WEBVTT - Good Moms Grow Up 0:00:00.200 --> 0:00:03.520 Once upon a time there was a good old traditional housewife. 0:00:03.680 --> 0:00:04.280 She couldn't. 0:00:04.440 --> 0:00:06.840 She cleaned and cared for her children and the man 0:00:06.880 --> 0:00:09.680 of the house, and of course she didn't talk back. 0:00:09.800 --> 0:00:12.440 She was both obeed, hint and soft by nature. She 0:00:12.560 --> 0:00:15.600 was a good woman who always made good choices. 0:00:16.640 --> 0:00:19.800 That we're good mom's bad choices. Who single mom who 0:00:19.800 --> 0:00:22.400 said fuck the patriarchy, shared all their bad choices and 0:00:22.440 --> 0:00:24.639 sound out they were so bad. After all, we're experts, 0:00:24.680 --> 0:00:28.040 overshares and your new besties. Sit back and enjoy the ride. 0:00:28.800 --> 0:00:34.000 I can do it. Welcome back to good Mom's bad Choices. 0:00:34.040 --> 0:00:39.160 I'm Erica and I'm Mela. Happy humpty bitches, Happy motherfucking 0:00:39.240 --> 0:00:39.720 hump day? 0:00:40.600 --> 0:00:43.280 What did it do? How are you feeling. I'm good. 0:00:43.400 --> 0:00:45.680 It's the second week of July. I can't believe how 0:00:45.760 --> 0:00:50.559 quick the summer is going. It's getting very hot as 0:00:50.640 --> 0:00:54.640 fuck in the valley, going to the beach a lot, 0:00:55.240 --> 0:01:00.240 not getting in the water because I'm still scared. But yeah, 0:01:00.520 --> 0:01:01.000 I've been good. 0:01:01.040 --> 0:01:02.520 How are you? I'm good? 0:01:02.720 --> 0:01:05.800 I know the summer is going by so fast. I 0:01:05.880 --> 0:01:11.039 feel like, you know, like the summers get shorter as 0:01:11.040 --> 0:01:13.240 you get older, like you start to notice time I 0:01:13.280 --> 0:01:16.399 feel like that a lot like that summer is getting shorter, 0:01:16.600 --> 0:01:19.160 time is going faster. I feel like we're going back 0:01:19.160 --> 0:01:22.240 to Costa Rica. We just got back. And I also 0:01:22.280 --> 0:01:27.000 feel like traveling and doing stuff is just like way 0:01:27.000 --> 0:01:29.920 more tolling on my body. Like it's not even that 0:01:29.959 --> 0:01:32.200 we're doing a lot of things. It's just like packing, 0:01:32.440 --> 0:01:35.160 putting in the suitcase, washing, bringing it home, unpacking it, 0:01:35.240 --> 0:01:37.120 putting it back, getting on the airplane, sitting in the 0:01:37.160 --> 0:01:40.400 stupid ass, stupid chair. It's just like, I don't know, 0:01:40.440 --> 0:01:43.480 it's just taxing. And I'm like I need when we 0:01:43.560 --> 0:01:45.640 come back for like two or three weeks. I feel 0:01:45.680 --> 0:01:50.120 like I need eight weeks to recover. Leave for three weeks, 0:01:50.280 --> 0:01:55.600 recover for six to eight She Kim told me that. 0:01:57.480 --> 0:02:00.440 This summer specifically, actually the world the world is turning 0:02:00.440 --> 0:02:02.280 on its access faster, So this is actually going to 0:02:02.360 --> 0:02:05.600 be the like one of the like fastest summers in 0:02:05.640 --> 0:02:09.359 like recorded history or something like like like specifically this 0:02:09.440 --> 0:02:12.240 summer by like two hours or by like how like 0:02:12.320 --> 0:02:15.680 how much minutes, Because if every day is twenty four 0:02:15.680 --> 0:02:18.080 hours and every month it's the same amount of days, 0:02:18.120 --> 0:02:20.040 like how many minutes are we shaving off? I don't 0:02:20.040 --> 0:02:21.280 know because I told him, I was like, I feel 0:02:21.280 --> 0:02:23.760 like the time is being fucked with, And then like 0:02:23.800 --> 0:02:25.320 a few days ago, he was like, I think you're 0:02:25.360 --> 0:02:26.519 I think actually you're right. 0:02:28.120 --> 0:02:30.640 Orlando told me that, did you say that the earth 0:02:30.680 --> 0:02:33.160 is spending four hundred miles per hour or eight hundred 0:02:33.520 --> 0:02:34.760 eight hundred miles per hour? 0:02:35.280 --> 0:02:37.320 But obviously we can't feel it like that. But like. 0:02:38.800 --> 0:02:43.240 I, I, you know, I don't believe anything that the 0:02:43.280 --> 0:02:44.359 government tells us. 0:02:44.720 --> 0:02:47.600 So I just who says they're not fucking with the time. 0:02:47.680 --> 0:02:51.120 Who actually sat there today, yesterday, or last week and 0:02:51.160 --> 0:02:55.280 counted every sixty seconds to every hour and said, yep, 0:02:55.520 --> 0:02:56.400 they did it right. 0:02:57.840 --> 0:03:00.280 We're just trusting the clocks and the cell phones. 0:03:00.280 --> 0:03:03.240 We don't have watches anymore really unless you have a roleax, 0:03:03.280 --> 0:03:04.560 and I doubt you even look at it. You just 0:03:04.600 --> 0:03:07.480 look at the fucking phone. So if they were lying 0:03:07.520 --> 0:03:10.880 and shaving off thirty minutes a year, we fucking wouldn't know. 0:03:11.080 --> 0:03:12.960 Well, if you had a watch, you probably would know. 0:03:13.160 --> 0:03:15.160 But that's why I don't think they're actually maybe doing that. 0:03:15.200 --> 0:03:18.480 I think it's just like time is just adjusting, like 0:03:18.520 --> 0:03:21.639 it's just moving faster. Like I think maybe the watches 0:03:21.680 --> 0:03:24.320 actually start moving faster because everything else is moving faster, 0:03:24.639 --> 0:03:26.320 like literally, like gravity. 0:03:25.919 --> 0:03:29.200 Starts to pull the little thing face faster. I don't know. 0:03:29.720 --> 0:03:32.680 I mean I always think about a time before there 0:03:32.680 --> 0:03:36.400 are watches and cell phones, and we were just measuring 0:03:36.720 --> 0:03:39.560 by season and by daylight and noon is here, and 0:03:39.720 --> 0:03:44.400 nighttime and even birthdays, like you think thousands of years ago. 0:03:44.440 --> 0:03:48.640 They're like, I'm thirty five, No, you were just an adult. 0:03:49.720 --> 0:03:53.120 Well, I said, I thought, well, if time is moving faster, 0:03:53.320 --> 0:03:55.640 but we're not aging faster, does that mean we're going 0:03:55.720 --> 0:04:00.120 to look younger longer. And he said, no, everything is 0:04:00.120 --> 0:04:02.160 going to keep moving, and so is your age. I'd 0:04:02.200 --> 0:04:04.240 so is your aging process? 0:04:04.360 --> 0:04:07.160 I'm like, okay, I think the aging process is because 0:04:07.160 --> 0:04:11.000 we're acknowledging time in this manner. Whoever, we have adopted 0:04:11.000 --> 0:04:15.240 this programming that you know, twelve months is one year. 0:04:15.320 --> 0:04:17.000 Blah blah blah blah blah blah blah. 0:04:17.000 --> 0:04:20.719 And so technically I'm thirty seven, but in my soul 0:04:21.000 --> 0:04:24.240 I'm twenty four, So why would my soul not be right? 0:04:26.400 --> 0:04:29.520 And as long as I, in my soul deeply believe 0:04:29.560 --> 0:04:31.640 that I'm twenty seven, I'm going to continue to look 0:04:31.680 --> 0:04:33.719 twenty seven. I thought you said your twenty four, I 0:04:33.720 --> 0:04:34.360 mean twenty. 0:04:34.120 --> 0:04:36.880 Four, okay, whatever. 0:04:38.040 --> 0:04:41.160 As I said the other day at the party, that 0:04:42.279 --> 0:04:46.279 i'm trans age, I identify as a twenty four year old, 0:04:46.839 --> 0:04:50.440 and if anyone disrespects me and calls me outside of 0:04:50.480 --> 0:04:53.520 my trans age, we're going to have a problem. I 0:04:53.520 --> 0:04:56.360 identify as a twenty four year old. I feel that way. 0:04:56.480 --> 0:04:59.640 I was born this way, and it's twenty four like 0:04:59.640 --> 0:05:01.960 a good for you? Like why twenty four? You know? 0:05:02.040 --> 0:05:04.159 It just seems like you're just old enough to not 0:05:04.240 --> 0:05:07.440 be so stupid. I don't know. Twenty four I was 0:05:07.480 --> 0:05:11.320 pretty fucking stupid. I'm twenty four with this, with this knowledge, 0:05:11.880 --> 0:05:15.000 I'm twenty four years old in my. 0:05:15.240 --> 0:05:17.719 So what is it that you're adopting from twenty four? 0:05:17.720 --> 0:05:19.400 If you have the knowledge, what is it then? Because 0:05:19.440 --> 0:05:22.040 you don't look thirty seven? So what about twenty four? 0:05:22.080 --> 0:05:24.040 Do you need to adopt that? You can't adopt the 0:05:24.080 --> 0:05:26.159 age that you are. It's I can't adopt the age 0:05:26.160 --> 0:05:28.159 I am. I just choose not to because I'm transa aged. 0:05:28.240 --> 0:05:30.560 But is it because you think thirty seven is old. 0:05:30.360 --> 0:05:32.320 Or because I just don't feel thirty seven? 0:05:32.400 --> 0:05:34.320 Like, what does it mean to feel thirty seven that 0:05:34.360 --> 0:05:36.839 I've lived thirty seven years of life? But that's not 0:05:36.880 --> 0:05:37.719 a long time though. 0:05:37.920 --> 0:05:40.000 I think about like the scheme of the scope of 0:05:40.080 --> 0:05:41.880 life and how long you're going to hopefully live it, 0:05:41.920 --> 0:05:43.960 thirty seven is like still baby. 0:05:43.640 --> 0:05:45.080 I mean not really if you think about it. 0:05:45.120 --> 0:05:47.560 Most people are living to what ninety nine, one hundred 0:05:47.880 --> 0:05:50.680 hopefully with technology and vitamins, I can at least make 0:05:50.720 --> 0:05:53.479 it to one twenty five. That's like another sixty years. 0:05:54.080 --> 0:05:57.600 But Matt, if we live that's a third of your 0:05:57.640 --> 0:06:00.279 life already. If we live one hundred years and tidal, 0:06:00.400 --> 0:06:05.280 let's say, and I'm thirty seven, that's about sixty four 0:06:05.360 --> 0:06:05.839 years ago. 0:06:05.920 --> 0:06:06.560 I don't like that. 0:06:07.880 --> 0:06:11.640 I mean, but technically you're still thirty seven. So your body, 0:06:12.360 --> 0:06:14.159 you're still you're still gonna die. 0:06:14.440 --> 0:06:15.000 Respect. 0:06:15.560 --> 0:06:17.240 If we're gonna be friends, you're gonna have to respect 0:06:17.240 --> 0:06:23.880 my HI identifying okay, which is trance age of twenty four. Okay, 0:06:23.960 --> 0:06:26.440 I'm gonnaed you to remember the age. If we go 0:06:26.560 --> 0:06:27.960 out and so it's like, oh my god, how old 0:06:27.960 --> 0:06:29.440 are you? Like, oh this is my friend. She had 0:06:30.000 --> 0:06:30.560 no because. 0:06:30.360 --> 0:06:31.880 Everyone's gonna like, bitch, why are you hang out with 0:06:31.880 --> 0:06:33.520 a twenty four year old, that the fuck is wrong 0:06:33.560 --> 0:06:33.760 with you? 0:06:33.839 --> 0:06:36.000 Where are you going? Especially they're gonna think you're twenty four? 0:06:36.000 --> 0:06:38.239 Do you want to be twenty four? No? 0:06:38.320 --> 0:06:39.919 What was twenty four a bad year for you? 0:06:40.920 --> 0:06:41.240 I was. 0:06:41.600 --> 0:06:43.440 I mean, it wasn't a bad year. I mean I 0:06:43.480 --> 0:06:45.720 was with my baby daddy, were traveling a lot. 0:06:46.320 --> 0:06:48.440 I mean, I don't ever remember, like, do you remember 0:06:48.560 --> 0:06:54.520 specifically twenty four, yes, because it was like two years 0:06:54.520 --> 0:06:56.040 before I got pregnant. Yeah, like a year and a 0:06:56.040 --> 0:06:57.159 half before I got pregnant. 0:06:57.440 --> 0:06:59.400 So actually twenty four was a shitty year. Actually, I 0:06:59.480 --> 0:07:01.640 moved to New York. I was like in the midst 0:07:01.640 --> 0:07:04.119 of a breakup. I was so confused. I was broke 0:07:04.160 --> 0:07:04.719 as fuck. 0:07:05.600 --> 0:07:07.440 Oh I don't want to be twenty four. No, I 0:07:07.520 --> 0:07:09.680 was sad. I was having a sex. 0:07:10.480 --> 0:07:11.960 I mean, I'm twenty four with this. 0:07:12.120 --> 0:07:15.119 I was security. I was like, broke as fuck. Fuck. 0:07:15.280 --> 0:07:17.120 I mean, everybody's broken their twenties. It doesn't like I 0:07:17.120 --> 0:07:18.640 don't even thinking. I don't know. I wasn't broken. I 0:07:18.640 --> 0:07:20.200 was twenty four, but I was stupid. 0:07:20.200 --> 0:07:23.480 I was making dumb choices like I don't know, I 0:07:23.520 --> 0:07:25.400 get it, but no, I don't think i'd want to 0:07:25.400 --> 0:07:27.480 be four. If I was gonna choose a younger age 0:07:27.520 --> 0:07:31.720 to be honestly, it would probably be like thirty one. 0:07:32.360 --> 0:07:34.840 Thirty one was a good year. There's like I had 0:07:34.960 --> 0:07:38.160 finally like twenty nine, I broke up with my baby daddy. 0:07:38.320 --> 0:07:39.680 Thirty I was like healing. 0:07:39.800 --> 0:07:44.960 Thirty one I was like prime outside like podcasts pop, 0:07:45.120 --> 0:07:48.800 like just starting the podcast, like just just like discovering 0:07:48.880 --> 0:07:51.560 all these new parts of myself, discovering all like building 0:07:51.600 --> 0:07:52.280 the tribe. 0:07:52.480 --> 0:07:54.680 Like that was a good That was a good time. 0:07:55.000 --> 0:07:57.440 I'm not saying so much based on like Mike my 0:07:58.480 --> 0:08:00.360 going back to that year because it was a mirror, 0:08:00.400 --> 0:08:02.320 but I would just like to be that age with 0:08:02.400 --> 0:08:05.800 this knowledge and this and this security and this like 0:08:06.480 --> 0:08:09.160 state of mind. I feel like in the twenty like 0:08:09.400 --> 0:08:13.040 I feel like I live my whole twenties without any 0:08:13.440 --> 0:08:17.520 like I mean, not experience, but just like there was 0:08:17.560 --> 0:08:19.000 just no care in the world, Like I didn't care 0:08:19.000 --> 0:08:21.280 about any of those things too. Yeah, So I was 0:08:21.320 --> 0:08:23.320 just like if I could go back to twenty four, 0:08:23.360 --> 0:08:25.120 but and I feel like I feel like twenty year 0:08:25.360 --> 0:08:28.800 twenty the twenties now are more mature, maybe because the 0:08:28.800 --> 0:08:32.840 Internet has more words. They have like more clarity. So 0:08:32.880 --> 0:08:35.720 they're I mean watching Love Island. They're not that smart, 0:08:35.760 --> 0:08:36.960 but they do know the words. 0:08:37.120 --> 0:08:39.840 I think, I think perhaps a little bit, but as 0:08:39.880 --> 0:08:43.720 i'm I'm like, actually, today one of my twenty four 0:08:43.760 --> 0:08:46.280 year old I would say, she's like my little homegirl. 