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Speaker 1: it's Ashley and I'm joined here by the woman of

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Speaker 1: the hour, one of my favorite bachelorets ever, and there's

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Speaker 1: only been two episodes thus far, Hannah Brown. Hey, al right, Hannah,

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Speaker 1: Before we get into it, my first question to you

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Speaker 1: is I keep equating you to that girl in high

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Speaker 1: school who like, was not smooth with guys, who like

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Speaker 1: like another way, yeah, and then you'd like, you'd like,

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Speaker 1: look into your locker, You're like, I don't see him coming.

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Speaker 1: But was this you? Or am I making up this

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Speaker 1: illusion of you? Okay, I'll tell you high school, Hannah.

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Speaker 1: High school, Hannah was s a president, homecoming queen, all

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Speaker 1: these things, but so not that shy, so not shy.

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Speaker 1: But when it came to boys, No, I didn't have

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Speaker 1: my first kiss. Tell seventeen. I only had one boyfriend,

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Speaker 1: one and a half boyfriends in high school and and

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Speaker 1: it would take everything in me to actually look at

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Speaker 1: them go down the hall when I first like them,

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Speaker 1: And in class I was known as that. My whole

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Speaker 1: I mean the whole school talks about me. Is like

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Speaker 1: untouchable because I just would like, don't talk to me,

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Speaker 1: turn the other way. They're looking at me. They're looking

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Speaker 1: at me. I should start writing my name. It was

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Speaker 1: so bad. Okay, so my dream is a reality. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: you are that relatable girl. Yeah, I was. I put

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Speaker 1: them in friends in, like I would be friends with

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Speaker 1: the guys. When they started flirting with me, No, no, no, no,

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Speaker 1: I got awkward. Really, yeah, you friend zone guys that

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Speaker 1: just like hang out with them, shoot the bull, you know,

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Speaker 1: and then when they started flirting, I'm like, oh, go ahead. Ever, so, then,

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Speaker 1: how did it happen that you started dating your first

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Speaker 1: boyfriend wasn't seventeen? Yeah? Uh. He was best friends with

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Speaker 1: one of my best girlfriends, and so we would all

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Speaker 1: hang out together and then somehow he told the friend

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Speaker 1: then I don't really remember our first date. If I

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Speaker 1: had texting in high school, yeah, it was. It was,

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Speaker 1: but it was all because I was hanging out in

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Speaker 1: but also his friend liked me to his very you know,

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Speaker 1: one serious boyfriend though for a while, and that was

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Speaker 1: your only serious boyfriend going into the Bachelor right, too

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Speaker 1: serious boyfriends, but one for like a really like for

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Speaker 1: a while. And I met him in high school. I

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Speaker 1: I'm gonna marry him, and she was like, oh my gosh.

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Speaker 1: So then how we started flirting was playing cards in

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Speaker 1: Spanish class and both boyfriends in high school. Uh no,

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Speaker 1: just this. That was the first boyfriend we don't talk

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Speaker 1: about because he was nothing, yeah, nothing and stupid um.

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Speaker 1: talk to him from ninth grade until senior year in

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Speaker 1: high school. And then we had our next class together.

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Speaker 1: just texted me one day randomly and I was like,

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Speaker 1: I have been trouble. The next serious relationship I had,

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Speaker 1: I ended up breaking that one off because I still

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Speaker 1: I loved him. I loved that guy, but I knew

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Speaker 1: a nice So it's fine, I'm here now. And how

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Speaker 1: far was that from when you signed up for Colton

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Speaker 1: Susan Like a year and a half, I think so Honestly,

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Speaker 1: I was just like not dating, not doing this, focusing

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Speaker 1: I want to do this this way? I don't know yet,

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Speaker 1: but we'll just see where it goes. And obviously it

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Speaker 1: went well. But yeah, I'm so glad that I had

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Speaker 1: in my life that I was It wasn't Hannah and somebody.

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Speaker 1: It was just Hannah and figuring out what do I

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Speaker 1: like to do on Saturday and what type of movies

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Speaker 1: let a lot of guys validate who I was and

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Speaker 1: then be ready to go into this. I'm super thankful

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Speaker 1: that I had that now, knowing where I am now

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Speaker 1: because I learned from all those experiences but also took

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Speaker 1: what does Hannah do on a Saturday and what kind

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Speaker 1: of movies do you use? Okay, my perfect Saturday would

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Speaker 1: probably be to do some type of workout, but not

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Speaker 1: like I'm done, let's go the next thing. We're cool. Now.

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Speaker 1: Did I ever tell you that um, a very special

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Speaker 1: it's like make me laugh, let's go do some of

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Speaker 1: I think it was just finally we all got on

426
00:24:41,880 --> 00:24:45,480
Speaker 1: the same page with everything. But it took a little

427
00:24:45,480 --> 00:24:49,360
Speaker 1: while because I had a new team that hadn't been

428
00:24:49,400 --> 00:24:53,480
Speaker 1: on the Bachelor, like Bachelor Bachelor at lead side, and

429
00:24:53,720 --> 00:24:57,359
Speaker 1: we just all had super comfortable So just to explain

430
00:24:57,440 --> 00:25:00,199
Speaker 1: to the audience, there are some Bachelor producer is that

431
00:25:00,240 --> 00:25:02,920
Speaker 1: deal with the cast and they become like your very

432
00:25:02,960 --> 00:25:05,639
Speaker 1: best friends there and then you never really got to

433
00:25:05,680 --> 00:25:10,000
Speaker 1: know the producers that handle the lead And I've always

434
00:25:10,080 --> 00:25:15,199
Speaker 1: wondered how they would do that, because even in Paradise,

435
00:25:15,320 --> 00:25:16,679
Speaker 1: I'd be like, oh, I don't want to talk to

436
00:25:16,720 --> 00:25:19,040
Speaker 1: so and so because I don't really know them. And

437
00:25:19,080 --> 00:25:21,760
Speaker 1: in Winter Games, like especially since I was like four

438
00:25:21,880 --> 00:25:25,280
Speaker 1: years removed, you know, four years ingrained with some of

439
00:25:25,280 --> 00:25:27,119
Speaker 1: these people, I was like, I can't talk to the

440
00:25:27,160 --> 00:25:29,000
Speaker 1: new person. I will be able to give you what

441
00:25:29,080 --> 00:25:33,639
Speaker 1: you want. Yeah. So I got super close with my

442
00:25:33,720 --> 00:25:36,840
Speaker 1: producers when I was on Colton season and even like

443
00:25:38,440 --> 00:25:40,520
Speaker 1: on and like I was just close with like the

444
00:25:40,520 --> 00:25:43,600
Speaker 1: the execs that like have other jobs to do too

445
00:25:43,800 --> 00:25:47,320
Speaker 1: and can't just go into my sessions of breakdowns. But

446
00:25:48,160 --> 00:25:51,159
Speaker 1: so I did not. When I got the call that

447
00:25:51,960 --> 00:25:54,240
Speaker 1: it was me but I would have different producers, I

448
00:25:54,240 --> 00:25:56,119
Speaker 1: was like, well, why can't this person interview me? Like

449
00:25:57,000 --> 00:25:59,920
Speaker 1: we had to literally have a meat like a conversation

450
00:26:00,080 --> 00:26:03,000
Speaker 1: and of like I'm handing you over, but I'm working

451
00:26:03,040 --> 00:26:04,960
Speaker 1: to find I know you the most, so like I

452
00:26:05,040 --> 00:26:08,959
Speaker 1: want to work with your guys to help you. And

453
00:26:09,040 --> 00:26:11,440
Speaker 1: so then I had to have a phone call with

454
00:26:11,920 --> 00:26:13,840
Speaker 1: my new producers and it was like a two hour

455
00:26:13,920 --> 00:26:17,080
Speaker 1: phone call about like I'm really struggling with this. I'm

456
00:26:17,080 --> 00:26:19,520
Speaker 1: really struggling with you being my producer. Yeah, Like I

457
00:26:19,600 --> 00:26:21,200
Speaker 1: was very honest. I was like, I'm really struggling with

458
00:26:21,200 --> 00:26:23,399
Speaker 1: you being my producer and like me being able to

459
00:26:23,560 --> 00:26:28,120
Speaker 1: really give you what you want. But after it took

460
00:26:28,320 --> 00:26:31,360
Speaker 1: a little while and them to understand like I'm not

461
00:26:32,440 --> 00:26:35,760
Speaker 1: like why I do, why I react certain why I

462
00:26:35,800 --> 00:26:38,879
Speaker 1: react some ways to certain things. But then after that

463
00:26:38,920 --> 00:26:41,680
Speaker 1: it was smooth sailing, and I am like I love

464
00:26:41,760 --> 00:26:46,439
Speaker 1: my family, like I love everybody that helped me throughout

465
00:26:46,520 --> 00:26:49,480
Speaker 1: the entire thing. Like we have such a bonding experience

466
00:26:49,560 --> 00:26:52,080
Speaker 1: that like never will take away from the people that

467
00:26:52,119 --> 00:26:55,159
Speaker 1: I was close to. Um on the other side on

468
00:26:55,400 --> 00:26:59,040
Speaker 1: Colton season, but we just lived through some together. Let

469
00:26:59,040 --> 00:27:03,720
Speaker 1: me tell you, like, yeah we did, and so just

470
00:27:03,840 --> 00:27:07,159
Speaker 1: I think it helped me be more successful and then

471
00:27:07,240 --> 00:27:10,320
Speaker 1: be more successful at their job. Really like digging in

472
00:27:10,400 --> 00:27:13,639
Speaker 1: and figuring out, like, all right, this is where we

473
00:27:13,640 --> 00:27:15,720
Speaker 1: need to change things. Yes, maybe this is how it's

474
00:27:15,720 --> 00:27:18,600
Speaker 1: been done before for fifteen years, but I'm a new

475
00:27:18,640 --> 00:27:22,359
Speaker 1: I'm an individual, I'm different, and let's do this because

476
00:27:22,359 --> 00:27:25,359
Speaker 1: this is how Hannah works better. And is there an

477
00:27:25,400 --> 00:27:27,800
Speaker 1: example of something that they've been doing for fifteen years

478
00:27:27,800 --> 00:27:29,480
Speaker 1: that you were just like that doesn't work for me?

479
00:27:30,800 --> 00:27:38,280
Speaker 1: Oh my god, let me think. Um, so, I I

480
00:27:38,320 --> 00:27:40,320
Speaker 1: feel like I'm I'm I don't want to be like, oh,

481
00:27:40,400 --> 00:27:41,879
Speaker 1: I'm so good at this, but like I'm pretty good

482
00:27:41,880 --> 00:27:45,720
Speaker 1: at my interviews, like I know what to say. Never

483
00:27:45,760 --> 00:27:48,439
Speaker 1: somebody who dreaded going into interviews. I never did before.

484
00:27:48,960 --> 00:27:52,000
Speaker 1: But then on this side, when it became very like

485
00:27:52,720 --> 00:27:55,800
Speaker 1: narration and I felt like they were putting. I felt

486
00:27:55,800 --> 00:27:57,679
Speaker 1: like words were being put in my mouth. I was like, uh,

487
00:27:58,119 --> 00:28:00,840
Speaker 1: asked me a question, let me roll, Like, let me roll,

488
00:28:01,240 --> 00:28:03,119
Speaker 1: I will tell you about how fun this date is.

