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Speaker 1: Once upon a time there was a good old traditional housewife.

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Speaker 1: She couldn't She cleaned and cared for her children and

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Speaker 1: the man of the house, and of course she didn't

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Speaker 1: talk back. She was both obed hent and soft by nature.

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Speaker 1: She was a good woman who always made good choices.

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Speaker 2: We're good mom's bad choices.

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Speaker 3: Who's single mom who said fuck the patriarchy shared all

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Speaker 3: their bad choices and.

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Speaker 2: Sound out they were so bad.

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Speaker 3: After all, we're experts, overshares and your new besties.

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Speaker 2: Sit back and enjoy the ride.

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Speaker 4: I can do it.

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Speaker 5: Okay, Wait, let me go back to the question, because

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Speaker 5: thank you good. I agree with everything.

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Speaker 3: That you just said, absolutely absolutely, And it takes it

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Speaker 3: takes a soap box to remind yourself like, oh yeah,

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Speaker 3: this is that's not the real world.

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Speaker 4: This is yeah, Like I don't know what the fuck

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Speaker 4: world we're living in.

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Speaker 2: I don't know.

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Speaker 4: I live in a different world, you know, And.

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Speaker 5: I think like the world first of all, because you

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Speaker 5: wrote about a lot of the men that we're seeing

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Speaker 5: now come to light, and I'm that'll be more.

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Speaker 2: There's more. There's more, that's it's gonna come. It's gonna

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Speaker 2: see it coming.

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Speaker 5: Like some of these men you've had a lot of

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Speaker 5: you had interactions with, you had experiences with, and do

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Speaker 5: you think you have a different perspective of your experience

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Speaker 5: during the time in which you experience these men versus now,

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Speaker 5: where like you might have more clarity, more understanding, more language,

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Speaker 5: like of the how unnormal certain situations were that you

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Speaker 5: the things you experienced in your childhood would have convinced

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Speaker 5: you were normal. Yeah, versus now that you've gone through

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Speaker 5: probably a lot more self discovery in continuing to be

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Speaker 5: a writer and continuing to just live and exist in

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Speaker 5: the world and just heal in general.

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Speaker 4: Good question, because, first of all, think about this. I

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Speaker 4: grew up with a mother who was abusive, so being

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Speaker 4: about spankings. I'm being I mean being beaten. I was

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Speaker 4: kidnapped and raped at thirteen. I was kidnapped again at

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Speaker 4: some point after that, so having men be in control

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Speaker 4: of my body was also very normal to me from

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Speaker 4: a very young age. I was taught very early, you

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Speaker 4: have no you have no autonomy. We're gonna take you,

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Speaker 4: We're gonna snatch you. Being raped at thirteen showed me

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Speaker 4: just I never belonged to me. So that when I

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Speaker 4: became of age, I took my autonomy. I over I

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Speaker 4: over overdid my autonomy because I wanted to prove that

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Speaker 4: I was control of my body. How do you over write?

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Speaker 4: I wanted to two things were happening simultaneously. I wanted

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Speaker 4: to erase. And this is what happens too when you're I.

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Speaker 4: I believe in through my therapy that when you have

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Speaker 4: had bad sexual experiences, you want the next one to overwrite, overwrite,

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Speaker 4: and override the one before. So I'm being raped. You

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Speaker 4: you can't undo it. And so what became normal for

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Speaker 4: another level because I'm like, well, I'm the one that's choosing.

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Speaker 4: These are choices. I'm making right, but I was making

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Speaker 4: why the autonomy was over It was overkill on the autonomy.

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Speaker 4: The proper kind of autonomy for me would have been

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Speaker 4: to start to start therapy sooner and then make decisions

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Speaker 4: looking back, so much of what I wrote about was

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Speaker 4: I'm like, oh my god, oh.

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Speaker 5: My god, Like, do you think that that's maybe why

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Speaker 5: there was also this shock for you? It's like Why's

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Speaker 4: This is just how it is? True? It's true, true,

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Speaker 4: right right, I'm reporting from Hollywood. Hollywood, bitch, what the

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Speaker 4: This is what's always happened here. The drugs have always

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Speaker 4: Like you know, so it's like one in one. In

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Speaker 4: one second, you guys want to scream Illuminati, but in

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Speaker 4: oh my god, this is awful, Like what did you

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Speaker 4: where since its invention, kids have been taking advantage of adults, women,

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Speaker 6: It wasn't very like hidden, it's so overt.

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Speaker 4: So I'm shocked that you're fucking shocked, right, And I'm

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Speaker 4: shocked that you're blaming me because I'm the young girl

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Speaker 4: and all these men were so much older than I was,

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Speaker 4: and no one even clocked that team right now, it

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Speaker 4: Like people are dead, like they've gotten old and died

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Speaker 4: and I'm still here, Like these people are older than

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Speaker 6: You were somehow right, the bad guy. You were the villain.

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Speaker 4: I'm a twenty year old girl, single mom, just trying

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Speaker 4: to make a buck and the man who and the

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Speaker 4: men who were in control of the money are like, yeah,

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Speaker 4: but you gotta do this first, right. I remember being

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Speaker 4: this point, I don't give a fuck because I got

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Speaker 4: the nineteen sixties early seventies gave us a lot of.

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Speaker 2: Language, gave white women language.

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Speaker 4: Okay, I just watched this thing about that the other day,

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Speaker 4: There's a there's a documentary about Miss magazine that I

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Speaker 4: between white feminism and black feminism and how yeah, so, yes,

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Speaker 4: I didn't grow up in a black or white society.

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Speaker 4: I just didn't. So I didn't know that there was

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Speaker 2: On the you were in the islands, you were amongst black.

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Speaker 4: People, think that black people think the islands are just black.

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Speaker 4: just full of black people. There's blacks, there's whites, there's

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Speaker 4: we don't. It's not the same, guys, it's not the same, promise,

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Speaker 4: it's not the same. It's not the same. It's not

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Speaker 4: the same. It's so not the same. And there are

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Speaker 4: like I didn't know there was a separation. My family

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Speaker 4: do see it differently. I see I now, looking back,

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Speaker 4: I realized how much I didn't understand about this country. Honestly,

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Speaker 4: because in other parts of the world where this book

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Speaker 4: is sold, it doesn't It didn't get the same response.

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Speaker 5: That's so interesting. I mean, I would imagine so, but

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Speaker 5: that's so interesting to me. In Europe is not the

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Speaker 5: same response about it the same way.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, I know, it's America. America has bigotry deeply routed

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Speaker 3: It's interesting too because when the book came out, I

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Speaker 3: it was very pivotal in my life, Like it stuck hard,

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Speaker 3: to you. I understood, And I think it's interesting as

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Speaker 3: understood that. But when I saw you get so much

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Speaker 2: For women it was extremely empowering.

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Speaker 6: Yeah, it was.

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Speaker 5: It was the men that encroached on that moment and

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Speaker 5: made it this other thing. Whereas maybe in other countries,

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Speaker 5: but there's the women still have a say in some capacity,

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Speaker 5: even though patriarchy has bled its blood blood throughout the

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Speaker 4: It's just like the crew, just me and the crew

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Speaker 5: It's your turn, bro, it's your turn.

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Speaker 4: Because you can't trust new Dick because new Dick comes

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Speaker 4: And anytime I try something you it's a problem. These

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Speaker 5: Yes, So have any of the people from your book

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Speaker 4: Yeah, And I dipped out, but it was nice. It

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Speaker 4: It was exactly it was bush yeah, which is why

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Speaker 5: I think it's so crazy. Like to your quote that

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Speaker 5: was very upset by how it ended. Yeah, I was

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Speaker 2: Bitch, it's good.

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Speaker 6: It's dark.

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Speaker 2: I know.

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Speaker 6: That's why empty of the path, I get too deep.

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Speaker 5: Anyway, Yes, we should watch it, but just know the

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Speaker 5: But the quote of men are men are worried that

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Speaker 5: and their reactions even silently, even when no one knows,

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Speaker 4: I didn't even say no thank you. I was like yes,

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Speaker 2: Would be a lie. Yeah, I just I can't believe

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Speaker 4: That's just so crazy. But that goes back to the

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Speaker 4: I do, I will always be in some people's eyes

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Speaker 4: to whatever the fuck IRV God he said on drink

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Speaker 4: Champs was a fucking out and out lie because why

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Speaker 4: would I go from the boss to the boss's helper.

436
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Speaker 4: That's nuts. If you've seen fucking scarface, you know what.

437
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Speaker 4: That's fucking nuts.

438
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Speaker 6: Like it's just not logical.

439
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Speaker 4: Bosses only bitch. I've been that bitch forever. Bro Like,

440
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Speaker 4: there's no way in the world, fucking your assistant you're

441
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Speaker 4: gonna bring me coffe, I'm gonna give you pussy, Like

442
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Speaker 4: what are you talking about? And so like the fact.

443
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Speaker 4: But it's like if the man says it, then it

444
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Speaker 4: becomes fact. If the woman says it, then it's questionable.

445
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Speaker 4: Every single fucking time. And the men that you're admiring

446
00:22:50,600 --> 00:22:54,959
Speaker 4: are trash, bro Like, they're such trash in their personal lives.

447
00:22:55,160 --> 00:22:57,399
Speaker 4: They don't take care of their children, they cheat on

448
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Speaker 4: their fucking wives, they never fucking go home home. They're

449
00:23:01,000 --> 00:23:04,679
Speaker 4: drug addicts, like fuck, they're alcoholics, like fucking crazy, Like

450
00:23:04,720 --> 00:23:08,240
Speaker 4: these men need these many therapy, baddest fuck and these

451
00:23:08,280 --> 00:23:13,080
Speaker 4: are your idols. And there's another saying that goes, I

452
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Speaker 4: don't care about your booze because I see who you

453
00:23:18,520 --> 00:23:21,880
Speaker 4: cheer for. Like, I don't care if you don't like me, bitch,

454
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Speaker 4: because I see who you like. I don't give a fuck.

455
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Speaker 4: I don't like you're not Yeah, exactly, like, look at

456
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Speaker 4: the people you uphold. I don't give a fuck if

457
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Speaker 4: you don't like me.

458
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Speaker 6: Look at them good, that's actually a good indication.

459
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Speaker 4: Look at the gum you revere. You think I give

460
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Speaker 4: a fuck whether you like me or not. You're revering

461
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Speaker 4: chama lesters, you're revering rapists, you're revering drug addicts, you're

462
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Speaker 4: revering fucking cokes like, you're revering weirdos. Bro Like, I

463
00:23:44,440 --> 00:23:46,200
Speaker 4: don't give a fuck if you don't like me. Look

464
00:23:46,200 --> 00:23:50,159
Speaker 4: at the people you fucking lust after. These people are

465
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Speaker 4: not good people, bro, So who gives a fuck if

466
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Speaker 4: you like me or not? I don't You're not You're

467
00:23:55,600 --> 00:23:57,680
Speaker 4: not my type of fucking person. We're not the fucking same.

468
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Speaker 2: How has that been?

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Speaker 6: You know? Like this is its been twenty years, you're

470
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Speaker 6: obviously comee from like twenty six. You're still like a baby.

471
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Speaker 3: In ways until this point and you've got the opportunity

472
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Speaker 3: for people to hear your story, but they've also see

473
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Speaker 3: your evolution. Has it been difficult like for other people

474
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Speaker 3: to under like people thinking they can talk like about

475
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Speaker 3: you even after you're apologizing, like to take you in

476
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Speaker 3: this version of yourself.

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Speaker 4: Okay, So I'm gonna say this. I know for a

478
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Speaker 4: fact as a grown woman now just a few years

479
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Speaker 4: from fifty, what I know for a fact is that

480
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Speaker 4: most people have a really hard time evolving in their

481
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Speaker 4: own lives. Most people are stuck. Most of your listeners

482
00:24:43,200 --> 00:24:46,840
Speaker 4: and watchers are stuck. They're in the same place, doing

483
00:24:46,880 --> 00:24:49,600
Speaker 4: the same thing with the same people, and they don't

484
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Speaker 4: want to be there, and they don't know how or

485
00:24:52,920 --> 00:24:57,480
Speaker 4: afraid to shift. I under that's human nature. It's just

486
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Speaker 4: the human experience. It's easy to get stuck. People like

487
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Speaker 4: me don't get stuck. This is what makes us special,

488
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Speaker 4: This is what makes me different, is that every six

489
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Speaker 4: months I'm moving, I'm doing something different, I'm onto something

490
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Speaker 4: or somebody or some I'm always moving. I think that

491
00:25:22,160 --> 00:25:28,000
Speaker 4: it's difficult for those people, for most people to imagine

492
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Speaker 4: my growth, because they have a hard time growing, excelling,

493
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Speaker 4: and moving forward. Again, it's human nature. It's so easy

494
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Speaker 4: to get stuck. It's so easy to get stuck in

495
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Speaker 4: a relationship that you fucking hate, with a man you

496
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Speaker 4: can't stand. It's so easy to get bogged down with

497
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Speaker 4: the kids. It's so easy to get bogged down in

498
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Speaker 4: your job. It's so easy to do what your parents

499
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Speaker 4: tell you to do, even though that's not what you

500
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Speaker 4: really want to do. There are so many instances where

501
00:25:50,440 --> 00:25:52,720
Speaker 4: it's so easy to get stuck in a version of

502
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Speaker 4: yourself that you don't really want to be in, and

503
00:25:54,400 --> 00:25:57,000
Speaker 4: then not know how to change and shift and move forward.

504
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Speaker 4: Most people are there. I've never been that person, and

505
00:26:02,720 --> 00:26:06,399
Speaker 4: that scares people. It excites people, and it ignites curiosity

506
00:26:06,400 --> 00:26:09,480
Speaker 4: in people, but also it makes people angry. I will shift.

507
00:26:09,520 --> 00:26:12,760
Speaker 4: I will move any chance I get from man to man,

508
00:26:13,040 --> 00:26:15,960
Speaker 4: from place to place, from state to state. It doesn't

509
00:26:16,000 --> 00:26:18,760
Speaker 4: matter to me. I am living my life as freely

510
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Speaker 4: as any man because men are allowed to do a

511
00:26:22,640 --> 00:26:26,399
Speaker 4: lot of shit they don't let women do. But I

512
00:26:26,440 --> 00:26:29,480
Speaker 4: do all the shit men do. I'm gonna bring you

513
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Speaker 4: one step closer. I am living my life as freely

514
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Speaker 4: as any mediocre white man because mediocre white men aren't

515
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Speaker 4: even qualified for shit the ship that they fucking do.

516
00:26:44,160 --> 00:26:46,600
Speaker 4: I'm doing shit I ain't fucking qualified for. I don't

517
00:26:46,640 --> 00:26:50,439
Speaker 4: give up. But because I'm gonna live my life just

518
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Speaker 4: as freely, openly and unqualified as any mediocre fucking white

519
00:26:56,119 --> 00:26:59,560
Speaker 4: man on his planet, I don't give a fuck, and

520
00:26:59,600 --> 00:27:01,680
Speaker 4: you can't stop me. You can't slow me down nothing.

521
00:27:02,240 --> 00:27:06,800
Speaker 4: So whatever people think, I realize this, that thought process

522
00:27:06,880 --> 00:27:10,560
Speaker 4: is not about me, Bro, That's about them and their

523
00:27:10,600 --> 00:27:15,399
Speaker 4: struggle to shift and move and live freely. I live free.

524
00:27:15,760 --> 00:27:18,800
Speaker 4: I have no burdens, I have no issues. I have

525
00:27:18,800 --> 00:27:21,400
Speaker 4: no fucking problems. Nothing's a problem to me. If something

526
00:27:21,440 --> 00:27:23,239
Speaker 4: is a problem to me, I leave it. I just

527
00:27:23,280 --> 00:27:26,439
Speaker 4: fucking shuck and jive. I just know I'm out, Nigga,

528
00:27:26,600 --> 00:27:29,959
Speaker 4: like Houdini, Like I'm out. You want to see me

529
00:27:29,960 --> 00:27:34,360
Speaker 4: no more, bro, I will post it here, husbands, baby daddies.

530
00:27:34,720 --> 00:27:37,960
Speaker 4: Fucking what. I will leave the situation so fast now

531
00:27:38,000 --> 00:27:39,920
Speaker 4: talk to you. It's as if I've never fucking been there.

532
00:27:41,920 --> 00:27:44,480
Speaker 4: So whatever issues people have about me, I know it's

533
00:27:44,480 --> 00:27:49,640
Speaker 4: not about me. I know it's about them, and I must.

534
00:27:49,480 --> 00:27:51,520
Speaker 2: Feel very free. It feels like freedom.

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Speaker 4: Yes, of course, freedom is the game, Like that's what

536
00:27:55,720 --> 00:27:56,800
Speaker 4: you want. You want to be free?

537
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Speaker 5: Because I think people might have a m might assume

538
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Speaker 5: the opposite, because so many people have opinions about you.

539
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Speaker 4: Oh, like y'all don't give a fuck we broke people

540
00:28:05,480 --> 00:28:07,959
Speaker 4: in Iowa care about me? Like I don't have an

541
00:28:08,000 --> 00:28:11,880
Speaker 4: opinion about really nothing or anybody because it doesn't matter

542
00:28:11,920 --> 00:28:13,960
Speaker 4: to me. I'm so self centered. I am the center

543
00:28:14,000 --> 00:28:15,680
Speaker 4: of my life. I am the center of everything. I'm

544
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Speaker 4: in the center of my family. I'm the center. If

545
00:28:17,480 --> 00:28:19,720
Speaker 4: I break down, everybody else breaks down. I am it.

546
00:28:19,760 --> 00:28:22,160
Speaker 4: I am she, I am her, so like I don't

547
00:28:22,200 --> 00:28:26,120
Speaker 4: give a fuck about fucking Julie and Iowa. I don't

548
00:28:26,160 --> 00:28:28,119
Speaker 4: give a fuck about this bitch, Like I don't give

549
00:28:28,160 --> 00:28:30,160
Speaker 4: a fuck what this bitch gotta say about me. Who

550
00:28:30,160 --> 00:28:31,880
Speaker 4: the fuck is this bitch? Like do you know how

551
00:28:32,040 --> 00:28:34,960
Speaker 4: much my bills are like, I am focused people like

552
00:28:35,000 --> 00:28:36,560
Speaker 4: what keeps you motivated? My bills?

553
00:28:36,600 --> 00:28:36,879
Speaker 6: Bitch?

554
00:28:37,080 --> 00:28:39,680
Speaker 4: Do you know how expensive LA is? Yeah? I don't

555
00:28:39,680 --> 00:28:41,240
Speaker 4: live in LA and New York? Do you know how

556
00:28:41,280 --> 00:28:42,240
Speaker 4: expensive this shit is?

557
00:28:42,280 --> 00:28:42,360
Speaker 7: Like?

558
00:28:42,400 --> 00:28:44,240
Speaker 4: This shit is not a game. I don't give a fuck.

559
00:28:44,960 --> 00:28:47,760
Speaker 4: And that's important to know too, is that what I

560
00:28:47,880 --> 00:28:51,320
Speaker 4: eat don't make you shit and vice versa. I come

561
00:28:51,360 --> 00:28:55,280
Speaker 4: from a fucking era where we understood that, Okay, the

562
00:28:55,320 --> 00:28:57,720
Speaker 4: dicks I fuck don't make you nut. Why are you

563
00:28:57,880 --> 00:29:00,840
Speaker 4: so Why are you so into the dicks like lee, Like,

564
00:29:01,280 --> 00:29:05,680
Speaker 4: focus on your plate, bitch, eat your food, what's on

565
00:29:05,720 --> 00:29:09,200
Speaker 4: your plate? Because chances are we don't make the same money.

566
00:29:09,280 --> 00:29:11,280
Speaker 4: We're not in the tax in the same tax bracket.

567
00:29:11,280 --> 00:29:13,800
Speaker 4: We're not fucking the same kind of niggas. Chances are

568
00:29:14,080 --> 00:29:17,080
Speaker 4: you're doing way worse than me. Get off my dick, bitch,

569
00:29:17,160 --> 00:29:20,040
Speaker 4: and go do something that's gonna make your life better.

570
00:29:20,120 --> 00:29:24,160
Speaker 4: It's important to tend to your own garden. It's important

571
00:29:24,440 --> 00:29:28,160
Speaker 4: to really focus in on your life. Stop worrying about

572
00:29:28,200 --> 00:29:30,360
Speaker 4: what I'm doing with the next bitch doing with this

573
00:29:30,640 --> 00:29:33,200
Speaker 4: who gives off? Fuck? I don't know what any of

574
00:29:33,200 --> 00:29:35,400
Speaker 4: these holes are. I don't know what anybody's doing. I

575
00:29:35,520 --> 00:29:38,719
Speaker 4: only know what I'm doing because if I take my

576
00:29:38,880 --> 00:29:43,120
Speaker 4: eyes off the prize, my whole family falls. I cannot

577
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Speaker 4: afford to invest in anybody else's life well being. I

578
00:29:48,000 --> 00:29:51,560
Speaker 4: sure as fuck cannot be in anybody else's pussy but

579
00:29:51,760 --> 00:29:55,120
Speaker 4: my own. I don't care who you fuck. I don't.

580
00:29:55,120 --> 00:29:58,560
Speaker 4: I don't give a fuck about nobody, and anybody who

581
00:29:58,640 --> 00:30:03,680
Speaker 4: cares so much about other people's lives to me, I

582
00:30:03,680 --> 00:30:08,800
Speaker 4: always ask them this, while you're caring so much about

583
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Speaker 4: other people, who's caring about you? Who's really looking out

584
00:30:14,280 --> 00:30:17,000
Speaker 4: and caring? No, Because here's the deal. You said it earlier.

585
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Speaker 4: Nobody's coming to save you. Who the fuck wakes up

586
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Speaker 4: in the morning and is like, I wonder how Jamila

587
00:30:22,040 --> 00:30:25,320
Speaker 4: is doing. It's gonna be you, it's gonna be Erica,

588
00:30:25,480 --> 00:30:27,800
Speaker 4: it's gonna be your man, might be your mamam, be

589
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Speaker 4: your daddy, whatever. But the rest of the world doesn't

590
00:30:30,320 --> 00:30:32,440
Speaker 4: wake up. All these people here love you, guys, but

591
00:30:32,520 --> 00:30:37,480
Speaker 4: you don't wake up and think, I hope Jamiala is okay?

592
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Speaker 6: Did she eat today?

593
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Speaker 4: Does she need money? Is she okay? Should I send

594
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Speaker 4: her something? Like? Nobody because we all have our own ship. No,

595
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Speaker 4: one's thinking, no one's coming to save you, No one's

596
00:30:47,480 --> 00:30:49,200
Speaker 4: thinking about you, and no one's coming to rescue you.

597
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Speaker 4: So you need to be able to self rescue.

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Speaker 6: Self rescue, come back to the rescue.

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Speaker 4: Is that?

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Speaker 2: What's the affirmation of the day. Yeah, we usually ask

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Speaker 2: our guests to share an affirmation. Do you have one?

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Speaker 2: Is it that.

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Speaker 4: I have so many affirmations that I really like. I

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00:31:07,560 --> 00:31:09,520
Speaker 4: don't know which one I think I gave one last time.

