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Speaker 1: how are you?

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Speaker 2: Uh? You know, I'm pretty amazed I got in. I

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Speaker 2: know everyone says.

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Speaker 1: That, but well, here's the thing. Somebody who's going to

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Speaker 1: get in? So why not you?

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Speaker 2: Hmm my thoughts exactly. That's why I spammed the call.

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Speaker 1: I guess what's going on with you, Tristan?

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Speaker 2: Well, so I know you only usually pick one thing

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Speaker 2: to talk about, So I either wanted to talk to

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Speaker 2: you about my hypochondria that stems from a bad mushroom

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Speaker 2: trip years ago, or I kind of been going through

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Speaker 2: a rough time lately, moving cities and having to break

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Speaker 1: So what hypochondria is when you when you think that

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Speaker 1: you are ill all the time, correct, right.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, So.

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Speaker 2: I was experimenting with a lot of psychedelics, mushrooms, d MT,

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Speaker 2: and I was having a pretty good time. I know,

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Speaker 2: I know, psychedelics don't really cause the issues, they kind

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Speaker 2: of bring them out of people. And I guess I

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Speaker 2: had some hidden anxiety, well, a lot of hitting anxiety

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Speaker 2: about death. I guess that I didn't really know how

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Speaker 2: took some some honestly a low dose of mushrooms, and

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Speaker 2: I think I was, you know, this isn't really diagnosed,

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Speaker 2: this is more of a self diagnosis, but I mean

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Speaker 2: I felt like I went into what you could call

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Speaker 2: a psychosis for maybe six months afterwards.

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Speaker 1: What kind of psychoses?

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Speaker 2: Well, see, I guess you know, so after the mushroom trip,

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Speaker 2: I thought every day afterwards, for six months straight, I

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Speaker 2: I thought the mushrooms were poisoned, and I thought I

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Speaker 4: To deal with.

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Speaker 2: And I went to I went to multiple I spent

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Speaker 1: You were about to say, you went to multiple.

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Speaker 2: Oh, I went to multiple for the first thing. I

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Speaker 2: went to multiple doctors, neurologists. I've had CT scans on

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Speaker 2: just anxiety. But I've dealt with that anxiety in my

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Speaker 2: own way. I never I don't see a therapist now,

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Speaker 2: my own hands and I think I'm doing pretty good

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Speaker 2: with it, but it still bugged me, like right now,

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Speaker 2: and I know it's ridiculous, but right now I feel

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Speaker 2: like I have rabies. I know, I know RABI takes

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Speaker 2: I might think I have rabies, I tend to see

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Speaker 1: Here again, So you went to a therapist for this?

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Speaker 2: No, Initially I did. This was I'm twenty six. Now,

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Speaker 1: So you said initially that sixah, Okay.

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Speaker 2: I didn't feel like it was well, I mean I

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Speaker 2: Well, the lady I went to, you know, I probably

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Speaker 2: Okay then, and I thought I thought that was a

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Speaker 1: I've talked to a billion people who they go to

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Speaker 1: I did the same thing, currently, the same thing. But

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Speaker 1: interesting to me because you are aware, like you know

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Speaker 1: that it's ridiculous that you have think you have rabies,

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Speaker 1: Yet it sounds like that does not help you with

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Speaker 2: No, and you know any little medical so I'm okay with,

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Speaker 2: But anything like, I know, I had a stomach pain

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Speaker 5: Gee, what is it?

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Speaker 2: It's just like an over production of acid, stomach acid.

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Speaker 2: But I mean, for a month, I was obsessing that

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Speaker 1: Interesting. I uh again, I know I said this just now,

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Speaker 1: But the contradiction of you knowing and stating how ridiculous

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Speaker 2: Yeah, it doesn't because, like I said, so, I mean

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Speaker 2: it's just like I got a small scratch from an

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Speaker 1: So let me ask you this. Forgive me if any

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Speaker 1: the questions I ask about this thing are ignorant because

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Speaker 1: genuine curiosity. So you are are out here, you know,

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Speaker 1: you said you spend a lot of money on doctors, Uh,

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Speaker 1: you know, trying like getting scans, making sure you don't

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Speaker 1: You know, all these all these sort of things that

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Speaker 2: You know, the one's ever really put put it that

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Speaker 2: way to me before. Yeah, that's unord percent true.

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Speaker 2: I was about to say, maybe maybe maybe it comes

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Speaker 1: So I mean, look, next time, kit, would you do

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Speaker 1: you think you have it in you too? Next time

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Speaker 1: pretty sure I have whatever the thing is you think

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Speaker 1: you like think you know, you think a higher level

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Speaker 2: Do I think I have an enemy to do that?

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Speaker 1: Yeah, that's the question.

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Speaker 2: I don't know why it's so hard to say yes,

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Speaker 1: Because I know you had this experience with the fucking

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Speaker 1: kindergarten teacher therapist and that maybe turned you off, which

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Speaker 1: I get, dude. But I'll say this, and I say

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Speaker 1: this hypocritically because I myself I have not gone to

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Speaker 1: where I've been in therapy and been like, what the

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Speaker 1: fuck is fucking is this shit? But I've talked to

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Speaker 1: so many people on the show and in real life

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Speaker 1: they maybe draw fucking pictures. Went to another therapist, they

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Speaker 1: didn't listen to me. Went to another therapist, they didn't

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Speaker 1: Went to another therapist, changed my life, never felt better

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Speaker 1: type of shit. I hear that all the time of people.

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Speaker 1: They just have to go through a billion different people.

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Speaker 2: I wouldn't mind that.

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Speaker 1: Why not?

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Speaker 2: Huh, Well, what it's not is I think I don't

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Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, I'm totally with you on that. By the way,

438
00:26:14,960 --> 00:26:19,480
Speaker 1: I I think, you know, there's a gigantic spectrum of

439
00:26:19,480 --> 00:26:25,560
Speaker 1: emotions to experience, and I wouldn't say happiness is more

440
00:26:25,560 --> 00:26:27,240
Speaker 1: important than any of the others. So I you know,

441
00:26:27,240 --> 00:26:29,800
Speaker 1: I'm I'm I understand what you say when you're saying that.

442
00:26:34,680 --> 00:26:36,479
Speaker 2: Do you mind? I mean, I don't want to take

443
00:26:36,520 --> 00:26:37,879
Speaker 2: up too much of your time. I know you have

444
00:26:37,920 --> 00:26:39,880
Speaker 2: all the other colors, but do you mind if I've

445
00:26:39,920 --> 00:26:41,800
Speaker 2: met to you about another issue real quick.

446
00:26:43,040 --> 00:26:45,320
Speaker 1: Hmm, sure, what is it?

447
00:26:45,359 --> 00:26:45,680
Speaker 4: Is? It is?

448
00:26:45,720 --> 00:26:45,800
Speaker 2: It?

449
00:26:45,880 --> 00:26:47,760
Speaker 1: Is it kind of related to what you've been talking about.

450
00:26:50,960 --> 00:26:53,440
Speaker 2: Well, I guess I might another unknown in my life

451
00:26:53,480 --> 00:26:57,800
Speaker 2: at the moment, sort of sort of you know, sort of.

452
00:26:59,240 --> 00:26:59,679
Speaker 5: What is that?

453
00:27:01,560 --> 00:27:04,560
Speaker 2: Well? And maybe I don't know if I'm making the

454
00:27:04,560 --> 00:27:07,359
Speaker 2: best choices because I thought this. I thought what I was,

455
00:27:07,720 --> 00:27:10,160
Speaker 2: what I what I set out to do now would

456
00:27:10,160 --> 00:27:13,120
Speaker 2: make me, against my own advice, a little bit happier.

457
00:27:13,640 --> 00:27:15,280
Speaker 1: Sure, yeah, but I don't.

