1 00:00:12,000 --> 00:00:15,640 Speaker 1: I guess I've entered my actress era. This manager called me. 2 00:00:16,120 --> 00:00:20,400 Speaker 1: He had asked my publicist who represents me, and she said, 3 00:00:20,440 --> 00:00:23,200 Speaker 1: she doesn't really have an active agent. She's never really 4 00:00:23,200 --> 00:00:25,080 Speaker 1: had an agent. She has different agencies that she has 5 00:00:25,079 --> 00:00:29,040 Speaker 1: good relationships with that will send her opportunities and that 6 00:00:29,680 --> 00:00:31,440 Speaker 1: make her money, and she makes them money, but she 7 00:00:31,480 --> 00:00:35,040 Speaker 1: doesn't have an agent. And he said, well, let's not 8 00:00:35,080 --> 00:00:38,240 Speaker 1: get sticky about it, but would you let me call 9 00:00:38,320 --> 00:00:42,760 Speaker 1: her and possibly represent her? And Jill said sure, so 10 00:00:42,800 --> 00:00:44,240 Speaker 1: we spoke on the phone. He was like, we don't 11 00:00:44,240 --> 00:00:46,760 Speaker 1: need to have a contract, we need to get entangled 12 00:00:46,800 --> 00:00:49,320 Speaker 1: with anything. Just let me, you know, work with you. 13 00:00:50,159 --> 00:00:52,559 Speaker 1: I said sure, And the following week he called me 14 00:00:52,560 --> 00:00:54,640 Speaker 1: and said, I have this acting opportunity. It's a movie 15 00:00:54,640 --> 00:00:56,640 Speaker 1: for two weeks in Vancouver, and I was like, what 16 00:00:56,680 --> 00:01:00,520 Speaker 1: the hell? And I said what my rate is, which 17 00:01:02,000 --> 00:01:05,479 Speaker 1: was way less than what I get paid for other things. 18 00:01:05,520 --> 00:01:07,840 Speaker 1: But I did a much lower rate because it was 19 00:01:07,920 --> 00:01:14,640 Speaker 1: something new, and it was still at least double to 20 00:01:14,720 --> 00:01:17,520 Speaker 1: triple with the trappings what they're used to paying. And 21 00:01:17,720 --> 00:01:19,360 Speaker 1: I wasn't going to do it if I wasn't going 22 00:01:19,400 --> 00:01:21,520 Speaker 1: to get paid because I don't like to resent anything. 23 00:01:21,880 --> 00:01:24,039 Speaker 1: I don't like to get anything in life for less 24 00:01:24,040 --> 00:01:29,280 Speaker 1: than what the value is, because then I'm going to 25 00:01:29,319 --> 00:01:33,560 Speaker 1: be negative. Like if you hire, if you get paid 26 00:01:33,680 --> 00:01:36,440 Speaker 1: less than what you deserve, you're going to resent the 27 00:01:36,480 --> 00:01:38,440 Speaker 1: person taking that service from you. And you just got 28 00:01:38,480 --> 00:01:41,559 Speaker 1: to set up the dynamics right. So anyway, I got 29 00:01:41,560 --> 00:01:43,200 Speaker 1: paid what I deserve, but a lot less than what 30 00:01:43,240 --> 00:01:46,360 Speaker 1: I normally would get paid. And everyone was slightly uncomfortable 31 00:01:46,480 --> 00:01:48,920 Speaker 1: but also very happy, which is how every business deal 32 00:01:48,960 --> 00:01:53,200 Speaker 1: should be done. And I happily went to Vancouver for 33 00:01:53,200 --> 00:01:56,040 Speaker 1: two weeks, which I never do. I never leave for 34 00:01:56,080 --> 00:01:58,120 Speaker 1: two weeks to go anywhere. I'm not going to Australia 35 00:01:58,120 --> 00:02:00,600 Speaker 1: for two weeks, and I don't ever leave my doll. 36 00:02:00,760 --> 00:02:04,960 Speaker 1: So I left for two weeks, left my daughter, left 37 00:02:04,960 --> 00:02:08,240 Speaker 1: my comfort zone, went to do a movie Love Vancouver, 38 00:02:08,400 --> 00:02:11,400 Speaker 1: Love Canada, have loved Canada in the past, Love Montreal, 39 00:02:11,720 --> 00:02:15,760 Speaker 1: Love Vancouver. Love the outlier areas of Vancouver. The people 40 00:02:15,760 --> 00:02:18,240 Speaker 1: said I wouldn't like because I think they thought it 41 00:02:18,280 --> 00:02:21,000 Speaker 1: was like it's sort of near farmland, but there's also 42 00:02:21,080 --> 00:02:25,919 Speaker 1: a lot of commerce and like malls and strip malls 43 00:02:25,960 --> 00:02:28,280 Speaker 1: and food and things like that. And I don't think 44 00:02:28,320 --> 00:02:30,399 Speaker 1: people really know me. I think everyone thinks I need 45 00:02:30,400 --> 00:02:35,920 Speaker 1: to like be in Sant Tropez by air mez in 46 00:02:35,960 --> 00:02:38,680 Speaker 1: my life, and it's the opposite of the case. So 47 00:02:39,000 --> 00:02:42,519 Speaker 1: I decided to do a movie. And I kept laughing 48 00:02:42,560 --> 00:02:45,000 Speaker 1: at myself, like what are we talking about? What am 49 00:02:45,040 --> 00:02:48,200 Speaker 1: I doing a movie? Like I'm not an actress and 50 00:02:48,840 --> 00:02:51,160 Speaker 1: I'm going to Vancouver to do a movie. And I 51 00:02:51,240 --> 00:02:54,320 Speaker 1: say it every five minutes because I can't believe it's true. 52 00:02:54,400 --> 00:02:57,960 Speaker 1: Like I'm laughing and I'm looking at the director and 53 00:02:58,000 --> 00:03:00,520 Speaker 1: the producers and saying, like, what the hell were you 54 00:03:00,560 --> 00:03:03,160 Speaker 1: guys thinking? Because it wasn't like I went to go 55 00:03:03,200 --> 00:03:06,360 Speaker 1: do a movie and I have two lines. I'm like 56 00:03:06,480 --> 00:03:09,320 Speaker 1: one of the stars of the movie, like full on, 57 00:03:11,080 --> 00:03:15,760 Speaker 1: massive amounts of dialogue, pages and pages, and like emotion 58 00:03:16,800 --> 00:03:20,120 Speaker 1: and like emotion. I don't want to tell you what 59 00:03:20,160 --> 00:03:21,880 Speaker 1: it's about because I'll get in trouble, but like full 60 00:03:21,919 --> 00:03:29,240 Speaker 1: fledged emotion, full fledged bulky dialogue and scenes and interaction. 