WEBVTT - Is My Ambition a Trauma Response? 0:00:05.320 --> 0:00:08.400 All right, be a fam, welcome back. I am back 0:00:08.400 --> 0:00:11.119 with the Brown Table, and I have my friends, my 0:00:11.240 --> 0:00:15.000 BA fam in person, well kind of virtually, but in person. 0:00:15.560 --> 0:00:19.760 We got Yon Nelly Ivy League educated, the Humble hot 0:00:19.800 --> 0:00:24.119 Shot from Brooklyn, New York. 0:00:26.079 --> 0:00:26.360 Intro. 0:00:26.960 --> 0:00:29.640 I don't know why I went, Maybe because George Foreman 0:00:29.800 --> 0:00:32.320 just passed. So I was channeling like some boxing energy. 0:00:32.680 --> 0:00:36.520 Rip you're not mad at him dying, well. 0:00:36.400 --> 0:00:37.640 Not mad at the energy. 0:00:38.159 --> 0:00:42.920 And also something okay, gotcha rip to the girl master 0:00:43.000 --> 0:00:45.200 of all girl masters. He really did his big one 0:00:45.280 --> 0:00:49.080 for like college students circa two thousand. 0:00:48.800 --> 0:00:51.400 And every book out and every barbecue and every black 0:00:51.440 --> 0:00:52.280 party in Brooklyn. 0:00:52.720 --> 0:00:55.600 Yeah, you can make two paninis at a time. But 0:00:55.800 --> 0:01:03.040 you know, oh man, I inherited my parents, George Foreman, Griddle. 0:01:03.120 --> 0:01:04.920 I think they had like other things than just like 0:01:04.959 --> 0:01:07.880 the press. The Michael Scott, you know, the one that 0:01:08.280 --> 0:01:10.160 I forgot to introduce Chris and Chris. 0:01:10.560 --> 0:01:13.040 I was like, at some point I'll get introduced. I 0:01:13.080 --> 0:01:14.880 wasn't going to rush it, but I was like the 0:01:14.959 --> 0:01:17.160 riddle speaking. 0:01:16.800 --> 0:01:20.400 Of Brown University, where our Ivy League Humble Hot Shot 0:01:20.440 --> 0:01:25.600 attended college. We're also joined by Chris Brown NG look 0:01:25.640 --> 0:01:26.960 at that brown ambition. 0:01:27.400 --> 0:01:29.480 I don't I to tell people my family is the 0:01:29.560 --> 0:01:31.920 huge donor, say university, but we get you changing up 0:01:31.920 --> 0:01:33.360 a little bit that way. They don't know directly that 0:01:33.400 --> 0:01:34.040 it's my family. 0:01:34.080 --> 0:01:35.560 But you know that's right. 0:01:36.120 --> 0:01:40.880 Listen, clown college. You no, that's like a triple brown 0:01:40.920 --> 0:01:44.280 brown ambition, Brown University. Yes, brown. 0:01:44.640 --> 0:01:46.600 We only brought a brown university because I'm drinking from 0:01:46.640 --> 0:01:48.760 my little college cup. And I was like, hold on, 0:01:48.800 --> 0:01:50.440 now they're not paying me to promote it, so let 0:01:50.480 --> 0:01:52.600 me cover it. But now we're promoting them anyway, so. 0:01:53.320 --> 0:01:55.800 I mean half her back. Maybe they can pay you 0:01:55.840 --> 0:01:58.800 to speak, and then it's all symbiotic. It's all connected, 0:01:58.880 --> 0:01:59.320 you know what. 0:01:59.440 --> 0:02:01.520 Actually I should have put that as my brown boost. 0:02:01.600 --> 0:02:03.840 But they did buy a bunch of my books and 0:02:04.160 --> 0:02:07.280 create an intro to personal financial literacy and the markets 0:02:07.280 --> 0:02:11.520 for freshman seminar. 0:02:12.160 --> 0:02:14.239 Yeh, nelly, that's kind of cool. 0:02:14.360 --> 0:02:16.400 Oh but seriously, I was literally in tears. I was like, wait, 0:02:16.440 --> 0:02:19.280 hold up, my book is all the sentiments. 0:02:20.000 --> 0:02:21.799 When are you gonna get your own library? When's that 0:02:21.840 --> 0:02:22.360 going to happen? 