1 00:00:02,680 --> 00:00:05,720 Speaker 1: Hey, guys. As you know, Season four of Chigis and 2 00:00:05,840 --> 00:00:08,840 Speaker 1: Chill is officially over, but there are still some things 3 00:00:08,840 --> 00:00:11,120 Speaker 1: I want to talk to you about. That's why over 4 00:00:11,160 --> 00:00:13,319 Speaker 1: the next few weeks, we'll be revisiting some of my 5 00:00:13,440 --> 00:00:16,439 Speaker 1: favorite episodes over the last four seasons. I'll be sharing 6 00:00:16,480 --> 00:00:18,440 Speaker 1: where I am now versus where I was when I 7 00:00:18,480 --> 00:00:21,520 Speaker 1: recorded the episode, and also talk about how I feel 8 00:00:21,520 --> 00:00:24,239 Speaker 1: today compared to how I felt then. I want you 9 00:00:24,280 --> 00:00:26,720 Speaker 1: to think of these episodes as a countdown to something 10 00:00:26,800 --> 00:00:32,320 Speaker 1: completely new, something coming very soon. Be excited. So let's 11 00:00:32,320 --> 00:00:47,440 Speaker 1: do this, shall we? What up? Guys? Back in June 12 00:00:47,640 --> 00:00:51,080 Speaker 1: twenty twenty three, after I had lost a ton of weight, 13 00:00:51,280 --> 00:00:54,120 Speaker 1: I decided to dedicate an entire episode to my journey. 14 00:00:54,760 --> 00:00:57,160 Speaker 1: Many of you had called in for months wanted me 15 00:00:57,240 --> 00:01:00,200 Speaker 1: to share how I was finally able to drop the weight. 16 00:01:00,800 --> 00:01:04,040 Speaker 1: I was very candid and shared procedures and what I 17 00:01:04,120 --> 00:01:06,560 Speaker 1: was doing to lose weight and keep it off. And 18 00:01:06,600 --> 00:01:08,560 Speaker 1: today I want to give you guys an update on 19 00:01:08,680 --> 00:01:11,080 Speaker 1: how I've continued to maintain that weight loss and how 20 00:01:11,080 --> 00:01:16,120 Speaker 1: my relationship with food has changed. Well, I'm no longer 21 00:01:16,120 --> 00:01:19,360 Speaker 1: doing Bunjaro, guys. Just FYI, I know like that's like 22 00:01:19,440 --> 00:01:22,640 Speaker 1: a big thing right now, o zempic and all this stuff. 23 00:01:24,600 --> 00:01:27,920 Speaker 1: I won't get into that. I'll save my opinion, but 24 00:01:28,040 --> 00:01:32,479 Speaker 1: I'm no longer doing it. I am grateful for it, 25 00:01:32,560 --> 00:01:36,800 Speaker 1: but also I'm more grateful that I was able to 26 00:01:36,959 --> 00:01:44,240 Speaker 1: just really find like the control of my portion control. 27 00:01:45,240 --> 00:01:47,640 Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm going to hop it in before we started, 28 00:01:48,240 --> 00:01:50,920 Speaker 2: before we press record, I was just thinking back, like, 29 00:01:51,040 --> 00:01:53,920 Speaker 2: oh my goodness, it took us so long to get 30 00:01:53,960 --> 00:01:57,000 Speaker 2: this episode recorded, but it was so worth it, and 31 00:01:57,080 --> 00:01:59,760 Speaker 2: I think so many people enjoyed listening to it. Everybody 32 00:01:59,760 --> 00:02:03,520 Speaker 2: wanted to note because you went through such a huge transformation, 33 00:02:03,720 --> 00:02:07,080 Speaker 2: not only on the outside, also you know internally, and 34 00:02:07,200 --> 00:02:11,519 Speaker 2: so yeah, I was very happy with this. But you 35 00:02:12,000 --> 00:02:14,840 Speaker 2: talk a lot about portion control I think being a 36 00:02:14,919 --> 00:02:18,840 Speaker 2: huge part of maintenance maybe, and when I think about 37 00:02:19,360 --> 00:02:22,240 Speaker 2: limiting or sort of reducing rather reducing the amount of 38 00:02:22,240 --> 00:02:24,040 Speaker 2: portions that you're eating, it has to do a lot 39 00:02:24,080 --> 00:02:27,120 Speaker 2: with sort of listening to your body, how when you're satisfied, 40 00:02:27,160 --> 00:02:30,200 Speaker 2: when you're full. How long has it taken you to 41 00:02:30,320 --> 00:02:33,200 Speaker 2: kind of really know how much food your body needs? 42 00:02:33,240 --> 00:02:35,280 Speaker 2: Because I feel like, you know, calorie intake is obviously 43 00:02:35,360 --> 00:02:38,359 Speaker 2: a huge part of keeping weight off. But how did 44 00:02:38,400 --> 00:02:40,200 Speaker 2: you really tune into your body? 45 00:02:43,120 --> 00:02:46,639 Speaker 1: It's just the thing. I think it's when your stomach connects. 46 00:02:46,680 --> 00:02:48,200 Speaker 1: It takes a while. First of all, it takes a 47 00:02:48,240 --> 00:02:50,440 Speaker 1: while to get to that point because for a long 48 00:02:50,480 --> 00:02:53,800 Speaker 1: time you're really hungry. Still You're like, oh my gosh, 49 00:02:54,400 --> 00:02:56,000 Speaker 1: I this is what I'm supposed to eat that's on 50 00:02:56,040 --> 00:03:00,640 Speaker 1: my plate. Because I've learned exactly how many carbs, et cetera. 51 00:03:02,240 --> 00:03:05,840 Speaker 1: So it took me a while to really just understand 52 00:03:05,919 --> 00:03:08,600 Speaker 1: when I was full. I didn't get it for a 53 00:03:08,639 --> 00:03:12,280 Speaker 1: long time. It was frustrating in the beginning. Now I 54 00:03:12,440 --> 00:03:17,160 Speaker 1: ask myself, hey, are you fool be like yes, Like 55 00:03:17,560 --> 00:03:21,800 Speaker 1: it's a connection between the mind and the stomach. Sometimes 56 00:03:21,800 --> 00:03:27,360 Speaker 1: I'll just indulge and I know how many calories one 57 00:03:27,480 --> 00:03:31,680 Speaker 1: lica pizza has and I'm like, okay, instead of having two, 58 00:03:31,720 --> 00:03:33,480 Speaker 1: I'm just gonna have one. Or sometimes I'm just like 59 00:03:33,600 --> 00:03:35,400 Speaker 1: f and I'm going to have three today. I can't 60 00:03:35,400 --> 00:03:38,480 Speaker 1: afford it. I worked out, you know, because I think 61 00:03:38,520 --> 00:03:42,800 Speaker 1: that's important. I still like pizza. I love sweets, but 62 00:03:43,480 --> 00:03:46,600 Speaker 1: I don't know's it's taken this amount of like what 63 00:03:46,720 --> 00:03:50,080 Speaker 1: two years I think to like really just understand when 64 00:03:50,120 --> 00:03:52,040 Speaker 1: I'm full, because for a long time I would just 65 00:03:52,080 --> 00:03:52,640 Speaker 1: eat to eat. 66 00:03:54,080 --> 00:03:55,000 Speaker 2: Are you a strut seater? 