WEBVTT - Everyone’s a Little Bit Bi with Bretman Rock 0:00:00.840 --> 0:00:03.720 Okay, Hi, oh hi, everybody, it's us. It's Catherine and 0:00:03.800 --> 0:00:07.720 Chelsea and it's called Dear Chelsea. Is what you're listening 0:00:07.720 --> 0:00:12.399 to in case somebody tricked your phone. Yes, I found mushrooms. 0:00:12.440 --> 0:00:15.120 And my place in Whistler, I had these chocolate mushrooms 0:00:15.120 --> 0:00:18.240 that I supplied the entire mountain probably b C British 0:00:18.280 --> 0:00:21.520 Columbia with last year when I was in Whistler, and 0:00:21.560 --> 0:00:24.200 then when I left, I left everything there and so 0:00:24.239 --> 0:00:26.960 this year when I was going through my things, I 0:00:27.080 --> 0:00:30.639 found them and I have been taking like the tiniest, 0:00:30.680 --> 0:00:33.200 like a half of a half of square every day 0:00:33.240 --> 0:00:35.440 because now that I know more about micro dosing, like 0:00:35.479 --> 0:00:37.559 I don't like the rush of the feeling, but I 0:00:37.600 --> 0:00:40.280 like the up of the feeling. I have to say, 0:00:40.320 --> 0:00:42.800 like I've found a perfect dose. Is this that the 0:00:42.840 --> 0:00:45.720 chocolate mushrooms? These are chocolate mushrooms now and Whistler everyone 0:00:45.800 --> 0:00:48.680 has capsules. They give you fifty milligrams or a hundred 0:00:48.680 --> 0:00:51.600 milligrams or two hundred and fifty milligrams, which are also 0:00:51.760 --> 0:00:54.560 just like they don't make you hallucinate. They just give 0:00:54.600 --> 0:00:58.680 you an up and it's almost imperceptible, and it's nice 0:00:58.720 --> 0:01:01.880 and it's great if you're outside to nature these. So 0:01:02.160 --> 0:01:05.760 I took a little one a few days ago just 0:01:05.800 --> 0:01:07.240 to see because I was like, oh, you know, when 0:01:07.240 --> 0:01:10.160 you're not acclimated, you know, you can have bigger reactions. 0:01:10.160 --> 0:01:12.480 And I don't like that whoosh feeling that sometimes comes 0:01:12.520 --> 0:01:15.240 on with mushrooms, where you're like yawning and it's very 0:01:15.280 --> 0:01:19.000 overwhelming and you almost nauseated slightly. Anyway, I think I 0:01:19.080 --> 0:01:21.920 found the perfect dosage, and I gave some to Joe Koy, 0:01:22.319 --> 0:01:25.479 who's never done mushrooms, but somebody had given to him. Well, 0:01:25.520 --> 0:01:27.200 he doesn't need an upper you know what I mean. 0:01:27.800 --> 0:01:30.679 He somebody gave it to gave them to him in Canada, 0:01:31.200 --> 0:01:33.319 and he we were falling asleep. We had played pickleball 0:01:33.319 --> 0:01:35.600 and we were falling asleep that night and he was 0:01:35.720 --> 0:01:38.120 He's like, honey, you's just so funny. Everything you say 0:01:38.160 --> 0:01:40.959 is so funny. And I was like, uh huh huh, 0:01:41.319 --> 0:01:44.200 and he goes, I just can't stop smiling every time 0:01:44.200 --> 0:01:46.080 I think of you. I'm like, oh my god, honey, 0:01:46.120 --> 0:01:48.480 those are mushrooms. That's what you're feeling. That was not 0:01:48.560 --> 0:01:51.480 a micro dose, that's a dose. And he's like, is 0:01:51.520 --> 0:01:53.840 that what it is, I go, yes, go into beds 0:01:53.880 --> 0:01:56.600 with a smile on your face is mushrooms. So I 0:01:56.640 --> 0:01:58.560 just want everyone to know that you also can go 0:01:58.600 --> 0:02:00.320 to his bed with a smile on your face if 0:02:00.360 --> 0:02:04.040 you get yourself some mushrooms too. I've never done mushrooms. 0:02:04.120 --> 0:02:06.400 That's very hard for me to believe. Really, do I 0:02:06.400 --> 0:02:08.960 seem like a person who's like out in the world. 