Speaker 1: Let's talk to Chris. Who is this Chris?
Speaker 2: Hi?
Speaker 1: What's going on?
Speaker 3: Hey?
Speaker 4: Are you?
Speaker 1: I'm good. I'm a gecko on the computer, Chris. It
Speaker 1: says here that you've been getting angry very often, says
Speaker 1: you have a short temper, and you want to know
Speaker 1: why you've been getting angry easily?
Speaker 5: Yeah, that that has been the case. A lot of
Speaker 5: people have been pointing that out. And you know, just
Speaker 5: after a certain situations or after a day, I'll think
Speaker 5: back on it. I'll be like, maybe I maybe I
Speaker 5: did overreacting, but I didn't used to be like that.
Speaker 5: Just the thing.
Speaker 1: Interesting, Okay, So what when you said that you're short tempered?
Speaker 1: Now you get angry recently? Like what sorts of things
Speaker 1: have been making you angry?
Speaker 5: Like like the small things, like for example, like if
Speaker 5: somebody were to ask me, like a really dumb question
Speaker 5: when they could answer themselves, like without having to ask.
Speaker 1: Me, give me an example of a question like that.
Speaker 5: I mean, I mean a good example I could give
Speaker 5: you is like if I'm if I park right next
Speaker 5: to the gas station after my car started beeping like
Speaker 5: low gas, and you know, the person in the passenger
Speaker 5: seat were asking me like, oh, we're getting gass like, yes,
Speaker 5: you know, ship your luck.
Speaker 1: Okay, interesting, but I mean, okay, so that and that
Speaker 1: and something a little thing, a little thing like that
Speaker 1: just gets at you and makes you man, Yes.
Speaker 5: But it's more like the accumulation of all those things
Speaker 5: in like one day.
Speaker 1: Yeah, okay, So that's what I was gonna say. Is
Speaker 1: you know, I'm not a real therapist. I'm a gecko
Speaker 1: guy on the internet who is insane. But my hypothesis
Speaker 1: on this thing is that obviously you know, and you
Speaker 1: know this, everyone knows you're not actually mad that your
Speaker 1: friend asked you that question. Your anger is coming from
Speaker 1: a different place or from a as you said, accumulation of
Speaker 1: multiple things. And so I'm curious maybe we can get
Speaker 1: there where this anger is being redirected from. Do you
Speaker 1: have any ideas.
Speaker 5: That's a good point, hmm, I mean, I I would
Speaker 5: have to think about that.
Speaker 1: Tell tell me this, how is your how is your
Speaker 1: life going? Just on a macro level.
Speaker 5: I mean, in my opinion, I'm really just starting it
Speaker 5: because after high school, which is like twenty twenty, you know,
Speaker 5: beginning of COVID all that, that's when I kind of
Speaker 5: became a homebody, you know, and I'm still kind of
Speaker 5: used to that. And I took a break from college
Speaker 5: and I'm just starting that off now too, So yeah,
Speaker 5: pretty much just at the start of things.
Speaker 1: Okay, So you at the start of things and you
Speaker 1: said you took a break from college and now you're back. Yes, Okay,
Speaker 1: how are you enjoying college?
Speaker 5: I mean it's not too bad. I'm actually doing it
Speaker 5: with my girlfriend, and she's the one that convinced me to,
Speaker 5: you know, go back, give it a try, and you know,
Speaker 5: after some talking, I'm trying to realize it probably is
Speaker 5: the easiest way to my perior path.
Speaker 1: Okay, how are things are going with your girlfriend?
Speaker 5: I would say pretty good. I mean we've been together
Speaker 5: for about a year and hast so yeah, I don't
Speaker 5: see any problems with her, but I mean she is
Speaker 5: one of the people that have pointed out that I
Speaker 5: get pretty uh angry quick.
Speaker 1: Okay, all right, so things are going well with the girlfriends.
Speaker 1: You're at the beginning of your your life path, as
Speaker 1: you've said, are you do you? Are you? Are you
Speaker 1: having feelings of excitement? Are you you know there's a
Speaker 1: lot of potential energy with you right now? Are you
Speaker 1: like excited about what's to come.
Speaker 5: I definitely kind of have like a love of hate
Speaker 5: relationship with it because I never liked school. You know,
Speaker 5: that's one of the reasons why I took a break
Speaker 5: in the first place. But like I said, it just
Speaker 5: makes sense how it's the easiest way to what I
Speaker 5: want to do. KA, So I'm just gonna give it
Speaker 5: a try, give in my all.
Speaker 1: I guess, all right, So there's no anything going on
Speaker 1: in your life that is like, at least from what
Speaker 1: I'm gathering from what you're telling me, that is causing
Speaker 1: you a lot of anger and frustration in a big way.
Speaker 5: I mean, I guess, I mean, I guess maybe like
Speaker 5: job wise, I could be fucking struggling a little bit.
Speaker 5: That that's I have a few regrets with my job choices.
Speaker 1: Why is that?
Speaker 5: Because I mean, I want to say, a year ago,
Speaker 5: I used to have like a really good job, like
Speaker 5: really good, and I quit because I don't know, I
Speaker 5: don't know why I quit, Like I should have just
Speaker 5: dealt with with what was like happening, But you know,
Speaker 5: I just got a I guess I got a little
Speaker 5: too quick with it and I quit, sure, and I
Speaker 5: regret it. I fund a job that good since I've had.
Speaker 1: It, okay and disregret. Is it just like a passing
Speaker 1: thing or is it? Is it a prevalent source of
Speaker 1: anger in your day to day life.
Speaker 5: I mean, I think about it frequently because it's like,
Speaker 5: right now, what I do is the job is I
Speaker 5: kind of just help out my father with you know,
Speaker 5: his job, and he pays me, and you know, that's
Speaker 5: just how I get my money. I'm able to pay
Speaker 5: like most of my stuff like that, but before I
Speaker 5: didn't really have to rely on you know, my dad
Speaker 5: or anything too, Like if my bills come through, it's
Speaker 5: just like, yeah, he he owes me money because like,
Speaker 5: oh we did the work. But it just stucks having
Speaker 5: to go up to him like hey, can you send
Speaker 5: me the amount that I need and shit, or like
Speaker 5: I need money to go out. It's like I know
Speaker 5: I could probably just you know, I can always just
Speaker 5: ask him because it's it's my money, he said, I
Speaker 5: just have to. It's like whenever it's available.
