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Speaker 1: how are you?
Speaker 2: Uh? You know, I'm pretty amazed I got in. I
Speaker 2: know everyone says.
Speaker 1: That, but well, here's the thing. Somebody who's going to
Speaker 1: get in? So why not you?
Speaker 2: Hmm my thoughts exactly. That's why I spammed the call.
Speaker 1: I guess what's going on with you, Tristan?
Speaker 2: Well, so I know you only usually pick one thing
Speaker 2: to talk about, So I either wanted to talk to
Speaker 2: you about my hypochondria that stems from a bad mushroom
Speaker 2: trip years ago, or I kind of been going through
Speaker 2: a rough time lately, moving cities and having to break
Speaker 2: up with my fiance.
Speaker 1: So what hypochondria is when you when you think that
Speaker 1: you are ill all the time, correct, right.
Speaker 3: Yeah, So.
Speaker 2: I was experimenting with a lot of psychedelics, mushrooms, d MT,
Speaker 2: and I was having a pretty good time. I know,
Speaker 2: I know, psychedelics don't really cause the issues, they kind
Speaker 2: of bring them out of people. And I guess I
Speaker 2: had some hidden anxiety, well, a lot of hitting anxiety
Speaker 2: about death. I guess that I didn't really know how
Speaker 2: to cope with. So I wasn't aware of when I
Speaker 2: took some some honestly a low dose of mushrooms, and
Speaker 2: I think I was, you know, this isn't really diagnosed,
Speaker 2: this is more of a self diagnosis, but I mean
Speaker 2: I felt like I went into what you could call
Speaker 2: a psychosis for maybe six months afterwards.
Speaker 1: What kind of psychoses?
Speaker 2: Well, see, I guess you know, so after the mushroom trip,
Speaker 2: I thought every day afterwards, for six months straight, I
Speaker 2: thought I was gonna die every day, and I thought
Speaker 2: I thought the mushrooms were poisoned, and I thought I
Speaker 2: had fungus growing in my head. And it was really, honestly,
Speaker 2: really really really tough.
Speaker 4: To deal with.
Speaker 2: And I went to I went to multiple I spent
Speaker 2: a lot of money because of my hypochondria.
Speaker 1: You were about to say, you went to multiple.
Speaker 2: Oh, I went to multiple for the first thing. I
Speaker 2: went to multiple doctors, neurologists. I've had CT scans on
Speaker 2: my head, I had you know, X rays, I had
Speaker 2: some talks with therapists, and there's there was nothing wrong
Speaker 2: with me, absolutely nothing wrong with me. It was all
Speaker 2: just anxiety. But I've dealt with that anxiety in my
Speaker 2: own way. I never I don't see a therapist now,
Speaker 2: and the therapist I saw, I felt like, didn't really
Speaker 2: help me too much. I kind of took it in
Speaker 2: my own hands and I think I'm doing pretty good
Speaker 2: with it, but it still bugged me, like right now,
Speaker 2: and I know it's ridiculous, but right now I feel
Speaker 2: like I have rabies. I know, I know RABI takes
Speaker 2: a long time to present itself. And if I if
Speaker 2: I fix it, if I fixate on something like say
Speaker 2: I might think I have rabies, I tend to see
Speaker 2: it and everything around me, or like if I'm watching
Speaker 2: a show or a movie or I read something and
Speaker 2: they bring up rabies. I mean, it just floods my
Speaker 2: head with like that.
Speaker 1: Here again, So you went to a therapist for this?
Speaker 2: No, Initially I did. This was I'm twenty six. Now,
Speaker 2: this happened maybe when I was twenty two.
Speaker 1: So you said initially that sixah, Okay.
Speaker 2: I didn't feel like it was well, I mean I
Speaker 2: think I guess I wasn't really like one hundred percent
Speaker 2: with them, to be honest with you, because I felt
Speaker 2: like I've had I don't know, I felt I kind
Speaker 2: of felt like they were a little condescending, and I
Speaker 2: felt like I was when I was younger. I thought
Speaker 2: I was going to be judged more for doing you know,
Speaker 2: I thought they were going to blame it all on
Speaker 2: the drugs, the psychedelics.
Speaker 1: Okay, so you thought that they were condescending. What what
Speaker 1: exactly did they say or do to make you feel
Speaker 1: like they were condescending?
Speaker 2: Well, the lady I went to, you know, I probably
Speaker 2: went to the wrong the lady I went to kind
Speaker 2: of like was trying to get me to draw pictures about.
Speaker 3: How I felt.
Speaker 2: Okay then, and I thought I thought that was a
Speaker 2: little childish. I don't know, maybe, I mean, you know,
Speaker 2: I'm not a therapist, so but I kind of thought
Speaker 2: that was like maybe a little you know, like I
Speaker 2: thought I was being treated more like a kid.
Speaker 1: Mm hmmm. You know, I'm not a therapist either, and
Speaker 1: I I I guess I would agree with you that
Speaker 1: that that that I could see why you would feel
Speaker 1: like that's ineffective.
Speaker 4: I did.
Speaker 1: I've talked to a billion people who they go to
Speaker 1: therapy like once and my fucking myself a clue to man,
Speaker 1: where like, they go to therapy once and it doesn't
Speaker 1: work out for them, and so they quit all together.
Speaker 1: I did the same thing, currently, the same thing. But
Speaker 1: you have an issue you and it's funny, it's it's
Speaker 1: interesting to me because you are aware, like you know
Speaker 1: this is hypochondria, because you know that you are a hypochondriac,
Speaker 1: Like you know that you have this issue. You're self
Speaker 1: aware about it, and you wouldn't be calling me to
Speaker 1: talk to me about your hypochondria if you weren't aware
Speaker 1: about it. But yet while you are simultaneously self aware,
Speaker 1: fully aware that you have hypochondria, fully aware that you
Speaker 1: over analyze and have high anxiety about you know, knowing
Speaker 1: that it's ridiculous that you have think you have rabies,
Speaker 1: Yet it sounds like that does not help you with
Speaker 1: the fact that you have anxiety about having raveies.
Speaker 2: No, and you know any little medical so I'm okay with,
Speaker 2: like if I broke my finger, any physical pain, I'm
Speaker 2: okay with. But when it becomes internal, well, the rabiest
Speaker 2: thing is just I mean, I know, the rabiest thing
Speaker 2: is just kind of crazy, to be honest with you.
Speaker 2: But anything like, I know, I had a stomach pain
Speaker 2: that was I found out was related to blanking.
Speaker 5: Gee, what is it?
Speaker 3: Erd?
Speaker 2: It's just like an over production of acid, stomach acid.
Speaker 2: But I mean, for a month, I was obsessing that
Speaker 2: I might have had I might have like stomach cancer,
Speaker 2: and I would I mean I would lie awake at
Speaker 2: night and just like think I was gonna die, and
Speaker 2: I go get all these crazy the tests, you know,
Speaker 2: like X ray CT scans. You know, when I feel
Speaker 2: like I feel like, you know, normal people kind of
Speaker 2: just like deal with it or they take some medicine
Speaker 2: and they're cool with it. And then I always seem
Speaker 2: to like go to these extreme measures and it hasn't
Speaker 2: really affected my relationships too much, I think, besides, you know,
Speaker 2: them thinking that maybe I'm a little crazy.
