WEBVTT - Capítulo 231: Done With The Hustle with Ana Flores

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<v Speaker 1>Look Radio, I'm Viosa and I'm a La. Look at

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<v Speaker 1>Ora Radio is a podcast dedicated to archiving our present

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<v Speaker 1>and shifting the culture forward. Today, we're skipping the chatter

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<v Speaker 1>because we have an exclusive interview with Anna Flores. She's

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<v Speaker 1>a writer, entrepreneur founder. You might recognize Anna Flores from

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<v Speaker 1>the digital platform and community space We All Grow. This

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<v Speaker 1>has been a thriving space for Latina entrepreneurs and it

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<v Speaker 1>was somewhat shocking when Anna Floores announced recently that she

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<v Speaker 1>sold the company.

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<v Speaker 2>We are really excited about this interview because this is

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<v Speaker 2>the first time that Anna is getting on a podcast

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<v Speaker 2>to talk about the decision to sell We All Grow,

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<v Speaker 2>how difficult that was, and how she's pivoting. This is

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<v Speaker 2>a really important conversation for any Latinas out there who

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<v Speaker 2>have a business, who want to go into business for

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<v Speaker 2>themselves and thinking about how you can have a mission

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<v Speaker 2>driven project while also surviving under capitalism. This interview has everything.

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<v Speaker 2>It's a lot of wisdom from Anna Flores from all

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<v Speaker 2>of her years of work, So you want to tune

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<v Speaker 2>into this conversation.

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<v Speaker 3>Hi am Anna Flores. I am a mom of a

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<v Speaker 3>teenage girl about to graduate. I am a daughter of

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<v Speaker 3>Salvadoran immigrants. Was born in Houston, Texas, grew up in

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<v Speaker 3>sad Bad, grew up by lingual, grew up by cultural,

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<v Speaker 3>and currently live in Idlewild. And I'm transitioning from my

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<v Speaker 3>stage of an entrepreneur to a writer and it feels

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<v Speaker 3>so good to finally allow myself to call myself that.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, if you're comfortable, I'd love to know more

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<v Speaker 1>about this transition that you're on and just the journey

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<v Speaker 1>of We All Grow, because as you know, look, I

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<v Speaker 1>thought our radio is an audio archive and would just

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<v Speaker 1>love to capture the journey that was We All Grow.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I love that. First of all, I am so

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<v Speaker 3>grateful that We All Grow brought me to be in

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<v Speaker 3>circle with women like you. It was because of Wheel

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<v Speaker 3>Grow that I got to meet both of you, that

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<v Speaker 3>I got to meet Lokat that. I remember the first

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<v Speaker 3>time I met you. It was like at a pod

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<v Speaker 3>uh it was like a podcast Latino Podcasters. I beg

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<v Speaker 3>back then, but that's that festival. Yeah, and it was

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<v Speaker 3>like the beginning of podcast and I was like out

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<v Speaker 3>there doing my work. People don't know that would really

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<v Speaker 3>show up to places just to like scope out right

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<v Speaker 3>I was like, who am I Like, we're gonna get

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<v Speaker 3>podcasting into we all grow into the summit, Like who's

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<v Speaker 3>out there? Who are the Latinos doing this? And y'all

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<v Speaker 3>were there. You were like one of the first. So

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<v Speaker 3>congrats on your journey. And where do I even start?

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<v Speaker 3>I mean, yes, like you said, it started. It started

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<v Speaker 3>out as a as an extension of a blog. I

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<v Speaker 3>was a mom blogger. I was one of the OG

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<v Speaker 3>mom bloggers back in two thousand and nine, which is

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<v Speaker 3>so funny because so many of us are finding ourselves

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<v Speaker 3>now in substack because it feels like the og blogging days.

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<v Speaker 3>But yeah, I had a blog called Spanglish Baby for

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<v Speaker 3>parents racing bi lingual and bicultural kids. I co wrote

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<v Speaker 3>it with a friend and it was just life changing

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<v Speaker 3>for me to find this medium right that now has

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<v Speaker 3>given so much to so many of us on the

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<v Speaker 3>positive side, and what it allowed me was to understand

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<v Speaker 3>that I wanted to dedicate my life to really in

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<v Speaker 3>an unconventional way. At that moment, I had always been

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<v Speaker 3>creating for the Latino community. Asked to be producer for

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<v Speaker 3>major industry, for major companies like when We See You

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<v Speaker 3>on MTV, et cetera. And finding this place where I

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<v Speaker 3>felt that our voices could be democratized just felt like

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<v Speaker 3>a world of infinite possibilities to me. But to do that,

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<v Speaker 3>we had to monetize, and very few of us were monetizing.

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<v Speaker 3>But I was figuring out how to monetize thanks to

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<v Speaker 3>the black and white mom bloggers. They were the ones

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<v Speaker 3>really opening the doors for me and saying like, hey,

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<v Speaker 3>come here, I'll teach you. I'll teach you and you

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<v Speaker 3>take this to the Latino community. So was I a

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<v Speaker 3>token Latina? Yes? Did I make the best use of that? Hell? Yes?

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<v Speaker 3>I was like, you give me permission, Like, not permission,

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<v Speaker 3>you open that door, I will crack it open and

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<v Speaker 3>I will bring all of us with us. And that's

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<v Speaker 3>what I did when I launched Latina Bloggers Connect, which

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<v Speaker 3>is now we all grow. But it really started as

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<v Speaker 3>a blogger network, so before influencer marketing even existed. It

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<v Speaker 3>was like even hard to call it. People didn't understand

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<v Speaker 3>we were doing. I was like, I'm connecting bloggers with brands,

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<v Speaker 3>and we were the first ones in the world to

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<v Speaker 3>connect Latina bloggers with brands. So obviously it grew really quickly.

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<v Speaker 3>I mean I was on my own for like the

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<v Speaker 3>first ten months, and I had no idea what I

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<v Speaker 3>had got myself into. And that's why I think I

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<v Speaker 3>went from being a writer to office sadden. I'm like

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<v Speaker 3>an entrepreneur and I'm having to learn all these marketing

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<v Speaker 3>terms and I anyway, it was crazy and from early

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<v Speaker 3>on like it just became really big. But at the

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<v Speaker 3>heart of everything was always a community. For me, it

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<v Speaker 3>was supporting each other and that's why eventually our mission

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<v Speaker 3>became our our slogan to say was to elevate the

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<v Speaker 3>voices and stories of latinas. But the very first original

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<v Speaker 3>motto was when one grows, we all grow, because that

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<v Speaker 3>was what was at the heart of what I was doing.

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<v Speaker 3>I was like, if I'm going to learn, I'm going

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<v Speaker 3>to teach my fellow bloggers as well. And if I'm

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<v Speaker 3>going to monetize, I'm going to help them monetize. And

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<v Speaker 3>that has always been the spirit that has carried us

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<v Speaker 3>throughout all of the pivots, throughout all of the changes,

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<v Speaker 3>because what happened was that being at the forefront of

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<v Speaker 3>the digital media space back then meant that we were

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<v Speaker 3>like one of the first on Instagram, the first to

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<v Speaker 3>start I remember like for brands like Nutrigena, loreal or

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<v Speaker 3>we were creating their first Instagram campaigns with influencers. I mean,

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<v Speaker 3>think of how crazy that was way back then and

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<v Speaker 3>how things have changed. But no matter you know, how

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<v Speaker 3>the landscape has evolved, we've always made sure that we're

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<v Speaker 3>listening to where Latinas are and then joining them and

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<v Speaker 3>their journey and seeing how we could support So whether

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<v Speaker 3>bloggers became an entrepreneurs, entrepreneurs and podcasters, podcasters and then

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<v Speaker 3>career professionals, everything, we were just like, we just wanted

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<v Speaker 3>to make sure that we're supporting all. So eventually it

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<v Speaker 3>became the amigahood because at the end of the day,

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<v Speaker 3>it's about the friendships that we're creating. That's what makes

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<v Speaker 3>us powerful, is how we're supporting each other no matter

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<v Speaker 3>how we're approaching life and our growth. So that's the

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<v Speaker 3>we All Grow story. And yes, we sold it at

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<v Speaker 3>the beginning of this year. It was a bit of

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<v Speaker 3>a fire. So if you know me, you know I'm

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<v Speaker 3>always gonna be honest and might be here like woo girl,

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<v Speaker 3>I got millions for this. No, no, it was really

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<v Speaker 3>sad because we were a bit of not a bit

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<v Speaker 3>but not as victims, because I will you know, I

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<v Speaker 3>think it's important for all of us to recognize, recognize

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<v Speaker 3>where we can learn things right. But at the end

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<v Speaker 3>of the day, it was the Trump administration with the

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<v Speaker 3>DII executive orders coming in like rapid fire that pretty

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<v Speaker 3>much did us in. I was like, I cannot do

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<v Speaker 3>this anymore. We've sustained, right being in that mode of

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<v Speaker 3>constantly trying to get ahead because our business model was

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<v Speaker 3>very much being independent. We worked with brands, which was great.

