Speaker 1: Oh ship, I just burnt my bad. What up, y'all?
Speaker 1: Welcome Hi of motherfucking Hoary Blade Deccyons. This your girl,
Speaker 1: Mandy b a k A pet staying a k A
Speaker 1: that motherfucking bitch. I'm wheezy, you guys. It may not
Speaker 1: be our weekend, but we're gonna celebrate Juneteenth weekend in July,
Speaker 1: because why the funk not if you have this time off,
Speaker 1: if there's a holiday on your calendar, that maybe it
Speaker 1: wasn't a holiday for you. Fuck it, Let's just do
Speaker 1: a repeat Happy June team again. Well, I know everyone
Speaker 1: is like I guess, I'm not sure people are still
Speaker 1: celebrating the fourth. I know a lot of y'all are
Speaker 1: doing the fourth. I mean it's still like a holiday
Speaker 1: where I think people just want an excuse to get outside.
Speaker 1: I don't think they're really celebrating it. I just think
Speaker 1: people are gonna be outside. But we know motherfucking Florida
Speaker 1: ain't gonna be at the beaches though, y'all. Motherfuck girl,
Speaker 1: they closing the beach, they don't close the beaches and
Speaker 1: order on that ass. So I won't be going to
Speaker 1: Florida probably for the rest of the way. The motherfucker's
Speaker 1: are cutting up out there. So I told my mom,
Speaker 1: enjoy life, see you next year. Everything is good. I mean,
Speaker 1: I'll be honest with y'all. I'm leaving Mexico this week,
Speaker 1: as you're listening to it. It will be my last
Speaker 1: fucking day. But the second we're back on lockdown, Joe Tambien,
Speaker 1: whatever that means, I'm back in this bitch telling you
Speaker 1: I already know we're going on lockdown again. Um, I
Speaker 1: am actually like deep cleaning my apartment. I've been here
Speaker 1: for like four years now, but like I'm adding wallpaper,
Speaker 1: I threw everything out. I'm getting like some new furniture.
Speaker 1: I'm excited. I'm looking around right now like I'm redoing everything.
Speaker 1: So I spent too much money at home goods today. Um,
Speaker 1: I was talking to my boys science shout out of science.
Speaker 1: He got me getting the switch. So I'm about to
Speaker 1: get on some motherfucking video games and ship wants the motherfucker.
Speaker 1: Can you know, um lockdown happens again. I mean video
Speaker 1: games are fun as fun, and I feel like I
Speaker 1: don't play them enough. But I've been playing more games
Speaker 1: on my phone since Quarantine, like a decorating game. Actually,
Speaker 1: which is kind of like info for my apartment because
Speaker 1: is lit. I laid that ship fuck out. I went
Speaker 1: on Pinterest and like picked one color scheme, chose the
Speaker 1: photos I wanted on the wall, and he even kept
Speaker 1: the same photos but just put him in frames. It
Speaker 1: looks so much better without a fucking thumbtack in it.
Speaker 1: I don't know why I hadn't been adulting sucks. I like,
Speaker 1: what's crazy is like when your mom would be like, bitch,
Speaker 1: don't put don't put your feet on my couch. You
Speaker 1: don't really know what it means until you have to
Speaker 1: buy a couch in a bed and you see how
Speaker 1: fucking expensive furniture. The funck is. Um, I don't really,
Speaker 1: I guess I don't. I'm not really doing anything for
Speaker 1: the holiday, but I am making plans with my little
Speaker 1: toy friend. I've been on my period bit and so
Speaker 1: I'm like, damn, I feel like I had jo dicking
Speaker 1: forever because I'm getting I'm getting absinent dick. Yeah, but
Speaker 1: I moved out of my house. I've been in Long
Speaker 1: Island like because like so a pipe busting. So they
Speaker 1: got a check for mold. They have to do all this,
Speaker 1: which is why I got rid of everything. So I've
Speaker 1: literally been in Long Island while uh no, I didn't
Speaker 1: get no money, but they're making everything fine, which is
Speaker 1: why I'm just like, Okay, well maybe this is the
Speaker 1: push for the spring cleaning that I needed. Yeah. Sure.
Speaker 1: And so basically I'm in Long Island and bitch, it's
Speaker 1: like an over an hour away. So he's already come
Speaker 1: out there twice. But but she was coming over my
Speaker 1: crib every motherfucking day. He not coming along island every
Speaker 1: fucking day. Yeah, that's that's pretty far. What did I buy?
Speaker 1: Oh my couch? When I was like looking for a
Speaker 1: new couch, the one thing I knew I wanted was
Speaker 1: a modular sectional where the legs are like tucked in
Speaker 1: you can't really see them. And then I wanted it minimalists,
Speaker 1: so I picked modular. What is that you mean? It
Speaker 1: ain't got no legs like my mom with that guy
Speaker 1: she fucked in the story. If you don't know what
Speaker 1: we're talking about, go check back and listen to the episode.
Speaker 1: But anyway, let's get into some vanilla ship. And it's
Speaker 1: vanilla ship that's gonna remind you last week's episode, Like
Speaker 1: not the same thing. Because oh god, jamaicanishes No, that
Speaker 1: was not Jamaican at all. But I said that because
Speaker 1: the same thing. Doesn't like but you said the same
Speaker 1: because one is it corple is it coople and the
Speaker 1: author single and he's going to talk. Okay, we are
Speaker 1: not going to do this whole thing. And I try
Speaker 1: to get out, hold on, you're not because I hate it.
Speaker 1: I hate this motherfucking accent. But I don't even like accent.
Speaker 1: I don't like accent. So he's been saying he talking
Speaker 1: to and he's saying no, no, no, no, no no no.
Speaker 1: We're not gonna do that, y'all if you don't know
Speaker 1: what she's saying because I don't. Basically the vanilla ship
Speaker 1: for this week. UM. I love that we're actually to
Speaker 1: being able to talk about something current. UM. But I'm
Speaker 1: also glad that her comments came out since we've done
Speaker 1: this because I don't believe them. Well I do too,
Speaker 1: I guess before we get into this, I do want
Speaker 1: to play a clip, and so, bitch, I'm gonna get
Speaker 1: myt So we're going to play a clip from the
Speaker 1: interview UM that we're about to discuss. It is with
Speaker 1: august Alsina and Angela Yee shout out Angela Yee for
Speaker 1: such a dope interview. But we're gonna play the clip
Speaker 1: and we're gonna let y'all listen to it before we
Speaker 1: do a deep dit. Here's what I'll say. Uh, people
Speaker 1: can have whatever ideas that they like, but what I'm
Speaker 1: not okay with is my character, you know, being in
Speaker 1: question when certain things are questionable that I know it's
Speaker 1: not me, or that I know that I I haven't done.
Speaker 1: You know, contrary to what some people may believe, I'm
Speaker 1: not a troublemaker. You know, I don't. I don't like drama.
Speaker 1: Drama actually makes me nauseous, you know what I'm saying. Um,
Speaker 1: And I also don't think that it's ever important for
Speaker 1: people to know what I do, who I sleep with,
Speaker 1: who I date, Right, But in this instance, it's very
Speaker 1: different because, as I said, there's so many people that
Speaker 1: sideiring me looking at me questionable about it. I mean,
Speaker 1: I've lost money, friendships, relationships behind it, And um, I
Speaker 1: think it's it's because people don't necessarily know the truth.
Speaker 1: But I've never done anything wrong. I love those people literally,
Speaker 1: like my family, I don't ever have I don't have
Speaker 1: a bad thing to say about think they are beautiful people.
Speaker 1: You know, when something starts affecting my life, um, and
Speaker 1: not only affecting my life, but affecting my wellness and
Speaker 1: my my well being and also starts to block my heart,
Speaker 1: my heart space is blocked, I don't really have a
Speaker 1: choice but to express my truth. I actually sat down
Speaker 1: with Will and had a conversation due to the transformation
Speaker 1: from their marriage to life partnership that they've spoken only
Speaker 1: several times, and it you know, not involving romanticism. He
Speaker 1: gave me his blessing and I totally gave myself to
Speaker 1: that relationship for years of my life, you know. And
Speaker 1: I truly and really really deeply loved and have a
Speaker 1: ton of love for her. Um. I devoted myself to it.
Speaker 1: I gained my full self to it, so much so
Speaker 1: to the point that I can die right now and
Speaker 1: be okay with knowing that I truly gave myself to somebody.
