Speaker 1: All from Nick.
Speaker 2: Hi is this Nick?
Speaker 3: Hello?
Speaker 1: Hey?
Speaker 4: How you doing Nick?
Speaker 5: Hey?
Speaker 6: Man, I didn't expect to be on that's crazy.
Speaker 2: I didn't expect anyone to ever call into this thing ever,
Speaker 2: So we are in the same kayak.
Speaker 6: Oh wow, dude, first caller, This is a lot of pressure.
Speaker 4: Hold on real quick. But why why is it a
Speaker 4: lot of press?
Speaker 2: Tell me? Let's get into the pressure that you're feeling.
Speaker 2: Tell me more, what exactly do you feel pressured to do?
Speaker 3: Well?
Speaker 7: Well, I saw you on TikTok about a year ago
Speaker 7: and then I I just recently, like I'll put on
Speaker 7: your stream highlights in the car and on the way
Speaker 7: to work, and uh, I don't know, man, I just.
Speaker 6: This is the first time calling in.
Speaker 2: Okay, so you've been You've listened to the stream highlights
Speaker 2: on the podcast, But have you Is there anything in
Speaker 2: particular that maybe you wanted to talk about? It's fine
Speaker 2: if not, we can just be river people. But if
Speaker 2: there is somehow I'm happy to discuss.
Speaker 5: Yeah.
Speaker 6: Man, I actually have been thinking about this for a minute,
Speaker 6: Like if I ever called in, which is today, if
Speaker 6: I was to talk about anything, it'd be about my work,
Speaker 6: my work slash home life, M I feel like I
Speaker 6: put more into work than I do at home, which
Speaker 6: is I don't know if that's an issue or what.
Speaker 2: You put more into work than you don't? First of all,
Speaker 2: real quick, sorry, I have to do this. Everyone in
Speaker 2: the chat. Can you all hear Nick?
Speaker 4: This is what this happens.
Speaker 2: I'll talk to someone for a long time, then I'll
Speaker 2: look at the chat and I'll be like, they can't
Speaker 2: hear anyone?
Speaker 4: Okay, perfect, all right?
Speaker 2: So you put to more work more uh uh more
Speaker 2: into your work than you do into your home life.
Speaker 2: What do you do for work?
Speaker 6: I work at a tire shop. I'm a third in
Speaker 6: command at a tire shop, and I I love my job,
Speaker 6: and it's not that's not an issue. It's mostly I
Speaker 6: don't know. I don't feel like I'm putting as much
Speaker 6: work as i'd like to into my relationship.
Speaker 2: M How your relationship? When you say your relationship, do
Speaker 2: you mean your relationships across the board or are we
Speaker 2: talking about a romantic relationship that you're involved.
Speaker 6: With mostly romantic. I have a fiance and we own
Speaker 6: a house together, and we don't really I mean, you know,
Speaker 6: we work several hours and come home and just kind
Speaker 6: of chill out, but you know, we're just kind of there,
Speaker 6: you know, it's not really.
Speaker 5: I don't know.
Speaker 4: So she's working several hours as well.
Speaker 6: Yeah, yeah, and it's mostly when I get home, she's
Speaker 6: not really there. But on our days off we do
Speaker 6: spend time together. But I'm not one there, you know,
Speaker 6: like I'm I'm I'm always thinking about something else. It's
Speaker 6: work related at least interesting.
Speaker 2: You're not one hundred percent there, So you're hanging out
Speaker 2: with her, but you're not really there. Your mind is
Speaker 2: focused on something work related.
Speaker 4: I understand that for sure.
Speaker 5: Mmm mm hmmm.
Speaker 2: When your mind, when you say you're not really there,
Speaker 2: when you're and you're thinking about stuff like give give
Speaker 2: me an example, like what do you like last time
Speaker 2: you were with her.
Speaker 4: And your mind was somewhere else? What where was your
Speaker 4: mind exactly?
Speaker 2: What? What?
Speaker 4: What's like?
Speaker 2: What specifically were you thinking about? You can get very
Speaker 2: specific if you want, Like you're like, oh, I saw
Speaker 2: I saw some god. On my drive home, I saw
Speaker 2: a guy with a flat tire and I should have
Speaker 2: made a U turn and tailed him until I was like, hey,
Speaker 2: you come to our tire shop. What was the thought
Speaker 2: that you know?
Speaker 6: That's that's actually in my state. That's how you get stabbed.
Speaker 6: But she'll get she'll get upset at me because like
Speaker 6: I'll get home and I'll just like fucking research tires man,
Speaker 6: like on the website, Like what kind of technology do
Speaker 6: these tires have?
Speaker 5: Man?
Speaker 6: They're freak, They're very interesting.
Speaker 2: Mmmm. Well see, you know this is this is a
Speaker 2: tough one because on one hand, I'm like, you know,
Speaker 2: it's such a rare thing to like your job that much,
Speaker 2: because this is a good thing, right because when you
Speaker 2: because you said to me, at least what I'm hearing
Speaker 2: from you is like I get home from my job
Speaker 2: working all day at tires, and I'm like, and you
Speaker 2: go home and you research tires like for fun.
Speaker 6: I know, I know it sounds fucking nuts.
Speaker 2: No, no, it's I know. I don't think it sounds
Speaker 2: much at all because what what what I didn't want
Speaker 2: to hear I thought you were gonna say it was
Speaker 2: like you're not there because you're like stressed about your job.
Speaker 2: You don't sound like you're stressed. You sound like you're
Speaker 2: actually very much enjoying what you're doing.
Speaker 6: Yeah, one hunder.
Speaker 4: Huh what do you find?
Speaker 2: What do you find?
Speaker 4: So interesting about tires.
Speaker 8: Dude, like the tread patterns, Like I like really big tires,
Speaker 8: I like really small tires. Like you can see kind
Speaker 8: of how much work somebody somewhere has put into a
Speaker 8: tire by just looking at like the tread and uh
Speaker 8: and just like damn, like somebody put a lot.
Speaker 6: Of work into that ship it, you know, m h
Speaker 6: And I find that fascinating.
Speaker 2: Get what's your favorite tire company? Because automatically, if I
Speaker 2: ever have a tire related question, like, you're the You're
Speaker 2: the guy.
Speaker 4: You really you're not like just doing this for a living.
Speaker 4: You care deeply about tires.
Speaker 6: Yeah, Man, if I was to because I'm a big
Speaker 6: I love Yokohama because man, they they offer such a
Speaker 6: safe tire that's such a low cost compared to other tires. Man,
Speaker 6: So if you need a tire, I would go with Yokohama.
Speaker 2: Mm hmm. So this is interesting to me because on
Speaker 2: one hand, you know, I feel like you're very lucky
Speaker 2: because it is it's a very.
Speaker 4: Rare thing. I feel like to.
Speaker 2: Genuinely enjoy what you're doing the way that I can
Speaker 2: tell that you do, but you're like obsessed with times
Speaker 2: I don't I don't know. I don't have I don't
Speaker 2: I don't have like a like advice for you or anything.
Speaker 2: But like, I think it's nice that your your mind
Speaker 2: is is on work, but in a good way, like
Speaker 2: you like you're enjoying it so much. Like that's not
Speaker 2: the that's not the common story people write, you know,
Speaker 2: the common The common story is like, oh, I can't
Speaker 2: be with my loved ones because like I'm stressed out
Speaker 2: about something else.
Speaker 4: You know, So it's a good you have a good problem.
Speaker 6: I understand that, but it it's if if and I'm
Speaker 6: seeing the chat, I know, I know how you are
Speaker 6: about like being one with the call, but I'm not.
Speaker 6: I don't work for Yokohama. That's just what.
Speaker 2: I oh no, oh no, the chat you you don't know.
Speaker 2: I don't think you work for Yokohama at all. I
Speaker 2: think you are just a guy who is passionate about tires,
Speaker 2: giving his genuine opinion. I actually I know for a
Speaker 2: I just no, you are not someone I feel like
Speaker 2: you would rather die than give an opinion about a
Speaker 2: tire that is not true to how you believe.
Speaker 4: I I believe that about.
Speaker 6: You, dude. I fucking perish before a false opinion is given.
Speaker 2: That's just not what is What does your wife do?
Speaker 6: She works at a bath and body works, which is kind.
Speaker 2: Of she as as as die hard interested in soaps
Speaker 2: as you are in tires.
Speaker 6: Uh some yeah, I mean she's always coming home with
Speaker 6: like candles and ship and uh you know, it's great.
Speaker 6: The house smells wonderful all the time. But she's not
Speaker 6: as invested into it as I am with tires, you
Speaker 6: know what I mean? Mm hmm.
Speaker 2: Now okay, So you told when you told me, you
Speaker 2: were like, what does this sound good? So when you
Speaker 2: told me that you're afraid your you're upset that you're
Speaker 2: not being present with hers. But is that coming from
Speaker 2: you or does any of that come from her?
Speaker 1: Like?
Speaker 4: What's her view on the Wait? Am I hold on?
Speaker 4: Craptis I'm disconnected? Am I back?
Speaker 5: Yeah?
Speaker 6: You're good?
Speaker 4: Hold on?
Speaker 6: Can you hear me?
Speaker 4: I can tell you about that anyway.
Speaker 2: You your wife? What does she think about all this?
Speaker 6: I don't know. She just kind of gets frustrated because
Speaker 6: I'm always talking about work, I'm always talking about tires.
Speaker 6: I don't know, man, it's it's it's a tough one
Speaker 6: because I don't know what she's thinking. I know what
Speaker 6: she says, but I mean we do we do other things, man,
Speaker 6: We do like we go to like amusement parks and
Speaker 6: ship and we like going to uh you know, like
Speaker 6: trying out different foods and stuff. But in the back
Speaker 6: of my mind, man, I just I just wish that
Speaker 6: I was at work, you know, like I like making money,
Speaker 6: and that's not the root of it all. But the money,
Speaker 6: I think the root.
Speaker 2: Of it all is uh tires. So yeah, man, well listen,
Speaker 2: what'd you say? My name was Nick? Nick.
Speaker 4: I'm well Nick.
Speaker 2: Look, I don't have any like concrete advice for you,
Speaker 2: except you know, the sort of platitudes that everyone would
Speaker 2: tell you about, you know, making dedicated time to not
Speaker 2: think about tires. But you know, I'll say my immediate
Speaker 2: thoughts is, consider self lucky. You have a thing that
Speaker 2: you actually enjoy doing that is your job. You know,
Speaker 2: not everyone can say that, So consider yourself lucky in
Speaker 2: that regard.
Speaker 6: Mister get thank you so much for having me time.
Speaker 6: I'm pretty sure, like I'm ninety nine percent sure, I'm
Speaker 6: going to watch your stuff for the rest of my life.
Speaker 2: Beautiful. Hey, if I'm ever in your town, I'm coming
Speaker 2: by the tire shop.
Speaker 4: Where do you live?
Speaker 9: Again?
Speaker 4: What's your town?
Speaker 6: It's it's actually in Virginia. Okay, I I hope you
Speaker 6: understand this. I'm not really comfortable with the exact location,
Speaker 6: but it's in the Richmond.
Speaker 4: Oh for sure. For sure.
Speaker 2: No, you'd get mobbed. Everyone here would be like, oh,
Speaker 2: this is my new tire guy. Now, well beautiful, I'll
Speaker 2: come to you next time I need tires.
Speaker 4: Thank you, Nick. You have a good rest of the night.
Speaker 6: I love you guy.
Speaker 2: Nick.
Speaker 10: Forever Baby goes on the line taking your phone calls
Speaker 10: every night, goes to teaching you.
Speaker 2: Hello, Hey, hey, how are you GEK.
Speaker 4: I'm doing good.
Speaker 2: I'm streaming live on on spank bang dot com and
Speaker 2: I'm I'm having a good time.
Speaker 11: Hell yeah, hell yeah.
Speaker 2: Everyone always everyone always makes jokes at pornhub. But I
Speaker 2: feel like, like.
Speaker 4: Does anyone actually go to pornhub to watch porn?
Speaker 9: Okay, I'll be straight up right now and let you
Speaker 9: know I still use porn Hub.
Speaker 2: Okay, So when you go to watch porn, you type
Speaker 2: you go to your fucking chrome and you type www
Speaker 2: dot pornhub dot com. That's where you start.
Speaker 9: No, no, no, no, that's like way too much effort.
Speaker 9: I usually just do like you know, just pornhub in
Speaker 9: incognito and then.
Speaker 2: I go to the sight that way you go on
Speaker 2: incognito mode.
Speaker 9: Uh, yes, yes, I do.
Speaker 4: Wow.
Speaker 2: I remember I got to a certain age where I
Speaker 2: was like, I think I remember the sort of age
Speaker 2: bracket that I got to where I stopped clearing my
Speaker 2: history and I was just like, what who's looking? First
Speaker 2: of all, Second of all, what are they gonna? It's
Speaker 2: not illegal? What do I have to hide?
Speaker 6: I don't know.
Speaker 9: I have to hide myself, man, I don't want I
Speaker 9: don't want people knowing.
Speaker 2: What I like.
Speaker 9: What if somebody gets my phone or something?
Speaker 2: I don't know.
Speaker 9: I'm paranoid though, It's fair.
Speaker 2: Jay, What's uh? What's going on? I'm a gecko, You're
Speaker 2: a void. I don't know what you are exactly, but
Speaker 2: you are a voice on the phone right now. What's uh?
Speaker 4: And what's what's what's what's what's happening?
Speaker 9: I'm say similar to how you're just get I'm just Jay.
Speaker 5: I don't know.
Speaker 2: Well, you said you told our call screen or something
Speaker 2: that you wanted to talk about. I forget what it was,
Speaker 2: but I knew it was.
Speaker 9: Something Okay, So I have a sugar daddy and this
Speaker 9: happened very recently.
Speaker 2: Mm hmm.
Speaker 9: I really don't know even to start with it.
Speaker 2: Yeah, so you said recently, So you are new to
Speaker 2: the the idea of having a sugar debt or the practice.
