Speaker 1: Call from Austin.
Speaker 2: Austin, Hey man, what can you make Austin?
Speaker 1: Not much? I'm pretty terrible with my hands.
Speaker 2: Actually, you can make things without your hands. You can
Speaker 2: make things with your mind. You can make ideas true.
Speaker 1: Oh, I've just been terrible with making things all my life. Like,
Speaker 1: I don't know, it's I've been more of a person
Speaker 1: that just watches people make stuff.
Speaker 2: Do you have a desire to make things? Or are
Speaker 2: you okay sitting by passively observing other people make things?
Speaker 1: I don't care. What's sitting back and watching other people. Uh,
Speaker 1: it's more of that. I'm just scared to like mess up.
Speaker 2: What's something that you would make if you were not
Speaker 2: scared to mess it up, if you knew that it
Speaker 2: would come out perfectly.
Speaker 1: I would build a bridge between Mars and like Earth, Okay,
Speaker 1: and then I'd put like a slide on it. Okay.
Speaker 2: Would you charge people money to go down the slide?
Speaker 1: Yes?
Speaker 2: But money? Would you charge them to go down the slide?
Speaker 1: I'd charge them like twenty five cents, okay, twenty five cents,
Speaker 1: About twenty five cents.
Speaker 2: I feel as though the cost of maintenance of a
Speaker 2: slide between Mars and the earth would be very expensive,
Speaker 2: and I don't think that you could fund it by
Speaker 2: only charging twenty five cents to go down the slide.
Speaker 1: See, yeah, I told you I'm not really good at
Speaker 1: like exact things.
Speaker 2: I think that's okay.
Speaker 1: What would you do if you weren't a gecko.
Speaker 2: But a rat? What did you say?
Speaker 1: Her name was Austin?
Speaker 2: Thank you for calling Austin.
Speaker 1: Bye.
Speaker 2: Never goes on the line. Thank you? Your phone calls
Speaker 2: every night. Everything goes to any side. I was teaching
Speaker 2: you a loud Your line is not really an.
Speaker 3: Expert all from Malak.
Speaker 2: Malik? Yeah, how can I help him?
Speaker 4: Alak uh?
Speaker 5: I don't know.
Speaker 2: Wand speaker phe no, but just near the chat okay,
Speaker 2: you ould uh go ahead? Do my favorite? Don't look
Speaker 2: at the chat the only chat going on with you
Speaker 2: and I.
Speaker 5: I'm on.
Speaker 4: I left, I left the room.
Speaker 2: Entirely, Malik. So you don't know.
Speaker 4: How you can help me?
Speaker 2: No, I don't know how I can help you.
Speaker 6: Do you need help?
Speaker 7: No?
Speaker 2: No, even if you did need help, pretend first you
Speaker 2: needed help. Pretend that you help. Okay, could I even
Speaker 2: help you? Oh?
Speaker 5: Definitely?
Speaker 4: Yeah?
Speaker 8: Really, yeah for sure?
Speaker 4: How can I help you? Honestly? Yes, I think I
Speaker 4: just need somebody to talk to you right now?
Speaker 2: You need someone to talk to about it.
Speaker 4: I'll like you pick this is yours.
Speaker 2: You need someone to talk to? Why do you need
Speaker 2: someone to talk to? Are you alone?
Speaker 4: No? No, I'm not.
Speaker 2: Why do you need someone to talk to?
Speaker 4: I don't know. I feel like I feel like that's
Speaker 4: the thing I said to answer your question?
Speaker 2: Interesting? Do you why do you feel pressure to answer
Speaker 2: that question with a concrete answer as opposed to continuing
Speaker 2: to admit that you don't know.
Speaker 5: Yeah, I don't know.
Speaker 4: That's oh don't Yeah, I don't have an answer for that.
Speaker 4: It's a good it's a good question, though.
Speaker 2: That's okay. Do you describe for me if you will.
Speaker 2: Do you remember the moment, like, do you remember how
Speaker 2: you felt when you gave me that answer that you
Speaker 2: needed someone to talk to? Do you remember, like, could
Speaker 2: you kind of describe it sounded those though you felt
Speaker 2: some sort of pressure or some sort of stress to
Speaker 2: provide an answer. Would you would you be willing to
Speaker 2: go into detail about that pressure of stress that you
Speaker 2: may have felt.
Speaker 4: Sure, Yeah, I think it was not wanting I think
Speaker 4: it was looking for a way out.
Speaker 6: I guess of not.
Speaker 4: Having a reason or an answer to your question. It's
Speaker 4: kind of almost think.
Speaker 2: Gave the the I asked you a question, and the
Speaker 2: ball was in your court because I'd ask you a question,
Speaker 2: and that created some tension, right, and that tension made
Speaker 2: you uncomfortable, and to avoid feeling uncomfortable and believe that tension,
Speaker 2: you answered with something that wasn't entirely true.
Speaker 4: Absolutely, I think it was the unexpected on top of
Speaker 4: that as well as the as far as the pressure, yeah, definitely.
Speaker 2: And how do you feel right now?
Speaker 4: Relieved?
Speaker 8: For some reason?
Speaker 4: I feel like just being able to talk about that
Speaker 4: is like the sense of relief.
Speaker 9: Definitely.
Speaker 2: Okay, So would you say that this helped?
Speaker 6: Yeah?
Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah I did.
Speaker 2: I'm glad to hear that.
Speaker 5: Thanks do, thank you.
Speaker 2: You have Aggress of the night.
Speaker 3: All from Emma.
Speaker 5: Emma, Oh my god?
Speaker 3: Yeah? Ye?
Speaker 2: What's up dude?
Speaker 3: Nothing, okay, I got you have a speaker phone?
Speaker 8: Now?
Speaker 2: Have we ever spoken before? Emma?
Speaker 3: No?
Speaker 7: Sorry?
Speaker 3: Hold on? Are you talking now or is.
Speaker 2: It just me I'm talking? It's we're both talking, I
Speaker 2: presume to each other. I'm talking to you. I don't
Speaker 2: know if you're talking to me, but.
Speaker 3: True, I'm not. I wasn't talking the whole time.
Speaker 2: Do you are you just now?
Speaker 3: Yeah? That is true anyway, Sure, I wasn't prepared. What
Speaker 3: can I make? Almost nothing?
Speaker 1: I don't know.
Speaker 3: What can you make? Like a yeah, what can you make?
Speaker 3: So I don't know. Okay, the only thing that I
Speaker 3: can make, and it's not that interesting at all. But uh,
Speaker 3: those little like when you put your straw, like the
Speaker 3: little paper things I you like, take the little top
Speaker 3: off your boat, rip it off all nicely and I
Speaker 3: can fold it up into a little star.
Speaker 2: Ah right, nice.
Speaker 3: Very cute. I impress everybody at the table every time.
Speaker 2: How often do you do? You do that every time
Speaker 2: that you are presented with the opportunity to every single time?
Speaker 3: Yeah?
Speaker 2: And does it impress the people around you?
Speaker 1: Oh?
Speaker 2: Yeah, so I got I feel good when the people
Speaker 2: around you are impressed with you.
Speaker 3: Yeah, because it's like creative and I can use my hands.
Speaker 3: But you also don't have to talk.
Speaker 2: Are you adverse to talking in general?
Speaker 3: Yeah?
Speaker 8: Hm?
Speaker 2: Did you call in this now? Now? You called in
Speaker 2: this evening to my little Gecko talk show while with
Speaker 2: the knowledge that you are adverse to talking? Did you
Speaker 2: do so in the hopes of overcoming that aversion by
Speaker 2: forcing yourself into a situation in which you knew you
Speaker 2: would have to talk.
Speaker 3: Actually a little bit. Yes, you nailed it.
Speaker 2: I respect that. I respect that. And what sparked this
Speaker 2: desire to overcome this aversion?
Speaker 3: I don't know. My therapist told me to.
Speaker 2: Your therapist told you to Yeah? What did your therapists
Speaker 2: tell you? Exactly?
Speaker 3: I mean, just talk to people, be nice, make friends.
Speaker 2: Told you to talk to people, be nice and make friends?
Speaker 2: And when did they tell you this?
Speaker 3: Every time?
Speaker 2: Do you find yourself often making efforts to talk to people,
Speaker 2: be nice, and make friends.
Speaker 3: No. I usually let people talk to me first, okay,
Speaker 3: and then I can do the nice stuff.
Speaker 2: Okay. Do you consider yourself not a nice person?
Speaker 7: No?
Speaker 3: I mean, I don't know. I feel like that's really loaded,
Speaker 3: because anybody can consider themselves.
Speaker 5: But I think so.
Speaker 3: I think I'm nice.