458
00:27:15,720 --> 00:27:19,720
Speaker 2: But you know, I got so I got one of

459
00:27:19,880 --> 00:27:24,480
Speaker 2: a dream job offer for me, and I was supposed

460
00:27:24,480 --> 00:27:27,080
Speaker 2: to marry this woman that I love and next year

461
00:27:27,080 --> 00:27:31,720
Speaker 2: in October. And before I accepted the job, before I

462
00:27:31,760 --> 00:27:33,880
Speaker 2: went to go get it, I asked if she would

463
00:27:33,920 --> 00:27:36,399
Speaker 2: move with me, and she said she would, And then

464
00:27:36,440 --> 00:27:40,159
Speaker 2: when I got the job, she refused to move with me,

465
00:27:40,840 --> 00:27:43,520
Speaker 2: and so we kind of, I mean, it just seemed

466
00:27:43,560 --> 00:27:46,560
Speaker 2: like it just ended all at once, and I decided

467
00:27:46,560 --> 00:27:48,240
Speaker 2: to go to this job. But now that I'm in

468
00:27:48,280 --> 00:27:51,600
Speaker 2: the new apartment and you know what, I start work

469
00:27:51,720 --> 00:27:55,639
Speaker 2: very soon, I just struggle with if you know, another

470
00:27:56,440 --> 00:27:59,359
Speaker 2: another unknown in life, Like you know, when things are

471
00:27:59,400 --> 00:28:01,680
Speaker 2: going good and sometimes things go bad, and I feel

472
00:28:01,680 --> 00:28:03,600
Speaker 2: like I should be over the moon and really happy

473
00:28:03,640 --> 00:28:05,879
Speaker 2: right now, we're at least excited, and it's just like

474
00:28:06,840 --> 00:28:09,440
Speaker 2: kind of stuck in the depression of it, I guess,

475
00:28:09,640 --> 00:28:11,200
Speaker 2: and I don't know if I make the right If

476
00:28:11,200 --> 00:28:11,919
Speaker 2: I made the right.

477
00:28:11,800 --> 00:28:20,280
Speaker 1: Decision, the decision to move, well, to.

478
00:28:20,320 --> 00:28:25,200
Speaker 2: Move and to take a new job over spending possibly

479
00:28:25,280 --> 00:28:26,640
Speaker 2: forever with somebody love.

480
00:28:28,440 --> 00:28:31,080
Speaker 1: Well, can I ask, what what is it that made

481
00:28:31,119 --> 00:28:32,200
Speaker 1: you want to make the decision?

482
00:28:40,200 --> 00:28:46,160
Speaker 2: Well, I didn't want to when I was living with her.

483
00:28:46,720 --> 00:28:49,400
Speaker 2: Her mom was also living there and there, and so

484
00:28:49,600 --> 00:28:53,240
Speaker 2: is her sister, and I'm not I you know, it

485
00:28:53,360 --> 00:28:55,480
Speaker 2: was okay, but I wanted to like go out and

486
00:28:55,520 --> 00:28:57,400
Speaker 2: start our own thing. And also I didn't want to

487
00:28:57,440 --> 00:29:00,720
Speaker 2: stick around in a place i'm at kind of get

488
00:29:00,760 --> 00:29:03,479
Speaker 2: a job just to have a job, especially if I

489
00:29:03,520 --> 00:29:06,640
Speaker 2: have an opportunity to do something in an industry I've

490
00:29:06,680 --> 00:29:09,080
Speaker 2: been a part of forever. You know, I would like

491
00:29:09,120 --> 00:29:10,800
Speaker 2: to wake up and not be miserable to go to

492
00:29:10,840 --> 00:29:11,520
Speaker 2: work every day.

493
00:29:13,840 --> 00:29:17,120
Speaker 1: I brother, I think that's a very good reason to me.

494
00:29:17,200 --> 00:29:19,200
Speaker 1: I think that's I think it's a very good reason

495
00:29:19,240 --> 00:29:20,200
Speaker 1: to make that decision.

496
00:29:23,400 --> 00:29:23,640
Speaker 5: You know.

497
00:29:24,120 --> 00:29:26,600
Speaker 1: If anything, you know, whether or not you believe the

498
00:29:26,640 --> 00:29:28,960
Speaker 1: decision worked out. You made it with a with a

499
00:29:29,120 --> 00:29:31,280
Speaker 1: with a pretty damn good reason what you just said,

500
00:29:32,240 --> 00:29:35,760
Speaker 1: especially when we're in consideration of of you know, all this,

501
00:29:36,040 --> 00:29:38,560
Speaker 1: all these things that we've been talking about for the

502
00:29:38,600 --> 00:29:43,200
Speaker 1: amount of time we've been talking about, you know, appreciating

503
00:29:43,240 --> 00:29:45,080
Speaker 1: the value of life and wanting to do good things

504
00:29:45,120 --> 00:29:49,000
Speaker 1: with it. I mean, I mean you maybe maybe not consciously,

505
00:29:49,040 --> 00:29:50,720
Speaker 1: but you made that decision with that in mind, that

506
00:29:50,800 --> 00:29:53,280
Speaker 1: you wanted to improve your life, and you felt as

507
00:29:53,280 --> 00:29:55,600
Speaker 1: though the move would improve your life, and so you've

508
00:29:55,720 --> 00:30:02,400
Speaker 1: you made that decision, right, and so now you're at

509
00:30:02,400 --> 00:30:07,240
Speaker 1: this job. But the problem is that this girl left you, right.

510
00:30:10,400 --> 00:30:14,920
Speaker 2: Yeah, I just thought, you know, I don't want to

511
00:30:15,240 --> 00:30:18,080
Speaker 2: tear up over the phone. I guess I just haven't

512
00:30:18,080 --> 00:30:22,360
Speaker 2: really talked about it with anybody. But you know, it

513
00:30:22,480 --> 00:30:27,440
Speaker 2: sucks when you think, you know, somebody's has your back,

514
00:30:28,160 --> 00:30:33,600
Speaker 2: especially if you had theirs, and they just don't, you know,

515
00:30:33,640 --> 00:30:36,800
Speaker 2: they just don't want to follow through with you, and

516
00:30:37,360 --> 00:30:39,840
Speaker 2: you know, it's a great opportunity. I thought it was

517
00:30:39,840 --> 00:30:43,600
Speaker 2: a great opportunity for us, so I didn't even you know,

518
00:30:43,680 --> 00:30:45,120
Speaker 2: I just wanted to support.

519
00:30:44,720 --> 00:30:45,600
Speaker 4: Her and stuff. Like that.

520
00:30:45,640 --> 00:30:48,400
Speaker 2: But you know, it's just one of those things where

521
00:30:48,440 --> 00:30:50,760
Speaker 2: you keep you know, it's one of those things where

522
00:30:50,760 --> 00:30:54,240
Speaker 2: you say, again, you know, you know whatever. You just

523
00:30:54,320 --> 00:30:56,120
Speaker 2: kind of like when you talked about it to other people,

524
00:30:56,160 --> 00:30:58,080
Speaker 2: you're like, you know, it's for the best and stuff

525
00:30:58,080 --> 00:31:00,560
Speaker 2: like that, but sometimes you just don't know.

526
00:31:00,640 --> 00:31:09,120
Speaker 1: I think, mm hmm, yeah, I can, I can, I can.

527
00:31:09,240 --> 00:31:12,360
Speaker 1: I can see why you uh, why you feel like

528
00:31:12,400 --> 00:31:21,120
Speaker 1: you've been a trade. But uh, I'm sorry, no, no, no, no, no, no,

529
00:31:21,200 --> 00:31:23,080
Speaker 1: I'm glad. I'm actually glad we're talking about this because

530
00:31:24,240 --> 00:31:27,040
Speaker 1: again I want to come back to your answer of

531
00:31:27,080 --> 00:31:29,920
Speaker 1: the question of why you made the decision. It was

532
00:31:29,960 --> 00:31:31,560
Speaker 1: a really it was a really good answer, man, It

533
00:31:31,600 --> 00:31:35,040
Speaker 1: really was. You made the decision for a really good reason,

534
00:31:35,680 --> 00:31:37,720
Speaker 1: and you made it with all of the knowledge that

535
00:31:37,800 --> 00:31:41,640
Speaker 1: you had at the time. I mean, to to make

536
00:31:41,720 --> 00:31:46,640
Speaker 1: to to decide that you want to go out and

537
00:31:46,680 --> 00:31:49,920
Speaker 1: try to live a life for yourself and not just

538
00:31:50,760 --> 00:31:56,600
Speaker 1: kind of be shoehorned into your your your girlfriend's family's life,

539
00:31:57,640 --> 00:32:00,520
Speaker 1: and and and not to you know, to pursue a

540
00:32:00,600 --> 00:32:03,120
Speaker 1: job that you really feel like might make your life better.