0:02:09.600 --> 0:02:12.760 I think that you've experimented with drugs I have. Well, 0:02:12.840 --> 0:02:14.680 let me tell you, I am also like not a 0:02:14.720 --> 0:02:17.280 very good weed smoker. The first time I ever smoked weed, 0:02:17.320 --> 0:02:19.760 it was great. I had a fun time. The second 0:02:19.760 --> 0:02:22.640 time I ever smoked weed, I had the worst time ever. 0:02:23.120 --> 0:02:26.240 It was in Indiana. It was like maybe laced with 0:02:26.360 --> 0:02:32.120 something like hallucinations voices. It was terrible. That definitely sounds 0:02:32.120 --> 0:02:34.520 like it was laced with something. Yeah, so I didn't 0:02:34.520 --> 0:02:36.720 touch it for the longest time. And I can really 0:02:36.720 --> 0:02:38.800 only do it when like my set and setting are 0:02:38.919 --> 0:02:41.800 very specific, like I feel very safe. But I also 0:02:41.840 --> 0:02:45.120 just find like I don't love the feeling of being high. 0:02:45.440 --> 0:02:47.640 I don't love the feeling of like the time distortion, 0:02:48.280 --> 0:02:50.600 but I do just like and this is advice I 0:02:50.639 --> 0:02:53.480 got from you from working on this show, but just 0:02:53.560 --> 0:02:57.520 doing tiny, tiny doses like I find even one or 0:02:57.600 --> 0:03:00.360 two and a half my MiGs is like my sweet spot, 0:03:00.440 --> 0:03:04.440 where it's just a little twinkle, like you don't feel high. Yes, 0:03:04.520 --> 0:03:06.360 So that's good that you found that out about yourself 0:03:06.400 --> 0:03:08.480 and that you didn't shy away from it, because there 0:03:08.560 --> 0:03:12.000 is a right amount for everybody, and some people's sometimes 0:03:12.000 --> 0:03:15.440 Like yesterday, I had a day off unexpectedly. I was 0:03:15.440 --> 0:03:16.799 thought I was working all day and I had the 0:03:16.880 --> 0:03:20.440 day off, and so I had a fun day and 0:03:20.520 --> 0:03:23.160 I took two edibles at around three o'clock, got into 0:03:23.160 --> 0:03:26.040 bed and watched a bunch of TV, which is basically 0:03:26.040 --> 0:03:27.720 my favorite thing to do in the whole world, is 0:03:27.720 --> 0:03:30.880 to lie in bed and watch TV, especially if there's 0:03:30.919 --> 0:03:34.880 something good. I love it. I love it. I got 0:03:34.880 --> 0:03:36.440 that from my mom. My mom used to lie in 0:03:36.440 --> 0:03:39.000 bed all the time. And then when I was seeing 0:03:39.000 --> 0:03:41.080 my therapist, he's like, your mom sounds like she was depressed. 0:03:41.120 --> 0:03:42.960 I'm like, well, then I'm fucking depressed too, because I've 0:03:43.000 --> 0:03:45.400 got the same sleeping gene. I just want to be 0:03:45.480 --> 0:03:47.960 snuggling all the time. And you're on the ghost so much. 0:03:48.000 --> 0:03:49.920 I'm sure that it's like, yeah, but I haven't, and 0:03:50.160 --> 0:03:54.640 I haven't inordinate or disproportionate desire to to be in 0:03:54.680 --> 0:03:57.880 bed Like it's just two. It's outweighs everything else I'd 0:03:57.880 --> 0:03:59.760 like to be doing. So yes, I can have a 0:03:59.840 --> 0:04:02.560 very busy life, but I have no problem chilling the 0:04:02.600 --> 0:04:07.400 funk out. Good, very good. Well, I have a follow 0:04:07.480 --> 0:04:12.440 up from someone who has taken your advice, Chelsea. This 0:04:12.520 --> 0:04:16.120 is from Christina and she joined us on our episode 0:04:16.120 --> 0:04:20.240 with Taylor Tomlinson Comics, stating comics, she was the one 0:04:20.240 --> 0:04:22.600 with the boyfriend who her friend thought he was a deadbeat. 0:04:22.720 --> 0:04:25.560 But she's a lawyer and she needed to talk to 0:04:25.600 --> 0:04:28.520 her friend about how she's really into this guy. She says, 0:04:28.560 --> 0:04:31.320 Dear Chelsea, I have a little update. I talked to 0:04:31.400 --> 0:04:34.200 my friend and we had a really honest conversation. She 0:04:34.240 --> 0:04:36.240 admitted that she did want me to break up with 0:04:36.240 --> 0:04:39.360 my boyfriend, but mostly it was because she feared I 0:04:39.400 --> 0:04:42.120 wasn't just settling for him, I was settling in life. 0:04:42.640 --> 0:04:45.360 Side story. In law school, I interned at the A C. 0:04:45.520 --> 0:04:48.920 L U and my school's environmental law clinic. I