Speaker 1: Interesting. I uh again, I know I said this just now,
Speaker 1: But the contradiction of you knowing and stating how ridiculous
Speaker 1: this is, but that self awareness not helping you curb
Speaker 1: your anxiety is very fascinating to me.
Speaker 2: Yeah, it doesn't because, like I said, so, I mean
Speaker 2: the rabies thing came about maybe like two or three
Speaker 2: months ago, and so I think by now I would
Speaker 2: have been dead if I had rabies. But you know,
Speaker 2: it's just like I got a small scratch from an
Speaker 2: outside cat that wasn't acting weird at all. Yeah, and
Speaker 2: as but I saw that little bit of blood out
Speaker 2: of my skin, and then the rabies fere just takes
Speaker 2: over me because one time. You know, it's hard for
Speaker 2: me too. I can't really be around people who talk
Speaker 2: about medical issues that might be life threatening, yeah, if
Speaker 2: they're not, unless it's like because if they say a symptom,
Speaker 2: my mind focuses on that symptom and I'll get a
Speaker 2: little crazy about it, you know. I mean, like nowadays,
Speaker 2: I think I'm okay keeping it internally, but I mean
Speaker 2: I'll just like sixty eight over fixate over something like that,
Speaker 2: and I kind of just like I'm just out of it,
Speaker 2: you know. I Mean I just have this like like
Speaker 2: my nurse friend told me about the rabies not showing
Speaker 2: for three months, So after that, I got scratched by
Speaker 2: the cat, and then then it's a downward spiral from there.
Speaker 1: So let me ask you this. Forgive me if any
Speaker 1: the questions I ask about this thing are ignorant because
Speaker 1: I don't I don't know, and they'll come from a
Speaker 1: genuine curiosity. So you are are out here, you know,
Speaker 1: you said you spend a lot of money on doctors, Uh,
Speaker 1: you know, trying like getting scans, making sure you don't
Speaker 1: have rabies, making sure you don't have gourd and whatnot.
Speaker 1: You know, all these all these sort of things that
Speaker 1: you're anxious about possibly having. But yet you're again fully
Speaker 1: self aware that you are are are are a hypochondriac,
Speaker 1: and that the thing that you actually know for sure
Speaker 1: that that you do have wrong with you, that you're
Speaker 1: a hypochondriac. Sounds like it's the one thing that you
Speaker 1: are not spending a lot of money going to doctors
Speaker 1: to well instead of instead of the rabies and whatnot.
Speaker 2: You know, the one's ever really put put it that
Speaker 2: way to me before. Yeah, that's unord percent true.
Speaker 6: Uh hmm, well I think you're right, So maybe it
Speaker 6: comes no go ahead.
Speaker 2: I was about to say, maybe maybe maybe it comes
Speaker 2: from a place of I don't know, maybe because I
Speaker 2: feel like I know I have hypochondria, I don't know,
Speaker 2: I don't know.
Speaker 1: So I mean, look, next time, kit, would you do
Speaker 1: you think you have it in you too? Next time
Speaker 1: you're like, oh shit, I'm pretty sure I have rabies.
Speaker 1: Oh shit, I'm pretty sure I've gird o. Shit, I'm
Speaker 1: pretty sure I have whatever the thing is you think
Speaker 1: you have. Instead of you know, directing your attention to
Speaker 1: going to a doctor to make sure you don't have that,
Speaker 1: you like think you know, you think a higher level
Speaker 1: step up to be like, oh shit, this is actually
Speaker 1: a legitimate symptom of a thing I actually have, which
Speaker 1: is this hypochondria. Let's go make sure we're dealing with that.
Speaker 2: Do I think I have an enemy to do that?
Speaker 1: Yeah, that's the question.
Speaker 2: I don't know why it's so hard to say yes,
Speaker 2: but yeah, Well.
Speaker 1: Because I know you had this experience with the fucking
Speaker 1: kindergarten teacher therapist and that maybe turned you off, which
Speaker 1: I get, dude. But I'll say this, and I say
Speaker 1: this hypocritically because I myself I have not gone to
Speaker 1: therapy probably shuit, but because I also have had experiences
Speaker 1: where I've been in therapy and been like, what the
Speaker 1: fuck is fucking is this shit? But I've talked to
Speaker 1: so many people on the show and in real life
Speaker 1: that they're like, I went to a therapist, he was terrible,
Speaker 1: they maybe draw fucking pictures. Went to another therapist, they
Speaker 1: didn't listen to me. Went to another therapist, they didn't
Speaker 1: help me it all the way. To another therapist, they
Speaker 1: were super unhelpful. Went to another therapist, they made it worse.
Speaker 1: Went to another therapist, changed my life, never felt better
Speaker 1: type of shit. I hear that all the time of people.
Speaker 1: They just have to go through a billion different people.
Speaker 1: So I I, you know, and again I'm saying this
Speaker 1: super hypocritically because I haven't done it myself. But dude,
Speaker 1: I don't know, if felin if you're having this legitimate issue,
Speaker 1: you know, it sounds like it could help you to,
Speaker 1: you know, find find a legitimate help for it.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I think you're right. I guess it's just the constant,
Speaker 2: like you know, like you find a therapist, they don't
Speaker 2: work out for you, and then you try again and
Speaker 2: it doesn't work out for you, and then maybe you
Speaker 2: try a third time and it doesn't work out for
Speaker 2: you and then you're kind of just over it.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 2: I guess, like I said, you know, I guess I
Speaker 2: take maybe some pride in dealing with it myself. Oh okay,
Speaker 2: you know I you know, so like after the six
Speaker 2: months of like really I mean, I mean I was
Speaker 2: really crazy if I look back on it. I mean,
Speaker 2: after the six months of like literally just balling my
Speaker 2: eyes out every day because I thought I was going
Speaker 2: to die, I hit I hit a point where I
Speaker 2: and that was after like they couldn't find anything wrong
Speaker 2: with me, you know, after that point, I kind of
Speaker 2: I joined martial arts, and I try to lose weight,
Speaker 2: and I try to get my mind right through that,
Speaker 2: and I try to read, and I try to study
Speaker 2: myself and and I'm always trying to be introspective. But
Speaker 2: it's just always seems to be the one hump I
Speaker 2: can't get over. But I don't know, maybe I kind
Speaker 2: of wear it like a you know, like a how
Speaker 2: do I want to say it, like a scarred badge?
Speaker 1: Sure, yeah, the whole you know, I can handle it
Speaker 1: myself kind of thing. I don't need to fucking go
Speaker 1: to therapy. I don't need anyone to help me.
Speaker 3: Right, I got it.
Speaker 4: Right.