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Speaker 4: I'm trying to think of something. I have like twenty

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Speaker 4: seven of them that I teach my coaching clients, and

607
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Speaker 4: we have them and we go through it all. I think.

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Speaker 4: I think for me, it's a very simple one and

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00:31:20,720 --> 00:31:23,920
Speaker 4: it helps me every day in making my decisions. And

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Speaker 4: it's it's three words, and then what.

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Speaker 6: Then what was this? I think this might have been

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Speaker 6: the same.

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Speaker 4: I'll give you another one. No person, no problem, no person,

614
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Speaker 4: no problem. So a lot of times we have problems,

615
00:31:41,280 --> 00:31:43,640
Speaker 4: we think we have problems. We don't have problems. We

616
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Speaker 4: have people. And when you delete the people, you delete

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Speaker 4: the problems, like do you have a problem disappear like.

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Speaker 6: Do you have a problem problem?

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Speaker 4: Do you have a problem, or do you have a

620
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Speaker 4: baby daddy. Do you have a problem.

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Speaker 6: We cut the baby daddy.

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Speaker 8: They don't want to be Do you have a problem.

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Speaker 3: That might be that.

624
00:32:12,120 --> 00:32:15,800
Speaker 4: Personal problem, because here's the deal, Like men want to

625
00:32:15,880 --> 00:32:17,560
Speaker 4: fuck you, but they don't want to be fathers. You

626
00:32:17,600 --> 00:32:19,680
Speaker 4: make them fathers and they don't want to be. A

627
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Speaker 4: man will say he wants to be a dad, but

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Speaker 4: he really don't want to be. Most men don't want

629
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Speaker 4: to be married and they don't want to have children.

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Speaker 3: It's interesting someone actually asks a question. So now that

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Speaker 3: you said that, okay, yeah, this advice question, this is

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Speaker 3: actually on.

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Speaker 4: Also, some of these men are bisexual and they really

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Speaker 4: want men and they don't really want you. Okay, And

635
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Speaker 4: I've learned that firsthand. Some of these men really want

636
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Speaker 4: dick and they really don't want you to say.

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Speaker 2: That really quickly. So this is an advice question Tribe

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Speaker 2: at Patreon.

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Speaker 3: These questions have been phenomenal, so I'm appreciatives. This question

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Speaker 3: comes from a thirty one year old female. I was

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Speaker 3: with my boyfriend for five years. He broke up with

649
00:33:12,800 --> 00:33:16,880
Speaker 3: me because I wouldn't terminate my pregnancy. What advice would

650
00:33:16,920 --> 00:33:19,080
Speaker 3: you give me. I'm currently two mens pregnant and would

651
00:33:19,120 --> 00:33:21,200
Speaker 3: like to self rescue and be happy.

652
00:33:22,120 --> 00:33:24,080
Speaker 4: I think that if women want children, we're better off

653
00:33:24,120 --> 00:33:34,160
Speaker 4: having children at sperm banks because okay, hold on, hold on, no, listen.

654
00:33:34,240 --> 00:33:36,959
Speaker 4: Out here in LA we have California Cryo Bank. I

655
00:33:37,000 --> 00:33:38,640
Speaker 4: know this because I because.

656
00:33:38,440 --> 00:33:38,960
Speaker 6: I know this.

657
00:33:40,520 --> 00:33:42,400
Speaker 4: You can pick out your baby. You can see the

658
00:33:42,440 --> 00:33:44,840
Speaker 4: baby picture of the man who donated. You can see

659
00:33:44,840 --> 00:33:47,640
Speaker 4: what his degrees are, you can go through all the stats.

660
00:33:48,760 --> 00:33:52,480
Speaker 4: You're laughing, bitch, but listen. Some of you want babies,

661
00:33:52,520 --> 00:33:55,240
Speaker 4: and what you don't want is the men. You don't

662
00:33:55,280 --> 00:33:57,680
Speaker 4: want what comes with the babies.

663
00:33:57,880 --> 00:33:59,920
Speaker 5: Well, I think that they do. It's just the men

664
00:34:00,880 --> 00:34:02,000
Speaker 5: rising to the occasion.

665
00:34:02,040 --> 00:34:02,240
Speaker 6: You know what.

666
00:34:02,560 --> 00:34:02,800
Speaker 2: I think?

667
00:34:02,880 --> 00:34:05,280
Speaker 6: What I really love it all time alone.

668
00:34:05,320 --> 00:34:07,520
Speaker 4: They're never going to rise to the fucking occasion.

669
00:34:07,600 --> 00:34:09,760
Speaker 2: So automatically I didn't want a baby.

670
00:34:09,920 --> 00:34:12,239
Speaker 5: I had a man and we made a baby and

671
00:34:12,320 --> 00:34:13,719
Speaker 5: I and I.

672
00:34:13,600 --> 00:34:16,560
Speaker 4: Want you also backward. Listen to me. Stop wanting men.

673
00:34:16,600 --> 00:34:17,319
Speaker 2: I was twenty seven.

674
00:34:17,320 --> 00:34:19,120
Speaker 4: They're never going to rise to the okay, so let

675
00:34:19,120 --> 00:34:21,120
Speaker 4: me just let's just go through this right now. The

676
00:34:21,160 --> 00:34:24,040
Speaker 4: men are not the prize. It's not what you want.

677
00:34:24,520 --> 00:34:27,440
Speaker 4: Relationships should not be the goal. They should be the

678
00:34:27,440 --> 00:34:31,480
Speaker 4: byproducts of your goals. So for instance, you don't want

679
00:34:31,520 --> 00:34:33,279
Speaker 4: a man. You want to go to Paris and you

680
00:34:33,280 --> 00:34:35,480
Speaker 4: want to learn about art and get into.

681
00:34:35,400 --> 00:34:40,800
Speaker 5: Culture, and you get if it's on Falcony culture art,

682
00:34:40,680 --> 00:34:42,040
Speaker 5: sick Frenchman.

683
00:34:41,680 --> 00:34:44,200
Speaker 4: And you just happen to run into somebody seeking it.

684
00:34:44,200 --> 00:34:47,520
Speaker 3: It's coming to you when you're ready. You're not out

685
00:34:47,520 --> 00:34:50,040
Speaker 3: on the prid. Oftentimes, when you look deeply and you're

686
00:34:50,880 --> 00:34:51,640
Speaker 3: looking for stuf.

687
00:34:51,560 --> 00:34:52,319
Speaker 6: You're not going to find it.

688
00:34:52,320 --> 00:34:54,520
Speaker 3: It's when you're at ease, that's when you're feminine, at

689
00:34:54,520 --> 00:34:57,359
Speaker 3: your softness, that you're going to invite in what you need.

690
00:34:57,680 --> 00:34:58,640
Speaker 2: And I.

691
00:34:59,280 --> 00:35:01,560
Speaker 4: So they're not the goal. They are the byproduct of

692
00:35:01,600 --> 00:35:05,520
Speaker 4: the goal. Got it too. Some women are getting into

693
00:35:05,600 --> 00:35:10,160
Speaker 4: relationships just because they want children. Some women are very

694
00:35:10,239 --> 00:35:12,800
Speaker 4: much so I've seen that a lot, and they're forcing

695
00:35:12,840 --> 00:35:15,560
Speaker 4: themselves into relationships that they really shouldn't be, especially women,

696
00:35:16,120 --> 00:35:19,319
Speaker 4: especially women over thirty five going into their forties, or

697
00:35:19,600 --> 00:35:23,240
Speaker 4: they're forcing themselves into relationships because they want to have children.

698
00:35:23,800 --> 00:35:26,360
Speaker 4: If that's the case, bypass the relationship. Go to your

699
00:35:26,400 --> 00:35:30,080
Speaker 4: local cryobank, pick out your sperm, Spend five hundred dollars.

700
00:35:30,400 --> 00:35:33,560
Speaker 4: Go to your gynocologist. He'll put it in for you. Boom,

701
00:35:33,600 --> 00:35:36,480
Speaker 4: you're pregnant. No fucking you don't have to deal with

702
00:35:36,520 --> 00:35:36,960
Speaker 4: the bullshit.

703
00:35:38,160 --> 00:35:40,839
Speaker 2: They want babies, but they also want You're not gonna

704
00:35:40,840 --> 00:35:41,040
Speaker 2: get it.

705
00:35:41,040 --> 00:35:42,680
Speaker 4: You're not gonna get it home. You're not gonna get it.

706
00:35:42,719 --> 00:35:46,040
Speaker 4: You're not gonna get it. Stop it, stop it, stop it.

707
00:35:46,239 --> 00:35:47,680
Speaker 4: How what's the divorce rate?

708
00:35:48,120 --> 00:35:48,319
Speaker 2: Hi?

709
00:35:48,440 --> 00:35:51,200
Speaker 4: How many women are you seeing on Instagram crying their

710
00:35:51,320 --> 00:35:56,359
Speaker 4: eyes out about the ruins of their marriage and it's

711
00:35:56,440 --> 00:36:03,120
Speaker 4: not girlies, curlies. How many statistics do you need before

712
00:36:03,120 --> 00:36:07,359
Speaker 4: you realize the system is broken. You're not going to

713
00:36:07,400 --> 00:36:10,440
Speaker 4: beat the system. You're not going to be the only

714
00:36:10,560 --> 00:36:15,920
Speaker 4: person whose marriage works out. It's not nineteen forty seven. Like,

715
00:36:16,120 --> 00:36:18,719
Speaker 4: the men have too many options, and a lot of

716
00:36:18,760 --> 00:36:26,759
Speaker 4: them want men. We are laughing, also, we are serious.

717
00:36:27,360 --> 00:36:31,000
Speaker 4: A lot of the men want men I know because

718
00:36:31,040 --> 00:36:34,879
Speaker 4: I've dated them. They love Dick. I know because I've

719
00:36:34,920 --> 00:36:37,600
Speaker 4: given it to them. She's a strap on. Her name

720
00:36:37,680 --> 00:36:40,000
Speaker 4: is Pinky. I've had it for a while. I'm telling

721
00:36:40,040 --> 00:36:45,160
Speaker 4: you right now, these men love Dick. I'm not making

722
00:36:45,239 --> 00:36:51,480
Speaker 4: this up. Have your children because you're gonna end up

723
00:36:51,480 --> 00:36:52,560
Speaker 4: alone anyway.

724
00:36:52,960 --> 00:36:54,040
Speaker 2: Do you think it's a bet?

725
00:36:55,320 --> 00:36:57,440
Speaker 6: Don't fuck the relationship bypass the drama?

726
00:36:57,440 --> 00:36:59,360
Speaker 4: PA, If you want children, if yet to decide what

727
00:36:59,360 --> 00:37:02,480
Speaker 4: was Wilson important to you? If children is most important

728
00:37:02,520 --> 00:37:05,680
Speaker 4: to you, because you're running out of time biologically, right,

729
00:37:06,600 --> 00:37:08,840
Speaker 4: don't worry about the man. Don't force yourself into a

730
00:37:08,840 --> 00:37:11,560
Speaker 4: relationship because you want to find old them later. Right.

731
00:37:11,880 --> 00:37:15,279
Speaker 4: Once you have your baby that you've chosen, right, then

732
00:37:15,360 --> 00:37:17,000
Speaker 4: you find your man later.

733
00:37:17,400 --> 00:37:19,640
Speaker 3: And you're actually more equipped to find your man later

734
00:37:19,680 --> 00:37:22,120
Speaker 3: in life because you're more equipped, you've done more healing,

735
00:37:22,200 --> 00:37:25,959
Speaker 3: you're not as stupid, you're just like you're less able

736
00:37:26,000 --> 00:37:27,640
Speaker 3: to put up with some bullshit. I do feel like

737
00:37:27,680 --> 00:37:30,600
Speaker 3: there's no way the twenty seven year old me had

738
00:37:30,600 --> 00:37:31,120
Speaker 3: the tools.

739
00:37:31,400 --> 00:37:33,719
Speaker 5: Well, you know what, it makes me think about how

740
00:37:33,800 --> 00:37:36,360
Speaker 5: motherhood is such an initiation and it's not an initiation

741
00:37:36,440 --> 00:37:38,880
Speaker 5: because there's the men are involved. It's an initiation because

742
00:37:38,880 --> 00:37:40,960
Speaker 5: you have this experience between you and your body and

743
00:37:40,960 --> 00:37:44,040
Speaker 5: this child and then you enter into this space. So like, yes,

744
00:37:44,080 --> 00:37:47,719
Speaker 5: it's nice to have the support of the masculine of Absolutely,

745
00:37:48,000 --> 00:37:50,400
Speaker 5: I don't believe that, like kids don't need their fathers.

746
00:37:50,400 --> 00:37:51,280
Speaker 2: That's not what I'm saying.

747
00:37:51,719 --> 00:37:54,200
Speaker 5: I'm just saying that there is an initiation that women

748
00:37:54,280 --> 00:37:57,520
Speaker 5: go through singularly as women when we give birth, and

749
00:37:57,560 --> 00:38:00,719
Speaker 5: that sometimes that's what you're seeking, and that's what you

750
00:38:00,800 --> 00:38:03,919
Speaker 5: need in order to then go find your man right

751
00:38:04,280 --> 00:38:07,719
Speaker 5: and then sometimes it doesn't have to happen like Ryan

752
00:38:07,880 --> 00:38:10,840
Speaker 5: partnership that way. I just need to go through this initiation,

753
00:38:11,320 --> 00:38:17,040
Speaker 5: have this child, this experience, and then andy and then.

754
00:38:16,920 --> 00:38:20,799
Speaker 3: Imagine the mental preparation you've already had, like I'm gonna

755
00:38:20,800 --> 00:38:23,680
Speaker 3: get pregnant alone, I'm gonna get Essentially, that's what's because

756
00:38:23,680 --> 00:38:26,000
Speaker 3: you're doing it anyway, because you do it with this

757
00:38:26,080 --> 00:38:27,280
Speaker 3: illusion with the guy.

758
00:38:27,440 --> 00:38:31,240
Speaker 4: I stop being delusion all Delulu was not the answer.

759
00:38:32,120 --> 00:38:35,240
Speaker 3: Oh my god, you live the programming because you're supposed

760
00:38:35,280 --> 00:38:36,720
Speaker 3: to do that. Even though I when I got pregnant,

761
00:38:36,760 --> 00:38:39,120
Speaker 3: I called my home girl, I said this nigga bitch

762
00:38:39,320 --> 00:38:40,040
Speaker 3: and I'm pregnant.

763
00:38:40,120 --> 00:38:42,040
Speaker 6: She said, he's still think that's the truth.

764
00:38:42,040 --> 00:38:43,560
Speaker 2: He thinks of your bitch, thinks.

765
00:38:43,320 --> 00:38:44,640
Speaker 6: To your slat and he thinks your bitch, and it's

766
00:38:44,680 --> 00:38:46,600
Speaker 6: not going to change. You have a baby, and I said,

767
00:38:46,760 --> 00:38:47,399
Speaker 6: bet you're right.

768
00:38:47,680 --> 00:38:49,239
Speaker 3: And then I proceeded to have a baby with the

769
00:38:49,320 --> 00:38:51,200
Speaker 3: nigga who called me a slatiner bitch. And guess what

770
00:38:51,320 --> 00:38:52,920
Speaker 3: he did probably still call me a Slatin bitch after

771
00:38:52,960 --> 00:38:55,000
Speaker 3: and he touched me in my face, and there was

772
00:38:55,040 --> 00:38:56,440
Speaker 3: a lot of trauma that had to be healed from

773
00:38:56,440 --> 00:38:57,239
Speaker 3: it in order to leave.

774
00:38:57,239 --> 00:38:59,399
Speaker 4: Because I need to imagine if you had just gone

775
00:38:59,400 --> 00:38:59,960
Speaker 4: to the sprum bank.

776
00:39:00,200 --> 00:39:02,960
Speaker 3: I wasn't mentally prepared to be a sing I'd rather

777
00:39:03,040 --> 00:39:05,440
Speaker 3: be a try. I tried so hard to get punched

778
00:39:05,480 --> 00:39:07,440
Speaker 3: in my face and then be a single mom when

779
00:39:07,440 --> 00:39:09,440
Speaker 3: I could have just not got punched in my face

780
00:39:09,760 --> 00:39:10,640
Speaker 3: and I could.

781
00:39:10,360 --> 00:39:13,040
Speaker 6: Have just said, this is this is what you're this

782
00:39:13,080 --> 00:39:13,640
Speaker 6: is what we're doing.

783
00:39:13,680 --> 00:39:15,840
Speaker 3: I mean, I probably would have never happened because programming.

784
00:39:15,920 --> 00:39:18,040
Speaker 3: But I was not going to cryobank if I didn't

785
00:39:18,080 --> 00:39:18,680
Speaker 3: get pregnant.

786
00:39:19,040 --> 00:39:21,440
Speaker 2: But that is listen, I see both sides.

787
00:39:21,960 --> 00:39:24,960
Speaker 5: I see I e both sides, but I also understand

788
00:39:25,120 --> 00:39:27,120
Speaker 5: like the women that women that want to have the

789
00:39:27,120 --> 00:39:29,799
Speaker 5: baby right now, go have the baby, go plant go

790
00:39:29,880 --> 00:39:32,680
Speaker 5: like she said, go to the cryobank, Go to the cryobank.

791
00:39:32,880 --> 00:39:35,319
Speaker 2: I saw some ads on Instagram, kind body or some shit.

792
00:39:35,400 --> 00:39:36,120
Speaker 2: I don't fucking know.

793
00:39:36,160 --> 00:39:38,840
Speaker 5: You're probably getting you too, You're getting I keep getting

794
00:39:38,840 --> 00:39:41,960
Speaker 5: fed for they're spending millions of dollars because everyone says, kind.

795
00:39:42,000 --> 00:39:43,440
Speaker 6: I must know how old people are. Oh my god,

796
00:39:43,480 --> 00:39:44,080
Speaker 6: they can probably be.

797
00:39:44,080 --> 00:39:44,919
Speaker 2: Like literally trying.

798
00:39:44,960 --> 00:39:47,719
Speaker 3: It's not that I am forty four and like really

799
00:39:47,800 --> 00:39:49,720
Speaker 3: get bitches who are like, fuck, I gotta have a baby.

800
00:39:49,880 --> 00:39:51,840
Speaker 5: But it might be you just need your your spirit

801
00:39:52,000 --> 00:39:54,640
Speaker 5: is and your body is asking you to go through

802
00:39:54,640 --> 00:39:58,000
Speaker 5: this initiation. So honor it and then figure out the

803
00:39:58,000 --> 00:40:01,080
Speaker 5: other part later because you can. We're proof that you can.

804
00:40:01,600 --> 00:40:01,880
Speaker 4: Just know.

805
00:40:02,120 --> 00:40:03,040
Speaker 6: It's not easy.

806
00:40:03,120 --> 00:40:04,759
Speaker 5: It's not it's not going to be great. And when

807
00:40:04,800 --> 00:40:07,520
Speaker 5: you do it, you're going to maybe sometimes wish you

808
00:40:07,520 --> 00:40:07,960
Speaker 5: had a man.

809
00:40:08,480 --> 00:40:09,839
Speaker 4: Guys, no you're not home.

810
00:40:09,960 --> 00:40:13,520
Speaker 6: You might you might to take the baby, take this.

811
00:40:14,080 --> 00:40:14,840
Speaker 6: Take babies.

812
00:40:15,040 --> 00:40:16,600
Speaker 4: Do men take babies brong?

813
00:40:16,719 --> 00:40:18,120
Speaker 2: Sometimes yes they do, and they.

814
00:40:18,000 --> 00:40:20,840
Speaker 4: Can plain and they call you for every thing and

815
00:40:21,719 --> 00:40:22,400
Speaker 4: got that break.

816
00:40:23,800 --> 00:40:26,239
Speaker 5: Yes, at least you got the bitch least don't listen

817
00:40:26,239 --> 00:40:28,640
Speaker 5: to Eric listeners in Vegas right now with her dad,

818
00:40:28,680 --> 00:40:32,000
Speaker 5: and I'm so happy about it than your women together.

819
00:40:32,320 --> 00:40:35,080
Speaker 5: Just a personal assistant, baby daddy. I'm okay with that

820
00:40:35,120 --> 00:40:37,560
Speaker 5: because I got a break. If I had a cryo baby,

821
00:40:37,600 --> 00:40:39,160
Speaker 5: I'd have no one to take this goddamn baby.

822
00:40:39,200 --> 00:40:43,200
Speaker 4: You have girlfriends, you have family and a tribe.

823
00:40:43,200 --> 00:40:45,080
Speaker 2: That's the The whole other thing is that you don't.

824
00:40:44,880 --> 00:40:46,880
Speaker 6: Have a try your tribe.

825
00:40:47,440 --> 00:40:49,440
Speaker 4: Don't have a cryo baby.

826
00:40:49,480 --> 00:40:50,920
Speaker 6: Tribe that's important.

827
00:40:51,000 --> 00:40:53,160
Speaker 3: Don't have a cryo baby unless you have a tribe

828
00:40:53,239 --> 00:40:55,520
Speaker 3: that and they need to maybe sign contracts.

829
00:40:56,520 --> 00:40:57,160
Speaker 6: They need Maybe.

830
00:40:57,320 --> 00:40:59,520
Speaker 2: I'm just saying, there's time, just like there's steps.

831
00:40:59,560 --> 00:41:01,440
Speaker 4: Hold on, you should ask you guys are doing too

832
00:41:01,480 --> 00:41:03,600
Speaker 4: much because also there are women. Okay, let's go back

833
00:41:03,600 --> 00:41:06,759
Speaker 4: a little bit. Black women are the most agreed in

834
00:41:06,840 --> 00:41:10,239
Speaker 4: the country. Okay, black women the highest educated group in

835
00:41:10,280 --> 00:41:13,160
Speaker 4: this country. Yes, black women are out earning black men.

836
00:41:13,280 --> 00:41:13,560
Speaker 2: Amen.

837
00:41:13,680 --> 00:41:18,080
Speaker 4: Okay, black women can afford childcare, we can afford nannies,

838
00:41:18,280 --> 00:41:21,880
Speaker 4: we can afford help, We can do this. We also

839
00:41:21,920 --> 00:41:25,600
Speaker 4: have family and friends. You don't need a man to

840
00:41:25,719 --> 00:41:29,000
Speaker 4: have your baby. Would be nice to have a man

841
00:41:29,320 --> 00:41:33,080
Speaker 4: who can do things. Yes, but overwhelmingly we are seeing

842
00:41:33,480 --> 00:41:35,920
Speaker 4: that men do not want to be fathers. They're not

843
00:41:35,960 --> 00:41:38,160
Speaker 4: planning these babies with you. You're planning them with your

844
00:41:38,200 --> 00:41:41,359
Speaker 4: fucking self the minute. And even the ones who think

845
00:41:41,760 --> 00:41:45,640
Speaker 4: who purport to be planning the minute you pop up pregnant,

846
00:41:46,000 --> 00:41:51,000
Speaker 4: they're like, we can't do this, Okay. It is important

847
00:41:51,000 --> 00:41:54,839
Speaker 4: to understand our biological need is different than theirs. They

848
00:41:54,840 --> 00:41:57,839
Speaker 4: can have children into their nineties, it doesn't matter for them.