61 00:03:29,400 --> 00:03:34,280 Speaker 1: Oh my god. The memorization, the memorization of being an 62 00:03:34,280 --> 00:03:39,480 Speaker 1: actress is not discussed nearly enough. In order to be 63 00:03:39,560 --> 00:03:42,880 Speaker 1: a good actress, you must be a great memorizer and 64 00:03:42,920 --> 00:03:44,960 Speaker 1: everybody has different ways that they do it. Someone and 65 00:03:45,040 --> 00:03:47,240 Speaker 1: makeup told me that they know an actress or an 66 00:03:47,280 --> 00:03:50,280 Speaker 1: actor that like remembers the first letter of each word 67 00:03:50,280 --> 00:03:53,880 Speaker 1: of a scene. Other people know the whole thing and 68 00:03:53,920 --> 00:03:55,880 Speaker 1: read it a million times and study it, and then 69 00:03:55,920 --> 00:03:57,600 Speaker 1: they show up and they don't look at it again. 70 00:03:57,720 --> 00:04:00,000 Speaker 1: If they look at it right before, they'll get messed up. 71 00:04:00,320 --> 00:04:03,400 Speaker 1: I am the opposite. I need exactly only my scenes 72 00:04:03,400 --> 00:04:06,480 Speaker 1: the day before, like the day before the big scene 73 00:04:07,520 --> 00:04:09,840 Speaker 1: or the multiple scenes I need. It's how I write 74 00:04:09,840 --> 00:04:11,520 Speaker 1: a book, I do it in little pieces, or how 75 00:04:11,560 --> 00:04:14,720 Speaker 1: I learned to snowboard years ago. I don't get overwhelmed. 76 00:04:14,720 --> 00:04:17,080 Speaker 1: I take on what I can. So, like if I 77 00:04:17,080 --> 00:04:20,280 Speaker 1: have a scene tomorrow, I ask them if they can 78 00:04:20,480 --> 00:04:24,800 Speaker 1: just deliver my pages only, like stapled, separately highlighted, so 79 00:04:24,920 --> 00:04:27,640 Speaker 1: I know exactly my scene only. So let's say it's 80 00:04:27,640 --> 00:04:30,440 Speaker 1: called scene one oh four. I tonight will read it 81 00:04:30,600 --> 00:04:33,440 Speaker 1: three four times. The tomorrow morning, I'll get serious. Then 82 00:04:33,440 --> 00:04:35,600 Speaker 1: in makeup, I'll get really serious. Then in the trailer 83 00:04:35,640 --> 00:04:38,200 Speaker 1: before the scene, I'll get really serious. Like that's when 84 00:04:38,200 --> 00:04:40,640 Speaker 1: you're just pacing and memorizing. And then on set, because 85 00:04:40,640 --> 00:04:42,360 Speaker 1: it's a lot of hurry up and wait when you're 86 00:04:42,400 --> 00:04:44,280 Speaker 1: waiting for them to light things. Then I've got the 87 00:04:44,279 --> 00:04:46,320 Speaker 1: piece of paper in my pocket and I'm like pacing 88 00:04:46,360 --> 00:04:48,600 Speaker 1: and really memorizing, and then bam, you get there and 89 00:04:48,640 --> 00:04:50,720 Speaker 1: you know it cold and you can be emotional about 90 00:04:50,720 --> 00:04:53,280 Speaker 1: it because you know it so and then I come 91 00:04:53,279 --> 00:04:55,480 Speaker 1: back in the trailer and repeat the process all day. 92 00:04:56,080 --> 00:05:00,480 Speaker 1: But it's so unweldy and so much dialogue and it's overwhelming, 93 00:05:00,520 --> 00:05:04,120 Speaker 1: Like you're like, I have homework. It's full homework. So 94 00:05:04,760 --> 00:05:07,440 Speaker 1: props to people that are actors because it takes so 95 00:05:07,560 --> 00:05:10,080 Speaker 1: much memorization. But then it's so much waiting around. Like 96 00:05:10,120 --> 00:05:12,240 Speaker 1: you'll leave your house at seven o'clock in the morning, 97 00:05:12,720 --> 00:05:15,000 Speaker 1: you'll go to a trailer and it's a lot of 98 00:05:15,040 --> 00:05:18,440 Speaker 1: interacting and transacting. Knock on the door, yes, can we come, 99 00:05:18,480 --> 00:05:20,200 Speaker 1: have wardrobe come in? Knock on the door. Did you 100 00:05:20,240 --> 00:05:21,640 Speaker 1: know what you want for lunch? Knock on the door. 101 00:05:21,640 --> 00:05:23,320 Speaker 1: You're gonna be ready to go here, knock on the door. 102 00:05:23,400 --> 00:05:25,640 Speaker 1: Like so I was like, can you guys just text me, 103 00:05:26,240 --> 00:05:28,320 Speaker 1: cause it just felt like every second I was like 104 00:05:28,480 --> 00:05:30,920 Speaker 1: yelling out yes, they couldn't hear me. You're outside a trailer. 