489
00:28:03,400 --> 00:28:06,920
Speaker 1: I'll be happy, I'll be excited, I'll be in I'll

490
00:28:06,960 --> 00:28:10,439
Speaker 1: be a little lovey dovey. Then I'll have sass, like

491
00:28:10,600 --> 00:28:13,399
Speaker 1: just let's make it a conversation. Don't put words in

492
00:28:13,440 --> 00:28:15,440
Speaker 1: my mouth of what like, we know that post wants

493
00:28:15,440 --> 00:28:18,439
Speaker 1: to hear. They just wanted to be concise so that

494
00:28:18,480 --> 00:28:20,280
Speaker 1: they can just like clip it and it makes sense

495
00:28:20,280 --> 00:28:22,679
Speaker 1: in the episode, but they don't need you to roll forever.

496
00:28:22,720 --> 00:28:26,159
Speaker 1: But I told all right, we gotta let her do

497
00:28:26,200 --> 00:28:29,439
Speaker 1: her thing, and then it was it was great, Like

498
00:28:29,600 --> 00:28:32,600
Speaker 1: I loved it. Um it just took and yeah, that

499
00:28:32,680 --> 00:28:34,560
Speaker 1: was just I think the interviews were what we had

500
00:28:34,600 --> 00:28:39,160
Speaker 1: to kind of get back on, like, Okay, some people

501
00:28:39,160 --> 00:28:41,560
Speaker 1: weren't better with us feeding of like this is what

502
00:28:41,560 --> 00:28:44,160
Speaker 1: we're gonna talk about. I don't need that. I want

503
00:28:44,160 --> 00:28:45,959
Speaker 1: the speed. Some people want to get in and get

504
00:28:46,000 --> 00:28:47,760
Speaker 1: out of there and you're like, no, I need this

505
00:28:47,800 --> 00:28:50,600
Speaker 1: thing that honestly. Um. I was talking to Sam and

506
00:28:50,640 --> 00:28:52,640
Speaker 1: she was like you're one that can hit all the

507
00:28:52,680 --> 00:28:56,200
Speaker 1: things that we need in like ten minutes. And so

508
00:28:56,240 --> 00:28:57,600
Speaker 1: I'd be like, they'd be like, all right, we have

509
00:28:57,640 --> 00:29:01,120
Speaker 1: a thirty minutes after this uh date that ended at

510
00:29:01,160 --> 00:29:02,959
Speaker 1: four o'clock. I'm like, I don't need I don't need

511
00:29:03,000 --> 00:29:04,520
Speaker 1: twenty minutes. I promise you I can get it to

512
00:29:04,520 --> 00:29:07,680
Speaker 1: you in ten and I would. And so like there

513
00:29:07,680 --> 00:29:09,760
Speaker 1: are certain things that like I was like, I need

514
00:29:09,920 --> 00:29:12,400
Speaker 1: I can do all this stuff to like narrate, but

515
00:29:12,440 --> 00:29:15,200
Speaker 1: then give me my thirty minutes to actually process my feelings.

516
00:29:16,000 --> 00:29:17,960
Speaker 1: So and then when once we work that out, it's like,

517
00:29:17,960 --> 00:29:20,120
Speaker 1: all right, we're gonna give you ten here, thirty here.

518
00:29:20,120 --> 00:29:22,600
Speaker 1: I was like, perfect, let's do it. That's when you

519
00:29:22,640 --> 00:29:25,000
Speaker 1: started getting rolling with it. Yeah. Do you see how

520
00:29:25,000 --> 00:29:27,200
Speaker 1: it's been thirty minutes and how I can literally go

521
00:29:27,240 --> 00:29:30,720
Speaker 1: on for another hour hour and a half. Yeah, no,

522
00:29:30,800 --> 00:29:32,880
Speaker 1: I mean see, I just was telling her that sometimes

523
00:29:32,880 --> 00:29:37,240
Speaker 1: he's in depths last for two hours and over, and

524
00:29:37,320 --> 00:29:38,800
Speaker 1: she's like, no way, what are you talk about for

525
00:29:38,840 --> 00:29:41,720
Speaker 1: that long? Because yeah, just everything, Well I think it's

526
00:29:42,280 --> 00:29:44,000
Speaker 1: you've been on this sidem so we can't we have

527
00:29:44,120 --> 00:29:48,760
Speaker 1: like this understanding. Um, And so it makes it any

528
00:29:48,800 --> 00:29:53,080
Speaker 1: like you're interested and somebody like understands. I wouldn't have

529
00:29:53,120 --> 00:29:55,440
Speaker 1: talked to people who actually understand it. It's been hard

530
00:29:55,440 --> 00:29:57,600
Speaker 1: to go back. I haven't talked to hardly anybody back

531
00:29:57,640 --> 00:30:01,520
Speaker 1: home because it's like we're don't even begin You don't

532
00:30:01,520 --> 00:30:04,560
Speaker 1: even know my everything, you don't know anything that's happened

533
00:30:04,560 --> 00:30:07,680
Speaker 1: to me. It's really hard to get back into normal

534
00:30:07,760 --> 00:30:10,520
Speaker 1: life with people who don't know this world. And I

535
00:30:10,560 --> 00:30:13,320
Speaker 1: think that's why we get so close, because nobody will

536
00:30:13,400 --> 00:30:16,960
Speaker 1: understand what we've been through except for each other. And

537
00:30:17,000 --> 00:30:19,160
Speaker 1: I remember when I got back from Crystals this season.

538
00:30:19,200 --> 00:30:21,200
Speaker 1: I think it took my took me six hours to

539
00:30:21,280 --> 00:30:23,360
Speaker 1: explain the entire four weeks to my mom. Took me

540
00:30:23,400 --> 00:30:25,560
Speaker 1: four hours. Okay, yeah, So I was like, I'll tell

541
00:30:25,600 --> 00:30:27,680
Speaker 1: the first two weeks here and then we'll go to sleep,

542
00:30:27,720 --> 00:30:29,000
Speaker 1: and then I'll tell you the rest of the morning,

543
00:30:29,040 --> 00:30:31,760
Speaker 1: I said, my mom, her best friend, and then my

544
00:30:31,840 --> 00:30:34,320
Speaker 1: two best friends. I said, all right, I'm doing this

545
00:30:34,360 --> 00:30:38,680
Speaker 1: one time. Here we go block block your day off

546
00:30:38,720 --> 00:30:40,840
Speaker 1: because I had my journal and said journal all the time.

547
00:30:40,880 --> 00:30:42,600
Speaker 1: So I had my journal. They're like, you should write that,

548
00:30:42,680 --> 00:30:44,520
Speaker 1: you should make a book of your journal because it

549
00:30:44,600 --> 00:30:47,560
Speaker 1: was hilarious, like the way that I wrote about things,

550
00:30:47,720 --> 00:30:49,840
Speaker 1: but it would be so in depth but then also

551
00:30:49,920 --> 00:30:51,920
Speaker 1: have like my funny. They're like, this is amazing. I

552
00:30:51,960 --> 00:30:54,560
Speaker 1: was like, I know, do I have that for this season? No?

553
00:30:55,080 --> 00:30:58,360
Speaker 1: Because it was either journal, sleep, work out, and I

554
00:30:58,400 --> 00:31:02,360
Speaker 1: was always sleep every time. So okay, of course, have

555
00:31:02,480 --> 00:31:05,560
Speaker 1: you given your parents the lowdown now? Because you didn't

556
00:31:05,560 --> 00:31:08,960
Speaker 1: get back into the States until like a week ago.

557
00:31:09,360 --> 00:31:11,440
Speaker 1: And what I think is so crazy and I think

558
00:31:11,520 --> 00:31:14,280
Speaker 1: kind of wonderful about this season is that you guys

559
00:31:14,440 --> 00:31:17,400
Speaker 1: actually finished filming just a couple of days before it

560
00:31:17,480 --> 00:31:20,520
Speaker 1: started airing, and it's never been I wasn't back when

561
00:31:21,080 --> 00:31:22,920
Speaker 1: you weren't even back for the first day, so I

562
00:31:22,960 --> 00:31:26,240
Speaker 1: didn't even get to watch it on like actual television.

563
00:31:26,240 --> 00:31:29,640
Speaker 1: I watched like an old cut no way. Yeah, that's

564
00:31:29,640 --> 00:31:32,640
Speaker 1: so crazy. I loved it because it leaves us spoiler free.

565
00:31:32,720 --> 00:31:35,200
Speaker 1: I still don't know what happens in the end, and

566
00:31:35,520 --> 00:31:40,040
Speaker 1: oftentimes for like us especially, I can't avoid the spoilers.

567
00:31:40,080 --> 00:31:42,920
Speaker 1: I'm going to try my very hardest to not know

568
00:31:42,960 --> 00:31:44,880
Speaker 1: who you end up with or if you end up

569
00:31:44,880 --> 00:31:47,840
Speaker 1: with anyone. Yeah, but I'm very excited and I like

570
00:31:47,880 --> 00:31:49,920
Speaker 1: the way that this has happened for you, But is

571
00:31:49,960 --> 00:31:53,160
Speaker 1: it weird that you haven't gotten any break because you

572
00:31:53,240 --> 00:31:55,400
Speaker 1: have gone straight from filming too, straight to your season

573
00:31:55,440 --> 00:31:59,320
Speaker 1: airing and how little family time have you had? Um? So,

574
00:31:59,440 --> 00:32:03,200
Speaker 1: I from the end of my season, I went straight

575
00:32:03,240 --> 00:32:05,680
Speaker 1: to New York to start press, Like it did your

576
00:32:05,680 --> 00:32:07,840
Speaker 1: parents met there? No, I haven't talked. I haven't seen

577
00:32:07,880 --> 00:32:14,280
Speaker 1: my parents yet. And honestly, wait what she says, rub

578
00:32:14,280 --> 00:32:19,160
Speaker 1: it in like they're awful? Yeah, I'm like whatever, um,

579
00:32:19,200 --> 00:32:23,080
Speaker 1: But honestly, I I like it because I'm used to

580
00:32:23,120 --> 00:32:25,680
Speaker 1: this schedule of like go, go, go go, and I

581
00:32:25,720 --> 00:32:29,000
Speaker 1: think if I whenever I take a break, I'm gonna crash.

582
00:32:29,040 --> 00:32:31,440
Speaker 1: But right now I'm loving I'm like, here we go,

583
00:32:31,520 --> 00:32:36,080
Speaker 1: give me my go go juice. I'm up six am. Perfect.

584
00:32:36,160 --> 00:32:40,600
Speaker 1: That's like speaking in now, you know. So I've really

585
00:32:40,720 --> 00:32:44,440
Speaker 1: enjoyed it, and I think my excitement from and everything

586
00:32:44,520 --> 00:32:46,600
Speaker 1: so fresh that I can go and to press and

587
00:32:46,640 --> 00:32:48,640
Speaker 1: I can talk about it because it just happened to me.

588
00:32:48,680 --> 00:32:50,479
Speaker 1: It's not like I'm having to think back of like

589
00:32:51,200 --> 00:32:53,800
Speaker 1: what was that, Um, how did that feel? It's like

590
00:32:53,840 --> 00:32:57,320
Speaker 1: I have all those feelings still, and so I think

591
00:32:57,320 --> 00:33:00,400
Speaker 1: it's been really great for me. I love doing press,

592
00:33:00,640 --> 00:33:05,160
Speaker 1: I love talking to people about my season, and I

593
00:33:05,200 --> 00:33:07,400
Speaker 1: think I get to go home in a few days

594
00:33:07,520 --> 00:33:09,600
Speaker 1: for a little while, but not for long. And I'm

595
00:33:09,680 --> 00:33:12,240
Speaker 1: okay with that because they're gonna want to know everything.