Speaker 1: It'll be there. But all right, so none of this stuff,
Speaker 1: I mean, if it doesn't sound like any of these stuff,
Speaker 1: I'm trying to poke around your brain and life and
Speaker 1: find anything that could be like really frustrating you. But
Speaker 1: it doesn't at least sound to me. I mean, sure,
Speaker 1: you have this regret about your job, but you know
Speaker 1: you're a human being. No human being has ever, you know,
Speaker 1: lived with absolutely no regrets of anything ever. And it
Speaker 1: doesn't sound like, at least to me from the limited
Speaker 1: amount of information you've given me, that there is any
Speaker 1: large pain points. So I'm wondering why you're still getting
Speaker 1: upset at these little things, or like, what is triggering
Speaker 1: you to have such like.
Speaker 5: Style right the best and honestly described like the the
Speaker 5: you know, so I guess me things is like when
Speaker 5: when something doesn't work how it's supposed to. Like if
Speaker 5: if one day, if I wake up in my daytube
Speaker 5: likes aren't working like this is just an example, then
Speaker 5: I'll get mad at like I'll like sort some ship
Speaker 5: and I would just ruin my morning.
Speaker 1: Okay, interesting, you should read it. I'm gonna go. Can
Speaker 1: I have permission to say some doucheese? Of course you
Speaker 1: should read up on stoic philosophy. I'm not going to
Speaker 1: sit here and pretend like I've read a whole bunch
Speaker 1: of books on it. But I feel like, you know
Speaker 1: the crux of it is, you know, accepting things that
Speaker 1: you cannot control. See when you you have to. You
Speaker 1: gotta understand when you wake up and you get upset
Speaker 1: that your Bluetooth is not working, you are are wasting
Speaker 1: precious energy toward absolutely nothing productive, like this thing happened,
Speaker 1: and getting upset about it. It will not benefit you
Speaker 1: in the slightest. It won't motivate you to do anything
Speaker 1: about it. It is nothing but a pure waste of
Speaker 1: your precious energy to get upset about your bluetooth not working.
Speaker 1: And I think that it takes a little bit of time,
Speaker 1: Like you know, you could hear me say that and go, oh, yeah,
Speaker 1: I guess you're right. But to really change your gut reaction,
Speaker 1: you've got to train yourself to understand that, and you
Speaker 1: have to do this in an intentional way. So tomorrow,
Speaker 1: when you wake up and your Bluetooth doesn't work, your
Speaker 1: gut reaction will be to get upset, and you have
Speaker 1: to intervene and stop the gut reaction by saying to yourself,
Speaker 1: this is a waste of energy. It's not going to
Speaker 1: do anything. You know, I will just accept this and
Speaker 1: move on with my day. And the more mornings that
Speaker 1: you do that, when your Bluetooth isn't working or when
Speaker 1: your friend asks you why you're getting gas, your gut
Speaker 1: reaction will slowly start to be replaced by that thought.
Speaker 1: Does that make sense?
Speaker 5: Yeah, yeah, it doesn't make sense. So yeah, yeah I should,
Speaker 5: that's for sure.
Speaker 1: So next time you you just just do do this.
Speaker 1: You know, your your anger and your frustration occasionally can
Speaker 1: be a useful tool if it propels you into some
Speaker 1: form of action that can be beneficial to the situation
Speaker 1: you're in. But like most of the time, it's just
Speaker 1: a complete and utter waste of your precious energy, you know,
Speaker 1: because if you go around being fucking pissed off at
Speaker 1: every single opportunity that you have to get pissed off,
Speaker 1: you're're gonna be miserable.
Speaker 5: You know.
Speaker 1: Like if you're there are these people who uh you know, uh,
Speaker 1: like if I'm in the passenger car with somebody who
Speaker 1: is like an angry driver and they're always beeping or
Speaker 1: like somebody, let's say, cuts them off in traffic, and
Speaker 1: then five minutes later they're still talking about the person
Speaker 1: that cuts them off in traffic, It's like, what are
Speaker 1: you doing? Just be like, oh fuck, that happens, and
Speaker 1: then completely move on with your life. It's it's it's
Speaker 1: not an effective way to be to get pissed off
Speaker 1: at every opportunity that you have to get pissed off.
Speaker 5: Yeah, yeah, honestly, that's That was a pretty good example
Speaker 5: of like a few of my days.
Speaker 1: Okay, is that a thing for you? You get pissed
Speaker 1: off and like traffic, key car situations.
Speaker 5: Yes, like absolutely, yes, yeah.
Speaker 1: Man, just just try to recognize what your gut reaction
Speaker 1: is to these situations, like get on the step ladder
Speaker 1: and observe your own reactions and then put forth intentional
Speaker 1: effort to change them.
Speaker 5: Here, here's something funny that happened this one time. So,
Speaker 5: like I said, I'm not a very good traffic person,
Speaker 5: so I try to avoid that as much as possible.
Speaker 5: My girl is like thirty mints away from me. Like
Speaker 5: with traffic, it's an hour, but I don't mind it
Speaker 5: at all. But usually I dropped off at like two
Speaker 5: in the morning because that was after work. We used
Speaker 5: to work at like a movie theater, and then I
Speaker 5: would just go back home late at night. One day,
Speaker 5: I dropped off early, and I forgot that the roads
Speaker 5: would probably be you know full, but it was like whatever,
Speaker 5: I get on the road and this one time, like
Speaker 5: bumper the number traffic moving five months while on the highway,
Speaker 5: and I said, you know what, it's okay, we'll get
Speaker 5: home eventually. You know, it was a good day. We'll
Speaker 5: just relaxed, sit back, listen to a podcasts. Right. Yeah,
Speaker 5: my car overheated because of how long hours in traffic
Speaker 5: and I had to pull over and waited until like
Speaker 5: twelve am to actually start getting home.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 5: Then the one time I wasn't impatient.
Speaker 1: And that pissed you off.
Speaker 5: Yes, like unbelievably.
Speaker 1: Uh yeah, I mean, listen, it sounds like in that situation,
Speaker 1: you did the best you could. But you'll get Listen, man,
Speaker 1: you'll get to a point where you'll you'll you'll be like,
Speaker 1: I mean, looking back on that now, I mean, that's
Speaker 1: super funny that you were patient in this. It's funny.
Speaker 1: It's funny. You see, it's funny. Now maybe next time
Speaker 1: when it happens, you'll recognize that it's funny in the
Speaker 1: moment and that'll help you in some way.
Speaker 5: Yeah, hopefully.