Speaker 2: And I think problems like if you're depressed or if
Speaker 2: you're anxious, you know, mostly everyone today is pretty much
Speaker 2: I mean, I think that's stuff, even though it really
Speaker 2: sucks to deal with, helps you to relate to other people.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I agree with you on that front, that it
Speaker 1: helps you to relate to other people. That's that's I mean,
Speaker 1: weirdly part of the reason why I like why I
Speaker 1: like doing the shows because I like talking to people
Speaker 1: about I mean, just in my personal life, I have
Speaker 1: a weird fascination with like if I'm like looking at
Speaker 1: people just in my regular life, like and being like,
Speaker 1: what's wrong with them? What is their what's their fucking deal?
Speaker 1: Because everyone everyone's got a deal. You know, you stand
Speaker 1: in line in fucking Walmart and you go up to
Speaker 1: the cash people natural hershey bar, and you're like, what's
Speaker 1: this what's this guy's deal? What were you gonna say?
Speaker 2: Well, I was going to ask, do people naturally just
Speaker 2: open up to.
Speaker 1: You sometimes in life?
Speaker 5: Yeah?
Speaker 1: Sometimes sometimes it was just in Mexico, is the.
Speaker 2: Get go persona a little different than the real live persona?
Speaker 1: No, I I was gonna say it was just in
Speaker 1: Mexico and I met a bunch of people at a hostel.
Speaker 1: I felt like I got into some interesting conversations there,
Speaker 1: just out of like a again, like a natural weird
Speaker 1: curiosity of like what the fuck is going on with
Speaker 1: people because it helps inform my own what the fuck
Speaker 1: is going on with me type of thing, right.
Speaker 2: Right, But it does seem to me that you're wha.
Speaker 2: I mean, I'm talking to you right now. You're very
Speaker 2: easy to talk to, and I think that probably does
Speaker 2: come across really well in real life. And I wanted
Speaker 2: to say, you know, I live in Florida and I
Speaker 2: really wanted to go to your Miami show, but I
Speaker 2: don't think I can make it. So I'm bummed out.
Speaker 1: Are you not going because you're afraid that you'll catch COVID?
Speaker 2: You know, I've actually had COVID three times and I
Speaker 2: wasn't too worried about that for some reason.
Speaker 1: Really, Okay, now that's fascinating to me because it's okay,
Speaker 1: Can I just say it's I it's a little bit
Speaker 1: funny that, like the thing that's on the news every
Speaker 1: single day that's like, oh, everyone's getting fucking dying from
Speaker 1: this thing. Everyone's gonna get this thing like didn't phase
Speaker 1: you at all, but like it's a niche type of
Speaker 1: thing that like rabies, that's what gets you. That's interesting.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I don't know why. I really don't know why
Speaker 2: that is. I don't know. It's because I actually have it.
Speaker 2: I have to deal with it. I made you know
Speaker 2: what it is. You know what it probably is, Lyle
Speaker 2: is It's probably a fear of the unknown and probably
Speaker 2: a fear of lack of control.
Speaker 1: Interesting have you? Is that a realization that you have
Speaker 1: have kind of always known under the underneath the surface.
Speaker 2: I know then the unknown might have kind of hit
Speaker 2: me just now. But the lack of control, I know
Speaker 2: I have an issue with that. And I know the
Speaker 2: biggest lack of control in your life is pretty much
Speaker 2: how and when you die.
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, that's a thing that you just have to
Speaker 1: come to terms with. You unfortunately cannot beat that.
Speaker 2: Right, And I guess I haven't quite come to terms
Speaker 2: with it yet, even though even though I want to
Speaker 2: pretend I do. You know, hm, you know, I think
Speaker 2: all the silly stuff, like you know, there's not going
Speaker 2: to be a tomorrow. You've got to live your fullest
Speaker 2: to you know today, I mean silly in the sense
Speaker 2: that like when I say things, I don't know if
Speaker 2: I actually believe it, or like you know, oh it's
Speaker 2: you know, you die some day, or it's going to
Speaker 2: be all right because you die some day, or you
Speaker 2: know stuff like that.
Speaker 1: Yeah, that's it's an interesting well you know what the well, Okay,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna say this. You know what I think is,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna sa I'm gonna use this word. I think
Speaker 1: is the cool thing about that problem. I don't know
Speaker 1: if cool is the right word, but it is.
Speaker 4: The word problem.
Speaker 1: No, not the hypochondria, but just the coming to I
Speaker 1: guess I guess that you consider it as part of
Speaker 1: the hyper country. The coming to terms with the with
Speaker 1: the fact that you're going to die. Is what I
Speaker 1: like about that problem is every sing person that has
Speaker 1: ever fucking lived, every single person that is around you,
Speaker 1: every single person that ever has lived. I was gonna
Speaker 1: say I ever will live. That might not be the case,
Speaker 1: but just everyone, every single fucking person has to deal
Speaker 1: with it. It's like, if there is one thing that
Speaker 1: every fucking living thing has in common, it's that. And
Speaker 1: I weirdly find that kind of beautiful that we all
Speaker 1: have that problem, whether we are rich, poor, whatever fucking
Speaker 1: whatever our life has been, like, however old we are,
Speaker 1: we all have that problem, and I find that kind
Speaker 1: of beautiful. That's been my personal way of addressing that,
Speaker 1: is like, oh, this thing is really scary, but it
Speaker 1: is also the thing that connects me to every other
Speaker 1: human being on the planet.
Speaker 2: So when you you know, whe awake and I even
Speaker 2: think of dying, does that make you feel more comfortable,
Speaker 2: just more comfortable with the idea, or more connected to everybody?
Speaker 2: Because I think, well, let me hear your answer first. Actually,
Speaker 2: now tell me.
Speaker 1: About tell me what you think. I need time to
Speaker 1: think about what question?
Speaker 2: Because I think, you know, maybe and maybe this goes
Speaker 2: back to the hypochondria and the fear of it. Maybe
Speaker 2: I wouldn't be so scared if I felt like that
Speaker 2: connected us more. But I always feel like, you know,
Speaker 2: you kind of die individually, regardless of what happens afterwards.
Speaker 2: And I, you know, the I guess I'm sitting on
Speaker 2: a blank now, but you know, I guess it's never
Speaker 2: been a real comfort to me that we all have
Speaker 2: that connection, or we all have that connection.
Speaker 1: Is it something you've even because when people asked you
Speaker 1: go ahead, well, I just say.
Speaker 2: You know, when people when people die, I mean, maybe
Speaker 2: it's the outlook that everyone says about it, you know,
Speaker 2: because regardless of what people believe, and when people other
Speaker 2: people die, they know, they're like, you know, I mean,
Speaker 2: we're going to miss that person forever. There's a lot
Speaker 2: of crying, but it's never really like, you know, hooray.
Speaker 2: I mean, I'm not saying it should be like this,
Speaker 2: but hooray they're dead.
Speaker 4: You know.
Speaker 2: I mean, it's all negative views around it, like horrible tragedy,
Speaker 2: regardless of age.
Speaker 1: Well, have you like this idea that it is a
Speaker 1: thing that connects us all, this idea that it's a
Speaker 1: thing that gives life value at all? Really?
