WEBVTT - TIRES AND TIRED 0:00:00.280 --> 0:00:02.000 All from Nick. 0:00:04.200 --> 0:00:05.040 Hi is this Nick? 0:00:05.720 --> 0:00:06.040 Hello? 0:00:07.240 --> 0:00:07.480 Hey? 0:00:07.520 --> 0:00:08.280 How you doing Nick? 0:00:08.960 --> 0:00:09.200 Hey? 0:00:09.240 --> 0:00:11.760 Man, I didn't expect to be on that's crazy. 0:00:12.760 --> 0:00:15.800 I didn't expect anyone to ever call into this thing ever, 0:00:15.920 --> 0:00:19.079 So we are in the same kayak. 0:00:19.960 --> 0:00:22.639 Oh wow, dude, first caller, This is a lot of pressure. 0:00:24.440 --> 0:00:26.119 Hold on real quick. But why why is it a 0:00:26.120 --> 0:00:26.599 lot of press? 0:00:26.640 --> 0:00:29.120 Tell me? Let's get into the pressure that you're feeling. 0:00:29.160 --> 0:00:32.479 Tell me more, what exactly do you feel pressured to do? 0:00:33.440 --> 0:00:33.680 Well? 0:00:33.840 --> 0:00:36.400 Well, I saw you on TikTok about a year ago 0:00:36.800 --> 0:00:40.639 and then I I just recently, like I'll put on 0:00:40.680 --> 0:00:43.519 your stream highlights in the car and on the way 0:00:43.520 --> 0:00:47.879 to work, and uh, I don't know, man, I just. 0:00:47.840 --> 0:00:48.920 This is the first time calling in. 0:00:52.800 --> 0:00:55.480 Okay, so you've been You've listened to the stream highlights 0:00:55.520 --> 0:00:58.319 on the podcast, But have you Is there anything in 0:00:58.360 --> 0:01:03.120 particular that maybe you wanted to talk about? It's fine 0:01:03.160 --> 0:01:06.320 if not, we can just be river people. But if 0:01:06.400 --> 0:01:09.399 there is somehow I'm happy to discuss. 0:01:10.600 --> 0:01:10.839 Yeah. 0:01:10.880 --> 0:01:16.600 Man, I actually have been thinking about this for a minute, 0:01:16.640 --> 0:01:20.440 Like if I ever called in, which is today, if 0:01:20.560 --> 0:01:24.240 I was to talk about anything, it'd be about my work, 0:01:26.200 --> 0:01:30.920 my work slash home life, M I feel like I 0:01:30.959 --> 0:01:36.720 put more into work than I do at home, which 0:01:36.760 --> 0:01:40.560 is I don't know if that's an issue or what. 0:01:44.080 --> 0:01:46.320 You put more into work than you don't? First of all, 0:01:46.360 --> 0:01:48.680 real quick, sorry, I have to do this. Everyone in 0:01:48.720 --> 0:01:51.480 the chat. Can you all hear Nick? 0:01:53.520 --> 0:01:54.559 This is what this happens. 0:01:54.640 --> 0:01:57.080 I'll talk to someone for a long time, then I'll 0:01:57.080 --> 0:01:58.559 look at the chat and I'll be like, they can't 0:01:58.560 --> 0:02:00.960 hear anyone? 0:02:01.240 --> 0:02:02.440 Okay, perfect, all right? 0:02:02.480 --> 0:02:06.120 So you put to more work more uh uh more 0:02:06.160 --> 0:02:08.080 into your work than you do into your home life. 0:02:08.080 --> 0:02:09.120 What do you do for work? 0:02:10.000 --> 0:02:13.040 I work at a tire shop. I'm a third in 0:02:13.080 --> 0:02:17.320 command at a tire shop, and I I love my job, 0:02:17.480 --> 0:02:23.079 and it's not that's not an issue. It's mostly I 0:02:23.120 --> 0:02:26.079 don't know. I don't feel like I'm putting as much 0:02:26.160 --> 0:02:28.160 work as i'd like to into my relationship. 0:02:29.160 --> 0:02:32.959 M How your relationship? When you say your relationship, do 0:02:33.000 --> 0:02:35.040 you mean your relationships across the board or are we 0:02:35.080 --> 0:02:37.720 talking about a romantic relationship that you're involved. 0:02:37.320 --> 0:02:41.560 With mostly romantic. I have a fiance and we own 0:02:41.600 --> 0:02:48.000 a house together, and we don't really I mean, you know, 0:02:48.080 --> 0:02:52.919 we work several hours and come home and just kind 0:02:52.919 --> 0:02:56.880 of chill out, but you know, we're just kind of there, 0:02:57.160 --> 0:02:58.520 you know, it's not really. 0:03:00.280 --> 0:03:00.720 I don't know. 0:03:02.480 --> 0:03:04.359 So she's working several hours as well. 0:03:05.240 --> 0:03:08.000 Yeah, yeah, and it's mostly when I get home, she's 0:03:08.040 --> 0:03:11.040 not really there. But on our days off we do 0:03:11.600 --> 0:03:14.920 spend time together. But I'm not one there, you know, 0:03:16.080 --> 0:03:21.280 like I'm I'm I'm always thinking about something else. It's 0:03:22.600 --> 0:03:24.760 work related at least interesting. 0:03:24.800 --> 0:03:26.760 You're not one hundred percent there, So you're hanging out 0:03:26.760 --> 0:03:30.200 with her, but you're not really there. Your mind is 0:03:30.280 --> 0:03:32.440 focused on something work related. 0:03:32.520 --> 0:03:33.760 I understand that for sure. 0:03:34.639 --> 0:03:38.600 Mmm mm hmmm. 0:03:39.240 --> 0:03:41.080 When your mind, when you say you're not really there, 0:03:41.120 --> 0:03:43.560 when you're and you're thinking about stuff like give give 0:03:43.560 --> 0:03:46.160 me an example, like what do you like last time 0:03:46.200 --> 0:03:47.080 you were with her. 0:03:48.560 --> 0:03:50.960 And your mind was somewhere else? What where was your 0:03:51.000 --> 0:03:51.880 mind exactly? 0:03:51.960 --> 0:03:52.480 What? What? 0:03:52.480 --> 0:03:52.880 What's like? 0:03:53.040 --> 0:03:55.440 What specifically were you thinking about? You can get very 0:03:55.440 --> 0:03:58.280 specific if you want, Like you're like, oh, I saw 0:03:58.600 --> 0:04:01.800 I saw some god. On my drive home, I saw 0:04:01.840 --> 0:04:03.960 a guy with a flat tire and I should have 0:04:04.080 --> 0:04:06.960 made a U turn and tailed him until I was like, hey, 0:04:07.000 --> 0:04:09.480 you come to our tire shop. What was the thought 0:04:10.120 --> 0:04:10.720 that you know? 0:04:10.960 --> 0:04:14.880 That's that's actually in my state. That's how you get stabbed. 0:04:15.720 --> 0:04:19.080 But she'll get she'll get upset at me because like 0:04:19.160 --> 0:04:23.880 I'll get home and I'll just like fucking research tires man, 0:04:25.400 --> 0:04:28.520 like on the website, Like what kind of technology do 0:04:28.600 --> 0:04:29.440 these tires have? 0:04:29.680 --> 0:04:29.920 Man? 0:04:30.640 --> 0:04:32.440 They're freak, They're very interesting. 0:04:33.200 --> 0:04:40.440 Mmmm. Well see, you know this is this is a 0:04:40.440 --> 0:04:43.479 tough one because on one hand, I'm like, you know, 0:04:43.640 --> 0:04:49.440 it's such a rare thing to like your job that much, 0:04:49.560 --> 0:04:51.200 because this is a good thing, right because when you 0:04:51.279 --> 0:04:54.000 because you said to me, at least what I'm hearing 0:04:54.000 --> 0:04:57.640 from you is like I get home from my job 0:04:57.680 --> 0:05:00.440 working all day at tires, and I'm like, and you 0:05:00.480 --> 0:05:04.039 go home and you research tires like for fun. 0:05:05.040 --> 0:05:07.479 I know, I know it sounds fucking nuts. 0:05:08.240 --> 0:05:10.160 No, no, it's I know. I don't think it sounds 0:05:10.240 --> 0:05:13.160 much at all because what what what I didn't want 0:05:13.200 --> 0:05:15.640 to hear I thought you were gonna say it was 0:05:15.680 --> 0:05:21.080 like you're not there because you're like stressed about your job. 0:05:21.120 --> 0:05:22.720 You don't sound like you're stressed. You sound like you're 0:05:22.720 --> 0:05:24.479 actually very much enjoying what you're doing. 0:05:25.920 --> 0:05:27.000 Yeah, one hunder. 0:05:30.160 --> 0:05:32.520 Huh what do you find? 0:05:32.680 --> 0:05:33.080 What do you find? 0:05:33.120 --> 0:05:34.760 So interesting about tires. 0:05:35.440 --> 0:05:39.599 Dude, like the tread patterns, Like I like really big tires, 0:05:40.120 --> 0:05:46.159 I like really small tires. Like you can see kind 0:05:46.200 --> 0:05:50.479 of how much work somebody somewhere has put into a 0:05:50.600 --> 0:05:56.160 tire by just looking at like the tread and uh 0:05:56.640 --> 0:05:59.080 and just like damn, like somebody put a lot. 0:05:58.920 --> 0:06:02.920 Of work into that ship it, you know, m h 0:06:03.560 --> 0:06:05.080 And I find that fascinating. 0:06:07.400 --> 0:06:11.479 Get what's your favorite tire company? Because automatically, if I 0:06:11.520 --> 0:06:15.520 ever have a tire related question, like, you're the You're 0:06:15.640 --> 0:06:16.040 the guy. 0:06:16.240 --> 0:06:19.919 You really you're not like just doing this for a living. 0:06:19.960 --> 0:06:24.560 You care deeply about tires. 0:06:26.120 --> 0:06:28.880 Yeah, Man, if I was to because I'm a big 0:06:29.520 --> 0:06:36.760 I love Yokohama because man, they they offer such a 0:06:36.800 --> 0:06:44.159 safe tire that's such a low cost compared to other tires. Man, 0:06:44.360 --> 0:06:47.120 So if you need a tire, I would go with Yokohama. 0:06:48.279 --> 0:06:55.200 Mm hmm. So this is interesting to me because on 0:06:55.200 --> 0:06:57.000 one hand, you know, I feel like you're very lucky 0:06:57.040 --> 0:06:58.880 because it is it's a very. 0:07:01.000 --> 0:07:03.080 Rare thing. I feel like to. 0:07:03.600 --> 0:07:07.320 Genuinely enjoy what you're doing the way that I can 0:07:07.360 --> 0:07:12.160 tell that you do, but you're like obsessed with times 0:07:12.360 --> 0:07:13.960 I don't I don't know. I don't have I don't 0:07:14.000 --> 0:07:17.560 I don't have like a like advice for you or anything. 0:07:17.640 --> 0:07:22.120 But like, I think it's nice that your your mind 0:07:22.360 --> 0:07:27.440 is is on work, but in a good way, like 0:07:27.480 --> 0:07:29.480 you like you're enjoying it so much. Like that's not 0:07:29.520 --> 0:07:33.040 the that's not the common story people write, you know, 0:07:33.080 --> 0:07:35.600 the common The common story is like, oh, I can't 0:07:35.640 --> 0:07:37.880 be with my loved ones because like I'm stressed out 0:07:37.920 --> 0:07:38.840 about something else. 0:07:39.720 --> 0:07:42.840 You know, So it's a good you have a good problem. 0:07:43.680 --> 0:07:52.120 I understand that, but it it's if if and I'm 0:07:52.160 --> 0:07:55.320 seeing the chat, I know, I know how you are 0:07:55.400 --> 0:07:59.440 about like being one with the call, but I'm not. 0:07:59.640 --> 0:08:02.000 I don't work for Yokohama. That's just what. 0:08:02.040 --> 0:08:08.720 I oh no, oh no, the chat you you don't know. 0:08:08.880 --> 0:08:10.800 I don't think you work for Yokohama at all. I 0:08:10.800 --> 0:08:15.560 think you are just a guy who is passionate about tires, 0:08:16.160 --> 0:08:20.200 giving his genuine opinion. I actually I know for a 0:08:20.440 --> 0:08:24.600 I just no, you are not someone I feel like 0:08:24.640 --> 0:08:27.320 you would rather die than give an opinion about a 0:08:27.400 --> 0:08:30.360 tire that is not true to how you believe. 0:08:30.600 --> 0:08:33.119 I I believe that about. 0:08:32.880 --> 0:08:40.920 You, dude. I fucking perish before a false opinion is given. 0:08:40.920 --> 0:08:42.960 That's just not what is What does your wife do? 0:08:44.559 --> 0:08:47.920 She works at a bath and body works, which is kind. 0:08:47.760 --> 0:08:56.200 Of she as as as die hard interested in soaps 0:08:56.320 --> 0:08:57.640 as you are in tires. 0:08:59.120 --> 0:09:02.800 Uh some yeah, I mean she's always coming home with 0:09:02.840 --> 0:09:07.560 like candles and ship and uh you know, it's great. 0:09:07.600 --> 0:09:12.800 The house smells wonderful all the time. But she's not 0:09:12.960 --> 0:09:17.240 as invested into it as I am with tires, you 0:09:17.280 --> 0:09:19.040 know what I mean? Mm hmm. 0:09:21.960 --> 0:09:24.280 Now okay, So you told when you told me, you 0:09:24.360 --> 0:09:30.480 were like, what does this sound good? So when you 0:09:30.559 --> 0:09:35.800 told me that you're afraid your you're upset that you're 0:09:35.800 --> 0:09:39.079 not being present with hers. But is that coming from 0:09:39.200 --> 0:09:41.120 you or does any of that come from her? 0:09:41.200 --> 0:09:41.280 Like? 0:09:41.320 --> 0:09:44.680 What's her view on the Wait? Am I hold on? 0:09:44.760 --> 0:09:48.400 Craptis I'm disconnected? Am I back? 0:09:49.120 --> 0:09:49.360 Yeah? 0:09:49.400 --> 0:09:49.840 You're good? 0:09:50.920 --> 0:09:51.320 Hold on? 0:09:54.440 --> 0:09:55.040 Can you hear me? 0:09:55.480 --> 0:10:01.000 I can tell you about that anyway. 0:10:02.840 --> 0:10:05.080 You your wife? What does she think about all this? 0:10:06.880 --> 0:10:09.360 I don't know. She just kind of gets frustrated because 0:10:09.360 --> 0:10:13.960 I'm always talking about work, I'm always talking about tires. 0:10:17.640 --> 0:10:20.200 I don't know, man, it's it's it's a tough one 0:10:20.280 --> 0:10:24.240 because I don't know what she's thinking. I know what 0:10:24.320 --> 0:10:29.000 she says, but I mean we do we do other things, man, 0:10:29.160 --> 0:10:32.840 We do like we go to like amusement parks and 0:10:32.880 --> 0:10:38.520 ship and we like going to uh you know, like 0:10:38.600 --> 0:10:43.400 trying out different foods and stuff. But in the back 0:10:43.440 --> 0:10:45.560 of my mind, man, I just I just wish that 0:10:45.640 --> 0:10:52.520 I was at work, you know, like I like making money, 0:10:52.600 --> 0:10:54.920 and that's not the root of it all. But the money, 0:10:55.200 --> 0:10:55.920 I think the root. 0:10:55.800 --> 0:11:02.600 Of it all is uh tires. So yeah, man, well listen, 0:11:02.600 --> 0:11:06.199 what'd you say? My name was Nick? Nick. 0:11:06.640 --> 0:11:08.559 I'm well Nick. 0:11:08.679 --> 0:11:10.720 Look, I don't have any like concrete advice for you, 0:11:10.840 --> 0:11:13.120 except you know, the sort of platitudes that everyone would 0:11:13.120 --> 0:11:17.920 tell you about, you know, making dedicated time to not 0:11:18.040 --> 0:11:22.319 think about tires. But you know, I'll say my immediate 0:11:22.360 --> 0:11:24.520 thoughts is, consider self lucky. You have a thing that 0:11:24.559 --> 0:11:28.720 you actually enjoy doing that is your job. You know, 0:11:28.840 --> 0:11:33.080 not everyone can say that, So consider yourself lucky in 0:11:33.080 --> 0:11:34.000 that regard. 0:11:36.160 --> 0:11:39.480 Mister get thank you so much for having me time. 0:11:40.520 --> 0:11:44.880 I'm pretty sure, like I'm ninety nine percent sure, I'm 0:11:44.920 --> 0:11:47.440 going to watch your stuff for the rest of my life. 0:11:48.760 --> 0:11:51.760 Beautiful. Hey, if I'm ever in your town, I'm coming 0:11:51.800 --> 0:11:52.760 by the tire shop. 0:11:53.160 --> 0:11:53.679 Where do you live? 0:11:53.679 --> 0:11:53.920 Again? 0:11:53.920 --> 0:11:54.520 What's your town? 0:11:55.320 --> 0:12:00.360 It's it's actually in Virginia. Okay, I I hope you 0:12:00.440 --> 0:12:04.040 understand this. I'm not really comfortable with the exact location, 0:12:04.160 --> 0:12:05.319 but it's in the Richmond. 0:12:05.280 --> 0:12:06.280 Oh for sure. For sure. 0:12:06.360 --> 0:12:10.120 No, you'd get mobbed. Everyone here would be like, oh, 0:12:10.200 --> 0:12:14.679 this is my new tire guy. Now, well beautiful, I'll 0:12:14.720 --> 0:12:16.439 come to you next time I need tires. 0:12:16.960 --> 0:12:18.480 Thank you, Nick. You have a good rest of the night. 0:12:19.000 --> 0:12:20.240 I love you guy. 0:12:21.120 --> 0:12:21.320 Nick. 0:12:21.400 --> 0:12:27.800 Forever Baby goes on the line taking your phone calls 0:12:27.880 --> 0:12:36.840 every night, goes to teaching you. 0:12:40.520 --> 0:12:49.200 Hello, Hey, hey, how are you GEK. 0:12:51.280 --> 0:12:52.040 I'm doing good. 0:12:52.120 --> 0:12:57.280 I'm streaming live on on spank bang dot com and 0:12:57.400 --> 0:12:59.120 I'm I'm having a good time. 0:13:00.920 --> 0:13:03.120 Hell yeah, hell yeah. 0:13:03.200 --> 0:13:05.760 Everyone always everyone always makes jokes at pornhub. But I 0:13:05.760 --> 0:13:08.040 feel like, like. 0:13:08.000 --> 0:13:10.360 Does anyone actually go to pornhub to watch porn? 0:13:12.559 --> 0:13:15.000 Okay, I'll be straight up right now and let you 0:13:15.040 --> 0:13:16.200 know I still use porn Hub. 0:13:16.760 --> 0:13:19.640 Okay, So when you go to watch porn, you type 0:13:19.640 --> 0:13:23.719 you go to your fucking chrome and you type www 0:13:23.840 --> 0:13:27.440 dot pornhub dot com. That's where you start. 0:13:28.320 --> 0:13:30.920 No, no, no, no, that's like way too much effort. 0:13:30.960 --> 0:13:34.520 I usually just do like you know, just pornhub in 0:13:34.520 --> 0:13:35.560 incognito and then. 0:13:35.480 --> 0:13:37.920 I go to the sight that way you go on 0:13:37.960 --> 0:13:40.400 incognito mode. 0:13:40.640 --> 0:13:41.720 Uh, yes, yes, I do. 0:13:42.920 --> 0:13:43.319 Wow. 0:13:43.480 --> 0:13:45.600 I remember I got to a certain age where I 0:13:45.720 --> 0:13:49.679 was like, I think I remember the sort of age 0:13:49.720 --> 0:13:52.720 bracket that I got to where I stopped clearing my 0:13:52.880 --> 0:13:58.400 history and I was just like, what who's looking? First 0:13:58.480 --> 0:14:00.920 of all, Second of all, what are they gonna? It's 0:14:00.960 --> 0:14:05.120 not illegal? What do I have to hide? 0:14:05.120 --> 0:14:05.400 I don't know. 0:14:05.480 --> 0:14:09.400 I have to hide myself, man, I don't want I 0:14:09.400 --> 0:14:10.520 don't want people knowing. 0:14:10.280 --> 0:14:11.200 What I like. 0:14:11.480 --> 0:14:13.280 What if somebody gets my phone or something? 0:14:13.280 --> 0:14:13.640 I don't know. 0:14:13.720 --> 0:14:16.720 I'm paranoid though, It's fair. 0:14:19.120 --> 0:14:22.000 Jay, What's uh? What's going on? I'm a gecko, You're 0:14:23.120 --> 0:14:25.200 a void. I don't know what you are exactly, but 0:14:25.240 --> 0:14:28.480 you are a voice on the phone right now. What's uh? 0:14:28.720 --> 0:14:31.080 And what's what's what's what's what's happening? 0:14:34.160 --> 0:14:38.320 I'm say similar to how you're just get I'm just Jay. 0:14:38.480 --> 0:14:38.880 I don't know. 0:14:42.400 --> 0:14:45.160 Well, you said you told our call screen or something 0:14:45.200 --> 0:14:46.800 that you wanted to talk about. I forget what it was, 0:14:46.840 --> 0:14:47.480 but I knew it was. 0:14:47.440 --> 0:14:52.440 Something Okay, So I have a sugar daddy and this 0:14:52.600 --> 0:14:53.680 happened very recently. 0:14:54.280 --> 0:14:54.640 Mm hmm. 0:14:59.000 --> 0:15:00.800 I really don't know even to start with it. 0:15:02.120 --> 0:15:05.720 Yeah, so you said recently, So you are new to 0:15:06.720 --> 0:15:13.440 the the idea of having a sugar debt or the practice. 