wrote 0:04:48.920 --> 0:04:52.159 a published piece on racial discrimination post nine eleven, Like 0:04:52.240 --> 0:04:56.560 this woman does everything. She's wonderful. Suffice it to say, 0:04:56.600 --> 0:04:59.159 I really care about social justice and have much bigger 0:04:59.200 --> 0:05:02.039 dreams than my current corporate job. I'd love to take 0:05:02.040 --> 0:05:04.080 a job doing something I care about, but those are 0:05:04.080 --> 0:05:07.240 scarce in Miami. My boyfriend has always said he'd never 0:05:07.320 --> 0:05:10.160 leave Miami. She said she really believes in me and 0:05:10.200 --> 0:05:12.040 thinks I can do so much more than just live 0:05:12.040 --> 0:05:14.800 in Miami with my boyfriend forever. And I explained to her, 0:05:14.800 --> 0:05:17.120 I understand I have my own fears about waking up 0:05:17.120 --> 0:05:19.560 in twenty years with regret, but for now, I have 0:05:19.680 --> 0:05:21.880 no idea what life has in store, and I'm still 0:05:21.920 --> 0:05:25.000 hopeful I won't have to compromise my dreams or my relationship. 0:05:25.320 --> 0:05:28.280 Maybe it's cocky, but I'm really shooting to have it all. 0:05:28.680 --> 0:05:31.160 So I made it clear we're not breaking up anytime soon, 0:05:31.400 --> 0:05:34.080 and asked that she please respect my decision. She seemed 0:05:34.080 --> 0:05:37.160 a little disappointed but understanding, and so far our friendship 0:05:37.279 --> 0:05:40.640 is as strong as ever, minus the verbal subtweets. Thanks 0:05:40.680 --> 0:05:42.560 so much for your advice, and I cannot wait to 0:05:42.600 --> 0:05:46.720 see you. And you're vaccinated and horny tour. Oh good, 0:05:46.920 --> 0:05:52.240 that's good, good, great? Good for her? Yeah, yeah, I'm comfortable. 0:05:52.279 --> 0:05:56.240 Conversations are worth having. Yeah, and especially if you know 0:05:56.279 --> 0:05:59.000 the friend is somebody who can handle that conversation, then 0:05:59.040 --> 0:06:01.560 you know they're are there to stick around. Yeah. And 0:06:01.640 --> 0:06:04.359 also the truth brings you together, Like saying that she 0:06:04.400 --> 0:06:07.040 wanted you to break up with him is truthful, and 0:06:07.080 --> 0:06:09.279 that's not easy to say either. So like it's good 0:06:09.279 --> 0:06:13.679 that she was honest, and it's good that you were honest. Yeah. Absolutely, Well, 0:06:14.080 --> 0:06:16.920 we have a really exciting guest today. Oh yeah, he's 0:06:16.960 --> 0:06:21.000 an internet sensation, you guys. Oh my god, Annie's Filipinos. 0:06:21.120 --> 0:06:23.960 So you know that I love Filipinos, you guys, if 0:06:23.960 --> 0:06:26.640 you don't follow this guy on Instagram or TikTok. He 0:06:26.800 --> 0:06:30.040 is an Asian American digital superstar known for his unique 0:06:30.040 --> 0:06:32.840 sense of comedy, gender bending fashion, and creating the new 0:06:32.920 --> 0:06:36.120 standard of male beauty that is followed by over forty 0:06:36.160 --> 0:06:40.440 five million fans globally. He has comedy, fashion and beauty 0:06:40.480 --> 0:06:44.599 sensation bretman Rock. He has his own TV series on 0:06:44.680 --> 0:06:48.719 MTV It's called brettman Rock, and his YouTube originals limited 0:06:48.760 --> 0:06:52.799 series Thirty Days with brettman Rock, which showcases him digging 0:06:52.839 --> 0:06:56.039 deeper into his spirituality while alone and off the grid 0:06:56.120 --> 0:07:02.240 in the jungle. Please welcome. This will nugget Bretman rock Bretman. 0:07:03.000 --> 0:07:05.520 Oh my god, let me see that hot little body. 0:07:05.560 --> 0:07:11.000 Why are you hiding it from us? This is Katherine 0:07:11.040 --> 0:07:14.200 Katherin's and my producer. Hi, miss Katherine. I love the 0:07:14.240 --> 0:07:19.840 purple hair. Thank you. It's nice to meet you. Brettman. 