596
00:33:12,280 --> 00:33:15,440
Speaker 1: And I haven't told really anybody about the end of

597
00:33:15,440 --> 00:33:19,200
Speaker 1: my season. My parents kind of no, but not everything,

598
00:33:19,960 --> 00:33:22,280
Speaker 1: like like know who possibly, but they don't know like

599
00:33:22,280 --> 00:33:26,320
Speaker 1: how you got to that. They don't know really anything. Um,

600
00:33:26,400 --> 00:33:29,160
Speaker 1: and my friends, I've just told them. I just they

601
00:33:29,240 --> 00:33:32,160
Speaker 1: keep texting me and I'm like, I can't talk so busy,

602
00:33:32,320 --> 00:33:34,000
Speaker 1: I love you. And then they can see, oh wait,

603
00:33:34,080 --> 00:33:36,200
Speaker 1: she really is busy. But I just need time to

604
00:33:36,280 --> 00:33:40,600
Speaker 1: like decompressed myself first, and then they can watch that

605
00:33:40,840 --> 00:33:44,440
Speaker 1: seasons and then the whole season and the yeah explain

606
00:33:44,480 --> 00:33:46,280
Speaker 1: along the way of like, hey, this is what happened.

607
00:33:46,600 --> 00:33:48,000
Speaker 1: But I just I don't want to do that. I

608
00:33:48,080 --> 00:33:50,880
Speaker 1: want this. I want everybody to be surprised. I don't

609
00:33:50,880 --> 00:33:54,680
Speaker 1: want somebody to slip up and say something. I want

610
00:33:54,960 --> 00:33:57,400
Speaker 1: people to see my season the way that it kind

611
00:33:57,400 --> 00:34:00,440
Speaker 1: of happened for me. So all right, yeah, just do

612
00:34:00,520 --> 00:34:14,520
Speaker 1: a week by week. My last serious question, because I

613
00:34:14,560 --> 00:34:16,399
Speaker 1: think we usually go and reverse. We do the fun

614
00:34:16,520 --> 00:34:18,839
Speaker 1: stuff first, but we kind of just jumped right into

615
00:34:18,920 --> 00:34:23,280
Speaker 1: it since you are like in the depths already. Um,

616
00:34:23,280 --> 00:34:26,279
Speaker 1: what was like talk about that big realization that you had.

617
00:34:26,360 --> 00:34:29,239
Speaker 1: We've talked about it before. I think Demi helped you

618
00:34:29,360 --> 00:34:32,480
Speaker 1: get to that point, but it was the home It's

619
00:34:32,560 --> 00:34:35,960
Speaker 1: basically what taking the crown off symbolizes. You have like

620
00:34:36,000 --> 00:34:39,440
Speaker 1: that entire that amazing preview for your season about like

621
00:34:39,520 --> 00:34:42,760
Speaker 1: how like you stripped yourself of like that pageant queen

622
00:34:43,480 --> 00:34:46,319
Speaker 1: um persona, and then you're just like, this is me.

623
00:34:46,640 --> 00:34:49,200
Speaker 1: I Am just going to be true to myself. I

624
00:34:49,200 --> 00:34:52,560
Speaker 1: don't care what people think anymore, So like tell us

625
00:34:52,560 --> 00:34:55,440
Speaker 1: about how that happened and how it has progressed over

626
00:34:55,480 --> 00:34:59,040
Speaker 1: your Bachelor seasons. Well, it's first about the premier. Like

627
00:34:59,160 --> 00:35:03,239
Speaker 1: I'm so I was floored because that day I was like,

628
00:35:04,480 --> 00:35:06,680
Speaker 1: there's no way I don't understand this. I just like

629
00:35:06,719 --> 00:35:09,799
Speaker 1: a princess. And then when I finally watched it, I

630
00:35:09,840 --> 00:35:12,600
Speaker 1: was like, all right, that was amazing. It was the

631
00:35:12,640 --> 00:35:16,759
Speaker 1: coolest thing I've ever seen. You were Taylor Swift in

632
00:35:16,760 --> 00:35:18,919
Speaker 1: a music video. It was Yeah, I had I feel

633
00:35:18,920 --> 00:35:22,400
Speaker 1: like I have my own movie trailer. But even without

634
00:35:22,480 --> 00:35:25,560
Speaker 1: all that, I feel like they really did hit the

635
00:35:25,640 --> 00:35:30,000
Speaker 1: nail on the head of like the music, the how

636
00:35:30,000 --> 00:35:34,680
Speaker 1: how everything was put together, like everything and about just

637
00:35:34,719 --> 00:35:37,000
Speaker 1: like who I am, And I feel like it kind

638
00:35:37,000 --> 00:35:40,160
Speaker 1: of goes back to even like my relationships of I

639
00:35:40,280 --> 00:35:44,879
Speaker 1: let other people kind of I realized what people liked

640
00:35:44,920 --> 00:35:47,920
Speaker 1: about me and like what worked, and so I would

641
00:35:47,920 --> 00:35:52,640
Speaker 1: be that person in relationship in a room, um, for

642
00:35:52,680 --> 00:35:57,640
Speaker 1: an audience. But the thing is people always know a

643
00:35:57,680 --> 00:36:01,279
Speaker 1: little bit that something maybe off. Everybody was always like, oh,

644
00:36:01,320 --> 00:36:04,560
Speaker 1: she's great, she's this, But like I was always playing

645
00:36:04,600 --> 00:36:08,880
Speaker 1: for a crowd and not being completely myself because I

646
00:36:08,880 --> 00:36:11,440
Speaker 1: didn't know how people would actually respond or like who

647
00:36:11,520 --> 00:36:13,920
Speaker 1: I am, because they really like the person that I crafted,

648
00:36:14,520 --> 00:36:16,120
Speaker 1: but I didn't know if they would actually like me.

649
00:36:16,920 --> 00:36:23,319
Speaker 1: And um, I feel like I I always everybody talks

650
00:36:23,320 --> 00:36:25,080
Speaker 1: about my smile. It's like almost like creepy hall A

651
00:36:25,080 --> 00:36:27,880
Speaker 1: smile all the time. But I've always so genuine always

652
00:36:28,000 --> 00:36:31,320
Speaker 1: and it's not fake. But when I really was hurting

653
00:36:31,960 --> 00:36:35,640
Speaker 1: or upset, it's almost just like natural to have a smile,

654
00:36:35,719 --> 00:36:38,880
Speaker 1: and so nobody ever would ask like are you okay

655
00:36:39,000 --> 00:36:40,640
Speaker 1: or what's going on? Because it was just oh my god,

656
00:36:40,680 --> 00:36:43,880
Speaker 1: you seem so happy, and so I just kind of

657
00:36:43,880 --> 00:36:45,880
Speaker 1: lived in that for a while and it really took

658
00:36:46,120 --> 00:36:51,800
Speaker 1: me going through a depression anxiety stuff that I started

659
00:36:51,840 --> 00:36:55,040
Speaker 1: being like, Okay, what in my life is making me

660
00:36:55,040 --> 00:36:58,239
Speaker 1: feel this way? Who are the people in my life

661
00:36:58,280 --> 00:37:02,560
Speaker 1: that don't help? Who? Who do? Who encouraged me? And

662
00:37:02,760 --> 00:37:04,839
Speaker 1: really kind of I mean, I've always been my faith

663
00:37:04,880 --> 00:37:06,880
Speaker 1: has always been important to me, but really just like

664
00:37:07,040 --> 00:37:09,400
Speaker 1: gave it all up because I tried to control everything.

665
00:37:10,440 --> 00:37:14,200
Speaker 1: And then from there I took time off being and pageants.

666
00:37:14,320 --> 00:37:17,560
Speaker 1: And then when I won Miss Alabama USA, I was

667
00:37:18,040 --> 00:37:22,440
Speaker 1: completely myself for the first time ever, and like I was,

668
00:37:22,520 --> 00:37:24,920
Speaker 1: I was getting inside. I was like, like, Canna, you

669
00:37:24,960 --> 00:37:27,160
Speaker 1: could win. I was like, I'm already fourth throwner. This

670
00:37:27,200 --> 00:37:29,960
Speaker 1: is awesome. Like I just went on the stage and

671
00:37:30,000 --> 00:37:32,680
Speaker 1: like was was myself and I feel like once I

672
00:37:32,800 --> 00:37:35,160
Speaker 1: went again, it was so easy for me to go

673
00:37:35,200 --> 00:37:37,360
Speaker 1: back into Oh people were telling me to do this,

674
00:37:37,400 --> 00:37:39,439
Speaker 1: people were telling me to do that, And it wasn't

675
00:37:39,480 --> 00:37:41,680
Speaker 1: as bad as it had been before, but I still

676
00:37:41,760 --> 00:37:47,520
Speaker 1: let a lot of things. I lived twenty two years

677
00:37:47,520 --> 00:37:50,120
Speaker 1: in my life that way, so people telling me what

678
00:37:50,160 --> 00:37:52,120
Speaker 1: I should and shouldn't do for something that I wanted.

679
00:37:52,160 --> 00:37:55,839
Speaker 1: I allowed that to kind of affect me, and Miss

680
00:37:55,920 --> 00:37:59,000
Speaker 1: USA was great for me, like pageants. I'm so thankful

681
00:37:59,040 --> 00:38:04,560
Speaker 1: for them, but it did. Pageants on top of relationships

682
00:38:04,600 --> 00:38:07,960
Speaker 1: the people I had in my life, it did really

683
00:38:09,960 --> 00:38:15,120
Speaker 1: cause me to find my worth and recognition and what

684
00:38:15,200 --> 00:38:18,239
Speaker 1: accolades I had because it had been successful and then

685
00:38:18,280 --> 00:38:20,320
Speaker 1: I wasn't successful, so then I felt like I wasn't

686
00:38:20,440 --> 00:38:22,879
Speaker 1: worthy and then I was like, oh I got something, Okay,

687
00:38:22,920 --> 00:38:25,600
Speaker 1: now I'm worthy again, you know, And then it's like

688
00:38:26,400 --> 00:38:28,560
Speaker 1: you can't live your life that way. You just can't

689
00:38:28,560 --> 00:38:30,480
Speaker 1: live your life that way because there's always gonna be

690
00:38:30,480 --> 00:38:35,280
Speaker 1: somebody better than you. There's always gonna be um times

691
00:38:35,280 --> 00:38:37,359
Speaker 1: where you fail it doesn't work out, and then you're

692
00:38:37,400 --> 00:38:40,719
Speaker 1: gonna have times where you're successful. But like you, I

693
00:38:40,800 --> 00:38:43,000
Speaker 1: have no control of that, Like I can only be

694
00:38:43,120 --> 00:38:46,040
Speaker 1: the best that I can be and be completely myself

695
00:38:46,080 --> 00:38:49,160
Speaker 1: because when you win or when you have something and

696
00:38:49,200 --> 00:38:52,880
Speaker 1: then you're like I got that, but it doesn't feel

697
00:38:52,960 --> 00:38:56,400
Speaker 1: right because did I win or did my persona that

698
00:38:56,440 --> 00:39:02,160
Speaker 1: I put together win or get and I inc It

699
00:39:02,280 --> 00:39:06,200
Speaker 1: took losing everything that I thought my life was gonna be,

700
00:39:06,520 --> 00:39:10,920
Speaker 1: which was the badget, which was married, babies with my friends.

