1 00:00:00,040 --> 00:00:03,160 Speaker 1: Welcome to I'm Breakable, a mental health podcast with Jay Glazer. 2 00:00:03,200 --> 00:00:05,920 Speaker 1: I'm Jay Glazer, and today is a mental health checking. 3 00:00:06,519 --> 00:00:10,160 Speaker 1: I am squarely in the blue and the reason why 4 00:00:10,720 --> 00:00:14,840 Speaker 1: is the reaction from all of you. So on Friday, 5 00:00:15,280 --> 00:00:17,760 Speaker 1: I was supposed to promote that I had another podcast 6 00:00:17,800 --> 00:00:19,680 Speaker 1: that day, but man, I just woke up in a 7 00:00:19,720 --> 00:00:22,599 Speaker 1: bad spot and I threw everything at it. So I 8 00:00:22,600 --> 00:00:25,200 Speaker 1: have these new tools I know to do. I have 9 00:00:25,360 --> 00:00:28,319 Speaker 1: breath work to come down my nervous system. I have 10 00:00:28,400 --> 00:00:31,880 Speaker 1: meditation to do the same and to center myself. I 11 00:00:31,920 --> 00:00:35,320 Speaker 1: went and worked out three times. I even sparred with 12 00:00:35,400 --> 00:00:38,440 Speaker 1: a friend of mine because usually as messed up as 13 00:00:38,479 --> 00:00:40,479 Speaker 1: this is, when I get punched in my face, I 14 00:00:40,520 --> 00:00:43,560 Speaker 1: feel pretty good because you know, I'm a little different 15 00:00:43,600 --> 00:00:46,400 Speaker 1: like that. And it didn't work. And my training partner, 16 00:00:46,479 --> 00:00:50,239 Speaker 1: who happened to be Chuck Ladell, actually thanked me for 17 00:00:50,320 --> 00:00:54,360 Speaker 1: helping him that day with his mental health. Me. Man, 18 00:00:54,440 --> 00:00:57,880 Speaker 1: it was a bad day, but I put out there 19 00:00:57,960 --> 00:01:00,120 Speaker 1: to the world to all of you that I was 20 00:01:00,200 --> 00:01:02,920 Speaker 1: hurting and I was struggling, and I don't know what happened, 21 00:01:02,920 --> 00:01:07,040 Speaker 1: but I woke up that morning and I woke up 22 00:01:07,080 --> 00:01:09,200 Speaker 1: crying for no reason. And I told you all I 23 00:01:09,240 --> 00:01:12,679 Speaker 1: was gonna be as open and honest in the podcast 24 00:01:12,720 --> 00:01:14,920 Speaker 1: and these posts as possible to show you all you're 25 00:01:14,959 --> 00:01:16,440 Speaker 1: not alone and show you that there's nothing to be 26 00:01:16,440 --> 00:01:20,399 Speaker 1: ashamed of. Do I wish I woke up not crying. Yeah, 27 00:01:20,440 --> 00:01:22,720 Speaker 1: but I'm out ashamed of it anymore. Yeah, that's how 28 00:01:22,760 --> 00:01:25,360 Speaker 1: I woke up, and I threw everything at it that 29 00:01:25,400 --> 00:01:28,040 Speaker 1: I possibly could. I reached out to my teammates, to 30 00:01:28,120 --> 00:01:30,679 Speaker 1: reach out to friends. They try to pull me out 31 00:01:30,720 --> 00:01:33,720 Speaker 1: of it. What I learned is some days I'm just 32 00:01:33,760 --> 00:01:36,440 Speaker 1: gonna have days like that, and I've got to just 33 00:01:36,480 --> 00:01:39,080 Speaker 1: do whatever I can and put it in my own 34 00:01:39,080 --> 00:01:42,680 Speaker 1: head that tomorrow will be a better day. I had 35 00:01:42,680 --> 00:01:45,319 Speaker 1: a friend come over spend the evening with me to 36 00:01:45,440 --> 00:01:47,360 Speaker 1: help me out. I just didn't want to be alone 37 00:01:47,400 --> 00:01:51,040 Speaker 1: that day. But all of you your reactions, and that's 38 00:01:51,080 --> 00:01:52,760 Speaker 1: the way social media is supposed to be used, in 39 00:01:52,760 --> 00:01:55,680 Speaker 1: my opinion, not to tear each other down. But I 40 00:01:55,720 --> 00:01:58,440 Speaker 1: was struggling. I needed help. I reached out. I told 41 00:01:58,480 --> 00:02:02,480 Speaker 1: you all I needed help, and the messages you all 42 00:02:02,520 --> 00:02:06,480 Speaker 1: gave were absolutely beautiful. So if everybody listening to this, 43 00:02:07,560 --> 00:02:10,840 Speaker 1: reach out to your your teammates, your friends, just tell people, man, 44 00:02:10,840 --> 00:02:16,280 Speaker 1: I'm struggling today. I was overwhelmed by the messages and 45 00:02:16,320 --> 00:02:19,560 Speaker 1: text messages. There are people that work in my business 46 