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<v Speaker 3>It sustained us and we were like alchemists. We would

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<v Speaker 3>grab the brand's money and you know, transform it into

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<v Speaker 3>something beautiful for the community. But as you might, as

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<v Speaker 3>you know, it's getting harder to work with brands and

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<v Speaker 3>also be in a mission driven community space, right and

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<v Speaker 3>and for me being trying to stay congruent with my

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<v Speaker 3>personal values and what I support and then having to

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<v Speaker 3>take brand money where maybe they didn't align with my

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<v Speaker 3>personal values. So that disalignment, that misalignment, that disconnect started

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<v Speaker 3>from me years ago. It was always there, but it

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<v Speaker 3>was just starting to grow more and I and it

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<v Speaker 3>was making it really hard to keep monetizing that in

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<v Speaker 3>that way. It was it was getting hard the last

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<v Speaker 3>year as well, because we made a decision to cancel

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<v Speaker 3>a new two day event because there was a big

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<v Speaker 3>hotel workers union strike happening in southern California. There was

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<v Speaker 3>like one hundred and sixty something hotels being affected, and

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<v Speaker 3>one of the top three hotels that they were targeting

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<v Speaker 3>was our lovely that new hotel Maya, which all had

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<v Speaker 3>been to a few years. And we found out six

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<v Speaker 3>weeks before the event, the majority of the union workers,

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<v Speaker 3>of the workers in the union, our Latino women, our

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<v Speaker 3>hotel workers, we could not cross that picket line, no

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<v Speaker 3>matter how much the financial pearl that actually put us in.

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<v Speaker 3>So we had to made the really difficult decision to

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<v Speaker 3>postpone it and then to mentally cancel it in communication

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<v Speaker 3>with the union and knowing at the end they did

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<v Speaker 3>send us a beautiful letter. I mean, it took almost

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<v Speaker 3>ten months after the event for them to finally come

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<v Speaker 3>to the table and negotiate and be able to come

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<v Speaker 3>to an agreement, and they sent us a beautiful letter

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<v Speaker 3>telling us how much us canceling had actually been supportive.

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<v Speaker 3>And it's really difficult when you're like, yes, this is

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<v Speaker 3>the only way, this is what's congruent for me and

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<v Speaker 3>at the same time seeing how it was sinking our company. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 3>we had to refund a lot of money. We had

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<v Speaker 3>to for most of the year last year work only

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<v Speaker 3>on make goods, and we kept up a really good front.

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<v Speaker 3>But it was very difficult. As you know, I transitioned

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<v Speaker 3>from as co CEO I had Barton and Coco three

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<v Speaker 3>years ago. Because yes, the redcrumbs were there. I was

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<v Speaker 3>already transitioning out and trying to do it in the

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<v Speaker 3>most graceful way and leaving the company in the most

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<v Speaker 3>beautiful hands with Vanessa Santos. But unfortunately, you know it

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<v Speaker 3>it the being an election year, having had to cancel

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<v Speaker 3>that conference. Election years are always difficult, and then having

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<v Speaker 3>the administration that we have the brands that you know,

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<v Speaker 3>we really depended on FROs. You've seen it either there

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<v Speaker 3>being boycott it and we can't touch or they have

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<v Speaker 3>frozen everything to the point where one of our really

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<v Speaker 3>big clients, No, unfortunately had to tell us that we

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<v Speaker 3>needed to change our proposal so that it wouldn't focus

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<v Speaker 3>on Latinas. That's when I knew that we were done.

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<v Speaker 1>Thank you so much for bringing this up, because this

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<v Speaker 1>is so much much of like the unseen labor that

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<v Speaker 1>goes into being a founder and entrepreneur and being this

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<v Speaker 1>like culture maker, this like community builder that you are,

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<v Speaker 1>and so many Latinas and women have benefited from. We

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<v Speaker 1>all grow as a digital community and then as an

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<v Speaker 1>in person community, and clearly, like a lot of us

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<v Speaker 1>didn't know what was going on behind the scenes. So

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<v Speaker 1>I really appreciate your vulnerability in sharing this so openly

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<v Speaker 1>with us, because it really puts so much into perspective

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<v Speaker 1>with and you know, we feel it on our end,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, in terms of having to say no to

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<v Speaker 1>doing maybe certain brand collabs or ad reads because our

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<v Speaker 1>community is fierce and they know, like if there's a boycott,

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<v Speaker 1>if there is a brand that we should not be

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<v Speaker 1>supporting right now, they don't want us to support it.

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<v Speaker 1>And I'm sure though we all grow, community is the same.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh gosh, yes, absolutely. And I actually chosen to not

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<v Speaker 3>do to not record podcasts right now or like, I

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<v Speaker 3>just got an invitation to another LinkedIn live and I'm

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<v Speaker 3>pushing everything back because I'm focused on the manuscript, but

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<v Speaker 3>I really wanted to talk with you. I really felt

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<v Speaker 3>that this would be a good place to share a

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<v Speaker 3>little bit of the story that in. You know, I'm

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<v Speaker 3>writing a book and i'll and I'm writing on my

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<v Speaker 3>sub stack, and I am being there. But I wanted

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<v Speaker 3>to bring a deeper perspective and a deeper nuance. I

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<v Speaker 3>know that the community, one of the most beautiful things,

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<v Speaker 3>aside from all the women that it has brought to

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<v Speaker 3>my life, was really seeing that the level of trust

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<v Speaker 3>that we have, we had created and that for me

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<v Speaker 3>is the most valuable currency that exists.

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<v Speaker 1>Right.

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<v Speaker 3>We were not going to break that trust, and thankfully

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<v Speaker 3>in fourteen years we never really were called out, canceled,

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<v Speaker 3>et cetera, which is a lot to say in this environment, right,

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<v Speaker 3>and it was because we always moved with our entire

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<v Speaker 3>as much as possible. But the sad part, and this

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<v Speaker 3>is where I don't know what the answer is, but

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<v Speaker 3>maybe it's about starting the conversation, is how much are

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<v Speaker 3>we all dying in the sword?

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<v Speaker 2>Right?

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<v Speaker 3>Are we putting ourselves there? For example, I'm all for

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<v Speaker 3>boycotting Amazon and Target and all this, and then I

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<v Speaker 3>think about all my friends that have businesses that rely

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<v Speaker 3>on us spending our dollars, and Target and Amazon that

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<v Speaker 3>have investors that they that are that have invested, have

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<v Speaker 3>betted in them, and they have taken really big risks

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<v Speaker 3>to have their products on these shelves, and removing their

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<v Speaker 3>products from the shelf is not like, oh, just stop

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<v Speaker 3>selling there. It's gonna cost them about a million dollars

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<v Speaker 3>just to remove their products from the shelf. So who

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<v Speaker 3>wins and who loses?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, this is a I think a question that we've

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<v Speaker 2>asked internally along these lines, and I wonder if you

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<v Speaker 2>have reflections for our listeners about being mission driven, community

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<v Speaker 2>oriented and surviving capitalism. Can we do both at the

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<v Speaker 2>same time? Does capitalism allow for it? And are the

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<v Speaker 2>boycotts of today of ultra mega multinational conglomerates like Amazon.

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<v Speaker 2>Is this the same type of boycott that I think

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<v Speaker 2>maybe many of us are thinking of, like the UfW

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<v Speaker 2>and boycotting table grapes. These are not the same types

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<v Speaker 2>of boycotts and they do not have the same types

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<v Speaker 2>of impact if we think like historically and labor movements. Right,

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<v Speaker 2>So I just lob that over to you your reflections.

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<v Speaker 3>Let's start with the easy conversations. First. It was my fault.

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<v Speaker 4>I let us hear.

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<v Speaker 3>You know, it's definitely I feel such a sensitive subject.

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<v Speaker 3>But I think, first of all, I am a very

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<v Speaker 3>positive person grounded in reality. We're not going to bring

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<v Speaker 3>down capitalism in our generation. We're not. So if we

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<v Speaker 3>continue trying to do the impossible, what's going to happen

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<v Speaker 3>is that we're going to exhaust ourselves. We're going to

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<v Speaker 3>continue to affect our mental health, our physical health, our

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<v Speaker 3>financial health. And that's exactly what they want. They need

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<v Speaker 3>to see as poor, they need to see us fighting

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<v Speaker 3>with each other, et cetera, because that's how you manipulate.

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<v Speaker 3>And instead, I think it's how do we, like you said,

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<v Speaker 3>exist in this reality while really understanding what the possibilities

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<v Speaker 3>are and how it can shift when we start supporting

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<v Speaker 3>each other for fucking real, because the reality is that

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<v Speaker 3>we don't. As Latinos. We put up a really great

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<v Speaker 3>front that we do, but we do not show up

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<v Speaker 3>when it matters. Can you say?

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<v Speaker 1>Can you say more about that? And I don't mean

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<v Speaker 1>to interject, but I would love for you to expand

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<v Speaker 1>on that this kind of Manian optics that Latinos are

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<v Speaker 1>very supporting each other, but maybe we're not.

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<v Speaker 3>I mean, we are, like you know, in maybe in

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<v Speaker 3>small circles, right, like yes, you call me I'm going

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<v Speaker 3>to open a door for you, and it's sort and

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<v Speaker 3>that's just humanity and sisterhood as it is, right, there's

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<v Speaker 3>a negative the positive. It has to exist in those

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<v Speaker 3>both silos. So, but when I see the community as

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<v Speaker 3>a collective moving together, we have a really hard time

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<v Speaker 3>coming together for one objective. And I'm not even going

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<v Speaker 3>to get into politics, because that's a whole conversation, but

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<v Speaker 3>that's a reflection and the mirror of what happens that say,

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<v Speaker 3>we're talking about these boycotts or about consumer power. Again

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<v Speaker 3>and again, we keep seeing from the entertainment industry, our

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<v Speaker 3>movies come out, Are we gonna go and support them? No,

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<v Speaker 3>I'm an Argentinian and that Dominican movie doesn't speak to me. No,

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<v Speaker 3>I'm a Dominican in that Argentina movie doesn't speak to me.