701
00:39:11,320 --> 00:39:14,479
Speaker 1: I wanted to win Miss Alabama USA three years before

702
00:39:14,480 --> 00:39:16,040
Speaker 1: I ever did. When I won that, it was like

703
00:39:16,760 --> 00:39:18,719
Speaker 1: I was excited, but I also was like, this is

704
00:39:18,760 --> 00:39:20,279
Speaker 1: not where I want to be. I wanted this three

705
00:39:20,360 --> 00:39:23,920
Speaker 1: years ago. I want to be engaged, I want to

706
00:39:23,920 --> 00:39:25,920
Speaker 1: be with how all my friends are. And then when

707
00:39:25,920 --> 00:39:28,400
Speaker 1: I realized, you know what, this is exactly where I'm

708
00:39:28,440 --> 00:39:34,960
Speaker 1: supposed to be. I started my breakthrough um and then

709
00:39:35,000 --> 00:39:38,160
Speaker 1: realized being Miss Alba. Like when I got Miss Albama

710
00:39:38,239 --> 00:39:41,600
Speaker 1: USA and it didn't still feel like I thought it

711
00:39:41,640 --> 00:39:47,160
Speaker 1: would feel. It was like, oh, it's because my worth

712
00:39:47,320 --> 00:39:51,040
Speaker 1: is not come from recognition. It's like that doesn't make

713
00:39:51,080 --> 00:39:52,799
Speaker 1: me feel I got the thing that I wanted for

714
00:39:52,880 --> 00:39:56,360
Speaker 1: years and years, but it still doesn't make me feel better.

715
00:39:57,280 --> 00:39:59,160
Speaker 1: And so it took me getting it to be like,

716
00:39:59,200 --> 00:40:02,120
Speaker 1: oh wait, this is actually not satisfying. So that was

717
00:40:02,239 --> 00:40:06,000
Speaker 1: really when I started like working on myself. Didn't have

718
00:40:06,040 --> 00:40:09,480
Speaker 1: a relationship, didn't everything that I wanted didn't have anymore.

719
00:40:09,520 --> 00:40:11,000
Speaker 1: And then I had the thing that I wanted and

720
00:40:11,000 --> 00:40:12,759
Speaker 1: it didn't feel like I thought it was going to be,

721
00:40:12,840 --> 00:40:15,200
Speaker 1: and I was like, Okay, this is starting to make sense.

722
00:40:15,600 --> 00:40:21,319
Speaker 1: So then I just really like started focusing on what

723
00:40:21,400 --> 00:40:23,840
Speaker 1: do who am I? Because I don't think I knew

724
00:40:24,360 --> 00:40:27,040
Speaker 1: And it was it was hard, Like there were days

725
00:40:27,040 --> 00:40:29,799
Speaker 1: where I was like crying in my bed, like how

726
00:40:29,800 --> 00:40:31,840
Speaker 1: have I lived my life like this all along? But

727
00:40:31,920 --> 00:40:34,840
Speaker 1: then it was then I started going back into the

728
00:40:34,840 --> 00:40:36,640
Speaker 1: world and just being like, you don't like this and

729
00:40:36,719 --> 00:40:39,160
Speaker 1: I don't really care, like I want the people that

730
00:40:39,239 --> 00:40:41,759
Speaker 1: are around me that loved me, loved me, and those

731
00:40:41,760 --> 00:40:45,160
Speaker 1: are the people I want to be around. So so

732
00:40:45,760 --> 00:40:49,759
Speaker 1: that continued, and the progression that you had happened a

733
00:40:49,800 --> 00:40:52,440
Speaker 1: lot on the show too, happened a lot on the show. Um,

734
00:40:52,480 --> 00:40:56,799
Speaker 1: just like I said, going back when I was when

735
00:40:56,840 --> 00:40:59,040
Speaker 1: Miss v Musa got into Miss U s A, I

736
00:40:59,080 --> 00:41:01,319
Speaker 1: still kind of went back into that rut for like

737
00:41:01,440 --> 00:41:03,359
Speaker 1: a little bit, kind of leaned into it because it's

738
00:41:03,360 --> 00:41:05,040
Speaker 1: all I knew of like other people telling me what

739
00:41:05,080 --> 00:41:07,920
Speaker 1: to do. Same thing when I got into The Bachelor

740
00:41:08,120 --> 00:41:09,839
Speaker 1: the first couple of weeks, the first couple of weeks,

741
00:41:09,880 --> 00:41:12,319
Speaker 1: I started like going back into my shell, like oh

742
00:41:12,320 --> 00:41:14,520
Speaker 1: my gosh. First with the first date with Colton, it

743
00:41:14,680 --> 00:41:16,680
Speaker 1: was like, oh, I like him, but I don't even

744
00:41:16,719 --> 00:41:18,239
Speaker 1: know what to say. Who am I do? I want

745
00:41:18,239 --> 00:41:19,879
Speaker 1: to show him like the real me or the one

746
00:41:19,920 --> 00:41:21,799
Speaker 1: that I think he'll actually like better. And then I

747
00:41:21,840 --> 00:41:27,560
Speaker 1: was like in this like middle ground of like paralyzed, um.

748
00:41:27,640 --> 00:41:31,759
Speaker 1: And you know, I've had so much people thinking I'm

749
00:41:31,760 --> 00:41:36,680
Speaker 1: a dummy. Can articulate myself? Um awkward and yeah, like

750
00:41:36,800 --> 00:41:39,240
Speaker 1: I was in those moments, but I can't articulate myself.

751
00:41:39,280 --> 00:41:43,760
Speaker 1: I am intelligent these Um. That was just a moment

752
00:41:43,840 --> 00:41:46,399
Speaker 1: for me, and it was a real moment and it

753
00:41:46,440 --> 00:41:48,880
Speaker 1: was entertaining for other people, but it was really hard

754
00:41:48,920 --> 00:41:52,400
Speaker 1: for me to realize, like I don't know who I

755
00:41:52,440 --> 00:41:56,120
Speaker 1: want to be right now. And then after that it

756
00:41:56,200 --> 00:41:58,960
Speaker 1: was like, Okay, I'm just gonna have to let go

757
00:41:59,239 --> 00:42:03,200
Speaker 1: and see how people respond. And honestly, it doesn't really

758
00:42:03,239 --> 00:42:06,399
Speaker 1: matter because this is my real life and I need

759
00:42:06,440 --> 00:42:09,279
Speaker 1: to live my real life right now, regardless of what's

760
00:42:09,320 --> 00:42:11,319
Speaker 1: about to be shown in a few months, Like this

761
00:42:11,440 --> 00:42:13,759
Speaker 1: is my time to keep exploring who I am. And

762
00:42:13,800 --> 00:42:17,759
Speaker 1: I'm really proud of even that for me, because I

763
00:42:17,760 --> 00:42:20,640
Speaker 1: did grow so much and ultimately allowed me to be here.

764
00:42:20,920 --> 00:42:25,480
Speaker 1: It was that realness that did crown you as the Bachelorette.

765
00:42:25,840 --> 00:42:28,080
Speaker 1: Then you have crowned with something else. Did you have

766
00:42:28,200 --> 00:42:31,520
Speaker 1: like a moment there where you hesitated? You're like, nope,

767
00:42:31,520 --> 00:42:35,279
Speaker 1: I've seen how being real gets me further. I think

768
00:42:35,320 --> 00:42:41,160
Speaker 1: because I have been the producers and the people of

769
00:42:41,200 --> 00:42:44,360
Speaker 1: the Bachelor, I believe in me so much and really

770
00:42:44,480 --> 00:42:46,840
Speaker 1: invested in me. Anytime I ever tried to do that,

771
00:42:46,880 --> 00:42:48,600
Speaker 1: they were like, what are you doing? I'm like, you're right,

772
00:42:49,320 --> 00:42:52,600
Speaker 1: so not really, But I had people, like I said,

773
00:42:52,600 --> 00:42:54,560
Speaker 1: I peet the people in my life that loved the

774
00:42:54,719 --> 00:42:58,080
Speaker 1: real me, the real Hannah, and that will encourage me

775
00:42:58,280 --> 00:43:01,319
Speaker 1: and regardless of what anybody thinks in the show, like,

776
00:43:02,600 --> 00:43:05,840
Speaker 1: they want my happiness first, and they want this to

777
00:43:05,920 --> 00:43:10,600
Speaker 1: be my story and so I think that it was

778
00:43:10,680 --> 00:43:14,520
Speaker 1: really um but uh, That's why I knew I wanted

779
00:43:14,560 --> 00:43:16,640
Speaker 1: to be the Bachelor and could be the Bachelor, because

780
00:43:16,680 --> 00:43:18,480
Speaker 1: I knew I had people on my team that we're

781
00:43:18,480 --> 00:43:21,520
Speaker 1: going to allow it to be my story in me awesome.

782
00:43:22,080 --> 00:43:25,400
Speaker 1: You said that you basically created a person for twenty

783
00:43:25,400 --> 00:43:27,840
Speaker 1: two years of your life. Who is that person that

784
00:43:27,880 --> 00:43:33,359
Speaker 1: you created and who is the person that you really are? Um? Like,

785
00:43:33,440 --> 00:43:35,359
Speaker 1: I mean even like in high school and stuff, like

786
00:43:35,400 --> 00:43:42,600
Speaker 1: I was the the miss perfect Like I didn't. I

787
00:43:42,640 --> 00:43:44,759
Speaker 1: didn't go out, I didn't get I would have fun,

788
00:43:44,800 --> 00:43:48,000
Speaker 1: but not too much fun. I always had a man

789
00:43:48,239 --> 00:43:51,200
Speaker 1: on my by my side, and except when you were

790
00:43:51,200 --> 00:43:54,960
Speaker 1: awkward and yeah, but but that would be I was

791
00:43:55,040 --> 00:43:57,279
Speaker 1: folks when I was awkward in high school folks, not

792
00:43:57,480 --> 00:44:00,600
Speaker 1: with guys. I was focused on literally I thought if

793
00:44:00,600 --> 00:44:03,240
Speaker 1: I didn't have a ninety fiber above that, like life

794
00:44:03,280 --> 00:44:05,080
Speaker 1: was going to be like an end all. Like I

795
00:44:05,160 --> 00:44:12,200
Speaker 1: was very um focused on my like my academia. I

796
00:44:13,320 --> 00:44:17,120
Speaker 1: um just pushed myself in that way. I danced and

797
00:44:17,520 --> 00:44:21,359
Speaker 1: even though I didn't even really like dancing, was also

798
00:44:21,400 --> 00:44:24,400
Speaker 1: one of those things that like hurt my self esteem.

799
00:44:24,560 --> 00:44:27,080
Speaker 1: My mom wanted me to do it. Um, everybody told

800
00:44:27,080 --> 00:44:29,160
Speaker 1: me we were the dancer. So I continue to do

801
00:44:29,239 --> 00:44:31,960
Speaker 1: it and like not just like have a dance class.