Speaker 3: Is that?
Speaker 1: Is that an idea that you've sat with at all?
Speaker 4: You know?
Speaker 1: I asked that genuinely, that that does that?
Speaker 2: Does death give life value?
Speaker 1: Yeah?
Speaker 2: Yeah, I think it does. Well, it does give value,
Speaker 2: of course, yes, But I guess, well, maybe then the
Speaker 2: lack of fear is too. Besides the lack of control
Speaker 2: is maybe I just don't feel like I've lived my
Speaker 2: life super well yet. M hm.
Speaker 3: Mm hmm.
Speaker 2: You know, sometimes I think I got things going on,
Speaker 2: go ahead. Well, sometimes I think I have things going
Speaker 2: on right, and you know, and then something you know, well,
Speaker 2: like all all the time in life, something comes out
Speaker 2: of nowhere, or you know, things happen in your life
Speaker 2: that aren't very good, and you kind of just like
Speaker 2: and I still know where I'm at right now, I go,
Speaker 2: you know, think things kind of just you think you're
Speaker 2: doing well and then you're not.
Speaker 1: What is your uh the question I was gonna asked
Speaker 1: was you said, you feel like the scary thing is okay,
Speaker 1: maybe you're not living your life well enough. What what
Speaker 1: does your life look like when you are living it?
Speaker 3: Well, Well, it's I know what it's not. It's not.
Speaker 2: Well, I'd like to say, you know, just living comfort.
Speaker 2: You know, actually, ile, if I lived my life well,
Speaker 2: it would be probably you know, somewhere in a mountain
Speaker 2: in a cabin or something.
Speaker 1: Yeah, in a mountain in a cabin, I think. So.
Speaker 2: I mean, here's the thing though, I'm not very like
Speaker 2: a handsy type of dude. So maybe with some electricity,
Speaker 2: I wouldn't mind that.
Speaker 1: You're tried living and hopefully.
Speaker 2: Hopefully a family. Have I tried living in the mountains?
Speaker 4: Now?
Speaker 1: Why not?
Speaker 3: If?
Speaker 1: If that is if that is the true answer, to
Speaker 1: that question, right.
Speaker 2: I don't know if it is the true answer. I'm
Speaker 2: not sure.
Speaker 1: All right, well you said you all right, well can
Speaker 1: I bring this up? You said that you know what
Speaker 1: it's not.
Speaker 2: Huh, Well, what it's not is I think I don't
Speaker 2: know what it's not. I was gonna say what it's
Speaker 2: not is being happy all the time, because I don't
Speaker 2: think anyone can be happy.
Speaker 3: All the time.
Speaker 2: So I think that that's kind of like, you know,
Speaker 2: I say that because when when when you ask people
Speaker 2: what do you what do you want from life or
Speaker 2: anything like that, they always say I just want to
Speaker 2: be happy. But I don't think that lasts often. I mean,
Speaker 2: by the ways that make you happy of course.
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, I'm totally with you on that. By the way,
Speaker 1: I I think, you know, there's a gigantic spectrum of
Speaker 1: emotions to experience, and I wouldn't say happiness is more
Speaker 1: important than any of the others. So I you know,
Speaker 1: I'm I'm I understand what you say when you're saying that.
Speaker 2: Do you mind? I mean, I don't want to take
Speaker 2: up too much of your time. I know you have
Speaker 2: all the other colors, but do you mind if I've
Speaker 2: met to you about another issue real quick.
Speaker 1: Hmm, sure, what is it?
Speaker 4: Is? It is?
Speaker 2: It?
Speaker 1: Is it kind of related to what you've been talking about.
Speaker 2: Well, I guess I might another unknown in my life
Speaker 2: at the moment, sort of sort of you know, sort of.
Speaker 5: What is that?
Speaker 2: Well? And maybe I don't know if I'm making the
Speaker 2: best choices because I thought this. I thought what I was,
Speaker 2: what I what I set out to do now would
Speaker 2: make me, against my own advice, a little bit happier.
Speaker 1: Sure, yeah, but I don't.
Speaker 2: But you know, I got so I got one of
Speaker 2: a dream job offer for me, and I was supposed
Speaker 2: to marry this woman that I love and next year
Speaker 2: in October. And before I accepted the job, before I
Speaker 2: went to go get it, I asked if she would
Speaker 2: move with me, and she said she would, And then
Speaker 2: when I got the job, she refused to move with me,
Speaker 2: and so we kind of, I mean, it just seemed
Speaker 2: like it just ended all at once, and I decided
Speaker 2: to go to this job. But now that I'm in
Speaker 2: the new apartment and you know what, I start work
Speaker 2: very soon, I just struggle with if you know, another
Speaker 2: another unknown in life, Like you know, when things are
Speaker 2: going good and sometimes things go bad, and I feel
Speaker 2: like I should be over the moon and really happy
Speaker 2: right now, we're at least excited, and it's just like
Speaker 2: kind of stuck in the depression of it, I guess,
Speaker 2: and I don't know if I make the right If
Speaker 2: I made the right.
Speaker 1: Decision, the decision to move, well, to.
Speaker 2: Move and to take a new job over spending possibly
Speaker 2: forever with somebody love.
Speaker 1: Well, can I ask, what what is it that made
Speaker 1: you want to make the decision?
Speaker 2: Well, I didn't want to when I was living with her.
Speaker 2: Her mom was also living there and there, and so
Speaker 2: is her sister, and I'm not I you know, it
Speaker 2: was okay, but I wanted to like go out and
Speaker 2: start our own thing. And also I didn't want to
Speaker 2: stick around in a place i'm at kind of get
Speaker 2: a job just to have a job, especially if I
Speaker 2: have an opportunity to do something in an industry I've
Speaker 2: been a part of forever. You know, I would like
Speaker 2: to wake up and not be miserable to go to
Speaker 2: work every day.
Speaker 1: I brother, I think that's a very good reason to me.
Speaker 1: I think that's I think it's a very good reason
Speaker 1: to make that decision.
Speaker 5: You know.
Speaker 1: If anything, you know, whether or not you believe the
Speaker 1: decision worked out. You made it with a with a
Speaker 1: with a pretty damn good reason what you just said,
Speaker 1: especially when we're in consideration of of you know, all this,
Speaker 1: all these things that we've been talking about for the
Speaker 1: amount of time we've been talking about, you know, appreciating
Speaker 1: the value of life and wanting to do good things
Speaker 1: with it. I mean, I mean you maybe maybe not consciously,
Speaker 1: but you made that decision with that in mind, that
Speaker 1: you wanted to improve your life, and you felt as
Speaker 1: though the move would improve your life, and so you've
Speaker 1: you made that decision, right, and so now you're at
Speaker 1: this job. But the problem is that this girl left you, right.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I just thought, you know, I don't want to
Speaker 2: tear up over the phone. I guess I just haven't
Speaker 2: really talked about it with anybody. But you know, it
Speaker 2: sucks when you think, you know, somebody's has your back,
Speaker 2: especially if you had theirs, and they just don't, you know,
Speaker 2: they just don't want to follow through with you, and
Speaker 2: you know, it's a great opportunity. I thought it was
Speaker 2: a great opportunity for us, so I didn't even you know,
Speaker 2: I just wanted to support.