Speaker 1: Right And now we're about to do a deep do
Speaker 1: what you heard, by the way, just to just sum
Speaker 1: it up, there's been rumored that he was dating Jada
Speaker 1: Pinkett Smith, and so if you look at some pictures
Speaker 1: that people have seen online, they've said they were together,
Speaker 1: and basically he addressed those rumors, saying that he was
Speaker 1: once romantically linked to her, and he claimed that Will
Speaker 1: approved it and it transformed into what he described as
Speaker 1: a non romantic life partnership. Now that is in regards
Speaker 1: to their marriage. However, I do want to say this,
Speaker 1: which I kind of get annoyed that people are like
Speaker 1: acting like their marriage means nothing. They were just saying
Speaker 1: the marriage they felt like could be up and down,
Speaker 1: like people use that word and you see people get
Speaker 1: divorced whatever. So they're just saying, no matter what happens,
Speaker 1: we will always be together. They never have said that
Speaker 1: they weren't romantically involved anymore. And I'm talking about Will
Speaker 1: and Jada specifically. So from what you heard in the clip,
Speaker 1: that was a whole runaround of basically stars and moon
Speaker 1: and love, and it sounds like they fucking no they
Speaker 1: So I don't even know if y'all remember we've had
Speaker 1: many episodes where we've talked about celebrity couples that we
Speaker 1: would want to fuck. I've oftentimes said Will and Jada,
Speaker 1: I want both of they finances. But also because I
Speaker 1: feel like Will either gets pegged or as a cook
Speaker 1: and they are super into the swinging, like you feel
Speaker 1: like he does. Um, well, this is something that they've mentioned,
Speaker 1: Like even Jada was like, listen, even if we together
Speaker 1: and you gotta go be with somebody else at the
Speaker 1: other side of the house. And by the way, and
Speaker 1: I don't know if y'all know, but I know the
Speaker 1: teeth gonna come out soon because Titia Campbell ain't happy.
Speaker 1: Word on the street is and y'all this ain't coming
Speaker 1: from me to coming from the screets, but that Will
Speaker 1: actually had a romantic relationship with Dwayne Martin and he's
Speaker 1: the reason, well one of the reasons that him and
Speaker 1: Titia Campbell got a divorce. So I feel like they
Speaker 1: have an open relationship sort of arrangement where both of
Speaker 1: them can have other partners. I think it's also funny.
Speaker 1: There was a clip circulating about um where Will was
Speaker 1: getting a massage, and I don't know if it was
Speaker 1: even by August or not, but he was like, oh,
Speaker 1: a man, only a man knows how to please a
Speaker 1: man the right way. And I was like, I saw
Speaker 1: that clip and I was like, Okay, now I will
Speaker 1: say this much if that was true, because like that's
Speaker 1: been a little rumor for a long time. There Will
Speaker 1: was by I feel like it's so necessary because we
Speaker 1: really don't have any prominent bisexual male black figures at all.
Speaker 1: I said, I I tweeted it, I said, I would
Speaker 1: love for him to come out and be there. If
Speaker 1: it's true, I don't want, I don't. I don't know
Speaker 1: if it's true, of course, we don't know. But moreover,
Speaker 1: let's talk about why it kind of relates to Last week.
Speaker 1: A lot of people were making jokes about how the
Speaker 1: Throutle episode came just in time, but I didn't take
Speaker 1: it as something that was happening between the three of them.
Speaker 1: For me, what they've given off is that they're both
Speaker 1: very comfortable with the other person having other partners, which
Speaker 1: is not trouble. It's not, I mean, to me, that's
Speaker 1: ethical nonmonogamy. Um, I don't even I mean ship Will
Speaker 1: got with Jada while she was still super fucking in
Speaker 1: love with Tupac, so he's pretty much had to share
Speaker 1: Jada their whole relationship anyways, because that woman has not
Speaker 1: given up on her love for another man, being Tupac,
Speaker 1: even though he's dead. So I mean, I just think
Speaker 1: that they haven't understanding going on. But aside from that, UM,
Speaker 1: I think it's interesting that Will and Jada have come
Speaker 1: out and denied that Will. Will came out and denied that, um,
Speaker 1: there was any situation at all, and then Jada was like,
Speaker 1: so I never had an fair and so I think
Speaker 1: that that says a lot. I can't here you. Maybe
Speaker 1: she thinks she didn't have an affair. You're not wait wait, wait,
Speaker 1: you're not gonna don't mute this mic because you're it's
Speaker 1: not going well, So it's fine, just don't mute the
Speaker 1: mic anymore. Well, do you want to keep on doing
Speaker 1: the episode? Because I don't know if they're gonna stop hammering.
Speaker 1: I mean, I guess we'll keep doing it. But if
Speaker 1: you're like, I don't want to keep talking and I
Speaker 1: feel like you're not, I can't. All right, Well, if
Speaker 1: it goes on another ten minutes, then we can stop.
Speaker 1: So let me just mark the minute where we are
Speaker 1: hold on ten minutes exactly, Okay, UM, I don't know.
Speaker 1: I think that maybe Will, I mean, Jada is saying
Speaker 1: that it's not an affair because it's not in her eyes,
Speaker 1: and I'm hoping that's what she discusses on the Red
Speaker 1: Table talk because to me, an affair is deceit and
Speaker 1: lying and cheating, And if you do have an understanding
Speaker 1: in your marriage where you can be with other people,
Speaker 1: then no, you're not having an affair. So I get
Speaker 1: why it would be bothersome to her because if she
Speaker 1: really believes that she's respecting the boundaries of her marriage,
Speaker 1: and that's what she does. Also, people on Twitter are
Speaker 1: weird at fuck the way that like they're dissected and like,
Speaker 1: I'm kind of Twitter and try to dissect us and
Speaker 1: don't know us. Twitter is for the I mean, Twitter
Speaker 1: is a great laugh if you follow the right people.
Speaker 1: It's also a great secondary source for porn. But Twitter
Speaker 1: porn a whole bunch of not ship. I told you
Speaker 1: that's where I find all of like my good amateur
Speaker 1: porn stars as Twitter. So I love it well, I
Speaker 1: really hope and I wish these these two piece because
Speaker 1: honestly and truly Will and Jada are a couple of
Speaker 1: goals for all of us. I think they're dope as ship,
Speaker 1: and it makes me sad to think that people may
Speaker 1: be thinking less of suck his dick and eat her pussy,
Speaker 1: like bring it in and if you want to add
Speaker 1: August in there too, all he needs to be fine.
Speaker 1: I don't know what he had going on with that hair. Okay,
Speaker 1: the hair was bad, but girl, everybody has a bad
Speaker 1: she's going on with? What was he? Was that his project?
Speaker 1: Because it was on his YouTube? What did he have
Speaker 1: going on? I thought there was like teases of angel.
Speaker 1: He did just release. He just released a new album,
Speaker 1: which actually I enjoy it. Okay, so that was that
Speaker 1: was ut? Yeah, not that this is a music podcast,
Speaker 1: but it's called the Project three State of Emergency. I
Speaker 1: enjoy it. I love I don't know how August and
Speaker 1: Mandy know each other, but we don't. Calm down. Calm
Speaker 1: down the Project three. If you're cast in the crapt twelve,
Speaker 1: calm damn bit. I love me some August Alsina, and
Speaker 1: I love that he has a new project out, like
Speaker 1: I'm here for what an album drop? Speaking of pussy eating,
Speaker 1: you said he would eat um Jada's pussy. This is
Speaker 1: a very basic horridor. I mean I was about to say,
Speaker 1: I feel like you've given this tip like thirty thousand times. No,
Speaker 1: but it's now it's got some stats to it. No, no no, no,
Speaker 1: I haven't given this tip particularly. I talk a lot
Speaker 1: about like things to do with your mouth, but circles
Speaker 1: on the clip. A study there was a study done
Speaker 1: at the Indiana University of one thousand and fifty five women,
Speaker 1: and three out of four of them like tracing circles
Speaker 1: on their clip with fingers or tongue. Now, of course
Speaker 1: you can ask somebody what they want, but assuming that
Speaker 1: you're not asking questions or you're trying something new, this
Speaker 1: circular motion is. Honestly, I think I do it when
Speaker 1: I masturbate, now that I'm thinking about it, like and
Speaker 1: I'm like rubbing this way, I probably am, I think,
Speaker 1: I see. And if I don't have UM, if I
Speaker 1: don't have my womanizer, I feel like I finger like this,
Speaker 1: like I don't feel like I do circles. I feel
Speaker 1: like I go like I see. The other day, I
Speaker 1: had to do it while this nile was asleep. He
Speaker 1: wasn't feeling well, so I couldn't get it. So I
Speaker 1: was like, okay, I'm just masturbate, and I was trying
Speaker 1: not to like move my hand too much like this way.
