1 00:00:19,480 --> 00:00:21,560 Speaker 1: Hello, Hi Emily. 2 00:00:21,640 --> 00:00:26,880 Speaker 2: Here, I'm feeling silly today. I'm feeling silly today because 3 00:00:27,080 --> 00:00:30,600 Speaker 2: I have been working on a project. I have made 4 00:00:30,680 --> 00:00:36,519 Speaker 2: this project the Monster for months now. To be specific, 5 00:00:36,560 --> 00:00:39,040 Speaker 2: I'm working on a speaking reel and I needed to 6 00:00:39,400 --> 00:00:42,839 Speaker 2: sit down and storyboard it and think about what I 7 00:00:42,880 --> 00:00:46,519 Speaker 2: wanted it to say and find examples. And I just 8 00:00:46,560 --> 00:00:49,000 Speaker 2: have not put in the time for this. And I'm 9 00:00:49,000 --> 00:00:50,800 Speaker 2: finally putting in the time for it, and I'm proud 10 00:00:50,840 --> 00:00:55,040 Speaker 2: of myself, but my brain feels like mush. On that note, 11 00:00:56,040 --> 00:01:00,120 Speaker 2: Aside from working on this reel, the other thing that 12 00:00:59,880 --> 00:01:01,880 Speaker 2: I am just inundated with is the fact that I 13 00:01:01,920 --> 00:01:04,720 Speaker 2: am running a marathon next weekend. You've heard me talk 14 00:01:04,760 --> 00:01:07,080 Speaker 2: about it incessantly here, so I'm going to do that. 15 00:01:07,360 --> 00:01:09,080 Speaker 2: I won't even say for the last time, because I'm 16 00:01:09,120 --> 00:01:12,640 Speaker 2: sure I'm going to talk about it some more. But today, 17 00:01:12,880 --> 00:01:16,600 Speaker 2: this whole episode is me answering a five minute Friday question. 18 00:01:16,800 --> 00:01:21,160 Speaker 2: This one comes from Shay from New York City. She says, 19 00:01:21,440 --> 00:01:24,440 Speaker 2: love your show so much and I miss the solo 20 00:01:24,480 --> 00:01:27,440 Speaker 2: Wednesday episodes. Any chance you bring them back? Fun fact, 21 00:01:27,480 --> 00:01:29,520 Speaker 2: I'm gonna have a solo to kick off next week, 22 00:01:29,600 --> 00:01:31,680 Speaker 2: so stay tuned for that. But if you also feel 23 00:01:31,680 --> 00:01:35,560 Speaker 2: this way always, I love your feedback. Just like you 24 00:01:35,600 --> 00:01:38,360 Speaker 2: can email me a listener question over to Hello at 25 00:01:38,400 --> 00:01:40,560 Speaker 2: hurdle dot us. You can always email me there with 26 00:01:40,600 --> 00:01:44,280 Speaker 2: whatever your thoughts, your feelings, your concerns. I will see 27 00:01:44,280 --> 00:01:48,440 Speaker 2: them anyway. Shay writes, I have a question for five 28 00:01:48,440 --> 00:01:52,440 Speaker 2: Minute Friday. How do you feel going into Chicago Marathon weekend? 29 00:01:52,960 --> 00:01:55,320 Speaker 2: You announced a big goal early in your training, and 30 00:01:55,320 --> 00:01:58,080 Speaker 2: I'd love to hear some reflections from you. What was 31 00:01:58,080 --> 00:02:01,000 Speaker 2: the hardest part of training? What did you do differently 32 00:02:01,040 --> 00:02:03,640 Speaker 2: this time around? Would you do that again? Other than 33 00:02:03,640 --> 00:02:06,600 Speaker 2: your a goal? What would make you feel accomplished? Where 34 00:02:06,600 --> 00:02:08,520 Speaker 2: do you feel most confident? How do you feel in 35 00:02:08,520 --> 00:02:10,760 Speaker 2: your body? How are you passing the time on your taper. 36 00:02:10,800 --> 00:02:12,960 Speaker 2: While there's a lot of questions here, Shay, I'm being 37 00:02:13,000 --> 00:02:15,400 Speaker 2: honest really would love to hear anything you'd be willing 38 00:02:15,480 --> 00:02:18,000 Speaker 2: to share. Thanks so much and wishing you the absolute 39 00:02:18,080 --> 00:02:22,560 Speaker 2: best day out there on the twelfth eek, Shay, Like Shy, 40 00:02:22,680 --> 00:02:24,960 Speaker 2: this is fun. I don't think I'm going to answer 41 00:02:25,080 --> 00:02:27,560 Speaker 2: every single one of those questions, but I am holistically 42 00:02:27,600 --> 00:02:29,880 Speaker 2: going to give you a pulse check on where I'm at, 43 00:02:29,919 --> 00:02:32,760 Speaker 2: and I do write a little bit about this in 44 00:02:32,800 --> 00:02:35,639 Speaker 2: the Weekly Hurdle newsletter today as well, So if you're 45 00:02:35,639 --> 00:02:38,640 Speaker 2: not subscribed, it is absolutely free unless you would like 46 00:02:38,720 --> 00:02:44,760 Speaker 2: to donate, so consider doing that. I feel ready and 47 00:02:45,240 --> 00:02:51,080 Speaker 2: I feel a little worried for no specific reason. 