Speaker 1: This is Conversations with Olivia Jade and I Heart Radio podcast.
Speaker 1: Hello everybody, welcome back to another episode of Conversations. I
Speaker 1: am your host, Olivia Jade. I start my podcast at
Speaker 1: the same time every single time. Because did I just
Speaker 1: say the same time every single time? I meant the
Speaker 1: same way every single time? Um, because I don't know
Speaker 1: how else to intro this, But today I have a
Speaker 1: very special guest and it is a person that has
Speaker 1: been on the podcast already. If you follow me on Instagram,
Speaker 1: you are aware who's on the podcast today. And drumroll please,
Speaker 1: it's my sister Vella. Hi. Hey, alright, So today we
Speaker 1: decided we are going to do a sister Q and A. Basically,
Speaker 1: I asked on my Instagram if people had questions or
Speaker 1: need advice. I don't know if for a quality fight
Speaker 1: to give any advice, but I think throughout the years
Speaker 1: we've learned a lot through just growing up and being
Speaker 1: so close to one another that we thought this would
Speaker 1: be a really fun episode. And you guys loved when
Speaker 1: she was on last time. So running it back, here
Speaker 1: we go again, and I think let's just jump right
Speaker 1: into it. Sound good, sounds good? Um, So we got
Speaker 1: a lot of questions on my Instagram. Bella is looking
Speaker 1: through them right now, and you want to kind of
Speaker 1: pick them since you're the guest. I saw a lot
Speaker 1: of similar ones, a lot about like growing up with
Speaker 1: famous parents, a lot of guy advice, a lot of um,
Speaker 1: just general questions about stuff we've been through. That's obviously
Speaker 1: been very part of my favorite question. There's one question.
Speaker 1: I guess we'll start with it because we were laughing
Speaker 1: pretty hard about it yesterday. It said, um, how did
Speaker 1: you two meet? Do you want to answer that? I
Speaker 1: just thought that question just needed to be highlighted because
Speaker 1: we're met because we have the same mom and dad.
Speaker 1: You know, you know fun fact the stork flew and
Speaker 1: dropped me off, and then a year later the store
Speaker 1: came in and dropped Livia off, and then my mom
Speaker 1: and I got really lucky. Really um no, but when
Speaker 1: I was first, or when mom first told you that
Speaker 1: she was having another one, didn't you say like you
Speaker 1: didn't want me? Oh? No? And Mom, when we were
Speaker 1: a little mom um, it was like right after she
Speaker 1: had you, you were probably a year and I was
Speaker 1: probably two years old, and she came to me and
Speaker 1: she's like, well, do you want another little sister, And
Speaker 1: I just looked at her and I went, no, no more.
Speaker 1: Also when we were kids. Also when we were kids,
Speaker 1: I was like mute because Bella would Bello would speak
Speaker 1: for me, so she'd be like, I'll have I'll have
Speaker 1: a glass of milk, and Olivia will have one too.
Speaker 1: So I really didn't have any uh need to speak
Speaker 1: when I was a kid because she did it for me,
Speaker 1: which I think is ironic because I would say, out
Speaker 1: of the two of us, you're more shy than I am,
Speaker 1: for sure, but you to this day have like weird
Speaker 1: issues like will you call and do this instead? No?
Speaker 1: Do you know why I do that, Bella? Because I
Speaker 1: think you need to work on speaking and talking to
Speaker 1: people and not making me do it all the time.
Speaker 1: That's why I do that. So I make you call
Speaker 1: because I always call on my own, though now you don't.
Speaker 1: If I'm alone, I will call. What do you mean? Okay?
Speaker 1: This we're talking about the fact that if any time
Speaker 1: there's like an appointment or something that needs to be scheduled,
Speaker 1: I'll be like, Bella, you have to call and cancel
Speaker 1: something or go up to that person and ask about this.
Speaker 1: Because I feel like, I'm the one that always does it,
Speaker 1: but maybe I'm wrong. I just thought you've been doing
Speaker 1: that this entire time because you're lazy. No, let's start
Speaker 1: with one that was probably the most asked, which is
Speaker 1: what was it like growing up with mom and dad
Speaker 1: having famous parents? At what age should we realize our
Speaker 1: parents were famous? But I feel like, for me when
Speaker 1: I was reading this question, I never even really knew
Speaker 1: that we had famous parents, Like I thought, maybe because
Speaker 1: growing up in l A. There's a lot of actors, actresses, celebrities,
Speaker 1: a lot of our friends parents have similar jobs. So
Speaker 1: I feel like we didn't really I think it was
Speaker 1: that weird or different. Did you know? Not at all?
Speaker 1: I don't. Yeah, I don't think you realize it. I
Speaker 1: don't know, not thinking about it because I never even
Speaker 1: to this day, I'm not like, it's not the first,
Speaker 1: it's not only the forefront of my mind. Does that
Speaker 1: make sense? So I'm never thinking like, oh, yes, my
Speaker 1: parents are famous. It's just those are your parents, those
Speaker 1: are their jobs. There's not much more to it than
Speaker 1: what it is, like baseline, I don't think there's ever
Speaker 1: been a time where we're like, oh, the life was famous. Well,
Speaker 1: well maybe recently we felt that way, but prior to that,
Speaker 1: especially growing up, Mom was so low key. Yeah you
Speaker 1: know what, though you want to know a funny story,
Speaker 1: our mom would literally downplay. I didn't think Full House
Speaker 1: was a big show at all in my entire childhood.