541
00:32:04,440 --> 00:32:06,480
Speaker 1: I mean, that's that's again, a good reason to make

542
00:32:06,520 --> 00:32:13,680
Speaker 1: that decision. So even if things didn't work out exactly

543
00:32:13,720 --> 00:32:17,800
Speaker 1: how you wanted them to, I think it's great that

544
00:32:17,880 --> 00:32:22,719
Speaker 1: you went after something that you felt like could make

545
00:32:22,760 --> 00:32:27,320
Speaker 1: your life better. And I know when you're hurting, maybe

546
00:32:27,320 --> 00:32:31,280
Speaker 1: you don't want to hear something that's just kind of whatever,

547
00:32:31,320 --> 00:32:36,440
Speaker 1: blindly optimistic. But I do have an optimism that there

548
00:32:36,520 --> 00:32:38,880
Speaker 1: is still the potential for this decision to make your

549
00:32:38,960 --> 00:32:41,880
Speaker 1: life better, you know, because it still sounds like it's

550
00:32:41,960 --> 00:32:43,240
Speaker 1: very early in this career.

551
00:32:45,720 --> 00:32:49,320
Speaker 2: Yeah, and I, you know, thanks for saying that. You know,

552
00:32:49,360 --> 00:32:52,240
Speaker 2: it feels good to you know.

553
00:32:52,280 --> 00:32:53,280
Speaker 3: I've talked to it obviously.

554
00:32:53,280 --> 00:32:55,280
Speaker 2: I talked to a few friends about it, and I

555
00:32:55,280 --> 00:32:57,520
Speaker 2: guess I just wanted to get a person who doesn't

556
00:32:57,560 --> 00:33:01,640
Speaker 2: know me's opinion about it, because you know, your friends

557
00:33:01,640 --> 00:33:04,200
Speaker 2: are always going to support you, and hopefully you have

558
00:33:04,240 --> 00:33:07,320
Speaker 2: one see you that tell you the truth. But it

559
00:33:07,400 --> 00:33:10,680
Speaker 2: was nice to get some friendly get go advice and

560
00:33:10,760 --> 00:33:14,880
Speaker 2: from a person who doesn't know me compared to even

561
00:33:14,920 --> 00:33:17,400
Speaker 2: though even though friends can be honest with you and

562
00:33:17,520 --> 00:33:20,480
Speaker 2: support you. I just it was, you know, it's just

563
00:33:20,560 --> 00:33:22,720
Speaker 2: nice to hear from somebody who doesn't have anything to

564
00:33:22,720 --> 00:33:23,120
Speaker 2: do with you.

565
00:33:24,000 --> 00:33:25,680
Speaker 1: Yeah, man, And by the way, can I just say

566
00:33:25,720 --> 00:33:30,480
Speaker 1: you're you're twenty six by the way, right, Yeah, okay,

567
00:33:30,520 --> 00:33:34,440
Speaker 1: we're we're we're similar ages. I I don't want to

568
00:33:34,640 --> 00:33:41,560
Speaker 1: I don't wanna uh lay toxic positivity shit on you.

569
00:33:41,640 --> 00:33:43,480
Speaker 1: But I in my head when I'm when you're telling

570
00:33:43,480 --> 00:33:45,239
Speaker 1: me about this, I'm thinking, well, no, I'm dude, I'm

571
00:33:45,280 --> 00:33:48,240
Speaker 1: thinking like, okay, you know you'd made the decision. Here's

572
00:33:48,240 --> 00:33:51,440
Speaker 1: the thing about I'm I have a billion thoughts in

573
00:33:51,440 --> 00:33:53,840
Speaker 1: my head. But here's the thing about these decisions that

574
00:33:53,880 --> 00:33:56,320
Speaker 1: we make, and I'm really trying to learn this myself,

575
00:33:57,200 --> 00:34:00,240
Speaker 1: is that something that happens that ends up one way

576
00:34:00,280 --> 00:34:04,840
Speaker 1: that's bad right now, could eventually start a string of

577
00:34:04,920 --> 00:34:08,040
Speaker 1: things that lead to something that you could never have expected.

578
00:34:08,400 --> 00:34:11,360
Speaker 1: So like, Okay, you made this decision to take this job,

579
00:34:12,440 --> 00:34:15,839
Speaker 1: and as a result, things you know don't work out

580
00:34:16,280 --> 00:34:19,880
Speaker 1: with the current person you're with. But fucking what if

581
00:34:20,040 --> 00:34:23,480
Speaker 1: you know this current job sends you to some place,

582
00:34:23,800 --> 00:34:28,040
Speaker 1: you're on some airplane, you're in some meeting, you meet whatever,

583
00:34:28,080 --> 00:34:30,680
Speaker 1: and you meet someone else who you're like, whoa, what

584
00:34:30,719 --> 00:34:33,680
Speaker 1: the who is this person? And then you start a

585
00:34:33,719 --> 00:34:37,319
Speaker 1: new relationship that's you know, you're feeling things that you

586
00:34:37,360 --> 00:34:40,040
Speaker 1: never even knew were possible to feel in the old

587
00:34:40,080 --> 00:34:43,840
Speaker 1: one or or and then maybe that one fucking turns

588
00:34:43,880 --> 00:34:47,400
Speaker 1: out shitty, and then fucking that fails. But then maybe

589
00:34:47,400 --> 00:34:50,240
Speaker 1: that leads you to something else that's amazing in your career.

590
00:34:50,320 --> 00:34:53,759
Speaker 1: Maybe you meet the fucking person in your industry that's

591
00:34:53,760 --> 00:34:58,440
Speaker 1: your your hero. There's just infinite, infinite things that could happen.

592
00:34:58,440 --> 00:35:00,200
Speaker 1: You have no idea if they're positive or negative, and

593
00:35:00,320 --> 00:35:02,719
Speaker 1: so and everything I'm telling you is things I'm trying

594
00:35:02,760 --> 00:35:05,839
Speaker 1: to tell myself. So just fucking roll with it, man,

595
00:35:06,239 --> 00:35:09,480
Speaker 1: you know that's that's Yeah, you're right, that's all I

596
00:35:09,480 --> 00:35:10,200
Speaker 1: gotta say.

597
00:35:10,360 --> 00:35:11,399
Speaker 4: You're absolutely right.

598
00:35:13,000 --> 00:35:15,200
Speaker 2: Well, oh, thank you, Lyle.

599
00:35:16,360 --> 00:35:19,440
Speaker 1: Yeah, man, thanks thanks for having this talk with me.

600
00:35:19,520 --> 00:35:23,000
Speaker 1: I'm really uh, I feel honored that you would, you know,

601
00:35:23,120 --> 00:35:24,360
Speaker 1: share all this this stuff.

602
00:35:25,320 --> 00:35:28,080
Speaker 2: Yeah. Again, I'm sorry to get so heavy at the

603
00:35:28,120 --> 00:35:31,279
Speaker 2: last part there, but you know, I really it was

604
00:35:31,760 --> 00:35:34,480
Speaker 2: I really appreciate. I honestly really appreciate tonight.

605
00:35:34,600 --> 00:35:35,560
Speaker 4: You know that I got in.

606
00:35:37,880 --> 00:35:40,279
Speaker 2: So it was really nice talking with you.

607
00:35:41,040 --> 00:35:49,480
Speaker 1: And yeah, uh are you going to before we go?

608
00:35:49,560 --> 00:35:51,200
Speaker 1: Do you do you think that you know, kind of

609
00:35:51,200 --> 00:35:53,839
Speaker 1: back to the hypochondria, stuff. Do you think you will

610
00:35:53,880 --> 00:35:59,160
Speaker 1: try again to seek, you know, a legitimate type of

611
00:35:59,239 --> 00:36:00,319
Speaker 1: type of treatment that.

612
00:36:02,880 --> 00:36:03,080
Speaker 4: Well.

613
00:36:03,120 --> 00:36:06,480
Speaker 2: Listen, you know, I've been listening to you a lot

614
00:36:06,520 --> 00:36:10,600
Speaker 2: on Spotify, and i know one of your sponsors is

615
00:36:10,719 --> 00:36:14,520
Speaker 2: Better Help, and I've kind of I've been on the

616
00:36:14,520 --> 00:36:16,319
Speaker 2: side a couple of times, and I've like gotten to

617
00:36:16,320 --> 00:36:18,279
Speaker 2: the point where like I'm almost finished signing up and

618
00:36:18,320 --> 00:36:20,719
Speaker 2: then I close off. So but I've been I've been

619
00:36:20,880 --> 00:36:24,560
Speaker 2: definitely thinking about that, and maybe I've been thinking about

620
00:36:24,600 --> 00:36:27,160
Speaker 2: that more because I've been listening to your show so much,

621
00:36:27,160 --> 00:36:28,600
Speaker 2: and I just want to say, by the way too,

622
00:36:30,360 --> 00:36:33,200
Speaker 2: but you know, I've heard, I've I've heard about your

623
00:36:33,200 --> 00:36:35,960
Speaker 2: show and I've seen clips from it before all this

624
00:36:36,000 --> 00:36:38,920
Speaker 2: stuff happened. But since this stuff has been going on,

625
00:36:39,000 --> 00:36:41,520
Speaker 2: I mean, I just I almost just kind of go

626
00:36:41,560 --> 00:36:44,600
Speaker 2: through the catalog every night and it really really really.

