WEBVTT - Out Of Body Experience

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<v Speaker 1>Welcome to The Hidden Gin, a production of I Heart

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<v Speaker 1>Radio and Grimm and Mild from Aaron Minkey. Hi, and

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<v Speaker 1>welcome to this very special bonus series of The Hidden Gin.

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<v Speaker 1>The interviews. In these episodes, you'll hear me talk to

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<v Speaker 1>people from all walks of life who have had GIN experiences,

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<v Speaker 1>are drawn to the stories of Gin, and draw lessons

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<v Speaker 1>from these stories. You'll hear from artists, scholars, writers, journalists,

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<v Speaker 1>and Gin exorcists, and even from me as I discuss

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<v Speaker 1>how and why this series came about in a very

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<v Speaker 1>personal conversation with my husband. Thanks for listening and enjoy.

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<v Speaker 1>I am so excited for this conversation this week because

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<v Speaker 1>I'm getting to have a really fun conversation with a

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<v Speaker 1>good friend of mine, somebody I love and admire, um,

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<v Speaker 1>and somebody who's kind of like a co conspirator in

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<v Speaker 1>the true crime space, UM, and somebody I'm a fan of.

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<v Speaker 1>Patrick Heinz Patrick Hynes. For those of you know who

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<v Speaker 1>Patrick is. You probably discovered him on his incredibly popular

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<v Speaker 1>podcast called True Crime Obsessed. But Patrick has been in

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<v Speaker 1>the podcast business way longer than that. He was podcasting

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<v Speaker 1>back in two thousand and thirteen, well before everybody else was.

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<v Speaker 1>He was the founder of the Theater Podcast Productions, and

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<v Speaker 1>he's also the creator, co producer and host of The

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<v Speaker 1>Theater People Podcast, a very cool podcast featuring full length

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<v Speaker 1>interviews of Tony Winners of Broadway Legends and today's brightest

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<v Speaker 1>theater stars. Now, since then, Patrick has moved on into

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<v Speaker 1>the true crime space, really just taking it over with

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<v Speaker 1>True Crime Obsessed, his co host Jillian Pensylvali and his

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<v Speaker 1>fairly new show called Obsessed with Disappeared Um, which I

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<v Speaker 1>love both of them. I follow them religiously to my

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<v Speaker 1>favorite shows. But we're not gonna be talking about true

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<v Speaker 1>crime today. Well okay, maybe just a little bit. We

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<v Speaker 1>will be talking about some some some intersections between true

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<v Speaker 1>crime and the supernatural world. We're gonna be talking about

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<v Speaker 1>the fact that Patrick, throughout his whole life, has experienced

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<v Speaker 1>all kinds of really interesting, supernatural and unexplicable phenomenon. Every

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<v Speaker 1>time he's talked about this online, I'm like just wrapped.

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<v Speaker 1>And I was like, when I started this podcast, I said,

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<v Speaker 1>you know what, I gotta talk to Patrick about all this,

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<v Speaker 1>and I also got to tell them all about the

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<v Speaker 1>gin because he knows nothing about them. So let's do

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<v Speaker 1>this let's talk to maybe one of my favorite people

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<v Speaker 1>in all of podcasting, Patrick Hines. Hi and welcome Patrick.

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<v Speaker 1>Thank you so much for joining me this week. Hi,

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<v Speaker 1>my love, it's it's so good to be your face.

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<v Speaker 1>Like I know, I was just gonna say that, I

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<v Speaker 1>get to like sit in my little studio and actually

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<v Speaker 1>I get to look at your glorious beauty. High you

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<v Speaker 1>know what I gotta say, Listeners, I'm sorry you don't

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<v Speaker 1>get to actually witness us. You're gonna get the audio,

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<v Speaker 1>but we get to see each other and that's fun.

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<v Speaker 1>And my hair is out of control right now. I

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<v Speaker 1>don't know you should like hang up on me. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>looking at my own hair in this thing, and like

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<v Speaker 1>I have not, I truly not had a haircut. Personal hygiene,

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<v Speaker 1>personal hygiene in the time of quarantine, personal grooming. It's

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<v Speaker 1>all optional. My eyebrows are about to grow together. At

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<v Speaker 1>least about the one eyebrow. You would have the most

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<v Speaker 1>glorious unit one you would make it cheat, I would say,

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<v Speaker 1>the face mask would really you know, like highlight it. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>that's but thank you so much again. And I know

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<v Speaker 1>here's the thing, this is the this is the fun

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<v Speaker 1>thing for me. Because Patrick was like, how do I

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<v Speaker 1>prepare for this? I was like, no, no, no, just

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<v Speaker 1>come on, I'm gonna And the other thing is that Patrick,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, I think nothing about this project and nothing

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<v Speaker 1>with the subject. But there's a reason I wanted you on.

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<v Speaker 1>So let me tell you a little bit about what's happening.

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<v Speaker 1>And so you are going to be part of my

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<v Speaker 1>Patreon series that goes along with the main Gin series

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<v Speaker 1>that by the time this airs, has already been airing.

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<v Speaker 1>Um so, do you have any idea what a GIN is? No?

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<v Speaker 1>I think that you and I talked about this, maybe

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<v Speaker 1>even a year ago. Um, when you were like, this

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<v Speaker 1>was beginning to bubble in your brain. Is something you

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<v Speaker 1>might want to do? I feel like it's the word

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<v Speaker 1>folklore comes to mind. But that's as much. That's as

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<v Speaker 1>far as I've got. Okay, So let me tell you

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<v Speaker 1>a little bit about the world of jin. Of course

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<v Speaker 1>you better be listened to my podcast by time. Are

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<v Speaker 1>you kidding? Already pre subscribed? Awesome? Um? So basically, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>So the realm of Gin is there's tons of folklore

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<v Speaker 1>and legend and stories and like the but it's actually

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<v Speaker 1>much deeper than that because it's a tied to scripture.

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<v Speaker 1>It's tied to Jewish picture even and it's even pre

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<v Speaker 1>it's even pre Jewish Muslim Christian scripture, like the Jin

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<v Speaker 1>are referred to like forty times in the Muslim scripture.

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<v Speaker 1>Like that's how serious we take it, Like we're like, wow,

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<v Speaker 1>these things are real, and it is a huge universe

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<v Speaker 1>of them. I mean forget like any kind of like

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<v Speaker 1>Marvel universe of characters. Like, it's a huge universe of jin.

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<v Speaker 1>There's a million of them. Everybody has their personal one.

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<v Speaker 1>Is what You've got one with you right now. It's

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<v Speaker 1>gonna born and die with Yeah. Yeah, they're freaky um,

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<v Speaker 1>and so there's Jewish demonology tied with it. Then it

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<v Speaker 1>goes all the way back to antiquity like in Babylonia

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<v Speaker 1>and Assyria and like they were worshiped at one time.

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<v Speaker 1>It's freaking But the way that people who believe in

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<v Speaker 1>the Gym think about them is that they're kind of

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<v Speaker 1>responsible all this phenomenal. We can't figure out ghosts and

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<v Speaker 1>crop circles and whatever. It's it's it's all we all

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<v Speaker 1>just categorize it as, oh, it's a jin, it's a

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<v Speaker 1>gin ff thing with us whatever. Oh, I love it.

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<v Speaker 1>So when you told me you've had multiple like supernatural experiences,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm like, in my head, I'm like, oh that's Jim

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<v Speaker 1>Patrick has no idea. I give mess mugin. That's so interesting.