0:08:46.320 --> 0:08:47.360 I was gonna say, but you don't want to be 0:08:47.360 --> 0:08:48.559 friends with me when I'm twenty four. 0:08:48.600 --> 0:08:49.480 I don't hang out with her. 0:08:49.640 --> 0:08:51.640 When I said I was transferring, I don't hang out 0:08:51.640 --> 0:08:51.920 with her. 0:08:52.040 --> 0:08:54.839 Like she calls me when she needs advice. Oh I'm 0:08:54.840 --> 0:08:56.560 not going to put her on that care right now, 0:08:56.600 --> 0:08:58.880 but yeah, Like she calls me when she needs advice 0:08:59.080 --> 0:09:03.920 and she's doing she's asking me some real twenty twenty 0:09:03.960 --> 0:09:07.240 two year old shit, and I'm like, girl. 0:09:07.040 --> 0:09:08.760 She send me pictures of shit, Like what what do 0:09:08.800 --> 0:09:09.600 you think this means? 0:09:10.520 --> 0:09:12.920 Do you think he's like a fluck boy and he's 0:09:12.960 --> 0:09:15.599 like on stories with his abs out with Grace webpants on. 0:09:15.679 --> 0:09:19.520 I'm like, yes, he is definitely getting pussy outside of you. 0:09:19.760 --> 0:09:21.280 And like, what do you think? 0:09:21.440 --> 0:09:22.640 Not the streenshot? 0:09:22.760 --> 0:09:26.760 So you know, like I don't know how much far along. 0:09:26.640 --> 0:09:29.000 The youth is just based off the Internet. I thought 0:09:29.000 --> 0:09:31.360 about I thought that that would be the case. But 0:09:31.920 --> 0:09:35.360 according to my calculation so far, based on the Yans 0:09:35.440 --> 0:09:39.680 that I know, not the Whyans that I know, I'm 0:09:39.760 --> 0:09:43.400 thinking the Internet actually isn't making them smarter, actually making 0:09:43.440 --> 0:09:46.360 them question themselves even more and making them even more 0:09:46.400 --> 0:09:49.720 confused and making them, specifically women, doubt their intuition even 0:09:49.760 --> 0:09:52.960 more because there's so much confusion and there's so many options, 0:09:53.040 --> 0:09:56.720 whereas before when we were Yans, we didn't have this 0:09:56.840 --> 0:10:01.120 many options. We just had like the at the party, 0:10:01.240 --> 0:10:03.719 or like our friend's friend who said we should hook 0:10:03.760 --> 0:10:06.360 up with this guy, or like a guy from high 0:10:06.360 --> 0:10:08.800 school that we're still fucking around with, or maybe like 0:10:08.880 --> 0:10:12.600 someone on my Space, or you know, like Instagram wasn't 0:10:12.800 --> 0:10:15.360 even popping when we were I don't think I joined Instagram. 0:10:15.440 --> 0:10:17.320 Maybe when I was like I think I joined Instagram 0:10:17.360 --> 0:10:19.679 maybe around twenty four twenty five. I was late to 0:10:19.679 --> 0:10:22.040 the Instagram think too. I was like Vine, and I 0:10:22.080 --> 0:10:25.240 wasn't finding niggas on Vine, so like it was like 0:10:25.360 --> 0:10:25.920 real life. 0:10:25.960 --> 0:10:27.719 I was at like the do over shout out to 0:10:27.760 --> 0:10:28.360 the oh Man. 0:10:28.440 --> 0:10:30.920 The doover was a time you always said you always 0:10:30.920 --> 0:10:31.280 take a. 0:10:31.200 --> 0:10:35.400 Moment for if anyone remembers the do Over. It was 0:10:35.440 --> 0:10:38.040 a hot party and on the YouTube channels right now. 0:10:38.080 --> 0:10:39.720 If you know the Duover, you're in Hollywood. 0:10:39.760 --> 0:10:41.560 In those times, it wasn't even in Hollywood. 0:10:41.600 --> 0:10:43.600 The duo Over expanded. It was in Brooklyn, it was 0:10:43.600 --> 0:10:45.560 in Seattle, but at first started here. 0:10:45.960 --> 0:10:48.680 I think it actually started in like Seattle. It was 0:10:48.679 --> 0:10:50.640 a day of part Portland or something was wherever a 0:10:50.679 --> 0:10:51.320 didas is at. 0:10:51.400 --> 0:10:54.679 That's where it started. Organ organ Yeah, it was a dud. 0:10:54.920 --> 0:10:56.880 It was ad just wants to party, but whatever. Anyway, 0:10:57.080 --> 0:10:59.680 that's where I would find people outside. I was outside. 0:10:59.880 --> 0:11:03.080 I wasn't like on the internet, like scrolling through TikTok 0:11:03.120 --> 0:11:05.840 and finding hot boys on TikTok and hoping that, like 0:11:05.880 --> 0:11:08.920 they I'd catch their attention. I don't feel like I 0:11:09.000 --> 0:11:13.959 ever was like so desperate like for love. I wasn't like, 0:11:14.120 --> 0:11:16.480 oh I want a boyfriend so bad. I was just 0:11:16.960 --> 0:11:19.640 a real yan out in the streets hoeing. But I 0:11:19.679 --> 0:11:21.520 but I see, you know what it is. One thing 0:11:21.559 --> 0:11:24.199 I'll say about like watching reality TV, especially from this 0:11:25.679 --> 0:11:27.880 like scope of like looking at people younger than me, 0:11:28.720 --> 0:11:29.520 it's women. 0:11:30.640 --> 0:11:32.800 Women are so deeply. 0:11:33.080 --> 0:11:38.480 Entangled with the need for like stability, romantically in relationship wise, 0:11:38.840 --> 0:11:40.040 like even on dating shows. 0:11:40.080 --> 0:11:41.720 I'm like, bitch, you're on a dating show. 0:11:41.880 --> 0:11:44.760 It's because of program I mean it's we're programmed from 0:11:44.760 --> 0:11:47.400 a very young age that we're supposed to find love 0:11:47.440 --> 0:11:51.120 and be married. I mean the marriage age just recently 0:11:51.160 --> 0:11:53.800 went up, Like we'rees. 0:11:52.800 --> 0:11:54.800 We're getting married at nineteen, and that was normal. 0:11:55.000 --> 0:11:57.560 Like that was like you graduate high school and you 0:11:57.600 --> 0:11:59.720 marry your call it your high school sweetheart. That was 0:11:59.760 --> 0:12:02.760 like a normal thing. Like parents weren't looking down on that. 0:12:02.760 --> 0:12:04.720 They were actually like happy that their kid was going 0:12:04.760 --> 0:12:06.839 to go get taken care of, like their daughter because 0:12:07.080 --> 0:12:08.960 she wasn't going to go to college because why would 0:12:09.000 --> 0:12:09.480 she do that? 0:12:09.640 --> 0:12:12.000 You know, Like no, our era was like go to college. 0:12:12.040 --> 0:12:12.120 No. 0:12:12.200 --> 0:12:15.040 But I'm just saying like from the beginning like of time, 0:12:15.240 --> 0:12:17.200 maybe at the beginning of time, but like as this 0:12:17.360 --> 0:12:21.240 like American as the scope of marriage was formed, which 0:12:21.360 --> 0:12:23.560 it was in different cultures, but I would say America, 0:12:24.000 --> 0:12:27.280 like there's this like there's this trajectory of like what 0:12:27.480 --> 0:12:29.920 happens to a woman. It's like the homemaker, and the 0:12:29.960 --> 0:12:31.240 homemaker is very young. 0:12:32.040 --> 0:12:33.640 It's our biological clock too. 0:12:34.000 --> 0:12:37.360 It's all it's like biologically, we're supposed to make babies 0:12:37.400 --> 0:12:39.720 and we're at our prime. It's just because we get horny, 0:12:39.720 --> 0:12:42.000 and then horny means it's time for babies. It's not 0:12:42.040 --> 0:12:46.120 like horny doesn't mean like, let's explore what pleasure is 0:12:46.120 --> 0:12:47.679 for us, what our bodies can do. 0:12:48.600 --> 0:12:49.040 You're getting a. 0:12:49.000 --> 0:12:51.360 Horny because we're trying to our bodies are ready to 0:12:51.400 --> 0:12:52.360 reproduce exactly. 0:12:52.400 --> 0:12:55.080 But I'm just saying like because of that, that was 0:12:55.120 --> 0:12:58.720 also I feel like you used as a way to like, Okay, 0:12:58.800 --> 0:13:00.839 so now that these women our horny and want to 0:13:00.840 --> 0:13:04.040 have sex, they shouldn't be going exploring that. They should 0:13:04.080 --> 0:13:06.160 go be making babies, but their hob they won't. 0:13:06.559 --> 0:13:09.160 Yeah, yeah, we see what happens when you don't put 0:13:09.160 --> 0:13:09.520 them away. 0:13:09.559 --> 0:13:12.319 They at crazy. They turned to good moms about choices. 0:13:12.080 --> 0:13:14.480 And I, you know, I finally did catch up. Will 0:13:14.480 --> 0:13:15.320 not really catch up. 0:13:15.360 --> 0:13:18.200 I watched two episodes of Love Island, and I don't 0:13:18.200 --> 0:13:19.640 know if you guys saw my if you go on 0:13:19.640 --> 0:13:23.200 my Instagram, I posted a story today which she Kim 0:13:23.240 --> 0:13:27.040 talking about the bombshells and. 0:13:28.360 --> 0:13:32.000 Pulling him aside for a chat. Because I watched that 0:13:32.080 --> 0:13:32.440 was quick. 0:13:32.440 --> 0:13:34.719 You watched two episodes and now you're making. 0:13:34.640 --> 0:13:38.400 I got enough information because because I went on. I went, 0:13:38.480 --> 0:13:40.880 I talked about my like I was, had a watch 0:13:40.880 --> 0:13:43.440 party basically on my stories, And ever since then, I've 0:13:43.440 --> 0:13:44.040 been getting fed. 0:13:44.120 --> 0:13:45.679 You had a watch party of your stories. 0:13:45.920 --> 0:13:48.840 I've been getting fed so much Love Island content that 0:13:48.880 --> 0:13:50.640 I don't really think I even need to watch anymore. 0:13:50.640 --> 0:13:50.920 People. 0:13:50.960 --> 0:13:53.199 Everyone's updated me on everything that's going to happen. Well, 0:13:53.200 --> 0:13:55.600 the internet will tell you. Before I saw that Sierra 0:13:55.679 --> 0:13:57.760 got kicked off, but I'm not there yet. She got 0:13:57.840 --> 0:14:00.959 kicked off because she said something a racial slur. 0:14:01.400 --> 0:14:02.719 I didn't really know that was a I mean, I 0:14:02.720 --> 0:14:03.720 didn't really know that was racial. 0:14:03.960 --> 0:14:06.360 People are so fucking scisage. Yeah, Like, I don't think 0:14:06.360 --> 0:14:11.120 that was just and in my opinion, but Blue Centric 0:14:11.280 --> 0:14:13.160 went on a deep dive literally I didn't even know 0:14:13.200 --> 0:14:14.840 you can make reals this long, a five minute deep 0:14:14.880 --> 0:14:18.040 dive that I watched last night that said that Sierra. 0:14:18.000 --> 0:14:19.040 Plotted on the show. 0:14:19.320 --> 0:14:22.080 Her friend, her best friend before she got on the show, 0:14:22.400 --> 0:14:25.160 planned her a Love Island birthday party, and then she 0:14:25.160 --> 0:14:28.080 started becoming friends with other Love Islanders, one of which 0:14:28.120 --> 0:14:30.880 she was like a known racist who basically said Trayvon 0:14:31.040 --> 0:14:34.880 Martin if this all of this wouldn't happen if he 0:14:34.920 --> 0:14:36.600 was white, and she became friends with her and then 0:14:36.640 --> 0:14:38.960 she got on Love Island. So basically they're saying she's 0:14:39.080 --> 0:14:42.760 very calculated. She's friends with a previous Islander who was 0:14:42.800 --> 0:14:47.200 a known racist, and so obviously she's That's what Blue 0:14:47.240 --> 0:14:52.400 Centric said and that she obviously did all of these 0:14:52.440 --> 0:14:54.680 things to be like calculated and come on, Love Island, 0:14:55.720 --> 0:14:58.640 I want to know where Okay, I'm gonna I'm not 0:14:58.680 --> 0:15:01.480 gonna be transaged for one second are the Where are 0:15:01.520 --> 0:15:04.080 the shows for the older bitches? Like what's the reality 0:15:04.120 --> 0:15:06.640 show for the thirty plus? I don't know. 0:15:06.880 --> 0:15:09.800 All I know is that when I watched the two 0:15:09.840 --> 0:15:12.840 episodes of Love Island, that confirmed to me that the 0:15:12.920 --> 0:15:17.920 younger generation is not actually getting smarter. Maybe they're smarter 0:15:18.000 --> 0:15:20.280 and like just knowledge of what's happening in the world, 0:15:20.960 --> 0:15:23.920 we're still very immature when it comes to love, when 0:15:23.960 --> 0:15:27.840 it comes to their own personal value and why it 0:15:27.960 --> 0:15:28.960 is they want any of it. 0:15:29.080 --> 0:15:33.200 Emotional immaturity does not change because you know big words 0:15:33.200 --> 0:15:33.800 from the Internet. 0:15:34.040 --> 0:15:38.440 And also, like I'm positive that there was an. 0:15:38.440 --> 0:15:42.200 Sti STD outbreak on the show no, they're. 0:15:42.040 --> 0:15:45.640 Only making out not I'm positive. I'm like, you have proof, 0:15:45.760 --> 0:15:46.520 Yeah you can. 0:15:46.600 --> 0:15:48.680 You can get an STI from making out if you 0:15:48.680 --> 0:15:49.440 have an outbreak. 0:15:49.880 --> 0:15:52.880 Oh, I mean like like herpies won. Yeah yeah, I 0:15:52.880 --> 0:15:55.440 mean but no, I mean I'm assuming that they're probably 0:15:55.440 --> 0:15:56.240 not going to be making out. 0:15:56.320 --> 0:15:57.800 They have cold soares. 0:15:59.040 --> 0:16:00.600 They are also with the culture. 0:16:00.800 --> 0:16:02.760 There's like a lot you did in Orlando. 0:16:03.440 --> 0:16:05.800 It's just gross. Honestly, it's really gross. 0:16:05.960 --> 0:16:08.120 And I was like, I want to watch Love Island. 0:16:08.160 --> 0:16:10.600 I was like, hell no, Like I left her watch 0:16:10.680 --> 0:16:12.360 Love is Blind, and that was already pushing it because 0:16:12.360 --> 0:16:14.280 then I had to fucking tell her like about sex 0:16:14.360 --> 0:16:17.240 because Love is Blind, and I had to like have 0:16:17.280 --> 0:16:19.480 the Birds in the Beast conversation because of the fucking 0:16:19.560 --> 0:16:21.960 surrogate and all this other shit. So I was like, I'm, 0:16:22.120 --> 0:16:24.600 first of all, this is crazy. This is definitely not 0:16:24.760 --> 0:16:26.280 You're not going to think that you can just go 0:16:26.320 --> 0:16:29.560 around making out with your friends, friends and boyfriends and. 0:16:29.560 --> 0:16:31.640 Get blindfolded and duck dug goose bitch. 0:16:31.760 --> 0:16:34.760 I mean, they're do it. The twenty year old you're 0:16:34.760 --> 0:16:35.920 gonna do shit like that anyway. 0:16:36.040 --> 0:16:38.040 I mean, I thought to myself, like when I was 0:16:38.040 --> 0:16:40.360 in my early twenties. I probably would have like not 0:16:40.560 --> 0:16:42.880 done Love Island. I would never have been videoed doing 0:16:42.920 --> 0:16:46.080 this shit for my parents to see. But I probably 0:16:46.120 --> 0:16:47.680 would have done some. I probably did do sometime shit 0:16:47.720 --> 0:16:48.840 like this. I mean, we were all having sex and 0:16:48.880 --> 0:16:50.200 closets together, you know what I mean. 0:16:50.240 --> 0:16:52.760 Yeah, so it's back in the movie theaters cars, But 0:16:53.120 --> 0:16:55.640 but the thing was it was in private, like we 0:16:55.640 --> 0:16:58.760 weren't putting this on fucking national TV never to be 0:16:58.800 --> 0:17:01.080 able to be unseen again. Soone can just go back 0:17:01.120 --> 0:17:04.360 and just find all the negative things I've said, pulled 0:17:04.400 --> 0:17:06.639 me off the show, make it on the internet. I 0:17:06.680 --> 0:17:10.160 also read or saw something that was interesting. I guess 0:17:10.160 --> 0:17:13.120 because we're in production, I can all all I can 0:17:13.119 --> 0:17:17.159 think about with reality shows is production, Like, so the product. 