Speaker 1: So I did some circular ship bitch that I killed it.
Speaker 1: I killed my own pussy. I fucking took my entire hand,
Speaker 1: not just two fingers, but like all the palm and everything,
Speaker 1: and like circular motion my clip. Oh my god, it
Speaker 1: was amazing. It was like I was so proud of
Speaker 1: myself that I felt guilty that he missed out. It
Speaker 1: was really good. But I just want to say that
Speaker 1: the alphabet thing that you guys are learning about pussy
Speaker 1: eating isn't necessarily the right way. I think it's just
Speaker 1: trying to get your tongue in a less awkward motion,
Speaker 1: but trying not to just use your tongue, also use
Speaker 1: your mouth, like making your mouth a suction cup over
Speaker 1: the clip, and like going in a rotating motion that
Speaker 1: helps actually moving your head. Don't be scared. It's so
Speaker 1: crazy because so I know we're doing like these sex tips,
Speaker 1: and I've been thinking of tips along the way of
Speaker 1: me getting absident dick because I have a nigga that
Speaker 1: I cannot keep up with now only fucking ship the
Speaker 1: absinent dick that I've been getting. Holy fuck, I did.
Speaker 1: I've done new positions that I want to share with
Speaker 1: y'all what it is absent and shout out on the
Speaker 1: sex said Mandy and I were both featured on her
Speaker 1: season finale about and when I did it, I was absinent.
Speaker 1: You gotta stop bullshit and people take their absince that's cool.
Speaker 1: Did they take it seriously? Bitch? I did too for
Speaker 1: the two and a half months anymore. But now this
Speaker 1: is the dick that I was getting while I was
Speaker 1: telling Hose I was absinent, when I really wasn't. So
Speaker 1: bitches my absentent dick Ho France said, I can be absinent.
Speaker 1: It's still good dick, and I just don't have to
Speaker 1: tell nobody. So now I'm openly telling y'all that for
Speaker 1: the month, one of the months that I said I
Speaker 1: was abstinent, I was getting motherfucking dick and it was
Speaker 1: the best dick that I got in line? Do you know?
Speaker 1: Real quick? Let me tell you how bad it is?
Speaker 1: Is it bad that I gave him sevens ring tone? Bitch?
Speaker 1: I switched all seven tone and gave it to this nigga.
Speaker 1: Now I hear it's his ring because no, I'm because
Speaker 1: it vibrates and keeps going on and I'm able to
Speaker 1: hear it, and so this is this is his ring tone?
Speaker 1: Hello the playground, play five place. Well, do you know
Speaker 1: how I know the name of that ring tone? How
Speaker 1: do you know the ring? I'll tell you you guys
Speaker 1: are not gonna believe this, and I can't take the
Speaker 1: same ring so far our lovers. Miss Wheezy, who does
Speaker 1: not believe in birth control, got so scared when I
Speaker 1: had to take four Mexican pregnancy tests that Joe now
Speaker 1: on birth control, okay, And I said, what alarm am
Speaker 1: I gonna use to remind me to not get pregnant
Speaker 1: and take this pill? And it is playtime because it's
Speaker 1: so fucking childish that it makes me. It is. So
Speaker 1: the reason why I like it is because it's the
Speaker 1: only ring tone that will wake me up in my
Speaker 1: sleep because it vibrates and rings and it goes on forever.
Speaker 1: It's not just like ring no, but like when I
Speaker 1: get a ding, it's just a thing. I don't wake
Speaker 1: up on ding, But this one plays for like fucking
Speaker 1: four seconds, so bitch, I wake up for that whole
Speaker 1: And now that it's also triggered me to a booty
Speaker 1: call message because it was sevens, it's just like I
Speaker 1: know who's hitting me. So I'm magine that my nigga's
Speaker 1: ring tone is your birth control alarm. Well, it just
Speaker 1: feels like a fucking baby, like, well, he my baby, yo,
Speaker 1: know what I mean? I'm sick. I don't want to leave.
Speaker 1: On the Patreon episode, them Hose was roasting us, like, damn,
Speaker 1: we're gonna have to call y'all responsible decisions for relationship decisions.
Speaker 1: It's the rugs that sounds like it sounds like you're
Speaker 1: about to hop on some dick. Okay, don't say rug Rats,
Speaker 1: well I talk about I have to know some dude
Speaker 1: is going to think of rug Rats. That's what they
Speaker 1: stole that fucking beat from. Do you think so? Yes?
Speaker 1: I do? Rug Rats was rug Rats? Was? I was
Speaker 1: just working watching this uh comedy show where who was it?
Speaker 1: Was it? Andre Well? I watched Tiffany had his y'all
Speaker 1: that whole is not funny. It's leaf, but I did
Speaker 1: not really Tiffany had her stand up on Netflix. Was
Speaker 1: that's she and I love her kudos the Black Women,
Speaker 1: but she just wasn't funny. I wanted to like Amanda
Speaker 1: steels Um stand up. I didn't like that too much either.
Speaker 1: I like check Hers, yet I actually changed a lot
Speaker 1: of my feelings towards her. I really didn't like her
Speaker 1: first because I just felt like, oh, you didn't like her,
Speaker 1: now you like her. She's growing on me. Yeah. I
Speaker 1: just felt like she was just too brash. And then
Speaker 1: people that I know personally have said things about their
Speaker 1: encounters with her which made me also not like her.
Speaker 1: That influenced my opinion. But not even that. It's just
Speaker 1: like her attitude about like, well you don't like me,
Speaker 1: fuck you. It's like do you want us to buy
Speaker 1: books and watch your ship? Like? I mean, I feel
Speaker 1: like I have that attitude, but to me, to me,
Speaker 1: she just comes off kind of contradictory, like and I
Speaker 1: feel like she never really apologized to the black man
Speaker 1: that she accluded accused of sexual assault and that came
Speaker 1: out to be innocent, like and that it really didn't happen.
Speaker 1: And I just feel like it she just is constantly
Speaker 1: on the attack of black men that I don't like,
Speaker 1: but she has a lot of black men friends. Well. See,
Speaker 1: here's the thing. Though I I appreciate it. I really
Speaker 1: didn't like her breakfast club interview, but she did say
Speaker 1: one thing. She was like, everybody feels like I attacked
Speaker 1: black men, but she's like, I would rather us check
Speaker 1: our own and somebody else do it, and she's right.
Speaker 1: Black men do need to be checked. I mean, they're
Speaker 1: killing trans women more than anybody else. Like it. Ain't
Speaker 1: like black men are now here fucking up and I
Speaker 1: would prefer one of our own to do it in
Speaker 1: some random motherfucker, But I mean where where. What I
Speaker 1: like that what she said is for her people. She's like,
Speaker 1: I'm a writer for my people, and when you guys
Speaker 1: understand and see what I'm trying to do, then you'll
Speaker 1: appreciate me. And I'll wait to see what she's trying
Speaker 1: to do because I don't get it. Well, I'll wait,
Speaker 1: I'll wait. I think I think she educates people a
Speaker 1: lot more than we realize, even if it's not me
Speaker 1: or you. Like what Shaun King's page does and a
Speaker 1: lot of people find him to be controversial. I'd rather
Speaker 1: follow a man to seals for that. And I don't
Speaker 1: really like her, but I'd rather have the message from
Speaker 1: a black girl than somebody else. But speaking of changed opinions,
Speaker 1: today's episode is gonna be because horrible Decisions has made
Speaker 1: some decisions, and over the last three and a half years,
Speaker 1: we have changed our minds on a lot of different things.
Speaker 1: If you guys were listening to our Patreon episode. One
Speaker 1: of the things I said was Mandy saying lovers, and
Speaker 1: I remember fat, She's like, my lover is my lovers.
Speaker 1: I'm like, bitch, when you started saying this, She's like,
Speaker 1: I understaid that how I could call him my lovers?
Speaker 1: Never did you, bitch? Because you asked me why I
Speaker 1: called niggas my lovers, I said, why not? Probably, but
Speaker 1: but I do love these niggas now as friends. And
Speaker 1: what's crazy is even like, and when we get into
Speaker 1: this conversation, fuck you oh, because I know that they're
Speaker 1: my lovers now, but it's crazy because we're now having
Speaker 1: the conversation like me and my my lovers, the ones
Speaker 1: who have been around for for quite some time, the
Speaker 1: ones who have wives and nonetheless, I have been in
Speaker 1: my life for a very um long minute. I've let
Speaker 1: them know because some of them want to see me.