Speaker 1: I never thought it was a popular show. I thought
Speaker 1: she was some like. She kind of always made herself
Speaker 1: seem like she was just some like she's she but
Speaker 1: she doesn't really, She's not like crazy, she doesn't do
Speaker 1: that do that much. Do I think she's been It
Speaker 1: has been that popular? And I think she did that
Speaker 1: because I mean, ay, we were so young when she
Speaker 1: was well we were not born when she was on
Speaker 1: full House, but we were so young when she was
Speaker 1: on like nine to No, and then um like her
Speaker 1: full House reunions were not in the like on screen,
Speaker 1: but just like personal reunions and stuff. I never realized
Speaker 1: how big the show was until Fuller House was coming
Speaker 1: out and I saw on YouTube because I could really
Speaker 1: understand YouTube at that time. It was like right when
Speaker 1: I started my channel and I saw the amount of
Speaker 1: views the trailer had, and I like called mom and
Speaker 1: I was like, uh, do you want to explain to me,
Speaker 1: why the fuller House trailer has I think I had
Speaker 1: like over thirteen million views or something that I thought
Speaker 1: was just absolutely insane, and she was just laughing and
Speaker 1: we still talked about that. I'm like, okay, I found
Speaker 1: a really late full House was a big show because
Speaker 1: we never watched it growing up. I actually watched recently
Speaker 1: the first episode of full House that mom was in
Speaker 1: because I just wanted to see her. She's so cute,
Speaker 1: I was, She's so dying, she's so young, so beautiful. Um, okay,
Speaker 1: So I guess the Sorry for the tangent answer, I think, yeah,
Speaker 1: I guess. All in all, what it's like is uh,
Speaker 1: we personally didn't really think it was that different because
Speaker 1: I think our parents tried to downplay it. Also, even
Speaker 1: it's not downplay. Moms just such a humble person. Sorry,
Speaker 1: didn't mean to cut you off, but she's just so humble.
Speaker 1: She's never talked about her work like we were. Recently,
Speaker 1: she was telling us a few stories from like the
Speaker 1: full House days, which is what thirty something years ago,
Speaker 1: and me and lives. She called me afterwards and was
Speaker 1: like she never like, we don't know anything about those
Speaker 1: And it was ten years of her life, those ten
Speaker 1: years of her life, because she's just very quiet about
Speaker 1: it and doesn't shove it in your face or down
Speaker 1: your throat. She just did it. And then yeah, that's
Speaker 1: she works in silence, which I think there's something to
Speaker 1: be said for that in general. This is a really
Speaker 1: funny question. Do you and Bella have dance battles to
Speaker 1: your previous performances on Dancing with the Stars? I can't dance. Also,
Speaker 1: can you imagine if I like turned on the TV
Speaker 1: and you're like, my tango, let's go. He hurt you
Speaker 1: if I like force you to do it? So funny?
Speaker 1: Uh No, we have not done that. We have dance
Speaker 1: parties to music, but not to Olivia's Dancing with the
Speaker 1: Stars performances. We do have a lot of dance parties though.
Speaker 1: That's like a thing I feel like I remember my
Speaker 1: childhood was that if it was us to our parents,
Speaker 1: sometimes our brother would be there, sometimes he wouldn't, but
Speaker 1: we'd really throw down in the kitchen and have some
Speaker 1: fun dance parties. What is a favorite childhood memory? Is
Speaker 1: it weird that I just don't remember anything ever anymore
Speaker 1: in my life? Um, I'm sure I could come up
Speaker 1: with one. Do you were the spider in the Santa
Speaker 1: Monica house? No, okay, because I'm I don't know if
Speaker 1: I dreamt the swan up or if this was a
Speaker 1: real story. But you were there? Remember the swings that
Speaker 1: we had? Oh my god, you didn't dream that we
Speaker 1: had a like a little play structure outside in her
Speaker 1: backyard when we were probably like two years old, three
Speaker 1: years old and older than that, five whatever, And I
Speaker 1: just remember on the swings there was like a huge
Speaker 1: as spider that would always stare at you know. Also
Speaker 1: in that house, I almost lit it on fire. Let
Speaker 1: me tell that story. It's not a favorite childhood memory
Speaker 1: by any means, but I did almost light my house
Speaker 1: on fire when I was probably four years old. Um,
Speaker 1: somebody had lit a candle and left it in the
Speaker 1: laundry room. And I remember we had gone swimming, and
Speaker 1: I belieaking mistake, rookie mistake, and I believe our parents
Speaker 1: were taking us to Disneyland dinner. Why would be going
Speaker 1: Disney End at night? I don't recall it being at night.
Speaker 1: Why would you have thrown a towel in that room?
Speaker 1: I think we were swimming. Why would we be swimming
Speaker 1: because we were four What four year olds don't swim
Speaker 1: at all times of the day. There was no like electronics.
Speaker 1: We weren't allowed to watch TV during the week. I
Speaker 1: think I was swimming in the pool anyway, how I
Speaker 1: recall as I was swimming in the pool, I was
Speaker 1: swimming in the pool. I got out. I put my
Speaker 1: towel in the laundry room like a very good four
Speaker 1: year old, very well behaved. And I am four, so
Speaker 1: I didn't know that candle would light it on fire.