48 00:02:51,160 --> 00:02:51,960 Speaker 1: In particular. 49 00:02:52,720 --> 00:02:55,680 Speaker 2: I've done all of the workouts, and oftentimes when I 50 00:02:55,720 --> 00:02:58,400 Speaker 2: feel that sense of hesitation going into a moment like this, 51 00:02:59,160 --> 00:03:01,840 Speaker 2: I find it so helpful to reflect on the training 52 00:03:01,919 --> 00:03:05,800 Speaker 2: and literally look at the log and see all of 53 00:03:05,840 --> 00:03:07,920 Speaker 2: the work that I've put in and remind myself that 54 00:03:08,040 --> 00:03:12,120 Speaker 2: I am capable of doing this hard thing. With that said, 55 00:03:12,560 --> 00:03:16,480 Speaker 2: the worry comes from I made a decision that was 56 00:03:16,560 --> 00:03:20,200 Speaker 2: the right decision, and that was to go work in 57 00:03:20,320 --> 00:03:24,359 Speaker 2: Japan for two weeks, and if I am being entirely 58 00:03:24,440 --> 00:03:28,040 Speaker 2: real with myself, that was really hard on my body. 59 00:03:28,600 --> 00:03:33,079 Speaker 2: I do feel like now, you know, a little over 60 00:03:33,120 --> 00:03:35,680 Speaker 2: a week out, I feel back to being myself. 61 00:03:35,760 --> 00:03:37,680 Speaker 1: But for god, you. 62 00:03:37,640 --> 00:03:40,960 Speaker 2: Know, a better part of the last three four weeks, 63 00:03:41,600 --> 00:03:45,960 Speaker 2: I just haven't been in the place that would be 64 00:03:46,160 --> 00:03:51,680 Speaker 2: ideal for performing how I originally set out to perform 65 00:03:51,960 --> 00:03:57,360 Speaker 2: at this marathon. So Shay referenced me announcing a big 66 00:03:57,360 --> 00:04:00,400 Speaker 2: goal early in my training when I like just that 67 00:04:00,440 --> 00:04:03,800 Speaker 2: I was all in on this. I wanted to run 68 00:04:04,560 --> 00:04:11,160 Speaker 2: faster than my previous Chicago PR which is three twenty 69 00:04:11,160 --> 00:04:13,960 Speaker 2: eight oh eight. I was like, I feel like I 70 00:04:14,080 --> 00:04:19,359 Speaker 2: have this in my soul. I am capable, I am confident. 71 00:04:19,960 --> 00:04:21,960 Speaker 2: Let's do it, like, let's put it all out there. 72 00:04:22,040 --> 00:04:24,000 Speaker 2: And I'm still willing to put it all out there. 73 00:04:24,040 --> 00:04:26,840 Speaker 2: But I remember when I went into New York last 74 00:04:26,920 --> 00:04:29,440 Speaker 2: year and I thought that I could do a certain thing, 75 00:04:30,160 --> 00:04:32,520 Speaker 2: and my goal at the time was I want to 76 00:04:32,560 --> 00:04:35,279 Speaker 2: do this thing, and I also want to have fun. 77 00:04:35,520 --> 00:04:38,320 Speaker 2: And so if I am in pursuit of the thing 78 00:04:38,760 --> 00:04:43,200 Speaker 2: and it stops being mostly fun, then I'm abandoning the goal, 79 00:04:43,520 --> 00:04:48,040 Speaker 2: right And so I feel that way a little bit 80 00:04:48,080 --> 00:04:50,480 Speaker 2: about Chicago. I do think that I can go into 81 00:04:50,520 --> 00:04:53,280 Speaker 2: the pain cave and have a good time. Don't get 82 00:04:53,279 --> 00:04:56,400 Speaker 2: me wrong, I love a good time in the pain cave. 83 00:04:57,279 --> 00:05:01,400 Speaker 2: But I want to I do want to enjoy myself. 84 00:05:01,520 --> 00:05:05,560 Speaker 2: And if that is like being really miserable out there 85 00:05:05,640 --> 00:05:07,960 Speaker 2: because it's just not feeling like it's clicking, then I'm 86 00:05:08,000 --> 00:05:10,159 Speaker 2: gonna pull back and I'm gonna focus on the fun. 87 00:05:10,760 --> 00:05:14,920 Speaker 2: I also went into this marathon training cycle like oh 88 00:05:14,960 --> 00:05:16,400 Speaker 2: my god again. 