849
00:41:58,600 --> 00:42:00,520
Speaker 4: We only have a short amount of time. So if

850
00:42:00,520 --> 00:42:05,600
Speaker 4: you want to have children, have your baby, and sometimes

851
00:42:05,640 --> 00:42:09,080
Speaker 4: you just gotta get into a quick situation, get your baby,

852
00:42:09,160 --> 00:42:12,160
Speaker 4: be out, like, just be the fuck out. I think

853
00:42:12,200 --> 00:42:15,400
Speaker 4: where you give yourself toil in trouble is where you

854
00:42:15,440 --> 00:42:18,400
Speaker 4: are trying to make men who don't want to be

855
00:42:18,480 --> 00:42:23,000
Speaker 4: fathers to your baby participate in the raising and financial

856
00:42:23,000 --> 00:42:26,960
Speaker 4: responsibility of your baby. I think it is important to

857
00:42:27,120 --> 00:42:31,640
Speaker 4: understand and to when someone asked earlier about how I've

858
00:42:31,680 --> 00:42:35,879
Speaker 4: taken care of myself, I never put my first son's father.

859
00:42:36,960 --> 00:42:39,720
Speaker 4: There was no court, there was no child so any kids,

860
00:42:39,960 --> 00:42:42,040
Speaker 4: I'm never gonna go to court. There will never be

861
00:42:42,120 --> 00:42:45,000
Speaker 4: child support. I will never Cha'll never fucking contact you.

862
00:42:45,239 --> 00:42:47,719
Speaker 4: I don't give a fuck about you. You are, as

863
00:42:47,760 --> 00:42:51,279
Speaker 4: my father would say, the bag I brought the groceries

864
00:42:51,320 --> 00:42:55,760
Speaker 4: home in Okay, the groceries are for me. You're the bag.

865
00:42:56,120 --> 00:42:58,440
Speaker 4: You're the one that had to make this come to

866
00:42:58,520 --> 00:43:01,560
Speaker 4: fruition for me. This is for women who aren't in loving,

867
00:43:01,880 --> 00:43:05,040
Speaker 4: caring relationships. This is for the women who want babies

868
00:43:05,080 --> 00:43:07,799
Speaker 4: before they can't have babies anymore, or before they get

869
00:43:07,800 --> 00:43:08,640
Speaker 4: to a certain age.

870
00:43:08,680 --> 00:43:11,680
Speaker 2: This is this is not her, though she's pregnant right now.

871
00:43:11,640 --> 00:43:13,040
Speaker 6: But she says she doesn't anything to do with it,

872
00:43:13,080 --> 00:43:14,279
Speaker 6: and I don't force it.

873
00:43:14,320 --> 00:43:15,239
Speaker 4: Don't don't force it.

874
00:43:15,280 --> 00:43:16,879
Speaker 3: If this is your choice, and you and he told

875
00:43:16,880 --> 00:43:19,040
Speaker 3: you he don't want a baby, and continuing.

876
00:43:18,760 --> 00:43:21,440
Speaker 4: But if you want the baby, leave him the fuck alone.

877
00:43:21,520 --> 00:43:24,040
Speaker 6: Yeah, let him be. Don't force anyone to do anything.

878
00:43:24,080 --> 00:43:26,279
Speaker 4: Yes, leave him the funck alone. It's okay to raise

879
00:43:26,280 --> 00:43:27,160
Speaker 4: a baby by yourself.

880
00:43:27,239 --> 00:43:29,160
Speaker 2: Then, so then are you saying if that's if that's

881
00:43:29,200 --> 00:43:30,680
Speaker 2: what you want to do, you don't want to don't

882
00:43:30,680 --> 00:43:32,279
Speaker 2: try to get child support. Don't try to.

883
00:43:32,400 --> 00:43:34,960
Speaker 4: I personally am not a child support girly. I but

884
00:43:35,000 --> 00:43:36,560
Speaker 4: I make enough money to not do so, and I

885
00:43:36,560 --> 00:43:38,520
Speaker 4: don't force babies on people if I'm not going to

886
00:43:38,600 --> 00:43:41,120
Speaker 4: take care of them by myself. So sometimes again, some

887
00:43:41,160 --> 00:43:43,160
Speaker 4: men are just the groceries you. So some men are

888
00:43:43,200 --> 00:43:45,200
Speaker 4: just the bag you bring the groceries home in. They're

889
00:43:45,239 --> 00:43:50,960
Speaker 4: just the conduit, right if this person wants a baby, I.

890
00:43:50,880 --> 00:43:52,799
Speaker 5: Mean, my question is they've been together for five years?

891
00:43:52,800 --> 00:43:54,560
Speaker 5: Have they not had this conversation before?

892
00:43:54,960 --> 00:43:57,040
Speaker 4: Ye? Have you guys had a woman's together? Is that

893
00:43:57,080 --> 00:43:58,040
Speaker 4: a man's together? Yeah?

894
00:43:58,040 --> 00:44:00,279
Speaker 2: I'm curious about what the together like?

895
00:44:00,640 --> 00:44:03,360
Speaker 4: Right? Because okay, guys, girl, I wish I could just

896
00:44:03,360 --> 00:44:06,359
Speaker 4: shake all of you. If you ask a woman if

897
00:44:06,360 --> 00:44:09,879
Speaker 4: she's in a relationship, she'll say yes. Sometimes you ask

898
00:44:09,920 --> 00:44:10,799
Speaker 4: that man, he'd be.

899
00:44:10,719 --> 00:44:12,680
Speaker 2: Like, nah, yeah, that's true.

900
00:44:12,800 --> 00:44:15,720
Speaker 4: So like, her together may not be his together.

901
00:44:15,800 --> 00:44:17,120
Speaker 6: Would you call that delusion?

902
00:44:17,880 --> 00:44:20,080
Speaker 4: No, because men will trick you into thinking that you're

903
00:44:20,120 --> 00:44:23,279
Speaker 4: in a relationship, but he is someplace else entirely. He

904
00:44:23,360 --> 00:44:27,800
Speaker 4: might have two or three different relationships happening that are separate.

905
00:44:28,400 --> 00:44:30,239
Speaker 4: So like, at the end of the day, if he's

906
00:44:30,280 --> 00:44:33,160
Speaker 4: not with it, it's her decision on whether her body,

907
00:44:33,200 --> 00:44:35,520
Speaker 4: her choice, whatever she wants to do. She's doing what

908
00:44:35,640 --> 00:44:39,040
Speaker 4: she wants to do. But I'm not for I'm not

909
00:44:39,080 --> 00:44:41,040
Speaker 4: a child support girly. I'm just not. I don't have

910
00:44:41,120 --> 00:44:42,840
Speaker 4: the energy. I don't give a fuck about it. I

911
00:44:42,920 --> 00:44:45,640
Speaker 4: make enough money. And if you can't support your child yourself,

912
00:44:45,680 --> 00:44:47,520
Speaker 4: then don't have your fucking child. Because what I'm not

913
00:44:47,560 --> 00:44:49,480
Speaker 4: gonna do is be in court every two weeks trying

914
00:44:49,480 --> 00:44:53,160
Speaker 4: to take some scumbag dirt nigga down for three hundred dollars.

915
00:44:53,719 --> 00:44:55,680
Speaker 4: That's the fuck. I'm not gonna like them. Let me

916
00:44:55,680 --> 00:44:57,120
Speaker 4: tell you, I don't give it's my bague.

917
00:44:57,160 --> 00:44:59,360
Speaker 2: It's funny. That's just right now.

918
00:44:59,560 --> 00:45:01,680
Speaker 5: Because I saw someone else, a girl that I know

919
00:45:02,400 --> 00:45:04,600
Speaker 5: she'd made a reel yesterday or so two days ago

920
00:45:04,640 --> 00:45:07,000
Speaker 5: about like never put my baby daddy on child support,

921
00:45:07,080 --> 00:45:09,440
Speaker 5: like all the ways, like all the assumptions you might

922
00:45:09,480 --> 00:45:14,040
Speaker 5: have about her life. And I wrote in my I

923
00:45:14,080 --> 00:45:16,560
Speaker 5: wrote it down in my phone because that actually annoyed me,

924
00:45:16,600 --> 00:45:18,160
Speaker 5: because I took a really long time to put my

925
00:45:19,040 --> 00:45:22,080
Speaker 5: baby daddy on child support. And now I'm like, I

926
00:45:22,080 --> 00:45:23,640
Speaker 5: wish I would have done it sooner. I wish I

927
00:45:23,640 --> 00:45:27,120
Speaker 5: would have held this, held him accountable sooner. And because

928
00:45:27,400 --> 00:45:29,920
Speaker 5: I didn't, I got into the relationship thinking that we

929
00:45:29,920 --> 00:45:31,800
Speaker 5: were doing this together. So I think a lot of

930
00:45:31,840 --> 00:45:35,000
Speaker 5: people are not necessarily think can I raise this child alone?

931
00:45:35,120 --> 00:45:37,919
Speaker 5: Like no, because I'm not entering into this partnership thinking

932
00:45:37,920 --> 00:45:39,839
Speaker 5: that I'm raising this child alone. I thought we were

933
00:45:39,840 --> 00:45:42,040
Speaker 5: getting married, I thought we were planning a life together.

934
00:45:42,520 --> 00:45:45,440
Speaker 5: I was not necessarily financially prepared to have the baby

935
00:45:45,480 --> 00:45:48,920
Speaker 5: because you told me, don't worry, I got it. I'm

936
00:45:48,920 --> 00:45:51,000
Speaker 5: going to take care of us. And now I'm in

937
00:45:51,000 --> 00:45:53,839
Speaker 5: this situation where I'm like, fuck, you know. So when

938
00:45:53,880 --> 00:45:55,840
Speaker 5: I when I saw that, I was like, I don't

939
00:45:55,920 --> 00:45:58,520
Speaker 5: think I think that you have to move according like

940
00:45:58,640 --> 00:46:00,440
Speaker 5: and you said, like, this is just my this is

941
00:46:00,440 --> 00:46:02,799
Speaker 5: my testimony. I think you have to move according to

942
00:46:03,400 --> 00:46:06,200
Speaker 5: whatever the agreement is that you had with that person.

943
00:46:06,440 --> 00:46:08,799
Speaker 5: If that person said we're doing this together, put that

944
00:46:08,880 --> 00:46:12,040
Speaker 5: nigga on child support because you said we're doing this together.

945
00:46:12,160 --> 00:46:15,000
Speaker 5: And now I've had this baby, and now I'm not

946
00:46:15,040 --> 00:46:17,759
Speaker 5: going to be the sole person responsible. Yes, I'm gonna

947
00:46:17,760 --> 00:46:19,399
Speaker 5: be I'm gonna rise to the occasion. And I think

948
00:46:19,400 --> 00:46:23,040
Speaker 5: that's what and what a lot of single moms realize

949
00:46:23,040 --> 00:46:24,560
Speaker 5: they have to do. And that's why we have this

950
00:46:24,640 --> 00:46:27,360
Speaker 5: platform where we've had to empower ourselves and empower women

951
00:46:27,600 --> 00:46:29,799
Speaker 5: to take responsibility and say fuck it, I don't need you.

952
00:46:29,840 --> 00:46:30,799
Speaker 2: I'm going to figure it out.

953
00:46:31,120 --> 00:46:33,919
Speaker 5: But in the interim of me fucking figuring this shit out,

954
00:46:34,480 --> 00:46:36,640
Speaker 5: put that nigga on child's you bridge the contract.

955
00:46:36,719 --> 00:46:38,560
Speaker 3: Yeah, and if you can't afford and if you can

956
00:46:38,640 --> 00:46:42,279
Speaker 3: afford the child without this person, I mean whatever, Like

957
00:46:42,320 --> 00:46:44,759
Speaker 3: whether you could or couldn't and you had entered into

958
00:46:44,800 --> 00:46:46,680
Speaker 3: this agreement together, that's on you.

959
00:46:46,960 --> 00:46:49,480
Speaker 5: But I feel like there's a lot of women that

960
00:46:49,640 --> 00:46:51,759
Speaker 5: don't put their baby daddy on child support out of

961
00:46:51,760 --> 00:46:55,719
Speaker 5: fear of looking like that girl or looking like you know,

962
00:46:55,920 --> 00:46:59,680
Speaker 5: they are being worried about needing someone. And it's like,

963
00:46:59,760 --> 00:47:01,960
Speaker 5: we made this child together, and we agreed to do

964
00:47:02,040 --> 00:47:04,680
Speaker 5: this together. And I think that, like, I don't know,

965
00:47:04,920 --> 00:47:07,200
Speaker 5: for me, I had a lot of shame and guilt

966
00:47:07,239 --> 00:47:10,520
Speaker 5: around even going to court, like being like I don't

967
00:47:10,680 --> 00:47:11,520
Speaker 5: I don't want to do it.

968
00:47:11,719 --> 00:47:13,400
Speaker 2: I don't want him to think that I'm a gold digger.

969
00:47:13,600 --> 00:47:16,640
Speaker 6: And I'm like, what the fuck he thinks thought he

970
00:47:16,719 --> 00:47:17,520
Speaker 6: was a good dad.

971
00:47:18,800 --> 00:47:19,000
Speaker 4: You know.

972
00:47:19,200 --> 00:47:22,040
Speaker 5: So I think that, like, like you said, like it's

973
00:47:22,360 --> 00:47:25,680
Speaker 5: you have to find your your sweet spot in that

974
00:47:25,840 --> 00:47:28,600
Speaker 5: in that understanding and I will say too though as

975
00:47:28,640 --> 00:47:31,359
Speaker 5: someone that went through the process of getting child support.

976
00:47:31,040 --> 00:47:34,239
Speaker 3: It is an ugly process. It made me feel disgusted

977
00:47:34,360 --> 00:47:35,080
Speaker 3: with myself.

978
00:47:35,480 --> 00:47:37,799
Speaker 5: I literally had to become a private investigator of this

979
00:47:37,880 --> 00:47:42,799
Speaker 5: nigger like look taking screenshots of him buying diamonds like

980
00:47:42,840 --> 00:47:44,320
Speaker 5: he can afford it, you know, like this.

981
00:47:44,440 --> 00:47:46,200
Speaker 2: It was gross. I was like, I hate that I

982
00:47:46,239 --> 00:47:47,480
Speaker 2: have to Why why.

983
00:47:47,320 --> 00:47:48,920
Speaker 3: Are you even putting me in the position that I

984
00:47:48,960 --> 00:47:52,960
Speaker 3: have that You're avoiding your responsibility so deeply that I

985
00:47:53,000 --> 00:47:55,120
Speaker 3: even have to go to the process of going You're

986
00:47:55,160 --> 00:47:57,440
Speaker 3: so vain and stupid that I can even have the

987
00:47:57,440 --> 00:48:00,160
Speaker 3: opportunity to screenshot. But this is you're making me go

988
00:48:00,239 --> 00:48:02,320
Speaker 3: so low. But you're such a scum that I have

989
00:48:02,480 --> 00:48:04,719
Speaker 3: that's what I have to do to prove that you're

990
00:48:04,760 --> 00:48:08,080
Speaker 3: making money, so that you allocated a properly And.

991
00:48:08,160 --> 00:48:12,000
Speaker 5: And and of course hopefully those that those feelings and

992
00:48:12,040 --> 00:48:14,759
Speaker 5: for me, those feelings have they motivate you to them

993
00:48:14,840 --> 00:48:16,880
Speaker 5: be like, let me figure this shit out, because I

994
00:48:16,880 --> 00:48:19,000
Speaker 5: don't want to ever have to fucking ask you for shit,

995
00:48:19,560 --> 00:48:21,839
Speaker 5: you know, And so hopefully that is I don't want

996
00:48:21,840 --> 00:48:23,440
Speaker 5: to say hopefully that's the goal. Hopefully the goal is

997
00:48:23,480 --> 00:48:25,040
Speaker 5: that you guys can copare it together, and you guys

998
00:48:25,040 --> 00:48:27,560
Speaker 5: can equally be responsibil responsible for the child.

999
00:48:27,640 --> 00:48:29,560
Speaker 2: But in the case that it's not, do what the

1000
00:48:29,560 --> 00:48:30,319
Speaker 2: fuck you have to do?

1001
00:48:30,480 --> 00:48:32,560
Speaker 3: Yeah, and we always do because that's what women do.

1002
00:48:32,640 --> 00:48:33,600
Speaker 3: We figure it the fuck out.

1003
00:48:33,920 --> 00:48:34,120
Speaker 2: Yeah.

1004
00:48:34,200 --> 00:48:36,479
Speaker 6: And honestly, does he even have any money? Because I'm not.

1005
00:48:36,800 --> 00:48:38,520
Speaker 3: Going a like out of my way to go get

1006
00:48:38,560 --> 00:48:41,040
Speaker 3: your fucking one seventy five a month. But it sounds

1007
00:48:41,080 --> 00:48:43,600
Speaker 3: like that, But it sounds like in this particular situation.

1008
00:48:43,840 --> 00:48:46,040
Speaker 3: I don't know what the conversation have been before in

1009
00:48:46,080 --> 00:48:49,240
Speaker 3: their relationship, but I'm assuming they have talked about children

1010
00:48:49,239 --> 00:48:51,600
Speaker 3: if they've been together for five years in a relationship

1011
00:48:51,640 --> 00:48:53,960
Speaker 3: that they both knew that they were in. Yeah, and

1012
00:48:54,880 --> 00:48:56,759
Speaker 3: perhaps like she's very shocked. I don't know if she's

1013
00:48:56,760 --> 00:48:59,000
Speaker 3: still in the chat as of now, shocked and surprise

1014
00:48:59,080 --> 00:49:01,399
Speaker 3: that he doesn't want to have a baby with her.

1015
00:49:01,960 --> 00:49:05,360
Speaker 3: But I just feel like, if you're choosing to continue

1016
00:49:05,360 --> 00:49:07,440
Speaker 3: with the pregnancy and knowing that this person is not

1017
00:49:07,920 --> 00:49:11,359
Speaker 3: maybe going to participate in the raising of this child,

1018
00:49:11,480 --> 00:49:14,480
Speaker 3: then you are. Now it's a new terms and agreement,

1019
00:49:14,840 --> 00:49:17,480
Speaker 3: there's a new contract that's being made, and the contract

1020
00:49:17,600 --> 00:49:19,080
Speaker 3: is that you are the sole provider of this child

1021
00:49:19,320 --> 00:49:22,080
Speaker 3: because he's telling you what his where, his where?

1022
00:49:22,080 --> 00:49:25,720
Speaker 2: His mind is that yeah, And I think that.

1023
00:49:25,560 --> 00:49:28,120
Speaker 5: That too, like for women where I when I see

1024
00:49:28,120 --> 00:49:30,759
Speaker 5: that this happens, are men feeling trapped in in in

1025
00:49:30,800 --> 00:49:32,520
Speaker 5: relationships through pregnancy?

1026
00:49:32,880 --> 00:49:34,879
Speaker 2: Like I feel for men sometimes I'd be like, why

1027
00:49:34,880 --> 00:49:36,360
Speaker 2: the fuck? Why would you do that?

1028
00:49:36,440 --> 00:49:37,680
Speaker 6: But then again it's like, well why did you not?

1029
00:49:37,800 --> 00:49:38,120
Speaker 6: In the bitch?

1030
00:49:38,200 --> 00:49:39,560
Speaker 4: Okay, but because it feels.

1031
00:49:39,880 --> 00:49:42,960
Speaker 5: A contributed we all participated, and maybe you need to

1032
00:49:43,000 --> 00:49:45,440
Speaker 5: have a terms and agreements beforehand, so you know, what

1033
00:49:45,520 --> 00:49:45,799
Speaker 5: the fuck?

1034
00:49:45,880 --> 00:49:50,200
Speaker 3: Even though I haven't abided by this law because you know, condoms,

1035
00:49:50,200 --> 00:49:53,640
Speaker 3: you know, but like I condoms you know generally, Like

1036
00:49:53,920 --> 00:49:56,040
Speaker 3: I think, like sometimes she starts having a good night,

1037
00:49:56,120 --> 00:49:58,279
Speaker 3: like as you go to the club and you meet

1038
00:49:58,280 --> 00:50:00,480
Speaker 3: a nigga, he's fine as hell, you fuck and raw,

1039
00:50:00,800 --> 00:50:01,560
Speaker 3: and it's just like.

1040
00:50:01,440 --> 00:50:04,440
Speaker 5: You you just end up nutting at her, I think,

1041
00:50:04,480 --> 00:50:07,040
Speaker 5: And then you just get emotionally attached to the baby

1042
00:50:07,080 --> 00:50:10,040
Speaker 5: when you're not even emotionally attached to this person, And

1043
00:50:10,080 --> 00:50:11,399
Speaker 5: that's confusing for a man.

1044
00:50:11,560 --> 00:50:13,960
Speaker 2: Don't and I don't, I don't say. And that's where I.

1045
00:50:13,880 --> 00:50:15,879
Speaker 5: Agree with the men where I'm like, what the fuck? Well,

1046
00:50:15,880 --> 00:50:18,399
Speaker 5: you had a one night stand, bitch, Like, what where

1047
00:50:18,440 --> 00:50:20,320
Speaker 5: did you get that? I wanted to be your baby daddy.

1048
00:50:20,360 --> 00:50:22,600
Speaker 2: Don't have unprotected sex with that we both agree to this?

1049
00:50:23,600 --> 00:50:28,480
Speaker 5: And women, yeah, women, I would be acting crazy.

1050
00:50:28,520 --> 00:50:29,600
Speaker 6: No, I think it's nuts. I don't.

1051
00:50:29,719 --> 00:50:31,359
Speaker 3: I don't really agree with having kids with someone who

1052
00:50:31,360 --> 00:50:35,160
Speaker 3: doesn't want a kid, because I mean, because I'm not.

1053
00:50:35,239 --> 00:50:37,520
Speaker 3: I don't want to force this on you unless you're like,

1054
00:50:37,640 --> 00:50:39,760
Speaker 3: I'm totally okay with walking away and doing it solely.

1055
00:50:40,040 --> 00:50:42,200
Speaker 3: If you don't, if you're not okay with doing it

1056
00:50:42,239 --> 00:50:45,680
Speaker 3: solely by yourself, then why y'all?

1057
00:50:45,719 --> 00:50:49,839
Speaker 4: Okay, y'all, okay, nuts, yeah you guys, okay, Oh yeah,

1058
00:50:49,840 --> 00:50:50,239
Speaker 4: I'm good.

1059
00:50:51,360 --> 00:50:54,279
Speaker 3: I don't want to force anything on anybody. But if

1060
00:50:54,320 --> 00:50:55,680
Speaker 3: unless you're oh, no, I'm great.

1061
00:50:55,719 --> 00:50:57,200
Speaker 2: I got my child's porn. I'm great.

1062
00:50:58,600 --> 00:51:01,400
Speaker 4: I wish I had times before, but he got superheated.

1063
00:51:01,840 --> 00:51:02,279
Speaker 2: It's hot.