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<v Speaker 3>Or you know, so why should I go? You don't

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<v Speaker 3>see that happening in the Asian community. You don't see

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<v Speaker 3>that happening in the black community. That's why you see

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<v Speaker 3>movies like Crazy, Ritation, like Boom. If y'all know, it's

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<v Speaker 3>because rich Asians came together to buy out theaters. That

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<v Speaker 3>same model has been trying to replicate in the Latino industry,

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<v Speaker 3>and we can't do it. Bring it down to the

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<v Speaker 3>consumer level. If you're saying I am going to boycott Target, Okay,

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<v Speaker 3>boycott Target, then turn around and go to bloom Me,

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<v Speaker 3>go to Ritel's curls, go to and buy directly from

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<v Speaker 3>their website like Transition, move it over. No, don't just boycott.

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<v Speaker 3>Understand what the implications are the whole new ones because

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<v Speaker 3>we stay in the fighting mentality and we think we're

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<v Speaker 3>bringing down Bizz, so we're not fucking bringing him down.

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<v Speaker 3>That is a whole other level, right, But instead can

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<v Speaker 3>I support mm.

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<v Speaker 1>Hmm, yeah, yeah. And I think that unless you're in

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<v Speaker 1>like the product space. And I only know this because

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<v Speaker 1>I've heard from Rebecca blue Me, I've heard you Liisa,

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<v Speaker 1>but I'll talk about this. But if you're not in

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<v Speaker 1>the product space, like you don't know what it takes

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<v Speaker 1>to actually get your products sold at Target, you have

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<v Speaker 1>like a guarantee that you're going to sell this out.

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<v Speaker 1>And if you don't sell it out, right.

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<v Speaker 3>So make you remove it and you have to pay

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<v Speaker 3>to remove it. Yes, And so as I've seen that, like, oh,

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<v Speaker 3>why don't you just take your product out like you

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<v Speaker 3>should be boycotting him to It's.

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<v Speaker 1>It's not that simple. Yeah, these are they think the

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<v Speaker 1>nuances that may be a broader community that really has

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<v Speaker 1>no way of knowing because they're not in that space,

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<v Speaker 1>right And so this is this is a good point

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<v Speaker 1>that you bring up. Okay, if you're going to boycott,

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<v Speaker 1>how are you investing then your dollars back into maybe

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<v Speaker 1>these brands that are at the targets or are at

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<v Speaker 1>Amazon mm hmm.

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<v Speaker 3>And And it's simple, you know, at the end of

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<v Speaker 3>the day, it's like it's it's really choosing who you're

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<v Speaker 3>going to be supporting with even with your likes or

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<v Speaker 3>comments or engagements your shares, as simple as that. Yes,

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<v Speaker 3>as simple as that, Like it really like how much

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<v Speaker 3>is it sh that? Does it help? Every time you

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<v Speaker 3>girls get a download?

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<v Speaker 1>Right?

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<v Speaker 3>Like do people truly understand how much that helps and

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<v Speaker 3>how supportive that is? Absolutely, I'm going to go and

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<v Speaker 3>download all your episodes around like I'm here, I'm like

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<v Speaker 3>be congrowing you download their episodes right now?

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<v Speaker 2>Thank you. I think it's it's easy to forget and

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<v Speaker 2>I'm sure you can speak to this with we all grow.

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<v Speaker 2>I think sometimes that our community maybe sees the figurehead

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<v Speaker 2>the face of the brand, the face of the company,

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<v Speaker 2>and thinks like, oh well, it's just dollars in your pocket.

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<v Speaker 2>But for every successful company or brand, there's a whole team.

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<v Speaker 2>There's a staff, there are folks getting paid, who have

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<v Speaker 2>health insurance, who are able to save for retirement. And

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<v Speaker 2>when we're willy nilly like trying to shut folks down,

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<v Speaker 2>there's like a whole cascade of people whose livelihoods are

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<v Speaker 2>on the line. And I'm sure on your end you've

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<v Speaker 2>seen that yourself.

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<v Speaker 3>With we all grow Oh absolutely, you know. I'll tell

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<v Speaker 3>you even I think any conference organizer or artist manager

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<v Speaker 3>or artist you know, a musician or Etcaida, I can

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<v Speaker 3>tell you that one of the biggest I think one

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<v Speaker 3>of the most hurtful, not hurtful, not hurtful personally, but

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<v Speaker 3>for the industry is people asking for tickets for free.

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<v Speaker 3>You wouldn't go and ask because we mentioned blue mey right,

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<v Speaker 3>like he give me your product for free, right, just

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<v Speaker 3>because why do you think that us putting together a

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<v Speaker 3>conference or an event and having to sell a ticket?

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<v Speaker 3>What do you think that a ticket, because it doesn't

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<v Speaker 3>feel tangible, is an actual money that we need to

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<v Speaker 3>recover to actually be able to put on a beautiful event,

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<v Speaker 3>a concert, a festival, et cetera. That's another way to

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<v Speaker 3>support they see. It feels very easy to do that.

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<v Speaker 3>Those were one of the things that was really hard

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<v Speaker 3>for us to manage because I think we really overdid

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<v Speaker 3>it with the compying everybody because we went at all

0:21:16.960 --> 0:21:18.840
<v Speaker 3>of our friends there and et cetera. But at the

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<v Speaker 3>end of the day, that the ticket is the revenue,

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<v Speaker 3>or or people complaining right when ticket prices had to

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<v Speaker 3>go up, when you're like everything has gone up, and

0:21:28.000 --> 0:21:30.960
<v Speaker 3>ticket prices have to go up, and that didn't even

0:21:31.000 --> 0:21:33.600
<v Speaker 3>go into our pockets, like you said, it went into

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<v Speaker 3>actual payroll. I mean, I was so happy when we

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<v Speaker 3>were able to finally get the team on on health

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<v Speaker 3>insurance like it was the last four years. It was

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<v Speaker 3>so expensive to have people on benefits like it really was.

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<v Speaker 3>It really was a hard thing to do. And for

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<v Speaker 3>those of you that don't have businesses in California, things

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<v Speaker 3>really changed for us. When was the aby one bill,

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<v Speaker 3>I'm so bad to remember the names that was pasted.

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<v Speaker 3>I think like two thousand and nine, eighteen nineteen, where

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<v Speaker 3>we couldn't that was the Uber bill. They called it

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<v Speaker 3>the gig economy bill because we couldn't. We really can't.

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<v Speaker 3>It's really hard to have contractors full time. So we

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<v Speaker 3>had to put people in payroll. And guess what, payroll

0:22:16.080 --> 0:22:20.040
<v Speaker 3>is really expensive expensive. Yeah, and it's the right thing

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<v Speaker 3>to do at the end of the day. Like I'm

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<v Speaker 3>glad right now that we were on payroll because you know,

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<v Speaker 3>people could get an employment benefits now that the company

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<v Speaker 3>closed and we had to lay everybody off, et cetera.

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<v Speaker 3>But at the end of the day, those those are

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<v Speaker 3>all the news is in the reality of managing. And

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<v Speaker 3>again those of us that exist to elevate to be

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<v Speaker 3>to be very focused in our DEI and the right

0:22:45.080 --> 0:22:49.760
<v Speaker 3>communities DEI businesses that used to be called multi cultural.

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<v Speaker 3>We're also existing with much smaller budgets, but we're put

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<v Speaker 3>and the same metrics, like we have to prom and

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<v Speaker 3>overperform for the for ten percent of the dollar, the

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<v Speaker 3>same thing that a woman, a black, Latina, Indigenous woman

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<v Speaker 3>working in corporate is getting, what is it, fifty one

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<v Speaker 3>cents to the dollar. The same thing is for founders,

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<v Speaker 3>for entrepreneurs we're also working with. It really is ten

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<v Speaker 3>percent of the overall marketing budgets go to what is

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<v Speaker 3>now called DEI and that ten percent of the of

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<v Speaker 3>a pie is divided between black, Hispanic, Latino, LGBTQ plus disabled.

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<v Speaker 3>I mean, it's it's it's it's tough, right, But the

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<v Speaker 3>expectations are the same from the community, from the viewers,

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<v Speaker 3>from the consumers, whatever it may be expecting us to

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<v Speaker 3>pan on the other side, from the funders, from the investors,

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<v Speaker 3>from the brand budgets, all of that were expected to

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<v Speaker 3>perform at the same level.

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<v Speaker 1>Don't go anywhere, Lokomotives.

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<v Speaker 4>We'll be right back, and we're back with more of

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<v Speaker 4>our episode.

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<v Speaker 1>So I'd love to ask you about that transition from

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<v Speaker 1>we all Grow to now being a writer, like you said,

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<v Speaker 1>embracing this medium, this art form as a writer, and

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<v Speaker 1>what that journey's been like.

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<v Speaker 3>So I'm actually taking it back to where it all started.

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<v Speaker 3>It all started with my writing, and I want to say,

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<v Speaker 3>like five years into the blog and the company and

0:24:36.240 --> 0:24:40.480
<v Speaker 3>all that, I could not even write anymore. I could

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<v Speaker 3>not write. But we're talking about an era where at

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<v Speaker 3>the beginning where I had spanklish Baby and Latina bloggers Connect,

0:24:47.280 --> 0:24:50.120
<v Speaker 3>which became we all grow at the same time, both

0:24:50.320 --> 0:24:54.040
<v Speaker 3>thriving for a few years and a toddler at home,

0:24:55.160 --> 0:24:59.440
<v Speaker 3>a preschooler at home, so trying to maintain all of that,

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<v Speaker 3>was writing for the Disney blog, for all the brands.

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<v Speaker 3>I mean, I was writing everywhere, making money, you know,

0:25:06.480 --> 0:25:09.480
<v Speaker 3>all these different revenue streams, until one would hit. Until

0:25:09.480 --> 0:25:11.320
<v Speaker 3>I saw that Latino Boggers Connect was the one that

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<v Speaker 3>was going, and it was one hundred percent of mine

0:25:13.640 --> 0:25:16.040
<v Speaker 3>at the time, and I had to like go a

0:25:16.080 --> 0:25:18.560
<v Speaker 3>spanklish baby, I mean spanklish baby when I let it go.