802
00:44:31,960 --> 00:44:34,000
Speaker 1: Weate once or twice. You know. It was like fifteen

803
00:44:34,000 --> 00:44:36,799
Speaker 1: hours a week. Um that's just in the week, not

804
00:44:36,960 --> 00:44:40,000
Speaker 1: with weekends like after school and then I would stay

805
00:44:40,080 --> 00:44:41,880
Speaker 1: up till one am to do my homework so that

806
00:44:41,880 --> 00:44:43,319
Speaker 1: I made sure I got a hundred on it. Like,

807
00:44:43,440 --> 00:44:47,879
Speaker 1: I just pushed myself, kept myself so busy and it

808
00:44:47,920 --> 00:44:51,319
Speaker 1: looked like I had everything figured out and didn't let

809
00:44:51,520 --> 00:44:55,200
Speaker 1: guys or parties or anything like get blur my vision

810
00:44:55,239 --> 00:44:59,160
Speaker 1: of my path. And then started dating and then it

811
00:44:59,200 --> 00:45:02,640
Speaker 1: was like this person, whatever they want from me, Like

812
00:45:02,680 --> 00:45:05,719
Speaker 1: I can be that misstepford wife for them and do

813
00:45:05,760 --> 00:45:08,239
Speaker 1: all this because I can be a trophy wife. So

814
00:45:08,280 --> 00:45:10,000
Speaker 1: then I did that for a while, and then it

815
00:45:10,120 --> 00:45:12,279
Speaker 1: was oh, well she's sip, and then through that like,

816
00:45:12,320 --> 00:45:15,000
Speaker 1: oh she's the pageant queen. Oh she's so sweet, she's

817
00:45:15,080 --> 00:45:17,120
Speaker 1: this and that, and like, no, am I always sweet? No,

818
00:45:17,520 --> 00:45:20,560
Speaker 1: I'm not. Like I have a good heart and I

819
00:45:20,719 --> 00:45:24,160
Speaker 1: know that, but I would not show my frustration. I

820
00:45:24,200 --> 00:45:27,520
Speaker 1: would not show my real feelings. And it was just

821
00:45:28,280 --> 00:45:32,440
Speaker 1: I was somebody that everybody could easily understand and take,

822
00:45:33,400 --> 00:45:36,680
Speaker 1: not really myself, which is not always easy to understand

823
00:45:36,880 --> 00:45:40,680
Speaker 1: or take because I don't even understand myself sometimes. She's

824
00:45:40,719 --> 00:45:43,840
Speaker 1: sweet is a word that has got me a lot,

825
00:45:44,040 --> 00:45:46,840
Speaker 1: like I granted me a lot actually through the bachelor process,

826
00:45:47,160 --> 00:45:49,880
Speaker 1: because I've always felt like the girls that come across

827
00:45:49,960 --> 00:45:54,160
Speaker 1: as just sweet, they're sweet. Um, they're the ones that

828
00:45:54,760 --> 00:45:58,000
Speaker 1: always really good, but they're really holding back. And the

829
00:45:58,040 --> 00:45:59,640
Speaker 1: ones that are a little bit more like you and

830
00:45:59,680 --> 00:46:03,320
Speaker 1: I um where we have our moments or people aren't

831
00:46:03,320 --> 00:46:06,719
Speaker 1: gonna like like us or what we say. We have

832
00:46:06,760 --> 00:46:10,160
Speaker 1: our freak outs. We don't always come across as sweet.

833
00:46:10,960 --> 00:46:15,080
Speaker 1: We're just being real, but we're sometimes not villainized, but

834
00:46:15,160 --> 00:46:18,000
Speaker 1: like disliked at times. And you don't know, it's just

835
00:46:18,000 --> 00:46:20,959
Speaker 1: like the girls who hold back get the better look better.

836
00:46:21,280 --> 00:46:23,080
Speaker 1: It was really hard for me because I was like

837
00:46:23,200 --> 00:46:27,360
Speaker 1: I was being my like completely myself, and everybody was

838
00:46:27,400 --> 00:46:30,560
Speaker 1: having those freakouts. They just did it in the bathroom

839
00:46:30,560 --> 00:46:32,800
Speaker 1: for a second and came back out. But it's like

840
00:46:32,880 --> 00:46:35,400
Speaker 1: kind of like I said, like it's my real life.

841
00:46:35,600 --> 00:46:39,520
Speaker 1: I'm not I'm not an actress, this is reality TV.

842
00:46:39,960 --> 00:46:45,800
Speaker 1: And I was, and I was not going to allow

843
00:46:45,840 --> 00:46:49,920
Speaker 1: myself to tap back into that person that really calls

844
00:46:50,040 --> 00:46:53,880
Speaker 1: me a lot of sadness and emptiness just so that

845
00:46:53,960 --> 00:46:55,600
Speaker 1: I could be the sweet girl on TV that I

846
00:46:55,640 --> 00:46:57,279
Speaker 1: knew I could have been. I mean, that's where I

847
00:46:57,320 --> 00:46:59,799
Speaker 1: struggled a lot in that first UM one on one

848
00:46:59,800 --> 00:47:02,160
Speaker 1: with Alton, because I was like, I know what I

849
00:47:02,200 --> 00:47:05,120
Speaker 1: could do that would keep me safe, but I also

850
00:47:05,200 --> 00:47:07,000
Speaker 1: am not that and I don't know what to do,

851
00:47:07,239 --> 00:47:10,719
Speaker 1: and you know, regardless of all the main things that

852
00:47:10,760 --> 00:47:13,520
Speaker 1: have been said, the things that people think that I am,

853
00:47:13,560 --> 00:47:16,000
Speaker 1: that I'm not, people that I'll never went over just

854
00:47:16,080 --> 00:47:18,920
Speaker 1: because they just want to hate me. I'm so thankful

855
00:47:19,040 --> 00:47:22,839
Speaker 1: that I was my real self, Like that's why I grew.

856
00:47:22,880 --> 00:47:24,799
Speaker 1: And I don't know if everybody grows the way that

857
00:47:25,320 --> 00:47:28,120
Speaker 1: I did through the process. I'm not going to try

858
00:47:28,120 --> 00:47:30,279
Speaker 1: to get gossip or anything, but I'm going to for

859
00:47:30,280 --> 00:47:36,120
Speaker 1: a second. Um, Kalin and you are probably those people

860
00:47:36,200 --> 00:47:38,319
Speaker 1: that will never see I to I are probably never

861
00:47:38,320 --> 00:47:41,440
Speaker 1: gonna be best friends. She posted a picture on your

862
00:47:41,440 --> 00:47:45,320
Speaker 1: premier day that said eating the chip off my shoulder?

863
00:47:45,760 --> 00:47:48,080
Speaker 1: Do you think that was a dig I didn't know.

864
00:47:48,840 --> 00:47:54,920
Speaker 1: Uh oh, I didn't. I mean, um, I don't know.

865
00:47:55,120 --> 00:48:00,080
Speaker 1: We can Um wow, I don't know. I just not know.

866
00:48:00,239 --> 00:48:02,520
Speaker 1: I don't have no idea. But you know what, I

867
00:48:02,560 --> 00:48:05,640
Speaker 1: don't you know, at this point, it's like who cares

868
00:48:05,680 --> 00:48:09,680
Speaker 1: in a way like whatever she says, like, I'm like,

869
00:48:09,760 --> 00:48:13,239
Speaker 1: I truly am like wish her the best, and if

870
00:48:13,320 --> 00:48:15,520
Speaker 1: she wishes me the best, great, If she doesn't, it's

871
00:48:15,520 --> 00:48:19,239
Speaker 1: okay because at this point we were in a we

872
00:48:19,239 --> 00:48:23,200
Speaker 1: were we don't have to be together or we can,

873
00:48:23,320 --> 00:48:25,040
Speaker 1: and I'm fine being a ring with her. I'm fine

874
00:48:25,080 --> 00:48:27,960
Speaker 1: not being in a ring with her, Like I don't

875
00:48:28,000 --> 00:48:30,719
Speaker 1: really hold anything against her anymore, and I hope she

876
00:48:30,760 --> 00:48:36,000
Speaker 1: doesn't with me, Like we're good and this was you know,

877
00:48:36,320 --> 00:48:40,040
Speaker 1: I don't know, it's weird, weird, Okay, So let's get

878
00:48:40,080 --> 00:48:43,480
Speaker 1: into your guys now. You I think you kiss more

879
00:48:43,520 --> 00:48:46,160
Speaker 1: guy when you're like between forty eight hours of being

880
00:48:46,160 --> 00:48:47,759
Speaker 1: the batchel right than you ever had in your life.

881
00:48:48,400 --> 00:48:51,880
Speaker 1: Yeahs or was at night one uh night when I

882
00:48:51,960 --> 00:48:58,239
Speaker 1: kissed three guys we saw them, we saw kisses um

883
00:48:58,280 --> 00:49:02,879
Speaker 1: and then yeah, in forty hour definitely. Um. I mean

884
00:49:02,880 --> 00:49:04,279
Speaker 1: it would be so funny. They'd be like, all right,

885
00:49:04,280 --> 00:49:06,080
Speaker 1: you know you're up to twelve and I'd be like,

886
00:49:06,160 --> 00:49:09,200
Speaker 1: oh my goodness, And how many was it before you

887
00:49:09,200 --> 00:49:14,040
Speaker 1: were the Bachelorrette? I think like five or six? Think six,

888
00:49:14,120 --> 00:49:17,600
Speaker 1: I think that's what I was at. Yeah, and it was,

889
00:49:17,760 --> 00:49:21,040
Speaker 1: I mean most of them were my boyfriend or yeah,

890
00:49:21,080 --> 00:49:23,000
Speaker 1: I think I only kissed like one guy that wasn't

891
00:49:23,040 --> 00:49:30,000
Speaker 1: my boyfriend, but we were like talking, Yeah, well you

892
00:49:30,080 --> 00:49:32,399
Speaker 1: feel like did you feel really weird? Yeah? At first,

893
00:49:32,440 --> 00:49:37,360
Speaker 1: I was like it was hard for me honestly because

894
00:49:37,360 --> 00:49:39,080
Speaker 1: I would have momutes so like, oh my god, I

895
00:49:39,120 --> 00:49:43,279
Speaker 1: can't believe I kissed them. Did you kiss guys that

896
00:49:43,320 --> 00:49:44,920
Speaker 1: you didn't really want to kiss? Like they just kind

897
00:49:44,920 --> 00:49:49,080
Speaker 1: of went in for um. Yeah, I feel like that's

898
00:49:49,120 --> 00:49:51,799
Speaker 1: kind of the hardest part. That's the hardest part because like,

899
00:49:51,880 --> 00:49:58,040
Speaker 1: you're you have to be in a relationship with multiple people,

900
00:49:58,239 --> 00:50:00,680
Speaker 1: and sometimes you're not feeling some of the people there

901
00:50:00,680 --> 00:50:03,840
Speaker 1: as much as you're feeling another person, but you're you

902
00:50:03,920 --> 00:50:08,319
Speaker 1: are technically dating them, and so it's really it was

903
00:50:08,400 --> 00:50:12,120
Speaker 1: hard sometimes. But you can kind of tell the difference

904
00:50:12,120 --> 00:50:14,359
Speaker 1: of my kisses when I'm really feeling somebody and when

905
00:50:14,360 --> 00:50:17,960
Speaker 1: I'm not. If you're like, yeah, the kiss with Luke

906
00:50:18,000 --> 00:50:21,240
Speaker 1: p on night one was intense. It was really intense,

907
00:50:21,280 --> 00:50:23,719
Speaker 1: but it was good. My sister and are watching you. Guys.

908
00:50:23,800 --> 00:50:26,040
Speaker 1: Those aren't the kisses you have once you're in a relationship.