67 00:03:56,160 --> 00:03:59,640 Speaker 1: I was? Now I'm not. Now I've gone the opposite 68 00:03:59,640 --> 00:04:04,160 Speaker 1: way where it's like, if I'm stressed, I don't really 69 00:04:04,160 --> 00:04:06,560 Speaker 1: have much of an appetite have to force myself to eat. 70 00:04:06,760 --> 00:04:08,920 Speaker 1: This was this is something new, this is something that 71 00:04:08,960 --> 00:04:13,760 Speaker 1: I've been dealing with for a couple months. So yeah, 72 00:04:13,920 --> 00:04:16,800 Speaker 1: I used to before, I would eat if I was sad, 73 00:04:17,600 --> 00:04:21,680 Speaker 1: if I was stressed, if I was happy. Now my 74 00:04:21,800 --> 00:04:24,279 Speaker 1: relationship with food is different because now I see it 75 00:04:24,320 --> 00:04:27,320 Speaker 1: as this is fuel for my body, Like is this 76 00:04:27,600 --> 00:04:31,039 Speaker 1: worth me putting in my body? Now it's different in 77 00:04:31,080 --> 00:04:34,000 Speaker 1: that sense where I'm like, oh, I want these hot cheetos. 78 00:04:34,000 --> 00:04:37,200 Speaker 1: They're really good, but I'm like, they're not that healthy 79 00:04:37,240 --> 00:04:39,880 Speaker 1: for me, you know what I mean? What Pablo you laugh? 80 00:04:39,920 --> 00:04:41,600 Speaker 1: So tell me what are you thinking? No? 81 00:04:41,600 --> 00:04:43,840 Speaker 3: No, no, no, because that's s totally true. But I did 82 00:04:43,839 --> 00:04:47,960 Speaker 3: want to ask you something because Brianna mentioned that at 83 00:04:48,000 --> 00:04:51,240 Speaker 3: the time when we recorded this episode. I think we 84 00:04:51,320 --> 00:04:54,160 Speaker 3: can kind of talked about doing an episode about it. 85 00:04:54,200 --> 00:04:56,200 Speaker 3: And I don't want to say that you were hesitant 86 00:04:56,720 --> 00:04:59,080 Speaker 3: or anything because I don't think you were. But do 87 00:04:59,120 --> 00:05:01,960 Speaker 3: you remember what made you finally say sure, let's talk 88 00:05:02,000 --> 00:05:02,440 Speaker 3: about it. 89 00:05:06,680 --> 00:05:11,880 Speaker 1: I think it was when I started hearing a lot 90 00:05:11,920 --> 00:05:15,800 Speaker 1: of people on Mantaro and Ozembic and it worried me, 91 00:05:17,200 --> 00:05:20,320 Speaker 1: and I wanted to just be honest and say, hey, 92 00:05:20,320 --> 00:05:22,640 Speaker 1: I want to share my story. This, this helped me. 93 00:05:23,800 --> 00:05:29,719 Speaker 1: But then again without knocking anyone, because Gora, you know, 94 00:05:29,839 --> 00:05:32,920 Speaker 1: but I do think of like the long term effects 95 00:05:32,960 --> 00:05:35,160 Speaker 1: of it, Like I'm like, what can happen to your 96 00:05:35,200 --> 00:05:38,800 Speaker 1: body later? I think when you're younger, you can give 97 00:05:38,800 --> 00:05:40,599 Speaker 1: two shits and you're just like, I'm going to do 98 00:05:40,640 --> 00:05:43,360 Speaker 1: whatever I need to do to lose weight. I was there. 99 00:05:43,440 --> 00:05:45,479 Speaker 1: I did it too. I took all the pills and 100 00:05:45,520 --> 00:05:48,720 Speaker 1: all that stuff that affected me later, and I think 101 00:05:48,760 --> 00:05:52,560 Speaker 1: I'm still paying the price for that. Sure, but now 102 00:05:52,760 --> 00:05:56,560 Speaker 1: it would be very difficult for me to make that decision. 103 00:05:56,960 --> 00:05:58,400 Speaker 1: So I think that's why I was like, let me 104 00:05:58,480 --> 00:06:00,159 Speaker 1: share it. I don't want to hide it. I want 105 00:06:00,160 --> 00:06:02,360 Speaker 1: to let people know what it is that I've tried 106 00:06:02,360 --> 00:06:06,479 Speaker 1: and what I did. But I think it did help me. 107 00:06:07,360 --> 00:06:09,919 Speaker 1: The Monjarro helped me. It gave me the booths, it 108 00:06:09,920 --> 00:06:12,800 Speaker 1: gave me the kickstart, but it wasn't until I really 109 00:06:12,839 --> 00:06:15,920 Speaker 1: wrapped my head around, hey, this is how I should 110 00:06:15,920 --> 00:06:18,359 Speaker 1: be eating and this is how I want to treat 111 00:06:18,600 --> 00:06:20,440 Speaker 1: my body more than anything. 112 00:06:21,760 --> 00:06:24,400 Speaker 3: Do you think it gave you like a goal kind 113 00:06:24,480 --> 00:06:28,120 Speaker 3: of thing? You know how sometimes you don't know what 114 00:06:28,200 --> 00:06:32,039 Speaker 3: you're working toward, but you got on that and you 115 00:06:32,240 --> 00:06:35,719 Speaker 3: got to sort of look at yourself, and then after 116 00:06:35,800 --> 00:06:37,840 Speaker 3: you got off, it was that something like, you know what, 117 00:06:37,880 --> 00:06:39,359 Speaker 3: I want to keep that, but I want to do 118 00:06:39,400 --> 00:06:41,039 Speaker 3: it the right way. Do you think it helped in 119 00:06:41,080 --> 00:06:41,440 Speaker 3: that way? 120 00:06:41,880 --> 00:06:47,240 Speaker 1: Yes? Absolutely it did it for sure. Did it help 121 00:06:47,279 --> 00:06:50,560 Speaker 1: me and I was able to feel a little bit like, Okay, 122 00:06:50,600 --> 00:06:53,159 Speaker 1: I feel more comfortable in my skin. So that's why 123 00:06:53,160 --> 00:06:55,280 Speaker 1: it's like I can't knock it completely. But for me, 124 00:06:55,360 --> 00:06:56,520 Speaker 1: I was like, I don't want to be on this 125 00:06:56,640 --> 00:07:01,600 Speaker 1: long term. I need to really feel like even with 126 00:07:01,640 --> 00:07:03,720 Speaker 1: my trainer, for instance, with Cody who we had on 127 00:07:03,760 --> 00:07:06,160 Speaker 1: the podcast, like I stopped working out with him for 128 00:07:06,160 --> 00:07:09,320 Speaker 1: a little while because I like to exercise my willpower, 129 00:07:09,320 --> 00:07:11,640 Speaker 1: I like to exercise my discipline, and I'm like, I 130 00:07:11,680 --> 00:07:15,280 Speaker 1: don't want to depend on anything or anyone. I have 131 00:07:15,360 --> 00:07:18,320 Speaker 1: to do it. I have to get a hold of this, 132 00:07:18,920 --> 00:07:21,200 Speaker 1: you know, so I think that's what it was, but 133 00:07:21,240 --> 00:07:23,440 Speaker 1: it definitely it gave me that boost that I needed 134 00:07:23,440 --> 00:07:25,720 Speaker 1: where I'm like, okay, i've lost weight, like I need 135 00:07:25,760 --> 00:07:27,800 Speaker 1: to maintain this. I need to make sure because after 136 00:07:27,840 --> 00:07:30,080 Speaker 1: that I did, and you know, I've been dabbled, like 137 00:07:30,120 --> 00:07:35,200 Speaker 1: I've been yoyoing with like six seven pounds and I'm like, okay, 138 00:07:35,240 --> 00:07:36,600 Speaker 1: now I'm a little bit better with the scale, and 139 00:07:36,640 --> 00:07:38,920 Speaker 1: I'm like, okay, I need to weigh myself every two 140 00:07:38,920 --> 00:07:40,840 Speaker 1: weeks at least and just say where I'm at, you know, 141 00:07:41,280 --> 00:07:42,520 Speaker 1: to keep myself accountable. 