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<v Speaker 3>This was like two thousand and twelve elean. It had

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<v Speaker 3>over one hundred thousand members in the Facebook group because

0:25:26.480 --> 0:25:28.800
<v Speaker 3>that's what you did back then for one hundred thousand,

0:25:28.800 --> 0:25:31.600
<v Speaker 3>and we were getting over one hundred thousand unique views

0:25:31.680 --> 0:25:34.960
<v Speaker 3>a month, which is like unheard of now without advertisement

0:25:35.359 --> 0:25:38.240
<v Speaker 3>or anything. So it was on its peak when and

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<v Speaker 3>sometimes I'm like, maybe I should have just stayed there.

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<v Speaker 3>Did I make the right choice? But no, of course

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<v Speaker 3>I made the right choice. But I feel now, I'm

0:25:46.760 --> 0:25:50.200
<v Speaker 3>I for years have really just been in this space

0:25:50.240 --> 0:25:54.320
<v Speaker 3>where I needed to create again. We all grow allowed

0:25:54.400 --> 0:25:58.240
<v Speaker 3>me to create a lot within a contained environment, And

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<v Speaker 3>now I understand, I mean, and I say now because

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<v Speaker 3>back then, and we do this to ourselves a lot

0:26:05.680 --> 0:26:08.879
<v Speaker 3>when people, especially when people are telling you you're sitting

0:26:08.920 --> 0:26:11.240
<v Speaker 3>in a gold mine, you should be doing this, you

0:26:11.280 --> 0:26:13.000
<v Speaker 3>should be doing that, you should be growing this way,

0:26:13.040 --> 0:26:14.720
<v Speaker 3>you should be getting an investor, all that, and you're like,

0:26:15.119 --> 0:26:18.200
<v Speaker 3>is it me? Am I the one? You know, the

0:26:18.359 --> 0:26:21.080
<v Speaker 3>famous imposter syndrome? Like, am I the one that just

0:26:21.200 --> 0:26:25.159
<v Speaker 3>doesn't know it, doesn't have the skill set? Am I

0:26:25.400 --> 0:26:27.840
<v Speaker 3>just lazy? Am I just not good enough?

0:26:28.200 --> 0:26:28.320
<v Speaker 1>Right?

0:26:28.359 --> 0:26:31.400
<v Speaker 3>Because I would go into these and trying to get okay,

0:26:31.480 --> 0:26:33.040
<v Speaker 3>let me go see if I get investors. And I

0:26:33.040 --> 0:26:38.399
<v Speaker 3>would walk into these boardrooms with the white man not

0:26:38.600 --> 0:26:41.240
<v Speaker 3>understanding at all the heart of my mission, and I

0:26:41.359 --> 0:26:44.600
<v Speaker 3>was like, I know, if I give this up or

0:26:44.680 --> 0:26:48.320
<v Speaker 3>if I let them in, then this is going to

0:26:48.359 --> 0:26:53.320
<v Speaker 3>become a place to farm data for latinas. That's all

0:26:53.520 --> 0:26:56.359
<v Speaker 3>at the end of the day. Right. So I protected it,

0:26:56.560 --> 0:26:59.399
<v Speaker 3>But that protecting it also meant that, you know, I

0:26:59.480 --> 0:27:02.680
<v Speaker 3>kept putting up this armor, in this armor, and when

0:27:02.720 --> 0:27:05.240
<v Speaker 3>you're a creative and you have an armor around your heart,

0:27:07.760 --> 0:27:08.439
<v Speaker 3>you can't create.

0:27:09.720 --> 0:27:14.399
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, It's all about vulnerability and opening up and sharing

0:27:14.760 --> 0:27:19.040
<v Speaker 2>the sacred parts of yourself that are not immediately obvious

0:27:19.119 --> 0:27:20.880
<v Speaker 2>on the outside. But you can't always sell.

0:27:21.400 --> 0:27:22.080
<v Speaker 1>You have to share.

0:27:23.080 --> 0:27:27.479
<v Speaker 3>M Yeah. Yeah, And that's really where I am right now.

0:27:27.560 --> 0:27:31.639
<v Speaker 3>I'm in a place of I'm done with the hustle.

0:27:32.840 --> 0:27:37.560
<v Speaker 3>It came like the phrase just downloaded one day in

0:27:37.640 --> 0:27:40.159
<v Speaker 3>a pool in Ohi, where I had sequestered myself for

0:27:40.240 --> 0:27:44.440
<v Speaker 3>two weeks after my first bout of COVID in twenty

0:27:44.520 --> 0:27:52.840
<v Speaker 3>twenty two and feeling incredibly burnt out. It hit me

0:27:52.920 --> 0:27:54.879
<v Speaker 3>in Wahaka on a girl's trip with some friends that

0:27:55.160 --> 0:27:58.280
<v Speaker 3>y'all know, and I wasn't able to enjoy the girls

0:27:58.320 --> 0:28:00.639
<v Speaker 3>trip because they hit me the day before and I

0:28:00.840 --> 0:28:04.600
<v Speaker 3>was alone in an Airbnb and Wahaka, and I was

0:28:04.680 --> 0:28:07.600
<v Speaker 3>literally down on my knees crying and being like what, Like,

0:28:08.119 --> 0:28:11.760
<v Speaker 3>I cannot do this anymore. And it's really difficult that

0:28:11.960 --> 0:28:14.080
<v Speaker 3>the thing that you love is a thing that you

0:28:14.160 --> 0:28:19.840
<v Speaker 3>feel the most pressured from. And I started realizing that

0:28:20.560 --> 0:28:25.200
<v Speaker 3>I was entering like a grief stage of grieving the

0:28:26.000 --> 0:28:29.120
<v Speaker 3>what I felt was starting to disconnect from we all

0:28:29.160 --> 0:28:30.560
<v Speaker 3>grow with. At the end of the day, it was

0:28:30.800 --> 0:28:34.360
<v Speaker 3>my creation. It was connected to me from the beginning,

0:28:34.800 --> 0:28:36.720
<v Speaker 3>and then to all these other women that joined me

0:28:36.920 --> 0:28:40.000
<v Speaker 3>as partners, team members, et cetera. At the end of

0:28:40.040 --> 0:28:44.640
<v Speaker 3>the day, it still had my umbilical court right of

0:28:44.800 --> 0:28:50.960
<v Speaker 3>creation and then also grieving my daughter. She was also

0:28:51.400 --> 0:28:55.160
<v Speaker 3>like both of my babies were teenagers, and I had

0:28:55.240 --> 0:28:58.040
<v Speaker 3>to understand that they didn't need me in the same

0:28:58.160 --> 0:29:04.840
<v Speaker 3>way anymore. That I had given them everything I knew

0:29:04.920 --> 0:29:09.480
<v Speaker 3>and understood and could from my own place of wisdom

0:29:09.520 --> 0:29:13.200
<v Speaker 3>at the moment where I failed, where I didn't where

0:29:13.440 --> 0:29:15.320
<v Speaker 3>you know, where I was able to show up for them,

0:29:15.960 --> 0:29:17.840
<v Speaker 3>but that they were ready to be on their own

0:29:19.680 --> 0:29:21.640
<v Speaker 3>as much as a teenager can write, but that's what

0:29:21.720 --> 0:29:23.720
<v Speaker 3>they need. And I was feeling the same from we

0:29:23.760 --> 0:29:26.600
<v Speaker 3>all grow that. It was like, I'm good, you can

0:29:26.720 --> 0:29:30.960
<v Speaker 3>let me go. And it kind of started there and

0:29:31.040 --> 0:29:34.440
<v Speaker 3>then I sequestered myself because I had had an agent

0:29:34.560 --> 0:29:38.640
<v Speaker 3>for years, an amazing agent. I've had Harper wanting to

0:29:39.240 --> 0:29:41.280
<v Speaker 3>wanting me to have an agent to give them a

0:29:41.320 --> 0:29:46.800
<v Speaker 3>proposal for years, and I just couldn't even like like

0:29:47.040 --> 0:29:49.200
<v Speaker 3>I couldn't even was like I don't even know what

0:29:49.320 --> 0:29:51.720
<v Speaker 3>to sell, because what to sell? What to write about?

0:29:51.760 --> 0:29:53.320
<v Speaker 3>Because it was a lot like they wanted me to

0:29:53.360 --> 0:29:56.000
<v Speaker 3>do a Latina manifesto or like a business book for

0:29:56.120 --> 0:29:59.600
<v Speaker 3>Latinas and I was like, that's not me, that's not me.

0:29:59.680 --> 0:30:01.920
<v Speaker 3>I know there's something in there. I hired a ghost writer.

0:30:02.440 --> 0:30:04.960
<v Speaker 3>It did not work because I was like, I know

0:30:05.120 --> 0:30:08.360
<v Speaker 3>how to write, I know how to put my essence

0:30:08.400 --> 0:30:11.000
<v Speaker 3>in there. I just need to have the space to

0:30:11.120 --> 0:30:14.080
<v Speaker 3>do that. And the feeling that I couldn't I didn't

0:30:14.120 --> 0:30:17.840
<v Speaker 3>even have the space to do that was hurting me.