Speaker 4: Her and stuff. Like that.
Speaker 2: But you know, it's just one of those things where
Speaker 2: you keep you know, it's one of those things where
Speaker 2: you say, again, you know, you know whatever. You just
Speaker 2: kind of like when you talked about it to other people,
Speaker 2: you're like, you know, it's for the best and stuff
Speaker 2: like that, but sometimes you just don't know.
Speaker 1: I think, mm hmm, yeah, I can, I can, I can.
Speaker 1: I can see why you uh, why you feel like
Speaker 1: you've been a trade. But uh, I'm sorry, no, no, no, no, no, no,
Speaker 1: I'm glad. I'm actually glad we're talking about this because
Speaker 1: again I want to come back to your answer of
Speaker 1: the question of why you made the decision. It was
Speaker 1: a really it was a really good answer, man, It
Speaker 1: really was. You made the decision for a really good reason,
Speaker 1: and you made it with all of the knowledge that
Speaker 1: you had at the time. I mean, to to make
Speaker 1: to to decide that you want to go out and
Speaker 1: try to live a life for yourself and not just
Speaker 1: kind of be shoehorned into your your your girlfriend's family's life,
Speaker 1: and and and not to you know, to pursue a
Speaker 1: job that you really feel like might make your life better.
Speaker 1: I mean, that's that's again, a good reason to make
Speaker 1: that decision. So even if things didn't work out exactly
Speaker 1: how you wanted them to, I think it's great that
Speaker 1: you went after something that you felt like could make
Speaker 1: your life better. And I know when you're hurting, maybe
Speaker 1: you don't want to hear something that's just kind of whatever,
Speaker 1: blindly optimistic. But I do have an optimism that there
Speaker 1: is still the potential for this decision to make your
Speaker 1: life better, you know, because it still sounds like it's
Speaker 1: very early in this career.
Speaker 2: Yeah, and I, you know, thanks for saying that. You know,
Speaker 2: it feels good to you know.
Speaker 3: I've talked to it obviously.
Speaker 2: I talked to a few friends about it, and I
Speaker 2: guess I just wanted to get a person who doesn't
Speaker 2: know me's opinion about it, because you know, your friends
Speaker 2: are always going to support you, and hopefully you have
Speaker 2: one see you that tell you the truth. But it
Speaker 2: was nice to get some friendly get go advice and
Speaker 2: from a person who doesn't know me compared to even
Speaker 2: though even though friends can be honest with you and
Speaker 2: support you. I just it was, you know, it's just
Speaker 2: nice to hear from somebody who doesn't have anything to
Speaker 2: do with you.
Speaker 1: Yeah, man, And by the way, can I just say
Speaker 1: you're you're twenty six by the way, right, Yeah, okay,
Speaker 1: we're we're we're similar ages. I I don't want to
Speaker 1: I don't wanna uh lay toxic positivity shit on you.
Speaker 1: But I in my head when I'm when you're telling
Speaker 1: me about this, I'm thinking, well, no, I'm dude, I'm
Speaker 1: thinking like, okay, you know you'd made the decision. Here's
Speaker 1: the thing about I'm I have a billion thoughts in
Speaker 1: my head. But here's the thing about these decisions that
Speaker 1: we make, and I'm really trying to learn this myself,
Speaker 1: is that something that happens that ends up one way
Speaker 1: that's bad right now, could eventually start a string of
Speaker 1: things that lead to something that you could never have expected.
Speaker 1: So like, Okay, you made this decision to take this job,
Speaker 1: and as a result, things you know don't work out
Speaker 1: with the current person you're with. But fucking what if
Speaker 1: you know this current job sends you to some place,
Speaker 1: you're on some airplane, you're in some meeting, you meet whatever,
Speaker 1: and you meet someone else who you're like, whoa, what
Speaker 1: the who is this person? And then you start a
Speaker 1: new relationship that's you know, you're feeling things that you
Speaker 1: never even knew were possible to feel in the old
Speaker 1: one or or and then maybe that one fucking turns
Speaker 1: out shitty, and then fucking that fails. But then maybe
Speaker 1: that leads you to something else that's amazing in your career.
Speaker 1: Maybe you meet the fucking person in your industry that's
Speaker 1: your your hero. There's just infinite, infinite things that could happen.
Speaker 1: You have no idea if they're positive or negative, and
Speaker 1: so and everything I'm telling you is things I'm trying
Speaker 1: to tell myself. So just fucking roll with it, man,
Speaker 1: you know that's that's Yeah, you're right, that's all I
Speaker 1: gotta say.
Speaker 4: You're absolutely right.
Speaker 2: Well, oh, thank you, Lyle.
Speaker 1: Yeah, man, thanks thanks for having this talk with me.
Speaker 1: I'm really uh, I feel honored that you would, you know,
Speaker 1: share all this this stuff.
Speaker 2: Yeah. Again, I'm sorry to get so heavy at the
Speaker 2: last part there, but you know, I really it was
Speaker 2: I really appreciate. I honestly really appreciate tonight.
Speaker 4: You know that I got in.
Speaker 2: So it was really nice talking with you.
Speaker 1: And yeah, uh are you going to before we go?
Speaker 1: Do you do you think that you know, kind of
Speaker 1: back to the hypochondria, stuff. Do you think you will
Speaker 1: try again to seek, you know, a legitimate type of
Speaker 1: type of treatment that.
Speaker 4: Well.
Speaker 2: Listen, you know, I've been listening to you a lot
Speaker 2: on Spotify, and i know one of your sponsors is
Speaker 2: Better Help, and I've kind of I've been on the
Speaker 2: side a couple of times, and I've like gotten to
Speaker 2: the point where like I'm almost finished signing up and
Speaker 2: then I close off. So but I've been I've been
Speaker 2: definitely thinking about that, and maybe I've been thinking about
Speaker 2: that more because I've been listening to your show so much,
Speaker 2: and I just want to say, by the way too,
Speaker 2: but you know, I've heard, I've I've heard about your
Speaker 2: show and I've seen clips from it before all this
Speaker 2: stuff happened. But since this stuff has been going on,
Speaker 2: I mean, I just I almost just kind of go
Speaker 2: through the catalog every night and it really really really.
Speaker 3: Helps me out.
Speaker 2: So if you ever feel like I mean, you know
Speaker 2: you have your doubts too, But if you're ever doubtful
Speaker 2: that this show doesn't do anything besides provide some funny
Speaker 2: things for the Internet, You're wrong, you know, I mean,
Speaker 2: it really helps out a lot of people.
Speaker 1: I think, thank you, brother. I you that that really
Speaker 1: genuinely does mean a lot to me. It really does,
Speaker 1: because yeah, I am man, I fucking everything I talk
Speaker 1: to you about I on this call is are things
Speaker 1: that I've had my doubts about too, So I really
Speaker 1: appreciate that, man. And you know, once again, thank you
Speaker 1: for talking to me. And I hope that you can
Speaker 1: find a therapist that is helpful to you and doesn't
Speaker 1: make you draw fucking pictures.