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<v Speaker 1>I when you say that they're born with you and

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<v Speaker 1>they die with you. I I've always felt that it's

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<v Speaker 1>it's weird. It's like, you know, I felt like you

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<v Speaker 1>have some presents or something. Yeah. Yeah, Like I think

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<v Speaker 1>about the handful of like supernatural experiences I've had in

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<v Speaker 1>my life are like probably number in like the eight

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<v Speaker 1>to ten. You know that's good. That's a lot. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>Well one is happening right now. Girl. I So we're

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<v Speaker 1>at our office and we have this door that we

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<v Speaker 1>like our office has a couple of different rooms in it,

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<v Speaker 1>and there's this door that keeps opening by itself, and

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<v Speaker 1>it's so it's just it's so freaky and like there's

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<v Speaker 1>no it's just the door. It's not like a traditional

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<v Speaker 1>door that you can like close and you hear it

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<v Speaker 1>like lap but like you pull it close. It's kind

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<v Speaker 1>of like a cheap, flimsy door. So maybe there's just

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<v Speaker 1>something wrong with the door, but like you can hear

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<v Speaker 1>it click shut, and then like when you're not looking,

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<v Speaker 1>it just opens by itself. It's very freaky. Well, this

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<v Speaker 1>is this this kind of like the latest phenomena. But I

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<v Speaker 1>want to go I want to like take Patrick back

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<v Speaker 1>to like a little Patrick. Yeah, I want to hear

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<v Speaker 1>about Okay, first of all, were you raised in any

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<v Speaker 1>kind of like a faith tradition or any kind of

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<v Speaker 1>like any kind of tradition that actually would like you know,

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<v Speaker 1>kind of accounts for some of your like ideas around

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<v Speaker 1>these things. Um So, so my mom is a lesbian.

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<v Speaker 1>I was raised in like the lesbian but my mom

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<v Speaker 1>was like a very is a very staunch Christian, and

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<v Speaker 1>she was a Catholic forever. Loved being Catholic. I was

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<v Speaker 1>an ultra boy forever. I really enjoyed it as a

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<v Speaker 1>young person, do I know. I like, I'm a very

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<v Speaker 1>spiritual person. I totally believe in God, but like I'm

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<v Speaker 1>not a religious person at all. And um but my

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<v Speaker 1>mom was very I mean this is a little bit

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<v Speaker 1>like lesbian nineties lesbian style. My mom was very into

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<v Speaker 1>like crystals and energy and go, like, you know, any

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<v Speaker 1>time I had any sort of experience, my mom totally

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<v Speaker 1>believed me, you know, And I would always tell her

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<v Speaker 1>about it. Yeah, yeah, and so like I mean, from

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<v Speaker 1>the time that I was a little kid, I would

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<v Speaker 1>I guess I would say, this sounds so corny, but

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<v Speaker 1>like I would have weird little premonitions, nothing major, but

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<v Speaker 1>I would sort of like a song, Like we'd be

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<v Speaker 1>in the car and like we'd be listening to the

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<v Speaker 1>radio and I'd be humming a song and it would

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<v Speaker 1>be like the next song that would come on or whatever.

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<v Speaker 1>But then I would start having like weird I know,

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<v Speaker 1>I started having weird like not weird, but I started

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<v Speaker 1>having like dreams and sort of like, um, I mean

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<v Speaker 1>when I was in like middle school, high school, I

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<v Speaker 1>would have like out of body experiences sometimes and it

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<v Speaker 1>would be like it was it would be like when

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<v Speaker 1>I would okay, let me ask this. Those out of

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<v Speaker 1>bodies were those something that you like wanted to have

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<v Speaker 1>and ord because look, I had a phase when I

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<v Speaker 1>was younger. Ilse like I heard about this thing and

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<v Speaker 1>I would try to make it happen. It didn't happen

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<v Speaker 1>for me. Yeah, I know, so I I did not

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<v Speaker 1>want it to happen. I wanted it to not happen.

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<v Speaker 1>And I had a couple of bouts of sleep paralysis,

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<v Speaker 1>which I don't know if you know about this, but

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<v Speaker 1>like like there were there were a condful of times

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<v Speaker 1>when I was like, you know, I would say probably

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<v Speaker 1>fourteen or fifteen, where I always took naps in the

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<v Speaker 1>afternoon because I would come home from school and then

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<v Speaker 1>I would have like drama club at like six o'clock,

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<v Speaker 1>so I would like take a nap in between. I

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<v Speaker 1>know it's such a little theater gay um, but like

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<v Speaker 1>I would that would be the time, like if I

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<v Speaker 1>was to have an out of body experience, it would

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<v Speaker 1>be then. And I remember one time experiencing this about

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<v Speaker 1>of like sleep paralysis where I was awake but completely

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<v Speaker 1>unable to move, and I saw things in my room,

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<v Speaker 1>like I saw like there was a woman who was

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<v Speaker 1>wearing like it looked like like almost like colonial garb,

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<v Speaker 1>like floating in my room. And I don't know if

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<v Speaker 1>it has to do with like puberty. I've read some

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<v Speaker 1>stuff that like that that that like that there is

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<v Speaker 1>something about that. But I remember talking to my mom

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<v Speaker 1>about this stuff. At the time. I saw a ghost

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<v Speaker 1>around the same time. It was not a scary experience,

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<v Speaker 1>but like I shared a room with my brother and

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<v Speaker 1>I remember waking up in the middle of the night

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<v Speaker 1>and there was this woman dressed sort of as a

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<v Speaker 1>nun that was sort of standing at the top of

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<v Speaker 1>our stairs, um in the like in the like in

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<v Speaker 1>the I don't know what you call that, like at

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<v Speaker 1>the top of the stairs. And I could see it

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<v Speaker 1>out of my bedroom. It wasn't scary. She came into

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<v Speaker 1>the room and like said, I know. She came into

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<v Speaker 1>the room and sat down on my brother's bed, and

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<v Speaker 1>for some reason, I was not scared, and she sort

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<v Speaker 1>of motioned for me to like lie back down, and

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<v Speaker 1>I did, and she started like stroking my brother's hair.

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<v Speaker 1>I know. But I remember talking to my mom about

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<v Speaker 1>this stuff, and my mom was saying, She's like, I

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<v Speaker 1>think that you're like a sensitive person like you you

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<v Speaker 1>experienced these things that she was saying, if you want

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<v Speaker 1>this to stop, you have to pray about it. You

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<v Speaker 1>have to pray and ask the universe or whatever God

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<v Speaker 1>you believe in to make it stop. And I did,

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<v Speaker 1>and it did, you know, it did for the most part.

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<v Speaker 1>I do think. I think um and and people do

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<v Speaker 1>believe like the veil for some is thinner right because

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<v Speaker 1>you are open to the possibility but you're also much

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<v Speaker 1>more sensitive and receptive to everything that's happening around you,

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<v Speaker 1>and you're willing to understand it in a certain way.

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<v Speaker 1>It's like how some people can actually be hypnotized for

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<v Speaker 1>real and some people dust cannot. We were just looking

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<v Speaker 1>about this yesterday. Is hypnotis real? Is that? Is it real? Yeah? Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>it can. It can absolutely truly be used. I know

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<v Speaker 1>it sounds so crazy, but people have been able to

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<v Speaker 1>retrieve memories, real memories, actual like memories that I have,

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<v Speaker 1>like corroborated memories, verified that they couldn't before. Or they've

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<v Speaker 1>been able to remember even details like in criminal cases

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<v Speaker 1>of crimes or something. But it doesn't work for everybody.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, you know, obviously our brains one of these

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<v Speaker 1>big old sponges. They see everything and hear stuff, and

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<v Speaker 1>it's it's in there somewhere. We just can't read it right,

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<v Speaker 1>because when you hear people under hypnosis and their voices

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<v Speaker 1>sound different, it's so creepy. Yeah. Now, I've talked to

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<v Speaker 1>people who have been hypnotized, and for for the for

0:11:41.880 --> 0:11:44.439
<v Speaker 1>the people who worked like I've tried to get hypnotized

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<v Speaker 1>because I was like I want to do this. It

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<v Speaker 1>didn't work for me because I was just too hyper

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<v Speaker 1>aware of you know, It's like it's like wanting it

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<v Speaker 1>to happen, wanting it to work. Yeah, I can't relax

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<v Speaker 1>in a bath because I'm like, you know, I'm sit