Speaker 9: Yes, because I was not like openly searching or looking
Speaker 9: for one. This dude literally just slid in my DMS
Speaker 9: and offered to, like, you know, give me cash, and
Speaker 9: it's been going pretty great. He's not a psycho, he's
Speaker 9: actually not some dirty old man. He's like thirty three,
Speaker 9: he's pretty young, fairly young.
Speaker 2: And was this your first ever offer to be someone's
Speaker 2: sugar baby?
Speaker 9: Yes? I, like I said, I never really like went
Speaker 9: out posting on like, you know, websites looking for one
Speaker 9: like this dude literally just slid in my DMS and
Speaker 9: it's been working out surprisingly well.
Speaker 2: Interesting And did you did you accept it? Did you
Speaker 2: start entering into this this relationship immediately or did you
Speaker 2: do you have any apprehensions beforehand?
Speaker 9: I definitely had apprehensions, just because, like I'm a very
Speaker 9: self conscious person. So I like made it really clear,
Speaker 9: like this is what I don't want, this is what
Speaker 9: I'm cool with and I also like wanted to meet
Speaker 9: him in a public place a few times before. I
Speaker 9: was like, you know, comfortable with anything.
Speaker 2: Okay, So how many times you met up with them?
Speaker 9: I've only met him in person three times and it's
Speaker 9: been out for coffee another time for lunch.
Speaker 2: Jay, do me do me a huge favorite? Can you
Speaker 2: take me off of speaker phone?
Speaker 9: You're not on speaker phone?
Speaker 2: Oh? What am I on? I feel like I'm on some.
Speaker 11: Do you feel like you're on some?
Speaker 5: No?
Speaker 2: Like, am I on like your AirPods?
Speaker 11: Or no?
Speaker 9: You're just on my phone?
Speaker 2: Oh?
Speaker 4: Okay, maybe it's maybe I'm crazy. All right, So you
Speaker 4: met up with him for coffee?
Speaker 9: Yeah, I met him up for coffee and then lunch
Speaker 9: and then coffee again.
Speaker 4: Okay and all all.
Speaker 2: So he just pays you?
Speaker 4: How much is he paying you?
Speaker 9: So right now it kind of just depends. He's been
Speaker 9: just throwing me cash and he put it out there,
Speaker 9: is that like if I do decide to have to
Speaker 9: chext with him, he will give me five thousand dollars
Speaker 9: up front, But as far as the coffee, meats and stuff,
Speaker 9: he gave me three hundred dollars one time, and then
Speaker 9: four hundred another time, and then the most recent coffee
Speaker 9: meat he didn't give me anything because I was just
Speaker 9: hungry and he was in the area.
Speaker 2: So can I ask, And you don't have to tell
Speaker 2: me anything that you're not comfortable telling me, But are
Speaker 2: you are you considering going all the way for five
Speaker 2: thousand dollars? What are your thoughts?
Speaker 4: What are you're like, what's your thought process behind that?
Speaker 9: You know, I really am thinking about it because this dude,
Speaker 9: once again, he is very clearly like not a crazy person.
Speaker 9: He's also married and has a kid, Like I feel
Speaker 9: like I know a lot about his life that could
Speaker 9: ruin his life, but like, I would never do that
Speaker 9: to someone, So I am very highly considering it. And
Speaker 9: then he also told me upfront, like if I gave
Speaker 9: him a blowjob in the hotel room, it would.
Speaker 12: Be five hundred bucks.
Speaker 5: Hmmm.
Speaker 9: So I trust this dude, is what I guess I'm.
Speaker 6: Trying to say.
Speaker 2: See, I'm thinking in my head, I'm like, well, I
Speaker 2: don't know, I don't, I don't. I feel like, because
Speaker 2: I'm a guy, I don't have his good intuition for
Speaker 2: these kind of things. But part of me feels like
Speaker 2: going to a hotel with a straight like, you know,
Speaker 2: I don't know if it feels unsafe.
Speaker 11: I definitely okay.
Speaker 9: Also, no offense to this dude. But he's shorter than me,
Speaker 9: and he's also really skinny. I used to fight mma,
Speaker 9: so like I could definitely kick his ass. Okay, So
Speaker 9: I feel very safe in that department.
Speaker 2: Hmmm, did you say did you say he was People
Speaker 2: in the chatter saying don't do what? He's married? Did
Speaker 2: you don't?
Speaker 4: You didn't say he was married?
Speaker 2: Did you no?
Speaker 9: He he is married and his wife knows.
Speaker 2: His wife knows, Yes, how do you know his wife knows?
Speaker 9: We had a conversation about it, because I mean, I'm
Speaker 9: also engaged and my partner knows that I'm doing it,
Speaker 9: and she's really.
Speaker 13: Cool with it so far.
Speaker 9: And then he was like open and he's like, yeah,
Speaker 9: I'm married, I have a kid, blah blah blah, and
Speaker 9: he's like she knows about it.
Speaker 2: And I was like, oh, all right, I dude, so
Speaker 2: you're okay. So both of you are in committed long
Speaker 2: term relationships and both of your partners know and are
Speaker 2: okay with it.
Speaker 5: Yeah.
Speaker 2: Interesting, Just so, so your partner did did you say
Speaker 2: did you say, uh, it's your partners, is she.
Speaker 11: Yes?
Speaker 2: So is so your partner? Have you guys always been
Speaker 2: like open or is this like a new thing?
Speaker 9: We We never have had an open relationship. I was
Speaker 9: literally just trying to like make some side cash by
Speaker 9: posting my news online, and like my partner knew about that.
Speaker 9: But then that's when like the sugar daddy's flitting into
Speaker 9: the DM.
Speaker 2: So you floated with your partner the idea of having
Speaker 2: sex with this guy, and she's cool with it?
Speaker 6: Yes, hm hmm.
Speaker 9: I'm looking at her right now. She's literally watching the stream.
Speaker 9: I can't.
Speaker 2: I don't know my only person I ever with this,
Speaker 2: And I guess this is sort of a thing you
Speaker 2: would have with any guy, whether or not he's paying
Speaker 2: you money. Is like, you know, are are you at
Speaker 2: risk of going into some situation where where you'll get
Speaker 2: like fucking trafficked or something.
Speaker 9: I was like, and once again, I genuinely do feel
Speaker 9: like pretty safe. This dude is like clearly just like
Speaker 9: somewhat like he told me straight up, his wife isn't
Speaker 9: into like sex at all. She's asexual. He like is
Speaker 9: a very sexual person. He's like, I'm just like trying
Speaker 9: to get off and I was like cool dude, like
Speaker 9: that's his whole thing. He has a very normal life
Speaker 9: and that's all he wants. He's very boring if anything.
Speaker 4: Mm so what do you think are you thinking of
Speaker 4: you're gonna do it.
Speaker 11: For the five thousand?
Speaker 9: I don't know, but I'll think he's a for five
Speaker 9: in the buck?
Speaker 2: Now would you? Hmmm mm hmmm, So now would your
Speaker 2: would your girlfriend want to come with?
Speaker 5: I don't I.
Speaker 9: Don't think she would want to come with.
Speaker 11: She's shaking her head.
Speaker 8: No, I obviously cat.
Speaker 4: Catch doctor.
Speaker 9: Do you want to talk to her?
Speaker 11: Yeah?
Speaker 4: I would love to.
Speaker 9: Okay, I'm passing a rustle though.
Speaker 4: Hi yet, Hey, what's up?
Speaker 14: Nothing much? I was gonna play some DODA and then
Speaker 14: I can't say got on the call wait list, so I.
Speaker 3: Passed with you?
Speaker 2: Am I am? I I'm sorry if I'm taking away
Speaker 2: from your Dota time.
Speaker 14: No, no, no, no, I'm this is this is exciting.
Speaker 2: So what do you what do you?
Speaker 4: What are your thoughts on this situation? What's your name?
Speaker 14: By the way, I'm Netlieu. You know money is money,
Speaker 14: So I'm I'm comfortable in our relationships. We've been for
Speaker 14: like six years. We've met in high school. So I know,
Speaker 14: you know, we're good. So money is money.
Speaker 15: I don't really care.
Speaker 14: As long as the the sugar daddy is clean, and
Speaker 14: he is he's clean, so I don't care.
Speaker 2: M Well, I mean, I don't know. I guess this
Speaker 2: sounds like a done deal. Then, Yeah, what what do
Speaker 2: you do, Natalie?
Speaker 4: What's your what's your situation?
Speaker 14: I go to school for computer science and I work
Speaker 14: at a cafe.
Speaker 2: Beautiful, beautiful, sounds like sounds like you guys got a
Speaker 2: good life going on.
Speaker 3: Before.
Speaker 2: Yeah, that was that was easy. Crap with your girlfriend's
Speaker 2: name again, Jay, Jay? Yes, let me talk to Jay
Speaker 2: one more time.
Speaker 6: Yeah, of course.
Speaker 2: Hey, geg, what's up Jay? Well listen, Jay, I wish
Speaker 2: you good luck and whatever you choose to do. And
Speaker 2: God bless you, God bless you.
Speaker 11: Gek.
Speaker 9: I just real quick, real quick, I have one more question.
Speaker 4: Sorry, hit me, hit me in the face.
Speaker 11: You should.
Speaker 9: It's not a question, I guess it's more of a statement.
Speaker 6: I agree with chat.
Speaker 4: It's pay in my face around.
Speaker 11: I'm hanging out.
Speaker 9: No, no, no, no, no, it's not about the face. It's
Speaker 9: not about the face. Bean bag. You should get a
Speaker 9: bean bag.
Speaker 4: Ah a being bag.
Speaker 2: I would have if I got a bean bag, Chat,
Speaker 2: I would have to make it like really expensive.
Speaker 11: Well, because okay, Chat.
Speaker 9: Was talking about like while I was waiting on hold
Speaker 9: of all the money.
Speaker 4: That you would make, would would have to then go
Speaker 4: to me.
Speaker 2: You have to buy that chair.
Speaker 11: That's fine.
Speaker 4: How much does it cost to make a custom bean
Speaker 4: bag chair?
Speaker 9: You know, I don't know, I don't I don't make
Speaker 9: custom bean bag chairs.
Speaker 11: One hundred dollars?
Speaker 5: How do you know that?
Speaker 9: One hundred bucks?
Speaker 11: Apparently?
Speaker 4: Okay, I'll look into that. I'll look into that.
Speaker 2: Thank you for the suggestion, Jay, Yeah, you're welcome so much.
Speaker 4: Beautiful have aggressed to that. Thank you for going.
Speaker 1: God bless geck Asher, Hey, gek.
Speaker 4: What is going on baby?
Speaker 1: Nothing much. I'm just a lot of stress recently.
Speaker 4: Why are you stressed out? Asher?
Speaker 1: So to preference this? I am a trance guy and
Speaker 1: it's just a lot yep and it's just been a
Speaker 1: lot of like stuff relating to my work. I still
Speaker 1: get clupchy, even though like my voice is deep now
Speaker 1: I present his masculine and it's still just like I
Speaker 1: do everything I'm told to sit in that box.
Speaker 2: And what do you actually when you say when you
Speaker 2: hold on really quick just now, because I don't want
Speaker 2: you to gloss over it, because I'm kind of curious
Speaker 2: what you mean when you.
Speaker 4: Say you said.
Speaker 2: You do everything you can to fit in the box
Speaker 2: you're supposed to. What does that mean?
Speaker 1: So you know how people are supposed to see masculine,
Speaker 1: you know, you're supposed to be yeah, strong, and.
Speaker 2: You're sure you know so you so, so you try
Speaker 2: to act more masculine in an attempt to get people
Speaker 2: to see you as a quote, real man. Yes, and
Speaker 2: it sucks, okay, because I was gonna say, if you
Speaker 2: don't whose, I was gonna ask, like, do you do
Speaker 2: you do you feel inherently masculine or is that a
Speaker 2: thing that you only do to, like, you know, for
Speaker 2: for the sake of other people.
Speaker 1: I feel like I do it for the sake of
Speaker 1: other people most of the time, because it's just like
Speaker 1: I have to say, like, my dad's a football coach,
Speaker 1: so like I grew up around like super masculine dudes.
Speaker 1: So it's all this machowness that I've been trying to emilate,
Speaker 1: and it's just I'm not like that. Like I like
Speaker 1: to draw, you know, pink is a cute color. And
Speaker 1: you know, like I dress not like if I'm not
Speaker 1: in my work clothes, I dress a little more feminine
Speaker 1: than what would you considered more.
Speaker 2: Where do you work?
Speaker 1: I work at an organic grocery store.
Speaker 2: Do you like?
Speaker 4: Do you like working there?
Speaker 1: It pays well, so like that's why I'm there? What?
Speaker 2: Okay? So in your daily life, in your circles, be
Speaker 2: they family circles, work circles, friends circles, what circles that
Speaker 2: are present in your day life do you feel the
Speaker 2: most like like disrespected and uncomfortable?
Speaker 1: Then definitely my family circle because.
Speaker 2: Family, Sorry, it's a tough one.
Speaker 1: Yeah, Like my parents like if I try to talk
Speaker 1: about it through like really hush hush about it, like
Speaker 1: they don't want anything to do with it.
Speaker 2: Mm hmm.
Speaker 1: And then oh, don't even think about I don't even
Speaker 1: think about talking it to my extended family because oh lord,
Speaker 1: they're old Trump supporters.
Speaker 6: And move.
Speaker 4: Do you do you live with your parents?
Speaker 16: Yes?
Speaker 1: I still do, but I'm talking about moving out and
Speaker 1: going living with my boyfriend down in Houston.
Speaker 2: Okay, rock and roll. Okay, that's cool because that's why
Speaker 2: I was gonna say, is like I know it's it's tough,
Speaker 2: you know. Not everyone has like the the you know
Speaker 2: is fortunate enough to be able to like live with
Speaker 2: their parents and like, you know, save up money and
Speaker 2: all that shit, so you know, if you can. It
Speaker 2: sounds like it would be you know, you're employed, sounds
Speaker 2: like it would be for the best of your mental
Speaker 2: health to to live with your boyfriend down in Houston.