Speaker 2: Thanks man. And can I say one thing to the
Speaker 2: audience before.
Speaker 1: I go, Yes, of course, I just want to.
Speaker 2: Say, and I've well, I guess I've learned this recently too,
Speaker 2: that if you guys ever feel stuck in any sort
Speaker 2: of situation, there's a way out, no matter how hard
Speaker 2: it is, and you can really change your lives for
Speaker 2: the better, or at least change it, you know what
Speaker 2: I mean. So that's all I want to say.
Speaker 1: You know, in in in in thinking about everything that
Speaker 1: we've been talking about, I'm really glad to hear you
Speaker 1: say that, because you know, I know that you've you've
Speaker 1: been dealing with a lot of things and probably a
Speaker 1: lot of hopelessness, it sounds, and so I'm glad to
Speaker 1: hear you. Uh, you know, leave us with those optimistic thoughts.
Speaker 4: Thank you. I really appreciate it.
Speaker 2: Man, you helped a lot.
Speaker 1: Hey, take care, Tristan, you too. Oh that was a
Speaker 1: that was a wild, wild call. That might be one
Speaker 1: of the longest calls I've taken on this show. We
Speaker 1: talked about a lot of interesting things. That was a really,
Speaker 1: really great conversation. Thank you again to Tristan for having
Speaker 1: that conversation with me. Thinking about death, thinking about life,
Speaker 1: thinking about decisions, think of a fucking think about all
Speaker 1: this ship that I'm uh, I'm thinking about all the time.
Speaker 1: It's it's it's fun to talk to people through this
Speaker 1: stuff because it reinforces it when I think about it
Speaker 1: in my own life and my own decisions, and and
Speaker 1: I feel like, you know, when I'm thinking through a
Speaker 1: similar problem of oh, okay, well I made this decision
Speaker 1: and that didn't work out. You know, I can think, well,
Speaker 1: you fucking told this guy on the fucking podcast this thing,
Speaker 1: so I want to try to believe in it yourself.
Speaker 1: And yeah, it was just great. It was great. Thank
Speaker 1: you Tristan for talking to me about that. And I
Speaker 1: hope he gets uh, you know, a legit person who
Speaker 1: helps him out with his hypochondria, and fuck, man, he's
Speaker 1: a young he's a young dude. We're very similar ages.
Speaker 1: And I feel like there's lots and lots and lots
Speaker 1: of room for him to experience more. As he said,
Speaker 1: he doesn't just want to be happy all the time,
Speaker 1: and I think there's a lot of experience room for
Speaker 1: him to as he continues through his life, much opportunity
Speaker 1: for him to dive into the wide spectrum of emotions
Speaker 1: that the human experience has to offer. And I hope
Speaker 1: he soaks them all up before he dies and I die,
Speaker 1: and whoever is listening to this dies live in the moment,
Speaker 1: dear thing. I'm a get Hello.
Speaker 5: Wait, wait, hello, is this Wile?
Speaker 3: Yeah?
Speaker 1: Is this Kayla? Yes?
Speaker 5: This is Kayla. Oh wow. I've been waiting a while,
Speaker 5: so I'm excited.
Speaker 1: What's going on with you? Man?
Speaker 5: I am just sitting at my boyfriend's house. We are
Speaker 5: actually watching your line right now.
Speaker 1: Oh beautiful, beautiful. It says here that you and your
Speaker 1: boyfriend have a disagreement going on. I figure you, I'm
Speaker 1: not going to read it. You could just tell me
Speaker 1: what it is, of course.
Speaker 5: So we were driving in the car, actually listening to
Speaker 5: your life. And he was telling me a story about
Speaker 5: how he had neighbors that used to jiz in their
Speaker 5: face as masturbation, and so it's funny, but I just
Speaker 5: we've come to the disagreement on he thinks that it's
Speaker 5: a gay to do that, like it's people homosexual people. Sorry,
Speaker 5: if that's not PC.
Speaker 3: Do it.
Speaker 5: But I thought that would just be like a masturbating
Speaker 5: thing because you're just doing it to yourself, not like
Speaker 5: to another same sex person. So I was curious what
Speaker 5: your thoughts are on.
Speaker 1: It, Okay, for before we get into any of that,
Speaker 1: Before we get into any of that, how what where
Speaker 1: were his neighbors masturbating where he could see it?
Speaker 5: No, no, no, he didn't see it. He wasn't like
Speaker 5: there or anything. It was Uh, it was a conversation
Speaker 5: he had overheard when he was younger.
Speaker 1: It was a conversation he had overheard when he was younger.
Speaker 6: Yeah, is he there?
Speaker 1: Is he there? Well, I'll get into like the initial question,
Speaker 1: but can I talk to him real quick?
Speaker 5: Tucker?
Speaker 2: You're Tucker?
Speaker 5: Wait?
Speaker 1: Sorry, oh wait, I need to hear this conversation. What
Speaker 1: I need I need all of the contexts he possibly has. Hey, Tucker, Hello,
Speaker 1: father G. Tucker Man, Listen, what I know that you
Speaker 1: and your girlfriend have this debate. But I'm doing all right, man.
Speaker 1: What tell me about you hearing your neighbors talk about
Speaker 1: jerking off and on their own faces when young.
Speaker 7: Yeah, this was a very strange, out of context question
Speaker 7: that she could have asked you. But anyways, so, my
Speaker 7: my friend's mom was friends with this gay couple, and
Speaker 7: you know, we're hanging out at their firepit or whatever,
Speaker 7: and they're all drunk or whatever, and so they're pretty
Speaker 7: like open about their gainess, which is sure. And you know,
Speaker 7: I forgot how how the subject came up, but uh, yeah,
Speaker 7: he said that he like came in his own faith
Speaker 7: when he was like, you know, like a teenager or whatever.
Speaker 7: And you know, I I said it was gay, But
Speaker 7: my girlfriend thing is it's not. But you know, tweets
Speaker 7: their own you know, I guess she holds up a
Speaker 7: pretty good argument about it, but I personally think it is.
Speaker 1: But you know, and you know, anybody else when you said, listen,
Speaker 1: when you say you were younger, how young were you
Speaker 1: when you over?
Speaker 7: Yeah, and you know the fact that I was younger
Speaker 7: makes it sound like it's super creepy and like, no,
Speaker 7: I just wait.
Speaker 1: Look, look, I'm not we're not making any judgments. We're
Speaker 1: not making any judgments on the situation. I'm just trying
Speaker 1: to get empirical day to hear. How how old were
Speaker 1: you when this happened.
Speaker 7: I believe I was in like seventh or eighth.
Speaker 2: Grade or so.
Speaker 1: Okay, all right, so you were you were probably masturbating
Speaker 1: at this time. Eighth grade is just typically when.
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, I could.
Speaker 7: I guess I could relate in some sense, but not not.
Speaker 1: You know, have you ever jacked off on your own face?