142 00:07:42,960 --> 00:07:45,280 Speaker 2: This is such a great episode. I think we should 143 00:07:45,320 --> 00:07:48,600 Speaker 2: stop talking and let everyone listen to it because it's 144 00:07:48,640 --> 00:07:50,800 Speaker 2: so good. And there's a part one in part two, so. 145 00:07:51,240 --> 00:07:54,480 Speaker 1: Oh yes, okay, guys, yeah check it out. I hope 146 00:07:54,480 --> 00:08:01,280 Speaker 1: you enjoy. I've always loved myself. I've pretty confident, but 147 00:08:01,600 --> 00:08:05,480 Speaker 1: the music career, especially in our Latin culture, the thinner 148 00:08:05,480 --> 00:08:08,120 Speaker 1: you are, the prettier you are, the more accepted you are. 149 00:08:09,200 --> 00:08:12,239 Speaker 1: That's something my mom struggled with and my grandpa would 150 00:08:12,240 --> 00:08:14,600 Speaker 1: always tell her. He would say, so, you know, so 151 00:08:14,600 --> 00:08:16,480 Speaker 1: if you're not going to find a man, and it 152 00:08:16,520 --> 00:08:19,400 Speaker 1: really did. It affected her. We did a part of 153 00:08:19,400 --> 00:08:21,560 Speaker 1: the interview and then on the break he literally looked 154 00:08:21,560 --> 00:08:26,880 Speaker 1: at me and he said, said, you know what he 155 00:08:26,920 --> 00:08:34,480 Speaker 1: told me? He said. I was like, what of guys? 156 00:08:34,520 --> 00:08:36,959 Speaker 1: Happy Monday. I am so glad to be in front 157 00:08:37,000 --> 00:08:39,200 Speaker 1: of the mic today talking to you guys. I think 158 00:08:39,200 --> 00:08:41,360 Speaker 1: this is an episode you guys will really enjoy because 159 00:08:41,400 --> 00:08:43,320 Speaker 1: it's about something I think a lot of us have 160 00:08:43,440 --> 00:08:46,400 Speaker 1: dealt or we'll deal with. I'm going to be opening 161 00:08:46,520 --> 00:08:49,319 Speaker 1: up about how weight loss affects how we think, how 162 00:08:49,360 --> 00:08:51,840 Speaker 1: we feel, and even how people treat us. It's just 163 00:08:51,880 --> 00:08:54,200 Speaker 1: going to be meeting you today, so let's hop into it. 164 00:08:54,320 --> 00:09:03,480 Speaker 1: This is Cheeky's and chill. So, as you guys probably 165 00:09:03,480 --> 00:09:06,360 Speaker 1: know already, weight and body image is something I've dealt 166 00:09:06,360 --> 00:09:10,120 Speaker 1: with my entire life, and as women, I think so 167 00:09:10,200 --> 00:09:13,079 Speaker 1: many of us are taught that our value or self 168 00:09:13,080 --> 00:09:16,200 Speaker 1: worth is tied up to our appearance. How pretty we 169 00:09:16,240 --> 00:09:19,800 Speaker 1: are or how thin we are really matters in our 170 00:09:19,840 --> 00:09:23,080 Speaker 1: culture and in society, and it's annoying. This episode is 171 00:09:23,120 --> 00:09:25,600 Speaker 1: going to be divided into two parts. In this first part, 172 00:09:25,679 --> 00:09:27,920 Speaker 1: I'm going to be talking about my journey all the 173 00:09:27,960 --> 00:09:30,480 Speaker 1: way from the beginning, so let's talk about it. As 174 00:09:30,520 --> 00:09:34,320 Speaker 1: a kid, I was always a little bit overweight since 175 00:09:34,600 --> 00:09:37,120 Speaker 1: like I can remember, I was always thicker than the 176 00:09:37,120 --> 00:09:40,959 Speaker 1: other girls in school. I always struggled with wine clothes. 177 00:09:41,920 --> 00:09:44,920 Speaker 1: I think it started, like where I started really noticing 178 00:09:45,240 --> 00:09:47,959 Speaker 1: was when I was ten years old and I would 179 00:09:47,960 --> 00:09:51,160 Speaker 1: be made fun of and it was just it was tough. 180 00:09:51,360 --> 00:09:55,760 Speaker 1: I want to say that it started when I realized 181 00:09:55,800 --> 00:09:57,880 Speaker 1: that what was happening to me because I was sexually 182 00:09:57,880 --> 00:10:01,200 Speaker 1: abused by my dad was right. Because it started when 183 00:10:01,240 --> 00:10:04,000 Speaker 1: I was eight years old, and at ten, the conversations 184 00:10:04,040 --> 00:10:06,840 Speaker 1: at school started changing with my friends, and I started 185 00:10:06,880 --> 00:10:09,640 Speaker 1: realizing what sex is. And that's where, you know, fifth grade, 186 00:10:10,320 --> 00:10:13,960 Speaker 1: they start talking about sex education and it just started 187 00:10:13,960 --> 00:10:16,600 Speaker 1: like kind of tormenting me, and I started holding on 188 00:10:17,120 --> 00:10:19,880 Speaker 1: to my weight, and that's where it just started, you know, 189 00:10:20,320 --> 00:10:24,360 Speaker 1: spirallling out of control, and it just started, I think, 190 00:10:24,400 --> 00:10:27,640 Speaker 1: getting worse as I got older. My period came when 191 00:10:27,679 --> 00:10:31,560 Speaker 1: I was twelve years old. My body started changing, and 192 00:10:31,600 --> 00:10:33,760 Speaker 1: then it just it's been a thing, you know what 193 00:10:33,760 --> 00:10:35,880 Speaker 1: I mean. So I and I talked to my therapist 194 00:10:35,880 --> 00:10:38,400 Speaker 1: about this and she said, yeah, it's because you weren't 195 00:10:38,480 --> 00:10:40,920 Speaker 1: expressing certain things. So you were holding on to your 196 00:10:40,960 --> 00:10:44,760 Speaker 1: weight as a form of protection. So AnyWho, it's something 197 00:10:44,800 --> 00:10:47,600 Speaker 1: I've been dealing with forever. At home. It was always 198 00:10:47,600 --> 00:10:50,880 Speaker 1: a conversation because my mom also struggled with her weight, 199 00:10:51,240 --> 00:10:53,599 Speaker 1: and it could Yeah, it's it's hereditary, you know what 200 00:10:53,640 --> 00:10:55,840 Speaker 1: I mean. Like it's something that like I think comes 201 00:10:55,840 --> 00:10:59,200 Speaker 1: from my grandfather's side. They're a little bit more, they're 202 00:10:59,240 --> 00:11:01,480 Speaker 1: a little bit more on the heavier side. And so 203 00:11:02,160 --> 00:11:05,199 Speaker 1: that's something my mom struggled with. And my grandpa would 204 00:11:05,240 --> 00:11:07,760 Speaker 1: always tell her, and I know this because she would 205 00:11:07,760 --> 00:11:09,920 Speaker 1: tell me. He would say, so you know best, So 206 00:11:09,920 --> 00:11:11,320 Speaker 1: if you don't lose weight, you're not gonna find a 207 00:11:11,320 --> 00:11:15,520 Speaker 1: man like you. You can't be fat, you can't be 208 00:11:15,840 --> 00:11:19,000 Speaker 1: a goora, you know what I mean. And it really did. 209 00:11:19,080 --> 00:11:21,240 Speaker 1: It affected her. And then she had me at fifteen. 