1064
00:51:03,600 --> 00:51:05,480
Speaker 5: I'm just I just feel like this topic is there's

1065
00:51:05,520 --> 00:51:08,480
Speaker 5: a lot of layers to it, and and I think

1066
00:51:08,480 --> 00:51:12,000
Speaker 5: maybe I felt triggered by your what you saying like that,

1067
00:51:12,160 --> 00:51:15,840
Speaker 5: not because you've taken an autonomy over your decision, but

1068
00:51:15,920 --> 00:51:17,359
Speaker 5: I think that like a lot of women, when they

1069
00:51:17,360 --> 00:51:19,879
Speaker 5: push this narrative around, like I don't take chance to part,

1070
00:51:19,920 --> 00:51:21,560
Speaker 5: and I'm like, well, it's really just because.

1071
00:51:21,400 --> 00:51:24,160
Speaker 4: I don't like drama, Like I just and honestly, I

1072
00:51:24,160 --> 00:51:26,360
Speaker 4: don't want a man telling me how to do anything.

1073
00:51:26,800 --> 00:51:28,839
Speaker 4: And once a man starts paying for shit, then he

1074
00:51:28,880 --> 00:51:31,120
Speaker 4: wants to like his opinions, and I think you, I

1075
00:51:31,120 --> 00:51:32,600
Speaker 4: don't want to. I don't give a fuck about a

1076
00:51:32,640 --> 00:51:35,080
Speaker 4: nigga gotta say about shit. So it's easier for me

1077
00:51:35,239 --> 00:51:38,040
Speaker 4: if I just beat it because I don't want you

1078
00:51:38,080 --> 00:51:40,239
Speaker 4: calling me on some I think the baby should go

1079
00:51:40,239 --> 00:51:42,120
Speaker 4: to this school. I don't give a fuck what you think.

1080
00:51:42,280 --> 00:51:45,560
Speaker 4: Like I'm that person. So that's just me though, like

1081
00:51:45,640 --> 00:51:48,560
Speaker 4: I'm super me though, Like so everybody else has their

1082
00:51:48,600 --> 00:51:51,120
Speaker 4: own thing. I don't like men. When men start talking

1083
00:51:51,160 --> 00:51:54,440
Speaker 4: to me, I'm I'm not gonna lie. When men start

1084
00:51:54,480 --> 00:51:59,720
Speaker 4: talking to me, I get angry, like shot the fuck

1085
00:51:59,840 --> 00:52:04,400
Speaker 4: up on everything. But that's just me, and so everyone

1086
00:52:04,480 --> 00:52:07,919
Speaker 4: has their own journey. I just don't like men's opinions

1087
00:52:08,040 --> 00:52:10,200
Speaker 4: on anything, especially the raising of the I don't want

1088
00:52:10,200 --> 00:52:11,320
Speaker 4: their input on anything.

1089
00:52:11,360 --> 00:52:12,759
Speaker 2: And if you take the money, then you have to

1090
00:52:12,760 --> 00:52:13,480
Speaker 2: do then there's.

1091
00:52:13,360 --> 00:52:16,720
Speaker 4: Input, and I don't want input, and that's.

1092
00:52:21,040 --> 00:52:21,480
Speaker 6: That's just me.

1093
00:52:21,719 --> 00:52:23,600
Speaker 4: I don't want input. I don't I don't need you,

1094
00:52:23,640 --> 00:52:26,160
Speaker 4: I don't need your money. I don't need it. So

1095
00:52:26,239 --> 00:52:29,279
Speaker 4: that there's that we're good, and I don't want the

1096
00:52:29,400 --> 00:52:32,439
Speaker 4: input on anything. If I ask a question, then answer

1097
00:52:32,520 --> 00:52:35,800
Speaker 4: my question. But I don't like the the unsolicited input

1098
00:52:35,880 --> 00:52:39,040
Speaker 4: that sometimes happens. I just like to live my life

1099
00:52:39,040 --> 00:52:40,320
Speaker 4: the way I want to live my life, and I

1100
00:52:40,360 --> 00:52:43,279
Speaker 4: don't like men interjecting and how I'm living my life

1101
00:52:43,360 --> 00:52:45,759
Speaker 4: or how I'm doing things. And that's just me personally,

1102
00:52:46,400 --> 00:52:49,360
Speaker 4: and that's just me as a mother, as a woman.

1103
00:52:49,680 --> 00:52:52,200
Speaker 4: I just I just want men to be quiet and

1104
00:52:52,280 --> 00:52:54,680
Speaker 4: just do what I tell them to do. But I'm

1105
00:52:54,719 --> 00:52:59,319
Speaker 4: also very domn that way, and so that's just my lifestyle.

1106
00:52:59,440 --> 00:53:03,080
Speaker 4: That's not every one's lifestyle. I like to boss men around,

1107
00:53:03,440 --> 00:53:05,759
Speaker 4: choke them out, like it's just a thing that I do.

1108
00:53:08,200 --> 00:53:09,839
Speaker 2: Cheers to living life on our.

1109
00:53:09,800 --> 00:53:12,360
Speaker 4: Own terms, a little bit left on your own.

1110
00:53:12,239 --> 00:53:14,759
Speaker 5: Terms, our own terms, right, Women living life on their

1111
00:53:14,800 --> 00:53:18,040
Speaker 5: own terms, no matter where you fall in the domination spectrum.

1112
00:53:18,680 --> 00:53:21,359
Speaker 4: That's just me. But I understand I do understand why

1113
00:53:22,360 --> 00:53:25,440
Speaker 4: women go through the process. Also, don't like stress. It is.

1114
00:53:25,520 --> 00:53:27,720
Speaker 4: It's hard, like going to court is just hard.

1115
00:53:27,800 --> 00:53:28,120
Speaker 2: It is.

1116
00:53:28,239 --> 00:53:30,640
Speaker 5: It was, and I pray, I thank god it didn't

1117
00:53:30,680 --> 00:53:33,359
Speaker 5: take too too long. And that's why I tell women

1118
00:53:33,480 --> 00:53:35,040
Speaker 5: what they do go down that path, just be prepared.

1119
00:53:35,080 --> 00:53:35,800
Speaker 2: It's not cute.

1120
00:53:36,120 --> 00:53:38,719
Speaker 5: You feel really gross throughout it. And I almost gave

1121
00:53:38,800 --> 00:53:40,640
Speaker 5: up a few times, and I'm glad I didn't. I'm

1122
00:53:40,640 --> 00:53:43,040
Speaker 5: glad that I followed through and that I don't have

1123
00:53:43,080 --> 00:53:45,680
Speaker 5: to ask for shit and then it's just done and

1124
00:53:45,719 --> 00:53:47,080
Speaker 5: I don't have to think about it and we don't

1125
00:53:47,120 --> 00:53:49,120
Speaker 5: have to talk about it. We literally don't talk about

1126
00:53:49,160 --> 00:53:52,719
Speaker 5: money at all anymore. And that became a that became peace,

1127
00:53:52,760 --> 00:53:55,799
Speaker 5: and that became my peace in my life. But it

1128
00:53:55,840 --> 00:54:00,120
Speaker 5: didn't it didn't come without trials and a lot of

1129
00:54:00,120 --> 00:54:02,800
Speaker 5: self doubt and uncomfortability, and.

1130
00:54:02,880 --> 00:54:04,400
Speaker 2: It was it was. It's not for everybody.

1131
00:54:04,600 --> 00:54:08,320
Speaker 4: Yeah, I agree. So I think that to your point,

1132
00:54:08,600 --> 00:54:11,640
Speaker 4: if she goes forward, she has to understand there's a

1133
00:54:11,640 --> 00:54:14,000
Speaker 4: great possibility she'll be a single parent going through this,

1134
00:54:14,360 --> 00:54:15,840
Speaker 4: and she may have to go through the child support

1135
00:54:15,880 --> 00:54:18,760
Speaker 4: process in the court, and that's difficult and it's hard,

1136
00:54:18,840 --> 00:54:21,960
Speaker 4: but it's worth it. In the end hopefully and everyone,

1137
00:54:22,000 --> 00:54:24,200
Speaker 4: but also too like she doesn't have to, she doesn't

1138
00:54:24,239 --> 00:54:26,480
Speaker 4: want to, it's completely up to her and what she

1139
00:54:26,520 --> 00:54:27,120
Speaker 4: wants to do.

1140
00:54:27,600 --> 00:54:29,919
Speaker 2: Yeah, do you re birth?

1141
00:54:30,000 --> 00:54:33,800
Speaker 6: And we make the rolest.

1142
00:54:33,080 --> 00:54:35,640
Speaker 4: Being a black woman, a black person, but just speaking

1143
00:54:35,640 --> 00:54:40,799
Speaker 4: about women in just in general, it's really difficult. And

1144
00:54:40,840 --> 00:54:43,320
Speaker 4: the concept, which is something I wasn't raised with, was

1145
00:54:43,400 --> 00:54:46,440
Speaker 4: just like, you have to work twice as hard to

1146
00:54:46,520 --> 00:54:48,279
Speaker 4: get the same thing. I didn't grow up with that

1147
00:54:50,280 --> 00:54:52,560
Speaker 4: I work half as much like and I don't want to,

1148
00:54:52,560 --> 00:54:55,440
Speaker 4: and I want the same things. I want to live soft,

1149
00:54:55,840 --> 00:54:58,200
Speaker 4: I want to live easy. I want to work half

1150
00:54:58,239 --> 00:55:02,680
Speaker 4: as much and get the same things. And for me,

1151
00:55:03,960 --> 00:55:07,400
Speaker 4: that works. And then when anyone questions me, I just

1152
00:55:07,440 --> 00:55:10,560
Speaker 4: tell them I'm tapping into my white privilege because.

1153
00:55:12,080 --> 00:55:12,479
Speaker 2: I am.

1154
00:55:12,600 --> 00:55:14,520
Speaker 4: I am, because I am.

1155
00:55:14,600 --> 00:55:15,160
Speaker 2: That's it.

1156
00:55:15,280 --> 00:55:18,359
Speaker 4: I'm going to do very little. I'm going to earn

1157
00:55:18,600 --> 00:55:20,520
Speaker 4: just as much, and I'm not going to work myself

1158
00:55:20,560 --> 00:55:23,279
Speaker 4: to the bone. I'm not going to miss out on

1159
00:55:23,320 --> 00:55:25,600
Speaker 4: my family moments, I'm not going to miss out on

1160
00:55:26,080 --> 00:55:28,520
Speaker 4: community moments. I'm not going to miss out on life

1161
00:55:28,600 --> 00:55:31,480
Speaker 4: because I'm working myself to the bone to earn every

1162
00:55:31,520 --> 00:55:35,000
Speaker 4: single thing that a mediocre white man has to work

1163
00:55:35,000 --> 00:55:37,920
Speaker 4: two hours to build, and I'm working for seven days

1164
00:55:37,920 --> 00:55:40,200
Speaker 4: for the same thing he does in two hours. I

1165
00:55:40,280 --> 00:55:45,600
Speaker 4: just literally refuse to do it. I think that, and

1166
00:55:45,640 --> 00:55:48,040
Speaker 4: it's really it's really interesting to me too. How like

1167
00:55:48,080 --> 00:55:53,680
Speaker 4: in American society, they only show slavery as the history,

1168
00:55:53,880 --> 00:55:54,680
Speaker 4: and that's not fair.

1169
00:55:54,760 --> 00:55:57,480
Speaker 3: It's intentional, though it is intentional. If you think your

1170
00:55:57,520 --> 00:55:59,880
Speaker 3: history begins there, then you'll be blinded by what you

1171
00:56:00,400 --> 00:56:00,759
Speaker 3: And the.

1172
00:56:00,640 --> 00:56:04,640
Speaker 4: Fact that they call people of color minorities when you're

1173
00:56:04,680 --> 00:56:08,719
Speaker 4: actually the global majority is wild. Like you may be

1174
00:56:08,960 --> 00:56:12,560
Speaker 4: the minority in your community, even if you were the

1175
00:56:12,560 --> 00:56:17,600
Speaker 4: minority in America, globally, you're the majority because people of color.

1176
00:56:18,040 --> 00:56:19,080
Speaker 4: It's all colors.

1177
00:56:19,680 --> 00:56:22,000
Speaker 2: So that's how big we know Africa is.

1178
00:56:21,960 --> 00:56:26,279
Speaker 4: On the map exactly. You're the global populations. So you

1179
00:56:26,280 --> 00:56:29,000
Speaker 4: stop calling yourself a minority and you start calling yourself

1180
00:56:29,000 --> 00:56:32,960
Speaker 4: a global majority. And it changed. It just shifts the beliefs.

1181
00:56:33,520 --> 00:56:37,640
Speaker 4: I cannot believe. I still can't how many people are

1182
00:56:37,680 --> 00:56:40,920
Speaker 4: pro You keep seeing the word programming, and I cannot

1183
00:56:40,960 --> 00:56:46,400
Speaker 4: believe that people are still programmed, like you're chat GPT,

1184
00:56:46,680 --> 00:56:50,279
Speaker 4: like you've taken information and then that's the only thing,

1185
00:56:50,320 --> 00:56:54,400
Speaker 4: you know, and that's wild system.

1186
00:56:54,520 --> 00:56:57,799
Speaker 2: That's what you've adopted as true. No investigation.

1187
00:56:57,960 --> 00:57:00,480
Speaker 4: Well that's no investigation, yeah, exactly, Well you.

1188
00:57:00,480 --> 00:57:03,080
Speaker 3: Have to have the brain of an investigator. I do

1189
00:57:03,200 --> 00:57:05,799
Speaker 3: believe it's interesting. Like sometimes people just come into the

1190
00:57:05,800 --> 00:57:09,840
Speaker 3: world curious and clear and like, are.

1191
00:57:09,680 --> 00:57:11,640
Speaker 6: You sure this is what God is? Or like you

1192
00:57:11,680 --> 00:57:12,600
Speaker 6: know kids.

1193
00:57:12,280 --> 00:57:15,520
Speaker 3: Generally and like, but then you become like hypnotized in

1194
00:57:15,560 --> 00:57:19,520
Speaker 3: a trance. If you've never seen anything different, How could

1195
00:57:19,560 --> 00:57:22,720
Speaker 3: you know it exists unless you have the imagination that

1196
00:57:22,880 --> 00:57:26,480
Speaker 3: is curious and that is like once to create and

1197
00:57:26,520 --> 00:57:29,080
Speaker 3: every And I do think, like you talked earlier about,

1198
00:57:29,720 --> 00:57:33,080
Speaker 3: you know, the majority of people, unfortunately, the majority of

1199
00:57:33,120 --> 00:57:35,240
Speaker 3: people are easily programmed.

1200
00:57:35,760 --> 00:57:36,880
Speaker 4: That's so weird to me.

1201
00:57:37,480 --> 00:57:38,600
Speaker 6: Me too, it's so.

1202
00:57:38,680 --> 00:57:39,120
Speaker 2: Weird to me.

1203
00:57:39,200 --> 00:57:41,280
Speaker 4: I still don't understand.

1204
00:57:41,440 --> 00:57:44,520
Speaker 5: Well, we've been like a great marketing test. I feel like,

1205
00:57:44,560 --> 00:57:46,080
Speaker 5: specifically in America.

1206
00:57:45,800 --> 00:57:47,480
Speaker 6: Like this is like marketing. It's psychological.

1207
00:57:47,480 --> 00:57:51,720
Speaker 5: I mean, it's well, it's psychological warfare. It's marketing that

1208
00:57:51,760 --> 00:57:54,680
Speaker 5: they've marketed towards us to believe, to tap into believe.

1209
00:57:54,720 --> 00:57:56,280
Speaker 2: It's advertising, but advertising.

1210
00:57:56,320 --> 00:57:57,720
Speaker 3: I just want you to know, you guys, it's like

1211
00:57:58,680 --> 00:58:03,040
Speaker 3: the like hypnosis of this subconscious brain. They studied your

1212
00:58:03,080 --> 00:58:07,120
Speaker 3: brain and subliminal messages so that you could easily be progressed.

1213
00:58:07,120 --> 00:58:08,760
Speaker 5: You knew how many times you needed to hear something

1214
00:58:08,760 --> 00:58:11,160
Speaker 5: to believe it. Like they know the way you need

1215
00:58:11,160 --> 00:58:13,720
Speaker 5: to hear it. They know the like the pronunciation of

1216
00:58:13,760 --> 00:58:15,600
Speaker 5: the words that you need to say it in a

1217
00:58:15,640 --> 00:58:19,520
Speaker 5: certain way. They know the cadence of the conversation that

1218
00:58:19,560 --> 00:58:20,560
Speaker 5: you need to hear in order.

1219
00:58:20,400 --> 00:58:20,920
Speaker 2: To believe it.

1220
00:58:20,920 --> 00:58:23,160
Speaker 5: That's why even as a public speaker, there's are what

1221
00:58:23,240 --> 00:58:26,040
Speaker 5: you get trained in order to understand how to speak

1222
00:58:26,080 --> 00:58:28,560
Speaker 5: and tap into someone's psyche. When you're a salesperson, you

1223
00:58:28,600 --> 00:58:31,720
Speaker 5: know what words, what words to say, how many times

1224
00:58:31,760 --> 00:58:36,200
Speaker 5: to say it, how to pronounce it, like put nunciations

1225
00:58:36,200 --> 00:58:37,840
Speaker 5: on certain words. Even when I was doing Home Shopping

1226
00:58:37,880 --> 00:58:39,480
Speaker 5: Network and I got all this coaching, it was like

1227
00:58:40,080 --> 00:58:43,120
Speaker 5: say this like really tappen, like not bring your voice

1228
00:58:43,200 --> 00:58:48,080
Speaker 5: down down and then bring them in and it's like subtle.

1229
00:58:48,160 --> 00:58:50,080
Speaker 2: It's very subtle, and it's and it's a beautiful skill

1230
00:58:50,120 --> 00:58:50,920
Speaker 2: to have. You have it.

1231
00:58:51,440 --> 00:58:53,240
Speaker 4: I do have, Yeah, you do use it often.

1232
00:58:53,360 --> 00:58:53,760
Speaker 2: You have it.

1233
00:58:53,800 --> 00:58:58,800
Speaker 4: And yes, I had media training during confessions and honestly,

1234
00:58:58,840 --> 00:59:01,800
Speaker 4: as an orator, and just as study or just as

1235
00:59:01,880 --> 00:59:07,600
Speaker 4: a studier of oration and as a reader, I understand words,

1236
00:59:08,400 --> 00:59:11,400
Speaker 4: the power of words, and how to use words to

1237
00:59:11,440 --> 00:59:13,959
Speaker 4: make people feel what I want them to feel.

1238
00:59:13,840 --> 00:59:14,520
Speaker 2: And hook them.

1239
00:59:14,680 --> 00:59:17,200
Speaker 4: So it's important to me for people to understand that

1240
00:59:17,240 --> 00:59:19,400
Speaker 4: if you hate me I wanted you to hate me,

1241
00:59:19,800 --> 00:59:21,680
Speaker 4: You're doing what I want you to do. You're not

1242
00:59:21,760 --> 00:59:25,480
Speaker 4: going against the grain, you're not bothering me. I want

1243
00:59:25,520 --> 00:59:29,200
Speaker 4: you to do that because I make money off that.

1244
00:59:29,520 --> 00:59:39,600
Speaker 4: I am now relevant. And also the visceral reactions, so

1245
00:59:39,720 --> 00:59:42,360
Speaker 4: visceral meaning whether you're one way or the other doesn't matter.

1246
00:59:42,400 --> 00:59:44,919
Speaker 4: I need you to have a visceral reaction. In order

1247
00:59:44,960 --> 00:59:48,160
Speaker 4: for me to tickle that visceral reaction inside of you,

1248
00:59:48,240 --> 00:59:50,200
Speaker 4: I have to use certain words in a certain way

1249
00:59:50,200 --> 00:59:53,160
Speaker 4: at a certain time, and that is the genius of

1250
00:59:53,200 --> 00:59:56,520
Speaker 4: a wordsmith. So everyone is doing exactly what I want

1251
00:59:56,600 --> 00:59:58,640
Speaker 4: them to do, how I want them to do it,

1252
00:59:58,680 --> 01:00:00,680
Speaker 4: when I want them to do it, because I control

1253
01:00:00,800 --> 01:00:04,360
Speaker 4: them and they don't control me. So then that goes

1254
01:00:04,440 --> 01:00:07,240
Speaker 4: back to what we talked about earlier. And no matter

1255
01:00:07,240 --> 01:00:10,560
Speaker 4: how people feel, I'm still in control. You think that

1256
01:00:10,640 --> 01:00:13,200
Speaker 4: you're controlling me by your opinion but your opinion is

1257
01:00:13,240 --> 01:00:14,920
Speaker 4: based on what I said, when I said it, how

1258
01:00:14,960 --> 01:00:17,360
Speaker 4: I said it, where I said it when I said it.

1259
01:00:17,760 --> 01:00:21,280
Speaker 4: Because everything I do is on purpose with purpose. So therefore,

1260
01:00:21,720 --> 01:00:24,280
Speaker 4: when I did Pierce Morgan, I haven't said anything and

1261
01:00:24,360 --> 01:00:28,080
Speaker 4: off social for almost a year. That was intentional. Then

1262
01:00:28,120 --> 01:00:31,120
Speaker 4: I waited till the decision from the court to be

1263
01:00:31,160 --> 01:00:33,880
Speaker 4: able to come out and now start talking. That's intentional.

1264
01:00:34,240 --> 01:00:37,840
Speaker 4: So now your reactions. Everything that I'm saying is intentional.

1265
01:00:37,880 --> 01:00:40,200
Speaker 4: When I was asked if me and Diddy had sex

1266
01:00:40,240 --> 01:00:44,400
Speaker 4: and I said not, to my recollection, that's intentional. For

1267
01:00:44,480 --> 01:00:46,560
Speaker 4: your reaction is what I want you to have. I

1268
01:00:46,600 --> 01:00:50,560
Speaker 4: am manipulating everybody here because I understand number one psychology,

1269
01:00:50,680 --> 01:00:53,160
Speaker 4: number two the English language, and I'm a fucking genius

1270
01:00:53,160 --> 01:00:54,560
Speaker 4: and which you ever fucking forget it?

1271
01:00:56,200 --> 01:01:00,360
Speaker 2: Period? Amen, I'm hooked. Got me.

1272
01:01:02,640 --> 01:01:04,919
Speaker 3: And this, ladies and gentlemen, is how you hypnotize the odds,

1273
01:01:04,960 --> 01:01:06,000
Speaker 3: And now I'm hypnotized.

1274
01:01:07,480 --> 01:01:07,919
Speaker 6: It's true.

1275
01:01:07,960 --> 01:01:10,240
Speaker 3: And I went to I was like in junior college

1276
01:01:10,240 --> 01:01:12,240
Speaker 3: and I are like just my first freshman year, and

1277
01:01:12,280 --> 01:01:15,320
Speaker 3: I did psychology and I started to learn the the

1278
01:01:15,480 --> 01:01:18,600
Speaker 3: development of media and the development of marketing and advertising

1279
01:01:18,600 --> 01:01:21,200
Speaker 3: and when the TV hit the market and radio hit

1280
01:01:21,240 --> 01:01:23,600
Speaker 3: the market, that there was also a deep study of

1281
01:01:23,640 --> 01:01:27,120
Speaker 3: the psychological brain and the subconscious. It's not like literally,

1282
01:01:27,120 --> 01:01:29,600
Speaker 3: I in the car, I turned down commercials like if

1283
01:01:29,640 --> 01:01:33,200
Speaker 3: then radios on. I never listened to programming. I'm so aware.