Speaker 1: So I threw it over the candle. And I think
Speaker 1: you just threw it in the laundroom. I don't think
Speaker 1: you purposely were like a cattle. Don't. No, you're right,
Speaker 1: I just threw it on the counter. Anyway, We were
Speaker 1: all leaving the house and then my mom forgot something,
Speaker 1: so she like turned around to go back inside the
Speaker 1: has to go grab it, and she smelled fire and
Speaker 1: followed the smell, and the laundry room was lit up.
Speaker 1: So I think I have one of my favorite childhood memories. Friend,
Speaker 1: I just thought about I don't even know if it's
Speaker 1: a favorite, but it's one of the only, not only
Speaker 1: things I can remember. But something I do remember is
Speaker 1: when Mom took us to the High School Musical two premiere,
Speaker 1: which was a lit um when they she took us
Speaker 1: to Disneyland during the day of the premiere because she's
Speaker 1: the coolest mom ever. And then it was the second
Speaker 1: movie and they did it in like the Disney California
Speaker 1: Adventure Hotel is where the premiere was, and I remember
Speaker 1: we went, we swatched the movie and we were I
Speaker 1: don't know why this is a part of the memory
Speaker 1: that sticks out of my head, but remember in the
Speaker 1: actual movie of High School Musical when Sharpe is doing
Speaker 1: her like fabulous number, there's the swimming people in the
Speaker 1: pool doing like water aerobics. I just remember walking like
Speaker 1: over a bridge with Mom and you, and like I
Speaker 1: looked in the pool and these like people were doing
Speaker 1: like men and women were doing like water aerobics, and
Speaker 1: I was like, this is the coolest party I've ever
Speaker 1: been to. They actually did throw it down pretty cool parties.
Speaker 1: Oh this is a really good question. Actually I saw
Speaker 1: this earlier. It says this girl that asked the question
Speaker 1: also has a sister, and she said, do you guys
Speaker 1: ever compare yourself to one another? And and then she
Speaker 1: followed up by saying like sometimes she gets really jealous
Speaker 1: of her sister and she doesn't know how to like
Speaker 1: not compare herself or feel jealous. That is a really
Speaker 1: good question. Do you want to take it away? I
Speaker 1: will because I remember in high school, like I would
Speaker 1: go to mom and like cry because I'd be I
Speaker 1: was in my sophomore year probably, and I think you
Speaker 1: were a freshman, and we were. I was hanging out
Speaker 1: with a group of boys who were like juniorism. I
Speaker 1: thought I was. I wasn't, And they'd always be like,
Speaker 1: where's your sister, where's your sister? Where's your sister? And
Speaker 1: I would go home to Mom and I would cry,
Speaker 1: and I'd be like why do they always have to
Speaker 1: ask me where she is? Like am I not enough?
Speaker 1: And Mom was like no, Like it's just like whatever
Speaker 1: Mom's sweet reasoning and advice was. But it's funny because
Speaker 1: I used to compare myself to you, but I was
Speaker 1: never jealous of you. Does that make sense? So like
Speaker 1: I used to beat myself up about it, but I was.
Speaker 1: It was never in a way where I was. There's
Speaker 1: any like militias, not even that jealousy is like a
Speaker 1: malicious thing, but there was never any and it can,
Speaker 1: and it can ruin relationships too. But I never was jealous.
Speaker 1: I was just sad. That's really sad. I actually don't
Speaker 1: even know that. Oh really, sorry to hear that. It's
Speaker 1: wear them boys now losers, long gone, long gone. Um,
Speaker 1: you know, I actually did not know that. I think
Speaker 1: for me, I compare well. I actually have a really
Speaker 1: memorable story. And Mom was taking us to a premiere
Speaker 1: and we it was I think The Old Dogs from
Speaker 1: Me or something, or maybe it was like a high
Speaker 1: school musical esque thing. Anyway, you wore you wore a
Speaker 1: vest and they curled your hair. Bella walks out in
Speaker 1: this like pin striped vest and dad made, by the way,
Speaker 1: it was like a moss noble and her hair was curly,
Speaker 1: like super curly. You should look up this photo online somewhere. Anyway,
Speaker 1: Bella walks down the stairs and this little vest and
Speaker 1: curly hair, and I remember looking at her and just
Speaker 1: being like you, I hate your hair, like that's so ugly,
Speaker 1: you're so ugly, or something like that. We were like
Speaker 1: probably nine, I was nine or eight years old. You're jealous,
Speaker 1: so yeah, we're looking at the shot of me. Yeah,
Speaker 1: you were in the vest. If this goes on social
Speaker 1: you guys can see this is what I hated Bella for.
Speaker 1: She had curly hair and it's just look at your hair,
Speaker 1: that's really embarrassing. But she had her hair was pinned
Speaker 1: back like that. Anyway, I just remember looking at her
Speaker 1: and think she was the most beautiful, stunning little girl
Speaker 1: ever that looked so good going to this premiere and
Speaker 1: I was so insecure about how they did my hair,
Speaker 1: and I hated my outfit and I remember bullying you
Speaker 1: because I was I was so jealous. So anyway, circling back,
Speaker 1: Obviously I was a child when we did that. I
Speaker 1: would never do that now. But I do think that
Speaker 1: jealousy is a real thing, and comparing yourself to a sister,
Speaker 1: especially when you're so close an age, is uh, super normal.
Speaker 1: But what I will say, and I know this sounds
Speaker 1: very cheesy, but I do think it's important. You have
Speaker 1: to remember that there's really only one of you, and
Speaker 1: also your sister should be like well, hopefully if you
Speaker 1: have a nice relationship, it's like you're built and best friend.