Speaker 1: And I said, well, I'm I'm dealing with somebody at
Speaker 1: the moment, so I'm having to let my hose. No
Speaker 1: kind of got some mad ay. Even one was in
Speaker 1: my life the other day and I started talking about
Speaker 1: him and he's gonna roll his eyes. I'm like, nigga,
Speaker 1: didnt get out my life. How do you know he
Speaker 1: rolled his eyes because he rolled his eyes in front
Speaker 1: of everybody in an emoji. No the emoji, that's what
Speaker 1: I'm talking about, a little emoji in more comments. So
Speaker 1: I had to check him, like, wouldn't say off my
Speaker 1: life because it's super contradictory. Like niggas expect girls to
Speaker 1: always be like, okay whatever when they get women in
Speaker 1: their lives, but it's not the same for us, like
Speaker 1: the fun Oh I got a girl, but no nigger. Anyway,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna start with number one. I can't believe I'm
Speaker 1: about to say it, but here I felt like in
Speaker 1: the beginning of this show, and actually I'll say maybe
Speaker 1: it's recently. A six months ago, I did not appreciate
Speaker 1: casual sex for myself without him you show, did it?
Speaker 1: It used to come for me like I'm my god.
Speaker 1: I could not because I felt like, if you don't
Speaker 1: have a connection with somebody, what's the point in like
Speaker 1: wasting your body, Like what the what's the point? And
Speaker 1: like when you have that experience, but it's just not
Speaker 1: I don't know, like without chemistry. But I will say
Speaker 1: this much, and maybe it's because I got a nigga,
Speaker 1: but I realized if I wanted to have a flame,
Speaker 1: I could mainly because my emotions are somewhere else. So
Speaker 1: maybe I really do still need the emotions. But the
Speaker 1: more I think about it, you know, I have these
Speaker 1: moments where I'll think about sleeping when people it comes
Speaker 1: across my mind. I'm like why why now? But not
Speaker 1: usually have I felt that way, And I think it's
Speaker 1: because I have my emotional connection, I have my love,
Speaker 1: I have my safety. So now it's like, okay, I
Speaker 1: could fund wouldn't naked just cause I just want you
Speaker 1: all to know that. This is why we have this
Speaker 1: show to say how dumb as women are. Do you
Speaker 1: know I'm in the complete opposite like scenario now, like
Speaker 1: where I finally have feelings for a nigga. So I'm like, nah,
Speaker 1: I don't even want no other dick. I'm good with
Speaker 1: this dick that I got because now I actually liked
Speaker 1: the nigga. What this is I just because I'm in love.
Speaker 1: I just know it's not going nowhere. You know what
Speaker 1: I'm saying. We're talking about babies buying property, second homes.
Speaker 1: He ain't going nowhere. Neither somebody wants some dick, bitch,
Speaker 1: because I need Miami. I'm gonna get it now. It's crazy.
Speaker 1: And I literally was like, I'm gonna behave in Miami.
Speaker 1: I literally let him know before going to Miami that
Speaker 1: was gonna behave, Like, I don't want no casual dick,
Speaker 1: no extra dick, no other dick. However, and I'm gonna
Speaker 1: say it on the pod because y'all could come and
Speaker 1: check me if y'all need to. But beat you see,
Speaker 1: the sex clubs open here in New York, and so
Speaker 1: I was thinking of taking them the one because they're
Speaker 1: going through COVID like they're gonna you know, they like
Speaker 1: Daniels be Well, No, I'm I'm down to have people
Speaker 1: watch us and for us to watch others. I don't
Speaker 1: think we'll partake in joining anybody, but I feel like
Speaker 1: in a sex club, bitch, there'll be less people in
Speaker 1: there than what wasn't home Goods. Home Goods have a
Speaker 1: capacity of ninety four people, bitch. So I'm like, as
Speaker 1: long as we just watch and don't interact with another couple,
Speaker 1: I think we'll be fine. I don't think, well, yeah,
Speaker 1: voyeurism is a great and safe way to the only
Speaker 1: thing with sex clubs is, and here's where my bouges
Speaker 1: kicks in them beds. I don't care how nice the
Speaker 1: sex club is. I don't fuss in a stairwell. I
Speaker 1: don't give a full I'm not saying that I give
Speaker 1: or don't give a funk. What stairwells are different because
Speaker 1: you're standing up so you can stand up on a bed,
Speaker 1: You're only on your head. Like even if you get so,
Speaker 1: just stand on your bitch, just just get from the
Speaker 1: bad because then y'all are on your knees. I need
Speaker 1: to be the first person on the bed, That's all
Speaker 1: I'm saying. And if you guys have every just sex club,
Speaker 1: you don't know what I'm talking about, because in my
Speaker 1: drunkest and highest moment, it still kicks in where I'm like,
Speaker 1: oh my god, there's like someone came here and it's
Speaker 1: not time that I've had. And I don't know if
Speaker 1: you fucking hotels, what the fun you think they washed them? Mandy?
Speaker 1: And first of all, you know I'm a stand for
Speaker 1: a bougie hotel. They don't matter. Other people have fucked
Speaker 1: in that bed. I got mattress with clean sheets on
Speaker 1: top of them. You want to tell me that there's
Speaker 1: a difference from a brand new fucking fourth Seasons Hotel
Speaker 1: band from the Sex Club bed that Nigga's just I
Speaker 1: think that they changed the same way they changed the
Speaker 1: I've never seen anyone in the sex club change sheets,
Speaker 1: have you bright? Have you saw your may change sheets? No,
Speaker 1: they change it when you leave, and maybe they don't
Speaker 1: even change it. Bit you don't even really know. You
Speaker 1: don't know what Maria doing. Hope. Wow. But anyway, y'all,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna say something that has changed for me over
Speaker 1: the last three years and something that I've learned from
Speaker 1: this podcast, and it's actually um differentiating between female and woman.
Speaker 1: It's a conversation I actually just recently had with my mom. Um.
Speaker 1: We had the conversation regarding not only Dwyane Wade's son,
Speaker 1: but just like having the conversation, and I want to
Speaker 1: say it was Sam Sam. White people got on it.
Speaker 1: We they got on us because we was like female
Speaker 1: woman women females blocked and we didn't really know the difference.
Speaker 1: And so I guess for those of you who are
Speaker 1: tuning in, there is actually a difference. Female is your
Speaker 1: gender assigned at birth. Woman is how you identify and
Speaker 1: So it's crazy because I also just had this conversation
Speaker 1: with um my toy friend and we had the conversation
Speaker 1: between um feminine and masculine and sub and dom and
Speaker 1: we I was basically letting him know that even someone
Speaker 1: who is gay can still be masculine and just how um,
Speaker 1: just because you're gay doesn't mean that you're not masculine
Speaker 1: and presenting or that you don't have masculine traits and
Speaker 1: what you do in the bedroom doesn't make you feminine.
Speaker 1: So we had those conversations, and I think honestly just
Speaker 1: with this, with this podcast, I mean, those are things
Speaker 1: that we've been checked on by guests and we've learned
Speaker 1: and we've adjusted our I guess vocabulary since then. So yeah,
Speaker 1: so the use of woman and female, that's something that
Speaker 1: I've definitely um changed in my day to day life
Speaker 1: since started this podcast. Um So, what's your number two?
Speaker 1: I'm actually gonna side track into this because I learned
Speaker 1: some stuff yesterday and honest to God, really surprised me. Um. So,
Speaker 1: one of the things that I have changed my stance
Speaker 1: on well, not necessarily stands, but uh, just understanding of
Speaker 1: why people do it is the ill culture and it
Speaker 1: recently came up from some conversation on Twitter, but I
Speaker 1: want to particularly say something because you just said masculine presenting.
Speaker 1: So when I think about download culture, I'm like, Okay,
Speaker 1: a dude who's straight or man, right, this is how
Speaker 1: I think from what I know, doue to straight or
Speaker 1: married to a woman, and he's downlow fucking niggas. However,
Speaker 1: I found out a lot about d L being a
Speaker 1: subculture within Grinder and ship like that. So let me
Speaker 1: read you guys what I found. It's obviously obvious to
Speaker 1: me an African Americans laying term black term for men
Speaker 1: who usually identify as hetero but have sex with men. Now,
Speaker 1: there are many cases where it's referred to as a
Speaker 1: sexual identity because men are using it to wipe out
Speaker 1: perceived norms about masculine attributes. So if a man is
Speaker 1: actually gay and saying he's down low, in some cases,
Speaker 1: he is referring to his attitude, how he looks, and
Speaker 1: his behavior, much like saying mask. A lot of black
Speaker 1: men are saying d L as how they come off
Speaker 1: to the world. And I wanted to just share just
Speaker 1: a few things about why black men have done this.
Speaker 1: At of it has to do with the church. UM.
