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Speaker 1: you will read my book this autumn and many things

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Speaker 1: name is Dan Katrocer, and this is spent Lana. Sped Lana.

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Speaker 1: Here she is talking with biographer Meryl Seacrest on the

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Speaker 1: It's an intimate love letter to Russia, to her childhood,

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Speaker 1: In the fall of nineteen sixte spent Lana publishes her

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Speaker 1: You see. While most of her fan mail was from normal,

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Speaker 1: place I like to call Scottsdale, Arizona, jess Hand. She

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Speaker 1: was calling me six months. I was course first by her.

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Speaker 1: for six months. Finally chicolled on the telephone and I

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Speaker 1: the next episode of spent Lata sped Lata, sped Laana.

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Speaker 1: Sped Lana is a production of I Heard Podcasts and

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Speaker 1: the documentary group I'm Your Host Dan Controcer. The show

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Speaker 1: was written and produced by me Adam Weber, Alison Joy,

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Speaker 1: and Katherine Isaac. We also serve as executive producers at

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Speaker 1: the documentary group. Our executive producer is Job Silhouettes, with

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Speaker 1: production oversight by Stacy Cleeker and additional support from Tom

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Speaker 1: Yellen and Gabrielle Tennenbaum. Our I Heart team is supervising

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Speaker 1: producer Casey Pegram and executive producer Maya Howard. Editing assistants

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Speaker 1: for producers Christina Loranger and Joey Patt. Original music by

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Speaker 1: Ellen Isakov. Production counsel by Slaus eck House, Dasty Haynes Locko,

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Speaker 1: Clearance counsel by Ballard Spar, Back checking assistance by Megan Trout,

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Speaker 1: Research assistants by min J. Kim. Special thanks to my

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Speaker 1: husband Jordan's Siegel. Excerpts from Svetlana Aloujeva's book Twenty Letters

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Speaker 1: to a Friend are provided by Chris Evans and performed

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Speaker 1: by Cassie Greer