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Speaker 1: Dear listener, before we start, we do mention suicide in

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Speaker 2: Okay, hold this side again. Okay, I'm going to do

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Speaker 2: the meddle now, Okay.

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Speaker 1: Okay, this, dear listener is the sound of me getting

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Speaker 1: my eyebrows done. I know, I know you're like, what

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Speaker 1: what we do for beauty?

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Speaker 2: Right? Right?

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Speaker 1: The thing is, this is where the story first began

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Speaker 1: with me and Lisbeth. Thank God for threatening, because that's

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Speaker 1: how I met you.

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Speaker 2: Right oky, you can bring your hand down.

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Speaker 1: I met Lisbeth about two years ago when she was

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Speaker 1: just nineteen years old. She was working as a brow

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Speaker 1: technician on the posh Upper West Side of Manhattan. And

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Speaker 1: at the time, Lisbeth, who's Dominican, was a new mom.

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Speaker 1: Her baby girl was only six months old. And I

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Speaker 1: remember the first time she threaded my eyebrows and that

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Speaker 1: we immediately clicked. We bonded over our love of Dominican culture.

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Speaker 1: We were talking about music, food, you know, all of it,

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Speaker 1: and well, I do love meeting young Latinas who are

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Speaker 1: tough New Yorkers, and that is Lisbeth. Hair already okay, good, yeah,

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Speaker 1: I get comfortable, are you okay? Yeah, Today's interview is

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Speaker 1: just for audio for radio, right, But Liz Beth has

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Speaker 1: her bling. She says. Her outfit is her low effort

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Speaker 1: single mom. Look, it's a cozy matching sweatsuit. Oh hello,

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Speaker 1: you know pumpkin.

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Speaker 2: Hi.

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Speaker 1: And as we're getting ready to record our conversation in

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Speaker 1: the studio, Lisbeth pulls out her phone and shows me

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Speaker 1: photos and videos of her now to an a half

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Speaker 2: Oh look, this was the video of her hair.

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Speaker 1: My god, is she adorable?

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Speaker 2: Yeah? She called her grandpa life. But Paul, look at

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Speaker 1: And you know me, dear, letting know Usay, listener, you

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Speaker 1: know that I love to start conversations with people wherever

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Speaker 1: I go, and I like to get deep. So two

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Speaker 1: years ago, there I was telling my brow technician, who

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Speaker 1: I had just met, that I had come back recently

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Speaker 1: from reporting in Uvaldi, Texas, that I was feeling all

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Speaker 1: of this stress and pain and trauma from talking to

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Speaker 1: folks who lost loved ones in that tragic mass shooting

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Speaker 1: in Uvaldi. And when I was telling her this story,

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Speaker 1: I noticed a serious change in these bets face. And

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Speaker 2: Like every time, I'm just like dang, only twenty one

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Speaker 1: Because just weeks after Lisbeth's daughter was born in twenty

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Speaker 1: time is when lis Beth gets shot on a street

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Speaker 1: enough to have Lizbeth come on and share her story

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Speaker 1: of all of this is that Lisbeth owes her survival

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Speaker 1: in large part to a very traditional Latina postpartum staple,

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Speaker 1: which is la faja or a girdle from Fudromedia and PRX.

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Speaker 1: It's Latino Usa. I'm Maria in no Josa, and today

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Speaker 1: we hear about a young Latina mom's journey of healing

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Speaker 1: there's little support for either, and also we'll talk all

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Speaker 1: about La Faja. Now. I had heard snippets of Lisbeth's

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Speaker 2: It was like eight thirty one. I got off work.

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Speaker 2: My daughter's dad have picked me up from work, and

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Speaker 2: we have went back uptown to Harlem, where my parents were.

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Speaker 1: Lisbeth grew up on the same street as her best friend,

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Speaker 1: Angelia or Angie for short, and all of this is

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Speaker 1: But this time, in November of twenty twenty two, the

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Speaker 2: Then I see this guy come in a pink bike,

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Speaker 1: The guy on the pink bike was a friend of Angie's,

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Speaker 1: our interview, But right when Lizabeth mentions this young man,

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Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, because you're you're actually telling this story like

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Speaker 1: My sense is that you've been thinking about this interview

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Speaker 1: for a while. Yeah, Am I right? Yes, it's not like, oh,

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Speaker 1: It's okay, I asked lisbith if she wants to stop

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Speaker 1: let's keep going. She wants to keep talking about that

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Speaker 1: The men started shooting towards her direction. They were targeting

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Speaker 2: At first, I was like, did I get shot? Is

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Speaker 2: this is not a shot. My blood was like boiling inside.

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Speaker 1: Lizabeth had been shot. She had four gunshot wounds, one

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Speaker 2: We were there for about forty minutes. I'm sorry what

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Speaker 1: Four zero minutes.

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Speaker 2: Yes, in Manhattan, So the hospital and the precinct were

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Speaker 2: And when the police officers finally got there, they walked

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Speaker 1: Oh my god. These beds didn't bleed out, and that's

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Speaker 2: I had a faha which is a waist strainer, because

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Speaker 2: I was two months postpartum. You know, I was just

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Speaker 2: Once I get in the ambulance, they're like ripping my

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Speaker 2: fah on and everybody's like, what is that, and she's like, well,

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Speaker 1: So you're smiling, no, now you're now you're smiling.

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Speaker 1: Of course I knew all about these facs. I mean,

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Speaker 2: a what's those things with a bulletproof vest?

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Speaker 1: When we come back these, Beth explains the daily consequences

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Speaker 1: Stay with us, Yes, Hey, we're back. So Whendy's Beth

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Speaker 1: it's a girdle, and it literally saved her life.

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Speaker 2: If I would have known that my faha would have

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Speaker 1: I mean, you would have having a different kind of conversation.

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Speaker 2: You know. But no, like I was really scared, and

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Speaker 2: I wasn't even thinking about myself. Everyone that touched me

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Speaker 2: only two months. I haven't even experienced her that long.

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Speaker 1: Also, because you're not wearing the fa anymore.

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Speaker 2: You know, It's so funny because after I had gotten shot,

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Speaker 1: Please, that is your bullet yes, and you're proud.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm like, listen, I'm very proud if it was me.

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Speaker 2: I'll swing this up baha all through because oh my God,

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