627
00:36:44,320 --> 00:36:45,000
Speaker 3: Helps me out.

628
00:36:45,080 --> 00:36:47,880
Speaker 2: So if you ever feel like I mean, you know

629
00:36:48,080 --> 00:36:50,600
Speaker 2: you have your doubts too, But if you're ever doubtful

630
00:36:50,640 --> 00:36:54,440
Speaker 2: that this show doesn't do anything besides provide some funny

631
00:36:54,480 --> 00:36:56,480
Speaker 2: things for the Internet, You're wrong, you know, I mean,

632
00:36:56,480 --> 00:36:57,880
Speaker 2: it really helps out a lot of people.

633
00:36:57,920 --> 00:37:01,320
Speaker 1: I think, thank you, brother. I you that that really

634
00:37:01,360 --> 00:37:03,799
Speaker 1: genuinely does mean a lot to me. It really does,

635
00:37:04,440 --> 00:37:08,359
Speaker 1: because yeah, I am man, I fucking everything I talk

636
00:37:08,440 --> 00:37:10,759
Speaker 1: to you about I on this call is are things

637
00:37:10,800 --> 00:37:13,960
Speaker 1: that I've had my doubts about too, So I really

638
00:37:14,000 --> 00:37:18,120
Speaker 1: appreciate that, man. And you know, once again, thank you

639
00:37:18,160 --> 00:37:20,640
Speaker 1: for talking to me. And I hope that you can

640
00:37:20,680 --> 00:37:24,560
Speaker 1: find a therapist that is helpful to you and doesn't

641
00:37:24,600 --> 00:37:26,080
Speaker 1: make you draw fucking pictures.

642
00:37:28,200 --> 00:37:30,360
Speaker 2: Thanks man. And can I say one thing to the

643
00:37:30,400 --> 00:37:31,480
Speaker 2: audience before.

644
00:37:31,239 --> 00:37:37,680
Speaker 1: I go, Yes, of course, I just want to.

645
00:37:37,680 --> 00:37:41,399
Speaker 2: Say, and I've well, I guess I've learned this recently too,

646
00:37:41,520 --> 00:37:45,279
Speaker 2: that if you guys ever feel stuck in any sort

647
00:37:45,280 --> 00:37:49,120
Speaker 2: of situation, there's a way out, no matter how hard

648
00:37:49,160 --> 00:37:54,839
Speaker 2: it is, and you can really change your lives for

649
00:37:54,880 --> 00:37:57,120
Speaker 2: the better, or at least change it, you know what

650
00:37:57,200 --> 00:37:59,800
Speaker 2: I mean. So that's all I want to say.

651
00:38:00,080 --> 00:38:02,560
Speaker 1: You know, in in in in thinking about everything that

652
00:38:02,600 --> 00:38:04,600
Speaker 1: we've been talking about, I'm really glad to hear you

653
00:38:04,640 --> 00:38:08,640
Speaker 1: say that, because you know, I know that you've you've

654
00:38:08,640 --> 00:38:10,759
Speaker 1: been dealing with a lot of things and probably a

655
00:38:10,800 --> 00:38:13,799
Speaker 1: lot of hopelessness, it sounds, and so I'm glad to

656
00:38:13,840 --> 00:38:18,960
Speaker 1: hear you. Uh, you know, leave us with those optimistic thoughts.

657
00:38:20,000 --> 00:38:21,319
Speaker 4: Thank you. I really appreciate it.

658
00:38:21,320 --> 00:38:22,160
Speaker 2: Man, you helped a lot.

659
00:38:22,600 --> 00:38:29,840
Speaker 1: Hey, take care, Tristan, you too. Oh that was a

660
00:38:30,800 --> 00:38:34,480
Speaker 1: that was a wild, wild call. That might be one

661
00:38:34,560 --> 00:38:38,440
Speaker 1: of the longest calls I've taken on this show. We

662
00:38:38,560 --> 00:38:40,680
Speaker 1: talked about a lot of interesting things. That was a really,

663
00:38:41,400 --> 00:38:46,480
Speaker 1: really great conversation. Thank you again to Tristan for having

664
00:38:46,520 --> 00:38:51,960
Speaker 1: that conversation with me. Thinking about death, thinking about life,

665
00:38:52,560 --> 00:38:56,960
Speaker 1: thinking about decisions, think of a fucking think about all

666
00:38:56,960 --> 00:39:01,600
Speaker 1: this ship that I'm uh, I'm thinking about all the time.

667
00:39:01,680 --> 00:39:07,520
Speaker 1: It's it's it's fun to talk to people through this

668
00:39:07,600 --> 00:39:11,640
Speaker 1: stuff because it reinforces it when I think about it

669
00:39:11,640 --> 00:39:17,560
Speaker 1: in my own life and my own decisions, and and

670
00:39:17,680 --> 00:39:23,000
Speaker 1: I feel like, you know, when I'm thinking through a

671
00:39:23,040 --> 00:39:26,720
Speaker 1: similar problem of oh, okay, well I made this decision

672
00:39:26,719 --> 00:39:30,279
Speaker 1: and that didn't work out. You know, I can think, well,

673
00:39:30,320 --> 00:39:32,680
Speaker 1: you fucking told this guy on the fucking podcast this thing,

674
00:39:32,760 --> 00:39:34,720
Speaker 1: so I want to try to believe in it yourself.

675
00:39:37,719 --> 00:39:39,600
Speaker 1: And yeah, it was just great. It was great. Thank

676
00:39:39,600 --> 00:39:42,279
Speaker 1: you Tristan for talking to me about that. And I

677
00:39:42,320 --> 00:39:47,360
Speaker 1: hope he gets uh, you know, a legit person who

678
00:39:47,400 --> 00:39:51,839
Speaker 1: helps him out with his hypochondria, and fuck, man, he's

679
00:39:51,840 --> 00:39:55,080
Speaker 1: a young he's a young dude. We're very similar ages.

680
00:39:56,080 --> 00:39:59,600
Speaker 1: And I feel like there's lots and lots and lots

681
00:39:59,640 --> 00:40:06,840
Speaker 1: of room for him to experience more. As he said,

682
00:40:07,280 --> 00:40:09,000
Speaker 1: he doesn't just want to be happy all the time,

683
00:40:09,080 --> 00:40:11,360
Speaker 1: and I think there's a lot of experience room for

684
00:40:11,520 --> 00:40:17,480
Speaker 1: him to as he continues through his life, much opportunity

685
00:40:17,520 --> 00:40:20,719
Speaker 1: for him to dive into the wide spectrum of emotions

686
00:40:21,120 --> 00:40:23,680
Speaker 1: that the human experience has to offer. And I hope

687
00:40:23,680 --> 00:40:29,080
Speaker 1: he soaks them all up before he dies and I die,

688
00:40:29,760 --> 00:40:34,920
Speaker 1: and whoever is listening to this dies live in the moment,

689
00:40:36,200 --> 00:40:40,600
Speaker 1: dear thing. I'm a get Hello.

690
00:40:41,600 --> 00:40:43,880
Speaker 5: Wait, wait, hello, is this Wile?

691
00:40:44,640 --> 00:40:44,839
Speaker 3: Yeah?

692
00:40:45,000 --> 00:40:48,000
Speaker 1: Is this Kayla? Yes?

693
00:40:48,239 --> 00:40:50,799
Speaker 5: This is Kayla. Oh wow. I've been waiting a while,

694
00:40:50,840 --> 00:40:51,480
Speaker 5: so I'm excited.

695
00:40:52,400 --> 00:40:53,399
Speaker 1: What's going on with you? Man?

696
00:40:55,320 --> 00:40:58,719
Speaker 5: I am just sitting at my boyfriend's house. We are

697
00:40:58,719 --> 00:41:00,680
Speaker 5: actually watching your line right now.

698
00:41:01,800 --> 00:41:05,520
Speaker 1: Oh beautiful, beautiful. It says here that you and your

699
00:41:05,560 --> 00:41:09,759
Speaker 1: boyfriend have a disagreement going on. I figure you, I'm

700
00:41:09,800 --> 00:41:10,920
Speaker 1: not going to read it. You could just tell me

701
00:41:10,960 --> 00:41:13,840
Speaker 1: what it is, of course.