0:02:22.800 --> 0:02:23.760 I have to figure that out. 0:02:23.760 --> 0:02:27.920 But got state schools, all right, So what's happening in 0:02:27.960 --> 0:02:30.960 the world. We mentioned George Foreman passed away. Why am 0:02:31.000 --> 0:02:33.280 I seeing Jonathan Major's face all over my feet everywhere 0:02:33.280 --> 0:02:33.639 I live? 0:02:33.680 --> 0:02:36.679 Girl? Because Meghan Goood is because Meghan Good is a 0:02:37.240 --> 0:02:41.160 you know is what is? She just like doubly famous. 0:02:41.440 --> 0:02:43.160 I just feel like there was a moment where people 0:02:43.160 --> 0:02:45.200 were kind of like upset and like over him, didn't 0:02:45.200 --> 0:02:46.720 want and then Meghan bought him back. 0:02:47.000 --> 0:02:49.960 I just because what She's America's black sweetheart and now 0:02:49.960 --> 0:02:50.800 he gets to benefit. 0:02:50.919 --> 0:02:53.040 She was scared for her. I feel like she was 0:02:53.080 --> 0:02:56.239 everybody's nineties like dreamgirl, even mine. 0:02:56.400 --> 0:02:59.079 I mean, and it is still is Megan When her 0:02:59.080 --> 0:03:02.200 and bow Wow did that one movie with skating, what 0:03:02.280 --> 0:03:05.200 was it they were skating? I don't know. 0:03:05.280 --> 0:03:09.920 Anyway, it's making good, I mean, but they do seem happy. 0:03:09.960 --> 0:03:12.320 And I know this controversy around him and his violent 0:03:12.400 --> 0:03:14.160 passed and domestic issues. 0:03:13.919 --> 0:03:17.600 With everybody and every celebrity couple seems happy, you know. 0:03:17.800 --> 0:03:19.520 Yeah, I don't know. I guess a little bit that 0:03:19.560 --> 0:03:21.480 I have seen. But then again, I'm a hater because 0:03:21.480 --> 0:03:24.160 I didn't like Rihanna with ASAP, So I don't know. 0:03:24.680 --> 0:03:26.160 But oh what an a SAP do? 0:03:26.280 --> 0:03:26.640 What do you do? 0:03:26.960 --> 0:03:30.040 He just had some he had some ignorant interviews in 0:03:30.080 --> 0:03:31.960 the past that I had seen, and I just wouldn't 0:03:32.000 --> 0:03:34.880 let him go where he said some very misogynistic shit. 0:03:35.000 --> 0:03:37.840 But you know what, maybe that was his eighteen nineteen 0:03:37.880 --> 0:03:39.560 year old self. I don't know, but I just initially 0:03:39.560 --> 0:03:40.720 when I heard the news, I was like, come on, 0:03:40.800 --> 0:03:42.560 she can do way better. But then everybody in my 0:03:42.600 --> 0:03:45.160 family was like, leave alone. She's happy, you're hating, And so. 0:03:45.360 --> 0:03:48.720 I know, I think we do. We care. We love Rihanna, 0:03:48.720 --> 0:03:51.480 and we love making goods so much that you just 0:03:51.560 --> 0:03:53.680 want it to be good on that. 0:03:53.680 --> 0:03:56.040 Perfect man because they're the perfect women, so they need 0:03:56.040 --> 0:03:58.040 perfect men. I don't know, that's just me. I just like, 0:03:58.080 --> 0:03:59.680 come on, ladies, like we. 0:03:59.640 --> 0:04:03.040 Need What do you think about Jonathan Majors. Does someone 0:04:03.120 --> 0:04:04.920 like Chris as a because I know as a female, 0:04:04.960 --> 0:04:10.160 I'm just like dead dead it dead it Yeah, And 0:04:10.480 --> 0:04:12.680 and he does. It's more than rumor. It's it's like, 0:04:13.000 --> 0:04:16.919 you know, there's been leaked audio, there's been footage, like 0:04:17.720 --> 0:04:21.400 you know he was arrested, yes, yeah, so, but yeah, 0:04:21.400 --> 0:04:24.480 I'm wondering Chris, like do you think about that? Or 0:04:24.560 --> 0:04:27.599 you would you pay for a Jonathan Major's movie ticket. 0:04:28.720 --> 0:04:31.360 You know, well, first of all, violence to gets women 0:04:31.400 --> 0:04:33.640 by man never okay, So let me just throw that 0:04:33.680 --> 0:04:34.000 out there. 