0:15:14.360 --> 0:15:18.040 Yes, because I was not like openly searching or looking 0:15:18.160 --> 0:15:21.320 for one. This dude literally just slid in my DMS 0:15:21.520 --> 0:15:26.120 and offered to, like, you know, give me cash, and 0:15:26.280 --> 0:15:29.760 it's been going pretty great. He's not a psycho, he's 0:15:29.920 --> 0:15:32.760 actually not some dirty old man. He's like thirty three, 0:15:33.240 --> 0:15:34.720 he's pretty young, fairly young. 0:15:38.280 --> 0:15:45.040 And was this your first ever offer to be someone's 0:15:45.080 --> 0:15:45.680 sugar baby? 0:15:47.720 --> 0:15:50.680 Yes? I, like I said, I never really like went 0:15:50.760 --> 0:15:54.200 out posting on like, you know, websites looking for one 0:15:54.240 --> 0:15:56.840 like this dude literally just slid in my DMS and 0:15:56.880 --> 0:15:59.560 it's been working out surprisingly well. 0:16:00.600 --> 0:16:04.120 Interesting And did you did you accept it? Did you 0:16:04.200 --> 0:16:07.480 start entering into this this relationship immediately or did you 0:16:07.520 --> 0:16:10.000 do you have any apprehensions beforehand? 0:16:12.560 --> 0:16:15.400 I definitely had apprehensions, just because, like I'm a very 0:16:15.440 --> 0:16:18.880 self conscious person. So I like made it really clear, 0:16:19.000 --> 0:16:21.240 like this is what I don't want, this is what 0:16:21.280 --> 0:16:23.840 I'm cool with and I also like wanted to meet 0:16:23.880 --> 0:16:25.880 him in a public place a few times before. I 0:16:25.960 --> 0:16:27.960 was like, you know, comfortable with anything. 0:16:32.920 --> 0:16:36.720 Okay, So how many times you met up with them? 0:16:36.800 --> 0:16:39.640 I've only met him in person three times and it's 0:16:39.800 --> 0:16:42.880 been out for coffee another time for lunch. 0:16:43.120 --> 0:16:45.000 Jay, do me do me a huge favorite? Can you 0:16:45.040 --> 0:16:46.240 take me off of speaker phone? 0:16:47.840 --> 0:16:48.920 You're not on speaker phone? 0:16:49.520 --> 0:16:51.200 Oh? What am I on? I feel like I'm on some. 0:16:53.480 --> 0:16:54.320 Do you feel like you're on some? 0:16:55.160 --> 0:16:55.240 No? 0:16:55.440 --> 0:16:56.880 Like, am I on like your AirPods? 0:16:57.040 --> 0:16:59.360 Or no? 0:16:59.480 --> 0:17:00.400 You're just on my phone? 0:17:01.120 --> 0:17:01.640 Oh? 0:17:01.720 --> 0:17:03.360 Okay, maybe it's maybe I'm crazy. All right, So you 0:17:03.400 --> 0:17:04.520 met up with him for coffee? 0:17:07.760 --> 0:17:10.879 Yeah, I met him up for coffee and then lunch 0:17:10.880 --> 0:17:12.040 and then coffee again. 0:17:13.320 --> 0:17:15.760 Okay and all all. 0:17:16.160 --> 0:17:17.199 So he just pays you? 0:17:18.440 --> 0:17:19.320 How much is he paying you? 0:17:21.880 --> 0:17:24.120 So right now it kind of just depends. He's been 0:17:24.240 --> 0:17:26.480 just throwing me cash and he put it out there, 0:17:26.560 --> 0:17:28.280 is that like if I do decide to have to 0:17:28.320 --> 0:17:30.520 chext with him, he will give me five thousand dollars 0:17:30.600 --> 0:17:36.200 up front, But as far as the coffee, meats and stuff, 0:17:36.200 --> 0:17:38.760 he gave me three hundred dollars one time, and then 0:17:38.840 --> 0:17:41.640 four hundred another time, and then the most recent coffee 0:17:41.640 --> 0:17:44.040 meat he didn't give me anything because I was just 0:17:44.280 --> 0:17:46.960 hungry and he was in the area. 0:17:48.920 --> 0:17:50.280 So can I ask, And you don't have to tell 0:17:50.359 --> 0:17:53.440 me anything that you're not comfortable telling me, But are 0:17:53.520 --> 0:17:56.840 you are you considering going all the way for five 0:17:56.880 --> 0:17:58.480 thousand dollars? What are your thoughts? 0:17:58.560 --> 0:18:02.199 What are you're like, what's your thought process behind that? 0:18:04.280 --> 0:18:07.240 You know, I really am thinking about it because this dude, 0:18:07.320 --> 0:18:10.800 once again, he is very clearly like not a crazy person. 0:18:11.080 --> 0:18:13.960 He's also married and has a kid, Like I feel 0:18:13.960 --> 0:18:15.720 like I know a lot about his life that could 0:18:15.800 --> 0:18:18.639 ruin his life, but like, I would never do that 0:18:18.680 --> 0:18:22.000 to someone, So I am very highly considering it. And 0:18:22.040 --> 0:18:24.439 then he also told me upfront, like if I gave 0:18:24.520 --> 0:18:26.320 him a blowjob in the hotel room, it would. 0:18:26.080 --> 0:18:27.439 Be five hundred bucks. 0:18:30.000 --> 0:18:30.400 Hmmm. 0:18:32.480 --> 0:18:34.240 So I trust this dude, is what I guess I'm. 0:18:34.160 --> 0:18:34.680 Trying to say. 0:18:39.920 --> 0:18:43.399 See, I'm thinking in my head, I'm like, well, I 0:18:43.400 --> 0:18:47.560 don't know, I don't, I don't. I feel like, because 0:18:47.600 --> 0:18:49.439 I'm a guy, I don't have his good intuition for 0:18:49.480 --> 0:18:51.760 these kind of things. But part of me feels like 0:18:52.359 --> 0:18:54.639 going to a hotel with a straight like, you know, 0:18:54.760 --> 0:19:03.360 I don't know if it feels unsafe. 0:19:00.280 --> 0:19:01.320 I definitely okay. 0:19:01.359 --> 0:19:03.679 Also, no offense to this dude. But he's shorter than me, 0:19:03.720 --> 0:19:06.280 and he's also really skinny. I used to fight mma, 0:19:06.600 --> 0:19:13.919 so like I could definitely kick his ass. Okay, So 0:19:13.960 --> 0:19:15.760 I feel very safe in that department. 0:19:18.160 --> 0:19:22.320 Hmmm, did you say did you say he was People 0:19:22.359 --> 0:19:24.040 in the chatter saying don't do what? He's married? Did 0:19:24.080 --> 0:19:24.400 you don't? 0:19:24.440 --> 0:19:25.440 You didn't say he was married? 0:19:26.800 --> 0:19:27.320 Did you no? 0:19:27.520 --> 0:19:30.120 He he is married and his wife knows. 0:19:30.920 --> 0:19:36.080 His wife knows, Yes, how do you know his wife knows? 0:19:38.240 --> 0:19:40.920 We had a conversation about it, because I mean, I'm 0:19:40.960 --> 0:19:44.040 also engaged and my partner knows that I'm doing it, 0:19:44.240 --> 0:19:45.640 and she's really. 0:19:45.440 --> 0:19:46.760 Cool with it so far. 0:19:48.520 --> 0:19:52.000 And then he was like open and he's like, yeah, 0:19:52.040 --> 0:19:53.960 I'm married, I have a kid, blah blah blah, and 0:19:54.000 --> 0:19:55.160 he's like she knows about it. 0:19:55.280 --> 0:19:57.679 And I was like, oh, all right, I dude, so 0:19:57.840 --> 0:20:01.880 you're okay. So both of you are in committed long 0:20:01.960 --> 0:20:05.119 term relationships and both of your partners know and are 0:20:05.160 --> 0:20:05.800 okay with it. 0:20:07.640 --> 0:20:07.840 Yeah. 0:20:09.600 --> 0:20:16.240 Interesting, Just so, so your partner did did you say 0:20:16.320 --> 0:20:18.840 did you say, uh, it's your partners, is she. 0:20:20.400 --> 0:20:20.760 Yes? 0:20:21.240 --> 0:20:24.520 So is so your partner? Have you guys always been 0:20:24.680 --> 0:20:27.120 like open or is this like a new thing? 0:20:29.160 --> 0:20:32.439 We We never have had an open relationship. I was 0:20:32.560 --> 0:20:35.720 literally just trying to like make some side cash by 0:20:35.720 --> 0:20:39.280 posting my news online, and like my partner knew about that. 0:20:39.520 --> 0:20:41.560 But then that's when like the sugar daddy's flitting into 0:20:41.640 --> 0:20:43.640 the DM. 0:20:43.640 --> 0:20:45.880 So you floated with your partner the idea of having 0:20:45.880 --> 0:20:47.399 sex with this guy, and she's cool with it? 0:20:49.080 --> 0:20:51.480 Yes, hm hmm. 0:20:53.240 --> 0:20:56.040 I'm looking at her right now. She's literally watching the stream. 0:20:56.160 --> 0:20:57.720 I can't. 0:20:58.320 --> 0:21:00.639 I don't know my only person I ever with this, 0:21:01.520 --> 0:21:03.239 And I guess this is sort of a thing you 0:21:03.359 --> 0:21:05.359 would have with any guy, whether or not he's paying 0:21:05.359 --> 0:21:09.479 you money. Is like, you know, are are you at 0:21:09.600 --> 0:21:12.200 risk of going into some situation where where you'll get 0:21:12.200 --> 0:21:13.760 like fucking trafficked or something. 0:21:16.320 --> 0:21:18.960 I was like, and once again, I genuinely do feel 0:21:19.000 --> 0:21:22.960 like pretty safe. This dude is like clearly just like 0:21:23.240 --> 0:21:26.040 somewhat like he told me straight up, his wife isn't 0:21:26.040 --> 0:21:29.399 into like sex at all. She's asexual. He like is 0:21:29.400 --> 0:21:32.280 a very sexual person. He's like, I'm just like trying 0:21:32.320 --> 0:21:34.359 to get off and I was like cool dude, like 0:21:34.880 --> 0:21:38.480 that's his whole thing. He has a very normal life 0:21:38.480 --> 0:21:41.920 and that's all he wants. He's very boring if anything. 0:21:43.320 --> 0:21:47.639 Mm so what do you think are you thinking of 0:21:47.760 --> 0:21:48.600 you're gonna do it. 0:21:50.760 --> 0:21:51.680 For the five thousand? 0:21:51.920 --> 0:21:53.840 I don't know, but I'll think he's a for five 0:21:53.880 --> 0:21:54.280 in the buck? 0:22:00.280 --> 0:22:05.760 Now would you? Hmmm mm hmmm, So now would your 0:22:05.840 --> 0:22:07.480 would your girlfriend want to come with? 0:22:10.160 --> 0:22:11.120 I don't I. 0:22:11.080 --> 0:22:13.080 Don't think she would want to come with. 0:22:13.800 --> 0:22:14.879 She's shaking her head. 0:22:15.600 --> 0:22:18.280 No, I obviously cat. 0:22:19.800 --> 0:22:20.399 Catch doctor. 0:22:21.119 --> 0:22:21.960 Do you want to talk to her? 0:22:22.359 --> 0:22:22.560 Yeah? 0:22:22.560 --> 0:22:23.040 I would love to. 0:22:24.640 --> 0:22:25.880 Okay, I'm passing a rustle though. 0:22:29.200 --> 0:22:31.560 Hi yet, Hey, what's up? 0:22:33.240 --> 0:22:36.720 Nothing much? I was gonna play some DODA and then 0:22:37.000 --> 0:22:41.120 I can't say got on the call wait list, so I. 0:22:40.640 --> 0:22:41.240 Passed with you? 0:22:43.280 --> 0:22:46.120 Am I am? I I'm sorry if I'm taking away 0:22:46.119 --> 0:22:46.960 from your Dota time. 0:22:48.200 --> 0:22:51.560 No, no, no, no, I'm this is this is exciting. 0:22:52.840 --> 0:22:53.720 So what do you what do you? 0:22:53.760 --> 0:22:56.280 What are your thoughts on this situation? What's your name? 0:22:56.320 --> 0:23:01.720 By the way, I'm Netlieu. You know money is money, 0:23:02.800 --> 0:23:07.560 So I'm I'm comfortable in our relationships. We've been for 0:23:07.640 --> 0:23:13.359 like six years. We've met in high school. So I know, 0:23:13.760 --> 0:23:16.000 you know, we're good. So money is money. 0:23:16.119 --> 0:23:18.560 I don't really care. 0:23:17.920 --> 0:23:24.720 As long as the the sugar daddy is clean, and 0:23:24.840 --> 0:23:28.600 he is he's clean, so I don't care. 0:23:29.960 --> 0:23:32.639 M Well, I mean, I don't know. I guess this 0:23:32.720 --> 0:23:39.359 sounds like a done deal. Then, Yeah, what what do 0:23:39.400 --> 0:23:40.680 you do, Natalie? 0:23:41.400 --> 0:23:43.640 What's your what's your situation? 0:23:45.240 --> 0:23:49.200 I go to school for computer science and I work 0:23:49.400 --> 0:23:50.040 at a cafe. 0:23:53.520 --> 0:23:57.840 Beautiful, beautiful, sounds like sounds like you guys got a 0:23:57.880 --> 0:23:58.680 good life going on. 0:24:00.560 --> 0:24:00.960 Before. 0:24:02.840 --> 0:24:09.200 Yeah, that was that was easy. Crap with your girlfriend's 0:24:09.280 --> 0:24:14.520 name again, Jay, Jay? Yes, let me talk to Jay 0:24:14.560 --> 0:24:15.119 one more time. 0:24:16.200 --> 0:24:16.840 Yeah, of course. 0:24:19.600 --> 0:24:23.880 Hey, geg, what's up Jay? Well listen, Jay, I wish 0:24:23.920 --> 0:24:25.920 you good luck and whatever you choose to do. And 0:24:28.480 --> 0:24:31.879 God bless you, God bless you. 0:24:31.960 --> 0:24:32.160 Gek. 0:24:32.200 --> 0:24:34.200 I just real quick, real quick, I have one more question. 0:24:34.280 --> 0:24:35.920 Sorry, hit me, hit me in the face. 0:24:37.560 --> 0:24:37.920 You should. 0:24:38.320 --> 0:24:40.000 It's not a question, I guess it's more of a statement. 0:24:40.040 --> 0:24:41.040 I agree with chat. 0:24:41.280 --> 0:24:42.560 It's pay in my face around. 0:24:42.320 --> 0:24:43.040 I'm hanging out. 0:24:44.480 --> 0:24:45.959 No, no, no, no, no, it's not about the face. It's 0:24:45.960 --> 0:24:47.639 not about the face. Bean bag. You should get a 0:24:47.640 --> 0:24:48.000 bean bag. 0:24:48.800 --> 0:24:50.440 Ah a being bag. 0:24:50.440 --> 0:24:51.919 I would have if I got a bean bag, Chat, 0:24:51.960 --> 0:24:53.840 I would have to make it like really expensive. 0:24:55.440 --> 0:24:56.720 Well, because okay, Chat. 0:24:56.480 --> 0:24:58.840 Was talking about like while I was waiting on hold 0:24:58.840 --> 0:25:00.040 of all the money. 0:24:59.760 --> 0:25:01.679 That you would make, would would have to then go 0:25:01.760 --> 0:25:01.960 to me. 0:25:04.760 --> 0:25:06.480 You have to buy that chair. 0:25:08.480 --> 0:25:08.920 That's fine. 0:25:10.040 --> 0:25:11.760 How much does it cost to make a custom bean 0:25:11.760 --> 0:25:12.240 bag chair? 0:25:14.640 --> 0:25:16.400 You know, I don't know, I don't I don't make 0:25:16.440 --> 0:25:17.720 custom bean bag chairs. 0:25:17.760 --> 0:25:18.399 One hundred dollars? 0:25:18.400 --> 0:25:18.840 How do you know that? 0:25:19.520 --> 0:25:20.240 One hundred bucks? 0:25:20.240 --> 0:25:20.640 Apparently? 0:25:21.560 --> 0:25:23.040 Okay, I'll look into that. I'll look into that. 0:25:23.040 --> 0:25:27.040 Thank you for the suggestion, Jay, Yeah, you're welcome so much. 0:25:27.600 --> 0:25:29.560 Beautiful have aggressed to that. Thank you for going. 0:25:30.880 --> 0:25:36.880 God bless geck Asher, Hey, gek. 0:25:40.680 --> 0:25:44.359 What is going on baby? 0:25:45.000 --> 0:25:48.560 Nothing much. I'm just a lot of stress recently. 0:25:50.000 --> 0:25:52.000 Why are you stressed out? Asher? 0:25:56.119 --> 0:26:01.119 So to preference this? I am a trance guy and 0:26:01.119 --> 0:26:07.119 it's just a lot yep and it's just been a 0:26:07.119 --> 0:26:11.000 lot of like stuff relating to my work. I still 0:26:11.040 --> 0:26:14.120 get clupchy, even though like my voice is deep now 0:26:14.840 --> 0:26:18.600 I present his masculine and it's still just like I 0:26:18.640 --> 0:26:21.560 do everything I'm told to sit in that box. 0:26:22.200 --> 0:26:25.159 And what do you actually when you say when you 0:26:25.160 --> 0:26:27.520 hold on really quick just now, because I don't want 0:26:27.560 --> 0:26:29.000 you to gloss over it, because I'm kind of curious 0:26:29.040 --> 0:26:29.680 what you mean when you. 0:26:29.640 --> 0:26:32.240 Say you said. 0:26:33.520 --> 0:26:35.800 You do everything you can to fit in the box 0:26:35.840 --> 0:26:37.600 you're supposed to. What does that mean? 0:26:39.520 --> 0:26:45.760 So you know how people are supposed to see masculine, 0:26:46.800 --> 0:26:51.160 you know, you're supposed to be yeah, strong, and. 0:26:51.880 --> 0:26:59.640 You're sure you know so you so, so you try 0:26:59.640 --> 0:27:03.480 to act more masculine in an attempt to get people 0:27:03.520 --> 0:27:09.959 to see you as a quote, real man. Yes, and 0:27:10.000 --> 0:27:12.639 it sucks, okay, because I was gonna say, if you 0:27:12.960 --> 0:27:16.000 don't whose, I was gonna ask, like, do you do 0:27:16.040 --> 0:27:19.119 you do you feel inherently masculine or is that a 0:27:19.280 --> 0:27:23.679 thing that you only do to, like, you know, for 0:27:23.680 --> 0:27:25.399 for the sake of other people. 0:27:26.760 --> 0:27:28.159 I feel like I do it for the sake of 0:27:28.240 --> 0:27:32.439 other people most of the time, because it's just like 0:27:32.560 --> 0:27:35.160 I have to say, like, my dad's a football coach, 0:27:35.880 --> 0:27:38.879 so like I grew up around like super masculine dudes. 0:27:41.800 --> 0:27:46.320 So it's all this machowness that I've been trying to emilate, 0:27:46.800 --> 0:27:49.919 and it's just I'm not like that. Like I like 0:27:49.960 --> 0:27:53.399 to draw, you know, pink is a cute color. And 0:27:54.520 --> 0:27:58.560 you know, like I dress not like if I'm not 0:27:58.600 --> 0:28:00.960 in my work clothes, I dress a little more feminine 0:28:01.480 --> 0:28:03.400 than what would you considered more. 0:28:09.440 --> 0:28:10.120 Where do you work? 0:28:12.320 --> 0:28:14.600 I work at an organic grocery store. 0:28:15.240 --> 0:28:15.600 Do you like? 0:28:15.680 --> 0:28:16.600 Do you like working there? 0:28:18.720 --> 0:28:23.960 It pays well, so like that's why I'm there? What? 0:28:24.480 --> 0:28:28.399 Okay? So in your daily life, in your circles, be 0:28:28.560 --> 0:28:35.280 they family circles, work circles, friends circles, what circles that 0:28:35.359 --> 0:28:37.480 are present in your day life do you feel the 0:28:37.480 --> 0:28:43.120 most like like disrespected and uncomfortable? 0:28:43.200 --> 0:28:51.600 Then definitely my family circle because. 0:28:51.600 --> 0:28:53.360 Family, Sorry, it's a tough one. 0:28:54.920 --> 0:28:59.040 Yeah, Like my parents like if I try to talk 0:28:59.080 --> 0:29:01.720 about it through like really hush hush about it, like 0:29:01.760 --> 0:29:03.800 they don't want anything to do with it. 0:29:04.280 --> 0:29:04.680 Mm hmm. 0:29:04.880 --> 0:29:07.760 And then oh, don't even think about I don't even 0:29:07.800 --> 0:29:10.640 think about talking it to my extended family because oh lord, 0:29:11.280 --> 0:29:12.480 they're old Trump supporters. 0:29:12.480 --> 0:29:13.160 And move. 0:29:14.720 --> 0:29:17.480 Do you do you live with your parents? 0:29:19.400 --> 0:29:19.640 Yes? 0:29:19.720 --> 0:29:22.960 I still do, but I'm talking about moving out and 0:29:23.000 --> 0:29:25.160 going living with my boyfriend down in Houston. 0:29:25.760 --> 0:29:27.760 Okay, rock and roll. Okay, that's cool because that's why 0:29:27.800 --> 0:29:31.160 I was gonna say, is like I know it's it's tough, 0:29:31.320 --> 0:29:34.760 you know. Not everyone has like the the you know 0:29:35.200 --> 0:29:36.800 is fortunate enough to be able to like live with 0:29:36.840 --> 0:29:38.680 their parents and like, you know, save up money and 0:29:38.720 --> 0:29:42.280 all that shit, so you know, if you can. It 0:29:42.400 --> 0:29:45.680 sounds like it would be you know, you're employed, sounds 0:29:45.720 --> 0:29:48.640 like it would be for the best of your mental 0:29:48.680 --> 0:29:51.320 health to to live with your boyfriend down in Houston. 