1284
01:01:33,320 --> 01:01:36,560
Speaker 3: Even like when Luna was a baby, I started to

1285
01:01:36,600 --> 01:01:38,960
Speaker 3: notice if we would like drive by Jumba Juice, she'd

1286
01:01:38,960 --> 01:01:42,120
Speaker 3: be like juice and like how her brain was associating

1287
01:01:42,160 --> 01:01:44,440
Speaker 3: the logos at such a young age. I was like, Oh,

1288
01:01:44,440 --> 01:01:46,880
Speaker 3: this shit is for real, and like how like the

1289
01:01:46,920 --> 01:01:49,480
Speaker 3: Mermaid of like even things that we don't even remember

1290
01:01:49,680 --> 01:01:53,960
Speaker 3: in this lifetime, there are things and symbolisms and colors

1291
01:01:54,000 --> 01:01:57,240
Speaker 3: and shapes that trigger, you know, knowledge of past lives

1292
01:01:57,280 --> 01:01:59,280
Speaker 3: and like our subconscious on a deep, deep level.

1293
01:01:59,360 --> 01:02:02,200
Speaker 6: So don't fuck around. That shit is real and true.

1294
01:02:02,440 --> 01:02:05,080
Speaker 4: And I spent many years working as a senior copywriter

1295
01:02:05,400 --> 01:02:10,200
Speaker 4: in corporate marketing, so I am well versed in obviously

1296
01:02:10,280 --> 01:02:13,560
Speaker 4: marketing and anything copywriting, anything words is like my vibe.

1297
01:02:13,600 --> 01:02:18,280
Speaker 5: Yeah, there's an emotional Like there's an emotional aspect to

1298
01:02:18,320 --> 01:02:21,800
Speaker 5: that as well, where you know how to like ooka

1299
01:02:21,840 --> 01:02:24,960
Speaker 5: in that hook in that customer early and then keep

1300
01:02:24,960 --> 01:02:26,440
Speaker 5: them there, keep them coming.

1301
01:02:28,800 --> 01:02:29,600
Speaker 2: The bob is bobbing.

1302
01:02:29,600 --> 01:02:31,680
Speaker 5: Okay, as someone said in the chat, the bob is

1303
01:02:31,680 --> 01:02:34,440
Speaker 5: the main character.

1304
01:02:37,000 --> 01:02:37,720
Speaker 4: Is it bobbing?

1305
01:02:38,440 --> 01:02:41,560
Speaker 2: I think it's tarot time? Okay. I would love for

1306
01:02:41,560 --> 01:02:45,480
Speaker 2: you to pick a card please, and thank you. You

1307
01:02:45,600 --> 01:02:47,919
Speaker 2: to close your eyes, your hand over there.

1308
01:02:48,160 --> 01:03:00,360
Speaker 9: Okay, give it some energy.

1309
01:03:11,080 --> 01:03:22,440
Speaker 7: Ham.

1310
01:03:22,560 --> 01:03:25,520
Speaker 2: It's two days ago. We're still in it. Yeah, the Yeah,

1311
01:03:25,720 --> 01:03:27,200
Speaker 2: we did Capricorn.

1312
01:03:28,680 --> 01:03:30,360
Speaker 6: The World, the World.

1313
01:03:30,560 --> 01:03:34,960
Speaker 2: See she pulled the world card, not.

1314
01:03:35,080 --> 01:03:35,880
Speaker 4: Me pulling the world.

1315
01:03:36,160 --> 01:03:37,720
Speaker 2: Let me see what does it look like? What do you?

1316
01:03:37,760 --> 01:03:40,240
Speaker 2: What do you when you see it? What do you see?

1317
01:03:40,960 --> 01:03:44,400
Speaker 4: I see a beautiful brown woman with wavy hair as

1318
01:03:44,440 --> 01:03:48,320
Speaker 4: I have, and she seems to be dancing, twirling with

1319
01:03:48,440 --> 01:03:54,440
Speaker 4: a snake. So me, bitch, so me give me tattoos.

1320
01:03:54,600 --> 01:03:55,680
Speaker 4: I do have tattoos?

1321
01:03:55,920 --> 01:03:56,400
Speaker 6: How many?

1322
01:03:56,880 --> 01:03:59,200
Speaker 4: I have one? Really not really big. I have a

1323
01:03:59,320 --> 01:04:01,439
Speaker 4: tattoo that goes from hip bone to hip bone around

1324
01:04:01,480 --> 01:04:07,080
Speaker 4: my back of naked nymphs in a garden, really wing winged,

1325
01:04:07,640 --> 01:04:08,640
Speaker 4: naked naked.

1326
01:04:09,760 --> 01:04:11,080
Speaker 2: Yeah I'm not to see that later.

1327
01:04:15,880 --> 01:04:19,160
Speaker 4: So this is my card. So it's the world. There's

1328
01:04:19,240 --> 01:04:27,000
Speaker 4: a lion, there's a steer, there's an eagle. There's a woman, yeah,

1329
01:04:27,080 --> 01:04:29,600
Speaker 4: what the fuck. But honestly, me pulling the world is

1330
01:04:29,640 --> 01:04:31,120
Speaker 4: so me, it's so me coated.

1331
01:04:31,720 --> 01:04:32,959
Speaker 2: You said you're the center of your world.

1332
01:04:33,000 --> 01:04:35,760
Speaker 4: I'm the center. I'm the center I am.

1333
01:04:35,880 --> 01:04:38,480
Speaker 5: I'm just giving very much center of the world energy

1334
01:04:38,560 --> 01:04:40,480
Speaker 5: in the circle of this reef.

1335
01:04:40,800 --> 01:04:43,400
Speaker 3: I mean, you're like the beautiful glow up example of

1336
01:04:43,560 --> 01:04:44,760
Speaker 3: staying in your.

1337
01:04:44,600 --> 01:04:47,120
Speaker 6: Own bubble, and like, how beneficial it could be. I

1338
01:04:47,160 --> 01:04:48,479
Speaker 6: can't hear, I can't see ship.

1339
01:04:48,920 --> 01:04:50,360
Speaker 4: I don't know. I don't know what's going on.

1340
01:04:50,560 --> 01:04:51,280
Speaker 2: With you people.

1341
01:04:51,320 --> 01:04:56,040
Speaker 4: I don't know what's happening. I am. I'm somewhere in upstate.

1342
01:04:55,680 --> 01:04:59,800
Speaker 2: New York and the Catskills Hudson Valley, not with a

1343
01:04:59,800 --> 01:05:01,680
Speaker 2: white man at.

1344
01:05:01,560 --> 01:05:06,360
Speaker 5: All, totally the white men at all, and and and

1345
01:05:06,440 --> 01:05:08,120
Speaker 5: my gardens and my gardens.

1346
01:05:08,280 --> 01:05:10,160
Speaker 4: Yeah, I'm just living a different line. I have no

1347
01:05:10,200 --> 01:05:12,480
Speaker 4: idea what's going on with a few people.

1348
01:05:13,240 --> 01:05:15,320
Speaker 6: You're like, no, don't happen, there's nothing going on.

1349
01:05:15,360 --> 01:05:16,360
Speaker 4: What's happening down here?

1350
01:05:17,120 --> 01:05:18,640
Speaker 2: Tell us what's happening with the world, Jamila.

1351
01:05:18,840 --> 01:05:21,680
Speaker 3: Do you know when the world card appears in a

1352
01:05:21,720 --> 01:05:25,520
Speaker 3: tarot reading, you are glowing with a sense of wholeness, achievement, fulfillment,

1353
01:05:25,560 --> 01:05:30,040
Speaker 3: and completion a long term project, period of study, relationship,

1354
01:05:30,120 --> 01:05:32,760
Speaker 3: or career has come full circle, and you are now

1355
01:05:32,960 --> 01:05:37,560
Speaker 3: reveling in the sense of closure and accomplishment. This card

1356
01:05:37,640 --> 01:05:46,320
Speaker 3: could represent graduation, a marriage, the birth of a child,

1357
01:05:46,600 --> 01:05:50,120
Speaker 3: or achieving a long held dream or aspiration. You have

1358
01:05:50,440 --> 01:05:53,800
Speaker 3: finally accomplished your goal or purpose. Everything has come together

1359
01:05:53,880 --> 01:05:56,560
Speaker 3: and you are in the right space, doing the right thing,

1360
01:05:56,600 --> 01:06:00,560
Speaker 3: achieving what you have envisioned. You feel whole and complete now.

1361
01:06:00,680 --> 01:06:03,200
Speaker 3: The World card invites you to reflect on your journey,

1362
01:06:03,480 --> 01:06:07,280
Speaker 3: honor your achievements, and tune into your spiritual lessons. Celebrate

1363
01:06:07,320 --> 01:06:09,560
Speaker 3: your success and bask in the joy of having brought

1364
01:06:09,600 --> 01:06:14,240
Speaker 3: your goals to fruition. All the triumphs and tribulations along

1365
01:06:14,280 --> 01:06:17,840
Speaker 3: your path have made you into the strong, wise, more

1366
01:06:17,880 --> 01:06:22,200
Speaker 3: experienced person you are now. Express gratitude for what you've

1367
01:06:22,200 --> 01:06:25,800
Speaker 3: created and harvested. Finally, make sure you don't rush into

1368
01:06:25,880 --> 01:06:29,040
Speaker 3: the next big project. Celebrating your journey will set you

1369
01:06:29,120 --> 01:06:32,520
Speaker 3: up for success when you're ready for your next challenge.

1370
01:06:33,880 --> 01:06:35,840
Speaker 3: If you have not quite reached this point of completion,

1371
01:06:35,920 --> 01:06:37,920
Speaker 3: then you are very close. You may still need to

1372
01:06:38,000 --> 01:06:40,400
Speaker 3: add a level of understanding to graduate to a higher

1373
01:06:40,480 --> 01:06:43,919
Speaker 3: level and enjoy real success, look back at past experiences,

1374
01:06:44,040 --> 01:06:46,480
Speaker 3: acknowledge how far you've come and what you've learned along

1375
01:06:46,520 --> 01:06:50,320
Speaker 3: the way. How beautiful for your twentieth year anniversary of this,

1376
01:06:50,520 --> 01:06:54,400
Speaker 3: of this like epic book, your first like like your

1377
01:06:54,400 --> 01:06:57,120
Speaker 3: first published book, and now you're here, and it's like

1378
01:06:57,600 --> 01:06:59,680
Speaker 3: it's still relevant, it's still important.

1379
01:07:00,240 --> 01:07:02,480
Speaker 6: Everything you said was to be true, and like.

1380
01:07:02,440 --> 01:07:05,040
Speaker 4: Everything I said, like I warned you guys, Like when

1381
01:07:05,040 --> 01:07:07,840
Speaker 4: I go through confessions and I I'm reading bits and

1382
01:07:07,880 --> 01:07:09,520
Speaker 4: pieces of it, I'm like, how did you guys not

1383
01:07:09,560 --> 01:07:12,520
Speaker 4: see what I was saying? Like, bro, I told you

1384
01:07:12,560 --> 01:07:14,880
Speaker 4: what was happening. I told you there's some shit going

1385
01:07:14,880 --> 01:07:18,320
Speaker 4: on that's not cool. But you're so you're so in

1386
01:07:18,360 --> 01:07:22,200
Speaker 4: this country, so you demonize sex so much that you

1387
01:07:22,200 --> 01:07:24,919
Speaker 4: were so stuck on the sexual part. You're not looking

1388
01:07:24,960 --> 01:07:28,440
Speaker 4: at what was happening around the sex, you know what

1389
01:07:28,480 --> 01:07:32,560
Speaker 4: I mean? And and sex is so natural to me

1390
01:07:32,720 --> 01:07:35,439
Speaker 4: and such a regular part of life that I didn't

1391
01:07:35,520 --> 01:07:41,360
Speaker 4: understand the demonization of the female autonomy. I didn't realize

1392
01:07:41,360 --> 01:07:44,120
Speaker 4: that the United States hates female autonomy. I didn't understand

1393
01:07:44,520 --> 01:07:46,840
Speaker 4: hates it. And then when you go back to look

1394
01:07:46,920 --> 01:07:50,720
Speaker 4: at like the feminine product, the feminine product ads of

1395
01:07:50,760 --> 01:07:55,080
Speaker 4: like the nineteen fifties, forties, forties, fifties, sixties, How they

1396
01:07:55,120 --> 01:08:00,440
Speaker 4: demonize women's bodies, How they told us to douche with lysol.

1397
01:08:00,000 --> 01:08:05,280
Speaker 4: What the lifesaw douche ads are wild, bro, How they

1398
01:08:05,320 --> 01:08:08,360
Speaker 4: said that our bodies were disgusting, How our husbands were

1399
01:08:08,440 --> 01:08:11,360
Speaker 4: leaving us because we stunk. Have you seen these in

1400
01:08:11,480 --> 01:08:16,519
Speaker 4: this Have you not maybe revisit that life saw feminine product.

1401
01:08:16,600 --> 01:08:19,000
Speaker 4: You literally had the douche with light saw for your

1402
01:08:19,080 --> 01:08:22,600
Speaker 4: husband to stay with you. There was a there was

1403
01:08:22,640 --> 01:08:24,760
Speaker 4: a you guys drank at the same time that was

1404
01:08:27,080 --> 01:08:32,760
Speaker 4: that was crazy. There were Folgers coffee ads in the

1405
01:08:32,800 --> 01:08:37,040
Speaker 4: early nineteen eighties maybe late seventies that were all geared

1406
01:08:37,080 --> 01:08:41,200
Speaker 4: to the woman who just did everything wrong and the

1407
01:08:41,320 --> 01:08:45,760
Speaker 4: one right thing she did was make Folgers coffee. It

1408
01:08:45,800 --> 01:08:48,840
Speaker 4: was like ads for so many decades were about how

1409
01:08:48,880 --> 01:08:49,840
Speaker 4: awful women were.

1410
01:08:50,360 --> 01:08:55,000
Speaker 5: Programming not even it's the programming. Yeah it's subliminal, but

1411
01:08:55,080 --> 01:08:57,000
Speaker 5: not even like pretty much we hate you.

1412
01:08:57,200 --> 01:09:00,360
Speaker 4: So now, even though we were not alive at this time,

1413
01:09:00,400 --> 01:09:02,559
Speaker 4: you have to think about who was alive at this time,

1414
01:09:02,600 --> 01:09:04,880
Speaker 4: and then those are the people who raised you. So

1415
01:09:04,920 --> 01:09:08,320
Speaker 4: the grandmothers who raised your mothers, the mothers who raised you,

1416
01:09:08,439 --> 01:09:12,160
Speaker 4: and so the programming carries on. And then you have

1417
01:09:12,240 --> 01:09:14,960
Speaker 4: to think about also the programming of the nineteen eighties

1418
01:09:15,000 --> 01:09:19,439
Speaker 4: when AIDS hit really big and how sex became bad

1419
01:09:20,120 --> 01:09:22,960
Speaker 4: and like you had to have sex with your married

1420
01:09:23,040 --> 01:09:25,759
Speaker 4: partner or whatever it was, or you know, you couldn't

1421
01:09:25,760 --> 01:09:29,760
Speaker 4: have casual sex because casual sex was killing people. And

1422
01:09:29,840 --> 01:09:34,200
Speaker 4: so we still got this programming decades later, even though

1423
01:09:34,240 --> 01:09:38,439
Speaker 4: we now understand how to protect ourselves and that you know,

1424
01:09:38,479 --> 01:09:42,200
Speaker 4: we can have casual sex without dying, like it doesn't

1425
01:09:42,240 --> 01:09:45,920
Speaker 4: have to be so dire to where a single woman

1426
01:09:46,240 --> 01:09:49,439
Speaker 4: is going to die if she's having sex with people

1427
01:09:49,520 --> 01:09:53,240
Speaker 4: that she's not married to. But that programming, those are

1428
01:09:53,240 --> 01:09:55,360
Speaker 4: the people who raised you. And so you know, you're

1429
01:09:55,400 --> 01:09:57,880
Speaker 4: you're getting this kind of hand me down programming and

1430
01:09:57,920 --> 01:10:01,400
Speaker 4: you're wondering. Some like me comes along and you're like,

1431
01:10:02,360 --> 01:10:05,120
Speaker 4: what is this shit? Like what do you mean sexual autonomy?

1432
01:10:05,120 --> 01:10:06,640
Speaker 4: And you can have sex with whoever you want to,

1433
01:10:06,680 --> 01:10:08,880
Speaker 4: whenever you want to, however you want, wherever you want to,

1434
01:10:09,479 --> 01:10:12,680
Speaker 4: and it really upset people and fuck them, I don't care.

1435
01:10:12,800 --> 01:10:21,400
Speaker 4: But listen, no matter what relationship, non relationship. I still

1436
01:10:21,400 --> 01:10:24,320
Speaker 4: hold on to my sexual autonomy. I can do whatever

1437
01:10:24,320 --> 01:10:27,280
Speaker 4: I want, whenever I want, with whomever I want, how

1438
01:10:27,320 --> 01:10:32,120
Speaker 4: I want, and no society will take that from me.

1439
01:10:33,960 --> 01:10:37,160
Speaker 4: Sometimes it just so happens that the sex that I

1440
01:10:37,200 --> 01:10:41,280
Speaker 4: want is with one person, and that's what I want,

1441
01:10:42,160 --> 01:10:44,640
Speaker 4: and the option here, and the thing about feminism is

1442
01:10:44,680 --> 01:10:47,800
Speaker 4: about options and that I don't have to do what

1443
01:10:47,840 --> 01:10:49,840
Speaker 4: you tell me, or you tell me, or you tell me.

1444
01:10:50,080 --> 01:10:52,839
Speaker 4: I do what I tell me to do. And sometimes

1445
01:10:52,840 --> 01:10:55,240
Speaker 4: what I want to do is to be with just

1446
01:10:55,360 --> 01:10:59,720
Speaker 4: one really awesome, amazing person and only have sex with

1447
01:10:59,720 --> 01:11:04,519
Speaker 4: that one person for years and years and years and years.

1448
01:11:05,080 --> 01:11:07,320
Speaker 4: And that's my choice as a feminist.

1449
01:11:08,120 --> 01:11:10,920
Speaker 2: Mm hmm. That's the direction you're going in.

1450
01:11:10,960 --> 01:11:13,800
Speaker 4: You want to just sometimes I want I don't know's

1451
01:11:15,080 --> 01:11:15,840
Speaker 4: I'm heavy on this.

1452
01:11:15,920 --> 01:11:18,920
Speaker 5: Sometimes sometimes I'm old battle gang bank.

1453
01:11:18,960 --> 01:11:21,599
Speaker 4: I don't know, to me not to me? Whatever I want.

1454
01:11:21,640 --> 01:11:24,400
Speaker 6: A nice little gang bank can go a long way.

1455
01:11:25,120 --> 01:11:26,559
Speaker 4: Are you gonna tell us about your.

1456
01:11:28,160 --> 01:11:31,160
Speaker 6: Am I guess I can share my HOORI now.

1457
01:11:35,760 --> 01:11:37,320
Speaker 4: Who stories?

1458
01:11:40,120 --> 01:11:40,960
Speaker 2: This is the horror story?

1459
01:11:41,280 --> 01:11:41,439
Speaker 4: You know?

1460
01:11:41,520 --> 01:11:44,479
Speaker 6: Every time every time Elizabeth comes, I feel motivated as

1461
01:11:44,520 --> 01:11:45,719
Speaker 6: you bring you back from the garden.

1462
01:11:45,760 --> 01:11:46,840
Speaker 2: And even though she's.

1463
01:11:46,880 --> 01:11:48,559
Speaker 3: Literally has a pearl on her neck right now, she

1464
01:11:48,560 --> 01:11:51,400
Speaker 3: has a pearl and alais one single pearl on her

1465
01:11:51,479 --> 01:11:55,920
Speaker 3: neck with her low cut v neck exposed, just a

1466
01:11:55,920 --> 01:11:58,040
Speaker 3: little classic cleavage, little little pearl.

1467
01:11:58,080 --> 01:12:00,880
Speaker 4: What's the matter with the pearl? I'm clutching my.

1468
01:12:02,320 --> 01:12:02,519
Speaker 2: One.

1469
01:12:02,600 --> 01:12:08,559
Speaker 4: This is clutching my pearl, Like these holes are crazy, crazy.

1470
01:12:08,640 --> 01:12:09,960
Speaker 4: But tell me about your m M.

1471
01:12:10,560 --> 01:12:13,920
Speaker 6: Last time you were here, I shared a story three years.

1472
01:12:13,760 --> 01:12:17,720
Speaker 3: Ago where I went to my fuck buddy's house and

1473
01:12:17,760 --> 01:12:19,840
Speaker 3: he had a trans woman there and like we like

1474
01:12:19,880 --> 01:12:22,559
Speaker 3: tried to have a threesome. And that was the story

1475
01:12:22,600 --> 01:12:25,200
Speaker 3: I told you last time because the day we interviewed,

1476
01:12:25,280 --> 01:12:27,320
Speaker 3: I almost slept in because I just come home from

1477
01:12:27,320 --> 01:12:30,360
Speaker 3: that and Orlando was calling me from New York like, bitch,

1478
01:12:30,400 --> 01:12:32,479
Speaker 3: wake up, and I was telling him that I was.

1479
01:12:32,520 --> 01:12:33,640
Speaker 2: I told my boyfriend about it.

1480
01:12:33,680 --> 01:12:36,080
Speaker 3: But now my boyfriend's my fiance and he's here, and

1481
01:12:36,120 --> 01:12:37,240
Speaker 3: now my horry includes him.

1482
01:12:37,240 --> 01:12:38,479
Speaker 6: Aren't you happy you moved here?

1483
01:12:38,520 --> 01:12:38,840
Speaker 2: Babe?

1484
01:12:39,479 --> 01:12:40,479
Speaker 6: They don't have to hear about my.

1485
01:12:42,040 --> 01:12:42,639
Speaker 2: I'm lying.

1486
01:12:44,360 --> 01:12:46,800
Speaker 4: He's happy like a pig and ship like he's so

1487
01:12:46,920 --> 01:12:49,360
Speaker 4: fucking happy, Like what would you gonna be doing?

1488
01:12:49,680 --> 01:12:50,639
Speaker 2: A desk and ship.

1489
01:12:50,680 --> 01:12:52,320
Speaker 4: You were gonna be in the Bronx somewhere, like what

1490
01:12:52,520 --> 01:12:55,680
Speaker 4: was you gonna be doing nothing? He would be doing nothing,

1491
01:12:55,960 --> 01:12:58,280
Speaker 4: not you went best? I doing nothing? Like what do

1492
01:12:58,360 --> 01:13:00,000
Speaker 4: you mean, Mila saved your life?

1493
01:13:00,200 --> 01:13:00,519
Speaker 6: I did.

1494
01:13:00,560 --> 01:13:02,479
Speaker 3: In the words of Ken the Man, I'm your first

1495
01:13:02,479 --> 01:13:06,639
Speaker 3: bab bitch. I love Ken the Man, by the way,

1496
01:13:06,760 --> 01:13:11,760
Speaker 3: I love number one song right now is First the First.