0:17:17.240 --> 0:17:19.800 You can't just see the producers on set, like, let's 0:17:19.800 --> 0:17:22.880 just do something crazy, let's just throw on ten new people. Yeah, 0:17:22.960 --> 0:17:24.520 let's make a make out I know a great idea, 0:17:24.600 --> 0:17:25.240 send them a text. 0:17:25.359 --> 0:17:25.919 Yeah. 0:17:26.119 --> 0:17:27.840 Then I was like, they're got cheap because they didn't 0:17:27.840 --> 0:17:29.600 even bring the host. And they stopped bringing the host 0:17:29.640 --> 0:17:31.360 in because she probably her hair and makeup was too much, 0:17:31.560 --> 0:17:33.280 she was too old, she was too old to be 0:17:33.400 --> 0:17:36.680 around them. I don't like I I I. 0:17:36.840 --> 0:17:40.040 First of all, this show's making so much money, I know, 0:17:40.280 --> 0:17:42.520 for such little reproduction. 0:17:42.600 --> 0:17:44.400 I mean they're in Fiji though that's a huge house 0:17:44.480 --> 0:17:46.920 or in Fiji. I also realized they're never eating They 0:17:46.920 --> 0:17:49.320 only eat breakfast. Did you notice that they never eat lunch, 0:17:49.359 --> 0:17:51.480 they never eat dinner. I'm like, are they getting fed? No, 0:17:51.600 --> 0:17:54.159 because they're drunk. No, actually I also heard it. But 0:17:54.200 --> 0:17:56.399 I also noticed too because I peeped. They're not as 0:17:56.520 --> 0:17:58.159 drunk as you if you've seen on other shows. I 0:17:58.160 --> 0:18:02.560 think they're being like they're kind of being somewhat monitoring there. No, 0:18:03.240 --> 0:18:05.520 I can only have two drinks a day, wine or beer, 0:18:05.640 --> 0:18:07.960 not hard liquor. Oh that's I always thought of Maya 0:18:07.960 --> 0:18:09.920 I was drunk, But apparently she's not drunk it she's 0:18:09.960 --> 0:18:11.200 just her. I don't even know who that is. 0:18:11.240 --> 0:18:14.359 I haven't even gotten there, but I'm and I'm also 0:18:14.440 --> 0:18:16.520 not going to get there because after I watched the 0:18:16.560 --> 0:18:18.520 second episode, I told myself there's no way that I 0:18:18.560 --> 0:18:19.760 can continue watching this. 0:18:20.200 --> 0:18:22.440 I will just do recap videos because. 0:18:23.080 --> 0:18:28.000 I realized, like, my brain can't take this type of 0:18:28.880 --> 0:18:32.680 like stimulation. It literally feels like my brain is melting. 0:18:33.240 --> 0:18:35.480 It wasn't even enjoyable for me, Like I was just. 0:18:35.400 --> 0:18:37.040 A sure a while we're like, what the fuck are 0:18:37.040 --> 0:18:37.640 they talking about? 0:18:37.640 --> 0:18:39.720 What they want? It's like the same, like they're crying 0:18:39.760 --> 0:18:42.520 when people go home. They're making it like I didn't 0:18:42.520 --> 0:18:44.240 get that I'm a mommy thing. I had no idea 0:18:44.280 --> 0:18:46.720 that was from Love Island. Like you see this like 0:18:47.040 --> 0:18:49.840 I'm I'm a mommy, You're a mommy, A mamasita, no, 0:18:50.000 --> 0:18:52.479 a mommy of a I had no idea that this 0:18:52.680 --> 0:18:55.320 was from Love Island. I told you by last week, 0:18:55.760 --> 0:18:59.159 I'm a mommy like the whole No, I had no idea. 0:19:00.320 --> 0:19:01.400 I had no idea where they came from. 0:19:01.560 --> 0:19:04.439 But more so what I realized when I'm watching this 0:19:04.560 --> 0:19:06.960 and just reality TV in general, And this is probably 0:19:06.960 --> 0:19:08.679 why I don't really watch a lot of TV. I 0:19:08.760 --> 0:19:12.879 like scripted shows and like TV and film, but I 0:19:12.920 --> 0:19:16.960 feel like these things are literally designed to desensitize us 0:19:17.000 --> 0:19:19.200 because there's so much chaos going on in the world, 0:19:19.280 --> 0:19:21.840 so it's like we want something to like take the 0:19:22.000 --> 0:19:26.200 edge off or like distract us, and so this shit 0:19:26.320 --> 0:19:30.000 is working. This is literally numbing people, desensitizing people, and 0:19:30.040 --> 0:19:36.800 I'm concerned about reality TV and their connection to all 0:19:36.840 --> 0:19:40.440 the propaganda of the world and how it is melting 0:19:40.440 --> 0:19:43.200 our brains and making us numb to everything. 0:19:43.960 --> 0:19:46.919 It's actually like I agree, it's it's gonna make you 0:19:46.960 --> 0:19:48.240 stupid if you watch it too much. 0:19:48.400 --> 0:19:50.119 It's like someone was like, I was like, give me 0:19:50.160 --> 0:19:51.960 three to five hours to catch up. They're like, no, 0:19:52.000 --> 0:19:53.879 you need three to five days. 0:19:54.560 --> 0:19:55.200 Are lost. 0:19:55.520 --> 0:19:57.919 I watched one episode and I kept like, you know, 0:19:58.119 --> 0:20:00.720 talking on stories, and I realized it's been two hours 0:20:00.760 --> 0:20:01.760 because I can pausing it. 0:20:02.640 --> 0:20:05.879 They are so long, or and they're twenty eight episodes 0:20:05.920 --> 0:20:07.560 and they're releasing them every single day. 0:20:07.960 --> 0:20:09.560 I don't have time, and you can vote. 0:20:09.560 --> 0:20:10.400 I don't want to have the time. 0:20:11.880 --> 0:20:12.680 So I took a. 0:20:12.640 --> 0:20:19.440 Break from Love Island and Orlando turned on Naked and Afraid, 0:20:19.640 --> 0:20:21.760 which has been on for like a decade. I've seen that. 0:20:21.840 --> 0:20:24.000 I guess I've seen it back in the day, but 0:20:24.119 --> 0:20:26.120 can you open this for me? But I haven't seen 0:20:26.160 --> 0:20:31.480 it recently, and I'm just like, reality TV lets me 0:20:31.600 --> 0:20:35.159 know that the majority of humanity is stupid, and I 0:20:35.200 --> 0:20:37.679 think it's important to note that, like, don't assume that 0:20:37.720 --> 0:20:42.320 most people have common sense. I mean Luckily for Naked 0:20:42.359 --> 0:20:44.720 and Afraid, they'll do twenty one days in one episode, 0:20:44.760 --> 0:20:47.280 so I'm not fucking watching a budget. I mean, like, 0:20:47.800 --> 0:20:51.359 but it's so many people. I mean there's black people 0:20:51.400 --> 0:20:53.439 on there too, which is obviously shocking for me, but 0:20:53.480 --> 0:20:58.399 there's mostly Caucasian people. But to voluntarily go into the 0:20:58.440 --> 0:21:04.080 deep jungles of the Philippine, remove every single article of clothing, 0:21:04.440 --> 0:21:08.399 have no supplies, and say I'm doing this for my daughter. 0:21:08.720 --> 0:21:11.760 She's five. She's gonna know I'm so strong. 0:21:11.960 --> 0:21:14.639 Like NIGGI, your daughter doesn't give a fuck if you 0:21:14.680 --> 0:21:16.760 go on Naked Afraid and leave for three weeks so 0:21:16.800 --> 0:21:18.760 you could prove to whoever the fuck that you can 0:21:18.800 --> 0:21:19.919 survive all your money. 0:21:20.320 --> 0:21:21.399 Now I look that up too. 0:21:21.480 --> 0:21:24.399 They look at like compensation for missing work, like twenty grand. 0:21:24.840 --> 0:21:29.520 They're eating snails. These two people ate a rat. They're 0:21:29.600 --> 0:21:34.760 like getting attacked by aunts. This one girl, Erica, she 0:21:34.880 --> 0:21:39.840 had no legs. She had a bilateral amputee. I thought 0:21:39.880 --> 0:21:41.840 she was gonna be able to leave on her stilts. 0:21:42.240 --> 0:21:45.040 The bitch took off her legs. She hopped out of 0:21:45.040 --> 0:21:48.320 the truck and started crawling on her pussy through the jungle. 0:21:50.520 --> 0:21:53.800 I mean, I got your calling, but why and then 0:21:53.800 --> 0:21:55.199 I could just And then or Lando told me there 0:21:55.240 --> 0:21:58.040 was an episode where they were starving because they starve 0:21:58.200 --> 0:22:02.480 kid here in the air on Please, and the guy 0:22:03.600 --> 0:22:07.560 found the production tent and stole food and was like 0:22:07.720 --> 0:22:09.119 the girl was like on her last leg and he 0:22:09.160 --> 0:22:11.679 was like, here, eat the food, and she's like where did. 0:22:11.560 --> 0:22:11.960 You get this? 0:22:12.119 --> 0:22:13.960 And that's again, that's all I keep thinking about, like 0:22:14.359 --> 0:22:16.120 as me, if I signed up for this, even if 0:22:16.119 --> 0:22:19.439 the maybe if the prize was a million dollars, I 0:22:19.720 --> 0:22:24.160 voluntarily signed up to get naked and afraid and there's 0:22:24.200 --> 0:22:27.639 probably like twenty motherfuckers and if within a fifteen minute 0:22:27.640 --> 0:22:30.880 walk just eating and chilling with fucking shelter and I'm 0:22:30.920 --> 0:22:34.440 just naked and starving because I'm stupid, Like it's one 0:22:34.440 --> 0:22:37.440 thing if you have to survive in an apocalypt situation, 0:22:37.600 --> 0:22:40.480 but if I just voluntarily, well maybe they want to 0:22:40.520 --> 0:22:42.760 know if they can. I mean, shit, baby, go can 0:22:42.880 --> 0:22:46.440 find thee want naked and Afraid. I'm gonna find them 0:22:46.480 --> 0:22:48.640 because when the shit goes down, that's who I want. 0:22:48.440 --> 0:22:48.720 To be with. 0:22:48.880 --> 0:22:49.160 Baby. 0:22:49.200 --> 0:22:51.359 They don't even look like they they don't even have 0:22:51.400 --> 0:22:52.959 the skills. I don't even know why they're going there, 0:22:53.000 --> 0:22:55.080 so I mean they know how to light fires and 0:22:55.080 --> 0:22:55.760 bill shelters. 0:22:55.760 --> 0:22:57.440 I've seen it, baby, I do too now because I 0:22:57.480 --> 0:22:58.320 watch two episodes. 0:22:58.359 --> 0:23:00.960 But it's it's hard. Ain't no. They all get a 0:23:00.960 --> 0:23:04.000 fire starter in one pot. But I'm like, there's no 0:23:04.040 --> 0:23:06.000 way in hell I'm going on a show to be 0:23:06.080 --> 0:23:08.960 naked and afraid in the jungle. It's raining, it's cold, 0:23:09.480 --> 0:23:12.200 no blankets, you know. And I watched a few days ago, 0:23:12.240 --> 0:23:15.960 Tropic Thunder. I made Iri watch Tropic Thunder because I 0:23:16.000 --> 0:23:18.000 was just like, I want to watch something stupid but 0:23:18.080 --> 0:23:21.880 not fucking Love Island. And so it was either Talladiga Knights, 0:23:21.880 --> 0:23:23.480 I thought of you, and we started watching it, but 0:23:23.520 --> 0:23:26.280 she wasn't into it, and so we stopped watching it. 0:23:27.000 --> 0:23:28.880 You know, Erica has never seen Telldiga Knights. 0:23:28.920 --> 0:23:30.919 I watched it because I thought I told. I told she. 0:23:31.160 --> 0:23:32.679 I was like, this is the Cumula's favorite movie. Let 0:23:32.720 --> 0:23:34.679 me let me watch it so I get her fucking jokes. 0:23:35.359 --> 0:23:37.920 I kepn't even missing my jokes for like almost ten years. 0:23:38.160 --> 0:23:41.280 And so we started watching maybe like twenty five minutes 0:23:41.320 --> 0:23:43.720 of it, and then Iri was like hmm hm, and 0:23:43.760 --> 0:23:46.240 I was like, all right, fine, so we started watching it. 0:23:46.240 --> 0:23:48.600 Then we started watching Tropic Thunder, and I've I'm like 0:23:48.640 --> 0:23:50.160 trying to explain what's going on, Like. 0:23:50.320 --> 0:23:54.000 He's not black, but he's white. That's Tony Stark. She's like, 0:23:54.040 --> 0:23:55.439 who's Tony Stark. I'm like Marvel. 0:23:55.480 --> 0:23:56.000 She's like, oh, I. 0:23:56.000 --> 0:23:58.600 Hate Marvel, and I'm like, okay, just forget about Marvel. This 0:23:58.760 --> 0:24:01.560 is a white man. He's like, now he's Asian. Now 0:24:01.600 --> 0:24:03.679 he's Asians. But he was black. I'm like, I know, 0:24:03.760 --> 0:24:06.439 but now he's an Asian, he's an act. So it 0:24:06.520 --> 0:24:08.760 was a lot of communication, but she finally got it 0:24:08.800 --> 0:24:13.000 and understand Yeah, And then I almost forgot how fucking 0:24:13.160 --> 0:24:16.879 funny Tom Cruise was of that movie, because Tom Cruise 0:24:16.960 --> 0:24:18.840 is so scary to me now because he's, you know, 0:24:18.880 --> 0:24:20.800 such a deep in the scientology that every time I 0:24:20.840 --> 0:24:22.960 see him, I'm like, what a fucking weirdo. But then 0:24:23.080 --> 0:24:25.159 on the movie, like he was fucking hilarious. They had 0:24:25.200 --> 0:24:28.159 prosthetics on his hands, like his hands were so big 0:24:28.240 --> 0:24:31.359 and hairy, and his chest was so hairy. 0:24:31.680 --> 0:24:33.800 It was it was, you know, And then I thought, too, 0:24:34.720 --> 0:24:36.240 I don't know if this movie can come out now. 0:24:36.280 --> 0:24:39.480 People are so fucking sensitive, Like, I can't say, how 0:24:39.480 --> 0:24:42.280 could this movie have come out? They were talking about retard. 0:24:42.840 --> 0:24:44.360 I watched old movies they were. 0:24:44.280 --> 0:24:47.480 Retired, had this movie where he played like like metal 0:24:48.480 --> 0:24:52.159 and they kept calling him retarded, and I was like, damn, 0:24:52.359 --> 0:24:56.080 the days of just like Balls to the Wall, Calmedy, 0:24:56.119 --> 0:24:56.840 You're fucking done. 0:24:56.840 --> 0:25:01.080 You'll get canceled like here, yeah, I'm probably gonna get 0:25:01.080 --> 0:25:06.119 canceled for saying I'm trans age. I just yeah, I 0:25:06.200 --> 0:25:09.679 mean people need to have a little bit tougher skin. Anyway, 0:25:09.720 --> 0:25:11.920 I highly recommend going back into the vault and watching 0:25:11.960 --> 0:25:14.200 Traffic Thunder. It's a classic. It's very funny. 0:25:14.359 --> 0:25:16.399 Can you please finish watching Child digod nights? 0:25:16.480 --> 0:25:16.760 I will. 0:25:16.800 --> 0:25:19.200 I have to watch it without you, without without irin. 0:25:19.320 --> 0:25:22.000 The first it was good, Yeah, it was funny. I 0:25:22.000 --> 0:25:24.199 love Will Ferrell, thank He's fucking hilarious. And you know 0:25:24.200 --> 0:25:27.000 what I love the most about all those guys like 0:25:27.280 --> 0:25:31.960 Will Ferrell, Ben Stiller, Adam Sandler, like they all. 0:25:31.840 --> 0:25:32.879 Hire their friends. 0:25:32.920 --> 0:25:36.360 Like Adam Sandler's wife is in a lot of his movies, 0:25:36.640 --> 0:25:39.960 just like jeded Appatose. Adam Sandler has a wife, And 0:25:40.000 --> 0:25:41.960 I'm sorry that Adam Samily does have a wife. I 0:25:42.000 --> 0:25:47.440 met ben Stiller, and yeah, I remember, like Marsha, Marsha, Marsha, 0:25:47.480 --> 0:25:51.200 I remember the Brady Bench, Marcia, like the new Brady Bench. Yeah, 0:25:51.240 --> 0:25:55.080 Marcia is Adam ben Stiller's wife. 0:25:55.440 --> 0:25:56.720 Oh okay, I didn't know that. 0:25:56.920 --> 0:25:57.600 Yeah, okay. 0:25:58.040 --> 0:26:01.120 So I just love how they they make each other 0:26:01.720 --> 0:26:04.200 rich together, and that's what I wanted to casting each 0:26:04.200 --> 0:26:04.679 other in it. 0:26:04.760 --> 0:26:07.040 And it's fucking hilarious, and they're like funny movies, and 0:26:07.119 --> 0:26:09.640 I always think about that, like even couples retreat the movie. 