Speaker 1: You ever masturbated and just on your face?
Speaker 7: Negative? No, No, that's not a activity that I've taken exactly.
Speaker 1: And you you believe that it is that I've known anybody.
Speaker 3: Else that had.
Speaker 1: Okay, all right, let me talk about let me talk
Speaker 1: to your girlfriend again.
Speaker 2: Okay, all right, my love here.
Speaker 5: Hello.
Speaker 1: Okay, So you're arguing about whether or not you believe
Speaker 1: it is gay to jack off onto your own face,
Speaker 1: and what is your perspective on this? Where do you
Speaker 1: stand in this debate?
Speaker 5: Well, I would think that if you're doing it with
Speaker 5: someone of the same sex, I think then it would
Speaker 5: be considered gay. However, doing it to yourself, so it's
Speaker 5: like masturbating. I know it's not like what normal like
Speaker 5: normally you would do, I guess, but like it's a
Speaker 5: more rare thing. But I would consider it masturbating. But
Speaker 5: now it's saying it out loud, it sounds a bit
Speaker 5: more silly.
Speaker 1: Well, no, it's interesting because well I guess, I guess
Speaker 1: in order to be like when I think of like
Speaker 1: gay or straight, like straight would be, you know, a
Speaker 1: guy and a girl, and gay would be a guy
Speaker 1: and a guy. But if you don't, if there's no
Speaker 1: second person, then there's no it's just it just is
Speaker 1: what it is. Yes, it's master day. I agree with that.
Speaker 1: So I don't think, Okay.
Speaker 5: Thank you, Yeah, thank you. I masturbating. It's it's arguable
Speaker 5: because the original story comes from a gay couple. So
Speaker 5: the strong point there is it is a gay thing.
Speaker 5: But however, I think, like if you're doing it to
Speaker 5: yourself alone, I just think it might be a weird
Speaker 5: setish people are just think.
Speaker 1: By the way, I'm really curious why your boyfriend says
Speaker 1: that he doesn't jack off onto his own face. But
Speaker 1: I think he's lying because there's no other reason why
Speaker 1: you would be like so embroiled in ument in the
Speaker 1: way that you are.
Speaker 5: I think I think so too. He has a beautiful
Speaker 5: and I want to know his skincare, But there doesn't
Speaker 5: seem too much evidence in the bathroom, so there could
Speaker 5: only be one.
Speaker 1: By the way I'm gonna, I'll say this with the
Speaker 1: whole like, whatever is it gay thing i've Actually here's
Speaker 1: the thing I've I have not gized on my own face,
Speaker 1: but I jizz on my knees all the time, and
Speaker 1: when my GIGS comes out, it's like hot, And when
Speaker 1: I gizz on my knee, it like it feels a
Speaker 1: little bit good in the way that like like on
Speaker 1: my knee, not even in like a sexual way, like
Speaker 1: in the way that like a hot towel does. So
Speaker 1: like I haven't done this yet, maybe I will, who knows,
Speaker 1: But I could see myself if I giezed on my
Speaker 1: own face and my jigs was like warm, it would
Speaker 1: be like a hot towel kind of sensation on my face,
Speaker 1: and that it wouldn't to me even be like a
Speaker 1: sexual thing. So no, I saw again, I'm with you.
Speaker 1: I don't even think it's a sexual thing at all.
Speaker 1: To gigs on your own face. It would just like
Speaker 1: Field call it.
Speaker 5: I mean I can see it as like a like
Speaker 5: a therapeutic thing. I could see it enhancing your skin.
Speaker 5: Have you ever nutrients it's been proven.
Speaker 2: Have you ever have ever?
Speaker 1: Is that that you can do.
Speaker 5: Like my like my vagina juice?
Speaker 1: Yeah?
Speaker 5: I don't. I mean maybe in the sense of like
Speaker 5: during sex, you know, you go in, you come out,
Speaker 5: you go down, But uh no, I don't. I don't
Speaker 5: usually just rub it on my face in my free time.
Speaker 5: So yeah, it is kind of more of like a
Speaker 5: I think, a rare thing to do. But I will.
Speaker 1: Well, I'm glad we had this conversation. This felt like
Speaker 1: it was extremely productive.
Speaker 2: Thank you.
Speaker 5: I was hoping it would. I've been really wanting to
Speaker 5: talk to you, I think for about a about a
Speaker 5: week now, So I'm really glad I got there. It
Speaker 5: called like eighty five times. I was like, Okay, we'll
Speaker 5: get in there. We need to know. I'm glad we
Speaker 5: got your.
Speaker 1: No, I'm I'm glad we got to sell this too,
Speaker 1: because I think a lot of people I think a
Speaker 1: lot of people were wondering, Kayla, is there anything else
Speaker 1: you want to say to the people of the computer
Speaker 1: before we go.
Speaker 5: Thank you all for listening, and I hope you enjoyed
Speaker 5: this conversation.
Speaker 1: Yah, bless you and tell you Tell your boyfriend it's
Speaker 1: it's fine to come on his own face. He doesn't
Speaker 1: need to feel this weird shame about it.
Speaker 3: You're here.
Speaker 5: I think he needs to hear it from you.
Speaker 1: Father by Okay, what's your name again?
Speaker 3: Tucker?
Speaker 1: Tucker. I'll talk to you soon, Tucker.
Speaker 3: Thank you, sir.
Speaker 1: A couple of great guys, Kayla and Tucker. Hello, Hello,
Speaker 1: how's it going?
Speaker 4: How's it going?
Speaker 2: Man? Was wild?
Speaker 1: I'm doing good? Yeah, what's up with you?
Speaker 4: Not much? Man? My work break, dude, Uh, I'd call
Speaker 4: in while I have some time.
Speaker 1: Oh boy, a work break?
Speaker 4: Yeah, man, wild dude. I had a pretty interesting debate
Speaker 4: I wanted to bring up to you.
Speaker 3: Man.
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, what's going on?
Speaker 4: So? I don't know if you saw from the from
Speaker 4: the call screener, but uh, me and my girlfriend had
Speaker 4: a little debate about you know, she had her opinion,
Speaker 4: I had mine, and I thought i'd bring this to
Speaker 4: your attention to tell me what I should do about this.
Speaker 4: So we've been debating. I thought about becoming a firm
Speaker 4: donor ah, And I actually took the time to go
Speaker 4: on an application and apply somewhere just to see what
Speaker 4: would happen. And they accept in my application and told
Speaker 4: me to make an appointment and I haven't responded because
Speaker 4: I'm pretty nervous to do it.
Speaker 1: Interesting what about it is making you nervous.
Speaker 4: Because I'm like, I don't want to, like, I don't
Speaker 4: know how the process is going to be. Like when
Speaker 4: I go there and they just like, you know, take
Speaker 4: a sample or something like, I'm just like and then
Speaker 4: plus like if it does follow through, I'm just like, wait, well,
Speaker 4: like I'm gonna have like they wanted a photo, I
Speaker 4: do picture, like my face next to like you know,
Speaker 4: my my, you know, my sample and everything. And it
Speaker 4: just seems like such a weird process. But but you
Speaker 4: can get paid, like I think, like like a thousand,
Speaker 4: five hundred dollars a month for it.