0:04:34.240 --> 0:04:36.000 You can never do that. That's what my dad thought me. 0:04:36.120 --> 0:04:38.520 Correct its coming up, that's just you don't do that. 0:04:38.560 --> 0:04:39.200 You never do that. 0:04:40.200 --> 0:04:41.760 But after that came out, I was like, you know, 0:04:42.520 --> 0:04:45.640 I can't support this. So, you know, is he a 0:04:45.640 --> 0:04:47.480 good actor, yes, but I mean there's a lot of 0:04:47.480 --> 0:04:49.920 other good actors and there's always an option to choose 0:04:49.960 --> 0:04:51.240 what you want to go watch and who you want 0:04:51.240 --> 0:04:54.320 to support. So to me, I'm like, hey, it's not 0:04:54.360 --> 0:04:55.640 that hard to be like, you know what, I'm good. 0:04:55.960 --> 0:04:57.880 I don't need to go see him in the movie 0:04:58.400 --> 0:04:59.640 right now. But I think he's in the news because 0:04:59.640 --> 0:05:01.560 he has I think his movie, which I thought was 0:05:01.560 --> 0:05:03.599 an old movie, but it was like coming out and 0:05:03.600 --> 0:05:04.280 that's why. 0:05:04.120 --> 0:05:07.000 It was old because they couldn't release it because that's 0:05:07.040 --> 0:05:10.560 when he was arrested and that's why they delayed it. 0:05:10.640 --> 0:05:13.919 So now so a couple of years later, they're like, 0:05:14.480 --> 0:05:17.120 is it is it safe now? Can we poke our 0:05:17.120 --> 0:05:17.520 heads out? 0:05:17.600 --> 0:05:20.800 Did people forget? Is it old news? 0:05:20.560 --> 0:05:22.880 That's that's it, and that's when they intern it. Has 0:05:22.880 --> 0:05:23.640 a short memory. 0:05:23.760 --> 0:05:26.600 It kind of get throw like, you know, pushing under 0:05:26.600 --> 0:05:28.080 the rug and then people are just gonna come back 0:05:28.080 --> 0:05:29.400 out and see if they're okay again. 0:05:29.640 --> 0:05:32.279 That's right, Honestly. I also think it has to do 0:05:32.400 --> 0:05:34.919 with the level of talent of the person, like and 0:05:35.080 --> 0:05:39.400 how much like I do think Jonathan Major's he, I mean, 0:05:40.160 --> 0:05:46.080 objectively speaking, an incredible actor, you know, so intense on 0:05:46.120 --> 0:05:49.560 the screen like he and I can see like the 0:05:49.839 --> 0:05:52.440 how his career was just like taking off and taking off, 0:05:52.440 --> 0:05:54.599 and I feel like in it on a time where 0:05:54.600 --> 0:05:57.560 we have so few. I mean, there's some like incredible 0:05:57.560 --> 0:06:00.360 blackmail actors, but we just lost chap Chapwick, those men, 0:06:00.360 --> 0:06:03.360 it feels like just yesterday, and you know, you don't 0:06:03.360 --> 0:06:06.479 want to see one of the few go down like that. 0:06:07.320 --> 0:06:09.400 But I do feel like if they're really really talented, 0:06:09.440 --> 0:06:12.520 I mean, Chris Brown is still selling out shows. 0:06:12.760 --> 0:06:14.560 That's what I understanding, Because one, he messed up my 0:06:14.640 --> 0:06:17.200 name years ago, because I think we're Almos sage my 0:06:17.320 --> 0:06:19.839 entire life, He's messed up my name and I'm. 0:06:19.680 --> 0:06:21.440 Like, how is he back famous again? I thought he 0:06:21.480 --> 0:06:21.720 was dead. 0:06:21.760 --> 0:06:25.600 I thought, Wow, Chris Brown's that old, Yes. 0:06:25.200 --> 0:06:27.120 Don't you remember when he came out and he was like, 0:06:27.400 --> 0:06:29.919 I'm just fifteen? Is not that one of his lyrics? 0:06:29.960 --> 0:06:31.800 I don't even I don't ever go looking for him, 0:06:31.800 --> 0:06:33.240 so I don't know what he looks like anymore. 0:06:33.320 --> 0:06:35.120 He was a baby when he came out at fifteen. 0:06:35.200 --> 0:06:37.200 So yes, even if it's been twenty years, the man 0:06:37.279 --> 0:06:39.520 is still making music because he started so young. 