Speaker 1: And uh, jealousy can create so much animosity and like
Speaker 1: ugly feelings towards no matter what the relationship is, but
Speaker 1: especially with sisters, it's somebody that you know, ride or die,
Speaker 1: has your back. So it's kind of just in my opinion,
Speaker 1: I think I learned later in life, like what a
Speaker 1: waste of energy to be jealous of my own blood
Speaker 1: because I'm special in my way, she's specially on her
Speaker 1: way and we're best friends. You know, I'm with you
Speaker 1: on that. It was other There was another part of
Speaker 1: that question. She just said that, um, how do you
Speaker 1: not compare yourself because she compares herself to her sister
Speaker 1: a lot. Oh that was the whole question. Well, well,
Speaker 1: however old you are, I feel like I learned, Um,
Speaker 1: I probably stopped comparing myself when I was honestly, when
Speaker 1: I went away to college. I think because there was
Speaker 1: like enough separation between the two of us where no
Speaker 1: one knew you at that point. And I think it's
Speaker 1: what Olivia just said that you have to remember, is
Speaker 1: like that, at the end of the day, is your
Speaker 1: sibling and you're going to have traits that not outweighed
Speaker 1: there's but like you're gonna have your own traits that
Speaker 1: are special to you and only to you, and those
Speaker 1: are the things that you guys have to celebrate within
Speaker 1: each other rather than feel like, oh, because they're funnier
Speaker 1: than me than blah blah blah, whatever it is. You
Speaker 1: just have to celebrate the good things in your siblings
Speaker 1: because you're lucky that your sibling is that way and
Speaker 1: that cool, and it's kind of great. If you get
Speaker 1: to be jealous of your sibling, that means they've got
Speaker 1: something going on and you should be proud of your
Speaker 1: sibling for that rather than jealous. So just like switch
Speaker 1: the mindset of instead of feeling like you don't have it,
Speaker 1: just realized they have something that's really special. Yeah, agreed, period.
Speaker 1: The biggest fight we've ever gotten in. This was a
Speaker 1: really popular question for some reason. But I can't I
Speaker 1: was gonna ask you because I literally can't remember ever
Speaker 1: a huge fight we've been in. Um milw Yeah, I
Speaker 1: guess when we got our dog, I was really um.
Speaker 1: I just didn't really help Bella take care of him
Speaker 1: that much. Well, I would have him. That actually sounds
Speaker 1: really bad, like when I don't know, when he was
Speaker 1: with me, I would take great care of him. I
Speaker 1: always took care of him. You just it was there
Speaker 1: was also just a lot of factors. It wasn't only
Speaker 1: you per se that was keeping you from taking Milow.
Speaker 1: I'm not going to put details in here, but there
Speaker 1: was a lot of different factors, and I was getting
Speaker 1: annoyed because I was like, man up, stand up for yourself,
Speaker 1: please and take care of her dog, and you weren't. Yeah,
Speaker 1: like that was like my main point in my therapy
Speaker 1: sessions to my sister is so mean to me about
Speaker 1: my dog and mine in therapy, Like my sister won't
Speaker 1: take care of my dog. You have a responsibility and
Speaker 1: she want to take care of the dog with me. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I told Bella, I'm trying my best. Um. At one
Speaker 1: point you texted me along paragraph ing like fine, I'll
Speaker 1: let you have him. Well, no, that's not what happened, liar.
Speaker 1: What happened was is you said, either you need to
Speaker 1: let me have him full time, or you need to
Speaker 1: start doing week on, week off like we had planned
Speaker 1: because we we got our dog when we lived together,
Speaker 1: and then we moved apart, and so then we were
Speaker 1: like divorced parents doing a week on, week off and
Speaker 1: he was like her child. And then I just would
Speaker 1: really leave Bellow with most of the responsibility for most
Speaker 1: of the time, and um, and then she was like,
Speaker 1: you either need to need to do your part or
Speaker 1: give him to me, and so I took her back
Speaker 1: and fine, you can have him full time. You're right,
Speaker 1: he's too much work for me. And then I was like, wait,
Speaker 1: I totally take that back. You definitely still have to
Speaker 1: take care of when we signed up for this dog together,
Speaker 1: and that's that. What is your favorite qualities about each other?
Speaker 1: Or what do we I guess like it says, describe
Speaker 1: each other's personalities. And then another question was what are
Speaker 1: each other's favorite qualities? But I kind of like describe
Speaker 1: each other's personalities because we know each other so well. Oh,
Speaker 1: thank you, I've nothing good to say about you, Okay,
Speaker 1: describe my personality. I'm curious. Okay, I think you're super sarcastic.
Speaker 1: I think you're sensitive, and I would say super sweet.
Speaker 1: I also think you're really smart. I think you're creative,
Speaker 1: and I think that you know how to have a
Speaker 1: good time. Thank you, You're welcome. Can you do mine? Yeah,
Speaker 1: describe your personality or just qualities about you? I guess
Speaker 1: I feel like it's the same kind of I guess personality.
Speaker 1: I guess I didn't describe your personality like a personality
Speaker 1: is well, I would say you're sarcastic. That's definitely a
Speaker 1: huge part of your personality. And I guess I did
Speaker 1: sensitive sweet Yeah. And then a good quality that I
Speaker 1: like value is you're always down to have a good time.