Speaker 2: What about you do you think makes you nice?
Speaker 3: People tell me I'm nice, and I try to be
Speaker 3: nice whenever I can.
Speaker 2: Who's the last person that told you that you were nice?
Speaker 3: I don't know. I lit no idea. Somebody, I'm sure.
Speaker 2: Who in your life do you think has the most
Speaker 2: positive image of you?
Speaker 6: My dog your dog.
Speaker 2: And why do you think your dog has such a
Speaker 2: positive image of you?
Speaker 3: Well, because I'm so nice to her.
Speaker 2: What do you do for him?
Speaker 3: Everything? I take her own walks, I brush her even
Speaker 3: tho while she doesn't like the brushing, of course, but
Speaker 3: it's got a brush her to you feeder, and I mean,
Speaker 3: people are mean to their dogs. I'm never mean to her.
Speaker 2: People are mean to their dogs. It's so good that
Speaker 2: you're not mean.
Speaker 3: Can I ask you a question?
Speaker 2: Sure?
Speaker 3: Are you passionate about anything like even this?
Speaker 2: I think so. I think I'm passionate about things. Are
Speaker 2: you passionate about anything? No?
Speaker 3: That's why I'm asking.
Speaker 2: Ah, do you want to be passionate about anything?
Speaker 3: I think so because people seem to, like, I don't know,
Speaker 3: have something to do when they're passionate about something, You
Speaker 3: know what I mean, do something to do?
Speaker 2: Well, you seem passionate about your doll lug and making
Speaker 2: sure that it does not die and that you are
Speaker 2: nice to it. Yeah, that's a passion for sure. Well,
Speaker 2: there we go. You're passionate about.
Speaker 3: Some so that's what I'll do every single day.
Speaker 2: Do you mean sort of in a career sense of passion.
Speaker 3: Kind of yeah, because you kind of have a career
Speaker 3: too with being a get go.
Speaker 2: I do Are you in high school college?
Speaker 3: Oh? No, I'm twenty one, never went to college.
Speaker 2: Cool. Well, do you do anything to make money?
Speaker 1: Right?
Speaker 3: I am a door dasher, an instacart person, shopper.
Speaker 2: Nice. Do you have any desires to do anything that
Speaker 2: is not that? Not? Really?
Speaker 3: It's weird.
Speaker 2: I mean, look, you know, I know that there's all
Speaker 2: this like, uh, what is it? I know, I'm not
Speaker 2: gonna say propaganda, that's too hard of a word, but whatever,
Speaker 2: there's all this maybe pressure to have have a passion,
Speaker 2: you know, to be this great painter or or or
Speaker 2: or athlete or or whatever, to be this great passionate person.
Speaker 2: But listen, you know, if you're chilling like having you know,
Speaker 2: do you have any friends?
Speaker 3: No? Not really I have my well, like one friend
Speaker 3: from high school still, but that's it.
Speaker 2: Are you okay with not having any friends?
Speaker 3: Yeah? I don't.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 2: Actually, look, if you're chilling hanging out with your dog
Speaker 2: and door dashing every day, and you like aren't upset
Speaker 2: about that for any reason other than you feel like
Speaker 2: you should want more, then you know, just I think
Speaker 2: you should get rid of that that that that nagging
Speaker 2: should because it's it's serves you no purpose. Now, if
Speaker 2: you feel in yourself a genuine desire to expand your
Speaker 2: life past door dashing and hanging out with your dog,
Speaker 2: then you should listen to that desire. But if that
Speaker 2: desire doesn't come from you, and it comes instead of
Speaker 2: from this, like you know, pressure from society or from
Speaker 2: other people to do so, then then it's not worth following.
Speaker 3: Right, Yeah, yeah, because people who end up in like
Speaker 3: dead and careers end up hating their lives.
Speaker 2: Right, but do you hate your life?
Speaker 3: That's a loaded questions. I don't know.
Speaker 2: Why is your Why do you think your therapist tells
Speaker 2: you to go out and talk to people and make friends?
Speaker 3: I guess because that's I don't know, because that people
Speaker 3: are happy with lens. Maybe she thinks that, like, if
Speaker 3: I have friends, will be happy.
Speaker 2: You know, well, what kind of efforts have you put
Speaker 2: into making friends?
Speaker 3: I talked to my baristas friends with them at Starbucks.
Speaker 2: That's cool, it's a start. Do you ever do clubs?
Speaker 2: Do you ever go to meetups?
Speaker 3: No? No, my vibe?
Speaker 2: Well, you know, well, you went to a therapist for
Speaker 2: a reason. Don't forced you to do that? Or did
Speaker 2: you do that?
Speaker 1: I did that?
Speaker 7: Yeah?
Speaker 2: Okay, so there's something there, there's some sort of desire
Speaker 2: for some sort of effect from that. H What do
Speaker 2: you think that? What do you think that effect that
Speaker 2: you desire is from going to therapy?
Speaker 3: I guess just be happy, change my life or something.
Speaker 2: Well, I'll say this, Emma. It sounds as though every
Speaker 2: day you make some sort of effort, however small, however big,
Speaker 2: to achieve that. That mean, so keep waking up every
Speaker 2: day and continuing to make those efforts.
Speaker 5: Right you too, of course, have.
Speaker 2: A good rest of the days.
Speaker 3: Thanks. Call from Wells.
Speaker 2: Hello, what'd you say? Your name was?
Speaker 5: Mom?
Speaker 9: No?
Speaker 5: Max?
Speaker 2: Max?
Speaker 5: Mm hmm?
Speaker 2: What do you were?
Speaker 8: You?
Speaker 2: Born? Max?
Speaker 6: Nineteen ninety four.
Speaker 2: Nineteen ninety four.
Speaker 6: Indeed, indeed.
Speaker 2: My name is Indeed, I'm sorry. I don't know. I
Speaker 2: don't know why I said that to make fun of you.
Speaker 5: Just now, No worries.
Speaker 2: You didn't deserve that.
Speaker 6: So I'm conflicted, mister ghak.
Speaker 2: Why are you conflicted? Why you conflicted?
Speaker 5: Max?
Speaker 6: I don't regret emotionally, I suppose, Oh, trust me, I
Speaker 6: have thicker skin than that. No worries, my friend, No worries.
Speaker 2: But in Max, I'm sure cool. He's ginn so thick.
Speaker 2: I'm suku. You can't say anything that can hurt me.
Speaker 6: Well, I wouldn't say that.
Speaker 2: Why you conflicted, Max.
Speaker 6: Well, I'm conflicted. I'm conflicted on enough family matter. I
Speaker 6: suppose you could say, but my grandmother is dying rapidly
Speaker 6: and in front of my you know face currently, And
Speaker 6: I guess my confliction right now would be between my
Speaker 6: own desire to see her live, you know, and to
Speaker 6: like not be without a person and who's important to me.
Speaker 6: And I suppose her desire to die really when it
Speaker 6: comes down to it, because she's in pain and suffering,
Speaker 6: and you know, her husband died years ago, and.
Speaker 5: It's tough.
Speaker 2: You know, that is tough. That's very tough.
Speaker 6: But I don't know, I don't know where to land
Speaker 6: on it. You know, like, obviously I want her not
Speaker 6: to suffer, but at the same time, you know, there's
Speaker 6: this overriding desire to not be without this person who's
Speaker 6: been such an tackul part of my life. So of
Speaker 6: course it's a I guess you could call it cognitive dissonance.
Speaker 2: But interesting, what is your is your mother or is
Speaker 2: your mom's mom or your dad's mom, my mom's mom,
Speaker 2: is your is your mother still around?
Speaker 6: She is, she is, and she's been supporting her for
Speaker 6: a long time. But uh, I mean it's just rapidly
Speaker 6: taken a downward course recently.
Speaker 5: You know.
Speaker 6: You know she's had she's an older woman, so she's
Speaker 6: had you know, mobility issues and whatnot for a while.
Speaker 6: But you know, about a month ago, no, no, my grandmother.
Speaker 6: My mom's fully capable, if not, you know, mentally a
Speaker 6: little you know, everybody's got there, you know, crosses to there, but.
Speaker 5: I don't know.
Speaker 6: She was diagnosed with a rare form of my grandmother,
Speaker 6: with a rare form of bladder cancer about a month ago.
Speaker 6: So you know, I think ever since her husband died
Speaker 6: about ten years ago, she's been here, but not it's
Speaker 6: been slowly disengaging. I suppose you could say, uh, but
Speaker 6: you know, I think since this diagnosis, she's like, I've
Speaker 6: never legitimately encountered somebody who's just ready to die, you
Speaker 6: know what I mean, who just has no interest really
Speaker 6: in living anymore for the people they love here just
Speaker 6: for themselves, which I understand. When you're suffering, I get it.