Speaker 1: No, that was definitely like, Chris, is there anything else
Speaker 1: you want to say to the people of the computer
Speaker 1: before we go.
Speaker 2: Don't let the.
Speaker 5: Small thing bother you, guys, It's not worth it.
Speaker 1: Beautiful.
Speaker 5: Yeah, have a good night, Geck did you.
Speaker 1: Call on Chris every night? But just just to really,
Speaker 1: just to clarify, just to just to clarify, I've probably
Speaker 1: I bought a book on Stoic philosophy, and I probably
Speaker 1: read twenty five pages of it. And that's about how
Speaker 1: much I've read. Just because I's it's really important to
Speaker 1: me that I don't create a false narrative of who
Speaker 1: I am that involves me being a guy who reads
Speaker 1: a lot of books. I've probably read four books over
Speaker 1: the course of my entire existence. I just want to
Speaker 1: clear that up. Hello. Hello, is this Landon?
Speaker 3: Yes? It is.
Speaker 1: What's going on with you? Landon?
Speaker 3: I am currently in my house playing Halo.
Speaker 1: You are currently in your house playing Halo, Yes.
Speaker 3: The useless studio game, And I want to talk to
Speaker 3: you about how I well, I don't think it's a
Speaker 3: fact that around five billion years the Sun is going
Speaker 3: to blow up and the Earth is absolutely in the radius,
Speaker 3: and the Earth will be unhabitable and the humanity, if
Speaker 3: it's still on Earth, will be dead by then.
Speaker 1: Yeah, Yeah, it says here that you have a fear
Speaker 1: that the sun will eventually blow up the earth long
Speaker 1: after you're dead. Yeah, okay, so why why does that
Speaker 1: scare you? The sun blowing up the earth?
Speaker 3: Whoa, you know, it's been around for a while, but
Speaker 3: not for that long compared to the life of the Earth.
Speaker 3: We're fucking useless. But all the progress we've made as
Speaker 3: a species, all we've developed, we'll kind of always be
Speaker 3: taken away from us.
Speaker 6: And I don't know, it doesn't really leave a nice
Speaker 6: taste in my mouth. I know it's inevitable, but maybe
Speaker 6: we'd be far off into the stars by then, or.
Speaker 7: Maybe what would be extinct, and that'd be okay with
Speaker 7: either way, because it would never really affect my personal
Speaker 7: life because I've probably only lived to like nine year
Speaker 7: eighty or something.
Speaker 3: But it's just fugere thought.
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, I find it and I always find it interesting.
Speaker 1: And you know, someone like yourself, you know that you're
Speaker 1: going to be long dead after this happens, but it's
Speaker 1: still is affecting you emotionally. Yeah, how much of a
Speaker 1: thing is this for you? Is this something you think
Speaker 1: about very often? Oh?
Speaker 3: You live every day and sometimes it's a nice thing,
Speaker 3: like life is kind of pointless, so I should have sue.
Speaker 3: It makes me happy, but sometimes it's kind of a
Speaker 3: sad thing. It just kind of shows how time will
Speaker 3: won't last forever. And I have pretty big plans for
Speaker 3: my life and I feel confident enough to achieve them,
Speaker 3: like I want to make music express my heart and
Speaker 3: all that, but sometimes I think won't really be worth anything, because,
Speaker 3: for example, wundesses are a progress as humanity interesting.
Speaker 1: So you kind of touched on this about how there's many,
Speaker 1: many different ways to look at this fact that the
Speaker 1: sun will explode and all of humanity will be destroyed,
Speaker 1: which is as you said, Oh, since that's gonna happen,
Speaker 1: I should just take advantage of it and do whatever
Speaker 1: I want and be happy. Or you can look at
Speaker 1: it from a depressing Oh nothing is matters, Why do anything.
Speaker 1: That's the two choices. Nothing matters, Let's go do everything.
Speaker 1: Nothing matters, Let's do nothing. And at a certain point
Speaker 1: you know that this is an objective fact, but how
Speaker 1: you respond it's an objective fact that you can't control,
Speaker 1: but you can respond. You can control how you respond
Speaker 1: to it, which you kind of touched on already. So
Speaker 1: do you find yourself being pulled in either direction depending
Speaker 1: on the day, Like some days you wake up and
Speaker 1: your nihilism is like, well, shit, nothing matters, let's go
Speaker 1: make a crazy song, let's go talk to a stranger
Speaker 1: at the park, you know, or or do you go
Speaker 1: nothing matters, I'm just gonna fall asleep and not even
Speaker 1: exert effort towards anything. Do you do you find yourself
Speaker 1: being torn by those two thought processes?
Speaker 3: Oh yeah, all the time. I'm very on and off.
Speaker 1: Yeah. Yeah.
Speaker 3: Sometimes I think maybe it's like the intelligent thing to
Speaker 3: just not really care and not give up this kind
Speaker 3: of become epithet because what I think that's just say never, baila,
Speaker 3: is maybe it's smart to accept it and maybe a
Speaker 3: gain this confidence of oh I can do whatever I want.
Speaker 3: I'll give me some false hope or something.
Speaker 1: Hm. So you have a fear that if you feed
Speaker 1: the side of yourself that is optimistic about these these
Speaker 1: nihilistic facts, that you're just giving yourself false hope.
Speaker 3: Yeah, because you know, I have pretty, like I said,
Speaker 3: big goals, but I think it's okay to get myself grounded.
Speaker 3: You know, I can go a little extreme with the
Speaker 3: grounding and.
Speaker 1: Be like, what's the point, Let's get into these goals.
Speaker 1: With these goals.
Speaker 3: From a young age, I've always been very like, I'm
Speaker 3: a talented with visual things. I'm a bit of an artist,
Speaker 3: but I also want to express like feelings and emotion
Speaker 3: and concepts through music and kind of mix the two together,
Speaker 3: like make music with backs to worry for a music
Speaker 3: video it's quite arts, or mixed to movies or something,
Speaker 3: and just really express myself and try to get across
Speaker 3: these weird feelings. I sometimes I'm afraid that nobody else, whoever,
Speaker 3: experience like you know, I'll be like listening to this
Speaker 3: piece of music and I'll be like, huh does them
Speaker 3: I always feel the way I do right now when
Speaker 3: I listen to this, because it makes you feel like
Speaker 3: very warm and nosthology if we're happy or sad or
Speaker 3: romantic or whatever, you know, and it's like there's all
Speaker 3: this stuff, and it's like, what's the point. Maybe it's
Speaker 3: okay just to keep all to myself and I have
Speaker 3: my own self satisfaction, or maybe others do you want
Speaker 3: to experience my thoughts? And you know, soaking art or.