Speaker 2: So so, so I assume Houston is not where you live.
Speaker 2: Then no, I see you get a new gig.
Speaker 1: Yes, I would have to get a new job, and
Speaker 1: hopefully by the time I'm done with community college, I'll
Speaker 1: be able to get a better paying drop than when
Speaker 1: I have right now.
Speaker 2: Mm hmmmm, Well, you know, look Asher, uh uh, you
Speaker 2: probably don't need me to tell you this, but uh
Speaker 2: you know, look, it's it's not up to anyone else
Speaker 2: to define who you are as as as I feel like,
Speaker 2: you know, you know, and you know, have you.
Speaker 4: This place where you live? Where have you lived there
Speaker 4: your entire life?
Speaker 1: Yes, I moved to I lived at one side of
Speaker 1: the town and now I live at the other side
Speaker 1: of down with my parents, so I haven't moved much.
Speaker 4: Okay, Well, don't let don't let whatever.
Speaker 3: Like.
Speaker 2: The the the vibe is of that small town, and like,
Speaker 2: don't don't let that form your like grander idea of
Speaker 2: how people will.
Speaker 4: Respond to you in general. Does that make sense? Because like, yeah,
Speaker 4: does that make because I feel like if.
Speaker 2: You grew up in a small town where everyone is
Speaker 2: like sort of you know, thinks in a similar way
Speaker 2: and like is responding to you in a similar way,
Speaker 2: you you think, oh, everyone like you know, and I'm
Speaker 2: not saying this is you know how you're feeling, but
Speaker 2: I only you feel like everyone everywhere will never accept
Speaker 2: me every because, like you said, you're you're working with
Speaker 2: a very small sample size.
Speaker 1: Yeah, yes, yeah, hopefully soon too. Like if I move
Speaker 1: to a more basically blue area of Texas, then my
Speaker 1: I'm safer. But at the same time, I'm moving to
Speaker 1: a city which I'm just not comfortable with because like
Speaker 1: everything would be in walking distance?
Speaker 2: Is that not good?
Speaker 1: And no, it's good, but it's different for me. I'm
Speaker 1: not used to that, like convenience.
Speaker 2: Sorry for laughing, but why why is why are you
Speaker 2: making you're making convenient? Why is convenience bad? I've never
Speaker 2: heard someone talk about everything being in not walking distance.
Speaker 2: I've never heard someone present that as a as a
Speaker 2: negative thing.
Speaker 1: It's just weird to me because I have the driver
Speaker 1: or to get stuff and the idea of.
Speaker 2: Sucking and you want to be able to get fucking
Speaker 2: pizza down the street and not have to get in
Speaker 2: your part of it every time you want to, you know,
Speaker 2: do your laundry or whatever.
Speaker 1: It sounds amazing like, but it's just my brain just
Speaker 1: can't wrap around that. How like easy it is.
Speaker 2: I think, uh, I think you're gonna have I think
Speaker 2: you're gonna have fun. Ashure, I think it'll be cool.
Speaker 2: I think, uh uh, you know, it sounds like it
Speaker 2: sounds like it'll be good for you to get into
Speaker 2: a new environment. How old are about it?
Speaker 1: Yeah, that's what I'm thinking too. I am twenty two.
Speaker 2: Okay, word, did you uh do you have like a grant?
Speaker 2: You said you're going to community college and you're getting
Speaker 2: a new gig. Do you have like a like a
Speaker 2: grand thing that you want to do.
Speaker 1: I want to go into film by the same time.
Speaker 1: You know, I draw as well, so I can see
Speaker 1: that as like I take emissions and stuff like that
Speaker 1: on the side, so I could see that being like
Speaker 1: a part time job. And then I go work out
Speaker 1: a TV station for my full time job or something
Speaker 1: like that, and that sounds like the ideal dream for me.
Speaker 4: Damn, you know, I'm in Look. I think it's good that, uh,
Speaker 4: you're you're putting.
Speaker 2: Yourself out there. You know, you could have just stayed
Speaker 2: in your in your small town. You could have suppressed
Speaker 2: who you were to make other people happy. But you
Speaker 2: didn't do it, Asher, And I'm proud. I'm proud of
Speaker 2: you for that. That's pretty that's pretty cool. Keep keep sucking,
Speaker 2: rocking and rolling. Uh. I think I think that facing
Speaker 2: these uncomfortable things will work out for you in the in.
Speaker 1: The long run, definitely.
Speaker 3: Mm hmmm.
Speaker 2: Here's another thing that I that I'll that I'll tell
Speaker 2: you because I believe in this. I've talked to I've
Speaker 2: had I've had a few people call in here with
Speaker 2: a similar with similar problems as you I've taken. I've
Speaker 2: talked to people about this before, and I like to
Speaker 2: say that, like, uh, you know, I feel like when
Speaker 2: you when you're growing up in that small town environment,
Speaker 2: everyone will convince you that like you know, for example,
Speaker 2: you were talking about how you you know, uh, you
Speaker 2: like to present femininely. You dress feminine, but that other people,
Speaker 2: you know, give.
Speaker 4: Your ship for that.
Speaker 2: And I feel like if you if you have if
Speaker 2: you go up with that small town mentality, people will
Speaker 2: convince you that certain things about you are like are weaknesses,
Speaker 2: but but they're actually but they're actually but and maybe
Speaker 2: like it causes you to think about them as a
Speaker 2: weaknesses because like they they cause you experience, like that
Speaker 2: stress that you're talking about what they're but they're but
Speaker 2: they're strengths. Sure, their strengths, especially for you when you
Speaker 2: want to get into the media, right when you want
Speaker 2: to get into film, because when it comes time for
Speaker 2: you as a as an artist, as a as a
Speaker 2: filmmaker to like tell whatever your your story is, right
Speaker 2: that aspect of the story of that whatever aspects of
Speaker 2: the story that you thought were weaknesses, like you know,
Speaker 2: talking about dressing feminine and getting shipped for that, Like
Speaker 2: that's gonna become your strength. That's gonna be the thing
Speaker 2: that like people you know, like look at your fucking
Speaker 2: comic about or your film about and are like, oh,
Speaker 2: I had that exact same experience, and that makes me
Speaker 2: identify more with this person, and it's actually become a
Speaker 2: strength for you.
Speaker 4: Does that make sense. Yeah, definitely, alright, cool, don't forget
Speaker 4: about that.
Speaker 2: I want to ever beautiful. Thank you for calling Asher,
Speaker 2: Good luck to you.
Speaker 1: Thank you, and you have a great night.
Speaker 2: Hello, Hello, how are you?
Speaker 15: I had I had a nightmare story. I wanted to
Speaker 15: tell you. I'm gonna lay in my bed and just
Speaker 15: close my eyes. It kind of follows along perfectly with
Speaker 15: that conversation you had with that guy about kids destroying things.
Speaker 2: Oh yes, yes, yes, hey, an important podcast. I have adolescence.
Speaker 4: In my opinion.
Speaker 15: Yeah, and definitely. I mean and I wasn't a very
Speaker 15: destructive kid, but late if I destroyed something, it was
Speaker 15: it was on a big, bigger scale, you know what
Speaker 15: I mean. So I guess we'll just start start from the.
Speaker 2: Beginning, right sure, sure, hit me all right.
Speaker 15: So go back like which, by the way, I'm like
Speaker 15: twenty three right now, So go back like twelve years ago.
Speaker 15: My school did is like camping trip sing and there
Speaker 15: was our school is pretty small, so like a single
Speaker 15: class was like you know, forty kids, twenty boys, twenty girls.
Speaker 15: There was two classes that went on this camping trip,
Speaker 15: and so all the boys from the two classes slept
Speaker 15: in like a military style cabin, you know, with like
Speaker 15: the bunk beds and stuff like that, and there was
Speaker 15: about forty of us, and I think it was like
Speaker 15: the last night, the last night we were there, I
Speaker 15: like I went to go use the bathroom, right, and
Speaker 15: I clogged the toilet and there was no like plunger
Speaker 15: in there. I couldn't fix it, so I just kind
Speaker 15: of walked out, and you know, there was like a
Speaker 15: line of kids waiting to get into the bathroom. So
Speaker 15: somebody was like, dude, you clog the toilet. I'm like, well,
Speaker 15: what do you want me to do about it? And
Speaker 15: then he was like, I don't know. And then I
Speaker 15: was like, wait, wouldn't it be fun if we all
Speaker 15: like pooped in the same toilet. So I ended up
Speaker 15: getting like easily like twenty eight to thirty kids to
Speaker 15: like all take thumps in this toilet, right, and you know,
Speaker 15: we ended up like filling it up, and you know,
Speaker 15: we all went to sleep, and then the counselors came
Speaker 15: in the morning and saw what had happened, and they
Speaker 15: got like really pissed about it because like it was
Speaker 15: it was just like super cloud like there was nothing
Speaker 15: anybody could do about that. Like they had to call
Speaker 15: in plumbers and stuff like that. I'm sure, and you know,
Speaker 15: so that kind of ended that experience and for like
Speaker 15: the longest time, you know, that was something that like
Speaker 15: me and my friends would laugh about that we did.
Speaker 15: Any any questions so far, how many.
Speaker 2: Kids did you say pooped in this toilet?
Speaker 15: I would say somewhere between twenty eight to thirty five.
Speaker 2: You don't have to say, you know, I have to say,
Speaker 2: I think that this shows a strong leadership initiative on
Speaker 2: your part because it takes a lot of effort to
Speaker 2: mobilize and coordinate thirty people to achieve one common goal.
Speaker 15: Yeah, I would really say that, like we really traded
Speaker 15: like abandoned brothers.
Speaker 4: Especially how old were you guys? Again?
Speaker 15: Approximately, I don't remember, but like a twelve thirteen easily.
Speaker 2: I mean, you know, it's hard to I mean especially
Speaker 2: you know, children have very you know, short attention spans,
Speaker 2: you know, and and they're very fickle.
Speaker 4: It's hard to like, you know, mobilize that many people.
Speaker 15: No, there was definitely like a singular purpose and you know,
Speaker 15: I feel like we achieved something, but like I did
Speaker 15: have like I was really paranoid like after it happened,
Speaker 15: because I thought I was gonna get in trouble, and honestly,
Speaker 15: I like I should have, you know, but like it's
Speaker 15: one of those things where everybody is responsible, so you
Speaker 15: know you can't do yeah, but they didn't know that,
Speaker 15: And what.
Speaker 2: Sort of rhetoric did you use to convince people towards
Speaker 2: your cause?
Speaker 15: It was just kind of like I wasn't like manipulating people.
Speaker 15: It was more just like, hey, just to go ahead
Speaker 15: and use like wouldn't be funny? It would be funny,
Speaker 15: you know. I was just like, wouldn't it be funny?
Speaker 15: And they all agreed, so just kind of happened, and
Speaker 15: then I didn't really I wasn't really directing people afterwards.
Speaker 15: I just kind of like went back to bed and
Speaker 15: then everybody was like all right, yeah, yeah, if you
Speaker 15: just have to use bath and just go ahead and
Speaker 15: do it, and that was it.
Speaker 3: Really.
Speaker 15: But like I I talked to a plumber friend, you know,
Speaker 15: when I got older, and told him about the story,
Speaker 15: and he was like basically said that like because of
Speaker 15: the location it was in that like it really it
Speaker 15: could have like stopped up all the pipes and it
Speaker 15: was easily like twelve to fifteen thousand dollars of damage,
Speaker 15: like labor to clean it up.
Speaker 2: Basically, that's very persuasive.
Speaker 15: But yeah, but you know that I held up my conscious.
Speaker 4: So you just told him that it would be funny.
Speaker 15: Yeah. Yeah, they thought it was funny too. I mean,
Speaker 15: I like, I've lost contact with a lot of those kids,
Speaker 15: but like the ones I'm still in contact with, like
Speaker 15: we still kind of bring it up and laugh about it.
Speaker 15: And funny enough, one of those kids, I went on
Speaker 15: a road trip with him. I'm from like how he
Speaker 15: I'm from Indiana. But we did a road trip out
Speaker 15: to San Diego and we met some people while we
Speaker 15: were down there, and we went to go play basketball.
Speaker 6: With them at night, and.
Speaker 15: I went to this public restroom and you know, I
Speaker 15: wasn't trying to, but I clogged the toilet toilet as well,
Speaker 15: and you know, really it was just because the toilet
Speaker 15: was really like really like a weak toilet.
Speaker 7: I guess.
Speaker 15: But my friend went in there after me. Yeah, my
Speaker 15: friend went to the bathroom after me, and he also
Speaker 15: took a dump on top of my tomb. And then
Speaker 15: you know, we were playing basketball and he's like, guys
Speaker 15: show up to play basketball. One of them was like, oh,
Speaker 15: I have to take a dump. And then me and
Speaker 15: my friend just kind of looked at each other like
Speaker 15: shook my head like, yeah, don't know, don't tell him.
Speaker 15: So he went in there took a dub, and so
Speaker 15: I kind of came up with the definition that a
Speaker 15: mass pooping is when more than two people take a
Speaker 15: stump in the same toilet.
Speaker 2: You are the father of the compound dump. Yeah, So
Speaker 2: do you feel like you took any leadership skills away
Speaker 2: from this?
Speaker 6: Do you feel like, hold on, I don't feel like
Speaker 6: I'm a leader.
Speaker 2: So do you feel like you any leadership skills from
Speaker 2: this experience?
Speaker 15: No?
Speaker 6: No, I don't. I disagree.
Speaker 2: I've been very persuasive people. It sounds like are compelled
Speaker 2: to follow.
Speaker 4: You, you know.
Speaker 2: I mean, you could do some good if you really
Speaker 2: wanted to.
Speaker 5: Mm hmm.
Speaker 15: I mean if I had asked you to take a
Speaker 15: dump on my dump, would you do it?
Speaker 4: I think I would thank you that you, you know,
Speaker 4: would want to do for good.