210 00:11:21,320 --> 00:11:25,320 Speaker 1: Imagine her little body because she was fairly like, you know, 211 00:11:25,400 --> 00:11:28,640 Speaker 1: on the thinner side, I guess such at fifteen she 212 00:11:28,720 --> 00:11:31,440 Speaker 1: had me, she got pregnant and she gained eighty pounds. 213 00:11:31,960 --> 00:11:34,480 Speaker 1: That's a lot, and and she just said, oh my god, 214 00:11:34,520 --> 00:11:36,320 Speaker 1: you She would always say, you fucked up my body. 215 00:11:37,080 --> 00:11:39,240 Speaker 1: But I'm like o gage, like my stretch marks came 216 00:11:39,280 --> 00:11:41,760 Speaker 1: like she lost I'm sorry, she gained so much weight, 217 00:11:42,320 --> 00:11:44,760 Speaker 1: and she was she was young, and then four years 218 00:11:44,840 --> 00:11:47,760 Speaker 1: later she had my sister, and you know what I mean. 219 00:11:47,800 --> 00:11:50,040 Speaker 1: So it's something that she struggled with and she didn't 220 00:11:50,080 --> 00:11:52,840 Speaker 1: want us to go through what she had gone through 221 00:11:53,679 --> 00:11:57,960 Speaker 1: and how she felt. So at home, it was always 222 00:11:58,000 --> 00:12:00,640 Speaker 1: like we were on every freaking diet that you can 223 00:12:00,679 --> 00:12:03,679 Speaker 1: think of. It was the Zone diet, it was Adkins, 224 00:12:03,760 --> 00:12:07,280 Speaker 1: it was you know, all these things, and we couldn't 225 00:12:07,280 --> 00:12:10,400 Speaker 1: have fun cereals. We would only have kicks because you know, 226 00:12:10,440 --> 00:12:12,800 Speaker 1: back then we were like on you know, Wick and 227 00:12:12,920 --> 00:12:15,720 Speaker 1: Welfare and food sam so it was like certain stuff 228 00:12:15,720 --> 00:12:18,280 Speaker 1: that we can afford, and it was like, you know, 229 00:12:18,400 --> 00:12:20,760 Speaker 1: at Wick they would give us kicks. So it was 230 00:12:20,840 --> 00:12:23,880 Speaker 1: just a different type of childhood. Like my lunches were different, 231 00:12:24,160 --> 00:12:26,320 Speaker 1: you know, and we had to have non fat milk. 232 00:12:26,760 --> 00:12:29,760 Speaker 1: I mean, imagine being freaking eleven twelve years old and 233 00:12:29,800 --> 00:12:32,400 Speaker 1: it's like, oh, you have to have egg whites and 234 00:12:32,480 --> 00:12:35,680 Speaker 1: tomatoes and a slice of a greape fruit the half 235 00:12:35,720 --> 00:12:39,040 Speaker 1: of a great fruit and non fat milk when all 236 00:12:39,080 --> 00:12:42,920 Speaker 1: your friends are having bacon and freaking pancakes. So it 237 00:12:43,000 --> 00:12:45,240 Speaker 1: was like always a conversation, and it was always like 238 00:12:45,280 --> 00:12:47,400 Speaker 1: you have to work out to the point where I 239 00:12:47,400 --> 00:12:49,160 Speaker 1: think my sisters and I we all feel the same. 240 00:12:49,280 --> 00:12:51,680 Speaker 1: Like Jackie always talks about it. My sister Jackie always 241 00:12:51,679 --> 00:12:54,160 Speaker 1: talks about how my mom sent her to school with 242 00:12:54,200 --> 00:12:57,600 Speaker 1: her lunch in a brown bag and it was a 243 00:12:57,640 --> 00:13:02,080 Speaker 1: can of green beans and tuna and a fork, like 244 00:13:02,160 --> 00:13:05,280 Speaker 1: that's what she had to eat. And she was so embarrassed. 245 00:13:05,320 --> 00:13:06,640 Speaker 1: She didn't even put it like in a cute little 246 00:13:06,640 --> 00:13:08,400 Speaker 1: tupple where she just put it in a bag and said, here, 247 00:13:08,920 --> 00:13:10,360 Speaker 1: open it, and this is what you're going to have. 248 00:13:10,960 --> 00:13:14,480 Speaker 1: And she even sent Jackie and even Jenica for a 249 00:13:14,520 --> 00:13:16,920 Speaker 1: little bit to what they call fat camp literally it's 250 00:13:16,920 --> 00:13:19,840 Speaker 1: called fat camp to lose weight. So it was always 251 00:13:19,920 --> 00:13:22,559 Speaker 1: a conversation and my mom would be like if I 252 00:13:22,600 --> 00:13:24,080 Speaker 1: would eat something, she'd be like, oh my god, you 253 00:13:24,080 --> 00:13:25,760 Speaker 1: know it's going to go straight to your thighs or 254 00:13:25,840 --> 00:13:27,400 Speaker 1: things like that. So it was sick. So in my 255 00:13:27,480 --> 00:13:30,600 Speaker 1: mind anyways, I mean, she she did help me lose weight. 256 00:13:30,720 --> 00:13:32,360 Speaker 1: You know, there was a time when my mom and 257 00:13:32,360 --> 00:13:34,600 Speaker 1: I weren't talking. She sent me to go live at 258 00:13:34,640 --> 00:13:37,240 Speaker 1: my grandma's house. And then when I came back to 259 00:13:37,280 --> 00:13:41,679 Speaker 1: live with her. She put me on this like strict diet, dude, 260 00:13:41,760 --> 00:13:45,440 Speaker 1: like strict diet, and I had to just dance my 261 00:13:45,520 --> 00:13:48,320 Speaker 1: way every day washing clothes in the garage. You know, 262 00:13:48,400 --> 00:13:50,240 Speaker 1: I think I've told you guys the story before, but 263 00:13:50,360 --> 00:13:52,520 Speaker 1: like to lose weight, and she and I did lose weight. 264 00:13:52,520 --> 00:13:55,400 Speaker 1: She was a very good trainer. Like even I want 265 00:13:55,400 --> 00:13:57,400 Speaker 1: to say, I was eleven twelve years old in our 266 00:13:57,440 --> 00:14:01,560 Speaker 1: living room in Long Beach listening to Michael Jackson and 267 00:14:01,600 --> 00:14:04,040 Speaker 1: she would do like a freaking dance class. She was 268 00:14:04,080 --> 00:14:05,840 Speaker 1: so good at dancing. And we would sit there and 269 00:14:05,880 --> 00:14:08,760 Speaker 1: do aerobics and her friends and her and I would 270 00:14:08,800 --> 00:14:10,600 Speaker 1: do it and it was just like a thing. So 271 00:14:10,640 --> 00:14:12,760 Speaker 1: it's something that like our whole family has struggled with 272 00:14:12,880 --> 00:14:14,800 Speaker 1: and it's been something that's been embedded in our in 273 00:14:14,840 --> 00:14:17,400 Speaker 1: our brain. And you guys know that food is such 274 00:14:17,520 --> 00:14:20,200 Speaker 1: a huge part of our culture. It's you go to 275 00:14:20,240 --> 00:14:22,240 Speaker 1: your theas house, to your grandma's house, to anyone's house. 