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Speaker 1: For better or for worse, like Alana was always my

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Speaker 1: moral compass, like she was so thoughtful, and.

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Speaker 2: Later in life I kind of came to regret that.

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Speaker 1: It fell unfair, like a lot of pressure.

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Speaker 3: Breaking from overnight.

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Speaker 4: Louisville Pollie are searching for a missing twenty four year

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Speaker 4: old woman.

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Speaker 5: When I read about Alana Shen's disappearance, I couldn't look away.

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Speaker 1: Hi, my name's Alana. And last summer I went to.

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Speaker 5: Campwatiwa, the shy girl from Boulder who loved fashion and camping,

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Speaker 5: who wanted to be a nun since she was a teenager.

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Speaker 1: So Alana was like sneaking out to go to church.

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Speaker 3: Well, I thought was wow, she's really really conservative Catholic.

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Speaker 5: But she kept a secret, one that was slowly tearing

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Speaker 5: her apart.

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Speaker 3: I didn't know she was attracted to girls. No, she

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Speaker 3: didn't tell me.

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Speaker 1: To me, it's like, oh, you're gay, be gay, drop

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Speaker 1: all the church stuff, like.

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Speaker 4: Forget about it.

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Speaker 5: But she couldn't forget about it, and neither could I.

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Speaker 5: I too was torn apart by the struggle in my

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Speaker 5: quest to become a priest. But though I'd never met her,

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Speaker 5: I'd soon discover we had even more in common.

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Speaker 2: Rjnversents Addie Wuharto said, down with her family and Addie,

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Speaker 2: they tell you they believe conversion therapy played a role.

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Speaker 4: We believe that homosexuality is a symptom of early childhood trauma.

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Speaker 4: We're not forcing people to change, We're just exploring.

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Speaker 6: The mother says her daughter first opened up to a

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Speaker 6: priest at her church when she was just fourteen years old. However,

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Speaker 6: the church denies any conversion therapy was done.

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Speaker 3: She didn't tell me, she told him, she confessed to him.

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Speaker 5: From Tenderfoot TV comes a story of teenage rebellion and

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Speaker 5: spiritual manipulation, the price we pay to belong, and the

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Speaker 5: systems that pay no price at all. I'm Simon kent

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Speaker 5: Fung and this is Dear Alana. Listen for free on

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