1497
01:13:12,400 --> 01:13:19,200
Speaker 3: I'm that nigga first bab bach Sorry.

1498
01:13:18,080 --> 01:13:20,120
Speaker 4: Let me drink my butt like not me thinking I'm like,

1499
01:13:20,320 --> 01:13:23,719
Speaker 4: I'm mine. He never really had a bad bitch before me.

1500
01:13:24,520 --> 01:13:27,000
Speaker 2: Thinking about it like you're a white man's first bad bitch.

1501
01:13:27,920 --> 01:13:30,160
Speaker 4: Yeah, you swear it's a white man like.

1502
01:13:32,760 --> 01:13:36,480
Speaker 5: Latino, what is he?

1503
01:13:38,000 --> 01:13:39,920
Speaker 4: But I think I'm his first bad bitch? Like what

1504
01:13:40,000 --> 01:13:40,439
Speaker 4: you mean?

1505
01:13:41,040 --> 01:13:43,240
Speaker 3: Listen to First by King the Man Relea here, I

1506
01:13:43,280 --> 01:13:45,280
Speaker 3: Love the Man. You don't really feel that one. I'm

1507
01:13:45,280 --> 01:13:47,479
Speaker 3: a I'm a meth Sorry. So you know, a couple

1508
01:13:47,520 --> 01:13:50,960
Speaker 3: of weeks ago, it was my birthday and I was

1509
01:13:51,000 --> 01:13:53,120
Speaker 3: going to have like a little birthday party at the house,

1510
01:13:53,280 --> 01:13:55,479
Speaker 3: and then we extended our trip in Costa Rica. So

1511
01:13:55,520 --> 01:13:57,200
Speaker 3: we got back the day of the birthday party, and

1512
01:13:57,200 --> 01:13:59,760
Speaker 3: I was like, this is not realistic and my homegirl

1513
01:13:59,760 --> 01:14:03,519
Speaker 3: had and she was like, you know that guy that

1514
01:14:03,560 --> 01:14:05,600
Speaker 3: we facetimed on so and So's birthday, Like, do you

1515
01:14:05,640 --> 01:14:07,320
Speaker 3: mind if I talked to him? And this is one

1516
01:14:07,320 --> 01:14:09,080
Speaker 3: of my like my back in the day niggas that

1517
01:14:09,200 --> 01:14:10,400
Speaker 3: you know, I've know him for a long time that

1518
01:14:10,439 --> 01:14:11,960
Speaker 3: I used to fuck on. And I was like, no,

1519
01:14:12,040 --> 01:14:14,720
Speaker 3: he's a really nice guy and he has a big dick,

1520
01:14:14,840 --> 01:14:17,599
Speaker 3: you know. And I was like, actually, I was going

1521
01:14:17,640 --> 01:14:19,679
Speaker 3: to have a party on Saturday, but instead of having

1522
01:14:19,680 --> 01:14:22,240
Speaker 3: a full blown party, let's just have a full person

1523
01:14:22,320 --> 01:14:28,240
Speaker 3: party because I'm trying to read make this other foursome

1524
01:14:28,280 --> 01:14:30,040
Speaker 3: that I had last year. But now it's my birthday,

1525
01:14:30,080 --> 01:14:31,960
Speaker 3: so I have a reason to push for it. Orlando

1526
01:14:32,120 --> 01:14:34,439
Speaker 3: was like like, oh, it is your birthday, okay. So

1527
01:14:34,479 --> 01:14:37,000
Speaker 3: I was like, yeah, it's my birthday. So I got

1528
01:14:37,080 --> 01:14:38,840
Speaker 3: hurt or agree. I got him to agree, and so

1529
01:14:38,920 --> 01:14:40,639
Speaker 3: the plan was that we're going to have I called

1530
01:14:40,680 --> 01:14:46,280
Speaker 3: it a kinky kickback, like that kinky kickback at my house.

1531
01:14:46,560 --> 01:14:48,840
Speaker 3: And but then I started to get cold feet. I

1532
01:14:48,880 --> 01:14:50,840
Speaker 3: started to get worried. I was like, you know, I'm

1533
01:14:50,840 --> 01:14:52,479
Speaker 3: like I used to be a lesbian, but I'm not

1534
01:14:52,520 --> 01:14:55,599
Speaker 3: so lesbian, Like now I'm like, I don't want to like.

1535
01:14:55,600 --> 01:14:57,120
Speaker 6: Necessarily have to eat pussy.

1536
01:14:57,240 --> 01:14:59,080
Speaker 3: And I started getting in my head, it's my friend,

1537
01:14:59,160 --> 01:15:00,720
Speaker 3: and then I was like, shut the fuck up.

1538
01:15:01,600 --> 01:15:02,000
Speaker 6: Okay.

1539
01:15:02,080 --> 01:15:06,840
Speaker 3: So anyway, as a night started to progress, cleaned up,

1540
01:15:06,880 --> 01:15:09,040
Speaker 3: and then I realized, like she kept bullshitting. She was like,

1541
01:15:09,080 --> 01:15:10,640
Speaker 3: I'm gonna go I'm gonna go to the bar. I'm

1542
01:15:10,640 --> 01:15:12,439
Speaker 3: still at the bar, and I was like, okay. The

1543
01:15:12,640 --> 01:15:15,479
Speaker 3: guy pulled up and we like walked to the store,

1544
01:15:15,840 --> 01:15:17,559
Speaker 3: and you know, I live right by a sex shop

1545
01:15:17,640 --> 01:15:20,320
Speaker 3: because the and so we made a detour in the

1546
01:15:20,360 --> 01:15:20,880
Speaker 3: sex shop.

1547
01:15:20,920 --> 01:15:22,240
Speaker 6: We're like laughing, like, oh, what's that?

1548
01:15:22,880 --> 01:15:23,120
Speaker 2: You know?

1549
01:15:23,320 --> 01:15:24,400
Speaker 6: Four play sex shop?

1550
01:15:24,680 --> 01:15:26,000
Speaker 3: But then I was like, can't believe this bitch is

1551
01:15:26,040 --> 01:15:27,559
Speaker 3: gonna leave me? Like how am I supposed to like

1552
01:15:27,560 --> 01:15:30,360
Speaker 3: seduce two men? Like this is gonna be like awkward.

1553
01:15:31,240 --> 01:15:33,320
Speaker 3: I was just like I was skidding in my head,

1554
01:15:33,360 --> 01:15:34,200
Speaker 3: you know. But then when.

1555
01:15:35,600 --> 01:15:37,120
Speaker 2: Exactly I don't even know what I was worried about.

1556
01:15:37,360 --> 01:15:39,919
Speaker 3: Then we got there and we're like chilling and eating

1557
01:15:40,040 --> 01:15:43,400
Speaker 3: and drinking, smoking a blunt and it was really nice.

1558
01:15:43,439 --> 01:15:47,240
Speaker 3: They they surprised me with a cake. They had a

1559
01:15:47,280 --> 01:15:49,479
Speaker 3: cake and a candle and they sing me not happy.

1560
01:15:49,520 --> 01:15:52,680
Speaker 3: I don't I don't accept happy birthdays anymore. We just

1561
01:15:52,680 --> 01:15:55,840
Speaker 3: sang the Jamaican happy Birthday song. It's an anniversary, not

1562
01:15:55,880 --> 01:15:58,599
Speaker 3: a birthday because I'm twenty four. Jamaican happy birthday song,

1563
01:15:58,800 --> 01:16:03,879
Speaker 3: Happy birthday friend one mo yeah, put on them, Oh

1564
01:16:04,280 --> 01:16:05,360
Speaker 3: give thanks for life.

1565
01:16:05,880 --> 01:16:07,720
Speaker 4: Oh I'm from Saint Thomas. Honey, we don't do it.

1566
01:16:07,960 --> 01:16:08,679
Speaker 2: I'm gonna have this thing.

1567
01:16:08,680 --> 01:16:10,519
Speaker 4: That song, Yeah, I need, I need that in my life.

1568
01:16:10,560 --> 01:16:12,880
Speaker 3: You don't need the birthday song so fucking ritual that

1569
01:16:13,000 --> 01:16:13,479
Speaker 3: ages you.

1570
01:16:14,000 --> 01:16:15,280
Speaker 6: So they sang.

1571
01:16:15,160 --> 01:16:21,240
Speaker 3: Orlando did my favorite karaoke song, mister Boombastic Super Important,

1572
01:16:21,720 --> 01:16:23,680
Speaker 3: and I got really excited over the birthday. I was

1573
01:16:23,760 --> 01:16:25,600
Speaker 3: just like, wow, this is so specially you guys like

1574
01:16:26,000 --> 01:16:28,639
Speaker 3: coordinated behind my back because I I made a group

1575
01:16:28,720 --> 01:16:30,240
Speaker 3: chat and they mussa have like went on the side.

1576
01:16:30,760 --> 01:16:35,000
Speaker 3: And then we just came back from an epic Costa

1577
01:16:35,040 --> 01:16:38,160
Speaker 3: Rican couple's retreat. We just landed that day and I

1578
01:16:38,200 --> 01:16:41,759
Speaker 3: had three blue you like glow in the dark lights

1579
01:16:41,800 --> 01:16:44,519
Speaker 3: and one package glow in the dark paint. So Orlando's like,

1580
01:16:44,560 --> 01:16:45,960
Speaker 3: let's do the glow with the glow in the dark.

1581
01:16:46,000 --> 01:16:48,160
Speaker 3: I was like, okay, Okay, that's the glow in the dark.

1582
01:16:48,800 --> 01:16:50,840
Speaker 3: I put a mattress in the middle of the living

1583
01:16:50,920 --> 01:16:53,200
Speaker 3: room in front of this huge mirror. We turn off

1584
01:16:53,240 --> 01:16:55,200
Speaker 3: all the lights. We turned on the blue lights, and

1585
01:16:55,240 --> 01:16:57,160
Speaker 3: then like they started painting me. And I was like, oh,

1586
01:16:57,160 --> 01:17:00,719
Speaker 3: I'm so cool. I got two niggas painting me. I'm naked,

1587
01:17:01,360 --> 01:17:04,639
Speaker 3: I was smoking of lent. They're like putting powerful words

1588
01:17:04,680 --> 01:17:09,360
Speaker 3: on me, like power, pissy, insert here, you know here.

1589
01:17:09,680 --> 01:17:15,080
Speaker 6: Oh, and so we did that and then we did

1590
01:17:15,120 --> 01:17:16,719
Speaker 6: like a little like tantric practice.

1591
01:17:16,800 --> 01:17:18,200
Speaker 3: I put both their hands, was like, let's just take

1592
01:17:18,200 --> 01:17:20,960
Speaker 3: a moment, you know, before we like whatever we're about

1593
01:17:20,960 --> 01:17:22,640
Speaker 3: to get into. And then the guy or I like

1594
01:17:22,640 --> 01:17:24,600
Speaker 3: went to the bathroom and he was like I was like,

1595
01:17:24,640 --> 01:17:25,040
Speaker 3: can't with this.

1596
01:17:25,040 --> 01:17:26,840
Speaker 6: Bitch show up. He's like, we're still going.

1597
01:17:26,760 --> 01:17:28,800
Speaker 4: To do it. I was like, hell, yeah, we're going

1598
01:17:28,880 --> 01:17:29,439
Speaker 4: to do it.

1599
01:17:30,120 --> 01:17:33,719
Speaker 6: One bitch, don't stop, no show right right. I'm like, yeah,

1600
01:17:33,960 --> 01:17:34,639
Speaker 6: we're doing it.

1601
01:17:34,840 --> 01:17:36,400
Speaker 3: So then Lana came back and we like did a

1602
01:17:36,439 --> 01:17:38,679
Speaker 3: little tantic exercise and I was just like, put both

1603
01:17:38,680 --> 01:17:40,400
Speaker 3: their hands on my heart, on top of each other,

1604
01:17:40,439 --> 01:17:42,439
Speaker 3: and I was like, this is about pleasure, this is

1605
01:17:42,439 --> 01:17:45,680
Speaker 3: about freedom, This is about trust, about friendship, about love.

1606
01:17:45,680 --> 01:17:50,280
Speaker 2: About me more importantly, I'm the center of the world today.

1607
01:17:51,080 --> 01:17:52,840
Speaker 6: And then we're like yeah.

1608
01:17:53,360 --> 01:17:57,600
Speaker 3: I was like, okay, everybody's breathe released the sound and

1609
01:17:57,680 --> 01:17:59,000
Speaker 3: they did and it was really cute.

1610
01:17:59,000 --> 01:17:59,160
Speaker 2: You know.

1611
01:17:59,280 --> 01:18:01,719
Speaker 3: He was just like, wow, I've never just like painted,

1612
01:18:01,840 --> 01:18:03,400
Speaker 3: Like I just not like what should I pay? I'm

1613
01:18:03,400 --> 01:18:06,200
Speaker 3: like whatever you want, and he was just like just really.

1614
01:18:06,000 --> 01:18:08,439
Speaker 4: Like, this is a lot of words for a threesome.

1615
01:18:08,760 --> 01:18:11,040
Speaker 4: It's crazy crazy.

1616
01:18:11,400 --> 01:18:12,599
Speaker 6: What's the last three cent you had?

1617
01:18:13,640 --> 01:18:16,040
Speaker 4: First of all, your mother store, don't worry about me,

1618
01:18:16,160 --> 01:18:20,559
Speaker 4: don't mean so, don't rush. It's a lot though it's

1619
01:18:20,600 --> 01:18:23,080
Speaker 4: been some decades. But also it's a lot.

1620
01:18:23,280 --> 01:18:23,439
Speaker 6: Bro.

1621
01:18:23,640 --> 01:18:30,120
Speaker 4: Is this like a millennial three gen Z three? Because

1622
01:18:30,160 --> 01:18:32,599
Speaker 4: back in my day we just tutor ass and get

1623
01:18:32,600 --> 01:18:37,360
Speaker 4: to the business reason and ship and it's paint. They're

1624
01:18:37,400 --> 01:18:38,880
Speaker 4: all kind of glowing the dark.

1625
01:18:39,200 --> 01:18:39,720
Speaker 2: What is this?

1626
01:18:40,120 --> 01:18:41,200
Speaker 6: It's called an activation?

1627
01:18:41,640 --> 01:18:44,479
Speaker 5: Oh my god, I called a birdie man in my

1628
01:18:44,520 --> 01:18:46,040
Speaker 5: living rooms?

1629
01:18:46,280 --> 01:18:47,120
Speaker 4: Is an activation?

1630
01:18:47,320 --> 01:18:48,639
Speaker 6: We had an activation before?

1631
01:18:48,680 --> 01:18:53,679
Speaker 5: You mean, we need paint to active coach at the house.

1632
01:18:57,040 --> 01:19:00,760
Speaker 4: Okay, we're almost there, when do tell me? Tell me

1633
01:19:00,760 --> 01:19:01,920
Speaker 4: who put it in first?

1634
01:19:02,000 --> 01:19:06,720
Speaker 6: Like, I'm just trying to get and then after that

1635
01:19:06,720 --> 01:19:07,559
Speaker 6: we got in the shower.

1636
01:19:07,840 --> 01:19:14,920
Speaker 4: Oh my god, oh my gosh, hush, let me tell

1637
01:19:14,960 --> 01:19:15,320
Speaker 4: my story.

1638
01:19:15,320 --> 01:19:23,760
Speaker 6: This is my story, so crazy. Three some is this.

1639
01:19:23,760 --> 01:19:26,720
Speaker 4: This is the new threesomes TikTok three.

1640
01:19:28,160 --> 01:19:29,320
Speaker 6: This is how I start my TikTok.

1641
01:19:29,320 --> 01:19:34,200
Speaker 3: I can tell my story three crazy, the others three cent.

1642
01:19:34,240 --> 01:19:38,280
Speaker 6: There's a lot of pivotal words in this. That's a

1643
01:19:38,280 --> 01:19:38,639
Speaker 6: lot of.

1644
01:19:40,200 --> 01:19:42,240
Speaker 2: Thousand and five crazy.

1645
01:19:42,400 --> 01:19:43,400
Speaker 4: Shut the fuck up.

1646
01:19:44,920 --> 01:19:47,960
Speaker 6: So then hours then the paint off.

1647
01:19:48,640 --> 01:19:51,160
Speaker 3: Oh my god, the paint off of us, you bitch,

1648
01:19:51,760 --> 01:19:52,320
Speaker 3: you bitch.

1649
01:19:53,360 --> 01:19:56,960
Speaker 4: There we get to Orlando. You would here for this bullshir.

1650
01:19:58,800 --> 01:20:00,519
Speaker 6: We got in the shower and I was like, I

1651
01:20:00,560 --> 01:20:01,360
Speaker 6: put him in the shower.

1652
01:20:01,439 --> 01:20:03,200
Speaker 3: I gave him a towel and like a wash clob,

1653
01:20:03,360 --> 01:20:04,880
Speaker 3: and I came back to the living room then report

1654
01:20:04,920 --> 01:20:06,439
Speaker 3: him with my man because I wasn't sure what he

1655
01:20:06,479 --> 01:20:08,280
Speaker 3: wanted me to do. He was like, I'm gonna get

1656
01:20:08,280 --> 01:20:09,400
Speaker 3: in the other shower, and I was.

1657
01:20:09,320 --> 01:20:13,439
Speaker 4: Like, oh my god, another shower, this too, shower, bed

1658
01:20:13,520 --> 01:20:16,599
Speaker 4: bit rich, just two showers, bitch.

1659
01:20:20,080 --> 01:20:21,920
Speaker 6: We got in the shower.

1660
01:20:23,120 --> 01:20:23,960
Speaker 2: For my story.

1661
01:20:24,000 --> 01:20:28,280
Speaker 3: Girlies, who care about a fucking anticipation? She's trying to

1662
01:20:28,479 --> 01:20:31,800
Speaker 3: get grasped and hook them. Shut up, God, let the

1663
01:20:31,840 --> 01:20:32,479
Speaker 3: bitch live.

1664
01:20:33,280 --> 01:20:35,080
Speaker 6: So me.

1665
01:20:36,520 --> 01:20:38,360
Speaker 3: We're in the shower, and then I thought, you know,

1666
01:20:38,600 --> 01:20:40,479
Speaker 3: we were washing each other off, and then he text

1667
01:20:40,520 --> 01:20:42,639
Speaker 3: my plissy and I was like, oh no, did Orlando

1668
01:20:42,800 --> 01:20:46,960
Speaker 3: even give me permission to the Then I hopped out anyway,

1669
01:20:47,000 --> 01:20:48,320
Speaker 3: and then we said, let's go in the living room

1670
01:20:48,360 --> 01:20:50,240
Speaker 3: again with the blue light and put baby on. Let's

1671
01:20:50,280 --> 01:20:52,120
Speaker 3: put coconut oil all over ourselves so we could be

1672
01:20:52,120 --> 01:20:55,439
Speaker 3: like Heisha from Belly. So we did, and then Orlando said,

1673
01:20:55,560 --> 01:21:00,479
Speaker 3: all right, the shiny one. So then shiny she no

1674
01:21:00,640 --> 01:21:04,559
Speaker 3: specifically that scene with her it's blue. So we did that,

1675
01:21:04,640 --> 01:21:08,640
Speaker 3: and then Orlando said took him to put a blindfold

1676
01:21:08,720 --> 01:21:10,840
Speaker 3: on the bed, two blindfolds, and told me come in

1677
01:21:10,880 --> 01:21:13,240
Speaker 3: there in twenty seconds, poor a drink and come in there.

1678
01:21:13,400 --> 01:21:14,599
Speaker 3: And then when I came in there, they were both

1679
01:21:14,600 --> 01:21:16,640
Speaker 3: on the bed naked with blindfolds on. And then I

1680
01:21:16,680 --> 01:21:19,519
Speaker 3: just did whatever I wanted and I sat on Orlando's dick,

1681
01:21:19,520 --> 01:21:21,360
Speaker 3: I said, on both of their faces.

1682
01:21:21,000 --> 01:21:22,360
Speaker 6: And then to take his off.

1683
01:21:22,400 --> 01:21:23,800
Speaker 3: The guy had his on, and I was like, should

1684
01:21:23,800 --> 01:21:26,160
Speaker 3: I take us off? He was like no, so you're

1685
01:21:26,200 --> 01:21:28,880
Speaker 3: just like so then so then we did the Eiffel Tower,

1686
01:21:29,000 --> 01:21:30,360
Speaker 3: which was really important.

1687
01:21:30,000 --> 01:21:31,880
Speaker 6: To me because this white, ash old tower.

1688
01:21:32,000 --> 01:21:33,760
Speaker 4: I'll show you, oh you'll show me.

1689
01:21:34,360 --> 01:21:38,040
Speaker 3: Like one guys this way right, Okay, one the mouth, Okay,

1690
01:21:38,280 --> 01:21:39,639
Speaker 3: dick in the pissy right.

1691
01:21:39,680 --> 01:21:43,960
Speaker 2: They go like this, No, one guy's here. One guys there.

1692
01:21:43,960 --> 01:21:47,560
Speaker 4: They're touching hands so they can connect, like it's a

1693
01:21:47,600 --> 01:21:48,439
Speaker 4: bonding experience.

1694
01:21:48,560 --> 01:21:50,559
Speaker 2: How they're like slapping each their's hands like this.

1695
01:21:50,640 --> 01:21:51,840
Speaker 6: And I was like, let's look in the mirror because

1696
01:21:51,920 --> 01:21:53,000
Speaker 6: I can't take a picture.

1697
01:21:52,760 --> 01:21:55,280
Speaker 4: So the way I would weak their asses. It was

1698
01:21:55,320 --> 01:21:55,719
Speaker 4: my idea.

1699
01:21:55,840 --> 01:21:57,880
Speaker 6: First I was like, okay, touch hands, and then I

1700
01:21:57,920 --> 01:22:00,800
Speaker 6: was like, look what we're doing it.

1701
01:22:01,000 --> 01:22:03,519
Speaker 4: So it's like a oh my god, I'm so old.

1702
01:22:03,880 --> 01:22:04,880
Speaker 6: It's called the Eiffel Tower.

1703
01:22:04,920 --> 01:22:07,160
Speaker 3: Okay, this young bitch told me five years ago, and

1704
01:22:07,240 --> 01:22:09,880
Speaker 3: I was determined to did my my Eiffel Tower on

1705
01:22:09,920 --> 01:22:12,160
Speaker 3: and they participated and then we just got it pop

1706
01:22:12,200 --> 01:22:13,880
Speaker 3: in and I had it was just really you know,

1707
01:22:14,080 --> 01:22:16,800
Speaker 3: we switched, you know, and it lasted a long time.

1708
01:22:16,840 --> 01:22:20,120
Speaker 3: The poor guy fell asleep. Mear Lando kept sucking and

1709
01:22:20,320 --> 01:22:22,680
Speaker 3: you know, he left around eleven am. And it was

1710
01:22:22,760 --> 01:22:26,320
Speaker 3: just really beautiful and everything was about me. It got

1711
01:22:26,360 --> 01:22:29,599
Speaker 3: like my pussy ate my ass ate at the same time,

1712
01:22:30,160 --> 01:22:33,320
Speaker 3: and just a lot of things that you know, every

1713
01:22:33,360 --> 01:22:35,360
Speaker 3: girl shook it once a year in their birthday.