105 00:05:30,960 --> 00:05:33,680 Speaker 1: Door side notes, someone needs to invent a process for 106 00:05:33,720 --> 00:05:37,559 Speaker 1: trailers where there's like an intercom or something because people 107 00:05:37,560 --> 00:05:40,120 Speaker 1: can't hear each other. I've seen this a million times, 108 00:05:40,160 --> 00:05:43,400 Speaker 1: and people are screaming at all times, so or it's 109 00:05:43,400 --> 00:05:45,479 Speaker 1: someone knocking, and then the person has to come every 110 00:05:45,480 --> 00:05:48,240 Speaker 1: time and get up and open the door. So that's 111 00:05:47,760 --> 00:05:53,800 Speaker 1: a that's some inside actor content. And then you'll maybe 112 00:05:53,800 --> 00:05:55,599 Speaker 1: be shooting that scene that you got there for seven 113 00:05:55,640 --> 00:05:59,440 Speaker 1: o'clock at seven o'clock am, and you'll go do makeup 114 00:05:59,440 --> 00:06:02,760 Speaker 1: at eight o'clock to nine o'clock, and then you may 115 00:06:02,800 --> 00:06:05,200 Speaker 1: shoot that scene at two o'clock. So you've got to 116 00:06:05,200 --> 00:06:08,680 Speaker 1: be bringing a book, reading, entertaining yourself. You're gonna get bored, 117 00:06:08,680 --> 00:06:10,960 Speaker 1: you're gonna feel gross, you're gonna need like, you know, 118 00:06:11,040 --> 00:06:13,160 Speaker 1: a change of clothes, like you're just gonna feel stale, 119 00:06:13,640 --> 00:06:15,120 Speaker 1: and then you're gonna go out and you're gonna do 120 00:06:15,120 --> 00:06:17,359 Speaker 1: a scene. It's gonna be cold, and you're gonna be 121 00:06:17,360 --> 00:06:20,359 Speaker 1: waiting around. They set, they reset like you know a 122 00:06:20,360 --> 00:06:23,240 Speaker 1: lot of repeat tedious. This thing that I'll tell you 123 00:06:23,279 --> 00:06:26,360 Speaker 1: about later. I've loved I've loved the crew. They move fast. 124 00:06:26,760 --> 00:06:30,560 Speaker 1: I did Royal pains years ago, and like that is 125 00:06:31,040 --> 00:06:32,960 Speaker 1: a different way of shooting, Like we shoot this side, 126 00:06:33,000 --> 00:06:35,600 Speaker 1: we shoot the other, shot side, we shoot the sideways, 127 00:06:35,640 --> 00:06:39,040 Speaker 1: we shoot this person, that person. It's like, very tedious, 128 00:06:39,160 --> 00:06:41,479 Speaker 1: this is what I'm doing. Which most times that I've 129 00:06:41,520 --> 00:06:44,040 Speaker 1: been in a situation like this, it has not been 130 00:06:44,080 --> 00:06:46,960 Speaker 1: like that. It's been like they just get it done. 131 00:06:47,120 --> 00:06:50,520 Speaker 1: It's amazing. So I love the crew, I love the director. 132 00:06:50,800 --> 00:06:52,640 Speaker 1: I didn't realize that this company had been trying to 133 00:06:52,680 --> 00:06:54,760 Speaker 1: work with me for a long time, or wanted to 134 00:06:54,800 --> 00:06:56,760 Speaker 1: work with me for a long time. But this agent 135 00:06:56,839 --> 00:06:59,680 Speaker 1: that I mentioned or this manager just happened to call 136 00:06:59,720 --> 00:07:04,359 Speaker 1: them or respond to them, because I don't know exactly 137 00:07:04,400 --> 00:07:06,800 Speaker 1: how it went down, but that just shows you too, 138 00:07:06,880 --> 00:07:08,960 Speaker 1: like you have to be teed up for success. I 139 00:07:09,000 --> 00:07:12,120 Speaker 1: have never said, like for years, I haven't said I 140 00:07:12,240 --> 00:07:13,840 Speaker 1: want to be an actress. I used to want to 141 00:07:13,840 --> 00:07:18,480 Speaker 1: be an actress so badly, and so like, if you 142 00:07:18,600 --> 00:07:20,960 Speaker 1: want something, you need to set yourself up for it. 143 00:07:21,240 --> 00:07:25,280 Speaker 1: But the reason I decided to do it also, and 144 00:07:25,440 --> 00:07:27,080 Speaker 1: I was a little nervous in the beginning, just for 145 00:07:27,120 --> 00:07:29,480 Speaker 1: the experience, just going to a different country two weeks. 146 00:07:29,520 --> 00:07:32,320 Speaker 1: It was weird. It was like eerie for me. Another 147 00:07:32,360 --> 00:07:34,920 Speaker 1: reason I decided to do it was I didn't want 148 00:07:34,960 --> 00:07:37,040 Speaker 1: to I don't like to look fate and look chance 149 00:07:37,200 --> 00:07:39,360 Speaker 1: and look at gift Horse. When I was little, I 150 00:07:39,400 --> 00:07:41,960 Speaker 1: wanted to be an actress so badly, and I'd know 151 00:07:41,960 --> 00:07:43,560 Speaker 1: one in my house that would help me or take 152 00:07:43,640 --> 00:07:47,080 Speaker 1: me to auditions or like nurture that whatsoever. So I 153 00:07:47,200 --> 00:07:49,200 Speaker 1: just dreamed about it. I thought about it. I would 154 00:07:49,200 --> 00:07:51,320 Speaker 1: look in the phone book and be like, how do 155 00:07:51,400 --> 00:07:53,800 Speaker 1: I be an actress? Or were auditions? And I just 156 00:07:53,840 --> 00:07:56,920 Speaker 1: felt exasperated. It was like this inside club that no 157 00:07:56,920 --> 00:07:59,880 Speaker 1: one could get access to. And when I was older 158 00:08:00,000 --> 00:08:05,400 Speaker 1: and I moved to LA and I graduated without my diploma, 159 00:08:05,440 --> 00:08:07,160 Speaker 1: I just I just didn't even walk with the class. 160 00:08:07,200 --> 00:08:09,280 Speaker 1: I just wanted to get to LA and be an actress. 