276 00:14:22,360 --> 00:14:23,640 Speaker 1: Is like they want to feed you, and they don't 277 00:14:23,640 --> 00:14:24,880 Speaker 1: want to feed you a little bit, they want to 278 00:14:24,920 --> 00:14:26,520 Speaker 1: feed you a lot because that's the way they show 279 00:14:26,560 --> 00:14:28,600 Speaker 1: that they love you. And then if you don't eat it, 280 00:14:28,680 --> 00:14:30,880 Speaker 1: or you say no sofin then they get kind of 281 00:14:30,960 --> 00:14:34,360 Speaker 1: like hurt. So then you feel like, you know, I 282 00:14:34,400 --> 00:14:37,040 Speaker 1: have to eat it. And well as a Mexican, as 283 00:14:37,040 --> 00:14:39,160 Speaker 1: a Latina, you know, you have your beans and your 284 00:14:39,240 --> 00:14:41,080 Speaker 1: rice and then your protein, and you have tortilla or 285 00:14:41,120 --> 00:14:43,680 Speaker 1: sometimes you have bread. It's like it's a lot of carbs, 286 00:14:44,000 --> 00:14:47,200 Speaker 1: you know. So it's something that in our household, it's 287 00:14:47,200 --> 00:14:48,680 Speaker 1: like here, this is how I'm going to show you 288 00:14:49,200 --> 00:14:54,000 Speaker 1: my love. And also our culture loves to use manteka, 289 00:14:54,520 --> 00:14:56,480 Speaker 1: you know what I mean, instead of using all oil. 290 00:14:56,640 --> 00:14:58,280 Speaker 1: So it's like little things like that throughout the years 291 00:14:58,280 --> 00:15:00,880 Speaker 1: that I've learned that, yeah, the beans are refried, beans 292 00:15:00,880 --> 00:15:04,080 Speaker 1: are delicious with manteka, you know, with lard, but there 293 00:15:04,120 --> 00:15:07,160 Speaker 1: are healthier ways of cooking them, you know. But it's 294 00:15:07,200 --> 00:15:10,240 Speaker 1: it's in our culture. It's part of us, you know. 295 00:15:10,920 --> 00:15:14,960 Speaker 1: And not only that, but I remember hearing from everyone 296 00:15:15,000 --> 00:15:18,240 Speaker 1: in my family that it's like you have to finish 297 00:15:18,320 --> 00:15:20,960 Speaker 1: everything on your plate because there are starving children in 298 00:15:21,000 --> 00:15:24,040 Speaker 1: the world and there are kids that don't have food, 299 00:15:24,160 --> 00:15:26,080 Speaker 1: and you're so lucky, so you need to eat it all, 300 00:15:26,760 --> 00:15:28,720 Speaker 1: you know what I mean. One time, I remember my 301 00:15:28,840 --> 00:15:33,480 Speaker 1: mom made I think it was like, uh, Pierre had 302 00:15:33,560 --> 00:15:36,920 Speaker 1: chicken legs and she made peas and carrots, and I 303 00:15:36,920 --> 00:15:39,320 Speaker 1: think there was white rice. And I didn't really like 304 00:15:39,640 --> 00:15:41,200 Speaker 1: the bone, you know what I mean. Like I was 305 00:15:41,240 --> 00:15:43,680 Speaker 1: more of like, you know, a chicken breast type of girl, 306 00:15:43,720 --> 00:15:46,600 Speaker 1: but the chicken legs are like less expensive. So she 307 00:15:46,640 --> 00:15:49,080 Speaker 1: would make that a lot. And one day I kind 308 00:15:49,080 --> 00:15:50,960 Speaker 1: of like, I was like, I'm just gonna like pretend 309 00:15:51,000 --> 00:15:52,560 Speaker 1: I you know, I ate it, and I threw it 310 00:15:52,560 --> 00:15:56,080 Speaker 1: in the trash ooh. Girl. She made me get it 311 00:15:56,080 --> 00:15:57,520 Speaker 1: out of the trash can and eat it right in 312 00:15:57,520 --> 00:15:58,960 Speaker 1: front of her. She's like, Nope, you're gonna eat it 313 00:15:58,960 --> 00:16:00,480 Speaker 1: all and you're gonna eat your piece in your carrots. 314 00:16:00,520 --> 00:16:02,040 Speaker 1: She made me get it out of the trash can. 315 00:16:02,080 --> 00:16:04,640 Speaker 1: You guys. She's like, you're not gonna throw away food 316 00:16:04,680 --> 00:16:06,960 Speaker 1: in this household. If you don't like it, then you 317 00:16:07,000 --> 00:16:08,920 Speaker 1: need to move out, or you need to give me money. 318 00:16:09,160 --> 00:16:11,400 Speaker 1: And food is expensive and you're not gonna like And 319 00:16:11,440 --> 00:16:12,880 Speaker 1: I was just like I'm like, oh my god, okay, 320 00:16:13,160 --> 00:16:14,240 Speaker 1: you know what I mean. Like I was like, I 321 00:16:14,280 --> 00:16:16,040 Speaker 1: don't like it, said, oh, you can't pick and choose. 322 00:16:16,120 --> 00:16:17,800 Speaker 1: So it was like a thing like it's like you 323 00:16:17,840 --> 00:16:19,760 Speaker 1: eat when mom is making or you don't eat it all. 324 00:16:19,800 --> 00:16:21,360 Speaker 1: And sometimes I wouldn't eat because she's like, Okay, if 325 00:16:21,360 --> 00:16:22,960 Speaker 1: you don't like what I'm making, then you're not gonna eat. 326 00:16:22,960 --> 00:16:24,840 Speaker 1: And I wouldn't eat till the next day dinner time. 327 00:16:31,320 --> 00:16:32,800 Speaker 1: I don't know if I've ever said this out loud, 328 00:16:33,040 --> 00:16:34,920 Speaker 1: or maybe I didn't in my book. I don't remember. 329 00:16:35,120 --> 00:16:37,480 Speaker 1: It's been I have three books, you guys, but people 330 00:16:37,520 --> 00:16:40,880 Speaker 1: always ask me, Okay, did you get liposuction? Have you 331 00:16:40,880 --> 00:16:44,480 Speaker 1: gotten any cosmetic work done? And yes, I have. Before 332 00:16:44,520 --> 00:16:46,000 Speaker 1: I was a little bit more embarrassed to say it 333 00:16:46,000 --> 00:16:47,560 Speaker 1: because it was like frowned upon and it was like, 334 00:16:47,600 --> 00:16:50,080 Speaker 1: oh my god, only celebrities do that. But I had 335 00:16:50,120 --> 00:16:55,720 Speaker 1: my first liposuction when I was eighteen, almost nineteen years old. 336 00:16:56,240 --> 00:16:59,000 Speaker 1: My mom took me to TJ with her doctor Gwen 337 00:16:59,040 --> 00:17:02,240 Speaker 1: Brostro got restless whole. He's no longer alive, but he 338 00:17:02,280 --> 00:17:04,359 Speaker 1: did my mom's libel suction and my mom was so 339 00:17:04,840 --> 00:17:10,720 Speaker 1: like consumed with us looking good, and she's like, you're eighteen, 340 00:17:10,920 --> 00:17:13,840 Speaker 1: you know, we need to like get you more of 341 00:17:13,880 --> 00:17:16,840 Speaker 1: a wast And so she took me at nineteen years old. 342 00:17:16,960 --> 00:17:18,960 Speaker 1: I had no choice. I mean, I guess I did 343 00:17:19,040 --> 00:17:20,479 Speaker 1: have a choice. I could have said no, but it 344 00:17:20,520 --> 00:17:21,920 Speaker 1: was kind of like, no, it's gonna be good for you. 345 00:17:22,000 --> 00:17:26,439 Speaker 1: It was like so celebrated. I guess that. I was like, okay, cool. Yeah. 346 00:17:26,560 --> 00:17:28,440 Speaker 1: So we went and I got my first LiPo section, 347 00:17:28,560 --> 00:17:30,280 Speaker 1: and I loved it. I'm not gonna lie. I was like, 348 00:17:30,280 --> 00:17:32,480 Speaker 1: oh damn all look good. You feel me like it 349 00:17:32,520 --> 00:17:34,480 Speaker 1: was like the first one. So my body was a virgin. 