Speaker 1: I did some research and found out that the Black
Speaker 1: Church has been the most unaccepting of Black ay Men,
Speaker 1: which to no surprise, I mean, the most disrespected person
Speaker 1: in the country and America's Malcolm X has said as
Speaker 1: the black woman. But I believe secondary to that is
Speaker 1: black ay men, if not the top of the totem pole.
Speaker 1: It's been a lot, a lot more of a struggle
Speaker 1: for a black a men at work with their families,
Speaker 1: safety reasons, not being beat up where they're from, um
Speaker 1: or from whoever. And I actually just got a little
Speaker 1: bit of a quote from a friend of the show, UM,
Speaker 1: Jerome Trammel, who brought up UM, Marcus Willoughby. If you
Speaker 1: guys remember it's someone who killed themselves over being d
Speaker 1: l and being caught on video and being found out
Speaker 1: in that way, um allegedly And he said, and I quote,
Speaker 1: the reason there has been download men and men who
Speaker 1: cannot disclose they sleep with is because heater black women.
Speaker 1: Men and especially black women do not allow black men
Speaker 1: to express and explore their sexuality without scrutiny. Black men
Speaker 1: are only allowed to be straight or gay if there
Speaker 1: by they date trans women and etcetera are labeled gay,
Speaker 1: which is a trash way of thinking. The narrative of
Speaker 1: men should just be honest is bullshit because when they are,
Speaker 1: they faced backlash and been persecuted. Marcus will would be
Speaker 1: suffered depression, was bullied online a viral video for openly
Speaker 1: dating a trans girl and later committed suicide. And I
Speaker 1: think that it's just good to acknowledge, you know, it's obviously.
Speaker 1: I think the thing that we all don't agree with
Speaker 1: is the lying, especially in a partnership where you are
Speaker 1: with a woman and you can't be honest about your
Speaker 1: other side. But we all just as a community have
Speaker 1: to make that open space. And I think that's truly
Speaker 1: what horrible decision is is making a space for people
Speaker 1: to be comfortable about their sexuality. And I just want
Speaker 1: us to recognize that the next time we meet somebody closeted,
Speaker 1: especially black men who may not feel safe to come out.
Speaker 1: Um It, It's it's not easy. I mean, little nas X,
Speaker 1: totally young, fun black boy, people still shooting on him
Speaker 1: on fucking Twitter is insane to me for being gay
Speaker 1: and who's open and comfortable with being gay. But what
Speaker 1: I will say that I'm impressed by is him not
Speaker 1: coming out until he had that hit single. It's like,
Speaker 1: let me make my way and then you niggas can know,
Speaker 1: because I need to know you already fun with me.
Speaker 1: Same with Frank Ocean, and I just appreciate those men
Speaker 1: out there who have been you know, able to come
Speaker 1: out and also shed my love to those who haven't
Speaker 1: found the way to do it yet. Yeah, I definitely
Speaker 1: think that it's a it's a loaded conversation and I
Speaker 1: don't think that, UM, we would do that conversation justice.
Speaker 1: So if there are any maybe down low men, we
Speaker 1: can find a way to keep you anonymous, but maybe
Speaker 1: to get you on UM across with with a gay man,
Speaker 1: to have that conversation of what it's like and what
Speaker 1: you go through. I would definitely like to have that. UM.
Speaker 1: I have been in relations and and had friends who
Speaker 1: have lived that lifestyle, and I know that it it
Speaker 1: hurts them and hurts everyone involved UM more than anything.
Speaker 1: So that's definitely a conversation I think we should we
Speaker 1: should bring to the podcast. But just also it has
Speaker 1: more so to do with the fact that society doesn't
Speaker 1: accept sexuality. It's the same way children are sexual sexualized
Speaker 1: at an early age. It's the same way. Why if
Speaker 1: a woman wears, you know, skin clad clothes, she asked
Speaker 1: to be raped, And for whatever reason, society just has
Speaker 1: this dumb ask almost entitlement to to everyone's sexuality and
Speaker 1: judges someone based on what they like to do behind
Speaker 1: closed doors and who they love. And I think that, um,
Speaker 1: we won't see the you know, the dismantle of the
Speaker 1: del culture until society learns that your sexuality does not
Speaker 1: make you as a person and who you are and
Speaker 1: doesn't change who you are. So again, yeah, it does
Speaker 1: our community more than it is everyone else's. Like it's
Speaker 1: been so hard for black men to come out and
Speaker 1: black women as well. And I feel like, you know,
Speaker 1: I said it to me yesterdays, like white people throw
Speaker 1: you see their coming out parties and black people it's
Speaker 1: not the same energy and um, and a lot of
Speaker 1: cultures that minority written cultures. But mainly, you know, the
Speaker 1: thing that I read about the church that I found
Speaker 1: to be so interesting that I didn't even understand really
Speaker 1: was like the bullshit, I mean for real, Like it's
Speaker 1: that this idea of perpetuating that you know, homosexuality is gay,
Speaker 1: and for some reason, the fact that we grow up
Speaker 1: thinking that and being brainwashed to thinking that it's wrong
Speaker 1: or that it's bad and you know. Um, but just
Speaker 1: just to quickly add the other thing that I did
Speaker 1: find on gay hook up apps that um, it's saying
Speaker 1: as far as Grinder. Also in Craigslist, when you select
Speaker 1: d L, it's a coded went way for men to say,
Speaker 1: I'm looking to have sex with men, but I don't
Speaker 1: talk or act like the stereotype, which to me is
Speaker 1: even more insulting. It's kind of weird. Just use the
Speaker 1: word mask if you want to say that. Um, but yeah,
Speaker 1: I mean it says here from a few quotes Jeffrey McCune,
Speaker 1: who has done some like scholarly work on the download phenomenon,
Speaker 1: he says, churches technically in essence require black men to
Speaker 1: be on the d L and basically, I mean judges
Speaker 1: is bullshit. Um and and shot if you're a new
Speaker 1: listener to if you would go back and listen to
Speaker 1: UM sex in the church, it was featuring um Corey
Speaker 1: and Pastor Corey and it was just that he had
Speaker 1: oh yeah, he discussed it as well. UM. I guess
Speaker 1: so something else that has changed for me from the
Speaker 1: beginning of this podcast. So now y'all all know my
Speaker 1: views on feet, and um, I'm gonna say something that
Speaker 1: is shocking to me as well. And I like licked
Speaker 1: a big toe of my boyfriend because he had his
Speaker 1: foot up by my face and it was just like
Speaker 1: my leg was on and his foot was just right
Speaker 1: here and his big toe was just right there. And
Speaker 1: I was just like, Daniel, big toe look cute, and
Speaker 1: so like, I'm really fully into this foot fetish thing.
Speaker 1: I gave him a foot massage and I licked his
Speaker 1: big toe. Y'all. So Jesus fucking Christ, I don't know
Speaker 1: who the funk I am. Yeah, like it was just
Speaker 1: right there not I said, but you didn't know. We're
Speaker 1: at the pool. We were on vacation. It's so ironic
Speaker 1: that I'm saying on vacation in Mexico, but for real,
Speaker 1: we've been living here so long. We went to another
Speaker 1: city to chill out and we're at the top of
Speaker 1: this pool and I'm in the pool. He's sitting at
Speaker 1: the top and his feet are up and I was like,
Speaker 1: you've had a bitches suck your feet, like suck on
Speaker 1: your toes and ship and he said with no hesitation. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I like that. I was like, so he telling you
Speaker 1: you need to suck his toes. You hear me something
Speaker 1: like so, why you won't tell me? And he's like, well,
Speaker 1: we never get there. I'm like, you like sucking toes too,
Speaker 1: and he's like, I mean sometimes, but I like it
Speaker 1: on me. I'm like, sometimes you don't like my feet,
Speaker 1: niggas want to suck my feet. So then I'm thinking
Speaker 1: of actually putting putting a foot job on my only
Speaker 1: fans because I got the little red toes now and
Speaker 1: I ain't got the acrylic bitch, because we've been in
Speaker 1: quarantine a big tote and grew a little bit of
Speaker 1: I don't do that. My cylic toe is cute. I
Speaker 1: mean as long as it's like aligned with the other,
Speaker 1: one's fine. I mean all my toe is the same.
Speaker 1: Lengthening no, no, no, the nail like, if it's not
Speaker 1: a long ass acrylics, I don't do the longer cres.
Speaker 1: So what would it be his dick? Yeah? What did
Speaker 1: he say? He the only did he cool with it? Heye?