00:02:19,600 --> 00:02:22,800 Speaker 1: and sports broadcasting that I never talked to and then 47 00:02:22,880 --> 00:02:25,760 Speaker 1: just immediately reached out. Just hey, man, I just want 48 00:02:25,760 --> 00:02:27,600 Speaker 1: to let you know I'm thinking of you, and what 49 00:02:27,639 --> 00:02:30,120 Speaker 1: you're doing is helping a lot of us, whether you 50 00:02:30,160 --> 00:02:32,600 Speaker 1: know it or not. Things like that lift me up. 51 00:02:32,680 --> 00:02:35,320 Speaker 1: Reaching out to my team, that's them being of service 52 00:02:35,360 --> 00:02:38,440 Speaker 1: to me. So all of you were service in such 53 00:02:38,480 --> 00:02:41,320 Speaker 1: a beautiful way by lifting me up. And Saturday I 54 00:02:41,360 --> 00:02:44,960 Speaker 1: woke up and I was in a much much better spot, 55 00:02:45,600 --> 00:02:48,360 Speaker 1: much better, and I've been great ever since. The bottom 56 00:02:48,360 --> 00:02:51,960 Speaker 1: line is is that I have depression anxiety, and it's 57 00:02:52,000 --> 00:02:53,640 Speaker 1: gonna be something I have for the rest of my life. 58 00:02:53,680 --> 00:02:55,959 Speaker 1: I have better tools to deal with it, but there's 59 00:02:56,000 --> 00:02:58,960 Speaker 1: gonna be just days like that, And you know, friends 60 00:02:59,000 --> 00:03:01,480 Speaker 1: asked me, I had to figure out what triggered it, 61 00:03:01,520 --> 00:03:04,080 Speaker 1: but there wasn't anything because I woke up that way. 62 00:03:04,400 --> 00:03:06,720 Speaker 1: It's not like something that happened and I woke up 63 00:03:06,720 --> 00:03:09,280 Speaker 1: and I went to sleep good the night before. Sometimes 64 00:03:09,320 --> 00:03:11,760 Speaker 1: when you just struggle with some mental health issues. This 65 00:03:11,840 --> 00:03:14,480 Speaker 1: is what happens. But for me now to have you 66 00:03:14,560 --> 00:03:17,800 Speaker 1: all as teammates to me to post and to get 67 00:03:17,880 --> 00:03:20,240 Speaker 1: the reaction from you all to lift me up, not 68 00:03:20,360 --> 00:03:22,519 Speaker 1: tear me down, but show me that you're walking this 69 00:03:22,600 --> 00:03:26,519 Speaker 1: walk with me. It is overwhelming, it's amazing, it's beautiful. 70 00:03:26,960 --> 00:03:29,480 Speaker 1: That's what we need to do together because the world's 71 00:03:29,480 --> 00:03:32,440 Speaker 1: getting scarier, so we need to shine more light on it, 72 00:03:32,520 --> 00:03:34,560 Speaker 1: all of us together. But I just want to tell 73 00:03:34,600 --> 00:03:36,520 Speaker 1: you all how grateful I am. It was incredible. You 74 00:03:36,600 --> 00:03:39,600 Speaker 1: all stepped up when I needed it the most, and 75 00:03:39,640 --> 00:03:41,920 Speaker 1: that was a different attack than I normally have. I 76 00:03:41,920 --> 00:03:44,440 Speaker 1: don't know why. I still um. I'm gonna talk to 77 00:03:44,440 --> 00:03:47,440 Speaker 1: my therapists about it. I talked to my friends about it, 78 00:03:47,880 --> 00:03:50,440 Speaker 1: so I'm not trying away from it. But man, that 79 00:03:50,480 --> 00:03:52,200 Speaker 1: one scared me a little bit. That was that was 80 00:03:52,240 --> 00:03:54,440 Speaker 1: a hard day to get through, and it just it 81 00:03:54,600 --> 00:03:58,880 Speaker 1: felt heavy in my soul and felt heavy in my heart, 82 00:03:58,920 --> 00:04:02,560 Speaker 1: It felt heavy in joints. It was rough. So I 83 00:04:02,640 --> 00:04:05,880 Speaker 1: just want to thank you all forgetting me through dark, 84 00:04:05,960 --> 00:04:09,240 Speaker 1: dark gray and now to see the blue. It's because 85 00:04:09,240 --> 00:04:12,080 Speaker 1: of you. That's why I'm here, because of you. So 86 00:04:12,160 --> 00:04:15,800 Speaker 1: I appreciate you, I love you. I'm here for you too. 87 00:04:15,920 --> 00:04:17,800 Speaker 1: I'm here to show you all that you have to 88 00:04:17,839 --> 00:04:21,040 Speaker 1: reach out to your team, to whoever your teammates are, 89 00:04:21,440 --> 00:04:23,800 Speaker 1: and lean on them more. It gets you closer together. 90 00:04:24,040 --> 00:04:25,560 Speaker 1: Let's all keep walking this walk together.