350 00:17:34,600 --> 00:17:36,919 Speaker 1: So it's like that's the best kind of like time. 351 00:17:37,160 --> 00:17:39,199 Speaker 1: I guess to have a liplo section because it just 352 00:17:39,240 --> 00:17:42,080 Speaker 1: comes out so much better. So it did help my 353 00:17:42,119 --> 00:17:45,320 Speaker 1: self esteem. I did feel good. My waist was a 354 00:17:45,400 --> 00:17:48,240 Speaker 1: lot smaller, my arms. I think he did like a 355 00:17:48,280 --> 00:17:49,960 Speaker 1: full like on my back and stuff like that. It 356 00:17:50,000 --> 00:17:52,920 Speaker 1: was like a full, like three sixty type of LiPo section. 357 00:17:53,000 --> 00:17:55,879 Speaker 1: So I was very happy. The only thing is I 358 00:17:55,880 --> 00:17:58,439 Speaker 1: didn't take care of myself. And that's the thing. People think, Oh, 359 00:17:58,480 --> 00:18:01,199 Speaker 1: lipol section is a fur ever fix, and that is 360 00:18:01,240 --> 00:18:04,320 Speaker 1: not the case. If anything, you can ruin the shape 361 00:18:04,320 --> 00:18:06,440 Speaker 1: of your body if you don't take care of yourself, 362 00:18:06,480 --> 00:18:09,360 Speaker 1: because they're removing fat cells from your body that your 363 00:18:09,400 --> 00:18:13,479 Speaker 1: body needs. To survive. So if they remove it from 364 00:18:13,520 --> 00:18:15,879 Speaker 1: your abdomen and your back and your arms, well guess what, 365 00:18:15,920 --> 00:18:17,760 Speaker 1: It's going to go to your legs. And that's exactly 366 00:18:17,800 --> 00:18:21,080 Speaker 1: what happened to me. I at eighteen nineteen, Like I 367 00:18:21,119 --> 00:18:23,840 Speaker 1: was like, okay, whatever, Like you know, I was eating 368 00:18:23,920 --> 00:18:27,280 Speaker 1: freely and yes, you know, my mom try to keep 369 00:18:27,320 --> 00:18:29,240 Speaker 1: us on track, but I mean we're teenagers. I would 370 00:18:29,240 --> 00:18:30,760 Speaker 1: go to school, I was driving, I would go to 371 00:18:30,960 --> 00:18:33,520 Speaker 1: you know, fast food restaurants behind her back and all 372 00:18:33,520 --> 00:18:35,639 Speaker 1: this stuff. So I wasn't taking care of myself and 373 00:18:35,680 --> 00:18:39,440 Speaker 1: I felt comfortable and I felt just content with my body. 374 00:18:39,480 --> 00:18:40,879 Speaker 1: So I'm like, okay, I can eat. So I started 375 00:18:40,880 --> 00:18:43,200 Speaker 1: going to my fingers, to my neck, to my cheeks, 376 00:18:43,560 --> 00:18:47,840 Speaker 1: to my legs, so the fat will go somewhere. Trust me, 377 00:18:48,160 --> 00:18:50,840 Speaker 1: your body is like, okay, you need this amount of 378 00:18:50,840 --> 00:18:53,000 Speaker 1: freaking fat in your body, I'm going to find a 379 00:18:53,080 --> 00:18:56,120 Speaker 1: place to live. And it does even it'll go down 380 00:18:56,119 --> 00:19:00,159 Speaker 1: to your toes. So that's what I learned throughout the 381 00:19:00,240 --> 00:19:03,600 Speaker 1: years and after getting I don't know, I probably have 382 00:19:03,640 --> 00:19:07,920 Speaker 1: gotten three lipel sections, you guys, three okay throughout the 383 00:19:08,000 --> 00:19:09,920 Speaker 1: years because it's like, oh my god, now the fat 384 00:19:09,960 --> 00:19:11,560 Speaker 1: went to my legs. Okay, I want to like kind 385 00:19:11,560 --> 00:19:13,760 Speaker 1: of bring down my thighs now and you know, and 386 00:19:13,840 --> 00:19:15,760 Speaker 1: oh my god, my arms got big again. Do it again. 387 00:19:15,840 --> 00:19:17,879 Speaker 1: So it's like I've done lipel section, but it's like 388 00:19:18,080 --> 00:19:21,000 Speaker 1: now I'm so turned off by LiPo section. Like people 389 00:19:21,000 --> 00:19:23,160 Speaker 1: think that I did lipol section now to lose weight, 390 00:19:23,200 --> 00:19:25,719 Speaker 1: and I did it. I'm cool whatever you want to do. 391 00:19:25,880 --> 00:19:28,720 Speaker 1: I'm a huge advocate for like cosmetic surgery. Do it, 392 00:19:28,800 --> 00:19:30,840 Speaker 1: do your thing, like whatever's going to make you happy. 393 00:19:31,040 --> 00:19:34,000 Speaker 1: But I did not this last time. And honestly, I 394 00:19:34,080 --> 00:19:36,760 Speaker 1: try to just stay away from it because, like I said, 395 00:19:36,840 --> 00:19:39,040 Speaker 1: it can really change your body. And I'm not mad 396 00:19:39,080 --> 00:19:42,440 Speaker 1: at my mom for taking me to get plastic surgery 397 00:19:42,520 --> 00:19:46,000 Speaker 1: so young, but I wish I would have waited, to 398 00:19:46,040 --> 00:19:48,639 Speaker 1: be honest, until I educated myself a little bit more. 399 00:19:49,280 --> 00:19:52,639 Speaker 1: I never really had an eating disorder. I mean, I'm 400 00:19:52,680 --> 00:19:54,320 Speaker 1: the type of person that I eat if i'm happy, 401 00:19:54,640 --> 00:19:56,719 Speaker 1: I eat if i'm sad. I love food. I'm a foodie. 402 00:19:56,800 --> 00:19:59,199 Speaker 1: I love it. It's part of what makes me happy. And 403 00:19:59,240 --> 00:20:01,960 Speaker 1: now that I'm getting more mature, i'm getting older, I'm 404 00:20:01,960 --> 00:20:05,840 Speaker 1: realizing that food should be something that just nourishes our 405 00:20:05,840 --> 00:20:10,520 Speaker 1: body and not see it as something like that. I absolutely, yes, 406 00:20:10,560 --> 00:20:12,479 Speaker 1: I need it, but it's more of like having a 407 00:20:12,480 --> 00:20:16,600 Speaker 1: different type of relationship with food. I did start taking 408 00:20:16,720 --> 00:20:18,080 Speaker 1: like I don't know if you guys remember, I think 409 00:20:18,080 --> 00:20:21,120 Speaker 1: they still have them out there, but hydroxy cut because 410 00:20:21,160 --> 00:20:22,840 Speaker 1: I saw it on a commercial, so I ordered it. 411 00:20:22,880 --> 00:20:24,680 Speaker 1: And I started taking that at a very young age. 412 00:20:24,680 --> 00:20:27,399 Speaker 1: And that also, I think through my body and my 413 00:20:27,480 --> 00:20:29,159 Speaker 1: system through a loop. I was so young. I was 414 00:20:29,200 --> 00:20:32,159 Speaker 1: too young to take that stuff. I must have started 415 00:20:32,280 --> 00:20:35,280 Speaker 1: I don't know, like twenty nineteen something like that. I 416 00:20:35,320 --> 00:20:40,040 Speaker 1: even took like breast growth pills that I saw on TV. Yes, 417 00:20:40,080 --> 00:20:43,359 Speaker 1: I'm that girl the infomercials. I'm that girl that Yes, 418 00:20:44,040 --> 00:20:46,520 Speaker 1: they always get me. So my mom would always make 419 00:20:46,520 --> 00:20:47,800 Speaker 1: fun of me for that. So I would order all 420 00:20:47,880 --> 00:20:51,240 Speaker 1: kinds of stuff and I'm like, I think it really 421 00:20:51,280 --> 00:20:53,760 Speaker 1: did it fucked things up, you know, in my hormones. 