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Speaker 1: Today I afked up by sleeping with my second cousin. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: that is not good. So I twenty eight male, just

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Speaker 1: got out of my first ever relationship, a six year one,

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Speaker 1: which damn just a doozy. That's a long long time.

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Speaker 1: I live in London and so does my ex, so

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Speaker 1: being there with her was making the whole getting over

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Speaker 1: her part really difficult. I just wanted to get away,

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Speaker 1: so I thought myself, I need a nice long holiday

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Speaker 1: forty two days to be exact, wow, And I just

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Speaker 1: wanted to spend that time being around friend's family and

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Speaker 1: live that single fuck wayesque lifestyle. Live it up, baby.

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Speaker 1: So I went on holiday to Zambia, my home country.

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Speaker 1: There we go. Now. A week before doing so, I

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Speaker 1: changed my location on all the dating apps to prepare

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Speaker 1: myself and line some data. Anyway, I get to Zambia

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Speaker 1: and I'm happy to be home. I see old friends

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Speaker 1: and family for a couple of days, and then I

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Speaker 1: start doing work. It was fun for about a week,

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Speaker 1: and then I start going to Poundtown. Poundtown. It was

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Speaker 1: fun for about a week, but then it quickly became

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Speaker 1: more of a chore than anything. Around this time, I

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Speaker 1: matched with a cute mixed girl, I mixed too, And

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Speaker 1: the conversation was from the day we match. We're sending

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Speaker 1: paragraphs to each other, talking about any and everything. We

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Speaker 1: had so much in common and honestly we thought a

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Speaker 1: lot alike too. Oh, I bet you have a lot

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Speaker 1: in common because this actually didn't you feel like a

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Speaker 1: chur anymore, and felt like I was actually really liking

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Speaker 1: this girl. I'm just enjoying the deep, long convos. And

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Speaker 1: during these convos we talk about our families to see

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Speaker 1: if we know each other. Coos lusaka. The capital is

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Speaker 1: really small. Everyone knows everyone here. But as I'm here

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Speaker 1: staying with my dad and used his family name, she's

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Speaker 1: never heard of him. She goes by her stepfather's surname,

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Speaker 1: as she was adopted at two years old. We don't

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Speaker 1: know each other. I asked my dad if he's heard

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Speaker 1: of her surname, and he has, says they are a

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Speaker 1: good family and the father is a good man. There

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Speaker 1: we go. Sounded great, so far, sound great. Around day three,

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Speaker 1: she drunkenly invites me over. It was lovely Mordi convos,

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Speaker 1: making out Mordie convos. She's on our period, so nothing

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Speaker 1: further happens. Spend the night, though we really get to

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Speaker 1: know each other. I go home. Three days later, I

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Speaker 1: visit again and do the d oh oh yeah. At

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Speaker 1: this point, I feel like we're in a mini relationship.

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Speaker 1: We're texting, calling, and facetiming every day. After about a week,

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Speaker 1: I think to myself, this is lovely. She might be

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Speaker 1: relationship material. There already is an expiration date on this

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Speaker 1: when I leave, because I don't want to do long distance.

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Speaker 1: Plus I did come here to enjoy myself, and I've

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Speaker 1: just gotten out of a six year relationship, so I'm

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Speaker 1: not trying to jump back into anything too soon. But

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Speaker 1: at this point I was so close I felt like

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Speaker 1: I was cheating talking to other girls to explain my

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Speaker 1: stance where I'm at mentally and what I want to do.

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Speaker 1: She understood, but her stance was she wanted to be

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Speaker 1: safe SDD wise, and me doing what I wanted meant

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Speaker 1: the end of anything physical with her. I understood, and

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Speaker 1: we ended things physically, but we still continue to talk

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Speaker 1: every day, still as close as we ever were. I

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Speaker 1: fantasized about one day getting in a relationship together. When

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Speaker 1: I eventually moved back here in like two years, seems

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Speaker 1: like a pretty like mature, like adult conversation. They're really

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Speaker 1: like sorting things out, communicating. Right. Yeah, So this morning

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Speaker 1: I ask her about her day. How's the farm? I

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Speaker 1: know from yesterday's chat she's visiting her parents, who run

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Speaker 1: a farm. She tells me it's good. I just had

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Speaker 1: a long conversation with my mom though, Me cool? What

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Speaker 1: about her us? Me? Okay, what did you tell her her?

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Speaker 1: It's more about what she told me me the fuck?

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Speaker 1: I'm lost? Well, what did she say her? It's just

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Speaker 1: so sad. I don't even want to tell you me.

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Speaker 1: I'm confused. What are you on about her? Promise you

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Speaker 1: won't hate me me, I could never hate such a

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Speaker 1: lovely person. Did you do something that? What's going on her?

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Speaker 1: You promise me? I don't know now, because you're freaking

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Speaker 1: me out. Just tell me Jasmine for real? Her? Well,

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Speaker 1: we might be relatedoo. I doubt it though, because lots

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Speaker 1: of people have your mother's surname. Me. What, and this

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Speaker 1: is from your og dad? What's his name? I'll ask

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Speaker 1: my mom? She then sends his name. I forward to

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Speaker 1: my mom who's in London, asking if she knows this person.

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Speaker 1: She does. It's her first cousin. No, I feel disgusted,

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Speaker 1: I'm upset, I'm angry, and the anger came from me

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Speaker 1: at this time, thinking my dad should have known, considering

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Speaker 1: I told him who she was and he knew her stepfather,

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Speaker 1: so I feel like this dad should have known. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: for real, my stomach was having this weird, tingly feeling.

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Speaker 1: My wiener wanted to disappear inside my body. Straight turtle show,

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Speaker 1: straight turtled. I asked my dad how he couldn't know

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Speaker 1: that the girl I was seeing was his first cousin's daughter.

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Speaker 1: He says, oh crap, he knew he dated the mother,

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Speaker 1: but he didn't know they had kids because she went

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Speaker 1: by the other name. He thought the stepdad was the

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Speaker 1: real father. Oh, my dad also lived between three countries

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Speaker 1: in the past twelve years. So anyway, I'm disgusted by

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Speaker 1: the whole situation. She's trying to justify it in a way,

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Speaker 1: saying that they aren't really her family anyway. They abandoned her,

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Speaker 1: treated her mom like crap, her father was abusive. She

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Speaker 1: hasn't spoken fifteen years, and I've told her all this

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Speaker 1: doesn't matter. You can dounce them all, but at the

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Speaker 1: end of the day, your blood is my blood. Yeah.

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Speaker 1: I fly out this Saturday, and she's asked to come

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Speaker 1: talk about the situation face to face before I go,

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Speaker 1: so we'll see how it goes. Edit. I've read the

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Speaker 1: responses and apparently Jenne, I'm all good people who are

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Speaker 1: saying it isn't a big deal, though I doubt they

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Speaker 1: are close to their second cousins. I've grown up raising some,

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Speaker 1: looking up to others, and going to school with some.

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Speaker 1: I have a huge family, so the relation to a

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Speaker 1: second cousin is real to me. I couldn't imagine doing

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Speaker 1: what we did with the ones. I'm close to finding

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Speaker 1: out she is one. I'll never look at her the

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Speaker 1: same man. Look your fam up before you start messing around,

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Speaker 1: you know, do your research. Do your research.