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<v Speaker 1>there and I'm like too hyper aware of everything that's

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<v Speaker 1>going on. My brain won't shut off. But I have

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<v Speaker 1>talked to people who really did experience it for real

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<v Speaker 1>and where it was able to help them act three um,

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<v Speaker 1>like through some therapy scenarios and stuff. So okay, so

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<v Speaker 1>I want to talk a lot. So you said it stopped,

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<v Speaker 1>So then like, for what month of your filthhood you

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<v Speaker 1>didn't experience it or what happened? I would say that

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<v Speaker 1>I felt more in control of it, you know what

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<v Speaker 1>I mean? Like I would say that like when I

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<v Speaker 1>was a kid, especially around my puberty years, like between

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<v Speaker 1>the ages of twelve to fifteen or sixteen, I feel

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<v Speaker 1>like this stuff was happening all the time, and it

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<v Speaker 1>felt like scary to me. And I kind of like

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<v Speaker 1>your brother too, or your mother too, or anybody else

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<v Speaker 1>in the family or just do do you know? That's

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<v Speaker 1>such an interesting question. I I have never we've never

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<v Speaker 1>talked about it. I would imagine that my mom, I

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<v Speaker 1>don't know, I've never God, Robbie, I'm now having this

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<v Speaker 1>realization of like, wow, a little bit self possessed, Arni

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<v Speaker 1>Patricks that like, you love to share these stories, but

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<v Speaker 1>you've never asked your own family if they've None of

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<v Speaker 1>my family has ever come up and said like any

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<v Speaker 1>like anything like this has ever happened to them, Because

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<v Speaker 1>I feel like your mom's response is almost the kind

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<v Speaker 1>of response that somebody would have if if they get it,

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<v Speaker 1>like they're like, oh yeah, yeah, like I totally yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, you know, my mom has always said that

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<v Speaker 1>her mother, who I never I guess I met her

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<v Speaker 1>when I was very very young, but I don't have

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<v Speaker 1>any memories of her. But she lived in Manhattan, and

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<v Speaker 1>I live in Manhattan. My mom's mom was like a

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<v Speaker 1>New Yorker, like you know, like loved New York and

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<v Speaker 1>the whole thing. My mom says that she feels like

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<v Speaker 1>her mother is like with me. So when you said that,

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<v Speaker 1>like they're born with you and they die with you

0:13:34.720 --> 0:13:38.520
<v Speaker 1>like that, that sort of struck me. Like I feel

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<v Speaker 1>like my my grandmother, who I've never met, I feel

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<v Speaker 1>like she is with me sometimes, Like there are times

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<v Speaker 1>that I I went to a medium once and had

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<v Speaker 1>like a reading and she was like, yeah, her Ruth,

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<v Speaker 1>like she said her name, and I was like, oh

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<v Speaker 1>my god, it's true. And she's like you should talk

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<v Speaker 1>to her, like you should talk to her because like

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<v Speaker 1>that makes it stronger, you know, don't know. Yeah, I

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<v Speaker 1>talked to her. She's probably in this room high room.

0:14:01.120 --> 0:14:05.680
<v Speaker 1>Hey girl opening the door in the other room. Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>So okay, the gosh well hopefully when I mean ruthe

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<v Speaker 1>but but okay, so the Ruth might be with you,

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<v Speaker 1>but there might be something else with you too. So

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<v Speaker 1>the gym that's born with you and dies with you,

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<v Speaker 1>that's like your own personal thing. But the ghost phenomena

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<v Speaker 1>of people like lingering with us, that's also. God I've seen,

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, I've seen people who have passed like in

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<v Speaker 1>my dreams that are so real that I just know

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<v Speaker 1>it's really I know they're actually talking to me. This

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<v Speaker 1>is not like me making stuff. That's how it really is. Totally. Yes,

0:14:36.520 --> 0:14:39.320
<v Speaker 1>I've said this recently. It was so funny. I was

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<v Speaker 1>we were when when the COVID first happened, before any

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<v Speaker 1>lockdowns or anything like that happened. My husband and my

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<v Speaker 1>daughter and I left the city because we knew that

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<v Speaker 1>they were gonna lock down Manhattan. We don't we live

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<v Speaker 1>in eight square feet. We're like, we gotta get out

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<v Speaker 1>of here. We don't have a yard, like our kids

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<v Speaker 1>got to be able to play outside. So we left.

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<v Speaker 1>We got a cabin in Massachusetts and I had I

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<v Speaker 1>had a ghost sighting there and it was just super

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<v Speaker 1>super boring ghost sighting. But I mentioned it that sounds

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<v Speaker 1>really like that. It's not even possible. You can not

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<v Speaker 1>have a super boring ghost sighting. Girl, This ghost was asleep.

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<v Speaker 1>It was so it was like, I'll tell you the

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<v Speaker 1>story in a second. But like I mentioned it on

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<v Speaker 1>True Crime Obsessed and somebody heard it and this lady

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<v Speaker 1>called me and asked me if she could interview me

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<v Speaker 1>about it, and I thought it was just for a blog,

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<v Speaker 1>and it ended up being for a story for the

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<v Speaker 1>New York Times. So I have told this now and

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<v Speaker 1>then I got a million interview request about it. I've

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<v Speaker 1>told the story like ten million times in the last

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<v Speaker 1>two months. But it was, um oh, I am very

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<v Speaker 1>concerned that I missed that story. How did that happen? Okay, Oh,

0:15:38.520 --> 0:15:41.040
<v Speaker 1>it's a fascinating story. It's all about people who are

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<v Speaker 1>seeing like ghosts in quarantine and like is it real

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<v Speaker 1>or are we all just like going crazy? Look that up. Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>it's really interesting. I mean, like, this was the thing

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<v Speaker 1>where I just woke up at like two in the

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<v Speaker 1>morning and I went to get a glass of water,

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<v Speaker 1>and as I was walking to like into the kitchen,

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<v Speaker 1>I noticed that there was like a person sitting at

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<v Speaker 1>the at the kitchen table, like an older man and

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<v Speaker 1>like a like an old school military uniform. And in

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<v Speaker 1>my brain it's sort of like made sense to me

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<v Speaker 1>because it wasn't our house, and I was like, oh,

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<v Speaker 1>this is like his house. And and then when I

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<v Speaker 1>sort of realized what was happening, I looked over and

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<v Speaker 1>I saw him and he had his head down on

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<v Speaker 1>his chest. He looked like he was asleep, and then

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<v Speaker 1>all of a sudden, he was just gone, Oh my gosh,

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<v Speaker 1>what God. And Julian said, Jillian my coast said to me,

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<v Speaker 1>go through the photo albums in the house and see

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<v Speaker 1>if you can find anybody who looks like him. But

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<v Speaker 1>I realized they have a whole family tree wall in

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<v Speaker 1>their house, and I went and looked at it, and

0:16:30.720 --> 0:16:32.840
<v Speaker 1>it goes all the way back, and I didn't really

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<v Speaker 1>see the ghost face, so I don't know what he

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<v Speaker 1>looks like. But I saw all these men from like

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<v Speaker 1>the twenties that looked like in these military uniforms, which crazy.

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<v Speaker 1>So I just have to know how the rest of

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<v Speaker 1>that night played out. Did you just get your water

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<v Speaker 1>and go back to bed, like, oh, well, I literally like, oh,

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<v Speaker 1>I just saw a ghost and then I went and

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<v Speaker 1>I almost didn't tell Steve, my husband, about it the

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<v Speaker 1>next day. It was such a non occurrence that I

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<v Speaker 1>almost didn't mention it. And I told him, And of

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<v Speaker 1>course Steve doesn't believe in any of this stuff. It's like, no,

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<v Speaker 1>Steve is the most like you know, you're born and

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<v Speaker 1>then you're you know, yeah, you're born and you die.