Speaker 1: Sometimes I actually that's not true. Sometimes you're not. Sometimes
Speaker 1: I'm left You're you're always down to have a good time,
Speaker 1: which I admire. I'm just not that kind of person. Yeah,
Speaker 1: but um, let's think you're what what does Olivia Olivia
Speaker 1: Jade's personality? I think you're super down to earth, thanks,
Speaker 1: you give phenomenal advice, you are wise beyond your years.
Speaker 1: You're fucking hilarious when you're not trying to be. She
Speaker 1: makes the best dumplings of all time. Um, that's on
Speaker 1: a personality trade. I just had to for um what else?
Speaker 1: I think you're humble, and I think you're really strong
Speaker 1: and brave. Thanks be. And that's my favorite quality. What
Speaker 1: is that you're strong and wave? Thank you? Um. Somebody
Speaker 1: said who is your go to person when you need
Speaker 1: advice besides each other? And I would say my mom, Mommy,
Speaker 1: she has such good advice, and my grandma, my mom's
Speaker 1: honestly nanny has great advice advice. One really funny story
Speaker 1: actually about my grandma. When I was in seventh grade,
Speaker 1: our mom was going to a Broadway show and she
Speaker 1: took us to New York with her. But I think
Speaker 1: it was like a little bit mature because she went.
Speaker 1: I think she just went with like Stamos or somebody,
Speaker 1: and I give Stamos the show. Oh it was like
Speaker 1: bye by Bertie or something. Right, No, we went to
Speaker 1: that a phenomenal, phenomenal musical. It was like some like
Speaker 1: politician play he did. It wasn't a musical. Well, anyway,
Speaker 1: she goes to this play and she left us at
Speaker 1: the hotel with her grandma And I was had a
Speaker 1: big crush on this boy and I was in seventh
Speaker 1: grade and he did not like me at all. And
Speaker 1: then I was texting him. My grandma was telling me
Speaker 1: what to text this boy. By the end of the conversation,
Speaker 1: he was like, I have the biggest crush on you,
Speaker 1: And I was so thrown off because I knew he
Speaker 1: never liked me. So I don't remember what she's a master.
Speaker 1: I don't know what the cons they both have. I
Speaker 1: think is nanny has such good advice that like got
Speaker 1: passed down to mom. So I think we'll give good
Speaker 1: advice to our kids. I hope. I feel like I'm
Speaker 1: the type of friend that all my friends come to
Speaker 1: for advice. And I don't even mean that, and like, wait,
Speaker 1: but I said that your wise beyond your years and
Speaker 1: you give great advice. Um. See, that would be something
Speaker 1: that some siblings would be jealous of that I'm wise. No,
Speaker 1: like you know, like I don't know I give advice
Speaker 1: that you're good at giving advice. I was just trying
Speaker 1: to point out, like comparison, Yeah, and that's something you
Speaker 1: can celebrate your sibling for rather than not. This one
Speaker 1: says who gives better advice? But I think our advice
Speaker 1: is always different. I think our advice is I just
Speaker 1: think you and I are so different, even in the
Speaker 1: way that we think our advice is so different. But
Speaker 1: I think we both give good advice to a certain degree. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I think that you give more straight up advice. Yeah,
Speaker 1: like I don't dance around something. I'll just say it
Speaker 1: as it is. And I think you're more gentle when
Speaker 1: you give advice. Yeah, so I think we're both I
Speaker 1: think we both have good advice. I also think it's
Speaker 1: super depend didn't want a situation. Um, and what we're
Speaker 1: talking about, is there anything in your life that's holding
Speaker 1: you back right now. I was talking about this with
Speaker 1: my friend yesterday that I think my brain is something
Speaker 1: that constantly holds me back. I don't know if you
Speaker 1: feel the same way, but the anxieties and stuff that
Speaker 1: come up with things you're doing in the future, it
Speaker 1: almost makes you not want to put in as much
Speaker 1: effort or as hard of work as you can, because
Speaker 1: if you this might just be my own thing. But
Speaker 1: if I don't put in every single like drop of effort,
Speaker 1: if I don't get like good feedback necessarily then and
Speaker 1: if it's like okay feedback, I'm like, okay, I didn't
Speaker 1: put that much effort into it. And I think that's
Speaker 1: what holds me back is the fact that I'm scared
Speaker 1: to do it and still get a negative response to it.
Speaker 1: So you fear rejection. No, it's not rejection, it's criticism.
Speaker 1: Oh interesting, Yeah, from anything, Like I swear to have
Speaker 1: the reason, like it's really hard for me to work
Speaker 1: out because I'm like, well, if I don't work out
Speaker 1: and I don't lose weight, like we're good, you know,
Speaker 1: it's like a weird loop that goes on in my head.
Speaker 1: That's so interesting. I think that I don't have that
Speaker 1: as much. I think there are definitely things that get
Speaker 1: in the way of what I want to do, but
Speaker 1: it's not so much my brain. I think it's just
Speaker 1: the situation I'm in, not that i'm in. I'm I
Speaker 1: have a very blessed life. I don't want that to
Speaker 1: be construed incorrectly. And the point of what I'm saying
Speaker 1: is that with everything that happened in the last few
Speaker 1: years and just being in the media in a negative way,
Speaker 1: I think that I feel held back, like everybody hates
Speaker 1: me and nobody wants to work with me, and brands
Speaker 1: think I'm like hazard, You're not a hazard and anyway,
Speaker 1: So yeah, I think that's what holds me back, just
Speaker 1: because I feel so I just feel so like I
Speaker 1: just I feel like everybody thinks I'm like a terrible person.