0:06:40.040 --> 0:06:41.680 Heyh yeah, yeah. 0:06:41.440 --> 0:06:43.160 There you go. He started at fifteen twenty years that 0:06:43.200 --> 0:06:45.480 was right, But it's so true. I do think, honestly, 0:06:45.520 --> 0:06:49.440 when I'm talking to a lot of people in my experience, 0:06:49.440 --> 0:06:52.880 which is obviously very anecdotal, a lot of the younger 0:06:54.200 --> 0:06:56.520 I want to I want to say generation. Younger girls 0:06:56.520 --> 0:06:59.440 in particular concerned me because they overlook a lot of 0:06:59.520 --> 0:07:02.000 the stuff around Chris Brown and make excuses and say, 0:07:02.000 --> 0:07:05.840 oh no, but but but but, like he's twenty twenty three, 0:07:05.920 --> 0:07:08.279 twenty up to twenty five, twenty six years old girls, 0:07:08.279 --> 0:07:10.200 And I'm like, why are you still on Kris Brown 0:07:10.280 --> 0:07:12.400 like that, going to his concerts, doing all this and 0:07:12.480 --> 0:07:14.400 his music? Oh no, no, I love Chris Brown. I 0:07:14.440 --> 0:07:17.880 don't know. And it's like, okay, is it a generational thing? 0:07:18.160 --> 0:07:21.160 I'm not really sure what it is, but I mean, 0:07:21.200 --> 0:07:23.840 we'll make excuses out the wall zoof of this man. 0:07:23.880 --> 0:07:27.760 So I I, you know, it's just an observation that 0:07:27.840 --> 0:07:28.520 I have noted. 0:07:29.040 --> 0:07:31.880 I thow time, right, because like he if you're if 0:07:31.920 --> 0:07:34.040 you're young enough, right, that happened when they were probably 0:07:34.120 --> 0:07:35.840 even like maybe not even live or a little baby. 0:07:35.840 --> 0:07:37.320 It's kind of like a grade. 0:07:37.000 --> 0:07:39.480 Third grade, righte Wahlberg. 0:07:39.520 --> 0:07:41.320 He just some crazy stuff, but happens so long ago. 0:07:41.360 --> 0:07:43.400 People are just like, you know, they don't think about 0:07:43.440 --> 0:07:43.920 it anymore. 0:07:44.360 --> 0:07:47.280 So voided out. Probably, I just feel like what Jonathan what? 0:07:47.280 --> 0:07:50.680 What bothers me the most is his like he's he's 0:07:50.720 --> 0:07:54.520 almost adopted this persona of like some kind of like 0:07:54.760 --> 0:07:58.680 I don't know, reform Yogi master. Like he's just like 0:07:58.760 --> 0:08:02.720 so he's like this forced again. I keep going back 0:08:02.760 --> 0:08:04.960 to the quote that came out from that trial where 0:08:05.240 --> 0:08:07.200 he had told his girlfriend she needed to be like 0:08:07.240 --> 0:08:09.920 the credit to his MLK, to his Martin Luther King junior, 0:08:10.080 --> 0:08:13.440 and be that level of poise and stature. And I 0:08:13.440 --> 0:08:15.840 see he's like putting on that show as he is 0:08:15.880 --> 0:08:22.640 this like dignified you know, actor, this this this dignified 0:08:22.800 --> 0:08:27.040 you know, performer and creator and it just comes off 0:08:27.120 --> 0:08:30.920 so forced and so it's so much bullshit. I don't 0:08:30.920 --> 0:08:33.600 I don't feel any humility, you know, I don't feel 0:08:33.640 --> 0:08:37.520 the wow I hit rock bottom, I begged I I 0:08:38.160 --> 0:08:40.600 you know, it's like Harry said to Voldemort, like try 0:08:40.640 --> 0:08:44.400 for some remorse home skillet, like before you know, I 0:08:44.880 --> 0:08:47.120 eat that wand out of your hand, and your own 0:08:47.160 --> 0:08:53.920 rebounding death curse kills you like I need him. I 0:08:54.280 --> 0:08:57.560 think redemption, the path to redemption is painful. It should 0:08:57.559 --> 0:09:01.520 be painful. There should be remorse, there should be statements, 0:09:01.559 --> 0:09:05.000 there should be work, active work. He has an opportunity 0:09:05.240 --> 0:09:09.800 to rehabilitate himself publicly and to actually be an incredible 0:09:09.840 --> 0:09:14.600 example for other men who have chosen violence and have 0:09:14.640 --> 0:09:18.559 not have not healed them healed their inner demons, and 0:09:18.559 --> 0:09:21.400 and you know, and he has an opportunity to do that. 0:09:21.440 --> 0:09:24.360 And I feel like until I see that level of 0:09:25.000 --> 0:09:29.080 humility and grace like in the meantime. 