Speaker 1: Whoever, well that is kind of and let's let's get
Speaker 1: douchey in here. That is kind of what an artist
Speaker 1: is is you're taking your perspective on a thing and
Speaker 1: you're sharing it with others confidently in the form of
Speaker 1: a painting, a song, lyric, a poem, a fart, whatever
Speaker 1: it is. And I think that that's a worthwhile pursuit
Speaker 1: in the face of, oh, all of technology, check what
Speaker 1: the fuck am I talking about, In the face of
Speaker 1: all of humanity is going to be destroyed by the
Speaker 1: sun one day. The optimistic thing would be to go, hey,
Speaker 1: all these things that I'm doing, I'll just do them
Speaker 1: for the sake of them them itself. I'm doing it
Speaker 1: for the sake of it, not to leave a lasting legacy,
Speaker 1: not to get people to think that I'm a genius,
Speaker 1: but just for the sake of doing the thing.
Speaker 4: In the moment, I see ye, and I think you
Speaker 4: know that.
Speaker 1: I think you already you already know this. It sounds
Speaker 1: like you've thought about all this shit already. But the
Speaker 1: the the the when you're fighting between the pessimistic and
Speaker 1: the optimistic viewpoint on these uh, you know this whole
Speaker 1: o the sun is going to explode, Nothing will matter
Speaker 1: it's it all depends on which wolf you feed, you know, like,
Speaker 1: which of these two are you going to feed into?
Speaker 1: And I think if you really are smart, you would
Speaker 1: feed the optimistic one because maybe is always going to
Speaker 1: lead to more than a no. The no is is nothing.
Speaker 1: There's nothing there, and you could go, oh, I'm super smart,
Speaker 1: so I'm just gonna not care about anything. But if
Speaker 1: you're really smart, you'll pick the maybe because that has
Speaker 1: the more potential for things to happen. So so if
Speaker 1: I were you and I was was battling between these
Speaker 1: two perspectives, I would feed the one with the most potential,
Speaker 1: and that's the one that's okay, nothing matters. Let me
Speaker 1: go write a fucking song about bears.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I see. And in the past of how this
Speaker 3: plan where I use my creativity. So I'm into a
Speaker 3: lot more darker kind of alt music, other Big Face,
Speaker 3: Tiffy all that stuff. But I'm really into like eighties
Speaker 3: goth and usually as like a darker tone. So I
Speaker 3: want to use my creativity and take advantage of that
Speaker 3: and be happy make music, but sing about these like darker,
Speaker 3: more pessimistic topics to kind of give some food you thought,
Speaker 3: you know, and you know, I'm pretty content with that idea.
Speaker 3: I don't really know if I should, but you're telling
Speaker 3: me I should, So I'm only take that to you'all.
Speaker 2: Heart.
Speaker 1: What's your name again? Landon? Yeah? You know what, man,
Speaker 1: I I like thinking about this kind of stuff because
Speaker 1: it is true, and it's interesting to me because I'm
Speaker 1: I'm I think I'm self centered in the sense that
Speaker 1: I truly could give a fuck about what happens, you know,
Speaker 1: to the universe. Uh, you know, there's all this talk
Speaker 1: about here's what I'm gonna get, you know, flamed, but
Speaker 1: there's let's talk about class and this is being I'm
Speaker 1: half kidding, but it's funny to me, Like, I know,
Speaker 1: if society falls and the sun explodes and the Earth explodes,
Speaker 1: it's like, we had I've said this so many times,
Speaker 1: but we had a good run. You know, we did
Speaker 1: stuff with There were people. Some of the people had
Speaker 1: good lives, The people felt things, the people loved people,
Speaker 1: the people made things. They eight things. We tried, we failed,
Speaker 1: and now the you know, earth is going to explode.
Speaker 1: What what?
Speaker 4: What?
Speaker 1: What? What do we need more time to do? We
Speaker 1: did it. We had a good run. Let's accept it.
Speaker 1: And all die and let whatever alien creature dog thing
Speaker 1: comes next do its thing. You know, why do we
Speaker 1: need to be saved?
Speaker 3: Yeah? I think about Well, there's this term caused like
Speaker 3: the great filter, which is like any species, there's on't
Speaker 3: hns great filture that kills it. I kind of have
Speaker 3: a theory because we're pretty advanced creature. It's very emotionally complex,
Speaker 3: and there's all these problems that come from our netives
Speaker 3: emotions like war from hate and all that, or and
Speaker 3: we have a lot of love and joy too, and
Speaker 3: beauty by the time that the sun blows up. This
Speaker 3: is really stupid. Probably what happened. Like the scientists. I've
Speaker 3: actually considered writing story about this. The scientists make this
Speaker 3: like time capsule that saves all of our history and
Speaker 3: stuff before we die, right, and it's I don't fucking know,
Speaker 3: it's some system that's protected from the sun and billions
Speaker 3: and billions and trillions of years there if like a
Speaker 3: new species evolves or aliens come or you know, this
Speaker 3: new species evolves and it's a television enough to understand
Speaker 3: and kind to see these signs and all of that.
Speaker 3: They can learn from our mistakes and maybe gain from
Speaker 3: our knowledge and all of.
Speaker 1: That, and then one day they'll die, you know, because
Speaker 1: they'll give it. They'll probably live longer than we did.
Speaker 1: They'll give it a good shot, and then eventually they'll
Speaker 1: fuck up and die, and then maybe they'll leave a
Speaker 1: time capsule, and then the super advanced h flamingo people
Speaker 1: will pick up on theirs, and then we'll just keep
Speaker 1: going until we have giant spiders who are like masters
Speaker 1: of science and technology. Yeah, hey, Landed, is there anything
Speaker 1: else you want to say to the people of the
Speaker 1: computer before we go?
Speaker 3: You're a pretty cool guy. Got cool. I spend all
Speaker 3: my time. I think you're a podcast and all, and
Speaker 3: this is my first time calling you. I feel like
Speaker 3: he was a kind of decent call. And keep on
Speaker 3: doing what you do people. He's a cool get cool guy, and.
Speaker 1: So I feel like this was a kind of decent
Speaker 1: call to Landon and I appreciate you making it. Hey there, Hey, Hi,
Speaker 1: what's your name?
Speaker 2: My name is Bois?
Speaker 1: Uh fucking say that again?