702
00:41:14,280 --> 00:41:17,120
Speaker 5: So we were driving in the car, actually listening to

703
00:41:17,200 --> 00:41:23,400
Speaker 5: your life. And he was telling me a story about

704
00:41:23,760 --> 00:41:29,000
Speaker 5: how he had neighbors that used to jiz in their

705
00:41:29,120 --> 00:41:34,759
Speaker 5: face as masturbation, and so it's funny, but I just

706
00:41:35,040 --> 00:41:38,680
Speaker 5: we've come to the disagreement on he thinks that it's

707
00:41:38,719 --> 00:41:44,280
Speaker 5: a gay to do that, like it's people homosexual people. Sorry,

708
00:41:44,280 --> 00:41:45,480
Speaker 5: if that's not PC.

709
00:41:47,040 --> 00:41:47,640
Speaker 3: Do it.

710
00:41:48,600 --> 00:41:51,399
Speaker 5: But I thought that would just be like a masturbating

711
00:41:51,480 --> 00:41:54,880
Speaker 5: thing because you're just doing it to yourself, not like

712
00:41:55,080 --> 00:41:59,160
Speaker 5: to another same sex person. So I was curious what

713
00:41:59,200 --> 00:42:00,280
Speaker 5: your thoughts are on.

714
00:42:00,160 --> 00:42:03,120
Speaker 1: It, Okay, for before we get into any of that,

715
00:42:03,400 --> 00:42:09,040
Speaker 1: Before we get into any of that, how what where

716
00:42:09,040 --> 00:42:11,920
Speaker 1: were his neighbors masturbating where he could see it?

717
00:42:13,600 --> 00:42:15,719
Speaker 5: No, no, no, he didn't see it. He wasn't like

718
00:42:15,840 --> 00:42:19,399
Speaker 5: there or anything. It was Uh, it was a conversation

719
00:42:19,640 --> 00:42:21,520
Speaker 5: he had overheard when he was younger.

720
00:42:23,520 --> 00:42:29,280
Speaker 1: It was a conversation he had overheard when he was younger.

721
00:42:30,880 --> 00:42:32,520
Speaker 6: Yeah, is he there?

722
00:42:32,680 --> 00:42:36,120
Speaker 1: Is he there? Well, I'll get into like the initial question,

723
00:42:36,160 --> 00:42:37,640
Speaker 1: but can I talk to him real quick?

724
00:42:39,120 --> 00:42:39,480
Speaker 5: Tucker?

725
00:42:41,040 --> 00:42:42,040
Speaker 2: You're Tucker?

726
00:42:42,120 --> 00:42:42,400
Speaker 5: Wait?

727
00:42:42,440 --> 00:42:46,840
Speaker 1: Sorry, oh wait, I need to hear this conversation. What

728
00:42:47,000 --> 00:42:51,200
Speaker 1: I need I need all of the contexts he possibly has. Hey, Tucker, Hello,

729
00:42:51,520 --> 00:42:56,120
Speaker 1: father G. Tucker Man, Listen, what I know that you

730
00:42:56,239 --> 00:42:59,200
Speaker 1: and your girlfriend have this debate. But I'm doing all right, man.

731
00:42:59,320 --> 00:43:03,920
Speaker 1: What tell me about you hearing your neighbors talk about

732
00:43:04,080 --> 00:43:07,680
Speaker 1: jerking off and on their own faces when young.

733
00:43:09,280 --> 00:43:12,720
Speaker 7: Yeah, this was a very strange, out of context question

734
00:43:12,840 --> 00:43:17,400
Speaker 7: that she could have asked you. But anyways, so, my

735
00:43:17,400 --> 00:43:22,040
Speaker 7: my friend's mom was friends with this gay couple, and

736
00:43:22,120 --> 00:43:24,799
Speaker 7: you know, we're hanging out at their firepit or whatever,

737
00:43:24,800 --> 00:43:26,600
Speaker 7: and they're all drunk or whatever, and so they're pretty

738
00:43:26,680 --> 00:43:29,520
Speaker 7: like open about their gainess, which is sure. And you know,

739
00:43:29,600 --> 00:43:34,280
Speaker 7: I forgot how how the subject came up, but uh, yeah,

740
00:43:34,320 --> 00:43:37,240
Speaker 7: he said that he like came in his own faith

741
00:43:37,520 --> 00:43:40,480
Speaker 7: when he was like, you know, like a teenager or whatever.

742
00:43:41,160 --> 00:43:43,759
Speaker 7: And you know, I I said it was gay, But

743
00:43:43,840 --> 00:43:46,920
Speaker 7: my girlfriend thing is it's not. But you know, tweets

744
00:43:46,920 --> 00:43:49,239
Speaker 7: their own you know, I guess she holds up a

745
00:43:49,280 --> 00:43:53,799
Speaker 7: pretty good argument about it, but I personally think it is.

746
00:43:53,960 --> 00:43:58,120
Speaker 1: But you know, and you know, anybody else when you said, listen,

747
00:43:58,160 --> 00:44:00,319
Speaker 1: when you say you were younger, how young were you

748
00:44:00,360 --> 00:44:01,040
Speaker 1: when you over?

749
00:44:02,040 --> 00:44:03,840
Speaker 7: Yeah, and you know the fact that I was younger

750
00:44:03,920 --> 00:44:07,160
Speaker 7: makes it sound like it's super creepy and like, no,

751
00:44:07,239 --> 00:44:07,799
Speaker 7: I just wait.

752
00:44:07,920 --> 00:44:11,160
Speaker 1: Look, look, I'm not we're not making any judgments. We're

753
00:44:11,160 --> 00:44:13,359
Speaker 1: not making any judgments on the situation. I'm just trying

754
00:44:13,360 --> 00:44:16,279
Speaker 1: to get empirical day to hear. How how old were

755
00:44:16,280 --> 00:44:17,120
Speaker 1: you when this happened.

756
00:44:18,800 --> 00:44:21,640
Speaker 7: I believe I was in like seventh or eighth.

757
00:44:21,440 --> 00:44:22,000
Speaker 2: Grade or so.

758
00:44:22,480 --> 00:44:25,840
Speaker 1: Okay, all right, so you were you were probably masturbating

759
00:44:25,880 --> 00:44:28,120
Speaker 1: at this time. Eighth grade is just typically when.

760
00:44:28,040 --> 00:44:28,799
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, I could.

761
00:44:29,560 --> 00:44:31,719
Speaker 7: I guess I could relate in some sense, but not not.

762
00:44:32,200 --> 00:44:34,399
Speaker 1: You know, have you ever jacked off on your own face?

763
00:44:34,440 --> 00:44:36,239
Speaker 1: You ever masturbated and just on your face?

764
00:44:36,640 --> 00:44:43,000
Speaker 7: Negative? No, No, that's not a activity that I've taken exactly.

765
00:44:43,040 --> 00:44:46,880
Speaker 1: And you you believe that it is that I've known anybody.

766
00:44:46,480 --> 00:44:47,080
Speaker 3: Else that had.

767
00:44:47,200 --> 00:44:48,960
Speaker 1: Okay, all right, let me talk about let me talk

768
00:44:48,960 --> 00:44:49,759
Speaker 1: to your girlfriend again.

769
00:44:51,160 --> 00:44:52,920
Speaker 2: Okay, all right, my love here.

770
00:44:57,040 --> 00:44:57,320
Speaker 5: Hello.

771
00:44:58,480 --> 00:45:01,760
Speaker 1: Okay, So you're arguing about whether or not you believe

772
00:45:01,800 --> 00:45:03,840
Speaker 1: it is gay to jack off onto your own face,

773
00:45:04,200 --> 00:45:07,799
Speaker 1: and what is your perspective on this? Where do you

774
00:45:07,840 --> 00:45:08,840
Speaker 1: stand in this debate?

775
00:45:10,040 --> 00:45:12,520
Speaker 5: Well, I would think that if you're doing it with

776
00:45:12,600 --> 00:45:15,319
Speaker 5: someone of the same sex, I think then it would

777
00:45:15,360 --> 00:45:18,160
Speaker 5: be considered gay. However, doing it to yourself, so it's

778
00:45:18,200 --> 00:45:22,600
Speaker 5: like masturbating. I know it's not like what normal like

779
00:45:22,680 --> 00:45:26,000
Speaker 5: normally you would do, I guess, but like it's a

780
00:45:26,040 --> 00:45:30,319
Speaker 5: more rare thing. But I would consider it masturbating. But

781
00:45:31,920 --> 00:45:33,520
Speaker 5: now it's saying it out loud, it sounds a bit

782
00:45:33,560 --> 00:45:34,080
Speaker 5: more silly.