Speaker 1: Cool with a little fright. Honestly, you're gonna get a
Speaker 1: surge ni because I might have to pay how much
Speaker 1: is your only fans? I gotta know it's only eleven
Speaker 1: ninety nine, but I didn't put it on discount for
Speaker 1: the quarantine or whatever. So nice. And he ain't really
Speaker 1: got no tattoos for real, for real, so it's cool.
Speaker 1: It's just gonna look like a little and it's not
Speaker 1: a little, but it's gonna look like a little black
Speaker 1: dick right there looking at all sexiest though. Why no,
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna be able to like what you do.
Speaker 1: One foot job there. Niggas is gonna be like, give
Speaker 1: us more. That's fine. I'm about to be like, oh,
Speaker 1: now you gotta come on my feet, so I'm gonna
Speaker 1: make them come on. My people are fans right now.
Speaker 1: I don't know. I think I only got like nineteen
Speaker 1: I don't really be posting, bitch. I had to go
Speaker 1: on there because I realized I ain't posting like three weeks.
Speaker 1: I was like, oh, let me stop collecting all coins
Speaker 1: and not posted. So I was like, okay, let me post.
Speaker 1: But it has been quarantine and I haven't been able
Speaker 1: to get my feet done. I don't want to put them.
Speaker 1: I can understand the sacrifice for like quarantine. You're like,
Speaker 1: what do yall niggas really want me to do? Start
Speaker 1: with my hands like ship and look like I told
Speaker 1: you so, my little boo was old, so look at
Speaker 1: my nails. I don't know who I am. He wanted
Speaker 1: me to go playing because bitch, I've been getting all
Speaker 1: these diamonds and rhymes soon. So he was like, can
Speaker 1: you try plane? And here we are not like it?
Speaker 1: I hate it. I feel like a toddlers back. Well,
Speaker 1: I'm picking off that gail nail polished right now because honestly,
Speaker 1: well you know, I don't wear a crylic, but my
Speaker 1: nail polish does not fucking last and quarantine niggad it
Speaker 1: does because it's nail polished. No no, no, no, like
Speaker 1: a jilt nails. I think it's the dishes. Well, I
Speaker 1: was gonna say that my Crilics wasn't lasting, and I
Speaker 1: was like, it gotta be the hand sanitizer and the dishes.
Speaker 1: It's the dishes. My gil had like four nails days, bitch,
Speaker 1: I have four nails. Pop off. I've been carrying around
Speaker 1: my nail glue like hand sanitized and that's pop that ship.
Speaker 1: Pop that ship right back home. But but then I
Speaker 1: really can't even like you know, I'll be nervous with
Speaker 1: the with the with the jack off the plane with
Speaker 1: the balls and try to can't slip a finger in
Speaker 1: there or nothing like that with you. And then another
Speaker 1: thing that changed. I would like to quote Andy saying
Speaker 1: she never got shipping the nail and niggas don't mind her.
Speaker 1: Recretly they don't. But it's me now because I've been
Speaker 1: getting Ryan stones. I told you, when I get Ryan Stones,
Speaker 1: I'm not putting my finger in a boot hole when
Speaker 1: ye yeah, but if the Rhyan stone gets stuck on
Speaker 1: the Buddha hole walls, I'll feel bad that he's shipping
Speaker 1: out Ryan Stone. That's just, that's just, that's really inconsider
Speaker 1: I got that self, dude. I have to sidetrack my A.
Speaker 1: D D is kicking in. But there's two things that
Speaker 1: just reminded me of you. One. So I've been here
Speaker 1: in to Loom for like two months, right, and now
Speaker 1: a bunch of people are starting to come because Mexico
Speaker 1: is one of the only places you can really travel,
Speaker 1: right because you gots it's the European border just closed.
Speaker 1: Niggas is here in Mexico. So the other day I'm out,
Speaker 1: I'm at this party. It's like, oh no, it was Saturday.
Speaker 1: I was at Rosa. I go to the bathroom. I
Speaker 1: hear some black girls come in Da da da da da,
Speaker 1: and one of them said, uh, should I can see
Speaker 1: your panties, and other girls like, what you want me
Speaker 1: to do? Put in my booty hole? And I was like,
Speaker 1: you're admitting shut anyway, second thing I wanted to tell you, bitch,
Speaker 1: people say Buddha hole. It's a normal, but it was
Speaker 1: with the same inflection. It was like boodle. I think,
Speaker 1: how could you spell the way you say boot hole?
Speaker 1: B o o t Y Benson is the clip and
Speaker 1: w boodha hole booda hole. I like a little buoda hole. Okay,
Speaker 1: So anyway, oh, does this count as an accent because
Speaker 1: I wrote my tongue buda bitch? I'm I told you, look,
Speaker 1: I got access to y'all. Oh. So the second thing
Speaker 1: I wanted to tell you is, I know you're a
Speaker 1: fan of Charmed. You here, bitch, so let me tell
Speaker 1: you how. I'm trying to figure out who she is
Speaker 1: because I'm sucked up. But I'm like, I don't know
Speaker 1: this white bitch. So we out and now she's vault
Speaker 1: and there's this cute little dog running around. So I'm
Speaker 1: looking and like everybody's chill, Like motherfucker's ain't got shoes on.
Speaker 1: They got on their hippie vibe or whatever. But a
Speaker 1: lot of wealthy people have been quarantining here because they
Speaker 1: own cribs here. So I'm like, I know, huh so old.
Speaker 1: But his sister was here and she was like she
Speaker 1: so I love jawbreaker. That's how I noticed, bitch. So
Speaker 1: I'm trying now, I'm trying to look people in the eyes,
Speaker 1: like to confirm, like is that what I think it is?
Speaker 1: So I couldn't figure it out, I go and google
Speaker 1: or no, find her Instagram. There's no post tagging where
Speaker 1: she's at. But the dog was the dog I saw,
Speaker 1: and she talked about like you just but just also
Speaker 1: I wanted to like say something, but I feel like
Speaker 1: you can't say Like if I was in the street,
Speaker 1: maybe I'll just said something, but I feel like I
Speaker 1: know you out here hiding this ship, so I can't
Speaker 1: say nothing. It's fucking ships hell. They they they they
Speaker 1: postponed indoor dining in New York City, which I thought
Speaker 1: it was like, no, girl, they postponed it. It was
Speaker 1: supposed to be open, and Cuomo said, we're gonna put
Speaker 1: that on pause. So thank god I'm in Long Island.
Speaker 1: Long Island is a little bit right now. No, I
Speaker 1: came back to my house because my friend house so big,
Speaker 1: her WiFi sucks. So I came back to my crib
Speaker 1: just to record house is so big. Her wife, Yeah what,
Speaker 1: but she don't gave me a card. No, because I'm
Speaker 1: not in his house. Mind you business asking a lot. Yes,
Speaker 1: he's talking about every day. I'm like he'd be over
Speaker 1: here every day. So anyway, she married. Here you go
Speaker 1: with the bullshit. Actually I'm I'm I'm changing a little bit,
Speaker 1: just a little bit. You lave me leave, So here's
Speaker 1: my last one dinners and drinks for a side. Lovers.
Speaker 1: If you guys remember when I was seeing lover Boy,
Speaker 1: he was all the way in Europe, and I understood
Speaker 1: why he would want to have dinner and drinks with
Speaker 1: certain women because it's like, you know, you missed the
Speaker 1: company whatever, blah blah blah. I don't feel that same
Speaker 1: way today, and I can't figure out if it's because
Speaker 1: I'm more invested two if we if it's because we
Speaker 1: live in the same place or three if it's just
Speaker 1: because I am not as free as I was with
Speaker 1: lover boy, it's it's a weird thing that I'm going
Speaker 1: through because the other day I really was sitting down
Speaker 1: and thinking about it, right, like we've been having discussions
Speaker 1: like listen, like really deep conversations about like we know
Speaker 1: we're gonna be together, So what the fuck does this
Speaker 1: mean for other people? How because we'll say we're open,
Speaker 1: but are we really if we're not sucking other people?
Speaker 1: And if we start in it, what will it look like?
Speaker 1: What's allowed? What we're not allowed? I don't like to
Speaker 1: use that word, but more so like what are we
Speaker 1: comfortable with? And he was like, you're way too fucking emotional.
Speaker 1: You cannot handle a bad You cannot And I've been
Speaker 1: told you that bullshit. You thought you could, but you
Speaker 1: was lying to the audience. He was lying to yourself.