Speaker 2: Bois?
Speaker 1: Can I call you bo?
Speaker 2: Yeah?
Speaker 3: Yeah, you know what called me?
Speaker 2: Jim Bow?
Speaker 1: Is that a Is that like a like a username
Speaker 1: of some kind?
Speaker 2: No, No, it's just a made up name.
Speaker 8: I got a nickname.
Speaker 2: I got I go buy manys.
Speaker 1: Okay, I don't feel bad calling you by a different
Speaker 1: version of your made up name. Okay, Bo, Yeah, what's up?
Speaker 3: Bo?
Speaker 1: What did you want to talk about today?
Speaker 2: Uh? Well, you know, I'm kind of like stuck right now.
Speaker 2: I'm stuck in a job that I know I do
Speaker 2: a lot of good work, but it just feels like
Speaker 2: a lot of the people that are there really don't
Speaker 2: give a ship. But it's for a good cause, you know,
Speaker 2: and I just for my livelihood sake. I don't want
Speaker 2: to name any particular names, right, but it's it's it's
Speaker 2: for a good cause. Though. You know, we work with
Speaker 2: high end kids, you know, DCFS kids, kids that go
Speaker 2: through a lot of issues, and we provide them a
Speaker 2: safe space. But I don't know if you know, but
Speaker 2: I mean, you know, the nation is is we're in
Speaker 2: a tough spot as far as like providing services and
Speaker 2: trying to maintain those services. And the first thing cut
Speaker 2: is mental health.
Speaker 1: Right. So okay, Yeah, So.
Speaker 2: I've been at this place for a pretty long time
Speaker 2: and I don't want to name how long, but I'm
Speaker 2: coming up on a pretty interesting a year because this
Speaker 2: is a pretty big mark here as far as how
Speaker 2: long I've been there. But I just don't feel like
Speaker 2: there's any room for me to grow, you know. And
Speaker 2: it's it's challenging, and I've asked and I just don't
Speaker 2: know what else to do. I know, if I do
Speaker 2: something else, it won't be as fulfilling, but I'll probably
Speaker 2: make more money. That's that's the conundrum I'm in. I
Speaker 2: I kind of want like a purpose.
Speaker 1: Well, I'm just a wise man. Did once say fuck
Speaker 1: them kids?
Speaker 2: Yeah?
Speaker 1: And sometimes in life you do have to get up
Speaker 1: and say fuck them kids. I got to go do
Speaker 1: something else. No offense to the kids. I'm sure they're
Speaker 1: great kids, but you've been there for so long that
Speaker 1: you have lost count and now it seems as though
Speaker 1: you've given them all you have.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I feel depleted. It's every day is mundane, the
Speaker 2: same thing over and over again, but wearing many hats
Speaker 2: type of thing.
Speaker 1: You know, So so give me this. What what what's
Speaker 1: if you were to to, you know, say sayonara to
Speaker 1: the children, what would you want to then go do?
Speaker 2: Yeah? That's the thing. I don't know. Man. I've been
Speaker 2: trying to reach out to all my contacts and just
Speaker 2: trying to get a feel of what's out there. I
Speaker 2: don't know. I mean, I have many different interests. I
Speaker 2: like working with my hands. I like being outside. I
Speaker 2: like working in the garden. I like I like producing
Speaker 2: things like I like networking. I like talking with people.
Speaker 2: I like creating bridges. I like helping other people.
Speaker 1: You know, well, I mean you just named like fifty
Speaker 1: different things which could all fifty. Well it's a good thing,
Speaker 1: right because you named five zero different things, and now
Speaker 1: all of those things can bridge off into lots of
Speaker 1: other career paths. And so one thing I talk about
Speaker 1: on this show all the time that I think about
Speaker 1: a lot is like the underlying desire as to why
Speaker 1: you do whatever it is you do. And if the
Speaker 1: underlying desires to as to why you work with these
Speaker 1: kids can be fulfilled in a way that you know
Speaker 1: doesn't make you want to kill yourself, then you should
Speaker 1: explore that that option.
Speaker 2: Okay, okay, you see I I've.
Speaker 1: Been thinking about this with with myself too. I've gone
Speaker 1: through a few uh changes in scenery in my own life.
Speaker 1: And once you lose, once you lose the you're done. Sure.
Speaker 1: I mean, I used to run a fucking My whole
Speaker 1: thing was I ran a comedy club at my basement,
Speaker 1: and then that got shut down because the landlord saw
Speaker 1: on Instagram ad that I was running and was like,
Speaker 1: is that my fucking house?
Speaker 4: They got salty, yeah, and then I and.
Speaker 1: Then I don't know, I I and that was like
Speaker 1: my everything you and I couldn't do it anymore. And
Speaker 1: I had to figure out what I liked in doing that.
Speaker 1: You know, maybe I liked bringing folks together, maybe I
Speaker 1: liked community. I don't know, just the underlying principles as
Speaker 1: to why I liked that, and then go try to
Speaker 1: take those underlying principles and apply them to something else,
Speaker 1: you know. And so I think if you can do it,
Speaker 1: I think when you become tunnel visions onto any specific thing,
Speaker 1: you kind of fuck yourself a little bit, right you
Speaker 1: come to you you attach yourself to a company, a job,
Speaker 1: a person of this that as opposed to attaching yourself
Speaker 1: to like underlying principles, underlying desires. And I've realized, I've
Speaker 1: kind of realized, but mine are, which is that I
Speaker 1: just want to be doing something. I literally have it
Speaker 1: boiled down to I just want to be doing something interesting.
Speaker 1: It's all I care about I think. I mean, I
Speaker 1: probably care about a lot more than that, and I
Speaker 1: probably have a lot more underlying desires, but that's one
Speaker 1: that I always go back to. I just want to
Speaker 1: be doing something interesting. And if that's, yeah, you know,
Speaker 1: throwing basement shows things, or being a gecko and talking
Speaker 1: to strangers, or you know, growing corn in Iran, then
Speaker 1: you know whatever, I just as long as it's something.
Speaker 1: So I've I've regaled myself to that. By the way,
Speaker 1: I'm horrible at taking I want you to know something.
Speaker 1: I want everyone listen. I'm horrible at taking the advice
Speaker 1: that I just gave you. I'm horrible at taking the
Speaker 1: advice I just gave you because it's hard because you
Speaker 1: get attached to your thing. You'd think I'm not fucking
Speaker 1: attached to being a gecko and talking about I couldn't
Speaker 1: give this up easily. I'd like to think I could,
Speaker 1: because of all the things that I'm talking to you about.