0:30:19.400 --> 0:30:21.440
<v Speaker 3>And that was like everything my heart was calling me

0:30:21.520 --> 0:30:24.320
<v Speaker 3>to do. And as I said questioned myself, those two weeks,

0:30:25.000 --> 0:30:30.600
<v Speaker 3>I was in silence, absolute silence. Sorry was twenty twenty three,

0:30:31.400 --> 0:30:35.000
<v Speaker 3>and because it was after the last summit that was

0:30:35.040 --> 0:30:38.200
<v Speaker 3>in twenty twenty two, because that summit was really hard

0:30:38.280 --> 0:30:40.440
<v Speaker 3>for me as well. And I think coming out of

0:30:40.520 --> 0:30:42.600
<v Speaker 3>that summit was when I said I just cannot be

0:30:42.720 --> 0:30:46.320
<v Speaker 3>expected to do this again. And I was like, I

0:30:46.760 --> 0:30:51.680
<v Speaker 3>don't think people understand the toll. It left me on

0:30:51.800 --> 0:30:55.480
<v Speaker 3>a high and at the same time like I can't

0:30:55.560 --> 0:31:00.960
<v Speaker 3>do this again. So coming back a year later and

0:31:01.120 --> 0:31:04.360
<v Speaker 3>feeling that burnout and being there, I was like, this

0:31:04.480 --> 0:31:06.480
<v Speaker 3>book has to come to me. And it was being

0:31:06.520 --> 0:31:11.960
<v Speaker 3>in nature, being in silence, reading again, just like listening

0:31:12.040 --> 0:31:17.040
<v Speaker 3>to myself and it just came to me like it

0:31:17.240 --> 0:31:19.440
<v Speaker 3>just came like, I'm just done with the hustle. And

0:31:19.560 --> 0:31:23.520
<v Speaker 3>it was like a declaration for me. Right first you

0:31:23.600 --> 0:31:26.480
<v Speaker 3>have to acknowledge it and declare it, because I would

0:31:26.520 --> 0:31:28.680
<v Speaker 3>hear it before, but be like no, no, no, is

0:31:28.840 --> 0:31:31.760
<v Speaker 3>like you got to keep going. There's payroll to make,

0:31:32.000 --> 0:31:34.280
<v Speaker 3>there's you know, like no, no, no, you got to

0:31:34.360 --> 0:31:37.560
<v Speaker 3>keep going. And this time I was like, no, I'm done.

0:31:37.800 --> 0:31:40.440
<v Speaker 3>And thankfully, you know, I had brought in Vanessa, I

0:31:40.520 --> 0:31:44.280
<v Speaker 3>had had I had a team, and and the company

0:31:44.400 --> 0:31:48.120
<v Speaker 3>was asking me like, we're ready to keep going, right,

0:31:48.760 --> 0:31:51.760
<v Speaker 3>So that was the start of it. And in those

0:31:51.800 --> 0:31:55.040
<v Speaker 3>two weeks also something magical happened that this opportunity to

0:31:55.080 --> 0:31:57.280
<v Speaker 3>come to Idlewild came up. It was like almost as

0:31:57.360 --> 0:32:00.600
<v Speaker 3>I declared it, then the perfect place for me to

0:32:00.680 --> 0:32:04.680
<v Speaker 3>be in to create that space came up. My daughter

0:32:04.800 --> 0:32:08.280
<v Speaker 3>got just got it into herself that she wanted to

0:32:08.360 --> 0:32:11.719
<v Speaker 3>be more challenged as an actor in school and performing

0:32:11.840 --> 0:32:15.240
<v Speaker 3>arts school. And we found out about the school of

0:32:15.680 --> 0:32:18.280
<v Speaker 3>here a Idelwald Arts Academy. It's like the number one

0:32:18.320 --> 0:32:22.760
<v Speaker 3>private school right now. It's a boarding school, and she applied.

0:32:22.800 --> 0:32:27.440
<v Speaker 3>She got an amazing merit scholarship, and I was like, Okay,

0:32:28.080 --> 0:32:31.760
<v Speaker 3>let's move up as a day student. And we moved up,

0:32:31.800 --> 0:32:34.240
<v Speaker 3>and it was the best thing for her and the

0:32:34.280 --> 0:32:38.360
<v Speaker 3>best thing for me to just put some space into everything.

0:32:38.800 --> 0:32:42.920
<v Speaker 3>And this is where right now I'm birthing the book

0:32:43.080 --> 0:32:45.920
<v Speaker 3>which had to be put on pause the last three

0:32:46.000 --> 0:32:48.280
<v Speaker 3>months because of all the unraveling with we all grow

0:32:48.880 --> 0:32:50.680
<v Speaker 3>and I was not going to write the book about

0:32:50.720 --> 0:32:54.880
<v Speaker 3>the hustle from the Hustle, so here I am. I'm

0:32:55.080 --> 0:32:58.040
<v Speaker 3>really excited to launch it. What I'm doing on Substack

0:32:58.160 --> 0:33:01.680
<v Speaker 3>is just starting to build that community slowly as well,

0:33:02.000 --> 0:33:05.440
<v Speaker 3>and rethink in the way that I want to build community,

0:33:05.520 --> 0:33:08.360
<v Speaker 3>rethink in the way that I want to continue showing

0:33:08.520 --> 0:33:11.480
<v Speaker 3>up and that I will no longer negotiate with my

0:33:11.560 --> 0:33:15.560
<v Speaker 3>creativity that comes first. And I think that's something that

0:33:16.080 --> 0:33:18.560
<v Speaker 3>my friend Diego Pettees jng Gueblo. Y'all have met him

0:33:18.640 --> 0:33:21.880
<v Speaker 3>a whale girl, and I think I've learned a lot

0:33:22.000 --> 0:33:24.760
<v Speaker 3>from him in that where I see his process as

0:33:24.760 --> 0:33:30.120
<v Speaker 3>a writer where he will never negotiate meditation. He will

0:33:30.200 --> 0:33:33.320
<v Speaker 3>go on those forty five days him and his wife Sarah,

0:33:33.920 --> 0:33:36.080
<v Speaker 3>like twice a year. And now they're teachers too, and

0:33:36.120 --> 0:33:39.480
<v Speaker 3>the postum and retreats and that's what comes first, and

0:33:39.640 --> 0:33:42.920
<v Speaker 3>then the writing and then the everything else. And also

0:33:43.000 --> 0:33:45.560
<v Speaker 3>seeing him grow this way into a New York Times

0:33:45.640 --> 0:33:49.320
<v Speaker 3>bestseller now launching his app on relationships and all this

0:33:50.560 --> 0:33:54.880
<v Speaker 3>and doing it on a pen name, not doing it

0:33:55.040 --> 0:33:58.960
<v Speaker 3>based on his personality, has faced his you know him,

0:34:00.200 --> 0:34:03.480
<v Speaker 3>and just the power of your words and your creativity

0:34:04.240 --> 0:34:06.560
<v Speaker 3>just feels a lot. It doesn't mean that it's light,

0:34:06.640 --> 0:34:08.719
<v Speaker 3>because writing is in light, but it feels a lot

0:34:08.800 --> 0:34:12.279
<v Speaker 3>lighter for me at least, and the way that I

0:34:12.400 --> 0:34:14.560
<v Speaker 3>was doing it before. And that's what I'm looking for.

0:34:14.719 --> 0:34:18.080
<v Speaker 3>There has to be a way of being able to

0:34:18.120 --> 0:34:21.200
<v Speaker 3>sustain ourselves and being able to go back to our

0:34:21.239 --> 0:34:25.120
<v Speaker 3>creative selves, to being led from our hearts, to allow

0:34:25.200 --> 0:34:29.040
<v Speaker 3>that vulnerability and that softness to be valuable and to

0:34:29.120 --> 0:34:32.600
<v Speaker 3>sustain us. And I don't know. I think I'm in

0:34:32.680 --> 0:34:38.560
<v Speaker 3>an experiment mode right now. I'll let you know if

0:34:38.760 --> 0:34:42.040
<v Speaker 3>my experiment works out or not. But it's been a

0:34:42.120 --> 0:34:43.799
<v Speaker 3>lot of unraveling to get here.

0:34:44.840 --> 0:34:48.000
<v Speaker 2>Incredible. Thank you for your vulnerability and for the level

0:34:48.040 --> 0:34:51.000
<v Speaker 2>of detail that you've shared also with our listeners. I

0:34:51.160 --> 0:34:56.200
<v Speaker 2>know that on your journey. You've probably been very You've

0:34:56.239 --> 0:34:59.560
<v Speaker 2>probably made hard choices about what to share and what

0:34:59.719 --> 0:35:02.759
<v Speaker 2>not to share. And for those out there who are

0:35:02.840 --> 0:35:04.640
<v Speaker 2>in the creative space, or who want to be in

0:35:04.719 --> 0:35:07.320
<v Speaker 2>the creative space, who have a business or want to

0:35:07.360 --> 0:35:09.640
<v Speaker 2>start a business, what.

0:35:09.800 --> 0:35:10.680
<v Speaker 3>Advice do you have?

0:35:11.000 --> 0:35:12.920
<v Speaker 2>Because I think it can be easy to say, like

0:35:13.239 --> 0:35:16.439
<v Speaker 2>things are terrible out there? Should I even start? Things

0:35:16.480 --> 0:35:20.719
<v Speaker 2>are so hard even you know the conversation we're having

0:35:20.800 --> 0:35:25.359
<v Speaker 2>right now. What about folks who maybe they still want

0:35:25.400 --> 0:35:28.960
<v Speaker 2>to launch something, they still want to participate in this space.

0:35:29.600 --> 0:35:34.720
<v Speaker 3>What words do you have for those folks? The moment

0:35:34.880 --> 0:35:38.000
<v Speaker 3>that you feel it, the moment that it is a need,

0:35:38.160 --> 0:35:41.000
<v Speaker 3>a desire that feels like a devotion that needs to

0:35:41.080 --> 0:35:43.759
<v Speaker 3>be put up in the altar, no matter what has

0:35:43.800 --> 0:35:47.239
<v Speaker 3>happened externally, that is the right moment for you. There's

0:35:47.280 --> 0:35:49.840
<v Speaker 3>never going to be a right moment. I launched English

0:35:49.920 --> 0:35:56.440
<v Speaker 3>Baby thanks to the two thousand and eight recession. Like

0:35:58.160 --> 0:36:02.560
<v Speaker 3>my ex husban husband at the time lost all of

0:36:02.640 --> 0:36:05.600
<v Speaker 3>his clients. Because remember, for those of us that lived

0:36:05.760 --> 0:36:08.120
<v Speaker 3>in La then, it wasn't only the recession, it was

0:36:08.160 --> 0:36:10.680
<v Speaker 3>also the writer's strike. There was another writer's strike by then.