Speaker 2: For this with the skill.
Speaker 15: Yeah, but the story doesn't The story doesn't have a
Speaker 15: good end. It doesn't have a good end, like there's
Speaker 15: this there's just judgment and karma waiting for me at
Speaker 15: the end of the right.
Speaker 2: But no, but no, but no, but no, No, you're taling.
Speaker 2: You're looking at the story itself. I'm looking at the
Speaker 2: under what the story tells me about you and the
Speaker 2: people involved. You know, that's that's that's what's what's what's
Speaker 2: really important here. So yeah, I hope you do find
Speaker 2: a good use for these, for these leadership skills.
Speaker 15: I'll try to. I'll try to. You know, I'm in
Speaker 15: school be a male nurse, so you know, that's that's
Speaker 15: kind of a males in the nursing field tend to
Speaker 15: go into leadership roles, so you know, maybe I'll maybe
Speaker 15: I'll make up for my my past transgressions. But I mean,
Speaker 15: honestly activist or a politician, you know, I really feel
Speaker 15: like the issue is our toilets in society. I feel
Speaker 15: like the infrastructure for toilets really needs to be revamped. Well,
Speaker 15: I think I think we could easily take take some
Speaker 15: money from from our taxes to towards that, if that's
Speaker 15: not already a thing. But I would like to tell
Speaker 15: you the end of the story, if that's okay.
Speaker 2: I thought, which I thought, which story? Way? Which? Which story?
Speaker 2: I feel like you began telling to a different story.
Speaker 2: Which story are we hearing? The end of.
Speaker 15: Just the trilogy? Man, I told you about what happened
Speaker 15: when I was camping twelve years old, what happened not
Speaker 15: too long ago in San Diego, and then what happened
Speaker 15: last week is what I need to tell you about.
Speaker 4: Sure, let's let's let's hear it quick.
Speaker 2: Before everyone throws it up.
Speaker 5: All right, So.
Speaker 15: I host the Smash Brothers tournament in Indiana and it's
Speaker 15: at this pizza place and I didn't know this was
Speaker 15: going on, but the same thing happened to the one
Speaker 15: bathroom that this restaurant has of the people at my
Speaker 15: Smash tournament, and the owner made me clean it up,
Speaker 15: like fix it, And honestly, it really took a lot
Speaker 15: of weight off my shoulders after I did that, Like
Speaker 15: I felt like I had fixed my sins essentially.
Speaker 6: Mm hmm.
Speaker 4: All right, So the story did end good?
Speaker 15: Yeah, I mean, I'm not the same.
Speaker 4: What's your name.
Speaker 2: Steve, Steve Jim use your leadership skills for good. I
Speaker 2: believe in you. I believe in your future, and uh,
Speaker 2: I hope that you no longer serve evil, and I
Speaker 2: hope you have a good rest.
Speaker 4: Of the night.
Speaker 15: All from it's little Mike, little Mike.
Speaker 6: What's going on?
Speaker 2: Is there a big Mike, big Mike?
Speaker 13: I like to think there is, But I don't want
Speaker 13: to think that I'm the product of big Mike necessarily.
Speaker 4: What does that mean?
Speaker 13: I like to think that I'm my own individual as
Speaker 13: a little Mike, no product of another.
Speaker 2: You'd like to think that you are your own? Well, okay,
Speaker 2: you know, well when people are little, they're not necessarily
Speaker 2: little in relation to anything, like like Lowayne. Lowayne is
Speaker 2: not lou Wayne relative to a bigger Wayne, or even
Speaker 2: a medium or even a regular sized Wayne. He simply
Speaker 2: is in and of himself Lowayne. So I don't think
Speaker 2: that you being little Mike necessarily has to be your
Speaker 2: little mic relative to a medium's or big sized mic.
Speaker 4: Does that make sense?
Speaker 16: That does make sense?
Speaker 17: And I actually I appreciate that.
Speaker 4: Yeah, you know, how'd you get to bed to become
Speaker 4: little Mic?
Speaker 13: Uh, there's not too much of a story behind it.
Speaker 13: It just kind of came about through talking with friends.
Speaker 13: Definitely college days throwback. But uh, besides that, there's not
Speaker 13: too much meaning behind it. It was just kind of more
Speaker 13: or less. The fact that it was meaningless made it meaningful.
Speaker 13: I don't know how they explain it. Kind of it's
Speaker 13: hardly explain.
Speaker 2: What are you doing right now, little Mike? How did
Speaker 2: you find yourself to this humble, little Gecko stream.
Speaker 13: I've been seeing mad clips of you on YouTube and
Speaker 13: been sitting back and I was enjoying some beers and
Speaker 13: I really enjoy watching your stream, so I thought i'd
Speaker 13: call in. I did not think I would get in.
Speaker 13: So I'm kind of rattled right now, to be honestly honest,
Speaker 13: but uh, I love chopping.
Speaker 7: It up with you.
Speaker 2: I like chopping up with you. You said you're rattled
Speaker 2: right now. Describe this rattleness? What is it? What does it?
Speaker 2: What does it feel like to be rattled?
Speaker 13: Yeah, I'm bad ass, Like, this is what it feels
Speaker 13: like to be a living right now.
Speaker 17: I'm seriously, I'm like, my heart's beating right now. I'm
Speaker 17: a little shaky sitting here. I'm like, I'm humbled to
Speaker 17: be on the stream right now. I'm actually like, I'm
Speaker 17: glad I don't feel this feeling toot you know what
Speaker 17: I mean. It feels good to get excited, beautiful.
Speaker 2: I have so many things to say about what you
Speaker 2: just said. First of all, I'm I'm I'm humbled that
Speaker 2: you fucking watched this thing. Second of all, this is
Speaker 2: so such an interesting thing what you just said, because
Speaker 2: I try to think about this myself, and I've talked
Speaker 2: about this on stream before. Your body's experiencing some you know,
Speaker 2: like a visceral reaction, visceral reaction, visceral anxiety, your heart's beating,
Speaker 2: all that stuff, and and and you have such a
Speaker 2: great attitude toward it. Because when I get anxious for something,
Speaker 2: I always try to think, like, oh, I'm I'm lucky, right,
Speaker 2: I'm I'm lucky to be nervous, because that's what that's
Speaker 2: how you know, you like you give a ship like
Speaker 2: something is going on, like you have like there's like
Speaker 2: you're a live Like if you're nervous, you're alive.
Speaker 4: You know what I mean, You're.
Speaker 2: Like doing that.
Speaker 13: That's how I was literally just thinking this because at first,
Speaker 13: like I was like, like I was saying quote unquote rattled,
Speaker 13: and I didn't really know what to say. But I
Speaker 13: was just like I got to work through this and
Speaker 13: keep chopping it up and kind of just live in
Speaker 13: the moment right now. And that's definitely that feeling that
Speaker 13: feeling special, and I think I think you catch on.
Speaker 16: I feel like you're feeling it.
Speaker 2: Yeah, man, I sometimes when I get anxious for things,
Speaker 2: I'm well, there's ANXI. Whether there's like a general anxiety,
Speaker 2: which sucks because that's the one where you're like, well,
Speaker 2: you can't pin it to anything that's not fun, that's
Speaker 2: more in your head stuff. But this, but the nervousness,
Speaker 2: were like you can pin it to something it's very
Speaker 2: bodily or and all that shit. It's like, oh, it's
Speaker 2: it's cool because like something's going on. Your body is reacting.
Speaker 2: Your body is reacting to you the fucking dewey something
Speaker 2: you know, to the way you know to live, to
Speaker 2: be nervous.
Speaker 13: It is, And little shit like this makes it worth
Speaker 13: It makes it worth while.
Speaker 4: M lot, Mike, Mike oh Man, little Mike man Is.
Speaker 6: Mike.
Speaker 2: Is there anything like in.
Speaker 4: Particular that you wanted to talk about this evening?
Speaker 13: Not in particular, I think I think more in life
Speaker 13: in general. I love when you kind of just talk
Speaker 13: about life and the abs and flows of life, and
Speaker 13: I kind of almost think we just already achieved that.
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, yeah, that's an interesting thing. It's funny you
Speaker 2: say that you you like when I talk about life
Speaker 2: and the ebbs and flows of life, because I, you know,
Speaker 2: I feel like a fraud sometimes I feel like I'm
Speaker 2: I don't even know what the fuck I'm talking.
Speaker 4: About, but I you know, it makes me happy.
Speaker 2: It makes me genuinely happy that uh, whatever I fucking ramble, Uh,
Speaker 2: I hope his his fucking resonated in some.
Speaker 4: Way shape.
Speaker 7: No, totally, it totally does.
Speaker 13: No, I'd usually appreciate you, and I listen to you
Speaker 13: a lot of times going out of work, and I
Speaker 13: I work with uh, work with kids, do a little
Speaker 13: work in schools and stuff. So it's always like it's
Speaker 13: it's good to hear other people's perspectives, even it doesn't
Speaker 13: matter like how you think that person sounds. It's always
Speaker 13: someone else's perspective and you've got to take that into consideration.
Speaker 13: That's how someone feels, So that's it's legit. And I
Speaker 13: like to like kind of just like hear everyone's perspective
Speaker 13: and like kind of what people's worries are and what
Speaker 13: takes they have in life and how they enjoy different
Speaker 13: aspects of life or don't.
Speaker 2: I don't know.
Speaker 13: The show's the show's honestly, it's cool. Shit, I appreciate.
Speaker 2: You, beautiful, thank you man.
Speaker 4: It's you work with kids.
Speaker 2: Yeah, before we go, little Mike, before we go, what
Speaker 2: do the kids need to know? If there's one thing
Speaker 2: that the kids? How old? How old?
Speaker 4: Kids?
Speaker 3: How old?
Speaker 13: I work primarilyly with like ninth graders or eighth graders.
Speaker 2: Okay, it's an interesting age. What so like thirteen fourteen?
Speaker 2: Mm hm, what do you what for for your fourteen
Speaker 2: year old kid? What do you what do you need
Speaker 2: to know?
Speaker 4: Low Mike?
Speaker 13: You know right now? I think the message is specific
Speaker 13: to the times, and I think it's a message of
Speaker 13: you know, being that hard ass when you go in
Speaker 13: every day, or trying to act cool or putting in
Speaker 13: that shell or acting jaded like that's cool up to
Speaker 13: an extent, but in the long run, it's not going
Speaker 13: to pay out. And in the long run, if you
Speaker 13: treat someone else, you choose to treat someone out to
Speaker 13: a kindness and you treat it to hear someone or like,
Speaker 13: choose to hear someone out, like you're listening to me
Speaker 13: right now and being a good listener, it can make
Speaker 13: that difference in someone else's life. And right now, I
Speaker 13: think that's mad important during this time, during this pandemic
Speaker 13: where people feel separated from others and isolated. If you
Speaker 13: just can truly listen to someone and show someone some kindness,
Speaker 13: it's you're gonna be a hell of let happy with
Speaker 13: yourself at the end of the day than you are
Speaker 13: if you're can act jade it or route towards someone
Speaker 13: or put someone down.
Speaker 4: And year olds definitely.
Speaker 2: Need to hear that because they are extremely mean mm hmm.
Speaker 13: And sometimes, you know, you can see the hurt going
Speaker 13: like from classmate to classmates sometimes and that just tears
Speaker 13: me up inside because try to build that community of
Speaker 13: connect but if you got that one little negative wore
Speaker 13: attacks it's hard to overcome, but not impossible, but just
Speaker 13: it makes it a little more difficult, you.
Speaker 2: Know, Mike, keep spreading the good message. I feel like
Speaker 2: kids need to know this. I you know, I could
Speaker 2: go I could fucking rant about this for hours, but like,
Speaker 2: I don't know. Sometimes I go on TikTok and I
Speaker 2: look at comments sections. I know I'm on the comment
Speaker 2: sections of TikTok is like fucking thirteen years old, and
Speaker 2: just the way that like, I don't know, there's the
Speaker 2: way that like the default of culture is like everyone
Speaker 2: to just be fucking like yelling at each other and
Speaker 2: pissed off all the time and like mean and shit.
Speaker 2: It's like, ah, fuck, you know hopefully you know the kids,
Speaker 2: So I need to hear what you're talking about.
Speaker 4: So I'm glad that someone someone's saying it.
Speaker 13: So I'm saying it's it's a cheap it's a cheap
Speaker 13: way to get some laughs. And the short you might
Speaker 13: feel good about yourself, but I mean, it really won't
Speaker 13: and it's not gonna pay off in the long run,
Speaker 13: does no one good? Yeah, pick pick your other friend up.
Speaker 13: So yeah, I'll leave it at that. You too, You too?
Speaker 4: God, bless guy, ghak, bless you a thousand years, little Mike.
Speaker 11: Thank you.
Speaker 1: Paul from Kay.
Speaker 9: May, Oh, Hey, what's what pleasant surprise?
Speaker 2: What are you? What are you doing with your life?
Speaker 2: Kat May? I said, what are you doing with your life?
Speaker 4: May?
Speaker 18: What am I doing with my life?
Speaker 13: I don't know.
Speaker 18: I'm just why it happened.
Speaker 3: I'm to flow. I'm in nursing school right now. I
Speaker 3: started when the pandemic happened. So it's been like an
Speaker 3: interesting journey thus far.
Speaker 2: I got a little bit of white claw on my
Speaker 2: laptop track pad. Oh so I'm wiping it off.
Speaker 5: Thanks?
Speaker 2: What did you say?
Speaker 4: Just now again?
Speaker 3: No, I I'm a nursing student, but I'm just going
Speaker 3: with the flu.
Speaker 5: Dude.
Speaker 3: It's been like a long journey.
Speaker 11: Like I actually, I don't know.
Speaker 18: I don't want to know.
Speaker 3: I don't have any expectations right now. I'm just when
Speaker 3: it happen as it comes far kind of do.
Speaker 2: What happened?
Speaker 4: What happened to you today?