0:26:09.680 --> 0:26:11.280 I'm like, they just got all their homies to go 0:26:11.280 --> 0:26:13.119 out of town and make a movie and got a budget, 0:26:13.280 --> 0:26:15.600 and I aspire for this. I just want to make 0:26:15.600 --> 0:26:18.200 a bunch of funny movies, hang out with my friends 0:26:18.320 --> 0:26:21.040 and make millions of dollars and laugh and not be 0:26:21.119 --> 0:26:24.920 too deep and just be able to do whatever you want. Yeah, 0:26:24.960 --> 0:26:31.840 it was good. I hope you hear my christ baby Jesus. Yeah. 0:26:31.880 --> 0:26:35.679 So that's how I've been enjoying my summer, getting slower, 0:26:35.800 --> 0:26:38.040 making my brain soup by watching reality TV. 0:26:38.240 --> 0:26:40.280 No, I haven't been doing that. I'm not doing that. 0:26:40.320 --> 0:26:42.840 I'm not participating in this reality TV thing. I think 0:26:42.920 --> 0:26:45.359 like I went through a really heavy reality season in 0:26:45.400 --> 0:26:46.919 my life where I watched a lot of love and 0:26:46.960 --> 0:26:51.199 hip hop and housewives, and I think I just like 0:26:51.359 --> 0:26:53.560 overdid it then that I. 0:26:52.760 --> 0:26:54.680 Just I just can't do it. 0:26:54.800 --> 0:26:55.359 I don't love it. 0:26:55.359 --> 0:26:57.440 But even like the funny ones like love like Love 0:26:57.480 --> 0:26:58.560 after lock Up, like. 0:27:00.560 --> 0:27:02.880 But then I like, I fall off because it's just 0:27:03.680 --> 0:27:05.359 I don't know, I can't. 0:27:06.200 --> 0:27:09.000 I mean, TV is definitely a distraction. I do enjoy 0:27:09.040 --> 0:27:13.000 reality TV shows that are not exploiting black people as much. 0:27:13.240 --> 0:27:15.760 Like sometimes I like I was I was getting my 0:27:15.760 --> 0:27:19.240 hair braided and the raider's daughter came and she was 0:27:19.280 --> 0:27:22.040 like filling me in on Love Island because she's fucking fifteen, 0:27:22.560 --> 0:27:25.400 and she was saying, like, oh, you don't watch baddies. 0:27:25.520 --> 0:27:28.640 I was like, that's where I draw the line. I 0:27:28.680 --> 0:27:31.159 was like, no, I do not want to see a 0:27:31.160 --> 0:27:32.880 bunch of black women beat each other up and call 0:27:32.920 --> 0:27:36.480 each other names. Absolutely not. I'm like being righteous. She's like, bitch, 0:27:36.520 --> 0:27:40.480 we're watching Love Island for ten hours. But I just yeah, 0:27:40.800 --> 0:27:43.720 I'm I don't want to watch zeus, but a bunch 0:27:43.800 --> 0:27:46.800 of like young, stupid twenty year olds maybe, and then 0:27:46.840 --> 0:27:48.760 I can. It kind of gives me insight to what 0:27:48.800 --> 0:27:51.879 we have to look forward to having kids, you know, Like, so, 0:27:51.960 --> 0:27:54.280 what what do you mean? I'm just saying they're gonna 0:27:54.280 --> 0:27:56.720 be young and dumb and twenty something and like, and 0:27:56.720 --> 0:27:58.120 you're gonna have to be like, hey, we're not that 0:27:58.160 --> 0:28:02.119 fucking stupid. No, I've already told Lunash she's forbidden from 0:28:02.200 --> 0:28:05.119 going on Love Island or naked and afraid. 0:28:05.880 --> 0:28:08.119 I will disown you. I will cut off all funds. 0:28:08.359 --> 0:28:11.560 Nothing will be available to you. Nothing, you hear me, Iri, 0:28:11.760 --> 0:28:14.399 Absolutely fucking nothing nothing. 0:28:14.920 --> 0:28:16.040 It's really you know what I think. 0:28:16.359 --> 0:28:20.080 Mostly I'm realizing, I mean, watching stupid ass shows and 0:28:20.200 --> 0:28:23.520 observing how stupid twenty something years old can be, and 0:28:23.600 --> 0:28:26.880 like just the growth and the maturity that happens between 0:28:26.960 --> 0:28:34.600 like twenty nine and forty is like I time is 0:28:34.640 --> 0:28:40.960 going by so fast, and like faster than I don't know, 0:28:41.080 --> 0:28:45.960 faster than I can like accept this last ten years 0:28:46.040 --> 0:28:48.520 is eight years of good moms. How fast has it 0:28:48.560 --> 0:28:52.560 gone by? I feel like I've blinked, and like every 0:28:52.560 --> 0:28:54.760 time I think about it, I have to smoke. That's 0:28:54.760 --> 0:28:58.120 why I'm gonna light this blackwood right now, because what 0:28:58.160 --> 0:29:00.520 the fuck? No? 0:29:00.760 --> 0:29:02.880 Time as is going by and I think I think 0:29:02.960 --> 0:29:05.280 especially for like maybe not I want to say especially, 0:29:05.320 --> 0:29:07.120 but I think for us because we have. 0:29:09.240 --> 0:29:12.400 Time markers. I mean essentially everybody does now on their phone. 0:29:12.440 --> 0:29:14.120 The phone will fucking trigger the fuck out of you 0:29:14.160 --> 0:29:16.440 and remind you where you were four years ago on 0:29:16.480 --> 0:29:22.239 this day. But I think just everyone having at like 0:29:22.440 --> 0:29:26.960 easily accessible moments to really see the moments in their 0:29:27.000 --> 0:29:31.680 life puts this like a little bit of anxiety, a 0:29:31.680 --> 0:29:33.760 little bit of fear, but also like I think that's 0:29:33.800 --> 0:29:37.080 also a gift too. It's like an invitation for you 0:29:37.160 --> 0:29:40.480 to like really appreciate the time and appreciate the moment. 0:29:41.000 --> 0:29:43.640 And like, I know, for me, like in this season 0:29:43.680 --> 0:29:47.680 of my life, I've been, you know I've been. I think, 0:29:47.720 --> 0:29:50.360 like in my early thirties and starting good Moms, like 0:29:50.400 --> 0:29:54.080 I really needed to reclaim myself and like who I 0:29:54.200 --> 0:29:57.720 was outside of motherhood and what I wanted. 0:29:57.480 --> 0:30:00.080 To do, Who was Erica? What made me happy? 0:30:00.160 --> 0:30:03.040 Because I had been in a relationship for so long 0:30:03.080 --> 0:30:05.240 and honestly, like even throughout my twenties, to think about 0:30:05.240 --> 0:30:09.360 my twenties, like I had moments of like hot girls, subberbness, 0:30:09.520 --> 0:30:11.360 but like I was in a relationship all the time, 0:30:11.480 --> 0:30:13.520 Like I was always found myself in a relationship, and 0:30:13.520 --> 0:30:15.640 it wasn't because I was like seeking relationships. Yes, I 0:30:15.680 --> 0:30:17.880 loved love, but like I would just fall into one. 0:30:18.240 --> 0:30:21.880 So I think, like being in the beginning of Good Moms, 0:30:21.920 --> 0:30:25.240 like that was my opportunity and my time to like 0:30:25.680 --> 0:30:30.520 really understand who I wanted to identify as as a mother, 0:30:30.600 --> 0:30:33.320 and I like Good Moms gave me that gift. And 0:30:33.360 --> 0:30:36.920 I think that now I feel like I'm in a 0:30:36.960 --> 0:30:40.200 season of like really enjoying not that I didn't enjoy 0:30:40.240 --> 0:30:42.760 motherhood then, but like really enjoying this season of motherhood, 0:30:42.800 --> 0:30:44.960 really enjoying this season of my daughter's life and wanting 0:30:45.000 --> 0:30:47.440 to spend a lot of time with her because I 0:30:47.520 --> 0:30:49.640 do know that it's going fast, because I do see 0:30:49.640 --> 0:30:51.400 that it's going fast, and I do see that like 0:30:51.560 --> 0:30:55.360 I've missed opportunities. I've missed opportunities pouring into myself because 0:30:55.400 --> 0:30:59.000 it was necessary. But then there's also the guilt, and 0:30:59.040 --> 0:31:00.880 the truth of the matter is that like there were 0:31:00.880 --> 0:31:03.360 times where I wasn't there, you know, A, because I 0:31:03.400 --> 0:31:05.880 was fulfilling my dreams. B because I was being selfish 0:31:05.880 --> 0:31:10.800 because I needed to be. And now I feel like 0:31:11.520 --> 0:31:15.760 I don't know I just I think this specifically this 0:31:15.800 --> 0:31:20.520 summer and maybe this year has been really revealing to 0:31:20.560 --> 0:31:24.479 me as to like how I want to spend like 0:31:24.680 --> 0:31:28.240 the next I won't even say eight years of motherhood 0:31:28.280 --> 0:31:31.000 because when she's eight seventeen, like she won't be at 0:31:31.000 --> 0:31:35.120 the house or yeah, it's really like five yeah, five 0:31:35.200 --> 0:31:37.600 to six, Like how what kind of mom do I 0:31:37.640 --> 0:31:40.680 want to be? Like how am I building this relationship 0:31:40.720 --> 0:31:41.120 with her? 0:31:41.640 --> 0:31:45.960 Like how is she how is she fucking doing? Is 0:31:45.960 --> 0:31:46.440 she okay? 0:31:46.560 --> 0:31:49.600 Like what are her relationships like really investing time into? 0:31:49.720 --> 0:31:51.000 Like what are the things do you want to be 0:31:51.040 --> 0:31:54.280 good at the other day she we went bike riding 0:31:54.360 --> 0:31:55.360 last night and. 0:31:57.920 --> 0:32:00.760 The later and she was like, you know what I 0:32:00.800 --> 0:32:02.520 used to do when I was eight? And I was 0:32:02.560 --> 0:32:05.360 like today, like two years ago, year and a half. 0:32:07.440 --> 0:32:10.800 She was like, sometimes I used to like go to 0:32:10.840 --> 0:32:13.520 restaurants and I'm like, sometimes like with who me? 0:32:13.680 --> 0:32:15.160 Like right? 0:32:17.320 --> 0:32:20.320 And I would sing kind of loud because I hoped 0:32:20.320 --> 0:32:22.680 like a music producer would hear me and then like 0:32:22.720 --> 0:32:23.640 maybe they'd signed me. 0:32:24.400 --> 0:32:27.640 And I was like really not kind of loud. 0:32:29.480 --> 0:32:30.840 And She's like and I was like, so do you 0:32:31.080 --> 0:32:33.000 want to be you want to sing? And then she 0:32:33.120 --> 0:32:35.120 was like no, and I could see her like like no, 0:32:35.200 --> 0:32:37.400 like she was afraid, Like I was gonna like judge her. No, 0:32:37.480 --> 0:32:39.320 not not even judge her, like for sort of like 0:32:39.320 --> 0:32:41.600 tried it, you know, like what do you want to 0:32:41.640 --> 0:32:41.840 do it? 0:32:41.840 --> 0:32:42.440 Like, let's do it. 0:32:43.200 --> 0:32:44.840 And I was like, well, I ree like if you 0:32:44.880 --> 0:32:46.680 ever wanted to sing, like you know, you have like 0:32:47.080 --> 0:32:49.400 a dad that could like help you with that, like 0:32:49.480 --> 0:32:53.520 he could produce a song for you, like whatever needed 0:32:53.520 --> 0:32:53.920 to happen. 0:32:53.960 --> 0:32:55.480 If you wanted to try it, we could do that. 0:32:55.600 --> 0:32:57.920 She's like no, No. I was like okay, So we 0:32:58.000 --> 0:33:00.000 got to we rode our bikes this restaurant near my house. 0:33:02.720 --> 0:33:06.480 Do shit, be careful back and backward. 0:33:07.280 --> 0:33:12.680 Oh, take a shout out to the backwoods, because that's 0:33:12.680 --> 0:33:13.360 all I really need. 0:33:13.560 --> 0:33:13.920 God damn. 0:33:16.520 --> 0:33:20.520 And I think like I was just like trying to 0:33:20.560 --> 0:33:23.640 casually bring it back up again because even for me, 0:33:23.720 --> 0:33:25.720 like I loved, I love music, I know how to record. 0:33:25.760 --> 0:33:27.200 The whole reason, like even I knew how to edit 0:33:27.200 --> 0:33:29.640 our podcast was because I had made tons and tons 0:33:29.680 --> 0:33:31.240 of music before and I knew how to use garage 0:33:31.280 --> 0:33:34.160 band and blah blah blah, and like me and Chaquem, 0:33:34.280 --> 0:33:37.800 like will he'll like fuck around and like like we'll 0:33:38.600 --> 0:33:41.280 uh write, well, he'll write, and then I'll sing some 0:33:41.320 --> 0:33:43.440 songs with him, and not because I want to be 0:33:43.520 --> 0:33:45.440 a singer, but just because that's something that I really 0:33:45.520 --> 0:33:48.800 genuinely loved and it like brought me joy, and so 0:33:48.880 --> 0:33:50.520 I was like, when we got to dinner, I was like, 0:33:50.560 --> 0:33:52.400 why don't we just I was like, you know what. 0:33:52.440 --> 0:33:54.240 I looked at my notes and I found a song 0:33:54.240 --> 0:33:55.600 that we wrote and we had written me and I 0:33:55.720 --> 0:33:58.640 had written a song like twenty twenty one, and she 0:33:58.720 --> 0:34:00.720 was like, let me hear it because my notes and 0:34:00.800 --> 0:34:03.239 it was like the silly little song and she's like 0:34:03.360 --> 0:34:04.680 and I was like do you like it? 0:34:04.760 --> 0:34:05.840 And she's like it's cool? 0:34:05.960 --> 0:34:08.040 And I was like, what if we like recorded it 0:34:08.200 --> 0:34:10.320 and just like messed around, because like I want to 0:34:10.320 --> 0:34:12.279 mess around. I miss me making music and maybe we 0:34:12.280 --> 0:34:14.759 can make music together. And she was like Okay, She's like, 0:34:14.760 --> 0:34:16.640 well then let's write it right now. And so we 0:34:16.680 --> 0:34:18.320 like wrote like a little song last night at the 0:34:18.360 --> 0:34:22.840 dinner table. And it's just like being able to like 0:34:22.880 --> 0:34:25.399 really tap into like the things that she really wants 0:34:25.440 --> 0:34:28.000 to do, even though I know there's fear behind it 0:34:28.440 --> 0:34:32.080 and I feel like that's like my biggest joy right 0:34:32.120 --> 0:34:33.920 now is like trying to figure out like what it 0:34:33.960 --> 0:34:35.680 is that she wants to be good at, because at ten, 0:34:35.840 --> 0:34:39.719 like I was way deep into sports already, I was 0:34:39.800 --> 0:34:41.400 like I knew I wanted to be an actor. 0:34:41.840 --> 0:34:43.759 I was already I had been auditioning since I was 0:34:43.800 --> 0:34:44.240 like eight. 0:34:44.880 --> 0:34:47.600 And for her, like, I've kind of like let it 0:34:47.640 --> 0:34:50.319 be free flowing, and I want to keep it sort 0:34:50.360 --> 0:34:51.839 of that way, but there is like a level of 0:34:51.840 --> 0:34:56.200 discipline that I think is important right now in her 0:34:56.239 --> 0:34:58.239 life that's going to set her up for the rest 0:34:58.280 --> 0:34:58.839 of her life. 0:34:59.360 --> 0:35:01.480 And I don't want to be too free flowing anymore. 