Speaker 2: And what does your so I assume when you say
Speaker 2: that you're conflicted. Is this is there some sort of
Speaker 2: like situation in which she is, like, I don't know legally,
Speaker 2: you know, under your guys's decision as to whether or
Speaker 2: not to keep her on life support, is.
Speaker 6: That she's not on life support currently at all, but
Speaker 6: she's just she's she can't. It's not anoperable cancer really
Speaker 6: at this point, so she's not. It's pretty much in
Speaker 6: the phase where she can't, you know, there's nothing to
Speaker 6: be done, so facing that, she's also incredibly obstinate about
Speaker 6: her own end of life care, so she won't. She
Speaker 6: won't tell us when she's in pain, even though it's obvious,
Speaker 6: you know, when we ask her, and she won't. She
Speaker 6: fights any kind of procedure or anything else. And it's
Speaker 6: heartbreaking because it's making her own end of life more
Speaker 6: miserable and we're trying, and that hurts the people around her.
Speaker 6: But sure, I don't know how to feel about that,
Speaker 6: because you know, is that is that a pain I
Speaker 6: should bear without you know, conflict?
Speaker 5: Or should I?
Speaker 6: You know, should I? I? Just I don't know, you know,
Speaker 6: it's a it's messy.
Speaker 2: Does what does your mom think about all this?
Speaker 6: Well, that's a good question. My mom has been doing
Speaker 6: this for a long time, so you know, it's gotten
Speaker 6: worse recently. But I think my mom wants I think
Speaker 6: my old My mom's overriding concern is that she wants
Speaker 6: her mother to not suffer anymore, obviously, or to just
Speaker 6: be happy, and she can't be at this point.
Speaker 5: You know, I think.
Speaker 6: And then obviously there's an underlying concern of her own life.
Speaker 6: You know, she's dedicated years of it to taking care
Speaker 6: of her mother, and at this point it's gotten hard
Speaker 6: and difficult, you know, so I'm sure there's a part
Speaker 6: of her that would like to be out from under
Speaker 6: that burden, as is natural for you know, you know,
Speaker 6: whether that's something to be guilty about or not, you know,
Speaker 6: that's a human thing to feel.
Speaker 2: So how old is how old is your grandmother? You know?
Speaker 6: I want eighty three?
Speaker 2: Eighty three? Okay, hmm, yeah, definitely definitely difficult, I think,
Speaker 2: I mean it's hard, but I I sort of, you know,
Speaker 2: to your mom's perspective of you know, it's it's difficult
Speaker 2: because you love your grandmother, but like you know, if
Speaker 2: you want her to be happy and have her own
Speaker 2: you know, freedom and ability to decide, you know, when
Speaker 2: she is done living life. You know, I think if you,
Speaker 2: if you, if you truly love her, I think, you know,
Speaker 2: even though it's difficult, I think it's important to be
Speaker 2: respectful of that decision.
Speaker 6: Absolutely, and I totally agree. But like when it comes
Speaker 6: down to, uh, I I understand, and I've totally accepted
Speaker 6: the fact that you know, she's not going to get
Speaker 6: a surgery or chemotherapy or anything like.
Speaker 5: That, but.
Speaker 6: She also seems to be just neglecting her own suffering,
Speaker 6: which is you know, I've I've come to realize that,
Speaker 6: you know, her time has come. She's not going to
Speaker 6: get better. You know, she's accepted that, but she also
Speaker 6: doesn't seem to be willing to negate or not negate,
Speaker 6: but just alleviate any of her own suffering, you know
Speaker 6: what I mean. Like that's that's the thing that's really
Speaker 6: killing me.
Speaker 2: I suppose is just like sure is it that she
Speaker 2: she doesn't want to take any like pain killers that
Speaker 2: she's being offered.
Speaker 6: There's no no like when we when we finally you know,
Speaker 6: get through to her and like are you in you know,
Speaker 6: be asked her are you in pain? You know she
Speaker 6: loves and she groans and she.
Speaker 5: You know, and we're like, are you in pain?
Speaker 10: No, no, no, I'm fine.
Speaker 5: I'm fine.
Speaker 6: And then you know, it reaches a breaking point where
Speaker 6: she can't even stand up, and we're like, okay, you
Speaker 6: are in pain, like like, what's the issue? You know
Speaker 6: what I mean? And like and eventually, you know, fucking
Speaker 6: I don't know if it's an old world want to
Speaker 6: not be on pain killers or which I understand as well,
Speaker 6: but like when you're dying, like you know, from my
Speaker 6: own perspective, I guess I'm having trouble wrapping my head
Speaker 6: around you know what I mean.
Speaker 2: Like, you know, it's it's sort of in the same
Speaker 2: boat of like, look, you know again, I can tell
Speaker 2: that you're a loving grandson that you truly care, but
Speaker 2: at the end of the day, you know, it's it's
Speaker 2: her sort of decision to not take painkillers or you know,
Speaker 2: I mean again, you do what you can to try
Speaker 2: to get through to her, but you know, if she
Speaker 2: is you know, doesn't want to acknowledge her own pain
Speaker 2: or take painkillers or you know, really put up any
Speaker 2: sort of a fight, you know, again, it's like you're
Speaker 2: valid in in in feeling upset for her, But at
Speaker 2: the end of the day, you know, it's it's it's
Speaker 2: it's it's her decision and really her decision alone.
Speaker 6: Sure, sure, sure, yeah, you know, I guess it's just
Speaker 6: kind of hard to square because late in life you
Speaker 6: kind of revert almost to like an infantile state, and
Speaker 6: she's given up a lot of her powers, you know
Speaker 6: what I mean.
Speaker 5: So it's hard.
Speaker 6: You're right, You're totally right, And I guess it's just
Speaker 6: hard to see her now as somebody with that full
Speaker 6: cap capacity, you know what I mean to really, but
Speaker 6: you're right, she's a grown woman, you know, she's not
Speaker 6: mentally she's all there. So you know, you're I think
Speaker 6: you're right about that.
Speaker 2: Well look, man, here's what I you know, here's what
Speaker 2: I'll say is continue to, you know, show her love
Speaker 2: without you know, any desire to have control, if that
Speaker 2: makes sense, you know, like, continue to be in her presence,
Speaker 2: talk to her, you know, do do whatever it is
Speaker 2: you do to show her love, but but simultaneously let
Speaker 2: go of any any sort of need or desire to to, uh,
Speaker 2: you know, make her to control her and her decisions, you.
Speaker 6: Know, even if that's trying to use her suffering. Yeah,
Speaker 6: you know that's gonna be hard, but I think you
Speaker 6: know you might bred about that.
Speaker 2: Well. Listen, man, I wish you. I wish you the
Speaker 2: best of luck. The chat is giving you their their
Speaker 2: thoughts and their prayers as well. I don't know.
Speaker 6: I appreciate that I walked away from the from the
Speaker 6: stream so I wasn't so distracted on our conversation. So
Speaker 6: I appreciate that people in the chat.
Speaker 2: Of course, Man, thank you so much for sharing.
Speaker 6: Of course, you have a good night deck you as well.
Speaker 2: I'm sorry I'm made funny. Your voice.
Speaker 5: All from Dante.
Speaker 2: Dante.
Speaker 5: Hello, mister Greg?
Speaker 2: What does what does that even mean? Hello?
Speaker 5: That's a that's a deep question.
Speaker 2: It's just something.
Speaker 5: I don't know what you think.
Speaker 2: Who cares what I think? I do you really? Do
Speaker 2: you really care?
Speaker 5: I do care? Do you assume that I don't?
Speaker 2: Do you care about me?
Speaker 5: I'd like to think so.
Speaker 2: That's so sweet?
Speaker 5: I try.
Speaker 2: You know, you're really sweet guy.
Speaker 5: I've been told that. I don't know, that feels kind
Speaker 5: of calm. That feels kind of weird to say out loud,
Speaker 5: But you know people have told me that I'm kind.
Speaker 2: I never said you were kind, I said you were sweet?
Speaker 5: Well fair enough, m hm m hmm.
Speaker 2: Who's told you that you're sweet?
Speaker 5: Boy? My girlfriends told me I'm sweet. They did, yeah,
Speaker 5: and possibly one point there, and they may not have
Speaker 5: used the maybe verbatim phrase, but I feel like the
Speaker 5: intention was there.
Speaker 2: Really what what?
Speaker 5: What?
Speaker 2: What? What do they do to signal to you that
Speaker 2: they thought that you were sweet?
Speaker 5: I don't know, maybe a little maybe a little sweet
Speaker 5: kissy from every now and then. Maybe you like a
Speaker 5: nice Yeah, everybody likes a kiss. Do you like kisses?