Speaker 1: I'd like to be better at following my own advice.
Speaker 1: I understand why you have the attachment to your current position.
Speaker 1: I mean, there's a lot in it, and to totally
Speaker 1: change up your life is not an easy thing. But
Speaker 1: these are these are things that I think about.
Speaker 8: Yeah, I mean it's a there's a lot of weight
Speaker 8: to it, and I can relate. I think with you,
Speaker 8: you have a following. I don't know how many millions
Speaker 8: of people are following you. I'm sure you have a
Speaker 8: really huge following. Okay, you know you have you have
Speaker 8: that that passion and that interest, and it's very cool.
Speaker 2: It's cool to watch.
Speaker 8: And I I think I randomly found you on I
Speaker 8: don't know on YouTube.
Speaker 1: Where you tell me where you found me from? Why
Speaker 1: do you think? What do you think me having a
Speaker 1: following has to do with this?
Speaker 8: I can't can you repeat that? Hold on something that's
Speaker 8: happening here?
Speaker 1: M What do you think me having a follow up
Speaker 1: has to do with that?
Speaker 8: I think it.
Speaker 2: I think it pushes you.
Speaker 8: If I think it pushes you to keep going, and
Speaker 8: you have so many you have so many irons in
Speaker 8: the pot, I think it's really pushing you.
Speaker 1: Yes, I agree. I think it's a terrible thing to
Speaker 1: be pushing me. I think it's a bad thing to
Speaker 1: push me. I should I mean, look you have I mean,
Speaker 1: look you have your job. I'm sure you're pushed by
Speaker 1: uh money, I'm sure you're pushed by uh, expectations of
Speaker 1: the people at your job who've employed you. I'm sure
Speaker 1: you're pushed by uh, these kids and A and a
Speaker 1: desire to avoid any guilt you might have of leaving
Speaker 1: them behind. And so I don't know is A is
Speaker 1: other people's expectations, which is what A following is?
Speaker 7: Money and.
Speaker 1: Guilt.
Speaker 8: I think it's my old expectations I put on myself too.
Speaker 1: Sure, but are those Are those all good things to
Speaker 1: be your driving force as to why you wake up
Speaker 1: in the morning, Yeah, it's probably not. Probably not. I
Speaker 1: think you and I are discovering this together.
Speaker 8: Yeah, but it feels like it's an assistency and task,
Speaker 8: you know, no matter what I do, how hard I
Speaker 8: try to recruit to get people to work at this
Speaker 8: high end place.
Speaker 2: See, now you're kind of learning a little bit more
Speaker 2: about me. I really didn't want to share all that,
Speaker 2: but it's never enough, and it's.
Speaker 8: Never going to be enough.
Speaker 2: But you know, I have many other interests besides just this.
Speaker 2: There's much more to me, and I maybe I need
Speaker 2: to start exploring some of that stuff too, because in
Speaker 2: some ways I feel like I've kind of lost myself
Speaker 2: in a way. You know, by not doing the other
Speaker 2: things that make me happy outside of work.
Speaker 1: Yeah. Yeah, what's your fake name again?
Speaker 8: Huh?
Speaker 4: Bo Bo?
Speaker 1: Listen. I want you to know if you do. And
Speaker 1: I'm not going to tell you what to do because
Speaker 1: I've resigned to not bring that, even though I kind
Speaker 1: of totally did. When you're walking out of there and
Speaker 1: a little kid with like dirt on his face or whatever,
Speaker 1: someone like an Oliver Twist kind of looking, is what
Speaker 1: I'm imagining, is like holding holding you is holding you
Speaker 1: by the leg and going, mister bow, please don't go.
Speaker 1: I need you, mister bo, please don't go. Don't don't
Speaker 1: listen to him. You should go right right?
Speaker 8: Yeah, And I hear that, and and I appreciate your time.
Speaker 8: And I was actually trying to call in here. I
Speaker 8: don't know how many times. But my name on your
Speaker 8: list is uh a rang a tang. So if you
Speaker 8: see me, I'm I'm I'm on this somewhere.
Speaker 1: What list?
Speaker 8: Uh the the chat list?
Speaker 1: Oh okay, all right. The sentence my name on your
Speaker 1: list is a rangutang meant very little to me without
Speaker 1: any context I had.
Speaker 8: Yeah, I'm sorry, I do that sometimes, I guess.
Speaker 2: Yeah, but thank you.
Speaker 8: Thank you for your time, and I wanna I'm gonna
Speaker 8: stick around here. I want to see what else other
Speaker 8: people can what they got going on. I want to
Speaker 8: hear how they go.
Speaker 1: So thank you very much. Bo. I appreciate you. Man.
Speaker 1: You take care you too.
Speaker 9: All from Bianca.
Speaker 5: Hello, Hi, Oh my goodness.
Speaker 1: What's up? How's life? Life is good? Why is it good?
Speaker 1: I don't know.
Speaker 9: Honestly, I think it's because you answered my call.
Speaker 1: That is a terrible reason for your life to be good.
Speaker 1: I'm gonna be one hundred percent honest with you, and
Speaker 1: it's a terrible reason for your life to be good.
Speaker 2: Okay, well do you but.
Speaker 1: You understand why I'm saying that, right?
Speaker 3: Oh?
Speaker 2: Well, yeah, I guess.
Speaker 1: Me answering because when when I think, when you're thinking
Speaker 1: about the pillars of what makes your life enjoyable to live,
Speaker 1: if one of them is the fact that you're on
Speaker 1: the phone with me right now, that's a bad pillar
Speaker 1: because I don't know when, but eventually, eventually we won't
Speaker 1: be on the phone together.
Speaker 9: Well I know, but you know, hard to get like
Speaker 9: on your stream and like connect to you.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm sorry for being a dick, but I know
Speaker 1: whatever That's what I felt at that moment. Bianca, what
Speaker 1: is is there any what did you want to talk
Speaker 1: about today? Well?
Speaker 9: I had a few things on my mind, but I
Speaker 9: think the main thing is like my friends, like they're like, okay,
Speaker 9: I love them possessed, don't get me wrong, but like
Speaker 9: I feel like my friend I'm not going to name
Speaker 9: any names because what if they're watching, but my one friend,
Speaker 9: she is like controlling of her boyfriend, and I'm always
Speaker 9: in the middle of it, Like, no matter what it is,
Speaker 9: they're always like like, oh, like can you like I
Speaker 9: need your advice no matter who it's from. And I'm
Speaker 9: so sick of like getting in the middle of it
Speaker 9: because I love them both so much. It's just like
Speaker 9: I don't want to talk like shit about them to
Speaker 9: each other, but I kind of do it without knowing.