0:35:01.520 --> 0:35:03.680 I want to like really try to figure out, like, Okay, 0:35:03.760 --> 0:35:06.319 if we're going to do something, let's do it. So 0:35:06.480 --> 0:35:08.640 it's been like I don't know, it's it's been fun 0:35:08.760 --> 0:35:11.960 figuring that out over the last month or so. I 0:35:12.000 --> 0:35:14.439 think that I think we talked about this a couple 0:35:14.560 --> 0:35:19.040 of weeks ago, but I agree, like I think that 0:35:19.239 --> 0:35:23.400 there when you're your kid gets around this age and 0:35:23.680 --> 0:35:27.360 they can form their own ideas and opinions, and like 0:35:27.400 --> 0:35:29.120 you could talk to them like we're talking to each other, 0:35:29.120 --> 0:35:31.280 there's a different like oh shit, this happened so quickly. 0:35:31.680 --> 0:35:34.240 And also I see that with Luna to like the fear, 0:35:34.440 --> 0:35:37.440 and I'm like, I'm I'm scary too, Like even when 0:35:37.480 --> 0:35:39.440 we do shows and stuff, I get so nervous, but 0:35:39.520 --> 0:35:41.040 I do it anyway, like that's my thing, Like I 0:35:41.040 --> 0:35:42.000 don't care how scared I am. 0:35:42.040 --> 0:35:44.200 I'm gonna do it anyway. But try to instill that 0:35:44.280 --> 0:35:48.160 in her. And also like I realize, like I get 0:35:48.200 --> 0:35:50.799 anxiety sometimes thinking like oh my god, you're not a 0:35:50.880 --> 0:35:53.960 master pianoist or anything like right now, or I haven't, 0:35:54.000 --> 0:35:56.480 like have I not made you disciplined enough so that 0:35:56.560 --> 0:35:59.239 you have something like what Macy Gray told us, make 0:35:59.280 --> 0:36:01.080 sure your kid has something that they're good at, which 0:36:01.120 --> 0:36:02.479 I agree. 0:36:03.120 --> 0:36:04.640 I also feel like like. 0:36:04.560 --> 0:36:06.960 For us, for instance, when we created Good Moms, it 0:36:07.040 --> 0:36:09.320 wasn't with all of this like very like we're like 0:36:09.320 --> 0:36:11.359 we're going to be rich. We're just like doing something 0:36:11.360 --> 0:36:13.719 because we enjoyed it, trying something new. And I feel 0:36:13.719 --> 0:36:15.440 like there's a point in adulthood where we kind of 0:36:15.600 --> 0:36:19.160 stop doing that because the reality of bills and responsibility 0:36:19.320 --> 0:36:22.359 dawns on us. And like I would I want to 0:36:22.440 --> 0:36:27.160 be more playful in my creativity because growing up and 0:36:27.200 --> 0:36:28.799 as a teenager, like I used to love to write, 0:36:28.840 --> 0:36:31.560 used to love to write poetry, scrap book, like just 0:36:31.600 --> 0:36:34.000 trying paint, like those are all things that I love 0:36:34.040 --> 0:36:36.279 to do. But as you get older, you'd make less 0:36:36.280 --> 0:36:37.880 time for them because it's like, what's going to pay 0:36:37.920 --> 0:36:41.200 the bills? And it's like I think that you're calling 0:36:41.280 --> 0:36:43.759 and you're discipline and all those things come when you're 0:36:43.840 --> 0:36:46.480 something that you really like, you just start to really like. 0:36:46.560 --> 0:36:49.359 But like like you said, bringing them in, introducing them 0:36:49.360 --> 0:36:53.120 to things free flowing and letting it like casually pushing 0:36:53.120 --> 0:36:54.960 them to get it disciplined so they get real in it. 0:36:55.280 --> 0:36:58.080 But even with us, like I'm like, we have a 0:36:58.080 --> 0:37:00.279 fucking production company, Like let's just walk around to make 0:37:00.280 --> 0:37:00.560 a movie. 0:37:00.600 --> 0:37:02.440 Let's see what happens. Like look at even Issa Ray. 0:37:02.520 --> 0:37:04.319 She put on I mean, I'm sure was serious, but 0:37:04.440 --> 0:37:06.759 like a series on the internet and this she's a 0:37:06.800 --> 0:37:09.560 fucking mogul. So it's just like I think sometimes we 0:37:09.600 --> 0:37:12.200 put we apply all this pressure to things as adults 0:37:12.480 --> 0:37:14.799 that we need to like apply the childhood lens to 0:37:15.360 --> 0:37:16.680 instead of being so. 0:37:18.360 --> 0:37:19.680 Like this is this is it? 0:37:19.760 --> 0:37:21.560 You know what I mean? And I do I want 0:37:21.600 --> 0:37:25.640 I've thought about this recently, like the nostalgia of like 0:37:25.680 --> 0:37:29.320 writing poetry or making like scrap books with poetry and 0:37:29.360 --> 0:37:31.839 them and things like I wouldn't necessarily do that now 0:37:31.880 --> 0:37:33.880 because why. But it's like why do I need a 0:37:33.920 --> 0:37:36.920 why and just and other than the point of just 0:37:36.960 --> 0:37:40.120 to create, you know. And I'm like I'm trying to, yes, 0:37:40.440 --> 0:37:43.120 be more present with Luna and like what she went 0:37:43.239 --> 0:37:47.480 like developing those skills, and also just like I'm recognizing 0:37:47.520 --> 0:37:51.080 like life is zooming by life is short, Like these 0:37:51.120 --> 0:37:54.719 moments are fleeting and it's scary, you know. I just 0:37:54.840 --> 0:37:59.840 was with my friend and he has a friend, his neighbor. 0:38:00.520 --> 0:38:01.400 He called me at the morning. 0:38:01.440 --> 0:38:04.440 He was like, you know, so and so killed themselves 0:38:04.760 --> 0:38:06.640 and I was just like I just saw this person 0:38:06.800 --> 0:38:10.440 at his house and it was so interesting, Like I 0:38:10.520 --> 0:38:13.319 had a bad feeling then, like he was arguing, he 0:38:13.400 --> 0:38:15.000 was crying, and I just like was like, you know, 0:38:15.160 --> 0:38:17.279 in passing. But when he called me, I was like, 0:38:17.320 --> 0:38:20.319 oh my god, Like somebody, like even someone who I'm 0:38:20.360 --> 0:38:22.919 not super close with but have been around, was here 0:38:23.239 --> 0:38:25.680 like a last week and then one day or he's not, 0:38:26.360 --> 0:38:30.640 and I was just like, you never know what someone's 0:38:30.680 --> 0:38:33.000 going through he was young, like twenty eight years old, 0:38:33.440 --> 0:38:36.719 and it's just like these moments, this life is so 0:38:36.880 --> 0:38:40.439 precious and like finding joy in it and just kind 0:38:40.440 --> 0:38:45.560 of removing these these societal made pressures. Like obviously it's 0:38:45.640 --> 0:38:47.719 it's real because you have to survive, you have to 0:38:47.760 --> 0:38:51.000 take care of yourself, but like every moment counts, and 0:38:51.040 --> 0:38:53.560 it's just like being playful in it, being present in it, 0:38:53.920 --> 0:38:56.960 and even being gentle with myself, you know, like how 0:38:57.000 --> 0:38:59.680 I'm gentle with my child. And I took Luna with 0:38:59.719 --> 0:39:02.880 me were to see my friend yesterday and I was 0:39:02.920 --> 0:39:04.520 like before we walked in, I was like, damn sure 0:39:04.520 --> 0:39:06.239 I tell her because I'm sure this is going to 0:39:06.280 --> 0:39:09.960 be come up as a topic. But like even thinking 0:39:09.960 --> 0:39:14.359 about introducing the concept of suicide to a ten year old, 0:39:14.400 --> 0:39:15.960 you know what I mean, Like I don't know what 0:39:16.000 --> 0:39:17.799 age I was when I realized, Like you know, when 0:39:17.800 --> 0:39:19.719 you start to realize about birth and about death and 0:39:19.760 --> 0:39:21.719 about life and like where do you go after? Like 0:39:21.719 --> 0:39:23.360 those questions that start to dawn on you at a 0:39:23.360 --> 0:39:25.879 certain age when you become cognitizant enough and conscious enough. 0:39:26.200 --> 0:39:29.040 But I'm just like sometimes I'm worried if I'm introducing 0:39:29.040 --> 0:39:31.880 to her to concepts too early. But then again, it's like, 0:39:31.920 --> 0:39:34.320 this is life, this is what you're about to walk into. 0:39:34.360 --> 0:39:38.520 But we're at such an interesting and delicate time that 0:39:38.960 --> 0:39:41.719 I think that our parenting is showing up different than 0:39:41.719 --> 0:39:44.320 our parents did too, Like we have so much more knowledge, 0:39:44.360 --> 0:39:46.520 we have so much more awareness because we're literally scrolling, 0:39:46.520 --> 0:39:49.399 we're literally present in adulthood in this way. And I'm 0:39:49.480 --> 0:39:53.080 just like, there's this, Am I doing a good job? 0:39:53.120 --> 0:39:54.799 Am I doing good enough? Am I going to like 0:39:55.160 --> 0:39:57.000 die one day and be like, oh my god, in 0:39:57.040 --> 0:39:59.480 twenty twenty four, I should have done this or should 0:39:59.480 --> 0:40:00.840 have been at the or whatever. 0:40:00.840 --> 0:40:03.799 And I'm just like, it is such a deep. 0:40:04.160 --> 0:40:06.239 I think that though, Like I mean, yeah, I mean 0:40:06.280 --> 0:40:08.680 I think there's gonna be the ebbs and flow of 0:40:09.719 --> 0:40:13.560 sometimes it's guilt, and sometimes it is true sometimes like 0:40:13.880 --> 0:40:16.000 what I said in my early like when I first 0:40:16.000 --> 0:40:17.880 started the show and I was trying to find myself, 0:40:17.960 --> 0:40:21.239 I was away doing shit that like was for me, 0:40:21.520 --> 0:40:25.120 that was probably sometimes I had to literally sometimes reregulate 0:40:25.160 --> 0:40:28.080 myself and say, bitch, go sit down, go be a mom, 0:40:28.360 --> 0:40:31.600 like stop chasing this nake. You know, Like there's times 0:40:31.600 --> 0:40:33.200 where you're doing that, like do you really need to 0:40:33.200 --> 0:40:35.279 go on this girl's trip? Like your daughter has this 0:40:35.280 --> 0:40:37.440 this this, Yes, you only get this moment to go 0:40:37.480 --> 0:40:39.640 see this first recital, you know, like there's like the 0:40:39.680 --> 0:40:42.440 ebbs and flow of the balance. And like one thing 0:40:42.480 --> 0:40:46.680 I'll say is like I totally agree with the playfulness. 0:40:46.680 --> 0:40:49.919 I totally agree that, Like as adults we lose sight 0:40:49.960 --> 0:40:52.799 of that. And like even me, like sitting down and 0:40:52.800 --> 0:40:54.720 looking at my old journals and seeing all the poetry 0:40:54.760 --> 0:40:57.000 I used to write for just no other reason, just 0:40:57.040 --> 0:40:59.280 because I was already in flow, because I was already 0:40:59.280 --> 0:41:02.319 writing music, and then like trying to get back to 0:41:02.400 --> 0:41:06.120 that and not overthink it. And then now we re 0:41:06.320 --> 0:41:09.239 trying to introduce my daughter to this concept of having 0:41:09.280 --> 0:41:12.400 fun making music. But then also like the discipline, and 0:41:12.440 --> 0:41:17.279 like why I think I think that that is important, 0:41:17.560 --> 0:41:20.040 Like yes, the play all those things, but then like 0:41:20.120 --> 0:41:23.200 once you decide or once you see something blossoming, then 0:41:24.000 --> 0:41:26.400 like really pushing the discipline. And that's where like I 0:41:26.400 --> 0:41:28.759 think it gets a little tricky for parents because we 0:41:28.800 --> 0:41:30.840 feel like I don't want to, like, am I forcing 0:41:30.880 --> 0:41:32.279 her to do something she doesn't want to do? And 0:41:32.320 --> 0:41:34.200 it's like, well, I think about all the times my 0:41:34.239 --> 0:41:36.000 mom forced me to get up and take my ass 0:41:36.000 --> 0:41:39.080 a soccer practice, forced me to do, like force me 0:41:39.120 --> 0:41:40.480 to go to the audition I didn't want to go 0:41:40.480 --> 0:41:42.640 to because I was scared, or because I just didn't 0:41:42.680 --> 0:41:43.279 feel like it. 0:41:43.320 --> 0:41:45.560 I wanted to go hang out with my friends. And like, 0:41:45.880 --> 0:41:46.879 I think that we. 0:41:46.920 --> 0:41:50.640 Become in a society sometimes a little too complacent too 0:41:50.719 --> 0:41:53.319 with our parenting, and like, I do believe like there's 0:41:53.360 --> 0:41:56.200 a level of discipline, especially in this age, that I 0:41:56.320 --> 0:41:59.000 maybe like even before this age, honestly, that I think 0:41:59.040 --> 0:42:01.160 it's important for kids, especially in the world that we're 0:42:01.160 --> 0:42:03.719 living in now, especially in a world that's like literally 0:42:03.760 --> 0:42:06.400 wants us to be numb, literally just wants us to 0:42:06.840 --> 0:42:09.719 just tap in away and go like desensitize ourselves and 0:42:09.800 --> 0:42:12.840 just go for pay and go forget what's really happening. 0:42:12.880 --> 0:42:14.960 And it's like, no, Like there's a level of discipline 0:42:14.960 --> 0:42:16.840 that at least for me, I can only speak for 0:42:16.880 --> 0:42:21.040 myself that I'm realizing that I want to implement in 0:42:21.080 --> 0:42:22.520 her because I've allowed her to. 0:42:22.480 --> 0:42:26.359 Be choose what she wants to do. Oh, you want 0:42:26.360 --> 0:42:28.600 to quit soccer? Okay, you know you're. 0:42:28.480 --> 0:42:30.480 Only eight let's like figure out some other stuff you 0:42:30.520 --> 0:42:32.480 want to do. And that's fine, but like I don't 0:42:32.520 --> 0:42:34.960 want that to continue to be the trend in like 0:42:35.120 --> 0:42:37.319 how I'm allowing her to flow in and out of 0:42:37.320 --> 0:42:39.560 her interests. Like, if you're going to be interested in something, 0:42:39.640 --> 0:42:42.400 let's really explore it all the way, fully decide if 0:42:42.400 --> 0:42:43.480 you don't like this all the way. 0:42:43.760 --> 0:42:45.400 Do you feel like when you did soccer and I 0:42:45.560 --> 0:42:48.400 sorry go ahead, no sorry, no, no, no, go ahead. Do 0:42:48.440 --> 0:42:50.640 you feel like when you were like, uh, deeply in 0:42:50.719 --> 0:42:52.799 sports it was because you were like, this is what 0:42:52.840 --> 0:42:54.400 I want to do and you're like, Mom picked me up, 0:42:54.520 --> 0:42:56.279 we have a game, or is because she was like, 0:42:56.320 --> 0:42:56.960 this is what you're. 0:42:56.800 --> 0:42:57.160 Going to do? 0:42:58.040 --> 0:43:00.800 No, I think that's My journey to sports was layered. 0:43:00.840 --> 0:43:01.359 It's my dad. 0:43:01.400 --> 0:43:01.759 My dad. 0:43:02.000 --> 0:43:04.239 My dad was a professional athlete, like you know, the 0:43:04.320 --> 0:43:08.000 top athletes ever, and like I always knew that growing up, 0:43:08.000 --> 0:43:11.240 and people always assumed that I was an athlete because 0:43:11.239 --> 0:43:13.640 of that, And then I actually did have talent as 0:43:13.640 --> 0:43:16.320 an athlete. And then I also realized I liked winning 0:43:16.680 --> 0:43:19.400 and so like, and I realized I was naturally competitive 0:43:19.480 --> 0:43:22.120 and like that I could get good at something in 0:43:22.160 --> 0:43:24.640 that way I think the first thing that I was 0:43:24.680 --> 0:43:27.399 good at was swimming, So like I started competing in swimming, and. 0:43:27.360 --> 0:43:27.920 Like that was fun. 0:43:27.960 --> 0:43:29.440 I could hang out with my friends like I had 0:43:29.480 --> 0:43:33.160 my crew, you know. But then there's times where like 0:43:33.200 --> 0:43:35.319 I didn't fucking feel like doing it, and those are 0:43:35.360 --> 0:43:37.560 the times where your parenting has to step in and 0:43:37.600 --> 0:43:39.479 you have to like be. 0:43:39.600 --> 0:43:41.800 Like it's hard. I didn't realize how difficult it probably 0:43:41.840 --> 0:43:43.680 was for my mom At times. It's hard because you 0:43:43.760 --> 0:43:45.760 want to be like, oh, baby, like it is early. 