Speaker 1: And um, I don't even say that for like pity.
Speaker 1: I don't deserve pity in any sense of the word.
Speaker 1: I just think that For instance, recently I would is um,
Speaker 1: I think I got to talk about this. I was
Speaker 1: invited to an event like a beauty event and I
Speaker 1: was so excited about it because it was right after
Speaker 1: Dancing with Stars. I hadn't been invited to like really
Speaker 1: a beauty event in so long, and I was just
Speaker 1: looking forward to it. I thought like, oh my gosh,
Speaker 1: a brand wants to work with me again or just
Speaker 1: have me there, and like they're not embarrassed about me
Speaker 1: being there. I think it's going to ruin their brand whatever.
Speaker 1: And I kind of hadn't heard from this brand throughout
Speaker 1: the week, and we were supposed to have like COVID
Speaker 1: test sent to the house and all this stuff. And
Speaker 1: I invited my brother to be my date. I was
Speaker 1: really excited, and like about probably three hours before the event,
Speaker 1: I had you know, my glam all ready to go.
Speaker 1: I had my dress fitted. I was so excited and grateful.
Speaker 1: And I get a call from my publicist and she's like,
Speaker 1: I'm livid. But I've never had this happen in all
Speaker 1: the years I've worked with people. And they just like
Speaker 1: basically revoked your invitation and said that you can't come
Speaker 1: because it might look bad for them and they don't
Speaker 1: want you there. And I just remember I hadn't even
Speaker 1: met my publicists yet, because I have one on like
Speaker 1: in l A that I know. And then there's another
Speaker 1: one that's a part of the team, Kate, who lives
Speaker 1: in Florida slash New York. So I hadn't met her
Speaker 1: at this time, and so I was trying really hard
Speaker 1: not to cry on the phone because I didn't want
Speaker 1: her to think I was like a little bit. And
Speaker 1: so I was like, it's fine, everything's fine, like it's
Speaker 1: all good, no worries, and she's like, no, it's not fine.
Speaker 1: It's really not fine, like it's it's actually really rude.
Speaker 1: And I was like, no, it's fine. And I remember
Speaker 1: hanging up and just like being in my car and
Speaker 1: pulling over and just like bawling, crying, and then, um,
Speaker 1: I guess this was kind of recently. This is in
Speaker 1: like December, but so yeah, I guess I I feel
Speaker 1: held back because of situations like that where I just
Speaker 1: think that, like, I'm never going to get over this
Speaker 1: hump of being canceled. Who coped with the scandal better?
Speaker 1: I don't think either of us coped well with the
Speaker 1: scandal because it was a very dramatic two years of
Speaker 1: our lives. I was Hella depressed, Hella depressed, and also
Speaker 1: we just didn't. We're young, so you don't know try
Speaker 1: like something like that to that degree. And I don't
Speaker 1: mean it in a way that other people don't go
Speaker 1: through young ages. I'm just saying to the degree and
Speaker 1: the also the mental damage that can cause because of
Speaker 1: outside opinions and everything and whatever it may be that
Speaker 1: I've gone over in therapy. You don't know how to
Speaker 1: cope at the age of eighteen and nineteen years old
Speaker 1: or old nineteen and twenty, whatever it is. You don't
Speaker 1: have the your brain isn't developed enough to cope, which
Speaker 1: like that. So I think we just handled it poorly,
Speaker 1: Like we didn't handle it like an adult wood We
Speaker 1: handled it like children, And I don't think that was
Speaker 1: a good way to cope with it. We made it through.
Speaker 1: I didn't kill us, but I also don't I wouldn't
Speaker 1: say we had like good coping tactics or anything. Yeah,
Speaker 1: do you think one of us cope better? No? I
Speaker 1: don't think so either, Like it hit us the same.
Speaker 1: It's also hard too, because what I think a lot
Speaker 1: of people um maybe just don't understand or don't want
Speaker 1: to understand or like, especially those that like are really
Speaker 1: adamant about not liking our family, are liking us, or
Speaker 1: like thinking a certain way about us. I think that
Speaker 1: people forget that at the end of the day, we're
Speaker 1: still humans. And like when you're talked about that negatively
Speaker 1: that many days in a row, which is literally like
Speaker 1: what a year straight, probably in the media going into stores,
Speaker 1: seeing our mom with like devil earrors on magazine covers
Speaker 1: and just like stuff that like regardless of the situation,
Speaker 1: and like, we're humans. It sucked to see and it hurt,
Speaker 1: and it was embarrassing as and it was just like
Speaker 1: it was terrible. It was it was really it really
Speaker 1: damaged like my confidence for I mean still, I think
Speaker 1: even if people, even guys I like see or friends
Speaker 1: I make, I always am like, oh, I understand, like
Speaker 1: if you don't want me to like stand next to
Speaker 1: you or like like I don't want to ruin your reputation. Um.