161 00:08:09,760 --> 00:08:11,280 Speaker 1: I didn't know how to do it, and I was 162 00:08:11,320 --> 00:08:13,280 Speaker 1: sort of embarrassed, and like I didn't know how to say, like, 163 00:08:13,320 --> 00:08:16,760 Speaker 1: I'm a hostess at La Scala, but I'm also an actress, 164 00:08:17,000 --> 00:08:20,880 Speaker 1: and so like I was just wandering around and like 165 00:08:21,680 --> 00:08:23,120 Speaker 1: there used to be these books where you'd try to 166 00:08:23,160 --> 00:08:25,560 Speaker 1: find agents. You'd send them headshots. No one would call 167 00:08:25,560 --> 00:08:28,280 Speaker 1: you back. Literally zero point zero people would call you back. 168 00:08:28,400 --> 00:08:31,120 Speaker 1: You would go spend two hundred dollars get headshots. You 169 00:08:31,120 --> 00:08:33,600 Speaker 1: couldn't afford it. They would look great. They would be 170 00:08:33,679 --> 00:08:35,920 Speaker 1: like one was you holding a tennis racket or one's 171 00:08:35,960 --> 00:08:38,360 Speaker 1: in a ponytail. I still have mine. I got a 172 00:08:38,360 --> 00:08:40,679 Speaker 1: show them to you one time, and like you'd send 173 00:08:40,720 --> 00:08:43,040 Speaker 1: them out, like it's almost like cold calling, and literally 174 00:08:43,080 --> 00:08:45,480 Speaker 1: no one would call you back. You just it's so 175 00:08:45,559 --> 00:08:47,560 Speaker 1: hard to even be an actor. But it's so hard 176 00:08:47,559 --> 00:08:50,200 Speaker 1: to get out there and like get in the room 177 00:08:50,320 --> 00:08:53,040 Speaker 1: to even try to act. And I wasn't even any good, 178 00:08:53,040 --> 00:08:55,800 Speaker 1: I'm sure, and I knew the producers that say by 179 00:08:55,800 --> 00:08:57,600 Speaker 1: the bell, and I got an audition to go in 180 00:08:57,640 --> 00:09:01,720 Speaker 1: and read for the new show, the California episodes, but 181 00:09:01,840 --> 00:09:05,800 Speaker 1: I sucked and I just like had no helper. I 182 00:09:05,880 --> 00:09:08,480 Speaker 1: said to myself when thinking about this, don't be spoiled, 183 00:09:08,520 --> 00:09:11,400 Speaker 1: like for years you wanted this and now you're older 184 00:09:11,480 --> 00:09:13,520 Speaker 1: and it just walked in the door, and you're so 185 00:09:13,640 --> 00:09:16,880 Speaker 1: grateful and you earned it because of the way you 186 00:09:17,080 --> 00:09:19,440 Speaker 1: meaning Beth anding me. I've put myself out there and 187 00:09:19,480 --> 00:09:22,080 Speaker 1: I'm on social media, and I've been on television and 188 00:09:22,120 --> 00:09:26,320 Speaker 1: I've proven myself in many ways. And and yes, if 189 00:09:26,320 --> 00:09:28,760 Speaker 1: they had sent an audition slides, I'm sure I would 190 00:09:28,760 --> 00:09:31,240 Speaker 1: have or sides, I'm sure I would have audition for it. 191 00:09:31,280 --> 00:09:35,480 Speaker 1: Auditioning is frightening, and it's insecure, makes you insecure, like 192 00:09:35,840 --> 00:09:38,960 Speaker 1: it's just it's bulky and it's tedious, and it's never 193 00:09:39,120 --> 00:09:41,200 Speaker 1: like the way it's going to really go the way 194 00:09:41,240 --> 00:09:43,040 Speaker 1: that you're gonna do it that day, and it's just 195 00:09:43,120 --> 00:09:47,080 Speaker 1: like strange. And now they all do self tape, so 196 00:09:47,160 --> 00:09:49,920 Speaker 1: you was like putting a phone somewhere and following their 197 00:09:49,920 --> 00:09:52,240 Speaker 1: instructions of what to wear and do you put makeup on? 198 00:09:52,280 --> 00:09:54,160 Speaker 1: And are you supposed to look like natural you? And 199 00:09:54,200 --> 00:09:56,199 Speaker 1: like you get in your head and it's just a 200 00:09:56,320 --> 00:09:58,800 Speaker 1: nightmare and it's scary. So I didn't have to do that. 201 00:09:58,840 --> 00:10:02,720 Speaker 1: I'm super grateful this company, you know, knows that I 202 00:10:02,760 --> 00:10:05,320 Speaker 1: can do it. I cannot believe that they cast me 203 00:10:05,360 --> 00:10:08,720 Speaker 1: in this without knowing if I could do it with 204 00:10:08,840 --> 00:10:12,199 Speaker 1: all these lines. But that's show business, baby, and they 205 00:10:12,400 --> 00:10:15,800 Speaker 1: just believed in the power and the magic. And I'm 206 00:10:15,840 --> 00:10:17,960 Speaker 1: sure they believe that I'll bring viewers in which I 207 00:10:18,000 --> 00:10:20,040 Speaker 1: hope many of you will watch to see this because 208 00:10:20,040 --> 00:10:23,080 Speaker 1: I'm shook that it's like so legitimate and so like 209 00:10:23,400 --> 00:10:25,960 Speaker 1: long of a role. I called actresses I knew. They 210 00:10:25,960 --> 00:10:28,160 Speaker 1: were like, you've got to do this. So here I am, 211 00:10:28,160 --> 00:10:30,440 Speaker 1: and I'm doing it and I'm excited and I think 212 00:10:30,440 --> 00:10:33,040 Speaker 1: it's good and it's fun and it's exciting and it's 213 00:10:33,080 --> 00:10:35,440 Speaker 1: a new chapter. So lo and behold. I'm in my 214 00:10:35,520 --> 00:10:38,600 Speaker 1: trailer yesterday and some assistant whose name I didn't know, 215 00:10:38,760 --> 00:10:41,400 Speaker 1: was like, Hey, we have this role in this massive 216 00:10:41,480 --> 00:10:44,720 Speaker 1: movie with this massive producer and director that you've heard 217 00:10:44,760 --> 00:10:46,760 Speaker 1: of and that you know of and that you would 218 00:10:46,800 --> 00:10:49,920 Speaker 1: die to have on this podcast that you've pitched to 219 00:10:49,960 --> 00:10:52,760 Speaker 1: be on this podcast. But this is such a megastar, 220 00:10:53,000 --> 00:10:59,000 Speaker 1: like major, major, major, famous person in filmmaking and TV 221 00:10:59,200 --> 00:11:03,680 Speaker 1: making and in humor wants you to read for a role. 222 00:11:04,120 --> 00:11:06,800 Speaker 1: So you have to do a self tape and here 223 00:11:06,840 --> 00:11:08,960 Speaker 1: are all the instructions. This is what you are supposed 224 00:11:08,960 --> 00:11:13,480 Speaker 1: to be like, sound like, look like maybe where the 225 00:11:13,520 --> 00:11:16,040 Speaker 1: background you're supposed to have? This is all the dialogue. 