:50,639
Speaker 4: half the time most of the time, actually five percent

1209
01:08:50,680 --> 01:08:51,040
Speaker 4: of the time.

1210
01:08:51,640 --> 01:08:54,200
Speaker 1: Are you religious?

1211
01:08:54,320 --> 01:08:57,920
Speaker 4: I'm yeah, sure, I guess, you know, I really it's

1212
01:08:57,960 --> 01:09:00,000
Speaker 4: the cliche thing where people say I have a relationship

1213
01:09:00,280 --> 01:09:02,600
Speaker 4: with with Christ. You know, that's like that's how I

1214
01:09:02,600 --> 01:09:10,320
Speaker 4: see it. Cool, But yeah, religious.

1215
01:09:08,200 --> 01:09:10,960
Speaker 1: Cool, cool. I think that's good. I think having a

1216
01:09:11,960 --> 01:09:14,360
Speaker 1: you know, I don't know. I've been thinking about, like

1217
01:09:14,720 --> 01:09:17,840
Speaker 1: it's funny because I think when you're like when you're

1218
01:09:17,880 --> 01:09:21,400
Speaker 1: like a young atheist or whatever, you're kind of like

1219
01:09:21,880 --> 01:09:26,280
Speaker 1: you're kind of like blow uh, I think, blow it off.

1220
01:09:26,320 --> 01:09:27,840
Speaker 1: But then you're like, oh, it's kind of nice to

1221
01:09:27,920 --> 01:09:32,439
Speaker 1: like believe in something, you know. M hmm.

1222
01:09:33,560 --> 01:09:35,599
Speaker 4: Yeah, there's a peace and comfort that comes with it.

1223
01:09:35,880 --> 01:09:38,679
Speaker 4: It's like, you don't I kind of like the thought

1224
01:09:38,720 --> 01:09:40,880
Speaker 4: of not having to control everything in my life.

1225
01:09:41,040 --> 01:09:42,080
Speaker 3: Like literally, if.

1226
01:09:41,960 --> 01:09:46,839
Speaker 4: There was God could just take everything and do anything

1227
01:09:46,880 --> 01:09:48,920
Speaker 4: with my life, I wouldn't I wouldn't.

1228
01:09:48,520 --> 01:09:54,400
Speaker 1: Mind, right, right, I was thinking about I was actually

1229
01:09:54,439 --> 01:09:56,120
Speaker 1: gonna bring this up when I was on this rant

1230
01:09:56,240 --> 01:10:00,360
Speaker 1: is I'm if somebody has, if somebody had there's an

1231
01:10:00,400 --> 01:10:03,160
Speaker 1: experience with this, please call in. I would love to

1232
01:10:03,240 --> 01:10:06,360
Speaker 1: talk to you. But I was thinking about like arranged marriage,

1233
01:10:06,920 --> 01:10:10,120
Speaker 1: you know, and it's like, on one hand, it's like, oh,

1234
01:10:10,200 --> 01:10:13,320
Speaker 1: arranged marriage, it's like the ultimate like uh, you know,

1235
01:10:13,520 --> 01:10:15,960
Speaker 1: lack of freedom like your parents. It's a very like

1236
01:10:16,040 --> 01:10:19,719
Speaker 1: Unamerican idea like your parents, like pick who you're gonna

1237
01:10:19,800 --> 01:10:23,439
Speaker 1: like your life is like chosen. This huge thing is

1238
01:10:23,479 --> 01:10:27,880
Speaker 1: like chosen for you, you know, and it's like a

1239
01:10:28,160 --> 01:10:32,080
Speaker 1: very I don't know, Like I there there's a lot

1240
01:10:32,120 --> 01:10:34,240
Speaker 1: of course on paper wrong with that idea. But then

1241
01:10:34,280 --> 01:10:36,599
Speaker 1: in the back of my mind, I'm a little bit like, oh,

1242
01:10:36,680 --> 01:10:40,320
Speaker 1: there's something about like you're okay, this is what you

1243
01:10:40,400 --> 01:10:42,439
Speaker 1: got to deal with, and no, you don't get to

1244
01:10:42,520 --> 01:10:45,640
Speaker 1: decide whether or not it works for you. You just have

1245
01:10:45,720 --> 01:10:50,080
Speaker 1: to fucking deal with it. I'm like, oh, that has Yeah,

1246
01:10:50,160 --> 01:10:52,240
Speaker 1: I'm like, oh, that probably has like prose to it.

1247
01:10:52,640 --> 01:10:54,680
Speaker 1: If someone is listening to this and has experienced with it,

1248
01:10:54,720 --> 01:10:57,000
Speaker 1: please call it. I'm curious about it because they might

1249
01:10:57,040 --> 01:10:58,400
Speaker 1: call it and be like it sucked.

