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Speaker 1: I'm emio Lea. Last season on Crumbs, I tried to

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Speaker 1: figure out why I seem to look for love in

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Speaker 1: all the wrong places in the past. I looked for

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Speaker 1: love from guys who were jealous, What are you doing?

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Speaker 1: Who are you hanging out with? I looked for passion,

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Speaker 1: passion that came alongside volatility and violence and went from

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Speaker 1: zero to one hundred in a split of a second.

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Speaker 1: I try to figure out why I settle for that

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Speaker 1: type of love, and surprise, surprise, I traced a trail

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Speaker 1: of Crumbs back to my childhood. I was desperate for love.

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Speaker 1: I never got it from my dad, who was basically

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Speaker 1: out of the picture. I was desperate for attention for

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Speaker 1: my mom, who had me at age fourteen, who was

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Speaker 1: addicted to heroin, who was in and out of my

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Speaker 1: life and left me to be raised by my grandma,

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Speaker 1: my Mammy Leija, and then Mamilicha ended up in prison

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Speaker 1: herself after years doing business with the Mexican drug cartel.

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Speaker 1: I know, straight out of De Lenovela, right, But that's

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Speaker 1: just my narrative. If I want the whole story, I

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Speaker 1: have to look outside of myself. So I'm turning to

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Speaker 1: someone who has. It's a very different version of the

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Speaker 1: events of my life my mom. Maybe by learning her

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Speaker 1: truth I can get closer to mine as well. We're

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Speaker 1: going all the way back to her childhood. When did

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Speaker 1: you realize what Mamlicha did for a living?

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Speaker 2: Probably the time when the DEA agents showed up and

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Speaker 2: her early loves. I was very attracted to Menda had

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Speaker 2: just gone out of prison.

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Speaker 1: To understand how we all got trapped in the cycles

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Speaker 1: of violence, addiction, and chaos. This is Crumbs. It's a

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Speaker 1: show up of the things we settle for and the

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Speaker 1: bits of ourselves that make us who we are. Listen

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Speaker 1: to Crumbs Season two on the iHeartRadio app, Apple Podcasts,

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Speaker 1: or wherever you get your podcasts.