0:07:20.000 --> 0:07:22.240 The last time that you and I spoke. Are you good? 0:07:22.280 --> 0:07:26.400 Are you ready? Yes? I needed some lighting, you know, honey, 0:07:26.440 --> 0:07:29.360 I of course you need. By the way, Brettman's pronouns 0:07:29.360 --> 0:07:32.240 are he, she and they, so you can just call 0:07:32.800 --> 0:07:37.160 him her, they whatever, right. Whatever you see, honestly, that's 0:07:37.160 --> 0:07:39.560 what I say. Whatever you see is what you can 0:07:39.600 --> 0:07:42.720 call me. Well, what I see is a fantast magoria 0:07:42.800 --> 0:07:45.600 of light and energy. That's what I see when I 0:07:45.600 --> 0:07:48.080 look at you. Thank you. I am a divine creature. 0:07:49.000 --> 0:07:51.800 Thank you. First of all, I'm Pennie. Now did you 0:07:51.840 --> 0:07:54.560 know that? I know? I was like, we have so 0:07:54.680 --> 0:07:57.760 much things in common. Now you're like Feltena on these 0:07:57.840 --> 0:08:00.640 days thanks to the power of semen. Honestly tell me 0:08:00.720 --> 0:08:03.760 about it. Also, I did not know you guys were dating. 0:08:03.800 --> 0:08:06.600 For the longest. I thought you guys were just like 0:08:06.720 --> 0:08:08.200 best these for a while because you guys were just 0:08:08.240 --> 0:08:10.600 like making videos and I was like, Miss Joe and 0:08:10.680 --> 0:08:13.760 Miss Chelsea's really hang out and he loves joke. By 0:08:13.920 --> 0:08:16.520 the way, I was there. I don't know if he's 0:08:16.560 --> 0:08:19.040 told you, but he had like the nine sold out 0:08:19.040 --> 0:08:21.640 shows back to back to back. I didn't even get 0:08:21.640 --> 0:08:24.640 a ticket, but my mom wanted to go, Well, we're 0:08:24.640 --> 0:08:26.240 gonna hang out with you when we come in July. 0:08:26.360 --> 0:08:29.560 I'm there July three and fourth and Maui and then Oahu, 0:08:29.640 --> 0:08:32.360 aren't you on Oahu? I'm on Oahu. Wait did he 0:08:32.520 --> 0:08:35.319 name his book Mixed Plate because of his experience and 0:08:35.720 --> 0:08:38.439 eat or what? Because I have a theory that it's 0:08:38.480 --> 0:08:42.920 because he ate at zippies. I ate at zippies, yes, 0:08:43.040 --> 0:08:45.080 and like all of the food and zippies are like 0:08:45.120 --> 0:08:47.640 all mixed plate food. So I was like, m he 0:08:47.720 --> 0:08:51.200 probably ate at zippies. Well, we came. We came the 0:08:51.280 --> 0:08:53.920 last time he was playing the Blaisdell Arena. The last 0:08:53.960 --> 0:08:56.320 time we were here. We came for Thanksgiving, and so 0:08:56.360 --> 0:08:58.280 I was there for like literally two and a half days. 0:08:58.640 --> 0:09:01.360 Otherwise we would have been looking for you. But in 0:09:01.400 --> 0:09:04.040 those two and a half days, I ate more mayonnaise 0:09:04.120 --> 0:09:08.080 than I've eaten in forty five years. Because in Hawaii 0:09:08.320 --> 0:09:12.160 they put mayonnaise on everything. Everything mayonnaise, and sometimes we 0:09:12.200 --> 0:09:14.320 do the mayonnaise catchup mix, you know, like the cute 0:09:14.320 --> 0:09:17.000 little hot pink color. We put that on everything too. 0:09:18.720 --> 0:09:20.880 Is there a name for that? Is that Russian dressing? 0:09:20.920 --> 0:09:23.440 Mayonnaise and catchup? I don't know what we call it, 0:09:23.520 --> 0:09:25.960 but I am the mayonnaise that I think you're like, 0:09:26.280 --> 0:09:28.480 do you like the mayonnaise here? Well, I just don't 0:09:28.520 --> 0:09:31.200 need that much mayonnaise really on anything, because I think 0:09:31.240 --> 0:09:33.880 we use like more like the Japanese mayonnaise instead of 0:09:33.920 --> 0:09:36.280 like the Yeah, it's like an a oli, isn't it 0:09:36.360 --> 0:09:40.160 like an aoli sauce kind of thing like calamari. Yeah, 0:09:40.520 --> 0:09:44.120 comes like a soup more so than a dish. But whatever. 