Speaker 5: Are you a fan of kiss being kissed? Yeah? I
Speaker 5: feel like we all like being kissed.
Speaker 2: I don't think everyone likes being kissed. I think some people,
Speaker 2: I would there are I mean, of all the billions
Speaker 2: of people out there, I assume that some of them
Speaker 2: do not like being kissed.
Speaker 5: Yeah, that's sure. Maybe maybe some.
Speaker 2: Last person who's the last person that kissed you?
Speaker 5: Well, I feel like, uh, my girlfriend is the right answer.
Speaker 5: There may have been there may have been a There
Speaker 5: may have been a mysterious stranger that swooped by in
Speaker 5: the night and kissed me while I was unaware. But
Speaker 5: other than that, I completely no idea.
Speaker 2: Do you genuinely believe that or are you just saying
Speaker 2: that to be funny.
Speaker 5: Well, a little bit of both. You know, I don't
Speaker 5: want to leave. I feel like it's the probability is
Speaker 5: never zero.
Speaker 2: Do you genuinely believe that there is a chance that
Speaker 2: a stranger came into your house and kissed you?
Speaker 5: I feel like the possibility of some strange mass kissing
Speaker 5: bandit is not completely not of the roma possibility.
Speaker 2: Are you being serious?
Speaker 5: I don't know. Do I sound serious?
Speaker 2: No?
Speaker 5: Ah? Well you got me. You caught me bright handed,
Speaker 5: mister ghek.
Speaker 2: How'd you meet your girlfriend in school?
Speaker 5: Actually?
Speaker 2: Cool? Well?
Speaker 5: Class in film class?
Speaker 2: Oh? Your film student?
Speaker 5: Yes? Oh okay, not currently, but I'm.
Speaker 2: Trying, not currently, but you're trying. What does that mean?
Speaker 5: I'm just trying to get in to the film school.
Speaker 2: Uh with with with college.
Speaker 5: A little a little college in the Atlanta area.
Speaker 2: I don't want to spec I went to film school.
Speaker 5: Oh that's cool. How was it? How was it for you?
Speaker 2: You know? It is fine, It's fine. I probably I
Speaker 2: don't know. I mean, what do you what do you wanna?
Speaker 2: What do you do? You want to make films?
Speaker 5: Well, technically I'm going for film technology. But I mean,
Speaker 5: you know, I feel like eventually I could end up
Speaker 5: making films.
Speaker 2: Are you a good kisser?
Speaker 5: You know what? I don't know? Girlfriend? Do you think
Speaker 5: I'm a good kisser?
Speaker 7: I feel like the writing answer is yes.
Speaker 5: All right, well, yes, yes it's the answer.
Speaker 2: Can I talk to your girlfriend real quick?
Speaker 5: Oh? Absolutely?
Speaker 1: Hello? Gak?
Speaker 2: What's your name?
Speaker 1: Summer?
Speaker 2: Summer? What was the first thing that your boyfriend said
Speaker 2: to you? Do you remember?
Speaker 11: Oh?
Speaker 12: Let's see, do you remember?
Speaker 5: Absolutely not?
Speaker 12: I have no clue. There's probably something dumb.
Speaker 2: And you consider him a good kisser?
Speaker 1: I do?
Speaker 8: Yes?
Speaker 2: Does does he have a particular method in which he
Speaker 2: kisses like a A?
Speaker 5: Do you think I'm like tongue heavy or something?
Speaker 1: Oh?
Speaker 12: I think it's all tongue.
Speaker 5: Oh really okay, Wow that's deep, really out in your here?
Speaker 2: Do you think he's sweet?
Speaker 12: I do think he is a sweet boy.
Speaker 2: Do you think that? How many people do you think
Speaker 2: have to say something about someone for it to be true?
Speaker 12: I want to stay at least two, because I mean,
Speaker 12: if one person thinks it's then's just that one person.
Speaker 12: But if two people think.
Speaker 7: It it's pretty valid.
Speaker 2: Only two?
Speaker 11: Yeah?
Speaker 12: Only two?
Speaker 9: Three?
Speaker 3: Is three?
Speaker 12: Is a general consensus.
Speaker 2: Thank you guys for.
Speaker 7: Calling, of course, thank you so much.
Speaker 12: Have a good night, me too, goodbye.
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Speaker 2: back to the calls. Oah, hello, Lyle, what's up dude?
Speaker 7: How are you?
Speaker 2: I am here? How are you?
Speaker 7: You know? I'm not too bad, I'm over here. It's nice.
Speaker 2: What is your name?
Speaker 6: Cat?
Speaker 2: Cat have spoken.
Speaker 7: Before, we have spoken before a while.
Speaker 2: Mh, Well, it's nice to hear your It's nice to
Speaker 2: hear it from you again.
Speaker 7: Yeah, I've missed you. It's been like a year. Almost.
Speaker 2: Wait, really, when was the last time we talked?
Speaker 7: It was like, I want to say, winter of last year?
Speaker 7: No ship, Yeah, it's been a long time. And you
Speaker 7: know winter of last year.
Speaker 2: She winter of last year. This was you're a you're
Speaker 2: a long time gek gek. Well do you remember what
Speaker 2: we talked about?
Speaker 7: Kay? I, I don't remember what we talked about.
Speaker 5: Mm hmm.
Speaker 7: That's okay. That was so long ago that that was
Speaker 7: I remember we talked about I was I remember we
Speaker 7: talked a little bit about that.
Speaker 2: You were waitressing. Are you still waitressing?
Speaker 7: I am still waitressing?
Speaker 2: And are you enjoying your waitressing?
Speaker 11: Yeah?
Speaker 7: I mean, we've got a tyrant in the business right now.
Speaker 7: He's got a new manager. But we will go on,
Speaker 7: you know what I mean, The show will go on.
Speaker 2: And why are they a tyrant?
Speaker 7: She just doesn't have people skills, you know what I mean?
Speaker 7: Some people just don't know how to talk to people.
Speaker 2: How would you suggest that these people who don't know
Speaker 2: how to talk to people get better at talking to people?
Speaker 7: Maybe like watch some like just general comedy, you know
Speaker 7: what I mean, watch like I don't know the basics
Speaker 7: of like sitcom comedy to like be able to pick
Speaker 7: up social cues. Maybe I don't know all that seems
Speaker 7: like an interesting way.
Speaker 1: To learn it.
Speaker 2: You believe that sitcoms are I have the power to
Speaker 2: teach people social cues?
Speaker 7: Yeah, for sure, man.
Speaker 2: Is there a sitcom in particular that you think is
Speaker 2: a is a particularly good model of social cues?
Speaker 7: You know what I was thinking when I was saying
Speaker 7: this the first time, I was thinking about Seinfeld.
Speaker 11: But I don't even know.
Speaker 7: Like I didn't like Seinfeld growing up, but I'm more
Speaker 7: of a dry comedy gown now in my older days,
Speaker 7: you know what I mean. But yeah, I think Seinfeld
Speaker 7: would be a good one, you know what I mean,
Speaker 7: just to pick up just because they laugh when it's
Speaker 7: supposed to be like when you're supposed to feel something.
Speaker 7: So I'm like trigger something.
Speaker 2: I don't know, do you feel where? So? I assume
Speaker 2: that you consider yourself to have good people skills, good
Speaker 2: social good, good understanding of social cues.
Speaker 7: I like to think that I make I make a
Speaker 7: good environ meant for people to be in wherever I go.
Speaker 2: Where do you believe that you learn the skill from?
Speaker 7: You know where I was a daycare kid, Man, I
Speaker 7: feel like it was because I had a forced environment
Speaker 7: of multiple children I didn't know around me all the
Speaker 7: time growing up, you know what I mean. It was
Speaker 7: birthed to twelve while single mom life, new kids in
Speaker 7: their daycare every every week, you know what I mean.
Speaker 2: Just kidding, I don't know everything when you were a child.
Speaker 7: Yeah, yeah, when I was a child, Yeah, daycare definitely.
Speaker 7: And I moved around a lot as a kid, you
Speaker 7: know what I mean. I went to I think it
Speaker 7: was four different schools before I graduated high school. Now,
Speaker 7: that may not seem like a lot, but like some
Speaker 7: people go through their whole bottom the top and one administration.
Speaker 7: Not me. How to make new friends, you know what
Speaker 7: I mean? Everywhere you go, you gotta be able to
Speaker 7: make it, break it, make your break it out here.
Speaker 8: Yeah.
Speaker 7: I like to think my people's skills are all right.
Speaker 7: I think your people's skills are pretty good. Having this
Speaker 7: little stand up stick you got going on there, thank.