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<v Speaker 1>Guy out there, you just not believe in any of it.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh my gosh. It's tough to live with someone because

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<v Speaker 1>you know what, then the other person is like, oh,

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<v Speaker 1>you're just like some crazy conspiracy theorist. But I'm glad

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<v Speaker 1>you're making your marriage work despite this difference. But okay,

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<v Speaker 1>but even before you went out to this, I feel

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<v Speaker 1>like an old cabin in um in Matthews makes sense

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<v Speaker 1>to me, like that's where like if you're gonna find

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<v Speaker 1>like lingering spirits, that's gonna be there. But you've had

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<v Speaker 1>experiences like in flipp in Manhattan, right like in your

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<v Speaker 1>in your home. I'm trying to think about them, uh,

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<v Speaker 1>experience with Daisy or something. Oh yes, in our Okay.

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<v Speaker 1>So we've moved several times in the last couple of years.

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<v Speaker 1>But our first apartment that we lived in with Daisy day,

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<v Speaker 1>I never saw anything in this apartment but Daisy. We

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<v Speaker 1>would hear Daisy as like a two year old talking

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<v Speaker 1>to somebody, like literally, and then and then we and

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<v Speaker 1>we would like here on the baby monitor, and then um,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm trying one day, and then she started talking about

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<v Speaker 1>the man. She started talking about the man in her room.

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<v Speaker 1>So she would say, like, Daddy, the man woke me

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<v Speaker 1>up this morning. And I would say, which man, the

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<v Speaker 1>man that lives in my room? Daddy, the man that

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<v Speaker 1>lives in my room? I know, I know, Okay, Okay.

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<v Speaker 1>The debaby baby monitor have like was it a video monitor? No?

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<v Speaker 1>And that was the thing that we we had debated

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<v Speaker 1>getting and I was sort of like, I kind of

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<v Speaker 1>can't handle the idea of like seeing her talking to

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<v Speaker 1>like that would just scare the ship out of me.

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<v Speaker 1>And I can't handle that. But you could hear her talking, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>so what do you do, Like George, don't really make

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<v Speaker 1>like real like they don't make like, you know, real sentences.

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<v Speaker 1>But she's responding, yeah, totally. And she would talk about

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<v Speaker 1>the man, the man that lived in her room, and

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<v Speaker 1>it was just like, oh my god. And you know

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<v Speaker 1>she six now and like I don't remember anything from

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<v Speaker 1>when I was two, she still talks about that apartment,

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<v Speaker 1>in that room, like there was she had some sort

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<v Speaker 1>of connection to it. Does she remember the man she

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<v Speaker 1>talked to? I haven't asked her about that in a

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<v Speaker 1>long time. I should ask her. I don't want to

0:19:13.280 --> 0:19:16.000
<v Speaker 1>scare her because now she would understand better, but I

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<v Speaker 1>should ask her about that. Well, what did she tell

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<v Speaker 1>you about the man? What did she have to say

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<v Speaker 1>about him? She would say, not a lot. I remember that,

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<v Speaker 1>like she would he would be there like when the

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<v Speaker 1>lights were off, like it was never when the lights

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<v Speaker 1>were on, and we never, like you can't get like,

0:19:37.000 --> 0:19:39.840
<v Speaker 1>Daisy is not one to Daisy is not a woman

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<v Speaker 1>of many words as it is, so as soon as

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<v Speaker 1>you she senses that you're trying to get information out

0:19:44.840 --> 0:19:48.040
<v Speaker 1>of her, she just completely clams up. So yeah, it

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<v Speaker 1>was it was always just more like, oh, the man

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<v Speaker 1>woke me up this morning, and it was something. It

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<v Speaker 1>wasn't like a thing that happened all the time. I

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<v Speaker 1>remember she probably said that like once or twice, and

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<v Speaker 1>it was like, oh my god, so did Steve. What

0:19:59.000 --> 0:20:02.399
<v Speaker 1>does Steve think? She's just loot any dream? Like he

0:20:02.560 --> 0:20:05.200
<v Speaker 1>just doesn't pay any attention to it. He's just like whatever,

0:20:05.280 --> 0:20:08.439
<v Speaker 1>She's just she's just talking, you know. Well, so let

0:20:08.480 --> 0:20:10.320
<v Speaker 1>me ask you this. If the nun didn't scare you,

0:20:10.440 --> 0:20:12.520
<v Speaker 1>was there ever? I'm guessing the sleep paralysis was kind

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<v Speaker 1>of frightening. That was terrifying. That was terrifying because I

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<v Speaker 1>knew I was awake and I couldn't move Like that

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<v Speaker 1>is positive you were awake. I mean, I guess I

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<v Speaker 1>would say I remember it so vividly now and I

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<v Speaker 1>remember in the moment, so it didn't right now, I'm

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<v Speaker 1>awake and like I'm very awake, right, but like it

0:20:32.840 --> 0:20:36.760
<v Speaker 1>didn't feel like this, But it definitely I never had

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<v Speaker 1>words for it until very recently. I feel like sleep

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<v Speaker 1>roalysis became a thing that people started talking about maybe

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<v Speaker 1>five or six years ago. So before that, I just

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<v Speaker 1>was like I was awake and I couldn't move. And

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<v Speaker 1>it wasn't like I came out of it. It was

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<v Speaker 1>like I kind of I guess I went back to

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<v Speaker 1>sleep and then I woke up. It wasn't like I

0:20:55.640 --> 0:20:57.159
<v Speaker 1>can't move, I can't move, I can't move it now

0:20:57.200 --> 0:21:01.639
<v Speaker 1>I can't move. Um, it was I I can't move

0:21:01.760 --> 0:21:04.840
<v Speaker 1>and that is terrifying. And there is a woman hovering

0:21:04.960 --> 0:21:09.520
<v Speaker 1>in my room. And so I never knew about When

0:21:09.560 --> 0:21:12.160
<v Speaker 1>I learned about sleep prosis and I learned I heard

0:21:12.200 --> 0:21:15.800
<v Speaker 1>other people's stories about it, it was similar where it

0:21:15.880 --> 0:21:17.920
<v Speaker 1>was like things that you would be having nightmares about,

0:21:17.920 --> 0:21:20.400
<v Speaker 1>but they're actually like they look real and they're in

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<v Speaker 1>your space. And I was like, I have that experience.

0:21:23.440 --> 0:21:26.639
<v Speaker 1>I I that happened to me. We'll be right back

0:21:26.680 --> 0:21:30.439
<v Speaker 1>after the short break. One of the one of the

0:21:30.480 --> 0:21:33.040
<v Speaker 1>episodes I do talk about sleep paralysis and actually how

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<v Speaker 1>common it is. And what's interesting is it's a phenomena

0:21:38.200 --> 0:21:41.639
<v Speaker 1>that's like experienced in every culture and every point in history.

0:21:41.800 --> 0:21:44.840
<v Speaker 1>It's been documented forever um and it's a it's very

0:21:44.880 --> 0:21:49.000
<v Speaker 1>everybody's experiences are really similar. What what is actually the

0:21:49.040 --> 0:21:51.800
<v Speaker 1>only usual difference is like kind of the cultural context.

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<v Speaker 1>So people are seeing things that makes sense to them.