783
00:45:35,120 --> 00:45:42,560
Speaker 1: Well, no, it's interesting because well I guess, I guess

784
00:45:42,640 --> 00:45:46,160
Speaker 1: in order to be like when I think of like

785
00:45:46,480 --> 00:45:51,160
Speaker 1: gay or straight, like straight would be, you know, a

786
00:45:51,840 --> 00:45:55,040
Speaker 1: guy and a girl, and gay would be a guy

787
00:45:55,080 --> 00:45:58,200
Speaker 1: and a guy. But if you don't, if there's no

788
00:45:58,600 --> 00:46:06,400
Speaker 1: second person, then there's no it's just it just is

789
00:46:06,440 --> 00:46:09,000
Speaker 1: what it is. Yes, it's master day. I agree with that.

790
00:46:10,480 --> 00:46:12,400
Speaker 1: So I don't think, Okay.

791
00:46:12,280 --> 00:46:20,560
Speaker 5: Thank you, Yeah, thank you. I masturbating. It's it's arguable

792
00:46:20,600 --> 00:46:24,520
Speaker 5: because the original story comes from a gay couple. So

793
00:46:24,640 --> 00:46:28,200
Speaker 5: the strong point there is it is a gay thing.

794
00:46:29,200 --> 00:46:31,200
Speaker 5: But however, I think, like if you're doing it to

795
00:46:31,239 --> 00:46:34,279
Speaker 5: yourself alone, I just think it might be a weird

796
00:46:34,280 --> 00:46:37,439
Speaker 5: setish people are just think.

797
00:46:38,640 --> 00:46:43,000
Speaker 1: By the way, I'm really curious why your boyfriend says

798
00:46:43,040 --> 00:46:45,000
Speaker 1: that he doesn't jack off onto his own face. But

799
00:46:45,040 --> 00:46:47,799
Speaker 1: I think he's lying because there's no other reason why

800
00:46:48,040 --> 00:46:52,520
Speaker 1: you would be like so embroiled in ument in the

801
00:46:52,520 --> 00:46:53,239
Speaker 1: way that you are.

802
00:46:56,600 --> 00:46:59,800
Speaker 5: I think I think so too. He has a beautiful

803
00:47:00,520 --> 00:47:04,880
Speaker 5: and I want to know his skincare, But there doesn't

804
00:47:04,880 --> 00:47:07,439
Speaker 5: seem too much evidence in the bathroom, so there could

805
00:47:07,440 --> 00:47:08,080
Speaker 5: only be one.

806
00:47:09,280 --> 00:47:11,319
Speaker 1: By the way I'm gonna, I'll say this with the

807
00:47:11,320 --> 00:47:15,000
Speaker 1: whole like, whatever is it gay thing i've Actually here's

808
00:47:15,000 --> 00:47:18,919
Speaker 1: the thing I've I have not gized on my own face,

809
00:47:18,960 --> 00:47:22,160
Speaker 1: but I jizz on my knees all the time, and

810
00:47:23,080 --> 00:47:25,799
Speaker 1: when my GIGS comes out, it's like hot, And when

811
00:47:25,800 --> 00:47:27,640
Speaker 1: I gizz on my knee, it like it feels a

812
00:47:27,719 --> 00:47:30,040
Speaker 1: little bit good in the way that like like on

813
00:47:30,080 --> 00:47:32,400
Speaker 1: my knee, not even in like a sexual way, like

814
00:47:32,800 --> 00:47:35,440
Speaker 1: in the way that like a hot towel does. So

815
00:47:35,600 --> 00:47:38,240
Speaker 1: like I haven't done this yet, maybe I will, who knows,

816
00:47:38,440 --> 00:47:42,440
Speaker 1: But I could see myself if I giezed on my

817
00:47:42,520 --> 00:47:45,160
Speaker 1: own face and my jigs was like warm, it would

818
00:47:45,200 --> 00:47:48,800
Speaker 1: be like a hot towel kind of sensation on my face,

819
00:47:49,239 --> 00:47:51,920
Speaker 1: and that it wouldn't to me even be like a

820
00:47:51,960 --> 00:47:56,040
Speaker 1: sexual thing. So no, I saw again, I'm with you.

821
00:47:56,080 --> 00:47:57,560
Speaker 1: I don't even think it's a sexual thing at all.

822
00:47:57,640 --> 00:48:00,000
Speaker 1: To gigs on your own face. It would just like

823
00:48:00,040 --> 00:48:01,239
Speaker 1: Field call it.

824
00:48:02,160 --> 00:48:05,080
Speaker 5: I mean I can see it as like a like

825
00:48:05,120 --> 00:48:08,680
Speaker 5: a therapeutic thing. I could see it enhancing your skin.

826
00:48:09,239 --> 00:48:11,520
Speaker 5: Have you ever nutrients it's been proven.

827
00:48:12,320 --> 00:48:14,120
Speaker 2: Have you ever have ever?

828
00:48:14,960 --> 00:48:17,080
Speaker 1: Is that that you can do.

829
00:48:19,760 --> 00:48:21,640
Speaker 5: Like my like my vagina juice?

830
00:48:22,080 --> 00:48:22,520
Speaker 1: Yeah?

831
00:48:22,760 --> 00:48:25,960
Speaker 5: I don't. I mean maybe in the sense of like

832
00:48:26,600 --> 00:48:30,399
Speaker 5: during sex, you know, you go in, you come out,

833
00:48:30,440 --> 00:48:33,520
Speaker 5: you go down, But uh no, I don't. I don't

834
00:48:33,600 --> 00:48:35,760
Speaker 5: usually just rub it on my face in my free time.

835
00:48:36,000 --> 00:48:38,320
Speaker 5: So yeah, it is kind of more of like a

836
00:48:38,440 --> 00:48:42,480
Speaker 5: I think, a rare thing to do. But I will.

837
00:48:46,040 --> 00:48:47,840
Speaker 1: Well, I'm glad we had this conversation. This felt like

838
00:48:47,840 --> 00:48:48,960
Speaker 1: it was extremely productive.

839
00:48:51,000 --> 00:48:51,400
Speaker 2: Thank you.

840
00:48:51,440 --> 00:48:53,759
Speaker 5: I was hoping it would. I've been really wanting to

841
00:48:53,760 --> 00:48:55,800
Speaker 5: talk to you, I think for about a about a

842
00:48:55,840 --> 00:48:58,480
Speaker 5: week now, So I'm really glad I got there. It

843
00:48:58,560 --> 00:49:01,879
Speaker 5: called like eighty five times. I was like, Okay, we'll

844
00:49:01,880 --> 00:49:05,759
Speaker 5: get in there. We need to know. I'm glad we

845
00:49:05,800 --> 00:49:06,200
Speaker 5: got your.

846
00:49:07,840 --> 00:49:09,680
Speaker 1: No, I'm I'm glad we got to sell this too,

847
00:49:09,719 --> 00:49:13,480
Speaker 1: because I think a lot of people I think a

848
00:49:13,520 --> 00:49:16,279
Speaker 1: lot of people were wondering, Kayla, is there anything else

849
00:49:16,280 --> 00:49:17,440
Speaker 1: you want to say to the people of the computer

850
00:49:17,560 --> 00:49:18,080
Speaker 1: before we go.

851
00:49:20,320 --> 00:49:23,000
Speaker 5: Thank you all for listening, and I hope you enjoyed

852
00:49:23,000 --> 00:49:23,759
Speaker 5: this conversation.

853
00:49:24,600 --> 00:49:27,760
Speaker 1: Yah, bless you and tell you Tell your boyfriend it's

854
00:49:27,800 --> 00:49:29,719
Speaker 1: it's fine to come on his own face. He doesn't

855
00:49:29,719 --> 00:49:31,200
Speaker 1: need to feel this weird shame about it.

856
00:49:31,280 --> 00:49:31,680
Speaker 3: You're here.

857
00:49:31,840 --> 00:49:35,960
Speaker 5: I think he needs to hear it from you.

858
00:49:36,000 --> 00:49:41,640
Speaker 1: Father by Okay, what's your name again?

859
00:49:43,320 --> 00:49:43,680
Speaker 3: Tucker?

860
00:49:44,480 --> 00:49:47,080
Speaker 1: Tucker. I'll talk to you soon, Tucker.

861
00:49:48,600 --> 00:49:49,200
Speaker 3: Thank you, sir.