Speaker 2: You, thank you?
Speaker 7: Yeah, of course I appreciate, of course, yeah, of course.
Speaker 6: Love.
Speaker 2: So I mean, listen, Katuh, you know we haven't talked
Speaker 2: in in in apparently h quite a while. Has anything happened? Uh?
Speaker 2: You know this year that that's you care to share
Speaker 2: any sort of updates.
Speaker 7: Hmmm, updates on my life. Well, you know, I saved
Speaker 7: a lot of money this year. I was so scared
Speaker 7: that I was going to lose my job waitressing from
Speaker 7: the pandemic, that I like hoarded money and I was
Speaker 7: so scared to spend it anywhere.
Speaker 8: And I think.
Speaker 7: I'm going to get a new car with it. I
Speaker 7: think I'm gonna be able to buy a whole car
Speaker 7: with all the money.
Speaker 2: I said, how much money did you save?
Speaker 7: I saved? Maybe, Like, what is it? I got a
Speaker 7: nine grand in the bank and then four grand in
Speaker 7: cash in my safe. So no, I probably have like
Speaker 7: five grand in cash. So it's like, that's not so bad.
Speaker 7: Fourteen grand not for a waitress while in the middle pandemic.
Speaker 2: Absolutely, yeah, interesting what happened?
Speaker 7: What kind of car? I think I'm gonna buy a
Speaker 7: Jeep Cherokee s J from the eighties and like souping
Speaker 7: up a little bit.
Speaker 2: A jeep Cherokee.
Speaker 7: Yeah, an old one from the eighties.
Speaker 2: Should take You know what you should do? You should you?
Speaker 2: You know what you should do? Kat, I think this
Speaker 2: would be a good side hustle for you. You know
Speaker 2: what you should teach people's social skills. You know you should.
Speaker 2: You should do some sort of like have some set
Speaker 2: of program where you drive people around in your jeep
Speaker 2: and you introduce them to all the friends that you
Speaker 2: have around town and you the how to be sociable.
Speaker 7: Well, you know what's funny is that I I agree
Speaker 7: like meeting people like if it's if it's a fourth scenario,
Speaker 7: like if we have to be around each other, there's
Speaker 7: no question I'm gonna like talk to you and get
Speaker 7: to know you. But if it's like me at like
Speaker 7: a social gap, well no, like a social gathering makes sense.
Speaker 7: But if it's like me in a public scenario like
Speaker 7: I'm at a bar or I'm a well, no, like
Speaker 7: at a party, it's easier. But really I don't know why.
Speaker 7: It's just like being in a bar environment puts me off.
Speaker 7: I don't feel like I can put myself out there
Speaker 7: as much, you know what I mean? Just make me nervous.
Speaker 7: So I don't know how many you know what me
Speaker 7: behind the wheel of a deep cruising around teaching people's
Speaker 7: social skills. So I think I could make that work, though, buddy,
Speaker 7: I should.
Speaker 2: I think you should do that.
Speaker 11: Offer a that's pretty funny though.
Speaker 7: Paid experience, Oh offer a paid experience.
Speaker 8: Social skills too, welcome.
Speaker 7: Skills with CAT you also, namely with your learners permit.
Speaker 11: I don't know.
Speaker 7: I can pull up a sign. I could literally be
Speaker 7: Jerry Seinfeldt behind the wheel of a car driving people around.
Speaker 7: Tie cat.
Speaker 2: Before we go. What can you make?
Speaker 7: Yeah? What can I make? You know? I'm pretty good
Speaker 7: at like freehanding, like craft goods, like working with like
Speaker 7: fifty to fifty a POxy resin, like POxy and hardnom
Speaker 7: like making little key chains and stuff like that. I
Speaker 7: make them for my friends a lot, just like I
Speaker 7: don't make them to sell them, right, but I just
Speaker 7: make them for me. I like to think I'm pretty
Speaker 7: good at making nose little POxy resin key chains for
Speaker 7: my Bessie.
Speaker 2: Do you sell them? Do you go on? That'sy and no?
Speaker 2: Like ways to make you get that A lot nice car.
Speaker 7: A lot of people are like, oh, you said something,
Speaker 7: but it's just like, oh, that's so much fucking Oh,
Speaker 7: I'm sorry, it's so much work.
Speaker 2: You know, CAT, you've been watching CAT. You've you've been
Speaker 2: watching the stream for a year. I don't know if
Speaker 2: you've been actively watching, but you can say whatever you
Speaker 2: want on it, well within.
Speaker 7: Reason, Yeah, but that you know how much work that
Speaker 7: is so to like, I don't care about the investment
Speaker 7: of like money or time, right, I don't care about that.
Speaker 7: But it's the fact that, like I've got to have
Speaker 7: a blowtorch and a heat gun in my hand. That's
Speaker 7: the part that's the hard part about it. So much
Speaker 7: that is a lot of work because if you don't
Speaker 7: get those their bubbles out, you're screwed.
Speaker 5: While I would rather just do it for fun.
Speaker 2: Let me get your opinion on something, because I do
Speaker 2: this a lot. Like if I'm talking to someone new,
Speaker 2: I'll like, I'll call them by their name a lot,
Speaker 2: Like you've been doing that to me, and I like that,
Speaker 2: you know, I like being a I think it's uh,
Speaker 2: Like it's fine because I do the same thing. I'll
Speaker 2: be like, I'll call you Kat. It's like, oh my god, Cat,
Speaker 2: let me tell you like that shit. But I've heard
Speaker 2: some people say, Chad, what's your opinion. I've heard some
Speaker 2: people say that they don't like that. They like, like, like,
Speaker 2: if you're like on a date with someone, like you
Speaker 2: shouldn't like call it like they feel condescended when you
Speaker 2: call them by their name. But I like that. I
Speaker 2: use that a lot. Do people like that?
Speaker 5: Oh?
Speaker 11: I like it?
Speaker 7: What's ya think? I think it's good. I think it
Speaker 7: shows that you're, like truly thinking about that person, you
Speaker 7: know what I mean. You're directing it and you're channeling
Speaker 7: it at them, and you want them to know you
Speaker 7: have your focus. Chad hates it. Bro they hate it.
Speaker 2: No, Chad's actually pretty kind of fifty to fifty on it.
Speaker 7: I like it. I do make me feel like I'm there,
Speaker 7: Like you're there with me, you know what I mean?
Speaker 2: Yeah, I feel like it shays that shows that you're listening.
Speaker 2: But I understand why people think it's condescending, but I
Speaker 2: I personally don't. I think some pople said it's not
Speaker 2: it's gonna be over, but Chad is actually pretty happening.
Speaker 2: Jail p. Let's do it. Let's do a let's do
Speaker 2: a poll. Let's do a poll.
Speaker 7: Yeah, what do the people think?
Speaker 1: I don't know.
Speaker 7: For me, I like that. I like it.
Speaker 2: I like it too. I feel like I've been acknowledged.
Speaker 2: But I get a lot of people don't like it.
Speaker 7: Yeah, yeah, well I know, uh, I know our time
Speaker 7: here is going to wrap up soon. I just thought
Speaker 7: I have to say I missed the last get date
Speaker 7: because I was hard at work running a restaurant.
Speaker 2: Do you want to be on the next get date?
Speaker 1: Yeah?
Speaker 7: I want to be on the next get date.
Speaker 2: Okay, beautiful. Do you follow if you I don't know
Speaker 2: if you follow me on Instagram, But that's where I'll
Speaker 2: be like posting about the Oh look, we have the
Speaker 2: poll going in. Let's see what the polls. Let's see
Speaker 2: what the poll says. Well, multiple people.
Speaker 7: Say, uh, do you like being referred to?
Speaker 11: I do?
Speaker 2: Yes?
Speaker 7: Is in the way, I don't even a sharp lead?
Speaker 2: If you want to be on on GEK date? Uh,
Speaker 2: you know, be on the lookout for when I put
Speaker 2: up that the application and then make a video send
Speaker 2: it in.
Speaker 7: I'm going to send that to dealing. I didn't send
Speaker 7: one in last time because I knew what time you
Speaker 7: were going to do it, and I was like, oh, blood,
Speaker 7: I work.
Speaker 5: That's no good.
Speaker 2: The next GEK date will likely be the last Friday
Speaker 2: of September.
Speaker 7: Last Friday of September. Let's see what I got going
Speaker 7: on here. I'm excited. Last Friday September. It's the twenty fourth. Oh, deck.
Speaker 7: You're killing me. I got a back for our party.
Speaker 7: How funny would that be? Me and the gals get date?
Speaker 2: Maybe maybe maybe someone will have a bachelor party. I
Speaker 2: can hope you I can hook you all up.