89 00:05:16,440 --> 00:05:17,880 Speaker 1: I wrote about this in the Weekly Hurdle. 90 00:05:17,960 --> 00:05:23,960 Speaker 2: Like I in May was just in a body that 91 00:05:24,240 --> 00:05:29,600 Speaker 2: I have never been into my life. Marathon training aka 92 00:05:29,839 --> 00:05:33,159 Speaker 2: running four or five days a week and committing to 93 00:05:33,279 --> 00:05:37,000 Speaker 2: strength training and strength training for days a week like that, 94 00:05:37,520 --> 00:05:41,960 Speaker 2: they those are two very different things. And I felt 95 00:05:42,080 --> 00:05:45,040 Speaker 2: really confident in my body at the beginning of. 96 00:05:44,960 --> 00:05:47,400 Speaker 1: This training cycle, and I also feel really. 97 00:05:47,120 --> 00:05:51,240 Speaker 2: Confident in it now and that is the result of 98 00:05:51,279 --> 00:05:53,919 Speaker 2: putting in the work Like that is not something that 99 00:05:54,520 --> 00:05:59,960 Speaker 2: I Gosh, I've just been on this journey for so long, 100 00:06:00,400 --> 00:06:05,240 Speaker 2: and no matter how confident or whatever you see on 101 00:06:05,360 --> 00:06:09,280 Speaker 2: social you know, like I'm on a journey that will 102 00:06:09,320 --> 00:06:12,400 Speaker 2: never end when it comes to being proud of myself 103 00:06:12,440 --> 00:06:15,520 Speaker 2: and body acceptance and like standing strong and who it 104 00:06:15,560 --> 00:06:23,320 Speaker 2: is that I am, and old me would really feel 105 00:06:23,360 --> 00:06:27,520 Speaker 2: like I did something wrong by losing that's kind of 106 00:06:27,560 --> 00:06:29,800 Speaker 2: in air quotes some of the progress that I had 107 00:06:29,839 --> 00:06:32,960 Speaker 2: made earlier this year. I definitely like have lost some 108 00:06:33,240 --> 00:06:37,000 Speaker 2: strength but gained other things in the process of training 109 00:06:37,000 --> 00:06:37,840 Speaker 2: for this marathon, and. 110 00:06:37,839 --> 00:06:41,560 Speaker 1: So it's it's it's a work in progress. 111 00:06:41,920 --> 00:06:44,480 Speaker 2: I'm really proud of myself for how I feel right 112 00:06:44,520 --> 00:06:47,000 Speaker 2: now in my body knowing that. 113 00:06:48,480 --> 00:06:49,680 Speaker 1: One isn't better than the other. 114 00:06:50,120 --> 00:06:53,120 Speaker 2: And I can feel strong and confident in my body 115 00:06:53,560 --> 00:06:55,880 Speaker 2: knowing that this body is going to be the body 116 00:06:55,920 --> 00:06:58,839 Speaker 2: that helps me cross that twenty six point two mile 117 00:06:58,880 --> 00:07:02,760 Speaker 2: finish line next weekend, and it's the same body that 118 00:07:02,839 --> 00:07:07,039 Speaker 2: could do seven pull ups in July. Can I do 119 00:07:07,080 --> 00:07:10,920 Speaker 2: seven pull ups right now? Highly doubtful, Highly doubtful, And 120 00:07:10,960 --> 00:07:14,120 Speaker 2: that is oh okay, now, you know me. I love 121 00:07:14,160 --> 00:07:17,600 Speaker 2: a marathon recop episode, So I do believe that I 122 00:07:17,640 --> 00:07:20,680 Speaker 2: will address a lot of other things in that that 123 00:07:20,840 --> 00:07:23,360 Speaker 2: Shay asked in this But if you have other questions 124 00:07:23,400 --> 00:07:25,920 Speaker 2: or if there is anything else I can talk on, 125 00:07:26,400 --> 00:07:28,040 Speaker 2: you know me. I try to be an open book 126 00:07:28,080 --> 00:07:31,240 Speaker 2: in a way that feels responsible and safe and also 127 00:07:31,400 --> 00:07:35,520 Speaker 2: like safe for me and my boundaries. So yeah, ask 128 00:07:35,560 --> 00:07:38,240 Speaker 2: away again. That email for those is hello at Hurdle 129 00:07:38,280 --> 00:07:40,240 Speaker 2: dot us. You know how to find me. I'm over 130 00:07:40,280 --> 00:07:44,320 Speaker 2: on the socials at Emilyabody and at Hurdle Podcast Another 131 00:07:44,400 --> 00:07:45,760 Speaker 2: Hurdle Conquered. 132 00:07:46,200 --> 00:07:47,360 Speaker 1: Catch you guys next time.