1250
01:10:58,439 --> 01:11:02,120
Speaker 4: But anyway, yeah, I can't even speak on that. I

1251
01:11:02,360 --> 01:11:03,920
Speaker 4: thought the same as you. I can't speak on it.

1252
01:11:03,960 --> 01:11:07,080
Speaker 4: No arrange my maverages over here, but just the thought

1253
01:11:07,120 --> 01:11:11,080
Speaker 4: of like if I had a healthy family dynamic and relationship,

1254
01:11:11,160 --> 01:11:14,160
Speaker 4: they would have my best interest in picking you know,

1255
01:11:14,560 --> 01:11:16,560
Speaker 4: this person who's going to be able to provide for

1256
01:11:16,720 --> 01:11:19,759
Speaker 4: me and for the family, right, because it's the whole endeavor,

1257
01:11:19,760 --> 01:11:22,200
Speaker 4: it's not just about me and this other person. It

1258
01:11:22,240 --> 01:11:25,200
Speaker 4: feels comforting in a way. But again I can't speak

1259
01:11:25,240 --> 01:11:29,160
Speaker 4: on it's not a part of my circle. But that's

1260
01:11:29,200 --> 01:11:31,599
Speaker 4: my thoughts anyway. But pros and cons are everything, and

1261
01:11:31,640 --> 01:11:33,400
Speaker 4: like you said, everything's a balanced.

1262
01:11:34,720 --> 01:11:40,080
Speaker 1: Well Stella, is there anything else that you wanted to

1263
01:11:40,760 --> 01:11:42,679
Speaker 1: talk about or say to the people of the computer

1264
01:11:42,760 --> 01:11:45,559
Speaker 1: before we go, Not at all.

1265
01:11:45,800 --> 01:11:49,679
Speaker 4: Also, your voice sounds completely normal. Doesn't sound any different

1266
01:11:50,160 --> 01:11:51,519
Speaker 4: than on the podcast.

1267
01:11:52,240 --> 01:11:56,479
Speaker 1: Well good, I'm very honored to have a normal voice.

1268
01:11:56,800 --> 01:11:58,040
Speaker 4: Yes, normal it can be.

1269
01:11:58,320 --> 01:12:01,120
Speaker 1: It was great talking to you, talking to you too, Stella.

1270
01:12:01,160 --> 01:12:03,880
Speaker 1: I hope you have a good rest of your entire life.

1271
01:12:04,080 --> 01:12:08,599
Speaker 1: And I will, I will, I will see you around

1272
01:12:08,600 --> 01:12:09,240
Speaker 1: the universe.

1273
01:12:10,680 --> 01:12:10,880
Speaker 3: Yep.

1274
01:12:10,880 --> 01:12:12,120
Speaker 4: I send to you.

1275
01:12:12,160 --> 01:12:20,280
Speaker 1: All right, take care? Stell all right? Is it stella arose? Stera? Stella?

1276
01:12:20,280 --> 01:12:22,120
Speaker 1: Hold on, I'm gonna figure out how you fucking pronounce

1277
01:12:22,160 --> 01:12:29,120
Speaker 1: this stella? Okay, well, everyone's everyone, Everyone shut up for

1278
01:12:29,120 --> 01:12:32,680
Speaker 1: a second. I'm trying to think everyone. Everyone's, everyone's I'm

1279
01:12:32,680 --> 01:12:37,800
Speaker 1: trying to think everyone stop. Okay, Stella erotis are totis?

1280
01:12:38,320 --> 01:12:41,080
Speaker 1: Why would you name your products something that people can't

1281
01:12:41,120 --> 01:12:46,560
Speaker 1: even say it? Stella are I'm gonna say it's stella artois.

1282
01:12:48,160 --> 01:12:56,439
Speaker 1: How do you pronounce it? Stella artois phonetic pronounce pronounce

1283
01:12:56,560 --> 01:13:05,680
Speaker 1: pronunciation are ta? What the fuck? Okay, it's stella artois.

1284
01:13:06,120 --> 01:13:09,879
Speaker 1: This looks if you read it literally, it's stella artois.

1285
01:13:11,280 --> 01:13:14,280
Speaker 1: I'm calling it artis. Why would you name your product

1286
01:13:14,360 --> 01:13:16,360
Speaker 1: something that people can't say what it is? Okay? Sorry,

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Speaker 1: goes on the line, taking your phone calls every night.

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Speaker 1: The pan goes to his side. He's teaching you cloud

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Speaker 1: of your life, but he's not really an expert.