Speaker 7: Group date, group get date.
Speaker 2: Cat. A pleasure hearing from you. Glad to see you're
Speaker 2: you're still you're still uh here after after all these
Speaker 2: many months, and it's been an honor.
Speaker 7: Hopefully thank you for having me.
Speaker 2: It has.
Speaker 7: It has been like wives and honor every time both
Speaker 7: times I've been on, it's just been a rowdy time.
Speaker 7: You keep doing you guys.
Speaker 1: Bye gay.
Speaker 2: All from Oscar, Oscar, Hello Oscar.
Speaker 5: Yeah, I don't know.
Speaker 8: I don't I don't know, man, I don't know either.
Speaker 2: Well that's what we are. We're two guys that don't know.
Speaker 2: How does that make it?
Speaker 8: Not seeing?
Speaker 2: How good? M What can you make?
Speaker 8: I can make? I can make a soundch you know,
Speaker 8: to make a sandwich? Yeah, a good soundch Okay?
Speaker 2: What kind of what kind of sandwich? We're talking abouts?
Speaker 2: On the sandwich?
Speaker 8: Like so dolphie cheese, both ham and and Mayo.
Speaker 2: Why are people saying that they're hearing a smoke detector
Speaker 2: going on? I can't hear that at all. Oh, now
Speaker 2: I hear it, Oscar. Yeah, change the batteries in your
Speaker 2: smoke detector.
Speaker 5: That's not me.
Speaker 2: It's not me.
Speaker 10: That's not me too.
Speaker 2: What the fuck's going on?
Speaker 5: Oscar?
Speaker 8: I don't know. People's confused right now? Hear anything?
Speaker 5: You are you?
Speaker 8: You got a fire in your room?
Speaker 3: No?
Speaker 2: I don't have a fire in my Why do you
Speaker 2: think I have a fire in my room right now?
Speaker 2: Why would I Why would I still be here if
Speaker 2: I had a fire in my room?
Speaker 8: Cooking marshmallows, you know, singing boy like marshmallow started firing.
Speaker 2: I'm pissed why. I don't know. I don't like having
Speaker 2: to mess with the audio. I have too many things.
Speaker 2: There's too many things going on. There's so many stimulus,
Speaker 2: so much stimulus being thrown at me right now, Oscar.
Speaker 10: This is then?
Speaker 8: The audio is pretty okay, Oscar, Yeah, okay?
Speaker 2: What do you What do you put on the sandwich?
Speaker 8: Like the cheese you ever had, like the Dolpha cheese?
Speaker 2: Yeah, the cheese whiz? All right? That I heard it again?
Speaker 8: Mm hmm. I got another sandwich, like a bacon sandwich,
Speaker 8: but with pork, like like a slice of pork on
Speaker 8: it with bacon, and that's it.
Speaker 2: I call it, like, is there perhaps a basketball player.
Speaker 2: I'm a basketball player in your house who's practicing on
Speaker 2: an indoor court.
Speaker 8: Oh no, man, why you hear something?
Speaker 2: What else do you put on the sandwich?
Speaker 8: Bacon, pork, cheese, tomatoes, lettuce, or like a spin and
Speaker 8: maybe put random things on a sandwich. I don't know.
Speaker 8: I want to get bored. When you ever get bored,
Speaker 8: you just put random things in the sandwich or make
Speaker 8: like random at food.
Speaker 2: Yeah. I used to get bored and melt cheese onto
Speaker 2: fruit snacks. So I've taken Mozella cheese and sprinkled it
Speaker 2: on a plate of Scooby diffruit snacks and put that
Speaker 2: in the microwave.
Speaker 5: Mm hmm.
Speaker 10: Ever they're like, hm hmm, sounds cheese of Scooby Doos
Speaker 10: fruit snacks.
Speaker 2: Yes, that's what I said. I've also done it on
Speaker 2: a pop tart before peg put them on a pop tart.
Speaker 8: Mm hmmm.
Speaker 5: I like spicy food.
Speaker 8: Let me try like spicy food.
Speaker 2: But go fix your smoke detectors.
Speaker 8: Not my selking sector man, m as far as like
Speaker 8: my lazy chair, I'm moving my I'm moving on my
Speaker 8: lazy chair right now.
Speaker 2: You're in a chair.
Speaker 8: Yeah, a lazy chair, like one of the Yeah, lazy chair.
Speaker 2: What's a lazy chair.
Speaker 8: It's like a chair. There's a lazy boy, but we
Speaker 8: call it here lazy chair. It's not my smoke detector, man,
Speaker 8: what is it?
Speaker 5: It's my lazy chair.
Speaker 8: It's kind of sneaky, like you or here.
Speaker 2: Oh, okay, so it's you.
Speaker 5: Yeah, it's me.
Speaker 2: I am so you're hold on So so you're in
Speaker 2: control of this noise?
Speaker 5: Yeah?
Speaker 2: Can you do it five times repeatedly?
Speaker 4: Mm hmm mm hmmm, mm hmmm mm hmmm mm hmmm.
Speaker 2: That's a different sound.
Speaker 8: That's not me, that's something else.
Speaker 5: Sure's not you.
Speaker 8: No, they might be hearing things. Then.
Speaker 2: I love you, Oscar.
Speaker 8: I don't know how to take that.
Speaker 2: Have a good rest of the night.
Speaker 8: Thanks you too, Paul.
Speaker 6: From Paul.
Speaker 4: Paul, Hello, gat O.
Speaker 5: Yes, what is going on? Man?
Speaker 2: You know I I'm in a room, I'm sitting in
Speaker 2: a chair. I'm broadcasting myself on the internet, which is
Speaker 2: a fairly new idea in the span of human history.
Speaker 2: Broadcasting I mean, actually, I mean, I mean, I guess
Speaker 2: broadcasting is also a fairly new idea depending on you
Speaker 2: know what, what what timeline you're comparing it to.
Speaker 9: Yeah, relatively speaking.
Speaker 2: I suppose, like right, I suppose writing and publishing has
Speaker 2: been around for a while, and that was sort of
Speaker 2: how people broadcasting themselves. But the idea of like real
Speaker 2: time broadcasting.
Speaker 9: Probably like forty years or so, yeah, something.
Speaker 2: I mean, I don't know when did radio? When when
Speaker 2: was radio invented?
Speaker 9: That was probably like radio, Yeah that's what I mean,
Speaker 9: like the twenties. Okay, I'm not sure. I don't have
Speaker 9: Google on me, all right, so this is I.
Speaker 2: Mean, I'm engaging in the medium that is still fairly new.
Speaker 2: It's it's like one hundred or so years old, so
Speaker 2: I'm still we're still working out the kinks.
Speaker 9: Of it, right, right, You having difficulties tonight.
Speaker 2: You know, I think I think it's going okay, I
Speaker 2: think you know, it's interesting because to broadcast nowadays, all
Speaker 2: you need is a computer and or a phone, whereas
Speaker 2: you know, one hundred years ago you needed a whole
Speaker 2: you satellites and a whole like radio studio. It was
Speaker 2: it was much less accessible than it is today.
Speaker 9: Right, But even then, like even if you had the
Speaker 9: satellites or whatnot. You had to have like a big
Speaker 9: name to gain some ground or some attention, where with
Speaker 9: the Internet you can paint your face green, dressed up
Speaker 9: like a get go and reach people from all around
Speaker 9: the world.
Speaker 2: It's true. It's true. We're broadcasting in fifty different countries
Speaker 2: this evening.
Speaker 5: That's that's that's insane, dude, that's pretty cool.
Speaker 2: I don't know, I don't know how many countries. I
Speaker 2: mean every country. I mean theoretically every country that has
Speaker 2: access to right you know, as I am broadcasting too currently.
Speaker 9: That's pretty cool.
Speaker 8: Does it.
Speaker 9: Do you have a way to, like see how many
Speaker 9: people you got at any given point that you're broadcasting.
Speaker 5: Does it tell you like you got? I'm sorry, what
Speaker 5: can you make?
Speaker 9: Paul, Oh, I recently started making pancakes.
Speaker 2: Recently started making pancakes.
Speaker 5: Paul, tell me, mm hmm.
Speaker 2: What inspired you to start making pancakes?
Speaker 9: You know, I like breakfast food, but I never like
Speaker 9: wake up early enough to have breakfast in the morning.
Speaker 9: So I went to grocery shopping. I was like, this weekend,
Speaker 9: h I'm just I'm gonna I'm gonna treat myself. I
Speaker 9: don't care what I'm gonna eat. Breakfast, but I'm just
Speaker 9: I'm gonna eat breakfast, you know. And so I got
Speaker 9: some eggs and some bacon, and then uh, I went
Speaker 9: ahead and just got the pancakes too, and put some
Speaker 9: strawberries on top. It was pretty pretty damn good.