0:09:28.720 --> 0:09:31.280 Though, I mean, or really any level, because I. 0:09:31.480 --> 0:09:32.240 Will be clicking away. 0:09:32.640 --> 0:09:34.520 Didn't it just get swept onto the rug? Like I 0:09:34.559 --> 0:09:35.200 don't think he has. 0:09:35.440 --> 0:09:38.400 I'm engaged now, yeah, yeah, totally. 0:09:38.080 --> 0:09:40.760 Crying on whatever show to tell you how she means 0:09:40.760 --> 0:09:42.160 so much to me, and it's like, wait, did you 0:09:42.320 --> 0:09:44.880 just get a whole? What happened in between? It was 0:09:44.920 --> 0:09:47.160 like nothing there was. They just swept it under the rug, 0:09:47.160 --> 0:09:49.839 I feel like, and it wasn't really addressed, at least 0:09:49.880 --> 0:09:51.560 not by him and his pr folks. 0:09:51.840 --> 0:09:55.360 Yeah, no, thank you. I need an apology tour. I 0:09:55.400 --> 0:10:02.280 need a good one. What else is happening? Can we can? 0:10:02.360 --> 0:10:04.160 I confess something? Girl? 0:10:04.240 --> 0:10:04.440 Go? 0:10:04.600 --> 0:10:08.199 I want to confess us. What am I gonna do 0:10:08.200 --> 0:10:10.960 about my Tesla? Y'all? What am I going to do? 0:10:11.480 --> 0:10:13.960 I feel like such a fucking clown. 0:10:14.320 --> 0:10:16.760 I meant it before. 0:10:17.840 --> 0:10:19.920 I was literally thinking about that on the ride. I'm like, 0:10:19.960 --> 0:10:21.720 is there a bumper sticker I could put on this 0:10:21.800 --> 0:10:24.559 car before you before you slash my tires? 0:10:24.800 --> 0:10:25.319 Please? 0:10:26.040 --> 0:10:26.520 Please? 0:10:27.280 --> 0:10:30.520 It's paid off. I've had it since twenty twenty one? 0:10:30.840 --> 0:10:33.079 Like, please? Is U? 0:10:34.120 --> 0:10:35.760 Did you see the thing where? I think it's a 0:10:35.760 --> 0:10:37.959 company called Polestar They do the other electric car. I 0:10:38.000 --> 0:10:40.880 think they're under Volkswagon or Vobo. I forgot the company that, 0:10:41.280 --> 0:10:43.760 but they're offering incentives for people to trade in their 0:10:43.760 --> 0:10:44.920 Tesla's if they want to come over. 0:10:45.000 --> 0:10:46.880 I need one of those. I need Rivian I would 0:10:46.920 --> 0:10:48.719 love a Rivian because, you know, like I feel like 0:10:48.800 --> 0:10:51.840 Rivian is now the progressive. I feel like brands are 0:10:51.880 --> 0:10:53.400 so politicized now. 0:10:53.920 --> 0:10:57.920 Totally benefiting from Tesla's downfall, totally exactly. You know, my 0:10:57.960 --> 0:11:00.000 boyfriend's brother works at let me not play his business all. 0:11:00.240 --> 0:11:04.400 He does work at Rivan though, But it's so funny, girl. 0:11:04.559 --> 0:11:06.640 I'll look you what if you want to make it happen, 0:11:06.720 --> 0:11:07.679 I got you. 0:11:07.880 --> 0:11:11.920 I would, I would g I will publicly, like you know, 0:11:12.480 --> 0:11:15.120 put my car, put the Tesla in like one of 0:11:15.120 --> 0:11:18.240 those machine like metal shredders. I'll do whatever, you know, 0:11:18.440 --> 0:11:21.040 like for to do a stunt like that to get 0:11:21.040 --> 0:11:25.240 a different car, because I I feel gross. I feel 0:11:25.280 --> 0:11:26.520 gross riding around in that. 0:11:26.559 --> 0:11:30.600 You definitely need a ghost machine. Go to a black 0:11:30.640 --> 0:11:34.560 owned business that does like custom stickers and get one 0:11:34.600 --> 0:11:37.680 that says I bought this before Elon went crazy, and 0:11:37.720 --> 0:11:40.719 then you're supporting a black owned business. Is creative business 0:11:40.800 --> 0:11:45.400 and making sure people know your position, covering yourself because. 