0:36:11.320 --> 0:36:14.120
<v Speaker 3>It was dead and I had just I was working

0:36:14.200 --> 0:36:17.560
<v Speaker 3>in Mundos now and BCU New Medico had gone a

0:36:17.640 --> 0:36:21.000
<v Speaker 3>maternity leave. Decided that I was going to be a

0:36:21.080 --> 0:36:24.239
<v Speaker 3>full time mom for at least a few years. He

0:36:24.520 --> 0:36:27.680
<v Speaker 3>had an editing studio in Echo Park, was doing great,

0:36:27.760 --> 0:36:32.080
<v Speaker 3>had amazing clients. It all died, like literally died. We

0:36:32.239 --> 0:36:37.719
<v Speaker 3>were living on savings, getting borrowed money, et cetera. I

0:36:37.719 --> 0:36:40.440
<v Speaker 3>could not take a job because it was more expensive

0:36:41.160 --> 0:36:46.440
<v Speaker 3>to get care for my daughter than for me, and

0:36:46.480 --> 0:36:48.120
<v Speaker 3>there was no jobs. There was no jobs to be

0:36:48.200 --> 0:36:50.160
<v Speaker 3>had in TV, which is all I knew, et cetera.

0:36:50.320 --> 0:36:54.200
<v Speaker 3>So it was really difficult. And it was because of

0:36:54.280 --> 0:36:57.080
<v Speaker 3>that need and that necessity that I feel that that

0:36:57.320 --> 0:37:00.279
<v Speaker 3>drive and that push and that inspiration came. So if

0:37:00.320 --> 0:37:02.839
<v Speaker 3>you're feeling that drive and that's push coming out right

0:37:02.960 --> 0:37:08.160
<v Speaker 3>now from these difficult and desperate times, then that is

0:37:08.239 --> 0:37:11.840
<v Speaker 3>your calling at this moment, And never negotiate with you're calling,

0:37:11.920 --> 0:37:13.759
<v Speaker 3>and never negotiate with your creativity.

0:37:14.480 --> 0:37:15.960
<v Speaker 1>Don't go anywhere, lokomotives.

0:37:16.080 --> 0:37:23.360
<v Speaker 4>We'll be right back, and we're back with more of

0:37:23.480 --> 0:37:24.200
<v Speaker 4>our episode.

0:37:28.600 --> 0:37:31.520
<v Speaker 1>How do you know when to get off the ride?

0:37:31.960 --> 0:37:34.160
<v Speaker 1>How do you know when to pivot? When to say

0:37:34.280 --> 0:37:37.840
<v Speaker 1>it's okay, I can let it go here. And what

0:37:37.960 --> 0:37:40.719
<v Speaker 1>would your advice be to someone who's maybe contemplating that

0:37:40.840 --> 0:37:41.120
<v Speaker 1>right now?

0:37:42.160 --> 0:37:47.279
<v Speaker 3>It's really really hard. I mean, obviously I've been going

0:37:47.320 --> 0:37:49.200
<v Speaker 3>on this ride for a few years, and even as

0:37:49.239 --> 0:37:52.840
<v Speaker 3>I'm writing the book, it still tests me. And the

0:37:52.960 --> 0:37:55.840
<v Speaker 3>one thing about this book is that it is written

0:37:56.080 --> 0:37:59.839
<v Speaker 3>from a lived experience, from an embodied place. We hear

0:38:00.160 --> 0:38:02.640
<v Speaker 3>so much advice out there right now in all of

0:38:02.719 --> 0:38:06.960
<v Speaker 3>the social spaces right we have to question how much

0:38:06.960 --> 0:38:09.960
<v Speaker 3>of that is coming from lived experience. We have to discern.

0:38:11.000 --> 0:38:13.600
<v Speaker 3>So what I would say is that it has to

0:38:13.840 --> 0:38:18.400
<v Speaker 3>start with you declaring it. Going back to that, because

0:38:18.440 --> 0:38:24.240
<v Speaker 3>there is something magical about allowing the uncertainty to guide

0:38:24.320 --> 0:38:27.680
<v Speaker 3>us and to lead us not to be scared to

0:38:27.840 --> 0:38:31.799
<v Speaker 3>be in a place that is uncertain, because we will

0:38:31.960 --> 0:38:35.400
<v Speaker 3>feel the need. We will hear our hearts saying like

0:38:35.680 --> 0:38:39.400
<v Speaker 3>I need you to stop, which was told what it

0:38:39.520 --> 0:38:42.080
<v Speaker 3>told me like literally came out of my during a

0:38:42.360 --> 0:38:45.839
<v Speaker 3>plant medicine go too, I came out of my heart

0:38:45.960 --> 0:38:47.719
<v Speaker 3>and was telling my heart was telling me like you

0:38:47.800 --> 0:38:49.640
<v Speaker 3>got to stop, And I'm like, what are we going

0:38:49.719 --> 0:38:51.320
<v Speaker 3>to have a problem here? It's like it could be

0:38:51.680 --> 0:38:54.920
<v Speaker 3>like if you don't listen to me, so like it

0:38:55.000 --> 0:38:59.440
<v Speaker 3>could turn into something physical. So it is creating first.

0:39:00.040 --> 0:39:04.719
<v Speaker 3>Don't try to stop because that hurts. You can't just

0:39:04.880 --> 0:39:09.280
<v Speaker 3>pull the brake. You have to start small and creating

0:39:09.400 --> 0:39:14.760
<v Speaker 3>little spaces pauses in your life to truly contemplate, reflect

0:39:14.840 --> 0:39:21.560
<v Speaker 3>and listen to yourself, to allow the external noise to

0:39:21.719 --> 0:39:25.879
<v Speaker 3>melt away. Which is the hardest part because everybody wants

0:39:25.960 --> 0:39:29.080
<v Speaker 3>to give us advice about what to do and how

0:39:29.120 --> 0:39:31.680
<v Speaker 3>to lead our lives, and most and many times that

0:39:31.800 --> 0:39:34.240
<v Speaker 3>advice is how to grow, how to push, how to succeed,

0:39:35.520 --> 0:39:38.600
<v Speaker 3>But how we even question if that's really the growth

0:39:38.680 --> 0:39:41.480
<v Speaker 3>that I want, the success that I want. Does that

0:39:41.640 --> 0:39:47.520
<v Speaker 3>define me? So it has to start with just create

0:39:47.600 --> 0:39:50.440
<v Speaker 3>the pause. What are those moments in your day that

0:39:50.640 --> 0:39:53.840
<v Speaker 3>you can really just take for yourself five minutes? And

0:39:53.920 --> 0:39:55.440
<v Speaker 3>I know we hear this a lot, but it is

0:39:55.920 --> 0:39:58.960
<v Speaker 3>so important. Like it took a lot for me to

0:39:59.200 --> 0:40:02.000
<v Speaker 3>take those two weeks soft in OHI, and I took

0:40:02.080 --> 0:40:06.080
<v Speaker 3>them because it was the first time in sixteen years,

0:40:06.600 --> 0:40:09.400
<v Speaker 3>fifteen sixteen years that I had a whole month to

0:40:09.520 --> 0:40:13.840
<v Speaker 3>myself because my daughter was in a camp a performing

0:40:13.960 --> 0:40:15.800
<v Speaker 3>arts camp. So I was like, I, I'm going to

0:40:15.880 --> 0:40:17.680
<v Speaker 3>have that month in the summer. What am I going

0:40:17.719 --> 0:40:18.120
<v Speaker 3>to do with it?

0:40:20.880 --> 0:40:20.920
<v Speaker 1>Like?

0:40:21.120 --> 0:40:22.560
<v Speaker 3>What do I need the most? And it was like

0:40:22.680 --> 0:40:26.480
<v Speaker 3>to listen to myself to understand what is it that

0:40:26.560 --> 0:40:30.439
<v Speaker 3>I truly, truly want and to trust that what comes

0:40:30.520 --> 0:40:36.360
<v Speaker 3>from that wisdom is the guidance that we'll give you

0:40:36.440 --> 0:40:40.080
<v Speaker 3>the courage to take the next step. Just definitely don't

0:40:40.080 --> 0:40:41.520
<v Speaker 3>put the break on right.

0:40:42.080 --> 0:40:45.960
<v Speaker 1>Thank you, Thank you for that really beautiful answer. And

0:40:46.080 --> 0:40:48.320
<v Speaker 1>I just going back to the book because this is

0:40:48.400 --> 0:40:51.440
<v Speaker 1>a manifesto for women who don't have the luxury to rest.

0:40:52.080 --> 0:40:54.640
<v Speaker 1>So I want to ask you how you define rest

0:40:55.200 --> 0:40:57.040
<v Speaker 1>and why are you defining it as a luxury?

0:40:58.040 --> 0:41:03.600
<v Speaker 3>Ooh, because I think I feel and I hear it

0:41:03.680 --> 0:41:07.200
<v Speaker 3>a lot the pushback every time we talk about rest.