226 00:11:16,040 --> 00:11:18,520 Speaker 1: It's five pages of dialogue. So now I'm studying my 227 00:11:18,679 --> 00:11:21,079 Speaker 1: dialogue for my movie that I'm in, But now I'm 228 00:11:21,080 --> 00:11:24,199 Speaker 1: auditioning for another movie. What the fuck. I call the manager. 229 00:11:24,240 --> 00:11:26,760 Speaker 1: I was like, what is going on? Because now I'm 230 00:11:26,800 --> 00:11:29,680 Speaker 1: on his radar, and so if you do want to 231 00:11:29,720 --> 00:11:33,200 Speaker 1: do something, make sure you're on the radar. Like it's 232 00:11:33,240 --> 00:11:35,559 Speaker 1: those people were never thinking of me. They're just moving 233 00:11:35,559 --> 00:11:38,200 Speaker 1: papers through a desk. We got a fucking we're casting. 234 00:11:38,280 --> 00:11:40,920 Speaker 1: We need whoever's teed up and ready to go, not 235 00:11:41,080 --> 00:11:46,320 Speaker 1: like weirdo former reality star you know TikTok Instagram, famous 236 00:11:46,360 --> 00:11:49,600 Speaker 1: people now that are in their fifties that might want 237 00:11:49,640 --> 00:11:52,400 Speaker 1: to act in a movie. Like there have been millions 238 00:11:52,440 --> 00:11:54,080 Speaker 1: of roles I've missed over the years because I didn't 239 00:11:54,120 --> 00:11:55,960 Speaker 1: put myself in that arena. But it was not meant 240 00:11:56,000 --> 00:11:58,720 Speaker 1: to be, and it's meant to be now. And so like, yes, 241 00:11:58,760 --> 00:12:01,440 Speaker 1: I'm auditioning for another MO while I'm here, So I 242 00:12:01,520 --> 00:12:03,600 Speaker 1: might just ask the other actors or the director to 243 00:12:03,679 --> 00:12:06,320 Speaker 1: help me, like help me scotch tape this thing together 244 00:12:06,400 --> 00:12:09,040 Speaker 1: in my trailer. Yes, I have a major trailer. It 245 00:12:09,040 --> 00:12:12,520 Speaker 1: has a bathroom, it has a microwave, it has couches, 246 00:12:12,600 --> 00:12:16,000 Speaker 1: Like they really like they spent the ranch on me 247 00:12:16,559 --> 00:12:18,840 Speaker 1: to do it, but I'm giving them everything, like I'm 248 00:12:18,920 --> 00:12:20,880 Speaker 1: I'm invested. I think they would say, I'm easy to 249 00:12:20,920 --> 00:12:23,520 Speaker 1: work with, Like my rider, What did I want? I 250 00:12:23,559 --> 00:12:27,320 Speaker 1: asked for braw potatoes probably twenty nine cents apiece, and 251 00:12:28,400 --> 00:12:34,480 Speaker 1: kambucha and like ice coffee and creamer and some cashews. 252 00:12:34,920 --> 00:12:37,760 Speaker 1: That's my whole entire rider. But my trailer is amazing, 253 00:12:37,840 --> 00:12:40,480 Speaker 1: and like now my rider just got bigger. I'm gonna 254 00:12:40,520 --> 00:12:42,480 Speaker 1: ask I need the director and the extras and the 255 00:12:42,559 --> 00:12:45,160 Speaker 1: lighting crew and the producer to take, you know, to 256 00:12:45,240 --> 00:12:47,440 Speaker 1: give the crew a hiatus day, because we have to 257 00:12:47,480 --> 00:12:52,079 Speaker 1: practice for this other massive, massive movie, this blockbuster hit. 258 00:12:52,400 --> 00:12:56,440 Speaker 1: Literally that I'm auditioning for. What the actual fuck. It's 259 00:12:56,480 --> 00:12:59,679 Speaker 1: so confusing, it makes no sense. But I'm loving the adventure. 260 00:13:00,080 --> 00:13:03,719 Speaker 1: And that's the thing too. I am the adventure. I 261 00:13:03,760 --> 00:13:05,560 Speaker 1: am the place of yes. And while I can be 262 00:13:05,600 --> 00:13:07,680 Speaker 1: bitchy and in a bad mood and no, I don't 263 00:13:07,679 --> 00:13:09,960 Speaker 1: want to do that, and no, I'm not accepting that 264 00:13:10,120 --> 00:13:12,960 Speaker 1: and know and no and no, my place of yes 265 00:13:13,080 --> 00:13:15,360 Speaker 1: is Yes. I'm getting out a plane, I'm going to Vancouver. 266 00:13:15,480 --> 00:13:18,920 Speaker 1: I'm starring in a movie for two weeks with tons 267 00:13:18,960 --> 00:13:21,840 Speaker 1: of dialogue. And I'm leaving my daughter, which I never do. Yes, 268 00:13:21,960 --> 00:13:24,280 Speaker 1: there's a script for a feature film that will be 269 00:13:24,320 --> 00:13:28,480 Speaker 1: like in I pick like theaters with like ten dollars 270 00:13:28,520 --> 00:13:31,240 Speaker 1: buckets of popcorn to buy and like snow caps. Am 271 00:13:31,280 --> 00:13:34,920 Speaker 1: I auditioning for that? Absolutely? Am? I gonna fucking figure 272 00:13:34,920 --> 00:13:36,880 Speaker 1: it out while I'm here and try to ask this 273 00:13:36,960 --> 00:13:39,840 Speaker 1: director and anybody who will listen and help me. Go 274 00:13:39,920 --> 00:13:41,760 Speaker 1: to the fucking lobby of the hotel that I'm also 275 00:13:41,840 --> 00:13:44,920 Speaker 1: staying in because they're actors everywhere. Yes, I'm gonna ask 276 00:13:44,960 --> 00:13:46,920 Speaker 