0:11:45.400 --> 0:11:46.800 I don't want to just get rid of the whole 0:11:46.840 --> 0:11:48.679 thing now, but but at scene. 0:11:48.400 --> 0:11:51.360 Time, while you're in you need something to let people know. 0:11:51.840 --> 0:11:53.720 Putting nothing on your Tesla and just leaving it parked 0:11:53.720 --> 0:11:55.760 outside in New York City is dangerous. 0:11:56.080 --> 0:11:59.280 Yeah, I just wanted to make it look like that, 0:11:59.360 --> 0:12:01.640 like it's a niece, like a Nissan and logo to 0:12:01.679 --> 0:12:02.920 be like alt or something like that. 0:12:06.880 --> 0:12:07.680 That's kind of funny. 0:12:07.760 --> 0:12:10.000 I would let them slide on that. That's kind of funny. 0:12:10.400 --> 0:12:13.400 They doing something, you know, as opposed to literally doing 0:12:13.440 --> 0:12:15.480 nothing where you don't have any stickers. You don't you 0:12:15.480 --> 0:12:17.439 act like, oh, there's nothing. That to me is a 0:12:17.480 --> 0:12:19.880 little bizarre because now you just don't think there's anything wrong. 0:12:19.960 --> 0:12:22.760 I feel like people. I can feel the parents drop 0:12:22.840 --> 0:12:25.600 at kids school pickup and drop off. I can feel 0:12:25.800 --> 0:12:28.439 other drivers looking in the car to see who's driving it. 0:12:28.880 --> 0:12:31.960 And I'm just like, I'm a black woman. I must say, like, 0:12:32.840 --> 0:12:35.200 I know it's incongruous, like I would explain it to you, 0:12:35.240 --> 0:12:39.000 but I don't have time and like just to see 0:12:39.200 --> 0:12:41.760 the like, oh, I'm gonna get a sticker, all right, 0:12:41.760 --> 0:12:44.240 but what's this pollstar? People like what kind of car 0:12:44.320 --> 0:12:44.559 is that? 0:12:44.880 --> 0:12:46.920 What am I gonna be talking about it? But look, 0:12:47.480 --> 0:12:50.520 I don't know is it evy? You gotta say yes, 0:12:50.760 --> 0:12:53.040 you have to go test driving versus a rivie because 0:12:53.080 --> 0:12:55.320 otherwise you won't know right, like you just gotta go 0:12:56.000 --> 0:12:58.480 test driver. But everyone is talking about full Star, like 0:12:58.880 --> 0:13:01.320 this is the one I want that Montesla. I've seen 0:13:01.320 --> 0:13:04.400 that a couple different, in particular black women, black women 0:13:04.440 --> 0:13:06.520 that I'm friends with, who have posted that. 0:13:07.320 --> 0:13:10.320 Okayy want to help the other black woman who's your friend. 0:13:10.920 --> 0:13:14.440 She's a doctor too, so you know, trying. She's trying 0:13:15.280 --> 0:13:17.240 to not look like she pulls up to the hospital 0:13:17.280 --> 0:13:18.800 and Tesla. 0:13:18.840 --> 0:13:21.480 Wait, well, I'm thinking about our listeners real quick, and 0:13:21.920 --> 0:13:23.800 which I always do, but y'all need to be leaving 0:13:23.840 --> 0:13:28.040 some reviews please. Just as a reminder, I would love 0:13:28.400 --> 0:13:31.040 y'all to go to Apple Podcasts and leave a review 0:13:31.040 --> 0:13:34.240 for the show because it's been quiet over there and 0:13:34.559 --> 0:13:37.080 I feel like I should probably read one out loud 0:13:37.120 --> 0:13:39.320 because when we used to read reviews out loud, people 0:13:39.360 --> 0:13:41.360 will be like, oh, well, we get my review read. 0:13:41.760 --> 0:13:45.200 So I'm going to pull up a review because do it. 0:13:45.200 --> 0:13:46.880 It's true, honestly, you know what it is a lot 0:13:46.880 --> 0:13:49.240 of your loyal, loyal, loyal fans who come back Timetime 0:13:49.240 --> 0:13:51.160 again have probably left reviews in the past. But it's 0:13:51.200 --> 0:13:52.959 okay to post if you updated and want to just 0:13:52.960 --> 0:13:55.040 say I've been rocking with the pod since back in 0:13:55.120 --> 0:13:58.439 twenty seventeen, twenty sixteen, because those are those types of 0:13:58.520 --> 0:14:01.280 comments really really make a difference to review algorithms. 