Speaker 1: So I don't think Sorry I went off on a tangent,
Speaker 1: but I don't think either of us cope super well
Speaker 1: with it. I think we were super young, and it's
Speaker 1: never easy seeing um that much about yourself in the media,
Speaker 1: especially when you don't even know what's going on at
Speaker 1: the time and you're still putting everything together and you're like, wait,
Speaker 1: what's happening. It was really challenging, and it was also
Speaker 1: really frustrating because half the stuff that was written was
Speaker 1: completely fake, and so then people were starting to take
Speaker 1: on this narrative that wasn't even real. And that's so
Speaker 1: frustrating to me because it's like, what's the point of
Speaker 1: journalism if you're not going to accurately report what's going on?
Speaker 1: And then it makes me ever reading and trusting anything
Speaker 1: because I'm like, wait, I guess they kind of got
Speaker 1: the gist of what the scandal was, but if you
Speaker 1: read through lawyer papers and stuff, you didn't really get
Speaker 1: the gist of it, not what the media said. You know,
Speaker 1: the media and the court case are two different things completely.
Speaker 1: But anyway, I just think it's really interesting, um how
Speaker 1: how much damage it actually can do, not even just
Speaker 1: for us, but just anybody going through something where you
Speaker 1: feel like, oh my god, everybody hates me. It's like, well,
Speaker 1: of course you're going to be a little messed up
Speaker 1: from it. Also, to me, it's so interesting to see
Speaker 1: like this. I feel like I just hold science experiments
Speaker 1: in my own brain, or like social studies in my
Speaker 1: own head because I'm always like coming up with weird theories,
Speaker 1: as you know. But it's so interesting to me when
Speaker 1: like the scandal is something I I hate calling it
Speaker 1: the scandal, the event, to the hula whatever, You're like, um,
Speaker 1: whatever it was, it was. It's crazy how easily manipulated
Speaker 1: people's brains can be, where if you read something enough
Speaker 1: and you don't know anything else about it, you're just
Speaker 1: willing to believe it. Like there's no part of the
Speaker 1: human brain that well were some people, for sure, but
Speaker 1: like mass majority, no one questions a lot of things
Speaker 1: that are just put right in front of them. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I'm one of them. I'll read something be like, oh
Speaker 1: that must be true, and then after going through some
Speaker 1: stuff like in the media personally, I was like, oh,
Speaker 1: maybe that's not true. So now I look at everything
Speaker 1: a little bit differently. But you know what, I also think.
Speaker 1: I think that now I think majority of the world
Speaker 1: or people on social media and just the media in
Speaker 1: general kind of no things are fabricated or exaggerated. But
Speaker 1: I still think there's a handful of people that like
Speaker 1: really think everything reported is accurate and like the details
Speaker 1: are correct and your first any time I've ever seen
Speaker 1: somebody say something about me, followed with a source close
Speaker 1: to Olivia. I have never said these words. I've never
Speaker 1: talked about these topics. I don't even know who this
Speaker 1: source could be, because someone from the whatever outlet that's
Speaker 1: publishing it. If you just you can then use whatever
Speaker 1: you want. Yeah, like this one time I posted a
Speaker 1: middle finger photo when I was nineteen, in the height
Speaker 1: of the scandal. I've never talked about this, but it
Speaker 1: weighs on me and I need to finally just share
Speaker 1: my truth about this stupid photo I posted. Yes, I
Speaker 1: was an idiot for posting this. I think it looked
Speaker 1: so distasteful. I think it looked so braddy. I think
Speaker 1: it was just not the right time. But I just
Speaker 1: want to explain from my perspective what went through my head.
Speaker 1: So obviously, it had been like a year of just
Speaker 1: being written about every single day, and I knew my
Speaker 1: side of things, and the media had their side of things,
Speaker 1: and I was frustrated. And I was nineteen, and I
Speaker 1: I was with all my girlfriends and we were taking
Speaker 1: pictures the night before and they had taken a photo
Speaker 1: of me, and I just was flipping off the camera.
Speaker 1: And I never intended to post this. This was just
Speaker 1: like a memory. I wake up the next day, I'm like,
Speaker 1: I see something else written online about me that's fake.
Speaker 1: And I was so fed up. I was so so
Speaker 1: so fed up, and so I throw up the middle
Speaker 1: finger photo on Instagram. I have not posted once throughout
Speaker 1: this entire ordeal. I have, nobody's heard from me. It's
Speaker 1: the first thing my dumbass decides to do. I throw
Speaker 1: up this middle finger photo and I caption it like
Speaker 1: I tagged at TMZ, at Daily Mail, at Perez Hilton,
Speaker 1: at all these outlets basically, and I said hashtag close sources,
Speaker 1: and everybody was like, wow, this girl thinks she's above
Speaker 1: above the law, above everything. Well, that just perfectly sums
Speaker 1: up how the media misconstrued things because you weren't talking
Speaker 1: about anything other than the fact that you were saying
Speaker 1: a close source, they're not real. Yeah, And so I
Speaker 1: was Obviously, my mom calls me and she's like, you
Speaker 1: cannot post up, Like you need to delete that right now.
Speaker 1: That is like completely inappropriate. And I was like, okay, sorry,
Speaker 1: and so I delete the photo obviously, um. And I
Speaker 1: felt really guilty about it, and I was like, after
Speaker 1: I posted because I feel like sometimes my brain just
Speaker 1: doesn't think about the consequences of what I'm going to do.