0:21:54.320 --> 0:21:58.280
<v Speaker 1>So you might not see, for example, um, like a

0:21:58.320 --> 0:22:00.639
<v Speaker 1>creature from Zimbabwe, right because it's that makes sense in

0:22:00.640 --> 0:22:03.560
<v Speaker 1>your cultural right right there, you're gonna see, Yeah, you're

0:22:03.560 --> 0:22:05.320
<v Speaker 1>gonna see what would what would make sense to you

0:22:05.320 --> 0:22:09.280
<v Speaker 1>and scare you accordingly, Oh that's so interesting. Has that

0:22:09.320 --> 0:22:12.240
<v Speaker 1>ever happened to you? It has not. Um, I feel

0:22:12.280 --> 0:22:14.399
<v Speaker 1>like maybe I'm I don't know, maybe I need to

0:22:14.440 --> 0:22:16.840
<v Speaker 1>like soften my edges or something like I want, I

0:22:16.960 --> 0:22:20.399
<v Speaker 1>want to expect. I've had some experiences that are definitely

0:22:21.040 --> 0:22:23.639
<v Speaker 1>I feel like they're supernatural. Now, Susan Simpson, who's my

0:22:24.359 --> 0:22:27.400
<v Speaker 1>attorney in my colleague on Disclosed, is like somebody broke

0:22:27.440 --> 0:22:28.920
<v Speaker 1>into your house and did X Y Z and you

0:22:28.960 --> 0:22:30.520
<v Speaker 1>just never knew it. And I'm like, no, I don't

0:22:30.520 --> 0:22:33.080
<v Speaker 1>think that was what happened. I would imagine that Susan

0:22:33.119 --> 0:22:35.600
<v Speaker 1>Simpson is not a believer, And like, I feel like

0:22:35.640 --> 0:22:39.000
<v Speaker 1>Susan Simpson and Steve are very similar. Probably yeah, they're

0:22:39.080 --> 0:22:40.600
<v Speaker 1>very Yeah, you kind of if if I can see,

0:22:40.640 --> 0:22:42.679
<v Speaker 1>if I can touch it, I can understand it. Whatever.

0:22:43.160 --> 0:22:46.280
<v Speaker 1>But but I believe it's kind of like, you know,

0:22:46.280 --> 0:22:47.840
<v Speaker 1>one of the things I say, like you said at

0:22:47.840 --> 0:22:49.159
<v Speaker 1>the top of the show. You like at the top

0:22:49.200 --> 0:22:50.800
<v Speaker 1>of the episode you said, you know, I believe in God.

0:22:51.000 --> 0:22:52.520
<v Speaker 1>It's like if you believe in God, then it's like

0:22:52.520 --> 0:22:54.159
<v Speaker 1>where are your lines? Like you can't kind of be

0:22:54.160 --> 0:22:55.560
<v Speaker 1>like I believe in God, but I don't believe that

0:22:55.680 --> 0:22:57.880
<v Speaker 1>X Like if you can believe in something that kind

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<v Speaker 1>of fantastical, like why can't you leave in other things? Could?

0:23:01.480 --> 0:23:04.399
<v Speaker 1>I know? And I love that, Like I love the

0:23:04.560 --> 0:23:07.600
<v Speaker 1>freedom to think different things on different days, you know

0:23:07.600 --> 0:23:12.359
<v Speaker 1>what I mean, Like I think that like I definitely yeah, yeah,

0:23:12.359 --> 0:23:16.399
<v Speaker 1>Like I definitely believe in God. I want to believe

0:23:16.440 --> 0:23:19.800
<v Speaker 1>that there's some sort of afterlife, but like do I

0:23:19.880 --> 0:23:22.840
<v Speaker 1>believe in like heaven? That seems weird, you know what

0:23:22.880 --> 0:23:26.200
<v Speaker 1>I mean? Like, oh that's interesting. Okay, that's a whole show.

0:23:26.840 --> 0:23:29.600
<v Speaker 1>I know, I know, I know, because like if there's

0:23:29.600 --> 0:23:32.000
<v Speaker 1>an afterlife but there's nowhere to go, what do you

0:23:32.160 --> 0:23:34.879
<v Speaker 1>do just hang around? I know and think some people

0:23:34.920 --> 0:23:36.920
<v Speaker 1>get stuck here and where you know what I mean,

0:23:37.080 --> 0:23:40.120
<v Speaker 1>Like you would think that by now Like the other

0:23:40.200 --> 0:23:42.320
<v Speaker 1>like the counter to it is that like if there

0:23:42.520 --> 0:23:45.280
<v Speaker 1>was like a god in a heaven and like an afterlife.

0:23:45.440 --> 0:23:47.280
<v Speaker 1>You would think they're somebody would have been able to

0:23:47.320 --> 0:23:49.640
<v Speaker 1>prove it by now, don't you think. I mean only

0:23:49.680 --> 0:23:51.199
<v Speaker 1>the dead can prove. I mean like how do you

0:23:51.400 --> 0:23:53.600
<v Speaker 1>how do you don't know? I mean so okay, so

0:23:53.680 --> 0:23:56.919
<v Speaker 1>for me the whole I mean, that's why it's called faith, right,

0:23:56.960 --> 0:23:58.960
<v Speaker 1>Like you do you have to believe in something you can't,

0:23:58.960 --> 0:24:00.960
<v Speaker 1>you have no way to bear FI. Although I'd say

0:24:00.960 --> 0:24:04.320
<v Speaker 1>people who have had near life or near death experiences

0:24:04.359 --> 0:24:08.880
<v Speaker 1>excuse me, um, almost always come back with like if

0:24:08.920 --> 0:24:11.640
<v Speaker 1>they were not believers in something supernatural, they come back

0:24:11.800 --> 0:24:13.800
<v Speaker 1>as because they have a very and they all have

0:24:13.880 --> 0:24:16.120
<v Speaker 1>very similar of course, scientists are like, well that's your

0:24:16.119 --> 0:24:19.160
<v Speaker 1>brain breaking down that tunnel of light and yeah, I mean,

0:24:19.200 --> 0:24:22.080
<v Speaker 1>look if that's what the afterlife is, and um, but

0:24:22.160 --> 0:24:24.840
<v Speaker 1>it's hard for me to believe that outside of my

0:24:24.960 --> 0:24:28.760
<v Speaker 1>physical body, that I don't exist in another way like yeah, yeah,

0:24:28.880 --> 0:24:31.359
<v Speaker 1>that's what's hard to And I'll tell you, like I've

0:24:31.520 --> 0:24:35.560
<v Speaker 1>definitely experienced the I want to hear the auto body experiences. Hello,

0:24:35.560 --> 0:24:38.879
<v Speaker 1>so you have experienced it. Yeah, It's it's hard to

0:24:38.920 --> 0:24:43.639
<v Speaker 1>say because like I've never had the experience of like

0:24:44.080 --> 0:24:47.000
<v Speaker 1>floating out my window and like over this like now

0:24:47.000 --> 0:24:49.760
<v Speaker 1>I'm flying through the city. Like when you when I'm

0:24:49.800 --> 0:24:52.640
<v Speaker 1>awake and I think about out of body experiences, that's

0:24:52.720 --> 0:24:55.359
<v Speaker 1>kind of the the experience you want to have. And

0:24:55.440 --> 0:24:57.119
<v Speaker 1>it was one of the things when I was younger.

0:24:57.680 --> 0:24:59.960
<v Speaker 1>I would experience it when I was taking a nap.

0:25:00.040 --> 0:25:02.440
<v Speaker 1>It was never like at night when I was going

0:25:02.480 --> 0:25:05.119
<v Speaker 1>to sleep. You know, there was something about the taking

0:25:05.119 --> 0:25:07.480
<v Speaker 1>of a night and it would either be when I

0:25:07.520 --> 0:25:09.280
<v Speaker 1>was right when I was falling asleep or right when

0:25:09.280 --> 0:25:11.040
<v Speaker 1>I was waking up. I mean, have you ever heard

0:25:11.080 --> 0:25:14.040
<v Speaker 1>that experience when you're you're either trying to fall asleep

0:25:14.119 --> 0:25:15.400
<v Speaker 1>or you're just about to wake up, and you feel

0:25:15.440 --> 0:25:17.520
<v Speaker 1>like you're falling in like you kind of get that

0:25:17.760 --> 0:25:20.200
<v Speaker 1>sensation of following that's never happened to you, never happened

0:25:20.240 --> 0:25:22.439
<v Speaker 1>to me. I have a I have my weird in

0:25:22.560 --> 0:25:25.280
<v Speaker 1>that twilight whatever I call it, like twilight between sleep

0:25:25.280 --> 0:25:29.400
<v Speaker 1>and awake experiences. I always hear a door slam um,

0:25:29.440 --> 0:25:31.320
<v Speaker 1>and it's terrifying because I don't know if it's real

