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Speaker 1: What up, my dear listener. I'm sitting outside the gym

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Speaker 1: right now. I haven't even turned on the car. I'm

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Speaker 1: just sitting here looking at this beautiful tree that is

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Speaker 1: teaching me to be still, reminding me that there's so

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Speaker 1: much to be heard when being still. So I'm just

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Speaker 1: looking at it and admiring its beauty and how the

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Speaker 1: sun is shining on its leaves, and it's just chilling.

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Speaker 1: And sometimes that's okay. We just got to freaking be

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Speaker 1: okay with staying still and being okay with not being okay,

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Speaker 1: And sometimes that's hard to accept, especially when we come

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Speaker 1: from a culture that is very get up, do what

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Speaker 1: you gotta do, no matter what, show up, put on

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Speaker 1: the happy face, and that's it. I came from a

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Speaker 1: family that didn't believe in depression and didn't believe in anxiety,

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Speaker 1: in any of that. It was you just got to

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Speaker 1: get up and keep on going and masking and surviving.

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Speaker 1: And I'm grateful because it taught me to accomplish a

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Speaker 1: lot and I love that. But right now I need

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Speaker 1: to be okay with saying, you know what, right now?

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Speaker 1: Not all right. We have to normalize that, and that's

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Speaker 1: what I'm learning I have been learning this, and I'm

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Speaker 1: trying to stick with it and honor that. It's just

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Speaker 1: tough and it's hard to unlearn certain things, but there's

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Speaker 1: a lot of beauty and a lot to be learned

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Speaker 1: when we are just able to sit and not think

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Speaker 1: and feel like we have to do something. I constantly

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Speaker 1: feel like that. I was feeling like that yesterday. I'm like,

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Speaker 1: oh my god, I did everything I had to do,

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Speaker 1: but now I have this extra time, Like, wait, I

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Speaker 1: have to find something to do. There's always something to do,

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Speaker 1: and yes, there's always going to be something to do

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Speaker 1: always that's never gonna go wait ever. But damn, if

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Speaker 1: you just want to sit on the counch and do nothing,

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Speaker 1: do that, granted not every single day, but like if

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Speaker 1: once a week or twice a week, you're just like,

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Speaker 1: I am done. I don't want to do this right now.

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Speaker 1: I can't do this right now. I can't force myself,

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Speaker 1: I can't mask the situation right now. Then don't because

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Speaker 1: you're gonna throw yourself over the edge and you're going

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Speaker 1: to do more harm than good. I struggle with this

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Speaker 1: a lot, and I don't even know where this came from.

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Speaker 1: Right now, there was something that triggered it, and I

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Speaker 1: can't remember exactly what, but I just wanted to remind

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Speaker 1: you of that and give you some breath, breath of life,

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Speaker 1: because this tree in front of me is giving me

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Speaker 1: that breath of life. Thank you tree, Thank you beautiful

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Speaker 1: trees for giving me oxygen, for doing your part. Like

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Speaker 1: every living thing, guys plays a part, and we need

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Speaker 1: to be grateful for all of those things. The insects,

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Speaker 1: even if they're you know, pests or you're scared of them,

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Speaker 1: it's like they're all playing a part in the ecosystem

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Speaker 1: and in life. So thank you tree, because this tree

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Speaker 1: is giving me the wisdom right now to share with you.

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Speaker 1: So anyway, now I have to start driving, So that

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Speaker 1: is all for now. Thank you, Thank you for listening

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Speaker 1: to me. I appreciate you. I do, and I'll catch

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Speaker 1: you on the next one, right, Sincerely, Jennet Pisa