1: them to help me to get this role, because that's 277 00:13:46,920 --> 00:13:49,040 Speaker 1: what life is about. Who gives a shit how you 278 00:13:49,040 --> 00:13:51,720 Speaker 1: get it, Just fucking get it. I'll deal with it 279 00:13:51,760 --> 00:13:54,040 Speaker 1: on the day that I get there being great at 280 00:13:54,120 --> 00:13:55,760 Speaker 1: I'll be great at it. If I get it, I'll 281 00:13:55,760 --> 00:13:58,000 Speaker 1: be great at it. But guess what, I gotta get 282 00:13:58,040 --> 00:13:59,880 Speaker 1: myself in there, so you know what, I'm gonna scotch 283 00:14:00,000 --> 00:14:04,040 Speaker 1: tape together the audition tape and sends it in and 284 00:14:04,160 --> 00:14:07,720 Speaker 1: set myself up for success. Don't half ascid, don't hodgepodge it, 285 00:14:07,800 --> 00:14:12,200 Speaker 1: don't bullshit it like this is Hollywood, baby, fake it 286 00:14:12,240 --> 00:14:14,760 Speaker 1: till you make it. I guess. Martha Stewart said, no. 287 00:14:15,280 --> 00:14:17,800 Speaker 1: We at Martha Stewart living on nimdia. She told me 288 00:14:17,840 --> 00:14:19,760 Speaker 1: on The Apprentice. We do not fake it till you 289 00:14:19,800 --> 00:14:22,480 Speaker 1: make it. Well, fucking guess what As an actress, Bethany 290 00:14:22,480 --> 00:14:25,520 Speaker 1: Frankel in Vancouver is faking it till she makes it. 291 00:14:25,840 --> 00:14:28,400 Speaker 1: Not when I'm standing there doing the scene. That was 292 00:14:28,440 --> 00:14:32,880 Speaker 1: all real, but my memorization process, my needing a potato, 293 00:14:32,920 --> 00:14:36,160 Speaker 1: and the trailer, my memorizing multiple scripts at the same time, 294 00:14:36,240 --> 00:14:39,600 Speaker 1: my being in Vancouver in the lobby with people asking me, oh, 295 00:14:39,640 --> 00:14:42,640 Speaker 1: are you an actress? Of fucking course I am. Got 296 00:14:42,640 --> 00:14:47,200 Speaker 1: through to customs in Vancouver, Hi, I need a workers permit. 297 00:14:47,240 --> 00:14:48,960 Speaker 1: They said it was one hundred and fifty dollars. What 298 00:14:49,000 --> 00:14:52,320 Speaker 1: the fuck are you an actress? Uh? I guess I 299 00:14:52,360 --> 00:14:55,560 Speaker 1: am doing a movie for two weeks. Yes, I am 300 00:14:55,640 --> 00:14:58,400 Speaker 1: a studying for a role. Bet your fucking titties. I 301 00:14:58,440 --> 00:15:02,480 Speaker 1: am so now I I'm entering my actress era twenty 302 00:15:02,520 --> 00:15:06,040 Speaker 1: twenty three, was entering my social media influencer era twenty 303 00:15:06,080 --> 00:15:08,920 Speaker 1: twenty four. Bethany Frankel, at fifty three years old, is 304 00:15:09,040 --> 00:15:12,960 Speaker 1: entering her actress era. What the actual fuck? Go with 305 00:15:13,040 --> 00:15:27,800 Speaker 1: God and come from a place of yes, I am 306 00:15:28,640 --> 00:15:39,000 Speaker 1: officially over the flexing and posing of luxury handbags more 307 00:15:39,040 --> 00:15:41,920 Speaker 1: than anything else, because we watch reality TV and my 308 00:15:42,000 --> 00:15:43,960 Speaker 1: best friend was saying to me that she was watching 309 00:15:44,000 --> 00:15:48,000 Speaker 1: the Housewives and that the purses are placed on a 310 00:15:48,040 --> 00:15:54,160 Speaker 1: pedestal like that it's like as important as the person, 311 00:15:54,920 --> 00:15:59,360 Speaker 1: meaning you're just showing the flex and in some cases 312 00:15:59,440 --> 00:16:02,040 Speaker 1: they give a underneath of how much the bag is 313 00:16:02,680 --> 00:16:06,720 Speaker 1: and the luxury brands are winning. And I've been thinking 314 00:16:06,720 --> 00:16:09,320 Speaker 1: about this for a really long time. Now. Please understand 315 00:16:09,320 --> 00:16:13,000 Speaker 1: that I am a contradiction in terms because I have 316 00:16:13,240 --> 00:16:17,520 Speaker 1: an outrageous handbag collection and I've always loved handbags, but 317 00:16:17,600 --> 00:16:19,720 Speaker 1: that kind of makes me an expert, Like since I 318 00:16:19,760 --> 00:16:22,880 Speaker 1: was thirteen years old, I've loved handbags, and there is 319 00:16:22,920 --> 00:16:26,200 Speaker 1: a collectibility to certain ones. But anyone who says that 320 00:16:26,920 --> 00:16:30,440 Speaker 1: their an investment is lying to themselves and to their 321 00:16:30,520 --> 00:16:34,680 Speaker 1: husbands or wives or friends. Because if you buy a 322 00:16:34,840 --> 00:16:37,920 Speaker 1: very expensive bag, and let's say it increases in value, 323 00:16:38,360 --> 00:16:40,040 Speaker 1: if you had to sell it, it would have to 324 00:16:40,040 --> 00:16:43,960 Speaker 1: be new inbox or excellent perfect condition, basically never worn 325 00:16:44,000 --> 00:16:46,120 Speaker 1: or never taken out of your house, and then you'd 326 00:16:46,120 --> 00:16:47,800 Speaker 1: have to use somebody or you'd have to use a 327 00:16:47,840 --> 00:16:50,240 Speaker 1: resale site, and they're going to take like thirty percent 328 00:16:50,760 --> 00:16:53,200 Speaker 1: so that bag would have to have increased in value 329 00:16:53,520 --> 00:16:57,920 Speaker 1: thirty five percent, which is very very rare, like doesn't 330 00:16:57,960 --> 00:17:01,240 Speaker 1: happen