0:25:31.480 --> 0:25:34.359
<v Speaker 1>or not real, if somebody's somebody's outside, like you know,

0:25:34.720 --> 0:25:37.479
<v Speaker 1>that's my That's what I I've never had the falling experience,

0:25:37.480 --> 0:25:40.280
<v Speaker 1>but that's what interesting. So I've felt that, But I've

0:25:40.359 --> 0:25:45.160
<v Speaker 1>also had the experience of being asleep or being almost

0:25:45.160 --> 0:25:48.720
<v Speaker 1>asleep and starting to feel that separation. People are gonna

0:25:48.760 --> 0:25:51.520
<v Speaker 1>think I'm crazy, but starting to feel that separation of

0:25:51.600 --> 0:25:54.640
<v Speaker 1>like coming out of my body. And I remember when

0:25:54.640 --> 0:25:58.280
<v Speaker 1>I was younger really fighting it, being like, uh, like

0:25:58.320 --> 0:26:01.880
<v Speaker 1>it's so scary and you don't wanted to happen. And

0:26:02.000 --> 0:26:04.480
<v Speaker 1>oh recently, I would say, this happened to me while

0:26:04.520 --> 0:26:06.880
<v Speaker 1>I was living in my current apartment. We've been there

0:26:06.920 --> 0:26:10.520
<v Speaker 1>for about two years. I remember having the experience of

0:26:10.560 --> 0:26:14.000
<v Speaker 1>being like, okay, like let this happen, like let's see

0:26:14.040 --> 0:26:19.680
<v Speaker 1>what happens. Yeah, and sort of feeling that sort of

0:26:19.720 --> 0:26:23.040
<v Speaker 1>like coming out of my body and sort of I

0:26:23.160 --> 0:26:26.639
<v Speaker 1>expected it to feel like, Okay, now I'm floating around

0:26:26.640 --> 0:26:29.800
<v Speaker 1>my apartment and it wasn't that. It was much more

0:26:29.920 --> 0:26:33.000
<v Speaker 1>of like a blackness, just sort of like a like

0:26:33.080 --> 0:26:36.159
<v Speaker 1>a like a different like turn around and look at

0:26:36.200 --> 0:26:38.480
<v Speaker 1>your body, see or you know. I've never had that

0:26:38.560 --> 0:26:42.080
<v Speaker 1>experience that would be fucking terrifying to me, Like I

0:26:42.080 --> 0:26:46.199
<v Speaker 1>I would not enjoy that. This was more feeling that

0:26:46.280 --> 0:26:49.199
<v Speaker 1>sort of separation, feeling like I was out of my

0:26:49.280 --> 0:26:51.880
<v Speaker 1>body but not but not being able to see anything,

0:26:51.960 --> 0:26:55.679
<v Speaker 1>just sort of like a black haze of like you know,

0:26:55.840 --> 0:26:58.920
<v Speaker 1>sort of atmosphere. That's but but it was a really

0:26:58.960 --> 0:27:02.119
<v Speaker 1>like a sensation head But did you fall did you

0:27:02.119 --> 0:27:04.639
<v Speaker 1>fall asleep after that or did you wake up? Yes? No,

0:27:04.840 --> 0:27:07.359
<v Speaker 1>I fell asleep after that today. I mean there are

0:27:07.480 --> 0:27:10.560
<v Speaker 1>lots there are lots of stories about people who report

0:27:10.680 --> 0:27:13.960
<v Speaker 1>like being in surgery or having something procedure. I was

0:27:13.960 --> 0:27:15.679
<v Speaker 1>going to ask you about this, Yeah, and then they

0:27:16.400 --> 0:27:19.040
<v Speaker 1>say they want they could see that, and and the

0:27:19.080 --> 0:27:21.320
<v Speaker 1>things that they report seeing the doctors like, well, they

0:27:21.320 --> 0:27:23.560
<v Speaker 1>couldn't have known that because they were Like so there

0:27:23.600 --> 0:27:26.000
<v Speaker 1>was one doctor I was reading about who actually put

0:27:26.119 --> 0:27:30.280
<v Speaker 1>markers on the like somewhere on the gurney or whatever

0:27:30.320 --> 0:27:32.600
<v Speaker 1>they were on that you would not be able to

0:27:32.640 --> 0:27:35.440
<v Speaker 1>see just by like lying there, so that you would

0:27:35.440 --> 0:27:37.760
<v Speaker 1>have to have like you would have like to say,

0:27:37.800 --> 0:27:40.320
<v Speaker 1>like oh, like the letter R is written on like

0:27:40.359 --> 0:27:43.160
<v Speaker 1>the wherever, and like the only way you could know

0:27:43.200 --> 0:27:44.720
<v Speaker 1>that would be like if you actually came out of

0:27:44.720 --> 0:27:47.080
<v Speaker 1>your body and side like that makes totally like being

0:27:47.160 --> 0:27:50.040
<v Speaker 1>in surgery. That makes total sense. To me, you know that,

0:27:50.160 --> 0:27:52.880
<v Speaker 1>like you would have that sort of well you know,

0:27:53.200 --> 0:27:55.280
<v Speaker 1>I mean to me, Okay, maybe it's not scientific evidence,

0:27:55.359 --> 0:27:57.119
<v Speaker 1>but there it's evidence I feel like of something like

0:27:57.200 --> 0:27:59.520
<v Speaker 1>how how would somebody how had you explained somebody being

0:27:59.560 --> 0:28:02.879
<v Speaker 1>able to do that unless there's a consciousness that is

0:28:02.920 --> 0:28:06.320
<v Speaker 1>separate from the actual physical body. But anyway, after this,

0:28:06.400 --> 0:28:08.399
<v Speaker 1>basically nobody's gonna believe anything I do or say, So

0:28:08.560 --> 0:28:10.359
<v Speaker 1>I understand what they say with me, say with me.

0:28:10.400 --> 0:28:12.960
<v Speaker 1>I know, I know, I know. Let me ask you this. So,

0:28:13.000 --> 0:28:14.879
<v Speaker 1>you you mentioned that you went to a medium, and

0:28:14.920 --> 0:28:17.080
<v Speaker 1>I've heard you bring up mediums a number of times

0:28:17.080 --> 0:28:20.320
<v Speaker 1>in UM two Crib Obsess and also Obsessed with Disappeared,

0:28:20.320 --> 0:28:22.520
<v Speaker 1>because you know, I listened to both those shows. I

0:28:22.560 --> 0:28:24.359
<v Speaker 1>can't believe you listen to both of these shows. Oh

0:28:24.359 --> 0:28:26.960
<v Speaker 1>my god, you guys like you don't understand how many

0:28:27.040 --> 0:28:29.600
<v Speaker 1>dark Knights you've gotten me through. And some times I

0:28:29.640 --> 0:28:33.080
<v Speaker 1>love you guys. So and I've heard you bring up

0:28:33.080 --> 0:28:34.879
<v Speaker 1>me because I love it, because you kind of dangle

0:28:34.920 --> 0:28:36.360
<v Speaker 1>it out there because you want your like co host

0:28:36.440 --> 0:28:38.040
<v Speaker 1>to be like totally jump on and be like yeah, yeah,

0:28:38.040 --> 0:28:41.480
<v Speaker 1>I mean, but but then you cut it back off. Yeah, yeah, yeah,

0:28:41.640 --> 0:28:44.440
<v Speaker 1>the whole thing. Like my my issue with like psychics.