1714
01:22:35,640 --> 01:22:38,200
Speaker 4: I like that. The Eiffel Tower, So.

1715
01:22:38,120 --> 01:22:39,559
Speaker 6: If you guys haven't tried the Eiffel Tower.

1716
01:22:40,479 --> 01:22:44,800
Speaker 4: Two men touching hands while I'm getting like roasted is not.

1717
01:22:45,200 --> 01:22:47,960
Speaker 4: It was like very like that's a wonder Twins ship.

1718
01:22:47,920 --> 01:22:50,519
Speaker 5: Like it's activation of energy.

1719
01:22:50,560 --> 01:22:51,719
Speaker 6: It was a tan trick.

1720
01:22:51,800 --> 01:22:56,400
Speaker 3: Threesome activation was like divine, masculine.

1721
01:22:55,920 --> 01:22:57,479
Speaker 2: And everyone's touching at the same time.

1722
01:22:57,640 --> 01:23:01,120
Speaker 5: The guys are touching sort of like just not just

1723
01:23:01,200 --> 01:23:03,519
Speaker 5: enough to not be gay, so they just like them.

1724
01:23:03,439 --> 01:23:06,440
Speaker 6: Their hands and we know you don't.

1725
01:23:05,640 --> 01:23:06,880
Speaker 4: Want them to be inside each other.

1726
01:23:07,040 --> 01:23:08,680
Speaker 6: I know that didn't happen. I just want them to

1727
01:23:08,720 --> 01:23:09,120
Speaker 6: be inside.

1728
01:23:09,120 --> 01:23:10,639
Speaker 2: Do you watch do you watch a gay porn?

1729
01:23:10,800 --> 01:23:14,919
Speaker 4: I love threesome porn where both guys.

1730
01:23:15,720 --> 01:23:17,960
Speaker 6: I love by MMF two that's my favorite. By m

1731
01:23:18,080 --> 01:23:19,519
Speaker 6: MF oh bye me.

1732
01:23:19,600 --> 01:23:23,679
Speaker 4: But then everybody's there's no hands off. I mean, obviously

1733
01:23:23,760 --> 01:23:25,639
Speaker 4: by my dating history. I love a bye guy.

1734
01:23:25,760 --> 01:23:26,519
Speaker 2: I saw I was.

1735
01:23:26,760 --> 01:23:28,320
Speaker 5: I watched porn last night a little bit just to

1736
01:23:28,360 --> 01:23:30,560
Speaker 5: get me going, and it's a little bit just a

1737
01:23:30,600 --> 01:23:32,559
Speaker 5: little bit, because I usually because I usually get annoyed

1738
01:23:32,560 --> 01:23:33,760
Speaker 5: and I end up turning it off. Then I just

1739
01:23:33,880 --> 01:23:36,640
Speaker 5: used my imagination. But I saw a video. There's a

1740
01:23:36,680 --> 01:23:39,679
Speaker 5: bunch of selections, and there was one where this girl

1741
01:23:39,760 --> 01:23:41,840
Speaker 5: was like in disguised dick and then the guy.

1742
01:23:42,400 --> 01:23:43,639
Speaker 2: Was holding another guy's dick.

1743
01:23:44,840 --> 01:23:47,479
Speaker 3: Speaking of that, what I love? That got some news

1744
01:23:47,479 --> 01:23:49,519
Speaker 3: from my gay friends last night. I saw one of

1745
01:23:49,600 --> 01:23:53,320
Speaker 3: our porn friends in an orgy and he's graduated, and

1746
01:23:53,360 --> 01:23:56,320
Speaker 3: he was fucking a bitch and jacking a dick off

1747
01:23:56,479 --> 01:23:58,679
Speaker 3: a dick like a man's dick porn?

1748
01:23:58,960 --> 01:24:00,920
Speaker 4: Was he was? Was he not doing that before? He

1749
01:24:00,960 --> 01:24:01,720
Speaker 4: was touching mema?

1750
01:24:01,800 --> 01:24:02,280
Speaker 2: Graduated?

1751
01:24:02,479 --> 01:24:02,959
Speaker 4: Graduated?

1752
01:24:04,760 --> 01:24:06,680
Speaker 2: Yeah, I graduated anyway, Sorry, did dressed up?

1753
01:24:06,760 --> 01:24:11,320
Speaker 5: He dressed up like a we'll talk about later, Okay. Anyway,

1754
01:24:11,400 --> 01:24:13,280
Speaker 5: I saw that visual and I said, no, thank you.

1755
01:24:13,640 --> 01:24:14,960
Speaker 5: I don't want any parts of that. I don't have

1756
01:24:15,000 --> 01:24:16,880
Speaker 5: any interest in seeing any guys tracking off any other

1757
01:24:16,880 --> 01:24:20,639
Speaker 5: guys or putting dicks on anybody who holds no no that.

1758
01:24:20,720 --> 01:24:23,360
Speaker 5: I want all the attention to be on me, and

1759
01:24:23,479 --> 01:24:25,800
Speaker 5: you guys just couldnspire for my pleasure.

1760
01:24:25,840 --> 01:24:27,439
Speaker 2: You guys don't need to be pleasing each other. It's

1761
01:24:27,479 --> 01:24:28,240
Speaker 2: just not. It's just not.

1762
01:24:28,520 --> 01:24:30,160
Speaker 4: One of my favorite things about one of my exes

1763
01:24:30,320 --> 01:24:31,880
Speaker 4: was how many fingers he would take?

1764
01:24:32,840 --> 01:24:34,880
Speaker 6: How many it was like three or four?

1765
01:24:35,000 --> 01:24:35,880
Speaker 2: Which ex.

1766
01:24:38,160 --> 01:24:38,320
Speaker 4: You know?

1767
01:24:39,520 --> 01:24:42,479
Speaker 2: It was like this. It was like one of these

1768
01:24:42,960 --> 01:24:44,120
Speaker 2: how small or bigger hand is?

1769
01:24:44,120 --> 01:24:47,400
Speaker 4: I could be a regular one of my recent excesses

1770
01:24:48,800 --> 01:24:49,799
Speaker 4: that you asked me about.

1771
01:24:50,479 --> 01:24:56,000
Speaker 3: Interesting before that's seems like you might have done that before.

1772
01:24:56,200 --> 01:24:56,920
Speaker 2: Did you train it at?

1773
01:24:57,600 --> 01:24:59,320
Speaker 4: I didn't have to. It was it was already done

1774
01:24:59,360 --> 01:24:59,560
Speaker 4: for me.

1775
01:25:00,080 --> 01:25:01,800
Speaker 2: Put do you put lou all over your hands and

1776
01:25:01,800 --> 01:25:02,280
Speaker 2: then you do that?

1777
01:25:02,360 --> 01:25:04,080
Speaker 4: I didn't have to. He was just open and ready.

1778
01:25:04,160 --> 01:25:06,680
Speaker 4: He he's by he was he had boyfriends.

1779
01:25:06,800 --> 01:25:07,840
Speaker 6: He was already lubed.

1780
01:25:08,000 --> 01:25:10,800
Speaker 4: Yeah, he yeah, he's he's super clean. This other thing too,

1781
01:25:10,880 --> 01:25:13,840
Speaker 4: like he's super close. When I knew was that in

1782
01:25:14,280 --> 01:25:20,800
Speaker 4: the oral copulation part, like in the in the ring

1783
01:25:20,840 --> 01:25:24,160
Speaker 4: around a rosie part of the sexual intercourse. He was

1784
01:25:24,280 --> 01:25:26,759
Speaker 4: super clean all the time. So I knew that he douched.

1785
01:25:26,800 --> 01:25:29,040
Speaker 4: I knew that he cleaned his inside. And then I

1786
01:25:29,120 --> 01:25:35,080
Speaker 4: heard from someone in his community how open he was

1787
01:25:35,560 --> 01:25:37,960
Speaker 4: to man on man whatever.

1788
01:25:38,120 --> 01:25:39,400
Speaker 6: Oh he didn't hear that from him?

1789
01:25:39,520 --> 01:25:42,680
Speaker 4: No, he didn't tell me at first, okay, and then

1790
01:25:42,720 --> 01:25:46,040
Speaker 4: I asked him if we could have like a threesome

1791
01:25:46,520 --> 01:25:49,240
Speaker 4: or like a four sum and he said yes, but

1792
01:25:49,360 --> 01:25:54,599
Speaker 4: he wanted a man, and I was like absolutely yes.

1793
01:25:54,760 --> 01:25:57,160
Speaker 4: It was like, yeah, he wanted to have like another

1794
01:25:57,240 --> 01:25:58,320
Speaker 4: woman and another man.

1795
01:25:58,479 --> 01:26:01,040
Speaker 6: Yeah, like a swinger of situation, but everybody is playing.

1796
01:26:01,080 --> 01:26:04,599
Speaker 4: But yeah, So what I knew automatically from I didn't

1797
01:26:04,600 --> 01:26:06,840
Speaker 4: know at first when we first started seeing each other

1798
01:26:07,760 --> 01:26:09,840
Speaker 4: that he was that way, but other people knew. I

1799
01:26:09,840 --> 01:26:13,400
Speaker 4: don't listen. I don't know stuff like I'm not on

1800
01:26:13,439 --> 01:26:18,559
Speaker 4: the internet enough to know. I'm not in people's business enough, right,

1801
01:26:18,600 --> 01:26:21,479
Speaker 4: I don't do the gossip things. I don't know. I

1802
01:26:21,560 --> 01:26:24,719
Speaker 4: just thought he painted his nails because he was avant garde.

1803
01:26:25,400 --> 01:26:28,519
Speaker 4: I didn't know he paid his nails because he likes boys.

1804
01:26:28,600 --> 01:26:31,719
Speaker 4: I didn't know. But when I found out, I didn't

1805
01:26:31,760 --> 01:26:33,880
Speaker 4: deter me because that just means that I could do

1806
01:26:34,000 --> 01:26:38,000
Speaker 4: more stuff, so that when we were in intimate situations,

1807
01:26:38,040 --> 01:26:41,000
Speaker 4: I was able to do more stuff. I was able

1808
01:26:41,000 --> 01:26:44,200
Speaker 4: to do butt stuff, which makes me really happy.

1809
01:26:44,439 --> 01:26:46,920
Speaker 3: Her pink butting that she likes to bring me love,

1810
01:26:47,040 --> 01:26:49,360
Speaker 3: but you prefer by guys, so you could do butt stuff.

1811
01:26:49,400 --> 01:26:51,559
Speaker 4: I do prefer by guys who I can do butt stuff.

1812
01:26:51,600 --> 01:26:54,800
Speaker 4: But I've also turned, not turned. But also there are

1813
01:26:54,840 --> 01:26:57,400
Speaker 4: some guys who have been by curious, who have been

1814
01:26:57,439 --> 01:27:00,639
Speaker 4: able to release their curiosity and like let me get

1815
01:27:00,720 --> 01:27:02,599
Speaker 4: into their butt.

1816
01:27:02,920 --> 01:27:05,640
Speaker 6: Because is that releasing your by curiosity?

1817
01:27:05,680 --> 01:27:07,240
Speaker 3: If you like a woman to get into your butt,

1818
01:27:07,280 --> 01:27:08,599
Speaker 3: are you releasing your by curiosity?

1819
01:27:08,720 --> 01:27:10,320
Speaker 4: I think so. I think I think I am the

1820
01:27:11,160 --> 01:27:16,719
Speaker 4: gateway drug to the real penis pinky, then grab because

1821
01:27:16,720 --> 01:27:20,240
Speaker 4: if you're curious about stuff in your butt, once a

1822
01:27:20,320 --> 01:27:26,160
Speaker 4: man grabs his ankles during once a man grabs his

1823
01:27:26,240 --> 01:27:28,519
Speaker 4: ankles and like spreads his cheeks for me, I know

1824
01:27:28,600 --> 01:27:31,160
Speaker 4: that he's now open to all kinds of butt play,

1825
01:27:31,160 --> 01:27:33,479
Speaker 4: which is great. And then if he wants to be

1826
01:27:33,479 --> 01:27:36,680
Speaker 4: by curious with other men, I hope that I have

1827
01:27:36,760 --> 01:27:38,800
Speaker 4: given him the confidence to be able to do that,

1828
01:27:38,920 --> 01:27:40,599
Speaker 4: to explore his sexuality fully.

1829
01:27:40,840 --> 01:27:43,599
Speaker 3: Well, the thing about any dildo is that it's never

1830
01:27:43,640 --> 01:27:45,200
Speaker 3: going to be as good as a real dick. So

1831
01:27:45,320 --> 01:27:48,200
Speaker 3: if you like a dildo, because let me ask you,

1832
01:27:48,479 --> 01:27:50,839
Speaker 3: I try to get this. I try to be lesbian

1833
01:27:50,840 --> 01:27:53,080
Speaker 3: for a long time, and I like real dick, So

1834
01:27:53,240 --> 01:27:54,280
Speaker 3: it just wasn't gonna work for me.

1835
01:27:54,360 --> 01:27:55,720
Speaker 6: I was going to take a plastic dick.

1836
01:27:55,760 --> 01:27:57,479
Speaker 3: But if you try a plastid dick and you're like that,

1837
01:27:57,800 --> 01:27:59,120
Speaker 3: you're gonna love a real dick.

1838
01:27:59,280 --> 01:28:00,320
Speaker 6: Yeah, take it for me.

1839
01:28:00,880 --> 01:28:05,439
Speaker 4: So there a been men that have started off regular,

1840
01:28:05,640 --> 01:28:09,160
Speaker 4: like closed minded, you know, like okay, and then over

1841
01:28:09,760 --> 01:28:13,040
Speaker 4: the years as we dated, I noticed the legs coming

1842
01:28:13,120 --> 01:28:14,800
Speaker 4: up up to the point where they're just holding their

1843
01:28:14,840 --> 01:28:17,240
Speaker 4: ankles at some point and just let and just give

1844
01:28:17,280 --> 01:28:21,479
Speaker 4: me carte blanche of of ass apple. And I love it.

1845
01:28:21,560 --> 01:28:23,320
Speaker 4: And I love that for them because I know that

1846
01:28:23,360 --> 01:28:25,519
Speaker 4: they're not free. I know that you're free.

1847
01:28:26,120 --> 01:28:29,600
Speaker 6: I've freed you. Once the ankles meet the hands in

1848
01:28:29,680 --> 01:28:31,559
Speaker 6: the air, I freed you.

1849
01:28:31,720 --> 01:28:35,360
Speaker 4: And now you can go and explore whatever that means

1850
01:28:35,400 --> 01:28:36,439
Speaker 4: for you, you know what I mean.

1851
01:28:36,720 --> 01:28:41,120
Speaker 6: I do feel that men, men that often like.

1852
01:28:41,920 --> 01:28:48,040
Speaker 3: Uh like, are hypocritical towards very sexual women. For the

1853
01:28:48,080 --> 01:28:50,720
Speaker 3: same amount of men that are hypocritical, they're also very

1854
01:28:50,800 --> 01:28:54,400
Speaker 3: curious and feel comfortable with sexual women because they're like, hey, can.

1855
01:28:54,320 --> 01:28:54,760
Speaker 4: I tell you that?

1856
01:28:55,400 --> 01:28:57,559
Speaker 6: Can you do this? Because you're like, oh, she's open.

1857
01:28:57,640 --> 01:28:59,639
Speaker 3: She makes me feel comfortable if she will tell about

1858
01:28:59,640 --> 01:29:01,439
Speaker 3: her set life, if she's bold enough to talk about

1859
01:29:01,439 --> 01:29:03,599
Speaker 3: her sex life. Then I can tell my little secrets

1860
01:29:03,600 --> 01:29:04,960
Speaker 3: and then maybe she'll put her tongue in my ass

1861
01:29:04,960 --> 01:29:06,400
Speaker 3: and then maybe I like it, and then maybe like

1862
01:29:06,400 --> 01:29:07,400
Speaker 3: a little finger yeah.

1863
01:29:07,400 --> 01:29:08,960
Speaker 6: And then they're like, why did you do this? You

1864
01:29:09,000 --> 01:29:11,839
Speaker 6: turn me out? I'm like, no, nigga, you asked for that, yeah.

1865
01:29:11,880 --> 01:29:13,719
Speaker 4: And that's what I get too, is like sometimes people

1866
01:29:13,720 --> 01:29:16,360
Speaker 4: will ask, like, why why are so many men still

1867
01:29:16,360 --> 01:29:19,200
Speaker 4: attracted to me after everything I've said and explained and

1868
01:29:19,200 --> 01:29:19,759
Speaker 4: wrote about.

1869
01:29:19,840 --> 01:29:21,120
Speaker 2: Because they want you to dom them.

1870
01:29:21,280 --> 01:29:21,960
Speaker 6: They want to be free.

1871
01:29:22,040 --> 01:29:23,040
Speaker 4: They love a dom mommy.

1872
01:29:23,120 --> 01:29:24,120
Speaker 2: They want you to dominate.

1873
01:29:25,800 --> 01:29:27,960
Speaker 4: But also they know that they're safe. They know that

1874
01:29:27,960 --> 01:29:30,200
Speaker 4: their proclivities are safe with me. They know that I've

1875
01:29:30,200 --> 01:29:33,479
Speaker 4: seen enough, done enough, I've been enough places two where

1876
01:29:33,479 --> 01:29:36,600
Speaker 4: there safe and they're not going to get judged for

1877
01:29:36,640 --> 01:29:41,720
Speaker 4: their curiosities with me. And I think that's really really important,

1878
01:29:42,160 --> 01:29:44,280
Speaker 4: and that's important for me too, so that whatever my

1879
01:29:44,360 --> 01:29:48,400
Speaker 4: curiosities are sexually, especially that I know that I'm safe

1880
01:29:48,400 --> 01:29:51,640
Speaker 4: and I'm in a safe space. And so there's no

1881
01:29:51,760 --> 01:29:56,960
Speaker 4: shortage of men. There no shortage of like wealthy, powerful,

1882
01:29:57,040 --> 01:30:00,639
Speaker 4: successful men especially who feel as if they can explore

1883
01:30:00,680 --> 01:30:04,679
Speaker 4: their sexuality with just any old body because that any

1884
01:30:04,680 --> 01:30:07,479
Speaker 4: old person will tell. And so it's like, if you

1885
01:30:07,520 --> 01:30:10,240
Speaker 4: want to dress up like a baby and wear a diaper,

1886
01:30:11,120 --> 01:30:11,519
Speaker 4: you know.

1887
01:30:11,640 --> 01:30:14,400
Speaker 2: And feast on Jamala's nipples.

1888
01:30:14,120 --> 01:30:19,439
Speaker 4: Yeah, then then listen. I call Jamila right now, like

1889
01:30:19,439 --> 01:30:20,400
Speaker 4: we'll have something for that.

1890
01:30:20,560 --> 01:30:23,000
Speaker 6: Yeah, exactly, Like, hey, gir out, but what time?

1891
01:30:23,200 --> 01:30:27,479
Speaker 4: Okay, Okay, you're not gonna get judged. I'm not.

1892
01:30:27,720 --> 01:30:28,000
Speaker 2: I'm not.

1893
01:30:28,240 --> 01:30:30,559
Speaker 3: There's there's a level of non judgment that comes from

1894
01:30:30,560 --> 01:30:33,080
Speaker 3: fucking with free women that men seek. And I find

1895
01:30:33,080 --> 01:30:36,120
Speaker 3: that with religious men, nerdy men, men that act like

1896
01:30:36,120 --> 01:30:38,360
Speaker 3: they don't want then about that life, but secretly they

1897
01:30:38,360 --> 01:30:39,760
Speaker 3: want to be about that life.

1898
01:30:39,479 --> 01:30:40,559
Speaker 6: And that that's real.

1899
01:30:40,760 --> 01:30:43,160
Speaker 3: There, you could be hypocritical and you could think that

1900
01:30:43,160 --> 01:30:45,400
Speaker 3: everybody thinks you must let but that same nigg would

1901
01:30:45,360 --> 01:30:47,519
Speaker 3: be in my d MS or in my phone saying, hey,

1902
01:30:48,160 --> 01:30:52,040
Speaker 3: I heard you talk about ebony galore MMS five.

1903
01:30:52,640 --> 01:30:55,560
Speaker 4: Yeah it's true. And then also too, there's the there's

1904
01:30:55,640 --> 01:31:00,120
Speaker 4: this thing that happens where men. Okay, so patriarchy hurts everybody.

1905
01:31:00,600 --> 01:31:05,479
Speaker 4: So patriarchal norms and conformities say that you have to

1906
01:31:05,520 --> 01:31:10,000
Speaker 4: marry a quote unquote good girl, and that that girl

1907
01:31:10,240 --> 01:31:12,439
Speaker 4: that a good girl. Has to have not had sex

1908
01:31:12,560 --> 01:31:15,400
Speaker 4: at all or have had sex with very few people.

1909
01:31:15,960 --> 01:31:19,720
Speaker 4: And so now you marry, you date, you marry the

1910
01:31:19,920 --> 01:31:23,880
Speaker 4: good girl, and the good girl doesn't know how, she

1911
01:31:23,960 --> 01:31:26,280
Speaker 4: doesn't take it in the ass. That's a quote unquote

1912
01:31:26,280 --> 01:31:28,920
Speaker 4: bad girl thing, or it's a whatever thing, whatever your

1913
01:31:29,000 --> 01:31:31,160
Speaker 4: proclivities are. So then what happens is that then that

1914
01:31:31,240 --> 01:31:33,439
Speaker 4: man then cheats on his good girl with a quote

1915
01:31:33,479 --> 01:31:37,080
Speaker 4: unquote bad girl. And then you now you're getting divorced.

1916
01:31:37,120 --> 01:31:38,280
Speaker 4: Now you're losing everything.

1917
01:31:38,320 --> 01:31:41,920
Speaker 6: Now to that set quote unquote sled exactly right.

1918
01:31:42,000 --> 01:31:44,200
Speaker 4: But now you're losing everything because you married the good girl.

1919
01:31:44,200 --> 01:31:47,040
Speaker 4: The church, the church mom, the church.

1920
01:31:48,439 --> 01:31:48,920
Speaker 7: Her wry.

1921
01:31:49,160 --> 01:31:53,360
Speaker 4: But but but patriarchy says that you need to be

1922
01:31:53,400 --> 01:31:56,760
Speaker 4: with this person, and that becomes a problem. And so

1923
01:31:57,760 --> 01:32:01,360
Speaker 4: this is how patriarchy hurts everybody be because now you're

1924
01:32:01,520 --> 01:32:05,720
Speaker 4: dating and marrying based on what those standards are. And

1925
01:32:05,760 --> 01:32:07,840
Speaker 4: then you but you don't really want that person. You

1926
01:32:07,880 --> 01:32:11,439
Speaker 4: want someone who's going to make your toes curl, Who

1927
01:32:11,560 --> 01:32:15,120
Speaker 4: is going to make you climb up the wall, who's

1928
01:32:15,160 --> 01:32:19,439
Speaker 4: gonna make you climb it, Who's gonna suck you so wet,

1929
01:32:19,680 --> 01:32:23,040
Speaker 4: so hard, so long, Who's gonna use both her hands

1930
01:32:23,080 --> 01:32:25,400
Speaker 4: and all of her throat. Who's going to take you in,

1931
01:32:25,880 --> 01:32:28,320
Speaker 4: Who's gonna make you just come down her throat? And

1932
01:32:28,600 --> 01:32:29,639
Speaker 4: like you want this?