862
00:49:51,400 --> 00:49:58,440
Speaker 1: A couple of great guys, Kayla and Tucker. Hello, Hello,

863
00:49:58,719 --> 00:49:59,200
Speaker 1: how's it going?

864
00:50:00,000 --> 00:50:00,520
Speaker 4: How's it going?

865
00:50:00,560 --> 00:50:04,160
Speaker 2: Man? Was wild?

866
00:50:04,160 --> 00:50:06,200
Speaker 1: I'm doing good? Yeah, what's up with you?

867
00:50:06,840 --> 00:50:11,680
Speaker 4: Not much? Man? My work break, dude, Uh, I'd call

868
00:50:11,719 --> 00:50:12,680
Speaker 4: in while I have some time.

869
00:50:14,280 --> 00:50:16,000
Speaker 1: Oh boy, a work break?

870
00:50:17,520 --> 00:50:22,280
Speaker 4: Yeah, man, wild dude. I had a pretty interesting debate

871
00:50:22,400 --> 00:50:23,440
Speaker 4: I wanted to bring up to you.

872
00:50:23,520 --> 00:50:23,719
Speaker 3: Man.

873
00:50:24,360 --> 00:50:25,359
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, what's going on?

874
00:50:28,000 --> 00:50:31,560
Speaker 4: So? I don't know if you saw from the from

875
00:50:31,560 --> 00:50:34,319
Speaker 4: the call screener, but uh, me and my girlfriend had

876
00:50:34,320 --> 00:50:38,080
Speaker 4: a little debate about you know, she had her opinion,

877
00:50:38,160 --> 00:50:39,920
Speaker 4: I had mine, and I thought i'd bring this to

878
00:50:39,960 --> 00:50:42,880
Speaker 4: your attention to tell me what I should do about this.

879
00:50:45,560 --> 00:50:49,520
Speaker 4: So we've been debating. I thought about becoming a firm

880
00:50:49,600 --> 00:50:55,239
Speaker 4: donor ah, And I actually took the time to go

881
00:50:55,400 --> 00:50:58,120
Speaker 4: on an application and apply somewhere just to see what

882
00:50:58,120 --> 00:51:01,759
Speaker 4: would happen. And they accept in my application and told

883
00:51:01,800 --> 00:51:05,399
Speaker 4: me to make an appointment and I haven't responded because

884
00:51:05,400 --> 00:51:06,680
Speaker 4: I'm pretty nervous to do it.

885
00:51:09,120 --> 00:51:11,239
Speaker 1: Interesting what about it is making you nervous.

886
00:51:13,560 --> 00:51:16,080
Speaker 4: Because I'm like, I don't want to, like, I don't

887
00:51:16,120 --> 00:51:18,080
Speaker 4: know how the process is going to be. Like when

888
00:51:18,120 --> 00:51:21,239
Speaker 4: I go there and they just like, you know, take

889
00:51:21,280 --> 00:51:23,560
Speaker 4: a sample or something like, I'm just like and then

890
00:51:23,560 --> 00:51:27,759
Speaker 4: plus like if it does follow through, I'm just like, wait, well,

891
00:51:27,880 --> 00:51:31,040
Speaker 4: like I'm gonna have like they wanted a photo, I

892
00:51:31,080 --> 00:51:35,160
Speaker 4: do picture, like my face next to like you know,

893
00:51:35,760 --> 00:51:40,279
Speaker 4: my my, you know, my sample and everything. And it

894
00:51:40,320 --> 00:51:43,520
Speaker 4: just seems like such a weird process. But but you

895
00:51:43,520 --> 00:51:46,880
Speaker 4: can get paid, like I think, like like a thousand,

896
00:51:47,160 --> 00:51:48,839
Speaker 4: five hundred dollars a month for it.

897
00:51:51,480 --> 00:51:53,080
Speaker 1: A month for like what do you mean a month?

898
00:51:53,239 --> 00:51:55,080
Speaker 1: Like you just give them spur a monthly.

899
00:51:57,520 --> 00:52:00,080
Speaker 4: Well I guess uh, I'm reading on it. They that

900
00:52:00,239 --> 00:52:01,600
Speaker 4: you would have to go like at least two to

901
00:52:01,680 --> 00:52:07,040
Speaker 4: three times a week to go and give them samples. Yeah,

902
00:52:07,080 --> 00:52:11,240
Speaker 4: and then monthly you'll get paid fifteen hundred. So I'm like, okay,

903
00:52:11,280 --> 00:52:15,239
Speaker 4: it's really like easy money. I asked my girlfriend about it,

904
00:52:15,280 --> 00:52:19,000
Speaker 4: and she said, she said, well, that's it's extra money.

905
00:52:19,000 --> 00:52:21,319
Speaker 4: I mean, I you're not like cheating. I don't see

906
00:52:21,360 --> 00:52:25,239
Speaker 4: why not. And I said, well, I mean, would it

907
00:52:25,239 --> 00:52:28,040
Speaker 4: be weird if I like had like a bunch of

908
00:52:28,239 --> 00:52:31,040
Speaker 4: like minimes out there somewhere like that are mine but

909
00:52:31,160 --> 00:52:31,799
Speaker 4: not really mine?

910
00:52:32,520 --> 00:52:32,680
Speaker 1: Mm?

911
00:52:33,880 --> 00:52:36,520
Speaker 4: And she's you know, that's the part I'm nervous about

912
00:52:36,520 --> 00:52:41,400
Speaker 4: because I'm like, that seems a little weird. But then again,

913
00:52:41,440 --> 00:52:42,960
Speaker 4: it's kind of not it's kind of cool.

914
00:52:43,000 --> 00:52:43,200
Speaker 6: Okay.

915
00:52:43,239 --> 00:52:45,880
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, So so let's let's let's let's dive into it.

916
00:52:46,000 --> 00:52:50,479
Speaker 1: Why what what if you could kind of put into

917
00:52:50,520 --> 00:52:55,000
Speaker 1: words like take a second and search for them? What

918
00:52:55,000 --> 00:52:56,920
Speaker 1: what feels weird about that?

919
00:53:04,080 --> 00:53:06,319
Speaker 4: The thing that feels weird about it? I mean, I

920
00:53:06,360 --> 00:53:08,880
Speaker 4: know it's for a good cause. I know it's for

921
00:53:08,920 --> 00:53:12,400
Speaker 4: a good cause, but it's just a little weird because

922
00:53:12,480 --> 00:53:14,560
Speaker 4: I mean, what are the odds? You know, one day

923
00:53:15,040 --> 00:53:17,439
Speaker 4: walking down the street and I just see some kids

924
00:53:17,480 --> 00:53:22,759
Speaker 4: and I'm like, hey, he looks kind of like me, like,

925
00:53:23,440 --> 00:53:25,040
Speaker 4: you know, like, what are the odds that I ever have?

926
00:53:25,200 --> 00:53:28,960
Speaker 4: And probably like very very low. But it's just a

927
00:53:29,000 --> 00:53:33,480
Speaker 4: little It just makes me nervous thinking about Like, dude,

928
00:53:33,640 --> 00:53:37,080
Speaker 4: I like out there there are like means out there,

929
00:53:37,520 --> 00:53:42,960
Speaker 4: like somewhere anywhere but here. So here's the thing. So

930
00:53:43,200 --> 00:53:45,279
Speaker 4: I brought it up to my girlfriend, and you know,

931
00:53:45,360 --> 00:53:47,600
Speaker 4: she had her opinion, and she kind of like wanted

932
00:53:47,640 --> 00:53:49,080
Speaker 4: me to do it, kind of like hyping me up,

933
00:53:49,120 --> 00:53:51,560
Speaker 4: like do it, why not just try it out? And

934
00:53:51,640 --> 00:53:53,239
Speaker 4: so I was like yeah, and I think I got

935
00:53:53,280 --> 00:53:55,120
Speaker 4: a little two hyped up. And I was like, yeah,

936
00:53:55,160 --> 00:53:57,359
Speaker 4: you know what, like I could like have like like

937
00:53:57,440 --> 00:53:59,279
Speaker 4: I should have a kid in like every race like

938
00:53:59,320 --> 00:54:01,160
Speaker 4: that'd be awesome. I'm like, yeah, like I should have

939
00:54:01,239 --> 00:54:03,759
Speaker 4: like a MIDI like army. And it's here saying like

940
00:54:03,800 --> 00:54:05,400
Speaker 4: going too far, and they's like, no, I don't want

941
00:54:05,400 --> 00:54:07,920
Speaker 4: you to do it. But now I'm like, hype kind

942
00:54:07,920 --> 00:54:08,239
Speaker 4: of do it.

