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Speaker 1: Hey, this is Annie and Samantha, and welcome to Stephane.

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Speaker 1: Never told your protection of iHeart Radio. Okay, Annie, you

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Speaker 1: and I have been talking about this for a minute,

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Speaker 1: and I have sent warning texts to all my friends

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Speaker 1: about the fact that I am in quite a place

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Speaker 1: mentally as of late, to the point that everybody's like, seriously,

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Speaker 1: are you okay? Um, And to the point my partner's like,

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Speaker 1: how about how about if we go visit? How about

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Speaker 1: we go outside? How about we touch touch the grass?

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Speaker 1: As the new expression goes. But I didn't want to

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Speaker 1: ask you. Did you ever go through what is known

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Speaker 1: as quarter life crisis? Now I know it's it's actually

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Speaker 1: I guess it is a millennial thing because I feel

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Speaker 1: like John may I really push that out in his lyrics.

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Speaker 1: Did he does he have a song about quarter life crisis?

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Speaker 1: He literally says about having a quarter life crisis in

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Speaker 1: one of his very moody songs. Oh that's okay. Now

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Speaker 1: I'm having to wow, thanks to Metha, I'm having to

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Speaker 1: reckon with the fact I'm at the quarter of my

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Speaker 1: life at least WHOA. I don't think I have I've

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Speaker 1: I've definitely had moments where but they're usually fleeting. But

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Speaker 1: I've had moments where I'm like, I've got to make

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Speaker 1: a change, and like, what am I doing with fine?

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Speaker 1: I don't, Oh I have so I don't have a

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Speaker 1: significant other, I don't have all these things. And then

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Speaker 1: usually like within an hour and out of it, like

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Speaker 1: I changed, that's fine. I think it helps that I

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Speaker 1: did travel a lot when we could travel a lot

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Speaker 1: um and I always was busy, and you know, I

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Speaker 1: was always hiking and stuff. But I don't maybe it's coming,

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Speaker 1: maybe it's on the horizon, but not that's of yet.

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Speaker 1: I don't think I've had one. Okay, So the quarter

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Speaker 1: life crisis. If your lifespan was to say, eighty, what

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Speaker 1: hit at twenty. So if your lifespan goes to a hundred,

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Speaker 1: it goes to twenty five. So that's the quarter life

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Speaker 1: And I really felt that, and for some reason in

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Speaker 1: what am I doing with my life? This all was

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Speaker 1: also a part of like whether or not I was

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Speaker 1: okay with my job, whether I was not. I was

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Speaker 1: trying to find my identity and trying to figure out.

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Speaker 1: You know, it was during the time I was losing

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Speaker 1: a lot of my old identity as the Asian girl

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Speaker 1: wanting to be white from a small town, from going

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Speaker 1: to from conservative to oh, that doesn't make sense anymore,

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Speaker 1: losing myself and had to redefine myself. So that kind

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Speaker 1: of what's my quarter life crisis. And at this point,

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Speaker 1: healthline dot com article about midlife crisis and women. Some

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Speaker 1: It makes me sad. So again, that's a whole different

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Speaker 1: a different conversation now. I looked back to the midlife

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Speaker 1: the key is to like, not do it on impulse,

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Speaker 1: I don't think there's anything yet. Yeah, well there's time,

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