0:09:44.200 --> 0:09:45.760 You know, if I'm going to transition into being a 0:09:45.800 --> 0:09:49.120 Filipina and being Hawaiian, I'm just gonna have to accept 0:09:49.120 --> 0:09:50.960 all of these things and let my body just do 0:09:51.040 --> 0:09:54.600 its thing. Yeah. Also, we're both like playboy models now, 0:09:54.720 --> 0:09:56.880 Miss Chausey. I don't know if you saw that, but 0:09:57.040 --> 0:09:59.280 I saw that. I saw that. That was a dream 0:09:59.280 --> 0:10:02.120 come true for you. Recently, right was? And then I 0:10:02.160 --> 0:10:04.880 saw your Christmas one that you posted like a while back, 0:10:04.920 --> 0:10:07.600 and I was like, she really coming for my gig first, 0:10:07.880 --> 0:10:09.800 and now she wants to be a big model. I've 0:10:09.840 --> 0:10:12.960 always been coming for you, Bretman. Bretman and I first met. 0:10:13.040 --> 0:10:15.840 We did this like makeup collaboration for something a few 0:10:15.920 --> 0:10:18.480 years ago, and Bretman showed up to the set and 0:10:18.679 --> 0:10:21.560 was one hot mess. And I this is from the 0:10:21.640 --> 0:10:25.360 Queen of hot messes. Okay, okay, first of all, let 0:10:25.440 --> 0:10:28.160 me explain myself. My my first manages told me about 0:10:28.200 --> 0:10:30.120 that deal. I was like, what is me and going 0:10:30.160 --> 0:10:32.040 to talk about? So she was like, oh, you know, 0:10:32.080 --> 0:10:33.880 you guys have so many things in common. You guys 0:10:33.920 --> 0:10:36.160 are both funny, and you guys smoke weeds. So I 0:10:36.280 --> 0:10:40.080 was like, I'm gonna go high. So I took a 0:10:40.280 --> 0:10:44.600 fat red before I came and that was that. So 0:10:44.720 --> 0:10:47.679 I was, Yes, I was a mess, and I'm so sorry. No, 0:10:47.880 --> 0:10:50.199 I know it wasn't. It wasn't a shoot that required 0:10:50.280 --> 0:10:52.080 us to be anything less than a mess. To be 0:10:52.160 --> 0:10:54.160 honest with you, we had to be a mess, but 0:10:54.400 --> 0:10:57.160 cover it up. Yeah, exactly. He did my makeup. I 0:10:57.160 --> 0:11:00.160 think I tried to do his anyway. No, Remember you 0:11:00.160 --> 0:11:02.720 were like mad at me because I think, like last minute, 0:11:02.760 --> 0:11:04.000 I was like, I don't think I could do her 0:11:04.040 --> 0:11:06.080 makeup today, So I ended up like having to teach 0:11:06.120 --> 0:11:08.800 you how to do it. Oh yeah, you couldn't apply 0:11:08.920 --> 0:11:12.680 it yourself. Why was that? Because I low key don't 0:11:12.800 --> 0:11:15.000 know how to do other people's makeup, Like I know 0:11:15.040 --> 0:11:17.240 how to do my face, but like, I feel like 0:11:17.280 --> 0:11:19.720 if I did your makeup, you would have just looked 0:11:19.720 --> 0:11:22.040 like me, which I mean, that's not really a problem 0:11:22.040 --> 0:11:24.199 with that, but um, I didn't want you look like 0:11:24.240 --> 0:11:27.560 a Bremen rock. So that I think it's because I 0:11:27.640 --> 0:11:30.520 know how my face is shaped, and like we obviously 0:11:30.520 --> 0:11:33.520 have different face shapes and we do like an egg. 0:11:39.280 --> 0:11:41.640 What's going on with you these days? How's your love life? 0:11:41.840 --> 0:11:45.000 Is there anything happening in that department? Let me, mother 0:11:45.320 --> 0:11:47.080 tell you? Tell me why I'm I want to go 0:11:47.120 --> 0:11:49.120 see a spiritual healer, and I know if you believe 0:11:49.120 --> 0:11:52.000 in that shack. And she was telling me all these 0:11:52.040 --> 0:11:54.440 things about like my grandma because she was kind of 0:11:54.480 --> 0:11:57.360 like my spiritual guide growing up. I grew up very spiritual, 0:11:57.480 --> 0:11:59.000 and I was feeling off, so I went to go 0:11:59.040 --> 0:12:01.679 see a Native American and woman who does like all 0:12:01.679 --> 0:12:04.319 these practices. And at the end, she was like, are 0:12:04.320 --> 0:12:06.040 you seeing anybody right now? And I was like, nos 0:12:06.120 --> 0:12:09.280 this and she goes, I think there's somebody that like 0:12:09.360 --> 0:12:12.480 hecks you. And when she said that, it clicked to me. 0:12:12.520 --> 0:12:15.360 It was my ax because he practiced that stuff and 0:12:15.400 --> 0:12:17.800 he would always joke around and be like, if you 0:12:17.880 --> 0:12:20.360 ever leave me, I'll make sure you'll never find anybody again. 