0:43:46.040 --> 0:43:48.080 I did keep you up all late last night because 0:43:48.080 --> 0:43:49.759 we were out with my friends, right, and now I'm 0:43:49.800 --> 0:43:51.360 forcing you to get up at six am to go 0:43:51.360 --> 0:43:53.799 to your soccer. Let's just stay no, Like my mom 0:43:53.920 --> 0:43:55.759 did not play that shit, Like she was like, get 0:43:55.800 --> 0:43:57.960 your ass up, you're going I don't care. You have 0:43:58.160 --> 0:44:00.640 soccer in the morning and you have soccer after school, 0:44:00.960 --> 0:44:04.640 and you know, like granted, eventually, I wouldn't say that's 0:44:04.640 --> 0:44:07.240 why I started hating like that sport. It was probably 0:44:07.320 --> 0:44:07.800 my coach. 0:44:08.239 --> 0:44:12.200 But that level of discipline I see show up in 0:44:12.320 --> 0:44:14.759 me now. I see how it shows up in like 0:44:15.120 --> 0:44:17.920 how I like my well when I'm when I'm focused 0:44:17.960 --> 0:44:21.560 on something I'm going to I'm going to follow it through. 0:44:21.600 --> 0:44:24.920 I want to finish it, and then I see how 0:44:24.960 --> 0:44:27.279 like sometimes it has it showed up for me too, 0:44:27.400 --> 0:44:31.239 like in ways where I haven't completed things, and I 0:44:31.280 --> 0:44:32.919 just want I want to give I want to give 0:44:32.920 --> 0:44:36.800 my daughter the opportunity to really be able to hone 0:44:36.840 --> 0:44:39.640 in on discipline, because I think discipline I learned early. 0:44:39.719 --> 0:44:42.439 But then I think I kind of when you become an. 0:44:42.320 --> 0:44:44.520 Adult and you can do whatever you want, you kind 0:44:44.520 --> 0:44:46.560 of like lose track of that and you're like, fuck it, 0:44:46.560 --> 0:44:47.799 I don't have to do this. I don't have to 0:44:47.800 --> 0:44:48.399 do that well. 0:44:48.320 --> 0:44:50.000 Because there's no practice, there's no coach. 0:44:50.200 --> 0:44:52.960 Yeah, there's that's doing it. And then you're like, why 0:44:53.000 --> 0:44:54.920 am I Why don't I know what I'm doing with 0:44:54.960 --> 0:44:57.000 my life? I don't know what I'm doing? Mom? Help? 0:44:57.040 --> 0:44:59.919 And your mom's like, bitch, I tried, it's on my hands. 0:45:00.320 --> 0:45:02.120 So letting you get an adult. And then you're like, 0:45:02.200 --> 0:45:03.600 I hate my nine to five? 0:45:03.680 --> 0:45:05.759 What are you know? So it's I don't know. 0:45:05.840 --> 0:45:08.520 I just I don't want to be like a fucking 0:45:09.040 --> 0:45:12.960 what is it called an authoritarian? But I also I 0:45:12.960 --> 0:45:16.879 think that I'm I realized like that I want her 0:45:17.000 --> 0:45:20.480 to hone in on what it is that she wants, like, 0:45:20.520 --> 0:45:22.680 for example, even horseback riding, like she hasn't she stopped 0:45:22.680 --> 0:45:23.239 horseback riding. 0:45:23.320 --> 0:45:25.400 She was getting really good at that. Obviously that was expensive, 0:45:25.440 --> 0:45:27.560 so we had to stop that. That was getting crazy. But 0:45:27.800 --> 0:45:29.520 like just certain things, I don't want her to think 0:45:29.520 --> 0:45:32.799 that she can just pick and choose what she likes 0:45:32.840 --> 0:45:36.719 and then abandon it when it gets a little bit challenging. Yeah, 0:45:37.080 --> 0:45:40.120 I'm also realizing like we have to be examples for those, 0:45:40.280 --> 0:45:44.600 for those for those uh, just little hobbies, you know, 0:45:44.760 --> 0:45:47.560 like I I have. 0:45:47.560 --> 0:45:49.560 To read books. For you to read books, I'd be like, 0:45:49.640 --> 0:45:49.920 let's go. 0:45:50.080 --> 0:45:51.640 You have to see me do the thing to even 0:45:51.640 --> 0:45:53.640 be like, bitch you, I didn't see you read a 0:45:53.640 --> 0:45:55.440 book this year. And I've And that's another thing, Like 0:45:55.440 --> 0:45:58.000 I used to read so much and because I was, 0:45:58.200 --> 0:46:01.040 I was writing, so I was reading, and like time 0:46:01.200 --> 0:46:03.480 now like I've finished two books this year, which is 0:46:03.520 --> 0:46:06.120 a fucking miracle, you know, and it's we're in July, 0:46:06.320 --> 0:46:12.000 and I obviously that's not a lot, but just diving 0:46:12.040 --> 0:46:14.640 into my hobbies so that she sees me do the 0:46:14.719 --> 0:46:16.960 same thing, so that she's encouraged to do the same thing. 0:46:17.040 --> 0:46:19.680 Like it's such parenting. 0:46:20.840 --> 0:46:22.719 I don't know if we'll ever stop figuring it out, 0:46:22.760 --> 0:46:27.160 Like it's a constant dissection of like balance and compassion 0:46:27.239 --> 0:46:30.200 and discipline. And it's just like I realized where my 0:46:30.320 --> 0:46:33.160 parents could have probably been more like I never had 0:46:33.280 --> 0:46:35.600 a parent that was like you have to do this 0:46:35.719 --> 0:46:38.000 or like you know, I mean even when I was 0:46:38.120 --> 0:46:40.399 deep into dance, like it's because that's what I wanted 0:46:40.400 --> 0:46:41.759 to do, I was like waking that up, like yo, 0:46:41.760 --> 0:46:43.880 you gotta drop me off at seven am, you know. 0:46:44.400 --> 0:46:47.920 But I do feel like with adulthood, you're like, oh, 0:46:47.960 --> 0:46:49.560 I don't have to do that, and so I could 0:46:49.600 --> 0:46:50.600 just go hang out with my soul. 0:46:50.480 --> 0:46:51.880 And then you have to read and you have to 0:46:52.120 --> 0:46:54.600 you have to, Like it's like a resurgence of that 0:46:55.400 --> 0:46:56.400 on your own terms. 0:46:56.480 --> 0:46:58.600 And it's like but sometimes it takes a little bit longer. 0:46:59.200 --> 0:47:01.560 And I mean even in our space like of like 0:47:01.640 --> 0:47:03.960 having a business, like it's like the ebbs and flow 0:47:04.000 --> 0:47:07.879 of like staying focused, staying activated, staying inspired. 0:47:07.440 --> 0:47:10.080 Like right when there's no paycheck, there's no boss, you know, 0:47:10.120 --> 0:47:12.520 there's no deadline. Yeah, And I think it starts early. 0:47:13.239 --> 0:47:14.400 Oh and by the way, guys. 0:47:14.440 --> 0:47:16.600 I don't know if you guys, if there's any kids 0:47:16.719 --> 0:47:18.640 of parents between the ages of four and fourteen in 0:47:18.640 --> 0:47:25.120 the LA area. Speaking of mindfulness of discipline, my partner 0:47:25.200 --> 0:47:28.600 Skem is doing a muay time meditation program in the 0:47:28.600 --> 0:47:31.480 park for kids. So IRI's gonna be there. It starts 0:47:31.520 --> 0:47:35.279 this Friday and it's in the valley, and so if 0:47:35.320 --> 0:47:38.240 you're interested, make sure you go check out his Instagram. 0:47:38.280 --> 0:47:41.000 I don't know how to fun she Kem house at Instagram, 0:47:41.000 --> 0:47:46.040 at him, or you can email shakem works at gmail 0:47:46.080 --> 0:47:48.440 dot com and and tap in. 0:47:48.480 --> 0:47:50.520 Because I'm excited for Iri to do that. I'm excited 0:47:50.520 --> 0:47:51.520 you should bring Luna. 0:47:51.280 --> 0:47:56.560 To to just like even learn about I've meditated with Iri, 0:47:56.680 --> 0:47:59.080 but have I like sat down with her and like 0:47:59.320 --> 0:48:00.359 made it fun and like. 0:48:00.320 --> 0:48:01.520 She come so good with kids. 0:48:01.520 --> 0:48:04.759 So if you're interested in like introducing your kids to 0:48:04.960 --> 0:48:08.479 muy thai, which is a great confidence builder. Our kids 0:48:08.520 --> 0:48:10.759 need more than ever to know how to protect themselves 0:48:11.160 --> 0:48:14.160 and then also mindfulness and meditation, then come. 0:48:14.080 --> 0:48:16.880 Join us on Friday at the park in the valley. 0:48:17.440 --> 0:48:19.239 Do you remember when I used to hate we used 0:48:19.280 --> 0:48:24.080 to hate sing my partner. I know, I call my boyfriend, 0:48:24.400 --> 0:48:25.120 my part. 0:48:26.880 --> 0:48:28.840 Yeah, I just to say that my friend Romo, she 0:48:28.880 --> 0:48:30.520 used to call her man her partner, and I was like, 0:48:31.239 --> 0:48:33.719 he sounds like he's trans or like are you, like. 0:48:33.760 --> 0:48:34.440 Are you lesbian? 0:48:34.520 --> 0:48:38.400 Are you? I don't know, like what's going on that. 0:48:38.960 --> 0:48:39.960 We have a new vocabulary. 0:48:40.000 --> 0:48:42.280 But you know what I see, I understand it now 0:48:42.440 --> 0:48:45.360 because boy friend, my man. 0:48:45.239 --> 0:48:48.359 Is not a boy and he's not my friend. So 0:48:48.400 --> 0:48:50.040 where the fuck did we get this? I mean, he's 0:48:50.080 --> 0:48:51.920 my friend, but like, where the fuck did we get this? 0:48:52.040 --> 0:48:57.320 Like it's for teenagers, your boyfriend, yea, even a love Island. 0:48:57.560 --> 0:48:59.200 Sorry, not to go back to the violin one of 0:48:59.239 --> 0:49:01.680 the moments I noticed she was like, I'm going to 0:49:01.719 --> 0:49:02.640 pick one of the boys. 0:49:02.800 --> 0:49:03.719 I always call them boys. 0:49:03.800 --> 0:49:07.640 I'm like, because they are they're like little boys, not 0:49:07.719 --> 0:49:08.319 like the men. 0:49:08.640 --> 0:49:10.440 Never the men, the boys. 0:49:10.120 --> 0:49:11.000 Because they are boys. 0:49:11.360 --> 0:49:13.799 I love them though, I'm like, I love I love 0:49:13.840 --> 0:49:15.239 the life violent boys. 0:49:15.480 --> 0:49:17.480 Oh my god, Oh my god. 0:49:17.520 --> 0:49:19.720 But yeah, no, just like going back, like the discipline 0:49:19.760 --> 0:49:22.320 I think is important and but for sure like the play, 0:49:22.560 --> 0:49:25.319 like the play is is a big part of them 0:49:25.480 --> 0:49:28.399 deciding what you want to be disciplined in. So I'm 0:49:28.440 --> 0:49:31.120 excited to make some music with iron and see what 0:49:31.280 --> 0:49:33.880 comes of it. And you know, I even when we 0:49:33.880 --> 0:49:35.640 were writing the song, I could feel myself trying to 0:49:35.640 --> 0:49:38.840 like I was like wanting to like control, like that 0:49:38.880 --> 0:49:40.680 doesn't make sense, Like just leave it alone. 0:49:40.840 --> 0:49:43.080 Let it not make sense. Okay, it doesn't make sense. 0:49:43.600 --> 0:49:49.359 Music listen, it doesn't make sense. Yeah I do. 0:49:50.400 --> 0:49:53.880 I just want to do more kids stuff because adulting 0:49:54.000 --> 0:49:56.920 is intense. I want to pain and play and do 0:49:57.040 --> 0:50:01.840 makeup and ride bikes night cycles and yeah, just be 0:50:01.880 --> 0:50:02.960 the best mom I can be. 0:50:03.360 --> 0:50:05.479 But there's no rule book. 0:50:05.520 --> 0:50:07.759 Maybe that's the next book, a Good Mom's Guide to 0:50:07.880 --> 0:50:11.320 being a good mom. I think, well, you make the rules. 0:50:11.520 --> 0:50:13.520 You make the rule book for how you want a parent. 0:50:13.600 --> 0:50:14.080 I think that. 0:50:14.120 --> 0:50:16.760 I think you make the rules, and then you move 0:50:16.880 --> 0:50:21.839 through life within those guardrails, right, like they're yours to do. 0:50:23.160 --> 0:50:25.920 But I think that it's important to I don't know, 0:50:25.960 --> 0:50:29.080 like you wing it. And then eventually, like when you 0:50:29.120 --> 0:50:31.640 have your second child, you have tools, right, so then 0:50:31.680 --> 0:50:33.799 it's you do have a book at that point. I mean, 0:50:33.800 --> 0:50:36.000 obviously you're having a whole different child with a whole 0:50:36.040 --> 0:50:39.640 different set of needs and wants. But ideally, like generally, 0:50:39.680 --> 0:50:42.080 like there's some standard things that you know, like hey, 0:50:42.280 --> 0:50:44.239 last time I did this, maybe this time I'm not 0:50:44.280 --> 0:50:44.759 going to do that. 0:50:45.600 --> 0:50:47.000 I think I've been really. 0:50:49.000 --> 0:50:53.440 Scared and like it's not scared, but like really realizing 0:50:53.760 --> 0:50:59.560 the the realness of like having another baby. And I'm like, oh, 0:50:59.840 --> 0:51:02.520 like with one, it's one way, and it's been a 0:51:02.520 --> 0:51:03.680 certain way with this child. 0:51:03.800 --> 0:51:04.640 You know, we've been alone. 0:51:04.680 --> 0:51:06.920 You know, it's just been a whole different Twenty seven 0:51:07.520 --> 0:51:09.960 to ten years later to twenty seven to twenty four 0:51:11.880 --> 0:51:14.240 is such a It's like I'm a whole different human 0:51:14.360 --> 0:51:17.880 and like considering redoing that, and just like we have 0:51:17.920 --> 0:51:20.080 so many friends who just like popped out kids back 0:51:20.080 --> 0:51:22.080 to back, but we did it because we were just 0:51:22.120 --> 0:51:23.879 like whoa, we just got the hang of this one. 0:51:24.360 --> 0:51:27.560 And now considering redoing like doing that again. It's like 0:51:27.600 --> 0:51:33.080 a resurgence of I guess, like the second half of adulthood, 0:51:33.440 --> 0:51:37.440 the second half of motherhood. And it feels scary. It's like, oh, 0:51:37.520 --> 0:51:39.719 my life is changing. And even though as women were 0:51:39.760 --> 0:51:43.560 always talking about, like from young girls, we're like we 0:51:43.760 --> 0:51:45.279 have a husband and then I'm gonna get a house 0:51:45.280 --> 0:51:46.960 and then we're gonna live happy. I'll live every after 0:51:47.000 --> 0:51:49.360 and I have three to five kids. But the reality 0:51:49.400 --> 0:51:50.840 of that is like, oh my god, this is a 0:51:50.880 --> 0:51:53.879 decade later. This is a whole news, Like I know 0:51:53.960 --> 0:51:57.279 the I know that, not the darkness, but kind of 0:51:57.280 --> 0:52:01.160 the deep, the deepness of having an infant, of pregnancy. 