909
00:50:27,920 --> 00:50:31,560
Speaker 1: Enjoy them out the guy. Your guys got a lot

910
00:50:31,640 --> 00:50:35,319
Speaker 1: of flak, especially when they're green pictures came out. You

911
00:50:35,400 --> 00:50:39,080
Speaker 1: weren't even around. You weren't even around. Your guys got

912
00:50:39,120 --> 00:50:41,120
Speaker 1: a lot of flak during your first week of filming,

913
00:50:41,160 --> 00:50:44,839
Speaker 1: so you weren't around for social media, but everybody's looking

914
00:50:44,840 --> 00:50:48,040
Speaker 1: at their pictures and like, oh my goodness, these guys

915
00:50:48,080 --> 00:50:51,440
Speaker 1: don't look like bachelorette material. These guys look like I

916
00:50:51,520 --> 00:50:55,680
Speaker 1: kept saying, like they picked thirty guys that were in

917
00:50:55,760 --> 00:50:58,560
Speaker 1: line for a hot dog at a football game. But

918
00:50:58,600 --> 00:51:00,919
Speaker 1: then we saw their great picture and they looked better.

919
00:51:01,600 --> 00:51:03,960
Speaker 1: And then on night one they looked better. But I

920
00:51:04,000 --> 00:51:06,600
Speaker 1: still was like, I don't know about this bunch they

921
00:51:06,640 --> 00:51:08,200
Speaker 1: got For Hannah. I was like, I really don't know.

922
00:51:08,280 --> 00:51:10,879
Speaker 1: There's like a good three or four in there. How

923
00:51:10,920 --> 00:51:15,839
Speaker 1: did you honestly feel After Chris said, Hannah, those are

924
00:51:15,840 --> 00:51:21,440
Speaker 1: all your guys, I went, I mean, I went, I

925
00:51:21,440 --> 00:51:23,560
Speaker 1: didn't realize it had been thirty guys. I was having

926
00:51:23,800 --> 00:51:26,879
Speaker 1: the most fun. Oh my god, it was so fun.

927
00:51:26,960 --> 00:51:29,440
Speaker 1: The lima entrances, like I didn't realize, and so I

928
00:51:29,480 --> 00:51:32,480
Speaker 1: was like, oh, wait, that's it, that's what I said.

929
00:51:32,640 --> 00:51:37,360
Speaker 1: I was like, oh, that's them, okay, And honestly, I

930
00:51:37,960 --> 00:51:39,960
Speaker 1: had to let it go. But I didn't really like

931
00:51:40,040 --> 00:51:41,839
Speaker 1: a lot of their fashion, and that was the first

932
00:51:41,840 --> 00:51:45,760
Speaker 1: thing I would notice. I was like, that's what really.

933
00:51:46,239 --> 00:51:48,520
Speaker 1: I was like, Okay, their faces are cute, but like

934
00:51:48,880 --> 00:51:52,120
Speaker 1: they have some serious fashion issues. I'm not even a

935
00:51:52,160 --> 00:51:54,880
Speaker 1: fashion girl, Like I don't get like, I don't I

936
00:51:54,920 --> 00:51:58,400
Speaker 1: don't understand like being obsessed with it, but I've noticed

937
00:51:58,440 --> 00:52:00,960
Speaker 1: that it was bad. It was bad. I was like,

938
00:52:00,960 --> 00:52:03,439
Speaker 1: why can't every guy just wear like a nice dark

939
00:52:03,520 --> 00:52:06,760
Speaker 1: blue suit or a black suit with a black tie,

940
00:52:06,920 --> 00:52:09,160
Speaker 1: or a blue tie, blue gray tie. They were all

941
00:52:09,200 --> 00:52:11,360
Speaker 1: trying to be wacky with their fashion, and their faces

942
00:52:11,480 --> 00:52:14,760
Speaker 1: weren't looking that great in them. And then episode two

943
00:52:14,800 --> 00:52:17,319
Speaker 1: came around and I was like, these guys in their

944
00:52:17,360 --> 00:52:21,120
Speaker 1: casual clothes without their hair ridiculously dye, it looks so

945
00:52:21,239 --> 00:52:23,719
Speaker 1: much better. Trust me. I felt the same way like

946
00:52:23,760 --> 00:52:28,360
Speaker 1: the first night. I was a little bit like, Okay,

947
00:52:28,400 --> 00:52:31,560
Speaker 1: a guy's outfit can really change the way his face. Yeah,

948
00:52:31,640 --> 00:52:35,880
Speaker 1: so it did. It was like a butt his face.

949
00:52:36,239 --> 00:52:40,680
Speaker 1: But but in the opposite way, I was like, oh

950
00:52:40,719 --> 00:52:43,680
Speaker 1: my god, what I need to help them so much,

951
00:52:43,719 --> 00:52:47,680
Speaker 1: but like this is them and like, oh this is scary.

952
00:52:47,760 --> 00:52:50,719
Speaker 1: But then after we started having dates and I was like, Okay,

953
00:52:50,840 --> 00:52:52,520
Speaker 1: all right, I can deal with this. This is good.

954
00:52:52,640 --> 00:52:56,120
Speaker 1: This is good. But ultimately, like, yeah, there was some

955
00:52:56,280 --> 00:52:59,759
Speaker 1: that I was like, huh, interesting, But I will say,

956
00:52:59,800 --> 00:53:01,680
Speaker 1: like I want an attractive guy. I want them to

957
00:53:01,680 --> 00:53:09,000
Speaker 1: be attractive, but I am okay with Like, they don't

958
00:53:09,000 --> 00:53:11,200
Speaker 1: have to be like a supermodel or anythink, like, I

959
00:53:11,239 --> 00:53:13,280
Speaker 1: just want them to have a good heart and be fun.

960
00:53:13,520 --> 00:53:15,520
Speaker 1: And so I think that was a lot of my

961
00:53:15,560 --> 00:53:17,680
Speaker 1: guys too, but it did. It was more of like

962
00:53:17,719 --> 00:53:23,080
Speaker 1: a growing too be attracted to some of them truthfully interesting. Yeah,

963
00:53:23,080 --> 00:53:25,160
Speaker 1: I like your honest. Yeah, I can't help it, Like

964
00:53:25,560 --> 00:53:27,279
Speaker 1: I'm like, I probably shouldn't say that, but I can't

965
00:53:27,280 --> 00:53:29,200
Speaker 1: help it, Like I don't know how to not be

966
00:53:29,320 --> 00:53:31,560
Speaker 1: honest about certain things. So yeah, the first night, I

967
00:53:31,640 --> 00:53:35,760
Speaker 1: was a little bit worried. Yeah, second night, I felt

968
00:53:35,840 --> 00:53:38,759
Speaker 1: so much better. Yeah, me, I felt better. I was like, Okay,

969
00:53:38,800 --> 00:53:43,440
Speaker 1: they look cute in their normal clathes. You don't like

970
00:53:44,000 --> 00:53:47,000
Speaker 1: guys that have necessarily a sense of mystery. You don't

971
00:53:47,040 --> 00:53:49,480
Speaker 1: like hard to get. We don't have to watch you

972
00:53:49,560 --> 00:53:51,480
Speaker 1: too much to know that you like a guy who

973
00:53:51,520 --> 00:53:57,319
Speaker 1: is aggressive and forthcoming about his feelings. Yeah, so how

974
00:53:57,480 --> 00:53:59,920
Speaker 1: do you You didn't think that Luke p was a

975
00:54:00,000 --> 00:54:01,839
Speaker 1: little bit too early with his feelings because you had

976
00:54:01,880 --> 00:54:05,480
Speaker 1: the biggest grin. You loved hearing every word of what

977
00:54:05,520 --> 00:54:08,359
Speaker 1: he was saying to you. Early on, within forty hours

978
00:54:08,440 --> 00:54:11,359
Speaker 1: of really knowing you. Um, do you think that you've

979
00:54:11,360 --> 00:54:14,239
Speaker 1: gotten like less naive throughout this process or do you

980
00:54:14,440 --> 00:54:17,960
Speaker 1: are you just like somebody who wants to hear those works? Okay?

981
00:54:18,080 --> 00:54:22,719
Speaker 1: I feel like with Luke, especially those first that that

982
00:54:22,840 --> 00:54:25,120
Speaker 1: first night, I think it kind of went back to

983
00:54:26,600 --> 00:54:30,400
Speaker 1: my past of the guy that I dated for forever.

984
00:54:32,480 --> 00:54:34,960
Speaker 1: I didn't know how he was feeling a lot. He

985
00:54:35,080 --> 00:54:37,800
Speaker 1: was mysterious and it hooked me, hooked mine and sinker

986
00:54:38,160 --> 00:54:40,440
Speaker 1: for a while. Then I dated the next guy that

987
00:54:40,480 --> 00:54:43,640
Speaker 1: I was really that I did love, and he was

988
00:54:43,719 --> 00:54:47,319
Speaker 1: more like I want to pursue you. I know it

989
00:54:47,320 --> 00:54:49,359
Speaker 1: hasn't been that long since your last relationship. I don't

990
00:54:49,400 --> 00:54:51,560
Speaker 1: care like I want to pursue you in that relationship

991
00:54:51,640 --> 00:54:56,160
Speaker 1: for me and like he was very like our faith aligned. Um,

992
00:54:56,200 --> 00:54:58,440
Speaker 1: that was a relationship that I realized, Okay, there are

993
00:54:58,480 --> 00:55:00,879
Speaker 1: guys like this out there that don't like beating around

994
00:55:00,920 --> 00:55:03,160
Speaker 1: the bush about their intentions, Like I want to know

995
00:55:03,239 --> 00:55:06,480
Speaker 1: somebody's here for me. And that was like what I

996
00:55:06,560 --> 00:55:10,080
Speaker 1: learned from that relationship from my that could be like

997
00:55:10,160 --> 00:55:12,200
Speaker 1: something that I wanted. And I feel like when Luke

998
00:55:12,320 --> 00:55:14,359
Speaker 1: was just like, hey, this is how I feel about you,

999
00:55:14,440 --> 00:55:17,600
Speaker 1: I'm really into you. I was into him, and I

1000
00:55:17,680 --> 00:55:21,560
Speaker 1: liked that he was just like, look like, I like you.

1001
00:55:21,840 --> 00:55:23,680
Speaker 1: I'm here for you. If it was if there was

1002
00:55:23,719 --> 00:55:26,120
Speaker 1: anybody else here, I wouldn't be here. And I wanted

1003
00:55:26,680 --> 00:55:28,480
Speaker 1: to know that. And I think also it came from

1004
00:55:28,560 --> 00:55:32,600
Speaker 1: some insecurity of I wasn't. I feel like I was

1005
00:55:32,640 --> 00:55:35,040
Speaker 1: a dark horse as a bachelorette, and so to know

1006
00:55:35,239 --> 00:55:40,799
Speaker 1: that somebody truly wanted it to be me was like

1007
00:55:40,920 --> 00:55:43,680
Speaker 1: almost like a sigh of relief of like, Okay, this

1008
00:55:43,719 --> 00:55:46,640
Speaker 1: person really and one thousand percent that is that was

1009
00:55:47,239 --> 00:55:50,840
Speaker 1: true about Luke like he it was. It was a lot,

1010
00:55:50,920 --> 00:55:55,760
Speaker 1: but like he meant every word he was saying, and yeah,

1011
00:55:55,880 --> 00:55:58,640
Speaker 1: I just it gave me hope for the rest of

1012
00:55:58,680 --> 00:56:01,200
Speaker 1: the season. I feel like of like, okay, like this

1013
00:56:01,239 --> 00:56:06,120
Speaker 1: could work. Um and like the first night they didn't

1014
00:56:06,120 --> 00:56:07,920
Speaker 1: show it as much, but we really did talk about

1015
00:56:07,920 --> 00:56:10,080
Speaker 1: like our faith a lot, and that was like the

1016
00:56:10,120 --> 00:56:11,880
Speaker 1: one of the biggest thing that I needed to know

1017
00:56:12,239 --> 00:56:16,560
Speaker 1: first and foremost that there was somebody that there that

1018
00:56:16,719 --> 00:56:20,879
Speaker 1: had the same ideas and um faith that I did.