0:12:21.040 --> 0:12:23.240 And at the time I was just like ha ha, 0:12:23.320 --> 0:12:25.880 oh my god, that's so funny, like you're so goofy, 0:12:25.920 --> 0:12:28.920 but that this really hecks me. And now I have 0:12:29.120 --> 0:12:33.000 a hard time like connecting with men, and like every 0:12:33.000 --> 0:12:34.800 time like men flirted with me, like it's hard for 0:12:34.840 --> 0:12:37.600 me to like distinguished now, like my assistant literally has 0:12:37.640 --> 0:12:40.160 to be like right, he was hitting on you. It's 0:12:40.160 --> 0:12:42.560 hard for me like see that. Now, every time I 0:12:42.559 --> 0:12:45.480 get close to somebody, I always feel like I'm cheating 0:12:45.600 --> 0:12:48.480 on somebody. So I always like ghost boys just for 0:12:48.960 --> 0:12:51.120 an ed reason. And I and when she said that, 0:12:51.160 --> 0:12:53.160 I was hex I was like, oh my god, it's 0:12:53.240 --> 0:12:56.120 him doing that. So yeah, that's the update on my 0:12:56.160 --> 0:12:58.840 love life. So was that person able to remove the 0:12:58.840 --> 0:13:01.920 hecks I start, I was like, how do we get 0:13:02.040 --> 0:13:03.960 rid of this? What fun? And then she was like, 0:13:04.160 --> 0:13:06.600 I think your grandma is strong enough, and I really 0:13:06.640 --> 0:13:09.280 feel like your grandma let it happen. And when she 0:13:09.320 --> 0:13:11.160 said that, it also clicked in my head that like, 0:13:11.240 --> 0:13:14.800 after I got dumped Miss Chelsea, my life turned upside down, 0:13:14.880 --> 0:13:17.760 Like I grew out my hair. I looked like more 0:13:17.880 --> 0:13:19.760 like Breman Rock more than I've ever did in my 0:13:19.760 --> 0:13:22.240 whole entire life. And I feel like I needed that 0:13:22.280 --> 0:13:25.360 ship to happen to finally step into who I was 0:13:25.400 --> 0:13:27.880 meant to be. And like ever since then, I had 0:13:27.880 --> 0:13:31.720 like my MTV show My Playboy, like back to back cover. 0:13:31.760 --> 0:13:33.400 It's like, oh my gosh, I'm so sorry. I don't 0:13:33.400 --> 0:13:37.680 mean to be like bragging about myself. Really like I 0:13:37.720 --> 0:13:39.160 went through all that show I've been to go for 0:13:39.240 --> 0:13:41.360 a whole year just so that I could focus myself. 0:13:41.400 --> 0:13:43.839 And she said that your grandma. If your grandma did 0:13:43.840 --> 0:13:45.720 not want you to go through it, she would have 0:13:46.440 --> 0:13:48.880 blocked it off. And she said that I had to 0:13:48.920 --> 0:13:51.320 go through it, and I think I had to because 0:13:51.400 --> 0:13:54.960 I found who I really was, I think, and I'm 0:13:55.000 --> 0:13:58.600 more confident than of who myself in my career than 0:13:58.640 --> 0:14:01.800 ever before. So yeah, that's a great feeling, isn't it 0:14:01.840 --> 0:14:05.360 to feel self assured and confident in who you are? Yeah? 0:14:05.440 --> 0:14:06.959 I think I really at the end of the day, 0:14:06.960 --> 0:14:08.720 I really just had to fall in love with myself, 0:14:08.760 --> 0:14:11.720 and I think that's what happened. I fell in love 0:14:11.760 --> 0:14:15.160 with Remen Rock. Yeah. Yeah, that's interesting you say that 0:14:15.200 --> 0:14:17.320 because a lot of people think that you have to 0:14:17.320 --> 0:14:20.600 fall in love with yourself physically. You know, they're not 0:14:20.640 --> 0:14:23.000 looking at the internal and like, you actually have to 0:14:23.000 --> 0:14:27.160 fall in love with your personality and your emotionality, Like 0:14:27.200 --> 0:14:29.080 you have to fall in love with you who you are, 0:14:29.600 --> 0:14:32.120 not just the way you look. And especially in the 0:14:32.160 --> 0:14:35.520 world that we're in or in the social media and everything, 0:14:35.840 --> 0:14:38.240 everyone