Speaker 1: He was lying to me. I've had some little one
Speaker 1: off flames that I have not brought up a horrible
Speaker 1: decisions and nobody knows about I could do this, however,
Speaker 1: I just I will say I understand it from the
Speaker 1: point of view of like if I know him with
Speaker 1: a sensitive ass bitch and you think you're about to
Speaker 1: be out here cuddling keiki with niggas. But uh yeah,
Speaker 1: for me, dinners and drinks and like doing dates with
Speaker 1: other people I cannot handle. However, sex doesn't bother me
Speaker 1: at all. Oh pu, that's how you sound like me.
Speaker 1: Now that's all you had to say, was Dan, Mandy,
Speaker 1: I agree with you say it? Did I? When you
Speaker 1: talked about your toy friend and lover and behaving on vacation.
Speaker 1: Bitcher me stop. No, you just said you change it
Speaker 1: a little bit when I brought up Mandy. Just because
Speaker 1: I was changing doesn't mean that I'm turning it into you,
Speaker 1: because bitch, you would go down to Orlando and fuck
Speaker 1: I went to Miami and didn't fox. So there's the
Speaker 1: difference is you was fucking because you was free and open.
Speaker 1: Oh my god, that's time thanksgiving me that white boy.
Speaker 1: It don't matter, It don't matter. I was sucking because
Speaker 1: these niggas was my son's That's why ship. But now
Speaker 1: I got a little nigga kind of like Anyway, the
Speaker 1: last thing that I learned and I guess that has changed.
Speaker 1: Um from this podcast and by the way to um,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna actually speed this up. It's really just the
Speaker 1: conversations that I'm having with friends more so than anything,
Speaker 1: I'm checking them on things that they're saying wrong. And
Speaker 1: I say that to say that clearly we've been dragged
Speaker 1: through the mud, mostly by people who don't know the
Speaker 1: growth that we've um I guess had publicly over the
Speaker 1: last few years. UM. Of course, there was a clip
Speaker 1: that circulated on social media recently and things were said
Speaker 1: regarding the trans community where WEE THEE and I both
Speaker 1: instead of checking our guests, UM kind of laugh things
Speaker 1: off and ensued in the conversation in which, like I said,
Speaker 1: now we know to check the people if they're saying
Speaker 1: something wrong, and we've done so with that I think
Speaker 1: over the past few years. But also I want to
Speaker 1: let you guys know that we're not perfect, we're not experts, UM.
Speaker 1: And although we are part of the community and and
Speaker 1: we do view ourselves as voices for all of these conversations,
Speaker 1: we're learning were vulnerable and we're open to be checked UM.
Speaker 1: And so again I do want to apologize for anyone
Speaker 1: that was offended by the clip that was circulating. It
Speaker 1: was in portaste, it was taken down. But also to
Speaker 1: let you guys know that there's been many of times
Speaker 1: on this podcast. I think Wheezy and I have checked
Speaker 1: each other, We've been checked by guests. We've come on
Speaker 1: and apologized if we saw that something was taken out
Speaker 1: of context. I don't think we ever do anything maliciously
Speaker 1: or mean to offend anybody. Um, but also we've been
Speaker 1: vulnerable to learn along this way. So again I do
Speaker 1: just want to apologize to anyone who was offended. And
Speaker 1: I also, aside from that, fucking love the hor hide,
Speaker 1: y'all was rocking for us. In the comments, y'all were
Speaker 1: sticking up for us. And I just appreciate the listeners
Speaker 1: who say that even the conversation with the throuble, They're like,
Speaker 1: had I not listen to horrible decisions, I wouldn't have
Speaker 1: viewed this Will and Jada thing, Um the way I do.
Speaker 1: I think the biggest thing, you know, the conversation with
Speaker 1: the T word. So if you have no idea what
Speaker 1: we're talking about, it was just a clip where we
Speaker 1: had a guest on and she used that word and
Speaker 1: then um, we didn't check her. We didn't check her
Speaker 1: for it. And I also repeated and said, well if
Speaker 1: we hear that word, what does that mean? And then
Speaker 1: I googled the difference between trans sexual transgender things like that.
Speaker 1: This was three years ago, which, to a lot of
Speaker 1: your points said, three years ago, y'all should know that
Speaker 1: is a slur, which I agree, I'll be honest with you, though,
Speaker 1: I went back and listened just to the other episodes
Speaker 1: that we had. In my episode with Jamie Harris and Dustin,
Speaker 1: we had that conversation because again I was taking a
Speaker 1: friend of mine to the trans club and on the
Speaker 1: flyer it used remembered with the Jamie episode that I
Speaker 1: remembered and thought about where she necessarily didn't mind the word,
Speaker 1: and then even my episode with she was like, oh, well,
Speaker 1: I know hood niggas say it and they don't understand
Speaker 1: what they're saying behind it. But I think for us,
Speaker 1: if the word is that trivial, much like saying nigga,
Speaker 1: I don't want to have a well why can't I
Speaker 1: do it? To moment? And I feel like we are
Speaker 1: too much of a learning curve for a lot of
Speaker 1: people when it comes to the l g PTQ community.
Speaker 1: So it's just no reason to say, especially when some
Speaker 1: people do find it to be that much of a slur.
Speaker 1: And another thing that I wanted to bring up to
Speaker 1: is um you know, as far as our growth, I
Speaker 1: think what was great to see in very humbling for
Speaker 1: myself is if three years ago I had to google
Speaker 1: what transgender and transsexual and what different things meant. And
Speaker 1: now I'm out here like really sitting having conversations with friends. Damn,
Speaker 1: you are getting mad trying to school everybody and Tahoe included,
Speaker 1: you know, just being like, no, we've got to do this,
Speaker 1: We've got to do this. I really feel like, and
Speaker 1: I said recently, like I do feel like I am
Speaker 1: a warrior for the trans and LGBTQ community. It always
Speaker 1: will be. And even though I may have thought I was,
Speaker 1: I think it really took personal conversations and friendships for
Speaker 1: for it to hit me. And I'm hoping the same
Speaker 1: for other people as well. I mean, I had a
Speaker 1: conversation watching HBO. I was watching Curb Your Enthusiasm. Laverne
Speaker 1: Cox came on with Larry David and Monnigu was in
Speaker 1: right next to me and he was like, is she
Speaker 1: a And he looked at me and was like, Okay, well,
Speaker 1: I know I can't say that word and it made
Speaker 1: me feel good because it's like, Okay, you're learning from me,
Speaker 1: you know those things, and and not that this is
Speaker 1: an ad. But there is a new show on Netflix
Speaker 1: called Disclosure. I think for anyone interested in hearing straight
Speaker 1: from um trans men and women should definitely tune into it.
Speaker 1: Laverne Cox is also on it. But they go into
Speaker 1: how UM the system and and art and film has
Speaker 1: kind of directed how we view um transmitting women. UM.
Speaker 1: Laverne Cox even went on there and said UM because
Speaker 1: of because of how they portrayed transman and women on sitcoms.
Speaker 1: In the middle of her transition, she recalls getting on
Speaker 1: a New York City subway and people laughing and so
Speaker 1: the idea that trans women were a joke UM. And
Speaker 1: I mean we see we see Jamie Fox and Martin
Speaker 1: Lawrence and all of them have these women characters, but
Speaker 1: we viewed them as jokes. And so if you guys
Speaker 1: have the time, I thought it was a very well
Speaker 1: put together kind of interview slash documentary into the history
Speaker 1: of trans lives. And it's called Disclosure on Netflix. It's
Speaker 1: really good. Also, I wasn't before we get into our
Speaker 1: horrible decisions guys, UM um. Again, for those of you
Speaker 1: who have not been able to march, or for those
Speaker 1: of you who can't afford to donate to any causes
Speaker 1: going on. I wanted to UM drop this real quick, UM,
Speaker 1: and this is specifically because my sister has brought so
Speaker 1: much attention to this. My sister is a member of
Speaker 1: the army. She is a sergeant in the U. S. Army. However,
Speaker 1: this is calling calling for justice for Vanessa Guillen. UM.
Speaker 1: For those who of you who don't know, UM, the
Speaker 1: U S. A Army in Fort Hood, Texas needs to
Speaker 1: be held accountable for murdered soldier soldier Vanessa Guillen. They
Speaker 1: did actually go ahead and have two suspects, one of
Speaker 1: which was a sergeant who committed suicide once they started
Speaker 1: looking into him, and they're now looking into a woman
Speaker 1: who may have been an accomplice. Story to tell you
Speaker 1: what happened, she told her mom or I don't know
Speaker 1: if she texted or called her, that she had been
Speaker 1: sexually assaulted in the next day missing. So it is
Speaker 1: a crazy ass story. But also I mean not to
Speaker 1: not to really UM say too much topics regarding it, UM,
Speaker 1: but my sister is actually testifying against a sergeant now
Speaker 1: in the army who is being accused of sexual assault
Speaker 1: as well and sexual misconduct. And I just want to say, um,
Speaker 1: to the women who go online and she's really in solidarity. Um,
Speaker 1: there's a woman that my sister brought to my attention
Speaker 1: who was on Facebook calling Vanessa Gill and her sister
Speaker 1: and seeking justice on Facebook. However, she's actually one of
Speaker 1: the She's on the defense list for this sergeant for
Speaker 1: sexual assault on other people. So I just want to say,
Speaker 1: for those of you who are on so social media
Speaker 1: claiming to be allies for women and justices and wanting
Speaker 1: to seek justice for those women who have been sexually assaulted,
Speaker 1: you can't do so while also defending these sexual predators.