Speaker 3: May I've been listening to your podcast like all night,
Speaker 3: and I I like this. I'm I like that, you
Speaker 3: you know, get online talk to people, listening to their stories.
Speaker 3: I kind of like doing that too. The problem is,
Speaker 3: like I'm not that person in real life. I tend
Speaker 3: to do that online. So recently I've been going on
Speaker 3: Tinder and just talking to people.
Speaker 4: You've been going on Tinder and talking.
Speaker 5: To Yeah, it's.
Speaker 3: It just fulfils my need to interact with people. That's it.
Speaker 2: What is?
Speaker 4: What does your husband think about that?
Speaker 3: When I told him about it, he had like this
Speaker 3: knee jerk reaction and it was kind of angersh But
Speaker 3: I understand because like, okay, well, people go on tender
Speaker 3: for hookups and whatnot kind of deal. But whenever that
Speaker 3: situation comes up, I just tend to ignore it or
Speaker 3: just deflect him, or I just give them my intentions.
Speaker 3: I tell them like, hey, I don't only hear for
Speaker 3: a conversation. If you have any sexual needs that you
Speaker 3: need to be met, I'm not the person to do that.
Speaker 2: Interesting, Well, so do I mean, do they like these
Speaker 2: these people that you're talking to? And do you? And
Speaker 2: I'm curious, do you said it to speak with with
Speaker 2: only men, or with men and or with people across
Speaker 2: the gender spectrum just guys? And do do How how
Speaker 2: do they typically respond when you tell them that you're married?
Speaker 6: Oh, well, it goes to waves.
Speaker 11: You know, they'll they'll understand what you call it.
Speaker 3: They're fine with what I'm seeking out. For those who
Speaker 3: potentially look up for a hookup or a relationship, they
Speaker 3: stop talking to me and like they unmatched me, which
Speaker 3: I'm perfectly fine with because it's like, well, you know,
Speaker 3: you can find someone else. You know. I'm not bothered
Speaker 3: by it.
Speaker 4: Mmm.
Speaker 2: And so your husband, you know, he he he ultimately
Speaker 2: is is okay with this. He doesn't see it as
Speaker 2: like well, because I assume, look, even if you're having
Speaker 2: conversations I assume like if the guy you're talking to
Speaker 2: doesn't know he I feel like like on Tinder, like
Speaker 2: it's the context is like would it be like a
Speaker 2: flirty conversation or what I mean, what are you even
Speaker 2: talking to these guys about?
Speaker 3: Like what do we talk about?
Speaker 2: Yeah? Tell me tell me the best who is? What's
Speaker 2: the best conversation you had on Tinder?
Speaker 1: Was it?
Speaker 3: I asked him, dude, how many like first grea years
Speaker 3: could he take on?
Speaker 11: Like how many.
Speaker 18: Are I've asked.
Speaker 3: I've asked guys like you know, uh, how often they
Speaker 3: yet asked their height is? Or I even asked them like, hey,
Speaker 3: what's your experiences like on tender kind of deal. I
Speaker 3: kind of set up my bio to have like different
Speaker 3: questions or like different thoughts I've had, and I've had
Speaker 3: people match with me and be like yeah, I agree
Speaker 3: with that and we talk about it for a little.
Speaker 2: Bit and yeah, interesting people in the chatter are suggesting
Speaker 2: you try bumble bff you think that.
Speaker 11: I tried that.
Speaker 18: I've I know the concept is that the women goes
Speaker 18: up to the guys and like they talk kind of
Speaker 18: deal a little, but I don't know what the experience
Speaker 18: is like.
Speaker 2: Well they have like a friend feature, a parent you
Speaker 2: can like just mat like you're just meeting friends.
Speaker 11: Oh so let me ask you.
Speaker 2: So Okay, so these conversations you're just having all those
Speaker 2: people on the internet, are you, like, are you feeling lonely?
Speaker 4: Like do you want to have more like friends?
Speaker 2: Like, like, would it be a wonderful thing for you
Speaker 2: if you like start, you know, had more like in
Speaker 2: person interaction with like friends or is this just like
Speaker 2: something you're doing just to like fuck around and pass time.
Speaker 3: I'm not necessarily looking for friends in general, Like I've
Speaker 3: come to realize that, you know, I'm not good at
Speaker 3: keeping up relationships, like even talking to people. Is it
Speaker 3: enough to like my or to deplete my energy?
Speaker 2: I just.
Speaker 3: I don't know. I'm not looking for anything deep, It's yeah,
Speaker 3: it's just a past time basically.
Speaker 2: Well, look, if you want to, you know, do you
Speaker 2: steal my idea for a stream? Which is it my
Speaker 2: idea at all? I'm just talking to people on the
Speaker 2: phone and they've been doing that for ten years?
Speaker 13: Do that you know?
Speaker 2: Ten years?
Speaker 4: I know I said ten years.
Speaker 11: I feel like you've done this like.
Speaker 3: Back, like I've kind of looked at your stuff on YouTube,
Speaker 3: and I've seen like your little clips about like pass
Speaker 3: branklet blah blah blah.
Speaker 2: I don't know, Oh you went on a deep dive.
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, I do that all the time.
Speaker 18: Like, yeah, it's weird.
Speaker 3: Like anyone that I have an interest in, like I
Speaker 3: see their work, I try to like go back and
Speaker 3: see what I can find on the internet to kind
Speaker 3: of just track, you know, what inspired them or whatnot's
Speaker 3: trying to do.
Speaker 2: So yeah, well, I feel like we have a wonderful
Speaker 2: parasocial relationship going. Yeah, and you know, I'm I'm excited
Speaker 2: for for the future.
Speaker 3: I am too. I don't know what's out there, but
Speaker 3: I'm excited.
Speaker 4: Beautiful. Good luck to you, may thank you for.
Speaker 3: Calling in, Thank you for your time. Call from Miko.
Speaker 4: Miko, Hi, how are you doing?
Speaker 2: Miko?
Speaker 8: Wait?
Speaker 5: I got on?
Speaker 2: Yeah? What did you tell me about hold on real
Speaker 2: quick before don't let it pass? What was your brain
Speaker 2: space just now when you said hi, Oh.
Speaker 19: My gosh, wait, I didn't know there is a delay
Speaker 19: on your twitch stream. I was watching, I was listening,
Speaker 19: and then when I usually like, I didn't even know
Speaker 19: i'd get this far. I was just so used to
Speaker 19: saying like hearing the like the what is it? Oh,
Speaker 19: like you've reached the therey Gecko blah blah blahi.
Speaker 4: How are you, Miko?
Speaker 3: I'm good? How are you?
Speaker 4: I I'm good as well. Have you ever heard a code? Miko?
Speaker 2: What is that? It's like she's a twitch streamer of person.
Speaker 2: She has the same name as you. Its where I
Speaker 2: heard Miko before.
Speaker 20: Oh, Miko isn't my full name, it's my nickname.
Speaker 14: I wanted to do.
Speaker 4: What does Miko mean? Does Miko?
Speaker 2: Is that like a?
Speaker 4: Is there a? Is there a word for that? Or
Speaker 4: what does it mean something?
Speaker 20: I don't think so.
Speaker 4: Well anyway, Miko, Miko.
Speaker 2: It sounds like you've tried to call a lot, and
Speaker 2: I'm curious if there's anything in particular that you wanted
Speaker 2: to talk about.
Speaker 20: No, I just wanted to try calling you because I've
Speaker 20: been listening to you for like, I think a few
Speaker 20: weeks now. I found you on Spotify and I was like,
Speaker 20: this is such a cool concept, and so this is
Speaker 20: the first time for like first what would you call
Speaker 20: this like stream? I mean, I've been watching you before,
Speaker 20: but this is the first time I've been trying to
Speaker 20: call and in a weird way. This is kind of
Speaker 20: like gambling.
Speaker 17: I remind.
Speaker 20: Well, okay, well I've never actually been gambling. I just
Speaker 20: turned twenty one, so I haven't been able to try
Speaker 20: a spot machine yet. But I was like calling and
Speaker 20: like I'd pressed the call button and then it would
Speaker 20: hang up immediately, and that's like the most common, like
Speaker 20: the most common result. And then there's also a part
Speaker 20: where if you call, then it'll get to kind of
Speaker 20: like oh, then it gets to your voicemail, which is
Speaker 20: little less common, but it's definitely among the more common.
Speaker 20: And then there's a Google voice which gets me super excited.
Speaker 20: So then I'm like, oh, yeah, my name is Miko,
Speaker 20: and then I hear the thing ring and then sorry,
Speaker 20: I'm like super like anxious and like super excited, and
Speaker 20: I think, like the adrenaline is I.
Speaker 2: Hear my conversation. You know, it's a weird. It's like
Speaker 2: a weird uh position for me to be in because uh,
Speaker 2: I actually feel like when I'm doing when I'm just
Speaker 2: like do it like day to days, you know, doing
Speaker 2: a stream whatever, I feel really calm, like I'm feeling like.
Speaker 4: I don't know, I feel like at ease.
Speaker 2: So I don't so I guess, like maybe there's some
Speaker 2: sort of psychological mirroring effect or whatever the fun going on,
Speaker 2: Like I assume that whoever I'm talking to on the
Speaker 2: phone feels chill.
Speaker 4: As well, but then they you know.
Speaker 2: But then, but it's funny you say that because I've
Speaker 2: called in to other people's streams and like, and not
Speaker 2: even without even a lot of people watching or anything,
Speaker 2: I've called that. I and then on my heart starts
Speaker 2: to race, which is weird because I'm like, it's the mind.
Speaker 4: The logic of the mind is not ever computed.
Speaker 2: Why the central nervous system of the body. So good
Speaker 2: luck trying to you know, think yourself down from anything.
Speaker 5: But anyway, Oh, I was going to get to that.
Speaker 20: It's like in this whole gambling analogy, like getting to you,
Speaker 20: like getting to talk to you is like I don't
Speaker 20: know how slot machines, like is it when you get
Speaker 20: three in a row.
Speaker 19: Or something like that, and like you win.
Speaker 20: The jackpot and you get super excited, Like that's what
Speaker 20: it feels like.
Speaker 5: So I feel like, you know.
Speaker 20: Having all this I guess not anxiety, but like expectation,
Speaker 20: like you put in so much effort and naturally I
Speaker 20: feel like you would get you would expect to get
Speaker 20: a result out of it, but then because the chances
Speaker 20: are so low, you feel like it's not gonna happen.
Speaker 20: But then when it does happen, you get super excited
Speaker 20: and your heart starts racing, and like your breath starts
Speaker 20: or like my breath is starting to get shaky, and
Speaker 20: I think that's from your sympathetic nervous system. I don't know,
Speaker 20: I don't remember you.
Speaker 2: You know, all science and anatomy and health and that's
Speaker 2: all made up by humans.
Speaker 4: So you know, God just calls it stuff.
Speaker 3: What would you call it?
Speaker 4: I would call it poopy peepee uh vain stuff.
Speaker 2: Have you ever gambled before? Have you gambled in a
Speaker 2: real You say you just turned twenty one? You so
Speaker 2: you just turned twenty one? Was it your birthday like
Speaker 2: a week ago or something or right?
Speaker 20: I guess my birthday was back in August, but I
Speaker 20: was in school. I was in summer school, and then
Speaker 20: there is this whole like COVID thing, so I couldn't
Speaker 20: really go out and travel. But I'm planning hopefully, if
Speaker 20: things start to get a little better, I'll take a
Speaker 20: trip to Vegas and I'll try the penny plot receives.
Speaker 20: That's what I'm most excited for.
Speaker 2: Real quick. I gotta give a quick shout. We got
Speaker 2: a raid from I like to shout out the raids Prolatopia. Yes,
Speaker 2: thank you for the raid. Check out Prolatopia. I don't
Speaker 2: know what they do, but they got a cool name, Prolatopia.
Speaker 2: It's fun to say Prolatopia. What's the most money that
Speaker 2: you would theoretically throw down on a game of cards?
Speaker 11: Oh boy.
Speaker 20: I like to think I'm pretty conservative with how I
Speaker 20: spend my money. I try not to buy a bunch
Speaker 20: of really ridiculous things, but I think I do it anyways.
Speaker 20: So I feel like I would plan to put aside
Speaker 20: like maybe one hundred dollars. I don't know I have.
Speaker 20: I'm pretty young, so I don't have a big concept
Speaker 20: of money just yet. So to me, like twenty dollars
Speaker 20: is still a lot. But I feel like to go gambling,
Speaker 20: Like I think i'd put down one hundred dollars and
Speaker 20: then later in the night, I'm sure I convinced myself
Speaker 20: to put down like another two hundred, So I'm gonna
Speaker 20: say about three hundred.
Speaker 4: Well, let's see, I mean, you could win big with
Speaker 4: three hundred dollars. I don't know.
Speaker 2: I don't know. I've never been gambling. I'm not a
Speaker 2: gambling guy. I don't even like investing, like stocks and stuff.
Speaker 2: I'm like, I'm like, I don't want to. I don't
Speaker 2: want to lose my money. I like money. I want
Speaker 2: to keep it. I don't want to lose it. It's bad.
Speaker 20: I feel like the stock market is also pretty like illogical,
Speaker 20: Like there's no like, there's no logic, and there's no
Speaker 20: way of predicting how that this block market.
Speaker 2: Would do well. You know what I always say is
Speaker 2: that if you're dumb and don't understand anything, like me,
Speaker 2: everything is illogical. And when everything's logical, you just start
Speaker 2: up your hands and you go, all right, I'll just die.
Speaker 6: You know.
Speaker 20: Do you think it's nice to live life that way?
Speaker 2: Yeah? I think it's nice to live life that way.
Speaker 20: But I think that reminds me of some episode. I
Speaker 20: don't know what TV show it was from, but it
Speaker 20: was like this one couple was going to like a
Speaker 20: buffet and they got really irritated with the new like
Speaker 20: smart soda dispensers. But then this other couple came in
Speaker 20: and they like they forgot how to use it, so
Speaker 20: every time they went and they were always so fascinated
Speaker 20: by the smart soda dispenser, And then like, I guess
Speaker 20: they're supposed to be a dumb couple, so every time
Speaker 20: they went outside, they're like, oh, my gosh, a butterfly. Like,
Speaker 20: do you think it's better to live life where you.