kind of gets reduced down to the way they 0:14:38.240 --> 0:14:40.000 look and how good they look for how old they 0:14:40.000 --> 0:14:42.280 are or whatever. Well more for me than for you, 0:14:42.320 --> 0:14:44.840 since you're like eight months old. But I like that 0:14:44.840 --> 0:14:46.440 that you took a break and you kind of stepped 0:14:46.440 --> 0:14:48.480 into your own power because I think that's a typical 0:14:49.080 --> 0:14:52.360 situational circumstance. When you get out of a relationship, you 0:14:52.400 --> 0:14:55.080 start to look at yourself in a different way, and 0:14:55.480 --> 0:14:58.640 it's a huge growth experience, right when you break up 0:14:58.720 --> 0:15:01.360 and you're on your own, and he was like my 0:15:01.440 --> 0:15:04.000 first love. I swore I was gonna marry him. People 0:15:04.000 --> 0:15:06.800 calling me eight times, I ran back eight. It got 0:15:06.840 --> 0:15:08.680 to a point where, like, literally the seven time you 0:15:08.760 --> 0:15:11.920 broke up with me that one month, I literally was, 0:15:12.320 --> 0:15:14.600 I don't even pray mitelca, I don't pray. And I 0:15:14.720 --> 0:15:17.840 was like to please God, like, please leave me already, 0:15:17.880 --> 0:15:20.520 because I could not. I don't know why, but I 0:15:20.560 --> 0:15:22.840 could not have the willpower to like break up with 0:15:22.880 --> 0:15:25.080 somebody after like chasing them eight times. So it got 0:15:25.120 --> 0:15:27.520 to a point where I was like, please, whoever is 0:15:27.560 --> 0:15:31.800 listening up there, please tell him to leave me. Yeah, seven, 0:15:32.160 --> 0:15:34.360 seven or eight times? If going back, I call that 0:15:34.400 --> 0:15:38.800 recidivism where you are performing the same wrong thing you've 0:15:38.800 --> 0:15:41.000 done so many times, then yeah, I think after you 0:15:41.000 --> 0:15:43.000 break up with somebody twice and you get back together, 0:15:43.040 --> 0:15:45.480 that's a rap. We should have like term limits on 0:15:45.520 --> 0:15:48.640 all of these things, just for younger people coming into it, 0:15:48.680 --> 0:15:51.440 because it's like there's no healthy relationship where you're breaking 0:15:51.520 --> 0:15:53.560 up five or six times and getting back together. No 0:15:53.600 --> 0:15:55.480 one's ever gonna be like this is gonna work out 0:15:56.200 --> 0:15:58.600 what about therapy, breatman, do you go to any therapists? 0:15:59.440 --> 0:16:01.960 I go to the physical therapy because I injured my 0:16:02.080 --> 0:16:05.320 shoulder the other months. Yeah, that's not the same fucking thing. 0:16:05.400 --> 0:16:10.160 I know. I know, I struggle finding the courage to 0:16:10.160 --> 0:16:12.680 go see a therapist, Miss Chelsea. I do, I genuinely do, 0:16:12.760 --> 0:16:15.280 and I think it's because I was traumatized from like 0:16:16.000 --> 0:16:20.080 early years when I did see like a therapist like 0:16:20.160 --> 0:16:22.640 that didn't know how to deal with like kids, especially 0:16:22.640 --> 0:16:26.160 like growing up with like an Asian mom who joking 0:16:26.200 --> 0:16:29.760 probably said something similar to like some Asian moms truly 0:16:29.800 --> 0:16:33.000 do not believe in mental health, like not even Asian moms, 0:16:33.040 --> 0:16:35.280 like foreign moms, like they think that we're just like 0:16:35.360 --> 0:16:37.520 being dramatic. Like even when I told my mom, like 0:16:38.120 --> 0:16:40.560 I was telling her about my anxiety and how I 0:16:40.560 --> 0:16:42.720 have social anxiety, and she was like, girl, you're just 0:16:42.720 --> 0:16:45.840 being dramatic, like you're like she didn't say that, but 0:16:45.920 --> 0:16:48.680 in my language she did. So I think for like 0:16:48.760 --> 0:16:52.840 a while, I also like didn't take my mental health 0:16:53.000 --> 0:16:56.440 seriously because my mom convinced me that it was like 0:16:56.520 --> 0:16:58.640 all in my head, and that's