0:29:51.960 --> 0:29:54.600 So so, so I assume Houston is not where you live. 0:29:54.680 --> 0:29:58.760 Then no, I see you get a new gig. 0:30:00.840 --> 0:30:03.480 Yes, I would have to get a new job, and 0:30:04.160 --> 0:30:07.360 hopefully by the time I'm done with community college, I'll 0:30:07.400 --> 0:30:09.520 be able to get a better paying drop than when 0:30:09.560 --> 0:30:10.400 I have right now. 0:30:11.160 --> 0:30:19.200 Mm hmmmm, Well, you know, look Asher, uh uh, you 0:30:19.240 --> 0:30:23.880 probably don't need me to tell you this, but uh 0:30:24.240 --> 0:30:26.720 you know, look, it's it's not up to anyone else 0:30:26.760 --> 0:30:30.240 to define who you are as as as I feel like, 0:30:30.520 --> 0:30:37.080 you know, you know, and you know, have you. 0:30:37.320 --> 0:30:39.520 This place where you live? Where have you lived there 0:30:39.560 --> 0:30:40.280 your entire life? 0:30:42.000 --> 0:30:45.120 Yes, I moved to I lived at one side of 0:30:45.160 --> 0:30:47.440 the town and now I live at the other side 0:30:47.480 --> 0:30:51.480 of down with my parents, so I haven't moved much. 0:30:52.240 --> 0:30:56.200 Okay, Well, don't let don't let whatever. 0:30:55.960 --> 0:30:56.120 Like. 0:30:57.920 --> 0:31:05.320 The the the vibe is of that small town, and like, 0:31:08.560 --> 0:31:13.800 don't don't let that form your like grander idea of 0:31:13.880 --> 0:31:16.160 how people will. 0:31:15.880 --> 0:31:20.360 Respond to you in general. Does that make sense? Because like, yeah, 0:31:20.880 --> 0:31:22.160 does that make because I feel like if. 0:31:22.040 --> 0:31:24.280 You grew up in a small town where everyone is 0:31:24.360 --> 0:31:28.800 like sort of you know, thinks in a similar way 0:31:28.880 --> 0:31:31.000 and like is responding to you in a similar way, 0:31:31.080 --> 0:31:35.360 you you think, oh, everyone like you know, and I'm 0:31:35.400 --> 0:31:37.440 not saying this is you know how you're feeling, but 0:31:37.480 --> 0:31:40.480 I only you feel like everyone everywhere will never accept 0:31:40.520 --> 0:31:42.240 me every because, like you said, you're you're working with 0:31:42.280 --> 0:31:44.760 a very small sample size. 0:31:45.040 --> 0:31:57.280 Yeah, yes, yeah, hopefully soon too. Like if I move 0:31:57.320 --> 0:32:01.760 to a more basically blue area of Texas, then my 0:32:02.680 --> 0:32:05.000 I'm safer. But at the same time, I'm moving to 0:32:05.080 --> 0:32:11.400 a city which I'm just not comfortable with because like 0:32:11.640 --> 0:32:13.640 everything would be in walking distance? 0:32:15.840 --> 0:32:16.480 Is that not good? 0:32:17.160 --> 0:32:23.960 And no, it's good, but it's different for me. I'm 0:32:24.000 --> 0:32:27.000 not used to that, like convenience. 0:32:30.880 --> 0:32:34.160 Sorry for laughing, but why why is why are you 0:32:34.200 --> 0:32:37.000 making you're making convenient? Why is convenience bad? I've never 0:32:37.040 --> 0:32:41.000 heard someone talk about everything being in not walking distance. 0:32:41.680 --> 0:32:43.480 I've never heard someone present that as a as a 0:32:43.520 --> 0:32:44.160 negative thing. 0:32:45.920 --> 0:32:48.960 It's just weird to me because I have the driver 0:32:49.200 --> 0:32:54.000 or to get stuff and the idea of. 0:32:54.520 --> 0:32:57.080 Sucking and you want to be able to get fucking 0:32:57.120 --> 0:32:59.720 pizza down the street and not have to get in 0:32:59.720 --> 0:33:03.720 your part of it every time you want to, you know, 0:33:03.840 --> 0:33:05.200 do your laundry or whatever. 0:33:07.080 --> 0:33:11.760 It sounds amazing like, but it's just my brain just 0:33:11.800 --> 0:33:16.440 can't wrap around that. How like easy it is. 0:33:19.840 --> 0:33:21.920 I think, uh, I think you're gonna have I think 0:33:21.920 --> 0:33:24.600 you're gonna have fun. Ashure, I think it'll be cool. 0:33:24.760 --> 0:33:28.520 I think, uh uh, you know, it sounds like it 0:33:28.520 --> 0:33:30.040 sounds like it'll be good for you to get into 0:33:30.080 --> 0:33:32.560 a new environment. How old are about it? 0:33:32.640 --> 0:33:35.440 Yeah, that's what I'm thinking too. I am twenty two. 0:33:36.160 --> 0:33:40.000 Okay, word, did you uh do you have like a grant? 0:33:40.080 --> 0:33:41.920 You said you're going to community college and you're getting 0:33:41.920 --> 0:33:43.719 a new gig. Do you have like a like a 0:33:43.760 --> 0:33:46.280 grand thing that you want to do. 0:33:46.800 --> 0:33:50.520 I want to go into film by the same time. 0:33:51.640 --> 0:33:53.760 You know, I draw as well, so I can see 0:33:53.760 --> 0:33:56.440 that as like I take emissions and stuff like that 0:33:56.560 --> 0:34:02.560 on the side, so I could see that being like 0:34:02.600 --> 0:34:05.000 a part time job. And then I go work out 0:34:05.040 --> 0:34:07.760 a TV station for my full time job or something 0:34:07.800 --> 0:34:11.600 like that, and that sounds like the ideal dream for me. 0:34:14.760 --> 0:34:19.600 Damn, you know, I'm in Look. I think it's good that, uh, 0:34:19.800 --> 0:34:21.080 you're you're putting. 0:34:20.760 --> 0:34:23.000 Yourself out there. You know, you could have just stayed 0:34:23.040 --> 0:34:26.640 in your in your small town. You could have suppressed 0:34:27.000 --> 0:34:30.200 who you were to make other people happy. But you 0:34:30.239 --> 0:34:34.719 didn't do it, Asher, And I'm proud. I'm proud of 0:34:34.760 --> 0:34:44.720 you for that. That's pretty that's pretty cool. Keep keep sucking, 0:34:44.800 --> 0:34:49.600 rocking and rolling. Uh. I think I think that facing 0:34:49.719 --> 0:34:53.799 these uncomfortable things will work out for you in the in. 0:34:53.760 --> 0:34:57.040 The long run, definitely. 0:34:59.239 --> 0:34:59.760 Mm hmmm. 0:35:00.920 --> 0:35:04.680 Here's another thing that I that I'll that I'll tell 0:35:04.719 --> 0:35:07.359 you because I believe in this. I've talked to I've 0:35:07.360 --> 0:35:10.400 had I've had a few people call in here with 0:35:10.719 --> 0:35:14.200 a similar with similar problems as you I've taken. I've 0:35:14.239 --> 0:35:17.200 talked to people about this before, and I like to 0:35:17.239 --> 0:35:20.560 say that, like, uh, you know, I feel like when 0:35:20.600 --> 0:35:22.840 you when you're growing up in that small town environment, 0:35:22.880 --> 0:35:26.360 everyone will convince you that like you know, for example, 0:35:26.360 --> 0:35:30.239 you were talking about how you you know, uh, you 0:35:30.440 --> 0:35:36.400 like to present femininely. You dress feminine, but that other people, 0:35:36.960 --> 0:35:39.240 you know, give. 0:35:39.080 --> 0:35:39.880 Your ship for that. 0:35:40.200 --> 0:35:42.000 And I feel like if you if you have if 0:35:42.000 --> 0:35:44.200 you go up with that small town mentality, people will 0:35:44.200 --> 0:35:47.560 convince you that certain things about you are like are weaknesses, 0:35:49.120 --> 0:35:52.440 but but they're actually but they're actually but and maybe 0:35:52.480 --> 0:35:54.600 like it causes you to think about them as a 0:35:54.640 --> 0:35:57.440 weaknesses because like they they cause you experience, like that 0:35:57.520 --> 0:35:59.759 stress that you're talking about what they're but they're but 0:35:59.800 --> 0:36:03.719 they're strengths. Sure, their strengths, especially for you when you 0:36:03.760 --> 0:36:05.560 want to get into the media, right when you want 0:36:05.560 --> 0:36:08.279 to get into film, because when it comes time for 0:36:08.400 --> 0:36:11.160 you as a as an artist, as a as a 0:36:11.200 --> 0:36:16.359 filmmaker to like tell whatever your your story is, right 0:36:17.480 --> 0:36:20.920 that aspect of the story of that whatever aspects of 0:36:20.960 --> 0:36:23.600 the story that you thought were weaknesses, like you know, 0:36:24.040 --> 0:36:29.840 talking about dressing feminine and getting shipped for that, Like 0:36:30.239 --> 0:36:32.239 that's gonna become your strength. That's gonna be the thing 0:36:32.280 --> 0:36:36.160 that like people you know, like look at your fucking 0:36:36.200 --> 0:36:38.799 comic about or your film about and are like, oh, 0:36:38.840 --> 0:36:41.520 I had that exact same experience, and that makes me 0:36:41.600 --> 0:36:44.920 identify more with this person, and it's actually become a 0:36:44.960 --> 0:36:45.799 strength for you. 0:36:47.200 --> 0:36:53.680 Does that make sense. Yeah, definitely, alright, cool, don't forget 0:36:53.719 --> 0:36:54.080 about that. 0:36:55.840 --> 0:36:59.200 I want to ever beautiful. Thank you for calling Asher, 0:36:59.200 --> 0:37:00.000 Good luck to you. 0:37:01.560 --> 0:37:03.000 Thank you, and you have a great night. 0:37:04.120 --> 0:37:07.759 Hello, Hello, how are you? 0:37:08.760 --> 0:37:12.640 I had I had a nightmare story. I wanted to 0:37:12.640 --> 0:37:14.480 tell you. I'm gonna lay in my bed and just 0:37:14.520 --> 0:37:19.600 close my eyes. It kind of follows along perfectly with 0:37:21.120 --> 0:37:23.880 that conversation you had with that guy about kids destroying things. 0:37:24.239 --> 0:37:29.320 Oh yes, yes, yes, hey, an important podcast. I have adolescence. 0:37:30.320 --> 0:37:30.960 In my opinion. 0:37:31.200 --> 0:37:34.640 Yeah, and definitely. I mean and I wasn't a very 0:37:34.640 --> 0:37:38.480 destructive kid, but late if I destroyed something, it was 0:37:39.840 --> 0:37:41.279 it was on a big, bigger scale, you know what 0:37:41.360 --> 0:37:47.399 I mean. So I guess we'll just start start from the. 0:37:47.320 --> 0:37:51.200 Beginning, right sure, sure, hit me all right. 0:37:51.239 --> 0:37:54.360 So go back like which, by the way, I'm like 0:37:54.360 --> 0:37:57.359 twenty three right now, So go back like twelve years ago. 0:37:58.480 --> 0:38:04.920 My school did is like camping trip sing and there 0:38:05.040 --> 0:38:07.760 was our school is pretty small, so like a single 0:38:07.880 --> 0:38:12.280 class was like you know, forty kids, twenty boys, twenty girls. 0:38:12.960 --> 0:38:14.960 There was two classes that went on this camping trip, 0:38:15.840 --> 0:38:18.160 and so all the boys from the two classes slept 0:38:18.200 --> 0:38:21.520 in like a military style cabin, you know, with like 0:38:21.560 --> 0:38:24.600 the bunk beds and stuff like that, and there was 0:38:24.640 --> 0:38:29.120 about forty of us, and I think it was like 0:38:29.200 --> 0:38:33.520 the last night, the last night we were there, I 0:38:33.680 --> 0:38:38.680 like I went to go use the bathroom, right, and 0:38:38.719 --> 0:38:43.560 I clogged the toilet and there was no like plunger 0:38:43.640 --> 0:38:46.920 in there. I couldn't fix it, so I just kind 0:38:46.920 --> 0:38:48.640 of walked out, and you know, there was like a 0:38:48.640 --> 0:38:50.920 line of kids waiting to get into the bathroom. So 0:38:50.960 --> 0:38:52.879 somebody was like, dude, you clog the toilet. I'm like, well, 0:38:52.880 --> 0:38:55.799 what do you want me to do about it? And 0:38:55.880 --> 0:38:57.759 then he was like, I don't know. And then I 0:38:57.840 --> 0:39:01.759 was like, wait, wouldn't it be fun if we all 0:39:01.840 --> 0:39:05.360 like pooped in the same toilet. So I ended up 0:39:05.400 --> 0:39:09.040 getting like easily like twenty eight to thirty kids to 0:39:09.120 --> 0:39:14.279 like all take thumps in this toilet, right, and you know, 0:39:14.280 --> 0:39:17.239 we ended up like filling it up, and you know, 0:39:17.320 --> 0:39:21.440 we all went to sleep, and then the counselors came 0:39:21.480 --> 0:39:23.239 in the morning and saw what had happened, and they 0:39:23.239 --> 0:39:26.759 got like really pissed about it because like it was 0:39:26.920 --> 0:39:30.080 it was just like super cloud like there was nothing 0:39:30.120 --> 0:39:31.759 anybody could do about that. Like they had to call 0:39:31.800 --> 0:39:36.680 in plumbers and stuff like that. I'm sure, and you know, 0:39:36.960 --> 0:39:40.279 so that kind of ended that experience and for like 0:39:40.320 --> 0:39:43.279 the longest time, you know, that was something that like 0:39:43.360 --> 0:39:47.440 me and my friends would laugh about that we did. 0:39:49.440 --> 0:39:52.520 Any any questions so far, how many. 0:39:52.400 --> 0:39:56.319 Kids did you say pooped in this toilet? 0:39:56.480 --> 0:39:58.640 I would say somewhere between twenty eight to thirty five. 0:40:01.600 --> 0:40:07.880 You don't have to say, you know, I have to say, 0:40:08.560 --> 0:40:14.759 I think that this shows a strong leadership initiative on 0:40:14.800 --> 0:40:20.960 your part because it takes a lot of effort to 0:40:21.200 --> 0:40:27.720 mobilize and coordinate thirty people to achieve one common goal. 0:40:31.760 --> 0:40:36.760 Yeah, I would really say that, like we really traded 0:40:36.880 --> 0:40:39.000 like abandoned brothers. 0:40:40.200 --> 0:40:42.160 Especially how old were you guys? Again? 0:40:45.239 --> 0:40:50.160 Approximately, I don't remember, but like a twelve thirteen easily. 0:40:50.280 --> 0:40:54.719 I mean, you know, it's hard to I mean especially 0:40:55.920 --> 0:41:00.640 you know, children have very you know, short attention spans, 0:41:00.800 --> 0:41:02.640 you know, and and they're very fickle. 0:41:02.719 --> 0:41:08.080 It's hard to like, you know, mobilize that many people. 0:41:10.239 --> 0:41:13.799 No, there was definitely like a singular purpose and you know, 0:41:15.280 --> 0:41:19.839 I feel like we achieved something, but like I did 0:41:21.400 --> 0:41:24.000 have like I was really paranoid like after it happened, 0:41:24.000 --> 0:41:26.680 because I thought I was gonna get in trouble, and honestly, 0:41:26.760 --> 0:41:30.879 I like I should have, you know, but like it's 0:41:30.880 --> 0:41:33.719 one of those things where everybody is responsible, so you 0:41:33.760 --> 0:41:37.960 know you can't do yeah, but they didn't know that, 0:41:39.280 --> 0:41:39.600 And what. 0:41:39.680 --> 0:41:44.640 Sort of rhetoric did you use to convince people towards 0:41:44.719 --> 0:41:45.280 your cause? 0:41:49.920 --> 0:41:53.400 It was just kind of like I wasn't like manipulating people. 0:41:53.440 --> 0:41:56.280 It was more just like, hey, just to go ahead 0:41:56.280 --> 0:41:58.560 and use like wouldn't be funny? It would be funny, 0:41:58.600 --> 0:42:00.000 you know. I was just like, wouldn't it be funny? 0:42:00.640 --> 0:42:03.239 And they all agreed, so just kind of happened, and 0:42:03.280 --> 0:42:06.320 then I didn't really I wasn't really directing people afterwards. 0:42:06.360 --> 0:42:09.719 I just kind of like went back to bed and 0:42:09.760 --> 0:42:12.480 then everybody was like all right, yeah, yeah, if you 0:42:12.480 --> 0:42:13.840 just have to use bath and just go ahead and 0:42:13.880 --> 0:42:16.399 do it, and that was it. 0:42:16.520 --> 0:42:16.800 Really. 0:42:17.520 --> 0:42:20.799 But like I I talked to a plumber friend, you know, 0:42:21.560 --> 0:42:23.200 when I got older, and told him about the story, 0:42:23.239 --> 0:42:27.000 and he was like basically said that like because of 0:42:27.040 --> 0:42:29.759 the location it was in that like it really it 0:42:29.800 --> 0:42:32.040 could have like stopped up all the pipes and it 0:42:32.080 --> 0:42:36.080 was easily like twelve to fifteen thousand dollars of damage, 0:42:38.200 --> 0:42:39.840 like labor to clean it up. 0:42:39.880 --> 0:42:43.160 Basically, that's very persuasive. 0:42:43.200 --> 0:42:50.720 But yeah, but you know that I held up my conscious. 0:42:50.440 --> 0:42:52.360 So you just told him that it would be funny. 0:42:55.200 --> 0:42:59.839 Yeah. Yeah, they thought it was funny too. I mean, 0:42:59.840 --> 0:43:02.840 I like, I've lost contact with a lot of those kids, 0:43:03.200 --> 0:43:05.080 but like the ones I'm still in contact with, like 0:43:05.880 --> 0:43:07.640 we still kind of bring it up and laugh about it. 0:43:08.239 --> 0:43:11.239 And funny enough, one of those kids, I went on 0:43:11.280 --> 0:43:15.040 a road trip with him. I'm from like how he 0:43:15.160 --> 0:43:17.759 I'm from Indiana. But we did a road trip out 0:43:17.760 --> 0:43:21.080 to San Diego and we met some people while we 0:43:21.120 --> 0:43:23.120 were down there, and we went to go play basketball. 0:43:22.680 --> 0:43:24.640 With them at night, and. 0:43:26.320 --> 0:43:30.360 I went to this public restroom and you know, I 0:43:30.680 --> 0:43:33.600 wasn't trying to, but I clogged the toilet toilet as well, 0:43:35.120 --> 0:43:37.560 and you know, really it was just because the toilet 0:43:37.600 --> 0:43:41.200 was really like really like a weak toilet. 0:43:40.800 --> 0:43:41.680 I guess. 0:43:42.320 --> 0:43:46.680 But my friend went in there after me. Yeah, my 0:43:46.719 --> 0:43:48.640 friend went to the bathroom after me, and he also 0:43:48.680 --> 0:43:51.080 took a dump on top of my tomb. And then 0:43:51.360 --> 0:43:53.560 you know, we were playing basketball and he's like, guys 0:43:53.600 --> 0:43:55.239 show up to play basketball. One of them was like, oh, 0:43:55.239 --> 0:43:56.480 I have to take a dump. And then me and 0:43:56.520 --> 0:43:59.080 my friend just kind of looked at each other like 0:43:59.239 --> 0:44:02.920 shook my head like, yeah, don't know, don't tell him. 0:44:03.200 --> 0:44:07.400 So he went in there took a dub, and so 0:44:07.440 --> 0:44:10.600 I kind of came up with the definition that a 0:44:10.880 --> 0:44:14.160 mass pooping is when more than two people take a 0:44:14.280 --> 0:44:16.440 stump in the same toilet. 0:44:16.719 --> 0:44:24.160 You are the father of the compound dump. Yeah, So 0:44:24.239 --> 0:44:30.400 do you feel like you took any leadership skills away 0:44:30.800 --> 0:44:32.680 from this? 0:44:36.520 --> 0:44:39.759 Do you feel like, hold on, I don't feel like 0:44:39.760 --> 0:44:40.320 I'm a leader. 0:44:41.480 --> 0:44:45.600 So do you feel like you any leadership skills from 0:44:45.600 --> 0:44:46.360 this experience? 0:44:49.719 --> 0:44:50.439 No? 0:44:50.440 --> 0:44:53.360 No, I don't. I disagree. 0:44:53.440 --> 0:44:58.560 I've been very persuasive people. It sounds like are compelled 0:44:58.560 --> 0:44:59.480 to follow. 0:44:59.160 --> 0:45:00.799 You, you know. 0:45:01.840 --> 0:45:03.640 I mean, you could do some good if you really 0:45:03.640 --> 0:45:04.040 wanted to. 0:45:04.719 --> 0:45:05.120 Mm hmm. 0:45:05.400 --> 0:45:07.080 I mean if I had asked you to take a 0:45:07.160 --> 0:45:08.480 dump on my dump, would you do it? 0:45:10.440 --> 0:45:16.600 I think I would thank you that you, you know, 0:45:18.320 --> 0:45:20.080 would want to do for good. 0:45:22.239 --> 0:45:24.640 For this with the skill. 