1933
01:32:30,680 --> 01:32:33,040
Speaker 6: Call me a little dirty bitch, yes, like.

1934
01:32:33,000 --> 01:32:36,040
Speaker 4: A come dump type of bitch, Like you want this, bitch.

1935
01:32:36,320 --> 01:32:38,760
Speaker 4: But patriarchy says you can't marry that.

1936
01:32:38,800 --> 01:32:40,759
Speaker 6: They want Men love slugs.

1937
01:32:40,840 --> 01:32:42,160
Speaker 4: Men. First of all, men love sluts.

1938
01:32:42,160 --> 01:32:42,320
Speaker 2: Men.

1939
01:32:42,600 --> 01:32:44,080
Speaker 4: I wrote a book called men Love Sluts that I

1940
01:32:44,120 --> 01:32:47,400
Speaker 4: haven't published yet. Men love sluts. But then you marry

1941
01:32:47,400 --> 01:32:50,960
Speaker 4: the church marm because that's what that's what patriarchy says

1942
01:32:51,000 --> 01:32:51,639
Speaker 4: you need to marry.

1943
01:32:51,680 --> 01:32:53,640
Speaker 6: And then you suck the slug behind her back, right,

1944
01:32:54,200 --> 01:32:55,240
Speaker 6: you lose trust.

1945
01:32:57,200 --> 01:33:00,920
Speaker 4: Anyway, and then you lose everything. You're in divorce court.

1946
01:33:00,920 --> 01:33:03,120
Speaker 4: You're losing half of your money, you're losing your kids,

1947
01:33:03,120 --> 01:33:05,719
Speaker 4: you're losing your house, You're losing everything because you didn't

1948
01:33:05,720 --> 01:33:09,400
Speaker 4: marry the whore. I've been married three times, there's this

1949
01:33:09,560 --> 01:33:12,799
Speaker 4: is four. I am not in any shortage of husbands

1950
01:33:12,880 --> 01:33:17,360
Speaker 4: or wanna be husbands or fiances like men are clamoring

1951
01:33:17,400 --> 01:33:19,240
Speaker 4: to fucking marry me, becauset the end of the day,

1952
01:33:19,320 --> 01:33:21,800
Speaker 4: what you're gonna get is your food's gonna be coked.

1953
01:33:21,840 --> 01:33:24,040
Speaker 4: Your house it's gonna be clean, Your dick's gonna be sucked,

1954
01:33:24,040 --> 01:33:26,519
Speaker 4: You're gonna get fucked, And whatever your proclivities are, whatever

1955
01:33:26,560 --> 01:33:28,920
Speaker 4: your weird shit is, it's not fucking weird to me.

1956
01:33:29,000 --> 01:33:33,400
Speaker 4: I'm down for whatever. You're completely fucking safe, And if

1957
01:33:33,439 --> 01:33:35,240
Speaker 4: you take care of me the way I need you to,

1958
01:33:35,479 --> 01:33:37,200
Speaker 4: you don't have to worry about anything else, like your

1959
01:33:37,400 --> 01:33:41,599
Speaker 4: your household, your everything is fucking safe. I want more

1960
01:33:41,720 --> 01:33:51,000
Speaker 4: men to feel safe marrying the whoors because they're gonna

1961
01:33:51,080 --> 01:33:53,559
Speaker 4: keep you good. You're gonna wake up to dick.

1962
01:33:53,520 --> 01:33:56,680
Speaker 6: Sucks, but not just marrying them, respecting the respecting.

1963
01:33:56,280 --> 01:33:59,240
Speaker 4: Them them, yes, respecting, loving.

1964
01:33:59,000 --> 01:34:00,920
Speaker 6: And making them feel a safe as they make you feel.

1965
01:34:01,040 --> 01:34:03,679
Speaker 4: Absolutely, because not only you're gonna get your dig sucked

1966
01:34:03,680 --> 01:34:06,120
Speaker 4: and your your fucking breakfast, and you're gonna get all

1967
01:34:06,200 --> 01:34:08,440
Speaker 4: the things that you want, don't.

1968
01:34:08,280 --> 01:34:11,400
Speaker 2: Because the non horrors are trembling in their fucking.

1969
01:34:12,040 --> 01:34:17,639
Speaker 8: Imagine you spent all these years, the ones that nors

1970
01:34:17,680 --> 01:34:19,919
Speaker 8: that have worked so hard to not be a whore anymore,

1971
01:34:20,080 --> 01:34:22,599
Speaker 8: are stressed right now, be a horror because at the end.

1972
01:34:22,600 --> 01:34:25,920
Speaker 4: Of the day, the man who gets you his balls

1973
01:34:25,960 --> 01:34:29,439
Speaker 4: are gonna be so fucking empty, like my man is

1974
01:34:29,560 --> 01:34:32,479
Speaker 4: never gonna have to wish he was gonna get some

1975
01:34:32,600 --> 01:34:34,360
Speaker 4: freak ship, like you're gonna get freak shit in the

1976
01:34:34,400 --> 01:34:37,639
Speaker 4: morning you wake up, I'm already on freak ship. You

1977
01:34:37,680 --> 01:34:42,840
Speaker 4: wake up like six am, I'm over your face. I'm

1978
01:34:42,880 --> 01:34:47,479
Speaker 4: already dripping on your face. Your mustache is full of nut,

1979
01:34:47,560 --> 01:34:49,920
Speaker 4: Like I'm already on you at six a m. You're

1980
01:34:49,920 --> 01:34:53,559
Speaker 4: asleep and I'm fucking you already, like I'm on you, bitch,

1981
01:34:53,600 --> 01:34:57,000
Speaker 4: like I love you so much, but I'm there's nothing

1982
01:34:57,040 --> 01:34:59,639
Speaker 4: you can't propose to me that I won't at least consider.

1983
01:35:00,120 --> 01:35:02,280
Speaker 4: There's nothing that's not gonna get done, so I can

1984
01:35:02,479 --> 01:35:05,080
Speaker 4: Martha Steward this shit. I'm gonna be in the garden.

1985
01:35:05,120 --> 01:35:07,400
Speaker 4: I love the garden. I love to cook, I love

1986
01:35:07,439 --> 01:35:10,000
Speaker 4: to clean. I love laundry. Like I I like doing

1987
01:35:10,040 --> 01:35:13,360
Speaker 4: household chores. It centers me just emotionally and just in

1988
01:35:13,400 --> 01:35:17,920
Speaker 4: my anxiety. I feel grounded by my household chores. But

1989
01:35:18,160 --> 01:35:20,719
Speaker 4: for fuck's sake, first thing in the morning, my man

1990
01:35:20,800 --> 01:35:23,639
Speaker 4: gets this pussy and he gets it in any way

1991
01:35:23,680 --> 01:35:25,799
Speaker 4: he wants, and he do whatever he wants to my body,

1992
01:35:25,840 --> 01:35:29,000
Speaker 4: Like that's my man. And like you want that bitch.

1993
01:35:29,040 --> 01:35:30,960
Speaker 4: You want a tea bag a bitch first thing in

1994
01:35:31,000 --> 01:35:34,120
Speaker 4: the morning. You wanta crawl on my face and tea

1995
01:35:34,439 --> 01:35:38,160
Speaker 4: exactly in my sleep. I wake up and I'm you

1996
01:35:38,280 --> 01:35:43,200
Speaker 4: want that. I don't know what, but patriarchy again hurts

1997
01:35:43,280 --> 01:35:46,759
Speaker 4: everybody because patriarchy says, marry the virgin.

1998
01:35:47,240 --> 01:35:49,120
Speaker 6: Marry you can't marry who you actually want to marry

1999
01:35:49,120 --> 01:35:50,680
Speaker 6: and who really makes your balls tingle. You want to

2000
01:35:50,680 --> 01:35:52,120
Speaker 6: marry the bitch next door even though she just make

2001
01:35:52,120 --> 01:35:52,599
Speaker 6: your balls tank.

2002
01:35:52,600 --> 01:35:56,439
Speaker 4: You're gonna ruin her life, Bronna when he finds out

2003
01:35:56,439 --> 01:35:57,960
Speaker 4: you want to do the I am my map.

2004
01:35:58,000 --> 01:36:00,360
Speaker 3: She's gonna fucking pass out when you find but she

2005
01:36:00,400 --> 01:36:02,200
Speaker 3: finds a porn category that you really like.

2006
01:36:02,840 --> 01:36:05,400
Speaker 6: You're with the fucking anime and the weird shit, the monster.

2007
01:36:05,520 --> 01:36:08,280
Speaker 6: She's gonna be the monster.

2008
01:36:09,439 --> 01:36:12,559
Speaker 4: With the roaches and the critters, like the weird ship,

2009
01:36:12,680 --> 01:36:13,160
Speaker 4: the family.

2010
01:36:13,600 --> 01:36:16,519
Speaker 3: The pus is kind of just start, just start at

2011
01:36:16,520 --> 01:36:18,599
Speaker 3: holl Just start, just start at.

2012
01:36:18,520 --> 01:36:20,040
Speaker 6: Hell, not go start at holl.

2013
01:36:20,120 --> 01:36:23,479
Speaker 4: Were you like knowing that my man can finish his job,

2014
01:36:23,640 --> 01:36:26,640
Speaker 4: he can come home and it's a naked bitch me

2015
01:36:26,800 --> 01:36:31,559
Speaker 4: in the kitchen. Dinner's ready, Pussy's ready. Like whatever you

2016
01:36:31,600 --> 01:36:35,559
Speaker 4: want to do, bitch, do it like we're you're good

2017
01:36:35,760 --> 01:36:39,000
Speaker 4: and you're safe and you don't have to you know,

2018
01:36:39,040 --> 01:36:42,000
Speaker 4: you're not gonna be shamed for what you want. You're

2019
01:36:42,040 --> 01:36:44,640
Speaker 4: not gonna be ridiculed, You're not gonna be made to

2020
01:36:44,680 --> 01:36:47,720
Speaker 4: feel less than You're gonna be a whole ass man

2021
01:36:47,760 --> 01:36:50,720
Speaker 4: in this house. And it's really nothing that you can

2022
01:36:50,760 --> 01:36:53,000
Speaker 4: say to me that I'm gonna laugh at.

2023
01:36:52,880 --> 01:36:56,040
Speaker 2: Or push to the side, or you're in an argument.

2024
01:36:56,640 --> 01:36:58,320
Speaker 6: No, like you was taking Piggy last night.

2025
01:36:58,439 --> 01:37:02,280
Speaker 4: Bitch, No, you're good. And me and Pinky we're good.

2026
01:37:02,360 --> 01:37:03,200
Speaker 6: We're gonna hold space.

2027
01:37:03,520 --> 01:37:05,639
Speaker 4: We're gonna hold space, me and Pinky. You're holding space

2028
01:37:05,640 --> 01:37:07,599
Speaker 4: for you. Me and my deal do a holding space

2029
01:37:07,640 --> 01:37:09,080
Speaker 4: for you, Like you're a good word, you know, And

2030
01:37:09,120 --> 01:37:10,080
Speaker 4: I think that that's important.

2031
01:37:10,120 --> 01:37:13,920
Speaker 3: It is which brings me to him telling me like

2032
01:37:14,240 --> 01:37:16,719
Speaker 3: he was telling me like fuck my wife, suck that dick,

2033
01:37:16,880 --> 01:37:18,760
Speaker 3: and it's like really pumping me up, like to be

2034
01:37:18,760 --> 01:37:19,759
Speaker 3: a slundy little wife.

2035
01:37:19,760 --> 01:37:21,479
Speaker 6: And I really I really enjoyed that.

2036
01:37:21,920 --> 01:37:23,759
Speaker 4: Yeah, see you love love.

2037
01:37:24,080 --> 01:37:24,439
Speaker 2: Amen.

2038
01:37:24,760 --> 01:37:27,679
Speaker 6: Amen, sle you'll get married. You'll find the ring.

2039
01:37:28,600 --> 01:37:31,200
Speaker 2: Cory, thank you for sharing our who I don't have

2040
01:37:31,240 --> 01:37:33,439
Speaker 2: any to share. I think we're out of town.

2041
01:37:34,640 --> 01:37:36,000
Speaker 6: Are I just want to I just want to say

2042
01:37:36,120 --> 01:37:40,160
Speaker 6: the chat was it? Really? They liked my details? Okay?

2043
01:37:41,760 --> 01:37:44,400
Speaker 2: Everyone that was Everyone that's listening enjoyed the story.

2044
01:37:44,600 --> 01:37:46,640
Speaker 3: Well, thank you guys for listening and giving me a

2045
01:37:46,640 --> 01:37:50,519
Speaker 3: safe space to talk about it. And just for you

2046
01:37:50,560 --> 01:37:52,200
Speaker 3: coming back on. You know how much I love you

2047
01:37:52,240 --> 01:37:54,160
Speaker 3: and how proud I am of you. And every time

2048
01:37:54,200 --> 01:37:56,080
Speaker 3: I see you on the internet one year to the next,

2049
01:37:56,120 --> 01:37:57,800
Speaker 3: maybe when you're missing, I'm always happy to see you.

2050
01:37:57,800 --> 01:38:00,439
Speaker 3: I'm always happy to see you here. You always welcome here.

2051
01:38:01,000 --> 01:38:04,559
Speaker 3: And yeah, I'm so grateful our journey's crossed. This is

2052
01:38:04,600 --> 01:38:08,200
Speaker 3: so important to my sixteen year old aspiring author self.

2053
01:38:08,360 --> 01:38:09,400
Speaker 6: This is like I made it.

2054
01:38:09,560 --> 01:38:11,840
Speaker 5: Yeah, same, And I know I don't have to tell

2055
01:38:11,880 --> 01:38:13,280
Speaker 5: you to keep going, but just keep going.

2056
01:38:14,680 --> 01:38:17,400
Speaker 4: I will do my best. It's hard. It's hard to

2057
01:38:17,479 --> 01:38:17,920
Speaker 4: keep going.

2058
01:38:17,960 --> 01:38:20,120
Speaker 2: And when you build your mansion and the catskills invite us,

2059
01:38:20,120 --> 01:38:20,720
Speaker 2: we'll be right there.

2060
01:38:20,800 --> 01:38:22,280
Speaker 4: Yeah, actually building my house right now.

2061
01:38:22,320 --> 01:38:24,840
Speaker 5: Perfect, We'll come through. I'll do a sound bath. You

2062
01:38:24,880 --> 01:38:27,240
Speaker 5: got to come to our house and we'll yeah.

2063
01:38:27,360 --> 01:38:29,280
Speaker 6: Yeah, you're the only person will drink white wine with

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01:38:29,360 --> 01:38:30,080
Speaker 6: at ten am.

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01:38:30,479 --> 01:38:33,000
Speaker 4: You know, that's what we do. I appreciate you.

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01:38:33,360 --> 01:38:36,360
Speaker 3: Thank you guys for joining us. You know here on

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01:38:36,439 --> 01:38:38,720
Speaker 3: Good Mom's Bad Choices. Make sure you subscribe. Make sure

2068
01:38:38,720 --> 01:38:42,160
Speaker 3: you subscribe to Patreon patreon dot com, backslash.

2069
01:38:41,800 --> 01:38:42,919
Speaker 2: Good Mom's Bad Choices.

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Speaker 3: Make sure you check out our upcoming retreats at the

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01:38:46,280 --> 01:38:49,320
Speaker 3: Good Vibe re Treat Good Mom's Bad Choices Backslash Retreats,

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Speaker 3: And you can find us on Instagram and on the

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01:38:52,320 --> 01:38:53,479
Speaker 3: tiktoks and all of this.

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01:38:53,680 --> 01:38:55,160
Speaker 6: Socials Are you back on social?

2075
01:38:55,280 --> 01:38:55,320
Speaker 4: Like?

2076
01:38:55,360 --> 01:38:57,720
Speaker 2: Where can our people find you? Where are you at?

2077
01:38:58,080 --> 01:39:02,000
Speaker 4: Okay? So I'm kind of back on social, but not really.

2078
01:39:02,560 --> 01:39:06,240
Speaker 4: It's the same as before. It's Elizabeth dot Ovison. I

2079
01:39:06,360 --> 01:39:09,160
Speaker 4: just I don't like socials and I don't like being

2080
01:39:09,160 --> 01:39:12,360
Speaker 4: a slave to an algorithm, and I'm really more comfortable

2081
01:39:12,400 --> 01:39:13,080
Speaker 4: living my life.

2082
01:39:13,120 --> 01:39:14,679
Speaker 2: Where can people find you? For coaching?

2083
01:39:15,680 --> 01:39:18,479
Speaker 6: You can't know? Okay, so I got your number?

2084
01:39:18,520 --> 01:39:18,720
Speaker 7: Big?

2085
01:39:19,880 --> 01:39:23,600
Speaker 2: You can't how many clients you don't really have? Like

2086
01:39:23,640 --> 01:39:25,120
Speaker 2: a three to five?

2087
01:39:25,160 --> 01:39:25,920
Speaker 4: I take three to five?

2088
01:39:25,960 --> 01:39:28,400
Speaker 5: And how long are your coaching? Is it like months?

2089
01:39:28,479 --> 01:39:29,679
Speaker 5: Is it it's every month?

2090
01:39:29,840 --> 01:39:33,120
Speaker 4: For we just go so's it's it's an hour, an

2091
01:39:33,120 --> 01:39:36,280
Speaker 4: hour to an hour and twenty minutes every single month forever.

2092
01:39:36,800 --> 01:39:39,880
Speaker 4: So I've had my girls now for several years, and

2093
01:39:40,280 --> 01:39:42,600
Speaker 4: that's it. Like it's just a very small group. I

2094
01:39:42,640 --> 01:39:44,200
Speaker 4: love that I'm different.

2095
01:39:44,200 --> 01:39:44,439
Speaker 2: I don't.

2096
01:39:44,439 --> 01:39:46,120
Speaker 4: I don't want to be available to everybody.

2097
01:39:46,280 --> 01:39:46,599
Speaker 2: Amen.

2098
01:39:47,360 --> 01:39:49,880
Speaker 4: I want to save my energy, and I.

2099
01:39:49,800 --> 01:39:52,760
Speaker 6: Resonate with a certain discriminative awareness.

2100
01:39:52,960 --> 01:39:55,560
Speaker 4: Yeah, I just stand. I just I'm not for everybody,

2101
01:39:55,760 --> 01:39:59,599
Speaker 4: and I understand that. So I'm just not as widely

2102
01:39:59,640 --> 01:40:01,640
Speaker 4: availab bull as people would want me to be. But

2103
01:40:01,680 --> 01:40:05,280
Speaker 4: that's because I don't fucking want to be where I want.

2104
01:40:05,320 --> 01:40:08,200
Speaker 6: So I don't want to be You're healthy, I'm healthy.

2105
01:40:08,240 --> 01:40:09,960
Speaker 5: Well, thank you for sharing your time, your thoughts, your

2106
01:40:10,040 --> 01:40:11,960
Speaker 5: energy here in the space. I appreciate your time. I

2107
01:40:11,960 --> 01:40:16,080
Speaker 5: appreciate your mind. Thank you, and I think the people

2108
01:40:16,120 --> 01:40:18,959
Speaker 5: here do as well. In our audience really really resonated

2109
01:40:19,000 --> 01:40:21,200
Speaker 5: with our last with our last episode together. So if

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01:40:21,200 --> 01:40:23,240
Speaker 5: you haven't listened to that episode, make sure you go

2111
01:40:23,320 --> 01:40:25,200
Speaker 5: check out the Woman who Slaps Back one.

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01:40:26,040 --> 01:40:29,000
Speaker 4: That was so good. You guys, you do two episodes

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01:40:29,000 --> 01:40:29,519
Speaker 4: this time.

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01:40:30,040 --> 01:40:34,320
Speaker 5: Enough, Yeah, that's going to be a two parter. So

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01:40:34,400 --> 01:40:38,400
Speaker 5: if you've gotten this far, congratulations, it's hard too.

2116
01:40:40,920 --> 01:40:43,320
Speaker 2: You know where to find us on all podcast platforms.

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01:40:43,360 --> 01:40:45,439
Speaker 5: Good Mom's Bad Choices, Like Mela said, join us at

2118
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Speaker 5: the Good Vibe Retreat. You can find me at watch

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Speaker 5: Erica on Instagram or at watch Erica Nicole on TikTok.

2120
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Speaker 2: You can find Mela.

2121
01:40:52,680 --> 01:40:54,880
Speaker 6: At mela Underscore map.

2122
01:40:55,120 --> 01:40:57,360
Speaker 2: Make sure you follow our podcast studio here in La.

2123
01:40:57,439 --> 01:40:58,720
Speaker 2: If you have a podcast, you.

2124
01:40:58,680 --> 01:41:00,880
Speaker 5: Want it recorded, you want then you just want to

2125
01:41:00,920 --> 01:41:03,479
Speaker 5: sit down and talk and walk away. Make sure you

2126
01:41:03,560 --> 01:41:06,280
Speaker 5: check out good dot good Media on Instagram or good

2127
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Speaker 5: Good Productions dot com.

2128
01:41:09,200 --> 01:41:13,960
Speaker 2: Anyway, We'll see you next week. We love you, hey please?

2129
01:41:14,640 --> 01:41:17,800
Speaker 4: Yeah, I'm living so good? Can't you tell? I went

2130
01:41:17,880 --> 01:41:20,000
Speaker 4: through a drought? That's until I find out well may

2131
01:41:20,080 --> 01:41:22,080
Speaker 4: might have been known earth. I used to be broken

2132
01:41:22,200 --> 01:41:24,439
Speaker 4: till now I got the blues ins and like Beyonce

2133
01:41:24,640 --> 01:41:27,799
Speaker 4: Jasell throat shot or popping his car wearing our voices

2134
01:41:27,960 --> 01:41:30,360
Speaker 4: Patriarch and catch it in the box to it's fois.

2135
01:41:30,600 --> 01:41:33,200
Speaker 4: Women put the pi and powers, So what's pointless? They

2136
01:41:33,200 --> 01:41:35,679
Speaker 4: want me to be good? So I made bad choices.

2137
01:41:35,840 --> 01:41:38,320
Speaker 4: Bad mom, not a bad mom, but a bad mom.

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01:41:38,400 --> 01:41:41,280
Speaker 4: Bitters in on put cannabis in their bath, bon walk

2139
01:41:41,400 --> 01:41:44,280
Speaker 4: in bossas cap and I blew his cat boss hot Dog.

2140
01:41:44,360 --> 01:41:46,800
Speaker 4: Now I'm immune to the cat called Herbie and no

2141
01:41:46,880 --> 01:41:49,400
Speaker 4: waisted straight to it like a dollar sign. Mother, rent

2142
01:41:49,400 --> 01:41:51,400
Speaker 4: the lumber when to it is like a water Someone

2143
01:41:51,439 --> 01:41:54,280
Speaker 4: where you're renting winter resential will when the summertime. I

2144
01:41:54,360 --> 01:41:56,320
Speaker 4: do what doll They know when that needs a running

2145
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Speaker 4: by