0:14:01.960 --> 0:14:04.080 My goal is to be like the Awkward Black Girl 0:14:04.200 --> 0:14:07.800 YouTube channel of podcasts, you know how, like everyone likes 0:14:07.800 --> 0:14:10.080 to tell Lisa like, I've been down with you since 0:14:10.080 --> 0:14:13.200 the ABG days. Yes, like I know, so let me 0:14:13.440 --> 0:14:15.120 let you know, let me know how long you've been 0:14:15.160 --> 0:14:19.520 riding with BA when you leave that review, Well, here's 0:14:19.560 --> 0:14:24.040 a sweet one, all right. This is from Natural End 0:14:24.160 --> 0:14:29.360 to Issan, Oh Natural Intuition. She said. I love the 0:14:29.440 --> 0:14:32.680 new picture. Thank you, She says, Mandy, you have transition 0:14:32.800 --> 0:14:35.720 with grace. I love the new I love the new 0:14:35.760 --> 0:14:38.920 new of the podcast and can't wait to keep listening. 0:14:39.480 --> 0:14:42.600 I love the see girl they rocking with you. They 0:14:42.680 --> 0:14:44.760 really are. And I will say I agree with that. 0:14:44.880 --> 0:14:48.040 It is not easy to just keep it going and 0:14:48.120 --> 0:14:50.360 act like everything's all good when you know you feel 0:14:50.400 --> 0:14:52.800 like your other half and like the whole show's as 0:14:53.120 --> 0:14:56.560 totally different vibe. But you've really done it gracefully, I 0:14:56.560 --> 0:14:58.960 gotta say. And you just brought so much like fun, 0:14:59.040 --> 0:15:01.800 creative energy coming up with new ideas, trying things, not 0:15:01.840 --> 0:15:04.520 being afraid to try things. Like girl, I mean, I 0:15:04.520 --> 0:15:07.480 know Brown Ambition is your baby, but you have really 0:15:07.480 --> 0:15:10.520 really transitioned it nice. Yeah, we'll say, yeah, you really have. 0:15:10.920 --> 0:15:12.960 Maddie is so creative, but I'm gonna be nice to you. 0:15:13.040 --> 0:15:15.240 So you say you feel real bad when you, you know, 0:15:15.280 --> 0:15:16.200 inevitably insult me. 0:15:16.160 --> 0:15:16.920 Later on this episode. 0:15:16.960 --> 0:15:18.760 Yeah, eventually I might feel bad. Keep trying. 0:15:19.000 --> 0:15:21.760 Yeah, but it's so creative, so many great ideas. You 0:15:21.800 --> 0:15:24.080 work so hard, So I'm very proud of you and 0:15:24.200 --> 0:15:26.440 all the all the work you've transition. 0:15:27.440 --> 0:15:29.000 That's hard to change things up like that. 0:15:30.480 --> 0:15:32.680 Thank you, And I'm just so relieved. 'all don't even know. 0:15:32.680 --> 0:15:34.800 I've been editing the show myself for the past few 0:15:34.800 --> 0:15:37.400 months while I've been in between like working on this 0:15:37.480 --> 0:15:40.640 network situation and like figuring out this new format. It's 0:15:40.680 --> 0:15:45.240 been so much the level of stress. Plus my book. 0:15:45.520 --> 0:15:50.200 Oh girl, I can't exactly like you know how you're 0:15:50.240 --> 0:15:52.360 just like in it and you can't exactly you can't 0:15:52.440 --> 0:15:55.600 zoom out because if you zoom out, you'll just self 0:15:55.640 --> 0:16:00.920 combust literally implode. But it was all this stuff and 0:16:01.080 --> 0:16:04.600 then I've had like three big book deadlines where I've 0:16:04.600 --> 0:16:07.560 had to submit multiple chapters. I have another one tomorrow 0:16:08.360 --> 0:16:11.880 and at the same time, and the podcast being brand new. 0:16:11.920 --> 0:16:14.800 It's been but at the same time, it's like it's 0:16:14.800 --> 0:16:18.560 so exciting. These are blessings. I don't want to complain, 0:16:19.240 --> 0:16:22.760 but it is. I said twenty twenty five smelled like money. 