0:45:24.760 --> 0:45:26.880 Yeah, but the story doesn't The story doesn't have a 0:45:26.880 --> 0:45:30.000 good end. It doesn't have a good end, like there's 0:45:30.120 --> 0:45:36.400 this there's just judgment and karma waiting for me at 0:45:36.400 --> 0:45:37.120 the end of the right. 0:45:37.200 --> 0:45:38.919 But no, but no, but no, but no, No, you're taling. 0:45:38.960 --> 0:45:40.920 You're looking at the story itself. I'm looking at the 0:45:41.000 --> 0:45:43.520 under what the story tells me about you and the 0:45:43.560 --> 0:45:48.480 people involved. You know, that's that's that's what's what's what's 0:45:48.480 --> 0:45:51.879 really important here. So yeah, I hope you do find 0:45:51.880 --> 0:45:54.360 a good use for these, for these leadership skills. 0:45:56.880 --> 0:45:59.600 I'll try to. I'll try to. You know, I'm in 0:45:59.640 --> 0:46:03.359 school be a male nurse, so you know, that's that's 0:46:03.440 --> 0:46:07.040 kind of a males in the nursing field tend to 0:46:07.040 --> 0:46:11.279 go into leadership roles, so you know, maybe I'll maybe 0:46:11.320 --> 0:46:16.359 I'll make up for my my past transgressions. But I mean, 0:46:16.400 --> 0:46:23.040 honestly activist or a politician, you know, I really feel 0:46:23.080 --> 0:46:28.479 like the issue is our toilets in society. I feel 0:46:28.520 --> 0:46:34.319 like the infrastructure for toilets really needs to be revamped. Well, 0:46:34.680 --> 0:46:37.840 I think I think we could easily take take some 0:46:37.920 --> 0:46:41.279 money from from our taxes to towards that, if that's 0:46:41.320 --> 0:46:44.799 not already a thing. But I would like to tell 0:46:44.840 --> 0:46:46.920 you the end of the story, if that's okay. 0:46:48.120 --> 0:46:51.920 I thought, which I thought, which story? Way? Which? Which story? 0:46:52.080 --> 0:46:55.160 I feel like you began telling to a different story. 0:46:55.200 --> 0:46:56.560 Which story are we hearing? The end of. 0:46:58.760 --> 0:47:01.120 Just the trilogy? Man, I told you about what happened 0:47:01.520 --> 0:47:05.120 when I was camping twelve years old, what happened not 0:47:05.200 --> 0:47:07.280 too long ago in San Diego, and then what happened 0:47:07.360 --> 0:47:10.160 last week is what I need to tell you about. 0:47:11.320 --> 0:47:13.520 Sure, let's let's let's hear it quick. 0:47:14.920 --> 0:47:16.560 Before everyone throws it up. 0:47:19.440 --> 0:47:20.680 All right, So. 0:47:22.840 --> 0:47:28.080 I host the Smash Brothers tournament in Indiana and it's 0:47:28.080 --> 0:47:33.160 at this pizza place and I didn't know this was 0:47:33.200 --> 0:47:37.359 going on, but the same thing happened to the one 0:47:37.400 --> 0:47:40.080 bathroom that this restaurant has of the people at my 0:47:40.080 --> 0:47:46.680 Smash tournament, and the owner made me clean it up, 0:47:47.080 --> 0:47:51.440 like fix it, And honestly, it really took a lot 0:47:51.480 --> 0:47:52.960 of weight off my shoulders after I did that, Like 0:47:53.040 --> 0:47:57.680 I felt like I had fixed my sins essentially. 0:48:00.080 --> 0:48:00.440 Mm hmm. 0:48:02.480 --> 0:48:04.480 All right, So the story did end good? 0:48:06.960 --> 0:48:12.960 Yeah, I mean, I'm not the same. 0:48:12.360 --> 0:48:17.000 What's your name. 0:48:17.040 --> 0:48:22.080 Steve, Steve Jim use your leadership skills for good. I 0:48:22.200 --> 0:48:25.600 believe in you. I believe in your future, and uh, 0:48:25.680 --> 0:48:28.360 I hope that you no longer serve evil, and I 0:48:28.400 --> 0:48:29.480 hope you have a good rest. 0:48:29.239 --> 0:48:29.640 Of the night. 0:48:30.280 --> 0:48:35.680 All from it's little Mike, little Mike. 0:48:38.840 --> 0:48:39.600 What's going on? 0:48:40.480 --> 0:48:43.839 Is there a big Mike, big Mike? 0:48:44.040 --> 0:48:47.120 I like to think there is, But I don't want 0:48:47.120 --> 0:48:49.520 to think that I'm the product of big Mike necessarily. 0:48:51.320 --> 0:48:52.120 What does that mean? 0:48:55.000 --> 0:48:57.040 I like to think that I'm my own individual as 0:48:57.040 --> 0:48:59.600 a little Mike, no product of another. 0:49:03.800 --> 0:49:06.800 You'd like to think that you are your own? Well, okay, 0:49:06.920 --> 0:49:12.200 you know, well when people are little, they're not necessarily 0:49:12.360 --> 0:49:19.160 little in relation to anything, like like Lowayne. Lowayne is 0:49:19.200 --> 0:49:22.839 not lou Wayne relative to a bigger Wayne, or even 0:49:22.880 --> 0:49:25.920 a medium or even a regular sized Wayne. He simply 0:49:26.080 --> 0:49:29.600 is in and of himself Lowayne. So I don't think 0:49:29.640 --> 0:49:32.799 that you being little Mike necessarily has to be your 0:49:32.880 --> 0:49:36.200 little mic relative to a medium's or big sized mic. 0:49:36.239 --> 0:49:36.960 Does that make sense? 0:49:38.400 --> 0:49:39.359 That does make sense? 0:49:39.440 --> 0:49:41.279 And I actually I appreciate that. 0:49:42.440 --> 0:49:44.879 Yeah, you know, how'd you get to bed to become 0:49:44.920 --> 0:49:45.359 little Mic? 0:49:48.120 --> 0:49:51.799 Uh, there's not too much of a story behind it. 0:49:51.800 --> 0:49:54.360 It just kind of came about through talking with friends. 0:49:54.400 --> 0:49:59.920 Definitely college days throwback. But uh, besides that, there's not 0:50:00.040 --> 0:50:02.239 too much meaning behind it. It was just kind of more 0:50:02.320 --> 0:50:04.960 or less. The fact that it was meaningless made it meaningful. 0:50:05.400 --> 0:50:08.480 I don't know how they explain it. Kind of it's 0:50:08.480 --> 0:50:09.160 hardly explain. 0:50:13.320 --> 0:50:14.960 What are you doing right now, little Mike? How did 0:50:15.040 --> 0:50:20.320 you find yourself to this humble, little Gecko stream. 0:50:20.600 --> 0:50:23.080 I've been seeing mad clips of you on YouTube and 0:50:23.520 --> 0:50:26.399 been sitting back and I was enjoying some beers and 0:50:27.640 --> 0:50:30.200 I really enjoy watching your stream, so I thought i'd 0:50:30.239 --> 0:50:32.200 call in. I did not think I would get in. 0:50:32.239 --> 0:50:34.800 So I'm kind of rattled right now, to be honestly honest, 0:50:34.840 --> 0:50:37.600 but uh, I love chopping. 0:50:37.280 --> 0:50:37.759 It up with you. 0:50:38.719 --> 0:50:40.760 I like chopping up with you. You said you're rattled 0:50:40.840 --> 0:50:42.880 right now. Describe this rattleness? What is it? What does it? 0:50:42.880 --> 0:50:44.160 What does it feel like to be rattled? 0:50:44.840 --> 0:50:47.040 Yeah, I'm bad ass, Like, this is what it feels 0:50:47.040 --> 0:50:48.080 like to be a living right now. 0:50:48.160 --> 0:50:51.480 I'm seriously, I'm like, my heart's beating right now. I'm 0:50:51.520 --> 0:50:55.080 a little shaky sitting here. I'm like, I'm humbled to 0:50:55.120 --> 0:50:58.399 be on the stream right now. I'm actually like, I'm 0:50:58.440 --> 0:51:00.440 glad I don't feel this feeling toot you know what 0:51:00.440 --> 0:51:03.200 I mean. It feels good to get excited, beautiful. 0:51:03.680 --> 0:51:05.200 I have so many things to say about what you 0:51:05.239 --> 0:51:07.719 just said. First of all, I'm I'm I'm humbled that 0:51:09.239 --> 0:51:12.680 you fucking watched this thing. Second of all, this is 0:51:12.680 --> 0:51:14.919 so such an interesting thing what you just said, because 0:51:15.080 --> 0:51:16.960 I try to think about this myself, and I've talked 0:51:16.960 --> 0:51:26.160 about this on stream before. Your body's experiencing some you know, 0:51:27.719 --> 0:51:33.000 like a visceral reaction, visceral reaction, visceral anxiety, your heart's beating, 0:51:33.040 --> 0:51:36.360 all that stuff, and and and you have such a 0:51:36.400 --> 0:51:41.080 great attitude toward it. Because when I get anxious for something, 0:51:41.120 --> 0:51:44.560 I always try to think, like, oh, I'm I'm lucky, right, 0:51:44.680 --> 0:51:47.960 I'm I'm lucky to be nervous, because that's what that's 0:51:48.000 --> 0:51:51.239 how you know, you like you give a ship like 0:51:51.280 --> 0:51:53.560 something is going on, like you have like there's like 0:51:53.600 --> 0:51:56.240 you're a live Like if you're nervous, you're alive. 0:51:55.920 --> 0:51:57.200 You know what I mean, You're. 0:51:57.040 --> 0:51:57.800 Like doing that. 0:51:58.719 --> 0:52:01.800 That's how I was literally just thinking this because at first, 0:52:01.840 --> 0:52:04.240 like I was like, like I was saying quote unquote rattled, 0:52:04.280 --> 0:52:06.000 and I didn't really know what to say. But I 0:52:06.040 --> 0:52:07.560 was just like I got to work through this and 0:52:08.280 --> 0:52:11.840 keep chopping it up and kind of just live in 0:52:11.840 --> 0:52:15.360 the moment right now. And that's definitely that feeling that 0:52:15.440 --> 0:52:17.440 feeling special, and I think I think you catch on. 0:52:17.560 --> 0:52:18.600 I feel like you're feeling it. 0:52:19.960 --> 0:52:22.200 Yeah, man, I sometimes when I get anxious for things, 0:52:22.239 --> 0:52:24.840 I'm well, there's ANXI. Whether there's like a general anxiety, 0:52:24.880 --> 0:52:28.000 which sucks because that's the one where you're like, well, 0:52:28.080 --> 0:52:30.200 you can't pin it to anything that's not fun, that's 0:52:30.239 --> 0:52:32.440 more in your head stuff. But this, but the nervousness, 0:52:32.480 --> 0:52:34.120 were like you can pin it to something it's very 0:52:34.160 --> 0:52:37.000 bodily or and all that shit. It's like, oh, it's 0:52:37.040 --> 0:52:40.400 it's cool because like something's going on. Your body is reacting. 0:52:40.480 --> 0:52:44.840 Your body is reacting to you the fucking dewey something 0:52:45.160 --> 0:52:49.000 you know, to the way you know to live, to 0:52:49.080 --> 0:52:50.200 be nervous. 0:52:51.280 --> 0:52:53.439 It is, And little shit like this makes it worth 0:52:53.480 --> 0:52:54.520 It makes it worth while. 0:52:58.880 --> 0:53:04.680 M lot, Mike, Mike oh Man, little Mike man Is. 0:53:06.600 --> 0:53:06.719 Mike. 0:53:06.800 --> 0:53:08.040 Is there anything like in. 0:53:07.960 --> 0:53:11.120 Particular that you wanted to talk about this evening? 0:53:16.760 --> 0:53:19.520 Not in particular, I think I think more in life 0:53:19.520 --> 0:53:21.439 in general. I love when you kind of just talk 0:53:21.520 --> 0:53:26.239 about life and the abs and flows of life, and 0:53:26.280 --> 0:53:29.000 I kind of almost think we just already achieved that. 0:53:29.360 --> 0:53:32.680 Yeah, yeah, yeah, that's an interesting thing. It's funny you 0:53:32.719 --> 0:53:34.680 say that you you like when I talk about life 0:53:34.719 --> 0:53:36.440 and the ebbs and flows of life, because I, you know, 0:53:36.440 --> 0:53:38.160 I feel like a fraud sometimes I feel like I'm 0:53:38.440 --> 0:53:39.840 I don't even know what the fuck I'm talking. 0:53:39.640 --> 0:53:41.280 About, but I you know, it makes me happy. 0:53:41.280 --> 0:53:45.560 It makes me genuinely happy that uh, whatever I fucking ramble, Uh, 0:53:46.000 --> 0:53:50.080 I hope his his fucking resonated in some. 0:53:51.400 --> 0:53:52.040 Way shape. 0:53:52.560 --> 0:53:53.960 No, totally, it totally does. 0:53:54.160 --> 0:53:56.719 No, I'd usually appreciate you, and I listen to you 0:53:56.760 --> 0:53:59.440 a lot of times going out of work, and I 0:53:59.440 --> 0:54:01.759 I work with uh, work with kids, do a little 0:54:01.800 --> 0:54:04.799 work in schools and stuff. So it's always like it's 0:54:04.840 --> 0:54:07.560 it's good to hear other people's perspectives, even it doesn't 0:54:07.560 --> 0:54:11.200 matter like how you think that person sounds. It's always 0:54:11.200 --> 0:54:15.319 someone else's perspective and you've got to take that into consideration. 0:54:15.600 --> 0:54:19.400 That's how someone feels, So that's it's legit. And I 0:54:19.520 --> 0:54:22.719 like to like kind of just like hear everyone's perspective 0:54:22.760 --> 0:54:24.560 and like kind of what people's worries are and what 0:54:24.680 --> 0:54:27.120 takes they have in life and how they enjoy different 0:54:27.160 --> 0:54:28.560 aspects of life or don't. 0:54:29.120 --> 0:54:29.560 I don't know. 0:54:29.880 --> 0:54:33.640 The show's the show's honestly, it's cool. Shit, I appreciate. 0:54:33.160 --> 0:54:35.399 You, beautiful, thank you man. 0:54:36.200 --> 0:54:37.360 It's you work with kids. 0:54:38.320 --> 0:54:42.160 Yeah, before we go, little Mike, before we go, what 0:54:42.200 --> 0:54:45.479 do the kids need to know? If there's one thing 0:54:46.120 --> 0:54:47.479 that the kids? How old? How old? 0:54:47.560 --> 0:54:48.200 Kids? 0:54:50.120 --> 0:54:50.520 How old? 0:54:50.640 --> 0:54:54.440 I work primarilyly with like ninth graders or eighth graders. 0:54:54.960 --> 0:54:58.520 Okay, it's an interesting age. What so like thirteen fourteen? 0:54:59.600 --> 0:55:03.240 Mm hm, what do you what for for your fourteen 0:55:03.280 --> 0:55:04.719 year old kid? What do you what do you need 0:55:04.800 --> 0:55:05.080 to know? 0:55:05.760 --> 0:55:06.239 Low Mike? 0:55:08.000 --> 0:55:11.920 You know right now? I think the message is specific 0:55:12.000 --> 0:55:14.879 to the times, and I think it's a message of 0:55:15.560 --> 0:55:18.160 you know, being that hard ass when you go in 0:55:18.239 --> 0:55:20.399 every day, or trying to act cool or putting in 0:55:20.440 --> 0:55:24.480 that shell or acting jaded like that's cool up to 0:55:24.480 --> 0:55:26.560 an extent, but in the long run, it's not going 0:55:26.640 --> 0:55:28.799 to pay out. And in the long run, if you 0:55:28.840 --> 0:55:31.360 treat someone else, you choose to treat someone out to 0:55:31.400 --> 0:55:33.960 a kindness and you treat it to hear someone or like, 0:55:34.080 --> 0:55:36.040 choose to hear someone out, like you're listening to me 0:55:36.120 --> 0:55:38.279 right now and being a good listener, it can make 0:55:38.320 --> 0:55:41.000 that difference in someone else's life. And right now, I 0:55:41.000 --> 0:55:43.600 think that's mad important during this time, during this pandemic 0:55:43.640 --> 0:55:47.600 where people feel separated from others and isolated. If you 0:55:47.760 --> 0:55:50.719 just can truly listen to someone and show someone some kindness, 0:55:51.200 --> 0:55:53.279 it's you're gonna be a hell of let happy with 0:55:53.320 --> 0:55:54.719 yourself at the end of the day than you are 0:55:54.760 --> 0:55:57.759 if you're can act jade it or route towards someone 0:55:57.880 --> 0:55:58.719 or put someone down. 0:55:59.239 --> 0:56:00.960 And year olds definitely. 0:56:00.719 --> 0:56:05.640 Need to hear that because they are extremely mean mm hmm. 0:56:06.440 --> 0:56:09.040 And sometimes, you know, you can see the hurt going 0:56:09.239 --> 0:56:11.880 like from classmate to classmates sometimes and that just tears 0:56:11.880 --> 0:56:14.840 me up inside because try to build that community of 0:56:14.880 --> 0:56:18.359 connect but if you got that one little negative wore 0:56:18.360 --> 0:56:21.359 attacks it's hard to overcome, but not impossible, but just 0:56:21.440 --> 0:56:22.839 it makes it a little more difficult, you. 0:56:22.760 --> 0:56:28.840 Know, Mike, keep spreading the good message. I feel like 0:56:28.920 --> 0:56:30.919 kids need to know this. I you know, I could 0:56:30.920 --> 0:56:33.200 go I could fucking rant about this for hours, but like, 0:56:34.239 --> 0:56:36.719 I don't know. Sometimes I go on TikTok and I 0:56:36.719 --> 0:56:39.320 look at comments sections. I know I'm on the comment 0:56:39.360 --> 0:56:42.719 sections of TikTok is like fucking thirteen years old, and 0:56:42.760 --> 0:56:45.279 just the way that like, I don't know, there's the 0:56:45.719 --> 0:56:49.680 way that like the default of culture is like everyone 0:56:49.680 --> 0:56:53.120 to just be fucking like yelling at each other and 0:56:53.120 --> 0:56:55.959 pissed off all the time and like mean and shit. 0:56:56.040 --> 0:56:59.840 It's like, ah, fuck, you know hopefully you know the kids, 0:57:00.040 --> 0:57:01.800 So I need to hear what you're talking about. 0:57:01.800 --> 0:57:03.640 So I'm glad that someone someone's saying it. 0:57:04.440 --> 0:57:06.359 So I'm saying it's it's a cheap it's a cheap 0:57:06.400 --> 0:57:08.879 way to get some laughs. And the short you might 0:57:08.920 --> 0:57:12.120 feel good about yourself, but I mean, it really won't 0:57:12.120 --> 0:57:13.680 and it's not gonna pay off in the long run, 0:57:13.800 --> 0:57:17.160 does no one good? Yeah, pick pick your other friend up. 0:57:17.520 --> 0:57:23.040 So yeah, I'll leave it at that. You too, You too? 0:57:23.160 --> 0:57:27.040 God, bless guy, ghak, bless you a thousand years, little Mike. 0:57:28.240 --> 0:57:28.600 Thank you. 0:57:30.720 --> 0:57:32.400 Paul from Kay. 0:57:34.560 --> 0:57:37.800 May, Oh, Hey, what's what pleasant surprise? 0:57:39.280 --> 0:57:41.840 What are you? What are you doing with your life? 0:57:41.960 --> 0:57:46.200 Kat May? I said, what are you doing with your life? 0:57:46.280 --> 0:57:46.480 May? 0:57:47.320 --> 0:57:48.560 What am I doing with my life? 0:57:49.920 --> 0:57:50.360 I don't know. 0:57:50.480 --> 0:57:52.320 I'm just why it happened. 0:57:52.360 --> 0:57:56.080 I'm to flow. I'm in nursing school right now. I 0:57:56.200 --> 0:57:59.880 started when the pandemic happened. So it's been like an 0:58:00.240 --> 0:58:02.440 interesting journey thus far. 0:58:03.520 --> 0:58:05.080 I got a little bit of white claw on my 0:58:06.280 --> 0:58:09.640 laptop track pad. Oh so I'm wiping it off. 0:58:14.080 --> 0:58:14.440 Thanks? 0:58:15.200 --> 0:58:15.960 What did you say? 0:58:16.240 --> 0:58:16.840 Just now again? 0:58:17.560 --> 0:58:23.360 No, I I'm a nursing student, but I'm just going 0:58:23.400 --> 0:58:23.880 with the flu. 0:58:24.320 --> 0:58:24.600 Dude. 0:58:24.640 --> 0:58:26.880 It's been like a long journey. 0:58:26.600 --> 0:58:29.280 Like I actually, I don't know. 0:58:29.760 --> 0:58:31.240 I don't want to know. 0:58:30.840 --> 0:58:34.480 I don't have any expectations right now. I'm just when 0:58:34.600 --> 0:58:36.760 it happen as it comes far kind of do. 0:58:39.480 --> 0:58:39.960 What happened? 0:58:39.960 --> 0:58:41.000 What happened to you today? 