Speaker 1: How old are you, Bianca, I'm twenty four, okay, And
Speaker 1: you were friends with these people before they started dating?
Speaker 9: Yeah, actually I was friends with the guy first.
Speaker 1: You're friends with the guy first. Here's what I'm cured.
Speaker 1: Maybe you can help me out with this because I'm
Speaker 1: very curious about, like, uh, what it like when I
Speaker 1: want to see my friends, I have to really go
Speaker 1: out of my way to do it. The way that
Speaker 1: you're describing this situation, it sounds like you're in you
Speaker 1: have some kind of lifestyle where you're like just recurringly
Speaker 1: naturally seeing these people. Is that true?
Speaker 9: I guess I don't know. I mean, like, I don't know,
Speaker 9: because it's hard.
Speaker 1: At twenty four, I asked how old you are because
Speaker 1: I thought maybe you were like in high school or something,
Speaker 1: because it's, oh my.
Speaker 9: God, do I give off that vibe? I'm sorry, I.
Speaker 1: Mean a little bit, but also just because of again,
Speaker 1: like the way that you're describing the friendships, it seems like,
Speaker 1: are you where do you Where do you hang out
Speaker 1: with these people? What's the situation?
Speaker 9: Well, I've been from something for a while. I mean,
Speaker 9: like when we go to the bars and stuff, but
Speaker 9: like we also like like all work out together. We're
Speaker 9: just like I don't know, like we're besties.
Speaker 5: I don't know, okay, Like like.
Speaker 9: We go on like double days and stuff because my
Speaker 9: boyfriends friends with like the guy, but like we're all friends.
Speaker 1: I don't know, all right, So your central conundrum is
Speaker 1: that you're friends with both of these people, but you
Speaker 1: think that the girl is controlling the guy.
Speaker 9: Yes, and like I don't like and I get in
Speaker 9: the middle of everything. They pull me into everything, like
Speaker 9: no matter what I say, it's like, no, you're wrong,
Speaker 9: And I'm like, okay, then why did you like have
Speaker 9: some my chinions?
Speaker 1: Well? Have you talked to them about hey, part of
Speaker 1: any of your bullshit? What do they tell you?
Speaker 9: Yeah? They're always like okay, And then like two minutes later,
Speaker 9: my girlfriend she's like, anyway, I don't like girl, like
Speaker 9: you literally told me, Like I I literally told you,
Speaker 9: like I don't want to be a part of it.
Speaker 9: But like I think it's because like they look at
Speaker 9: me as like the therapy gecko I feel and I'm like,
Speaker 9: I don't get paid for this, you know what I mean?
Speaker 9: I feel like day should come on this.
Speaker 1: I don't know, well it is, I'm I'm happy to
Speaker 1: talk to you. I don't typically I don't enjoy I
Speaker 1: don't like talking to people about other people's problems. Although
Speaker 1: these people are they seem to they yes, it seems
Speaker 1: to these other people's problem. These other people have made
Speaker 1: their problems your problems. But I don't know. I mean,
Speaker 1: I'm thinking about this right now. Let me ask you
Speaker 1: this first, does hanging out with these people. You seemed
Speaker 1: like you hang out with them a lot. Does hang
Speaker 1: out with these people make your life better?
Speaker 9: I mean yes and no. But like they literally broke
Speaker 9: up on the day we were supposed to go to
Speaker 9: like this concert, and I was like, what the hell,
Speaker 9: Like that's not cool, and then like they were like, no,
Speaker 9: we're still gonna go, like we're gonna pretend we're dating.
Speaker 9: And I'm like, that's weird. And then I was the
Speaker 9: only person who knew that. And then we went with
Speaker 9: like like four other people and they were like, yeah,
Speaker 9: I don't say anything, And I felt so weird, like
Speaker 9: like I was the only person who needs information.
Speaker 4: What you know?
Speaker 1: You know what, let's put a pin in this. What
Speaker 1: what's what's your name again?
Speaker 9: Bianca?
Speaker 1: What's your life?
Speaker 3: Like?
Speaker 1: Bianca? What do you do you work? Do you?
Speaker 9: Yeah, I'm a I'm a medical system other dermortality office.
Speaker 1: Oh cool? Cool? Yeah? Okay? Are you like, are you
Speaker 1: happy in outside of this situation? Are you happy in
Speaker 1: other aspects of your life?
Speaker 3: Like?
Speaker 1: What do you mean outside of the situation where you
Speaker 1: are fighting with your friends? Are you happy in the
Speaker 1: other aspects of your life?
Speaker 4: Well?
Speaker 9: I guess so, but like it's like a bummer because
Speaker 9: like when all my friends like want to hang out
Speaker 9: and stuff, it's always like they're like it's always like
Speaker 9: they're like kind of the root of like the issues.
Speaker 9: And like I tried it because I'm a very positive person,
Speaker 9: like I want everyone to have a good time. I
Speaker 9: like don't disinclude anybody. But like when that stuff goes on,
Speaker 9: like it's just like so annoying, and it's like I
Speaker 9: feel like I'm almost like like a therapist, Like I
Speaker 9: literally have to talk to them all the time. It's
Speaker 9: just kind of like I'm like, gods, like what the hell,
Speaker 9: Like why they only talk to me about it?
Speaker 3: Only me?
Speaker 9: It's like I don't know what to do. Like I
Speaker 9: feel like if I say something wrong and they break up,
Speaker 9: and it's like but they get back together, you know,
Speaker 9: Like I don't know what to do anymore.
Speaker 1: You know what I've actually I've been uh lately, I've
Speaker 1: been anti advice, but I have I have thoughts cooking
Speaker 1: in my brain that I'm I'm I'm kind of I
Speaker 1: kind of want to fire off a few of them
Speaker 1: at you. If you're open to that, if you're open
Speaker 1: to this experimental thing, I'm gonna do right now. Uh
Speaker 1: okay here. I think if I were you, I would
Speaker 1: be like, hey, guys, I don't want to be in
Speaker 1: the middle of your bullshit anymore. And if you continue
Speaker 1: to put me in the middle of your bullshit, I'm
Speaker 1: just not going to hang out with you guys anymore.
Speaker 1: But then give me, give give me what's But.