in order for you to get that money back. 331 00:17:01,480 --> 00:17:06,520 Speaker 1: So while they'll say on social media that Chanel purses 332 00:17:07,440 --> 00:17:11,640 Speaker 1: are thirty percent higher now than they were so many 333 00:17:11,720 --> 00:17:14,119 Speaker 1: years ago, you would have to find a way to 334 00:17:14,200 --> 00:17:16,480 Speaker 1: sell it, and you could sell it on eBay or something, 335 00:17:16,480 --> 00:17:18,320 Speaker 1: but it's not as easy as it sounds, and it 336 00:17:18,320 --> 00:17:21,080 Speaker 1: takes a really long time. So invest in real estate 337 00:17:21,119 --> 00:17:24,840 Speaker 1: and the stock market. But I'm becoming really irritated with 338 00:17:24,960 --> 00:17:28,560 Speaker 1: the flex, Like I see these big luxury brands and 339 00:17:28,600 --> 00:17:31,520 Speaker 1: people going into the stores and flying across the country 340 00:17:31,560 --> 00:17:34,679 Speaker 1: and opening up the boxes and I've done it myself 341 00:17:35,240 --> 00:17:39,520 Speaker 1: and talking about it, and it's just kind of a 342 00:17:39,640 --> 00:17:47,119 Speaker 1: vile flex. And I was recently in Canada and I 343 00:17:47,200 --> 00:17:50,080 Speaker 1: went to this version of like a TJ. Marshall's, and 344 00:17:50,200 --> 00:17:53,119 Speaker 1: I was looking at these bags that were so soft 345 00:17:53,200 --> 00:17:56,840 Speaker 1: in leather and you know, very modern and like black 346 00:17:56,920 --> 00:18:00,840 Speaker 1: on black hardware, and like I said, like leather and 347 00:18:01,200 --> 00:18:04,600 Speaker 1: some of them looking just like the high end brands 348 00:18:04,640 --> 00:18:07,160 Speaker 1: and almost knocking them off, and then some of them 349 00:18:07,200 --> 00:18:10,280 Speaker 1: just having their own original, beautiful design, and I found 350 00:18:10,280 --> 00:18:12,520 Speaker 1: myself saying, why do I keep these bags that have 351 00:18:12,560 --> 00:18:16,879 Speaker 1: these like you know, they're heavy, they're uncomfortable, and I 352 00:18:17,000 --> 00:18:19,480 Speaker 1: keep them in my closet almost as like a status 353 00:18:19,480 --> 00:18:22,479 Speaker 1: symbol because I did buy them, and I think like 354 00:18:22,840 --> 00:18:24,840 Speaker 1: I have to wear them now because I bought them, 355 00:18:25,080 --> 00:18:27,800 Speaker 1: And it becomes this weird responsibility and you're not like 356 00:18:28,000 --> 00:18:30,480 Speaker 1: treating them like just knock around, and then you're like 357 00:18:30,520 --> 00:18:34,480 Speaker 1: a you know, a prisoner to these luxury items and 358 00:18:34,520 --> 00:18:38,360 Speaker 1: it becomes really stupid. So in twenty twenty four, I'm 359 00:18:38,480 --> 00:18:45,200 Speaker 1: entering my reduction I'm gonna say reduction of luxury handbags era. 360 00:18:45,320 --> 00:18:47,840 Speaker 1: And I've always been that way with clothes and even shoes. 361 00:18:47,920 --> 00:18:51,639 Speaker 1: I don't buy shoes. I have really nice shoes for 362 00:18:51,880 --> 00:18:55,000 Speaker 1: years that I just keep, and I buy classic colors, 363 00:18:55,080 --> 00:18:57,680 Speaker 1: like I think they're Sergio Rossi or there are other 364 00:18:57,720 --> 00:19:00,200 Speaker 1: brands where I just buy every color. So I have 365 00:19:00,240 --> 00:19:02,480 Speaker 1: a dress, I'd match it. But I'm not like tricked 366 00:19:02,480 --> 00:19:05,520 Speaker 1: out with most shoes if there's an event. Sometimes, yeah, 367 00:19:06,280 --> 00:19:08,040 Speaker 1: boots I really love and I have a weakness for, 368 00:19:08,440 --> 00:19:11,040 Speaker 1: but by the same token, I have the same boots 369 00:19:11,119 --> 00:19:14,120 Speaker 1: from years ago, and many of them most of them 370 00:19:14,119 --> 00:19:16,880 Speaker 1: I've gotten on sale, so I do wear them forever 371 00:19:16,960 --> 00:19:19,280 Speaker 1: and I do buy well, so there's got to be 372 00:19:19,320 --> 00:19:22,159 Speaker 1: like a dance between it. But the sort of blatant 373 00:19:22,440 --> 00:19:26,480 Speaker 1: flexing of luxury bags is making me sick. And you 374 00:19:26,560 --> 00:19:31,399 Speaker 1: could almost have a home for what several of them costs. 375 00:19:31,400 --> 00:19:37,840 Speaker 1: So I am rethinking the insecurity of having to flex 376 00:19:38,000 --> 00:19:54,400 Speaker 1: the logo. There's a psychology to knowing that someone else 377 00:19:54,400 --> 00:19:58,480 Speaker 1: has told you a logo or a label is okay. 378 00:19:59,040 --> 00:20:02,879 Speaker 1: And there's definitely a show off And like I said, 379 00:20:02,920 --> 00:20:05,720 Speaker 1: flex a superficial flex when someone's wearing like a giant 380 00:20:05,720 --> 00:20:07,879 Speaker 1: brand name across their chest. And I'll always look at 381 00:20:07,880 --> 00:20:10,359 Speaker 1: Pa and say, like, I wonder who makes that shirt, 382 00:20:10,400 --> 00:20:14,640 Speaker 1: Like it's a Ballman or Balenciaga or Gucci, gigantic letters. 