943
00:54:08,280 --> 00:54:10,759
Speaker 1: I don't know, are you what do you? Are you

944
00:54:10,800 --> 00:54:16,080
Speaker 1: short on cash right now? No?

945
00:54:16,719 --> 00:54:19,760
Speaker 4: But okay, I mean the extra would be nice.

946
00:54:19,920 --> 00:54:26,040
Speaker 1: Okay, I mean listen, here's the thing, right, is what

947
00:54:26,239 --> 00:54:31,040
Speaker 1: makes somebody a father in the modern world. Is it

948
00:54:31,160 --> 00:54:35,240
Speaker 1: simply that their child came out of their own penis,

949
00:54:36,480 --> 00:54:39,040
Speaker 1: or or is it the fact that they took care

950
00:54:39,080 --> 00:54:40,840
Speaker 1: of that child, brought them up, They were in that

951
00:54:40,960 --> 00:54:45,759
Speaker 1: child's lives. So I mean, look, if if if you

952
00:54:45,920 --> 00:54:49,360
Speaker 1: if you're looking to come, there's nothing special, which ultimately

953
00:54:49,400 --> 00:54:52,680
Speaker 1: it's not. There's infinite come in the universe. Come. It's

954
00:54:52,719 --> 00:54:59,640
Speaker 1: not like oil. It's an infinite reoccurring resource that is

955
00:54:59,719 --> 00:55:03,360
Speaker 1: every where. The come is not very special, So you

956
00:55:03,400 --> 00:55:07,680
Speaker 1: know you have come. Just spray it out all over

957
00:55:07,760 --> 00:55:12,200
Speaker 1: into the universe. Make little people. People aren't that special either.

958
00:55:12,960 --> 00:55:15,160
Speaker 1: Just make a bunch of them. Get a little bit

959
00:55:15,200 --> 00:55:18,440
Speaker 1: of money. Money's not that special either, Just do it.

960
00:55:18,760 --> 00:55:22,759
Speaker 1: Why not, dude?

961
00:55:23,120 --> 00:55:24,960
Speaker 4: I mean, who knows one of those kids can like

962
00:55:25,440 --> 00:55:28,160
Speaker 4: someday like become the president and I'll be like, hey,

963
00:55:28,360 --> 00:55:33,560
Speaker 4: like thinks you might contribute, like like I give so

964
00:55:33,640 --> 00:55:34,040
Speaker 4: are you?

965
00:55:34,400 --> 00:55:36,319
Speaker 1: I mean you're talking about it like you're keeping in

966
00:55:36,360 --> 00:55:38,920
Speaker 1: touch with these kids. I mean you're you're throwing your

967
00:55:38,960 --> 00:55:41,719
Speaker 1: coum into a file and then you're never getting You're

968
00:55:41,760 --> 00:55:46,040
Speaker 1: never you know, that's it, You're done. You have relinquished

969
00:55:46,040 --> 00:55:49,480
Speaker 1: your come into the universe. Your part is done. I mean,

970
00:55:49,520 --> 00:55:51,600
Speaker 1: so you're never gonna know, No, You're not going to know.

971
00:55:52,120 --> 00:55:55,640
Speaker 1: You're not going to see, uh, your kids running around.

972
00:55:56,360 --> 00:55:58,200
Speaker 1: You're not going to find out if your come became

973
00:55:58,280 --> 00:56:03,560
Speaker 1: the president. You're just exchanging come for money. There's nothing

974
00:56:03,560 --> 00:56:04,120
Speaker 1: else to it.

975
00:56:07,560 --> 00:56:11,680
Speaker 4: Honestly, it sounds like a kind of reasonable exchange.

976
00:56:11,719 --> 00:56:11,919
Speaker 3: Man.

977
00:56:12,680 --> 00:56:14,520
Speaker 1: I think so too. Well, I don't know, like it's

978
00:56:14,520 --> 00:56:16,719
Speaker 1: really it's a here's it's a good deal for you,

979
00:56:17,640 --> 00:56:21,759
Speaker 1: because I think buying come is crazy. There's infinite come.

980
00:56:21,800 --> 00:56:26,400
Speaker 1: It's not, as I said, a scarce recess. So if

981
00:56:26,440 --> 00:56:30,520
Speaker 1: I were you, I take advantage of the deal before

982
00:56:30,520 --> 00:56:32,680
Speaker 1: they read that their kind of suckers for buying come.

983
00:56:35,600 --> 00:56:38,880
Speaker 4: That's kind of true, man, Like that's access. It's everywhere,

984
00:56:39,200 --> 00:56:44,520
Speaker 4: it's everywhere. Yeah, you know what, man, I think I'm

985
00:56:44,520 --> 00:56:45,399
Speaker 4: gonna consider it.

986
00:56:46,200 --> 00:56:48,080
Speaker 1: Mhmm, you shouldn't.

987
00:56:48,880 --> 00:56:51,320
Speaker 4: I think I think I'm getting I think I'm gonna

988
00:56:51,360 --> 00:56:53,560
Speaker 4: consider it. Well, I'm still a little nervous. I don't

989
00:56:53,560 --> 00:56:55,440
Speaker 4: know what I'm gonna do when I go there, because

990
00:56:55,440 --> 00:56:57,000
Speaker 4: I don't know if they're like, Okay.

991
00:56:57,200 --> 00:56:58,799
Speaker 1: I know what you're gonna do when you're gonna go there.

992
00:57:01,840 --> 00:57:03,120
Speaker 4: I have no idea how it works.

993
00:57:03,200 --> 00:57:05,480
Speaker 1: No, I know how it works. You go in the place,

994
00:57:05,680 --> 00:57:09,720
Speaker 1: they go, here's a little cup, go into the bathroom.

995
00:57:09,960 --> 00:57:15,760
Speaker 1: Do you know how to jack off? You ever come before? Yeah, okay,

996
00:57:16,360 --> 00:57:18,959
Speaker 1: go into a bathroom, you jack off, You think about

997
00:57:19,000 --> 00:57:21,480
Speaker 1: whatever it is that gets you there, and you come

998
00:57:21,520 --> 00:57:23,880
Speaker 1: into a little vial and then you give them the

999
00:57:23,960 --> 00:57:26,080
Speaker 1: vial and they hand you fifteen dollars.

1000
00:57:26,680 --> 00:57:29,640
Speaker 4: Or more and then they're like bye, and then.

1001
00:57:29,640 --> 00:57:36,400
Speaker 1: Yep, that's it. That's all you gotta do. Huh, you

1002
00:57:36,480 --> 00:57:37,640
Speaker 1: are a human coming.

1003
00:57:37,800 --> 00:57:44,880
Speaker 4: I mean, yeah, dude, you know what. I think it

1004
00:57:44,960 --> 00:57:46,880
Speaker 4: was just gonna be the best the scene I could

1005
00:57:46,880 --> 00:57:47,480
Speaker 4: possibly be.

1006
00:57:48,440 --> 00:57:49,840
Speaker 1: You should you should do it.

1007
00:57:52,760 --> 00:57:55,600
Speaker 4: I think I'm gonna do it well, Daniel.

1008
00:57:55,640 --> 00:57:56,800
Speaker 1: Anything I want to say to the people of the

1009
00:57:56,840 --> 00:57:57,720
Speaker 1: computer before we go.

1010
00:58:01,520 --> 00:58:05,040
Speaker 4: Guys, uh, you know, if you have a good feeling

1011
00:58:05,040 --> 00:58:08,280
Speaker 4: about something, you know, even if you're nervous, you know,

1012
00:58:08,760 --> 00:58:10,400
Speaker 4: stright out, you know.

1013
00:58:11,560 --> 00:58:13,400
Speaker 3: Straight out beautiful.

1014
00:58:13,800 --> 00:58:14,760
Speaker 1: Thank you for calling Daniel.

1015
00:58:16,600 --> 00:58:17,960
Speaker 4: Thanks all see it.

1016
00:58:18,000 --> 00:58:22,840
Speaker 7: Man Can goes on the line taking phone calls every night.

1017
00:58:23,240 --> 00:58:25,120
Speaker 3: De Beacon goes to his eye.

1018
00:58:25,160 --> 00:58:26,000
Speaker 1: I'm just teaching you.

1019
00:58:25,920 --> 00:58:27,360
Speaker 3: Aloud in the memory line.

1020
00:58:27,760 --> 00:58:29,920
Speaker 2: But he's not really an expert.