422 00:20:53,800 --> 00:20:55,600 Speaker 1: I was taking estrogen for my boops to get bigger 423 00:20:55,600 --> 00:20:57,760 Speaker 1: because I want to figure boobs, Like who does that? 424 00:20:57,880 --> 00:20:59,919 Speaker 1: You know what I mean? And it's all because of 425 00:21:00,080 --> 00:21:01,639 Speaker 1: we see on TV and all this stuff, and now 426 00:21:01,680 --> 00:21:03,960 Speaker 1: with social media, so it's like I feel it's important 427 00:21:03,960 --> 00:21:07,600 Speaker 1: for us to have these conversations, especially in our culture, 428 00:21:07,920 --> 00:21:12,080 Speaker 1: about food and about educating ourselves before doing things, because 429 00:21:12,080 --> 00:21:14,520 Speaker 1: it can really affect us in the long run. I 430 00:21:14,640 --> 00:21:17,400 Speaker 1: never made myself like throw up or anything like that. 431 00:21:17,920 --> 00:21:21,520 Speaker 1: I was just like taking pills and doing even fantomine. 432 00:21:21,680 --> 00:21:23,840 Speaker 1: I did fentramin for a little bit. And all that 433 00:21:23,880 --> 00:21:26,680 Speaker 1: stuff affects you. It really does. And once you stop 434 00:21:26,720 --> 00:21:28,720 Speaker 1: taking it, like the hydroxy cut and the fentermine and 435 00:21:28,720 --> 00:21:30,240 Speaker 1: all that stuff that helps you lose weight really quick, 436 00:21:30,240 --> 00:21:32,000 Speaker 1: because we all want that magic pill that's going to 437 00:21:32,080 --> 00:21:35,119 Speaker 1: do it like this, you know, real fast. Once you 438 00:21:35,119 --> 00:21:38,920 Speaker 1: stop taking it, you are going to be a lot 439 00:21:38,960 --> 00:21:41,920 Speaker 1: heavier than you first started, you know what I mean. 440 00:21:41,960 --> 00:21:44,399 Speaker 1: Like it's going you're gonna get bigger, you know what 441 00:21:44,440 --> 00:21:46,399 Speaker 1: I mean. Like it's just it just happens because your 442 00:21:46,440 --> 00:21:48,639 Speaker 1: body's like, oh my god, where's that thing that drug 443 00:21:48,760 --> 00:21:51,400 Speaker 1: that's helping me feel good and lose weight. And then 444 00:21:51,400 --> 00:21:53,520 Speaker 1: in friend to mean like ooh, let me tell you, 445 00:21:53,600 --> 00:21:57,120 Speaker 1: it made me feel so crazy, jittery, and well, anyways, 446 00:21:57,119 --> 00:21:59,200 Speaker 1: that's all stuff that happened before my singing career, you 447 00:21:59,240 --> 00:22:01,280 Speaker 1: know what I mean. I did all this crazy stuff 448 00:22:02,440 --> 00:22:05,080 Speaker 1: before my thinking career. I think I did the first 449 00:22:05,080 --> 00:22:09,480 Speaker 1: two light bul sections before I was twenty six. 450 00:22:09,320 --> 00:22:09,680 Speaker 3: I think. 451 00:22:11,040 --> 00:22:14,399 Speaker 1: And then I started singing at like what twenty seven, 452 00:22:15,400 --> 00:22:25,720 Speaker 1: and that was a whole other situation. I never had 453 00:22:25,720 --> 00:22:28,280 Speaker 1: an issue no matter how big I was or how 454 00:22:28,280 --> 00:22:30,400 Speaker 1: small I was. I think the lightest I've ever been 455 00:22:30,800 --> 00:22:32,400 Speaker 1: was when my mom put me on that diet when 456 00:22:32,400 --> 00:22:34,640 Speaker 1: I was what fifteen, when I moved back with her, 457 00:22:34,840 --> 00:22:36,919 Speaker 1: I was one hundred and twenty eight pounds. That was 458 00:22:36,920 --> 00:22:38,679 Speaker 1: like the lightest I've ever been, I think in my life. 459 00:22:38,760 --> 00:22:41,280 Speaker 1: Besides when I was like six. The last time I 460 00:22:41,280 --> 00:22:42,600 Speaker 1: was a size six was like when I was six 461 00:22:42,720 --> 00:22:44,159 Speaker 1: years old. You guys, right now, I can tell you 462 00:22:44,240 --> 00:22:45,800 Speaker 1: I'm a size six, but we'll get into that later. 463 00:22:46,000 --> 00:22:49,360 Speaker 1: So AnyWho, I never had an issue finding someone. I 464 00:22:49,680 --> 00:22:52,560 Speaker 1: you know, I always had a boyfriend or talking to someone, 465 00:22:52,840 --> 00:22:54,959 Speaker 1: even when I was younger at school, you know, sixteen 466 00:22:54,960 --> 00:22:58,679 Speaker 1: seventeen years old, and so I never really thought like, Okay, 467 00:22:58,720 --> 00:23:02,679 Speaker 1: I know I'm a little thicker than everyone else around me, 468 00:23:02,800 --> 00:23:05,680 Speaker 1: like a lot of girls my age, but when I 469 00:23:05,760 --> 00:23:08,720 Speaker 1: really notice, oh man, okay, well I guess I'm a 470 00:23:08,760 --> 00:23:11,240 Speaker 1: lot bigger than I think. I am because when I 471 00:23:11,280 --> 00:23:15,960 Speaker 1: started singing and I started doing reality obviously television makes 472 00:23:15,960 --> 00:23:18,879 Speaker 1: you gain at least ten pounds more, if not more 473 00:23:19,000 --> 00:23:22,880 Speaker 1: than ten pounds. I just started getting a lot of criticism, 474 00:23:23,440 --> 00:23:27,840 Speaker 1: like a lot of people just talking crap on television 475 00:23:28,520 --> 00:23:32,720 Speaker 1: on social media, and it really just started affecting me, 476 00:23:32,760 --> 00:23:35,800 Speaker 1: and I started like, I started seeing myself differently. Like 477 00:23:35,840 --> 00:23:39,320 Speaker 1: I've always loved myself. I've always been pretty confident. I 478 00:23:39,359 --> 00:23:41,720 Speaker 1: mean sometimes I was like, by myself, I think I'd 479 00:23:41,720 --> 00:23:43,240 Speaker 1: probably be like, oh man, I wish this was a 480 00:23:43,280 --> 00:23:45,600 Speaker 1: little different, you know what I mean or whatever. But 481 00:23:46,560 --> 00:23:49,960 Speaker 1: the music career, it's like, especially you guys, that's another 482 00:23:50,040 --> 00:23:53,680 Speaker 1: thing in our Latin culture. It's like the thinner you are, 483 00:23:53,760 --> 00:23:57,000 Speaker 1: the prettier you are, the more accepted you are, you know. 484 00:23:57,320 --> 00:24:00,720 Speaker 1: And it's like if you are an art if you 485 00:24:00,760 --> 00:24:03,120 Speaker 1: are an actress, like you need to be a certain 486 00:24:03,560 --> 00:24:05,840 Speaker 1: freaking size, like and if you're not, then it's like, 487 00:24:05,920 --> 00:24:08,840 Speaker 1: what are you teaching people. It's like, in