0:28:44.800 --> 0:28:46.920
<v Speaker 1>I totally believe in psychics, but like I feel like

0:28:46.960 --> 0:28:49.640
<v Speaker 1>they always come out of the woodwork when there's like

0:28:49.640 --> 0:28:51.560
<v Speaker 1>like a like a known like when there's some sort

0:28:51.560 --> 0:28:53.840
<v Speaker 1>of like high profile case or whatever, and I feel

0:28:53.840 --> 0:28:55.680
<v Speaker 1>like it always leads to like a dive team of

0:28:55.680 --> 0:28:57.760
<v Speaker 1>twelve people dredging a lake and it costs the town

0:28:57.920 --> 0:29:01.640
<v Speaker 1>eight million dollars and it's a wee resources. But I

0:29:01.680 --> 0:29:05.000
<v Speaker 1>went to see um. I went to see a medium

0:29:05.080 --> 0:29:08.080
<v Speaker 1>who was a friend of our friend Laura Bricker when

0:29:08.080 --> 0:29:12.320
<v Speaker 1>I went to like yeah, yeah, yeah, I can't think

0:29:12.320 --> 0:29:15.040
<v Speaker 1>of Susan. Susan Gorman I think is her name. And

0:29:15.360 --> 0:29:18.120
<v Speaker 1>I went to see her and we had this really

0:29:18.200 --> 0:29:22.400
<v Speaker 1>cool session like it was. It was I got a

0:29:22.400 --> 0:29:23.840
<v Speaker 1>lot out of it. And she was one that like

0:29:23.920 --> 0:29:28.000
<v Speaker 1>knew my grandmother's name. It was weird. Wow, But had

0:29:28.080 --> 0:29:30.080
<v Speaker 1>you it wasn't the only time you've ever gone to

0:29:30.080 --> 0:29:33.800
<v Speaker 1>a medium? I think? So, I think it was. I

0:29:33.800 --> 0:29:35.360
<v Speaker 1>mean it's the kind of thing I would go all

0:29:35.400 --> 0:29:39.080
<v Speaker 1>the time, you know, it's just never think to do it. Yeah. Yeah,

0:29:39.080 --> 0:29:41.520
<v Speaker 1>it's like I don't get time for the manicure pedicure,

0:29:41.600 --> 0:29:45.040
<v Speaker 1>but you know, you know you want to get I'm

0:29:45.040 --> 0:29:48.600
<v Speaker 1>always fascinated when I hear stories about law enforcement themselves

0:29:48.640 --> 0:29:51.480
<v Speaker 1>reaching out to mediums. I'm like, that's a bold move

0:29:51.520 --> 0:29:54.040
<v Speaker 1>and you're realized putting yourself out there for some criticism

0:29:54.080 --> 0:29:55.960
<v Speaker 1>to be able to do. And I'm like, I want

0:29:55.960 --> 0:29:58.120
<v Speaker 1>to hear a story of like a case being solved

0:29:58.120 --> 0:30:00.560
<v Speaker 1>by a medium. Like if if law enforcement is reaching

0:30:00.560 --> 0:30:03.360
<v Speaker 1>out that often, there must be cases out there where

0:30:03.400 --> 0:30:09.680
<v Speaker 1>they've really helped. Well, there there's a new podcast. I know. Look,

0:30:09.800 --> 0:30:12.760
<v Speaker 1>inter section, the intersection between true crime and the supernatural?

0:30:12.840 --> 0:30:16.040
<v Speaker 1>Is this getting more and more clear here? Um? Totally? So?

0:30:16.560 --> 0:30:19.840
<v Speaker 1>Well do you, um, have you had a truly other

0:30:19.880 --> 0:30:21.320
<v Speaker 1>than the out of body experience? Have you had a

0:30:21.360 --> 0:30:24.160
<v Speaker 1>truly terrifying experience with what you think might be like

0:30:24.240 --> 0:30:30.320
<v Speaker 1>a malevolent spirit or something. No, I've never had that.

0:30:30.600 --> 0:30:33.920
<v Speaker 1>Let me think for just a second. No, I mean

0:30:34.720 --> 0:30:37.320
<v Speaker 1>there was so there when I where I was when

0:30:37.400 --> 0:30:38.920
<v Speaker 1>I was growing up. I grew up in this like

0:30:39.320 --> 0:30:43.240
<v Speaker 1>subdivision on Cape Cod and we had a pond. Uh,

0:30:43.280 --> 0:30:44.920
<v Speaker 1>there was like woods behind my house and then there

0:30:44.960 --> 0:30:48.520
<v Speaker 1>was a pond and there was a man who died

0:30:48.560 --> 0:30:51.920
<v Speaker 1>by suicide on one of the trees down there when

0:30:51.960 --> 0:30:54.240
<v Speaker 1>I was growing up, he took his own life. He

0:30:54.520 --> 0:30:59.560
<v Speaker 1>hanged himself, and for years, I mean for decades, the

0:30:59.680 --> 0:31:03.520
<v Speaker 1>rope was still there, and I know, I mean it's

0:31:03.560 --> 0:31:07.280
<v Speaker 1>just the rope that was tied around the like, yeah,

0:31:07.360 --> 0:31:10.240
<v Speaker 1>like for some reason, like when they took down the body,

0:31:10.280 --> 0:31:12.560
<v Speaker 1>like they just didn't like cut the rope all the way.

0:31:12.920 --> 0:31:15.520
<v Speaker 1>And there was always I don't know, there was something

0:31:15.560 --> 0:31:18.680
<v Speaker 1>about that area where I knew that man had died

0:31:19.320 --> 0:31:21.320
<v Speaker 1>and it was a place that I was at all

0:31:21.400 --> 0:31:24.840
<v Speaker 1>the time, you know, um that there was something about

0:31:24.880 --> 0:31:27.360
<v Speaker 1>that that area that felt scary to me. I mean,

0:31:27.400 --> 0:31:29.960
<v Speaker 1>obviously a person had died there, so maybe that was

0:31:30.120 --> 0:31:32.800
<v Speaker 1>just it and I was a kid, um, But I've

0:31:32.880 --> 0:31:35.520
<v Speaker 1>never had like, I know, I've never had like I

0:31:35.680 --> 0:31:40.719
<v Speaker 1>really like terrifying you know, like devil encounter or anything

0:31:40.760 --> 0:31:45.520
<v Speaker 1>like that. Have you? Uh No, But my husband was

0:31:45.520 --> 0:31:49.040
<v Speaker 1>convinced when I started like researching and scripting for this show.

0:31:49.080 --> 0:31:51.360
<v Speaker 1>He's like, we are totally a hundred be possessed now,

0:31:51.360 --> 0:31:57.920
<v Speaker 1>Like so far, other than like items being moved mysteriously,

0:31:58.000 --> 0:32:00.640
<v Speaker 1>nothing has happened. So I guess we're okay. I use

0:32:00.680 --> 0:32:03.360
<v Speaker 1>somebody who I use somebody who loves like horror and Halloween,

0:32:03.480 --> 0:32:08.680
<v Speaker 1>and I do. I like horror movies. I will say that, like,

0:32:08.760 --> 0:32:12.760
<v Speaker 1>since I became the father of a little girl, it's

0:32:12.760 --> 0:32:15.200
<v Speaker 1>sort of changed the way that I watched pop culture

0:32:15.280 --> 0:32:18.240
<v Speaker 1>or stuff, because I feel like I didn't for some reason.

0:32:18.320 --> 0:32:20.719
<v Speaker 1>I'm just a bad feminist and I didn't realize that,

0:32:20.800 --> 0:32:24.280
<v Speaker 1>like the way women are treated and abused in these

0:32:24.360 --> 0:32:28.200
<v Speaker 1>like for entertainment in these films is just like unwatchable

0:32:28.240 --> 0:32:31.000
<v Speaker 1>to me now. Um So that's something that's become more

0:32:31.040 --> 0:32:32.960
<v Speaker 1>clear to me, Like since I've been a dad, which

0:32:33.000 --> 0:32:34.720
<v Speaker 1>is stupid. You shouldn't need to have a daughter to

0:32:34.880 --> 0:32:38.640
<v Speaker 1>like recognize that women aren't being treated very well. Um

0:32:38.720 --> 0:32:41.640
<v Speaker 1>but I do like horror movies. I do like things

0:32:41.720 --> 0:32:44.320
<v Speaker 1>that scare me, but I get very scared, Like I

0:32:44.360 --> 0:32:47.040
<v Speaker 1>get very don't like jump out of the closet scenes.