Speaker 9: Then what I don't know because like if I say,
Speaker 9: like I'm not gonna hang out with you guys, Everyone's
Speaker 9: gonna be like what the hell, Like why aren't you
Speaker 9: hanging out with them? And then I would say, like
Speaker 9: my reasoning, and they're like like I like, don't worry,
Speaker 9: Like I don't know, Like I feel like just like
Speaker 9: walking on eggshells with them, like especially with like everybody else.
Speaker 5: You know for so long.
Speaker 1: Yeah, do you say you say you're a very happy,
Speaker 1: positive person.
Speaker 9: Right, I would say so yeah?
Speaker 1: Do you would you consider your friends to be happy
Speaker 1: positive people?
Speaker 9: I hope so?
Speaker 2: Yeah?
Speaker 9: I want them today.
Speaker 1: But do you think they are.
Speaker 9: Like in their own lives? Yes, but I personally I
Speaker 9: don't think they should be together. But like that's one
Speaker 9: of my business, but like when they're making it my business,
Speaker 9: I don't know, here's you know, I.
Speaker 1: Guess why I always struggle navigating these these relationship things.
Speaker 1: And I'm not talking about this romantic ones, but friendships
Speaker 1: is like, this is so much is out of your
Speaker 1: control because you can't control these two people. You can
Speaker 1: sit here and be like they shouldn't be together, But
Speaker 1: what the fuck does that thought matter? You know? And
Speaker 1: what I what I I'm The reason I'm saying to
Speaker 1: you I would tell them I'm not going to hang
Speaker 1: out with them anymore is because you're a happy, positive
Speaker 1: person and you're you know, you're twenty four, You're you know,
Speaker 1: you're you have the ability as an adult to venture
Speaker 1: out into the universe and try your back. And it's hard,
Speaker 1: and it's hard. It's hard. I'm trying to do I'm
Speaker 1: trying to make friends. If any want to be my
Speaker 1: fucking friend, it's it's hard to make new friends who
Speaker 1: you feel like align with your values with the people
Speaker 1: you've been hanging out with forever. I understand why it's
Speaker 1: not the thing you want to do, but I think
Speaker 1: you should give it a try, because if you're hanging
Speaker 1: out with these people and they're just constantly draining your
Speaker 1: energy and you've tried to talk to them about it,
Speaker 1: and you've exhausted every resource within your control. The only
Speaker 1: leverage you really have in these relationships is to limit
Speaker 1: your time and you know, expose yourself to two more
Speaker 1: people out there who you know you might find happier
Speaker 1: relationships and and uh memories.
Speaker 9: And shit with right, Yeah, I like I understand where
Speaker 9: you're coming from. And the thing is like me and
Speaker 9: my boyfriend, like we like we're very happy, Like I
Speaker 9: feel like nothing is really like happens to us like that.
Speaker 9: We're like she's very controlling, like dresses him like it's
Speaker 9: like bad, like and she's a couple of years older
Speaker 9: than us. So it's like, see, even the fact.
Speaker 1: Even the fact that like this girls, even the fact
Speaker 1: that this, this these two people's relationship is occupying so
Speaker 1: much space in your brain is like bothersomething I understand.
Speaker 9: It's not like it's not like that deep when I
Speaker 9: think about it, like from an outside point of view,
Speaker 9: like I live my life day to day and I'm fine.
Speaker 9: It's just like there's times where like ill invenience like
Speaker 9: my social life when we go out and stuff. That's
Speaker 9: why like I want to talk about it, Like I
Speaker 9: know these comments are crazy though, they're like you're controlling them,
Speaker 9: like like, don't get worried about are you reading.
Speaker 1: Are you reading the chat? Don't don't read the chat.
Speaker 1: Don't read the chat.
Speaker 6: I'm sorry.
Speaker 9: Some of them are so funny, like I'm giggling, but
Speaker 9: I don't know. I like there, I don't think what
Speaker 9: people are staying, like these are my two like best friends,
Speaker 9: like me and my boyfriend, Like these are our friends,
Speaker 9: and my boyfriend was friends is like the guy in
Speaker 9: the relationship, like like way longer than like both of us.
Speaker 9: So I'm just trying to, like people please, I guess,
Speaker 9: and like I understand, like you can't please everybody, but
Speaker 9: I'm just trying. I'm just trying to like make everything work.
Speaker 1: I get it. I get it. I get it. I
Speaker 1: get why. I get why you want to because the
Speaker 1: dream for you is that you get to just have
Speaker 1: fucking hang out with your friends and it's a good
Speaker 1: time all the time. Yeah, concerts and eat food, and
Speaker 1: that's a beautiful it's a worthwhile goal. It's a beautiful
Speaker 1: human experience. And the tragedy of life is that a
Speaker 1: lot of the times, whether or not that works out,
Speaker 1: is just not in your control, and you can try
Speaker 1: to make it in your control or you can just
Speaker 1: accept that it's not. And and you know, look at
Speaker 1: what is in your control. And I don't know. I
Speaker 1: don't know your whole life, so I don't know what
Speaker 1: options you have or what your tolerance is for drama
Speaker 1: and things. But I'm just looking at I'm just I'm
Speaker 1: just looking at this, like how do you move forward
Speaker 1: to maximize your happiness? And I don't know. I don't
Speaker 1: know ship on a gecko.
Speaker 9: I know, I mean, I was bored. I can't believe
Speaker 9: you answer, but it's be honest.
Speaker 1: Anything else you want to say to the people of
Speaker 1: the computer before we go?
Speaker 9: Okay, A lot of them are saying I sound like.
Speaker 1: If you're you're not allowed to read the chat at all?
Speaker 1: Nobody who only I am allowed to read. Sorry, I
Speaker 1: don't know why.
Speaker 9: I am well up in front of me and that's
Speaker 9: how I I'm sorry to yell. You know, but I
Speaker 9: don't know. I don't know. I love your stream. It's
Speaker 9: so fun. TikTok make me giggle. And thank you you're the.
Speaker 1: Bad thank you. I really appreciate that. I hope you
Speaker 1: I hope you live in the in the friendship utopia
Speaker 1: that you desire, and I believe one day you go.
Speaker 9: Thank God. One can only hope.
Speaker 1: Have a good night, Bianca, you too, Bob.
Speaker 6: Never beg goes.
Speaker 3: On the line, taking your phone calls every night.
Speaker 6: Never goes too on his side, he's teaching you
Speaker 5: Loud in the middle of your life, but he's not
Speaker 5: really an expert.