Speaker 1: A month for like what do you mean a month?
Speaker 1: Like you just give them spur a monthly.
Speaker 4: Well I guess uh, I'm reading on it. They that
Speaker 4: you would have to go like at least two to
Speaker 4: three times a week to go and give them samples. Yeah,
Speaker 4: and then monthly you'll get paid fifteen hundred. So I'm like, okay,
Speaker 4: it's really like easy money. I asked my girlfriend about it,
Speaker 4: and she said, she said, well, that's it's extra money.
Speaker 4: I mean, I you're not like cheating. I don't see
Speaker 4: why not. And I said, well, I mean, would it
Speaker 4: be weird if I like had like a bunch of
Speaker 4: like minimes out there somewhere like that are mine but
Speaker 4: not really mine?
Speaker 1: Mm?
Speaker 4: And she's you know, that's the part I'm nervous about
Speaker 4: because I'm like, that seems a little weird. But then again,
Speaker 4: it's kind of not it's kind of cool.
Speaker 6: Okay.
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, So so let's let's let's let's dive into it.
Speaker 1: Why what what if you could kind of put into
Speaker 1: words like take a second and search for them? What
Speaker 1: what feels weird about that?
Speaker 4: The thing that feels weird about it? I mean, I
Speaker 4: know it's for a good cause. I know it's for
Speaker 4: a good cause, but it's just a little weird because
Speaker 4: I mean, what are the odds? You know, one day
Speaker 4: walking down the street and I just see some kids
Speaker 4: and I'm like, hey, he looks kind of like me, like,
Speaker 4: you know, like, what are the odds that I ever have?
Speaker 4: And probably like very very low. But it's just a
Speaker 4: little It just makes me nervous thinking about Like, dude,
Speaker 4: I like out there there are like means out there,
Speaker 4: like somewhere anywhere but here. So here's the thing. So
Speaker 4: I brought it up to my girlfriend, and you know,
Speaker 4: she had her opinion, and she kind of like wanted
Speaker 4: me to do it, kind of like hyping me up,
Speaker 4: like do it, why not just try it out? And
Speaker 4: so I was like yeah, and I think I got
Speaker 4: a little two hyped up. And I was like, yeah,
Speaker 4: you know what, like I could like have like like
Speaker 4: I should have a kid in like every race like
Speaker 4: that'd be awesome. I'm like, yeah, like I should have
Speaker 4: like a MIDI like army. And it's here saying like
Speaker 4: going too far, and they's like, no, I don't want
Speaker 4: you to do it. But now I'm like, hype kind
Speaker 4: of do it.
Speaker 1: I don't know, are you what do you? Are you
Speaker 1: short on cash right now? No?
Speaker 4: But okay, I mean the extra would be nice.
Speaker 1: Okay, I mean listen, here's the thing, right, is what
Speaker 1: makes somebody a father in the modern world. Is it
Speaker 1: simply that their child came out of their own penis,
Speaker 1: or or is it the fact that they took care
Speaker 1: of that child, brought them up, They were in that
Speaker 1: child's lives. So I mean, look, if if if you
Speaker 1: if you're looking to come, there's nothing special, which ultimately
Speaker 1: it's not. There's infinite come in the universe. Come. It's
Speaker 1: not like oil. It's an infinite reoccurring resource that is
Speaker 1: every where. The come is not very special, So you
Speaker 1: know you have come. Just spray it out all over
Speaker 1: into the universe. Make little people. People aren't that special either.
Speaker 1: Just make a bunch of them. Get a little bit
Speaker 1: of money. Money's not that special either, Just do it.
Speaker 1: Why not, dude?
Speaker 4: I mean, who knows one of those kids can like
Speaker 4: someday like become the president and I'll be like, hey,
Speaker 4: like thinks you might contribute, like like I give so
Speaker 4: are you?
Speaker 1: I mean you're talking about it like you're keeping in
Speaker 1: touch with these kids. I mean you're you're throwing your
Speaker 1: coum into a file and then you're never getting You're
Speaker 1: never you know, that's it, You're done. You have relinquished
Speaker 1: your come into the universe. Your part is done. I mean,
Speaker 1: so you're never gonna know, No, You're not going to know.
Speaker 1: You're not going to see, uh, your kids running around.
Speaker 1: You're not going to find out if your come became
Speaker 1: the president. You're just exchanging come for money. There's nothing
Speaker 1: else to it.
Speaker 4: Honestly, it sounds like a kind of reasonable exchange.
Speaker 3: Man.
Speaker 1: I think so too. Well, I don't know, like it's
Speaker 1: really it's a here's it's a good deal for you,
Speaker 1: because I think buying come is crazy. There's infinite come.
Speaker 1: It's not, as I said, a scarce recess. So if
Speaker 1: I were you, I take advantage of the deal before
Speaker 1: they read that their kind of suckers for buying come.
Speaker 4: That's kind of true, man, Like that's access. It's everywhere,
Speaker 4: it's everywhere. Yeah, you know what, man, I think I'm
Speaker 4: gonna consider it.
Speaker 1: Mhmm, you shouldn't.
Speaker 4: I think I think I'm getting I think I'm gonna
Speaker 4: consider it. Well, I'm still a little nervous. I don't
Speaker 4: know what I'm gonna do when I go there, because
Speaker 4: I don't know if they're like, Okay.
Speaker 1: I know what you're gonna do when you're gonna go there.
Speaker 4: I have no idea how it works.
Speaker 1: No, I know how it works. You go in the place,
Speaker 1: they go, here's a little cup, go into the bathroom.
Speaker 1: Do you know how to jack off? You ever come before? Yeah, okay,
Speaker 1: go into a bathroom, you jack off, You think about
Speaker 1: whatever it is that gets you there, and you come
Speaker 1: into a little vial and then you give them the
Speaker 1: vial and they hand you fifteen dollars.
Speaker 4: Or more and then they're like bye, and then.
Speaker 1: Yep, that's it. That's all you gotta do. Huh, you
Speaker 1: are a human coming.
Speaker 4: I mean, yeah, dude, you know what. I think it
Speaker 4: was just gonna be the best the scene I could
Speaker 4: possibly be.
Speaker 1: You should you should do it.
Speaker 4: I think I'm gonna do it well, Daniel.
Speaker 1: Anything I want to say to the people of the
Speaker 1: computer before we go.
Speaker 4: Guys, uh, you know, if you have a good feeling
Speaker 4: about something, you know, even if you're nervous, you know,
Speaker 4: stright out, you know.
Speaker 3: Straight out beautiful.
Speaker 1: Thank you for calling Daniel.
Speaker 4: Thanks all see it.
Speaker 7: Man Can goes on the line taking phone calls every night.
Speaker 3: De Beacon goes to his eye.
Speaker 1: I'm just teaching you.
Speaker 3: Aloud in the memory line.
Speaker 2: But he's not really an expert.