Speaker 1: And so I after I deleted, after talking to my
Speaker 1: parents and they were just like, that's absolutely not okay,
Speaker 1: you need to take that down right now. I was
Speaker 1: so embarrassed, so mortified, And then on top of that,
Speaker 1: everybody started writing about in all the comments on like
Speaker 1: different pages of me posting this, because obviously people screenshotted
Speaker 1: it and wrote about it, and I just remember feeling
Speaker 1: like I'm just the worst human ever. But my intentions
Speaker 1: were never to be like, screw the government, screw this,
Speaker 1: screw this policy, Like that wasn't it. I was literally
Speaker 1: just mad that people were writing fake stories and saying
Speaker 1: close source said this. So I just tagged a bunch
Speaker 1: of outlets that were known to report falsely and some
Speaker 1: close source says and that was the extent of it.
Speaker 1: I wasn't excusing our behavior of the situation, and that
Speaker 1: got really taken out of context. So now finally I
Speaker 1: can finally, finally, finally expose that it was not uh malintentioned,
Speaker 1: but definitely came across pretty bad. So three years later,
Speaker 1: I'm still sorry about that one y'all, let's do one
Speaker 1: more question and wrap this up. Let me, let me,
Speaker 1: let me Okay, you sing a song real quick. Olivia
Speaker 1: is going to sing the lower acts for you all.
Speaker 1: Let it grow, specifically, let it grow. Let it grow.
Speaker 1: You can't see what you don't, so plant the seed
Speaker 1: inside the year, just one way to know it's worth.
Speaker 1: Let's celebrate the world anyways, let me say, let it grow. Okay,
Speaker 1: here's something you want to do. Some guy advice. Yeah,
Speaker 1: let's ended up with some boy aid advice. Had someone
Speaker 1: asked ever shared boys? No? Have we ever kissed the
Speaker 1: same boy? No, we haven't. Trust me. I don't think
Speaker 1: we have you there. I don't even think we've ever
Speaker 1: liked the same boy. So no boy advice. I saw
Speaker 1: a breakup advice and herperk advice breakup advice. How to
Speaker 1: know if a guy likes you? Guy talk. I like
Speaker 1: this girl. Can I say her name? No? Maybe not?
Speaker 1: Maybe she doesn't want to be public. Oh that's really fair.
Speaker 1: She asked about boy advice. Well, cute girl, you know
Speaker 1: who you who you are and I like your questions. Okay,
Speaker 1: so let's answer them then, Okay, hit it um. Guy
Speaker 1: advice break up advice. Okay, let's start with how to
Speaker 1: know if a guy likes you. Go. I don't know
Speaker 1: if a I likes you. I feel like in my
Speaker 1: past experiences it's been pretty obvious. Like I just feel
Speaker 1: like I know, like if they're making an effort to
Speaker 1: hang out with me, or if uh they're texting me
Speaker 1: a lot, or if they're like doing nice gestures or
Speaker 1: checking in on me, including me in plans. I feel
Speaker 1: like that's a pretty good indicator. I think you'll know
Speaker 1: if a guy likes you, like if you ain't can
Speaker 1: convince yourself like, okay, must like me for this small
Speaker 1: thing that he did once six months ago, Like chances
Speaker 1: are he probably doesn't, because I don't even mean that
Speaker 1: in a harsh way. I just mean realistically, guys are
Speaker 1: so obvious. I feel like they don't even think that
Speaker 1: deeply into things like we think they do. I think
Speaker 1: if they like you, you'll know, and if they don't,
Speaker 1: you'll also probably know. Yeah, that's literally it if you
Speaker 1: have to justify any behavior, he's just not that into you.
Speaker 1: He's just not that into you. And then I saw
Speaker 1: a lot of heartbreak and break up advice. Um for
Speaker 1: that one, I just have a really simple answer that
Speaker 1: I don't need to ramble on about, and it's just time.
Speaker 1: It's just time, like you will be healed with time.
Speaker 1: It's a fact. And it feels like your world is
Speaker 1: crashing down and that you have the worst like rip
Speaker 1: and tear in your heart, but with time, everything does
Speaker 1: really heal, and you have to know that. And you
Speaker 1: also have to know that everything happens for a reason,
Speaker 1: and I really lean into that. When i'm like super sad,
Speaker 1: I'm just like, Okay, well maybe if this happened a
Speaker 1: different way, it could have been a worse outcome. So
Speaker 1: just remember it takes time, it's normal, and it's life,
Speaker 1: and you probably will never escape it. I agree with that. Also,
Speaker 1: this is like pre break of advice in a weird way.
Speaker 1: But when you're in a relationship, make sure you never
Speaker 1: forget your friends and don't focus all your time into
Speaker 1: that one person because if you do break up one
Speaker 1: day and hopefully you never do um, your friends are
Speaker 1: going to be the ones there for you during that breakup.
Speaker 1: So don't ever just like disregard them because you're in
Speaker 1: a relationship, Like, make sure you're able to balance that
Speaker 1: time period, all right, guys, thank you so much for
Speaker 1: tuning into this podcast, and I hope we gave us
Speaker 1: some good advice or just answered your question. I don't
Speaker 1: even think we gave advice. I just hope we answered
Speaker 1: the questions you were curious about. And I hope you
Speaker 1: know anything that's said it's it's really coming from a
Speaker 1: place of honesty and just personal experiences. I say this
Speaker 1: every time, but I just feel the need to, Uh,
Speaker 1: we're really We're really self aware, I promise. So if
Speaker 1: you're taking things the wrong way and thinking we're being assholes,
Speaker 1: we're probably not, you know. Okay, guys, thank you so
Speaker 1: much for tuning in, and I will chat with you
Speaker 1: all next week. BA