Speaker 2: Don't know where you understand things, or where you don't
Speaker 2: understand things and so everything amazes you.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I think it's better to be amazed than to
Speaker 4: be numb to the wonders of life.
Speaker 20: But do you think there's a medium where you can
Speaker 20: understand everything and appreciate everything?
Speaker 3: Oh?
Speaker 2: Yeah, I think so too. I think you can understand
Speaker 2: things and still appreciate them for sure. For sure, understanding
Speaker 2: is a lot harder you could appre That's the problem
Speaker 2: is that understanding is.
Speaker 4: Way harder than appreciating.
Speaker 2: You can appreciate, and it's super easy to appreciate stuff.
Speaker 2: You can appreciate anything with really little efforts, but understanding
Speaker 2: stuff a lot harder.
Speaker 20: Do you think you need to learn to appreciate No.
Speaker 2: For example, I appreciate that the technology exists for me
Speaker 2: to live stream myself to the world and talk to
Speaker 2: you on the phone, and I would probably uh my
Speaker 2: brain would explode if I even tried to begin to
Speaker 2: understand how it all works.
Speaker 20: That is an interesting way to think about it, Miko.
Speaker 2: I I want to I want to take one more
Speaker 2: call before we do this whole.
Speaker 4: Whole thing.
Speaker 2: But uh, before we go, though, before we go, is
Speaker 2: there anything else that you wanted to talk about?
Speaker 5: Wait?
Speaker 20: Can I tell you a joke?
Speaker 2: Yes? Please?
Speaker 4: I forgot that we were doing that. Thanks for reminding me.
Speaker 20: Ok, I'm setting anatomy right now. And this joke is
Speaker 20: something that my professor told us. Why didn't the skeleton
Speaker 20: want to go skydiving? Why because he didn't have the guts?
Speaker 5: Huh.
Speaker 4: I don't want to go skydiving ever.
Speaker 2: I feel I have no search for for for ari,
Speaker 2: for thrills, via peril, you.
Speaker 4: Know what I mean?
Speaker 2: Mm hmmm, I have no I I I do not
Speaker 2: seek peril in my life. But but congratulations that skeleton
Speaker 2: for figuring out what works for him. Well, Mikah, I
Speaker 2: am a gecko and you are a person, and uh,
Speaker 2: this is a pleasure talking to you. Thank you very
Speaker 2: much for calling a super nice.
Speaker 19: Geg I'm so excited I got on.
Speaker 20: I love your stream, I love everything that you do,
Speaker 20: and I'm gonna buy one of your shirts for my
Speaker 20: Christmas presents.
Speaker 2: Www dot therapy Gecko dot com. Everybody, We're coming out
Speaker 2: with a new one, a pocket tea. I don't know
Speaker 2: feel like pocket teas.
Speaker 5: But oh I do.
Speaker 20: Is it gonna be the one where if you like
Speaker 20: slightly open the pocket, there's gonna be an image?
Speaker 4: No, no, no, the image could be on the front
Speaker 4: of the pocket. I think, I don't know. I might,
Speaker 4: I might.
Speaker 2: I might look at them and be like, oh I
Speaker 2: can't afford pocket eas but who knows. Thank you, but
Speaker 2: I'll shut up my march. But thank you for calling Miko,
Speaker 2: and uh have a good rest of the night. Jack
Speaker 2: bless you for a thousand years.
Speaker 3: Paul from eve.
Speaker 6: Eva Yvette.
Speaker 2: Ivet.
Speaker 4: Yes, like why eve It starts with a hy right?
Speaker 10: Uh?
Speaker 2: Yes, that's cool. I know motherfucker's named Yvette and it's
Speaker 2: probably top ten hardest names to pronounce.
Speaker 11: Oh no, trust me as a as a teacher, I've
Speaker 11: seen just about any like in every variation of every
Speaker 11: single name possible.
Speaker 2: So you're teacher, Yeah, what is your greatest lesson?
Speaker 11: My greatest lesson that was on the curriculum or off
Speaker 11: the curriculum.
Speaker 4: Your greatest lesson event, I.
Speaker 11: Guess it was teaching seventh graders about the two thousand
Speaker 11: and eight housing crisis.
Speaker 4: The two thousand and eight housing crisis.
Speaker 11: Yeah, so you know, the whole economy going downhill and
Speaker 11: all that stuff, just as they were learning about simple interests.
Speaker 2: What do you teach math? You teach math?
Speaker 11: Mm hmm.
Speaker 4: We have two teachers and we have your We had
Speaker 4: a math teacher on and we had an art teacher on.
Speaker 11: Oh I know, I love art teachers. They're so cool.
Speaker 2: Did you hear? Do you were?
Speaker 11: You?
Speaker 4: Were you here for the call with the art teacher
Speaker 4: part of it?
Speaker 11: I got like the second half of it.
Speaker 2: What do you think do you think schools should have
Speaker 2: more money or do you spend more money on helicopters?
Speaker 11: You know what if we can have the helicopters at school,
Speaker 11: that solve both of them at the same time.
Speaker 4: Damn you want a math helicopter.
Speaker 11: I mean I don't need a math helicopter, but I
Speaker 11: can definitely teach about the math stuff with the helicopter.
Speaker 2: How give me a detailed explanation of how you would
Speaker 2: teach math using a helicopter.
Speaker 11: Well, it depends what great am I teaching?
Speaker 2: Okay, do you teach?
Speaker 11: I'm in middle school.
Speaker 4: You're in middle school.
Speaker 2: Everyone's working with the kids on this on the stream tonight.
Speaker 2: Did you hear the guy who was giving out the
Speaker 2: words of wisdom to the to the middle schoolers? What
Speaker 2: did you think of that?
Speaker 11: I don't that was that The one who was was
Speaker 11: that Mike, right, guess little Mike? Yeah, yeah, no, he
Speaker 11: was spot on it. He was spot on it.
Speaker 2: All right.
Speaker 4: So you hang out with thirteen year olds all day.
Speaker 11: More like eleven and twelve year.
Speaker 2: Olds, and tell me about the tell me about the
Speaker 2: youth of twenty twenty one. Are we what direction do
Speaker 2: you feel like we're heading in? How are the children
Speaker 2: different from when you were a kid.
Speaker 11: Oh my god, they're so quick witted like you, Like
Speaker 11: people who are teachers now have got like a whole
Speaker 11: different like skill set that they better catch on to
Speaker 11: or else. Like, these kids will just have no mercy
Speaker 11: on you, but in a great way.
Speaker 4: Interesting.
Speaker 2: Tell me about Give me an example of a interaction
Speaker 2: you had where a kid you know, surprised you with
Speaker 2: their wit.
Speaker 11: I mean, just just like Okay, So there was this
Speaker 11: one time where, like I think had I had to
Speaker 11: finish passing out papers and one kid, you know, just
Speaker 11: decides to start crumbling at it out of nowhere, and
Speaker 11: then like the little kid that was next to him
Speaker 11: just turns around. It's like, yo, that like paper is
Speaker 11: now like way more wrinkled than your grandma. And like
Speaker 11: the kids just looks so hard. And as a teacher,
Speaker 11: I have, you know, not nice, but thanks to the
Speaker 11: face mask, I was, I was, like, you know, able
Speaker 11: to hide the fact that I have no poker face.
Speaker 11: The poker phrase is definitely a skill of you better
Speaker 11: have if you're going to go into teaching.
Speaker 2: Yeah, you're right, because you know, nothing feels worse than
Speaker 2: when like a kid is bullying you and then the
Speaker 2: teacher and you see the teacher and the teacher's kind
Speaker 2: of also laughing.
Speaker 4: At you as well.
Speaker 5: Yeah.
Speaker 11: Not that I love my kids, they're great, but I
Speaker 11: mean I think it'd be great to also be able
Speaker 11: to give them a holicopter.
Speaker 2: Do I feel like they would use the helicopter to
Speaker 2: bullieve each other more?
Speaker 11: I think they, I mean, knowing mine, I think they
Speaker 11: would first a be like what did you do? To
Speaker 11: get a helicopter and then be like, somehow managed to
Speaker 11: break it.
Speaker 4: What did you say your name was?
Speaker 2: Again, you'vet youvet before we go, before we continue, before
Speaker 2: we move on. You're the last caller of the evening.
Speaker 2: Oh god, we have a tiny bit of time. If
Speaker 2: is there anything in particular you wanted to talk about,
Speaker 2: or anything that you wanted to leave us with, anything
Speaker 2: at all floating around and that big massy brain of yours, you.
Speaker 11: Know what, Yes, sure, please, I do not need like therapy,
Speaker 11: Get go, I need besty, get go right now, because
Speaker 11: I can't tell right now if I am crushing on
Speaker 11: this person or I'm just really fixated on the fact
Speaker 11: that someone's giving me attention.
Speaker 2: Interesting, who are they?
Speaker 11: They're essentially friend of a friend that lives like several
Speaker 11: states away.
Speaker 2: Well you know, look you're hanging well they live they
Speaker 2: live several states away.
Speaker 5: Mm hmm.
Speaker 11: But it's been most like yeah, yeah, exactly, And and
Speaker 11: I know those don't intend to pan out well and
Speaker 11: logical brain knows that. But at the same time, you know,
Speaker 11: attention is nice. And so now I'm like, wait, is
Speaker 11: it just because of the attention or is there something
Speaker 11: actually there? But yeah, the brain chemicals are not work,
Speaker 11: are not cooperating on how we need figure this out,
Speaker 11: and there's no math equation to solve this.
Speaker 2: Okay, I wish I had more time, we shul had
Speaker 2: more time to go in depth with you about this.
Speaker 4: But I do feel like, and again this is just U.
Speaker 2: I could be completely wrong, but I do kind of
Speaker 2: feel like if the notion is even occurring to you
Speaker 2: that you only like this person because they're giving you attention.
Speaker 2: You know, look, you Vet, you seem like you seem
Speaker 2: like a great gal, you seem like you got your
Speaker 2: life together. I'm sure you'll find plenty of other sources
Speaker 2: of attention in your possibly in your in a more
Speaker 2: immediate vicinity, if that is what you are looking for,
Speaker 2: if that is what you desire.
Speaker 11: I agree, I agree, I think you're right.
Speaker 2: So don't look at this with a with a scar
Speaker 2: The whole thing of of of oh, this guy's giving
Speaker 2: me attention, but you know, so I'm focused on him,
Speaker 2: but it's it's a scarce. The mindset. It comes from
Speaker 2: this idea of you know, oh, no one ever gives
Speaker 2: me attention, and then here we go, this is a
Speaker 2: guy who give me attention.
Speaker 4: Of a latch on that.
Speaker 2: That's a scarcity mindset. You'vett there's you gotta think, you
Speaker 2: gotta understand, there's there's there's lots of people out there
Speaker 2: who will give you attention. You know, you can't just
Speaker 2: fixate on the on the the the one just for all.
Speaker 2: I mean that. It would be another thing if you
Speaker 2: were telling me how much you were in love with
Speaker 2: him and you never met anyone like him before, all
Speaker 2: that stuff. But if the main thing is attention, it's like,
Speaker 2: you know, look, there's it's you gotta think abundantly.
Speaker 3: VET.
Speaker 11: Yes, you know what. You're right, You're right, gotck go.
Speaker 2: Beautiful, javette Thank you very much for steering the children
Speaker 2: of America in the correct direction. Again. I will tell
Speaker 2: you what I told the art teacher. If I could
Speaker 2: snap my fingers and you have a helicopter, I would
Speaker 2: do so. But I hope you the helicopter one day.
Speaker 2: And thank you very much for calling into my Gecko
Speaker 2: show and tell the children that I said to not vape.
Speaker 11: Well do well do beautiful?
Speaker 2: How can hello?
Speaker 3: Hello?
Speaker 4: Hi?
Speaker 2: Is this uh speed Jim Steve Jim?
Speaker 4: Yeah, it is Steve Jim.
Speaker 16: How are you Steve Jim, how's it going good? Just
Speaker 16: clipping my toenails right now?
Speaker 4: You said you're dipping your toenails?
Speaker 16: No clipping? Ah here, let me go outside and see that.
Speaker 16: You can hear me better?
Speaker 2: No, I can hear you said, you know what, there's
Speaker 2: too much focus on hearing and oh can you hear?
Speaker 3: Oh?
Speaker 4: Can you hear this?
Speaker 3: Oh?
Speaker 2: Can you hear me?
Speaker 5: Oh?
Speaker 4: What what was it?
Speaker 2: What did you say?
Speaker 4: Sorry?
Speaker 2: I can't hear you that, you know, Let's just focus
Speaker 2: on We don't have to hear each other.
Speaker 4: We just have to feel each other. Does that make sense?
Speaker 2: I feel that you are like to fa in my
Speaker 2: digital presence. That's all that matters to me.
Speaker 16: Yeah, that's real good. Yeah that sounds good.
Speaker 2: So what's going on with you Tonight's Speed Jim?
Speaker 16: Uh, not much, just getting ready to go to bed.
Speaker 16: I thought i'd try to call you. I've been trying
Speaker 16: to do.
Speaker 12: It for a couple of weeks.
Speaker 16: Actually got through.
Speaker 2: I've been trying to I've been trying to talk to
Speaker 2: you to speed Jim. Speed Jim, is there anything in
Speaker 2: particular that you wanted to talk about?
Speaker 3: What was that?
Speaker 4: Hello, Speed Jim?
Speaker 2: Is there anything in particular that you wanted to talk about.
Speaker 16: Oh yeah, I was gonna ask do you think it's
Speaker 16: normal to still sleep with your exes?
Speaker 4: Is this an interesting question? When you say normal? What
Speaker 4: do you mean by that?
Speaker 2: Uh?
Speaker 16: Like, is that something like a lot of people do?