1019
00:56:20,920 --> 00:56:23,319
Speaker 1: So that was like another thing. I was like, okay,

1020
00:56:23,600 --> 00:56:26,440
Speaker 1: and then he just like was adamant about like making

1021
00:56:26,800 --> 00:56:28,560
Speaker 1: coming up to me and talking to me, and I

1022
00:56:28,920 --> 00:56:31,359
Speaker 1: want that. I don't want somebody to sit in a

1023
00:56:31,360 --> 00:56:37,759
Speaker 1: corner and by the meatballs and be like whatever, you know,

1024
00:56:37,920 --> 00:56:39,399
Speaker 1: like I want to be like, no, you're freaking hear

1025
00:56:39,440 --> 00:56:44,640
Speaker 1: from me. I want to know. So I think, I know,

1026
00:56:44,840 --> 00:56:47,800
Speaker 1: I think I need a good mixture. But I ultimately

1027
00:56:47,840 --> 00:56:51,440
Speaker 1: think it came from a few insecurities of not knowing

1028
00:56:51,480 --> 00:56:54,120
Speaker 1: if these guys really were here for me or we're

1029
00:56:54,160 --> 00:56:56,560
Speaker 1: hoping it was somebody else. Because after the Final Rose,

1030
00:56:56,600 --> 00:57:00,200
Speaker 1: they were already there before I was announced. That's right,

1031
00:57:00,440 --> 00:57:03,319
Speaker 1: that's right. So you're not you weren't sure well they

1032
00:57:03,400 --> 00:57:05,200
Speaker 1: or not these guys were going to be happy that

1033
00:57:05,239 --> 00:57:08,600
Speaker 1: you because they're already sitting in the hotel room waiting

1034
00:57:08,640 --> 00:57:11,160
Speaker 1: to hear who they're bout. They were signed up regardless,

1035
00:57:11,280 --> 00:57:13,360
Speaker 1: So yes, so they were signed up regardless. And so

1036
00:57:13,560 --> 00:57:17,320
Speaker 1: to have somebody like Luke be like if it was ant, like,

1037
00:57:18,360 --> 00:57:22,760
Speaker 1: I'm so pumped, Like it was really great. And I

1038
00:57:23,160 --> 00:57:24,800
Speaker 1: as soon as I saw him after the final Rose,

1039
00:57:24,800 --> 00:57:26,200
Speaker 1: it was like, who do you like? I was like,

1040
00:57:26,480 --> 00:57:28,240
Speaker 1: I mean, they were, they were all awesome, but I

1041
00:57:28,280 --> 00:57:29,840
Speaker 1: was there was just something about Luke that I was

1042
00:57:29,880 --> 00:57:34,000
Speaker 1: really excited to see, so yeah, all right, yeah, and

1043
00:57:34,040 --> 00:57:36,960
Speaker 1: you all start so physically attracted to him, like right

1044
00:57:37,000 --> 00:57:40,680
Speaker 1: off the back in episode two we see you shirtless,

1045
00:57:41,280 --> 00:57:44,560
Speaker 1: he's shirtless, um, and I feel like I feel it.

1046
00:57:45,120 --> 00:57:47,120
Speaker 1: I feel like this is probably a moment that you

1047
00:57:47,120 --> 00:57:50,919
Speaker 1: were not looking forward to having to watch back. Well,

1048
00:57:51,000 --> 00:57:57,240
Speaker 1: it depends it goes, but it was. You know, I

1049
00:57:57,360 --> 00:57:59,920
Speaker 1: blushed a little bit when I watched it. I'm like, I, oh, my,

1050
00:58:00,160 --> 00:58:02,680
Speaker 1: say this because you got caught by Jed, and I

1051
00:58:02,720 --> 00:58:04,600
Speaker 1: think that you probably were like, oh man, when I

1052
00:58:04,640 --> 00:58:06,440
Speaker 1: did this, I didn't think I was going to be

1053
00:58:06,520 --> 00:58:11,880
Speaker 1: caught by anyone. That was probably the oh. I got

1054
00:58:12,000 --> 00:58:14,440
Speaker 1: lit after that, and I was like, why did this

1055
00:58:14,480 --> 00:58:18,200
Speaker 1: just happen? I really liked Luke, I really like Jed,

1056
00:58:18,800 --> 00:58:21,400
Speaker 1: and I was like, that's not okay. It looks like

1057
00:58:21,480 --> 00:58:23,840
Speaker 1: it was something more than it was, like this is

1058
00:58:23,920 --> 00:58:27,680
Speaker 1: not cool, and I was like, don't mess with my guys, like,

1059
00:58:27,800 --> 00:58:31,360
Speaker 1: don't mess with him. And but then Jed handled it

1060
00:58:31,440 --> 00:58:36,920
Speaker 1: like a freaking rock star, like amazing, amazing, yeah, so adorable.

1061
00:58:37,080 --> 00:58:39,640
Speaker 1: He's like, I guess it's really crazy. How many guys

1062
00:58:39,680 --> 00:58:43,480
Speaker 1: are you know, I'm fighting with you. Yeah, yeah, so

1063
00:58:44,280 --> 00:58:46,840
Speaker 1: it was that was that was a really hard moment

1064
00:58:46,880 --> 00:59:00,280
Speaker 1: for me, like, oh so mad, so basically that you're

1065
00:59:00,280 --> 00:59:03,120
Speaker 1: going to have to come back again right now as

1066
00:59:03,160 --> 00:59:07,880
Speaker 1: we've seen it, Luke is a front runner. Um, I

1067
00:59:07,920 --> 00:59:09,840
Speaker 1: feel who do you feel like? You're my front runners?

1068
00:59:09,880 --> 00:59:17,560
Speaker 1: I feel like I really like Peter, I like Connor

1069
00:59:17,920 --> 00:59:22,000
Speaker 1: s and I like Jed. Those are my three favorites

1070
00:59:22,040 --> 00:59:27,560
Speaker 1: for you. I think everybody it was was not shocked,

1071
00:59:27,640 --> 00:59:32,720
Speaker 1: but but sad to see Matt Donald go on Night one.

1072
00:59:33,360 --> 00:59:36,440
Speaker 1: Can you believe how much attention that got? Fund to

1073
00:59:36,440 --> 00:59:38,360
Speaker 1: like grocery store Joe, but like, let's be real, He's

1074
00:59:38,400 --> 00:59:41,400
Speaker 1: not grocery He's not grocery store drive. And everybody's been

1075
00:59:41,400 --> 00:59:43,400
Speaker 1: giving me heck about that. But I want to say

1076
00:59:43,720 --> 00:59:46,160
Speaker 1: I got really excited about the tractor. I was like

1077
00:59:46,440 --> 00:59:48,840
Speaker 1: if somebody I had said before, somebody comes out in

1078
00:59:48,840 --> 00:59:51,720
Speaker 1: a tractor and I got I got a farmer, hot,

1079
00:59:51,760 --> 00:59:55,960
Speaker 1: sexy country boy um all in and then I see him,

1080
00:59:55,960 --> 00:59:59,600
Speaker 1: I'm like, oh my god, I think your tractor sexy.

1081
01:00:00,680 --> 01:00:03,600
Speaker 1: And then come to found out he had never been

1082
01:00:03,640 --> 01:00:05,800
Speaker 1: on a tractor and didn't have a farm, and I

1083
01:00:05,840 --> 01:00:07,600
Speaker 1: was like, what other lives? Are you going to tell

1084
01:00:07,600 --> 01:00:11,120
Speaker 1: me through this thing? So that was the reason. But

1085
01:00:11,160 --> 01:00:14,000
Speaker 1: then he's so like when I was watching the episode back,

1086
01:00:14,160 --> 01:00:17,360
Speaker 1: like such a sweet guy, just not my guy, you know.

1087
01:00:17,560 --> 01:00:20,120
Speaker 1: The same with Chason, Like okay, so Chason was the

1088
01:00:20,160 --> 01:00:22,080
Speaker 1: other one eliminated. Note when I was like, why did you?

1089
01:00:22,200 --> 01:00:24,160
Speaker 1: Why did you eliminate those two because they seem to

1090
01:00:24,160 --> 01:00:27,880
Speaker 1: have potential, but they did. Um, there's a lot of stuff,

1091
01:00:27,920 --> 01:00:31,439
Speaker 1: you know. It's ultimately the first night is really hard

1092
01:00:31,480 --> 01:00:33,920
Speaker 1: to decide because I don't know these jokers, Like, I

1093
01:00:33,920 --> 01:00:36,440
Speaker 1: have no idea, I don't I don't know. I'm just

1094
01:00:36,480 --> 01:00:42,680
Speaker 1: trying to just guessing at first. Big thing that got

1095
01:00:42,920 --> 01:00:44,640
Speaker 1: a lot of attention Night one is the fact that

1096
01:00:44,720 --> 01:00:49,480
Speaker 1: Luke didn't give you his jacket. Did he say I

1097
01:00:49,600 --> 01:00:51,720
Speaker 1: thought that you didn't want to ruin your outfit with

1098
01:00:51,800 --> 01:00:54,840
Speaker 1: his ugly jacket. Well, he did have a box. He

1099
01:00:55,240 --> 01:01:00,440
Speaker 1: wore a square jacket. But also it's about a nuity.

1100
01:01:00,480 --> 01:01:03,160
Speaker 1: I'll just be honest, like they need to have their

1101
01:01:03,240 --> 01:01:05,640
Speaker 1: jacket on and I need to be in my pretty dress.

1102
01:01:05,800 --> 01:01:08,360
Speaker 1: And so even though I was freezing, they're not really

1103
01:01:08,400 --> 01:01:10,520
Speaker 1: allowed to give me their jackets because they need to

1104
01:01:10,560 --> 01:01:13,280
Speaker 1: look fresh. Did he offer He did offer it like

1105
01:01:13,680 --> 01:01:18,120
Speaker 1: fourteen times every guy offered me because I mean, I

1106
01:01:18,160 --> 01:01:20,000
Speaker 1: guess you can't tell as much, but I'm literally like

1107
01:01:20,120 --> 01:01:22,360
Speaker 1: shivering in every conversation, and they were like, I feel

1108
01:01:22,360 --> 01:01:24,080
Speaker 1: so bad, I'm so sorry. But that was the one

1109
01:01:24,120 --> 01:01:26,479
Speaker 1: they showed. Maybe I like, I'm cold. He did offer

1110
01:01:26,480 --> 01:01:29,600
Speaker 1: me his jacket. I just said, your jacket is really

1111
01:01:29,600 --> 01:01:33,320
Speaker 1: gonna miss at my outfit. Um okay, So I I

1112
01:01:33,360 --> 01:01:35,240
Speaker 1: want to go back to those guys. Those four guys

1113
01:01:35,240 --> 01:01:38,680
Speaker 1: are ones that I really feel strongly for, um strongly

1114
01:01:38,760 --> 01:01:42,760
Speaker 1: four on behalf of you. I also really like Tyler G.

1115
01:01:43,640 --> 01:01:48,160
Speaker 1: Tyler Tyler G looks more like Jared than I ever thought.