0:32:47.400 --> 0:32:53.000
<v Speaker 1>Do you believe in the Devil? No? Really? Yeah, yeah,

0:32:53.040 --> 0:32:54.720
<v Speaker 1>I was just thinking about that because I was thinking

0:32:54.720 --> 0:32:56.920
<v Speaker 1>about how like I don't believe in possession. I don't

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<v Speaker 1>think that's a real thing. Any thing is happening there,

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<v Speaker 1>like mental illness her. Yeah, I mean, like all of

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<v Speaker 1>the possession stuff I've seen. I'm sorry, Catholics, forgive me.

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<v Speaker 1>I was one of you once. It feels very much

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<v Speaker 1>like an opportunity for like priests to hit women like

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<v Speaker 1>you always see these women like tied to chairs or

0:33:15.200 --> 0:33:19.840
<v Speaker 1>women tied to beds and just horribly abused, like you know,

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<v Speaker 1>watch a documentary like there's one. Um, there's a documentary

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<v Speaker 1>that we covered a couple of years ago called The

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<v Speaker 1>Devil and Father a mort Um and it was about

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<v Speaker 1>this possession of this woman in Italy and it was

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<v Speaker 1>they abused this woman. I mean, crazy story. I hated

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<v Speaker 1>watching it and so I don't know. I don't I

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<v Speaker 1>don't think I do believe in the devil. Now you

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<v Speaker 1>made me saying it out loud, Robi, what's gonna happen

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<v Speaker 1>to me? Now? It's okay, Ruth will protect you. Yeah, alright, Well,

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<v Speaker 1>I don't want to take up any more of your time.

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<v Speaker 1>But also this is a really fun conversation and I've

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<v Speaker 1>been thinking about it. I've been thinking about this for

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<v Speaker 1>a while because every time you something up and I

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<v Speaker 1>love that whenever you like post about it or tweet

0:34:02.920 --> 0:34:05.600
<v Speaker 1>about or anything, like, all your listeners are like totally

0:34:05.840 --> 0:34:07.479
<v Speaker 1>they're lined up with you man, they have your they

0:34:07.480 --> 0:34:11.360
<v Speaker 1>have your back. I know we have the most like

0:34:11.520 --> 0:34:14.479
<v Speaker 1>loyal listeners. Oh my god. I love that they'll follow

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<v Speaker 1>you anywhere, including into the general and Patrick, I know,

0:34:17.400 --> 0:34:19.839
<v Speaker 1>I can't wait. You guys were recording this like long

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<v Speaker 1>before your podcast is out. I cannot wait to hear it. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I can't wait for you to hear it too. It's

0:34:23.920 --> 0:34:25.040
<v Speaker 1>gonna be a lot of fun and thank you again.

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<v Speaker 1>I can't wait for our listeners to hear this conversation because, Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>you're just a good dear friend. And I think both

0:34:30.239 --> 0:34:32.080
<v Speaker 1>of us, both of us kind of like a very

0:34:32.080 --> 0:34:33.840
<v Speaker 1>sensitive these kinds of things. I know, like for me,

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<v Speaker 1>like I can't go to places like Alcatraz. I can't

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<v Speaker 1>go to places where I know people have suffered because

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<v Speaker 1>I can't. It just had my whole I can feel

0:34:41.560 --> 0:34:45.000
<v Speaker 1>that I feel too much pain in it. Yeah, I

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<v Speaker 1>went to Alcatraz and I actually loved my trip to Alcatraz.

0:34:48.360 --> 0:34:50.799
<v Speaker 1>Really it was weird. The reason I wanted to go

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<v Speaker 1>to Alcatraz is because Matthew Shepard. Do you remember that

0:34:54.320 --> 0:34:57.520
<v Speaker 1>Matthew sheff You know, the gay kid in Wyoming that

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<v Speaker 1>was tied to the fence and beaten to death in

0:34:59.640 --> 0:35:02.360
<v Speaker 1>nineteen of the eight The only really well known pictures

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<v Speaker 1>of him had been taken of him at Alcatraz like

0:35:04.760 --> 0:35:07.680
<v Speaker 1>the year before he was murdered. And so I wanted

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<v Speaker 1>to go and find the places at Alcatraz where he

0:35:10.880 --> 0:35:14.400
<v Speaker 1>had been, and that was I wanted to feel his energy.

0:35:14.440 --> 0:35:16.319
<v Speaker 1>That was kind of why I wanted to go there.

0:35:16.680 --> 0:35:18.840
<v Speaker 1>But he was, I mean, and I found there's a

0:35:18.960 --> 0:35:21.440
<v Speaker 1>these like set of stairs where he had like taken

0:35:21.480 --> 0:35:24.080
<v Speaker 1>some photos and it was kind of like a it

0:35:24.160 --> 0:35:26.279
<v Speaker 1>was a crazy moment to sort of be there and

0:35:26.320 --> 0:35:29.640
<v Speaker 1>be like he stood right here, Like that was crazy. Um,

0:35:29.680 --> 0:35:32.920
<v Speaker 1>But Alcatraz is I'm kind of the opposite. Not that

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<v Speaker 1>I want to go and like revel in a place

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<v Speaker 1>where people have suffered, but I love the idea of

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<v Speaker 1>being in a place where you know something has happened

0:35:40.680 --> 0:35:43.600
<v Speaker 1>and sort of trying to like feel that energy. Like

0:35:43.719 --> 0:35:47.520
<v Speaker 1>I I kind of like I'm drawn to that. Now.

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<v Speaker 1>I completely understand like the the flip side of that,

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<v Speaker 1>because like I really want to visit, Like Ashwitz, I

0:35:54.680 --> 0:35:57.520
<v Speaker 1>really want to visit, I mean, because I want to

0:35:57.520 --> 0:36:01.600
<v Speaker 1>bear witness to the atrocities. Um, I just don't wanna

0:36:02.239 --> 0:36:04.960
<v Speaker 1>it's when it feels like touristy that it's hard for me.

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<v Speaker 1>I think, thank you again, and uh, if you know,

0:36:08.760 --> 0:36:10.440
<v Speaker 1>keep us updated. I want to hear about all your

0:36:10.440 --> 0:36:12.440
<v Speaker 1>gen stories. Keep a look at and if you can

0:36:12.440 --> 0:36:14.400
<v Speaker 1>get a videotape of that door opening and closing in

0:36:14.400 --> 0:36:16.560
<v Speaker 1>your office, I have to see it. Oh my god,

0:36:16.600 --> 0:36:19.840
<v Speaker 1>I totally well, it's terrifying awesome, all right, girl, I

0:36:19.880 --> 0:36:22.040
<v Speaker 1>love you. Thank you for having me. I love you too,

0:36:22.080 --> 0:36:25.400
<v Speaker 1>and thank you for coming on. If you want to

0:36:25.440 --> 0:36:27.759
<v Speaker 1>follow Patrick more because now you love him the way

0:36:27.800 --> 0:36:30.319
<v Speaker 1>I love him, you can follow him online. You can

0:36:30.360 --> 0:36:33.120
<v Speaker 1>find him on Twitter and Facebook. His handle on Twitter

0:36:33.320 --> 0:36:36.840
<v Speaker 1>is at Patrick Kinds. Both of his shows that I

0:36:36.840 --> 0:36:40.040
<v Speaker 1>am just completely obsessed with are called true Crime Obsessed

0:36:40.320 --> 0:36:43.560
<v Speaker 1>and Obsessed with Disappeared hilarious true crime comedies, which I

0:36:43.600 --> 0:36:45.560
<v Speaker 1>know it sounds like it can't happen, but believe me,

0:36:45.800 --> 0:36:47.759
<v Speaker 1>they do it. They do it beautifully, tastefully, and it

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<v Speaker 1>conversation as much as I did. Now, there are as

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<v Speaker 1>many people in the world with jin stories as there

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