order to 488 00:24:08,880 --> 00:24:10,720 Speaker 1: be considered one of the beautiful people, like you need 489 00:24:10,760 --> 00:24:13,920 Speaker 1: to be a certain size, especially because you're on TV. 490 00:24:14,040 --> 00:24:15,320 Speaker 1: And that's what I would get all the time, like, 491 00:24:15,320 --> 00:24:18,960 Speaker 1: oh my god, you have such a pretty face, but 492 00:24:19,000 --> 00:24:21,720 Speaker 1: when are you gonna lose weight? Literally like that, I'll 493 00:24:21,760 --> 00:24:23,600 Speaker 1: never forget them. Francisco. I don't know if you guys 494 00:24:23,640 --> 00:24:26,600 Speaker 1: ever watched some Pancisco hiante. I went to his show. 495 00:24:27,160 --> 00:24:28,840 Speaker 1: We were on a break, we did a part of 496 00:24:28,840 --> 00:24:31,000 Speaker 1: the interview, and then on the break, he literally looked 497 00:24:31,000 --> 00:24:36,919 Speaker 1: at me and he said, oh, okay, Ganiskint I just 498 00:24:36,920 --> 00:24:40,480 Speaker 1: just finished like, actually, I just lost fifteen pounds. You 499 00:24:40,520 --> 00:24:43,720 Speaker 1: know what you told me? He said. He said, well, 500 00:24:44,000 --> 00:24:48,159 Speaker 1: we can't really tell what I was like, So then 501 00:24:48,240 --> 00:24:50,720 Speaker 1: the cameras turned back on, and I'm just like, oh 502 00:24:50,720 --> 00:24:53,560 Speaker 1: my god, I felt like crap. Dude, like literally looked 503 00:24:53,560 --> 00:24:55,040 Speaker 1: at me like, oh, you can't tell that you just 504 00:24:55,080 --> 00:24:58,800 Speaker 1: lost fifteen pounds, dude, I'll never forget. I was just like, dude, 505 00:24:58,840 --> 00:25:00,760 Speaker 1: I grew up watching you with my Ramo, and now 506 00:25:00,760 --> 00:25:03,320 Speaker 1: I'm like, dude, you're not even that thin yourself. And 507 00:25:03,359 --> 00:25:05,960 Speaker 1: then you find these people on social media talking crap 508 00:25:06,000 --> 00:25:08,240 Speaker 1: and saying oh, you're fat, you're this, you're that, and 509 00:25:08,280 --> 00:25:11,000 Speaker 1: then you look at their profile picture and they're bigger 510 00:25:11,040 --> 00:25:14,000 Speaker 1: than you, and I'm just like what. I was so 511 00:25:14,200 --> 00:25:17,880 Speaker 1: confused and I'm not gonna mention another person that has 512 00:25:17,920 --> 00:25:20,359 Speaker 1: said that I'm big and that my legs are too 513 00:25:20,440 --> 00:25:24,920 Speaker 1: big and stuff like that, like he's very big, extremely 514 00:25:24,960 --> 00:25:27,520 Speaker 1: and that's fine, whatever tickles your pickle, Like I don't care. 515 00:25:27,600 --> 00:25:29,760 Speaker 1: I'm not one to go and judge people for their size, 516 00:25:29,800 --> 00:25:32,240 Speaker 1: or I will never call all your fat or like no, 517 00:25:32,320 --> 00:25:35,919 Speaker 1: I just I cannot. But this person, this guy is 518 00:25:35,960 --> 00:25:39,280 Speaker 1: really big, and he has and has had the audacity 519 00:25:39,320 --> 00:25:40,960 Speaker 1: to say like, oh my god, her legs are just 520 00:25:41,080 --> 00:25:45,280 Speaker 1: so fat, like and then it just sounds worse in Spanish, 521 00:25:45,640 --> 00:25:49,080 Speaker 1: like oh my god, so spirits and it's like, oh 522 00:25:49,119 --> 00:25:52,119 Speaker 1: my god, dude. It's been tough. It's been tough to 523 00:25:52,280 --> 00:25:54,840 Speaker 1: just give people in the media sometimes the middle finger 524 00:25:54,840 --> 00:25:56,480 Speaker 1: and just say you know what, f you guys. And 525 00:25:56,520 --> 00:25:58,040 Speaker 1: I've had to work through it because I'm like, no, 526 00:25:58,119 --> 00:26:00,240 Speaker 1: you're not gonna break me. You are not going to 527 00:26:00,280 --> 00:26:01,600 Speaker 1: break me, You're not going to stop me. I'm not 528 00:26:01,600 --> 00:26:03,679 Speaker 1: going to give up because you think I should because 529 00:26:03,720 --> 00:26:06,080 Speaker 1: I'm not the size you want me to be. No, 530 00:26:06,359 --> 00:26:10,359 Speaker 1: absolutely not. So it's been tough. It has been tough. 531 00:26:11,640 --> 00:26:16,720 Speaker 1: But thank goodness, amongst everything, my mom taught me and yes, 532 00:26:16,800 --> 00:26:18,879 Speaker 1: how to eat better and how to work out and everything. 533 00:26:18,920 --> 00:26:23,720 Speaker 1: She also was a woman that was considered out of 534 00:26:23,760 --> 00:26:26,960 Speaker 1: the norm completely for having five children, a single mother 535 00:26:27,200 --> 00:26:30,919 Speaker 1: and not being a size too and a very successful singer. 536 00:26:30,960 --> 00:26:32,760 Speaker 1: That she always taught me to be confident and to 537 00:26:32,800 --> 00:26:35,520 Speaker 1: love myself and never had an issue with finding someone 538 00:26:35,600 --> 00:26:38,120 Speaker 1: to love her. So that's one thing I thank her 539 00:26:38,119 --> 00:26:41,119 Speaker 1: for so much, because no matter what, no matter how much, 540 00:26:41,440 --> 00:26:43,760 Speaker 1: it was like a conversation, and the biggest topic in 541 00:26:43,760 --> 00:26:47,280 Speaker 1: our household was losing weight, it was also about self love. 542 00:26:47,640 --> 00:26:50,359 Speaker 1: So I think that's what got me through because I 543 00:26:50,400 --> 00:26:51,960 Speaker 1: was like, well, my mom went through it. They talked 544 00:26:52,000 --> 00:26:56,080 Speaker 1: about her a lot, and she became the biggest regional 545 00:26:56,160 --> 00:27:00,400 Speaker 1: Mexican artist. So we're gonna be all right. So thank 546 00:27:00,440 --> 00:27:02,800 Speaker 1: God and shout out to Jenny. I love you Mom. 547 00:27:02,840 --> 00:27:05,680 Speaker 1: But okay, guys, so we're gonna stop this episode right here. 548 00:27:05,880 --> 00:27:08,960 Speaker 1: Stay tuned for part two tomorrow because that's what I'm 549 00:27:09,000 --> 00:27:11,040 Speaker 1: going to talk about my weight loss and how it's 550 00:27:11,080 --> 00:27:13,919 Speaker 1: affected me and how I'm treated. I'm also going to 551 00:27:13,920 --> 00:27:16,840 Speaker 1: open up about my experience with ozempic. It's gonna be 552 00:27:16,880 --> 00:27:18,439 Speaker 1: a good one. You're not gonna want to visit, so 553 00:27:18,520 --> 00:27:27,440 Speaker 1: make sure to listen ask the Manyana. 554 00:27:28,080 --> 00:27:28,480 Speaker 3: This is a. 555 00:27:28,480 --> 00:27:33,159 Speaker 1: Production of iHeartRadio and the MICROGDA podcast Network. 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