0:58:41.200 --> 0:58:49.000 May I've been listening to your podcast like all night, 0:58:49.880 --> 0:58:59.280 and I I like this. I'm I like that, you 0:58:59.280 --> 0:59:03.000 you know, get online talk to people, listening to their stories. 0:59:03.160 --> 0:59:05.400 I kind of like doing that too. The problem is, 0:59:05.440 --> 0:59:10.760 like I'm not that person in real life. I tend 0:59:10.800 --> 0:59:14.320 to do that online. So recently I've been going on 0:59:14.360 --> 0:59:15.720 Tinder and just talking to people. 0:59:17.600 --> 0:59:19.880 You've been going on Tinder and talking. 0:59:19.600 --> 0:59:26.200 To Yeah, it's. 0:59:24.160 --> 0:59:27.920 It just fulfils my need to interact with people. That's it. 0:59:29.400 --> 0:59:29.800 What is? 0:59:30.000 --> 0:59:32.200 What does your husband think about that? 0:59:35.480 --> 0:59:39.160 When I told him about it, he had like this 0:59:39.240 --> 0:59:42.800 knee jerk reaction and it was kind of angersh But 0:59:42.880 --> 0:59:47.120 I understand because like, okay, well, people go on tender 0:59:47.320 --> 0:59:53.080 for hookups and whatnot kind of deal. But whenever that 0:59:53.120 --> 0:59:57.120 situation comes up, I just tend to ignore it or 0:59:57.240 --> 0:59:59.960 just deflect him, or I just give them my intentions. 1:00:00.040 --> 1:00:01.920 I tell them like, hey, I don't only hear for 1:00:01.960 --> 1:00:04.480 a conversation. If you have any sexual needs that you 1:00:04.520 --> 1:00:06.720 need to be met, I'm not the person to do that. 1:00:09.040 --> 1:00:14.120 Interesting, Well, so do I mean, do they like these 1:00:14.160 --> 1:00:16.840 these people that you're talking to? And do you? And 1:00:16.880 --> 1:00:19.720 I'm curious, do you said it to speak with with 1:00:19.840 --> 1:00:22.760 only men, or with men and or with people across 1:00:23.200 --> 1:00:31.760 the gender spectrum just guys? And do do How how 1:00:31.800 --> 1:00:36.760 do they typically respond when you tell them that you're married? 1:00:38.240 --> 1:00:42.600 Oh, well, it goes to waves. 1:00:44.200 --> 1:00:47.240 You know, they'll they'll understand what you call it. 1:00:47.440 --> 1:00:52.200 They're fine with what I'm seeking out. For those who 1:00:53.040 --> 1:00:56.600 potentially look up for a hookup or a relationship, they 1:00:56.800 --> 1:00:59.640 stop talking to me and like they unmatched me, which 1:00:59.760 --> 1:01:02.480 I'm perfectly fine with because it's like, well, you know, 1:01:02.560 --> 1:01:05.680 you can find someone else. You know. I'm not bothered 1:01:05.680 --> 1:01:06.040 by it. 1:01:07.280 --> 1:01:07.560 Mmm. 1:01:10.840 --> 1:01:18.880 And so your husband, you know, he he he ultimately 1:01:19.480 --> 1:01:21.520 is is okay with this. He doesn't see it as 1:01:21.640 --> 1:01:24.960 like well, because I assume, look, even if you're having 1:01:24.960 --> 1:01:27.720 conversations I assume like if the guy you're talking to 1:01:27.840 --> 1:01:31.240 doesn't know he I feel like like on Tinder, like 1:01:31.280 --> 1:01:33.800 it's the context is like would it be like a 1:01:33.840 --> 1:01:36.120 flirty conversation or what I mean, what are you even 1:01:36.120 --> 1:01:38.000 talking to these guys about? 1:01:38.480 --> 1:01:39.720 Like what do we talk about? 1:01:40.600 --> 1:01:44.240 Yeah? Tell me tell me the best who is? What's 1:01:44.280 --> 1:01:47.040 the best conversation you had on Tinder? 1:01:48.080 --> 1:01:48.240 Was it? 1:01:50.320 --> 1:01:52.640 I asked him, dude, how many like first grea years 1:01:52.640 --> 1:01:53.400 could he take on? 1:01:56.760 --> 1:01:57.360 Like how many. 1:01:59.600 --> 1:02:01.840 Are I've asked. 1:02:03.440 --> 1:02:08.720 I've asked guys like you know, uh, how often they 1:02:08.800 --> 1:02:13.120 yet asked their height is? Or I even asked them like, hey, 1:02:13.200 --> 1:02:16.640 what's your experiences like on tender kind of deal. I 1:02:16.760 --> 1:02:19.240 kind of set up my bio to have like different 1:02:19.320 --> 1:02:21.920 questions or like different thoughts I've had, and I've had 1:02:21.920 --> 1:02:23.960 people match with me and be like yeah, I agree 1:02:24.000 --> 1:02:26.200 with that and we talk about it for a little. 1:02:26.040 --> 1:02:31.760 Bit and yeah, interesting people in the chatter are suggesting 1:02:31.800 --> 1:02:35.240 you try bumble bff you think that. 1:02:36.600 --> 1:02:37.120 I tried that. 1:02:37.360 --> 1:02:42.080 I've I know the concept is that the women goes 1:02:42.160 --> 1:02:44.960 up to the guys and like they talk kind of 1:02:45.000 --> 1:02:47.800 deal a little, but I don't know what the experience 1:02:47.920 --> 1:02:48.680 is like. 1:02:49.200 --> 1:02:52.120 Well they have like a friend feature, a parent you 1:02:52.120 --> 1:02:55.440 can like just mat like you're just meeting friends. 1:02:55.960 --> 1:02:58.120 Oh so let me ask you. 1:02:58.160 --> 1:03:01.000 So Okay, so these conversations you're just having all those 1:03:01.040 --> 1:03:05.160 people on the internet, are you, like, are you feeling lonely? 1:03:05.240 --> 1:03:07.360 Like do you want to have more like friends? 1:03:07.440 --> 1:03:10.320 Like, like, would it be a wonderful thing for you 1:03:10.440 --> 1:03:14.160 if you like start, you know, had more like in 1:03:14.320 --> 1:03:18.600 person interaction with like friends or is this just like 1:03:19.480 --> 1:03:22.000 something you're doing just to like fuck around and pass time. 1:03:24.920 --> 1:03:28.840 I'm not necessarily looking for friends in general, Like I've 1:03:28.880 --> 1:03:33.040 come to realize that, you know, I'm not good at 1:03:33.120 --> 1:03:35.960 keeping up relationships, like even talking to people. Is it 1:03:36.080 --> 1:03:40.520 enough to like my or to deplete my energy? 1:03:40.600 --> 1:03:41.120 I just. 1:03:42.640 --> 1:03:47.919 I don't know. I'm not looking for anything deep, It's yeah, 1:03:47.920 --> 1:03:49.360 it's just a past time basically. 1:03:50.600 --> 1:03:55.800 Well, look, if you want to, you know, do you 1:03:56.000 --> 1:03:58.280 steal my idea for a stream? Which is it my 1:03:58.360 --> 1:04:00.920 idea at all? I'm just talking to people on the 1:04:00.920 --> 1:04:02.480 phone and they've been doing that for ten years? 1:04:02.720 --> 1:04:04.840 Do that you know? 1:04:05.560 --> 1:04:05.920 Ten years? 1:04:05.920 --> 1:04:08.160 I know I said ten years. 1:04:08.960 --> 1:04:12.000 I feel like you've done this like. 1:04:12.720 --> 1:04:15.680 Back, like I've kind of looked at your stuff on YouTube, 1:04:15.680 --> 1:04:17.680 and I've seen like your little clips about like pass 1:04:17.720 --> 1:04:19.320 branklet blah blah blah. 1:04:19.920 --> 1:04:21.880 I don't know, Oh you went on a deep dive. 1:04:23.240 --> 1:04:26.400 Yeah, yeah, I do that all the time. 1:04:26.920 --> 1:04:29.800 Like, yeah, it's weird. 1:04:29.920 --> 1:04:32.880 Like anyone that I have an interest in, like I 1:04:32.880 --> 1:04:35.560 see their work, I try to like go back and 1:04:35.600 --> 1:04:37.440 see what I can find on the internet to kind 1:04:37.480 --> 1:04:43.440 of just track, you know, what inspired them or whatnot's 1:04:43.480 --> 1:04:43.880 trying to do. 1:04:44.520 --> 1:04:49.480 So yeah, well, I feel like we have a wonderful 1:04:49.480 --> 1:04:55.400 parasocial relationship going. Yeah, and you know, I'm I'm excited 1:04:55.520 --> 1:04:56.600 for for the future. 1:04:57.800 --> 1:05:00.040 I am too. I don't know what's out there, but 1:05:00.080 --> 1:05:00.680 I'm excited. 1:05:01.800 --> 1:05:04.040 Beautiful. Good luck to you, may thank you for. 1:05:03.920 --> 1:05:11.760 Calling in, Thank you for your time. Call from Miko. 1:05:13.600 --> 1:05:18.080 Miko, Hi, how are you doing? 1:05:18.160 --> 1:05:18.480 Miko? 1:05:19.160 --> 1:05:19.440 Wait? 1:05:19.600 --> 1:05:20.240 I got on? 1:05:21.400 --> 1:05:23.400 Yeah? What did you tell me about hold on real 1:05:23.480 --> 1:05:26.680 quick before don't let it pass? What was your brain 1:05:26.800 --> 1:05:31.880 space just now when you said hi, Oh. 1:05:31.720 --> 1:05:34.520 My gosh, wait, I didn't know there is a delay 1:05:34.560 --> 1:05:37.960 on your twitch stream. I was watching, I was listening, 1:05:38.440 --> 1:05:41.200 and then when I usually like, I didn't even know 1:05:41.240 --> 1:05:43.360 i'd get this far. I was just so used to 1:05:43.440 --> 1:05:47.120 saying like hearing the like the what is it? Oh, 1:05:47.200 --> 1:05:51.919 like you've reached the therey Gecko blah blah blahi. 1:05:53.160 --> 1:05:53.920 How are you, Miko? 1:05:54.720 --> 1:05:55.840 I'm good? How are you? 1:05:57.240 --> 1:05:59.640 I I'm good as well. Have you ever heard a code? Miko? 1:06:01.320 --> 1:06:05.240 What is that? It's like she's a twitch streamer of person. 1:06:05.960 --> 1:06:07.320 She has the same name as you. Its where I 1:06:07.360 --> 1:06:08.280 heard Miko before. 1:06:09.120 --> 1:06:12.480 Oh, Miko isn't my full name, it's my nickname. 1:06:12.600 --> 1:06:13.200 I wanted to do. 1:06:14.800 --> 1:06:16.280 What does Miko mean? Does Miko? 1:06:16.480 --> 1:06:17.000 Is that like a? 1:06:17.200 --> 1:06:20.080 Is there a? Is there a word for that? Or 1:06:20.400 --> 1:06:21.440 what does it mean something? 1:06:23.440 --> 1:06:24.360 I don't think so. 1:06:29.040 --> 1:06:31.880 Well anyway, Miko, Miko. 1:06:31.920 --> 1:06:34.240 It sounds like you've tried to call a lot, and 1:06:34.280 --> 1:06:37.320 I'm curious if there's anything in particular that you wanted 1:06:37.360 --> 1:06:38.919 to talk about. 1:06:39.200 --> 1:06:42.040 No, I just wanted to try calling you because I've 1:06:42.080 --> 1:06:45.120 been listening to you for like, I think a few 1:06:45.120 --> 1:06:48.200 weeks now. I found you on Spotify and I was like, 1:06:48.280 --> 1:06:51.760 this is such a cool concept, and so this is 1:06:51.800 --> 1:06:57.040 the first time for like first what would you call 1:06:57.160 --> 1:07:01.160 this like stream? I mean, I've been watching you before, 1:07:01.280 --> 1:07:03.080 but this is the first time I've been trying to 1:07:03.120 --> 1:07:06.000 call and in a weird way. This is kind of 1:07:06.040 --> 1:07:06.720 like gambling. 1:07:08.440 --> 1:07:09.280 I remind. 1:07:11.520 --> 1:07:14.160 Well, okay, well I've never actually been gambling. I just 1:07:14.200 --> 1:07:16.120 turned twenty one, so I haven't been able to try 1:07:16.160 --> 1:07:19.760 a spot machine yet. But I was like calling and 1:07:19.840 --> 1:07:22.160 like I'd pressed the call button and then it would 1:07:22.200 --> 1:07:27.000 hang up immediately, and that's like the most common, like 1:07:27.120 --> 1:07:31.360 the most common result. And then there's also a part 1:07:31.400 --> 1:07:34.280 where if you call, then it'll get to kind of 1:07:34.320 --> 1:07:38.920 like oh, then it gets to your voicemail, which is 1:07:39.120 --> 1:07:42.640 little less common, but it's definitely among the more common. 1:07:43.200 --> 1:07:46.560 And then there's a Google voice which gets me super excited. 1:07:46.920 --> 1:07:48.960 So then I'm like, oh, yeah, my name is Miko, 1:07:49.120 --> 1:07:54.320 and then I hear the thing ring and then sorry, 1:07:54.400 --> 1:07:59.720 I'm like super like anxious and like super excited, and 1:07:59.760 --> 1:08:03.000 I think, like the adrenaline is I. 1:08:04.920 --> 1:08:09.200 Hear my conversation. You know, it's a weird. It's like 1:08:09.240 --> 1:08:13.240 a weird uh position for me to be in because uh, 1:08:13.760 --> 1:08:16.320 I actually feel like when I'm doing when I'm just 1:08:16.360 --> 1:08:19.360 like do it like day to days, you know, doing 1:08:19.360 --> 1:08:22.599 a stream whatever, I feel really calm, like I'm feeling like. 1:08:24.400 --> 1:08:25.679 I don't know, I feel like at ease. 1:08:27.439 --> 1:08:30.680 So I don't so I guess, like maybe there's some 1:08:30.720 --> 1:08:33.840 sort of psychological mirroring effect or whatever the fun going on, 1:08:33.920 --> 1:08:36.800 Like I assume that whoever I'm talking to on the 1:08:36.800 --> 1:08:39.280 phone feels chill. 1:08:39.080 --> 1:08:42.080 As well, but then they you know. 1:08:42.320 --> 1:08:45.000 But then, but it's funny you say that because I've 1:08:45.120 --> 1:08:51.360 called in to other people's streams and like, and not 1:08:51.400 --> 1:08:54.040 even without even a lot of people watching or anything, 1:08:54.040 --> 1:08:55.960 I've called that. I and then on my heart starts 1:08:55.960 --> 1:09:01.920 to race, which is weird because I'm like, it's the mind. 1:09:02.280 --> 1:09:08.440 The logic of the mind is not ever computed. 1:09:09.600 --> 1:09:14.040 Why the central nervous system of the body. So good 1:09:14.120 --> 1:09:17.559 luck trying to you know, think yourself down from anything. 1:09:17.680 --> 1:09:23.400 But anyway, Oh, I was going to get to that. 1:09:23.479 --> 1:09:27.840 It's like in this whole gambling analogy, like getting to you, 1:09:28.560 --> 1:09:31.720 like getting to talk to you is like I don't 1:09:31.760 --> 1:09:33.599 know how slot machines, like is it when you get 1:09:33.640 --> 1:09:34.479 three in a row. 1:09:34.439 --> 1:09:37.120 Or something like that, and like you win. 1:09:37.080 --> 1:09:40.040 The jackpot and you get super excited, Like that's what 1:09:40.080 --> 1:09:40.800 it feels like. 1:09:41.160 --> 1:09:42.479 So I feel like, you know. 1:09:42.520 --> 1:09:47.600 Having all this I guess not anxiety, but like expectation, 1:09:47.880 --> 1:09:51.600 like you put in so much effort and naturally I 1:09:51.640 --> 1:09:54.200 feel like you would get you would expect to get 1:09:54.240 --> 1:09:58.200 a result out of it, but then because the chances 1:09:58.240 --> 1:10:02.040 are so low, you feel like it's not gonna happen. 1:10:02.280 --> 1:10:04.919 But then when it does happen, you get super excited 1:10:05.000 --> 1:10:08.720 and your heart starts racing, and like your breath starts 1:10:08.920 --> 1:10:11.360 or like my breath is starting to get shaky, and 1:10:11.439 --> 1:10:16.439 I think that's from your sympathetic nervous system. I don't know, 1:10:16.520 --> 1:10:18.120 I don't remember you. 1:10:18.400 --> 1:10:21.840 You know, all science and anatomy and health and that's 1:10:21.840 --> 1:10:23.200 all made up by humans. 1:10:23.479 --> 1:10:27.120 So you know, God just calls it stuff. 1:10:28.840 --> 1:10:29.880 What would you call it? 1:10:31.600 --> 1:10:37.360 I would call it poopy peepee uh vain stuff. 1:10:37.560 --> 1:10:40.280 Have you ever gambled before? Have you gambled in a 1:10:40.320 --> 1:10:42.479 real You say you just turned twenty one? You so 1:10:42.640 --> 1:10:44.559 you just turned twenty one? Was it your birthday like 1:10:44.560 --> 1:10:46.240 a week ago or something or right? 1:10:46.320 --> 1:10:49.800 I guess my birthday was back in August, but I 1:10:49.880 --> 1:10:52.800 was in school. I was in summer school, and then 1:10:53.040 --> 1:10:55.960 there is this whole like COVID thing, so I couldn't 1:10:56.040 --> 1:11:00.360 really go out and travel. But I'm planning hopefully, if 1:11:00.479 --> 1:11:03.160 things start to get a little better, I'll take a 1:11:03.200 --> 1:11:06.360 trip to Vegas and I'll try the penny plot receives. 1:11:06.400 --> 1:11:07.760 That's what I'm most excited for. 1:11:09.479 --> 1:11:11.200 Real quick. I gotta give a quick shout. We got 1:11:11.200 --> 1:11:19.720 a raid from I like to shout out the raids Prolatopia. Yes, 1:11:19.880 --> 1:11:24.000 thank you for the raid. Check out Prolatopia. I don't 1:11:24.040 --> 1:11:28.800 know what they do, but they got a cool name, Prolatopia. 1:11:29.600 --> 1:11:35.439 It's fun to say Prolatopia. What's the most money that 1:11:35.520 --> 1:11:39.000 you would theoretically throw down on a game of cards? 1:11:40.280 --> 1:11:40.800 Oh boy. 1:11:44.400 --> 1:11:47.559 I like to think I'm pretty conservative with how I 1:11:47.600 --> 1:11:49.920 spend my money. I try not to buy a bunch 1:11:49.960 --> 1:11:53.480 of really ridiculous things, but I think I do it anyways. 1:11:53.960 --> 1:11:58.040 So I feel like I would plan to put aside 1:11:58.200 --> 1:12:02.880 like maybe one hundred dollars. I don't know I have. 1:12:03.320 --> 1:12:06.400 I'm pretty young, so I don't have a big concept 1:12:06.400 --> 1:12:10.920 of money just yet. So to me, like twenty dollars 1:12:11.040 --> 1:12:13.680 is still a lot. But I feel like to go gambling, 1:12:14.600 --> 1:12:17.519 Like I think i'd put down one hundred dollars and 1:12:17.560 --> 1:12:20.120 then later in the night, I'm sure I convinced myself 1:12:20.160 --> 1:12:22.960 to put down like another two hundred, So I'm gonna 1:12:22.960 --> 1:12:24.200 say about three hundred. 1:12:26.479 --> 1:12:28.160 Well, let's see, I mean, you could win big with 1:12:28.200 --> 1:12:29.519 three hundred dollars. I don't know. 1:12:29.520 --> 1:12:31.160 I don't know. I've never been gambling. I'm not a 1:12:31.200 --> 1:12:36.040 gambling guy. I don't even like investing, like stocks and stuff. 1:12:36.080 --> 1:12:41.000 I'm like, I'm like, I don't want to. I don't 1:12:41.040 --> 1:12:43.920 want to lose my money. I like money. I want 1:12:43.920 --> 1:12:46.639 to keep it. I don't want to lose it. It's bad. 1:12:48.680 --> 1:12:53.080 I feel like the stock market is also pretty like illogical, 1:12:53.120 --> 1:12:57.360 Like there's no like, there's no logic, and there's no 1:12:57.560 --> 1:13:00.839 way of predicting how that this block market. 1:13:00.680 --> 1:13:04.400 Would do well. You know what I always say is 1:13:04.439 --> 1:13:08.720 that if you're dumb and don't understand anything, like me, 1:13:09.360 --> 1:13:12.920 everything is illogical. And when everything's logical, you just start 1:13:13.000 --> 1:13:16.240 up your hands and you go, all right, I'll just die. 1:13:16.320 --> 1:13:16.519 You know. 1:13:17.920 --> 1:13:27.160 Do you think it's nice to live life that way? 1:13:27.479 --> 1:13:32.280 Yeah? I think it's nice to live life that way. 1:13:32.680 --> 1:13:35.760 But I think that reminds me of some episode. I 1:13:35.760 --> 1:13:38.320 don't know what TV show it was from, but it 1:13:38.360 --> 1:13:43.320 was like this one couple was going to like a 1:13:43.360 --> 1:13:46.960 buffet and they got really irritated with the new like 1:13:47.120 --> 1:13:52.000 smart soda dispensers. But then this other couple came in 1:13:52.080 --> 1:13:54.920 and they like they forgot how to use it, so 1:13:55.040 --> 1:13:57.680 every time they went and they were always so fascinated 1:13:57.760 --> 1:14:01.679 by the smart soda dispenser, And then like, I guess 1:14:01.680 --> 1:14:03.519 they're supposed to be a dumb couple, so every time 1:14:03.520 --> 1:14:07.040 they went outside, they're like, oh, my gosh, a butterfly. Like, 1:14:07.120 --> 1:14:10.600 do you think it's better to live life where you. 1:14:10.680 --> 1:14:13.519 Don't know where you understand things, or where you don't 1:14:13.600 --> 1:14:15.920 understand things and so everything amazes you. 1:14:16.720 --> 1:14:20.960 Yeah, I think it's better to be amazed than to 1:14:21.000 --> 1:14:24.360 be numb to the wonders of life. 1:14:25.080 --> 1:14:27.479 But do you think there's a medium where you can 1:14:27.600 --> 1:14:30.920 understand everything and appreciate everything? 