0:16:22.920 --> 0:16:25.680 I said that when the New Year changed over. I 0:16:25.720 --> 0:16:30.080 was like, it really just smells, just smells like money. 0:16:31.440 --> 0:16:33.400 So far to ask you, you girl, how did you do it, 0:16:33.400 --> 0:16:34.920 and you're gonna be like, I don't know. I don't 0:16:34.920 --> 0:16:36.800 even remember. I don't even know how I did it. 0:16:37.200 --> 0:16:39.440 I just did it, and I just kept going like 0:16:39.480 --> 0:16:40.320 that I'll. 0:16:40.040 --> 0:16:43.760 Have something to tell them four am wake up calls, 0:16:44.080 --> 0:16:46.480 don't get enough sleep. I think sometimes you have to 0:16:46.480 --> 0:16:51.560 be like I don't. There's no like productivity hack. Sometimes 0:16:51.760 --> 0:16:54.240 the hack is you work your ass off and you 0:16:54.320 --> 0:16:56.360 know that you can't sustain it at that level. I 0:16:56.400 --> 0:16:58.000 know I wasn't gonna be able to edit the show forever. 0:16:58.040 --> 0:17:00.840 I didn't fool myself to think that, but I knew 0:17:00.880 --> 0:17:03.840 for the interim, like this is a temporary thing. I'm 0:17:03.840 --> 0:17:05.840 going to find an editor with all my free time, 0:17:06.160 --> 0:17:09.119 and I finally did and like, now that's off my plate. 0:17:09.200 --> 0:17:14.960 Shout out to Carla and Courtney Black owned Latina after 0:17:15.000 --> 0:17:22.679 Latina owned editing company. So very excited that, you know 0:17:22.720 --> 0:17:25.520 my sister speaking in which I visited my sister in Wisconsin. 0:17:26.680 --> 0:17:29.479 She's doing so much better. Be a faan I might 0:17:29.480 --> 0:17:31.720 have shared a little bit. My sister donated a kidney. 0:17:31.800 --> 0:17:35.440 She's a living donor, a god angel on earth, and 0:17:35.760 --> 0:17:37.840 for all of her trouble, she ended up with a 0:17:37.920 --> 0:17:40.920 very rare like complication. So for anyone who's thinking about 0:17:41.000 --> 0:17:43.359 organ donation, Like I mean, already we knew it was 0:17:43.359 --> 0:17:48.199 a serious surgery, but it's obviously quite common common ish. 0:17:48.480 --> 0:17:51.240 So anyway, you really hoped, you know, the surgeon had 0:17:51.240 --> 0:17:53.040 done like a gajillion of them, so you hope that 0:17:53.080 --> 0:17:55.280 it's just going to be textbook. But she had a 0:17:55.400 --> 0:18:00.080 rare complication which caused her like severe, severe, like agonizing 0:18:00.160 --> 0:18:04.840 nerve pain, which is it's the y'all y'all have experience 0:18:04.880 --> 0:18:07.040 with like anyone who's ever had like a nerve pain condition, 0:18:07.200 --> 0:18:10.520 chronic pain. But it's the worst thing about it is 0:18:10.560 --> 0:18:13.000 the way that doctors don't really know how to treat it, 0:18:13.040 --> 0:18:17.919 except for with really strong opioids, Like I mean, she 0:18:18.000 --> 0:18:20.320 left the hospital with mad she left the hospital with 0:18:21.200 --> 0:18:26.560 oxy with fentanyl patch. She had been on ketamine, like 0:18:26.640 --> 0:18:29.359 there is dilouded. There's like these really strong and they're like, 0:18:29.440 --> 0:18:31.360 we don't give these medicines to people who aren't dying 0:18:31.359 --> 0:18:33.640 of cancer. Like that's how painful it was. But thank 0:18:33.720 --> 0:18:36.320 the Lord. I mean, it took way too long. It's 0:18:36.359 --> 0:18:38.320 been over two months, but she was able to finally 0:18:38.359 --> 0:18:42.120 get some treatment to actually target the nerve that's that's 0:18:42.280 --> 0:18:46.200 been damaged and set. The worst part is that your nerves. 0:18:46.359 --> 0:18:49.760 I mean there's some surgical intervention. Obviously I'm not a neurologist, 0:18:49.800 --> 0:18:53.560