0:41:07.840 --> 0:41:11.600
<v Speaker 3>There's a beautiful book called Rest is Resistance. Y'all would

0:41:11.800 --> 0:41:13.960
<v Speaker 3>love it. If the two of you have not read it, like,

0:41:14.160 --> 0:41:17.399
<v Speaker 3>please read it now. Tricia Hersey, I actually found out

0:41:17.440 --> 0:41:20.000
<v Speaker 3>about the book after I had read in the proposal

0:41:20.680 --> 0:41:23.920
<v Speaker 3>for Done with the Hustle and I realized just how

0:41:23.960 --> 0:41:28.000
<v Speaker 3>online we are. Tricia is a beautiful black woman who

0:41:28.080 --> 0:41:34.120
<v Speaker 3>calls herself the nap bishop, So her whole existence right

0:41:34.200 --> 0:41:38.360
<v Speaker 3>now is about she creates these nap churches and outings

0:41:38.400 --> 0:41:41.399
<v Speaker 3>where she invites her community to come and sleep and nap,

0:41:42.000 --> 0:41:47.440
<v Speaker 3>like just to come and nap, because we have to

0:41:47.560 --> 0:41:52.520
<v Speaker 3>remove the guilt from the word rest and from napping

0:41:52.600 --> 0:41:55.520
<v Speaker 3>and from taking time for ourselves, because that is a

0:41:55.680 --> 0:42:01.040
<v Speaker 3>construct of capitalism and pay triarchy. Is what she's really

0:42:01.080 --> 0:42:06.040
<v Speaker 3>good at advocating and preaching for in her book. And

0:42:07.080 --> 0:42:11.440
<v Speaker 3>that's really where my stand with the luxury is that

0:42:11.560 --> 0:42:14.319
<v Speaker 3>we think of it as a luxury because we've made

0:42:14.800 --> 0:42:18.000
<v Speaker 3>We've been made to think of it as a luxury

0:42:18.239 --> 0:42:22.280
<v Speaker 3>by design. So we have to start deconstructing that narrative.

0:42:22.480 --> 0:42:25.920
<v Speaker 3>There's a lot of deconstructing and flipping the narrative that

0:42:26.000 --> 0:42:29.040
<v Speaker 3>happens in my book right because I'm not coming with

0:42:29.080 --> 0:42:30.960
<v Speaker 3>an answer. I'm not coming with the solution, because that

0:42:31.120 --> 0:42:34.840
<v Speaker 3>we can only find that within ourselves. What I'm asking

0:42:34.960 --> 0:42:38.719
<v Speaker 3>us is to imagine that there's a different possibility, that

0:42:38.840 --> 0:42:41.799
<v Speaker 3>it's not this life, this metric of success. So one

0:42:41.800 --> 0:42:43.480
<v Speaker 3>of the first things that I bring up is how

0:42:43.520 --> 0:42:47.279
<v Speaker 3>can we redefine success for us? Like everybody kept telling

0:42:47.320 --> 0:42:49.040
<v Speaker 3>me you're sitting in a gold mine. Until one day

0:42:49.080 --> 0:42:51.200
<v Speaker 3>I said, I'm like, do I really want to excavate

0:42:51.239 --> 0:42:55.400
<v Speaker 3>this gold mine? Because I kept pushing myself right to like,

0:42:55.480 --> 0:42:56.920
<v Speaker 3>when am I going to get to the freaking goal

0:42:57.000 --> 0:42:59.880
<v Speaker 3>mine that everybody's telling me is there? But the reality

0:43:00.040 --> 0:43:01.960
<v Speaker 3>is that there's Is there a finish line for us?

0:43:04.200 --> 0:43:04.359
<v Speaker 1>Right?

0:43:07.360 --> 0:43:07.600
<v Speaker 3>Damn?

0:43:08.480 --> 0:43:10.960
<v Speaker 1>That's yeah, that's a great question.

0:43:11.320 --> 0:43:12.160
<v Speaker 3>That's a great question.

0:43:12.440 --> 0:43:13.200
<v Speaker 2>That's a great question.

0:43:13.360 --> 0:43:15.120
<v Speaker 3>And I don't know.

0:43:15.280 --> 0:43:18.719
<v Speaker 2>It's it comes back to this this other question of

0:43:19.600 --> 0:43:21.760
<v Speaker 2>do I go get a job somewhere and I clock

0:43:21.840 --> 0:43:23.920
<v Speaker 2>in and I clock out, and then I'm at that

0:43:24.080 --> 0:43:26.560
<v Speaker 2>job and I think to myself, but could I be

0:43:26.640 --> 0:43:30.239
<v Speaker 2>doing this other thing? You know, could I be fulfilling

0:43:30.320 --> 0:43:33.400
<v Speaker 2>my my dreams and the seed that's inside of me?

0:43:33.600 --> 0:43:35.680
<v Speaker 2>Could I plant it and nurture it and grow it.

0:43:36.719 --> 0:43:38.560
<v Speaker 2>But then you do that and you go into business

0:43:38.600 --> 0:43:40.319
<v Speaker 2>for yourself, and it's really really hard.

0:43:41.560 --> 0:43:45.120
<v Speaker 3>It's so hard hard, and I, you know, and I

0:43:45.200 --> 0:43:48.440
<v Speaker 3>also want to deconstruct that. And again, I understand the

0:43:48.560 --> 0:43:52.799
<v Speaker 3>role I've played in bringing Latinus into entrepreneurship, but I'm

0:43:52.880 --> 0:43:57.359
<v Speaker 3>also always I understand, right, and that's why I'm also

0:43:57.440 --> 0:44:02.800
<v Speaker 3>being vulnerable with my story. I'm in debt. I'm in

0:44:02.920 --> 0:44:06.799
<v Speaker 3>debt from my company even though I sold it, right,

0:44:07.000 --> 0:44:11.480
<v Speaker 3>because we kept pushing trying to get to that I

0:44:11.520 --> 0:44:16.400
<v Speaker 3>don't know finish line, that unicorn valuation, that whatever it

0:44:16.440 --> 0:44:19.440
<v Speaker 3>may be that we were being told that existed until

0:44:19.480 --> 0:44:23.239
<v Speaker 3>I had to say, like, Okay, maybe it does at

0:44:23.360 --> 0:44:26.279
<v Speaker 3>least for the next four years. It's not there, and

0:44:26.400 --> 0:44:27.719
<v Speaker 3>I don't have it in me to do it for

0:44:27.800 --> 0:44:33.440
<v Speaker 3>another four years, right yeah, or so again it is.

0:44:33.640 --> 0:44:35.880
<v Speaker 3>It is very much finding that answer within you, and

0:44:36.120 --> 0:44:40.880
<v Speaker 3>and and I am deconstructing a lot about what is

0:44:41.080 --> 0:44:45.120
<v Speaker 3>entrepreneurship for women and what is entrepreneurship for woman of color, bipop,

0:44:45.239 --> 0:44:49.959
<v Speaker 3>whatever term we want to use, like the global majority, Like, really,

0:44:50.280 --> 0:44:53.880
<v Speaker 3>what is entrepreneurship for us? Because at the end of

0:44:53.880 --> 0:44:57.960
<v Speaker 3>the day, when we enter the thing is that the

0:44:58.160 --> 0:45:03.520
<v Speaker 3>entry barrier was lowered when the digital media and e

0:45:03.640 --> 0:45:07.960
<v Speaker 3>commerce spaces made it accessible for us to launch a

0:45:08.080 --> 0:45:10.960
<v Speaker 3>media business a blog with ten dollars a month hosting, Right,

0:45:11.120 --> 0:45:12.960
<v Speaker 3>But that's all you wanted to do, That's how I started.

0:45:13.360 --> 0:45:17.720
<v Speaker 3>I had no investment. I wasn't even making a salary.

0:45:18.040 --> 0:45:22.280
<v Speaker 3>It was just nap times E commerce makes it easy,

0:45:23.160 --> 0:45:26.759
<v Speaker 3>Instagram makes it easy, TikTok makes it easy. Quo it

0:45:26.880 --> 0:45:29.600
<v Speaker 3>was easier. It's not that easy anymore to market and

0:45:29.719 --> 0:45:33.560
<v Speaker 3>to build community. So the entry, the bar was lowered

0:45:35.160 --> 0:45:38.600
<v Speaker 3>right for us to come into these spaces. What's difficult

0:45:39.120 --> 0:45:43.400
<v Speaker 3>is the growth, and we're seeing there is like a

0:45:43.560 --> 0:45:48.360
<v Speaker 3>glass ceiling in entrepreneurship for women in general, especially for

0:45:48.520 --> 0:45:51.640
<v Speaker 3>women of color. And I see it with my friends

0:45:51.680 --> 0:46:01.080
<v Speaker 3>who are have investors. It's a really difficult proposition to

0:46:01.200 --> 0:46:03.839
<v Speaker 3>stay there as it is, We're only only one percent.

0:46:03.920 --> 0:46:08.160
<v Speaker 3>We're getting investors, so where is like, where is that

0:46:08.360 --> 0:46:12.280
<v Speaker 3>sealing for entrepreneurship. That's when it starts feeling really difficult.

0:46:12.280 --> 0:46:15.320
<v Speaker 3>They're like, Okay, I'm gonna I don't I refuse to

0:46:15.360 --> 0:46:19.000
<v Speaker 3>get investors. So I had people thought of one of

0:46:19.040 --> 0:46:21.000
<v Speaker 3>our partners. She was a partner, not an investor. She

0:46:21.080 --> 0:46:24.040
<v Speaker 3>had bought in so we weren't being bankrolled by anybody

0:46:24.239 --> 0:46:26.800
<v Speaker 3>like we were in debt. And the first time I

0:46:26.920 --> 0:46:32.239
<v Speaker 3>actually acquired the debt that I now have was in

0:46:32.320 --> 0:46:36.360
<v Speaker 3>twenty twenty because we had to cancel the conference we

0:46:36.440 --> 0:46:39.040
<v Speaker 3>All Grows summit in May and we had two hundred

0:46:39.080 --> 0:46:44.800
<v Speaker 3>thousand dollars in tickets to refund. That was money I owed.