Speaker 16: Or is it's just kind of like weird to do?
Speaker 4: Does it matter to you if it's something that a
Speaker 4: lot of people do.
Speaker 16: I guess not.
Speaker 2: No, Okay, clearly something about it is causing some sort
Speaker 2: of mental conflict for you.
Speaker 16: Yeah, like uh, kind of like worrying if they'd get
Speaker 16: feelings back for you and you end up like hurting
Speaker 16: them or something like that.
Speaker 4: M well, what are you are you sleeping with on
Speaker 4: your exes?
Speaker 19: Uh?
Speaker 2: Yeah, and you are primarily concerned that they will garner
Speaker 2: feels for you again and that you might end up
Speaker 2: hurting their feelings.
Speaker 12: Yeah.
Speaker 2: Interesting.
Speaker 4: Have you talked to them about this?
Speaker 16: Have I talked about this?
Speaker 4: Yeah?
Speaker 16: No, I haven't.
Speaker 2: Is have you not talked about this because you're avoiding
Speaker 2: or because you didn't think to talk to them about this?
Speaker 16: I guess I haven't really thought about it that much
Speaker 16: until basically, I guess tonight when they're asking, like, what
Speaker 16: kind of question I wanted to ask well.
Speaker 4: I feel like.
Speaker 2: And you know, I'm trying to do this too in
Speaker 2: my own relationships, be they any any any sort of
Speaker 2: relationship doesn't necessarily have to be romantic, but you know,
Speaker 2: transparency is it's always key. So you know, I feel like,
Speaker 2: if you're sleeping with a parson and yet you're you,
Speaker 2: you want them to.
Speaker 4: Have an accurate idea of how you feel about the situation.
Speaker 2: So that they have all the information that they need
Speaker 2: to inform their own decisions as well.
Speaker 4: Does that make sense right?
Speaker 2: If you tell this girl you're like, hey, listen, you know,
Speaker 2: I'm having a good time with you, you know, like
Speaker 2: like I like you.
Speaker 4: You know, you can say that.
Speaker 2: Just but you know, look, I'm not for whatever reason
Speaker 2: like you know, but I'm not trying to get back
Speaker 2: into a real thing, you know, I just want to
Speaker 2: I just want to let you know that so that
Speaker 2: you know, there's no hard, hard feelings. You know, just
Speaker 2: just wanted to let you know that, you know, and
Speaker 2: then that and then from there, you know, except to
Speaker 2: her whether or not she wants to, you know, keep
Speaker 2: seeing you. But at least now it's it's it's been discussed,
Speaker 2: it's out on the open you know, and then I'm like,
Speaker 2: you feel better that I'll make her feel better. But
Speaker 2: whether or not it's normal or wrong, it's not really,
Speaker 2: you know, for anyone to decide except you, guys. But
Speaker 2: it's easier for her to make the decision and for
Speaker 2: you to make decision if you're both aware of the
Speaker 2: sort of context behind it. Is there something you would
Speaker 2: have an issue you would take issue with? Is telling her,
Speaker 2: you know, bring bringing this up, talking through this with her.
Speaker 16: No, I'd be able to ask for I could probably
Speaker 16: ask for right now.
Speaker 4: Hell yeah, is she with you?
Speaker 11: No?
Speaker 16: So we talk like on Facebook and stuff.
Speaker 2: So that sounds nice. Well, good luck to you, speedy, Jim.
Speaker 2: Is there anything else you want to talk about before
Speaker 2: we go?
Speaker 16: Yeah, so the other week you're talking about a simulation,
Speaker 16: and I wanted to know if you think there's another
Speaker 16: simulation out there where humans was talking to Geckos.
Speaker 2: I think I've I've made a decision not to care
Speaker 2: about simulations anymore, or whether or not life is a
Speaker 2: simulation or if life is real or anything, because it's
Speaker 2: just it's not gonna help me to think about, you know,
Speaker 2: I can't possibly take in the information of all the
Speaker 2: possible universes that could theoretically exist. So I've made the
Speaker 2: intentional decision to just focus on this universe.
Speaker 4: That I'm living in right now, and.
Speaker 2: With a greater aspiration to live in this moment that
Speaker 2: I'm living in right now, and you know, I hope
Speaker 2: we'll get there one day.
Speaker 16: Okay, that's good.
Speaker 4: Well, thank you for calling Speedy Jim. I wish you
Speaker 4: the best of luck.
Speaker 16: Yeah, thank you.
Speaker 2: But hello, Hi? Who is this?
Speaker 17: Thank God?
Speaker 2: Lyle? Hi, who is this?
Speaker 4: Tell me everything?
Speaker 12: This is Carl. How are you doing today?
Speaker 5: Uh?
Speaker 2: I'm doing Oh, I'm doing alright. I am uh feeling
Speaker 2: pretty pretty good. How are you, Carl?
Speaker 12: I'm not gonna lie. I'm low key like shaking, mister gek.
Speaker 4: Mmm, why are you shaking? Carl?
Speaker 12: I have called you like eight hundred times.
Speaker 4: M hm m hm, And this is the this is
Speaker 4: the eight hundredth.
Speaker 12: Time, probably somewhere around there. I lost track last stream
Speaker 12: it was four hundred and sixty seven.
Speaker 9: Wow.
Speaker 4: Wow, Carl. It sounds like you have something that you
Speaker 4: that you desperately need to tell me.
Speaker 12: Yes, Lyle, please, okay, please, So you changed my life?
Speaker 4: Tell me, may.
Speaker 3: So.
Speaker 12: About a year ago, I took about four and a
Speaker 12: half grams of mushrooms. Okay, sure, And I'm surfing through
Speaker 12: the interwebs twitch and I come across this green gecko
Speaker 12: staring at me. Crazy ass background going on, so I
Speaker 12: decided to click on you. You were talking about riding
Speaker 12: trains with no destination and everyone takes life too seriously. Lyle,
Speaker 12: my shit like reversed my brain right then and there.
Speaker 2: So you heard me talking about how everyone is riding
Speaker 2: trains and taking life too seriously, and you said it
Speaker 2: changed your life. And so am I to believe that
Speaker 2: you are calling me from a train right now?
Speaker 12: Life is a trade.
Speaker 2: Sure, we're all on a train. Sure, Carl, I have
Speaker 2: a question for you. Yes, are you high on mushrooms
Speaker 2: right now?
Speaker 6: Well?
Speaker 18: You know what?
Speaker 1: Yes?
Speaker 2: Okay, And so the mushroom trip. I've never personally done psychedelics,
Speaker 2: but I do know that a lot of people when
Speaker 2: they do do psychedelics, they go into it with a
Speaker 2: objective of some kind.
Speaker 4: Is that correct?
Speaker 12: Yeah?
Speaker 2: Okay, what is.
Speaker 4: The objective that you are going into this trip with?
Speaker 12: That's deep, mister gik Oh God, Well, I don't know
Speaker 12: you need you you're here. I didn't even think i'd
Speaker 12: get this far.
Speaker 2: Well, forget about me. I feel like this trip has
Speaker 2: something to do with me, unless if you know it,
Speaker 2: unless if it did, unless if you your dream for
Speaker 2: your mushroom trip was to.
Speaker 17: Be think about it.
Speaker 12: The first time, I was like I saw you, I
Speaker 12: was on mushrooms, and now I'm talking to you and
Speaker 12: I'm still on them.
Speaker 2: Sure, sure, hopefully there was time in between then that
Speaker 2: you were not on mushrooms. A couple of days, a
Speaker 2: single day, A couple of days, you said, are you
Speaker 2: saying are you joking?
Speaker 4: Or do you do mushrooms every day?
Speaker 3: Well?
Speaker 12: You micro dose them, tiny tiny mount Okay, and it
Speaker 12: just it. You know, you don't go on a full
Speaker 12: balls to the wall trip, but it just makes your
Speaker 12: mood a little bit more happier for the day.
Speaker 4: Okay.
Speaker 2: And are you micro doosed on shrooms right now? Or
Speaker 2: are you on a full dose?
Speaker 12: Oh no, we're We're on like three point five.
Speaker 2: Okay, so that's a full I don't know, I've never
Speaker 2: done mushrooms. Oh yeah, okay, so you're on a full dose.
Speaker 2: I mean, look, let me ask what, Carl, what do
Speaker 2: you How old are you?
Speaker 12: I'm eighteen?
Speaker 2: You're right?
Speaker 5: Gee?
Speaker 2: You're extremely young. So you I mean when you said
Speaker 2: a year ago so you were on mushrooms, you were
Speaker 2: seventeen years old. You heard me say something about being
Speaker 2: on a train and now, yeah, what are you looking for?
Speaker 4: Carl?
Speaker 2: I feel like you're doing all these drugs and whatnot,
Speaker 2: and like, is there a goal in mind? Or you
Speaker 2: seeking a truth of some kind? What's you're You're a
Speaker 2: young guy. What's going on with you?
Speaker 12: And the age has nothing to do with psychedelics. It's
Speaker 12: about maturity if you're open to it.
Speaker 2: Sure, sure, But I'm forgett about the psychedelics here. I'm
Speaker 2: asking you as just a regular laired boy.
Speaker 12: Oh well, that's the deep question, mister Gek. I don't
Speaker 12: even know how to answer that.
Speaker 2: Mm hmmm. Well what do you do? Are you in school?
Speaker 2: Do you are you in college? What's your what's your thing? No?
Speaker 12: I work on cars. I do body work for cars.
Speaker 4: Okay, cool? Cool?
Speaker 5: Mmm?
Speaker 4: You don't do you don't do?
Speaker 2: You don't like?
Speaker 3: No?
Speaker 4: Tell me sure please?
Speaker 12: So you probably wouldn't never guessed this. But I'm Mormon, right,
Speaker 12: LD is born and raised. Maybe that's why I do
Speaker 12: so many psychedelics.
Speaker 4: Mm hmm.
Speaker 2: You think you think you think your psychedelic use is
Speaker 2: because of your your Mormonism.
Speaker 12: Yeah, I want to what's up there?
Speaker 2: Man?
Speaker 4: Don't you up there? When you say up there? What
Speaker 4: do you were you referring to? When you say there?
Speaker 12: It's probably not up there, just in the realm of
Speaker 12: all the souls and spirits combined in the wont.
Speaker 4: Ah man.
Speaker 2: You know, I am Oh, I'm so tempted to give
Speaker 2: you advice, but I you know, I like giving you know,
Speaker 2: letting everyone.
Speaker 4: Do their own things.
Speaker 12: I am fully open to game.
Speaker 2: Okay, you're fully if you're fully only if you're fully
Speaker 2: open to it, because I don't like giving people.
Speaker 4: If you're open to it, I have a thought for you.
Speaker 2: I don't know if it'll work for you.
Speaker 4: And I'm not an authority on anything, but.
Speaker 2: Carl, look, you're eighteen years old. You're very young, and
Speaker 2: I understand that you have this desire to seek these
Speaker 2: whatever spiritual truths and and whatnot, and and I I
Speaker 2: believe that you know you should if that's what you
Speaker 2: want to do. But if you're telling me that every
Speaker 2: single day of the past year you've been microdosing on shrooms,
Speaker 2: I feel like you got to give yourself the opportunity
Speaker 2: to spend some significant time grounded in reality. You know,
Speaker 2: it's good to be spacy. A lot of people have
Speaker 2: the opposite problem, where they're too grounded in their own reality,
Speaker 2: and maybe they do need to like, you know, it
Speaker 2: doesn't have to necessarily be a substance thing. You can
Speaker 2: do this completely sober, but take some time to think
Speaker 2: about things in a grander sense. But you sound like
Speaker 2: you have the opposite problem, where you're too busy thinking
Speaker 2: about things in some grander spiritual, religious, whatever sense. And
Speaker 2: you got to spend some time standing in line at
Speaker 2: the grocery store and being impatient. You know, you got
Speaker 2: to live in reality for a second. You got to
Speaker 2: spend some time texting your friend and going, hey, what's up,
Speaker 2: and they go not much?
Speaker 4: How about you? And you go not much? And then.
Speaker 2: You know, I live a boring life in boring, shitty
Speaker 2: reality for a little bit of time. And then take,
Speaker 2: you know, take the information that you've gained there, and
Speaker 2: then take that back to your special place on the
Speaker 2: step ladder where you observe and think. But if you're
Speaker 2: always observing and thinking, you're not actually living and experiencing
Speaker 2: in this shit that you're always observing and thinking about.
Speaker 2: So I would suggest to you, Carl, if you can,
Speaker 2: especially since you're so goddamn young, take a little bit
Speaker 2: of time away from the shrooms, live in the real world,
Speaker 2: and then come back when you're ready. What is that?
Speaker 4: How do you feel about what I just said to you?
Speaker 12: I am flatter gasted. I don't even know what to say,
Speaker 12: mister gig.
Speaker 4: Take some time think about it.
Speaker 12: But I'm scared of that reality, mister.
Speaker 2: That's why you gotta live in there. That's the thing
Speaker 2: is if it's especially if you're scared. Why are you
Speaker 2: scared of that reality?
Speaker 4: Carl?
Speaker 12: I don't know. I just life is mean?
Speaker 4: Life is mean? Why is Why does life mean?
Speaker 2: Carl?
Speaker 12: I don't know. I just feel like, you know, sometimes
Speaker 12: life throws you that curveball every once in a while
Speaker 12: that just smacks you in the nuts.
Speaker 2: Hmmm, Carl, let me ask your question. Do you have
Speaker 2: a real therapist?
Speaker 12: I had one?
Speaker 15: Okay?
Speaker 2: Why'd you get rid of them?
Speaker 12: They just kept trying to prescribe me medicine and stuff.
Speaker 12: But it wasn't like it was like stimulants and stuff.
Speaker 12: I don't think, you know, I don't want to take myths.