Speaker 2: M hm. Okay, you started making pancakes. Did you share
Speaker 2: the pancakes with anyone? Did you eat them all yourself?
Speaker 8: No?
Speaker 10: I ate them all by myself.
Speaker 9: I haven't haven't gotten to uh to share my cooking
Speaker 9: with anybody here here recently. I need to share them
Speaker 9: because I mean, sharing is like sharing scaring.
Speaker 2: Are you looking perhaps for a lover to share the
Speaker 2: pancakes with?
Speaker 5: Oh?
Speaker 9: Well, I wouldn't be opposed to it, but uh, I
Speaker 9: mean my last relationship kind of ended pretty rough, so
Speaker 9: I'm not in any Why is that well that that
Speaker 9: there's multiple layers? I would have to say that neither
Speaker 9: one of us were necessarily ready for the relationship, but
Speaker 9: we were forcing it to work, and I just, you know,
Speaker 9: we just started clashing too much. She moved in pretty
Speaker 9: pretty early, and then just it just wasn't the right time.
Speaker 2: Paul, Why weren't you ready for a relationship?
Speaker 5: Damn dude, Uh, you know, like.
Speaker 9: Maybe I don't know how to, uh to give my
Speaker 9: myself away. You know, I'm I'm pretty stubborn, and uh
Speaker 9: it's it's hard for me. It's not necessarily hard for
Speaker 9: me to give, but I guess receive. You know, I'm
Speaker 9: afraid that somebody is just going to like drop me
Speaker 9: at like the next turn, you.
Speaker 2: Know, m afraid of opening up your heart.
Speaker 9: Yeah, I'm just I'm just afraid of getting hurt.
Speaker 2: It's a reasonable fear. Have you been hurt before?
Speaker 10: I would say so once or twice, But I mean
Speaker 10: that's just life.
Speaker 5: You know, you roll with the punches.
Speaker 2: Have you found in the previous two times that you
Speaker 2: have gotten hurt that the overall experience of the passion,
Speaker 2: the romance, the love, the lust, was it worth it
Speaker 2: the pain.
Speaker 7: In the end.
Speaker 9: Well, I mean like yes, but I could broaden that
Speaker 9: up to not just relationships. But I mean, like, I
Speaker 9: try not to live with regrets because at the end
Speaker 9: of the day, I am pretty proud of who I
Speaker 9: have become, no matter what kind of circumstance that I've
Speaker 9: put myself through or experience. So I mean, you got
Speaker 9: to take all the bad to make some good. I mean,
Speaker 9: like without the bad, like.
Speaker 5: What is good?
Speaker 2: Well said? Thank you for Shampaul, Thank you Gego have
Speaker 2: a good night you as well.
Speaker 5: All from Stay Till the Credits podcast? Okay till the
Speaker 5: Credits podcast?
Speaker 2: What?
Speaker 8: What?
Speaker 2: What podcasts are my own doing?
Speaker 5: Oh?
Speaker 11: I didn't think I was gonna make it on the call.
Speaker 2: Right now?
Speaker 11: Oh well, you're not on the podcast now, but I'm
Speaker 11: part of a podcast called Stay Till the Credits. We
Speaker 11: just talked about movies. I'm not here to promote myself,
Speaker 11: but like I just I'm representing the podcast.
Speaker 2: You are a little bit here to promote yourself. That's fine.
Speaker 11: Yeah, sorry, No, I didn't mean to do it. I
Speaker 11: didn't think I I tried to call me with my name,
Speaker 11: but but I just kept I have to keep calling.
Speaker 11: So sorry, more a little nervous.
Speaker 2: You know, here's the thing. Here's the thing is the
Speaker 2: way that you're explaining that, Like the actual words that
Speaker 2: you're using to explain this don't make sense. But the
Speaker 2: but hold on, hold on. But the energy that I'm
Speaker 2: sensing from you, the vibe that you've out make it
Speaker 2: what you are explaining makes perfect sense.
Speaker 5: Yeah.
Speaker 11: Sorry, I was just a little nervous.
Speaker 2: I don't think I was going to get on the
Speaker 2: call again. I don't understand the words. But the energy,
Speaker 2: the apologetic energy, uh, that you're presenting makes sense, but
Speaker 2: the words do not. That does that make sense?
Speaker 5: Yeah? I guess.
Speaker 11: So, I mean, do I have to answer the question
Speaker 11: of what can you make or not?
Speaker 2: I don't have to do anything? What do you mean
Speaker 2: have to do you mean have to?
Speaker 3: Like?
Speaker 2: Well, do you really mean when they say have to,
Speaker 2: Because if you explore that deeply enough, you don't have
Speaker 2: You genuinely don't ever have to do anything. The only
Speaker 2: reason you would ever have to do something is if
Speaker 2: you are trying to achieve some sort of end.
Speaker 11: Wow, that's super deep.
Speaker 2: I guess I mean, like, like, all right, like I
Speaker 2: have to eat food? Why to continue to live? What
Speaker 2: if I don't want to continue living? I could just
Speaker 2: stop eating food. I'm achieving an end here, So like,
Speaker 2: do you have to answer the question? I assume you
Speaker 2: mean like for the end of like properly participating in
Speaker 2: the stream whatever that means. But I don't think that's true.
Speaker 2: I think that we can just exist on the phone.
Speaker 2: Neither of us even have to be talking. I don't
Speaker 2: think I would be perfectly comfortable sitting in silence with
Speaker 2: you for as long as you would.
Speaker 4: Like me too.
Speaker 11: I'm watching you like talk to me, but obviously I
Speaker 11: put you on mute on the stream so I can
Speaker 11: listen to you on the phone. But yes, like I
Speaker 11: totally agree with you. I just I asked you if
Speaker 11: I had to answer because that's like the topic of
Speaker 11: the date, or that's what you said. It is actually
Speaker 11: my first time watching your stream.
Speaker 2: Oh wonderful. How did you find it?
Speaker 11: I've seen you a lot of times on TikTok and
Speaker 11: I always thought it would be interesting to give you
Speaker 11: a call, and so you since it's like a therapy
Speaker 11: get goal, I wanted to try.
Speaker 6: Why not?
Speaker 5: So you have.
Speaker 2: Played before in your mind maybe formed a schema.
Speaker 7: Or like.
Speaker 2: You've thought you've imagined yourself calling into the stream before,
Speaker 2: you have had a thought of what it might be like.
Speaker 2: Is that correct? Yeah?
Speaker 11: Yeah, it's been a couple of times.
Speaker 5: Yeah, I followed you on TikTok beautiful.
Speaker 2: And when you imagined calling into the stream, how did
Speaker 2: you imagine that might look?
Speaker 11: Well, I mean I just thought you could give me
Speaker 11: like a little advice. Sure, well it's a well, it's
Speaker 11: like a kind of a little like a little confession,
Speaker 11: so I wanted to see what your advice would be.
Speaker 11: But uh, it's about basically, I'm in I'm a senior
Speaker 11: in college right now, and I'm studying civil engineering, and
Speaker 11: a little confession is.
Speaker 13: That I kind of haven't learned a lot or probably nothing, sure,
Speaker 13: and I'm about to graduate, so I'm like terrified of
Speaker 13: how life is going to be after regulation.
Speaker 11: I graduated this December, so I really.
Speaker 5: Don't know what to do.
Speaker 2: Well, first of all, don't freak out. You are far
Speaker 2: from the very first person to graduate college not knowing anything.
Speaker 2: People have done it before and and gone on to
Speaker 2: live happy and successful lives. So so so don't don't
Speaker 2: freak outs. Don't freak outs. Okay, so you didn't learn anything.
Speaker 2: Why do you think you didn't learn anything?
Speaker 11: Well, one reason is that I have terrible memory, sure,
Speaker 11: And then another reason was probably that I'm just genuinely
Speaker 11: really bad at studying and it's just it just school
Speaker 11: is like always been like difficult for me, and like
Speaker 11: probably civil engineering was not the easiest or the best
Speaker 11: choice for me to get. But my my, one of
Speaker 11: my teachers in high school once told me that engineering
Speaker 11: is always going to be around them and everything. He
Speaker 11: kind of inspired me to go that way. But right
Speaker 11: now it's just I'm like a little scared, like what's
Speaker 11: going to happen? She is you know, like I said, said,
Speaker 11: I haven't learned much, and.
Speaker 5: Yeah, sure, are you good?
Speaker 2: Well are you? You said that you're not good at studying,
Speaker 2: which is okay. Are you? Are you good at anything?
Speaker 5: Do you do?