1116
01:01:48,760 --> 01:01:53,640
Speaker 1: So weird. The bone structure is so weird, jawliney, yeah,

1117
01:01:53,640 --> 01:01:55,919
Speaker 1: and the eye shape is so weird. But he would

1118
01:01:55,920 --> 01:01:59,040
Speaker 1: talk about undercover. I didn't notice him until your first

1119
01:01:59,080 --> 01:02:03,800
Speaker 1: day with him, um cutie. Yeah, he's really cute and

1120
01:02:03,880 --> 01:02:08,360
Speaker 1: I really enjoyed my time with him. Um yeah, okay,

1121
01:02:08,880 --> 01:02:12,880
Speaker 1: and I think everybody likes Everybody looked at those pictures initially,

1122
01:02:13,000 --> 01:02:15,360
Speaker 1: and the first night everybody was talking about Tyler. See,

1123
01:02:15,760 --> 01:02:19,880
Speaker 1: he looks like an f boy. He looks like you know,

1124
01:02:20,000 --> 01:02:23,920
Speaker 1: he looks like that. So I'll say he didn't talk

1125
01:02:23,920 --> 01:02:25,360
Speaker 1: to me the first night, and I was like, okay,

1126
01:02:25,360 --> 01:02:26,840
Speaker 1: he's good looking. And then when he didn't talk to

1127
01:02:26,880 --> 01:02:29,440
Speaker 1: me the first night, I was like, oh, you're on

1128
01:02:29,560 --> 01:02:32,960
Speaker 1: my freaking radar. But I was like, night, well, I

1129
01:02:33,000 --> 01:02:35,720
Speaker 1: didn't talk to eight guys. Oh my goodness. Yeah, that's

1130
01:02:35,760 --> 01:02:38,720
Speaker 1: the most that's ever talked to talk to you. Because

1131
01:02:38,720 --> 01:02:41,640
Speaker 1: when I'm in a conversation obviously, like now, I'm like,

1132
01:02:41,840 --> 01:02:45,320
Speaker 1: I wasn't doing the whole thing, like what's your favorite color?

1133
01:02:45,440 --> 01:02:48,680
Speaker 1: I was like invested. I'm very invested. When I'm in

1134
01:02:48,680 --> 01:02:51,240
Speaker 1: a conversation with somebody, I want them to feel comfortable.

1135
01:02:51,280 --> 01:02:53,000
Speaker 1: And it was all about for me the first night

1136
01:02:53,000 --> 01:02:56,120
Speaker 1: making them feel comfortable because I felt comfortable. And so yeah,

1137
01:02:56,160 --> 01:03:03,560
Speaker 1: I talked to the guys longer, and um, it was just, uh, yeah,

1138
01:03:03,640 --> 01:03:05,919
Speaker 1: we just ran out of time. Ill said a really

1139
01:03:05,960 --> 01:03:09,520
Speaker 1: funny story, Scott is really funny story time, and then

1140
01:03:09,560 --> 01:03:11,400
Speaker 1: we're gonna have to wrap it up. I should think

1141
01:03:11,400 --> 01:03:13,520
Speaker 1: I should tell her about Marcus. I think so too.

1142
01:03:15,520 --> 01:03:21,000
Speaker 1: You're gonna love so Another reason why um, I got

1143
01:03:21,200 --> 01:03:24,360
Speaker 1: y'areing about to love this is this hilarious okay. So

1144
01:03:24,400 --> 01:03:26,680
Speaker 1: another reason why it took me so long, um was

1145
01:03:26,720 --> 01:03:28,400
Speaker 1: because I had to get touch ups a lot because

1146
01:03:28,680 --> 01:03:31,800
Speaker 1: I was on accurated. Well, my nose always is red

1147
01:03:31,840 --> 01:03:34,760
Speaker 1: after every kiss or just one every every time, just

1148
01:03:34,960 --> 01:03:38,920
Speaker 1: for everything, so my nose for sure. But I was

1149
01:03:38,920 --> 01:03:43,200
Speaker 1: on accutane, i'ld talked very openly about mable you, thank you,

1150
01:03:43,320 --> 01:03:47,880
Speaker 1: and it had it was great, it it was amazing. Well,

1151
01:03:47,880 --> 01:03:51,120
Speaker 1: of course my first night, I start growing a bump

1152
01:03:51,160 --> 01:03:53,720
Speaker 1: on my face and it was really small and then

1153
01:03:54,040 --> 01:03:56,160
Speaker 1: like it's fine, like it'll cover up, and I'll say, Okay,

1154
01:03:56,640 --> 01:04:02,840
Speaker 1: this freaking joker grew row at an astronomical rate throughout

1155
01:04:02,840 --> 01:04:07,840
Speaker 1: the night. So we named it Marcus. Okay, and Marcus

1156
01:04:07,960 --> 01:04:10,760
Speaker 1: w While we named it Marcus is because when before

1157
01:04:10,760 --> 01:04:13,040
Speaker 1: I knew all the guys we would like talk about

1158
01:04:13,080 --> 01:04:15,480
Speaker 1: like scenarios, and Marcus was the guy that, like you

1159
01:04:15,520 --> 01:04:17,480
Speaker 1: didn't like that wind and go away, That was like

1160
01:04:17,520 --> 01:04:20,560
Speaker 1: the annoying guy. There was Marcus and Mikey, and you

1161
01:04:20,600 --> 01:04:22,800
Speaker 1: didn't want to be Marcus or Mikey. But these aren't

1162
01:04:22,800 --> 01:04:24,840
Speaker 1: real guys. These aren't real guys. These were just like

1163
01:04:24,880 --> 01:04:26,960
Speaker 1: before I knew the guy's names or whatever, we would

1164
01:04:27,000 --> 01:04:30,000
Speaker 1: like be talking about scenarios and it was like Marcus

1165
01:04:30,040 --> 01:04:32,200
Speaker 1: and Mikey, so like Marcus would be the gun that

1166
01:04:32,240 --> 01:04:37,040
Speaker 1: did this. So when my z came, we named it Marcus. Okay,

1167
01:04:37,200 --> 01:04:45,480
Speaker 1: so this thing it literally you can't even see it.

1168
01:04:45,480 --> 01:04:48,960
Speaker 1: It grew and grew and grew, and it was like, Marcus,

1169
01:04:49,120 --> 01:04:54,240
Speaker 1: go away. So after I sent Scott home or I

1170
01:04:54,320 --> 01:04:56,080
Speaker 1: let him out, I went back to the room. I

1171
01:04:56,080 --> 01:04:58,000
Speaker 1: mean I went back and I was like, you have

1172
01:04:58,120 --> 01:05:00,320
Speaker 1: to park, you have to powder mark mark. It's like

1173
01:05:00,400 --> 01:05:02,840
Speaker 1: he is going out of control right now. He's white.

1174
01:05:02,920 --> 01:05:04,600
Speaker 1: Now he wasn't white. Why is he white? Can I

1175
01:05:04,640 --> 01:05:06,960
Speaker 1: pop them know? Because he will bleed. It was terrible,

1176
01:05:07,720 --> 01:05:10,240
Speaker 1: So I'm talking about Marcus. After I left Scott and

1177
01:05:10,320 --> 01:05:13,880
Speaker 1: I walked back in the room and I went, well,

1178
01:05:13,960 --> 01:05:17,320
Speaker 1: Marcus is a piece of to all the guys instead

1179
01:05:17,320 --> 01:05:20,520
Speaker 1: of Scott, and I hear my producer and I just

1180
01:05:20,520 --> 01:05:22,520
Speaker 1: started talking and they're all they all had this really

1181
01:05:22,560 --> 01:05:24,560
Speaker 1: weird look on their face because I didn't even catch it,

1182
01:05:25,560 --> 01:05:30,920
Speaker 1: and I had my producer go it's Scott and I

1183
01:05:30,960 --> 01:05:34,320
Speaker 1: was like, I was like, or Scott whatever, his name

1184
01:05:34,360 --> 01:05:42,080
Speaker 1: is irrelevant. So I yelled Marcus. I yelled Marcus to

1185
01:05:42,280 --> 01:05:44,520
Speaker 1: all the guys, and then for weeks on people would

1186
01:05:44,520 --> 01:05:46,920
Speaker 1: be like, yeah, he was Marcus, and I'd be like,

1187
01:05:47,160 --> 01:05:50,400
Speaker 1: it doesn't matter. So I called Scott the name of

1188
01:05:50,440 --> 01:05:54,560
Speaker 1: my zip, which actually made sense. He's a Pussy Girls

1189
01:05:54,680 --> 01:05:59,400
Speaker 1: sky but yeah. So it was so funny. When I

1190
01:05:59,480 --> 01:06:02,800
Speaker 1: got home that thing was ready to go. It was incredible,

1191
01:06:02,840 --> 01:06:04,040
Speaker 1: but I was so up sad. I was like, of

1192
01:06:04,160 --> 01:06:08,920
Speaker 1: course the night that was so important to me, I

1193
01:06:09,000 --> 01:06:11,040
Speaker 1: haven't had acne and forever, Like I was like, this

1194
01:06:11,200 --> 01:06:14,080
Speaker 1: is my moment, that's how it happens. I had this

1195
01:06:14,680 --> 01:06:18,280
Speaker 1: huge Marcus that start forming. I used to have assist

1196
01:06:18,400 --> 01:06:20,280
Speaker 1: that would just blow up every time. I'd be like,

1197
01:06:20,440 --> 01:06:22,080
Speaker 1: I have to text him, I'm gonna text him'm going

1198
01:06:22,120 --> 01:06:24,960
Speaker 1: to see him, and then i'd call it like his name. Yeahah,

1199
01:06:25,040 --> 01:06:27,360
Speaker 1: it's like, oh it's the something's it um. But yeah,

1200
01:06:27,400 --> 01:06:30,400
Speaker 1: I was really really flattered. When they asked me if

1201
01:06:30,440 --> 01:06:33,080
Speaker 1: there was somebody to inject your sip that day. Yeah,

1202
01:06:33,120 --> 01:06:36,120
Speaker 1: it was like, I'm so glad I could hook her

1203
01:06:36,280 --> 01:06:39,520
Speaker 1: up with an injector, even though you didn't see that person,

1204
01:06:39,600 --> 01:06:42,000
Speaker 1: but it's all good. I felt flattered. Actually helped me

1205
01:06:42,800 --> 01:06:45,800
Speaker 1: marlp you on your big first week anyway. Okay, I

1206
01:06:45,880 --> 01:06:47,720
Speaker 1: know you have other I Heart interviews you have to

1207
01:06:47,800 --> 01:06:49,760
Speaker 1: run to, but Hannah, this has been the most incredible.

1208
01:06:49,760 --> 01:06:51,240
Speaker 1: You're gonna have to come back because we're gonna have

1209
01:06:51,320 --> 01:06:55,400
Speaker 1: to have more fun, more fun. This is so you're

1210
01:06:55,440 --> 01:06:59,720
Speaker 1: the best for all your stories and um, we cannot

1211
01:06:59,760 --> 01:07:02,040
Speaker 1: wait to get into watching your season and see what happened.

1212
01:07:03,320 --> 01:07:05,200
Speaker 1: And I didn't even grill you about your guys and

1213
01:07:05,360 --> 01:07:09,720
Speaker 1: like talk about what your face looked like. Okay, all right, bye, Hannah,

1214
01:07:09,800 --> 01:07:10,640
Speaker 1: thank you, thank by