Speaker 1: I just want to say that. And I think you know,
Speaker 1: I can drop the mic on Nicki Minaj as well.
Speaker 1: She's out here fucking making music, making songs, fucking married
Speaker 1: to a sexual predator. Can't Like, I just don't understand
Speaker 1: it either. So for the women that know what we
Speaker 1: go through as far as in the business, at the workplace,
Speaker 1: with our lovers, with our partners, sometimes family members taking
Speaker 1: advantage of us, it's just really sick that there's also
Speaker 1: still women who you know. I had a conversation about
Speaker 1: the Nicki Minaj thing, and it was with I. I
Speaker 1: wasn't a friend, it was like just somebody I was
Speaker 1: out talking to. We were at a bar with a
Speaker 1: bunch of people, and I brought up her brother and
Speaker 1: her boyfriend or now husband, and the girl said to me,
Speaker 1: and I quote, well, you've got to feel bad for
Speaker 1: the girl. Imagine a year and a half dating someone
Speaker 1: and then finding out they were a sexual predator. And
Speaker 1: I genuinely thought in that moment, because my day it
Speaker 1: was next to me. If someone told me right now
Speaker 1: he had done something with a little girl, it might
Speaker 1: hurt to let him go. But do you think I
Speaker 1: never planned to have family around you? Do you think
Speaker 1: I never planned to have children with you? To know
Speaker 1: that you could do that and trust me, I'm also
Speaker 1: the girl that's been fifteen sixteen hanging. You're out with
Speaker 1: twenty year old man and not understanding the complexity and
Speaker 1: how bad it was, and or even lying maybe about
Speaker 1: my age, but knowing they knew I was a liar.
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, Like, it's just gross, it's gross.
Speaker 1: It's all just gross. But um, we are going to
Speaker 1: wrap up, though, guys, I want to thank you all
Speaker 1: for tuning in so much. Again, Shout out to all
Speaker 1: of our patrons who rock with us, who support us,
Speaker 1: who is members of the motherfucking Horrihive. If you guys
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Speaker 1: you guys. It's like seventy episodes worth a fun ship,
Speaker 1: a bunch of blogging, tears, crying, just fun ship that
Speaker 1: we don't necessarily share with you know, the main audience,
Speaker 1: because y'all get this ship for free anyway. But anyway,
Speaker 1: for Fact Stake Podcast, it comes out on Tuesday, so
Speaker 1: tomorrow if you want to listen to it. It's an
Speaker 1: episode on twins. Eddie and I had a we do
Speaker 1: really weird ship cheese, conspiracy theories, eggs, tiger Kings whatever.
Speaker 1: We did our sex episode recently, and it's hilarious because
Speaker 1: to do horrible decisions and then do a sex episode
Speaker 1: with someone who is not that sexual. He was like, well,
Speaker 1: Stephen travels it this many miles per hour. I was like, oh, Eddie,
Speaker 1: I'm like, what's it tastes like? I'm well, y'all check
Speaker 1: that out. And again, thank you all for supporting us.
Speaker 1: We are going to leave you all with a five
Speaker 1: minute motherfucking bonus flit. And again this has been yet
Speaker 1: another episode of hor Decisions. So it says, hey, ladies,
Speaker 1: I've been in a relationship for two years and I've
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Speaker 1: really spelled it like, ok I'm a masochist and have
Speaker 1: Did I say that right? Because you've become a oh
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Speaker 1: Freaky Hope. My boyfriend and I want to have a threesome,
Speaker 1: but we have a big problem. We don't know how
Speaker 1: to how to find a willing partist a pen So,
Speaker 1: so we agreed that I would ask a girl that
Speaker 1: I used to fuck. She thought it would be a
Speaker 1: good idea to tell me in the moment that she
Speaker 1: had fallen in love with me and hadn't stopped thinking
Speaker 1: about me since we stopped talking over two years ago.
Speaker 1: We were having fun, casual sex with no strings attached,
Speaker 1: so I thought so that made it awkward. Would it
Speaker 1: be bad to still have a threesome with her? Sincerely,
Speaker 1: A seasoned hope. Look, yes, if you say you're going
Speaker 1: to all these fucking like sex parties and ship like that,
Speaker 1: like and you're already out there, like you can find
Speaker 1: someone else. Don't go somewhere just because it's easy. But
Speaker 1: what's crazy is this kind of relates to the first
Speaker 1: question we got, because this is a girl who's obsessed
Speaker 1: with with her. It wants to be with her, but
Speaker 1: she has a nigga. She's in a relationship, So I
Speaker 1: don't think that she should complicate something because women, as
Speaker 1: we see, can be possessive and it's drama. It's it's
Speaker 1: crazy think that we have all of these emails that
Speaker 1: people want to bring that could bring to your dude,
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, Like he could end up
Speaker 1: like being like, you know what, this was a little
Speaker 1: too much. Actually, when we ran into collect and I
Speaker 1: was telling you, I was thinking about it, like she's
Speaker 1: super chilling cool. But even then I was like, oh
Speaker 1: my god, Like what if that's the thing. There's a
Speaker 1: secret and it's not a new experience. And part of
Speaker 1: the fun of a threesome is meeting someone and courting
Speaker 1: them together. And like, yeah, like I do that for
Speaker 1: my threesome. No, well, like that's a big that's a
Speaker 1: big deal. Right, you meet a girl, you'll get to
Speaker 1: take her out. You having drainks, you don't know if
Speaker 1: you're gonna sunk her or not, like what's going on,
Speaker 1: and you you literally like take all of that out
Speaker 1: to me that when she brings somebody, So you think
Speaker 1: that for the threesome that they want to introduce into
Speaker 1: their relationship, they should go out and scout someone completely new.
Speaker 1: I just kind of think like relationships and threesomes are
Speaker 1: more sacred than threesomes just to get your rocks off.
Speaker 1: And I'm not shading you, but like you wouldn't want
Speaker 1: to fuck bitches and you wouldn't want to suck them
Speaker 1: with the DUDEU is sucking. That's different. That's why you
Speaker 1: said seven you were more sent you're sucking him often.
Speaker 1: That's a different thing. When you have a relationship, whether
Speaker 1: it be serious or casual, it's a little different. I
Speaker 1: think when you're like bringing someone in that the other
Speaker 1: person knows. If you're a couple making a new experience together,
Speaker 1: you shouldn't be bringing in experiences from the past. I'm
Speaker 1: just I'm not gonna lie because even when I look
Speaker 1: into have threesomes, Um, I don't know. I guess it's
Speaker 1: weird because I do kind of ask the guys to
Speaker 1: just bring someone in that they already know, But that
Speaker 1: kind of doesn't because then I don't know their dynamics
Speaker 1: about me after ship like that. Um. By the way,
Speaker 1: so I'm going to the sex party night with Jeeves,
Speaker 1: and this nigga was like, what should I wear? Should
Speaker 1: wear like a button up, like a studio, wear a
Speaker 1: dress something, dude, like, just wear something chill, and he goes,
Speaker 1: I feel like I gotta dress and primp and like
Speaker 1: get my ship ready. Like it's a third date where
Speaker 1: you like you're pretty sure you're gonna get it, but
Speaker 1: you're not exactly sure. And I was like, Yo, that's
Speaker 1: a great point because the first date you just be
Speaker 1: like whatever this nigga or he's really cute, right, he
Speaker 1: kind of goes either way, but a third date, you
Speaker 1: gotta get your ass wax. Like that's how I feel
Speaker 1: every time. I don't. I don't know. I look good
Speaker 1: the first day. I don't want to see a nigga.
Speaker 1: I don't want to look break On Thursday, you do it, bro,
Speaker 1: What is you talking about the third the third day?
Speaker 1: I think every third day, if there's a third I
Speaker 1: do a three day rule, not a purpose. So the
Speaker 1: first day, how you So it says, hey, ladies, I've
Speaker 1: been in a relationship for