1:14:32.680 --> 1:14:32.800 Oh? 1:14:32.880 --> 1:14:35.160 Yeah, I think so too. I think you can understand 1:14:35.200 --> 1:14:39.880 things and still appreciate them for sure. For sure, understanding 1:14:39.960 --> 1:14:41.920 is a lot harder you could appre That's the problem 1:14:41.960 --> 1:14:42.960 is that understanding is. 1:14:42.880 --> 1:14:44.000 Way harder than appreciating. 1:14:44.040 --> 1:14:48.000 You can appreciate, and it's super easy to appreciate stuff. 1:14:49.040 --> 1:14:53.200 You can appreciate anything with really little efforts, but understanding 1:14:53.240 --> 1:14:55.200 stuff a lot harder. 1:14:56.479 --> 1:15:01.320 Do you think you need to learn to appreciate No. 1:15:02.200 --> 1:15:08.000 For example, I appreciate that the technology exists for me 1:15:08.120 --> 1:15:15.400 to live stream myself to the world and talk to 1:15:15.479 --> 1:15:21.120 you on the phone, and I would probably uh my 1:15:21.240 --> 1:15:23.439 brain would explode if I even tried to begin to 1:15:23.520 --> 1:15:24.759 understand how it all works. 1:15:28.400 --> 1:15:32.120 That is an interesting way to think about it, Miko. 1:15:32.280 --> 1:15:34.240 I I want to I want to take one more 1:15:34.280 --> 1:15:36.960 call before we do this whole. 1:15:38.840 --> 1:15:39.439 Whole thing. 1:15:39.560 --> 1:15:43.120 But uh, before we go, though, before we go, is 1:15:43.120 --> 1:15:45.040 there anything else that you wanted to talk about? 1:15:46.040 --> 1:15:46.320 Wait? 1:15:46.360 --> 1:15:47.759 Can I tell you a joke? 1:15:48.520 --> 1:15:49.200 Yes? Please? 1:15:49.240 --> 1:15:51.800 I forgot that we were doing that. Thanks for reminding me. 1:15:51.840 --> 1:15:55.960 Ok, I'm setting anatomy right now. And this joke is 1:15:56.000 --> 1:15:59.760 something that my professor told us. Why didn't the skeleton 1:16:00.040 --> 1:16:05.600 want to go skydiving? Why because he didn't have the guts? 1:16:06.000 --> 1:16:10.479 Huh. 1:16:12.200 --> 1:16:13.639 I don't want to go skydiving ever. 1:16:13.720 --> 1:16:19.719 I feel I have no search for for for ari, 1:16:19.960 --> 1:16:23.439 for thrills, via peril, you. 1:16:23.400 --> 1:16:23.920 Know what I mean? 1:16:24.520 --> 1:16:26.960 Mm hmmm, I have no I I I do not 1:16:27.160 --> 1:16:32.920 seek peril in my life. But but congratulations that skeleton 1:16:32.960 --> 1:16:38.680 for figuring out what works for him. Well, Mikah, I 1:16:38.720 --> 1:16:41.599 am a gecko and you are a person, and uh, 1:16:41.600 --> 1:16:43.200 this is a pleasure talking to you. Thank you very 1:16:43.240 --> 1:16:45.080 much for calling a super nice. 1:16:46.200 --> 1:16:47.880 Geg I'm so excited I got on. 1:16:48.080 --> 1:16:50.080 I love your stream, I love everything that you do, 1:16:50.200 --> 1:16:52.360 and I'm gonna buy one of your shirts for my 1:16:52.479 --> 1:16:53.320 Christmas presents. 1:16:54.040 --> 1:16:59.599 Www dot therapy Gecko dot com. Everybody, We're coming out 1:16:59.600 --> 1:17:01.320 with a new one, a pocket tea. I don't know 1:17:01.320 --> 1:17:02.560 feel like pocket teas. 1:17:02.400 --> 1:17:03.800 But oh I do. 1:17:04.160 --> 1:17:05.640 Is it gonna be the one where if you like 1:17:05.680 --> 1:17:08.520 slightly open the pocket, there's gonna be an image? 1:17:09.320 --> 1:17:10.880 No, no, no, the image could be on the front 1:17:10.880 --> 1:17:12.920 of the pocket. I think, I don't know. I might, 1:17:12.920 --> 1:17:13.160 I might. 1:17:13.200 --> 1:17:14.280 I might look at them and be like, oh I 1:17:14.280 --> 1:17:16.640 can't afford pocket eas but who knows. Thank you, but 1:17:17.400 --> 1:17:20.639 I'll shut up my march. But thank you for calling Miko, 1:17:20.760 --> 1:17:24.760 and uh have a good rest of the night. Jack 1:17:24.840 --> 1:17:30.240 bless you for a thousand years. 1:17:30.920 --> 1:17:32.879 Paul from eve. 1:17:34.600 --> 1:17:37.480 Eva Yvette. 1:17:38.960 --> 1:17:39.200 Ivet. 1:17:40.320 --> 1:17:44.479 Yes, like why eve It starts with a hy right? 1:17:46.000 --> 1:17:46.120 Uh? 1:17:46.360 --> 1:17:51.640 Yes, that's cool. I know motherfucker's named Yvette and it's 1:17:51.680 --> 1:17:54.200 probably top ten hardest names to pronounce. 1:17:55.479 --> 1:17:57.680 Oh no, trust me as a as a teacher, I've 1:17:57.680 --> 1:18:01.000 seen just about any like in every variation of every 1:18:01.000 --> 1:18:02.000 single name possible. 1:18:02.080 --> 1:18:06.960 So you're teacher, Yeah, what is your greatest lesson? 1:18:08.680 --> 1:18:11.639 My greatest lesson that was on the curriculum or off 1:18:11.680 --> 1:18:12.560 the curriculum. 1:18:13.400 --> 1:18:17.960 Your greatest lesson event, I. 1:18:17.880 --> 1:18:20.880 Guess it was teaching seventh graders about the two thousand 1:18:20.920 --> 1:18:22.400 and eight housing crisis. 1:18:25.880 --> 1:18:27.720 The two thousand and eight housing crisis. 1:18:28.160 --> 1:18:32.080 Yeah, so you know, the whole economy going downhill and 1:18:32.120 --> 1:18:34.920 all that stuff, just as they were learning about simple interests. 1:18:36.200 --> 1:18:40.400 What do you teach math? You teach math? 1:18:41.120 --> 1:18:41.559 Mm hmm. 1:18:42.479 --> 1:18:44.360 We have two teachers and we have your We had 1:18:44.360 --> 1:18:46.080 a math teacher on and we had an art teacher on. 1:18:47.040 --> 1:18:49.479 Oh I know, I love art teachers. They're so cool. 1:18:50.080 --> 1:18:51.200 Did you hear? Do you were? 1:18:51.200 --> 1:18:51.280 You? 1:18:51.320 --> 1:18:52.880 Were you here for the call with the art teacher 1:18:53.600 --> 1:18:54.120 part of it? 1:18:54.200 --> 1:18:55.680 I got like the second half of it. 1:18:56.600 --> 1:18:58.080 What do you think do you think schools should have 1:18:58.120 --> 1:19:02.160 more money or do you spend more money on helicopters? 1:19:02.560 --> 1:19:06.000 You know what if we can have the helicopters at school, 1:19:06.360 --> 1:19:08.439 that solve both of them at the same time. 1:19:09.360 --> 1:19:11.160 Damn you want a math helicopter. 1:19:13.200 --> 1:19:15.160 I mean I don't need a math helicopter, but I 1:19:15.160 --> 1:19:18.760 can definitely teach about the math stuff with the helicopter. 1:19:21.240 --> 1:19:24.320 How give me a detailed explanation of how you would 1:19:24.360 --> 1:19:26.000 teach math using a helicopter. 1:19:26.960 --> 1:19:28.559 Well, it depends what great am I teaching? 1:19:29.439 --> 1:19:30.360 Okay, do you teach? 1:19:31.600 --> 1:19:32.519 I'm in middle school. 1:19:34.200 --> 1:19:35.160 You're in middle school. 1:19:35.520 --> 1:19:39.880 Everyone's working with the kids on this on the stream tonight. 1:19:39.920 --> 1:19:43.760 Did you hear the guy who was giving out the 1:19:43.800 --> 1:19:46.280 words of wisdom to the to the middle schoolers? What 1:19:46.320 --> 1:19:46.960 did you think of that? 1:19:48.000 --> 1:19:52.000 I don't that was that The one who was was 1:19:52.040 --> 1:19:57.400 that Mike, right, guess little Mike? Yeah, yeah, no, he 1:19:57.720 --> 1:19:59.479 was spot on it. He was spot on it. 1:20:02.160 --> 1:20:02.439 All right. 1:20:02.479 --> 1:20:05.639 So you hang out with thirteen year olds all day. 1:20:07.280 --> 1:20:09.240 More like eleven and twelve year. 1:20:09.080 --> 1:20:12.519 Olds, and tell me about the tell me about the 1:20:12.560 --> 1:20:16.320 youth of twenty twenty one. Are we what direction do 1:20:16.320 --> 1:20:18.679 you feel like we're heading in? How are the children 1:20:18.720 --> 1:20:20.120 different from when you were a kid. 1:20:21.400 --> 1:20:25.599 Oh my god, they're so quick witted like you, Like 1:20:26.040 --> 1:20:29.519 people who are teachers now have got like a whole 1:20:29.600 --> 1:20:32.840 different like skill set that they better catch on to 1:20:33.320 --> 1:20:36.920 or else. Like, these kids will just have no mercy 1:20:36.960 --> 1:20:39.080 on you, but in a great way. 1:20:40.000 --> 1:20:40.520 Interesting. 1:20:40.720 --> 1:20:45.240 Tell me about Give me an example of a interaction 1:20:45.400 --> 1:20:48.800 you had where a kid you know, surprised you with 1:20:49.920 --> 1:20:50.439 their wit. 1:20:53.400 --> 1:20:58.000 I mean, just just like Okay, So there was this 1:20:58.040 --> 1:21:03.000 one time where, like I think had I had to 1:21:03.120 --> 1:21:06.600 finish passing out papers and one kid, you know, just 1:21:07.080 --> 1:21:09.720 decides to start crumbling at it out of nowhere, and 1:21:09.760 --> 1:21:11.680 then like the little kid that was next to him 1:21:11.800 --> 1:21:14.920 just turns around. It's like, yo, that like paper is 1:21:14.960 --> 1:21:17.439 now like way more wrinkled than your grandma. And like 1:21:17.439 --> 1:21:21.000 the kids just looks so hard. And as a teacher, 1:21:21.479 --> 1:21:24.920 I have, you know, not nice, but thanks to the 1:21:24.960 --> 1:21:28.200 face mask, I was, I was, like, you know, able 1:21:28.240 --> 1:21:30.040 to hide the fact that I have no poker face. 1:21:30.360 --> 1:21:33.080 The poker phrase is definitely a skill of you better 1:21:33.160 --> 1:21:34.799 have if you're going to go into teaching. 1:21:35.360 --> 1:21:38.599 Yeah, you're right, because you know, nothing feels worse than 1:21:38.640 --> 1:21:41.160 when like a kid is bullying you and then the 1:21:41.240 --> 1:21:43.639 teacher and you see the teacher and the teacher's kind 1:21:43.640 --> 1:21:44.800 of also laughing. 1:21:44.520 --> 1:21:45.280 At you as well. 1:21:46.439 --> 1:21:47.280 Yeah. 1:21:47.520 --> 1:21:51.200 Not that I love my kids, they're great, but I 1:21:51.240 --> 1:21:53.960 mean I think it'd be great to also be able 1:21:54.040 --> 1:21:55.080 to give them a holicopter. 1:21:59.800 --> 1:22:01.680 Do I feel like they would use the helicopter to 1:22:01.720 --> 1:22:02.920 bullieve each other more? 1:22:04.280 --> 1:22:07.800 I think they, I mean, knowing mine, I think they 1:22:07.840 --> 1:22:11.000 would first a be like what did you do? To 1:22:11.000 --> 1:22:15.000 get a helicopter and then be like, somehow managed to 1:22:15.040 --> 1:22:15.479 break it. 1:22:18.400 --> 1:22:19.200 What did you say your name was? 1:22:19.240 --> 1:22:25.920 Again, you'vet youvet before we go, before we continue, before 1:22:25.920 --> 1:22:29.639 we move on. You're the last caller of the evening. 1:22:30.400 --> 1:22:33.800 Oh god, we have a tiny bit of time. If 1:22:34.120 --> 1:22:36.280 is there anything in particular you wanted to talk about, 1:22:36.360 --> 1:22:39.240 or anything that you wanted to leave us with, anything 1:22:39.280 --> 1:22:44.639 at all floating around and that big massy brain of yours, you. 1:22:44.640 --> 1:22:51.400 Know what, Yes, sure, please, I do not need like therapy, 1:22:51.439 --> 1:22:53.479 Get go, I need besty, get go right now, because 1:22:53.560 --> 1:22:59.040 I can't tell right now if I am crushing on 1:22:59.080 --> 1:23:02.120 this person or I'm just really fixated on the fact 1:23:02.120 --> 1:23:03.360 that someone's giving me attention. 1:23:04.560 --> 1:23:09.960 Interesting, who are they? 1:23:11.080 --> 1:23:14.759 They're essentially friend of a friend that lives like several 1:23:14.800 --> 1:23:15.400 states away. 1:23:16.800 --> 1:23:19.880 Well you know, look you're hanging well they live they 1:23:19.880 --> 1:23:21.000 live several states away. 1:23:22.080 --> 1:23:22.479 Mm hmm. 1:23:22.600 --> 1:23:30.720 But it's been most like yeah, yeah, exactly, And and 1:23:30.760 --> 1:23:32.960 I know those don't intend to pan out well and 1:23:33.080 --> 1:23:36.559 logical brain knows that. But at the same time, you know, 1:23:36.840 --> 1:23:40.280 attention is nice. And so now I'm like, wait, is 1:23:40.320 --> 1:23:44.240 it just because of the attention or is there something 1:23:44.320 --> 1:23:49.680 actually there? But yeah, the brain chemicals are not work, 1:23:49.920 --> 1:23:52.719 are not cooperating on how we need figure this out, 1:23:53.360 --> 1:23:55.720 and there's no math equation to solve this. 1:23:57.160 --> 1:24:00.360 Okay, I wish I had more time, we shul had 1:24:00.400 --> 1:24:03.040 more time to go in depth with you about this. 1:24:03.200 --> 1:24:06.040 But I do feel like, and again this is just U. 1:24:06.680 --> 1:24:08.280 I could be completely wrong, but I do kind of 1:24:08.280 --> 1:24:12.720 feel like if the notion is even occurring to you 1:24:12.760 --> 1:24:15.320 that you only like this person because they're giving you attention. 1:24:17.320 --> 1:24:21.040 You know, look, you Vet, you seem like you seem 1:24:21.120 --> 1:24:24.519 like a great gal, you seem like you got your 1:24:24.600 --> 1:24:32.320 life together. I'm sure you'll find plenty of other sources 1:24:32.400 --> 1:24:38.000 of attention in your possibly in your in a more 1:24:38.040 --> 1:24:41.320 immediate vicinity, if that is what you are looking for, 1:24:41.360 --> 1:24:42.439 if that is what you desire. 1:24:44.000 --> 1:24:46.320 I agree, I agree, I think you're right. 1:24:47.280 --> 1:24:52.120 So don't look at this with a with a scar 1:24:52.640 --> 1:24:56.519 The whole thing of of of oh, this guy's giving 1:24:56.520 --> 1:24:58.400 me attention, but you know, so I'm focused on him, 1:24:58.400 --> 1:25:01.720 but it's it's a scarce. The mindset. It comes from 1:25:01.760 --> 1:25:06.840 this idea of you know, oh, no one ever gives 1:25:06.880 --> 1:25:09.200 me attention, and then here we go, this is a 1:25:09.200 --> 1:25:10.160 guy who give me attention. 1:25:10.200 --> 1:25:11.000 Of a latch on that. 1:25:11.000 --> 1:25:15.280 That's a scarcity mindset. You'vett there's you gotta think, you 1:25:15.360 --> 1:25:18.200 gotta understand, there's there's there's lots of people out there 1:25:18.200 --> 1:25:21.360 who will give you attention. You know, you can't just 1:25:21.400 --> 1:25:27.120 fixate on the on the the the one just for all. 1:25:27.240 --> 1:25:28.800 I mean that. It would be another thing if you 1:25:28.840 --> 1:25:30.240 were telling me how much you were in love with 1:25:30.360 --> 1:25:32.360 him and you never met anyone like him before, all 1:25:32.400 --> 1:25:34.600 that stuff. But if the main thing is attention, it's like, 1:25:34.680 --> 1:25:40.080 you know, look, there's it's you gotta think abundantly. 1:25:40.600 --> 1:25:40.720 VET. 1:25:41.840 --> 1:25:44.680 Yes, you know what. You're right, You're right, gotck go. 1:25:45.600 --> 1:25:50.839 Beautiful, javette Thank you very much for steering the children 1:25:50.880 --> 1:25:53.439 of America in the correct direction. Again. I will tell 1:25:53.439 --> 1:25:54.880 you what I told the art teacher. If I could 1:25:54.920 --> 1:25:57.679 snap my fingers and you have a helicopter, I would 1:25:57.680 --> 1:26:01.080 do so. But I hope you the helicopter one day. 1:26:01.680 --> 1:26:03.920 And thank you very much for calling into my Gecko 1:26:03.960 --> 1:26:09.000 show and tell the children that I said to not vape. 1:26:10.520 --> 1:26:13.080 Well do well do beautiful? 1:26:13.160 --> 1:26:17.120 How can hello? 1:26:19.160 --> 1:26:19.479 Hello? 1:26:21.720 --> 1:26:21.920 Hi? 1:26:22.479 --> 1:26:27.080 Is this uh speed Jim Steve Jim? 1:26:27.160 --> 1:26:31.080 Yeah, it is Steve Jim. 1:26:31.120 --> 1:26:34.040 How are you Steve Jim, how's it going good? Just 1:26:34.080 --> 1:26:36.040 clipping my toenails right now? 1:26:37.080 --> 1:26:38.760 You said you're dipping your toenails? 1:26:39.920 --> 1:26:44.559 No clipping? Ah here, let me go outside and see that. 1:26:44.960 --> 1:26:45.880 You can hear me better? 1:26:47.960 --> 1:26:49.800 No, I can hear you said, you know what, there's 1:26:49.840 --> 1:26:53.240 too much focus on hearing and oh can you hear? 1:26:53.280 --> 1:26:53.439 Oh? 1:26:53.439 --> 1:26:54.120 Can you hear this? 1:26:54.160 --> 1:26:54.280 Oh? 1:26:54.400 --> 1:26:54.960 Can you hear me? 1:26:55.040 --> 1:26:55.200 Oh? 1:26:55.240 --> 1:26:56.280 What what was it? 1:26:56.320 --> 1:26:56.880 What did you say? 1:26:56.920 --> 1:26:57.160 Sorry? 1:26:57.160 --> 1:26:59.040 I can't hear you that, you know, Let's just focus 1:26:59.080 --> 1:27:01.320 on We don't have to hear each other. 1:27:01.360 --> 1:27:03.439 We just have to feel each other. Does that make sense? 1:27:04.080 --> 1:27:06.439 I feel that you are like to fa in my 1:27:06.560 --> 1:27:09.600 digital presence. That's all that matters to me. 1:27:11.400 --> 1:27:13.200 Yeah, that's real good. Yeah that sounds good. 1:27:17.040 --> 1:27:20.840 So what's going on with you Tonight's Speed Jim? 1:27:21.080 --> 1:27:23.599 Uh, not much, just getting ready to go to bed. 1:27:23.800 --> 1:27:25.320 I thought i'd try to call you. I've been trying 1:27:25.320 --> 1:27:25.559 to do. 1:27:25.520 --> 1:27:26.439 It for a couple of weeks. 1:27:27.840 --> 1:27:28.639 Actually got through. 1:27:31.800 --> 1:27:33.640 I've been trying to I've been trying to talk to 1:27:33.680 --> 1:27:35.479 you to speed Jim. Speed Jim, is there anything in 1:27:35.520 --> 1:27:37.160 particular that you wanted to talk about? 1:27:39.160 --> 1:27:39.600 What was that? 1:27:48.080 --> 1:27:50.200 Hello, Speed Jim? 1:27:50.280 --> 1:27:52.920 Is there anything in particular that you wanted to talk about. 