383 00:20:15,000 --> 00:20:16,960 Speaker 1: And like I said to Luan years ago when she 384 00:20:17,080 --> 00:20:19,199 Speaker 1: was wearing an Arimez belt and made fun of me 385 00:20:19,920 --> 00:20:23,120 Speaker 1: for driving a skinny girl car, I said, well, you're 386 00:20:23,119 --> 00:20:25,680 Speaker 1: wearing an Airmez belt and she said, yeah, well they're 387 00:20:25,720 --> 00:20:28,920 Speaker 1: not paying me. It's like exactly, they're not paying you, 388 00:20:29,040 --> 00:20:31,800 Speaker 1: So why are you in a billboard for a brand 389 00:20:31,840 --> 00:20:36,240 Speaker 1: with the logo? And so I guess I'm just realizing. Also, 390 00:20:36,480 --> 00:20:39,800 Speaker 1: I bought a bag at this store that had soft 391 00:20:39,880 --> 00:20:43,320 Speaker 1: butter leather and it looked exactly like a Chanel bag 392 00:20:43,320 --> 00:20:45,840 Speaker 1: with the weight of the chain and quilted, and it 393 00:20:45,880 --> 00:20:48,920 Speaker 1: was thirty nine dollars and it was excellent quality. In fact, 394 00:20:48,960 --> 00:20:51,479 Speaker 1: I've had Chanel bags that are not good quality. And 395 00:20:51,520 --> 00:20:55,119 Speaker 1: what it told me was, that's how much they're ripping 396 00:20:55,200 --> 00:20:57,359 Speaker 1: us off, because it costs the same to make this 397 00:20:57,440 --> 00:20:59,400 Speaker 1: bag as it does a Chanel bag. A thirty nine 398 00:20:59,480 --> 00:21:05,240 Speaker 1: dollars is being charged as a six to nine thousand 399 00:21:05,200 --> 00:21:08,439 Speaker 1: dollars bag, not even exaggeration. The markup is assounding. They 400 00:21:08,440 --> 00:21:11,080 Speaker 1: would die if we found out. And that's why they 401 00:21:11,080 --> 00:21:13,760 Speaker 1: can make these knockoff bags for like forty dollars, because 402 00:21:13,760 --> 00:21:16,640 Speaker 1: that's how much they actually cost to make. And Chanelle's 403 00:21:16,680 --> 00:21:20,520 Speaker 1: doing massive volumes, so they get a volume discount, and 404 00:21:21,080 --> 00:21:23,640 Speaker 1: that's how they have the flagship stores, and that's how 405 00:21:23,640 --> 00:21:25,920 Speaker 1: they're a multi billion dollar company. So I don't know 406 00:21:25,960 --> 00:21:28,000 Speaker 1: that I want to be fully part of that anymore. 407 00:21:28,560 --> 00:21:30,560 Speaker 1: I don't want to pay their rent. I want to 408 00:21:30,560 --> 00:21:35,080 Speaker 1: have a nice, functional, good looking piece, but not feel 409 00:21:35,119 --> 00:21:37,560 Speaker 1: like a fucking schmuck, which is kind of where I've 410 00:21:37,560 --> 00:21:39,960 Speaker 1: gotten with it. So more on this and I hope 411 00:21:39,960 --> 00:21:43,120 Speaker 1: I really stick to it or really can show how 412 00:21:43,160 --> 00:21:45,600 Speaker 1: amazing I can look without spending money. I did a 413 00:21:45,600 --> 00:21:49,439 Speaker 1: review on a Bataga bag last year that was went viral, 414 00:21:49,680 --> 00:21:52,080 Speaker 1: and it was a six thousand dollars bag that they 415 00:21:52,119 --> 00:21:54,560 Speaker 1: were saying was the new IT bag, and Kylie Jenner 416 00:21:54,600 --> 00:21:56,000 Speaker 1: said it was the new it bag, and it felt 417 00:21:56,000 --> 00:21:57,439 Speaker 1: like people were being paid to say it was the 418 00:21:57,480 --> 00:22:00,800 Speaker 1: new IT bag. And I bought it and it felt 419 00:22:00,840 --> 00:22:04,760 Speaker 1: like a cheap, leather nothing bag. It wasn't substantial, it 420 00:22:04,760 --> 00:22:07,439 Speaker 1: didn't feel soft. I was I went crazy. I was 421 00:22:07,480 --> 00:22:10,880 Speaker 1: so frustrated by it was trash. And I found something 422 00:22:10,960 --> 00:22:14,760 Speaker 1: at Winners in Canada, which is like their TJ Max, 423 00:22:15,160 --> 00:22:19,199 Speaker 1: that was forty nine dollars that was better quality. And 424 00:22:19,240 --> 00:22:22,000 Speaker 1: I know I will not tell you the amount of 425 00:22:22,000 --> 00:22:24,600 Speaker 1: money I have in bags, or that I've spent on 426 00:22:24,640 --> 00:22:26,560 Speaker 1: bags that has been gifted to me in bags by 427 00:22:26,640 --> 00:22:29,040 Speaker 1: people I've been in relationships with. I won't even because 428 00:22:29,040 --> 00:22:32,040 Speaker 1: it would be disgusting, But I will tell you that 429 00:22:32,280 --> 00:22:39,600 Speaker 1: because of that, I know I intimately know the makings 430 00:22:39,800 --> 00:22:44,120 Speaker 1: of a Chanel bag. Airmez does make elite bags there 431 00:22:44,160 --> 00:22:47,000 Speaker 1: made very well, but Arimez will charge fifty thousand dollars 432 00:22:47,000 --> 00:22:49,520 Speaker 1: for a bag, or twenty thousand or fifteen thousand dollars 433 00:22:49,560 --> 00:22:51,720 Speaker 1: for a bag, so like it better fucking be nice. 434 00:22:51,760 --> 00:22:53,920 Speaker 1: I mean, let's just say that'll last you for the 435 00:22:53,960 --> 00:22:55,680 Speaker 1: rest of your life. But there are bags that you 436 00:22:55,680 --> 00:23:01,280 Speaker 1: would get from TJ Max, Coach, Tory Birch or on 437 00:23:01,359 --> 00:23:02,960 Speaker 1: the street that would last you for the rest of 438 00:23:03,040 --> 00:23:04,760 Speaker 1: your life too, so that's a bit of a scam too. 439 00:23:04,960 --> 00:23:07,080 Speaker 1: So anyway, let's talk more about this because I think 440 00:23:07,080 --> 00:23:08,200 Speaker 1: it's an interesting discussion.