Speaker 2: Okay, well you're taking Well, here's the thing, is your doctor, Okay,
Speaker 2: let me let me ask you something, let me let
Speaker 2: me let me tell you so. And by the way,
Speaker 2: I get it, because you know, everyone has their own
Speaker 2: ideas on you know, whatever they wanted to take and
Speaker 2: put into their body. But whatever, you sound like you're
Speaker 2: self medicating with mushrooms, right. But then this medical professional
Speaker 2: that you're seeing is like, Okay, I went to school
Speaker 2: and got my stupid license that you need to do
Speaker 2: this shit. And here's what I think, in my professional opinion,
Speaker 2: you should take try their idea first, because they probably
Speaker 2: know more than you about what you should put in
Speaker 2: your body. At least try it. It might not work
Speaker 2: for you, but you should at least try it. You know,
Speaker 2: I'll be I've gotten I've talked to people about this
Speaker 2: kind of shit before, and I get it's a complicated issue,
Speaker 2: but I always defer to trusting whatever your doctor tells
Speaker 2: you to do.
Speaker 12: Yeah, I saw that, but like it was also a
Speaker 12: Mormon therapist, so like you'd like throw a book of
Speaker 12: Mormon at me, you know what I mean? Sure, sure, sure,
Speaker 12: m I mean there's multiple layers to this.
Speaker 2: I'm sure there are. I'm sure there That's why I
Speaker 2: don't pretend to know anything, but.
Speaker 12: You know, you know everything.
Speaker 4: That's I don't know if.
Speaker 2: That's true, but Carl, I would just tell you, man,
Speaker 2: like take take take some time to live in in reality.
Speaker 2: I know that it it sucks and you're escaping from it,
Speaker 2: but that's kind of why you should learn to live
Speaker 2: in it for a little bit. That's your that's your
Speaker 2: little thing to conquer here, you know, try to live
Speaker 2: in reality for a little bit. Give it a week.
Speaker 2: Say I'm gonna live in the in the boring, shitty
Speaker 2: world for a week. Actually take back what I just said.
Speaker 2: I don't think of it as boring and shitty. Just
Speaker 2: be like, I'm gonna live soberly for a week. I
Speaker 2: don't know if you're physically addicted. I don't really know
Speaker 2: how mushrooms work. I don't know if you are addicted.
Speaker 2: If you are, talk to someone about that, but you know,
Speaker 2: try to live in reality a little bit. Carl. Thank you,
Speaker 2: of course, of course.
Speaker 4: I assuel you beautiful Carl Man.
Speaker 2: Thank you for thank you for calling, and uh feel
Speaker 2: free to call back in and let us know how
Speaker 2: this went.
Speaker 4: If you try it, which I hope you do.
Speaker 12: Oh, I would love to. This is not the last
Speaker 12: time you've heard of Carl.
Speaker 2: Good. Good, Thank you for calling Carl. You have a
Speaker 2: good rest of the night, Carl, Carl, Carl. I hope
Speaker 2: he's okay.
Speaker 4: This is Mariah can fine? Yes, now I can hear you. Fine.
Speaker 4: How are you doing, Mariah?
Speaker 5: Okay?
Speaker 2: So you know I'm doing pretty good. I'm yeah, I'm
Speaker 2: enjoying being a gecko. It's another day in the life.
Speaker 2: It's nice, you know, it's always nice. I've learned to
Speaker 2: have something to do. That's what I'm I'm happy that
Speaker 2: I'm doing this right now because it's just you ever
Speaker 2: not have anything to do, you'll just go insane.
Speaker 4: Yeah, it's good to have something to do.
Speaker 5: It's it's it can't be put into words, but it
Speaker 5: makes you feel really isolated if you don't put yourself
Speaker 5: into some kind of good habit.
Speaker 2: Mm hmm.
Speaker 4: Do you do you have any good habits that you've
Speaker 4: been habiting lately?
Speaker 5: Absolutely not?
Speaker 2: Mm hmm.
Speaker 4: Well, how do you feel in this moment?
Speaker 11: Uh?
Speaker 5: In this moment? H Yeah, it's been a very long month, well,
Speaker 5: a couple of months. A lot has happened in so
Speaker 5: little time, so I'm kind of all bundled up into
Speaker 5: the ball of everything. Yes, that makes sense.
Speaker 2: Mm hmm.
Speaker 4: What what has happened in this month?
Speaker 5: Mm hmm. I got damned by my brother and his girlfriend.
Speaker 2: I you said, you.
Speaker 4: Said you got you said you got scammed.
Speaker 5: Yeah, he sold me a car that he knew wasn't
Speaker 5: paid off and I came back to North Carolina and
Speaker 5: the car got repoked just for me to be told
Speaker 5: that it wasn't paid off.
Speaker 1: Mm hmm.
Speaker 4: Yeah, how did you react? Did you confront your brother
Speaker 4: about this?
Speaker 2: I'm saying, how did you react? Did you did you
Speaker 2: confront your brother about this?
Speaker 5: Oh? I was pissed. I was very upset. But you know.
Speaker 4: What is what is your relationship like with your brother?
Speaker 5: Awful? I well was my immediate family as far as
Speaker 5: my mom's side, I have like a brother, two brothers,
Speaker 5: and sister and those were the only ones that actually
Speaker 5: had a relationship. But even then it wasn't the best.
Speaker 5: Like me, we talked, we laughed, but we never really
Speaker 5: shared anything with each other. Mine our own business, be
Speaker 5: our own people.
Speaker 4: Mm hmm. And what about.
Speaker 2: The other side of the family, said, your your it
Speaker 2: sounds like, are your parents uh split up?
Speaker 5: Yeah, my dad was kind of a thought and he had, like.
Speaker 6: I thought.
Speaker 4: Thoughts. What does thought mean? By the way, thoughts?
Speaker 2: Okay, my understanding of a thought is that it's uh,
Speaker 2: it stands for that hoe over there?
Speaker 6: Right there?
Speaker 11: You go?
Speaker 5: You got it right?
Speaker 2: That's such a I don't know that's a corner? How
Speaker 2: does that even catch on? Like, I mean, I'm getting
Speaker 2: on a tangent here, but.
Speaker 5: You're good, I and understand it at first. Either it's
Speaker 5: I guess it's a generational slang thing like they come
Speaker 5: up with so much new ship that it doesn't even
Speaker 5: make sense now, Like you know they call hot dogs glizzies.
Speaker 2: I have seen that. What is that even?
Speaker 4: How did that even come about?
Speaker 11: Exactly?
Speaker 5: Doesn't it sound homophobic to people who are homophobic?
Speaker 2: Is is glzzy a homophobic word?
Speaker 5: Yeah?
Speaker 2: Is it? I've never heard of that. I don't know.
Speaker 5: This sounds like it's like, I mean, a weird person
Speaker 5: would say it, But it sounds like somebody would just
Speaker 5: be like, hey, we're getting a glizzy up backpack in
Speaker 5: the closet. Let's do it tonight.
Speaker 2: You know what it's it's it's these trends. They're compelled
Speaker 2: by just people with absolute confidence, right, because you need
Speaker 2: a lot of confidence to get something trending. Because here's how.
Speaker 2: Here's the very first conversation that you have when you
Speaker 2: try to get something going. You say to someone, what
Speaker 2: do you just say? You said, get the glizzy out
Speaker 2: of my backpack? So let's say I said to my friend,
Speaker 2: you know, hey, you want to go get a glizzy
Speaker 2: after school? And they said, what's a glizzy? And I said, oh,
Speaker 2: it's a new word I'm using for hot dog. And
Speaker 2: then and then they say, that's fucking stupid. You you
Speaker 2: then you go to that's what always. That's the first
Speaker 2: draft is you say it to someone you they say
Speaker 2: what is that? They go, that's fucking stupid. And then
Speaker 2: from there you're at a crossroad. You can do one
Speaker 2: of two things. You can either go, you know what,
Speaker 2: You're right, it is stupid and you can abandon it,
Speaker 2: or if you have supreme confidence, you can go, no,
Speaker 2: what do you mean?
Speaker 4: That's that makes sense? What I just said?
Speaker 11: Right?
Speaker 2: Like nothing, although nothing actually makes sense. Anything that does
Speaker 2: make sense is just one person or one group of
Speaker 2: people really confidently convincing you that it does.
Speaker 5: Like, Hey, what are you talking about? I know what
Speaker 5: I'm saying, but whatever you're talking about is just you know,
Speaker 5: you don't even sound right, dude, I know that.
Speaker 2: Well, sorry for going on a tangent. Okay, so you're
Speaker 2: yes bad as a thought?
Speaker 5: Yeah. He The reason why him and my mom split
Speaker 5: up is because my little brother, it's only a couple
Speaker 5: months younger than me, he decided to go and have
Speaker 5: six with somebody else while my mom was at least
Speaker 5: seven months prement with me, I think. And they're awful people,
Speaker 5: I mean, on everyone of their own person. People did
Speaker 5: that ship sometime, but they just don't see the wrong
Speaker 5: in it. They say everything is supposed to be handed
Speaker 5: to them as adults, as adults.
Speaker 2: I just turned up your I realized your audio was
Speaker 2: down for but we're better, okay. M hmmm, so mm
Speaker 2: hmm Mariah, yeah, Riah, all right, So your brother scammed
Speaker 2: you unto this car deal. That's now I'm kind of curious.
Speaker 2: I'm kind of curious with the brother. You say you
Speaker 2: had a horrible relationship with him. Did you always have
Speaker 2: a horrible relationship with him or was that or is
Speaker 2: this car scamming thing part of that? Because I would
Speaker 2: think if you would have, if you've always had a
Speaker 2: horrible relationship with him, then I would ask what what
Speaker 2: made you trust him in this situation?
Speaker 5: Yeah, you could see that I clearly had a whole
Speaker 5: lot of trust in him to buy a car from him.
Speaker 5: And mind you, I bought this car without having the
Speaker 5: title in my hands. So that's a big fucking leap,
Speaker 5: a really big leaps. Heus my language on me because
Speaker 5: so much. But yeah, he explained to me, like, okay,
Speaker 5: little the car's paid off. She says she's gonna go
Speaker 5: get the title from North Carolina for you.
Speaker 6: Ball Okay.
Speaker 5: Months past, like two months, and this girl is still
Speaker 5: in my face looking at me not traveling to North
Speaker 5: Carolina to get down title.
Speaker 11: And it got so.
Speaker 5: Bad down there that we had to leave. I was
Speaker 5: pregnant for the whole trip, pretty much. We was up
Speaker 5: there for my whole pregnancy. And I gave them the
Speaker 5: benefit of the doubt to try to help change some
Speaker 5: things around the house because oh my god, don't get
Speaker 5: me started. The house was just in horrible condition.
Speaker 4: And well, hold on, so, how how how long ago
Speaker 4: was was all this?
Speaker 5: All of this conspired? Like we we came down here
Speaker 5: in August. Yeah, about two months ago.
Speaker 4: Oh are you still pregnant or did you have the child?
Speaker 1: Oh?
Speaker 5: Yeah, I had the baby. That's why we moved.
Speaker 3: Kid.
Speaker 5: No, this is this would be my second and I
Speaker 5: had him early because of stress that was related to
Speaker 5: my brothers.
Speaker 2: How are things going with the second child?
Speaker 5: Great? Great? I was. I felt so fucking relieve when
Speaker 5: I found out that his jaundice was gone. He was
Speaker 5: born premature, like a couple, you know, he was born
Speaker 5: a month early, and he was so tiny. He was
Speaker 5: like shit. Help They said he was only like four pounds.
Speaker 5: And we were in the hospital for four days. And
Speaker 5: right after we got out, we started packing our things
Speaker 5: and I left like two days after I got out
Speaker 5: of the hospital.
Speaker 2: Mhm.
Speaker 5: Its been a wild and I just got into a
Speaker 5: fight with my mom's boyfriend, so we had to tase
Speaker 5: I sound was a little bit faster, but we finally
Speaker 5: got a home. I guess all that nonsense kind of
Speaker 5: plaid off, and it's only but it also to our part,
Speaker 5: my relationship.
Speaker 6: It's no wild ride.
Speaker 4: Well what did you say?
Speaker 10: Aname?
Speaker 4: Was Mariah?
Speaker 5: O my time?
Speaker 2: Mariah Maria, is there anything else that you want to
Speaker 2: talk about?
Speaker 4: Before before we had out.
Speaker 5: Of here, M I actually did have a question for you.
Speaker 4: Hit me.
Speaker 1: Do you.
Speaker 5: Do you enjoy being a ghetto or your own person?
Speaker 4: Do I enjoy being a gecko or a person?
Speaker 5: Who would you prefer to be?
Speaker 4: You mean in in in what particular context.
Speaker 5: To go about your daily test, eating, sleeping, making good pop?
Speaker 2: Oh?
Speaker 4: Absolutely, I prefer to Yeah. I think it's nice to.
Speaker 2: You know, I think that wearing a giant green gacko costume,
Speaker 2: you know, it has its place.
Speaker 1: Uh.
Speaker 2: You know, wearing a giant green gecko costume has had
Speaker 2: its benefits for me in my life. There are certain
Speaker 2: places in which I think it's is better that I
Speaker 2: am I am wearing it, and then certain places in
Speaker 2: which I would probably be an impediment to my life
Speaker 2: to be wearing a giant green gecko costume, such as
Speaker 2: sleeping and eating and going to the grocery store, although
Speaker 2: I don't necessarily know because I really haven't tried going
Speaker 2: to the grocery store as a giant green gecko. Uh,
Speaker 2: and it possibly could be an interesting experience. Okay, I
Speaker 2: will try it. Then I will try that you like it.
Speaker 2: I will let you know how that goes.
Speaker 5: Thank you. I appreciate the conversation.
Speaker 4: Of course, of course, thank you for calling.
Speaker 3: Mara.
Speaker 2: Have a good rest of the night.
Speaker 5: You have a nice night.
Speaker 2: Someone said I look like a salamander. I don't even
Speaker 2: know where that is. I don't even know what a
Speaker 2: salamander is. People tell me I look like a salamander.
Speaker 2: You don't even know what a salamander is.
Speaker 9: Goes on the line, taking your phone calls every night.
Speaker 2: He was teaching