0:46:45.239 --> 0:46:49.960
<v Speaker 3>We owed the community that was four hundred something dollars

0:46:50.520 --> 0:46:52.239
<v Speaker 3>that maybe you bought a ticket and you needed that

0:46:52.320 --> 0:46:54.360
<v Speaker 3>money for groceries during the middle in the middle of

0:46:54.400 --> 0:46:58.320
<v Speaker 3>the pandemic. So I had to take the eideal the

0:46:58.360 --> 0:47:02.600
<v Speaker 3>COVID loan from the SBA. That was the first big

0:47:02.760 --> 0:47:08.080
<v Speaker 3>round of like loan in what ten years of the company,

0:47:10.320 --> 0:47:15.240
<v Speaker 3>And once we started getting into debt financing, it became

0:47:15.360 --> 0:47:19.919
<v Speaker 3>really hard, especially when your model is working with brand

0:47:19.960 --> 0:47:23.600
<v Speaker 3>budgets right that are so inconsistent and that fluctuate with

0:47:24.640 --> 0:47:31.080
<v Speaker 3>the social, economic, political environment. So I like, again, it's

0:47:31.160 --> 0:47:33.359
<v Speaker 3>just a lot of perspective for those out there who

0:47:33.480 --> 0:47:37.960
<v Speaker 3>are consumers, who are viewers, who are members, who whatever

0:47:38.040 --> 0:47:41.680
<v Speaker 3>may be, to like really understand all of the nuances

0:47:41.719 --> 0:47:44.279
<v Speaker 3>and all of the sacrifices and risks that each one

0:47:44.320 --> 0:47:47.640
<v Speaker 3>of us do every time we show up with our

0:47:47.680 --> 0:47:51.360
<v Speaker 3>hat as entrepreneurs, and we have to show up with

0:47:51.600 --> 0:47:55.680
<v Speaker 3>like positive environment because otherwise, right, like you might affect

0:47:55.719 --> 0:47:56.440
<v Speaker 3>your own business.

0:47:57.880 --> 0:47:59.800
<v Speaker 1>Who it's challenging.

0:48:00.000 --> 0:48:00.560
<v Speaker 3>It's challenging.

0:48:00.880 --> 0:48:03.600
<v Speaker 1>I appreciate this vulnerability because you know, we've been on

0:48:03.680 --> 0:48:08.400
<v Speaker 1>this entrepreneurship journey officially like four years now, but all

0:48:08.520 --> 0:48:11.759
<v Speaker 1>together almost a decade. And so you know, there's the

0:48:11.840 --> 0:48:15.719
<v Speaker 1>growing pains of it all and feeling like putting on

0:48:15.840 --> 0:48:18.160
<v Speaker 1>that brave face that things are going to get better,

0:48:18.280 --> 0:48:21.040
<v Speaker 1>things are going to be okay, and often they are,

0:48:21.520 --> 0:48:23.560
<v Speaker 1>but it's the stress that it does take on you.

0:48:23.760 --> 0:48:26.520
<v Speaker 1>And luckily there's two of us. But yeah, I don't

0:48:26.560 --> 0:48:29.840
<v Speaker 1>think that this conversation has had enough, I think especially

0:48:30.520 --> 0:48:33.040
<v Speaker 1>for Latinas, because we're just like, we're happy to be here,

0:48:33.160 --> 0:48:35.400
<v Speaker 1>we're happy to be building, We're happy to be like,

0:48:35.680 --> 0:48:38.800
<v Speaker 1>you know, growing, but there's a lot of growing pains

0:48:38.840 --> 0:48:42.800
<v Speaker 1>that happen in the shadows or happen privately. So I

0:48:42.920 --> 0:48:46.960
<v Speaker 1>really appreciate you being so vulnerable and transparent about the

0:48:47.080 --> 0:48:50.080
<v Speaker 1>journey that you've been on. I would love for you

0:48:50.200 --> 0:48:52.759
<v Speaker 1>to plug your substack, talk about it. How can folks

0:48:52.800 --> 0:48:55.279
<v Speaker 1>support it? How can people support the work that you're doing.

0:48:56.640 --> 0:48:59.640
<v Speaker 3>I love it in substack right now. It's again it

0:48:59.680 --> 0:49:02.600
<v Speaker 3>feels like going back to the blogging days where I'm

0:49:02.760 --> 0:49:05.399
<v Speaker 3>just a space where I'm just speaking freely. I wasn't

0:49:05.440 --> 0:49:10.200
<v Speaker 3>feeling that in Instagram anymore, and I needed the long

0:49:10.280 --> 0:49:14.360
<v Speaker 3>form again, and so my substack is done with the Hustle.

0:49:14.920 --> 0:49:16.560
<v Speaker 3>You can just google done with the Hustle and you'll

0:49:16.560 --> 0:49:18.560
<v Speaker 3>find it, but it's done with the Hustle dot substack

0:49:18.719 --> 0:49:21.520
<v Speaker 3>dot com. You can also go to my website on

0:49:21.680 --> 0:49:25.160
<v Speaker 3>a floris dot com. I am really excited. Can I

0:49:25.239 --> 0:49:29.000
<v Speaker 3>say this that I haven't been promoting it at all

0:49:29.080 --> 0:49:31.400
<v Speaker 3>because I'm so focused in the manuscript, But i do

0:49:31.680 --> 0:49:35.960
<v Speaker 3>have a few clients that I'm advising, and they're Latinas

0:49:36.000 --> 0:49:39.040
<v Speaker 3>that are building their own communities and their events, and

0:49:39.200 --> 0:49:42.160
<v Speaker 3>I'm so excited to be supporting them on that journey.

0:49:42.239 --> 0:49:47.000
<v Speaker 3>Like I'm finding that I really love I've always loved

0:49:47.000 --> 0:49:49.919
<v Speaker 3>supporting Latina's, but just really love being on the strategy side,

0:49:51.600 --> 0:49:53.480
<v Speaker 3>being able to help them see things and build things

0:49:53.640 --> 0:49:56.319
<v Speaker 3>much quicker and support them on their journey while also

0:49:56.360 --> 0:49:58.839
<v Speaker 3>doing it in a really sustainable way that doesn't burn

0:49:58.920 --> 0:50:02.479
<v Speaker 3>them out. So Anna flotes dot com. You can also

0:50:02.560 --> 0:50:06.120
<v Speaker 3>find there how to work with me that that calls you.

0:50:06.920 --> 0:50:09.279
<v Speaker 3>But more than anything, substack is just a place where

0:50:09.480 --> 0:50:12.960
<v Speaker 3>I really want to build, continue building community, continue doing

0:50:13.040 --> 0:50:17.839
<v Speaker 3>it in a very sustainable way as well, and really

0:50:18.080 --> 0:50:21.280
<v Speaker 3>leading up to what hopefully will be my book publishing

0:50:21.360 --> 0:50:21.759
<v Speaker 3>next year.

0:50:22.400 --> 0:50:25.320
<v Speaker 1>Amazing, amazing. Thank you so much, Anna for joining us today.

0:50:25.640 --> 0:50:28.320
<v Speaker 1>This has been incredible. I really appreciate it.

0:50:28.560 --> 0:50:31.120
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, we've been learning from you for years now and

0:50:31.280 --> 0:50:33.680
<v Speaker 2>we continue to learn from you, honestly, So thank you

0:50:33.800 --> 0:50:36.200
<v Speaker 2>for sharing so much of yourself over the years and

0:50:36.360 --> 0:50:37.480
<v Speaker 2>still continuously.

0:50:37.600 --> 0:50:40.920
<v Speaker 3>We appreciate you. Thank you for inviting me. Timing is

0:50:40.960 --> 0:50:43.879
<v Speaker 3>always divine, and I'm glad that we've had this conversation now,

0:50:44.280 --> 0:50:48.320
<v Speaker 3>and I admire and adore both of you, and I

0:50:48.440 --> 0:50:49.279
<v Speaker 3>want to see you thrive.

0:50:50.080 --> 0:50:53.400
<v Speaker 1>Thank you again to Anna Flotes for joining us today

0:50:53.840 --> 0:51:01.040
<v Speaker 1>and being so transparent, so vulnerable, especially on digital platforms,

0:51:01.120 --> 0:51:04.720
<v Speaker 1>it's really easy to share the wins, to celebrate the wins.

0:51:04.920 --> 0:51:08.719
<v Speaker 1>But what Anna Flotis mainly talked about today was a

0:51:08.800 --> 0:51:12.200
<v Speaker 1>lot of the really difficult moments, the challenges, a lot

0:51:12.239 --> 0:51:16.240
<v Speaker 1>of the unseen and hidden labor that goes into growing

0:51:16.560 --> 0:51:20.160
<v Speaker 1>a thriving business and also knowing what it's okay to

0:51:20.239 --> 0:51:20.719
<v Speaker 1>walk away.

0:51:20.960 --> 0:51:22.960
<v Speaker 2>And thank you all for listening, and.

0:51:23.040 --> 0:51:26.600
<v Speaker 1>Thank you as always for supporting a Latina led podcast.

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0:51:37.920 --> 0:51:41.279
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, don't just bash the people you hate, support the

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<v Speaker 2>people you like. I think that's the big takeaway from

0:51:44.080 --> 0:51:45.239
<v Speaker 2>this conversation for me.

0:51:45.760 --> 0:51:48.160
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, thank you again to all of you, Thank you

0:51:48.200 --> 0:51:50.399
<v Speaker 1>again to Anna, and we'll catch you next time.

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