0:52:01.280 --> 0:52:04.400 It's far away from me, but like I feel like 0:52:04.520 --> 0:52:10.320 a like a like an adolescence, an adolescent in adults 0:52:10.400 --> 0:52:13.120 like read dooing a new cycle again and I'm like, 0:52:13.239 --> 0:52:15.759 oh wow, this is requiring a different part of me 0:52:15.840 --> 0:52:18.040 because I do know better because I have done it 0:52:18.040 --> 0:52:19.279 this way, and like how am I going to do 0:52:19.280 --> 0:52:19.719 it this way? 0:52:19.719 --> 0:52:22.359 What does this look like? And also just. 0:52:24.640 --> 0:52:30.000 Thinking about aging and not in the like the vain sense, 0:52:30.080 --> 0:52:33.920 but like safety finances, like I don't want to work 0:52:33.960 --> 0:52:37.960 when I'm sixty five, Like I have to maintain comfortability 0:52:38.000 --> 0:52:41.160 and safety for myself and for my child even after 0:52:41.280 --> 0:52:42.839 I'm gone, And what does that look like? 0:52:42.880 --> 0:52:44.560 What is what is the four oh one? Kay? What 0:52:44.680 --> 0:52:45.400 is the retirement? 0:52:45.480 --> 0:52:48.400 Like those type of thoughts too, are like I in 0:52:48.400 --> 0:52:51.799 many ways, I still feel like a young I still 0:52:51.800 --> 0:52:55.160 feel like love island age, Like fuck, this is Shit's 0:52:55.200 --> 0:52:57.440 getting real, you know, and it's always been real, But 0:52:57.560 --> 0:53:00.200 like I it's interesting how we go through these cycles 0:53:00.520 --> 0:53:02.920 of adulthood, I mean just of life in general, Like 0:53:02.960 --> 0:53:05.200 you know, there's words for it all the way up 0:53:05.239 --> 0:53:07.640 into adulthood and then it's like you got it, but 0:53:07.680 --> 0:53:09.919 the reality is like I don't got it. And there's 0:53:09.960 --> 0:53:12.960 a lot of planning that's required that I wasn't necessarily taught, 0:53:13.000 --> 0:53:15.960 So what the fuck? And it's it's scary, And I 0:53:16.000 --> 0:53:20.200 think that there should be more conversations around like adult 0:53:20.280 --> 0:53:24.200 fear and and like just well. 0:53:24.120 --> 0:53:26.000 I think everyone, I think everything, there's a lot of 0:53:26.000 --> 0:53:27.279 conversations around adult fear. 0:53:27.280 --> 0:53:30.719 If you look on Instagram, everyone's scared. I think. I 0:53:30.719 --> 0:53:34.680 think that's the problem, is that everyone's scared. Yeah, I 0:53:35.040 --> 0:53:35.920 don't have I. 0:53:35.920 --> 0:53:38.759 Don't necessarily have fear around having a baby. I mean 0:53:38.880 --> 0:53:41.439 I just have Like I think I just know that's 0:53:41.719 --> 0:53:44.000 it's not about the fear. It's just like I'm I'm 0:53:44.040 --> 0:53:46.239 not in la la land about it. Like I'm very 0:53:46.320 --> 0:53:48.880 clear about like the reality of it. I'm not like 0:53:49.640 --> 0:53:50.360 what is it going to. 0:53:50.400 --> 0:53:53.280 Be, Like, oh my god, are you gonna have his face? 0:53:53.640 --> 0:53:56.760 I'm like, who's gonna pay these bills? Yeah? 0:53:57.040 --> 0:53:59.719 Yeah, Like like am I gonna have a v am 0:53:59.719 --> 0:54:01.040 I gonna be able to have a vback? 0:54:01.120 --> 0:54:03.320 If not, who's going to pay for this C section? 0:54:04.000 --> 0:54:07.640 And like where is the world going to be at 0:54:07.840 --> 0:54:09.960 when this baby's born? Like are we going to be 0:54:09.960 --> 0:54:13.359 living in ai fucking universe? Or am I be able 0:54:13.400 --> 0:54:16.480 to make money as a creator because now there's fake creators, 0:54:16.560 --> 0:54:20.960 Like like that's where myne mind goes. It's not necessarily 0:54:21.040 --> 0:54:24.160 like whether or not I can be a good parent 0:54:24.320 --> 0:54:27.160 or I can do it or if like if like 0:54:27.200 --> 0:54:29.560 sha Ken would be a good dad, Like I'm excited 0:54:29.640 --> 0:54:33.000 about that idea, but it's just like it's the it's 0:54:33.040 --> 0:54:36.040 the worldly things that I feel I think you have 0:54:36.080 --> 0:54:41.960 no control worried about, but also like yeah, I just know. 0:54:42.200 --> 0:54:46.200 I also know that historically God has looked out for me, 0:54:46.400 --> 0:54:50.360 like literally all the time, every day, always, and so 0:54:51.560 --> 0:54:55.759 I'm not really too worried about that either. It's just 0:54:55.800 --> 0:54:59.520 like if it happens, great, When it happens, I'd like 0:54:59.560 --> 0:55:01.960 to have a little bit more. I have control over 0:55:02.040 --> 0:55:06.120 right now, and I'm continuing to have control over until 0:55:06.960 --> 0:55:08.960 we feel like it's the time, which is not like 0:55:09.000 --> 0:55:13.120 I'm not gonna have a baby until I'm married. So yeah, 0:55:13.239 --> 0:55:17.520 I'm traditional in that way now now now, because and 0:55:17.840 --> 0:55:20.920 that's a learning for me. That's something that I've learned 0:55:21.000 --> 0:55:23.800 along the way, Like, don't have a baby with a 0:55:23.880 --> 0:55:26.200 nigga that you're kind of broken up with, Like that's 0:55:26.320 --> 0:55:27.480 probably not a great idea. 0:55:27.840 --> 0:55:29.560 I don't have a baby with a nigga that you 0:55:30.040 --> 0:55:32.319 see a lot of red flags and they're like, this 0:55:32.360 --> 0:55:34.120 is probably is going to be an issue now. If 0:55:34.120 --> 0:55:35.759 it's an issue now, it's probably gonna be an issue 0:55:35.760 --> 0:55:36.640 when I have a baby. 0:55:37.520 --> 0:55:40.400 Yeah, So you know, And I feel like I'm a 0:55:40.440 --> 0:55:42.040 lot more. I feel like I feel like I'm a 0:55:42.040 --> 0:55:43.919 patient parent, but I feel like I will have even 0:55:43.960 --> 0:55:46.239 more patients. And I also feel like I will have 0:55:46.280 --> 0:55:51.680 more support literally, like I like will be having a 0:55:51.719 --> 0:55:56.680 real person that can actually help me tangibly. So I 0:55:57.080 --> 0:55:59.279 do feel like it would be a different experience and 0:55:59.320 --> 0:56:03.439 I'm excited about that. But all the other stuff, like, yeah, 0:56:03.480 --> 0:56:05.239 I mean, it can be it can be scary. The 0:56:05.239 --> 0:56:08.600 world is scary place, The Internet is weird, and I 0:56:08.680 --> 0:56:15.920 highly highly recommend everyone unplug from the Internet, Instagram, TikTok, 0:56:16.440 --> 0:56:19.960 like do detox is as often as possible, especially right 0:56:20.040 --> 0:56:24.920 now because it's dark, it's weird and every time I 0:56:25.000 --> 0:56:27.600 specifically Instagram for me, whenever I open it up, it's 0:56:27.680 --> 0:56:31.440 a lot of negativity. Like I recently joined TikTok and 0:56:31.600 --> 0:56:33.080 I can't believe I'm saying that out loud. 0:56:34.320 --> 0:56:37.160 And when I'm there, it's a lot more cheerful, it's 0:56:37.200 --> 0:56:39.880 a lot more happy over on TikTok. And I'm not 0:56:39.920 --> 0:56:42.280 even scrolling on TikTok. I'm not even a TikTok scroller. 0:56:42.360 --> 0:56:44.719 But like whenever I open the app, it's not like 0:56:45.040 --> 0:56:48.000 duty is acquitted on all charges, Like it's not is. 0:56:48.000 --> 0:56:49.080 He quitted in all charges? 0:56:49.120 --> 0:56:51.000 Well, no, he's not quit all charges, but he's basically 0:56:51.000 --> 0:56:52.399 going he's not going to serve any time. I don't 0:56:52.440 --> 0:56:54.440 think he's not out though, No he's not out, but 0:56:54.480 --> 0:56:55.399 I doubt he'll serve time. 0:56:55.480 --> 0:56:58.000 Maybe he'll like do time served already rights. 0:56:58.680 --> 0:57:02.360 Wow, But like that, like that compares along with all 0:57:02.400 --> 0:57:05.680 of the all of the politics and the drownings and 0:57:06.320 --> 0:57:10.800 just the climates and the love islands and the like. 0:57:11.360 --> 0:57:12.120 It's a lot. 0:57:12.200 --> 0:57:15.759 And so it's just you know, unplug I would say, 0:57:15.800 --> 0:57:18.200 if you can, that's my tip of the day. 0:57:19.040 --> 0:57:22.040 This is unplugged from the Internet. That's affirmation unplugged from 0:57:22.040 --> 0:57:28.760 the ship. The affirmation is unplug from the Internet. 0:57:31.000 --> 0:57:33.400 Yeah, I think I'm gonna go camping next week. I think, 0:57:33.800 --> 0:57:36.000 I mean, I think what I need to utilize. 0:57:36.040 --> 0:57:39.200 I'm realizing that to utilize nature in the place in 0:57:39.200 --> 0:57:41.440 which I live, and not just reserve it for me 0:57:41.440 --> 0:57:42.360 when I go to the jungle. 0:57:43.040 --> 0:57:44.760 No, And that's what I've been That's why I've said 0:57:44.760 --> 0:57:46.160 I've been going to the beach a lot. I live 0:57:46.280 --> 0:57:47.960 fucking near the beach. I was like, why am I 0:57:48.000 --> 0:57:50.440 not going to the beach more often? I mean, I 0:57:50.520 --> 0:57:53.360 knew I hadn't been to Malibu since the fires. 0:57:53.600 --> 0:57:54.840 How is it? Does it feel? 0:57:54.960 --> 0:57:56.280 I didn't go to the like so when you go 0:57:56.320 --> 0:57:58.800 over my canyon to the left is where all the 0:57:58.800 --> 0:57:59.320 fires were. 0:57:59.520 --> 0:58:00.280 I go to the right. 0:58:00.720 --> 0:58:04.720 And yesterday I can't no. On On Sunday, I went 0:58:04.720 --> 0:58:07.920 to Zooma zoom and it was beautiful. Really, it was 0:58:08.040 --> 0:58:08.560 so nice. 0:58:08.600 --> 0:58:09.680 The water was blue. 0:58:10.120 --> 0:58:12.800 It was like Zuoma reminds me of my childhood too. 0:58:12.800 --> 0:58:14.200 I spent so much of my child I don't know 0:58:14.200 --> 0:58:15.280 why everyone was going to Zooma. 0:58:15.560 --> 0:58:16.840 I would as a child too. 0:58:16.880 --> 0:58:18.400 I know, I'm say she came to he was like 0:58:18.480 --> 0:58:20.440 this was my beach. I'm like, why was everyone going 0:58:20.480 --> 0:58:20.880 to zoom? 0:58:20.920 --> 0:58:22.600 I guess I was a little bit outside of the city, 0:58:22.600 --> 0:58:24.280 so the water is supposed to be a little bit better. 0:58:24.600 --> 0:58:24.840 Yeah. 0:58:25.440 --> 0:58:28.240 So anyway, I've been I've been doing that as much 0:58:28.240 --> 0:58:29.919 as I can, as much as I can, and it does. 0:58:29.960 --> 0:58:32.400 It feels good. I feel like my transition from Costa 0:58:32.480 --> 0:58:33.880 Rica to here has been pretty nice. 0:58:34.080 --> 0:58:37.480 Like it hasn't been. It's like we had those days off. 0:58:37.840 --> 0:58:41.000 Iri was at camp. I came back and it's been 0:58:41.120 --> 0:58:46.200 like smooth, smooth sailing. Typically it's like coming back in 0:58:46.280 --> 0:58:49.360 after a retreat in January and I have I'm in 0:58:49.680 --> 0:58:51.800 Q one of our business and I have to get 0:58:51.840 --> 0:58:54.680 back plug back in the team is like brand partnership. 0:58:54.720 --> 0:58:57.960 So it's a little bit different in the summertime. But 0:58:58.760 --> 0:59:01.560 I would encourage you guys, if your kids are out 0:59:01.600 --> 0:59:04.240 of school, this is the time to go plug into nature. 0:59:05.000 --> 0:59:07.920 Like if you've got to bring your laptop for work and. 0:59:07.880 --> 0:59:09.960 Do a few hours of work, do that. But you 0:59:10.040 --> 0:59:12.480 have the opportunity of like a free, open schedule and 0:59:12.560 --> 0:59:14.120 open day, take advantage of it. 0:59:15.800 --> 0:59:16.000 Yeah. 0:59:16.360 --> 0:59:19.920 I really just want to live my life in peace 0:59:20.240 --> 0:59:23.840 and just do it. Intentionally, so it doesn't feel I 0:59:23.880 --> 0:59:27.000 don't want to be on my deathbed and be like, wow, 0:59:27.040 --> 0:59:28.920 I was rushing, Where was I going? 0:59:29.400 --> 0:59:30.800 Everything was moving so fast? 0:59:30.840 --> 0:59:32.680 I want to be like I mean, I know, I know, 0:59:32.880 --> 0:59:35.560 like we I live such a full life, you know, 0:59:35.680 --> 0:59:38.320 like we have such a good friends, We do fun shit. 0:59:38.760 --> 0:59:41.160 This is everything that I manifested, you know, so like 0:59:41.240 --> 0:59:44.160 being present in that too, and just yeah, like in 0:59:44.280 --> 0:59:47.600 just the environment what we live outside of the internet, 0:59:47.680 --> 0:59:51.640 outside of that, and just in nature, in this fucking 0:59:51.720 --> 0:59:54.640 city that we pay thousands of dollars of taxes for 0:59:54.840 --> 0:59:55.840 and rent. 0:59:56.480 --> 1:00:00.320 So just yeah, fucking adult. 1:00:00.920 --> 1:00:03.320 Yeah, do that, but then also be disciplined and get 1:00:03.320 --> 1:00:05.440 your shit done so that you can do that right, 1:00:06.160 --> 1:00:08.200 you know, like make all the coins you can so 1:00:08.240 --> 1:00:11.959 that you can fucking retire early. Shrink your life down. 1:00:12.000 --> 1:00:14.040 I feel like that's like something I've been thinking about 1:00:14.040 --> 1:00:16.680 a lot too. It's like not that like I wouldn't 1:00:16.720 --> 1:00:18.080 want to dream big and I don't want to have 1:00:18.160 --> 1:00:21.240 like you know, I'm not like shrinking my dreams down. 1:00:21.320 --> 1:00:24.439 It's more so like my need for things, like I've 1:00:24.880 --> 1:00:26.520 I feel like I've gotten to a place where I've 1:00:26.560 --> 1:00:28.640 acquired a lot of things that I asked for. But 1:00:28.680 --> 1:00:30.600 then it's like I didn't think about the maintaining of 1:00:30.640 --> 1:00:33.280 these things, and how unhappy it's made. 1:00:33.480 --> 1:00:35.680 It's making me to have to maintain all. 1:00:35.560 --> 1:00:38.640 Of these things when like, really like the richness of 1:00:38.720 --> 1:00:40.720 life is in the experiences. 1:00:40.760 --> 1:00:42.920 The richness of life is like how you live, of. 1:00:42.880 --> 1:00:46.240 Course, but like simplicity, Yeah, there's like there's more simplicity 1:00:46.280 --> 1:00:49.200 to it, Like and if you if you simplify your 1:00:49.200 --> 1:00:51.240 life that you can buy that first class ticket to 1:00:51.440 --> 1:00:55.240 Paris because you're not paying seven thousand dollars of rent 1:00:55.400 --> 1:00:59.840 back home, you know, So it's like reimagining like what 1:01:00.000 --> 1:01:04.640 but like richness looks like in your life? And because 1:01:04.680 --> 1:01:07.880 I've been thinking about like, yeah, the maintaining of life 1:01:07.920 --> 1:01:10.320 and like how are people doing this till they're like sixty, 1:01:10.360 --> 1:01:12.600 Like especially in this economy now, it's so much different 1:01:12.600 --> 1:01:15.439 than when our parents were our grandparents. 1:01:14.840 --> 1:01:17.040 Were alive, Like how are people retiring? 