1:27:53.840 --> 1:27:56.400 Oh yeah, I was gonna ask do you think it's 1:27:57.040 --> 1:27:58.799 normal to still sleep with your exes? 1:28:01.640 --> 1:28:03.840 Is this an interesting question? When you say normal? What 1:28:03.880 --> 1:28:04.559 do you mean by that? 1:28:06.880 --> 1:28:07.280 Uh? 1:28:07.320 --> 1:28:10.040 Like, is that something like a lot of people do? 1:28:10.200 --> 1:28:13.280 Or is it's just kind of like weird to do? 1:28:13.280 --> 1:28:14.800 Does it matter to you if it's something that a 1:28:14.880 --> 1:28:15.519 lot of people do. 1:28:18.479 --> 1:28:19.040 I guess not. 1:28:19.880 --> 1:28:28.599 No, Okay, clearly something about it is causing some sort 1:28:28.600 --> 1:28:29.640 of mental conflict for you. 1:28:33.760 --> 1:28:38.760 Yeah, like uh, kind of like worrying if they'd get 1:28:38.800 --> 1:28:41.599 feelings back for you and you end up like hurting 1:28:41.600 --> 1:28:42.479 them or something like that. 1:28:43.360 --> 1:28:49.320 M well, what are you are you sleeping with on 1:28:49.479 --> 1:28:49.960 your exes? 1:28:51.640 --> 1:28:51.760 Uh? 1:28:51.920 --> 1:28:59.719 Yeah, and you are primarily concerned that they will garner 1:28:59.720 --> 1:29:02.400 feels for you again and that you might end up 1:29:02.439 --> 1:29:03.840 hurting their feelings. 1:29:04.360 --> 1:29:04.920 Yeah. 1:29:05.760 --> 1:29:06.200 Interesting. 1:29:06.280 --> 1:29:07.240 Have you talked to them about this? 1:29:10.680 --> 1:29:12.040 Have I talked about this? 1:29:12.720 --> 1:29:14.040 Yeah? 1:29:14.560 --> 1:29:15.280 No, I haven't. 1:29:18.240 --> 1:29:20.479 Is have you not talked about this because you're avoiding 1:29:20.520 --> 1:29:22.040 or because you didn't think to talk to them about this? 1:29:25.960 --> 1:29:28.080 I guess I haven't really thought about it that much 1:29:28.160 --> 1:29:33.080 until basically, I guess tonight when they're asking, like, what 1:29:33.200 --> 1:29:36.320 kind of question I wanted to ask well. 1:29:36.200 --> 1:29:36.840 I feel like. 1:29:39.439 --> 1:29:40.880 And you know, I'm trying to do this too in 1:29:40.960 --> 1:29:45.080 my own relationships, be they any any any sort of 1:29:45.080 --> 1:29:48.880 relationship doesn't necessarily have to be romantic, but you know, 1:29:48.960 --> 1:29:53.760 transparency is it's always key. So you know, I feel like, 1:29:53.800 --> 1:29:58.120 if you're sleeping with a parson and yet you're you, 1:29:58.360 --> 1:29:59.800 you want them to. 1:30:01.439 --> 1:30:08.160 Have an accurate idea of how you feel about the situation. 1:30:09.600 --> 1:30:12.000 So that they have all the information that they need 1:30:13.479 --> 1:30:17.040 to inform their own decisions as well. 1:30:19.960 --> 1:30:22.240 Does that make sense right? 1:30:22.520 --> 1:30:26.200 If you tell this girl you're like, hey, listen, you know, 1:30:26.840 --> 1:30:29.679 I'm having a good time with you, you know, like 1:30:29.680 --> 1:30:30.559 like I like you. 1:30:30.560 --> 1:30:31.559 You know, you can say that. 1:30:32.000 --> 1:30:34.439 Just but you know, look, I'm not for whatever reason 1:30:34.520 --> 1:30:36.200 like you know, but I'm not trying to get back 1:30:36.240 --> 1:30:38.640 into a real thing, you know, I just want to 1:30:38.640 --> 1:30:40.840 I just want to let you know that so that 1:30:41.000 --> 1:30:45.200 you know, there's no hard, hard feelings. You know, just 1:30:45.200 --> 1:30:47.200 just wanted to let you know that, you know, and 1:30:47.200 --> 1:30:50.160 then that and then from there, you know, except to 1:30:50.160 --> 1:30:52.080 her whether or not she wants to, you know, keep 1:30:52.080 --> 1:30:55.200 seeing you. But at least now it's it's it's been discussed, 1:30:55.200 --> 1:30:57.519 it's out on the open you know, and then I'm like, 1:30:57.600 --> 1:31:01.640 you feel better that I'll make her feel better. But 1:31:01.800 --> 1:31:04.800 whether or not it's normal or wrong, it's not really, 1:31:06.720 --> 1:31:12.439 you know, for anyone to decide except you, guys. But 1:31:12.479 --> 1:31:14.200 it's easier for her to make the decision and for 1:31:14.240 --> 1:31:18.480 you to make decision if you're both aware of the 1:31:18.520 --> 1:31:23.479 sort of context behind it. Is there something you would 1:31:23.479 --> 1:31:26.040 have an issue you would take issue with? Is telling her, 1:31:26.600 --> 1:31:29.840 you know, bring bringing this up, talking through this with her. 1:31:30.760 --> 1:31:34.400 No, I'd be able to ask for I could probably 1:31:34.439 --> 1:31:35.200 ask for right now. 1:31:37.240 --> 1:31:40.480 Hell yeah, is she with you? 1:31:40.520 --> 1:31:40.720 No? 1:31:41.720 --> 1:31:44.160 So we talk like on Facebook and stuff. 1:31:44.200 --> 1:31:49.840 So that sounds nice. Well, good luck to you, speedy, Jim. 1:31:50.960 --> 1:31:52.439 Is there anything else you want to talk about before 1:31:52.439 --> 1:31:52.640 we go? 1:31:55.680 --> 1:31:59.080 Yeah, so the other week you're talking about a simulation, 1:31:59.680 --> 1:32:01.519 and I wanted to know if you think there's another 1:32:01.560 --> 1:32:06.920 simulation out there where humans was talking to Geckos. 1:32:09.200 --> 1:32:11.960 I think I've I've made a decision not to care 1:32:11.960 --> 1:32:14.400 about simulations anymore, or whether or not life is a 1:32:14.400 --> 1:32:18.800 simulation or if life is real or anything, because it's 1:32:18.840 --> 1:32:20.680 just it's not gonna help me to think about, you know, 1:32:20.760 --> 1:32:25.040 I can't possibly take in the information of all the 1:32:25.120 --> 1:32:30.280 possible universes that could theoretically exist. So I've made the 1:32:30.280 --> 1:32:34.280 intentional decision to just focus on this universe. 1:32:33.920 --> 1:32:35.400 That I'm living in right now, and. 1:32:37.600 --> 1:32:40.080 With a greater aspiration to live in this moment that 1:32:40.120 --> 1:32:42.000 I'm living in right now, and you know, I hope 1:32:42.000 --> 1:32:42.720 we'll get there one day. 1:32:45.439 --> 1:32:46.240 Okay, that's good. 1:32:48.800 --> 1:32:50.400 Well, thank you for calling Speedy Jim. I wish you 1:32:50.400 --> 1:32:51.000 the best of luck. 1:32:52.320 --> 1:32:53.040 Yeah, thank you. 1:32:53.600 --> 1:33:02.000 But hello, Hi? Who is this? 1:33:04.200 --> 1:33:04.840 Thank God? 1:33:04.960 --> 1:33:07.680 Lyle? Hi, who is this? 1:33:08.000 --> 1:33:08.719 Tell me everything? 1:33:09.520 --> 1:33:16.440 This is Carl. How are you doing today? 1:33:16.880 --> 1:33:17.000 Uh? 1:33:17.360 --> 1:33:23.679 I'm doing Oh, I'm doing alright. I am uh feeling 1:33:23.760 --> 1:33:25.639 pretty pretty good. How are you, Carl? 1:33:27.240 --> 1:33:30.360 I'm not gonna lie. I'm low key like shaking, mister gek. 1:33:31.520 --> 1:33:33.200 Mmm, why are you shaking? Carl? 1:33:34.560 --> 1:33:37.439 I have called you like eight hundred times. 1:33:39.160 --> 1:33:41.960 M hm m hm, And this is the this is 1:33:42.000 --> 1:33:43.120 the eight hundredth. 1:33:42.800 --> 1:33:49.719 Time, probably somewhere around there. I lost track last stream 1:33:49.760 --> 1:33:51.639 it was four hundred and sixty seven. 1:33:52.800 --> 1:33:53.000 Wow. 1:33:53.120 --> 1:33:55.040 Wow, Carl. It sounds like you have something that you 1:33:55.280 --> 1:33:56.800 that you desperately need to tell me. 1:33:58.760 --> 1:34:02.960 Yes, Lyle, please, okay, please, So you changed my life? 1:34:04.800 --> 1:34:05.519 Tell me, may. 1:34:07.000 --> 1:34:07.080 So. 1:34:07.360 --> 1:34:10.200 About a year ago, I took about four and a 1:34:10.240 --> 1:34:15.479 half grams of mushrooms. Okay, sure, And I'm surfing through 1:34:16.040 --> 1:34:20.360 the interwebs twitch and I come across this green gecko 1:34:20.920 --> 1:34:25.000 staring at me. Crazy ass background going on, so I 1:34:25.040 --> 1:34:29.320 decided to click on you. You were talking about riding 1:34:29.640 --> 1:34:35.000 trains with no destination and everyone takes life too seriously. Lyle, 1:34:35.960 --> 1:34:39.000 my shit like reversed my brain right then and there. 1:34:43.040 --> 1:34:46.880 So you heard me talking about how everyone is riding 1:34:46.920 --> 1:34:49.400 trains and taking life too seriously, and you said it 1:34:49.840 --> 1:34:52.560 changed your life. And so am I to believe that 1:34:52.600 --> 1:34:54.400 you are calling me from a train right now? 1:35:00.120 --> 1:35:00.880 Life is a trade. 1:35:03.560 --> 1:35:10.080 Sure, we're all on a train. Sure, Carl, I have 1:35:10.120 --> 1:35:14.479 a question for you. Yes, are you high on mushrooms 1:35:14.520 --> 1:35:14.880 right now? 1:35:18.000 --> 1:35:18.160 Well? 1:35:18.320 --> 1:35:18.640 You know what? 1:35:20.720 --> 1:35:21.040 Yes? 1:35:22.240 --> 1:35:27.640 Okay, And so the mushroom trip. I've never personally done psychedelics, 1:35:27.640 --> 1:35:30.080 but I do know that a lot of people when 1:35:30.080 --> 1:35:34.160 they do do psychedelics, they go into it with a 1:35:34.680 --> 1:35:36.080 objective of some kind. 1:35:36.160 --> 1:35:37.160 Is that correct? 1:35:39.640 --> 1:35:40.040 Yeah? 1:35:40.800 --> 1:35:41.960 Okay, what is. 1:35:41.920 --> 1:35:44.519 The objective that you are going into this trip with? 1:35:48.240 --> 1:35:54.240 That's deep, mister gik Oh God, Well, I don't know 1:35:54.560 --> 1:35:58.519 you need you you're here. I didn't even think i'd 1:35:58.560 --> 1:35:59.240 get this far. 1:36:00.360 --> 1:36:02.439 Well, forget about me. I feel like this trip has 1:36:02.439 --> 1:36:04.439 something to do with me, unless if you know it, 1:36:04.640 --> 1:36:07.760 unless if it did, unless if you your dream for 1:36:07.800 --> 1:36:08.960 your mushroom trip was to. 1:36:08.880 --> 1:36:10.120 Be think about it. 1:36:10.160 --> 1:36:14.040 The first time, I was like I saw you, I 1:36:14.160 --> 1:36:16.479 was on mushrooms, and now I'm talking to you and 1:36:16.560 --> 1:36:18.040 I'm still on them. 1:36:18.479 --> 1:36:21.920 Sure, sure, hopefully there was time in between then that 1:36:21.960 --> 1:36:26.439 you were not on mushrooms. A couple of days, a 1:36:26.479 --> 1:36:31.040 single day, A couple of days, you said, are you 1:36:31.040 --> 1:36:32.000 saying are you joking? 1:36:32.120 --> 1:36:33.960 Or do you do mushrooms every day? 1:36:35.560 --> 1:36:35.800 Well? 1:36:36.000 --> 1:36:41.600 You micro dose them, tiny tiny mount Okay, and it 1:36:41.760 --> 1:36:43.519 just it. You know, you don't go on a full 1:36:44.200 --> 1:36:46.639 balls to the wall trip, but it just makes your 1:36:47.000 --> 1:36:48.720 mood a little bit more happier for the day. 1:36:49.360 --> 1:36:49.719 Okay. 1:36:49.880 --> 1:36:52.519 And are you micro doosed on shrooms right now? Or 1:36:52.520 --> 1:36:53.479 are you on a full dose? 1:36:54.040 --> 1:36:56.559 Oh no, we're We're on like three point five. 1:36:59.080 --> 1:37:01.160 Okay, so that's a full I don't know, I've never 1:37:01.200 --> 1:37:06.080 done mushrooms. Oh yeah, okay, so you're on a full dose. 1:37:06.240 --> 1:37:09.720 I mean, look, let me ask what, Carl, what do 1:37:09.840 --> 1:37:11.200 you How old are you? 1:37:12.760 --> 1:37:13.360 I'm eighteen? 1:37:13.960 --> 1:37:14.240 You're right? 1:37:14.320 --> 1:37:14.479 Gee? 1:37:14.560 --> 1:37:17.040 You're extremely young. So you I mean when you said 1:37:17.040 --> 1:37:19.080 a year ago so you were on mushrooms, you were 1:37:19.120 --> 1:37:22.400 seventeen years old. You heard me say something about being 1:37:22.439 --> 1:37:27.639 on a train and now, yeah, what are you looking for? 1:37:28.760 --> 1:37:29.080 Carl? 1:37:29.160 --> 1:37:33.600 I feel like you're doing all these drugs and whatnot, 1:37:33.720 --> 1:37:38.920 and like, is there a goal in mind? Or you 1:37:39.120 --> 1:37:43.040 seeking a truth of some kind? What's you're You're a 1:37:43.080 --> 1:37:45.040 young guy. What's going on with you? 1:37:47.040 --> 1:37:49.640 And the age has nothing to do with psychedelics. It's 1:37:49.680 --> 1:37:52.120 about maturity if you're open to it. 1:37:54.840 --> 1:37:58.400 Sure, sure, But I'm forgett about the psychedelics here. I'm 1:37:58.479 --> 1:38:02.760 asking you as just a regular laired boy. 1:38:03.439 --> 1:38:08.920 Oh well, that's the deep question, mister Gek. I don't 1:38:08.920 --> 1:38:09.880 even know how to answer that. 1:38:10.640 --> 1:38:13.040 Mm hmmm. Well what do you do? Are you in school? 1:38:13.120 --> 1:38:16.519 Do you are you in college? What's your what's your thing? No? 1:38:17.160 --> 1:38:20.920 I work on cars. I do body work for cars. 1:38:21.439 --> 1:38:23.360 Okay, cool? Cool? 1:38:26.320 --> 1:38:26.679 Mmm? 1:38:29.080 --> 1:38:30.040 You don't do you don't do? 1:38:30.479 --> 1:38:31.120 You don't like? 1:38:31.760 --> 1:38:31.920 No? 1:38:32.040 --> 1:38:33.200 Tell me sure please? 1:38:35.160 --> 1:38:39.519 So you probably wouldn't never guessed this. But I'm Mormon, right, 1:38:40.000 --> 1:38:44.320 LD is born and raised. Maybe that's why I do 1:38:44.400 --> 1:38:45.600 so many psychedelics. 1:38:49.560 --> 1:38:49.960 Mm hmm. 1:38:50.600 --> 1:38:53.519 You think you think you think your psychedelic use is 1:38:53.880 --> 1:38:57.360 because of your your Mormonism. 1:38:57.439 --> 1:38:58.840 Yeah, I want to what's up there? 1:38:58.880 --> 1:38:59.040 Man? 1:38:59.439 --> 1:39:03.720 Don't you up there? When you say up there? What 1:39:03.800 --> 1:39:06.200 do you were you referring to? When you say there? 1:39:09.400 --> 1:39:14.240 It's probably not up there, just in the realm of 1:39:14.320 --> 1:39:18.719 all the souls and spirits combined in the wont. 1:39:20.520 --> 1:39:21.120 Ah man. 1:39:21.479 --> 1:39:24.439 You know, I am Oh, I'm so tempted to give 1:39:24.479 --> 1:39:27.000 you advice, but I you know, I like giving you know, 1:39:27.160 --> 1:39:28.000 letting everyone. 1:39:27.680 --> 1:39:28.320 Do their own things. 1:39:28.320 --> 1:39:30.200 I am fully open to game. 1:39:30.240 --> 1:39:32.400 Okay, you're fully if you're fully only if you're fully 1:39:32.400 --> 1:39:33.880 open to it, because I don't like giving people. 1:39:34.960 --> 1:39:37.320 If you're open to it, I have a thought for you. 1:39:37.320 --> 1:39:38.519 I don't know if it'll work for you. 1:39:38.560 --> 1:39:40.280 And I'm not an authority on anything, but. 1:39:40.479 --> 1:39:43.680 Carl, look, you're eighteen years old. You're very young, and 1:39:43.760 --> 1:39:48.240 I understand that you have this desire to seek these 1:39:48.560 --> 1:39:53.680 whatever spiritual truths and and whatnot, and and I I 1:39:53.760 --> 1:39:56.519 believe that you know you should if that's what you 1:39:56.560 --> 1:39:59.479 want to do. But if you're telling me that every 1:39:59.640 --> 1:40:03.920 single day of the past year you've been microdosing on shrooms, 1:40:04.320 --> 1:40:07.520 I feel like you got to give yourself the opportunity 1:40:07.920 --> 1:40:17.439 to spend some significant time grounded in reality. You know, 1:40:17.560 --> 1:40:20.040 it's good to be spacy. A lot of people have 1:40:20.200 --> 1:40:24.680 the opposite problem, where they're too grounded in their own reality, 1:40:25.120 --> 1:40:27.640 and maybe they do need to like, you know, it 1:40:27.640 --> 1:40:29.559 doesn't have to necessarily be a substance thing. You can 1:40:29.560 --> 1:40:32.920 do this completely sober, but take some time to think 1:40:33.040 --> 1:40:37.240 about things in a grander sense. But you sound like 1:40:37.280 --> 1:40:39.599 you have the opposite problem, where you're too busy thinking 1:40:39.640 --> 1:40:45.240 about things in some grander spiritual, religious, whatever sense. And 1:40:45.280 --> 1:40:48.680 you got to spend some time standing in line at 1:40:48.680 --> 1:40:53.680 the grocery store and being impatient. You know, you got 1:40:53.680 --> 1:40:55.600 to live in reality for a second. You got to 1:40:55.640 --> 1:40:59.599 spend some time texting your friend and going, hey, what's up, 1:40:59.600 --> 1:41:00.519 and they go not much? 1:41:00.520 --> 1:41:03.000 How about you? And you go not much? And then. 1:41:04.760 --> 1:41:08.799 You know, I live a boring life in boring, shitty 1:41:08.840 --> 1:41:11.719 reality for a little bit of time. And then take, 1:41:11.920 --> 1:41:14.880 you know, take the information that you've gained there, and 1:41:14.920 --> 1:41:17.320 then take that back to your special place on the 1:41:17.360 --> 1:41:20.599 step ladder where you observe and think. But if you're 1:41:20.600 --> 1:41:24.560 always observing and thinking, you're not actually living and experiencing 1:41:24.600 --> 1:41:27.000 in this shit that you're always observing and thinking about. 1:41:27.080 --> 1:41:29.479 So I would suggest to you, Carl, if you can, 1:41:29.760 --> 1:41:33.000 especially since you're so goddamn young, take a little bit 1:41:33.080 --> 1:41:37.000 of time away from the shrooms, live in the real world, 1:41:37.040 --> 1:41:40.840 and then come back when you're ready. What is that? 1:41:41.360 --> 1:41:43.160 How do you feel about what I just said to you? 1:41:46.240 --> 1:41:50.840 I am flatter gasted. I don't even know what to say, 1:41:50.880 --> 1:41:51.439 mister gig. 1:41:54.280 --> 1:41:56.679 Take some time think about it. 1:41:58.200 --> 1:41:59.880 But I'm scared of that reality, mister. 1:42:00.720 --> 1:42:03.679 That's why you gotta live in there. That's the thing 1:42:03.760 --> 1:42:05.720 is if it's especially if you're scared. Why are you 1:42:05.880 --> 1:42:07.080 scared of that reality? 1:42:07.160 --> 1:42:07.479 Carl? 1:42:10.720 --> 1:42:13.720 I don't know. I just life is mean? 1:42:15.040 --> 1:42:19.679 Life is mean? Why is Why does life mean? 1:42:19.800 --> 1:42:20.160 Carl? 1:42:25.080 --> 1:42:27.240 I don't know. I just feel like, you know, sometimes 1:42:27.280 --> 1:42:29.479 life throws you that curveball every once in a while 1:42:29.479 --> 1:42:30.960 that just smacks you in the nuts. 1:42:33.800 --> 1:42:35.840 Hmmm, Carl, let me ask your question. Do you have 1:42:35.920 --> 1:42:36.639 a real therapist? 1:42:38.760 --> 1:42:39.760 I had one? 1:42:40.880 --> 1:42:41.120 Okay? 1:42:41.160 --> 1:42:44.520 Why'd you get rid of them? 1:42:45.760 --> 1:42:48.000 They just kept trying to prescribe me medicine and stuff. 1:42:48.760 --> 1:42:51.920 But it wasn't like it was like stimulants and stuff. 1:42:51.960 --> 1:42:54.840 I don't think, you know, I don't want to take myths. 