what it is. It 0:16:58.760 --> 0:17:01.400 is all in my head. But them, Yeah, I am, 0:17:01.600 --> 0:17:03.920 I am. I really am building the courage to go 0:17:04.000 --> 0:17:06.520 see a therapist. I texted my manager like last month, 0:17:06.560 --> 0:17:08.040 I was like, I think this is the year that 0:17:08.080 --> 0:17:10.560 I need to see a therapist because even if it 0:17:10.760 --> 0:17:12.920 if even if it isn't for Bretman, I need to 0:17:12.960 --> 0:17:18.520 see a therapist for Bretman Rock because fame is not fun. 0:17:19.119 --> 0:17:21.719 So tell, let's talk about your fame. Let's how are 0:17:21.760 --> 0:17:25.600 you handling being famous? I think I don't like to 0:17:25.600 --> 0:17:28.159 call myself a child star, but it kind of is, because, 0:17:28.160 --> 0:17:31.359 like I started this journey when I was in high school. 0:17:31.359 --> 0:17:33.000 I was a sophomore, and so a lot of like 0:17:33.040 --> 0:17:37.040 my audience like grew up with me, and so I 0:17:37.080 --> 0:17:39.439 also grew up with fame and like handling fame. But 0:17:39.520 --> 0:17:41.440 also at the same time, I live in haw VIII 0:17:41.680 --> 0:17:44.800 and so you know, a population of four people, So 0:17:44.920 --> 0:17:47.159 like it's hard for me to like feel famous in 0:17:47.200 --> 0:17:49.720 how VII when like really like everyone that wants to 0:17:49.720 --> 0:17:51.280 meet you here, I've already met you when you were 0:17:51.320 --> 0:17:53.399 like in high school. Everyone here has made me like 0:17:53.440 --> 0:17:55.360 three or four or five times already. It's like, oh, 0:17:55.400 --> 0:17:58.000 it's just Bretman. But I truly only feel fame when 0:17:58.000 --> 0:18:00.159 I'm in l A. And that's why I think I 0:18:00.240 --> 0:18:03.439 hate l A because LA reminds me of work, and 0:18:03.480 --> 0:18:07.120 that's why I thrived, because it doesn't have the pressure 0:18:07.160 --> 0:18:09.560 of like faith. Do you know what I mean? Yeah, Well, 0:18:09.640 --> 0:18:12.000 Joe and I are spending like our winters and Whistler 0:18:12.480 --> 0:18:14.280 and I love to get out of l A to 0:18:14.320 --> 0:18:16.720 go to Whistler because it's just a completely It's all 0:18:16.760 --> 0:18:19.800 about nature, it's all about skiing, it's all about being outside. 0:18:20.160 --> 0:18:22.879 If you're not skiing, you're doing something else physical. No 0:18:22.920 --> 0:18:25.840 one gives a ship about Hollywood. No one's talking about that. 0:18:26.240 --> 0:18:28.800 No one's stopping me to say I need a picture. 0:18:29.200 --> 0:18:30.920 They just all know that I'm there and that's the 0:18:30.920 --> 0:18:34.200 way it's going to be. But it's Whistler in Canada. Yes, 0:18:34.359 --> 0:18:36.840 it is a bit. I have a story about getting 0:18:36.880 --> 0:18:41.399 into Canada, but continue. But I I think that, Yeah, 0:18:41.440 --> 0:18:44.399 a lot of artists and creators like to be away 0:18:44.440 --> 0:18:46.879 from the hustle of it, like being in l A 0:18:46.960 --> 0:18:49.159 all the time. It's just not a healthy situation. I know. 0:18:49.280 --> 0:18:51.480 For me, I need a time out all the time. 0:18:51.720 --> 0:18:53.720 And I like being on the road because one of 0:18:53.760 --> 0:18:55.240 the reasons I love being on the road and being 0:18:55.240 --> 0:18:57.359 on tour is to be out of l A because 0:18:57.359 --> 0:18:59.240 you just I don't like to be competitive and I 0:18:59.240 --> 0:19:01.520 don't like to look around too much. And when I'm 0:19:01.560 --> 0:19:05.920 in l A, I noticed that about myself more exactly. So, um, yeah, 0:19:06.000 --> 0:19:08.879 that's kind of like me too. And what's up with 0:19:08.920 --> 0:19:12.920 your sister? How's she doing? Girl? How is she not doing? Honestly, 0:19:12.960 --> 0:19:16.840 the day my sister is something. Um, she's also on 0:19:16.920 --> 0:19:20.359 her focusing on myself era right now because she just 0:19:20.359 --> 0:19:24.760