1:01:17.160 --> 1:01:20.240 Like honestly and literally and like feeling good about it, 1:01:20.400 --> 1:01:23.160 feeling like I can still live how I lived. And 1:01:23.200 --> 1:01:26.120 I think it's like when you get older, you actually 1:01:26.160 --> 1:01:28.880 just realize you don't need all this shit, and you 1:01:29.120 --> 1:01:33.760 just slowly start to simplify your life until you're like 1:01:34.120 --> 1:01:37.320 living on a farm in Montana that you bought in 1:01:37.360 --> 1:01:39.840 your early thirties that you never thought you'd really live 1:01:39.880 --> 1:01:40.960 at and it's. 1:01:40.800 --> 1:01:44.760 Fine and you're actually better off and you're TechEd away. 1:01:45.040 --> 1:01:48.320 So I'm trying to get to that place sooner, yeah 1:01:48.440 --> 1:01:52.640 than sixty five to seventy. I do feel like simplicity. 1:01:52.760 --> 1:01:57.200 I do feel like, yeah, simple shit, simple, simple, simple. 1:01:57.520 --> 1:01:59.120 But I do have things to do while I'm here, 1:02:00.760 --> 1:02:04.320 and I love what I do, So yeah, I'm remembering that, 1:02:04.440 --> 1:02:08.640 you know, like I we get to travel, we get 1:02:08.680 --> 1:02:10.840 to make friends, we get to heal, we get to 1:02:11.160 --> 1:02:14.480 play in a lot of different like different parts of ourselves. 1:02:14.800 --> 1:02:16.360 We get to sit and talk to each other in 1:02:16.400 --> 1:02:19.280 our studio and put on makeup and our kids are 1:02:19.280 --> 1:02:23.360 in the other room and like barbecue and you know, 1:02:23.480 --> 1:02:25.440 like all the fun things that we do in our 1:02:25.560 --> 1:02:27.560 friend group. And I'm like, I'm grateful for that. I 1:02:27.600 --> 1:02:30.120 recognize that this is a gift. We don't have to 1:02:30.160 --> 1:02:33.160 go clock in and you know, and there's there's there's 1:02:33.360 --> 1:02:35.360 pros and there's cons, But for the most part, this 1:02:35.520 --> 1:02:37.600 is what I. 1:02:37.120 --> 1:02:42.640 Envisioned in ways talking for a living hanging out with 1:02:42.680 --> 1:02:43.440 my friend. 1:02:45.560 --> 1:02:47.040 And pull a card. It's a terroot time. 1:02:47.240 --> 1:02:48.120 It is terroot time. 1:02:48.640 --> 1:03:02.680 Go ahead, okay. Resilience, courage, persistence, test of faith boundaries. 1:03:05.760 --> 1:03:08.440 It says, the nine of Wands comes as a sign 1:03:08.480 --> 1:03:11.400 that even in the face of adversity, you stand tall 1:03:11.480 --> 1:03:14.480 and strong. You may be on the edge of exhaustion, 1:03:14.600 --> 1:03:16.720 but you are resilient, persistent, and ready to do what 1:03:16.760 --> 1:03:19.080 it takes to get to the finish line. This card 1:03:19.120 --> 1:03:22.080 may also come when you feel battered and bruised, having 1:03:22.200 --> 1:03:25.720 endured significant challenges and struggles along your path. Just when 1:03:25.760 --> 1:03:28.480 you think you're making progress, you suffer another setback. 1:03:28.760 --> 1:03:30.000 The Nine of Wands. 1:03:29.680 --> 1:03:32.440 Asks you to trust that it trusts that this is 1:03:32.520 --> 1:03:35.240 merely a test of your grit and resilience, and know 1:03:35.320 --> 1:03:38.480 that every time you overcome an obstacle, you're getting stronger. 1:03:38.760 --> 1:03:41.760 You have the inner resources necessary to overcome any difficult 1:03:42.120 --> 1:03:45.640 any difficulty you encounter, even though it may seem impossible 1:03:45.680 --> 1:03:48.600 at the time. See this nine as an assurance that 1:03:48.640 --> 1:03:51.920 you will eventually prosper if you maintain your position, and 1:03:51.960 --> 1:03:54.200 if you do not succeed at first, then try again 1:03:55.320 --> 1:03:57.760 and encourage you to keep pushing. You are also close 1:03:57.800 --> 1:04:00.360 to the You're so close to the finish line, even 1:04:00.360 --> 1:04:01.840 if you want to give up. This is your final 1:04:01.920 --> 1:04:04.160 challenge before you reach your goal. So don't let go 1:04:04.200 --> 1:04:06.480 of your hopes and dreams when you are so close 1:04:06.520 --> 1:04:08.880 to making them a reality. Stand firm in the face 1:04:08.880 --> 1:04:12.440 of your challenges, and you will achieve your goal. Others 1:04:12.440 --> 1:04:15.160 may try to oppose your plans, make things difficult for you, 1:04:15.280 --> 1:04:17.240 or even attack you for what you're putting out into 1:04:17.280 --> 1:04:19.760 the world. Often they do it because they're jealous of 1:04:19.800 --> 1:04:22.600 your success or rare, or are projecting their own insecurities 1:04:22.600 --> 1:04:25.120 and fears on you. Don't let them get to you. 1:04:25.120 --> 1:04:27.480 You're a change maker and you have a vital message 1:04:27.520 --> 1:04:29.840 to share in this world. Don't dim your light because 1:04:29.840 --> 1:04:33.760 of others insecurities. Okay, it doesn't look as sad as 1:04:33.760 --> 1:04:36.440 he is. You're almost there. Just like we said, just 1:04:36.520 --> 1:04:41.040 keep going, Just keep going. Does that resonate with you? 1:04:41.960 --> 1:04:45.840 I don't feel battered and bruised, but yeah, I do 1:04:45.920 --> 1:04:56.120 feel like there's like a push right now for completion and. 1:04:58.840 --> 1:05:02.919 Knowing that there's more that I want to expand upon 1:05:02.960 --> 1:05:05.160 even in this space that I haven't really had the 1:05:05.160 --> 1:05:09.920 opportunity to, and that I wanted to. I wanted to 1:05:09.960 --> 1:05:13.360 feel good, I wanted to feel in play. But I 1:05:13.400 --> 1:05:15.720 also know that there's like a level of like focus 1:05:15.760 --> 1:05:19.720 that it requires, So I guess I resonate with that. 1:05:20.080 --> 1:05:24.120 Yeah, I definitely feel like there's a shift happening, like 1:05:24.160 --> 1:05:26.400 there's I mean, I guess there's shit is always changing. 1:05:26.560 --> 1:05:28.200 Change is the one thing that's consistent. 1:05:28.240 --> 1:05:30.760 But yeah, in my I guess maybe because I just 1:05:30.760 --> 1:05:33.840 had a birthday and just where we're at in the world, 1:05:33.880 --> 1:05:36.280 but I do think there's like an awakening and a 1:05:36.360 --> 1:05:40.000 shifting happening and it's like a transitional time. 1:05:40.680 --> 1:05:41.200 Yeah. 1:05:41.520 --> 1:05:43.760 Sure, can you guys write in and give us hories 1:05:43.760 --> 1:05:45.280 I need, we need your horse stories. 1:05:45.040 --> 1:05:46.960 Riding your horries. If you have any hories, make sure 1:05:46.960 --> 1:05:48.880 you write them in. Well, actually, there's a link that 1:05:48.920 --> 1:05:50.600 will put in this episode description where. 1:05:50.480 --> 1:05:51.880 You can write in your hories. 1:05:51.880 --> 1:05:53.560 You can write in your bad choices of the week. 1:05:53.840 --> 1:05:56.560 Make sure you join our Facebook group. We have a 1:05:56.560 --> 1:05:58.880 retreat coming up you guys at the end of the month. 1:05:58.920 --> 1:06:01.720 We have a few more spots left. If you miss 1:06:01.760 --> 1:06:05.000 the sale for a memorial Memorial Day, whatever the fucking 1:06:05.040 --> 1:06:07.720 stupid ass to day that it was, and you want 1:06:07.720 --> 1:06:10.400 to escape with us. We've extended the discount code, so 1:06:10.400 --> 1:06:12.040 if you still want to use it, you can get 1:06:12.040 --> 1:06:14.400 eight hundred dollars off your trip when you use code escape. 1:06:14.480 --> 1:06:16.360 If you're like, fuck, I need a summer trip, I 1:06:16.360 --> 1:06:17.160 don't know where to go. 1:06:17.440 --> 1:06:18.640 Stop waiting for your friends. 1:06:18.880 --> 1:06:21.040 Fuck those bitches and come hang out with us and 1:06:21.080 --> 1:06:22.800 find a new tribe of bitches to hang out with. 1:06:24.000 --> 1:06:26.439 It's going to be in Costa Rica July thirty first 1:06:26.440 --> 1:06:29.880 through August fifth. We also have August eighth through the thirteenth. 1:06:29.960 --> 1:06:32.000 We have a few solo rooms left. We have a 1:06:32.040 --> 1:06:33.680 few shared rooms left, so if you do want to 1:06:33.680 --> 1:06:35.080 come with your homegirl, you can come, or if you 1:06:35.120 --> 1:06:38.040 want to share a room with a new homegirl, that's 1:06:38.080 --> 1:06:38.600 great too. 1:06:39.920 --> 1:06:42.080 If you're thinking this is very last minute and I 1:06:42.120 --> 1:06:43.680 am not going to be able to leave next week, 1:06:43.720 --> 1:06:47.040 you can because we've extended payments so you don't have 1:06:47.080 --> 1:06:48.680 to have it all paid by the thirty first. I 1:06:48.800 --> 1:06:51.200 realized that's in two weeks, but if you need a 1:06:51.200 --> 1:06:53.800 little more time, you have the option to do that. 1:06:53.880 --> 1:06:56.960 You can also get your friends and your family to 1:06:57.040 --> 1:06:59.800 contribute to your trip because there's a link for that, 1:07:00.360 --> 1:07:03.640 so utilize your tribe and your family. If you got 1:07:03.640 --> 1:07:05.560 a birthday coming up, let them know that's what you 1:07:05.560 --> 1:07:08.600 want for your birthday. But don't make excuses. Invest in 1:07:08.640 --> 1:07:11.800 your rest, invest in doing something different, like when you 1:07:11.800 --> 1:07:14.760 step outside of the box. Beautiful things happen when you 1:07:14.760 --> 1:07:16.440 say yes. And a lot of people are like, I 1:07:16.440 --> 1:07:18.160 wouldn't go on no trip, But no, bitches, I don't know. 1:07:18.880 --> 1:07:23.400 I've done it fifteen times and it's literally so much 1:07:23.440 --> 1:07:25.440 fun to meet new people and going on an adventure 1:07:25.600 --> 1:07:28.720 of you know, just the unknown and let somebody else 1:07:28.840 --> 1:07:31.160 plan everything for you. You don't have to do shit, 1:07:31.360 --> 1:07:32.680 you don't have to think about meals, you don't have 1:07:32.720 --> 1:07:35.120 to think about transportation, you want to think about activities. 1:07:35.360 --> 1:07:37.400 It's all provided for you. And that's the type of 1:07:37.440 --> 1:07:38.560 vacation I want to have. 1:07:39.440 --> 1:07:41.880 And you know, I think, like we used to post 1:07:43.120 --> 1:07:46.360 testimonials of the women from the retreat. If you go 1:07:46.400 --> 1:07:49.560 back in our episodes, you can listen to a few testimonials. 1:07:49.560 --> 1:07:52.000 But maybe we'll just share a testimonial at the end 1:07:52.040 --> 1:07:55.640 of this episode, just so you understand from someone else 1:07:55.680 --> 1:07:59.280 that has fully experienced this retreat what it does is 1:07:59.320 --> 1:08:00.880 all about. Because I think some people are like, what's 1:08:00.920 --> 1:08:03.680 going on there? What's happening. It's kind of hard, it's 1:08:03.720 --> 1:08:05.840 like hard to explain. You kind of like got to 1:08:05.920 --> 1:08:08.480 be there to get it. But we have some really 1:08:08.520 --> 1:08:11.200 beautiful testimonials from people that have come. If you go 1:08:11.240 --> 1:08:14.080 and check out our retreat site, we have five star reviews, 1:08:14.440 --> 1:08:19.160 five stars from all of our attendees. So don't take 1:08:19.200 --> 1:08:21.040 it from us, Take it from the other people that 1:08:21.080 --> 1:08:23.640 have come. Take it from the women whose lives have 1:08:23.800 --> 1:08:27.439 changed after this retreat, whose partners have now come to 1:08:27.479 --> 1:08:29.880 our retreat and the couple's retreat because their partners saw 1:08:30.040 --> 1:08:33.080 the transformation in their women, and we're like, fuck that 1:08:33.120 --> 1:08:33.880 we need to go to. 1:08:35.560 --> 1:08:37.639 Anyway. I hope that I see you guys in Costa Rica, 1:08:37.680 --> 1:08:41.320 because I'll be there and you should too. I'll definitely 1:08:41.360 --> 1:08:43.880 be there. And if we're there and you're on the 1:08:43.920 --> 1:08:45.800 stories and you're seeing us living our best lives, you're 1:08:45.800 --> 1:08:47.120 gonna be mad you didn't just. 1:08:47.320 --> 1:08:48.880 Especially because you didn't even have to pay for it 1:08:48.880 --> 1:08:52.120 all at one time. Girl, Come on, yeah, don't make excuses. 1:08:52.560 --> 1:08:54.839 Treat yourself, don't cheat yourself. 1:08:56.080 --> 1:08:59.640 Anyway. You can follow me at watch Erica. You can 1:08:59.680 --> 1:09:04.800 follow me on TikTok At. Watch Erica Cole and make 1:09:04.840 --> 1:09:11.120 sure you follow Mela Mila Underscore, map and rate and 1:09:11.120 --> 1:09:15.439 review this episode. Go subscribe on YouTube and share us 1:09:15.439 --> 1:09:19.040 with your friends. 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So do us a favor, 1:09:52.120 --> 1:09:55.160 write a review, tell a friend. If you have any mom, 1:09:55.240 --> 1:09:57.760 any upcoming moms, give them a Good Mom's Guide to 1:09:57.800 --> 1:10:01.320 making Bad Choices. Because this it's the book for the 1:10:01.320 --> 1:10:03.320 moms to be and the moms who are already momming 1:10:03.320 --> 1:10:10.519 and maybe haven't read it yet. So Amazon, no Okay, 1:10:11.400 --> 1:10:16.680 or a black bookstore. Malik anyway, we love you and 1:10:16.720 --> 1:10:17.559 we'll see you next week. 1:10:17.840 --> 1:10:19.400 Bye please. 1:10:20.080 --> 1:10:23.280 Yeah, I'm living so good. Can't you tell I went 1:10:23.320 --> 1:10:25.640 through a drought. That's until I find out, well, may my. 1:10:25.720 --> 1:10:26.240 Have been known? 1:10:26.280 --> 1:10:28.519 Earth that used to be broken tail now got the 1:10:28.560 --> 1:10:31.560 blues in to like Beyonce Jasell throat shot or the 1:10:31.600 --> 1:10:34.519 Pop and his Cow wearing our voices. Patriarchy kept it 1:10:34.560 --> 1:10:36.960 in the box to exploit its women put the pee 1:10:37.040 --> 1:10:37.960 and powers. 1:10:37.680 --> 1:10:38.479 So what's pointless? 1:10:38.520 --> 1:10:39.599 They want me to be good? 1:10:39.640 --> 1:10:41.160 So I made bad choices. 1:10:41.280 --> 1:10:43.000 Bad mom, not a bad mom. 1:10:42.880 --> 1:10:45.640 But a bad mom. Ititter's in on, put cannabis in 1:10:45.720 --> 1:10:46.120 their bath. 1:10:46.200 --> 1:10:48.720 Bon walked in Bostons cap and I blew his cat 1:10:48.800 --> 1:10:52.080 ball tied dog. Now I'm immune to the cat called Herbie, 1:10:52.120 --> 1:10:54.519 and no waisted straight to it like a dollar sign. Mother, 1:10:54.600 --> 1:10:56.800 rent the lover when too, It's like a water sign 1:10:56.880 --> 1:10:59.480 where you're rent the winter essential will win the summertime. 1:10:59.640 --> 1:11:01.400 I do at all. Ain't no one that needs to 1:11:01.479 --> 1:11:02.000 run it by