1:42:57.320 --> 1:43:04.360 Okay, well you're taking Well, here's the thing, is your doctor, Okay, 1:43:04.560 --> 1:43:07.200 let me let me ask you something, let me let 1:43:07.240 --> 1:43:09.120 me let me tell you so. And by the way, 1:43:09.160 --> 1:43:11.280 I get it, because you know, everyone has their own 1:43:11.320 --> 1:43:13.320 ideas on you know, whatever they wanted to take and 1:43:13.360 --> 1:43:15.639 put into their body. But whatever, you sound like you're 1:43:15.720 --> 1:43:22.760 self medicating with mushrooms, right. But then this medical professional 1:43:22.760 --> 1:43:25.799 that you're seeing is like, Okay, I went to school 1:43:25.880 --> 1:43:28.680 and got my stupid license that you need to do 1:43:28.720 --> 1:43:31.599 this shit. And here's what I think, in my professional opinion, 1:43:31.640 --> 1:43:37.000 you should take try their idea first, because they probably 1:43:37.120 --> 1:43:39.360 know more than you about what you should put in 1:43:39.400 --> 1:43:43.040 your body. At least try it. It might not work 1:43:43.120 --> 1:43:46.280 for you, but you should at least try it. You know, 1:43:46.439 --> 1:43:48.880 I'll be I've gotten I've talked to people about this 1:43:48.960 --> 1:43:51.479 kind of shit before, and I get it's a complicated issue, 1:43:51.520 --> 1:43:56.840 but I always defer to trusting whatever your doctor tells 1:43:56.880 --> 1:43:57.320 you to do. 1:44:01.560 --> 1:44:04.680 Yeah, I saw that, but like it was also a 1:44:04.720 --> 1:44:08.960 Mormon therapist, so like you'd like throw a book of 1:44:09.000 --> 1:44:12.320 Mormon at me, you know what I mean? Sure, sure, sure, 1:44:14.160 --> 1:44:17.000 m I mean there's multiple layers to this. 1:44:18.280 --> 1:44:20.040 I'm sure there are. I'm sure there That's why I 1:44:20.040 --> 1:44:21.479 don't pretend to know anything, but. 1:44:22.920 --> 1:44:24.280 You know, you know everything. 1:44:24.320 --> 1:44:26.799 That's I don't know if. 1:44:26.680 --> 1:44:30.559 That's true, but Carl, I would just tell you, man, 1:44:30.720 --> 1:44:35.160 like take take take some time to live in in reality. 1:44:35.280 --> 1:44:38.880 I know that it it sucks and you're escaping from it, 1:44:38.920 --> 1:44:42.639 but that's kind of why you should learn to live 1:44:42.680 --> 1:44:44.880 in it for a little bit. That's your that's your 1:44:45.000 --> 1:44:50.599 little thing to conquer here, you know, try to live 1:44:50.640 --> 1:44:52.880 in reality for a little bit. Give it a week. 1:44:53.360 --> 1:44:56.160 Say I'm gonna live in the in the boring, shitty 1:44:56.200 --> 1:44:59.439 world for a week. Actually take back what I just said. 1:44:59.560 --> 1:45:01.400 I don't think of it as boring and shitty. Just 1:45:01.439 --> 1:45:04.479 be like, I'm gonna live soberly for a week. I 1:45:04.520 --> 1:45:06.640 don't know if you're physically addicted. I don't really know 1:45:06.640 --> 1:45:08.679 how mushrooms work. I don't know if you are addicted. 1:45:08.720 --> 1:45:12.120 If you are, talk to someone about that, but you know, 1:45:12.280 --> 1:45:18.160 try to live in reality a little bit. Carl. Thank you, 1:45:19.120 --> 1:45:21.240 of course, of course. 1:45:21.600 --> 1:45:26.880 I assuel you beautiful Carl Man. 1:45:26.880 --> 1:45:29.280 Thank you for thank you for calling, and uh feel 1:45:29.320 --> 1:45:31.840 free to call back in and let us know how 1:45:31.880 --> 1:45:32.320 this went. 1:45:32.400 --> 1:45:34.479 If you try it, which I hope you do. 1:45:34.760 --> 1:45:37.120 Oh, I would love to. This is not the last 1:45:37.160 --> 1:45:38.080 time you've heard of Carl. 1:45:38.800 --> 1:45:40.720 Good. Good, Thank you for calling Carl. You have a 1:45:40.720 --> 1:45:44.439 good rest of the night, Carl, Carl, Carl. I hope 1:45:44.439 --> 1:45:45.080 he's okay. 1:45:47.840 --> 1:45:52.280 This is Mariah can fine? Yes, now I can hear you. Fine. 1:45:52.280 --> 1:45:53.360 How are you doing, Mariah? 1:45:55.240 --> 1:45:55.559 Okay? 1:45:57.400 --> 1:46:07.920 So you know I'm doing pretty good. I'm yeah, I'm 1:46:08.000 --> 1:46:13.439 enjoying being a gecko. It's another day in the life. 1:46:14.320 --> 1:46:18.800 It's nice, you know, it's always nice. I've learned to 1:46:18.880 --> 1:46:27.600 have something to do. That's what I'm I'm happy that 1:46:27.640 --> 1:46:29.880 I'm doing this right now because it's just you ever 1:46:29.960 --> 1:46:34.160 not have anything to do, you'll just go insane. 1:46:34.040 --> 1:46:38.360 Yeah, it's good to have something to do. 1:46:40.920 --> 1:46:46.479 It's it's it can't be put into words, but it 1:46:46.560 --> 1:46:55.960 makes you feel really isolated if you don't put yourself 1:46:55.960 --> 1:46:59.080 into some kind of good habit. 1:47:00.640 --> 1:47:01.040 Mm hmm. 1:47:01.880 --> 1:47:04.240 Do you do you have any good habits that you've 1:47:04.280 --> 1:47:07.759 been habiting lately? 1:47:10.640 --> 1:47:11.439 Absolutely not? 1:47:13.240 --> 1:47:13.599 Mm hmm. 1:47:14.200 --> 1:47:15.439 Well, how do you feel in this moment? 1:47:18.520 --> 1:47:18.680 Uh? 1:47:20.160 --> 1:47:28.080 In this moment? H Yeah, it's been a very long month, well, 1:47:28.280 --> 1:47:32.160 a couple of months. A lot has happened in so 1:47:32.360 --> 1:47:38.200 little time, so I'm kind of all bundled up into 1:47:38.320 --> 1:47:43.080 the ball of everything. Yes, that makes sense. 1:47:43.960 --> 1:47:44.360 Mm hmm. 1:47:45.479 --> 1:47:47.040 What what has happened in this month? 1:47:49.640 --> 1:47:54.800 Mm hmm. I got damned by my brother and his girlfriend. 1:47:54.960 --> 1:47:57.439 I you said, you. 1:47:57.360 --> 1:47:59.640 Said you got you said you got scammed. 1:48:01.560 --> 1:48:05.080 Yeah, he sold me a car that he knew wasn't 1:48:05.080 --> 1:48:09.280 paid off and I came back to North Carolina and 1:48:09.360 --> 1:48:12.800 the car got repoked just for me to be told 1:48:12.800 --> 1:48:13.920 that it wasn't paid off. 1:48:14.680 --> 1:48:15.040 Mm hmm. 1:48:17.479 --> 1:48:20.120 Yeah, how did you react? Did you confront your brother 1:48:20.160 --> 1:48:20.479 about this? 1:48:22.479 --> 1:48:25.280 I'm saying, how did you react? Did you did you 1:48:25.320 --> 1:48:26.519 confront your brother about this? 1:48:28.479 --> 1:48:34.240 Oh? I was pissed. I was very upset. But you know. 1:48:37.800 --> 1:48:42.040 What is what is your relationship like with your brother? 1:48:44.880 --> 1:48:49.920 Awful? I well was my immediate family as far as 1:48:50.120 --> 1:48:54.799 my mom's side, I have like a brother, two brothers, 1:48:54.840 --> 1:48:58.839 and sister and those were the only ones that actually 1:48:58.880 --> 1:49:03.799 had a relationship. But even then it wasn't the best. 1:49:04.160 --> 1:49:07.599 Like me, we talked, we laughed, but we never really 1:49:07.640 --> 1:49:11.720 shared anything with each other. Mine our own business, be 1:49:11.760 --> 1:49:12.479 our own people. 1:49:13.840 --> 1:49:15.360 Mm hmm. And what about. 1:49:16.840 --> 1:49:19.760 The other side of the family, said, your your it 1:49:19.840 --> 1:49:22.000 sounds like, are your parents uh split up? 1:49:24.080 --> 1:49:30.000 Yeah, my dad was kind of a thought and he had, like. 1:49:32.080 --> 1:49:32.840 I thought. 1:49:34.720 --> 1:49:37.599 Thoughts. What does thought mean? By the way, thoughts? 1:49:37.760 --> 1:49:41.959 Okay, my understanding of a thought is that it's uh, 1:49:42.520 --> 1:49:45.080 it stands for that hoe over there? 1:49:45.240 --> 1:49:46.920 Right there? 1:49:46.920 --> 1:49:47.240 You go? 1:49:47.560 --> 1:49:48.280 You got it right? 1:49:49.280 --> 1:49:53.200 That's such a I don't know that's a corner? How 1:49:53.200 --> 1:49:55.840 does that even catch on? Like, I mean, I'm getting 1:49:55.880 --> 1:49:56.800 on a tangent here, but. 1:49:59.120 --> 1:50:03.200 You're good, I and understand it at first. Either it's 1:50:03.360 --> 1:50:06.920 I guess it's a generational slang thing like they come 1:50:07.000 --> 1:50:10.000 up with so much new ship that it doesn't even 1:50:10.040 --> 1:50:13.520 make sense now, Like you know they call hot dogs glizzies. 1:50:14.360 --> 1:50:15.840 I have seen that. What is that even? 1:50:15.920 --> 1:50:17.160 How did that even come about? 1:50:18.880 --> 1:50:19.400 Exactly? 1:50:20.040 --> 1:50:23.760 Doesn't it sound homophobic to people who are homophobic? 1:50:25.160 --> 1:50:27.320 Is is glzzy a homophobic word? 1:50:29.240 --> 1:50:30.960 Yeah? 1:50:31.120 --> 1:50:35.200 Is it? I've never heard of that. I don't know. 1:50:35.280 --> 1:50:38.559 This sounds like it's like, I mean, a weird person 1:50:38.600 --> 1:50:41.280 would say it, But it sounds like somebody would just 1:50:41.320 --> 1:50:44.720 be like, hey, we're getting a glizzy up backpack in 1:50:44.760 --> 1:50:47.160 the closet. Let's do it tonight. 1:50:48.479 --> 1:50:54.479 You know what it's it's it's these trends. They're compelled 1:50:54.520 --> 1:50:58.920 by just people with absolute confidence, right, because you need 1:50:58.960 --> 1:51:03.400 a lot of confidence to get something trending. Because here's how. 1:51:03.640 --> 1:51:10.519 Here's the very first conversation that you have when you 1:51:10.560 --> 1:51:13.439 try to get something going. You say to someone, what 1:51:13.960 --> 1:51:15.680 do you just say? You said, get the glizzy out 1:51:15.720 --> 1:51:18.240 of my backpack? So let's say I said to my friend, 1:51:18.960 --> 1:51:21.839 you know, hey, you want to go get a glizzy 1:51:21.880 --> 1:51:25.519 after school? And they said, what's a glizzy? And I said, oh, 1:51:25.560 --> 1:51:28.160 it's a new word I'm using for hot dog. And 1:51:28.200 --> 1:51:32.200 then and then they say, that's fucking stupid. You you 1:51:32.240 --> 1:51:34.280 then you go to that's what always. That's the first 1:51:34.880 --> 1:51:37.800 draft is you say it to someone you they say 1:51:37.800 --> 1:51:39.920 what is that? They go, that's fucking stupid. And then 1:51:39.920 --> 1:51:41.599 from there you're at a crossroad. You can do one 1:51:41.600 --> 1:51:46.680 of two things. You can either go, you know what, 1:51:46.760 --> 1:51:48.600 You're right, it is stupid and you can abandon it, 1:51:48.720 --> 1:51:53.000 or if you have supreme confidence, you can go, no, 1:51:53.120 --> 1:51:53.680 what do you mean? 1:51:53.720 --> 1:51:56.120 That's that makes sense? What I just said? 1:51:57.640 --> 1:51:57.800 Right? 1:51:57.840 --> 1:52:01.280 Like nothing, although nothing actually makes sense. Anything that does 1:52:01.360 --> 1:52:04.040 make sense is just one person or one group of 1:52:04.080 --> 1:52:06.719 people really confidently convincing you that it does. 1:52:08.439 --> 1:52:11.000 Like, Hey, what are you talking about? I know what 1:52:11.000 --> 1:52:15.040 I'm saying, but whatever you're talking about is just you know, 1:52:15.680 --> 1:52:19.560 you don't even sound right, dude, I know that. 1:52:21.640 --> 1:52:23.880 Well, sorry for going on a tangent. Okay, so you're 1:52:25.040 --> 1:52:26.599 yes bad as a thought? 1:52:29.120 --> 1:52:33.519 Yeah. He The reason why him and my mom split 1:52:33.640 --> 1:52:38.840 up is because my little brother, it's only a couple 1:52:38.920 --> 1:52:47.200 months younger than me, he decided to go and have 1:52:47.400 --> 1:52:51.120 six with somebody else while my mom was at least 1:52:51.560 --> 1:52:59.080 seven months prement with me, I think. And they're awful people, 1:52:59.280 --> 1:53:03.840 I mean, on everyone of their own person. People did 1:53:03.840 --> 1:53:07.320 that ship sometime, but they just don't see the wrong 1:53:07.400 --> 1:53:15.160 in it. They say everything is supposed to be handed 1:53:15.200 --> 1:53:19.120 to them as adults, as adults. 1:53:23.280 --> 1:53:25.400 I just turned up your I realized your audio was 1:53:25.439 --> 1:53:34.400 down for but we're better, okay. M hmmm, so mm 1:53:34.439 --> 1:53:43.439 hmm Mariah, yeah, Riah, all right, So your brother scammed 1:53:43.479 --> 1:53:49.240 you unto this car deal. That's now I'm kind of curious. 1:53:49.240 --> 1:53:52.280 I'm kind of curious with the brother. You say you 1:53:52.320 --> 1:53:54.920 had a horrible relationship with him. Did you always have 1:53:54.960 --> 1:53:57.880 a horrible relationship with him or was that or is 1:53:58.080 --> 1:54:02.880 this car scamming thing part of that? Because I would 1:54:02.880 --> 1:54:04.439 think if you would have, if you've always had a 1:54:04.439 --> 1:54:08.479 horrible relationship with him, then I would ask what what 1:54:08.520 --> 1:54:11.160 made you trust him in this situation? 1:54:12.760 --> 1:54:16.080 Yeah, you could see that I clearly had a whole 1:54:16.120 --> 1:54:18.840 lot of trust in him to buy a car from him. 1:54:19.800 --> 1:54:23.400 And mind you, I bought this car without having the 1:54:23.439 --> 1:54:26.360 title in my hands. So that's a big fucking leap, 1:54:27.240 --> 1:54:29.759 a really big leaps. Heus my language on me because 1:54:29.800 --> 1:54:36.880 so much. But yeah, he explained to me, like, okay, 1:54:37.000 --> 1:54:41.120 little the car's paid off. She says she's gonna go 1:54:41.200 --> 1:54:43.520 get the title from North Carolina for you. 1:54:44.640 --> 1:54:46.080 Ball Okay. 1:54:47.160 --> 1:54:52.839 Months past, like two months, and this girl is still 1:54:53.320 --> 1:54:57.000 in my face looking at me not traveling to North 1:54:57.040 --> 1:54:58.720 Carolina to get down title. 1:55:00.440 --> 1:55:02.440 And it got so. 1:55:02.520 --> 1:55:06.640 Bad down there that we had to leave. I was 1:55:06.720 --> 1:55:12.880 pregnant for the whole trip, pretty much. We was up 1:55:12.880 --> 1:55:17.480 there for my whole pregnancy. And I gave them the 1:55:17.520 --> 1:55:20.520 benefit of the doubt to try to help change some 1:55:20.680 --> 1:55:24.440 things around the house because oh my god, don't get 1:55:24.480 --> 1:55:27.280 me started. The house was just in horrible condition. 1:55:27.600 --> 1:55:32.600 And well, hold on, so, how how how long ago 1:55:32.720 --> 1:55:33.320 was was all this? 1:55:35.440 --> 1:55:41.040 All of this conspired? Like we we came down here 1:55:41.160 --> 1:55:48.480 in August. Yeah, about two months ago. 1:55:49.520 --> 1:55:52.600 Oh are you still pregnant or did you have the child? 1:55:53.520 --> 1:55:53.680 Oh? 1:55:53.760 --> 1:55:56.800 Yeah, I had the baby. That's why we moved. 1:55:59.240 --> 1:55:59.360 Kid. 1:56:01.440 --> 1:56:04.160 No, this is this would be my second and I 1:56:04.240 --> 1:56:08.080 had him early because of stress that was related to 1:56:08.280 --> 1:56:10.839 my brothers. 1:56:11.000 --> 1:56:13.240 How are things going with the second child? 1:56:15.240 --> 1:56:21.600 Great? Great? I was. I felt so fucking relieve when 1:56:21.600 --> 1:56:26.840 I found out that his jaundice was gone. He was 1:56:26.880 --> 1:56:30.640 born premature, like a couple, you know, he was born 1:56:30.680 --> 1:56:35.400 a month early, and he was so tiny. He was 1:56:35.760 --> 1:56:42.000 like shit. Help They said he was only like four pounds. 1:56:42.440 --> 1:56:45.240 And we were in the hospital for four days. And 1:56:45.400 --> 1:56:49.120 right after we got out, we started packing our things 1:56:49.840 --> 1:56:53.280 and I left like two days after I got out 1:56:53.320 --> 1:56:53.960 of the hospital. 1:56:55.400 --> 1:56:55.680 Mhm. 1:56:58.040 --> 1:57:00.960 Its been a wild and I just got into a 1:57:01.000 --> 1:57:08.600 fight with my mom's boyfriend, so we had to tase 1:57:08.880 --> 1:57:11.160 I sound was a little bit faster, but we finally 1:57:11.160 --> 1:57:14.960 got a home. I guess all that nonsense kind of 1:57:15.000 --> 1:57:18.600 plaid off, and it's only but it also to our part, 1:57:18.680 --> 1:57:19.600 my relationship. 1:57:21.080 --> 1:57:23.720 It's no wild ride. 1:57:25.280 --> 1:57:27.800 Well what did you say? 1:57:27.800 --> 1:57:28.040 Aname? 1:57:28.120 --> 1:57:28.840 Was Mariah? 1:57:31.440 --> 1:57:31.960 O my time? 1:57:33.400 --> 1:57:36.200 Mariah Maria, is there anything else that you want to 1:57:36.200 --> 1:57:36.640 talk about? 1:57:36.680 --> 1:57:38.600 Before before we had out. 1:57:38.440 --> 1:57:44.000 Of here, M I actually did have a question for you. 1:57:44.840 --> 1:57:45.160 Hit me. 1:57:46.160 --> 1:57:46.480 Do you. 1:57:48.520 --> 1:57:52.440 Do you enjoy being a ghetto or your own person? 1:57:53.640 --> 1:57:55.840 Do I enjoy being a gecko or a person? 1:57:58.320 --> 1:57:59.400 Who would you prefer to be? 1:58:03.160 --> 1:58:07.800 You mean in in in what particular context. 1:58:08.680 --> 1:58:13.800 To go about your daily test, eating, sleeping, making good pop? 1:58:14.480 --> 1:58:14.680 Oh? 1:58:15.040 --> 1:58:18.760 Absolutely, I prefer to Yeah. I think it's nice to. 1:58:20.400 --> 1:58:23.200 You know, I think that wearing a giant green gacko costume, 1:58:23.280 --> 1:58:24.320 you know, it has its place. 1:58:26.400 --> 1:58:26.640 Uh. 1:58:26.680 --> 1:58:29.280 You know, wearing a giant green gecko costume has had 1:58:29.320 --> 1:58:33.880 its benefits for me in my life. There are certain 1:58:33.920 --> 1:58:37.720 places in which I think it's is better that I 1:58:37.760 --> 1:58:41.000 am I am wearing it, and then certain places in 1:58:41.040 --> 1:58:43.839 which I would probably be an impediment to my life 1:58:44.160 --> 1:58:47.320 to be wearing a giant green gecko costume, such as 1:58:47.840 --> 1:58:52.160 sleeping and eating and going to the grocery store, although 1:58:52.160 --> 1:58:54.520 I don't necessarily know because I really haven't tried going 1:58:54.560 --> 1:58:57.440 to the grocery store as a giant green gecko. Uh, 1:58:57.480 --> 1:58:59.880 and it possibly could be an interesting experience. Okay, I 1:59:00.080 --> 1:59:02.800 will try it. Then I will try that you like it. 1:59:03.480 --> 1:59:05.640 I will let you know how that goes. 1:59:05.680 --> 1:59:08.080 Thank you. I appreciate the conversation. 1:59:08.360 --> 1:59:10.000 Of course, of course, thank you for calling. 1:59:10.040 --> 1:59:10.240 Mara. 1:59:10.400 --> 1:59:11.200 Have a good rest of the night. 1:59:11.960 --> 1:59:12.720 You have a nice night. 1:59:16.880 --> 1:59:18.680 Someone said I look like a salamander. I don't even 1:59:18.720 --> 1:59:22.360 know where that is. I don't even know what a 1:59:22.400 --> 1:59:25.720 salamander is. People tell me I look like a salamander. 1:59:28.800 --> 1:59:30.320 You don't even know what a salamander is. 1:59:32.600 --> 1:59:35.760 Goes on the line, taking your phone calls every night. 1:59:38.160 --> 1:59:38.720 He was teaching