Speaker 2: You do you? Is there anything that you consider yourself
Speaker 2: good at anything? It could be playing Fortnite, but anything
Speaker 2: good at it?
Speaker 11: I'd say I'm I mean not it's not a skill,
Speaker 11: but I'd say I'm really good at caring for the
Speaker 11: people that are important in my life. I mean this
Speaker 11: is a little more personal. But a couple of days ago,
Speaker 11: I had like a really serious talk with my parents
Speaker 11: because they were in a fight and like I kind
Speaker 11: of got them together and like to like kind of
Speaker 11: like apologize to each other. Yeah, and also with like
Speaker 11: all my friends, like I always like to help them
Speaker 11: out with anything they want or anything they need. That's
Speaker 11: pretty much it.
Speaker 2: Okay, Okay, it's no. So you're a good mediator, You're
Speaker 2: you're good with people. Yeah, I try agree, And it's
Speaker 2: I mean, I don't know much about civil engineering, but
Speaker 2: it sounds like you'll be working more with UH, with
Speaker 2: machines than with people.
Speaker 7: Uh.
Speaker 11: I like to describe civil engineering like UH an advance
Speaker 11: and more advanced form of architecture, like that you design
Speaker 11: something and then you're like the architecture. The architecture can
Speaker 11: design anything they want, but the civil engineer will be
Speaker 11: the one that actually makes it work.
Speaker 5: Do you get me?
Speaker 2: Yeah?
Speaker 5: Yeah?
Speaker 2: Do you do you have a a okay, so, so,
Speaker 2: judging off the way that you just described that, I'm
Speaker 2: kind of curious. Do you have a genuine interest in
Speaker 2: this thing?
Speaker 11: Hm hmm, Well yes, because uh, well, like I like
Speaker 11: I told you about my teacher, my high school teacher
Speaker 11: before engineering, Like it's always been interesting to me. But
Speaker 11: I don't know, maybe I just chose the wrong engineering field.
Speaker 11: I'm not sure, because like there's a lot of different
Speaker 11: types of them, but yeah, I don't know.
Speaker 2: There are a type of and again, you know, I
Speaker 2: don't know a whole lot about engineering and the different fields,
Speaker 2: But is there a type of engineering that you think
Speaker 2: you might be better at, especially considering that you have
Speaker 2: a strong suit for a dealing with people?
Speaker 11: M h honestly, I don't know. I mean, if I'm
Speaker 11: being honest, what I really actually wanted to study, Like
Speaker 11: engineering guests is awesome, but what I really wanted to
Speaker 11: study was, uh, filmmaking. It's like completely different. And that's
Speaker 11: why I have my podcast with my best friend, like
Speaker 11: the one I said, I'm not going to promote it again,
Speaker 11: but but yeah, we always talk about movies, my best
Speaker 11: friend and I. That's like our favorite thing ever, and
Speaker 11: we just decided to talk about that. And like in
Speaker 11: one of our episodes, I talked about that that, like
Speaker 11: we're always talking about filmmaking and we both love it.
Speaker 11: And like for me, for example, like I want I
Speaker 11: don't want to be like an actor, Like I want
Speaker 11: to make movies.
Speaker 5: Like be a director.
Speaker 2: You ever made a movie before?
Speaker 11: No, but I have a script I have a script
Speaker 11: for I haven't finished it, but yes, I have a
Speaker 11: script for a movie that but I kind of like
Speaker 11: gave up on it.
Speaker 2: Yeah, is there anything stopping you from making a movie?
Speaker 2: Doesn't need a billion dollars, you know, if you got
Speaker 2: your cell phone, you can make a movie.
Speaker 11: Yeah, but yeah, I mean it's pretty much it's like money.
Speaker 11: Like obviously I know if I made that movie like
Speaker 11: it wouldn't be like an instant hit.
Speaker 5: But I just thought that.
Speaker 11: I thought of a story that interested me, and I
Speaker 11: just started writing it, but I never finished it.
Speaker 2: Well, here's one thing that you should know, because I
Speaker 2: know you feel you're probably very scared, because you know,
Speaker 2: you feel as though you've dedicated a lot of time
Speaker 2: so this engineering thing and then going oh shit, this
Speaker 2: actually is not what I want to do. And that's okay.
Speaker 2: You're what twenty two?
Speaker 5: Why you almost got it?
Speaker 11: Well, I'm going to be twenty two and on Halloween.
Speaker 2: Halloween's my birth twenty one. You're twenty one years old.
Speaker 2: What I am afraid of for you? So I don't
Speaker 2: want you to think that, Oh man, I spent all
Speaker 2: this time and now I'm graduating at twenty one and
Speaker 2: I'm fucked. You're You're absolutely not fucked. You know, you're
Speaker 2: actually in a really, really good spot. I think you should,
Speaker 2: but I don't know. I just I want you to
Speaker 2: have a good perspective on things because you're actually in
Speaker 2: an interesting spot. I don't know how much are you
Speaker 2: how much debt are you in? You in debt?
Speaker 11: I wouldn't say I'm in debt. I'm actually school that
Speaker 11: my financial leg kind of helps me out a little bit.
Speaker 11: So no, and I'm not really in debt.
Speaker 2: I mean I need money, but you're not in debt.
Speaker 5: No, I'm not in debt.
Speaker 11: I just I work out my school.
Speaker 2: Actually, but it's like minimum wage doesn't Matt. Sorry, So
Speaker 2: you're twenty one and you have no debt. Kind of
Speaker 2: that's beautiful. See, I don't want you to think you're fucked.
Speaker 2: I actually want you to take a different perspective. I
Speaker 2: want you to be like, oh shit, I'm twenty one
Speaker 2: and I have no debt. I might not have any money,
Speaker 2: but I have no debt, and I kind of don't
Speaker 2: have any responsibility to anyone or anything at this point.
Speaker 2: There's something freeing about that, you know. I don't. I
Speaker 2: don't want you to be paralyzed by this idea that
Speaker 2: you've you've you've chosen some college major and that that
Speaker 2: has to define you know, your entire life or anything.
Speaker 2: You know, Yeah, get sucked up by that. I don't
Speaker 2: want you to get sucked up by that.
Speaker 5: Thank you. I appreciate that.
Speaker 2: For sure. You said you found me on TikTok.
Speaker 11: Right, Yeah, I think I follow you on Instagram. I
Speaker 11: don't remember if I did, but.
Speaker 2: For sure on TikTok, do you ever make make TikTok?
Speaker 5: Actually, yeah, like we.
Speaker 11: Have a well I started, uh that TikTok for our
Speaker 11: podcast page, and we just I've done like some movie
Speaker 11: news and some like uh like little sketches like dealing
Speaker 11: with movies and stuff.
Speaker 2: Perfect. Keep doing that because you know, TikTok is the
Speaker 2: number one way to build an audience online, and building
Speaker 2: an audience online is the number one way to you know,
Speaker 2: make things and make money in the year of twenty
Speaker 2: twenty one. So keep doing that, and.
Speaker 11: Yeah, harder ta bail an audience a little bit.
Speaker 2: Keep trying, try different things. If you've posted like one
Speaker 2: hundred tiktoks in this one format, it's not working.
Speaker 7: Try to us.
Speaker 11: Yeah, I'm like, for sure, like this podcasting that we're doing,
Speaker 11: like it's it's kind of a hobby at that point,
Speaker 11: but me and my best friend, like we're really passionate
Speaker 11: about it, like we actually were trying getting our word
Speaker 11: out there.
Speaker 2: Keep trying. I like that idea. Look, here's the thing
Speaker 2: about TikTok, So you continue to try new things. Eventually
Speaker 2: the way is the way it works, eventually something will
Speaker 2: pop off if you continue to try new things. I
Speaker 2: will guarantee that for you. Yeah, but uh, don't don't.
Speaker 2: Don't be afraid that you're graduating from college, uh not
Speaker 2: knowing anything about civil engineering, because your entire life does
Speaker 2: not have to be defined negatively by the fact that
Speaker 2: you don't know anything about civil engineering, because there's lots
Speaker 2: and lots of you know, happy successful people out there
Speaker 2: who also do not know anything about civil engineering.
Speaker 5: Of course.
Speaker 11: Oh yeah, I feel you, thank you. I see people,
Speaker 11: Oh sorry, my name is one.
Speaker 2: What were you gonna say?
Speaker 11: I was just gonna say. I see people on the
Speaker 11: ted saying that I've been going on for too long,
Speaker 11: so I don't want to keep you for too long anymore.
Speaker 2: Don't listen to them. Sorry, no worries have aggressed that
Speaker 2: I am.
Speaker 11: Yeah, thank you so much.
Speaker 2: On the line, but he's not really an expert.